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Am I the only one tired of this mans face? Why do we have a cult leader as the face of most threads?
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On Friday I got laid off. Hurts so bad. What the fuck do I do now
samefag, I called the company in a panic to see if they could possibly
do anything on their end (get my post office to hold it/have it sent to their physical store in my city so that I could go and pick it up) and the sweet representative I spoke to said that she would just sent out another pair for me, with 2 day shipping since I need them for this weekend. I got lucky too since there's only 3 pairs left in my size.
She was so nice even though it was definitely my own fault and I guess it's just basic "appease the customer" tactics, but fuck, she really turned my day around, I'm gonna send the company an e-mail.
I'm not a career woman and won't earn a tonne but I'm STILL not getting married out of concern for my finances. Even if I didn't have to give away half my assets, there's always the chance I'd married a secret gambler, or someone with a tonne of debt, or who is likely to get scammed, or steals from our account and runs away with a 20 year old. That's not to mention the disastrous effect becoming a STAHM would have (if it turned out that way), especially if we got divorced.
I've spent a lot of time reading about financial disasters and men absolutely can be one. I just see them as a liability.
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Stressing over the environment is honestly going to kill me
It's normal lol. People are so used to their mirror image that real image always looks deformed af. Somebody who takes a lot of selfies will be used to both mirror and normal look and they're more confident.
If you look at photo of your face and flip it, it's guaranteed it will look ugly to you. It's like with flipping canvas when painting, it helps to find mistakes, but not many people know they should not use it sparingly and not every 5 minutes, because brain starts to exaggerate stuff that's just slightly asymetrical.
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i spent 20 mins this morning defrosting a banana and making the perfect smoothie only for me to rush out of my apartment to catch the bus (that showed up 3 mins later than it was supposed to) and left my smoothie outside my apt door. I know its not that big of a deal but im STILL upset about it. That was the last of my frozen fruit and yogurt. I just want to die. Im more mad that this has made me so mad lol. But i was so proud that I had enough time to make breakfast, lunch AND a smoothie for work only for me to leave my precious smoothie.
I just found out that my boyfriend’s parents pay his rent (he’s 21, in college, it’s still acceptable). It’s not a big deal that his parents pay his rent, but more that I thought he was super responsible with money. Every two weeks he ends up broke… and now I can’t figure out where his money is going. His dad just lost his job and he still feels comfortable letting them pay for his rent! Im just being salty cause I’m a middle class fag, my parents are paying for my education but expect A’s and B’s in return, I work, I save half of my paychecks because I’m fortunate enough to not have many expenses at this point in my life, have basically been hyper-aware of money since I was a kid during the recession, meanwhile my boyfriend went to private school, his family was untouched by the recession, and he’s letting his parents foot the bill after his dad lost his job, while also maintaining no savings of his own.
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had this dumb poster presentation in uni abt my lab experience, almost ran there thru rain bc I left bit late, walked in the room, saw that there's like 30+ people there mingling, stood in the room for like 3 sec and promptly left.
1stly, why did I think I could ever do this, 2ndly, what the fuck is actually wrong w me. I was even kinda excited for it, like I picked a nice outfit and did my hair nice for maximum confidence points and look how it worked lmao.
am I legitimately retarded? I feel like this isn't normal teehee shy behaviour at this point. this semester fucking sucks. was thinking of getting kfc as a reward as I haven't had that in over a year but now I don't think I should plus I'm not sure if I could even manage to go in and order lol
also how do I get my poster now, i want it as a keepsake
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I've had the urge for some reason to write my life story from beginning to now in greentext here on lolcow. I'm probably the most pathetic NEET on this site. I don't know why I want to do this so bad. I know I would be torn to bits by other farmers. Maybe I want someone to confirm how fucking pathetic I am. Part of me imagines the pity I might receive. I've thought about doing this many times. Probably the only reason I haven't is because I would probably kill myself eventually bc of the awful things ppl would undoubtedly say that I would know deep down are true. The other reason is bc it would be a very long story to type out and I don't have a computer/keyboard.
Feels good just to get that out.
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I feel you anon, and i also doubt someone here is a bigger looser than me, i would actually tick all boxes of that bingo, except i don't have enough money to be an alcoholic, and technically, i do have a smartphone but the cancelled my phone service twice because nobody calls me and i don't call anyone, so after a few months they assume you are dead or something , i don't bother getting a new line anymore.
oh and i also don't have a porn collection, i seldom watch it. IT just makes me sad.
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Well damn I empathize
literally start with something super small and seemingly insignificant, i know people here harp on about volunteering but really do try it maybe! maybe ask at a shelter near you any local events/fairs. or like look into petsitting, you know, stuff like that. if you manage to do one thing out of your comfort zone, it will give you confidence to pursue something bigger (plus experience on cv kek) and so on and on. hated when my grandma used this phrase, but life really is like a set of stairs and you must only look upwards. just do something
otherwise you'll be stuck on the brink of almost being ready for ten more years.
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if you feel you'd eventually kill yourself after doing it then that says to me you should absolutely not do it.
also, please try not to be so hard on yourself. I live a life that embarrasses me sometimes and would probably seem pathetic to most (hitting a fair amount of the Xs on the total loser bingo) but like I try to remind myself, you've really got to give yourself a break. I imagine you didn't set out to live a life like the one you do. start with trying not to call yourself a loser and pathetic. in fact, I'm gonna suggest the book 'you can heal your life' by Louise Hay, it might not be what you're looking for at all but I'm going to recommend it anyway because it helped me go from a suicidal wreck who spent 95% of my time repeating mantras in my head like 'I'm pathetic' to realising that shit was self sabotage and recovering from my depression. I hope you find ways to make your life suck less/love yourself, I mean this from my heart anon.
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don't sweat over that racket.
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ngos and scientific institutions living from subsidies have a vested financial (and political) interest in scaring the shit out of everyone with purposely hyperbolic disinformation. 10 years from now they will still be headlines about the impending doom in "x more years"
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when i was about 5 i went from extrovert happy kid to very shy and angry
but specially with grown men i couldn't even look them in the eyes or said a word to them, the only exception was my dad, even with my uncles i just couldn't even said hello to them, i was so full with shame that i didn't even understand
i always tough it was just my personality and as i grow older i learned to overcome it
now im 24 and these memories of me playing with one of my uncles had somehow surfaced : he was laying in bed and he told to come play "horse" in his lap and i just sat on his pelvis and started "riding"
i don't remember being sad or anything but it was a weird game and the fact that we were alone idk
it just make me wonder it something bad happen and i just repressed it until now, just like this random memory that has now resurfaced and maybe that's the explanation for my change of behaviour as a kid and other things…
Depends on if you're a grease ball or not.
And one can be both greasy and dry.
Your body overclocks the grease because you go too far with the showers.
Literally anything is bad in excess.
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My period hurt like hell last night with tight cramps and nausea and now I'm having liquid diarrhea. I hate being a woman.
bearing in mind she can get away with showering even more rarely during the summer, it seems like her getting smellier quicker is the issue and not showering frequency and I was just responding to the anon that implied that it was. maybe it's due to seasonal changes in her diet/some wierd seasonal vitamin thing? like my earlobes and nostrils get really dry and painful during winter, something akin to that maybe?
I think teeth appearnace, showering frequency and flushable wipe usage are the 3 cornerstones of lolcow cultural clash kek
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no offense but you bitches are gross. I bet when you do shower its probably just with your hands and you probably dont even wash your legs or your feet. I get missing a day but anything more than 2 you clearly dont love yourself or anyone around you. Just nasty.
You just sound ignorant tbh, if you have a good diet you most likely won't smell bad after a few days of not showering, not to mention it's bad for your skin and the more you shower the more you damage your skin and pretty much train your body to get dirter, similar to how the more you wash your hair the faster and oiler it gets
Please learn how human bodies work before you run around sprouting ignorant stuff like this
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Whatever you say, stinky. You're lazy and that is all there is to it.
Anon, I don’t think that has to do much with private school, my bf was homeschooled
and he often sounds exactly like yours, down to the changing the subjects and “wondering” what’s wrong. IMO you’re either not born with empathy or something messed you up as a kid and stunted the emotional growth. My cousin went to private school and I remember him showing huge amount of empathy for even strangers when he was 8, now he has grown into a really kind person. Anecdotal evidence but yeah, as I said, I don’t think private school killed empathy in him.
I don't think being annoyed that a disabled person was disruptive means someone lacks empathy. It's normal to be aggravated when designated quiet places are noisy. It's like being annoyed at a crying baby in a restaurant; it's not the baby's fault but it still sucks. Unless your bf was saying shit like "we should just ban all disabled people from public spaces they're so annoying amirite" or being a dick to said disabled person/their caregivers, he's fine.
And honestly if my bf's response to me beningly complaining, via text to him and only him, was a lecture about how I lack empathy, I'd ignore him too.
I think the reason he took it in the first place is because he's kinda wanted to vape but not enough to use money on it so this was his chance, I guess. I doubt he'll spend any effort on finding new parts for the model in question. I was just a bit disappointed he took it in the first place since the person who forgot it could've tried going back to the McDonalds. He has ADHD and has lost his phone and other belongings so many times - occasionally getting them back only due to luck or strangers holding on to it, he should know a bit better.
Since I'm already posting boyfriend in question is really sweet to me, but I generally avoid talking too much about my mental health with him lately. Sometimes I'll mention I'm struggling really bad and he'll kinda go "don't we all?" and it frustrates me a bit because… no. Of course everyone has bad days and moods, but not everyone struggles with actual disorders and that attitude feels a bit belittling to me. Or I'll say I'm struggling with self-harm more again and his response is "Still?" In his defense he does also give me some comforting words as well when I need it. We have a lot in common and he's such a sweetheart, but he's had quite a different upbringing and life-experience from me and sometimes it makes me feel a bit distanced from him. Can anyone relate to this?
I hate how men involved in my life can never let me be frustrated as a woman in the workforce. Both my stepdad and male coworker have been such shits to me lately regarding my job hunt situation, and neither of them have got a fucking clue what it's like.
My recruiter called me today to inform me that the contract that they were negotiating with the hiring manager for a local company is going to pay me two dollars less an hour (a net loss of over $4k a year) than they originally promised. Putting me at a wage that I started with almost four years ago, and less than what I currently make at the job I'm about to depart.
I have a choice to accept a different job offer that would pay me a dollar more per hour than what I currently make, but it would involve a 40 minute commute one way every day. Essentially eating the extra money I would make in gas and unpaid commute time.
What kills me is that the job that offered to pay me that shit wage actually is very busy and requires a lot of responsibility in addition to personal liability. It's a blood plasma QA job, and these blood companies make a literal killing off people. It's nothing but pure greed on the company's part.
Of course I'm very frustrated about this. Had I never tried to get an education (2 college degrees and 6 years of schooling), or never worked a day in my life (been working since 2009) then it would be one thing for me to suddenly complain.
I want to get out of debt, start saving money, and possibly entertain the thought of starting a family, but I can't do any of that. I'm living paycheck to paycheck and I've fucking had it, I've seen none of my work and sacrifice pay off so far. In fact now it's going the opposite direction!
I want to die yet every time I vent about this issue some male feels compelled to explain to me what's really what and how I just need to settle for this garbage. I guess they assume I have some other male to get married to and financially support me–so why don't I just settle for shit jobs?–but I don't.
My asshole boomer stepdad made me feel even worse by saying platitudes like "Hurr what's yer five year plan where u wanna be?" Well gee dad, I'd love to think about a fucking career goal but these employers think two degrees + ten years of work experience = entry level, soooooo I'm not really sure what I'll get out of five more years at these companies. Who promise upward mobility but can't seem to deliver on that, nor start me out at a respectable rate.
Oh, and of course my stepdad holds no advanced degrees and has never stayed at a single company for more than five years of his life. Yet he knows best, and how dare I think otherwise.
I'm probably just too frustrated right now but sometimes I ask why I even bothered if this was going to be the outcome? It's just slavery with extra steps.
>>474178>introvert, depressed, can't dance, don't know karate
Surprised a kek out of me
Anyway you don't have to be perfect to get a relationship, but it sounds like you're expecting to naturally fall into a meetcute romcom situation with that expectation for 'magnetic attraction'. Maybe that's realistic for 10/10s with busy social lives but the rest of us just have to go on tinder.
Trust your gut. They're creepy because they're creeps. People love the idea of little dolls who they can control and project their own wants and personalities onto. Babies and toddlers will be endlessly attached and satisfied over whatever scraps are thrown at them.
Older children and teenagers are more "difficult" because they demand shit like respect and recognition of their own wants and needs.
>>474185>meetcute romcom situation with that expectation for 'magnetic attraction'
That would be cute, but no
I know my best shot is through tinder, bumble, or any other slowly dying dating site that isn't tinder
I just wish that there was someone that I really enjoyed talking to to the point where I just knew it was someone I would end up wanting to spend a lot of time with–I just want it to click in to place where I just start feeling the right way about the right person
I've had it before, but it didn't turn into anything real
I want something real
So long as I'm financially dependent on him, anon. I noticed it was all a bit fucky recently, so we're getting professional help and if he's better by the time I can sustain myself then nice. Otherwise,yeah I'm done (I hope I can keep up that strength when it comes to making the final decision tbh).
I know it's a shitty place to be, but just venting.
Been there sadly. He paid the rent so he got to treat me like shit and make the anxiety problems that I already had- ten times worse
You would never dream of treating him the same way cos he holds the power of money over you.. maybe he resents the financial situation but he is also using that power to mistreat you
I hope you find a way out and that you keep some sanity, those games will drive you nuts the longer that they go on
You can't get mad at him for not feeling better because you wanted him to feel better–that's not fair and you can't make someone automatically feel better with a huge
I remember going through a depressive episode, my mom hugged me for 30 minutes straight and at the end she said "Well nevermind then, shit" because I didn't say anything once she was done
Are you being affectionate because you want him to feel better or are you being affectionate because you don't want to deal with his affection?
Because you shouldn't be considering sending him a fuck you text because his attitude wasn't fixed with a hug
If this wasn't a vent thread, I'd say "let him be mad, but if it lasts for a while that's when you need to talk"
I hope everything works out for you anon
I hope you actually tell him you're interested in being friends directly because I would say if he doesn't stick around he never actually wanted to be friends
If you're on the verge of panic attacks is it possible for you to move somewhere (back with parents maybe) so the intensity of his moods isn't impacting you so much. If you're waiting at home for him all day it's hard to get your mind off the situation. Sometimes if you have space you can see the situation clearer
This is exactly what I went through with an ex, he went on a ten day trip and I realised in his absence that such a weight had been lifted and I needed to end things. He would go to bed not talking to me, go to work not talking to me… my days revolved around wondering what I'd done wrong
>>474293>You can't get mad at him for not feeling better because you wanted him to feel better
Anon it's not about that, it's about his failure to communicate with her.
Ignoring someone and purposefully not communicating is passive aggressive behavior, not the actions of someone who communicated that they need space.
Equally you can't be mad at OP for not being a mind reader and who now is worried there's something wrong.
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I live in a uni dorm room with 2 other girls. One of them is okay, we're not friends but we can talk about our day for a little and then just coexist in the room. The other one is incredibly closed off and it makes the whole space so uncomfortable. She won't say hi, good morning, make small talk, nothing. I always feel like I'm intruding upon her even by asking how her day vent. It's not like I want us to be best friends but like… she flat out ignores my existence if I don't talk to her first. I think she acts the same with the other girl we live with. What should I do?
I've been spending less and less time in our room bc I feel uncomfortable and unwelcome there. Makes me a bit sad and annoyed…
Please don't feel bad anon! You can still try again. Driving is extremely scary (coming from someone too scared to even start lessons- like cmon, you want me to control this thousand pound DEATH MACHINE? no thanks), and at least you recognized what mistakes you made!
I wish you the best anon, I hope things can get better for you one day.
Oh I know it's shitty of him, that's why I'm just angry now and want this crush to be over and done with. I'm tired of being fucked around with by men. But it's like even though logically I know he doesn't care about me I still keep crushing?? And I don't know why since I know he's fucking around. I'm tired of it
The only thing I can think of is that my self esteem was lower than I originally thought it was lmao
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>work on a project onsite in a South Asian country with a bunch of other European colleagues organised in teams
>the teams are mostly male
>for the most part everything went great at first
>Coworker Andy from a different team suddenly starts hanging around my team because my guys like him
>all describe him as a "nice guy" and "gentle Viking"
>Andy for some reason refuses to talk to me personally, always pretends I'm not around and the most we exchange is cursory hellos, at times he would talk over me when I start to talk, bump into me and step on my foot because "he's so tall he can't see me", always looks pissed off
>He asks to be invited to my team's WhatsApp group even though it's just for us and he doesn't belong there and the guys accept him, I agree because I didn't want to be a bitch
>Andy ends up being the most annoying, stereotypical Redditor stereotype, always a smart ass, referring to his gf as "the gf" or "the missus" and making cringy reddit tier jokes
>Andy is always mildly rude towards me and today in our own group he asks me why I'm always "so moody" when I was just making a joke that I've made a billion times before around my team
>Andy, meanwhile, is always pissed off at something and always telling someone off and acting like everyone's dad
But wait, there's more
>Andy's teammate, Bob, also starts hanging around us
>Bob is extremely creepy: never talks, always stares holes through you, looks sloppy and ungroomed and kinda on the older side, will just silently stand up and follow you when you leave
>Bob suddenly starts hanging around my team, asks me to go on a field trip with us, I say sure
>On field trip he just quietly follows us, specifically me
>Next day I go to the beach with my teammates to take photos and move away from the group, he comes over and stands behind me not saying a word
>at random times he says things like "I can hold you if you like" if I'm going down some rocks to the water and really insists on spending time with me
>later asks me out for lunch and asks what I'm doing next weekend, I turn him down
>still fucking sits next to me on a bus or at our table and tries to make conversation
>just found out I'll go to the same area as him for a separate project
There's just something very unnerving about this guy and I want him away from me.
I wanna go home so bad and I hate it here.
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>mfw someone from here took one of my posts word for word and used it to post on reddit for the updoots and I still don't know how to feel about it or if it's happened before
a similar thing happened with me where I became very uncomfortable around an uncle of mine from an early age. I also changed from carefree to being preoccupied with feeling that adult men weren't to be trusted/did bad things.
what your uncle did was disgusting and I'm sorry you went through that.>>474021
idk if either of you two anons have access to this but there is a type of therapy called EMDR that can help sometimes recover repressed memories if that is something you think would help you. I've had a few sessions of this with memories of my uncle (with a therapist) and found it incredibly stressful/didn't complete it (the guilt I felt was overwhelming since I have no proof he hurt me) but for others it can really help with trauma, even the buried kind. idk just a suggestion
But at the same time, that is a type of non-verbal communication
It'd be one thing if this was ongoing, but it sounds like he just had a rough day
I'm not mad at OP and it doesn't sound like her boyfriend is mad at OP
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I agreed to some work and i feel it in my bones i am going to get screwed over, i hope not because i need the money for the Christmas season. Problem is i agreed to be bargained for a lower fee than usual on the initial stage, i worked for the client before and it was okay, but if the client bails and only pays me for the first stage of the project i would have wasted my time being ripped off, i would be pissed off at myself for falling for the oldest bait in the book knowingly just because i am broke and have no more work incoming.
I am at the very bottom , i just want to be able to afford a few decent meals for a change and maybe some booze and cigarretes for my lonely miserable christmas.
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my stomach always hurts so bad. it’s been like this for 4 years. and the doctors don’t care, months between appointments and they just tell me to take supplements that don’t work
already tried doing different diets and stuff. happens even when I don’t eat anything
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Anon I’m sorry it was me I posted it bc it really resonated with everything I went trough I’m so sorry it wasn’t for the updoots I promise [if it’s the rN] post i also can delete it if you want to
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anything and everything related to social media makes me wanna kms
i'd be more accepting if people were honest about it being a trend and they are doing it as a matter of personal choice, not "i am totally the other gender now gayz, speshul rights, this is who i really am form birth" . No, its just a lifestyle you chose, like being emo or being a tattoed biker or being part of a church, like anything else, having the freedom to do something to yourself doesn't mean universal reality is altered around your dumb ideas.
On that topic, i respect someone who gets a tatoo and can admit it was a cosmetic thing they did because its their bodies and thats it, is no one elses problem, rather than go on a ramble about how much of a deep meaning it has and how profound a statement it was to get that catrina on your shoulder. Who gives a crap, its not an issue if you want to alter your appearence into whatever just think its cool, acting pretentious about it only makes it more vane and shallow somehow. I guess everyone is a different unique individual with the soul of a tortured missunderstood artist in their own fantasy world.
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I would love to be this butch, tough dyke but alas I remain a soft , short as fuck femme. It just angers me, I am like a lesbian manlet for fucks sake.
maybe try saving up if possible and making little arrangements beforehand. I think you could possibly pull it off as long as you're an adult. Rooting for your escapist ass, nonny
Yes, I agree entirely. Skimmed that thread a little more and the rest of them are claiming to be things like 80% straight or maybe bi now as well while being in long term straight relationships (another kettle of fish I don't wish to debate here or anywhere)
Trans is absolutely an identity that anyone has a right to take up, like being a goth, hippy, investment banker or anything else. It just is a heavily loaded identity that comes packed with transphobia-related legislation. You don't get arrested for shouting insults at a goth, but you do if you write a "transphobic" Tweet.
I really should make a thread, like I said I don't wanna muck it up. Will harbor these thoughts for later.
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well shit. first of all, i've been drinking so my apologies to anyone who has to read this. but i just finally got access to an old email, one i've been too stupid to remember the password to for about 7 years. finally figured out the recovery email, got into that one and then got into babbys first email. i went through the sent box to see if anyone had gotten into it and out of curiosity. found a weird email to myself i didn't remember, with a .doc attachment. opened it to find the suicide bait/note my ex wrote me. it brought back a lot of shit for me. he wrote it in the middle of the night, said i was sleeping next to him, having a nightmare when he was writing how he didn't love me and wanted to kill himself. idk if i read it all the way through when i found it, just instinctively emailed it to myself and packed my shit and ghosted. thank fucking god i did too, rereading it is like reading a fucking onion book. the whole thing is like 'i'm so much smarter than everyone and yet i still want to die. and if i do kill myself it'll be your fault and here's why… i only love you sometimes.' jfc i can't believe i wasted my life thinking he was the one that got away, when that boy was a god damn tard. i'm sure he's very much alive somewhere feeling just as miserable as he always was, probably emotionally abusing the shit out of whatever girl he knocked up. who would've thought that four page suicide note would someday make me feel so thankful to have gotten the fuck away from that manipulative moron.
I love that moment when you realize the person you admire/love ain't shit. Such relief for them to provide their own evidence for being an asshole and you don't have to waste energy caring about them no more.
>I only love you sometimes
Such edge! Such depth!
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I started putting a bunch of my stuff online to sell, starting with clothes. I’m not a hoarder but being stuck with all of my belongings in a single room is making me tired of feeling crowded all the time. It just kind of sucks because in “normal” circumstance it would be fine to have what I own…like my aunt converted an entire bedroom into her closet space and I’m nowhere at that level.
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i started following the ana-chan discussion on /snow/ a while ago and now my ED has relapsed. I don't want to make any effort to fix it because honestly? I'm a fatass.
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I'm the same. I live at home and all of my belongings are in my small bedroom. I keep all of my toiletries in there too cause we have a very small bathroom for 4 people. there's no space.
a good tip I found for making the most of a small space is taking advantage of the verticality of the room, like with shelves, a tall bookcase or tall set of drawers. also putting things on top of those pieces of furniture. boxes for under bed storage too.
it's good that you're downsizing a little too though, hope people buy your stuff! may we both have more space for our things in the future
same anon, I just moved into a place with relatively small square footage but like 15 ft ceilings. I'm a shortarse so high shelves are gonna be a pain, but it's the obvious way to go. I can always use a stepladder.
I'm trying to get rid of a lot of stuff anyway cos I feel like owning things is becoming a bit of a burden. I have too many books so I'm trying to take a couple of bags to the charity shop every time I can, but as I sort through them it's getting harder to let them go. And I have a bunch of clothes from when I was thinner that I can't bring myself to donate even though they take up space - some stupid part of me thinks I might still lose the weight. I think I might have to bite the bullet and just do a full KonMari.
>see a therapist about my crushing pain and inaction
>she's an older woman, cool, maybe she will be comforting
>she introduces a concept of "child" and "adult" within
>cool, that seems applicable here
>"anon just let your adult side comfort your child side"
>okay, can I get some examples as this is a new concept and if I had all the adult things to say, I would say them
>do exercises where she feeds me lines to say to myself as the adult
>cooo, that feels embarrassing yet empowering, it's in me after all!
>therapist asks me to do homework, beginning with emailing her journaling
>do so, she doesn't refer to the emails in the next session, okay maybe it's not as central as I thought it would be to the process, let it go
>gives me more homework of listing child and adult phrases and responses
>try it in my own at home, can't conjure adult voice, say that in this week's email, move on
>ask therpaist for further guidence bc the homeowork isn't making sense and she's not been answering my emails in which I request clarification and guidence
>brushed aside again
>stop trying with the homework bc she hasn't brought it up at all and I'm confused as to whether I should even put effort into the homework if it's a throw away effort
>"anon ur not doing ur homework"
>yes I am! I sent it here email@example.com
>"oh ok must've missed it. Moving on…"
>next session "anon you're not doing your hw. If you want to get nything out of this you have to do it"
>o-okay but I've asked you a few times before how to conjure the adult voice, maybe we can go over it now?
>we do another exercise where I stand behind my chair and recite lines she's feeding me and tells me to forget about homework. I'm willing to do it, she just doesn't appear to want to teach it.
>one session she said to me
>anon I know you want me to be sweet, caring [her name]. I can see it in the way you tilt your head to the side.
>Didn't realize I was even doing that
>few sessions later
>asks me about homework
>"I was doing it but you told me to stop bc I was confused"
>"no I didn't"
>"you can look! I sent at least 5 assignments to you!"
>"no you didn't. If you don't take this seriously I will have to terminate you as a patient"
>feel like I'm 8 years old talking to my dad who doesn't listen
>oh god, I'm in trouble. What did I do wrong to anger [therapist]??
>she's not listening! No way to escape! You are a piece of shit!
>"I…think….I'm having… a panic…. attack!"
>smugly I think you are too.
>fast forward a few years, accept the whole thing as a misunderstanding, forget how much effort I did put into making the homework right.
>find old emails in sent box, including the hw emails
>long emails in which I am eager to learn, following instructions, and even just loosely journalling to fill in on days I felt lost with the curriculum
Afraid not, I‘m in a foreign country, removed from family and friends, there‘s no room for me there now anyway. Yeah I had that experience when for a couple of days I regularly met up with people who liked the same stuff I do, and I was like "oh shit, I feel normal, and what I normally feel actually isn‘t alright". It‘s so strange what you get used to when it‘s just bit by bit.>>474293
I did want him to feel better in general, I could‘ve just ignored it and he‘d have went about his day. He does have a huge problem with not communicating if something‘s up, and sometimes it‘ll build up for months, then he‘ll be quiet for a day and if I stay distant and give space, he‘ll blow up about the problems (that until then I didn‘t know were wrong) and I‘ll be super upset because the relationship feels in jeopardy, coming from (to me) nowhere. And if I pretend nothing‘s wrong and act cheery I can maybe bring him back from the ledge. Actually talking about it before the blowup is always impossible, even though I KNOW something is very wrong.
So in the past him going quiet has been BAD for me and I just dread seeing him again.
Thanks everyone for the affirmation btw, this is very isolating.
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>>474584>and it made me realize that I don't miss HIM
no love for HIM :csage for autism
Is she just chillin' with a crocodile like it's a dog?
People are giving money to the wrong people, evidently
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As soon as I saw “National Period Day” on Twitter, I knew I would see little to nothing on period disorders. Or menstrual huts. Or the lack of resources causing girls in poor areas to be unable to attend school while menstruating. Or homeless women being unable to access supplies.
I KNEW it would be nothing but trans shit / not all ppl who have periods are women uwu crap and I was right.
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I have a huge crush on this guy I'm talking to on tinder right now, i'm sure it won't go anywhere since guys tend to ghost me on this app but I'm trying to telepathically tell him that I will indeed buss it wide open if he asked…not sure if he's getting my hints tho
Then what do you think the problem was? Why did he ignore you? Do you think you might have done something subconscious that made the situation weird or perhaps you were unable to read the situation well because of your lack of social skills?
Keep working on your social skills, I used to have terrible social skills and social anxiety but I've improved a lot over the years to the point I'm regarded as one of the more sociable people when in a group of people, and not the "quiet one". The trick for me was to mimic people who have good social skills. It'll be undeniable uncomfortable but it will 100% pay off in the end.
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>meet perfect boy, we get along and have lots in common, he may even be into me
>he's religious and wants to get buff
So close and yet so far. I doubt his religion would let us date and I'd stop being attracted to him within the year anyway ahaha…oh boy.
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Different focal lengths can definitely effect how you look in pictures. That's why you may look cute in the mirror but dread pictures; "lens distortion" from the camera can be at play.
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I had a dream yesterday about this guy back home. It felt realistic but I kept telling everyone "I don't remember the plane ride" so that kind of set me off in the dream. Anyways, he was so excited to see me. More affectionate and romantic than overly sexual. It felt so sweet until he said "Anon don't leave again! I missed you, I just love you so much." And I freaked out lol. I'm not certain if I will actually meet up with him when I come back. Our relationship is so confusing. I think I miss him though.
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I feel so fucking inadequate. I dont want to eat or leave the house and I know Im overreacting like a child.
Yesterday, my boyfriend and his childhood friends and I got together to play this board game and to drink. Some point in we all got quite inebriated and one of his friends brought up how my boyfriend absolutely adores big-tit blondes. My bf kinda loses his shit and couldn’t even look at me in this moment. He just curled into a ball and said “why would you say that” under his breath to which his friend responded “well, it’s true. ive known you since elementary. just exposed you!
Now… I’m an extremely flat-chested asian girl with dark hair.
My boyfriend always loved huge huge breasts and all of that. Blonde white girls and whatnot and it just makes me feel so fucking disgusting and miserable. I will never be what he wants. He is just settling for me. if he could, he’d go get a big tit white girl but he cant. I’m pathetic and feel like ill always always always feel inadequate in this relationship.
I feel like my insecurity will eventually drive us to break up. I hate myself.
Anon this is a tough one and I've been there too. Hilariously I am a big titted blonde and my ex bf liked petite Asian girls. Everyone has their sexual preferences but there is SO much more to a relationship than physical appearance.
Men are gross and I'll tell you something: they like ALL kinds of girl. They imagine fucking every type of girl there is. Because they are men. As long as your bf makes you feel loved and special (which I doubt or this wouldn't have even bothered you) then who cares. What a man finds breathtakingly beautiful is different to what he wants to jam his dick in.
He said nothing. I went home later in the night like I heard nothing and I havent brought it up since. I sort of want to talk about it but I hate making myself look more insecure than I already am. I guess he couldnt shut it down because its obviously true. >>474965
Yeah, I think this a lot too. Whats the point if I’m not what he wants? If a girl like that comes his way… why would he even stay with me. Theres been a case one time where a girl in that description flirted with him at work. He lied to me that he told her that he had a gf. Whatever. >>474966
I can see that too. Of course it’s not as if he’s not attracted to me whatsoever… but the thought of him staring at other women and me constantly holding some sort of resentment is really gonna hurt. He doesnt really take the effort to tell me how he’s attracted to me physically so it definitely adds to the wound.
I know for dudes it's different and I'm not trying to wk for your nigel but if his friends have known him a really long time they might be picking on him for that childish phase where you feel like you even have a type at all.
I know in late middle school hs if anyone talked to me about dating it would be like well known I liked/dated super skinny tall guys or w/e (just an example not true lol). Someone meeting my bf now might be surprised he's shorter/heavier but I don't think he's unattractive I just stopped nitpicking and grew up lmao. Or my tastes evolved. w/e.
They might just be teasing him for being cringy and it might have nothing to do with you at all is what i'm saying. Maybe he thought that was cool and his "thing" in the past and got over it.
On the other side I've usually dated guys who I was their "type" but when they were shitty they'd just replace me with a younger/hotter/edgier model or w/e. So it didn't help in all honesty it made me distance myself from stuff I loved so I'd stop feeling in competition with other women I liked.
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I'm so god damn tired of being a depressed piece of shit. I hate going between "get over it and get your shit together" and "take care of yourself, mental illnesses are real" in my brain. The constant push and pull is exhausting, and I don't feel like it will ever get better. Can't put myself out of my misery because I'd feel too guilty for putting my loved ones through that, but living is suffering…someone kill me already
i hate the babying of those with mental disabilities. i see so many people seethe when someone rightfully tells someone with a mental disability no or questions their actions to their face, like please. treat them like a normal person, that's all they want to be seen as.
there's this group of people in my town who love babying this man in his mid 40s because he's a little slow, but he's a grown man with an apartment and a job. recently, he's been asking people on facebook for free stuff for his girlfriend while showing off things he bought. someone told him "you could've used the money you had for this for your girlfriend's shoes…" and people went CRAZY on this woman. telling her she's a sick person lmao. i mean, it's entertaining to see these people flock but holy shit.>>474971
fuck your parents, anon. it's not your job to clean up their messes. look after yourself, you are your priority. i think your quality of life will definitely increase when you get into a cleaner house too.
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Woke up at 7pm (I work nights), which was like 2 hours later than intended and it was pitch black , felt upsetti, decided to go see joker, partially due to the thirst posts over on /g/, managed to do that (1st time I've been to cinema on my own!), somehow maybe that was a bad idea as it made me very upset and sad about being completely alone in the world and using online "stalking" to get some sense of belonging, went to McDs to get something edible as grocery stores were already closed, went home full on ugly crying while clutching my McDs bag, ate nuggies and watched dumb youtube shit until I fell asleep on the sofa, slept full 6 hours with contacts in instead of intended nap (like I had literally just slept 9 hours, thought my body would have just a wink), wake up at 5 am, it is still dark, eyes kinda burning, heart full of regretti and I can't even feel accomplished for going to cinema on my own.
5/10, the fries were undercooked.
>>475070>I feel insensitive, but at the same time I feel like I have a right to be able to handle the situation in my own way since this is the first time anything like this has ever happened to me.
wtf anon, it's HIS mom. Unless you were close with her it's not 'happening to you', it's happening to him. You should be helping him however you can, considering he is the one dealing with more severe grief and more complex emotions.
Also read this https://www.psychologytoday.com/au/blog/promoting-hope-preventing-suicide/201705/ring-theory-helps-us-bring-comfort-in
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i was excited to make my first art process video, i was gonna up the speed , edit it and put music and all, but ended up wasting two hours drawing and once i stopped recording Camstasia errored me and it didn't save anything. Just end me.
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>order phone online that advertises that all their phones are compatible with my country's networks (store is based in my country, too)
>instead receive US T-mobile locked phone
That fucks anons. It really does.
Is there no way to recover it? Camtasia is so expensive I thought maybe they would have support that could locate your files.
Fuck my entire life, the customer service dude said it will be done in 10 working days max, which would put me 2 days past the deadline and, knowing my luck, it most certainly will
take 10 days. Guess this is time to embrace my fear of going tot he uni library then. At least it should be free unless they find signs of ~damage~ but like I have been treating it like a fragile Victorian child and haven't dropped it even once so that shouldn't happen. I'm so upset lol
There's lots of people there and I'm kinda retarded about being alone in busy public spaces, especially ones chiefly occupied by people my age. Maybe this is a chance to exposure therapy my dumb ass.>>475190
I will, am no going to type it on my phone, that's bit much even for me kek. Fingers crossed it will be less busy in the evenings!
Expose yourself until you are comfortable >>475227
Yet you are here I’m sure you aren’t a normie
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It was me, and I'm going to do it again. Try and stop me.
sweat off faggot hahahahahaha oh my god what are you>>475265>>475271oof
sure dad i'll take your advice for sure. which is what, go dark or use a throwaway like this coward cunt? way to miss the point you joke.
You have no one to blame but yourself.
You should know that when visiting these types of sites you are supposed to be as anonymous as possible and not let anyone figure out who you are in real life.
The fact that you let another anon find your identity just proves you are dumb and shouldn't use imageboards.
Also atleast now you know how other cows feel like here. kek
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hi Lori you absolute fucking waterbrain cunt>>475371
kek all you want faggot I'm right
I was giving you constructive criticism (but no point in trying to educate a moron)
I also dont follow any threads on /w so i have no idea whats going on but if you are going to act like a larpy bitch then i hope you get trolled more.
Its no ones fault that you are a newfag.
nah she just outed herself posting in her own thread lmao.>>475375
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Stinkygami EXPOSED and BTFO! How will she ever recover?
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Who is this horrorgami person and why am i sensing that a thread will be made about her lol.
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>Hearing people go on and on about political ideas really is driving me into a rage
>I went to listen to a libertarian talk today and I really lost it
It's IRL jackass not imaginary autistic social boundaries written by online spergs where you have to deal with everything you go in because the internet says so, faggot.
maybe the anon just got triggered
into remembering what they thought originally, damn nigga, people ain't that black and white.
That's a good question. I actually really like politics and I spend a good time reading about them on my own. I also feel like I should be openminded into hearing other people's political ideologies instead of being stuck in my bubble. I'm also into some libertarian ideas like freedom of speech.
I just realized now I can't really stand hearing other people talk about politics in real life. I think people sound so smug. For example, I support freedom of speech and think people can be too sensitive sometimes, but the lady at the talk at the talk was so smug about how everyone who is offended should just grow up. She really rubbed me the wrong way. And then the guy at the talk was talking about how all the government should be dismantled while enjoying a cozy life that is supported by the government. And they were all being hysterical babies about how cigarette taxes and public bans on smoking was like Stalinism or something and all of their freedoms were going to be taken away.
I think I will stick to academic political talks where there's less moralizing and more data. >>475405>maybe the anon just got triggered into remembering what they thought originally,
I'm not sure what you mean here? Explain?
didn't mean to sound like I'm shitting on them, it was a genuine question>>475407>I think I will stick to academic political talks where there's less moralizing and more data.
this is how I consume my politics these days, it takes the emotion out if the equation so I'm less likely to get frustrated
I meant what you just explained. That you realized you didn't like something after it happened. Triggered
was a weird word to use, sorry lol
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My friend from across the world just sent me an audio messaged telling me how much she loves me and it couldn't have come at a better time. Had lots of silly dark thoughts, it's been a tough year and it just made me glad I stuck it out.
yes i do like her we really get along. we never really argue ever other than small sister things. thank you this really helps>>475429
there isn't really any other context, we just had a huge argument. i'm not diagnosed with anything but i do have kinda schizotypal tenancies when i'm feeling extremely bad about something like i do now, paranoia just goes into full effect for no reason…
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Some girl in my class tried to debate on how the USA and USSR are simaler because both begin with US. She wasn't joking at all.
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I don't think I'm okay. I told myself this would be my year, this would be my opportunity to meet good friends.
I just feel tired, I want to go home. I shouldn't have left my house at all, I thought everything was going to be different here, but it's the same all over again. I've been here just for one month, but it feels like years.
People talk to me, but I know they think I'm just a happy-go-lucky type of person. I always put on this manic pixie girl facade when I meet new people. I cringe at myself, but I cant help it. Even so, forcing myself to be extroverted and social isn't working at all. I know people just talk to me because they are bored and want me to entertain them. I hate when they hype me up with compliments and attention, just to cast me aside the next day in order to talk to other genuine extroverted people.
I'm not going to make any friends. I'm really not okay. I wish I could think about other things, but my mind is spiralling so hard I can't sleep. I feel like shit. I would commit suicide if my family didn't exist. I miss them so much and I feel disgusted at myself for feeling miserable when I know other people have worse problems than mine.
I just wish people would care about me. I wish they would listen to me. I know we got to meet each other just a month ago but I can't help but feel like they're using me. My last and only group of friends did that to me, so now I get paranoid everytime I meet new people.
Will they use me or will they care about me?
I know it will always be the former. I just wish I could give zero fucks.
To anyone who managed to read this nonsense, I hope you have a nice day/night. I wish you happiness.
hi anon, I enjoyed reading your post. I hope you don't put too much pressure on yourself trying to be an extroverted and upbeat person. How far are you from home?
I came to this thread to post about my own antisocial / social failure nonsense; I'm living in asia temporarily and somehow it's not much worse than the no friends situation back at home- that it's more impossible to make friends makes it easier to deal with somehow. Does it help to think - "What would I even want to do out in the world with friends"? Limiting my envy to the realms of conversation and trust makes it less of a pain.
thank you so much anon, I hope you're right and everything turns out good. My mother also told me not to force myself and just focus on my things/routine, but it's hard when I feel alone. I have this need to find someone whom I can rely on, but I guess both of you are right. I'll try to work on it. Right now I don't want to meet more people because I think I have enough with my classmates and the people that live with me at the dorm. Maybe in the future, when my mental health improves.>>475461
hi! I'm glad you felt identified with my post. I'm 600 miles away from home, but I don't know anyone in this city and I can't go back home til Christmas. It's the first time being alone by myself, I've spent all my life glued to my family and seeing the same people for almost 15 years. But your situation is "worst" than mine in the sense you are a foreigner.
Regarding your strategy, I don't think it would work for me. I can hang out with people, but as I said, I feel like I'm just an entertainment and I want to be more than that.
Thank you so much for your posts, I really appreciate your words!
I broke down and confronted him last night and asked him why two unrelated women have warned me about him being a fucking rapist, he denies everything. My friends did not back me up as they ''did not know what to say''
I feel so alone and crazy in this confrontation, this guy is going to forget all about people knowing hes a rapist and go back to a life of sucess. He has a sucessful music career, a loving girlfriend and a rich family who finance his fucking music- meanwhile his victims
have to read about him in our local papers, have classmates praise him and his band and just live with the fact their rapist is much like every other fucking scrote, gonna get away scott free after causing such harm.
That's fair. I didn't make it clear.
I'd like to be someone who is fair and open minded to different political ideologies. But I think it's hard to do now when other people don't bother to put in the same level of effort and use their politics as an excuse to be smug. I guess maybe other see me as smug too.
>this is how I consume my politics these days, it takes the emotion out if the equation so I'm less likely to get frustrated
Do you have any suggestions?>>475410
I really was triggered
. I think the main speaker was annoying especially because of his talk on free speech so I asked if he was Jewish because he had a big nose. Then I gave him a big hug. Apparently it's fine for people to stand on the street shouting slurs all day but what I did is "aggression". lmao, libertarians are such whiny hypocrites
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For someone who is alone almost 24/7, I'm really quite bad at being alone. I've been pretty isolated from around 2-3 months now and I still desire connection with others and close friends. A relationship too, even though I know that's pretty pathetic. I don't find solitude in being alone like others do. Do I just have to wait to get used to it? Or am I hopeless?
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i just learned that the guy i liked used me to make someone else jealous haha how are u doing?
Fuck that guy. Anon, move on and don't give him a second thought. >>475689
Are you isolating yourself out of necessity? You can always try to make online friends.
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>ended a toxic friendship with a close friend i had exactly a year ago
>literally took me this whole year to get over it and reflect on how bad it was
>come to find out she's been pulling the same shit with a new close friend
>can’t warn any of our other friends because she twists the story to make herself the victim + many of them suck up to her
i will say though that it feels like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders talking about what she's done and being able to joke about it with new friend.
same boat I think, I was into weeb shit way before the concept of being an internet weeb was a thing. Now I just can't get into it and I'm unironically just seeking a "normie" life. I feel like I'm just too old for this already. Problem is, my SO and people around me are still weebs and I just can't walk away from it as much as I want to.
Although, I'm not fond of clubbing and all that other social shit. I think I'm at that point where I want quietly live somewhere with a cat.
Anon my bfs family is the same as yours. Urine from animals soaking shit, cigarette smell, garbage, no one cleans, no one works. He was the only one besides his mom that had a job and he was incredibly unhappy. I convinced him to move in with me and he didn't want to because he felt obligated to take care of them even though he was nearing thirty years old. I can tell you that now that he's moved out he is very happy and has a great life. He takes care of himself, lost weight, has money and time for himself, and most importantly he doesn't spend all of his free time depressed and shit posting online. When he goes home now he says how depressing it is and how he never wants to move back. I think it's the best thing he ever did for his own mental health and well-being. Don't let your parents drag you down the way his did; you'll be so much more whole and alive when you get away from the toxic
environment your family has placed you in.
I finally cut my narc of a mother out. Since I was in high school she’s been this perpetual victim because things didn’t work out with my father (he was also very much of a dick, and abusive mentally and physically with her a few times)
and she started popping pills. I turned into her mom, and she’s about as worthless as they come now. My grandma foots her bills, cleans her yard, pays/organizes her repairs, and more. My grandma enables her, and I am sick of it.
My mom has been an actual cunt to me for so long, and expected me to be her emotional punching bag and maid for so long.
I cut her off, and she of course tried to manipulate me.
But at this point I just feel a lot of anger towards her, and I have lost sympathy for a lot of addicts after my experience with her. Which isn’t right, but I just don’t care. The abuse I’ve endured for years doesn’t go away.
I’m finally free of it.
Awesome job Anon, you deserve the freedom. Don't respond to any of her attempts to get a reaction out of you. She's might start to pretend to play dumb for a while, it's only a trick. Keep yourself in focus. You're a strong person.
I had to recently stop all communication with my family because of my narc mom so I understand what you're going through. My boyfriend had to deal with her antics for a few days and he literally felt like he was going crazy, just goes to show we're stronger than we think.
Thanks for that anon! The warning on mine says to not use for more than every two hours/over three days so I try my best to keep it to 2 days!
My nose is definitely feeling a bit better now, less runny but just a little more congested, but I'll take that over a leaky nose!
I feel you. I weigh 75kg at 170cm of height but I can't seem to lose the weight even though I ration my portions. Anyone who looks at me probably thinks I eat pizzas a lot but I don't. I eat healthy because I like and I do feel healthy, it's just that it's not reflected on me. If I go to the doctor, she tells me eat soups and veggies, move more etc. Oh, yeah, I had no idea I had to eat light to lose weight. So I've counted religiously my cal intake, because I know people say, well you're probably not aware of how much you eat. Even if I eat approximately 1000cal daily, I still remain the same. The crazy thing is if I eat 1600cal - 1800cal, I also remain the same. It's like I'm stuck. The scale doesn't budge much. It's such a fucking mystery to me. My brothers used to mock me for being fat but they've seen me struggle and even during celebrations and family events I just pass on food and drinks. Yet they remain slim and I'm the one that's the fat sheep of the family.
It's not my main issue but I hate being the fatty in my group. I don't enjoy going out, I don't enjoy life because I just feel so gross. I can't stand looking at myself in the mirror. I hate going shopping. Nothing fits my pudgy body. And then you have people that tell you to just eat less. If I have to eat less than 800cal to lose weight, seriously what's the point? There's no way to maintain that. And I'm not aiming to become super skinny, just dropping 5-10kgs.
if you eat 800 cal to lose weight then go back to eating normally what you eat you won't gain, just maintain.
You are eating maintenance level now, which means your metabolism is probably a bit on the slower side? Im not particularly active but i maintain at 1700.
right. it's so frustrating having some dumb bitch tell you to just eat less ! :)
like no shit, it's clearly not working. i find girls are the worst about it, at least men are too retarded and just blame female hormone body voodoo and run. even other fat women are like well you should just like idk eat less????? i eat a lot teehee but could drop it if i wanted to xPPP
imagine being WILLINGLY like this fuck. people who don't try and still succeed or succeed with the tiniest amount of effort drive me crazy
My Mum is a borderline hoarder- she’s always internet shopping, and never getting rid of stuff. I say borderline because its not at the point of crawling across stuff or anything, I have a routine to upkeep areas of the house to be habitable. But I hate living around piles of stuff everywhere, clothes that never get washed, mountains of paperwork, toys from my childhood she can’t bear to give away. On the other hand, she’s the type of person to watch Hoarder tv shows, turn to me and laugh “Just shoot me if I ever get that bad!” She’s convinced that everything she keeps is worth something, she’s going to make a profit when she resells it online! But I know her, she will never, ever go to the bother of selling any of her shit. I try and sort through items with her, and she gets gradually frustrated and starts snapping at me, to the point where I’m literally in angry tears and have to not be in her company. She gets agitated and says ‘I know I’m like a hoarder, but at least I keep nice things. It’s my house and my money- I can do what I want with it’
I can’t stand it. It puts such a strain on the relationship between her and my Dad. It feels as if she loves her piles of shit more than she loves us. It’s embarrassing that I could never invite friends over, or we couldn’t have family gatherings. I feel like I’m becoming a neat freak cause I barely keep anything of my own now. I don’t know, I’m just tired of it.
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god i'm so sick of being a kissless handholdless virgin I'm so tempted to just lose my virginity to some random on tinder so I can stop giving a shit about it. I'm 22, I feel pathetic. I'm not even that uggo I'm just a fucking sperg.
One of my coworkers is such a snooty ass bitch I can't stand her ugh.
We were talking about rent and housing prices at lunch today, one other girl and I are relatively fresh out of college and still haven't moved out yet. We live in NYC so rent prices are exorbitant and we were all just sort of complaining about that. This snooty co-worker was saying how she was planning on moving to some neighborhood a while ago and figured it was nice since there were a lot of new developments and modern buildings in the area. She went to visit and said that she didn't want to live there anymore because, I kid you not, "it wasn't gentrified enough yet, there were still so many ghetto people" and said in probably a few years it'd be nicer.
I'm so fucking dumbfounded because why in the fucking world would you want more gentrified neighborhoods? I live in a decent, very immigrant populated, neighborhood and it's so fucking sad to see shitty new luxury buildings being built left and right and driving up rent like crazy. It sucks to see all the places I loved as a kid shuttered up their windows because they can't afford the insane prices to stay. It fucking sucks!! Housing is already insane and you want it to become more expensive??
We were talking about another apartment related thing and she said "yeah but for that price it probably wouldn't come with a dishwasher or washer/dryer…" Like uhhh, sorry that you can't bother to wash your dishes by hand or go to a laundromat? That's a luxury, not a necessity.
She also frequently makes this very rude comments about where I live like "oh wow anon! I can't imagine living in your neighborhood! It's so dangerous!" Like yeah, it's not fucking Tokyo and there are some shifty characters around, but it's not like there are crips and blood members crowding the streets or other people walking with guns out in the open. It's mostly just innocent immigrant families hustling their way to survive and minding their own damn business! I see more families and small children out and about than I do someone who looks like the caricature of a hoodlum that she thinks my neighborhood is crawling with!
Sorry had to delete my original post because I thought the wording was fucky haha, but yes!
She complained once about some black people around her apartment and said "they were probably up to no good!" Like fuck bitch, maybe they were just waiting for a friend? I'd have a bit more sympathy (I get suspicious looking randos outside my building sometimes too) if she wasn't so blatantly racist all the time anyway and screams the exact same thing about any person with skin darker than a sheet of fucking paper.
What are the fantasies? Maybe they are more common and normal than you think.
Also, if you saw pornographic material as a child, see a therapist if possible, it was probably traumatizing in a way
Your mum is literally my dad. He buys so much junk, I want to fucking take away the internet from him. There's so much small, unnecessary useless and cheap shit to very, very expensive stuff like luxury watches, bags, and jewelry. He goes on this stupid auction website and I hate it so much. He always says "Well it's actually XYZ cost and I only got it for ABC" while ABC cost is still like $600. He recently discovered Facebook marketplace and it's driving me and my mum up the fucking wall. My mum takes care of all the expenses while my dad just charges shit to his card and I know it financially stresses her out, and he has the audacity to ask me to help her out financially when hes the one putting all this strain on her
. I would
help, but why should I if the money I give her is just going to fund his next stupid purchase? I want to help, I want my mum to not be stressed and worried over finances, but I don't want to indirectly fund his purchases! He throws shitfits all the time like a fucking manchild so my mum won't take away his credit cards. He gives my mum his whole paycheck as if that absolves him of all financial responsibility. I love my dad but I wish he would fucking stop.
22 is not even old. I know gorgeous girls who lost it after 23-24 because they were looking for the right person.
Also sex is overrated and the first time is probably the worst time because you don't really know what you like yet, as sex feels very different from (and often not as good as) getting yourself off.
Try to meet new people but don't just do it with a rando, if anything just to spare yourself a bad experience.
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pokemon go sperg reporting back, this time I managed to trail my towns poke go group successfully and snagged that darkrai!! weird smudge is editing out messenger bubble lol, anyways, my 1st t5 raid poke!
dreams do come true gals!
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Why is everyone so fucking rude? I went to the bio lab at the community college I'm dual enrolled in and I wasn't sure if a class was in session. So I asked, the person at the front desk told me "Well, all the classes take their bio sessions here", how tf does that answer my question? I'm not familiar with shit at this school tf? That should be obvious since I was asking a question. Anyway, the guy in charge came in and I asked him about the job, he told me "Did you apply", I didn't realize that there was an option to apply since it wasn't clearly listed there. He told me that there was an option, so I told him I came in to make sure it was still available since some of the jobs were dated far back. Also the hours wasn't listed, he told me only morning slots were available that last 8-12, so I noped out of there. They should list the damn hours so I didn't need to go through all that shit, could've spent that time studying.
This is pretty minor compared to what the rest of you guys are going through tho. Just had to vent!
I wish I could stop making mountains out of molehills :( I'm so obsessive
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I'm gay, but recently I feel more and more desperate for being loved to the point I started thinking about switching my tinder to guys for a while.
I know I won't be sexually attracted to a guy. It's so hopeless.
Just go to a lesbian event you aren’t the only desperate lesbian and even amberlin Reid got a gf
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I have this strong desire to go into a STEM career but honestly I'm not smart enough. I excelled at math and science when I was younger but now it feels like my brain has just switched and I can barely do basic math. Even my speech is shit and I can't talk without sounding like a stroke patient. My mom (who is a nurse) jokes I might have brain damage but honestly I think I might from how I always drool on myself, I'm basically a fucking brainlet. I want to go into STEM but also I'm terrified of the amount of trans women. I was raped by a trans woman 4 years ago and I still have severe PTSD and flashbacks from it, and it's effecting my relationship with my boyfriend now. I feel like my brain is just stunted from what happened 4 years ago and I'm going backwards in life because I've been a NEET for over a year now. I wish I could start my life over and go into a STEM career (I would want to go into chemistry or biology).
Have you heard of programs like ADA. ADA allows tw
(at least in theory I see very few on their promo material) unfortunately but I've seen other female only programs.
I feel you. Been there. We out here making female only STEM spaces.
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I had to have my cat that I’ve had through my whole childhood put down last year because she was suffering from kidney failure. A few months ago my iPod that had all of my pictures of her on it broke and I feel like I’ve been on a downward spiral since and I just feel so fucking stupid
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Idk how to come to terms with the fact that I will never have a bf that's as good looking as my ex bf. My ex bf was everything I wanted physically in a man (extremely beautiful feminine anime-like face, around my height, muscular, full head of soft black hair, pale skin, youthful), men like him are very rare. He was severely mentally ill and I just couldn't get past that, but I still sometimes feel salty that I'll likely never meet (much less date) a man as attractive as him.
Wow I'm going through this right now too anon and reading this made me not feel so alone. My ex was so awful as a person I don't even miss him but I am constantly hurting over how I know he'll be who I compare every new guy to. My type is also very rare and I hate how impossible it feels that I'll find another man I'm fully attracted to who also fulfills my specific kinks like my ex did.
Despite our tastes being rare, I hope we find another someone of our special types who fulfills us in every way one day.
>>476154> the amount of trans women
You realize that irl trans people are extremely rare, right? I go to the largest tech university in my country, which is located in an extremely liberal city. Still haven't seen a single trans woman there. There are some masc female students and teachers tho. But still, not a single trans woman or otherwise feminine male.
Outside of that, i also know dozens of people in various stem fields, who also don't know a single trans woman.
The only trans women i've ever seen irl were full time sex workers.
Just get into stem. You can still quit if you don't feel comfortable. Don't let the thought of trans women ruin your dream.
Don’t be so hard on yourself, anon. I had to experience this with a close friend and it fucked me up completely since I was a teenager. All the time I felt guilty and annoying, wondering if people liked me or were only pretending.
Truth is no matter how you are and the things you do, if someone doesn't like you that won't change anything. Making a list of the things she doesn't like about you seems childish and petty. A true friend would never make someone feel not worth it of their time / friendship.
No, I haven't, but I'll definitely look into that thank you for the suggestion anon!>>476268
Thank you anon, that's probably a good idea honestly. Originally I wanted to get into programming and coding but /g/ kind of scared me off from that [stupid I know].>>476326
Yeah that's true, it's probably just me being scared and having my own bias. Thanks anon.
>>476154> I wish I could start my life over and go into a STEM career (I would want to go into chemistry or biology).
1. there's no trannies in STEM, it's a 4chan meme
2. there's even fewer outside CS, like in chemistry and biology which are fields with a lot of women
That's super annoying. I dealt with this and similar issues in my relationship too. What worked for me was being calm and rational and setting a good example with my behavior in those types of situations. Then I move on. Eventually he realizes that he's the only one left acting angry/weird/crazy and he follows my example for how to behave.
Sometimes people just don't know how to initiate any type of conversation after a fight, much less how to start an apology.
After a while it'll become familiar and once you settle on a method it'll become "your (you and bf's) way" of dealing with stuff.
If your man just doesn't give a fuck then you're in trouble and should take the garbage out where it belongs.
Aw anon. I'm so sorry. This must be devastating. Hold onto the ipod, maybe one day you can pay to restore the precious memories within.
And don't feel stupid. We've all been there. I lost all my photos once and since then I started using MEGA to backup my photo collections. Protect yourself from future heartbreak and backup your stuff from now on, if you aren't already of course.
Hugs to you and to the memory of your sweet baby.
I'm sure you're not stupid, anon. Like you said, the instructions are just unclear as fuck.
If you haven't gotten it by now, did you try looking up alternate sources online?
I kinda get what you mean, I think. Sometimes I feel really dumb and ungrateful because I have a bf and quite a lot of close and casual friends, but often people don't really reach out to me to talk or do something unless I do first. So I kinda drift from one occassional party or hang-out to the next.
It must be devastating to have no friends or significant other - no doubt about that, but there's a particular kind of solitude and loneliness to having them and still feeling alone.
My dad will be bothered by things but not tell anyone. He'll let this go on for weeks and then randomly blow up in anger about it. Its incredibly stressful and it would be better if he just told us he was bothered by whatever it is when it happened, but he can't communicate.
Probably not as bad as what you're going through but thought I would share.
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i'm so confused as to how I continually put in zero effort at work and just fuck around on my own personal side projects 80% of the time yet my boss thinks i'm basically a genius and i'm getting promoted.
she asks me for updates on shit and I just lie & put doing the work off until the absolute last minute, and when I show her the end result she's amazed by how good at my job I am. I did the same in high school, college, past internships etc. and also did really well. as a result I have no motivation to ever try hard because i'm getting good results by barely doing anything. I always feel like my luck is going to run out and i'm going to get found out or caught in a lie or something but this has worked my whole life, so…
is everyone I work with just utterly incompetent and stupid, so I just seem smart/hardworking in comparison? is my boss delusional? wtf is going on? are any of you guys the same way?
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>TFW you spent all week googling how to fix chronic high blood sugar
>But now you have to fix chronic low blood sugar
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Did something i thought i never could, feel overwhelmed but in a positive way i think. I am feeling all the fucking feelings. I have no one to share this with, it's vague but it's huge.
You may be really good at your job, and end up 'fucking around' because you ran out of things to do. You may be bringing in enough money to your company that they overlook you doing other things because you're still getting the work done. You may be very good at manipulating those around you–consciously or unconsciously– so they think you're always busy. You may be working in a field or area where even if they know you're not working most of the time, the cost of training a new person would be burdensome. You may just be too self critical; sometimes non-essential tasks lead to new ideas and innovation.
Regardless, don't lie. It's easy to extend forgiveness to someone for a small mistake or error, it's much harder to forgive or trust someone who knowingly and repeatedly lies.
have you heard of Pete's law? thats what happens.
>"people in a hierarchy tend to rise to their "level of incompetence". In other words, an employee is promoted based on their success in previous jobs until they reach a level at which they are no longer competent, as skills in one job do not necessarily translate to another."
Luck does run out eventually and for some people it means crashing and burning their careers when they reach that point where their incompetence leads to catastrophic results and reputation damage. Don't get overly comfy and try to remain ahead of the curve.
>>476580>I was telling my parents about a friend who's struggling with her abusive boyfriend she said my friend is "probably a desperate fat girl" and that she's tired of "ugly girl talk".
Holy shit rekt. Your sister is a cunt but lmaoooooo. Just laugh next time because it's such an absurdly cunty thing to say, and because it's legitimately funny.>>476906>I know I’m the clown in this situation and I shouldn’t have upset him last night if I still wanted him to like me today…
Girl. Love yourself. What did you even do "wrong"? Tell him you were disappointed that he ditched you to appease his man-child friends? Just tell him it's gay to ditch your gf for your friends.
>>476943>anon should just laugh
No, laughing at the shit she says is why her sister's face is begging for an acid attack to begin with.
She says shit like that because there's never a real consequence.
This. It's occasionally funny when a ruthless person you know makes a witty comeback and sometimes it's funny enough to make you break the serious tone, but in this case it sounds like anon was venting to her parents in a concerned way about her friend and her bitch sister wanted to be the centre of attention.
What she did was rude as fuck and she sounds like a nightmare.
To the anon op, I have a bunch of siblings that would do shit like this to me a lot like make fun of things I liked or whatever to bring me down constantly and it sucks. One day your sister will learn.
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tfw it’s really hot out and I want to wear a short-sleeved shirt to work but I have dumb self harm scars on my wrist from when I was 14/15 so I can’t
Anon, that's far from pathetic. As long as it doesn't consume your entire life I'd say it's harmless, cute and creative. I mean, how else are books written?
Writing daily for like 30 minutes gets so addicting too, I'm always looking forward to my little time out kek
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i hate people who feel the need to input their sexuality (if you can even CALL 'asexuality' that) into everything. i was just scrolling reddit to enjoy the new bojack discussion and someone is in there with screencap above. no one cares that you're ace, why even mention it when you talk about disliking that storyline when it has nothing to do with it? then the username…gay ace? is that the only thing interesting about yourself that you have to offer? maybe it's just me but i don't think asexuality is a real thing.
no doubt there will be some angry asexual reading your post but they arent a marginalized group and have no need latching on to lgbt anything.
you dont need a sex drive to understand what an affair can do to relationships. but ive also rolled my eyes too many time at seeing profiles listed as poly trans ace demi. wut
should she post frogs? >>477178
dunno. they question this how to do this irl probably. every single discord person is socially awkward. i guess you need to join discords that matches your interests and the memes that you meme. if you ask me discord is really shit and shouldn't be used by anyone but egirls and eboys. just do stuff irl or online with irl people or irl-online stuff with cool non-chan people.
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….4 years makes that big of a difference? explain
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Try linen or other summery fabrics. You could also do lacy cardigans.
Not that anon but my ex got fat and started to prematurely bald within four years, not to mention his teeth took a nosedive from lack of care and drinking.
Four years can change a lot.
Quit moralfagging.>weh stop saying bad thing on internet about a gross bitch that said something irl hurtful and bad about her own sister's friend
At least waste that shit on someone actually defendable.
Yeah you are a degenerate unless there's more to it than his looks.
How would you feel if he preferred the younger looking you? If there's more to it like things he's doing or saying then understandable, but otherwise you are just being a shallow knobhead.
Do you not see yourself growing old together? Or did you visualise him looking different as he aged? Or are you admitting you have a problem with young looking men, e.g. ehebeophilia/pedophilia?
If it's only his looks, perhaps you can do subtle things to help change it without hurting his feelings.
My boyfriend put on weight a while back, and although I didn't mind, he said he was feeling insecure about it and was eating more due to work and stress, so I helped him out and we went for more walks together and I helped him a bit with his diet. There's more than sexual attraction in a partner and this is important because we all get old and ugly in the end.
The acid comment did sound incel like but I think they were right in the way that the sister doesn't understand consequences.
People like that do have a habit of getting punched in the face one day. Tbh I have way more friends that I would trust to help me or confide in than my own sisters. They were so fucked up to me growing up and now they are both fatties with spawn and try to suck up to me on the daily like they weren't assholes to me growing up about my body or shyness.
What you have with your friends I have somewhat with my family I guess. I do gotta say I don't even give 1% about my "friends", though. They're not bad as my other "friends" in the past were but I doubt I'll see these ones forever either and that they wouldn't fuck me over if I'd give them the chance.
No worries btw, sure I recognize what anon's sister said was wrong btw, but I didn't say much aside from calling out the other anon about the retarded acid attack comment.
>>477161>except aces to be all virgins>they're actually more promiscuous than humans
They don't seem to be celibate for the most part so I guess asexuality doesn't really exist.
People who identify as asexual are always the most annoying, whiny snowflakes ever. Also, if they're a gay
ace, wouldn't they also be annoyed at all of the heterosexual relationships portrayed in the show because its not ~engaging~? Or do they just want to flaunt about how speshul and ACE they are?
Also kind of an OT nitpick, but the show kind of did address the age gap between PB and Pickles, albeit in a subtle way. Pickles is constantly on her phone and broadcasting her life on social media, which PB is shown to be slightly uncomfortable with and not really understand, because they're from two different generations.
I'm going to vent here about my weird family situation as I have no idea who to talk to without receiving weird looks.
I'm at my last semester in my uni and until now I have been living alone in a small apartment that is owned by my grandparents.
My parents live in a neighbouring town, but few months ago my father got a job abroad which requires him to be away from home for 3-4 months (then is back home for 2 months). My mother can't stand living alone by herself so she decided to live with me. Since it's not my apartment I don't have a say in it but I didn't have that much of a problem with her living with me either.
Now my brother who is 12 years older than me and already has a wife and a daughter. His daughter is 6 years old and basically both my brother and his wife try to spend time with her as little as possible. They send her off to her grandparents for 4 days a week (every week) and for the rest they pay a nanny. It's always under the guise of them being super busy with their work even though during free time they still party a lot. They even hired a nanny to take care of her for Christmas ffs.
While everyone is aware of the problem, nobody calls it out and my mother developed a weird one-sided rivalry with her daughter in-law's family and started telling my brother that he can leave his daughter in her care as much as he wants, and of course he does.
The problem is that my niece is super spoiled and attention starved 6 year old (basically her parents just buy her gift instead of spending time together) and my mom decided to prove how she's the superior grandma by spoiling her even more. This results in kid screaming and fake crying every few minutes, literally unable to stand not being center of attention.
This is already a shitty situation, but what's even shittier is now that my mom lives with me, my niece spends majority of the week in my apartment too.
I'm already not really a kid person and while I try to love my niece, I'm starting to detest her along with my mother and I feel really guilty.
I started spending majority of the day away from home, in libraries or on my part time job, eating shitty food in student cafeterias and so on. I tried cohabiting with and even raising my niece but it's futile since mom just spoils her rotten and acts like I'm hurting her if I don't let her have something right at that moment. Coupled with the fact that kid always demands to have someone to play with, screams for attention constantly, it's just living hell to be in that apartment.
I've considered moving to a new place, but rent in the place where I live is so high my part time job can barely cover it.
I'm deadly tired, hardly finding energy to study and I'm getting fat from stress eating cheap deep fried shit in my cafeteria. I'm so close to exploding.
>>477276>retarded acid attack comment
I just laugh that you chose that to pick out as "incel" when if anyone's the incel it's OP's sister assuming anyone with a relationship problem is a desperate ugly or fat woman.
You completely missed "calling out" the real incel of the story.
I didn’t get to see him. After work I called my sister who was there with him. She told me to not come since grandpa was in so much pain and couldn’t even see or feel that she was there. She said that it would be a bad memory for me. So I went home. Went to sleep. At 3 am he died and I went to the hospital and saw him for the last time.
He had a stroke last month. I was there everyday with him. Seeing him recover. He would kiss my cheek and wipe my tears when he was conscious. These past few days he just suffered though. Then the second stroke came.
I miss him so much already. His voice. His blue eyes. His gentle hands. I don’t know how I’ll get through this.
Thank you all anons for your kind words.
Have you tried to see if there's a dental academy or school within a reasonable driving distance anon?
They're a bit of a pain because it's first come first serve, but they do legit have low prices and can work out a payment plan.
You don't even have to tell them you're insured if you don't want to.
he is autistic, he said it to me and a friend and i have no idea if his gf knows but i doubt he'd hide it from her.
I met him as he's a friend of my friend and boyfriend, we have a shared hobby but i don't feel comfortable doing it with him anymore cause of his attitude, i'll just do it by myself or with my other friend.
I'm so happy someone
understands why I said to laugh in her sister's face in >>476914
I started to feel kinda bad for saying that bc of all the serious replies I got. I was like damn maybe I should give some more realistic advice. But this isn't the advice thread and I wanted to take the piss.
Sorry for making fun of your situation, OP who was probably actually hurt and annoyed by her sister's callousness.
t. someone with not the heart for shitposting
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I know this is selfish and irrational, but I feel uncomfortable when someone I'm friends with has other friends.
It's improved since I was a teen and used to lash out at my friends for "pretending to like me" and "not caring if I was dead" but I still feel that regularly, just more diluted and I deal with it differently. I've preemptively pushed away multiple friends who clearly do like me just because I was afraid of them eventually pushing me away. The usual.
Idk. It's probably a combo of being rejected by my father and having a clingy relationship with my mother (only child), so on an emotional level I feel like relations are either "they hate me, find me worthless, and want to get rid of me" or "I'm their world and they love me more than anyone else." So if it's not fully one it must be the other!!
It's just rearing its head again since I made a friend from a group project and I'm growing afraid that he's closer with other people in the group and secretly dislikes me. Obviously it's his fucking right to be friends with whoever lmao, but I fear they're doing it at the exclusion of myself because I'm ugly and too socially inept.
I haven't had to deal with it for a while since I've been isolating myself, which of course convinces me that I'm over it. Like never going swimming and telling yourself that you've now overcome your fear of water lmao. I just don't want to fuck up and either ghost him afterwards or flip out again, since I'm quite fond of him.
Reading this over I know it seems like some borderline bs even though I'm pretty sure I don't have it.
But…I also don't have a therapist or psychiatrist so I'm dumping these feelings here.
Fanfiction is a cesspit devoid of creativity
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Anons, I really really love my cat. I know this isn't exactly a negative vent, but I still just want to sperg out about how much I love my cat somewhere!
Right now, he's sleeping on top of me and everything just feels so peaceful. He's so beautiful, I really feel like he is the perfect cat for me. I've had him since I was 3 and I'm just so happy that I still have him! He's pretty old now, but he's still surprisingly healthy.
Ragdolls are my favourite cat breed and HE is my favourite cat. Egyptians were right when they worshipped these little furry fuckers. I think animals can bring a lot of happiness into people's lives, especially those who are lonely. It's cute.
Sending more love, support, and strength your way. Hugs>>477421
I totally relate to your pain. My beloved cat passed in a similar way and I'll never stop hurting over the fact that I wasn't there for her last moments… I wish I had a remedy anon but I don't. Hugs to you too.>>477417
This is cute and relatable anon.
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I got put on Vyvanse and Ritalin for my ADHD a few weeks ago and I haven't been able to really sleep since. I'm currently on day 7 in a row without sleep. I look and feel like absolute shit. I've read that people have trouble sleeping when first getting on ADHD meds so I'm praying I adjust soon. I have a limited number of sleeping pills I've been using very sparingly because my follow up appointments aren't for awhile, but my country is extremely stingy about prescribing them so I doubt my doctor would give me more anyway. I have had a long history with insomnia due to untreated ADHD, but good sleep hygiene enabled me to have a sort of ok sleep schedule. Now it's completely useless. My brain just won't shut down without a sedative now that I'm medicated. But if I stop the meds, I will become completely dysfunctional again.
If this doesn't get better by the time I see my doctor again or if they don't have any solutions, I think I might actually kill myself. Better to end it quick instead of a long, protracted death by exhaustion I guess.
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My one ex moved back into town and I saw them unexpectedly at work. When we broke up we weren’t on bad terms but I was having a horrible time with things at home and I felt like I’d be dragging them down. I just feel sad now because it seems like they did a lot over the last couple years and figured their life out while I still haven’t.
i took a nap earlier and i had such a vivid, sweet dream about having kids with my ex and i can't stop crying because it'll never, ever be reality but it felt so real. i want to take these feelings and bottle them up so i never forget them. i don't even want my ex back because he's a terrible human being, but i didn't know that until after we broke up. when i was in love with who i thought he was, it was real. i loved him and that dream was the future i thought i was going to have with the person i thought he was, and it hurts that it can never be reality. i do miss him, the 'him' he presented to me, but that person doesn't exist anymore and i can't quite seem to get over it.
i'm talking to someone new, and he seems okay, but i don't know if i'll ever trust a man again. even if i do, it'll never be the same. i'll never have those "first love feelings" for anyone else ever again, and i hate that my scummy ex ruined that for me.
i need to stop being so emotional, but i can't fucking help it. this shit hurts me.
I feel like i've always and always will be sad. no matter what i do, the feeling doesn't change or go away. I'm actually surprised i've lived to my age, 20. I've attempted to off my self on two different occasions but i was a coward.
I have support and love right now from others but i still can't help but feel like a burden to them.
>>477615>but no treatment at all is even worse.
Are you sure about it? You don't even know if the pills are treating anything, the good doctor just prescribed them and you started gulping them down. The combination could have given you a heart attack by now. On top of that, you're trying to counter that with a sedative, and
>I think I might actually kill myself.
That's suicidal ideation, if you tell that to the good doctor he can have you committed to a mental institution. Does that sequence sound like a treatment for a problem… or a problem itself? If I gave you a pill of methamphetamine you'd refuse it, but because you trust a doctor's authority so much you've been swallowing a pill with basically the same thing for a week now.
The problem is that I was completely dysfunctional before but also not sleeping well. I slept better than I did now, sure, but think no sleep 4 days in a row instead of 7, or getting a couple hours every other night. I hate being on medication, trust me. I avoided it for years and did CBT only, and while it did help, it didn't close the gap between function and dysfunction. If the pills didn't help me day to day so well, I'd have stopped them the first week. If I could sleep
a few hours a night I'd have no complaints at all…
Also a doctor will not commit you on ideation alone, at least not in my country - here we are literally like 20 years behind countries like the US for mental health. If you don't have a plan or aren't schizophrenic they don't care. Months ago I tried to check myself in and got turned away because I had no plan, even though I just wanted to die so bad. Guess they were right because I'm still here, but I've been treading water for awhile now. >>477637
I have told them and was told I need to "wait it out" until my follow up in 2 weeks and practice meditation/sleep hygiene/take sleeping pills as last resort in the meantime.
is there no women's shelters nearby you can go to? or any online resource you can talk to and they can help you with your situation?
Don't feel worthless, he's worthless and awful. Im so sorry you are in this situation anon. Don't kill yourself please and try to find some way you can escape, your life is so worthwhile and will improve and become better than you can imagine once you get out of this situation. Try to reach out to your distant family, I don't know your situation but they may actually want to help you! if not just try absolutely everything you can to leave.
SA, to clarify, I know I sound dramatic, that’s something I’ve been called a lot. But I’ve lived through so much with abusive
parents, boyfriends, ect. I’ve never once felt afraid of my husband until tonight. I’m obviously not going to go into details because it could be harmful for me. But I saw something change in him tonight and I don’t know where to go from here. Just leave, that’s what I’d tell a friend, but it’s not that simple. I don’t even have a car of my own, not a friend in the world to relate any of this to. I’ve been thinking it over/trying to sleep it off in my closet for a few hours. I know he’s going to come to bed and blame it all on me in the morning and the thought of it makes me want to just vanish but I don’t even have money to go stay in a hotel. I really don’t know what to do and I’m so scared. I keep replaying it over and over and still I can’t figure out how to get myself out.
I looked up a women’s shelter in my area, but I really can’t just leave. I have a cat that I’m afraid to abandon and know if I do leave, I won’t be able to come back. This house is mine, not his, and to leave would be more disruptive than what happened tonight. I could assume my cat, my belongings, would be destroyed out of vindication. He’s not a violent person, unless he’s been drinking, and this is the only time he’s ever turned that on to me. If I wait it out, maybe I can be strategic about this. But then again, thinking about it now, I keep going in circles. I just seriously don’t believe me leaving will help anyone. Not even myself.
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so sad im residing in a country where halloween isnt a big thing. spoopy time is my favorite and the spirit just isnt here in anyone except me
I Guess, I'll keep on watching my calories intake and try to exercise more then, thanks>>477759
Out of 68,Xkg, am currently 64,3 kg ( 5'8 height also )
Tbh i know i sound whiny, its probably because two close friends also lost weight and people noticed theirs i guess
Time to work harder i guess
I know you weren't asking for advice, but don't believe asking if you could come to a party is "sad." That's actually a fairly reasonable question if you're on good terms with an acquaintance, or if you wanna tag along with a friend.
Also if you make a good impression at said party, you will likely be invited to others in a snowball effect. You just gotta get your foot in the door and put yourself out there. Be positive and approach it with an open mind and the people will want you around~
Don't be mad
Before I dropped out I was definitely feeling a lot of FOMO
I reconciled it by telling myself that I absolutely would hate it (and to be fair, I was mostly right) but it's just such a huge part of the experience and it feels awful to not be a part of it
I hope you just go for it, I hope you reach out to your friends and say "I really want to go to a party", I hope you show up uninvited (but I assume those parties won't be much fun unless you know people), and I hope you feel content with the amount you party
i wish it was hyperthyroid tbh. he has had not well controlled dia etes for a few years and in the last half year dropped pretty much half his body weight which now the vet thinks is due to IBD or GI lymphoma. those are both treatable with the same chemo medication which he is on now, but he cannot be put under for any biopsy to find the exact cause since he literally has no fat left. his glucose numbers were on track to being more regulated but now they are all crazy again due to new food and the meds.
if he doesnt start gaining weight soon it may just be a worse cancer that cant be treated with medication.
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I cycle between hating my boyfriend and wishing I was dead to feeling nothing at all and hoping that everything will work out so long as I shut the fuck up permanently. I stabbed myself in the wrist the other day and barely felt anything until the pressure built from my veins(?) bleeding profusely under the skin. Now it feels/looks like I broke my wrist as it's dark black from the bottom of the palm of my hand to nearly the crook of my elbow. I just think that if the guarantee of a successful death was the result of suicide, I would lack any fear or worry. I guess besides feeling dumb and numb I also experience anxiety surrounding my mother's birthday this year. I was hoping that her cosmetic surgery mishap would have resulted in her never making it home from the hospital, but I was disappointed. It's like, I really should die. I'm a cloud of misery and people can smell it like rot on me.
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I hate my body so much. My entire fucking bone structure is wrong. I was fucked from the start.
On one side, my backbone looks normal, and on the other, I look like one of those plus-sized women who corset train to have smaller waists without losing weight. I'm like a broad-backed fucking elephant. I feel like a monster. No wonder it always hurts when I try to sit up straight.
I know I'm not just seeing things, because even my mom noticed and freaked out, telling me I must have "done something" to myself. What could I have done to alter my fucking bone structure?? I don't even play sports, for fuck's sake.
I Googled, and I might have mild scoliosis. If it's true, since I'm from a third-world shithole with no decent medical care, I'm basically fucked. I can't fix this.
My best bet is probably to lose a lot of weight and get down to around 39kg (I'm currently 51kg). I'll be skelly, but maybe then my back won't stick out so dramatically and I'll look like a normal human being.
It won't stick out less when you're skelly. Save up money and see a doctor, you walnut.
Speaking of which, starting a new job today and I'm kinda nervous. I don't really like the commute.
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Anon that posted before about Halloween. Are we all in Australia? I found it so odd. You would think a country like Australia would be all for it. I miss the spooky vibes.
You can try looking for exercises that help you alleviate your back issues and muscle imbalances
I discovered I had flat feet a few years ago. Instead of paying a doctor $500 for insoles that weren't covered under my insurance, I learned about how to fix it with lower leg and feet exercises. I noticed benefits from the first week. Now I run once a week with "barefoot" shoes too so I don't even need to do the exercises anymore
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I posted a while back about how I wanted to message a friend from high school on FB but it would be weird because I have a burner account with a fake name. After all that, I finally decided to make a proper FB account just to message her and get in contact but turns out she deleted her account in that period of time.
I miss her so much I really want to get in contact with her again but no one seems to have her contact info. Where did this bitch go why are nerd women like this? I just want to have drinks and talk about what shitty anime we're watching like old days.
dude, I'm so tired of my friends, literally all they talk about is their dogs. I thought I loved dogs, but not enough apparently.
Its hours and hours of dog talk, how their dogs look, play, eat, groom, get photographed, sleep, etc.
I had to listen to three separate long conversations about the texture of their paws.
Did my friends lose their personalities when they adopted their stupid dogs?
99% of bpds have severe traumas, 99% of psychologists admit that they don't like to diagnose people with traumas as bpd because of the stigma, 99% of people with bpd deny having bpd, 99% of BPDs think they have c-ptsd and 99% of the bpd symptoms overlap with 99% of the symptoms of c-ptsd.
Now PTSD looks like a whole different thing than C-PTSD despite the name, but thas why I believe C-PTSD should fugg off from the DSM-5. I'm waiting for my request btw.
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Source for those stats pulled from your ass?
Among others, people with C-PTSD suffer from flashbacks and obsession over the perpetrator and do not have the 'I hate you don't leave me or I will KMS uwu' mindset. This is of top of my head as I am at work ATM.
Would love to quote DSM as IMHO C-PTSD is much more like PTSD (as it should be) and not BPD.
There are some similarities, but you can have one or the other or both. They are not the same.
You might as well say that schizoids and autists are one and the same because some symptoms overlap according to your uneducated ass.
You have decided on a strange hill to die on.
This way of thinking it’s pretty toxic
tbh…not to be rude but people like you made me depressed when I was a teenager. I always felt in debt with my closest friends because they made me feel if I had other friends, they’d dump me because they thought I was replacing them.
My advice is that you try to think people will dump you anyways if you don’t change, not because they don’t like you but because it’s exhausting to give explanations every time someone decides to spend time with other people.
i take fat bong rips before going to the doctor so you are at least 7 steps ahead
(my psych won't put me on benzos.. he basically told me weed was safer?? i got lorazepam once though after I was hospitalized and fuck it was nice to feel calm but also probably be able to operate a motor vehicle…im jealous)
She's smug about correcting my mistakes/misunderstandings, constantly complaining about the stuff we're learning about, can't talk about anything but school which gets on your nerves since during breaks you'd like, you know, to take a break from it, won't interact with us while we're having a conversation so it just feels like we are beneath her, is stupidly passive (and not only) aggressive on social media while she trembles asking a cashier stuff. My petty side comes out then, and I start nitpicking her like lolcow taught me in my head kek: from her accent, to the retarded way she walks, to her face. But that's just me being mean at that point, I know it.
I recently started working with a girl whose work I've really admired for a few years and I'm having confusing feelings about her. I consider myself pretty much straight, but was very confused about my sexuality throughout my childhood and teenage years. I've had really engulfing crushes on girls before, but have pretty much settled on men since I slept with a girl for the first time and it didn't solve any of my questioning in the way i thought it would (I just generally find sex to be kinda confusing and silly- I don't enjoy it that much physically but at least with men I think what I get from it is validation after being an ugly duckling growing up- but that issue is a whole nother kettle of fish).
I'm finding myself feeling pretty obsessive over this girl, though I'm not sure in what way. I don't necessarily feel sexually attracted to her, though that's never really been a component of crushes for me-I've never really felt a sexual attraction to any of my many crushes over the years, it's always been something that just makes sense to do because I like them and want to feel intimate with them? I've only enjoyed sex with one person ever and I wasn't initially sexually attracted to them.
We get along really well so far, and I think she's a really incredible person, I'm in awe of her but also want to be her. We're the same level at work so it's not a power dynamic thing. I kinda think we have been flirting but it's hard to tell what's just girls making friends and what's flirting. I've been wanting to make friends with her for a while, but I didn't even consider the idea of a crush until I found out she was gay, which makes me think I'm just an idiot straight girl larping bisexuality because I admire her so much, and I think that's a bad person to be. I just feel so interested in her and seeing what she's working on and chatting to her. I have an obsessive personality so maybe it's just that but I'm getting the usual symptoms of mentionitis and general obsessiveness that go along with a crush.
Tbh I don't know how to handle the situation whether it's a crush on a girl or a 'girl crush' so what does it matter but I'm feeling a lil confused and crazy, sorry for the extremely long post anons!
I can’t stand my neighbors.
The mom seems to work (most of the time) and the dad is a stay at home. They have 3 young children from different parents, and they are the most insufferable people in the world.
My parents in law own the property I live on, along with theirs (but because they have a rental company managing, it’s a little more difficult to rid of them)
But the dad who is often seen in the front yard smoking weed has the little kids in the backyard just screaming and being terrors. They will be sobbing, screaming, throwing things, doing whatever, and nobody seems to give a shit. I can’t even have my windows open during the day because the children are fucking shrieking. My husband who is finishing his second degree takes online classes and often finds it hard to concentrate because the kids are always being such fucking brats. And I know that they are a product of their parents being pieces of shit, but why should we have to suffer? I so badly want to write them a strongly worded letter, or pursue something more but I genuinely fear retaliation.
I’m in such a miserable position. I fucking hate those parents, and I hate their fucking piss ass children.
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>>478087>What could I have done to alter my fucking bone structure??
anon my back is kind of fucked up/uneven too and I'm pretty sure it's from NEETing around all day as a teen. Do you tend to lay down a lot against your upper back kinda like pic related? Also exercise and being aware of your posture CAN help it. I went through military training and hundreds of pushups + hours of standing around at parade rest for weeks did wonders for my back. Didn't even realize it till I came back home and my mom was like holy shit anon your shoulders look better!! obv you don't have to do anything crazy but do look into back and shoulder bodyweight exercises.
narcs hate the silent treatment. keep silent, don't give into their traps to try to get a reaction out of you. they "care" way too much.>>478112
there's so many dog owners who need to find multiple hobbies, i swear. i don't care about your dumb ass laborador retriever that
much. post about it on social media, fine, but please don't bring that into our convos unless i'm at your house and your dog is right in front of me. i have cats, but i never talk about them to others unless i'm asked something specific about them, or if someone wants to ask what i did during my free time and i don't want to give a full answer i'll just say "yeah, i stayed home and played with my cats." let's talk about video games…. or food… or home decoration! anything! besides your "doggo"!
do you like him back? he could just be anxious about messaging you first
personally i would just stop and see if he messages you first. what's the point of liking someone if he doesn't take any initiative to try
I looked up exercises online and on YouTube. After watching a bunch of videos I listed 5 of the most common exercises I saw and did them every other day. I was recommended to look for these exercises by current and former dancers.
BTW I went through months of procrastination and buying new shoes ans insoles that only temporarily and mildly alleviated my pain. If you think this is what you need, try it now. I spent way too much time in pain and I regret it.
>My arches don't hurt while walking in shoes anymore. I am still more careful about what I wear though>my knees dont ache, stiffen and crack anymore. especially my right knee. I can sit for long periods of time again without feeling uncomfortable every ~15 minutes>Im pretty sure I get less periodic foot cramps than I used to, which I used to get for much of my life
also if you get barefoot shoes and walk and run in them I believe you can skip the exercises entirely. there are cheap ones on Amazon if youre still on the fence. then work your way up.
Could be gas. I recall reading once that something like 60% of emerge visits regarding abdominal pain are just a stubborn fart.
But you should see your doctor to at least calm your nerves. I know hypochondria is a hell.
My best friend is so negative about so many things I like and it feels awful. I care about her a lot of course, but she turns so many positive things back on me as negative, especially if I'm really excited.
I feel terrible because I know she's dealing with depression and anxiety, but is constantly going off her medication without medical advice. I never give up on inviting her to things or checking in with her when I can, but I don't know what to do about this. Any time we have a conversation, she can talk for hours uninterrupted about what she's been doing or dealing with or what's going on, even topics I feel uncomfortable with but listen to because I know she's enthusiastic, but as soon as I talk about something excitedly she's either uninterested or just throws it back at me.
I feel like a lot of our interactions lately when I'm talking have been like this:
Me: Hey x brand is releasing this thing we both wanted!
BFF: Oh, well I don't care about that anymore, good luck.
Me: Hey I met this person who looks intimidating online, they're actually really nice!
BFF: ugh EW x person I don't like is friends with them!
Me: I got a cute dress from x brand!
BFF: I associate this brand with someone I hate, so I hate this brand now too.
Me: Aw I didn't get tickets to this concert, oh well.
BFF: They're shit anyway, why would you want to see them?
I'm trying so hard to be patient with her because I know she's going through some tough mental health stuff, but I feel worn down. It's not like she's trying to get rid of me, she's the one still suggesting we meet up for lunch or hang out.
I feel like shit and my own anxiety is eating at me because of it. Am I going to inadvertently piss her off by wearing something that makes her upset? By hanging out with the wrong person? By talking about the wrong thing? Am I the asshole? I don't want to make her sad.
I can't stop being pissed at my sister because she said her life was harder than mine.
For this online course about confidence and finding your passion, I was supposed to ask people who knew me as a kid to tell me what I was like as a kid–She said I was spoiled.
Fine. I'm taken aback because I remember our parents handling me so much more roughly, but if that's how she sees me then I can understand that and I'm sure I can try to use that.
But after a bit of back and forth, we're talking about her (big surprise) and I'm willing to listen because it's important to hear her out for reasons other than this course I'm taking. But listening to her complaints, it's small potatoes.
Stuff like "I always had to hang out with your friends because dad was always working and mom had to watch all of you and I didn't have any friends in the neighborhood" or "we all went to Arby's and I hated Arby's and I didn't get to go to the fast food place I wanted". I didn't address it at the time, but how does that make me spoiled? Because I was given the gift of life around the same time as some other kids in the neighborhood? Because our mom had some coupons and didn't feel like taking us to multiple places? You think Arby's is anyone's favorite?
Other stuff like, not getting in trouble when I used her acne stuff, not getting in trouble when I didn't treat the makeup she left all over the bathroom with dignity, not getting in trouble when I went sledding and I wasn't supposed to. By the way, I did get in trouble and I told her what my parents did (ground me, hit me, take stuff away etc etc. The last example in particular baffled me because she wanted me to have gotten toys and stuff taken away from me, and I told her that in a sense they did*, and she just ignored that.
And all of this would be fine if she kept it at "spoiled"–but she went the extra step to say that my life was easier. Despite the fact that they bought her a car and she's literally never paid for her own insurance (even to this day, she's 27 and her friend's parent's pay her insurance which is fucking insane), despite the fact that all through out our life she was constantly given whatever she wanted (wanted to take an acting class, wanted to travel to experience the country of the language she was speaking, literally every week she would ask for money to buy shit).
She'll claim it was because she was expected to get a job, but she had a crappy little lifeguarding job that she only worked in summer and winter–that's not enough to pay for all of the clothes, gas, and food she was always buying. Meanwhile wore the same 6-8 ish shirts through out middle school and high school because they were effectively hand me downs. The only time I bought shoes was when my old ones were too small.
She'll also claim that there were all sort of expectations for her, but we basically had the same expectations–if I didn't get a job, it's not because my parents weren't telling me constantly to get a job. If I didn't get good grades, it's not because my parents were letting me get bad grades.
She'll also claim that I was smart enough to get away with whatever I wanted. If I was smart enough to get away with petty shit, why would I be the type of person to post to anonymous imageboards to complain about her instead of literally anything else.
She'll also claim that I was just given whatever I wanted. That didn't stop our parents from buying her a guitar that she literally never touched even though she wouldn't stop stealing mine. That didn't stop her from getting acupuncture for having sweaty palms even though I've had chronic diseases and a few things that needed surgery.
And the reason why I'm venting now? Because for the past year, ever since my mom kicked me out of the house (because I was too depressed to function properly), she's been asking me for money basically every other week.
I don't get it–you had to get a job early on, you had a bunch of people giving me whatever I wanted, and even though I'm spoiled and you had to learn what it's like to work, I'm the one who has to give you money because you insist on doing a job that pays shit in a city that is too expensive and traveling to other countries whenever you feel bad (that's right, she got fired from a job and wanted to go to lisbon). Even though she's the one who graduated from college, I have to give her money because I started working at a job I don't love but pays pretty well.
And the kicker is that I give it to her–my aunt gives her money, my mom gives her money (she's toxic but she's lonely), and my great aunt on the other side of the family gives her money. And while she does pay us back (sometimes) it's always something else.
My apartment doesn't technically have heat or a working stove, the bathtub doesn't drain properly, and I'm severely depressed (working on it)–but I guess getting spoiled just did wonders for me to the point where I'm a huge fucking friendless loser who has never gotten laid.
I love her and I don't want anything bad to happen to her, which is why I give her money, but it's frustrating to have to hear that through out all of the suicide attempts, loneliness, and depression in my life (less so in childhood, but still), she thinks that growing up was harder for her.
*Basically, I hated playing by myself so I always left my toys at my neighbor's house so I wouldn't have to lug them back and forth. My parents told me I couldn't go to my neighbor's house for a while. In that sense, my toys were taken away because I no longer had access to them.
Anon, are you me?
We're gonna make it though. At the very least, I'm rooting for you.
Another aging degenerate here, I just want to enjoy my life but all my friends have aged out of it. It doesn't help that so many anons act like anyone that doesn't turn into a nun after 30 is automatically a lolcow. >>478647>I just wanna be with carefree degenerates who also take care of each other.
The feels are real. I follow a girl on instagram that is always partying with the same close friends but also has a really stable respectable job, I want that.
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i am so sad. i spent a long time making a scary costume with a demon skull mask to wear to my office party tomorrow and i am very certain i have the flu now since it came on right after work and keeps getting worse. ill be sick through halloween also. fuck this
I'm gonna an hero in a few months. Not an attention thing, not impulsive, long time in the planning and got it all worked out to be all neat and tidy and responsible.
I just want to say that out loud somewhere without getting the usual influx of bullshit I don't want to hear.
Yeah I got muh depreshun but also a ridiculous amount of other mental and physical conditions I could never fully recover from. (No PD's though.) Been getting "help" for a long time but it hasn't helped. Got a full on sob story of CSA, 7 year court process, family turning against me, everyone systematically walking out of my life one way or another, several abusive relationships and so on and so on.
Now I've ended up a somewhat alcoholic recluse with no real friends or family, in my late 20s and leeching off of society because I'm way too fucked up to work, but still somewhat able to take care of myself.
Every day is a massive battle to get through and manage even the basic things, it's absolutely ridiculous and pathetic.
Whatever talent, brains and looks I was granted has been such a waste. I wish I could give those away to someone who actually cares about the illusion that our existence has any purpose. It doesn't. So I'm out.
That sucks. I have had a similar childhood, too. Did you get any therapy at all? I strive to be the best version of myself to pretend what happened doesn't hurt me, to spite those who hurt me. Fake it til you make it really does work you know. I really hope you try sticking it to all those bastards and becoming a sick person (obviously start off small)… I bet you're stronger than you think anon.
Ahh sorry, this isn't what you wanna hear. I just don't think you should waste your one chance at life just because of some assholes who never deserved to be a part of yours.
>>478504>Am I going to inadvertently piss her off by wearing something that makes her upset? By hanging out with the wrong person? By talking about the wrong thing? Am I the asshole? I don't want to make her sad.
Anon, been there, done that. From my experience I can totally assure you you’re not the asshole here. You’re only trying to make your friend feel loved and happy but let me ask you something: do you know she’s not doing the same for you, right? Just because she has depression, it doesn’t give her the right to treat you this way, specially when you’re only trying to be the best version of yourself for someone who can’t and won’t appreciate it.
You’re not the one depressed and she has to understand that. Your mood shouldn’t change for someone who doesn’t care when she talks to you like that. If she's depressed, that sucks but you can’t do more than you’re doing right now and she should appreciate it.
I feel guilty because for some reason I think it's OP but if it's not then ignore. I'm sorry if it offended you, didn't mean to. I tried to make it light because welfare really isn't a big deal or something you should be ashamed of. When you need it you need it, but good people understandably are ashamed of it. Who says you are gonna be on it forever? The day you'll stand on your own feet is the day you can choose to stop having it.
Therapy didn't work for me, but it sucks I didn't try it more because if I did I could have been liable for it. Welfare legit is not a big deal, I was just too stupid to not tolerate my dumb therapist's magazine advice for my traumas.
still waiting for those receipts.
I've googled around and noticed that some people on the net hold the belief that bpd and c-ptsd are the same thing, but I respectfully disagree. I would like to understand anon's POV better tho.
OP here, >>478757
wasn't me if that's what you meant. I'm thankful for the comments on welfare and that someone actually views it like that. Guess I just feel like the resources are wasted on me. (Bawww I know.)
Not tolerating a bullshit therapist isn't stupid. I did that for years out of politeness and having no backbone, and that's stupid. Had some okay ones over the years too but none have really helped.
Anyway,thank you anon.>>478743
Wanna do a Thelma & Louise?
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I met this guy who's in the same program as me at uni and now he will not leave me the fuck alone and it's pissing me off so badly.
I only gave him my first name and somehow he found my personal private instagram despite not having any mutual friends or anything. He requested to follow and I rejected it because his profile was blank and I didn't recognize the name, he then sent me a super passive aggressive DM request that was like "Don't get me the wrong way, I only tried to add you because I add everybody in our program, we students need to stick together" and some bs like that despite him only following less than 100 people, and our program has like 600 students so… yeah I'm not fucking buying it.
Me and my friend always sit in a certain spot in our gigantic lecture halls and he figured that out I guess and has started to sit in the same area too. This morning I saw he was in our usual spots so I sat one row ahead and he got my attention and asked if I wanted to come sit next to him and I brushed him off and said no. And he keeps asking me if I want to go to the library after class and I always fucking say no (I don't even like studying in the library at all, I almost always do my work at home anyway, and it's not like I'd get any work done with some thirsty guy breathing down my neck).
Tonight he kept DMing on instagram again and tried to get me to go see a movie with him and I said no, I fucking hate movie theaters anyway, I would hardly want to go with my friends let alone some annoying ass dude I barely know who's clearly just after some pussy.
And he's so fucking passive aggressive and whiny. I hate when men do that manipulative thing where they push your boundaries while acting all smiley and friendly, because if you turn them down, YOU'RE the frigid cold bitch. How about you take a loss like a champ and stop trying to shoot your shot the first time you get rejected? Take a fucking hint, Jesus Christ. I want to be left the fuck alone.
It really pisses me off because I'm a really self-conscious person and now I spend every lecture constantly worrying about if he's watching me or whatever, and I try to pack my shit up and leave ASAP so he can't approach me. Why the fuck are men so persistent? I'm trying to get a fucking bachelor's degree, hop off my fucking dick. God.
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I hate my PMS so much. I still have flashbacks from 5 years ago when my friend from NYC visited and my mom took us to visit a place out of town. I bought a bunch of junk food from a store on our way but didn't think that I did so because my period was coming. Then in the car I had a freaking meltdown because my mom was unemployed and said to my friend and her bf to not pay for the gas. Jesus Christ my hormones screw me up big up.
God posts like this make me glad I'm done with school. My boyfriend is in uni and he's literally observed dudes like yours in his classes. Creeping around, trying to get their contact info, and forcing themselves in the spaces of the girls they've targeted.
I don't really have great advice because these guys are too sense to reason with. Do you have a bf? Time to mention him a lot or make one up.
I've learned to slip in the mention of a boyfriend as soon as possible. Even just casually, like "oh my bf and I love that show".
This has protected me so effectively since then. Sad that it's one of the better ways to get a guy to fuck off.
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I just got a zero on a heavily weighted assignment in my English class. It was a check for a rough draft. After seeing that my grade had dropped from a 90 to 37 I my heart feels like its going to jump out of my chest and I want to kill myself.
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i enjoy compsci but i often feel too dumb for this major; and whenever i program i always think "well who knows if i'm going to be some great mind in industry / what if i get stuck code monkeying because i'm always going to be shit and never go anywhere should i really do THIS etc etc" then i realize that there are people out there doing so much worse (e.g. it's no surprise that the us government is full of idiots, there're rich kids out there that are going to work for their rich parents after graduation, someone's smoking crack rn, etc), why shouldn't i allow myself to do this major even if i'm not explicit good at it?
does this make sense? i dunno
If you had a 90 before, you're probably a good student. Talk to your professor about it, they might let you redo it for like half of the grade or something. If you were failing before, it would be a different story.
Worst comes to worst, you tried and most likely a teacher will respect you caring about your grade enough to talk about it, especially if you let them know how awful you feel over it. They're people too and have made mistakes just like anyone else.
Good luck anon!
That is unfortunate. I agree with the other anon that you should talk to your prof! Although if it was on the course outline or something they may be less understanding. It probably depends most on their nature.
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I can't even think about my best friend without getting a life crisis.
We're the same age, but I'm a kissless virgin college student and she's an employed married woman.
This sometimes really drives us apart. I coudn't attend her bachelorette party or stay all night at her wedding because it was all in exam season, and because of her work schedule and wanting to spend time with her husband she's never available to see me.
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My stepdad is being a retarded boomer. He thinks because he's leaving the thermostat at 78 degrees constantly that it's saving money as opposed to keeping the thermostat at a more reasonable 73 degrees.
He doesn't fucking understand that the apartment IS NOT naturally 78 degrees, and therefore the thermostat is working to keep the joint at 78 even if he doesn't hear air kick on.
He hollered at me for turning the temp down earlier because I came home from work and it was fucking hot. We're in the south and the temperature OUTSIDE was cooler than within! It should not be two steps from 80 fucking degrees. It's ridiculous.
So I finally showed him the trick, to saving the precious bill money.
Turn the fucking thermostat off.
Oh and whaddya know? It's already dropped to 76 degrees because this apartment has no business being a fucking oven.
I said two stupid things in class today (guy asked if the professor was following a diagram, I said he was winging it but was corrected by another student, additionally I thought we had to use 3.3 V port for electricity but it was 5V) and set up the experiment I was doing wrong by failing to follow the diagram, I feel so fucking stupid BUT I'm glad I gave myself the chance to be stupid. I actually got help for the issue I struggled with, I went through a lot of college to afraid to speak or even ask for help.
Also I feel bad for coming across as an asshole when people make jokes around me. I don't know how to fake enthusiasm since I don't want to come across as "too much" so I grimace at the jokes the guy next to me makes.
I can't help but look over what happened today in class and cringe so fucking hard, why does my entire existence bring me so much shame and embarrassment. I had panic attack just walking to class today, it was so random. I need to get something for my anxiety before it drives me to utter despair over a small hiccup, it drives me mad how if I do the slightest thing wrong a voice in my head just constantly yells, "Stupid bitch, you aren't smart and everyone wants you to shut up". I usually don't talk or even associate with people because after every interaction I overanalyze what occurred and feel like shit, it's so much easier avoiding all human interaction.
Not to be cringe, but that Thelma and Louise offer is one of the sweetest things anyone has said to me. Thanks, anon.
That said, despite all the shit you're dealing with you come across like a pretty cool person, so you probably shouldn't off yourself, you don't sound like a lost cause or whatever. Or at least go out with someone equally cool. You only get to die once, yknow?
Jesus Christ I thought it was just my dad who was this crazy with the thermostat. He HATED it when the house was 69° it HAD to be at 70°. 68 was too cold, unacceptable. Only 70° or 71° or 72° if it was too cold.
Honestly, my spouse is kinda the same way. The temp has to be at 76° for him to be satisfied the air is actually gonna turn on, then an hour later it gets too hot and becomes hard to breathe and he'll turn it down to 70°. I told him, "Just turn it down to 74° you don't gotta do it so dramatically."
I feel you anon my mom is alive but I don't live with her anymore and she stole money from me when I moved out, got food stamps in my name, stole things from my apartment and sold them for meth money etc. she also used to get mad when I wore shorts or tank tops or bathing suits growing up because of my weirdo stepdad and her not fully trusting him
People are always like "well why don't you visit her?" My sisters are always like "mom said why do you hate her?" Because she's crazy and not a good person, your mom sounds about the same as mine, she adores my brother but acts so nasty towards me and my sisters. I'm willing to bet she's jealous at how much better you've turned out than her, maybe you're more attractive or ambitious and instead of being proud of you like a normal mum, she felt threatened
Don't feel bad for not making her out to be Saint, just because she's dead. Mourning her is one thing but don't feel guilty about your poor relationship with her I hear too much about women who resent their daughters and it's sickening I hope you have another strong female in your life to look up to,
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i think I keep being shitty to my family and standoffish to my coworkers because i dont want them to be too sad when I kms.
NTA, but being the black sheep in the family sucks, my mom's the same way. My sister is the golden child, definitely has tons of attention and care aided from my mom and dad compared to me. My mom stole money from me for years. Just this year, she threatened to call police on me basically for finally moving out of town and me & my bf defending ourselves from her ridiculous antics and demands. I had to buy a new phone because it got so bad and I had 2 days to find a cheap and reliable car because the one I had was under my parent's name, even though it was a gift for me. She still tries to get a reaction out of me via voicemails and texts, don't know if she'll ever stop. I think what's worse is she took my old phone number, so who knows what she's said and done to all my contacts. I don't even care anymore lol.
We're way stronger than we think. We're wiser than most after dealing with the person who gave birth to us turning out to be a terrible person. Probably more mature for our age due to all this.
I found my boyfriend's mom as my strong female figure to look up to. She is so supportive for what I had to go through, she tells me I can come over by myself just to hang out with her and she'll make me food, she even helped me get my new phone. So there's proof there's good mother's out there it just sucks we ended up with ours. Honestly, I used to think a bad mother was just one that neglected you, but one that does everything they can to try to frame you and your spouse as evil to the rest of your family was the worst thing I have dealt with in a long time. She did all this all while sitting in her office at her job.
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aww! what is your costume anon?
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veronica sawyer! pic related, this scene
Fucking this. I know the most annoying ass pick me girl who claims to be pansexual while blatantly being straighter than a line and it grates my fucking gears. I made the mistake of talking about it with one of my friends and I got chewed out for uwu invalidating her super special and real sexuality uwu.
I'm so sick of this woke bullshit, there ARE people who pretend to be not straight for pity points and asspats, and if you deny it, you're a retard. It may be a small minority and for the most part I don't go around scrutinizing people's sexualities but some people are so fucking obvious about how tryhard and fake they are, i.e shoe0nhead and other "cool girl" wannabes.
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So I came in to work today and found out he left a package with a note for me. It had a thing I let him borrow a gorillion years ago and in the note he said I was his best friend and he wanted to apologize for not keeping in touch at all.
But it was my fault we don’t talk anymore because I stopped communicating with all my friends. I’ve avoided talking to everyone I know for the last five years unless I couldn’t help running into them.
The note had his phone number so I’ll probably explain myself but idk if his girlfriend knows about this. Most of my guy friends were gay so I don’t know if I’m overstepping a boundary.
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After a month of getting hired for my new job my grandmother who I was close to was brutally killed. I took 2 weeks off work, I go back to work traumatized and I started making a lot of dumb ass mistakes and my employer starts running out of patience. I got written up and we had a serious talk and she asked me if I still wanted to work there. After that I tried my hardest to improve and and to be more positive. My boss even told me I've improved a lot and it's great, etc… Fast forward 2 months later–today I was looking forward to work and I even came into work dressed up in a cute costume. Before my shift starts my boss has me speak to HR and she hands me a letter, hr informs me they are terminating my contract right away. The reasoning was for "a business decision" and it's not because I did anything wrong, which doesn't make any sense since they just hired 2 new employees. I feel depressed, embarrassed, rejected and crushed because my improvements didn't even matter, they just wanted to get rid of me asap. I just can't stop crying, I feel humiliated. I took off my costume and left the building. My once loving boss was so indifferent to me. Here's the kicker I had another interview for another job a few weeks prior and I turned it down last minute because I figured things would get better with my workplace and I really loved the people I worked with. I feel like a fucking failure for not seeing this coming and not taking the chance with the other job. I was so dumb and afraid.
Oh anon, I'm so sorry. Sometimes life just won't stop kicking you in the proverbial balls and there isn't much we can do about it.
Take some time for yourself and use it for self improvement, relaxation and self reflection. You can do this, and a better opportunity will come along. Make sure to be friendly and open with your supervisor at your next workplace, and don't be afraid to let them know about your problems. I've learnt this the hard way, used to keep everything to myself because I didn't want to bother coworkers with things that don't concern them, but they just thought I was a slacker.
Thank you for the encouragement anon, it means a lot.
The thing is my boss knew the magnitude of the situation, she knew everything and even saw the news articles. She just ran out of patience and probably felt like I was using my grandmother's death as an excuse. It's unrealistic as fuck to think I should "get over" my grandmother's brutal death in 2 weeks. I just didn't think she had the heart to actually fire me over this terrible event, she was so loving to me that's why I was so shocked. I will definitely take a short break before I get back into the workforce. I'll get too depressed if I'm jobless for too long.
This was me for 5 years in my high school days. I became totally infatuated with my male best friend after about 2 years of us being friends. We ended up dating for a few months in Junior year, then breaking it off due to a friend trying to sabotage the relationship. He ended up coming out to me as gay in the first year of college. So 2 years of me still being attached to him and us saying it wasn't the right time. It was such a confusing couple of weeks after he came out, he was also confused too. He explained to me and our other friends a few weeks later "I had a hard time coming to terms because I really enjoyed and loved being around Anon
, but I just couldn't find myself to love her like that." I was basically the "If you don't love her romantically, then you might be gay," girl. Everyone we knew also thought the same, even other gay friends told themselves, "He's either a straight coward or he's gay" lol they were really supportive for both of us. It was heartbreaking for me to come to terms. It's such an odd story to tell because it's like a script from a TV series or something, but it happened lol
Is he autistic?
Similar male friend with autism does the same shit with me. I'll be venting about something super serious that he doesn't or barely acknowledges, because at the root he wants to get back to talking about himself and his own banalities.
It doesn't help that men already aren't brow beaten to be socially courteous like women are.
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I recently switched insurance and for some reason my new company is over prescribing me. They gave me 5 times the dose I need and the pharmacy wants me to pay 480$ dollars. It would literally take me a year to get through that much medication. It would most likely rot before I use it. I also can't fucking pay 500 monthly. Ohave to get this sorted out
samefag but this is the last part
I went to go fold my laundry and these fuckers were using ALL FOUR of the wheelie baskets!!! And even when I was folding my laundry, their stuff was on the other end of the table but some of my stuff got in the middle since I didn’t have my own fucking wheelie basket to put that shit in while I folded and when I went to go grab clothes in the middle of the table I could smell their FRESHLY LAUNDERED CLOTHING that still fucking REEKED!!!!!!!!!!!!
Aww i feel you anon. I got my period today and the first day is always the worst, because I get unbelievably unbearable pain, and i start hitting and punching myself to distract me away from it. My body temperate goes way out of control too, like I'm cold but I'm sweating at the same time lol. I have a really nice but sad memory of my ex on Halloween too, about 2 years ago - we just walked around the neighbourhood looking at all the kids wearing costumes and talking about things and laughing. It was just really nice and I often think about that day. I actually texted her a few days ago to say happy birthday and she thanked me, and I texted back but i haven't gotten a response yet and i'm trying hard to not let it get to me, but the fact is I still miss her and wanna hang out and catch up. I feel bloody pathetic for it.
I'm sorry if I made this seem all about me anon, you just reminded me a lot of stuff because we were so similar. I really hope you get better anon
I had to spend the night at my boyfriends house because there was a flash flood warning right before I was about to leave. my boyfriend’s roomate set off their fire alarm twice at 1 am and 1:30 am drunkenly trying to cook, and my boyfriend set an alarm for 6:30 am, and hit snooze for an hour but I always wake up with the first alarm. When I was grumpy this morning about only getting 5 hours of sleep, my bf asked me what was wrong, I explained that it really threw me off to unexpectedly stay the night, that I have to work until 8:30 tonight, that it was stressing me out that now I’ll have to nap during the 2 hours I have between class and work cause I was planning on getting homework done. His response was “sorry, you never have to sleep over here again”. I’ve been sleeping over at his house for like 2 nights a week for two months, last night was just a weird unfortunate case due to the weather/I’ve been sick all week and need more sleep , and now he made it sound like he never wants me to come back. Now I’m gonna be worried all day about what he said, fuck.
k-pop is a stain on society. it draws the most unstable people to be rabidly obsessed with it. most normal people had their cringy boy band fangirl phase when they were like 12 but koreaboos seem to be way too old to act like the way they do. everyone obsessed now will look back and cringe in no less than two years lmao
they really just need to stick to twitter and tumblr where they belong, I wish we could ban it altogether here.
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I know it's no secret but it still makes me mad when I see uggo dudes on dating apps pretending like women are pining to be their side play thing. It's so disrespectful to their unfortunate partners who somehow tolerate this shit or don't know about it.
Just look at this fatso.
Sorry if this is too pink pill, but I'm actually a little interested in hearing more about this concept
If you want, I'd love to hear more–we could even start this up in the pinkpill thread
I'd love to learn more about how to recognize it and avoid it
I've seen it happy way too many times>Ugly as sin guys date cute girl with nice personality who treat them good>Somehow it's not enough for them so they either manipulate the poor girl into polymary or an open relationship which just involves him fucking whoever and the girl not even be able to flirt with other guys>If not that they cheat
Why does this happen so often? Is it the girls low self worth allowing him to manipulate and think he can do whatever? Is it the ego boost and now somehow the ugly ass neckbeard think he's Chad? I just wish women were more picky with men, this happens too many times and it just allows men to treat us shitty
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god I hate opening so much I'm this close to changing my work availability so that they can't schedule me at 7am anymore but I need the hours. I'm eating day-old fried chicken and fuming REEEEE I'M TIRED AND I MISS BEING A NEET.
>>479651>did multiple degrees in things I wasn't really enthusiastic about because I felt pressured into doing something>I keep getting refused by companies relevant to my degree because I don't have a big portfolio full of passion projects
Damn anon, you basically described me. I had to work at a call center for a few years post-grad when I got desperate for a job, cause I couldn't find anything else with my degrees for those reasons. I was so depressed throughout my undergrad and grad. At the time I felt lucky to have balanced school and work while keeping my head above water. I was satisfied that my grades were okay, but I didn't have much energy leftover to focus on building connections or doing anything else.
I'm still not using my degrees, but I've found refuge in working office jobs for now. These jobs often require a degree and the work is pretty stress-free (compared to a call center and most retail I guess lmao) plus the pay isn't bad. I would highly recommend soliciting a recruiter to see if they can place you in some kind of administrative position if you don't know where to start. I wish I hadn't wasted my time with the call center-and not to be harsh-but you need a job that actually pays.
>"What do you want to do with your life? What job would you like? What do you enjoy?"
Maybe you want a comfortable life. The reality is most of us don't
want to spend our lives working.
My truth is that I want the job that's going to make me the most money, while stressing me the least, so I can go home to do what I want without anxiety. I know in today's compare culture we're expected to have really elaborate answers and complex life plans, but there's nothing wrong with ordinary expectations either.
What you say makes a lot of sense and there are a lot of people like me in the same boat as you anon.
Me in a nutshell
I hate my dad too, he is a racist black man. I’m biracial half white and half black. He’s colourstuck as fuck, he believes that black men only should impregnate every race. Yet they went their biracials daughters to fuck black men?
I was sexually harassed by a black guy in my school. You would think schools here in England would’ve took that seriously? But there was no proof and they gave him a slap on the wrist. My father claimed that he was “only having a laugh”. I’m always harassed by black or Arab guys and my father is the type to say “be grateful” to me. Never actually say it’s their fault.
He was abusive
to my mother, absent during my youth, never gave me shit, wasn’t in his other kids lives. Awful.
Now he’s pressing on me to have kids because I’m 25? Fuck off.
I’ll do what I want and I don’t want my kids to look like him. I pray they look like the father than me. I hate looking in the mirror sometimes because all I see is a female version of a piece of shit.
Tinder is full of ugly bastards and I cringe
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>want to move out and live on my own in a different city
>need a better job to do that
>need car to get to a better job
>need money to get a car
>more money and better jobs are in the bigger cities
I want to fucking kill myself and I hate living in a fucking village that has shit transport system. Fuck, why can't I be upper middle class like most of my relatives
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>happen to be in the same discord server where my gf is
>there's a girl who insists on hitting on my gf all the time knowing very well that she's taken and that I'm in there too, sometimes she does it in front of me too
Seriously, how pathetic must you be to do something like that… My gf doesn't acknowledge her at all aside from occasional chitchatting, and outright rejects her when this girl starts being pathetic, but it's both baffling and hilarious to see how this girl acts. Notable quotes:
>"Please consider me"
>"Can you give me a hug? Please"
>"Can I visit you?"
>"Do you like x hair? I'll change mine for you"
Sometimes I'm tempted to step in. I don't feel threatened, I know that my gf thinks that she's a loser and all and I wouldn't cause a fight, I'd just throw some snarky remark or something like that. She's disrespecting me, after all.
Pathetic ass hoe
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I'm off my meds again and fucking rolling. Everything makes me so mad.
At least Im trying to channel it into good causes … like thinking about TERFs and Nazis eggs me on and I wanna fight them!! TERFs fucking die challenge. But at the same time I know it's not the most healthiest thing
But when I'm on my meds my brain is fucking clogged and I get fat (not trying to attack anyone plus-sized, you are beautiful, I just PERSONALLY prefer being a certain weight for ME). No fucking winning hahaaaa
I should be programming right now. I'm a dumb.(dilate)
Oh look a TERF followed me here, lovely!!
Those are literally your boyfriends and husbands, sweaty. Maybe if you'd stop telling them they're disgusting and gay for sleeping with trans women, they'd stop feeling like they need to kill innocent trans women to be masculine. Cis women are some of the biggest enforcers of toxic
masculinity. But y'all are so insecure that you need to be bigots and use violent rhetoric just to keep others down(nice bait uwu)
I've never told a man he was disgusting or gay for liking trannies, I really don't give a shit who men want to fuck as long as it's a consenting adult. And there's nothing wrong with being gay either.
You blame women for men's actions. Typical misogynist homophobe TRA.
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Cry harder, troon. Life right now is as good as its ever going to get for you freaks. People are getting fed up with playing along with the delusions of predatory scrotes. You aren't a woman and you never will be. >>479840>y'all are so insecure
Statistically speaking there is a very high chance that pic related is you by the age of 30 if not before. That is if you can find a rope that will support the weight of your fat hairy beer gut.
I hate how ok zoomers are with mega rich people, and how oddly sympathetic they are to them. I have never been an overly political person, but I have always know being a billionaire is never achieved by being a good person. Hell I think you have to some highly questionable shit to be a millionaire. I'm not anti wealth, I'm not against accumulating money for future generations, I'm fine with private property, private school, etc. Even my fairly conservative parents think there is something up with people like warren buffet or Jeff Bezos. I saw a post on instagram of a bunch of zoomers defending bill gates and his wealth hoarding. I mean have they never watched a video on 'that side of youtube'. I saw people where calling out Kylie Jenner for posting pics of some 3 million dollar car, but I saw just as many people (mainly young people) defending her. Kylie Jenner earned her money, but did she earn it ethically. I don't think so. She sells repackaged color pop for a higher price, her eyeshadow palettes cost pennies to make yet she charges high end prices. Maybe I'm just getting old. I feel like kids should be pissed off, but instead they are on twitter feeling bad for Shane Dawson and jeffree star because their website crashed. When the website crashing was most likely done as a stunt just like literally almost eery influencer founded makeup brand. They all crash. They all break the internet. They all sell out. Manny fucking mua's shit sells out. Even when there is some young angry kid (like greta thunberg) they turn out to be linked to some millionaire lobbyist.
It should be Noted that Zoomers really hate millennial's and millennial culture,what ever millennial's did/do Zoomers will do the opposite
so because every 30 year old Millennial is now a Socialist/communist for some reason Zoomers embrace hyper capitalism
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I'm so done w dating apps, like I never took them seriously and basically just for something mindless to do when I'm bored but seeing profiles like this make me realize that 80% of the general population is insanely cringy.
The anon you responded to. Do you feel relief because it seems like there is a solution to all your problems?
I thought I let go of these thoughts years ago, but now I’m wondering if I have been depressed all this time, but just got really good at distracting myself until this past year.
my best friend died a month ago and i can't get over it, it's led me to neglect all of my other friendships out of this stupid combination of general autism, pure despair, and the fact that i go to school far away from most of my close friend group, who have each other to grieve in person… this is made worse by the fact that i live alone in an apartment that's falling apart and owned by a slumlord, and dealing with regular responsibilities on top of the grief and schoolwork/work is impossible, i can't focus or keep up, and barely eat or sleep. i can barely sustain any sort of social life, with that in mind, and i'm failing most of my classes… even though i've told all of my professors about it they aren't going to bend over backwards to accommodate me. i ran out of meds and have a bunch of major assignments due after this weekend and i really don't know what to do. it sounds so fucking pathetic but i've never been more actively ready to end it all, so much feels pointless. it just feels weird to know that if i went through with it, it'd be a while until anybody even knew
Ah yes Anon, because buying a 50 dollar pill everytime she has sex and the condom breaks that is also hormones that fuck with your period and body is somehow better than low dose birth control that most women barely notice the effects of, and can even benefit some women. Smart thinking
Also just so you know the whole "birth control is literally the devil!! Hormones!!" myth was made by alt right woman-haters, and continued by delusional health nuts who think they'll get 5 different types of cancers by eating one chicken nugget
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The pinkpill + gc + radfem thread has always been shit ever since it was created but I finally gave up on it when someone started posting about how BPD is demonized because it's a "female disease" and how men are fetishizing (???) women with the disorder. BPDfags are the worst fucking cancer I've ever seen and sharing a thread with them is a repulsive thought. I just wanted my GC thread to discuss a societal phenomenon and share information and studies anonymously without someone posting 15 replies worth of unbelievably petty bullshit about emoji naming conventions or something.
Pic related, these are actual fucking replies from the thread. Butthurt femcels or robot bait, I can't even tell. Nuke that cesspit for all I care.(bait)
i'm that anon and i don't have BPD. you're an idiot. it's extremely weird that 75% of people "diagnosed" with BPD are female, with no regard for the removal of abuse or mistreatment, and it's like, the only condition that develops out of abuse that professionals claim is permanent. crazymaking victims
for "maladaptive" coping and saying it's unfixable is fucked up and women should be alarmed. if you don't think that's extremely fishy and not a women's issue, you're very dumb. go back to plebbit if lukewarm tranny takes is all you care about.
I feel really frustrated about two things:
1. I submitted a 1500 word proposal to create my own major at university. Turns out the university administration haven't updated the guidelines in several years so there was no reason for me to submit the proposal in the first place because it never would have qualified under the new guidelines, apparently. The administration never got back to me on this, and when I tried to get an answer, one dean wanted to give me a call. She then acted like I had done something fucked up and called my proposal "unacceptable." What the fuck?
2. I don't understand what is going on in my Econometrics class. It turns out we were supposed to have taken a previous econometrics class even though there were no prereqs for this class. The teacher is Chinese and her English really sucks, and she just reads out the powerpoints. I really feel like I'm going to fail the class. It doesn't help that students in the country I'm studying abroad at don't seem to give a shit and love to constantly chat during class. Why the fuck are you guys in class to begin with?>>479997
Aren't plenty of people with BPD not abused? And how do you explain men who are diagnosed with BPD? lol
it doesn't have to be triggered
by abuse, a lot of it is genetic.
that's what he claimed but who knows what actually triggered
it. thing is, there's a lot of people with BPD and they all have different or similar or no reasons at all for having it. you can't shoehorn them all into one big being. & BPD can absolutely be "fixed". maybe i'm just from a country where the mental health treatment is miles ahead of america but BPD is not incurable or untreatable and a lot of people get better and live perfectly normal lives from where i'm from.
you're right it's not "all" but just because you knew one person whose reason you thought was flimsy or he lied about doesn't mean there's thousands of those. maybe he was the exception and not the rule?
bpd doesn't just "trigger
". it's mostly a genetic condition. i think the reason why there are more women than men diagnosed with bpd is because it's seen as feminine condition, it's not often diagnosed in men unless it's on the extreme side. maybe because men with bpd have different set of symptoms (just like in case of depression or autism) than women with bpd? maybe bpd is overdiagnosed in young women or it's mistaken for ptsd? there are plenty of possible reasons, coming up with some conspiracies is quite silly.
and nah, it's not really completely curable, it can go into recession with dbt and mood stabilizers tho.>>480015
he 100% had bpd. multiple suidice attempts, extremely unstable, manipulative, threatening suicide every other day, black and white thinking, etc.
What are you talking about? I have had multiple friends with BPD and they've gotten mood meds to stabilize their extreme mood swings so they respond to therapy better. One of them was basically 100% cured of the condition with the combination of meds and cognitive therapy.
As for BPDs in general I sort of feel bad for them and sort of can't. I've met around 5 diagnosed BPDs in my life (yeah my shit luck I guess) and 3 of them have been absolute garbage people set out for ruining lives and seem inhumane and actually evil people with their lack of empathy and consideration for their friends' wellbeing. Having to constantly endure extreme emotional manipulation and borderline sociopathic behavior is fucking traumatizing.
We actually had a thread about this on /g/ not too long ago, it certainly is a phenomenon.
Are you just not attracted to them on their own? Or is it just because of how it makes you feel? If it's the former that is unfortunate. You'd probably have to make a lifestyle change to find a buff bf, or put yourself out there to them if you like chubby men.
I have the same "issue" myself, although I am no longer overweight (just tall-ish for my location and broad). I love little guys though, and being bigger than them (in height and weight) is…hot. It makes me feel like a Proper Woman rather than a little girl.
Sorry for the late response but I really appreciate your reply anon X I think I do just want a comfortable life but I somehow became surrounded with friends who want to change the world or who have big life goals and I feel pressured to have the same. Job searching is so competitive too.
It's good to hear from someone who feels the same and found a position they're comfortable in. I actually have an interview for an admin job tomorrow so I have my fingers crossed because I think I'd do well in it. I feel really positive about it!