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I had about a few hours of sleep, feel like shit, and I'm about to go get my armpits lasered. Then I have to buy groceries. I just want to stay in bed.
Delete them anon!!! Seriously, they're not worth it, esp if you don't have the money rn.
I dated someone who spent $500+ on candy crush & it spiraled way out of control
don't feel too bad tho, these games are designed to make you feel good.
I know what you mean anon, but none of it is real you know? It's the kind of thing you just have to cut off. If it's tied to your acc maybe you'll be able to redownload it in a few years when you're more financially stable.
or, the next time you feel the urge to spend $2 or $5 or however much on your game, think about what you could use that money for - towards rent, internet, maybe a snack, something tangible.
i know addiction like this is hard, but i believe in you.
have you also considered trying to find the cracked version of the game, so you can just play normally instead of spending money? if it's an otome for example, there's lots of those online iirc. Just be careful not to download anything shady. what kind of games are they?
So, my ex had made that acc to circumvent the block and tried to sneak into my dms for the second time. It was called something with Jon Snow (barf) and he asked me how it was going and sent cutesy emojis….. (barf)
I removed him twice from my followers, then blocked him again and privated my acc again.
Since he has a past of stalking exes (had a stalking app on an ex's phone, was controlling, jealous and obsessive), I felt uncomfortable especially since he knows my address.
I realised since he is a manipulative spineless little bitch and a brainlet with brainrot, I just need to come off strong to nip his obsession in the butt. He needs to know that I detest him and that I will fight tooth and nail for my freedom if he gets ideas about stalking me. Since he is a weak little bitch and I'm way tougher and smarter, this is an easy job. When he provoked me into breaking up, I insulted him like three times and he was seriously upset LOL
So, I sent him a text message tonight (he has no money for his phone, so he couldn't respond if he tried).
It went like this:
I don't wanna talk to you. I'd have unblocked you if I did. Don't try to circumvent the block. I don't wanna talk to you today or tomorrow or in a year or in ten years. I wanna die someday as peaceful as possible without having talked to you again. If you try to contact me and circumvent the block again until X date I will spill on our drug test fraud (I'm a retarded bitch and helped him cheat a drug test at the hospital). I only found your number in the first place because it shows up in my blocked contacts.
Don't try to contact me again.
No hard feelings.
Ladies, I'm growing a backbone
Thank you for replying to me and helping me to not feel like such a loser :(
They’re pretty standard games like animal crossing pocket camp, klondike, and EverMerge. I usually allow myself to spend monthly on pocket camp (around $30 usually, but I’ve binged and spent more than that if there were in game items I wanted that month, bc theres exclusive limited time gachas and furniture and stuff), I don’t spend any money on evermerge and it’s the game I can control myself with most, but the Klondike game is becoming a huge issue. I’ve downloaded it recently and it’s one of those games that’s super slow to progress through without spending money on “energy” and the wait time to craft things makes it hard for me to be satisfied with the amount of progress I can make in a sitting. That’s the one I spent so much on last night, and last nights purchases weren’t even my only ones since getting the app :( theres also a word game that allows you to renovate houses and stuff, and I’ve spent a lot on that just to get furniture that I like. All of this isn’t real or necessary but since it helps my anxiety and allows me to escape, I keep doing it
You're not a loser at all! The fact that you even posted about your problem here means that there's at least some part of you that's brave enough to acknowledge your problem and want to change. So that's the first step. But you have to actively work on the issue. Are you in therapy for your anxiety? (The games are a crutch and provide instant gratification, but I'm sure you understand that. They won't help the root of the issue.)
Try baby steps.
1. Delete the game that's your biggest money sink. Sounds like it's that Klondike game or that furniture game.
2. If you really think you can't let go of the games right now, research cracked apks online but be mindful.
3. Start a budget spreadsheet if you haven't. You have to be brutally honest with this. Every time you spend money on a game, add to the spreadsheet and check at the end of week/month. When you have real numbers in front of you, it can help you stop spending as much. But you have to make sure you log every expense, even if it's only 99c or what have you.
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I did a hate crime last night apparently and woke up to this. No matter that it was on a post calling for violence towards women, amongst comments calling all women sluts and whores, saying women need to learn to cook or they're failures as women.
I know I'd heard of this happening on Facebook, and I guess i shouldn't be surprised since insta is owned by them. It's just fucking pathetic. Imagine if men had to take the abuse women did daily? I'm so sick of men I don't want to interact with them at all anymore.
You literally cant say anything to men without them getting emotional. If you bring up the high crime statistics they just chimp out. They won't even recognize men have a problem as a whole, they're sure as fuck not going to band together and start fixing it.
And the worst thing is I keep seeing dumb ass comments on other sites I visit saying shit like this is a white man's problem which is just as fucking bad. Like black/asian/latino women aren't getting the same treatment from men in their communities. There was a post a few days ago saying misogny and sexism DIDN'T EXIST until white men introduced it to native Americans/aboriginals in Australia.They said before white people these communities worshipped women lmao. So it's not like we can even tackle it from a liberal stand point.
Fuck me. I just don't care anymore. They are useless.
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last night I was using my vibrator gettin all juiced up and then the motor died. It'll be hard to discreetly order a new one because I live with my parents
Oh anon I know that feel so well. I was a whale on a game a few years ago. Outrageous amounts of money that make me cringe and feel sick just thinking about it now. Be better then me, stop spending on them.
The only reason I stopped was because the app went under and was deleted. I lost everything I spent a lot to acquire in seconds! I have absolutely nothing to show for it.
My best suggestion is to delete the games. If it’s so easy to lose everything by that simple act alone it’s going to happen regardless. A lot of anons have good advice for taking baby steps. But remember: non of its real, the second they delete the app off the store, the second you can’t update your phone high enough or something technical goes wrong, everything’s gone anyway.
Another idea might be to invest in an actual game system. There are games with the same kind of vibe that don’t require further purchases once you have the game. Animal Crossing New horizons comes to mind. Save for a switch system or purchase older sim games for your computer if you have one.
Cracked game apps are also an option. I wish I could point you to a community for such a thing but most of the games with in app purchases I play these days don’t really require the purchases to complete the game, they’re just for aesthetics.
In the meantime maybe you need to set a hard limit? Can you make privacy cards? I believe they allow you to set a limit of what can come out in a certain time frame. Also print off your bank statements and confront yourself with how much you’ve spent. Was it worth it? Could that money have been used for something else you needed or heck, something else you really wanted?
Good luck anon.
After stressing about it for a while,I managed to tell my father I'm going on vacation on my own.Considering his unpredictable temper,this was an extremely difficult thing to do,yet his response was pretty calm compared to what I expected which annoys me because I never know what to fucking expect
The reason I go on vacation alone is due to the fact I'm tired of everyone around me and I truly need some piece of mind to thing about my life clearly.My father doesn't realise how negatively he affects my family,I and even himself with his behaviour. He keeps complaining about getting sick and dying, yet I'm the one who has ended up in the hospital due to physically manifested anxiety.I have tried explaining it to him,but he is very difficult to talk to and twists the conversations or gives up on them and leaves so there's no rational way to solve family problems.
This travel is a big step for me as I was even afraid to use busses in the past,but lately I had been so tired of this situation feeling sick again that I can't handle more "family" time anymore.I had been feeling continiously ill,tired,stressed,had no appetite,suicidal and all of that nice shit and my father keeps having no idea it's mostly due to him.He can't accept it.He keeps saying he wants me to become independent,but doesn't want me to let me go and keep doing things for him.I'm pretty fucking sure he will lowkey start trash talking about me/my decision,since it affects our work life too.
Oh it would be so easy if he only used his ears and some compassion.But he can't so I gotta look like a shithead doing stunts like this
I’m native Latina and it’s been prevalent in history that the men “owned” us so to speak, and especially in modern history and Latino culture, the men are way more sexist than white men can ever dream. Since I’m indigenous Latina and not indigenous North American, I can’t say how modern history treats its women but I don’t hear very good things. My best friend is also a black girl and she hates black men because of how they treat black women, and any time on black twitter you will see that many black women share this sentiment. Asian culture may have some of the worst sexism and gender disparity, rivaling laities culture, and I think it has something to do with both cultures being rooted in traditional virtues. I have no idea why the wokies only speak out against white men when it’s not just white men, it’s all men. They talk about how good white women have it compared to men of color, when men of color are as violent and horrible toward women as white men are, ive actually experienced better treatment from white men than any man of color that I’ve dated. Not marginally better, because they’re still men, but American culture kind of cultivated a sentiment in white men where they know they can’t be extremely vocal about how much they hate women anymore. Men of color will say they own their women and want to keep them and, when criticized for it, say it’s their culture and it’s racist to speak out against tradition. It’s all a load of shit.
I was thinking about some baby steps in that I shouldn’t play games while on adderall because I will hyper focus on them and try to sink hours into playing them, and when I can’t progress…..spending money lol, and then giving myself a monthly allowance to start out with before lessening they amount until I wean off. Unless it’s better just to do it cold turkey?
The last part about budgeting is so useful, I’ve been meaning to track all my budget things. I haven’t been going without paying my share of rent and credit building, but other than that I don’t spend a lot of my money. I’m a chronic saver, but because of the corona virus, I’ve had to dig way into my savings without recovering so I really can’t afford the addiction anymore, especially if it gets any worse. Last night was the worst night so far and I never thought I would spend that much in one sitting. Usually I can justify the transactions because they’re small amounts, like $5 or $10 daily or weekly, or the $30 for pocket camp. But uncontrollably binging and spending $100 just like that was a new low….
I also started playing pocket camp because I couldn’t afford the switch, but I’ve realized I’ve now probably spent enough on that game for two or more switches, it’s embarrassing and regretful to think about…..
I have a playstation with games but after final fantasy 7 remake, I’ve had no desire for “real” gaming, because video games can be stressful and these app games are so easy and mindless.
Hearing stories about people becoming addicted to micro transaction spending though is so scary, I’m going to try to not become like that. I need to stop spending all my time and savings on these games and grow up a little to at least accomplish some work! Thank you guys for talking to me and sharing your advice and encouragement, I’m going to try to kick this!
I've had symptoms of being prediabetic since I was about 12 (always thirsty and hungry, lethargic, always need to pee, skin wounds heal slowly, etc) and I found out yesterday from an oral glucose tolerance test that I'm just over the border of being prediabetic. im 20.
how did my grandma decide to "celebrate" this? she brought me a whole ass giant bag full of premade sugary pastries from the grocery store, and she got offended when i said i wouldnt eat them. i know she was trying to be nice and im aware that im quite bitchy and spoiled, but it just really fucks me off that im on the way to being a type 2 diabetic if i dont change my habits and she decides to "celebrate" this by trying to get me to eat the shit that got me into this in the first place.
i know im responsible for my health since im an adult, and by this point its mostly my fault for not looking after my health properly, but when i was a kid my grandma and some of my other older family members used to do shit like sneak me mountains of sweets and pastries when my parents werent looking and i even had an aunty who used to feed me sugar with a table spoon pretty much every day for some reason. and like i said, ive had the symptoms since i was about 12, and yet shes still not alarmed and trying to get me to eat mountains upon mountains of sweets.
Thank you for your input. You're right, it's an issue across all men, it doesn't matter the culture. The culture is usually formed around misogyny in part, though, because every culture has misogny engrained into it to an extent.
I've heard from a lot of asian/black women that men can violent with them for dating white men because they think they're entitled to women from their own community. There's an entire subreddit run by asian men for the sole purpose of shitting over asian women dating white men and calling them traitors.
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You got this anon. You can always come back and post when you need encouragement! You can do this!!
(Stupid whale anon) You can do it! If you think you can cold turkey it highly recommend. Just be vigilante for relapses, know your triggers
! I can’t stop with dress up games so I just don’t play them any more lol. And if you still plan to keep playing make sure you take away the ability to purchase in game or give yourself a hard limit that you can’t get around if you’re worried about spending sprees.
Also check your PlayStation for cheap or free games. You might find something chilled out to play.
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was ana chan for three years. currently on the early stages of obesity. i think i might have a thyroid problem because ive literally been gaining like 5 kg in a month… no joke… I dont know whats happening. I track my calories. I do cardio. Things i used to do while ana chaning but now im trying to do them for health reasons. and i suck at it. i know it must be that im undercounting or something. but it still sucks. cause i keep trying and trying and failing. just keep gaining and gaining like crazy. i remember when i was skinny and pretty and my ex would literally brag about dating me on social media. currently so fat, and current partner goes "well, you have a gorgeous face yknow. some people are ugly and no matter how much they lose theyll still be ugly. your face is pretty so your weight doesnt matter". they promise they dont mind but i fucking mind. im losing my mind. i dont want to go back to my ana chan ways but doing this the "healthy way" is not working cause im clearly undercounting or something cause im so damn stupid.
theyre going to put me on lithium too soon so… more weight gain probably. im losing my mind… im so unhappy… i keep having nightmares and so much stress from this. none of my clothes fit. ive never felt so ugly in my entire life. and its all my fault. and it fucking hurt anons, thats the issue, that i know its me, and it hurts
i just see old pics of myself, healthy weight, anachan, overweight, and it all seems fine compared to know and i cry. but, even though i feel like im eating less and exercising more, weeks go by and nope… not trying hard enough…
last time they checked my thyroid numbers they told me i was at the very edge of having a thyroid issue. this was about six to seven months ago. i think you might be up to something
hopefully with this corona shit its not impossible to check myself
If you’re in your early 20s thats what was happening to me. You can overcome it with medication, diet and exercise! You’ll be ok if that’s what it is, sometimes our bodies just need a kick in the ass and medical intervention. If there are known thyroid issues in your family I highly recommend checking your thyroid (all numbers including T4) every year until they take you seriously. It took me 10yrs to find a doctor who actually checked the right numbers and surprise it was really bad.
This may not be what’s happening to you but if you know what you’re eating and you are exercising there is clearly something else going on. Look into hashimotos and thyroid issues and see what people recommend getting checked because I remember being 20 and just ballooning and being unable to stay awake. It was terrible! Good luck and hang in there, try not to punish yourself about something that sounds likely to be out of your control.
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My life currently feels like an episode of skins except not in the cool edgy way 14 year old me would have thought
if it makes you feel better i was making carrot cake cupcakes (carrot cupcakes? idk) about a week ago and put the batter in the oven and forgot to add the carrots lmao
my dumb ass saw them on the counter and it still took like 2 mins for the dots to connect
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I guess I just can't play the social media game. I'm an artist and since I lost my irl job due to covid, I've been thinking about how I really wish i could take online commission work. Over the years I've tried to open social media accounts for my art and have only been met with failure. The only account I was able to break 20 followers (yes, twenty) was an instagram account that got permanently shadowbanned for reasons I was never able to figure out. I guess maybe I was using too many repetitive hashtags? My facebook also got locked for being a suspected bot and won't let me in unless i upload a state ID (lolno)
I opened a new instagram a few weeks ago and have been unable to get a single like on any post. It depresses me so much because I try so hard and I see so many people who are able to make livings doing this with less skills than me. What in the god damn am i missing?
I'm not trying to humblebrag, but I know that I'm a pretty decent artist, so the quality can't be the issue. pic attached is just an unfinished underpainting I did like a year ago that fits the mood. Am I being delusional about my skills? I feel like im going insane I'm honestly so close to kms
You're very good but social media is exactly that - social. Tagging your art is good to get it out there, but you also have to go that extra mile and interact with audiences. the art tags on insta move quickly, refreshing them after ten seconds will give you a whole new feed to scroll through. If you want to stand out, you have to do more.
IRL, you can be an absolutely amazing artist but it's still networking and business savvy that gets you in galleries and gets you money, despite what people may tell you about it being all about the art and creativity.
Your new instagram is going to work for you. Use about six tags on each post - half general and popular like #art and half sorta specific like #digitalartist. Change up the tags you use on each post. Like and follow other artists, especially smaller ones that will reciprocate support. Comment on posts, react to stories and DM people sincere messages about mutual interests and genuine admiration. Instagram doesn't order posts chronologically, it goes by interaction. You have to interact to stay in a feed. Change up the time of day you post to find out which days/times offer the biggest audience with the smallest competition. Post regularly, at least once a week. Caption your pictures something that shows you're talented and professional - for example, don't post anything like "I don't like this piece but here you go" as some artist do. Instead caption it with something like "learned so much from this piece".
Selling art also requires you to sell yourself. There's a reason great products still have marketing departments.
said you need to be social on social media so that people notice you. That means commenting on other people's posts, following them, etc. You might be able to get noticed on discord servers or reddit, depending on where your target audience is. I'm not exactly a social marketing guru but I know how other people got to 3k followers on IG in a year or 1k followers in a week.
If you want more help with social media you can join my discord server (made only to talk to lolcow artists)https://discord.gg/8auBauu
Anon, this isn't the Childfree subreddit>>583475
The only thing you can do is move on. At least you admitted you made a mistake. It's not worth to wallow in it.
That’s way harder in today’s culture of self-flagellation being the only valid
way to apologize.
no anon I fucking hate kids usually especially ones who make my job harder but this girl was genuinely just saying "look, mom, can I get this one?" while picking up an item from a cart of fulfilled online orders and I basically asked her to put it down but in a really harsh tone/wording that was completely unwarranted. I realize that in my first post I made it sound like she was stealing from another customers cart but we use different carts for online order fulfillment, and there was no signage or anything that said not to touch it, she thought it was just merchandise she could buy like anything else. if she had any situational awareness she would have realized it was obviously not for sale but it still didn't warrant my tone. she immediately said "oh sorry sorry" really quietly and put it down. I was really shy as a kid, I know how she felt, and I know the difference between "oop I got caught, time to play dumb" and an awkward kid feeling genuinely chastised and confused.>>583487
Glad to know I'm not alone tbh
Let's hope we both get over it
As the daughter of immigrants (like brown immigrants from a "third world shithole"), I can see why people get scared and turn into racists. Not saying it is okay but it is an easy rabbit hole to fall into.
The countries we come from are not the best places and that is why we fled them. There are so many reasons why disrupted communities have many issues and it is not as simple as painting us snowflakes who can do no harm as some liberals do. We need actual solutions but the next best thing isn't scapegoating us to hell and back.
I can't say whether or not you will get out of that pipeline, it's up to you. Most racists I have met are sheltered in a way, they don't have productive conversations nor do they really know anyone belonging to the people they hate/are scared of. If you don't want to be racist then do something about it. Learn about the issues minority groups face in your country. Learn about the issues they tell you immigrants are ruining and often times you will find it is way more complex than that.
I doubt that you don't have peers or coworkers who are minorities, actually talk to us instead of listening to some weird-ass 4chan scrotes who probably won't even look a black guy in the eye lmao. I don't mean tokenize your friends to justify why you're not racist but actually try and see the world they see it. It goes both ways, don't be friends with people who don't respect you.
I've had to fight my own prejudices, especially towards white people and men lol. It's not easy and it doesn't go away overnight but you will be a happier person as a result.
(had to delete and revise because of redundant sentences.)
Thanks for the thought-out response. I'm somewhat naive and pretty open to ideas, which doesn't serve me when around harmful ideology.
Some of it definitely comes from me growing up sheltered and then having to fare alone in a scary society. We want a scapegoat. When crime has gone up severely you feel let down and frustrated, and want to blame the "responsible group" instead of the shitty leadership that sold the country out. Who can blame people for coming here?
Sitting inside during COVID19 and rotting my brain with the internet isn't exactly going to make me more open-minded.
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>add and start talking to a girl from friend finger thread
>after a few messages she blocks me
Oh, gosh, yes.
Makes me think of my boyfriend. He gets insecure and angry, shouts, and I would never call him crazy during an argument, even though he does it to me all the time. I cry during arguments sometimes, but I don't resort to name-calling. I only get angry outbursts when he calls me crazy or insane, which only makes me feel even more crazy even though he's the one who's being an asshole. Ugh. Needed to vent too.
Ugh I did so poorly on my exam I'm probably gonna fail there was not enough time, whyyyy I really studied hard now I'm gonna have to do it again in fall and I'm probably gonna have to find a new place to live and I don't have money I'm such a failure anons I'm sorry>>583406
My dude let me tell you about one time I was making popcorn. I put vinegar instead of oil in the popcorn maker and then I was wondering why they weren't popping 5 minutes later. Can you imagine the smell when I opened the popcorn maker
Well I still get plenty of sales, so I’m not complaining.
But I wish people just read and processed things.
Even the really pretty angel face men are gross. Every single pretty boy seemed like he was working overtime for me to hate him or find him disgusting.
I got super drunk with a blonde pretty boy thinking becuz he’s small and girly he wouldn’t be interested in taking advantage of me. Guess what? We had sex. I don’t even remember doing it! He didn’t even respect me enough to let me spend the night.
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When people say this shit but instead of women they mean adult white men in dresses.
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>mfw imagining what me and my crush's children would look like
I'm in my late 20s and too old for this whimsy nonsense. Setting myself up for disappointment in more ways than one anyway, kek.
I don't have any friends, because of a lot of insecurity and a lot of pickiness in regards to friends… but this one person at work always liked me. She would come speak to me, and though I didn't like her all too much it made me happy that somebody liked me enough to want to speak to me.
For the past month or so though, she wouldn't come speak to me, and when I went to speak to her she would hardly look at me or respond. I asked her what the issue is, and she flat out said that she doesn't want to speak to me anymore, and she doesn't know why. It makes me feel very bad, and I told her as much, and she asked that I not mention it again.
I don't really have a right to feel bad, considering I didn't like her all too much in the first place, and I only feel bad because of the lack of validation. Still sucks though. Thanks for listening.>>583657
I'm someone who has been in your shoes, and in a way still is.. If you have the self awareness to know that you are insecure and clingy, then you're in a better place than most. If your'e actively keeping yourself in check, then you're golden, and you shouldn't let people like that bring you down. And even if she is right, a true friend wouldn't treat you the way she is. They would tell you straight up.
I'm also a big retard though, so listen to my words with caution (this is insecurity speaking haha)
They're trying to make themselves feel better about being shitty.
They want your forgiveness so that they can move on. But you don't owe it to them, don't worry, let them seethe. I really hate shit like this, so I get where you're coming from.
You'll get people in your life telling you "oh you should forgive them/they're different now/be the bigger person" but honestly, fuck em. The people who love you will understand that those who legitimately hurt you don't deserve your attention, least of all your forgiveness.
I'm 29, there's dozens of us anon, dozens.
Maybe if you have 3 kids and a job you wouldn't have time for the intrnet but imo everyone has their own way of killing time online whether that's scrolling through a Facebook timeline, following instragram meme pages or reading reddit. If you think you're wasting too much time here then maybe look into other hobbies, it's well accepted that spending too much time here isn't good for you, but I don't see why any age is too old for a little shitposting whilst you wait for a lasagna to bake.
Of course I don't believe in that mentality. But the numbers speak for themselves in terms of showing how people are actually choosing to spend their time.
Your explanation doesn't really make sense. 4chan started in 2004 and was definitely a millennial thing. I thought there would be plenty of people in their 30s who have stuck around, but nope, the average age is still people in their early 20s. Of course there are oldfags that have stuck around but a lot of them have left. I'm trying to figure out where they left to.
The only site that seems to have consistently a high average age is Something Awful, but it's a shithole to use if you're not down with trannies. Forums and IRC seem to be dead or not open to new users, so it's not as if I could go there. >>583847
I guess what makes me unhappy right now is that it seemed really easy for other people to move on to another stage of their life, but I kinda feel stuck? Especially due to the coronavirus. Like what is so great about other people's lives they completely lost the need to shitpost? I guess it's fomo.
I also do use reddit a lot, though I don't post as much anymore (due to my main account being banned, kek). But now what bothers me is that there are so many teens using the site now that it's becoming worse to use, especially as I'm growing older. I can't tell if that's because a lot of the older users have left (to what, hacker news or ycombinator?) or if the site is growing in popularity.
And contrary to how I might be coming off, I have had a fairly active life that involved partying/traveling, but internet use was always an (excessive) part of it. Now that I've been stuck at home due to the coronavirus, I've been stressed and basically browsing online 24/7 at the expense of everything else. I thought this could be a good time to work on other stuff, I just feel really lost.
Another thing that makes me upset is that as I've been using this site for 6 years, I thought there would be plenty of people who would have stuck around for so long. It does make me upset that while I've been critical of this site, it turns out other people were way less attached and could move on easier than I ever would.
Which boards are you even browsing? The ones I do have plenty of 30+ posters, even to the point they often tell zoomers to shut up and fuck off.
Also I'm pretty sure the anons who have passed the 25 mark don't take part in the cringy "meet the anon" memes or other threads where you basically plaster all your personal information for everyone to see because older people have jobs and reputations to lose if they were outed for posting on imageboards centering around drama and other content considered problematic
by normies. Lolcow has a lot of 30+ farmers but they barely have the need to bring up their age.
My bf suggested for months that I see a therapist and on his pushing I finally went and already I've learned a lot of coping tools.
Stop thinking of it as "wasting an appointment". I used to think that way too until I actually sat down and talked to a professional and realized there were things that were fucked up in my brain that they could help me with. Your bf sounds like he at least wants you to feel better. What have you got to lose by going to a therapist? You could approach the first appointment by explaining that you feel like you're irredeemable and then go into why you feel that way. It may be cathartic to actually verbally say it in front of a professional (at least it was for me)
Honestly Anon therapy is good. Just go see a therapist and talk to them. Just talking to one isn't going to hurt anything. I waited going to see mine for a similarish reason (didn't think I was bad off enough to see one, just thought that's how I was. On top of a bad previous experience with mental health professionals) But now I'm seeing someone and it's working out well. All it takes is finding a therapist that clicks with you and understands.
Also let me clarify why I didn't go to a therapist for like two years after I previously tried to get help. The previous time was a shitshow and the therapist told me it seemed like I wanted to be coddled after I told her some of the techniques she had me doing to manage my anxiety weren't really working.
My newest therapist is really kind and laughed and told me that my previous therapist was full of shit when I told her what happened during that time period. So legit, just gotta find someone you feel comfortable with. If you don't like the one you see, ask for a different person.
I don't like admitting this but I have been having suicidal thoughts again after thinking I was pretty good. Shit with the world has been really getting to me and here I am trying to keep other's spirits up, but this past week or so I have been having an existential crisis. I had a Seventh Seal-tier meltdown Friday, thinking about all the shitty things that have happened in my life and wondering where the fuck god has been in all this.
And then today I had this autistic meltdown because I caught a glimpse of a WHO doomsday-ish headline and I started thinking, is anything worth it anymore? What point is there in living when other people have control and I have no say?
I regret everything. I regret not trying to do more and letting fear and other people hold me back from doing shit. I look back on my past and all the time I wasted fighting with assholes/toxic mofos and trying to be Joan of Arc and I wish I could slap myself in the face. Why was I so stupid? And now I don't know when I will ever be able to do anything I want to do. I feel like all my dreams were a lie and that maybe the darkness I see when I close my eyes at night is the fact that there is nothing. That there is no future. And it scares me.
I wish I could turn back time one year and do one thing right that I always wanted to do, like move to Europe, write a book, or whatever. Just anything that I said I would do but didn't. If I put as much passion and energy as I do into being angry and fighting intellectual battles with my enemies, I could have done something else and been more productive. But instead I haven't done anything and I am so ashamed of my own ineptitude. I am really, really fucking dumb sometimes and I wish I knew how to walk away from toxic people instead of letting them hurt me and draw me into their bullshit. And my family believes in me and it makes me even more ashamed because they're all really well accomplished and I am just this bumbling ball of angst and fire who more enemies than friends, a dismal bank account, and nothing to show for it. Fuck.
I also have dark hair! This was my 2/6 session, it literally lasted two minutes and it felt like cold water splashed my pits the entire time. A week after the first session the hair pushed out of my skin. It was so satisfying.
I also did a Brazilian three years ago and it's just now starting to show hair under the skin again (laser is rarely permanent fyi), but it's very worth it especially if you get blemishes from hair growth.
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I've been working 13 hour days but only because both my jobs are giving me terrible shifts. My main job hasnt gotten back to my about if they're open or not. i want to quick these shit part time jobs. I'm exhausted
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My long term boyfriend broke uo with me out of the blue 3 months ago and to this day I'm sticking by his side, through the horrible things he said and how he treated me, because I'm still in love with who he once were.
I feel worthless, alone, unwanted. He says there's a possibility of us coming back together. I don't know if I want it anymore. Everyday I still wake up and act the part of the cheery loving girlfriend, waiting for him to come back because by now that's all I know.
I just want to be loved.
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Get fucking angry anon, don't be so agreeable! He's just stringing you along with a shaky promise bc he probably likes having you as a call girl. Coming from someone who experienced your exact situation, leave
or if not physically possible emotionally leave
, call up your girlfriends (heck even your female coworkers??), watch Legally Blonde, do a makeover, have solo dates, and when he realizes you're not coming back and hits up your DMs say NO because you found that life is actually great without him.
I believe in you and I love you, bitch. You're going to find much better dick that will appreciate you, that's a guarantee.
Pic related, it's you
Ladies gotta stick together. c:
I know it'll be hard but loving yourself and looking out for number one (hint: it's you!) are invaluable. Step one: Drop 100+lbs of dead weight lol. I'm looking forward to your next post in the Positivity thread, anon.
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Recently I've been trying to post my art on social media, initially it didn't bother me that I had no following, but now it's getting to me. I see so many good artists, compare myself to them and feel like what I do is so disposable . I know drawing is something I genuinely love doing , regardeless of external approval, and I'm not bad at it, but now I feel like it's such pointless thing for me to show my stuff. To me, finding new artists I like is such a joy, I love seeing people's creations and expressions, I guess part of me wants to be able to give someone this experience too, but now I'm just feeling worthless.
I feel bad even posting this here lol, like I am taking some space that I shouldn't.
My boyfriend doesn't do enough for our relationship when it comes to dating.
I know he loves me a lot, and his love seems to be growing more and more, and I love him too, and he's very gentle, kind and patient.
But there's nothing outside of that. I feel like if I spent a whole month never telling him "Ok next date we should go to x" he would simply never notice and be ok just staying at home. I asked if he'd be down to go somewhere cute this week but I'm tempted to say nothing about it and see how long it takes him to realize.
He's like that with his friends too. Whenever he does go out it's always "X wanted to go so I went". His own plans never work out unless someone else takes the reigns.
Staying at home is fine, I don't need to be outside all the time, but he doesn't cook, and is shit at planning. He also doesn't clean his place even though he knows I like to come over to play video games from time to time.
He doesn't shave unless I tell him to, and a lot of the time he shaves poorly, even though he knows his beard isn't worth keeping (he's self conscious about it) and I like clean shaved men.
I feel like an asshole for saying this, but he got me a sorta pricey (for our respective budgets) but very practical birthday present and at first I was simply happy to have it and I use it often. But looking at all those times he has failed to properly date me, I feel disappointed that he didn't wrap it in gift wrap, didn't write me at least a little card, didn't get me a couple of flowers… I normally wouldn't care but it's just that everything combined, it's more like I'm trying to "win him over" like someone in love would and he just follows along.
Sorry for long vent. I ignored it for the past couple of months pretending I wasn't the only one doing things for him/us but the realization hit me.
i understand. but she's the one being rude. being pissed because you didn't reply? that's wrong, and entitled. if she really was your friend, you wouldn't even have to justify yourself. she'd ask you if everything was ok and not hold it against you.
you're better off alone. if you're alone, you'll at least have the incentive to find new friends, even if through a discord like anon above suggested. you'll also find out normal human friendships between people who respect each other is less time consuming and doesn't feel like labor.
I just cannot deal with my mother. I have never liked her and do not really have too many fond memories with her, even though I really do try to see the good in her. She's a religious narcissist who has always belittled me and then expects me to fawn over her. She is a violent and jealous person who did have to deal with some tough things during her life, but why does she think that gives her the right to always treat me badly? Ever since I was a child, her and my father have convinced me that I am inherently bad and that my nature is evil (I love my siblings, boyfriends and even my parents very much and I don't think I am evil but IDEK). The other day I overheard her on the phone talking about me, calling me a bad, bitter, ungrateful person to my sister (who defended me) but at that moment, I just lost hope. She expects me to call her everyday but she is just a bored housewife who doesn't even look after her kids- she literally has a maid. Her life consists of watching gossip channels on youtube, cooking a couple times a week and hating the way her life turned out (even though my dad would buy her pretty much anything she wants within reason). I just landed a new job and got a 2:1 in a respectable degree, and all she could say is "Well done. Well, now you're in the real world! Let me tell you, it's not nice!". She's even secretly spoken to my sister and told her she think's I got the job based on my looks and because the hiring manager is a creep. She acts like she does and says these things out of concern, but I can so clearly see it's her way of slyly belittling me. I am just getting so tired of her mean, controlling ways. I don't know if this is normal or not? Does anyone else deal with a mother like this? If so, how?
I see what you're saying anon, and honestly I get nothing out of our friendship that I think I would barely care if she just stops talking to me at all. it's her birthday this month and I'll be going to her home and give her a thoughtful gift I prepared a while ago and then I'll just become increasingly less available. I'm just tired of being a dumping ground for her. I know she gives no fucks about me because she has many more friends. But I cannot muster up enough courage to have a conversation about this because I am really uncomfortable with talking about myself now because I never do it so it feels weird.>>584077>>584074
I honestly think I'd be better off alone than keep this up for more years to come. Whenever she has messaged me, it has been to talk about her. I'm fine being alone because I don't feel any less lonely with her being here so it makes no difference. I will try discord.
Thank you anons for listening
It always reminds me of how much media would portray girls as nothing but submissive and weak, while saying how wise and strong men are…
I may understand such act if its a teenager, but when an adult is being all uwu sanwio aeshethic im baby I see nothing but issues. Ain't even cute.
I bought one of my friends who I met through graduate studies years ago a customized birthday present. She seemed genuinely sad on her social media for mental health and ED reasons so I thought a surprise might cheer her up. Since purchasing the gift, while it's in transit, she keeps attacking Rowling for transphobia on facebook and it makes me cringe how she wouldn't be nice to me if she knew I agreed with her. She should have excellent reading comprehension, so she must be purposefully misinterpreting Rowling, but it doesn't even make sense because I've never seen her with trans friends. She's upsetting herself and I think it's very silly when it appears she doesn't have a dog in the race other than to virtue signal.
Unrelated but I hate it when men are in niche hobbies and try to lord their experience over everyone.
I posted in a wild foraging group after finding a plant that looked edible but smelled funny, so I just asked for the identification and if it was edible. It's a highly active group, I gave up after scrolling through about a hundred pics and didn't find it. Hundreds of pics are posted a day and my keyword search didn't help so it was easier to ask.
Straight away an experienced dude identified and confirmed it was not edible. Okay, thank you!
Then this second lady had to chime in with the same identification and joked that the plant smelled like cat pee. Hah. Alright. Thanks! Then some jerk replies to her and was all "AND STILL PEOPLE ASK IF IT IS EDIBLE HERE LOL." Fuck you dude, this group posts edible shit that's colored red, bleeds indigo, and basically looks and smells like something you shouldn't fucking eat. Yeah I'm gonna ask questions because I'm learning! Fucking a.
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My grandfather on my wife's side of the family is sick and there's no way to get to him because of covid travel restrictions. We cant take a direct flight because the air lines are a mess and my wife even bought a ticket to go but they wont allow non direct flights so they refunded her $11 out of $900. i'm crying and she's so stressed. he's sick from old age , not covid and he's alone and this is horrible. i feel so awful for her. i'm tired and trying to figure out a way to get over seas for her to see him. America is the only country not taking this seriously and now we are all paying for it. I hope he will be okay but we're terrified he'll die in the hospital with no family there. he isnt even sick with covid
I am so sorry about your grandma. Now is literally the worst time to fly or have sick relatives out of country…>they wont allow non direct flights so they refunded her $11 out of $900
I am trying to figure out what happened here.
I assume the flights were not canceled?
Sounds like you guys bought a non refundable ticket, canceled due to transit permit reasons and therefore only got some tax refund. It's weird though cause most airlines are a bit more lax with rescheduling because of all this covid mess. What airline have you bought the ticket with?
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Ate so much food the last week out of depression but now there isn’t much left and I don’t have the money to replace it and people want to eat but I ate it. AaahhhHhH! I want to bury myself and K word so hard.
I think some people too deep in TRA ideology might experience cognitive dissonance when reading the letter, so they lash out towards Rowling afterwards. It really can be cult-like. >>584188
Kek, my brown family once stopped at a rest station in Quebec and someone literally pointed out we were Indian (we're not).
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I'm sick of going on the internet and finding people on social media talking as if they are the fucking expert on whatever subject they are talking about at the time when they only read a few buzzfeed articles and a Huffpo opinion piece.
I mean it's fine to have an opinion, but often people are acting like they are the doctorate candidate who is the be all end all authority on something. It's fucking excruciating
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Just ordered in some junk food, gave the delivery guy a cash tip, 15 minutes later i get a notifications… this same guy added me on facebook and wants to send me a message??? We didnt even talk man, am i gonna be killed just cuz i didnt feel like making dinner…
Well if he was a fan or a watcher then he probably got defensive because some men take criticism of the things they enjoy as a personal attack.
I remember dating a manchild who acted like I insulted his mother when I told him I wasn't interested in binge watching an anime with him due to the genre. He took it extremely personal, whereas women would be called psychos for having those kinds of reactions to being criticized.
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Everything is a womans fault. Even when discussing men and how they fuck up, it's suddenly about the fact 53% of women that voted, voted for Trump. No matter more men voted for him, no matter they're discussing a man, no matter more men than women are breaking COVID rules, OF COURSE it's actually the fault of women for "stanning" him. If those dumb bitches didn't enable this fully grown male things would be fine. And you can't call out the outright misogny without getting shit, of course.
I need to take a big step back from leftist spaces because they're just 99% identity politics. No one talks about the shit that matters.
In fact, has anyone ever trotted out % stats for men that voted for Trump? Why exactly is it down to women to do "the right thing"? Do people really not see the fucking sexism in this shit? Expecting women to vote in a particular way JUST because they're women?
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E-hug. Looking back and beating yourself up is a difficult cycle to break but it's a habit you can unlearn. I know it's a cliche platitude but there truly is no point in comparing your life with others'. You're young too. Happy birthday btw!
Agree with the addition that emotionally unstable narcissists who can't maintain relationships and cheap out on their kids should be added to that list.
I'd rather have been aborted than treated like I owed my mom something all my life tbqh.
Kek, I remember Mara Wilson rightfully calling them out a long ass time ago for trying to rebrand itself as a feminist community despite the fact that they always been shitty towards women in regards to how they look and a bunch of the comments were basically “O-oh yeah?!? Well…you’re a WHITE FEMINIST!!! PWNED!”
They can dish it but they sure can not take it
yup especially the ones who go on and on with pseudo psychological lingo like feeding the narc monster and sociopaths etc.
those are insufferable.
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I feel disgusted with myself for spending so much of my life/time online. I spent most of my late years of my childhood and all of my teenagehood online. Whenever I try to get into a new hobby I inevitably lose interest in it in 3 months or less.
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Put all their shit in a black bag and leave it on their bed. Text them to let them know what you've done.
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I know it's kinda narc-y and there are completely valid reasons for not doing it, but I feel a bit sad when I get my friends a gift and they don't post about it on social media. I know they don't have to, but it always makes me feel like what I got them isn't nice enough worth mentioning. I know it's not really true and there are other reasons, but I can't help my feels fam.
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I miss my older brother more than anything.
I wish I could show him how far I've come. After all the things that happened to me, how I'm still going, that I won't give up. Sometimes I think, maybe he sees it from above.. but the fact that he's not here, that he can't speak to me directly, makes it so difficult. If only I could have stopped him from going like that.. but there was nothing anyone could do. There will forever be a hole in my heart where he was, and I don't think I, or anyone, can ever fill it up again.
I wish I were the one to go instead.
At least it was entertainingly bad. Also I think most of it was just nostalgiaposting by people who were teens when it was on.
I do think what happened to Naya is awful and my heart goes out to her family. RIP
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girk!!!! i bet you look amazing!!! i wish i was muscular but my fault is that i'm lazy… pls flex in the mirror for me
strong girls make me feel inside the way this pic makes me feel… so good. so powerful. ilu anon, okay?
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anon…i'm flexin and cryin rn thank you bitch I love you too
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i recently lost my best friend of 5 years over some stupid shit and i'm in a lot of pain. im spiraling really hard and lashing out at people and losing weight and sleep i keep bursting into sobs with no warning and cycling between blaming myself and hating her. there's never going to be any coming back from what happened and my heart is completely broken. we had kind of a fucked up dynamic where she was always in and out of psych wards and i was always pushing down my problems and prioritizing her. i just couldn't prioritize her anymore and she flipped out and started blaming me for shit that didn't even sense. she went ballistic in the street and got the cops called on her and everything. it broke my heart so much. this whole thing is just really painful. the last text i sent her before blocking her everywhere said "fuck you." it was deserved, but it's just so jarring to me, i'd never said a single mean thing to her before that no matter what she threw at me
i'm getting a therapist though finally i'm kind of nervous bc ive been thru two others and they were both morons
NTAYRT but the amount of first cousin marriages in Paksitan is insane. Literally half of the people I know are children of first cousins. Almost every marriage I have attended has been between cousins. The only reason my mom married someone outside her family is because she didn't have any cousins she could marry kek, she told me if she had a cousin her age then she would've married him. Well, I'm glad there wasn't.
I know a couple who literally look like siblings in appearance and everyone mistakes them as brother and sister and they have to correct them, like jfc.
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i think my bf is going to break up with me soon. even if he comes back, he'll break up with me once i move away in a month and a half.
this is my first relationship and i did so many things for him hoping he'll eventually return it. early on he even admitted he should and that he would learn to be more thoughtful. i was being very patient as he's not naturally inclined to plan and be thoughtful. i do believe that he loves me more than anything, but he revealed that me moving away soon makes it hard for him to give his all in the relationship.
it hurts so fucking bad. it's like he was just chilling, accepting my unconditional love and attention for months, while knowing he would never make it up to me before our relationship eventually explodes due to distance (according to him).
he swears it's not like that and that he doesn't want to break up but he keeps flip flopping between "it's who i am", "i should but i can't" and "we have different expectations". how am i supposed to believe that he doesn't want to give up on us when he sees no future for us and thinks he inherently cannot meet the basic requirements for a boyfriend?
i wish i could be all bad-bitch "THERE ARE TONS OF OTHER SINGLE MEN/WOMEN OUT THERE READY TO SPOIL ME ANYWAY!!! I DON'T EVEN NEED HIM" and say fuck it but i'm a retard who can't have sex so every relationship is bound to implode when the other person realizes they can't spend an indefinite amount of time with someone who never reciprocates any sexual feelings.
i feel like shit looking at the past, i feel like shit being in the present and i feel like shit thinking about the future. shoot me
That sucks, but it seems he is not the right person for you. You want your romantic life to be a solved problem so you are putting your expectations on him to be the one.
Don't worry, it will hurt for a while but you will find someone else. Don't ever be with someone that loves you less than you love them. It's a recipe for humiliation and disaster.
i knew he wouldn't be The One because we have different life paths but i thought we could have something special for as long as it could last.
it double sucks because until a couple of years ago, i stopped myself from living because i couldn't deal with the fact that everything eventually comes to an end. i thought there was no point building human relationships when i was supposed to move away in a semester, a year, two years. (i'm often between continents since starting university)
while i was abroad for a year i learned that if you give your all for even just 5 months, those 5 months will be forever valuable to you and there's nothing that can replace that. a relationship wasn't a failure just because it didn't last 5 years.
ut now i'm met with my old mindset in the form of a different person. was i suppose to treat him like a pet i use for cuddles while watching netflix and nothing else?
maybe you're right. it just wasn't meant to be. but i wish he would have simply broken up with me instead of accepting all my love and time knowing he wouldn't do more than the very bare minimum.
sorry for rant it just went downhill so fast yesterday lmao.
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I hung out with a group of frens for years in my early twenties. We used to hang out once or twice a week and go watch movies, watch comedy stuff on youtube, go out to eat, do activities like bowling, etc. It was pretty normie tier stuff, it was all good.
Around two to three years ago though, they started changing to be more and more on the computer and doing less outside. They wanted to do less and less, not go to movies, we didn't really play boardgames anymore. It literally involved me meeting up with them and them being content to continue play computah, even the simple walk to the shop became rare.
Tbh I'm kinda hurt because it was the most comfy time of my life with them. I don't know if they're sick of me or they just hang out with new people. But I have a feeling they don't, they don't play board games anymore, they don't watch movies, they don't seem to go out and do things. They even appear to be seeing each other less and less.
Am I wrong in feeling frustrated with how they live their life and with how I'm judging them? I just wanted better for them than to remain playing the same games everyday after work, I feel bad because they're smart and capable men and they're going to be that way their entire lives, literally regressing into soy shit.
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NTAYRT but I love you, anon. Best and cutest response ever, I'm literally crying.
Another british chav using the word “scrote” when the majority of people that used this site aren’t british and are probably wondering what the fuck that word even means…
I was empathetic with the being mixed and not wanting to be with black men or guilted into participating in low IQ BLM shit.>Another british chav using the word “scrote” when the majority of people that used this site aren’t british and are probably wondering what the fuck that word even means
But turns out it's a retarded LARP. Get permabanned faggot.
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My mother is so disgusting. There's this disgusting smell coming from her, it's all sour and nasty and whenever she's around I hold my breath and hope that she'll quickly leave me alone. She doesn't wear any underwear, pees and takes a shit with the bathroom door open (despite everyone literally yelling at her for so many years now to close it but she gets mad every time someone tells her to), walks around with her tits out in front of everyone (and sometimes even half naked), doesn't take a shower when she needs to and then has the GUTS to get mad at everyone in the family who dares to criticize her and then starts legit screeching (not screaming, she seriously screeches) over how we are disrespecting her and don't know how to treat our precious mother right, and then runs to my father and starts telling him about how we attacked her again for the nth time today (even though she is always the one who starts the fights). Go take a shower you disgusting smelly fuck, it's not that deep. Us telling you to take a shower has nothing to do with being a bunch of "disrespectful children" or whatever the fuck you're deluding yourself into thinking. I swear I hate her so much. She's the perfect example of a mentally ill abusive mother. Throughout my entire life she's always been insisting on being right and you're wrong, literally fights with everyone everyday, always resorts to violence and insulting her children instead of acting like a normal parent, everyone is out to get her, everyone wants to attack her, everyone is jealous of her, they want to be her so bad, they want her life so bad,… yadda yadda. The only tolerable thing back then was that she changed her clothes regularly and took a shower. Now that's not even the case anymore, she changes her top but then wears the same sweatpants with no underwear that already smell so fucking bad. I want to lose my ability to smell.
At least yours is outright psycho so you can feel good in knowing anyone would think she's psycho.
Mine is a great actress from having a theater degree and being a teacher so she knows the right things to say and how to behave around the right people. Meanwhile behind closed doors her smug and high horse mask slips for an occasional screechout. Same shit with not being able to close the bathroom door and walking around naked. She fancied herself the center of the universe when I lived with her, yet also a selfless martyr whenever we had company.
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why would you out yourself like this
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tired of having ED related thoughts everyday. I didn't get any sort of help recovering from anorexia (just angry outbursts from my mother), few years later i'm at normal weight and eat whatever usually but every single day i think about how many calories some of the things i eat/drink have,feel guilty, eat my feelings in safe sweet foods, still feel like some foods are safe,freak out if i find out some food i ate had more fat than i was told at first, wont buy myself snacks over 200 calories, too scared to eat dinner early.
i just want to start feeling like i know these things don't matter. jfc it's been almost three years.
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I quit smoking in February, after 8 years of being a smoker. While i love being able to breathe, I’ve also put on like 25 lbs, and just ripped my last pair of jeans. I feel so ugly, but at least I don’t smell like a cigarette butt.
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I quit over a year ago and I still think about smoking every single day
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Just found out a butch lesbian I used to know trooned out and now identifies as a man. I was not close to her, I only met her a few times (she was the girlfriend of a friend) but she was part of the group of lesbian and bi women in university who helped me figure out my bisexuality, we even went at the local pride and hung out near the lesbian float, it was awesome. I don't get it, she was super out and her parents supported her. I'm so upset, no matter what TRAs say, the troon epidemic is real (and I don't even live in the US).
My grandfather quit smoking in the 80s and there are still times when he wants to go back to it
it's a really tough addiction but you got this!
You're so kind anon. Thank you so much. I usually try not to let stuff like this get to me but I was really liking this boy so I was crushed that even after I told him something so personal he insulted me. Hope I do find someone worthwhile. Your words made me feel very warm.>>584800
You got it anon, i blocked him
I need to sperg out more about my mom sorry lol
Worst thign about my mom is that she made us grow up fat and malnourished (worst fucking combo and thanks I have the lowest self esteem ever) and thanks to my fucking aspergers and ED-like mind thinking I'm so fucking picky and stupid with food
Like tbh she might not be the worst parent ever but she was always so uncaring? Even though she basically says that isn't true
She never went to therapy even though she should had, like she just sleeps all day and always has to mention how tired she is
But worst thing ever is that she always always always only makes 1 single dish for us to eat ALL DAY like ok, she for example makes one piece of meat for me and my crazy ass brother (he's a legit diagnosed schizo) and calls it a day, like, that's all your meal for the day kek, not gonna bother doing more I guess
My ex always for some reason got mad at me for not knowing what eating a true meal is but can you blame me? sometimes we would only eat chips for lunch and that's it lmao kill me please
And then I figured out that a meal for normal families is like, one piece of meat, a serving of vegetables, and a serving of carbs, I literally just grew up eating one of those things a day and then scavenging for whatever food was on the fridge
Sometimes she would just buy 3 large pizzas and give us the equivalent of one to each person in the family lol and since I'm literally stupid I thought this was normal
I'm trying to learn how to cook but I'm literally so STUPID I can't cook for shit and it's not like I can use her food because she gets angryyyyyy and I don't have money to buy my own atm but god
sorry for this shit vent I'm just tired
Is there some BPDchan getting extra bootyblasted at posts for no reason lately?
All of my high school friends trooned out also or they’ve become some violently up the ass tra ‘kweer’, although they only participate in hetero relationships while constantly sperging about how attractive they find girls.
My best friend was the first who trooned out and got on T for almost a year, but then came to her senses and detransitioned.
It was horrible for her because all of the others in the group cheered her on and held her on a pedestal for being the first to take hormones, but then when she came out about the detrans they all took it as a personal attack for some reason, dropped her like a rock and now talk nothing but shit about her. At least now I have an irl friend who I can talk gender critical with and not get my ass chewed out. Fuck tra
thank you anons.i'm thinking it's more of a spur of the moment decision he made and that he won't try to identify me or find me again but it's still…stomach-churning.
i know about up-skirts and all the "classic" kinds of sexual assault/harassment but i never even considered someone lifting my tightly fitting dress to take a picture of me and run away. are we just never safe?
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>always the fallback and second choice in friend group
>decide to start making my own fun
>do my research and travel to super cool places solo
>post pictures to social media
>friends: omg this is so cool we wanna go take us with you next time!
I hate it when people make it so obvious they have no interest in you, just the shit you can offer them.
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I hope you feel better today <3>>584668
Ilu2 anon, pic is me kissin both of u
my vent for today is my company is gonna bring us back from WFH part-time to being onsite full-time next week and I'm not ready to go back to that commute….at least i have time to get used to the idea, i guess!
At my practice, if you have an animal for 30+ days you are legally the owner. Call the microchip company ASAP to change the information. If you're unsure of the MC company, see if you can bring it to a clinic to get it scanned.
Do the vet papers have the MC information? You can generally figure out which company it is by googling the first couple of numbers + microchip. But you need to do this like yesterday
I'm out of town and don't have her papers on me. Looking at my dog's collar, I see a rabies tag but not a microchip one (though I don't know if they give tags for microchips)
I can try taking her to a local vet to see what they say though.
I remember when I got her, she asked if I could take care of the dog until she got a new place and give it back.
I of course said no.
Clinic anon here, they don't usually give tags for MC, but some MC will come with a card that has the MC information on it. Local vet will be able to scan her for a chip, and sometimes if you're nice to the front desk, front desk can trace the chip for you, or at the very least inform you what company it's registered to. Then all you have to do is call the company and tell them you need to update the information.
Rabies tag is good identifying info also, they are unique, so write that number down somewhere just in case.
You'll be fine anon, I promise. Thank you for giving this pup a good life!!
I would make a google drive where you upload any pertinent pup info - screenshots/pdfs of email/text exchange, medical hx, up-to-date pup pictures, etc.
Also, when vet scans the microchip, take a picture with your phone, and upload that to the Google drive too so you have it somewhere!
Same anon, I blanked, there are MC tags - like the HomeAgain ones look like little yellow houses, but I find a lot of the time people throw em out.
I'm sure the clinic will be okay with doing a free MC scan btw. Just call them ahead and ask if they're okay with it. (Depending on how their social distancing is going). Let them know the situation if you feel comfortable, but that you would like to get her MC info changed ASAP to give yourself peace of mind.
Don't waste your money on home laser, it's bunk. I tried it about ten times in my armpits and it never killed any hair. All it did was zap my skin, which I guess made people think it worked but all the signs (hair pushing out, smell of hair burning, etc) weren't there.
Get a deal on groupon. I paid 524USD total for my brazillian years ago (I feel like I could've gotten it cheaper though), and recently 145USD total for my armpits. I figured it would be worth it since waxes cost like 50-70 per.
Watching the newest video essay from The Take on female friendships made me feel so lonely, I miss having female friends so bad… after college I moved out not only away from the only female friend I had left but also into a job environments that are predominantly male and I've never managed to connect with any of these few other women I worked with; and that only friendship deteriorated unfortunately. High school times of having a group of girl friends feel almost surreal, like it wasn't me. I wish I can have anything like that in the future.
So I guess in a way I feel you, >>584888
Have you considered fostering kittens? It's kitten season rn and a lot of shelters are getting full. I would recommend if you could foster kittens on the older side (4-7 weeks, generally they're adoptable at 8wks), as the younger ones need to be fed and stimulated around the clock. It's really wonderful to see them grow up and learn to do things! I could watch young kittens for hours tbh.
Although, if you think your prof would be okay with you bringing a baby to class [1-3weeks], all you would need is a hot pad (microwaveable kind that stays warm for ~8hrs) and KMR (kitten milk replacement). You could keep the kitten in a soft carrier with a towel on top of the hot pad, and just take it out to feed/stimulate every 2 hours. Stimulating is easy, you just take a tissue or toilet paper, wet it a little bit, and rub it on their genitals/butthole, and that helps them go.
Only downside for these babies is you have to do it at night too! So that's why I usually recommend the slightly older kittens that can wait a little longer between feedings/stimulating. (4+ weeks).
Sorry, I went into a bit of a kitten rant there, but I think they're fascinating little creatures and a wholesome distraction to bleakness. Plus, you'd be the most popular kid in class - just, uh, clear it with your profs first, I guess!
Congratulations on med school! I'm proud of you!
I feel you, anon.
I honestly wonder how would the even react if they got to experience the dirty old men telling them they have a nice ass or the wonders of creepy ass teenagers telling them they got a nice bulge and that they can’t wait to get in their pants.
The majority of those fucking idiots wouldn’t be able to handle the first “compliment” and would probably freak out.
Maybe if they put in 0.1% of the effort women put into being attractive, they would get compliments too. But no, most of them are hideous and would take a compliment as proof of your interest in them, and the ones who are actually attractive have such huge egos they don't deserve compliments.
Men compliment us to try get it in, women compliment each other because we're all constantly pressured to look perfect and want to be kind. Not our problem if they don't have the same goodwill towards each other.
THANK YOU. 99% of men's problems could be solved by MEN.
I've seen this with other shit too, like "Waaah men never get hugged or physical affection!" Then start hugging each other. Start playing with each other's hair. It's not women's job to coddle you. "Waaah men can't hide their ugliness with makeup!" Yes you can, start wearing makeup. (Also beards are low-key makeup. Men can hide their weak jaw and double chin with a good beard. Women can't do that.)>>584960
99% of the men who complain about needing more compliments will lose it if a gay man, a trans woman, a fat woman, a non-virgin woman, etc compliment them.
Why do men on reddit think being a woman is some sunny walk in the park?
Can I exchange my Female ExperienceTM of 2,000,000 compliments for a Male ExperienceTM where I'm not at risk for sexual harassment, rape, violence, stalking, or murder by simpling existing as a woman? Thanks.
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My neighbour is a pill popping dumbass that ties her dog up to the tree right outside my bedroom window often. She would always look in my bedroom while out there so I got pic related from amazon. You put it up with water and it hasn't got a sticky side to it at all so it's fine for a rental.
It's called rabbitgoo on amazon but there are a bunch of different designs. I paid $9 to cover 2 x 34" x 17" windows and now I have 100% privacy and it let's through a pretty rainbow. Maybe it could help? People defintely wouldn't be able to see you through it (beyond random dark shapes) and you can always just do one window at first to see if you like it
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Yooo I have this too and it's beautiful. Can confirm it's easy to apply and comes off without residue. Aside from giving you more privacy it will definitely make your apartment feel a bit more lively. Looks great when direct sunlight hits it (pic related isn't edited) and subtle when it doesn't
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I only added it to the top parts of my window so I can still see shit. It's not completely opaque, you wouldn't want it on a bathroom window, but people outside won't see anything but silhouettes.
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It definitely looks like it's some sort of fancy glass. I've been recommending it to everyone too. For the decent price it really spruced up my sad bedroom, it was enough for both of my windows and I had enough leftovers to give to a friend who cut them into geometric shapes for her window. I don't hate mornings as much anymore because now at least the morning sun brings some novelty. I know I'm being tacky kek but it's OK if it convinces anon upthread to try it
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I've finally escaped two and a half years of abusive household that involved narcissistic mother and cut off the contacts with her completely, even though she still tries to find me through my grandmother but I am really far away.
I can't believe it that i still have to encounter other family member, a sister in law who actually turned out to be the exact same nutjob as my mother.
I feel like as if I am a weak person because everytime there'd be a family meet up that includes this womanchild (who is trying to compete with me while being 7 years older than me. Ironically enough kins MyMelody on internet…) I end up having panic attacks and after each meeting I'd spend time crying alone in a shower and feeling like shit for a week. I just want to have a friend. I am so lonely. Can't even afford a therapist anytime soon.
why do you go to family meets with a toxic
Narcissistic parents are the wooorst. Congrats on getting away, I truly hope you can heal in whatever way you need to and start your own good life. But it really is terrible losing a family member, especially a parent.
I also have a narcissistic mom. I cut contact with her for a few years when my dad, siblings and I moved to a new state. She'd fly out to where we lived just to stalk us. She'd try to show up at our schools unannounced, or we'd see her peeking over our backyard fence trying to look into our house. We were always worried she'd try to poison our dogs. No one in the USA takes child abuse or stalking seriously if it's from mothers, which is shitty.
I'm sorry you had to see something so sick, at 15 too. I'm so sorry. It never leaves you. I'm 18, and a total pussy it seems. Puked my guts out, I couldn't take it. I remember a few months ago I found an old sd card and excitedly put it in a reader to see what was in there only to see so, so many of my own pictures as a kid that I used to send to pedos, because it was so normalized to kid me. I destroyed the sd card but I cannot possibly get rid of everything that could be online, in someones cloud or whatever. It's dreadful to think about and honestly I just wanna move on. Thank you for your sympathies anon, I really treasure it. >>585189
Thank you for your kind words anon. Wish I had a friend I could talk to rn but oh well, it's fine. I'm making some food to take my mind off it. Thank you, again. You are very kind and sweet.
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>huge fan of this band that's existed since 2003
>search band's name
>their wikipedia article(s) are incredibly bare and not researched
>decide to work on them
>finish three album articles
>finish two EP articles
>"alright, that went well, looks good! maybe i can tackle the main article now."
>spend two days working on band's main article
>fix every spelling error
>fix every grammar error
>attach citations, sometimes multiple, to every piece of information i add
>add headers and subheaders to organize the article
>add track lengths, album layout graphic design credits, recording locations, shit no one cares about
>editing some minor information in the infobox
>"You have a new message." appears in top left corner
>i check it
>a user with rollback privileges removed literally everything i added to the band's main article
>the reason given is just one word
Thanks, anon. I was a seething ball for rage for a moment there. I left a message on the user's Talk page, but they haven't responded yet. I'm inclined to think they may have meant to remove one faulty edit, rather than all
of my edits, because they removed 11,659 bytes of information off of the article in one go…
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God, that fucking website. So many shitheads filming themselves jerking off.And so many kids on there at the time too!
I was also 15 when I went on there and had some dude try super hard to talk to me. He was obviously an older adult man and was really adamant about wanting me to send nudes and tell him where I lived lmao. Fuck that piece of shit.
am i an asshole for losing my attraction to someone after they told me their sexual history?
So I met this guy a bit ago. We really clicked and bonded over the fact that we are both entering Orthodox Christianity despite not being born into it. I told him my story about how my suicide attempt led me to find God and turn my life around.
He related to me and told me his story as well. He told me that he used to be a sex addict and a drug user and was going down a really bad path in life, but then recently discovered Orthodox Christianity. Not a pretty past, but I accepted it at the time and we started talking more. We have had so many good conversations and I do enjoy talking to him a lot.
Suddenly he told me he wanted to pursue something romantic with me. I told him I am interested but I am not ready because I still have a lot of work to do on myself since my suicide attempt wasn’t that long ago, he agreed and we kept talking.
Gradually he started to get into more details about his past without me asking. I told him I would never judge him and I still don’t but what he told me made me lose interest in him romantically. He would constantly tell me these graphic stories about girls he’s dated or slept with and specific things they’d do sexually, but then always tie it into some irrelevant story later. There’s no point to tell me those things but somehow he felt the need to.
It almost felt like he was bragging sometimes. That his ex girlfriend was beautiful and a japanese model, that he got oral sex from a girl in the Philippines on a highschool trip, his neighbor growing up with had huge boobs, etc…. Not things that I wanted to know, very off topic stuff.
Then he told me more and more. That his body count is at least above 60, that he has slept with both genders, participated in group sex, and even had sex with older women.
Again I do not judge him for these things and I don’t see myself any better than him. But with this knowledge I do not think someone with that sort of past is who I want to be romantically involved with. He swears he’s a different person now and it really seems like it but I know sexual addiction isn’t an easy thing to beat and his problems could always come back. That’s not something I’m prepared to deal with.
I just feel less attracted to him altogether. I’m not a person who sleeps around a lot, and I have jealousy due to my insecurities that will eat at me if I pursue him. We have lived very different lives. I just don’t want to deal with the baggage that comes from knowing these things.
If I am the asshole please explain. If i’m not then does anyone have an idea on how I can tell him what I’m feeling without hurting him?
Anon you haven't said anything about him that's worth pursuing besides the fact that he's Christian and I'm pretty fucking sure Christian men are a dime a dozen who won't be ex drug users and sex addicts. You don't owe him anything. Men drop women for body counts all the time.
You're allowed to have preferences, cut it off now before this creep gets too attached to you.
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No problem. I’ve wanted to post on there but I’ve heard so many horror stories similar to yours, I know better. Some of those wiki editors are so hard core that there were write ups about it in the media.https://www.wired.com/2016/08/wikipedia-is-not-therapy/
I have a similar body count but I sure as hell don't feel the need to make people listen to in depth descriptions of all the weird and wonderful sex I've had… doesn't seem right that he would think that's ok. He has to realise that he's crossing a boundary there and that's a shitty thing to do to someone under the guise of 'I'm just opening up/offloading some of my past'
He sounds sketchy, like he's getting off to the fact that he's making to listen to all that shit. You're not the asshole, if anything you are letting this guy trample all over normal healthy boundaries.
same anon. i reported the sexual assault (tho it wasn't classified as that) and the cops were actually very nice to me. i was afraid they'd downplay what happened or convince me i don't have enough of a case…however they weren't like that at all.
if any anons have to report on anything that happened to them, please give it a shot. you might help stop a dangerous individual. at least i know i did what i could to report on what happened…
anon, the fact that he constantly overshares his past like this shows he's not actually recovered. he's ashamed and was saved by christianity but also you HAVE to know about this colombian chick's tits…what even is that?
you are vulnerable, do not get into a relationship with someone who is potentially this destructive. drug addiction ain't pretty and he's already oversharing about his sex addiction.
I have a similar story, my former best friend was extremely abrasive, but she had a hard life and tons of trauma, so I saw why she was the way she was and made excuses for it for 8 years. Every time we fought, I'd apologize to keep the peace, or she'd start talking to me again without apologizing but being a little nicer and I recognized it as her way of trying to show that she was sorry, but she couldn't say it. One day I was the one in crisis and had just gotten out of the hospital, I responded only sporadically for 2 weeks because I was at the lowest point of my life (which she knew) and she unfriended me on FB where all our online communication took place, which broke my heart but I accepted it as the end of our friendship. So after that she messaged me on a different platform she had never talked to me on, just to tell me how disappointed she was that I had dropped her friendship, when she was the one to symbolically cut ties. I was too exhausted to argue with her about it anymore. The truth was that I often felt like ending our friendship because of her behavior, but I had a really hard time doing it. So in a way I'm relieved, but I still miss her. She was the only person I could talk to about certain shit and she left a hole in my life.
i'm so sorry you went through this anon…i wish you could have been treated fairly, especially at such a young age…
when the cop told me "well the problem we might run into is that if there are no surveillance cameras there we won't be able to find him" i was so afraid he was gonna tell me to report without pressing charges (useless basically)…thankfully he was just warning me that i shouldn't get my hopes up too high.
Reddit's go-to male feminist subreddit (I forget its name) has a rule in the sidebar that second wave feminism is "the wrong feminism" and only third wave is correct.
Men need to be reminded that feminism isn't for them and they have no place in it. It doesn't matter what they think or their opinions about it.
I wish peoplew would stop with the "feminism helps men, too!" bullshit. Feminism isn't meant to help men, it's meant to dismantle the system that gives them their power that they use over us. The system that lets them rape/beat/murder us and get away with it. No male can be an actual feminist because to do so would make him complicit in his own downfall
I've found men who call themselves feminists are trying to say: 'I don't hate women or mistreat them personally, but I also don't care about these issues.'
They label themselves as feminists for their own gain, with absolutely no connection to the movement. Pisses me off.
In my experience men who call themselves feminists think that it absolves them of any crime against women now and forever - that they’ve done all the hard work of “respecting” women already and now they can do no wrong. Describing themselves as a feminist is such a brave (read: humiliating for a man) act that they’re obviously made of that good stuff, no question - and if you dare question it, they’re going to get angry.
This type of man also sees it as a tool for getting women to let their guards down, sort of like a gay best friend, oh he wouldn’t hurt me, he cares about women, he’s for us. No, he’s not. My ex was a “feminist” and he was a shitty, woman-hating rapist. He would insult me in front of strangers (like cashiers) or our friends, he really enjoyed calling me a bitch in a “jokey” way, and he’d force himself on me and the next day be all “I feel like I went too far… I’m sorry… please tell me if I did wrong, I don’t want you to feel disrespected…” and I would assure him it was okay, it was no issue etc, because I was an idiot and didn’t want him to be upset (or get angry), when it was plain and simple garden-variety rape that an imbecile could have recognised as such. But if a mutual friend brought up some guy being creepy towards her - not excusable, but sometimes just a bit weird - he would pile on as if this guy were the most disgusting human who ever lived. Current bf would never call himself a feminist but I’ve never been happier.
Stay away from “feminist” men, honestly.
personally it would be ideal for a guy not to scream about being anti-feminist nor being a feminist, but act in a way that shows they support feminism
not that I think any man like this exists
interesting that that post got a reply now when he just broke up with me. i’m not as bitter as i was in the post anymore and i can’t blame him for wanting to avoid the pain of distance. he knows it too well and i was optimistic because i hadn’t experienced it but didn’t want to break up.
it fucking sucks but i guess it had to be done.
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I'm visiting family and my father thought it would be hilarious to poke my arms and tell me they're full of jelly. I told him to stop and that I have weight problems and was blown off and had to endure some more of the joke. It sounds dramatic but it made me wanna do something stupid to feel better.
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My dad's a petty little bitch.
>makes hotdogs for himself and doesn't put anything away and doesn't put condiments back
>I go to make meatloaf
>discard his leftover shit he ain't gonna eat like always
>take the remaining ketchup that he left on the counter
>check the pantry, check the fridge, we are out of ketchup
>mention how we need to get more ketchup
>"THERE'S PLENTY O KETCHUP IN THE FRIDGE!!"
>I generally have command of the groceries and know that we don't, so I irritatingly open the fridge again, look, and still no ketchup appears
>"No, we're out of ketchup."
>"WHAT DO U MEAN IT'S IN THER!!!"
>he's arguing with me like I'm a fucking moron like himself and I have no eyes
>"Look, did you mean the ketchup you DIDN'T PUT AWAY AND ISN'T IN THE FRIDGE?! Because YES, that ketchup is GONE! WE. NEED. MORE."
>"OH, SO NOW IT'S MY FAULT THAT YOU DIDN'T SAY YOU USED UP ALL THAT KETCHUP HUH?"
I can't stand this moron. He can never just admit he's a fuckhead, he's GOT to make inconsequential shit my fault so he doesn't have to feel like a jackass for a split fucking minute of his life.
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What a shitty fucking day, no one in my family cares to listen to me.
Not even my boyfriend listen to me venting about it without making little sarcastic remarks.
It's the third time today that I am crying in secret out of stress, I am so tired.
Pic related, it's me
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Foster anon here! I'm so glad!! You're going to make a big difference in that kitten's life!
That's disgusting, men are evil. >>585448
Totally justifiable. Pornsickness is an epidemic.>This has been annoying the shit out of me for days.
For days? That sounds unhealthy, leave or block the scrotes. Men in those spaces are beyond hope; piss them off for your own amusement but don't let it consume you. I hope you can find some cool ladies to chat with. > I have been posting dragons fucking cars to spite fetishizers on a discord.
Kek. Those are the degenerates who'd be into that.
Anon, if it helps, I went through a lot of what you are dealing with with my grandfather. I am getting my Associates in French and looking at a BA in Comparative Literature; the first two years of my education my grandfather was incredibly abusive
towards me because I didn't want to be an engineer like him. I used to get screamed at by him constantly and it's only been recently that he's kind of less of an asswipe about it as I am an honors student, but he still insists that anything to do with reading/literature/culture isn't as "important" as him diddling around with satellites and drones. He constantly tries to pull the "I made a ton of money" card on me like that is somehow more important, when our family is fucking dysfunctional as fuck. And most of his wealth he made with the help of my grandmother.
The funny thing is…he has shit reading comprehension skills. Like so bad even when he was working at Boeing, he had to get a hooked on phonics type program to help expand his vocabulary because his reports were utter fucking shit.
Get your phd anon, because you don't know what wonderful things you may do with it. You may become head of a university or something. Your MIL isn't god, she can't see the future, and we need people like you working in the education system who have passion for what they do. She needs to suck it up and accept who you are and stop trying to passive aggressively bully you into being what she wants. Fuck anyone who tells you otherwise and do what makes YOU happy, life is too goddamn short. Don't waste it on idiots, like I did anon.
Thanks! I used to have a drinking problem as well, but I cut back on it much more recently. I feel a lot more clear headed and hopeful but I do miss the fun alcohol and coke brought at times.
Glad to hear about your recovery and I wish you all the luck in the future.
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>anon calls me a scrote
>implying he's not remotely cute and it could only be a selfpost
Fuck, is my taste in men really that ugly? I feel like shit.
It's okay anon, to me he looks pretty average.
Thought it was philosophy tube at first glance. Take that as you will.
Who is he?
You just need childless female friends. You've got to understand that family is the single most important thing in people's lives, and compared to it, all other topics are trivial. This is why your friend considers you childish from her point of view. You're just not on the same level, and to her you seem immature.
You won't be able to stay friends with them for long because your priorities are so different. Find someone on your own level to be friends with, female friends not interested in making a family that you can grow old with.
It’s so shitty when they do that, a discord server gets ruined the moment it has a vent channel, it usually means the vents will go everywhere and people will sperg out more often. Also, they will be like
>Help me!!! I’m depresso!! No one cares about me!!!
And so you help them, and they get mad because they didn’t get the answer they wanted, thus making the chat awkward and starting some stupid ass drama.
Yeah, I gave up on that thread. The British pedo, the racist rubber lips man and other assorted spergs have made it unreadable.>I found the instagram of a couple of them months ago because they're terrible at keeping anonymous and flood the same bullshit from the thread onto her instagram comments and one is genuinely just Lillee Jean but with a extremely strange vendetta against Amazon.>She photoshopped herself into a British court to pretend she's suing Amazon for people on their forum picking on her, I wish I was joking.
Fucking kek. Now I'm really curious to know which poster that is. That sounds so autisttic.
I see this shit all the time on third world facebook, just normal people sharing animal/child abuse while boohooing about it. Sharing gore of traffic accidents and ask for donations… Zucc doesn't give a damn about them I guess.>>585559>She photoshopped herself into a British court to pretend she's suing Amazon for people on their forum picking on her
What?? Out the co/w/s lol give that board some type of content.
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I'm a poorfag, I live alone and support myself barely through shitty freelance work. A few years ago I was sexually assaulted by a bus driver while coming home from a late night shift and I ended up leaving everything related to the police report and stuff like that to my parents because I was in a really bad state. I just recently won the lawsuit that was made against the bus company that I wasn't even aware of, and I won some good money that I'll get soon.
My mum wants to control the money and how it'd be used, and she wants to put it towards buying a home for my sister, because she's 32 with a young kid and still living with her.
I don't even know how I'm gonna approach my mum about it, because while I'd love helping my sister, she has a much better job than I do and she even recently got implants and a tummy tuck and shit like that, so I'm sure she didn't move out because of financial issues.
I really need braces and jaw surgery not only for aesthetic reasons but also because my ugly ass goblin jaw is starting to affect my eating, and tbh I also don't wanna spend my early 20s looking like the indian jokar. Those procedures are costly and if I were to save money with my shitty job and paying for studies and bills I'd get it by the time I'm late 30s. This is the only chance I have to get it, but I think my mum will be pissed.
Good lord, sometimes I wish I was born in a different family.
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>Went out for hotpot w our family.
>My parents cant come, only me w my cunt of a human being older brother.
>Dunno why but our stove wont start.
>Cunt of a human being started to throw a fit cuz hes hungry, being rude to the staff as much as possible.
>My aunt and uncle went out to talk and calm him down but cant find him.
> He left me there alone, my mom had to come and pick me up cuz i cant drive.
> I had to apologized to the staff.
I really want to beat the shit out off him.
That picture is doing things to me anon hnnn
I hate your brother, imagine going into autist rage and abandon your sister over having to wait for food; I hope that bitch goes bald with limp dick
This is one tasty photo anon. Also, fuck your brother. He sounds like an entitled autist who was told he's special from and young age because of his disability and he legitimately believed it. (Obviously don't know if that's the case, but the only entitlement I've seen as egregious was that exact scenario).>>585240
Idk whether I should be proud or ashamed my 15 year old mind thought it would be hilarious to dress my boyfriend up like a trap to ~le epic troll~ those coomers. We were mostly successful until one creature intensified his fapping. You can imagine it ended pretty quickly after that, the mood was ruined kek.
I feel like my friends look down on me a lot because I'm the fattest in the group, and so they feel anything I do fitness-wise they could do too. To an extent it's true, but most of them are girly girls who don't really like to sweat and expend a lot of effort.
Knowing this I did a mountain hike but I went solo. Personally, I like doing hikes solo so I don't have to worry about someone else's pace and I can take my time if I need breaks or if I want to sightsee, and my friends are impatient and don't really care about nature to begin with. So it was best to had gone alone. Grabbed my camelbak and off I went. I had a great time but the hike to the mountain summit was indeed extremely strenuous, which is deceiving. Even old people and young kids who went to the destination with the same impression I had did not make it to the very top. I hustled and made it after a few breaks, there were times when I felt dizzy. The other hikers there were very encouraging, and I got great pics of myself at the top even though I was a sweaty hot mess. A couple was nice enough to take a picture for me. The pictures at the top were gorgeous imo. I posted the pics to my social media and my friends seemed irritated that I didn't invite them, as if I kept a big secret away from them. They're just not the sweaty hiking types tho. Despite that they said they wanted to come along next time. One friend was so impatient that a few days later she went to the same mountain hike with a friend to attempt it. I hate to say it, but she had this air like "Oh my fat friend did it, so can I!" I warned her about the trail difficultly but told her to have fun and take lots of pics.
I don't think her and the friend actually made it to the very top. She only posted one picture to our group of the mountain range but it looks taken from a vantage point that wasn't the summit. Usually she's the type to post a bajillion pictures and selfies on public whenever she does something. So based on her message exalting how difficult it was, and how she and the other girl had to walk back, I don't think they made it all the way. It would have been too cool to not post if they had. Which must have been really disappointing because it's a big drive one way just to go out in the middle of nowhere to do that one thing.
Yeah I'm a little smug but maybe they shouldn't underestimate me so much. I don't quit.
They're just my inner thoughts based on the way they treat me. I think I treat my friends well and I certainly don't make them feel bad based on the way I perceive that they treat me.
You seem upset.
Tell him you need a break from the relationship to work on your mental health.
It's not rocket surgery.
Go to therapy and stop wallowing in self pity.
Are you me anon
Also go get a therapy instead hurting yourself by getting rid of a person that cares for you - you said it yourself, he is trying to help you, this is what kind of person you should have around, not push away.
I'm seeing a therapist regularly, it's a work but there's noticeable progress, you can have that too.
Have you considered you're the problem? I've noticed women that complain about other women only talking about babies etc usually have a "cool grl" mentality and aren't giving them the chance. A girl said the same shit you have about my friend group once, but the actual issue was she was standoffish because she hated other women, latched onto one thing one of my friends said about her baby and decided that's all we talked about, and spent the entire time irritating the guys by trying super hard.
"This entire group of girls are shallow apart from me" isn't as likely as either A) you're the issue, or B) Your bf and his friends are shallow assholes that only date women for how they look.
Either way, let them fucking live. It doesn't make them vapid because they want to discuss children and makeup, the exact things society TELLS THEM they should care about.
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i despise this website
Maybe you should message the head of your department in advance to let them know she's a crazy narc, they'll appreciate the heads up and they will at least know it's not your fault.
If professors think that you're causing this then they will avoid you, it's best to denounce her whenever you can and also give her less information that she might use as ammo.
>>585718>I am not entirely sure where you and some other anons got this idea that I'm shaming them for talking about traditionally feminine topics or that I'm deriving a narcissistic pleasure out of 'not being like the other girls
it's probably triggered
anon where do you think you are? lolcow isn't exactly swarming with mombies that shit would go unchecked. Especally in /ot/
i wasn't going to reply by ops post comes across as very cool girl. saying you have to talk to the men because all the women talk about is babies is fucking stupid and sounds like it was written on reddit by a larping scrote
It's not the most important thing in everyone's lives, and if you think that just because OP is a woman she has to talk about babies and having a family you're the one with internalized misogyny here.
You can show some interest in your friend's life and have opinions without redirecting the conversation to topics only you
care about. Some women I'm friends with are also mothers but their life doesn't revolve around it and they don't shove their baby and family issues into people's faces in every single conversation. If your only interest in life is being a mother I feel very sorry for you.
the official university website has a ridiculous amount of details on it, inclusing which professors teach which subjects and which groups, so she uses this to track them down. their email adresses are also readily accessible through this website.
and thank you everyone for all the advice, i think ill email the head of the department just in case.
Well do you have a proper job now and are off drugs and alcohol? If so, then even if someone does happen to recognize you from a porn video it's none of their business. If they shame you then you bring up how you were a trafficked woman and what they're watching supports criminal behavior. If they think you're scum for having been coerced into it, then they're equally scum for supplying the demand for it by having watched it.
I wouldn't worry, turn it around on them if they bring it up.
My heart hurts for you; this anon >>585847
is based. Perhaps find a away to turn the fear into productive anger? Live well to spite the subhumans that hurt you. Easier said than done of course. Perhaps seek some trauma counseling?>>585850
Rest in piss. Sorry fam.
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My fiancee's mom died early this week and I have to say its been a wild ride.
Obviously I am very sad, she was a wonderful woman, beloved by her community and by family alike. I am an immigrant in the country I live in and she has made me feel welcome more than any other person ever has, and I am truly happy to have met her.
For background my man and his sister are sort of black sheep in their conservative family, him being a quiet sort of bookish guy and her being a soft-all-over-triggered-by-birds-in-2016-tumblr sort of girl if you get my drift. (It does come in later I swear). I also need to point out the family does not believe in mental illness.
At the family gathering (30 people in a tiny room with 7 dogs) after the horrible news my fiancees grandmother ended up having a massive shitfit at his sister for crying too much that her mom has died. I thought that was pretty messed like I know it is pretty sheltered of me but jesus baby christ my grandmother would never do me dirty like that. My fiancee got into a row with his grandma and the rest of the family defending his sister, it was insane, I thought they were going to literally kill each other.
The sister as a result didn't want any of the extended family to clean out her mom's house and asked her brother (my financee), myself and her boyfriend to help her clean it all out. I was more than happy to help. It turned out that the mom was a bit of a hoarder, and liked cats. Upon walking in it was obvious that she had some sort of depression as the place was in very bad shape with trash, cat piss/shit everywhere along with massive amounts of useless purchased goods.
Anyway we got cleaning, buying all the supplies and stuff. I started sorting it all out, cleaning the poop and other bits. The place is absolutley stuffed with stuff, like 5000 allen keys in a box sort of hoarding. This lasted the past few days. Just my fiancee, me and the sister's boyfriend cleaning out the house. The thing is his sister has not done anything at all, like the entire time.She usually stood around watching me clean and and sort things away with this sort of venomous snooty glare, making snide comments about throwing out anything vulnerable. I thought that maybe she was mourning so I just brushed it aside.
However, today, I had heard her have a hushed conversation with her boyfriend about how "The 'insert nationality' girl needs to be watched so she doesn't steal anything important."
In all honesty it really hurt me. I had been going neck deep in a place I have never been before, for someone I care for nonetheless, but still I am absolutely fucked from playing maid. I feel terrible for feeling resentment in this situation.
On top of that today my fiancee found some bank statements that show that his mom had stolen money of his bank account and used his student loans to fuel her online bingo addiction. She has stolen over £6000 in his first year of uni. He has been broken up over it and on top of his grief for his sister, grandmother and his late mom I have no idea how to help him get better. Like I am here but it does not feel like enough, it is too insane for me to be the straight man in this but god dammit I am trying. Feels rough.
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My manipulative ex made these accounts to circumvent a block on social media. It was so fucking rude and awful and unnecessary. I just want no contact because he is insane and untrustworthy and a liar and extremely pushy (with sex, too).
It ended with him making an attempt to fake a legit acc to request me again before I deactivated both my accounts. That was so creepy. I just had to deactivate. There was also a "porn bot" that might have been him. He had to charge up his phone again and sent me text messages today. The first one was manipulative that he really loved me and how little I appreciated him and that the block was proof. The second was that he appreciates me.
That gives me some warm feelings again.
I almost fantasised about him today. I don't see myself slipping but he's in my head for now.
I'll go back to feeling disgusted and violated soon.
Gonna go on a little moral fag rant.
I dont hang out here nearly as much as i did a few years ago and, to be honest, I havent even looked at /pt/ in months because it just started making me feel kind of sad. Watching people desperately clawing and grasping for milk that had already turned to stale powder makes me wonder how much some people must feel about themselves to be stalking these lolcows’ social media accounts just to be the first to post a screenshot of them being cringy… but its just some update of them being kind of boring? i mean these lolcows have done “cringy” things or were straight up terrible and Im here for calling that out, but sometimes its just a mundane status update just as vacant and shallow as your friends or even your own, or some anons pointing out a flaw in their photo like a stretch mark or peach fuzz that theyve had to zoom in 10x to find
its worse considering that a lot of them just seem mentally unwell. Its almost cringy watching people picking very obviously troubled people apart for laughs.
Gonna abandon thread after this one, but the TERFs are something else entirely. There could be a pic of the most Eurocentric ideal image of femininity and they’ll still get accused of being a man because they dont like their jawline. It makes me wonder how many regular women and teens are going through these threads, watching these other women getting picked apart because theyre so obsessed with hating trans women that theyve gone on to scrutinize the normal ones too, are here and probably internalizing all of that. Like even if you’re cis, if anyone judged you the way that TERFs judged anyone they suspected of being a trans woman, you just wouldnt pass. I honestly doubt that anyone here, like you if you’re here reading this, would actually pass.
I guess thats why TERFs are so intense? I get not wanting to date dick (Ive been with my wife before being trans was a big thing and the ones that I did know where into guys so idk how big of an issue pushy trans women in lesbian dating scenes is sorry) or wanting men to use being trans to prey on us in our private spaces, but when your community is picking apart women so meticulously that they cant even trust cis women anymore, its easier to uplift yourself by stepping on those trans women who arent as good as you, the real cis woman. You pick can trans women apart because theyre proof that you are feminine enough
Idk I just remember coming here from a thread I saw on /r9k/ thinking I could escape all of that misogynistic and extreme scrutiny of women, but its still here in a different flavor
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Fuck I wish I could stop being horny, I feel like a disgusting cumbrain all the time.
>>585948>not ashamed to carry your pad
cool!>picks at your butt in public
what the HECK
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So I vowed to stay single after an extremely messy ending to a relationship that I jumped into way too fast. In the time since I've had a few companions that I have known for awhile but have overall been pretty damn reclusive.
Finally decided to meet up with someone, we met twice within the same week, things were going well… butterflies n stuff, and then he fucking ghosted me after I made plans to stay the night. He said he was feeling really sick and had fallen asleep. We talked back and forth a tiny bit the day after but now he hasn't talked to me in 3 days.
Wouldn't concern me normally but he was previously so eager and seemed to really be into me.
So here I am, worried that I ruined any chances with him because I said I've been thinking about fucking him nonstop, while simultaneously paranoid that I'm doing exactly what I've done before. Damn my brain that only shuts up when I can distract myself with another human. Damn my brain that gets so anxious I become a non-functioning ball of disassociating emptiness
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I've vented about this previously. I joined a foraging group on facebook and I just don't understand how the 'regulars' there can be such pretentious pricks when people come to that identification group specifically meant for people to ask questions.
You know I've been in a lot of different hobbies like j fashion and gaming, but at least elitism made sense in those hobbies because most of that shit followed around money and readily available knowledge that didn't have any real bearing in regards to life or death.
Foraging is fucking free. It's a bunch of broke ass people bumbling about in a woods looking for shit to eat. Asking questions about the shit makes fucking sense because mistaken identity could actually injure someone or get themselves killed if something's poisonous. Imo there's way more at stake there than someone foolishly coordinating a dress or getting owned at a game cause they're a noob.
Like jfc, I HATE the people in this group even though it's been really helpful in my learning. It sucks when I think there's valuable discussion in the replies to certain posts only for these 'regulars' to be ribbing the OP over something retarded. They circlejerk themselves for thinking they're clever for being more knowledgeable than literal beginners and OFC one of the admins most guilty of this is some homely bitch whose only power is being in charge of this stupid group. I wish they'd all fuck off.
I don't think you are too old to go back to school, there are numerous people going back to college in their thirties, forties and fifties.
However, try doing some research or talk to a radiologist before choosing your specialisation. Automation is said to replace a bunch of jobs, including radiology. I know some experts state that radiologists will still be needed, but to what capacity, I don't know. You might be another surplus on the market when you finish your studies, so be careful.
Same. I think it's just a coping mechanism cause we're thinking that life will finally pay us back for all the shit we had to go through. But this isn't how life works, sadly.
I'm trying to unlearn that life doesn't owe me anything cause if i keep expecting some kinda compensation i will just become even more miserable.
Wish you the best, still.
isn't all of this just way too much pain and suffering? why not just rub your clit, orgasm multiple times, then move on to more fun, important things? i haven't had sex/inserted anything besides my own finger or a tampon in over 4 years and i don't miss it at all, it was just so boring (i do not have vaginismus so it wasn't painful either, was just okay, fine, good but nothing special)>>586143>>586147
KEK. a scrote will absolutely screenshot and post it saying "SEE?? womens imageboards are full of literal pedophiles too!!!"
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I love my natural hair but I am just so exhausted from having to tackle it every day. Thinking about shaving it all off since it is a little damaged from all the sjw danger hair dying. My hesitation rests in no longer having a big afro and the length of time it will take to grow back to it's current length. I love black hair I really do but this is such a chore without being able to go to beauty salons.
I'm pretty muscular for a woman so I'm also worried about reading as male to others without my long hair. The pressure of always looking good as a black woman is so annoying I swear to god
PLEASE anon just say "this is money for my assault and not for her house"
I have had thousands of dollars stolen from my mother and still am in debt, I wish everyday that I had said no when I could! be adamant about it. do not let her have your cards or anything, your sister does NOT deserve that money especially if shed rather buy herself new boobs rather than a house that she apparently needs.
please be a fighter and just say no.
this is for you and you only, get your jaw fixed and get your teeth in order!
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missing my asshole bpd ex. I wish I could make him well but I can't. I feel for him. Kinda wish I could nurture him into a healthy boy/man. But that feeling is misplaced. My heart goes out to him today. I have to stay strong and keep the distance and no contact. The stages of grief be hitting different
Do it anon! I had the same problem as you and I shaved my entire head. Honestly, I haven't been taking care of my hair like I should, dyed it twice in the span of 5-6 months after shaving, haven't been styling it, etc…
but I grew ~5 inches of hair in about 7-8 months.
Anyone can look good with a shaved head tbh, especially black women. Also, people won't read you as male unless you wear "male" clothes. If you dress pretty feminine it shouldn't be an issue.
i'm 20 and started using the internet at age 8 lol and as fucked up as it is, i was barely 11 when i would get deep into the chan boards, random outdated but still very populated chat rooms etc so i definitely feel all of this. up until about 2015 there were shreds of the "old internet" left over, now there's almost nothing. all my fav illegal movie sites are long gone and all the weird hard to find chatrooms are non existent, the internet is gone now (but lolcow helps a bit)
i don't know if it's cringy or not but i'm so nostalgic for the way being online used to be, i never imagined it would all die out but it turns out only pretty much 2 generations ever got to "experience" that era and nobody else will ever know (or maybe 3? because older people who used it in the 2000s.. anywho)
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Last night I saw a badger get killed by a car, right in front of me and I couldn’t have done anything to help.
Me and my bf were driving back home from a day trip, around 11 pm, on a shitty two lane rural road, when we saw something we thought was a dog laying in the middle of the road, clearly hit by a car. My bf stopped and got out to check if it was still alive and it turned out to be a large badger, indeed still alive. He had a wound on his back and was bleeding from the mouth, but he was still trying hard to breathe and move his legs, so we couldn’t just leave him there to die. We wanted to move our car and turn on the hazard lights to shield the badger from the oncoming traffic, but there was not enough time for that, as there were cars coming from the opposite lane pretty fast.
So my bf is standing on the roadside waving at the cars, trying to get them to slow down and drive around the badger, while I’m frantically searching for a phone number to call the local police station (in my country, when you find a wounded wild animal you’re supposed to call a non-emergency line and inform the police, so they can contact people qualified to deal with a situation like this, usually a designated local veterinarian and/or a person from the hunters association).Three cars slow down and pass us safely, but then, right when I’m in the middle of dialing the number, fourth car comes, ignores my bf and HITS THE BADGER, full speed. Bf starts cursing, jumps back in the car and follows the guy, flashing his headlights, signaling him to stop, while I’m standing on the road bawling my eyes out, completely fucking useless.
The other driver actually stopped and was very apologetic, claiming he didn’t see my bf or the badger laying there (clearly didn’t pay attention to the fucking road but ok). In the end he even helped us carry him off the road so he wouldn’t get run over by any more cars, which was all we could have done at this point, as he was obviously dead.
Sorry if this was long and rambling, I guess I had to write this whole ordeal out to take it off my mind. I know this was “just” a badger, but the way he was struggling and the sound the car made when it struck him… I don’t know, it just hit me really hard and I’m still not over it. Especially since this was the first time I’ve ever watched a beautiful wild animal die, let alone in such a senseless way, and I know there might’ve been a chance to save him.
Trust your gut instincts anon. He doesn't sound good to me either. I dated a 35 year old at 19 (Yes I am a dumbass). Your brother, at worst, is predatory, at best, extremely emotionally immature. CP means he's either into it sexually or found it funny; some degree of sociopathy. Either way, mental issues going on there. One could grow out of it, but there would be no way of knowing, he could also be better at hiding it. Combine that with a girl fresh out of high school when he's been on his own 10 years, equivalent to half his girlfriend's life on earth, you have a functioning fucking brain for noticing predatory behavior. >>586271
I'm so sorry anon. I can understand your pain. It seems silly, but I accidentally killed a lizard trying to get it out of my house (my mother hates them). I didn't realize my own strength when I came down with a plastic tub trying to capture the lizard, it ran away the same time my hand came down and decapitated it. I'm still mortified I did that. I've also seen a bunny and dog get run over in front of me. Lots of dead animals on the street in Cali. Drivers are worse than the stereotypes. >>586272
I can relate anon. Sorry to "CoMMuNiCAtION" you, but perhaps voice you would like him to make an effort to be more physically affectionate. He probably can't force it to the degree you would like, but knowing he's trying is the important part. Also consider your needs in a relationship. Compatibility of affectionate displays are a valid
reason to end a relationship. I grew up in a narcissistic household, so when I'm not being love bombed by a potential partner, I feel like they aren't really interested. I didn't get touched as a kid either, and no siblings, so I am exceptionally physically clingy. Perhaps there is an anxiety lurking from earlier experiences.
At that point, I'd message them and find out.what have you got to lose just do it.
Old people that don't understand online ratings often think that full stars means something that wows them more than usual so that could be it
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My bridezilla friend has been driving me nuts with making her wedding plans work. Despite switching to courthouse eloping due to covid (which I and a few others aren't invited to), and wants a fancy dinner afterward (where I & others are invited to but we pay for ourselves), she still wants a full shebang wedding next year just to have a ceremony too. I'm in the bridal party so I'm stuck.
A few of our friends said they don't want to go to the dinner, so I asked her if it was okay to bring a plus one since they weren't going. She totally just said no cause "she doesn't know who I'm bringing." Bitch, what the fuck? I don't know some of the people she's inviting to this dinner but I'm p sure she'd be offended if I said I wasn't going for that reason. It's not like she's paying for us, so. I feel like doing something petty and setting up a separate reservation for me and the plus one nearby so we can 'be there' but it's technically my separate reservation that she doesn't get a say in.
I don't feel like she values my feelings as a friend, she's done fucked up shit to me recently that kind of proves she doesn't really give a rat's ass about my life. It's rubbed me in such a wrong way that I feel like making an excuse to not go at all.
Especially if I have to Groundhog Day this shit next year regardless. I wish people who throw weddings and want people to devote multiple days of their time realize that it's as much a gift from their friends to do this for them as it is an 'honor' to participate.
>>586321>I don't know some of the people she's inviting to this dinner but I'm p sure she'd be offended if I said I wasn't going for that reason
The dinner seems like it would be like a reception, so it makes perfect sense why she wouldn't want you to invite a friend. A wedding is something that's shared with family and friends, so why would you want a stranger there? It literally doesn't matter who you know there tbh
And if she hasn't been a good friend to you recently, then why are you still apart of the bridal party? You should honestly either try to resolve your issues or cut her out instead of trying to make the dinner about you because she won't let you invite a stranger.
Anon I feel you. I have the same problem where I over hype someone in my head and it feels like you’re doing the same thing honestly. There’s no reason for you to be so infatuated with someone that you could potentially not mesh with because you don’t know them well enough.
My experience with men that ghosted me early on is: you don’t know what’s going on in their life. Maybe they had an old ex resurface. Maybe they were going on mutlple dates and decided to prioritise one person. Maybe they decided they don’t like you that much. Maybe they felt like you moved on too fast. Who knows. Sometimes it’s awkward to spell it out to someone.
Forget it. I got into a relationship with a guy that seemed perfect on paper, and he was equally into me, only to realise a month later that I couldn’t stand him after all.
shave it anon! there's always a huge amount of fun in trying different wigs and makeup looks. hair is just an accessory, and it sounds like it's weighing you down. also shaving will get rid of your fried/dyed ends and have a fresh start.
also side note, muscular black woman with a shaved head? fuck yes you sound like a dream
update us if you do it, good luck anon!
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this is unironically what i see in my mind's eye whenever i think of him.
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You described my shopping habits to a t. Worst part is when the thing I want sells out before I can get it and I’m bitter about it for days afterwards, to the point I’m pretty sure it counts as intrusive thoughts, kek.
>>586348>A wedding is something that's shared with family and friends, so why would you want a stranger there?
Eh, yes and no. Weddings are usually allowed a plus one and even if it were a true reception, it's unusual because the couple isn't paying for their guest's meals so it really shouldn't matter in this case as they're not paying for anyone who they don't know.
Customs are different everywhere but this girl getting married sounds like she's got a stick up her ass, especially because she wants another ceremony next year just because.
I'm not, but basically I lied for months about something I promised I wouldn't do, but was doing the entire time. I was given so many opportunities to come clean, but I was a coward. Now that it's in the open, I feel like I've betrayed a lot of peoples trust in me, and I'm horrified at how elaborate my lies got.>>586551
I want so badly to make personal changes. I clearly have some underlying issues that I can't deflect from anymore. I want to go to therapy, or at least counselling, to understand what I was even trying to accomplish through all my mistakes. I think the hole just kept getting deeper and deeper for me until I saw no way out. I don't want to act how I have done ever again, I don't want to lie to the people who trusted me. I just feel so ashamed.
the way out is to stop whatever you're doing. imagine how proud of yourself you'll be when you stop. instead of feeling digust, you'll feel pride.
if i may ask, what behaviour is it? i've managed to break my xan, purging and self harm addiction so i may be able to help. if you want, you could add me on discord or something?
i just went through a break up and am about to start a new chapter in my life, so it's probably related, but i've been questioning everything in my life.
what's happiness? where do i want to be in the future? is the path i'm taking the right one?
i used to childishly think happiness lied in being in a huge city, having access to all the cool stuff i wanted to consume (clothes, food, exotic stuff, etc). hell, i imagined happiness being all the way abroad, no questions asked.
however my ex loves his home, which is the countryside with famous touristic spots, and most of all, loves his family, his culture. he sees his future at home, not in a big city or abroad. at first i thought he was foolish, the countryside's boring, i can't wait to move to the capital, yadda yadda.
but i progressively understood what he felt. i don't have all of that. i don't have a home where the generations before me were born, and for all of my life, up until very recently, my only family was my mom. then, i had no friends. so maybe i overcompensated by daydreaming about other places, about things i couldn't get my hands on, things that had nothing to do with the ordinary for me.
i know i have to go; the one thing i feel like doing in life right now is in the biggest city in this country. but after that…do i want to move to the even bigger city of my dreams?
not gonna lie, all i wish for rn is to settle and create strong bonds with a large group of people. but i keep moving. it's so frustrating.
i don't know where i'll be in the future so i'm not gonna quit everything in under 5 minutes just to be faced with the consequences and unable to fix anything for a whole year…but i wish this feeling could be fixed.
me too, anon. Everything just sucks.
At least you're not over 30, right?
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I want to improve my life so bad. Just wish I had that inspiring drive to actually implement permanent changes . I know if I make an effort towards my goals I will be infinitely happier, but I just…… don’t. It’s actually laughable, most of the time I feel like I’m having an out of body experience where my mind is screaming ‘JUST DO IT!! DO SOMETHING!’ and my body is just limp. It’s so so stupid, stupid procrastination, stupid bad attention span, and stupid fear of failure.
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I feel like I royally fucked up on a piece I was doing for a friend but they're so nice that I think they just gave up on me trying to fix it how they wanted and I'm so embarrassed and angry at myself that I couldn't understand what they wanted.
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my friend introduced me to his roommate, we finally hung out one on one today after several group hangouts and we HELD HANDS and SMOOCHED. i just want to brag on him, he's the tall shy skinny goth cyberpunk /fa/ boy of my dreams. we both work in computers and his nose is cute and his eyes and oh god i smooched him
call it puppy love but i've never felt this way, like once i get to know him more he could be husbando
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I just want friends.This is so fucking stupid but everytime I go to TikTok,I immediately get off the app whenever I see a group of young people hang out carefree.They always look so happy and I’m glad they’re having a good but I always start crying.Ive never had any kind of friend since I was a kid and would just be cooped up in the house because i was afraid no one would want to bother with me.I just wish I didn’t have anxiety or the social skills of sidewalk
gum and chat with people.I just wanna be part of a friend group.
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Reading an anons post here about neglected children I was halfway through typing a long ass sperg about how 'my mom wasn't neglectful tard!' But I'm wondering if that was a little true in my case? I mean, mostly because my mom had no knowledge about the internet so she didn't know what I was doing except watching anime and playing dress up. She didn't, and still doesn't, have much of an interest in my life. Doesn't know the name of the uni I'm in, doesn't know my friends' names, what has been going on in my life etc. But I still don't think she is neglectful because she really does love me a lot and me and my sister are the most important to her so how can she neglect us?
I remember as a kid when I told her my personal religious tutor molests me and she just gave him a stern talking to and still made him teach me, which I kind of resent her for because it didn't stop him from having his hands under my pants. And when I was a young teen and was talking to pedos online and sending them videos, which made me uncomfortable, I didn't tell my mom because I thought it wasn't anything serious, just like before. I don't know where I'm going with this, just writing down my thoughts I guess. I do love my mother a lot. She did all she could as a single mom living in a deeply backwards country, I just have some confusing feelings.
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I'm a dumb bitch and decided to look at what kind of porn my boyfriend has on his computer and now I'm confused. He has claimed the whole time we've been dating that he only likes thicc/chubby girls and that skinny women aren't attractive to him at all. He even has begged me not to lose weight because he didn't want to lose attraction to me if I became thin. Then I see on his computer that the only kind of women he masturbates to are thin ones,not a single one that's even remotely close to being "thicc." I just am confused as to why he would claim his disgust for thin women so much but that's all he jerks off to. I wouldnt even had cared if he found thin women attractive because even I think they are and I told him this before. Well I guess I'll continue to lose weight again because it's apparent it wouldn't matter regardless.
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I TOOK TOO MANY LAXATIVES AND IVE BEEN ON THE TOILET FOR HOURS I FEEL LIKE IM GONNA POOP OUT MY ORGANS THERE IS NOTHING LEFT INSIDE OF ME YET THE PAIN REMAINS
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I genuinely want to kill myself but then I remember the beauty of sushi and how much I love fish egg nigri. Then I realize the world sucks and I want to kill myself again but then I don't, you know what I mean?
I don't think I am going to live past 40. I want to be like aaron schwartz but like a woman. Yes
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Thank you all so much for the love and support! I finally chopped it all off and I am beyond ecstatic with how it came out. Close to the picture above, just with blonde tips and slightly shorter. I don't think I would have ever gone through with it without y'all; I'm so happy about the outcome! My bf is completely obsessed with my new hairstyle too surprisingly, I don't think I want to grow it out now lol!
Men lie to seek better options so their women won't do the same.
Anon he's denying his attraction to skinny women so you'll stay, do you really want to be with a man who views you as second best?
Secondly, thicc and fat women who stylize themselves and who are confident get men these days. Women are the choosers, don't let men talk you into getting it twisted, they are the beggars and we are the prize. You can pull a man who genuinely thinks you're attractive and likes women who look like you.
Lastly, don't date men who watch porn or at least are unashamed of it.>>586954>you should be thankful his porn habit doesn't include scat or cp
Anon if you set the bar any lower for her, we're gonna have to hire a team to excavate it.
Why is this acceptable? So she should have taken this shit seriously if she found disturbing porn, but since it's only fantasies about women who look nothing like her, she should be happy? Bad news: the only thing that separates a man from his fantasy is lack of opportunity. If he thought he could get skinny models he'd be out doing it. He's pulling anon along until he can monkey branch to the next best he can get. Men like that don't deserve any women.
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That's great, I'm glad to hear it turned out well!
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Had to reject a moid today and he reacted way worse than i expected,ughh. This guy had 5+ years on me but he spoke like a edgy teen in RL, it honestly gave me 2nd hand emberassment… Men don't know how terrifying it is when you have to reject someone and risk their unpredictable reactions. Mostly I'm okay with being single, I'm never bored, but goddamn do I miss the sex.
Same here. I want to try another strain, but I don't want to blow $55 each round (minimum purchase) to find on that works.>>587060
Same. I'm built like a damn fridge, otherwise I'd wear cute crop tops and those bodycon dresses.>>587021
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Thanks anon, your totally right. Past me probably would've continued dating and then also had sex with this person that I don't even like out of pity /fear of saying no and I'm glad that's not who I am anymore. On the other hand my cat just swallowed a large-ish bone piece and I hope he's not gonna get hurt (even if he'll probably just poop it out).
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I've been trying to move my boyfriend into a consumerist-minimalistic line of thinking. He's been depressed lately about being in his late 30s and not finding success with writing. He's really good at it and he's had articles in magazines, but the industry is tough to make a decent living off of. He really wants to finally get a novel published but everything bad keeps happening. I'm naturally unambitious because I've found contentment with striving to be a good person and indulging in life's pleasures (ie reparations for this painful existence lol), but understandably he's discontent with just that. We've had a few talks and I try to lead by example but it's slow progress.
I don't know how to express these thoughts without sounding like I'm asking him to give up on his dreams! I just want to make him content with himself. Suggestions welcome, anon-chans.
Exactly it, I feel like he needs to be "set free" from his ambitions. I keep reminding him that life isn't one-track and he can change it at any time, and it'll be okay because he's still young. I think it cheers him up a little every time so I'll keep at it. Thanks for your thoughts!>>587152
He's on his third, iirc. The first one was self-published, the second is in revision. He's got other short stories and stuff which got more success since they appeal to magazines. Recently he got cut a check for this story for $200, yes I'm humblebragging cause I adore him!
>>587138>he wants something grand in life
Not to insult your little bitch, but being a novelist is the most counterproductive way to lead a "grand" life. Most authors don't wind up famous until they're dead if their works get any attention at all. I'm sure many authors would love to be the next Rowling but that isn't going to be how it pans out for the majority. Until he proves it he's no more special than any other writer out there with the same struggles he has.
He needs a reality check so you're not suffering and bringing down your quality of life. You need a man who can hold and carry his own. Why doesn't he get a real job in writing that's not freelance? There's technical writing, journalism, underwriting, grants, etc.
He's not going to gain confidence by people indulging in his slump. He'll be confident when he starts making money using his talents, maybe not in the way he originally wanted, but too bad. That's reality.
I agree with >>587159
. Creative works should be hobbies and if something happens, you go for it. He needs a reality check so he can figure out the best way to succeed and thrive in his environment.
He has invested so much time into making it big, he probably feels ashamed and doesn't want to "give up". I've been there.
If you want to help him out, support the work that is actually meaningful to him (presumably novels?, you know the one!).
He doesn't have to spend time writing dumb stuff just to impress others or network. Unless you enjoy the process or the result, never do it unless it pays the bills.
That's the whole point of art. He spends too much time writing sht he doesn't enjoy in any way shape or form. He can be happier with his work and life if he does it for himself. Encourage that.
I don't know if he is making his money exclusively from freelance writing but if he is not happy with the process, he should just find a non creative job and do it on the side. No shame on that and it's very liberating.
Sorry for the block of text. Hopefully it makes sense, I rambled too much.
Yep i basically told him ill stop bothering him.
shit hurts tho i keep crying over and over again. hes such a sweet and kind guy but i guess when he saw i liked him he became cold and distant. Ill cherish our memories
A keto diet will reverse type 2 diabetes in months but I've never heard of anything that will reverse type 1. I've only ever heard of keto being used to manage type 2 and reduce insulin use. I'd be interested to know what reverses it if you ever remember.>>587226
I've read The Bible and I honestly didn't see what was so bad about it in regards to women. Woman were treated like shit in that time period but this wasn't unique to the ancient hebrews or early christians. There's plenty of positive portrayals of women in both the old and new testaments. Jesus and Paul both spoke about how women need to be treated with respect and how violence towards them is not acceptable.>>587251
You can buy lactase supplements that will stop you from shitting your insides out even time you eat dairy.
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Joan of Arc would be disappointed in me. Even if she wouldn't be, she should be.
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>finally decide to try trusting men because the world is going to shit and think maybe it would be a little less shitty with someone to care about
>match with guy on bumble
>it’s been less than 24 hours but i feel extremely drawn to this dude, really can’t explain it but i’m already a little attached to him
>we share all the same interests, all the same values, all the same morals, have the same sense of humor, and he’s my exact physical type - he’s perfect
>”wow, i can’t believe this perfect guy was out here all this time and all i had to do was trust men - i shouldn’t have been so cynical”
>can’t help myself, decide to do a deep dive and google the shit out of him before i grow even more weirdly attached
>he’s perfect, surely nothing bad will pop up anyway, this is just to be on the safe side
>find normal results, everything’s looking good, knew i had nothing to worry about, keep scrolling
>wait a minute… what the fuck was that
>scroll back up
>it’s a fucking furry account with all his personal info - name, age, location, interests, everything - attached to it
>no question that it’s his
>reminded of how enthusiastic he was talking about his dogs, begin to feel nauseous
>attraction and weird instant attachment vanish, HE’S A FUCKING FURRY
>unironically cry, why did he have to be a furry, he was perfect
this shit just isn’t fair.
People who get deeply hurt and/or angry if you don't get a text back from your friend within the hour. People who get extreme butthurt when you find out your friend has hung out with someone else without telling you. People who get insulted, or anxious, at small natural changes in someone's tone of voice and get paranoid that they don't like you anymore, just in the middle of a regular conversation. Fragile, clingy people who experience imaginary rejection from others who genuinely like you – like you very, very much, in fact, and think you're cool – but are genuinely busy, doing their own thing, chillin with family, or just enjoying alone time. I do not understand you, and I wish I did.
I have never taken it personally when someone has to cancel on me. I just find something else to do, and I know we'll see each other again when circumstances permit. I love it when my friends have other friendships!
Why – WHY – do you have to be angry with me when you find out I texted another friend? WHHYYY do I have to comfort you when I tell you that today I'm gonna hang out with my mom and not you? It seems like you're making your life much harder and less enjoyable on purpose by trying to hold onto others in a vise grip.
>>587261>I'd be interested to know what reverses it if you ever remember.
I'd never in a million years remember, unfortunately. The woman who told me literally has a background in medicine and actually understands how organs function. I didn't understand more than half of what she told me because I'm completely unfamiliar with the terminology, but her overall point was that diabetes is reversible because of how organs work.
From what I recall, the person who reversed their type 1 diabetes also did the keto diet. Tbh cutting out grains, dairy, sugar and soy, as well as managing stress will do wonders for pretty much any health condition, often to the point of curing it or going into remission.
Lowkey agree with >>587291
Not all furries are pervs, many are just your regular cartoon loving dork or weeb but with an animal twist. And it's a pretty creative fursuit
t. not a true furry but my best friend is
idk know much about furries but if what >>587312
says is true, maybe there's something to be salvaged there? No one's truly perfect, sooner or later you would've found something less ideal anyway.
maybe this person won't do anything to you ever again, maybe they will. soon. please call the police, do something.
(but, yes, in my country evictions are illegal during quarantine and winter, though i'm not sure if actual criminals also fall under that law).
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People who ask you to hang out with them and then change their mind without telling you, while proceeding to act petty(especially once you're 5 mins into the outing) until you call them out on their behaviour/decide to cut it short are the worst. Especially when they attempt to blame you for the fact that you don't want to hang out with them while they're in a shitty mood, as if you were the one who ruined everything.
Blaming someone by manipulating them into doing the exact thing you were hoping for is evil.
God, I can relate to this. idk if you're white, but it's both entertaining and sad to see how quickly a person's expression will change as soon as they hear your accent or read your last name.
Being a poor immigrant and hearing my friends talk about their massive family events makes me want to die lol
It can be felt even more when you're attempting to find a white collar job(or set up your own business, since you're unable to receive any financial support from your family), as connections are hard to create nowadays.
Yes I am white and while my first name is an international one my last name is a dead giveaway. If you're white as well you got to love how SJWs change their rethoric depending if you agree with them or not.
I don't care as much for family reunions but damn, I'm tired of living in hard mode. I worked hard for my education only to land a basic office job which pays in peanuts.
Pulling the immigrant card when SJWs start to act up is entertaining for sure! I'm mostly jealous of their family reunions due to the presents and other benefits lo>I worked hard for my education only to land a basic office job which pays in peanuts.
Godspeed. I'm in a similar position, but hopefully both of us will climb up the corporate ladder.
Same, sis. My family is not very rich but at least I'll inherit a few apartments in my hometown (sounds fancier than it is, both are in old commieblock buildings in a small place). I'm not concerned about that though since I don't care what I'll have 20 years down the line, I'm salty that I don't have my family with me. All the locals are rich as fuck and travel all the time, buy big houses and give their kids everything they want, but those kids are so fucking useless despite having an amazing passport, money to do whatever they like, they come from a country with a great reputation and are respected just for this reason, they speak the local language much better than I ever will, and they still manage to whine and whine about how hard their life is, it drives me up the fucking wall.
Especially when it's young men doing this, you have all these opportunities and people have spent so
much on you growing up and all you do is take and take and consoom video games, still manage to look like shit and give nothing back, and then you have the neck to complain how your life has no purpose and how you can't get laid/can't get a gf when lord knows that even if you did, you'd pay her no mind and treat her like garbage.
So not only do you consume resources some poor women in rural Ukraine would kill to have and could do so much with, you actively shit up other people's lives too by making them miserable and then you wonder why your life has no purpose when all you do is spend on yourself and your consumerist hobbies, then get upset that nothing fills the gaping void in your sad existence.
Imagine how much better off we'd be as a species if these wastes of space managed to donate even a third of their income to a local environmental charity, consume less, and actually went to volunteer somewhere instead of showing their unfortunate dick to strangers online and sitting indoors all day. Someone might even respect them enough to date them.
I'm so pissed because so many women in my country manage to do a lot more with so much less and we're still seen as just "whores" and "mail order brides" by rich western scrotes.
God I feel you so much. I'm not from Ukraine but my ex was and his sister was often telling me horror stories. She came here already married and never pursued another man but everyone thought she was here to whore herself and scrotes made passes at her despite her obvious ring.>>587428
I don't have an accent so my favorite game is listening to these SJWs talking shit about my country and their people then telling them I'm from there. The look on their faces is priceless but I won't lie, it hurts.
Jfc I'm so sorry. My situation was never so bad that I was literally homeless, but I somewhat feel your pain. My bf and I shared a 200 sqft "studio" for two years with no kitchen, no shower, no parking, and washer/dryers that were constantly broken. I would literally spend up to 40 minutes trying to find parking. The building had showers, but they were shared with everyone else on the floor. The building was full of ants. We were paying almost a grand a month for this place.
Before that, I lived in what was basically a shed for a year on my own. It was like 5x10 ft and could only fit my clothes and a bed. It wasn't insulated and leaked so badly whenever it rained that I'd have to come crash in the living room of the people renting it to me.
All the while, I'd try to look for better options, but they were about as limited as yours. Nothing available was typically much better than my current situation. You'd find somewhere that was bigger and had like, an actual bathroom, but still no kitchen and no parking, plus it was $400 more expensive. Rental companies also loooove to take your money for applications, and then the place is conveniently rented to someone else two hours later.
Thankfully, we got lucky that a friend of ours bought a property in a nearby city and is letting us rent a unit for dirt cheap. The move was so worth it. I know things will get better for you, too. I hope it's sooner rather than later.
It is type 2, but I have literally 0 reason to try, I hate being alive holy fucking shit
Honestly I wouldn't have diabetes if my life wasn't so awful–when I get sad I eat and don't cook for myself so I always end up eating garbage
what would even be the point
I think the first anon was joking about running into the sunset. It's not worth it, it's like dating someone of the complete opposite political side to yourself in that sure if you really tried you could make it work but why are you setting yourself with an uphill struggle and red flags right at the beginning of a relationship.
She could bring it up to him just in case it's a dark past that he's over, but there are plenty more fish in the sea.
Tbh I wouldn't write her off immediately. She's clearly a mess but that doesn't necessarily mean she isn't redeemable. The copy catting thing is probably because she admires you and doesn't necessarily realize that this is something that makes you uncomfortable. Hell, she may not even realize she's doing it at all. It's actually pretty common to mimic the traits of others without meaning to. Sometimes that just happens after you spend a lot of time around someone.
Honestly, I think people like this actually really need female friends. Women sometimes exhibit pickme trad behaviors because they assume that it's only men who want anything to do with them. It seems really common of pickme women to report feeling like they didn't didn't fit in with other women, or that other women didn't like them, growing up. It's really easy to judge someone for that, but it is actually coming from a place of hurt.
If all of these traits are something you don't think you'll be able to look past, don't befriend her. Alternatively, if she has already shown signs of being rude and/or abusive
toward you, don't befriend her.
shoe0nhead is that you?>>587745
Yep this is pretty much exactly me. I've gotten super mad at my boyfriend for taking pictures of me from the side without my knowledge and later shoving them in my face like lOoK hOw BeAuTiFuL yOu ArE. I look fucking horrendous shut up lmao.
I really liked how my face looked when I lost a bunch of weight a few years back because I was so stressed out that I could barely eat, but I was literally skelly-mode and the rest of me didn't look good, so I've never tried to get back to that weight.
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Ugh, you're right. No rebuttal.
I do, at least in a way an average person can. I keep myself informed on various things, look into things my friends are into to have something to talk about, I try to be kind and listen to their problems and go out of my way to help people who will be ungrateful anyway. >>587773
Full offense but I don't care and I said what I wanted to say.
Being at home with family because of the pandemic is really starting to get on my nerves. I know that there are people at home with actual abusive
family members and that my situation is much, much better in comparison, but I am so tired and just need to rant. I'm the youngest and my mom and my brother pretty much still treat me like a child even though I'm twenty-two years old. My dad doesn't live at home because he's been married to his job since I was a kid and has checked out from being a father/husband (something my mom complains about a lot), so my brother (who's a lot older than me) has kind of stepped in as the "male figure of the house" role.
Them treating me like a child isn't the worst thing in the world, but it's the fact that they expect me to be the most normal, bland person ever or else they infantilize me. All they do is sit around the table and talk about politics, work, and their social lives. While they were talking about Chinese politics and criticizing the Chinese government, I stepped in to talk about a friend I have who has bought in pretty hard to Chinese propaganda. I guess it turned into a bit of a rant, but when I finished my brother simply responded "Okay anon, I think we get it." And then they just discredited my story and kept talking. Like, way to make me feel like my opinion is completely worthless in conversation. I don't have a problem with just checking out and not participating in family talks, but then when I do that my mom guilttrips me about how hard she tries to make our family perfect with an absent father and how I'm being ungrateful because I don't care about our family. I literally can't win. To be honest, I like being on my own so much that I'd rather live by myself right now than be with my family. I used to feel guilty about that because I felt like my mom and my brother do their best to provide for me, but after realizing that they also treat me like I'm stupid and am not allowed to have an opinion I realize why I feel that way now. At least when I'm living alone I can have interests and opinions without having someone laugh it off like I'm a kid talking about show and tell.
I'm trying to get a doctor out to see him asap but it's really hard atm with covid, they just prescribed him b vitamins, I think i'm just going to get him to a&e but I can't drive and idk if you call an ambulance for this sort of thing (i'm in the UK) I rang the emergency number tonight they just sent an urgent letter to his gp, he definitely needs professional care. It might sound ridiculous but I've never been in a situation with a sick person, it's all completely new to me.
Also I know it's going to sound like a cliche but he really isn't a bad drunk, I know some alcoholics can be awful to be around but he just gets drunk and sleeps it off, hid it VERY well though always open about it with me. I feel like because he was so functional I just brushed it off which is bad of me tbh. He was trying to get into rehab before the pandemic but then the past few months he's gone downhill so suddenly i'm just lost with it all. Thanks for the advice guys.
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have you tried mewing
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Tis the most centrical perspective to my vocation as well, dearest anon. Be damned thy normie swine!