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No. 2222309
Seethe and cope, do not start infights. This is for venting, not your personal infight playground.
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>>2215016 No. 2222326
>>2222316I don’t want dirty smegma in my vagina and sperm fucking with my pH, I don’t want a dick in my vagina period.
>>2222317Stop talking about yourself like that
No. 2222331
>>2222330I don't think about my parents having sex. Do you,
nonny?
No. 2222347
>>2222342Wow that's very lesbian of you miss
triggered fakebian
No. 2222349
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>>2222345Kek I was just thinking of this image
No. 2222350
>>2222348I could hear the weight of your fat corn dog shaped fingers slapping on your greasy keys when you wrote this. It makes me feel better that the replies encouraging my vent made you mad so bad you had to be a histrionic cunt about it. Thank you
nonnie.
No. 2222358
>>2222353Wow that's very lesbian of you miss
triggered fakebian
No. 2222363
>>2222361You first,
nonnie.
No. 2222385
>>2222378So.. You're fabricating that I was raped, and I'm the schizo? Aw, that was a cute attempt,
nonny.
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I wish Elon would stop wasting time sucking Trump's cock or retard posting every minute on twitter, and instead pour more money into his tesla bots. I want to be a few years closer to having a Connor-like android sex bot. AI is already painting murals and shit. Why is it taking so long?
No. 2222397
>>2222391But I have a boyfriend
that actually has sex with me, so how does that make any sense?
No. 2222406
>>2222389Alexa, is it fake when a man touches a woman?
>>2222393I'm losing track of whose who but didn't you just say you don't care when women get raped?
>>2222342 No. 2222412
>>2222406It's probably the weird schizo infighter that was baiting about strap-ons and how GNC women are nasty. Ignore that "
nonnie".
No. 2222416
>>2222384"men like it so it's bad" logic basically
>>2222382>>2222409i reported so many posts since the last thread and they still didn't do shit, i feel like posting emojis is the only thing that'll wake them up
No. 2222425
>>2222422Ohhh. They weren't defending rape as a whole anon. They were saying nobody gives a shit about
your rape specifically, because you're either socially inept or suffer from some kind of real retardation
No. 2222427
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I just want my ADHD meds already i hate how it fucked up my life and how every other therapist before my current one failed me. If i had been medicated before i could be the woman i want to be. Retarded useless therapists ruined my life.
No. 2222433
>>2222426I think your parents being mean to you pales in the comparison to rape,
nonny.
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>>2222422In my client's defense she is referring to this post
>>>/ot/2222212 where aggro anon makes up some hypothetical situation that didn't occur. Family trauma anon no where stated in her initial post that rape is less of a true vent than her childhood family abuse.
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>>2222427Same anon. My treatment resistant depression was just untreated and unmanaged adhd. The shitty psychiatrist I saw who just blamed me for being too difficult to treat was found guilty of money embezzlement and is in jail though so maybe there is such a thing as karma
No. 2222468
>>2222463When did I
wish rape upon anyone? She said that OP's trauma pales in comparison to her rape
>>2222461Lurk moar
No. 2222473
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>>2222454> My treatment resistant depression was just untreated and unmanaged adhdshit, same. Hope you are doing better
nonny.
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>>2222473Thank you nona, you’re so kind. Things are better now, life is tough but being properly medicated makes everything so much easier. I hope you found some stability and hope as well
No. 2222524
Breakdown of the fake tranny’s story
>ever since I was a child I was punished for random little things the average parent wouldn't give two fucks about
Nooo they told me to clean my room and take a shower, I was punished!
>was never comforted during bouts of sad outbursts
Must have been undiagnosed spergery
>would get yelled and criticized
Boohoo, still not trauma plenty of parents yell and criticize it doesn’t necessarily mean they are bad parents
>would get told I'm being dramatic
They are pretty on point, a child having constant meltdowns and outbursts is one that is very dramatic and can’t handle their emotions well. They are also regards for not getting you properly diagnosed
>would get sent to my room
As any other parent would do as punishment, wtf???? Kek
>any time I asked for a hug from my mom she'd scoff and obviously didn't want to do it
Apparently mothers can’t have boundaries with their children and also families don’t have the same love language
>would force me to hug my other family members though for some fucking reason
Yeah because she’s the parent and you’re the child crying for no fucking reason kek
>grow up repressed and sheltered by overbearing hot and cold mom and retard enabler father
Another boring “NPD” family rant where the victims of said NPD family think they have no flaws and are constantly victimized, now they get to be raging retards
>finally get into a relationship way past the point of 99% of my peers
So you’re broken from this so-called trauma and then decide to go into a relationship?
>have shit mental health and coping mechanisms
Refuses to go to therapy and fix her shitty behavior but this is apparently something to be jealous of KEK
>sorry boyfriend
Retarded enabler boyfriend, hmmmm it’s almost like abused people seek similar relationship dynamics similar to their parents
>get overwhelmed and stressed sometimes
Go to therapy fucktard before you hop into a relationship and make your mess somebody else’s problem
>leads to tears, am embarrassed about it
You should be
>feel stupid and pathetic
You are
>boyfriend hugs me, holds me, rubs my back, the back of my neck, kisses hands
Enabler retard, how much longer will this scrote be patient enough with this behavior? I give it a year or maybe more because scrotes actively seek out young, naive morons like you who think love will fix your broken brain
>heart beat slowing down to normal tempo
Cringe
>breathing back to normal
Even more cringe
>mfw all I ever needed growing up was a fucking hug and physical comfort
You need therapy, CBT, a psychiatrist and to be properly diagnosed
>mfw of course my insanely retarded parents never did any of that
Yeah because you’re the only victim!!!
>mfw of course I was punished for asking for it
God this is so dumb
>mfw of course they still forced me to hug family members as a weird show of fake normalcy
THIS IS TRAUMA PEOPLE
>mfw
So in the end, retarded and nothing to be jealous about. You’re a clearly mentally challenged and unstable person who hopped from one broken circumstance into another that will likely become codependent and toxic in its own unique way. You’re such a naive little retard thinking you one-up’d me when it takes a few minutes to dissect the fuckery you’ve placed yourself into.(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)
No. 2222542
>>2222538Is it baiting to call out an obvious moid..? I don't think so,
nonny.
No. 2222544
>>2222538Idk. I'm just tired of being the one who gets banned for reporting bait.
>>2222542NTA but OP venting about her childhood sadness really should not be enough to usher a reaction like this out of you
No. 2222550
>>2222547But anon…what about that vent has scrotal energy to it? If you
truly thought it was a male, you would've reported and ignored.
No. 2222559
>>2222554They don't have to campaign
this hard trying to convince everyone that the target is a tranny, it's pretty obvious. In your case you are schizospamming these threads because your gaslighting about rape apologists was laughed at.
No. 2222564
>>2222560It's clearly a he. It's really not my fault that you can't detect the obvious,
nonny.
No. 2222588
>>2222584I can only speak for myself, but usually when I post a vent its just for exactly that. To vent and then move on to the next thread.
>>2222586Good thing I don't need to put a dress on because I have a uterus and ovaries hanging out inside me
No. 2222592
>>2222583Of course you have beef with those boards which were the main focus of the website, now it’s “be nice or else!!!” that’s just ruining the goddamn internet and my fun. I want to have fun and be messy and
toxic not this shit where I have to pretend to care about women who wouldn’t give a shit if anybody here died, I really hate the fake equal respect thing because there is no reason to respect anyone here. Everybody here deserves to get made fun of, I get made fun of for my posts because I don’t care about being approved by anybody, other anons do no matter how much they pretend to be mysterious or nonchalant their behavior is just very obvious. Fuck everyone, fuck the tranny mods, fuck the tranny admin, fuck kiwifarms, fuck reddit, fuck twitter, fuck instagram, and most importantly fuck YOU
No. 2222595
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>>2222584I made a quick tutorial for you, hope this helps.
No. 2222623
>>2222616Is meemaw
nonny ok
No. 2222627
>>2222618Come on don't do that.
>>2222616I hope your grandma is okay. Sometimes they feel guilty about being a burden when they get that old, just let her know that you're still there for her.
No. 2222628
>>2222625Ok well let me say it again for you, I'm a burger and speak native english. Wanna share with me whats ESL about
>>2222614 ?
No. 2222634
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>>2222629farmhands please save them!!! they’re being subjected to very scary posts right now please ban those chuds
(ban evading retard) No. 2222736
>>2222726This is really mean but even as a kid that loved desperate housewives (and how glam they looked in my grandma's magazines omg) I was soon disconcerted by the appearance of felicity Huffman. I disliked having to look at her and I didn't feel bad for it. Another
victim of the late 80s to late 90s hgh craze maybe but just horrifying. Sorry to her if she's a nice lady
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>>2222740her appearance is kind of concerning
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If I'm going to be unhappy either way, I guess I might as well choose to be unhappy in the way that gives me a sense of control, and lets me look the way I want.
No. 2222782
>>2222634Ok i looked up the original video and…this is fucking mental illness kek
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I got a uti now to second guess everything I might've done wrong to cause this and waste more money on fucking antibiotics and preemptive fluconazole YIPPEE!
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It is so insanely over for me. Just completed our move in to a new place today, and we had suspicions that the apartments directly bordering us are commission housing. No biggie, right? My dad was a little stressed and I told him not to worry about it. We just met our neighbours and they informed us that, it is in fact, a biggie. The apartments face our house (very close) and one of the residents is apparently a creepy old guy who is very aggressive and threw a wine bottle at the previous tenants car, yelled at them and perved on them. We’re obviously moving out, but my dad said he doesn’t feel safe here and wants to move BACK in to the house we literally moved out of today. That means we have another further two moves on our hands. I don’t have the mental capacity for this, I wish this wasn’t happening and I wish I wasn’t here.
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God, I fucking hate poor and homeless men. Any man that LOOKS like he has an STD just needs to be euthanized.
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I woke up this morning and my sister was talking about how she gained 11 pounds and was almost 120 lbs now. I think she's back to comparing our weights since about a month ago she asked mine and I told her around 120, plus she was saying she didn't wanna gain anymore weight when I'm a whole different height than her. She's been doing it ever since I was around 13-14 and it's really weird/does something to you mentally to have your 30-something year old sister randomly wanting to measure you and writing down your waist size and stuff. I feel kinda bad because that sort of seemed to enable her and like I should've lied about it or something.
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It's so over for me. It was over before it even began
No. 2223190
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>People talking nicely about Dandadan
>Read first chapter, it's cute, concept is good
>See people online posting about it (I don't mind spoilers, only jobless retards do)
>It's the same shonen slop with loser protag who gets a powerup and his best friend soon to be lover who kicks ass, go around, smack the monster of the week, token mature sexy woman and silly mascot.
Everytime. Good thing I saw this shit before wasting my time into it. Sad to see that it's always the same tropes that get famous.
No. 2223212
>>2223193usually shonen slop start right of the bat telling you it's shonen slop. There's always a school, superpowers, battle premises etc.
If you read the first chapter of Dandadan you can mistake it as some sort of quirky slice of life. How sad.
No. 2223229
>>2223223School as school training for the special forces (like bnha, naruto, the corps in snk)
Also no, the first chapter ends in them going around to prove each other if ghosts and ufo exist and Momo talking about her grandma. It ends there. Dandadan could've worked as a mystery teen comedy with quirky/heartwarming slice of life moments
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>>2218251I decided to do the procedure and today I toasted the great sophanous vein in my right leg! Anons, I had the kindest doctor, he sat next to me an precisely ansewered all my questions I had (after a month of autistically reading every study I could find). Then I thought to myself: I have the most severe reflux in my vein than can be, this shit doesn't work anyway and there's no way to fix it with compression therapy or any natural remedies, and it causes me pain here and there, so it's the best to get rid of it, before it gets more painful. The procedure was pretty quick, the most painful part was the anesthesia, when they stabbed my thigh 3 times, especially that one right below the groin was terrible. But after that I didn't feel the laser at all. I was expecting to feel burning or something, but the doctor suddely said "It's done" and I was like "Already???" So yeah great stuff. I read horror stories from people who felt the laser and screamed, but now I know it meant their anesthesia wasn't done properly. And because of the severity of my reflux, the procedure was covered by insurance in my country, so I won't have to pay for it. My only fear now is that when the anesthesia wears off totally, I will feel actual pain, not just soreness like now. I will now do my best to prevent my left leg from meeting the same fate, fortunately for now all veins in it work properly. I'm gonna do all the excercises and walks, lift my legs, no tight clothing and no food and drinks that raise my blood pressure (which is a little too high for someone who isn't overwheight). And I'm also taking free from work for a week. Yeeee (please just don't give me a clot bitch)
No. 2223320
>>2222935stomachs don't technically shrink in the way that we're familiar with things shrinking but your stomach does grow less tolerant to eating larger meals if you fast a lot/eat very little
>>2223311Ntayrt but is there lore with the word nasty now? Are we not supposed to use that here kek
No. 2223321
>>2223311Yes! I think it’s fucking
nasty when women force themselves to grow beards and turn into big fat piles of shit! Are you happy?
No. 2223322
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if any of you want a reminder of what a TIF looks like(derailing)
No. 2223324
Being around my family really triggers a lot of suicidal feelings I thought have waned away. And prior to moving back in with them I was in an abusive relationship that got physical yet these suicidal feelings didn’t feel so intense. I feel so fucked in the head for preferring to be with someone who would physically hurt me over my family. They treat me moving in as the biggest burden upon them all. I try to stay out of the way, I try to be polite to them and clean up after them as well. I ask “how was work” “UGHH it was OK”… I cook them dinner because they been telling me I should and then it’s “NO I DONT WANT YOUR FOOD UGHH YUK IT SMELLS BAD, this is why we just eat out now!”. I talk about something I like “that stuff is so stupid I can’t believe people enjoy things like that” I play music because I’m asked to put some on “ugh I hate guitar sounds” (song isn’t even fully made with guitar it just had a guitar strumming in the background). These interactions is a collection of each of my family members. I feel like Meg Griffin. I keep telling myself I’m sensitive because I’m dealing with PTSD from my ex but when I think back on my whole life it’s always been like that and I did run away from home when I was pretty young to get away from them (I thought I was being a pos teenager when I did that but I understand why I did that fully until now, in a way running away from home felt like I blacked out). I was never a problematic child, I listened to their rules because the consequences scared me, never had friends because they didn’t like that, never did drugs or left the house or anything. They have always consistently made me the villain and made me out to be a horrible child while my brother is doing fentanyl and getting arrested, selling drugs. The only thing I did wrong was being born first I guess? They are really nice to my sister so it can’t be because I’m reaping the burden of being a female child. I feel confused, and I’m trying to figure out what the hell I did to make them hate me. While I was in that abusive relationship I remember begging my parents to take me to their place because he was hurting me, and they were so hesitant but eventually sent my brother to get me, and then 3 days later told me they were cutting me off and sending me back to my ex because they are retired from being my parents. The only reason I got out of my relationship is because he left me, and my dad had a little bit of empathy to convince my mom to let me move back in. Anyways I just wish I was back with my ex if I was quiet enough we would have good days, over here my mom gets mad about something in her life and heads straight to my room to yell at me over random things or just tear me apart for no reason
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i miss when the vent thread was the vent thread. shut the fuck up about trannies
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vent has always been a troll breeding ground, but it's been extra bad recently. i actually use this thread regularly and hope it gets better soon.
love me nonnies, hate trolls and troons, simple as
No. 2223390
>>2223328They would low key love that. Biggest day of their life! Maybe I can slip ssris in their take out instead.
>>2223330When I was in another state they were nicer to me but would only talk to me on my birthday. I’m just going to hide in my room until I can get a shit job and get the hell out of here.
No. 2223421
>>2223324I honestly think that your upbringing lead you to get into an
abusive relationship. I’m so sorry nonna, just resist a bit more. Do you have a job? Any friends whom you can live with maybe?
Also, are you the last child and unplanned? Very often parents hate children who are unplanned (despite the fact that it’s them who fucked) since they remove the balance. They perhaps wanted two children only and then they got you.
No. 2223426
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I really hate how cute VW stuff is but the quality is so shit. The really have the audacity to sell this for almost 500 dollars when its quality is barely above fast fashion standards and their jewelry is all silver plated like fucking claire's has silver plated jewerly, what the fuck
No. 2223468
I could live life on easy-mode, I'm pretty and thin with a good figure, I'm not mentally retarded and i have good social skills but i'm fucked in the head. My mom forced me to start getting treated for my mental illness when i was 12 after my first suicide attempt, I've taken 16 different types of medication in total, 4 psychatrists and 6 therapists over the years, nothing helps. I'm 17 now. My dad was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and killed himself when i was 5, my mom is batshit and abusive because she was insanely traumatised as a kid. I was sexually abused by her alcoholic father from ages 4-9. I basically stood no chance at living a normal life. My current psychatrist suspects borderline personality disorder and cptsd, i was misdiagnosed with schizophrenia at 13 and was suspected of bipolar for a while, at 15 i was diagnosed with ocd and generalised anxiety disorder. I don't remember a time where i was not living in constant mental anguish even going back to early childhood. Everything hurts, my existence revolves around hurting myself and everyone around me. I have no interests, hobbies or ambitions because i see no point in life and the only things that make me happy are drugs, smoking and alcohol. Every second hurts. I'm still a virgin even though i'm not asexual i've had multiple relationships because being molested made me unable of having a sex life and it kills me. People love me at first but it all goes to shit when they really get to know me.I missed 2 years of school in total because of psych wards and severe depressive episodes, i was held back and i'm close to failing school again. I fuck up every good thing i have in my life, i have no idea why i keep doing it, i just keep being self-destructive and i can't escape it, it's like a curse. I fucked up my relation with the only person that made me happy. He was the first and only guy that made me feel safe, he was gentle and kind to me, i've never felt so loved. it's been 7 months and thinking about it still physically hurts. I don't know what to do anymore, i hate everything about myself and looking in the mirror hurts. I'm severly mentally unstable and impulsive, i've had substance abuse problems since i was 14, I destroy people mentally and inbetween the batshit manic episodes i feel empty inside.I wish i was normal so badly. I'm sorry if i did something wrong while posting, until now i've just been lurking(you must be over 18 to post here)
No. 2223475
>>2223421One thing I realized is that my ex would say the same horrible things to me that my mom would. I don’t have a job yet, I don’t really have friends either because both my ex and family gets really mad at me for interacting with other people. So hopefully I can befriend some people whenever I work next.
I was the first born, I feel like they resent me a lot for that. They were seniors in high school when they had me, they also fought a lot and nearly divorced. They would always tell me not to have kids or I’d be bound to a person I hate which usually feels like a guilt trip directed at me
No. 2223498
>>2223475> They were seniors in high school when they had meAnd that’s why. I don’t understand parents like this (yes even if they were teenagers, my mom made me young and she stepped up and she was alone).
Why resent an innocent child for a fuck up you made? If they wanted to be free they could have aborted you, you have sex and you make a child and resent that child? What’s the logic in this?
Fuck them all nonna, I hope you’ll get away from them.
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Work at my job is slowing down so they're only scheduling people who have good performance rates….and they keep putting me on the schedule. I need the hours anyway but fuck. At least I get tomorrow (my only day of the week off) free. The pay period before last I literally got told that my performance rate was low so idk what this is about anyway.
OT but funnily enough when I was searching for this pic on pinterest, the link attached to the pic goes to lolcow.
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>older brother trooned out a few years ago. Began getting all of his gender affirming surgery this year.
>see recent picture of him. He got implants that are bigger than the majority of women’s breasts
>he’s 6’4 and skinny as hell with huge implants so he looks comically out of proportion now
No one in the family has huge boobs. He purposely chose huge implants because he has a fetish. Now I have to stare at his public display of his fetishism over thanksgiving turkey. I’m sick of this shit
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I used to go to therapy for many years, from my teens up to my late twenties (only did major breakthroughs in my mental health until the last couple of therapists, partly because they figured out how to work with me and also because of my own efforts in maturing), which made me for a long time pretty ignorant to why people "just don't try it out" and switch to someone else if it doesn't work out with the one you're talking to.
Having been without therapy for almost five years now and realizing I might have to pick it up again I finally open my eyes to how hard it is. It's not exactly a pride thing, but it's a "I know I have issues that are coming back, but what the fuck am I supposed to say about them?".
My mental health has started to go down the drain. I'm isolating myself, causing my own loneliness. But I'm too apathetic to do anything about it, and I feel like I'm a breakdown away from having the voices come back. I attempted suicide for the first time in years this summer, and the shame of it still looms over me even though I still have a lot of suicidal ideations. I know all of these are issues I need to go to therapy for, but unlike before this isn't really related to my traumas…I think? I worked through most of them, I have the tools to deal with them. This is probably based on something else, which makes me trying to imagine what to talk about very hard.
No. 2223709
>>2223703Oh
nonny I'm so sorry. I'm sure you gave him an amazing life and he will cross the bridge feeling loved.
No. 2223712
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i want to feel loved so badly. im so incredibly lonely my good friend just ghosts me. i hate being so alone
No. 2223715
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My best friend is the sweetest most wonderful person alive but also extremely emotionally volatile due to a life of nonstop trauma and even some ongoing abuse. Her story is the most horrific thing ive ever heard and from the moment i met her, even before she shared her history, i could tell how fragile and needy she is. She's so so desperate for love and im determined to give her as much as i can, to help her heal. I love her so much and care about her happiness. I know she can do better, she doesnt have to hurt herself the way she does. I keep trying to help and i do see a lot of progress from her in various ways, but it takes so much energy and sometimes i push myself beyond what i can realistically give. This isn't her fault at all. I know im choosing to do this all on my own. I choose it because it lines up with my values: love, compassion, offering help to those who need it, especially those who struggle to be kind to themselves or are isolated from others. Its not her fault she's in so much pain. More pain than i can handle by myself. I really want her to get more help and support, both professionally and from other friends, but she outright refuses. Im the only one who knows how much she's suffering. She's trying very very hard to help herself too, i know she is, but besides her own efforts, im the only one who helps and cares. Its not enough!!! She needs so so so much more. But i cant make her do anything, and i dont even know how to talk to her about this. Last time i tried to tell her "this is too much, you need more support," we got into a huge argument and she isolated herself even more. She hid herself even from me and spiralled into worse and worse moods. It's so self destructive, its really scary. I just want to help her but i cant do all that she needs. Realistically, she needs a whole team of professionals doting on her 24/7,jplus a friend group full of healthy traumatised people who understand what she's going through now because they've already done their work. Im like halfway to health myself, but im by no means emotionally stable, much less a professional trained in caring for someone with such severe illnesses. Im way out of my depth but i will not give up because i love her and she needs someone by her side. I cant make her get more help, but i can at least look for support myself. Im too scared to talk to our mutual friends about this (and concerned about airing my bestie's business) and due to other personal problems, its hard for me to confide in others in general. But i think making an anonymous post is a good first step in talking about it. I will talk to my therapist too, next time i see her. And i want to reconnect with my friends and family in general, to remind myself of what its like to have less emotionally draining relationships. It wont always be this way. Im going to keep loving my best friend and caring for her as best as i can. I'll find some way to gently encourage her to get more help. And no matter what she does, i can always get help and support for myself. If you read all this, thank you. I promise to keep doing my best
No. 2223749
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>>2223715You’re a good friend nonnette, and realistic and reasonable. Keep up the fight! I hope you and your bestie come through this on the other side well and happy.
No. 2223752
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I only enjoy going to the gym in the morning, popping into the shower after moving your body and feeling fresh the rest of the day feels so fucking good also knowing I got my stupid jogging for my stupid mental and physical health done and over with early is a huge bonus
But recently my night anxiety has come back with a vengeance, which means I either try to toughen it out and left sleepless most of the night, or giving and taking my anxiety meds which turns me into a zombie until right before lunchtime the day after. So it's getting harder and harder getting myself to the gym with my body aching from the lack of proper sleep. When I fucking FINALLY got into such a healthy habit
No. 2223793
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I need to make music, and I've accepted that I'm just not talented enough on my own to do it. However I don't have any friends to record with, specifically female friends. Anyone on the east coast looking to make music? Experimental/electronic/noise/folk/dungeon synth/so much more/etc are the genres I'm thinking of the most right now. I'm primarily a vocalist (noddle around with multiple instruments/know how to use DAWs). Ughhh!!!!!!!
No. 2223990
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how would you guys deal with a person who constantly turns everything around to be the victim in every situation? basically someone hurt me, came back with a dogshit apology (think "i'm so sorry waah can we pweease be friends again or can you atleast forgive me..happy birthday btw!" without providing any explanation for their harmful actions whatsoever) and is now whining about how bad it made her feel to hurt me. i think i'm just going to call her out on her bullshit and if she gets agressive then so be it, the relationship is already ruined beyond repair and i have no reason to walk on eggshels around her. i wonder if there's even any use in trying to stick it in her face.. i'm probably just wasting my time on this whiny retard.
thoughts? if you have any experience with this type of person please share
No. 2224017
>>2223997we were at a gathering and when i came up to say hi she looked at me like i was contagious or something and ran away. i tried approaching her the next day and the same thing happened. she also kept hanging out (and still does to this day) with someone who did me dirty in a similar way
it was so sudden, there were no warning signs whatsoever. we literally met up and ate pizza a few days before that gathering and everything seemed okay? she was open and talkative like always and we had a good time. i'm either too retarded to pick up the signals or i've been cursed to have people randomly drop me after years of friendship
No. 2224043
>>2224017samefag i think it's important to add she apologized to me 3 months after that gathering. it was complete radio silence up until then
>>2224024i don't want to continue the friendship even if she does properly apologize for many reasons (one of them is her still being best friends with a retarded pornsick fakebian who dropped me in a similar manner a year before) but otherwise that's pretty much what i had in mind. i'm not falling for another one of her sobstories
No. 2224072
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I tripped and hit my head/mouth and heard a crack, and saw these in my front teeth. I'm so fucking scared of having to get crowns or something because I'm a clumsy retard. Google says they're harmless but they stress me out so bad
No. 2224128
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i really really dislike animecore aesthetic and the people who use it on their profiles. i hate the weird loli-pedo obsession, and how they wear japanese clothes meant for preteen girls. these girls are going to feel so retarded pandering to lolicons in a few years
No. 2224163
>>2224072Youve got some nice chompers, nona. If it isnt painful or sensitive then I wouldnt worry. My teeth have several chips taken out from retarded stuff over the years and Ive never had to do anything to fix them, any fixes would be purely for aesthetics.
Ive got awful DOMS in my forearms due to a shoulder workout I did. My shoulders are only a little sore but I cant even straighten out my arms without a lot of prayer and a solid 10 minutes of very slowly easing my arms straight kek. God it hurts so bad. I didnt even realize I was using my forearms like that.
No. 2224276
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As soon as i started middle school i for whatever reason lost the ability to socialize, so i had no friends in for the rest of K-12. I would spend all day at school not saying a word, so i would talk to myself a lot. Flash forward to highschool maybe, i subconsciously made up this shitty tulpa thing without realizing. I wasnt even trying she just showed up. If i made a tulpa on purpose then it would be way cooler, but she is just an overweight maybe hispanic basic girl. She doesn't talk, she just ugly laughs at the jokes i say to myself and agrees with my opinions. Idont even try to think of her she just appears sometimes when im alone and have racing thoughts. My brain defaults to her. I dont really know where she is either. Shes usually sitting at a desk in a void laughing at my jokes. I try to think of other people sometimes like a character i like, but if i dont effort it, then my brain defaults to her.
This is my artistic rendition of her. Sorry my art is shit i swear i can draw better i just had limited time. But she is very basic looking. She Just a basic girl youd see on the street.
No. 2224277
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my stupid NLOG “friend” who pointedly refuses to sit with the rest of the women every time we have a gathering and has been talking to my bf about cars for an hour now STFU you stupid tryhard bitch oh my god
No. 2224356
>>2224276this is based
>>2224344sorry to hear this nona, my sympathies to the both of you
No. 2224440
Asshole "friends" I finally cut off, and wanted to cut off since May are suddenly upset I'm not around. Fuck off. One was warned to not start shit with multiple people but did anyway, whined that her blowing up at people loses her friends, and yeah, "lost" me because of it. I'm not going to waste my time on people who trash talk everyone around them, then waste everyone's time by inviting those same people to every get together only to be a huge bitch to them and hardly hide the personal hate. Never noticed it until I finally heard 2 months worth of bitching about someone she herself wanted pushed out. Her sister is almost worse, and I fucking ditched her for constantly being a cunt any time I even bring up that my nigel exists. I share nothing about my personal life to them, yet nothing stays private anyway, but god forbid anyone even says they're doing ok. I realize they've only known me as unemployed, didn't know my dogshit home life and I didn't really share my relationship stuff, but of course all the vitriol starts when I finally get a job that pays decent, move, and get married. I can understand animosity since they've done this to more than 1 person - someone gets with some moid or married and suddenly the 2 get rude and shitty - but I feel conceited if I think "oh they're just jealous."
Fuck people like this, I feel like a dumbass for wasting so much time, fucks to give, and money on them.
No. 2224445
>>2224401We didn't straight up break up but it was me trying to talk with him and he mostly saying 'okay'. Couldn't get him to talk. Doing all the emotional labor. He says he wants to be together but he just doesn't put any effort into communication. He says he cares for me and doesn't wanna break up. This gets me (who was more aligned to breaking up) into ~trying to salvage it~ mindset. But then he is like 'I'm afraid we can't be happy together'. Right after saying he wants to stay together. And then he is surprised I am shook by it as I just decided on wanting to try bc of what he said, and wanna talk about it. I'm just so confused. He's stressing me out so much with him flip flopping.
I don't think I love him anymore. I could revive that. But with the way he's acting, hardly.
I am to visit him in 10 days. I already have the ticket. I think I will go and have it as our last meeting. He's much better irl so it probably will be an okay visit. But I will branch out even before that, if I can manage… This relationship is over.
It was gonna be mostly LDR for at least a year and if he can't manage to keep contact and not be always dry as fuck - and getting angry and call me manipulative if I ask him about it very nicely, just asking for crumbs of warmth - we can't work. I don't ask for too much, I just ask for a basic 'have a nice day' or 'good morning' and not 1 to 3 word answers all the time, if I even get that. But he's StuDYinG EcoNOMIcs so he's soooo busy that he can't write me at all. He's saying this to a doctor, I guess medicine is so much more leasure than economics huhh
No. 2224451
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Is it possible to fall in love with someone from a picture? I think I have but I’m trying to slam a hatch on my stalker mode tendencies.
No. 2224511
>>2224506Because that's their way of coping when faced with women being sick of their shit. Same formula when retarded women
always assume that other women must be jealous if other women have a problem with them. So narcissistic that they cannot comprehend other people disliking them without some form of "I'm superior".
No. 2224560
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>>2224128It's a pale imitation of the glorious anime Blingee era + people who are preserving that aesthetic via PicMix.
No. 2224709
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I'm starting to see my mother's face in the mirror. Absolutely identical. It feels so strange. It makes me worry that it will alter the way I think and act to be like her.
No. 2224747
>>2223426I bought a golden necklace and a silver one and wore them quite a lot for the past 2 years-ish. They are not good quality, like it's not jewlery that you would pass to your daughters, but they can hold pretty well if you take god care of them (cleaning off sweat that accumulates in the pearls, proper storage and not going to the pool with them). Despite using the silver much more it held up significantly better than the golden one, because the gold plating is so thin it wears off very quickly. If you want VW jewlery just accept it for what it is; i.e fantasy jewlery for fun and not heirloom pieces. From the price point they do suck tho.
I'm a retard so I also bought a very similar bag to the pic and the biggest problem with it it's that the metal strap lost whatever plating it had by rubbing against clothes, but so far it's not really noticeable. Don't buy VW, there's much better and cuter stuff out there. If you fell for it like I did because of consuming too much pinterest content at least buy it on sale and avoid jewelry/bags with clasps. The quality also depends on the design, some stuff has better quality than the popular necklaces, but in general I would never buy from them again.
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>>2223839Thanks
nonny, shit is complicated and I didn’t want to get into it but I’ll just summarize it all with the following statement: Late term (30+ years) abortions should be legal in the event you have a son with autism
No. 2225027
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I feel really dissapointed in my mom. my brother is an entitled brat and treats her like shit. while he lived with us he treated me like shit too, and of course anything he ever did wrong was my fault. I had a bad relationship with my mom until a few years ago when we tried to mend the relationship, but deep down i feel like no matter how loyal I am I will never have that loyalty reciprocated. She will always choose others over me because she knows i will always be loyal to her. I don't really feel sad about this anymore. I know this sounds like a cringe edgelord thing to say but in a way it is almost liberating to know I am alone. suppressing my natural empathy has been amazing for my well being and i dont care if others call me selfish for it. i deserve to live well.
we have been trying to plan out something for my brother's birthday and it is getting expensive (he has never spent more than $40 on a gift for either of us, but this gift that he wants is going to be $100+ each. the most recent gift he got my mom was some hideous dollar store halloween decor that he knew she was going to hate. he just thought it would be funny to see her disappointed i guess) On top of us going out of our way to get him something expensive that he would like, he tells my mom that she is too stupid to plan it out, and constantly belittles her its honestly disgusting. He invites his girlfriend into the call to help plan it out as well but continues belittling my mom in front of her. once she leaves the call he and I get into an argument. once its over my mom blames me for his behavior. she says that since im so distant and frigid with him he feels the need to act up for attention.
I want to warn his gf if their relationship ends up getting more serious. He is not a good person. I dont think she would pay attention to me at first. It would probably ruin my relationship with my mom too if I did that since my mom would inevitably side with my brother.
No. 2225063
>>2225027Trying to please a boy mom is damn useless. She’ll always look at him as the perfect son,
capable of doing no wrong. You’re better off distancing yourself from her and him all together, because she’ll always blame you for whatever is going on and she’ll bring you down with her too kek.
No. 2225069
>>2225027I hate to say this but going NC with your mom might be the only way you can salvage your relationship. You said it yourself, she always picks the moid because you're there for her. Leave. Let her deal with him all by herself. Don't give any money towards his present. Write her a message explaining exactly why you're going NC then block her on everything. Ideally you'd go NC for at least a couple of years but I get that that's difficult so at the very least go 6 months without acknowledging her at all. She'll have the joy of dealing with your brother's birthday and Christmas without a punching bag to take her boymom frustrations out on.
Drop his gf a message about how shitty he is or point out that the way he acts towards his own mother is going to be the way he acts towards her. She's probably already aware of how shitty he is and she might need help leaving him, or she could be a BPDchan who thrives on shitty relationships. Either way she's a grown adult who doesn't need you to weep for her wellbeing, if she's not open to your help, let her figure her shit out on her own.
I feel for you, I really do, but there's nothing you can do to help someone who refuses to be helped. There's a reason why addicts only get better when all their enablers leave. Your mom definitely doesn't think you'll leave over this, she's only going to treat you like a person when you stop giving her what she wants.
Keep on looking after yourself. Be as selfish as you want, you're not Jesus. And take that $100 and get yourself a nice Christmas present with it. Your brother doesn't deserve shit.
No. 2225163
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>see a book that I always wanted to read
>buy it
>start reading, can't focus and drop it after 10 pages
>many books like that on the shelf, waiting to be read one day, maybe
>see a game
>wanna play it
>start playing it
>turn it off after 5 minutes, feeling exhausted after the tutorial part
>watching a movie
>can't focus on the movie alone, have to also scribble something in the notepad and do something on the phone at the same time, but at least understand everything about the movie and don't turn it off
Why am I like this? Movies and anime is like the only media I can consume, but I also have to do something else at that time. Can't get to video games and books, even manga causes some trouble but less than books
No. 2225322
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Went to see the Evil Dead musical with my friend, it was put on my by an amateur group but it was really fun and the casting was absolutely great! It's been a long while since I watched a theatre, and every time I see a play of any kind it makes me want to pick it up again. I only did it for a year during high school but as much as I loved it I decided not to pursue it further due to my inability to improvise and as much as I was able to really deliver on stage I did realize I suffer from pretty bad stage fright and I did NOT like that sensation. But while watching this one I for a few minutes considered maybe picking it up again in my free time to help work with my anxiety, but when I saw the actors interacting with each other I realized that I…can't.
I've changed too much, I can't handle being touched by men unless I know them extremely well. There are no women only groups here so I would have no choice to go with a mixed one, which would mean I would not only have to deal with stage fright and social anxiety but also my secret fear of men all at once. It honestly makes me really, really sad.
No. 2225509
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I graduated university in 2019 and I still get a little bit jealous and bitter when I see people from my course doing great jobs, living in the middle of London, advancing in their career related to their course, and making money.
I didn't get any of that. I am from a super rural part of northern England and the networking and opportunities available to me after university were next to nothing. I come from a poor family and a neglectful one. When I left university with the highest grade, I tried to put together a portfolio and worked freelance for a bit but I could never make enough money so I had to go and work in a supermarket instead, driving to and from work in a £700 car that would break down all the time. Soon after I was kicked out my parent's home and had to live with my partner. It sucks. I know these people who were successful on the course probably deserve their success but at the same time I really envy the fact that none of them were kicked out, none of them had to work evening shift in a supermarket for pennies, their parents had money and networking and lived inside/very close to London which is the heart of the industry I studied.
I try not to sound too pitiful and pathetic but sometimes it felt like I never really had a chance. In regards to my course, I never saw anyone from the council estate or the slums or a poor family make it. The only people I've seen who were successful in that industry were already from comfortable or wealthy homes. They will tell you it's all down to 'hard work' but hard work doesn't mean shit when you could never have the time or money to pursue interviews or take a year off for portfolio building. Or maybe this industry was just never truly for me and I was destined to work in what I'm doing right now. I don't know.
No. 2225544
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the woman body is a affront to god itself.. its why he tests it,curses it and makes her torment herself for all eternity for a organ she did not ask for just because it cannot see a being so ethereal and similar to it , for she can create life but hers is not to be equal to the vile organ inside of her, every minute needs to be pondered upon your survival, every second you must control and seal your mouth so not to spill the truth, what good is religion when it has already set that my place will be in hell? that girls will be raped because that vile organ bled? that a woman who is bought will be less than livestock and her cries of pain and curses wont matter because shes an object and shes a apostle even if she cries that very name moids call it? that i have to cover each follicle on myself lest i want to be defiled and torn and then thrown as used rags as those women? so why should i sing the praise of moids who have created these gods why should i believe that even after death id still be viewed as only a hole to be used? i wanted to believe in you but when you have cast me aside since the birth why should i? when it burns me for noticing the truth? when i saw the woman who was so afraid of her own husband that she came in the hospital so she couldve gotten her daughters removed so she wont be pregnant with a parasite?…what good is it anymore
No. 2225571
I fucking cannot stand Ethel Cain.
I was introduced to the music through a random YouTube video, one those 'therapist reacts to' type of things, and I couldn't get through it before I was fully pissed off. Yes, sexual abuse happens, incest happens, sometimes even inbreeding, but it's not common here in the 'Deep South' and what 'her' fans are saying is so raw and honest is completely airlifted from other people's lives and experiences. It's like if someone took my family history and went 'ooh! how tragic and exciting! let me write songs as if I were you, and then I'll sell it to other people and reap all the great benefits from all that hideous shit you went through'.
I feel like if Ethel was writing songs about being a Holocaust victim then everyone would immediately call it out as being completely inappropriate and 'horrifically abused Christian women in the Deep South' shouldn't be any different. The people who went through the shit being described in Preacher's Daughter don't share those experiences for entertainment or for profit. Those experiences shouldn't be romanticized or glamorized with edgy Tumblr lyrics or music videos with hazy lighting and nostalgia bait. It's not Ethel's goddamn story to write and if it were then it wouldn't be written because the women that actually experience this stuff HIDE IT so they don't become the spectacle of their small towns. Ethel, on the other hand, wants to make as much of a spectacle as possible and is clearly ok with ripping off other people's trauma to do so. Fuck off, Hayden, get raped by your own relatives first before you try to describe what it's like or how it makes you feel. 'ooh, my parents were rural conservatives, poor me' is not in the same level.
No. 2225580
>>2225574*him, thank you.
god bless lolcow for letting us just be honest. I've been in the comment section trenches for too long today.
the fact that IRL i can't even talk about the aspect of 'this is literally /r/menwritingwomen content' is just the icing on the cake, ain't it?
No. 2225592
>>2225584Dark circles are hot on women,
nonnie. And aging is a privilege, wear the signs of aging like it's a badge of honour, proof that you're a bad bitch for surviving so long. I hope you get a good night of rest soon.
No. 2225753
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I hate my boyfriend and its clear he doesn't want a future with me and I'm used to not doing anything about it but this ends tonight, I'm gonna cheat on him. What I don't get is how he says he cares about me but treats me like an afterthought idk.
No. 2225772
>>2225673>The makeup most people benefit from that doesn't make most people look worse, even at older ages, is blushNayrt but I wonder if this is a regional thing because where I live many people have rosacea so blush alone will just make them look like drunks kek
Imo brown or clear mascara would be my vote, or a lightly tinted lipbalm depending on the person. I agree that concealer is a fools game to sell women more crap, it doesn't actually hide flaws it just looks like you're wearing concealer
No. 2225855
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I love cute shit. Frills, bows, lace on pretty dresses. Accessories with strawberries and flowers. All that stuff is what I love the absolute most.
But none of it loves me back.
No. 2225988
>>2225977I'm not sure how to explain it. Okay, like how gay men just use apps to fuck each other like they're ordering room service? Straight men don't have that, and they're angry about it. In the way women are raised as little girls on the media around them, so are boys. And they are taught by the older men around them, PUA stuff they search up online, porn, etc. So a lot of the time you spend on normal things like your relationship, hobbies, etc a man like that is actually scheming various ways to trick women into having sex with him. He's messaging in rapid fire, baiting like 20 hooks, just hoping someone bites. Yes a LOT of them do that, no im not being schizophrenic–once you notice the behavior it becomes eerie to see just how naturally it comes to them
>acting shockedThat's just it, it's only acting. It's to flatter you or maybe get your pity. They have no humility about it, very shameless. It's one big show, you fucked him before so he thinks you'll give eventually if he seems flattering enough. The ol bait and switch.
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I don’t like my sisters. Obviously I love them
And wish them the best in this life but I would like to not be around them anymore. Since I was a kid they have treated my existence like a burden. If I say hi or anything to them they look at me with death glares. They literally have to be in the mood to acknowledge my existence. They call me annoying and weird when I talk to them and a cunt when I dont. I legit can never win even at 30. I don’t get people that have tight relationships with their siblings. Even Tia and Tamera don’t like each other and twins are memed into being besties. I think getting along with your siblings is a forced psyop. Obviously there are people that do and have bffs built into their siblings but not this girl. I get not getting along with my brothers they are men. But my SISTERS!? Do you know how much that breaks my misandrist heart!? My own sisters will not give me a crumb of empathy since we were kids but my brothers do. And no I don’t try suck up to my brothers or even like my brothers more especially since they have each other. I’m literally a black sheep. My brothers just actually listen to me speak without subconsciously rolling their eyes and sighing heavily.
When I go out to eat with them I regret it every time. We could have reservations for brunch at 12 and we won’t leave the house until 5pm. Because they treat every outing like a fashion show. EVERY OUTING. We could just need to pick something up at target and I’ll have to wait hours for a sister to do her hair and makeup. I stopped doing anything with them because they can never get up and go! I get wanting to look good but not to get avocados at 9am!
I sound like a NLOG around my sisters because im seriously NOT like them kek . I love dressing up and looking good too dont get me wrong. But when there is a time crunch/reservations you knew about I need you to get over yourself and stop putting on individual lashes and opt for mascara. And don’t get me started when we finally reach our destination. We have to stop every 2 seconds to find a nice spot for a photo op. When I put my foot down and say no I just want to eat I’m a bitch. Maybe it’s because I grew up the ugly duckling sister but you’d think I’d be putting in the MOST effort to look good when we leave the house.But the way they are so self absorbed made me care less about my looks when I’m with them. They will pick a random restaurant in bumfuck not because they heard the food is good but because it has aesthetic backgrounds. I’m so annoyed that they make me sound like an NLOG. I’m literally a girly girl myself but my sisters take it to a narcissistic extreme. I am so nice to them too! I spoil tf out of them on holidays and bdays. But when it’s my bday and I ask for something they tell me to “grow up” or “I’m not getting that” They make fun of me for liking anime and nerdy shit but come to find out their best friends are all literal anime nerds. It’s so weird! Both of my sisters bffs like the exact nerdy shit I do I was so shocked because they treat ME like an autistic freak.
No. 2226205
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>>2225855Same. I love all the cutest shit and pastel pink so much but expressing it makes me feel like even more of an autistic womanchild than I already am, or a gross coquette, I couldn't get into wearing lolita either.
No. 2226358
>>2225548As an autist, the only way to get around it is by being THE quirky artist in the group, or by having some great skill they value. That way you can still be considered somewhat "cool" while breaking social rules kek
Especially in a group of creative people who kind of want to be autists (or some other disorder) because they think it makes them more unique, having real autist friends validate them so they can larp that they have it too.
No. 2226382
>>2225926Never return back to a mistake you made, that’s my motto.
You only give a man one chance, if he fucks it up, leave him and never look back.
Men like him think they’re hot shit and that you are always after them even after years kek. Don’t let anyone play in your face like that.
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i want to meet another girl so bad im so lonely but im ugly and schizo. id probably scare her off, i want to keep trying but i have no clue where to meet other lesbians especially ones that arent sucked into all the gendie bullshit why has it plagued lesbian spaces so much? jesus
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I just found out a vtuber I worked with does private paywalled sex streams…why is this community so full of degenerates
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Just mixed up my morning and nighttime meds. This is going to be a very challenging day in work.
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I hate how I end up with women who never can do anything romantic for me or to me. Maybe it's just something I do or how I am that makes it so that these women never think I want or need that stuff, but I've literally been vocal about liking that shit. I'm not dating anyone right now because I need to figure out how the fuck I keep ending up with women like these, 3 by now but the common denominator is me and the fact that they're bisexuals with little to no experience in dating women. I feel like shit. One time I brought this up to a woman I was seeing, and she got so angry at me asking if she actually even sees me as a woman or just a boyfriend with a pussy. Why she wouldn't ever get me flowers or cards, or hold the door open for me even when she knew I liked that shit but she would go on a "a woman needs to be treated-" when I didn't get her flowers for her nameday or whatever. I'm on my period right now so I think I'm not even making sense, but I need to step the fuck up.
No. 2226465
>>2226413I try but he does anything in his pwoer to mess with me, he's 30 years old and I'm 29 years old but he acts like a toddler.
He turns off and on the lights in my room, puts all of the dog's toys under the sheets of my bed and says retarded snarky shit all of the time, but the moment I even mutter something then my mom gets mad because I'm annoyed by his retarded ass and then I find any excuses to not spend time with him.
Today my mom said that I'm like this whenever I hangout with my friend and yeah, she's really bitter and tells me shitty stuff like I'm stupid and such, but I have patience with her because she doesn't know better, her home is
toxic as fuck.
Like, maybe if he stopped being a manchild then I wouldn't be so annoyed, I honestly miss when I didn't have to talk with him at all because I was busy doing anything else and because he spent the whole day and night outside.
He gets all like
>uwu she's being ruuuuuude and meaaaaanAnd then my mom gets mad because I swear at him, if he wasn't a fucking retard I wouldn't swear, and tells me that I need to take care of my "intrafamilial relationships" I try but he's fucking retarded.
I also can't complain about anything at home because everyone in my house wants me to speak like, idk, a princess from a Disney movie, and it's obnoxious at this point.
I love my family but I think that at this point I would be better on my own or dead, it's really tiresome and no amount of grey rocking has helped me at all.
No. 2226547
>>2226344Half the time, when things are going as I expect and I'm not in a bad mood, it makes me over the moon happy. There's no universe in which I am capable of being mostly satisfied in a relationship, I'll always find reasons to be upset.
>>2226380I do love him at the end of the day. The things that would make someone else displeased with him fulfill me, but I still know how they're perceived and so I can use that against him in my weird jealous martyr fantasies.
No. 2226601
Why are men such pigs? They do the filthiest things, and they're always denying it, and argue that you're worse because "I saw your used pad once".
One time my mom found out my brother was peeing in bottles in his room, and he wasn't even grounded, what the fuck? I was visiting a friend once, and it turned out her cousins were visiting too, and one was caught masturbating on her room. And he was only told to "do it in the bathroom". They stink, they brag about never washing their clothes, they claim women are dirtier cause we menstruate, and everyone agrees with them and let's them be filthy motherfuckers spreading ETS everywhere. I'm so fucking sick of them, I don't know how some girls have unprotected sex with dudes they just met on Tinder, cause I could never, who knows what kind of hygiene those guys have?
No. 2226631
>>2226630Are you American nonna?
We have bidets in my country so fortunately men here have clean asses and they don’t consider washing their ass faggot behavior. Is it really true that American scrotes often don’t clean their ass crack?
Nightmare fuel.
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>>2226631I am indeed a burger. We actually had a bidet put in at his insistence. This did not help the problem and he stilled smelled. The only thing I can think of is
his ass hair was so overgrown due to not being maintained, combined with not cleaning himself in the shower, resulting in poop getting perpetually stuck and matting his ass hair. So even with the bidet he had the same issues.
He once got mad at me because I told him he had to take a shower with soap after getting diarrhea before I would let him sleep in the bed. He said I wasn’t being nice to him when he wasn’t feeling well kek
No. 2226659
>>2226548I honestly think this shit stems from intense insecurity and regret. I know a lot of bitter old people who fucked up their lives with choices that made them profoundly unhappy (i.e., getting married despite not wanting to, birthing a bunch of kids despite hating the parental role, spending all their money on cars and big houses instead of retirement, etc.) They did these things on autopilot because everyone else was doing them. They thought it would make them look cool or some shit, but all it did was give them a never-ending, stress-filled performance to keep up. by the time they realize how unhappy they are, it's way too late to unfuck their lives. There's no way to recuperate the financial losses or bodily changes that come with having a bunch of kids, raising them for decades, and aging into your elderly years. Imo the worst part is knowing that you sacrificed a huge chunk of your lifespan for things that never gave you a sense of peace or fulfillment. Lost time will never come back.
At this point, the only way they can cope is by shitting on other people who have taken active control of their lives and made good, personalized life choices that led them to fulfilling futures.
(Disclaimer: I am not some anti-aging freak. I think it's beautiful when women can spend their lives cultivating their individual personalities, allowing them to continuously evolve into better and happier versions of themselves as they age. A life like this creates results that are honestly heart-warming. The thing I'm against is the ridiculously restrictive, conservative life path that boomers keep trying to sell me on - despite the fact that they admit in private conversation that it made them miserable. Aging inside of that circumstance creates results that are fucking grim.)
No. 2226725
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I have 0 idea how other people don’t have constant crippling existential thoughts / dread / anxiety about death, the eternity after this life, how large numbers can get, and how pointless everything is in the face of all that. I don’t even know if getting the answers to our existence is worth it because no matter what humans will just die off and we’ll be back at square one or humans will get some kind of immortality which is just existential horror on its own as well. I’ve thought about this my whole life and how, in the face of a possibly infinite universe and infinite time, nothing we do matters and no matter what spiritual concepts I choose to believe in it still all feels pointless. If there is a God I swear it must hate us or at least be apathetic to our existence. I really agree with that one quote that says “It’s better to not have been born in the first place” because it’s how I feel. I don’t wanna die, I want to have never been born because existence is some kind of curse, even if there is non-existence after dying that doesn’t make it better, if anything it’s worse to me, give me hopes, dreams, loved ones, hobbies, and then rip it all away?! I’ve begun to believe we’re in a simulation that has a shitton of bugs in it. Hopefully whatever the real world outside of this is won’t have these same issues
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Last night I found out that my ex boyfriends sister is transitioning and on testosterone. Frog voice and all. I started tearing up when I found out because I have been hoping that she would snap out of it but I was wrong. Id known her since she was 13 and she's 22 now. She's struggled alot over the years and Im so sad this is the outcome.
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I feel like I'm almost always upholding false images to try to be palatable to people and like I can't fully be myself. I want to either make new friends who "get" me or deepen my relationship with the few friends I have (feels more like acquaintances), but… I dunno, sometimes it can feel like I've had such niche and uncommon experiences that people either act judgmental, don't care, or just aren't able to connect with me.
This happens both in real life and online. Tbh I feel like I'm at this weird intersection between different worlds, there are so many interests, values, and experiences I have that have like no overlap. Like being purple in a world where there's only shades of red and shades of blue, you kinda fit in both groups but don't really fit in either, and have to strain to emphasize some parts of yourself while concealing the others in order to integrate. Dumb analogy I know but I really feel like there's no camp of "people like me" out there and like I'm forever going to be floating around skimming by other people's tribes while never finding a home of my own.
No. 2226794
>>2226725I used to be a big ball of existentialism, wondering my purpose and if I'm enough. What the legacy of mothers to daughters beginning since gender became a thing and ended up with me. I stopped caring. Apathy is freedom. If I die, I die. Let the worms feast on my corpse like I ate other animals.
I feel similarly to the afterlife. I have no power over it so I don't care about it.
I care about what I can control or have influence in and don't care about other things. So much of online media is tricking you into caring about nonsense that doesn't effect you or you can't do anything about.
>>2226755Nonnie here put it more succinctly and less nihilistic than me
No. 2226850
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I hate Halloween. It's been nothing but fireworks all weekend. My pets are terrified. My house got hit by two fucking rockets tonight. Fucking Purge scrote larpers. Police come out and do your job ffs.
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>>2226856fuck that faggot, Happy birthday nona!
No. 2226866
>>2226856Even if he has been having to use your card, someone thoughtful would've found a way to make a little money and set it aside for your birthday gift. We live in a digital era where it's a million ways to make money (even if just a little bit of it), someone who really cares would've figured something out. I remember being dead broke and jobless, and still scrounging up a few dollars to buy birthday gifts kek.
Anyway, happy birthday anon. I hope you get yourself something nice.
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>>2226856dump that loser and twist the knife, you are about to have such a good year w/o him. HAPPY BIRTHDAY nonna!
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>>2226856Happy birthday nona, please gift yourself some freedom and dump that scrote!
No. 2226888
>>2226856Happy birthday nona, please dump that sack of shit. He couldn't even give you a handmade card?? With people like that, who needs enemies?
I hope you can treat yourself to a delicious meal and eliminate that excess moid from your life.
No. 2226892
>>2226856I'm really sorry this happened to you
nonnie. Dump him and take some solace in that you're not with a piece of shit like that anymore. Don't blame yourself, don't give him that. I've been there. You're not stupid.
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saw a petite ftm at the mall (didnt pass even slightly) who looked to be the same-ish age as me and had the testosterone voice too. idk why it made me kinda sad to see, maybe because i identified as ftm for a few years as a teenager and if my dad let me take testosterone i couldve been a similarly completely unpassing ftm with a frog voice and i almost certainly wouldve killed myself by now. i hope she doesnt regret doing that to herself but she probably will at some point
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>>2226856Hope you’re looking forward to dumping him
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143 pounds and i ruined my last chance with my bf probably
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>PCOS be like
No. 2227185
>>2227182>I hope liver failure doesn't hurt too muchit will
>I hope I don't end up crippledyou will
No. 2227216
>Order artwork from reputable artist that I've used more than a dozen times in the past.
>Since she's impressed me in the past, I ordered something bigger and paid $300.
>She gives me an estimated completion time of 1 week.
>120 days later she has still not finished my commission nor has she sent me any communications.
>"Artist, why have you taken so long?"
>"My nigel broke a bone so I have had to take care of him! I promise I'll be done in a week!"
>Another 30 days pass.
>She's been posting other commissions that were ordered after mine.
>I still no artwork.
Pissed off doesn't even begin to describe how I'm feeling. You think someone is reputable and professional and business-orientated, and then they pull stuff like this. And of course it goes back to some chickenshit moid that can't take care of himself. It's so annoying because I've been waiting on this artist to finish my commission to launch my business website, her artwork was supposed to feature prominently on my site, but after all this I don't know whether to just cut my loses and create a dispute for a refund and look elsewhere. It's one thing to be late with a commission, and if she had just told me from the beginning that it would take extra time, or that she had personal issues that made it difficult to work, I wouldn't be so angry. It's the fact that she's been radio silent, sent one bullshit excuse message in 4 month, and is posting all this other artwork that was ordered after mine. It's the fact that our business relationship goes back 2 years and that there was never a problem until now when I sent her a larger sum of money.
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>>2227301Do you not keep underwear for your period?
Instead of chucking out stained ones I just wear them when I'm on
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>>2227312I can usually tell a couple of days before I'm about to start so I will start wearing the stained underwear then
You should note down the date you start your period so you can wear your worst undies around that time next month and start your stained collection
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I hate that my mom won't ever take the time to learn something herself. She bought a cricut almost two years ago and has barely used it. I told her that it probably has a learning curve. She's going to have to play with it and look for written tutorials/video tutorials online. God forbid she does that. She just wants to press a fucking button and be done. It pisses me off when she calls other people lazy yet she's no different. Why is it beneath her to try and figure this out herself? She doesn't do anything other than scroll Facebook and watch stupid ass videos from TikTok.
No. 2227366
i underfried my eggs and they were all gross and slimy in some places. i had to spit out a few bites, what a waste
>>2227182please don't do it anon. you'll either
a) die slowly and VERY painfully in your own puke
b) survive, lie there in your own puke until someone finds you and calls an ambulance, then they'll wash your stomach and you'll still end up crippled.
i know someone who did it and she got option B. there's no easy and painless way to die. i'm no good at encouraging speeches so i won't even try but i hope i at least somewhat discouraged you from killing yourself
>I don't think I could be able to throw myself from the buildinggood, think of the cleaning lady who will have to scrape your remains from the ground and all the kids traumatized from seeing them. not cool.
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Aaaah I hate my periodddddd why did I remove my IUD I’m so stupid I had no periods and no stupid mood swings now I feel like killing myself every time it comes around fuck you uterus I’m not having a stupid baby ever stupid stupid stupid
No. 2227566
>>2227182> hope liver failure doesn't hurt too muchIt fucking hurts and most likely won’t work, they’ll have to pump your stomach and you’ll feel like shit. And if your liver ends up being too damage then it’s even worse , because you’ll need a transplant that they’ll probably won’t give you.
If you so happen to successfully do it, it will be a slow and painful death. Taking pills isn’t worth it.
No. 2227575
>>222729731 and not a KHV but still a virgin, you just get used to it and become apathetic about it.
Why do people equate celibacy in women with lesbianism? Lesbians date and fuck, this is not the XIXth century anymore
although I would consider being confused for a lesbian a compliment No. 2227595
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>>2227301Nona buy period panties, they're a god send! My period has never been as easy to deal with since I got them, I'm never going back. They're a bit expensive but worth every penny! I never have to pay for pads or tampons ever again so in the end it's cheaper. I've had my period panties for like 4 years now and they're still going strong, not a single pad/tampon needed!
Get at least 3 pairs so you can wash and change daily during your period. Make sure they're for minimum a medium flow, none of that light flow business. I used to bleed through and ruin everything I own but since I got period panties I haven't bled through anything even once! I no longer walk around paranoid that my clothes will be ruined or that people will see the blood through my pants or that my bedsheets will get stained.
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I've been seeing the same psychologist for so long and I'm always so shy about everything but he's retiring soon so I've felt a bit braver lately. Last session he asked me about stuff I'd usually just not answer out of fear of him not understanding or me crying while talking about it, one of the topics is how much distrust and hatred I have towards men. I was scared he'd be offended or "not all men" me but he completely understood, agreed with me, and understood how that impacts how I plan my future. I even mentioned this woman I learned about recently who beheaded her rapist and how much I love her and that case and he laughed and completely understood where I was coming from. I'm so relieved he understands and let me talk about this stuff, but at the same time I'm sad I didn't mention it sooner. I've had years I could have spent discussing through these things with him but wasted them because I was too scared. Although talking about it won't change anything, it's still nice to open up but also bittersweet because he's the only one who I feel like understands my stance on a lot of things. I know it's dumb to trust a moid with these types of things, and maybe I'm retarded for doing so but I actually trust him.
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>>2227523My condolences, I’ve given you ten Hail Marys sister.
No. 2227931
>>2227790this is one of the numerous reasons why i can't stand smartphones as a concept. a device people always have in their hands where you can just easily film any moment at an instant without care or consideration of the feelings of people around you. i'm annoyed at the fact that she used you not having kids as some stupid strawman argument to immediately dismiss your incredibly reasonable opinion. not having kids doesn't make you unaware of why what she is doing is wrong. you have a say in that. what she's doing is not right. she can update and involve her friends and family on her children through communication, or various other methods like inviting them over to play or anything else. what she's doing is lazy, disrespectful and nonsensical. this shit pisses me off, i don't blame you for being put off by it. it's disturbing to think about and makes me relieved that smartphones weren't a thing until i was an adult because i would fucking hate that shit if i was the kid in that position and grew up knowing people had videos of me crying in their camera reels. i still can't get over her saying just because you don't have kids of your own it means you don't understand. i think she's the one who doesn't understand boundries. it's bullshit. imagine someone hitting their child and someone intervenes and they said "you don't understand, i'm doing this out of love, i hit my child because i care. you wouldn't know, you don't have kids"
>>2227820>Next time she is telling you something sad or personal pull out your phone and go "just gonna film it and send this to mom, keep talking" and see if she gets offended or notkek'd, seconding this suggestion
No. 2227945
>>2227929Kek nonnelle this is my family too
> sure is a nice day/what’s for dinner/how’s auntie> did you hear what trump did!God I just want it to stop, kind of hope he loses so I don’t have to deal with this every day every five goddam minutes for the next five years.
No. 2227987
>>2227964to me this is the only sane opinion. i had someone in another country message me asking me who i was voting for and i didn't respond but i felt my blood boiling over. i wanted to put my hands through the monitor and strangle them, especially because they're in a far better off country. like go back to your little utopia and leave me the fuck alone. stopped talking to them shortly after that
it's shit like this that makes me glad i don't talk to that many people and i've shut out every person who can't keep politics out of their mouths because i'm sick and tired of everyone caring way too much about which dipshit gets to sit in a chair and jerk off in it for 4 years
No. 2227990
>>2227790When I’d struggle with my maths and reading while my dad “helped” me if I had trouble he’d mock and yell at me for being stupid and if I burst into tears he’d find the rest of the family to come and laugh and shame me for crying. It really helped me develop zero emotional self regulation and zero relationship skills. Guess what I thought was normal at 15 when my friend burst into tears because her dad died? I laughed at her and told her she was being ridiculous because that’s what people did to me in my own fucking family when my grandpa passed.
She is modeling bad coping mechanism and relationship dynamics. Does she want her kids filming her when she’s struggling and sharing it with people to mock and shame her for being human? Because that’s what she’s teaching. Time for her to grow the fuck up and be an adult maybe.
No. 2227999
>>2227990i feel for you nona. sorry you had to go through that and i know just what you're talking about. it's straight up bad behavior. wonder how she'd feel when she's so old she's shitting herself and instead of helping her, those kids are filming her saying "my mom so old she shit herself!". by the mother's logic they're simply updating the family on how she's doing!
her lack of boundries is hurting her children and eventually i kind of hope it comes back to bite her because i agree, she needs to grow the fuck up. that's not acceptable behavior at all.
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>>2227987>go back to your little utopia and leave me the fuck alonethis. i hate people who live in a much better place than me try to lecture me about what goes on in my country. you have free university and free healthcare. kiss my ass spoiled brat.
No. 2228058
>>2228014ayrt and couldn't agree more. i used to be primarily friends with brits and euros in nice countries who spent way too much time caring about american politics to the point where it's actually concerning. like your hobby is lecturing me over it and caring about shit that doesn't even affect your daily life at all, not even slightly? the swedes i used to know have enough time and money to not be working, live in their own places, have expensive hobbies like making tea, owning dozens of plants, 3d printing, gunpla, you name it… all while having social lives. one of them was so terminally on twitter and spent all their time talking politics. like it was 95% of the shit they ever talked about. like go and water your plants and shut the fuck up holy shit why do you care so much about my corrupted shithole country.
>kiss my ass spoiled brat.fucking exactly that. so glad i talk to none of those fuckers anymore. terminally online tards who don't have to worry about student loans and yet they start preaching to the americans like they know what it's like to be in this position
>>2228005completely agree with you nona. also
>My brother has taken to yelling at people to shut up at the first sign it’s getting political kek.kek, based
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moving on up in the world, ladies!
another day, another chip at my waning optimism.
No. 2228260
>>2228233Ayrt, I realised that after I posted, sorry nonna. Do keep in mind though is if it’s a troon psyop it’s not actually women saying it and a lot of people do push back on it. So rest assured not everyone is falling for it
(but I agree it’s becoming too common place, we know scrotes just plan to use it as a cover to rape women and girls, everything they do is motivated by their dicks hardness).
No. 2228310
>>2228285It’s woke in the sense that
>you should not kinkshame!!!>so what if he has a bestiality kink?! It’s not like he’s truly hurting animals, it’s all a fantasy teheheh>so what if he has incest fantasies!? It’s not like it harms anyone , loosen up prude >you’re a prude if you say no to sex >porn is educational, even children should watch it>porn is a right!>sex work is work yass!>she literally wants it dude! It’s just like any job and she enjoys it too. >mh puppy girl that eats from dog bowl>those are not real children , they’re just drawingThat’s the wokeness for you kek. At this point I truly wish for a reactionary extreme movement, I’d rather be a prude than whatever shit is going on right now.
No. 2228322
>>2228310A reactionary extreme movement is just the same shit with more mendacity.
>"Well we need a class of prostitutes so the men don't go crazy, but we are fine and upstanding!" >insane human trafficking rates, CP production, no rights for women, women who speak out about being raped/abused are seen as "impure" or just lyingThe problem will always be men and pickmes, we need a way to rein them in.
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I'm so fucking furious at my mother. Sometimes I hate her so fucking much. She's too much of a goddamn coward to confront the people shes's actually mad at, so when I do something that reminds her of something much worse they did, she takes it out on me and just fucking berates me for like half an hour. She gets angry when I apologize, and she gets angry when I cry, because she thinks that crying is just me being manipulative. When she was grilling me yesterday, I actually got a headache from how hard I was clenching my jaw to keep from crying. Here's an example:
>her friend was 45 minutes late to dinner one day, which really upset her
>she says very little about it to this friend, but complains about it to everyone else for a week
>yesterday, I was five minutes late for something
>she harshly berates me for it, bringing up every time I've been slightly late for something in the past two months
I'm so tired of being her punching bag because she's a chicken shit who's only willing to get angry at someone she has power over and who can't get away (me.) She knows that being an autist fucks up my perception of time, and that I'm working hard to improve my time management skills. Her bitch friend isn't autistic, she's just inconsiderate, but my mom is terrified of looking impolite in front of her worthless friends, so she lets them walk all over her. She's happy to treat her family like shit though, and thinks that buying people things is a pass to do so. My brother and I aren't allowed to be mad at her or out stepdad for ANYTHING, because they bought us stuff and that apparently absolves them from criticism.
I'm tired of being told that I'm not allowed to have emotions, that the very act of displaying my emotions to others is manipulative. I'm tired of being nitpicked for everything I do, and for this wretched woman stockpiling every mistake I've ever made just to throw it back in my face when she decides to berate me because she's angry at someone else and wants to let off steam. She claims her ~memory is failing~ because she's old, but somehow manages to remember every single tiny way everyone's wronged her in 60 years, just so she has ammunition in arguments. Her memory is just fucking fine, she just doesn't care to remember anything but her fucking grievances.
I'm tired to her until one of us is dead because she gave birth to me and raised me. But if we weren't related, I wouldn't even want to be her acquaintance. She sucks away my self-esteem until I'm a fucking empty husk. The people she dates/marries go from being vibrant people to sad, lazy husks because she's so good at just gradually wearing away your sense of self until you feel like a worthless sack of shit. God. I'm so fucking angry at her. I'm angry at my horrible retarded grandparents for abusing her and making her like this. She hates when I show any affection for my dad, but he never does any of this to me.
No. 2228379
>>2228257Honestly I just kind of froze up when I saw the first barrage of pedo posts on /g/ because they were so completely against the vibe of this place. Hard time processing there was no immediate pushback. Adult women saying it's 'based' to groom kids like they are bargain basement discord freakshows?
>>2228272It's going to be hilarious when in a couple of years they get publicly named out by the abusees.
No. 2228449
>>2227608>Nta but with these don't you just sit in your blood all day? I have a heavy flow (with clots too)I also have a heavy flow, but with my heavy flow period panties I honestly can't feel it at all. They're so much more absorbent and feel nothing like pads to me. Changing them once a day has been enough for me. I often wear one pair through the night and one during the day, so it's basically over a 12h period each. Though I have forgotten to change them and been fine going 2 days in the same pair before.
>>2227607>I use Saalt brand and i have tried the small and regular which is the biggest size and i still bleed through.Idk about that brand, but I use thinx (heavy flow) at the beginning of my period when it's the heaviest, and femaleengineering (medium flow) towards the end. So far I've been safe without bleed throughs!
I'm honestly considering changing all my regular panties to period panties (light/medium flow) because they also catch all other vaginal discharge or random mid cycle spotting.
No. 2228469
>>2228438>I fucking can't stand the fact that I have a vaginaOut of the options of vagina and dick, vagina is the better option to me. The thought of having a weird outgrowth in your crotch that you can feel at all times is terrifying and gross. The fact that you'd have to tuck it into one of your pant legs every day, that your balls will smack your legs when you run around and that if you see someone you fancy people can tell because now you have a visible boner - it's all so gross to me. A vagina just exists and is neutral, it's so much better.
>Everyone thinks every women will tolerate to being forced to have sex with menNona most women rightly think men are pigs, and will tell you to NEVER do anything sexual you don't want to do. You sound like you live in a shitty third world country, I think you should move.
No. 2228470
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My boyfriend's brother is a dick to me idk why but he's always getting huffy around me like I smell bad and I'm ugly and stupid and my presence offends him. Why so people act like this for no reason? I am so confused. I have been nothing but kind albeit a little shy around him/
No. 2228571
>>2228531I can masturbate just to let stress out or if I’m bored kek. I don’t really watch anything when I do. I just start and then I get more wet as time goes on, I might use some saliva or lube to help out.
I’ve recently started to listen to audios though and those do work in getting me aroused, but I have to take ages before I find a good voice and a nice scenario (I only like sweet things kek). Porn does literally nothing, I do not consume it, I watched some videos a couple of years ago but they never did anything, it just looks so crude and violent no matter what.
No. 2228668
>>2228544There's been a few times thats worked but usually it takes a significant amount of effort and patience. Fingering has never done anything for me. Shower heads have never done anything for me either. Literally only two ways - rubbing thighs or vibrator. Both which give me only like some 2 second "orgasm" and then I can't even go anymore.
>>2228571I listen to audios too and end up sifting through them as well.
>I can masturbate just to let stress out or if I’m bored kekThat's probably it. I often masturbate out of habit and not even because I'm turned on or anything.
No. 2228821
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>>2228758Me too nona it’s really not the same anymore but she beckons me with her siren call and I keep coming back…
No. 2228940
>>2227595>>2227608I have no idea how people cope with pads or period underwear. The feeling of sitting in my own slimy blood makes my skin crawl. I exclusively use tampons. I don't care that it's wasteful, or that there are chemicals, or what the fuck ever. I don't want to wallow in filth and I don't want to fucking boil a cup on the stove. If moids are allowed to waste a bajillion tissues jerking off all day, I can use goddamned tampons. I refuse to be green-shamed over basic hygiene and comfort, and I refuse to be slut-shamed for sticking things in my vagina.
>>2228449>I have forgotten to change them and been fine going 2 days in the same pair before.Holy shit, you must smell absolutely horrible, wearing underwear drenched in two days worth of period blood. I actually gagged when I read this.
No. 2228974
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>>2228940Sad because I can’t use tampons anymore because my flow is extremely heavy with major clotting and I’ve developed vaginismus. As a teen I could be fine with just a tampon but now I’m over here feeling like I’m wearing a diaper. Always the super long nighttime ones.
No. 2229224
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I keep tripping while going up the stairs. What the fuck is my problem.
No. 2229272
>>2229161pedo tranny bait opener
>>2229188pedo tranny bait main body
>>2229227pedo tranny bait conclusion
I knew the collateral damage spin doctors would come after the subject quieted down. Y'all were way too quiet once you got called out compared to the onslaught of teen-chasing pedophilia on /g/ for the past couple of months.
(infighting/scrotefoiling/bait) No. 2229306
>>2229272I'm neither of those things, even literally said I'm not interested in teens but you won't believe me regardless. I only replied late because I was busy earlier and didn't see the post.
>>2229283I don't know how to change..tbf I don't plan on dating anyone and just fantasize over actors, musicians, and cartoons. I'll probably die in a looney bin either way.
No. 2229309
>>2229283>Yeah you are weird for not being capable of loving another human being.>implying moids are humanYou people are so fucking insufferable holy shit. When have moids ever given a shit about women? Women in a relationship have to disrupt their hormones, deal with the risk of getting pregnant, do most if not all of the emotional labour while your nigel is eatching teen rape porn. At least
>>2229282 has a better point that moids no matter what age are parasitic and its better to just not date them at all but if youre gonna get with a scrote the least he can do is be hot and not be bald. A man's idea of love is how much a woman is willing to do for him while him being able to get away with reciprocating as little as possible. A moid asking you about your day and tell you are pretty is nowhere near comparable to the sacrifices women make for their nigels.
No. 2229313
>>2229283Idk nonna, it really isn't that easy. Attractiveness has something to do with attraction to some extent otherwise everyone would have a bf/gf at any time in their lives because only of personality.
And we all have noticed how an ugly moid can pretend to be nice and then show his true colors once you're married/have kids with it. So may as well get someone who is at least attractive.
And yeah, only focusing on an age group is cringe, but that doesn't mean you should always be with a moid who is ugly only because there's no gap or because the gap is accepted by many.
And I'm not saying everyone should just date teenagers, but I don't really see what's the big deal of being 30 and liking a 23 years old moid when they're usually already graduated from college even.
No. 2229325
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Go back to twitter to shill your fat haggard moids. Women dont age like this, why should we settle for this?(wrong thread)
No. 2229334
>>2229316Plus they tend to have worse personalities so the whole "loving how a person is" thing doesn't apply.
>>2229319I don't, and am not even a blackpiller. Is it really that rare to want a cute boyfriend?
No. 2229406
>>2228967>are you always aware of the tampon?I can sometimes feel the string brush against my thigh, but otherwise I basically forget about it. As far as TSS goes, my understanding is that in the 60s, tampon companies were claiming that you could wear their tampon for a week without changing it, and it's the people who did that who got TSS. I think the tampon companies may have been sued over it, too.
>>2229041I can't speak for everyone, but the string prevents me from forgetting about it, mainly because it gets in the way when you pee. When you go to the bathroom, you're going to remember that you're wearing a tampon. Still, I suppose it's possible for the string to fall off (though it's never happened to me personally.)
No. 2229427
>>2226725life is a gift, anon. its a truism but honestly, life is amazing. its just a brief glimpse in the grand scheme of time but what ann honour to get to be here at all. i love it here, even though it is unbelievably scary.
>>2227182youll die anyway, why not make the most of the time you have? you literally only live once. liver failure is horribly painful and slow. any method will have unpredictable consequences.
i had a serious suicide attemptlast year and am still dealing with health problems because of it. it put a lot of things in perspective for me, but ultimately i really regret harming myself like that as i will likely deal with the effects for a long time. No. 2229441
>>2229428If you were actually living your so called best life you would be with your young men, having wonderful dreamy sex and getting your pussy licked unprompted, yet you aren’t, you’re here talking about dick left and right, it’s annoying.
An older attractive woman would just fuck a young moid, without a care because, rather than crying about “muh society!” “I deserve young men!” .
No. 2229461
>>222945330 get called uggo because of
>>2229325 . Go ahead post a man your age you find attractive
No. 2229481
>>2229446>>2229461>>2229462Not gonna post random men I know that look good because that would be weird. I’m not terminally online and don’t know any celebs by age or name so I have no reference there either. Try living in the real world and unironically touch grass. Or leave whatever shithole area you live in where every man looks like shit the moment they’re past the age of 25.
>>2229472Where do you even find faggots like that? Please get offline and stop reading incel bullshit it’s rotting your brain. Or leave whatever Bible Belt area you’re in.
No. 2229484
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>>2229438'normal men' still want young women regardless of their age. Picrel was the dating age preferences from ok cupid. The point I'm trying to make here is you need to accept that a small demographic of women wanting younger men because they find them atttractive does not equal a satantic-panic style "pedo push" you're trying to convince yourself of. Men are still overwhelmingly predators, yes, even those 'normal men' you hope exist.
No. 2229501
>>2229491>NOT ALL MEN!!!!go back to twitter pickme chan, we arent blind or retarded. Try defending moids all you want but they will never choose you if you dont subject to their insane beauty standards. All your talk about wanting moids for their personality and they will never do the same for you.
>>2229495lol yes sure anon because when i go to the beach all i see is hairy women, i also see hairy women all the time on movies. Stop lying, if you like ugly old men good for you but women are allowed to have standards just like how moids are.
No. 2229507
>>2229481Being in the real world is how I noticed all the ugly men tho.
>>2229494still don't understand why it's hard to believe women would like men in their 20s.
feels like you just want anons to post their boobs again tbh even Twilight and beiber fangirls back in the day were sometimes late-20s, 30s and older.
No. 2229522
>>2229520a small amount of moids fetishizing body hair proves literally nothing. I have no idea what you want to prove with that when the beauty standard for women is to be fully shaved.
>>2229516sure anon, sure. I totally believe you. Bet your dad also works at nintendo too.
No. 2229523
>>2229516Funny, because you have single handedly made me realise how thankful I am to be me.
>Maybe limit your dating pool to people born in the early-mid 90s that aren’t horrible?I wasn't born in the 90s.
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Can I just say that I think ex-military moids who brag about what they use to do in the military make me want to physically cringe from the inside out? I have a moid at my work who brags about getting his Sergeant Major fired, and I can see the pride in his face and eyes every time he tells that story. I can see it in his eyes that he wants everyone to clap when he tells that story. I instinctively find it pathetic and sad when current/ex military people or military brats brag about anything related to the military.
No. 2229567
>>2229549one of them used to be okayish until he got fat, the other has a beard which is ugly to me.
>>2229560>you shouldn’t aspire to be with a man in the first placesome of us are hetero anon. it's just a fantasy for me.
No. 2229575
>>2229567I am too, but it’s fucking pathetic how you’re all licking young men’s asses for what? Nothing.
They’re more good looking, sure, but that’s about it. Yet you’re here acting like they’re the best thing after sliced bread, which will totally change your mind and amaze you. Try to stop thinking about dick for once and you’ll actually do something with your life.
(derailing) No. 2229612
>>2229589>you don't need sex to be fulfilledtell that to your promiscuous fags who can't go 10 seconds without sticking their dick in a 13 year boy prostitute. They are the ones who need to be fully castrated.
Women are not going to force themselves into asexuality to make repressed bitches like you comfortable.
No. 2229625
>>2229621how can an adult be groomed
>>2229620farmhand said "all discussion", idk
No. 2229653
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>when forced into a social situation, everyone likes me and gets along well with me
>am well liked at work
>try to branch out to new social group to make friends
>nobody wants to talk to me
i feel like a radiate some autistic aura or something. when people are forced to talk to me they end up liking me a lot but when it's a more natural setting nobody wants to talk to me. i tried joining a local craft group and they barely even acknowledged my existence.
No. 2229679
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I got a new job that I’m not really excited about it, but the pay and hours are decent. I was hired within two days, which was already a classic red flag. They told me on the phone and via email that my first day was 10/28 at 11:30 AM, which was yesterday. I showed up and trained with a group of others for the position. Then they kept pulling me out of the group like 3x saying that I am on the wrong day and I'm not supposed to me there. This guy demanded to see the email they sent me for proof (picrel), which only mentioned the date, not the time. He said, "oh yeah, I can see how that wording is confusing." Seriously? It clearly states my first day is today. Sorry I didn't record the phone call where they explicitly told me to come in for training at 11:30. That’s why I was there. Like I said, I actively trained with a group for that position on 10/28. How would I know the orientation was 10/28 at 11:30 if no one told me that? A fucking crystal ball? After that, this girl pulled me aside who also seemed annoyed & on the verge of rolling her eyes the entire time. The attitude of the entire office was that I messed up. Was I supposed to ignore the instructions I was given? Out of anxiety, I actually emailed the recruiter to confirm the time/date/location 2 hours before I went in but she didn't respond, so I went above and beyond to stay on top of things. Ignoring the fact that I was told to come in 11:30 10/28 for training didn't make any sense.
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Trying to sneak medication into my cat’s food and the little shit refuses to eat it. The ONE time this fat fuck says no to food. IT’S FOR YOUR OWN GOOD GODDAMMIT.
No. 2229818
>>2229746If they treat you like a retarded toddler, it means they don't see you as your own person, they see it as their duty to push you onto the 'right' path. It's not going to stop until you give them a taste of their own medicine, whether it's discussing their personal issues with your parents behind their backs or signing them up for Tumble Tots because they used to do gymnastics when they were five. Even if you talk to them, it's not going to help if they don't see you as being capable of making your own rational decisions.
Or it could be because you're just not that close, and they don't know what you like nowadays or how else to bond with you. Maybe you could suggest a family weekend away, or go see a play or something if a weekend with them sounds too awkward.
You know your family better than I do. It's hard to tell if they're trying to get close to you again or if they're assholes. I'd err on the side of caution and assume they're doing this to be nice, buuut if that's not the case, nothing's stopping you from forcing inconvenient appointments on them.
No. 2229905
>>2229889I actually dropped a friend because she has a kid, she tried to reconnect with me but it just doesn't work anymore. I'm not the kind of person that loves talking about children and our lives have been really different for a long time already.
It's only when you see a young woman with a kid that you see how life changes the moment you're pregnant even, I truly can't relate no matter how much I try, so maybe you shouldn't try to think too much about it, she's busy raising a whole human, of course she won't have the time to reply to you.
Maybe you should take this as a sign to try and connect with another person.
No. 2229934
I was changing a fuse in my car's panel while screaming at my boyfriend on the phone (not for anything he did, I'm just very rude) and this fucking reddit-user-looking fat 35 year old scrote parks his car beside mine in an empty lot and starts walking towards me. I'm in such a weird fucking spot because the panel is under the right hand side of my steering column, so I'm crunched right in there like a shrimp. This fag starts waving at me to open my door, even though I was ignoring him while yelling "THE FUCKING DEE ARR AYY SLASH ESS ONE!" into my phone but he persisted, so I yelled "WHAT?" at him, and he says, "You have a handkerchief hanging from your door." YOU STUPID UGLY PISS-HAIRED RETARD, I FUCKING SEWED IT THERE. IT'S AN IDENTIFIABLE FLAG. WHY WOULD YOU THINK THIS IS NEWS TO ME? HOW COULD THAT POSSIBLY HAPPEN BY ACCIDENT? I wanted to fucking lose it on him for fucking speaking to me about ANYTHING. There could be an infant tied to my car door and I do not think it would be appropriate to fucking speak to me while I'm in such a scenario. So I just said, "Yeah, I know." and slammed my door. Like shit dude wow you found an excuse to talk to me. If this were the animal kingdom I would have shredded him apart like a honey badger. Anyway, it wasn't even the fucking fuse at the end of the day and now I have to take the entire door apart to access the window actuator. I wish were invisible, that would make car work easier but also spooky for the onlooker.
No. 2230028
>>2230010Short answer: No. Long answer:
Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
No. 2230049
>>2230010> Outside of these circumstances, though, I far prefer to be isolated. I spend almost all my free time alone and hate the chore of maintaining relationships. Romantic relationships seem like an even bigger chore than family or friendsHell no. You sound like someone who enjoys their free time far to much. Having a family will hinder that sincerely, a baby even more. If you think that a relationship is too much work you aren’t ready for children.
>>2230010> When I'm old, there will be no one to look out for me and call the ambulance if they notice me having a stroke or something.That’s not a good reason. You can start saving money right now for a caretaker in the future, seems more sane than whatever you’re thinking. Also having children doesn’t mean that you’ll have a caretaker, if you end up birthing a scrote? Guess you’ll have the stroke at home alone all the same kek.
No. 2230088
>>2230028>>2230038>>2230049>>2230051Thank you anons, my morality(?) has always been fucked up so this honestly helps. I will invest crazy money into retirement accounts and figure out how to plan for a potential caretaker instead. Unfortunately, I live in a conservative area, and I literally don't know any women who have chosen to remain completely single throughout their adult lives. I have no one to ask about these things, so I ended up here, lol.
I've just been in my head about this problem for a while. Ever since my mom figured out that I don't want a family, I can't talk to her without listening to her catastrophizing about how I'll have zero backup plan, and how it's most likely going to end up horribly for me. My family history is full of dementia and other problems that can completely derail your life once you get old enough.
If it makes me sound less like a psycho, I actually don't mind taking care of kids. I have taken care of other family members' kids for weeks at a time. Sometimes I feel like it would be nice to have a daughter, and for my family to just be her and me. It's the moid in any potential family situation that I would probably end up resenting. I just don't have an intrinsic desire to play the role required in a long-term committed relationship.
You guys are right, though, that I'll most likely enjoy my life being childfree a lot more.
>>2230065I was a mistake lmao (but I do actually play the role of caretaker for my aging parents.)
No. 2230101
>>2230093Thank you guys for reassuring me about this decision. I would insert a semi-ironic prayer hands emoji here, but I think I would get banned.
I'm planning to move out of my current area eventually. I'll look for like-minded women both irl and online who can give me advice for this type of lifestyle. I'm in a good career field with good options for retirement accounts, so I'm certain I'll end up fine on the financial front. Everything else, I will figure out eventually.
No. 2230156
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the resurgence of scene fashion always looks off because the makeup isn't being executed properly. the most fancy you'd get back in the day would be with the lashes, and that wasn't even all the time. it was usually just foundation, eye liner(pencil), and mascara. not even blush! and it almost always looked like picrel (idk who she is). do it right if you're going to at all, god damnit!
No. 2230197
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Im wondering how some of you can still trust and genuinely love men that arrive into your life. The only man I can say I care about right now is my father and that's because he's been a rare example of a man that actually cares about my mother. I work in healthcare and I see on a daily basis the disregard men have for women they've been married decades to. They usually leave the room or treat any process their wife is going through as a waste of time. Yet most of the time, it's the wife taking care of her husband, putting his health first, keeping track of his medications. I have yet to see a man as involved with his sick wife's care. That usually goes to their children. I also have a lot of trauma being with men. Ive had men Ive trusted cheat, take advantage of me, force me to have sex with them when I was ill and unwilling. I hope I meet a nice Nigel one day if they even truly exist. I dont think I ever will though. I think good men are actually extremely rare and probably snatched up and married already. I also genuinely believe if men could vote for policies and laws that would limit our rights, so they could have control over us and make it easier to rape and force us to marry them, they would. I genuinely believe at least 98% of them would gladly go for that. I just feel so mixed up and depressed. I would like a happy life with a partner and live some type of "dream life" with a Nigel, but It's hard to believe that's possible anymore.
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life is very painful when you like everybody else more than they like you
No. 2230241
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I keep mispronouncing words and names I've never seen before, and everyone keeps laughing at me for it.
No. 2230443
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Every time my sister opens her mouth to say anything at all, I'm reminded of why I don't like teenagers. Don't have siblings.
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Today my fiancé revealed himself to be a huge bpdchan in a really messed up way. Do I leave and bet absolutely everything on the wish that my life will be okay or do I stay in my picture perfect from a distance relationship and potentially ruin my chance at holding down a job?
I don’t mean to sound dramatic but the choice is between guaranteed financial ruin plus hate from my family and loved ones vs the “potential” of financial ruin and the same hate from family and loved ones if this happens again.
And for everyone who’s gonna respond with “your bad choices lead you into this mess!!!1!” Just don’t because they didn’t. He didn’t act like this for 5 fucking years. I seriously want to alog every neet femstraggot on here who downplays how hard it is for victims of abuse to leave. “Just leave you dumb cunt your continued dicksucking is why radfeminism is failing!!!!” It’s failing because my options are so poor that I’m more likely to opt out of life than to join your lofty cause.
No. 2230672
I'm turning 30 tomorrow and in addition to birthday blues, I am getting societal-expectations blues.
I don't have anything my family keeps nagging me about. No husband or kids or even a car. Just an apartment, moderately paying job, two cats and a long-term gf, which is great by my standards, but not great apparently if you're turning 30.
I've dealt with a lot of chaos and depression in my life, a lot of awful times and near-death experiences, I can't believe I am even here still, turning to be 30.
It feels surreal, because to me what I have now is better than anything I've ever had, I am stable and even cautiously would call myself happy.
But people keep telling me that I am too old for certain things now, but also that I have wasted my life not getting things a "woman of my age" is supposed to have, apparently.
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India is a vomit inducing country. In more ways than one. Disgusting(racebait)
No. 2230777
>>2230675They give the kind of advice that lets women into
abusive and
toxic relationships.
No. 2230786
>>2230672>But people keep telling me that I am too old for certain things now,Fuck ‘em nonna. You are happy that’s more than enough. You aren’t too old to do anything.
There is no right away to live your 30s. I hate how people think that you’ve got to have everything figured out at that age when it isn’t true at all. 30 is that age where you’re starting to really adult kek, you might even have more money to actually do the things you like too.
I’m 21 rn but my life is in shambles kek, I’m in university, living with shitty roommates, depending on my mom and without any money of my own.
No. 2230787
>>2230785It must be something nonna
>soaking night sweatsPlease keep insisting, this is a pretty serious sign, that shouldn’t be ignored.
No. 2230850
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Counted chickens before they hatched and now I'm dead broke. I work freelance but works been slow these last couple of months, and none of the regular jobs I've applied to have answered. Beginning of this month I wasted money putting together a halloween costume because "I never do anything fun and this'll cheer me up!" just for this second half of the month to be so slow and depressing and kill any mood for going out. Normally I'd cut my losses and move on to have a fun night in with take out and movies, but I'm feeling the hole in my wallet. Too late to even resell the costume. Anyways even if I was gonna go out the bar I was planning to go to had halloween events LAST week. When did everyone decide Halloween would get pushed back? Things are so uncertain and up in the air and this is the part of getting older that I hate the most. I don't even know if I'll have the means to get my family their christmas gifts this year. Every time I talk to them and the subject or money or job prospects comes up I can tell they think I'm a loser with a crap degree who's wasting my life away with no marriage or kids to show for it (which I've never been interested in but that's always fallen on their deaf conservative ears)
No. 2230860
>>2230837It made me think that, because I’m going to have an exam about that topic among other things kek.
But it’s kind of crazy that they don’t exclude the more urgent type of diagnoses and it’s also crazy for a patient to have to seek out care and advocate for themselves before anyone ever takes them seriously.
Good luck nonna!
No. 2230918
>>2230529Tbh i find it hard he hid it perfectly for five years because men are fucking retarded, but leave. Don't do it immediately, only once its financially viable. You need to plan your life out and move accordingly. Don't believe a word out of his mouth, but try your best to not act differently around him, you don't want him to catch on to you. Can you open a secret savings account somewhere? Do you have a friend or family member you trust enough to help you? Staying is absolutely not an option, but don't just rush off in the dead of night with no plan unless he's
abusive. And if he's
abusive, are there woman's shelters/ any place thats safer than with him that you can stay at?
No. 2231021
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>>2230672your family sucks ass. youre doing pretty amazing actually, considering most people struggle with housing. but do you actually want any of those things they tell you you should have? unless you want marriage and be a mother 100% like another anon said above do not fall for the psyop. happy birthday
nonny No. 2231106
MOTHERFUCKER I am broke. I am broke broke broke. Nobody to blame but myself and my poor choices. And now I've set up a meeting with my landlord so we can talk about how my roommate and I are so goddamn broke our checks have bounced with her for the second time. This started when she held onto both of our rent checks for more than a month and then cashed them both, putting us in the negative, and we've been treading water ever since. I should have been smarter and given a bankers check because ultimately, it's our fault for not "following" the money. The landlord didn't technically do anything wrong. So tonight, I am going to just acknowledge that I owe her a shit tonne of money, and skip all my other bills this month, and give her what I can as soon as I can. I can't take out a loan, I have 10K in CC debt, I have 2k in car payment debt (that I don't have to pay until next year because I've paid ahead) and what's left is … begging on my hands and knees. FUCK. I need to sell some things and give her what I can.
Also, I am actually paranoid that a former friend knows that I post here. Well, maybe not paranoid, but it makes me wonder. I saw a series of instagram stories they posted, and I ranted and responded to them on LC, and then a few hours later, they were gone. It could be coincidence. One time I had a suspicion that they were sneaking around in my room while I was gone, so I left a note on my laptop that said "STOP LOOKING AT MY COMPUTER!". I never saw them react in any way that made me think they were snooping, but now I wonder and wonder. At least this is a place where I can be anonymous and if they want to point to whatever I posted, it's plausible deniability because I'm not sharing personal info about this bitch. But still. Fuck off, go back to pretending you're better than everyone else while saying that you hate yourself more than anyone else could.
No. 2231148
>work 10am to return home at 9pm yesterday
>notice laundry from evening prior still feels wet
>a dress, socks, bra, one heavy cloak so it is not overloaded the thick sherpa fabric is just being difficult and caused the other clothes to be wet still
>rerun the dryer
>fall asleep on couch from exhaustion
>wake up
>filing work orders and inspections from my phone from the couch which to my mother looks like I am idle which is the ultimate crime under her domain
>soon my mother's annoyed tone of voice bitching about my clothes still being in the dryer rings across the room
>on a Wednesday, when the pensioned retiree has nothing to do and no place to be and has no clothes to wash herself
>she mostly wears pajamas the whole year
>my clothes in the machines are very serious business and a complete affront to her
>she doesn't stop laying into me the whole time which causes me to say something annoyed back and I complain about her being so mean to me about it
>like why is this dramatic retard causing strife in our relationship over CLOTHES that have only been in the machine for a fucking night?
>of course when I accuse her of being mean she accuses me of being the mean one right back because how dare I not like how she talks to me however she wants
>then she continues her pity party to complain how I don't do anything nor never help her with shit which are hurtful lies
>then she complains about how I am never here, as if she and her acting like I soil the place with my mere existence is not good reason enough for me to be here as little as possible putting aside the fact that I WORK and leave the house
>but if I were a scrote like her pig brothers, she would happily clean up after me and cater to my every whim
>she angrily leaves to go buy cigarettes and drive down the street to complain at her brother's house about me also of course her family hates me
I wish she would just go find a 4th husband to divorce because I am sick of being her surrogate man that she takes all of her frustrations and grievances out on because she is pissed off at her own boring stupid life and expects me to constantly please her and fix it. She never apologizes and has a justification for any way she treats me.
She is a genuinely awful, miserable woman who should have never reproduced.
>inb4 just move out anon
I'm not sorry for living back home with her after my shitbag ex got his daddy to sue me for everything and driving me into unpayable debt. Had I been ever allowed under her rearing to establish boundaries or say no perhaps I wouldn't have found myself sharing property with a narcissistic abuser like herself in the first place. And also, don't feel sorry for her because she moved back in with my grandparents with baby me in tow after she left my biodad. I have memories of a whole entire apartment behind their house that I lived in for over a year (but ask her ungrateful ass about this and she claims my grandma was a Nazi who never somehow gave her privacy in a whole separate apartment). The only things I was allowed to bring into the guest bedroom were my dog, clothes, and toiletries.
I hate her nasty fucking guts.
No. 2231167
>>2230672I'm mid thirties and I would sum this stage up as the one where the race gets restarted for alot of people who once seemed 'ahead' Going by peers it's divorces, soon to be divorces, broken engagements, kids to coparent, houses to lose in the split. That's the shit you don't really think about earlier when you're racing to meet milestones and watching who is ahead of you in life. Plenty of people lose a job, lose a relationship, can't keep the mortgage, something pops up and bulldozes through the illusion that life is that linear. All the things we're taught to strive for take time to acheive but can be lost in no time after all of that. And you get back up.
You're not behind. Anyone over a certain age acting like it's as simple as 'do thing, achievement perma unlocked' is being blind to how often that's not the case. Nobody knows what tomorrow holds.. except for you tomorrow is your bday and you shouldn't spend it beating yourself up
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The worst part about WFH is how everyone thinks you’re now available to be their personal maid and secretary. I’m expected to do all my work AND clean the house AND do laundry AND make all the doctor/dentist appointments AND have dinner ready because I’m “at home all day!!”. Yes I am at home but I am working! When I start to push back and say no I get guilt tripped into oblivion about how hard it is for them to make their own doctors appointment because they’re on their feet all day like ok? That’s not my problem. Call the office on your lunch break or when you get off work. It’s not my fault that you’re stuck in retail.
No. 2231244
>>2230850Shit nonna, I feel ya. The recession has fucked everyone over big time, you're not the only one struggling and you're by no means a failure for it.
If you feel up to it, go out on Halloween anyway. Even walking around and doing a little photoshoot of yourself in your costume is better than leaving it to rot in a corner. You put time and effort into it, don't let your hard work go to waste!
I hope things pick up for you soon. Work tends to pick up a bit around Christmas, if not you can get a seasonal job to tide you over. If money's tight I wouldn't bother getting your family anything, or at least nothing expensive. You need to save for January and they don't expect anything of you anyway. There's no point trying to get their approval when all you're going to be met with is disappointment, might as well use that to your advantage. Do they like handmade gifts? When I was broke my go to gift was either a handmade bottled cookie mix or a cute mug with fancy hot chocolate and marshmallows and a pair of cute socks.
Wishing you the best nonna, go be spooky and have fun, things won't be miserable forever.
>>2230672Happy birthday! Misery loves company. If you had everything they nagged you about you bet your ass they'd find something else to pester you with. It's not the 90s any more, you don't have to pander to your family's delusions about the times we live in. Go enjoy your 30th with your girlfriend and your cats and let your family seethe that you're not tied down in a miserable relationship like they were at your age.
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My ovulation period was going soo well and then im just feeling terrible out of nowhere and i'm just interrupting my own fantasies with "that would never happen" and it takes imagining what plastic surgeries i would get before i start acting normal again.
No. 2231442
I feel guilty for judging another woman at the gym, but she bothered me a lot. Its a very small local gym, community oriented. The rules are simple and reasonable. They dont allow exposed midriffs, so no working out in only sports bras or whatever, and no excessive phone usage/pictures. The patrons are basically all neighbors (rec center, must live in the county). Girl and guy walk in, she is in a bra and leggings with full makeup. Guy moves the bench over to the smith machine (assisted squat rack) for her while she watches. Takes up a bunch of space doing this and has her stuff everywhere. She ends up doing hip thrusts using the smith machine and bench. She does this for like, half an hour lol. Selfies and stuff, you know the type. There are a lot of older retired people there and you could kinda tell they had never encountered influencer culture or seen anyone hump a barbell in the name of working out and they were uncomfortable. She hogs the same machine and corner of the very small gym the entire time I am there, thrusting at various angles. As I was leaving she was doing some standing thing, bending over with her legs locked and the bar on her back looking like she would break her neck if the bar wasnt supported and on a pulley. Just weird. I think women can wear what they want and workout how they like, but at the same time I felt an instinctual rage at her preformance. Like, if youre here to workout instead of having your bf watch you hump things from the corner… then just workout like a normal person lol. There was a weird vibe when they arrived.
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>>2229679I woke up to an email from the recruiter saying, "I been trying to reach you all day. Its important that you return my call, I need to speak with you." which made me lose it. I WAS FUCKING TRYING TO CONTACT HER ALL DAY YESTERDAY AND THE ISSUE WAS ON HER END. I CALLED HER 4 TIMES AND WE SPOKE THROUGH TEXT. I'm not even getting paid yet to be available 24/7 for this part-time job. I send this emailed attached with the screenshots where I called her 4 times and where we exchanged text messages, the fuck does she think she's doing trying to say I haven't been responsive in communicating with her??? I called her 4 times and sent her several texts yesterday. FUCK HER.
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I accidentally revealed my trigger in front of my friend's friends today and I'm so embarrassed. The conversation was over immediately but I just know that's gonna be all they remember from meeting me.
No. 2231575
>>2231549One day you will create your own family
>I would genuinely cut off a family member if they said something bad about a friendI hope you don't do this to your child
No. 2231577
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it's bizarre how compartmentalized zoomers are with basic concepts. people are really dynamic and varied in just about everything. taste in clothing, taste in food, in partners, in socialization, in everything. it's really tiring explaining these concepts to some of the zoomers i know.
No. 2231596
>>2231575…? I’m not having children.
>>2231566Aw, thanks. I’ve always thought being sweet just for the sake of it comes across as a little ingenuine sometimes. But I think it’s really good to show the people you love you care about them. I think they’re so precious.
No. 2231607
>>2231522Thank you for the kind words
nonny, it probably seemed worse than it actually was anyway. I hope we can meet up again because they seemed nice.
No. 2231609
>>2231549Anon, while I think this is a wonderful attitude that would bring a lot of joy to the right person, and be reciprocated, unfortunately other people are not uniformly like that. A lot of friend groups are somewhat shallow. And sometimes, the behavior you exhibit ends up pushing them away rather than being closer, probably because they wonder why you're caping so hard for them, and can't accept "friendship" as a
valid reason. It does hurt to have people not reciprocate that, but instead of throwing those behaviors at everyone and hoping it sticks, find someone who actually shows they appreciate your gestures.
I also want to say that there's a bit of intensity that seems like kind of a red flag (cutting off a family member for talking bad about a friend) because family members can sometimes be there as a reflecting pool for you. I think it's important to get your family's opinion on your friends IF they're people you can trust. If they aren't, well fuck them, their opinion doesn't mean shit. I hope you find another
nonny to make you smile the way you do for them.
No. 2231612
>>2231549>Or if a friend was having a bad episode in the middle of the night I would get out of bed and drive to them. And I wake up early on some days just so I can bake a cake for a friend or somethingAw
nonny! This is how I feel too, I often worry if I'm coming across as tryhard or something because I enjoy helping/doing stuff like this. Just be careful you don't get attached to someone who would take advantage of your kindness.
No. 2231636
>>2231621idk if this will help you, but this is the fastest thing that gets me out of that headspace-
Put on a bunch of dumb ass meme songs and enjoy them as unironically as possible. Chair dance and soak up the good vibes. Ocean Man. Carmelldansen. Numa Numa. World is Mine by Hatsune Miku. All Star by Smash Mouth. Fireflies by Owl City.
It's literally impossible for me to feel like I'm dying whilst vibing to Ocean Man.
No. 2231658
>>2231596>I’m not having childrenWell that explains why you try to compensate familial relationships with friendly ones
People do not and will not reciprocate your level of friendship because they have their families as their closest relationship
No. 2231672
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>>2231621Try a breathing exercise, it usually helps me when I am having an anxiety attack. Its going to be okay anon.
No. 2231700
>>2231677Not speaking from experience, I guess you could invest in community work like with church or charities or any organization. The same problem persists in that these people will be more like coworkers and transient in your life.
It sucks. There have been a few noted cases where people decide to be platonic life partners, but I have no idea where one would even go about finding that without random chance or getting taken advantage of.
No. 2231717
>>2231658I’m 20, no one has a family yet. Seems like you had an agenda you wanted to push here from the start. Weirdo.
>>2231701I don’t know who you’re trying to convince. That sounds miserable, I prefer friendship.
>>2231602>>2231609Thank you for your advice. To be fair, my relationship with my family is a little strained in the first place (them excusing my abuse, them being homophobic - I’m not out to them but there is definitely and undercurrent in our disagreements, etc) hence why one thing like this would be enough for me to just not speak to them again. That being said, even if that weren’t the case I have some very, very close friends I could probably literally die for. So in these cases regardless of my relationship with my family I would probably peace out.
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I hate these blue Autism candy buckets. Maybe they're helpful, I don't have a kid, so I wouldn't know. But just imagine having autism and already feeling embarrassed and weird because you know you're somehow "different" from the other kids, and then on Halloween when you just want to trick or treat and have fun your parents get you a fucking bright blue halloween candy bucket that visually signals to everyone else HEY LOOK AT ME I HAVE AUTISM, IM DIFFERENT!
Idk, I was a weird kid growing up, and possibly aspie, and all I wanted to do was fit in and feel normal. This seems humiliating to me.
No. 2231747
>>2231730Why would they not be allowed
I actually have the opposite gripe with /ot/, the conversation is funneled into a select few subjects and mods will lock anything that doesn't fall into the narrow mold
It's the single worst thing about this board imo, and the reason why it keeps and will keep getting progressively worse
No. 2231752
>>2231667This sounds sad as hell to me but to each their own.
>>2231701You know that there's a lot of women who have kids and end up completely alone in nursing homes while there are childfree old ladies who've had friends since kindergarten that they keep in contact with until they die? Having a husband/wife and kids isn't the only way to not "be alone". Some people actually find platonic friendships more fulfilling than romantic ones or familial ones.
No. 2231763
>>2231718>>2231730The threads shouldn't have been called hate threads because it encourages the most unhinged takes to be posted. The threads should be for criticism of dog and cat owners. I have both cats and dogs, I can agree that aspects of cat and dog ownership deserve criticism, especially bad owners and the mental illness surrounding pit bulls. Wishing harm on animals should result in a ban.
>>2231747>the conversation is funneled into a select few subjectsThis is how image boards and other types of online discussion platforms such as forums and text boards have always worked.
No. 2231768
>>2231754I'm one of those people bored talking about 3 subjects day in day out
Most of us take breaks from posting here because of it, few of us come back
No. 2231782
>>2231763>This is how image boards and other types of online discussion platforms such as forums and text boards have always workedThis is the only platform I know that locks so many new threads
It discourages people from making new threads and starting new conversations, instead we have shit like "unpopular opinion thread #357334784325673468"
No. 2231979
>>2231671Fair response tbh. My suggestion was probaby bad advice for most people.
Weirdly enough, it's the only thing that has ever been effective for me. The best explanation I can come up with is that it "converts" the energy from the anxiety into a different form of energy. The highest measured heart rate I had during one was 201 (I was in the ER at the time.) If I can "redirect" the energy to something else before it gets that bad, then I can basically stop the anxiety attack all together. The only other thing that has helped me reduce anxiety is exercising more often, which I guess is linked.
I was assuming that OP had already tried other methods like the breathing exercises, and was resorting to lolcow after everything else was ineffective. Unfortunately, none of those things ever worked for me. I shouldn't have assumed that about her, though.
No. 2231992
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Therapy, self-help and any regular form of normie advice encourages dangerous dissociation that feels like you’re being mind controlled or gaslit about your own reality and circumstances. They somehow make the idiocy and shittiness all around your problem and think you can somehow turn to shit to gold and not react to the most mind numbing soul rendering experiences, it’s the same ideology that allows terrible shit to continue because they individualize your problems without the nuances. To escape instead of actively solving the problem is encouraging people to sedate and ignore reality, people don’t want to solve these problems because it requires them to be the “bad guy” or the person who actually has to step up to the mantle to make the hard decisions where someone might be “hurt” or “ostracized” because of this decision, ex. refusing to remove useless family members out of the household because it would cause “isolation” for said family members. I hate bench sitters, take a fucking stand and make the hard decisions
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>>2231680>Wym no familial ties Some people are really fucking unlucky nona
No. 2232114
>>2232109we aren't even the same shoe size like wtf i know she will get absolutely drunk and that would be enough pass for her to get them trashed with alcohol and cig burns
>>2232111yeah i was thinking about that thanks
nonny No. 2232324
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Fuck celiac and fuck Trolli. I just wanted to try the new sour electric gummies.
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>>2232354You should fuck something up that isn't you so it's still a visual manifestation of your pain go break or rip up some shit
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>>2232503Possibility of cross-contamination.