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No. 541792
Time to spit out all the things you've been bottling up for a long time. We do not judge here, we just confess. Confess, confess and
confess.
Previous one:
>>>/ot/513119Commentary is now officially banned from this thread. This thread is for confessions only and was intended to be that way according to the thread OP.
No. 541825
>>541805…and why can't you do it first?
i felt like cheating before but never did it cuz it'd completely shatter my reputation
i think it's just an obscure desire of a sadist
No. 541839
>>541825he told me a while ago that when he found out his last gf cheated on him he fake cried about it and purposely came inside her so she would hopefully have to pay for an abortion… i'm kinda scared of inciting this kind of wrath upon myself
>>541826guess i'm bored of him and our relationship. it probably was a red flag when he told me he exhibited symptoms of autism as a child lololol
he's this "freelance voice actor" that always talks about how fat and unpleasant all the women in his life are when he's a fat broke redditor-type manchild who spergs over dnd with an embarrassing lack of style
>>541830i'm probably punishing myself for even committing to that loser in the first place
No. 541882
>>541839you should ditch him already, he sounds creepy and i fear for your safety
it's not only a moral issue but some guys can't take cheating well
No. 541902
>>541842>>541893lol i wish i was baiting
i don't mean to exactly brag about cheating but this is the type of thing that i wouldn't even be able to tell my closest friends
this thread just gives me the freedom to let it out
i haven't seen him in like a month anyway bc i told him i was self-isolating… i think i might take my chances and dump him sometime now but i'm not sure if i could confess cheating to him
No. 541929
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I don't wanna tell tp hoarders my secret, but sometimes when I run out of tp I use a cotton facial pad. Instead of wiping it's a twisting action, and it's a lot more efficient at getting rid of the poo.
No. 541935
I'm an artist and I'm convinced a large majority of my fans are autistic. I'm nice to them but deep down they all weird me out and are quite frankly disgusting. I sometimes wanna post for them to take a shower so instead I re word it as "please take care of yourselves"
>>541929brilliant
No. 541963
>>541947Lmao nah I flush it.
>muh sanitation clogsFlushable wipes, tampons, and nappies are bigger concerns.
No. 542206
>>542181I feel you because I am the same but at first I started doing it under a blanket whenever I was about to go to kindergarten, then I started doing it in front of everyone aka one time I was doing it when my aunt was over with her children and she beat me for touching myself down there.
So fucking weird how my parents never told me to stop despite knowing damn well what I was doing.
No. 542263
>>542206Bless your parents. They probably realized it was normal.
My mom would scream at me and treat it like something shameful and dirty and I felt disgusting and dumb.
Now I can’t even talk about anything related to sex. Like literally, I can’t speak.
No. 542265
>>542175It's not like he can't eat your pussy or finger you. He can hold you while you masturbates, he can use toys. No excuse for you being unsatisfied from a limp dick.
As for my confession. I am cheating on my husband. There's nothing wrong with our relationship. He's an amazing person and I am so happy. I just had a thing for someone I have known close to a decade in another country. We would probably never meet in person but we had a strictly non sexual relationship until I got drunk and admitted things that he admitted as well. We will video chat or send pictures. We don't talk sexually outside of this. We aren't taking romantically.
I am disgusted with myself as I should be. I am disgusted even engaging in an affair. But my marriage is good, my husband is happy and serviced. But I have a fantasy of running away with someone my age in a country I adore. I know I am privileged and loved. I hate cheaters, and I became one. RIP
No. 542278
>>542265>> We don't talk sexually outside of this.Don't try to fucking justify it.
>> But I have a fantasy of running away with someone my age in a country I adore>> my husband is happy and serviced.ffs do you even love your husband? have you pulled your head out of your ass and considered what this would put him through? Stop with the fucking messaging and remove or block this man's number if you want to be able to salvage your marriage (not that you even deserve it). Your midlife crisis isn't an excuse to be a fucking piece of shit.
No. 542316
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>>542286Damn anon, now I am horny.
No. 542335
>>542328Diff anon but I had a similar online thing when I was in a bad/turned
abusive relationship. Hard to understand why you'd turn to that if your marriage is good. Are there issues in the marriage that you're just playing down or in denial about?
No. 542342
>>542335I overdosed as a teen and my friend from another country saved me from being a degenerate.
There is no issue in my marriage aside from me being an asshole.
No. 542356
>>542338Would having an official diagnosis affect your behavior? Do you think your life would be markedly different?
You could always try engaging in whatever therapy methods they recommend regardless of whether you're diagnosed or not.
No. 542373
>>542361The DSM is a joke and most “professionals” have no idea of what autism really is like. Actually, a lot of people with autism get misdiagnosed, mostly adults and women.
Truly yours,
An asperger’s anon who was diagnosed as bipolar, despite not even displaying all the symptoms in the DSM.
No. 542387
>>542373I got an adult diagnosis after years of having sensory issues put down to an anxiety disorder, then after my diagnosis..my dad was diagnosed at 60.
Sadly if you're born in the wrong time or born female you pretty much have to figure it out by yourself and bug them for an assessment.
No. 542400
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I regularly fantasize about killing people I hate.
In school i used to daydream about taking my pencil and stabbing the asshole bully kids in the eyes with it.
I do it to this day, but would never act on it.
No. 542908
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>>542870Everyone has lines on their face, anon. Don't worry about nitpickers. I'm sure you look great!
No. 542917
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whenever i find a person that i really admire, i cyberstalk them for a long time and try to pick up their habits, quirks, personality, etc. i feel like i have no identity of my own and whatever i have is a mesh of people who i weirdly admire. i'm liked by a lot of people and my friends enjoy my company but i can't help but feel disgusted with myself because i'm such a copycat creep.
No. 542924
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If I have my laptop out when I masturbate I have to make sure the social media windows are all closed out because it makes me feel like I'm masturbating in front of my friends and family.
(Yes I know it's a bit silly).
No. 542928
I think I am falling in… like with a guy who lives in another city. We used to talk a year before but I took a break from social media and now we reconnected and fuck, I'm feeling a lot of things. I'm just afraid to be in an ldr.
He's such a cutie, though…
And he can understand me so well, I just wanna give him a smooch.
>>542924It's kinda cute of you anon
No. 543003
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I have a huge collection of fujo/ cute/male-type shit and really dread the day I have to come clean about it to my bf. Not because he would freak out, but because it's really fucking embarrassing. I wish I collected 3D men instead
No. 543062
>>543003i know this has nothing to do with your post but just wanted to say it's ok to be a fujo. the real cringe is like when i read this BL comic and people in the comments were hating on the main character's little sister like his LITTLE FUCKING SISTER c'mon. the only cringy fujos are the ones who hate on any woman that appears and ruins their gay fantasy
>>543042one of my friends used to ship her bf with his friend on facebook, even tagging them together - the cringe is real
No. 543082
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I have inserted garlic inside my butt more than once.
No. 543158
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I broke up with my boyfriend because he kept going on about how charlotte kemp muhl had the ‘perfect face,’ and tbh how tf am i supposed to compete against someone who naturally looks like they’ve have intensive plastic surgery? I just don’t look like that!
No. 543223
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>>543211Tape it.
I had the same paranoia with the phone's front camera, so my new phone has a pop up camera that stays hidden unless I choose to use it.
No. 543307
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>>543017Thank you for the offer anon. I am straight. But jealous of all you lesbian fujos who get to share BL with your gfs/wives.
>>543042>>543062>>543143Oh God no I don't ship people in my real life lol. As degenerate as I am with 2D men, that is a line that you just cannot cross.
Bf is not a weeb, but is def not a normie and is vaguely aware that I was into yaoi as a teen. But we're adults now, and idk I wouldn't blame him for being a little creeped out at the sheer amount of BL I CURRENTLY have on my computer.
Maybe I can play this as a sex thing? Like, look at all the porn I have, I wanna jump your dick all day and do these things
No. 543375
>>543062Honestly while I doubt it applies here the "fujos hating female characters" trope is often more accurately "fujos hating badly written female characters only shoehorned in to please the male audience". I'm not surprised at all to see people rooting for the two male protagonists' relationship that has far more depth, development and chemistry than the "male protagonist's tertiary female childhood love interest/empty sexualized trope that only exists for waifufagging purposes".
>>543365Do you live under a rock? A whole lot of fujos are lesbian or bi. It's extremely common for them to find 3DPD men repulsive and enjoy the BL comics for their female-oriented storytelling, relationships and the overall safe zone from female objectification with a male cast.
No. 543384
>>543375I'm sorry, but honestly, if you are a fujo you will mostly be drawn to content that has a strong male cast. And that's fine, but it irks me that they say "i'd care about female characters if they were written better!" When they don't seek content written by women, about women! They expect the battle shonen manga that give them their precious yaoi to have grounded female characters when that will never happen because the author. does. not. care.
At this point it's more honest to say you don't care about female characters at all since there's no effort to seek content beyond shitty mangas for 10 years old.
No. 543388
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I hate my ethnicity and race.
It mainly comes from my dad's side of the family being utterly despicable, greedy and disgusting, treating my mom and i like shit since she got with my dad, I hate looking like them and I do my best to look any other race but theirs (they are native/latino mixed). There's nothing to be proud of the country and culture they came from either, I just feel disgust for being from there.
Once my teacher ended up thinking i was mixed white/japanese for a while and i just acted like i was slightly annoyed and confused about it but deep down i felt alot of joy and relief, it makes me look like a disgusting weeb but hey, what can one do.
My mum's relatives her parents and extended family died wayyy before i was born and according to her they weren't very good people anyways, i don't really look like that side of the family at all anyways so I feel basically culture-less.
No. 543394
>>543392There's josei, even seinen is better sometimes than basic ass shonen.
Everyone is free to read anything they want but don't complain when it's shallow.
No. 543406
>>543375No one said anything about female childhood friends tho? I meant that any woman that appears in yaoi manga gets hated on regardless
>>543392I don't like most shoujo manga but you can say the same about yaoi. 90% is absolute trash
No. 543583
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I've been reading smutty fanfic for a show I don't watch and have no intention of watching. I just saw fanart of these two minor characters together and thought they were cute. I would watch the show if it was about them lmao
I like fanfic because it's usually authored by other women, and I love the way women write sex scenes. Like, we understand the importance of buildup and feelings, of couples having dialogues about what they're into and cuddling after. Good sex involves love and communication, and I feel like female writers are more likely to understand that. Obviously there are shitty female writers out there too, but goddamn, when they're good, they're amazing.
I can't get into porn because it almost never includes the things I find sexiest. Like, when people kiss and lean their foreheads together? So hot to me. I just think cuddly, lovey-dovey sex is really hot, and the only place I can ever find depictions of it is fanfiction.
Am I weird anons
No. 543588
>>543586I just don't understand why violent, soulless porn is so popular. Do people get jealous if the couples in porn are depicted as being in love?
Porn just makes me feel sad and unnerved. It's obvious the actors aren't into it, and I just know a lot of the actresses are being mistreated. I don't see why people find these ambivalent, uncomfortable actors sexy.
No. 543590
>>543583Wanna share this juicy well written fanfic?
>>543588Jealousy and love doesn't even factor into porn. The whole exercise is just emotionless - soulless
No. 543602
>>543583Same I love reading fanfics, the best discovery ever.
I love the way women write, its just so much better than porn, or men writing. Even if its a pwp usually there is plot and dialog. You can feel the connection and passion between characters.
I don't even care what fandom it is. I usually look for AU's that I love to read about.
So I don't think its weird at all.
No. 543787
>>543583Not weird. It's weird that anyone would want to watch random strangers be abused on tape (and hate it), thankfully internet savvy women all seem to gravitate towards fanfic because our idea of good porn is people/characters we care about having sex they enjoy. If it's a long ass 100k slow burn with tonnes of build up and sexual tension, even better.
People love to shit on girls who enjoy fandom, fujos etc but it really says a lot of good things about us that this is how female sexuality often functions.
No. 543800
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>>543611FUCK I wish more fujo artists would make straight porn too.
Has anyone read Oshiete Kudasai, Fujishima-san ? It's smut josei by BL author Nae Awaji. English title is "Overcuming writers block" (hate it). Really butters my muffins I gotta say. The MC is a clueless virgin type but not annoyingly uwu, she's just horny and committed to her job lol I also find the male lead very hot.
No. 543813
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>>543611Bless. I just read a fic that had some of the spiciest dirty talk.I dunno, some female authors have an amazing knack for it. Also, so many well written sex scenes. It's all i can do to keep sane during this quarantine is read, read, read.
No. 543857
>>543849omegaverse mpreg shit is niche tho
fanwork is vast, there's distinction between 13 year olds on Ao3 and women who put actual effort in making sexy DJ and fics or light novels
No. 543858
>>543849Who cares? Are women not allowed to find both female and male traits attractive at the same time? Doesn't it make sense that girls would still be aroused by female sexuality and occasionally project it on men they write? I wouldn't call it lazy either, writers put a lot of thought into the world building for it. It's almost OTT how much detail they put into ABO tropes.
I get finding it gross or weird but fucking hell, it's so harmless.
No. 543865
>>543863Again, so fucking what? Why should women feel obligated to write women into their porn? Can't men be the objects for once? Can't women take a step back from always being the sexualized half of a couple? Why can't men be unrealistically lubed up and fuckable when we're always portrayed that way, which is nothing like reality?
It fetishizes sexist roles to an extent but they've gone out of their way to ensure it's not women who are on the receiving end of the sexism. Plus a tonne of the stories are big SJWesque take downs of sexism against omegas anyway.
Girls really can't have anything, huh? Even harmless stories are a moral failing, meanwhile men are fapping to trafficked and abused teens on the regular.
No. 543868
>>543849AO3 is full of that shit, sometimes is call "trans male character" so it make it woke lmao, but is still a thing
>>543865 i don't really care, but anon i may ask, why you get so
trigger by people not liking porn? also know fujoshis they then to let out women becase they hate them so
No. 543877
>>543873They are literally writing about men… They pick male characters with male bodies, because they are interested in those particular men. They could write about women if they wanted, but clearly all they want to do is incorporate some female experiences they find arousing/appealing without writing entirely about actual women, because they are more attracted to men and want to put men in these situations instead.
It's not even that deep. Most ABO focuses on the romance of being attracted to people's scents or having bonds, and the convenient plot device of heats pushing people into having sex. It's an absolutely ubiquitous presence in fanfic, there's literally just so much of it that it's fucking absurd to think every single girl writing it is some heinous misogynist who somehow expresses their hatred of women by writing about feminine men.
No. 543905
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I have made a good friend this year who's trans. This person has consistently been kind, loyal and we have a ton of fun together. Friend in question is also the first person I've connected with for some time.
My friendship has definitely changed my views on what being transgender is. I don't harbor as strong "TERF" views as a good number of the users here. I used to though but not anymore. Still I there are some stereotypes found in gender critical circles about transgenderism that I think are true. I also feel guilty that I still lurk this site as well given my relationship with this person.
No. 543914
>>543905It’s easier to believe in a simplistic reality than a complicated, nuanced one.
If you’re confused or conflicted, it’s probably a good thing.
No. 543937
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>>543932Interesting anon. Me too except mine went away as a child. I went through a phase where I was chewing and spitting out my food and could only tolerate soft foods like potato if that. I lost a ton of weight enough to the point where my mom threatened me with the doctor and all the horrid shit they'd do to me if I didn't eat. Well shots scared me so I braved choking haha.
What started it for you? Or was there nothing to pinpoint it to? For me it was when I accidentally swallowed one of pic related too early. I wasn't really choking but this happened right before I went to bed, and the candy just didn't travel down my throat correctly so it felt like a jabbing pain like it was scraping my spine almost. It felt stuck in me like it never went to my stomach. I suffered maybe an hour of existential horror hoping it would go away so I wouldn't have to wake up my dad, but I did. He didn't do anything cause I wasn't choking lmao. I went back to bed with the discomfort and trauma yet somehow woke up in the morning. I was convinced I had 'choked' so I avoided a lot of food. Meat gristle, crunchy dry foods, etc. Just nope.
Now I love all the weird textured foods. I'm still a bit self-conscious about eating in front of other people just because I know that I've been judged and shamed. But it gets easier, I assure you.
No. 543944
>>543929It's really not a good sign that you have an easier time confessing anything to anons than to someone supposedly close to you.
I see that person uses degrading terms for your beliefs and you being afraid they will judge you.
None of that is a good basis for friendship.
State your mind to them directly (no apologizing for your thoughts!), and see how they react. If respectfully, you've started a good friendship. If they try to shame you, drop that shit.
No. 543970
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I know it's got to be some kind of repressed trauma or mental illness, but as far as I know I've never been sexually assaulted, so I'm not sure why it manifests into… this..
But I want to be raped, gang fucked, drugged and used while unconscious, treated like a dog. I like painful anal, I mean painful, like crying bleeding feeling like I'm going to pass out. Being hit, and I mean really hit, especially in the face, makes me orgasm. I've had forceful rough sex while screaming 'no' (though it was pre-agreed upon to be like this, so it wasn't "real" rape). He switched to anal part way through (it'd been discussed before but not pre-negotiated for this instance), and I "wanted" it so I didn't use any kind of safe word, but I also "didn't" want it, because I hadn't prepared for it. I felt so used and disgusted after, I cried for hours and hours. and it made me orgasm so much, even though it felt like my insides were being sharply stabbed in the moment. I think about it all the time now, I want it again so badly. I fantasize all the time "wishing" I would be sexually abused, even though I understand 'rationally' that's not something that should be done to anyone… I still want it. A man fell asleep next to me on the plane and his hand brushed against my leg, and I found myself desperately excited/wishing he was 'testing the waters' to touch me. (He wasn't).
I used to whore myself for a while, it was mostly for easy money and I can't say it was enjoyable to me sexually (the guys usually wanted vanilla-y fantasies, they were not fun, or rough, or anything special; they didn't treat me poorly, try to force, hurt or not pay me, or anything like people stereotype sex work to be like… they were boring, more boring than any random guy, I just got paid to put up with it).
I am so hopelessly obsessed with my current partner, and he's happy to "roleplay" some of these things with me or treat me badly to an extent, but when it comes down to it he cares too much to go through with anything really drastic. I cut myself once to show him my devotion after we'd gotten into a fight, and he admitted it was hot in theory but that he was against it and upset I would hurt myself. I wish he would make me cut myself. I don't want to die, I just have such want for permanent destruction caused this way. It isn't necessarily against myself, either? At least not consciously. Just the concept gets me off. Though I don't care much for sadism, so I don't really aim to do such to others. I sometimes read "rape survivor" stories and things, and I didn't originally mean to read them for this reason, but in the end I get off to the idea that they're permanently ruined/damaged in that way. I still don't "wish" it on any other human, and gender doesn't seem to matter to me, gay rape is just as good as straight rape, it's purely just that concept of 'ruining' that gets me. I've recently started using too large toys to stretch myself out until I am sore and bleeding; even though I know this may make me unattractive to any current sexual partners if it leads to my holes becoming gaping.
I sometimes wonder if it stems from the trauma of how my first serious relationship ended, but I remember I'd 'liked' rape and abuse fantasies outside of the 'normal' kind since I first started sexual exploration as an early teen. I wish I could blame "porn sickness" or whatever they call it, but watching the videos online just bores me? They are all so fake? I even tried to find "real" ones on the darknet before, but there was too much CP which doesn't interest me what so ever.
I don't really feel consciously like I hate myself, I actually am a very prideful person outside of this aspect of my life… I truly don't understand why I am like this, or want this, or why it turns me on to be hurt? I don't think it's the same as classic masochism either, as I don't care for BDSM-esque things at all, it's something in the breaking, degradation, wrecking someone so irreparably? I day dream about my partner murdering and raping me, making me fuck animals, whoring me out to disgusting unattractive and old men. But unlike a normal kink/fantasy, I really do enjoy abuse and pain and suffering?
I used to do drugs and put myself in 'dangerous' situations but no one ever took advantage of me. I would start fights but the men were too scared of hurting a woman? Even when my ex-roommates boyfriend started beating her, I grabbed him by the throat and he quit and sobbed because he was 'scared of me'? I am a small woman, nothing about me, outside of my fucked up desires, should be 'scary'…? I was beat and almost stabbed once by an exboyfriend, I wonder sometimes if that's part of what triggered this.
I really don't know what causes me to feel this way, I know many people will think I am disgusting because so many people have suffered through such things unwillingly.. yet I feel how I feel, and here I am to confess.
Picture unrelated, I just find the art pretty.
No. 544002
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Whenever people post this screenshot it makes me feel like crying for some reason. I find it so cute and sweet and it always makes me wish I had kids. I hope I have a family someday.
No. 544060
>>544007Get over yourself and stop concerning yourself with the opinions of the mentally ill and anonymous strangers.
How mentally fragile are you where your choices are this affected by literal anonymous strangers?
No. 544145
>>543970if it makes you feel any better, i'm similar, but i'm more into hardcore BDSM. i love the thought of being degraded, humiliated, helpless, power exchange, being an object, etc. i can definitely say my interests have gotten more hardcore over the years from being exposed to more porn, but recently i've been struggling and questioning why i am originally into it.
i've had the desire to be tied up my whole life. one of my first memories is when i was 4 years old and i saw someone tied to a chair in a disney movie, so i tried tying myself to a chair. another time when (also probably 4) i was watching aladdin with my dad. the scene where he was underwater and gagged was really uncomfortable to watch with him. i felt "different" when i saw characters tied up. i had no idea what sex was but i knew feeling different when seeing these things was taboo and something not to talk about.
i had a really good life, a great upbringing with supportive over-protective parents. could i have possibly repressed some kind of trauma when i was younger?
i remember not liking an uncle when i was super young that visited from out of state a few days every year. i never had a reason to not like him (i was 3-4) but assuming he did something is tinfoil. and no way in hell would i ever ask my parents if something happened.
now i feel i'm at moral odds with myself. i recently stumbled onto a horrorcore documentary that involved things that really turned me on. i feel so dirty, uncomfortable, and ashamed knowing that what occured wasn't at all consensual.
it sucks having this internal sexual desire for these things, but at the same time knowing most of the time it happens to unwilling women. idk how to feel or how i should feel about it.
ugh
hang in there, anon. stay safe. don't get yourself hurt. i recommend you check out fetlife. establish consensual non-consent with people you trust.
No. 544151
>>543970I'm highly suspicious of any man willing to abuse their girlfriends even if they "allow" and "like" it. Even worse, if the man enjoys doing it. Huge red flag.
I want to believe this is a troll or a very mentally unwell woman. No sane person is into those things you described.
No. 544237
>>544151They’ve been in these threads before. Either they want help (go see a fucking therapist) or this is part of their fetish.
I’m inclined to believe it’s a scrote.
No. 544247
>>544057I did have a somewhat chaotic/
abusive childhood but it was more from the young age/immaturity of my parents not knowing better. I can't say it was any of those things otherwise, though I have read that many women who do experience rape fantasies enjoy them because it takes away the guilt of a female enjoying sex… So I can fathom how an extreme case of that could warp into something like this? If I do feel anything like that it must be very repressed.
>>544145Thanks Anon, this actually did help me quite a lot. I've also tried desperately to search my memory for some instance in my childhood that might've been sexual abuse, but even though I showed a lot of related symptoms, I also can't really narrow anything down beyond grasping at straws. I wish you the best as well and sincerely appreciate your post, I am so expectant of reactions like these:
>>544238>>544151>>544237I'd come to feel very … Well, alone; I think to an extent thinking I was the only one or very wrong to desire these things was adding to my want to put myself through them.
>>544237I don't remember if I've posted in the confession threads before, but if I have I've never discussed this or anything similar to it.
I also really hate the mentality that you couldn't think something like this unless you were a man? I'm willing to agree it may well be mental illness, but the idea I can't be fucked up in this way just because of my ovaries is sexism in itself. We aren't some divine beings, anon, no matter how many pinkpill threads you sub to, we're all human and capable of the same things (even the fucked up things). Never could wrap my head around why girls here and guys on 4chan couldn't get past the concept of their ding a lings being the reason for virtue or sin and not just seeing our species as a whole, being capable of whatever thoughts feelings or traits.
No. 544264
>>544247I was sympathetic to you, since I do have extreme self harming fantasies prompted by csa and porn. But your last paragraph makes me think you're just a shit pot of porn sickness, edge and lack of hobbies. You either grow out of it or you die. Natural selection and whatnot.
>we're all human and capable of the same things (even the fucked up things)Kek you're one of those. Way to miss the point. The difference is statistically, scientifically, women have little to no trouble NOT actually committing atrocities, regardless of how -capable- they are of them.
No. 544265
>>544219I'm with you Anon, I'm the same. Also relapsed today and also wish I hadn't had such free access to Internet all my childhood.
I think it's very common for millenials to be traumatized by porn
No. 544283
>>544280 was a reply to what i deleted
>>544247good! i'm glad you are feeling less alone. just don't put yourself in dangerous situations.
and it is interesting to think of the difference between male and female expectations with things like this. we have a femmedom thread in /g, but if we had a maledom thread i would think there would probably be a lot of uproar.
i never asked or groomed myself to be into what i am into. the fetish was always there. the first time i purposely "explored" BDSM was probably as a freshman in high school with reading the adult section of answerbag.com (lulz) and then started watching porn after i became sexually active at 17.
>>544267thanks for your concern for my sex life. people have different tastes. everyone likes different movies, music, kinds of people, hobbies… why isn't it acceptable for people have different sexual preferences?
there is the (unlikely) chance i was sexually assaulted as a small child and that's what caused my interests. At this point though, it'd be a hell of a lot more traumatizing to find out i was sexually assaulted as a baby than if i continued to enjoy my consensual, safe sex life.
>deleted to repost with thisto add, i do think it's wrong for people to plaster their fetishes all over sites that aren't dedicated to sex. i believe people who make their fetishes their identity or persona in vanilla spaces are very harmful.
No. 544298
>>544283>safe sex lifeOkay, we'll talk about it when you're the next
victim of "sex games gone wrong" and your murdered gets off scott free because you degenerates normalized violent acts instead of intimacy and pleasure.
Wanting to be in pain is not a sexual preference, it is self harm it is not helping your mental health. Wanting to inflict pain is not a sexual preference, it's a sign of a dangerous individual that you should absolutely not be vulnerable to.
Again. Use your brain for once and get out of you "uwu bdsm" echo chambers.
No. 544301
>>544283>everyone likes different movies, music, kinds of people, hobbies… why isn't it acceptable for people have different sexual preferences?Anon really said "Some people like Disney movies, some people like Nirvana, some people like flower-arranging. I like to be mentally and physically abused for sexual pleasure. Why isn't that acceptable? Just my preference", kek.
It's funny how no one sane thinks it's good if a person self-harms just for the sake of it, but if it's to get an orgasm, we're supposed to act like there's nothing wrong with it.
No. 544323
>>543970>>544145Gotta admit I like a lot of fucked up sexual shit too, but I keep that to myself and understand why others would think it's unhealthy and degrading because to an extent it definitely is. I can't pinpoint how exactly these things developed in me, but I accept them for what they are and know they are unacceptable to others.
No offense if your posts are genuine but all you're doing is stirring the pot, lolcow culture doesn't not tolerate fetish shit.
No. 544378
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>>544265Sorry to hear it also happened to you. I think I just need to stay away from "
triggers" for it, as accidentally seeing porn in random places online and then things escalating from there is the most common situation for me. I need to close that tab or whatever and distract myself immediately. But the first step is acknowledging that it's a problem instead of normalizing it– I believe we're gonna make it, anon
No. 544381
>>544378I'm sick of seeing that gay ass cat everywhere
>>544379'Mind your business' is a meaningless sentence in this situation, when anon is literally telling us her life
No. 544395
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>in love with bf
>still have desire to fuck other guys
I'd never do it, and I know that guys feel this way even if they love their SOs, but this shit weighs on my conscience constantly
No. 544400
>>544395eh i don't think that's something to feel so guilty about
you know you won't do it, you don't actively fantasize about it (right?)
you just experience physical attraction like a normal person
No. 544406
>>544323Eh, I'm the original anon and I came here just to "confess" or vent it out and self reflect openly, not get a bunch of sympathy or justification.
Though having the other anon chime in with her experience did help me, it wasn't what I expected and I knew fully I'd likely get hate for posting what I did (I mention that at the end of my post, I think?).
Overall, I had a great day being degraded by my partner, fucking myself til my cunt was numb, and took a glance back here while bored, so my life goes on (or until I die from my fetishes or whatever). In fact, finally venting this here helped me admit it more openly to my partner today, and I can safely say I think I'll be more sexually satisfied from here on out. Overall, a good result in my books. Even if it's not the ideal lolcow ethical result of intensive therapy or what-have-you, I haven't really dedicated my life to appeasing the collective hivemind of the farm just yet.
No. 544426
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>>543849God I hate Omegaverse so fucking much. It's so transparently homophobic. I assume the people who write Omegaverse are the same sort of people who ask gay couples "who the woman is" in the relationship.
Also Omegaverse is supposedly based off of wolves, but that's not how wolves work, either. Unrelated wolves only form heirarchies in captivity. In the wild, packs are just immediate families, and the "alphas" are literally just the parents of the other wolves. So basically autistic virgins who are into Omegaverse don't understand gay people
or animals.
Like if I'm going to read a slashfic, it's going to be about normal people who fuck with lube and condoms.
>>543889This. Half the guys in these fics are uke stereotypes who self-lubricate and get pregnant. They're basically flat-chested girls with puny dicks.
ABO is 100% just written by people who are uncomfortable with how actual gay people work. They can't fathom the idea of a relationship that doesn't involve reproducing.
>>543865God damn this bad-faith attack on fujoshis is as old as the goddamn dinosaurs. 1) Anecdotally, the only truly women-hating fujoshis I've met are the ones hat become fakebois, and 2) I fail to see how jerking off to gay porn means a woman hates other women. No one ever accuses the deluge of men that like lesbian porn of hating other men.
No. 544524
>>544476Same except I've been seeing someone for 3 months and still feel very infatuated.
Maybe my curse is lifted. If it's true I'll pray for you anon.
No. 544581
One my current closest friends is actually a girl I used to hate follow online. I didn't even met her before, I just came across her DA profile one day and decided to dislike her. I never interacted with her or trolled her or anything, I just actively checked her social media accounts to see if she posted anything new to think her art was ugly and that she was dumb. As you can see, I was not in a good place mentally, I don't really know why I did that, she was not particularly famous or anything. Then I came to her booth at an anime con, actually liked her stuff and talked with her (I had already mellowed out considerably by that time), and six years after, we are very close and hang out pretty often (we live in the same city). I feel bad about this even though I never did anything, and I obviously never told her (or anyone else for that matter), so I kinda wanted to confess it anonymously.
No. 544589
>>544431That's stupid anon. For all you know a child could have severely altered the course of your relationship at the time for the worst, you might not even be together today because oopsie pregnancies don't typically end well. Perhaps it would have devastated you where you wouldn't be able to buy a house yet and couldn't afford a wedding because a baby would have set you back financially for years.
And what, you'd honestly want to deal with a six year old in lockdown and no school? LOL, don't be fooled. Parents are salty and losing their shit from being trapped inside with their kids right now. And to top it all off, this is not the kind of world you'd want your child to experience. You've got your 30s yet, cool it.
No. 544615
>>544581I get you, Anon. I used to feel guilty about something similar too but a friend told me randomly something like "some of the best friendships are formed from hate". That made me realise that realistically I think a lot of people initially have negative feelings towards the people they end up friends with. In the end, it's just temporary emotions that are only as serious as you make them. It's the time you've spent with her and your actions as her friend that actually matter. And if you hadn't been interested in her profile in some way then you wouldn't have ended up friends with her, right?
If you ever do want to tell her, I would suggest bringing up your first impressions of each other or something like that. I don't know what kind of person she is but I think I would just find it funny if my close friend told me exactly what you did (I wouldn't be worried to tell my friends either). I think not telling her is completely fine too because you clearly don't feel that way anymore (the fact you're still worried about it after 6 years shows that).
No. 544621
>>544495>I don't get it? It's just a bunch of pics of naked girlsI don’t get why I do it either lmao. I guess part of it is weirdly interesting to me? Like seeing what guys like. Also sometimes there are “vintage” and “amateur” threads on there which catch my attention because the people in those threads always look so normal? It can boost my self esteem sometimes. I guess it’s a mix of reasons but I only do it once in a while.
>>544511Kek i guess
No. 544782
>>544777I never took it that far but I also used to be obsessed with going on there and stormfront partly because it made me in my head feel better (more prepared kind of?) to atleast be aware of what these people actually thought but also I think I just enjoyed making myself upset. I can kind of understand the wanting to be validated though because I went through a phase where I wanted validation from incels somewhat. You were really young, I hope that never happens to you, and don't think it will but I think even if it did people would maybe understand? I don't think your experience is actually that uncommon to various degrees, I think a lot of people from ethnic backgrounds go through a self hate phase that they hopefully come out of… whenever I've seen /pol/ meetups or various people who talk about using it, they're usually always not white, it's very strange and pathetic. It
almost invokes sympathy.
No. 544868
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fuck i want a housewife!! maybe it's just because i'm a lonely ass 'career woman' who doesn't know how to cook or anything but there's something that's so incredibly sexy to me about having a partner who takes care of the house and cooks. my last crush said that was her dream job and now i can't stop thinking about how that's exactly what i want. i would spoil the absolute shit out of her and i know it's exactly the kind of thing that would motivate me to try harder and harder in my field.
of course, i know this is something abnormal to expect or want from my relationships. fuck this gay earth.
No. 545021
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>>545004You sound really cute, anon. Writing/Reading is a major hobby of mine and it would be the perfect thing to bond with a partner over. I would read all of my housewife's stories religiously.
No. 545065
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>>545021That'd be adorable. Proposal when?
No. 545181
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i weirdly love rooms like these a lot and i really want mine to look like it too but it also has massive nasty neckbeard who faps to loli vibes
ugh
No. 545188
>>545021>>545065kek! geez get a room you two!
>>545115 yall need to invite us to the wedding!
No. 545197
>>545189I personally hate rooms like this, but this doesn't look too difficult since there is a bunch of hard flat surfaces.
>>545181The thing that frustrates me about owning a ton of shit is the idea that one day your going to have to pack all that shit up if you need to move house. Then, you just have to question if all this trouble is worth it.
No. 545210
>>544956Makes sense that you would need to physically identify with someone in porn to get off. As far as I can tell, the emotional aspect of BL is the main draw for most fujos, anyway. (Plus, since the characters are on equal social footing with each other, it's your chance to enjoy a romantic story without the baggage that might come with it otherwise, there's been a lot written about this)
Personally I like buttsex between husbandos as much as the next GW fanfic author, but if that were the only thing BL had to offer, I wouldn't have stuck around
No. 545223
>>544590>i say that as a lesbian who has written alpha/alpha, omega/omega and alpha/omega fic>alpha/alpha, omega/omegaPatrician taste. Omega/omega is hot, especially when they're super sweet and domestic with each other and their heats sync up so they're twice as needy and twice as loving and attentive during sex.
I'm really picky about omegaverse fic though, because I can't stand the whole "asspussy" thing where their butt gets "wet" and they get pregnant through their ass. It squicks me out. I prefer my omegas to just be cuntboys/reverse futas.
>>544604>when women take anatomical liberties and write whatever outlandish shit they want to fantasize about it's all politics with ~evil homophobic fetishization~ and ~internalized cool girl misogyny~ and whatever labels nonnies want to slap on it todayThis too.
No. 545286
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I’ve been having internet fights over dumb shit every day recently because I feel like shit and it helps me to release my miserableness/rage out to an anonymous stranger. I seriously just hate being alive and i know im basically the “loser in a basement who gets angry online” meme
No. 545332
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I didn't know that these quarantine times would affect me so much. I recently moved to a different country and don't have many friends here (and the few people that I started talking to aren't in the "friendship mode" yet). I'm introverted and pretty much all my hobbies revolve into internet and vidya stuff but since I live alone I'm starting to feel like I'm getting more and more depressed without seeing or talking to people irl. Video calls doesn't fix the problem. I didn't know I needed people so much. Yet, at the moment, I don't feel like talking to anyone. I have messages to answer from friends back home but I don't want to nor have the energy. I'm struggling to focus, on work and pretty much everything else. I even haven't had the energy to buy groceries. I just feel apathy towards everything.
No. 545492
>>545489I'm not proud or unproud, it just is what it is.
I know that there's so many things about me that I have going for me, that I was smart and interesting and intelligent etc even when I was 'conventionally' more unattractive and I don't think how I look should mean anything to the world or says anything about who I am as a person, but I also know that unfortunately wider society in general cares about women's looks above all else, and that changing them improved my life monumentally
No. 545810
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>>544467>>544570But like… why even write a fic about gay men if you have a pregnancy/breeding fetish? Just make it straight ffs. Or trannies if you're feeling woke. Also you can have a wholesome fic about gay people being parents. Adoption is a thing. Also the "marking" thing is just ew in general, and ABO certainly has some rapey elements I didn't touch on.
And I
have read several fics where cleaning is mentioned, actually. I guess the fandoms I'm in have more actual adults in them.
Agree on the troon shit, though. People need to get better at tagging their lunacy.
>>544590>>545223I mean, feel free to enjoy your degenerate fetish. Just know that it's on the same level of cringe as furry shit and NTR. Stop trying to bring feminism into this, I hate all physically impossible fetishes equally. The reason I have such autistic hatred for ABO is that it shits up tags, is often horribly written garbage by 12 year olds, and I just can't suspend my disbelief. It's cliche garbage for middle schoolers, like coffee shop AUs and soulmate fics. "Scent marking" someone and "owning" someone isn't cute, it's creepy and possessive. Have you guys ever actually been in a relationship?
ABO is garbage, and I will never stop judging people for liking it. Same goes with Naruto, the Big Bang Theory, Hetalia, and leggings as pants.
No. 545851
>>544604>>545223stop trying to use feminism to defend your fetish alright, men who write disgusting erotica are pornsick and women men who write disgusting erotica also pornsick, its not
>I can't believe people are going full horseshoe and side-eyeing female writers for being liberal with their sexuality and making men their unrealistic sex objects for once. Should women only write sappy, romantic, fluffy vanilla erotica like a good christian housewife?see its not turning men into sexual objects that are literally function as women in all but name
No. 545857
>>545810ABO shit is gross as fuck to me too just because the whole mpreg shit squicks me out but
>have you ever been in a relationshipcome on man. i like reading yandere shit doesn't mean i want that for my relationship irl. in fact i seek out the complete opposite as i like to be independent from my partner
No. 545873
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>>545851It's hilarious how shameless they are. "It's alright to create degenerate porn, because women made it."
No. 545877
>>545851that's not how it works anon holy shit.
Honestly you all who take fanfic kinks this seriously need to go outside and stop letting it bother you so fucking much. It's not like it's a predatory serial killer child raping scrote living stroking his fantasy out in the open, they're normal docile women who most likely will never act out on this shit IRL and just want to write their stupid fantasy smut
>inb4 found the coomer!!!!I don't care one bit about this omegaverse and whatever nasty stuff but I'm sick of people making everything into some autistic debate about ethics and moral policing. Just say you think it's gross and that's it, no need for all this sad "sexualizing men is actually misogynistic because you're actually putting them in female positions" clownery
No. 545895
>>545874Are you a gay man? Weirdly enough, I've never seen any actual gay men say that line.
It's always like, 14-24 year old girls and women on Tumblr/Twitter (a lot of which are usually virtue signalling fujos and general coomers themselves).
No. 545922
>>545919"Kind"? He can't put in effort or even comfort you. He didn't bother to get you something for your birthday, when that would obviously be important to you. He called you a
nag ffs when you brought all this up. He might be "kind" but he's not for you. He's not going to change and your resentment will only grow.
Yes, dump him to go date and meet some hot college guys (who already care about their appearance)! Check out femaledatingstrategy (if it's too autistic for you, just don't try to change a man, have high standards and be ready to leave at first red flag).
No. 545927
>>545874Petition for women to stop assuming gay men take issue with fujoshis. Gay guys don't care unless you're literally hitting on them directly.
They're still men, and men don't get offended by porn. Why are we defending gay men so hard, but let it slide when lesbians get fetishised? This is literally just virtue signalling.
No. 545978
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>>545975That reminds me of this (though it's a gay man talking about women).
I really have no words for it, but I guess it's the fujoshi writing/drawing shit about fictional "males" that might as well be flat-chested tomboys with dicks that we really need to be concerned about. Nothing to see here, protect the innocent gay men from the evil fetishizing women.
No. 545991
>>545874You didn't say why.
But there is one real problem with fetishizing gay men. It's when girls do it to the point of hating their own bodies and sexuality and turn into Aidens.
No. 546040
>>546036This is just a random confession and I'm saying this as one because I refuse to tell this to anyone I know online or IRL. I think it's pretty embarrassing and I hate the fact that I took a pic with him. Perhaps I should've added that in there to avoid some retard having their anger fit with me.
>kysThanks!
No. 546201
>>546172you kind of screwed up by a) setting a timeframe that long and b) then not leaving him the second that timeframe expired and he did not change.
I seriously do not get why you would be willing to risk wasting a WHOLE FUCKING YEAR of your live for just the chance, not the guarantee, that he would change.
Get yourself a man that doesn't need changing.
No. 546245
>>546223You'll never get a girlfriend if you keep being a disgusting slob like that.
(like jesus, how can you even go several months without brushing your teeth, mine hurt if I skip it just once affter a meal).
No. 546569
>>546567Not in a pearl-clutching way, but how do you sleep at night? I mean does any of this keep you awake? Sometimes when I daydream about doing almost everything you've described, I make myself actually puke even if my stomach is empty and then can't sleep that night.
I think that sort of behaviour falls under self-harm. Have you sought out therapy for it? Would he ever forgive you? Is this something you see yourself repeating in the future? Did you love him? So many questions, it boggles my mind. Would make a crazy book.
No. 546572
>>546569Girl, I don't even know. I feel like I live in a purgatory between a functioning horrible person and someone who is just very mentally ill.
-I have a therapist I've been visiting since I tried to off myself at the end of 2018 and she has kind of brushed off cheating as a bipolar episode and a result of viewing my relationship as idealistic/letting myself down
-No idea if he would ever forgive me. Like I said he is in a new relationship. I am the one who initially ended the relationship officially letting him know I couldn't deal with the guilt but flipped after a few months. Damn near went insane when I found out he was in love with someone else. I just remember crying nonstop telling my dad over and over that I was going to change his mind. I mean, clearly, we had history. Why wouldn't he love me more?
-I'm staying away from relationships knowing this is something that is possible in the future. There is one guy that is in love with me but I've told him since the beginning that I wasn't committed to anyone
-I loved him so fucking much and I still do
No. 546576
>>546572Jesus christ stop being a professional
victim and get it together. You fucked up.
No. 546578
>>541792Sounds like a shit therapist tbh.
>>546576Yes, she fucked up, but still, shut the fuck up. This is interesting.
No. 546583
>>546567No offense anon, but your mental health does not dictate it.
You’re obviously coherent enough to function well enough to at least get a job, and do relatively normal things. To me this sounds like you’re making excuses, and you don’t think you should be held responsible for your actions. It sounds like you think you can get away with making these bad choices. Because that’s what they are. Bad choices.
You made these choices, and you will live with them. Hold yourself the fuck accountable, and grow up. See a therapist, get some medication, get a job, and maybe don’t get into a relationship if you’re only going to torture somebody.
You sound like a cow. Ironic.
No. 546591
>>546572Damn, thank you for answering. I hope things get better for you. Don't let anons here get you down, obviously you beat the fuck out of yourself enough.
I hope one day you give yourself less reasons to feel immense guilt, I hope you can find comfort and act in a way that makes you feel good about yourself.
No. 546596
>>546583I haven't heard from anyone other than those very close to me so I appreciate the transparency. You're clearly reacting so heavily because you can relate to my ex on some level.
I'll let you know I've been on medication for 9 years and have worked/been applying for jobs since this all happened in July. I've admitted why my relationship crumbled to my mom and dad which is humiliating so I can't say I haven't taken responsibility. I'm just confessing. Like everyone else here.
>>546591>>546594I'm working on it. Thank you. Maybe I'll admit more sins in the future. God knows they fuckin exist
No. 546636
My friend is so insecure, she has to ruin every good thing that happens to me. Every time I fuck up, she’s always there to remind me how I should improve as a person and how bad and tiring are my mistakes but the moment I try to fix my life for once and do something that I actually feel proud about, she wouldn’t say a thing. It’s worse if she talks though because she always has a bad comment prepared in advance, even if it doesn’t have anything to do with the things I’m saying.
I won’t go into details but this is the main reason which I don’t tell her almost anything about my life. I can deal with the fact of her being insecure and somewhat bitter about her life (she doesn’t have many friends, kind of antisocial….) but that doesn’t give the rights to be an asshole with me every time she pleases.
She turns every thing into a competition and is such a fool because she thinks I don’t notice at all. Of course I notice, she doesn’t know how to lie after all. She’s the kind of girl who confuses being sincere with being rude and she obviously acknowledges this so why I wouldn’t notice?
I used to be so worried about her and her mental state, I always put her first until one day I woke up and I decided I couldn’t go on like this. She’s tiring. Exhausting to be with. People doesn’t stay by her side because she pushes them away and then she expects people to act like she wants to. Her victim complex sometimes amazes me. Her behaviour is like a 13 years old complaining about never finding love again because her classmate just dumped her after two days of dating. I wish I was exaggerating but I’m not, in every single aspect of her life, she has to people know she had it worst than the rest and worse, treating people like trash just because soooo muuuuuchhh huuuuurrrrtttt…
No. 546648
>>546636This
>>546638 . Being anti-social, bitter and not having many friends is not an excuse to be this much of a cunt to your remaining friends, badmouthing them and pulling them down with you. Be just as honest to her as she claims to be and tell her that if she wants you two to remain friends, she needs to stop treating you this way.
No. 546687
>>546683That’s great anon. It’s great you’re no longer in that cult. I feel for the young women who get roped in. A lot of them go through traumatic experiences and end up thinking they’re men because of it, and a number of other reasons.
It’s not something to be super embarrassed by, because I see it happen a lot with young women. I’ve experienced it too when I was in college.
No. 546700
>>546681I broke up with my
abusive ex 2 months ago so it’s much more recent but I think with quarantine and not having much new content in my life to think about, I’ve started dreaming about my ex again when I had started getting way better about not thinking about him. I’ve read some articles about how people are having weird dreams cause of quarantine, I’m sure it carries into obsessive thoughts during the day as well cause you don’t have distractions/aren’t out there meeting new people/hanging out with friends. Stay strong anon, I hope you can find some distractions soon like watching a cute movie or reading a good book!
No. 546702
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I thought this dude was OJ Simpson for a very long time
No. 546713
>>546712Same here. It allows for some really fine details when you're making it into a shape, and it feels good. My husband caught me and now does it to his chest and shoulders.
Huh.
No. 546804
>>541792i put a few drops of my own blood in the cookie dough mix that i made for my family.
i told them later the day after they finished it all.
No. 546814
>>546804>>546807I wish I could unseen this shit.
Fucking disgusting, go both kys.
No. 546815
>>546804i get spitting in food of people you don't like because it's not that uncommon but
bloodwhy the fuck would you add your own BLOOD
No. 546820
>>546818I'm the person who made this thread and I already regret writing that because everyone freaks out on each other in every single post
Note to myself: Don't write shit like that in these threads ever again
No. 546849
>>546807>>546804Thanks for validating my paranoid anons. I knew people like you existed and would do evil shit like this for fun.
This is why I get nervous when I eat food I didn't make myself.
One day you'll get caught and you'll go to prision for that FYI
No. 546908
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A guy that I met through e-dating is wanting to move forward with me, and I really appreciate him and I think he's wonderful. I'm just trying to mentally figure out how I'd live with someone who looks like a discount Kenneth Branagh during his role in Wild Wild West.
I'm dead serious.
I'm both turned on and yet trying to picture a life with a guy who looks like an evil villain but really is not.
No. 547005
>>546984My brother had it as well, even when he had bulked up he had visible male breasts, a lot of wrestlers and bodybuilders get it as well from steroid abuse
the only solution is pretty much surgery
No. 547035
>>547028You're probably right. My dad is a violent,
abusive narc. I'm not going to go into detail because I know I'll upset myself but I can't even hug men without wanting to vomit.
No. 547050
>>54700127 and still a virgin, and quite honestly idgaf anymore (I was more bothered when I was 16 lmao). I'm not asexual since I have a sex drive, I just have zero interest in experiencing intimacy with somebody else (probably autistic). I also have no problem telling it to people when they ask me about relationships, and surprisingly I've never been made fun of (although I think my mother believes I've already had sex).
I wonder, if I ever have sex one day, will I have to tell the person I'm an old virgin?
No. 547066
>>546938If all your ancestors were tortured for 250 years and than your literal grandparents were segregated for another 50 just for white people to start stealing your culture and pretending to be informed and supportive of you. While they simultaneously never own up to their judgment of you or just shrug off how their mothers talk about black people. Never taking their ancestors responsibility, always claiming “wah Irish were slaves too!”. While your people are consistently the lower half of society, to always be the uneducated and poor. Always shot by cops because of the culture that was created from oppression that somehow makes US look like the thugs. You would fucking hate white people too. It’s not racism per say, it’s just hatred. It’s completely
valid hatred. White people are still very racist to this day, but good old submissive black people are expected to be the bigger people and move on and not have anger. We’re only expected to shut up and accept racists because we were slaves and subconsciously taught to abide. And white people still expect us to act that way. Fuck that be angry. Fuck white people.
No. 547088
>>546752Congrats on leaving the cult! If you want to connect with others like yourself, there are detransitioned and desisted women on twitter and tumblr, as well as the detrans subreddit.
>>546908god i wish this were me
No. 547101
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My boyfriend and I haven't been fighting or anything but he hasn't been very talkative this whole quarantine. I didn't mind it at first but I'm getting pretty bored and he keeps on watching the same show over and over. I'm always trying to make conversation and we don't really have sex, I'm always the one to ask for it.
A couple days ago I got blackout drunk and came on to his friend who is our roommate, I felt so embarrassed and ashamed, I don't even remember doing any of it. My boyfriend forgave me but I feel like that has put some tension on us. I think I got a mini crush on him because I'm just so bored and it's always just the three of us. I hate it.
No. 547107
>>547101I hope the day never comes when I'll have ask anyone for sex
As for the drunk part, I think alcohol makes people bold enough to do things they subconsciously want to do. You're probably sexually frustrated rn and wants to smash his friend. Just like when my friend got drunk, grabbed my male friend's ass and said she 'd hook up with him. Even I flirted with him, it's a normal thing.
No. 547114
>>547101I had the exact same thing with my boyfriend but fortunately we live alone.
Imo the best solution is to have a heart to heart with our bf about how you're feeling neglected at a time when you feel like you should both be supporting each other and ask if there's anything going on with him which is making him shut you out. A tactical tip is to leave discussing how he seems disinterested in sex to the end, because it makes people defensive.
It took a few talks to get things to improve for us, but I've have to accept that my bf can't fulfill my lockdown social needs entirely and so I need just call my friends more.
If your friend acts weird you could maybe clear the air by apologizing that you only see him as a friend and drunk you was only trying to make your boyfriend jealous because of how withdrawn and absent he's been. That might get your friend to focus on your bfs mood too. Don't give the guy space to start thinking that you have feelings for him or else this is all going to get messy.
No. 547187
>>547101I feel this entire post, except I WISH I had a male roommate to embarrass myself on. I'm so sexually frustrated and bored, I could cum to algebra equations.
As for my own confession, my boyfriend only gets off if I do some pretty gross shit during sex but literally won't even try to get me horny beforehand. He uses a ton of lube so it at least doesn't hurt but I swear I use sex time for daydreaming about unrelated fabric art I'll make, and places I liked visiting as a kid. I love having sex but I fucking hate having sex with him. Also his art sucks and he decorated the house with it and during quarantine this whole thing is making me chimp out
No. 547204
I wasn't really sure where to post this but I decided to just lumber it here.
Alright, so I'm 26. I've been talking to a dude for a month now, I met him on POF the dating app. Just like a week or two after the lockdown here in the UK.
This guy is 31, he's 32 soon. He's this gorgeous latino guy, I'm biracial. I messaged him first and I was half asleep tbh. We got talking and flirting.
Now.
Now we talk every single day. He works still during this lockdown, full time in a store. But we talk during his shift since theres fuck all for him to really do. After he comes home from work and we spend three hours on the phone. Three or two. Depends who's tired the first.
We talk about everything. And I really enjoy our talks.
He's in London and I'm up north. Two hours via train.
He's very outgoing, flirtatious, lively, open. We've already exchanged pictures of fam with each other. Not exposing any names but yeah.
He doesn't do social media though - says it takes too much of his time up.
Loves my body, I aint sent him nudes but I do outfit pics for IG. He likes a curvy girl (not fat I mean like wider hips and thicker legs ect).
So far everything is alright. But he really wants to meet me, he's been looking at train times and everything. I told him wait and we will meet up, chat dinner, drinks ect.
He gets it, he wants to wait but he always asks everyday but he's joking. I dont know.
We chat about deep shit, I go to bed smiling, I told him about my skin picking disorder and he gets it. I told him my insecurities and personal shit. He gets it. He's done the same with me.
But I just FEEL like when we meet he won't fancy me. He tells me to stop thinking like that but I can't help it. I did online dating before and its been okay but the last guy two years ago I did it with, I liked him and we met and he made me feel like shit.
I've put bit of weight on, I told the guy this and he doesnt care. My family make me feel shit about my weight, its horrible.
But this lockdown is torturous, I really want to meet him and kiss him. He told me that he is invested in what we have and wants to pursue it but I dunno if I am really ready for something.
My family are picky about people, he's lovely but I dont know if they would approve of him. I worry about that.
I want something, Im tired of being lonely. I want a boyfriend but I dont at the very same time. It'd be nice.
I dont want kids till my 30s and I made it clear to him about this like in general talk. But if we meet, it grows into something amazing then I dont mind continuing life with this guy.
I've never had a proper relationship before though. My confidence has dipped a lot this year and I dunno. Im just worried.
I wish my family weren't so fucking overprotective. I love and respect them but I want to be with someone too.
He's a looker as well and I worry someone like this dude will fuck off with other girls back in London. I dunno.
What do y'all think? I pursue this or just move on?
No. 547220
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14 year old me used to rub it so hard over Light's smirk in this panel and I'll still do it in a heartbeat
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>>547220LOL anon I had the hugest crush on Light Yagami around the same age so I feel you.
No. 547251
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>>547220>>547239Both of you automatically became my best friends lmao. I'm 20 and I still have a crush on this sexy ass psycho. I'm not even ashamed of it lol
No. 547290
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>>547220>>547239>>547251any of you anons read Platinum End, it's by the same author as Death Note, its like Death Note but turned on its head i.e about an MC who doesn't want to become god
No. 547437
>>547362Listen you sentient shoe, get a job and stop being a
toxic leach.
Bare minimum stop being
toxic towards him
No. 547443
>>547187>gross shit during sex but literally won't even try to get me horny beforehand. He uses a ton of lube so it at least doesn't hurt but I swear I use sex time for daydreaming None of this is healthy. I'm not going to just tell you to to dump him because I understand you're in lock down with him but 'it doesn't hurt anyway' is never a reason to just let someone do what they want with your body, it's a known fact that it causes resentment and libido dysfunction if not genuine trauma over time. Why are you letting him do things to you when he's not doing things for you?
I'm genuinely concerned for you anon, can you open up about this to a friend?
No. 547444
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I make fun of men with Asian fetishes knowing fully well id fuck any guy from Scandinavia.
No. 547450
>>547001>>547025just turned 30 and still a virgin. it's more common than you'd think to be a woman and an 'older' virgin
>>547050>I wonder, if I ever have sex one day, will I have to tell the person I'm an old virgin? you absolutely do not have to tell them if you don't want to share that. though it might help to have them know so they can make sure to be slow/gentle and extra considerate. I worry about letting someone know in case they think there's something wrong with me, I'm not sure if I'll say, when the time comes. I'm just gonna go with my gut and how I feel about the person at the time.
No. 547466
>>547187This sounds like me a couple years ago, the guy expected me to be (very fucking) open minded in going that extra mile to get him off.. meanwhile he didn't give me a single orgasm in three years together.
Girl leave, don't settle when it already sounds like you're done with this guy.
No. 547469
>>547450>>547025I'm a 24 years old virgin, and the guy I'm talking to is younger and experienced. From the jokes he makes sometimes, I can tell he thinks I had sex lol. Probably because I get guys' attention. I don't think I will tell him, I don't want him to be all in shock and wonder
why. I hope if we end up having sex, I won't give myself away with being awkward or acting weird. People say sex with someone new is always a bit awkward and stressful so maybe he won't notice.
I also have this weird thing that I don't want to give the privilege of taking my virignity to anyone. Like, the thought of someone boasting about being my "first", angers me. So I may keep it as my secret.
No. 547489
>>547488ok, i mean
do men really mind that a woman is a virgin? that's kinda weird
No. 547491
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>>547485>>547483>>547487The hymen never leaves the body. It's not supposed to "break", it's literally an opening. It stretches for sex, tampons, etc.
If you bleed during sex, your partner went too fast/hard.
>mfw dudes literally created an entire mythology and concept of purity based on their inability to fuck women in a pleasurable, non-painful way No. 547492
>>547472I was severely depressed at the time and in my senior year of highschool. I failed the year and ate out a lot lol. Since then I've been going to therapy and my weight has pretty much stabilized at 200.
>>547474We video chat regularly but he hasn't seen my entire body since the weight gain. My face has gained a bit of weight but not so much that it's very noticeable.
I just want to be confident when I see him. I've struggled with weight all my life but this is the highest I've ever been.
I guess it's just me being shallow and insecure? I know he is not a big looks oriented person but I don't want him to settle.
No. 547498
>>547489I think the fact that being 20+ and still virgin makes people think you're some kind of weirdo, and thus don't want to get involved with you.
Also, some people don't want to be with somebody inexperienced, I've seen several women say they don't want to become the first to virgin men.
No. 547510
>>547484I'm the anon from
>>547469 and I think for many of us, older virgins (lol) it's not the matter of will men like it/mind it, it's about ourselves and our own feelings surrounding it. At this point this is something I'm vulnerable about and I don't want to explain myself, and it's inevitable to get a "why?" at this age. This is a bit shallow, but I also don't want to appear "lame" and like a loser. The ego is a sensitive bitch.
This is not something I care about or relate to, but as anon above said, some people simply do not want to bother with someone not experienced. You have to be patient and slow, and it puts pressure on you. Some people would rather just fuck, you know. I think most prefers "slightly experienced" so they 1) don't have to go slow with unexperienced, 2) don't feel intimidated by the experienced.
No. 547531
>>547510I'm pretty okay with never having sex for my entire life (can't long for something you don't know I guess), but since people are always so surprised when I tell them I'm a virgin, I kinda feel like I'm the only woman in the world like that haha (especially since I live in a country where there's no religious or social stigma for teenage or premarital sex). I feel relieved when reading this kind of thing here.
I still kinda want to have sex at least once to know how it feels
probably not a good as in hentai.
No. 547545
>>547001I will be 25 in August and have never even kissed anybody.
I'm honestly at a point where I no longer care. I masturbated since I was a kid, so not asexual and I sometimes wish for a bf, but it's just not meant to happen. There's simply no man interested on me, ever. Plus I'd have too many personal problems to date anybody anyway (I mainly hate the way I look and thus am not comfortable around any males plus I'm extremely scared of any physical intimacy).
But if I magically were to one day be in a relationship, then I'd definitely not keep my virginity a secret. I might hate myself but not to the point there I'd risk a horrible first time experience. And neither should any of you, nobody deserves that. Plus the way a guy reacts to you telling him that is also a good indicator of whether he's even worth it: he should neither be too enthusiastic in a fetishy way nor mocking you like an immature jerk.
My parents obviously know that I'm a virgin but my friends simply assumed it must have happened somewhen. I've been pretending to have experience for years already, it's not a big deal, you don't need to let anybody know unless you plan to be intimate with them.
No. 547800
>>547787Me too, never posted as well but I enjoyed lurking there.
Will they bring it back?
No. 547812
>>547762i'm glad they're gone and hopefully they'll never come back because the amount of retardation and newfagging was absolutely annoying as fuck
also the insults people used in there for groups were so fucking cringy and kindergarten-tier
>btshit>nctshitty>shit pinketc
like what's next? meanie headie jimin? popo caca yuta?
No. 547900
>>547812As someone who lurked through there a ton, I felt like those nicknames weren’t commonly used by most posters. Just one or two persistent anons.
Anyway, I appreciated the threads for being a space where people can discuss shit away from stan Twitter types, but many such stan Twitter types and newfriends found their way to the more recent threads. The threads also had a tendency to devolve into inane nitpicking far too often.
No. 547968
>>547967Seriously, you'd be surprised at how many people do this. Almost everyone I've met in my life has admitted at some point that they do it to some extent. They might have a list of people they check up on for entertainment to make fun of them with their friends, or they might have only one person they track. I've had multiple of these people that I've never interacted in my life but find some perverse enjoyment in following their life in their own personal reality TV show. They'd probably be creeped the fuck out if they knew I had been keeping track of them for years and laughing at them with my friends but honestly if you're willing to post about your life to the whole internet you really need to be prepared for that to happen. It's also taught me to be a lot more careful about what I post on social media because I'm pretty sure I have a fair amount of "stalkers" like that myself.
Anyway as long as you don't fuck with them like send malicious anonymous hate messages just to create drama or get too obsessive with it I think it's a somewhat harmless past time. It's interesting to analyze the situation and discuss it like it was a written drama or a stimulating mystery to be solved when you track down someone's alt account. And most importantly, it helps you appreciate not being a complete trainwreck when someone else is putting their crazy out in the open.
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>>547984that's really cute and i love you
No. 547995
>>547976If it makes you feel any better anon I finally graduated last December after 6 years and extreme depression, only to have my degree taken away a month later because they found that one singular core credit I had was a C- and not a regular C and therefore didn't count. I'm now technically graduating in the summer cause of 'rona and not being able to get into a class this Spring. Also this credit had absolutely nothing to do with my major and they wouldn't just let up even though it's such a stupid technicality.
It's a rough journey and it sucks to feel behind, trust me that's exactly how I feel, but it's still good that you got it.
No. 548009
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>>548008Congrats, anon! I'm proud of you.
No. 548062
>>548059Uh no? There is no "weird logic", all I said was I don't find one of my good friends pretty. People around me have said she is really cute and I just lie and agree. You don't need to find your friends attractive but she thinks that I think she's pretty but that's not true. I hope she never says something like "I feel so ugly today" or something cause I don't want to lie to her and say she isn't ugly even though I think she is.
This isn't a shocking confession I know but it's been on my mind.
No. 548129
>>547984Why do you make yourself go to this cursed place
>>548008Nicee
>>548098Can we ban "hi bpdchan" next since lolcow wanna go full no hurty feely mode
No. 548200
>>548022You reacted as my friends do every time, you just proved my point, thanks!
>>548028>>548039>>548042Thank you for understanding exactly what I meant. As I said, people like anon or my friends just make me try harder to archive my goals.
No. 548219
>>548207Nta but do you really feel the need to reply to the same post twice..two posts in a row
>I feel proud of my own decisionskek
No. 548286
>>548276To be really frank, sometimes I think the adults who are most introspective and realistic about their mental limitations would make for way better parents than the majority of "normal" adults who are selfish and unaware of their emotional and social neuroses. My parents were "normal" re: not formally diagnosed with anything, mom personally thought therapy was only for the drooling nuts-os and looked down on anyone else who went as crybabies and excuse makers. The truth was my parents were mentally incapable of childrearing due to their traumas, believing a baby would patch their marriage which I didn't, and not worrying about the environment I was raised in which was garbage due to all of the above.
Normies shouldn't be trusted. I mean isn't that what they always say anyway when people are capable of unspeakable things? That they never pegged the normie in question of being capable of such treacheries?
No. 548293
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I drew porn of underaged characters but like… when I was also underage. They were 14-16 and I when I made it I was also that age and idk I guess it's technically not weird but I still feel that way.
I never posted any of it either, just kept it to myself.
No. 548301
>>548253I have favorites and I've even developed a crush on some of them. The sad thing is that I only have one picture of each
>>548254I don’t make my own but the idea intrigues me. I’ve been morphing the most attractive faces together and would love to automate the process
>>548263>>548268>>548270How can you bully someone on an anonymous imageboard? Fucking lol. How are my ‘people’ different than your people anyway? It’s fictional but their world is still real
No. 548366
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>>548364it's normal for a teenager to draw this?
No. 548429
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>>548366bizarre artist porn is my favorite part of the internet. keep it up anon lmao i live for this kind of stuff. its not normal in the slightest but holy shit i love to laugh at it
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>>548369You’re funny anon.
Anyways the porn I drew was of a Homestuck ship that reminded me of my relationship at the time. It was all fluffy stuff, no weird fetishes or anything. I just liked projecting my first relationship onto the thing I was obsessed with during that period.
I still do this with other ships even though I’m an adult now because I’m probably on some spectrum No. 548590
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>>548551Tips on avoiding people like you in the dating pool?
No. 548700
>>548590There's always that one anon who loses her shit when she reads the cursed word
bisexual.
No. 548738
>>548725Same, and I know a few others with this issue also. Most of them have learning disabilities to some extent.
I forget I even have a problem because it's so rare that I don't just use the digital clock on my phone but I've had situations at work where customers asked me the time and I've just silently pointed at the clock, your method of saying you're short sighted is much better kek
No. 548815
>>548809the head bashing wasn't even meant literally, it's just the fact that they annoy me a lot and honestly what even is there to feel jealous about? them acting like some little widdle baby uwu i need a DADDY or i will die uwu i am bwoken baby doll angel nympho trauma ptsd angel uwu?
they all just annoy me, that's it
it's not that deep and has nothing to do with feminism or whatever, they're just very annoying and are all the same copy paste of each other and lack any creativity when it comes to being themselves so they either gotta act like some e-girl to look unique or suffer
No. 548835
>>548831Please let this be bait.
On the off chance that it isn't, why are you like this? Did something happen to you when you were a child to make you want to hurt your own sibling? I don't understand at all.
No. 548865
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Before I introduce my bf to my friends I thought it would be a funny ruse between us if we played like he was asian. He's a slightly olive-ish pale skinned Italian and his eyes are narrow and his hair is black and pin straight as is his facial hair.
Thought it might be cute to give him a man bun and kimono to wear but lmao.
No. 548869
>>548795This. A lot of girls genuinely enjoy the "uwu kawaii" aesthetic out of their own will and not to attract male orbiters. I'm really hoping that the unhinged sperg anon is baiting because it's just another form of NLOGism where they think all other asleep bitches are just licking male boots with everything they do.
>how dare this slut like cute anime girls and sanrio characters designed to appeal to women, doesn't she realize she should be reading feminist literature from the 1960's instead???? what a dumb cuntSeriously. Save the hatred for thots and their who actually shit talk women and push each other down for simp approval. Your hostility towards other women just living their lives does no good for any of us.
No. 548874
>>548795>>548819>>548869I agree with you, anons. It's literally incel logic.
>Girls can't possibly like cute things or anime! That's obvious pandering to men!News flash: Men don't care about Sanrio, husbandos or girly pink aesthetics. They just don't.
If it was all about pandering to men, they'd just dress like a typical IG thot/Kardashian, maybe with a cosplay of whatever flavor of the month character every once in a while, or a pink wig.
Women can be cringy weebs with tacky interests as well, and they can like things you don't like, get over it. Just because your world might revolve around whether or not men are looking at you doesn't mean the same is true for everyone else.
Generally, people just need to let girls enjoy things in peace. There's always some bitter sperg (male or female) who needs to find a problem with it.
No. 548884
>>548789get therapy you fucking sperg.
I bet the other 2 or 3 posts hating on sAnRiO bItChEs also were written by you
No. 548888
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The only reason why I started working out and losing weight is so that I can wear stuff like this and look like a 2016 grunge tumblr bitch who missed the bus to 2020
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>>549352if you mean the naruto, sasuke, deku, etc aka all those 16-17 year olds in the husbando thread then you need to stop getting your panties in a twist
obviously can't talk for the waifu thread but i'm on the husbando one 24/7 and have no idea whatever the fuck you're talking about with the "half naked kids"
No. 549411
>>549397jokes on you dumbass-chan,i've only been posting for a couple months. it's almost as if it's normal and common to hate people who jerk off to children. go fuck your bodypillows
>>549399>>549363i'm not about to air my life on lolcow of all places but if you haven't personally dealt with being sexualized and abused as a child then don't piss your pants over me complaining about it. i
have helped children who've been raped, molested, etc. and a surprising amount of them were groomed using your fictional lolis. sorry i said lusting after kids—oops, ~teenagers~—with their dicks pressing up against their pants was bad if you're old enough to be their mother (and i guarantee none of the anons posting are anywhere near his age).
why are you all so bent over me saying it anyways? what's the matter? legitimately asking, why does it bother you so much?
No. 549416
>>549411i'm really sorry about your situation. tbh i wasn't aware that the green haired boy was a kid (he was so muscular that i just assumed he was in his early 20s). i'm aware that pedos use loli stuff to groom their
victims, but idk, i think you can clearly see that they are children in lolicon art? meanwhile basically all guys in that thread look like buff, older men.
No. 549420
>>549411No opinion on the husbando/waifu thread, but I checked them both just to see what the controversy was about, and there wasn't really anything weird, no dicks pressed against pants or whatever. Maybe I'm just blind, but can you actually give examples of what you're talking about?
>(and i guarantee none of the anons posting are anywhere near his age).Anon, you do realize this site is most frequented by people from the ages of like 15-24, right? We have a few middle-aged anons, but it's very much a teen/young adult space. Even some of the current staff is only
just hitting their 20s, if not younger, lmao.
This is definitely not a site for aged, mature individuals. People here actually care about webtoons, kek.
No. 549422
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>>549420nta, but i think she got angry cuz of this.
No. 549423
>>549417not a newfag, i've been lurking for years but only recently begun posting. not everyone with different opinions is new lol
>>549416it's really hard to tell with most of them because, like you said, they're so grossly muscular you wouldn't recognize them unless you've seen the media itself. it just makes me feel disgusting seeing people flaunt that kind of art around. i do think i was a little rude in my original post, i don't want the anons to suffer like that (i don't even know them/what they've been through), but i was really upset and coming down from an episode so i wasn't really thinking. thanks for being understanding, at least
>>549420there's a picture of a teenager (green hair, it's up a bit in the thread) with a visible outline of his dick. no pornography, but still enough to make me physically sick. i'm not stupid enough to insist he has rights, he's not real, but it's not him this is affecting. i'm not trying to protect a fictional character from the mean ol artist, it just hurt me, a real person. just as you're allowed to criticize me for it, i'm allowed to complain
i've been here since i was 15, i know that nobody follows the 18+ rule, but i've read so many blogposts from middle-aged moms on here that it all blends together. probably should've left that out but it's too late now
and to the anon posting deku in the thread (like his face
triggers me or something?), how about to "really" celebrate me, just post straight up child porn since you want to so badly? "anger fit" lmao
No. 549424
Bbbut Jotaro is only 17 you pedophiles
>>549423>lewd art may as well be child porn Lollll kill yourself, Deku is number one hero. He’ can arrest me himself sweaty.
No. 549427
>>549424explain to me how drawing a teenager who isn't even 17 yet (and who's depicted as 15 in most art) in sexual situations is a good thing? you still haven't answered why you're so asshurt about it either, weeb-chan. sorry i hurt your fragile feelings
also
> using sweaty in 2020your brain must be bulging
No. 549440
>>549435If you have to tell people that a very adult looking (fictional) person is actually only 16 then those people are not literal pedos jerking of to literal children, jesus…
How do you live if that's enough to
trigger you into wishing death onto them? There's actual evil people out there, anime fangirls posting on lc aren't amongst them.
No. 549441
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Am I being baited into posting MHA content???
>>549435Fuck your trauma bitch. Go to therapy.
No. 549456
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I feel so guilty for being aroused by those videos of women's sports. You know the ones where female athletes with peak performance bodies compete in attires where their whole ass hangs out… These are fucking literal giga stacy's but it just feels like I'm objectifying them. They're just there to do sports while the millions of views these videos get are entirely by dudes unabashedly with dick in hand.
And like, why are the footages so weirdly male-gazey? Why are they competing in literal bikinis when male counterparts wear a tank top and shorts? Why are many of them wearing a full face of make up??I may be a sedentary lib-artsfag but is all this normal to women's sports?
The worst part is that I'm still lusty as hell.
No. 549462
>>549456>And like, why are the footages so weirdly male-gazey? Why are they competing in literal bikinis when male counterparts wear a tank top and shorts? Why are many of them wearing a full face of make up??IMO, it's done on purpose to bring attention to an already very overlooked field (women's sports). They're basically trying to get the most out of raw sex appeal and the male gaze.
It's sad that this is what it's come to, but yeah.
No. 549492
>>549411>seriously outing yourself as a complete newfagNo wonder moral policing and overall teenage faggotry has been on the rise on lolcow recently, I can't wait until the lockdown and summer is over so these stupid fucks go back to school
anyway fuck off back to twitter and take your stupid trauma with you, literally nobody cares about you blogposting about your personal issues. if you're unhinged enough to wish death on people over cartoons then you need to put on meds right away
No. 549511
>>549502Nope, I never really watched porn. I hate it because I've read what women who've been in porn, including those who've 'made a career out of it', have to say (spoiler alert: they were abused and violated constantly).
I've also read plenty of studies that prove what a negative effect it has on people who watch it. Men who are exposed to porn hate women more, think we want to get raped, etc. Basically, every misogynistic thought men have is exacerbated and heightened by porn. Not to mention how porn addiction affects their sex lives - death grip that ruins their ability to enjoy it, or fucked up fetishes that ruin their partners enjoyment of it.
A woman knowing all this and still watching or endorsing watching porn is peak self hatred.
No. 549519
>>549495>industry fucks some people over>someTry most
>plenty of women have made legitimate careers out of itCareer sure, legitimate? Not really. How many porn stars have enough clout and legitimacy to move on from it like Riley Reid or Sasha Grey? Even those girls only get featured on Z-list radio and B movies at best. Most are used and discarded, no one knows if they're dead or alive. Do you ever wonder why the most popular porn stars always retire asap, even though they have a cult-like following? Why don't they keep doing it if it's such a viable and legitimate career.
No. 549525
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>>549495Hey as long as you get to nut once in awhile at the expense of women and boys, nuthin wrong wit it
No. 549533
>>549495Porn being a disgusting industry that you're sweeping under the rug aside:
>i literally tell my boyfriend to watch porn all the time Imagine being a proud cuckquean. I'm sure you've already rationalized this in your own mind, anon, but I'm just wondering: Do you think your boyfriend would, in his right mind, encourage you to look at other men's penises to boost your sex drive (or to do so on the rare occasion that you want sex, but he doesn't feel like it)? Would you find it respectable and sensible if he did do that? Would that sort of behavior make him seem any more attractive to you?
I don't understand how that sort of thing isn't far, far more pathetic than not wanting your SO to be a cumbrain. It seems like a massive cope.
No. 549560
>>549411>I tell people…to kill themselves…to cope?????Newsflash, pearl clutcher, I've also been sexually abused and have also helped kids who went through the same shit that I did. The only reason why I'm bringing it up is because you and every asshole like you believe that our trauma is some kind of thought-terminating trump card to silence anyone who doesn't agree with you telling them to kill themselves over drawings.
You people blame artists who've done everything in their power to tag and warn everyone about content, instead of educating kids on what spaces they don't belong in.
I know the difference between actual sexual abuse and when a drawing is just a drawing because I'm not so terminally online that I don't go out and experience reality.
Don't act like you didn't roll up in this thread, completely ass ravaged, and then try to play it off like everyone else is the problem. You exist as a problem.
No. 549602
>>549582Omg anon same. I’m super critical of low income people who decide to have kids. Do they not understand how much kids cost to raise? Do they think it’s ethical to bring them into this life so far behind in an already difficult game?
Once I read a post about a little girl who went viral for asking for luxury brands for Christmas and one of the comments was like “Wow, my parents could never afford heat during Christmas and I was lucky if I even had a blanket to sleep under! Spoiled rotten kid.” Uhh congrats on your mom deciding to birth you in such an environment before spending the time and money it takes to raise a kid on getting her ducks in a row?
No. 549874
>>549824He is funny. He might be a pile of shit in some aspects, but those parts are also what kind of make him funny (not the racist parts obviously)
He has a large personality, and there’s a reason why he’s so big.
You’re not dumb!
No. 549880
>>549837>I really don't like those that act all high and mighty on twitter for not liking anime or some dumb shit, then retweets weird fetish art.This is what especially annoys me about furries. They're stanning anthropomorphic animals that look like cereal mascots or kids' cartoon characters and 80% of the time their life revolves around some weird fetish yet lack self awareness enough to shit talk weebs and other nerds who are often far more well-adjusted than their degenerate asses. At least weebs can range from semi-normie DBZ fans to the deeper end nutcases but furries are
always all or nothing, whether they're autistic diaperfurs or those wolf shirt wearing otherkin faggots.
From my experience they also have a huge problem with drugs, sexual harassment and child grooming. Even bronies are tame compared to most furries. The only people I can sort of excuse are the people who just draw animal characters and don't interact with the community at all like the author of Lackadaisy who iirc openly despised it and doesn't identify as a furry artist.
No. 549940
>>549880Bronies are dead nowadays, that's why they seem tame, but I remember that in their prime in 2012 or so, they were pretty open with their weird antics. I think that furries are better at hiding their deviancy since it's a much older fandom.
The author of Lackadaisy is indeed not a furry, but she's mainly, if not only, invited to furry cons (although high-end ones), so either she does not despite them, or she does but she takes their money anyway.
No. 549985
>>549937have radical beliefs of any kind is a cause for concern. this board is
toxic as hell. don't let anyone convince you otherwise
No. 549993
>>549937>>549985The "radical" belief that there have been 1000's of years of female oppression?
From the physical like Chinese foot-binding, to the biological shaming of menstrual huts, to the child brides, to FGM, to being considered an inferior being based all Abrahamic religions and certain "objective philosophies", to restricting a woman to the domestic sphere via repeated pregnancies (look up Anita Tolstoy, wife of Leo Tolstoy).
I didn't learn most of these things from lolcow – but this was the first place that exposed me to "gender critical" ideas. There are quite a few Tumblr blogs that provide many links and studies. Changed my mind on a lot of things. For one, I was porn-neutral in early 2019, but I'm definitely anti-porn now.
I'm not the biggest fan of people who respond to every argument with "muh muh kill all males". But when you look at all of the information and receive the same insults from "anti-TERFs", I can't necessarily blame them.
I don't have a Tumblr – I just lurk. Most of my family is conservative, most of my friends are liberal, so I don't talk to anyone about this in-person.
Sorry for ranting. I wouldn't label myself a radical feminist, but I'm obviously leaning. After reading "Who Cooked The Last Supper?" and "Why Does He Do That?", I've resigned myself to not having expectations when it comes to getting into a relationship with a man. It's kind of freeing, not to have that expectation on you.
No. 549998
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>>549524thanks for the implication that i have no agency or ability to formulate my own opinions, and that my views on porn are nothing other than indoctrination due to my being female. i bet you've been able to persuade absolutely zero people with an IQ above 80 with that approach. keep up the good work.
>>549511>A woman knowing all this and still watching or endorsing watching porn is peak self hatred.this statement seems to imply that because a person is female, they're by default supposed to be somehow more morally outraged by bad things happening to other females, as opposed to, like, any fucking bad thing that happens to any person. if anything, this just shows a general lack of empathy to any form of suffering that isn't your own, or is unlikely to happen to you. i don't see bad things happening to a woman and think to myself "oh wow, that's so sad, that could be MEEEEE," i think, "oh wow, that's so sad."
is having empathy for people outside of those whose experience you most closely resemble really so extreme? i'd like to hope that it isn't, and that a lot of you are just really young, but who knows.
>>549533i tell my bf to watch porn because i feel bad that i'm chronically depressed and not in the mood to fuck him as much as he wants me to. ironically, he isn't even a big fan of porn and would rather be fucking me. we've had this discussion a dozen times.
equating watching porn with being a cuckquean is too retarded to even warrant a serious rebuttal.
>>549519you raised some good points here. gj at being the only response to my post that didn't launch into personal attacks and hypocritical attempts at trying to seem like you were somehow a better person than me, when we're all posting on this fucking board of all places.
>>549550it's not bait. issues with the porn industry aside, this genuinely does show a lack of trust and faith your their partners. trying to have absolute control over what your partner does or does not do is objectively not healthy or okay. this is not a normal relationship dynamic.
if your boyfriend wants to watch porn and you're not okay with it, you need to break up with him. implementing a no porn policy is not strong or admirable. you're still a doormat to your boyfriend's needs. trying to control his behavior is just a pathetic attempt to assert dominance in a situation in which you clearly don't believe you have any.
>>549569gee, you're not mad at all
No. 550020
>>549994It’s been around for ages and used to just be called feminism… obviously a lot of women identified with and felt empowered by it in parts or in full. It’s the last time feminism still had the spirits of the women who actually rocked the boat and gave us meaningful changes. Twitter feminism is so cluttered with nonsensical virtue signaling, one-upping and undemocratic groupthink. Maybe if it wasn’t so debased and claustrophobic, there wouldn’t be a phenomenon of young women searching for something else to believe in.
>>550007Sure. The main problem you brought up is muh communities and online sperging (how is that unique for any political group).
No. 550061
>>550058>most women who aren't white americans are radfemsthis HAS to be a joke….there's no way you are this tone deaf. White American women are literally the
only people who are radfems (and the only people who it aims to help). I can't believe you would genuinely say this as if this is not one of radical feminisms biggest problems.
No. 550071
>>550069>>550066>>550063>>550061You're all implying that these women believe in the american brand of rf and that's not very intersectional of you. They absolutely hold rf-adjacent beliefs, they can not afford to live lives with little to no contact with men or be outspoken about it like a western radfem would suggest. Just because you don't see them sperging in english online doesn't mean it's not a thing talked about between mothers and sisters. But hey whatever helps you sleep at night.
t. knower
No. 550073
>>550071you prescribing their beliefs to be rad-fem
'adjacent' (whatever that means) when they do not identify as such because it suits your ideological agenda is insulting and condescending
No. 550074
>>549998first anon you're responding to, my response was pretty bitchy and thoughtless - i apologise for it. i understand your viewpoint, there's just a very nonchalant general attitude towards porn in the public and it's concerning. the cons of porn (on the side of both the consumer and the performers) heavily outweigh the supposed positives. it's very disheartening to see others call women insecure for not wanting their partner to masturbate to something as soulless and harmful as porn, it may be the case that they're insecure sometimes but other times it's out of concern or a (very understandable) discomfort.
porn is largely produced to appeal to straight men, so it's difficult to make a statement like "how would your boyfriend feel if you were jerking off to porn all the time" - they just won't care the same way because they tend to think it's hot for a woman to submit this way. they'd surely be uncomfortable/insecure if you were exclusively getting off to giant dicks or something though
No. 550081
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The TERFS left the imageboard and y'all are still talking about this shit.
No. 550090
>>550088>the execution of it is just nasty and almost too far goneI don't agree with this. I really feel like a lot of the anti-porn anons in this thread just focus on HD porn that the industry produces primarily for straight men. What about amateur porn that women and couples post themselves?
I think it's really shortsighted to believe that everyone who participates in porn is being coerced or abused. Some people genuinely get off on being watched.
No. 550095
>some /pol/tard went on tinder and called random girls tr00ns who then get all offendedNGL I find that thread funny asf
Apparently those comments of "omg blaire white is more feminine than me" weren't sincere
https://archive.4plebs.org/pol/thread/256091846/ No. 550096
>>550090What sort of psychic powers do you have that allows you to watch amateur porn and know for a fact that the people in it a) consented and b) enjoy being watched?
Like, obviously there must be some women who enjoy and want to be in porn. But there's no way to guarantee it, so why risk the health and safety of a majority of women for the sake of a tiny minority that may or may not exist? If the great big sacrifice of banning porn is that people who get off on posting amateur porn lose their fetish… well it's no great fucking loss, is it? How on earth does that compare to protecting the huge number of trafficked, abused and manipulated women who end up in porn?
Valuing masturbatory material over ending real suffering… the lack of empathy is astounding. God forbid people just masturbate to written or drawn porn, or their imagination or their partner. Easy access to the bodies of strangers takes priority, obviously.
No. 550099
>>550095Imagine hating trans people so much you are willing to shit on your own gender. Congrats.
>>550083KEK
No. 550101
>>550099I didn't shit on those girls?
Actually, I feel sorry for them, I'd be upset too if I was told I looked like a man
No. 550102
>>550096I don't disagree with the points you've brought up here, but I don't understand how you think that banning porn entirely is a better alternative to increasing regulation of the industry. Naked bodies are visually appealing. Watching people have sex and get off is not only arousing, but exciting, and some would even say it constitutes a form of artistic/self-expression. Exhibitionism is a real thing, and I'm skeptical that only a minority of people experience this. People are going to find a way to view and distribute pornographic material regardless of whether or not it's legally available, so you might as well just work to make the existing industry more ethical.
Porn itself is not the problem, it's the people who market and produce it.
No. 550103
Damn pornfaggots are gonna make me act like a pp anon
>>550102Fucking ban all men from producing porn then, is that more realistic to you??? They're ones creating the demand for loli gangbang
What makes you think that ethically sourced and produced porn is gonna deter non-ethical porn at all?
I don't think banning porn is a good idea either because moving it underground will just make people more likely to be exposed to the extra fucked up shit
The best course of action is ostracizing porn users, creating social pressure to shun porn usage, like with tobacco
Wtf I wish there were still containment threads for the radfems to argue with you idiots
No. 550107
>>550102Why do you need to watch other people engage in degenerate acts?
We should always be striving for higher ideals and virtues, both as a society and as an individual.
How are we to do that when we promote desires of the flesh and ultimately become consumed by them?
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>>550103>The best course of action is ostracizing porn users, creating social pressure to shun porn usage, like with tobacco>implying the use of ostracization is why people aren't smoking as much anymore>implying it has nothing to do with the fact that decades of evidence have shown that it causes cancer and can lead to death>implying that taxes on cigarettes haven't skyrocketed in recent years>implying the use of shaming as a tactic to get someone to stop doing something hasn't been shown to produce the exact opposite behaviorGee, I'm sure glad I wasted my time responding thoughtfully to your post just to have you tell me that the DARE method is the best way to tackle the porn problem. You sound like you have a really good grasp on basic human psychology.
No. 550110
>>550071>knowerkek
but no really, a huge proponent of most feminism is privilege, especially radical feminism. like
>>550073 said, holding some manner of radfem adjacent believes is totally different than identifying as one. not to mention, some aspects can basically only apply to middle/upper class women anyway.
No. 550111
>>550108Nice try there are plenty studies about negative effects of being coomer, physically and mentally and yes societal pressure did play a part in lessening smoking as well as other socially retarded behaviors
Do continue
No. 550115
>>550111anon, societal pressure didn't do shit to affect the actions of the people smoking. pressure needs to be towards law makers. if shaming the individual worked on smoking even, we wouldn't have had the need to
pass laws against public smoking in restaurants and bars and the like in the 90s and early 00s. and less people smoke now because the media was shamed/pressured into not being pro-smoking, which lessened people smoking, not do to social stigma, but due to a lack of appeal. people need hand holding to show something is bad or not, they don't make their own choices.
No. 550121
>>5501141. Make argument
2. Call disagreement emotional instability
3. ??
4. Win
>>550115All of that still denotes social pressure anon
No. 550126
>>549998>i tell my bf to watch porn because i feel bad that i'm chronically depressed and not in the mood to fuck him as much as he wants me to.How does that solve the problem? Unironically, how is your relationship and overall life improved by telling your boyfriend to jerk off while staring at other women getting fucked and fantasizing about them? Do you feel good, or like it's healthy?
I'm also curious: What exactly renders him so incapable of masturbating to you? Is his brain so porn-rotted that he's lost the ability to actually fantasize about you anymore (and I'm assuming you don't take nudes, or he's decided that your body is "boring" now and you somehow thought that was normal and not insulting), or is this some Shoe0nHead "Sometimes, a king deserves another slave uwu"/"I feel guilty over my uncontrollable mental illness and have low self-esteem, so I offer you another bitch in my stead, dear good sir" shit? This is just pathetic, no matter how I look at it.
It makes no sense, and it doesn't even sound like he prefers it, so who exactly is winning? It seems like you hate yourself a lot, and the solution isn't going on Lolcow to call other women insecure and pathetic for not being at your level, anon.
>no answers to any of the questions about if the situation was reversed, just "n-no i'm not a cuckquean that's retarded"Thanks, now I know what's up. I'm sure he respects you for this strong, empowered 21st century behavior.
No. 550127
>>550123
>How does that solve the problem? Unironically, how is your relationship and overall life improved by telling your boyfriend to jerk off while staring at other women getting fucked and fantasizing about them? Do you feel good, or like it's healthy?it isn't, but i care about him and want him to satisfy his sexual impulses, even if i'm not in the mood. like i said, he's not that interested in porn these days, and often just masturbates using his imagination.
i'm genuinely indifferent to my boyfriend watching porn on occasion. i'm not threatened by porn stars. i don't suffer from poor body image. i don't know why that's so difficult for you to grasp.
>I'm sure he respects you for this strong, empowered 21st century behavior.i have no doubt in my mind that my boyfriend respects me, actually. not all of us are dating assholes.
>>550126christ, lmao. your initial post was fine. all this extra projecting and assumptions about me and my relationship just makes you look insecure and about 10x more mad.
No. 550128
>>550124I think to make a law successfully passed and enforced we need general public support and awareness somewhat established prior
Maybe everyone is getting hung up on the word "shaming" like you don't have to call coomers retarded failed abortions if you don't want to
We just shouldn't coddle them and lie that it's normal and healthy and everyone does it
Weird how fragile porn users are when they're calling people insecure and feminazi for not participating
There's such a disconnect where they may acknowledge that the industry is insidious and how they do think it needs to change fundamentally AND YET they feel no personal responsibility for continuing consuming its products as is
How is it not worthy of shame
No. 550130
>>550127>projection and assumptionsI mean, I thankfully don't relate to your situation, kek. I respect myself, and am dating someone who's not a coomer.
I was genuinely curious about why he couldn't just jerk off to you, so I asked, but now you sound even more like you're on cope-mode. You shouldn't even have responded if your only real thing to say was "Porn stars don't threaten me!". Like, cool. Does that make this a healthy, good thing, though?
>like i said, he's not that interested in porn these days, and often just masturbates using his imagination.And yet, you tried to brag about how you tell him to watch porn "all the time". Now, it's not even that common. So, you either want him to do it and actively encourage him (which is very weird and cringy), or you're backtracking since you realize now that this shit is embarrassing.
Anyway, mental health and therapy is better than the weird shit you're posting here and trying to defend. I'm not sure what you're gaining from trying to convince us it's cool, honestly, since no one here asked.
No. 550132
>>550128you're again, missing the point. the awareness and public push comes from the people
not involved in the action pushing the people
responsible.
No. 550138
>>550129Once again you don't have to "shame" your bf if you don't want to, you can buy them dinner and lube them up to it, whatever
I never said systematic change will occur solely by being meaaan, I personally shit on coomers because I hate them
But not sugarcoating and quietly tolerating degeneracy will at least give the smarter ones a chance to reflect and research privately
Also I've seen plenty of behavioral dissuasion ushered by societal pressure on actions that aren't legally described like (sorry) microaggressions
>>550132I disagree, public awareness and protest often are the push for legal changes upon the shit peddling party
I think in a democracy change makes law as much as laws make change
No. 550140
>>550130>I respect myself, and am dating someone who's not a coomer.good for you. i'm not either, as i've already stated numerous times. my boyfriend masturbates a normal amount. he is not addicted to masturbation. this is yet another assumption on your part.
>I was genuinely curious about why he couldn't just jerk off to youi'm not sure what you mean by this. like, does he jerk off to nudes of me? images of me? he masturbates to me, yes, by using his imagination. i guess i should have made that more clear, but figured it was at least implied.
>"Porn stars don't threaten me!". Like, cool. Does that make this a healthy, good thing, though?i've got enough problems without the added stress of jealousy over my boyfriend occasionally looking at naked women that aren't me. is that objectively healthy? i'm not sure. is it good? i'd say yes, mostly because i simply don't need any extra stress in my life right now.
>And yet, you tried to brag about how you tell him to watch porn "all the time". Now, it's not even that common. So, you either want him to do it and actively encourage him (which is very weird and cringy), or you're backtracking since you realize now that this shit is embarrassing."all the time" was a an exaggeration, admittedly. if he were watching porn all the time, that would actually be a problem.
when i'm not depressed, i have a very high sex drive, which more closely matches his. this might be a personal trait that contributes to why i encourage him to watch porn when i can't satisfy. i know that i would still want to get off if i were in his shoes.
>Anyway, mental health and therapy is better than the weird shit you're posting here and trying to defend.i could make the same argument for your incessant need to pointlessly attack and shame me for having an opinion that you don't like.
>I'm not sure what you're gaining from trying to convince us it's cool, honestly, since no one here asked.it's a confessions thread…nobody needed to ask, lmao. what a pointless thing to say. i posted it because being a woman who doesn't think watching porn is a big deal is somewhat controversial, and it's not something i've ever admitted openly. it was cathartic, i suppose.
No. 550144
>>550140Not gonna lie. I don't really feel like reading all this, but I'd feel weird about not replying after you typed this much, so I'll just say good luck, anon.
I'm sure there are far better options than telling your boyfriend to watch other women spread their cheeks because you're depressed and indifferent, then going on LC to declare that other women
not doing so is actually what's negative. It just screams "cuck" to me on principle, and I don't think I'm alone in that. Godspeed.
No. 550146
>>550143The thing with porn is guys never practice what they preach.
They can watch porn but let their gf say a male celebrity is cute or follow a guy on Instagram, they will lose their shit.
No. 550148
>>550140NTA but sorry girl porn rots your brain
i've watched it a lot and it's not something that should be encouraged
tell your bf to stop before he falls deeper into the degeneracy hole
No. 550150
>>550143calling it pathetic may have been a bit harsh, but it IS indicative insecurities. if your partner won't compromise with you on a deeply held value (ie: no porn), then the two of you aren't compatible and the relationship isn't going to last. trying to implement a no porn policy just reeks of desperation, and it's not even going to work if the other person doesn't feel the same. not to mention that, again, watching porn in moderation, like most things, is not a big deal.
>>550144i genuinely don't care what you think of me. the fact that you continue to delude yourself into believing that you have any right to judge me when we're both wasting our time on a fucking gossip board of all places, is hysterical. maybe some day you'll realize that, and what an absolute hypocrite you are. better yet, maybe someday you'll gain some real self-worth and leave this place. i wish you luck as well.
>>550148okay, i'll bite. show me evidence that watching porn IN MODERATION is enough to "rot your brain."
No. 550151
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>>550150>i genuinely don't care what you think of me […]Okay. Hope you get better soon. Not sure why you typed even more, but I saw the word "hysterical", so I figure you're just lashing out some more.
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>>550151>"i don't know why you typed even more">keeps responding to me anyway>"i figured you're just lashing out some more">is the one who lashed out at me in the first placeaww anon, I thought you said you respected yourself? surely you have better things to do than to continue responding to a loss cause like me?
No. 550157
>>550155You sound…very irate, even though you said you didn't care. Did you want to reply to me, but also have me not respond? It probably would've helped if you had stated that first, all things considered.
I don't think anyone's a "lost cause", I wished you good luck. I don't think anyone deserves to be in the situation you described, and I'm sincere in that.
Do you want the last word or something? I won't stop you.
>>550156Yeah, you're right, sorry.
No. 550176
>>550150what do you want me to? link you to all the studies appointing to that?
as you've said, your bf jerks off a lot and it may cause tiredness and indisposition for the rest of the day
and like he soon won't be satisfied with the vanilla shit either it's just a matter of time
No. 550277
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>>550275>writing a paragraph angrily defending porn to revive an old discussion the farmhand already said to dropWhy do coomers do this? What's wrong with them?
No. 550281
>>550277It was blatantly all about big fat ego, not ethics.
>angrilyprojecc
(move on) No. 550284
>>550281Nah, this was pretty angry:
>You think that other anon is sad? lmao Please go kvetch more about not owning your partners' sexuality.Unsolved personal issues vibes
No. 550288
>>550283This. It'd be nice if most people who watched streamers were just girls who wanted to chat and make friends.
"Fuckboi" would be if there was some sexual expectation involved.
No. 550289
>>550287mope,
gnash more tho
(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE) No. 550290
>>550289projecc
>>550274Have you tried talking it out with him, and does he know about the past abuse? You don't have anything to be ashamed of, you just need to find a way to set boundaries.
(move on) No. 550434
This is kind of too long for me to summarize neatly, but I'm dying to talk about it to an unbiased audience.
It's taken me a long time to look back on this clearly and accept it for what it was, but I was sexually and emotionally abused by my closest female friend for 4-5 years. Our friendship was messed up and codependent from the start because I met her after I moved from LA to the Midwest and we were some of the only "weird" people at our high school, so we became overly close very quickly. She became obsessive about me in a way that I didn't see until later. She has a truly huge social circle that spans several cities/states (via lolita and cosplay communities) and everyone who knows her understands that she's cold, selfish, and generally a bitch, but nobody really sees her as manipulative and abusive until they get close enough.
The first instance of her acting obsessive was in high school when she tricked me into getting in a car with her (I wasn't allowed to hang out with her so I had to lie), claiming we were just going to the local mall, and it wasn't until I noticed we were on the highway that she revealed we were going to another city hours away. My parents came to get me and I had to talk them down from calling the police. This kind of "trick" continued happening after I moved out for school–she would pick me up from my dorm and claim we were just hanging out at her house, and I would inevitably end up at some gross party, anime convention, or someone's apartment where she would get too drunk or busy hooking up with people to drive me home. I have a lot of repressed memories of waking up in random sketchy places with sketchy people. The smell of weed/vape smoke still makes me feel panicky for this reason, lol.
The sexual assault started when I left for university. She would often come to stay at my dorm and eventually started bringing me liquor. This turned into touching me and asking to hook up, and then I started letting her, and one day she asked me "why do you only let me do this when you're drunk?" and I guess that's when I realized she was taking advantage of me. I let it keep happening until one instance when she caused me physical pain/damage and as a result I felt extremely violated. If anyone is reading this I'm sure you're putting me at fault for letting it go on, or wondering why I didn't just cut ties. And I really don't know, my memories are foggy because I was extremely depressed and eating disordered (which she encouraged by calling me fat and inviting me to go throw up in the bathrooms with her whenever we went out together), and at the time I romanticized everything bad that happened to me–I thought depression wasn't real and sometimes even told myself, "if I want to be sad, I'll give myself real reason to cry." I guess at a certain point I also began to think that if I ended the friendship it would be "showing weakness" and letting her win. It was kind of a power trip to be with her at all, because she noticeably treated me better than all of her other friends and put me on a pedestal in front of them, for example giving me gifts and alcohol and not making me give her gas or hotel money like she did everyone else. It made me feel special, which obviously should've set off a red flag.
All of this peaked when I went to study abroad, and she came with me for the first week. She had a massive interest in the country so it wasn't like she was following me or anything, and I wasn't on high alert because I planned to ghost her once we were in different countries. On one of her last nights she invited me out to drink and I decided to go as my personal secret "goodbye" to her, by then I had become openly disdainful towards her and I figured I was safe. But she got the best of me again, coerced and tricked me into getting too drunk (physically forcing alcohol into my mouth at some points) and the last thing I remember is her ditching me at a convenience store with some guys we were with. I woke up in a disgusting motel room with one of them, and fortunately he was a nice enough guy that he helped me get home and seemed shocked when I used the word "rape." I don't want to go into detail about this but the drinking culture in that country really seems to enable men to think getting a girl unconscious and sleeping with her is normal, so I just tried to educate him and let it slide. Anyway, it was my fault for agreeing to go out or whatever. Of course, my female friend then pounced on this as another opportunity to manipulate me since we were now in a position where she was the only person I knew in a foreign country. She told me she was there for me and that she would do anything to help me, that I'm her best friend in the world, blah blah. Took no responsibility for leaving me with random local guys in a state where I could barely speak or stand.
So I guess my confession is that I still talk to this girl as if nothing was wrong, though I dodge her attempts to hang out. I still let her think she's one of my best friends but I hate her and I think I blame her for me getting raped, even if that's childish of me. I've only admitted this to my current boyfriend and her ex-gf, who has helped me deal with all of this as she went through similar experiences with her. Everyone in my life who knows this girl has begged me to cut ties with her, and my bf recently had a minor panic attack in front of me where he revealed that he was anxious about trust between us and that he knew I was still talking to her. I don't know why I can't cut her off. I'm scared of her, I don't want to deal with her questions if I ghost/block her, I feel like everything I just typed out was my own damn fault in the end so I'm just being a dramatic snowflake if I really think this girl brought harm to me. I don't want to "lose." I know she wouldn't agree with me if I told her how I experienced everything she did, so I wouldn't get any closure. But I love my boyfriend and her ex is one of my dearest friends, so I know I have to do this for them if not for myself. I just don't know how.
No. 550436
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Secret so bad I can't even tell my friends about it, so. I met someone off an imageboard a few weeks ago. We text and video call every single day, sometimes lewd. We already decided after quarantine is over that we would want a serious relationship together. House, kids, pets, the lot. He even asked me about engagement ring ideas (and I sent him a fucking spreadsheet bc I'm all about build-a-bachelor caring about what I want). Feels like I have a more special connection than usual because this person shares a lot of my values, we have a lot in common, and he's my type. I honestly think he's being serious and he just wants a ring on it quick cause he thinks I'm out of his league. I mean, I kind of want this too and don't feel like I'd be settling based on what he's offering me.
I tell myself all this is fine because it'll be months yet before we meet so it's not like he'll be a total stranger then. But he kinda is now? How can I tell my friends that some guy online already wants to buy me my dream engagement ring just because we talked for a few weeks? And wants a house and children with me? Or, I dunno, is this in fact normal for adult men to know so quickly what they want and don't play games about it? Why should I fucking care if some who wants to gamble with a $20k ring to bid for my affection, when almost 4 years of my life went to another man who never showed an iota of that display of commitment? Is what he wants not also what I want?
I don't know what the fuck to believe anymore. I can barely believe what reality is right now. Isn't this what I want?
No. 550460
>>550453I appreciate that anon, thank you.
>>550452You expect me to disagree with you anon but I actually think you're right. Until he proves all this, it's bullshit to me which is why it's such a sorry secret. Because I want it so bad but have been burned so much before to know that talk means shit.
You're probably right and in best case scenario he'll give me what I want but I'll fucking hate him. I'll update this later.
No. 550515
>>550453>But we sent each other our addresses, social media accountsoh yeah that made it so much safer. You don't know if you're dealing with a freak or not until after you've given them your vital information.
>>550436 be careful
No. 550519
>>550436RIP
nonny, she's gone
No. 550599
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>>550596Dropped pic. Posted because IB.
No. 550607
i've been in and out of therapy my whole life and it's always made me feel like there's something wrong with it. it all started because i was raised by not really active grandparents since my parents were never around and my mom was a drug addict. i never was told why i was put in therapy. then in middle school I just stopped talking to my therapists because it legitimately didn't help and all they did was upset me. after trying multiple therapists throughout my teen years, i was forcibly hospitalized due to a talk I had with my last therapist who was a new therapist, who completely fucked me over. that forced hospitalization gave me genuine trauma the only way I got out was by lying that I was OK, when the only reason I wasn't OK was because they hospitalized me to begin with. once I was out, I immediately told that therapist to go fuck himself for what he put me through. this experience solidified my distrust in therapists. i haven't seen one since and have solely been working with myself and the resources I have available to me to better my mental health on my own terms.
i'm happier than I've ever been, and almost all of my childhood trauma and learned bullshit I've managed to un-learn and unpack.
but the thing is, I have a suspicion I might have some repressed trauma from my childhood, before I was placed in therapy.
my family has always been filled with deadbeats and since I was hardly raised by my grandparents and they just left me in my room to rot on my laptop for the first decade of my life, apparently there were rumors in the family that I might've been molested or something by a family member or someone when I was younger. I wouldn't be surprised, since when my mom had me when I was very young, there were instances I'd be around drug users/apparently a story my aunt told me where she tried to trade me as an infant for drugs. i don't know the validity of this, but considering my own personal sexual trauma and sex issues that dates back as far as I can remember it, I wouldn't be surprised.
are there resources for unearthing repressed memories or unpacking sexual trauma that don't involve therapy or seeing a therapist? i don't want to re-traumatize myself or waste my time or money dealing with therapy when all of my dozens of efforts throughout the years have been useless or resulted in more trouble than it's worth. but repressed childhood memories have always been something i've wondered if I have.
No. 550612
>>550607You should be really careful about going searching for "repressed memories". You're just as likely to give yourself a false memory (
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/False_memory_syndrome). If nothing comes organically to you as a flashback, I wouldn't go digging. Memory is finecky af.
No. 550614
>>550607I think therapy is the only way of way of unearthing it tbh. I've always tapped out of therapy as soon as my childhood is brought up, hard to know whether it's worth opening pandoras box.
There's hypnosis that claims to bring back repressed memories but I've heard some real horror stories about it, people being further traumatized by the experience or the memories being completely false.
No. 550712
>>550689that's something i would do tbh
>>550691well, it's lolcow.farm after all
No. 550717
>>550716here we go again with
muh feminismgo back to twitter.
No. 550730
>>550729Why would it ruin their lives? Do e-whores really believe they can show their face online like a dumbass and stay hidden, in this day and age? If a person is smoking crack and someone tells their boss they're smoking crack, is it the crack smoking that's ruining their life or the snitching?
Also are you implying that slut and whore are bad words? Some are proud sluts and whores tyvm. That's not very feminist of you.
>pick me femcel>r9k radfembotSOmeone just learned a buncha new words kek
No. 550737
>>550735a lot of these kind of women who are against sex work because they're oh so concerned about the
victims well being call women whores or e-whores and have been doing it on lolcow for a while honestly
No. 550746
>>550745how is that cowtipping? op didn't specify that the sw was a lolcow. and honestly, this is the confession thread, idk why you're doing this again
>We do not judge here, we just confess.you're not going to get pussy here my dude, move on
No. 550748
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>>550743So you agree I'm using it perfectly in context. Imagine actually trying to argue that sex workers aren't whores…
>>550745Cowtipping only applies to cows posted here you flaming retard
No. 550860
>>550852This
>>550856 Feminism isn't synonym for being nice and unoffensive and ~love everyone~. I can subscribe to female liberation AND be a bitch. I can shit on anon or female cow here and still want her to enjoy patriarchy-free world. I have no obligation to love and support every individual woman, man, faggot or retard unconditionally and indiscriminately, who tf am I mother Theresa?
No. 550919
>>550689I get why you did it, it's self-serving because you want the bitch gone and you also believe her parents would be concerned enough with her activity to force her out of sex work.
What you don't seem to realize that most parents of sex workers are fucking garbage, deluded about their own parenting capabilities, and are in deep denial about it. Have you pissed the mommy off for having given her some lost face over her daughter's antics? Yeah probably, but shitty mommy still gonna be shitty tomorrow morning. Oh, you thought the girl's tweets were annoying? She likely gets it from her mom who is also probably very annoying.
I've never met a sex worker with well-adjusted parents. Sex work doesn't even register as an option to people who come from supportive family structures, people who know they have support at home don't even consider sex work because they literally don't have to. Sex work is a desperate ass choice, even the webcamming kind. It's just kind of…amusing that you think mommy is really gonna take any meaningful action about it.
No. 551202
>>551082there are degenerates everywhere, what are you specifically afraid of?
except for the surprise cp>>551082>reddit give me anxietybless your heart anon
No. 551326
>>551202>there are degenerates everywhereThat is true and I know this place also can get a bit
extreme sometimes, but at least it's not as bad as 4chan imo.
The surprise CP is also a point, but I really don't have a specific reason why. That place just absolutely creeps me out.
No. 551611
>>551523>>551079i agree with y'all. i mean, look at the wikipedia article with all of its controversies.
all those anons coming together and planning things to harm others financially or mentally and actually executing them is terrifying to me. they're not looking for fame or notoriety. they actually get lulz over people's suffering.
No. 551613
>>551602nta but because it feels good? it's disgusting to go out on the streets and not wash up before going to sleep
it's ok if you stayed at home all day tho
No. 551688
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>>551673Oh my god the pussy stank. Kinda on topic but my cousin never ever bathed as a child and it continued into highschool. My aunt defended it saying that it's okay not to shower in the summer and it's more important to shower in the winter? What the fuck! Then I learned of
her boyfriend giving her oral in her bedroom during highschool and I can promise you all she wasn't showering back then and her pussy must have stank.
I'm not talking a few days anons, I'm talking about weeks of not bathing. Once we went to out to a cafe together and I heard the baristas comment on us being smelly girls in our native language. Fuck that was humiliating. I wonder how her college roomates deal with it now.
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I wanna go back to being an edgy teen, I miss my edgy friends, I miss listening to Sisters of Mercy and Industrial goth, I miss goth fashion and I miss the lack of politics
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>>551778Listening to dark music on Youtube and soundcloud can get lonely after a while, I have no one to talk to cause goth and emo subcultures are dead
No. 551810
>>551715I think that's normal. I dont think you miss him as a person so much as you miss the positive memories you shared together. so even if things were mostly shitty or ended terribly you still had good moments with them that you wish you can experience again.
I had a terrible falling out with someone I considered a best friend and I decided to never speak to him again. I still think back on all the fun moments we shared and despite my hatred and distrust for him I miss the good shit. it gets easier as time goes by.
No. 552156
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I ghosted one friend of more than 10 years because I found her boring and inconvenient. She idealised me to the point she thought she was the best for me and she tried to protect me from everything bad happening in my life without realising that made me feel useless because I felt like she really thought I couldn’t solve my problems. She even told me this.
I kept my friendship with her just because she got me a job but when my contract ended I felt obliged to stay in contact with her. She always insisted me to meet up with her but when we did meet up, she was just plain boring, always searching an excuse to go home again and she was practically dependant on her bf’s schedule (even if they live together…she couldn’t stay with me for more than two hours after months of insisting because her bf finished work at 5pm and they had to see each other as everyday). Also we always had to meet up when she wanted to, if I offered some options (even when I didn’t want to), if she didn’t like that day, we wouldn’t see each other for more than one month.
Of course she asked me what was happening when I was distancing myself but I always found out an excuse to justify myself. When she said she missed me, I didn’t answer. I didn’t wish her a happy birthday. I blocked her from my social accounts even when I knew she could see me posting trough other people’s accounts.
At first I felt pretty bad because she doesn’t have many friends, she told me I was her only true friend and that she could be herself with me (the problem was I couldn’t be myself with her). Also her previous friends did the same I did: ghosted her and kept other friendships, not caring if she could see it.
I wish I could talk with her but I don’t want her in my life, to be honest. Also what would I tell her? I don’t love her. I don’t like her. I don’t want her as a friend. Truth is if she didn’t get me a job, we would have lost contact a long time ago. When we reconnected again I thought we could have a healthy friendship but she seems so different from the people I want to spend time with. “Sorry I don’t think you’re interesting? You did nothing wrong, you did more than you should, you’re just too much?” That’s just mean…She would feel guilty anyways, I know she’s getting paranoid because of me but the truth just seems harder to digest. How can I blame someone just because I found them boring?
I feel like an asshole because I wish I could appreciate her as she wants me to or how she deserves but it would be fake. If you feel forced to meet up with people or to keep conversations, it isn’t meant to last.
I feel like an asshole because I know I used her just because of the job, I’m grateful for that but I can’t force myself to like her.
No. 552182
>>552156I had a similar situation with a former friend. She didn't idealize me or anything, but she was very nice. Unfortunately, she's just not that fun to hang out with. She never wanted to do anything other than meet up for coffee or lunch, and was always complaining about her job. Always the same complaints. Being a nurse is hard, she blames herself for everything that goes wrong, etc. We also had like nothing else in common, so I felt obligated to just find things about my life to complain about as well.
So yeah, I basically ghosted someone who was never anything other than nice to me, but too boring to justify continuing to hang out with. I still kinda feel bad about it.
No. 552189
>>552186I already said I feel bad, and never claimed that I wasn't an asshole. That being said, it's pretty pointless to continue hanging out with someone whose company you don't appreciate. In my case, compatibility was a big problem, and I think both of our times would be better spent hanging out with people we each had more in common with. Just because I found her boring doesn't mean someone else would. For all I know, she could have thought I was boring too.
>because you are objectively in these scenarioswhat does this even mean?
No. 552194
>>552182>I basically ghosted someone who was never anything other than nice to me, but too boring to justify continuing to hang out with. I still kinda feel bad about it.It’s exactly like this. I feel bad because as I said she didn’t do anything bad, it’s just that we don’t connect at all but she thinks we do because I didn’t say anything…
>>552186Did we
trigger you anon? Lol, I said twice I feel like an asshole, other anon said she felt bad…what’s so hard to understand? It would be so much worse to profit my relationships with her just because I want to use her, wouldn’t it?
She’s boring. Life’s short. Why I should spend my free time with someone who acts like she needs me like the sun but the moment we are together can’t wait to see her boyfriend at all?
We got along when we were 15, not anymore, it’s not a big deal. She was without me for four years before, I’m sure I’m not that essential, she doesn’t know it yet.
I feel bad because I wish I could tell her this without hurting her but that’s impossible, no matter what I do or say, she will be hurt because she wants to be my bff and I don’t.
No. 552329
>>552327kf users are so autistic. All they do is write generic "this is a bad picture of [cow]
bleeding eye emoticon and get like 40 weird reactions on their post and jerk off over it
No. 552384
>>551990Me neither anon, I don't see what the problem is with people wanting to draw something they find attractive. The artist salt thread constantly shits on muh anime samefaces because art class 101 told them to but I fail to see what's so awful about them. I don't want to draw ugly people when I'm being self-indulgent. I get that it's "lazy" and "uninspired" but if the art is otherwise decent then who cares. The sameface insult is so often used as a whiny complaining point when there's nothing else to bitch about anyway
>>552327>The only good part of their threads are the detailed and long paragraphs summarizing the milk about the person on the first page, everything else turns to shit afterwardsThis is 100% true, I read the first post and then fuck off to avoid having to read 322 pages of blogposting, a-logging and armchairing
No. 552426
>>552421Jesus christ anon, don't put ideas in my head.
Totally forgot giving money to strangers was a thing. I once gave a guy from Australia money for a pizza and a bunch of randos discord nitro. Terrible.
No. 552507
>>552496Dragon dildos.
>>552499I can’t fathom how I used to enjoy sex with men lol. I had such a hard time getting off because I felt pressured to and men would complain that I take too long (while also doing… the bare minimum…) but now I can take as long as I fucking want and not feel self conscious about it.
No. 552646
>>552607It's not your fault if you have anxiety and I'm sorry about the stress it's causing you but it's still your responsibility to explain to people either in advance or during times where it's going to be a serious issue for them or manage people's expectations. Be an adult and send a short email explaining to your project partner that you will be in touch as soon as you can be.
I hope you feel better soon anon
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>>552615NO FUCKING JOKE there was just a shooting/attempted robbery on the idiots in the basement.
I am not wrong. I hate living here. This is a place where these guns are obviously illegal and these stupid fucktards still tote them around like toys. Canada might as well be the states sometimes, except for the fact that he was whisked away immediately to an ER for free.
No. 553078
>>553069i was just thinking about this a few minutes ago. i'm also terrified of being pregnant and giving birth. the thought of something growing inside of you and so drastically changing your body (not for the better) and making you feel like shit for a good 5-6 months, then you get to ruin your vagina or get cut open.
i'm terrified. i have a huge fear of needles and medical procedures and the only way i can even think of having a baby is through a natural birth. i do have an inner urge to have a baby and start a family, but the thought of being pregnant paralyzes me.
granted i'm no where near close to being in a point in my life where i would have a kid, so maybe my thoughts will change. when i'm in a committed relationship i'd look into therapy.
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Soulmates is such a cringy, made up teenager concept for many but the thought of someone being out there, who genuinely loves me for the way I am, who understands the person I am today and all the things I've been through, someone who does not judge and sees the good in me and I don't have to hide myself from, is just so comforting.
No. 553247
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I'm supposed to be fasting because you know Ramadan but I always secretly drink water whenever my family isn't around because fuck them I'm basically forced to do this
No. 553477
>>553247This is just so bizarre to me as someone who was raised secularly.
>>553100Shhh don’t be ashamed of this anon. I feel the same way. I’m a huge hopeless romantic.
Anyway, my confession is that
once i tried to see if i could bend my head far enough to eat myself out. im just really fucking weird and like how i smell. It didnt work btw No. 553523
>>553514Ah, so if we're
agreeable with whatever degeneracy in question it's fine then. Okay, so OP and mods didn't mean "no commentary," they actually meant no infight. Got it.
No. 553563
>>553561That's really interesting.
How did you even manage to join it in the first place? Did anyone recruit you into it? Or was it online?
No. 553565
>>553563It was a combination of things, my parents always viewed themselves as like ‘hippy’ types so when they wanted to move my school anyway we went to an information evening they had, and I think they were more receptive and less able to notice red flags than most people would be but they also strongly misled people about the intensity of it, they portrayed it as some casual thing that people just did once a day to make the school day more relaxing but when we joined things just became increasingly more intense very quickly, we had to pay hundreds of pounds for the entire family to learn the meditation technique (the entire family had to be involved even if they weren’t going to the school), they actually did it 3 times a day and would do other bizarre rituals like the younger kids had to pace around the playground in a trance like state for 20 mins a day (which probably looked really scary), we had to give offerings to the person who founded it, had classes devoted to these pseudoscience things like how we were literally solving the conflict in the Middle East by doing, it was an extremely small school, some grades had 0 kids in it, mine only had like 7 and before meditation people were recommended to tell the teacher If they noticed a classmate didn’t seem ‘involved’ so it created this extreme conformist culture, they would speak in an extremely dehumanising way about not practisers so people only interacted within the circle of people who were also part of the sect
No. 553770
>>553769Honestly the food is no problem for me, I can gladly go a day with no food. I just struggle a lot when it comes to water (and also doing it in secret because I don't even know what to say if I get caught).
Wishing you good luck!
No. 553771
>>553770Same about the food and water stuff. What really gets me is the intense Ramadan worship culture my family is pushing at me. I just can't deal with them forcing me to listen to retard Zakir Naik anymore.
Good luck to you too :)
No. 553786
>>553774I get your point and tbh growing up and getting raised by a bunch of extremely religious parents basically forcing their religion upon me as a child, going as far as forcing me to go to the mosque and making me have a "sleepover" there for so many months despite me crying and begging them not to, I'm not really fond of my religion. That and also the double standards are just so crazy at home. I've been fasting ever since I was around 13 and I would rather not do it at all. I cannot straight up tell them that I don't want to though, they'll literally get violent and accuse me of being a "Christian" and it's something I'd rather avoid. I'm also not allowed to sleep for that long either, I always get woken up by them when it's around 1-2pm, because apparently "someone who sleeps until Iftar while fasting isn't a real Muslim and your fasting isn't
valid" like what the fuck, I even read online if it's
valid and it says it is.
I'm also one thirsty and dehydrated bitch 24/7, I just NEED to drink.
Shamelessly cheating my way through Ramadan.
No. 553793
>>553786>>553247>>553275Good to see so many fellow heretics here lol, my parents were super strict but not really with religion. I feel like if I didn't have health issues while growing up my mother would have made us fast every time it's ramadan but I indirectly saved all my siblings and myself from that. I'm chilling abroad eating pork whenever the fuck I want and nobody can tell me anything about it until I go back home. Actually the most annoying people aren't even my family when it comes to religion, it's random fellow people from the north african diaspora. Bonus if they're men who drink, smoke and have sex out of wedlock all year long but call me a whore for eating like a normal person at noon.
>>553774>I've been fasting since I was 8Isn't that way too early? I thought girls were supposed to start fasting once they get their periods.
No. 553842
>>553798You probably haven't gained weight, you're probably just looking at yourself in the mirror a lot more because you have nothing else to do and it's possible that you've dropped some general muscle tone because you're not walking anywhere.
However, and I know that being ana means that your brain is going to distort this, almost everyone is getting out of shape right now. I think almost every woman I've spoken to over this lockdown has said that they think they've put on weight, or they're losing their muscle tone. Hardly any guys care, except one or two that complained about losing gains, but that's men for you.
You're not going to get a prize for being the only one that didn't change during a time of global lockdown.
No. 553871
Sometimes I get pretty envious of cows with parents who constantly defend them. Obviously they're cows precisely because they've been enabled by their parents, but there's a happy medium someplace where generally it's right for parents to be on the sides of their kids. Like the parents will be fair to them even if they are in the wrong. I like it when some parents encourage their baby cow's hobbies and push them to pursue hobby-related efforts, and actually participate in them with their kids.
I never got that treatment when I was a kid and I still don't really as an adult. I don't love my parents because of how they treat me. They have never defended me over anything, everything was (is?) mostly always my fault even when it wasn't. On the rare occasion they could admiss I wasn't at fault for something, they always had a criticism for me yet. Ex: Yes, I wasn't at fault but after all, I could've done x y and z differently. This especially happened when I was being bullied and I retaliated after it went on for months. My parents "ordered" me to not do anything as some bitch got to bully and harass me at school unfettered. I should've kicked her ass but I was terrified of my parent's consequences, cause heaven forbid should I have embarrassed them by getting into trouble at school. Oh, and my hobbies were ridiculous money sinks and time wasters according to them. To my mom the only worthy hobbies for me to have were cleaning(to help her), cooking(oh but I shouldn't cook any "gross" foodie stuff aka things I like–she likes her food "bland"), and doing her yardwork("Anon I'm doing YOU the favor, it's exercise!"). They often mispronounced the names of my hobbies despite multiple corrections, and made it so obvious that they looked down on me and were being patronizing. Usually the actual hobbies (not disguised as housework) they would suggest for me would be ones where they would potentially look good as parents and show off, like piano lessons even though I hated it. When I got older and they couldn't manipulate me into and out of hobbies anymore, they shamed me for not making money off them. Because how dare I spend MY money doing something I like? If they really cared about me monetizing my hobbies then they could've stepped in and micromanaged me, but they didn't even do that cause they had no idea what the fuck they were talking about. Guess they thought yelling "MAKE MONEY! MAKE MONEY!" over and over again is how people learn and start making money out of nothing.
Often I wish I had been born male just so their expectation that I be a servile maid with domestic interests that I could somehow make money from wouldn't have had to exist. They would've treated a boy so much better if the male worship in my family is to be believed.
As an adult this treatment has impacted me severely. I'll often overthink and take excessive blame for things in work or social situations because I'm so used to the finger being pointed at me anyway that I'm always expecting the worst. I feel guilty when I tell myself I'm not at fault for something because their voices are in my head still shaming me for the minutiae of shit I could have done better. I attract users and abusers because I excessively people please and wind up taking most blame in confrontations. If my hobbies require the expenditure of money it makes me sad, because I feel "wasteful" even though I know that's not true and my happiness is equally important as being responsible. Just wish I had been born to nicer people.
No. 553881
>>553866Unfortunately it's only temporary, I have to go back home way earlier than planned because of the pandemic, since plane tickets are super expensive now and I don't want to be stranded abroad if the situation gets worse.
>Why can't muslims exmuslims exist in peace.What I don't get is that where I was living most Muslims are moderate and they don't care if someone's is atheist, christian or jewish, unless you're North African, Turkish or eventually from the Middle East, then if they find out you're not particularly religious they throw a shit fit. I've even been told I was some sort of race traitor once because I said I don't fast.
No. 554008
>>553949Same. I feel uncomfortable around them because I have to try not to offend them and it's annoying. I went to school with some girl who was a hardcore catholic and would be
triggered over fucking everything. I hate seeing people being forced to live a lifestyle they don't care for in fear of being kicked out by their parents. I wish it was easy to convince every religious person that god isn't real and they ain't shit.
No. 554295
>>554270You can pretty much expect any pseudo guru, new age life coach on the internet to use LoA as a means to lure you into 3 easy payments of $799 for whatever bullshit skillshare-esque course they threw together in two hours.
Anyone who praises this concept is either about to con you, or is currently in the process of being conned themselves.
No. 554300
>>554295actually, while I'm on my soap box, here's a handy list of techniques and concepts commonly used by new age con artists and cult-like personalities:
Law of Attraction (LoA)
Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT)
Neuro-linguistic Programming (NLP)
Cellular Memory Healing
No. 554327
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>>554300Since you seem to be in-the-know, which New Age 'movements'/con artists are your all-time favorites, and are there any emerging ones worth keeping track of?
No. 554332
>>554327(Ntayrt) I actually believe in a lot of new age thought but a cow thread on the worst of the con artists would absolutely humor me
I can’t think of many off the top of my head but anyone who charges for information in the form of classes or seminars can be subject. Abraham Hicks is the reigning queen, and I’ve seen advertisements for an app called Gaia that’s prob associated with milky people
No. 554506
>>554503Anon its not that you're not submissive, rather you are naturally lazy in bed and like it when the man does most of the work
that's nothing to be embarrassed about
No. 554543
>>554536This.
I also believe that the doctors are killing off patients and letting them to die just so they can write “Coronavirus” as the cause in their death certificates for that sweet fed $$$
It’s probably why the hospitals are not letting their families nearby to watch over them, it never wasn’t for “muh safety purposes”.
No. 554545
>>554543My family have ALL said this.
And any doctors fucking with patients are in masks all concealed so their identity is hidden too.
I don’t trust it.
Funny how a lot of our old folk in the U.K. have all died. What do the fuckers get every October and November too? A flu jab. So what the fuck is in that flu jab?
And in another year all these care houses will be transformed into fancy apartments filled with Chinese students (god forbid) and Russian prostitutes and Nigerian princes.
People think I’m deluded when I tell this but honest to god it’ll happen in a subtle way where no one will even notice.
No. 554547
>>554536Neither do I. It's gonna go down as one of the biggest hoaxes, if not THE biggest hoax ever. It is clearly being used to set the stage for a bigger end goal. Like you can stand in a line with 200 other plebs but can't bury a loved one? Small businesses are closed but major supermakerts/corporations are magically immune? Really makes you think….
If it was as serious as they claim it is, shouldn't supermarket workers and other essential workers be dropping dead? They'll just say 'no!' because we followed muh social distancing rules. I work in a supermarket and no one was following that bullshit. None of my co-workers have been sick. No customers either. It's fucked and I'm sick of it.
No. 554549
>>554547>>554543>>554538>>554536Please be joking, my uncle had corona virus, ITS REAL
He said it was the worst pain he dealt with in his life, he's recovered as of now but he still is suffering greatly from the pain he had to endure
No. 554552
>>554547From the start of it all, I do not know why. I can't even put my finger on it but I just did not believe it.
At first, I thought okay, right, perhaps there is an awful virus. It was a yes and no from me. But adding things up, it now being the eighth week here in the UK of being on lockdown. Hearing more stories and whatnot, I just do not think it's legit.
Even if the virus is quote on quote, real. I do believe people are being murdered. I really do, if not them ventilators then these new vaccines they're creating will soon tell us all. No doubt we will have a few boo boos when they're available and people will end up sick then they'll try and blame the
victim then.
But this is the thing, it's all well and fine saying go on out to the store, go out running ect. The virus is everywhere, it's all around us. Even when the lockdown is over the virus will still be with us. Always.
So what do we do, stay in forever more?
And the same people who are complaining about people leaving the house are the ones ordering fast food via Uber Eats, Amazon packages and clothes. It's absolutely ridiculous. Talk about caring for peoples health.
It's not only murdering people but killing off the economy. They want small businesses fucking rid of. All that money people have raised here for the NHS will be pocked by the government as usual. Nothing new though. I'd say the hospitals will get a small cut at least.
That's what I mean, if this was as bad as they're truly making out, we would be boarded in by the army. It'd be like WW2 out there with army patrolling the streets and keeping people in.
No one I know has been sick, we know someone, a family friend of ours, they work at the hospital near us and she said it's not as busy as they're making out.
Nurses? Actors.
Never show the bodies and if they do, blurred out. The only mass bodies I've seen have been in China and the footage of the vans in Italy who apparently were off to bury Italian people. But they could've been fucking empty for all we know.
>>554549Whether this virus or not is real, your uncle couldn't had something else up and the hospital could have lied and said it was the Rona.
They're doing that, they're killing people off or people are dying from whatever else is wrong with them and branding it as COVID19.
Also with this virus, it depends on a persons immune system. Some can recover at home apparently while if it worsens then they get sent to the hospital. But I would NOT recommend going. I'd rather suffer it out than go to the hospital and be killed off.
No. 554555
>>554549Sorry anon, but your uncle doesn't exist.
>a non-researched highly contagious virus strain that stresses your lungs and other vital organs as a by-effectObvious hoax
>every single medical worker worldwide working together in a giant plot to kill people, becauseTHE TRUTH
No. 554556
>>554555Whenever I hear someone tell me "But someone told me -" or "My friend -" or "My boyfriend's cousin -" all had or have Corona Virus.
I just nod and roll my eyes by this point.
Funny how they all seem to live and don't die when they tell you the tale lol.
No. 554557
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I'm starting to think corona panic is bullshit too. I work at a rich people grocery store in condo central downtown in one of the largest US cities, so I have a front row seat to everyone's hypocrisy and how fake this all might be.
everyone who gets sanctimonious on the internet? on the news? telling you you're selfish and evil if you don't wear the muzzle and socially distance? telling you how serious you need to take this? well I can only guess that they don't ACTUALLY care about any of this, cause when they're not popping down to the store for one or two "non essential" things every day, they're sending some terrified instore shopper to fetch them lamb shoulders and burrata, or they'll order some gig worker to, allegedly, put themselves in harm's way to deliver them a bottle of whiskey for which they'll tip him $2.
oh, and the masks? EVERYONE touches them, and NONE of them sanitize their hands in between touching them, even though they're moist with respiratory fluids. our customers are some of the most sophisticated and well educated people in the city and they constantly touch their masks. the store supervisors touch their masks. we all touch our masks and then act like it "didn't count" and keep going along like it never happened. seems like the mask is nothing but a compliance test. Simon Says put on the muzzle uwu. it's impossible to breathe for a whole shift in them and I get dizzy and nighttime nosebleeds.
I've never been someone that falls to hysteria in the first place, but I'm starting to think if this was as serious as I'm told to believe I'd have caught it and spread it to hundreds of people already. no one actually cares and it doesn't seem to make a difference. people just want an excuse to be a control freak or retarded hypochondriac on the internet and an excuse to openly express their disgust for the people around them. these fucks rant about the need for EVERYONE ELSE to comply with the arbitrary rules that change almost daily, then go to the store like it's a magical safe zone, touch their masks and smear fluids on everything, yell at essential workers, and then yodel off their balcony blinking their stupid lights to "thank frontline workers."
no one really cares about the deaths (we never have) and no one cares about being selfish (we've always been selfish)
No. 554570
>>554565Iran has always been a shithole, anon. It's always had piles of viruses. In the middle east and asia, they're fucking swimming in unholy shit on a day to day basis. Long before the corona.
Africa has kids dying on the street floors with god knows what and have had piles of viruses.
Maybe now us in the west will start giving a shit for the first time. Lol but then again their own government couldn't give single fuck.
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>>554351>I am a motherPlease leave this place jesus fucking christ what are you doing here
No. 554625
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>>554622I really hope you're not serious. There's no possible way that anyone who regularly posts here is emotionally stable enough not to fuck up their child.
No. 554689
>>554641ah yes, the reason why my mother abused me while i was growing up was because she used to frequently visit LC and other imageboards
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No. 554874
>>554574Anon.
I've been to Turkey and travelled through Iran. It's a fucking dump. It isn't like America or England where you get your luxuries. People are fucking poor. And tens the betting you've never actually even been.
No. 554875
>>554864The whole world IS in on it. Perhaps not a hoax but whoever started this shit every leader knew about it. They just act like they didn't know.
But that isn't even the issue. The issue is people are being killed in hospitals. That is the main problem and nurses and doctors are being paid off and treated like heroes. It's fucking horrendous. Not every nurse but it is happening. There is a total lack of critical thinking and nurses are scared to say shit.
No. 554886
>>554864ayrt, I'm only talking about the US. i think we can agree the us government doesn't care.
>>554875no? do you look at the data of other countries? or do you think that's fake?
No. 555075
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Spending less time on the internet has honestly made me feel a lot better and I'm mad at myself for not doing this earlier. If I didn't rely on the internet for work and shit I'd quit it completely. Shit is starting to look the same and boring to me. Those anons who made the quitting social media thread are onto something.