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No. 2232518

Seethe and cope, do not start infights. This is for venting, not your personal infight playground.
Previous >>2222309

No. 2232561

I wish I could have more fun on Halloween, but at least I get to relax.

No. 2232678

>>2232518
>newfag puts furfag threadpic
>fails and makes a different duplicate of the same thread
we need to ramp up the bullying on this board(infighting retard)

No. 2232695

My family's house is a literal fucking biohazard hoarder hovel with plumbing issues and my mother and siblings refuse to do anything to clean it up. I've been slowly bagging up all the moldy and water damaged trash in the basement to bring to the dump but it's frustrating when no one else cares.

No. 2232697

>>2232678
? I never made a duplicate thread, and I'm not new kek. I just thought the picture was cute and Halloween-themed, take a pill or something.

No. 2232701

What can I do if I'm a woman and I like my boobs (I think they're fine and I'm fond of them) but can't help longing for a flat chest. Why would this be? My chest is rather small and fits the current standards, so it's not insecurity or backpain or catcalling.

No. 2232704

>>2232678
Is MLP furry now

No. 2232713

>>2232561
I hate it too. Reminds me of how socially retarded i am.

No. 2232779

>>2232701
the type of bra you wear makes a huge difference in how flat or busty you appear. Bras without padding or sewn in structure and that lack differentiation between the cups can make you look really flat. Currently wearing a bra that I wear whenever I want to look as flat as a board.

No. 2232804

When I'm watching children's movies with my bf, I tend to gasp at shocking moments. I think it exasperates him, but I can't help it. He teases me a lot about it, but idk, I think it's normal. I only even do it with children's movies, I don't think it's such a big deal?

No. 2232840

>>2232804
When I was a teenager I was constantly irked by how my mom reacted strongly to shows and movies by gasping at surprising and upsetting moments. To me it was obviously a hollow facade. Then I got older and I started naturally feeling more immediate empathy and concern for the things I saw, even knowing when they’re fictional.

No. 2232866

>>2232840
Yup when you get older and realize that even if the senseless violence presented to you is fake, there is human suffering that happens similarly all the same

No. 2232877

>>2232704
Brony shit is still furry

No. 2232880

>>2232866
NTA but I think you're right. Especially when the violence is something that could realistically happen it makes me tear up. Kids live in a bubble where they don't realize how harsh the world can be so I guess it's never real to them.

No. 2232893

>>2232880
Yeah it's funny when you're young, teens are allowed an amount of brevity for edgy phases. You get older and notice the amount of violence toward women in scary movies and thrillers and how it's angled in a way to serialize, suddenly torture porn horror isn't some funny challenge to laugh at. You see women and children in distress or in uncomfortable situations and understand that every day, there are people that face it far worse than depicted in film.

No. 2232932

Was creeped on by this middle aged moid in a discord group but when I reported it to the tranny mods, they suggested "mediation." And these are the type of fucks who always carry on about "safe spaces."

No. 2232933

>>2232877
But ponies don't have fur

No. 2232974

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>studying programming
>remote lesson today
>mostly voluntary to check in for help with assignments
>teacher is struggling with helping a student that is esl and our language as his third
>I feel sorry for them both but eat my brunch while I’m waiting for my turn to ask for help
>after 40 minutes they’re finally making progress
>teacher: “oh, you haven’t connected your repository to github. You need to do that”
>guy: “GitHub?”
>teacher: “yeah, if you haven’t installed git yet you really need to do that”
>guy: “why do I need git?? Do I have to?”
I could practically hear my teacher die in the inside. Like HOW THE FUCK HAVE YOU MANAGED TO GET BY WITHOUT FUCKING GIT FOR A YEAR ITS BEEN MANDATORY IN EVERY COURSE SINCE WE STARTED AAAAHHH

No. 2232987

Nobody has any creativity or even common sense these days they're fucking doomed. Been seeing the most retarded posts about costumes recently - like "omg where can I find this top from this pic I want to make this outfit?? I think it's the 90s does anyone know the brand???" and the pic is a fucking white tshirt written on with a sharpie. Or someone begging the local groups "my order for shrek ears didn't arrive pleease someone must have some??" like make some bitch, it would take you 5 minutes.
The ability to get absolutely anything online has completely hobbled humanity.

No. 2232991

Of course I wake up with acute strep throat on the day of Halloween and a day after I just spent $$$ purchasing an event ticket fml. Hopefully I can get antibiotics, the event is on Sunday and I read the shit is not contagious after 48 hours on antibiotics. Pray for me nons..

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>>2232991
Praying for you anon

No. 2232995

My dad's cooking is ASS and it's becoming a problem. For context, we're a latino family, so it's usual for the elders, most of the time women, to cook the meals. Inb4 "don't be ungrateful, you're annoying, picky eater!!" I already told him I could cook my own stuff no problem, yet he literally insists on cooking everything himself because he self-proclaimed as the best cook in the house (BS, it's mom), just for his meals to taste so fucking bad. I'm not even joking, they're that bad. He be putting cow grease on everything making the house as well as the dish stink of burnt pork, he puts thousands of onions in potato salads (and everything, tbh), and avoids draining/ cleaning meat properly cause he thinks all the grease "gives it flavor", he somehow manages to make simple lemonade taste very, very sour?? Wtf, it's so bad I can actually smell it, I just know when his ass it's at the kitchen fucking up a perfectly decent chicken cut.

He's very good at bakery though, maybe because he seriously likes sweets (not in a good way, he's very overweight, which may have killed his taste buds). Some people have an excellent taste for one specific type of dish then fuck up every else

No. 2232996

Sage because I’m a stupid dumb pickme Thai ain’t about to get picked.
The dude im absolutely crazy for hasn’t responded to me after i texted him!
I wanna tell him how much I love him, and how much he means to me but he’s never gonna let his babymama go, so duh obviously I’m never gonna tell him that. The sex with him literally makes me so fucking feral, thank god he’s fixed, I’ve been so accommodating like sneaking around for him, having sex with him in parking lots and wherever we can go. Sadly All I am to him is a fleshlight, I’ve been in love with this dude for over 6 years! He just bought a new house that’s super huge with his babymama and kid, him telling me that he’s going to the Bahamas with his BM, or calling me to cry because she’s texting other guys is such simp/ loser behavior from me and every time I have sex with him I end up having to see my gyno because he gives me a bad BV everytime. He doesn’t care if I have a bf either, he tells me everything I wanna hear and will tell me to leave my BF for him. I’ve been thinking about him non stop for too long. I wish there was a sister wives situation or something, I honestly wouldn’t mind sharing him, he’s been my favorite and best dick that hits different and he’s so hot. Sadly, his BM and him have been established for so long, I’m never gonna be in her spot, sad. Guess I’ll have to get it together and cut my losses. It’s not worth the heartache or wasted youth.

No. 2232997

>>2232995
Ahhh I’m so sorry nonny. My belly aches for you,

No. 2232998

>>2232996
this is pretty low tier bait. even you knew it was trash when you saged the post.

No. 2233002

>>2232996
This sounds like a post my chronically online mother would come up with if she posted on lolcow, it's in her style and tone. Mom is that you???

No. 2233003

>>2232998
They could have at least attempted this in /g/, it would have been slightly more believable

No. 2233004

>>2232996
The sad part is, fake or not, this story 100% exists in the world likely to the tune of millions of women being sidepieces for full time faggot men.

No. 2233005

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Can moids stop putting rape everywhere in their media? There have to be better ways to convey strong emotions and shock the viewer, like why's always rape? It's not that compelling, it's in fact severely overused. Do you seriously want me to believe they aren't getting off to it?? Bullshit. It's so low vibrational, fuck that vibe and fuck men and their psychic attacks against the higher feminine

No. 2233009

I accidentally did something really bad while i was trying to do good. Its nothing illegal just shitty and now the guilt is going to carry me through my entire life. Fuck.

No. 2233011

I wish I could rescue animals, especially black cats today.

No. 2233013

>>2233011
I saw a video about how pigeons were once loved and now we think of them as vermin and I want a house with a garden so I can care for pigeons.

No. 2233027

>>2233011
I'll hug my black cat for you tonight anon.

No. 2233030

>>2233011
I have a rescue black cat, he's been with me for about 3 years now. He must have been homeless for a long time cause his fur was so matted and he had to get a bunch of teeth removed due to decay. And he had this weird little lump on his neck with visible veins in it, a big abcess in his back and a really bad urinary tract infection. But after multiple vet trips (and a few thousand dollars unfortunately) he was all fixed up and healthy. Nows he's a chubby spoiled brat kek, I love him so much. He's so sweet and kind, we had an elderly female cat when we first took him in, he was so good with her. She hated him on site but he would give her space and let her hiss at him, she was so sick we couldn't really teach her any better, her mind was going too. But he was so gentle and kind she put up with him and didn't seem too bothered by his presence. She even let him sleep on the bed with her without swatting at him. When he'd come in to eat at the same time as her he'd wait patiently in the corner until she was done kek, cats are so precious.

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Why the fuck can't I catch a break. Two weeks ago we had issues with plumbing and today the heating died. I can't shower and the nights are getting colder. I'm so fucking tired, just let me have at least a fucking month of peace.

No. 2233079

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>me as I watch all of my interpersonal relationships crumble before me and my life is still stagnant and my heart turns completely cold and bitter with black oozing out of it and if you fucked with me and caused me pain we are all going down i’m becoming a villain

No. 2233101

>>2233079
this video is ver mesmerizing i feel like i need to praise the ccp

No. 2233116

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I keep getting these retarded pop psychology articles that make relationships sound more laborious than they should be. Loving someone is work, but it's as if pop culture is trying to make commitment seem exhausting.

No. 2233141

>>2233101
it feels like a song that would be posted in the north korea thread, the larpers in there make me laugh so hard

No. 2233175

it was so hot in my apartment last night I slept with a wet handcloth around my neck. I woke up with it crumpled against me, I was covered in sweat, and I stg I smelled like a dirty rag that's been stagnating at the bottom of a bucket. Then I took my supplements for the day and the caffeine pill got kind of stuck in the back of my throat, and I had this awful, bitter nasal drip combined with the taste of fish oil supplements. I took a shower and I can still kind of smell the moldy towel smell. I even stripped my comforter off and replaced the pillow case I was using. Fuck. I'm so sick of it being STINKY AND HOT IT SHOULDN'T BE THIS HOT IN OCTOBER I WANT A NORMAL FUCKING TEMPERATURE PLEASE I WANT TO WEAR CUTE THINGS IN MY APARTMENT LIKE A TURTLENECK OR A LONG SWEATER BUT I'M RELEGATED TO TANK TOPS AND SHORTS AND I LOOK LIKE A STUNTED BOY WITH A WEIRD ASS! okay vent fucking over

No. 2233178

>>2233141
its a chinese song actually

No. 2233261

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Men can’t play anything without cooming to it. I was looking for rimworld mods, and 25% of them were sex related. Fucking rimworld, where your colonist are only a head and a torso and men still want to jerk off to it. Gaming is doomed.

No. 2233275

I am starying to feel a new type of existential dread realising I’m just the product of my retarded genes. I may as well be dysgenic. It goes beyond my shitty face and body. My personality is merging closer and closer into my parents’. Every little factor about me is a flaw I fucking hate myself in every capacity I just wish I was never born. I don’t deserve anything given to me. Good or bad.

No. 2233277

>>2233275
but if you're becoming aware of it that means you can possibly change.

No. 2233281

>>2233277
it’s deeper than my behaviours its my thought patterns and the say I observe the world. In the same way people see animals cognitively, I feel like an animal in comparison to the people around me

No. 2233284

>>2232779
I don't wear bras at all, nonna. I don't need them, they stand on their own.

No. 2233323

I'm abstaining from coffee after several days of drinking too much of it. It's been four days or so and I'm still getting headaches despite sleeping well. Hate this. I'm also an idiot because I know I'm inevitably going to repeat this cycle since I still crave caffeine no matter how long I go cold turkey.

No. 2233326

I just ended a two year friendship with a moid because he admitted he likes loli. I don't have to explain myself

No. 2233329


No. 2233341

I hate drag queens. I never found them entertaining nor funny and I couldn't comprehend why and now I think I understood it better: no woman acts like them. Not a single one I met. They're so obviously faggoty it makes me puke, they're making fun of a caricature than men pushed on women and are trying to pass it off as "art", but it's art like painting your face black and screaming ooga badoonga it's art and doing juju rituals as a performance, what even is the target of drag queens? It's like saying that blackface is for black people, what? Faggots are obviously not attracted to femininity, in fact most of them like big, nasty, hairy men so why do they exist? I'm not trying to get a history lesson, I know how they came to existence but why are they still popular? What are even doing that for? Why is acting stereotypes classified as "art"? Every argument in it is also so weak, they'll try to spin it as "have fun with gender roles" while women HATE those and are trying to get off of them and in general, in this day and age, not wearing makeup is enough to destabilize men so? What did they achieve, besides looking gross? They're not better than troons.

No. 2233346

>>2233341
You're absolutely right on all your points. They say they do drag because they love women, but ever drag queen I met hates women unless they're Gaga or Madona. Some say they even cross dress which is a more watered down version of drag. However that's a bigger red flag because they too don't do it because they love women, they do it for a sexual fetish. Some drag queens even pride themselves that they catch straight men. Another invalid argument because secretly all moids are a little gay and will fuck anything.

No. 2233358

>>2233346
I love how crossdressing for them is like wearing heels or mini skirts, which the average woman does it rarely, because we know we're gonna get molested in them, so? Who are they crossdressing as? Their idea of women? A man's idea of woman? It's always pleasing men but it's funny because faggots don't like that and straight people find it "gay" so? It simply doesn't make sense. If a moid would crossdress as me he would wear sweaters, pants, nothing different from them so which is it?
"Skirts are for women!" The only people who care are other men, do it. Wear the skirt. You can without mocking a straight men idea's of women.

No. 2233361

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I keep thinking about dying, I feel like I should and nothing of value will be lost. I don't have depression, I don't have BPD, I simply have so much anxiety for the future that my mind goes there every time.

No. 2233364

>>2233361
I love this picture. Sorry about your suicide ideation though.

No. 2233382

do people who slam their breaks at every mild curve not realise that's far more dangerous than taking them at 60km/h? Literally there's no need to reduce your speed by 20/30km/h every time the road is not perfectly straight, the only thing you're gonna accomplish is get the car behind you to slam against the back of your car.

No. 2233384

I am in a new relationship now and I can't help but feel anxious. I've had two ex boyfriends and both of them used the exact same wording when we broke up. They told me that I am too much. That I need too much affection and that I am too sensitive. Also that we have nothing in common. I am just so scared of this shit happening again even though my new bf has been nothing but affectionate and kind. I think that this is a very deep wound from the past because my mother also told me similar things when I was a child. That I need to stop crying, that I need too much affection, that I suck her dry and that I am like a black hole.
I am unsure if I should just be upfront and tell my new bf about this (and might risk looking like a crazy bpd chan)

No. 2233389

If it's possible to prairiedog peaking then my friend has mastered the craft.
She is close, so fucking close. Sometimes I believe I've finally managed to peak her, especially since she gets excited about other people peaking. But she isn't 100% there, because she keeps going back and forth in her thinking regarding it. She is still believing in trutrans, she still occasionally get a little "b-b-but if it's what makes them happy I guess…?". From what little I know of her childhood, it appears that she was the black sheep of the family while her sister was the angel so I think she's so used to being pointed out as being wrong or mean that she has a hard time allowing herself to judge others. Even when she has ranted to me about something, anything, she always ends it with a "but I don't mean to be judgemental, people are free to do what they want, it's their lives" and all that.
I'm trying to get her to understand that if she is feeling strongly about something there is nothing wrong with voicing them. But it's a slow process because she always seems to beat herself up whenever she considers herself "too" judgmental.

No. 2233390

>>2233341
I never understood women who are so keen on licking faggots’ asses kek. I am weary of them still, just because they like dick doesn’t mean that they’re our allies. Gay men always feel entitled to comment on women , they border on sexual harassment too. I had this mutual friend who was gay and okay, I didn’t have any big problem with him, but he liked grabbing my butt and slapping it unprompted and would always comment on my body. And the opposite type is the one who is quick on commenting on our vaginas and calling it disgusting kek.

No. 2233391

>>2233384
> They told me that I am too much. That I need too much affection and that I am too sensitive.
Are you? How do you act in a relationship? They might have told you that just to hurt you, who knows.

No. 2233395

>>2233341
Damn you said it, I'm screenshotting this post cause you summed up everything I've felt about drag queens but didn't have the eloquence to explain it as well as you did

No. 2233396

>>2233389
Show them the MTF thread on Reddit kek. Since she’s already halfway into peaking.

No. 2233399

>>2233341
The answer is misogyny nonna, it’s 90% misogyny and 10% jealousy about the fact that straight men are attracted to us. Many gay men dream of turning a straight scrote gay kek.

No. 2233403

>>2233399
They're truly the bottom (kek) of humanity, all that effort for dick? What a bunch of losers

No. 2233410

I have PMS hunger and it feels like I haven't eaten 2 meals already today. I don't want to be gross and bloated tonight, but I'm so fucking hungry.

No. 2233419

>>2233410
fucking same I was just about to complain about eating a kilogram of corn kekk

No. 2233424

Having to use accessibility services or disability accommodations is actually so humiliating.

No. 2233435

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im so upset with myself for still going into work this morning when i knew something was wrong with my pet. turned on the ring cam to see my husband performing cpr on him, but by the time i found my boss and told him i was having an emergency and needed to leave it was too late. i technically did get to say goodbye… i returned multiple times to give him kisses while i was getting my coat on and bag together, but i didnt know it would be our final goodbye. its not the first time ive missed something important because i felt guilty about missing work so i feel like extra shit for having my priorities all fucked up. im really gonna miss my little guy, he was so small, its like having a baby for 8 years then having to say goodbye.

No. 2233452

>>2233435
i'm so sorry for your loss nona

No. 2233453

bitch got mad because i didn't want to lend her my boots, i guess i didn't know it was an obligation or something idk and now my boyfriend mocked me for being traumatized and he's being acting weird toward lesbians and i just know he is lowkey a tranny. halloween fucking ruined.

No. 2233454

>>2233424
Honestly the woke activism made it even worse

No. 2233459

>>2233453
this is why we should never date femboys

No. 2233469

>sick and go get my meds
>the pharmacist is rude as fuck to me
>go to bk for a burger to cheer me up
>the soy wagie goes "ONE MINUTE!" closes the first window and never comes back so I just drive away
>bumper to bumper traffic at 2pm for no reason
>go buy myself beer and a guy gets behind me at the liquor store and moans loudly (wtf)
>try to drive through the neighborhood little boy on bike keeps weaving in front of my car and onto the sidewalk like a sped
>finally make it home
alright I'm done it's villainess in another world isekai and isolation day

No. 2233505

I think I’m the living example 1 turns into a 10 when you’re drunk meme. So naive of me!

No. 2233512

I feel like my meds aren't working. I got on a higher dosage of antidepressants about 4 weeks ago and the only things I am getting are night sweats and weird dreams. When are the happy feelings supposed to kick in?

No. 2233517

Partner took his kid to a family party and it's 9pm already and they aren't home and he doesn't understand that she won't just sleep longer tomorrow and we'll suffer and I fucking hate everything about having a moid with a kid

No. 2233519

>>2233517
Dump him if you're not interested in winning stepmother of the year

No. 2233526

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>>2233517
Then why are you with a moid that has a kid?

No. 2233530

>>2233517
There's a reason that the mother left him leave him too.

No. 2233531

>>2233523
Thought I'd try it out without committing to the whole kid thing. Turns out not for me and I'll slowly remove myself >>2233519

No. 2233558

>>2233531
Kek I hope things go well nonna

No. 2233565

My laptop has been making scary noises for the past few days. Everything works as it should and I clean it up regularly but I'm still scared. Maybe its time just has come, it's about a decade old.

No. 2233567

I feel so fucking trapped in my life I’ve only ever worked hospitality (16 years at this point) and I was too depressed to finish my degree like 11 years ago so I’ve got no qualifications either. I feel my brain is atrophying every day I feel like I should be doing so much more with my life but have no fucking clue how I’m supposed to change it

No. 2233587

Rant about family,namely my mom and my brother.
I'm sad. My relationship with my mom has always been full of conflicts and problems, often times escalating very ugly verbally/physically.
It took me a long time to realize this was because she's full of traumas. She was never really happy, the only person who loved her was her mother (my grandma,who died years ago), she's only been in 2 relationships (both shit, the 2nd one being the marriage to my dad, who was abusive). After he died my mom was left in a weird state. She got ill and couldn't eat and lost so much weight that she was skin and bones, I feel nauseous when looking at old pictures.
At the moment she's withering like a flower and chooses to avoid conflict. My bro is a dick and I'm the only one left and I feel sorry and I pity her. I don't want her to suffer, I promised my grandma I wouldn't be mean to her anymore when conflicts happen. And seeing her become old and frail makes me physically sick, I feel so bad for her nonnas, traumas carried over in old age are heartbreaking holy shit.
I want to offer her a vacation abroad, she has never left the country and I want to do this for her while she can still somewhat travel.
I did a little thing recently that made her really happy, and this made me, in a weird way, very sad, when I saw how happy she is for this little thing. She really is alone.
Meanwhile:
>my bro has been traveling with his wife for 10+ years, abroad too
>never brought back any souvenirs for me or my mom
>never asked us if we wanted to join (I mean we'd go just mind our own stuff, our poor mom could've used a break)
>he bitches that I didn't bring him anything from my trip
>mfw I've only been abroad only 3 times in my entire fucking life
well fuck you, you are a rich faggot while I'm the poorfag and I'm supposed to bring you something back?? I gave you those chocolates and bonbons and neither you or your fucking wife said AT LEAST a "thank you". Fuck both of you, honestly.

No. 2233594

Why do I act weird around crushes like I’m still in middle school….

No. 2233601

I’ve lost weight recently and it’s making my body more feminine and I feel sexualised without trying. It makes me disgusted and I’m thinking I want to gain it back now. I wasn’t expecting this

No. 2233606

>>2233601
I get where you are coming from nonna. Actually struggling with the same thing. Don't let the worry of moid’s views impact your health. Especially if you just dropped from a pretty unhealthy weight also.

No. 2233609

>>2233606
I wear baggy clothes so I doubt anyone has noticed, but seeing a more feminine silhouette in the mirror than before fills me with dread

No. 2233617

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Hell is having three hours of work to do but ten hour shifts and a half-cubicle right by the goddamned office door so you can't even be reading a damn book or knitting or LITERALLY DOING ANYTHING AT ALL but I just keep smiling because the pay is good and the health insurance is better and I totally don't want to walk into traffic today I totally don't

No. 2233624

Just had a good laugh because I discovered that my ex is doing volunteer work against bullying at the school he is teaching at. He is parading that bs around on instagram. Last year before we broke up he threatened to hit me and repeatedly ignored my personal boundaries, especially in sexual matters. There were also inappropriate remarks that were not only tactless but could also be interpreted as targeted attacks on my self-esteem. Bitch is doing volunteer work because he wants attention and look good all while being the biggest bully of them all. I hope this maggot eats a bunch of shit and chokes on a fat meaty sausage. May his dirty ass apartment get infested with black mold. I wish I could hex him or something.

No. 2233625

I wish the not my type’s type thread was still active but I guess I’ll just vent here instead. I think I’m actually fucked if I want to seriously get with a moid my type because of the very sobering fact that pretty much no moid likes my type which is someone who’s

>perceptive and can see through their bs

>not impressed by their supposed intellect
>is in academia and wants to keep studying
>is not acting bubbly and ditzy; doesn’t pretend just to stroke his ego
>wants an equal dynamic
>doesn’t enjoy being intellectually or otherwise inferior; not submissive
>is unwilling to accommodate his degrading fetishes

Basically a normal non-moid obsessed straight woman. The most disappointing thing to me was when I got older and realized even moids who are deemed intelligent and academically-driven are repelled by their female counterparts. I was so naive and thought that someone who’s a dedicated scholar or something would want to be with someone whom they can hold a proper conversation with but that was taking for granted the idea that moids see women as something close to equals. Looking at the moids my age, my type’s type is probably some highly unstable full-time egirl who brags about having a degradation kink online.

I don’t think I’ll ever be desperate enough to give up celibacy.

No. 2233632

So fucking embarrassed, my husband made me look like a retard in public. He got in a fight with some guy in target, which to be fair the other guy was being a dick, but he took it too far and got too angry and slung a bunch of insults that just made him look unhinged. I had to rush us out of there while some lady laughed at my husband. I love him and all but he wears on me sometimes. This is like the 4th time he's done something incredibly cringey in public I'm afraid I'm gonna end up in an r/publicfreakouts post and if I try telling him he is wrong and needs to stay cool he gets all frustrated "but but but they did/said" I don't care. Maybe if he could retaliate in a normal way but usually he ends up saying something a bit retarded…

No. 2233637

>>2233625
That thread died because it became Racebait General

No. 2233645

>>2233625
You sound slightly self-agrandizing and "I'm not like the other girls" and also like you're confrontational over men you haven't even met. Also what you're saying isn't even accurate… ime men like to get attention from pickmes but will usually chase women who are more independant and self-confident. Men don't like women who act like groveling doormats.
You're right about academia though a lot of the men who I've met who are post-grad are high on their own farts. #1 was doctors, worst men I ever met were doctors. I don't know if they're all like that but it's a red flag.

No. 2233651

I'm absolutely terrified of the US election. As much as people in my country like to reeeee about the USA, US politics have such a significant impact on the world, both culturally and economically. I really hope for the nonas that live there that things will be fine and not worse.

No. 2233658

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depressed once more about being a dumbass instead of a 145 iq genius

No. 2233660

Holy shit I think the average christian is a fucking retard, genuinely. My parents are mexican and are both catholic. I was raised catholic but started having doubts about religion when I was 10 years old, mostly because I liked reading about greek mythology and the internet exposed me to new ideas. I then thought that there was no real difference between christianity and the old greek myths, since to the greeks what they believed in were the “real” gods, and in a thousand years there will probably be some other new religion that has the “real” god. I became a full-on atheist sometime when I was 16 or so. I’m 22 now. I don’t hate religion or christians or anything like that, but I’ve lost respect for my parents since I seriously doubt their ability to have critical thought.

Today is halloween. Growing up, my parents let my sister and I go trick or treating and wear costumes, and it was a lot of fun and I have fond memories of halloween. To me, halloween has always been a fun, harmless holiday where kids dress up and get candy. Back then, there was no worry about it being “satanic” but my parents have been getting more into religion in the past few years (because my dad cheated on my mom a few years ago, they never got divorced and I guess their coping mechanism was religion) so now they think it should be frowned upon since kids wear scary costumes and it’s celebrating evil. They also think that the mexican folk saint santisima muerte is satanic, even though I’ve tried to explain to them that it’s not, and a lot of the believers are catholic. But celebrating day of the dead is okay. It literally makes no sense. All of these things that I’ve listed have pagan roots. Santisima muerte is like a mix of an old aztec death god and the catholic church. People pray to her like they would pray to any other catholic saint, it’s not satanic. Day of the dead has aztec roots too, and during celebrations people dress up, wear skeleton paint, eat pan de muerto (bread of the dead) and leave offerings. By that logic, that’s celebrating death and wearing scary costumes so that should be satanic too. They also think that the catholic religion is the oldest religion when it’s literally not. Anyone with at least two brain cells would know that. The only reason why they (and mexicans in general) are catholic in the first place is because back when the spaniards came it was convert or die. I don’t even know where I’m going with this but man donI worry about my parents sometimes.

No. 2233671

>>2233660
You're wasting too much time on trying to school your dysfunctional catholic Mexican family anon. They're just kind of retarded, coming from a second gen Mexican myself.

No. 2233672

>>2233452
thank you. lets just hope reincarnation is real and everyone gets to be reunited at some point

No. 2233674

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my first halloween giving out candy, i made insane candy bags and stuffed them with pokemon cards. i decorated the hell out of my house. no one came. i am kinda sad lol.

No. 2233695

>>2233674
it's not too late! go to another block and hand them out!

No. 2233706

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i woke up and heard my mom and sister talking shit about me over not having a job. i pretended i hadn't heard anything and tried to go about my day as normal since im always beating myself over stupid shit but like two? maybe one? hour ago my brother took a photo where you could see my side profile and i've been crying nonstop since. i put a pug's side profile to shame. im completely pan faced. whenever i cry i get the urge to binge so i guess i'll give in

No. 2233719

Took my sibling trick-or-treating and saw a young child in an Amazing Digital Circus costume. Fucking why? Just why?

No. 2233730

>>2233645
>men will usually chase women who are more independant and self-confident
Nta but in my experience not at all.

No. 2233740

Whoever decided mixing any dog breed with a poodle means the new mix name is now something-POO is retarded and should be executed

No. 2233742

>>2233674
I live on the end of my street so nobody comes here either, it's a bit sad but at least I get more candy

No. 2233767

This friend of mine is so bitter all the time, I can’t understand how someone can be so miserable. They are always bragging about how happy they are and how well organised their life is but actually you can feel they’re not happy at all, always criticising others, trying to bring them down. I always thought that when someone is pretty insecure with themselves, they can found two ways to deal with it: one is to let others take advantage of you, always feeling inferior and not enough and the other one being pretty defensive all the time. They fit the second group. It’s unbelievable how they try too hard to pretend to be better than other people and they don’t get anything from that.

No. 2233795

>>2233674
Same. I bought full size bars and everything. It's just me and fake skeleton eating them tonight kek

No. 2233803

>>2233719
Need to know the autistic obsession people have with that show. It looks like your average run of the mill “le edgy” tumblr tier fotm. Troons obsess over that Pomni bitch too.

No. 2233826

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I want a cute BF so bad fml

No. 2233840

i feel pathetic for missing my ex boyfriend. he treated me so poorly throughout our relationship and i always felt like i was begging for his love. i know i need to give it time and i'll get over him but it hurts so bad. i hate what it says about me that i miss someone who i should've left months ago. fuck my life

No. 2233845

>>2233674
I'm so sorry. You sound awesome, though.

No. 2233873

>>2233844
yeah, i'm 20 kek. but this does make me feel better nona, so thank you for that!

No. 2233874

I have so many friends and yet nobody invited me to do anything on Halloween night kek I feel so fucking alone it genuinely feels like my windpipe is getting crushed

No. 2233878

>>2233803
It's absolutely not something a young child should be watching, either. It's chock-full of sexual innuendos.

No. 2233893

>>2233323
Omg I just relapsed from 3 days without coffee; the migraines were so bad i couldn’t drive, I was nauseous and i couldn’t be in the light too long because it physically hurt me! I’ve been drinking a pot of black coffee for about 6 years now, the “withdrawals” are brutal I couldn’t fucking take it. I hope you get better and tell me how you did it nona

No. 2233899

The love of my life messaged me he missed me and that he can’t stop thinking about me today after I finally moved on and found a nicer man. Fml. I’m going strong on not replying to him because he’s a bitchass

No. 2233901

>>2233674
Kek Nona my old ass ate up all the candy in my house and I’m considering going out and trick or treating, I would most defs hit up your house. Happy Halloween

No. 2233902

>>2233899
Men have a sensor to that shit and they're all narcs

No. 2233926

>>2233899
He is ONLY messaging you because you found someone else and his male ego can't take it, he doesn't miss you.

No. 2233931

why do people assume the second you turn 30 you get wrinkles and you no longer look "good"
I find a lot of 30 year olds who take care of themselves, work out and put lotion on look fine. Is this a moid thing?

No. 2233938

I’ve made countless mistakes that I feel so bad and regretful for. I’ve been working so hard for a couple years now to do better and be a better person and I think I truly am for the most part but my heart hurts thinking about wrong things I’ve done because I was backed into a corner or me being stupid and not understanding people.

No. 2233942

>>2233931
Its all pure moid projection nonna, they’re upset that they turned into wrinkled gourds by 25 and take it out on women who drink water and go outside. You could be 45 and look 16 and they would still shit on you for being “a hag”

No. 2233952

>>2233899
is he really the love of your life if you moved on and found a nicer man

No. 2233973

>>2233878
holy shit this whole time I thought it was a kids show. my niece has a stuffed pomni and she thought it was cool that I knew the character (I knew it from the western animation thread here). she's 10.

No. 2233977

>>2233674
Those gift bags sound so cool, I'm really bummed for you that they didn't show up. I don't think many kids trick or treat anymore, or at least not in my area. So sorry nonna.

No. 2234004

>>2233973
well there's a reason why it's in the adult section of netflix

No. 2234144

>>2233973
kek. Apparently it's rated PG (there's technically no swearing in it, because in the digital world they're trapped in, anything "inappropriate" gets automatically bleeped out by the algorithm controlling it all). There's nothing really sexual from what I can recall in the show (though the adult scrote fan base is another story, they're absolutely awful and degenerate). Tbh I probably would have liked the show when I was 10 and felt kind of edgy for watching it and liking the psychological horror themes in it.
Now the REAL headscratcher is parents who let their kids watch Hazbin Hotel which is TV-MA in some episodes for mature themes and language (they say "fuck" several times in just about every episode and there's tons of sexual innuendo). There was this really uncomfortable clip of a 9-year-old girl at a convention asking one of the voice actors (who plays a gay prostitute/porn star character) if it was awkward recording the moans and saying "yes daddy" in the show and the VAs were all nervously laughing. The creator of the show had to retweet a post about how you shouldn't bring your young children to panels for adult shows, kek.

No. 2234172

>Figure out a meal i can prepare easily and quickly
>Buy ingredients for it
>Make it fresh every day so i can keep myself fed at home and work
>Mom uses it all to make something else with stuff I cant stand in it
Th-thanks mom

No. 2234190

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I thrifted a cornucopia and decorated it like pic related and thought it was so cute for fall. But when my korean boyfriend stopped by and noticed it he literally pointed and laughed and said "I wish I brought my phone to take a picture and show my brother, that's so white." I shouldn't be butthurt but now everytime I look at it I just think of that and feel a little sad, especially since I never try to decorate.

No. 2234192

>>2234190
your boyfriend sounds like a dick, anon. does he say things like that often?

No. 2234201

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>>2234190
Pull out a piece of paper with this printed on it whenever he acts up nonna

No. 2234202

>>2234172
iktf
either that you get too much and cant eat it all before expiration
>>2234192
yeah i would bring it up if he does that often, theres a difference between making an unintentionally rude comment and just being a dick

No. 2234209

>>2234190
Maybe it's because I'm not American, but I don't see what's so bad about it, and I don't get this obsession with associating random things to race. Ok, so what if white Americans like this thing? Weird to make fun of it. Don't listen to him, he sounds like an asshole or a dumbass.

No. 2234210

>>2234190
it's very adorable nonnie, and your scrote is just jealous that only women create pretty and nice things and that all the cool things in his culture are created and maintained by Korean women and all Korean scrotes do is plant cameras and seethe.
>>2234201
i'd suggest the Megalia logo, but it has some heinous shit associated with it so the scrote might turn people against her so idk

No. 2234217

>>2234192
>>2234202
Not often but every once in awhile, it always catches me off guard. Those kind of comments are kinda normalized in his (all asian) friend group though so he probably forgets to police himself about it sometimes. I just try to suck it up.
>>2234201
I'm not that bold lool but he would definitely know
>>2234210
Thank you nonna I'll keep it up and just think of your comment instead

No. 2234218

>>2234190
I hate to simplify things because I'm sure you care for him but honestly, dump him. If he's already making your race a thing between you two it's only going to get worse. Especially if he's mocking you and using your race to do it. I'm obviously not saying white racism is the worst thing ever kek, just that if he already sees you both as fundamentally different because of your race and that it's okay to mock you for it when you do something as harmless and sweet as decorating for a holiday, it's only going downhill from there. Dump him, you deserve better, and your decorations sound very cute and festive.

No. 2234235

>>2234218
if everybody broke up with their partner when they unintentionally made a dumb hurtful comment there would be like no couples on this planet…

No. 2234244

>>2234218
Thank you for the thoughtful response, I won't lie sometimes I spiral and worry that the comments aren't superficial and maybe there's a deeper incompatibility, but he does other things in the relationship that I like and reassures me. If I was tolerating other shitty behavior then yeah I'd have to seriously think about it.

No. 2234259

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>"im finally gonna lock in. im gonna start being more productive. i want to stop being such a lazy piece of shit. yes. hell yes. i can do it! i can do anything!!!"
>suddenly get mysterious and concerning bodily symptoms which make me want to lie down in bed all day and do nothing
fuck.

No. 2234260

>>2234259
Are we the same person? kek

No. 2234261

>>2234190
man, this makes me legitimately sad on your behalf. what an asshole.

No. 2234263

>>2234235
Unintentionally? He literally laughed at her decoration and then attributed it to her "being white" for some reason.

No. 2234265

>>2234235
It clearly wasn't unintentional, and it's not one time it's a semi regular occurrence by OP's own admission. Stuff like that always escalates and continues, especially if left unchecked. Life experience will teach you that too eventually, unfortunately.

No. 2234266

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I have managed to meme myself into hating my body even more than I already do. I haven't been able to wear short skirts/dresses or shorts in public for a couple of years because I feel like my thighs are too big so it looks ugly. I spent this entire nasty ass hot summer in jeans. I don't wear tank tops or sleeveless dresses without a cardigan or a jacket because I don't want anyone to see my arms.
I'm not particularly big, but I just hate my thick thighs so much and I feel like people will act like picrel if I allow them to be visible.

No. 2234267

>>2234259
any chance they are psychosomatic?

No. 2234269

>>2234190
Your kormoid was being a dick, your cornucopia sounds cute! You can be racist to him if you want I'll give you a pass
>t. Korean

No. 2234274

>>2234267
yknow what its not unlikely, im a massive hypochondriac
>>2234260
perhaps. hope we both feel better soon lol

No. 2234276

>>2234235
Oh no the horror…

No. 2234279

>>2234190
I’ll never date anyone of another race for this reason. I don’t know why anyone would want to put up with racial tension in a relationship. I can’t even begin to imagine the amount of grovelling white women in a relationship with black men have to do. At least he’s just poking fun and not victimising himself.

No. 2234287

Instead of getting drunk in costumes and handing out candy at my friend's her ex boyfriend proceeded to ruin the holiday I've been waiting two months for. He kept harassing her by calling or texting then demanded to see her when we were out getting food. This asshole had her get in his car to have a private talk, watched her through a window as she ate, keeping her clothes and phone in his car. Their relationship is over and he thinks he has the right to not give her possessions back plus put spyware on her phone. Really he should be deported. He's a muscle fat man child with apparently a small dick who thinks he deserves sex when they're broken up. I called him a sex addict and to fuck off. I'm so pissed how my favorite holiday ended up. I should've just watched my own movies half drunk at home.

No. 2234292

>>2234274
it doesn't even have to be related to being a hypochondriac, could be stress in general

No. 2234297

>>2234290
you're right but if the friend won't recognize he's abusing her it's more complicated.
>>2234287
sounds like DV, hope it doesn't escalate and she can recognize the danger she's in. stalking is really concerning.

No. 2234304

>>2234290
I'm guessing to end it calmly. I wanted him to get out so I could give a piece of my mind in full but he's a coward hiding in his little car and she didn't want me to escalate anything.
>>2234297
She finally realized tonight he's at bare minimum emotionally abusing her. If it leads to stalking I'll get him deported myself.

No. 2234316

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It’s really sick that I have to braid/twist my hair every night otherwise my fro shrinks up. And I’m talking like shrinks to my scalp!! I had the prettiest braid out and tried to do a banding method to see if it would stretch my hair while maintaining the definition. it didn’t do shit! I should’ve just twisted my hair because my fro would be huge today instead of a shrunken version of yesterday. I love my hair though I just hate how high maintenance she is. Like damn I can’t get a day off!? Only poodles understand my plight.

No. 2234323

>>2234316
Kek @ the irony of pin-staight haired girl telling you this, but try the twist and cross ropemaking technique.
A lot of ropemaking techniques are used to maintain length of fibres so that your cordage doesn't shrink or become unreasonably bouncy/tense/tight. A lot of cultures with elite braids today started out as simple spinners and weavers who needed to make money so they started doing hair

No. 2234324

>>2234323
Samefag, it's similiar to a normal twist but you do an extra cross over at the end of each twist (directed away from the body) and this locks each segment in place so it cannot physically recoil back. Esoterica, physics, ancient history, and men call it vain, I can't deal

No. 2234325

I had to meet up with two friend, one whom I hang out frequently and the other one we haven’t see for a few months now. The plan got cancelled last minute and we decided to postpone it, I was fine with it. The first friend told me she has hoping the plan would get cancelled anyways because she had other better things to do, that if we finally met up was because she was eager to see the other friend. And I think that a very rude thing to say? Like, I don’t matter at all? I know were used to hang out more often but damn…I would never tell someone that I was meeting with them just because of ONE person

No. 2234346

Moving this weekend. My dad is unhappy with it and pissed even. To the point he’s barely spoken to me. My whole family has just been weird about it. My sister forgot when I was moving then later proceeded to beg me for furniture I may be getting rid of at the same time my step mom did (both at the same time over text so they were def talking about me). They all want me to stay here and it’s like.. Sorry but I am not staying in rural Appalachia to rot in these hills with the rest of you. There’s shit out there. There’s more. I can’t keep getting fucked over like I am. Fuck this place. Fuck my family. I won’t even get into how they have been acting towards me getting worse and worse over the last few months. I’m considering low contact as I can get without being harassed. They will get busy and block out my existence eventually anyway. I hope at least. My gf and our roommate (who’s my best friend) are coming tomorrow to help get a move on than by Sunday we are out of here. I’m so very depressed from so many things and they have been really the only things keeping me together right now. Feel bad for my cat and how long she’s gonna be in the car… this better go smoothly or I will lose my shit entirely.
>>2233609
Understandable. Wear what is comfortable for you. If you ever branch outside of the baggy clothes do it in moderation. It’s been really awkward for me too… ngl.

No. 2234375

I want to take my old cat with me but she has the company of the other cats I guess…

No. 2234399

>>2234266
It’s all in your head nonna.

No. 2234401

>>2234190
imagine being in a mixed race relationship rofl. especially with an asian "man". just because asian women choose to suffer through the hands of asian men why do you? break up and find someone more normal(racebait)

No. 2234402

The best parents are always wasted on their awful children…

No. 2234417

>>2234402
the best mother i ever met just died with no funeral because of her shitty sons and it feels so unreal

No. 2234419

>>2234346
Good luck anon! You’re right, there’s more out there. Moves are definitely stressful, but you just have to hang in there a little longer Life’s gonna be looking up. Regarding your cat though, has it had many car rides before?

No. 2234424

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>Try to onboard app at work
>Use automated internal tool to onboard it
>Wait three hours for bots to approve
>An error has occurred. Please check config
>Check internal docs
>Change some things
>Wait three hours for bots to approve
>An error has occurred. Please check config
>Check internal docs
>Change some things
>Wait three hours for bots to approve
>An error has occurred. Please check config
>Repeat about 5 days worth of time
>Send team running the bots an email
>Wait two days
>No reply
>Boss is on my ass for not having this done
>Ask him how to do it
>Doesn't know. Maybe ping them?
>Ping team behind bots
>Sorry we don't take adhoc requests. Please open a ticket
>Ticket rejected for incorrect fields
>Open another ticket
>Wait 5 days
>Ping on teams
>Hi I'm here to help you with your ticket
>I'm trying to use this tool to onboard my app
>Oh yeah sorry that's been broke for ages. Let me do it
>Thirty minutes later it's up
What absolute Kafkaesque hell

No. 2234427

God the threadpic makes me nostalgic for a simpler time on the internet. Anyway my job hunt isn't going well at all and it's making me want to bash my head into a wall repeatedly

No. 2234452

>>2234417
It makes me wonder if it's a cause and effect thing.

No. 2234461

inb4 someone thinks im hungover, i literally don’t consume any alcohol. woke up too early and had to vomit, vomited so furiously i pissed a little on the bathroom floor, this isn’t the first morning it’s happened and i can’t imagine it’ll be the last, i am filled with dread and hypochondriac fears of my mortality. feeling sickly almost every day for years, i just keep trying to eat better take vitamins stretch drink water, im only 25 but i keep thinking “should probably get my affairs in order, im not long for this realm” and imagining this melancholic scenario where my family announces my death as very tragic, very unexpected, undx’d illness. i keep thinking about the three years of my young life i utterly wasted in an abusive relationship with a disgusting lowlife moid, i feel like i deserve this misery because of those poor choices at 18, i am of higher intelligence than most so despite my circumstances i truly should have known better, i simply didn’t care for my life until it was too late.

No. 2234483

When you don't fit society like for example through being a volcel, all your opinions are hated and you existing openly caused panic amongst people cause they feel as if the world is changing because of a one femcel that will enforce the abolishment of heterosexuality forever and then people always tell you you're psychotic and need dick, say you will take it some day as if they are in love with you and don't wanna lose you to a man honestly because why else they are so neurotic about it. And then mostly importantly if someone agrees with my post it will cause drama. Cause it's really not fitting the normal human standards. We have to be contained like a dangerous bacteria or some shit

No. 2234484

>moid goes out last night
>keeps faking me out that he will call me
>know what's coming
>he never does
>texts later the next day that his phone died and left his charger at work
They're terrible liars. I wanna ask him how the sex was. What an asshole.

No. 2234496

I'm so sick. I have the flu (didn't drink) and my throat is so swollen. Can't take today off either. I feel like shit.

No. 2234500

i miss my noodle so much. i would give anything to pet and hold him again.

No. 2234511

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This actually makes me feel ill

No. 2234546

Went out for Halloween. While standing in a relatively short line to get a beer, a three-way fight breaks out in front of me. Three scrotes – Woody from Toy Story, a hair metal band guy, and a grim reaper – all start punching each other and end up in a scrotepile on the ground, wrestling and yelling and grabbing each other's costumes. It was so stupid. Kind of hilarious but mostly annoying and it ruined my spooky happiness. I got my beer, drank it, and left by 8 pm to go to bed early. I'm getting too old for this shit.

No. 2234559

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Males that are obsessed with sports are the bottom of the barrel. Male soccer fans remind me of dogs that run after a tennis ball. Also I tried to recreate the judgemental volturi meme.

No. 2234585

>>2234323
>>2234324
OMFG nonnie i am going to look into this that is so fascinating. Whenever I look at rope or yarn they remind me of my hair kek so this makes sense. I am going to try this tonight and see if it helps thank you again!

No. 2234667

>>2234004
obviously I've never actually watched it or searched it up nonna.
>>2234144
thanks for explaining it more, i'm going to watch it soon because she was eager to talk about it.

No. 2234676

I just left an abusive relationship that was getting into the physical zone. I had to move back in with my parents and my mother is most likely a narcissist. She turns everything into an argument even when I agree with her. It’s the same shit I dealt with when with my ex. I’m losing my mind. I think my body is reacting to ptsd, I don’t know what to do but I just feel really depressed and sick. I don’t have a job or any credit, I would love to move out. I’m working on that though and I’m applying to a lot of place and have one place setting up an interview with me. But I don’t know how much more my mental can take between this

No. 2234696

>>2234419 thanks nonna! I will out of these hill by Sunday. I’m so anxious but things are looking up. I have posted in this thread so many times from the pure stress of my situation. I’m Hoping it happens a lot less. My health being properly cared for with along with my mental health finally is going to be a big change.
Wouldn’t be her first one, I have lived out of state before. I just don’t like the idea of her being in her carrier for long periods. I will be with her but I get paranoid idk. biggest bright side is that she does pretty awesome in the carrier. My gf says I just have a weird guilt like mom guilt because I hand raised her and monkey brain says here’s my baby I must protect from all discomfort.. also that my anxiety is picking random things to worry to make it worse (I do and that’s true) (also true and the core issue). She will be okay but I am anxious about it.

No. 2234701

I have a crush on a coworker. In his free time, he is a discord mod. All my friends, without exception, think he is ugly as fuck. That's it that's the vent.

No. 2234722

>>2234701
Discord mod and ugly.
Do you want to be his kitten kek? Raise your standards please.

No. 2234725

>>2234484
Ghost him, two can play that game.

No. 2234745

>husband just now getting into politics and asks my opinion
>my true opinion is all politicians and those in gov should die and their families, they see us as bugs, i don't associate with either side
>the french were based in cutting everyones heads off
>he actually gets offended and goes "that's murder!!"
>and?
>what happens after!! and civilization collapses?
>im not a professional idgaf im just saying guillotine them, they're self serving nepo brats who should die.
>"i thought you were always joking when you said that stuff!!"
this was such a turn off wtf. he's always been overly optimistic though

No. 2234763

I wish my parents wouldn't coddle me so much. I know it's because they love me but I'm so behind compared to others my age it's embarrassing. I wish I wasn't an autist and could keep a job but I've never been able to for more than half a year. Life sucks, I have it so easy compared to others which makes me feel bad for feeling bad all over again because I'm super lucky to have parents that allow me to be like this. But if they didn't I'd probably be a better person for it, actually have my life together somewhat.

No. 2234766

>parents finally sell house
>im the only one still living in it
>finally im moving out
>everyone is pissed because im asking everyone to come pick up their stuff
>2 decades worth of stuff that they gave me
>whenever i bought the littlest shit for my own my family would throw a shitfit because i was acting like the stuff they gave me wasnt everything i wanted or needed

My family isnt bad, but i hate that they treat me as a tool and dumping ground. I'm a person, not a trash can, you dumb selfish fucks.

No. 2234769

>>2234763
You're coddling yourself by shifting the blame

No. 2234771

weird old butch who didn't get me a job because i obviously did not offer a sexual favor in return got accused of sexual assault and i'm 100% sure that it's true. the way she spoke about women behind closed doors was akin to something you'd hear from a weird, old, perverted, fat, subhuman, rapist moid. in fact, i have a suspicion that she talked shit about me to the people at the place i was supposed to get a job at, every tongue that rises against me shall fall. i need a government job real bad i guess i'll have to wait for the elections

No. 2234773

Every downfall in my life can be traced back to being removed from my mother's care as an infant and then adopted out (for only 14 years, then foster care). You'd never guess looking at me or speaking to me how fucked up everything was, but if someone could measure my self-worth I quantify in private, they'd know I'm a fucking loser lunatic retard. It's like it ruined my thoughts. You know when a dog is beaten so badly by previous owners that the dog "can't be around certain scenarios", like it can't be near children or other animals? That's what disruptive adoption does to a child. Can't really speak to people who were adopted in that sterile exchanging-of-goods kind of way, but as a "hot potato" baby it was horrific. If I could go back in time I would die in the womb and become such a toxic septic case that I take the pregnant whore down with me. That would be the only event where everyone can just mourn peacefully, before shit hit the fan and everyone is a bad person. Would have just been a case of "what could have been". I hate this whole thing.

No. 2234775

>>2234484
Sometimes I stg a scrote would have to commit actual fascist war crimes for nonas to dump them. Just ghost him, never speak to him again, and go find a new one. You're worth more than this.

No. 2234831

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I have my first crush in two years on a moid at my school and it’s embarrassing. Hypothetically I want love but I don’t feel like I can trust moids at all. He seems like a very nice and genuine person but I feel like he has to be secretly evil because all scrotes are. Wish I could let my guard down.

No. 2234833

>>2234766
Very similar story here. My parents are selling their house and they dumped a bunch of shit off on me that I certainly don't have room for. I live in a tiny ass apartment. So I gave a lot of it away to friends, took some to Goodwill, and only kept and used like 1/20 of it. They visited and flipped out that I didn't have all the old shoes, coats, t shirts, tables, chairs, shelves, and shitloads of old cookware they dumped at my apartment. What the fuck else was I supposed to do with it? And they're both supposedly so "non materialistic" and talk about it all the time.

No. 2234847

>>2234722
Fortunately, he doesn't want me. Horrifying that it's this way around but it is what it is.

No. 2234862

>>2234831
Are you over 18? I know referring to uni/college as school is normal but i god underage vibes from your post.

No. 2234876

>>2234862
No I’m almost 30 kek. I’ve just gotten fucked over by moids one too many times.

No. 2234881

A fucking disgusting moid in front of me in a queue turned around, looked at me, belched and walked away, leaving me to stand in the cloud as I payed. I still smell his putrid vomit breath on my shirt 6 hours later FUCK THIS!

No. 2234882

>>2234876
Oh ok sorry nona, I hope the moid ends up being really cool and if you guys get together, that he's not a misogynist porn addict and is actually healthy for you <3

No. 2234887

>>2234775
And even then they won’t dump them kek.

No. 2234888

>>2234847
Thank god, he saved you. Go to ugly men psyop and remove the junk off your brain now.

No. 2234894

>>2234763
I have a great mom that dotes on me, she always does her best to give me what I need , sometimes even more. But I still do stuff for myself and I’m independent.
It sounds like you’re making excuses, look into yourself more and you’ll realize that you’re the only person who’s really keeping you back.

No. 2234901

>>2234773
This is why I don’t really believe in giving birth and giving a baby in adoption, excluding the cases where it’s too late to terminate.
Given how shitty the foster care system is and how it exposes children to abuse and sexual assault even, I feel like it would me more merciful to abort.

No. 2234902

I fucking hate my adult life. Not even worth typing out anymore. I hope I succumb to my illness, amen. Instead of typing out a vent I wish I could use a razorblade across my face so nobody would ever speak to me again. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it all.

No. 2234903

>>2234901
>I am pregnant , I have no job, I’m a drug addict and I can’t afford this baby
>I pray that someone can take care of him so I’ll send him into an unknown place, with unknown people , hoping that a nice family will take care of my baby
At that point just abort , the chances of your baby not suffering is 100% at least.

No. 2234922

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My only friend in this class is skipping to hang out with her italian nigel and my phone is dying FUCK MY LIFEEEE

No. 2234932

>>2234901
>>2234903
Original adopted anon here and if I'm being honest I think the mother involved should be incinerated too. She should have to actively kill me, and then face the consequences. Abortion just gives her the same life she would have had with adoption anyways. Also I think the worst part wasn't that she was a drunkard or a loser or a teenager or raped. She had a baby with her longterm boyfriend while in a comfortable career and her own apartment with him etc etc. She was 22 with no bad habits aside from smoking, which she quit the year after anyways. It made NO SENSE TO ME AS A CHILD why this was the case. I wasn't even an accident or unplanned. She just decided almost a year into it like "Yeah, this ain't for me." This has been a hellish existence from when my conscious kicked in. It would probably be easier for me to understand if she WERE an addict because then the home would have been no place for a child to be raised. Plus I'd probably luck out with an IQ around 70 and never question any of this. Either abortion or brain damage could have bettered this whole thing, haha. Adoption is a cruel industry. Lots of adoptees talk about it but I'm so ashamed of the whole shebang nobody irl knows I'm adopted besides my boyfriend. It's like telling everyone too much. Anonymously I feel free to be honest and I hate every aspect of it. It's like even the smallest decisions in a day are fogged by the reality of being unwanted.

No. 2234944

>>2234932
The same life adoption vs abortion, what? Nah your whole body is basically forever changed after childbirth it's a huge labor of love to carry and birth a child. So much hatred towards her for not killing you is wild

No. 2234951

>>2234932
I prefer having the chance to be alive regardless of my beginning, personally.

No. 2234952

>>2234944
You don't comprehend me, which is fine. I can't explain to you any more than how I feel about it because it's not based in rationality nor thoughtfulness. I hate this whole scenario, beginning to thoughtless end.

No. 2234974

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>tell an ugly moid i'm not attracted to him and to stop making me uncomfortable
>this guilt tripping response
Why are they like this

No. 2234975

Really struggling with going outside these days. It's been ongoing for a long time but I truly realized how stuck I am only recently. It's not agoraphobia, I have no issue going somewhere if I have to go, or when I do it's not like I feel the need to go home right away.
But outside of anything mandatory? Near impossible. I can't get myself to even take a 30 minute walk each day, it somehow feels too difficult to even go to a store maybe once a week but sometimes I don't really go out for weeks in a row.

No. 2234976

>>2234974
girl you don’t need to post your discord screenshots to lolcow

No. 2234978

>>2234976
shuuush i want to see farmer gossip dont be a spoilsport

No. 2234979

>>2234974
Why do they do this shit? Men are such whiny crybabies istg, and they still have the audacity to call us the "overly-emotional" gender. I did this too to a fat sexist moid who got attracted to me before because i'm not attracted to fatties and he kept guilt tripping me and telling me he was gonna kill himself, as if he isn't a sexist pig who shames women for their bodies too and wouldn't date fat women.

No. 2234991

>>2234975
The same happens to me, I just can't make myself do anything sometimes. Even taking the trash downstairs requires like 0.5-2 hours of procrastination when it gets bad. Maybe start with 15 minute walks and set a timer when you're getting ready. I always felt that it was easier to do something if I was certain it would be over quickly so knowing that getting ready only takes a total of 5 minutes despite me feeling like I had to get through a million steps helped a lot. I don't think there's anything wrong with staying inside though, just remember to take vitamin D

No. 2234995

>>2234976
I don't, but it's a lot funnier if I do. Also I want to humiliate his annoying fugly ass
>>2234979
Kek exactly, this moid isn't fat but he has a full beard at 18 which is fucking disgusting, bug eyes, a shit ton of acne, and giant poofy hair that's clearly not taken care of and he's already balding. He also dresses like shit and smells like shit, and this faggot had the audacity to say that "I didn't start pulling bitches until I started taking care of my appearance" to my face, clearly referring to me, I am not your bitch you disgusting scrote, pulling bitches = me being friendly i guess. His idea of "taking care of" his appearance is wearing a necklace btw. He's also broke, doesn't have a car (i'm a burger so this is a big deal), works a low wage job and wants to major in theater. He also has very juvenile and immature interests, like his mental age is 10. Also he assumed i wouldn't be into fighting games when we were talking about one and he tried to so hard to come up with an excuse when i asked but it was obviously because i was a woman he thought that, you could just tell.

No. 2234999

>>2234974
Performative shame and falsehoods. I hope you never respond again

No. 2235005

>>2234745
lmao based

No. 2235008

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No. 2235016

>>2234745
You're 100% correct and he sounds naive

No. 2235039

>>2234745
He sounds too stupid to be alive, men should never get into politics. Tell him to get a real damn hobby

No. 2235050

>>2234974
>I'm gonna feel like shit
Good. Suffer

No. 2235055

>>2234316
Awww, that dog is so cute

No. 2235069

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Cowdah, nothing is wrong anymore. Escapism isn’t working anymore. Things I used to enjoy don’t enjoy me anymore. Therapy won’t work because I’ve gone through it and it has done nothing for me but feel even more alone and gaslit about my problems. I’ve been medicated before and it has done nothing for me!! I need cold hard drugs, the ones that make you itch and steal all the life savings from your own relatives just to buy it. I need my brain to be fried to function and exist at this because chowdah I can barely handle the psychological torture anymore, chowdahwhat the fuck am I supposed to do anymore there is no such thing as stoicism I can’t pull it together my brain I NEED ILLEGAL DRUGS. Chow dah puttin g a smile to my face feels like a human body inside of a metal drone it’s so fake I don’t feel it it’s not genuine it doesn’t make my soul. Bounce with utter joy. Ban me farmhands for this ban me give me anything give me drugs send me drugs CHOWDAH IM GONNA DIE

No. 2235076

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No. 2235084

>>2234763
I’m jealous because if I were you absolutely bet I would ruin their lives and drive them into debt for whatever drug addiction I would likely have if I was in your place. It could go downhill so fast and your independence is a precious asset, just use your parents abundance to jumpstart your life

No. 2235088

>>2235069
You ok bruh?

No. 2235093

I hate that race is a controversial topic, I wish I could discuss it for fun but people don't see it that way… I just think it's super interesting to see that different countries have certain traits even when in the same race and it's fun to compare without saying one is better than the other. To me it's like saying "cool that those people have blue eyes, while this other group all have green eyes"

No. 2235095

>>2235093
are you a white american?

No. 2235100

I keep having an arousal reaction to the worst possible shit I want it to stop. I would never fuck these particular people but my body still flares up no matter how disgusted I am I actually need to die

No. 2235101

>>2234745
Any country where politicians regularly get murdered is the worst kind shit hole on earth, but feel free to move there if you actually think that's a good idea kek
I feel bad for your wife trying to have a meaningful conversation with you just for you to shut it down with a stupid take like that. I say wife because clearly you're the one with violent moid opinions in your relationship kek

No. 2235102

>>2235095
No, mixed race european. I guess being mixed is why I find it so interesting in the first place

No. 2235112

>>2234190
So cute, nonna. I've always wanted to do something like this for decoration but I never actually do it. I'm proud of you. I'm sorry your bf made it a race thing. Pretty insensitive and kind of racist of him.

No. 2235117

I've procrastinated with preparing for my trip to Japan and was SO SURE (delusional.) that I'd get it all done on time, entire prep including cleaning my apartment in one evening, easy. Lo and behold my suitcases are empty, no itinerary and I still need to shower, up 1.5 hours earlier than I thought tomorrow because I just thought to check how long it'll take me to get to the airport.
I don't know, that's pretty stupid of me. I've been hyped and dreamed of this for about 15 years. So at this point I think this level of procrastination is beyond stupidity and is more pathological.
I've done all the super essentials, but not looked at how to use public transport, and…anything pragmatic. I'm too sleepy right now anyway.

No. 2235126

>>2234190
you should tell him how that makes you feel. he probably thinks its a joke but if it hurts your feelings you should call it out. That is some white people shit but that's okay! Just point out when he does some asian people shit! And he'll get the hint.

No. 2235140

>>2235101
are all the anons who agreed with OP moids too?

No. 2235143

>>2234279
He honestly sounds like my korean ex that loooved to shittalk white karens but also had hella internalized racism and called himself the c slur all the time. Fucking agree with you

No. 2235146

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[warning warning blog incoming]
I don't think I was ever ok but I was functional.
I always felt uncomfortable around people but I put myself out there and it got better.
My friends dragged me out of my hole.
I was going to this, that and that with no issues. No having to pyshe myself up or get wasted to meet them.
Then one night I took mandy
Wtf is this? I'm actually interested in people (WARNING not for everyone do not MDMA to get over your social issues).
I road that headspace, it was like I had cracked how to be caring, how to be kind to other people.
Lockdown happened.
Now times.
I slipped back into my old self but worse.
I'm back in the hole. I've taken mandy again and it doesn't bring me back to where I was. I can feel the finish line of caring but I can't grab it like I could before, I care, I really do, but not as much as those few months after taking mandy.
I can barely leave my house without my heart rate going 900. My sister bought the cutest fucking cat and I can't leave my house. I want to pet that cat so fucking bad.
At early morning I try to walk to the end of the road to regain myself
I've been seeing a therapist and taking anti-depressants. They can ensure I can walk to the end of the road without exploding
I'm just so… what happened to me? I figured out how to love people and now I'm terrified of any interaction. I was bad before but not this bad. I'll take my pills so I can leave a bit but I had plans. I wanted to see America and Japan and do shit and i can't leave my bubble. I was ok-ish and now I'm stuck in this hell bubble. I used to be ok.
Maybe isolation is natural to me but I despise it. I want to do things with my life. I want to see my sister's cute cat.

No. 2235150

>>2234190
Put him in his place nonna, never let a shrimp dicked moid make you feel inferior. Why are you even with a Korean scrote? They're notorious for being pieces of shit, that's why the 4B movement started in the first place.

No. 2235155

My legs itch

I wish I still had a mom

No. 2235157

>>2234190

tell him to fuck off and die, i bet your cornucopia looks lovely nona. don't let him stop you from trying creative things like decorating with shame, he is jealous of your light because moids don't have souls

No. 2235159


No. 2235160

>>2235146
Who told you you need to care about shit to do it? Do you care about shitting? No, but you still drop a log because you have to.
Quit drugging yourself and get a grip. The way you felt on drugs is not the baseline, stop chasing it.
You need to grind to get some substance in your life instead of fleeting feelings.
Good memories await you.

No. 2235181

>>2235016
He is very naive which is why we balance each other out so well. His religious mom taught him to always see the good in people and I was just raised by retard drug addicted cluster b's so I'm more jaded.
>>2235101
You're entitled to your own opinion regarding the murdering politicians thing, but I don't get tards like you who pee their pants at "aggressive" women. Or women in general who think they're above men for not being uwu brutes. I do what I want and you can hide behind me you wimp.

No. 2235186

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An ugly old man who smelled like piss tried to make weird sexual comments to me today at work. He's a customer at the office and I've seen him around before. It honestly pissed me off. If I see him again next month and he tries anything, I honestly might yell at him. I have so little tolerance for that shit these days, if I get yelled at by my boss for yelling at this guy so fucking be it.
Man, I wish all men a very go fall in a hole and burn to death… Fucking perverts.

No. 2235191

>>2235076
Thanos?
>>2235088
Send me some drugs anon… please?

No. 2235192

>>2235186
Disgustingggg

No. 2235195

Nothing enrages quite like getting your period the day of an important event. I feel awful and look like death warmed over. FML

No. 2235211

>decide to download dating app out of curiosity
>set age range to 23-28
>half the creatures claiming to be mid 20s look like theyre pushing 40
>greying hair with receeding hairlines >wrinkles deep enough to be trenches
>other half have snapchat filters on
>cant even tell what they really look like
>most of them visibly overweight or obese
>delete dating app

either theyre all lying about their age or theres something in the water in this area

No. 2235214

>>2235211
Some of them are probably lying about their ages. Alot of old geezers on dating apps for some reason like seting their age 10 to 20 years as younger than their actual age. its funny because they genuinely think people believe they age they set it to.

No. 2235216

>>2235211
I matched with males like that to get the intel and they do indeed lie about their age to prey on younger women. One even said he didn't want women in their 30s and he was 45, because women in their 30s allegedly don't want babies. What a joke, women in their 20s want babies way less. The good news is if tbey admit it in chat you can get them banned for lying about their age. Also, we have a thread for dating apps in /g/

No. 2235218

>>2235214
Redpill tards panicking when they realize the narrative lied to them and women set their filters to exclude them all KEK.

No. 2235219

>>2235214
I have seen dudes who actually look like Danny devito get told "oh you look younger" when revealing their age. And another believed he had nice skin while talking to me with a wrinkled and sebum glazed face. They are massively delusional and society isn't even close to as harsh as they pretend it is.

No. 2235221

I'm supposed to go to some doctor's appointment tomorrow at an office I don't know because my leg feels really weird since like two or three weeks ago and I'm scared it's going to be something serious and I'll have to do a bunch of exams later like scanners or bloodwork.

No. 2235224

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Of fucking course a creepy moid had to leave weird comments on the chatbox I had up on my neocities site

No. 2235228

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>>2235211
>set age range to 23-28
>half the creatures claiming to be mid 20s look like theyre pushing 40
huh maybe social media is right and gen z is aging like milk. Everyone keeps saying they look 40 in their 20s

No. 2235230

>>2235228
no way this moid is gen z he looks like someones 50yr father

No. 2235232

>>2235228
I've seen some video about this and the guy from your screenshot was in there and he looks, acts and sounds like he could be my dad, yet he's younger than me and this fucked me up. His voice made me wonder if he smokes.

No. 2235233

>>2235230
>>2235232
it's all of them, it's an epidemic

No. 2235236

>>2235233
The thing is that the young men I keep seeing who look much older look unhealthy, they're often balding, have yellow teeth, wrinkles, or are fat or a combinaison of these things, but this specific guy isn't even balding (yet?)and doesn't have white hair. His beard and glasses aren't helping at all though. I don't use dating apps, unlike OP, but I'm not surprised by what she sees in there just based on who I see irl.

No. 2235241

Every time I see one of those street interviews about what japanese women think about their bf/husband cheating I feel so grossed out that they're all fine with it and that they think their partner going to a prostitute isn't cheating nor a big deal. No wonder stinky weebs think they're submissive and idolize japan, just ew

No. 2235243

>>2235241
Don't several of these Japanese women also cheat on their boyfriends and husbands anyway? I've seen some say that it's ok if their men cheat because they also means they should also cheat on said boyfriends and husbands in return anyway.

No. 2235247

>>2235232
i learned from nona's post his age. i thought he is way older. and he talks like old man, it must be intentional

No. 2235250

I hate property management companies. The one I am living under now lies, cheats, and does a shit job for tenants just like the last one I was under. I give over a $1000 a month to these fuckers for them to have shit that never works and that they never want to fix. They'll seem very "nice" and "generous" until you sign, then they could care less. Their front offices always seem to get staffed by what appear to be very young, inexperienced people that have no idea what they are doing. They sound like they are still in high school and either just party or stand around doing nothing. If anyone has had better success with private landlords, please tell me there is hope yet.

No. 2235252

>>2235250
More proof landlords should be abolished

No. 2235254

>>2234190
My mom is black and chinese and she used to decorate our church during autumn with little decorations like that so he's incorrect about it being sooo white. What a fucking rude and gross thing to say. As other nonnies have said I think it's very cute and seeing decorations like that fills me with nostalgia.

No. 2235270

>>2235252
If I was one of those lucky people whose landlord is just a sweet retired little old lady that is renting out an old granny flat because she actually needs the help and not so much the money, I wouldn't mind. So far, I've only been under completely faceless property management companies with who I have no idea who actually owns these fucking places and where they are. Probably some cunt millionaire five states away for who it's just one property out of hundreds. That's why they always seem to contract out all their services to a third-party and trying to contact them always takes you straight to a call center with some person five states away that can't speak English or has no fucking clue how to help in general.

No. 2235272

>>2235214
It's not that they actually believe they look that young, it's so they can have access to women who filtered their matches between a certain age range. If they did not lie, they would never be able to see those profiles in an attempt to match. Desperate? Absolutely.

For me, I often see younger scrotes lie higher about their age to appear to women like me kek (i.e. my age filter is typically set 28-35 but I'll get a profile who matched me who is a 22 year old but has it set to 32 claims he doesn't know how to edit and fix it when I read the bio lmao)

No. 2235280

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leave me aloneeee pls. i want to buy a second car just for this. this is my reason to buying a new car, idc about having debt, i just hate that you're here. i am too fucking autistic for this. i literally hate to be posting about this woman so fucking much, but i really really can't take this shit anymore.

No. 2235293

I'm like 80 years old in internet years but I still have the urge to self harm every single time I'm powerless. Haven't done it in a century but holy shit, you'd think after NEVER considering it for a decade it wouldn't be a knee-jerk reaction to extreme stress. Shit isn't even helpful. I'm not even at risk of giving in to it, but why does my mind go there? In another 293884 years of never utilizing self harm, will it actually go away? Or is it like how alcoholics describe sobriety forever? Damn.

No. 2235324

>>2235146
I read the whole thing.

No. 2235336

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Now my sister is bailing tomorrow on my mom and I to hang out with her nigel that btw is >10 years older than her. She guilted my mom about it so now we're all gonna vote on fucking election day instead of doing a chill early vote on the weekend even though my mom works full time. Seriously some women will say they hate men over and over and then will bail on you for moids out of nowhere and you know what. It's annoying.

No. 2235345

I am never going to experience having loving, nurturing, caring parents. I can ignore it most of the time, but when bad shit happens and I have no one to go to for support, it hurts. I hope everyone who complains about their parents over retarded shit gets teleported into the middle of an active warzone.

No. 2235355

>>2235241
Japanese women are womenlets in body and mind. They literally are megalosers easily pressured with the mildest tactics to become hookers and pornstars by some pushy dudes on the street who wave a scary contract in their face. Japanese women have to pay hosts, the only males in japan who have more than 0% rizz to talk to them. So maybe thats why they dont give af about cheating, theyre not mateguarding a mediocre smallcock who can be easily dismissed and replaced.

They're a big contrast to Chinese women, who beat the shit out of the husband and mistress, those videos used to be all over liveleak.

No. 2235379

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Maybe cc would have more users if the mods weren't lazy tards with shitty ban bots

No. 2235389

>>2232518
IM TIRED OF HAVING A PERIOD EVERY MONTH MAKE IT END

No. 2235394

>>2235379
Honestly, Im permabanned and I dont even post.

No. 2235413

dont wanna go to sleep because i know i'll have nightmares and sleep like shit. fml

No. 2235429

I'm not sure how to not allow being called weird to hurt my feelings so much. It's to the point that when I'm called it my heart physically hurts a little bit. More than being called a bitch or any other insult, it's really only being called weird that makes me upset. I guess because it feels very other-ing? I wish it wouldn't bother me. I'm not sure how to not let it.

No. 2235432

>>2235429
Being "other-ed" isn't necessarily a bad thing. You stand out, you're different, maybe try taking some pride in that. There's billions of people on this planet who are completely the same, identical to each other, boring and uninteresting, but not you. That's how I cope, anyway. I hope you can learn to love yourself more, nonna and not let it bother you so much.

No. 2235436

>>2235429
Echoing the last one, accept that about yourself. The weird aren't alone.

No. 2235437

>>2235430
Lowest hanging fruit imaginable, no real sense of humor, spiritually 12, unfunny

No. 2235438

>>2235379
>>2235394
Mods here aren't much better. People constantly get banned for no good reason here too. I've been banned so many times it's hilarious. Once was because of posts that weren't even made by me and when I had barely ever posted before. lul
If I can't speak freely on IBs where else am I supposed to go? Dark web? I don't want to be around pedos and violent woman-haters though, no thank you.

No. 2235447

>>2235442
I like that about this site. I hope it's archived and studied in 50 years and used in future feminist/sociology/psychology/memeology studies of the impact of the internet and anonymity on women. I hope a university student in a couple generations has to watch the puppyboy gif on loop and analyze posts like it's the Rosetta stone.

No. 2235448

>>2235447
Sorry for deleting buy yes that makes this website really special.

No. 2235456

>>2235438
If you're banned as excessively as you claim you're probably just unbearably annoying

No. 2235470

>>2235232 idk, I think maybe some people are just born with dad like looks?

No. 2235476

>>2235430
I knew one of you fuckers would do this
>>2235432
>>2235436
Thank you nonnas, I do understand what you're saying, but at the same time it's hard for me to see it in a good light when it's been the source of a lot of pain for me. Regardless you did make me feel better so thank you for that.

No. 2235520

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I hate trying to explain things over the phone to my boomer family. My mom is visiting my grandma. Grandma is having trouble with her new phone. Mom calls me for help but in the middle of talking to me, she starts talking to my grandma. I get confused and end up repeating myself a lot. She misses what I say and then starts messing with the settings randomly. I'm trying to help but it's frustrating because both are technologically illiterate. In the end, I did help them with the phone but man does it give me such a headache.

No. 2235524

>>2235228
Hard living? He doesn't even look haggard, just aged.

No. 2235526

So theres this political cult that my mom likes, whos leader threatened my life, then banned me from chat. Mom knows about this, still likes the guy who threatened me, updates me about him despite me asking her to stop. Mom wanted to donate, wear his symbol etc.

So after years of being too nice, mom brought him and his group up again. I asked mom why she still likes them when they threatened her daughter, threaten to rape other women, cheer on violence against women, etc.

Right away, mom does the suicide guilt trip when usually she mocks suicidal people (she knows I dont want to live but am too cowardly to kms), says she's "had it" because she "cant say anything" without me getting really mad. The last time I "got mad" was because mom called a woman ceo a "dumb bitch" and implied its because shes a woman that the company is doing badly. Mom asked what her precious moid said when he threatened me, even tho I told her multiple times. I told her what he said. Mom says she wont watch any of his content anymore, and will totally unfollow any of his social medias.

Mom then says that I hate everyone in the family, even tho Im nice to them and help out around the house.

I hate being the scapegoat. I can hear my mom and brother the golden child talking, probably gossiping about me yet again.

I have nobody that truly loves me, who is still alive.

No. 2235531

>>2234266
As an adult, Ive never worn shorts, a short skirt, or a sleeveless top ever, since I was a little girl. Im early 30s. I have small pink dots all over my legs, huge fugly moles that people ask about, and my inner thighs near my knees stick out and look goofy. My armpits have a permanent 5 oclock shadow no matter what shaving technique I try, or even when I used to epilate back in the day. I used to be overweight so I hated how fat I looked, but even now after losing weight, I dont think I can wear those things.

No. 2235540

Idk what I'm even asking for here, maybe 'do I say something or just shut my mouth?' I don't even know if this is the right thread for this story, but I definitely need to vent it out.

The other day my in-laws came over to my husband and I's house and I noticed my BIL lying down on the couch with his head in my MIL's lap while she was stroking his biceps. Then later on I noticed his hand had moved and was resting on her upper thigh.
And I just don't know what to do with that information? They are mother and son.
They weren't exactly hiding it or anything? But it was dark and the whole family didn't have the angle I had from the dining room, the couch was kind of blocking everyone else's view, so I'm just not sure?

I don't even know how much context to give here to paint the picture properly?
They are all a very close family, MIL and BIL have always especially been very close, and the family I'm from isn't as close so maybe it's just a culture shock? Idk, does this sound normal to any nonnas from a very close family?
Nothing "happened" per say but I haven't been able to shake the weird vibe I picked up on and it's been a few days, but I don't want to say anything to anyone (my husband included) and cause a massive issue over nothing?

Now that I'm thinking about it, BIL's ex gf always had a problem with his closeness with his mom and said as much (but she had a problem with everyone and everything so idk if I can rely on that).
Idk. I think I'm just going to keep my mouth shut, because what I'm insinuating by saying anything is a huge violation and insult if it's all harmless.
But it was weird, nonas. The vibes were weird. You know when you pick up something weird and you think about it for a while? THAT level of weird.

No. 2235558

>>2235540
I wouldn't say anything (yet, kek) but def continue to monitor the situation. if you have a diary or a very close friend you can trust, mention it there/to them so if it does happen again at least you can prove to your husband it may be a pattern, not a single occurrence. best of luck with that though, dang

[reposted for clarity]

No. 2235562

>>2235540
Sounds kinda emotional incesty to me

No. 2235564

>>2235540
Lol
A thread best not pulled on

No. 2235576

I hate being in my head when I don't have a mild altering substance to distract me from the negativity…

No. 2235595

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I have such a hard time accepting that the current userbase is comprised of so many retards that I am telling myself they are underage to give them the benefit of the doubt because I can't imagine being that cringe in adulthood

No. 2235606

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>be me. hungry af
>cant cook anything because its nearly 1 am
>decide to eat two chocolate chip cookies as a snack
>incredibly nauseous afterwards
someone please explain the science behind this.

No. 2235614

>>2235602
But you can imagine being cripplingly retarded im sure

No. 2235617

>>2235595
Somewhat related but I noticed /ot/ consistently gets weirder/schizoish and infightier during the weekends (probably since mods are less active)

No. 2235618

>>2235562
ayrt. Yeah that's kind of where my head is at too. She doesn't handle any kind of criticism towards BIL at all either. But emotional incest isn't a crime, but certainly something for him to figure out if he ever wants to get a serious gf, which means it's (thankfully) none of my business.

>>2235564
>>2235558
I don't want to "look" for anything that might not be there, but if anything ramps up to nefarious levels, I will have to end up telling my husband.
But for now, I'm just gonna live with being mildly uncomfortable around them and keep my mouth shut. No pulling on any threads around here!

No. 2235620

>>2235606
If you eat the wrong stuff at the wrong time your body will reject it, specially if you don't eat sweets all of the time.

No. 2235624

Maybe I'll be 20 by time I'm 25

No. 2235629

>>2235614
You have to be 18 to post here. Not surprised that your parents are failing to monitor their child's internet habits.

No. 2235632

>>2234279
thats why i laugh when nonblack women get online talking about how they are better than black women for pulling a black man and when we try to warn them we get called "bitter haters". Baby that black man you pulled is self hating and we dont want him KEK. I need white women to know that most minority men are only dating you to boost their frail egos and insecurities. 8/10 they have an inferiority complex around white men and think that dating a white woman is conquering the white man. This is why racism is a joke invented by men to further subjugate women. I would not be flattered about all races of men liking me if I was white or asian, I would be terrified with extreme trust issues.

No. 2235635

>>2235632
sameanon more than terrified though i think white women should be disgusted and angry that men are using them to boost their extremely low self esteem. But what do i know

No. 2235646

its so funny how 1 interaction with my mom brings so much inner pain, emotionally and I can feel some inner organ squeezing. I thought I was doing better but now I cant sleep and am hungry due to avoiding everyone and hiding in my room

No. 2235649

I DESPISE my stupid sensitive delicate made of glass nature. I hate how everyone instantly treats me like a helpless child, men don't see me as a woman they want to date. It's not only my attitude and behaviour, but also my appearance, I look younger despite being in my late 20s and I don't mean that in a good way like oooh look at me I'm so youthful. No, as I said, I look kiddish. But the problem is it's not just my appearance. I'm actually a very frail person. I cry easily, I look scared, I look confused, I have low self-esteem. Literally that's why I started working as a waitress a few days ago because I wanted to improve myself and become confident but I'm having the worst time of my life, it's a constant nightmare of being micromanaged by my boss and being useless and being in the way of my colleagues. I can't do shit. I don't have physical strength, I forget things, I'm slow, I panic easily. And it's obvious the other people at work are a bit more gentle with me because they noticed I'm sensitive and scared, but I hate that they even have to treat me that way. Idk if I push things more everything will get better or if I'll just end up with more trauma because fo my new job….

No. 2235660

>>2232932
mediation is just a way to force women to shut up and tolerate abuse

No. 2235661

>>2235649
I wonder if putting on muscle would help

No. 2235662

Today was going fine up until I got hit with the worst midday crash. We had guests so I couldn't just go to bed. I thought it would pass but it did not. I thought they would leave but they did not. I spent the majority of my day forcing back sleep. Literally 80% of my day feeling sleepy.

No. 2235663

>>2235649
Sorry to say but practice makes perfect so you'll have to endure the hardships from your new job until you're so used to them you won't even notice. Personally working part time in the most ghetto store of my city helped me a lot because I was too nice and polite and assumed costumers would be the bare minimum of polite but they were so retarded and annoying at best that I stopped giving a fuck and since then and my next shitty job soon after that one I stopped giving a fuck long term.

No. 2235670

>>2235663
At this point being micromanaged by my managers and failing to do my duties properly is taking my entire energy to the point actually getting a chance to talk with my customers is like a breath of fresh air. It's a bit ironic cause usually as a waiter the customers are the most annoying, but even the weirdest characters in our restaurant don't phase me meanwhile my manager raising her voice at me makes me cry almost on the spot… I wonder if I'm also terrified of people put in places of authority?

No. 2235671

>>2235670
Maybe try to find out what your coworkers think of your manager? Maybe others can't stand her micromanaging them? But at the same time it could be risky so maybe wait until your coworkers tell you more about it by themselves.

No. 2235672

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ngl, >>>/ot/2196975 happening has incited some emotional shift in me, that i feel traces back to this incident only. i've become a bit more of a jackass, not really outwardly, but it's like whenever a classmate that i'm not all that close to comes to me for advice, i'm just thinking "i shouldn't give them too good of advice, because they might get ahead of me" or "if you're asking me this at this point, maybe you're in the wrong course", and i have little patience for anyone for some reason.
one time i was hemming a garment for our assignment that i was trying to get done early and within that day only. and a girl just asked me something while i was doing it and i got irritated and made that kind of hissing sound that you usually do when you're irritated, and she quickly and meekly said sorry, and i quickly replied with a cheerier voice like ok now speak and tried playing it off like i messed up on hemming, but i worry that she thinks i'm unstable.
other times, when my classmates ask me retarded and repetitive questions, i just yell out loud in anger like "you dumb fucking idiot, just go through the files in the groupchat", stuff like that, or "i'm not the fucking professor". i just really dislike the person i'm becoming.

No. 2235697

>>2235672
I’m sorry anon. Just keep trying to be nice to those who deserve it.
People should treat you better though

No. 2235709

>>2235672
>other times, when my classmates ask me retarded and repetitive questions, i just yell out loud in anger like "you dumb fucking idiot, just go through the files in the groupchat", stuff like that, or "i'm not the fucking professor".
samefag, i mean if i'm reading messages from my classmates, if it's in real life, i don't actually yell.

No. 2235719

>>2235671
They all like her and claim that she's like a mother to them. One of my coworkers is afraid of another manager, not the same that's been bothering me but one I haven't really interacted with. She claims she's like that because I'm a newbie and she has expectations but I've told her already that I have zero experience, why did they even hire me??

No. 2235722

>>2235672
I understand if you're like that towards assholes and jerks but don't treat random strangers and people you barely know like that, you will turn into a karen at this rate. I personally wouldn't interact with someone like this

No. 2235749

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I'm failing horribly at the one chance I have to leave this country.
>not everyone needs to be a doctor, just do an easy degree your mental health matters!!!
FUCK YOU fuck you my mental health will continue to be shit knowing that I'm doomed to be stuck here for my entire life. It's fucked either way and I'm trying so hard to pass my courses but nothing is working for me.
>stop crying and study you just need to work a little harder
As if I hadn't been trying to do that all my 4 years of failing. I'm just retarded there's no other explanation as to why hundreds of people in my university are passing and I'm not, I don't deserve to leave this shithole I don't want to bring my retardation to other countries. Honestly even if I make it out I doubt I'd be accepted to continue in other countries because of my horrifying course failing history. I've been in therapy for quite some time now and I haven't changed one bit. I can't fake it anymore I just don't care to try new things or change myself or put in some effort. I'm tired of being told that it matters because it doesn't.
>take your meds
no, it doesn't help. if anything it makes me feel worse. I'm still going to keep trying and I'll probably end up killing myself one day because of it, but on the off chance that I don't and I end up passing everything somehow, I will finally be able to live peacefully wherever I want. It just hurts so much right now. There's no reason for someone like me to exist I don't contribute anything to this world by sitting in my room all day being retarded and posting on imageboards. literally lowest of the low human.

No. 2235753

>>2235606
Next time, eat a carrot or apple. Never eat horrible processed food on an empty stomach

No. 2235754

>>2235749
> I'm just retarded there's no other explanation as to why hundreds of people in my university are passing and I'm not, I don't deserve to leave this shithole
From a fellow shithole dweller: I’m sure the place you live is already stealing a lot of joy from you. If it’s anywhere like I live, you’re constantly assaulted by ugly noises, smells and sounds. Enduring this takes a lot of energy. You have to take this into consideration. You’re studying an extremely difficult matter, and you say you’ve been failing for 4 years, but that also means that you’ve persevered for 4 years, you didn’t give up on escaping your shithole, and only giving up would be a failure. I think you are seeing flaws in yourself where you could be seeing qualities instead. Maybe it won’t change your life right away, but forgiving yourself for things can’t hurt, right?

No. 2235763

>>2235672
Nonna turned to the dark side kek

No. 2235765

>>2235749
I’m in med school too nonna, let’s resist. I’m in my fourth year this year.

No. 2235804

This moid I know lost his wife like a month ago when she canceled her subscription in their backyard.
Their wedding anniversary was two days ago and he decided to honor that by hooking up with a work subordinate who's almost 15 years his junior who has a husband and child. In the house he lived in with his wife. Whose body he had to cut out of a tree one month ago.
Males cannot love(integrate)

No. 2235805

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I can never take Christianity seriously. All the men involved in it do is cheat, drink, and engage in sexual depravity. All of them are liars and LARPers, every single one, but they call themselves "holy" and award themselves the right to point fingers at others. All of this bullshit is good for aesthetics and absolutely nothing else. Every time I go to actually read the Bible, I can't help but notice how obviously it was written by some retarded inbred goatfuckers who loved slavery and rape in both the new and old testaments. You can literally smell it in each page, the lack of logic or empathy. Self-contradiction because it was passed from one faggot to another and they all just added whatever they liked or wanted (whether from elsewhere, or their own anecdotal seething). No wonder the Catholics didn't want people reading it, it's too blatant. We should just be thankful it wasn't even worse.
Its only upside is that Islam (religion of the Arab pedophile) is even more subhuman, misogynistic and backward. Every other religion I've looked into largely engages in the same kind of bullshit when you look into their texts and practices (including those classified as "pagan" or "traditional"), so fuck them too. The more I think about it, the more I wish this entire species would just die out. Nothing good ever seems to be done except in individual cases.

No. 2235814

I've never felt such an intense sense of dread before. Nothing is wrong but something bad is about to happen. I know it.

No. 2235822

About to turn 30 and I have nothing. I have no friends, I have never been in a relationship, I cannot find a job, nothing. I feel pathetic and like a failure. The past decade at least have just been a blur of the same thing every day where I cannot manage to move forward at all. I want to give up. What's the point.

No. 2235826

>>2235804
What do you mean by cancel her subscription? You mean kill herself? Just be normal

No. 2235827

>Be afraid to leave my apartment
>Spend all day every day inside my tiny apartment with no human interaction
>Wonder why I'm so stressed and my agoraphobia is spiraling out of control
Why am I like this? I know the cure is to just get out there, but I fumble every human interaction and it costs money just to go outside so I hate wasting money just for people to think I'm a freak.

No. 2235831

>>2234882
Aww thank you, I hope so too. <3

No. 2235832

>>2235804
> This moid I know lost his wife like a month ago when she canceled her subscription in their backyard.
The hatred I feel for you tiktok faggots is immeasurable. You and your pwease don’t shadowban me for saying bad words daddy~ bullshit way of speaking are a blight on the internet.

No. 2235843

>>2235831
Use the ok heart emoji to not get banned, it's #<4 but change the 4 to a 3 ♥.

No. 2235855

>>2235804
>This moid I know lost his wife like a month ago when she canceled her subscription in their backyard.
wtf does that mean?

No. 2235857

>>2235804
That's because males don't marry for love, they marry for transaction purposes aka what do you bring in his life.
Once his bangmaid mommy roboto slave dies he just replaces it with a new one, this is men's view of dating or marriage.
Even that redpill faggot sneako admitted that women should marry for live and fantasize for love meanwhile men don't do that shit.

No. 2235864

>>2235855
When I first read that post I thought the wife killed herself after canceling her Netflix subscription or something, this has to be the worst tiktokspeak term I've seen, even sewer sliding is kinda funny to say.

No. 2235865

>>2235804
It took me a third read to understand what you were saying. Where did we go wrong that you're not allowed to say "suicide" anymore?

No. 2235869

The sun sets at like 4pm now and I just want to cry all the time I hate seasonal depression

No. 2235870

>>2235865
It’s a TikTok thing, apparently you can’t say words like die, kill, rape, suicide, etc. But all these little euphemisms they come up with to skirt the system just sound even more disrespectful than just saying the word.

No. 2235872

>>2235869
Daylight saving time should be abolished, the sun setting this early is so miserable, can't fucking wait for December 21st.

No. 2235875

>>2235869
Same. Soon it will be to work in the dark and leave work in the dark. I hate being so far north. I can see the sun at lunch through some cloudy skies though.

No. 2235882

>>2235864
I was trying so hard to make sense of it I thought she cancelled some service to have gardeners taking care of their plants and trees so one of the trees eventually fell on her and killed her and the husbando fucked someone else asap, this is even more stupid than your guess kek

No. 2235887

LEAVEMEALONELEAVEMEALONELEAVEMEALONELEAVEMEALONELEAVEMEALONELEAVEMEALONELEAVEMEALONELEAVEMEALONELEAVEMEALONELEAVEMEALONELEAVEMEALONELEAVEMEALONE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
FUCKYOUFUCKYOUFCUKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOU

No. 2235903

It's hard being the child of people who always were popular while you were bullied for the majority of your life lol

No. 2236085

I'm pudgy and I hate myself for it. I've never been overweight before. This fucking sucks. I don't want to go to some retarded gym or eat 1200 calories a day so I stop looking like a fucking fat ass midget

No. 2236094

there will never be another dog like him. i might rescue another one day who cuddles and gives kisses just the same, but they wont be him. i wish we had had more time together, but nothing would have been long enough anyway

No. 2236104

>>2236094
I'm so sorry for your loss nonna. You gave him the best life he could have had.

No. 2236107

>>2236094
I'm sure he had his best life with you. It's really not fair that we live so much longer than them.

No. 2236181

>>2236149
This isn't just an insult to you, it's an insult to your entire race. I'm telling myself this is bait because the amount of hatred toward yourself and your race is just sad. Wtf

No. 2236189

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>>2236149
>I only shower every 3 months or so. That's like 5 times a year, probably a little less though.
I sympathize with you but I feel like this might be the bigger problem here than your race

No. 2236219

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I wish I was a lesbian. My inbuilt attraction to moids has brought me nothing but pain and disappointment. The whole system of love and reproduction is a cruel joke.

No. 2236225

>>2236219
I don't wish I was a lesbian, I wish men had a human soul.

No. 2236227

>>2235754
I honestly do try and sometimes I get up to an okay place but all it takes is someone, usually a uni worker, laughing at me (like actually) wondering how I have failed so many times, to make crash again. It's hard to stay positive when I keep getting reminders from others that I'm not normal. I guess I just have to find a way to not let that affect me so much. Thank you so much for your kind words though nona.
>>2235765
it's hell but hopefully we make it out, goodluck nonnie

No. 2236244

>>2236104
>>2236107
thank you nonnas, it means a lot

No. 2236254

>>2236149
You can not expecto have friends or a bf if you are unclean. Your race is not holding you back, your odor is.

No. 2236261

Using the most popular VPN means that when men come to spam here, occasionally I can delete their posts, so I try to delete before I report and it works maybe 3/10 times. Anyways a man just made a thread with a video of grown men beating a woman and stomping on her face. Men are useless, born autistic, literally no soul.

No. 2236266

>>2236261
Did you try deleting my posts? Not that I'm a man, but anons just accused me of being the same poster as the one you mentioned.

No. 2236271

being a low iq woman is absolutely hellish. i wish i had been never been born, but i am also afraid to die

No. 2236272

>>2236266
Ugh go away why are you making this about yourself

No. 2236284

>>2236272
I was curious if she tried.

No. 2236285

>>2236261
Deletes don't work off IPs. You get a code that's saved to your browsers local storage when you make a post. It gets sent up when you try to delete. Why post such lies nonnie?

No. 2236302

>>2236285
Maybe she's baiting to see if a smart nonnie like you would call her out.

No. 2236327

I want to kill myself. I wish I had more friends. I wish I wasn’t so autistic. There’s not really anyone like me IRL and not in a NLOG way, I just feel so isolated and everyone at work is pretty normal. I’m just weird and all I really like is manga and mostly video games and I’m too autistic about them. If I had 3 wishes one of them would be just to be normal and have normal hobbies and be able to just act normal. I will never have any IRL friends for as long as I live.

No. 2236328

>>2236285
Maybe the thread gets deleted by a mod at the exact same time I select delete and thats why it loads and then refreshes itself as if I actually deleted a thread? But there's been a samefag in the past and it worked then as well, down to the second.

No. 2236339

>>2236302
I don't think I'm smart but thanks
>>2236328
Press F12 and open up the network tab and you can see for yourself. Bans work off IPs, not deletes.

No. 2236405

>>2236149
Nonny, take a shower. You're a pretty mixed and/or black girl, and that makes racists uncomfortable because they tell themselves it's impossible to be black (or have black ancestry) and be pretty at the same time. They hate being proven wrong. I'm not joking when I say some of those people spent their whole lives telling themselves they are attractive and superior on the simple basis that they're not black. Just by existing, you're actively fucking that up for them. What do you want them to do? Of course they'll treat you like you're the problem. They feel "tricked" and they're seething. Stop internalizing their copes. Stop hating yourself, learn to laugh at and ignore their seething. You don't look like a man, and you aren't ugly or non-human compared to anyone. People randomly compliment you and tell you simpering bullshit about "wishing you were white/Asian/latina" because the opposite is true and you are beautiful. This sort of thing happens to almost all pretty black girls (if you are visibly black, they often ask weird invasive questions to try and find out if you're mixed, or just straight up accuse you of it - again, this is all to weakly try and hold up their moronic and limited world view, it's not about you). Being loved isn't a one-in-a-million occurrence except in the world of clowns and unloved internet reprobates projecting and trying to drag others down.
Also, moids cheat out of entitlement and subhuman cro-magnon mindset, not because of the woman's race. It's extremely common and regularly happens to whatever white women you think are above you. Don't lower your standards because those kinds of men can sniff out insecurity and expect you to accept terrible behavior, if not further neg you into despising yourself. There are even men who cheat on and abuse women because they're pretty and they want to "teach them a lesson" or "humble" them. It's hard to unlearn bullshit, but you can do it. Please take care of yourself.

No. 2236408

I don't know what's wrong with me but mundane everyday situations and people have been making me so irrationally annoyed and even straight up angry. I've been feeling like this for the last 7-8 months at this point. I'm not taking it out on other people but I just can't seem to find a way to calm myself down so I resort to isolating myself and waiting until these feelings go away. Unfortunately this usually takes multiple hours or even days and I really hate living this way. Why am I like this? Why can't my mind listen to logic and facts when it knows damn well they make more sense than emotions? I feel very disappointed in myself when this happens because I really want to be a calm and positive person and not a neurotic hothead who is spending the majority of her free time sulking when she could be having a good time instead. I want to start working on this right now but have no idea how because everything I've tried so far hasn't helped at all.

No. 2236410

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i’ve been thinking about what my plaintiff’s counsel told me after my rape case was dismissed. “now you’ve shown this man what he did wasn’t okay.”

1) he wouldn’t fucking care, he knew what he did was wrong that’s why he erased the evidence and any online footprint leading back to him.

2) my trauma that’s gonna follow me for the rest of my life shouldn’t be a fucking “lesson” for the man who raped me and got away with it

why is men raping and abusing women and getting away with it the default, maybe it isn’t but it feels like it. for me it has become that way because i will never forget what happened to me or the way my rapist wasn’t even given a slap on the wrist.

ruining someone’s mental state forever by raping them shouldn’t just be a footnote in the offender’s life story, this is gonna follow me for the rest of my life, he didn’t even get a slap on the wrist. i was basically told by the justice system that he did nothing wrong and i was to be “consoled” by the fact that “it was a life lesson for him”.

i hate this so much i want to scream and also sleep and never wake up

No. 2236417

>>2236410
I think the way we treat rape cases is stupid, vigilante justice would unironically be better.

No. 2236420

It’s pretty sad when my friend’s behaviour becomes so predictable, I’m not even surprised. I knew she was going to leave me high and dry since the moment I proposed to meet up with her today. It’s so usual at this point, I don’t even feel -that- sad. I just wished she was missing me as much as I did but I guess I was wrong. As usual.

No. 2236421

>>2236410
>You showed him it wasn't okay
I hate to be that person but unironically religion and its consequences have been a disaster for the female race. I'm so sorry nona.

No. 2236424

>>2236410
That's so awful, people who haven't been through it don't get it changes the way you live afterwards. I'm scared to even get my mail sometimes or take my trash out because I was raped outside my house by a neighbor years ago. Nothing happened to him, either. It really makes you understand why women don't bother reporting rapes when they know it will just be more trauma for themselves while the rapist is only merely embarrassed for five seconds in court. I'm so sorry, anon. It isn't fair.

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>Cutting it close, eh?
Consider cutting out shit talk and give me my wine, eh?

No. 2236454

I hate my fucking piece of shit ex.
Is it true that evil/depraved people will also eventually turn ugly on the outside? Because there might be some truth to this. My ex bf was really cute when he was 20 - 25 years old. Really charming smile, cute face etc. He was a raging psycho without any emotional intelligence though who abused and manipulated me when I was young and craved external validation like fucking oxygen. Bitch follows almost every woman on instagram in our town including their dogs instagram pages. Now he is turning 28 and he is losing his looks super fast. I saw some recent pictures of him where he is posing with his soccer team and he almost looks retarded. His hairline began to recede fucking fast the minute he turned 26 and he also shaved off all of it because he got alopecia areata. He also has the knees of a 70 year old grandpa and has to use an ergonomic butt pillow. His weed usage and his vegan diet might also play into this.

No. 2236472

>>2236454
I always love to hear some good news. I'm glad your ex is showing his ugliness on the outside.

Similar with mine. He was so handsome but ended up being the meanest person I've ever met. Really rotten inside, thinks he has it the worst and everyone is using him. I saw him a couple of weeks ago and he's missing teeth and they're rotten! He's also balding so much you can see the outline of his head through his hair. It's making me smile thinking about it. He also still has his long hair so he looks extra pathetic. Also: wrinkles and he's grown bitch tits. Thank you to whatever is out there in the universe that ruined him. I'm a believer in karma now.

No. 2236477

>>2235191
I wish I could send you drugs anon, I'd give you the special. I call it the California Sober pack. You get some of that powdered alcohol that got banned recently, weed with a crazy name like "night terror kush", gas station Kratom, a 10 hour energy drink, a couple Benadryl and a diuretic.

No. 2236510

My birthday wish didn't come true, my ex didn't die. Worse yet he contacted me from another number while he's on vacation with his current SO. Been on this trip with her for weeks but texting me the door is open.
Open for what? I blocked your other number and I'm fucking married. Enjoy your e thot dumbass.

No. 2236520

I am so tired of men. The worst events in my life were set in motion by men. And I tell myself, not all men are cruel and want to hurt me, and I know that is true. But men are so entitled. They do whatever they want for their own amusement without thinking about the consequences for other people. Men poke and prod at you for some big emotional response because saying 'stop' just encourages them, and then they laugh at you. They'll just knock your stuff over or throw little insignificant things, but there is significance in those actions. I feel as though I exist purely for the entertainment of the men around me. I am a novelty to elicit some sort of reaction out of and then apologise to and then do the same thing over and over again. And he has the audacity to ask me why I'm cold, why I spend my time in a different room? Why I don't want to have sex with him? Why I'm snippy and impatient? Because I'm tired. I'm tired of you buying a pet right after our last one died and telling me that I don't have to take care of it yet but I have to remind you to feed it, and you 'don't know how to clean it's cage' so I have to do it. I'm tired of giving up on trying to sleep next to you because you snore so loud and deny it so I sleep on the sofa. I'm tired of you antagonising me. I'm tired of you mocking me. I'm tired of you treating me like a joke. I'm tired of comforting you and being forced to give you affection when you're being needy because I don't know what else I can say to make you realise what the years have done to me. I don't smile anymore. I don't find your jokes funny anymore because your voice makes me angry. Over time, you have slowly worn me down through small acts of needless selfishness. I hope you had fun, I hope you got your laughs in. Because otherwise it was all for nothing. Is this it forever? At the mercy of a man I feel like is different and then when he has me he stops trying to be considerate. I am so tired.

No. 2236543

REEEEEEEEE my husband wanted to cook dinner tonight but i come into the kitchen and he's making it WRONG and i am so fucking ridged about food he knows this!!! i dont want diced tomatoes in my fucking taco meat!!!! its just supposed to be peppers, onions, and chiles and he KNOWS how i feel about fucking up dinner! whenever he does this shit he always LIES that he's following some recipe he's found even tho i know thats not the truth and he knows i know hes lying. fucking REEEEEEEEEEEE

No. 2236549

>>2236543
I’d be upset too

No. 2236551

>>2236543
kek, nonna. mine does the same thing, always fucking up food, except he has an obsession with turning everything into a "soup". bolognese with meat sauce? gotta make it soupy by pouring in a shit ton of water. chili? gotta make it a chili SOUP by pouring in a shit ton of water. he even does it with leftovers, drives me fucking insane. i think men treat cooking like high school chemistry and just want to fuck around and make potions FUCK OFF its my DINNER

No. 2236555

>>2236543
is he doing it on purpose so you stop making him make dinner?

No. 2236563

Feels bad to vent to someone you're close with and their only response being "it's okay" and not much else almost every single time. I'm not ungrateful and I'm glad they're listening to me, but it sucks how I basically never get any advice, any words of comfort with more substance to them, any emotional support outside of just an empty "it's okay" every time without really engaging anything I said and just giving me bare minimum responses. Especially when if the positions were reversed I'd definitely engage each thing the person vented to me about in detail and I've done this before for other friends. It makes me feel like I'd be better off just saying stuff here since I don't really expect a response for just posting anonymously and it doesn't hurt as much if I don't get one, or just talking to chatgpt since even its robotic responses would still give me more comfort and actually try to engage with me and my issues more than people I know, as sad as that sounds

No. 2236576

>>2236568
Kek thanks for the laugh

No. 2236590

>>2236549
i just cant stand a surprise at dinner, especially when i was looking forward to tacos and now they taste wrong so i cant enjoy them
>>2236551
that sounds like hell. i feel like guys like to prove cooking is something they can just DO on instinct and its not the case
>>2236555
i doubt it, he offered to cook. plus like my point above, it would hurt his ego if he thought i thought he's a bad cook. he liked his tacos, for what its worth, i just cant stand that they tasted different

No. 2236639

Might be a stupid vent, but I hate listening to sweet child of mine on the radio now. The song is great and I love it, it’s just that every time it plays whenever I’m driving to wherever it bums me out. I get all teary eyed thinking about one little girl who died in a school shooting. I think it was Uvalde. On a news report her mother said something about how she loved to dance to that song. It’s so fucking unfair that one piece of shit was able to buy a gun and murdered all those innocent people, not even doing the world a favor and killing himself with it. All those news reports talk about how those shooters were mentally disturbed or mentally ill or suicidal or whatever. Bitch I am too and so are other people, anyone with common decency just shoots themselves and doesn’t hurt others.

No. 2236685

I'm honestly kind of mad what she did to me. All I had to do was see her and my brain got cracked in half and eaten by god like a walnut. And every single development since then has been exponentially more psychologically painful than the one before. Every time I think it can't get worse it does. And all I have to work with to process it all is a handful of walnut crumbs swirling around in the cerebrospinal fluid that fills my empty cranium.

No. 2236733

>>2236639
Try to rewire your associations with the song by watching this

No. 2236765

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I fucking hate everything about the political climate here in burgerland. My conservative dad has been super obnoxious about the election since he worships the ground Trump walks on and has repeatedly been telling me that I have to vote for Trump and that he needs to see my ballot to make sure that I vote for him. I've been acting like the ballot has been lost and idk what happened to it, but in reality I actually already filled it out and put it in the ballot dropbox in front of my college (and no I didn't vote for Trump). I'm not gonna admit to it since he's been kind of threatening, but he keeps suggesting things like getting me a provisional ballot or taking me to vote in person on Tuesday and I don't know how tf I should respond once Election Day comes. This shit is stressing me out…it also doesn't help that my mom has recently gone full Trumptard too (and my grandma has been one). Some outsiders might think it's silly but I live with my parents and I'm financially dependent on them (which I'm not proud of), so I'm worried about what would happen if my dad found out…

No. 2236777

I'm about to cut a friendship off with a TRA handmaiden who I found out was talking shit about me to a fat ugly moid who agrees with her and supports her theory because he's undesirable and can't fathom the concept of women being attracted to hot men. Basically they think I'm either a trans moid or a lesbian which is fucking weird and disgusting considering both of their reasons for why I'm these things:
>i'm bi or a lesbian because i like twinky looking men
Because liking youthful men that still look like men, something fatass over here can't comprehend means i'm attracted to women.
>my attraction is men is more similar to how people are attracted to women
What she means by this is that she subconsciously sees women as worth as much as their beauty and men as deeper than that, so when it happens in the inverse I must totes be a lesbian, because being visually attracted to men is abnormal.
>thinks i have gender dysphoria because i acknowledge men live easier lives and would rather live as a man but without being a tranny
This is just an objective fact.
>thinks i also have it because i feel uncomfortable with female fanservice
Because i'm news flash, straight.
>i must have gender dysphoria as well because i hate facial hair but it's because i'm secretly a tranny and jelus i can't grow any
Facial hair is a sign of moids being unhygenic and it looks ugly and feels weird.
It's so ironic how TRAs reinforce gender roles, despite claiiming to do the opposite. I'm so mad.

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>>2236777
Samefag, here's the moid who claims that I'm attracted to twinks and bishies because I'm secretly a lesbian and claims that me liking youthful men will change overtime as I age and that I just like them because I'm immature.

No. 2236820

Don't know what's worse, having my neighbor who's suffering from dementia ring the doorbell every sunday at six in the morning because she doesn't know where she is or having to listen to my new neighbors banging at three in the morning. I'm leaning towards the latter.

No. 2236826

>>2236765
Pretend like you don't want to vote for anyone. It's better than admitting you voted for Harris. Say you're not interested in "playing the bullshit political game", and shit on Harris in front of him.

No. 2236831

>>2236777
>>2236795
Kek but seriously just block them

No. 2236836

>>2236795
KEK no fucking way. What a self own.

No. 2236841

>>2236795
I'm sweating and having a mild panic attack because he looks like a younger version of the man my crush married and I hate being reminded of what she's sleeping next to every night

No. 2236855

>>2236820
My old neighbors would wake me up at 4am because their bed was against my wall and the girl did those fake porn screams while he bunny humped her for 3 minutes a night and it’d go through my earplugs so I started just immediately turning on stupid songs at full volume blasted against the shared wall every time, and they’d stop and start punching the wall kek. Finally they moved the bed off the shared wall and she stopped shrieking so loud.

No. 2236880

>>2236551
Mine added an extra cup of water to curry and it was disgusting. I told him to just find a recipe and follow it but I guess that's too hard.

No. 2236888

>>2236880
I had a boyfriend whose cooking amounted to putting frozen chicken breasts in an instant pot, dumping some sort of salad dressing in there for flavor, and just nuking the shit out of it. Always served with rice. He refused to do anything else and when I told him he needed to learn to cook actual food he got offended kek

No. 2236912

my friend ghosted me suddenly over a year ago and i still miss her. she said she would be back at some point, but it's been so long that i genuinely doubt she'll ever speak to me again. i think about her a lot. i think about the changes in my life that i'd like to talk to her about. i think about the possible changes in her life as well and wonder if she ever thinks about sharing them with me when she feels ready to come back. i wonder if she's okay. i genuinely hope she's happy. i just miss her very badly

No. 2236955

>>2236912
what happened?

No. 2236971

You bitches fucked up letting femcels in here I came here to laugh at losers and I’m not even allowed to do that on a site called fucking lolcow I’m moving to kiwifarms

No. 2236979

>>2236971
The trash taking itself out

No. 2236990

>>2236971
bon voyage! enjoy the ball sweat!

No. 2236993

It’s November now and that means my birthday is coming up. I turn 22. I wish I would just die already. Or not even die, just magically pop out of existence. I can’t kill myself, my parents still need me. I can’t kill myself, my sister would hate me for it. I can’t kill myself, I still have to go to work. I can’t kill myself, what would they do with the body? I can’t kill myself, I’d have to make it so that my body wasn’t found, or just do it somewhere out of the way like in the middle of the woods. I don’t want to leave a mess. Crime scene cleanups are expensive and I wouldn’t want my parents cleaning up brain matter and skull fragments from my room. I don’t even have a gun anyway. I wasn’t even originally planning to shoot myself, but the more I think about it the more I see the appeal. Still, it’s too traumatizing for whoever would have to find me.

I’ve thought about killing myself since I was 16. I came up with the plan when I turned 20. I used to just want to hang myself in my room or something but a gun would be quicker. With a noose you have to wait it out and that’s kind of scary. My greatest fear besides becoming a vegetable from a failed suicide attention would be becoming like my dad and having a mental breakdown. I never forgave him and never will. I think I’d definitely kill myself if I did, and unlike him I would make sure to actually do it right. Anyway, I have until 25 to figure shit out. I should be better by now, but I think all I’ve done is get worse. I didn’t think I’d live this long. I wasn’t even supposed to. I was born at 25 weeks. If I killed myself, wouldn’t that just be wasting my life? Would it be fair for me to kill myself when other people didn’t get that chance at life?

I don’t even think I’m a human being anymore. I have no friends. Romance is a pipe dream and frankly I wouldn’t date me either. I feel so disconnected from people. All I am are my thoughts and daydreams. I don’t let myself cry in front of people anymore, not since three years ago where I promised myself that I would never ever be weak like that again. I can’t rely on my parents to help. I can’t rely on anyone and I have to do this by myself. I have to fix myself by myself. Whenever I try to open up my parents don’t listen, and if they listen it becomes oh I was depressed too. Pray to god. Think positive. You don’t need meds. You don’t need therapy.

I need to get things together soon. Next year I’ll turn 23. That’s the halfway point. I’m running out of time. I have to fix myself.

No. 2236995

there was an accident, and my friends family dog passed. This was after a long time of vet issues and the accident was unrelated, while my friend left the dog with another family member after being there pretty much 24-7. All their immediate family is blaming them nonetheless and I'm gutted. Their family were rarely there to even help the dog (some even never but of course the rest of the family have their excuses even though they caused the danger in the first place) so it feels even more awful they blame my selfless friend who takes responsibility and feels guilt.
my friend went through the grief of nuturing this dog every day after a lifetime of caring for him and this is how they are thanked. if someone responds to this it helps immensely , anything at all i cant talk about this to anyone. i loved that dog too. I had to delete the security footage so my friend wouldnt try and watch it and hurt themselves by that, so I saw it myself.
i dont know how to grieve or cope.

No. 2237009

>>2236971
you can think tiffany for that

No. 2237013

>>2236971
>femcels

No. 2237056

I hate my brother so much. Ever since we were little he has sucked up to my parents and lied about stuff I did or said to try to get them to dislike me. My mom got mad at me a few times for things I didn’t do because of how much he lied and exaggerated stuff I did. I was a nice child too. I liked animals and I did well in school. What the actual fuck. Now I have self esteem issues and get upset so easily. I hate it. I wish I had a sister or was an only child. I can’t talk to him about anything or rely on him. There was no point in his existence other than to hurt me

No. 2237059

>>2236971
Kiwifarms does have a better cow selection

No. 2237099

>>2235857
correct, thank you for using context clues nona

No. 2237103

>>2237059
They have a better cow selection and because it's not anonymous, mods can thread ban people. The girl boards are really good there because of this. All the thunderdomers and incels get banned from posting in those boards. The only thing I hate is the updoots system and all the profile shit, the site can be a bit of a popularity game tbh. That's the good thing about lolcow.

No. 2237118

>>2236955
nothing major that i know of. she would sometimes go mia for months citing mental health concerns and uni stuff (both of which i completely relate to). we weren’t irl friends and i understand that sometimes you just need an internet break.
unfortunately, it caused a lot of anxiety because i assumed i had done something wrong and upset her at some point, or that she was just completely sick of me (i’m a sperg, sadly, so i’d assume i’m just kind of annoying, and i miss social cues), but i don’t think that’s what happened. she’s genuinely just not active on social media anymore. i know she’s still alive because i can see her activity on spotify sometimes, but she’s not in any of the platforms we used to talk on anymore.
i honestly just hope she’s doing okay. i’d assume she had to make a choice for the sake of her mental health, and unfortunately, that choice did not include maintaining a friendship with me. i would welcome her with open arms if she wanted to talk to me again, but at this point i doubt it will happen

No. 2237132

I don’t have any female friends and I really wish my cousin would stop bringing her moid EVERY time we see each other cause I have no one to girl talk with… aside from you retards of course

No. 2237134

I'm just not passionate about the shit I used to be anymore, I would rather be a housewife or straight up die

No. 2237143

i try to compartmentalize how i feel and stuff, but like an idiot because my mental health keeps getting worse for a dumb reason. i've had wave of symptoms that have been hitting more frequently in the past months, often last for a long time
>GI ones, nausea, diarrhea which I've solely gotten with food poisoning before
>fucked up upper body feeling, worse than sickliness
>flushing on my upper chest and face, red and feels like a really bad fever and looks red
>headache; yep, never used to get them either…
>doctor's appointment has now been delayed 4 times by them because the doc wasn't available–half a year
even if it is nothing apparently this just happens now and…last week it got bad, it was scary and thought i'd have to go the hospital for the first time in years.

dunno what even to do with myself anymore like i'm miserable and i don't want to be. i've honestly never felt great for much of my life, but this is just too much for me…

No. 2237152

>>2237118
As someone who has been the person who ghosts online friends for months and eventually forever I sympathize with your pain, nona, and I'm really sorry. If I can offer some comfort, I think you need to let it go and move on with your life. Unfollow her from or block her on Spotify or however it works and stop checking to see what she's doing, for your own mental health. I'm sorry to say but online friendships aren't real friendships even if they feel very intense and real in the moment, especially when you have few to no real life connections of that quality to compare them to. For all intents and purposes, had you met her IRL you might have realized that you two are really not compatible and that you would have never pursued a friendship with this person if it wasn't for the internet, and no that's not a good thing. Keep the good moments in your heart but let it go.

No. 2237177

>>2237152
thank you, nona. i appreciate it.
in all honesty, seeing her sometimes pop up on spotify doesn’t really upset me, nor does it make me miss her more intensely. it just kind of lets me know that she’s still living. i’m grateful for whatever friendship we had even if it was ill-fated. she’ll likely never know this, but she helped me work through some of my religious trauma, and was part of the reason i gained the courage to finally leave religion as a whole. even if it was meant to fail from the beginning, being her friend changed my life.
i have a good support system irl. a wonderful best friend; several colleagues who love and support me. if i can build up to the courage to ask for their support, i think i can move on from this a little more easily.

No. 2237188

When I was 16 I had a friend who went to a different school. I got bullied at mine so I was just happy that I had any friends at all that I could hang out with. Anyways, said friend had a boyfriend whom she was with for over 2 years and recently got to know a guy she became friends with who also had a girlfriend. My friend and said guy hung out at a party and kissed each other (while still in a relationship with different people). They both broke up with their respective partners after that. I remember her venting to me that the other girl was talking shit about her behind her back and how unfair that was just because her boyfriend wanted to be with her. She also send her nasty anons on tumblr or some shit because my friend was that insecure. Back then I didn't really know what to tell her when she was venting to me about it but I silently judged her for it and still do. She also claimed that her ex bfs new girl looked like her. I once went to her new boyfriends home because apparently he invited his stupid guy friends over and my friend didn't want to be the only girl. We played a game of pool and while switching sides her asshole boyfriend grabbed my ass. I was a little drunk and too shy to make a scene so I just shut up about it but my friend saw it and gave me the cold shoulder for the entire night. We also played a game of truth or dare and that dumbass told everyone at the table how he and my friend had sex in the shower. Stupid idiots. It's been almost 10 years and we are not friends anymore btw and they aren't together anymore because she got to know a dude in another country and slept with him. Anyways that friend was one of my childhood friends. We were originally a group of 4 friends but one of them moved away in 3rd grade and the contact slowly faded away. My friend with the weird ass boyfriend (friend a) and the other childhood friend (friend b) were originally best friends and I was always kind of the third wheel. Over time they got into fights with each other and I was always in the middle of it so I had to listen to the smack they they told me about each other. While all of that stuff happened with friend a, I simultaneously also hung out with friend b who developed an eating disorder. Back then I didn't really understand the full scope of it but she went to a clinic to get treatment and got better I guess. At the same time friend a also claimed that she had an eating disorder but no one believer her. One time we were invited to a silvester party and friend b was too moody to go so I went over to her place and we just watched movies. It was shitty for her but for some reason I felt really good about it. I also don't have any contact with friend b anymore all I know is that she became a lawyer and moved to a different city. Good for her I guess. I lost contact with the majority of my friends at the age of 21 when my depressive episodes got worse and I got diagnosed with a cluster c disorder. Anyways, I spend my whole childhood and teen years wanting to be someone's best friend and never got it. I don't think I will ever achieve that. Even some of the most despicable moids I have dated had a "female best friend" but for some reason I never made it. Oh, and my mom told me last year that friend a and friend b are talking to each other again but if I am honest I have no interest in getting into contact with them. What do you guys think? Should I at least attempt to contact friend b?

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>be me, 19, finished first year of bachelor's degree
>this summer i break up with my gf and cry to my mom about it (she promises not to tell homophobic muzzie dad)
>dad goes through my moms fucking phone, finds out im a lesbian and BLOWS UP at me and fucking tells me im disgusting and being indoctrinated by feminist anti man university crap and brainwashed into hating his ideas that i sometimes challenge
>tells me ill probably turn my 15 year old brother into a faggot with my influence
>i took acid one time five months ago and called my mom when i was tripping like a dumbass to tell her how much i loved her and she snitched to him and now my dad thinks im a insane drug addict
>dad cuts me off financially and fucking BLOCKED me from my mom and brothers phones
>other option from being cut off was the ultimatum for my parents to continue supporting me if i dropped out of uni, came home to live with my parents, gave up on my education, be their live-in maid, and find a husband and give them fucking grandkids
>dad is violent psycho who abused my mom and me/my brother for years so i fucking wanted to cut him off at some point but i planned on finishing my degree first
>thankfully my maternal aunt is letting me stay with her for now (she hadnt seen us in 10 years cause my dad banned her from visiting, because she told my mom to leave him once…) so im working/saving to go back to uni. and i hope i can re-enroll next year
>i keep thinking im a piece of shit because i miss my mom and shes so sad that i wont come home to see her for the first time in a year, but also i cant fucking trust her bc she says "i have to obey my husband and you cant tell me anything you dont want him knowing" and i feel betrayed by her so fucking much. also she gave up on her own education to marry him and he made her life hell and she told me when i was a teenager to never give up on urself for someone else and "never marry someone like your dad."
>my dad keeps sending me fucking emails about how im an out of control whore whose ruining my life and making bad choices and theyre trying to SAVE ME from drugs and lesbianism
>my brother is getting into the muzzie manosphere red pill anti feminist communities online and is turning into my dad 2.0 and i think hes a lost cause. hes brainwashed but i miss when he was just a little sweet kid
>i feel like sad and washed up because my mom will never leave my dad, my brother is growing into my dad, and im 19 and dont have a family anymore
>my mom emailed me and said she would visit me if she could but my dad said she cant do it. then she emailed again being like i changed my mind and i hope you know your father and i want what is best for you.
>self doubt.png because i wish i could fucking keep these people happy
>hear from cousin who talks to my brother that my brother is saying im a slutty whore who is making my mom sad
>havent talked to my family at all since august/september with interspersed cold dry as fuck emails.. constantly miss my mom and wish i could send her stuff but dad isnt letting her talk to me to "teach me a lesson" ?????????????
>uni life goes on without me, and im seething at all my university friends going back and having fun. im still in touch with my friends but major FOMO
>im in a city thats far as fuck from my uni and i dont have any friends here
>i really miss studying and doing something with my brain and i am so anxious for the future
>my aunt wants to try to put my dad in jail for domestic violence but idk my mom has said she doesnt have a way to support herself financially or else she would have considered leaving. i dont want to make dad feel like hes right and ive turned against the family, just cause im bitter…
>i am fucking brain dead. no motivation to do the stuff i normally do for fun like art, so its work > come home > sit alone and have self pity fest > repeat
>feel like i should pick up a hobby or try to study something myself for fun but too depressed to do anything
>i know i just have to keep going and wait for my life to start again but what the fuck
>the fucking kicker is the ex girlfriend of mine now has a new gf!!! my life got ruined bc of this bitchs existence being discovered!!!!

No. 2237204

>>2237197
depressing to read, hope things pick up for you nona

No. 2237205

>>2237204
thank you so much anon it means a lot

No. 2237209

>>2237207
its the vent thread you retard

No. 2237212

Lately I've been feeling really bad for seemingly no reason. Randomly I get the urge to cry, I lose my appetite and my throat gets so dry I can't swallow even a single bite, I start shaking, sometimes my heartbeat gets quicker for a little bit. What is wrong with me? How am I supposed to fix this problem if I don't know what's causing it in the first place? I'm so confused and have no idea what to do… I really hate living like this. Feels like I'm ruining my own life but I don't even know why it's happening.

No. 2237216

>>2237212
that sucks, sorry anon. i had something similar and something was wrong with my thyroid lmao. if its not anxiety and depression for u maybe get thyroid / vitamin levels tested for any deficiencies

No. 2237217

>>2237212
Check your vitamins if you can, I know it sounds silly, but lacking some of them can really fuck up your mental health. Saying this by experience.

No. 2237231

>>2237216
>>2237217
Thank you anons, I really appreciate your help. I had my vitamins checked a month ago and they were fine so it may be untreated anxiety and/or depression.

No. 2237237

All the produce I buy this time of year is bad tasting at best or already rotting and I hate it. I guess frozen vegetables for a while… but they still have little pieces of rot on them.

No. 2237274

>>2237197
I hope I don't sound too harsh but honestly it seems like your mother is ultimately choosing your asshole father over you. I was very shocked reading all of that and I truly wish for the best for you. I'm really sorry you have to deal with that. At least you have your aunt.

No. 2237282

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Last year, after almost 2 years of my old major, I changed it. That was my best decision ever. The only change that was even better than that was getting out of an abusive relationship with the alcoholic narcissist I met in my old major. Needless to say, that major was a fucking Trojan horse irl. Too bad the aftermath of the breakup was even worse than the relationship itself, but I digress.

The second half of 2023 was great and I was very optimistic for this year.

At the beginning of the year, a friend that went to school with me from the 7th to 12th grade killed herself. My grades went to shit and I started to skip my classes because I was so depressed.

The final blow was my childhood cat's rapid decline in health and eventual death in August. He was my everything. My mental health was so horrid that I started having very scary depersonalization episodes in public. I couldn't remember who I was, what I liked, where I was.

I doubled my Prozac, which eventually made me have suicidal ideation, so I quit it cold turkey about 1 month and 1/2 ago. I think Prozac supressed my emotional eating, so now i'm really bloated and feel uncomfortable in my own body all the time. Not to mention the sudden bouts of rage, tears and exhaustion. Now my therapist suspects I have ADHD and I need to do a neuro eval. I'm currently unmedicated so watch out luvs xx

I just want to have my mental illnesses properly diagnosed, take the right medication and get on with my life. I want to live a happier life. A life where everything doesn't feel like the end of the world.

I wish I lived alone, although it's not very common to move out at my age due to my country's economy. I miss the USA, in that regard. Sometimes I wonder how my life would look like had I not moved from the US.

Despite doing CBT, regularly seeing a psychiatrist and doing my best, nothing will ever change until I haul ass. It's utterly impossible to not absorb my family's neuroticism. The rare times I have the house to myself, it's too good to be true. How the fuck can I improve when I'm constantly having my ears blasted by their constant yelling, controlling behavior, comparison and negativity overall. They never take accountability for shit and somehow I'm always the one to blame.

I'm the only one in this house that's actually trying to change my outlook on life. It's like expecting a flower to bloom in the middle of nuclear waste.

Feeling fat and depressed. Tomorrow's my 23rd birthday and I always feel sad around my birthday. I feel like a failure… I'm not even religious, but around my birthday I always get the urge to pray.

I'm scared of getting older and not accomplishing anything. I feel so fat and bloated that I'm even embarrassed of having my best friends over to celebrate… I just want to be happy, nonas. I wish happiness for you too.

No. 2237284

>>2237282
samefag, sorry for reddit spacing lol the text was so big and im on mobile

No. 2237304

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It naturally comes with the territory of my job so I guess I get to complain about it. God, I fucking hate interacting with virtually everyone at my work place. From coworkers to the people I have to help all day. It's exhausting because they're all such extroverted normies and the only people I can legitimately care about having lengthy conversations with are some relatives, and random anons on LC. It's so disgusting to me that American socialization encourages spilling your guts out about anything in your life. Why do my fellow Americans think it's normal to sit there and openly admit that your family is dysfunctional as hell and that your sister is a crackhead in just the three minutes I'm forced to help you? Why would now be the time? Oh my fucking lord, if I had the problems and beliefs these motherfuckers felt the need to overshare, I wouldn't tell any of those things to any stranger that I have to meet and see in person. Why are normies so boring, yet so uncomfortable to be around? Goddamn.

No. 2237305

I need to stop drinking or I'm going to get seriously fucking ill. My body is too puny for the amount I drink. Takes me til like midday to get out of bed and then I waste time washing and getting food and I don't do any work. I'm so stressed about work I screamed into my pillow yesterday yet I still let this guy come over with a crate of beers that we were drinking til 3am. Whereupon he doesn't even fuck me and just eats my rice crackers and leaves. Am I retarded. Also I like the threadpic it's cute.

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if my boyfriend doesn't propose soon I might actually go insane like actually just fucking break up with me if you don't like me anymore!! stop stringing me along… nonnas never date doctors they're fucking cesspits with no empathy or emotions once they hit residency and will make your life hell.

No. 2237319

>>2236777
This basically happens anytime you aren't a retarded handmaiden libfem woman, they'll act like you must be (insert labels) since that's what they do for themselves, constantly overanalyzing behaviors and put themselves into retarded boxes to feel special instead of just living their life like a normal person. It's like self diagnosing but extending to basically everyone else they know in a really obnoxious way. Besides the lesbian and trans thing I've had retards claiming I was asexual, demisexual, arromantic or whatever other retarded thing they made up in their head about me just because I don't act like a coomer and am not a desperate clingy loser online saying I want a relationship and sex 24/7 like the average pathetic incel. Somehow this translates to me not caring about love or sex at all when I am just normal, that's how brainrotten these people are at this point. Being normal and having a healthy relationship with sex, love, liking attractive men and being aware of your own oppression is so unusual to them that it gets you branded with all these retarded judgements and misunderstandings (besides just being called a bigot) and it's incredibly tiring. I can't even just exist and talk to people normally online because one of these retards always shows up in the middle of the conversation to jump to conclusions and try to diagnose me and pretend I'm something I'm not just because they personally deluded themselves into thinking they're things they aren't. Their self id is retarded as is but it's even more annoying when they extend it to everyone around them. They want everyone else to respect their identities but will constantly try to doubt yours even when you've told them 50000 times you're just a normal woman. They're so disconnected from what normalcy is (especially for a woman) that you being normal becomes odd and "othered" and something worthy of a diagnosis.

No. 2237320

I fucking hate that moid who was constantly negging me about my education and job for some reason. He asked me questions like "how many hours would you ideally work" and "what's your relationship with work like" and then asked really intrusive questions and when I would start my masters degree and if yes what kind of masters degree I would do. When we talked about our hobbies he constantly tried to one up me and it was as if he was reading off a shopping list. Went on and on how much he values education and intelligence and that the only books he likes to read are ofc non-fictional because you need to learn something while reading. I tried to switch the topic to families and talked about my great relationship with my brother and father and that we are planning a trip together in a few weeks. He found it weird that I was getting along with my father because apparently he cannot stand his own father and went on about how his father is a conservative and a christian and that he won't accept that he is a liberal and a vegan. I just felt shitty

No. 2237331

I resent my boyfriend. I used to find him funny and sweet. But he's also very immature. He resorts to the silent treatment and it makes me feel crazy, so we talk about it and everythings fine and then it happens over and over again. And everytime we talk about it, he gets tired of me talking about how I feel and saying I go on too long and its too much. So I start saying less, nothing changes. I start using repetition, nothing changes but hes annoyed about me saying the same thing. I give up, I keep my feelings to myself. I'm cold and distant and snappy and he's needy and constantly wanting reassurance. He starts acting like a retard today, trying to stab his hand and shit so I just shout at him to stop doing stupid shit and just talks to me. He gives me the silent treatment, I genuinely ask if he enjoys making me miserable? Because he knows im miserable, he makes comments about it all the time, but we never address it really. He antagonises me and then laughs when I'm upset. He does shit like this which feels like its deliberately to stress me out now. No response. I'm so fucking sick of this man. I love him but if he doesn't grow up soon, I'm going to lose my mind. I am pretty sure he enjoys making me unhappy.

No. 2237335

>>2237305
Came to this thread to say something similar about drinking. My main problem with it is that I don't have the money to sustain the habit. I am also generally in poor health and get quite bad hangovers for my age. Last night I made at least two genuinely retarded posts on this site before passing out and even thinking about it makes me want to slam my head into the wall. I don't even enjoy being drunk that much but there's a small window where I feel okay for a while that seems to make it worth it.

No. 2237336

This rattling old lady saying you're a fattie to teenage girls dancing…and no one is pointing that out but enjoying it I hate it

No. 2237340

Oh my god. I finally got some nice, decent fitting underwire bras for my weird bra size. Been trying to take good care of them. I recently bought a bra bag for the washer because I was machine washing them and laying to dry but I can tell they are getting kind of deformed now. I just opened the package to get the bra bag out and use it to wash a bra in it for the first time…. and my bra cups are too big to fit in it without seriously bending the wires. I didnt realize my retarded oversized breasts would cause issues other than finding a bra that works… god I wish I could just cut them off sometimes

No. 2237345

I'm probably diabetic but they can never confirm it, I spend 99% of my time pissing despite trying to limit my fluid intake.

No. 2237347

>>2237331
He sounds like a pansy. Most guys are like that, instead of solving the actual problem that's causing a rift in the relationship, they become avoidant and blame you instead. Watch and wait for the surprised pikachu face when you eventually get sick of him and dump his ass even though you've been telling him what the problem is this entire time. At least before you go stress him the fuck out back because fuck him for making you feel worse.

No. 2237414

How do you leave a bad friend group if you have no other friends (or anyone to rely on really)? People always say stuff like "oh don't worry you'll just find new people who actually appreciate you" and I used to believe it, but I've had such terrible luck with friend groups that I don't really think it's going to happen anymore. I've never once found one that really felt like my kind of people, and it doesn't help that I'm anxious and don't really meet that many new people that frequently in the first place

No. 2237418

My brother is so disgusting. Anytime I stay over at my mother's place it's painfully obvious what a manchild moid he is. He lives there but can't clean up jack shit after himself. His toilet is completely foul and he he always leaves his sink covered in facial hair even though he literally has Clorox wipes right next to it. And yet my narcissistic, psycho delusional mother that always favors him has the audacity to say he's cleaner than me. He is an unwashed scrote that couldn't give a single fuck about living in a complete pigsty. The only reason he would look "cleaner" is because he has his live-in maid of a mother to clean everything up after him.

No. 2237424

My joints make noises that I think they shouldn't make just yet at 23. My dad and my grandmother on my mothers side both have different joint diseases, so I'm kinda worried. But I've also been hovering at about one to three kilos overweight for quite some time now, so for now I'll hope it's just that.

No. 2237427

>>2237320
Spoiler: They neg you when your job and education are good too. Moids are out to make women feel like shit to try to put us where they feel our place is–beneath them.

Plenty of scrotes get into situations with me cause they see the dollar signs from my job (mid-management for pharma) but then don't take into account my debt thanks to previous shitty moids I got stuck holding the bag for. They become angry at me because I'm not the carefree sugar momma they built up in their heads, so they start negging me about how I use my free time (which I have a lot of) and how they're sooooo underpaid and sooooo overworked by comparison. Jealous as fuck. As if the world isn't built upon a silver platter for moids and ANY of them could have had my job with higher pay at the same level were they not lazy and did not make complete batshit decisions like gee catching felonies and knocking up women they didn't actually love.
If moids were capable of valuing women, they would realize what degree of awesome my job flexibility means in the bigger picture (clean up their filthy home, raise their brats without paying for childcare, grow and cook their fucking food, creating thoughtful dates, and the list goes on) but they cannot help themselves from being petty because I won't fork over half my paycheck to them to boot.
They're fucking useless if they can't feel in charge, and the ones who don't care are cucks who want a mommy which isn't desirable either.

No. 2237437

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Fucking christ I somehow knew I should've called off today. I hate feeling way too fucking nauseous and dead inside for no reason.

No. 2237441

>>2237331
>trying to stab his hand and shit
There's no growing out of something this insane. It's normal for moids to suck at communication, and unfortunately women do have to teach them that shit, but you can't teach someone not to stab themselves. You're probably right that he's trying to stress you out, he probably enjoys the power he has over your emotions. Please dump him soon in case he decides to try stabbing you instead of himself.

No. 2237443

The reason bi women are hated is cause if you're attracted to a man then this attraction is always stronger and you will always crave a romantic male partner and that makes you talking about your bisexuality insufferable

No. 2237445

Learning about Haiti and how the US and France completely fucked it up and now a large chunk of their retarded, uneducated citizens cry about "muh immigrantz" and mock/shit on them for being poor like it's their own fault is making me into more of a misanthrope. I know this is what's happened with many "shitholes" of the world, but it never stops disgusting me.

No. 2237457

Found yet another anime seemingly aimed at females that was safe with minimal moid pandering, everything is so normal, and then bam in the middle of the series they do an episode in which they all squeeze each others boobs and sexually harass each other for some quirky fun. Next episode it's back to normal again. Like what the fuck, who is it for??? Moids would just watch ecchi or hentai anime instead and hate all other boring episodes if they saw this one, and females like me are put off by the degenerate episode as it ruins the whole series.

Do they not realize I and others would have happily shared the show with friends and family but that inserting that shit makes it so I cannot tell a single person that I even like the show (unless they're already a fellow weeb). It's so fucking annoying how they cannot keep coom out of a single anime ever.

No. 2237460

>>2237331
Nona please break up with him, it's time. You should NOT be this stressed out from being in a relationship. He's clearly not mature enough for it. It's not your job to train a man into being acceptable, he should be mature from the start when you enter the relationship.

No. 2237467

>>2236765
he can look it up later and see that you voted so you should probably admit you already voted by drop box but just pretend you voted for Trump. if you say you never voted like >>2236826 says, he might look it up later and find out you're lying or think someone cast a vote in your name

No. 2237469

>>2237414
Ease the group out, you don't have to quit cold turkey, you can still talk to them and meet up from time to time while you try to find a new friend/group. So when you finally disappear they don't think it's because you ditched them, you just faded away naturally.
You need to put yourself out there, join fan groups of something you like online, and sign up to some kind of activity in the local area. Doesn't matter what it is, use it as an opportunity to try something you're interested in: painting, cooking, nature tours, sports, book club. Anything that lets you meet a group of people regularly. Don't be afraid to make friends with older people if you go to such groups, I have pensioner friends from taking various classes in town and they're so nice and interesting to talk to! A tip is to think "how can I make this person smile today, even if just once". So then you can tell the lady at the painting class "wow your use of color there is so nice" and she'll like you since you went out of your way to compliment her.

This will sound a bit cringe, but if you feel alone go search up any game/topic you're mildly interested in on twitch and watch a live streamer. They should be small, you don't want someone who gets hundreds of comments every minute, I would say usually 5-20 viewers is a good number for chatting as then it's mostly their friends watching so they're all friendly.
Talk to them in chat and watch the streamer respond in real time (just don't be an annoying loser who goes "boohoo i have no friends, here is a trauma dump" as that will only annoy everyone in chat and dampen the mood) actually engage in the topics, respond to the game/whatever and ask some questions. The streamer will likely be super happy someone is interested in their stream. You get to have pretty fun conversations with another human, and other chatters, and it can really fill that void of feeling alone so you don't fall into a pit of depression.

No. 2237471

>>2236777
>I'm about to cut a friendship off with a TRA handmaiden
Do it nona!!! I've never been happier than when I finally got to cut ties with my toxic TRA friend, I feel so free now

No. 2237474

>>2236777
>TRA handmaiden
So is this a female who tries to troon out into male but still behaves like a lapdog for actual men?

No. 2237477

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So fuckin tired…

No. 2237482

>>2236795
He looks like an obese lesbian with PCOS.

No. 2237500

>>2237469
Thanks nonna, I appreciate your advice a lot. I actually do like painting and drawing and I don't mind making friends with older people. I feel like part of my frustration is that all my friend groups feel so immature despite us being a similar age (I'm in my 20s), so maybe being friends with someone older would help.

>"how can I make this person smile today, even if just once"

This is sweet. I do try to be nice to people and come at it from wanting to be what I never felt like I had (people being nice to me) but usually it just gets taken for granted or they don't really appreciate me at least long term, which leads to me feeling unhappy in friend groups, like I'm giving a lot but they don't treat me that well and aren't the right people for me to be pouring my energy into. But yep, it's definitely a good way to make an initial positive impression on someone.


>(just don't be an annoying loser who goes "boohoo i have no friends, here is a trauma dump"

Oh yeah of course, I wouldn't do that. I rarely trauma dump on people I know since whenever I did no one really cared much or listened. I did consider this streaming idea before myself, maybe I will try it since I already watch a couple of smaller streamers but never really interacted in their chat.

No. 2237531

>>2237331
> He gives me the silent treatment, I genuinely ask if he enjoys making me miserable? Because he knows im miserable
You might only be confirming to him that his punishment works. It can be an abuse tactic, a handy one because alot of people don't know its even on that list so it can be easily passed off as someone just being overwhelmed and needing space (those are obviously real things too but there's important differentiators) Or it gets twisted as you being the crazy one because it tends to get an emotional reaction. It's a shitty gray area, make you question yourself for too long, way for assholes to feign innocence while keeping someone on an emotional puppetstring. Look up silent treatment abuse tactic and see if it sounds too familiar.

Alot of anons posting about similar lately and almost blaming themselves for it making them feel crazy when.. that's the desired effect. And if you stop giving someone that reaction while staying with them then you're with someone who needs a method of control or to be able to punish you on demand. The risk then becomes it quickly escalating to other methods of abuse that're not so in the gray area. If it rings true to being used in that emotionally abusive way there's no use in waiting around for them to outgrow it.

No. 2237541

>>2236777
>>2236795
Is your TRA "friend" ugly as well? Between her arguments and how the guy looks I suspect she's also ugly. It's almost always ugly and/or obese people who says this kind of things from my own experience, and the very few normal looking people I know who also think this way are still very insecure about their looks for one reason or another.

No. 2237609

I never socialize with anyone except when I let myself get approached by thirsty moids who pretend to be friendly towards me
I hate it and makes me want to puke but that's all I've got
I'm so insecure and self-hateful I've become convinced out of paranoia that no one would ever approach me without an ulterior motive
I'll never be friendly, let alone find myself speaking to another woman, because there is no reason to
every passing day feels like an humiliation

No. 2237616

every passing say feels like a further humiliation

No. 2237623

God I'm so fucking pipssed, Iwas writing two lengthy posts in two different threads and my whole OS hanged, probably because I tried to open a folder in my Windows partition from Linux. I was listening to Maria Magdalena and it got stuck on a loop of "YOUUUUUUUUUU" kek

No. 2237641

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I haven't been able to sleep for what feels like weeks now, and when I finally do fall asleep I don't really reach deep sleep and is mainly in this sort of pseudo sleep state rather than getting any actual sleep. I can be so tired I can't even keep my eyes open or even think a coherent thought but I still end up tossing and turning for hours. All of this of course causing me anxiety, making my already awful night anxiety ten times worse. I have melatonin but it barely has any effect on me, and idk if any doctors are willing to prescribe me anything stronger because of my long history of suicide attempts.
Guess imma just turn retarded from insomnia

No. 2237649

>>2237641
I have the same problem, anon. Even down to the doctor not prescribing anything because I made an attempt. I kept thinking I wonder if I had been sleeping properly if I would have snapped that day in the first place. One thing they gave me is hydroxyzine for anxiety and it doesn't really work but it does occasionally help me fall back to sleep in the middle of the night. Also kava products or CBD supplements have helped, not completely but I get closer to 4-5 hours of sleep compared to 3 hours the nights I take nothing. It's a special kind of hell, I feel for you. The headaches are so intense.

No. 2237651

>>2237641
Try to work out for 1h in the middle of the afternon (full body workout), have a warm shower and a homecooked meal for dinner. Decide a reasonable time to start your day and take 8h from that. When it's around that time, go to bed and set the alarm to sleep exactly 8 hours. Make an effort to sleep in complete darkness.

No. 2237655

>>2237457
You can tell who it is for just by looking at the art style, anon. Or by looking up the creators' background, it's what I always do.
>Do they not realize I and others would have happily shared the show with friends and family but that inserting that shit makes it so I cannot tell a single person that I even like the show
In all fairness, in most cases anime is made with a specific otaku audience in mind, not for he general public/normal people.

No. 2237657

>>2237457
The filters are working as intended

No. 2237665

>>2237649
The headaches and body aches are driving me insane, and the constant lethargy is making me LOSE MY MIND. Stay strong nonna!
>>2237651
I knew I was gonna get a response like this, but thank you anyway! However, I usually do all of those things (now that I'm too lethargic to go to the gym I compensate by walking to the store 30 minutes away whenever I need anything, which is also on the other side of the hill from hell). Sadly, I've had issues with sleep since I was a kid and no doctor has figured out wtf is wrong with me except "maybe it's her 'tism" kek

No. 2237671

>>2237665
Sorry for my unhelpful response, anon. I understand that sleep is a very delicate matter and I admit that, while your post didn't disclose much about your personal life, it was obvious that your sleep isn't fucked up simply because you stay awake watching tv shows and eating fast food. I hope that you manage to find out what's disturbing your night rest, follow your gut if doctors have been useless. I hope you get a better understanding of your insomnia and get to sleep peacefully very soon.

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>>2237671
Don't apologize, it came from a good place and I'm sure some other anon skimming through this thread would find it helpful! I honestly it all probably just boils down to anxiety of some sort right now that I haven't figured out the source of yet

No. 2237682

>>2237671
Other anon with sleep problems, I think it was very good advice, at the least it can help control stress hormones that are out of control from lack of sleep. Even resting while you are awake helps, if that makes sense.

>>2237678
My mom told me once that even if I can't sleep to at least lie in bed and close my eyes, that at least I can kind of rest my body that way. I think it helps a bit, she told my friend this once who doesn't have bad sleep issues and she said it helped her so much. I feel silly saying something so obvious.

No. 2237695

I'm tired of being the weird girl always getting ostracized at school college work people only accept weird quirky people if they are extroverts. If you are quiet and keep to yourself you're stuck up arrogant etc. Specially if they try to start shit with you and you stand up for yourself. I fucking hate people I try so hard I thought this time would be different but it's all the same everywhere I go. I have to be with those people most of my waking hours it's fucking draining how am I supposed to act. Try to fit in, they treat me like I have a fucking disease. Don't talk, again with the conceited bullshit. I hate this world

No. 2237714

>>2237641
Idk if it'd be too inconvenient for you anyway but sometimes when you've a history like that they'll prescribe you but instruct the pharmacy to make you collect your med daily.

No. 2237718

>>2237445
I feel you anon, it's infuriating reading about people whine about immigration to the USA when you know more than half of the reason that so-called "undesirables" migrate is because our government absolutely fucked their country and made it difficult to live in.

No. 2237770

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Another shift that's over eight hours tomorrow. Almost every day for the past several months. I've been successful with sucking it up, but today? I'm truly exhausted. Not just my body, but my brain. My mind. I'm so fucking tired of having to help and talk to hundreds of people virtually every fucking day. This is the strongest I've felt the overwhelming desire to be completely alone. I'm tired of my coworkers. I'm tired of helping people. I'm tired of talking to manchildren and woman children. I'm tired of always being around people who just don't shut the fuck up to me. I'm tired of machines. I'm tired of always being on my feet. I'm tired of alarms. I'm tired of thirty minute breaks feeling so fucking short. I'm tired of living in a society that thinks working over 40 hours almost every fucking week is something to be happy about and proud of. I hate that this has to be my life just so I can fucking live with what little time I actually get for myself and the things that make me happy. I'm just fucking tired, man.

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>>2237695
>If you are quiet and keep to yourself you're stuck up arrogant etc. Specially if they try to start shit with you and you stand up for yourself.
I can't even begin to tell you how much shit I got for this in school nona. It was so bad that I could have had someone else quiet literally right across from me but still be the only one singled out and put on the spot for it. People either thought I was arrogant or completely retarded. If I had a coin for the amount of times people "happened" to start talking about someone they know "XYZ" around me that "is really quiet" I could be a millionaire. People have absolutely LOVED making sneaky back-handed comments right across from me as if being quiet means I'm deaf and completely mute. My quietness has made me treated like an alien. I need to move to a country where quiteness is the norm. People not being able to shut the fuck up is what should be laughed at, not being quiet.

No. 2237805

I am trying to learn history from 0 as an adult and i feel so retarded. I genuinely cant remember names or follow a documentary because i get lost and confused. It's making me really depressed i feel like i will never accomplish anything in life because i am naturally dumb and its not something i can improve.

No. 2237807

every time i think about my rape i can’t believe it actually happened and i allowed it. i know it’s not my fault, but i still blame myself for my stupidity. in retrospect, all the warning signs were right there. i had an alarm ringing in my mind that i should run and get out. but i just didn’t. i didn’t listen to myself and so it happened. sometimes i wish it happened in another way: i imagine it was someone i knew, someone who i’ve trusted and that he would realize overtime that it was totally fucked up and apologize to me. but in reality, it happened with an almost random stranger, who likely will never face consequences or justice. i am crying as i’m typing this out. it wasn’t supposed to be like this. i was supposed to go to sleep early tonight, but i got upset over a work thing and now all i’m thinking about is this. i’m suffering and it hurts so, so much. i’m sorry to myself.

No. 2237809

girlfriend who was also the love of my life broke up with me over a minor disagreement we had. she doesn’t even wanna fucking remain friends and no matter how much I begged and tried she wouldn’t budge. she said she would think it over but I don’t have much hope she’ll come to her senses and realize that this is a fixable problem. someone tell me this isn’t worth killing myself over because It seems like everyone I date they always leave me

No. 2237814

>>2237809
What was the disagreement about?

No. 2237817

>>2237814
she struggles with opening up and I told her that i’m always willing to listen to her problems whatever is going on etc but I would never force her too, it’s always an option, so basically I was broken up with because I wanted to help someone. lol.

No. 2237830

>>2237817
this sounds like a her problem. is she like an avoidant attachment type?

No. 2237836

>>2237830
i don’t know, she never showed any signs of that. it’s fucking me up because all I wanted to do was help her. i never wanted it to be an argument

No. 2237840

>>2237836
You'll get over her. You don't want to be with someone who's so unstable that they break up over a disagreement.

No. 2237842

Nothing infuriates me more than when moids commit a crime only to kill themselves after. Either just kill yourself or live with the consequences of your actions. It pisses me off to no end

No. 2237853

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i definitely have a pea or like gumball sized lump in my breast which means that i wasn't delusional like everyone said i was a year ago but unfortunately i and my family are genuinely too poor to do anything about it so i'll just have to stay chilling and ignore it or better yet forget i even have it as best as i possibly can. at least it's not really painful aside from making me cringe and sometimes the lymph nodes in the area swell but itherwise it's nbd. hope this doesn't have grave consequences but it's not like it's in my hands to be fair so it's not really worth spending my energy worrying about much… i'm already in the acceptance stage kek

No. 2237872

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My ex who cruelly discarded me, deleted me from socials, and lost my number in some anime villain twist move to reveal he was just manipulating me for supply throughout our relationship after I asked him if there was any realistic future for us >>2212390 decided two weeks later to message me on zuckbook: "Just wanted to make sure you were doing okay and to apologize for whatever." So fucking weak. I only read the push notification, I did not give him the satisfaction of knowing I read it and like hell if I will reply.
What a fucking asshole. After admitting he is a sociopath who only wants women around to satisfy some social craving he has he thinks I'm going to forget that one-sided bullshit?! He was 100% telling the truth and I fucking believed it when he said he was willing to fake whatever social mask to get what he wants from people.
What kills me are my mutuals. I don't call them my friends anymore. They wanna keep the fake fuck around because he is a funnyman but treat me, the person who actually did shit for them and show up, like a disposable piece of trash who was just being emotional.
I don't know which group to hate more right now but only know they fucking deserve the worst for how abandoned they made me feel. I hope it happens to every one of them, preferably the part where the scrote himself said he will die alone. 100% wish that for him and any one of those fucks taking advantage of me yet playing victim when I point it out.

No. 2237884

I have a bit of a procrastination problem. Left all of my classwork for the last day and my midterm test is due in like 4 hours but I'm just chilling right now watching Jerma's stream. I could've finished it days ago but I do this every week, which hasn't bit me in the ass yet. It only took an hour to finish my math homework at least

No. 2237915

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I'm so tired of dating men. They are so overly emotional and irrational and yet pretend they are the logical sex. I feel like I lose connection to my bf everyday or at least every time he says something retarded. I always point out the facts of the matter and sometimes he accepts them but usually he just walks away or says we should just forget it, over REALITY. Honestly if I knew then what I knew now I don't think I would actually date this guy and I think he can feel that fact. Which I feel bad about and makes me feel like I should just rip off the bandaid because wtf are we dating for if we don't even like each other? Ugh I miss when we were super in love and happy and I didn't worry about whether or not he was retarded because he was so sweet and cute so who cares. Well now I care. I want to die.

No. 2237956

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I saw some anon mention an ai chat site so I curiously googled it, and this was the first thing that popped up. Why must we share a planet with people who create stuff like this

No. 2237958

>>2237853
If it makes you feel any better, someone in my family has been going through a massive recovery for a mass removal and the biopsy turned out to be negative anyway. But if you aren’t going to get it removed now to be safe, then you absolutely need to monitor it and if it grows you’ll have to bite the debt bullet and get it checked out and possibly removed ASAP then.

No. 2237960

>>2237809
update: it was because she found someone else. yeah i’m shooting my brains out

No. 2237962

>>2237956
>12 years old or younger
>massive floppy tits
Behold the contradictory nature of the male monkey brain. If we were an advanced species, we'd neuter them for their own sake as well as ours. Then we'd reach world peace.

No. 2237969

>>2236765
cant you say you never actually registered to vote

No. 2237973

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No. 2237987

>>2236765
Tbh you should have lied and told him that you voted for Trump early like what 1 in 8 women are doing.
Public record shows that you voted, not whom you voted for.

No. 2237994

>>2237960
I'm sorry nonny. Sounds like she was just making an excuse to break up with you.

No. 2238020

>>2237956
I sure hope that anon who kept talking about how all men and all women all hate saggy tits doesn't see this.

No. 2238037

i just want the political text messages and phone calls to stop. just shut the fuck up and just trust that i will vote this week. this shit should be illegal but no this is burgerland and i have to accept the retardation.

No. 2238040

i am so tired… i am so tired of financially supporting my oppressive, incompetent family… so tired of feeling like all I do is exist for other people… so tired of hating myself. It's like paying for my misery. I remember being painfully depressed when I was a teen and I can't believe over a decade has passed and I feel worse about myself in every way seemingly possible. I almost wish something would take me so my family has the life insurance to live off of… not that I trust them to manage all that money to support themselves anyway. I hope every nona reading this has at least a couple things to smile about.

No. 2238045

>>2238037
Literally. I already voted but the calls and texts haven’t stopped, they only slowed down. A couple weeks before I voted I got calls and texts every single hour, and now I get texts telling me to bitch at my family/friends to vote. So annoying and exhausting.

No. 2238051

I want to go dance at a night club but my whole family told me that I'm too old, that I will get kicked out or not even allowed to enter and that I should just go somewhere else like a coffee shop.
It's so shitty, so before I was too young to go partying and they told me I needed to get a big group of friends (literally impossible), now I'm an ancient 29 years old and frail lady and I need to go play chess at the plaza because they're telling me that I will get kicked out of the night club for being too old.
It's so shitty, my brother and my cousins were always allowed to go anywhere they wanted when we were younger, they had lots of friends and shit, but because I'm the only young woman of the family I wasn't allowed to go anywhere, I also am a retard that had a hard time making friends and of course I got the worst era to go out at because of the constant kidnappings, murders and such.
So now that I have time and my own money, I'm getting discouraged because I'm "too old" because "I won't enjoy it" like, it's retarded, how do I know if I won't enjoy it if I can't even go? Why is clubbing something that only people under 25 years old can do?
I don't even want to fuck randos, I literally just want to dance to electronic music and badly sing with my friends while wearing nice clothes, it really isn't the same at home.
So they're telling me that there's places for old fossils like me, but they won't tell me which places specifically so I can search them and figure out if I want to do that or not.
Then my mother gives me a sermon about friendship at an old age and age appropriate activities, like, what? I don't even want to have like 300 friends, I just literally want to go dance with the two friends I have and with some assigned moid for "protection".
Then they all describe those places like the most boring shit ever where you just talk with your friends and listen to salsa and merengue all night long and tell me that it's the best I can get at my old age.
It's so shitty.

No. 2238065

bf broke up with me yesterday i think im a bit too much of a neet for him. guy makes a 6 figure salary. fumbled a breezy life cuz im incapable of putting the smallest bit of effort into being a productive member of society

No. 2238072

>>2238051
If it helps to encourage you, I only really started going clubbing at 29 and I enjoy it a lot. There are usually people older than me there too, though I do go for more niche music genre nights, so your experience may be different. If you want to go just to dance with friends and have a fun time, I think you should try it. If it does suck, you can always leave and go somewhere else.

No. 2238074

>>2238051
Your family are assholes. 29 isn't too old to do anything. Go out and enjoy yourself.

No. 2238092

I noticed tiny white mites on my steam deck today and I am now seeing them on all of the black surfaces in my bedroom, it is driving me insane holy shit. Almost everything in my room is lightly coloured so I have no idea how many there actually are. My bedroom is usually the one place that I don't suffer from contamination ocd in, but now it's 5am and I am unable to sleep because I feel like the mites are crawling all over me

No. 2238093

>>2238092
what the hell!? Horrifying.

No. 2238094

Feel really tired and I don't know why. I fucked up by having caffeine, I shouldn't have. I hope I can sleep well tonight. Thinking I will go get a massage on my next day off I need a reset.

No. 2238095

>>2238092
are you 100% sure it's mites? like they're moving and clearly alive?

No. 2238100

>>2238092
That sounds a bit like carbon monoxide poisoning, not to alarm you or anything but people see realistic bug hallucinations

No. 2238103

>>2238092
Get some air in case you are hallucination, but did you bring anything new into your room recently, perhaps anything that could have come from a bad shipping warehouse
https://www.reddit.com/r/SteamDeck/comments/u3xfuu/so_my_steamdeck_shipped_with_literal_bugs/

No. 2238113

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>>2238095
>>2238100
>>2238103
I'm definitely not imagining it, vidrel is one that I found on the steam deck case. Aside from the movement, they're indistinguishable from a speck of dust, about as tiny as a grain of salt. From what I have read online, I think they are mold mites. They're particularly attracted to electronics because of the warmth apparently, you can find videos of laptops infested with them.. going to have to figure out what the fuck to do about it later on today (if I am even able to sleep, that is)

No. 2238118

>>2238113
Rubbing alcohol

No. 2238124

>>2238103
And no, it didn't come with the steam deck kek, I've had it for over a year now. I did buy a new frying pan the other day and the box is still in my room, but I really doubt it could've been from that.
>>2238118
Have been, i wiped down the steam deck with it several times and it is currently sealed away in a box, along with a rag soaked with it. I have also been wiping down everything else I notice them on, but I doubt rubbing alcohol will be enough to get rid of them properly.

No. 2238127

>>2238124
You don't wipe it, you have to let a thin layer sit for awhile and evaporate, at least on surfaces that can handle. Otherwise all you can do is turbovacuum and cycle all your fabrics and pillows through the dryer to kill them. Does borax work on them?

No. 2238131

>>2238113
this is not a hallucination, fuck. Get a dehumidifier, apparently dustmites like humidity. And get a small vacuum cleaner. That sucks.

No. 2238137

I feel like I get a yeast infection every month about a week after my period ends. Why tf is this happening? I'm seeing a gynecologist in a week for a check up and I'm gonna ask her.

No. 2238146

>>2238137
It's a bit gross but maybe gentian violet tampons could help. Also maybe you need to reconsider what menstrual supplies you are using. Have you changed brand recently?

No. 2238148

>>2238146
Didn't even occur to me that it could be related to menstrual products. I don't even bother with specific brands, just buy whatever is cheapest, which is probably contributing to this issue.

No. 2238153

>>2238100
I thought that just made you see ghosts, aliens or shadow people. Every paranormal post on reddit has a suggestion that people check for carbon monoxide poisoning

No. 2238173

Having PCOS and going to communities to try to solve it all the while all focus is on fertility is not for the weak. I genuinely get extremely triggered by pregnancy but I just want to help myself without everyone obsessing over their fertility.

No. 2238175

>>2238173
Restored fertility is still a marker of recovery regardless of whether or not you want to get pregnant, whatever they're doing should work for you too.

No. 2238178

>>2238175
I don’t care about what they’re doing though and I don’t want to read it… they only care about getting pregnant and ovulating while I want to get rid of my physical and mental symptoms. Their solutions ALWAYS is some shit like IVF and fertility creams or whatever.

No. 2238184

Ladies, can someone please help me on how to deal with being cheated on for a third fucking time?? (not by the same man, but my most recent now ex boyfriend) I have just given up on men completely. I feel so retarded. I honestly just feel dull and I just wanna isolate myself

No. 2238186

>>2238184
I can only offer consolation, that is a horrible thing to experience. It might not be healthy long term but after my last breakup I got really fixated on some anime character and it did help.

No. 2238189

Please stop using the fact that someone has a trauma to invalidate anything they say and tell them they say it or are the way they are because of trauma!

No. 2238212

I really wish my dad could accept criticism without becoming a bitch about it. I was in the car with him as he was distracted while driving, looking at fucking election tweets and letting a massive gap form between our car and the car in front of us because he won't stop looking at the phone. He even looked at tweets right as a green traffic light shone and scared the shit out of me since he was still looking at the phone right as the light was about to turn red. If I had told him to stop looking at the phone while driving, he'd just get pissy at me and tell me he is a good driver. So I guess I can only keep my mouth shut while he poses a massive risk on the road because he's conditioned me and my mom to never criticize him, otherwise he will get angry and defensive at us. It is really hard to love him when I think about this part of him.

No. 2238228

>While most polls have shown a gender gap in the race between Trump and Harris, the Leger survey shows a wide age difference in support of the two major party nominees.

>Among voters 18-34, Harris leads Trump by 20 percentage points (59%-39%), while Trump leads by 14 (56%-42%) among those 55 and older, who tend to make up a larger slice of the electorate.


old people love ruining things for everyone else

No. 2238245

i think of dying almost every day. this is my life. i sit in my room every day and play games on my computer and shitpost and draw and maybe sometimes go to my community college classes if i can muster the will to get out of bed in the morning. this is it… really. i doubt ill ever move out of my small town. i doubt ill ever meet somebody who i want a relationship with in real life(22 and completely inexperienced) ive drifted away from all my friends, irl and online. im so alone it physically hurts sometimes. atleast i live with my parent but that also feels kinda shit because i would love to know some independence at some point. but it doesnt even feel possible because who would want to hire some sperg who only has went to community college anyways lmao!! and i said parent earlier because i dont have a mom in my life, and i wish everyday that i did, but shes a bpd nightmare who traumatized me so bad as a kid, so i just live with my dad now. lol i typed way too much here but im suffering so much i cant take it anymore i just want to be dead by next year. all i live for is doing art and playing video games and thats it!! what a hollow empty existence. what a nothing life.

No. 2238293

My friend has a new boyfriend and she can do so so so much better. He's a boring, dumb "nice guy" with a farmer face and reeks of sweat, she's way too smart and pretty for someone like him. I feel bad because she seems really happy so I won't interfere but she can do so much better.

No. 2238297

>>2238245
The only thing wrong here is that you’re depressed, a doomer and maybe that you’re unintentionally unemployed (doubt) but that’s not the end of the world either.

>leaving small town

This only requires you to pick a job somewhere else and then also live there or vice versa. You would have to go out of your way to never ever do this.

>drifted away from all my friends

If you feel like contacting them, then contact them. “Drifting away” isn’t a thing if it’s been less than a decade since you last spoke. Either way, you wouldn’t die if your friends contacted you, so don’t fantasise about how you can’t do the same. Otherwise you’re just making “I don’t really feel like chatting” unnecessarily dramatic.

>22 and completely inexperienced

This is deathly normal and has no impact on your ability to find a future partner.

>sperg who went to community college

So a standard, everyday person? Apply for a job asking for your degree or any/similar. Heck even if you didn’t get one, apply anyway. The workforce isn’t governed by your baby anxieties. Most people don’t have whatever you think is impressive and they’re hired anyway.

>art and video games

These are just the things you like to do, which is fine. Get into other things as they interest you or don’t, you don’t need to skydive and become famous to have a worthy or fulfilling life.

It’s such a silly waste of energy to feel this way about nothing. Imagine you logged these memories as positive instead of somehow bad because you’re making art in your dad’s house a year out of uni after escaping your mom. You don’t respect your life for what it is currently but you can work on healing the suffering from within it.
(No infight intended but I’ll-a take-a my ban)

No. 2238303

I'll never get over my jealousy towards smug middle-class women

No. 2238323

Everything feels fucking stupid and pointless right now. I'm stuck in a different country where I always stick out and even though my hometown is shit I miss it so much and would much rather be there. I can tell that the very few friends I already have are beginning to dislike me. I especially miss one of my friends so much and talking to her gives me some of the only joy I get in a day, I want to fly home and hug her and kiss her head and hang out at her place forever but I can feel us drifting apart and I can't do anything about it while I'm here. Every time I try to reassure her that I care about her and love her and miss her she doesn't want to hear it, she's going through her own shit too and it makes me feel like I can't do anything for her, making me feel even worse in return. On top of it all I'm in so much physical pain all the time, my body feels like it's actively failing and I can barely get out of bed or do anything and I don't even know why. I'm exhausted all the time but I can't sleep and I constantly feel like I'm getting stabbed in the chest and stomach, not to mention the frequent headaches, nausea, lightheadedness, my skin has been breaking out for the past two months and I look awful, my hair is a mess, my shower is so old and gross that using it makes me feel dirtier than before, and I can barely do laundry. I can't stop having horrid intrusive thoughts and they make me feel disgusting. I also can't stop thinking about my friends not liking me, how much worse my life will get when they finally cut me off, and how much I want to go home but at the same time will just be miserable there, too. Everything about me is falling apart and I don't have a future I'm so tired I don't know what to do anymore.

No. 2238333

they're having the time of their life, enjoying the peak of early adulthood freedom without having to deal with any responsibilities
meanwhile, I'm bed-rotting

No. 2238334

My relationship with my crazy mother has gotten so much better over the years but she's still so fucking crazy.
I wish I could diagnose her so it was easier to figure out what triggers her, I think she's autistic because of the way she rages when things aren't phrased exactly in a way she understands but then she also speaks in a way that omits context a lot of the time so maybe it's not that, it always causes problems
What the fuck is her problem?! Loving someone is so hard

No. 2238343

>>2238297
Nta but I appreciated this break down of her post, I'm going to go get off my ass now

No. 2238350

>>2237872
HE POSTED THIS MORNING IN GROUP CHAT THAT THE PERSON SELLING HIM A CAR BACKED OUT SO HE WON'T BE GOING TO ANY OF OUR MEETUPS IN THE NEAR FUTURE. AHAHAHAHA WHAT A FUCKING LOSER! Glad I didn't respond, trying to manipulate me to go give him a ride ahahahahahaha.

No. 2238352

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In regards to being attractive to the opposite sex. Does anyone else feel like they peaked at 15? The amount of attention and adoration I got went down fast as I approached 18. And then it keeps dropping. Now I feel invisible at 37.

It makes me think of this old "Penile plethysmography" study. They showed sexually suggestive images of females of various ages. And the blood flow to the penis showed which ages men found most attractive. Instead of just asking them and hearing them lie. The chart shows that men prefer minors over adults. Pic related.

But I feel that my rise and drop was more extreme. Like I went from 100 % at 15 years of age, to 25 % after 17 years of age. Again, in the way of which straight people of the opposite sex adored me. Not my own gender or anything like that.

Am I alone in feeling this way?

No. 2238353

>>2238352
Some os us may not be good resources to ask as many of us were "ugly ducklings." I'm peaking now at 33, never had this much attention than ever before, which may also be due to the fact that I have a professional job with status.

At 15 my eyebrows were plucked crooked and I had no vehicle. Sorry you attracted pedos, anon.

No. 2238355

>>2238352
if inadvertently erect penises is the kind of "attention" you're looking for, then yeah

No. 2238358

>>2238352
I never got any attention whatsoever, can't relate.

No. 2238359

>>2238352
not really. i was always ugly kek, there was no peak

No. 2238367

>>2237807
i woke up and i’m STILL thinking about it. i can’t switch my brain off. i want someone to talk some sense into me.

No. 2238374

I can't forget my ex, and I'm still deeply in love with him. He was my everything and then he dumped me as if I had no value. But I still fucking love him because while we were dating, everything was going so well. He was so kind, so gentle, so calm, so attentive and protective. His lips were so soft and plump, and I loved his long eyelashes and dimples and smile. I thought I was in a dream, or in heaven, it was maybe the first time for the past 15 years where I truly felt at peace. I didn't need anything else in my life! Just being in his embrace was the most comfortable thing, I imagine this is unironically what addicts must feel like when they first get their high. And then poof he broke up with me. He never allowed me to fix anything. He said that I was too immature and childish, despite putting all the efforts in this relationship for everything to go well. I never bothered him with calls, too many text messages, or complaints. I tried to be the perfect gf, but I still had moments where I was vulnerable, or too shy. He also hated that when I met his family, I wasn't talkative enough and apparently he claims that I kept some distance….

No. 2238378

>>2238374
He is a manipulative liar. People who dump you out of nowhere were/are lying to you and likely for an end that you do not see or were not aware of. I don't know how you anons feel anything except betrayal in these situations. Scrotes are disloyal.

No. 2238381

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>>2238355

Well yes, obviously. Most men do not go out of their way seeking minors. They tend to "settle" for women half their age. Because that they are too poor to afford a ticket on Epsteins lolita express.

No. 2238387

>>2238352
>>2238381
this so obviously a man posting

No. 2238389

A friend of a friend got dumped by her boyfriend for a skinnier and thus seen as more conventionally attractive girl. This other girl was knowingly going after him knowing he had a girlfriend. The guy was frankly too ugly for both of them, short and fat with too much neck and no neck at the same time, and he was an insecure dick on top of that. I don't get why you'd steal a boyfriend who's so ugly and not even nice. I feel bad saying it because the girl who got dumped is seemingly very nice and just not a looker, but why steal from someone who "can't get anything better" looks-wise when you as the more attractive one could get someone much more attractive? Jolene by Dolly Parton has been playing in my head since I found out about this gossip. Though I think in the end it was for the best since the nice girl got freed of the nastly little man, and all the home-wrecker got was to be stuck with him instead.

No. 2238390

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>>2238374
Baby girl you literally are an addict, you got addicted to the hormones released by your brain being in a relationship. You’ll recover but you gotta stop thinking about the relationship, the wistful memories are just feeding the crack baby between your ears. Find literally anything else to do because he was planning this and gave zero fucks you were in a relationship. He needed an excuse to not seem like the bad guy so he’s putting partial blame on his family. Did he make sure to fuck you one last time before breaking up with you? There are little flags all over that these types leave everywhere because they can’t help themselves. You gotta stop wearing rose tinted glasses to see that they’re red.

No. 2238391

>>2238381
so now you're giving credit to the "politically correct" version capped at 20, which only mentions "looks"?
at least be consistent, this just shows a biologically programmed/socially conditioned ideal which has no bearing on reality, which is what actually upsets you

No. 2238393

>>2238353
>tfw my reply about my experience in contradiction to those bullshit charts gets no response

No. 2238397

>>2238393
I've personally very much-so "peaked" socially while I was in middle-school, but then again, it's just a factor of me completely letting myself go afterwards for unrelated reasons, now I'm 24, completely unrecognizable, and never been so isolated, but I wouldn't be so quick as to blame it my looks, as bad as they've gotten, because that's just a consequence of my lifestyle

No. 2238399

>>2238397
plus I don't actually think I'm ugly, it's just that it's not going to affect my life either way

No. 2238412

>>2238397
I had a slump at 24 too, and now a decade later no one would ever know. Don't write yourself off.

No. 2238414

I hate being autistic, I have no friends and struggle with basic conversation.

i'm academically stupid and have a low iq, I've only had one job before in retail but couldn't do basic tasks due to misunderstandings and customers getting angry at me.

I went through traumatic things in my teenage years that I feel like has completely fucked my brain entirely, i used be passionate and have hobbies, not I isolate myself and want to die, I desperately need therapy but I cant afford it as we are poor.

I've actively been wasting my life for years doom scrolling and sleeping all day and I know it's wrong and I know it's not helping, and that I'm only 20 and I have time, and I know what to do to help my situation is studying and getting into uni etc

But it's so hard, I'm so sad, I cry myself to sleep every night.

No. 2238420

>>2238414
I'm in the same situation, about to drop out
I'll just lay down and rot until I get evicted and go homeless, maybe that'll end up kicking some sense into me

No. 2238435

>>2238390
>Did he make sure to fuck you one last time before breaking up with you?
He wanted to see if I could manage to deepthroat him and I couldn't really do that well because I lost my virginity to him and I was still learning how to perform sexual activities and still had a gag reflex. That was the first time when his attitude was weird cause I think he expected me to be able to deepthroat him by now but it was still too difficult for me. He was obviously disappointed and seemed less gentle towards me, like usually he'd worry if I'm well and not struggling too much while giving him blowjobs but he didn't really care that time. The day before that I was a mess and crying in his arms cause I felt like something was going wrong with him and I could sense he was colder than usual and I told him that and he said "don't worry everything is ok" and then I kissed him and then he suddenly asks me to give him a blowjob. And I did and he came faster than usual, I never refused him but looking back it was kind of an asshole move to ask me to suck his dick while I was crying about the future of our relationship

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>>2237695
>>2237803
As a person who was a quiet kid and a quiet teenager, there's little things that are more aggravating than finally standing up for yourself just for everyone to treat you like you're "out of control" and crazy because they never expect it from you. They ignore what you're saying and mostly ignore who or what is making you upset because they're too focused being perplexed that you can raise your voice and feel different emotions. It's so disappointing when you're quiet, and people use that as an excuse to forget that you're a human too.

No. 2238445

>>2238435
holy shit please be bait

No. 2238446

>>2238445
It's not? Does it sound weird?

No. 2238454

>>2238446
sorry to break it to you, but he was just getting a final kick out of humiliating you, knowing you still cared enough to submit to this, while he already had replaced you

No. 2238457

>>2238435
Holy shit this made my piss boil, it made me so angry to read. I hope nobody ever treats you like that again, including yourself. Don't ever ignore gut feelings about men again, those instincts exist in us for good reason.

No. 2238459

>>2238414
>I've only had one job before in retail but couldn't do basic tasks due to misunderstandings and customers getting angry at me.
This is only a very small part of your post but I wanted to say that these things can be learned. Don't stay somewhere that makes you feel crap all the time, but after some years of experience in and out of work you might suddenly learn the "script" and find it clicks into place. Customer service roles are predictable, you can learn it eventually
I have the worst audio processing and have no idea what people are saying most of the time so I just respond with my guesses like an NPC and don't get embarrassed when it's the wrong one, I cycle through them until I give the right answer and if I can't get it then fuck em who cares

No. 2238465

>>2238446
and actually, you might not want to hear this, but he probably didn't even lie while telling you he dumped you because you felt too immature to him, in the sense that you bored him by putting up with his every sexual whims

No. 2238468

>>2238465
To be fair usually I was the one who initiated sex, and he often expected me to make the first move. He was actually quite lazy in bed

No. 2238472

>>2238468
yeah he probably didn't even find you really attractive, but just a psychological mean to feel better about himself having a girl be dependent on him
but that's just how it is most of times in my experience

No. 2238484

Would it be unhinged if I left a boyfriend/husband if I were to find out I'd be pregnant? I just donated about 5 boxes of clothes to a woman who just escaped an abusive relationship and it made me think about how I do not even want to risk that shit happening to me kids.

No. 2238486

>>2238472
I don't think he could feel much for any woman, he told me he was never in love with anyone. Weirdly enough he did keep pics of myself looking "sexy" in his phone and I know he did jerk off to them and screenshoted them from instagram so maybe there was a level of physical attraction. And when we had our first kiss which was supposed to be just a kiss he had no patience and suddenly grabbed my butt and tried to touch my genitals. Side note but I'm clearly retarded cause I allowed him to do that. But he showered me with gifts, he listened to all my requests to unfollow other girls and he would often casually show me his phone and gallery so I can check it. And he really really wanted to introduce me to his parents and family, like isn't it weird to just suddenly lose interest after all that? If he wanted me only for sex then he wouldn't beg me to come meet his family.
Another thing to mention, I think his attitude towards other women was weird, at the end of our relationship he started cussing at a group of girls on the street cause he found them too loud, and once complained about two random teen girls in the store cause he found them cringe.

No. 2238498

>>2238486
enjoying sexual attention is not the same as finding someone attractive, it gets boring, quickly, unless it's constantly pushing boundaries and devolve into an humiliation game, like you've mentioned him trying to do with you, which even his late "deepthroating" interest is just another iteration of
he probably needed you to some extent as to reassure himself, as a reminder that you, at least, felt indebted to him, but nothing much beyond that
when that fleeting feeling falls apart and the "itch" to feel validated comes back, that's when he realized there were none left to squeeze out of you, and left

No. 2238500

>>2238486
and being aggressive towards women is just the expression of this frustration, either by not getting any, or once they realize no amount of sex is going to fix their sorry lives

No. 2238511

>socially anxious
>keep head down and don't make eye contact
>feel like I'm not "part of the scene"
>feel like a retard because I feel invisible
>make eye contact and keep head up
>people are so much more likely to randomly talk to me
>feel painfully awkward and uncomfortable
>keep head down and don't make eye contact
>cycle repeats
How do I not feel retarded for being "part of the scene". My social anxiety is at a point where if I keep up my anxious habits I'm not a "person" but being a person is way too much h effort and tires me out. How do I stop being retarded?

No. 2238539

>>2238511
Speaking from experience, you just have to make eye contact and deal with enough awkward conversations until they're less awkward. You will cringe at yourself when you say something dumb. That's okay. It's part of growing. I still do it. You got this nonna!

No. 2238553

I think being left handed is just the icing on the freak cake that is me and my life

No. 2238571

I'm scared for the future of women. It may sound exaggerated, but I do think in the span of one generation "woman" will mean transwoman (i.e. a man) and actual women will be second class citizens with not even a word to define us. We will be relegated to babymakers, and it will be considered progressive and woke to do so. Female erasure has already started with sports. Soon, males will win all awards and accolades in other fields too, like the arts for example - not because they're better than us, but because society is deeply misogynistic and will jump at the chance to ignore us. The excalating hypersexualization we're seeing now will contribute to the dehumanization of the female body. Mark my words nonas. Within the next 20 years women will start to lose the right to be women.

No. 2238572

There's an Airbnb below my apartment and an old retired moid rented it for 2 weeks. He waited for me to exit my apartment and started going upstairs to tell me he was renting the place and asked me if we could hang out some day. I said yes so he'd leave me alone, but a few days later he waited for me to exit my place and ambushed me again. I told him I was not hanging out with him because I didn't know him and didn't feel safe, and he had the balls to be surprised that I had made such a statement. He's a creeper waiting to ambush me when I go out and is surprised that I don't feel safe. This is in France too so there's no way he hasn't heard about Giselle Pelicot and he just expected me to trust him.

No. 2238573

It feels so pathetic but I just cannot get over my ex boyfriend. It is not that I want him back but that I feel wronged, hurt and angry for the way he treated me. I have even started therapy because of how bad everything got. I know that every person likes to call their ex a narcissist nowadays but I do genuinely think that he is one since he literally checks everything box. I just can't get over it. The whole relationship seems like a fucked up fever dream. He constantly tried to cross every boundary I set up and from the constant criticism, put downs and negging my self respect and self worth are in shambles. I already wrote up a list of all the fucked up shit he did and how nothing seemed to match up with him. I just can't get over it and my brain won't stop ruminating.

No. 2238593

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Whenever I see people, especially women, complain that Taylor Swift isn't sexy and they love to point that even the "chair dance" routine on her tour isn't sexy because Taylor makes silly faces during it, it makes me sad because it just shows how pornified sexuality is. I actually think it's refreshing to see an adult not take sexuality that seriously and realistically, sex isn't like porn at all. There's smiles, there's laughing, there's silly inside jokes you share. The only sex I've had that isn't like that is rape, but I guess that's "hot" to most people in terms of the vibe. I think TS deserves criticism, but I think it's such a weird critique that she isn't "sexy" enough to be a popstar. She is noticeably attractive and that isn't enough because she isn't trying to make herself palatable to men.

No. 2238600

>>2238593
idk anything about her chair dance, but she looks fierce and like she's having fun in that gif. sexy.

No. 2238603

>>2238593
She's very attractive but some of the more obviously cringy stuff she pulls feels like she's trying to be someone else if that makes sense. She's hot in gifrel, I wish she would own up to the slightly androgynous and stern modelesque side of herself because that's what's so sexy about her IMO, personally I feel like her weird high school FOMO relationship with that bearded thumb is holding her back.

No. 2238608

>>2238593
This GIF just reinforced my heterosexuality, thanks nona!

No. 2238609

>>2238593
i dont even know why its necessary? it doesnt enhance her singing in the slightest and its cringe

No. 2238612

Today was a MOVIE ♥ We had a group project where we had already decided what we were going to do. However, the other members of my group huddled together while I stayed in my seat, thinking we had everything figured out. They ended up discussing something else, and when it was our turn, they decided to go in a different direction without including me. I asked what I was supposed to do to avoid being there doing nothing. One member initially brushed it off, saying, “Oh, it’s okay,” but I pointed out that it was okay for him since he was doing something. Eventually, he quickly assigned me a task, but it turned out to be a bad idea, so I didn’t contribute effectively to the project.

When we were being evaluated, I mentioned in front of the teacher that I wasn’t included in the project, just to ensure no one would claim I hadn’t done anything. They insisted that I had contributed, but I clarified that my work didn’t end up in the final project. The teacher responded, saying, “But you did, so that’s stupid.” ♥ I love all of those people so much!

No. 2238620

>>2238593
Can you put this shit in the CORRECT fucking thread which is the celebricows thread? I swear to god the farmhands have completely given up on making people integrate, you’re such an insufferable little newfag clutching on your shitty ass twitter takes. Nobody cares about Taylor Swift in the vent thread

No. 2238641

>>2238608
KEK she's so bland and unsexy it's actually painful

No. 2238652

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>>2238593
i agree that modern sexuallity is very pornified but Tay being unsexy isn't proof.
for example, here's Eartha Kitt much more clothed but her body language alone makes her more sexy.Tay just doesn't have that type of sex appeal and she shouldn't try to, because other things make her pretty.

No. 2238664

>>2238652
Eartha Kitt was a performer and dancer through and through, Taylor Swift had her entire career payed for by her daddy and co, whereas Eartha had to grind and be discovered by talent alone. This is like comparing creme brulee to a McDonald's ice cream in a plastic cup. I get what you're saying but sadly the "talent" of today could never in a million years be compared to the talent of yesteryear.

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>>2238664
>This is like comparing creme brulee to a McDonald's ice cream in a plastic cup. I get what you're saying but sadly the "talent" of today could never in a million years be compared to the talent of yesteryear.
god i know and i miss it so much

No. 2238683

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I think i am falling in love for the first time in my life. This guy is so kind, intelligent, is an amazing cook and doesnt cheap out like all of the other moids that liked me in the past. He legit treats me like a princess even though i am fat, ugly, a hunchback and have a face destroyed by acne as a teen. I dont know what he sees in me and that's making me really insecure. I am thorn because i do want to date him, kinda, but i have been a kissless, dateless virgin for 24 years and i take pride in that. I dont know what to do. I know i am too selfish and useless for a relationship and honestly while i am horny i have a very moidish idea of sex where being the subservient one disgusts me and i am not willing to suck dick or get dicked.

No. 2238690

>>2238620
It would also fit in celebricows but I don't see why it doesn't fit here.

No. 2238693

>>2238593
I see a boss bitch who knows she doesn't have to overperform like a monkey because she's already a billionaire for singing in a sparkly one piece.
I am not a fan, but I recognize her game. There is a reason why men plan terrorist attacks at her concerts.
She is a fucking threat and for that alone I will always stan.

No. 2238694

>>2238683
>and i take pride in that.
Given the way you described yourself, this sounds like a massive cope and as a defense mechanism for your insecurities. You have the right to be loved nona, allow yourself. Keep that in mind even if this relationship doesn't work.

No. 2238698

I have no one. Not even my boyfriend cares about me. Not my friends, no one is ever around, it's just me. I only have myself. That makes me feel hopeless. I don't see anything good ever happening. Life is uncertain and I hate it yet I'm sure nothing extraordinary will ever happen to me. Nothing ever happens, every day is the same. I can't find meaning or purpose in anything.

No. 2238701

>>2238620
It's just a vent about how people perceive public females celebrity figures and I used TS as an example. Besides, in the past year or two, nearly any mention of a woman in the celebricow thread begets a high amount of vitriol regardless of the intent of the post.

No. 2238735

Day 60 of my cycle. Yesterday I started to notice my urine smells strong and weird. Today I noticed that the world smells strong and weird. I took 2 tests a week ago both negative. I have PCOS so I’m not very fertile and my periods are always late but never that late. Pray for me ladies, it’s hard enough out there.

No. 2238758

>>2238735
I remember that time I went 58 days with no period, crazy shit. Anyways, don't worry, PCOS is fucked like that

No. 2238787

>>2236979
You whores can argue with the wall. You can try your hardest to convince me that I’m the trash here, But no new cows are being discussed anymore, because nobody is allowed to make a thread on anything besides what anime cock wish you had in your mouth the most. I’m tired of being forced into giving a shit about you freaks’ obsession with “le moids” And claiming to hate men when they take up 100% of your brain, and 100% of the discussions on here. Going somewhere where I can laugh at Ezra Miller without being told by some whore in denial that I’m not allowed to talk shit about him because “he’s cute” Or that I’m not allowed to laugh at puppychan because “female coomers are based uwu” Is absolutely an upgrade, and I’m posting this here in case anyone here feels the same and wants to make a switch.

No. 2238796

I can’t tell if I am just the worst or if I just internalise things too easily. Not trying to be sarcastic or anything. I genuinely can’t tell what bad traits to be hung up on

No. 2238835

>>2238787
>I’m not allowed to talk shit about him because “he’s cute”
>I’m not allowed to laugh at puppychan
Nobody is stopping you

No. 2238993

>>2238787
>forced into giving a shit about you freaks’ obsession with “le moids”
I'm sorry your life is really hard

No. 2239098

The government needs to invent a new horrific street drug, I've already watched all of the documentaries on the current assortment. Maybe some kids at a house party will get into the homeowner's ozempic stash and discover that there's a euphoric recreational high from snorting it or something.

No. 2239129

Recently I've been crying a lot for no reason at all. I've always been a crybaby, but it's been really bad for the past few weeks, just sitting in my room and start bawling.

No. 2239159

ohh my god i can't fucking stand having OCD, my worries of people i care about getting hurt tires me so so much, not only that but it's also all my fault for being a lazy fuck who doesn't do her exposure therapy exercise and i let it get to the point it's overwhelming

No. 2239227

This imane khelif bullshit just shows that even on lolcow at least 50 percent of women are brain dead cumsniffers because how did you all fall for the leftie bullshit so easily and gleefully? Handmaidens. Enjoy your watered down feminism for retards.(bait)

No. 2239265

>>2238787
Unfathomably based

No. 2239267

>>2239227
I'm so glad I don't know who Imane Kelif is. Seems like a stressful existence. I'm sorry he did something bad.

No. 2239269

>>2238787
this site both makes fun of ezra miller and puppychan what are you on

No. 2239315

>>2239267
NTA you're trying to troll but that wasn't even clever.

No. 2239340

>>2239315
I'm not trolling I'm just unfunny. I also really don't know who he is and I don't care.

No. 2239398

>>2238297
damn i appreciate the reply but it feels like you just kinda undermined everything about my post as unimportant… i know that my life isnt "bad" really, the point is that im dying of social isolation and depression

No. 2239399

I feel like shit

No. 2239406

>have hot chocolate and vitamins
>eat a homemade parfait (like 3/4c unsweetened greek yogurt layered in tiny cup with 10 berries, 1/2c granola and 1tbsp maple syrup)
>eat fun size bag of store granola for 200 CALORIES
>eat like a cup of homemade chex style mix
>have a sandwich on 2 pieces of bread with 2 slices of liverwurst and a tiny bit of cheese and maybe 1.5tbsp mayo
>already over 1600 calories
I am so depressed calorie counting again it just feels so hopeless I bought two types of lettuce today just to try and fill my black hole appetite with meals. I'm going to show up at thanksgiving looking fatter than ever and look like a plump mr tumnus if I wear heels fuck my life

No. 2239408

I grew up poor and was never able to buy new clothes until a few years ago, mid pandemic, when I became financially stable. I always wanted to wear cute clothes back then and would spend hours thirsting over lolita and gyaru brands, but now that I can afford it I feel like I'm too old to wear them (late 20s). I keep going back and forth between wanting to live my best cute life for my past self and feeling too embarrassed to wear cute clothes. Fuck my sweatpants and hoodie life.

No. 2239423

I just remembered going on a vacation with my cousin and a youth group from church when I was 16. There was this one girl who always got excluded because the others deemed her as "weird". She was socially awkward and way too honest. I thought that she was cute. She had a cute face and dark long curls, wore funny shirts and always brought a big tub full of avocado spread to every meal. I danced with her at a party because I thought she was nice and I wanted to include her in group activities but my cousin pulled me away and told me not to dance with her and to stay away. I kind of regret not standing up against my cousin but back then I was also scared of getting excluded by the other girls. My cousin is now a teacher and I doubt that she is doing anything against bullying in her class.

No. 2239461

i hate men and alcohol

No. 2239477

>>2239408
A large section of that fashion community is late twenties early thirties because it's expensive
Wear your embarrassing stuff now so that you can get it out of your way in time to be a sexy cougar

No. 2239498

ugh, I wish I didn't have such bad anxiety

No. 2239527

i just came back from a walk, and i was thinking of a specific scene from a TV show i like as i was walking in the door, and when i got into my bedroom my TV was already on and that scene was playing on it??

No. 2239534

It annoys me to no end when people say "self [something] myself"

No. 2239536

>>2239527
Dejavu

No. 2239548

>>2239527
Maybe you heard the audio from afar and remembered the scene without registering it, or you saw and ad about how that episode would air later in the day. There's usually an explanation for super coincidental stuff like this.

No. 2239602

I feel so lost that I can’t even talk about it. Before, I could articulate something, but now all I have is this. I wish I could explain. I desperately need someone or something.

No. 2239607

I wish I had friends I could talk to.

No. 2239613

i want to throw up i feel so fucking awful

No. 2239724

>>2239406
It's the granola's fault. Too high in calories and sugar and doesn't even fill you up. You get hungry faster too. Have some egg, chicken, tuna or sardines instead. Good for you and fills you up.

No. 2239729

>>2239406
stop drinking calories and eating high calorie snacks. move around more

No. 2239737

>>2239406
more fiber could help. or try drinking water before meals.

No. 2239745

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>>2239729
keurig hot cocoa is 60 calories

No. 2239750

>>2239406
same nonny, same. its my birthday soon and it seems like i am going to be piñata. Losing weight is so fucking hard.

No. 2239773

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I feel guilty because I spent twice more on groceries by going to Whole Foods than driving 5 mins more to go to the cheaper grocery store.

No. 2239788

>>2239773
Its ok nonnie, I've been using uber and ubereats a lot lately too. Its nice to treat yourself sometimes. And gas is expensive.

No. 2239817

>small tits
>fat ass
This is so unfair. I can't fix it no matter what, even when I was underweight my hips were still quite big and my tits non existent. I hate it so much

No. 2239824

>>2239817
what i wouldnt do to have small tits tbh, i get hating your body. God gave me the personality of a steretypical 80s butch and the hourglass body of an OF body kek its so unfair i just want to look cool on baggy clothes, i just look fat instead.

No. 2239826

Women purposely dating/marrying murderers/rapists/major criminal is so fucking insane to me. This man killed multiple, hurt the victims family and you know and hear all this and then proceed to start a relationship with him. Insane.
Same thing applies to women thirsting over these killers, what the fuck.

No. 2239830

>>2239817
small boobs and wide hips is way better than huge boobs with small hips

No. 2239859

>>2239406
nonnie I have a suggestion only because I felt this way when I was calorie counting. This suggestion lessoned the sting: volume eating

No. 2239876

OH MY FUCKING GOD
I‘m gonna lose it
I‘m having an OB/GYN appt next week that I had to wait FOUR MONTHS for to get a Pap smear bc I haven’t gotten one in forever (because depression is a bitch) and now I‘m gonna start my period the day before.
Great. Now I‘ll probably have to wait another 4 months to get a new appointment.
I just fucking hate our healthcare. And my body.

No. 2239955

all other masculine leaning women are fat or on T or both, except for me, i'm killing myself. Stop! Being! Fat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just be not fat!!! I HAVE ZERO EYE CANDY.

No. 2239958

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i did the right thing and it gave me the correct result, but i wish i didn't. now i can only dream about what could have been

No. 2239961

I think I’ve developed sciatica? This is the second time in the past year that I’ve just had debilitating leg pain, if I sit down wrong on the couch my body completely tenses up for like 3 seconds and I want to cry out in pain. I’m 24 and skinny so it’s really embarrassing, when I’ve tried to tell my Nigel or my roomate they both just said “idk maybe you slept on it funny”. Im walking like an 80 year old in my apartment and it’s making it really painful to sneeze or take a shit. It’s hard to do schoolwork cause the pain is almost constant and distracting. I hate that you only get one body what if I’ve already ruined mine and I’m not even 25???

No. 2239967

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>>2239406
>I'm going to look like a plump mr tumnus if I wear heels
That's such a cute image.

I wanted to lose weight too, for an event where my old highschool group and ex bf will be there but it didn't happen. There's still some time left, the old me would have starved myself in desperation but I've finally learned enough to know that all that would do is make me look haggard and maybe half a pound lighter at most.
I'm finally going to listen to years of experience and do the right thing, and buy nice clothes that fit. I will embrace the idea of being a ripened rubenesque woman with luxurious amounts of food.With the right clothes I can make it work.

No. 2239969

i wasted the evening on my phone. i'm dreading my grad course tomorrow i'm so sick of it. i failed the midterm and don't know what i'll do.

No. 2239970

Not feeling too good tonight girlies

No. 2239972

>>2239406
why are you choosing only high calorie high density foods… you can eat healthy for low calories and feel satisfied you just have to eat stuff you can eat a ton of and feel full off of but that doesn't have that many calories. For example tonight my dinner was a roasted sweet potato, roasted onion, roasted cauliflower, roasted tomato, beans, rice, seasoned with my favorite spices and a bit of olive-oil mayo and it was sooooooooooooo delicious and i am full. Now this has a lot of sugar in it so beware and brush your teeth but if you get really into fruit it's also easy as fuck to be full on low calories. I eat a pear, an apple, a citrus fruit, and berries every day as snacks and they are so delicious and low calorie.

I think fat people just don't understand they have to actually change the types of food they eat, not the amounts.

No. 2239976

In childhood I was constantly compared to, belittled by, SAd etc. by male family members, their male friends or their enablers and it's genuinely turned me into a huge narcissist around moids. I feel threatened whenever they share their achievements, good things that happened to them, I feel what I think is "narcissistic rage" and blows to my ego and I have the instinctual urge to be much better and superior to them. I could say it's general trauma but I feel an inflated sense of self around them and other things exclusive to narcs.
I read how narcissism/NPD forms theoretically from being forced to maintain codependency against one's will and fuck if that isn't me.
The only thing is that I don't feel this way at all around women, attachment style, behaviour, emotions wise. There weren't a lot of women around in my childhood for me to form anything negative towards them, I think. Getting out of that cultish environment and making female friends was the best part of my life.
I can't get help for this, I don't know where to even start with bringing it up to a therapist. Everyone capes for moids and trannies now, I'll get called a misandrist, TERF, "not all men uwu" or some crazy hysterical woman. I don't really want to be slapped with a potential npd label or something either, I don't know if I'd qualify since it doesn't apply to my female friends/relationships but again since people cape for moids maybe I would.

No. 2239997

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Every day I tell myself to stop wasting my life looking at stupid bullshit on the internet and every day I fucking fail and there's no way to escape it. I'm NGMI nonnies.

No. 2240013

My housemates are overall ok except this one fucking couple, I can't stand them. They smoke in the bathroom even though smoking inside the house is not permitted and they leave cigarette ash on the floor, they always slam the door really loud and wake me up when they go to work because of that, and the scrote literally clips his nails in front of the house, instead of just doing it in the bathroom. They also play their shitty music really loud. Fuckkkk

No. 2240015

>>2239997
This was me two years ago. I was addicted to hurting myself mentally by seeing ridiculous moidtakes and other bad shit and trying to overcome the pain/hate by exposing myself to it more to attempt to desensitise myself. It didn't work. But I eventually got rid of it. You'll make it.

No. 2240103

i hate when i see and hear things moving from my peripheral but when i look there's nothing there, while typing this it happened again

No. 2240106

>>2239976
You don't sound NDP, you sound deeply traumatized by males and have developed this intense hate and need to put them down as a coping mechanism for the abuse you've suffered. I'd consider therapy if you're not already in it. I was very similar to you in my teens and early twenties and thought I was BPD until I addressed my trauma in therapy.

No. 2240108

>>2240106
I brought it up the slightest tad (minus the narcissism) and was shamed for it multiple times, worse with female psychs. The reason I think it's NPD adjacent (or general narcissism, somewhere on the scale or spectrum) is because typical trauma doesn't involve grandiose, egocentric behaviour which is a narc thing.

No. 2240136

Anons really just can't learn2scroll and ignore whatever they find personally offensive, they have to appease their bug instincts and must. Respond. Must. Respond. So now every thread is getting turned into debate club when it is obviously so much more preferable before they started arguing, their bug brains demand that it turns into another petty slapfight. It is making me more misanthropic because why can people just not take the easier, calmer path? They just choose to make everything difficult. Why.. And it just kills anything more interesting from happening too. It's like the arguing just becomes rinse-and-repeat.

No. 2240231

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i don't know who to vent to about it but i think my fiance is starting to lean towards trump. he doesn't vote, i wasn't going to vote for president until biden dropped out so i didn't think all that much of it. i could talk to him about it but i'm really aggressive and moody today and i'm sure i'd end up making it an emotional issue way too fast. he told me in the past he doesn't like trump, but he's surrounded by people with extreme trump derangement syndrome and i think it's having a reactionary effect on him. wwyd nonnies?

No. 2240237

File: 1730802631759.jpg (43.87 KB, 735x731, your messed up life still thri…)

when i was in high school, i had my own personal time while working and being a "nerd". now, i have zero time, and for four-turning-five semesters, i've been acting up to all the roles i've been to–i was never forced into these positions, but knew i needed experience, so it's my own fault. it's all been social, so maybe that's why i'm so burned out, but if i don't figure out how to act with people, my life is meaningless, IMO, because i live in a world with people.if i peaked anywhere, it's here, but i miss how little bad decisions i made in high school. i always had a bad feeling about my life since i was a child, and rationally, i know it's just me attributing every bad thing to me being five, but it still hits the same. i just wish i was a better person. all i ever focus about is being a good person, i make diagrams about it, but i can never fully narrow it down, only think about it, and thinking means nothing without action.

No. 2240239

>>2240231
Umm asking who he is voting for!? If he’s voting for trump dump him and keep the ring. Imagine marrying a trump supporter kek

No. 2240243

>>2240231
tell him both candidates are worthless and don't have the interest of working people

No. 2240246

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Loud toddlers two seats from me, shouting, eating and smacking things against the table

No. 2240251

>>2240243
ayrt. agreed, that's the basis of why neither of us were going to vote. i started to get concerned about loss of social security, healthcare, and women's issues specifically, and i think it's made me cautious of people who still won't vote. or maybe i'm paranoid. or i'm doing some mental gymnastics. i cannot tell.

No. 2240254

>>2239817
Same and add fat thighs

No. 2240265

Sad because my bf left for work for a month. He's pissed that I'm sad.

No. 2240270

Looking at myself in the mirror as I am reaching my middle ages makes me realize how much fucking bullshit all of these anti-aging products are. It really comes down to genetics and while life style choices certainly is part of it, it's not everything.

No. 2240318

I have embarrassed myself multiple times today. I need to go home ASAP.

No. 2240326

Some of you nonas need to remember to spoiler your images. It gives me a fucking heart attack everytime I'm bored during lunch and decide to browse lc and some crazy image pops up. I get paranoid wondering if anyone saw and almost drop my phone kek

No. 2240327

>>2239972
Because my fridge and cupboards are full and I'm going to eat the food I have I didn't expect a simple vent to get so much retarded advice

No. 2240336

>>2239406
That liverwurst sandwich sounds tasty and homemade parfaits are the bee's knees. dw nonna, everyone's supposed to be fat at Thanksgiving, if not when they show up, then by the time they leave.

No. 2240383

>>2240327
welcome to lolcow

No. 2240388

i miss my childhood so much, i want to kill myself. i wish i never moved away from that shithole city, maybe i wouldn't be as chronically depressed if i stayed, but it's too late now. i belong nowhere, i have no home, i have no language, i can't feel love.

No. 2240436

File: 1730816884022.png (5.35 KB, 496x134, normal lc post in 2024.png)

Trannyposting is now welcome on lolcuck.farm. We are finally valid and wholesome ♥

No. 2240438

>>2240436
Oh God welcome to /tttt/.farm

No. 2240453

>>2240436
wait which thread? never seen a dysphoria thread here, also kek esl typing style

No. 2240481

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>>2240453
On 2X. Come join us young tman!

No. 2240482

>>2240436
Yeah I was wondering how this tranny shit is allowed yet I get 6 hour bans because I forgot to sage on celebricows kek. If they're so male why are they on a female site? Retards

No. 2240488

File: 1730819589778.png (494.05 KB, 800x442, tumblr_33caa6fa2d9060d1ebf32b7…)

>So you're a gross adult for proship-

No. 2240491

>>2240482
because they know theyd get clowned on by males lmao

No. 2240492

>>2240482
You too? Lmao. It's so retarded that they give 6 hour bans for not saging in celebricows when it doesn't say that you need to sage anywhere in the thread or in the site rules and ALSO the thread is on /ot/. Doesn't make sense at all.

No. 2240502

>>2240491
They hate on women but take advantage of female kindness kek

No. 2240506

>>2240502
I hate female misogynists who come on this website and talk about how much they hate women, being a woman etc. Like okay bitch, if you hate women and you're really so male-brained, why are you on a site filled with women? Go to 4chan.

No. 2240507

I am so tired of going to the grocery store three times this week just because I can't meal prep properly.

No. 2240509

File: 1730820125004.png (Spoiler Image,3.53 MB, 1920x1200, 1730820035111.png)

big mood

No. 2240511

I haven't voted. I don't believe any of them, I don't trust that any of them have our best interests in mind. I just feel sick of the bullshit and I don't want to play the game, I don't believe my vote matters. I have massive guilt over this because I know voting is a hard won right for women. I could possibly still drive to get it done, but my car might overheat, and it just feels so pointless. I know it's bad to be such a doomer but it's my honest feeling

No. 2240512

>>2240488
No offense but if you publicly discuss your tastes in pedophilic incest porn you're inviting criticism.

No. 2240515

>>2240512
For two full adults characters?

No. 2240516

>>2240509
Why did you spoiler this image? Kek. I loved this movie as a kid though because I related so hard to Chihiro.

No. 2240519

>>2240515
In that scenario no, you didn't clarify.

No. 2240528

>>2240516
cause you're not supposed to offend anyone ITT, and point is, even after all this time, I still do, and should most channers

No. 2240545

File: 1730821148837.jpeg (828.71 KB, 1170x1493, IMG_6342.jpeg)

She has a nerve! Imagine thinking she is the same level as Princess Diana. This is an insult to her. She lacks the class and everything that made Diana who she was.

No. 2240549

>>2240545
Utter trash, no modesty or elegance.

No. 2240551

>>2240545
I'm not even British and this feels offensive. Look at how Kim is getting that necklace all over her titties like she can't put them away and just be graceful for once.

No. 2240552

>>2240545
That's definitely not the same necklace

No. 2240563

>>2240552
Nta. Wdym she bought it in an auction. How can it not be the same necklace
https://www.businessinsider.com/kim-kardashian-wore-princess-diana-cross-necklace-2024-11

No. 2240575

>>2240519
The scenario is for two full adult characters, just that they meet when one of them was 15, and that the other was "grooming" him, according to that person.

so tl;rd:

No. 2240576

>>2240551
As a bong this is very offensive. Like you said, you don’t even have to be a bong. Just a person with eyes.

No. 2240611

>>2240551
Also bong but I don't care about some necklace going from one rich to another rich

No. 2240619

Im fucking freaking out my Bai drink had some slippery wobbly brown circle things inside of it what the fuck. Is it a poisonous growth I've only had it for a day in my fridge I bought it from the fucking store it expires in 2025 so what the Hell am I looking at right now it kind of resembles a mushroom top but flatter does anyone know what this could be

No. 2240620

>>2240511
Anon, you should do it. We have to at least try. My car broke down too but I made it to the polls. Things are very bad but they could get a lot worse, it’s worth at least doing what you can.

No. 2240624

This is petty but people outside my family whom i have known for less than 2 years care more about me than my family and it makes me depressed. My moms bf got me a whole ass air fryer for my birthday, one of my friends got me plamo and my bff invited me to eat pizza at a nice restaurant and then took me to see a movie. Meanwhile my mom made me pay out for my own gift and my dad got me the cheapest mcd combo. Its not even about the gifts themselves to be honest, but the lack of care. I would have been happy with a single new paint brush, or a cheap sketchbook, something thats more personal…

No. 2240644

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I'm so tired of my friends shitting on me and acting like I'm stupid and replying so harshly whenever I do or say anything. They think it's just "banter" but it gets really annoying always being the butt of the joke. I'm the stupid bitch of the group, I get it, shut the fuck up. I'm about to cut you all out of my life and watch you all grow apart without me there to be the heart of the group. Without me you fuckers would never hang out at all.

No. 2240652

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I'm trying to get back into writing fiction after a decade of no reading or writing outside of school but it's so difficult. I just want to create games and comics but I know it doesn't matter how good something looks, it's always writing that makes or breaks media and mine is awful. Being bad at communicating is ruining every aspect of my fucking life. I wish I had a friend I could ask but there's no one close enough to the point where they could handle hearing or giving honest criticism. I hope in the future I'll have saved enough money to pay someone to write scripts for my stupid passion projects

No. 2240656

>>2240619
It shouldn't be a scoby but it kind of sounds like one

No. 2240660

i dont wanna be nuked

No. 2240664

>>2240644
Get better friends nonnette, they're not worth your anger.

No. 2240665

>>2240545
Money can’t buy class

No. 2240671

>>2235672
I just read the post you tagged and now I’m kinda pissed off? If those were my classmates I’d get revenge on them.
>made that kind of hissing sound that you usually do when you're irritated
Oh damn. She’s hissing.

No. 2240672

>>2240660
I don’t think we’re gonna be nuked nonna, nobody wants that

No. 2240679

I was somehow obsessed with a guy who was basically a male shayna for the last few months kek why am I so stupid

No. 2240680

Can amerifags stop bringing their politic shitshow to unrelated threads? Use your own damn thread jfc

No. 2240691

>>2240545
These celebrities keep buying the belongings of deceased famous yet tragic women (Diana, Marilyn Monroe, etc). It seems insidious, like they're purposely desecrating them or harvesting whatever bad juju it's on the items

No. 2240696

>doordasher brings food to wrong building
>have to wait an additional twenty minutes
>asks for a five star review to my face

No. 2240697

>>2240691
I think they just want to show their status

No. 2240703

>>2240679
How was he like a male Shayna, nonnie? Was he a delusional alcoholic sex worker?

No. 2240743

>>2240703
No, but he was an alcoholic, fat, bloated and a whore. Similar features too. I’m cringing at myself.

No. 2240804

>>2240679
give yourself some grace – at least you didnt fuck him. Consider your thoughts never to have ever happened.

No. 2240808

File: 1730826837721.gif (3.78 MB, 484x640, 1708811576752846.gif)

i need to die

No. 2240845

>>2240804
Yes thank god for that, but I did tell almost everyone I know how much I wanted to fuck him anyway. A retarded lapse of judgement.

No. 2240862

My options for the next 10 years
>Cleaning toilets
>Working at a factory
>Developing a terminal illness
>Killing myself
>Finding someone to kill me
It's all so tiring.

No. 2240910

My best friend of 16 years moved in with her girlfriend a few months ago, and since then it's been practically impossible to get in touch with her. We used to talk a lot either over the phone or at the very least send some quips back and forth over chat (we live 5 hours apart so we don't see each other much) but now she never responds (or even reads my texts) and I'm the only one calling when it used to be both ways, and when she finally answers her phone the conversation is kept fairly short because she doesn't want to "ignore" her girlfriend.
I know she's head over heels for her girlfriend, I've known said girlfriend since before and she is a woman with a good head on her shoulders so I don't think the relationship is possibly unhealthy in any way. I just miss my friend.

No. 2240948

I think I need to go to the hospital. I have bipolar and I've been unwell lately and now I can't stop thinking about killing men.
I know it's bad but so many men genuinely deserve it and I can't stop thinking about hurting men the way they hurt women. I can't get it out of my head the things they do and so many of them deserve to die

No. 2241061

>>2240545
Am I retarded for not understanding what is bad about this? The necklace is ugly as shit and didn't even belong to Diana

No. 2241074

>>2241061
aristocratic hubris good
bourgeois decadence bad

No. 2241083

>>2240545
Diana wouldn't care.

No. 2241270

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I'm annoyed because I'm literally like pic related, I'm ugly but when I see myself in the mirror I think I'm pretty, once I go out and see myself anywhere else or people talk about me, I can see my true self and how ugly I actually am.

No. 2241289

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>mfw the kiwipickme who went against me and protected a loli scrotes honour got perma banned for self posting her own lewds for coomer kiwiscrotes
also this proves my hypothesis on Josh being a fag

No. 2241292

>>2241289
Posting nudes on kiwi is somehow even weirder than posting them on 4chan kek

No. 2241301

>>2241289
Who was it?

No. 2241309

>>2241301
some fag called robots have right or something youd see her being a pickme alot so much so kiwiscrotes thought she was a troon so she posted underwear photos to prove shes not

No. 2241384

I'm so glad the opinions expressed on this site are not widespread

No. 2241388

File: 1730843304708.jpeg (81.77 KB, 275x273, 1644830855283.jpeg)

I'm the anon from a few days ago with the Trump obsessed father/family who was demanding to see my ballot…today I lied to my dad and said that I managed to find my ballot and put it in a ballot drop box (and ofc I claimed that I voted for Trump). I'm not sure if he entirely believed it, but it managed to get him off my case thank fuck…I can't wait for this gay ass election shit to be over also genuinely can't for MAGA shit to die, I'll never understand the cultlike devotion these people for Trump

No. 2241455

Put bumble because I wanted to find a decent moid to sleep with, but why the fuck is everyone so damn ugly. Pissed me off and I removed it immediately.
I scrolled for two whole hours and I didn’t swipe on anyone , why are men so damn ugly.
For the ones who tell me to date younger I literally did, I’m searching for my same age group (21-25).

No. 2241484

Being shy has ruined my life

No. 2241495

>>2241484
You've still got the rest of your life to change it.

No. 2241571

>>2241495
I'm working on it. Putting yourself out there is scary and I'm so behind because everyone else is already established and I'm nobody. I want to be known but I also don't so I'm always at ends with myself.

No. 2241598

There isn’t a single good thing about me. I’m an actual waste of every resource put into me. I cannot find a single reason for anybody to want anything to do with me outside of obligation. I am completely worthless.

No. 2241610

Maybe I really do need to look into getting an OCD diagnosis. I haven’t been getting the thoughts but I literally can’t stop picking at the skin on my fingers, I keep worrying that I freak people out at work with my disgusting thumb

No. 2241614

>>2241571
ntayrt but I’m in the exact same boat, nona. I envy naturally outgoing people.

No. 2241616


No. 2241697

>>2241616
I wish I knew why

No. 2241742

I came across an incel moid space again and feel like complete shit. Like rock bottom shit, I feel like crying

No. 2241751

>>2241742
its ok anon, blackpill thread always cheers me right up

No. 2241797

i'm so so so so so so so anxious for this election. i told my husband i'm not having a child if trump gets elected again, and i'm not fucking kidding. i'm so scared and i can't even vent to my parents because i'm 95% sure they just voted straight republican. and even if trump loses there is going to be all of the crazy fucking maga idiots everywhere and they'll probably hurt people. i'm so fucking TIRED OF THIS SHIT JUST GIVE ME BACK NORMAL POLITICAL DISCOURSE FUCK I HATE EVERYTHING also notice it's never women that are violent

No. 2241812

>>2241742
Yeah that's how I feel seeing any moid shit online. Ugh I'm so tired.

No. 2241813

i swear this bitch is fucken stupid. i made detail comments and "do you know why" BITCH READ WHAT I WROTE

No. 2241847

I don't live in America but it's looking bleak for blue which makes me so sad. Another terrible four years for women. And moids will be dancing on tables

No. 2241876

>>2241813
Shut up.

No. 2241895

My neighbor's been leafblowing their 6x6ft front yard for over a half hour. It's almost 8pm and pitch black outside. These people are fucking freaks. My ex said so as well, pointed out how it was very strange they keep their main door open and all curtains with every light on at nighttime so you can look in their house like they want people to see them. I agree even though my ex was a piece of shit

No. 2241940

i will never trust a man with a "girl best friend" ever fucking again. dumbest mistake of my life.

No. 2241946

I feel like I don't know how myself as a person and I feel more like a ghostly spectator to my existence, I was trying to do some kind of psychological test online and I was drawing a blank on my qualities, my aspirations, my likes… Even my hobbies have turned dry, I was never a creative person in the first place but my boring office job saps me of all desire to do anything, I don't have time to listen to new music anymore, I've stopped playing video games, I barely read a chapter of a book or manga once a month… I still go to art exhibitions once a week but I don't even reflect on it or retain informations, I just look at the art pieces and go back home. All I do is work, doomscroll and sleep.

No. 2241973

i didnt used to hate trannys as much as i do now…. but now that i live with my boyfriends "sister" i can no longer stand the victimization and the mental gymnastics he puts my bf and i through, and now he has been bringing a stranger over to spend everyday and most nights because shes "homeless" ( this girls own choice to move from another state with no job or friends ) Both him and his new "lesbian" both are fat greasy lazy leeches. after 6months my bfs brother gets a job and immediatley 2 months in CANT PAY RENT. and i dont want his girlfriend here. shes a creepy autist, she fuvking mouth breathes on everything and has disgusting teeth. Im living with literal horrorcows. they keep using my laundry machine before i can. I DONT WANT EITHER OF THEM HERE. Im about to break up with my bf bc he doesnt have enough spine to kick her out…

No. 2241991

I hate them all, I can't even deny it anymore. I hate them. You ruined literally fucking everything. You fucking disease, you have the midas touch of literal shit. Everything you interact with. When you experience what I have been through, you will cry, you will weep. And you will see everything crumble because you set the precedent for suffering. It was only so simple, learn: learn. But like everything else you failed. You walking failure, you lonely pathetic bug. I will pour vinegar down the ant hill you pride yourself on invading.

No. 2242002

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>>2241991
>I will pour vinegar down the ant hill you pride yourself on invading.

No. 2242231

>>2241991
Free jodi

No. 2242473

>>2241940
checked the man in question's social media after posting this and had one of the worst panic attacks in my life. it's so fucking over for me. i just want to get over this stupid fuck but i'm hurt so deeply

No. 2242565

>>2242473
I feel like men use the I am friends with women as an emotional warfare to get women to drop their guard. Maybe he’s sensitive and will actually listen, jk it’s just easier to emotionally manipulate the situation

No. 2242734

I stopped eating oatmeal for a week because I ran out in my pantry and now I'm shitting pebbles… Great.

No. 2242907

>>2241940
this is true nona. these guys are usually sluts

No. 2242927

>>2242473
Sometimes I thought I would never get over my ex of 8 years but I did and you can too. Time is healing nonna.

No. 2243170

File: 1730871368194.jpg (17.91 KB, 262x275, 1000009714.jpg)

Sometimes I wish I was single only for the sake of taking a break from another person's emotions. My partner gets so annoyed and angry at small things and it takes a toll on me sometimes. I've been growing a lot mentally and I'm in a great place finally. I don't feel suicidal all the time and I feel quite normal most days. Maybe its because I feel sometimes their emotions ruin my own healing journey and it makes me feel like I'm heading back to square one. It's only sometimes though. I have always felt at peace when single, and rarely do I seek out someone else. They always just seem to come to me when I'm most comfortable with myself

No. 2243177

>>2243170
"They"?

No. 2243206

>>2243177
Omfg it's never been taboo to use they on imageboards until you faggots started sperging out and associating it with gendie shite

No. 2243261

I met a girl I thought was cool in one of my classes and wanted to be friends but just found out she’s an orc. Sigh

No. 2243331

>>2243261
An orc

No. 2243334

>>2243206
>associating it with gendie shite
You must be real new to think that shite started here.although I agree it does seem some nonas have sadly forgotten that "they" can be used normally too but I don't blame them for assuming

No. 2243339

>>2239406
The hot chocolate, granola and chex mix are what screwed you over. Granola is carbs and sugar, hot chocolate is fat and sugar.

It's fine if you eat smaller meals tomorrow though.

No. 2243379

>>2243206
it's okay to admit that your significant other is male or female, you don't need to they-post

No. 2243429

>>2243261
Racist

No. 2243465

I don't vote because registering to vote makes your address public and I don't want my rapist to know my address. it's making me super nervous and annoyed how much people are talking about how whether or not you voted is public record now. I'm in one of the bluest states in the US but of course I care and would have preferred to vote. I really hope this isn't something people pay attention to going forward in future elections. sigh.

No. 2243477

>>2243261
Russian??

No. 2243652

>>2243379
But it isn't about that. It's about talking impersonally, something you should be able to respect without chimping out

No. 2243656

>>2243334
I'm not new at all holy fuck reading comprehension is nil

No. 2243717

>>2243379
I can use they it's normal to use in the English language. There isn't any gender bs going on it's just how I felt to write it in that moment. People are retarded I'm tired of all that shit.I want to rewrite my original post and say that I'm tired if everyone sperging about this shit because I just want to be at peace dear lord

No. 2243738

Im in my mid 20s and I already feel like I'm hitting the wall… Fuck.

No. 2243817

Every area of technology has improved since the 90s but printers. Printers are still the same level of dog shit that they always have been.

No. 2243839

>>2243817
Old printers were way better than new ones that require a subscription and Shittier cartridges

No. 2243883

>>2243839
Scanner in the 90s
>you knocked the table slightly when you stood up, I'm disconnecting and crashing the entire computer
Scanner now
>here's yaoi doujin scanned in 4800dpi and 16-bit colour

Printer in 90s
>the paper wasn't inserted perfectly so I'm jamming and I'm out of ink
Printer now
>the paper was inserted perfectly so I'm jamming and your ink subscription expired

No. 2243931

god why did i fall for a moid at work. he grew an ugly beard and went bald. then he started flirting with another coworker 10 years younger than him, and she laughs really hard (like "HAHAHAHAHA "uncomfortably hard) at every thing he says and does those super obvious "winky winky" faces at him, all that at while they are at the workplace in front of everyone. it's cringe yet i feel like shit and heartbroken, going to therapy for this

No. 2244272

For ten years I knew this moid who abused me big time. He pulled the classic bippie move of luring me with a sweet face, assuring himself that I was in love, then the abused started and I was horrified, he tried to pass it off as ~stress~ (for what lol he was jobless and his parents provided for him, he also used to suicide bait them very often), I've endured it for a couple of years before leaving. I feel scarred. He cheated and lied the whole relationship but yeah this isn't bad news, bippie does bippie shit but I'm starting to forget him, like he is a very distant memory, someone who died, and this is cool mind you, glad I'm not hurting anymore but then my brain blends everything and it goes full circle when he was "good", making new scenarios like a what if…
When it will stop. This hurts indeed. I do not think about him during the day because I have shit to do, new friends, I swear I'm okay and the I go to sleep and I wake up angry and frustrated…why…

No. 2244301

>Wake up
>Drink non-caffeinated tea
>Worst gas of my life
Literally what could be making me gassy its just leaf water I hate IBS I can't even fucking drink water without randomly being gassy what is wrong

No. 2244354

File: 1730888643437.jpeg (57.77 KB, 640x360, IMG_7436.jpeg)

Really fucking depressed and I don’t really have anyone to vent to. Retards really just elected two extremely antisocial scrotes into office to the delight of the worst people imaginable. I know it’s Trump stans but how was this such a swoop? Relatively normal president and VP or orange man and “rape is an inconvenience” meatball. Plus the government is completely red now. Love this country. I’m still stiff with rage and fear. This may be dramatic, but I don’t feel safe going outside tomorrow. I just need to sleep.

No. 2244373

>>2244354
Something similar happened in my country in eastern Europe, but less extreme. The fear and anger is understandable, especially because the only ones who had something to lose were women (afaik), but men showed their hatered again.
I still hope you'll have a good day nonna

No. 2244406

This year thanks to therapy I feel like I did grow up a lot, but I still can't shake the feeling that I need to die. I don't like telling this to people, I don't have social media or personal DMs where I can discuss this. Only people that know this are very very close and I don't intend anyone else to know. But even then I wish they didn't have to suffer from all of this. In a sense I feel like death is claiming me back, and I know happiness is possible in the future. I'm done fighting though. I want to be put to sleep peacefully. I'm sorry that my brain is so used to resorting to suicidal thoughts because that's what I've known all my life. I know it's not fair for my loved ones. I don't know what else to do.

No. 2244436

>>2244373
Too true; I’m also sorry about your situation in Europe, but I hope it gets better for you. And thank you, your words mean a lot to me and it makes me feel less trapped in some bubble. I hope you have a good day too! Love u nonnie

No. 2244448

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My dad is getting addicted to fuckass right wing youtubers and it's ruining my mood every day because he won't at least watch them in silence, no, everyone in the house has to hear their bullshit. He then just parrots everything they say and is upset all the time. Feels like I'm losing him to brainwashing.

No. 2244453

>>2244448
You are and you need to cut your losses. My dad fell into the QAnon shit, sucks but there is nothing you can do. Old people are retarded and a weird area concerning secularism and the replacement of religion.

No. 2244513

>>2244448
Been there, done that. I know how you feel. My mom genuinely believes in lizard people and is obsessed about "the Jews".
Try not to engage with his politisperging. When COVID was in full swing, my mom's derangement got so fucking bad it made me clinically depressed because I was being brainwashed too, since I had to listen to her ramblings 24/7. I believed the world was going to end tomorrow (or at least didn't completely exclude the possibility of it).
Just don't engage, talk to plenty of other people (even if they're online, but better if you can leave the house and ergo him), have a hobby that brings you joy and make plans for the future. Although talking to other people who have differing political perspectives from each other will make you feel the best.
Your strat right now should be to ignore him and brush off anything he says as if a 5 year old said it. If you can and want to, talk to your dad about anything other than politics – engage with the other sides of his personality. Greyrock him if he ever brings it up, change the subject at every opportunity (like "Mhm. Cool. What do you feel like having for dinner tonight?").
No political debate will change his mind now, the only way he'll go back to normal is if he stops consuming Internet content and social media.
Hope you feel better, anon.

No. 2244534

>>2244448
Mine was the same and I literally just yelled at him until he stopped. Sounds impossible but he actually did.

No. 2244550

>>2244534
nta but damn what did you say

No. 2244559

>>2244550
Called it retarded, told him he’s being brainwashed, wasting his time, making himself angry for no reason, getting baited, called whoever he was watching faggots etc etc. But I did catch it early.

No. 2244560

>>2244448
Same here. My dad watches this shit all day and then stomps around the house angry and trying to infect everyone with his bad mood. He also thinks the moon landing was staged and believes in other conspirashit theories. He was always kind of detached and distant but at least he had a good job that kept him occupied and off the internet. Men shouldn't be allowed to use the internet they always end up getting into right-wing, redpill shit, or get addicted to porn.

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No. 2244571

I haven't talked to my mom yet today but I'm already annoyed at her. She is a GIANT doomer that practically believes she is the only one in the world that has any survival skills/preparations, so she is of course going to have a lot to say about how Trump becoming president is gonna doom us all.
We live in fucking Scandinavia.
And while I am indeed concerned about how it's gonna affect the Ukraine war, since Kiev is only a road trip away from my doorstep, there isn't shit I can do about it and I don't care to listen to her about it. It wouldn't be as bad if she wasn't practically talking down to me when she does just because I usually try to shut her down when she starts.
I've already talked to her a lot about how she is causing her own misery by spending so much time doomscrolling and only talking about how awful the world is, but she never listens because she defends it with a "but prepping is so fun!!!" as if it's the same thing

No. 2244700

I broke up with my boyfriend and blocked him on everything. I stalk him anonymously for the fun of it, and I found out that he writes sad whiny messages on his social media account. It's not linked to his real identity in any way, so he might as well be shouting into the void. But it's so pathetic that instead of trying to fix things with me, he dwells in sadness and misery. I really did make the right decision. We've always made fun of whiny weak men together but he really is just the same as all the rest.

No. 2244736

>>2244571
She sounds unbearable to be around, sucks that you have to deal with her. I know people like your mother and honestly I feel there's literally nothing you can say to them. It's almost like they enjoy being pessimistic, which I can't understand. You sound like a rational person nonna.

No. 2244747

After almost 6 months of unemployment I finally got a job. The pay is pretty good, but now I feel like an idiot for taking it. The hours are gonna be absolute bullshit and it's going to affect my personal life, there's a chance of violence against workers and my plans of moving to a different apartment are put on hold because of it. What's a least amount of time I can stay in that job without setting off alarm bells when I try to find a new job?

No. 2244775

>>2244700
kek nona did we date the same moid? mine also did this shit. I used to stalk him too and he also made a different identity on social media. this kind of moids have always been faggots. good for you for breaking up with him

No. 2244782

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I'm stuck on the last parts of my assignments and need help, but the teacher hasn't answered any of my emails for two days now and it has to be finished by friday morning AAAAAAAAHHH

No. 2244792

I am sorry, but I am too worried and anxious about climate change. I know it's getting worse, in some aspects I've seen it, I know it. We are seeing the very start of the increasing activity period, it all gets worse from here on out.
Billions dead, maybe you and me, then more billions, and then finally all of us.

10 years, maybe more, me being greedy. 10 years of certain safety, enjoying life if possible but then, whatever thing waits at the time of crisis like no other. I thought of killing myself today, sorry, I keep having these thoughts more and more. I really haven't lived a lot, I doubt it matters now, it will matter less in the future. I don't know what to do.

No. 2244802

My anxiety is through the roof this week. I don’t even know why. I’ve completely self retreated and I want to die. I have nothing going for me.

No. 2244806

>>2244775
The funny thing is that he literally has no followers or engagement from others, his account looks like some random throwaway account. He's not doing it for attention from random people but is putting up messages for me just to read and make me feel bad for him and unblock him. Pathetic sad boi behavior. At least it's good entertainment though. Sorry your moid was just as useless, he sounds like a huge fag.

No. 2244809

>>2244792
I remember when I wrote 4 full paragraphs venting about climate change here on LC, I was genuinely distraught and losing it, it was consuming my life and the existential dread was insane. Turns out I was going through a psychotic streak caused by undiagnosed bipolar. Before letting yourself be consumed by these thoughts, first check if you're going through some actual mental shit, you never know

No. 2244864

>>2244406
Please speak to your friends and family anon

No. 2244865

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>>2244736
She's always been a prepper, but she didn't used to be this bad until covid. I think all the dooming and paranoia from that time really got to her, even though I've been trying to talk to her about how media uses words and expressions made to get you riled up so they get more clicks/views.
When I talked about my friend who got pregnant she went into a several minutes long rant about how could anyone sane possibly want to have children in this world etc. etc. (we have all heard this one in one way or another before). It's like she can't even be happy for others anymore.
My siblings and I usually shut her down when she starts nowadays but I don't think she really understands why we do it and just thinks we are being obtuse and naive. At least she is intelligent enough to not fall for conspiracy shit.

No. 2244898

>be in bongland
>Ignore all annoying US election stuff because there's no point in getting caught up in stuff that hasn't happened yet and surely Trump can't win again
>Trump wins
I'm not even a US anon but my grief is palpable. We're going to have to read news articles about that orange racist rapist for another 4 years as he drops poison all over the rest of the Western world. I can't imagine how you Americans are coping today because holy fuck I want to crawl into a hole

No. 2244954

guess lolcow will be unusable for the next several months while people overly invested in purity politics sperg out
i'll just suicidebait on main instead of anonymously now…lame

No. 2244968

I am in such a poor state right now that not even my husbando can help me. He disgusts me and nothing is good anymore.

No. 2245012

>>2244806
oh wow he was so specific then lol. Yeah my ex-moid's socials have followers and he's an attentionwhore and changes girlfriends like he changes clothes so pretty sure he was doing it to gain sympathy from others

No. 2245087

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I hate troonism as much as the next farmer and I hate how politics now are troon centric (which is ideology like religion) and not sexuality centric (biology), my spaces are not welcome to troons and I don't interact with them at all but I cannot help but feel immense grief and sadness for tifs. Tims obviously can fuck off in their porn centric views but I feel that in some years we will see a mass suicide/depression rates will skyrocket due to buying troon logic. My heart aches for these lesbians being forced to taste cocks by their troon bfs who threaten or gaslight them and yeah, sure, I know the fuck well it's their logic and women are not brainless individuals but it's also easy to get manipulated into this shit and with my little empathy, I feel for these girls who will wake up and realize all the horrors they went through. I feel like I won't see many tifs getting older and it pains me or if they do, they will bear those horrible scars and balding patterns, they will have that voice for life and people will knew the choices they made and they will get shamed. This is not like having an anachan or emo phase where you gain your weight back or grow out your hair, hell, you can even remove tattoos by this day and age but you cannot go back once you swall the troon pill. Sure, they can pass as chestless women but those who get genital surgery and balding patterns will suffer a lot and yeah sure, I can be a jerk now and laugh at tifs all I want but in the end I feel very sad. I don't want other women to die or suffer because the world is not made for us and it's just for men and their fetishes, I also feel that this would case a severe segregation movement and yes, it's a good thing, but it's disgusting how we will have to come to that.

No. 2245099

I haven't drawn in months. I'm so depressed. I have a bunch of deficiencies according to blood test lab results and I don't know what to do about it. My appointment to discuss said lab results is literally months out. My fucking bones hurt.

No. 2245112

>>2244968
Wow anon, what happened? Getting disgusted by your own husbando sounds rough.

No. 2245182

driving instructors piss me off. i've messaged and called so many of them and they either pick up the phone and put it back down without talking, tell me they'll be in touch and never do, tell me their times are "subject to change" (aka cancelling at the last minute) or have the most extortionate prices. like why are you being an asshole to me when i'm trying to give you business?? i hate this shit i wanna strangle myself

No. 2245439

Sorry to election post here, but I'm just so worried about my family. I live alone and support myself, but some of my relatives live in my grandmother's home and are relying on her income. Plus most of the food budget is from food stamps. I don't know what Trumps election could mean for them and I'm just so worried. I haven't spoken to my grandmother yet but I know she must be too. Plus she's no longer a full time employee. My main goal in life for the past few years has just been to get rich so my grandma doesn't have to worry about bills or anything anymore. I don't even know how I'll ever do that. I just wish I could do more. I'll try to spot her some money as much as I can. I'm just trying to stay sane by remembering that it may not be so bad, but if we're in Trumps economy right now and it's this hard, it seems like it'll only get worse.

No. 2245504

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My brother voted for Trump, and no matter what I told him, no matter what I tried to argue about his policies, he didn't give a single fuck because "no one is voting for a woman." This retard is so fucking convinced that he cares about """""the black man""""" when the bastard and his supporters despised us since day one. Months ago they were literally calling us cat eaters. Black moids are such a fucking joke.

No. 2245509

I was coming here to complain about family members lost to conspiracy, glad I’m not alone. My dad sunk deep into the craziest conspiracy theories, stupid Q shit and “patterns” and “secret messages”, and forced my entire family to watch some random fuckass conspiracy theory movies as “bonding” multiple times. He’s always angry, miserable, and takes it out on the “weak” people in his life. Even when I try to avoid talking politics with him, he still finds a way to bring it up in every conversation no matter how unrelated. We were talking about fucking sport teams and he still managed to find a way to describe it as “a big distraction from the politicians trying to steal our freedoms” or whatever. We also got into a huge fight about abortion rights, and he started blaming women and children who are raped for being promiscuous or whatever and I just lost all respect for him. I don’t know who he is anymore, and it’s scary because my mother, who has always been very supportive of him in a very submissive way, has even secretly confided in me that she’s concerned about him and the scary things he says. Outside of her marriage, she has a high temper and usually is pretty brazen, but my father overpowers her in size and stature and the way she was raised, she puts the husband first. Now that I’ve moved out for university and I’m not around to keep an eye on the crap he spouts, he’s been feeding her different strange lies and conspiracies. Shit like policing what she eats, watches, her health routines, etc. I wish I could cut my losses but I don’t want to let him take my mom down with him. She’s worried about his mental health when I all I wanna tell her is to leave him while she can. I hate it because every once in a while I can pretend he is kind, like I can still see the parts of my dad that were okay, but now he’s so steeped in hate, conspiracy, and paranoia, that I can’t stand to be around him anymore. I’ve gotten very good at being the polite and kind daughter and repressing the parts of me that want to fight and scream every time he opens his mouth, just so my mom doesn’t have to deal with the the aftermath. I know he’s looking for a fight, wants to rile me up, try to brainwash me too. Then again, he’s always see-sawed between being a nice dad and an abusive dickhead who used to push me around as a child, but now just verbally torments me instead. I don’t know. I used to want to believe I could help him, save him, but I’m tired. And I know I can’t. I just wanna be there for my mom and try and help her get away from him. This got long but I have nobody else to confide this in. I’m tired.

No. 2245548

>>2245504
>caring about "the black man"
>voting for a racist pig
Someone needs to explain this shit to me. And why did some many Latinos vote for Trump too? The guy who wants to kick them out of the US?

No. 2245559

>>2244448
literally cut him out of your life and tell him you hate him for the person he's become. you can't negotiate with insane people so don't try to compromise with him.

No. 2245599

>>2245504
Trumpism is such a strange phenomenon. His speech is disjointed and empty; he lies and makes up shit on the spot that are provably not true even on just a common sense level; his history is filthy with the epstein connection, bankrupcies, etc; and most of all, he clearly hates his voters. But all he has to do is sprinkle some platitudes incoherently and people will completely forget what he just said and replace it with the part of it that they like. No other candidate is able to do all of that. He has an almost hipnotic quality that brainwashes people on sight. He even has smart, highly educated people under his spell, even if it's a small pctg. I never thought I'd see something like this in the US.

There really is something weird and ominous going on with the world.

No. 2245627

I'm not a burger but my Internet friends are. I met them years ago and we were super close and talked everyday. They were some of the best friends I ever had. I barely talk to them now, maybe a few times a year to catch up. I reinstalled Instagram to see how they were doing and wow. They're all super liberal tras who overuse tiktok slang and won't shut the fuck up about trannies and Palestine now. I'm disappointed. I miss the old days kek

No. 2245660

>>2245599
Say what you want about him (I agree on all your points nonna) but he knows how to be popular, he’s a textbook populist kek.
It might sounds senseless and retarded too, but the man knows his voters, he knows what he has to say. He was indicted, almost sent to prison, he says outrageous shit (grab her by the pussy, they’re eating dogs and cats etc..) but look at him.

No. 2245663

>>2245548
They think they’re one of the “good ones”

No. 2245728

>>2245599
I've always proposed the theory that a lot of people like to listen to how he's saying things rather than why he's saying it. America thrives on loud and obnoxious humor, and that's trumps bread and butter. Look at all the unapologetically vulgarist people we made famous over decades, especially in the nineties and beyond, including Trump himself and tell me America doesn't thrive on stupidity. Trump is essentially an actor, and he's doing a great job portraying the part of someone who screams at the camera but really says nothing of value. He's basically a professional clown.

No. 2245906

Gonna sound like a joke but I think my friend is being sexist towards her cats.

No. 2246022

>>2244898
Shit hasn’t even begun yet, but yeah it’s disorienting over here. Feels like a very bad punchline

No. 2246034

>>2244809
But come on, its real, no doctor can help me. anxiety over death and extinction

No. 2246086

>>2245663
unironically this, my brother served in the military as a marine and he really thinks hes some sort of enlighten one because he served and supports trump while his white buddies pat him on the back. Ngl this entire situation is enough to make me cut him off completely.

No. 2246198

im really annoyed right now. some people who knew me when i was a child saw me walking down the street and followed me several blocks to the grocery store, and then when i told my mom about it she just brushed it off like it was nothing?

No. 2246202

>>2245906
I believe you nonna, sexism is everywhere even in the most retarded and mundane places.

No. 2246396

I was at walmart and the pharmacy staff (all young zoomers) came back 10 minutes late from lunch visibly high. I have to go back to pick up my meds hope they give me the right shit

No. 2246455

How do I know that I was in an abusive relationship? It seems iffy to me and I feel angry about everything that happened but there was no hitting or physical violence but he was constantly criticizing me, minimizing my accomplishments, justifying disrespectful actions claiming that it's just a joke and twisting stuff around. There wasn't any sexual violence but I guess boundary violations like discussing sexual topics prematurely and trying to coerce me into sex. He also blamed me for his own disrespectful behavior.

No. 2246485

>>2246455
>constantly criticizing me
>minimizing my accomplishments
>justifying disrespectful actions claiming that it's just a joke and twisting stuff around
>coerce me into sex

Idk anon, it's hard to tell.

No. 2246642

i won a scholarship for a master's degree but i have no money to pay for the rest lol i love poverty ♥ all i can do is cry

No. 2246688

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I turn 30 in a few months. It's embarrassing, but I had to move back in with my parents because of a really awful situating where I lost my job, my rental, and used up my savings and my husband's savings. My husband was able to get his old job back when we moved back to our hometown. ButI've been struggling to find a job. I've applied to a ton of jobs and I've had a few interviews. I actually got hired at a shitty canvassing place. I was let go basically no reason on the second day of training. Basically the facilitator told me it was because I was drawing, but I know it's because I corrected him and bi was the only woman in the training class. But anyway, I haven't had much luck since.

My mom was saying, "you need to apply for Walmart" and see told me that Target was hiring for seasonal cashiers. I just told her that they don't pay enough and I'm not really looking to work in retail. she started lecturing me and saying, " you need to stop being picky. You need to take whatever you can get, ". Note, she's not paying for my food and since I'm vegan and my dad listens to retards on instagram that think vegetables are poison and him and my mom only eat meat and dairy (and a bunch of mushroom, timeric, and herbal supplements).I do make a bit of money by selling jewelry and I even make jewelry for NY mom to sell (she's a rock hounder)hounded. I was just making tea and trying to talk to her, but she always tries to devolve it into an argument. I told her that I'm trying to get into freelance writing. I have a BA in linguistics and want to translate for now. But she always tells me to apply for bullshit minimum wage jobs that don't even hire full time. And whenever I try to nicely tell her that I'm 29 and I'm not interested in working a shitty job that I hate and don't make a living wage at. When I did work a shitty retail job, my mom would ask why I worked somewhere that I hated.

It also pisses me off that I struggled with alcoholism and drug addiction and my parents get b wasted every night. My mom almost killed herself in a car accident because she drove blackout drunk. Her and my dad were charged with DUIs in the last two years. I've been clean for a few years, so I can handle cravings and deal with temptation. It's just beyond fucking annoying watching them stumble all over the house and get absolutely shitfaced every evening. It's hypocritical too, Brevard both her and my dad bitched when my grandpa would come over and drink in front of them while they were on probation and couldn't drink. Of course I want my mom to be okadvdy

No. 2246718

>>2245627
Same here. They used to be normal but tons of them either trooned out or just became TRAs/libtards over time and it messed up any feelings of connection I had with them. It's like having a genuine person as a friend and seeing them transform into an npc that just repeats and copies whatever other people are saying online now and lose any of their individuality.

Somewhat unrelated to your post and just using this as a place for my own personal vent now, but I rarely feel truly connected to almost anyone nowadays too on the internet compared to before. I used to admire others and respect my online friends and find genuine connections but now this feels so difficult when most people don't share my (pretty basic, or so I thought) values and don't feel worthy of admiration as individuals. And the part that hurts is that I do want to admire and feel that, I really do, but I just can't, especially when so many of them ruin any good qualities they had and go down those paths like the TRA friends and become insufferable. Either that, or by having some other major flaws I grow to resent over time no matter how many times I try to overlook them. The internet used to be a nice place away from irl for me and where I felt like I could easily find more like minded people from all over the world including a lot of burgerfags, but now I find myself escaping into irl instead due to how many of them became retarded. But irl isn't the place for me either for other reasons and that was why I was escaping to the internet in the first place.

And so I find myself wishing there was some other 3rd space for me that doesn't really exist instead of constantly bouncing between these two different types of alienation.

No. 2246736

nonnas how do you make friends with other ladies online im tired of moids who eventually fall for me, some hag on the internet. i honestly wish i could find female internet friends that are not whores looking for male attention or women that hate men to a very miserable degree. don't get me wrong i think moids are the scum of the earth but its not at the forefront of my mind and i have enough negativety in my life. it's a weird spectrum. i want women in my age range that fangirl over bl and stupid shit but maybe that's wishful thinking and my irls are like. really normal people so they don't indulge in that, still i love them

No. 2246764

>>2246455
you were in an abusive relationship. I'm sorry you experienced that. the reason you aren't sure and are questioning if it was valid is because of the gaslighthing and psychological abuse you experienced.

No. 2246776

>>2245504
it is so fucking depressing realizing that so many people hate women so much. It hit me really hard today. Will women ever have respect anywhere in the world? I'm so sad.

No. 2246814

>night time
>have to take a train home
>two roadmen get into the same train
>stare at me for a while before fucking off to sit elsewhere
>finally my stop
>the fucking moids get out at the same stop
>walk through a tunnel out of the station
>the moids follow me and whistle
>the walk home will take 45mins through dark streets with no one around because it's night time
>take a cab home
>pay 17 euros to not get robbed and raped

I fucking hate this shit.

No. 2246833

>>2246688
Just apply for the shitty jobs, you don't need to actually get a job at Walmart, you need to get your parents off your ass. It's their house, it's their rules, I'm afraid. Your parents love you, they sound retarded but they're showing they care for you by badgering you to have a traditional boomer job that they can understand.
And you really do need to bring in more money. Having a stable if shitty job over the holidays will guarantee some income, and if your freelance writing takes longer than you thought to take off, it's going to help to tide you over.
Plus, they're alcoholics, and you really don't need that environment. You need to move out for your own mental health. The faster you can save up, the faster you can leave.

No. 2246879

>>2246814
This has happened to me even when taking the train in the day time. I'm really sorry you went through that. What's the point in a good public transport system when this shit happens. Makes me feel forced to take my car so I don't have to deal with them anyway.

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Every time I take sick leave or I'm on vacation, I see how much older my toxic, tiring job makes me… I was sad because I thought I aged a lot in like 5 months, but then I had 2 weeks of sick leave and now I look in the mirror and I literally look younger, like when I just graduated college. Like how is that fucking possible? My eyes are not sunken and without huge dark circles, my face is not swollen, my skin looks tighter, brighter, pinkish and younger overall, I don't look like I literally want to kill myself. I didn't know it was possible for a stress from work to age you so badly and for it to be reversed in two weeks. But this shit happens literally every time. Now I'm sad becsuse when I go back to work I will start stressing again, suffering from daily diarrheas and insomnia. If only I was brave enough to change job. But I don't feel good for anything else.. God I literally look so nice and relaxed now. In 5 days I will go back to looking like shit again. This job is literally killing my body and my soul too

No. 2246899

>>2246890
this will be unpopular but i think some women simply aren't made for normal work. i get sick once a month when i work a normal job but when i am NEET or doing art at home i am super healthy. why the fuck are we built like this? how do i find a job at home shop I'm not aging like shit and getting sick?

No. 2246941

>>2246814
I just came home via taxi from a friend's because it felt too late to use the bus, but I hadn't thought of it that way
God fucking dammit, pink tax at it again

No. 2246942

>>2246899
>i get sick once a month when i work a normal job but when i am NEET or doing art at home i am super healthy
Kek I'm the exact same, I didn't even mention it. But yeah, I catch a cold literally every month (I think the only months I wasn't sick this year were march and april), and most of the time I go sick to work which makes me feel ever worse and makes the recovery longer
I think working for 8 hours (especially among many people, or physically) puts too much stress on our bodies, much more when compared to "normal" people. I know that being on the spectrum and/or having adhd may be one of the reasons. Since my diagnosis everything in my life started to make more sense. Are you an autist by any chance? Or did you ever talked with a psychologist about it, being sick and so tired from working? Getting a diagnosis might help you (it hasn't helped me yet kek because I don't do anything in order to work part time or something, because I'm still too ashamed to admit to other people I'm an autist, but every case is different, and I know that it may help others). I literally can't understand people who are on their feet for 8 hours and then still have the energy to do other things, like chores or even just talking to other people, just being a person. The only thing I can do after coming home, is to throw myself on my bed in my clothes and sleep for a few hours, then wake up in the middle of the night, eat something or walk around my room for a while making up fake scenarios in my head, then go back to sleep, wake up in the morning half-alive and go to work, and repeat. I sleep through the weekends usually. I literally don't have a life when I'm working.

No. 2246952

>>2246942
i have never been formally diagnosed with autism but my autistic friends laugh at me because i score higher on those "autism" tests online. i have been diagnosed with ADHD but i really do think there's more. I've thought about getting properly diagnosed, just not sure what i would do with the information.
i really do feel like i don't belong in a normal workplace. I'm exhausted all the time and feel like the life is sucked out of me every time i work a longer shift. i work hard and try my best, i just feel the life leave my body every normal length 8+ hour shift

No. 2246981

when does missing someone you lost stop hurting so much? i wish i was religious so i could feel ~close to his spirt~ or believe in heaven or something, instead i just sit here feeling his absence.

No. 2247001

>>2244448 i feel you nonny, my parents blast right wing talk radio 24/7 and get mad if i turn it down, which has resulted in me only visiting if there is a funeral. it's so bizarre to see your loved ones fall down into weird conspiracy/right wing spirals
>>2244747 i would just leave it off your resume and if the next place asks about your employment gap, say 'family issues'. that can be 10000 different things, and they won't pry further.
>>2244802 i feel you. we'll get through this
>>2245439 i'm sorry anon, this shit is so fucked. know that she can always go to food banks. i'm also fucking terrified for the ramifications of this election. i woke up and sobbed, and at my doctors appt today she said she did too. i hate this timeline so fucking much. my husband is military and i'm so fucking scared of what orders trump will give the DoD. i want to just crawl into a hole with my cat and never come out
>>2246688 don't feel ashamed for having to rely on your family during a down period, that's what family is for. they will rely on you in the future. also, linguistics is fucking HARD, you are smart and will find a good job. don't feel bad about not applying for jobs that are nowhere near your skill level. i've been unemployed for a bit and my mom says the same shit. i'm not getting stuck in a retail job when i have a degree and speak arabic lmao. have you looked at government job openings? i feel like that would be an easy way to get a job that utilizes your degree (although now that trump won there will probably be no gov jobs unless you pay him lol)

No. 2247009

my fucking god my entire middle hurts so bad

No. 2247020

>>2247009
Do you have a blocked nose? It could be pressure on your ear drum caused by fluid in the middle ear.

No. 2247059

I'm jobless, alone and drunk. I texted my ex -2 to ask if he wanted to catch up. He replied and know and I'm getting all dressed up like some lonely loveless waste of life. We're doing bites and some drinks maybe after (I don't need them after what Ive had krek. Will update. I don't expect a happy ending but I want that experience of someone wanting me. I just want someone to want me, Im so a defonition of sadness

No. 2247073

This quarter of this course I'm in has been very heavy on groupwork and I am so stressed about it. The three other members in my group are barely in class and they aren't giant computerfags like me so they're never online and not on Microsoft Teams to return my damn messages and I don't have their numbers yet they have each others it's pissing me off. Two of them work during class hours but one of the two are never on campus which makes it harder as again she doesn't reach out to me- and the third has four kids and uses that as her excuse, I'd be more understanding but she doesn't even look at the online work in our online files I've asked of her to do that for 3 weeks!!! I have to rely on others to pass this entry level class and it's pissing me off! I want to move on with my studies.

No. 2247097

I hate wroking with old people for tech. If you can't remember your password why is it my fault? How is it the device's fault? Maybe you should check with your doctor for dementia coz why are you still here if you can't remember shit properly? Genuinely retarded

No. 2247134

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im fucking retarded and became obsessed with my male online friend because he would talk to me everyday and flirt with me and stuff. i spent a long time thinking he would confess feelings to me and maybe we could find a way to hang out irl (we actually dont live that far away) but months went by and he never did so i did it first and he said he liked me too but nothing about our relationship changed. i remember early on he mentioned in passing that he has bad anxiety about committing to things and i shouldve taken that as a big red flag lol. in the past few months we kept getting into arguments because i got pissed he would be flirting with me this long and then not want to commit to being a couple or ever meeting up irl. and he kept crying about how the distance is so bad (its not, we live a couple hours apart, in the same country) and calling me weird for "rushing it" (we've been talking over a year…) about 6 days ago i told him to just leave me alone if he's not interested in being together and to stop fucking with my feelings. im seriously never putting that much effort into a man again. if a guy wants me he can put in the effort because im not letting a parasite like that leech off my goodwill for so long again. seriously so disappointed by this whole experience because i feel like he wouldve been a great boyfriend if he wasnt such a pussy bitch?? we had a ton of shared interests and our sense of humor was really similar too. so fucking dumb to have all this stress over a guy i didnt even know irl, feel free to make fun of me.

No. 2247186

I don't know if I'm overreacting but I can't stand when my roommate invites her coworkers or nigel over. They're nice but she always gets wasted on wine and they stay up until like 12-1am while I have work or classes early in the morning. I was just expecting this to be like some retired lady renting out to students to have a little extra money but when she's drunk or high she also gets super nosy, like forcing me to show my artwork to her friends, it's really awkward. The guy is here today and he showed up while I was taking a shower so now I'm locked up in my room to keep his dog from coming in here. And of course I'm American so she's been talking nonstop about the election drama



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