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No. 675792

Be honest with thy word

previous thread: >>>/ot/653758

No. 675795

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I never want to do the 50/50 thing with a man, financially.
Man wants me to live with him, he pays the bills. In exchange, I exist in his vicinity so he feels blessed every day to have someone who will cuddle him, ask how his day is, kiss him and genuinely care when he comes home instead of having to throw himself into shitty, empty hobbies and porn addiction. He doesn't appreciate it? That's fine, I leave.
Women underestimate how important they are to a man's life and it's insane honestly. Men fall into disrepair over that feelie when no gf, without fail. They are fundamentally broken beings. Most women dislike being alone because we want someone to give our love to, and to be loved by. Men will literally kill innocent people and themselves if they're alone, even if they don't even have any love in their hearts to give. It's messed up and we are not the same.
My requirements: Cherish and love me, don't be ugly/fat, pay the bills, give me money to look cute, don't be a stupid enough bitch to make me upset, and I will cherish and love you too, be a ray of sunshine in your life, make beautiful memories with you, and ensure that you are at least 60% less likely to join the male suicide statistic.
All my money is for my own upkeep should you fail to provide, and also to allow me to get the fuck away from you if you mess up.
This is more than a fair deal, and if any male can't afford it, he doesn't deserve it.

No. 675807

I feel a burgeoning calling in life to convince both men and women that their drive to be with each other is not rooted in any inherent need but rather an outdated construct that now shackles them to a false feeling of listlessness and unfulfillment, which if consummated will only perpetuate the cycle of pain and misery.

I want people to collectively give up on each other and wander out into the wilderness naked and at peace, alone as individuals, and sink into the earth to be overcome by moss and time.

I don't know how this would ever come to be but it can't be by violence, and people must believe they've come to this conclusion themselves.

No. 675812

>>675795
This tbh.
I also would never go 50/50 with a man. Most men today are sadly dusties and most women think they need to "prove" themselves to men and split the bill but this mindset only benefits men. Fuck liberal feminism. Always remember that you are worth it & are the prize.

No. 675815

>>675795
Real queen shit, pick mes can weep lmao.

No. 675819

I once spent more than what's reasonable on shampoo and conditioner and some hair mask (I think?) because my kpop oppar used it too and I wanted to smell like him lmao

No. 675820

>>675819
What exactly did you buy? Does it smell good?

No. 675822

>>675812
I dont split the bill to prove anything. I split it because i dont need or want the money of a man i barely know. I make men prove themselves to me by other means.

No. 675830

>>675812
I feel like if I don't pay then I'll be obliged to the man and he might expect something else in return for whatever he spent his money on. If I pay for my own thing then I feel like the man doesn't have a hold over me and he can't say he did this or that for me so I gotta return it.

No. 675834

>>675795
you sound unhinged and i hardly doubt you are anywhere near as good a partner as you make yourself out to be, cut it out with that "ray of sunshine" bs it's extremely narcy.

No. 675837

>>675830
I feel exactly the same. Too many men act like they're treating you out of the kindness of their heart but really just pay to get sex.

No. 675845

I've been playing with faceswapping and facemorphing tech, why the fuck is it so addicting

No. 675848

>>675812
>>675815
Men talk about how women are high-maintenance because we might want a nice gift every now and then, but not the fact that men are psychologically high-maintenance because of toxic masculinity and them being actually unhinged or just emotionally retarded. Also, the fact that they literally lower our lifespans and that we are statistically at high risk of intimate partner violence precisely because of how psychologically high maintenance they are.
We "prove" ourselves by giving their asses the time of day, lol.

>>675834
You just sound like you’re projecting your own inferiority. It's not even about me specifically or what I do. Think of how many simps literally pay Twitch titty streamers who don't give a fuck about them to say their name and a “thank you” just for the emotional high. It’s a function, not a glitch. Men mentally die without women acknowledging them and being nice to them. It barely matters how we do it.

Aside from that, I didn't just magically come to this conclusion. I first started to think seriously about it because my own boyfriend literally tells me how much he appreciates me and what I do for him every day, and he doesn't expect shit from me except to love him. I didn't get it at first because I thought what I was doing was just normal, but eventually, I thought about what I do for him, how much I did in my last relationship that was never reciprocated, how most men treat their female SOs and the roles that women often play, and just put two and two together.

Women spend so much time thinking they bring nothing to the table if they're not meeting the physical and monetary parts 50/50, even though more often than not, we fill out emotional demands 80/20. Ask almost any girlfriend, mother or wife, she’ll basically tell you the same about her role if she bothers to even tally up what she does.

The woman is traditionally the “heart” of the relationship, but we’re also expected to make money and do chores while the man acts like a maladjusted child? And they already make more money than us on average because of sexist hiring practices and institutions beyond our control, but we need to pretend it’s all equal? It’s a huge fucking scam. Get the fuck out of my face with your fake equality if you buy it lol.
If you feel more humble and worthy pretending nothing we do is worth anything unless we're giving them money or sex, that’s you, but please stay down there and don’t try and drag others down with you.

No. 675860

>>675848
>stay down there and don’t try and drag others down with you.
No need to when you're already dragging yourself down. Why even waste your "precious" time and energy on men when they're so shit lol

No. 675866

>>675860
Because I actually can care for someone if I know they care for me, aren’t being complete selfish assholes and are trying in earnest, in spite of their issues. Especially if they’re actually growing and learning as a result of me being there for them.
That’s kind of the nature of any good relationship. I’m surprised you’d even ask, I’ve only ever seen actual, literal narcs be unable to comprehend something this simple, lmao.
Women who opt out of relationships completely because they haven’t found any man worth their time are valid too, though. It’s like males are getting worse and worse every day, and pick mes are just coping harder in response, lol

No. 675880

>>675866
the irony of calling someone a narc when your idea of someone not being a "complete selfish asshole" is paying for your entire existence

No. 675884

>>675880
>this lack of reading comprehension
It’s usually broke men who play dumb like this, they love to gaslight. Cry harder lol, women will continue to realise their worth

No. 675885

>>675884
dude no one is buying this shit just stop posting

No. 675887

>>675885
What are you even talking about? What is there to buy? It's like you're just replying because you're pissed at this point, give it a rest.

No. 675896

>>675885
are you the anon from the ugly men/beautiful wives thread?

No. 675909

>>675896
no? schizo-chan please…

No. 675912

>>675795
>I'm a leech: The Post
Why do women like this exist?

No. 675919

>>675912
>I'm broke and entitled, please give me free emotional labor: The Post
No one's forcing you to date anybody, you realize?

No. 675920

>>675919
>broke and entitled
That's literally the woman that wrote the original post

No. 675921

>>675920
Brokeness would being male, having the financial world handed to you on a silver platter and still demanding that women cover your bills by half.
Entitlement would be demanding to have all your emotional needs met, then denying the importance and existence of those needs so you look better when you demand more.
Stick to your budget and you won't have to get so annoyed by posts like this. Everyone to their own category.

No. 675926

>>675795
i can kind of see your point but it comes off as a bit tradthotish

No. 675942

>>675926
I get how it might look that way, but honestly, even tradthots believe that women need to do something for men, like have babies and do chores. IMO, women don't really need to do anything. Just being there and giving attention while being female upgrades a man's life automatically, let alone actually caring about him and accepting (and trusting) him enough to live with him. It lends the whole relationship a crazy imbalance that makes it senseless for women to add money or physical labor on top.
Even a man with the most problematic girlfriend on earth likes being able to say "My girlfriend" more than "I don't have a girlfriend", and that's why MGTOW fails.

No. 675969

I've been struggling with mental health in relation to an abusive/toxic relationship where i was the one at fault and its been hard to process the grief I've attempted twice and I've thought about it. Today i have a therapy appointment so hopefully its helpful i feel like I'm going more for my friends tho

No. 675971

>>675942
Fourth wave feminism

No. 675972

>>675884
>anyone who disagrees with me is a man!
Classic arguing technique

No. 675977

>>675972
There is exactly one demographic that "I don't pay men's bills" would enrage enough to fling insults without thought.

No. 675984

>>675977
You wouldn't be paying their bills though, you'd just be paying for yourself lol

No. 675996

>>675795
Reality is an awful lot of men resent spending money on a woman if they are not getting alot in return. If sex slows down after the honeymoon phase he'll feel entitled to berate you like a child. If you won't do anal after he's asked a million times he'll throw the money issue in your face as leverage. He'll treat you like a child because he's supporting you and that creates that dynamic in his mind.

Nice fantasy, good luck not having men eventually turn resentful and controlling because you set them up to feel 'owed more' IME a man who thinks you're in debt to him is dangerous.

No. 675999

>>675996
Exactly. Financial manipulation/abuse seems to escape OP.

No. 676000

>>675795
based as hell

No. 676001

>>675996
Slightly OT, but if you have to pay someone to keep you company, the person that is paid for has the upper hand. You can lose the money but they will always stay their likeable selves and can find someone else.

No. 676006

>>676001
Prostitution with a bow on it

No. 676007

>>676001
They're not paying for company, they're paying for long term sex
> they will always stay their likeable selves
No you'll age and they will hate paying the same rates for you as you age

No. 676015

I’m too autistic for normal relationships. I keep thinking about just getting into kink or dating an older man as a FWB thing. I find it hard to want to devote myself to a committed partnership with someone similar to myself.

No. 676018

>>676015
Just stay single if you feel the need to lower yourself to that

No. 676020

>>675807
case in point: this fucking thread

No. 676022

>>676020
Kek, honestly. She's right, though.

No. 676023

I reuse surgical masks. I ain't shilling 100+ bucks a month for a piece of paper with two elastic strings on it.

No. 676024

>>676023
Or get a reusable mask with filters that you can reuse. Surgical masks are not that helpful for the virus unless you're using k95 or n95

No. 676026

>>676024
Surgical masks are the ones my workplace provides for free, that's why I use them.
I have a cloth mask but it's so poorly made I either look like Dumbo afterwards or it just falls off my face, no inbetween.

No. 676029

>>676024
Correct me if I'm wrong but as far as I know no non-medical grade mask is helpful.

No. 676038

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>>676029
They're helpful, but they're not perfect. It's better than nothing.

The surgical mask that anon is referring to is probably the thin one that is only a little better than the cloth mask.

A link on effectiveness of cloth masks:
https://www.thelogicalindian.com/fact-check/mask-covid-19-coronavirus-pandemic-n-95-21267

tl;dr: they're not useless

No. 676039

>>676023
I reuse masks too, but instead of a surgical mask, I use a handmade cotton mask with a filter inside of it. I would recommend making the switch if you can.

No. 676047

>>676023
get a cloth mask, cuz that's gross

No. 676061

>>675984
I already pay for myself, though. Paying to live with a man, though? Nope

>>675996
This is the
>He doesn't appreciate it? Fine, I leave.
and
>Don't be a stupid enough bitch to make me upset
This is why you don't date fully unabashed retards lmao, and as I said before, keep your own money so you're never stuck at their mercy.
It's not even a fantasy, just how I am.

No. 676064

I've never been able to talk about this because it happened on a pro-ana site (judge me, I was being retarded) but I posted my opinion on non-binary and how it's not a thing and someone got offended. I went on to explain that in my experience most people that identify as such are unwell in some way and trying to cope. The person goes on to say that they are NOT unwell, how dare you suggest their gender identity means they're mentally unstable. I point out that we were literally having this conversation on a website that promotes eating disorders. The reeing was endless and I was deemed the most problematic person on the "giving yourself anorexia is valid" forum. The end

No. 676069

>>676064
Anon this should be sad but it's so goddamn funny oh my god. Gender speds really are the most retarded of all.

No. 676070

>>676064
Samefag, and get the fuck off of those sites and get better if you haven't already.
>t. recovered ED fag

No. 676075

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I spent 400 dollars on the Hello Kitty x dolls kill collab and I hate myself so fucking much but I don't care because I love HK.

No. 676091

>>676070
Ilu anon, don't worry I'm off those sites and doing well! Ty for the concern and for appreciating my story haha

No. 676096

>>676091
Ily2 anon, I'm really glad to hear you're doing well ♥ Thank you for sharing, it gave me a laugh.

No. 676118

>>675820
It did smell nice, yes! Don't remember the name anymore though, it sounded incredibly French and I've been trying to find it again for some months now lol. The only thing I remember is the packaging being dark green-blueish.

No. 676193

I feel like I am a terrible anon because I never know what kind of picrel to put in a post. I don't have a collection of reaction images, only a gif from The Room and godiwishthatwereme.jpg, even in discussion on anime or video game, instead of using a funny meme or a beautiful fanart I end up using boring official art lol. I see anons here having picrels for any kind of subject or problem no matter how specific it is, how do you do that?

No. 676194

sometimes I bring food in the bathroom with me. Not to eat it, but idk I feel paranoid just leaving it alone.

No. 676199

>>676193
a mild to middling case of autism

No. 676249

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I love when the OPs to these threads are pissed off nuns. Makes me giggle. Also, OP nun is cute as fuck.

No. 676251

>>676193
Just get really into Supernatural. They have a gif for everything, I hear.

No. 676256

I can't sexualize or imagine real people naked it, I have been this way for as long as I knew about sex. I don't even have people I want to have sex with based on appearance but I do like sex so… Even people I am relationships with I can't even sexualize. I know people say it's weird but honestly, I like not being able to do it but I also don't want to be criticize for my inability to do it.

No. 676258

>>676256
too bad. horny police is coming for you. put your hands up and show us that WAP!

No. 676261

on a scale of 1 to chris chan how autistic is it that I really love my boyfriend and friends and have the most fun when we're speaking in voice chat but I can't stand sharing the same physical space with them. My bf sounds so cute right now and chill but the physical presence of him annoys me to hell.

No. 676278

>>676075
As long as your bills are paid, I don't see the problem. Enjoy your new merch.

No. 676283

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>>676261
I guess we’re both quite autistic because I love sending texts but I despise the sole idea of phone calls and meetings that are longer than 2 hours. I just get so tired, you can even notice how my face goes from focused and interested to a tired old cat face.

No. 676288

>>676251
Kek you'd have to kill me to get me into Supernatural, I don't even think I've ever a spn gif here.

No. 676298

>>676193
>how do you do that?
Save almost every reaction image, from every thread, imageboard or website in general, for years on end. and when you look at anime/manga just screencap and crop whichever face looks funny, or google "(character name) (whichever expression)"

No. 676341

I love trashy reality TV. The trailer for the newest season of TLC's teen mom show, Unexpected, just came out and I'm so excited to watch another installment.

No. 676352

>>676261
like 8 but i kinda get it. i find it easier to communicate over text and often it is more fun because you get just that bit more time to think of an answer. still, are you sure you are actually attracted to your bf lol.

No. 676381

i appreciate the idea of minimalism but i could never quit my semi-hoarding lifestyle

No. 676423

>>676341
Same. I love ANTM, it makes me feel like I have girl friends and get to experience drama and uwu love. Sometimes I even imagine them as anime girls. Please shoot me, nun

No. 676452

Honestly, I realized I don't really like having a pet too much. Like I love my cat but there are a lot of times where I just want to get rid of her and stop having someone be dependent on me. I feel horrible for feeling this way and stupid because I accepted this responsibility to take care and love her but I'm just not feeling it much.

No. 676455

i think i’m addicted to ordering delivery food

No. 676457


No. 676464

When I report posts sometimes I vent to the mod/admin about whatever it is. I’ve just reported the fucking retards on the TND thread and left a funny little message in my report. I hope they laugh. I hope.

No. 676467

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I wish people bred like seahorses

No. 676468

>>676467
I wish people bred like chinese people

No. 676478

>>676467
i wish people bread

No. 676481

When I was a dumb kid and I watched the Thor trailer like 10 years on a tv bumper, I thought it was some action thriller or something like about an ex-soldier and that maybe Asgard was just part of his delusion, one of the reasons i thought that cause he mentioned Afghanistan

No. 676484

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As soon as I feel safe going to the doctors I'm going to see if I can get diagnosed with adhd and get a Ritalin prescription because I'm seriously at my wits end with procrastination and maladaptive daydreaming, it's destroyed what little hope I had of getting into university and is just ruining my life in general lol wish me luck

No. 676489

>>676481
>I thought it was some action thriller or something like about an ex-soldier and that maybe Asgard was just part of his delusion
OMG that would be SO MUCH BETTER movie and I would watch it. DAE have any suggestions in this vein? The one movie that comes to my mind is Jacob's Ladder which I've seen already.

No. 676490

>>676484
Why did you attach this photo? I don't get it

No. 676493

>>676484

Go check out the ADHD thread if you haven't already. Good luck anon, medication has changed my life for the better in many ways. You can do this!

No. 676506

>>676490
Obvs pic related

No. 676511

>>676489
Not that I know of sorry but in terms of Games you can try maybe spec ops the line, but your praise of my dumb assumption that I had as a kid made me feel better

No. 676514

>>676506
lol I fucking wish it was

No. 676700

I was at my brother's house and found his wallet sitting on the counter in the bathroom so I snooped. Was only going to take money but found little Polaroid nudes of his hot af girlfriend. I took one and I'm sure he doesn't know because he's got brain rot and smokes too much weed. She's like a taller version of Venus but with fuller lips and not weeby. I've never crushed on her because she's snobby and fucking my brother so she must be retarded, and stealing the nude is degenerate, but I'm fascinated now. I've had it for a few weeks and the Venus thread just reminded me lol. Forgive me mother.

No. 676706

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i'm a queer who never remembers what any of these flags mean besides the regular old rainbow one.
also endlessly confused as to why asexuals are somehow part of the queer community… nobody is committing hate crimes against virgins or celibate people.

No. 676709

>>676706
>i'm a queer
>part of the queer community
I'm gay and I honestly hate these terms

No. 676710

>>676700
This is so disgusting.

No. 676711

>>676706
Why is intersex here?

No. 676713

>>676709
If she's posting here she's either bi or lesbian, why not state it?

No. 676715

>>676713
because anon… many posters here are the type to use "queer." My confession, a few times farmers accidentally left a trace of their social media so I snooped. When I did, and it usually correlates with the thread, they were enbies (art thread), or OF girls (thread about swer), or e-girls (e-girl thread) l o l …the burden of knowledge

No. 676716

>>676713
Yep "I'm a queer" is a fucking weird way of introducing yourself

No. 676717

>>676706
It really doesn't matter, man. They're just symbols that are only really meaningful to the people they represent. Some people like having the distinction to support their identity or movement for visibility. Frankly, I don't even feel like this array would be supported by the majority of LGBTQ+ members. There's been a big push for years even by Tumblr users to stop including intersex people in the acronym and obviously only fools think straight people face sexual orientation based discrimination or prejudice. Asexual discourse will always toe a line though, so good luck avoiding that one.

No. 676719

>>676715
I hate to be OT, but how the fuck do anons find social media accounts from profile pictures (assuming that's what you did). I asked this before, but I'm still curious. Would google reverse search even work for something like that?

No. 676720

>>676715
So it's likely some genderspecial woman giving out about asexuals for just having a flag.. love to see that shit on here of all places lol

No. 676724

>>676706
The only ones that should be there are the gays, lesbians and bisexuals.
Everyone else can fuck off.

No. 676725

My BF and I have been LDR for a couple months and I enjoy the sexless life and sexpressure-less life so much. We've been living together for 2 years prior to that and I kinda don't want to go back even though I miss hugs and kisses.

No. 676728

>>676719
it actually wasn't that, but others might have their ways. It was things like reverse image searching the pic itself or them accidentally including their username. Or self-posts. Simple really I'm not that advanced

No. 676730

>>676709
>>676716
because i wanted you guys to know i'm not some dumbass straight person voicing my opinion on something i don't have experience in. chill

No. 676731

>>676719
It's sometimes just a matter of luck. I was bored one time and outed a self poster based on one image that didn't show up in reverse image search but was relatively easy to dig up in 10 minutes by looking up a couple of hashtags. Sometimes anons also leave certain subtle hints where to look at.

For extra fun look up the "lolcow.farm" search term on Twitter and you'll find a ton of twitter snowflakes, trannies and scrotes seething over the site and cowtipping.

>>676706
>also endlessly confused as to why asexuals are somehow part of the queer community
Because they're "oppressed" by people telling them to fuck off from LGBT circles. That's literally it.

No. 676732

>>676730
>some dumbass straight person

anoon lol you're so speshul youre qweer

No. 676733

>>676720
and you sound like an asexual who's mad that the lgbt community side-eyes you. but go on and keep inviting yourself to our spaces

No. 676734

>>676732
offended over nothing

No. 676735

>>676730
What are you then? A demigirl? kek

No. 676737

>>676734
>>676733
>>676730
sage your posts queen

No. 676738

>>676732
>>676735
stop samefagging and being embarrassing

No. 676739

>>676732
>>676735
>>676737
triggered straight asexual spotted. you aren't wanted, sorry

No. 676740

>>676739
No I'm a lesbian, what are you?

No. 676741

>>676738

i'm actually only >>676737 & >>676732

dunno who >>676735 is

>>676739 but yeah i'm straight and asexual i don't think asexual should be in the lgbt community and don't see myself as "queer" for not liking sex ahahah

No. 676744

>>676740
>>676741
straightie doing damage control once they've been called out
you guys always get so offended and pissy over nothing at all lol

No. 676746

>>676744
still waiting for your identity with lesbian anon tho, being queer doesn't mean anything

No. 676749

The only thing worse than straight queers are all the straight "lesbians" in the online gc/radfem places. You can just read the straightness in all their spergs about who is and isn't actually gay.

No. 676750

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Idk wtf is going on right now but….

No. 676751

>>676748
They/them are trolling poorly

No. 676753

>>676744
Yes, it's everyone else who is triggered, only kweer OP is the true lgbtqwerty who won't even divulge what she is

>>676749
wtf does this mean? Lesbians only act a certain way? Can't wait to be assumed straight for disagreeing with you

Anyway, maybe we can get back to confessions. I'm angry at my friend who is depressed, but I know I shouldn't be. It's just that she acts rude and doesn't seem open to getting better. It would sound horrible to say that though. wish I could help

No. 676754

>>676710
Agreed. I feel violated just reading it.

No. 676755

>>676753
talking about political lesbians i guess,

and yeah i get you, i don't have the patience for depressed friends, i'm glad my friends were here for me when i was but ugh, it's infuriating

No. 676756

>>676755
oh yeah, if she meant that then ok. I thought anon was referencing those in the thread who didn't give an indication either way. lesbians can have opinions about "queer" lol

anyway with friends, that's exactly how I feel. maybe it comes with having had depression yourself, you don't want to deal with that mindset anymore. Also, there's things I had to learn to feel better, but you can't force someone else to realize those things. So frustrating

No. 676758

>>676753
It means a good amount of the gc "lesbians" who rage about asexuals and pansexuals and trannies are lying about being lesbians for internet points and had they not been alienated by the retardation of current kweer theory they'd still be identifying as demisexual they/thems too. Their sexuality exists solely on the internet for cool TERF points and their anger with "queers" is 100% projection lol

No. 676760

>>676758
What the fuck? Is this a thing kek that's so stupid. You can be a straight/bi woman and be gc/radfem?

No. 676765

>>676758
lol that actually makes sense given what I said in this >>676715 post. lots of cognitive dissonance in those ones

No. 676767

>>676758
what the fuck am I reading, get back to twitter tranny

No. 676768

>>676760
Cope harder straightie. You can't honestly read through some of the shit here and on Tumblr and think all these women using their "lesbianism" as a badge authority arent roleplaying while actual lesbians are ostracized from the "community" for expressing their sexuality in "unacceptable" ways. You all lose your shit over a woman calling herself queer as if actual homosexuals and bisexuals don't use that term, but God forbid someone question you right?

No. 676769

>>676767
Anon I'm pretty sure they are a radfem. Don't start eating your own now lmao

No. 676772

>>676768
How is what I said even a cope? Why are you mad, it's literally true that you can be straight/bi and be gc/radfem.

No. 676774

>>676768
queer anon it's gonna be ok, we are not killing lesbians and bisexual women when we're bullying you on a gossip board

No. 676785

>>676768
Is this still queer op? I'm not the other lesbianon (I'm >>676713 ), just thought it was weird since people who use queer as the term for themselves are often the same types to be familiar with flags.
Women I know who use it choose to because they're unsure if they're bi or fully les, but it's really not a big deal whatever you are.
Sorry it turned into this, good grief.

No. 676788

>>676452
Ah anon I’m the same with my gecko. I took him because his previous owner didn’t want him anymore. He looks so cute but is really boring. Sometimes i wish he would just die.

No. 676789

>>676788
> Sometimes i wish he would just die.
what the hell….

No. 676793

>>676788
Kill it

No. 676805

>>676788
Damn anon why don't you just re-home him again if you feel that way? Seems kind of extreme

No. 676817

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>>676706
Things produced by normal relationships
>Life
A dull lifeless flag is chosen to represent this

Things produced by non-normal relationships
>Diseases
>Mental illnesses
>Pedophilia and many other criminal fetishes
Bright cheerful rainbow are chosen to represent this

What exactly did they mean by this?(bad bait)

No. 676820

People always think I’m foreign or have recent foreign heritage because of my appearance (I don’t live in a diverse place). Sometimes I feel like claiming to be foreign when asked just to see where the conversation goes. Like a low effort Rachel Dolezal but at least keeping it within my race.

No. 676823

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>>676817
Oh no, not bait on laughoutloud cow dot farm.

No. 676824

>>676817
reading this post feels like reading a foreign language. wtf does this even mean.

No. 676830

>>676785
>just thought it was weird since people who use queer as the term for themselves are often the same types to be familiar with flags.
If you got off the internet and met real life humans in the community you’d see it’s a very old reclaimed term. Only online did it become this OMG OFFENSIVE WE THE TWITTER USERS MUST RECLAIM IT thing and become associated with gender specials.
Christ you’re all autistic

No. 676831

>>676706
>nobody is committing hate crimes against virgins or celibate people.
The LGTBbunchofmoreletters community is really just a contest of who's most oppressed huh.

No. 676835

>>676831
Well they're not

No. 676837

Wow, you guys are still arguing about this?

No. 676839

>>676824
I guess what they're saying is: the heterosexual ("normal relationships that produce life") flag is dull an lifeless (shades of grey), meanwhile the relationships that produce a list of negative things get a cheerful flag(s).

No. 676842

>>676817
back to pol

No. 676848

>>676837
Weird confession, anon.

No. 676850

>>676835
Yeah well the gays in my country are not oppressed either but you don't hear anyone claiming they're not part of the lgtb community. Coming from someone who's hetero and "cis", so I have no special interest here. It's just always striken me as people gatekeeping simply being they're sour over asexuals who have it 'easy' wanting to be included because people want to be as special and poor as possible.

No. 676856

>>676850
Do you know what hate crimes and oppression are outside of the internet?

No. 676857

>>676848
>implying the shitflinging isn't

No. 676864

File: 1605732235965.jpg (1.01 MB, 1728x1692, IMG_20201118_214337.jpg)

it's so hard for me to maintain a healthy diet when it gets cold. For the rest of the year I have no problem with it, but during autumn and winter I just crave fat and sugar and I eat all kinds of pasta with big amounts of cheese, cheesecake, chocolate and whole eggs. An extra 2 or 3 kg won't kill me but uhhhhh

No. 676867

I love being single and never dating, no company will ever be better than your own.

No. 676877

>>675834
That anon totally sounds like a narc lol. One of those below average girls in terms of both personality and looks who thinks the world owes them everything for existing. I don't want to be tied to a man like that either but I'll just support myself.

No. 676913

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>>676864
same I can't eat a fucking salad in winter I need something warm and salty and substantial. A healthy soup doesn't do it for me, I need something loaded with calories. I fucking hate biology man I don't need fat stores for the winter there is plenty of food body omfg

No. 676964

I only use imageboards for shitposting because it kind of just scratches an itch. I could make a spam account but that would be too weird.

No. 676980

i can't help but get a little angry and jealous when my boyfriend's friend starts talking to him all sweet. fucking bitch. idk why, just hate the shit out of her for being nice. we were having fun playing together then she came online and now I don't even wanna play.

>inb4 ur just jealous anon.


i just said that u stupid bitch

No. 676983

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>>676980
samefag but she just does this fucking thing where she buzzwords all of my boyfriends interests like "ohohoh check out this cool thing I started doing because you started doing it" GET FUCKED. ugh. I'm seething rn tbh.

I have no reason to be angry about it since he's my bf and loves me and yet here I Am.

No. 677003

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>>676980
>>676983
do you want me to beat her ass anon?

No. 677011

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>>676983
>>676980
anon you just gotta remind yourself that he's with you and not her for a reason, it's gonna be ok

No. 677012

One time I was so desperate for money that I asked on Craigslist for a personal loan lol. It worked, some guy contacted me, we discussed how I'd pay him back and I met him at a mall. He gave me a check for $850 and I paid him back $50-$100 a month until it was paid off with no interest.

He never asked for personal info, never contacted me for conversation or anything else. He only mentioned that strangers were generous to him when he needed it and as adult who was now in a good position he wanted to do the same.

Anyway I am dumb and it's a miracle fluke that it worked out the way it did.

No. 677019

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>>677003
>>677011
Ahh thank you anons. love you both. I will remind myself!

No. 677023

>>676980
>>676983
>>677003
yanderes are so annoying

No. 677029

Dating men has pretty much turned me into a sociopath in relationships. I will lie about anything to get the upper hand. And actually my relationships have started working better since I just lie, steal and cheat.

No. 677032

>>677023
cringe

No. 677034

>>677012
That’s amazing anon. I’m glad this was just a nice story with a good ending.

No. 677039

>>677023
it was a joke

No. 677051

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>>676980
Fucking bitch, I hope your moid is at least uncomfortable because that’s basically the same as if one of his friends started calling you *~babe~* or sent you 300 heart emojis for every single thing you said.
That bitch needs to know her motherfucking place.

No. 677071

>>676980
Have a dude flirt with you in the same ways in front of him, let him complain and then tell him to cut off the girl if he sees a problem.
If he doesn't complain, that's not your boyfriend. Also, he and that other girl are fucking.

No. 677074

I'm really starting to hate gay men lately, like I feel about the discrimination they fave but they act like such complete degenerates at times and the comments they make about women can be really shitty but people go with it

No. 677090

>>677074
There's a reason why most cultures hate gay men, most of them are just ultra coomers who spread disease and groom boys. Not even stereotyping, gay men admit it themselves and its clear to see in gay culture. Go back to stigmatizing gay men I'm tired of their shit both in my personal life and in society.

They still act entitled to women's bodies, have had gay men molest me in a jokey 'but I'm gay so its ok' way, they expect female solidarity from you but only want to take take take, literal degenerates who want to casually talk about how gaped their asshole was last night, have mantrums if you don't treat them like one of the girls, etc… Not befriending gay men ever again. Waste of time.

No. 677108

>>677090
Yeah but I feel for the ones who are young and face discrimination, however a lot of younger gay guys get preyed on by the older ugly ones, the uglier ones make up the majority of the community

No. 677109

My secret bucket list item is killing someone. But only a guy that deserves it (blatant misogynist, wife beater, a john etc). If I die without ever getting to kill one of those types of guys I’ll really be disappointed. It feels like something I’m meant to do. Aileen Wuornos inspired me.

No. 677122

>>677090
>There's a reason why most cultures hate gay men, most of them are just ultra coomers who spread disease and groom boys.
This is true but don't forget that gay men are just normal men who exist without the social/sexual limits women would usually impose on them. Without women to act with restraint and reinforce better behaviour they can sleep around and abuse each other with zero consequences. If straight men could do the same they would, it's not related to sexual orientation in itself. Actually, celebs/rich men are proof of that - they can get all the women they want, and they are 1000x more likely to be extreme pedos, degenerates and abusers. It's all about opportunity and access.

No. 677142

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I had head lice for literally 7 years in middle and highschool and they were treatment resistant superlice that wouldn't go away no matter what I did and I ended up giving it to all my friends multiple times and just pretended that I had no idea how they got it because I couldn't own up to the truth.


It finally went away once I went to college but to this day I haven't told a soul outside my family and it is the secret I will take to my grave.

Honestly in retrospect I'm sure people could tell so the fact I still have any friends from that time means they are real ones.

No. 677153

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I knew that male seahorses carry the babies (seafoals?) before I knew humans didn't hatch from eggs

No. 677155

After all this time I still don’t know what /pt stands for. I mean /w white ? Snow/ snowflakes?? Where is the logic

No. 677157

>>677155
/pt/ is pixiteri the queen of lolcow
/w/ I always assumed meant weebs

No. 677158

>>677155
Not knowing what pt means is one thing but if you seriously can't figure out what the "w" stands for how did you even get here?

No. 677187

Attack on Titan gets me hype

No. 677205

>>675795
A whole lot of generalizations and misunderstanding of basic human nature and socialization there sis. What you want in your relationships is your own bussiness, but if you were my friend and told me that I'd tell you that it's retarded. A good man can and will love you back just as much if not more than you will, your ideas of relationship dynamics is the definition of unhealthy.

No. 677213

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>>677157
>>677187
Lmao anons thank you I get it now

No. 677215

I'm terrified of home invasions, and since I'm planning to live on my own, I'm so scared to get a stalker or an infatuated coworker to follow me and kill me at my place.

No. 677227

>>677215
Follow the nun and get a gun.

No. 677234

>>677227
Unfortunate Eurofag here, our government would prefer us to die at the hands of criminals than defend ourselves. I remember telling some coworkers that I'd love to own a gun to feel much safer in my own place, they all looked at me like I was crazy and told me to go to Texas, even the women (the only one who agreed with me was this rich right-wing kid lmao).

No. 677284

>>677187
I could never get into it, too many stupid shounen tropes/writing but done seriously. I can only tolerate that shit as a joke.

No. 677294

>>677215
I bought a house alone 2 years ago and one of the first neighbors I spoke to started bumping into me an unbelievable amount of times , every single time I leave the house… drives me mental that yes some loner is watching me and learning my schedule in order to bump into me 2/3 times every single day. That and I noticed where his eyes tend to rest when looking at me. I got the advice on here a while back to give him the 'gray rock method' where I say hi but come across as boring and emotionless and uninterested/uninteresting lol.

I say hi in a monotone and I keep walking. I would love to totally ignore him but I moved to a small town and other neighbors are friendly with him so I don't want the locals to turn on me if he gets butthurt and makes out to people like I'm blanking him because I'm just some stuck up bitch who moved here from the city. I did feel panicked and unsafe at one point thinking this shit would escalate because at first he would shout after me needing to know why I'm suddenly not so animated or chatty. But I persevered and it's working.

Sorry for the long story but my point is even if you're unlucky enough to met some creep loner most will luckily fit into that category of simply being annoying.

No. 677306

>>677294
AYRT and because I'm so bored during lockdown I've been reading a lot of true crime shit and that's probably why I'm freaking out (the Jennifer Kesse case is particularly haunting). I even convinced myself the other day that there was somebody in the apartment when I was alone. Reading this really reassures me, thank you anon.

No. 677310

i peed myself on accident in a dressing room when i was 7 and left my pee'd out underwear in a stall because I wanted to hide the fact that i peed myself from my mom and i still feel bad for whoever had to pick it up that day

No. 677390

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No. 677554

>>677142
omg anon, i had head lice for 2 years or so during middle and high school but didn't tell anyone and it was so bad the bugs were falling off on my desk and i think noone ever noticed

until my sister saw my hair on an escalator

the thing is in two years i did not give it to anyone in my close family and friends

but to think i was one of those people going to the movies with lice ugh what a disgusting pos

No. 677634

I know the Real Housewives is really only something that older women watch (no shade to them), but I love that shit. Something about questionably rich women fighting over petty shit is just so entertaining.

No. 677650

>>677142
>>677554
My best friend in middle school had lice for like 3 years and she kept giving them to me. I mentioned it to her multiple times but she would just ignore it and pretend she didn't hear me and there wasn't any problem. The fuckers were huge too, you could actively see them walking around in her hair.

I wasn't going to stop being friends with her over something stupid like that but as a result I obsessively tore apart my hair with a lice comb every single day. I was very squirmish and couldn't sleep otherwise.
It still baffles me how she wouldn't just acknowledge the problem and do something about it, but apparently it happens more often than I thought.

No. 677652

>>677650
second ayrt, i still feel bad to this day but i was just too embarrassed to tell my mom, i tried to lice shampoo behind her back but i couldn't bring myself to tell her… i was truly a dumb fuck i'm so embarrassed at my past self this is really my biggest secret

No. 677655

>>677652
Diff anon but when I was a kid I would hide so much shit and I don't know why. Stuff like when I was in pain/sick/injured in particular.. kinda disturbs me looking back.

No. 677656

>>677652
Don't beat yourself up over it anon, everyone does weird shit as a teenager. I can understand it more if you didn't have the sort of relationship with your parents where you felt you could be open about it. Hadn't really thought about it that way before.

No. 677666

>>677650
She'd defiantly have abusive or neglectful parents then if they left it for that long anon

No. 677709

>>677650
>>677666
She was probably embarrassed of it and, like the anon said above me, was neglected.

No. 677718

I used to put on makeup with a paintbrush
But not anymore!! I bought a real brush today

No. 677738

It drives me fucking insane when people mention they're sad/nobody loves them/other generic mopey shit on discord servers and when you ask what's up they pull that edgy "oh noooo don't worry about it im used to handling everything alone :(" like… if that's true why even bring it up? I'm not criticizing legitimately depressed people venting, but when people do this all I can think is they want attention but rather than get it by doing or saying anything interesting, they pull this obnoxious crap. I wish it was more socially accepted to drag these morons, but that's what I get for going on discord

No. 677743

>>677738
the first time people do this to me, I say something like "well that sucks"
the next time, I just block them

No. 677744

>>677666
As far as I was aware it wasn't an abusive household, but they did have some issues that definitely could have contributed to the problem. I don't blame her for being embarrassed, but I do wish she wouldn't have been so dismissive of me trying to help. Accepting help is hard, especially if it's something you feel ashamed of, but I hope she didn't think it would lower my opinion of her or anything, since in the end it was such a trivial matter.

No. 677841

Being sad turns me on so much, as edgy and retarded as it may sound but whenever I am sad I find myself being turned on. whenever someone yells at me or calls me horrible things it turns me on, its been like this for so long. I use to start fights with my ex to get upset, honestly I am a toxic human being who shouldn't be with anyone thats for sure. I even use to start fights out of the blue just to feel something, anything.

No. 677861

me and my celebrity crush would make cute babies or at least that's what faceapp has deluded me into thinking

No. 677883

Diagrams of menstrual cups genuinely terrify me. I refuse to insert any object or body part that far in.

No. 677898

My former best friend of a decade ghosted me and claimed that I was abusive to our mutual friends a few months back. Apparently, he has little to no support and is severely depressed.

I used to feel so bad about what happen and wishing him for the best. But now I got therapy and I realized how awful he was, I am glad karma got him.

No. 678036

My brother and his wife are lazy, overweight slobs. I hate that they're having a child because that child is going to be raised by two immature dummies with morbid obesity and other health issues. They've tried dieting but they never stick with it and they don't engage in any physical activities at all, I think they've just given up at this point. They're in their middle/late 30s now and I don't think they're going to change. I don't understand how my brother could let himself get to this point, it's not how our parents raised us. We were blessed with loving and attentive parents that encouraged healthy eating habits and an active lifestyle. Both me and my parents are in good health. I wish I could talk to him seriously about it but we stopped talking after he met his wife, he's like a stranger to me now so it feels like it's not my place, and he can't take constructive criticism. I'm ashamed because I I deeply resent my brother and his wife, and I feel like it's going to make it difficult to accept their child as a member of my family. I just don't feel any familial connection to them.

No. 678039

>>678036
Do you feel estranged solely because of their weight/lifestyle, or is it something else? Have you tried seeing them and maintaining a familial connection? That sucks, though, I know it’s hard to watch. I haven’t gone through this, but my friend seems to be living your exact situation to an extent.

No. 678051

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I'm lowkey worried that thanks to having joined a non-zero number of lc discords I may have "met" virtually everyone who frequents this website

No. 678059

>>677883
Yeah I saw it too and thought the same. it's so scary

No. 678060

Dunno if it counts as confession but I kinda lost all my interest in Japan. I used to do make up like Japanese trends, learned the language and bought fashion from there. Now I can just kinda yawn at it and honestly the japanese society just pisses me off with trying to please everyone but behind their back talk shit. How they handled Corona was also not in their favor

No. 678063

>>678051
Not everyone uses discord or uses discord to interact with LC users. I don't.

No. 678064

>>678060
I mean, that's just making peace with reality. It's fine to find their fashion and language cool and interesting. The people are never as perfect as weebs make them out to be and that's ok.

slightly off topic sorry but I remember going there once and as part of an outreach program I went to a poorer district with some other girls to help at a soup kitchen and a bunch of the men were yelling at us (in japanese) but it was clearly catcalling because they were doing jerk-off/humping gestures. I was a 15 year old then with an idealized image of Japan and that deffo ruined it.

No. 678069

>>678051
you haven't met me :)

No. 678076

>>678060
Just sounds like maybe you grew up, anon? I don’t mean you were necessarily immature before but possibly you viewed Japan in an idealized way without fully accepting that it’s an imperfect place, like anywhere else?

I’ve grown out of things which I never thought I would (‘it’s not a phase, mom!’ kek). It’s part of life.

No. 678078

>>678063
>>678069
Aw thanks anons, though I'm sure you're both lovely people kek. Thanks for keeping the magic of lc alive for me ~*~*~

No. 678081

>>678051
Nah, not me or my friends who post here use discord, you're good

No. 678082

>>678081
you have friends that post here? yikes. couldn't be me.

No. 678083

>>678078
I don't use discord either, I'm not a gamer and don't read manga (no shade) so I feel like it would be hard to break the ice with people on there

No. 678085

i drink expired milk. tastes just fine btw. if the smell is fine, it’s perfectly drinkable.

No. 678093

>>678060
Saying this as the anon in the last thread who fantasized over going back to Japan with a shitty language teacher job, I think that's normal. I don't give a fuck anymore about a lot of things I cared about way too much before, like specific fashion trends, anime, manga, some bands and singers, etc. I like the daily life in Japan and a lot of small things I find convenient but that's it. Way before that I also felt the same about the USA, I grew up as a total ameriboo and the more I learned English at school and by practicing during my free time, the more I learned about the country and the more of a shithole it seems to me. I still want to visit NY someday though.

>How they handled Corona was also not in their favor

I wonder if the government would have fucked up as much if it weren't for the Olympics. Something's telling me they wouldn't have cared either way.

No. 678097

>>678082
Good to know

No. 678098

>>678082
Lol what does that say about you posting here then?

No. 678101

>>678081
Aren't you worried about your friends seeing your posts? Or if you catch them posting something weird/shit talking?

No. 678109

>>677841
same. not to your extent, but i get turned on when i'm sad and wanna have makeup sex so bad, and i do things to annoy my bf so i know i have an impact on him. tf is wrong with me

No. 678112

>>678101
No, I am not paranoid like that and even if they did, none of my business.

No. 678136

>>678098
What does that have to do with me posting here? I was basically saying that I don't know anyone that would post here and wouldn't want to be like "Hey check out this thread" and then they'd probably be able to figure out who I am despite being "anonymous".

No. 678137

>>678136
samefag but judging by your replies you don't care so I guess whatever

No. 678139

>>678136
samefag but judging by your replies you don't care about what your friends see of yours so I guess whatever

No. 678185

i was flossing and brushing my teeth and a popcorn kernel came out from between my teeth and it smelled terrible…i havent eaten popcorn since last week

No. 678188


No. 678273

I have To upon To if content stocked in hard drives. It's all disorganized and I barely touch it beyond adding to the hoard every day. There's more books in there than I could possibly read in one life.
I'm sweating bullets rn because my hard drives are starting to act up and I know I will lose precious data if I don't transfer it soon.
But at the same time, I'm so fucking anxious to look at this mess in the eyes to get it onto SDDs. I know I will probably melt down in front of the sheer volume of things I have not seen/read yet instead of wasting time on boards and shit.

No. 678311

>>678039
Thanks anon, it is hard because I miss having a sibling, we were really close at one point in my childhood. It's not just their lifestyle choices, but we have nothing in common and I just think his personality is terrible. It's hard to talk to him because he's really materialistic, closed-minded and manipulative, he's one of those people whose interests revolve around like, apple products and disney movies and he marvel franchises and that's it. It makes me feel like I'm talking to a teenager. His wife is the same way except she can be pretty malicious, so just being in the same room as them is exhausting. I've actually tried to have a heart-to-heart with him on a couple occasions through text and he just didn't reply.
It's weird, he used to be so different. He changed for the worst.

No. 678322

1. I hate chicken.
2. I've been shot before.
3. I've been stabbed not once, but twice on two separate occasions while walking in my middle class suburban neighborhood in Memphis.

No. 678325

I like when my aunt calls me sweet pea or poopie lol

No. 678329

>>678325
I love it when old ladies call me honey/sweetheart/etc

No. 678333

>>678322
What does being stabbed feel like?

No. 678336

>>678322
It's Memphis. You've listed a great reason why I'll never move there. You might oughtta consider moving.

No. 678339

>>678333
I honestly didn't feel a thing at first either time, it's surprisingly not as painful as you would think. It's like a warm shooting pain.

4. I have spent $600 on stuffed animals before.
5. Once when I was in high school I wrote a (sfw) fanfiction-like story about all of my teachers and turned it in for English class.
6. Once I accidentally played Bjork at a high school party and everyone was like wtf, so to "play it off" I fell to the floor and said that I was on pills like Cassie from Skins.

No. 678343

>>678339
4. at once or in total?
5. did you at least change the names?

No. 678349

>>678343
4. At once, and to make it worse it was from aliexpress, it took like 3 months for all of the bags to show up. (Like 3 months after the first bag showed up not 3 months after I ordered.)
5. Nope…

No. 678353

>>678349
How did the teachers react?

No. 678359

>>678353
My english teacher just put a notes on parts like "this is confusing" and "is this fictional?" Ended up getting a C because I didn't meet the word count. I don't know what the other teacher's reactions were.

No. 678366

>>678359
luv you anon

No. 678375

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I genuinely don't believe I will ever love a real person wholely freely deeply and unconditionally like I can fictional characters. What's worse is I think I'm okay with that. Such impossible one-sided love doesn't hurt one bit, it in fact fulfills me greatly. At worst, I get a bit touch starved, which is extremely easy to mitigate given our hookup technologies.
Meanwhile, reciprocated healthy irl relationships are still fucking a landmine, utterly unromantic unstimulating and underwhelming, too exhausting for too little reward. Sex is 100% better in my head than it is with 99% of males. 3DPD men simply have nothing worthwhile to offer me.

No. 678388

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my dad just slapped my ass before I entered the shower and its been haunting me

No. 678391

>>678388
What the fuck anon I'm so sorry.

No. 678395

>>678388
Why was he in the bathroom with you? I'm sorry he did that

No. 678396

>>678388
That’s horrifying but the photo made me laugh so hard anon. I’m sorry.

No. 678399

>>678336
it do be like that

No. 678401

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>>678375
As a little girl, I believed that I'd avoid relationships because I understood that 2D men were often idealized and media didn't provide accurate portrayals of romance. I figured I could never get a close approximation of what I craved in the real world and I didn't want to lower my standards, so relationships weren't worth the time. And honestly I was fine with that as well. I preferred to enjoy the fantasies in my head rather than being hurt and disappointed. Now, after a man came along who convinced me against all odds that soulmates just might exist, whose presence made my heart flutter, who has given me 7 years of marriage…

I realize little me was right.

Fuck scrotes I'm never giving my heart to a 3D scum-sucking shit stained pusspig again.

No. 678404

>>678322
Wtf do you mind describing how/why you got shot and stabbed in these instances? Were they just random acts of aggression by psychos trying to mug you or did someone hire a hitman?

No. 678407

>>678395
I was about to enter the bathroom and I was walking through the hallway, when my dad got out and slapped me in the ass for no reason. I trusted him for a long time but this was a complete 180. Sorry because I worded it incorrectly.

>>678396
also ur fine anon kek

No. 678412

>>678375
I get you, anon, I feel like 3DPD people are kind of disappointing, specially the men.
Tbh, I can’t wait to be able to live on my own so I can get a bunch of body pillows and other husbandofag shit, i don’t care about the people around me as much as I care for the few anime guys I actually like.

No. 678433

>>678273
I'm the same, but I don't mind having a large collection because it's all there when I want it and I don't have to wait for it download (I hate streaming on free sites because my connection isn't that great and video buffering makes me angry). Especially with shows which are frequently 10+ GB which can take a long time to finish downloading for me.

>>678401
Based

No. 678490

>>678401
My 12 y/o self would be disappointed in me as well. I thought men were legit disgusting and told myself that I’d stay single forever lmao I should’ve listened

No. 678522

>>678490
I feel it, I have a lot of regrets but divorcing that fucker made me stronger and at least helped me return to my original scrote hating ways. Better we see the light again later than never.

No. 678581

I recently got a silicone dildo and everytime I put it in my mouth I want to bite its head off, send help pls.

No. 678583

>>678581
Why put it in your mouth, life ain't a porno

No. 678585

>>678583
I just felt like doing it, I never had sex so I wanted to see how far I could put it in my mouth.

No. 678590

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>be eating junk food
>throw it away before I finish it out of guilt
>start craving it later
>take it out of the trash and eat it
I’ve done this multiple times

No. 678597

>>678590
What the fuck

No. 678601

>>678590
Why don't you just put it in the refrigerator you absolute reprobate?!

No. 678608

>>678590
Didn't your mother every teach you how to fold an unfinished bag of chips closed to save for later omg

No. 678609

>>678590
i get it anon, i have to pour washing up liquid on food so i don’t binge

No. 678610

>>678590
Aw anon. I have to take my garbage out or pour gross stuff on it to prevent binging sometimes.

No. 678619

>>678581
that's a common intrusive thought i have when i give a blowjob

i wonder how hard it would be to bite a dick off

No. 678637

Been wearing the same bra for two months. Showering once a week. Panties haven't been changed in a week. Living the life.

No. 678638

i've been shaving my labia hair down for years and just recently was like fuck it, i'm letting it grow back out. it was awfully itchy for months since i was so not used to having hair there, but now i don't notice it. and the biggest bonus? it seems to catch my discharge somehow, so i can wear a pair of panties all day and not have these nasty stains in them anymore.

No. 678643

>>678638
I don't see how it could be possible for me not go out of my way and completely shave everything down there while I'm a sexual relationship. I guess I might just be more hairy there than the average woman, my pubic hair is black and curly and there's no way in hell I would ever subject a dude to that.

No. 678652

>>678643
learn to love your vagina anon

No. 678653

>>678619

Not very difficult in terms of strenght - you'd have about as much difficulty biting through a finger as a tough carrot, and penises do not have bones in them. I reckon it'd be mostly tough/dense going, but you'd not struggle in terms of bite power.

No. 678654

>>678619
According to Armin Meiwes, pretty hard.

No. 678658

>>678643
I have the same type of pubic hair as you and I've never ever shaved down there, dudes have never said anything about it other than like 'rad bush' or whatever. And I personally think it looks kind of cute all hairy and wild.

No. 678661

>>678658
I think once you age up a bit having a bald childlike pussy is a bit weird. Also the growth after shaving is annoying not just for you, but I've had men complain about my pussy stubble lol, I think just keeping it trim down there and taking care of my bikini line is the best. A bald pussy looks off to me now

No. 678667

>>678661
you sound like you're afraid of what men will think

No. 678671

>>676980
>>676983
you have every right to be jealous! but you know what you can always make her get fat or you could talk to a friend like that and see how your boyfriend likes it, he should tell her to stop.

No. 678672

>>678667
What. I've had a shaved pussy for years and had different men complain about the stubble when it's regrowing so obviously kept it shaved long enough thst several men saw it. Several men have also seen my trimmed pubes. It's completely down to my preference you weirdo

No. 678679

>>678671
>making another woman fat just for some dick
why are farmers like this

No. 678690

>>678643
idk, i just was like, fuck it. if a man doesn't want to value me as a person because of hair down there we are absolutely not soul mates. i can't imagine doing that without expecting the man to also be shaving his balls or whatever.
plenty of men who aren't into little-girl-porno-vagina aesthetic like hair. just as many women aren't into the "perfect chiseled abs with a hairless body" thing a lot of men are idealized into.

No. 678701

>>678679
Why are women with extreme self hatred like this tbh? it's pathetic af to see any woman sobating another for some mediocre man.

No. 678702

>>678643
Ew, love yourself anon. Women grew pubic hair for a reason

No. 678703

>>678638
I stopped shaving and I much prefer it. I used to shave even when I was single so in my head I was like 'I'm definitely doing this for me and not men or societal pressure' But I was fooling myself with that line. I'm too old to be that fussed about others judging it now. Feels good to not be obsessive about it or lying to myself.

No. 678733

>>678339

oh anon, this makes me feel better about the essays I turned in for high school. I was a fujo freak at the time and though they werent romantic or explicit all the stories I wrote involved twinky male characters to the point my English teacher called it out in front of everyone how he thought it weird a teenage girl always writes male characters. I felt so SEEN, he probably knew.

For the same teacher I also wrote a horrificly edgy and explicit essay about a school shooting inspired by this awful screamo song. We don't even live in a country where school shootings happen but he refused to finish reading it nevermind giving it a grade. I sometimes wonder why no-one thought to check in on me more even if it was surface-level edginess.

No. 678741

>>678638

Pubic hair actually helps prevent bacteria from getting into ur vag and spreading so it's actually more hygenic to have pubic hair than to not. Seeing less discharge is probably because there's less bacteria getting in and your vag has to clean itself less.

No. 678751

>>678741
That's why I never have any discharge then? I never shave. Stopped giving a shit years ago

No. 678781

>>678733
I submitted a gay love story between a criminal and a police officer at school, I got a B+ for it.. my fujoshi tendencies run deep

No. 678789

I hate that I can never really get close to a scrote. As soon as I have sex with them or make them my bf they switch up on me and start acting like I'm disposable. The only time I can have any success with men is if i keep them as orbiters for ever and only dangle the possibility of sex in their face. I can never have a deeper emotional connection with a scrote and that's sad. Before I have sex with a scrote he will usually do anything for me, give me rides, buy me food, give me money but after sex I'm immediately trash to them. It's really crushing my self esteem.

No. 678793

>>678789
I feel this, I've had men chase me and then when I commit to them they distance themself emotionally. It's hard to know if it's a defence mechanism on their part but what is the point of the chase otherwise. Hooking up is so much more stressful than being in a relationship

No. 678795

>>678733
>also wrote a horrificly edgy and explicit essay about a school shooting inspired by this awful screamo song. We don't even live in a country where school shootings happen but he refused to finish reading it
Kek I want to hear more about this story, what made it so bad that he gave up reading, did he say?

I was never a thirsty fujo but I wrote an edgelord story about Mary Sue who cares kidnapped and murdered by her obsessive online stalker which made it into the school paper somehow. Looking back on it I really want to know what I was trying to say with it, because like most anons I spent all of my time talking to paedo scrotes online. Was I becoming self aware or was I just being the edgy equivalent of romantic? I'll never know

No. 678799

>>678795
Nta but I remember our drama teacher made us do the columbine shooting story for class. Teachers are more open to discourse than you would think, as long as the story is grammatically correct and the writing is sound I doubt they'd ever care what you present to them. Maybe even something different would stand out from the usual shit

No. 678805

>>678793
It's like damn. As soon as I show any interest or let them into my life they get bored. I'll never have a bf at this point and will just be left with orbiters.

No. 678813

>>678733
I would give anything for you to upload passages

No. 678841

>>678789
Take the lesbian pill

No. 678936

>>678375
Every passing year, I give less of a fuck about irl romance and get closer to being at peace with husbando life. I’m only mid 20s but I want to build a house with some spinster friends already.
>>678401
Fuck, I can’t believe people meme about “just give up and settle” unironically nowadays. I’m always the settler in a relationship my whole life and I’m fucking sick of that.

No. 678960

>>678322
>>678339
Anon, NTA but I'm so sorry that happened to you; it must've been so traumatic. I hope you're doing better now.

No. 678974

one of the mods is literally, actually a fat gay man.

No. 678981

>>678974
any proof? otherwise the tinfoil thread is the other way

No. 678995

>>678981
I believe it. Kek

No. 679058

>>678974
Idc as long as it’s not a straight scrote

No. 679059

>>678375
Being content with being alone > forcing yourself into a relationship that sucks because you’re afraid of being alone. There’s too much stigma over singledom when it’s fun as fuck and based in a lot of ways.

No. 679063

>>675792

I report every single post that the anon who formats like this makes. They might as well avatar/namefag.I fucking hate them. If there’s more than one of you, fuck you all. Go make a weird ass ib where you enter after everything.

No. 679064

>>679063
….Formats like what?

No. 679065

>>679064
I think they mean in the way they replied, w double space

No. 679067

>>678789
The harsh truth is that a huge amount of men only care about you until they fuck you. You’re a “conquest” and their chimpanzee brain loses interest. It’s really a minefield out there. Males can’t be trusted to be deep creatures.

No. 679074

>>679073
To give an example you dumbass bitch wtf

No. 679076

>>679074
You embarrassed anon into concession. Oh my.

No. 679077

>>679074
you should have made it clear then because the post looks completely unironic

No. 679081

>>679077
It’s very obvious. Reading comprehension is a valuable skill
>I report anon that formats like this-
My post was clearly the example. How much clearer could I be?

No. 679082

>>679063
Lmao sorry anon, there are multiple people who do that, I format like that sometimes when I’m samefagging on my 15 different lolcow alts

No. 679083

>>679081
>like this
"this" being the post you quoted.
if you wanted to be clear the space should've gone after "this"

No. 679084

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Feels bad having to be on the closet (homophobic conservative country and family), there's this super cool artsy girl who is really into me and we have great chemistry but alas I have to keep trying to date scrotes because society or something

No. 679085

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>>679063
Somewhat related but I also hate when there's random posts like this with quotes and no text. I think it might be from phone users who are accidentally pushing buttons.

No. 679086

>>679083
Nah >>679065 understood I really don’t think it’s that difficult.
>>679082
It’s okay. I’ll just keep reporting

No. 679089

>>679086
Nta but reporting for what though? I doubt someone formatting like that is an offense.

No. 679094

>>679089
it kind of is, especially if they

format

like

this.
they're likely reddit fags. also: https://lolcow.farm/info rule #5

No. 679096

>>679089

Formatting like this isn't standing out from other anons though imo. I think a bunch of anons do it, and it's not even that noticeable.

No. 679097

>>679085
They always make me laugh

No. 679098

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No. 679103

>>679063
It’s nice to know I’m not the only one who thinks that’s completely retarded. Whoever does it (come on, it can’t be more than 2 anons) is often spouting some complete bullshit as well.

No. 679105

>>678974
flashback to when i caught a ban for saying i hate dicks lol

No. 679106

IDK why but I love the OP pic

No. 679118

>>678658
How about when they give you oral? Don't they find it weird or complain about getting pubes in their mouth?

No. 679123

>>679118
nta but i don't understand this problem. how tf do you tell men to give you head? because i sure as hell don't care about some guy licking around my labia. push that shit open and get to the goods.

No. 679124

>>679103
And half the time not saging. Someone else called them out in the egirls thread
>>679096
Op; it is noticeable and it’s been way too prevalent recently that’s why I’ve been tripping.

No. 679144

Once every few months I pick a 4chan board and troll it for maybe a week. I post things specifically to make males mad. Yaoi, fujo pandering, making fun of male virgins and tiny dicks and low testosterone. I kick up fights over the most basic shit because men are fragile and easy to enrage. After that week or so I leave entirely, hoping my efforts have ruined the day of at least one cumbrain loser.

No. 679149

>>679144
A hero worthy of praise. I totally get it

No. 679156


No. 679170

Everyday I’m glad I can just get off the computer or delete accounts and completely shut out the psychos running around the internet.

No. 679181

Everytime I have a crush it becomes a full blown obsession. Like I literally cannot stop thinking about this person and cannot concentrate on anything else. It makes my heart bleed. How do I fucking stop this shit I feel like I'm going insane

No. 679182

>>679181
Get help. This has fucked up my life. No one is worth that.

No. 679183

>>679181
That's limerence anon

No. 679198

>>679181
i feel like that's common if you're a really young person, later in life however something is not right with you. i'm the same way, stay strong

No. 679212

I've once masturbated in the same room my mom and sibling were sleeping in because I was too horny and couldn't sleep.

No. 679215

a guy i dated trooned out lol. hope he doesn’t cut off his dick

No. 679227

When I was a kid I thought the song all around me by flyleaf was a song about a woman trying to recover from the trauma of her rape. I was completely surprised when I found out I was a song about Jesus. in my defense I only knew the lyrics to the hook and all the other Jesus forward lyrics never registered in my brain.

No. 679272

i’ve been urironically thinking about going WGTOW for some time now. i don’t really enjoy sex outside of genuine romantic love/intense attraction and men lie habitually and recreationally, thrive off conflict and dramatically reduce our lifespan. once they think they’ve secured us, they see no reason to continue treating us well. they are sadistic and revel in causing us negative emotions. they are fundamentally unable to be faithful, even to a 10/10.

it’s like when you try a new food. you tried it and hated it. that’s how i feel about men. they are venal, selfish prevaricating predators.

enough's enough, i'm done.

No. 679321

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god I just want a cute, tall, strong guy, but I don't want him to be super smart, I don't want him to be interested in politics, I just want him to be kind and sweet to me and other people. I wouldn't care if he has education, as long as he can support himself and do stuff around the house. I wouldn't mind earning more money than him either kek

No. 679329

>>679272
I understand wanting to make better choices for yourself going forward and breaking negative habits but subscribing to some set doctrine like "WGTOW" just seems… Brainless? Go literally your own way, read stuff like that if you want but don't let anything tell you what to do
I understand I'm telling you what to do kek

No. 679413

>>676710
Nta but this is a confessions thread. if we cultivate shame here, we won't get to read people's darkest secrets.

No. 679430

>>679181
I got a crush recently on someone unobtainable and was obsessed with them too. I had a fucking dream about them where we fell in love. It was so embarrassing. I feel it.

No. 679435

>>677142
howd you get rid of them in the end, anon? shave it bald? 7 years and your hairdresser never tried to help you?

No. 679438

>>679435
Nta but I also had lice from midde school to high school and I didn't really cut my hair, my mom trimmed them sometimes. They just went away when I finished highschool and I cut my hair really short, took one day to really comb through all my hair with a lice comb till my scalp bled and then combed every other day. Now I don't have any lice for the first time in my life and I feel confident and nice.

No. 679439

>>677718
heh

extreme budgeting

No. 679480

>>678407
anon, has anything like this happened before? im so so so sorry

No. 679482

>>675795
Based.

No. 679483

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idk if i should put this here on the vent thread. idk im a stupid bitch. i reported the man in the pic to the cops for grooming me and they didnt do anything because they didnt find me credible. they didnt even look into it or look at the emails he sent me they just closed the case. 5 years later they catch him with child porn on his computer but they dont charge him because he gets a good lawyer and "no priors". he managed to use the defense "my computer was hacked" lol. When I found out I spent a year battling the cops over bringing new charges for grooming me but they said it was too long ago now. he got away with it all. He used to threaten to kill me if i told anyone, i had pictures of him posing with sex toys with his tongue out sent with messages saying he would kill me if i didn't behave. I was 13 and stopped leaving the house and became suicidal and started self harming.

it's been 15 years now and all i can do now is follow him around online. i contacted his work (gaming company huge shock) and they already severed ties with him for other reasons. i tried telling his wife but she wont listen, despite having young kids of her own. so all i do now is text him every few months telling him im still watching. it drove him off of facebook and some gaming clans. sometimes i call his house. i just make myself a constant presence in his life. i know its insane, i know im making myself ill. i just hate him so much he destroyed my childhood for no reason and now he gets a normal life and i have nothing. i have ugly fucked up scarred arms and he's a dirty fucking furry. his wife looks really nice and friendly, too. i just want to cry forever. sorry to sperg.

No. 679490

>>679483
I get it, anon, but don't do this to yourself. Going through all of this isn't good for you. I am dealing with similar feelings about my abuser and childhood and I feel like it's killing me.

No. 679493

>>679212
did this when i was 12, its my greatest ever shame

No. 679497

>>679483
you should doxx him fr.

No. 679499

>>679483
wait, you told the wife and she doesn't care?! how low does your self esteem have to be to marry a literal pedo who's been caught with child porn?!

No. 679503

>>679499
it's probably denial, not willing to accept that the man she has young children with, used to groom young girls

No. 679504

>>679483
how did you even meet this guy?

No. 679507

>>679321
the ultimate fantasy, a himbo supreme. great tastes.

No. 679530

>>679499
Nta, women who excuse their husbands of disgusting, unforgivable shit are abusers themselves. Bad people. That's why they're okay with being with bad people.
If one of her children comes to her saying her husband abused them, I guarantee she will excuse it away.
"You just think that's what happened because you're stupid/crazy/jealous/a bad child."
"Why would you tell me? You wanted to make me feel bad? Well how could I trust the claim at all since I know you just wanted me to feel bad."
Neglect is abuse, it comes from wanton disregard for safety and wellbeing.

No. 679541

>>679483
Anon, can you hire someone to solve your problem?
I phrase this as innocuously as possible. Even if not for your sake, those kids definitely aren't safe.
I want to say you're doing the right thing because he deserves all of this at the very least, but it's not fair for you to carry the trauma of this shit twice.
There has to be some way to put him away or punish him, under the jail or otherwise.

No. 679602

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told my friend i'd be a reference for a dog adoption application. didn't tell her i fully intend to let the adoption agency know that she's in no way shape or form ready to adopt a dog (and a PUPPY at that) and that letting her have one would be setting the dog up to be neglected.

i feel kind of (like 10%) bad for agreeing to be the reference in the first place but honestly like… i'd feel a million times worse if she got the dog instead of someone who is prepared to give it a proper quality of life. at least i can give the agency a kind of forewarning in this case.

No. 679607

>>679483
Drop this scrotes details luv

No. 679615

Been here for almost 3 years and just now realized pixyteri is a woman. Always thought she was a troon from her old thread pic

No. 679619

>>679483
I just want to say, you are strong for continuing to monitor this freak and trying to prevent him from victimizing anyone else. I know pretty much all of us want nothing to do with our abusers and to just move on with life, so to subject yourself to even having his presence tangentially around is insanely tough. Thank you for doing this for other women's sake.

I do feel concerned for you that this is overtaking your life, and him continuing to play such a big role is still damaging you and preventing you from healing. Do you still have those pictures and messages by any chance? I agree that it would be great if you could look into resources/organizations to help. Aside from women's shelters (which may be able to direct you) and free legal resources, I know there are a lot of social media groups for local communities and that kind of shit. I used to live in a place where a local biker group went around to neighbors to inform people of what local sex offenders looked like and where they lived. It was pretty sick, I know not everywhere has a semi-vigilante citizen group like this but there's likely someplace you could make people aware.

No. 679621

>>679602
Based. Good on you anon, you're doing the right thing and it makes me happy to know a dog will be prevented from going to a shitty home thanks to you.

No. 679622

>>679530
Handmaidens. I hate it, but still not as much as the men who performed the actual abuse in the first place. It's really sad that so many women are brainwashed to the extent that they try to make excuses for men like this. I agree with you though, even when they're indoctrinated and delusional, they are still culpable for supporting scum.

No. 679628

>>679321
I think this is becoming my ultimate fantasy too. I'm tired of woke guys trying to explain why sex "work" is empowering (for their peen) and how women have achieved equality while we still die to domestic violence and how he's supporting women's rights by paying for some thot's OnlyFans. I guess by that measure I'd be okay with a hunk too, but I don't want to discuss "smart" topics with a man anymore even if he had positive views, because I'm tired of being reminded of all this shit. So bring on the himbos.

No. 679635

>>679622
Fam, I'm saying they aren't all brainwashed.
I watched my mom turn from a bra-burning card-carrying, all-men-are-pigs feminist into "Well it's okay if he does it because that's different," apologist the second she met my stepdad.
Some bitches care more about having a relationship than their kids.

No. 679637

>>679635
The sad part is, most heterosexual women are like this.

No. 679647

>>679635
Not trying to invalidate your experiences with your mom (I'm sorry you went through that), but I feel it's common we end up holding sexist beliefs even when we think we're above it all. Speaking for myself, I thought I was fairly feminist, but when I got in an emotionally abusive relationship I found myself rationalizing things I'd never dreamed of because I was subconsciously operating on the thought that my main goal in life should be to find my "true love" and support him, the whole "you do anything for your man if you love him" narrative that's pushed on us. Granted, the bad things he was doing were to me. It was when I realized he'd done bad things to other women that I left him, but only in time. I'm ashamed to say I tried to make excuses, but that was partly because he lied and manipulated me so much. Him being cruel to me should've been enough to realize he was a bad person, but society can make it hard to believe that. It took me spending time here and engaging with radfem material to see what was happening. Anyway sorry for blog posting, I'm not trying to excuse the fact it took me a while or what your mom did, just that I think these things can be more insidious than we realize sometimes.

No. 679650

>>679645
Nta, but 1) there are two types of people and 2) some of you should stop trying to deny women's accountability when they support abusers

No. 679654

>>679647
Not trying to invalidate you back; the fact that you got away because he hurt other people makes you different than the women who stay while watching their children shrivel up
You are a good person.

No. 679660

>>679654
That’s fair. I guess I just want to hope that some of those women may have their eyes opened still, since it ended up taking me a while even after I heard my ex expressing misogynistic views. It just didn’t “click” for several years and I take ownership of that, but I do also believe it was partly due to the abuse and because I was socialized to believe most men were just “misunderstood” and not actually entitled scum.

No. 679671

7. I claimed to be Mormon on my college application because I thought it would help me get in for some reason. I have no affiliation with the church.
8. I continued to troll students from my high school for 2 years after I graduated by making a social media "drama" page.
9. My parents are first cousins.

No. 679677

>>679671
Sweet home alabama

No. 679685

The way troons feel about being a woman, that's me, but with being skinny. I'm built like Doja Cat, but I feel like I'm meant to be Shelley Duval thin. When Venus went for that weight-loss surgery, I felt bad because I could easily see myself doing the same thing. I'm kind of irate that trannies can get free HRT and surgery to chop off their cocks and feminize their bodies because of their mental disorders, but if I want surgery to get rid of the fat on my body and amphetamines to help me achieve the body I want, I need to pay for it all and I will be shamed for it.
I resent my parents forcefeeding me in childhood and making me fat, and I heavily resent that even after losing weight to 110lbs, I still have fleshy, round parts to my body and certain physical markers that feel like some kind of eternal punishment. I actually think it's fine on other women (obv Doja Cat is hot), but on me, it feels like a nightmare. My boyfriend likes the way I look, but I don't care. It all just feels categorically wrong.
I wish I had been more conscious of food before puberty so I wouldn't have developed breasts or thick thighs or anything. It feels like there's so much damage I have to undo, and obviously, not everything will go away unless I get surgery. If I had been allowed to eat less in peace, or if I had been smart enough to find ways to hide food, I would've been fine.
Even in adulthood, despite losing weight in the typical "unhealthy" ways, I have literally none of the physical health downsides associated with ED sufferers. That proves to me that I'm not doing anything wrong, it's just how my body is meant to be. I even remember one time, when I was around 150lbs, someone touched a part of my body and told me I'm "meant to be skinny" because of how my bones jutted out, despite the rest of my body being chubby.
Sorry for longpost but I never get to talk about this frankly.

No. 679687

i call myself aromantic and asexual even though i know very well that i'm neither of those things entirely as a cope because i can't imagine anybody ever liking me in any way and i'm also incredibly ashamed about being bi
it's pathetic but it helps me avoid the inevitable mental breakdown i'm going to have about my actual sexuality eventually

No. 679690

>>679685
To be fair I don't think anyone, especially troons, need subsidized plastic surgeries.
Seems like the money would be better spent on getting your self-esteem fixed. Lord knows a dick chop nor a liposuction has ever automatically made someone like themselves. Usually when you cross one thing off your complaint list you find another thing about yourself to hate. It's an endless moving of goalposts, yet you'll find vultures constantly circling your life and egging you on in this futile effort because people have something to gain from your perpetual low self-esteem and making you feel like you'll never be good enough.

I don't mean to discredit your feelings, but people like Venus are really going to regret their bullshit.

No. 679703

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My bf got a transplant done last year and almost didn't make it. I hate that I dwell on it so much and he's doing fine now but I'm just so afraid of him dying.I think about it too often
Same with the future. The more I think about it the more worried I get rip.

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"venus as a boy" by bjork is probably the closest i have to a song describing a fantasy for me. i just imagine this beautiful, almost supernatural man coming from the mountains of iceland to give me the best sex of my life, super intimate and romantic yet erotic… and then he goes back into the forest or whatever again til i need him.
sigh. fiction is always better than reality

No. 679710

>>679708
Aren’t these sorts of fantasies sort of maladaptive? So specific and probably very detrimental to any semblance of intimacy or relationships in your life, no?

No. 679715

>>679710
oh yeah i have plenty of them in substitute for an actual relationship. i'm pretty happy being single though. relationships are work that i don't have desire for, nor much time.

No. 679720

>>679715
Well it’s your life of course, I just hope you’re keeping busy in other ways. Not meaning to be condescending, I just know that it can sour your ability to be content or happy. I hope you have a job or career or whatever else to keep your attention queen~

No. 679724

>>679720
i have a job i love that lets me live alone and i have great friends. a man has to be fucking incredible to come into my life.

No. 679735

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>>679724
Queen indeed. All women should have your attitude.

No. 679739

>>679735
hope you have a great night sis

No. 679748

my ex's name is also the name of a big city and every time I see someone mention the city or the university of it I get fucking triggered.

No. 679750

>>679748
same, my ex's name is a really common word in my native language lol

No. 679755

>>679748
Austin? Orlando? Charlotte!

No. 679779

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When I was a kid, I used to pee in the sink.
Even if the toilet was right there… there was just something fun about hopping up on the sink and peeing in there. I also want to say for a while I autistically hated the sound of the toilet flushing. I also had a habit of peeing in the bathtub (no running water) for a while and would often accidentally put toilet paper in the bathtub.

When I was downstairs and no one was home, I would go ahead and pee in the kitchen sink because I would be too scared to go use the hallway bathroom.

I just had a phase between ages 7 and 10 where I fucking hated toilets, kek.

No. 679786

>>679779
I was the same at the same age and hated the sounds of flushing and closing the toilet lid. It was loud and scary especially at night. I’d go to the bathroom without flushing and blame it on friends when they’d sleep over or lie that I went in my sleep as if I was capable of sleep walking.

No. 679859

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>>679748
Paris?!

No. 679924

>>679748
It’ll get better eventually anon. I used to get triggered by so much stupid shit connected to my ex and now it doesn’t come to mind. Even his name, I associate firstly with someone else now. Just give it time.

No. 679949

i'm so embarrassed to admit this but i think i'm an incel, but i'm not a guy. i see other girls as competition and i despise them and everything the live for, seeing them get more than me fills me with rage because it's just not fair, i'm more than enough because i don't get offended at the same things other girls do, i don't have tiktok humor and i'm not a sensitive twat. when it comes to girls i find things they're bothered by, like homophobia, transphobia, etc. and i start saying stupid shit because it pisses them off, i'll fatshame random people to piss them off and it always works.
i think this has come from being bullied by girls as a kid, after reading this you probably wouldn't be surprised to find out i'm neurodivergent, i used to get bullied for it and i also grew up poor so i couldn't always afford to shower, get new clothes, that sort of stuff. i was an easy target and i remember i had a crush on a boy in the class and i didn't know you were supposed to keep that a secret, so when they asked i just told them. they told him and after that they outcasted me, they never included me in anything and they made fun of me for everything i ever did. i used to go online and see girls whore themselves out for celebrities and youtubers, it disgusted me that they didn't have any modesty and i grew to despise women expressing sexuality.
i've been called a ''pick me'' which means a woman who puts down other women for male approval, and the thing is.. i don't really do it for male approval, i hate the idea of women doing stupid shit for male approval and the only time i could ever do anything for male approval is if i had a crush on a guy. i just hate women. they always have their way with everything, they develop stupid trends that everyone jumps on and no one can insult them without being called a ''disgusting incel'' or some shit.
i hate pretty women, i hate skinny women, i hate fat women, i hate ugly women, i hate all women. they're always the dumbest because they come up with all sorts of retarded shit and can't handle criticism, valid or not. i'm so tired of this, it's really all over for me…

No. 680009

I just called the police on my neighbor that abuses his wife. I don't think anything will get better because she'll probably lie for him because of their stupid fucking culture and religion but at least I tried.

No. 680010

>>680009
Damn. How long did you listen to them go at it before you called the cops?

No. 680011

>>679949
And yet you yourself are a woman with a lot of internalized misogyny. I hope you can learn to love other women especially since not all of us give a damn for men.

No. 680012

>>679949
>i'm more than enough
Hm, nah. You're a femcel spouting off about how much you hate women on a female-dominated imageboard and railing about how unfair life is to you. The reality is you get what you deserve for becoming a bully and failing to have the introspection to improve yourself and treat innocent people well despite what other people have done.

Get therapy.

No. 680016

>>679949
>the only time i could ever do anything for male approval is if i had a crush on a guy
Kek and what do you think pickmes do? You rant about how you don't like sexuality and stuff but you seem to think with your pussy

No. 680017

>>679949
Word you’re looking for is femcel. A lot of the behavior you described is something I feel like a lot of women and girls feel towards one another. Especially because of the way we are brought up to see each other as threats and competition. However, instead of getting stuck on your shitty traits, and saying it’s over for you… why not use that effort to find ways to unlearn the unhealthy things you’ve internalized?! At one point it wasn’t your fault, but you’re obviously a self aware adult and know you’re doing these toxic things. It’s time to change the way you think, for the better. It’s not easy at all. But I wish you the best.

No. 680018

>>680010
Almost an entire year, I was hoping someone else would since I'm a fucking coward but it doesn't seem like anyone did.

No. 680023

I actually genuinely enjoy some of Buzzfeed's content. The Unsolved series in particular

No. 680024

>>679859
underrated comment kek

No. 680026

>>679949
God, grow up. Stop using bullying as an excuse for your rancid personality.

No. 680041

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>>679949
>using how you were raised poor as a cope to make yourself seem less like a shit person.
I don’t know, buddy, but that bothers me a lot. I get why you would grow up full of complexes, but seriously, how old are you to be going on about muh Poor upbringing? You should just get over it. I get that it’s really shitty to think about how you got bullied for shit you weren’t responsible of, but you need some therapy to get over it.
You don’t have to forgive them, block those asshats everywhere and avoid them at all costs because they don’t even deserve a gaze or anything at all from you, but stop dwelling into stuff like those retards.
Don’t use how you grew up poor as a way to say “oh yeah, I’m bitter because of that, not totally because I just can’t grow up and be the mature person” it makes you look just like those retards on Twitter using disabilities or poc test points to make others disregard any shit behavior they have, it’s kind of sorta fucking gross, friend.

No. 680046

>>680041
ntayrt, what was your upbringing like? just to know where this kind of advice comes from.

No. 680050

I accidentally called my bf "daddy" while we were boinking, and I feel like a horrible degenerate.

No. 680054

>>679949
It's funny because some people here use "femcel" to insult women who dislike men, but all actual women who fit the definition of "femcel" hate women, not men.
Even using "-cel" is a stretch because you (and all other women) can still get dick, and unlike incels, lack of male attention/dick isn't even your problem.
You can grow out of this if you train yourself to dissect how irrational your hatred is. Is it helping you to hate other women in any real way? What does it do for you? Do you feel comfortable walking into a place when you're automatically harboring all those thoughts about complete strangers? How many opportunities do you think you've lost because you judged a lot of women negatively based off of nothing realistic? Ask yourself those questions and just go on.

No. 680056

>>680046
I wasn’t exactly a poorfag to the level of OP, but if my parents managed to become nice people with good intentions while coming from really poor families to the point in which they gave me a better upbringing than theirs. I’m pretty sure OP can do the same with the many resources there are nowadays.

No. 680061

>>680050
How tf do you do that 'accidentally'

No. 680063

>>680050
Was he disappointed in you

No. 680079

>>680061
I call him that ironically/as a joke to annoy him, and he does it back to me kek. I think the wires got crossed and I did it in bed. Awful.
>>680063
He didn't acknowledge it at all, verbally or physically and still hasn't. Neither of us have said it jokingly either, though he's switched to "papi" exclusively since it happened Saturday lol.

No. 680106

>>680041
>>680026
>>680017
>>680012
>>680016
>>680011

thank you. i think this is what i needed and i've never told anyone about this, my upbringing isn't an excuse and seeing other's POV of my view on women has affected myself is a genuine shock because i'm really closeminded. i'm going to try and get help for this, i can't use a victim complex to excuse this and i can't just keep ignoring this as it's not normal in the slightest. thank you for this

No. 680147

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>>680106
I hope you do your best, anon ♥ ily

No. 680162

>>680056
>stop being poor
i avoid people like you like the plague

No. 680172

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No. 680209

>>680162
You're gonna be in for a bad time when you realize nobody will take "O MY POOR UPBRINGING" as a valid excuse for being a shit person.

No. 680255

i have a tinfoil theory that a guy in this band i like is madly in love with his best friend, who is also in the band, but that best friend does not reciprocate it. reasons being that the guy has made literal songs about being intimate with the bandmate– and when he revealed one of those songs was about the bandmate (it's vague) the bandmate was "surprised" and then all of a sudden, guy changes his story and says "yeah but anyway it's about my wife now." there are several songs he's made since then directly talking about how pretty this bandmate is, or sometimes vaguely referencing him, or sometimes speaking about having sex with some unknown person and i honestly believe that he made it in reference to this bandmate.
but the bandmate is completely straight and has a wife of his own and it's just not meant to be. i think this tears the first guy up inside and it's why he's had a string of failed relationships. anyway i'm not gonna name names but yes this is my idea and i at least take comfort in knowing i'm not the only one with this theory. it's also a fairly obscure band so it's more likely to me, not like the people who have a conspiracy that the one direction guys are dating and trying to keep it a secret or something.

No. 680262

>>680255
please give me a genre at least

No. 680269

>>680262
"experimental" is the only thing that can truly relate to this band

No. 680281

>>680255
please anon, drop the name…i'm not even interested in the tinfoiling, i just wanna listen to the songs he calls his bandmate pretty

No. 680283

>>680255
Gimme names, gimmeee

No. 680296

I get lowkey disappointed when I open the unpopular thread in the evening and there's no infighting going on. At least there's /meta/ but it's just not the same thing you know? So my lolcow snacks don't taste quite the same.

No. 680326

>>680255
>>680269
Sounds an awful lot like Animal Collective if I had to guess.

No. 680340

Getting into gc/pp stuff has honestly really changed my perspective on men and sex.

I used to live the BDSM lifestyle almost 24/7. Getting degraded, being talked down to, being called slut/whore/bitch etc, put on leashes, calling my bf sir/Master whatever. I "enjoyed" all of that stuff until gc/pp so I guess I'm just really glad to be a woman.

I am not into 70% of that stuff anymore. I do still enjoy spankings but I have always enjoyed pain, I'm a masochist simply put and there genuinely nothing to be done about it. I was hurting myself before I even know what masochism was and enjoying it, a thrill… "Wow I can hurt myself and train myself not to feel pain, but joy?! Sign me up!"
I still do enjoy the look of collars and chokers, but I just find those genuinely aesthetically pleasing. Occasionally it's fun to slip back into the bdsm thing, just lightly, but as a lifestyle, I can't anymore.

When I would go to kink clubs, I felt really bad for the women that looked like they weren't there on their own. Their husbands looked like absolute pricks. They always wore 1950s attire and then would be publicly degraded. They always looked like they were genuinely afraid to step out of line. I think I'm too powerful to be treated like that, but I'm sure some of these women thought so as well. And now look at them. Getting glared at for speaking when not spoken to at some kink club.

No. 680355

>>680340
>I think I'm too powerful to be treated like that
when previously
>I used to live the BDSM lifestyle almost 24/7. Getting degraded, being talked down to, being called slut/whore/bitch etc, put on leashes, calling my bf sir/Master whatever

What.

No. 680376

>>680340
I sometimes have difficulty reconciling my BDSM kinks with my identity as an authoritative, respected woman. I can’t watch BDSM porn (or really any porn) because the way the women are degraded is revolting.

I find that my perfect sexual balance is with a partner that understands being a sub is truly about aftercare, and the trust a sub puts in. Swingers’ clubs and the like are not where we belong.

The kink community is by nature full of weirdos, and heavy vetting should be done before engaging with someone.

No. 680378

>>680296
Head over to /snow/ right now, hella infighting

No. 680389

>>680355
Yes, but all of that shit was on my own terms. I'm not saying I was in the right mindset at the time but I did my own research into the lifestyle and had that lifestyle while single, before I even had a boyfriend. So while I might've fallen prey to the "Oh if you like bdsm and do sex work you are liberated and a free woman" meme, I wasn't in a relationship where I had a husband or a boyfriend making me do that stuff and then being a dick/having a tantrum if I didn't want to conform to it. So it wasn't like I met him and he was like "Oh now we should do BDSM stuff". I was never forced to do any of that stuff or forced to dress a certain way. I thought I enjoyed it, but my point was that I'm able to say no to things without ruining my relationship. And I don't think I could ever be put in that position. I'm way too strong, personality wise, outside of the sex stuff.

I mean, some of the women I'd see just looked fucking depressed to be there. Never like they were having fun.

No. 680441

I want Kamala Harris to slowly unzip my jeans then reach into them and grab me by the pussy.

No. 680443

>>680441
Come join the anons despairing over her in >>>/g/158895

No. 680447

I’m in love with my boyfriend <3333

Kinda sucks bc the FIRST day we meet when he was driving me home he told me to never say that I loved him bc he’s never been in love with anyone and it would be awkward if I said it and he couldn’t say anything back.

But I LOVE him so much

No. 680448

>>680447
F-tier bait, my dude.

No. 680489

>>679435
Basically they stopped being an issue once I left for college and had entirely new bedding+was completely responsible for myself and separated from my sister who kept giving them back to me. As for hairdressers my mom was too embarrassed but really couldn't manage it so we just did at home treatments every month or so.

I felt awful about it but it was this huge problem I couldn't fix despite all my efforts.

No. 680492

I just got my very first good job with adult benefits and pay and I feel like I don't deserve it.

No. 680500

>>680489
I also kept catching lice constantly throughout middleschool despite combing and treatments, I was so humiliated when other kids pointed it out. I even cut my waist-length hair off to try to make it stop. Thanks for your posts fellow liceanons, weirdly reassuring to read lol

No. 680504

I feel like I'm way too damaged to ever date again and that therapy won't work simply because I have 0 social skills as it is so why bother

No. 680523

>>679063

Do you report Oxford commas and double spaces too you salty formatting/grammar cunt?

No. 680554

>>679063
do you like being angry

No. 680556

>>680492
Noo anon, be proud of yourself for securing a good job! Good luck at your new job!

>>680504
Social skills can be developed, they're just skills after all.

No. 680591

I always religiously read Shayna's thread even when the milk is dry as fuck, I can always depend on her hamplanet ass to make me feel better about myself. I've also noticed a lot of anons say they read it as well, but it's also regarded as a shit thread with tons of nitpicking and sperging. It's like a collective dumpster fire we all can't look away from and I love that

No. 680600

>>680376
You won’t be able to reconcile anything because it’s entirely hypocritical.
Good luck with your weird shit.

No. 680601

>>680523
Nope just cunts that like to their posts to stick out

No. 680622

>>677012
I'm really glad it worked out for you, bless that kind stranger

No. 680715

Sometimes I fantasize about having a totally different career than i do now. Like what if I were a school nurse or a worked at a hotel. Would it be fun? I'm almost sad I can't try every job in the world.

No. 680726

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>>680600
Thanks!

No. 680728

>>679063
Crazy you can report so often. Some retarded janny banned me for reporting one of their unmarked posts that bumped a years old thread. They called me an idiot in the ban too. I was like what lol

No. 680731

>>680715
I feel you. I'm in college and I like what I'm doing but I often fantasize about being me, but with other lives and careers.
For a while I wanted to be an actress so I can somewhat live different lives kek

No. 680734

>>679063
>hates unnecessary spacing
>leaves a space between the post quote and angry paragraph for reasons
Why? Did you want to take up lolcow real estate and be noticed?

No. 680823

Even in my fantasies I can't imagine anyone loving me in a healthy way. Lately I've been fantasizing about being beheaded. Someone lovingly dragging headless body and somehow connecting my head to it again. They don't save me, don't give me any hope, just keep me alive for some reason to live on in more despair.

It's the most romantic delysion I can sort enjoy because anything more wholesome just makes me ashamed of myself because I don't believe I deserve that (tbf I feel like a lot of people don't, especially most men.)

No. 680825

>>680823
Seek therapy or self-help, anon.

No. 680830

>>680823
A man with a chainsaw looked like he was approaching me today (trimming the town Christmas tree) and I got a brief kind of sexual thrill and immediately felt really weird. But this made me feel relatively normal again so thanks anon.

No. 680909

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Sometimes I purposefully make scrotes fall in love with me even if I don't like them so I can feel something. I then make their lives as emotionally tumultuous as is humanly possible. There is probably something wrong with me but I don't give a fuck anymore.

No. 680914

>>680909
Hiw do u make guys fall inlove?I need to kno

No. 680926

>>680914
It's not hard to get men infatuated. Look decent, be able to talk about the thing they like and show some interest for them. The bar is low.

No. 680930

>>680909
Based anon.

No. 680932

>>680909
queen! show me the way!

No. 680938

I wish I had the mojo to take on the neighbours who have been dumping garbage in our yard and bin. Haven't caught them in the act but this has never been a problem until they moved in. A few torn up dead rats found on their porch by their crotch goblins may give them a jolt of property respect. I'm not above that… if I knew I wouldn't be caught. Too old to be inciting shit, but the thought is psychotically relaxing.

No. 680941

>>680914
>>680932
Just like >>680926 anon said, simple as that. Let them talk- scrotes love talking about themselves, pander to their niche and sooner or later they'll be running into your arms.

No. 680947

>>680909
They've likely done the same to women many times over. You deliver the karma.

No. 681008

>>680909
Be careful anon. As you probably know some scrotes can be violent well uh, scrotes.

No. 681015

>>680492
anon u deserve the world

No. 681019

>>679687
the gay woman inside of me wants to help you cope with kindness and understanding anon

No. 681034

>>680909
i turned a guy from a liberal feminist ally into a full blown mgtow doing this. be careful.

No. 681037

i am obsessed with skinny short men. the guy i am fucking right now is really skinny and short but pretty ugly and it's turning me on even more. help!

No. 681041

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I'm literally afraid of group of kids, especially boys, and I still have nightmares about bullying, every fucking week

No. 681042

>>680106
anon I truly hope you can move past this and enjoy female friendships. once you get over the mental block I think you'll find that you will be happier. I'm rooting for you

No. 681046

If a lady customer is bitchy I will continue being chipper and polite but I call them "ma'am." I feel a bit bad because hey, I'm going to get older too, and I'm sure i won't like the reminder either, but it's satisfying because all they can do is seethe silently.

If a male customer is rude I go deadpan, no eye contact, and interrupt them. If he's creepy, I make eye contact but make a point not to laugh at anything they say. I just blink slowly with my soulless eyes and proceed with the transaction like a robot

Just different ways of hurting the over-inflated egos of the stuffy people I serve

When they're very nice (I have a few customers that are always super sweet and friendly) I give them discounts I'm not technically supposed too, shh

No. 681065

>>680909
Anon where is this pic from? I love it sm

No. 681069

>>681046
>but I call them "ma'am." I feel a bit bad because hey, I'm going to get older too
It always astounds me when women from outside the American south get so offended by the word ma'am. Regional languages are so neat.

Also you are based. Continue your good work

No. 681070

Recently I found out that this cute younger guy I'm friends with(he's 23, I'm 27) is still a virgin and now all I can think about is taking his virginity…

No. 681074

>>681065
Same anon, it's from 西游朽, a Chinese photographer. Can't find any other pics from that shoot though, shame.

No. 681075

>>681070
Is it fucked up that this is a turn on to me

No. 681077

>>681069
I didn't even realize it was a thing until my bf mentioned how he calls customers "miss" to make them happy. Actual old ladies (like, full head of gray hair) don't mind "ma'am" at all. But older women (not old women) do not care for it at all.

Haha, thanks anon. Luckily I work at a small business with very understanding bosses so I can get away with it. And ngl it feels good to be able to exert some power in a retail job, even if it's small.

I haven't had to use it yet, but apparently all employees get one "go fuck yourself" to a customer and the manager will back you up. If i ever have to use it I will definitely tell the tale somewhere on lolcow

No. 681081

>>681075
NTA, but the idea of teaching an inexperienced man is hot to me, too.

No. 681109

>>681075
i dont think so, cause you are not the only one who finds that hot. kek

No. 681118

>>681109
>>681081
>>681075
>>681070
i have taken so many guys virginitys. it's pretty great.

No. 681133

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i can't relate to those posts/memes about wanting hugs, cuddles, physical affection. like, to be single and long for that in your spare time, i just don't get it. is it purely a meme of a nice thought or is that the norm for others? I'm a little schizoid (but I still value relationships) so that might be all. plus I am not generous with my hugs unless it's my lil brother (then a lot) or i really want to.
I kind of think i may be normal for that though. it seems like a waste of time to miss cuddling that much that it makes you sad unless you just had a breakup. not that it's weird or wrong, but seems extra. i'm not even a scrote but the thing I ever think about wanting is sex, but not to their degree. When i'm in a relationship and care for someone then i would want to cuddle, but not when i have no specific person to want. or maybe Im fucked up from not lots of physical closeness from my parents
also i don't think it makes me superior but i am grateful i don't get sad over it. anyway i kind of think it's a meme to be uwu cutesy, or do people really get sad from that? if so i hope you get hugs when covid gone

No. 681151

>>681133
For me I generally hate being touched even for casual hugs or handshakes from friends/family, but when I had a boyfriend I loved being wrapped up with him as much as possible whether that was sex and kissing or cuddling, massages, holding hands and all that. It felt really good to be that close and intimate with someone and have repeated physical verification of our emotional closeness. Plus it literally just felt good to snuggle up against his neck and feel the warmth of his chest and the gentle rise and fall of his breathing against me. I’m single now and he was a shit so I don’t miss him but I definitely miss having those feelings.

No. 681169

99% sure I have autism and want to get a diagnosis, it finally explains why I fucked up in life so much. But I don't know if I should tell my (traditional, immigrant) parents because they'll probably just be even more disappointed in me, and think that Im hiding my laziness/stupidity behind fake western diseases.

No. 681188

>>681133
I think the ";w; just wish I had someone to cuddle rn" memes are exaggerated to be cutesy. But wanting or missing physical affection is pretty normal I think. I think the two main things people mean when they talk about it is missing the experience of having someone to cuddle with, like being in love/a relationship, and simply missing the dopamine/serotonin/oxytocin boost you can get from positive physical contact

No. 681228

I have fetishized (or at least been obsessed with) different races of guys from as early as I can remember. It's kind of worrisome when I reflect back on it. I used to be really obsessed with hispanic boys, my bio on Bebo and Myspace were about how I loved them and I would write retarded little notepads about them, all around age 11 and 12. Then it was asian men, I was obsessed with Super Junior and Ryan Higa for a short stint.

Even now, I have to talk myself out of being super stimulated by a specific race JUST BECAUSE they're that race. I'm in a relationship but it's hard not to feel my heart pound harder when I see a hot Korean guy (not a koreaboo, don't listen to kpop or anything) or an attractive mexican guy. I genuinely don't want to be this way and openly hardcore judge people who fetishize women based on their race/ethnicity so why do I do the same? I am attracted to men of all races but just get particularly excited by asian men and some hispanic men.

But honestly if any man has long hair I'm fucking game.

No. 681287

>>681118
Original anon and this is not helping with my urges lmao. I really really really don't want to ruin our friendship though and he's talked about how he wants his first time to mean something so I don't want to ruin that for him either just because I'm a horny degenerate kek. Guess I'll just masturbate furiously.

No. 681319

>>681188
Nta but I always feel like a fucking alien when I read this kind of posts because I really don't like being touched or cuddled even by family members, when someone hugs me I can't help thinking "please be over", I don't get that serotonin boost. I really fear for the day I'll eventually have sex, I just know it's going to be extremely uncomfortable for me. I have no history of CSA whatsoever.

No. 681457

>>681319
please never have sex if you don't want to, anon. You deserve to reserve yourself from that if it's not your cup of tea.

No. 681459

My ex truly revolted me at the end of our relationship before I finally managed to break things off. I had trouble saying no to sex, so one of my coping mechanisms was to look at his balding spot whenever he was giving me head and imagining that it was an old man going down on me instead, kek.

No. 681484

I frequently have dreams about being a lesbian and going down on other women. I always wake up super h*rny and then feel bad for my boyfriend, that his gf is having dreams like that. But these dreams have been happening since the 5th grade.

No. 681514

>>681319
i think it's also normal to not get the serotonin boost if you don't like physical contact to begin with, please don't feel alien about it. if it's something you dislike or aren't in the mood for, you obviously won't be able to relax during it. think of it like this: i'm a person that does get the serotonin boost…when i WANT to cuddle. if someone, even my bf for example, wrapped himself around me in a big hug when i didn't want to, i wouldn't get the boost, i'd get the same "please be over" feeling you do.

my sister is the same as you, kind of. she'll hug me and our family, but it's more like a greeting than because she enjoys the contact. she generally does not like being touched, especially not for prolonged periods of time, so i think it makes sense that she wouldn't get any sort of "feel-good" chemicals from cuddling.

No. 681520

>>681514
then again my sister is also autistic, so that probably plays a role in her case
and i agree with >>681457, don't have sex unless you actually want to.

No. 681531

>>681319
I don't like being touched either or to cuddle, but I have a history with anxiety so I think it must stem from that.

No. 681916

I just want my celeb crush to fuck me and then I can kill myself

goodluckwiththat.jpg

No. 681923

I almost want to say I hate my friend. Every time I start watching a show with her, she just leaves the room. Even if it's something she is guaranteed interested in. I get she is in a long distance relationship but I swear to God if she ever dares talk to me about how I don't hang out with her I'm gonna scream

No. 681942

>>681916
me depressionposting on my tumblr blog at 16

No. 681978

>>679703
My husband came close to dying the day of our wedding earlier this year and I think about it almost every day. It was very sudden and scary and I totally understand where you're coming from with being eternally spooked. I want to say it will change but honestly I don't know if I will ever be able to let go of this anxiety.
It will probably come up in conversation more than you want it to but I hope time will just fix it.

No. 682016

>>681978
What happened to him exactly? That's the shittiest timing I can think of, it must have been traumatizing.



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