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No. 523788

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No. 523796

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i feel nothing right now. i couldn't go to class i'm just screaming into and punching pillows, and also punching doors. i can't feel or do anything except stare into space empty-minded.

No. 523797

>>523796
That's a dope bird. Sorry you feel bad tho. Get some fresh air or something.

No. 523799

>>523797
thank you. it's a strawberry finch

No. 523801

>>523796
sorry you feel like shit, don't hurt yourself though.

No. 523817

Do you guys think it is rude when someone starts putting their shit on the checkout counter before you're even finished ringing out? Like even before the checker starts bagging your stuff. It always fucking happens to me at walgreens and bugs the absolute shit out of me. Also people standing way too close to me in line.. just get the fuck away!!

No. 523821

>>523817
it's the employee's job to tell them to back off. when i used to work at a check out counter i would make people like that go to the back of the line, this isn't fucking grade school.

No. 523826

I get my bc (nexplanon) taken out on the 19th. I'm terrified. I've been on the implant since I was 16, so about 6 years straight. It didnt give me any adverse side effects, but now that this one is "running out" I feel like I'm honestly losing it. I cant tell if it's actually hormones or just me being anxious about it.

Like a week ago my bf found a really long hair on my neck and called it a "whisker" and it was so embarrassing I just went in the bathroom and cried. I've started shaving my face every day to avoid any more emotional bathroom breakdowns, but it's getting worse with every day that goes by. I'm scared that when I get this taken out its gonna be like puberty all over again, and that I'll gain weight and get really hairy. My family has a history of testosterone issues so that only amplifies it.

My bf and I have been together for 4 years, and he cums in me almost every time. Lately I can't stop thinking about how hes going to leave me for a bitch with birth control?? Dumb as hell I know. Every time I think about talking about condoms I wanna cry and just accept myself as a lesser being. I've never ever, EVER been this much of a puss. I'm typically very confident, I know my bf loves me and there has never been any inclination that he even cares if he would have to use condoms. He's even mentioned it not too long ago because he knows I'm worried about it. I'm just so… what the fuck? I was 100% fine a couple weeks ago, yesterday I cried and felt like a dog of a human being because I dropped my chili spoon. Am I pregnant??? Am I dying??? Am I little bitch?? Are my hormones gonna make me a guy???? Can I ever have kids??? He gonna leave me for another girl he can fuck raw??? I wish I had never gotten on bc.

I fucking
Hate
Being
Female.

No. 523831

>>523826
you need to get help for your anxiety or ocd or whatever is going on. damn.

No. 523836

>>523826
Homie, you need to see someone about that anxiety. Calm down.

No. 523837

I finally told my aunt (who helped raise me) how I don't think she respects me or values my input. I love her but I'm sick of seething in resentment. I'm sick of her stating I how I feel, like she knows better than me. Her constant criticism of me. Her telling stories about how much of a "brat" I was when I was a kid and when I call her out on it, she pulls out "I was teasing!" card. How she looks out for my friends (and even my friend's terrible sibling) but will ignore my needs. I'm sick of her always insisting that I act like a kid when I call her out on her behavior.

I want to have a mature discussion about it and to move on. But she hardly, if ever, admits, wrongdoing. Her response to all this was "Sorry you feel that way"

No. 523839

This past year has been really stressful for me. I've been going through pretty bad depression for the past few months, and lost my entire friend group and support system. Literally the only thing that's been keeping me going, is this summer internship that I plan on doing abroad. My application got accepted last month and I've already booked my ticket for May, and it was literally the only thing I've been looking forward to. But yesterday I found out that this girl I don't like got accepted to the same internship program, and it really bummed me out. I was looking forward to this internship as an escape from my current depressing life, and now all I can think about is how she's also going to be there. It honestly ruined my whole mood. I was already stressing out about not being able to go at all due to the coronavirus, but even if I do end up going, I'm afraid I'm no longer going to enjoy it.

No. 523840

>>523826
dude, chill. get a new implant and figure out your anxiety what the fucK. There's also a bc thread if that is of any comfort.

No. 523843

>>523839
there's always gonna be people around who you don't like or feel like they dislike you, your depression may make this into a bigger thing than it really is. Also, corona is fucking everything up so depending on the country, you'll most likely can't even go.

No. 523849

lmao my Muslim mom's so manipulative. I didn't want her to come into my doctor's appointment and so she made me swear I don't have a boyfriend, otherwise she and my dad would "kill themselves".

No. 523851

okay so i am in a group chat with a couple of girls and there is this one girl who drives me nuts. she writes about every damn thing and what's going on in her life at the moment in this chat. she probably sends close to 100 messages a day. who the hell has time for that? her apperantly. and don't get me wrong i actually like talking to this girl and she is my friend but i think her sending that many messages is just excessive. it's not an everyday occurence though sometimes she doesn't send as much but it's still tiring. it's hard to catch up with all the things she writes about (especially since most of them are meaningless to me eg what movie she is currently obsessing about that i haven't seen and sending countless pictures and videos about it etc) so it's almost feels like she doesn't even care if we read it or not it's all about her and she needs to write everything down all the damn time. sometimes it's like reading a damn diary. and noone in the chat behaves like her. and when someone writes a little too much (but not even close to the amount she writes) she writes she will read it later. big lol
lately i feel like she doesn't even care what either of us has to say it's all about her. and i have subtly told her couple times that i can't keep up with that amount of messages (especially not everyday) but the messages just keep coming. all she needs to do is cut back a little. but she wouldn't. and it's really fucking annoying. i am even afraid to open the app and see how many unread messages i have.
and when i dare to open it and subtly comment on the amount of messages (like wow what happened? or wow so many messages!) she always gets so prickly. and that's why i am afraid to tell her directly to just shut the fuck up and no one cares what she had for breakfast, lunch and dinner.

No. 523858

>>523849
We literally have the same parents. Mine would threaten to break my legs since I was 10 with all other grotesque threats and that's why I still don't have a boyfriend to this day, out of fear and trauma.

No. 523864

>>523665
>Go back to your precious corona containment thread

The post was way too personal for the "precious" Corona thread but I guess mini-modding people who are frustrated is the best you had to do at that time huh

No. 523869

>>523826
Oh wow anon, I'm in somewhat of a similar boat. Been on Nexplanon since 2014 myself but this one will expire in May. Since I'm uninsured, I can't get it replaced without selling a kidney so I'm just gonna get it removed for $150 instead.

I'm a bit anxious like you are. I have no idea how my body will react to suddenly not having a perpetual cycle of hormones in it. I'm not looking forward to having a period again. I think our weight might actually do better at least though? Tinfoil, but I've had the implant in both my arms and usually the arm with the implant grows this weird cellulite more than the other without it. I've had nothing but weight gain on this implant, but it's better than getting prego.

That's another matter. I'm happy that you have a bf so at least there's someone steady to know your situation and be more cautious. I don't, so I'm probably gonna stop all casual flings unless there's commitment because men don't give a fuck! I hate condoms but I can't expect men to be responsible. Back in my young and dumb days, I remember paying $50-80 a pop for Plan B pills because the gutless fecks I slept with didn't give a shit about being careful. One time the Plan B didn't work and I had to pay for an abortion on top of that, so never again!
Not to mention the past two abusive guys I dated briefly were very conniving when it came to my birth control, they wanted me to be pregnant and I shudder to think what would have happened if there had been something they could have tampered with like condoms and pills. At my age (late 20s) some men are nonchalant about accidental pregnancy because "we're getting older anyway." They treat it as if women like me should be grateful to them that we got knocked up even if they're unreliable as prospective partners/fathers, and are in no financial position to support children.

It's a fucking scary world. I'm not sure how I'm gonna deal with it either…

No. 523872

I almost want to start a cosplay account for attention but all I would do is shitpost in mediocre cosplay and not do actual photoshoots and such because my career takes too much time and i know i would prob just only interact with my mutuals anyways.

every time i try to make a twitter I use it for 2 hours and forget about it. I want to connect with people on social media again. Discord is a lot of effort because it takes a while to have written convos and for calls everyone is up late while I need decent sleep for work. Facebook is a no-go, tumblr is dead. What's left?

No. 523881

I am fucking mad cause I can't go to study abroad cause my me and family is fucking broke.

No. 523890

>>523817
sometimes I do that if it's a long counter and the line goes along the counter, and I have a basket. I won't unload it just set it up there so i don't have to carry it longer. now I'm scared I made someone uncomfortable kek. though now that I think of it I only do that after the person in front of me has their stuff bagged.

No. 524076

my boyfriend is going back home because his college just got shut down until next month. i already barely see him because he lives an hour away but now i won’t see him for at least a month and he doesn’t even care. just like always. i’m so done why is it so hard to be wanted by someone else

No. 524080

>>523817
is this like an american thing? europoor here and all the european countries i've been to (both eastern and western) are perfectly fine w you loading you shit on the counter if there's free space. so to me you'd appear bit mental yeah.

No. 524084

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Hello there, fellow anons. I'm feeling… uh… really, really gutted.

President Trump just issued a 30-day ban on all travel between the US and Europe, not including the UK, for Coronavirus-related reasons. I'm in the US and was supposed to be moving to my husband in Northern Ireland (NI's in the UK, but he's an EU citizen with no UK citizenship) in the last week of this month… that's now, unfortunately, a scrapped plan until the ban ends. We've been married since February of last year and haven't been together in person since October. I'm not sure how much longer either of us can manage this emotionally, especially since we've spent more than a year (and a countless amount of various currency) preparing specifically for our method of travel. The UK hasn't issued any travel bans between itself and Europe at the current moment, but it's likely that it soon will.

Neither him nor I have any kind of visa, mainly due to the fact that we've already spent so much on past travels and hiring immigration lawyers that we can't currently afford one. It's possible that later down the line, one or either of us could, but since we're married I can (read: legally should be able to) stay in the UK for 90 days with no visa and apply for pre-settled status during that time, which would give me the right to live and work there without citizenship. I tried moving to Northern Ireland with him (as in, actually in person with him, he flew to the US beforehand so he could fly back home with me) in July of last year, through Dublin, which is in the EU. I found out then that they don't like people crossing the EU/UK border in NI when entering through Ireland. I was denied entry on the three bases of:

1. Not having "enough" money to support myself during the time I arrived and the time I would've applied for pre-settled status, even though I would've also been financially assisted by my husband and his family while there until I could work,

2. Not having a visa (a US spouse of an EU citizen can stay in the UK for 90 days with no visa, but because I was in Ireland they implemented their own laws concerning non-visa stay which are more restrictive, and

3. Border customs' contempt for the fact that I flew to Dublin and planned to get a bus up to NI rather than flying directly into the NI from the US, even though my husband and I both explained that there were no direct flights into the UK from the airports I live near (only to Ireland) and that my husband who lives in the UK took a bus down to Ireland that exact same day to fly out of Dublin and was not once stopped or asked for identification, even though he crossed country borders.

That day ended with me being separated from my husband at the airport, being detained for six hours while my belongings (including my phone and laptop) were confiscated and searched, and then being sent back home with nothing but my purse and its junk because my luggage got lost in transport. The airport/airline didn't find my luggage until December, about five months after it'd been lost. I lost everything in the meantime and had to buy new clothing and hygiene products when I returned to the US. Before boarding the returning flight (which I ended up having to pay for - rock-bottom financial moment in my life) the border agents made me sign two documents as "evidence" of my entry denial, and I was told I'd have to bring those with me and show them to customs if I ever enter Ireland again for any reason. My passport now has a permanent "denial of entry to Ireland" stamp that's recorded and can be seen by the border customs of any country I visit. Needless to say, we've since avoided Ireland as much as possible, except for when he flew out of Dublin to come see me in October because there was no other option.

The reason our second (current) plan is now "scrapped" is that much like in our first travel, where the only airports I could get to didn't have direct flights to the UK (and with the added complication of now having to avoid Ireland), this ban means he can only fly from the UK to the US to meet me before we go. He's only ever been able to get a direct flight to me from the airport in Dublin, the way he visited in October, not without first enduring an intense hour-long border agent questioning session. In the off chance that he'd find a direct flight from the UK to an airport close to me, we can't stick to our initial plan of then flying from the New York airport to the Amsterdam airport, then from the Amsterdam airport to the airport directly in his hometown, until this ban ends which will hopefully be after said 30 days and no longer. Our biggest issue is that I need to move there and successfully apply for pre-settled status before January 2021, when Brexit begins its implementation in full legal effect. My current immigration method, while legal right now due to Northern Ireland citizenship complications, won't be legal and won't work post-Brexit. My husband just visited our immigration lawyer yesterday but now he'll have to book another appointment with him, since this changes everything.

These next nine months are going to be make-or-break for us…

I apologize for the major blogpost. I'm just not sure, practically or emotionally, what to do about this. Pic isn't related, it's just a nice drawing I like. Any words of advice, wisdom, even just adding on with your own experience or rambling would help me feel better. I appreciate this thread.

No. 524087

>>523817
No. People need to put shit down sometimes. I don’t own the counter.

Isn’t that why they have dividers?

No. 524088

>>523851
I have a friend who does the same shit but instead of a group chat it’s just to me in texts. She sends huge paragraphs about herself then if I ever say anything about me she’ll type a whole long paragraph about how she’ll get around to reading it and why she can’t right now (kek). Then maybe a week goes by until she can’t take not talking about herself anymore and she’ll send 20 MORE paragraphs about something else about herself, but add “sorry I swear I’ll read what you said last week” and some lame excuse about her being in a dark place or something. It’s fucking obnoxious. I’ve talked to her about it multiple times, I actually even cut her off at one point for it. We’ve been friends for 15 years. She’s always been super self-centered. I don’t get how someone can be like that, I know if I say anything longer than a few sentences around people I get self conscious and feel like I’m talking about myself too much. I guess some people just have no self awareness. So idk, I feel your pain anon.

No. 524090

The Coronavirus hasn't even been in my state for more than a few hours and ALL masks and hand sanitizers are sold out, ontop of that weird black helicopters have been circling around my parish for several days. What the fuck is going on?

I also work at a state funded hospital and we're getting presumable Coronavirus cases. If I die anons just know you guys meant a lot to me

No. 524095

I just texted this guy I have been seeing for about a month what things are going to be like between us now that the virus is spreading. The main reason I did it is because my parents are in their 60s and have been pleading I don’t see him because they are dreading the virus. I don’t want things to end between him and I because of this fucking bullshit. I’m half expecting him not to reply to my text because it’s an awkward thing to ask. It’s seriously bumming out right now because I really enjoyed my time with him and hate that this virus is cutting that short.

No. 524100

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Two days ago I had a sudden seizure while eating and my fiancé had to stop me from choking to death on corn chips, apparently I turned blue and fell off the bed onto the hard floor. No warning or anything, earliest thing I remember is panicking about not wanting to go in an ambulance after coming to.

Docs at the hospital says it was brought on by seratonin syndrome and my GP should have informed me that some of my new meds were ssri meds and that having been on two antibiotics courses for a suture infection would lower the threshold for serotonin syndrome. I should have looked them up but damn.

I feel like death and rib cage is in agony after having the food whacked out. I feel so weird and horrible, never been this close to death and fucking hell, what a dignified way to go, choking on corn chips. I don't really know how to ground myself again, I feel so empty.

Any self care tips please anons?

No. 524115

>>524084
I feel for you anon and hope the situation gets worked out. I'm lucky enough that my EU based Fiance just got here to the US three days ago on the K-1 Visa and hearing the European travel ban news today made my mind run with a million "what ifs" of him not having got here in time.

January 2021 is very close in the Immigration world but I'm sure you'll find an avenue to make this work before then. Also, I know money is an issue, but if you or your husband aren't loving your current immigration lawyer don't be afraid to find a new one.

No. 524118

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>>524100
I hope I can help a little since I went through a near death situation as well anon. I had an accident while skateboarding like an idiot and I was in an induced coma for quite some time. I also felt this sense of emptiness when I woke up and they told me I was very lucky. I didn't feel lucky, I felt stupid. I could've died being a dumb kid. Self care wise, everyone handles things differently. I personally took it day by day and spent time with the things and people that comforted me most. For me that was my cats, my bf at the time, and my hobbies. If you work, take time off if you can. Take all the time you can for yourself to process.

If the feeling doesn't go to way, I would suggest therapy. Again everyone is different, but l went to therapy because I couldn't shake the emptiness and this weird guilt. My therapist told me some people get that idea stuck in their head they're supposed to appreciate life more but sometimes things just happen and it doesn't have to be life changing. While the situation is scary and can make you lose ground, it doesn't have to be that heavy or meaningful in that sense. Things happen, and life luckily for us kept going, don't get too caught up in the what if.

You're engaged, you're okay, and all the pain is temporary. If you feel the emptiness sticks with you and you dwell on it try to seek some support system like therapy or maybe forums where people went through near death so you can talk about it. Sorry if this wasn't quite the same feelings or what you were looking for but my heart goes out to you and I hope you feel better soon.

No. 524119

Do you guys ever recognise your manic episodes? Because I'm like 100% sure I'm going through it right now. I'm so tired, but I'm so awake, like if I had a third eye that's also wide open. Yesterday I didn't even sleep. I "slept", it was like I was there and aware of everything, and not sleeping. Although, I'd "wake up" from time to time.

No. 524122

There’s never any tp in the stores and none of the idiots buying sixty rolls have ibs so fuck those guys. I DO have ibs and need a normal amount of shit ticket!! Gonna just take a package out of the next panic buyers trolley swear to god.

No. 524126

>>523826
Solved it. I'm pregnant. RIP

No. 524134

>>524122
People in my town keep buying all the surgical masks, gloves, etc and me, a hospital worker can't find them anywhere. Unbelievable

No. 524137

>>524126
how are you feeling about it

No. 524138

I'm so tired of my narc mom playing the victim. Yesterday she screamed at me and ordered me around like a literal slave (for my own issues, that normal people get to decide what to do for themselves) and shut me down from giving any backtalk, so I had to go, walk for two hours and do a task that's completely useless because she didn't let me finish explaining that it's useless. Then I came back and finally got to explain and she got mad, called me retarded and insane, started hysterical crying, saying she can't take this anymore and crying to my grandparents about how shit I am. Today she's ignoring me like she wants me to apologize for her screaming at me and treating me like a mindless peasant. I'm just so tired.

No. 524156

>>524122
at what point do you stop buying tp and just start to wash your ass?

No. 524165

I’m pretty sure Im addicted to adderall. I was diagnosed with adhd as a teen by numerous psychiatrists /a neuropsych and have been prescribed it for a considerable amount of time.

I know it’s my fault for abusing it and I wish I could go back in time and stop myself when things got out of hand. Idk what to do. I destroyed all of my friendships and have been relegated to a shut-in who does nothing productive.

It used to help me a lot, it improved almost every aspect of my life for the first year. I know I’ll never get that back and that I’ll never be that happy again.

I’m lost and afraid I’ve friend my brain irreparably. Whenever I try and stop on my own I feel like I’ve been lobotomized/suicidal. I’m scared for my future, I’m wasting my life. I feel stupid and alone.

No. 524167

If I wasn’t such a pussy I would have killed myself years ago. Things don’t get better, they never seem too. All these years of feeling miserable when I could have ended it 4 years ago. Complete waste of time

No. 524179

Wish we could have an Idubbz/filthyfrank/max/anything4views thread like it was in the beginning because those dudes are high tier cringe and constantly get into stupid retarded drama but Anisafags and their obvious jealousy boner had to ruin that topic forever. Actually pathetic how they focus on Anisa when Ian is the true cow in that relationship but I guess if you wanna fuck someone that gets overlooked (shit taste btw farmers)

No. 524183

>>524167
I feel you anon, I have pretty treatment resistant depression and have exhausted most options over the years(in terms of medication, I had a horrible reaction to SSRI’s and no other meds worked).

I just don’t want to hurt my family or have them think it’s their fault, even though I know i’m a burden to them.

No. 524184

>>524179
I agree. Especially with Ian, he’s a bigger cow than Anisa if I’m being honest…(evident in pear’s discord leaks a while back)

Any drama going on with them recently, or in the past year? I haven’t kept up.

No. 524187

>>524165
Is it possible for you to see your GP, get some referral to a psych or addiction specialist treatment/program/hotline even? Kicking addiction (not to mention one that's years old) is hard enough on your own and you do sound like you need help with that - someone to talk to or keep you accountable. You have done some damage but it doesn't make you a write-off and recovery is absolutely possible.
It's not going to fix your whole life obviously but it'll leave you in a much better position to start rebuilding and it's never too late for that.

Addiction is best friends with isolation and they go hand in hand. Start prying that off you and make an appointment.

No. 524192

>>524184
I agree, I hate him so much and he has one of the worst fandoms of any youtuber.

I don't even think Anisa is that much of a cow, she's too boring. I get she embodies everything lolcow hates, being 5/10 NLOG pick me trying pathetically hard to appeal to gamer boys, but she doesn't really do anything worthy of so many threads.

Also, the jealousy toward her from the bulk of anons in those threads isn't even thinly veiled. It blows my mind that so many farmers lust this hard over a scrawny gamer autist pushing 30 that still thinks saying "nigger faggot" is peak comedy.

No. 524193

>>524138
Update: She got a hold of me and went on a 2 hour rant of playing the crying concerned mother who's at her limits, talked about nothing but herself and forced me to confess 'what she did wrong to make me be like this(in response of me saying me being quiet and "emotionless" is a coping mechanism)' and then went on for another projection and victim playing parade, saying I blamed her for being a horrible mother who did everything wrong and downplaying her actions while also throwing in how she's suicidal because of me and using everything I said against me to the point she constantly accuses me of doing the things she's doing.. And of course, it's always only me who needs to change.

No. 524196

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>>524138
>>524193
She'll never change or see fault in anything wrong she's done towards you. At the end of the day, they all believe that you deserve what you got from them. Pic related.

The only thing that ever "cured" my relationship with my narcissist mom was keeping her at arm's length and grey rocking whenever I am forced to see her in person. Good luck anon, it's rough having personality disordered parents.

No. 524200

>>523826
That's not how removing birth control works, you're not gonna get hairy and go through a second puberty. At worst you might have mood swings and a temporary acne breakout.

Your boyfriend is not going to leave you because he can't creampie you, and if he actually did it is clealry not a loss. Just make sure that no.matter what he says, you don't have sex without another real BC method (pulling out and rythm method do not count!).

No. 524201

>>524179
Yeah I've wanting to bitch about chad and his ongoing habit of dropping 'I fucked another tinder whore' into every Cold Ones episode lately. I didn't know where to post about it though

No. 524203

>>524179
Chad is horrible, Ian used to be a cow but I think he’s gotten better recently. His content is a lot less edgy

No. 524204

>>524200
She posted an update that she's pregnant

No. 524207

>>524203
His edgy unfunny content aside he's a cow for being a hypocrite and a multitude of other reasons, including his treatment of Anisa but god forbid you dare discuss that or else the hordes of KEKPEARHEADKEK come out in droves to tell you how she's totally taking advantage of pwoor wittle Ian. Chad is actual pathetic scum though who does enough embarrassing gross shit to warrant a thread for just him alone.

No. 524209

>>524187
I recently got health insurance so finally it’s an option(I was without it for a while, so I ended up paying out of pocket for my scripts to be refilled )

I’m not sure which route to take though, whether I should go inpatient for a week in a psych ward to stabilize myself or just make an apt with a psychiatrist.

I know going to the hospital is probably my best bet, but I had horrible experiences as a teen. They ended up putting me on Xanax prior to adderall(I was on both simultaneously for a while), I tapered off of Xanax successfully 5-6 months ago, and strangely enough it wasn’t that hard. I was also put on a bunch of other medications that I had adverse reactions to and they didn’t take me seriously. I don’t know why prescription amphetamines have such a strong psychological grip on me when you really can’t become physically dependent on them. I think once I get past the initial phase of WD for the first few weeks it might become easier, especially if I’m monitored in case I have suicidal ideation.

I called a few IOP centers but the waitlists are insane, they do bump you ahead if you have a referral after an acute hospitalization, I’m going to have to bite the bullet I think and go. It might not be as bad as an adult bc ppl who go in voluntarily are separated /in a different unit from those who are admitted against their will(in my state , they don’t have that for the pediatric unit, we were all lumped together )

Thank you anon.

No. 524210

>>524207
> Chad is actual pathetic scum

It's always awkward as fuck listening to chad share his tinder stories, especially as he's usually in a room full of men who are in long term relationships. Like they don't tell him to shut up but there's no encouragement either and he still goes into detail.. We get it Chad.. you got head. Big woop.

No. 524212

>>524210
He's an insecure fatass who knows how repulsive he is and how disgusting and empty his lifestyle is so it's probably the only thing that gives him the illusion of self-worth for a split second.

No. 524215

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Nobody talks nicely about me. Nobody praises my work. I get in my feels when I see others being praised by others, knowing that doesn't happen to me. Oh well…

No. 524219

>>524138
Anon, MOVE. NOW.

I recently cut off my narc mother and I regret not doing it sooner. When I was living with her she made me feel like literally the worst human being ever. I felt guilty for just being alive. I moved away, got into therapy and feel like a whole human again. Just leave, as soon as possible. For your own sanity's sake.

No. 524221

>>524215
don't worry anon we love you here

No. 524224

>>524215
Same anon. My old job I was damn amazing with customers but they didn't care until a few months after I quit. Always insulted my work or had random bad rumors about me from coworkers. People always thought I was mean when I hadn't even talked to them. If I was lucky I was just ignored at school, but that had cons too. Even when I thought I was the better artist in a server someone else got praise.

I've gotten used to being unnoticed.

No. 524241

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I know the only way to get out of minimum wage/part time hell is going to college. But I don't want to go to college to waste my time and money on something that isn't even a guarantee. Almost every person I know that got a degree is -spoiler alert- STILL working a shitty retail/food service job for minimum wage. The only ones I know that aren't went into nursing. And the market is already flooded for that, plus I know I would fucking hate doing it. At this point, I'm just waiting for death to take me because the effort to live even a life of struggle is getting to be too much.

No. 524267

>>524241
I understand completely anon. I have a friend who majored in computer science/IT and still can't find a job in his field 2 years later. He's been working retail that entire time now. You are absolutely right in that getting a degree doesn't promise a job, even if you have connections. And besides, even if you get the degree it doesn't mean you'll enjoy the job and can handle doing it for the rest of your life. My brother used to make 100k/year as an actuary but he couldn't handle how boring and pointless it was so he quit a year and a half later… Yup. 4 years of higher education and he wasn't even the field for that long.

Anyway, it seems like such a risk unless you are passionate about a field that will promise you good returns, or you're soulless enough to work in fields you'd hate for the money.

No. 524290

It’s the third time I try to write this vent but I always feel like a bad person when I’m going to post it. Then something happens which reminds me why I was going to do it and then I feel…Frustrated.
Why do I even care about other people’s feelings when obviously they don’t care about mine? I wish I never met him.

No. 524291

The fact that nobody has ever loved me is eating me up. I just don't know how to cope with the fact that I'm a kissless virgin in my late-twenties. Yeah, I know there are more things in life than that but humans are social creatures and the fact that I've missed so many things just…I wish I could be a normal person who had hook-ups, bad experiences, good experiences. I feel like a fucking incel because I've started to be jealous of people I know and I hate myself for it. The worst thing is that if I were to find someone they would think that I'm just weird, and that they'd probably laugh at me or just tell everyone that I've got no experience.
I wish I would have turned out differently.

No. 524292

>>524241
I'm scared of this too, anon. I want to find a niche market online to o youtube videos about. i just want out of this retail hell.

No. 524296

Maybe I shouldn't be in a relationship if i get jealous easily-ish? I just hate that I'm probably being unreasonable but I lash out anyways by telling my boyfriend I need space because I don't want to talk to him. I do want to talk to him but at the same time I don't because I'm grossed out/peeved. Maybe I should just make some guy friends to feel even.

No. 524297

>>524095
No offense but why do you have to listen to your parents? Just don't tell them. Take some hand sanitizer and when you get home take a hot shower.

No. 524299

Few days ago I hanged out with my coworker (who’s like 20 years older than me), we got pretty close for the past few months and I can count on her to tell about my problems and troubles and she does the same with me. It feels nice knowing we have so much in common (personality wise, failed relationships, troubled families and a well damn broken past), I truly love her support and I like to know I’m there for her too.
I want to talk my best friend about all of this and I wondered why I wasn’t doing it, what was holding me back and I came to the conclusion that I don’t do it because she always judges me. And by always, I mean all the time. Starting by the things I ate, what I want to study, how I plan to spend my free time, she always has something to say and almost always is something wrong or judgemental about it.
I don’t know how I was so blind for so long. I always felt dumb next to her, as she was so much smarter than me, always knowing things I didn’t, so intelligent and talkative but truth is I always felt like I had to prove myself to her in some ways.
I was listening to a song and the lyrics said something like “if I have to explain myself, I have to apologize too” and that hurt because I think this is what I did for years, always acting naive or joking around her so she would assume I didn’t know shit or I was just stupid so she wouldn’t tell me off for everything.
I remember a very specific day when I was feeling so tired because I didn’t sleep well and she was talking about some course we took together and I was correcting her, she kept telling me I was wrong even when I know I was 100% sure and started questioning me why I was saying what I was saying…So instead of answering her the same thing I was repeating over and over again, I just started asking her questions about the topic so she could explain herself like she always does, just because she likes to talk and talk and talk and never listen, because I couldn’t be bothered anymore and I wanted her to stop pushing me to give her the exact answer she wanted.
I’m so pissed at myself right now…

No. 524304

I slept with a singer a few times and he fucked me over and now every time I hear his name I feel like puking. I just want to go back to being a fan why am I so dumb

No. 524324

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I feel this

No. 524345

>>524324
This hit me like a brick. Thank you for posting this.

No. 524350

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My brother might get torn to shreds by my mom on his b day. His cousins decided to make a birthday collage of all their in jokes.
>gay couple kissing in the background
>Anons brother big gay
>anons brother fooks his sister
My brothers 14, but dad still make him click speed up on kissing scenes and my mom thinks a women with green lip gloss is to radical. It's one of those things you just roll your eyes as teen stuff, but I know my mom is going to make a big deal out of it. Shes going to call my cousins parents, she's going to integrate me (im in the chat though I mute it), then she'll tell our dad then hell intergate use. I just don't want to deal with it.

No. 524355

>>524304
Who is it? Tell us

No. 524365

FUCK
FUCK
FUCK

My uni has just been shut down because of corona. Fuuuuuuuck. If this is gonna get me any study delay, it´s gonna cost me thousands of euro´s I need to pay back the government. my god I fucking hate my life

No. 524379

>>524350
Tell them what you're telling us, if they're not stupid they'll be have.

No. 524393

>>524379
I explained it to them. One of them has equally conservative parents so they got it real quick and deleted the post. I changed the GC name to 'happy birthday anon' from 'happy birthday bitch'. I finally went of their boomer idea GC post expire like stories

No. 524432

Up until today shipping a large but light box has consistently been 22 CAD.
Today it's 38 CAD. Meaning I basically lost 16 dollars since I didn't charge the buyer such a high amount, because how the fuck would I know? Even the website says it would be roughly 20 CAD. What the fuck?
It's not a heavy box, it's even lighter than most of the ones I ship out. I'm fucking pissed, I don't know if Canada post scammed me, the girl weighed it wrong, or if the coronavirus is hiking prices for shipping up. Fuck me.

No. 524435

Looking at the deep blue sky
I just look and wonder why
Why does it hurt so much to
Be me
Looking up I close my eyes
Rain starts dripping
It's not rain, it's the pain
Blood smells
Very familiar, I first smelt it
When you brutally stole
My virginity
I'm not innocent anymore
I'm just hurting
And the hurt made me
And the hurt made me be
Someone that I hate to be
I look at my reflection
See the demons in my eyes
It's all people
Demons are human
They can only be human
Demons and Divinity
Just human creation
But it's only a reflection
Of our insipid nature
The heroes are only in my mind
Just a way to grasp onto
This terrible existence
Lying to myself
So I won't make the final step

No. 524439

>>524350
Same anon. The birthday was a mess. The high lights are
>Parents ignored everything my brother asked for in exchange for my moms 'brilliant' ideas
>He asked only for a 3d puzzle set, but my mom got some 5 dollar Chinese knockoff lego
>Bought an add-on gift without owning the original to the add on because they didn't read
>One thing my mom clearly bought for herself
>Spent 120+ when they could have made him happy with a 20 dollar 3d puzzle
>Mom see's he's disappointed and says 'go cry in your bedroom'
>Mom tells me he's a disappointment when eh leaves the room

I feel like shit because if he keeps on being like these she'll get so angry she'll yell at him. I don't want to tell the kid to pretend to be happy on his birthday either.

This is all after
>brother wants ps4
>works everyday doing chores for money
>buys ps4 after 3 months
> 'anons brother shouldn't get a birthday gift because he technically bought the PS4 with out money so it's technically a birthday gift' straight to his face

No. 524466

I don’t know why but it irritates me when people announce why they’re saging.

No. 524503

If people here want to hate men or express their frustrations about their existence, they should be allowed to in peace. Trying to change their minds or trying to convince any one that their negative experiences with the male gender is completely futile and worthless. Go be a good little hand maiden and go back to reddit and posting your tits on /b/. Nobody cares. Just hide the thread.

No. 524513

>>524503
Eh, i don't care anymore, the scrote has already outed themself. All is well with the world.

No. 524557

!!!I WILL DEVELOP SOME SICK KINK BY THE WAY I JUST DECIDE TO LIFT WEIGHTS WHEN MY BIPO HORNY DEMON RAISES ITS UGLY ASS HEAD!!MY FUCKIN ARMS ARE JELLY AAAA i am pathetic

No. 524561

>>524119
I've always recognised mine ever since i was a kid, i just try to keep as uhh unstimulated as i can? No music, no shit that can excite me too much, no sugar no caffeine. It's a fucking hell in my head, all i wanna do is go out to do dumb shit, possibly get in trouble but i never have. Hate the fucking stereotype of manic people going apeshit, i truly want to but never will. I also try not to talk to people too much bc i talk too fast and it clearly makes people sometimes uncomfy/me hard to follow. Like this word vomit post. Hope you'll feel calm soon, anon.

No. 524578

I just realized that I kept ignoring my friend's attempts at talking to me for a long time and I feel bad bc they probably think I don't want to speak to them anymore but if I tell them how I feel they'll probably think I'm overreacting and too sensitive. Why am I like this

No. 524580

>>524578
Anon, just talk to your friend.

No. 524584

>>524196
Yes you're right, I heard distancing yourself is the best and only real thing one can do. But it still kind of a shame.. I get the feeling she does see her faults and understands them and even has empathy for a moment, she just absolutely can't ever admit them and thus only ever sees problems in others. It's like something in her shuts down as soon as she realises the truth and she then spends all of her energy twisting the reality until it's her vs. the whole world against her. JUST so that she doesn't have to admit that she hurt me. All I wanted was for her to fully understand what she did and still does and sincerely apologize for it. Nothing more. And yet, it seems impossible.. Instead, she justified herself, downplayed everything and tried her hardest to make me feel guilty for being hurt and invalidate it. It just sucks.

But thank you. Are you doing well without her? How were the first times after you stopped the contact with her? How did she react?

>>524219
Thank you for sharing anon, your experience is exactly what I daydream about for a long time now. I'm glad things are working out for you. I'm working on moving out but still have to be a bit more patient because of paper work and a better financial cushion, since I'll have to take 3 pets with me and plan to move to another city to make finishing my degree easier. Were you able to move out without complications from your narc mother?

No. 524594

I’ve just come to the realisation that my stepdad groomed me. Then he slept with my best friend when we were sixteen and I blamed her for it. The last interaction we had was her crying and apologising and I told her she had ruined my life. I feel like a piece of shit, she deserved better. I hope she’s ok now.

No. 524605

>>524126
fuck, hope you're okay anon.
if you're gonna get the scrape don't wait around. good luck

No. 524611

>>524126
Will u name it corona

No. 524612

I hate how I fucking cried for my most stupidest reason why,it's not like me at all!I completely regret it,it doesn't make me feel better than I cried in front of someone

No. 524630

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I've been trying to make more girl friends but it's really stressful cause I constantly worry how I come across and I hate being so awkward and never knowing what to say and I can still only get that warm feeling of being understood by listening to female musicians am I just retarded

No. 524637

fiona apple is painfully underrated despite her having been so famous at one point and it's irksome. her talent is rarely recognized as it should be. i hear all this talk of female musicians but she is the OG that is rarely recognized because she's not theatrical enough or something. i wont mention the very long list of often acclaimed female musicians that she totally dwarfs in both talent and relatability, but everyone needs to be ashamed of themselves for overlooking her

No. 524652

>>524184
no real milk tbh but pear got implants and is whoring herself out on onlyfans

No. 524662

>>524137
>>524596
>>524611
>>524605

I'm getting an abortion and I actually feel great now that I know what it is that's driving me crazy. Bf is chill also, supports decision. Not so rip?

No. 524667

>>524662
I wish I had kept feeling like this about my abortion, good luck to you anon I'm so glad you're at peace with yourself during those times

No. 524668

I'm falling behind in my language class that i'm paying for and it's so embarrassing. Yesterday the teacher asked a question and just looked at me while I was flailing around guessing at any answer while she just stared at me, and would throw me a grammar term I suppose to help but that shit just confused me more and I was getting really irritable at it and could feel myself turning red and feel that familiar humiliation that I did as a kid in math and didn't even know where to begin to get the correct answer.

I've got a lot of shit on my plate which leaves me not nearly enough time as I did to revise and was top of the class, but my strategy today is to skip class the day before the weekend and postpone the scheduled test. I don't know where to begin on revision but I suppose the answer isn't on lolcow.

No. 524669

By boss is a huge fucking cunt and it's making my work life hell.

I'm the only female in the work place and he evidently treats me worse than any other employees. The level of micro management is insane , he's always watching my work like a hawk and immediately accuses me whenever something goes wrong despite me being in good standings with the company and meeting my work expectations.

I actually hope somebody guns this man down.

No. 524698

>>524662
So wait, did you get pregnant while still using the implant?

No. 524700

i talked to him about it. he has a solution. but i fear that damage has been done. i fear that i will become numb and bitter like i did with my ex. i dont want to talk to him. i want to be left alone. and that's going to hurt his feelings. i could avoid him all day without explanation. i know that if im honest with him about how i want some space because of what happened he'll be upset all day. maybe even desperate. and i dont want him to feel that way.

No. 524702

I have celiac and it sucks but it's my lot in life so whatever. But holy fuck my gf's family don't believe me when I say I can't eat something because it makes me sick. Her aunt actually snuck some bread crumbs into my meal just to see what would happen? Well I'm crying on your couch and ruining your toilet, you cow, do you believe me now?

No. 524704

I have to go to court today for a traffic citation and I really don't want to because I'm nervous and also because of corona.

No. 524710

>>524698
Not her but yeah it is possible to get prego if you have unprotected sex near the expiration or past expiration of the implant yeah.

No. 524713

>>524702
What kind of sadistic fuck puts her own 'curiousity' above your health?? That's pretty much assault

No. 524719

>>524710
Living in a country with no abortion and I have a friend with two 'pill babies', one with a nuvaring baby and then one with an implant baby.

No. 524724

>>524719
Just use a fucking rubber

No. 524742

>>524724
Bet it's the "muh bf doesnt like the feeling of condummms" disease

No. 524766

To be fair the implant is more effective than tubal ligation and rubbers, by rate of failure.
Anon just had an unfortunate lapse of hormones in hers, it was innocent and she had no reason to believe she wouldn't be covered at that time.

No. 524768

>>524724
Well I've found that being the gay one has kept me safe

No. 524811

>>524637
Hey I listened to some of her music and it's nice, reminds me of Regina Spektor tbh. What album would you recommend that's most accessible?

No. 524830

I'm so fucking horny rn hhhhhhnghhhhhhhhhh I want to eat a girl out so bad even though I never have… fuck my gay ass aaaaaaaa

No. 524834

My parents could never afford to buy me one of those birthday cakes in the shape of a cartoon character. I was hoping that maybe my boyfriend can order me one. I specifically told him all of this. Well it's our fourth year together and he still hasn't ordered the fucking cake. I know because I found stuff to prepare a normal cake in our cupboard. And listen, I know it's better in a way he didn't spend money for frivolous bs when both of us can lose work and end up on the streets due to corona, but it hurts all the same. 2 years ago he tried to pull the same bs instead of ordering the cake and didnt even make the fucking cake!!! All items went to waste. He has a mental health condition that makes buying and planning stuff really difficult, but damn. I know I am selfish and stupid and I can't say it to his face but I don't want your homemade cake that you may not even prepare!!! I just wanted the one specific thing at least once in my life and you could not order it to make me happy!!! He had 4 years to do that and did not. I feel so sad, angry and pathetic cause now I will be the bitch that does not appreciate that he made a cake for me.

Also I legit want to kill myself because of the coronavirus situation, if both of us get laid of we are as good as dead anyway

No. 524837

>>524811
Nta but Tidal has absolutely carried me through some really rough times in my life… literally nothing can compare to listening to Shadowboxer after a breakup. Plus that album came out when she was 19, so all the songs were written when she was in high school!!!!! She’s such an incredible talent gosh I love her, I love that someone mentioning her on the board got an anon curious!!

No. 524840

>>524834
I've been there in terms of missing out on alot of normal childhood stuff and fulfilling it as an adult. I've learnt that with some guys you kinda need to sit down with them and say "this exact thing is the gift/cake/easter egg I want" and you get them to order it right in front of you lol

No. 524849

>>524840
I'm so sorry that you missed a lot of fun childhood stuff as well, anon… it fucking sucks, especially it will never be as special when you are an adult (but still is a great experience).
I told him so many times but I guess we would have to order it together (which would take away some of the fun of it) cause he is even unable to shop online for himself. On the other hand we have a pastry shop in the same mall he bought the supplies so he could have ordered it if he decided on the shape/picture. It kills me because it's such a small, stupid thing but I really wanted to get pampered like this and it never happens…in the worst case with coronavirus it may never happen now lmfao
I wish he made me feel important enough to give me what I want. I always felt jealous of people that have plenty of friends who adore them and obsess over making them happy.

No. 524903

My period started and now the uncomfortable symptoms come ugh

No. 524981

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I've had literally enough of this entire Corona thing. Everywhere I go, I hear about it. Anytime I turn on the TV, go on the Internet or even try to talk to my family members, it's the only thing that gets talked about and I get that it's a very serious epidemic disease, but please. I've nearly had 4 panic attacks daily over this for the past few days and at this point I just want to forget about it. Even if it's for a tiny bit. I suddenly miss my boring old days I had BEFORE all of this started. I regret complaining about them so much, I'd kill to have them back now. No worries, no anxiety, just boredom.

No. 524986

>>524981
Have you considered getting off the internet and idk reading a book or something?

No. 524989

>>524986
I swear to god people trying to make a pandemic into uwu muh anxiety thing, just focus on not dying.

No. 524991

>>524989
Dude I have diagnosed anxiety, of course I am going to freak out over this. If it was that easy to ignore like you are implying right now, then I already would've done something else instead of, you know, coming here to rant.

>>524986
It doesn't work. My only option is to either take a nap or play a video game. But I cannot do any of that because I need to work from home and attend online classes.

No. 524993

>>524981
Life's more enjoyable when you stick your hands in the air and go "WEEEEEEEEEE!"

No. 524994

>>524991
Omg dude so have i, sometimes you just gotta idk survive

No. 524996

>>524991
>But I cannot do any of that because I need to work from home and attend online classes.
You're in a much better position than a huge number of people who cannot work or go to class from home, if you must spend all your time thinking about covid at least spend it thinking about how fortunate and safe you are staying at home.

No. 524997

>>524993
You gotta wash your hands after though

No. 525007

>>524830
Quality post, most relatable

No. 525009

>little brother gets bullied at school by this one fuck
>he threatens to beat him up if he doesn't give him any money (fucking $5 lmao)
>lies to the teacher about my brother
>of fucking course the teachers believe him and not my brother
>i even talked to the principal about it
>principal says he will talk to him
>ends up doing doing absolutely nothing
>brother tells 2 teachers
>they don't do anything either
>tried even talking to the kid
>he proceeded to mock me and insult me in front of his friends because "he's so cool"
>tfw i literally spent 10 minutes fucking yelling and shitting a 12 year old kid together who just kept going and going because he believes he's so smug and cool and didn't even take me serious
>brother has no friends, gets bullied by this fuck now nearly daily, school won't do anything, his self esteem is literally getting ruined by an obese 12 year old albanian fuck who thinks he's a part of a gang, parents don't really care
>also parents cannot go and talk with the principal or anyone either because we live in a different country and they don't know the language properly
>entire family is depended on me who already does everything for them
>suggest letting brother switch schools
>parents say no and are strongly against it
>???

i have no idea what to do for him anymore, i feel so bad for him he's such a sweet little kid. i am usually against violence (especially towards children too) but damn i wish we were back in my home country again aka where getting beat up at school is normal if you're causing anyone trouble so this fuck would leave him alone

why are kids so fucking cruel

No. 525010

>>525009
that sounds awful, anon. i hope things get better for him soon. as far as kids go, people who think kids are innocent are fucking dumbasses. kids are worse than adults because they have all the shitty impulses but none of the socialization to not be assholes. kids are not pure or sweet by nature, they are savage little cave men acting on humans' shitty instincts.

No. 525011

>>525009
My little brother was bullied at that age too. One day he just snapped and assaulted one of the kids with a skateboard. He got in trouble but they didn’t bother him afterwards. Unfortunately sometimes violence is the only way to communicate to these shitheads that you had enough.
Where do you live? Can you get away with asking some male friends to intimidate those snot nosed assholes?

No. 525015

>>525011
i live in europe and i unfortunately only know this one guy from my middle school (i have no friends otherwise) and he lives like 8 hours away from me so i don't think that anything will happen with him. i even 'jokingly' asked him on anonym on this one site if he'd beat someone up if i paid him and he said that no he cannot do that he's a softie yadda yadda even though he's all buff and intimidating

i also considered putting up an ad online or something like that but man, that's also kinda pathetic isn't it? paying someone to beat or intimidate some little kids but i wish they'd just leave him the fuck alone without me having to do any that (which i consider to be my very very very last option)

but thank you for your answer

>>525010
thank you and you're seriously right, i agree with everything you've said 100%

the only good thing is that his last day of school is next tuesday which means he won't see them for a month

No. 525020

>>525015
Maybe not an ad, that’s kinda weird. Maybe a tinder boy is a better option. It’s not pathetic at all imo, those kids can deal some serious psychological damage to your brother.

No. 525055

>>524981
>>524991
I also have anxiety as well as depression and guess what? I'm dying because I may lose my job and I have no idea how I will survive then.
Seriously fuck you for whining how bad you feel at your safe home, with your job and classes cause you have to hear about covid19.

No. 525061

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let the oppression and "my problem is worse than yours" olympics begin!

No. 525067

>>525061
b-but muh anxiety

No. 525080

>>524637
it took me too long to actually sit down and listen to her, now I consider her one of the best. everything she's ever made is perfection

No. 525093

>>525061
I'm sorry but op sounded like a dumb cunt with no awareness whatsoever

No. 525105

>>524811
imo, she's much less annoying than regina spektor. spektor is pretty irritating to me, mostly because the themes in her songs really aren't that relatable to the average person, it's just too much whimsy for me. a lot of female musicians are like that and i can't deal. i'm really not sure which is the most accessible. i guess tidal would be, it's more calm than her others. her 'prettiest' songs are probably on there. i really love that her recordings fluctuate between anger, and just the general sense of being deflated and disappointed, especially because that's often how i feel. like anon said, she wrote most of tidal at like, 16, and tidal isn't a "good for a 16 year old" album, either. it's a top tier album no matter her age.

>>525080
exactly. this always seems to happen, if people even get around to putting in a genuine listen. i swear, everyone overlooks her because she's not histrionic and her music isn't inaccessible. i love that she's lowkey and that her lyrics and song meanings are all relatable, not just pointlessly 'eccentric' flowery lyrics that don't really communicate anything. i feel like so many female musicians just have senselessly purpley prose that don't relay any relatable themes to the listenener. i love how genuinely frustrated and disappointed she seems. you can definitely hear the emotion in her voice. i love that her emotions never seem 'put on' or angry or disappointed just for the aesthetic, and that she doesn't have a real "image" that she tries to purposely cultivate. she just does her thing without trying to dress or act weird.

No. 525118

I hate when people purposefully pet their cats it the end of their back - like bitch! Of course they like it, that’s an erogenous zone!! Stop that shit it’s so fucking uncomfortableee

No. 525119

>>525011
>>525009
Same, my older brother literally ambushed the kid who bullied him to the point of suicide and beat him with a stick

No. 525121

>>524830
No 1 curr that you want to pretend to be Bi

No. 525123

>>525009
Scare the fat shit

No. 525124

I want to isolate myself into a forest and write and publish my writing then just perish. With my memories and how much I hurt living is not very pleasurable.

No. 525125

>>525118

What? Fuckin google it, no it isn't. It's a concentration of nerves, yes, but calling it erogenous seems rape-y. Please stop.

No. 525134

>>524662
smart choice, it would've been a terrible decision at this time

No. 525151

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I caught feelings for my best friend who's been in a relationship with someone for a couple of years now. It's honestly the strongest (and hardest) crush I've ever experienced and I'm trying really hard to distance myself but stay polite and even that is so difficult. I've deleted pictures, hidden their stories on social media and erased their contact from my phone but it's still killing me. Anyone here successfully moved on from someone willing to share some tips?

No. 525198

I basically got annoyed at my boyfriend because he came home from work and I was in the middle of voice chatting with some friends, we were all watching a shitty movie and it was fun hearing each other commentate and crack jokes. I mentioned it to him and he said "Hearing their voices the other day was basically torture." Hearing that kind of upset me because they're the only people besides my boyfriend who I interact with on a daily basis mainly due to the fact I work alone.
The rest of the hour I felt mildly annoyed of my boyfriend's presence in the house because I wanted to continue voice chatting. IDK, I feel like I'm in the wrong for prioritizing my friends over my spouse, but at the same time it was only for a couple minutes.

What annoys me the most is my boyfriend was moping at the fact he doesn't have any friends the day he heard me voice chatting the other day so I told him to join some online groups like I do and he'll eventually find a group that just "clicks". I just want to socialize sometimes and I don't think he understands the fact I work alone, while he is able to talk to other people at his work, it's important to me I'm able to talk to people besides him.

No. 525252

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Here to vent about renting with my stepdad and how weird and frustrating it's been.
I'm constantly getting kicked out of my own apartment that I pay half for because he wants special nights alone with his new girlfriends he brings over. He's finally somewhat steady with a woman he's been dating for two months. Yet she's the complete opposite to him which begs the question as to why they're really dating. I don't remember where he said they met IF he told me, but she's newly emigrated here. I know the last younger woman he met was through work. Both women have young children. I feel like he seeks out these younger women with children so he can get off on the ego of feeling like the manly provider–same circumstances he met my mom under. He's already taken this new woman on an international resort vacation (while blowing up at me whenever money is tight and constantly bitching).
Right now they look like a stereotype with a creepy age gap thrown in. He likes her because he's a boring white guy on the doorstep of 60, and she's about 20+ years younger than him so she's more "fun." She's African black which paints her as ~exotic~ in his eyes. Makes my eyes roll because up to this point he's never been interested in foreign cultures yet now because he's dating a black woman he's suddenly woke. Except he's only woke for black culture now, as he's still completely fine saying racial shit about the hispanic people he works with, or any minority culture that he still doesn't really like such as asian culture.

I get the feeling these single mothers are tolerating my stepdad because they think he can offer them financial stability, as he pretends to be super savvy. I want to tell them the truth, they ought to run away now while they still can. He owes the IRS over $20k for unreported taxes, and made a lot of really fucked up financial decisions that my pickme mother constantly bailed them out of. I'm honestly shocked that these women don't find splitting rent with his adult daughter as a major red flag despite the fact that he makes three times as much as me. Yet I'm sure he's spun a story to them about how I must need him or something.
Just as an example: I've been stocking our empty pantry with non-perishable food due to corona (he's been complaining like a toddler because it's not sugary cereals and junk food) but I had to because we may be quarantined and we had nothing. We also needed laundry, cleaning, and hygiene supplies. I spent $300 for a month's supply. Well, he was telling me it was a good thing because he had no money due to him never following up with his truck registration, blowing it off, and then having to pay over $400 with late penalty fees. Completely irresponsible, but as of two days ago that was his excuse for not helping me to buy stuff for our wellbeing. His girlfriend is coming over tonight and I'm to be spending the night at a friend's house. He calls me to ask if I can help him haul up groceries. Groceries? After I just bought a pantry full of food? Well, he bought himself and her fresh expensive fruits, fresh seafood, cocktail and mixers, wine, snacks, and store bread (after I said I would attempt to make bread with the ingredients I had bought). So clearly I misunderstood when he said he "didn't have money," he meant to say he only had enough money to impress his new girlfriend. No money for this virus nonsense.
I'm getting ahead of myself by talking about the money he blew on fresh groceries today anyway, I must mention the awkward dinner he spent $120 on last night.

She came over last night to join us with his friends to go out to dinner. I really didn't want to go but I didn't want to give off the impression that I was socially ostracizing myself from her and the friends. It was only my second time meeting her. I'm usually not one to judge on dress choices, yet I couldn't help to notice how flamboyantly she arrived (tight peach cling dress with huge shoulder ruffles bedazzled with rhinestones and shiny high heels) for a joint that's pretty low key. Meanwhile my stepdad wasn't nearly as dressed to impress, because when does he ever? She's fashionable and he's a walking milquetoast, polo shirt with jeans-wearing old fart.
While we were waiting for his friends to say they were ready, we sat around in the apartment. It was really awkward. He did that annoying thing where he said he had to go do something like brush his teeth for 15 fucking minutes hoping that we'd strike up a conversation. I was polite, smiley, and tried to ask her questions but she seemed very quiet and reserved. She didn't reciprocate at all and didn't ask me anything about myself, which is a major tonal shift from what he's told me about her that is that she's so bubbly, positive, chatty, and asks about me. It didn't change much when the friends got there and we were all seated at the restaurant for dinner. They both got an expensive pasta dish and wine, but I ordered a $10 sandwich and water. Probably out of the subconscious money guilting he gave me the other day. She was very quiet the entire time, which I'll chalk up to shyness for now but I imagine she's much more extroverted when she's got the old man alone. And you know, I don't even think they really have much chemistry between them. He leads her a lot, especially when she was trying to decide on the menu, and she kind of just follows. Same with their conversations. Honestly wanted to tell him to pump the brakes a bit, it really put me off how he was treating her like a little kid who couldn't understand a menu or order for herself.
I mean she's perfect for my control freak stepdad for now, but the second she tells him no or resists him in any way, is gonna be where the real test of this relationship will begin.
On the way out of the restaurant she was catcalled by some punk hanging out a raised SUV. It was degrading and embarrassing but of course my stepdad took it as a compliment and was giddy that he had what another man wanted to fuck. We drove separately, so I went home expecting that they'd both return to the apartment but apparently she left without saying goodbye. Meh.

He's talking about wanting to move out at the end of the lease, so hopefully I can get a roommate and not have to deal with this anymore. Thanks for reading my blog.

No. 525281

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so of course I have to listen unnecessary repetitive and non asked advice but the moment I do the same to them all I get are standard answers just because

No. 525286

Can't believe my mother gave up on her own daughter for some diseased dick. My dad, who has been abusing her for years, told me it was normal for men to beat their wives. So I beat him up. And now my entire family is treating me like a monster, and they have no reaction to the things he say. I'm living in the fucking twilight zone.

No. 525294

>>525286
Anon you're completely on the right on this situation and your family is full of digusting complacent enablers, keep fighting the good fight and get outta there soon.

No. 525302

>>525286
You're a badass for standing up for yourself and giving that dick a taste of his own medicine. Your family sucks, I hope you won't let them bring you down. Stay strong, anon, we're rooting for you!

No. 525309

There's absolutely no standard in sex work and men are fucking crazy and gullible and don't know how to spot authenticity. I don't even wanna call those that pay for sex work "men" because they are not, they're just subhumans guided by animalistic desires.

I don't wanna talk too much about women doing sex work because they at least have the excuse of living in a capitalistic world where everything revolves around money, but most women involved with sex work are terrible and they go crazy and start hating other women for no reason because their entire life revolves around the attention and power and approval they get from men and how they can use it to make themselves feel even more powerful.

No. 525328

>>525309
After my mom committed suicide and I felt hopeless and like I have no future I turned to online sex work because my dignity was taken from me when I was 8 and sexually abused anyway and when I was 17 and in the mental hospital I got groomed by a 55 year old man who introduced me to a policeman from my country that was involved with camming studios that have very non-ethical ways of conducting their activity. At the time I was abusing benzos and my mind is very foggy but they would both have sex with me and the police man guy took me to the camming studio because I was "smart" and knew english, that's my first contact with online sex work. After that I told myself since my life is fucked anyway, I could at least make some money so I completely cut contact with them and did camming from home for a couple of weeks then quit because I thought I should give life another chance.

After both my grandmother and my mom died I decided to turn to sex work again considering that I was homeless and pretty fucked up again. When I started camming again I got targeted by this other sex worker that hated me just because I existed and she sent her entire fanbase after me and spent literally all the resources she had to hurt me for no reason.

They managed to find my country, find my college, doxx me, make hundreds of facebook accounts messaging people from my college with nude pictures of me. The only thing that I had gooing for me in the past months has been college and I loved philosophy and loved my professors so much that it felt like I was being reborn from dust. My professors were very appreciative of my essays and of my thinking which made me extremely happy and now I cannot go there anymore. I cannot go to college anymore because I am a whore slut that everybody hates and that doesn't deserve respect.

Everybody looked down on me the last time I went there and it was very stressful and the jokes they make about me and the memes they make about me are terrible and it's like I don't even have the right to speak anymore because now I am a whore.

No. 525346

>>525328
I will have to do this forever from now on because my future is ruined but I don't wanna do it because I hate it and because my life's been so chaotic it is not even what I wanted to do. Wish me good luck on finding the courage to kill myself.

Nothing helps anymore right now. Not even therapy, it feels stupid. I go to this woman that had the opportunity to put her shit together and she doesn't even understand what I tell her about online sex work and how my life is compromised because of it because she doesn't know how things work.

My literal therapist told me >you shouldn't be ashamed that you have done it a lot of women do that nowadays and they are proud and confident you should be too and you shouldn't give a fuck about people telling you about how you are a whore.
After I proceeded trying to explain to her how my naked body is linked to my real name on the internet and I tried to explain what the world "doxxing" means she literally told me >now you're making me think you are not on the spectrum but just have bpd and you're trying to blow things out of proportion to give yourself an excuse to commit suicide

sorry for writing so incoherently i snorted way too much ketamine

I loved people and I loved the world so much. Did I do this to myself ??? I keep asking myself this because I don't wanna hate life and how the world works but I cannot lie to myself I already hate myself but now I hate the world too because I didn't ask to be sexually abused at 8, I didn't ask to be born in a dysfunctional family in eastern europe, I didn't ask to spend my childhood in fucking slums with no toilet. I didn't have a toilet until I was 8-9 and moved in with my dad. We would all defecate in our yards and I remember pooping with the chicken around me just to look at my poop and see how it was full of intestinal worms and now I have to watch entitled men and women on the internet tell me what suffering is i profoundly hate myself and the world it is all worse than I could even imagine

No. 525351

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I hate that if a girl gets pissed off all a guy needs to do is go "oh lol that bitch was crazy bruhhhhhhh"
To disregard anything she says. He did steal 35 dollars from me and he did use me for sex. Idk how he feels I'm crazy lol

No. 525353

>>525346
your therapist should kill herself.

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>>525351
Not to mention I removed him from my friends on snapchat weeks ago and a few days ago he comes back trying to add me. I didnt add him. He was probably horny or some shit
I was this same "crazy bitch" the last time I blocked him.

Now that I bring up him manipulating me into sex by claiming he likes me, calling me baby and the fact that i want my money back…now its "oh bruh you're crazy duddeeeeeee"again. A few weeks ago he wanted sex and I said "why do you want to fuck a crazy person?".
It's fine being crazy when he wants his dick wet I guess.

No. 525355

>>525351
>>525354
You should make fun of him for needing to steal money from a crazy person. He thinks he has his shit together but he's just a broke scrote. Or you could just reply with 'k' and block and delete him. These sort of manipulative dudes aren't worth shit. My moneys on him randomly messaging you again because he still wants to have sex with you, nothing gets between stupid coomers and their nonsensical urges to rekindle failed relationships just to get their dick wet.

No. 525357

>>525346
>>525328
>>525309
Sober up and keep going to college. Hang on to it with your dear life.

No. 525358

>>525355
I didnt call him out of his name or insult him any of the times I went off. I made it clear i was pissed off because I felt used. When we met I was very vulnerable and he knows this which is why he pulls "crazy" card. He came to me calling me hun, babe, calling me cute, holding my hand and then one day hes like "I dont wanna lead you but I dont want a relationship"…maybe you should have mentioned that before fucking me numerous times?

No. 525359

>>525354
Just tell him that his penis was too tiny for you anyways, and you faked all of your orgasms. Done.

No. 525360

>>525359
I've already done that and he still came back for sex. He cant even fuck right and does all this porno stuff. Everytime we finished fucking he would ask if I came and I'd say no.

No. 525361

>>525351
>>525354
Chop his little sausage off and make a roast with it

No. 525375

>>525354
Anon, it's awful but he's clearly using you for sex and money, and you've begged him essentially to be your friend because you told him you don't have any. He's going to try and use you for sex if you keep talking to him. Just ghost him

No. 525389

Ex ghosted and blocked me everywhere. She came back just to say she hated old me, that I don't believe in tra nonsense, and to draw fat people. Somedays I really wish I'd never said I was gender crit but then I wouldn't be true to myself. She's older and still believes in tumblr inclusivity politics, maybe it's best we didn't last.

No. 525390

>>525346
Your posts always break my heart, eastern eu anon. I know some reply on an imageboard won't do much but I hope you will one day find the support and healing you deserve, as well as fulfill your artistic goals.

No. 525435

I'm so tired of people telling me to love myself blah blah
How am I supposed to love myself when I've consistently been told I'm trash since i crawled out of my moms vagina? Where am I supposed to pull self love from?out if my asshole?

No. 525436

>>525435
>Where am I supposed to pull self love from?out if my asshole?
I mean, yes.

No. 525439

>>525435
From reality. Everyone is good at something or at least decent.

No. 525444

>>525435
If the concept of "self-love" was dependent on validation from people other than you it wouldn't be called self-love so yes. It is possible to learn to care less about what they think.

No. 525489

I'm that person who puts others first when they're in need, but I'm not a good person because I want the credit. I want someone to tell me "good job" or something. I want attention for it, as fucked up as it is.

No. 525504

>>525444
>>525436
>>525444
anon is right though. people say "self love" without realizing you need a respite from constant negativity to be able to develop self love. that's not to say you need positive reinforcement from others to develop it, just a break from negativity. most people who preach self love aren't in environments where they're inescapably surrounded by negativity or abuse. they're usually just in neutral environments that aren't especially supportive. that's a much easier situation to develop or nurture self love in, than a highly negative one. as usual, it's more "self help" nonsense that ignores the larger context of abusive environments and shifts more blame and responsibility on abuse sufferers.

No. 525518

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I hope pt is okay. It has been too long..

No. 525534

I feel retarded. My head is stuffy and throat feels weird and tight but I don't know what it is: allergies, cold, or the stupid corona virus. I'm not coughing, and was sneezing a few times but not that much. Probably just a cold. I came back from my college campus a week ago and my idiotic parents invited twenty people over today (they cooked so much food and didn't want to cancel). Maybe the symptoms are just placebo or out of anxiety. I really hope I wake up fine tomorrow.

No. 525546

>Tfw started new job in my field
>Have pretty chill coworkers
>Get comfortable and joke around a stuff
>Start becoming the butt of jokes and everything
>Get fluttered so I lose my wording and articulation
>They keep laughing and making fun of me
>"We're just kidding around, anon!"
>Try my best not to cry in front of them and every one else
>It's school/my previous jobs all over again.
Fuck, I'm such a airheaded clutz and it's affecting my life. I'm so sad, I really thought growing older would help me and no longer go through this experience.

No. 525551

>>525546
As someone who has been in that situation at work, it is not you. At a previous job, a coworker who knew I was anxious gaslight me (going to long lengths) into thinking I blacked out. I was thinking that will always happen, it was all me, but turns out that's not true. I got a different job, with the nicest people. I did something deeply embarassing, like extremely airheaded, and ya know what? They made a few jokes, but stayed respectful. I guess what I'm trying to say is, it's not you. Embrace yourself, clutziness and all, and know you may find yourself accepted in the right environment.

No. 525621

>>525354
That emoji pisses me off.

No. 525631

>Don't give a shit about Corona
>Just enjoy having an excuse to stay home to work remotely while getting comfy
Based hysterics, thanks for allowing me to sleep late

No. 525637

I like having get togethers with my friends but sometimes I just wanna hit a joint and chill with them, but they always push video games on me when I visit. The games are never relaxing nor party zen like, they're always these difficult ragequit tier games and I have no interest in those anymore. I think it's pointless and not worth the aggravation, I'm fine to watch but they always hand me the controller when they die-which is often-in an attempt to include me despite my wishes. I now have a rep for being bad at games because I don't really try. I'm mostly annoyed at being handed the controller so I just find some way to die and act shocked. Dudes I just wanna relax! Playing competitive games isn't relaxing to me. I get enough frustration from my job just let me have my weekends haha oh god why.

No. 525648

>>525637
Have you tried explaining this to them? If they're really your friends, they should want you to be able to relax with them. Maybe suggest a zen/chill game night where you guys take turns playing an intriguing puzzle type or open world game like Minecraft, you guys can take turns building and destroying stuff for shits & giggles while you smoke.

No. 525653

>>525435
>>525504
It can be done but you have to be persistent. You're trying to undo years of brainwashing from retard family and peers, you can't just change your thinking for one day and expect to be better. It's not your fault that you absorbed this shit without thinking, because it likely started from childhood and children are so impressionable. They absorb all the shit around them and internalize it.

That's why when you're a more conscious adult, it's important to think why you suddenly take the random shit that people say as true. Why do you lie down and accept the abuse without challenging it? Who the fuck calls a child trash, and what kind of person does that make them? Imagine if you saw another mother doing that to a child. Wouldn't you defend the child and scorn the mother? Wouldn't you tell them it's alright and try to protect them? Think that way of yourself.

No. 525654

Bought myself a Kinder egg today. It was an impulse buy at the checkout and it's the first childish thing that I've allowed myself to buy in years. I had a lacking childhood (to put it mildly) and then as an adult I had an abusive ex shame and berate me for still liking them every now and then.

Anyway I just arrived into work and opened it while having a coffee. I bought it cos they were Dc comic toys and I got the exact figure I had hoped for, a cool lil batman, happy days. It occurs to me that this guy (ex) always described a perfect childhood and he still turned out abusive with plenty of faults and shortcomings of his own. He had a supportive family who he still fell back on in lots of ways and he'd had an advantage in education and in getting jobs yet he still failed in areas like relationships, holding a job etc.. Don't know why I ever let him get to me but I've spent the last while slowly being hit with these memories of how much bs he aimed at me over tiny things and how hypocrital he was in his criticisms of everyone else.

He had an ex who would get drunk and message him about shit from back when they were together.. now I'm not about to text him and look crazy but I get why she found herself randomly hit with realisations that he was a massive hypocrite.

Long story short, I once had a man berate me to no end for buying a fucking Kinder egg when I just wanted a certain licensed figure… I finally bought one without attaching over the top shame to it. Realised my life is so much better now.

No. 525728

I work in a supermarket and we should be getting paid extra to deal with these insanely selfish sheeple. I fucking hate people. The media is 100% to blame for this. They should be ashamed of themselves. It just goes to show how easily manipulated the general population is. If you still believe a word of what the media says after this bullshit is over, then literally just kill yourself.

No. 525729

>>525728
What should people believe in, then?

No. 525732

>>525728
> I work in a supermarket and

Me too, hard/busy day here but people are stressed out and I get that.

> literally just kill yourself

..

No. 525734

>>525728
The real problem is that you work at a grocery store.

No. 525737

>>525728
The thing I hate is
>oh gee pandemic we can’t get in contact with anyone
>got to go out grocery shopping every day for the next week
My parents are doing this right now and all I can think is how annoying and overwhelming it is for the store employees to deal with all the boomers like them that get off to disasters.

No. 525738

>>525734
Whats wrong with working at a grocery store? More brainwashing. And what if we all went on strike tomorrow? What would you idiots do? Probably kill yourselves in a shoot out with police when you start looting for a roll of toilet paper you already have 50 of.

No. 525739

>>525734
The real problem is they work a fairly average job but a stressful few days turns them into this mess

No. 525742

>>525738
> you idiots

Calm down oh mighty smart cashier

No. 525743

>>525739
nta but id assume a pandemic isnt exactly a common reason for stress? anyone being forced to work in huge crowds during this mess is going tp become a bit unhinged sooner or later.

No. 525751

>>525734
Is it against the rules or?

No. 525752

>>525743
I'm working the same job in similar conditions and have generalised anxiety, still doing fine. Maybe they just aren't all that level headed to begin with?

No. 525790

Sometimes I hate being a lesbian so much that I literally want to kill myself. I'm 30, single, never going to find a partner because my dating options are scarce or too much into the LGBT scene. Lesbians are constantly either sexualized or ridiculed by men and straight women see us as sex predators. Even though most western societies are "gay friendly" now a lot of us have families that wouldn't accept us. It's no wonder why so many of us trooned out, it's actual fucking hell being a GNC gay woman.

No. 525814

>>525738
You are mad/10.
Said it because I used to be a cashier in college and shit would be a nuthouse before, during, and after shitty weather for weeks depending on the duration and how bad and if it was declared an emergency. Holidays were a shitshow too.
You're complaining about a literal feature of your job and acting like it's anything new. It isn't. It's not a job for you.

As for if cashiers were gone tomorrow, I'd just use the self checkout like I typically do, granted they could pay one of you to stand at the kiosk. Use your big brain and calm down.

No. 525837

People are literally fucking retarded. Everyone's freaking out but instead of doing what would 100% protect against the virus, which would be staying home, everyone wants to quickly eat out, take trips, go to amusement parks, go hoarder shopping, etc

People are literally retards, also notice how everyone is sticking up on snacks and immunity vitamins but no one is stocking up on fruits and veggies, something that will actually help you

No. 525847

>>525837
yea, why the fuck are people still attending shows and doing casual for fun trips i have no fucking clue. As to the fruit thing, i mean that shit rots but you have to eat now even without the strict quarantine so why not just eat some fresh stuff while you still can lmao.

No. 525868

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I have a sugar addiction. I’m not overweight (maybe not YET) but my diet is such shit. I eat so much chocolate and sugary, processed shit. I’m depressed and it’s one of the only things that still gives me pleasure. I’m scared for my health but I don’t know how to stop. I don’t exercise either. I think if I don’t end up committing suicide when I’m young, I will die of t2 diabetes or heart disease. My dad had a heart attack a few years ago and his side of the family has heart problems. I’m scared but I’m addicted to junk food and I don’t know how to eat like a normal person anymore. I’ve been like this for years now.

No. 525908

>>525868
- Gym
- Jogging

No. 525909

>>525868

Your taste buds and gut microbiome are prob messed up, you can stave off sugar cravings with gymnae slyvestra and it will literally make it impossible to eat sugar but it doesn’t taste good and it will give you really bad stomach issues at first. Probiotics can Help. Try replacing one junk thing in your diet with fruit juice- it’s full of sugar and still gives you that sugar rush while conditioning you to stop perceiving high processed junk as your staple foods. Keep going till you switch out everything to “healthy” sugar rushes then slowly introduce healthier foods. Trying to quit cold turkey is basically setting you up for failure.

No. 525916

>>525868
Same, I have gained weight but im no where near my original weight but back then I thought a lot like you are now. I made sure I walked 1-2 hours every single day and I counted my intake using myfitnesspal and also only drank water. Its a low effort way to lose weight and does take a while but it works if you don't mind about looking a certain way (i.e gaining muscle, being toned etc)

No. 525958

>>525868
I eat way too much fast food and snacks despite not being overweight myself and every time I think about changing my eating habits I end up going right back to where I was. It fucking sucks anon, I feel you. My kryptonite is salty shit.

No. 525967

I'm so tired and frustrated. I put so much time and effort but I'm still stuck in the bottom of the barrel while everyone else moves on ahead. What's the point? I fucking hate competition and how it's ingrained into literally every little element of society.

My 'friends' aren't even talking to me since they've moved ahead and I haven't. Fuck them.

No. 525981

>>525916
>>525908
I might start trying to go to the gym in my apartment complex and do some jogging/speedwalking on the treadmill for at LEAST 20-30min.

>>525909
I’ll probably try to slowly stave off junk food. Like only letting myself have anything sugary every OTHER day and then decreasing even more. I know it sounds sad but you’re right about cold turkey being a setup for failure.

>>525958
>every time I think about changing my eating habits I end up going right back to where I was.
YES, that’s exactly what happens with me. It’s so hard to stop. I feel like sugar/junk food addiction should be more recognized.

No. 525994

I must have forgotten how shitty the mattress is at my friend's guest bedroom. I slept over last night and woke up with this most excruciating back shoulder blade pain. I can barely move without feeling stabbed, and more than 12 hours later it's still lingering. It hurts bad fam.

No. 526064

I was curious about what the New York va’s were up to since it’s been awhile I’ve heard them in dubs so I browsed through Twitter. Needless to say, they are passively butthurt about losing their dubbing jobs for Pokémon and are probably not over it given they still consider themselves as the og Ash, Misty and Brock when announcing their conversation appearances. It’s been almost 20 years, man. Move tf on!

No. 526069

does snorting ketamine work for severe insomnia?

No. 526073


No. 526084

I wish Guru Gossip wasn't such a dumpster fire from the early 2000s in terms of UI. There are smaller youtubers I wanna talk shit about that only ever get discussed over there. But gotdamn it's just not worth it.

No. 526086

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Not sure if this belongs in the stupid questions thread, but I guess this is more of a vent than anything. I go through phases frequently where I'll just become unbelievably horny for no reason and the smallest thing could set me off and make me start imagining all of these sexual fantasies literally out of nowhere, like when I'm waiting in line at the grocery store or reading a paper for school. The thing is in reality I'm pretty much the opposite of sexually active, as I've had really little interest (especially recently) in pursuing a romantic relationship/hookup/anything similar. I'm assuming this is probably a hormonal thing, but these phases don't really seem to follow any sort of pattern in relation to my period cycle. Whenever I'm alone at home I just start feeling myself up under my shirt when I'm doing the most mundane thing like checking my email or writing stuff for school. It's not even masturbating because I don't do it to get off. It just feels nice the same way I play with my hair or crack my knuckles out of habit when I'm bored and trying to concentrate on something.

Anyway now that I'm cooped up in my house because of coronavirus, this has become more apparent to me and I'm not sure if this is normal? I'm definitely way too ashamed to ask my friends about this, so I'm just wondering if this is relatively normal or if I'm basically the equivalent of a cumbrain or am just really sexually repressed.

No. 526087

I have no friends I can talk to deep shit about. It's my own fault pushing everyone away because I am not mental energy after keeping myself from breaking down and falling apart every day.

I am going through something really hard right now and I just need to talk about it with someone I can trust. There is one person that might understand but I dont feel like I can trust her with my thoughts since she is my boyfriends oldest friend. I am tear myself apart and drinking heavily again and I have no one. Sure people would say they would be there for me but I can't contact them, vent, cry, and giving them my horrible thoughts but then disappear for 6 months again. My fucking therapist can't handle myself destruction or super dark shit. I can't keep clawing my way to being happy and fixed every moment of every day. I need to fall apart, make bad decisions. I'm done, I'm so spent. I just want to drink enough that I can just forget about it for at least a moment. I can't do this.

No. 526088

>>526086
for what its work, i do this too. but i'm not exactly the picture of stability. the causally touching thing definitely. thinking about sexual fantasies is just someone good olde serotonin.

No. 526092

>>526086
You're hella repressed, anon. Please fuck someone when the Corona passes.

No. 526101

>>526087
I'm sorry anon, I get it. Theres some fucked up shit that happened to me as well as that I did as an idiot teenager. Lost almost all my friends from pushing people away over time. Didn't do any hard drugs or go on a sex spree but I cracked and bought a large rum bottle. I'm done with being some goody too shoes introvert. For once I just want to cry while drunk because I never let myself. Not like I had a social image to keep or people to worry now anyway.

No. 526109

>>526101
thank you. it's strangely comforting that we are fucked up together. Cheers to you where ever you are

No. 526117

I get that coronavirus is a bigger deal than my plans but let me rant for a minute.

I'm PISSED off that this ruined spring break for me. This was the worst and last college semester of my life, I'm taking 18 credit hours, working, doing tax clinics etc… I planned all this cool stuff and I've been looking forward for it for months. I normally do not go anywhere or do anything because I'm busy and tired so this was the one chance for me to have fun. Now literally all my plans are getting cancelled the day before I planned to go. It's a fucking bummer and I want to cry because literally everything is closing tomorrow and I'm just going to sit at home like I always do and my bf is just gonna leave early because there's literally no reason to stay here and sit in a hotel. Then after the week ends, I'll probably still have to go to work at my university (with confirmed cases in the area) because I can't afford not to so I'll risk getting this stupid ass virus anyway from all the dirty boomer employees. FUCKKKKK let me live

No. 526132

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I can't work from home because I have shitty internet there, therefore I have to keep traveling to work via public transport. I'm so pissed that everyone else gets to stay home, talks about how they care about their family as if I fucking don't like I have a choice. I'm also part of the high risk group since I have breathing issues so fucking yey.

No. 526150

I watched one video by Arielle Scarcella talking to Steven Crowder and now the YT algorithm is recommending Candace Owens. I wish it turned me onto cool music as much as it tries to turn me into a conservative. Fuck you.

No. 526156

>>523788
Fuck me. Like probably most of you we look up to progressive countries like germany, or sweden. I thought that getting together with a swede dude would be nice due to expectation of being liberal and a normie. My ex seems to force himself to act like a normie and has been discreetly sprinkling seeds of right politics because my dumbass believed him(idk swede anons, he said that malmo is a warzone shithole like syria) but now that i think about it, he's incel as fuck. Thought that he grew up past that angsty phase but its clear to me now that he still has it but is larping as a model citizen.

https://gotechdaily.com/sweden-may-be-the-most-incel-country-in-the-world/

No. 526163

>>526156
Your ex isn't wrong about sweden though

No. 526164

>>526156
Swedes are fucking awful people, both women and men. Don't interact with them. Also Malmö being a warzone shithole isn't just a rightwing meme, it's the truth.

No. 526192

>>526164
How are swedes any worse than any other ethnicity? I'm just trying to live my life.

No. 526208

>>526164
You sound crazy. Did a Swede steal your bf or something?

No. 526213

>>526156
How are they incel and not volcel? Blonde hair and blue eyes are coveted by most of the world, an average or even ugly swede could have a harem of different partners every day if they wanted to.

No. 526304

>>526213
do you think all swedes are blonde? wtf is going on. but yea, most of my swedish friends are pretty autistic in their humor

No. 526306

>>526304
What even is autistic humour?

No. 526311

i hate my fucking life nothing ever works out for me. every time i try to do something good for myself it turns to shit. other than being born in a first world country (albeit one of the shittier parts) i couldn't have just one thing

the only thing i can hope for the .000000000000000000000…1% chance that we can actually be reborn, and i can try to reverse my karma so that i can have some kind of luck in that life. which probably means that i should stop going on lolcow

No. 526387

Why do I feel so heartbroken about losing someone that didn't even bother to say goodbye before cutting me off?

No. 526399


No. 526405

for some reason this social distancing got my brain reminding me of my daddy issues

No. 526414

>>526311
Same crap with me
Doesn't help that I stay in my room all day everyday, being friendless and lastly having an unsupportive dysfunctional shit family

No. 526427

>>526311
Same… I have a plan in mind, take the first steps and then something happens, and I don't have the power to fight against it. I gave up, really, I just live in the moment.

No. 526447

Warning: a lot of selfpitying and stupidass venting

I am an autistic woman, although my autism is not that “bad” and I manage to live a “normal” life. For all my life I have had a bad relationship with my appearance, going from “I don’t care” to “I’m ugly I deserve to die”.
Growing up I learnt how to dress and do make up or arrange my hair, discovering that in fact I appear as nice looking at the eyes of others and, sometimes I too think I can be “more than cute”.
Since I moved to a bigger city, I tried to be “like other girls” and dressing feminine and doing myself up, which was a nice boost in my selfconfidence and my sensuality boosted up, too. But I felt like I was forcing myself to act and pretend I was more “girly” and less of a “tomboy”. As if it weren’t even my life I was living. It caused me severe anxiety to the point I shaved my head on a whim.
I got into a nice relationship with a man I love, and the more I grew comfortable with myself as a person the more I grew uncomfortable trying to “dress up” and be someone I felt I was not. Everytime I wore a skirt and acted “girly” I felt bad about behaving not-like-myself.
Thing is, it’s being a lot I haven’t dressed myself up, I wear more tomboyish clothes and do light makeup, but I feel bad about my appearance once again, I’d like to feel sexy and beautiful and have real selfconfidence and not the “fake sexyness”. It’s affecting my sex life too, since I’m growing more and more uncomfortable with my movements and my image. I love to look at beautiful and sexy girls, but everytime I do I feel more and more like a blob compared to them and even if my libido is still the same I don’t act on it because in my head I am this horrendous blob no matter how many times my bf and friends tell me how beautiful I am.
I don’t have anyone to speak to, since all others say is “don’t feel like that, you’re beautiful blahblah” and I end up feeling guilty and hating myself even more and being even more conscious of being overweight and clumsy and compare myself to those sexy girls confident enought to show their boobs on camera despite its size.

No. 526449

>>526447
Samefag. I know it sounds a lot like I’m humble bragging or something, but I’m really not and I don’t know how not to sound like I am. I’d like to keep other’s opinion into consideration, but actually it’s worse to hear others complimenting my face while knowing how I look undressed and being selfconscious of my uncoordinated body lol.

No. 526454

>>526447
Maybe you do look like a dump and your friends and loved ones are just being nice, and unless you rely on looks for work, it really doesn't matter what the actual case is.
Sounds like your low self esteem affects your ability to be able to take a compliment or be comfortable with yourself. That's beyond "I need people to vent to" and more like you've gotta get therapy.

No. 526460

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So my piece of shit bastard of a father just lied to me and made me cry.i had a gut feeling it was false but I fell for it anyway.damn it I hope coronavirus kills him,I hate crying so much I already did like 4 times this month,I tell myself not to be a pathetic, spineless crybaby but here I am.
I hate being 18 years old.
He lied about my step brother not buying a plane ticket for myself (leaving me behind this boring 3rd world shithole)but somehow I fucking fell for it,he even tried to FORCIBLY hug me even though I said 20 times not to touch or hug me.Man fuck him,he even was talking in a babyish manner that "everything's is going to be okay"
At this point,he's worse than my own mother.

No. 526462

>>526454
> Sounds like your low self esteem affects your ability to be able to take a compliment or be comfortable with yourself. That's beyond "I need people to vent to" and more like you've gotta get therapy.

Indeed, I need therapy because it’s also result of abuse and bullying. Thing is, I can’t afford it, sooo

No. 526495

>>526460
come back in like 4 years when you're not an entitled brat.

No. 526496

>>526460
He sounds crazy. I'm sorry that happened to you, anon.

No. 526513

I know there’s a corona thread but I’m rly just venting so.. here it is.
My husband and I have been feeling just a little under the weather, he’s seen a doctor and they didn’t recommend he get tested for it. Literally just a couple days of feeling crappy, one day with a low fever, then a couple days of recovering. That’s the pattern for both of us. I called out of work on the day I had a fever because I really needed to rest, my body was struggling. My boss fucking emails me today to tell me he got my shifts covered and needs me to see a doctor before I’m allowed to return to work… okay, sure, that’s responsible. But this fucking sucks for me, I work very little to begin with and now I know I’m gonna struggle to cover my bills. On top of that, I can’t really afford to get a check up… my health insurance will cover a corona test, if I need one, but doesn’t do much for doctors visits. I work retail, so I don’t have sick or vacation time to use. I just wish they had asked me to see a doctor BEFORE just taking my shifts away, or offered to pay me for the hours missed… or to cover the check up cost…. ugh. Luckily my mom and husband offered to help with my bills if I need it, but it’s just annoying. I wish my job cared more about its employees, especially right now. The only plus side is I’ll have an entire week free to play animal crossing after it comes out lmao

No. 526525

>>526495
How considerate of you

No. 526527

>>526495
Piss off, OP has all the right to be upset I bet you're some sheltered burguer NEET who doesn't know how horrible life is on a 3rd world shithole. OP is not spineless, these two did her dirty

No. 526528

My friend is convinced that because I've never had a boyfriend I must be gay. Like I don't want to appear rude but ever since we started hanging out more she'll make comments like "Oh I've turned all my straight friends a little gay before" and likes to consistently hug, touch my hair or rub my shoulders despite me saying that I don't like ANYONE doing that without my permission. I don't want to come across as an ignorant straight girl but at the same time I almost don't want to hang out with her anymore because she just goes on and on about how pretty I am and that I should give women a chance. Is my friendship fucked anons? I've talked to her about this before and she just laughed it off saying I "wouldn't get it"??

No. 526534

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God I hate being straight

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>>526528
>and likes to consistently hug, touch my hair or rub my shoulders
She wants to experiment
Either say "no" or run away directly

No. 526546

>>526534
>haha sorry I sent you my naked body without consent, but at least I’m a tall fit hot white guy, so it’s obviously the best thing you’ve ever seen
What a catch.

No. 526551

>>526534
god theyre so delusional

No. 526555

>>526534
i'm sorry you're dealing with a jerk but this guy's world view is so funny to me. like the idea of an american city having a reputation based on cocks. "so how do you like buffalo?" "oh it's alright. good people and i like the food but the weather is blah and the cocks are subpar. no, i haven't slept with anyone here yet, everyone just knows. you know how it is"

No. 526560

>>526534
Why even entertain these losers anymore. Call him a disgusting creep and move on.

No. 526562

So I do theatre. I’m an SM for a musical right now. And the shows almost certainly going to be cancelled because of Corona. So I posted on my story about how it’s a blessing in disguise since we’re already super behind schedule and that it was a bad choice of show in the first place for our company anyways since we normally have 80+ people tryout and this show has no ensemble (directors are trying to shoehorn in one and it just… isn’t it) and not many leads. Well I got a ton of people in the show replying to my story telling me they completely agree but of course as expected I had a lead sending me a goddamn novel about how I’m terrible and insensitive because she put in so much work boo hoo and this is probably her first and last time getting a lead role. And I pretty much countered it with
- I’ve put a ton of work in too
- This is probably my first and last time being SM
- Being a tech gets even less recognition than even the ensemble
And she basically replied with “You’re obviously not listening to me so this conversation is OVER.” Like goddamn I hate theatre kids so much. This girl fights with everyone - the directors, the other cast members over anything and everything. Like she just doesn’t know how to pick her battles and it was just so goddamn annoying to get countered with such a retarded and condescending ‘argument.’ Like I’m open to hearing the other side and when I listened to what she said I was super polite about it and just elaborated more about how it’s not directed at cast (because I could tell she took it that way). She was like “You would never say this to the directors” when I literally have countless times. Either way I just dropped it after that but I just know she’s got to be stroking her astronomical ego right now because she ~totally won~ that little exchange.

No. 526563

So I do theatre. I’m an SM for a musical right now. And the shows almost certainly going to be cancelled because of Corona. So I posted on my story about how it’s a blessing in disguise since we’re already super behind schedule and that it was a bad choice of show in the first place for our company anyways since we normally have 80+ people tryout and this show has no ensemble (directors are trying to shoehorn in one and it just… isn’t it) and not many leads. Well I got a ton of people in the show replying to my story telling me they completely agree but of course as expected I had a lead sending me a goddamn novel about how I’m terrible and insensitive because she put in so much work boo hoo and this is probably her first and last time getting a lead role. And I pretty much countered it with
- I’ve put a ton of work in too
- This is probably my first and last time being SM
- Being a tech gets even less recognition than even the ensemble
And she basically replied with “You’re obviously not listening to me so this conversation is OVER.” Like goddamn I hate theatre kids so much. This girl fights with everyone - the directors, the other cast members over anything and everything. Like she just doesn’t know how to pick her battles and it was just so goddamn annoying to get countered with such a retarded and condescending ‘argument.’ Like I’m open to hearing the other side and when I listened to what she said I was super polite about it and just elaborated more about how it’s not directed at cast (because I could tell she took it that way). She was like “You would never say this to the directors” when I literally have countless times. Either way I just dropped it after that but I just know she’s got to be stroking her astronomical ego right now because she ~totally won~ that little exchange.

No. 526589

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How the fuck do you stop giving a shit about how an abusive ex talks about you to their manipulative partner? I tl;dr made bad choices bc I didn’t know what a healthy relationship and I’m haunted by my toxic ex and his gf

No. 526592

My best friend makes almost twice as much money as I do. He says he never has enough money for anything and barely gets by, yet constantly eats fast food, buys random expensive nerd shit, has subscriptions to every streaming service and cable and wonders where his money goes???

I'm so beyond frustrated when I listen to him especially since I have been living on a food budget of 100 usd per month for a half a year. We have basically the same rent and utilities and yet he can't figure out how to get his shit together. My only suggestion was to take a hard look at his budget (which I don't think he has) and see where he can cut costs. Whenever he starts bitching I really have to hold back so I don't blow up at him. Not sure what to say or do.I'm so beyond frustrated when I listen to him especially since I have been living on a food budget of 100 usd per month for a half a year. We have basically the same rent and utilities and yet he can't figure out how to get his shit together. My only suggestion was to take a hard look at his budget (which I don't think he has) and see where he can cut costs. Whenever he starts bitching I really have to hold back so I don't blow up at him.

Not sure what to say or do.

No. 526598

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My boyfriend of 3 years is moving away and I am extremely depressed about it. Because of the coronavirus and the transition of courses to online, he is moving away back with his family since he basically graduated. They just arranged this today and he’s leaving in 5 days. The speed of which this is happening is hitting me in shock and I can’t help but lose my shit crying. I knew this was coming but it was supposed to be in around 3-4 months… now it’s 5 days. I am beyond depressed. We plan to get married so I want to hold on but long distance relationships fucking destroy me like nothing else. When we first started dating he had to work in Germany for 6 months and in that brief period of time I completely and permanently destroyed my arms with scars from how bad my depression got. (also got hospitalized) I have no family, no friends, no online friends, absolutely no one but him (this is my own fault and issue). Now, its not sure how long he will stay there and most likely for years as he was planning to work in that province anyway.
I cant get out of my bed. He feels bad too but its nothing compared to me. Hes returning to his family and friends and whatnot… for him its sort of nice. I, on the other hand, am absolutely destroyed. I feel hopeless. I feel as if I will not be able to handle that separation. I know I have really bad separation problems( especially after what happened last time). i dont know what to do. I just cry all day.

No. 526600

>>526598
I'm sorry Anon. It sucks when you realize your partner didn't care about you all that much and could take you or leave you. I've seen that happen a lot with my friends, it makes me paranoid to get in relationships honestly. What makes it worse especially is that you don't have any other people in your life. But just know that there are other people out there. The worst part is thinking that your bf is the only one there is, and he's not. You can find someone who actually values and stands by you

No. 526608

>>526600
She said nothing about her bf not giving a fuck about her…

>>526598
Do you have a therapist, anon?

No. 526653

>>526598
Anon, you say that having no other connections is your own fault, but it is concerning to hear. I'm going to assume your guy is not abusive & isolating you. With that assumption, you do really need therapy for your attachment issues. Whatever happened in your past is preventing you from making a support network of friends. You're focusing all your social energy on your boyfriend and attaching with the trauma from the past. It's not healthy for you, him, or the relationship.

No. 526670

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Yall the past 4 months has been literal hellfire. First I get diagnosed that I’m slowly going fucking blind, then my childhood pet dies, then I get rejected and third wheeled, then a big convention I finally got accepted into after years gets cancelled from this god forsaken virus which is starting to blow everything else out the window. This comes after many wasted years of trying to fix my life into something better. My GAD is on fire and my depression is back full force. Just infect me with covid19 already and put me out of my misery.

No. 526674

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Can i put letters i wish i could send to my ex in here?
I'll never get to say it to his face, and he will get away with what he put me through because I have to be "level-headed" and pretend like I'm beyond it when it still hurts. But if I could, I would say this: You are a horrible person. You put me through abuse for 6 to 7 years and convinced me I deserved it. When we were reaching a rough point, you abandoned me, telling me the relationship's destruction was my fault. But you wanted to end things because your ugly horse-faced coworker started being "friendly" with you and you tossed me aside for Seabiscuit. I bet you blame me for your misery, but you're wrong. You'll always be miserable because you're a pathetic loser Kroger stock clerk with no ambitions nor care for anyone else. You'll never be in a loving relationship because you only have room in your heart for yourself.
You get to go around and tell people you know about how "awful" I was while looking like the sad boy victim when all this time you were gas lighting me and cheating on me. Fuck you. Go breed your diseased horse gf. You will always be garbage you selfish, greasy, lumpy-bodied, narcissistic fuck.

No. 526700

>>526608
He's pretty much leaving her, a guy who cared enough would make it work

No. 526718

>>526598
You need to form other important relationships (friendships) in your life, the vast majority of romantic relationships have an expiration date and if your life is otherwise empty you'll go into a full blown meltdown when it ends

No. 526720

>>526700
She said he has to move back with family, and also had to work in Germany for 6 months, and that they’re planning to be long distance. Plenty of couples have to do long distance because of work opportunities. She might be in an area without many jobs. Doesn’t mean the guy is “abandoning” her.

No. 526722

>>526720
Nta but if she sliced her arms all open last time and got hospitalized we should maybe encourage her to opt out and get help for herself? My bpd friend acted like this in a similar situation and if a relationship is sending you to the psych ward.. leave and look after yourself.

No. 526741

>>526674
>because your ugly horse-faced coworker started being "friendly" with you and you tossed me aside for Seabiscuit
Lmao, sorry anon.

No. 526746

Coincidentally my friends seem to be taking a hit to their health right around the time of this virus.

I tried to add this high school acquaintance I knew on facebook, he was always kind of cute in a dorky way and I remember how we used to tease each other in pre-calc. Just wanted to spy on what he'd been up to in life in the ten years since. I think I sent the friend request over a month ago and he finally accepted last night. I thought 'hah what a fuckboy move' but it turns out he'd been in the hospital for brain surgery due to seizures. He had a procedure back in January, something about influenza, and when he woke up from the surgery he was blind! He went from being cute to looking like hobo Tom Hanks. His eyes are dead, it's like the soul left this guy.

A different friend of my ex who was just this harmless neckbeard dude went into the hospital thinking he had coronavirus symptoms a la shortness of breath, cough, fever, etc. Well, it wasn't corona. He just developed heart failure at 30 years old from unchecked blood pressure and eating whatever he wanted. I feel sorry for his wife.

The boon about coronavirus is that it's opened up a lot of previously backed up doctor slots. I think my friends, being scared from corona, are now more likely to go in despite the cost to be safe. I think that's gonna lead to the discovery of underlying health issues they weren't aware of for years since they last saw a doctor. My visit is today, I hope I don't get bad news..

No. 526770

>>526718
Thanks for stating the obvious, doesn't change the fact that OP is unable to form relationships

No. 526772

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I hate that I keep indulging myself in self-destructive behaviors even though I know it'll upset me when it's over. I can't help myself from doing it because I have no self control and the anxiety of what will happen if I don't do it is too great to bear… even though if I don't partake in these stupid harmful habits nothing bad will happen, it's just my stupid fucking brain convincing myself that I MUST do it or else. I fucking hate being so weak and having no control over myself or my mind. God.
And what sucks is that I was going to finally speak to my doctor about going to therapy but things have got really chaotic with the coronavirus and everything got cancelled so I'll have to wait longer cause who knows how long this shit will last? But my mental health has really been slipping lately and that terrifies me.

No. 526810

my dad's breath smells SO bad because of his keto diet and he literally doesn't care. doesn't even care to brush his teeth more often or use mints. you have to stand really far away to talk to him

also he's been on it for like a year and still hasn't learned that grains have carbs so when he looks at the nutritional info of something he does this little soyboy jump and GASPS when he sees that a container of oatmeal has carbs. so obnoxious

No. 526867

I wish doctors would just be straight and tell you that they don't want to give you a medication instead of trying to bullshit you with even shittier medications.
>go in for first general physician appointment since 2017
>in the past I've taken Paxil, Wellbutrin, and Vyvanse
>for anxiety, depression, fatigue, and to treat my binge eating disorder
>Vyvanse was best but I had to stop back then because my job was shit and I wasn't making enough to afford the medication monthly
>inform the physician that I'd like to resume medication because of my diagnosed anxiety disorder
>never was formally diagnosed with depression or eating disorder just anxiety since college
>"Hahaha well I can't just start off giving you Vyvanse. We need to try other things first. What about the Wellbutrin?"
>explain that I stopped taking it because I didn't like the side effects including pressure pain in my ears
>could tell she thought my story was bullshit for some reason
>"Vyvanse isn't right for anxiety. Let's start you on Zoloft."
>try to explain how it was also to treat my fatigue and rapid weight gain
>she scolds me about how people think they're just gonna take pills for weight loss but not on her watch by god
>okay I'm not taking Zoloft, I've heard terrible side effects
>"Like what side effects?"
Lmao. What kind of bitch is gonna grill me about Vyvanse yet hand out Zoloft like it's candy?!?!?!?!?!
I smell more ways to get me to come in, pay for bullshit meds I don't want to be on, so someone can make some $$$ off my misfortune and ignore me when I say how something worked for me. Fuck her.

No. 526876

I'm on my period and oh my god I'm dying.
I'm dying mentally. I'm soooooo irritated that I can't even control it. I don't have energy to do anything and this shit happens every time when I'm on my period.
Fuck, how I am supposed to function normally like that? In that fucking state I can't do shit.
Fuck I'm so angry and sad fuuuuuuuuuuuck i'm done

No. 526892

My mom has had a natural gas leak at her house for like 6 months and we just found out and I'm so scared shes like brain damaged now or something

No. 526895

>>526810
This doesn't sound like keto breath. Keto breath smells like acetone. It's more weird than bad because it makes someone reek of nail polish remover. It also disappears after the first few weeks because the body becomes keto adapted and will use the ketones for energy instead of expelling them.

No. 526896

I've been feeling really down lately, my depression came back constant back and knee pain, and now this outbreak on the top of everything. I still live with my mum and rn she's making me feel like I'll never be loved or have friends because I am sad all the time. I really need to save up money and move.

No. 526900

my cluster b mother and I got into another and she adamantly acted like she was going to kick me out in the midst of all this coronapanic, I hope she'll change her mind but she's being fucking bonkers and I can't afford to get kicked out. this whole virus ordeal has driven everyone, including myself, up the wall and I can't stand it

No. 526902

I'm taking my last art class right now and honestly I'm such a clown. I don't know why I decided to take art courses to fulfill a requirement when drawing makes me so anxious and I can't motivate myself to do so. Professor sent out an assignment to do while classes are online and I'm filled with a sense of dread.

No. 526903

>>526902
Literally same anon. We are so close to bein done, you got this.

No. 526905

>>526896
I also have awful knee pain and my mental health is gone. I offer you my sincerest sympathy and i wish i could hug you. This sounds dumb but be sure to get enough electrolytes and fluids so your shit remains
m o i s t, love you anon mwah

No. 526906

>>526903
I'm so glad but the professor I have right now is great but has high standards. The course is about designing characters and as someone who spends most of my time on social media I have such few references from popular media to go of off.

What are you doing?

No. 526945

My old bosses proposed a full-time job for me in logo/signage design because they've seen my art and I guess they think I'll be good for that side of things too.

I used to work as a casual for them in a different area, but this job will have me in-office and full-time. A huge part of me wants to do it due to the pay, the opportunity and the position, but I'm honestly not qualified for it. They sent me some psd files and what they have is so complicated and detailed (basically a shit load of filters and other photoshop shit added to it, and not even the original text layer with the saved style design) that it's a chore to replicate. They also sold counterfeit products that my coworkers and I discovered we were selling, which lead us both to leave this company.

But now they've started under yet another name, and while I'm still suspicious of their actions, they seem to be branching out into a different market which they will struggle with selling counterfeit items in, and they appear to want to make more original products now, which gives me hope. I just hope I'm not jumping into this too fast.

No. 526947

When I was 19 I made the dumb ass decision to get involved with a married man who I thought was getting a divorce (spoiler alert: he didn't). It was probably the worst time of my life, I was already dealing with pretty severe mental illness but then on top of it this guy crushed my heart and continued to manipulate and use me for a long time (I know some anons will say I deserve it for my part in the affair which I totally accept), just completely damaged my self-esteem and added to a lot of problems I was already dealing with. I'm 24 now and in the last 5 years I've really healed from things. I graduated college, learned to drive, moved to a new place I love, I have a boyfriend and a great group of friends, an awesome job, for the first time in my life I can say I'm content and even if it doesn't seem like much I've come so far. I'm currently working in therapy on forgiveness which is funny because right as I'm beginning this process this guy (who is still married to his wife!) comes out with oh I love you, you're my soulmate, in the last five years I realized I tried to push you away because I was a coward and I wish I could be with you and nobody else and I'm going to regret the choice I made forever and I'll love you for the rest of my life…blah blah blah. When he said it I felt nothing. And it felt so good to feel nothing. To not give a singular shit about this man who at one point completely controlled me. At one point I would have DIED to hear him say those words and now I couldn't care less. Not out of malice or hate but because I've reached the point where I'm just so over what happened, I've reached a point where I'm ready to forgive and move forward with my life. I basically told him as much and it feels so nice to do right by my 19 year old self, who never thought she would ever be in this place.

No. 526949

>>526947
>some anons will say I deserved it
Not really, the fact is you were groomed and lied to by someone who knew what he was doing and led you on. You were just naive and did something dumb, meanwhile he's pure evil. I can't believe he tried to contact you again, which was a TOTAL test btw–he didn't actually mean what he said he was just trying to bait you back into a sexual situation again.
Is there a way to alert the wife? Or does she know? Anyway I wish the real justice for that man would be spending the rest of his life alone. Too bad we don't brand predators like him on the face so every woman would know.

No. 526950

I'm so fucking stressed out right now

I just got hired at wendy's which gives me anxiety, but on top of that our shower doesn't work (hasn't worked for 2 years cos my parents never got it fixed) and I rely on the gym to shower but they shut the gym down. it's going to be a pain in the ass to work and try not to smell with no shower.

also I'm turning 26 this june and that's when I get cut off from my parents' insurance. I begged and begged my mom to get me a therapist since I was 17 and she only just got me one a little under a year ago. which means I only have 3 months left of therapy. I'm also probably gonna miss even more appointments because of my new job. I'm also going to get kicked off of both of my medications- my antipsychotic and my thyroid pills which both give me bad withdrawal. did I mention I have no friends either? also the coronavirus panic is just generally giving me really bad anxiety. fuck my life, fuck every thing. I hate my neglecftul apathetic unempathetic lazy parents and I just want to kill myself

No. 526954

>>526950
Do your parents have a functioning sink where you could at least wash your hair and give yourself a sponge bath? Not that it matters, but I doubt anyone would notice the scent of your bouquet over the permasmell of Wendy's trash food. I've dated guys who'd come home from fast food jobs and they'd reek of burgers and frydaddy.

No. 526957

>>526954
yeah we have a sink, I'm gonna have to sink shower for a while. I hope no one will notice

No. 526961

>>526950
I feel you anon especially with the insurance stuff. Very panicky rn because I managed to get an interview for a fast food job and she said she’d call me for sure but I’ve heard nothing. Praying I do get hired but this virus is fucking everything up. If I can’t get a job soon I’d rather just be dead.

But I hope it all works out for you anon.

No. 526966

>>526961
thank you, i hope it all works out for you too

No. 526970

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I had to get a couple vials of blood drawn today for labs and the phlebotomist was such a brutish idiot. Short tubby older woman with a hispanic accent, you'd never suspect.
Anywhos, I've always considered it polite to inform them where their best chances are for a stick, but mostly so they don't go about digging me inside my fucking elbows and having to restick. Mkay? I have tiny little veins and I'm overweight, it's hard. I direct her towards a side vein on my arm that had a successful stick recently. She seemed so eager to not take my word for it and was eyes-gleaming looking at the god forsaken barren, crook of my arm just wanting some of that dank ruby DRILL BABY DRILL.
Holy shit the bloodlust in her eyes I was traumatized.

I finally got her to listen and lo and behold after a few pumps of my hand the side vein I mentioned was already popping out of the skin like Jesus Christ. She doubted me but stuck me. Except my arm was slanted on the chair. She stuck me, and held it for a few seconds, then LET GO. What was initially a steady flow turnt dead stop because that !!!!!charlatan!!!! didn't realize the weight of the tubing connecting it to the vial would pull the needle towards the surface of my skin, cutting off the supply of blood, as the needle proceeded to POKE THROUGH MY SKIN like a seesaw."Oh the blood stopped…" Do you not understand the essence of what's going on? Do you not understand what's happening? After suggesting she maybe hold the needle in place so it goes back down into my body…she finally does so and the bloodletting resumed.
After collecting the vials she dislodged the needle and gave me some gauze to apply pressure while she got rid of the stuff. She comes back and is for some reason, entirely unconvinced I've put enough pressure on my puncture. Bandaid and gause in one hand, she removed the gauze I used and proceeded to press her gloved thumb down on the needle site all unannounced. It wasn't painful enough for a reaction but it was super uncomfortable and bizarre. I've never seen this shit before. A few seconds later she removed her thumb and again the site wasn't even bleeding. Yet she lays the fresh gauze down and then presses down with the thumb again! This time harder, like wtf lady. Repeat this like two more times and she finally tells me she's trying for a bruise. I've never heard of this shit in my entire life, isn't the point to PREVENT bruising?!
I have a god damn blue thumbprint from this hulk gorilla on my arm.

No. 526975

just realized i've been hate-stalking my ex online and feel gross about it. at first it was just "checking up" on them and now it's me being happy when they post a negative status or something. disappointed in myself. i need to stop

No. 526979

2020 came out swinging and I'm just over it all man. My sister was sexually assaulted by my boyfriend at the time at a party we to. This was a dude I was so stupid in love with that I forgave him after cheating last year. I never thought he would hurt my sister like that though, I would've bet my life on it. This happened a month ago and I'm just still such a basket case. I don't know how to get over this, all I do is feel bad and cry all the time. I've never misjudged someone's character so much and it's shaken me up, like the rug was just pulled out from under me. I try not to feel guilty about what happened to my sister but I do, so much. It's just all terrible right now and it all feels hopeless.

No. 526982

>>526979
>My sister was sexually assaulted by my boyfriend at the time
If you're the same anon where this took place in that car I am so fucking sorry this happened to you legit one of the most fucked up stories I've ever read on lolcow. I'm not sure how 2020 could make it up to you but I certainly hope the only way to go is up from here on out.

No. 526992

I can only keep myself distracted from the loneliness for so long. I'm young but I don't have much to look forward to in life, I think. I want to die but I know I won't be able to attempt suicide again, so I guess I'll just deal with it.

No. 527036

this is a fucking stupid vent but i want to fuck my boyfriend so bad but he's sick and just got tested for covid-19 (awaiting results) and our county is under a shelter in place so we can't go out to just see each other (we technically could because nobody can really stop us but I dont want to be that unethical for some dick)

No. 527040

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I'm seriously considering quitting the D&D games I'm in, due to the other players. My DM likes to incorporate new mechanics when he comes across them and usually it's interesting and doesn't affect gameplay too much. But he found a Kickstarted expansions that allows characters to become various monstrous types (were-people, vampires, liches, fiends, etc.). To do so they have to make pacts or contracts with various bad guys of those types and take actions to become the monsters.


So take some D&D characters who are perfectly normal and have been killing bad guys. And then make them do edgy shit like killing kids or trying to get people to make pacts with the devil like they did. And now you have my fellow players. It's so out of character it's ridiculous. I'm in two games with the same people, and it's infected both games now. They keep trying to push my characters to join them but they are both some flavor of good and would never do so. And personally, I wouldn't want them to. I love my characters but to be honest it would only be in character for them to leave the parties.

I'm just sick of it because they think it's all cool and badass but it's just dumb and since the monstrous expansion my DM is using isn't official, it's a bit unbalanced too. I like playing D&D with them normally, but now I want to just quit. I have no issue with doing an evil campaign at all. Sounds fun. But you can't just turn good characters evil in one session because it sounds fun.

No. 527053

>>527036
Just fuck him before he dies

No. 527058

>>526957

If your shower doesn't work you can still drain water into it right? load a bucket from sink, and soap up then rinse. Sucks for a while esp if no hot water. Can avoid washing hair if you pull hair back into a sleek pony and use hairspray.

No. 527098

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guys i fucking hate my landlord so much. there's been construction going on on the floor beneath my apartment for 2 MONTHS now. it's from literally 8 am to 8 pm sometimes and just constant loud drilling. it's driving me insane especially now that i'm in quarantine. kill me, how is this allowed

No. 527254

I'm scared my mom is going to get coronavirus and die and she lives over a thousand miles away and I'll never get to see her again. I know there's a coronavirus thread but I just wanted to vent because my chest is killing me with anxiety right now and I can't sleep and the sun is coming up and my stupid neighbor keeps smoking and it's coming through the vents and I'm just so high strung right now ahhhh

No. 527307

All I've asked him was to watch this movie with me. I know he couldn’t care less about it or that he wouldn’t like it anyways but I wanted to spend time with him doing something I like for once. And of course he didn’t last two minutes and now I’m watching it alone and I guess it’s okay but it’s actually not.
Every time he liked something I tried to at least understand it. I even went to conventions just to have fun together even if the topic didn’t interested me at all and made the effort, not complaining once.
But I ask him to watch a film, or go to a certain restaurant or maybe just go to a different place where we usually don’t go and I feel like I’m asking him something almost impossible or not realistic.
And I’m pissed oft at myself because I accepted it as normal, because apart from what I’m explaining, everything’s perfect and I feel childish for getting upset to a stupid movie or not getting to eat what I planned for dinner but I think it’s because I’m deceived.
My mother once told me it wasn’t fair how I had to spend time with him doing things I wasn’t interested in and even when I wanted to do it I know she’s right. When I do these things I’m always thinking about what he wants and what he likes and it’s not fair that he can’t do it just for once or twice when I ask him the same. It’s not fair that I have to feel guilty for wanting him thinking about me first.
I even had friends who tried to persuade me into watching these movies or going to these places with them and I refused because I want to do it with him. Now that I’m writing it I feel three times more stupid than before.

No. 527317

>>527307
this is very sad, anon… no one should beg a partner for basic stuff like this. He's an egoistic person, and probably doesn't value you very much. I hope you realize now you deserve someone who treats you like an equal

No. 527340

My boyfriend is so deep into mindfulness and meditation that I now feel so unable to relate to him, or more that he cannot relate to me. I don’t mean this in a bad way against him either—he is not preachy about it, he actually rarely brings it up to anyone because he gets embarrassed about it in conversation (we both work in mental health fields and agree how cringey it is that “daily mindfulness!” is such a flowery fad right now). But I mean he listens to long lectures almost every single day and can sometimes spend hours meditating every night. The thing is like… he’s good at it, he’s doing it right, he suffers so much less now compared to how he used to but only he is now kind of robotic. Any problem, issue, emotion, or anything that comes along, he always just says “just have to let it go” and the same if I ask for advice. I don’t want to over simplify him because I know he has practiced a long time to get to this point but it can sometimes be frustrating, I talk about my day and something that bothers me and he will never come right out and say it because I know he’s conscious of not being annoying, but effectively anytime I ask for advice he eventually comes around to “you just have to let it go, it’s in the past.” It’s like YEAH I KNOW! I do fucking know that but not every part of life has to be processed so routinely and healthy, even though yes! I get that it’s obviously the wise decision. I don’t know I just sometimes feel so silly compared to him because again he actually is really healthy at the moment and truly nothing bothers him, I just wish he didn’t seem so unaffected by life? so uninvested? I know it sounds so fucking silly and immature but I realised that if we broke up he would immediately begin his process of letting go and would definitely be heart broken I know that, but he would just give me away to the past like everything else and it really upset me for some reason.

No. 527344

Anyone else noticing the influx of cows trying to purposefully be pregnant right now?! What's with these retards? Do they need the attention during a worldwide crisis that badly?
I cannot believe masses aren't out shaming them right now. It's absolutely irresponsible.

No. 527361

>>527344
>Women only get pregnant for attention

No. 527373

>>527361
Don't be intellectually dishonest. That's not what anon said.

No. 527375

>>527344
You sound like a pathetic bitter anti-natalist. Sorry no one wants to have a baby with you because you're probably a psycho.

No. 527376

>>527361
Nta but they are specifically talking about cows and yes cows will do anything for attention, including having babies, sadly.

No. 527378

>>527375
Wew, that projection. You sound nutty as shit.

No. 527379

>>527375
Anti natalist? How about take a fucking bc pill and get an abortion during a fucking pandemic while scientists figure out what detrimental effects contracting fetal coronavirus will have. Or how about the fact that pregnant women are more likely to have compromised immunity and will literally take a hospital bed away from someone else should many of them require hospitalization.
I'm not even talking about the fact that a vaccine won't be available until 2021, but sure, I'm sure this will all be water under the bridge come next month. This virus won't be here in 9 months, suuuuuure.

Fuck you're ignorant. Fuck.

No. 527381

>>527344

>Anyone else noticing the influx of cows trying to purposefully be pregnant right now?!


I do not follow all threads but who tries to get preggo rn? I know that yumi is pregnant but who else will birth a calve?

No. 527382

He just sounds stupidly dismissive. Hardly a great partner to have. Sorry anon

No. 527385

>>527381
Taylor on /w/ too. Ugh.

No. 527386

>>527379
You sound like a very mentally ill and jealous person. You're probably the same anon from a couple months back telling pregnant women to abort their babies and kill themselves. Probably an ugly radfem like Leah Tverly too.

No. 527387

>>527378
Nothing sounds more sane then getting triggered by other women's pregnancies and telling them to ABORT their babies. That's ugly radfem tier shit.

No. 527391

>>527386
You're a fucking idiot if you think anyone is "jealous" to be pregnant during a pandemic. Like lobotomy tier retard. You sound defensive, you're probably one of these morons all sensitive about your shitty choices.

No. 527395

>>527387
And you sound like that mentally ill anon who vented about drinking early into her pregnancy and is actually going to keep the baby. No one is jealous of you, absolutely no one.

No. 527397

>>527386
>>527387
Nice samefagging, retard. Go back to Blaire White's thread.

No. 527401

Telling women to abort their babies and that they don't deserve to receive medical treatment during a pandemic is the definition of trashiness. I don't drink, but I do have healthier relationships with men then most of the bpd hoes here.

No. 527402

>>527397
You're insane, people hate radfems because of their bitter and jealous behavior towards women in healthy relationships with men, women who are mothers, and women who shave their pits. Doesn't make me a tranny supporter, I just don't seethe about them either.

No. 527409

>>527401
>and that they don't deserve to receive medical treatment during a pandemic is the definition of trashiness.
no one said this.
> I do have healthier relationships with men then most of the bpd hoes here.
kek, you can't make one post without lying, and black and white-ass splitting yet you're invoking bpd as an insult against women. projection, once again. get help.

No. 527413

Of course the anti-radfem is sperging about radfems and derailing the thread. Kek

No. 527415

>>527409
>Or how about the fact that pregnant women are more likely to have compromised immunity and will literally take a hospital bed away from someone else should many of them require hospitalization.


How does a pregnant woman deserve a hospital bed any less than anyone fucking else?

No. 527419

>>527413
most of the site is anti-radfem. fuck off.

No. 527421

>>527415
Almost like if you weren't purposefully trying to get pregnant you wouldn't be IN that situation taking a bed away from someone else! No one cares about preggers who are like 4+ months in already and who didn't know about this virus until it happened.
We're talking about retards trying to be pregnant RIGHT NOW and are absolutely putting themselves and others at risk for their selfish bullshit.

No. 527423

Saw on reddit this raissedbynarcissists post of a daughter running around in circles with her mom with how her name should be actually pronounced. I think when you sperg about your name because it's ethnic or unique you're a stupid bitch, just saying. I mean unless your name is Pajeet or something I don't see how it's abuse.

No. 527424

>>527419
You're right, it takes very sad and bitter women to attack other women's appearance. Thank you for your pertinent remark and keep on trying to conceive a child when the hospitals are overwhelmed by patients. The world needs more people like you lads.

No. 527428

>>527421
anon. pregnant women don't have compromised immune systems, that's a myth. and their immune systems are actually more active during the beginning and early part of pregnancy. look this shit up.

No. 527431

>>527428
Ntayrt but it fluctuates

No. 527435

>>527431
it does, but it fluctuates with the pregnancy, not randomly.

No. 527446

I got all of my wisdom teeth taken out on February 6th, since I had a really bad infection on a lower one. The dentist recommended all of them just come out, to save me trouble. I had a horrible surgery- woke up halfway through, treated like garbage, they perforated my sinus so I can't blow my nose, and the holes STILL AREN'T HEALED over a month later despite careful hygeine and strictly taking my medication. As a result of these slow-healing holes that frequently trapped debris, I had a lower-molar that went septic. I needed a triple root canal, yesterday. The smell was indescribable. The dentist repeatedly chastised me about it and was clearly disgusted… I told him, dude… I was here two weeks ago for this tooth. I was worried, because I wasn't recovering well after my wisdom extraction, so I visited them two weeks ago and they brushed me off. I told them pus was POURING out the side of the tooth multiple times a day and they blew me off since "well, I don't see any pus, right now". Clear case of a male blowing off a female for "exaggerating". He sent me away with antibiotics and told me to come back. The same antibiotics I was ALREADY ON FROM THE ORAL SURGEON. Yesterday, he goes, "oh, well, it was already dead then." referring to when I saw him two weeks ago. Apparently, the infection is now in the bone. TBH he says I am going to be OK if I take my antibiotics, since he removed the source of infection, but WTF? Why… did they let it go so long? I could've gotten really sick. God.. sorry for the blogpost, this pic just makes me feel so much anxiety. I felt like I was taking it more seriously than they were. Should I report them to my state dental association for malpractice? I believe that if they had properly treated my tooth WEEKS ago it might not have progressed so severely.

No. 527449

>>527428
Oh so the WHO and CDC were just full of shit when they listed pregnant women as at risk next to the elderly on all the announcements about this virus.

Everyone don't worry, this anon knows best right here!

No. 527452

>>527446
i was told you should never get all of them out at once and just one side, then the other.

No. 527455

>>527446
Not sure if reporting them for malpractice is the way to go about things (though I would probably do the same if I was in your position) but I'm so, so sorry you're going through all of that anon. Recovery from getting your wisdom teeth out already fucking sucks, I'm so sorry you have to deal with incompetent people on top of it. Could you possibly go to another dentist for a second opinion?

No. 527459

It pisses me off how many men think women have rape fantasies. At most it seems to me that the women who have these """rape""" fantasies are coy/embarrassed of their sexuality, so they leave the agency to the man to just know the woman wants sex. That way she is spared the embarrassment of initiating.

I know there are women who have legit violent and horrible rape fantasies, but they are few in between. Not to mention they have been sexually assaulted or raped in the past, and their usual way to cope with it is acting it out again in situations where they seemingly have more control over it. It's stupid but makes sense to me, since women tend to deal with pain inflicting it inwards instead of outwards.

No. 527460

>>527449
can you like, read properly? late stage pregnancies are infact at risk, but early stage isn't. regardless, it's not because their immune system is "compromised" (just working differently during the later stages of pregnancy) of course they aren't going to announce it like that. same with how elderly people aren't all at risk, but they're not going to list a bunch of specifics.

No. 527461

>>527452
I never wanted to get my wisdom teeth out. One of the wisdom teeth on my lower mandible was infected, so I just blindly listened to the dentist like a good little girl. Cringe. I am kicking myself, I agree that I should've just gotten the one wisdom tooth out. But that's the site that got infected- TBH, I think that they should've upped the antibiotics and taken me more seriously when that area was still giving me trouble after the extraction. The wisdom tooth that was initially infected that started this entire mess is the site that caused my tooth to go septic. This seems like a clear case of negligence, to me.
>>527455
Thank you for reading my shit and your thoughts, I appreciate it, shit does suck. I might just go to another dentist, just sucks because I have shitty insurance, but I agree that after this shit I need a new one.

No. 527464

>>527460
I'll need multiple sources that your immunity doesn't change early in the pregnancy at all.

Besides, the point still stands that this virus will not be going anywhere within the next 9 months, which means you are purposefully putting yourself and others at risk "down the line" or whatever arbitrary timeframe you think immunity takes a nosedive.
You can't logic or think ahead.

No. 527467

>>527464
Ntayrt, but you're a dumb cunt.

No. 527468

>>527464
lmao, i am not trying to get pregnant, but keep that cope. you sound like those people who think women who use fertility drugs instead of adopting are "selfish".

No. 527469

>>527460
>same with how elderly people aren't all at risk

…………………….what elderly people aren't at risk? Describe them.

No. 527470

>>527446
Feel so bad for you anon. The worst thing I've had after an extraction was dry socket and I both gargled and drank whiskey all day for weeks to cope with the pain when they wouldn't do anything to help.

Switch dentist for sure, not trying to be dramatic but shit like that is traumatic enough that you won't want to see him again, even a long time from now

No. 527471

>>527468
If you use fertility drugs to get pregnant during a pandemic you are a selfish cunt. You can stop being defensive if what's said doesn't apply to you. Fuck off.

No. 527472

>>527467
Ntayrt, but your aggressive and pointless comment wasn't needed at all.

>>527471
But anon… they need to get pregnant right now for some unknown reason!!1!

No. 527474

>>527468
ntayrt, but it objectively is. like that's not even debatable

No. 527479

>>527469
elderly people who don't have any health issues aren't at risk. those are very few people though mainly because most of the elderly population smoked.

>>527471
lol, right. next time you try to defend something, make sure it's only something you're actively a part in!

>>527473

adoption is nice, sure, but way more complicated and costly than just taking pills that your insurance pays for.

No. 527481

Hospitals are struggling to take care of all the people affected by the virus but still, it doesn't matter because you're the center of the world. You can't wait until things cool down, you must immediately have a child. Now I get the Karen/facebook mombie meme, even though I hated it before.

No. 527482

>>527479
adoption through foster care is typically free or very near it. insurance rarely covers fertility meds and fertility treatments that are covered still leave you with many thousand dollar co-pays, depending on your plan. it's not cheaper at all whasoever.

No. 527484

>>527479
Are you under the age of 25?
Your posts are like teenage brainthink.

>not all elderly people are at risk!

>o-okay maybe only very few are healthy…
>"So that means the majority of elderly people are at risk and there are only exceptions, just like pregnant people?"
>NO!
This is like that Patrick Star wallet meme lmao.

No. 527486

>>527461
Don't blame yourself for listening! They're the professionals after all, they should've listened to your concerns. I actually had to pay completely out of pocket when I had to get my wisdom teeth out which sucked, but I guess the silver lining was that I got to pick who I wanted to see and chose a nice (though expensive lol) surgeon.

Don't stay with someone who doesn't listen. I used to think maybe I should just stick to all of my doctors because… they went to school for this! They definitely know better than me! But nah, fuck that. I'm getting a second opinion/new doctor/dentist if need be. Good luck anon! I hope you'll find a great new dentist who'll fix up your teeth!

No. 527493

>>527484
uh no, that's not even close to what was said. you're just misinterpreting things because you want to be correct. the percentage of elderly who aren't at risk has no bearing on the fact that pregnant women aren't at risk until they are 5+ months pregnant. i only mentioned elderly because the other anon (or you, whoever) mentioned the CDC citing at risk people, the point was that the CDC is generalizing. of course they would be generalizing to be cautious, because dumbasses like you don't understand what exceptions are.

No. 527494

>>527486
Thank you for your compassion. I listened to the initial dentist because she was a woman and seemed intelligent, but maybe I should've given it more thought. The male dentist that saw me for the last two appointments felt inferior. I really think he dropped the ball. I appreciate your good luck, I'm gonna try to find a new dentist. I wish you luck too in whatever you may do

No. 527501

>>527493
>pregnant women aren't at risk until they are 5+ months pregnant
so is it a good idea to get pregnant right now or not

No. 527517

>>524221
Thank you kind anon, love to you too!

>>524224
I said it because work too, like I always gave 100% and was a perfectionist, arrived on time and ect but the people I worked with didn't appreciate it enough to give me recommendations. And then I see others getting praised and can't help but think what do they do that's better or it's just luck.

No. 527519

>>527486

This makes me vent about my problemo that I have for a while now:

I'm in a similar situation as the op dentist anon who isn't happy at all with their doctor. The thing is that I have mine since over two decades but in the past few months I felt like nobody is listening to me there anymore. I go home without any procedures even when I had pain and problems going on. This wasn't always the case, things got done straight away but I really feel like my doctor really lost interest in his job. Most recently it got so bad that it not only caused pain but also the worst health anxiety, which he also brushed off. Idk I need to change but now I have the biggest trust issues to go to a new doctor. What should I looking for when searching for a new one? How do I change??? As I said I went to the recent one since I was 5. Do anons have any tips?

No. 527521

>>527501
Lmao thank you. I also don't buy that pregnant women are only at risk starting at 5+ months but I'll be dead and buried before anon sources the talk she's pulling out her ass because she wants to be right.

No. 527522

Sometimes im just afraid of commenting or venting online because my ex-friend before i saw her true colors used to screenshot and saw my comments so she used that against me to publicly shamed me online, she doesnt mention any names but i knew that was me because there was one specific memory between us that no one else knew about. Even after she blocked me, she still had her snitch in my friendlist to keep her updated about me, after that she even dared to unblock me and try to taunt me again. It felt like i never had my own online privacy ever since due to the fact that anyone on my friendlist can be a snitch and i dont know if i found out the right one that kept screenshotting my status and comments yet. I just want to be safe and share my dumbass thought, thats all…

No. 527528

>>527522
Could you change up a few details to create plausible deniability in case? Either way she sounds obsessed with you lol.

No. 527532

>>527501
i don't know, the CDC didn't mention that "women looking to become pregnant" were at risk :^)

>>527521
look it up yourself. i'm not going to spoonfeed you. when you can just google pregnant women immunity and see all the articles about how immune response in the womb is actually the immune system trying to protect the egg from inflammation, or that inflammatory immune response during late-stage pregnancy is likely what triggers premature births.

No. 527535

>>527493
>the point was that the CDC is generalizing
People in this discussion are generalizing too. No one cared about your special exceptions besides yourself, which you're only using as a defensive cope because you want to justify bimbos knocking themselves up right now. The majority of elderly and pregnant aren't special, sorry.

No. 527537

>>527532
Lmao you know you're wrong, you're literally too scared to Google it and be shown you're wrong. You want us to post our proof so you can nitpick it while shirking your burden of proof. Lazy asshole.

No. 527540

>>527532
>derails the main subject to go ackchyually on our asses
>doesn't answer my question
>:^)

By the way, if you are willing to educate people online, you should always give sources for your informations because otherwise you sound like a fucking moron. Go back to reddit, I'm sure they'll be glad to have you there.

No. 527546

>>527540
NTA but you never showed any sources either???

No. 527548

>>527535
>calling women bimbos

Can you retards take this shit to the fucking corona thread already? It's not even a fucking vent at this point.

No. 527550

>>527546
You might be confusing me with someone else because this is my third post in the thread.

No. 527552

>>527548
>Insulting women is bad
do you know where you are

No. 527553

Imagine looking at the current state of affairs what with global markets crashing, job instability, panic buying, the threat of a nasty virus and saying to yourself "Gee, you know what would be great for me right now? A baby!"
Fucking idiots.

No. 527555

>>527548
Lol pro-pregger anon was literally calling us bitter jelly uggo radfems upthread. WHERE WERE YOU THEN?

No. 527556

>>527553
Exactly, lmao

No. 527558

>>527550
Okay, well your side of the discussion never shared any sources that pregnant women have lowered immunity. AFAIK anon is actually correct that immunity changes throughout pregnancy and is heightened at the beginning of pregnancy. She did mention some things at the end of her post, just isn't sharing sources. But then, >>527535 clearly has no idea what's going on and is just using this shit to hate on women, so I don't know if I'd share sources either

>>527555
There are multiple anons in this convo.

No. 527559

>>527553
imagine being this bothered over other peoples' dumb decisions.

No. 527562

>>527558
>an anon was m-mean to women so i w-wont give any sources!11!!

kek. and >>527555 is asking why you're not losing your shit about the other retard's comment either.

No. 527563

>>527559
when you live in a society, your dumb actions have consequences on other people. also, do you know what this imageboard is all about?

No. 527564

>>527559
your choices don't exist in a vacuum and that was precisely anon's point. your choices affect other people.

No. 527566

>>527558
>clearly has no idea what's going on and is just using this shit to hate on women
Lmao absolutely baseless accusation. Ridiculous.

No. 527568

>>527375
I still can't believe that people are willing to defend these words

>Sorry no one wants to have a baby with you because you're probably a psycho.


I mean, come on, we all know that's not true. Men have very low standards, it's easy for us to get sex. I'm sure if you tell a random guy not to wear a condom, he won't get pissed.

No. 527570

I will never be able to understand the new idea that being a cum rag or a prostitute is empowering now.
The sad part is only women believe this, men still see women like this as lower than gum on the bottom of their shoe

No. 527574

>>527568
Plenty of men have tried to knock me up before but it wasn't out of ~*~troo lurve~*~ it was used as a way to try to control me and create a permanent tie to me. I'd honestly think the same of any man thinking it's a great idea to knock a woman up right now. There's zero responsibility, consideration, or love in doing something so ignorant.

But besides the point, anon basically called every lesbian farmer a useless psycho.

No. 527575

>>527570
Take this to the pink pill thread.

No. 527576

>>526982
Yeah I posted about it in ot or g but never checked back. Sorry to bring it up again but girl its kicking my ass. Its all I can think about, I'm trying really hard to be strong and get through this it just hurts so bad. I had my Bestfriend start holding on to my pain pills (Rx for migraines) because I went off a couple of weeks ago and was taking them too much. My neck & head have been hurting near non stop since and I know its stress and I cant just keep popping pills or else I'll be in a real bad way. Its so fucked up what he did, I keep wanting to fuck him up but I want to be a teacher I can't catch a felony.
I know. I sound crazy, but I swear I'm trying real hard to keep the lid on it all

No. 527590


No. 527591

>>527590
…did you get confused?

No. 527593

>>527591
Nah fam, the point that everyone on the site shits on women still stands when the shoe is on the other foot.

No. 527595

>>527590
Was it necessary to bump the thread to revive the conflict?

No. 527597

>>527519
AYRT and unfortunately I don't have much advice on how to search for new doctors. I usually go based on recommendations from parents or friends, and I have a coworker who (very frequently lol) changes doctors and says she usually just looks them up on google (I think she sees whose in her network via insurance website and then just googles them up and reads all kinds of reviews for them). I actually found my oral surgeon by googling lol. It might take a while and a bit of switching around before you find the doctor for you, but I think it's well worth the time and effort for your comfort and health. I think anyone worth their salt will understand your concerns too.

No. 527598

>>527595
was it necessary to take obvious bait?

No. 527606

>>527590
Thinking a woman is being stupid for wanting to get pregnant during a pandemic is different from calling all women bitter jealous baby hating psychos that no man wants to fuck because they think it's a bad idea to get pregnant during a pandemic.

I honestly can't believe anon tried to pull that stunt.

No. 527608

One thing I absolutely hate when I'm in an argument with someone, is when they bring it up hours, sometimes days, afterwards. Some people just can't let it go, they need to have the last word no matter how childish the whole ordeal is. Is that what the sealion meme is all about?

No. 527615

>>527606
calling a woman a bimbo is shitty regardless of how dumb you think she's being.

No. 527617

>>527615
i agree, anon should have only called her an idiot.

No. 527618

I suck at my new job because it has such a steep learning curve and it doesn't make a difference how quickly I go or how hard I work. My anxiety is hitting a breaking point. This job makes me want to die, even though it's all I've ever really wanted to pursue.

No. 527619

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This thread is fucking unhinged right now.

No. 527620

>>527615
Fact is anon looked foolish getting offended over being called a bimbo when she threw up gendered insults from the start. You all get what you deserve. Bimbo is a mild insult on lolcow, which makes the butthurt even better.

No. 527623

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>have younger brother, due to have his final exams this year
>he's spoilt rotten and has physically violent outbursts when he doesn't get his way, as well as a drug and stealing habit, not to mention a multitude of other things i dont want to detail here
>he was supposed to be writing his exams this summer
>slacked off all year
>went to school maybe once or twice a week, and even then he would make my mom come pick him up early
>never does his homework, my mom does it for him
>literally all he did all year was go out and do drugs with his friends and constantly manipulate, abuse and beat my mom into giving him money to buy drugs
>his teachers have given him shit target grades because of this
>he and my mom were coping by saying he can still get an A on the final exam
>exams get cancelled due to coronavirus
>final grades will be given based on target grades
>my mom, brother, and entire extended family are freaking out and telling my mom to go to the school to bully the teachers into giving him better target grades
>mfw i was taught by some of his teachers back in the day and im about 90% sure they wont give him better grades
>mfw brother will finally get what's coming to him
>but i also feel bad for being happy about this, since my mom has been working so hard in getting him through school but he just couldn't be bothered to actually turn up and do his work

No. 527627

>>527619
I'm blaming corona, more people stuck at home going nuts

No. 527630

>>527623
No offense intended but I wouldn't feel too bad for your mom since she pretty much enabled your brother's behavior. She shouldn't have been doing any work to push him through school, that was supposed to be his own job.

No. 527645

>>527630
no offense taken, anon. i see what you mean, but i still feel bad for her because she's my mom and i also feel like she has definitely has had really bad mental health for the last few years which is why she's behaving like this.

No. 527671

>>527623
Moms are such softies and I hate seeing how badly it often backfires on them. Tough love would help him more at this point.

No. 527816

My recent boyfriend has let his stoner of a friend move into his flat and now he’s high all the time too, doesn’t respond to any messages past like 7pm because he’s already too high, when I do get a response he’s moody because he feels like shit in the mornings, he has no energy to do anything. I’m just so fucking annoyed because I knew this would happen the second he told me x was going to be moving in. I don’t see this working out, but I’m attached to him at this point so it’s going to suck breaking up. I also don’t want to be lured in by any false promises of stopping because we’ve had this issue before when we were dating, and now he’s being enabled in his own home Ii don’t think he’s a strong enough person to resist.

No. 527822

>>527816

Sounds like a garbage loser scrote. Dump him, it won't get any better.

No. 527834

>>527816
you already know what you have to do

No. 527853

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>mfw virus panic shows up at the worst time and is fucking everything up

Might just get drunk or something because I'm over it.

No. 527858

the cvs app makes me want to kms

No. 528092

I signed a contract for a new job yesterday and today they rescinded the offer because of coronavirus. I was so excited. I have crashed back down to earth so heavily.

No. 528097

>>528092
Something kinda similar happened to me in october, I was sure I was going to get a job, I was told that they wouldn't hire me and implied that they didn't hire anyone because of budget reasons, yet they contacted me in mid-January to ask me if I was still interested. I refused because since they didn't tell me anything for months I gave up and moved away but if that weren't the case I would have accepted. There are chances the recruiters will keep you in mind for later once the situation will improve, at least I hope so.

No. 528100

My animal crossing got delayed on amazon and I was looking forward to get thru it during these trying times. I've been having virus symptoms since the first week of March. God really has it out for me.

No. 528101

>>528100
how'd that happen?

No. 528103

I've never been someone's bff and it makes me sadder than it should. not now, not as a kid. I was never the first best friend, sometimes second at best…
I just want to be the most important person for someone in a non-sexual way…

No. 528105

Everything my mother says pisses me off nonsense and that’s because she always has to have the last word, always has to be superior, always has to be the voice of reason.
I always wondered when I was a kid why she didn’t have any friend and why she was always lonely and when I asked her she told me she didn’t like people that much. The thing is she always pushes people away and it’s her own fault. She’s alone because she refuses to let people come closer with her shitty attitude and worst part is that I feel like she doesn’t think she’s doing something wrong.
For example she always has to refute what other people say. The other day we were reunited with my aunt who was talking about the weather and my aunt said something about this winter being one of the warmest since she can remember. Then my mother started to tell her she was wrong, she must be confused, why doesn’t she remember that winter when…blah blah blah.
She’s exhausting. We tried to tell her so many times her attitude just come off rude and disrespectful but she doesn’t see it at all. And it’s pretty ironic because lately all she does is complain about being alone and feeling lonely, as she didn’t had nothing to do with the fact people can’t stand her.
I truly believe she always hated herself but she doesn’t want to change a thing about her damn life and it’s starting to affect me too. I’m just her daughter, I can’t be her therapist or support some behaviours just because she’s my mother. I love her but I hate the person she is, if she wasn’t part of my family I would never want to see her ever, again.

No. 528106

I work for my dad and he yells at me every day so every day I come to work I have to cry. wich doesnt matter because I sit all alone at a desk. I might be an autistic intovert but the loneliness is really getting to me too.
I dont even like this job but I have bills to pay and even thinking about getting a different job makes me really anxious (also i have no skills or talents)

No. 528110

I swear to God, ever since the beginning of the year, my boyfriend has made me feel guilty for sleeping for an extended period of time and he's made my feel guilty for being awake when I'm usually at work on my days off.
He just suggested I go lay down after I mentioned I felt suddenly tired, so I go lay down. A few minutes later, he comes into the room asking me if everything is okay. I tell him I'm okay, just laying down, and he tells me he didn't think I was gonna go lay down. Like… Are you retarded, you just suggested I go to bed.

No. 528117

>>528110
Your boyfriend is probably cheating on you and being paranoid every time you’re supposed to be spending time with him and you’re sleeping instead because he’s the one feeling guilty af. I’m sorry anon.

No. 528121

>>528110
Controlling how much or when someone sleeps is one the rarer red flags with a controlling or abusive partner. You don't see it too often but when you do it's considered a major warning sign. You should look it up checklists for controlling partners because he ticks a few boxes just from your short post.

> has made me feel guilty for sleepinng

> and he's made my feel guilty for being awake

Fucking yikes

No. 528127

Watching some family vlogs is making me feel like shit. My parents were hardly ever there for me, my brothers basically raised me. My mom just worked then made us food and my dad just worked, but neither took any time to be with us or teach us good lessons. I don't want to hate my mom because I'm sure she did what she could but I never learned how to behave, how to process emotions, I never learned that I should be compassionate and my brothers sure as hell were never told to be nice to me and not beat me up.
I think I did well for myself and I'm able to show my friends and boyfriend I love them, I can adapt to social situations pretty well too even though I constantly have a feeling that I'm acting weird or being disliked somehow. But I doubt I'll ever be able to show real affection towards my parents or siblings. I feel it also fucked up my relationship with all my cousins and extended family. It sucks.

No. 528135

I want to slap my SIL.

No. 528141

I miss my mum! We usually get together every Sunday but because of the virus and us both being immunowhatever is preventing us from having our weekly get-together. I'm waiting for a day where it's at least 10° so I can sit on her porch and talk to her through the closed window with notes and lip-reading. I started going over there more often because she's very lonely and isolated and this is just a slap in the face. I worry about her health, both physical and mental. This is fucking me up. I call her twice a day but how does that eliminate her being alone for 24 hours every day? I wish my dad were alive still, for her. (And for me! I miss him)
I wish I could go out and buy her some flowers and leave them on her doorstep without risking her health. I know chinese AIDS can be present on surfaces so I don't want to get her sick that way.

Very odd reality we're in.

No. 528147

Everything is so fucking loud, I can't stand daytime

No. 528152

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I hate that media space is being given to dumb attention hungry celebs like her. Am I supposed to believe that a person who was too stupid to even finish middle school let alone high school has a plan to save America?

No. 528153

>>528152
jesus christ not this bitch again. she needs to give up the ghost now that her handler harvey is in jail and go back to middle america obscurity

No. 528154

>>528152
Lmao does she plan to change America by being a cunt to more ESL reporters?

No. 528158

>>528152
Hah. Gotta love these entitled celebrities who suddenly think they're qualified to get political during crisis, yunno unlike the people who've spent years studying and working in these government institutions who have an actual grasp at what it takes to move power.

Fuck I wish celebrities would go away. If there's one thing I hate in a worldwide plague, it's acting like a bunch of rich people fucking matter to any average person right now. They ought to just bunker in their filthy mansions and money and be a little grateful they're not like the rest of us for bullshit reasons.

No. 528163

>>528152
what she's saying is good though? you don't need to be a political scientist to have an opinion on what she's specifically speaking about. the more people with fans that can spread a good message and want to, the better. she's personally annoying but her platform is valuable and can be helpful. what she is advocating here is very good, there's no debating that. i don't see a problem with this. that article is also a year old.

No. 528166

>>528152
a lot of anons make fun of redditfags for creaming themselves to Keanu Reeves but you seriously never see him doing shit like this, his nice guy act doesn't come across as fake and artificial

No. 528169

>>528166
the article is really phrased and framed in a way to make her seem especially insufferable. she doesn't say she's trying to save america or whatever. what she's saying is pretty common sense.

No. 528172

do you guys ever deal with people who just ignore you when you express your sadness and hopelessness? particularly people who don't know how to comfort others? if i ever get an answer, he just tells me "i don't know what to say". does this indicate low empathy - not knowing how to comfort others?

No. 528176

>>528172
Depends, how often does the hopelessness and sadness come up? is it ongoing because of mental health issues or is it rare? It could be that they have empathy fatigue if it's a regular occurence.

You'd need to give more detail really.

No. 528179

>>528176
it is personally ongoing, but i keep it to myself for the reasons i just mentioned. he has never comforted me, so it's not fatigue. like i said, he's always ever just said "i don't know what to say".

No. 528184

My flatmates laziness to general cleanliness pisses me off to no end. She will continue to stuff shit on top of the full kitchen bin instead of just emptying it - same with the bathroom bins, shit could be spilling over and she'll just dump her dirty tampon applicators on top. I seriously just want to punch her in the fucking face every time I have to text her "can you please empty the bins" and she's like "oh yeah sure" FUCK SAKE SHOW SOME FUCKING INITIATIVE YOU DIRTY GIRL

No. 528191

>>528172
Who's he? Boyfriend or friend?
Romantic partners should feel more obligated to give you some verbal comfort or at least be there for you physically.
If it's just some dude friend who doesn't want to fuck you, then his reaction makes sense. Men don't like to play therapist to women. Get some female friends.

No. 528192

>>528179
The men in my life are the same, behavioral therapy got me to concentrate more on self soothing techniques when I'm frustrated.

No. 528198

>>528191
he's a romantic partner, but i don't really want him to be because of this. he's not good with any emotion, when i cry i make him uncomfortable, and he genuinely sees no problem with this. i have a lot of stressors in my life and he doesn't, so the fact that he feels no obligation towards trying to make me feel better or even safe, when i'm genuinely unsafe, or part of something larger than myself, is especially distressing. whenever i bring it up to him he says it doesn't happen and he says he offers to help me (in actuality, he doesn't). it's strange. he has a completely warped view of the situation and somehow believes himself to be helpful despite him always avoiding me when i need support or help, and that i'm a nag and "shitting on him" for saying he doesn't respond appropriately. i can't get him to a mediator or anything either because he says they're all bullshit and refuses to go. he shuts down any time i seem to need anything, emotional or otherwise, ever. it's not just me, though. he can't comfort anyone but doesn't see a problem with it.

>>528192
thanks, i don't really need that though. i'm pretty good self soothing, i just don't think this is suitable for a person you're supposed to be close to, to act this way. i don't see what the point is to being with someone like this. it's only frustrating insofar as that he tries to bill himself as someone i can lean on when i really can't.

No. 528199

>>528184
Had an old flatmate who'd fill our bathroom bin with used sanitary towels and leave them there for weeks. I couldn't believe the smell that they were capable of producing… her bf lived with us too and used the same bathroom. It's like they were oblivious to it.

No. 528204

>>528198
Are you bpd by any chance?

No. 528207

>>528103
Wanna be friends?

No. 528208

>>528204
no, and i'm really not sure what you'd read in my post that would suggest that bpd would likely be the problem here. as i said, he doesn't comfort anyone, does not even try.

No. 528211

My bf who I caught looking at tranny porn and I got into a fight last night. I said that I didn't understand how he could have said something like, "I'm only attracted to traps" when he used to frequent 4chan but then later be with me, a woman. He said he was just saying it to fit in, but judging from his internet history he really only looked at men in dresses. He had convinced himself that it wasn't gay. Anyway, last night I was saying how upsetting it was for me and that I've been in distress even since I found out and that he should have told me when I asked at the beginning of the relationship. Eventually I said that I have lost a lot of self esteem to the point I don't even try to look nice for him anymore and that I feel very discouraged because of his choice of porn and also because he'd regularly reject me for sex and never compliment me when I dressed up. Eventually I said after he kept being delusional that fuck this shit, he only jerks off exclusively to men in lingerie so why am I here? Then he snaps at me, "You never dress up anyway! I wish you would wear some fucking lingerie!!" I am so angry like you dumb fuck of course I'm not wearing anything racy for you, why would I bother when I feel so worthless and ugly knowing I'm uglier than some guy in a skirt with his dick flapping around? I guess I'm just really mad because how dare he be mad at me for not dressing like some trashy tranny. If anything his weird traps in fancy underwear thing turned me off to ever wearing lingerie. It belongs to the scrotes now. I can't even be a woman the right way because I don't have a dick.

Putting this here because I feel this is a weird rant/vent and not relationship advice material since I'm just bitching and miserable.

No. 528214

>>528211
You're saying a closeted gay man. U know what to do.

No. 528215

>>528211
You’re bf is a faggot, no amount of lingerie you can wear will fix that.

No. 528223

>>528110
>>528121
I've read a lot of relationship abuse stories from support groups (having been in one) and based on my observations controlling your partner's sleeping schedule is surprisingly common. I've heard multiple stories of the abusive partner forcibly making their SO lay next to them in bed in complete silence and darkness because they want to go to sleep, even if the SO isn't sleepy. And vice versa they start making as much noise as possible, if they don't straight out shake their partner awake when they don't want them sleeping. It's all about them wanting to be in control at all times - if you're sleeping in an unconscious state when they're not, they're not able to control your life.

No. 528225

>>528211
Leave him and go wear nice lingerie to a straight man who will go rock hard only for you. You’ll see the boost in self confidence

No. 528226

>>528223
Shit I hope I'm not being abusive to my partner. He never goes to bed on time and I have to bully him to get at least 2 hours of sleep before work because I know he'll pass out in the car or on the job if he doesn't at least nap. He has also told me during arguments that I'm the reason he doesn't sleep anymore because he thinks I'll get mad at him if he does because I said we never see each other anymore. He works nightshift and I work dayshift. I did complain a lot about it even going so far as to say he's always asleep when I'm home which is normal but maybe I shouldn't have said it. I feel bad oh man.

No. 528237

>>528225
>>528215
>>528214
>>528211
Stop abusing people over their bisexuality, jesus christ

No. 528238

>>523788
I keep telling myself I don't need a nosejob but seeing people with pretty noses or people after getting theirs done makes me want to get mine done so bad.. my whole face is a mess but I'd really use a rhinoplasty to balance it a little, life is hard when you're broke and ugly.

No. 528239

>>528237
Anon he specifically said he is only attracted to traps in the post I saw. That's a fetish. He is also into them when they dress like caricatures of women but he says the idea of fucking a normal man doesn't appeal to him. He has created this weird fantasy about mentally ill people who use their bodies for attention. Also he lied to me about being into guys. I would have been his friend but I would not have pursued a romantic relationship with him if I had known about his proclivity for tranny porn. He can do what he wants but when it leads to cheating (yes, I consider masturbating with men online to be cheating), it's crossing a line. I would never date a bisexual man again. Not that I knew he was bi at the time.

No. 528241

>>528237
Are you retarded?

No. 528242

>>528237
>caught looking at tranny porn
>clearly gaslighting anon
>invalidating her feelings
>actively making her feel bad, continuing to do so after being confronted
>blaming her for his own failings


You're a faggot if you think anon isn't the one being abused here. Sit down you nasty bitch.

>>528211
Anon you should leave him. He clearly doesn't respect you, and you deserve a man who wants you, not one that is in denial about rubbing his dick raw to other dicks. Much less dicks in dresses. Before you know it, he will "transition" and likely guilt you into letting him fuck guys cuz it will cure his ~~dysmorphia~~

No. 528251

>>528242
>Being lgbt is a falling
Wowie

No. 528255

>>528251
>being shocked that ppl dont like troons in lolcow dot farm

No. 528257

Are bisexual men really that difficult to date?

No. 528258

>>528211
He likes dudes in lingerie…faps to big cocks in panties…but he's trying to shame you for not dressing up enough?

Dump the pornsick tranny chaser, and then tell everyone exactly why you dumped him. I mostly don't care what kinks people have in private but he lost all empathy here when he blamed you. Reality is most women would've dumped him already.

No. 528260

>>528211
This happened to me. I also found my bfs secret transvestite dating account where he had pics of himself in wigs and lingerie. After shouting at him and threatening to leave him, it turns out he'd been bumming trannies he met on the website when I wasn't around. B-but it wasn't gay because he was doing the penetrating! I hated myself, why wasn't I enough for him?

I spent ages on forums and websites trying to make sense of it all. Trannies get off on the taboo of it and "seducing" straight men into thinking they're sexy women. It's gross.

My ex has a new gf now but it won't last because he's a closet gay who can't come out because rich upper class parents wouldn't straight up disown him.

Leave your bf. He has sexuality issues he needs to work on, and you need to be appreciated for all of you. I'm so much happier from dumping my absolute mess of an ex, I'm sure you will be too!

No. 528262

>>528257
Go to the stupid questions thread, dumbass.

No. 528263

>>528251
0/10 bait tranny. I guess “being lgbt” means being a pornsick limp dick piece of shit who fetishizes and shames his partner into emulating mentally ill men.

No. 528264

>>528257
He has a 'chick with a dick' fetish, that's not being bi

No. 528265

>>528251
>>528237
Tranny porn isn't a bisexuality issue, it's a pornsick psychological one.

No. 528266

>>528264
That is a gay man in denial

No. 528267

>>528264
>chick with dick
Do you mean men in dress kek

No. 528270

>>528260
My ex housemate did this on his gf at the time. He hid all his outfits and met up with other crossdressers to bum them.. he confided in me cos I'm a woman with short hair so he thought I'd understand his gender feelings? Oh and then he tried to fuck me too.

No. 528271

>>528257
He dates a woman so he clearly is bi instead of being gay

No. 528275

>>528267
Yeah a cock in a dress, the cock being the main appeal to them

No. 528277

>>528271
…ok this is bait.

No. 528278

>>528271
but he's not enjoying dating her and is preferring to jerk off to dudes in lingerie? are you missing that point? he's preferring them over her.

No. 528279

>>528270
Shit this sounds like who I am referring to, lol. But I'm guessing this brand of degeneracy is so common.

He'd cheated on me with women before he progressed to men so yeah… pornsick trash

No. 528280

>>528257
Yes. Biscrotes are prone to cheating since gay sex is much easier to achieve.

No. 528281

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>>528251
2/10 bait. Would reccomend more effort.

No. 528284

>>528257
I'm the person who made the original post. One of the reasons I wouldn't have been in a relationship with my current bf is because I have dated two bisexual men in the past. The first one turned out to be gay and was using me to hide the fact he was homosexual. He was very nice and I enjoyed his company but when I later found out he was gay it made me feel like shit because I thought we were in love with each other, then I learned he didn't enjoy sex with me. The second man cheated on me with a tranny. No joke. It's like this keeps happening to me, these are the only men I have ever been with. I feel extra sensitive about it and decided after the second one that I would only date straight men to avoid being hurt by confused closeted men.

No. 528286

>>528198
Yeah, don't bother with men who have no empathy. They will never comfort you or try to understand your feelings, but they will expect you to bend over backwards for them. I tried to overlook this with my ex and be understanding, but it just made me resent him so much. I ended up leaving because grown men who don't know how to process emotions can fuck right off

I know a bunch of pick-mes are going to chime in
>you have to deal with your own emotions!!11
And I do, but low empathy permeates every part of the relationship. It's like being in a relationship with a clueless toddler

No. 528291

>>528284
>>528279
>>528270
>>528260
Fucking disgusting how common this is. Even in normie spaces like reddit. These bitches get in relationships with vulnerable easily gaslit women for that sweet sweet straight privilege, so they can engage in degeneracy with abandon.

No. 528295

My girlfriend got laid off the day after we moved in to a new place with my coworker – Tuesday. We'd signed the lease in mid-February, back when all the COVID-19 shit wasn't nearly as insane as it is right now. Thankfully it's only for 6 months. I work for an independent bookstore and thankfully my boss is still paying us full-time hours despite adjusting our daily hours. My girlfriend is probably going to have to go work for Amazon at this point, which is the last thing we'd want – goes against our morals for obvious reasons – but wants are out the window.

We couldn't have known we'd be moving in the midst of pandemic, but my coworker and I both moved to get out of households with helicopter and narcissistic family, respectively. I dropped by to see my narcissist, recently-widowed grandma yesterday after work at her request, and while I was there my cat – that I was hounded by my whole family into leaving with her – would not stop cuddling me. I could've cried, honestly.

I miss my cat so much and she was the last thing my grandfather ever gave me. My grandmother even said she thought the cat was depressed, and I told her that would happen if I left her there. This bitch was always bizarrely jealous of how much my grandfather loved me (she hates "sharing") and has been a menace since the day he died 4 months ago – policing my grieving when she knows he was my father in my heart and this is the first big loss I've experienced, keeping all of his ashes for herself when my sister and I had told her we'd wanted some, stealing the savings he'd had for me – so I shouldn't be surprised she'd started a crusade to essentially steal my cat. She's always favored and coddled my sister and hated me for being "too much like my mother" whose life she ruined, so of course she'd take the one source of genuine happiness in my life that she can get her hands on. Everyone keeps saying she's not going to be around much longer and then I'll get my cat back full-time, but she could live another 10 years out of fucking spite.

The worst part of it all is that she keeps begging me to move back so she's not alone, even though my sister and dad have offered to stay with her for a bit, and I honestly almost wish I could because I'm so stressed with the state of the world right now. But I should put my mental health first and being in that house makes me incredibly sad.

No. 528299

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>>528284
Jesus, anon. I'm sorry this shit keeps happening to you.

Fuck of all of these pornsick losers. Everything is always about their sexual drive, the next time they get to engage in degeneracy and their fetish. Always and forever, just pointlessly repeating. Incapable of love and actual devotion.

No. 528325

>>528211
The reason why pornsick men like tranny porn is that they've internalized the idea that "traps" are vicious nymphomaniacs who only exist to serve male sexual needs and are always willing to hop on a dick. It doesn't always have to do with their sexuality like being bi or gay, it's just them feeding into this delusional, misogynistic idea of a perfect sex doll that traps represent. TL;DR: Porn-addicted coomers who hate women so much they only want a bimbo shemale who's begging for their cock.

Nevertheless, dump the loser before he's pressuring you into choking or some other weird fetish shit.

No. 528347

>>527340
I can completely understand, and I think it's just the basic lack of empathy. I had an ex like this and it really showed when I told him that I just got out of a sketchy situation and thought I might die and am now scared of that situation repeating "well nothing bad actually happened and the only experience you had of that situation was that it turned out fine, so you should let it go". So just by saying that I felt my fears and worries created by that situation were invalidated.
Maybe don't ask him for advice, you don't have the same coping tools he does, and he's not really exercising empathy if he doesn't let you be in your feelings, irrational as they may be.
I think there's a certain humanity in giving into your feelings, and I don't miss the days of having to explain why I still feel scared etc to Mr. rational.

No. 528377

My bestfriend's always been close with this crazy girl, I was sort of friends with her but kept my distance bc she is well crazy. A few months ago crazy girl sexually assaulted my bestfriend's boyfriend, I know this because I was there that night and I saw how drunk he was. Eventually he worked up the courage to tell my bestfriend. At first she was pissed, she stopped talking to crazy girl and I was her number one support system. But crazy girl slowly pulled her back in, now they're bffs again. My bestfriend prioritizes their friendship, she barely asks me how I am and hangs out with crazy girl many times a week. And she tries to guilt me into being friends with crazy girl again, acting like it's my fault. Meanwhile this bitch literally sexually assaulted her boyfriend. I'm so fucking done

No. 528382

GOD my boyfriend is getting on my nerves lately and I just wanna split with him.

No. 528389

>>528377
She's probably just keeping tabs on the crazy bitch and wants you to help. Team up with her anon

No. 528395

>>528389
I wish that was it but my friend's not like that

No. 528403

God, fuck my bf I wish I were 100% gay. This isn't even that egregious but i'm riled up.

I went into his room and he ignored me then gaslit me to shit that it's a perfectly normal thing to do. I was in earlier watching him play a game then went to quickly make a snack, said I'd be back in a sec. I come back and he's on the computer doing something else, and I just stand next to him for a good 10-15 seconds (longer than you'd assume when you're just standing there silently) then go because he isn't acknowledging me. I express later it annoyed me and he could've at least acknowledged me because it's rude, and he jumped straight into it

>I was just doing my own thing for TWO SECONDS

>sorry I'm not focused 100% of the time on you!
>I didn't know you wanted us to do something together
>If you wanted my attention you should've said so
>it's totally normal to not pay attention to someone that comes and sits next to you while you're doing something

I countered all the points and said it's the decent thing to do to say "just a second" or something and it was rude to outright ignore. That was basically my counterpoint and he just said he's going back to his room and walked off, my feelings dismissed and him leaving feeling he's right.

I mean, it isn't normal, right? I feel like I have no frame of reference because he sees nothing wrong with it and when I tried to have him picture himself in the same situation he said it'd be fine. I don't talk to my friends about relationship shit so I don't know. But it's common manners and decency to acknowledge someone, right? Even if they do "only" wait for 10 seconds? You don't have to be like "hey can you pay attention to me"? I think it triggered me more because I asked him something earlier today and he didn't answer when I was standing in front of him waiting, I walked up to him and he was just casually checking his email, taking his sweet time in answering. God my legs are shaking and honestly what an absolute waste of energy. It's negative and all I wanted to do was clear the air.

I ALSO want to vent about Love is Blind and how shitty it is that they seemed to frame all the relationship failures as the womens fault. Like I didn't even know Barnett had significant debt because they made such a fuss over Amber having debt. And the fucking couple that agreed to not marry and then date after, but the guy said yes at the altar and she said no (as agreed), then AFTER it ghosted the woman. Having her look like a villain when he's the snake. I wish it weren't so entertaining.

No. 528408

>>528403
Idk anon, it sounds like you overreacted, but I can’t tell based off this one instance. We need more examples of stuff he did. There’s plenty of times I’ve gone over to see what a bf was doing and just watched for a bit without needing to be acknowledged or having anything at all to say.

No. 528414

>>528226
I think you're more concerned they're getting enough sleep, as long as you're not waking him up because he's sleeping all day

No. 528423

>>528403
>spend time watching him play a video game, presumably not talking much
>leave to get snacks
>come back, bf still engrossed in something
>stand quietly beside him for 10-15 seconds
>don’t bother to tap him or talk to him
>no indication that you want something besides standing there over his shoulder for a few seconds
>literally 10-15 seconds
>leave disappointed when bf doesn’t acknowledge your silent staring
>10-15 seconds
>10-15 SECONDS

Anon, you fucked yourself with this.

No. 528428

>>528423
maybe you're right.

No. 528451

I've bitched about this before but ofc the second humid weather rolls around my boomershit dad has to open the fucking door and walk around topless with shorts on cause it has to be 80 FUCKING DEGREES HUMID in the apartment or bust!
WHY. GOD DAMMIT WHY. When I come home from work I want to be comfortable. I'm fucking sweating and the air feels gross and turgid. I pay for half of this place so why can't shit be a temperate 73 degrees?! We have central a/c we're southern this is fucking bullshit.
I vocalize my discomfort and all he's got to say is "What do you think happens in July and August?" FUCK YOU MURDER IS WHAT WILL HAPPEN IF YOU KEEP THIS UP YOU BETTER HOPE I DON'T ACCIDENTALLY CORONA YOUR ASS.

No. 528457

>>528427
I mean, you overreacted in this instance but if it really bothers you that he doesn’t always respond to you when you’re speaking to him then I would sit down and have a chat with him.
Like, “I really don’t like it when you don’t respond to me when I talk sometimes, I feel like I’m not being listened to and it’s upsetting, blah blah blah, I’d appreciate it if you would respond to me a bit more in the future and I’ll make an effort to tell you what I need” etc

No. 528465

>>528403
I'm gonna agree that you overreacted but holy shit anon I get you at the same time. It sucks so bad to constantly have to repeat yourself, ask, beg, remind, nag, etc. when all you want is to be listened to and considered. Men just don't get it.

No. 528473

>>528457
The only way he'll consider her feelings is if she ignores him back and uses his own arguments against him. May sound petty but she's wasting her breath if she attempts to have a rational conversation about it.

No. 528499

>>528473
If that’s true then it’s not even worth being petty.
If an adult male in a relationship can’t sit down and talk, without belittling his partner’s feelings, then he’s worthless and should be kicked, hard, to the curb. It’s a waste of energy to sit around for weeks waiting for the perfect aha! gotcha moment.

No. 528658

I'm so fucking isolated and touch starved that I know for sure I'll cry when I finally have a hug that lasts more than a second. This isn't even from Corona quarentine I'm just such a huge NEET that gives off bitch vibes that no one wants to come near me.

It's been years since I've had a nice long hug and this is the worst time to want one.

No. 528666

Yesterday I yelled at my friend, because she wanted to call ambulance (health-care is free in my country) because she has a fever of 99.5F (37.5c) because she was sure she has coronavirus
Even though she has a doctor's note that says that she has pharyngitis and her city of 1.5mln people has only 30 confirmed cases of coronavirus. But of course it's her who haven't left the country in a year and lives 40 minutes away from the city center or any airport or trainstation who has coronavirus!
And it's always like this with her. She can't deal with any amount of stress, she can't solve her shit herself, so she keeps nagging her friends and family about how scared she is about some basic shit, and she does that until someone confirms that her shit is the worst shit in the whole fucking world.
So I yelled at her, and she's been silent since yesterday, but shit. Who the fuck wastes such resources as ambulances when there are probably hundreds of people who really need urgent care?
(I am still very angry about it)

No. 528667

>>528666
she sounds selfish. she deserved it. she sounds like an annoying quasi-malingerer so i expect someone like this to end up calling regardless to get that sweet sweet corona attention

No. 528728

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My boyfriend got the virus. He’s been in the hospital since last week and apparently he’s got it from his mom while she was at work. What’s worse is that he has asthma so folks like him are more at risk from this shit. Our anniversary is this month but we can’t do anything obviously. It’ll be 6 years now. I’m so scared and I’m just hoping he pulls thru…

No. 528733

>>528658
I'm not a neet and generally I'm just unattractive enough to not have a romantic partner right now, yet isolation during corona has actually made me feel better about it than usual because now my mind can justify everyone being alone due to the virus. I don't feel left out now that everyone's lonely or going crazy with people they're forced to be in close proximity with. It's weird but it makes things bearable for me.

No. 528734

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I feel like im not good enough for my partner, even if we love each other very much and even want to propose to each other. He gets friend requests from e-girls on league daily, i feel insecure because of it, because they all are either dia, plat or even challenger etc. on league and im not on any rank whatsoever. And it makes me insecure, even more insecure that he doesn't wanna play or add me, i think im just embarassing him because im very bad at everything. He defended me on league once and got his main account perma banned and he blamed it all on me. I think the reason why he doesn't wanna play is because he thinks i might be the reason why he would get perma banned again. I know deep down inside that it's not me whos the reason for his bad luck, and that he isnt even interested in those e-girls, but my crippling anxiety and depression just make me overthink alot of shit. Sometimes i wish i wasn't even alive, it would make things for him better if i just dissapeared. But i try to stay strong everyday for him, and i try to smile everyday for him even if it hurts me alot inside. I really do not know where this is coming from this feeling, maybe im just a jealous clingy bitch.

No. 528735

>>528734
And this is why I will never get in relationships with gamers ever again. Imagine basing your worth and relationship around a world of make believe and unimportance.

No. 528738

>>528728
He is in hospital, so he receives the treatment he needs, and has people to care for him.
It sucks, but I hope everything is going to be okay. Sending some Internet hugs your way

No. 528739

I can't fucking escape this shit. I hate that I'm not a neet anymore and work constantly at a retail job. I'm going to get it, but I'm not scared for myself, but my mother. I don't want her to die. I thought life sucked before when I was ugly and alone.

No. 528742

>>528666
>she wanted to call ambulance (health-care is free in my country) because she has a fever of 99.5F (37.5c) because she was sure she has coronavirus
Fucking christ this is why the mass hysteria is useless. People are needlessly clogging up the health care because the whole internet is telling them that they will die if they catch the virus even when all the statistics show that the fatality rate for moderately healthy 20-40 year olds is almost zero. Unless you're literally suffocating or develop a very high fever then don't bother the fucking hospitals. Stay at home and rest.

>wuhh but anon Italy!!!!!

The people dying in Italy are old fucks who would've died catching a regular cold, not working age young adults.

No. 528744

>>528740
I am sorta friendly with people at work now. I guess I forgot to say just ugly and alone.

No. 528746

>>528745
Yeah, my brother and his wife. But I don't want to be a burden.

No. 528754

My mother is such a cold bitch, I started mentioning to her how I'm feeling anxious about the corona thing, since my dad is in the risk group, my job is not super stable or well paying right now, and she's unemployed for 5+ years now, and she just glares at me says that 'it's not forever' and proceeds to avoid eye contact.

I wish I had a caring mother figure that I could really on for emotional support. I only have a piece of shit that never paid her own rent one day in her life and feels entitled to thread anyone like a piece of shit, but her scammer Indian bf.

No. 528758

>>528754
Your mother sounds like a teenager stuck in an adult's body.
All that is easy for her to feel and say because either way she's sitting pretty at home having others pay her way, she better hope her support system isn't affected by virus or she's royally fucked.

No. 528763

>>528465
Oh, they do get it. They aren't stupid like everyone likes to think they are. They just want to get a reaction. And even if he didn't see her, any normal person would be "I'm sorry, I was so absorbed in this I didn't see you there" instead of screeching like a retard.

No. 528764

>>528758
Yes, that's pretty much how I'd describe her. She even does the stereotypical 'if someone tells me to do something or gives me advice I'll make a point of doing the exact opposite' thing that teens do.

I'm royally fucked either way, she makes it a point of not doing the legal work needed for her to get a pension in the case of my dad dying and instead of looking for a real job or try adult education, which I'd support 100% if she decided to pursue, she just makes shitty crafts like 1h a week, and again I'd be completely supportive of that if she actually acted like it was a real job and worked on them 8h everyday.

I just really hope that we can pass through this so that I have time to get a better job and inevitably support her hobbies and rent.

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>>528734
Does he accept these egirls? Does he play with some of them, duoQ or flex? If you don't know you can check his opgg and see if he's playing with the same people. My point is, he shouldn't even care about them if he has a gf. That's not respectful towards you at all. I had my share of gamer bf's and one thing for sure is if they start hanging out with other girls, they're losing interest. That's how these men are. A person who cares about you plays with you whoever the rank because they want to spend time with YOU. It's like playing games with your silver friends even if you're higher ranked because you enjoy being with them. Don't stay with someone who doesn't deserve your time. You can do better.

No. 528865

>>528832

he mostly plays duoQ sometimes even flex. he only plays on EUNE and i play on EUWE, but he had acc on that server but got them perma banned idk why honestly. We actually wanted to play on EUNE and even talk there, but he didn't mention it after. He doesn't accept e-girls/e-thots, he only has a few female friends there, which do respect our relationship. But i get so jealous and insecure whenever he plays with them or mentions them, i try to be cool and not sound so passive agressive when he mentions them because i can get very cynical. I even got cynical af when he played WoW with his ex, they are friends now. I really don't know, maybe im just jealous that he has friends and i do not, i just have a hard time fitting in and finding friends. I feel like a bitch for even complaining about that, i should really just get friends and maybe i wouldnt feel so terrible.

No. 528894

i want to eat so bad but i am on a strict diet but there are so many good delicious things i wanna eat but i can't i am on a diet i need to lose weight or i'll never be satisfied with myself

i hate struggling like this and i also hate that i cannot stop watching mukbangs of people stuffing their faces full with food that i want so bad

No. 528906

>>528894
Watch amberlynn ried, nikocado or hungry fat chick - or any of the 'gross mukbang food' compilations and have a cup of tea

No. 528925

>>528894
I'm in a similar boat. I have a really bad binging problem and absolutely need to lose weight (also for my mental health) and now because of the virus I can't just always run to the store to buy shit like I used to. On the one hand it's good for my body but on the other hand I feel absolutely awful, I can't stop thinking about eating, there's no type of food gross enough to turn me off, even >>528906 looks good to me.

No. 528934

>>528894
Anon I think this is a prime opportunity to practice portion control and restraint. It's unfair to deprive yourself completely AND unrealistic. Imagine if meth was as advertised and pushed on us like food advertisements are. Food's everywhere, taunting people in the face every time they step outside or turn on the tv. Then you go on YouTube to see the eating disordered skinny mukbangers eating whatever the fuck they want like that's reality.

The reality is modern food is addictive and fattening by design, but it doesn't mean you can't treat yourself. What kinds of food did you want? I'm sure in the right portion or adjustment you could walk away relatively guilt free.

No. 529085

I really wish I bought wine before the lockdown. Noones buying it right now and I feel like drowning alone in my woes.

No. 529094

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I'm just mad for like no fucking reason. I hate everything right now and it's mostly my fault because I've been off meds for like 2 weeks. My emotions have been all over the fucking place and I just can't seem to avoid people long enough to be not pissed off. I really miss just not being able to feel anything and barreling through life in a soulless and productive manner. Sure the new pills make me "happy" and even sociable, but the old pills made me not care, which is something I could really use right now.

No. 529176

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tfw order pho because sick but also cravings
>i get wrong order
>no worries i pretty much eat anything
>its the world spiciest pho shit shouldn't be legal
>cry because now i am pholess and have 13$ less in my name

No. 529207

>>529176
>now i am pholess
Truly a sad state of being

No. 529273

Whenever I'm hungry I just look at myself in the mirror and I'm not hungry anymore.

No. 529277

Has anyone here struggled with antivaxxer parents? I need help.

No. 529357

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Even though I'm upset about people getting sick and dying and losing their jobs and being financially ruined by coronavirus in a weird way this has made me hopeful about the future for the first time in a long time.

I had to drop out of multiple colleges due to mental illness and have spent a lot of time at home, uncertain about my future, with unreliable employment these past few years and I had grown more accustom to the despair and instability than to moving forward and making plans, and seeing everybody react as if they've never had the rug pulled out from under them before has been oddly good for my mental state. Most people move immediately from school to jobs and keep very busy so they've never had to be alone with themselves for long stretches of time before and ppl are realizing having no social safety net is cruel and we're seeing changes already in how people view their lives.

Even though I'm kinda upset that I was just starting to get my life together and I was going to finally move out with some friends by the end of next month, I've been doing pretty well. Cleaning, working on personal projects, getting some online work done. I wanted to go out and get a temp job at a grocery store but my mom doesn't want me to risk it, and I feel like for the first time in my life I don't have guilt about being comfy at home. I'm thriving in the chaos.

I feel like maybe I could make a life in the world after coronavirus now that everybody can relate to their material reality being threatened.

No. 529410

They cancelled all public transport and I can't work from home so I have to drive. I have serious driving anxiety and honestly I'd rather chew my arm off than have to drive to work but here we fucking are.

No. 529422

>>528906
just went to check to see hungry fat chick and the moans really cause me nausea. why do these people moan? the "mmms" and moans are sickening, much more sickening than the chewing noises or anything else. does this not disturb their viewers?? i feel like they're actually enjoying eating and it's like quasi-sexual and not just in a for-feeders way

No. 529433

>>529357
I don’t think you’re upset at all to be honest. Out there is people dying, could be you, could be your family. For what you’re saying basically I see you’re just lazy and incapable of taking control of your life so now you rejoice in your home not doing anything at all and feeling happy for once because no one could call you out about it.
Your lack of empathy is strong and I don’t think you should feel proud because your “thriving in chaos”, just try to think about others ffs

No. 529439

>>529433
Yeah, that was a whole lot of words to basically say "I'm glad I have an excuse to be a NEET".

No. 529574

>>529433
NTA but I read it more like that she feels she will not be judged as harshly now others have gone through similar experiences to her.

>I feel like maybe I could make a life in the world after coronavirus now that everybody can relate to their material reality being threatened.


I see a lot of people talking about "uncertainty" which suggests that for them, the future was certain. These changes might give perspective to those people.

No. 529632

The covid-19 has messed up a lot of my plans. I've finally saved up enough to leave my parent's home and hopefully find a better job with it, but now I'm the sole provider of my family and what I've earned in a year is going to melt in 3 months. I don't mind helping my family, they deserve help but I'm also hurt by my parents' remarks that maybe I could get a second job to earn more as if I already don't have little time for myself as it is. And with so many people getting lay offs, getting a job is even more difficult than it was before. I'm contemplating committing suicide and I secretly wish I get infected to the point I finally die. It seems that no matter what I do, no matter how much effort I put into working towards my goals it just never was meant to be. Maybe that's why covid happened. Sorry everyone.

No. 529635

I was making casual conversation with my grandma about how I'm kicking myself for not getting a long overdue haircut last month when I had time, and she somehow turned it into a lecture about how lots of women would loooove to have curly hair like mine, and how I only have split ends because I straighten it. So tired of hearing this. I just want to not look like Weird Al.

No. 529708

>break up with shitbag manchild ex
>bc he can't live on his own he immediately hooks up and moves in with a new mommy bangmaid he was courting during his after work romps where he'd stay out on me until 2-3am
>she gives him a management job at her bar on account that they fuck and live together and he can't drive himself to work anyway
>he feels like a big man and constantly flaunts his position despite having to date his way to get it
>suddenly coronavirus
>their business is suffering because people aren't allowed to sit in the establishment and they can only make so much money selling greasy bar food to go
>makes a bunch of sad memes of his dumpy self sitting inside the empty bar
I feel bad for the employees who legitimately worked their asses off at that establishment and who spent years of their life working to move forward, cause that's not my ex. He's acting all sad because his easy come that he didn't do anything to earn is now easy go.
Wonder if he'll find an excuse to ditch his woman and monkey branch to a new one if business doesn't bounce back, he can't handle financial pressure of any kind and no doubt he's stressing out to her behind closed doors. Karma is a bitch.

No. 529709

I wish I had lower standards and wasn't so picky about people. If that were the case, I could probably snag up some sort of lonely, ugly IT guy or similar computer toucher. Then I could have sex with him a couple of years, coast, and not have to worry about money for the rest of my life. I don't have interest being a NEET girlfriend like a lot of women are here but it would lay a lot of stress off of me as a professional woman. Luckily my family is well off so I will get a good inheritance, but good luck having it clear even $10,000/year.

No. 529725

I lurk this site. When I was around 6-8 my mother bought me a bunny rabbit. He was white with red eyes. We didn't have s proper cage but I have a massive cardboard box for him. He used to chew it and come out of it and sit next to me on the floor while I studied for school right next to the box. I would stroke him and he would just sit next to me, very still, watching me. I never truly will understand why my mother did what she did. I have a couple theories but they're irrelevant as what happened next happened and I'll never discuss it with her. She saw me sitting with the rabbit next to me on the floor and started being passive aggressive. I didn't understand that at the time, I just thought she was angry. Then a sibling came over and told me that my mother said that if I don't keep the bunny rabbit in the box she'll throw him out the window of the 2 storey flat we lived in. I got anxious and put the rabbit back in the box but he kept coming out to sit next to me after biting through different holes in the box which I think I patched up by jamming stuffed animals. Eventually my mother came in and saw him outside the box again and said to put him in the box. I said he keeps coming out. So she went away and came back and said she's emptying a drawer from a bedside cabinet and he will stay there. The bedside cabinet was the width of s big shoebox for heels and about 60cm high. It was tiny. There was no light except from a weird postbox gap at the top of the cabinet as it was a retro design. But that's it. The bottom was lined with newspaper and by the time lettuce was put in the new cage there was no room for the bunny to hop around without hopping on its own food. And it had to live in darkness until its next feeding time because my mother did not want to see him outside and of course now whenever I opened the cabinet he was trying to escape and claw his way out. There was also water dripping all around the sides of the cabinet from the condensation due to lack of ventilation. He spent around 2 to 3 weeks in that hell hole. Then one day I opened the cabinet to change the food and clean the cabinet and he was there twitching and turning on his back, he was dying. I took him in my arms to the park about 25 minutes away to let him see grass and open space. My older sibling thought I'm just going to burry him. As I arrives at the park it took him around 45 minutes to finally pass away. When I came back my older sibling was angrey at how long I took. I said he wasn't dead yet, so I couldn't burry him. To which they responded that I should've just left him there.

I'm almost 30 now, and I cry and beg that rabbit for forgiveness every now and then in the nights when the memories come rushing back. I imagine what he saw through his eyes and feel sick. I was a child but I should have told them all to fuck off. I was weak then and most of my life but I started turning that around in my mid twenties. Tonight is one of those nights.

No. 529730

>>529632
I'm feeling this, anon. I had huge plans to turn my life around and was in the progress of doing it and everything was going great, then it came crashing down in just a few weeks all because of the pandemic. I'm extremely depressed now and feel like I should just lie down and die, some of my friends are shaming me for being "so selfish" because I'm not happy about putting everything aside in my life and trashing my efforts. It fucking sucks and no matter how horrible it sounds I'm angry that this is all just because old people already on the verge of dying anyway can be prevented from hogging up the hospital capacities.

No. 529754

>>529635
I hate the uninformed, condescending boomer lecture shit. One of my aunts is terrible about it. I've ordered a pair of hair cutting scissors online since I'm also overdue for a haircut. I'm just going to trim my split ends, I hope I don't fuck it up too badly.

>>529725
I'm really sorry anon. Your family sound sociopathic. You were just a little kid and you did your best. What happened to your bunny was awful but it wasn't your fault.

No. 529794

>>529725
Don't blame yourself anon, the adults in your life didn't do their jobs and neglected your pet against your will. Even as a child you knew that wasn't an appropriate condition for an animal, that says a lot.
My mom wouldn't have ever neglected animals to death, but she had a habit of buying me pets and taking them away because I didn't care for them up to her standard. I think they were just tools she used to threaten me with when I behaved like a child like if I didn't do chores or something. It's like she bought pets to make herself a martyr, she rarely seemed to enjoy them.
I didn't even remember her doing this, but apparently she had bought me turtles (I was around 4 or 5 years old) but that didn't last long which is probably why I don't really remember. She took them away because they stunk and I didn't know how to care for them (shocker that a 4 year old wouldn't really know what to do with turtles).
There were numerous cats she gave to me and took away. The one that was really upsetting to me was this calico cat I called Skittles, which I actually developed a bond with when I was 7. One day I came home from school and Skittles was gone. She claimed the cat had run away but I knew better, I was upset for a very long time. When I was an adult she later admitted she took the cat to a barn or shelter because she was sick of it. So, that's nice.

No. 529820

>>529725
Your mom is fucking insane. It's not you who needs forgiveness from the rabbit. You were a small and helpless child. The next time you are crying at night and you go to beg that rabbit for forgiveness, I hope you can know that if its spirit is out there somewhere and can hear you, it already knows that you loved it and didn't want to hurt it that way.
I have some similar experiences I don't want to talk about but they're why I decided that I'll spend part of my life trying to help animals. I think before I die at least I'll manage to tip the scales so that I was a good influence. We can't go back and save someone who already died but we can help someone else now.

No. 529836

>>529725
Anon sweetie it wasn't your fault and i am so sorry you are still haunted by this. You did your best as a little kid. I know i am just anon but you're forgiven due to not even being awful in the first place.

No. 529887

>>529725
You tried your best for it, you held it as it died and you showed it kindness.
What your mum did was not your fault, and it was really fucked up. But you shouldn't blame yourself for it, you were a child - she should have seen how wrong it was, even to just threaten to kill it is fucking wrong. I hope she has no more pets

No. 529928

I wish I had an irl friend to talk about weeb shit with. I bought books of my favourite manwha, and I REALLY want to share it with someone and them also love the story and the art. I showed it to a friend, but her eyes kinda glazed over and I sadly put it away lol. It makes me wish I didn’t like this sort of stuff.

No. 529938

>>529725
This hit me hard, anon. Please don't blame yourself, you were just a child. What happened was your mother's fault, not yours.
Your rabbit loved you, and he wouldn't want you to feel so miserable whenever you think about him.

No. 529995

Anytime I read or hear boomers and religous fucks cry about "the millions of lives being taken every year by the evil lefties who murder children by using abortion as their only birth control" I wanna shoot myself in the face out of pure rage that I live in a world of such stupidity. They're always doing every little they can to make it even more difficult than it already is to have an abortion. We fucking get it, you hate women and want them to suffer for having sex. Then they say it's only ~maybe~ okay for rape victims to have abortions after they call them lying, conniving, bitches out to ruin lives for daring to accuse a man of being a rapist. Fuck, I'm tired of this world.

No. 530001

U picku materinu i sve

Any croanons here? Its six am and we just had a 5.3 earthquake.
"StAy At hOme" were not safe anywhere

No. 530016

Woke up to all the replies from you guys and wanted to say thank you for listening. I’m sorry to the anon who had their cat taken away while they were at school. My mother did that to my sibling. My mother took in a stray cat which my sibling then bonded with and looked after but one day after they finished work and came home the cat was gone and mother said it ran out of the door while she was putting out the trash.

As another anon suggested, I think healing will come from helping animals in need and I aspire to do that when I’m finally in a position to do it.

Thanks again for listening. /rabbit-anon

No. 530017

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I know lolcow doesnt condone anachans but recently I started only eating 200 cals a day and relapsing into my eating disorder because i want to look good for my boyfriends graduation and feel good abt myself. Im so stupid and i know its damaging my body but I cant go outside and havent seen my friends in about a whole year from my body dysmorphia so yeah im stupid.

No. 530019

Since finding bedbugs in my parents room today, I feel like I can’t sleep in peace knowing they’re probably in my room too. For the past few weeks I’ve been waking up itching, even though I’ve never found bug bite marks even after the skin wheals settle down and have yet to find evidence of any on my own bed. Now I’m awake and can’t fall back asleep because I feel so hyperaware of every little feeling all over my body and I have to instantly move to touch that spot because I’m so freaked out at the though of bugs walking all over me. It’s inevitable and has probably already happened while I’ve been asleep but being awake makes the though unbearable. Now I’m also stressed thinking about how to even tackle this, how much a professional might cost, and if having a stranger come into our home in the midst of this virus is even a good idea (my state is under lockdown and my parents have health problems already so I’m super worried about them being exposed to the virus). I just want to sleep!!!! I’m not even tired enough to just knock out!!! Fuck!!!!!!!

No. 530020

lose my job and a week later getting kicked out of my house because I wont become religious for this cancerous scrot I live with that wants me to become one of his amish wives or some shit. feelsbadman.

No. 530031

>>530001
Here .. fuck I am scared

Any anons from cali or Japan how do you deal with earthquaqes ?

No. 530074

My mother thinks she is intelligent even if it's clear she is not - her life choices, her (not thought out) values, the things she says. The way she treats people who, ironically, are on the same level as her or even better than her. She is the perfect example of the Dunning-Kruger effect.

No. 530075

>>530031
Do not stay in a room that has large furniture which might fall. Try to find refuge under a table, cover your head. Call loved ones to check on them, and look up national new/if the government has given any indications on what to do next.

No. 530109

I fucking hate every boomer I've ever met, especially my remaning living relatives and I hope they all perish.

No. 530114

>>530109
i see 'boomer' referred to gen x'ers too. what do you guys think of gen x'ers? worse, better, or the same as most boomers?

No. 530128

>>530114
The same. Anyone over 40 is trash.

No. 530151

it's funny to see normies talking about "self isolating" and wahhh its ~so boring.~ Fucking, grow the fuck up. I can't stand people who can't be alone. Low key so happy I now have an excuse to avoid cunts and never go outside even though I never cared about having an excuse.

No. 530154

My god, Boyd Rice’s latest Instagram post about the current pandemic is moronic and drawing in idiots. For instance, the basic comments from a bulldog “parent” that just stuck out for me: “LET NATURE THIN THE HERD AND JUST LET OLD PEOPLE DIE LOL.” Mental illness and pure, forced edginess considering this is coming from someone who is obsessed with their extremely inbred animal and dresses it up.

No. 530164

>>530109
>>530128
Does your biggoted ass hate chinese as well? What about blacks?

No. 530173

>>530128
The younger generation is going to think that about (y)our generation once you hit 40.

No. 530174

>>530173
idk not necessarily true. ageism is a thing but boomers, for example, really double down on their shittiness and don't ever question themselves even when their actions put their own children and grandchildren at risk. younger people don't think bernie is a boomer. being a boomer really is kind of a state of mind.

No. 530176

>>530151
It’s so fucking weird. For some of them it’s literally been like 2 days. For others they’re having a full on mental breakdown at 2 weeks. Like god damn get a fucking hobby

No. 530177

I'm so fucking sick of corona "reminders" everywhere on completely unrelated comment sections, board threads and social media. I think I fucking know to wash my hands and stay inside by now yadayada.

No. 530180

>>530177
LMAO. Normies having full on mental breakdowns after only two weeks. I didn't leave the house for 3 years. Unbelievable. How do they even survive out in the real world?

No. 530184

>>530174
Mostly because Bernie ISNT a boomer. He’s “greatest generation”, not a post-war baby.

No. 530186

>>530184
ehh, baby boomers are 1944-1964 while bernie was born in 1941, so he's kinda on the precipice of boomerdom. trump is a boomer by technicality and by mentality. but really, many of the technical "greatest generation" are literally just as bad as proper boomers, if not worse. besides, people call anyone like 40-100 "boomers". it's just a catchall for "old".

No. 530191

>>530186
This right here. Boomer is just another form of age old ageism. It's a slur and people who use it are like /pol/tards(back to tumblr with you)

No. 530193

>>530173
My generation is different, we live in different times. It's not a catch-all for old people but for their culture.

No. 530197

>>530193
you're right. it's a catch-all for "old asshole", which encompasses both literal baby boomers, the silent generation, and gen Xers but there are a few decent ones that aren't older assholes. their culture means they mostly are truly shitty, however. both "the greatest generation" and boomers. people like bernie don't get that criticism because he isn't an asshole, so for that reason it isn't purely ageism. it is partially, though.

No. 530199

>>530191
>muh ageism
Boomers undeniably destroyed a lot of the world. Why do you hop from thread to thread to defend them? Are you a 60-year old fuck deadly afraid of Corona or something?

No. 530201

>>530191
>It's a slur
Lmao
>people who use it are like /pol/tards
Tell that to all the normies who don't know what /pol/ is, retard

No. 530205

>>530199
>Boomers destroyed the world
Nothing is ever that black and white. Boomers gave you the quality of life that they couldn't themselves attain. And really, that and all the bad shit happened due to systematic reasons and not because people born 10 000 moons ago are somehow different. If you really want to argue about it boomers brought more good into this world than bad.
>>530201
Most people are /pol/tards. They might deny it but they all act or think the same.

No. 530207

>>530205
>Most people are /pol/tards.
Y'all really live in your own world huh

No. 530208

>>530205
your post is pure delusion.

No. 530214

>>530208
My father was a boomer and had her mother/sisters die of nowadays preventable things and he himself was close to dying thanks to shitty labor practises. Modern generations are entitled as fuck. "Woe is me and my student debt" they say whilst never acknowledging the fact that they would rather live poor now than in a gilded cage 70 years back.

No. 530216

>>530205
>Give you the quality of life that they couldn't themselves attain

Are you retarded? Due to their actions and lifestyles the next two generations had lower qualities of life.

No. 530220

>>530193
You misunderstand, anon. /pol/ is a mindset. Anyone can be /pol/, even those who have never ventured onto the internet. /pol/ is a catch all for idiots.

No. 530221

>>530216
Nobody told me that HIHD, GDP and life expectansy fell while absolute poverty rose.

Oh wait.

No. 530222

>>530177
Me too. Emails from every company I’ve ever purchased anything from, random websites, the apps I use…
Like who opens Spotify and goes omg that’s right the corona I forgot.

No. 530223

>>530214
>Modern generations are entitled because they have access to better medical practices
This. Is the most retarded thing I've ever heard.

People honestly acting like boomers were the poor souls who had to suffer through the war when they were the ones who got to live the better times provided by their parents, never had a big crisis hit them, added to their own rights, messed up the economy, then wanted to live the easy life by making less kids that will bear the huge burden of providing for them during their relatively early retirement. For example, in some Mediterranean countries boomers retired at age 55 after a life of avoiding taxes and that's why their millenials are one hundred percent fucked. In my country they jacked up the housing prices so that nobody can afford to buy their own apartment and a lot of people need to apply for governmental benefits to afford their rent. They also raised the standards for entering the work force into impossible heights, you need to spend 5-6 years at minimum in school before you can even apply and even then you're supposed to work with shit pay and recently extended trial periods living hand to mouth, all the while knowing that even if they make your contract permanent you'll probably be laid off in less than 6 years and most likely required to switch careers in 15 years. From every pay check you pay a considerable amount to your retirement fund except it's not meant for you to have, it's to pay for your parents' pension. Your retirement age has been extended to be at 72, if you even live that long after having chronic stress mess up your heart.

Fuck boomers. Fuck us having to give up our futures and economy just so we can save their lazy asses.

No. 530227

>>530222
>Like who opens Spotify and goes omg that’s right the corona I forgot.
This was the exact thought I had yesterday when opening Spotify, lmao

No. 530228

>>530180
>I didn't leave the house for 3 years.
>How do they even survive out in the real world?
anons, never change

No. 530234

>>530223
>Modern generations are entitled because they have access to better medical practices
>This. Is the most retarded thing I've ever heard.
Do I really have to spell everything out for you?
>People honestly acting like boomers were the poor souls who had to suffer through the war when they were the ones who got to live the better times provided by their parents
What better times? Oh yeah, Boomers got to live among asbestos and other types of garbage. They got to live when homosexuality and women were oppressed, riveting stuff. And that if you are lucky and born into America that was the leader in the quality of life instead of the plethora of authoritarian hellholes.
>never had a big crisis hit them
Aside from few wars, market crashes and such which are really no different from what people are currently experiencing. That is if you are lucky enough to born into America instead of africa, Europe or China that have had their own sets of purges, civil wars and millions of starving.
>added to their own rights
Yeah because being gay in the 80s must have been fun rite?
>messed up the economy
Current crash is all on Gen X/millenials and is way worse than what Boomers have managed to pull off. And really, what do you mean by "messing the economy"? Do you dislike your cheap shit or service industry?
>then wanted to live the easy life by making less kids that will bear the huge burden of providing for them during their relatively early retirement. For example, in some Mediterranean countries boomers retired at age 55 after a life of avoiding taxes and that's why their millenials are one hundred percent fucked.
See this shit here is the kicker. You are miffed because you worry about some numbers on your bank account instead of actual problems like rights, wars or day to day survival.
>In my country they jacked up the housing prices so that nobody can afford to buy their own apartment and a lot of people need to apply for governmental benefits to afford their rent.
That is on your current government that is filled with Gen Xers and millennials. It is all about current policy on housing and not what some retards did 20 years ago. Take Berlin for example, housing is cheap as fuck there because the government is actually looking out for the common folk.
>They also raised the standards for entering the work force into impossible heights
Gen Xers and Millennials are in charge now.
>you need to spend 5-6 years at minimum in school before you can even apply and even then you're supposed to work with shit pay and recently extended trial periods living hand to mouth, all the while knowing that even if they make your contract permanent you'll probably be laid off in less than 6 years and most likely required to switch careers in 15 years
You should switch your job every 2 years though.
>From every pay check you pay a considerable amount to your retirement fund except it's not meant for you to have, it's to pay for your parents' pension. Your retirement age has been extended to be at 72, if you even live that long after having chronic stress mess up your heart.
If you were born in early 2000s then you are projected to live up to 2100s so that is another thing boomers do not have.


Quit your bitching.

No. 530236

>>530180
Same but closer to 2 with occasional car rides bc i am a sick fuck. 2 weeks isn't and shouldnt be shit.

No. 530237

>>530234
Jesus christ you're either retarded or baiting.

No. 530238

>>530237
Go sniff some lead if you're that jealous about boomers

No. 530251

>>530238
why are you sucking their gooches so much? are you a boomer? you're literally wrong about everything claim you made, which is hilarious.

No. 530253

>>530251
How hard is it accept that people lived worse lives many moons ago? People used to accept the concept of world moving forward but nowadays they act like Boomers made things worse while every quantifiable metric proves otherwise.

No. 530254

>>530164
lol wtf, I have nothing against blacks but I do dislike mainland chinese and their goverment for how they treat animals and humans, not sure what that has to do with disliking boomers though.

No. 530264

>>530254
>I don’t hate the blacks
>But I do hate Chinese!

Words taken straight out of my boomer relatives mouths. Maybe we’re all not so different in the end…

No. 530268

>>530264
>mainland chinese and their goverment
What's the problem? Are you really going to defend the chinese government? Come on dude.

No. 530278

I had bad acne when i was a teen but now i'm in my 20s and i still have acne all over by upper body and it's so frustrating cause i know it won't go away any time soon, as both my parents had adult acne.
At least my face isn't that bad anymore…

No. 530279

>>530264
It's not really a race-thing, do you know anything about mainland china and their culture? Do you know how their govermet treats their people? I understand that you're mad, boomer-chan, but defending the CCP isn't really making you look good.

No. 530280

>>530268
As if the average Chinese citizen has any control over what their government does.

No. 530283

>>523788
>>530279
>>530254
>Let's just bag this culturally, economically and religiously diverse group into one big group even though they're controlled by local governments that Beijing might or might not have real control over.
Brilliant! You sound like an ignorant poltard complaining about Africans.

No. 530284

>>530283
*these groups

No. 530292

>>530283
I think there's a misunderstanding.

No. 530309

>>530279
No one has even tried defending the CCP but ok.
Why don’t you vent about mainland China and the people who live there. What do you hate, anon? Be a bit more specific this time. We would all love to hear it.

No. 530325

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Being a whore and sleeping with tons of people is disgusting and fucks you up mentally and emotionally. Any "slut", specially the self proclaimed ones, ive met was a horrible person who lacked empathy.

No. 530337

>>530325
I think this topic is nuanced and deserves more than “sluts are bad people”. It isn’t inherently wrong to want multiple sexual partners, or wanting male attention and validation (likely because your parents didn’t love you right lol). The issue is, the men who would engage in casual sex are low value, straight up garbage. These men will either treat her like an onahole, damaging her self-worth; or she would have to acquire massive amount of intimacy and attachment issues to cope.
On top of all this, promiscuity bolsters men. They think they can get sex without having to try. Their misogynistic views get validated. This hurts all women.

No. 530340

I could be in silence, doing nothing at all and just staying there as a viewer and she would always find a reason to make me feel guilty anyways.

No. 530354

I wish people with families appreciated what they have more, I see people complaining about self-quarantine with their kids or partners but honestly being alone in isolation alone has got me depressed in the pits in less than 2 weeks. I want to cry all the time realizing that I mean nothing to people, all of my big plans for the year were that I was extremely enthusiastic about are ruined and this will go on indefinitely. I have nobody to talk to, I'm stuck in my tiny apartment 24/7, I'm afraid for my job due to the economy crashing, I just want to give up. I can't stand all the "Now you have time to read new books or learn new skills" pep talks, I'm way too anxious and depressed to do anything but stare at the screen doing nothing. I can't even sleep. I don't give a fuck about the virus, I only give a fuck about how badly this whole lockdown situation will affect the society and when will the worst end. I've lost my appetite and even brushing my teeth is a task too hard to carry out. The days feel like they go on forever.

Anyway anons if you have someone to keep you company please appreciate it.

No. 530375

>>530354
I’m sorry you feel this way, anon, and I truly hope things get easier for you with time.

No. 530396

>>530325
>>530337
I think the worst thing is that it feeds low value men's delusions and tells them it's ok and acceptable to treat women as objects. The lowest of the low can visit strip clubs and have women debase themselves for pennies, can get endless personalized fap material from porn and e-girls, and enact any fantasizes they want with escorts no matter how humiliating. All of these things further contribute to how women are treated and how their female sexuality is viewed.

It just makes me so sad that shitty women who are addicted to male validation will continue to do this shit and think it's empowering, they don't care if they continue to drag women as a whole through the mud.

No. 530397

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Is it bad that I would rather die alone be with a man I'm not attracted to forever?like I get I'm 30 and I'm not amazing looking. I realize I'm at that age where you just need to settle for any guy who has a decent personality and some cash to take care of some kids but I really do not care. If he doesnt make me aroused when fucking him…what is the point? We might as well be friends at that point. They say the older you get the less shallow you should be but I'm still shallow. And this is coming from the same person who has been bullied for their looks all their life…no one ever gave my personality a chance and I'm not going to do it either lol why should I now settle down with the same people who thought they were too attractive for me during their prime?

No. 530410

>>530397
I feel the same, even though I'm not 30, and I wonder if I'm autistic because of that.
I'm used to spending time in my own but I couldn't get used to living with someone I don't like - and lie to them. It's not like you can be honest, you have to act like they're the most attractive person and not a burden on your life.

No. 530413

>>530410
I'm the same anon you just replied to and I have friends who are around my age dating really ugly guys and they admit they dont find them hot and I'm just like…is money and not being alone really that bad?

No. 530447

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I'm honestly trying to remain calm and cautiously optimistic in the midst of all this chaos, for the sake of my sanity. But all my online friends want to talk about is how hundreds of millions of people are going to die, we're never going to be able to leave our homes again, how there's going to be widespread poverty and starvation, the world is going to turn into Mad Max and nothing will ever be good again.

I s2g I'm going to sit in my house alone playing ACNH and avoid reading anything online or talking to anyone for the sake of my mental health at this point. I'm sick of hearing this shit, this stress is really what's going to fucking kill me.

No. 530448

>>530413
Remember that men are EXTREMELY invested in keeping women scared of being alone, especially after 30. The more desperate women are to find a man before their imaginary time limit, the more they will lower their standards and date men who are much uglier and older than they are. The ultimate goal of men is to have a tonne of super hot, young girls competing with each other for scraps. Capitalism also wants that, makeup and plastic surgery and weddings ain't free.

I feel for women who really want kids because doing it alone is a hard choice to make (though I often see divorced mums say their life is much easier without a grown man to ALSO take care of). But for those of us who don't want kids or aren't that set on the idea, being alone is a safe, valid option that seriously benefits us most of the time.

No. 530461

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school is about to start back up as online only and I'm dreading it. The last time I did online school was in high school, it made my grades tank. rn I'm sick and my mental health can't afford to get worse under pressure, but if I drop this semester, since that's the only other option they're giving us, they won't refund tuition. I wonder if there'll even be a next semester with all the doomsdaying and fear surrounding the covid panic. I fucking hate this, I'm coughing, my chest is in pain, I'm not supposed to go outside, and I'm not even sure I can muster up the strength to be able to handle online school. haven't gotten tested for covid yet because my symptoms aren't really bad even if I've exhibited some of them (could be a sinus infection), plus my state only rly seems to be giving free tests to the elderly and susceptible. Since I had pneumonia a few years ago and my lungs are also shit from smoking I might be at risk, idfk but i don't want to expend the time and money to go to the doctor until it worsens. I fucking hate this bullshit and I don't wanna sound like a whiny entitled bitch because I hate it… it's fucking bringing me down and I'm trapped inside with my crazy panicked family which makes it even worse. All that's been giving me relief has been movies, shitty internet videos, my few irl friends, and my online friends, but now that I have school on my back again it's going to make me want to fucking die. The one thing I actually like about college is that it gave me the chance to get the fuck out of the house and interact with more IRL people in an enriching, intellectually stimulating way, and now that's all online because my school and the rest of the country are chickenshits. Can't even hang out with my IRL friends because their families are sick or they're sick. Ugh.

No. 530484

All this shit going on in the world right now and my favorite niche LP'r says he has cancer…
Can't even just space out with some Youtube videos fuck!

No. 530487

Lmao my stupid ass had to go on beta blockers because i have gotten so anxious over covid. Stay safe anons and be smarter than me.

No. 530489

I hate how any flaw in a woman's personality is so casually referred to as "daddy issues." It's so lazy and demeaning. She wants a commitment? Daddy issues. She's a slut? Daddy issues. Too clingy? Dad didn't love her enough, clearly.

No. 530494

lockdown has been such hell for me. I know it's worse for a lot of other people but jesus christ.

I live in a very small house with paper thin walls and my parents are both really loud. not only do they basically scream when they talk, but they always leave the TV on and I can always hear it. I can't read without silence, so reading is out. can't play video games because the electricity is partially broken in our house and if I plug in my tv/xbox (or even try to charge my laptop) it makes the lights in the house flicker. . our internet is really shitty too so I have to watch videos in the lowest quality. watching yt videos is pretty much the only thing I can do, but I'm getting tired of that, also I have to use my high speed data for that (if someone else is on the internet) which is limited. I usually go to the library at times like these. oh yeah, did I mention my parents constantly bicker/fight? as if them being generally annoying as fuck isn't bad enough. I just want to fucking die.

No. 530536

>>530521
Do you have a friend you can stay with? I'd let you crash on my couch…

No. 530578

this is petty after seeing other anons have to deal with some heavy shit because of quarantine, but my mom is so dumb. she keeps calling me downstairs to get something out of the cupboard when she's literally there. if you want me to help out more tell me and stop pulling this shit.

No. 530591

>>530578

My dad does the same thing. I just pretend to be asleep and ignore him

No. 530599

I'm in Croatia and it's 3 am rn, and we've been feeling aftershocks the whole day. It's also really windy and it's making me more anxious than ever.
Doesn't help that everyone's been up since 6 am, I'm so nervous, I can't calm down to sleep at all.

No. 530625

I already have really bad anxiety and I'm trying to control a panic attack because I feel a head cold starting and I had s coughing fit this morning and nose is blocked. I'm fucking shit scared cos I'm about to start work. I work in retail. The anxiety is making me feel like I can't breathe which is judt making it worse because they said shortness of breathe is a symptom of covid. I'm shaking from anxiety. Its so bad.

No. 530634

>>530578
Probably her way with coping with anxiety from these times, and wants to spend more time with you.

No. 530640

>>530397
There is no time in your life when you should be settling for less wtf go visit the dating thread in /gg section of lolcow

No. 530656

>>530634
This is true, thanks anon. I wish I could be a better daughter.

No. 530659

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why are men on dating apps like that. I found a cute guy and he only ever calls me when he needs to beat his dick and go to sleep

No. 530661

>>530659
Men will put in as little effort as you allow them to. The real question is why are you tolerating it instead of blocking and ghosting him like h deserves?

No. 530662

>>530659
block him. end of story

No. 530665

My boyfriend adores Childish Gambino / Donald Glover and gets so pissed off and just… angry at me and shuts down for about 10 minutes when I express how much I hate him. It's not just him being homophobic but it's specifically how many rape jokes he's made and finds hilarious. I'm a fucking rape victim of several accounts and am HORRIDLY triggered (hate using it but yeah) by that shit! and he gets all huffy of "That was ages ago" I don't give a fuck! He's made no effort to show that he changed from the person who made those jokes. It's sick.

No. 530670

>>530665
Your boyfriend sounds like a prick, especially since he behaved that way knowing your past (I assume). Kind of curious to know what you like about him, because the lack of consideration towards your feelings is at least a yellow flag to me.

No. 530673

>>530447
Hundreds of millions of people will NOT die. Only Northern Italy is fucked because they're taking in all the patients and trying to save them in a situation where they would normally prioritize other cases above them. Literally no other country, or even the rest of Italy, is having its healthcare collapse on itself. People keep talking about how "the other countries will be hit by this in just a few weeks" but you've been saying this for "just a few weeks" already, it's not going to happen.

I'm so angry at all these extreme measures being taken just because of a flu. Yes, it is just a flu. A lot of healthy people who contracted the virus play the symptoms up for drama, like saying that a fever of 100 degrees and a cough is ~literally killing them~. And I really don't care about protecting a deadly sick 87-year old, they were going to die soon to begin with.

>inb4 but anon 8 million phone contracts lost china is lying!!!!!

Unironically hang

No. 530694

I managed to never cracked my phone for over 10 years, today not only did I put a nasty crack in it, I also impaled myself with a huge shard of screen glass. I’m fucking scared to use my phone now???

No. 530733

UGGGGGHHH, the heating in my apartment building has stopped working AGAIN, and now it's started snowing too.

I can already see myself catching a cold and then catching the virus later when I go outside to buy stuff.
Farewell anons, it was nice knowing y'all

No. 530741

I have no idea where to look for emotional support. I know therapists are scum and do more harm than good.

No. 530743

>>530694
can you get a screen cover?

No. 530755

Caught my bf watching porn on the TV in the living room while I WAS ASLEEP ON THE COUCH BEHIND HIM. I'm so fucking mad. I'm so livid I don't even right now. This is like the 30th fucking time he's watched porn behind my back and seemingly waited for me to fall asleep. WHAT THE FUCK. FUCK YOU FOR NOT BEING ATTRACTED TO ME BUT STAYING WITH ME.

No. 530757

>>530755
time to break up, anon. that's so disrespectful.

No. 530759

>>530755
Watching porn doesn't mean he's not attracted to you. It's really unacceptable to watch it if you've made your stance on it clear, though. I'd say it's time to consider breaking up if you've literally dealt with this 30 times. He clearly doesn't care about your feelings and boundaries as long as he can get away with breaking them.

No. 530762

>>530755
>doesn’t even have the decency to watch it secretly in the shower
Don’t be a cuck, you know what you gotta do

No. 530768

>>530743
What’s that anon?

No. 530769

>>530762

It really is cucking, dead ass
>My boyfriend jacks off to other women. Here's why that's okay!

No. 530771

>>530755
>watching porn on the TV in the living room
Only maniacs watch porn on their TV. Leave him.

No. 530777

>>530755
Ditch him. He's lying and sneaking behind your back, how many degrees of separation until he's full blown cheating on you? It's a slippery slope, and you shouldn't give him the power to hurt you like that.

>>530759
>Watching porn doesn't mean he's not attracted to you.
It's more about compounding evidence. If they're not sexually intimate, then her bf preferring porn over their relationship actually says a lot. Especially when anon is around. That's ignoring the fact that he's not caring about her feelings and lying, which I don't think men are as prone to doing to women they want to continue to bang.

No. 530802

>>530769
I find it crazy how men and pickmes somehow convinced an entire generation of women that it's acceptable for men to fantasize and jerk off to other women. We live in a clown world.

No. 530817

>>530769
>>530802
Who is he cucking her with? His hand? What about his imagination?

Equating watching porn as cheating just makes the former seem like a lesser evil

No. 530856

>>530817
I never said it was cheating, but it doesn't make you 100% faithful either. Explain to me how it's acceptable and healthy to fantasize about fucking other people in a relationship. We're not talking simply finding other people attractive and leaving it at that. We're talking about how normalized it is for men to look at other women, fantasize about fucking them, and jerking off while claiming they are committed and faithful to their partner.

Is it acceptable because he isn't actually fucking other women? So what about a man who jerks off to the idea of having sex with children? Does that make it ok because he hasn't actually committed the act?

No. 530863

>>530817
NTAYRT. Cheating is more than physical, it's emotional. In a relationship I am totally committed to my partner, I don't find it necessary to look at other men or imagine myself having sex with them. Even if I do find someone else attractive, I don't act on it. I'm sexually exclusive to my partner, both physcially and emotionally. I expect the same from him. Porn violates that because not only is he attracted to another person, he is acting on that attraction by watching it and masturbating to it.

No. 530866

>>530817
It's not physically cheating. But I wouldn't want my bf to be looking at other women like that and contributing to an incredibly exploitative industry.
From personal experience, the dudes I've dated who watch porn just saw me as a piece of meat and had minimal respect for me and constantly pushed me to be more 'freaky' than I was comfortable with

No. 530868

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People are so fucking annoying!! Omocat won’t give you brownie points for kissing her ass and whiteknighting her shitty pixel game! Fuck off!!!

No. 530874

>>530817

Rephrase the greentext and tell me you wouldn't call the man who types this a cuck lmao
>My girlfriend masturbates to other men. Here's why that's okay!
Like it or not, he is thinking of an actual human besides you to get himself off. He chose a porn star or camgirl or whatever over you. But you still think you're the #1 in his life. That's no way to live unless you really fucking hate yourself lol

No. 530878

>>530866
This, It's a very slippery slope. A lot of men are watching more violent porn now ( i feel so bad for these women..) and expect the same level from their partners. No one wins. Dump his ass now, anon. You do not want to be with a porn sick man. He's one moment away from cheating on you physically with another woman.

No. 530902

it' so gloomy where i live today, just awful vibes. feels like doomsday. anyone else?

No. 530931

Just venting.
I feel suicidal recently, I don't really know why. I felt quite good this year but I feel like I'm losing all my energy.
Not only I suffer from chronic fatigue, I have other mental and psychical problems. I'm always tired and I don't have energy to do anything. I probably never gonna get a work because of that.
I can't really get along with people, I don't like to get out to be with people anyway.
I always felt alone, all my life but I never was able to connect with people. I feel uncomfortable around people, I rarely get out because of that but also because I have anxieties.
I'm tired with people overall, and how they can be mean without any reason. Just to show where is your place.
There are things that I enjoy in life but what's the point.
I won't function normally like most people anyway, I don't even know what I should do in a future.
It's all so tiresome, I don't mind if I would have like one or two problems, but I have fuckton of them. I'm really sensitive to stimuli outside my body (noise, touch) and inside (hunger, feelings). I hate it.
I went to a therapist and psychiatrist, no one could help me anyway.
It's been years, nothing changed. Why I should get up and do things.
This post is full of cringe and bullshit but…. I'm just done.
I'm just tired with everything.
Internet is tiring, people are tiring, life is tiring. It's all so bothersome.

No. 530932

Tell me why the fuck have i seen a bunch of americans on my street, wearing shorts(it's freezing here) And being in a big crowd touching each other whilst being loud. Why the fuck. Stop. Next time i'll yell like the crazy fuck i am.

No. 530950

I hate men so much. I can't even post to social media about how sad I am about my senior dog being sick and possibly having to get put down without stinky scrotes sliding in my DMs to flirt. Fuck off losers!!! I don't give a single FUCK that you are lonely uwu~..i wish these men would die instead of my baby

No. 530953

Staying at home in self-isolation has given me a lot of time to reflect on my life, and it's just made me realize that my relationship with my mom is kind of fucked. Like I randomly remembered like 4 years ago my cat escaped the house because she left a door open overnight and when she told me the next morning she said it in such an impatient way like it was somehow an inconvenience to her. Then when she was driving me to work I was trying to not cry so I wasn't talking because I was upset that my cat was gone and she got angry and said "I hope you're not going to just be all depressed forever now" like wtf…like I can't be sad for a day or two and she just scoffed at me. Then a few days later when I was trying to explain all the things I could do to find him she was like "um yeah, that's a lot of work just to get a cat" and trying to discourage me. Anyways I didn't listen to her and I got him back by sitting outside at 4am waiting for him to come home. Like if he didn't come back I don't think my mom knows I would fucking resent her forever.
Don't get me wrong either, I love my mom and I get along well with her, she's usually pretty supportive of me. But when she's in a mood or angry she can't control her emotions and I have always been the one she takes it out on. My brother has bipolar and she coddles the shit out of him but whenever I have had issues with depression in the past a lot of the time she treated it like I was just being mopey and I need to get over it. Only in the past year or two she's been more open to the idea of me being treated for depression. The last time I was on antidepressants I went behind her back because there was no reason to involve her when she couldn't even take me seriously.
Anyways I was thinking about all this because of corona and I got laid off temporarily, I can go on unemployment but if shit goes south and my landlord doesn't want to make adjustments for me I'll have to move home. And mom really wants me to, she suggested it like twice already. And she just wants to control every aspect of my life that she possibly can, like I still let her do my taxes and a few years ago she took it upon herself to make me get my passport renewed even though I haven't traveled in years she kept barking at me to call this person, call that person to get references but I was like, why don't you do all this yourself since you want it, not me. I'm trying to remove her from all my personal affairs because I just hate being yelled at by her all the time. And now I might have to move back home and she'll be on my ass to find a job, make friends, go outside, stop playing video games, come to her art club and hang around with 50 yr old women….like again I'm only venting about the worst shit about our relationship, but honestly now that I live in another city and just talk to her on the phone twice a week and go to visit every few months my relationship with her has never been better and I am just dreading the near future now because my mom(and dad) just wants me to live with her and never have my own life
Also if bipolar brother loses his job and moves back home when I'm there I will kms I swear to god he used to steal my stuff, like come into my room at 1:00 am on a school night like "I need your vcr" and sit there fucking wrestling with vcr wires loudly for like 15 minutes while I would cry trying to sleep because I had no control over my life. Also I never want to play animal crossing because in 2009? he stole my copy for the wii that I asked my mom for christmas and was so excited to get because I "didn't know how to play the game properly" so he just took it for himself and wouldn't let me play it. Also last time he was living at home at the same time as me he was an alcholic and addict, he went to rehab but I'm seriously traumatized from all the shit I had to witness in that house

No. 531015

>>530950
Wow, it's like they can smell the emotional vulnerability on a woman the fucking bloodhounds.
Sorry about your dog anon.

No. 531017

It's my bday, I live alone and no one can visit (duh) and i am just physically beyond messed up atm, I wish no one would remember so I don't have to pretend my life has been a lonely hell for a year, basically a quarantine. I did kinda want a cake or a card though, goddamit. Stay safe, anons.

No. 531018

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>>531017
*MY LIFE HASN'T BEEN HELL
jesus fucking christ i am so tired.

No. 531025

Do any of you anons feel the desire to be special in anyway? Like not be an actual snowflake but just be a bit special like "oh look at her" sort of way or whatever
I've been average my whole life at everything I've ever done and I feel like I'll always be this way.
Sorry if I sound fucking stupid. Please tell me I'm not the only one here.

No. 531029

Recently my boyfriend stopped watching porn because it became evident he was addicted to it. Our sex life used to be pretty good. Then he started watching tons of porn and he started watching porn during sex. Since he's stopped supposedly watching porn our sex life sucks. I dress up all sexy and he barely even compliments me. We're hardly having sex. We literally just had sex and it was awful. He got close to cumming quickly and I told him "not yet. Wait." because I was barely even getting into it, and he went ahead and came. Didn't even try to stop himself. He then let me finish getting off with a vibrator and I just faked it because I was going to need a lot more time to do it and he was just sitting there watching me.
I seriously might break up with him if this doesn't resolve soon.
Porn sick men are awful. Also I'm starting to figure out that he's an incredibly selfish lover. He was more attentive early on because he was trying to secure a relationship. Fuck this.

No. 531031

>>531025
You mean having charisma? Yeah.

No. 531039

>>531029
How where you able to handle having sex with him while he was watching porn, cause I assume you were trying to get into the actual sex and weren't watching, while he kept it in eyeshot the whole time?

That's fucked up. Don't try and improve your sex life with him, dump him.

No. 531041

>>531017
Hey anon, it's my birthday too! I also live alone and I ate a pizza while watching netflix, which to me is a pretty comfy birthday party. Sending you hugs and a happy birthday to both of us, I hope you get better.

No. 531044

>>531039
I mean it was fun at first and at first it was more geared to me. "watch this while I finger you" and so on. But it progressed into him just watching porn while we had sex and it was in eyeshot. I pretty quickly shut it down after it became blatant.

No. 531049

>>531029
>>531044
Dude wtf you're already putting up with way too much. Laugh at his ED cock and get with a virile man.

No. 531052

>>531044
Gross anon, the fact that he is even pretending to entertain you with porn insinuating he is a shit ride should be enough to not want to honor this man with good sex. There are men out there that will call you a porn star for basic missionary sex. Pornsick men can get bent since their such faggots around real pussy

No. 531053

>>531041
aaa happy birthday anon! i was also thinking ordering in something later on, couldn't find any cake deliveries but it's cool. thank you, aries anon.

No. 531056

>>531029
Why do women do this to themselves..for real.

No. 531072

>>531056
Legit because they think it's normal. Standards for men are so fucking low it's unreal

No. 531077

>>531056
Because it's so normalized that women don't think it's a realistic standard to have a man who doesnt regularly look at porn. I myself didn't even think twice about it was until I ended up with a man who doesn't watch porn and compared the intimacy quality to my past relationships. (Spoiler alert= sex with non-coomers is infinitely more fulfilling in every way)

To anyone who needs to be reminded of this: men who don't use porn are out there. Don't settle for some coomer just because you think your only alternative is to die alone.

No. 531085

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Welbutrin has absolutely killed my sex drive. I haven’t gotten off once in 2 months.

No. 531088

>>531017
I just moved and I fully expect to spend my birthday completely alone even though the quarantine will probably be lifted by then. Sorry anon…

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>>530397
I’m 30 too and foreveralone
Also living in Southern California where nobody wants to grow up so I’m basically fucked.
Still wishing platonic gfs for companionship were a thing.

No. 531090

My mom is really out here acting like I castrated prophet muhammad when I want to use more blankets. I just like more weight on me when I sleep because I am an autist, no I am not cold!

No. 531100

I masturbated 3 times because I was bored but each time I didnt feel anything when I came

No. 531102

asherahsgarden's UI is just so fucking ugly.

No. 531105

>>531085
I smoke a bit of weed and it solves that problem for me when I'm taking wellbutrin, but I realize that may not be an option for you. Sorry anon.

No. 531111

my mental health is deteriorating and i havent slept in two days because im get scared every time i feel myself dozing off

ive been seeing and hearing things a lot and i think im physically sick but i cant tell if its panic attacks or something serious. i dont make much money for anything outside of essentials and with covid going around seeing a doctor seems out of the question

i dont have friends or family outside of my partnerand i do know better than to use her as my only support so ive just been writing posts and deleting them when im done for a few months now and its helped but the loneliness is getting unbearable.

i feel like im
spirally downwards fast but im somehow stuck

No. 531112

>>530953
I'm really sorry anon. Glad you got your cat back.

Your mum sounds like she has emotional issues. I have a similar mum, like I love her, but she is toxic. I've been in therapy. We've talked about our issues etc, but she's the way she is unfortunately, and although I know she loves me, she can be damaging to be around. I live away from home, and I'm terrified that I'm going to end up back with her due to corona. I've also a brother that stole off me growing up, he stole off my mum too (she's single parent) and it use to be my fault if he stole from me because I wasn't vigilant enough.

I know you love your family, but you never need to feel guilty for not wanting to be around them. Loving from a distance is ok.

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>>531105
I’ve had edibles. Maybe I should try smoking it. Thanks anon .

No. 531121

I just realized I applied for 4-5 different entry-level positions at the college where my mom works, over the course of almost 5 months. Never gotten an interview even tho I have some experience plus a degree and it's usually a basic bitch job. I also haven't been able to get a job at a place my grandma works. People say connections are everything but clearly mine aren't worth shit. I'm pretty much convinced that they just hire alumni, someone who is already working there gets the job, or the hiring manager already has someone in mind but is required to post the job opening anyway. My mom says she will email the hiring manager/put in a good word for me but I honestly think she forgets to 8/10 times…I feel like I am wasting my fucking time.

No. 531122

>>531102
does anyone actually use it? I hate that posts don't say when they were made.

No. 531124

>>531111
Sleep deprivation will make hallucinations worse! Get some sleep, eat something yummy, talk to someone. Take care of yourself.

No. 531125

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>>531112
Thank you anon. I feel you. I need to get some therapy for my issues myself.

No. 531135

I procrastinated all day on an assignment and now my laptop's acting up fml

No. 531137

It's lockdown time in my country in 2 days. My bf will want me to live at his place during lockdown, but I want to stay at my place.

I share a big house with two roommates. We have lots of space, our own yard and a swimming pool. We also have a great time.

He lives alone in a shoebox. He will want me to stay in it with him, as he dislikes my roommates.

I dunno what to do.

No. 531138

>>531137
i'd stay with your roommates. why does he dislike them?

No. 531139

>>531138
He's an introvert and he dislikes that my roommates will be around in general. He dislikes them mostly for that lol.

He had a clash with one of them last year over something minor and stupid. (Like really minor). He holds grudges to this day.

No. 531150

I’m tired and bored and my depression has come back full force and I can’t find the will power to do any of my school assignments and honestly! I’d rather just kill myself, like life is so dull and pointless, I don’t wanna do it anymore but I have to so like whatever I guess.

No. 531156

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>Been dieting and exercising to get fit
>Actually counting down every single calorie I put in my mouth
>Hour of cardio each day
>I will fucking do this and feel great in my summer bod
>Down almost 10 pounds
>Yet still have a disgusting, protruding belly and my waist size hasn't gone down
Why is my body so cursed?

No. 531157

A couple weeks ago two of my coworkers invited my boyfriend to go out with them for karaoke and maybe drinks I don’t know. They didn’t invite me. I was kinda upset because those are two of the coworkers who I like most, and one of them kept saying she wanted to hang out with me, but thought whatever my boyfriend needs time with friends without me too.

First I held my feelings inside but finally I told my boyfriend I felt kinda hurt not to be invited and that he didn’t even invite me/ask them if I could go either. Then yesterday my boyfriend and I both find out like 4 other coworkers and one other random person are also going. A couple of those coworkers i thought I was close with. One my boyfriend and I both can’t stand, and I don’t know the random person.

I waited and talked to those coworkers and tried to give them “chances” to invite me but they didn’t. They were going after work today and even today I waited up until the last second hoping they’d invite me (although at this point I was kinda upset and also that person I can’t stand is going so I probably would have declined at this point) but nope. No invite. I worked pretty close with one of the coworkers I’m pretty close to today and he didn’t even bring it up. Maybe he assumed I was asked already? But I thought he’d bring it up, ask if I was going. It almost feels like they’re deliberately trying to hide it from me(which is dumb if true because obviously my boyfriend told me about it)

Anyway now I’m at home feeling shitty and left out and ignored and drinking alcohol. I keep stalking their Instagram stories waiting for them to post something.

I feel like the stupid loser in high school again or something being shunned by the popular kids.

No. 531168

Girls being sad about having small breasts is crazy to me. The weakness.
If them just not being big is such an insecurity, I'm sure you would just fucking end yourself if you had big, saggy ones lmao

No. 531173

>>531168
Having big ones and getting unwanted attention from the grossest random men isn't as fun as flat chesters seem to assume it is

No. 531181

>>531168
I wish I were elegant chestlet!! These C-cups make me look fucking fat and lewd no matter what I wear.

No. 531184

>>531122
Not a lot. It's so inactive, which sucks because I was finally happy to have that kind community and platform. But it's bad. tbh, fuck the admin for terminating /2X/

No. 531186

>>531168
I have an A-cup and I'm extremely happy about it. Finding bras is easy, they don't sag at all because they're small, men don't stare at my chest or make disgusting comments about them. All tit sizes have pros and cons, at least small breasts don't cause back pain. Girls need to learn to accept the functionality of small breasts even if they don't fit the big tiddy aesthetic.

No. 531187

>>531186
DD here and I fantasise about what life would be like without needing bras. I constantly wear sports bras and I feel indecent if I so much as open the front door to the mailman without a bra on under my pjs

No. 531189

>>531181
Same, I just look and feel gross all the time. Also developed the habit of slouching to try and hide them a bit. There's not a single positive thing about them, unless you plan on being a mom, breast are completely useless.

No. 531190

>>531186
>A-cup
>Finding bras is easy
How? Bras my size don't exist at all in my country and I can find bralettes but they don't hide my pointing nipples behind my clothes at all so they're completely useless anyway. I'm abroad in a country where the average woman is smaller so I looked for underwear there and barely found anything either. Don't give me false hope like that anon.

No. 531192

>>531190
Nta but do A cups require a bra?

No. 531193

>>531192
according to one of my old bosses yes. got a complaint one day and suddenly it mattered if I wore a bra behind a button shirt with an apron over that
the're nice when your breasts hurt like hell to move at all but we probably don't need them

No. 531194

>>531192
I want bras so I can wear clothes without everyone being able to see my nipples in details because almost everything is see-through or very thin. I used to wear two or three layers of clothes minimum regardless of the season or climate and it was still not enough. I don't need a bra to hold my breasts at all in my case unless I have my periods and they hurt a lot.

No. 531196

>>531192
I use a bra simply because I don't want my nipples to be visible. Otherwise I wouldn't need them.

No. 531197

>>531196
>>531192
Not an A cup, but have you tried those silicone nipple tapes? It's reusable and you don't need the hassle of wearing a bra. Takes a second to put on and put off!

No. 531198

>>531157
I'm really sorry to hear that, anon. I know what it feels like to be left out by people you thought were close to you. I would've totally confronted them about it if I were you. It will give you the closure you need. Either they really were making plans behind your back, or it was an honest mistake and they thought you were already invited. And as for your bf, I just want to say he sounds like a shitty bf for not inviting you, or at least, not bringing this up with your coworkers.

No. 531199

>>531168
>if you had big, saggy ones lmao
>they don't sag at all because they're small,
people keep acting like small boobs can't be saggy, kind of annoys me. all breasts can be saggy, just saying.

No. 531200

>>531181
>c-cup
>not chestlet
fix your fucking bra size, there's no way your boobs look big.

>>531187
you too get your bras resized all of you!

No. 531204

>>531200
a lot of people wear the wrong bra size, she could have big boobs wearing a c. most people wearing c cups are wearing the wrong bra size anyways etc. what most people consider to be a 'c' is big. i swear what people consider to be "small boobs" are just normal boobs too. doubt many of you have small boobs, everyone calls normally proportioned breasts on skinny and normal women "small"

No. 531205

>>531200
I'm 32 C and they do when you're not fat.

No. 531206

>>531198
To be fair after I told him my feelings he told me I can go. I think he just thought I wasn’t interested since I’m kinda introverted and don’t have many close friends (but that’s kinda why it hurts more)

But I didn’t really feel good going when they didn’t actually invite me. Felt like I’d be done annoying tag along they didn’t want to go. And one of the girls going is a huge bitch who gossips about everybody and tried to break up my relationship by telling my boyfriend we should break up before lol

No. 531207

>>531200
>>531204
C cups definitely can look big.
I hate that whenever somebody complains on the site, the first reaction is always a condescending "you don't even know your real size!".

No. 531208

>>531204
>doubt many of you have small boobs
I know I definitely do and I can believe others are just as flat chested as I am even if it's very rare from what I've seen. Why do you doubt it, does it bother you?

No. 531217

>>531207
>>531205
a 3 inch ratio between cup and band size are never going to look big.

https://www.bratabase.com/

please utilize this site for real sizes.

No. 531224

>>531200
DD anon and I'm already measured regularly thanks ?

No. 531229

>>531186
Same here. I spent years wishing I had giant tits and I'm so glad I randomly lost that longing and fucking LOVE having small boobs, wouldn't change them for the world

No. 531232

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aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i've been waiting for an e-mail back for a week and i feel restless and terrible and clingy
my biology professor is the one person that gives me this paternal attention i never got as a child and now crave and desire and he checked on me during this covid lockdown and then maybe he took something i said wrong and aaaaaaaa
i wish i didn't have to drag those gaping wounds with my body and i wish i was less traumatized and had a home and belonged somewhere.
i know i'm overreacting and that we are on good terms and he's just busy but i feel terrible.

No. 531238

>>531224
Weird shit fam.

No. 531240

Saw that Amazon has delays because of the virus but I ordered something and thought it said the delivery estimate was the 4th of april (2 weeks, not too bad) just checked the email and it actually says 4th of May.. won't let me cancel the order now either.

No. 531246

>>531240
>won't let me cancel the order now either.

calling bullshit.

No. 531256

>>531246
It's a gift and in my experience amazon uk doesn't allow you to cancel orders once you choose to gift wrap, no matter how quickly you try to cancel.

No. 531257

>>531256
i fucking hate amazon dude.

No. 531263

sometimes people are so fucking dumb i just can't. why ask questions if you've already made up your mind? just do research instead of ignoring the people telling you otherwise.

No. 531265

>>531240
if I have problems with amazon I usually use the chat help service, usually that accerlates things, sorry that you have to experience this though it sucks

No. 531268

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I'm in too deep with my oneitis..
I've been putting him on a pedestal for so fucking long, while I'm left high and dry. And I do get those feminist bouts of "men are trash", and how "heteronormative relationship dynamics are created by the patriarchy"

but at the same time, I can't deny myself from things that I want either. And just like everyone else, I want love too.

Can I still make it out gals? When will I learn?

No. 531273

>>531268
if your boyfriend isn't right for you, he's not right for you. the general issues in heteronormative relationships have little bearing when dealing with the individual, and you as an individual should feel no shame nor guilt for engaging in or wanting something that is regarded as stereotypical or negative. but either way, you should be with someone who satisfies your needs who will build your relationship in a positive way.

No. 531292

>>530397
>>530397

Anon, I feel you! I'm 31 and still haven't managed to find a decent man that I'm attracted too. At this point, I've given up hope. According to my friends and family, my standards are too high and I should just be content and happy if any man decides to date me even if I'm not attracted to his looks. I say screw that BS! Why should I lower my standard and date people that I'm not even attracted to? I'm also not amazing looking but I'm not gonna be so desperate as to date people that I'm not attracted to just for the sake of not being single. However, the social pressure to get married and pop out a kid before 30 is too ingrained in my culture. It definitely effects my life because now I feel that there might me be something wrong with me instead and that I'm a defective human being for failing to get married before 30. God! I wish society can just accept that some women can live a single life like some men do.

No. 531337

wHY ARE PEOPLE SO FUCKING IMPOSSIBLE TO WORK WITH

6 P M IS 6 P M

NOT 6:30 OR 7 PM

my fucking god next time I'll have to make everyone agree to work together on our project at 5 pm so they'll be there at six.

THIS HAPPENS EVERY TIME, STOP WASTING MY FUCKING TIME

man I HATE groupwork

No. 531342

>>531273
>oneitis
>boyfriend
Anon, op doesn't have a boyfriend, she's obsessed about an imginary relationship with a guy who doesn't know ahit lmfao

No. 531387

>>531025
same. if it helps, you're not the only one

No. 531408

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Y'all need Jesus

No. 531411

>>531408
Fuck you. My oneitis is anime, I have accepted it, this will never change.

No. 531412

it's so annoying how i never feel like doing anything. i'm always restless and have to force myself to do something because if i don't i'll just lurk on dumb forums all day

i've started trying to get my friends to do things with me [online] and i hope i'm not being too annoying

No. 531414

>>531411
It's just a phase

No. 531436

every single day I just feel more and more like giving up.
I'm just so ready to off myself, my life was wasted on bullshit and everything I do is a failure. I should've stayed in college.

No. 531448

Just got called uneducated and worthless because I'm unemployed. I have a masters degree and was working a non essential job that's ended and am applying to jobs. I am never dating a jobsworth again. Especially one that's been flouting social distancing cause they cannot fathom not spending time in bathroom stalls with other men sniffing drugs.

No. 531453

>>531448
Fuck that cunt anon, know your worth alwways

No. 531488

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I have a teasing, almost flirty friendship with my coworker who's leaving for a different job soon, and I'd like to pursue him romantically after he leaves. I was talking to one of my friends about it and she tried to tell me that I'm literally GROOMING him, because he is 20 and I'm almost 23. I didn't think anything of the age difference but now she's making me feel like a fucking cradle robber. I was literally groomed as a child and she knows it ffs. This is your brain on tumblr.

No. 531490

>>531488
Unless you're currently his boss there's nothing inappropriate with a 23 yr old dating a 20 yr old coworker at all. There is something messed up with her putting it in your head though. WTF is her dysfunction?

No. 531496

>>531488
your friend is super weird anon, not you.

No. 531500

>>531488
I'd your friend older than you and projecting her desires? I remember working in an office and the over 40s throwing themselves at the young 20somthing year olds. You're hardly grooming someone at your job that is 3 years younger.

No. 531502

tfw you’re talking with your family and your sibling keeps talking above you, and you repeat what you’re saying a few times, but then realise nobody is listening and just sadly stop trying. But then another family member is like ‘woah sHHH anon was ~desperate~ to say something’ and everyone goes quiet and looks at you expectantly, but what you were trying to say wasn’t THAT interesting and now you feel like you’re going to somehow let everyone down with your lacklustre comment, so you awkwardly insist that it was nothing and wasn’t important and doesn’t matter, and then everyone starts getting pissed off at you because it’s ‘SO annoying when someone does that’, and you start to feel really pressured and shitty and just go quiet as they continue their conversation.
Love my lifeeeee

No. 531507

I want to go back.
Browsing through these old photos makes me realize how bad it's gotten now.

All those memories and feelings are forever out of reach and never coming back.

No. 531525

>>531502
A friend group has started to talk over me recently and I can't fucking stand it. When I realize they're not listening and starting up others conversations I just taper off and go silent. It doesn't make me sad so much as annoyed, I don't know what I did to gain such disrespect but maybe we're drifting apart or maybe they're talking mad smack lel.
If that came from my family of all people I'd be livid. I'm sorry you experienced that anon, it's always shitty how they try to put you on spot when they obviously don't really care anyway.

No. 531527

some fish went bad in my fridge because package got torn and it transferred the smell to my other food. i am really pissed off, do i have to toss all of it out? even the butter reeks of ammonia.

No. 531550

>>531507
I can’t even look back at old photos anymore because it’s too depressing. I wish it was 2006 again.

No. 531554

really fucking hate hearing people bitch in the GC about hoarders, but at first chance they are doing the exact same bullshit.

No. 531592

Was going to have a friend I have a crush on visit me from out of state but coronavirus made that impossible. I don't think she feels the same way but even if she doesn't return those feelings being around her is so nice. (I feel like that sounds pathetic but)

No. 531595

>>531592
Doesn't sound pathetic at all.
God, I can't wait for social life to go back to normal. It's day 13 and I'm losing my sanity.

No. 531599

>>531595
Same. I'm pretty introverted and even I'm getting cabin fever. I miss going to work and seeing my colleagues. I miss my mundane boring ass routine.

No. 531603

>>531599
Yeah, I'm an extrovert but I think most of us are struggling more or less understandably. I just want to talk to people at a party, have dinner with some friends, anything! But doing my fair share to minimize contact. I was just starting to try to get my shit together in life and maintaining a social life was my best boost. I feel like I'm losing myself even though I'm trying my best to cope somewhat.

No. 531605

My brother hasn't even picked up the phone to call our at-risk mother to ask her if she's okay during all this Covid madness. Then again, he probably still thinks it's LOL JUST A FLU BRO. I mean, even if this shit eventually fizzles out, and we come through okay, he never bothered to contact her. God, my hate for him grows every year.

No. 531606

I was finally getting my mental health back on track this year after 3 years of being in and out of different treatments, got a great job and was going to school. I'm so worried this pandemic is going to fuck up all my progress and I'll end up back down that rabbit-hole.
Plus there's 3 people in my immediate family who are high risk. I love my family so much and I don't know what I'd do without them. I'm just so worried. I wish we weren't all going through this bullshit.

No. 531614

I still can't get over the fact that my ex-friends saw a small snippet of the constant mental gymnastics and abuse I put up with when dealing with my mother and their first recommendation was to make my situation worse.
Over a cat that would have ended up outside and killed because he was raised by humans and the person who wanted to take him in didn't take good care of their cats.

No. 531619

I hope my managers both die. I'm risking my life every single day slaving away for them and wasting these last days of freedom before shit gets real and they STILL don't give a fuck. They're still bullying, nitpicking to the extreme, humiliating me and being antisocial, socipath retards. I hope they fucking die.

No. 531621

FUCK KIM REYNOLDS

No. 531624

I want to orgasm, then finish the job and kill myself. I wish I understood why I am like this

No. 531638

I realise i'm probably speaking from a place of privilege because people have had plenty of shitty managers but I had literally 1 and it was years ago but whenever I'm reminded (which the post a few above did) I end up ranting to myself about it because it felt so unfair. Since this is a vent thread I'll spill it here.

It was a big, big place and she managed the money. At the time I didn't know she was a bitch, I took my phone out during a shift (against rules but literally everybody had one and used it when quiet) and used it as a calculator. She told me I shouldn't have it and I was like "…ok" and out it away because whatever. But since that time she just harrassed me. Every word was dripping with condescension and she spoke in a raised voice literally 2 inches from my face with aggressive body language and talked like I was a dumbass. Pulled me out to check my till and told me money was missing, I told her to check again and sure enough, it was fine. Every time I was under her supervision she'd do a check where everyone had to stop and turn out their pockets to see if they had their phones. Back in those times I was a people pleaser. Worked hard, took the shittier jobs and turned a blind eye to obvious double standards. Nobody, nobody except her had an issue with me and really actively liked me. I was trusted. But working under her made the job so fucking tense. I talked about it to others and they were like yeah she's so mean to the temporary staff, once you move up a bit she does a 180 and becomes nice.

So I just wanted to say fuck you to that manager. Fuck you bitch, it's not right to try intimidate, harrass and generally be shit to people because what…they're not high enough on the totem pole for you to respect? I have so much rage for you but I don't know why because most of all I feel pity for your mindset and your kind. You seemed miserable. You spread toxicity and what good does it do? Where has your targeting and paranoia got you? I hope that if you're the same you're living a bad life, and if you've seen that you were a shit person I hope you go out of your way to be nice to everyone now. Because I only had a handful of interactions and feel hate for you now, I wonder how much hate you've inspired collectively over the years. I wish you didn't exist because I really think that as I remember you anyway, you made the world a worse place to live in. I haven't encountered a person as unpleasant as you since and I hope I never will. I also hope I will never be in the situation again that I feel I have to take that disrespect just so I can financially take care of myself.

No. 531644

>>531614
what happened? is the cat okay?

No. 531670

I can't stand her. I can’t deal anymore with her depressive mood every two or three days. Right now I wish she wouldn’t talk with me ever again, every time I have to listen to her voice I feel annoyed, even when she’s not saying anything bad for once.
I guess I feel drained out because of her energy, all the moodiness and the same old patterns repeated over and over again. I’m not just tired, I’m done.

No. 531688

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>at job training
>guy asks for number
>first time that happens, accept
>text for few days
>find facebook
>from facebook find deviantart
>over 3k fav'd images of cartoon feeder porn

Just yeet me into the sun.

No. 531693

>>531688
ahahahahaha poor anon. good thing you looked him up.

No. 531703

>>531688
EXPOSE HIM, MWAHAHAHAHA

No. 531723

i started dating a guy pretty soon before the virus broke out and sent him a text asking if he wanted to keep on the path that we were going.

he pretty much said that we have no eta on when life will go back to normal so he can't promise anything, so he'd rather us just be friendly for now as he has no idea whats happening with his job or if he'll even stay in the area.

lol life

No. 531732

>>531670
This makes me feel like you're talking to me and idk why

No. 531738

>>531723
I went through major pinkpill before the virus came to my country and cut off every fuckboy who wasn't taking me seriously, and after that I wasn't interested in dating new. Virus arrived a couple weeks later, so dating esp didn't matter anymore to me. I think it's for the best anon. I'm gonna take my time dating even after this virus passes because a lot of men are gonna be financially hurt and looking for a new sugar momma to help split their rent and pay their bills. Hard pass, we're gonna have to be diligent in vetting men from this point forward. Financial stability and mental health in men is going to matter now more than ever. I bet redpill is gonna be in full force on the internet trying to brainwash women why we gotta lower our expectations and take care of them because of this disaster.

No. 531772

I just found out I've lost my job via the fucking news. The company couldn't even tell themselves. Fuck sake.

No. 531774

>>531738
yeah, now that you bring this up i retained my job through all of this (thanks, salary) and he didn't.

ffs

No. 531775

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I'm not trying to sound ungrateful for my job but ever since I got approved to work from home it's like the management is hunting for ways to micromanage temps like me. They know I'd have it 'easy,' especially bc I was never trained for a multitude of duties for another role (not my fault since I always asked and said how I wanted to learn) so I just wound up filling in with office busywork that no one else ever wanted to do. For the most part it was self-paced.
Well they hired the other temp (who was actually trained on said duties) directly a couple days ago. I figured they would be firing me in May cause no offer was given to me.

Well, now that I took my desktop to work remotely from home, they suddenly want to train me for floor inspector duties. Which would require a half day at the facility. Which completely defeats the purpose of ever having sent me home with this bulky desktop that's now planted on my kitchen table because I have no office space. "Oh anon you don't have to bring the desktop back, when you report here we'll have a laptop ready for you." I mean…lol? Why didn't they just give me the laptop in the first place? Because then they would've had to assign me one and they're wishy washy on my employment there? They need to make up their fucking minds and be straight if they're either gonna fire me, renew the contract, or hire me directly. Since they're asking me to risk catching corona to work there, gee golly, do you think they could make me an offer after all this? It's ridiculous. "We're glad you're happy to learn anon, we're just trying to give you more tasks so Nicole can justify you being here." OKAY, BUT WHY IS THIS BEING PHRASED LIKE I'M RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR PATCHY MANAGEMENT NOT TRAINING ME? I literally cannot work on what I'm not authorized to work on. I cannot do what I don't know how, why, or when I should be doing it. I stopped asking to be trained when it became glaringly obvious I was annoying people and they wanted me to only work on the tasks they threw at me. Companies and their corporate are so fucking stupid.

No. 531776

>>531772
i am so fucking sorry anon.

>>531507
at this point, "nostalgia" and the past is creatively driving me and more. i cant get out of my own head, everything seems better in memory than it ever really was. i dont even think things were better before, it just feels like it from a distance now.

No. 531832

I used to take for granted that I could go shopping at 8am when it was nice and quiet and the shelves were stocked.. I used to be able to order something online and have it in my hands two days later. Corona is really making me miss that shit.

Weirdly bringing back all sorts of memories from childhood where everything from 'nice things' right down to the absolute basics was out of reach or denied

No. 531833

Nowadays, I can't help but binge eat my stress away, since I cope with stress by cooking and I live alone so I can't even share the food with anyone. It's messing with my ED, considering how some people have pointed out I've been gaining weight lately even though I'm literally at 49kg as of now and it's been making me feel like shit. It's not like I'm overweight or obese so I do think I should allow myself some cheat days, but I feel so fucking guilty each time I wash the dishes because it reminds me of what I've been avoiding ever since I was younger.

I wish I could be kinder to myself, but God, it's so hard.

No. 531862

I feel like no one gives a shit about me or wants to spend time with me. It becomes more clear since I have no school and I see my friends playing together in minecraft and animal crossing on Instagram and didn’t bother to invite me. My closest friend recently got a boyfriend , since then when I ask to hangout she makes excuses that she’s busy but in reality shes with her bf.

I can’t even remember the last time someone reached out to hangout with me.

Sorry if I seem really angry.

No. 531866

>>531862
God bless you anon. This did not come across angry at all, your friends are being dicks excluding you. Have you got AC to play with them too? I know it's shit being the one to reach out but ask to join in. If they're really a bunch of dicks about it you'll know their not worth your time. Being lonely sucks, if I had AC I'd play with you. I got pkmn sword tho lol

No. 531879

>>531866
I don’t have enough money for a switch but I do have animal crossing for the 3Ds

I’ll maybe try asking to join them in minecraft though

No. 531882

>>531879
I don't know how Minecraft works, but if they play again without asking you, message them and say you're online too, is it server based etc. Get access to it and hang out when they're online. I had a group of friends that would play online and I felt left out. I got the game and forced my way in lol, it ended up I got on more with them all after playing together. Sometimes people don't even realise theyre being dicks. I'd do it anon, we're all stuck inside, there's nothing to lose

No. 531886

>>531882

Ok, I’ll try doing that

Thanks

No. 531891

So Putin said on live tv that russia goes on a paid leave starting next week. Like everyone stops working, but gets paid, because he said so.

My company's CEO said "haha, that's funny. How about no?"

I wonder how many other companies said the same thing. And how funny it is that the biggest bad guy says something on live tv, but like no one fucking cares. I don't think it ever happened before.

No. 531897

>>531891
I wish politicians in my country made a decision like this.
Is it even legal to ignore Putin's directives?

No. 531907

>>531897
Of course! They're not forcing people to work! People working next week are volunteering! (Quote from corporate email)

No. 531916

My liver is failing and I am here drinking beer despite the immense pain it causes because I just want to die, no matter how slow it is

No. 531939

>>531916
i'm sorry, anon. is there nothing else you can do? i know it's not 'good' to trade one drug for another, but is there nothing that doesn't make you want to die? how long have you been drinking for? how old are you? have you sought help, mentally?

No. 531949

I've been having a hard time in school, but it's worse now that COVID-19 happened. Campus is shut and they have not updated the guidelines for dropping and will not make more decisions for two weeks, so I can't drop until then or I risk being put on financial aid probation for withdrawing. My teacher was nice and a better teacher in person, but online I'm struggling and I feel like I can't really get through to her or form groups for studying. Worse yet, she is assigning a midterm soon…Almost every time I think about working on things and realize I'm behind, I start panicking, and it gets in the way of me even catching up.
I've been on the verge of a nervous breakdown for like a week because my personal life is already complicated enough at home, and I'm stuck at home with my family 24/7. Tl;dr I live with four people, three of whom have serious mental issues, and am having to take on responsibilities for my siblings who are slacking off on taking their fair share of chores, while I already feel like I'm cracking from this stress. My boyfriend lives in another country and with the freeze on visa interviews, it's possible he can't move in with me for at least another year and I don't know when I'll even get to see him again. Things are getting scary in his country and people in his line of work are getting attacked now, apparently. I have no control over his safety and the (unlikely) thought of him becoming ill and me being unable to see him really fucks with my head. Where I live is going really straight down the toilet too but no one will give straight answers and keep jerking us around about the timeline, and it fucking stresses me out.
I can't work or do much of anything if I drop the class and I feel like I'll be a failure and/or lose my financial aid if I keep taking so fucking long to finish school. I don't even know if I can get a therapist right now, and I feel like I need one.
I don't expect to get advice, and maybe I'm a whiny bitch, but I just need to get it out.

No. 531971

>>531939
I don't know, it's like I have always felt this way. My subconscious tells me something bad happened to me in my childhood by a family member but I also like…deny it because I don't have actual proof and if I accused someone of such a thing it would tear my family apart. I'm 27, and I was just released from a psych ward stay after being in the ICU because i….overdosed on tylenol. Liver enzymes were almost 7000 when they should be highest 72.

Nothing really makes me feel better. I mean some things "help" by masking the symptoms maybe?? But all day everyday since I have come back from the psych ward I have this voice in my head telling me "finish the job, pussy". It's overwhelming. It's terrifying. I believe I am having catatonic states or dissocating because hours can pass and I just "come to" like what the hell happened

The mental health services are shit here and all closed and backed up because of corona chan :/ idk what to do it feels like a huge pressure will just be released from me if I just off myself

No. 531985

>>531644
I kept the cat, he's perfectly fine and happy while being strictly indoors.
looking back on the situation no way in hell would I have given him to that person who lets their cats outside and the ones that live inside are stuck in a house with little to no, sunlight, no toys, and no scratching posts.

No. 531987

>>531971
nta i have also had this underlying feeling something happened between me and a family member (essentially grandpa, no other males in family) bc i suddenly started hating being near or talking w men/boys when i was 9 but my grandpa is genuinely a nice man and i truly have no memories of anything like that happening. i wonder if this feeling is common.

i have no idea what words to say to you or how to offer help anon but i hope you pull through somehow. maybe if you just wait it out for a bit longer the voice will ease. if your liver is genuinely failing and you aren't in US i think you can still get medical help for that even in these corona times.

No. 531993

>>531987
Any chance it might've been outside of your home? Even an older child maybe? Ive suffered cocsa from a schoolmate and i've blocked it out most of my life, i still can't recall the event on itself just that it happened in elementary school when i was fairly young.

It made me feel disgusted from any touch from any older male figure, i still can only be around men my age or slightly young.

No. 531999

I've been so stressful, it's insane. I'm part of essential services in a pharmacy and it's crazy, I keep coming home crying, decided to make brownies. I fucked up the first batch by not converting the flour and cocoa powder, then I fucked up second batch by forgetting to grease the dish.

I just wanna bake shit, sigh

No. 532007

I'm getting bored anons I've caught up on all of my favorite threads as well as many backthreads for cows I am newly following. I have multiple threads open just hoping for a response so I have new posts to read. Slow times.

No. 532027

>>531999
>fucked up the first batch by not converting the flour and cocoa powder

wat

No. 532029

>>532027
Sorry, I was following a recipe and I wanted to make a smaller batch so instead of the original amount per ingredient, I converted it by dividing it by 2, I did it for every ingredient other than the flour and cocoa powder so it was all wrong.

No. 532031

>>532029
oh no, that's what i figured. that sucks. did it taste good atleast? i usually try to eat baking fuck ups anyway.

No. 532039

I just want to blot everything out with Benzos and opiates. I have a small stash and I don't know when I get more. I feel like I am cracking up, but I know I am going to need them more if my my mum dies, Also as covid is respitory illness it may cause me issues. I just don't know wtf to do.

No. 532043

I can't enjoy media if it has any flaws which is pretty much all of it. It happens in all facets of my life tbf, if I see a flaw in something it should be discarded.

No. 532062

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Another glass of wine and 6 diphenhydramine tablets type of dead. Praying I don't wake up, anons.

No. 532063

>>532062
girl call 911 wtf are you doing???

No. 532079

>>532039
Anon I saw this before going to bed (can't sleep due to insomnia) and before I tried to sleep I also prayed for you and your mum. I know it's not much but please stay strong you're doing so well, I saw your post in the other thread. Don't take the drugs yet, keep them for another time

No. 532083

>>532039
Please just hold on for a day at least, you're strong. Save the meds.

No. 532125

I was prescribed prozac today and I don't know how to feel or if I should take it because it conflicts with my beliefs on SSRI's and PROZAC NATION. Is it really bad?

No. 532131

>>532062
I’m praying you wake up. I won’t be able to stop thinking of you. Please update in the morning

No. 532139

>>532062
you better make yourself vomit right now

No. 532144

I’ve been staying up late for a work deadline and I finally finished everything and I’ve been weirdly horny this whole time I’ve had to work nonstop and when I finally got to masturbate I couldn’t cum fuck this

I just want to be back with my bf already fuck the Coronavirus

No. 532158

>>532125
>taking one person's experience with medicine as a gospel truth
what the fuck anon

No. 532169

>>532158
Nbody really understands how anti depressants work, not even pharmacists. If you have severe depression it'll be a beneficial crutch but don't expect it to be a miracle pill. Also be informed about withdrawls but I think the intensity varies based on dosage and the type of anti depressant. The most important thing is to consistently take it at the same time everyday.

No. 532185

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I don't wanna be stuck in a house with my shitty parents for a month.

No. 532196

>>532125
I was hospitalised after a few weeks on a certain SNRI sent me.. loopy. Still can't write them all off as bad though. Meds like that affect everyone differently but look out for side effects carefully or ask a loved one to keep an eye out for things like aggitation or mania in the beginning.

No. 532201

>>532125
Idk anything about prozac, but from the antidepressants i've been on i can say that it often gets worse before it gets better, it can make you feel more suicidal and it's more of a building block to help you to improve your mindset.
They can be very useful, but it is good to be aware that it won't instantly make things better

No. 532205

>>532201
I'm hoping it help my anxiety more than depression. It's the debilitating anxiety that has been ruining my life for a long time that I hope prozac will fix. No one seems to take me seriously probably because I can't explain it properly.

No. 532207

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All my life I've been a listener. I'd always feel bad for ithers and listen to other people vent their problems, anytime a friend or even just someone at school having a bad day needed to talk I've always been there for them.

But nobody ever listens to me or hears me out. Anytime I try to talk about myself people change the subject back onto themselves.

I'm starting to realize that talking to people is a waste of time. Everyone is too busy thinking about themselves. Or maybe I'm just boring.

In any case fuck em. The word just lost a free therapist.

No. 532227

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I can see my crossbite getting worse with time, the crowding is worsening as well. But the crossbite is scaring me the most: now the assymmetry is visible when I smile, and even with my mouth closed I can see my lips being slightly disaligned.
I can't afford braces and I don't know if or when I will, and I feel like shit about it. When I look it up on the internet I read even scarier stuff, such as a huge chance that you're going to need jaw surgery when trying to correct bite issues in adults. There is no fucking way that I'd be able to afford that - and even then, it's a painful surgery with the chance of having several nerves cut and ending up with a numb half face permanently.
I'm so depressed. I'm considering getting into sex work to be able to afford braces. Being born poor is the worst thing that could happen to me. It ruined my life and still is. I don't know what to do

No. 532230

I'm nearly 6' tall and very squirrelly, so I've always play-fought with my significant other. Tickle fights, trying to get the other to the ground, generally acting like we're kids on a playground. But I swear my new boyfriend uses it as a reason to physically hurt me every time. Punching me in the throat, or throwing me into a set piece of furniture like the countertop. I finally asked him why he always hurts me, and beyond a bump or a scrape like he HURTS me, to where I lose my breath sometimes. He got angry, said it's because he's "200 pounds" and that I'm not tough enough anymore. Meanwhile everyone I've dated has been his size or heavier and they've not choked me with their forearms before. I'm done playing with him like that obviously, but I'm pissed off.
He's no fucking fun.

No. 532232

>>532230
this is an incredibly weird post and he does not seem nice

No. 532234

>>532230
> Punching me in the throat

Tell a family member that he does this to you while 'playing' and see what advice they give you. Seriously.

No. 532235

>>532230
He sounds evil, please leave him anon. Do you consider kids punching each other in the throat and throwing furniture at each other innocent fun? Fuck no.

No. 532236

>>532125

good luck, anon.

like >>532169 said, make sure you're taking them at the same point every day. be honest with yourself and your dr with changes in your mood and absolutely reach out for more help if you feel any extremes

No. 532243

>>532230
What the fuck anon. dump his ass.

No. 532245

My dog of 10 years just passed away and I'm inconsolable. I feel like I just lost a part of myself. He was a family dog so the rest of my family is a wreck too. It feels a little better talking about him but I wish he was here with me. It doesn't help that my job probably won't resume in early April so I'll be stuck in the house without him. Last night I barely slept and I was hallucinating hearing him cry during the night. I'm terrified of living life without him and I can't stop crying. I feel so crazy I've looked up pet psychics and read forums about people dealing with loss and talking about seeing or hearing their pets (anyone have these experiences?). Remembering him and trying to rationalize his death feels so wrong. Could it have been prevented or did his body just give out on him? Maybe it's fucked up but I want another dog to fill the void just so I can stop hurting so much.

No. 532246

>>532230
This is literally abusive behavior, anon. Please don't rugsweep this.

>>532245
Pet loss is one of the most painful feelings in the world. I don't think it's wrong for you to want to get a new dog, but from my own personal experience, it's important to give yourself at least a few months to process the loss and recover somewhat.

No. 532250

>>532245
> I feel so crazy I've looked up pet psychics and read forums about people dealing with loss and talking about seeing or hearing their pets (anyone have these experiences?)

I kept guinea pigs for years and when the last one died I still heard her squeaking for a few days afterwards… weirded me out but it's just your mind getting used to certain sounds so you hear things that aren't there

Sorry for your loss anon, don't give money to pet psychics while you're in this vulnerable stage of grief.

No. 532251

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>>532245
i feel the same way, anon. it was a bit longer, but hurt equally more. Theres so few words that can compare to that utter pain. if you want to vent/talk more i'll check on this thread.

No. 532257

>>532246
In my mind I know it's just a way of trying to cope with the loss and holding onto something that looks like my dog (I want the same breed because they're hypoallergenic) but you're right that it's probably better to give it time, thank you.

>>532250
I kept a guinea pig in elementary school and that was my last big pet loss. I want to think it's my brain trying to keep him alive but it hurts so much.

>>532251
Thanks anon. It feels good to talk about it a bit so thanks for lending your ear. I just have no desire to do anything but cry and sit at his grave and remember all his habits. It's a nice day here and I couldn't help think it would be perfect for a walk around the block, even though he's had so many perfect walk days already.

No. 532275

>>532230
Sounds like you've gotta lose 200 pounds of dead weight. He's escalating violence on you anon. At this point you either cut all horseplay with him bc he can't control himself, or you walk.

No. 532281

I am happy I finally embraced and found beauty in my trashiness, ugliness and misery instead of trying to change it. I finally feel some kind of liberation. I know that I am trash, but I feel proud of that.

No. 532333

>>532281
I aspire to be like you

No. 532335

I want this damn dog to disappear

No. 532366

>>532281
You and me both anon

No. 532412

My mum is in a bad mood and literally looked at me with such passionate disgust right now due to my acne around my mouth and jaw-area and told me to "go put some cream on it".
I'm using a topical cream that has helped previously but it takes weeks until it gets better. I can only apply it once a day. My acne isn't even that bad - it's probably like moderately severe. It's not like my mum never compliments me but the absolute passion she has sometimes to criticize my short hair or the comfortable clothing I wear in the privacy of our own home like.. chill the fuck out.

No. 532419

I'm ridiculously horny for the past couple days and I can't even meet up with the bf due to the virus

Anyone else on the same boat?

No. 532421

>>532412
> criticize my short hair or the comfortable clothing I wear in the privacy of our own home like

Damn anon, I grew up in an uptight house where my dad wouldn't let me wear pjs when I was home feeling sick. I'm dressed like shit right now. That's normal when chilling at home.

No. 532422

>>532063
>>532131
>>532139

So I woke up, unfortunately. That was actually one of the most scariest moments of my life, it's not the first time I've done this, but this time, all the people I love and cared about wouldn't stop flashing, and I was actually scared to die in my sleep.
Thank you guys for the care.

No. 532423

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>>532227
I am saying this with like utmost amount of care and compassion but it's just teeth babe. please don't get into sex work of all things just because your teeth aren't perfect or whatever. I am sure they look perfectly fine the way they are and no one is thinking "what an ugly ass broad" as soon as they notice they don't look like tom cruises. I am not sure if you are a burger or something but if it is legit jaw deformity tier I am sure you can get it on state healthcare somehow, if it is just for aesthetics there are other things to sweat more about.

No. 532424

>>532422
Good to see back anon, we still need your ass here

No. 532429

The people in the apt above me are constantly banging around and sometimes they bang the ground so loud I get scared the ceiling is going to cave in. I guess they moved in a couple months ago bc it started being a daily thing since then.

The past few weeks I started hearing a guy cursing and yelling every few days. I can’t tell if it’s the people above me or across from me. It’s getting to be a daily thing now, with this guy yelling “FUCK YOU! FUCK! YOU!”. I’m domestically abused and I’m terrified that there’s some poor girl up there facing the same shit and I think about calling the cops or at least going to knock on their door, but I’m scared and I wouldn’t be surprised if it’s just some retard scrote yelling about his vidya

No. 532430

I am so damn sick of cleaning out my mother's hoarder house. Its been months of cleaning rooms, destroying old walls, restoration, SO much trash, donate, and finally hopefully the last sale ever this week. I can't believe my parents put us through this because they couldn't be assed over the years to just do a couple thorough cleanings.
So fucking sick of going back there for hours a day on days I should have off. Also fuck cheap men who pull up in massive trucks at sales to try getting a bundle of stuff for $20 or less. I did not go through this mountain of shit to not get something better than that.

No. 532432

I was going through videos of women dealing with hormones and fertility issues and I've been terms such as "womxn" and "female-bodied people" and it's making me insane.
Like…these are women discussing WOMEN'S bodies. It's about wanting to give birth ffs what is this alien language? How fucking dare you to insert your snowflakism into that…
I knew shit was getting bad for us but I had no idea that it had reached that far. I don't even wanna know how these mum sites are doing….I'm so so tired of this.

No. 532435

>>532429
Living in different apartment blocks for a few years taught me how stupidly common domestic abuse is, never had to guts to take action on their behalf but came close at times. It's shit anon. Police usually only arrive once the fight has already died down.

No. 532436

>>532419
I'm not ridiculously horny per se but can't stop myself from wanting to buy lingerie and kind of slutty clothes for the same reason. Everything is on sale lmao. I miss my boyfriend and his touch so much. I think you are far from being the only one feeling that way.

No. 532437

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This shit fucking INFURIATES me, people going so wild praising them, talking it up so much and acting like this is the best thing. Maybe it's because I'm fucking porn repulsed (long history of sexual trauma esp including porn, would probs be anyway though)
Like. The site has SO much sick shit, and knowingly let CP on their site, and has a ton of that nthroom stuff, you know, something you NEED to keep an eye on (horrid cp torture videos from korea rn) Like. It's just.. ugh. I hate the pornsick weirdos who don't give a shit because they jerk their dick so much.

No. 532438

>>532432
Fuckin chest feeding too.
I hate the random x's they put in progressive terms, like how was folks not inclusive enough for you

No. 532449

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Creepy men on the internet harass me and my friend a lot, I really wish I was strong about it like her and able to just brush it off but it deeply upsets and scares me a lot of the time.

No. 532462

>>532449
Where you so out there you getting harassed?

No. 532463

>>532462
What do you mean?

No. 532465

My moms been getting more and more mad with me and I don't know why.
I already do as much as I physically can for her, I already act like her therapist, I pay my rent, hell I even let her use my food stamps despite that being illegal iirc and she STILL yells at me. She calls me useless because I just sleep all day in her eyes, anything I do isn't appreciated, she tells me about how successful my sister is at school when I struggled, how amazing my brother and his little nuclear family is and how she wished she had more grandkids knowing I'm a lesbian, I can't fucking take this shit anymore.
When this corona shit is all done and over with I'm going to try and move with a friend. My siblings can be her caretaker, it's clear I'm not good enough for her. And I don't know if I ever will be.

No. 532466

>>532437
people just don't want to be aware of stuff when it comes to porn. and it doesn't help their marketing / PR is absolutely top notch.

No. 532475

I really want to shitpost on 4chan but the javascript captcha won't work for me.

No. 532476

>>532437
SILENCE BRAND god I fucking hate PH

No. 532485

Can't wait to go home and end it. Been waiting for a long time to do this and I think I finally have the resolve and resources for it. Just wish this virus shit didn't delay it

No. 532505

Wish I had a dildo right now, wish I'd ordered one before Corona hit and slowed all mail in my country

No. 532519

>>532429
>>532435
When I lived with a man who was domestically abusing me, I remember one time he just flew off for no real reason. I tried to call the cops and he nearly broke my hand taking the phone. I started screaming for help at the top of my lungs for someone to call the police. He got his hand over my mouth and I kept trying to scream for help. Police never showed up. It was a weekend and I know my neighbor downstairs and the person in the apartment next to mine that shared the same wall were home. I'll never understand how someone can hear something like that and not call for help.

No. 532523

I can’t bring myself to care about anything that matters. No matter how much progress I make in school or fitness or habits, eventually I crack and spend all day watching retarded Let’s plays and reading fandom wikis. I’m not even contributing or creating, just consuming. Sometimes I think I’m doomed to live NEET life because I literally can’t make myself care about anything.

No. 532530

>>532519
Police never arrive on time and confronting an already violent raging man is exactly what police tell you not to do yourself. I've screamed and been ignored too.

No. 532533

>>532466
Seriously. It's even worse when I see minors pushing this shit, it's just genuinely sickening. I know someone who told me I have this personal vendetta against them for "no reason" and they "do more ggood than bad," and CLEAARRLLYY don't know about the gross shit, and everything that's not illegal is just totally a fetish and it's okay to have fetishes!


I've never heard of it but several friends have said there was bestiality on there too.

No. 532535

I fucking hate panic attacks. as if feeling of being unable to breathe properly, fast heart rate, churning stomach isn't bad enough, my thoughts become so sensitive. I just made my anxiety spike feeling sorry/worried about the pencils and pens in the my pencil case because there aren't very many of them and they might be lonely. like that thought actually made me feel even more anxious. hhaha fuck this

No. 532556

We're supposed to be in lockdown but my landlord just came over to pick up her disabled sister and won't stop talking. She's also rummaging through the whole house for her sister's belongings to take with including books and shit. Kinda pisses me off, especially since earlier she wouldn't stop asking me if I'm planning to anywhere or having anyone over & telling me to wear masks if I do have to go out.

No. 532586

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It’s 3.30, I have an interview for medical school at 10 and I don’t feel prepared at all lol. I can’t sleep because of the anxiety and I have to get through another 25+ questions before I’m ready. My stomach is going crazy with worry so I keep having diahorrea.

No. 532607

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Saw people packing up their cars in the night and now my state is in lockdown babeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyyy

No. 532617

>>532586
Good luck! It will probably go better than you think, and you're definitely more prepared than you feel! That time of night makes things feel worse than they are, in the morning you will probably be more clear headed and have at least a little less anxiety

No. 532618

I know it's for the best and genuinely would rather the bed/resources go to managing the pandemic but still, I'm so sad that a hospital appointment I had been waiting for for nearly a year has been cancelled indefinitely. I'm asleep often 20 hours of the day and can't function at all and it's so miserable. I felt like there was an end in sight and now it feels like there isn't.

No. 532621

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I’m so sad right now…I always loved my best friend unconditionally and we have a great relationship but I started reading our online interactions from a few years ago and she was actually cruel to me. I didn’t know what pissed her off in first place and she didn’t told me until years later and we both matured and grew up but I can’t help feeling destroyed right now.
I was living the worst years of my life (lost all my family, had to leave my house, basically I had to start my life over again) and she was there just laughing at me or complaining with some passive aggressive posts which obviously were for me.
I don’t know why I didn’t realise back then what she was doing to me and I know this probably won’t change our relationship now (I get it, she was immature and probably just wanted to be the centre of all the attention but heck, it hurts.
It hurts because I understand now why I always feel in debt with people who treat me right, why I feel guilty when someone is upset even if I’m not involved at all. I guess she convinced me I was just wrong all the time, the way I acted, how I was myself…basically made me feel guilty for being who I was and instead of telling me what was pissing her off or hurting her, she decided to made this cryptical posts and not answer when I asked, just to tell me years later that what I did wrong was this, this and this, when I couldn’t do anything to fix it.
And for some reason I love her so much still that it only makes it harder for me because I can’t comprehend how I can admire (and admired) someone who clearly disliked me back then, even if we have a good relationship now, how can I know that she doesn’t secretly hates me or despises me the way she did?
I’m sorry this is a mess I shouldn’t be reading things from eight years ago not it’s in the past and maybe I’m a masochist but I found it by accident and idk I just want to stop hurting for once in my life

No. 532629

>>532621
Weird I had the same happen in reverse. The more this best friend/ex found out about my real opinions or beliefs the more she picked fights and said she hated it all. I also lost basically all family, home, most friends in the time period so it felt awful having someone who supported me so long scream she hated so much about me in a fragile time. She blew up and we both pretty much cut ties. At the end she admitted she had some mental problems to work out, but this girl had everything in the world. She had loving parents with money and home to run back to if she didn't make rent, she had a big circle of friends, and a decent job. Yet she screamed at me for being an awful person that should learn to love themself…what

No. 532651

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my work crush is usually the biggest tsundere ever, even to my other coworker who he has known since he was like ten years old (the typical response people have to him complimenting them is "wtf are you complimenting me???? are you feeling okay????"), and he told my genuinely to drive safe as I was leaving today…ugh it was so cute fuck why do i fall so hard for tsun tsuns???

No. 532653

The moisturizer I bought before lockdown isn't moisturizing enough, it makes my skin feel tight and shiny…. and of course I can't go out and buy a new one. Fuck.
I also have to get my BC in like 2 weeks and I hope I won't catch shit for walking outside.

No. 532661

>>532653
Getting a prescription is a valid reason to be outside from what I've seen. You could maybe get a better moisturizer from the drugstore as well?

No. 532665

two months into my last relationship, my ex sexually assaulted me. i brushed it off and i tried to convince myself that wasn't what happened, that i had miscommunicated. we stayed together. over time, he got worse. we abused psychedelics and other drugs. i don't remember most of the past two years, but i remember waking up with him inside of me. i remember telling him to stop and he wouldn't. him constantly telling me he needed to parent me because i'm too incompetent to take care of myself, letting his friends criticize my appearance and telling me what they said (when they would do it via discord). he even let them bully me on social media and said nothing about it; i privated everything and can't post my face online anymore. passive aggressive gifts regarding my weight and drug use. telling people i was bad in bed, bad at cooking, ugly. isolating me from my friends. discouraging me from going to class. criticizing me for how i acted in past relationships he knew nothing about. threatening to crash the car when i said things he didn't like, and other reckless driving maneuvers. i have nightmares and flashbacks about him assaulting me. i get so shocked at how bad it really was, and i was too zonked out to remember 80% of it. it all comes back when i least expect it and i have to act normal about it because i can't tell anyone. it's appalling that i really loved someone that would do all those things at all, much less to me, his girlfriend at the time. i feel so ashamed and i blame myself everyday. it feels like my fault. ive only told maybe three people im close to, and even that feels like too many. they were so nice to me, but only because they're my friends. i feel like if anyone else knew, they'd see me as the whore i really am. see myself as? i don't know what's real. i feel like i deserved it. i feel like scum. i don't think anyone else would deserve this sort of thing, never, just me. i hate it here. he gets to live his life, and i'm just a shell. i hate that it happened and i hate that i feel i deserved it. we have lived in different states for almost half a year now and i still think about it every day. he said he was sorry, he admitted to doing it, and i have screenshots of him admitting to it. but he looks at porn that basically recreates what he did to me. he doesn't care about me. he doesn't care about my pain. he probably doesn't even think he did anything wrong. i wish i could keep convincing myself. i blocked him the other day. i felt powerful, like his hold on me lessened, but i felt guilty, too. i feel guilty. i want to stop feeling so guilty. i can't even bring myself to type the r word because i hate the idea that he really did that to me and i just stayed. but he did, and i did. even posting this now, i'm scared he will find me, or his friends will. i'm scared to be identified. i'm scared something bad is going to happen to me again. i don't want people in my life to ask me questions or know about this shit. im scared. i just. needed to tell someone.


>>524637
fiona apple is good and i want you to know you have good taste

No. 532666

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>>523788
i'm spooked. my roommate and i were in our living room hanging out and at 2:30 in the morning without any warning someone started banging on our door super aggressively to the point that the door was shaking. my roommate told me that a few weeks ago she had heard someone trying to get into our apartment (also really early in the morning, though not as violently), so that really doesn't help my paranoia. i've already reasoned with myself that the first time could've been someone who mistakenly got off at the wrong floor and that tonight someone probably got pissed that we were being loud (though i feel like we were talking normally), but paranoia is really getting the better of me. won't be getting any sleep tonight…

No. 532672

>>532665
anon none of what he did to you was your fault nor did you deserve it. you're not a slut or a whore you're someone who got severely abused. please, please seek help. try to get therapy or get in contact with a service that focuses on women who have left abusive relationships. consider going to the police with the screenshots as well and get a restraining order (they aren't as hard to get as one might think). i know this all probably sounds impossible to you right now in your current state but you can't let this fester. you have to take control now before it gets worse. i'm rooting for you, please take care of yourself.

No. 532674

>>532437
it sickens me too. I hate how pornhub is considered cool and trendy on twitter too. people will shit all over brands social media presence but ph seems to get a pass cause they have a witty social media rep, I think the username is also pornhub_aria or something which makes me think of a girl being behind the account? I imagine a lot of people also imagine the account as some 'cool girl' dream gf or some shit. ph deserves to be met with the same attitude people have for other brands. even more so as their whole site is dedicated to the exploitation of women/girls. fucking hate how mainstream it's become. puke

porn hub sent snowploughs to help in a blizzard? fuck right off, keep your fucking snowploughs

No. 532679

>>532672
thank you so much. i don't think i need a restraining order now, he moved to a different state a few months ago and he probably won't come back; he also doesn't know where i live now. i want to get therapy but i cant afford it. i still need to find a way to forgive myself, and find a way to admit it to people without apologizing profusely first. getting it all out by talking about it helps though. thank you for being kind to me. i want to deserve that kindness.

No. 532680

I'm basically in the midst of a mental breakdown right now. Trying my best to manage but relapsed with self-harm. Don't know if there's any use going to my doctor since most psychiatric treatment is on hold. Anyway I just went to the local corner shop and bought some ice-cream trying to soak up the sun after days of rain on the short way home and what do I see in the middle of the road?

A dead fucking rat.
This sounds dumb as fuck but in the chinese horoscope I'm born in a rat year. 2020 is another rat year. I know it doesn't actually mean anything but it was just really weird nonetheless.

No. 532681

>>532680
does your therapist do phone sessions? lots of doctors in general are doing that right now. there's no harm in reaching out and asking.

No. 532682

>>532679
of course, i'm sorry if i sounded pushy or presumptous. you deserve all the kindness in the world and you especially deserve to be kind to yourself. for whatever it's worth, i'm proud of you for blocking him and learning to talk about what's happened.

No. 532684

>>532682
its okay it means a lot to me. it feels so weird for someone to be nice about it when i thought everyone was going to bully me and ask why i didn't leave sooner. thank you

No. 532691

>>532681
Thanks for caring. I don't have a therapist right now. I was going to ask my doctor to refer me to mental health services where I live since I was rejected last time and have only gotten worse but then my doctor was quarantined. Now everything is shut down including most psychiatric treatment so I know I'm not alone in losing out on possible help right now. I'm considering calling a helpline soon just to vent some of these bad feelings and thoughts out. I could also go to emergency if I get bad enough but that would be an absolute last resort since I'm sure the system has enough to deal with right now.

No. 532700

honest to god, if you choose to get knocked up within the next year or so then you're a selfish grade A cunt

No. 532701

>>532691
its so fucked they can't refer you while they're quarantining. its not like being sick suspends their medical license. im sorry. help lines can help, even if it's just with something small like finding mental health resources you can use. please be careful and take care of yourself anon. i have this list of things to do instead of self harming that i hung on my wall, and it's not perfect– literally from a workbook on anxiety tips for teens – but seeing it everyday and putting it somewhere i would see it, reminded me there are other things i could do. im sure you could find something similar online and print it out, or write it out for yourself. just as a personal reminder, maybe. for me, putting ice on the area i would normally harm and keeping it there instead of harming myself, scratches the same itch. it hurts but it doesn't leave any scars or bleed. plus it's just an ice cube so it'll melt or you can leave it in the sink or something when you're done. i don't know what goes on in your life but i don't want you to hurt yourself

No. 532707


No. 532708

So tired of feeling like a piece of shit, I hate myself so much. I'm just now realizing the full extent of what I've been doing. Starting from my early teens, I was lonely and went to gross places just to have someone to talk to, usually old men would pay attention to miserable ass. For compensation I used to send them porn of myself doing such degenerate shit. I even pissed on myself because one 30 yo dude who I really felt I loved asked me to. Even drank my own piss. Fucking hell. I was 16. And countless nudes I sent to men just to feel less lonely. Fuck. I ended up in the hospital because I developed an unhealthy relationship with my body and food.
And now as I've turned to an adult I just feel so fucking worthless. I feel my mind, my body is just absolute trash. Fuck. I really can't deal with this feeling. I can't remember the last time I felt okay with myself. I don't know how I can regain an ounce of self worth.

No. 532727

Bishits are all cheaters

No. 532749

Love to wake up to my mom talking loudly on the phone and calling every single person she knows istg

No. 532757

>>532727

oh look a lesbincel

No. 532762

>>532757
oh look, someone who’s going to choose to be a servant to a male because it’s convenient

No. 532764

>>532762

Funny isn't yall that love to say that sexuality is not a choice?

No. 532765

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>>532423
Thank you anon. I was in a very bad mood yesterday, I'm on week 3 of quarantine so I'm feeling more down than usual. As soon as quarantine is lifted, I'll book a visit to the dentist so I can hear from him whether I'm worrying too much or not. I hope he'll reassure my dumb ass.
The thing is, if crossbite is left untreated it can get worse until your whole jaw will be visibly lopsided and deformed, and it's not only an aesthetic thing as it can cause TMJ, headaches, gum recession, spine deformity. I already have some jaw pain and I live in a poor country where there's no such thing as state healthcare when it comes to dental care, it's all on you to pay. It's a really unfortunate situation.
But I really appreciate your words and the cute mouse pic, I hope you have a great day.

No. 532769

>>532245
I'm so, so sorry anon. I always post it for anons who have had their dog pass away, and I hope it'll help you. https://www.reddit.com/r/baww/comments/1m7exu/dogs_never_die/

>It's a nice day here and I couldn't help think it would be perfect for a walk around the block, even though he's had so many perfect walk days already.


You sound like a wonderful owner, and I'm sure your dog lived such a happy life with you and your family! I'm sure he's up in pup heaven, passing the time with other pups and endless toys and treats while he waits faithfully for you and your family to join him again. Be kind to yourself. I wish I could give you a hug right now.

No. 532781

it's been almost 3 months since me and my ex broke up, i thought i was over him but something just flipped a switch in me today and i just miss him so much. if we were still together our one year would've been next week. he didn't treat me very well, he didn't really commit to the relationship, he broke a lot of my trust, and made me very insecure the last few months of our relationship. i know i shouldn't even think of going back and people rag on me for staying with him for so long because i deserved better (reasonably so), i'm just too depressed and retarded to think i deserve anything good so i just accept the bare minimum, which is what my ex gave. he was a shitty boyfriend, he wanted a girlfriend without wanting to be a boyfriend, i really hate how he made me so insecure and miserable but i just miss him so much right now i don't know what the fuck is wrong with me but i just wish i had him in my arms right now, i know he can be a better person and i just want to be able to love him with all my heart again.

No. 532814

Sorry for sounding like a dumb femcel, I'm been feeling like a complete loser recently. A new girl started working with me and I feel so inferior when compared to her. My whole life I was taught to be feminine and yet I never got a good boyfriend, the one I had was an asshole who cheated on me, being feminine never helped me.
This new girl is a total tomboy and she has everything, she has a husband, she's smarter than me, she's funnier, she's better than me in every way.
Is femininity not valued by society and men? It's like girls like her are at the top of the world because they have more masculine energy.
Btw she's a great person and I don't hate her.

No. 532817

>>532814
why do you call yourself a femcel and why do you compare yourself to other women? that's just silly.
>Is femininity not valued by society and men?
does it really matter?

No. 532826

>>532814
I doubt she's a tomboy. Many feminine girls are described as "tomboys" especially here.

No. 532829

>>532814
every social benefit you've received for presenting as feminine, she has not, and every social benefit she's gained for presenting as masculine, you have not.

there are pros/cons to each. for women, it will always be a damned if you do and damned if you don't situation either way.

if you are more comfortable being feminine, then continue to present that way. success and likability in work and relationships has more to do with confidence and security than anything else. being comfortable with yourself is the first step towards that.

getting cheated on can be in the cards for anyone no matter how good of a partner, person or worker you are. it has nothing to do with whether you're feminine or masculine. forget about your POS cheater, and focus your energy on improving yourself and your life in ways that make you happy.

there's no reason to compare yourself to the new girl when you can both be successful, happy women in different ways. hell, it seems like you admire a lot of her qualities – talk to her, form a strong female friendship and use that solidarity as a platform to uplift yourselves together.

No. 532832

>>532817
>does it really matter?
I mean, some people want to fit in and get relationships.

No. 532843

>>532701
I could try to get referred by him soon since he should be out of quarantine in a few days. I haven't been a patient of his for long but he seems like a really good doctor and actually asked me directly when he saw my scars if I still struggled with it. I might've been able to get a web-consultation but I wouldn't have been able to talk about my mental health as freely since I live with my mother. Just don't know how much use it'll be to ask for treatment with the current situation since the system is in such disarray. Feels like you have to be at the absolute bottom to get help sometimes and especially now. It was already super hard to ask for help last time and I was honestly shocked to be rejected. Maybe my last doctor wrote a bad referral. I don't know.

Thank you so much for the advice. It's nice to hear from someone who understands. I had been four months self-harm free before this relapse as I do have a high threshold before I go to that extent. It's just such tough times right now (for everyone more or less really) I couldn't keep fighting anymore. The scars just get worse and worse as well. Thanks for caring. It is a good reality check because I do try to minimize the issue so as to not get even more upset with myself.

No. 532849

>>532814
What do you mean by "feminine"? Do you mean you're submissive, demure, and a doormat? Because those traits are only highly valued by low value men who want to control someone weaker than them

No. 532852

I wasn't feeling too good this morning but I made myself two eggs for breakfast thinking it was hunger nausea or dehydration (am drinking water now but I think it's just a shitty headache). I love eggs because they're cheap and easy and filling but holy shit if there's anyway to make me throw up any faster, it's eating too many eggs. My limit is 3 a day, but I usually stick to two to be safe. My parents for some fucking reason just made a bunch of fucking hardboiled eggs and are forcing me to eat some like "YOU DONT HAVE A CHOICE" when I said I didn't want any. Like bitch I'm going to throw it up!!!!!!!!! I'm throwing it out in the trash but I can't help but feel guilty because I hate wasting perfectly good food, but I guess if I eat it and risk the high chance of throwing it up anyway, the result is the same no matter what.

WHY THE FUCK DID YOU IDIOTS BOIL SO MANY FUCKING EGGS!!!!!!!!

No. 532856

>>532769
Thank you anon, I appreciate it. I hope he had a good life. The passing was so sudden and unexpected it makes me wish we could have done more for him. It almost feels like we've failed him in a sense. What terrifies me is the inevitability of the future without him. My uncle (who gave us our dog) has offered to look for Bichons but I don't know if I'm ready for a new one; at the same time, I feel like it could help. I'm a cocktail of emotions right now.

No. 532857

>>532814
She's probably naturally pretty, like what men would value for "low maintenance." It sounds like she has a decent life and is confident, so she just emits positive energy that both men and women want to be around.

I'm damaged from the past too anon but we gotta get our shit together. People who don't wanna ever be made to feel uncomfortable or leave their happiness bubbles sense our damage like stink on shit and don't want to be around us. It's nothing to do with femininity.

No. 532873

I fucked up real bad and I'm stressing out so hard. I lied and told my parents that I was still working my part-time job, when in reality I quit because I couldn't balance work and being a full time college student during my senior year. But my mom has access to my bank account and noticed I haven't been depositing any paychecks, so she asked me about it and instead of telling the truth I lied and said I'd just forgotten to deposit them. Now she keeps asking about the money and I don't have it and I'm running out of excuses ugh

I know I sound like an idiot and should just confess, but I'm already so deep in the lie that I'm dreading how things are gonna explode if I tell the truth. Plus I'm kinda pissed that my mom is continuing to be so overbearing even though I'm an adult in my twenties living on my own, there's no reason she should be checking my bank account or asserting herself into my finances. She has no sense of boundaries and is constantly treating me like a child, the only reason I lied in the first place is because I didn't want her constantly yelling and nagging at me for not working. I should tell her to fuck off and let me handle myself in peace, I don't need her constantly breathing down fucking my neck. I've been trying to think of ways to keep lying my way out of this but my gut is telling me just confess.

No. 532877

I’m upset because I’m not well enough to get out of bed today and unfortunately I was supposed to make food today as there’s no cooked food left. ‘Bf’ is a worthless whiney pos who refuses to even attempt to cook, so he’s trying to go get mcDonalds. Yeah that’s what I need, corona virus on top of how unwell I already am. I’m so mad I told him I’d rather just not eat. Feels like he doesn’t care and I’m just a burden to him. Why won’t he take it seriously, does he not care if I die

No. 532878

>>532762
jesus anon have some empathy. I didn't choose to be attracted to men. just be grateful you'll never have to experience that kind of internal conflict.

No. 532881

>>532873
how about you kick your mom off your bank account? It's not normal for a mother to monitor her adult daughter's bank account. Why does she have access?

No. 532883

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my cat ran away…it's been three days, she's usually back by now. if she got run over or some asshole found and kept her I'm going to be so angry. I feel like the worst pet owner ever. She's not even fixed because I was putting it off aaagggh.

No. 532887

>>532873
Create that boundary anon, she has got no business being in your bank account. Even my strictshit mom who didn't even let me have a closing and locking bedroom door until I moved out at 22 still let me have my own bank account and credit card. Not that she didn't spy on my paper statements and criticize me however…

No. 532888

>>532762
>>532878
yeah that's fine, but why call anon a "lesbincel"? maybe op was referring to male bisexuals anyways? calling someone a lesbincel for venting their frustrations without even knowing much is presumptuous as hell. and just saying, the bi guys i personally know cheat a lot so

No. 532892

>>532883
If this has happened before, then I hope she knows the way home.
I feel you anon. Hope she comes back soon

No. 532893

My spotify stats are going to be insane for this year because l’ve been using it so much to keep my mind away from everything going on

No. 532894

>>532881
The account is the one she opened for me when I was around 15 so that I had a place to keep money that wasn't cash. She's always had access to it, it might even be in both our names? It was fine when I was a minor but as I got older she still insisted on monitoring my spending activity and funds because she's a control freak. I think the only way to get her off the account is to close it down and start a new one, which I'm probably going to do soon to achieve some independence.

>>532887
Thank you for confirming this isn't normal anon, she doesn't see anything wrong with her behavior so I'm glad to know I'm not crazy lol. Mine also used to read my statements until I switched to electronic. I'm gonna try to talk to her about it and assert that I want more strict boundaries between us.

No. 532895

>>532883
That fucking sucks, putting out my best wishes she comes home. One time my cat came back after a week, if that's any consolation.

No. 532908

why can breastlets insult big boobs but if a woman with big breasts said anything negative about small titted women hell would break loose lol

No. 532910

>>532908
Bait topic before ANY of you start.

No. 532914

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I have a huge cavity that I was supposed to get filled earlier this month but all of the dental offices are closed and it's starting to get sensitive AHHHHHHH

No. 532923

>>532674
>I hate how pornhub is considered cool and trendy on twitter too
Legit. I see all these girls wearing pornhub shirts and it's like ffs might as well be wearing a shirt that says "I SUPPORT ABUSE <3"

No. 532924

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I understand it's my issue as well, and I'm working on it.

I don't think of myself as an alcoholic, but I definitely was, I have MAYBE some wine every other week, but I don't let myself get super super drunk aside from maybe every few months.

My boyfriend understandably hates it, I get it, I think it's fun, but I guess I'm annoying, that being said, he takes me to liquor shops, let's me buy shit, he says I fantasize too much about alchol when I'll just say "Wow ___ sounds good" "I could go for ___" yet he talks CONSTANTLY about how amazing mixing certain drinks with rum and shit sounds, jokes about getting wasted, all that shit. We also smoke weed every so often, and he has no problem with me getting really high, to the point where I've said I get to the degree of a scary high (I used to be very addicted to drugs, hard drugs even) but he smokes it around me a lot and it's really hard for me to hold back smoking some.


I feel really embarrassed and awful. I got drunk last night because I had a single drink without realizing it was super super hard, he's barely even talking to me today and our last few texts were him angry at me and it hurts to read. Idk what really to do now.

No. 532925

>>532923
This. And i bet these coddled bitches have never been in a bad situation before. it's always the spoiled bitches who think 'sex work is empowering' that have never truly been in the dark side of being abused or worse by men.

No. 532926

>>532925
Said it perfectly.
I was groomed from age 9 with porn, I was shown shittons of hard bdsm/abuse fetish shit and taught that if you don't like it, you're boring and nobody will give you attention. I was brought into sexworking from 16-19, the thought of being recorded during those times where men didn't even ask for my ID or anything (in general it's scary but especially that.) When these girls support pornhub I want to vomit because it feels like they're just ignoring all this shit, because this happens to thousands of girls, not just me.

And men never understand I feel. "Oh well all of this is consent and you're overreacting." Fuck you. This type of shit is why older men took advantage of me and why CP of myself exists on the internet and I have found floating around. FUCK.

No. 532927

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>>532924
You know what to do.

No. 532930

>>532924
>Him: enables the behavior
>Also him: "HOW DARE YOU DO THE BEHAVIOR!"

Making you feel guilty is a way to control you anon, he's abusive and gaslighting you to your face.

No. 532931

>>532923
I hate that “cool girl” shit tbh
It’s on the same pathetic level of people who wear ahegao shirts lmao

No. 532938

When my grandfather passed away last month, my grandma's asshole neighbors put a note in her mailbox saying "at least the handicap parking spot is free now" AFTER writing that they'd be honored to come if there was a burial. My grandma cried so much because of this fucking note.
Months before, they had complained about my granmother's car being on that spot when no one (especially not them) needed it except my grandparents.
I'm so fucking mad, how can you be like 55 and act like such an asshole for no fucking reason like how miserable do you have to be ffs
I just thought about it again randomly and now I'm seething

No. 532939

>>532927
i know a lot of you guys really dislike it because zoomers have done a terrible job at rehashing it, but noughties fashion was truly iconic, save for the fur pictured here. this outfit is a work of art.

No. 532973

>>532938
What the fuck?? Who the fuck does that kinda shit, send them human shit or something. Also so sorry about your grandpa, anon.

No. 532977

>>532958
I'm sad… my family isn't poor but my parents have worked full time my entire life so I grew up hungry most nights because I couldn't really cook and I'd ration out leftovers from their days off until they were questionable so throwing out food that I know is perfectly good to eat just makes me feel so guilty for my younger self.

No. 532990

OUT OF ALL THE FUCKING PEOPLE IN THE WORLD I HAD TO BE THE BITCH WHOS BROTHER IS IN LOVE WITH HER WTFFFFF

No. 532996

>>532990
ugh i'm so sorry. i'd be so pissed off too.

No. 532998

>>532990
wtf I'm sorry…how did you find out

No. 533000

>>532998
I always suspected that he had a thing for me bc when i talked to him, he'd stare at my chest and if I took a shower at my parents' house, he'd always stand near the door. I never brought it up to him bc you know, if I was just misinterpreting his actions, i wouldn't be able to live with myself anymore and also i'm the older sibling so i was afraid of being seen as predatory. Today i found out by jokingly looking at his phone and there was a weird ass conversation with his friends. They were talking about me and the shit my brother was saying is fucking horrifying. Now im wondering how to tell my parents without tearing the entire family apart

No. 533010

>>533000
I'd talk to him first to make sure you're 100 % certain, it'd be best to keep it between you two for the moment i think.
If he's significantly younger then go to your parents first.
I'd also go from the perspective of saying 'I saw you said this about me, what does it mean / i feel its inappropriate and its making me uncomfortable' rather than being accusatory and confrontational as that may make it harder to resolve. I'm really sorry though, it doesn't sound like an easy situation to be in at all

No. 533014

>>532990
ASGGH ANON WHAT, TELL US WTF GOIN AWN

No. 533016

>>532990
Anon PLEASE give us the story

No. 533028

I nearly fainted today from stress. I've had severe anxiety about school and my loved ones and after cutting my hand on a broken dish today, I got way too close to fainting. Vision started fading, ears buzzing/ringing and drowning out sound, lightheaded, etc. I've had a migraine since then, it started in the morning and I took medicine but after that almost fainting, it won't go away. When it gets better I'm still tired or having fucked up vision.
I've had near fainting spells over stress before, but the last one was when I was worried my mom was legitimately going to die or get brain damage after she fell. Even with the serious stress I was under late last year, I just cried a lot. I don't remember getting this close to fainting.
I don't know if this means I need to drop one of my classes and take care of myself/focus on the other course I'm not struggling as much with, or to just try to get a grip on my life as it is now. Last semester I had to drop one class (the same course) for mental health reasons but I kept my part-time job and saved up money. I can't work now. I think I'll feel like an idiot and a failure if I have to do it again and postpone transferring to a four year, but it's so horrible trying to do it online at a time like this. I'm starting to wonder if trying at this school is just cursed and I should wait until I transfer to finish, if it's an option and not really expensive.

No. 533032

>>523788
Everyone crying that they can't leave their house and that they feel lonely and I'm over here like "This is my life…every day.."

No. 533036

I hate how if you are pretty.. life is handed to you by default. I'm average, not ugly, but not stand out pretty. Because I'm average, everything that I accomplish, say, do, or don't do that isn't good is seen to be even worse just because I don't have a face that distracts people from my faults. For example, I'm an introvert. That is seen as a character flaw and me being weird and quiet whereas the introverts I know who are gorgeous are seen as interesting or "quirky ,cute, and shy". Like fuck off. I can't believe the shit I see my friends/family get away with just because god decided to spend more time on their face.

No. 533044

>>533036
boo fucking hoo
i’m happy for you that your biggest problem rn is being ugly

No. 533046

>>533036
>I don't have a face that distracts people from my faults.
That's fair and how it should be for everyone.

No. 533048

I hate how my abuse has made me react to situations in a very infantile way. Everyone says I need to mature but they don't realize the reason why I can't do that is because of the abuse I suffered. I am still trying though.

No. 533051

>>533044
>>533046
Holy shit… who said they thought that was their biggest problem. You're on a fucking site called lolcow people don't have to vent about how they got touched by their uncle when they were 4 they can vent about dumb shit you miserable fuck.

No. 533053

>>533044
Ew, Apparently this thread is a pity competition now?

No. 533054

>>533010
He'd 100% flip his shit if anon confronted…

No. 533055

>>533036
>>533051

Ignore the knee jerk reaction. Pretty privilege is real and lamenting it has nothing to do with being vain.

No. 533058

>>533055
It's obvious greed though, wanting to be one of the lucky people who get special treatment and a better lot in life. Most people aren't particularly pretty, or rich, or famous, or smart, or popular, the majority is just average and feeling hard done by because you are too is greed. We don't all get to be part of the 1%.

People who discriminate because of looks is shitty but the problem is ugly people being treated badly rather than average people not getting privileges.

No. 533066

>>533028
Don't beat yourself up for being unwell right now, anon. That sounds very scary and i hope you take care of yourself as best as you can rn, you deserve it. You're not a failure at all, you've tried all this time, not giving up. I am rooting for you anon and wish you'll feel some calm asap.

>>533048 A lot of people won't even try to get stuff like abuse and how it affects you in the long run, glad to see you still trying, well done, proud of you!

No. 533068

>>533058
Hi, I'm the one who posted the original comment. I agree with the part about ugly people being treated poorly, however I don't wish I was prettier, I justwish I didn't see pretty priviledge within my own family and community (My culture/ethnic group values looks very heavily in a very specific..cruel type of way). I realize that being average is a priviledge within itself, but I find that my efforts in other areas of life like academics or treatment of others is overlooked/undermined because beauty is prioritized more than anything. I'm not making any sense but I just want to make it clear that I'm not wishing to be prettier, I'm wishing for everyone to be treated equally and based on their personality and accomplishments.

No. 533075

>>533036
i think you have more character flaws than being introverted.

No. 533083

>>533036
Not sure why this is getting so much shit. Being average is a pain in the ass in it's own way because it makes you feel disposable. I have a feeling that most people here are ugly as shit and can't handle someone venting unless it's level 5 depressing.

No. 533086

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I think I’m in love with my roommate, I can’t imagine live without her. But she has a boyfriend, and I’m pretty sure she doesn’t like me like that. Ouch my heart hurts.

No. 533094

I got really really wasted and embarrassed myself and my boyfriend, really bad apparently, I don't remember anything. I had something that was insanely stronger than anything I've had in years. I wanna cry because I'm just so so embarrassed.

No. 533102

>>533094
Can you say any of what you did anon plz

No. 533112

>>533102
What..? I literally just said I don't remember anything. At all.

No. 533114

>>533112
But did they not tell you what you did?

No. 533115

>>533094
I guess they are wondering how you know you did something bad. You embarrassed him and yourself in front of who? Is he mad at you/did he explain why he's mad?

No. 533117

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You farmers ever heard wanted a truly free and open place away from these biased mods?

I found this place called cirnochan.net seems real comfy

No. 533128

>>533036
To be honest as a "pretty person" I agree with you, people telling me that I can do what ever I wanted mixed with my introversion just really fucked me up and made me an underachieving NEET. Any time I would view my self as weird and disguising people would tell me that I'm just "cute" or "quirky" when I reality a lot of my behavior is just strait up socially inappropriate. Though the only benefit, that's a double edged sward, is that men are too intimidated to talk to me automatically writing me off as "in a relation ship".

No. 533140

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fuck im so tired of straight people telling me to just be calm and patient with blatant homophobes and that i can’t change their minds by cutting them off and refusing to speak with them.
it’s not my job to fix them and be their token Good Gay and even if it was, i’m not fucking doing it. i’ve had it up to here. i’ve been harassed on my own fucking campus, by one of my parents, and various random people throughout time just because i fucking like girls. it’s not like i’m out here screeching about eating pussy or waving a big rainbow flag. god fucking forbid i want to hold the hand of the girl i like. i’m jus tfucking tired of being told i need to stay calm when i’ve had to endure being told i’m disgusting and unnatural and whatever the fuck else when i’m not fucking hurting anyone or doing anything wrong. rage. if one more fucking wimp tells me to be nice to those people i’m gonna mcfreakin lose it!!!!!!!

No. 533143

>>533140
Anon I'm so sorry you are dealing with that but I just have to say

>if one more fucking wimp tells me to be nice to those people i’m gonna mcfreakin lose it!!!!!!!


Made me cackle so hard I woke up my bf

No. 533146

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>>533117
is this bait? went there and am immediately greeted with lolishit, no thanks

No. 533149

>>533143
thank you anon, i’m glad i could bring you some keks

No. 533225

fuck corona virus i wanna get my pussy eaten!!!

No. 533262

I don’t care if my bf has a girl friend at all. It doesn’t piss me off because they share the same hobbies, in fact I’m glad he can talk with people who understand him so I don’t have to pretend and he doesn’t have to feel like he’s forcing me to like something which I clearly don’t.
What pissed me off is he fucking didn’t listen to me while I was talking about something important because he was talking with her and the proceeds to tell me that he’s laughing because she blocked someone on social media because they choose tea over coffee. And then doesn’t even ask what I was talking about.
Seriously? How stupid are you to be oblivious to the fact I hadn’t been talking since?
We spend all day together now (obviously), he basically stays up all night working on some of his jobs so if I wake up early to have a conversation with him, I wish he’d appreciate my company instead of talking to her or anyone, just because she stays up all night too. And this goes for his friends abroad too, and his cousin, a basically man child who only likes to play video games and insists my bf to do the same.
But if I say something probably I end up looking like the jealous and insecure one and nope, far away from that. I miss my bf paying attention to me and not getting all butt hurt when I tell him
>but anon you’re taking with people too!
>you use your phone too!
>you do it too!
No, scumbag, at least when you’re talking with me and I’m talking with someone else, I ask you if you can wait just a second because I’m talking with this person or whatever and I can’t listen to you right now, if you don’t mind.
He basically wasn’t listening to me, admitted it during “our” conversation and then couldn’t give a fuck to try to amend it.
I’m sorry for the cursing, I’m just angry

No. 533267

>>533225
My dildo is delayed in the mail thanks to corona, I've never had so much free time where I could be masturbating..but now I've got nothing to masturbate with

No. 533283

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>tfw dad is having a midlife crisis and corona is just escalating it
>"you and your mother need to stop spending all of my money" (i don't spend his money lol)
>proceeds to buy another gun for his collection, probably hundreds of dollars
>gets mad at my mom for buying groceries, gets madder when she's against him buying a new car during the pandemic
>mfw his conflict resolution is "fuck you" "fuck off"
>get these texts in pic related while i'm asleep
>wake up, go get some water
>"why isn't it done yet"

he's an absolute narc but he's been able to keep it under control since i was raped/almost died 3 yrs ago. part of me understands: it's hard to be a father, it's hard to go to work for your family and self sacrifice. but he makes it seem like he's a martyr when that's… literally the bare minimum for supporting a family you chose to have

No. 533287

>>533283
no, it's not that hard. your dad is a wuss with no priorities and needs to get a grip. absolutely pathetic behavior from a father. pray he grows a conscience and stops treating you guys like that

No. 533293

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Stepdad keeps inviting the neighbors over to socialize and my input isn't being heard at this point, even though we're all supposed to shelter in place. These people he invites are typical attention-starved extroverts that need to be around others to live. But mostly to party and drink which he enables by providing them liquor. He invited them over last night. It's not so bad cause there are some girls my age who come because they're daughters of so and so, but it's not like I've known them long or well. When they got here they knocked on my bedroom door and asked to hang out which…at this point if they've got corona then they contaminated my entire apartment so fuck it. They've been picking on me for being antisocial and making out that I must not like them or want to hang out or something. Didn't feel like I had a choice.
To give an example of the scope of stupidity of these people: We tried playing cards against humanity because I and one of the girls wanted to see how everyone would react to edgelord humor. One of the 10/10 Stacies couldn't read or pronounce half of the words. She's 22 and needed help saying 'Auschwitz.' I don't even think she knew what it was, she was genuinely perplexed by this entirely new word. Mfw I'm going to catch corona and die for the needs of these vapid and stupid people.

No. 533306

>>533262
honestly, that sucks. He has no social awareness, and it's being generous. Did you talk with him right after that specific situation in which you were talking about something important to you and he completely ignored it as he was focused on some funny story from that girl? Did you try to treat him like a dummy he is by making an example, as in, "imagine how would you feel if you're talking to me and i'd be looking at my phone constantly and didnt pay attention what you say?"
Best course of action though would be maybe stating your concern as simple and clear and possible, tell him that you're glad he has good friends - be vague if you worry bringing up her specifically would make you feel like you're coming off as jealous - but it's important to you that while you're spending time together, it's just you two, no additional distractions. Hope it works out for you anon, it sounds like relatively small issue but super annoying, the more often it happens.

No. 533309

Yesterday I felt fine and went hiking but today I just got super nauseous out of nowhere and it felt like I was either going to puke or poop. So I went to the bathroom and took my temp after, it was normal but now I’m scared that I could be getting a cold or have COVID-19

No. 533315

>>533309
Have some mint tea, that always settles my stomach. Just see how it goes, you should be okay provided you're following the advice, and don't have a dru cough or temperature

No. 533331

My boyfriend hasn’t stopped watching his colleague stream on twitch ever since the quarantine started and I just called him out on it.
He responded with “Don’t get jealous, she’s a friend, I’m just bored” but I’m so sick of seeing her fucking face every time I look over to his desk

No. 533341

I just love this world. Gonna watch rich people become even richer until I die. And if I don't become rich myself? Well, it is my fault because I was bitter towards those that were born well-off in good countries and I didn't push myself enough to become rich like them.

Yea, money doesn't bring happiness but it doesn't bring misery either. There is trauma that comes with being poor and living in poverty, trauma that you can only deal with…using money and paying specialists that know how to help you deal with and manage your trauma.

No. 533342

Shit keeps happening and it's long beyond what i can bear, and i need help but there's no one.
I wish i wasn't so scared to end all of it before it gets even worse.
I should've done it years back when i had lost everything. I then wouldn't be here, 7 years later, still suffering and more depressed than ever.

No. 533358

>>532926
I am so sorry you experienced this anon.

>>532931
it's honestly sad. why don't these girls love themselves?

No. 533362

>>533032
same. I've not left the house in 9 days and it isn't bothering me in the least. maybe I'm abnormal haha just lived this way for so long, going a week without leaving the house is no biggie

>>533267
praying for a speedy delivery for you anon

No. 533379

I have a friend who never shuts up complaining about the NHS. She is a diagnosed borderline but won't take the totally free therapy that is recommended for it. She self diagnosed herself as autistic because she wants to think that she isn't bpd (probably because of the stigma) So she claims over and over again that the NHS has failed her and ruined her entire life (what by offering free treatments that she refuses??)

Now since the whole clap for the NHS thing yesterday she's posting about how wonderful they are. Her hatred for them had been obsessive for the last 3 years

No. 533386

This trend of girls who literally look their age saying they look 12 is extremely annoying and seems almost like a pick-me staple at this point. And it’s just as annoying when people tell me I look 12 (when I don’t, I look about 20) because I’m short. I want to be treated like an adult, not looked down on, and these pick-me ass girls aren’t helping.

No. 533451

>>533146
Not bait. Free speech will be abused by bad actors, we can create our own board(s) and settle down

No. 533456

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I HAVE SUCH LOW LIBIDO BUT ONLY ONE CELEBRITY MAKES ME HELLA HORNY NO MATTER WHAT, WHY AM I A FUCKING DISGRACE

No. 533469

>>533465
Oh lord no, i am not that fucked up. Thanks for the keks tho

No. 533477

>>533475
Pls no booly but noel fielding, espeacilly back in the day

No. 533480

I can't take it, jesus christ. I wanna die.

No. 533482


No. 533651

>>533306
Thank you for replying anon. I talked with him last night, I had to find the right words and not let my disappointment talk for me and let me say things I know I didn’t mean.
He understood it all and apologised. I told him I felt hurt because I felt like at that moment something so trivial was more important than me and it made me feel like no one, even if he didn’t mean it.
He told me he didn’t ask because I didn’t talk afterwards and he thought it wouldn’t be that important and that he told me about her to talk about something. We ended up laughing because the situation was absurd but he compromised to be more present when I’m with him.

No. 533652

I wish I never met him. If only I knew how to fall out of love. If it’s not her, it would be anybody else. I feel like I’m crazy when I know I’m not and I’m mad at myself for getting at this point, for ending with someone like him.

No. 533673

>>533331
I feel like a lot of people are going to break up after quarantine

No. 533717

This melodramatic girl who decided to go to the hospital because she thought she had covid. It was pretty obvious with her hourly status updates that she wasn't that sick. It turned out she was negative and the issue was something less serious so they discharged her. While I'm not sure if she made this part up for more attention, her story was that as she was leaving the hospital there was a doctor there who was allegedly losing his shit to nurses about her and how they wasted their times and used up a test because he thought she did it for attention.
Not sure if she made up the story for more attention, or if it's real that she told it for more attention, but she's not very sympathetic. But I think the staff are right if they said that to her and she really should have quarantined unless it became life threatening. Ironically she was probably more exposed to the virus while being in the hospital.

There seems to be a trend of people who want to seriously believe they've got covid so they can post to social media about their ails.

No. 533721

>>533262
He's not working all night, he's talking with your replacement. Disrespectful as fuck. Get rid of him.

No. 533761

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>saw a 4chan thread about the hypmic anime and how they like it because "it sounds like it's about a couple of bros taking down the matriarchy"
>series has majorly fujo fans who are fine with women just being an evil plot device and shit on women into otome stuff
Women who are doormats and pickmes are so tiring in fandom spaces.

No. 533762

>>533761
hypmic creator is a lolicon who tweeted about sniffing kindergartners irl so anyone who's still into that series is sus to begin with

No. 533764

>>533761
Amen to that! I could never get into hypmic due to that.

No. 533765

>>533762
Sauce for that? The only weird shit I've heard about Hypmic staff is how anti sharing they are with media (no screencaps of the game or anything relating to side media).

No. 533769

>>533262
Tell him how you feel, it doesn't matter if you come across as jealous, he's clearly being inappropriate

No. 533775

I was so looking forward to this semester cause i absolutely hate winter and it just worsens my depression but now i have to spend another 6 months or so at home when i could've gone to uni and spent time with people when it's all warm and sunny to distract myself and be busy.
I'm so scared i'll have a severe depressive phase again this summer since i'll be home all the time with my dysfunctional family.
Why did this all have to happen…

No. 533780

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i've been dangerously close to slipping into a depressive episode for the past week or two. i think it's a combination of general self-hatred, being stuck inside, school getting cancelled due to covid, that sort of stuff. i don't know what to do…

No. 533784

>>523788
My inferiority complex will be the fucking death of me. I keep a scoreboard of everytime someone jokingly insults me, insults me, says anything that isn't 100% positive and I use it to confirm that I am in fact not an important or liked person. Everything that I accomplish I immediately compare to other people's accomplishments, and everything I don't accomplish I picture other people viewing me as someone who is unaccomplished/lacking. This quarantine is giving me way too much time to think about how much I hate myself.

No. 533786

I can't stop trying to find something wrong with my boyfriend. Sometimes I become irrationally convinced that he's hiding some secret, like he's secretly gay or violent. When it gets really bad I imagine things as horrible as murderous intent or cp. I'm starting to pinpoint what it is, but I can't accept it. Long story short, I used to be involved in the same gross circles as someone who was murdered sort of recently (she's posted in a thread, I'm sure someone will know who I'm talking about). I was very vaguely friends with her and when it happened a bunch of people spammed me with questions and links to videos of it happening and random accounts mocking her death started harassing her mutuals, and I guess it was somewhat traumatic in the end.

I absolutely hate the idea of co-opting someone else's traumatic event like this and I can't swallow the idea that it affected me enough to make me this paranoid and depressed. But since then, I can't shake the feeling of just…absolute disgust and disillusionment with the world. It's hard not to assume every single man out there is a violent hedonistic pervert, a pedophile, a murderer. I feel really weak. Obviously I removed myself from those circles of people immediately and this is the only forum I go on now, and I have no reason to believe my bf would be like this (especially since he felt disillusioned with internet culture way more early on than me and probably hasn't been on the chans since 2009 or something) but like I said, I can't shake it off. I've even considered suicide just to get a break from feeling this way. I'm sure a lot of people who frequent forums can relate, and I wish I could just get over it.

If anyone read all of this, thank you. I've been told talking about this will help me get over it but it's really embarrassing. Like, how on earth would I explain 4chan to a therapist?

No. 533788

>>533786
honestly, i can't tell you your suspicions are paranoid, but it does sound less likely that your boyfriend will be those things given that he's not on the chans anymore and hasn't been for a while. how old is your boyfriend though if he stopped visiting in 2009 and if you're a similar age, why were you involved with her circle? is he like 28 and you're like, 18? ultimately, i think the men on the chans are pretty likely to be into some nasty shit, so you do have reason to be worried, but it's a little less likely if he really did stop visiting. the chances of a guy being super fucked up are slightly lower if they aren't the type to spend a lot of time on the internet.

No. 533789

>>533786
I understand the first bit, I've been abused and cheated on so there's this paranoia that my bf is going to do that too. I think it's just how your mind begins to expect things after experiencing it for so long even if you aren't particularly at risk in your current situation.
Be really honest and open with your bf about your concerns and stay away from sites that give you anxiety and paranoia.
I would also suggest going to a therapist, if anything just to talk about how that person's death and online forums affected you. I'm sure the right one would be very understanding

No. 533791

>>533780
If there’s anywhere outdoors you can safely go to get sun exposure and move your body a bit while keeping distance from other people, I highly recommend it. I’ve been in the same spot as you but taking a couple days to go into nature has been my savior. If you can’t then try to sit by your windows for light and do exercises, take vitamin D if you can, try some new games or hobbies to switch things up and reduce the dullness of these days inside being too bland and similar to one another. Best of luck anon. I know it’s not easy right now.

No. 533803

i wish i was someone who is more harsh and cold. i hate myself so much for this.

my uncle promised marriage to this woman like so many years ago but then ended up raping and abandoning her in their village, after birth she ended up killing herself because of the rumors and her having a "rape baby" and my uncle completely abandoned the baby too so the woman's parents had to take care of the child. the baby is now a 33 year old man living in germany on his own and i talk to him from time to time because he seems very lonely and he doesn't even have any relatives or so to talk to anymore. my uncle also used to hurt animals and even broke a puppy's legs for chewing on his sleeve. my retarded aunt would let him change her baby daughter's diapers on purpose while knowing damn well he also has pedophiliac tendencies, etc. so i really don't want to think about the possibility of him molesting that little baby.

and now he has alzheimers, he suddenly turned into a frail old man who can barely talk and i hate myself so much for feeling sympathy for him while knowing damn well what kind of pain he inflicted upon others. i am like genuinely angry at myself because i'm someone who's always been so soft hearted and now i feel sympathy for this scum and it's just so embarrassing.

sorry if i don't make any sense, i am esl.

No. 533805

>>533803
It's hard to not be sympathetic for an old person, regardless of what they did. I don't think that makes you weak, it's not nice to see someone suffer.
It's good that you talk to the son though, that's very kind of you

No. 533806

>>533803
if someone doesn't feel sympathy for someone that evil, it doesn't make them harsh or cold. you're just kind of irrational tbh.

No. 533809

>>533806

as if sympathy has anything to do with rationality.

No. 533816

>>533809
sympathetic reasoning is a very real thing. sympathy isn't necessarily irrational at all. again, it doesn't make someone "cold" or "harsh" to not feel compassion towards people that take pleasure in harming innocent people and animals, especially knowing these people see that compassion and seek to exploit it with the intent to escape consequence, and continue to abuse and harm others.

No. 533818

Wish my family would stop trying to Facetime with a group every other day in the quarantine. We didn't have that kind of relationship before, and I'm not interested in starting just because they collectively have 3 friends between them. I don't care about what recipes you want to try, what the grocery stores had stoked. We didn't have this kind of relationship before and I'm not interested now that they're bored.

No. 533831

>>533803
i think it's reasonable to feel this way, especially with something like alzheimers. most people seem to have a collective sympathy for groups like the very young, the very old, animals, basically those who can't really understand what's going on. it's sad in a very visceral way to see those types suffer regardless of the circumstances, imo. i'm sure it's confusing to feel this way about him now but i don't think you should beat yourself up for it. at least he can't hurt anyone ever again, if that gives you any solace

>>533786
i believe i know who you're talking about… i knew her very, very vaguely but it still made me feel off during the days that followed. what happened to you does sound traumatic, i think you can tell a therapist that you lost an acquaintance/friend in a horrific way and go from there. sending you love anon

>>533791
thank you anon, i'll do that. i already lay around the windows like a lizard but i'll look into hobbies and see if i can move some of my exercises to the backyard. :)

No. 533832

>>533818
lmfaoooo if this isn't my family.

No. 533924

>>523817
you mean to tell me this isn't common? Every single store I go to has a divider for situations like this.

No. 533926

I'm so sick of people in my life pretending to give a shit about how I feel. If they really cared they would've gotten me help years ago.
I need help DESPERATELY and it's so frustrating that nobody around me sees it. All anybody ever does is make comments like "maybe you should do x,y, and z", "you should just eat better", "just talk to me". like any of that would ever fucking help me. and anytime I show even a slightly bad mood my family is like "oh well why won't you talk to me?" maybe if you didn't shove me away and treat me like a child throwing a tantrum about not getting a toy when I needed you I would actually consider talking.
Doctors don't give a shit either. the last time I was in inpatient care all they cared about was shoving anti-depressants down my throat and shoving me in group therapy talking about the same bullshit every fucking day.
I'm so sick of living like this and all I can do is smile and nod.

No. 533934

I love them, but I'm really sick of my friends treating me like a child they have to coddle. It's to the point I feel like they're walking on eggshells around me constantly, I just want to be treated normally

No. 533945

I'm too worried I can't eat or even really drink and feel on the verge of tears constantly throughout the day bc of covid

No. 533951

i feel like an outcast in my own friend group, i have no idea why though it's not like they ignore me or anything im just worried they secretly hate me

No. 533952

>>533951
You probably have BPD. Your friends would be better off without you.(hamchan)

No. 533956

>>533926
Have you ever told them what you actually fucking need? What kind help do you think will work? What kind of treatment do you want to try? You already refuse medication. People aren’t mind readers. Lots of time you gotta help yourself you big baby.

No. 533957


No. 533958

>>533952
Not that anon but wow, your projection reeks of insecurity.

No. 533960

>>533958
How is that projection? People with BPD literally behave this way. I know because I've meet people like that before.

>>533957
Very mature.

No. 533962

>>533951
you might have anxiety and that's okay. there isn't anything wrong with asking for reassurance sometimes. i mean dont just constantly ask your friends like, "do you still like me?" but im sure theyd understand if you explained how you felt insecure. i feel the same way a lot of the time and ive found that my friends do care about me even if it's hard to believe because of my past experiences. i don't know what your life has been like, but there's nothing wrong with asking for help from people that you care about. i believe in you!

No. 533965

>>533960
>how is it projection that I jumped to an armchair diagnosis based on 2 sentences and a very common human emotion?

The symptoms shes expressing are criteria for a thousand other things (general or diagnosed anxiety, ocd, general low self esteem, etc).
But I'm sure you and your lolcow psych degree aren't projecting, nonny.

No. 533968

>>533951
You're probably just projecting your own low opinion of yourself on others, work on your self esteem anon

No. 533973

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>>533960
>I know because I've meet people like that before.

everyone. step back. anon here only knows the truth. nothing but the truth.

No. 533978

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>>533973
Inb4

>u mus b bpd hurr

No. 534061

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Why did god give me so much boob but so little ass in an era where men aren’t impressed with boobs but go nuts over a nice butt

No. 534083

Fuck's sake almost April and it's still 10ºC in this god forsaken warm country which is usually too hot to stand.
I have to spend my money on heating and I can't open my windows to get a breath of fresh air in this fucking quarantine or I'll freeze my ass.

No. 534108

Dota 2 Internationals is probably cancelled fml and it was finally in my country

No. 534116

Why is it that most people are so boring? Be it a man or a woman, they all just feel so bland and uninteresting, with nothing meaningful to say.

No. 534118

>>534061
Go the gym then.

No. 534119

>>534061
You can build an ass, but no boobs

No. 534120

>>534118
i second this, someone having a naturally big butt doesn't automatically mean it's gonna look good, in fact, it's the opposite a lot of the time
do squats or smth lol i'm not an expert

No. 534122

>>534116
You must be so very interesting anon

No. 534124

>>534122
Sorry if you feel called out lol

No. 534130

I can't stop comparing myself to others.

Does anyone have similar issue? Maybe some ideas how to deal with it? Some distraction that would work well, meditation, no idea.
I've been to therapist with this, i know where it's coming from, i understand it's irrational but it still ruins my life… maybe even more because now i'm additionally annoyed for not being able to stop feeling awful about something i'm fully aware is irrational. :(

No. 534134

>>534116
People around you just don't care to have interesting conversations /with you/ sis. I sure as fuck act bored and bland when I don't like someone.

No. 534137

i got a boyfriend, he's great and we get along great.
but i can't feel sexual pleasure (never have in my whole life) and he's the rare kind of guy that likes sex specifically to share pleasure and not just to cum. so he feels awkward getting his nut while i can't.
even the worst retards who get ridiculed on the farms can feel basic sexual attraction while i can't do that. i can't even do that. now my boyfriend feels like he can't help me, he must feel inadequate, all because i'm broken inside. he is so kind about this but he must feel like /he/ isn't attractive enough or good enough to make me feel anything.
he makes me feel free and like he's making me reconnect with my emotions, but i hate it. i've cried 3 times since knowing him (twice in front of him) because i felt terrible about myself. i barely cried these past years.
i wish he would find someone normal. since i can't be fixed.

No. 534140

I’m so sick of whiny ass Instagram bitches crying about being inside. I genuinely do not care. There are thousands upon thousands of people losing their friends, and family to this virus and Kelly from Montana is upset that she can’t go to Target and Starbucks every day.

No. 534141

>>534137

You can just be asexual and that's completely fine. Have you had a chance to talk to a sex therapist? If it's not a deal breaker for your boyfriend you can work it out together, I'm sure he wouldnt want to lose a great relationship over that one thing.

No. 534147

Does anyone here have family/parents that are shitty but not enough to be abusive? You hate them but you feel guilty about it because they're not monsters or anything, just really draining to be around?

My mom's made A LOT of parenting mistakes in the past, but it ain't cause she's psychopathic or narcissistic or anything, she's just a big baby who didn't get over her own past trauma and refuses to take responsibility for it even now. Everytime I hint that she's hurt me before, she falls into a rage and then goes into another room to cry. I used to feel bad about these things but ATP I'm just annoyed cause it feels like she does it on purpose. I get that being blamed for anything by your kid hurts, but you gotta confront that at some point and accept that you're not as good as you want to be for her.

I should know better. She'll never accept any blame for the things she's said and done. I have no one in my life that I can trust or talk to about these things, so I guess I keep hoping that one day, she'll say she's sorry and mean it (no 'I'm sorry, but you-').

That's…never gonna happen. It frustrates me to no end that I have a big gaping hole where my family's support was supposed to be, and literally nothing else in the world can replace that. If I'm very very lucky, it can only ever come close.

No. 534150

>>534147
I think I kind of relate, anon.
My mother's the same, but she's a raging narcissist and clearly mentally ill. There are times where I hate her so much and just wish for her to die, but then I feel so bad for having those thoughts, because she is actually nice and funny sometimes.

She used to resort to physical and emotional abuse in the past, but now that I'm grown up she cannot hit me as much as she used to, so now she sticks to the emotional abuse. I'd say I am used to it at this point but it never fails to make me angry and start shaking from anger because that woman is so impossible. I've been dealing with her for 20 years now and she never fails to make me angry in new ways. (Also cannot move out because of my family's culture and the endless guilt I feel so rip.)

But then, I also cannot help but feel bad for her because she's had a fucked up childhood herself and I just feel so much fucking guilt for even thinking those hateful thoughts about her when I am angry. I don't consider her a monster, just someone who's never really learned how to raise kids and treat them right because it was the same for her. She's known nothing but abuse and neglect all her life but then that really doesn't give her the right to treat me this way either.

And the same goes for yours, she really doesn't have an excuse to treat you that way because of her own trauma.

No. 534151

>>534137
You're not broken, anon

No. 534152

>>534137
i get that some people see sex as an important aspect of their relationship, but it's not everything anon
don't let your relationship get ruined by something like that. it's like >>534141 suggested, i recommend going to a sex therapist. hopefully you will get it fixed and if it still won't work then i hope you won't beat yourself up over it because sex is not everything in a relationship

No. 534156

>>534147
Don't look at it as all or nothing, as if someone either abused you or nothing bad happened. A lot of people forget about the term "neglect," and parents neglect their emotional duties to their children all the time. Regardless of what happened in the past, how she handles criticism isn't healthy and she's chosen to invalidate your feelings rather than be an adult facing her mistakes. That's extremely aggaravating and painful.

Many adults with children get so many passes to act like shit. Not to sperg, but it drives me nuts. When I am criticized for my behavior, I'm supposed to take it in stride and make changes. I don't have children to hide my poor character behind or explain it away. Adults who've raised children tend to have this nasty habit of either directly blaming their children for their shortcomings or blaming childrearing in general for driving them to commit shortcomings. If not those excuses then they just find another way to pass the buck and not accept any view of themselves that's less than they were great parents who did their best. Sorry but it really disgusts me, probably because my mom is the same and that's the reason why I don't talk to her. She spelled it out in a letter that she pretty much considers herself a great parent, anything bad she did was because a man/her past drove her to do it, and anything else that I didn't outright deserve was at least not perpetuated on her end. No accountability nor respect for my feelings whatsoever!

No. 534171

Reminder that mans love is inside your own head

No. 534176

Does anyone feel like they have no control over their own life? I get mad over small mistakes people made and stop talking to them, or if a very small and specific plan doesn't go as expected it's the end of the world.
Calm/tolerant people have control in "the bigger picture" so they don't feel that way.

No. 534183

>>534176
I used to be exactly like that when I was an alcoholic. When I took back control of my life and quit drinking, I stopped going apeshit over minutiae.

I stg I don't get enough appreciation for kicking the habit, people have no idea how hard it is, the biggest obstacle i ever overcame. So I have to toot my own horn - BRAVO ME!

No. 534192

>>534152
>>534151
>>534141
thank you anons, you're right. he's told me multiple times that his favorite things about me are not my looks even if he finds me beautiful and attractive. he said he was happy just being with me and simply thinking about me put him in a good mood.
my mind was clouded by all my insecurities when i posted that. i should see a sex therapist, but with quarantine and my shit wi-fi, i don't know when i would be able to. for now we'll keep communicating and working on our (very new) relationship.

No. 534199

>>534192
good luck!♥

No. 534224

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finacé just showed me how much of a normie he is. his work just decided for the week they are shutting down. he's still getting paid but he's mad because now he has nothing to do this week. he just moaned about how this weekend he was bored because he had nothing to do and doesn't know how he'll survive this week. i told him i'd help him find stuff to do and he scoffed and didn't want to hear it because he was mad.

normals who are mad they have to quarantine and are "bored" need to expand their horizons a bit. the internet has literally everything you can imagine on it as well as us having regular television, netflix, amazon prime, a shit ton of books, and plenty of dvds. we can both start spring cleaning, walk the dogs, or try a recipe together. i got really sick about 3 weeks ago and under doctors orders have been under extreme quarantine and literally haven't stepped outside unlike these whiners but I found shit to do. i've also been seeing this a lot on my facebook feed of people starting to go stir crazy and it makes me mad because they even have the ability to go outside for fresh air but that's not enough. plus kids having to stay home with their parents and the shitty parents openly talking about how much they hate having the kids home. it's all just eyeroll inducing everyone acts like having to stay home and chill is the worst thing ever even in this day in age. it's really not that bad.

No. 534237

I was always very weirded out by people who would overshare super personal problems so openly and readily.
I found their behaviour kinda odd cause i was the complete opposite. I used to tell my mum everything, as she was like a best friend, so i never had the urge to tell anyone else. But i've realised i've become that exact person, now that my mum is no longer here.
I have no outlet for my worries and feelings so i end up telling my friends, whose cold reactions make me feel embarrassed and regretful. I feel so pathetic after i share something personal and get awkward replies- if i get any.
I now realise that these people were just lonely like i am now, and they had gotten to a point where they could no longer keep all those thoughts. I'm glad i wasn't rude to them cause it would kill me if anyone reacted to me in a negative way when i'm so vulnerable.
Still, i've learned to keep quiet and write my thoughts down instead of burdening my friends with it.
I wish i had a therapist or something.

No. 534238

>>534237
I kinda feel you on this, it kinda crushes you when you keep it pretty chill and light while opening up to people but even that lite version of your worries or feelings gets the awkward silence/shitty reply treatment. Inb4 someone claims i am just autistic who cannot read the room: i can, it's just hard to not freak people out with some shit

No. 534240

>>534224
> i told him i'd help him find stuff to do and he scoffed and didn't want to hear it because he was mad.

Shit like that would make me worry about retirement with him, or him losing his job and being an angry nightmare to live with during that.

Maybe I'm projecting though, I've spent quarantine thanking god that me and my ex are over. He would be hell to stay home with, always bored and moody for no reason.

No. 534242

>>534237
They might just be immature and can't find a way to say anything meaningful or really process what you're going through. It's more like an instinct at that point to ignore the thing (you) making them uncomfortable and hope it goes away. Like you said, it took losing your mom to realize why some people reach to non-family for comfort and venting. The number one thing is to not take it personally.

No. 534265

my art assignment is due in an hour and I am starting it now. We will have a class critique over zoom. End me, I am a clown.

No. 534271

>>534240
Honestly he’s quite the opposite in terms of showing emotion. Dead fish central here. I don’t have to worry about extreme emotions, I have to worry about apathy taking over.

No. 534284

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I live with my mom and I think the quarantine thing is getting to her. She gets mad at me for working, gets mad at me for not working, gets mad at me for her own forgetfulness, gets mad and blames me for counting on her after I ask her to do things and she says she'll do them…

No. 534285

My roommate panic bought bags of chopped frozen vegetables. Besides peas and carrots, he bought shit I know he won't eat. He NEVER eats vegetables, I'm talking I see him eat a vegetable like twice a month if I'm being generous, because he barely cooks. So he won't turn the inventory to justify the tiny freezer space we have to share. I'm annoyed because his bags take up so much room there's no room if I wanted any frozen groceries for myself.

No. 534290

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I've had tests done and met up with a psychologist ti finally figure up what kind of mental disorder I have, if any… and now I can't pick up the results because of the lockdown and because public transport isn't working.

I just want to know dammit!

No. 534303

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Either something went wrong, or someone stole the fucking package I've been waiting for for a while.. It was a skirt from a brand I really like that I found much cheaper, I've been looking forward to it all month, because it was a big treat to myself. It's just gone despite saying it was delivered a few days ago.
Our post office is just SO shit too, they never knock or even leave a slip. I also just feel stupid with how much I'm crying but I was just really looking forward to having this. I can't even figure out how to do a claim for it, everything is giving me errors for it.

No. 534315

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I don’t want your fucking Corona porn subscription!!! Unlike men I don’t stay home to jerk off all day. Give me free e-books, free Skillshare, free MMO sub!!! It’s so unfair that only coomers are being catered to.

No. 534316

>>534303
I feel for you anon but try to calm down, you can get a new one or a refund
Not everything is lost

No. 534319

My mental health is going down the drain with the lockdown in my city, hatred of my job, and just a general dread for April. I can't be bothered to respond to messages from coworkers/friends. I don't want to say anything or tell them anything because it'll just be a lot of emotional bullshit and frankly, no one cares. Yes, rationally, I know people would listen if I told them but I don't want to share anything with anyone. I want to scream but that won't do anything good and won't feel cathartic anymore. My friend's four year death anniversary is coming up too and I'm really anxious. I miss her a lot and I keep thinking about what happened and how no one did anything, including me.

No. 534324

>>534315
Some artists have put up free classes on gumroad, with the vouchers on instagram profiles and such. Give it a Google in case you can find something useful!
I was hoping skillshare would step up too but they're probably just making lots of money from this. Pornhub will always have business but some of the learning sites will never get this traffic again

No. 534329

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my ex (who works independently and had let me work with him around a year into our three year relationship with no issues, we carried on working together after the breakup) cut off my access to work aka my only way of making money for myself out of nowhere today, i’ve only stayed civil with him this whole time because i can’t make money any other way until i find a different job (which is bordering on impossible in the uk in general let alone with the quarantine stuff happening atm) and he knows that and enjoys the power trip. so since he pulled some spiteful shit i said okay, then give me back the 1k+ worth of stuff i brought for the flat we both moved into together that i left behind out of kindness and not wanting to inconvenience you by taking away everything (which is ironic because that’s what he’s just done to me) so i can sell it all and make some money to put away. i’m talking two sofas, fancy curtains, a rug, a huge wardrobe, an overpriced branded blender, an expensive ass fucking tumble dryer, i also paid for all the plates, cutlery, cups, storage units, ALL of it. the dumbass literally used paper plates and plastic cups even after i spent £45 on a dining set. i left it all to him even though i paid for them in full with my own fucking money and this scrote is STILL trying to play power games by not letting me come to pick any of it up, then saying he’ll buy it all off me but trying to say it’s all secondhand despite me buying it all brand new (just because it’s been in your flat doesn’t make it secondhand retard, buying secondhand would be buying things that have been pre owned or buying stuff from a charity shop that’s been priced down)

like give me my shit back and fuck off. it’s the fact that he doesn’t realise everything in that flat is mine and genuinely thought i’d just let him take away my only source of income during a fucking quarantine while he sits there in a flat full of stuff i paid for. i furnished the entire place, he wouldn’t even have a fucking toothbrush if i hadn’t paid for it because he’s an incel with rich parents and no work ethic even with the work he does. i paid our full rent (just under 800 a month) so many fucking times because he wanted to watch violent porn and play video games instead.

i hate myself for ever letting him abuse me (physically, verbally, mentally, financially) the way he did and continues to try and do

No. 534341

>>534265
I did so bad the professor didn't do critiques during the lecture but he said "some of you will be getting emails from me" fuck

No. 534363

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I can't stand my father. I dunno if it's old age or he's always been this way, but now that i've moved out of my place, i realized he's fucking insane. He honestly thinks the virus thing is just a way to turn us into a police state and the lock down /stay home things are only to catch 'bad guys' breaking the law. I honestly want to punch him, but i'm glad i'm away from that insanity

No. 534364

>>534284
This lock down is making everyone insane. Stay safe, anon. I hope this will be over soon


dmc 3 vergil is best boy

No. 534367

I started to fucking hate my friend group after one of my good friends found a bitch of a gf. The whole dynamic between us shifted. She acts like a slut and feels no shame. She fucked most of the guys in the group when she was just someone drinking in the same bar with us and now acts all mighty and witty. She enjoys the attention she gets from boys in our group cause she has tits that are just uneven sloppy undercooked pancakes and doesnt wears a bra under white tanktop and goes out with us like that. She poisoned most of the group with her dumb humour. She fucking lies and makes fabricated stories about her ex bf and ex friends and all she cares about is how other people are miserable in their relationships and she is the one to know it all. Basically talks shit behind our backs all the time. I can’t fucking stand her but she puts on this muh depression persona so I can’t confront her about being a lying snake ass shit, lol.

Me and some other friends stopped going out whenever she’s invited. I just hope she will fuck off after some time.

No. 534368

About three weeks ago my boyfriend of almost 5 months admitted himself into the psych ward right when Covid lockdown started in our country; he didn't even tell me or his parents (I had to break the news to his dad a few days later over the phone when he went to his abandoned apartment to check on his cat). The past few months he'd been having problems sleeping and would behave irratically when drinking (he used to heavily abuse amphetamines which fucked up his nerves/health). He didn't even want to sign consent papers to let the doctors tell his parents about the blood tests/analyses done on him. I text him almost every day on WhatsApp (they let them use their phones in the ward), but about two days ago he posted a weird photo on his Facebook where there was a cut on his arm. I asked him if it was his arm and he said that his friend from the ward had posted that photo from his account because he forgot to log out, but I think he's lying to me, especially since he's secretive and not being communicative at all with his own family and friends. This morning I had a panic attack and had a semi-argument with him through text. He says that when he gets out he's going to his relative's place in the country for a month. His mom told me he can't be alone right now.

I can't take it anymore; as soon as he told me he was in the psych ward I decided I would break up with him (I was planning on breaking up with him for a while anyways), but this whole quarantine is making me incredibly lonely, and I'm scared that if I break off our relationship after he gets out he'll kill himself. I can feel that this is a toxic codependant relationship, his mom even told me that when he gets out that we need to talk, and that I need to do what I feel is right. I can't focus on school, I'm drinking almost every single day and I just keep crying all the time. I feel guilty for even feeling stressed and burdened because I'm scared that it'll be my fault if he dies

Then I found out quarantine is going to continue here until mid-June. I don't even feel fulfilled hanging out with my friends anymore because I can feel that they're sick of me stressing out and crying about this situation with my boyfriend. I keep having intrusive thoughts about him killing himself

I want to wake up from this horrible nightmare, I don't want him to die

No. 534369

Less serous, but my laptop makes me look and sound like a 12 year old boy when I live stream online classes so i feel really insecure streaming.

No. 534371

My mum is so paranoid it just drives me nuts even though I try my best to ignore her when she gets in a "mood". Years ago she had a bad falling out with a "friend", got a an anonymous death threat, etc. etc - never been the same since.

It seems like she reads random comments on certain sites and applies them to something in our life; therefore it's about her or me. I have no idea honestly but even with the past experience it just doesn't make sense that there's so many specific comments all day about her. Without mentioning our names of course. She's convinced there's cameras in the house. She's talked about how the prime minister of our country is also in on this harassment campaign against us. I showed her a funny clip of some sheep jeremy Clarkson posted and the next day Clarkson is somehow in on it as well. I don't even ask her to elaborate anymore because it just rallies her up.

It just makes my heart break because this kind of stuff has been going on for years. She's the only close family I have. I don't blame her for going crazy eventually. She's been in a car accident, lost two children in a fire, then saw my father denying his cancer diagnosis acting an absolute crazed maniac eventually dying while raising me. She'll probably die one day still so consumed by this paranoia as if all the other shit wasn't enough. Sometimes she's not as preoccupied with it all and I have my wonderful, strong smart mum again but then she goes off on a tangent again. I am just heartbroken, anons. Sometimes it feels like I'm losing her already.

No. 534390

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I'm lonely
That's all I have to say

No. 534400

>>534367
You just sound jealous af that she gets all the male attention of your group kek that's what you get for being friends with males

No. 534415

>>534400
+1 Instead of blaming a slutty girl basking in attention, blame your cumbrain scrot friends giving it to her. Getting annoyed by attention whoring is understandable but it's still childish high school drama bullshit, and the men who encourage and enable her are ultimately to blame.

No. 534430

>>534369
Don’t feel bad anon, ppl think I’m an 11 year old boy anytime I’m on mic gaming online. I never bother correcting anyone; less abuse as a whole tbh.
I don’t think most are familiar w what they look/sound like, you’re prob just average and overthinking.

No. 534436

first world vent but I'm very irritated right now bc I just paid for amazon prime video so I could watch the next season of britannia but it's apparently not out in the US so I just wasted my money

No. 534438

>>534436
Go ahead and torrent it guilt free then.

No. 534466

I'm burnt out, mentally drained, and I'm ready for someone to come along to care for me but there won't be anybody. It doesn't matter what I've accomplished or worked hard for, my effort can't always raise me. All that has served for is proof to others that they don't have to do for me. They say I can always take care of myself and give me a pat on the head for being independent, like they're so low key thankful to not have to expend any effort that they never intended to give me. What better cover than to use my strengths as an excuse to be indifferent towards me? Oh, I could handle it I suppose. Everyone else seems to get a pass to be selfish but me.
Why did I do all this shit just to come out so exhausted and alone? What's worse is that I'm so traumatized from the terrible shit people did to me when I thought they would keep me safe and loved, that loneliness seems like the lesser evil. Despite how much I hate it. Is there a word for understanding that while the world is unfair, I don't want to continue to live an unfair life? When my existence only benefits others profiting off my work, emotional labor, or empathy, I start to ask what I'm actually getting out of all this. The list is very short in my mind. I realize now that no one has ever loved me for me, they've always loved what I did for them. This pandemic just emphasized the writing on the wall. If my life was an arcade game, I think I'd have the highest score because no one else would want to play it.

No. 534473

I always thought I wanted a child but now I realize I just want to fill the void of wanting a younger brother. I want to have a kid but without the responsibility and for it to be more of a best friend/sibling bond because that's what I always wanted since I was young (and never got). Maybe that's why I have been so hesitant on kids. I feel so weird now.

No. 534477

I miss seeing my hot guy friend. Had to give up seeing him as he had a bit of a careless attitude about the whole virus situation and didn’t want to risk infecting older family members. Goddamnit I’m horny af.

No. 534479

>>534368
That sounds very scary and confusing, sorry for that but you need to make yourself a priority right now.

No. 534491

I'm a potential mother and pro lifers annoy me, the baby doesn't exist yet? Why am I suppose to care about the equivalent of a fictional character in day to day life? I do understand it's a potential baby but it's the same as a potential marriage. If someone doesnt agree to marry me I dont go and start a movement to make all marriages final. Also hypocritical but I consider the pro life movement to be almost as invalid as the lolcow trend, because it's all about overreacting to someone you don't know, same as people who dont exist yet

No. 534492

>>534466
>I realize now that no one has ever loved me for me, they've always loved what I did for them.
As it should be. The only unconditional love anyone ever gets is from their parents and their dog. Every other relationship is a "you scratch my back and I'll scratch yours" reciprocal type of deal. Nobody's entitled to love or be loved. That's what makes it so special when it happens.

No. 534493

>>534224
I'd love to stay home and be fucking bored. Instead, as self-employed, I have to fucking work full time for less money than before because everyone wants a rate cut.

Fucking normies bitch about being paid to do nothing.

No. 534497

>>534224
I literally cannot fathom getting bored with an internet connection. You have all the TV, movies, books, games, and learning materials in existence at the tip of your fingers, for free most of the time! At worst I get paralyzed by indecision because there are so many things I want to do and watch and read, and I don't have enough time for all of it.

The only thing I'm bored with is the food we have at home, and the lack of exercise options.

No. 534505

>>534497
>TV, movies, books, games, and learning materials
They all suck. I only like books from this list but I don't read every day.

No. 534511

Lost a good part of my vision for over 30 minutes yesterday, and have been having weird issues with my head for a while.
I am a hypochondriac, so I usually have to try really hard to talk myself down (I’ve been convinced I have a brain tumor for a long time now)

But the doctor wants me to actually get it checked because of what happened with my vision.
I’m scared.

No. 534512

>>534492
The whole point of the post is that OP doesn't feel reciprocated to.

No. 534515

>>534511
Not trying to downplay your scary situation and i wish you the best but maybe it's migraine? Or just something caused by all of this massive stress?

No. 534517

>>534515
Thank you anon. Doesn’t downplay anything. Just brings me a little bit of comfort.

I hope you’re right.

No. 534530

>>534517
That's good then! Try to get enough rest and nutrition even if you're scared!

No. 534532

F U C K

My advice for people without unlimited resources: if you find a sick animal and have no way to care for it just leave it in a plastic bag at the shelter door. FUCK those fucking smug, holier-than-you assholes! If they find a cat or dog just dumped at the door they will cry on facebook how mean people are to animals and ask for donations for vet bills and food and supplies that they hoard and waste.
If you go there and ask them for help with a stray animal, because you have no experience or resources, well, fuck you, we full. I mean, it's their fucking job to take care of stray and sick animals, but fuck you if you somehow ask for help instead of just dumping the critter at the door.

Fucking wankers.

No. 534594

>>534492
Your post is just… sad…

No. 534603

>>534532
>>534532
Where do you live anon? Just curious. Sorry you had to deal with that. They’ve no right to bitch and moan when you helped the animal.

No. 534685

>>534532
shelters are usually non profit, and dont have the resources to take in more than the amount they have. most shelters are always at 250% capacity on average and have to make up spaces. animals dont get adopted out of shelters as regularly as you would like to think, about 75% of shelter animals will live there their whole lives or eventually be euthanized depending on if the shelter is a kill shelter or not. i understand your frustration but please hear this out as a shelter anon- if shelters let people drop off animals whenever they please, families buying children animal gifts, hoarders, unliscensed breeders, and animal abusers will just drop the animals off expecting the shelter to deal with them. its expensive to take care of a sick animal, and the volunteers arent being payed for virtual vet work. sorry for the sperge, i know shelters can suck, but you can thank the countless assholes who have spent the last decade dropping off their horribly abused animals for shelters to just take in without questions asked- if they continued to take in those animals people would feel like they had an easy out to getting rid of their pets.

No. 534696

bpd ex roommate is now a trans man because they're dating one. because i was a serious person with a real job she wanted to become a serious person with a real job, until she met a friend who was kawaii fashionista into makeup and cosplay and she then morphed into them, met another friend who was into wow and games and suddenly became a gamer gurl. she was bi in high school, became a lesbian when she graduated and now that she moved out and is dating a trans man who just started t she changed her name into some stupid shit, became they/them, and is now no longer lesbian. surprise surprise now suddenly she is going to change her name again and will start t to become her true self. i cant fucking stand bpd fags

No. 534700

>>534224
How the fuck do you not know who your fiancé is? Did you like, not talk to him before this? Do you guys not talk about things? Did you just meet him? How does this happen?

No. 534701

>>534696
Most people diagnosed with bpd won't meet the criteria for diagnosis if retested again in ten years time. So she'll likely calm down with age.. hopefully she doesn't commit to a whole fucking sex change before then.

No. 534706

>>534150

I relate right back to you anon…I guess this isn't something you ever get used to. I wish I knew how to not get angry too. I'm sorry to hear she's hit you in addition to the emotional abuse. I've been spared that kind of treatment, at least.

>>534156

I agree with literally everything you said. Sometimes I feel like people treat their kids as accessories or exentions of themselves, anything other than human beings with separate feelings and thoughts. Most parents I've met IRL have seemed very incompetent and incapable of raising a child. It's a small miracle most of these kids turn out normal-ish, or even well adjusted. So sorry about your mother…how selfish of her.

No. 534715

My downstairs neighbor has been smoking inside all day every few hours since the lockdown. It's against the lease to smoke indoors here but he does it constantly. I'm losing my air conditioning opening the fucking windows to air it out. That fucker has his windows closed. It's all getting into my apartment, it stinks, it hurts my eyes and throat and now that he isn't working daily this is a constant thing. I'm so sick of it I don't know what to do. I don't want to complain and have my neighbor hold a grudge against me. This is so fucked, what am I supposed to do a week or two from now when it gets to be butt ass hot outside and I need my air conditioning? I hate him. Like why the fuck can't he smoke out the window or open HIS windows to let the smoke out so it doesn't come into my apartment? I hope he dies.

No. 534721

Every so often with no rhyme or reason my medications randomly lose their strength so I have to up the dosage. It has no relation with my cycle an I did all the basic trouble shooting. I'm just stuck waiting for this weird cloud to go away.

No. 534738

I fucking hate my weasel stepdad. My mom is very disabled, and I probably only have a few more years, maybe a decade at best with her (which is already really hard.) He treats her like trash. He knew she would be dependent on him like this, now she can't fucking leave. I'm still a student and I can't protect her, I can't get her out. I'm so helpless. I hate him so much it's unreal. My mom is a strong, persevering, storied woman and she's just trapped. He literally threatened to intentionally go to a virus hotspot to bring it back to her. She would die. She might. I'm falling the fuck apart, my heart is breaking. Everyone has failed her all her life and I just want her to be happy

No. 534740

>>534116
this anon is right lol >>534134 also interesting convos take 2 people anon, try to contribute

No. 534744

>>534285
maybe offer to cook them for the both of you? or just say 'hey can i eat these ill venmo you'

No. 534757

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All of my friends have boyfriends now, even the shy and awkward ones. I liked that we all used to be "late bloomers". Now I'm the only one left behind. Kissless virgin at 21. It sounds so embarrassing and I feel so left out. At the same time I don't want a relationship. I'm perfectly happy indulging in escapisms and studying all day. It genuinely makes me happy to not have a close and needy relationship. This is almost saddening in a way, cause by 21 I should have some desire to get a boyfriend like all of my friends. I feel like something is wrong with me, lots of guys hit me up but I find no guy attractive or remotely interesting. Even if a guy was all that, I still wouldn't pursue him cause I simply don't care? It all seems like too much effort. I hate this about me. Am I gonna prioritize escapisms before actually living my life cause I'm so uninterested in everything? Why do feel uncomfortable in any romantic setting? Anons what's wrong with me? I would love to have a marriage and kids and travel around the world with someone I love but I just can't see that happening with an actual person. Does that make sense? I have this idealized picture that I would never pursue irl.

No. 534762

Tried talking to my brother because he keeps posting desperate things online to get his girlfriends attention, who cheated on him and is staying with the guy while leaving everything she owns and her fucking hoard of junk at my dad's house where she use to live. Tell him how I feel while trying to be gentle to tell him to let her go. He acts like I'm being stupid and sending me "lol"'s. Okay, go ahead and keep looking stupid online over some narcissist dickhead who cheated on you with a guy she kept as back up for who knows how long. Whatever.

No. 534767

>>534762
Reply to every LOL with a cuck or simp meme

No. 534773

>>534767
lmao people actually use chan lingo in real life interactions?

No. 534775

>>534773
The idubbbz cuck memes right now.. yeah

No. 534780

i wish i had killed myself when i turned 18 like i planned to, life hasn't gotten better at all and i can't find the point anymore. i can't tell if i actually want to die or if i just want peace but i'm running out of options

No. 534792

>>534780
FWIW, anon, I had a friend who was dead-set on killing herself years ago. She also felt like it was her only option– she was severely struggling with a lot of things including mental illness. She meticulously planned to commit suicide but got temporarily sectioned instead. I didn't keep up with her afterwards but when I recently checked up on her, she was doing really well. I don't want to divulge too many details, but she would never be living the interesting life she is now if she had successfully gone through with killing herself. I don't want to give you some cliche "it gets better" speech, so I'll just say you'll never know if it will if you don't stick around for it.

No. 534794

I want to start a diary but it's not the same if no one reads it

No. 534808

Awhile ago some delusional fuckboy called me "passive aggressive" because I would straight up tell him when he was making me frustrated or being disrespectful, but not in a way that I was yelling or being mean, not even sarcastic. He'd want to argue instead of just trying to see it from my pov and apologizing. Mostly I would just ask questions that would get him triggered because he knew he was acting poorly towards me but just wanted to make my anger the problem instead of his behavior. When the triggering got bad he'd hang up on me lol, as if that's not passive aggression.
He fucked off after the covid announcements cause obv he wasn't gonna get any nonny outta me from that point, still. I'm more mad at myself for trying to be reasonable, the next guy who treats me like that is getting the insult punchdown from me. What's the point of being neutral if it winds up all the same anyway? People like that are such cowards.

No. 534809

When my mom has a flaw it's a personality trait we have to deal with, but when someone else has a slight flaw it's the greatest insult against her.

No. 534816

>>523788
I have very few friends, and I'm fine with that. Yet everyone around me sees it as a huge fucking issue. i get along well with people, work in a field that relies on strong social and interpersonal skills; I'm not weird or anything. With that being said I just struggle to connect with others and might even have some social anxiety. My "friends and family" will make jokes about me not having friends and how I'm weird for it. One time my friend who snapchats every fucking thing we do told me I was jealous when I told her I didn't want her to snapchat to her other friends for the 10th time that day. Why is it so fucking wrong to not have friends. I feel like shit about myself because all i can wonder is how other people perceive me.

No. 534817

>>534816
*Edit, she told me I was jealous when I asked her to stop snapchatting ME and sending it to other people and to stop recording everything we were doing. I didn't tell her to stop snapchatting in general.

No. 534818

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>>534794
Write it in shorthand

No. 534831

so i’ve slowly realized my boyfriend is a 4chan using borderline nazi sympathizer

i thought he was just your run of the mill tradcon. i’m a leftist. wtf am i supposed to do now? leave him? i love him. kms

No. 534832

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No. 534833

Lately whenever I masturbate right before or shortly after my climax a sad or negative thought enters my mind and I just wind up sobbing in bed with my hand on my crotch. It usually passes relatively quick.

No. 534837

I used the last of my cashews on some nasty horrible mustardy cheeze whiz. I could have made good tasting cashew cream, but I tried something new and it SUCKED. I don't know why I thought I would like this mustard-containing vegan cheese sauce recipe, I never like them! I played myself anons.

No. 534838

My sister has type 1 diabetes. Not sure if that makes her more at risk or not. At first I thought she was worried about catching the corona, because she was making us wash our hands, but today she went to walk over to her friends house who is a fucking pilot and it has only been 4 or 5 days since he travelled. I'm not worried about me getting it per se but I have to go shopping and stuff and I don't want to give it to someone else. Call me crazy but her visiting him feels stupid and reckless..

No. 534842

>>534838
>not sure
how, at this point, do you not know that everyone with diabetes (all types) is at risk of dying from corona ESPECIALLY when your own sister has diabetes. do you not read or listen to the news at all?

No. 534847

>>534842
I do listen to news, I've just never heard anyone say that. I figured she was higher risk anyway. Both of my parents are also type 2 diabetic. Idk why she's being so reckless like this since she was giving us shit for going to the grocery store the other day.

No. 534902

>>534833
Damn anon, are you me? I've had the same problem these last few days, I'm chalking it up to a depressive episode from this social distancing/stay at home thing going on rn.

No. 534917

I can hear everything that is going on in my shitty neighbor house. He is a junkie living with his parents and he beats his girlfriend. After many years of abuse, he is finally getting arrested. Idk why there is like 4 police cars out to get him tho.

No. 534919

Hate how my dad and his partner can't get along often due to petty reasons,now she threw all the food from the table and she's sleeping outside of my bedroom ugh kill me I just want to leave this stupid country because I just want to return home where she not there aughh

No. 534928

>>534917
You're telling me you've heard him beating his girlfriend and never thought to call the police?

No. 534934

curly girl method doesnt look good on thin hair with loose curl/waves. it just makes the hair look greasy and shitty… ditched that sulfate free shit and picked up a blowdry brush and what do you know, my hair actually looks damn good

No. 534936

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Scrolled past a thread and saw this. Imagine people like this actually posting and lurking here among us.

No. 534940

My entire right side is numb. Face to toes and only on the right side.
It’s not completely numb, but it’s sort of a…dull numbness. I can still feel things, sensation, temp etc but lessened? It’s very strange. Like several hours after going to the dentist and the novocaine or whatever is almost entirely gone but not quite. I noticed it early Monday morning and it hasn’t gone away.
I can still lift my arm, leg, walk, hold things etc, I don’t have a headache, my speech isn’t slurred, facial muscles aren’t drooping and I’m not confused or anything. No pain. I don’t know what’s going on and I’m really scared, but I’m also terrified of going to the doctor.
I’ve been having panic attacks alone in my room on and off for hours.

I know I should go see someone, like I know what to, but then I start panicking again and idk. I’m scared of finding out what this is, I’m scared of finding out what it’s not and I’m scared of the coronavirus because if I bring that shit home, I’m not sure if my parents (or my mother at least) will survive.

I wish I had someone I felt safe around to be with but I don’t.

No. 534942

>>534940
be a goddamn adult and get yourself some help.

No. 534944

>>534940
I was sympathizing with you until you mentioned your family. At this point it is selfish not to get checked out. My dad has asthma and if I had even an inkling that I might have the virus I would get checked out immediately. Let us know if you get help.

No. 534945

>>534944
NTA, I read it like she's scared of going to the doctor specifically in case she catches covid there, not that she suspects she has it right now. Her symptoms aren't flu-like so why would she?

No. 534947

>>534936
It'd be funny if these were the people trying to get PP threads deleted.

No. 534948

>>534945
I'm half asleep lmao. I just reread it and yes I agree.


With that being said, Half of your body being numb for a long period of time is indicative of something serious, So I hope they get checked out.

No. 534959

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My 20th birthday just passed and I want to die. I spent the day with my mom and we made a cake. I know I should be happy that my mom is there for me and that I made it this far… but I am so alone. No friends wished me a happy birthday. My boyfriend is with his family a province away and spent that time drinking with them… i get it i guess, he hasn't seen them in a very long time.
I feel worthless. No one really cares about me. I know its silly since its just a birthday but i dont feel valued at all.
pic related was basically me today.

No. 534976

>>534959
Oh, Anon, I’m so sorry. Birthdays can be way worse than you average day with all the expectations around them. You need a new boyfriend though. Happy birthday, I’ll be thinking of you.

No. 534979

>>534959
Feeling this a lot, anon. My birthdays have always been a huge disappointment and ended up with in tears and feeling lonely. I'm always arranging birthday surprises for my friends and baking them cakes and getting them presents but I've never had anyone do the same for me, I don't even throw parties because nobody would probably come. Happy birthday anyway, at least we have the farms.

No. 534980

>>534959
i know you don't want to hear it but it is only your 20th, you have plenty of time to have improvements in your life and its only just getting started.
i feel for you and hope you have a better day browsing on here getting a few chuckles in, happy birthday anon!

No. 535061

I was on a voicechat with friends while playing anch last night when one of them asked if one of their guy friends could join (she usually played MMOs with him and other friends). Everything is fine and cool and we start talking about designs, and I said I was making designs of the shirts the kids in Homestuck wear because, yes, I like Homestuck. Suddenly this dude butts in like a condescending asshole like “oh my god is it 2012? why are you making homestuck designs?” like ??? My friends taking jabs at me is one thing (we all make jokes about it, I don’t really mind) but some scrote that I don’t know and just met via voicechat is another. I know it’s supposed to be in good fun but I fucking swear almost all the men my friend knows from other games she plays are all fucking autismo (bc of course they are) and I hate any interactions with them.

I feel like I was asking for it because I mentioned Honestuck of all things, but it just got under my skin lol. Why don’t people know the general rule of “don’t act so buddy buddy with people who are ESSENTIALLY STRANGERS!!!”

No. 535121

Sometimes I get really angry and start to wish for someone to beat me down real badly and leave me bloodied and bruised in the floor. Sometimes I also wish my boyfriend abused me for some reason but idk why

No. 535155

i haven't been able to go off for a minute, i've also been limiting my posting here and just lurking for a minute…. but fuck man

number one this guy i was dating briefly in like 2018-2019 ish just now decided that he's uwu so wonewy and is finally ready to "try it out" with me and i think i completely lack any sort of feelings that i may have once had for him as a direct result of the way he's treated me over the past few years. (ghosting and then coming back whenever he feels like)
like, how hard is it for men to just be fucking HONEST. HONEST. i'm an actual fucking adult and my feelings may be hurt for a minute, but why just avoid the subject all together or avoid the PERSON and leave them in the dark?
i mean, i know that ghosting is a reflection of the person dealing with their own bs, but still. it's like everyone fucking does it nowadays. men are fucking retarded.
and i get uwu wonewy too and sometimes i wish i had someone in my life especially because i'm getting older, but at this point i'm literally SO TRAUMATIZED from the things men have done to me in my life (things that i have been repressing, or have never shared with anyone, or that most people don't know about me and my youth) that now when anyone confesses any sort of feelings toward me i feel completely indifferent…. or i get on the defense wondering, "how are they going to turn this around and fuck me over?"
i'm having a hard time dealing with myself and other people lately.

also laughing bc a friend of a friend on twitter was going off the other day about how successful she is doing sex work and working and then got laid off from her job and is now trying to file for unemployment… like, hmmm. i thought you were making 1000$ a week off your onlyfans? and telling everyone that was your job? lol

corona has me fucked up. i feel so disenfranchised and upset with my job and then it sucks because most of my close friends work there and they're all "heehee we love the restaurant! we miss it so much! miss u managers!" and i'm like they literally treat us all like shit on any given day and now we're supposed to pretend like we're so indebted to them for laying us all off except for like 6 people who get to work still… and they're all crying about not having jobs when they most certainly do have jobs… ugh

anyway long vent
sorry anons
i'm going back and forth between being ok and being completely depressed while this shit is going on and i just don't know who to talk to

No. 535171

The man who raped me when I was 15 got caught with drug possession and I seen on Facebook a bunch of people like “nooo free him!” I remember when my parents found out and they told his parents that they’d press charges they said stuff like I was promiscuous and I wasn’t even a Virgin and how I probably led him on. Ugh
While I wasn’t planning on saving myself for marriage I was gonna try to find someone I loved and trusted at least. It just made me spiral into depression and blaming myself . He didn’t even go to jail, he avoided the cops and got caught recently and people who I know love him so much, I wanna come out and tell everyone but idk

No. 535172

The pseudo-intellectuals that believe deeply in psychology (and much of psychiatry) and put all of this trust in it, take it seriously despite the fact that it's obvious guesswork and is weird creative fiction-tier, are the worst. They're usually manipulative, ignore any and all of their own flaws, seek to pathologize others based on absolutely nothing, and then use it against people. There are a few things it gets right, and mediation, relationship counselling, etc, can be helpful, but for the most part, it's complete bullshit. People who believe it religiously are horrible, horrible people. They also appear to be people who have very little actual experience with the mental health community and they condescend to those that know firsthand how much of it is clownery, like they're uneducated hicks or something. It seems like people really struggle and fight to parse out the questionable shit from the basic truths. Much of it doesn't seek to "understand" people at all, rather, it tries to blame victims, act like their issues are permanent and inborn, and shift responsibility onto victims rather than solve problems. It's rarely helpful for these reasons, on top of the fact that the process of diagnosis is a joke, and many of the symptoms of these 'maladies' are misattributed or just not real.

That's not to say the annoying STEMlords are right about psychology, either. There is a place for psychology and psychiatry, but much of it is garbage and it needs to be overhauled and taken with a grain of salt. People really seem to have a hard time understanding this, that as it stands, almost all of it means nothing and is just reaching. I can't take anyone seriously that takes psychology and psychiatry seriously as it is, it's so laughably shit.

No. 535173

>>535168
there was this guy who thought he knew everything about people's behaviors and would armchair diagnose people, he also tried to groom me and other girls when we were 15 and he was 22 but i and most girls rejected him and he got with this almost obese 16 year old instathot who had nudes of her leaked and had a hate vendetta against me.

No. 535175

>>535173
Exactly. That's exactly what they're all like. It's only a 'credible field' that they use to manipulate, shame, etc, people with. They are seriously horrible people.

No. 535176

>>535172
>They're usually manipulative, ignore any and all of their own flaws, seek to pathologize others based on absolutely nothing, and then use it against people.
Funny, because I've always felt that people who are into psychology WANT to do this, and have this grand idea of becoming a sophisticated mind reading manipulator in their head. But in reality they're just tryhards with a useless degree in a saturated field, which doesn't actually turn you into a genius analytical mastermind when it comes to socializing.

No. 535178

I'm so pathetic.
I'm the only one who still keeps clinging onto my old high school friends, while they all moved on a long time ago.
We were so close after we graduated 5 years ago but contrary to me, they all made other friends and started relationships. Despite that I thought that maybe we can still keep in touch and sometimes hang out? But they keep rejecting me. Can it even be called friendship if you haven't seen each other for over a year and 10 out of 10 times it's me contacting them?
I already "forgave" my former best friend for not telling me that she went to study abroad and now I messaged her, thinking she might be all alone in her apartment due to the quarantine because her relationship with he parents is shitty and she replies with "My bf is with me". I didn't know you had one?
Back then you could say I somewhat lived at her place for some time, whenever she was sad I immediately drove there, we had so much fun, but I guess that doesn't mean anything. That's just one example, I experienced that so often already, me thinking I might be just as important to them as they are to me, but they don't think they need to share anything about their life with me.
At least tell me you don't like me, instead of basically ghosting me.

No. 535179

watching a movie with my friends and the whole time these tards keep talking too fucking loudly. omgf it kills me. im never this angry lmao

No. 535182

>>535179
>having friends

No. 535184

>>535172
I think some of them do seek to understand people, they just do it in a dehumanizing way. They see people as machines to be picked apart and learning about people needs the same process as understanding how a computer works. We're objects for them.

No. 535185

I found out my best friend was talking shit about me beyond what I'm willing to deal with, so I'm going the ghost route since I can't tell him why I'm done with him without ratting out the mutual who told me. I don't care if it's "immature". If a close friend ghosts you out of nowhere, think long and hard about how you talked about them and to who.

No. 535192

I should really stop hanging around this girl but weve known each other for years its hard to pull away I guess.
She still clutches tumblr ideology as shes closer to 30 than 20, dresses like a teenager because she deluded herself into thinking she still passes as one, and cuts everyone out or has freak outs periodically for the friends who dont believe in gender politics. When she meets someone new at some point she will bring up if they like anything not-vanilla and proceed to later shame them for that. When she herself is into bots screwing teenage girls, but those girls are put as 20+ so its legal! I've seen her reinvent herself on new accounts while pandering to sjw topics too many times. From all the account moving she lost pretty much all her fans. Though she also had to move because of liking shota/loli in the past. Now she wants to change her legal name since it wasn't special enough to match her nb dreams. Maybe she's just become a personal lolcow for me but damn is it sad to find shes more degenerate than I knew as years pass.

No. 535195

>>535192
>fans
What does she do? Art, cosplay etc?

No. 535197

>>535195
Drawing and used to do streams of the art but most of her socials are dying since she doesn't link the new ones in the old ones.

No. 535201

>>535185
Good choice, anon. I regret not ghosting someone who was a long term friend.Instead I confronted her about what she did, not really expecting an apology but for her to at least recognize I was upset because of what she did. Instead she told me I needed to work on proving myself to her to be a good friend, how dare I try to give her an ultimatum (I didn't) ?? So yeah that just upset me more, should have ghosted!

No. 535208

Can everyone please stop hanging out with discord gamer imageboard culture retards and stop being surprised when they're garbage

No. 535277

my brother is a selfish manchild. I'm so fucking sick of it.

No. 535313

I'm sad that few people want to talk about my two favorite cows, Caroline Calloway and Lowtax I'm not sure why. I think they're more interesting because they're more famous and "influential" than some rando nobodies who post themselves on instagram.

Caro in particular is a huge trainwreck, and it helps to post her on an imageboard because she posts so much shit every day. The main place to talk about her is full of people who hate her for daring to exist as a white rich girl.

No. 535316

>>535313
Caroline is one of my faves too, too nad her thread is dead

No. 535317

>>535313
There's actually a lowtax thread in snow, made recently.

No. 535331

>>535313
Lowtax just seems boring, he's an alcoholic who says stupid shit and that's about it. He doesn't really have any interesting ongoing drama so I don't know what there's to discuss. I think Something Awful General would be a much more sustainable thread than just Lowtax/Caroline because the forums are filled with cows in making, especially with the recent "NO TWANSPHOBIA!!!!!" meltdown with the reopening of FYAD and the JK Rowling thing. https://www.reddit.com/r/stupidpol/comments/ej64zs/lets_talk_about_former_internet_sensation/

Sort of related but I'm lamenting over the fact that I'm an ESLfag and can't discuss my favourite native cows without being doxxed (small circles) even though they have so much milk attached to them.

No. 535344

>>535172
I agree with this completely. I deal with a lot of psychologyfags because our required classes often overlap and they're often exactly what you described. It's especially irksome to me because we've extensively covered the history of psychology and if there's anything a person should take away from it, it's that it's a pseudoscience that should be taken with a massive grain of salt. It wasn't util extremely recently in history that it was essentially a tool to gaslight and oppress women and gays. FFS homosexuality was officially declared a mental illness until the 2000's, and they thought lobotomies were a great idea until 1967. Not to mention, one of the most popular and well respected historical figures within the field was a guy who insisted everyone wants to fuck their parents.

No. 535349

I feel like I don't belong in this country. It sucks because if you're a white Australian you actually don't have a culture. Does anyone from a colonial country feel like they have an identity crisis? Like, your really from Ireland and England or Germany if your USA. This isn't white guilt either, I don't believe in that retarded nonsense. No one gets to chose who they are. Maybe its because i'am from a recent line of English. I just feel bad that I don't have anything to really identify with.

No. 535351

Being a lesbian doesn’t even feel worth it. You’re harassed in public if you date a girl, all the hot girls are bi though and will inevitably leave to go chase dick, the LGBT community is basically controlled by troons and lesbians are like the devil to them so you gotta pretend that you’re totally down with the girldick to avoid being ostracized more than you already are in the first place just for identifying as a lesbian. Honestly, I just wish I could date a nice pretty boy who would never expect me to have sex with him ever but men are sex crazed fucking weirdos so that would never work. I fucking hate this.

No. 535356

>>535172
I'd do the exact same speech to any STEMlord who think their discipline is the "essence and answer to life and the world". They act all mighty and smart while saying a bunch of deeply stupid stuff. They don't like "science", they like feeling superior because their discipline is "harder".

No. 535357

>>535349
>Does anyone from a colonial country feel like they have an identity crisis? Like, your really from Ireland and England or Germany if your USA.

That's not really a thing in America for number of reasons. American culture is very much a thing, and (unfortunately) our culture is very overly patriotic and most Americans see Europe as very much beneath us.

No. 535363

>>535349
Note how Mexico and Central/South America don't have this problem because it was one of the most densely populated areas of the world pre-conquest and they couldn't genocide the natives to an insignificant minority compared to the settlers. European culture ended up synthesizing with most local customs.

No. 535367

>>535349
The culture you're born in will always be the default state for yourself, which makes you feel like you don't have an exotic, whimsical culture that you belong into. Especially because a lot of entertainment and media is very white American-centered. However Americans, Australians and British all have their distinct cultures that seem foreign to people from other countries, at least I've always seen them as different and original. At least you can be happy that you don't belong in a "culture" that involves FGM, executing gay people or stoning women for being raped.

No. 535368

>>535172
What do people actually mean when they say psychology is shit though? Are there not certain thinking patterns that can become pathological and lessen someone's quality of life or the people around them?

No. 535370

>>535368
Psychology isn't a real science.

No. 535372

>>535370
Okay? That still doesn't answer my question.

No. 535373

>>535351

>Honestly, I just wish I could date a nice pretty boy who would never expect me to have sex with him ever but men are sex crazed fucking weirdos so that would never work.


The truth right here.

No. 535426

>>535351
>>535373
>Honestly, I just wish I could date a nice pretty boy who would never expect me to have sex with him ever but men are sex crazed fucking weirdos so that would never work.
Just date some socially awkward IT guy for a couple of years and then coast. A lot of men stay in dead bedroom relationships especially if they don't feel like they can do better lmao.

Also, why would you want to be in a relationship with no sex? You guys sound delusional.

No. 535427

>>535316
I'll keep posting in her thread as long as I feel interested because there is a lot of stuff to document

>>535317
I made it, but nobody seemed interested in posting

>>535331
You sound ignorant. Lowtax has been going through some divorce drama with his unemployed wife who is in the US illegally and fighting with her over custody of their daughter. He probably cheated on her with some girl 20 years younger. How is this not real milk compared to the boring shit of nitpicking people's appearances.

No. 535431

I finally got some time to meditate and get rid of some stress but I forgot my washing machine makes too much noise and I needed to do laundry fml

No. 535434

>>535351
Had a four year long sexless relationship with a guy years ago. He was sub and into denial so that's how he was so ok with it. I miss him. Probably won't find that again

No. 535435

>>535434
no such thing as sub male/female or dom male/female, just a bullshit term kinksters use to justify their degeneracy

No. 535439

>>535435
I don't care anon, he was into denial either way

No. 535440

An indie dildo maker is having a big drop tomorrow and I want to treat myself to a new dildo but my libido is fucking DEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!! But they’re so pretty and ya girl wants a new knot dildo

No. 535448

>>535440
This post belongs on c.c
>>535426
Some people just don’t like sex but still want a faithful loving relationship with partner who isn’t socially retarded insecure cheater? High-lib fags have reduced empathy I swear.

No. 535451

>>535448
>Some people just don’t like sex but still want a faithful loving relationship with partner who isn’t socially retarded insecure cheater? High-lib fags have reduced empathy I swear.
So you're "asexual"? Why not just call yourself instead of lesbian. And I never claimed that people wanted sex multiple times a day. How many lesbians claim they don't want sex at all?


>>535439
Why did he leave you?

No. 535452

>>535451
He died, he was only 24

No. 535455

>>535451
I’m not OP. But you understand people can be sexually attracted to others but just don’t feel the desire to fuck more than twice a month? That’s not being asexual. And you obviously don’t know many lesbians because a good amount of them are low-lib. Male-centric cumbrain culture truly made everyone twisted about what’s “normal” regarding how much sex couples should be having.

No. 535457

>>535455
Samefag but I suspect a lot more straight women are low-lib too, but they just LARP as sex bunnies for their males.

No. 535462

>>535457
Low-ish libido straight and it's been shitty dating men and taking all the blame for mismatched libidos.

No. 535475

Venting because all I want to do is shit and fart with careless abandon, but I can't because my bf is working from home and his 'office' is right next to the bathroom. We have paper thin walls and you can hear everything. He's on business calls all day so I am literally having to hold my shit in all day until he finishes work. I am not necessarily bothered by it, but he's quite weird about his own and other's toilet habits/noises that he would probably be embarrassed if his employer heard me dropping one. It's absolutely crippling me and for this selfish reason I cannot wait until our lockdown is over so he can go back to work.

No. 535488

>>535475
I am laffin. Can't you play a video or something over your brap

No. 535491

>>535488
Girl I have tried but his coworkers have heard music and complained about it. All a girl wants is to shit in peace and not have to hold it in or listen to posh wankers talk business while I go. I might just start shitting in the garden and burying it like an animal.

No. 535492

>>535475
It's your home too girl

No. 535509

>>535475
Can you run the shower while you go? That's what me and my roomates did in college in the dorms, everyone knows you're shitting obviously but it kept from your roomate and the adjacent room from hearing you shit, like a white noise machine.

No. 535516

>>535475
Anon no one cares and you probably fart in your sleep anyway. I used to deadstare into my ex's eyes and let one rip. He thought it was funny, men are stupid.

No. 535520

>>535509
Its in a separate room but might be worth a try!

>>535516
Oh I know. I do fart in front of him, but I mean Id like to be able to use the toilet without having to stealth my farts. And with how thin our walls are, you can hear everything on the phone/mic.

No. 535527

I just found out I have cancer holy fuck I'm such a fucking dumbass for never wearing SPF properly wtf am I going to do about this while a fucking pandemic is happening?!?! I hate myself so much fuck FUCK

No. 535539

>>535527
I'm so sorry, anon. Was it caught early? If so you could be pretty much just fine. I hope you get well. Skin cancer is such a sneaky bitch.

No. 535547

>>535527
Sshhhit, anon i'm sorry. Hopefully it was caught early?

No. 535552

>>535527
skin cancer has a 99% survival rate if it hasn't reached lymph nodes. how far along is it? im sorry, anon

No. 535574

I always wondered why my friend didn't have so many friends back then and turns out she’s just a boomer trapped in a 23 years old body lmao

No. 535581

Some guy told me I looked like a criminal when I had to go to the store to get something. For wearing a mask and gloves, like many others were doing. I don't know why it pissed me off as much as it did but god I fucking hate old men that think they can just walk up and say whatever the hell they want.

No. 535590

>>535344
honestly, it applies to psychiatry just as much. it's all a joke. all of the "science" is data that can't reliably be replicated, and all of it is just reaching and twisting "data" to suit their assumptions that actually make no sense.

No. 535610

>>535581
tell him he looks like another statistic lol

No. 535615

>teacher told me i should start applying to studios for work
>still feel like my portfolio is piss-poor and not good enough
>procrastinating on it by playing excessive amounts of animal crossing

No. 535626

>>535615
just send these portfolios real quick and then switch your attention to AC. others judge us differently than we judge ourselves, there are solid chances your portfolio is more than good enough.

No. 535629

>>523788
I fucking hate myself for falling in love with public figures who are physically speaking are realistic and in my league and then daydreaming about how if they weren't famous we would meet and be together and how we'd walk into the sunset and be happy forever, because then I'm greeted with a guy who shows interest in me and all I can do is compare him to the time-wasting fantasies I have in my head that I can't help but add to during boring ass times like these.

No. 535637

>>535626
>others judge us differently than we judge ourselves
that's my main problem and you're right. i really should just do it.

No. 535643

>>535626
>others judge us differently
more harshly, yes

No. 535648

>>535643
not necessarily. sure, some people have no self awareness but from my experience it's rare, much more often people would be very harsh on themselves for no reason. especially when it comes to creative work when it's very subjective.

No. 535651

>>535643
eh, there are some actual retards out there who scorn everything but overall we really do be our own harshest judges. mostly everyone is too self absorbed to see your flaws to the same extent you do.

No. 535670

I judge others but I judge myself the most. I'm really not happy with myself.

No. 535684

>>534959
same anon. i always end up crying on my birthdays. mine is coming up soon and i’m already gearing up for the disappointment. welp, happy belated 20th

No. 535687

>>534959
Happy birthday anon!

No. 535694

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i wish twenty one pilots' fans weren't such uwu mogai identity blue hair shaved sides uwu pansexual mentally ill he/him uwu kids because it ruins their image sooooooooo much and they're actually such a good band. i've been listening to them for 7 years now and their songs never disappointed me lol i hate those "clikkie" shits

No. 535727

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>be a dental assistant
>be trapped in florida because the hygiene school i want to go is there
>last year i wasn't accepted due to a pre-req class that didn't transfer over from my previous school
>this year i can't take the HESI A2 due to corona virus shutting everything down
>i have to wait until next spring to apply again

fuck it, i'm not superstitious but i think this is a sign. i'm not staying in this shitty state for another 3+ years for this school, when things go back to normal i'm returning to civilized society and i'll just have to deal with being an assistant indefinitely

No. 535730

>>535727
*want to go to

No. 535732

>>535694
It's always sad when a decent band has the worst fandom. I felt that way about Panic! at the disco after Ryan and John left the band. No idea why, but the fans are extra cringe now, but that also might have a lot to do with Brendon Urie being a pansexual queer icon or what the fuck ever. It just attracts crazies.

No. 535737

>>535581
It bothers me on a deep level that the West (not sure where you live) is so ignorant about masks. It's so nice to wear them in Asia because no one gives a fuck or stares. I like wearing masks before this pandemic shit happened, but a lot of people in the west act like you're a weirdo, even now! wtf

No. 535738

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No. 535832

>>535694
Same. I don't even tell anyone I like them.

No. 539741

Can someone please help me? I’ve been stressing about this for close to 3 years. I left home in my early 20’s to live abroad with my then partner, he’s older than me so I never disclosed our relationship to my family. There was a heavy deal of legal trouble for years. 3 years in, we eloped. I got married and never told my family as I felt awkward as they didn’t know him and I was scared of what they would think of the relationship with the age gap as well as the Legal problems. It’s not been another 3 years since we got married and I just want my family to be involved in my life but it’s obviously beyond awkward now and more so with every passing day. As I will have to say ‘I’ve gotten married, 3 years ago!” Can someone suggest how to go about it? I really want it done with but don’t know how.



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