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it happens to me too, i love cats so much but can't have them. I always imagine an imaginary cat i can pet, sometimes is some creepy tulpa shit but it makes me feel a bit better fantasize about a cute cat in my lap.
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Guess we're all venting about how much we love cats kek.
I miss when mine was little, he was too cute. He still is but sometimes I forget how tiny he was.
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i was about to vent some sad shit but these chubby babies cheered me up, thanks anons
i can't have a cat but the next big city has a cat cafe (it's vegan and houses rescue cats, really wholesome place) so it's bearable
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I want a cat
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i’ve carried a sense of shame and wrongness for so long, i feel like even my physical presence is apologetic — constantly “body checking” in terms of the space i take up, shrinking and folding, trying to minimize it as much as possible while i’m in public spaces, always in a state of restlessness because of it. a large part of this is paranoia re: being stared at. it’s like going outside and being a young woman, regardless of what you look like exactly or how you behave, you’re getting stared at (by men). i’m sure you all can relate to that on some level. the conditioned purpose of the young woman is to be visual, to be seen, and no matter if you “succeed” or “fail” they’re still going to scan you up and down. sometimes i feel like i can never blend in or fit inside the crowd or something. i can never go “unseen”.
at the same time my insecurity shrieks it’s impossible for me to be seen sexually, so feeling those eyes sets me even more on edge because there’s no understood motive — they stare out of removed yet strangely persistent interest, as though they’re reading an advertisement on a subway train. i’m not a meek person, either, so i resent myself tenfold for having such a disconnect with my body! when speaking is when i can feel i can actually assert myself, or level the playing field, if that makes any sense.
also, for like the past 3+ years i’ve gotten anxious re: losing my sanity because getting older means learning the ways my mind differs from others’. it’s like my brain is a fucking shinkansen sometimes and i get irritated and lose steam when others can’t keep up or when i have to slow down. maybe less of a bullet train and more of a goddamned vortex.
early onset schizophrenia when, just bite the bullet God cmon hit me w it already
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i am procrastinating hard on writing a paper which is due in a few days and I just can't.
I am filled with dread but I have no motivation and no discipline, I am paralysed. and I like studying, I like my field, this is how I behave even with what I like.
I hate myself for being so lazy, weak, unable to delay gratification, I am a spoilt brat.
advice to anons who have bright children : teach them how to fucking WORK even if school is easy for them, or they'll end up depressed and unable to function.
somebody please slap me twice in the face.
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Inspiring posts, thanks anons for reminding me that I need to get through this breakup so I can get eventually get a cat too.
We are all gunna make it bruhs
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I’m so broke that I’m seriously considering selling nudes to pay for FF14. I really want membership but I have literally no money. I already tried doing surveys for money but after 2 hours I only managed to get 50 cents. Fuck me.
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Its a videogame anon, come on, not worth putting your dignity on the line unless you are truly on the lifeline.
There's also better ways to make a few extra bucks online, like go on reddit and fiverr and advertise 5$ psychic readings lol. There's thousands of very random completely disposable services that still sell as long as they are cheap for first worlders to buy.
Work around it until you build up some skill in something more stable run with it and buy 10 chonky cats.
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Sadly I don’t own any books but thank you for the advice anyway!>>448329
I’m a shameless loser. I just really like the game and became quite desperate out of addiction. >>448342
I don’t know of any reddits like that but if I did I would’ve done it earlier.
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Maybe it'd be better for you if you wean yourself off of it for a while then, it's not worth spending your money for a game.
Or replace it with an even dumber addiction like runescape, they've had free membership with twitch premium for a while and you can grind in-game to earn it too. It has a lot of Venezuelan bots though.
Aether. I’m level 32 working towards 35 but I just know I’ll grind through the game as much as I could. I’ve been playing for 2 days only but I already feel how soul-sucking it is. >>448358
Wow! this is actually very cool. I’ll check transcribing out for sure. I guess 130wpm can finally be put to use. >>448359
I played osrs for yeaaaars but I cant seem to get back into it.
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I'm on Aether too. This is probably weird and sounds like a scam, but hit me up if you want.
They just released Prifddinas
so now it's finally worth checking out
once you become the yes man, you will be known as the yes man.
i struggled with this in the workplace for a long time, but you have to be able to advocate for yourself and not take on too many additional responsibilities outside of what you're being paid for.
people just start taking advantage of you and it won't stop until you're inevitably burnt out like you mentioned.
just remember to put yourself first if everyone else is putting themselves first too.
Maybe I'm wrong but that doesn't sound like laziness to me because you are not enjoying yourself. Your dread, paralysis, inability to begin even things that you like, and self-hatred remind me of this:https://medium.com/@devonprice/laziness-does-not-exist-3af27e312d01
Maybe reading it will help you.
Anon I used to be like you years ago and the advice I can give you is to calm down.
People like you or don't. It's not that important. I know it hurts probably because you love them so much and need to feel they will be there for you no matter what but what you're doing being this emotional is to push away people because they might feel overwhelmed by you.
You think they hate you because that's your biggest fear but try to remember that only because they don't say they love you all the time, you're still important to them.
This is not a competition, try to picture it as if it was with your partner: if they told you all the time out of the blue how much they love you, even when you already know, wouldn't be strange for you? Almost forced, I'd say.
I'm sorry if I sound harsh but this way of thinking it pretty toxic
, I know because I was like you and I almost lost all of my friends, just one stayed by my side after asking me - more than ten times - that I needed to calm down. He told me that sometimes I was exhausting because by the way I acted it always looked as if I was feeling guilty about everything even if it wasn't my fault and that he was actually tired of having to be there for me and TELL me because if not I'd be paranoid.
Now I'm sad because I'm thinking about a cat I really wanted to get a few years back when I was at the pound. It was hissing and angry at everyone because they were approaching it so quickly or tapping on the glass; you could clearly tell it was abused. She had a missing eye and patches of fur missing. One guy laughed at it, "It shouldn't act like that if it wants to get adopted, looking like that." The girl who was with him giggled. That's the point, it doesn't want to be adopted, it doesn't know who to trust, the poor thing. It sounds like I'm making this shit up, but I was appalled. Everyone went after the clearly "cuter" orange kittens and ignored this one, as it was old and black. I could relate to the shivering that cat was going through, it reminded me of my PTSD. Funnily enough, I was the only person that cat would let get close to her. She would walk away from the other guests when they reached to pet her (the staff opened up the container to get another cat out), but she let me hold her. The staff said that no one has ever been able to hold that cat except two other girls working there. I had such a connection to this kitty, I felt it, but my parents hated cats and would not let me get her no matter how much I pleaded. I hope she found a good home, if she wasn't put down.
I hate people.
I miss the early, non-corporate days of the internet, when forums were educational, YouTube had quirky skits, and Tumblr was a welcoming place to find friends. I'm so frustrated and lonely; modern social media sucks the creativity out of everything, especially with the bland new layout designs and rules that will get you banned for just about anything. 4chan is no longer funny, and is just filled with the same recycled stale memes and political racist/misogynistic cult dogshit. I don't know why I use the internet anymore. Maybe I'm just getting older (doubt it, when I see pics of old myspace, deviantart, etc. I feel a tinge of joy). Are there any websites that remind you anons of the "gold ol' days" I can use? If not, I think I'm going to be tapering off and leaving the web soon.
>>448487>why didn't you do something nice like go volunteer there
I was 12 you retard. I can't volunteer now because I'm always working just to stay afloat financially.
>you seem just as bad as the other people who didn't want an abused cat
And you seem like a scrote. Go back to your containment site.
You're a dick and probably a maleposter.
She's allowed to feel bad for the cat and hope it was adopted, try growing some empathy.
12 year olds can definitely volunteer at shelters to serve food and just play with the cats.
and no, sorry, insulting you doesn't make me a man. i just think people like you are morons. it's not the job of people adopting any strays to try to fix broken cats that someone else broke. adopting from a shelter is a mixed bag anyway and often ends up in them taking the cat back for a second/third time. your parents didn't want to adopt a problem cat that would likely have high medical bills and need a lot of extra time and care just because you developed empathy at a young age. and neither did those other parents who were probably just trying to smooth over things for their small children. how young are you? because you still seem really fucking young.
You know infighting is not allowed here? and this is the vent thread
? Are you lost?
The minimum age for volunteering at that shelter was 14. I don't expect people to want to adopt the cat due to financial reasons, but making fun of it is uncalled for. My parents were looking to adopt a pet at the time and said I could help pick. We had more than enough money to care for it, my dad made 70k a year. It wasn't the abuse or financial aspect that put my parents off to adopting it, they literally said it was because she's a cat. Learn to read.
And we're wight to assume you're a scrote because of what >>448498
said. Learn board rules.
sorry but you're really whiny and don't get what goes into adopting pets like that. that's why i didn't go into detail and just called you retarded. grow the fuck up and stop trying to act like your empathy for a cat somehow makes you a better person when you wanted to use it to burden everyone around you. you are just making excuses for everything. i absolutely hate people like you.
btw, if you have time to argue on lolcow you have time to do more productive things kek.
I never said I was a better person and you pulled that out of your ass. Stop projecting your self righteous bullshit on others.>>448504
I'm not bothered on a day-to-day basis by this, but reading posts about cats reminded me of it. Sounds like you need therapy if you could pull all of this strawmaning from a single post.
Fuck this thread. I'm done.
Don't cut yourself on that edge, anons.
There are tons of far worse anons on this board, but you chose to call someone retarded, a bad person and generally go off on them all because they shared a single childhood memory about a kitten they wish they could've adopted? I just can't relate.
Woah could you please post articles or stuff you've read about the link to organ trafficking?? I haven't heard anything about that part.
I knew that the extradition bill was actually in response to the fact that they couldn't extradite a man who admitted to murdering his gf in Taiwan and then fled to HK and they couldn't do anything, so in some ways I thought it made sense to cover up those loopholes, but of course China being China…
thank you for this perspective, anon. there's definitely things keeping me from working, but I have so much guilt that I can't be that nice to myself, I have to shake myself up and get to work, which is hard because I usually rely on other people's anger, when they are finally done with my shit, for motivation (wow unhealthy).
thank you though, I feel a little bit better and I'll try to seize this little moment of relief for productivity.
going through exactly the same right now, just studying for an exam instead
it sucks, i never had to study in highschool and suddently in university i need to be able to study and do this work and i can't bring myself to it
and when i start it's not really effective
wishing you the best that you can get out of this though, i'll cheer you on for the next few sentences/ paragraphs you write
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Would I be an asshole if I didn't go to my cousin's wedding for being a huge bitch to me?
We've never been close, she's 5 years older than me. She's the daughter of my mother's brother and I feel like their family has always alienated me and seen me as an othered person. There's three siblings total including her, plus another cousin from another branch of family I don't speak to. Regardless they've always been super close while treating me like a black sheep. We only really communicate during holidays and on occasions where we are together due to family events. I've been around them when they talk nasty and judgmental shit about other people, so I always knew they were giving me the same treatment behind my back. They distance themselves and don't even act like they know me in some cases. I'd describe them respectively as unironic Chad and Stacey stereotypes that 4chan tends to screech about. Except now they're in their 30s and are pretending to be adults with their shit together.
Anyway, when this cousin was planning her wedding she let her sister and the other cousin I mentioned be her bridesmaids. I was the only female family member left out. It's not that I care because I frankly find weddings tacky and I hate being a bridesmaid, but I think it goes to show how much she doesn't care for me to have not even asked. Bet she'd still expect a gift from me!
Needless to say, bride cousin hasn't stopped harping about this wedding. She loooooooves my mommy dearest because she's giving the cousin thousands of dollars for a few venues for this wedding. My mom is a master at buying love out of people with money and gifts for her favorites.
I went no contact with my mom a couple of months ago because she is an abusive narcissist. I had the last straw with her. Her abuse was so bad that I left home in a hurry-threw my shit in storage and lived out my car and my gym membership for awhile as I worked because it was still better than living with her.
I finally found a place to live with my stepdad (who separated from her) and we split rent. But before that my friends had helped me a few nights so I'd have a comfortable place to crash besides my car. I made a post on social media intended for my friends only, just to update them on my situation and highlight some of the abuses that pushed me to make such a decision. It wasn't really scathing or dramatic, just honest. I got a lot of support from my friends and people who weren't aware of what I was going through became empathetic.
I made one mistake, however. I forgot to block one of those distant cousins in my privacy settings for the post. I later found out that this rat screencapped my entire post, and sent it out in a mass email to every single member in my family–who of course would stan for my narc mom. Hey, my narc mom isn't so bad if you don't live with the cunt and aren't her emotional target. I'm sure to outsiders she's just swell and looks like a great parent.
So bride cousin gets ahold of the email and thinks she's going to text me in order to bitch me out about what I posted. I was with friends at the time and it was upsetting to read. She had no idea what I went through and didn't care, because she cares more about being a goldenchild to my mom than me. She wrote to the tune of: ~*~HoW dArE U sAy ThAt I cAnTT bElIeVE yOu PoStED ThAT AbUT uR MAaWwWMm! JUst WaIt TiL ShE SeEs ThIsSSS~*~
First thing I replied to her about was how it was funny that she's more concerned about me telling the truth about her abuse, than her being concerned about my homelessness and living out of my car.
Secondly, that I knew for a fact that she was blocked from seeing the post and so if mom found out about it, I'll know who was in on snitching me out. Ergo she can't be trusted.
She backpedaled and gave me a few more copout lines, but it's been a month and she hasn't bothered me again since. I deleted most of them off social media.
I frankly don't like them, and the cat's out of the bag now as to who they'll cape for in the end.
I don't want to go to her wedding where I'll have to see her traitor face and then be made even more uncomfortable for the fact that my mom will be there as well.
I feel like sending a card, with no money in it, and being done with them all. I hate them very much, and I know they have no love for me at all.
it would probably be even more awkward to attend the wedding after all of this than not going
sending a card sounds like a good plan, go with that and live your best life (which is without them)
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>when you learn your abusive serial killer in the making NPD ex managed to hook some poor girl into being his gf
the fucker almost killed me twice. i told stories about him here before when i was too scared to break up with him and everyone told me to run the hell away. i wish we lived in a more trusting world where i could tell this girl to gtfo but i just have to sit back and try to hope she doesn't end up dead
I really wish I didn't have to be on birth control, I recently started taking it again and the one method that was working was too expensive and the one I'm on now is making me break out and its almost all mildly cystic. I'm not even sexually active right now I just couldn't control my periods because of the other PCOS medication I'm on. I was basically having multiple "periods" a month. I might just bite the bullet and join >>448763
and stop taking it again and hope I've been on my other medication long enough that my body doesn't make me bleed on and off every other week.
My anxiety is so much worse than before.
My parents were alcoholics since I was a kid. When they finally give up alcohol, almost 15 years has passed. Sadly my mother died afterwards (nothing to do with her alcoholism which makes it so much harder to handle) and I almost have no contact with my dad.
I always thought this started when I was 7 or 8 years old but now I know I was wrong, that was when I started having memories of it.
I talked with some family members (we never discussed this situation because it felt wrong or like a secret we should keep) and they told me that even when I was no more than two they started noticing signals. I was only two.
I’m scared and pissed off. So, so angry. I have many questions that won’t be answered and I feel bad for getting mad, I feel bad because I loved my mother with all my heart and she did her best to give up alcohol and when she did it, she died anyways. I feel like I put her on a pedestal and now I can only think about why, she told me already the reasons that made her drink (as well as my father) and I understand it but…I was a baby. A baby.
I wish I didn't know all of this because I feel disappointed with the only person I truly loved and cared, with the one who always was there for me. I lost my best friend and now I feel angry and betrayed.
I.e. I bit my nails for many years (maybe from 3 to 8 years old). I always told this to people because I find it peculiar but now I realise it was probably because of my anxiety.
My emotional dependence and my fright of losing people probably is explained by how I was left alone crying for hours in the street where my family members found me asking for my mom (who was drunk sleeping).
And I feel ashamed and guilty of writing this because it was a secret, nothing to be proud about, she was better and in rehabilitation and now dead, it feels wrong.
I only told my best friend part of it (she knows all the problems with alcohol because for years I couldn’t take a shot without crying uncontrollably and started to apologise to everyone, also she met my parents while they were drunk) because I can’t say it out loud to anyone, nor my boyfriend.
I don’t want to meet up with other friends, I want to be left alone, I don’t even want to talk because as selfish as it sounds, every time they complain about their lives it seems nonsense to me because for the things they’re complaining about I know they didn’t have it as hard as me and probably won’t. It’s not a competition and I know it’s not right to feel resentful but I can’t fight this feeling, I’m in so much pain.
What’s worst is knowing that even if I search for help there’s nothing I can do, the only thing I want is to hear my mother’s voice, to reassure me it’s okay, to talk about it and that’s fucking impossible.
Anon did you write here before, right? I remember you bc of the last part were you felt abandoned by your primary school…
I’m sorry this is happening to you, I well know how terrible that feeling of insecurity and vulnerability is but try to see it this way…people notice things, even if they don’t say anything and now they’re worried about you.
I really hope you the best, I’m sorry your life’s this hard atm.
Thank you for your honest reply anon, I'm glad you hear you got past this. I hope that I can get over it too, I don't want to be a lame friend anymore either! >it always looked as if I was feeling guilty about everything even if it wasn't my fault
I really related to this, I guess it's something that needs addressed somehow
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My panic attacks are getting really bad again. I've been dealing with them for my entire life, but I thought I was finally figuring out how to manage them a bit better. I'm so tired but also so agitated! I feel like the constant fight or flight and sense of imminent death are actually going to kill me. I need a hug.
Trust me, I know it's easier to say it than to do it but the moment you just try to not care (even if it seems wrong to you and you have to force yourself somehow), you'll understand that it's your mind telling you everything's wrong when actually your friends probably won't care if you send one, two or three messages.
What opened my eyes was exactly this, trying to reduce the number of messages I sent (even when the urge was strong because I didn't want them to think something was wrong with me) and seeing how even if I didn't talk with them for two days, everything was fine and normal, norhing has changed and they didn't think bad about me.
I'm sure you're not a lame friend because they choose you to be their friend in first place, so I'm also sure you have a good and kind personality.
Wow your realtor sucks. Not saging this because it's important you see this answer - it's very possible that the realtor and the seller are in cahoots. That they're deliberately setting things up so that you'll pay more in the end (and the realtor gets a bigger %).
This is what my realtor tried to do to me. I caught on to her, amazingly she didn't even deny it. They agreed to close the deal immediately the way it should have been before the delays.
Please be aware of this and do not let yourself be duped (I have a feeling you won't, you're already rightly suspicious). The law is on your side.
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One of my favorite pet instagrammers just posted this on their story and I'm so fucking heartbroken. I have a senior pekingese too, and we found out she has kidney issues last month. We're treating a stubborn UTI at the moment, but I don't have high hopes that that'll be the end of her problems.
A few weeks ago I used up half of my savings to pay for her burial plot and the maintenance fee for it. She bounced back from when we got the initial diagnosis and is back to her annoying and yappy self, but it hurts to know her time might be soon. I love Chewlia too, she's so beautiful and cute. This post was just an unfortunate reminder of why I give my dog medication every morning, why I fret over every little thing, why the mornings when she's too lethargic to walk or eat are the worst because I don't know if it's her last day or not. I'm so fucking sad. Why can't dogs live forever? I've had my dog for 15 years, how am I supposed to live without her? Chewlia was adopted as a senior dog after being found as a stray, I'm so sad thinking that she finally has loving home, warm bed, and food and her time might be soon too.
Fuck I'm about to make a fool of myself at work and start crying.
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Iktf. Here's a virtual hug, anon.
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consider vintage!! there's a lot of vintage stuff for about the same as or cheaper than new, especially for things that aren't branded. like your standard kmart/sears sweaters & button downs and stuff used to be, maybe not well-made per se, but at least cotton or ramie/linen and not the rayon disasters they sell at big stores now. i really can't believe the amount of like, under armory synthetic type stuff people wear. to me it just isn't comfortable and it also deteriorates really fast in my experience.
imo etsy is really good for vintage basics, since people tag things well in terms of size, color and material as opposed to ebay/poshmark where people tag mostly by brand. full disclosure though, if you buy vintage stuff on etsy in some categories, there is a good chance you will be buying from me. so i am not an unbiased advisor in this regard.
If anyone thinks that's ridiculous then let them, it sounds like you had a wonderful bond with him right up until his last moment, and still.
Loss is intense, and a week is nothing.
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it's more possible than you think. this waistcoat is actually late 1700s but it auctioned for only $287 - https://www.augusta-auction.com/search-past-sales?view=lot&id=4825&auction_file_id=8
that was in 2007 though so things are probably more now. that site has some really funny stuff so i spend a lot of time on there, and there's really nothing that's much more expensive than modern designer. which is just insane honestly.
>>449045>I recently found out the girl, who was valedictorian and went to college to be a pharmacist and do chemical engineering, wants to marry her now army boyfriend and become a stay at home mom.
She sounds smart. Why not let the man pave her way if he can provide? If having children is something she wants then it's much easier done as a stay at home mom than balancing the hell that is childcare and job.
If she already has the education and some experience it means she can always pick her career back up again if military hubby doesn't pan out.
You should definitely be concerned about the brainless unemployed thot friend giving her offspring away to family between boyfriends though.
>>449050>Nta but because he can withdraw that support at any time?
Which can happen regardless if she has a job.>Because you can't leave someone you depend upon to live
She has an education, why couldn't she find a job and leave if it came to that?
It's a bit of a different situation. For anon to have started out with the jobless educationless thot and then fixate on this woman who relatively has her shit together is a bit…odd.
women can still get jobs after they have children so I think they are comparing the graduate to the lifestyle of the lazy baby momma too much
there’s nothing wrong with staying at home for two or three years to take care of a kid until they’re in school
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One of my friends just vented to me about how he's gotta move back in with his parents because the sister that he was renting from wants to kick him out specifically because she wants to walk around the house naked.
Lmao, can't make this shit up.
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I am jealous of people with thick hair density. My hair is curly but really thin so I look like I have random bald spots on my head because the curls stick together. My brothers and sister all have thicker hair than me. I'm also the shortest of my siblings but I'd trade two inches of height for hair like theirs. As the youngest, I feel like my mom's body just gave up and handed me all the bad genes.
I'll commiserate with you anon. My hair is also very thin and it has a frizzy curl to it. I basically walk around looking like I have damaged witchy hair most of the time. It's quick to grease at the roots while the ends look permanently dry and frazzled, even with hair masks.
When I heat tool my hair it looks okayish, but it's too damaging to do everyday. I just get people commenting on how nice it looks compared to when I let it go natural and it makes me feel bad. Yet even when I heat tool and style it, it's only a matter of weather or a little bit of sweat for it to poof out and refrizz.
I look like an extra monkey right now because my hair broke and shed a lot recently so now I have a lot of flyaways from regrow. It's a hot mess.
I want to be one of those girls who wake up everyday with silky, gorgeous hair with no effort.
Thicker hair would've been a blessing for me not only for the fact that it generally looks nicer, but it also would have balanced out my moon face and square jaw better.
Is your family patriarchal?
Mine is. I never had siblings but the eldest and only male cousin in my family was mollycoddled in a similar fashion and is now a psychotic piece of shit in his 30s.
Antics include: Repeatedly crashing expensive cars his parents bought him and trading in lesser cars he was bought for more expensive trucks; stealing gas and getting into legal trouble whereby he'd bilk my grandparents for thousands for lawyers; hooking up with floozie women from bars for social clout and getting into fights; having an out of wedlock child with one said bar floozie that he uses to curry pity gifts and money out of other family members; constantly pretends to be a good single dad even though he refuses to vaccinate his child or put him in early schooling; stole a firearm from an uncle and became enraged and entitled when the uncle called him to give it back.
!*!BuT hOw DiD hE bEcOmE sUcH a SpOiLeD BrAt~*~
When my grandparents were alive they were super deluded about him, thinking he'd become a dentist (lmao). He never did well in high school, was a partier, and had no interest in college.
His current job is being a mid manager in a timeshare selling company. So basically a scam artist. And it must hardly pay the bills even though he posts on social media about flying to exotic places because he always acts hard up for things like furniture and stuff for his kid. I'm sure he'd be a slob too if it weren't for his image that he's so desperate to cling to.
Men have shit on easy mode and they still manage to fuck up everything and blame someone else.
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I sound like a jelly hater but influencers that put relatable captions on photoshopped images bother me more than they should
I don't have anything against photoshopping, or girls trying to seem relatable even when they don't realise that they aren't, but the combination of the two gives me a bad taste. Don't call it irl when it isn't.
Thank you, I’m hoping something will happen to change him but deep inside, I want him to fuck up so badly that he wakes up or gets tossed out.>>449216
I think it has a lot to do with the fact she didn’t really raise us, all of my childhood memories up until I was old enough to babysit are mostly from shitty cheap daycares that we’d be moved around to. She worked a lot and never really established parental authority, and he has always abused that.
The pic and caption just scream 'I'm self obsessed' to me
I only ever like pics of animals and cute things on insta cos I hate that shit
We definitely do. She told me a long time ago how we have to do it because we're the women of the house and I almost lost my fucking shit. The only reason why I clean the floors and help her with laundry is because I know no one else with help her and she'll end up having to do all of it alone. There were so many better ways to frame it to not make me so mad about my dad and cousin very barely contributing to the household chores, but this is the way she chose to go about it. She's pretty old fashioned so I can't blame her, but fuck does it really boil my blood.
My dad isn't completely irredeemable as a person and is very loving, supportive of me, and defensive of my mom when her friends/family treat her like shit, but he's got his bad qualities and it's so unfortunate that they're huge glaring problems that sometimes completely cloud over his good qualities rather than just being small nuisances. My cousin really needs to pick up the fucking slack though. It's not that he's spoiled and rotten as much as he definitely should contribute considering all he does is play monster hunter all day. My parents gloss over him because he's not technically their kid (staying with us while he studies at uni), as if he's a guest at a hotel and not basically just a freeloader at this point.
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I am so jealous of people who had normal childhood. They can always at least look back at memories and shit when they get sad or some shit. I was just sat here thinking back and I have tried to block nearly everything, so if there were some cute moments, can't fucking remember in the midst of all the shitfuckery. Same goes for the people with a safety net made of family, bitch you do not understand the panic and depression you have knowing you're fucked if you fuck up. You fail and fucking uwu yourself into your pillowy ass family. I am so mad wow. Same goes to these weirdass snowflakes who claim to be so banned from their family, such black sheeps they are, their parents hate them yet when any holiday or even the occasional weekend comes, it's mommy, daddy and me selfie galore. I am jealous goddamit, why the fuck do you get that, what the fuck did I ever do to not get that shit even as a kid, I want answers. Let me just scream into the void for a bit, I know I am pathetic right now but jesus fucking christ I am Salty.
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I empathize with you entirely. When I see people my age who have a great family and good upbringings I tell myself it's stupid to feel jealous and bitter and that I should be happy for them, since every child deserves that. But when it comes to people who claim that they've had such a terrible experience with their parents, only to fall back on them every time they want money, nice items, or trips, it angers me to no end.
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this is only pertaining to the picture and not a slight at you, but who tf looks at memes to cheer yourself up. memes are depressing. cute animal pics are where it's at.
I always feel extra awful because I am getting salty for something everyone should have? Glad (I guess) someone else gets it too!>>449289
I just chose a pic I first found on my phone, I usually get even sadder with animal pics because I can't see mine anymore due to the shit family, but you have a good goddamn point.
I agree, and I disagree. She's probably going to end up very mentally unstable more than she already is
from this, at the same time, we need to care about our planet now so much more than ever. Whatever inspires some change in the mindset of the general population, I guess I'm for it.
I have a hard time believing that she only has Aspergers, she's already 16 yet looks like a 10-year-old with down syndrome. She's just a mere puppet of her fame and money hungry parents and also of leftist/green parties.
So many kids in my country used to protest during that last view months and now cause there are summer vacations nobody does lol
Only spoiled brats whith the newest iphones who have their moms drive them everywhere…
Plus her sailing stunt is actually less environmentally friendly than flying. A couple people had to fly the US to bring the boat back and the crew who sailed with her needs to fly back too.
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Some pedo that online groomed me when I was 14 is sorta big now.
I recently went through my old snapchat and saw our messages… He was 20 at the time and now he's big on twitter with around 10k followers for being an esports coach and I feel really weird about it. Thinking back to it now is messing me up and even more so for the fact that he's actually somebody notable online.
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I've had my cornsnake for several years, and the other day he had his first incomplete shed. He basically had leftover skin bits still stuck to him, usually he only gets it on the tail but this time it was up near his neck and face.
I was too afraid to leave it on him, so I soaked him for a spell and attempted to peel it off but he gave me a bigger fight about it than expected. He doesn't bite, but he struggles a lot. The only times he was still was during little spurts of exhaustion but shortly after that he went back to wacky flailing inflatable no arm flailing tube man.
I feel like he's still stressed out by me. Is it pathetic that I just want my snake to love me in the capacity that a noodle can love a human? I wish he understood my good intentions.
I recently got a blood python, a hatchling. People keep telling me they're aggressive and nippy and whatnot. But mine is…chill? She does well with handling but still gets antsy sometimes. I want to try building a bond with her and maybe she can like me in some capacity. Or maybe I'll always be that annoying moving tree thing that picks her up sometimes.
On another snake related thing: it bugs me when people just buy a snake (or other reptile, etc.) and just shove it in a tub, on a rack. With minimal substrate or decoration. What's the point? What kind of life is that. I want my snake to be enriched, and thrive instead of just surviving. I'm planning a bioactive enclosure and it's more expensive but she deserves the best. I just love that little sausage.
Right? I have a huge terrarium setup for my snake. He has several hides and natural log branches for him to climb up on. His tank is in my room so I can see him from time to time, and I think he enjoys scoping on me when I'm on my laptop sometimes.
I don't believe reptiles really care about being constantly enriched but it seems so nasty and indifferent to shove them into plastic tubs like what so many of those reptile hoarders do. It disturbs me when people treat animals as objects like that.
Exactly. I guess if you're a breeder and you need to have a lot of snakes in one area…but I still don't understand it. I don't care about morphs/bred color patterns, or people valuing the color over the actual snake itself. Especially when in some cases (like spider ball pythons) it can lead to actual neurological issues. I have a friend who has a WIDE variety of reptiles and it kind of bothers me because I hear her get something new every so often.
Also my dad is still kind of annoyed with my decision to get a snake, despite it living in my room and he literally never has to see or touch it. He seems to legit think they will carry salmonella or are all disease carrying wild animals.
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I think I’ve developed an ED.
It started out with dieting, keto, then intermittent fasting and now I can’t eat anything without guilt or numbers running in my head like the fucking math lady meme. I’ve tried throwing up several times but I can never do it properly. If I managed to throw up successfully I’d probably do it all the time.
I’m trying to focus on exercise and healthy dietary choices for the most part but god am I tired of trying to be “good” all the time.
I wish I could go back to my teen days and eat whatever I wanted without caring so much. Now I’m miserable just trying to lose 5-10 pounds.
He did the crime, force him to do the time. Victims
of grooming often empathize with their attackers too much to press charges by the time they e grown to realize what happened. Don't do that, it's how groomers win and the goal they want. He fucked with your life when you were powerless, now you have power. Bury him.
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ughhh my boyfriend is at a party with a bunch of dicks and i feel bad even though i shouldnt because thats toxic or whatever, so now im drinking alone to compensate.
My longterm relationship fell apart out of the blue but I guess there were a lot of issues building up that we didn't acknowledge until the end.
He got really into fitness and health. Gym every single day, sometimes doubling up, but cannot miss a single day. Started with vegan diet, then intermittent fasting, then OMAD. Plus he's sober. So not only could we not go out to drink, we no longer could go out to eat. Or even really cook. And if I was hungry or ate, there'd be tension and judgement.
I tried to support him for so long but it got to a point where I could see him trying to do week long water fasts "just to push himself". And I was so sick of being judged for wanting to eat. Going out for dates was out of the question because he only ate after the gym, at work. But he made his own exceptions when he wanted ice cream or junk food. But only when he wanted them.
Plus when we started dating, and he was drinking at the time, we had rough/kink sex. He would tell me he got hard just if I was in the room.
But he got sober (good), the sex slowed down, then happened maybe once a week, or two weeks. For ~5 minutes. Just felt like obligation. I started feeling like shit about myself, and even now my libido is still fucking shot.
Anyway now I realize when I'm ready I can see someone else and be able to eat/drink but it seems ingrained into me that no one will want to fuck someone who doesn't go to the gym 7+ times a week and eats <800cals a day and doesn't have veins showing in her hipbone area.
I'm doing the exact same thing except it's a concert instead of a party.
Also, what anime is this character from?
This sounds like the nightmare gymbro experience, you have my sympathies.
Know that none of his behavior was normal, is sounds deeply eating disordered. I'm glad you're out of there. I hope you meet a normal guy who loves food next time.
If they're still kpop fans it makes sense that a lot of them would be ana-chans since they idolize people who display their anorexia like a prize>>449577
Yeah it kinda defeats the purpose of the thread>>449683
I feel for you anon. People can be so disgusting and horrible, and siblings are no exception, despite what some people may think
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I know you think this guy you met 3 month ago is the love of your life, but c'mon. He a shitty man child. He is a disability check weeb with no car or job. The only thing he is good for is being a human dildo. You may be a fat girl, but you can do better than this fat manchild.
To answer you request on him staying a week every month. Denied. I told you I don't want to live with a man. I don't feel comfortable or trust him to be left alone in my home. So, you are gonna have to go back to fucking him at his mama house.
You decided you love this lazy POS, so you are gonna have to lie in that semen stain bed next door. Gosh, you better hope to not get pregnant by this man, because I can't support this. I'll leave and you'll never hear from me again.
you thought i was joking when I said I'll leave when you start to get serious with him. I wasn't, I can't take this relationship seriously. you both act like unsupervised 15 years old. All you two do is eat fast food and fuck.
If he doesn't care about your diet, or how you live in filth, or improving yourself. Than I don't give a fuck about him.
the last week he was here, prove how little he truly care. He just using you to get a cheap room and cheap pussy from. Wake up. The only true date place you went to was the movies, you both stay inside or ate fast food. How is it that your relationship is base around eating and fucking?
I wish there was more to complain about, but there honestly nothing to your relationship I can honestly think about. It sad, boring and I can't believe this is who you want? You.Are.Settling. Trust me, I know it hard being close to 30 and this is the first guy to EVER like you, but you can't settle for bottom of the barrel dick. C'mon, you can do better.
As a friend of 10 years, I know I am being incredibly mean and cruel, but Damn. I don't know how to tell you how worried I am about you. My gut is telling me this guy is all red flags, but I hate to be the person to make you sad. So, I'm struggling to be okay with this. I want you to be happy. I want to see you get married and have children. You'll be a great mom and wife. I love the years we been friends.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry, but I can't do this anymore.
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I hate my height. And the fact that nobody takes me complaining about it seriously. Whenever I vent about guys not liking me everybody comments "Why don't you go for shorter guys?" - as if they would like me. Short to average men usually are the most cruel.
Short men on reddit, 4chan, youtube, simply everywhere on the internet go full on incel, yet while us tall women would also have a billion reasons to sperg out just like them nobody of us does. Something like a female bagel-man would never happen. Instead of getting angry I as well as other tall girls only turn more and more quiet and insecure.
My biggest wish would be to look normal and not have such a hard time dating.
When I was a young girl and getting mocked for being tall by other students and receiving nasty comments by adults I always thought I'd be more confident as an adult.
Tomorrow I'll turn 24 and it's still a massive (literally) problem in my life, I feel as if it'll never get better.
Whenever I meet somebody new I'm bound to get not so nice comments for it. I'm 5'10 while my coworker is probably 5'8 and she constantly comments on how small she feels next to me, how glad she is that she's not as tall as me… She's just 16 so she doesn't know better, but it hurts nevertheless.
Just recently I went to a new doctor and of course the first thing she says is "OMG you are sooo tall! How tall are you?!" She probably didn't mean it in a bad way, but nevertheless why does everybody think this is okay? I didn't think of telling her she's short and old either…
When I was younger I comforted myself with unironically wishing to become a model, but now that I'm a not so pretty, not so skinny adult, being a giant is literally useless. The only thing I'm good for is helping grannies get stuff of the top shelf in supermarkets.
Pic related, I'll probably really do that lol
I think tall girls are hot tbh. And there's definitely hope for you, anon. My brother and his girlfriend are the same age as you, and they're 6'5" and 5'10" respectively.
Tall guys being into short girls is a meme, methinks. All the tall guys I know are with tall girls.
i’m 3 inches taller than you and all it’s gotten me is attention from weird dudes who have a height fetish so
it’s really not a big deal anon, you get one body and you’re allowed to bitch as much as you want but it’s not going to help you in the long run. just be your tall ass self and live your best life
I feel you anon, I'm 5'9", been mocked for my height my whole life, especially by strangers. Had a friend who was about 5'6" and would make non stop comments about how tall I am. My sister is about 5'3" and always reminds me of how tall I am and loves to remind people of how short she is. And I'm the unfortunate kind of tall, because even though I'm tall I'm not slender, I'm still very round and my torso is what makes me tall rather than my legs which I fucking hate. If you're the kind of tall girl who has long legs then you should wear outfits that accentuate that, or that accentuate whatever you like about yourself. I've heard that having short hair can make you look shorter.>>449942
I don't know about that. My ex boyfriend liked to talk about how much he wanted to fuck short girls with small tiddies and ass too (I'm the opposite of all three of those) and when I would get offended he would just tell me that I had insecurity issues, which I did, but I told him it upset me and yet he kept doing it. I think tall men get an ego boost from being around short women, it's a domination thing, or at least it was with my ex.
Your ex is a shithead. If he was with a short girl, he'd probably neg her by saying she's too short. He was probably intentionally negging you because he thought that destroying your self-esteem would make you stay with him. It's what psychos do when they're worried that girls will leave them.
Sex between a tall guy and a short girl is literally painful because of the size disparity. I've been told as much by a couple short women already.
I'm thinking short girl = short vagina = hitting cervix = pain
Plus he's using more strength and force to hit that cervix than a smaller man can
>>449943>They can eat more.
But since my body needs more calories I also get hungry quicker than shorter girls.>They look so mature.
That's one of my main problems tbh, since I always wanted to look and dress cute, but was never able to, even as a child. I don't have the typical "stacy" personality, so dressing elegant or sexy feels super odd to me. But whenever I try something more girly it also looks weird. So I dress just super plain. Plus finding winter coats that don't leave a good portion of my arms bare is also difficult. Same for shoes.>>449953
My friends also constantly said rude things, like comparing their small body parts with my bigger ones. I can't believe thtat this wasn't intentional.>my torso is what makes me tall rather than my legs
I'm the same, super tall, but stumpy legs.>>449961>Sex between a tall guy and a short girl is literally painful because of the size disparity.
Just because a woman is tall doesn't men that she's looser than you down there…
thanks anon, you're very sweet! that shift went okay but i actually just got sent home from today's shift cuz i had a panic attack in the middle of the tea room and threw up from stress (which i didn't realise was a thing!)
maybe i AM overworking myself…
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I keep hearing about these genius kids that graduate from HS early (around 15 or so) while also going to a community college so they can enter university as a junior and it makes me so feel so stupid.
I'm attending community college now, I'm 20 years old, a semester behind because I started late, and I'll probably not even have my degree until 2022.
Comparing yourself to people is dumb, I know, (especially since a lot of those guys are coming from these mega rich families) but goddamn. I can't help it.
not really? I never update my fb either and just keep it for events and about two groups I'm in
If my local lolita community didn't organize their events through facebook i wouldn't even log on anymore
too bad you're not a lesbian, anon
tall girls are so hot
i hope your plans still ended up fun anon, that sucks i feel with you
make the best out of the day and treat yourself
The most relatable post, why do we cling to shitty relationships?
I was so unhappy in my last relationship that I developed all sorts of little health issues..they all disappeared once I was living alone again
i feel you. i have cute clothing i never get to wear and use flavoured lip balm as though I'm going to get kissed but i never do because the person I love doesn't love me back.
and it's been that way for years, I have robbed myself of my teens and now sorely regret it.
i hope you reach your goal anon, I definitely wish I had had the drive to put myself out there and be more social.
You know what? It fucking pisses me off when my bf pretends to be sad about someone dying or having some disease or whatever.
Like he won't care about the big stuff on most days, he'll downplay historical tragedies and shit, but here, for example, he'll message me during a work day;
>oh no, Roger passed away
>Roger X, a coworker in X department, died of X at whatever time
>oh right shame, did you know him?
>no, but it's so upsetting, apparently he was a great guy
I paraphrased, but the initial messages were done in such a way I thought it was someone close he knew, only to realise he probably just read it in some announcement and wanted to virtue signal all over the fucking place at the expense of this dead stranger.
Trying to paint traits of him to make it seem like more of a tragedy when he'd never fucking seen or heard of him before. It's gross and exploitative and I can see right through it.
Man I was so annoyed by it I didn't message him the rest of the day. SO many people do that too, it's terrible.
I know you guys hate fatties but I needed to vent somewhere.
I'm feeling so insanely discouraged about losing weight. This summer I've lost 15lbs (down from 200) through a combination of intermittent fasting, healthier eating and extremely expensive weight loss medication, which wasn't nearly as effective as my doctor promised it would be (this expectation set me up for failure big time already). I have hit a hardcore plateau already on the max dose. My doctor told me I need to start doing at least 20 min of cardio a day, not just a few times a week, because I am insulin resistant with PCOS, so I've stepped it up these last 2 weeks. I missed 1 day but otherwise I've been doing high intensity rowing for at least 30 min a day, as well as a 1 hr cardio spin class 2x a week. My eating has been perfect. All lean protein and leafy greens. No refined carbs or sugar. No cheat days. Water only, no soda, juice or milk. 1400 calories or under a day, as my doctor instructed. Stepped on the scale for my weekly weigh in - I had gained 3lbs. I hadn't expected enormous losses, but to GAIN kind of sent me over the edge and I broke down crying for hours.
It just sucks to work so hard and see no visible results, even my measurements haven't really changed. I know I should tell myself that even if my weight doesn't change, my diet and exercise is making me healthier every day. But all I can think about is my bulemic mom shaming me just like she did when I was a teenager because I was a size 6 and not a 2 like SHE was when she was in high school. I feel like I'm never going to be good enough.
It's highly unlikely you have actually gained 3lbs in fat. Weight fluctuates small amounts like that all the time, because of water weight or your digestive system or whatever. Just stick with it, you've already lost a good amount.
But yeah I can relate because it's so disappointing when the scales dont reflect your hard work, I feel so nervous before I weigh myself. But you just have to trust the math behind caloric deficits and keep going.
to add to this, if you've been exercising a lot more you've also probably been drinking a lot more water. water weight actually fluctuates a crazy amount. if I eat salty foods for two or three days in a row i start to physically look like i've gained a significant amount of weight due to water retention. also, if you stopped drinking/eating certain things that act as diuretics or laxatives, you might retain water for a while before your body gets back to normal after losing the external diuretic/laxative.
coffee/caffeine in particular does this to me. whenever I quit drinking coffee I get really tired & bloated for a while….basically feels like i have 3 days worth of poop in me and I have to eat a lot of kale for roughage and then shit like a lot to get back to normal
oh and it makes complete sense that you feel this way with that mom. Try to be kind to yourself and heal if you can. We're here for you.>>450323
I hope that kitten has a guardian angel watching over it till rescue! And it's not on you, it's on the owner or it was an accident. Good luck