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No. 695462

your own personal cry circle

previous thread: >>>/ot/686925

No. 695475

Having a horrible day at work, everything that could go wrong went wrong, got chewed out by my superiors because of a massive mistake I made (100% my fault) and just generally feeling super shitty and unmotivated and wondering why the fuck wasn't I born cute and charismatic enough to make a living through youtube or at the very least an onlyfans lol fuck this shit, can't believe we have to spend most of our life doing something we don't like just so we don't die of hunger. I don't even earn enough to do the things I want.

That said, I'm really praying to whoever is listening for all of you guys who lost your jobs, it's not fair. I feel guilty because I'm complaining while you are struggling with bigger issues. I really hope everything gets better for everyone, please hang in there.

No. 695495

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I'm a crazy try-hard who can't stop fucking up even the most basic friendships. I dont have a solid friend group and probably never will, but I want friends so, so badly.
I feel empty sometimes. Or maybe its not emptiness, its just… nothingness. Maybe I am psychotic. But whats worse, is that maybe there's nothing wrong with me at all. Maybe I'm just a normie asshole with a god complex.

I genuinely regret not unaliving myself while I had the chance. Who's gonna take care of my stupid cats if I go? They can't go to a shelter, I won't allow it.

I hate myself, but im the most amazing thing to ever happen to the world, but im worthless trash.

I dont even know what im doing.

No. 695503

My scrote coworker was like “hey ur fav went to la” I was like who and he said “it’s sarcasm” k well idk who tf ur talking about. Then, I realized who he was referring to. How am I supposed to remember someone who I don’t even know their name?

No. 695541

I honestly don't know why the fuck my ex would have sex with me but have his phone up and look at nudes of me or videos of me instead of just looking at me while we have sex???

What the fuck is this even about

Or if we'd video call while he was still in bed and I'd flirt with him or jokingly flash him he'd just start jerking off viciously under the covers and I'd call him out and he'd say he wasn't.
Dude, I can clearly see you're busting it out just out of frame. Why even lie?

Men are trash.

No. 695549

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I wish I could at least be a horny sad when I'm upset. Instead of being a stupid self pitying bitch when I cry. The past ten years have not been my year.

No. 695553

Why have scrotes started approaching me in the street? Is it because I wear short skirts or because my hair is weird and ugly so they think I'm looking for attention or an easy target because nobody else wants me? I wish I could tell them I don't want to talk to strangers on the street no matter what nice things they say, no woman wants to talk to strangers on the street and we sure don't want to give our phone numbers to them so please just mind your business because you are not going to accomplish anything besides ruining my day. GGGGgghhhhhhhh I wish humans multiplied by parthenogenesis. Maybe I should start wearing corpse paint in the street

No. 695610

>>695553
>Maybe I should start wearing corpse paint in the street
You and I know that it will only attract other type of scrotes, anon.

No. 695611

>>695541
that is unbelievably weird, porn addiction for sure

No. 695612

i know the internet constantly lectures us on how not all bpdfags are evulll and mean!11!1!1 but honestly i've yet to meet a single bpdfag who isn't a carbon cutout of every single deranged, negative stereotype about them. they've all got the biggest dumpster fire of a life you can imagine. i can't feel an inch of pity for any of them, if i find out someone has bpd i'm running for the hills as fast as my legs can carry me, bc fool me once, shame on you, but fool me twice…

No. 695625

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>>695610
Yeah you're right… Maybe I should try clown makeup, adults always say that they are afraid of clowns so they'll stay away and children will love me kek

No. 695696

>>695625
I would love to read an account of someone that wore clown makeup to keep men away, please write us a report. I bet some still say weird shit like "I bet you're kinky" or yell dumb oneliners like "why so serious" though.

I'm sure there was an anon who once explained that she deliberately made herself as ugly as possible because she didn't like strangers talking to her, I would love to hear what new methods she has come up with.

No. 695697

>>695625
anon, there is a whole group of men on 4chan with a clown fetish

No. 695702

>>695697
That's okay. 4channers don't go outside anyway
>>695696
Ok now I really wanna do it because I want to know what would happen but I'm a coward so I won't. Maybe I can convince someone to do it as "performance art" or a "sociological experiment"

No. 695804

I keep reading the schizoid article on Wikipedia and trying to cope with the fact I'm not one because self diagnosis is retarded but it also describes me to a T. I went to a psychologist for a few months but I stopped going after she said I'm emotionally numb and never really felt love, either familial or romantic.

No. 695808

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got a call today in the middle of work from an aunt in a different state that i haven't talked to in a decade that my mom, who's in my state, has been in the hospital for days and keeping it a secret. she's been on a decline for a while and it's finally gotten too bad for her to turn paramedics away when her boyfriend calls them. i have a long shitty expensive process ahead of me to get her to a relative who's willing to care for her.

No. 695817

>>695804
This is happening to me too and NPD, I keep reading stuff online about it and some aspects do aline with me when it comes to a past relationship I had but actual therapists and tests say I don't have it

No. 695822

I hate sleeping so much purely because I consistently have dreams about high school, aka the lowest point in my life. Literally running around the school anxiously not knowing what class to go to, not having any of the books or stationary, no key to my locker, panicking over not handing something in for a final exam and shit of the same sort. The sheer relief I get from waking up and realising it’s been 5 years since I was in in high school and don’t have to go through that shit anymore is the only saving grace. I don’t know how to stop dreaming of it, it’s been going on for years now. Really puts me off sleeping, the place was borderline traumatising.

No. 695827

I don't deserve anything in life, holy fuck. I am so spoiled. Why am I inside my house when there's so much people living outside?
Just read an article about this man that is nearly 80 now, and has been homeless for 40. His eyes… 40 Christmas under a bridge. Shit I wish everything would just instantly disappear

No. 695834

>>695827
Everyone deserves to live inside anon, just because some people aren't doesn't mean you shouldn't. I agree though, there is just too much suffering in this world. I want it all gone.

No. 695839

>>695822
Holy crap I can relate except that I keep having these recurring annoying dreams of elementary school!I'm almost in my 20's yet I keep having these stupid meaningless dreams about it and about my 5th grade crush

No. 695853

>>695839
Didn’t stop until my late 20s, eventually and hopefully it’ll fade enough that you’ll be confused why you’re at school and tell everyone to get fucked and leave.

No. 695854

>>695822
I've heard that this is really common, especially for people who went to university. I also have similar nightmares about failing or forgetting about exams. I've also had nightmares about forgetting to return library books and somehow being forced to pay huge life-ruining fines for them.

No. 695862

>>695822
Same thing happens to me too anon. I was anxious throughout high school, often quarreled with bullies but I was rather meticulous about my assignments. Sometimes I switch between anxiety dreams about high school and college.
I get these damn dreams where I'll have for example three classes scheduled and routinely attend them for the first few weeks or so, but then as time presses on I get a funny feeling that I'm "forgetting" something. That's when I realize I've been accidentally not attending a class for a long time, as if I forgot it was in my schedule. Cue the fear that my grade has tanked and I've missed important tests. It always ends with me shyly reporting to the missed class and trying to go unnoticed by the teachers while frantically trying to blend in and catch up with the work. I usually wake up around the point before my absences are noticed thankfully.

No. 695871

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>tfw hadn't seen my young teenage cousins in a while
>Find out two of them have developed an interest in anime and Kpop
>One draws furries and edgelord anime stuff and the other is a huge BTS fan
>Get worried already since both these communities are notorious for being awful
>Recently fond out that both of them have chopped their hair really short
Now maybe I'm overthinking it but I really hope they don't end up going the fakeboi/troon route or some shit. I don't want either of them to get caught up in some stupid internet bullshit or get groomed.

No. 695875

>>695839
Holy shit I have dreams about my 6th-7th grade crush ALL THE TIME. Why does our brain do this? It's frustrating

No. 695885

>>695822
I had reoccuring dreams about talking to an old teacher I knew there, and going back to talk to them and walked around helped them. Too bad moving back home bc of the pandemic meant I started having them again bc I associate my childhoof room with that time of my life. The kind of closure I felt wasn't dramatic. It was just a building, a place kids go to and try to get out of as soon as possible and make some friends while growing up. It helped me see that the girl who went there, who was hurting, is still in me. And she needs time to heal and that's okay.

It's been 5 years so you shouldn't look too creepy, maybe just sitting outside could help. It might feel a bit lonely but I think life's like that. Maybe you could go with someone you trust.

No. 695933

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Avoidant personality disorder is ruining my life. During the course of the last few weeks I kept avoiding answering phonecalls and texts and continued to shelter myself from people which resulted in two of my only friends (who live near me) suddenly showing up on my doorstep all worried and anxious. It's weird because I felt simultaneously annoyed but moved. Like, I was frustrated because they broke my isolation but at the same time also grateful for it because this showed that they care about me. One of them suggested that I might have multiple personality disorder or something because this has been going on in cycles since forever now. I engage in human contact then break it off and isolate, then I start to worry that I'm going to be left alone so I engage again, rinse and repeat. I can't fucking go on like this

No. 695937

>>695804
I could have written this, the first time I read about SPD I cried for an hour because I fit every single criteria, it was as if puzzle pieces were finally falling into place, and the fact that there's no way to alleviate it like anxiety or ADHD really crushed me. I never got diagnosed (what would be the point anyway) so I don't go around calling myself schizoid ofc, but I would not be surprised if I got eventually diagnosed with it one day.

No. 695941

The manga ended earlier this year but I can’t wait for the damn volleyball anime to officially end. I’m so tired of the spergs that recently clung onto it.

No. 695945

>>695808
I'm really sorry for you anon

No. 695947

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>watching 16 year olds parrot retarded Twitter politics
Not once did I ever think these shitty tumblr takes would survive but they did. And they’ve mutated.

No. 695950

>>695937
>>695804
Anons, if you don't mind answering, what is living w/ SPD like? I only know from what I read in articles.

No. 695952

I'm trying my very best to not be jealous of the orbiters, but she is not helping with the way she acts around them

sigh…

No. 695953

>>695495
>I hate myself, but im the most amazing thing to ever happen to the world, but im worthless trash.

You sound like a narc to me

No. 695956

>>695611
I asked him how much porn he watches/how often he jerks off and he got super defensive about it and said it's like twice a month so I'm 100% that's a lie.
He also is super fucking violent with his dick when he does anything so all signs point to cumbrain.
Dodged a bullet there I guess.

No. 695958

I'm std free!!!! I just got a fucked up period

No. 695959

>>695933
i'm literally the same as you, but i don't think i have a diagnosis. i don't see anything wrong with the behavior even though it's objectively totally out of the normal asijoiashfaoisfh

No. 695966

https://boards.4chan.org/pol/thread/297137760
here's a nice little thread about how non-virgin women are worthless if you wanted to rile yourself up today
if i had to suffer through reading this retardation and mental gymnastics then you have to too

No. 695967

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>>695966
>goes to 4chan
>is shocked to see retardation

No. 695977

>>695966
is this your first day on that site? these are the people who try to justify rape and pedophilia

No. 695979

>>695966
they’re inherently retarded and you’re retarded for posting this here
semi-related vent but i fucking hate seeing wojaks and “doomer” shit outside of 4chan, it wasn’t even funny when it originated there.

No. 695981

>>695959
I'm op and I don't know how to feel about this anymore. I know I cause my friends pain. Hell, I cause MYSELF pain and guilt and shame. I don't even enjoy being alone, when I'm alone I fantasize about being with people and having fun. But I just don't know any other way to behave. It's a constant cycle that I feel like I cannot break

No. 695983

>>695981
i'm also the person you replied to; i think the best approach is to accept that this is how you are but also take active steps to not completely go from 0 to 100 and vise versa. personally i'm not just like that in my interpersonal relationships but also in my hobbies and things i do, and even work (it's hard for me to keep a job for a while). i know it doesn't completely sit right with my friends either but i think they've gotten used to it since it's been years. do you find yourself "burning out" of seeing people? perhaps lowering the frequency of how often you see your friends is a good first step and it seems to work for me. try to see them once every 2 weeks at first. one area of my life where i'm not like this is romantic relationships though. i'm a fucking hypocrite in that sense and can't stand not talking to an s/o for more than a day usually

No. 695989

>>695966
I'm good thanks kek. I'd encourage you not to go there at all bc even if you know the things you read there are retarded they still stay in your brain and after a while it starts influencing the way you see yourself, I know it happened to me when I used 4chan a lot

No. 695990

>>695966
anon you maka me read that you ruin my day by reminding me men exist.

No. 696004

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Condoms are expensive where I live and my boyfriend wants to go bareback mainly because of this (even my ex bf). While I understand where he's coming from, I can't enjoy sex during the act and afterwards while I'm being paranoid about getting pregnant, but at the same time I don't want to have to pitch in my own fucking money for HIS condoms. Just an overall shitty situation and it's making me want to go back to being lonely, even though I really like him

No. 696006

>>696004
> mainly because of this

Bullllllllllllllllllllllllshit

No. 696007

>>696004
> I don't want to have to pitch in my own fucking money for HIS condoms

HIS condoms hahaha you deserve your problem

No. 696008

>>696004
You know what’s even more expensive than condoms? Abortions. Babies.

If you’ve voiced your feelings and he still has this opinion, then he does not respect your body and does not care if you don’t enjoy sex. Someone like that doesn’t deserve you.

No. 696009

>>696004
how expensive? your safety and comfort isn't worth that price? this is why women shouldn't date poorfags

No. 696013

>>696004
I'm 100% sure that your bf spends more money on his hobbies than the condoms would cost. If you can't enjoy it, don't let him fuck you. It's that easy. If he breaks up with you over this he is trash.

No. 696015

>>696004
plastic sandwich bag?

No. 696019

>>696007
Do you want to elaborate on that? Men should be responsible for buying their condoms.

No. 696020

I just browsed /fa/ a little after the previos post about 4chan lmao men's fashion is so boring, but I really wish we could share our outfits amongst ourselves, that would be so fun, but I don't (and I'm sure nobody doesn't) want to post photos of myself on random online sites…

No. 696021

I realized that I'm an objectively shitty person because I only reach out to my friends when I need emotional support, but other than that I just want to be left alone

No. 696022

>>696019
>Men should be responsible for buying their condoms.

Casual sex isn't comparable to a relationship anon.

No. 696025

>>696022
I have literally never heard of a couple splitting the cost of condoms but alright I guess.

No. 696037

Anyone else has a problem with rocking back and forth unconsciously? I don't know if it's my autism or trauma, I do it when I'm alone or with someone I know very well, but in public places I have to be stiff and constantly thinking about it in order to control my body because I don't want to be seen as a freak

No. 696039

>>696025
I have literally never heard of a dude not wanting to use condoms "just because of cost" either

No. 696040

>>696004
Then I guess he's not getting laid. If he can't afford condoms, he can't afford a gf.

No. 696041

>>696025
Why is it so weird for a woman to buy condoms since they protect her from getting pregnant? I can't with some of you.

No. 696043

>>696041
Many farmers have lost sight of the real world, they are just a bundle of strict principles

No. 696044

>>696041
it's not really weird but i would put that burden on the dude, myself. i refuse to fuck up my body with birth control and if he doesn't want to give himself the much cheaper and safer methods of male birth control then he can finance his own condoms.

No. 696045

>>696041
If it's her boyfriend and they have regular sex just makes sense he should buy the fucking condoms since he has the dick. When I'm single I'll buy condoms to have because of random hook ups and can't rely on dudes to have condoms all the time, but in case of anon, her and her guy are obviously in a relationship and I doubt he buys his girlfriend her feminine products if he's complaining about how much a pack of rubbers cost.

No. 696051

>>696045
Look there are 3 things to do:
- Tell him to fuck off
- Pay a share of the condoms
- Let him rawdog it (this is what Op does)

1 and 2 are both fine, 3 is retarded

No. 696055

I hate how expensive it is to get anything shipped from Japan right now. I only bought one book earlier this year and it was $30 to ship it. I was fine with that because it was very hard to get but now I’m seeing how bad the pricing is for other stuff and there’s no way in hell I’m using sea mail.

No. 696056

>>696041
She's not the one with a dick. Men don't pay for BC pills, tampons, pads, etc. why should she pay for his shit?

No. 696062

>>696041
>since they protect her from getting pregnant?
Why is this solely about the woman's side of a pregnancy though? A man who doesn't want to be a father should be equally concerned and responsible for preventing to produce a child. The baby might grow in the woman's body but it's also his biological descendant.

Think about it, just because nature decided a body grows in the woman's body it's her sole responsibility to bear the cost of preventing a pregnancy? Even though it's both the woman and man's descendant? How does that sound right?

No. 696065

>>696041
with the risks and physical burden being much harder on her, it's the least he can do imo

No. 696068

>>696037
Does it happen regularly or only when you’re sitting in certain positions? I used to have something similar until I realized it was triggered by certain relaxed sitting positions (probably due to a pinched nerve). It was more of a subtle rocking/shaking, and I managed to lessen it by realigning my back and gaining more muscle in my core and hip area.

No. 696071


No. 696072

Google Authenticator just plain sucks. Out of all Google apps this one does not sync or store your saved codes for sites where you've set up two-factor authentication. So now that my phone died, I was unpleasantly surprised that you're fucked and no one can do anything about it. Luckily, I've only ever used it for sites that aren't work or finance related but it sucks regardless because I'll have to start all over and contact friends.

No. 696075

Lastnight I got sad and made a cuddle scarecrow out of a hoodie stuffed with blankets/towels and I slept better than I have in ages. Am I allowed to keep doing it? I feel so pathetic but like it fixed my neck pain and everything.

No. 696077

>>696075
Do what makes you happy and comfortable anon, fuck what other people think or say, it's your sleep after all.

No. 696078

my boyfriend can't stop telling google home to play mongolian throat singing and it's driving me fucking insane. i literally come home from work, get in the shower, and once i walk out i'll hear the humming in the beginning of a song

No. 696081

>>696071
2 is also retarded for the reasons stated.

No. 696083

>>696075
It’s basically a diy plushie anon

No. 696088

>>696078
tell him its a wiretap

No. 696090

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>>696078
I think it’s time for a change of moid, anon, yours seems defective.

No. 696127

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I feel like with the amount of romance fanfictions and cringey reader-inserts I've read I have completely ruined and destroyed my perception of genuine and real romance.

Nothing does it for me anymore and I've tried dating apps to see if it helps and it just doesn't. I had an ex but I just didn't feel any genuine affection for him when we were together. I feel like I'll grow old alone and never find true love if I continue the way that I am.

No. 696133

>>696127

i feel exactly the same as you but i actually don’t mind it. i feel like real life relationships are just disappointing and stressful but i’m also an autist who prefers to be alone

i would start by thinking about what aspects of an irl relationships you’d idealise based on the content you’ve consumed and if it’s a “healthy” idealisation or an unrealistic one. i don’t think it’s wrong to have exceptionally high standards personally because it means you won’t settle for dumb shit, but i also think you should remember that real life people are mostly annoying, mentally ill and not able to manage in long term relationships lmao. i wish you luck though anon!

No. 696134

I've been physically sick on and off since the end of October and on top of that I feel like everyone hates me. I hate seasonal depression so much

No. 696175

Starting to feel shitty and I don’t know if it’s burnout from working over 40 hours this week or if I’m getting sick. My mom got a covid test the other day and I think I’m going to get one tomorrow. I hate to say it but I would be thrilled to be positive if it means I’d get two weeks off from work to do absolutely nothing

No. 696187

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I hate my boss and i hate starbucks. I got pulled aside to get a 'stern talking' when i told a customer several times to pull up his mask. He was spitting all over the place, cursing me out. so what? you expect me to accept that shit when the covid cases are exploding in america? i fucking hate starbucks and their bullshit. they literally dont care about us baristas. So many cafes closed down due to covid and exposure, but they are still not taking this seriously. The tomfoolery.

No. 696190

>>696187
Why are you working as a barista and not something else more rewarding?

No. 696199

Pretty sure I’m pregnant. I’m a few months from going to law school and just interviewed for an external job that I’m likely going to land. I’ve married and we live comfortably, but this could not come at a worse time. Seriously considering fetus deletus.

No. 696200

The anons in the Venus thread are absolutely unhinged. I wish that stupid thread was on auto sage so I wouldn’t have to see their stupidity.

No. 696201

>>696190
>more rewarding
Because i need a job and it's hard to get anything out here without a car. I was on my way to get my license, but covid happened and there's no way to get a real appointment with dmv for that now. I dont feel inferrior or anything working as a barista, but thank you for your comment. It's bad all around, so i'm trying my best to save my money. Not to mention i do have health insurance benefits with starbucks and it's the first time i've had health insurance in years.

No. 696202

>>696199
If you get an abortion, be safe anon. I wouldnt want to have any unplanned baby during this pandemic.

No. 696207

>>696199
Be safe anon, you're smart, you'll figure it out.

No. 696212

>>696199
Hey anon, I hope you're in a situation where you can have an abortion safely and without any silly restrictions. Even if you're married, it sounds like this is going to disrupt your life to a huge degree if you decide to stay pregnant. Go to school first, you can still have babies at a later time.

No. 696213

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>>695953
I asked my therapist once, sincerely, if I have NPD. He said no, but I haven't told him some of the shit that I've done.
Anyway, I spent most of my work day doing bullshit online quizzes about personality disorders.

This… isn't normal, is it?

No. 696214

I hate that I can smell that I'm on my period with this stupid pad like 5 hours after putting it on.

No. 696226

>>696212
no offense but you don't know enough about her life or situation to know if it'll disrupt anything to a HUGE DEGREE so don't push people into decisions

No. 696238

I thought I was doing really well wrt mental health this year. In a weird way the pandemic kinda helped, like finally my anxiety had a purpose so I began to feel better about other stuff.

Tonight I feel hungry so I’m wandering around the kitchen. There’s a decent stock of food but I keep making excuses like that’s too messy, I don’t want to cook that, that’s cold and I want something warm… for fucking everything, there’s a reason not to eat it. This is something I do all the time. Thinking about it, I don’t eat much at all, except for the occasional binge.

Thing is I genuinely just don’t want to eat. My weight is healthy but low anyway, I don’t think much about my body or desire to be thinner. I don’t count calories or purge or exercise too much. No fear foods or safe foods. No obsessive weight or bodychecking. I don’t understand why I don’t just eat, what’s the point in starving myself if I don’t even want to lose weight?

I’m so confused about why I’m like this. So hungry but like most nights, will just go to sleep early so I don’t have to feel it.

No. 696263

>>695495
>>696213
Do you care for your cats? My mom is either a narcissist or histrionic and only cares about people/things when they benefit her. Legit never talks to her kids unless she needs one of us in some social situation to look normal. She has no ability to love anyone but herself. If you're capable of selfless love towards your cats then you probably aren't a total lost cause. Borderline people are capable of empathy.
Go to a psychologist if you can and be 100% honest. See what they say.

No. 696279

Baiting is fucked up

No. 696290

>>696201

Get medicaid. I don't even have a license yet I can get better jobs, don't let anything be an excuse.

No. 696291

>>696200
I wish /w/ would just get deleted

No. 696292

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I realized how much my symptoms are so closely similar to bpd, so uhhh i might be bpdchan or something. I kind of knew that because of the many unstable relationships i had and still do, and how impulsive i am with buying stuff or generally having a self destructive behaviour.

Im not going to say i have bpd because self diagnosing is pretty stupid. I'll be getting a diagnosis next year which sucks ass because of the lockdown we have. But i just don't want it to worsen, i don't know how bad it is and to what extent. Anyway at the same time im pretty happy that im going to get help finally, but i also feel depressed as shit that this might be the whole reason my life is so fucked up.

Im also not so sure if i will even get therapy, since i heard many stories of bpdchans being rejected by doctors/therapists, so that's a big yikes from me. The fact professional therapists and doctors or whatever cannot treat you because of a thing they heard is supposedly bad, i mean isn't this what doctors and therapists are for? or am i completely missing something.

anyway, huge accomplishment (diagnosis, therapy) but also huge sad because man my mental health is fucked, thanks mom and dad for neglecting me and not caring, really helped me as you can see here.

No. 696293

Found out my boyfriend was tranny chasing. I’m sad, lost and angry. Men will stick their dick in anything.

No. 696294

>>696293
Yuck. Sorry to hear that, anon.

No. 696296

>>696293
Awful. I'm so sorry, anon.

No. 696298

>>696218

Yes. Exactly this. That girl is a product of her mom’s narc abuse and yet they preach and rant about how Venus is manipulative, did this, etc. The girl is a mess and killing herself with her anorexia. Just leave her alone.

No. 696299

>>696218
They bash Venus to feel better about themselves. If you are gutter trash you gotta reach low to find someone worse

No. 696302

>>696200
>>696218
>>696298
I feel the exact same, the Venus thread just makes me fucking sad. There's nothing there to see except a broken person struggling to function at all. The countless posts about sand on her legs bcs she's at the beach made me want to see the whole thread nuked.

I also feel this way about Taylor R, there's no milk anymore, it's just nitpicking about the smallest little things.
It's fine if there's no milk. Shit doesn't stay dramatic forever, people grow up.

No. 696306

>>696302
i wish people like that would stick to cows like moo, she's a terrible human all by herself.

No. 696307

>>696218
>>696298
>>696299
>>696302
She's a grown woman. At what point is she accountable for herself despite her upbringing?
If she's excused because of her fucked up parents and mental illness, then the majority of cows on this website are also absolved.

I think you all relate to her and the criticisms hit a bit too close to home. Take a break.

No. 696308

>>696307
She's not excused. But why kick someone who is already down?

No. 696309

>>696308
>Why kick someone who is already down?
Okay. So why anyone on this site then? A lot of these lolcows are hard up.

No. 696310

>>696309
At least they still give milk, Venus is dried up

No. 696312

>>696263
I really do. When I spiral, losing them is a part of one of the worst things that can happen to me.

Thank you for caring. It's unusual to be on the receiving end of niceness. I hope you have a good day, anon.

No. 696315

I've been in the closet for 9 years and will probably remain for the next 3-4 years until I finish school and move out and never speak to narc mom again. She's started demanding I find men to date and plan on shitting out 974 kids for her to use as fun little trophies and free narc supply and I'm an infertile dyke. I've larped being a good little feminine straight girl for so long and nodded my head and agreed when she pines over teenage boys at the drive through (She's 51 kek) or marvel movie actor with muscles number 5. I guess she thinks because she was a dumbass that got married the day after she graduated high school, I'm supposed to do that too.

My old hs boyfriend and I had a mutual break up because I can't make myself bisexual and he was joining the chair force to never been seen again, ever, and narc mom was more upset than either of us. she said she thought I would get married to him because for maybe a year we shared a lunch period together and I vaped in his car. Where am I supposed to find a good white christian country boy she approves of in a pandemic. I don't want to get the coof trying to pretend I think "hunter" from the closest church young adult youth group is so interesting and sexy with his big truck so she shuts the fuck up for a few days

No. 696317

>>696310
She's a mentally ill sex worker like Shayna is. I don't browse either thread but how is her sex work drama and social media meltdowns different?

No. 696334

>>696307
I will never understand why anons act like venus is different from any other cow.

No. 696335

>>696307
The majority of the thread is just nitpicking her appearance and pointing out obvious shoops. Not milk.

No. 696336

>>696317
What drama? Having sand on her leg?

No. 696341

My cousin has covid and he came into my workplace today, we both had masks on and just talked for a couple minutes but it makes me nervous

No. 696347

>>696307

Are you the same anon who wrote an essay on why everyone should hate her? Go touch some grass outside.

No. 696383

>>696341
What the fuck, he needs to stay the fuck home. Fucking scrotes, hope he gets better though

No. 696385

I really wish I could get a good cry out right now (I'm due for one) but I literally can't bring tears to my eyes.

No. 696422

god i am just so fucking sad. i wish i had someone to talk to about this situation…i really don't know what to do.

No. 696426

>>696422
I mean we're anon, so you could just post about it here if you want.

No. 696429

My bf and I got into a fight because I told him that I wanted to do more cutesy couples things and he took it personally. Like I didn't bring this up to fight. I just wanted him to know lol I thought it was going to be a Full House moment and I was even talking to him soft and gentle like Danny lol

No. 696433

>>696426
i am worried it's too specific. and i want opinions on things that i am uncomfortable posting here.

No. 696434

>>696433
do you seriously think anyone you know browses lc?

No. 696440

I just want a grungey vegan bf

No. 696448

why does every anon have a shitty and retarded boyfriend. why don't you simply just dump and find a new one, i don't get it.

No. 696453

>>696448
Men are generally shitty and retarded, so having a boyfriend usually entails dating someone with those characteristics. I guess some anons are scared of being alone.

I used to be one of them but have since graduated into forever-alone cat lady. No regrets.

No. 696455

>>696448
I think we attract what we give out sometimes. If that makes sense.

No. 696464

>>696448
Most het women are to weak to live alone. They would rather have a mediocre/shitty/abusive boyfriend than no boyfriend at all.

No. 696466

>>696448
More women should definitely dump.

Just to offer an alternative perspective though: Sometimes I am really harsh when I'm venting about my emotions anonymously when my bf causes an affront. Is the situation really blown so much out of proportion irl? Nah. I'm just dramatic sometimes. Could be the same for other anons too, or not.

I pay attention to how often I vent about people in my life. If I find the urge to want to vent about them more than once a week and more than a few times a month, that's when I know I've got something toxic. Sometimes I just want to vent about my bf being a tone-deaf idiot in the same way all humans tend to mess up at times. It just shouldn't be a frequent thing.

No. 696467

>>696293
Well he ain't your boyfriend no more!!!!
Jokes aside, how long were you two dating? And is he white? So many men are turning out to be or be into troons, I think we need to compile a list of warning signs from women like yourself. However, please recognize how lucky you are that you found out sooner rather than later. Imagine if you found out after you had gotten married and had kids. It always makes me so grateful when I think about exes like that and how leaving was absolutely the best decision in the long run.
Also, please get tested for STDs/STIs when you can. Don't trust a word that this man says, even if he has "proof" he never met up with someone else or whatever excuses he'll probably give you. This guy has lost all credibility, it's time to sever ties and block him completely. Move onward with your life and you will recognize the blessing in this. I hope you feel better in the meantime and aside from the inevitable sadness from a breakup, I hope you aren't feeling any guilt about what he did. Him being a closeted degenerate is his own issue. I'm enraged that he likely dragged a woman into this so that he could save face while he was fucking trannies on the DL.

No. 696471

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No. 696482

>>696471
hey now. he's not shitty and retarded. just weird. he's a good boy.

No. 696483

>>696471
I'm starting to feel less sorry for farmers willing to stay in shit relationships

No. 696484

>>696483
this isn't even related to that. i never said he was shitty.

No. 696487

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I have become such a gross asiaboo because of not having an concrete identity that its messing me up, my family descents from native american catholic converts of the late 19th century, they don't have any semblance of culture or community except being catholic conservative farmers, my mother's surname was picked on a whim, like genuinely my grandparents (who died when my mom was a teenager) just slapped whatever common jesus-y surname that came to mind, whenever people go on about heritage and where their family came from and traditions it makes me depressed as fuck, my family is impossible to trace further than my great-grandparents, there's no traditions, no recipes, no stories, and even if I tried to research shit it would be impossible because whatever ethnic group they/me are from culture-wise went extinct basically a century before anyone gave a shit about documenting this kind of thing.

So I just cope with this garbage by being hyperfixated in asian history and culture and flip floping on wanting to be x nationality im studying at the moment because im jealous of people who actually have a rich culture, right now its china.

No. 696488

>>696484
Anon, I think your bf sounds cool, but you have to stop lol. We will start making fun of you if you keep vehemently defending him against every anon like this. We are never gonna meet you or your bf so it doesn't matter what we think honestly.

No. 696492

>>696488
i am drunk sorry!

No. 696496

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Look anons, I love my younger brother, he is my family after all, but he has been insufferable these past few months.

I had been starving for a single piece of meat for a long time, but when I finally managed to get a single tray of chicken meat that I shared with him, he actually tried to trash out the meat, as he gave me a smug look and told be "Because you know I REALLY love meat" on a very sarcastic way, untimately I saved the meat, but it took me so long to get it just for him to try to trash it.

Me and my mom had been planning a trip, we worked so hard to finish all of our chores and plan the date, just for my brother to go with us, a few hours before the trip, and told us that he had a test that he couldn't do because I was on the computer, despite that I gave him the computer multiple times and he had, in fact, done nothing and just stare at his phone while the computer was on. We had to re-plan the trip, for many weeks after, just because we had to wait for the test to be enabled again. And when the trip was finally being made, he spend the whole trip angry, asking to return soon to the house. I tried to tell my mom that we shouldn't invite him again, but she kept saying that we must include him on everything we do, and everytime we had gone outside to do something he will begin to complain about everything, demanding to go back home as soon as possible.

Everytime he sees me with my phone, he will try to take it from my hands, sometimes even tell me to turn it off, as he hurts my legs. But he will get angry at me if I begin to talk to him.

I don't know if it is because of the age, he is 13 years old, or something, but I can't stand being around him anymore.

No. 696498

>>696488
>I think your bf sounds cool
were we reading the same post

No. 696499

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I just got done reading jjba part 6 stone ocean and now idk what do with my life now

No. 696500

>>696498
I read all the posts anon made about her bf, he didn't sound bad imo. Anon said he treats her well so whatever. especially when you compare it to the other anon

No. 696501

>>696496
I got his age wrong, he is 15 years old, nothing important but still.

No. 696503

>>696290
I have no idea why you're being an asshole. there's nothing wrong with working at starbucks

No. 696505

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>>696496
Well anon, it sounds like it's time for you to go full Cain on his ass.

No. 696506

>>696496
He sounds like trash. I feel bad your mother keeps trying to include him when it;s obvious he should be left alone. Why are all men trash

No. 696511

i really don't know what to do anymore.

I'm so sad and empty. I'm behind in school, and haven't even been able to go despite it being online because of how unmotivated i am. i have two friends and only talk to one of them on a daily basis. all my other friends just stopped talking to me and i have no idea what i did. i feel annoying and ugly and i just don't want to speak ever again. my family argues constantly with each other and with me and i can't handle it. i have depression, anxiety, and adhd. i also have all the symptoms of bpd. it's like i was destined to be fucked up and alone.

I'm so sick of life :/

No. 696516

I feel so. Fucking. Stupid. I KNEW getting involved at all with a weeby guy in 2020 was so risky, but he seemed to really be a rational down to earth kind etc etc just good guy otherwise and isn’t even that crazy about anime. Well now it comes out that he legit watches/jacks it to hentai. Yeah, to some it would be nothing. But I’m absolutely not into guys like that. I just want a normal traditional type of fucking nice kind hearted man. I DO NOT WANT SOME FUCKING HENTAI MASTURBATING LAZY SKEEZY FUCK!!!!!! I’m out. I’m just disappointed. Turns out the cynical side of lolcow was right. I just thought I was getting lucky.

No. 696519

I really wish I had an invite to the new Clubhouse app. There's already so many entertaining things coming out from there.

No. 696525

I just want to hear my boyfriend say that he is in love me with me or that he loves me. I would literally do anything just to get him to say it.

No. 696526

>>696525
Just break up with him. unless your just in that stage where neither of y'all have said i love you yet

No. 696530

>>696516
So what would be acceptable material for him to jerk off to? His taste in anime sounds disappointing, but that can be changed by introducing new things to him and finding new things to watch. If you're done over that, just be done with him though.

No. 696535

>>696530
I’m just genuinely not into porn or especially jacking it to cartoon characters etc. I’m very traditional that way and he lied about what he likes up until now as well which is also why I feel dumb. I know it may seem too nit picky for sure but I’m just really paranoid about exactly what types of hentai he’s literally cumming to.. I’m just kind of shocked, feeling stupidly naive for believing him when he insisted he never jerks it to hentai lol

No. 696544

>>696535
> I’m just really paranoid about exactly what types of hentai he’s literally cumming to.. I’m just kind of shocked
The curiosity is killing me, what kind of anime porn does he fap to? Is it anime girls with balloons for breasts? Is it those extremely specific anime porn stuff like Reverse unbirthing of my mom while a guy dressed like my female childhood friend fucks me and calls me a girl, everyone has womb tattoos and someone is watching us while making fun of my micropenis kind of degenerate shit?

No. 696546

>>696535
Kind of embarrassing to admit to probably, especially when you're first talking to someone. Personally, as long as it's not futa or loli/kid shit or extremely weird grotesque hentai, I prefer men watching that that over regular porn. I've been spoiled by someone that stopped watching it after we began dating though.
I can't imagine the number of men that jerk it with imagination alone is very high though.
Again, if it bothers you then it's not something you have to pursue

No. 696547

>>696526
Neither of us have said I love you, yet. We will have been together for five months the first week of January. How long should I wait to hear I love you???

No. 696549

>>696547
Idk anon. I don't think there is a set number that is correct. I personally would not wait longer than 6-8 months though. Can't go to a year.

I think it's important to note that your s/o could also just be waiting to hear you say it though. Just like how you're waiting for him.

No. 696568

I want a robot bf so bad.

No. 696579

im drunk and anytime i get drunk i remember childhood trauma and i dont get to see my therapist until like 3 weks and i cant take my anxiety meds when im shit faced why do i do this i keep remembeirng the fucking child porn i am in when i was like 9 and how none o them will ever go to jail and its fine and have probaby forgotten me in a sea of videos of prepubeesent little girls and just im so im so upset and i have no one to fucking talk to and im ready to kill myself im ready to put a gun in my mouth im so sick of living with this i think about it every fucking day

No. 696585

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>>696568
I also want a robot boyfriend. But he has to be a bit of a himbo, that would make him even more attractive.

No. 696586

>>696307
Absolved of what, making depressing porn and not being attractive enough for the spergs in her threads? The whole thread is just talking about what a hideous old hag she is and how terrible she is at sex work. Who fucking cares at this point? She's a sad mess, not entertaining or enraging or milky in the least.

No. 696587

I was in a video call with my friends who I haven’t talked to in a few months today, and I don’t think they like me very much. Whenever I tried to talk, they just ignored me or started talking about something else, so I just kept quiet for the rest of the call. I guess it’s time for me to find new friends.

No. 696596

>>696579
Sis I am so sorry you were surrounded by shit ass fuckass people who treated you like shit but you aren't shitty. It's not your fault and it's understandable those memories pop up especially while drinking, please don't do anything stupid. Hugs for my strong anon, remember to drink some water too.

No. 696602

>>696596
thank you so much
between drinking and fucking bulimia im dehydrated as fuck. ima drink water and try to sleep. thannk you for your kidnness

No. 696603

I feel like something is wrong with me because I have no friends outside of the 4 girls I befriended in High school while all of them still have friends outside of our circle. Like I sucked at making friends in uni because of the super large classes and my shitty mental health, and I've been unemployed since I graduated so I haven't gotten a chance to befriend anyone at work or even in clubs because i got no money to join any. I mostly hang out with 2 of the girls in my circle and both of them are planning to migrate to different countries next year and the other 2 just don't seem to like to hang out lol so I guess I'm gonna be alone for the rest of my life if I don't figure out how to get some friends soon. Also making friends online sucks like I don't know how to keep a convo going in dms and I find groupchats annoying. I guess I'll just become a recluse lmao

No. 696605

My fucking bra strap popped in the middle of work and i didn't feel it so I was running around with on titty out. Kill me please.

No. 696613

>>696605
How did you not notice? You couldn't feel how loose your titty was? You didn't feel the band snap? That shit would hurt.

No. 696623

>>696613
I was wearing a sports bra with minimal support to begin with and was just moving around and focusing on what i needed to do that my brain omitted that important information.

No. 696631

>>696602
Hope you can get some rest anon! Have something salty as well

No. 696645

I hate when people lie to me, and they're such shit liars. Like their story will change 10 times in the span of an hour, and after I've essentially backed them into a corner to get the truth, they'll admit "okay, I lied" as if it's some gracious thing bestowed upon me from their own free will.
No, you got caught lying in every direction and backed into a corner so you had no choice but to admit you lied. Stop acting like a saint for telling the truth.
I'd rather you say "I fucked up, you caught me, I lied" not this stupid song and dance.

No. 696658

I didn’t eat all day because I felt my cramps coming on and then my period started so I tried to sleep as much as I could to ignore the pain. It hurt so bad and I had such sharp pain in both my stomach and butthole at the same time I almost threw up on myself from the pain because I could barely move. Now it’s gotten better and I’m hungry and more energized but it’s almost midnight and my head hurts. I can’t wait to get a hysterectomy or find out if there’s even a way to fix this because it’s unbearable every month and medication doesn’t work.

No. 696663

Xmas is in a week and there is 0 xmas mood anywhere. Even the decorations look out of place.

No. 696668

>>696663
Same, I feel like we're still in early November. My workplace isn't decorated at all and the playlist is broken, we've not had any Christmas song. Even my muslim coworker said that while she doesn't celebrate Christmas, she usually loves the mood in the streets and the people, and it's not there at all this year.

No. 696675

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I can barely stand looking at myself in the mirror.
My mother is an ex-model, and working in that industry sort of messed her up a bit I think. She would nitpick and criticize how I look at every turn until I moved out (she instead started doting on me from that point on oddly enough), she would tell me I was fat despite being normal weight, my face too wide, my shoulders too broad, that nobody actually likes me etc etc. And then almost half my life have a close "friend" that would also treat me like shit, telling me I'm stupid and insinuate that I'm ugly as well, and then later on I had a boyfriend for a little while that would repeatedly tell me I was actually not his type and that he would usually not be attracted to me if he didn't love me.
So I always feel like the ugly friend, it really messed me up even more when I went backpacking with a friend for two weeks and she was hit up by men almost every day and I they would usually just roll their eyes or just go "mhm" when I tried to push myself back into the conversation because I refuse to get shut out just because someone wants to get their dick wet (note: I wasn't interested in getting the attention from these scrotes, but I think you can understand how it feels to have that kind of situation almost. every. single. day. might make you feel like an ugly crone).
It's not like I don't get compliments or anything, I have been told a lot as well that I'm a beautiful woman and have a great body by both men and women, but I have a real hard time to take it to heart - on a good day I think I'm just really plain. I know how to dress myself and have a basic knowledge of makeup too. But all of this makes me harbor this low-key grudge against good-looking women, and I really don't want to be that kind person, but I can't stop. Whenever I meet someone that looks great I can't stop analyzing their looks and compare them with me, and I end up feeling lumpy and disgusting.
I have tried to get help with this, since this extremely shitty self-confidence is clearly something that runs too deep for me to handle on my own, but the psychologists I've had just shrugs when I ask about it.

No. 696680

>>696603
With 4 friends you are probably one of the champs of this board

No. 696681

>>696645
If many people lie to you sometimes it's cuz how you act. I would think about that.

I lie a lot to avoid confrontation with people I know act unreasonable with the truth.

No. 696692

>>696681
I do understand in that context, but for this vent: No, it's just one person unfortunately, they will lie about absolutely anything you ask them without hesitation. You can ask what they've had for lunch, it'll be a lie. What song they're listening to, it'll be a lie. They keep spinning webs more and more until it stops making sense and I feel like I'm going crazy becasue it keeps changing. I will just put them in a corner by listing all the lies and asking repeatedly for the truth until they admit it and pull the "I wouldn't want to be friends either with such a liar :( I'm sorry."

No. 696705

I got a letter addressed to me in my mail without a postage stamp after weeks of ignoring some moid's messages. Why are males like this? I had a moid previously who showed up at my workplace and I had to have him escorted away by security then he harassed me over text and said I was insane for doing that? And another one who trailed me from my work to a restaurant/bar I get drunk at, then offered me hard drugs if I went home with him. I'm not even attractive, why do these things happen to me and how is everyone finding my addresses? I just want peace. I feel like I'm being watched. Being woman is suffering.

No. 696707

>>696692
ew anon what kind of ppl u interact with? this is weird behaviour like lying about simple questions?

No. 696720

>>696499
Read SBR?

No. 696753

My left eyelid is starting to droop and I hate it so much. It's such a small thing in the grand scheme of things but I'm so insecure about it and don't want to go outside anymore.

No. 696771

I've spent the past three days in bed staring at my phone because I fell into a drinking binge. My withdrawals are so horrifying anymore why do I keep trying to think I can drink like a normal person.

No. 696792

I do recognize posting something as stupid as this is a clowning sentence to me but I can't care anymore, I need to vent to someone.

I don't think I've felt this suicidal in such a prolonged time. For an entire month I've not been able to go to bed in a decent hour because I get panic attacks at night. I cut myself to feel something, but I can't even feel pain. I have filled a notebook full of suicide notes to the people I know. I live in a shit country with no crisis hotline and I have no money to afford a therapist. I have never felt so ugly, so unaccomplished, so useless, so talentless and so fucking worthless. Nothing I do works, I try to do everything to improve any aspect of my life but it just flatlines and it sucks even more since I was born into a good start for my life. I take every advice yet the result is the same no matter what I do. Job applications tell me to come after the pandemic, riding trends to get popular nets me nothing, make up cannot fix my ugly face, trying to ease the yearning with media only makes me sadder. Nothing is inherently wrong in my life, it is just so stale and I cannot feel ANYTHING but dread.

The worst feeling is my friend doing her absolute best to cheer me up and it should work but this feeling of emptiness is so overwhelming I just can't believe it and I feel like I'm doing her a disservice just by being fucking sad all the time. She deserves better than me. I'm tired of crying myself to sleep, tired of no one to cling on. I want to die before new years as I cannot handle a year as shitty as this one where I'm cooped up and nothing I do improves anything and I waste my time.

I want to die but I don't want to make people I know upset and that is my sole reason but every breath I take feels like pain. I have no idea how to stop it, just the tiniest amount of accomplishment or improvement would make me happy but there is nothing and everyday I have to face the fact that I'm worthless and a nothing.

No. 696795

>>696771
>why do I keep trying to think I can drink like a normal person.
It's not you doing that, it's Her. I can recognize Her toxic line of thought anywhere. Bit of advice from an ex-alcoholic: learn to recognize That Voice, and realize it's not you. She's the Enemy living in your head. Treat her as such. Whenever you hear her, remind her you're in charge. You can let her whine and demand and beg, but she doesn't get to make decisions, all decisions go through you. Start having actual conversations with The Voice in your head, it will help you break free from Her. When you hear The Voice finessing you how a drink would be really nice and why, clap back and ridicule Her. You're the one with the power, She'll be flailing left and right to make you do her bidding, but you hate that Bitch and you're gonna make Her grovel like She tried to do to you. Kill the Enemy inside, that part was never "you".

No. 696801

Hearing about rape cases and how little justice is served makes me want to troon out and reject all femininity so I can be as unappealing as possible to men and be safe from rapists.
I think that this is also the reason why all of those women are suddenly becoming fakebois.

I wish rapists and all of the other vermin could just be killed off or send to some form of gulag so we and our children can finally feel safe from those monsters. The system is rigged because the same monsters are the ones in power and allow it to happen. It is time that we secretly poison all monsters and get the power ourselves.

No. 696803

>>696801
Speaking of monsters in power, I still can't believe there was an actual pedo ring, all that Rapestein shit is something like out of a movie, hard to wrap my head around it being real.

No. 696804

>>696801
I agree with you anon, but trooning out wouldn’t help unless you were an extremely rare case of actually passing and managed to keep your sex secret. The idea that female victims of rape can do something to stop it is untrue therefore not worth pursuing. The only thing that can stop rape is if the rapists stop raping. All we can do is pick up the pieces.

No. 696823

I feel so much fucking rage thinking about how my ex treated me. I wish I could contact him and tell him what a piece of shit he is and that I know about all the lies he told me. If I heard he was dead I would be overjoyed. I don’t know what’s wrong with me but for these past few days I’ve felt so much anger. I’ve really wanted to snap at people at my shitty customer service job

No. 696825

i wish i was just a regular happy normie

No. 696830

>>696823
If he treated you badly in the first place, in all likelihood he wouldn’t care what you have to say to him now. I don’t know why people often feel this way - I’ve been there too - it’s weird to desire any interaction with someone who hurt you. It’s cliche but the best thing you can do for yourself is to move on. Try to figure out what triggered you so you can work on it.

No. 696835

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i've been pondering if i should cut ties with my friend which lived at the same town with me, now hasn't been replying to my msgs for 3 months. Maybe practicing survivalism therefore not replying to anything. wondering if he is in fact shitty person and doesn't deserve my friendship.

>be him, 25yrs old dad

>can't see his 5yrs old bastard son bc of her BPD ex restricting
>after that ex he lived with some swamp monster for 3 yrs to leech money and drugs from her
>be me, get attached to this person as a big brother persona (i don't have siblings)
>have fun hanging out with him
>realize he likes to hang with his NPD bestie more
>get few times left alone at the bar by him & former friends, get once sexually abused by a stranger
>leave out the town after various traumas and getting in problems with this friend's NPD bestie

makes me wonder if my friend in fact is just a puppet of his bestie, therefore i should stay away from him to not get hurt by a NPDfag any longer. It's hard to think straight when it's about an important friendship.

No. 696855

I think it's absolutely retarded when autistic men grow up as autistic, become a tranny and then claim that they're an autistic woman.

How do you grow up with autistic male socialization and then think that real autistic women will accept you and relate to you? There's a subreddit cause aspergirls and occasionally there will be a post like "I transitioned and am autistic" like no!! the women on that subreddit cannot fucking relate to you, you grew up with a totally different mindset and people treated you differently than they would treat a girl with aspergers/autism.

No. 696859

>>696835
Cut ties anon, it’s time.

No. 696862

>>696795
Thanks anon, I knew there'd be at least one other alchy out there for advice. I like this idea and I will try it once a couple more days of this hell are over. Also appreciate that you call yourself an ex-alcoholic as opposed to the usual AA bullshit.

No. 696886

>>696792
Anon, I'm sorry you are feeling this way. To make tiny accomplishments and improvements would be a step in the right direction. It can be simple things like

>finish a big glass of water

>walk in nature for 30 minutes
>wash my hair

then if you still have energy to do more, make it more complex things like

>cook a new recipe

>meditate
>write 3 positive things about myself, and 3 things I want to improve on

I know this is hard but try to be gentler to yourself. Give yourself some grace. There are many ebooks and free workbooks online that can help you. Try working through a few exercises when you have more energy. DBT work may be helpful due to your selfharming tendencies.

You are not worthless. You can get better.

No. 697003

>>696658
I take Magnesium Glycinate supplements, or have started actually being responsible about taking them in the evenings after a meal along with a calcium, and D vitamin. It's helped tremendously with cramping and even flow.
I'm irritated that it's been a massive bunch of trial and error to figure out things that work.

No. 697414

Is it really worth it to live in this ugly word? I'm sick of being sad and empty every waking moment, and none of those "improvement tips" do anything for my mood, if anything I just feel like I'm being condescending to myself. So much effort for times that aren't even good. I feel like I'm gonna go crazy if I take one more year of this. What does "getting stronger" even mean? To stop talking about my feelings? Deny their existence? Shove everything down?
The worst part is that my life isn't even that bad, I've seen so many people have it worse than me. But that only brings me immense guilt, which takes me to an even lower point

No. 697431

>>696771
I'm not an alcoholic, but was a drug addict who went to rehab so here is some advice I picked up.
-Write a plan for when you feel like you are gonna relapse. Like for example, my plan is to change scenery, text a friend, start doing breathing exercises, but it is up to you how you want your plan to look. This will give you a solid foundation on what to do when you do feel like relapsing.

Recognize minor signs of relapse, or as my therapist called it "seemingly irrelevant descisions". You argued and now your friends are asking to hang out? maybe you know that often leads to drinking. that's a minor decision that leads to relapse. It's all about identifying minor triggers, which will make your life 100% easier.

I also understand being an alcoholic must be harder, because alcohol is so normalized. But if you feel comfortable enough, what helped me the most, is admitting to people I have a problem. I told people "i'm clean, i dont do drugs" and they helped me stay away from that shit

No. 697433

>>695462
Men have officially won and dominated the internet. It is no longer a comfortable place for a woman to be, not even lolcow. Guess we will all have to leave and continue outearning them and overachieving in the real world hehe

No. 697434

I hate men so much, I have a date with one soon I’m thinking about just cancelling and saying a bunch of hurtful things about his appearance designed to emasculate him. I might just dedicate my life to getting their hopes up and then crushing their hearts and egos. I’m being serious. This guy I’m going on a date with really likes me I want to say to him “last time we where kissing I felt your boner and your cock is too thin and small for me, also you have a big belly and you’re losing your hair. You better find someone to settle down with because you are hitting that mf wall so hard”

No. 697435

>>697434
You're unhinged.

No. 697436

>>697435
You’re a scrote, fuck off we know you’re miserable and we are happy about it

No. 697437

>>697434
I'd insult them more subtly than that, if you go all out insulting them they can disregard it and say you're crazy. Friendzoning them nicely due to a lack of sexual chemistry cuts them to the core.

Though ofc my official advice is not to be needlessly cruel unless the guy has actually done something wrong.

No. 697438

>>695462
>>697437
He’s a MAN so by punishing him I punish all men since they’re basically a hivemind

No. 697439

>>697437
Any advice on how to neg and make the men in my life feel bad about themselves is highly welcomed. We should start a discord about it. I want more of them depressed and killing themselves.

No. 697440

>>697434
I know this is lc so we like don't like men but, this is…not normal in the slightest. Unless dude has actually done something to you then this is just unnecessary. I get some men may do this to us, but two rights do not make a wrong. You're just as shitty as the guys that do that kind of stuff if you do this. Don't stoop to their level.

No. 697441

>>697436
That's your response to someone pointing out how asinine your attitude is? I just know if this is how your brain works when it comes to interacting with people, you shouldn't be interacting with anyone. Even at my lowest, I will never be as miserable as you, thankfully.

No. 697442

>>697440
No I’m not JUST as shitty, a retaliation doesn’t make me “just as bad”. I can do whatever I fucking want to men. I’m so charming and sweet in real life they always fall in love with me even if I’m not the best looking so I’m going to make them hate themselves. If you are really a woman then I’m doing you a favour, I will neg them until they all have to stop being whores and settle down with a woman. You can thank me later.

No. 697443

>>697441
How do you know I’m miserable? Lmao nothing makes me happier than destroying the fragile mental health of men. I already know there are a ton here since everyone is attacking me lol who gives a fuck! You’re more disgusted by me than the shit that incels say well I’m not advocating for murder and violence, just emotional abuse and negging. It’s not even half as bad. Men are worthless anyway and a depreciating asset to society. Every generation of men gets simultaneously weaker and more sadistic so I’m just helping nature run it’s course. We need more of them milling themselves and hating themselves.

No. 697446

>>697442
You're either a bpd/narc-chan or a scrote in disguise trying to get some attention. It's not a retaliation if the dude didn't even do anything to you. You're not some god, you are not doing me a favor. Wanting people to kill themselves and being unnecessarily mean towards them is not normal at all. You literally sound just as bad as trash men that do this shit.

No. 697447

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>>697443
Take your meds and stop baiting on LC.

No. 697448

>>697446
How am I “just as bad” ? Do you kno on the incel forums they share tips not only on how to neg women, but how to date rape them and abuse them too. They encourage each other to straight up abuse and manipulate people. The reason women are so fucking weak and stupid is because we won’t band together and give them a taste of their own medicine. Stop whining about them anon on the internet and GO OUT THERE AND MAKE THEM MISERABLE.

No. 697449

>>697447
I’ve taken them and washed them down with a nice cup of tea. If you met me irl you wouldn’t believe I could be capable of these thoughts because I act like a very charming and rational and sweet women. I also don’t drink.

No. 697450

All I’m saying is GO OUT THERE AND MAKE THE MEN HATE THEMSELVES, STOP DELUDING YOURSELF ONTO THINKING THEY ARE NORMAL PEOPLE, THEY ARENT, THEY ARE THE ENEMY. USE EMOTIONAL WARFARE TO BREAK THEIR SPIRITS AND THEY WILL TREAT US BETTER I PROMISE

No. 697451

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i need to save money but my sugar addicted rot brain keeps spilling it all on luxury snacks. this week i bought boba tea, coffee, smoothies, each nearly $10. to top it all off i am unemployed at the moment. this has to fucking stop. there are more important and useful things to spend on.

No. 697452

Anon is a bit unhinged but it's not the first time when I see people saying "x people have no rights", "y people should die", or "z aren't people". Move on.

No. 697453

How many scrotes work admin herr? You’re all complete losers. Your domination of my favourite online spaces has pushed me to find irl hobbies and friends and has made me happier, meanwhile you are losing to us in the real world because we are smarter and work harder, we get higher exam results and more promotions and more money. You can carry on dominating lolcow and Reddit meanwhile I have more hobbies and friends since leaving the internet. Have fun on the internet while we all leave and make something of ourselves in the real world maybe you scrotes can start an pblyfans when we all leave and get real jobs

No. 697454

>>697434
>I might just dedicate my life to getting their hopes up and then crushing their hearts and egos

Why dedicate your life to that scum? Why waste your whole life for scrotes?

No. 697456

>>697452
It’s because I’m talking about men so suddenly it’s a problem. If I was talking about Catholics or recruitment consultants nobody would bat an eye but because it’s men everyone gets defensive. Men are nothing but sperm donors they aren’t meant to be good or productive people they are built to rape and pass on their genes because nature is cruel. We are no different to female mallard ducks we have to evolve to defeat them

No. 697457

>>697454
Because it is so funny when they cry, they look so ugly and funny when they cry.

No. 697458

>>697456
>>697457

Well you do you. Good luck with that

No. 697461

I’m serious men have won the pandemic, they’ve manipulated the very stupidest of us into being their slaves via only fans, they’ve kept us at home so they can abuse and kill us, they’ve let all the rapists and abusers out of prison who have rushed home to kill their wives and daughters but watch them VERY CAREFULLY and see how hard they are crashing and burning. Keep your head up ladies, remember that men don’t progress from a foetus and their primary functions are to control women, pass on genes and parasite off of women and they do it very well.

Even science doesn’t wNt or care about them, read this https://www.kent.ac.uk/news/science/16634/the-y-chromosome-is-disappearing-so-what-will-happen-to-men

Women are gods creatures and men are rife with inherent sin. Everything the puritans said about women is true for men they are the devils agents and their sensuality makes them vulnerable to sin, they are inherently impure and have to spend their whole lives serving women to make up for it for a slim chance of getting into heaven. Forget 72 virgins, even in heaven they will be our servants and slaves.

No. 697464

>>697461
So many lines just to say
>no u

At incels

No. 697465

>>697451
Try setting a weekly budget for your treats. I did that and it meant I could get three takeout coffees a week which is still a lot but much less than 1-2 a day. It didn’t feel like depriving myself and eventually I got into the mindset of delaying purchases for another day and thinking “I would rather miss 3 coffees and get this thing instead”

Also look into stuff you can make at home or buy from a grocery store as they’re much cheaper. Instant coffee isn’t great but the more premium ones are okay and you can get several servings for the price of one takeout coffee (at least where I am). Coffee machine, smoothie blender etc are ideal if you can invest. Take stuff out with you so you don’t get tempted

No. 697466

>>695462
Why not just bring back the man hate thread just to save this kind of shit from leaking on to other boards. Or you know what do what the fuck your want because I don’t care what happens here. I’m not a male so I don’t get suicidal over my gender being criticised. The reason men won’t allow men to be critiqued is because they are hive minds. Just open the man hate threads again and us unhinged leg beards (we are highly desirable in real life trust me, both in looks and conduct) can congregate there.

No. 697468

>>697466
>we are highly desirable in real life trust me, both in looks and conduct

delusions of grandeur much?

No. 697469

>>697464
All they do is project their own inherent dirty sin on to women so YES that is what I’m saying, everything they say about us applies to them it’s really true. The thing is this has been going on since biblical times so why are you being so fucking spineless? Fight back sister. Don’t accuse me of “stopping to their level” because inherently I am above them by virtue of being female and they know that

No. 697470

Just let her talk to herself lol. The bpd is acting up. Must be a full moon or something.

No. 697471

>>697470
It's too funny to stop

No. 697472

>>697468
I’m sorry but it’s true. I have multiple men chasing me, messaging me everyday, sending me gifts and money, because I am desirable. That doesn’t make me superior to other women who aren’t desirable, it is just a fact of life. I am simply hot and charming and likeable. Not the best looking, not beautiful, but definitely good enough to attract men.

No. 697473

>>697472
How is that relevant, hahaha

No. 697475

>>697470
>>697473
Because you spineless simps/scrotes will ALWAYS say I’m a schizo cat lady leg beard and when I bring up the fact that no, in fact, in real life I am considered attractive and sweet, I get accused of delusions of grandeur. A woman acknowledging her skills and benefits is seen as narcissism to men because one of their primary functions is to destroy us emotionally so that we become dependant on them. Well no, I’m very aware of all my flaws and all my benefits, one of my flaws is yes; I’m not a very nice person deep down, I probably wouldn’t be a good mother, but I don’t care because I don’t intend to be a wife or mother.

No. 697476

>>697434
This is the same retarded bitch that posted screenshots across a couple threads of her being a dry boring texter and proceeding to get angry when everyone called her out on it. Same unhinged text style and narc ego.

No. 697477

Bring back the man hate threads and stop being so fucking spineless. They will hate and kill us regardless, don’t you think it’s fun/funny to hate them back? It’s hilarious.

No. 697479

>>697476
No it isn’t you silly cunt because I haven’t been on here for over a month. That’s a mere speculation and you state it like a fact. Anyone that retarded is surely a man.

No. 697480

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>>697465
that sounds good, thanks for your advice anon. i tend to splurge when stressed, especially after long restrictions.
i will be making smoothies at home, and keeping the other drinks as special treats. my home made coffee is much healthier than what i buy going out, and i like that those fancy drinks are more rare and full of sugar, syrup and various seasonal flavors. maybe making them a conditional treat could work. only get coffee when seeing my friend, only get the tea after a rainy day or good interview

No. 697481

>>697475
You bring up so much stuff nobody even meantioned in this thread

nobody called you a legbeard crazy cat lady, nobody asked you about being a mother

No. 697482

>>697479
It's obviously 100% you you dumb sperg kek, even down to the same insults. Take your meds.

No. 697483

>>697482
I don’t even know what you’re talking about, if you where a mod you’d be able to check my ip but you aren’t, you’re a fucking retard drawing false parallels to make yourself feel smart. Why is it me because we both used the word cunt? Wow you are like ducking serlock homes innit. I’ve come here and sperged before but I wouldn’t never be insecure enough to post my own texts for the approval of a bunch of spineless femcels and larping males.(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)

No. 697484

>>697483
Ok boring-chan whatever you say

No. 697485

>>697483
>I have multiple men chasing me, messaging me everyday, sending me gifts and money, because I am desirable. That doesn’t make me superior to other women
>Calls women femcels

What?

No. 697486

>>697484
Kill yourself

No. 697487

>>697484
>>697485
Kill yourself you spineless ugly bitch

No. 697488

>>697484
Link me to what you’re talking about then since I’m actually curious

No. 697489

>>697487
Oh I'm not a scrote anymore?

No. 697490

>>697489
Maybe it’s YOU who is boring Chan since that’s what you are: one note and fucking boring and dry in your responses

No. 697491

>>697490
I'm not even the anon calling your boring chan, you're talking with multiple people

No. 697492

>>697487
Damn I thought you were trying to uplift your fellow sisters. Guess you have the same temperament as a man, though.

No. 697493

>>697434
Anon why would you post this, this is so embarrassing. Straight up mental illness.

No. 697494

>>697491
Lol yes I KNOW you fucking retard god damn

No. 697495

>>697494
You ooze scrote energy sis

No. 697506

>>697485
It's a scrote larping and baiting, anon. Ignore.

No. 697521

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My soft, new pillow that I just bought too long ago now feels like I'm sleeping on a bag of golf balls. WHY. It hurts my head. I haven't washed it yet or anything. Fuck

No. 697522


No. 697523

>>697521
WHY does that happen? I hate it so much, I have a pillow that has a weird ass bump and that feels like I got a motherfucking balls of steel underneath.

No. 697529

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my one day off this week and my cat spent the whole night scratching the wall, knocking shit over and waking me up every fucking hour being a noisy retard. Middle of the night and I can't get back to sleep. End me anons

No. 697530

>>697522
Huh. Thanks. I didn't think that was a thing people actually have to do for some reason.

>>697523
I know. Fucking frustrating.

No. 697548

>>697431
Ntayrt but this is good advice, thank you.

No. 697552

I'm terrified of males. All males. My father is dead but if he was alive I'd be afraid of him too.

No. 697556

My underwear has been stained twice today by period blood

No. 697560

Everyday I miss deviantart more and more

No. 697620

I DON’T WANT TO GO BACK TO WORK
I WANT TO BE NEET WITH BETA PROVIDER BF AND NO SHAME
I CAN NOT REPRESS THESE FEELINGS MUCH LONGER

No. 697622

>>697560

do you mean 2000s-early 2010s deviantart culture? because the site itself is still here, albeit barely anyone uses it anymore

No. 697623

>>697560
I was genuinely shocked when I saw a college classmate still using it last year

No. 697633

>>697560
The site culture has basically turned into zoomer tumblr, sadly. There are still lots of creepy autists that draw like little kids if that gives you any nostalgia.

No. 697635

>>697622
It's barely usable now, you can't even search by categories anymore.

No. 697690

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Feels good to let go and realize that ultimately, not everything is your fault or within your control. Some people are just mentally ill autists who will lose their minds about you, forming conspiracy theories and shit, even if you (literally) do nothing. It's not worth caring about, there's nothing you could've done, and they plague themselves.
I didn't really internalize it until now. Deranged people can and should take themselves out of the picture, and the best thing you can do is not give them any personal information they can use against you.

No. 697694

onlyfans/internet sw is a fucking epidemic at this point and it makes me depressed. 90% of the cute girls i follow on instagram have an onlyfans at this point and i swear every day i see another one posting in their story about how they’re “thinking about it” and the next day they’re posting lewds with a link to their new OF. it’s just sad seeing these YOUNG, pretty, intelligent, talented young women falling for this faux empowering bullshit and making spreading their ass cheeks on twitter their entire identity. i try not to be a judgmental prude but i have to admit i do feel disappointed when i find out someone i admire has an OF. i hate to imagine the fallout in a decade or two when these women want to have actual normal lives and serious careers and there’s hundreds of pics of them with their face and visible tattoos in frame of them flashing their pussy with cat ears on. all for a few shekels from disgusting coomers. smh

No. 697706

I've said this before (to myself) but I think I'm going to give not caring a try

I was feeling bad about not having a relationship (forever alone), but I was driving so I said "hmm, I'll just stop feeling bad about it to focus on driving" and then I didn't feel bad
Like I had this headache that sorta starts whenever I'm feeling depressed, but then I just stopped feeling depressed
So I'll see how that long lasts, see if my life improves, see if this helps in any way

At the very least, it might help me focus on learning how to code (something I could be doing right now lol)

No. 697711

I'm having a panic attack and I am not sure how to deal with them. Recently till this month, I have been full blown affected by anxiety. Never in my life have I had to deal with this overwhelming feeling. Do any of you anxious anons have tips or advice? I am afraid of having to feel this continuously for the rest of my life.

No. 697712

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My brother's fiancee is so fucking entitled and spoiled. She's a sweet, intelligent person otherwise but Jesus Christ everything has to be exactly as she wants it. They're having their wedding in this bumfuck town that's at least a four hour drive (if not a plane flight) for everyone in both families because she just had to have this uwu fairytale castle for the wedding venue. She picked the grad school both she and my brother are going to, and it's a huge downgrade from where he's currently going. He hates horses, church, and skiing but pretends to like them for her. She also wants them to live near her parents in the redneck south, which means his family and friends will almost never see him again. It's fucking bullshit, he needs to learn to say no to her.

The last straw is some bullshit she's pulling right now. They're visiting her parents and she wants to kick him out of there two days before Christmas because she wants to be alone with her family for the holiday. Now he might have to fly to my parents' house at the peak of the pandemic, risking my immune-compromised step dad's safety. This fucking bitch my god.

No. 697714

>>697694
After what happened with PornHub I think the end of online sex work is in sight. If Visa and Mastercard can be pressured into cancelling PornHub for hosting underage content the same can be done for anywhere else. People in general seem to be sick of everything being sexualised and having sex pushed on their children.

No. 697716

>>697712
Men like women like that. Thats probably why hes marrying her.

No. 697718

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I'm sick of feeling stupid because I don't do anything and I don't know anything but I'm too depressed to rectify it. I should just woman up and neck myself already.

No. 697720

>>697716
They like it until they don't. It's fun and cute it the early years but it begins to wear them down and foster resentment over time.

No. 697722

I just went through the large amount of tumblr blogs I follow and only 5 of them have been sort of consistently active. The most active blogs I encounter are run by insane gender special zoomers. I can't win.

>>697622
Yeah, but it's like tumblr where people rarely post. It's just used as an archive to keep previous works. Which reminds me I should save my fave images from there. You never know when a site will go down forever.

No. 697725

>>697714
The difference is that PornHub hosted underaged rape victims, OnlyFans so far has featured willing, +18 women being "independent" (Correct me if I'm wrong, please)
I see an end to online sex work but in like 5, 10 years, when the future consequences will be displayed, as the girls that started now are, sadly, messed up mentally, emotionally and career-wise

No. 697729

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>>696859
thanks anon, not gonna take it anymore.

No. 697730

>>697718
please, take a banana and reconsider

No. 697731

i am shit. i was abused and abandoned in my teen years and it fucked me over completely and now i'm lost and useless. my brain is fried, my potential gone down the toilet(and i hate people who whine about this particular issue about themselves - i hate myself for thinking that). i have no sense of self, no maturity, no drive or motivation. my life is better now because i turned every last bit of attention that i had to save my skin, but now that i have it easier i can fathom the extent and depth and irreversibility of the damage. there's this ugly gaping hole. no i have more energy to be curious and to dedicate myself to something worthwhile but i'm not young anymore and not a student anymore, those years i wasted because i was in so much pain that i couldn't focus. i couldn't seize this huge opportunity that was presented to me and spoiled my youth. my body is rotting and i am descending into the worst type of self indulgent, mind-eroding mediocrity. i feel like even if i had more i couldn't do it.
i can only hope to accept my failure and focus on the things left in my reach while praying this kind of suffering doesn't find me again.

No. 697759

>>697694
I hope it’ll pass soon…but I know even if these bitches wake up from it, they’ll still make excuses for the generation of men who groomed and enabled this shit and will only blamed other tumblr ig hoes for ~literally forcing~ them to be e-prostitutes.

No. 697762

what is mentally wrong with those girls who are obsessed with another girls boyfriend. My fiance told her they can no longer be friends because of her behavior and she followed it up by calling him that she was in the hospital. when he hung up, she got her MOM to call him and her mom was fake crying how her poor daughter needs her "best friends support", when shes only known him for 2 months?? I messaged her myself saying im very uncomfortable with her behavior, she apologized only to call him on a different number, begging him to wish her a happy birthday. Im about to fight i swear to god.

No. 697765

>>697762
In your particular case, bpd

No. 697787

I take my dog to this big park on the weekends. The people there are either
>Couples in their 20s-30s
>Groups of couples in their 20s-30s
>Old men who have greyhounds or german shepherds
>A group of six women in their late 20s

And rarely

>A dad and their child

>A single man in his 30s
>A single woman (all ages)

I try to look open and friendly and sometimes chat about our dogs with strangers there. But it still hurts me to see people not much older than me there with their SO. I would love to have someone who would go on a cold winter morning to the dog park. I have never met a man who would ever consider doing something like that.

I know I don't need someone to be happy. I'm doing things and being active regardless of my relationship status. But it makes me feel so depressed. I try to think that those men at the park probably watch porn, dont wash their ass, or other gross things to make myself feel better.

Even if a man like this was single, he'd be snatched up in no time by a perfect Stacy fml

No. 697792

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>>697787
i'm content with my life but also really curious what true love feels like. never felt it. only dated losers. i feel a wave of petty and irrational anger when i see happy couples. i especially can't stand seeing some messy girl who's loud about her mental issues having a loving and supportive bf or gf at her side. how dare they express their problems and still have someone that cares about them so much?

No. 697799

I hate the scrotes who turn up music really loud at my job. I work in another room, but can hear the basslines and beats. It gives me such a headache every day. When I turned it down today a scrote went immediately to turn it up again and I plead to keep it lower because I was about to throw up from how bad my headache was, and I was shaking from the pain. He proceeded to yell at me about how everyone wants it loud and that there is no way i can hear anything where i work and some other shit I tuned out on. I was so mad I ended up having to cry in the bathroom several times because I hate them so much. Later I got this half assed "apology" claiming stress as an excuse. As if I accept.

No. 697800

The weed I bought is not as good as the weed I had just finished. And now the Internet isn't as exciting as I want. I just want to be high and have fun. Anyone else feel low after hanging out with friends the weed hit better with them too lol

No. 697802

this isn't a vent but i just wanted to verbalise how even though i think my bf is very funny and he makes me laugh, there is one part of his humour that's completely different than mine and that's memes. he doesn't really know most memes or popular meme videos, shitposts, stuff like that at all. he's just not into and he told me that he completely distanced himself from meme culture years ago. i don't have a problem with it but sometimes i'll send him something and he just won't get it or i'll send him a joke in a meme format and i know he doesn't think anything of it or find it funny lmao. i do think in the long run it's better this way though since most men with internet humour (aka ruined humour) are scrotes, and i kinda wish my humour wasn't like this myself

No. 697806

I'm just here to scream about the same problem I've had for like 8 months now…AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

No. 697808

>>697802
Tbh there's nothing wrong with liking that type of humor.

No. 697809

>>697802
Not the same but with friends like that i always end up feeling so let down and even dumb even though you'd think that would go the other way around. It's no issue irl but now with only messaging everyone it really showed me who is just so out of it.

No. 697811

>>697792
Without fail everytime I go online and see people venting about their mental health they have to slip in "my boyfriend/girlfriend is soo supportive and loves me unconditionally, but I have social anxiety teehee"

No. 697813

I went full Karen today, not sure if I should feel bad or not

No. 697814

>>697811
lol it's infuriating as someone whose mental health has prevented them from dating at all. deep down i always hope it's just them coping.

No. 697820

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>tfw when your friend makes her social cover photo the group shot where you have a double chin for five miles and everyone else looks nice

No. 697824

im so scared of ever falling in love because im unloveable and i feel like if it happened once it would never happen again. but after it happens once i wouldnt be able to get over it and id know all the things im missing out on which would make it even more painful

No. 697827

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I’m so fucking nervous, my dog got sick yesterday, I went to the veterinarian and got to treat him on time. Now I have to give him two injections on my own and I’m freaking out, I hope I don’t mess up, i’m dying, I wish I could just die right now, this is the first time I’ve ever grabbed a syringe to inject a living being with juices and stuff.

No. 697840

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Once upon a time ago, I was at summer camp and I met this cool emo kid that I really got along with. This on valley girl made this racist joke towards me and he totally stood up for me. I never forgot that and added him as a friend on facebook.

Tonight he started sperging about how women also have privilege and when I tried to tell him I agreed that troons aren't real women, he started to sperg even more and call me braindead, etc and about how feminism was the reason trannies were pushing multiple genders.

I tried to tell him I agreed with him, we got into an argument and he blocked me. Is it wrong to say I'm kinda sad this happened? I used to think it was so fucking cool that his little emo twink looking ass had my back and then now he's being a complete retard and couldn't even handle a constructive discussion, he immediately went on to block me. fucking faggot.

No. 697843

>>697840
samefag, to clarify, I tried to say that I agreed that troons weren't real women. But I also wanted to explain to him that straight male privilege DOES exist and that he should do more research. I explained I'd probably be called a TERF for my logic but that feminism literally has nothing to do with TRAs unless it's lib feminism. But of course he couldn't handle it. As soon as I posted my reply, he immediately responded, that's how I know he didn't read anything I said.

No. 697846

My country drugs were really pushed out by communities for decades and then the past few years a lot of foreign drug gangs have been operating and drugs like cocaine and even heroin have become so much more common. Saw an article about another violent attack and people commenting what's happening to here and the drinking culture was never that bad etc. It's coke!! It's a shit drug and increases aggression. People are absolute cunts coming off it and on it. You never hear about gangs of fucking pot heads roaming about stabbing people. Melts.

No. 697847

>>697840
Gonna be painful, but he's being a retarded fuck about it. Let him get it out of his system. He sounds like he's one foot in the horsepiss potion bottle anyway.

No. 697858

>>697840
That's exactly what you get for aligning with someone like that in the first place. You're mad an antisocial dude barked back at you? Doesn't sound all that surprising to me. It's hilarious that you agreed with him up until it personally affected you.

No. 697865

>>697858
First of all, calm down, this is /vent/. There's no need to act like an ass and point fingers at me while I vent. Secondly, I'm not mad that he "barked back" (I explicitly said I'm sad that we aren't friends anymore) I'm only mad that he blocked me instead of having a rational conversation.

>we got into an argument and he blocked me. Is it wrong to say I'm kinda sad this happened?

>he's being a complete retard and couldn't even handle a constructive discussion, he immediately went on to block me.

Third, He WAS emo back at summer camp a LONG TIME AGO (did you read the part where I said that??).

Damn, if you're going to be an absolute bitch why don't you fix your reading glasses?

No. 697868

>>697865
>argument
So you guys had a dialogue or you didn't? Because what I got from your post is that you two bickered and then he blocked you because he didn't want to hear it anymore. What would you have preferred? That he didn't block you and continued to post bad shit within your point of vision? Let bygones be bygones? Clearly he's an MRA freak, so this was really a blessing in disguise. I get that you're sad this pristine image of him is gone, but you didn't see it coming at all? Of course you can be sad, but I just think it's silly since you were able to cosign him up until what he said no longer supported your message, despite them both being in the same vein as each other. Feel better though.

No. 697893

My bf is a sweetheart but is a Mr. Magoo when it comes to driving and it makes me so angry. I like my own car and I prefer to drive when I can, but sometimes I just like being driven by my bf yet it always proves to be a giant mistake because he's so fucking bad at it. I'm damned if I say shit and dawned when I don't.

>on way to friend's house

>multiple times he messes around with his phone to needlessly adjust his music which drives me fucking nuts
>he puts down the phone finally
>turns and is driving on a narrow road
>some car is parked so it's halfway across the white line jutting out
>think bf is going to move over since no one is coming in the opposite direction
>he doesn't, even though he sees that fucking car
>I squeal thinking he's about to sideswipe this fucking car
>literally inches away from it
>pretty sure if the vehicle was more lifted he would have taken out the mirrors at least
>he gets mad at me for squealing and says I "overreacted"
>says my "spatial awareness" is off
>didn't continue bc I wanted to be in a good mood for my friends

>leaving friend's house

>on highway at night
>he's driving too slow even for the slow lane so a car behind us is on his ass
>all he thinks about is getting away from the car behind him cause he's nervous instead of doing anything else, say, like speeding up?
>he signals to get one more lane over
>"Babe there's a car next to us."
>jeep slightly out of view to our behind-side, but bf could have seen it had he looked at his mirrors before changing lane
>try not to """"overreact"""" by squealing again
>he doesn't listen and burrows into the lane
>brace for impact
>the car next to us pumps the brakes, evades our car, and lays on their horn
>bf is fucking oblivious until he sees the rightfully angered car go around and speed past us
>"Oh I almost got us into an accident…"
>mood is killed
And yeah if that person had some beater piece of shit they probably would have let bf crash into them for a sweet insurance payout but it was a new jeep, so no.
I'm sure he felt like a fucking clown for telling me I overreacted earlier when he wound up doing some dumb shit like that. Fuck it, I'm gonna yell at him from now on whenever he drives. The consequences are too high when I'm a passenger in his car.

No. 697896

Metallica fans are the most cringey bramd of gatekeepers. Metallica is one of the single most famous bands of all time. Definitely the most famous mental band. You are not fucking special for liking them.

No. 697905

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I gotta crush on one of my Twitter mutuals but they’re 7 yrs older than me and are a ftm dating another ftm I’m also mutrals with that talks abt how gay they are all the time,how did I get myself into this

No. 697907

>>697905
Mute their accounts. Unrequited love feels like hell but the expression "out of sight, out of mind" is legit. This is gonna take some time so good luck on being patient. You've got this!

No. 697913

Men like my apperance more now at 29 but they like the shy bashful personality I had at 18 more. They like me at first when I'm shy and say nothing about myself but then as soon as I get comfortable it's a turn off. One time a guy told me a curse too much and act like a man.

No. 697937

I'm beyond fed up with being insecure. How do I stop this?

No. 697941

>>697913
Sucks, but you don't want to be dating someone like that anyway.

No. 697955

Why must my social anxiety now extend into the online world? My only outlet for communication when I was young was online but now as an adult my heart races so much at the thought of interacting with others online lol. Like I logged off a game I was playing yesterday because someone tried to interact with me and I didn't know what to say and then I almost cried over such a thing. I am beyond pathetic, my younger self would be quite ashamed and saddened by her lack of growth or more so that I happaned to regress.

No. 697960

i feel like i'll never be able to act like a normal human being. socializing is so hard and i always end up losing every female friend i have and men always end up having romantic intentions and i feel disgusted. i just want to behave like normal girls do with big girl friend groups and normal relationships and being able to laugh at normie ig memes and have average interests and hobbies. i used to think i either had autisim bc of not understanding normal social behavior or bpd for feeling so betrayed over second intentions but according to my psychiatrist it's only depression so i guess i'm chosing to be a social misfit doomed to a miserable life with no real connections to people bc i don't get people and people don't get me

No. 697974

I'm a fucking idiot, I hate myself, I'm a piece of manipulative shit, I want to die, I can't fucking believe how much I fucking despise myself, kill me.

No. 697990

I hate how my mom keeps making me feel bad about my weight. I usually throw out the number I weigh with out a care since I'm not an ana-chan but I am actively trying to lose weight. But every time I say my weight she always over does it and says "Noo you look perfectly fine, you looks good, it doesn't matter how much you weigh you'll always look slim since you're tall." in a voice that lacks sincerity. I'm 175cm and 81kg I have a lot of weight to lose and being around her is making it worse since she only wants me to lose weight using the same pills she's using even though I'm ACTIVELY trying to lose it in a healthy way by changing my diet and exercising.

I just how people know that I have a low self-esteem but I hate how they automatically assume it's because of my looks, I don't really care about my looks it stems from feeling inadequate in my skills not my face/body. I'm losing weight because I want to and don't want to die a slow and painful death like my granddad that had shit health for most of his life.

No. 698018

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I want a 1920s slick bob flapper hair cut so bad. But I have wavy thick hair. And I'm really too lazy/depressed to style it everyday. Fug…

No. 698024

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I let my mom emotionally and financially control me my entire life and now I'm 25 still living completely isolated in her uninsulated garage.
She did everything in her power to completely isolate me and hide me from the world, home school, no college, wasn't allowed to have friends or family, refused to teach me to drive, she told me the only way I was special was that everyone in the world wanted to kill me. She constantly told me growing up I was going to be murdered.
She let my stepdad scream and cuss at me every single day and tell me how stupid and filthy I was.
She always screamed and cussed at me and told me how ignorant and helpless I am. And how I was going to be murdered.
I started working at 16 and almost all of my money went to her. She never let me get my own bank account, she made mine when I was 12 when I got paper routes, and kept it, she still has it.
I am so fucked up.
I fucked up so bad.
I can't sleep until it's light outside and I just want to kill myself.
I have a chronic illness that started getting worse when I would have graduated high school, and she made me keep working even after my doctor told me I had a brain tumor.
I finally started googling if there was any way I could get out of here and found out there are.
I've applied for disability and housing and medicaid and food stamps and my own bank account.
I still want to kill myself for how fucking stupid I was for so long, and for getting sick and getting sicker, and for wasting my life.
But now, honestly, now that I know I actually could have escaped years ago, I'm going to and I'm going to live as long as I can out sheer fucking spite.
If I could become a monster, I would.

No. 698033

>>698024
don't do it out of spite, do it for yourself

No. 698036

>>698033
Spite is a huge positive motivator! People who do things out of spite have an unusually high rate of success. Spite as an emotion has evolved for a good reason. Let it do it's thing. Let it fuel her.

No. 698037

>>698033
that seems like the correct advice but I fucking hate myself and no one loves me and I don't even like anything
>>698036
>People who do things out of spite have an unusually high rate of success
wow that is
surprisingly good fortune

No. 698048

I'm choosing not to have kids because of my OCD. I wouldn't want to pass on this shitty disorder to them. My boyfriend doesn't mind but I worry that if we break up, my next boyfriend is going to try to pressure me into having children because he wants them. I don't mind fostering to adopt but no biological children whatsoever.

No. 698066

I kind of hate being around my friends family. The sisters always ignore me or act passive aggressive even if I mind my own business in a chair away from them. The new girl who married in acts like a snob that looks down on everyone. Only one who talks to me really is the mom. Guess because I didn't marry in I'm not worth anything. It also just hits home I'm on my own without much of a family.

No. 698071

>>698048
Just be clear in the start of any relationship (not first date or whatever unless it comes up kek) that you don’t want bio children, and that should take care of it. Plenty of men don’t want kids, at least ime, so it shouldn’t be that hard.

No. 698080

i just want my hair to be long already but i'm stuck with cutting off damaged hair for at most the next 6 months. its chin length at the moment and i won't see upper boob length hair at least for the next year or two. fucking kill me

No. 698082

>>698080
i feel you. i recently had to cut off most of my hair since it was damaged and i honestly want to cry whenever i look at it. wigs help a lot with the waiting process though if you're willing to spend the money for a good quality one

No. 698088

I fucking hate it when people drink in my house, this bitch knows I grew up in this same fucking house, abused by an alcoholic for ages till he fucking died here and now she has the guts to "sneakily" drink as if my trauma-turbo-hearing can't instantly wake up when i hear a booze bottle open up. Jesus fucking christ, the stammering and uwu this is just sparkling water. I calmly told her that if you have to drink,do that in your own fucking house, how the fuck do you think i wouldn't notice? Fucking disrespectful, I wanna punch this woman but I won't.

No. 698149

I basically hate myself and most things lately. COVID depression is hitting hard I guess. I'm going to college, got straight A's, got an internship but I still feel like I'm doing nothing with my life.
On the bright side, I have gotten used to being a hermit and staying home all day. I don't feel the need to socialize anymore but maybe it's because of the parasocial relationship I have formed with my favorite streamers.
I'm trying to motivate myself to at least be more active and force myself to do yoga every day but I basically just sleep all day now that school's out.
Basically, depression is a bitch

No. 698152

>>698080
I feel your pain for a slightly different reason. It was summer, it was hot, one manic episode later I chopped off 12 inches. I miss my hair so much now. It wasn't even damaged, I'm just stupid.
I did donate it though so that helped a little

No. 698172

>>698088
Yea no i just found vodka and poured that shit down the drain, fuck this shit lmao i am gonna spend the xmas alone, i dont need this kind of disrespect

No. 698174

I use this website that I used to frequent as a child and the bitches from this club I was in are such cunts. Someone asked if you'd date a man shorter than me, and then these bitches have the nerve to say if you're superficial enough to not date someone based on height then that's pathetic. I'm below the average height for women (below 5'4) so of course I wouldn't date a guy shorter than me.
Then these hoes start talking about how they love chubby guys…like LMFAOOOO oh FUCK no. I work out, am very fit, and I damn well expect my man to look good and be taller than me. Tbh even overweight women have more to offer than overweight men imo because we have more boobs/ass when at a higher weight, men just have bigger bellies, uglier faces, and smaller penises. God forbid I have standards right? Well according to these pickmes with internalized misogyny and terrible standards, yes.

No. 698186

This is dumb as hell but whatev
Last night I picked two flowers, put one in my hair & one in my bf's like I always do. We went to pick something up from the place he works at (he's a manager at a dinky pizza place ran by teenagers that are like 10 years his junior mind you, this ain't some formal office setting or whatever) & his flower fell out of his hair before we went in. I grabbed it & reached over to fix it for him, but he was like "I'll wait until after we leave,"
I was like "why, are you embarassed by the flower in your hair?"
He got kinda weird & claimed he wasn't but then shut the topic down quick like he does any even slightly confrontational thing.
So this morning I saw the flower & remarked in a joking way about how he acted about the situation last night & he shut it down again. Curious, I asked him why it was embarassing to him & he got weirdly defensive & accused me of making a big deal out of it?
Idk I know this is dumb as hell but it's really lame to me that he could be embarassed by a flower in his hair. & To who even, the gang of children he works amongst? Like GTFO of here with that fragile ass ego. He's showing his true colors a lot lately & in my opinion they're 50 shades of boring

No. 698197

Why the fuck am I so indecisive? I spend literal hours looking at shit online instead of picking anything out and it’s been days of doing this

No. 698212

I'm SEETHING but it's only over a hypothetical.

So I wanted to take christmas eve off, and now I'm the backup person to come in if someone in the barebones crew is sick.
This would be alright, but what pisses me off is that my coworker, who told me he DGAF about christmas, and I said christmas eve is super important to me and I hope I get it off (xmas is basically on the 24th in my country) is also taking it off. And because he's at least told us he's going to some resort with his family because he's eager to get covid I guess, that he can't be backup apparently.

When I asked him why is he taking those christmas days off, he said he figured he could, so he'd take the opportunity. Like fuck you, cunt. You don't even care that it's christmas eve!

I mean I don't even know if i'll be coming in, but one staff member who is supposed to has been taking days off here and there recently for studying or some shit.

I thought that by being upfront about what's important to me and communicating (because I've been bitter about actions then realised that they didn't even know it would offend me kek) that I'd get on better. I pull my weight and am a good, supportive team member.

If I need to work this christmas eve, I will hate both coworkers that caused me to come in and I do not know if I will EVER not be bitter about it.

But again, it hasn't happened yet and I'm jsut seething that the possibility is there.

Also, this cunt coworker leaves early every day claiming there's no more work to do, I'll give him or show him work that needs to be done and he walks the fuck away.

No. 698214

>>698186
Honestly tho, imagine being made fun off by your teenager boss because something dumb as a flower, it would probably be extremely degrading and he wouldn't be able to do anything about it.

No. 698217

>>698212
i hope he takes the day off

No. 698233

>>698217
anon why would you speak something so heinous into existence like that

No. 698245

It is so frustrating watching black artists get dog piled for liking geeky shit. There's a problem when we create art for ourselves, there's a problem when we don't. If we all aren't DaVinci then all of our art is just woke garbage. Most of the stuff in the artist salt threads are race baiting, I get that, but it's still interesting how so many anons come here to poke at black artists just exploring their own blackness. Literally living in other heads rent free.

No. 698250

>>698214
But anon he is the main manager, all the teenagers are just crew! They have no leverage above him in that regard
Like I said, I know my issue is dumb ass hell but it's just another reference on his resume of lameness that I'm unfortunately developing in my head

No. 698255

The guy (now a mtf troon lol) that groomed me when I was underage just followed me on Instagram and I'm so angry at myself for never beating his ass for doing what he did to me and him for thinking he has any right to still get in touch with me.

No. 698259

>>698212
if he has a family i'm sure it's his kids that care about seeing him on christmas eve.
anyway tell them that actually you're going someplace unreachable and you can't be the backup.

No. 698262

>>698255
Dm him the word ew then block him

No. 698277

im so tired of it all. i feel so fucking alone, i am so fucking alone.

No. 698280

I was in town earlier and saw all these couples eating together in restaurants and got so sad. This is my first Christmas single in a decade and it probably wouldn't feel so shit if it wasn't a pandemic. Due to covid restrictions we can't socialise properly and my friends are all coupled up and it's Christmas so people are busy with families etc so no one really wants to come spend time with their single friend right now. I really want to reach out to my ex boyfriend just to kill the boredom even though I hate him. I've been so bored this year.

No. 698304

>>698259
Nah we're all young, he cared more about new years because all he does in his free time is get shitfaced and party, but now the lockdown is so strict he can't do that for new years as he was planning.

I wish I could just lie and say actually I'm feeling not well if they do call, but lying gives me this horrible guilty conscience until I come clean, so I won't.

Just pisses me off that he said verbatim "I don't care about being off for christmas", but he decided to take those days when it's important not only for me, but likely someone else who IS working also wanted it off, we just requiested it first.

No. 698310

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USPS is making me a full blown capitalist right now. I have so many gifts that are just being held indefinitely or just straight up lost in the crumbling federal infrastructure that is the United States Postal Service. I'm not super broke but my income isnt disposable either so I'm super upset it feels like I could be losing around $220 worth of stuff. Theyre so fucking understaffed and underfunded even before the pandemic but now its reached a state of complete disrepair. It feels so hopeless I dont even bother to reach out to them since all the news articles lately are just about the thousands of pending xmas packages held up in random facilities.
>inb4 why don't you just stop using USPS
I always request Fedex or UPS and ask for them to charge me extra for the additional shipping but sometimes the business just can't. I just want to move to a functioning country where we arent leading in pandemic deaths and failing at literally everything. Absolute embarrassment.

No. 698311

Many countries in the EU are closing their airports for flights from/to the UK. Now I'll have to call my airline tomorrow to reschedule my flight to one that doesn't go through LHR. This is the 5th time I'm rescheduling parts of this journey and it's just so tiring.
(I understand why and I honestly don't want to be hit by Covid-19 2.0 either, but it's just such an annoyance.)

No. 698316

sorry for gc sperging, but why can't sexual orientation just be defined by what sex you're attracted to

>liking people of both sexes is straight/gay if you only like fem/masc people

>liking both fem and masc people of only one sex is bi
>according to some TRAs everyone is either pansexual or asexual since nobody can accurately tell anyone's gender at a first glance
>bisexuality = "attraction to two or more genders"
>or bisexuality = "attraction to similar and different genders"
>pansexual" vs "omnisexual" ("attraction regardless of gender" vs "attraction to all genders", like there is a difference)
>lesbian = "non-man attracted to non-men"
>"i'm enby so any attraction i have is gay xD"
>"str8 men r ghey 4 being attracted to me, a gnc afab transmasc enby"
>the whole sexual/romantic/platonic/sensual/whatever attraction mess
>the idea of an "asexual spectrum"
>back in the day (and even now in certain communities?) only bottoming was considered gay, topping was not
>"sexuality is so complicated!!!"

it really isn't. you like males, or females, or both, or neither. i guess there could be exceptions for like paraphiliacs who are more into their fetish than into other people but otherwise…

No. 698330

>>698316
>"sexuality is so complicated!!!"
It really wasn't until these spergs came along tbh. They completely fucked it up for everyone.

No. 698331

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>>698277
i feel you anon. i hope it gets better for both of us

No. 698335

>>698330

tbf the "topping is not gay", as wel as the "traps are not gay" mentalities predate modern TRAs, it's just that bi men for some reason don't like admitting they're bi

No. 698336

My father had to return some money that he owed me so he went to deposit $200 on my bank account. The bank teller by accident deposited $2000 instead, the bank statement also stated $2000. I could really use some extra money so naturally I was happy and there was no way that they could legally force me but my father talked me into doing the "good" deed and I hate him for it. I know if there was a fuckup on my side that the bank wouldn't give a shit.

No. 698337

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im so lonely and touch starved. so fucking lonely

No. 698341

>>698335
But weren't those jokes though? Especially the trap one.

No. 698344

>>698341
Romans (or Greeks? one of them) used to have that mentality in the olden times. Even eating box was considered gayer than fucking another man.

No. 698347

>>698310
If it makes you feel any better, all my packages with UPS and FedEx have been delayed just as long lately, so you might’ve ended up in the same predicament even after paying more for shipping. The only thing that’s been shipping consistently on time has been DHL which is pretty shocking because that’s not generally my experience with them.

No. 698349

I fucking hate my drumstick thighs, I want to cut the fat off with a knife and sew in the skin. God they're unsightly, why are they so goddamn huge? hgmmmmmmmpfhghghhhhhhhh

No. 698350

>>698186
I think it's weird that you care about it that much? Like do you really need your boyfriend to walk into his workplace with a flower in his hair in order to feed your ego because you put it there? Idk it's kinda ridiculous

No. 698362

>>698350
Yeah like I said it's dumb as hell but I don't like being with someone who's so easily embarassed. It's not my type, so sue me. & The issue I felt was mainly rooted in how powerfully defensive he got about the situation when I brought it up jokingly, which otherwise would've just been a silly hang up between us.

No. 698366

so sick of straight girls saying they’re gay for other women then only dating men. not even one gf

No. 698367

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No. 698368

speaking of straight girls, 99% of w4w tinder in my area is straight girls looking for friends. i'm probably the only one who actually wants to eat some coochie on there

No. 698369

>>698186
I mean you feel how you feel anon, but in his position I’d do the same. Not because I couldn’t handle the teasing but it’s just shit I wouldn’t want to deal with if there was an option not to.

Is there other stuff going on that is putting you off him? I read that people get annoyed at their partner’s eating and breathing sounds more when the relationship goes sour. When you start to dislike someone, the pettiest shit gets irritating.

No. 698371

>>698366
You sound like an incel

No. 698378

>>698369
Yeah you're right on to something there, we have been having issues revolving around me wanting him to grow more of a backbone.
Its like every scenario that makes an example of his lack of confidence is magnified, & being embarassed over having a flower in his hair just seems overly self conscious to me. I'm probably going to have to end it when the lease is up because we simply aren't match

No. 698384

>>698366
Imagine being fake gay for attention. Or worse, imagine not knowing how to bond with other women without pretending to engage romantically/sexually ie replicating how they engage with men.

No. 698385

str8 girl here. i've done this before

No. 698387

>>698385
Me too, I really haven’t seen any particular online groups on chat apps and the sorts for straight women that are not plagued by scrotes and even more trannies than lesbian/bi groups are.
I actually told everyone that I just wanted friends and that I’m straight the moment I joined and they accepted me, so I love them all

No. 698390

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Why the hell am I so bad at drinking water?!
I've been dehydrated all my life because for some reason I barely ever get thirsty. I have to actively set alarms and force myself if I want to drink more than two glasses a day, and even then getting it down is unpleasant when I'm not thirsty. Even though it feels like the comfortable amount to drink I can tell that my body is really dehydrated more often than not, so I know I have to up my fluid intake. Just feels stupid that it's so hard. I don't like drinking soda or juice too much either so besides it being unhealthy switching to those wouldn't help anyway.

No. 698392

>>698387
Well you being upfront is respectable. Can’t say the same for the rest of the straights infesting.

No. 698393

>>698390
Just sip constantly Shayna and lay off the salt

No. 698398

So sick of people in my country constantly going about in pity for themselves for living here. They will find any excuse to shit on the country and act like they would live literally anywhere else. Yeah there's some shitty things about the shittiest thing of all is the PEOPLE and the mindset they have. And I say this as someone who has only lived here for half a decade. Why can't you stupid fucks learn to live peacefully without that "grass is greener" mentality? You're plagued with it

No. 698400

>>698378
I don't see how not wanting a flower in your hair when entering your workplace is in any way being overly self-conscious and I doubt being made fun of by your workers is in any way gonna inspire confidence, besides wouldn't him not putting up with your flower stuff be having grown a backbone and confidence?

No. 698401

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I'm 26 and I am just now starting to understand the meme off feeling bad seeing your ex friends or acquaintances getting engaged or married. I am not even jealous of their relationships, don't want kids but the fact that I only have 2 relatives kinda makes me dread? I am in no condition to seek for a girlfriend, not mentally nor physically so it must boil down to being just jealous of these people "having it better than me). Which isn't even a big win in itself, I am in pretty shit condition as of right now, but will be better in a few years time but anons, this shit stung so bad today. I have no idea why but seeing a former friend being so fucking adult and dressed up, getting married and shit just bummed me the fuck out. I now understand the memes even though I kinda think marriage is a joke and just a moneypit and most people will end up divorcing, especially when getting married in their early twenties but still. Goddamit I feel like shit for feeling like shit, I just wanna be able to think I can do that too even if I really didn't, it's all very confusing and too much.

No. 698407

>>698401
Anon be jealous of them for having better jobs better skin and better support system. Getting socioeconomically contracted to a scrote is the easiest, least glamorous, least indicative-of-maturity thing ever.

No. 698409

>>698407
To my defense, I've been in recovery for two years after a shitty malpractise of someone else, lost my job, dropped out and on top of it all lost multiple family members in a short span of time. This just feels like the last blow, like I don't care but at the same time I am just screaming inside my head, fuck their ugly men though. One had a nice pretty wife though, that I could straight almost be strictly jelly of ngl.

No. 698410

>>698362
Do you work anon? He's a manager of teenagers. They're probably annoying af and would probably rip the absolute piss out of him if you and him both came in wearibg matching flowers in your hair lol. Grow up.

No. 698416

>>698401
Well why stop with the comparisons there? Why not be jealous of people who are doing even better than your acquaintances? Sorry that you’re in a shit situation right now but comparison is only going to make you feel bad. Better to try to move on from these feelings.

No. 698421

>>698416
Yea bitch i am trying, that's why i am venting here, damn.

No. 698429

>talking to family, confirming christmas plans
>every year we get together and it's a very small affair, this year was supposed to be no different
>uncle just NOW tells family (five days before christmas) that he’s bringing his girlfriend of literally two weeks and we have to be on our best behavior because he wants to impress her (he’s like two decades older than her, it’s gross)
>girl might have covid and she’s a fucking cokehead on top of that
>express rational concern over the fact that this girl could be exposing my elderly grandparents and immunocompromised mother to covid if she comes
>get screamed at by uncle who says i’m being a bitter bitch who wants to ruin christmas???
>rest of family (minus grandfather who agrees with me about the risk an infectious, drug addicted stranger poses) joins in and starts attacking me for “not being welcoming” and making my uncle feel bad
>grandmother tells me maybe i shouldn’t come if i’m just going to “ruin their christmas” with my “attitude”
>fucking fine, then - christmas on my own it is
my family does whatever they can to pander to my creepy groomer uncle and i fucking hate it.

No. 698461

>>698421
Don't worry anon, there's just some salty bored bitches in this thread that wanna nitpick everyone's post like this isn't vent

No. 698462

>>698429
this sounds horrifying. sorry your family is so shit. i can't help imagine them as fat useless flyover state retards

No. 698465

>>698461
There's been a few (?) Anons going around these threads like that, just annoys me when we are all literally venting, i am not whining about this irl so lemme just SCREAM here

No. 698469

>>698465
Yeah it really kills the vibe of the board. Like go to snow if you wanna nitpick and speculate shit you know nothing about
>Inb4 salty bored anons defend their right to their opinions and criticisms

No. 698472

>>698469
Yea, I mean I am def guilty of replying to anons but only in some uplifting way if the vent seems kinda depression funky and makes no sense yano?

No. 698475

>>698472
I think uplifting or informative responses are pretty awesome but anons that are insulting for no reason or speculate about shit they know nothing about are annoying as hell & shit up the threads

No. 698489

>>698475
Agreed, queen

No. 698497

>>698310
I’ve been selling stuff online and it’s been so slow. It took a whole month for someone to get a skirt and the tracking wasn’t updating. You’ll still probably get your stuff but it’s taking so long. Everything I’m shipping now and the past month or so is taking forever and barely any updates along the way which sucks because I rely on that tiny bit of income and I’m desperate.

No. 698576

Fuck. I fucked up hard and waited to send immigration paperwork. If I send it in January it'll get there, I just needed it to get there soon. It's going to take for goddamned ever anyway. Maybe if I send it through FedEx. Maybe. Fucking poop.

No. 698611

so fucken annoyed of my parents bitching about "look through the mail when you open it to see if there's anything important" yet when i do and i tell them, they either don't give a shit and leave it with the other bills or bitch about "are you even sure that's what theyre saying. i'm going to take it to [brothers name] to look at it." then they come back and bitch at how i should learn how to read their mail because my brother is probably annoyed that we keep taking these shit for him to look over.

like bitch, i fucken told you what it fucken says and you think i'm so fucken stupid that you take it over for him to look over it. i'm not the one being all "GIVE IT TO [BROTHER] TO LOOK OVER"

No. 698612

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Literally what the fuck. I made a private group for me and my friends so I could escape seeing mentions of this bastard that I hate, but they keep bringing him up because they don’t know I dislike him and they’re still friends with him. Not even my hug box is safe from his grasp. I simply do not like him and am tired of seeing him being referenced. Maybe I should just drop a sad sob story and then leave the group chat. I don’t want to randomly tell them I hate his guts and in the end they pick him instead of me so, out of sight, out of mind.

No. 698614

>>698612
those friends sound like a handfull. Fuck em. Get away from them, they're probably not good friends or true friends either way lol

No. 698638

Thinkin about that cute girl who used to stare at me sometimes at uni. Recently was suggested her profile which informed me she might be gay and we have shit in common, but now there's no uni to possibly meet her at and I played myself by being antisocial when it was still open.

Unbelievable. I've sabotaged myself in so many ways these past few years that it's a full-time job.

No. 698641

>>698576
Shipping industry anon here assuming you're from the US. DO NOT SEND ANYTHING USPS RIGHT NOW. It will take a month or longer to get there or just get flat out lost, the USPS can't handle anything atm. FedEx or UPS will get an international document shipment to its location (with full tracking) within 2-4 days. It'll cost you about 100 bucks though.

No. 698643

Started a new job a little over 5 months ago, during my first week a male coworker held a knife to the back of my head as a "joke." My supervisor saw and laughed and when the coworker who held the knife to me told me what he did my supervisor backed up that it happened. I was too scared and also didn't know what to do at the time so i said nothing and was just scared to be around them. Fast forward 2 months and I called hr about the incident plus quite a few other things that my supervisor and the coworker had done and nothing ever happened, not even a slap on the wrist, literally nothing. So 2 months after that I decide to bring it up to my new manager(original manager took another job about a month and a half ago) he basically gets really mad at me asking why I would bring this up all the sudden. I tell him I'm uncomfortable at work especially around that coworker and I try as hard as I can to avoid him at all costs. My manager tells me "its not like he's brought a gun into the building it was just a pocket knife" and I tell him he has brought a gun there and he just tells me to quit bringing up the past. Nothing happened again, I really like my job but im seriously scared of the men I work with and knowing no one will believe me or back me up makes it seriously terrifying

No. 698647

This guy my mother barely went to school with for two years randomly tried to get in contact with her years back giving gifts to us and shit even though my mother tried to make it clear pretty quickly she didn't want contact.
Just the other day years after all this, my mom talked about an incident at school where he broke her glasses and how weird him getting in contact with her later in life was considering they weren't even friends and barely knew eachother.

It's 5.30 am and my phone rings and I don't pick it up because unknown number, fuck that and who the hell calls at this hour anyway? So I google the number and it's him what the actual fuck.

No. 698658

>>698641
It's just gotta go to a USCIS lockbox here in the states, but damn. The state of things is sounding insane right now.
Thank you, anon

No. 698661

>>698641

I gotta send a Christmas letter I procrastinated on, do I have any chance of it arriving in time paying a reasonable amount?

No. 698672

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Why'd I let myself open the celebricows thread and see Ellen Page's fucked up new fillered FtM jaw

No. 698706

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I feel like I failed my Chinese exam in uni fuck living like that

No. 698710

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I caught a rat in my house with a glue trap and I was already feeling bad because it's an awful way to die but then I closed it (cause it's shaped like a greeting card) and it left such a haunting shriek that I actually started shaking and my heart was racing with guilty and horror and I almost ended up crying
I know it's a pest but holy shit. Couldn't even sleep because of this horrible sensation.
I am so sorry, little rodent, so so so sorry
I swear I'll never use this shit ever again, even if tradicional mouse traps never worked very well at least when they do they are way more humane

No. 698732

>>698706
nvm it turned out fine, now I have another exam to lose my shit about

No. 698734

>>698710
Time to get a cat anon

No. 698738

The only reward after spending years studying something I did not give a shit about, stressing and having breakdowns over grades, never going out with friends or caring about myself because makeup and good clothes are "vain" and "I'm not that shallow", all because my parents could be proud of me and I could be a "good girl", is that now I have a stress related disorder they refuse to acknowledge, they drool all over my semi retarded delinquent brother, my father has told me to kill myself and I'm a disgusting failure.

No. 698742

>>698734
I actually have a cat, but she's kinda old and lazy
I found out we had rat(s?) because one day she brought one to my room, and then she let it escape on accident.
I 100% prefers when she catches it, she's a mean bitch that like torturing it before she kills it (that's why she let it escape, she was playing with it), but at least it's more natural. The glue is just awful.

No. 698743

>>698738
I’m proud of you, anon! Seems like you can’t please your parents so stop trying and take care of yourself.

No. 698746

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I'm finding it hard to connect with reality after seeing disturbing nightmare, I've been sitting still and feeling stuck with the situation of my life.

I saw person I knew from the past and strangers insulting me with "oh don't cry just die pussy" "leave us alone you idiot" "why can't you just die?" etc. and after I escaped those ppl I tried to phonecall emergency number, but all I heard was vintage asian pop. Then I was teleported into the marching army of vietnamese soldiers.

i have to wait about 5 months in jammed up queue before it's even possible to start searching for a psychotherapist so I just have to process this shit by myself. but that's fine.

No. 698758

I hate it when people call me secretary.
I'm not a secretary, I'm more of a low lvl bookkeeper and hr.
Everyone always thinks it's because of the rank/title but its actually because how perverted men act when they hear "secretary"

No. 698763

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I want to invest money but I don't know how to start, I'm too dumb for this

No. 698764

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>>698758(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)

No. 698773

I believed my grandpa molested me for years but now that he's dead I wish I could enjoy memories of him without thinking about that I'm at the point where I'm trying to convince myself I misremembered it or made it up or maybe it was someone else and I just got confused because I want to remember him and be happy and talk to people about him without feeling this way. I had a dream that we just sat and talked and I felt so guilty because I believed for years he did this to me but what if he didn't? It'd be such an ugly lie and I'm a sick person for ever imaging it happened lol I fucking hate myself, he's been dead for five years and I don't even want to talk to my grandma sometimes because it's just stuck in my head, sorry to crytype.

No. 698776

>>698764
>>698764
Pls explain

No. 698779

>>698773
I have a similar problem with my biological dad. He physically abused me for many years while telling tall tales to the courts about my mother being a violent alcoholic. Eventually, he ran off to another country when my mom moved closer to where we lived, and she got custody then.
But god, I feel so confused as to how to think about my dad. He sends me nice messages on facebook and shit, but how can I believe he's fine now after spending most of my childhood with a psychopathic butane huffer? Sometimes I think I'm too hard on him if I hate him, because he had a lot of psychological issues. The rest of my sisters also have a lot of mental problems ranging from anorexia and full-on shut-in social anxiety.
It's hard to know what to do after being abused. But hopefully one day you can talk it out with a good counsellor or therapist.

No. 698792

I'm bitter when I see people posting their (art) work as their own when I can clearly tell which tutorial/course they followed. Their work doesn't even differ from the final course project but they don't state that anywhere when sharing and pretend as if they did it out of their own head.
There were times where I was close to calling them out in a nice way, "oh, yeah, I followed that course too, nice job" but now I just ignore it. I wish I had the audacity to outright tell lies like that. I came to a realization long time ago that popularity really doesn't matter, the only thing that you need to know is how to promote yourself and push yourself even if that means being deceitful. There are tons of great artists that will never get recognized.

No. 698805

Lol I got blocked by a girl who tbf I hate because she's a massive bitch. She is the (5 year long) fiancé of my ex's best mate and she use to make my life hell because she's an insecure retard. Suffice to say she bitched about me and delighted in the fact my ex was cheating on me because that somehow means she has more value than me or however retards think. Either way her fiancé had been fucking girls since they began dating and even while she's been pregnant. I think the final straw for this bitch was after I gave her proof she's been cheated on numerous times. I mean her boyfriend has fucked up her house and hit her loads. Gets her kids to say they hate their mum and don't love her. And she's mad at me? I told her privately she was getting cheated on whereas she went around gossiping about me being cheated on but also making sure no one would tell me. I confided in her once when I got beaten by my ex and she delighted in telling as many people as she could. At least I don't have baggage you stupid cunt! You drank and smoked through both your pregnancies you're never going to be the better person bitch

No. 698821

Am I retarded? I got 100% on my homework but that's because I used the internet for help but since it's homework and the questions were hard and we had a whole week to do it it's ok if I used the internet right? I mean the professor probably wanted us to learn something new so he gave us questions we wouldn't normally know so it's ok if I looked it up? Why do I feel so guilty then???????

No. 698834

I know the postal system is crazy right now and it's not that I can't wait for my package to arrive but there's been no update in the tracking since December 8th. I just want a tracking update.

No. 698838

>>698805
Ew, good riddance. Sorry you went through all of that as well, anon.

No. 698839

>>698834
There probably just isn't one yet

No. 698842

>>698821
i think you're just being way too hard on yourself anon. there's nothing wrong with using the internet to help with your homework
>>698834
don't worry it'll get there, i've had some things i've ordered show up without the tracking updating at all

No. 698844

>>698821

Who doesn’t use the internet for homework help? Not like it’s a test.

No. 698851

>>698839
Obviously. Just a bit annoying that the last update was that it was scanned into a container from Asia and after almost two weeks of businessdays it's obviously not even been scanned in Europe.

No. 698873

>>698710
I don't know what you expected to happen when you closed it.
Rodents are known to chew their own legs off and die from bleeding out because of those things, literally anything is more humane than glue traps although sometimes the spring loaded ones don't kill the rodent either they just leave it mangled and alive. Poison will cause rats to die and rot under your floor and walls, attracting flies
Humane traps really are the best your of trap, it takes a lot of trial and error and it's a hassle to release them but it's worth it just to avoid that guilt. House rodents usually die after being released into the wild but at least you give them a chance.

No. 698895

Was taking some natural "anti depressants" pills(5htp,gaba,etc) cause appointing a hour with a cheap psychiatrist is hell here and the 3ish months I was with it I had awful symptoms whenever I was menstruating like stiff neck and shoulders, nausea and migraines. So I decided to stop and now I have 0 symptoms except my shitty fluctuating humor and wanting to cry every hour, I wish I could see a psychiatrist and ask what's wrong with my brain

No. 698906

This is the year I gotta make a change. My 20s were a hot mess. I'm 29 and I just paid off all my parking tickets 1k down the drain but at least they're paid off now. I've stopped drinking alcohol and I'm no longer dating men. I cant be in my 30s still chasing after loser scrotes, drinking all the time and being broke with bad credit.

No. 698909

>>698906
Yes bitch you can do it!!

No. 698912

>>698371
sounds like i touched a nerve.

>>698384
exactly! if you're spamming thirst emojis at other women like a man would and talking about how gay you are for them on social media while only getting crushes on men and dating men exclusively, i'm going to side eye you.

No. 698916

My parent's know I suffered depression as a child. for like 2 years I had straight up agoraphobia. My sleep issues use to cause the entire house stress because of my sensitivity to noise. I'm the epitome of a fussy/plain eater, but I've been out of the house since 19 because I also suffered abuse at the hands of my Mum, which I'm not allowed to mention now. I went to therapy in my early 20s because my depression and anxiety flared up enough that I was getting noticed by others outside of my family as being off.

My Dad is disabled and he's recently discussed that I need to see a psychiatrist and he was the one who helped establish me out of the house away from my mum, but I hardly see him and can't really talk to him. I try to speak to my Mum these days about it because our relationship is better through me bending over backwards to be accommodating to her. Yet every time I sleep over at her house I can never sleep and my bed is absolutely drenched in sweat. I got diagnosed with generalised anxiety in my early 20s, but never got medicated just had the therapy. During that time I had to move back home to my Mum's because of money issues and employment and I ended up leaving therapy because it was too hard to come home from a session and my Mum would hassle me for what I talked about. always scared I was blaming her for my issues (which she is at fault for a lot of them, but I don't think she was malicious in her intent idk)

Anyway, the vent is. I spoke to my mum that my dad suggested I need a psychiatrist and I've been convincing myself lately I have either ADHD/aspergers/autism, and she told me to just forget about it. Just leave it alone.

I'm an adult so I obviously don't need permission from my mum to speak to a doctor, but it just sucks that if I do go through with a diagnosis I won't be able to confide in her about it. She doesn't even know I have anxiety, she knows I got put on anti-depressants a few years back, but I took myself off them and only told her about them like a year after I finished taking them and she seemed so disappointed.

I just need help to function

No. 698921

>>698912
most of them are so over the top about it that i wonder if it's a psyop to make bi women and lesbians look bad. i wouldn't put it past straight people to do this as a way to try and "prove" that female homosexuality is a trend or a phase so they can justify hating us more than they already do

No. 698936

>>698658
I think all the lockboxes have an address to ship via UPS/FedEx rather than the PO Box addresses, I shipped a family members paperwork to one via UPS 2nd Day air and while a little pricey (about 30-40 dollars depending on your location) it will get there quickly and safely.

>>698661
Through USPS it'll probably get there well after Christmas. UPS/FedEx should get it there before if you go today and ship it 2nd day air. At this point only the high priority shipping options (and day, next day) will arrive on time. It took 5 days for a UPS Ground shipment of mine to arrive in LA just coming from SD and typically that only takes 1 day.

No. 698971

Another fucking day of me not eating!!make it stop, why can't I just make some soup or whatever. Everyone has to eat

No. 698982

This is retarded but I've felt sad bc I got my second ban for unintentional blog posting in a snow thread. The mod's ban message didn't just say the standard but rather "this is your second time doing this", honestly it could have been worse but I'm sensitive as fuck. Why am I so fucking dumb.

No. 698984

i really just want to grow an interest in drawing furry porn and make some money i work 2 jobs that pay shit but make me feel secure and comfy i just need money aggggggggggggggggggsh

No. 698986

>>698982
One time i got a ban for kinda shitposting in the dumbass thread and the reason was "autism" and i still am salty over it, they revoked that shit though

No. 698988

>>698821
Maybe you feel a bit of imposter syndrome, meaning you feel like you don't deserve the credit you got for your work.
You put time in it, you looked stuff up yourself, I assume you didnt just copy paste it so you did learn from it. And like you said, it was probably the teachers intention for the material to be self-studied.
Don't be so hard on yourself anon, you deserve the grades you got. You did great!

No. 698989

>>698971
What is the reason you're not eating? Is it psychological, are you intentionally not taking good care of yourself or is it lazyness?

No. 698990

How can you cope with the fact that the majority of men are hebephiles? Knowing truth about males, I simply can't understand women who still pursue relationships with males, most women seem oblivious

No. 698991

>>698990
by filtering out men who are early on

No. 698993

>>698990
Most women dont care about any of the flaws men have because they're low key desperate. They dont cope with it they just accept it. Kind of like how they jjay accept their men watching porn and lusting after women who look nothing like them right infront of their face.

Women will take any abuse a man dishes out because she feels shes not 100% human/whole without a bf or husband.

No. 698995

>>698988
Thank you, I feel guilty because instead of an exam we get grades from how well we did our homework. I just feel guilty because others scored less points and I'm sure I'm no smarter than them

No. 698999

>>698990
Most women are oblivious. If they don’t seek out the degenerate things that males are looking at, they’d never really know—that’s why it’s always so “shocking” when men are found to be pedophiles, chasers, cheaters, etc. If it isn’t a creepy man with a mustache luring kids into a van with candy, they don’t know what pedophilia/hebephilia looks like.
As for coping with it, >>698991 is right. As a woman it’s not hard to tell when a man is a creep or interested in inappropriately younger women. Don’t allow them to be your friends or partners, talk openly about how disgusting pedos and hebephiles are, and gauge their reactions. Pay attention to celebs they’re interested in or how they respond to cases like female teachers pursuing male students. If you were looking for a legit answer, here’s an attempt at one!

No. 699005

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>>698991
How exactly do you "filter" them? As if a man will admit to you he finds young teens attractive. I remember reading about a study where they were showing men pictures of naked girls between the ages of 11 and 14 and like over 70% of men had penile reaction
I don't care if they don't act on it. It's about the fact they would if they could, like they did in the past. But they figured out it's better to hide it in order to tame older women. Many adult men will still creep on young teens irl or just watch shit on the internet

No. 699007

>>698993
>their men watching porn and lusting after women who look nothing like them right infront of their face

To be fair, when/if they do recognize things like that as problems they are often gaslit and browbeaten into accepting them.
Boyfriend or husband watches porn? IT'S OKAY FOR COMMITTED MEN TO LOOK AT OTHER WOMEN YOU JEALOUS, CONTROLLING BITCH NAG AND ANYWAY HURT FEELING'S WHAT YOU GET FOR SNOOPING HIS BROWSING HISTORY!

Yeah some women are desperate, but most have been pressured into accepting this shit as normal or else they're the pieces of shit.

No. 699009

>>698990
By not being into men. Lmao. The only way to be sure. I feel bad for straight girls.

No. 699010

>>699005
There have been human sexuality studies where both men and women are shown imagery of bonobos having sex, and many of them had a sexually stimulated reaction. That doesn't make them zoophiles or mean they're attracted to it. Men get boners at everything, so while I'm sure an unacceptable amount (ie any) of them were blatantly aroused by the imagery, 70% "penile reaction" doesn't mean 70% of men are actually attracted to 11-14 year olds.

No. 699011

>>699005
stick to using dating websites that make the person's desired age range public. the higher the minimum age, the less likely he is to be a closet pedo.

if you're still not sure, find a way to bait them into admitting it in conversation, usually stating your opinions on age gap relationships will do the trick

No. 699012

>>698990
The reason why PP/manhate was a thing on lolcow was because lots of anons browsed and probably still browse other IBs and there you get faced with the fact that most men have these tendencies.
It's evident on other sites too but more subtle. So I'd say most women aren't that aware and hope that their Nigel is different. The years of my life where I remember being most harrassed was in my early to late teens. I still get harrassed today but nothing to that extent and it's always been by really old men, like 40+yo.

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No. 699016

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>>699010
What about the fact that for the majority of human history it was legal to fuck kids even before they started menstruating, even when girls had their first period at 14 on average, the age of consent in America was 7 and 10, depending on the state. As far as I know only christian feminist groups were protesting against those laws

No. 699017

i managed to screw up everything i worked on today… fortunately i fixed it all now but i'm so embarrassed because i was so sure i did everything right i didn't even test it and a co-worker had to point it out to me

No. 699022

>>699016
I'm not saying a lot of men aren't fucked up and disgusting, all I'm saying is that it's unlikely 70% of men are genuine hebephiles based on recorded stimulation in a controlled environment. Like what are you asking kek

No. 699027

>>699022
nta but the number seems about right, maybe too low if anything.

No. 699029

>>699005
It's pretty simple to find out if a man is into whatever thing sexually, you just slightly deniably vaguely imply you're into it a tiny bit yourself and they will jump at the chance to tell you in great detail how they are into it too if they are since men will take any excuse to talk sex with a woman and are absolutely overjoyed if they think you might not only put up with but actually be into their weird coomer fetish.

If they don't take the bait they probably won't even notice it at all since men are bad at picking up social cues that aren't to do with getting their dick hard and if they take note in a negative manner just say you were joking since men tell edgy jokes constantly themselves and they won't think twice about it.

No. 699030

>>698990
This post was written by Asia Argento

No. 699031

I am so resentful I have to go pay £10 for fucking stamps just to use one and leave the packet in my drawer for the next time some tight ass company can't send out a prepaid envelope. Fuck off PPS

No. 699033

I’m only on my third day post wisdom teeth removal and I’m going crazy. I just want to eat like a normal person. I can’t even cook for my wife bc it just makes me hungry and grumpy. I’m in pain and I’m swollen and I can’t even leave the house to go anywhere bc I’m on antibiotics. Fucking sucks.

No. 699035

>>699027
Ayrt, it's depressing that you think that and I hope you're wrong, but I'm not sure if there will ever be a sure-fire way to tell. I'm not sure if it's being a woman or being, ya know, not a pedo/hebephile, but I cannot imagine genuinely being aroused by 11-14 year olds and project that to the majority of other adults, men included. I know they exist, and I know there are more men than women, but 70% seems so high. I just don't think 70% of men would choose to be with an 11-14 year old if given the opportunity.

No. 699039

>>699031
Doesn't your postal office sell individual ones? Or alternatively if you don't want to/can't go there, buy one of those digital stamps? Not sure if this is a thing everywhere but where I am you can pay for a stamp online and it's basically a 9 character code that you write in place of the stamp.

No. 699040

>>699035
>it's depressing so I doubt it's true
Sigh
>I cannot imagine
Well, men and women are completely different.
Also, no one says 70% of men would choose to marry a 11-14 year old, it's rather about fucking them. I'm pretty sure the majority of men would if they knew they could get away with it.

No. 699044

>>699040
>fucking them

Yeah most men have a "pussy is pussy" mentality. If they're horny enough they dont care who they're sticking it in, it's not always their first option. Anon is probably thinking from a female perspective where we need to usually like and desire the people we fuck.

No. 699047

>>699044
Samefag and the majority of men have a madonna whore complex so they like the idea of being with a girl who hasnt been touched by other man yet. They want to be the first to ruin a girl.

No. 699049

>>699040
I didn't say, "it's depressing, so I doubt it's true," I said it's depressing and I doubt it's true which I still stand by. I also didn't say or mean to insinuate anything about marrying them, it's been a discussion about sexuality from the jump.
>>699044
I mean yeah, basically.

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>>699040
Hard redpill

No. 699052

>>699051
>hot
WHERE???

No. 699054

>>699039
Post office shut and I need to get this shit posted asap, so having to just go to a supermarket and they sell packs, they're might be one cheaper than a £10 but I need first class. Anyway, stamps suck lol, post should be free. That's my dream.

No. 699057

>>699016
I want to die after seeing this chart because I thought I just had bad luck having been catcalled and sexually harassed when I was 12-17 but apparently it's the most common age range. Men are a disease.

No. 699062

>>699057
Same here. I received more sexual remarks from adult men, especially strangers, when I was 12-14 than when I was 18

No. 699071

>>699054
I just found a first class stamp in my purse. Yeeeeoooo fuck capitalism

No. 699076

>>699071
Congrats anon, for future reference you should be able to buy first class in a book of 6.

No. 699086

So, idk how to feel

I was talking to one of my aunts who is abroad and she requested a picture of my mom who'd just gotten out of a shower (had no makeup on), I tell her this and proceed to try and take a picture but she goes "anon! look at how ugly I look! will you wait until I get ready please?" I tell her she looks fine and then she goes "alright but let's take selfie instead, I always look better when you're in the frame"

yes i took a selfie with her lol

No. 699090

>>699086
And she wasn’t joking? Wow.

No. 699106

>>699086
Maybe she meant to say that you’re the sunshine of the picture?

No. 699107

>>699090
She was laughing so i guess? Honestly can't remember because I was too concentrated on trying not to cry, I just laughed along because I never thought I'd ever hear her admit I was ugly. She has always reassured me I wasn't ugly. Which I've always known it's her motherly obligation to lol

funnily enough this has been the year i've put most effort into my appearance
>>699106
hmmm maybe lol

No. 699109

>>699107
Try to ask anon. And personally (you) me when you did.

I am sure she didn’t mean it like that. Biggest conflicts happen because of misunderstandings. Rooting for this…

No. 699110

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I seriously think I’m done reading or even checking up on Shayna‘s thread, and I’ve been following since near the beginning. Every other post is either posting autistic edits or whining about Shayna being fat and/or a SW (not milk). At least the lefthots/PnP threads are fairly active.

No. 699112

>>699086
I read this twice to see what was going on and both times i just thought you would IMPROVE the photo, are you sure she didn't mean it like that? Also what the hell is that situation even

No. 699113

>>699107
When I read your comment it didn't even occur to me that she thought you are ugly but like she is always happier when you are close to her

No. 699116

>>699113
>>699109
yeah I should probably bring it up. I have no hard feelings toward her even if she wasn't joking though. It just hurts she out of all things was what confirmed it lol
>>699112
True anons, I hadn't thought about it like that maybe that's what she meant and it would make more sense. She's always very sweet so it was unlike her.

No. 699120

>>699086
Aw, I read it as she'd be happier/look better taking a photo together, not that she thinks you're ugly! My mom hates taking pics alone but loves taking selfies with me and my sister, so I imagine it's like that.

No. 699125

>>699120
thank you anon I feel kinda bad now reading you guys' perspective!

No. 699127

>>699125
Don't feel bad, miscommunication happens all the time

No. 699138

I'm learning now that most men dont really care who the women they're dating are. When I share my interests and hobbies that arent related to theirs they get annoyed or dont wanna hear about it.

Lately in dating I just act like a blank slate. Like an npc. Happy and outgoing but I share nothing about my life or interests, music taste etc and strangely enough men like this. I just ask them questions about themselves and say nothing about me. I wish I would have known this when I started dating again 3 months ago, it would've saved me so much trouble. This also kind of applies to my long term relationships too, my bfs would always get so annoyed if they saw me being too happy about something unrelated to them and that they dont care about. What is up with that?

No. 699141

>>699138
Why are you making yourself a blank slate on purpose and not looking for better people instead? I would be all in their faces with my cool interests and stories and I'd brush them off when they started talking about their dumb stuff instead

No. 699142

>>699141
Because I've never met a guy like this or when I start talking about myself they usually zone out

No. 699143

>>699138
This strategy is a bad idea, anon. I understand your thought process but do you really want to attract and date men who don’t give a shit about you as a person, just want to fuck you and have you support/participate in their interests? Imo it’s better to be yourself and weed out this type of men. The only exception I’d make is if you were looking for something casual.

No. 699146

>>699143
I just want some cute guys around to keep me company and toss out when they're too old. I never want to be in a real relationship with a scrote again.

No. 699151

>>699146
>>699138
I had a friend like this and i also thought that i could just use her for hanging out and having fun. Yeah, no. People brushing off your interests and ignoring you when you do not center them does a number on your self-esteem. It is not worth it in the long run. The fact that you already have several 'reasons' to keep up the facade, even though other anons said otherwise - it just looks like coping. I was once there too.

No. 699152

>>699138
It can't be that every single man you've ever dated and every single boyfriend you've ever had got annoyed/disinterested about your interests and hobbies. Either you're misinterpreting things or there's something wrong with the way you behave in social/dating settings and you're not realizing it.

Regardless this "blank slate" tactic is terrible in the long run, I don't think that even needs to be said.

No. 699154

>>699152
>it cant be all men

Maybe you dont have this issue because you have stereotypically male hobbies.

No. 699155

when anons talk about how fat guys are useless and should die alone/never be dated it kinda makes me sad because my bf is pretty chubby and he's the best sex i've ever had, he talks to me, and he hasn't given me any reason (SO FAR) not to trust him

No. 699156

>>699154
I guess I can see why you'd think that but no, that's not the case

No. 699158

>>699156
What are your hobbies and interests then?

No. 699160

>>699155
See you probably know when you're having the best sex ever, but the mere fact you said your bf is fat immediately makes me not envious or care. Some people just don't find chubby people attractive.

No. 699161

>>699160
that's fine, i didn't think they were attractive either until i met him tbh. i just think it's too much to be like THEY SHOULD DIE ALONE kek

No. 699162

>>699161
Fat and ugly men should die alone. The less women fuck unattractive men the more the male species as a whole will work on their appearance.

No. 699163

>>699161
they should tbh. most fat men have nothing to offer.

No. 699165

>>699158
Painting and playing guitar. Which are neutral hobbies imo.

No. 699166

>>699162
>>699163
NTA but lets see how you look

No. 699167

>>699166
aye hold up let me just upload a selfie to an anon board.

No. 699168

>>699166
It doesnt matter how I look. All men need to do to be considered attractive is not be fat, have good hygiene, a head full of hair and decent skin yet 99% of them cant even do that.

No. 699169

>>699168
A head full of hair? Don't expect to be in a relationship unless you have fat tits and a skinny waist then, since we're disregarding genes.

No. 699170

>>698174
Some people have different preferences than you, what a surprise. Why are you so mad about that? What a complete autist.

No. 699171

>>699169
Bald men have been the most disappointing thing to happen to me personally and I'm not the faggots going bald. Finding a tall handsome man with a full head of hair is fucking difficult once you past your 30s. Men need to start taking proactive steps to stop hitting the fucking wall so severely in their 30s. Ugly scrotes.

No. 699172

>>699169
>you dont have fat titd and a small waist

Yeah a lot of guys resent their gfs for physical flaws they cant change. So what?

No. 699173

>>699171
Scrotes need to normalize hair extensions and wigs for men and stop labeling them as gay. Balding women do it.

No. 699177

>>699171
I feel you anon, have seen so many potential silver foxes become ugly baldies.

No. 699181

This is so weird. When I was 14-17 I felt very attracted to older men, like 40s, 50s, sometimes even 60s (yikes, I know). I wasn't bothered by the wrinkles at all. But now at 24 it hits me so hard. The fact so many men in their 40s have grey hair or go bald, the sagging, the skin condition, even how their voices sound less manly because their T drops. And the knowledge about sperm quality dropping after 35, autism babies, ED etc. Pure disgust. Now even a 40 year old man seems super old to me. I would never date anyone older than 32

No. 699183

>>699171
samefag i don't mean past your 30s, i mean most men my age (30) are literally bald or balding. All the ones with hair have gfs!!!

No. 699184

>>699181
I'm 29 and I find men my age and older dont do it for me. Ideally I wish I could have a bf age 18-24 but that's not realistic and I dont wanna rob someone of their youth. Idk why i care because scrotes dont care about wasting womens youth.

No. 699199

>>699184
Yeah, no. Maybe not 18, but if you're talking about serious relationships I don't think they consider it a waste. I'm not the authority on this or anything, and I don't know how often it is that younger men leave older women in relationships.

No. 699217

It's been a little bit since I ended my friendship with my closet male friend, I spoke on him a few times here, but I'm starting to see how much that relationship effected me.

Like, I've been through a situation with a man in the closet who cheated and abused me, when I told my friend that, he'd always say little things like, "Well most men are into this or that" and when his obsession with straight men came and him considering transing out, he was always saying little thing like, "you need to understand that most men like trans, straight men aren't afraid of dick anymore" and sometimes he'd say it as a joke, but that shit got to me.

He knows what I been through and I'd just brush it off but looking at it now, I realized the paranoia I have about men and being in a situation with someone abusive because their issues with their sexuality, only got worse when I told him about him, and he made little comments.

I realized how extremely jealous he was of me, not because i'm this amazing beauty but because he feels I have it "easy" because I'm a woman or something. So much of the little things pop into my brain and it hurts.
He always had issues with his sexuality and men, I was always there for him. In a way I felt when I told him about my situation it made him feel better about himself.
Like he liked knocking me down a peg and making me feel like every man is this or that, I just need to get over it.
I don't know if it makes sense but it hurts.

No. 699232

ugh. really disappointing (but disappointingly not surprising) to see my ex turn into a lesbophobic bisexual. she posts non stop about “bisexual pride” and how lesbians are oppressing bisexuals, yet cries about not being able to find a gf and is constantly on a string of dating mediocre men. I want her to get better but she honestly cannot understand that a relationship will not fix her problems.

No. 699245

I want a hot, slightly older rich man to fall in love and then marry me so I can live like a spoiled brat for the rest of my life.
But rich men are either ugly or womanizing assholes and hot men are usually poor dumbasses.
So I guess I need an ugly rich man and then get him plastic surgery.

No. 699246

>>699217
>Straight men aren't afraid of dick anymore

He seems very much closeted himself.

No. 699250

>>699246
nah he's very out, he can't hide that he's a gay guy he's very feminine, he just has issues. Whenever a dude hurts him even if he chooses horrible men, he takes it hard.
he went from thinking he was too feminine to find a good man, to being extra feminine to appeal to the men who wanted him (a lot of closeted men/trans chasers) and his last boyfriend was a very masculine dude on the down low who had a thing for feminine men, so he decided to get men he has to be super feminine and/or maybe trans.
It makes zero sense because he'll have the SAME MEN targeting him, but he does not get it.
Then again, maybe you are right. He thinks he needs to be like a woman in order to have a good gay relationship. IDK, it's draining, Even today I'm still worried for him even if I'm hurt.

No. 699253

I had the worse skidmark I ever haf today. Somehow in the process of wiping, I moved a ridiculous quantity of shit up my crack instead of wiping it away. I got in the shower and it was sooo much. Two large clumps and a bubch of tiny ones. I still feel extremely dirty from the experience even though it's all over now.

No. 699281

>>699245
if you just want an old man to finance your lifestyle and he's a womaniser that just gives you an excuse to have your own fun on the side!

No. 699362

>>699281
itt: prospective starfuckers

No. 699394

I wish my s/o talked to me more often. When we started dating we talked a lot but now it’s like they favor others company more than my own. I’ve given them the option to end the relationship if they lost interest but they insist it’s okay and that they’re interested in me but then talk about me on twitter with their friends painting me as some toxic bitch. I don’t understand.

No. 699402

>>699281
This, plus anon can use his money to be a sugar mommy to hot young guys in their 20s.

No. 699403

>>699394
> then talk about me on twitter with their friends
You're not dating a guy right? Aside from that, break up with them.

No. 699407

>>699394
You know you have the same option, right? To end the relationship I mean. Not to jump on the dump train, because I don't know how the rest of your relationship looks like, but I feel like sometimes people forget they can do this, too, so just a reminder I guess.

No. 699454

I have a slew of severe mental illness, childhood trauma, and spent a good 2 years doing drugs and getting shitfaced nearly every day until I overdosed twice, which has led me to have horrendous memory loss. It's so fucking embarrassing. It's so genuinely fucking embarrassing, it's already common with people with severe adhd to have memory loss but mine is just.. so amped up. I can't do my fucking job properly, I can't remember anything my bf asks of me, but the biggest thing is that basically most of my life is complete fog. I don't even remember my first year being with my boyfriend, but I'd never let him know that. I want to remember my life. I want to remember the friends I had and my time with them, I want to remember meeting my bf for the first time and us getting closer, I want to remember my childhood (the not traumatic parts, obviously.) I want fucking nostalgia.

No. 699525

I'm so fucking tired of seeing fat, mediocre guys with attractive and thin women. It makes me furious. I don't get it.

No. 699532

When I was 14 my mum took me to Disneyland to meet her long distance internet "friend" (tbh I always thought they were a lesbian couple but I never pushed my mum to tell me) Throughout the entire 2 week trip she told me to pretend I was her niece that she was caring for after my fake parents died in a fake car crash. At the time I didn't think anything of it bc I guess I was born retarded or something, but as I got older I started to wonder what the fuck even was that.

I asked her a couple years ago why she wanted me to lie and she said it was because she was worried her friend would hurt me if she found out I was my mum's bio kid. However after that Disney trip she invited this woman to stay in our house for another 2 weeks. If she was so worried this person would hurt me, why did she bring her to the house? Why would my mum hang out with her in the first place?

I didn't ask her more about it because she got upset, but I think about it every now and then. The older I get the more I run out of justifications for it and the more it hurts. It also makes me reconsider the time she left me, at 15, home alone over the school holidays so she could go to Canada to meet another "friend". I'd get so scared I slept with a knife and would pester my friends to stay the nights until they got annoyed with how clingy I suddenly was. At the time I thought it was fun but now I just think it's weird. Who the fuck leaves a 15 year old alone for three weeks to go halfway across the planet with zero extended family nearby in case of emergency?

I dunno. I'm sorry this is so long, cringe & blatantly newfaggy, I don't really have anywhere else to say all of this.

No. 699533

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>>699525
I could handle it if it weren't for the fact that men are CONVINCED it's the other way around and hot men are dating ugly fatties en masse. They cry about how every woman wants Chad, and how casual sex with attractive men has convinced every woman she deserves a guy out of her league, and decent/average guys get ignored. But men overestimate how attractive they are and they can't even see ugly women.

Actually, I hate women who date older men much more. They are throwing their future self and the rest of their gender under the bus for an inherently temporary, unsustainable bit of leverage/power in the relationship.

No. 699544

>>699532
>she said it was because she was worried her friend would hurt me if she found out I was my mum's bio kid
Anon wtf, that's some bizarre shit. Please get away from your mom.

No. 699549

>>699533
God it’s shit like this that makes me feel like I’ll be forever alone lmao. I’m 31, never dated, never had sex, shit I’ve never even kissed. Cherry chasers usually only get hard for younger women like Kate teen to early 20s. I feel like if I dated a guy and he found out I was a virgin at my age he’d get all man child huffy like “I gotta WORK to get in your pants?” And ditch me.

No. 699553

>>699549
>act all huffy

Men are kind of pussy forreal. They will only act like that with you if they sense you're weak, which is why they like younger girls.

No. 699555

>>699549
tbh I wish I was a virgin so I could enjoy the fact that I haven't given a scrot access to my body. It's not like my sexual experiences have been particularly bad but they didn't really deserve it.

No. 699568

>>699555
I'm so envious of anons who are 25+ and still virgins. I wanna drop kick them when they complain about it.

No. 699577

I recently realized that I always project my narc mother onto other people and reenact the roles that she gave us when I was a kid, if that makes sense. I am always the small, dumb, naive child and the other person is always the big, smart person who needs to guide me because I am helpless without them. This pattern appeared in work-relationships, friendships and romantic relationships as well. The extent of how our relationship with our parents affects our life is disturbing to me

No. 699594

>>698995
Well that's just the way it works now. Most schools had to resort to this kind of grading system. How do you know you're not smarter than them? Maybe you are. I think there are just many kinds of smart, some are great at memorizing, others are great at finding, filtering and organising information (like you did). Nothing is better than the other, all are needed in this society.
You need to realise you deserve this and keep telling yourself you do. In the future when you get a job it will be the same. You're working hard and you deserve what you get!
(Sorry maybe I'm projecting but low confidence really is a crutch and you dont need it)

No. 699605

>>699577
Same for me anon. I’m over the specific abuse but really struggle with rejecting that role. When it’s the way you learned to survive when your brain was still developing, it’s no wonder it’s hardwired. MRIs show differences in the brain between people abused as children and people who were not.

No. 699612

>>699549
>if I dated a guy and he found out I was a virgin at my age he’d get all man child huffy like “I gotta WORK to get in your pants?” And ditch me.
This is how all my budding relationships with men went tbh, I'm the same as you (kissless 30yo virgin) but I don't feel bad about it. I keep hearing other women complain about the shit sex they get from scrotes, revenge porn, pressuring for anal/choking/blowjobs and all that other messed up crap so I have zero regrets. Many of the men I dated seemed normal and even charming in the beginning but turned out to be massive dicks after getting to know them a bit better, especially when they ghosted me or straight out lashed out after realizing I'm not putting out but one of their side bitches is.

No. 699614

I hate that my work really tried to guilt trip me into coming into work early. Like that sucks that he has to suddenly watch his cousin or whatever because someone in his family gave birth but that's not my problem??? Like you have seven other coworkers to ask, why try to make me feel bad for not coming in when you had other options available. Last month I was consistently working 60+ hours a week because we were so low staffed so fuck off if I want to have a little break from overtime.

No. 699615

Any other butch/masculine anons legit get confused for guys now that this whole compulsory mask thing has come into play? I'm not going to start wearing feminine clothes or make up or grow my hair out but god is it awkward when it happens in front of my coworkers and I have to laugh and pretend its hilarious when its just annoying at best

No. 699620

>>699612
wut? men love virgins

No. 699624

>>699620
nta, not if they have to work for them

No. 699629

>>699615
Yes, I'm not even butch, just low effort and a bit mannish and I get confused for a short dude a lot kek, I find it funny.

No. 699630

>>699620
Anon, virgin chaser scrotes want a 18-19yo virgin who's extremely skilled sexually but magically has had no previous partners ever and doesn't make them wait for more than two weeks until spreading her legs.

No. 699645

Men who just fucking say women aren't funny or don't have a sense of humor is actual idiots. Sorry I don't find a low ball sexual joke funny. "Suck my dick.." " my dick"
Why don't you get funnier instead of blaming my humor.

No. 699670

>>699645
Or men who say funny women aren't attractive….

No. 699671

>>699645
>whiny, nasal MRA voice Well, if women are just as funny as men, then how many female stand up comedians can you name, anon? HMMMMMMMMMMM?

No. 699673

>>699612
>women complain about the shit sex they get from scrotes, revenge porn, pressuring for anal/choking/blowjobs and all that other messed up crap
Damn what kind of shit men do you hang out with? I've dated 5 men in my life and not one ever pressured me into doing something I didnt want. They've asked but immediately backed off if I said no. Granted I always dated nerds/geeks (it's my type) but still….

No. 699674

>>699673
Anon, it's so obviously just femcel cope kek

No. 699679

>>699673
>>699674
All those women are femcels, right?
https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.bbc.com/news/amp/uk-50546184
You can stop with the "not all men", "find better men" crap. Even is "your" men don't pressure you to do this shit, they most likely watch porn. The majority of men does. Thus they will never see you as full human beings.

No. 699680

>>699673
>>699674
Oh my, I guess all the women in the loser ex and vent threads and even scientists researching the porn addiction of young men are lying then.

No. 699683

>>699680
>>699679
>men watch porn and dont understand the difference between fiction and reality so they wont see real women as human beings
Lol grow up

No. 699686

>>699673
>>699674
Interesting posts right here, "ladies"

No. 699688

>>699686
>implying
You have to be 18+ to post here

No. 699690

>>699686
unlike you, I have a dick in my pussy

No. 699691

>>699688
This doesn't even make sense be gone scrote

No. 699692

>>699683
>porn is fiction
Retarded scrote

No. 699693

>>699645
Comedians in general are lame, at least we can relate to female comedians because they use situations we actually care about.
Otherwise it’s the same politics/sex/daily life/relationships cycle.
Male comedians are the epitome of i swear I’m relatable!

No. 699694

>>699683
Okay anon, where is that mana with handsome guys that aren’t pornsick? Because you should at least share where are you getting those nigels for the world to enjoy.

No. 699695

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>>699679
>>699680
>>699686
>REEEE all men are evil and everyone who doesnt agree must be a man
Lol such cope, you sound exactly like incels when they talk shit about women

No. 699697

>>699694
Not on imageboards and discord servers thats for sure lol
Get out of the house for a little bit anon.

No. 699700

>>699695
Except the problem of porn among men is real, the problems incels made up aren't.

No. 699702

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>>699692
So you're saying what happens in porn is real life?

>>699694
Stop dating shit men and dump their ass when they don't respect you, very easy

No. 699704

>>699700
Stop reading incel boards, those idiots never leave their parents basement anyways

What >>699697 said, go outside

No. 699705

>>699700
Stop replying to scrote bait.

No. 699708

>>699702
Women being beaten, choked, slapped, being anally penetrated despite their cries etc. - it's all real you fucking retard. You watch real people. Porn affects male brains differently than video games for exemple because you're watching real fucking people experiencing things, not only acting like in other movies.

No. 699714

>>699679
>It comes after more than a third of UK women under the age of 40 have experienced unwanted slapping, choking, gagging or spitting during consensual sex, research for BBC Radio 5 Live suggests.
Jesus christ. More than third??? The people claiming it's "a niche issue" are coping hard.

No. 699724

I'm trying to improve my spelling skills and I'm struggling so much in memorising words. English is infuriating, everything sounds the same phonetically, but is it 'tion' or 'sion', is there an i in there, or a u, is it was an a or an o. Fuck this language.

No. 699725

>>699708
I dont know I dont watch porn but I assume it's not just perverted stuff like that and I think (hope) most men watch "normal" porn?
We can all agree that women being abused like this is awful, no one here is claiming otherwise. (You'd have to be pretty sick if you would)
Wouldnt gore movies like saw or hostel have this impact as well?
Still doesn't mean -all- men are evil and abusive.

No. 699729

>>699725
Go on the front page of any mainstream porn website and the hardcore shit is right there, not within a niche category. It’s so popular these days that it is “normal” porn.

No. 699734

I wanted to fit into this one community so bad but it got over taken by fakebois and somehow degenerates into the most disgusting things yet hate anyone else into it. Everyone feels like cold hard plastic without any sincerity while talking because there's always a chance someone's going to spread rumors about you. No matter what I did it felt like I was always staring in, probably because all the newer people so consumed in thought police with american centric politics. Everyone from the old generation left after not being able to acclimate back into this new bunch. New people even seem to turn away because of the others talking out their ass. It sucks the second wave of people sort of ruined it for everyone.

No. 699740

>>699725
One of the (many) reasons I dislike that ~all men bad~ kind of mindframe is that it absolves from personal responsibility. Instead of learning from past mistakes in making bad choices, you proclaim all men bad and keep making bad choices that only confirm your stance. It's a typical self-fulfilling prophecy. Or you go full femcel which is just getting disconnected from reality.

No. 699751

>>699740
All my relationships with men (dad, brother, boyfriends) have been positive, yet I still see men as a whole as violent and opportunistic. ~not all men~ is a worse stance to have.

No. 699754

>>699740
It's better to approach all scrotes with the "all men bad" and sort out the "not so bad" than the opposite.

No. 699755

>>699751
>>699754
Very edgy. Is it 2006 again?

No. 699756

>>699751
>literally admits her relationship with men is positive
>Still acts like a radfem
NTA but I can not imagine why on earth you poison yourself like that.

>>699754
No, it's better to approach them as neutral, are you girls asocial or something?

No. 699761

>>699740
This. I don't know why a lot of women literally went back into patriarchal standards of seeing men as being inherently shitty. We had a good thing for a decade or two where shitty men were called out for being shitty and there was no excuse of nature or w/e.

No. 699764

>>699756
>every girl who dislikes the global nature of men is radfem
I get it, your view of men is very influenced by the kind/responsible/caring men in your life. Nobody is claiming men like that don't exist, I am surrounded by them too. But globally, men are violent and care little for the safety or freedom of women. Why does this proven fact upset you so much? Or rather, why doesn't it upset you more?

No. 699766

>>699760
I am not upset anon, I am baffled. Also I will disagree on a "global nature" of men. Men are not the same everywhere. Both when it comes to their genes, if you want to keep it strictly natural and especially in culture. There is no such thing as an inherent global nature of males, not only because large genetic and cultural groups of men differ a lot from each other, but also because men within those groups vary greatly as well.

No. 699769

>>699766
Please enlighten me to the country where men aren't violent, I'd like to move there.

No. 699770

>>699740
literally 90% of all murders, rapes and assaults are committed by men i always see them as guilty until proven innocent because of there over all violent and impulsive behavior.

No. 699775

>>699769
Most Western/Southern European countries have minimal amounts of violence anon. The occasional psychopath of course still exists and 99% of the time he will be a man, but overwhelmingly violence is rare here.

>>699770
Anon, do you understand that while 90% of men commit violent crimes, that 90% is of a tiny fraction of the total male population?

No. 699777

>>699769
Silly anon, you need to take some personal responsibility for your bad choice of not being born in one of the very few matriarchies in the world.

No. 699780

>>699775
kek I live in West Europe, and this is bullshit anon, men here are pretty aggressive. Europes domestic violence statistic is 1 in 5 women for fuck sake.

No. 699783

>>699780
>Europes domestic violence statistic is 1 in 5 women
I somehow find this difficult to believe. Unless it also counts "New Europeans" which will admittedly affect the statistics.

No. 699785

>>699775
Imagine handmaindening for men so hard you try and defend them for committing 90% of all the murders and rapes on earth. reminder being a male is a mental illness

No. 699786

>>699780
I think it is different in every European country. Italian culture is obviously very different from say, Norwegian

No. 699788

>>699775
>Spain
>minimal amounts of violence
Sure thing.

No. 699789

>>699785
What part of "tiny fraction of men" do you find difficult to understand anon?

>>699786
Yeah that's true, of course there are differences. Macho shit is more common in Southern Europe for example, but I am talking about violence and crime, which is rare everywhere outside of Eastern Europe.

>>699788
Yes? I am not a Spaniard, so excuse my ignorance, but I thought Spain was on the level of Italy or Greece, having very little crime and being pretty peaceful.

No. 699790

>>699775
>overwhelmingly violence is rare here.

Don’t be retarded anon. This is the dumbest thing I’ve read on lc all day.

No. 699792

>>699790
I am telling you my experience anon. I live in a small Mediterranean island and we literally have not had natives commit a violent crime in years. We have had "others" do so, but I don't feel like getting banned, so I will not expand on it.

No. 699796

>>699789
>excuse my ignorance
just stop posting

No. 699797

>>699789
I don't buy the tiny part of men because if you look up Recidivism statistics only about 25% of violent crimes charges are done by reapeat offenders.

No. 699799

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Why are grad school applications so stressful? I asked one of my professors if I can put him down as a reference and he left me on read

No. 699800

>>699797
I am not sure what you mean by that anon. If we take Western Europe for example, violent criminals are less than 1 in ten thousand of the native population. That is a tiny fraction.

>>699798

Yeah, I agreed with that anon about the difference in cultures even within Europe. But I am saying that things are comparable enough when it comes to violence to group them up enough to say domestic violence is rare here. And men who commit it are generally and thankfully treated as the criminals that they are.

No. 699805

>>699783
don't forget domestic violence rates have risen almost everywhere (especially in Europe) during lockdown.

No. 699806

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can the "not all men are bad hehe" stop posting? are u a twitterfag or what? i only see stupid ppl use the not all whatever as an argument there or reddit but whatever. Also lol spain not violent google Sandra Palo and start using your brain if u have one KEK.

No. 699807

>>699786
Yeah but we are also a lot lot more. Every country has its own situation but men are always violent.

No. 699808

>>699800
you know with a demographic as large as western Europe 1 in 10,000 thats a couple million scrotes committing violence

No. 699812

>>699806
I didn't say not all, I said not the overwhelming amount. Quite a bit different. Also
>The Sandra Palo case is how the Spanish legal process is known, in which the young Spanish woman Sandra Palo Bermúdez , 22 years old and with a mild mental disability, was brutally raped and murdered by a group of minors in May 2003 , in one case that shocked Spanish society.
I am not sure what you point is. This poor woman was raped and murdered, how does this relate to the general situation of violence in Spain? As I said, psychopaths of course exist and 90% of the time are male.

>>699808
Yes anon, but relative to the population they are rare and far apart. I didn't say go to the forest with strange men, I said don't assume random men are out to murderrape you, not even for them, but for your peace of mind.

No. 699815

>>699812
>considering literally millions of men who are violent rare and far apart
also that don't go into to the forest with strange men comment reaks of scrote.

No. 699817

>>699815
Every fucking time I try to explain why being paranoid of European men in Europe is inherently illogical and damaging I get called a handmaiden or a scrote, you really need to come up with something new.

No. 699820

My boyfriend turned from healthy and artistic into Fry from Futurama in the five years I've been dating him. Every time I leave for longer than twenty minutes, he orders a pizza. He hasn't taught himself music or art (properly) in these five years and because of it, the two things that drew me into him to begin with have suffered tremendously. If he were to have social media, I'd be embarrassed now rather than proud. He's nice but not romantic, and foreplay to him is squeezing my boob like he's inflating a blood pressure cuff. Somedays I want to tell him that his indifference towards everything is my biggest turn off and I don't want to fuck him until he loses all the pizza weight again, but that doesn't feel nice either and would just make him feel bad as opposed to motivated. I miss when he used to try to impress me by writing poetry and painting scenery instead of replaying Fallout and "letting me name the character".

Also he throws all of his clothing inside out all over the floor around the hamper, and does not care that I stopped doing his laundry altogether. Now he just lives off used floor clothing instead of making sure its the right way around for me to do. He isn't my child, and a lot of what I do resembles things only a mother should do for a child under the age of 12. If my mother knew what my day looked like, she'd kidnap me and arrange a marriage that evening.

I just need to bitch about it because my spineless body isn't going to do anything about it. Might masturbate and call it an early day at 10:46am

No. 699825

>>699817
I don't applied this to just European men I applied it to all scrotes. This makes you sound like one of those 4chan incels especially when you where talking about "new europeans" >>699783 . No matter where you go a scrote is a scrote. No matter the race.

No. 699827

>>699812
> I didn't say go to the forest with strange men
> I said don't assume random men are out to murderrape you
Only a scrote could be this stupid.

No. 699828

>>699817
you're the one who brought up Europe, the original argument was that globally men are violent and the 'not all men' argument does nothing but attempt to dismiss serious concerns and criticisms aimed at men for their violence, because for some reason your incapable of separating the men in your direct life to men as a whole. If women here want to be cautious toward men, fuck off and let them.

No. 699829

i hate the nigel/boyfriend brag thread on /g/ and wish those "nigels" would break the hearts of everyone that posts about them in there lol

No. 699831

>>699825
Ehm no, men differ massively from place to place and from group to group. I am sorry if this goes against your beliefs but this is fact. A woman can walk with no fear at night here. She wouldn't be able in the Congo. Men are certainly NOT the same everywhere, this is delusion.

>>699827
oh look, more "hey scrote"

>>699828
Yes, which is a poor argument as I explained but pointing out that men's behaviour varies massively from place to place. Also I am not holding anyone hostage, do what you like, I am telling you what I think is the healthy thing to do, that is all.

No. 699833

>>699831
>men differ massively from place to place and from group to group
Then explain to me no matter where you go on earth 90% of all murders and rapes committed are done by men

No. 699834

>>699695
The worse thing about the women quick to scream "not all men!" Dont understand that men wouldnt cape for them

No. 699835

>>699831
The rate of violence may differ, but men are predominantly violent across the globe. Congrats on living in a safe area, but millions of women worldwide don't because of men. So yeah, men are shit.

No. 699836

>>699831
literally where women free safe enough to go on a walk in a middle of the night with no fear whatsoever?

No. 699837

>>699812
What would be the problem with going to the forest with strange men if women shouldn’t assume random men were going to murder or rape them?

No. 699838

>>699820
Do yourself a favor and talk to him about it. Talking about what you're dissatissfied with in your relationship is not "not nice". If anything not making your reasonable expectations and wishes known and therefore not giving him the chance and choice to change and fix things before the relationship goes sour because of your unvoiced resentment is "not nice".

No. 699839

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i want to go on birth control (the pill) but i feel like my mother would judge me and make me feel weird and make a big deal out of it (i'm 24) and it also couldn't be the worst timing because of the pandemic and she doesn't know that i take my mask off around my bf let alone go to his house and fuck him. i feel like i'm a child.

pic unrelated

No. 699842

>>699837
exactly this. The argument seems to be 'you shouldn't assume the worse of men you just meet, but also don't go somewhere dark and alone with them just incase'. She's admitting the risk with men is always there, it's just lessened when around other people or public places. Funny how even women caping men know deep down they'll always be more guarded with men than women, they just can't connect the dots as to WHY.

No. 699843

>>699812
>I didn't say go to the forest with strange men, I said don't assume random men are out to murderrape you
Going by this logic you might aswell leave your door unlocked because don't assume that random people are going to rob your home!!

Terribly analogy? Maybe.

No. 699845

>>699839
Is your mom very controlling or something? I think that in a normal situation, as a 24 year old, you don't need to tell your mom that you want to go on birth control. You can make that appointment and pick up your birth control without informing her if you don't want to.

No. 699847

>>699842
holy shit this times 20. Even scrotes themselves acknowledge and joke about it all the time (but when you actually call them out seriously for this they get pissed).

No. 699848

>>699845
that does sound very normal yes. there's a little bit of arrested development in the relationship between my parents and i, but if the circumstances were different and there were no virus i could just get them i suppose. problem is, since she's unaware of the nature of my relationship, she and my father would absolutely freak if they knew the close contact i was engaging in since i definitely shouldn't be doing that (they're in one of the at-risk groups). i don't think i can go to the doctor without getting her medical card, and if i did that i'd have to tell her what i'm going for… you understand the problem

No. 699849

>>699833
Men commit 90% of all violence but the level of violence varies due to the percentage of violence within different populations.

10 men could commit crimes out of 100 men that don't, that's 10%.
10 men could commit crimes out of a 1000 men that don't and that would be 1%.

Would you prefer to walk alone at night in a Western European village or would you prefer to walk alone at night in Islamic country?

No. 699852

>>699849
neither because either one there is a high chance of a male murdering or raping me

No. 699853

>>699849
please stop with this country comparison. Nobody has tried to argue all countries have the same crime rate, they are arguing that men are the major cause of violence.

>Would you prefer to walk alone at night in a Western European village or would you prefer to walk alone at night in Islamic country?

In both scenarios, it's a strange man you're fearing you encounter.

No. 699854

>>699839
she doesn't need to know you're on birth control, if you're in the us you can both get a prescription and order it online. as long as she isn't going through your mail you'd be fine

No. 699857

>Anons complaining about Europe and America
>No mention about Latin America or Brazil
Itf you pickmes "Not all man" lived for a month in any country of South/Central America you would have some knowledge of how " Not all men are "

No. 699859

>>699848
I see. I don't know what a medical card is but I understand your situation if you can't go without letting her know you're going to a doctor. If you're comfortable lying maybe you could say you're periods have become unbearable heavy and that's why you want to get BC. It's a common enough reason.

No. 699860

>>699854
i'm not in the us, i'm from europe. i think i directly need to go to the doctor rip

No. 699862

>>699857
So you're saying not all men are like the ones in Central/South America?

No. 699863

>>699862
nta but scrotes being more violent in one country does not out the fact that no matter where you go males commit almost all violent crime

No. 699864

>>699862
so you're saying violence by men outside of your 'small Mediterranean island' shouldn't count toward male violence as a whole?

No. 699865

>>699853
>it's a strange man you're fearing you encounter
Yes but that encounter is more likely to happen in one location than the other.
I grew up in the West Midlands. I would never go back to living there. Where I live now I'm more likely to be killed by a cow protecting her calf than I am by a man.

No. 699866

>>699864
NTA, sis

No. 699867

>>699865
>the only way to not worry about scrotes is to just move to a rural area where there is barely any

No. 699868

>>699862
Scrotes can be naturally horrible in any country. If you live in an at least mildly civilized place some of their most common behaviours will be at least dettered in a minimal way.

I'm saying that scrotes in these places are "as bad as" or "somehow worse" than the rest of them

No. 699871

>>699867
No, just be a shut in

Half of the board is safe

No. 699872

>>699866
regardless, that is what you're now apparently trying to say.

>>699865
>Yes but that encounter is more likely to happen in one location than the other.
And? What the fuck is your point? You've already been congratulated on living somewhere safe, can you seriously not fathom that this is not the case for the overwhelming majority of women around the world? And that we should be trusting of men because…uhhh…less likely crime rate! We're all more likely to be killed in a car crash, likeliness of death isn't the argument. The argument, once again, is that men are predominantly violent.

No. 699873

>>699871
>implying that there is not a ton of rapist, murders and serial killers that break into houses

No. 699874

>>699857
>>699862
I think the "difference" between men from various countries and continents has to do with nurture, culture and simply what they can get away with within the criminal justice system.

I'm from an objectively very safe country and feel safe enough to go run outside after dark, but I don't doubt that if men didn't have by far as a large chance to be arrested and punished for their crimes in my country or if they had a "Man raped? Woman is at fault!"-mindset here I wouldn't be by far as safe. It's undeniable that men as a whole are far more violent and aggressive by nature than women. Just because they wisely don't act upon it doesn't mean it's not there.

Take this with a grain of salt though because what do I know really.

No. 699875

Even if you believe "not all men" you should never come to their defense because of principle. Daily reminder that when your sweet bf, husband or relatives are listening to their friends trash women or make jokes they're not going to come to womens defense. They're not going to say "wait a minute bro! My sister isnt like that!". Just because they like you, doesnt mean they like women. Most men dont even understand why rape, leading women on for sex and ghosting them is wrong UNTIL they have a daughter of their own. It's funny how with other women men are "not all men" but with the daughters they love its "all men". Dont be dumb.

No. 699877

>>699873
Are you actually afraid of that? Tells more about your mental health than anything else

No. 699879

>>699877
being afraid of break ins is an extremely common feeling? you're conflating fear with paranoia.

No. 699880

>>699877
explain to me what's wrong about being afraid of rapist and murderers? That's a very rational fear.

No. 699881

>>699879
>you're conflating fear with paranoia
All I can say is no u, but in reverse

No. 699883

>>699881
I think it's time to step away from the keyboard anon, this thread needs no more of you.

No. 699884

wtf are you guys even arguing about. Isn't this the vent thread

No. 699886

god some of you are just so insecure i can't take you seriously. like >>699875, if you have a point just calm down the retarded takes.

No. 699889

>>699886
It's the truth though. If a man were to defend a woman they would quickly shut them down by calling them a simp.

No. 699890

>>699879
Don’t be silly! Anon, of course everyone is wrongly paranoid of things that happen! Like, my experiences are the only valid sources, if you don’t accept that only what I say is the truth, then you’re a paranoid femcel! Go get some dick girl! Every nigel is waiting for you outside my neighborhood!

No. 699891

>>699884
tldr; anon vented about men, another anon felt indignant about it and simple had to defend men.

my vent is that my favourite bakery is out of the cinnamon buns I'd always get for Christmas and I'm more upset about it than I should be, but fuck they're so nice. I don't want store bought, I wanted homemade!

No. 699892

>>699883
You're right, I'm gonna go on a walk alone, refreshes the mind during these dark days

No. 699894

>>699884
manhate anons have proven time and time again that they don't care about derailing or making themselves hated just to bitch about men. every time they ree about just wanting the manhate thread to vent, remember shit like this. they're just gawking at statistics to get angry for nothing.

No. 699895

>>699891
Could you try making them yourself?

No. 699896

>>699889
go outside and meet real humans.

No. 699901

I'm having an allergic reaction to something, but I'm not sure what. My eyes have been swollen since I woke up, my nose is tickly, and I just feel stuffy with a sinus headache. I'm out of allergy meds, and I left my wallet in the car. God help me, anons.

No. 699903

>>699896
The scrotes I've met online have been more civilized than the ones I actually see everyday.
Just yesterday I was sitting in the walmart parking lot in day light and a dude tried to get in my car with me in it. But I guess I'm just paranoid of men because I dont get enough dick.

No. 699905

>>699872
I'm not the anon that lives on a Mediterranean island. What I'm saying is that collectively punishing men as a whole when it's not all of them that commit crime does more harm than good. If you have five dogs and one shits on the carpet you don't punish all five dogs. Also if you were going to do something about male violence beyond shitting up the vent thread, then wasting time and resources fixing problems in a location where those issues were already fixed is pointless when there are places in the world where women have it far worse.

>>699875
But how do you know this?

No. 699906

>>699901
Go to the bathroom and use warm water to produce steam, it might help you breathe for a while. Maybe ask someone around if they got pills for allergic reactions?

No. 699907

>>699903
grow up.

No. 699912

>>699903
That's creepy as fuck. I always lock my car door when I'm sitting in my car if I'm not going to drive away/step out immediately, just to be safe. You never know what someone may do when they see you sit in your car with your attention not focused on your surroundings.

No. 699913

>>699905
But if men really cared about the issues most men cause instead of crying "not all men" they would understand this mentality comes from a place of hurt and they would work on educating men and fixing the issue. But they dont actually care about the shit most men do, they just dont want to look bad themselves. Instead of looking at the issue they just Smirnoff and say "well maybe it's the men YOU know. I'm not like that".

No. 699916

>>699913
*smirk

No. 699927

>>699903
damn anon im glad you're alright. I've seen plenty of creepy scrotes online tho, its probably because they can say whatever they want online and have no filter.

No. 699929

>>699913
Holy fuck. Stop reading MRA twatter and go outside.

No. 699935

>>699838
Thank you, I'm gonna work up the courage to do it tonight. That's a really great point and I didn't really see it that way.

No. 699938

>>699929
I work and go to school. Men are worse in real life.

No. 699948

I'm so glad that you are all safe, a man could enter your house and rapekill you any minute!

No. 699954

>>699948
Of course not, anon, we all live next to an embassy with security 24/7 in Finland, what scrote could possibly get in our house to rapekill us?

No. 699955

It's fine if someone doesn't like me but I feel jealous if they like this person that I'm sort of competing with. If they hated us both or if they were indifferent to them I wouldn't care. It just sucks to see them getting along.
Also it doesn't only apply to people but groups, it's really more about groups.

No. 699966

My mother asked if I wanted to go visit the graves on the main christmas day where we live and I told her that in all honesty no I didn't particularly want to because it's depressing.
Apparently being honest is deeply offensive. I told her I'll go if she wants to but I'm not gonna pretend I want to on that particular day.

No. 699968

>>699875
>They're not going to say "wait a minute bro! My sister isnt like that!"
I've noticed from pretending to be a guy online for half my life that it's the low value men who sit around bitching about women together e.g. 4chan and reddit loser types (at least for western millennials). When a group of vaguely well adjusted men hear another man insulting a specific woman or women in general they instantly clock him as a low value male who's butthurt he's not successful with women and will usually tell that to him straight-up and haze him until he stops or leaves from being tired of being the butt of jokes. You even see it on complete hellhole male spaces like 4chan where misogynistic posts get called coping incels more the more normie a board is.

No. 699970

>>699968
i've seen the 4c thing straight up on /tv/, it's like battle of the norms vs incels on that board

No. 699971

>>699954
>this message brought to you by the Finnish collective of finns

No. 699995

>>699971
did they finnish bringing us their message?

No. 700000

>>699968
This. Standards shouldn't be so low but it's still a v nice thing to see when it happens
This is also why it's important to vet a guys friends before getting serious about him

No. 700004

>>699995
Listen here you little shit that was funny well done

No. 700033

>>699829
Bitter because you’re aware no one will treat you that nicely? I can see why they wouldn’t.

No. 700062

>>699829
Didn’t even know that thread existed til now, but it’s sweet. You sound miserable, Christ kek

No. 700078

>>699829
Samefag, /g/ is full weird shit like the fetishes you’re ashamed of, femdom, and relationships and sex advice (not weird, but plenty of examples of men being trash), but the nice bfs thread is the one that bothers you?

No. 700091

>>699875
I have a male friend who I generally value and believe is a good person for a lot of legitimate reasons and I'll never forget the time he told me some dude he was working with started talking about sex tourism and he described it as disgusting but that he and the other dude just "laughed awkwardly". Even if they're uncomfortable or thinking that another man us staying is wrong, they're likely still too chickenshit to do anything about it because men don't really question other men! At least in regards to misogyny.

No. 700111

>>700033
>>700062
>>700078
You'll get picked one day(Bitter/ infighting )

No. 700116

I am dreading christmas day so fucking much

No. 700120

>>700111
You well know they won’t get picked.

No. 700129

>>699829
I wanna post about how overall good my bf is but knowing that I post vents about him that paint him in a pretty bad light makes me feel like a hypocrite.
Also if he ever did turn out like a typical scrote I'd feel like a fucking idiot for ever having praised him even anonymously.
Best not to jinx ourselves IMO. Scrotes are subject to change.

No. 700130

Scrotes are animals, I would call them dogs but that would be derogatory to actual dogs. Nothing but a bunch of wild animals whose life gravitate around their egos and their dicks

No. 700132

>>699829
me too but mostly because it seems like scrotes roleplaying there. I get strong cc vibes.

No. 700135

>>700111
How does this warrant a ban? Tranny mods need to calm down a bit

No. 700145

>>700132
Scrotes don't know or care about what women want kek why would they bother doing that in a containment thread

No. 700159

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>>699829
Go back to the gelatinous world you came from

No. 700161

>>699829
i'm happy for the anons in there but i still have that thread hidden because it makes me cry lol. i want a bf really bad but i'll never get one that isn't extremely abusive

No. 700174

>>700159
approaches giant jelly

No. 700176

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>>699829
I honestly don’t check that thread because I use imageboards for pic related and to cheer up anons who might be going through some rough times.

No. 700178

>>700174
which jelly did you get anon?

No. 700185


No. 700190

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>>700178
i got the N00b Jiggler

No. 700220

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Late to the party but I feel a lot better not being the only 30 year old virgin on the board.

No. 700224

>>700220
how many of us are here?
Not that it matters. My virgin status doesn't bother me at all. I have 0 love or sex interest in men.

No. 700230

>>700220
not a 30 year old virgin but 30 yo LOSER right here i got a dui last week and ruined my fuckin life. i'd rather be a virgin tbh

No. 700282

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I've been having mental breakdowns at work for the past week, I honestly think I'm retarded because I've been making so many fucking mistakes. I literally had to keep working through crying twice today already

I have a small team which is nice but one of my coworkers is a smug asshole nu-male feminist he-him weirdo who hates me because I don't know all 2340910283419083 nuances of the dumbass legacy system we use and if you fuck up one single character it's such a pain in the ass to reverse and fix and I hate asking people for help because I feel like they think I should know how to do things by now even though my manager tells me it's fine and I'm still learning I've been here for a few months and I'm just over it at least it's better than my last job where I had to admit myself to inpatient because I wanted to fucking off myself because I was so miserable I just hate being the stupidest one on my team it makes me feel so worthless and dumb and it's an entry level job so it should be "easier" but it's still hard for some reason I literally just want to quit and become a barista or something and live out in nature and never look at a computer again AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

No. 700297

I worry this makes me sound condescending, but my best friend can be way too naive and trusting, I'm honestly worried for her at times

No. 700333

>>700282
Which language are you working in and what's your role? Also, sorry to hear about the troubles. I had something similar that happened to me on my first job but it was the lousy and rushed training more than anything else in retrospect. Legacy systems are in general a bitch to deal with. And if this is your first entry level job then you're being too harsh on yourself. A few months is nothing. I've seen people with senior titles making cardinal mistakes. It probably won't make you feel better because I know the feelings you're currently having. I promise it's not that bad.

No. 700353

I'm tired, I'm behind on a major project I'm working on (by myself) at work, it's freezing in this office, my allergies have been bothering me all day, making my head hurt and eyes swell, and all of this has absolutely shot my focus which is the LAST thing I need considering that I'm already behind on this project! I need to be able to WFH just to catch up (without OT lol), but my supervisor has been out due to her sister passing and now the holidays, which is so sad, so I haven't been able to set that up. I'm just fucking spent and can't wait for my 4 days weekend, but at the same time, I'm dreading it because it just means 4 more days behind on work coz I sure as hell won't catch up by tomorrow. Kill me, anons.

No. 700361

The fact people call me "Weird' for checking men's social medias after meeting them, is weird. Check them ladies, men are stupid, they'll expose everything they are into in their likes, retweets and comments.
I dodged a lot of bullets recently by snooping. Men will like tranny porn, say weird creepy shit, like pictures of young looking women and I even found out one guy I was speaking to online had a "Choking' fetish.

No. 700377

>>700361
how do you get a guy to give you their social media without them suspecting you're going to go snoop? i have no social media accounts of my own so it's not as simple as being like "hey wanna follow each other?"

No. 700379

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The guy I like is confusing me a lot. I started university this fall and on the first day I met this dude, let's call him Z. He's very good-looking and seemed like a nice guy, so I of course got interested. We kept making a lot of eye contact so I thought he might be interested as well. When all our classes became digital because of corona he created a Discord server for the 18 people that were in our group during the first two weeks of the semester, since we'd all become friends. I and a couple of other people, including Z, started talking frequently in the voice chat of the server while we studied or played League and subsequently became good friends. Me and Z also chatted privately and we would throw in some occasional flirting.

One day he asked me to grab some coffee with him and I of course accepted. We had a lot of fun and sat at the café for almost four hours just talking, since we have a lot in common.

A few days after he invited me over to his place so that we could do some programming. We finally kissed that day and cuddled a bit. I've never been in a relationship before so I do not really know how long one should date before you can talk about becoming a couple, so right now I'm kinda confused. I've been to his place multiple times, we've played games, studied and cooked together and genuinely had a good time.

Now, however we haven't seen each other in a little over a month. I'm kind of shy so I've been scared of asking him to hang out, and the two times I tried he said "I don't know", instead of just saying "I can't today". He also hasn't been as flirty as he was before, which worries me cause it makes me feel like he isn't interested in me like that anymore?
However, we talk everyday on Discord or text, just about normal things that friends do. But when we're in voice chat he still sounds like he cares about me, his tone is different to when he speaks with the other people in the server.
I've tried telling myself it's because he's busy right now with all the finals (he's taken on two majors, so he has a lot of assignments), but I'm insecure as a person so I'm still wondering if he's still into me.

I'm probably overthinking this way too much but as I said I've never been in a relationship before (i'm also a virgin kek) so this is all new territory.

No. 700388

>>700377
You ask "are you on XYZ?". tbh if they actively dont like you, they'll just say no.

No. 700390

>>700379
Ok I know nothing about boys but as a person with lots of schoolwork too I'm sure he really is just too busy and feels bad about not being able to meet you too, but assignments don't care about your feelings and have to be done

No. 700401

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What's with the scrotes and handmaidens gaslighting other women here? Same thing on CC. I hate them. I hope they all die from cancer.

No. 700406

>>700390
This is probably what is going on tbh, but as I said I'm insecure lol. I had to study for an exam in a math course these past two weeks and I definitely would not have had time to meet him, so I understand why he's been more distant.

No. 700415

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I just binged on so much fucking food and i feel like I'm about to burst… I count my calories and work out and do my 10k steps and such, but then like clockwork once every two weeks i snap and inhale burgers and candy. God damnit.

No. 700416

I stubbed my foot really bad and half of my big toe toenail was ripped out c o o l love that for me

No. 700417

I am so ungrateful but I hate how my parents keep pestering me if there's anything else I want to bring back to my place after the holidays. I appreciate their support but I don't get why they kept asking even though I said there wasn't anything else I could think of several times.

No. 700420

>>700417
Are they talking about the possessions you keep at their place? Maybe they’re hinting.

No. 700421

>>700417
maybe there is something they want you to bring?

No. 700426

>>700420
>>700421
Nah my mom is talking about stuff she could buy for me from the store

No. 700433

I'm so sick of twitterfags whining about how they're no black female senators anymore (even though were gonna have a black female VP).

Like California has its first Latino senator (in a state that has a 40% Latino population) but no. Let's whine about how Newson didn't fill the position for a black women even though there's plenty of black women politicians everywhere. It comes off as super entitled.

If you really want another black female senator, then go out and campaign for one in 2022. But knowing these assholes, they're just gonna whine on Twitter instead. Sorry for burger politics sperging.

No. 700437

>>700433
Just get off twitter. Idk about politics, but Twitter whining is the most obnoxious thing on the planet.

No. 700447

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I miss being able to go to the hair saloon every week for getting my hair and nails done, it was really nice, people over there would treat us nicely, my mother and I were friends with everyone there and even if I hated waking up early to go there, it was nice to go out of there with my hair looking amazing and my nails too, pretty with different nail polishes and such.
Now I just want to be independent, but I don’t have the money for such a thing, driving classes won’t start until who know when, and I need them so I can get a driver’s license.
Being sheltered for so long is such a terrible thing, like yeah, you spend lots of comfy years having a comfy life, but then you’re just too dumb to do anything on your own.

No. 700453

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>>700447
>hair saloon
Sorry, but this is what I pictured. Just imagine a mustache walking into a Wild Wild West themed bar.

No. 700457

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I hate that everyone is putting all of their problems on me and being aggressive towards me, but I’m not allowed to have my own feelings.

No. 700460

being trapped in the house with my family every single day has ruined my relationship with my sibling what seems like irreparably. i have not looked him in the eye for many months and would be comfortable never seeing him again at this point. i don't even know how christmas will work, how the hell do you pretend to like someone for one day and give them presents and smile when everyone knows you have a horrible relationship? anons who have experience with bad family situations, how does this work? do you pretend to like the person for one day on christmas? how do you pull it off without it seeming disingenuous?

in other news, my boyfriend is probably going to lose his job because he can't handle the stress and can't keep it together at work. i have to constantly be available as emotional support because he falls apart almost every day he's at work and his manager got mad at him for crying so much. i love him but im so emotionally drained that i dont even have the energy to cry over my own problems anymore

No. 700481

I'm upset that I missed looking at the Jupiter/Saturn conjunction. I normally don't care that much about astronomical events cause I'll probably be able to see them again but this one was pretty damn rare.

No. 700489

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i do love my mother, but i wish she wouldn't call me just to talk about her complaints and grievances with life so much. literally, she will have me on the phone for 40+ minutes, just complaining and talking about the most basic bullshit that i don't care about (like what she ate for dinner, what she watched on the tv, people that pissed her off, etc. etc. etc.).

i've kind of taken to cutting her off after 20 minutes.

sometimes feel guilty about it but, thinking back on my life, i have never ever felt comfortable enough with her to just vent like she does. it's so irritating. she was also massively abusive emotionally too (but she did take care of me? then again as a parent…you're supposed to feed, clothe, and keep a roof over your kid's head, yeah?)

i don't know farmers.

No. 700491

also how the fuck do i turn off this snow

No. 700492

>>700489
My mother used to be like this too, anon. She passed away 10 years ago and i miss her calling to talk about nothing. I think your mother might be very lonely and doesnt realize how much she's bothering you. Maybe talk to her about what's going on and say you're only free to talk certain hours of the week? Sorry, this just hit close to home for me. Happy holidays, anon

No. 700495

>>700433
hello fellow CA anon
yea all the sperging out over this is incredibly stupid. feinstein will either croak or be shown the door before 2022 and the governor will get another appointment anyway

No. 700500

>>700333
It's not a programming language, I work at an insurance company that uses outdated and clunky proprietary software. This is my second job out of college but I feel like I'm just destined to job hop again in a year. Thank you for your kind words anon I appreciate them

No. 700513

I just saw a lost dog almost get hit & I feel fucking nauseous

No. 700546

>>700447
Every week, how tf do you afford that??

No. 700553

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>>700492
now i feel like an asshole. i guess i'll just deal with it anon, that's part of loving someone

No. 700555

>>700546
It used to be really cheap in my country a decade ago.

No. 700562

I feel jealous when women talk about their intuition and how their gut feeling is usually right because I don't have that for some reason, I'm such an awful judge of character. Not even in the sense of like "oh I'm so naïve everyone is so cruel to me I keep getting abused", luckily I've never had any really terrible situations, but I often get a viscerally negative 'vibe' and have an irrational dislike or even hatred kind of based of my initial impression for people who I end up loving and having like years long friendships with and I also frequently have an extremely positive initial reaction to people who are actually very incompatible to me at best or have some severe issue that should have been a lot more obvious at worst that I don't pick up on at all initially. Like my first impression of someone is way off pretty much 100% of the time. I think its maybe some kind of autistic obliviousness but I'm not sure how to improve it other than just trying to supress any first impression I get of people.

No. 700564

I absolutely can’t wait for Christmas to be over this year

No. 700565

I wish it was okay to be openly depressed

No. 700578

I told my boyfriend that I only think of him and only find him attractive and he told me he looks at other women and thinks they’re attractive. I just wanted to fucking kill myself I ended up crying in front of him, too. I already think I am the most disgusting ugliest piece of shit on the planet. I don’t need a reminder that there are girls more attractive than me that you wish you could have when instead you are stuck with me.

No. 700579

>>700578
god you sound miserable to be with and way too immature to be in a relationship

No. 700580

I told my boyfriend to stop calling me wifey tonight and I feel like such an asshole!!! We call each other hubby and wifey although we're not even engaged yet and for the past month he's been sick with a stomach virus and wanted to be alone. This is the first time he's been sick like this throughout our entire 2 years together so I took it a little personally, I didn't know he got like this. He's bit by bit recovered the last couple of days and this afternoon I brought up how he needs to get it together and get into a trade school, how he's 25 and he told me at 23 he would get into something formal BEFORE he turned 25. I don't want him to be bill gates anons, but if I want to have kids w him or even just one in the future, I need to know he's a reliable person. Since he wants kids someday(or so I thought), I told him that he needs to do better for himself and asked what if you ever have children? Children are not plants you know, they're expensive. What does he tell me? "I don't want to think about what if I have children right now haha"

just wtf? I didn't say anything just acted like I didn't hear that. But I think that statement says a lot and I've checked out. I still love him, but I'm not going to be as vulnerable emotionally as I was before, I have a foot out the door, and I don't expect this relationship to go too far, until he proves he's at least trying. I don't know,I heard him say that and it's like, I felt myself become less attracted to him now. I have plenty of time too, I'm 21. Maybe that's why he said that? am I exaggerating? I hate that I love him so much

No. 700583

>>700578
He probably doesn't want to date anyone else though. If he did he would be with another girl. It's perfectly normal to be attracted to multiple people, it doesn't mean you want to fuck or date them.

Anyway, not trying to shit on your vent post, just hope it makes you feel better.
>>700580
Wait you got upset because he wanted to be alone while sick? Anon…..

No. 700584

>>700583
Yes a little but, I know I'm a horrible person lol but then once I was over it he basically just said fuck my hypothetical future children.

No. 700589

>>700578
this is your sign to dump him

No. 700592

My boyfriend has terrible memory from what I can only assume is caused by his past of abusing Xanax in high school. Anyway, I bring up certain things that upset me that he has done and he'll be like "I don't remember doing that." or "I really feel like I didn't do that." then I explain that he definitely did and go into detail about the situation and he ends up saying he believes me and apolozing but it still seems like he feels off about it, like he's still unsure if that actually happaned and it makes me feel shitty and abusive. Like it makes me feel like I'm actually making shit up to make him feel bad even though I'm not really, I just don't want to hold grudges and get help understanding certain things that were said or done. I may be over thinking it because I have terrible self worth from my past but I really hope he doesn't think I'm like gaslighting him or something idk.

No. 700593

>>700592
You know you're telling the truth so what is the problem exactly? Worry about your self esteem instead of getting worked up over a completely imaginary wrongdoing.

No. 700594

I've been a tit all day over retarded shit and I'm itching to start shit with my husband because I feel gross and insecure. Thanks period hormones. I should take some diphenhydramine and go to sleep.

No. 700595

>>700593
You're right anon and I know I'm being silly by worrying about it. I just have troubles not feeling bad in general when setting boundaries or vocalizing when I've felt hurt by someone. Its something I am trying to improve on.

No. 700596

I want to disappear from people's lives. Delete my social media or change my display name at least so they can't find me when they think about me for two seconds years later. I don't like people, I don't like talking to most people. I'd prefer everyone in my past not know a single thing about me now, hell I
don't even like telling people I see daily things about myself. Let me be alone in peace.

No. 700602

>>700596
Delete it anon, it's good for you

No. 700616

Just found out my boyfriend of over 5 years was messing around with his female best friend who I was told wasn’t an issue and actually gained to trust her and she actually became one of my closest friends for a while. Currently trying to figure out how to leave because I’m basically stuck with him financially and I’m mentally and emotionally not ready to go through with this. He doesn’t know I know yet and neither does she. I just hate how he made me doubt myself and made me feel stupid for so long, and I have to keep cool because we’re having a big get together tomorrow. Sorry for kinda piling this on, I want to tell someone but all of my friends are his friends and I don’t want to seem crazy again. (Especially since I have screenshots now). I’m fucking so stupid for not seeing this coming.

No. 700617

You know what, I'm still not over it. But at least I've never told anyone what I posted in that vent post. If I told a professional they would go and tell everyone.

No. 700618

I'm reading posts on r/raisedbynarcissists and I feel nothing but pure hate. Call it "crazy" or "too radical" but I'd rather have full population control and people going through obligatory psychological tests before getting a permission to breed, than to have parents abusing or literally killing their children through neglect

No. 700619

>>700616
Why would go to a get together with these people knowing this? You're not going to enjoy yourself, you're going to be seething and hurt and not able to relax at all. I couldn't imagine not talking to him immediately well, I would be burning his shit on the lawn with printed screenshots of whatever evidence taped up on the front door after changing the locks but good luck with your situation. That's pain.

No. 700625

>>700596
Definitely do it anon. I deleted all my accounts without telling anyone. Having no online presence is freeing.

No. 700628

>>700616
can you ask your family for help getting out of there? there's no shame in doing that if you're able to

No. 700629

>>700596
I did this when I was like 14 and overall it was a net benefit to my life and I still havent remade them but I honestly think you should think about it a little more before you do it. There are definitely some ways not having any social media in this day and age does make your life harder and after some point in time it's kind of hard to reverse if you decide you do want to use social media.

No. 700632

>>700619
I already bought gifts for everyone and I feel like if I don’t show up I’ll get hounded for it so I’m just trying to keep my cool honestly. I am planning to tell one of the friends there what’s been going on so hopefully she can lend me a hand in this current situation.

No. 700635

>>700616
Raise hell anon, do not meet up with those fuckers. You deserve better

No. 700638

>>700632
Anon, if you can't bail from an event and admit to these people it's because your POS bf cheated on you with a POS 'friend' without getting backlash… why the fuck are you friends with them and why would you care what they think or want from you? Your situation is pretty goddamn black and white, and if they aren't on your side they are not worth your time.

No. 700649

It’s been a week since we found out my boyfriend has a rare brain cancer and I thought it would get better by now but I still just want to die. I’m trying so hard to stay positive for him and havent even told him I have multiple panic attacks a day because I don’t want to make him sad but it’s so hard to smile and be hopeful like him. I genuinely cannot live without him, he’s the light of my life and I keep telling myself he’ll pull through but it feels like a cope. Why the fuck did this have to happen we were so happy

No. 700652

>>700649
i hope you're able to find some peace, and be able to help him through this. it's not anyone's fault that this cropped up and i think he'd understand why you're upset, the fact that you have this much love for him and don't want him to see you sorrowful is a testament to how much you care for him. wishing you both the best anon

No. 700667

>>700649
i'm sorry anon, nobody should ever have to go through that. i hope your boyfriend gets better quickly

No. 700671

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Why couldn't I have been born a slice of life anime character?

No. 700723

>go out to dinner with bf and his friends
>could have easily taken my own car, but he wanted to drive me
>after dinner he kept complaining I didn't engage enough with his friends
>he had a few drinks and wanted to sit in the car a while before he started driving and let the alcohol wear off
>I start talking about something, when I'm mid-sentence he just starts laughing
>I ask him what's so funny
>he tells me that he has a pact with his best friend mikel that if one of them dies the other one will destroy his computer because of all the porn on it
>he tells me if he ever dies I can't look at his computer
>I tell him tough shit, he'll be dead
>he is bothered by this and starts wailing about how if I didn't want him to look on my computer after I died I wouldn't
>I'm just like, okay, but I wouldn't ask you to do that, plus I'd be dead so what would it matter
>after about 20-30 minutes of sitting in the car he decides to drive
>I ask if he's sure he's not too buzzed to drive
>he's just like "eh, I think so"
>I go (to imitate him) "yeah I might kill my girlfriend but that's okay"
>he's just like "yep"
>again, could have easily taken my own fucking goddamn car but HE wanted to drive me
>I say something to the effect of it's sad nothing is ever enough for you (sexually)
>he goes "your tits are enough for me, but I want stylized tits (as in anime tits)

can't remember where the argument went after that. this all happened over a year ago, we broke up and he wanted to be friends but I ghosted him. I got reminded of this recently and it still pisses me off when I think about it.

No. 700724

>>700723
I can see why it still pisses you off, this dude sounds unbearable. Congrats on your well dodged bullet anon!

No. 700726

>>700723
Why were you guys drinking knowing one of y'all was gonna have to drive

No. 700727

God I fucking hate those derailling comments like „get out PULLtard“ and so on get over yourself it just sounds fucking paranoid ~muh imageboard~ „your not allowed to play here!!“

No. 700731

>>700727
I wish I could tip a fedora to every anon who tells me to go back to Twitter

No. 700738

>>700724
thank u

>>700726
I mean you can drink some and still be sober enough to drive, I only had one beer and beer is pretty weak. but he had several beers, I guess he's just stupid Idk

No. 700745

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This guy I'm trying to get close to will go out of his way to talk to me about our shared interests or find me during the day (we work together) to show me things he saw and thought I'd like, is friendly and compliments my appearance as well as gently teases me, but he insists he likes to be alone and isn't interested in bonding with people or making friends. Like…is he just retarded and being tsundere?? He knows that constantly talking to someone and initiating interactions is how you make friends, right? For context, he never said this to me, I overheard him say it to another (female) coworker. Idk I guess I should be glad he's not showing interest in other girls but I feel like maybe I'm just misinterpreting his behavior and he doesn't care about our interactions as much as I do.

No. 700747

>>700727
Well anon, you do type like an underage retard.

No. 700753

>>700667
>>700652
Thank you, it means a lot

No. 700769

My husband just threw the birthday cupcakes I made him in the trash. I know I’m not the best at baking but they weren’t that bad. Or maybe they were, because his friend is coming over in an hour and I guess my husband would rather offer him nothing at all than one of my cupcakes.

No. 700770

>>700747
Wtf anon I was just trying to emphasize how dumb this is and suddenly I’m unterage

No. 700782

>>700770
and suddenly german

No. 700787

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Bf INSISTED I buy the bookset he wanted for Christmas from some shady seller on ebay because of the price back in November, and lo and behold his shit still isn't here and now my $120 is being held hostage until December 30th and there's no way I'm seeing that package if the expected delivery was supposed to have been on the 13th. Shady seller didn't list a tracking number so I can't even pick it up wherever it is, if this retard shipped it at all. It has nothing to do with shipping being slow because this seller has negative reviews about not shipping from some people spanning years, even the store that services the account has 1-star Google reviews.

I know it's not a gift for me and I shouldn't be that mad but it makes me look like a bad girlfriend to not have part of his gifts when he got me expensive shit. Also it's the principle that this scum seller basically got an interest-free loan from me and other suckers, I'm sure after Christmas my order will magically be canceled and I will get a magic refund as if the item was never magically shipped at all. I want to spite these people so fucking badly for wasting my damn time.

No. 700814

>>700727
>„your not allowed to play here!
Well yeah. Why would you want PULLtards, or people who sound/act like them, to post here? Having standards and keeping out certain people is good.

No. 700820

>>700782
Why german?

No. 700822

>>700820
>unterage

No. 700823

>>700822
Exposed!!!

>>700814
What is this closed in mentality. PULL is no longer existend do obv the people will look gor some other way to gossip. I understand that newfags need to integrate but you bitches screetching Pullfag left and right is more annoying and derailling

No. 700830

>>700823
>PULL is no longer existend do obv the people will look gor some other way to gossip
That doesn't mean they should post here. Look at the state of /w/.
>but you bitches screetching Pullfag left and right is more annoying and derailling
Then stop acting like one? Are you one of those spergs from belle's thread?

No. 700836

>>700830
Thing is, and I think you misunderstand this, I personally wasn’t accused of being a pullfag. I’m just trying to read here and got pissed off by the deraill. How do you want to stop the bad bad pullfags? Get used to it girl

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>>700769
what a little fucker. you know what to do

No. 700845

>>700769
What a fucking asshole, I would be a petty motherfucker and tell his friend about how he threw away the whole tray
>oh, I baked some cupcakes for you but hubby thought they weren’t of your taste so he threw them into the trash can teehee

No. 700847

>>700830
Twitch thread became cancerous because of PULLtards invading it (but it looked like as if it was only one person, maybe two talking to eachother because after one of them got called out for being a retard they stopped posting). Now the only thread that is actively infested with these idiots is Vtubers one.

I dont mind PULLtards but the idiots from these two threads are the reason why PULL has and had bad reputation. Nothing but nitpick, whining or ""milk"" without proofs, the type you would hear in HS lobbys "i saw she said!!"

> tfw holonewfags scream that lc threads are the reason why all the doxx and rumors were made when /jp/ was always full of it. For some months now the jp threads are full of wk virgins though.

No. 700855

>>700847
>from these two threads are the reason why PULL has and had bad reputation.
even before those 2 threads existed pull has always had a bed reputation here because pullfags always act like that. And its always noticeable and then they get triggered when you tell them to fuck off or integrate.

No. 700857

I posted some nice stuff I was giving away for shipping cost only in a group chat and some girls jumped on it right away, but they never said thank you or told me when it arrived. I don't need them to kiss the ground I walk on but a simple "thanks!" would have been nice. They're all much older than me too, I figured they would have manners by that age but I guess not…

No. 700866

I'm not unhappy or depressed necessarily but I'm also not happy. I wish I could undo my existence. I don't want to kill myself or anything but I think it would have been better for myself and the people around me if I had never been born. I lack purpose and have been lost for so long now, I don't think I was meant to be here or something.

No. 700879

I wish I could go back in time to when I was six. Life wasn't perfect when I was a kid but at least it was better than what it is now

No. 700912

An online friend of mine is into writing and usually lets me read the stories he writes, and today he wrote down the idea of a character that has the same name as me and is also a little too similar. The character is basically described (among other things) as an ugly ass sexless virgin. I don't know if this is a way of telling me he likes me a bit (platonically or not) or he's just straight up insulting me. So when he let me read it I didn't really know how to react.
If he does like me, I'll have to tell him that he's never even seen my face and he wouldn't be talking to me if he knew me in person, since he's into either cute petit asian girls or beautiful girls with red hair and I'm, well, an ugly ass disgusting bitch.

No. 700927

>>700769
If someone made me something to eat I would eat them even if they didn't taste all that good (not saying yours didn't, they were probably fine), and I think that's how everyone would do it when it comes to gifts. I'm sorry but your husband acted like a petty little shit for not eating some cupcakes and wasting them by throwing them in the trash.

No. 700942

>>700857
Reading this reminded me to thank my sister and friend for sending me Christmas cards kek. Maybe they're just forgetful, but that doesn't make them less grateful?

No. 700964

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Having a flashback about my formerly first crush in middle school. I want to punch myself. I can't believe I have a shit taste of man back then

No. 700994

People kept telling me our supervisor said we might leave early today, they kept talking about it, and the supervisor told us we were still working ten hours. And ten hours next week. They had another department do half one of our jobs, we did most of the jobs due next week, but we have to stay the rest or the day doing more of next weeks work. Fucking stupid,going to end up standing around next week because we're so ahead. I think the office people have a Christmas party and everyone I know is telling me about their bonus checks and treats their jobs gave them. Waited a month and still haven't gotten my raise either. Fuck my life.

No. 701018

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had a fallout with a close friend ive known since elementary school, my sister (i live with her) keeps bringing a trump supporting faggot over and my mom unironically believes in the big reset stuff and that the covid vaccines are made to control the population or something

No. 701023

Some scrote I've been "talking to" asked if he could come over and I told him maybe after I get off work. Then he proceeds to ask me if I had covid because now hes sick and sore. So you were just going to come over sick and not even tell about me?I told him to get tested before he comes over again.

No. 701040

I got a call back from a job to schedule for an interview (via the computer) and I’m so scared. I’ve been unemployed for months, am probably not that strong of a candidate, and feel so damn unqualified for the job :(

No. 701089

what are farmers' opinion of intentional communities? They seem cultish and I equate sharing everything to also mean your partner?

No. 701105

This definitely comes from a place of entitlement but I hate when you ask someone where they bought a piece of clothing online and they purposely answer in a roundabout way (e.g. "lol idk I forget"). Especially when they have multiple people asking and it's a trendy piece so you know they got it recently.

No. 701111

In the span of two days I've insulted my two retarded coworkers, I've tried my best at gray rocking, going as far as not greeting them and ignoring them completely, but I can't stand them anymore, I feel like a ticking timebomb. My managers are not happy as they expect me to be better than that but if they did their job correctly we would not have reached that point. I don't even know why I get so angry just for a min wage retail job, guess my perfectionist ass can't catch a break.

No. 701122

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>>701040
you got this! you can do it!!!

No. 701123

>>701089
Wrong thread anon lol

No. 701124

I absolutely hate my boobs lol. They’re bottom heavy and droopy They’ve never been “full” they just hang off me like water balloons that are half full and nailed to a wall by the knot. Lol. I wish I was one of these cuck buck making cows so I could get fat transfers or somthing. I hate them so much.

No. 701125

>>701105
No that is annoying, especially when it’s a trendy piece as why gatekeep something everyone else is wearing anyway? I love when another person responds with the link.

No. 701127

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i despise narcissists and i am putting up walls higher than ever before after this year

i even considered not listening to some artists' songs on their own channels because it may be serving a narcissist

No. 701144

>>700745
>retarded and being tsundere
yes that sounds about right. men are pretty retarded when it comes to having crushes. He probably said that because he is making a point that he typically doesn't like people, but he clearly likes being around you. you should make a move, anon.

No. 701196

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I shared my excitement over the SISEA announcement and my bf's response was just 'I'm not for policing the internet'. Cool. Guess the price of freedom is nonconsensual porn.

No. 701198

>>701124
If it makes you feel better, as a painter, I think they're fun to paint. They're visually more interesting than a perfected version of breasts.

No. 701205

>>701196
it's possible that your bf is misinformed. A lot of twitterfags are talking about how downloading porn would be seen as illegal (even though that would only benefit sex workers since piracy is a big issue for them), rather than how sex workers can now easily take down their vids, cp can be easily reported and taken down and people in porn are more likely to be consenting, rather than a sexually trafficked 15 year old

No. 701207

What's up with the recent influx of sudden aggressive "nooo not all men, shut up femcel!!" handmaidery and fingerpointing? Did we get a new batch of newfags who see women hating men for the first time in their lives?

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>>701207
where are they anon I'll get em

No. 701220

>>701123
So embarrassed anon, I was wondering where my darn question was lol

No. 701246

>>701207
>influx
Feels like this site has always been a fight between the anons who think all men are evil pedo rapists and the anons who try to defend them. I'm not involved in any of the slapfests going on in the threads rn but the anons with the first mentality should unironically go and repopulate Asherah's Garden lmao. As many bitter and traumatized women are on this site, there are also "normies" who have had positive relationships with men so it's obvious the two groups will always butt heads with one another.

No. 701288

>>701105
sometimes I do this out of shame lol, I didn't want to admit I bought stuff on Shein. I should probably get over myself but it's like a knee-jerk reaction at this point to just pretend it was a gift or that I don't remember.

No. 701302

>>701288
Ayrt and I get what you mean. No shame in it though! Chances are the people asking probably shop from fast fashion brands as well and have no room to shame you. You can usually tell when someone's being snooty about it versus genuine though. Typically, people who actually don't remember will at least give you a hint as to what to look up to find something similar. If you're feeling insecure next time someone asks, maybe just do that. In reality, no one's entitled to know where you got stuff, but I just wanted to express my personal frustration a little bit.

No. 701320

>>701196
He sounds like he frequents porn sites, break up sis.

No. 701352

Just fucking found out that this person my boyfriend is always talking to on discord and playing games with is a fucking girl. And she bought him fucking Christmas presents. LOL. FUCKING LOL.

No. 701354

>>701352
some anons are going to tell you "lol anon youre so insecure get over yourself they're just gaming" but honestly, I'd feel the same way if I found out that way, especially if he has not introduced the both of you yet

No. 701355

ive been having these intense urges to have a threesome with my bf and a guy i like. im not going to do it and im not about to ruin my perfect long time relationship, but thinking about it just drives me crazy

No. 701356

>>701354
He just texted me “oh I’m playing league with my friend that always messages when you’re around she bought me ____ for Christmas” like I’m for real raging this entire time I thought it was a guy.

No. 701359

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everyone will value your life less if you don't have children at a certain age. I read a post from a woman who suffered a heart attack at a young age (she was like 34), the ambulance came for her, but they were still hestitant to take her because hospitals are overbeared because of the covid fuckery and they only take "high priority" patients here where I live. The paramedic called someone for consultation and she heard the guy on the phone literally asking "Is she young? DOES SHE HAVE CHILDREN?". She had two sons. That's literally the only reason they took her. I'm mentioning this because I remember anons in some /g/ thread denying that doctors will value the lives of childless women less than those who have children, and that's obvious bullshit

women's value will always be perceived through their ability to conceive and give birth. Men are able to conceive at basically any age (albeit with worse sperm quality), but women's ability to conceive naturally decreases drastically after 35, thus men will always be seen as more valuable than women, overall. You're more valuable than men only in your 20s (peak fertility at 25), but after that you're worthless if you don't have children. Plus men are valuable to women as providers, but men don't give a fuck if women are able to provide for men, and men tend to earn more money as they age, so again - men's value increases, while yours decreases. This is how it was designed by evolution, that is devoid of any mercy or morality. Even the statistics about the average age gap between men and women in relationships and the average age at which people marry prove that the sexes have evolutionarily adapted mating preferences that maximise reproductivity. I'm still young, I never want to have kids, but the thoguht that my life will be seen as worthless after a certain point makes me want to off myself, what's the point

No. 701362

>>701352
>>701356
What do you want him to do, not be friends with a girl? Not have her give him Christmas presents? Like…

No. 701368

>>701352
I get my male friends and male coworkers gifts even though some of them have gfs. Is that a bad thing to do? I have no romantic interest in them but it's nice to make a small gesture if I know they'll like it.

No. 701372

>>701368
its not. i do it too and my bf gets gifts from girls as well and noone thinks anything of it. but theres still a high chance statistically that her boyf is a sneak that likes his ego stroked by an egirl :^)

No. 701373

>>701368
It's not, some people are just irrationally jealous.

No. 701374

>>701359
I'm not going to tell you you're wrong, but being valued less is only going to have a real, tangible impact on your life in a few select situations. For the most part it's just gonna be a vague sense of being judged and minor inconveniences, not legitimate suffering and problems.

Your life is yours sis, it doesn't matter what other people think. And not having kids is like cheating tbh, it's living life on easy mode and that goes 10x over for women. You'll have all the time in the world to build the life you want, it's far from worthless.

No. 701375

>>701359
they just value the children's life because they are young. they only had to keep the mother alive so she could take care of them. sad.

No. 701376

>>701359
i get the first part of your post and its sad

but it doesnt correlate with the second part, which desipte that, is also true and sad

No. 701377

>>701368
Judging by the other anons reactions, this seems to be highly dependent on where you're from. This absolutely isn't okay where I live kek.

No. 701381

>>701377
Where are you from and why isn't it okay? It's not like you're flirting with them.

No. 701383

>>701381
probably depends more on how old you are, than where youre from … older people in well established relationships ideally shouldnt be as insicure

No. 701385

>>701352
>>701356
IDK anon if i was you i would start asking questions also league has the worst community ever that girl doesn't have good intentions i assure you kek.(IIRC u need to be friends for 2 weeks if u want to gift someone in game pretty long time how u didn't find out sooner?)

No. 701387

>>701352
My take on this is that it's okay for a bf to be friends with/game with/receive a gift from a girl, but the fact that it wasn't clear to you from the get go that the friend was a chick is not cool on his part. Out of courtesy & respect for your relationship he should've made it apparent from the begining.
I imagine that you're burnt by it right now, & I hope you find some relief from the pain. Fingers crossed that it's a tranny!

No. 701394

I have absolutely lost my will to live. By which I mean I'm not suicidal, I just want to give up getting up from the bed in the morning. I don't want to go to work, I don't want to meet people, I don't want to talk to anyone, I just don't want to do anything but lie on the bed. All food tastes like garbage and makes me feel ill and throw up. Even without including the pandemic I had the worst year of my life and it's been a huge fucking struggle for the past few months. I want to have a good cry but I haven't been able to cry in months, even when I want to the tears just don't come out. I really miss the life that was just mild everyday inconveniences and not a constant feed of punches in the gut and feeling like everything is meaningless.

Had to get this off my chest, it's depressing when you give something your all and it still doesn't turn out well in the end.

No. 701397

i dont think i'll amount to anything. nothing interests me at all to act on. i feel guilty that im a healthy person. i wish i was a fucking rock instead. sorry everyone for being a waste of space.. i wish i were someone else too.

No. 701420

>>701352
Mental illness check. I am OP and my boyfriend literally just had a typo. I asked him about it and said I didn’t know that your friend was a girl I thought it was a guy. And he said he is a guy. Lol. Sorry

No. 701422

I haven't had an actual christmas day/dinner in over 10 years. My mom died and my remaining family are weirdly cold and distant (autism running on one side of the fam including my dad)

Adding to that my country has spent months being strict to cut down on covid rates and now that it's christmas week there's a massive spike in cases, worse than at any other point because people can't go just one xmas without having big gatherings. I feel like shit because I'm realising how abnormal my own lack of a xmas has been for the last decade.. having one just low-key xmas day is too much for the average person, I'm about to spend my 12th xmas day alone.

No. 701426

>>701420
what if he's just lying to you now because you got upset

No. 701435

>>701420
Even if it was a girl, is he not allowed to have friends who are women? That screams of either having underlying issues yourself or you having a reason to not trust him. Either way it's not a great sign if the possibility of a female friendship sets off alarm bells like that

No. 701437

>>701420
Get help.

>>701426
You're just going to make her BPD flare up again.

No. 701442

>>701420
Straight men generally dont befriend women they dont wanna fuck at some point

No. 701443

>>701442
Or they are unfuckable ugly.

I was the unfuckable ugly female friend that is treated like a man.

No. 701447

>>701437
Vulture chan is that you?

No. 701451


No. 701453

I’ve never visited a gynecologist because I’m not sexually actively I figure there’s no point. Also I’m scared because there was a pervert of a gynecologist who got busted for secretly wearing a camera on his person when he saw his patience in my area. My doctor always told me to go to one but I don’t want to have some stranger all up in my lady business being skeptical of my lack of sexual history. Or bring creepy about it.

No. 701454

First Christmas ever without seeing my family and im stuck home with my abusive bf. I just want a hug. Im so tired of getting yelled at like a dog.

No. 701460

>>701453
Girl, get a female gyno. Males have no purpose in that field other than to be creepy. It doesn't matter if you're sexually active. You need vagina maintenance. I hope you seriously read about why it's so important

No. 701461

>>701454
I have spent several Christmas days alone and have also spent a couple with an abusive ex… being totally alone is honestly way easier. I know it's not always easy to just leave but I hope you find a way out at some point.

No. 701463

There's a gun in the cabinet next to my bed and im really thinking of just ending things right now. Death is really scary but life hurts so damn much right now.

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>>701451
Oh, a different bitter bitch then

No. 701466

>>701454
why are with him?

No. 701470

>>701466
He wasn't like this in the beginning. I think maybe its my fault for being so annoying. I'm bipolar and hard to deal with. He's never been physical, he just says the most hurtful things out of nowhere. It feels like knives in my chest. I know it's pathetic but sometimes I wish the abuse was physical rather than verbal.

No. 701473

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Stopped taking my birth control because im switching to the implant when lockdown here is over, but now im horny as fuck, no bf or fwb, and its like the fucking biblical flood in my underwear, I JUST WANT TO GET DICKED DOWN AND CHOKED AND SLAPPED AND EVERYTHING ELSE!!!!!!!

I've resorted to hearing erotic AMSR made by a fucking troon of my anime husbandos.

No. 701481

>>701454
I hope you find your own way soon so you can ditch the asshole. Also it may be worth it to tell your family about the situation so they can at least know, and maybe even help you if they're that kind of family to you. It's not a reflection on you to ask for help to escape a monster.

I don't know how bad the abuse is, but the last abusive guy I dated escalated his lashings out fairly quickly. He was already throwing/tossing shit around the room in fits of rage when he wasn't being controlling and negging me. That was only the second month of dating in. I left before it became physical. Never assume a guy who spends his time dehumanizing you verbally isn't gonna find the justification to lay his hands on you eventually. I think it's a good idea to tell family and friends what's up in case shit gets real bad, or heaven forbid if something worse should happen.

Stay safe and have a happy holiday in spite of him dear anon.

No. 701487

>>701470
Nta but some men seek out mentally unwell women because it's easier to abuse them or to make them question themselves. Your confidence might already be low so you stick around even though most would leave over that same name calling etc.

My ex had a habit of dating women with a mental health diagnosis and he told me his ex was violent… he hit me eventually and blamed me for being 'a frustrating person'…fast forward a few years and with distance and having received some fb messages I found out that he had a drinking problem that spanned many years and he actually hit every one of his gfs at one point or another. I'm not saying your bipolar isn't affecting things but just pointing out that sometimes men will be drawn to ill women for a reason. Then your illness is a nice cover up for why they lash our either verbally or otherwise.

No. 701490

>>701464
That's just you, kek

No. 701493

>>701473
as much as this must suck for you, I'm so envious. I've completely lost my sex drive a few years ago and idk how to get it back.
How do you do it? What is your secret? lol

No. 701496

>>701352
So glad I don't date insecure gamers who require the validation from multiple female 'friends' so I don't have to deal with these complicated moral quandaries that fuck with my self-esteem anymore.

Have you all considered dating people that literally don't play games, literal and metaphorical?

No. 701498

i saw a post on facebook that was saying "idk why yall continue to idolize selena quintanilla" like why the hell is she not role model or idol worthy?? she was murdered and died so young. lots of women, mainly 2nd and 3rd gen mex-americans, look up to her because they sympathize with the struggles she went through from not being connected to her mexican roots. and not even just that, her relationship with chris was so down to earth and genuine, and her struggles of dealing with an abusive father hits many people in the guts.
she was just so carefree overall… it is possible to idolize many people at the same time. people just love to guilt others for liking one person, especially now since the netflix show is out, theres so many people who don't deserve spotlight, but selena didn't really do anything wrong and she is not even alive. people trying to be edgy for no reason.


>>701463
it's just right now it sucks, this suckiness will pass, i'm sure of it. there's lots of stressors going on right now and it's affecting you and also affecting strangers, family members, and those close to you. we're all in this together anon and i can empathize with how tough things are being.
also think about some savory foods you haven't had in a long time and want to eat within the month. luck will come you way, you've survived other shitty times and had great positive moments after that shit passed.

>>701442
i can believe this, thankfully there are also guys who are tame enough to friendzone a girl when they're in a relationship.

No. 701503

>>701460
Theres really no reason for me to? I have my period every month and I’ve never been dicked and I’m going on 32 so Kids aren’t going to happen.

No. 701512

>>701493
I have no idea tbh, I just stopped my meds, spent two weeks feeling absolute utter shit, nauseous, fatigued, fainted once because my blood pressure was even lower than usual, and then BOOOM woke up revigorated but extremely horny today.
OH IF I ONLY I HAD A DECENT MAN TO BANG!

No. 701517

>>701503
Ma'am. That's not the only reason to have your vag scoped out. They palpate to check for any abnormalities, make sure that your pelvic floor is in good condition, and screen for diseases/disorders that don't require you to have sex to get. They also check your breast tissue. Just go to a female midwife/NP. They're professional and mindful of your comfort. Seriously though, that's important shit.

No. 701519

>>701359
Some of this is bull and just sounds like some scrote is putting you on a shame spiral. 1. Sperm banks have an age limit because men’s sperm goes bad as they age too. Some banks put a cap at 35, others 40ish. Google it, they are studying sperm more and more now and even finding that older sperm can be the cause of repeated miscarriages.
2. I wouldn’t say men are valued more than women as they age either. A lot of men never become rich or high status even with age, so they just become “that creepy old guy”. As long as women try to look nice as they age at least they are not seen as creepy or lecherous like plenty old gross men

No. 701529

>>695950
late answer, kek, but here you go. I only have 3 people I have conversations with, one of them is my ex-bf. even though keep wondering if I should've left him because while he was a 33yo loser, he genuinely loved me, I also know that this is just a desire to love/be loved that will go away as soon as I get an actual boyfriend that requires me to put an effort. I'm too socially stunted to go out and make friends (am a NEET) but still wish I had at least a circle of friends to talk to. as you can see, it's an endless spiral of wishing to be a normalfag but hating normalfagdom. It's fucking annoying as shit and I don't think I can take another 25 years of this.

No. 701531

>>701498
What a dumb thing for that person to post, Selena was the icon that Mexican-American girls in America haven't had for decades since her death. I haven't seen the show and don't plan to–the Selena movie will always be the most iconic to me. For people who don't know, her story is amazing; she started out in a poor family knowing zero Spanish as a kid, formed the band with the guidance of her dad and learned Spanish while living in Texas, and then as a Mexican-American, she went on to dominate the Latin music scene before coming back to America to record her first english album. And she won a grammy! I'm getting teary-eyed thinking of that movie, it holds a special place in my heart.
Kind of a bad comparison but for kpop fans, BoA (the Korean singer) reminds me just a bit of Selena since she also was sent to a foreign market to succeed before she came back to her home country. If Selena hadn't been murdered she would probably have similar recognition in the US as BoA has in Korea.

No. 701532

>>701453
Girl, I am begging you as a virgin who now has a pretty scary sizable tumors in her ovaries and cell changes in her cervix despite being a virgin: please go see a gyno, it isn't awful, especially if you visit a woman who listens to you. Your vag can't go to the doctor on her own, you need to do it for her.

No. 701536

>>701359
>men's value increases, while yours decreases. This is how it was designed by evolution, that is devoid of any mercy or morality

Stop visiting r9k, it's fucking with your smoothbrain and causing retarded hysterics.
In what fucking history books are women of reproductive age less valued than men?
Men are fucking disposable. Sperm is abundant. We don't need many men.

>but men have viable sperm at any age

No they don't.
>peak fertility at 25
Untrue.
>you're worthless if you don't have children
Childless males will always be less valuable than childless women.
>men don't give a fuck if women are able to provide for men
Actually they do, and these are the men you want to avoid because they're parasites and know they can't cut it themselves. Your little redpill brain keeps operating on the fact that all men are providers while having the cognitive dissonance to ignore how many men are LOSERS.
>I never want to have kids
Good, you'd likely teach them destructive and toxic things.

No. 701539

Today started so fucking good. My bf is off work for the holidays today, we have a big anniversary tomorrow we are able to celebrate alone, we splurged on delicious snacks and booze for Christmas… My bf got smacked in the face with a pipe accidentally and smashed 3 of his front teeth. He just lost his dental insurance and was a month away from gaining new insurance from his job. Fuck this sucks, he's in so much pain and trying to get this sorted right before Christmas is hell. He has been working so hard and I wanted him so badly to be able to relax for a week.

No. 701541

>>701539
Did the face smash happen at his job? How does one accidentally smash their face with a pipe in their free time?
If it happened at work he could get comp even if he doesn't have benefits.

No. 701546

>>701539
Holy shit rip to his teeth and shame you guys's chill plans got fucked but how did it happen? Like, where can that possibly happen

No. 701549

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Feeling pretty shit ngl. I went to work today and apparently someone organized a secret Santa for half the employees but didn't tell me about it even though I've been working there almost and entire year? Some people included were people who started less than a year ago. It could be entirely my imagination and they just organized a small one between a certain group of people but I'm really bummed no one told me about it if it was for everyone. I didn't even want presents I just want to be included.

I'm tired of being the fucking donkey at work and picking up the slack while everyone else gets to chat and be friendly with each other.

No. 701551

>>701359
If you don't want kids then yeah that judgement sucks a lil bit here and there but it's still better than 20 odd years of dedicating yourself to parenthood and often being stuck communicating with a coparent even after you split or if they hate your guts. My friends who've had kids (by choice, planned) seriously hate certain aspects of their everyday life that came from having kids. Mostly their partners or the ongoing presence and tension with a now ex. They're living with daily stress levels I may never know.

Like no thanks, I'll take some random judgement from srangers and just shrug it off. I read about that age related/motherhood judgement on here alot but at 32 years I still haven't experienced it irl.

No. 701555

>>701541
>>701546
He was helping a friend move some pipes in his backyard and his friend whacked him in the face turning around too fast with a pipe on his shoulder. So stupid!!!

No. 701556

>>701359
>everyone will value your life less if you don't have children at a certain age.
"Everyone" kek
>I read a post…
You clearly need to read something more useful, given this entire post of yours.
>women's value will always be perceived through their ability to conceive and give birth
Again with this "everyone". I don't care about people who think like that, why should you? Surround yourself with better people, move away from whatever backwards shithole you live in.
>men will always be seen as more valuable than women…You're more valuable than men only in your 20s …but after that you're worthless if you don't have children.
If you care how those kinds of men perceive you then that's your problem
>Plus men are valuable to women as providers, but men don't give a fuck if women are able to provide for men
I don't want to provide for a man that expects me to take care of him, and if you're not taking care of a child then you can provide enough for yourself.
>This is how it was designed by evolution, that is devoid of any mercy or morality.
Did you know we don't live in caves anymore? Or are you getting WiFi in your animal skin hut somehow?
>I want to off myself, what's the point
You may as well since all you care about is the same kind of men who don't care about you. FFS what a depressing person, just squeeze out a baby if you're going to be this way.

No. 701560

>>701555
His friend should consider helping him out. If it's a bill in the thousands I'd consider small claims court.

No. 701564

>>701555
That friend best cough up some dough

No. 701567

>>701555
Ouch jesus christ, agreed with anons above me, that friend should at least help out with some of the cost if not all

No. 701569

>>701503
You're 32 and dont know why it's important to see a gyno? My friend needed surgery because she had painful periods. Turned out she had polyps building up in her vagina wall. It happens. See a gyno. Kids have very little to do with women's health.

No. 701572

>>701531
>>701498

Sounds like Gen z being edgy again. Selena, like you said, was iconic. She was one of the few women to ever succeed in a very male dominated genre of music for Mexico. And she fought to get where she was. Her story is beyond tragic. She would have lived a long and successful life, being a role model for women in music and mexican american women everywhere. I think everyone needs to see Selena's story. And yes, the movie is definitely amazing. I dont like netflix, so i am weary to give them money to watch a series.

No. 701574

>>701555
That sucks so much!! Sorry that shit happened to your boyfriend. I agree with other anons that his friend needs to shell out. It was entirely his fault.

No. 701578

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>>701549
Sorry anon. I know it's not much consolation when you only wanted to be included, but you would have ended up with something useless you didn't like after spending lots of time finding the perfect present for someone else, that's always how these things go.
Anyway here's my surprise secret Santa gift to you I looked through Twitter for the cutest wild bird photo I could see just for you

No. 701579

>>701503
I don't know if you've done any foreplay activities but at 26 I had only ever been fingered and I had hpv and precancer when I had my first pap done. I was in shock

No. 701585

>>701549
I hate that shit.

In a workplace a few years ago I was approached and asked to pitch in every time it was someone elses bday. One time a very part-time woman had become a grandmother for the tenth time and after only meeting this woman a few times (and not knowing her family) I was approached by the usual organizer about buying the babies a gift…. seemed a bit much but I didn't want to be that stingey person. I never even saw that woman again after the gifts were presented. I dunno who her daughter or grankids were really. Stangers to me tbh

When my bday came along and I was in work that day… got nothing. That's after paying my portion to everyone elses bdays all year round. We even had a public calender listing every last workers bday on it. Work cliques suck.

No. 701586

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>>701578
Aww, thank you so much anon! That made me feel better. I guess part of it is not feeling like I'm well integrated into the workplace as I should. Have a cute penguin flapping

No. 701589

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>>701359
so larp as a mom
i ordered a subway menu with a kid one on the side and they gave me extra cookies. people love giving free shit to children.

to contribute to the vent thread, i think my mom is sabotaging me. i am back at their place due to covid and whenever i mentioned i am going on a diet to lose a bit of weight, she bought home entire junk food meals. usually there is basic food at home, but as soon as i mention i need to quit eating junk, she will bring junk. she knows it breaks me out too but when i can't refuse and get acne she will make comments about how ugly i look. why are women made crazy? is this her menopause?

No. 701592

>>701572
i watched the series off fmovies for free ninety nine, it's got subs and all.

No. 701608

>>701589

Maybe the idea of you wanting to take better care of yourself than she takes care of herself (as the person in charge of groceries no less) makes her feel self-conscious and she’s buying more junk to try to convince herself that there’s nothing wrong with it.

No. 701610

>>701589
Maybe don't tell her you're planning on dieting. Just avoid the junk food at all cost.

No. 701623

Does anyone have any tip on how I can treat a cat with ear mites without using ear drops?

I feed a stray that I let live on my patio, this morning I noticed black shit coming from his ear & I think he might have earmites.
Hes skittish as hell so he doesn't let me touch him, so ear drops or topical medicine are out of the question

No. 701624

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I appreciate my friends being thoughtful but I wanna strangle whoever popularized giving plants as gifts. Without me EVER expressing interest in taking care of plants I've been gifted two leafy plants and one oyster mushroom planter thing and now I have to worry about them and all their stupid ass directions about when to water them and how much and when to harvest or whatever.

No. 701625

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why does my bf associate with such cringe pickme sycophants? this is such a pathetic and degrading display.

it seems like he purposefully seeks out insecure women for validation

No. 701626

>>701625
the type of women he surrounds himself with online just really gets on my nerves so much. they’re so embarrassing and just buzzword all his interests instead of engaging in nuanced or meaningful discussion idk why he bothers responding to them, most women just ignore men who act like this and don’t find it flattering but for him it really cranks up his ego

No. 701627

>>701625
Start adding hot guys to your fb

No. 701628

>>701627
implying men can be hot

No. 701631

>>701628
Aren't you dating a man lol

No. 701634

>>701631
yes and he’s not even hot by most reasonable standards so i don’t understand why pickme BPD horrorshows are so attracted to him

No. 701635

>>701634
Do you not find any men hot? Maybe you’re batting for the other team honey

No. 701637

>>701635
i’m very very attracted to and in love with my boyfriend

i’d sell my soul to be a lezza

No. 701639

>>701634
Are you a bpd horrorshow?

No. 701642

>>701637
You are just contradicting yourself from one post to the next

No. 701643

>>701637
>he’s not even hot by most reasonable standards
>i’m very very attracted to and in love with my boyfriend
???

No. 701645

>>701643
You can be attracted to someone ugly. Women do it all the time.

No. 701646

>>701645
yeah and normal people call that coping and settling for less

No. 701647

>>701536
Sounds like copium.
>Actually they do, and these are the men you want to avoid because they're parasites and know they can't cut it themselves
So you're literally proving right now that men who don't provide are losers and you wouldn't want someone like this. So you're proving evolution is right. Women only want providers, men can provide or not, but providers will always be seen as the best. And providers themselves won't care if the woman can provide or not. Men, generally, earn more money as they age, and that's the main reason for age gaps in relationships

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Age_disparity_in_sexual_relationships

No. 701648

>>701646
Yeah most women settle and fall inlove with other aspects of a man. Most men are ugly and have awful personalities. If you can find someone who at least looks average and acts ok you can learn to love him and find him sexy.

No. 701654

>>701556
>Did you know we don't live in caves anymore
Mentally, we do. And the way people form marriages proves this.

No. 701657

>>701647
The majority of married couples have an age gap like 5-10 years it’s nothing that extreme. Huge age gap relationships rarely last long, you’re either really young or a delusional scrote who wants to believe you’ll nab someone half your age at 50

No. 701659

>>701657
>The majority of married couples have an age gap like 5-10 years it’s nothing that extreme
Yeah and in the wast majority of cases the male is older. Only in 1% of het marriages the wife is 10 years older than the husband.
Also 10 years is quite a lot imo regardless of sex. But society will see one as a normal and the other (the variant with an older wife) as weird.
Also, the wife being 2-3 years older makes up for only about 6.9% of marriages. It's such a small age difference and yet, it's quite rare to see this variant with the woman being older.

No. 701661

>>701659
>variant
anon are you a russianfag

No. 701663

>>701659
Mu mom is nearly 5 years older than my dad. She’s always looked young for her age though. Seems like most couples that last end up looking close in age anyway, like a 25 year old woman ends up with a 35 year old man, either the woman looks a little old for her age or the man looks a little younger so the age difference is barely apparent to others

No. 701664

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>>701657
>The majority of married couples have an age gap like 5-10 years it’s nothing that extreme
Even that is an exaggeration

No. 701666

i hate having sex and i hate that i do it every day. i do it because i love my partner but knowing it's a dealbreaker for hetero relationships just blows

like once i do some chores or something productive (aka most of my day) i want to cuddle, roll around and play a game, watch something… i don't want to have sex, it's not even an urge or a need for me anymore. fucking reeeeee

No. 701667

>>701664
Someone 2.3 years older than you is "your age"? Kek. Notice that only when the man is 2.3 years older people will see it as zero difference, but when the woman is 2.3 years older they will usually point that out as a difference. And as I said, only in 6.9 % of marriages the wife is 2-3 years older than the husband. You can say 2-3 years is nothing. But if it's nothing, why is it SO gendered?

No. 701669

>>701663
>like a 25 year old woman ends up with a 35 year old man
god please stop

No. 701671

>>701666
I'm so sick of depressing upsetting posts like these
Why are there so many anons like this who just fuck out of obligation in 2020? It seems so at odd with the philosophy of everyone else here

No. 701673

>>701663
I think the hypothetical 25 year old woman doesn't look old for her age, but she rather starts to look older around her older partner because he literally sucks the life energy out of her lmao. My cousin is 40 and he's dating a 25 year old (yikes) and you can literally see her aging rapidly. It's sad.

No. 701674

>>701667
I don't know why you're responding like you and I are in the middle of an argument, this is my first post on the subject and I don't even disagree with you… I'd prefer to see more older women/younger men relationships too. But the intention of that post was to debunk the idea that large age gaps are common or normal, they aren't.

No. 701678

>>701673
Agreed. Women in their 20s need to start loving themselves and stay away from men over 30.

No. 701681

>>701678
i'm kind of curious but what do you guys think about large age gaps in lesbian relationships? do you think it's a bit different since the power imbalalance exists because of the age difference alone, instead of both the age difference + hetero relationship dynamics playing a part?

No. 701683

>>701586
It's so cute thank you! I already had fun looking through all the birds before and didn't expect one back so this is such a nice bonus Merry Christmas anon, I hope you find a way to connect with your coworkers in 2021

No. 701684

>>701681
I think it's less toxic but I'm still not fan of it. I wouldn't go for a woman more than 10 years older than me
But yeah women are generally less predatory. I think age gaps and predatory behaviors are a big problem in male gay community, and I'm just repeating what young gay men have told me. But well, that's males for you

No. 701685

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first world problems but i do not feel good in my room at my parent's house. it has been made into a generic guest room since i moved out, and it is just soulless. i had to come back here since i lost my job due the rona, and move all my stuff into storage. my room there was so cozy and personal. i did put out a few decorations but nothing that would change walls or anything significant. can't even put string lights up because the tape could stain the white walls.
i am grateful i can stay here and i am stupid being so materialistic. but goddamn i miss my stuff. picrel is the vibe of my previous room.

No. 701686

>>701671
because if i don't fuck out of obligation then he will seek it somewhere else because men are horny trash.

No. 701694

>>701666
>>701686
Why don't you just break up with him and find someone with a lower libido? You say you love him, but you clearly resent him. You even admitted that he would cheat on you if you refused to have sex with him.

No. 701695

My mastectomy was postponed for a second time thanks to the giant blood clot in my jugular vein. I’m glad I listened to my body because that blood clot would have certainly killed me during surgery, but at the same time I can’t keep postponing it. It’s been over two months since my last dose of chemo and I am scared that because I haven’t had my surgery and radiation that my cancer will come back with a vengeance. My cancer is also HER-2 positive which means it’s more aggressive. Just end me.

No. 701709

>>701666
Sounds like he’s selfish in bed honestly. If he tried harder to please you maybe you’d be ok with it? Tell him to work harder to make you orgasm or fuck off lol

No. 701710

Last night I was finally able to enjoy a night’s sleep because there was actually some wind coming into my room and blowing in cold air to balance my ridiculously high heater but now its warming up again and my building refuses to lower the heat, and I know it’s just going to keep getting warmer this week and I’m fucking BOILING!!!! IM TIRED OF WAKING UP SWEATY AND UNCOMFORTABLE MULTIPLE TIMES A NIGHT!!! I JUST WANT TO SLEEP!! Then my dad says “well why don’t you turn on your fan?” like you fucking IDIOT don’t you think my fan is already on?? I would sleep on my floor but even my FLOOR is warm because of how hot my fucking room is. I want to turn on my ac in the middle of december because I feel so fucking disgusting and uncomfortable sleeping in this heat.

No. 701715

>>701710
>I want to turn on my ac
Isn't this the most obvious solution? You've complained about this before and like idk what other ideas you expect, if you have an air con that is the normal way to cool a place down.

No. 701716

>>701715
Just feels stupid and a waste of energy to turn on my ac during winter so I always feel weird about doing it lmao

No. 701731

My boobs are hurting so fucking bad due to PMS. I can't sleep on my stomach. I woke up in the middle of the night when I turned to my side because of the pain. I just want to grab a knife and cut them off

No. 701745

Idk if I need to mind my business or if its just too late but a really good friend of mine left a like 7 yr long relationship and hopped into a new one and is engaged with a ring she bought and the dude proposed ? But no ring? He doesn't pay rent shes working crazy hours to support him he has a kid that he rarely sees. I really tried hard to be happy but she kept expressing concerns to me about him and it all just screams red flags like major. She dropped a longterm friend over him already and isn't really talking to me because I asked about the mutual friend situation. It just sucks I feel like im losing my friend and she's just gonna get put thru the ringer/be used but I rly don't feel like shed listen to anyone.

No. 701746

I just want friendships where I actually matter to someone. I go out of my way so much to be helpful and a good friend and it's rarely reciprocated. Maybe I'm better off being friendless and lonely than constantly being hurt by being a perpetual afterthought in every friend group.

No. 701758

>post in the the stupid ass questions thread about how a friends bf hit on me in front of her face
>friend finds out today that same guy is cheating on her with someone else and refuses to leave
>spend all night on the phone listening to her cry
>shes planning on having a baby by him even though he already has two baby mommas

Straight women make 0 sense to me.

No. 701772

I hate working retail and I will want to punch every single bitch who'll buy anything today. Seriously you HAVE to get your christmas presents ON christmas day? Fuck you.

No. 701776

>>701758
This has less to do with being straight and more with having low self-esteem. Or being retarded. Who seriously thinks that having a child by a cheater will lead to them not cheating anymore?

No. 701785

I was lurking in the Delphine thread and I came across this post >>>/w/128076 which you would know isn't true if you spent any time on Tik Tok. Libfem female zoomers love her, so I'm confused. They commend her for getting out of the industry and sympathize with her immensely. Even more after the Hit or Miss debacle. Any time she interacts with their content or follows them, they're really honored. This isn't to start an argument, I just don't understand why people have this idea?

No. 701800

>>701785
Ahhh, it's got that freshly pulled out of their ass smell. People will just post whatever sounds good to them at the moment. I hate posters like that. Not every unsubstantiated brain fart you have is worth posting.

No. 701803

>>701785
People just love presenting their own opinion as facts. A lot of farmers here don't spend much time on gen z social media (or at least I get that impression from the posts here) so I think some anons just say whatever they want based off of their own assumptions, not things that they've actually seen. As a zoomer, I see a lot of anons say things about gen z and social media that is simply not true and obviously influenced by the negative view a lot of farmers have on it.

Also don't understand why they would think zoomers hate her? She's a former pornstar, so I don't see why she wouldn't have support, even after leaving. Also kind of amazing Mia Khalifa even has some relevancy considering former pornstars fall off hard.

No. 701809

I just woke up to find my husband cut my hair in my sleep and I think he did it with a knife. I’m so distraught. I ripped off the Christmas fairy lights, spat on him and broke some furniture. What did I do to deserve this.

No. 701812

I am so tired of scrotes. Dad decided to cheat today so no Christmas for my family. Yay

>>701809
Wtf anon. Why would he do that? Do you have a safe place to stay at?

No. 701813

>>701809
>I ripped off the Christmas fairy lights, spat on him and broke some furniture
before or after he cut your hair? kek wtf

No. 701814

>>701813
After. I can’t s stop crying.

No. 701818

>>701812
He was drunk but it was premeditated as about 3 days ago he grabbed my hair in a ponytail and Sid he will cut it with a knife as a joke so he knew what he was doing.

No. 701819

>>701818
Why did you marry an actual child? Has he always been an asshole? I'm sorry though anon, that's not okay and you deserve someone who's mature and respects you.

No. 701821

>>701809
i’m so sorry anon. get somewhere safe

No. 701822

>>701818
Hope he dies and you get all the money

No. 701824

>>701819
Yes but I thought we turned a corner. Years of building trust back up only to feel like I got violated at my most vulnerable. He’s now tried to say that I said there were orbs around my hair at night and that he did it with my consent. That’s a lie as I always told him my hair was the one thing I felt good about in myself. It was really long and now it’s uneven and to my shoulders. I’m so upset I actually got my period.

No. 701826

>>701824
i wanna shoot him in the dick

No. 701829

>>701824
>I’m so upset I actually got my period.
Wtf is that possible? The menstrual cycle is like monthly reproductive cleaning they're not emotion based, or so I thought

No. 701830

>>701809
If you can stay with your parents, go home asap, if not, go to another family member or friend or even a church, small churches want to help people
If you live in the US, you can file a report with your local sheriff's department, they most likely won't do anything, but it'll be on record that he assaulted you with a knife in case anything else happens.

No. 701832

>>701772
kek this has been me. A lot of people have been really grateful and polite but whenever someone is outraged that a popular christmas item is sold out RIGHT BEFORE christmas I'm like…you thought you were the only one that wanted a fucking gingerbread house this year???

No. 701833

>>701829
nta, interestingly, periods can be brought on or 'dried up' by severe emotional distress

No. 701837

>>701829
If stress can cause me to not have my period, I'm sure the opposite can happen as well.

No. 701843

I don’t have family or friends outside of him/his family/his friends. This is 100 percent the reason I will stop eating nd go back to the eating disorder I had for years. As I was sat here feeling what’s left of it, I realised my hair helped with my getting over bulimia/anorexia. I felt less naked and less fat with bigger hair so I stopped restricting which stopped me binging/purging. Now I feel like I can see every curve I hate in my body. He’s really fucked me up. I’m sorry to go on about it but what’s frustrating is if I try to tell him what he did he walks off or it immediately turns into a screaming match. I hate myself.

No. 701844

>>701843
you're not going to get a resolution because abusers enjoy your suffering, they have no reason to alleviate it
you could be healthier alone, you have to get out of there however you can

No. 701846

Just a few days ago we had the "not all men!" handmaidennery and now I keep seeing these posts about the fucked up things men do to posters and how posters force themselves to have sex with their scrotes etc. You're all a mess

No. 701850

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>be my mom
>grow up in poverty
>be very ambitious
>work hard and study medicine in another country on a whole different continent
>end up marrying local man and having a child with him
>become naturalized citizen of said country
>nearly all people from birth country met in university moved back home after graduating
>have no diasporic community
>not visit family since marriage due to busy schedule
>more or less unintentionally lost contact with them because of telecommunications issues
>experience discrimination in new country for being a visible minority
>feel isolated, but not wanting to go back because of husband and daughter
>wanted to visit birth country in 2020, but couldn't because of covid

No. 701852

>>701842
How can you be so aggravated over your loved ones wishing you merry christmas kek

No. 701853

>>701846
Almost as though there are tons of different users with different experiences that post here

No. 701862

I love my dad but I hate how he’s such a man. He’s a great baker and tomorrow we’re baking a cake together, I picked out a recipe that doesn’t outright contain nuts cause my bf is coming and he’s allergic. Almond milk and almond flour are on the ingredients list but I read over it since they’re 1:1 replaceable and my mom knows this shit (and so does my dad! He’s baked nut free before!) Today I call after reading the recipe again and mention this in passing and my mom says she didn’t look at the ingredients list or do the groceries, my dad did all that. And at the same time both of us have an “oh fuck” moment and yes - my dad bought almond milk and almond flour KNOWING my bf is coming and he’s allergic.

I hate that I expected my mom to hold his hand with this and that the moment I realized she didn’t I knew he’d done it wrong.

No. 701874

I hate when there's a topic I feel strongly about but am unable to mention because it'll turn into infighting and 50 different boogymen accusations.

No. 701892

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Holy shiiiitt fuck.
I fucking hate this mentality. I fucking hate people being pro-this mentality. I hate people who seek sex workers. I hate people who think seeking sex workers is okay. nobody owns you shit little piece of shit. FUCK I HATE THIS

No. 701899

>>701842
> or everyone will prob whine.
so what? You need to learn to take action, otherwise every time you'll have an issue in life your options will be reduced to salty posting online.

No. 701901

>>701892
>They're experts in intimacy
is this a joke? the whole point of prostitutes is that they can provide physical touch but in no way can they provide the intimacy that people are craving. sex by itself is boring without intimacy unless you're a sex addict

No. 701904

I'm kinda angry. Bf woke me up early to go pick up Christmas groceries and promised me he would take me to a "charity" drop off container so I could get rid of two bins of clothes and a bag of plushies and jewelry. He let slip "recycle your stuff" but I just thought he twisted his tongue like usual.
No, turns out these bins are actually "recycle your old shit" bins and it even says on them it isn't charity. I felt pressured by him to get rid of these things so I put them in anyway. I'm a bit mad. It's not like used shit is super nice but there were a few nice things in there that someone could have appreciated. Am I being irrational?

No. 701906

>>701904
I get where you're coming from. I grew up with very little money for nice things, just bare essentials. So I hate seeing nice things go to waste when they could be enjoyed by someone for a cheap rate and can support a charity on top of that. I think it's understandable that it would linger in your mind and annoy you.

No. 701907

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Does anyone else just feel almost constantly irritable? I have depression but recently it’s manifested in me frequently feeling pissed off. I seriously have no life and constantly start stupid internet fights with people just to get my anger out.

No. 701909

>>701892
Lmao it's just sex workers stanning themselves. Really no different than any other sales tactic. It sucks but also completely expected, whoever really buys into that is a sucker trying to justify bad habits.

No. 701911

>>701667
>people will see it as zero difference, but when the woman is 2.3 years older they will usually point that out as a difference

Why care about dumb people like that?

No. 701912

>>701907

Who are you really mad at? Where does your anger really belong?

No. 701913


No. 701914

>>701913
Ily
>>701912
I don’t know. It doesn’t feel specifically directed toward anyone. I just hate my life and when I feel extra miserable I want to be mean to people.

No. 701916

>>701846
Kinda weird of you to not feel empathic about them but rather ridicule them instead

Big scrote power play from you

No. 701918

>>701916
NTA but why would i feel empathetic at all?

No. 701919

>>701918
Don't we have a common enemy in scrotes? It's not anons fault, it's always the scrote.

No. 701921

>>701919
well yeah. but purposefully putting yourself in a situation where you hate scrotes but also force yourself to fuck them despite the shitty things they do doesn't cultivate a lot of sympathy tbh

No. 701924

>>701921
And what's the point on shitting on her in the vent thread other than for you to feel better about yourself?

No. 701925

>>701919
can you stop with the pointless tribalism? they were stupid, fucked up, and faced the consequences. big deal.

No. 701927

>>701924
i haven't shat on anyone i'm just saying. also i don't reply to the vents in the vent thread

No. 701929

>>701846
You couldn't have made it any more obvious that you're a newfag.

No. 701935

I just wanted a quiet evening alone at home. Instead I was guilted into joining my boyfriend's Christmas celebration with his sister. We get here and nothing has been arranged. We are currently watching TV while someone just started making the food. I hate Christmas food, so it's not even a meal I'm looking forward to.

I'm so bored. This sucks.

No. 701939

I don't know where to post this but this pisses me off. I'm an older zoomer (or a zillenial), but I'm in contact with younger zoomers and I only see this trend among scrotes tbh? Some of them just become more hateful towards women and minorities. Girls on the other hand go full on the gender idiocy and young lesbians don't identify as lesbians anymore, only transmen. One article says zoomers are indeed more conservative, other article says they actually look a lot like millenials when it comes to social and political issues, and some researches show zoomers think that diversity is good for society even more often than millenials. So I don't know. I still think they're overall more liberal than millenials, but the minorities, like incels/mgtows/redpills/doomers are way more hateful and vocal than the millenial ones.

No. 701941

>>701939
I only watched like 2 mins of this vid (these guys are so up their own ass it's unbearable), but the guy saying that it's because conservatives have more kids is definitely false. Hippies and bohemians never come from conservative families? Conservative types always have more kids because they're usually religious, and Catholics had a ton of kids 40-60 years ago and their numbers in the US are dwindling now. The issue isn't as simple as he's making it out to be.

And these guys are anti-abortion now because a few women on twitter took selfies when they got abortions? That's what changed their mind on the issue? Abortion doctors being murdered or 12 year old rape victims being made to give birth didn't make them pro-choice, but women taking selfies was the straw that broke the camel's back. Sure.

This whole thing seems like a poorly disguised anti-abortion video. "Just have more kids, damn liberals!"

No. 701968

I watched a video about Bratz dolls and there were lots of comments calling moms who forbid their daughters from having Bratz dolls "karens" and it pisses me off so much. How dare mothers try to protect their daughters from being influenced by unrealistic beauty standards or thinking they need to be sexy! It doesn't matter if dolls have a psychological effect on little girls or not (I don't know if it does or doesn't), these mothers are women who know what it's like to grow up as a female in a society that pressures us to be beautiful and sexy for men and convinces us that's what our value comes from, they're in their fucking right if they don't want their daughters to play with dolls they think are too sexy. Fuck the internet, it truly hates women.

No. 701986

>>701968
>(I don't know if it does or doesn't)
It usually doesn't tbh. most girls playing with them (including myself) didn't care if they looked like us or not, they're used as separate characters like making your own OC or something. It's all fantasy. Plus dolls with realistic features usually don't sell well.

No. 701996

>>701592
I'm gonna do that tonight. thank you, anon

No. 701999

>>701695
I'm sorry you have to wait longer, anon. Sending positive vibes you wont have to wait much longer. Stay safe out there.

No. 702000

>>701809
yo, go to the police

No. 702006

>>701986
I remember a few years back when people made such a big deal about getting a doll that looks like you. It's all bs. I was the same way. Played with dolls and action figured and made up fun OC stories with friends as a kid. I could care less there wasnt some chubby puerto rican version of me as a doll.

No. 702029

I feel like shit today. I've never really associated Christmas with happiness because my parents would always have massive arguments in the morning before going to family parties, and when I got older I'd always work Christmas to avoid it. So I've got a bunch of gifts to wrap up and cards to write in that I don't even feel like giving anyone and I'll be getting up early in the morning on Christmas Day to work at two places. I bought a printer for my parents last year and they never even took it out of the box.

No. 702045

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Everyday of my life is a youtube asmr that I can't click out of.
My bf chews with his mouth open.
cruuuUuuUnch munchhHh munCcvH mummmm

No. 702049

>>702045
Why are you dating a 5 year old

No but seriously, did no one teach him to chew with his mouth closed? I literally can't even imagine chewing open without all the food falling out

No. 702051

>>702045
I'm sorry anon, but you'll have to break up. Chewing with an open mouth is unacceptable.

No. 702056

>>702006
Yeah, most of the people who are criticizing these dolls are seeing it in the lenses of an adult. Tons of children can be manipulated to say things their parents believe, such as being upset you don't have a doll with curly hair. A child simply does not see that until a parent points those "flaws" out.

No. 702058

I hate christmas. It's so awkward because of ME. I don't talk to my mom's husband whom I've known since I was 10. She always forced me to interact with him even though I clearly felt uncomfortable with it, and I stopped talking to him when I turned 16/17. Now I'm 21 and still can't talk to him because i'm so ashamed of my past ungrateful behavior. I can't be in the same room as him. He's not a bad guy at all but I still have this mental block from when I was little. I can't move either because I'm a student and i'm saving and poor and ugh.

No. 702059

Just wanna say my crazy abusive brother is screaming on christmas eve and it sounds like buffalo noises

No. 702060

>>702058
samefag but I would never get my kids a stepdad, being a single mother seems better.

No. 702065

Every time a cashier mistreats me I end up crying at home.

No. 702072

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>>702065
Anon that sucks, I'm the same but have cried in the store before (not for pity. I was hiding my face and beginning to leave). The face they make, like something's wrong with you hurts so much that I cry while trying not to. Because I think something is wrong with me and it's showing despite my effort.
I told my therapist who tries to help me not take it personal. Sorry to insert my story, but I want to say you're not alone. It's hard when you're already self-conscious and beat yourself up. But it's most likely those cashiers are havinn a shitty day or their own problems. Their job is tiring and full of bs so it leaks in their behavior sometimes. It still doesn't feel good to deal with but I hope you can feel better and see that it isn't your fault. Even if they were mean to you directly, some people are just like that even in other situations. There are people who say mean things out of the blue that no one else was thinking or would say. Some people are mean because of their own issues. Anyway it's likely cashiers are very stressed rn, not excusing it but it's not on you. Hope we can both learn to handle it

No. 702077

>>702060
Same, idk if its because all men are trash or my mom has bad taste in men but it's so uncomfortable when you're a female. My mom has dated and invited multiple men into our home and I've always been weary of them from a young age. God I hate them

No. 702079

>>702065
How can a cashier mistreat you? Especially regularly enough that you need to vent about it?

No. 702080

>>702065
>>702072
what do you guys mean? have you ever worked as a cashier before? it's a horrible job and most of them are miserable yes, if they "mistreat" you it's very rarely personal

No. 702085

>>702080
I'm the second ayrt. Basically what you said is my advice to the first, to realize that it's not personal. It can feel that way if you have low self-esteem and really bad social anxiety. That's me at least, idk about the first anon. I wouldn't call it mistreatment myself because it's not usually personal, cashiers are stressed. If you have social anxiety you get paranoid everyone has an issue with you so it applies even to cashiers. Yes I know they have their reasons. I'm not judging them, only trying to stop myself and anon from judging ourselves

No. 702087

>>702085
same anon but I mentioned mean people simply as a possibility and point of comparison, not saying the cashiers are mean. trying to say just because someone says something hurtful or whatever happened to anon, it's not about you necessarily. some people are unhappy, some are stressed, or others are just mean, but in all these cases it doesn't have to be personal

No. 702092

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Any other anons deeply paranoid about someone recognizing you on here? Especially when posting on threads such as this one, the confession one or any similar ones on /ot/. I do not think anyone that knows who I am has even heard of lolcow, but I still can't help it. It makes me anxious

No. 702098

>>702092
It’s okay, anon, I’m sure they have no idea, specially if you’re from/only know people irl at; a country in which English is a secondary language.

No. 702101

>>702092
no
I have no friends and my remaining family are over 60
it's relieving, but only in the way death is, so

No. 702103

>>702098
Thanks anon, this made me feel a bit better. Yes I am an ESLtard, is it that obvious?

No. 702104

>>702092
I actually know someone who browsed lolcow, and now I am always paranoid that she will recognize my posts kek
I also have a hunch that some of my friends may also browse here, but those are not confirmed so they don't bother me.

No. 702107

Since everything is locked down and I can't do anything, my job has become my whole life, it's not even a hard job it's just retail customer service but I feel like I can't escape from it anymore. Can't see my friends (not that I have much left anyway…), can't go to the museum, can't have a nice snack at the coffee shop… I just wake up, go to work, come back home and browse Twitter, KF and here. I can't even enjoy simple hobbies like reading or translating, I'm always thinking about how much I hate my job and how I have few chances to find a new one in this current climate. Even on my days off I'm dreading how I'll eventually have to go back to work.

No. 702113

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I failed to explain to two coomers that PORN is horrific in every way to women and that it has so many negative side effects for men too.

Met with the usual "But men need it tho, they are visually stimulated" "it's just a bad habit, like junk food". Last time I heard, women aren't a fucking cheeseburger, not that you could tell by how men speak about us.

How am I supposed to work a normal job, trust men, etc, when they go home every day and fucking hypnotise themselves with "dad anal gang bangs daughter" every night. How can I expect any man to respect me when they couldn't give less of a fuck about us enough to give up porn. How can I get be in a relationship longterm, when he will watch teen gang bang porn when we are in our 40s.

Pic related, front page porn hub videos that are TOTALLY NORMAL. I feel like men are being radicalised and there's nothing we can do.

No. 702122

>>702113
those videos are horrific, im sorry anon. unfortunately the only thing we can do is try to educate people about it. i hope the sisea bill improves the situation somewhat.

there are men who dont watch porn and know how harmful it is. theyre just hard to find because most are too brainwashed to question the morality of what they watch to jerk off.

No. 702125

>>702113
yo, you should spoiler that

No. 702126

>>702072
Thanks, anon. My friends said basically the same about this whole thing. Everything is in my head or that they have shitty jobs, they are stressed, etc. Like you said, if something happens it's not on me, it's on them. But deep down I don't believe that. There must be something wrong me that I don't know of. I wish I didn't have to go there ever again. I always come home wondering why just existing is so awful to me.

No. 702134

>>702122
Thanks anon, I know that it is no good for me to take the blackpill on this. It's just so frustrating to be gaslit by porn sick men, and it's normies too! here's hoping the bill makes a difference.

No. 702141

>>702126
If it's possible, you could practice telling yourself those things? Even if you still think something's wrong with you, I'm sure you know these workers are stressed. So it's true to tell yourself "they are under stress which makes people snappy, they don't know me and probably aren't paying close attention to me. they will forget this interaction" repeatedly, stuff like that. You can mantra things in your head, whatever works. I know it's hard and may sound pointless, but I've found that repeating it can block out the negatives and subconsciously convince me. Or if you do better with distraction, it helps to think "Other people don't care that much about my mistakes. They're thinking about their own day and will forget this quickly" once and then try to forget too.
And you know those people who get mad when they perceive a problem instead of sad? I'm not saying that's desirable, but it reminds me: If other people don't take it personally and don't have to suffer, it's not fair that I should either. After all if it happened to someone else I wouldn't want them to be sad. No need to get angry but it doesn't have to be hurtful to us.
I'm sure you know but working on our self-esteem will help, too, because it's clear we both think something's wrong with us. Chances are, nobody else does or even cares to notice. I'm so glad you have friends who want to help, that alone shows you aren't so bad as you feel.
If it ever goes well for you anon, by that meaning you don't feel hurt by it— celebrate. Just bask in the fact you got something done. It can be a real task for those of us with issues and the more you realize your effort, if you take a moment to be proud it can teach you that you're worth something. Not even less than others or the cashier, they're just another person who may be hurting too. Sometimes I think they're "above" me so their opinion matters more, but we're all the same. You're just trying to exist like everyone else.
Sorry ik you're just venting but I really relate and don't want you to suffer, god this got so long. I'll shut it now

No. 702151

>>702113
Not that it’s much better but girls who look like they’re in their 20’s with huge tits or ass get just as many views in porn, if not more. I mean yeah it’s still gross but at least they don’t look underage

No. 702155

I don't know how to react when someone I know is grieving a death in the family. Even just saying that I'm sorry for their loss feels like I'm being an asshole. Fuck this.

No. 702156

>>702113
I've only found hope with finding my current scrote who is intensely nofap and watches Universal Man videos all the time. They won't do it for women but they will abstain from porn if they think it'll give them superpowers.

No. 702160

big thanks to the rancid asshole who ruined my whole mood after my christmas eve dinner with family by leaving his dog's nasty wet diarrhea for me to step into with my new boots.
Anyone who can't be bothered to clean up their dog's shit from the sidewalk deserves a public flogging and a lifetime ban from owning pets.

No. 702162

>>702160
Dogs are disgusting

No. 702165

>>702162
nope. retarded people are though.

No. 702168

>>702162
Oh no it's the dog hating anon

No. 702173

>>702168
Actually there's several of us with triple digit IQs

No. 702174

>>702162
Don't listen to them, anon, dogs are disgusting and their owners are usually just as bad if not worse.

No. 702175

>>702113
I could be wrong I don’t think it’s mostly Middle aged dudes watching this crap. The top consumers are guys in their teens and 20’s because they have the highest sex drives + access to their smart phones 24/7. Guys in those ages should be improving themselves so they can get a girlfriend and eventually a wife, but instead they are getting addicted to porn and jerking off 5 times a day. Its really sad stuff for both genders. Blackpilled tbh

No. 702178

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No. 702180

I wish my mom wasnt sick

No. 702182

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>>702162
Why keep dogs when you can keep a damn duck?

No. 702187

>>702180
I'm so sorry anon. I sincerely hope your mom gets better soon.

No. 702190

>>702160
You do realize picking up liquid is difficult?

No. 702191

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Why are men such shit oh my fucking god

No. 702192

Wanted to wear a dress tomorrow and maybe get a decent photo of myself, but all my dresses are too big so I can't wear them. Leggings and a top for me again. Feel like posting a photo of just me in my underwear so I can be validated for toning up and losing my depression weight but whatever. Merry Christmas y'all

No. 702195

I wish I had things to do today with family but I don't. Theres nothing at all to do but wait because everyone else only celebrates tomorrow. My family used to celebrate both eve then day but they're all pretty much dead so I'm just sitting around alone until I eat tomorrow.

No. 702200

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I feel so awkward visiting my brother’s girlfriend and their family. I’m doing my best to pretend I’m not autistic but it’s just so awkward.

No. 702201

>>702190
I don't give a fuck, it's the owners responsibility to figure it out. Your dog having the shits is not a good enough reason to just leave it in the middle of a sidewalk.

No. 702202

>>702079
Seriously, I've only had a cashier be bitchy to me once and it's because I was in the store on December 23rd kek, I definitely didn't do anything that warranted her attitude but she'd probably been going through hell all day. Funnily enough I got a job cashiering at the same place 5 years later and some of my favorite cashiering shifts were during holiday rushes. The shift absolutely flies by because there's no downtime. I've also never been flat-out rude to a customer like she was to me, it's not that hard to stay professional and not treat strangers like shit, especially if they're clearly anxious and not instigating a negative interaction.

No. 702204

I hate Christmas I'm so drunk and stoned and it's awesome and I'm so happy but I'm so horny and I hate that there's no qt to give me the strap

No. 702206

>>702200
God, same but with my sister's bf. They're all nice but they're a big group of super extroverted, outgoing Staceys and Chads and it's impossible for my shy, awkward ass to be comfortable with them. My sister is also an extroverted Stacey so she fits right in though.

No. 702207

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My mom finally went off the deep end and verbally abuses me every time I leave my room and acts like everything I do is a personal attack against her – she's paranoid and delusional, plus I was sexually abused when I was little and she confessed she doesn't like having me around because I'm a "reminder" that it happened (as if I don't have to fucking live with myself, too). I guess I should have just NOT been molested as a five year old, oops my bad. I don't feel comfortable leaving my room, only leaving to go to work or when she's asleep. My brother just made Christmas dinner and after all the shit I do for him he couldn't even be bothered to bring me a fucking plate to my room even though he knows she's treating me like shit right now. I'm so fucking hungry and it's Christmas Eve and I'm a grown fucking woman feeling like a scared child, I fucking hate this shit and I hate her. Saving every penny and counting down the days until I can move.

No. 702211

my favorite candle is gone from the store i usually go to, why is Birch & Currant such a hard scent to find

No. 702216

Its my first christmas without family or a tree or presents or a christmas dinner and Im so depressed about it. It used to be the highlight of my year as a kid and now Im just wanting it over with. Catch me christmas morning eating cold yams in front of an electric heater, anons.

No. 702217

>>702216
sage because samefag but I didnt mean to make this sound like millions of people arent also going through this right now. I feel for all of the hristmas-less anons rn and I wish I could give you all a hug and some gingerbread cookies.

No. 702241

i feel kind of weird that i'm about to graduate and make ~75k a year entry level, but there are women my age and younger who sell amateur nude/boudoir photos and can make a thousand in a day

it's probably just bitterness, because i know i could do it, but i don't want that to be my identity–yet i'm kind of jealous that people who let that be their identity reap more rewards… if that makes sense? my thoughts about it are really muddled, i just want someone to slap me and tell me i'm making the better choice

No. 702243

>>702241
I follow some women who make content on OF and patreon and they don't really make that much money unless they already had a large following beforehand, one of them makes the same amount I make in a month and I work part time delivering pizza. Idk what the average is though. Plus that there is an age bracket to making that kind of content because men want barely legal girls.

Congrats on your new job anon, that's a good starting salary. Mind if I ask what field you're in?

No. 702244

>>702241
whoa what kinda job is that in this pandemic anon?

No. 702245

>>702241
Well, the thing is that OF stuff is kind of a short lived career. You can only make bank off your appearance for so long before simps start to get bored and find a new, younger girl to throw their money at. A degree and a normal job grants you a much steadier income. And let's be real, most of these camgirls are not… the most mentally stable, and if they come upon a large amount of money they're far more likely to blow it all on stupid shit instead of saving for the future. The betabucks are gonna run out pretty quickly.
And like the other anon said, the girls who truly make bank are just a vocal minority. For every Belle Delphine there's thousands of girls making pennies.

No. 702248

>>702201
Agree. dog owners who leave their dogs' shit on the ground deserve to be publicly shamed

No. 702250

>>702243
>>702245
valid points, thanks for talking sense anons! i guess i just have fomo but i should be happy with the hand i was dealt instead of wishing for more (possibly at a large expense). to answer >>702244 i'm going to be a cybersecurity consultant, i chose my field based on the potential of the market and caught a lucky break

No. 702267

>>702243
Uh no, you don’t have to look underage. The top earning onlyfans girl is a 28 year old Australian girl with huge tits. I know of another girl on twitter who makes a lot with a similar build

No. 702274

>>702267
I never said you had to look underage, I said men like barely legal girls, it doesn't have much to do with looks. every single time I've ever gone to p*hub I'm flooded with "teen stepsister" videos and "jerk of with random teen" ads. the top earners on OF usually have some sort of following already (bella thorne for example).

No. 702275

>>702274
Have you considered maybe it’s because teen is way easier to search than “hot woman in her 20’s or 30’s”? It’s just porn shorthand for a relatively young looking woman. Plenty of dudes don’t want to fuck or jerk off to women who look like children

No. 702277

>>702275
>hot woman in her 20’s or 30’s
Why would they need to search that? It's the default for porn that isn't specifically teen or milf

Imagine being so brainwashed you defend men actively searching out teen porn lmao

No. 702280

>>702277
nta but i think the reason men like teen porn is because of the inexperienced aspect and not the age. because that's why they like teens in general. it's attached to creepy virgin fetishization.

No. 702285

>>702277
Ok so if that is the default of porn, then that’s what the popular porn. So then why are you saying all men like barely legal? You're contradicting yourself and don’t even realize it

No. 702286

How do I stop being accidentally rude to people due to my own pure ignorance? I fuck up entire relationships with people including family members just because I’m so socially awkward and retarded. My therapist says I have arrested development from trauma and I know that’s a part of it for sure but I also don’t tell anyone that? I’m really ashamed only my husband knows. For example, today at a Christmas dinner with my long distance family who already doesn’t like me, I said something to my cousin about salesmen becoming soulless overtime because she was talking about careers and said she could probably be an architect or a salesman. In retrospect, yeah it was fucking rude of me to say that. I shouldn’t have said anything. I just accidentally say really edgy or annoying things and it’s like no matter how old I get I can’t filter it in time. I overheard my cousins talking shit about me tonight and it really hurt my feelings because I really do try to compensate for my stupidity with being kind and sweet. I’m a nice person but my lack of social skills and knowledge of norms really hinders all of my relationships. Does anyone have advice for me?!?

No. 702288

>>702285
I'm the one who said men like barely legal girls, >>702277 is a different person

No. 702290

>>702280
no, because men hate women who are still virgins in adulthood. they're just pedos in denial

No. 702305

>>702286
>today at a Christmas dinner with my long distance family who already doesn’t like me
your first mistake was showing up at the dinner

No. 702307

>>702290
Don’t the girls in teen porn have innie vagina? maybe it’s more that. I remember seeing “Busty teen” as a title so not every teen porn title means the girl has a childish looking body type

No. 702313

>>702290

i don’t think so. I‘ve been rejected because i‘m a virgin (I’m 20)

No. 702318

>>702307
petite is associated with youth while the latter is with age. the porn industry is scummy and filled with the absolute refuse of society but that doesnt mean older women arent petite and teens arent filled out. its just playing into the generalization and these anons should be embarrassed as such

No. 702327

>>701843
shoulder length cropped hair is really cute and at that length it will still make you look smaller because it will fluff up more since it has less weight pulling it down. don't let that piece of shit win by not eating because he stole your hair. fuck him. If you told him it made you feel better then he probably did it maliciously, so get back at him by enjoying a delicious Christmas dinner. I love you anon, it's going to be okay, a hair stylist will fix it, it will grow back and look adorable in the meantime, and your husband is an abusive cockroach fuck him

No. 702331

Boyfriend has been dropping massive hints that he was going to propose this year. Back in February he said he had a ring picked out, but then in later months he started asking what my favourite gemstone was, if I liked diamonds or preferred other stones etc. He built up the second half of my Xmas gift saying it wasn't something I asked for but something he hoped I'd be very happy with.
It ended up being a teddy bear. A very cute one, and I do like it, but I feel a pit in my stomach.

I haven't been psycho about getting married, I've barely brought it up but we have talked seriously about it in the past and we both want to get married and feel we're on the same page and going in the same direction in life, and we've been together for four years.

I guess Covid messed with everything, but I just feel weird and I know it's my own fault for expecting it in the first place. I hate that he'd say he had a ring picked out when he absolutely didn't.

No. 702333

>>702331
Why did he say he had a ring picked out when he didn't? Was he trying to gauge your reaction or something?

No. 702335

>>702333
I can't figure it out either. He didn't go into any detail when he said it, the topic of marriage came up in conversation and he said it as we were about to change topic. At the time I thought it was really sweet and it got me incredibly excited, now I feel like a big idiot.

No. 702339

>>702335
That's weird of him.. Don't feel like an idiot though, when you've talked about getting married seriously and there's clear hints and cues he's going to propose, it's only logical and reasonable to expect a proposal in the somewhat near future. (It'd be weird if you didn't.)

I guess you must've expected a ring for Christmas when he said it was "something you haven't asked for but something he hoped you'd be very happy with.", I would've too. That'd seriously mess with my feelings.

No. 702342

I’m so sad I don’t have more time at home for the holidays after starting my first real full time job. I was having so much fun but I need to go back today in order to have enough time to quarantine and start work on time. But I’m not really looking forwards to the future because Americans have such few vacation days. Fuck American work culture.

No. 702344

>>702339
It might still happen, but thanks for chatting about it. I don't really have anyone I can talk to about it right now so it was nice to confirm that I'm not crazy or anything. Hope you're having a good Christmas or just a good day if you don't celebrate it.

No. 702348

>weekend is on the 24th and the 25th because I often work on actual weekends
>thought I could just spend my time playing video games because I don't give a fuck about Christmas and my family isn't chistian
>my big sister comes home to visit and eat dinner
>her and one of my little sister just beg me nonstop to let them play Mario games on the Switch while arguing over who's the most terrible at Mario Sunshine
Fuck Christmas.

No. 702355

>>702344
Hopefully it'll work out! ♥ Thank you and merry Christmas to you too.

No. 702360

>>702344
2nd ing the other anon. I think he really was planning to propose and covid got everyone a cold feet. As terrible as it is, the pamdemic has been a true testament of relationship. If you guys are truly suited for each other, he will come around after things are getting better.

No. 702363

>>702335
Im wondering has he done something like this before? promised or hinted at doing something for you and just never did? Huge red flag if he has done anything like this before. Means he’s lying just to keep you around

No. 702371

I'm miserable as fuck today. Hope I die.

No. 702379

>>702371
bitch, it's christmas

No. 702409

>because men™ hate women who are still virgins in adulthood

They do? Prove it

No. 702417

>>702409
Nta but just wanted to add that men who obsess over female virginity are literally just insecure losers, or virgins themselves

No. 702454

i'm what they would call an oreo

No. 702466

Super petty and probably first worlde-y but I'm sick of my mother getting my brother and sister surprise Christmas gifts with thoughts and usefulness put into them while I have to tell her what I would like (and she doesn't even go buy it herself, she asked my brother) and the only surprise is a fucking joke gift, am I a joke to you?

No. 702467

>>702409
learn how to reply first

No. 702469

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I dont like nor trust coworkers who give out names. Like if a customers is being an absolute piece of shit to you at work and you say something, but walk away only to realize your coworker gave our your real name to them so they can complain. How hard is it to make up a fake name on the spot? i know it sounds like a dumb vent, but this shit happened to me last night and i got cursed out at by a rude af customer refusing to wear a mask and by the time i got a manager, he was gone. I was pretty steamed at my coworker the rest of the night for giving out my real name. It feels really shitty

No. 702470

>>702409
i mean everyone's experience is different. it might only be where i live, but when i was 18 and admitted to guys that i was still a virgin they were disgusted by it and immediately became less interested in me

No. 702472

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i’ve complained about it too many times in past vent threads here but here we go again

we solved our budget problem and have surprisingly greatly reduced my wife’s drug spending and we’re able to pay for bills and necessities with far less struggle (there’s still a lot, but much less)

we’ve given each other an allowance every week, which is what her drug money comes out of, and i was excited to finally be able to spend some of what i earn. I mean well, of course i can’t. I put aside my allowance for emergency funds and it ends up getting used anyway.

I signed up for a covid trial vaccine trial though. I got a bit of money for it, gave my wife a majority of it to take care of some stuff she needed, and i sat aside thirty bucks because a game ive waited for for six years finally came out today and i hoped that would cover the cost. That was about 2 days ago. I called this morning to check the balance on the card they gave me and there’s $0.53.

i know its petty, but my wife just came back with her christmas gifts. lots of expensive things she’s really wanted and i’m happy she has them. i dont really celebrate christmas because i’m disowned so there’s not much for me to do because my wife and i usually celebrate the solstice a few days before every year.

i guess i’m venting because all i really wanted was that game. it’s been like six years and it turns out it’s only 20 bucks and it was all i wanted to get today. im just… really disappointed.

No. 702473

>>702472
no idea why i had the spoiler image selected lmao, it’s just a kitten with a festive tail.

No. 702474

>>702470
i know for a fact this was in north america considering how idiotic and nonsensical the men are there

No. 702477

>>702474
you hit the nail on the head lol i'm from america

No. 702481

I'm an ungrateful bitch, but I would rather receive no xmas gifts than what i got. A fucking spotify subscription, really? I'm always bitching about wanting vases and shit for indoor plants, whenever we go shopping together I always pointing to ingredients that I don't buy because I consider them a luxury. And what do I get? A subscription for a shitty music service that I've not even tried because it's so fucking worthless.
Oh, and bluetooth headphones, that are unconfortable as fuck and are too big and clunky to use while running or exercising.

Ahhh, I wish my sister listened to me and knew what I like and dislike, instead of projecting her tastes and opinions on me. I know she cares about me and loves me, she's the only one who always stands by me, but I feel invisible when I'm with her. I'm her little sister, a pet, not a person that she sees as an equal.

No. 702482

>>702472
I don’t fully understand this but get yourself that game

No. 702483

>>702482
it’s okay, i didn’t read it back to make sure it made any sense, just kinda rambling. im gonna get the game the second my next paycheck hits though.

No. 702485

>>702481
That sucks anon. Can you refund? The guessing game culture around gift giving is so fucking wack to me. In my family we ask each other if they would like the thing before buying it, which makes reciprocation easy too.

No. 702488

>>702472
Cutest spoilered image I've ever seen! Also, your wife fucked up on that. That's really really selfish of her.

No. 702489

>>702481
Damn, did you get the subscription from a close family member? It's even worse than getting a gift card imo.

No. 702496

>>701666
is this a troll? I refuse to believe someone is this stupid. you deserve getting raped every single day until you realize how stupid you are.

No. 702497

>>702496
Kys male. At least try to copypasta on a post that makes sense.

No. 702498

Christmas with my bf's family definitely started off on the wrong foot so far.
We arrived at his parent's house with the polish food I made, and Christmas cards. We had dropped off the 10lb rib roast the day before with the understanding that his brother was going to take it out and prepare it this morning. The roast was still in the fridge when we got there which was odd so we pulled it out.
His parents are elderly, his mother has dementia. They're both sleeping when we let ourselves in.

His father wakes up and bf tells him how we brought the roast and gets it out. His dad proceeds to argue about having requested bf get a 5lb turkey, not a 5 rib roast. He told us to get the roast and insisted on the size even, even his brother said that's what he wanted to cook. It just seemed…really ungrateful. Who the fuck wants a turkey opposed to a $140 prime rib?

His mother awoke from the ruckus. I greeted her Merry Christmas and told her about the food I made and she kept repeatedly asking if I liked to cook, and then she proceeded to talk shit about the elderly cats she no longer wants to take care of because they're puking all over the house, which upset my bf. She might have kept bringing it up because she expects my bf to take these cats, which he won't.

We go to hand over our cards, bf wrote each of them separate and I wrote one for both. His dad complained when bf handed him his card. "GIVE IT TO HER!", he pointed at his wife. Bf said it was for him specifically and tried again, he griped why bf wrote them separate cards when he could have just wrote one.

We wanted to find his brother so we went upstairs. His brother comes our from a 2 hour shower. The roast hadn't been sitting out this entire time to come to room temp so it will cook even. He took it out at 6am, but the dad must have put it back until we found it in the fridge when we got here hours later. Which begs the question why his dad thought it was a turkey when it obviously isn't and he even carried it between the counter and fridge at one point?

I've never been so bored and anxious at the same time before. I'm dreading going to heat up my food later.

No. 702502

>>702286
Take your time to respond. Talk slowly. I take pauses in my speech all the time to prevent myself from being a bitch and if people want to listen to you, they will be patient.

No. 702507

>>702498
Ew your bf’s dad is the epitome of the miserable old scrote trope. The brother is useless and probably just wants to evade the whole thing. Try to ignore and don’t let him get to you, nothing to be anxious about, you’re not trying to please retarded men, young or old.
I used to see someone with a shitty old scrooge relative. At some point I just throw elder respect out the window and start pretending to not hear a word and never respond to bitching and moaning. He can eat what’s available, when it’s available, or he can not.

No. 702511

>>702498
Let them crash and burn. When you handed off the roast it wasn't your problem anymore. Enjoy your sides and your christmas

No. 702513

Worst Christmas if my entire life.

No. 702530

>>702371

I just hate Christmas tbh

No. 702533

>>702513
What happened?

No. 702539

Sometimes my mom buys me random Christmas things like Christmas sweater or shirt or socks or pj's and I never use them because we don't even celebrate Christmas and the clothes aren't warm enough for how cold it is in my bedroom
I feel so guilty and sad thinking of how I don't even use the things she gets for me and spends money on..

No. 702540

Every single Christmas within my family it always goes to pot. Every single year. It doesn't matter who or what there is always someone miserable and unhappy.

I mean the last Christmas I had with my grandfather he fucked it up. But he did almost every year and we always used to have family friends over and other relatives who started drama back then. Thank god I don't have to deal with them anymore.

But since my grandfather died, my grandmother is just miserable on every occasion, worse than ever.

The start of this year was me getting into trouble because I have struggled to find work after graduation and that I don't go out enough because my social life is dead and I got ear ache for going on holiday to New York with a friend. I'm 26 - I can't do anything without someone needing to know where I am it seems. It just pisses me off big time.

And today, I got bitched at because my ungrateful fuck of a grandmother got a gift off my mother which is this camera door bell thing called Ring! and my mother is finishing her job because of stress and bullying in management after new year so she's scraping by on savings until getting into a new job.

My grandmother opened it and was like "well thats shit it can go in the shed" and just being negative.

I called my mother up in my room to ask how to get it working and also how her fiancé was and if he liked his gifts since I didnt have the chance to chat to him yet. My grandmother was doing the christmas dinner (i live with just her since my mothers had no room and until I can afford to live by myself but I plan to work abroad next year).

And she's marching up the stairs and screaming at me "You're a cheeky cheeky cunt! calling your fucking mother up! You had no right to even ask her! I was going to give it her back so she could get her money back!" and threatened to slap me and all sorts of shit.

We had christmas dinner in silence with a movie on and she didnt even eat hers properly. She threw it into the sink and left it there.

Then screamed at me for going to wash the pots.

She's off her fucking rocker. I swear to god - I had to message my mother in private saying to not mention anything and my mum was in shock.

My grandmother has some issues, she always has done. This is why my fucking aunt broke it off from us all when she got pregnant three years ago. Even her wedding was ruined by my grandmother, we went wedding dress shopping I recall in 2015 and my grandmother was slagging off everything in the store. My aunt wanted her dress made and my grandmother was rolling her eyes and making nasty comments at my aunts friends weight, "Well you wont fit in that dress so dont worry" and she didnt even help my aunt with her dress or stick around. She went outside to light up a cigarette. I remember my aunt wanted to cry, I dont get on with my aunt much but I felt for her then. My grandmother acted up and my aunt did for the wedding situation to be honest.

But its the small toxic things that make me realise why my aunt broke ties with her own mother.

I love my grandmother, she has a good heart when it comes to helping people and such. But she's fucking toxic and I need away.

2020 was supposed to be my year. I was dating someone at the start before the lockdown shit and I had 5 job interviews booked. Week of the interviews? Lockdown happened here in the UK. I was heartbroken.

My grandmother has legit turned into a controlling haggard bitter old bitch. She was miserable even with my grandfather was here. She loved him but he copped for a good punch during an argument or treated like shit if she had a bad day.

I need to get away.

No. 702541

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No. 702542

>>702539

I feel the exact same.

My mother got me Baby Yoda pjs and a Baby Yoda bedding set. I'm 27. I don't want these things. I get she means well and such. It's nice - but I dont want them. Honestly, Id rather people saved their cash.

No. 702570

>>702542
It's ok if you don't want it but your age shouldn't really have anything to do with it

No. 702597

>>702542
I wish you sent those to me and I'm 28

No. 702608

>>702597


You can have them if you want anon

No. 702618

>>702608
too bad I'm an eurofag and not living in the usa as I guess that's probably where you are from…
You should absolutely find someone who love Baby Yoda and give those to them, you will make their day!

No. 702621

I'm extra sensitive today now that everyone is celebrating Christmas and posting pictures
I can't stand my pig-like parents and don't have any other family or friends, I spend most of my year just alone in my room waiting to not wake up anymore because I'm poor and retarded and lonely

No. 702628

>>702621

I am so sorry you feel like that today anon. Christmas this year isn’t the same and not everyone likes it anyway. I hate it to be quite honest.

I’m single and wishing for a new job and a relationship. I can’t wait for my thirties to have a baby, a man, a house and to have happier christmases.

No. 702637

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Today I was helping out at a store that was understaffed and I brought a container of food from my store’s party and put it in their fridge. We had a bunch of these containers with a few servings in them (because covid) so I figured my parents could have it. When I was getting ready to leave I realized the employee coming in took the container and started eating out of it without even asking who it belonged to or if they could have some.

No. 702640

Can I just…vent about something so arbitrary and dumb?

I have no where to dress up. I keep buying clothes despite having no plans in the foreseeable future to go out both because of corona and because I'm friendless, and I just want to dress up and take pictures. Fashion is the one thing I'm really into and dressing up is the one thing that boosts my self-esteem and I've been living in pajamas for a fucking year.

No. 702644

>>702640
In all honesty I understand this. I'm getting so tired of being in pajamas 24/7 due to working remotely and not going anywhere outside of my apartment because I used clothing to express myself. Now I just feel dirty and unkempt but dressing up just to hang around my home seems like a waste.

No. 702656

>>702640
Just dress up for yourself? I spend days dressed up all nicely while I'm at home all the time. I feel terrible spending the whole day in pyjamas lol. But putting effort in my clothes and my hair/make-up makes me feel really good and productive even if I stay home all day

No. 702668

>>702628
If covid wasn't around my life would be the same actually. I just feel extra sad lately because I don't want to be alone anymore. I wish you luck though and hope you reach your goals soon

No. 702670

>>702637
I hope they step on thumbtacks, anon

No. 702672

Fuck I’m the airport and I realized I forgot to pack my MacBook charger. It’s the first time it’s happened even though I’m so careless. I could buy a charger for $100 but it’s too expensive. But right now the mail system is getting fucked in the ass and the town im going to might not even have one for sale. (I live on an island that’s literally 100 miles away from the next town).wtf am I going to do???

No. 702676

This sounds crazy but idgaf. I was a person in favor of gun control but at this point I feel like I need to carry a gun for self defense if a pitbull ever attacks me. The owners are crazy and they're always randomly roaming around. Disgusting

No. 702683

>>702672
Does your island have a message board or something? Try finding someone else who has a charger they can let you use. In the meantime find a way to get your charger sent to you.

No. 702695

>>702672
I don't know if you know the people there but I'd ask around and see if you can lend one. Or maybe you can ask someone to pick up your charger and bring it to you at the airport if there's enough time for that.

No. 702702

Thinking about simulating a migraine tomorrow to get out of attending another christmas dinner with my bf's family without offending anyone. They're nice people but their get togethers are always so offensively long and boring, jfc. Please, just let me stay in and watch dr phil

No. 702733

>>702702
Do it.

No. 702737

>>702702
I agree with the other anon, do it

No. 702741

A lot of the people that I considered my best friends that I made while I grew up turned out to be ashamed and disgusted by me, and I feel pathetic that even though they never invited me to hang out, never even said hi to me while they were with their other (and better) friends, I still wish to be get contact with them and catch up. I won't do it, I know they don't like me and they'd turn around the talk shit about me, I know I'm just hanging on to the past because now I'm lonely and in pain. I'm just remembering things in a better light compared to how they really were.

No. 702744

>>702733
>>702737
Alright then, anons. Keep your fingers crossed for my oscar winning performance tomorrow.

No. 702772

growing up my family always fought really badly on holidays like christmas and it takes every ounce of my being to not just be sad all day even though i haven't lived with them for years. this morning my partner yelled at me about something i didn't even do and i've been unable to quit moping all day. really sucks.

No. 702835

period started today and i fucking threw up even though i haven't had one that bad in months

so fuckin fatigued, just wanna play games w my husband and friends online but im in so much pain reeeeee

No. 702888

A discord server I enjoyed and was starting to make friends on just deleted out of nowhere. I have no clue why but I’m more upset by it than I probably should be. I hadn’t added anyone from it to my friends list yet.

No. 702894

I hate not being able to leave the house during quarantine without my parents questioning me about it

No. 702896

this is the most first worldy thing ever, but

I asked for a lap desk for christmas. they got me the smallest, cheapest one they could find. the whole entire reason I wanted a lap desk was so I could game using a mouse (I don't have a desk, nor do I have room in my parents' hoarding house for one). the lap desk they got me is so small it barely even fits my laptop. and then they bought me a mouse?? I can't even use it. sorry for being such a spoiled bitch, I feel bad but it's basically a pointless christmas gift.

No. 702897

>>702640
I may waste 2 years of my twenties being home all day because of the stupid virus, it's pretty sad when i think about it.

No. 702899

>>702896
Just use the desk exclusively for the mouse and sit your laptop in your lap on some books or something?

No. 702901

>>702896
Christmas presents feel so bad when it is so clear the gifter didn't care to think about you very much or choose the cheapest option assuming they arent super poor or its not a crazy expensive jump in price for the better version. It's definitely first worldy but valid to feel a bit hurt when someone didnt think about your use case or care to learn why you wanted that specific gift. It's like buying someone the wrong shoe size like what do you expect they do with it…

No. 702903

>>702897
I keep thinking that I would have been so much more okay with this if I was in my 30s/40s/50s, aka married with kids and an office job I could do remotely but spending two years of college barely in college, dating pool being teeny tiny, and working retail during a fucking pandemic just feels like the worst time for it to all happen, like if I was older I might be able to be more cozy about it but all my life experiences right now are so specific to my age— losing out on being 19/20 feels a lot different than losing out on being like, 43/44

No. 702904

Why the fuck cant i just find another girl who isnt a fakeboi, drank the koolaid, is coomer pandering, rude nlog, or boring brick wall without any hobbies who only cares about her bf. I feel so fucking alone trying to meet other girls like that im so sick of gamerboys who just want to get in your pants when im not even attracted to guys. They will never be on the same level as talking to another woman. Ill never understand how men cant wrap their heads around women wanting their own as friends just as men have guys night out. Hell i dont even understand "life on easymode" when a basic of making other friends sucks since women will see you as competition or inevitably have a kid so you rarely see them. The lockdown doesnt help at all either. I know im not alone in feeling this way but ive just been so down about it…

No. 702906

>>702903
Tell me about it, I spent my gap year on the couch. Kinda wish this happened at 38yrs old, when I could rly use the break.

No. 702909

>>702903
Only because you value your age more than any experiences you might have, which is your fault and I feel sorry for you that you've been brainwashed to feel like that.
Getting a boyfriend is easy and anyone can do it (extremely overrated though), what exactly are you missing that you won't be able to do later? Do you think you're gonna die next year or that older people don't have fun or something?

No. 702913

>>702909
Anon chill what the fuck, I just meant I’m missing out on college parties and Greek life and things specific to the four years I am in college. I am seeing guys rn but nothing serious cause no one wants to get too involved just not knowing what the situation will be month to month, like if we’ll have to go back into lockdown. “Brainwashed” kek shut the fuck up, what is your issue

No. 702915

>>702913
Lol why are you so butthurt over it? You can't do those things at 21-22? Extend your studies and get a post-grad degree or whatever you yanks call it? Why do you have to specifically be 19?

No. 702916

>>702909
Why do anons here get so mad about people wanting to savor their twenties? Nobody said older people don't have fun, but people are allowed to enjoy being 20. You clearly took anons post way too personal. Do you also get offended when teenagers want to do teenager shit?

No. 702918

>>702915
You clearly know nothing about the American college experience which is fine but a lot of those things are specific to undergrad, greek life doesn’t extend into post-grad. Sure I can do those things at 21-22 if the pandemic is over, maybe??? And somehow I’m the butthurt one lol

No. 702919

>>702916
Because saying you want to "savour your twenties" is setting yourself up for failure and dread of getting older, dumbass.
I'm 22 myself, not exactly old, you'd think you'd have a similar reaction after reading all the anons crying about feeling like an "old hag" at 20, crying on their 18th birthday and fearing aging for a year straight while in quarantine.

No. 702921

>>702903
>30s/40s/50s, aka married with kids and an office job
Those people are miserable and tearing their hair out over being stuck home with their kids though

No. 702922

>>702919
>because saying you want to "savour your twenties" is setting yourself up for failure and dread of getting older,
So should all twenty year olds just be miserable? Once again, enjoying the stuff you experience during your twenties is not a bad thing. That anon is literally just saying she wants to spend her early twenties doing college activities, ya'know, that place people usually go to in their twenties. You're focusing too much on the age part when it's clearly just about wanting to experience college life, which anon is going to miss half of.
>you'd think you'd have a similar reaction after reading all the anons crying about feeling like an "old hag" at 20, crying on their 18th birthday and fearing aging for a year straight while in quarantine.
I don't it's right anyone feels like that either? That doesn't have anything to do with the op post though

No. 702923

>>702919
Op and damn you’re putting a lot of words in my mouth, I’m very excited for my post-college life but my goalposts for my mid-to-late 20s is a little different than my expectations for college! Stay mad over nothing tho I guess

No. 702925

>>702922
>So should all twenty year olds just be miserable?
No, that's exactly why I'm saying this? Aren't you already miserable by crying about your wasted youth or whatever and not being able to get raped and gaslit by a dumb frat bro? Greek life sucks, just enjoy the extra time to study for exams with no fomo.

No. 702926

>>702925
Why do you keep responding to posters that aren’t me, I’m announcing I’m OP in my posts and you ignore them and address other posters like they’re me? Newsflash retard, but I also miss going to class and you know, every facet of university life that I enjoyed including academics, I didn’t look forward to college my whole life to get “raped by a frat boy”. Your projection issues are astounding, so how well are you coping with the pandemic? Hope you’re having the time of your life xoxo

No. 702927

>>702926
So then what is the problem? Just study lol, the pandemic doesn't stop you from attending lectures.

No. 702929

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I have a gross smelling throat infection (I think) that I left unchecked for too long and I fear it may be too late. My throat was sore the other day and now my sinuses are burning like hell. It had been smelly (my throat) for a month, just smelling like mothballs. I figured if I kept going the tonsil stones would eventually come up but nothing happened yet. I believe it started from smoking cbd hemp. I'm so worried, I don't want to get sick from this shit.

I don't want to go to an irl doctor for them to charge me 300 dollars to tell me it's just an infection that'll go away but I'm scared remote doctor won't be enough. Fuck

No. 702930

Hate to break it you guys but life is always gonna suck a little at any age. You should learn to deal with it a little better as you get older, so there’s the silver lining I guess

No. 702933

>>702929
I used to get tonsil stones you might have an infection but they smell like mothballs even with no infection. Try gargling sea salt water or get an antibacterial mouthwash and gargle. Ever since I started taking vitamin C more they haven’t come back

No. 702942

I finally have a date tomorrow. I'm freaking out super bad. I haven't had a legit date in god knows how long and my anxiety is definitely getting the best of me. Drinking gives me confidence and this has only had the introduction through texting of a confident, inebriated me. I hope I can woo him still in person.

No. 702943

She's just so tiring and depressed all the time…

No. 703001

How to completely disappear for a week or two? I need a vacation from life

No. 703029

Probably a pretty common realization during family holidays, but men interrupting women constantly is certainly not a meme. My dad interrupts me and my mother constantly in family conversations, speaks over us, ignores what we interject, thinks he has to give his opinion or insight when I ask something aimed at my mom. He talks way too slow and gives overblown answers, so I'm often left there standing and nodding awkwardly even though I asked a simple yes or no question and want to continue whatever I was doing. Especially awkward when I explain him something I know way more about, and he tries to - hate to use the word but it's fitting here - mansplain it back to me. Meanwhile he's insanely sensitive to being interrupted or if someone ignores something he says with loud exclamations like "WHAT A NICE TALK" or "I WAS SPEAKING". And yet both of us just let him be, because he's a drama queen old man and would never change.

No. 703034

>>703029
My father interrupts me and my mother all the time too. I used to always cut him off and say he was interrupting me, but that always ended up in insults going back and forth. Now we just let him finish talking, and once he does we don't reply and ask each other to continue with what we were saying, essentially silently punishing him for interrupting. It works, he interrupts less now.

No. 703037

i'm sick of porn existing. i'm sick of feeling like i'll never be enough for a guy compared to whatever shit he can pull up on his screen at any time.

No. 703045

I have no friends, I live in my mom's garage, I'm trying to get disability so they won't have to chop my feet off
I just want to die, there are 3 elderly family members who love me, I have to wait until they pass to kms
If you know you aren't well, please don't have children

No. 703064

>>703037
Who cares if you’re ‘not enough for a guy’, it only matters if you’re enough for yourself.

No. 703069

>>703064
because feeling inadequate in a relationship is miserable, doesn't really matter what you think of yourself in that case

No. 703095

I can't wait for corona to expire on Jan 1st. I'm sick of this shit.

In all seriousness though, I really am tired of this. With the amount of countries that are being impacted by this I feel like we won't get back on track till another 2 years ago by.

No. 703100

>>703095
Yeah, but are you ready for the Roaring Twenties (second)?

No. 703108

>>703095
if this goes for another two years I am going to paint the fucking ceiling with my brain

No. 703111

>>703069
She’s not in a relationship though, she’s placing the opinion of pornsick scrotes above her own.

No. 703115

I desperately want to make friends but friends who I can be myself around. My iPad is freaking out/broken so I can't even do art until I can manage to make an appointment to get it fixed.

I have no real special interest as of lately, so I just sit in a room with my birds and wait for the hours to go by till it's their bedtime so I can go lay in bed. I sit on call with my boyfriend and he just plays video games the whole time, barely talking to me. I feel invisible and lonely.

No. 703116

My mother had a nice Christmas for once after a lot of bullshit and drama and my aunt has to fucking ruin it by being a fat jealous attention whore, trying to start a fight by whining about not getting a thank you text from me when I don't even have her fucking number and the day wasn't even over yet. I literally never speak to this cow because of her need to start fights and get attention but she forced her way in regardless by giving me and my mother presents when she never does. I didn't ask for the damn present, plus I knew something was up when she came in out of the blue to give it as my mother and I had not spoken to her all year. The only reason she even gives a shit is because she knows mum had drama this year but got locked out of the loop by everyone involved because we all knew she'd try to make it worse, plus she's always been a jealous narcissistic fatty when it comes to my mother who's been skinny all her life.
My mother is far too forgiving of this bitch. I hope you choke to death on whatever crap you eat you fucking cunt.

No. 703117

>>703037
Why do you want to live up to the fantasies of pornsick losers in the first place? They're pornsick losers for fucks sake, what do you care? Do you value yourself so little that you let a scrote decide for you whether or not you're good enough? Don't allow them to have that kind of power over you. You shouldn't put any value on the opinion of a pornsick loser anon. Realize your own worth. A confident woman doesn't need those lowlifes to think of her as good enough, because their opinions are utterly worthless and irrelevant.

No. 703119

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fucking dammit, my dumbass father booked a fucking table in bumfuck nowhere for my birthday tomorrow and i dont want to go, i want to stay home and study
fuck dammit, i've never celebrated my birthday in almost 30, we just invite the same relatives for dinner every fucking year, but since they are afraid of covid they are only passing by. I like having them here, for coffee or lunch, i dont care. But if they are not coming for dinner i don't mind in not celebrating. I dont care about cake or gifts or fancy meals, just leave me the fuck alone because i've a monster of an oral exam next month. But who the fuck cares what i think or want?? So go the fuck ahead and schedule a lunch without asking me what the fuck i want.
fucking shitbag family, i hope tomorrow we are sent back home by a police patrol efforcing the fucking lockdown

No. 703171

>>703116
She'll be back trying to worm into your mom's life because you do shit like snicker about how she's fat behind her back instead of telling her she's fucked up and what your boundaries are to her face.
It's one thing to be passive aggressive and lacking a spine when it's just you, but it sounds like you like the drama from your fat aunt deep down if you won't even tell her off for your mom's sake when it clearly upsets her. Do something about it.

No. 703175

We are finally getting exterminators to come in for the bedbugs but I have a feeling that this won't do shit. Our infestation is pretty bad (not uncommon to just see a bedbug out and about in a room or two in the middle of the day at least once a day) and my parents are half assing the prep. I know once we move all the shit back into the apartment, there will probably be stray bedbugs hanging around and the infestation will just grow again. I want to desperately move out but even if/when I do and I properly get my shit treated, I can never come back to visit my parents or let them into my apartment for fear of bringing the infestation into my new apartment. The most annoying thing is that my dad is off most of the week but the only day things get done is because he hounds my cousin (and I get dragged into it) to put HIS shit away for him. He won't sort through any of the shit he's hoarded even though the hoarding situation in the apartment makes the bedbug problem like 100x worse. For once I'm glad that I have such a small wardrobe because if I think washing and packing away my clothes is daunting, my parents have at least triple the size of my wardrobe (most of their clothes isn't even in their drawers/closets and is packed up high on top or on other shelving units). I feel so fucking hopeless my dad keeps throwing bitch fits about the bugs biting him but is doing the least to help the situation. Our building is paying for this treatment but he says they will only pay this ONE time, and obviously this one time (and the follow up treatment) will be rendered useless by how careless my parents are. My cousin and I are willing to pitch our money together to pay for treatment too, but I don't want to basically throw away so much of our money only for it to be naught. I fucking hate this and I feel like this is hell is never ending and I won't ever be able to escape even if I do move out. I'm too scared to go and see friends for fear of infesting them too just from a hug or something.

No. 703176

>>703064
>>703117
Based advice

No. 703195

>>703117
I love you anon

No. 703215

>>702637
Okay I’m not mad anymore, that store also ordered chicken broccoli pasta so she thought it was theirs

No. 703249

I bit down on a crisp which caused the opposite pointy end further in to suddenly upstrike itself into the roof of my mouth.

I shall surely die of this mortal wound, but it has been a privilege browsing lolcow tonight.

No. 703254

>>703249
bye bye anon!

No. 703260

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just want to join a female server that’s not weirdly right wing or on the other hand full of troon loving libfems

No. 703266

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No. 703277

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I wrote a whole rant about my mom but deleted it because I went all over the place, I just have too many issues with her. I don't hate her but I really wish I had the nerve to tell her to her face that she is a huge controlling bitch and she has no respect for me and I resent her so much for so much pain she caused me growing up, all of her daddy issues that she let turn her into a fucking miserable person, and the fact that to this day she makes no effort to hide the fact that she cares more about my brothers, even though I'm the good kid. I want to cry thinking of how I tried to do everything right when I was young, tried to pull up the slack where my brothers didn't give a fuck about my mom because I felt bad that they were hurting her, only for her to turn around and treat me like I'm a burden to her and I can never meet her standards as an adult and she doesn't give a fuck about me yet she's always on my ass about how I'm not good enough. She's so selfish if I told her how I feel she would make it all about her hard life and how I owe her so much. I didn't ask to be born and you don't even want me so whatever. Oh my god this post doesn't even make any sense my brain has rotted out from being a fucking doormat

No. 703279

I hate how people don't give a shit about friendship and only care about their partner
That explains why most ppl start losing or making friends at a certain age, it's depressing

No. 703294

>>703279
there are a lot of factors, not just romantic relationships. everyone is kind of spread out, can't meet everyday like they used to in high school or college. most people have full time jobs. some people start families. it's unrealistic to be as close as you used to during school. i'm fine with my little circle of friends that i've known for 10+ years. other than that, i'm not that interested in making new friends. i mean, i wouldn't mind it, but i don't purposefully seek out new people like i used to in school

No. 703302

This is so fucking ungrateful of me but I wish my boyfriend would stop buying me food when I don't ask, specifically entire boxes of pizza. I have an ED that's currently the worst it's ever been (I am 22 now, I've had it since I was like 15). I know he's just trying to be nice and feels uncomfortable buying food just for himself but like, I have food for myself, I had leftovers I was looking forward to eating and planned my entire breakfast and whatnot around what I was planning to it. I don't want this pizza, I had a slice and already had a breakdown over it. I know it's on me but.. I try and tell him this or like, ordering pizza or whatever is one thing, but it's when he does this last minute messages of "btw i ordered you a pizza" like.. please. It's so hard for me because then I also feel guilted to eat and maybe I'm paranoid but I wonder if that's his intent, or at least slightly his intent.

No. 703304

>>703302
God, I hate people buying me food. The amount of times I've unnecessarily snapped at my poor innocent dad just for for buying/offering me food… I feel really bad about it because he's just being nice but at the same time it makes my life so much harder, just let me eat what I make myself ffs

No. 703320

I get it's the thought that counts but I fucking hate when my mom buys me anything. It's always a bunch of cheap shit that I'll never use. A flowery cup, angel statue, earrings, and dollar store socks. Only she likes flowers on shit, I'm not christian but she is, and I never wear earrings (but she does). It's like if you want that stuff buy it for yourself, don't fucking insult me like that. And when I say anything about her buying me stuff I don't want/need it's a martyr tantrum "boohoo you don't appreciate me am I a bad mom I try my best!1".

No. 703357

>>703320
Make it a faith-thing so she can't refuse: "Mom you can't buy me all these cheap things because they're made my little kids under terrible conditions in low wage countries, as a Christian you can't support that" or "You can't keep buying me so much stuff because the bible says materialism is bad"

I don't know how religious your mom is but this would a 1000% work on my christian mom

No. 703367

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I can't complain about this irl because I don't wanna be ungrateful but ughhh. I lost my job because of the pandemic and so did my mum, so her, my brother and I are going to move into my grandma's house because it's empty.
It only has two bedrooms, and we planned to make another one for me using space from the living room. Now she wants to just divide one of the two bedrooms which are very small and make two fucking cubicles for me and my brother because she doesn't want to lose living room space to decor.
I will have basically no privacy and no space to put most of my shit so I'll just probably have to somehow find another job and move out in like 2-3 months which is so stressful since I have no job and no one to live with. God, I hate this.

No. 703623

I wish I took better care of my teeth and ate less sugary shit when I was a kid. Now all my teeth are yellow

No. 703624

>>703623
Same. I'm getting my teeth fixed rn and once that's done I'm going to see if it's possible to get them whitened. I fear my teethcolour might be a lost cause though.

No. 703626

>>703623
felt this. i was bulimic as a young teenager, then anachan with a bad chew and spit habit. my teeth are absolutely fucked lol

No. 703628

>>703623
Teeth color is genetic, it may have nothing to do with diet, or at least not as much as you think.

No. 703632

Please help please help please help I was in a coma three weeks ago and when I woke up my foot and calf was kind of weird and numb and I needed crutches but since then I've had pain growing in the numb foot to insane levels. I've not slept in over a week I sort of get dizzy and hazy and I'm in a locked room quarantined for over a week because I tested positive for COVID.
I got an MRI and I have three herniated discs (L4-S1?) which are apparently pinching the nerves.
Nurses are giving me ibuprofen and paracetamol and codeine if it gets awful and amitriptyline and I'm doing yoga in my little cell designed for sciatica but I still can't walk.
TL;DR does anybody have any positive stories about overcoming an injury like this please because all I find on the internet is people who have been suffering for years and the pain is driving me insane

No. 703635

>>701420
Kek thanks for giving me that refresher on what a clown I act when in a relationship.

Like my emotions when single are so steady, but for a moment I could literally feel you catastrophising and working yourself up, that he's a simp or she's fully after his oblivious dick (why do I always think literally everyone is after whoever I'm dating?), along with the immediate comedown and breath of relief when actually it's a dude, completely forgetting how you were in despair a few minutes ago and not wanting to look at how problematic your thoughts were. That is so me with a bf.

You should really try and question what would the problem really be if his gaming friend WAS a woman.

Mind you, I'm not ready to tackle that shit, so I can't talk. I'm staying single till I've had therapy.

No. 703647

>>703628
>Teeth color is genetic
I knew someone would say this. Having yellow teeth come from having poor oral hygiene, and drinking things like tea and coffee.

No. 703656

Yikes some ppl here shouldn't date if they're that insecure

No. 703658

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I know it will sound overdramatic and that there is a pandemic going on and people dying and shit but I HATE myself SO MUCH right now because I threw a spoon into the sink and managed to break a part off from one of my fave coffee mugs which I bought on a trip that is one of my fave memories of mine and I feel like screaming right now. This mug is sacred to me and the fact that I managed to break such an important item of mine because I COULD have put that spoon into the sink like normal person but noooo I had to throw it and now I sit here and I'm at the edge crying because I'm so angry at myself

No. 703665

>>703632
Omg anon I've been thinking about you. Sorry to hear you're in pain, have you tried searching youtube for nerve stuff, I am sure you have though but I really am sending you the best of wishes. It's gonna get better slowly!

No. 703669

>>703658
Calm down anon, it's fine to be upset about your mug but turning it into some big self hating production about your heinous crime of throwing a spoon in a sink is unnecessary… google how to fix a ceramic mug and stop blaming yourself for a silly accident.

No. 703679

>>703647
Nta but I've had yellowish teeth my whole life and I brush my teeth twice a day and floss. No coffee, no tea, no cigarettes, not many sweets either. It just be like that.

No. 703689

I've been doing a lot of body checking ever since I moved back home and I live quietly in my room with my mirror. Eating less, working out a lot more, taking my measurements every day along with my weight. Part of me wants to get rid of the mirror, it's so fucking eivl.

No. 703692

>>703679
Same here but i started drinking coffee this year

No. 703698

I am bored but most of the things I could do are overwhelming, so no music or video games. I can read something at least. Does anyone have any suggestions?

No. 703707

>>703665
Thank you anon that's so sweet! I really hope you are right. Thank you so much for the well wishes
I've literally been googling and youtubing everything under the sun but there aren't a lot of happy endings or good bits of advice. I'm just doing my silly yoga poses and sleeping on the hospital floor hoping something kicks in soon. I read two thirds of people recover spontaneously but apparently I am quite badly injured so I don't know if I'll be the third that needs epidurals or surgery. I'm not religious but I sincerely hope someone hears my prayer and stops this pain very soon.

No. 703713


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No. 703720

>>703707
Don’t give up hope, anon, I am struggling with health shit as well and I kinda know the deep end in another way. Just know there are anons who think of you and wish only the best for you, I am not saying that to be nice. You have already come a long way!

No. 704162

I’m thinking of going back to college but I’m so bad at math idk what to do. I lost my financial aid because I failed math last time I was there which sucks cuz I did well in everything else. There’s no way to avoid it. Why does my brain hate math so much!?

No. 706681

>>704162

Same thing for me. I put a lot of effort into finally getting the pass grade everywhere insists on. Aim for that and that alone and don't let the harder shit intimidate you from trying.



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