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No. 1491934
Don't hold back.
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>>1491938i was the op, i saw someone else posted a stick figure violence shitpost and thought it'd fly.
i didn't know scrotes would spam soyjacks since i used to only use /w/
No. 1491946
>>1491940ive only dated one man, who was my friend, when i was 15 and didn't know how to say "no"
he was into feet and came on what was essentially my bed after offering a foot massage, which i didn't know what a foot fetish was at the time. he had a good personality but we broke up because i think he figured out i wasn't sexually attracted to him and only liked him as a friend.
i still don't know what romantic feelings feel like and i'm turning 20 later this year
No. 1491949
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>>1491938Don't be. Some threadpics shouldn't exist, would you have liked seeing Sonic every time someone posted about their dreams.
>>1491939Browse other boards
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No. 1491954
>>1491945>Next time you can google crying cat or something like that, that picture looked disturbing.Some of you are just neurotic as fuck. You want a
trigger warning next time too?
No. 1491960
>>1491938>>1491936For later comers who wonder what the conversation is about:
Someone made a new vent thread with this
>>1491953 as the OP and people didn't like it for reasons that are hopefully obvious.
No. 1491961
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>Stop letting people walk over me
>Stop letting them insult me
>Stop taking comments from family members and people
>Start dressing the way I wanted to for years, listen to music without hiding the thumbnails/genre
>Speak up over men, take back conversations when interrupted,
>Start standing up for myself, "talking back", trying new things when everyone discourages me
>Now I'm "rude" "difficult" "arrogant" "selfish" "mean" "bitch" "dumb goth bitch"
Ok and? It really is true, you finally focus on yourself after years of doormatting and you become public enemy #1. Wait til I slip and reveal I'm misandrist and really become the devil kek
No. 1492001
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There's this Youtuber I have been trolling for about seven years, and it's so entertaining.
Funny thing is I troll her and then I feel bad about myself when I get on her nerves and she makes a video citing word for word one of my commentaries.
I feel ashamed but I can't stop doing it at all, it's the adrenaline rush of imagining her sitting around her house thinking of what I said.I sometimes switch acounts every few years to catch her off guard.
And the funny thing is I actually like her content and I only get to her so easily because we are so much alike.
No. 1492007
>>1492003I remember her of shameful stuff she used to do. We all have our dirty past and she just hates people bringing it up.
She is a bad person, she once bought a guinea pig and cut its limbs and posted pictures playing with them.
I don't bring that up, though. I just bring up how annoying and cringy she used to be. That's what boils her blood.
No. 1492012
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is being annoyed with my mom for not seeming to care about me struggling with school work fair? trying to finish a project that will determine whether or not i get my degree (long story but it's a group project and i'm only one person) but she insists on calling me to ramble on about her day and her shitty coworkers. i haven't heard a single "good luck nona! i believe in you!" and i actually think i overheard her telling my dad i will have to retake the course. i really don't think i'll have to…i present this shit on tuesday, i hope it passes, i've been working so fucking hard.
anyway idk, it just makes me depressed and irritated. she'll ask about it then go "oooh….haha anyway"
No. 1492034
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I fucking hate living in an apartment
No. 1492046
>>1492001Holy fuck if faux OP had to get rid of their stick gore can we get a spoiler for this too? 2spooky4me.
>>1486038I feel weird for
not having shame. I’m also ethnically Chinese and only speak English, my mother said she automatically used English around me “because it was easier”. When she sees me she’ll switch to English and struggle to switch back even if I ask her. I have no desire to learn it, I will never visit that country, nobody around me speaks it, so even if I tried to teach myself I have no one to practice with. Admittedly part of why I won’t is because I was teased for it in a majority white school but I honestly don’t care to learn and it only comes up in my life now because there’s so many foreign students I run into that remind me “oh, I look like I should know this”. But that’s not any more true than thinking I should know how to breakdance or skateboard. If other people think this is tragic or a waste then they can learn it themselves because it’s as relevant to me as learning Punjabi. Also I hate it when my mother then tells me I should learn Chinese as the next lingua franca because it’s going to be a global superpower, people have been saying that since 2008 and it’s still not true, I’m just some city slicker who works in a cafe, not a international businesswoman. It’s not going to open doors for me that I’d walk through.
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just text me back already! fuck it, even to tell me to piss off. i am so fucking obsessed. i don't even know you. and yet i miss you. i want to do dirty things with you. don't you want to? fucking hell, how can i get over it if you won't even say where you're at. are you really in rehab or did i think that because of the exhibition right there? do you still want to talk? will you still want to see me when you're out? my god it feels like a cosmic joke, i have been flirting with other men yet i can't forget about you. i tell myself i will wait for you and finally kiss you no matter what. so i can get it out of my mind. that getaway was just so adorable. you are so fucking adorable. FUCK!
No. 1492109
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>>1492034Fuckin same, the walls are so thin. I can hear my next door neighbor rolling their their closet doors open and closed on the other side of mine. I can hear my downstairs neighbors talking at normal volume (not sure if I could make out the words, they speak another language) and I hear their baby crying constantly. My neighbors can probably hear me singing and doing weird voices and shit.
No. 1492139
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Fighting the urge to text this moid who dumped me some weeks ago. I know I should just accept it, keep my head up high and move on but damn spending time with him was the only thing that made me feel alive in years. He made me feel so comfortable and safe and I don't want to go through this whole courting phase with another moid again. I know that being with a moid poses to many threats to women but I feel like I'm my best self when I'm in a relationship. I'm more productive, more outgoing, more optimistic and more confident about myself when I'm in one and now I just feel like an empty shell and I don't feel joy about anything. I know I don't need a moid to feel happy and that I should love myself and yada yada but I always loved being someones other half, as cringy as it sounds. I might just fucking do it. Worst thing he can do is think I'm annoying and block me. I don't care about my dignity at this point. I hate playing those shitty games. I've been crying almost every night for weeks.
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I hate school but I have to go back to college to get scholarships money to live off of. It pays way more than working a shit job but I’m too retarded to handle school. I got MS too and I just wanna rot in peace damnit.
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Whenever I get pissed off at men I think about the fact that the Y chromosome is slowly vanishing and that someday, it will no longer exist.
No. 1492230
>>1492226thanks anon lol i was ready to get flamed. i never feel the need to cape for my bf. why should i? he's not 'one of the good ones' - no such thing exists - and it'd be disingenuous as fuck if he started pretending to care about feminist issues
i would one day like to have enough of a backbone to just tell him to fuck off for good, pack all my shit up and leave, but at the same time i'm lazy and in a lot of ways its easier to stay with a mediocre moid who basically pays for my existence
No. 1492275
>>1492211>>1492220>>1492224All of this. I don't even know why they look at women. It's not like they have libido or something to offer to anyone.
And they smell, it's disgusting. No amount of personal hygiene and cologne can fix that.
No. 1492278
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There was no celebricows thread during the grammys.
No. 1492288
>>1492278I thought I was going nuts cus I couldn't find it and I refuse to believe people would be quiet about Ham Smith getting a grammy for his fetish song
Also thought your pic was Pete Burns
No. 1492307
>>1492295Worst part is no one will dare call them out because 'homophobia' which isnt
valid when these women were lied to and hurt by men. It's worse when it's gay men because they dont even have the balls to be openly gay and mess with women. I hate faggots.
No. 1492333
>>1492325Sometimes moids will do this during the full duration of the relationship. If you've ever seen Brokeback Mountain, he'd be the type of husband to force his wife to do anal and only have sex with her facing away.
Tons of families, especially when married, stay together because they believe divorce costs are too much and because they don't want to upset their children for separating. Even if their relationship is miserable and the children know (not the gay part but the miserable part), they'll stay together because they're too stubborn and living as a single parent is more difficult, especially for the mother which does suck.
It's all out of convenience for the man.
No. 1492354
>>1492325samefag as
>>1492351 lol i was typing up this exact story when you posted this
No. 1492359
>>1492351Moids are fucking psychopaths. I'm a straight woman and the thought of fucking another woman and having a romantic relationship with her is not in this world. This is what I mean by
abusive. He couldn't have been emotionally available with her, right? It's one thing to turn your wife over and sodomize her imagining another man, but he couldn't have cared for her at all. This is why I think moids who don't treat their gfs or wives like queens and show constant affection are in the closet. While dating I always can smell these moids from miles away. Gestures like buying flowers, opening the door, texting goodnight, a fag wouldn't think about doing those things. He would be on Grindr chatting with a scrote.
No. 1492361
>>1492295Worst relationship I ever had (obviously started out good but went to shit) was with a guy who was supportive as I found out I had one of the cancer causing strains of hpv. Hpv is hard to trace back to the source given men aren't routinely tested for it and pap smears only start at 25 in my country. I didn't know the source and nurses even said it was better not to drive myself mad by speculating. I went through all these follow up exams for dodgy cervical cells. Soon as my cancer scare had passed he had a personality change. Started acting like he resented me for just existing in our home. I could feel the comtempt suddenly oozing off of him. I wondered if he knew he was probably the source of it and if that was why he was nice and then suddenly cold as soon as the scare had passed.. Oh wait no, he'd been having an affair and was just in a hurry to drop me. Left me for another woman. Trashy but I moved on. Just a cheating asshole but a straight one..
Did a lil online stalking a while later (as you do) and he'd set up a profile on a swinging site where he and the new gf exclusively wanted to fuck men and trannies. Wasn't even looking for the usual ffm fantasy. Just men and TIMs. Like just date a guy. Why do you need a cover gf? Just openly date a guy or a tranny. Its not even that stigmatized anymore. Be gay and stop spreading misery to women.
No. 1492362
>>1492357From that era I also missed xanga .
I feel you nonna, I am nostalgic for moshpits and moody boys. It was a beautiful moment though, and its special for everyone who experienced it.
No. 1492368
>>1492357Sometimes ignorance is bliss
nonnie. I think worrying about your future is all you need. Everything else you can sort of block out. Just focus on going to work and making your money and paying the bills and saving up and facing a bit of car trouble. If you have acquaintances or friends who are obsessed with social media and the news, spend less time with them. If someone wants to talk about the news with me over things neither of us can control, I'd rather change the subject.
>>1492359I'm bisexual and in a relationship with a man and I'd never think of going out of my way to have sex with a woman because I am sexually attracted to women, I'll extend it to other men too because I care about commitment and exclusitivity. We have such an issue with moids who don't understand what monogamy and commitment is and thinks it's reserved for a single sex or something. I don't fucking know, they're retarded. Men are the ones who make choices with their feelings rather than rationality. Homosexual moid discovers he wants biological children, his goal would be to impregnate a woman and do anything he can to achieve that goal, not even thinking of putting himself in the woman's shoes. What a waste of time.
No. 1492406
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I've had a migraine for 4 days now and I hope my neurologist actually does something for me tomorrow or else I'm gonna take prednisone myself since I have some leftover. I should be crocheting a gift not dealing with this for 4 days UGH
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>>1492282Nah people are just too lazy to make a new thread
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I don’t get people who do these TikTok lives my self esteem too low
No. 1492524
So I'm having very specific issues that made my doctors do a double take, and I got a referral to two different doctors for it.
My primary care noticed I have such severe problems with menstruation that it might be a tumor in my uterus or fibroids, and that I should have an ultrasound and if it shows nothing, chromosomal testing. If I end up being XXY despite having a malformed pussy that'd be hilarious and all, but also an explanation for my GID and why the doctors thought I'd be a scrote until I flew out my mom.
Ultimately, I'm pretty scared and the doctor never told me where the hell to go for the ultrasound, or never elaborated after several voice messages.
Never tell a woman "oh yeah you might have uteran cancer!" and then stop responding.
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Self care isn't selfish,self-serving, self-centered, or conceited. If you can't care for yourself, whose going to care for you? Stupid moids don't get it.
No. 1492572
>>1492557I agree but moids do it all too much, calling us high maintenance, conceited, and selfish for putting pride in health and appearance. It pisses me off,
nonnie.
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I feel like my ex was heavily in denial of how bad his last relationship was and then he took all of those feelings out on me. He didn’t mention her too often but a lot of things about their relationship were super contradictory. He said the first several years of their relationship were “great” and the last year was awful (his words, not mine), but also that he didn’t see a future with her during the alleged great years but still stayed, suddenly began to see a future with her only when they started fighting all of the time. He said they were the same person and he could tell her anything but he was so extremely conflict avoidant that I think he just acted like a lap dog during their great years and she started lashing out once he couldn’t do it anymore. Yeah you can definitely tell her anything except if it’s not what she wants to hear, right? He admitted they were super codependent but said VERBATIM “I’m not ready to admit that it wasn’t a healthy relationship”. He initiated all of the big milestones with our relationship, even to the point of meeting his parents, when he is an extremely closed off person emotionally. He would tell me very vulnerable things then pull back and hard. He kept alluding to certain incidents with her but never went into detail about them. We had a fight at one point and the next time I saw him in person he said he was relieved that I didn’t threaten to kill myself over it even though I had never talked about that??? The straw that broke the camels back was I tried to confront him on something and have an actual adult conversation about it, not just a half assed apology and we move on, and he freaked out and lashed out at me that he was suddenly not over his ex almost a year into us being together. When I asked for more info as to why he just said that despite all of these amazing things he loved about me and that I made him happy I also made me scared and uncomfortable and “he didn’t know why”. I really think he was projecting whatever bullshit she was pulling onto me and of course she’s still on the pedestal while my heart is still broken months later. I’m so angry with him but I still love him and I wish he’d stop being a coward and just fucking talk to me.
No. 1492577
>>1492561AYRT, but yeah I have never seen one. Ever. My parents never thought it was necessary, even when I was suffering. honestly considering how bad my GID is I'd probably need anesthesia just to see one, which I know they don't do but I legitimately cannot think of another way I can see one without getting restrained so I don't accidentally assault the doctor in a panic attack.
For context, my cramps get so bad I end up bedridden, struggling just to get up to piss or feed myself. It's so excruciating and I've burned myself with heating pads and took too many Pamprin in one sitting just to make it stop enough so I can take care of myself.
But I'm so afraid of being naked or undressing, I avoid it at all costs. Going to a gynecologist is arguably one of the most terrifying thoughts. I know I need it, desperately, especially considering my vagina is so fucked up I legitimately don't think I have a clitoris, I can't wear tampons, and some hairs grow internally. Which combined with my cramps, make it a necessity.
Sorry for the TMI rant, but I figured I'd add further context
No. 1492608
anyone else think moids jealousy of women stems from the peacock effect? In nature and in other species, males are the ones who have to dress nice and entice the female for mating, not the other way around. I love fashion as the next girl, but we aren't supposed to attract moids. Thus why trannies go all out when they start identifying as women, you see them copy different styles. One of the first things trannies do when they come out is to change the wardrobe, whereas as women, like wearing whatever doesnt change anything. I mean, I could survive wearing male t-shirt and jeans, they are just fabric to cover your body, no?
Anyway, the peakcock effect doesn't work in the human species, as moids arent worth looking twice at, let alone talk to. I think moids are so deprived of attention, they are now copying female styles. Go ahead, heels were originally worn by moids kek.
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I can't stop thinking about the fact that my mom is insanely talented at writing, but she never tried to do anything with this skill because she has low self esteem. She use to be one of those genius type student all troughout her school year, like scary good at everything, but she got a severe sickness in highschool and couldn't go to class like a normal student. Because of the sickness, she wasn't able to pursue academically at the level where she truly belonged. It's killing me how much potential she has.
No. 1492659
>>1492655To be honest, I never peaked. I never got into feminism, either, but troons still dislike me for believing dysphoria/trans shit is a mental illness and other options should be exhausted before deciding to mess with body chemistry, and that they should do research, yadda yadda
I get called a "transphobe" despite not being against them. I just have ""truscum"" tendencies and that pisses them off.
I think its funny, though. Although I lost all my friends because I asked a FtM why they would ever have vaginal sex if they were suffering from dysphoria, and they twisted my words, saying I called their bf straight and them a "woman." So yeah, I get it even as someone opposed to "peaking" shit.
It's all nuanced, but try to understand different views by talking to transmeds first, if you want to know how GID affects others and makes them troon. But also, stand your ground and be polite simultaneously. A little goes a long way, nonna.
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>>1492662I won't pick you,
nonnie, I will choose you.
No. 1492690
>>1492682That's understandable. Most troons worth being tolerated don't draw attention to themselves and usually keep their problems private, so hopefully if you do get paired up with one, they'll respect you and your boundaries. Don't count on it though, because that sounds mentally exhausting. I'm kinda glad I'm too poor to attend higher education because I'd tear my hair out at that shit.
Best of luck to you
nonnie!
No. 1492752
>>1492688im the truscum anon above. i'm one of those ftms that knows i'll never be male and accepts it, just going on with my day, doing what i can to correct what i can, after exhausting every other option i can think of. dysphoria is terrible and i wouldn't wish it on anyone.
ive been trying to learn why radfems think the ways they do; i never use the term "
terf" because it's lost all meaning. i think the main thing that determines whether someone will stay transmed or peak depends on their opinions on feminism as a whole. if you already disagree with radfems on mostly everything, you'll probably never peak, but both sides will make you uncomfortable, for example.
i don't trust mtfs. they scare me, not because of "big scary man," but because so many of them fake dysphoria in order to take advantage of both trans and women's spaces.
the clear solution is male, female, and troon only spaces, if not further split into ftm/mtf spaces.
it's a complex issue and i wish people didn't lunge for the throat every time someone's mildly critical of gender/gender roles.
No. 1492999
>>1492972It's not that deep. His position is probably that he is an unknown person and nobody would look it up, let alone find it.
Also, he probably can't imagine being in that situation, so he doesn't really have an emotional reaction to the hypothetical. The fact that it would not actually be his own body adds another layer of "protection" between his thoughts and his feelings.
tl;dr he can intellectually understand why it would be upsetting to someone, but the idea itself isn't really relevant to his life, so he doesn't feel anything about it.
No. 1493078
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my professor set a time to meet me in today to help me with an issue, and when i went there was some other class in session in the meeting room. considering the new semester has just started and therefore i wouldn't have the same classmates as the last it didn't seem to me like anything was off until i noticed that everyone looked slightly older than i was. i thought i was being vain or delusional but about 25 minutes minutes later i was seated i later found out i was in a senior class. i'm a freshman. and i wrote my name for attendance nbd but i have a long embarrassing foreign name that nobody knows how to pronounce and always make a joke out of. i'm deathly afraid of talking to people much less in a situation i'm the fool in so i only left 40 minutes after contemplation and excused myself looking pale as can be stuttering shaking all over and sweating bullets. i was at the right class in the right building so i don't understand how i was wrong because the professor wasn't there. now i just feel so guilty for wasting her time. she emailed me saying she was there and told me if it would be okay if we rescheduled for 5pm but by that time i had just gotten home from my commute. i actually feel sick for wasting her time and my own time and money, but mostly just my professor. i don't want her to think i was lying or some lazy hack. i've made a fool of myself not once not twice but three times. i feel like such an annoyance i'm so upset that i've had a panic attack twice today and yes i know i'm being dramatic yes it's probably no big deal but i can't shake off the guilt not to mention i just wasted money i could have used later on my commute and i'm actually in serious debt but that's not the biggest reason i'm upset.
No. 1493096
>>1493078Hey dont worry dear
nonny. Maybe you can just tell her what happened, that you were there but in wrong class and went home. These kind of things happen soo often
No. 1493139
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Been having a really hard time having a set sleeping schedule. I’ll be awake for two days, sleep a day, have one normal day then the cycle starts all over again. I try to lie down and sleep when I’m tired, and even make sure things like my laptop and phone are in another room, but my mind won’t stop racing. It’s the stupidest shit keeping me awake like what color my bedroom wall should be or a game I played, I just need my noggin to shut the fuck up long enough to let me sleep.
No. 1493263
My sister's been dating this moid over the internet who constantly goes on unhinged rants about killing "dykes, faggots, and trannies" and threatening to kill me in particular on multiple occasions, in great detail, because I expressed concern about this to my sister.
She just turned 18 and has been dating this 19 year old since she was 17
Nothing I say gets through, but he's legit had moments where he has condoned men forcing themselves on lesbians and outlawing any opinion that isn't the most baseline conservative bullshit
No. 1493351
>>1493286Unfortunately, I can't just yet. I wish she'd cut him off sometimes, then he's nice to my face when he realizes I'm there and it makes me confused as to what the hell I was thinking. He also convinced my sister she can't live without him and he'll save her, and she screeches at any hint of disapproval, even telling her she had to "stop being bi" to date him and her doing the "superstraight" shit to get picked.
>>1493288My mom really likes him because he purposefully sweet to her face, only saying revolting shit when he's out of her earshot, or thinks he's out of mine. My dad hates him and threatened him back though lol
No. 1493368
>>1493358Thank you, I'll be sure to bring it up to my mom again when my sister heads to class tomorrow, she's also expressed concern that he knows where we are, but that's mostly due to her own traumatic experiences with weird men online, and that she doesn't want him in our house.
But she's also a massive pushover regarding the happiness of her children and experiences the same doubt I do about things.
I think bringing up the schizo rant on "gays and lesbos being mentally ill and colleges turning people into fags, dykes, and troons" will get her on the same page as me, where I can lead into progressively more concerning shit
No. 1493374
>>1493363Just saw this. We're a year and a half apart and live with eachother, both being autists with me having disabilities on top of that & parents that don't want me to ever leave them. That's why I cannot cut her off
>>1493372Actually, she's 18. Her boyfriend is 19. I, too, am 19.
No. 1493388
>>1493376NTA but this isn't true. People's brains develop well into and past their 20s.
I don't disagree with you about OP's sister (she was most likely groomed by the scrote), but I worry that the whole "25 is where everyone's fully developed" thing can be used to
victim blame or shame women in their mid 20s or over who get into bad situations.
No. 1493392
>>1493378Smart! I'll definitely try my hand to do that. He knows of my love for women and women alone, and he knows of my fucked up brain, but he still rants about that shit. He hasn't threatened me specifically in a while, but he still spergs out about trad shit.
I'll definitely try to think of a way to reach her. But when your sister is 18 and still in her "boy crazy" phase, it's a bit harder. I go out of my way to avoid her when he's on the phone, but I feel bad because she's Autistic and clearly getting played by a fucking psychopath where when she tries to tell him to shut the fuck up and leave me alone, he threatens to leave her. And that makes her cry and beg for him to stay.
I'm not the brightest with social interaction, but it scares me to see this abuse.
No. 1493437
>>1492360♥ I hope it'll get better for you,
nonnie>>1492362>xangaDidn't even know what it is hehe but I miss the old internet in general, or maybe a few aspects of it. Just seemed simpler and more… naive/genuine? I'm probably just describing myself lol, but I actually do feel like people were more approachable, and I guess curious about each other even despite general anonymity. It was similar irl too though. Not sure if it was the era or me but it's not the same either way. Those times were truly great, yeah.
>>1492368I can't really distance myself,
nonnie, I can only wait till it's normal and peaceful again, but even then it's gonna be tough, just better than now. You're right though, I can still limit my news intake and I have to find a job, so I'll focus on that. Thanks for your kind response!
>>1492408It sounds nice, nonna, it's great that you had such a friend and could hang out like this with his family. You know, I think it's for the better that people started speaking about social issues more, but this trans politics shit is definitely an unfortunate flip side. Also everything's so politicized and "serious" in a bad way now. That's just tiresome.
No. 1493440
>>1493431Not all abuse is grooming.
>>an autistic girl who's been manipulated since she was 17 by some "trad" homophobic /pol/tard scrote with violent fantasies who threatens to abandon her whenever she asks him to stop badmouthing her familyThis also doesn't describe grooming. Even the links you provided describe a specific scenario which does not seem to be what is happening here. Although I missed the part where she's an autist, that does make it a lot more plausible that she could be being groomed, it just doesn't sound like that's what is happening here.
No. 1493452
>>1493440From the first link:
>Grooming can be defined as the process that an abuser uses to desensitise you – to make you less likely to reject or report abusive behaviour.A scrote who plays nice in order to make his
victim less likely to reject his
abusive relationships (and we see it being played out).
>Grooming can happen when there is a power differential within a relationship, which the abuser exploits for their own gratification.Autistic girl and non-autistic male.
>Grooming can also happen in domestic and relationship settings where the abusive partner, over time, introduces abusive acts that you feel coerced into allowing. In these situations, consent is coerced and therefore is not consent.OP's sister is literally being scared into allowing him to go on unhinged rants about wanting to kill people, including those close to her. We don't know anything about their sex life, but I doubt this sort of thing stops here.
From the second link:
>Grooming can also take the form of predatory marriage. This is where someone exploits an adult at risk, often with dementia. They isolate them from their family and coerce them into marriage.Isolates her from family, tells her she needs to "stop being bi" to be with him to the point where she claims to be "superstraight", and convinces her she can't live without him. Seems pretty clear where this is headed.
>Grooming can also result in radicalisation, in which case the groomer is simply working to win someone over to their cause. (+ Grooming can also lead to radicalisation. In which case, you might notice that the person starts talking about an issue or a cause that’s never really interested them before)Do I have to say it? Should be obvious how he's influencing her with the superstraight shit.
>But in some cases of grooming it might be difficult to identify a motive. Unfortunately, some people just enjoy having power over others.Also highlighting this in case there's any doubt he wants her to buy into his political bullshit. This definitely fits under both descriptions of grooming to me.
No. 1493458
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STOP FUCKING WAVING PEOPLE TO GO WHEN THEY DONT HAVE THE RIGHT OF WAY YOU RETARDED FUCKING IDIOTS HOLY SHIT ITS SO FUCKING DANGEROUS AND SO FUCKING STUPID JUST STOP!!!!! FUCKING!!!! DOING IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU ARENT BEING POLITE YOURE BEING FUCKING RETARDED YOU FUCKING CUNT JUST STOP DOING IT I JUST HAD THIS HAPPEN TO ME AND THIS FAT MOID SCHOOLBUS DRIVER WITH NO ONE BEHIND HIM STOPPED IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD TO "LET ME TURN" THEN SAT THERE LIKE A BOTCHED LOBOTOMY PATIENT WHILE TRAFFIC BACKED UP BEHIND HIM HOLY SHIT IF YOU JUST! WENT WHEN YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO! I COULD HAVE TURNED IMMEDIATELY! YES I SEE YOJ WAVING YES I SEE YOUR FAGGOT HEADLIGHT BLINKING NO IM NOT TURNING BECAUSE I DONT HAVE THE RIGHT OF WAY AND I DONT TRUST FAT FAG BUS DRIVERS TO CHECK IF ITS SAFE OR TO NOT JUST RANDOMLY START GOING HALFWAY THROUGH MY TURN OH MY GOD SO MANY FUCKING MOIDS HAVE DONE THIS AND IVE ALMOST BEEN HIT SO MANY TIMES BC SOMEONE WAVED SOMEONE THROUGH DIRECTLY INTO TRAFFIC JUST FUCKING STOP! JUST STOP DOING IT!!!! NEXT TIME THIS HAPPENS IM FOLLOWING HOME AND KEYING YOUR FUCKING SCHOOLBUS. FATASS
No. 1493483
>>1493228Probably just have to get a good bullshit detector like >>1493255
And drop them whenever they do something undesirable.
No. 1493545
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My feet are cold, and my tummy hurt
No. 1493560
>>1493558Oh
nonnie, this is so sad. I'm so sorry you're going through the emotional labour of this. You must have been at your wits end and provoking you just proves me theory that men don't deserve women or their kindness. You sound so trapped in this relationship. Love shouldn't be like that. Please wipe your tears nonita and remind yourself you were a human before him, and you can be a human without him. Good luck love and I wish you all the best. I'll be thinking about you.
No. 1493563
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>too autistic and asocial for acting school, embarrassed myself in front of many people
>too autistic and asocial to pass oral exams for art uni despite very good ratings during practical exam and being among the best 70 candidates out of 360 who applied to the best art uni in my city. just sperged out in front of 10 professors, unable to form one coherent sentence, stuttering etc.
>wasted almost entire 20s in front of pc, playing vidya and watching weeb shit
>now late 20s, shitty dead end job that has nothing to do with my interests
>too tired and depressed to even draw shit for myself and do anything art-related online, no time either. obviously, can forget about acting too, due to age
>never had any friends, dates, sex, fun with other people etc.
I feel like my life is over even though it never even truly started. It's too late for me to do the things I truly wanted to do. I hate the fact that people, including my teachers, were telling me I had the potential and they didn't want me to waste it, and I turned out to be too fucked up to do anything with it. I'm ashamed of never graduating from university of any kind. I will always be seen as less than those who did. I'm ashamed of not having anything resembling normal life of someone my age. I feel very lonely. I don't have closer family, but the remaining members of my family suggested I should drop the dreams of going to uni. They're like "well you tried two times already so, you know…" Also I need to pay my bills, I need a full time job, I couldn't go to school now. So yeah, it's over, forever. I had so many dreams as a kid and I was sure I'm going to achieve them, and now I know I'm just going to be another adult loser who never achieved anything and ended up bitter and angry in a nursing home.
No. 1493593
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we know how many abuser men's payrolls you're on you dumbass, now either drop the names or scram.
she's such a has been pickme kek all her new york city nepo baby money and the only thing she can churn out is pr ads and lukewarm fanfic, truly a sad state of affairs bitch
No. 1493598
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>>1493593too lazy to make a new celebricows thread to complain
a good percentage of rape or assault
victims who are harassed or abused by normal men don't go to the cops, or when they do they're ignored, it's even less likely they'll be taken seriously with a famous moid
No. 1493602
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I'm so tired after coming back home, that I sent a reply to some random text and fell asleep right away. It's only half a day, why do I feel so exhausted? I also hate how I couldn't reply to my best friend because I'm fucking retarded, so I only noticed I've read her message 5 fucking hours earlier, I feel like such a fucking piece of shit.
I seriously don't understand what's going on, why do I feel so tired? I drink so much water that I basically pee water, I eat my veggies everyday, I workout, I don't even feel physically tired, it's like my brain wants to shut down the moment I'm at the door of my apartment.
The only things I manage to do is eat, take a quick shower, talk with my parents and aunt, and pass out on bed.
Like it wasn't like this some months ago, and back then I was walking to my job, now I at least can go by car, I hope the endocrinologist knows what's going on, because my blood tests are great, the gynecologist told me that everything is perfect and my urine test was perfect as well.
No. 1493641
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>mother has been slowly sliding down the conservative pipeline for the past few years
>started disliking gays since around COVID, but was still sympathetic
>"whatever, I'll stay closeted from her and when I date a woman she'll have to accept it since she loves me so much!"
>said today that it's a good thing that being gay is illegal in some countries
I love my mom so much, why is this happening? I know her deeply so I understand why she's externalized her anger with age but fuck.
She has literally been the best mom I know in every other way. Shocking to need to accept she'd want me imprisoned if I wasn't her kid (allegedly to protect children, as if I didn't start crushing on other girls at 10 with zero intervention and in fact was instead encouraged to, and did, repress it for years).
No. 1493666
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Living with an extremely aggressive father its like walking on eggshells constantly, I feel like an schizo literally predicting his moves so I can avoid any fights, everything could trigger him. He has always been neurotic and violent, last time he jumped on me and my mom and we are just supposed to be okay with it. He's extremely misogynistic, hates women and treats everyone with a vagina like incompetent whores. I cannot leave because mom needs assistance after her surgery, I wish he would just drop dead
>Wow anon I wish you wouldn't distance so much from me
Well then stop scaring me away fucker. You literally get angry at people eating chicken at the wrong room and using jeans?? Actual schizophrenia
No. 1493682
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>tfw so tense I can't even properly execute the relaxation exercises for the very same tensions
I hope someone will at least clean my statue when I fully turn into stone.
No. 1493704
>>1493680Guns are expensive, but get a camera or gate installed. Will depend on if you're in a certain community, like an apartment, townhome, etc. Have a recording device so that it keeps track if anyone keeps coming by and give someone you trust access to that camera, as well. Even if it's just
by the front door or bedroom. Keep a bat, knife, or whatever you're comfortable with by your bed (preferably all of them) in order to protect yourself. Please be safe baby, you never know the true intention yet yours are what matter. Sending you love and whatever else you need, be safe.
No. 1493710
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>>1493666666 lol
>>1493691Paranoid ass pain in the ass antisocial dad's club! I was living with my family during the pandemmy and me being a full adult with an afternoon - closing shift job, he still yelled at me if my lights were on past 8 PM. I actually stopped showering before bed because he would make comments everyday on how long it took me to go to sleep. I went on anxiety and sleep medications, gained 10 kilograms from stress and depression and binge eating. My father said I could eat what he cooked, which was randomly only his food, then he would whine at me for having eaten it. If I cooked there he would complain about not having enough space in the fridge for my food. If I did not eat the slop already there, he would complain that I was wasting it (had ingredients I was allergic to). If I bought ready made to avoid time in the kitchen, he complained about me spending so much money on something I could be making myself. So I started living off takeout I ordered after he went to sleep. He would criticize and yell for anything anytime if he had a bad day, like if I immediately washed a cup after drinking from it, but other times if I did not immediately wash it. He also always accused me and my siblings or us and our mother of conspiring against him for going out without him, but when we invited him out he always declined, often last minute. If we bought snacks he would criticize that, and would order 10 of a much shittier version "to teach us this is cheaper" (yeah because it's SHIT) when we weren't even poor. Piling up a hoard of shit in the pantry, we couldn't even use what we had because it was just piled. Made zero sense, just constant abuse, I felt also like walking on eggshells and ants under my skin like his paranoia was rubbing off on me. When my sibling was fed up and moved, he spent an entire week telling him off for taking so long, and throwing his things in a pile in the living room (where they previously already packed their stuff). Before this he always told them they could leave their stuff at his house because there is enough space, and could come get it anytime! Sike, he felt like an ass that day, that's what we get. Constant comments about our academic and dating lives, including that of our friends' too. If he was called out on his hypocrisy he would deny everything and project, call everybody liars all the time and genuinely believe everyone except for him is stupid, and should follow his way of life.
No. 1493744
the older i get, the more i realize just how fucking willfully ignorant and apathetic people are about the simplest shit, especially health and safety stuff. it especially gets to me when it's adults that i used to admire for being so smart and responsible. like, apparently my parents never saw the need for carbon monoxide detectors, working smoke alarms, or humidity gauges in the house because "wowee we just never thought of that!" and now that i'm older IM the one who has to buy them and put them up. or how they've been fishing in this lake for years since i was little and feeding us the fish, only for me to find out when i'm older that the lake and fish are full of toxins that cause reproductive and developmental problems, and cancer. but they NEVER thought to check the reports of the lake from the government website even though we live in fucking pollution central, and i'm the one who has to tell them. and once they know about it they don't even care and just shrug it off. or how i discovered a lint ball the size of a softball underneath the dryer filter that they had never thought to even check because they just go about doing whatever and not fucking thinking, and i'm the one who has to take the dryer apart now and fix it. i don't understand, maybe i'm just an anxious mess but i don't get how people can go about life not even thinking about the safety of the structures they live, maintenance for appliances or the safety of they food they're eating. is this a result of the retarded american education system or what??? like i know if i had children i would always be making sure the things around them are safe and healthy, i cannot fathom how people just don't give a shit. and it's not just my parents either, it's my friends and friends parents and fucking everyone around me that don't think about these things. i could give more examples but i feel so retarded and high and mighty for writing this out, i just need to get it out of my system because nobody listens to me. i feel like i'm going insane realizing all of this shit now that i'm older, when i didn't know any better when i was younger, but the adults in my life SHOULD HAVE. UGH FUCK!!!!!
No. 1493758
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I just remembered that when I was very young, my mother would tell me to make sure my shirt was always pulled over my butt whenever I went out. I wasn't going anywhere but school and I hadn't even hit puberty yet. I haven't thought of that in years but I just remembered because I realized I still sometimes subconsciously pull my shirt over my butt.
No. 1493760
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>>1490220Update on my disgusting moid crush, I opened my eyes today and am no longer infatuated. I can’t believe how delusional I was. Thank you all for believing in me
No. 1493768
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My boss called me slow on my second day and everyone else said I'm doing well and that she's way too hard on new people but I cant help but take the comment very personally. Not even sure if she meant literal speed or perceived intelligence but the thought of being perceived as a tard makes me want to rope
No. 1493777
>>1493766When I feel that, it always passes eventually, so I just feel horrible and hope I, like, die in a car crash or something, until it passes.
Since yours are more intense, I suggest trying distress tolerance techniques from Dialectical Behavior Therapy. They are fairly easy to do on your own and they were invented for intense feelings like you describe. Google "distress tolerance dbt" and look through the sites that come up.
No. 1493799
Last week my mom fell and broke her hip, the next day she got surgery to stabilize the break. She already had issues with her mobility before that, she had to use a cane to walk and her gait has been getting more and more rigid over the years. She doesn't do anything to help it, she doesn't eat enough food, she doesn't do any exercises. She constantly hides behind her anxiety and things being too hard, too difficult, too uncomfortable. Now one week post surgery she's still in the hospital, still swollen from the surgery, still not eating properly. The doctors have given her exercises to do to try to lessen the swelling and regain as much mobility as possible, and she still refuses because it's too uncomfortable. I understand she's scared and it hurts, but if she doesn't even try she will spend the rest of her life in a wheelchair. The nurses are telling her "move it or lose it" but my dad just gives in to her discomfort. She's going to stay swollen and immobile because she's too scared to be a little uncomfortable and grit and bear through the pain. My dad and I are going to have spend the rest of his life and hers taking care of a 62 year old with issues similar to that of a woman in her late 80's because she won't even try. She doesn't even grasp that these days are crucial, if she doesn't fucking move she will likely never walk again. I'm so mad and scared I could scream at her and throw her out of the fucking hospital bed myself.
No. 1493835
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Asked my ex for closure again basically and he confirmed what I’ve been thinking and that he was scared of a /real/ relationship and damn it fucking sucks knowing that but at least I’m not crazy
No. 1493974
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>be me, buying dance shorts
>order M based off the size guide measurements and all the reviews saying “fit great but size up if you’re in between”
>they arrive
>way too big
>send them back and order a small
>still slightly too big even though the size guide measurements are smaller than my true measurements
>reeeeeeeeeee
A minor but highly irritating inconvenience, I’m hoping they shrink after I’ve washed them. Why is nothing ever simple
No. 1494042
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My god can I please get over this moid already. I want to be more sociable in my next uni semester but I just can't bear talking to moids let alone be intimate with any of them after I got dumped recently. I hate how long it takes me to be 100% over someone. I don't think about him as often anymore but thinking about him touching another woman the same way he touched me makes me feel sick and jealous. I hate that I lowkey still have a bit of hope for him to come back or for us to run into each other. I wish he wasn't always in the back of my mind. Ughhhhhh whyyyyyyyyy. I hate feelings.
No. 1494055
>>1493991It sucks when the closest people do that, but your mom is definitely just insecure and jealous.
>>1494042Anon, try to concentrate on his flaws as much as possible, even if there were things that you could do better and so on. Even if it seems unreasonable, I think it's better to turn all the bittersweet feelings that you have into more negative ones, and then you'll get over him quicker, especially if there's no contact and you don't check his social media. You probably haven't got used to being single and it's quite possible that you miss being in a relationship, not him exactly. There're probably such things that wouldn't make the relationship work out even the second time if there were such a chance. It's all in the past now. There's someone better for you out there, but take your time, it's ok you're not ready to be intimate with someone else yet.
No. 1494066
>>1494055Thank you
nonny. Just the fact that he dumped me should be enough for me to move on and be with someone who actually wants me but I hate those stupid "what if's" that pop up in my head every once in a while.
No. 1494075
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Fuck this earth I'm gonna revamp my resume and put a bunch of LIES on it! Hahaha what are you gonna do about it. Anyway I hate being an overly honest autismo so I'll adjust myself to your dirty deceitful world and be just like you but worse.
No. 1494100
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I consistently fuck things up in my life purely because of inaction.
Why is it so hard for me to just fucking respond to emails and messages on time and keep on top of administrative tasks?? Objectively it takes so little time and effort, but it feels like the hardest thing in the world, so inevitably I let things build up and screw myself over. Then, where possible, I try and do some damage control, I apologize and make up some excuse as to why I didn't respond or keep on top of tasks for so long, promise to do better, and then do the whole thing all over again. Now with work, I do the actual duties just fine and I'm pretty decent at my job, but it also requires me to write up a short report every day of what happened. I just got an email from my supervisor about how he noticed I haven't added any new reports in over a month and he wants to talk, probably to fire me. And all I can do is shamefully agree, because it's 100% my own fault. And even now, I've dedicated this day to finally writing up those overdue reports, and yet I've spent all day distracting myself with stupid shit like browsing LC.
Even if I do manage to somewhat fix this situation, it's happened over and over again and I can't imagine suddenly doing a 180 and showing a capability to stay on top of things that I've never had in my life.
I see posts on here complaining about how moids are lazy and unable to manage simple daily tasks and housework and all I can think is that that sounds just like me, and it makes me feel even worse.
Sick and tired of wallowing in my own hubris like this.
No. 1494134
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I need to know, am I incompetent if I think I should have some guidance in my career?
My teachers have barely interacted with me throughout my whole career in this online university, like I think I've talked with them, and had important information given to me like 5 times in 6 years.
I always have to fuck around and figure out fucking everything, and I've been denied information a few times already during my internships, so I don't fucking know who to ask anymore.
Am I retarded? Should I just know what to do? Is it like this in other careers? Because in education I feel like the very few things I've learnt have been all because I decided to search for more information or because my family has pushed me to search for more than the basic information that I usually manage to find in my deep dives on the internet.
I have to do some diagnostic evaluation and it's basically a whole ass thesis, fucking again, again a motherfucking thesis, this is the third fucking thesis I've written, and it's of something that first, I don't give a fuck about, second, it's never used to help the retards that the educational system is supposed to help, third, it's all fantasy numbers anyways.
Do these idiots think I'm going to prestidigitate a whole ass grade of students willing to take a fucking boring test, a two rounds test?? And that everyone will do it with the idea of getting the best scores they can get? And that I will do it in 6 (working btw) days so I can write the whole ass thesis in 3 days? Like, couldn't they've told me when the course began? Like "hey faggots, there's a kind of thesis that you have to write about the diagnostic evaluation for the kids of the classroom you're at lol, like, you don't have that much time so you should talk with your tutors or some shit idk, maybe start imagining shit, do some mushrooms or smth lmao"
I have to do a bunch of retarded calculations, write my stupid ass, useless reports about the 9th motherfucking day in a row of retarded ass evaluations that have nothing to do with any important shit like, you know, teaching the retarded kids how to fucking do shit that's related to learning and not how to get along with each other, making them do useless waste of paper "interviews" and stupid shit like that.
Like fuck goddammit, what the fuck am I doing with my life?! I just want to fucking die already, why can't I just develop a mortal cancer that will kill me in less than a week? This is such a fucking waste of time, I'm so useless, I should've just killed myself when I was 15 years old, I wouldn't be making my family waste their money on me anymore, I just want to die, I'm sick of everything.
No. 1494143
>>1494125Cars have longer lives in states where there is little snow. This is because they don't salt or stone the roads, and because a lack of extreme temperature fluctuations. So if you're in a hotter state, you 1000% shouldn't sell your car. You'll probably have to sink another $2000 into it, but you'll also get about 100,000 miles out of it.
Even if you're in a wet winter state, you should still keep the car, but expect to pay a little more and get a little less out of (say 80,000 miles).
Of course you should also have a rainy day fund of enough money to finance the purchase of another car should something go catastrophically wrong, but that's a general financial tip that applies towards anything necessary for you to continue to work. For example my coworkers new car with 48K miles just blew up on the highway one day. But that is extraordinarily rare and it's much more common for a car to reach 200,000 miles than that to happen.
No. 1494148
>>1494117I would recommend trying different forms. For example, only one brand of generic Adderall works for me, but real Adderall or Adderall IR completely fails me.
But from one person with a dopamine deficiency disorder to another, I know that this advice is almost worthless because if you were able to surmount the hill of finding a psychiatrist, getting her to prescribe the different types, and then continue to try them, then you wouldn't have DDD in the first place.
Not so fun fact, did you know when they give mice the same condition as us, the mice will literally starve to death if they make them solve a puzzle to get food. Any effort that is required to fulfill basic needs is considered too much and it is easier for the mice to lay there and die rather than to get what they need.
No. 1494172
>>1494148>if you were able to surmount the hill of finding a psychiatrist, getting her to prescribe the different types, and then continue to try them, then you wouldn't have DDD in the first place.Holy shit this is exactly the problem I've been having with seeking help. I've tried to start the process so many times, with psych help and also with guidance councillors at uni, but every single time I find myself unable to make new appointments in time and it truly does feel like an insurmountable hill. To be completely honest the only reason I've been able to try different types of adderall and other stimulants is by acquiring them through less than legal means.
I've been beating myself up over being so useless I can't even properly seek help to try and fix those exact problems, so I feel really seen by your reply in a way I didn't expect to. It still seems pretty bleak but thank you nona.
No. 1494270
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>>1494106>doesn't feel motivated to work because it sucks and life's pretty shit>omg you've got a dopamine deficiency disorder, executive dysfunction, autism and aids get on anti psychotics and meth ASAP babe!!!Do you guys even hear yourselves? Get in touch with your feelings.
No. 1494348
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Yet another man giving hints that I'm "not that cute". He didn't say it directly, but you know. I'm super average like 5/10, and I swear they want me to hate myself. They start getting grumpy that I refuse to be all "aww I'm sooo ugly", and that I just say "thank you" when they compliment me.
No. 1494350
I thought I grew out of it like five years ago, but I find myself increasingly annoyed at existing in the same vicinity as children again lol. I also feel incredibly uneasy when thinking about the whole process of a pregnancy, giving birth and raising a child for its first few years, another feeling I thought I got over with like 15. Today one of the women in my class talked about her brother wanting children now after all, saying it'll probably be different when it's your own, after insisting all his life he'd stay childless. With my current ~mindset~, I can't think of anything that'd be more of a still-lawful betrayal from a partner than that lmao. It's like the absolute opposite of baby fever, and there isn't even anything that triggered it, the last birth in my family was three years ago, abortion still accessible as ever here, the children in my family are actually starting to form their own opinions and you can hold real conversations with them etc etc.
No. 1494370
>>1494348Based, ily
>>1494350I feel you
nonny No. 1494478
Anyone relate to being someone everyone has no problem with, likes to a certain degree, talks to you about pretty serious/private topics because they feel comfortable around you, but then they just don't take the extra step of befriending you? I'm not a bitch, and people have gone out of their way to talk to me, etc. Yet I seem to bore them along the way. I won't lie, I don't have an exciting life to talk about. I don't have stories to share. I'm more of a listener and I make jokes off of other peoples stories. I guess I'm not fun enough? I think I just became a normal people too late in life where now, everyone has their friend group established already.
I vent about it to my mom and she says to just insert myself in other people's groups, but I don't think she understands how unrealistic that is. Am I actually supposed to ask someone what they're up to this weekend, and say "can I come?" That's wild to me. People tell me to join clubs, but what clubs? I'm reaching 25 lol.
I did this to myself by being super super socially awkward as a teenager and turning down every opportunity to make friends because it was so much more convenient to stay home and not have to feel anxiety all day.
No. 1494529
I'm the anon from
>>1493263Mom finally caught the two having an altercation where her boyfriend threatened to kill himself because he had to clean his fucking room lmao
Mom actually yelled at him over the phone and admitted she's fucking pissed how racist my sister's become while dating him (he's Latino, she's mostly white) and how
abusive he's being to her, she was bawling her eyes out & shit
And now mom's trying to come up with a way to separate the two
No. 1494551
>>1494539Sort of similar. I had a friend, a year older than me who I was attached at the hip to in kindergarten and first grade. Her parents were meth addicts, she was a klepto with the ideal y2k bedroom. I was a poor kid with a run down bedroom, but parents who loved me dearly. So it was an odd dichotomy at our apartments and (eventually) school, but we were on/off friends for intervals of about a year, but I didn't realize she only wanted to be my friend to steal my toys, which were in turn sold by her parents for meth. She was an ana-chan so I, a normal weight child with precocious puberty circa 3rd grade, was "fat" to her, and it pissed me off that an abused 9 year old was taking it out on me.
As an adult I understand why, though.
No. 1494607
Idk why but lately I've been referring to myself constantly as man/boy and shit, never he him or anything but I will call myself an old man or some shit
I mean, it was always a thing but I've never been so.. open and unashamed about it
Anyways what the real issue is, is that my friends have actually started calling me a boy now, please do note it's usually done in a joking/mocking context for when we're goofing around and shit but still
I'm worried that I'm encouraging bad behavior here, in the sense that, I don't want to go through any sort of changes or that transitioning bs, respectfully, s just not for me
And yet, I keep doing it. Should I try and stop? I mean so far I have no desire whatsoever but there's always a possibility someone will latch on and try to make it something bigger, even though I'm comfortable where I'm at, but if someone catches me while I'm in a state of vulnerability it's over.
Oh well. First world problems
No. 1494629
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Wtf is wrong with moids, I just wanted to sell my old phone and now I’ve got some stranger texting my number trying to get a date.
At least it was after I sold the phone, I guess… But he could leave negative feedback if I just block him or something… ugh.
No. 1494648
>>1494607I'm sorry but don't you have other things to worry about? How old are you? And do you have a job or are you studying anything? Because I swear people and most specially women start engaging in hardcore navel gazing when they're bored as fuck, and then they troonout.
>inb4 moidNo, moids don't have any sort of introspection or deep thoughts, they just troonout because of porn addiction.
Maybe try doing something you don't usually do, like going on a hike or visiting some place you've never gone to, like some neighboring town, even if it's just a tiny town with 3 houses and a town square, interacting with people that won't cater to your whims will do you wonders and make you think about important shit.
No. 1494661
>>1494613I've never really tried to get diagnosed and I doubt that's gonna change, I'd rather keep any shit I might have under wraps; even to myself. Plus I'm pretty religious so hopefully I'm safe
>>1494648Lol nonna I major in comp sci don't worry I'm not a full blown bum, at least not yet
It's just something that got programmed in my brain as a child which is the result of reading greek philosophy.
All the things said are directed towards men, and sometimes if I'm lucky humans. But still
I had made some of the notable quotes into mantras to keep me determined, so I'd chant shit like "I must cheat the man in the glass" and so and so, it then just developed to me viewing myself as that in my head
I know it seems asinine, and it is but alas
No. 1494664
>>1494613As someone who is transitioning; there's a very big difference between jokingly calling yourself a man and being constantly one sharp object away from 41% because you're not a man.
I do agree that this is very concerning, only because her friends seem to be trying to pressure her into it, when she does not GID and will hate herself if she does transition, like the fakebois in the FtM thread that think HRT is a solution and not a way to mitigate an unbearable neurological disorder.
Anon, as long as every time you see or hear yourself DOESN'T make you want to neck yourself, you're not gonna like transitioning, so keep going as a woman. I don't want to see another person go on HRT without analyzing every single aspect of it, its side effects, if it will even help, et cetera.
Honestly I think mandatory 5+ years of therapy should be a thing for people considering trooning, so they've actively tried everything else.
No. 1494682
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my boyfriend's youtube has been signed into my smartTV for ages and I never cared to look at it. today I was streaming a video from my laptop onto my tv and when it finished my boyfriend's account was signed in by default. suddenly a woman in sheer tights spreading her legs open wide was 55" on full display in front of me.
i can't stop like.. weeping and crying. i'm not even a jealous person ever at all but after getting curious and scrolling through it seems he has like… an asmr fetish and a yoga fetish?? i'm just so disgusted with him and shocked i guess. i rarely watch porn myself and not really since we started dating a few years ago.
i know this is mild but like.. it's always been outta' sight outta' mind for me and seeing it on fucking youtube of all places pisses me off and makes me feel insignificant and worthless.
No. 1494686
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This methhead has stalked and harassed me for years. He pops up for a week and then disappears for months. Always saying I belong to him and need to be with him based on all these weird things. I’ve never met him. He knows someone I know. He blows up every area he can find me online - my business, my venmo & PayPal accounts, every social media, etc
If you are bored and want to help me seek revenge, here’s the latest email address: jjamkirby@gmail.com
Please help nonnies. Revenge is the only way. The police don’t help me
No. 1494692
>>1494661Come on,
nonnie, I've read Greek philosophy too, it's all just what old men back then did when they weren't raping kids. I'm sure you can clean that up with some exercise, yoga even, that shit is therapeutic because you're not thinking about anything other than the exercise you have to do.
No. 1494708
>>1494682Surely you know how anons would respond to this? You have either two options, ignore it, which no offence, most women choose this option and remain miserable and wonder why they are miserable, or confront him about how uncomfortable it makes you and leave.
>>1494685She was full on promoting transitioning. The thing is, most people who troon out are too mentally ill to be weighing out pros and cons of such a life changing decision and just for that, hrt should not be available and gender reassignment surgery such be considered a cosmetic procedure that people should have to pay out of pocket for since you can't exactly ban it anyways. She knows where she is, i don't feel bad for her.
No. 1494716
>>1491940 I think that is normal, and has been normal for a very, very long time. "love is a choice" is true. there is a difference between being in love, and loving. I've read a lot of books and posts, from the 1800s to present, about relationships. i didn't understand them (still don't) and never experienced one so i wanted to learn. many people never are in love with their partner, or it only comes after a long time. but sometimes, despite not being in love, they still get married or have kids or live together because they love eachother. it being an active choice.
i got into my first and only relationship 29. i never wanted to be in one, never wanted to kiss anyone etc, but after i met this male, i couldn't imagine being without him. i often hate myself for being so weak. but I'm 31 now and i still like him. i love him. i actively choose to love him, the "in love" comes and goes, as is normal. it's all quite weird to me and there are strange feelings with him that I've never had before. i consider them as coming from the "in love" brain.
that said, if this ends i will never be with someone else again. once is enough for me. i don't need a relationship and it's a better quality life being without, not needing to deal with another person in all you do, however i enjoy being with him and have and will continue to put my all into strengthening our relationship.
No. 1494721
For a while I've managed to keep my head up, as in ignoring that nagging feeling in the back of my head that when it all comes down to it, I would rather be dead than alive. It's back now. I just find no enjoyment in anything. Everything is just a distraction for a few weeks or months until I get overwhelmed by reality and spiral once more.
I won't attempt suicide because the risk of surviving it is high, plus I don't want to hurt my friends or family that way, but I always kind of hope I would fall asleep forever or die in an accident or something. I don't go to the doctor for anything in case I have something like cancer or similar going on, I don't want it to be caught early. To get sick and then be told I've got just a few months left to live would be amazing. I just don't want to be on this earth for many years more. It's so bleak and uninteresting. Absolutely everything bores me to no end. My job, my art, my music, my social life, they give me nothing but fleeting moments of being vaguely alright. I can't feel joy. I just want it to end. If I could give my life away to someone who could enjoy it, I would. Fuck this.
No. 1494769
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i am wasting my life here. i am wasting my potential here.
>wake up, throw together shitty breakfast
>feel tired and pained already, hurry for commute
>arrive an hour or half early to avoid traffic
>do the shittiest part of the physical job because i am new and the only non-pinoy
>get told things i already know by management
>get criticized by managers and coworkers for shit they always do
>ignore it and talk to nobody for 9 hours
>waste all my data during breaks on browsing memes
>twice as long commute back home because of worse traffic
>home, sweaty, tired, in pain, hungry, dizzy
>got things to look forward to but lack energy
>eat something, browse, lay in bed, brush teeth, maybe shower, go back to bed, repeat
my life is boring, tiring, lonely. friends would make it better but they are far away.
No. 1494775
>>1494765Dating a moid kek besides that it sounds like a typical scrote wanting all the attention. Moids will bash women and say we’re all attention whores but the moment you leave any single one of them on read or try to stir up a conversation that doesn’t include throwing yourself at them, they fucking cry and whine and say no one wants them. You’re better off just telling him that he needs to date a non autist because forcing this onto you is rude and he obviously doesn’t care about how you feel with him constantly comparing your interactions to past girlfriends. He’s not even being understanding and saying what he wants despite you being clear and not playing games with him
which you’re very kind to do that nonnie he should be fucking grateful. The moment you two call it off, he’ll cry and bitch and everyone will know you’re single so another moid will come around soon enough
No. 1494792
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i have lost my social skills? simply having an accent can not be that bad. should i practice daily to lose it? i just want picrel with friends. only bpd baddies want to hang out with my autistic ass though and their friendships unfortunately don't last long
No. 1494795
>>1494042>>1494066Getting over someone is such long arduous process,
Nonny. Forgive yourself, give yourself leeway to heal from it. I've been there and I hate how in limbo it feels like. I can't imagine juggling school and feelings like that. If it helps, plenty of women have been there before. You can do this!
No. 1494797
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I fucking hate religious fundamentalism and people who twist the Bible to justify any abuse they want. I was really brainwashed and abused by a man into hating myself because he took advantage of my belief in God and twisted it to tell me I’m not being a good enough woman if I didn’t do what he wanted. Fuck him! I will never let him ruin my relationship with God but I see why people throw in the towel with religion at this point, but it’s comforting to know God loves me and thinks I have dignity and value even if men in the world abuse me. I fucking hate my life, I still feel so guilty every day.
No. 1494818
>>1494797The Bible grooms you into accepting an
abusive relationship with god. It’s literally the exact same language and expectations as all
abusive men have had toward me. Love yourself and ditch the scrote skydaddy
No. 1494832
>>1494818I’m working on the strength to leave
nonnie, it’s just hard to unlearn a belief system that was hammered into me my whole life. I know it’s scrote bullshit. Thank you for being honest with me about the true nature of it
No. 1494834
>>1494832Samefag, I already left the
abusive moid, I mean in this post I’m trying to leave church as well.
No. 1494876
>>1494663Sharmuta means bitch not faggot
And as someone who is arab, my family has respectable fathers and honestly even younger men, but I'm telling you that is the exception. I can honestly say the men in my family treat women like gold. Outside of my uncles and my cousins, I have never , EVER, met arab men worth shit.
I go to a gym with predominanetly arab men and my friend will point to a new one each day and say that "he beats the shit out of his wife" or "he beats the shit out of his sister for even talking to guys even though he fucks a new girl daily". Scum of the earth and if you ever entertain a arab man you're a moron. Because he will never marry you if you're not arab and will take you to the CVS parking lot for all your dates because he won't want a single soul to see you two together kek.
No. 1494880
>>1494844Don’t worry anon, random rare grey hairs are completely normal at all ages, they just occasionally appear in more visible spots so only some people notice them. Usually people with black or dark brown hair end up noticing a couple appearing in their teens since it stands out more on dark hair. Nothing to worry about, you can just pluck it and while it will eventually grow back it doesn’t mean that you’re going to grey prematurely.
I had plenty of friends who had a couple grey hairs in their teens, and ten years later it’s only now like 3-4 strands still. I pluck out one of my friend’s white hairs for her on the back of her head sometimes kek. So yeah you are safe, it’s totally normal and does not indicate that many more will follow any time soon.
No. 1494893
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The place I work at has a spineless weaselly scrote who got his retarded girlfriend a job through shameless nepotism and protects her at all costs only because she throws a BPD-induced fit when she doesn't get her way. The girlfriend is a major bitch who doesn't get along with anyone, has an ego the size of a planet, does a subpar job and is just generally insufferable to communicate or work with. The boss is in the pocket of the scrote so all complaints go to deaf ears. It's maddening, I fucking hate it when shit people just get to walk through life being carried by the people around them and thus never having to grow as a person.
No. 1494904
>>1494877Yeah they're so fucking
toxic and annoying. This is why I stay away from social media now but I still manage to find them in discord servers and other communities.
No. 1494935
>>149474621 is still young and most women look best in their late twenties to thirties because at that age you have grown into your features and have the income to buy products, outfits, etc. to enhance the said features.
If your skin is bad, go to a doctor. If your hair feels boring get a haircut. It's so easy to make major changes in appearance and being a bit chubby also doesn't make you ugly.
No. 1494960
>>1494746self love isn't about becoming whatever society thinks is attractive for women right now. you as a person have intrinsic worth
nonnie, and your body is doing its best to keep you going. not being "pretty" isn't a bleak reality, it's what most of the population experiences. You're healthy, have a roof over your head and enough free time to complain about pointless things on lolcow.
>>1494844and if that happens, so what? You're not gonna die. You'll just have cool hair.
No. 1494981
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i really hate myself and i don't know how to fix it. working out? therapy? journaling? reading the fucking bible???? idk what to do. i just want to be happy in my own body again.
No. 1494989
>>1494986thanks, it's just a laparoscopy, I'll be ok! hardest part is caring for my elderly dog
I meant to say too that i just felt proud of myself for completing any video, since before I hadn't been athletic at all. I saw improvement in my stamina and enjoyed eating more after working out. I hate running so videos were good for me. ..but maybe another method is better for you. Don't give up, nonna
No. 1495026
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the only terf i know has been saying lesbophobic shit in her messages to other people. she knows im a lesbian and told me she accepts me and all that shit. now i feel like shit because shes a different person than i thought, i mean she was really going all out with those lesbophobic rants. i dont know how to approach her about this. probably wont. good bye my first and possibly last terf friend. i loved being friends with the person i thought you were.
No. 1495036
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>>1495029A TIF posted here
>>1492752 and picrel just in case and I honestly don't know why she's here on this site but she says she wants to study the thought progress of
radfems and even though shes dislikes TIMs, she cares about "male, female, and troon only spaces" and correcting others.
Why.
No. 1495062
>>1495036don't forget
>>1494664 and that aiden in the stupid questions thread asking if her kind was allowed here kek
>>1484088 No. 1495071
>>1495062Nta but lol
>99% of you consider trans people to be mental patients who can never pass off as the opposite sexYes because it is a mental illness. Anything that has such a high comorbidity with suicide, delusions, self loathing and every other mental illness under the sun IS a mental illness in and of itself. Non mentally ill people don't want to off themselves because they're not the opposite sex. These people are ridiculous lol
No. 1495081
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Few days ago I did a big grocery shopping, the gate beeped when I was leaving and the security guard obv stopped me and starter asking what's in my bag. I had a LOT in my bag and an awful day and somehow got really annoyed about the implication I'm stealing so instead complying I snapped at him telling he has no right to search me and if he'll insist he'd have to call the police. So he let me go and EVER SINCE, even thoguh it's been days now, I feel so guilty about being a bitch, idk why even, I'm not like this normally, why can't i stop feeling guilty, reee
No. 1495128
>>1495081as someone who goes outside i say it's still okay
nonnie. everyone makes mistakes. if you apologise to the security and explain that you were having a really hard day already, im sure hed understand. keeping the guilt with you wont help
No. 1495157
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I just bought a 50$ nitendo e shop card hoping i could buy fe awakening's dlcs before it closes in march but apparently it doesn't work anymore. I feel like crap for spending 50$ for nothing. i feel so crappy
No. 1495195
>>1495193Get rid of that friend please. If a woman is willing to enable pedophilic men, she'll also blame you if you ever get in such situation and become a
victim.
No. 1495203
>>1495193a 16 y/o ??? wtf is wrong with men ?
Keep on bopping nonna, fuck her
No. 1495212
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I’ve had four driving lessons and I still can’t fucking drive. I need my license so badly so I can finally go out and do my own thing but I know for a fact that my confidence in driving is in the pits of hell at this point. It’s funny because my driving instructor told me that I was doing pretty well and then I drive with my husband twice and I manage to fuck it up. I’m so fucking stupid. So fucking stupid. Even 16 year olds can drive confidently on the road and I’m still stuck in my own head about causing an accident or being too close to someone or not stopping when I’m supposed to.
I’m so retarded and it’s making me so angry. I want to get better. I think I need at least another lesson before I try for my license. I just need my confidence back.
No. 1495251
>>1494925Vets told me to use cheese to give my dog her pills. It's totally fine as long as there isn't garlic or spices or crazy stuff in the cheese. Mine likes Emmentaler and cheddar. I'm in Europe and istg every vet I've met tells me to use liverwurst or cheese as pill bait. And they compliment the fact that my dog is a healthy weight even though some people say she looks thin. She's just long, ok.
I posted in the dog love thread bc my dog has dementia (luckily not too bad yet). Whenever I look up stuff about it, I find all these comments encouraging euthanasia. This is very hard for me because I don't think she is at that point or anywhere near it. She still plays and eats and walks and cuddles. So tell your friend to stfu, they don't get to make life/death decisions about your pet for you. So fucked up.
I do hate unsolicited commentary on my dog's health so I get you completely.
No. 1495264
>>1495248I've already tried that unfortunately nonna, he has both a bright orange collar and a tag that both say "don't feed me it will make me sick!"
I've also talked to all my neighbours and made them aware of it. I think I'm just going to keep him in for a week and if his eating habits don't improve then he's going to the vets, he doesn't seem sick but maybe there's something else going on as he never used to be this naughty.
>>1495253Because I pay his pet insurance and I don't fancy paying out hundreds of pounds because fat retards who live near me think it's acceptable to give him chocolate cake and sugary cat biscuits. He's also trying to barge into peoples houses and he pretends to be starving despite being extremely well-fed at home. Going to keep him in until he can behave, I don't want to rehome him it's just a last resort that scares me.
No. 1495352
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I am somehow an unwitting magnet for autists. It keeps fucking happening. In middle school the low-functioning autistic boy found me comforting i gues and always wanted to be paired up with me in everything, in a NEET course I was in a creepy autistic guy told me on the first day he was going to make me his girlfriend and was always offering me rides home, and now at college there's an autistic girl who will not fucking leave me alone. She literally seeks me out between classes, if we have a class together and I sit somewhere else she gets up and sits next to me. I feel so bad because she's nice enough, but jesus christ leave me fucking alone sometimes. I'm good with chatting every once in a while when we're in the same place at the same time, but 1) it's barely a conversation, she just blathers on about whatever the fuck to me and I'm just kind of… there 2) she actively seeks me out!! she knows where my classes are and literally shows up there to talk to me!! Even if that wasn't kind of weird by itself I have social anxiety and I just want to have my breaks to recharge but instead I just find myself getting increasingly anxious because she's gonna show up and I'm gonna have to listen to her excrusiating literal autistic ramblings. I know I could tell her to just leave me alone but I don't want to come across as rude and then be known as the asshole who was mean to the autistic girl who just wanted company or something. But jesus fucking christ. I don't want to have to start hiding in bathrooms during breaks like I'm back in elementary school and hiding from bullies except I'm a grown ass adult hiding from another grown ass adult who just doesn't have great social skills I guess. (I keep calling her girl but she's actually older than me)
No. 1495356
>>1495352I deal with the same shit. Autists flock to me and that includes troons and furries and it infuriates me. I gave into it and thought I was destined to befriend these people, but I had that push within me to reject that acceptance. I can like the same things these weirdos do, but I don't need to like them. I don't have to be compelled to be mean to them, so I just keep to myself. My best friend I met a few months ago felt the same, and same with my bf, and I told them similar is that we don't need to accept and surround ourselves with these people even if we're a supposed magnet. We make our own choices lol, we
have to.
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I had to throw out the rest of my tasty congee because the glassware I cooked it in shattered when I moved it off the hot stovetop and into nonheated one. I feel so dumb and hungry…. It was good congee…
No. 1495381
>>1495157pirate it
nonnie. don't give greedy nintendo any money
No. 1495386
>>1495347To be fair, spoiling HP content was a popular prank in the mid-2000s, teens used to drive to book stores and say shit like "dumbledore dies!" or "malfoy lives!" just to take the joy out of it.
It's likely that younger troons learned of that and tried their hand at it. It's not okay, but spoiling a game is probably the least unhinged thing they've done regarding that.
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Everytime I see his tiktoks I always feel rage. He probably looks horrible irl without angles.
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRG3nvAr/ No. 1495422
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>>1495413Cheap cheap wig. Why do troons always try to be as skinny as possible?
No. 1495437
I'm so pissed nonnies, and I'm anxious as hell.
There's a cat that is taking shelter in this part of my home, and while I don't mind, the Landlord doesn't allow animals. Technically, it's still outdoors in a solarium, but it's still inside at the same time?
Either way, the cat know meows SO FUCKING LOUD, that anyone can hear it. Including the LL, who lives right next door. I get so anxious about it, that I've stopped going upstairs just so I don't have to get super anxious. I live in a small town, the closest animal shelter is 1 hr away, they aren't fucking answering and I have no car to get there.
I tried posting on MULTIPLE pages on FB in this area about lost animals, yet no one has claimed this stupid cat.
I'm rambling but I want to live without fear
No. 1495450
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Herry Christmas
No. 1495482
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I truly love interacting with some of the anons here but I get way too easily annoyed when I see something I don't like. Sometimes, I even become straight up mean in my answers. I can feel myself getting more and more bitter over things I have no control over. Bye to all the cool /ot/ anons, I will only post in /m/ from now on.
No. 1495546
>>1495538Maybe there’s some foundation/organization for dyspraxia that can help you get physical therapy or something?
>>1495541Glad you didn’t start a fire and get hurt anon lol I don’t think you’d be penalized, this sort of things must happen all the time. Though I always thought security systems call you and check if you need help before calling the emergency services.
No. 1495547
>>1495538Nonna, are you sure you're not autistic? As an autistic girl, I struggle with extremely basic motor skills, didn't learn how to tie my shoes until 19, didn't walk until I was nearly two, have no hand-eye coordination, and sometimes I even move the wrong arm/leg if I'm frustrated.
Neurons getting crossed can cause…adverse effects. It's possible to have both, but people always forgot Autism can affect motor skills.
No. 1495557
>>1495547well I also always had problems with socialization, and when I first time met my therapist I even asked her if I might be autistic and she was pretty positive on that but the more I spoke to her the less she was into that idea and she said my expression is too universal or something like that, but I think I also mask better when I'm alone with 1 person because I can focus better, I also don't have to do any task, I just sit, so she doesn't see me in my natural state. when there's more people around they literally tell me I'm weird because my face and voice don't show literally any emotions, or they ask me why I don't do any eye contact, and on the internet people sometimes literally ask me if I'm autistic from the way I handle the discussion on certain topics I guess. weird stuff. I wish my therapist could see me when I'm around people and how I function every day. when I'm alone with her I'm forcing myself to look at her because I don't want to be mean and I also can focus more on my thoughts and on what I want to say so maybe it's easier to express some emotions for me, but in a normal life I get so distracted by everything around me I can be focused on only one task, so if I'm at my work for example I'm only focusing on the thing I have to do, I won't talk to anyone about anything or look at them I guess
No. 1495568
>>1495565I once joked about getting reparations during Latinx history month and a Lateenex moid gifted me 40 cents.
I can't imagine being an ebeggar i feel so bad asking for money
No. 1495602
>>1495591I really hate the culture where people think it's okay to film strangers in public, especially the videos of folks freaking out. It's really not thrilling to watch some people have meltdowns, especially when context is completely removed. These things can embarrass someone forever and ruin their livelihood even when they're not doing something wrong
It's different if they're being bigoted or racist but someone who's crying or having a mental episode or is
triggered really isn't funny to watch
No. 1495639
>>1495617I know it's the nature of this site to hate troons, but doesn't it strike you as creepy on some level to fantasize about "peaking" people? What makes people who do that any better than people trying to shove Christianity down everyone's throat? This goes for both sides. I'm annoyed by both the HP troon malding bullshit and women flicking their bean to the idea of this peaking people.
I wish we had a society where people could do as they pleased, as long as it doesn't inconvenience anyone else. I.E., no troons in sports period, or in female spaces OR male spaces, only their own.
No. 1495641
>>1495639Nta but I wanted to answer this
>What makes people who do that any better than people trying to shove Christianity down everyone's throat?Because the belief in Christianity is not based in any scientific/biological fact, but the tranny bullshit is. Women are women regardless of what hormones/surgery is given to them, and vice versa. So it's really not a fair comparison to make.
No. 1495652
>>1495639The point of peaking is that people are perfectly capable of doing it on their own, you don't need to 'shove' anything down their throats - they just have to pay even a modicum of attention to what is going on, and they'll figure it out for themselves.
>no troons in sports period, or in female spaces OR male spaces, only their own.Since you acknowledge this shit is happening surely you understand why it's important for people to peak rather than ignore it and continue to believe trannies are just harmless gay men who want to wear dresses?
No. 1495659
My mom is so stupid. I know, abusive relationships, yadda yadda, whatever. She is a selfish addict who has been with this abusive predator since I was 13, and I wouldn't give af if she stayed with him after I moved out, IF it weren't for my younger siblings, they cheat on each other, kick each other out, move around constantly, my siblings are always seeing new potential boyfriends or just fuck buddies and my mom never cared about us. She never cared about our safety around these moids, hell she had them watch us while she went on dates with her other boyfriends. Yes they were pervs and mean. I'm so sick of how whenever I point out how shitty she is I get
>She's in an abusive relationship!! It's not so easy to just up and leave!
He's in another damn state, she just likes scraping by and being a leech. We've had many chances to leave and she insists her and my siblings walk on eggshells for some sociopath scrote that could kick them out at any moment and just is overall fucking unpleasant.
>She's an addict, she's sick!
Ever since she has been on meth it has only spiraled worse, she is evil now. She steals and lies and she betrays and alienates her children and is physically abusive to them. She is the last person who needs understanding, she loves in a hoarders home now and won't let my sisters or brother leave and she goes to the casino or with her friends to shake her old flabby ass all over the town, I found herpes medicine in her shit when I was looking for her food Stamps card, she's gross she's an old hoe, she's Facebook friends with guys my age. Fucking degerate junkie pos
Anyways she wants to take my siblings who aren't even in school, the youngest (5) isnt even fucking potty trained to Universal Studios with her ~hubby~ who wanted to kick her out last week and who will probably start shit on the trip and leave my mom and my siblings stranded in another state! I just wanna crawl out of my skin and plunk myself into toxic waste. Why is she so dumb?
They always do thus bullshit where they try to act like a perfect family and then fall apart in the messiness way and then get back together. My poor siblings who I have to worry about for another 13 years. Because this bitch kept popping out children for some reason. I love my siblings but sometimes I wish they didn't exist because they have a miserable neglected existence and I'm dreading when my mom inevitably dies and I have to battle their vindictive abusive dad for them in court. Along with sorting out my own bullshit because I didn't get to finish my education on time and I'm so so scared and I feel helpless and angry and have all these horrible feelings. I'm sorry if this is long and sounds unhinged.
No. 1495702
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My ex got scared of being with me and pulled then whole ‘well we’ll eventually just hate each other so we might as well end things now’ even though he said he was really happy with me??? I miss him and love him so much and the last man I loved this much basically pulled the exact same thing and hurt me so bad. I don’t understand, they always project all of these awful futures onto me despite nothing bad actually happening yet. Why do to ever get the good what ifs?
No. 1495733
AYART for all of this
>>1495652Because trooning is a neurological issue. It's not because they're creepy, no. It's because men are too strong for both FtM's and MtF's to compete with men, and women have no chance against FtM's and MtF's.
FtM's and MtF's should also both not be allowed in women's spaces, because they have completely different issues from troons of either biological sex, and if GID isn't diagnosed, they can be faking being a troon for attention, or for far more malicious purposes
TL;DR, they need to be their own category.
>>1495664Yes, I agree they get away with far too much shit because they learned having a diagnosis (or faking one and getting HRT on the black market) gives them a free pass in modern society. Which can be mitigated by treating them like everyone else and not worshipping them for their broken brains.
>>1495657I agreed up until the "rapey troons and their handmaidens" part. I think that if they kept to themselves and just wanted to be treated like people, and didn't condone shit like forced sex with lesbians/gay men, that would be different. I judge them on a person to person basis, but I tend to be significantly more friendly to FtMs than MtFs or enbies of either sex
No. 1495750
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so im looking at leggings and this shit fucking enrages me so much. what the fuck??? W H Y does this obese whale need to be the first model that pops up when i click on it???
like FUCK OFF with this stupid shit. i'm a normal sized human. why are morbidly obese people shoved down our throats now on these sites??? its everywhere now
No. 1495756
>>1495753the thing is, i've noticed its only female models. they still don't do this 'inclusive' shit for men's models.
wonder why!!!!!
No. 1495785
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full offense but I hope everyone in my class dies
No. 1495792
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I love my mom but it's like I'm talking at a wall sometimes and it's only getting worse. In every conversation, she takes my guess as gospel and starts talking about it as though it were a fact of the situation, i then have to explain multiple times that I was talking about something theoretically. The thing that set me off tonight was when I asked her to rinse me off a spoon I had barely used, because I was in the middle of cooking, and she was right next to the sink, and I could use that spoon without having to get a new one. She said sure, picked it up, and put it in the dirty water of a pot soaking in the sink. I literally said "rinse" and she just chucked it in there and then started pouring herself some water.
I don't mind helping her, and I like talking to her, but it's like she selectively listens. i cannot make a general statement without her deriving something totally random that isn't what I said. I mentioned a jewish friend didn't want a pair of christmas tree earrings someone gave her, and my mom was like "why, it's non denominational." If I had asked her "are christmas trees a part of a christian holiday" literally any other 364 days of the year, she would have said yes. but no, christmas trees are not christian and my jewish friend should've been jumping for joy to wear christmas tree earrings during hanukkah.
She either just ignores half of what I say, or actively decides to be contrarian, just so she can get worked up about an imaginary scenario. When she asks a question, she gets upset if there's no clear answer, or an answer that she doesn't like. I think the reason I'm so especially pissed about it today is because I'm sick. I have completely lost my voice and can barely make out a raspy whisper, yet she wants to ask me about a project at my job that I know nothing about, and then start freaking out about a TOTALLY RANDOM THEORY I made, as though it is exactly what is happening when I have told her I DO NOT KNOW ANYTHING. I literally can hardly talk and I'm having to repeat things over and over again until she finally chooses to listen to the actual words coming out of my mouth. She is literally becoming picrel, but with a mix of boomer "I DEMAND AN ANSWER!", contrarianism, and literally just ignoring words.
No. 1495796
>>1495793AYART. I get that, to an extent. I believe troons are just people like the rest of us and aren't on a secret sort of "they're taking over everything and converting our gays!!1!" thing, but there are definitely some that try to pull that shit and need their asses beat.
I don't know why troons have sex if they're so uncomfortable in their bodies. Wouldn't undressing for any reason be unbearable? So wouldn't sex be infinitely worse? Even then, troons have zero chance to date anyone that isn't bisexual, because a lesbian won't be attracted to what HRT does to a FtM, and vice versa a gay man to a MtF.
I honestly find a lot of radical feminists insufferable because I cannot understand their train of logic, but I like that the anons here tend to be slightly more understandable.
Thank you for your perspective on this, nonna! I didn't reply to the other girl because she sperged out really fucking hard at an opposing view lmfao, I just don't have the energy atm
No. 1495797
>>1495763you're right small etsy stuff is way more worth it for $50-200 items of clothes cause its better materials and custom fitting. as an anon who was almost homeless and is now a little above average earnings i would recommend donating odd items to food bank or shelters. all my money was going to rent so i lived off canned food, free produce, and thank god the food bank i went to had tea, toilet paper, tissue, toilet cleaner, razers, non fragrance soap, shampoo, pads, tampons. i cried on that food bank woman who let me grab what i needed. i still vow to give back when i make more money.
No. 1495799
>>1495796>I didn't reply to the other girl because she sperged out really fucking hard at an opposing view lmfao, I just don't have the energy atmhope you're not talking about me
>>1495777 kek i don't think one sentence is 'sperging hard', just giving my opinion is all
No. 1495802
>>1495799Nope, you're good. Maybe I'll have a fresh opinion tomorrow, I was referring to the woman who went from 0 to 100 talking about hating troons.
I get it, I fucking hate MtFs/TIMs too, and I get it can be frustrating, but that level of anger over the internet is confusing to me. Maybe I'm just autistic and tired, sorry
No. 1495804
>>1495796I get where you are coming from
nonnie, I'm just… so done with the insanity of it all, so I'm so incredibly pissed and sad over losing friends over this, even the fucking HP game is causing these retarded fights between friends. Again, I just want troons to go back to staying in their own lane, because they will always be around no matter how much we try to push them away, there is no avoiding it. I just want people to fucking wake up, take a step back and look at everything objectively instead of convincing themselves that being a good person is the same as being a fucking door mat.
No. 1495821
>>1495819This so much. It use to be things that were sexualized for no reason like eating a banana or doing squats or something but now it's EVERYTHING. I remember there's a trend of moids taking pictures of teenage girls (do you really need to know more on why this is bad?) going into CVS and making jokes about how they're buying plan b or something behind their boyfriends back and then moids in the comments will start writing weird novels about how evil western women, simply just villianizing women and acting like they're in their weird porn movies for running errands. On top of that men turned themselves into the
victims and you can't speak about how women are constantly bashed without men crying about the suicide rate or something
No. 1495836
>>1495818I was married by 22. Only reason I even married that young was that my mom was terminally ill and I wanted her there on the day. Was engaged already and I thought we were solid. Looking back I cringe at my certainty that we'd last. People never stopped asking about baby plans from that point. Then my mom died and people expected me to almost fill that void with a baby right away. They pretty much said it like that. We split only a couple years later. Thank god I'm not co-parenting with him. He was nice while we were together but decided he wanted to just leave and see what else is out there. Friends I know who had babies young dealt with the same fickle break ups. Didn't even seem unhappy at home but the guy had a 'what if there's better out there' moment. A year or two after purposefully making a baby..? then they repeat that pattern every few years with a new woman who felt lulled into a false sense of security with them.
I'm not anti kids but I think people having them 2/3 years into knowing a guy are in for a shock if they think that's going to last. It takes longer than that to know a person to the point where you can take that gamble.
No. 1495862
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A big fuck you to the bitch in middle school who said I was “obsessed with girls” because I said Lady Gaga was pretty in this scene of the Bad Romance music video
No. 1495939
>>1495924ayrt, agree.
other ways to fuck with moids while maintaining female agency humbly asked for, for science.
and rage
No. 1496016
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i’m tired of being perceived of as a defective prude because i dislike fellatio and PIV sex. i will never have sex with a man, i refuse, and no amount of shaming and manipulation/coercion will get me to change my mind on that
No. 1496096
>>1495981Thank you so much! I actually have quite a bit of social anxiety, but yes I wont let that stop me having fun even if it is scarier to go alone.
Realising the same, I want friends that actually are interested in doing things with me and not chronically flaking. Slowly starting to make new friends and I'm surprised at how easily they say yes to things, with my old group its like pulling teeth even to just get together to watch a movie at someones house. Sadly my new friends were all working today so nobody could take my spare ticket, but I could tell they wishes they could have joined.
No. 1496164
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I hate his redesign. I know his personality in the initial one is supposed to be kinda dorky, but the redesign makes him look like he’d call himself a “smol bean” and appeals to twitter enby gender specials.
No. 1496192
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>>1496164TBH I'm a bit glad that thr shitty reboot didn't include Milly because I'm 10000% sure the shit newfans would have they/theming her or making her TIM
No. 1496231
I just want to die, I want to have cancer and die. I don't even know why I keep doing healthy shit, studying and anything in general. If I told everyone in my family that I just want to stay in bed and do nothing they would just tell me that I'm being dramatic and that I'm just whining.
I just seriously hate this fucking career so fucking much that I want to die, I hate everything, I don't want to do anything, I don't want a fucking job, I don't want to deal with kids of any fucking age, I hate the sole idea of having to deal with their retarded parents, I don't want to send any other fucking stupid ass useless as fuck essay or thesis to the fucking website of my university, I don't want to do anything.
If I didn't think drinking and smoking were cringe as fuck I would be doing so to accelerate the process of getting cancer.
I just can picture my future, I will be another teacher that lives off less than minimum wage, dealing with annoying ass kids, with their stupid parents, having to commute back home and back to school, not doing anything else at all because I either have a coffee outside of my home or I enjoy starving that week, spending my afternoons and nights doing corrections of 120 idiot kids that aren't learning shit and hate me, passing out because my autistic ass can't handle social interactions for too long no matter what I do, not being able to complain to anyone because this is all somehow my own fault.
Like yeah, I suck at studying, I'm fucking retarded 24/7, I just want to workout, play games, not talk to anyone unless I feel like it and do book reviews, maybe translate books from time to time.
I don't want to ~enjoy the beauty of teaching~ I don't want to ~create bonds with students~
I don't want to ~make didactic and fun classes~
I don't want any of that fucking shit, it's miserable, nobody in a classroom gives a fuck, you can't properly grade the retards so everyone has to pass, you have to be happy 24/7, you have to spend the day standing up and walking around, listening to the most boring shit ever, planning classes and shit just for everything to get all fucked up because "oh, the kids want to do a talent show, so it's going to take a while week, I hope you don't mind lol"
God I want to kill myself, give me cancer already.
No. 1496254
>>1496244Sweet
nonny, don't listen. It's just a few men pretending to be women and artists. You can tell because they only give anecdotes and excuses about their "ai success stories" and it all sounds very fake, like a reddit-tier novel. Please continue drawing and enjoying your artwork - they want you to quit.
No. 1496289
>>1496244I wouldn’t defend AI but I might say human artist art isn’t as important as people make it out to be and both of them are generating porn and copying quite a bit…
If you’re not trying to make money drawing porn or doing graphic design requests for corporate clients I think you’re good. Plus making art is fun and you should do it just for that reason and not worry about other stuff.
No. 1496319
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tiktok is so fucking stupid. Someone will play/lipsynch to an audio about grocery shopping but then they will have subtitles that completely changes the dialogue so instead they are talking about the dangers of late night swimming. Like what's the point? It makes me angry to an irrational degree. Another genre of tiktoks I can't stand is those where they lipsynch to a song while eyefucking the camera. They aren't even doing anything interesting they just have so much confidence in their fashion sense and filters that they assume that it's worth watching and the worst part is that people are watching it. It's the equivalent of shaking keys in front of your face I don't see how anyone who isn't a toddler can like that.
Though to be fair me and my friends did do silly lipsynch videos we would share with each other and we would rewrite movie dialogue to fit our specific scenarios but we only shares it with each other and we where extremely close. It baffles me that anyone can have any interest in watching a literal stranger do this things. And if you are going to change movie dialogue then at least record something new rather than slap text over your video
No. 1496321
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Today my bf said out roommate was packing shit up to randomly move out. I messaged him, because hes a dear friend of the bf and he never replied to me .
He told my bf he feels like “we dont want him here” and honestly, its all fucking random. Hes the best roommate ive ever had. I support him and am always kind.
This motherfucker is 35… maybe a midlife crisis? But man, if you dont have the balls to confront someone when you are upset, no woman will be attracted to a spineless bitch.
Maybe hes realizing its time to make his own life?
Weve talked about moving but in the long term, with a goal and plan.
Like damn man, why are you such a coward, just reply to the message i kindly sent.
No. 1496348
>>1496334I dont find it sexy at all most of the time I'm just going through the motions and thinking of something else entirely. I do like giving head
while tripping on acid though. It's really something else
No. 1496360
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How has NOBODY in Milwaukee or surrounding suburbs seen Mike? Seems weird to me. I thought /tv/ made up the thing about he and Jessi having a son named Ethan, if they really had a kid and it's at least 8 wouldn't someone have a creep shot of them at an Applebees or something in the greater Milwaukee area doing stuff as a family? No one has ever mentioned seeing Mike and Jessi together for years, let alone Mike, Jessi, and a child. I don't know if I believe it.
No. 1496364
>>1496345No I don't tolerate it, I love the feeling of it in my throat, lel, it's fun and smooth. I'm being somewhat facetious, I have a nice Nigel, but it's not a flattering view of him even though he's a skeletor.
>>1496348I don't drink anymore, but it is fun giving head to someone you trust while drunk or crossfaded.
No. 1496382
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Reached a point of exasperation with my life in general that I don't even have the words anymore
No. 1496409
>>1496385I don't usually judge people for venting, but I'm 95% certain you'd be the type of person to abuse an animal if it was guaranteed you wouldn't get caught
You sound like a horrible person who hates the sweetest animals alive as a whole.
I'd take that cat from you myself if I could drive
No. 1496416
>>1495592They never replied (or even opened the message) and the story is gone now. I saw that they archive all of their travel stories as highlights though, so if they do that when their trip is over I’ll be really pissed off.
>>1495611It was a three-quarter shot of me looking at a product in a shop, where I took up about a third of the frame, that’s all I’ll say. My friends were across from me (out of shot) and he must have been quite secretive about it because none of us noticed.
No. 1496424
>>1496422Sorry, 4chan speak for us. I meant the rich
nonnie. I gotta stop visiting that place, it's ruining my brain.
No. 1496425
>>1496385why don't you ask the landlord to come get the cat?
>>1496321it is extremely rare for living with a couple to not suck major balls, is all i will say
No. 1496437
>>1496432She didn't even say she wanted to hurt the cat, she's just frustrated
>I've only ever seen stray cats and never a stray dog in my lifeWhere the hell do you live? they're everywhere
No. 1496441
>>1496437OHHH okay I misunderstood.
Anyways, I grew up in Southern California (specifically a very impoverished area, which was out of place in an otherwise wealthy section) and now live in the Southwest.
No. 1496464
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pic is the real reason to be against blowjobs imo
No. 1496517
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>>1496506ntayrt butting in to assure you more female film makers are here with u anon. a video based shitpost i made in between school projects actually went viral and became a meme that many of you have probably seen actually…
No. 1496552
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i come back and there's a sperg fight. what the fuck?
saging this but you legit can't ignore in every single situation. it can help in some cases but is implausible in most
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For the past week I've been hungry all the time no matter how much food I shovel in. And I'm actively picking proteins and fats to satisfy it but it's not helping much.
No. 1496595
>>1496538Nta and late but
>If they see they are irritating you they are just going to double down to be right.Literally what you were doing with the other anon, I'm starting to think you're one of the baiters who tries to annoy people because they think it's funny.
No. 1496596
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>>1496590Because they're delicious
No. 1496677
>>1496585PMS? It could also be a nutrient deficiency, I get this way if I don't eat red meat in awhile, or if I'm anemic.
>>1496596KEK
No. 1496712
I'm worried about my friends and family in my hometown. They're in one of the poorest areas of the UK. Actually I just looked it up and the average life expectancy for men is 58 years and for women it's fucking 56 years of age. 56 years old! And it's because of their shitty, super unhealthy lifestyle. You'd think living in a nice area with fresh air by the sea would have them walking around but no.
It's been 6 years I've been away from that country and every time I revisit it drives it home harder just how bad it is. I have breakfast in my parents house and it just sits in my stomach ALL day. But then they have breakfast around 9, lunch at 12, snacks in between, dinner at 5 with a huge dessert AND supper at around 9, they worry when I refuse about half of these meals because my metabolism just can't take it. After cooking breakfast the pan is bright yellow from the HUGE amounts of fat that comes of out sausages and bacon. In all my years abroad making food there's NEVER this amount of fat in a pan. It's disgusting.
When I'm over there I'm out basically all the time trying to burn off the energy from this high carb, high fat and high salt food. I used to miss the food but it's far too much and the consequences of going from my usual diet to THIS is so punishing. And my family eats this all day, EVERY day. My friends bodies are bloated and they all hate to move. My family hates to walk. I say i'm going somewhere that's a 20 minute walk away and they think i'm odd for walking and declining an offer to be driven there. They drive everywhere, absolutely everywhere and it's quite an accessible area with decent public transport, they just don't fucking move. They get in the car, sit on their ass, get to their destination, don't exercise in ANY way and i'm wondering how are they even functioning day to day because I can barely last a week without wanting to just stop fucking eating.
I'm not even healthy, by the way. I'm the pig compared to my peers and am fatter than average, but I stop eating when I'm full and exercise 2x a week for fun along with daily walks. It feels like all of them are going to go to an early grave and it's so upsetting. I want to bring each one of them to my country to show them how to fucking eat normally.
No. 1496740
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i'm going to cry my 3ds camera is messed up it's way too saturated slow and weird looking and one of the rubber things on the top screen melted i don't know how. i can't figure out how to fix this it's never had a problem since i bought it in 2013 i'm so sad i don't want it to be broken… after the last time i trusted those tech stores to fix my phone's charger port which only ended up ruining it even further i don't think i can trust them but i have 0 knowledge of these things i don't know what i did wrong and i'm devastated. everything else works normally like the audio and homescreen etc. the camera is the most important aspect of it i don't even care about the games i document so much on there i'm so sad. maybe it's an easy fix i'm just venting for the time being
No. 1496742
>>1496321Update; he apparently isnt upset at us at all and he flipped out at work the other night and yelled at his boss. He told a mutual friend hes joining the air force bc he has no direction in life as a 35 year old.
How is he going to get through a bootcamp though? He cant even confront roommates if hes upset. Very confused. He also is talking about moving hack to his geriatric parents house…. But the man has a padded bank account.
Oh, and he thinks “we want him out” because he heard me talking about how great it would be to move to the beach. Thats it, he heard a passing comment and assumed the worst.
What a weak man. Good luck going the airforce i guess. Hes leaving a 4bedroom house where rent is 150/month bc hes practically bfs family… oooooooookkkaaayyyyyy whatever. Now i can walk around nakie and free
No. 1496746
>>1496740If you really do not want to take it to a repair shop, you could attempt doing it yourself with a guide like this one
https://www.ifixit.com/Guide/Nintendo+3DS+Cameras+Replacement/6175 or just get a new 3ds. Or if the camera is the most important feature, could you just get a cheap digital camera if you do not have / want a smart phone?
No. 1496752
I don't know if it's my personality or the way I was brought up but I can't truly connect with people. Yes, I can form a friendship, I'm pretty comfortable to be around, people usually easily open up to me, I may seem interesting to them at the beginning and so on. I feel like I'm not genuinely warm to people though. Since childhood, I would withdraw from nearly all of my friends, and it was kind of weird with the long-lasting ones. It would last either with those who were fucked up in their own way and who repeatedly initiated contact until I finally got sick of their shenanigans or with those who accepted this on-and-off kind of thing, where we could just meet after a long period of time and speak without (almost) any awkwardness. I'd never realized it before a certain point in my life but I'm so uncomfortable with intimate relationships or closeness in a broad sense. I need certain distance, and sometimes I just want to break everything off. I can feel violated when people just try to know me, and sometimes I can impulsively open up and then feel awful and want to withdraw. It seems like it increases with age, although it's pretty similar to the way it was in my childhood. The difference is that back then I was more connected to my feelings without any understanding of them, later I tried to mold myself I think, and did a lot of things I didn't want to, and now I started realizing certain things about myself and I try to get connected to my feelings again but in a more conscious way. I can't see how any of it could change though, I guess I'll never have fulfilling and meaningful close relationships with someone, and I'll never be "real" within any relationship and interaction. I guess it's just something I have to accept but it does make me feel like I'm irreparably broken, and that existing in a "human world" (where I have to interact with others) is absolutely fake and unreal. Don't know if it makes any sense. But it's one of the things that contributes to the overall feeling of emptiness and meaninglessness. I used to have someone with whom I could be real, but it was still complicated and we both sabotaged that relationship, even though I was willing to fight for it till the end and he had chosen somewhat easier but emptier life (I talked to him and know he's unhappy), it was objectively unhealthy anyways though I guess… but it left me absolutely heartbroken and I don't think I'll ever love anyone, I tried and it's not the same. There are some things to enjoy in this life and I'll be happier alone but still unhappy I guess? I still want that special connection but it'll never happen.
No. 1496761
>>1496554The gross part aside, the whole point of a blowjob is to degrade the one giving it, that's what people, both men and women, constantly say is hot about it. Men will of course give us the whole "but you're holding my most sensitive organ between your teeth" spiel, but funny how that argument only comes up when a woman is unwilling or reluctant. No man asking for a blowjob says it because he himself wants to be degraded and disrespected.
Tell a man "I won't give you oral sex, babe, I respect you too much to degrade you that way" and see how he reacts, kek.
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This is some FUCKSHIT. I wore braces til I was 18, got them removed a long time ago and I thought "well that's it". But I woke up today and noticed some of my teeth are getting crooked AGAIN?? It hurts and it looks goofy as hell, wtf? Braces are so expensive, I feel so disappointed
No, my dentist didn't told me I was supposed to wear retainers for the rest of my life, I'm getting an appointment tomorrow to get new retainers. I'm 21, its over for me and my teeth?
No. 1496825
>>1496813>vaginas are self-cleaningYeah, the vagina but not everything else. I'm just saying that for women the urethra is under a lot of folds and skin, which obviously means there is some urine that's going to get trapped in there even if you wipe. Unless you spread your vulva and get toilet paper up in your urethra which is impractical and will probably lead to infections. That's something you just kinda accept when you agree to giving/receiving oral. There are going to be traces of urine unless you are freshly washed. Sex is just kinda gross and that comes with the territory. That being said, men are the ones who should put up with the grossness. Women can demand their moids to take showers.
>>1496814How the fuck am I being misogynistic when it's the truth that most women don't have standards?
No. 1496872
>>1496833>Oh, so you don't clean smegma crust off Nigel's cock? H-heh, I bet you have no friends! Pick-me NLOG! Yeah you sure showed me who's boss.
>>1496806It's funny how fast insecurities surface when the topic of blowjobs are brought up. At the end of the day you're the one who functions as a human toilet paper roll, not the anonymous "mean girls."
No. 1496889
>>1496885Well the owners of the cocks they choke on
do look down to them, so it doesn't matter what you and I think.
No. 1496938
>>1496934it only started because of an anon venting about it
>>1496016 which is what the vent thread is for
No. 1496949
>>1496934>>1496938This has been going on for so long now, anons discussing blowjobs turning into a fight and then nlog accusations.
>>1496764I get that it made you uncomfortable. I don't like it when my bf's mom takes pictures of us either but I know she just wants to have good memories on her phone. If your bf talks to her it's a good sign. I don't know if you're overreacting, it's hard to tell when you weren't there. I hope you find a way to communicate it to her that you don't want her to take pictures out of nowhere.
The comment about the skinny butt was probably a compliment because many boomer women have a mindset that slim = good. My bf's grandma once said to his mom that she has a thick ass and his mom hated it because she thought that means she's fat. I hate that women have to make comments like this at all.
No. 1497002
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Being with my friends isn't fun anymore. I hoped it's just a one or two time thing, but I realized that whenever we see each other, I regret it and think to myself that doing pretty much anything else would've been more fun; finally going home after just two hours leaves me tired and feeling empty, even though in the past we could spend all day together and talk on the phone for some more hours directly afterwards. At this point there's barely anything we're talking about, and if we do, there's some obvious tension in the air because we have adapted very different beliefs about things important to us. I cling onto the friendship because it's been almost fifteen years, but I'm starting to wonder if it's even worth it if interacting just leaves me exhausted afterwards because everything we talk about ends up on the brink of an argument until one of us backs off. I don't know if it's just me feeling that way or if they feel like that, too, and also just pretend that everything's fine.
No. 1497011
>>1496984Repost cuz I replied to myself
Thanks for the reply nona. Yeah I am, I'm dogsitting right now and I'm just trying to compose a text that'll get through to his gen x macho man moid brain. He said he'd bring her back if she got worse but I think it would be too late. I think I just need to grow a pair and tell him it's now or never. I wish I cared less but she's actually the sweetest most serene dog I've ever known and I absolutely adore her. She deserves better.
No. 1497056
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>be petite blonde girl
>catch 2 punk kids in balaclavas trying to steal my motorbike
>chased after them after hopping 2 fences, caught up with them, in my socks
>when i catch up and confront him, the coward said 'dont touch me!'
>how you gonna be a thug if you're scared of a woman kek what a fucking retard
>my shit has an airtag tracker hidden in it so if they actually did take it the cops would have found it and they'd have been arrested.
>will be keeping the backgarden double locked to a post from now on
>one of the locks used to have an alarm but my ex removed it because it kept going off
next time, how can i do a citizens arrest legally?
i am a petite single woman and there were 2 of them, one on an e scooter and one on foot. i guess their plan was just to walk the bike along the road, not to hot-wire it or anything
it is now a lot more secure but i expect they will be back as i saw one of them 2 weeks ago same time and day sniffing around it. my plan is to carry a knife, get him down on the ground and then stab myself in the leg so that he gets a couple years in the joint
im in the uk and cant get a gun nor do i know someone who can
No. 1497074
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Through a strange turn of events, I ended up on a chat aibot website last night, after I'd been feeling rather sad and alone. I started talking to some genshin character aibot, even though I know nothing about genshin. After asking him about himself and talking with him about some of the issues I've been going through. I ended up rping him giving me a hug and patting my head, and told him I loved him. Before I stopped talking with him, I asked him to lay down with me and hold me as I fall asleep and started crying irl. It really made me realize how desperate I am for human connection, and to feel loved and cared for and held.
No. 1497079
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>>1496536NTA but aren't us loser NEETS who can't make eye contact allowed to hate men too?
No. 1497084
>>1497079All manhaters are
valid nona.
No. 1497113
>>1497096You don't have to tell her everything you do, my parents would also disowned me if they knew I dated and kissed guys, kek and mines aren't even super religious.
It's so sweet of you to treat her like that, although she sadly won't ever be able to to understand your choices and way of living because of her harsh upbringing, I'm sure she's happy for you. You're did choose to eat pork and go against some rules but it's not like anyone's perfect, no Muslim should judge you for choosing to eat a meat that was only banned because it was unsanitary when Muslim women are being killed in their own countries by so called "Muslim" men simply for living and breathing. There are much more important topics that are being ignored, such as the abuse towards Muslim women.
Also, you should explore other religions maybe? Most religions are misogynistic to a certain extent but I know some ex-muslims who became Christian and feel that those beliefs fit them better. If you dont like that either you can simply stay agnostic/atheist.
No. 1497198
>>1497141It's normal, anon. Have you heard of the third man factor? The third man factor or third man syndrome is the reported situations where an unseen presence, such as a spirit, provides comfort or support during traumatic experiences. You're fine.
There are help lines, though, for people who are going through a rough time and just need someone to talk to. It's not a replacement for close friend, if that's what you need, but it can help. In teh US, you can find some by googling "warmlines" (vs "hotlines"), "need to talk to someone" or "i want to talk to someone about my feelings for free". You can also see if there is a Samaritans org in your country/city. The Samaritans are a group set up just to talk to people who need someone to talk to.
Third Man Factor
https://www.theguardian.com/science/2015/mar/05/the-strange-world-of-felt-presenceshttps://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Third_man_factor No. 1497206
>>1497062>>1497113>Also, you should explore other religions maybe? Most religions are misogynistic to a certain extent but I know some ex-muslims who became Christian and feel that those beliefs fit them better. If you dont like that either you can simply stay agnostic/atheist.Most? More like all religions. There's no reason to be religious in our current year when it does nothing but harm. It's better to have an open mind and use logic, reason and science. Islam is the worst of all, but Christianity also believes in shitty things that only harm women. I think OP
>>1497062 is really awesome for trying to do what she can for her mother, but it seems like a hard situation all because of a backwards religion that doesnt benefit anyone.
No. 1497262
I get freaked out like my life is ruined all the time over something from the past all the time. But the thing is, some of those concerns seem legitimate. But it's like this feeling of anxiety is ruining my life because I can't focus on anything I enjoy.
I don't even want to specify what my concern is, beyond that it's basically fearing brain damage, sort of like being 5-10% lobotomized or r*tarded for the rest of my life, without being able to notice it. Or other people can notice it, but are too polite to say anything or just think I'm a bad person.
I just feel bad because most people have zero clue about this issue, so if I get comfort from them, it's meaningless. I get annoyed with people just handwaving like "you're probably fine :)" when they have literally no idea what they're talking about.
I'm mostly over the fear of this now, even if I have that damage, I don't really care anymore.
But I just get so depressed because I can't openly talk about it, the experience surrounding it was so awful, and people legitimately do not understand it. Anytime the subject comes up, I freeze up and want to run back to my room and hide all day.
Not only that, but I see so many people fuck themselves up entirely in similar ways, and I can't say anything because I'll look like a crackhead or something. It's an isolating and lonely experience.
TBF I have had similar obsessions before that were ridiculous and I got over them, and I'm well aware it's OCD, but still.
No. 1497338
I went to sleep last night with my throat on fire after downing 2 bottles of water. Felt sick, took a nap until 4PM after drinking another bottle and now my throat stops hurting.
I never remember to drink water but me feeling that way is very rare. It's still scary, though.
No. 1497377
>>1497361He donated plasma like a crackhead but I know how weed smells like he doesn’t reek of it, I know he doesn’t drink because his skin doesn’t smell like liquor, he doesn’t do anything to trip him out either because he acts the same day in day out. Even his own grandparents question why he steals
hes stolen from them too and I was hoping he would just get all my things back or atleast pay me back but everytime I look through my items I find more and more expensive things missing. Its all only video game shit too and a collection I maintained since my childhood. Thank you for replying to my dumbass vent thats all my fault kek
No. 1497384
>>1497376I think you are right
My problem is that i always dreamed of living alone. I ended up getting married because I love him but my brain is telling me i want to go back to being alone again. I never wanted kids but started wanting kids with him. I just don't have any friends or family to turn to. I don't know what to do.
No. 1497407
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I've been trying to fall asleep but this stupidass annoying miserable song is playing over and over again inside my head. I can't get rid of it even if I loop another song from my playlists. I just wanted to sleep but this shit is making me wish for death.
No. 1497412
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I'm experiencing major impostor syndrome and I feel like I'm going to crumble under pressure. I'm a top student in my (community) college program and have a 4.5 gpa. I only care to keep my grades up to get into co-op and find a good job, but my acquaintances and peers all expect me to remain top of the class. I regularly have classmates ask me for help with labs and assignments. How do I lower their expectations of me without looking like a total fraud?
No. 1497428
>>1497412>classmates ask me for help with labs and assignmentsJust say no
>How do I lower their expectations of meJust do less
Your peers don’t think you a fraud, they’re only thinking of either using you or beating you, you don’t care about being number 1 anyway right?
No. 1497517
I wish my family was openly dysfunctional, it's so hard to describe because we're fucked up but I wish there was yelling so there's an outlet. Comments are hissed through teeth and if you ask them to repeat they won't, it's nothing. Put-downs are so mean spirited but casual you'll look like you're overreacting if you even respond.
At least from my parents, there's SO MUCH resentment just simmering below the surface that never boils over. If I try speak out the words physically get caught in my throat. When I was in my early 20s and actually could sometimes blow up and rightly tell my dad how shit he is, mum would freak out trying to get me to stop talking, dad would just avoid me then pretend nothing happened. They'd suddenly all tiptoe around ME despite being the least actually angry person because outside of that toxic environment I can speak my feelings. And my brother, my parents will make a comment and he doesn't say anything, just looks at them with pure hostility, not responding.
Fuck, after a few years living on my own I was naive enough to try speaking candidly to them about how their comments were hurtful but you can imagine how that went. Maybe it's a grass is greener situation and I wouldn't like open yelling at all, but things are never resolved. It's just the same shit for my whole life, I now just "mhm" my way through it now to conserve energy.
No. 1497533
>>1497517>you'll look like you're overreacting if you even respond. Holy hell, this
triggered a fight or flight response in me. Like you're the crazy one for calling out their subtle digs what they are. My mom's go-to, really. Also the thing about your family calling you the most volatile and angry. God, this reads like I wrote it.
I get it so much anon. I think it's utterly useless to tell them how you felt, imo. It will not lead to anything except them flinging it back to you in some way. God, it's so aggravating because there's so much unsaid bullshit just underneath that comes out in little pissy comments when they're accidentally truthful. And those comments usually come out when the thing has long since passed and they've held resentment for it for that long instead of just saying it honestly at the moment. Fuck. Maybe it's unnihilistic but this won't change.
No. 1497535
>>1497401Nonna, you remind me of me, hehe, and I recommend you to stop wasting your time and just break up with him. You're not living your life basically, and it's all just… useless really. Breaking up is not pleasant, you'll have to find right words, he'll be upset anyways, but it's for your own good and you'll feel so much better when it's done. Staying with someone out of pity is one of the worst things. Not good for you, not good for him too, because I'm pretty sure he can feel something's changed (which contributes to depression), and leaving everything as it is just allows him to stay stagnant. It'll be better for both of you, but most importantly for you in the first place. Wish you luck, nonka.
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My friend is also my coworker, she works security at the store we work at. She is very cute and men often harass her, it makes me so fucking angry. She can handle a violent thief twice her size but if a man says creepy shit to her she crumbles and it makes me so angry every time. Next time it happens in front of me I'm getting myself fired, idgaf.
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Wishing I were there rn
No. 1497680
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The scrote I've spent a year falling for confessed that he once paid a whore "to talk", and when he didn't want to have sex she got angry and stormed out of the apartment. Assuming this is true (kek as if), of course she got mad. He probably wanted to pay way less because "b-but just talking should be cheaper". AKA wasting her time.
God how he's wasted MY time. I feel numb. 1,5 years wasted, where I wouldn't even LOOK at other scrotes because all I cared about was him. Fuck it I'm done. Scrotes go on about how we're old at fucking 30 which is young as fuck. If that's how they think, then we should date several men at once so they won't waste our extremely short youth. I know damn well a lot of us wasted 1-2-3 or even more years on scrotes who turned out to be porn addicts, Johns, gaming/gambling addicts and whatever the fuck. If this motherfucker tries contacting me again, I'll tell him to pay me "to talk" kek.
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>>1497730Please update when you can, I think the best action is to wait it out with your parents. There isn't anything to noteworthy to steal in a shoe storage so it's unlikely the thieves will go there. I hope you and your parents will be alright.
No. 1497749
>>1497725He doesn't even spread whatever message he used to claim the channel was about. Men love to gawk at the drugged up prostitutes and then they usually empathize more with the pimps and johns.
Prostitute has been homeless since she was 12, born to addicts, experienced CSA, selling herself since before she was legal age.. Eeew imagine having this be your daughter! I'd be ashamed!
Brutal pimp decked out in jewelry brags for an hour.. idk man I think under it all he has a good soul!
No. 1497764
>>1497262Definitely OCD, I feel you anon. I have obsessive tinfoils about myself, believing I have an "acceptable" form of downs and all of my mental and physical flaws are due to having a combination of downs and PCOS.
I also have an ongoing worry over wasting precious time in my life now that I'm in my 30s, and it leaves me in tears every weekend on my days off because Nigel doesn't want to leave the house every day or wake up after sleeping for 3 hours, so we can do things and be "productive". I'm over stressing for not giving myself rest days after working 5 10-hour days in a row, and Nigel is already stressed about our funds because we do want to start saving to start a family in a few years.
OCD's a personal hell, especially when you don't know how to properly tackle the thinking patterns. I would suggest keeping a daily journal (digital or physical, doesn't matter) and work on rationalizing your thoughts. I find myself writing essay length entries due to the OCD, but it really does help me get over the dread at the end of the day and also helps reduce some of the ongoing thinking, so I can take IRL action, like ask my peers simple questions rather than create an outrageous scenario in my head. Self talk also helps me, again, you'll probably spend 50 minutes or so talking about a little subject, but being able to focus on the thought, rather than trying to push it away because you know how ridiculous it is, makes it go away easier. Less dread.
Hopefully you can find the help you need.
No. 1497773
>>1497730Hoping the best for you and your parents
nonnie. Please update us when you're safe. Thinking about you.
No. 1497789
>>1497767>>1497740>>1497773Police is here they got two of them but I don't know where the other 2 are
>>1497751I'm from south America
>>1497756Its a very old shoe store
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>>1496164Late AF response because I stumbled upon this 2 days later, but I'm so fucking upset about the remake and I'm happy others agree. I'm a HUGE fan of the manga, I used to love the old anime until I read it and they really butchered the characters in it by making the guys horny af all the time, so I was excited that Trigun was getting a reboot and hoped it was going to be something that was gonna make the badass manga justice. But nope, we got this shit instead. I rather consider it a spinoff.
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>>1497789Glad your safe, I hope this experience wasn't too much for you and your parents
No. 1497838
>>1497829That actually doesn't sound normal. Has he always been a heavy sleeper? Is there a chance he has health issues or breathing issues that make it this hard to wake him up?
How does he wake up on weekdays? You can maybe use the same method and just wake him up later.
No. 1497935
>>1497924Wtf? Anon, I know you’ve probably been told this countless times but straight men don’t
love women at all. I’m straight, I should know. I think we deserve better than Kyle McSmegma draining our laptop batteries to watch nascar.
You’re what women deserve, you’re literally the prize.
No. 1497937
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It's the time of year again, my birthday is around the corner. My mother didn't care the years before, only cared when it's been my brother's birthday. It's been okay with me, he is a great guy and she ruined his life more than enough and with her keeping the attention on my brother and never loving me in any way I could have some peace. Now, suddenly, she wants to visit, asking me when I will pick her up from the station on my fucking birthday. It's my birthday, I don't have friends to celebrate because I don't trust anyone because of her and now my birthday has to be about her, again. I don't want to see her that day or ever again, but I don't know how to tell her, because nothing works. She doesn't care if it's because of a job or I'm on holiday, she just doesn't care and when she get's in the mood, she is up to ruining even more of my life. She also thinks that through me she is getting to my brother, who never wants to see her ever again for many good reasons and she hasn't understood that non of us would betray each other.
I just don't know what I can do anymore, it would be nice if her life would end sooner than later. I'm planing to move this year and won't tell her my new address then, but I'm sure she finds a way to get to me. Nearly every night I have nightmares because of my mother and I'm a grown, independent, strong woman, still, she ruined so much, just never in a way that people on the outside could see it, so no one ever could intervene. It would have been so damn nice to have a loving mother or her dying while giving birth to me and saying that makes me feel guilty even though there is no reason to feel guilty, she was the mother, I was the child and she did shit to care for me or love me.
No. 1498059
>>1496585don't forget your fiber,
nonnie. grains, fruits, and veggies will also fill you up a lot. sometimes your metabolism is just off for a little while. I'm sure it will return to normal soon.
No. 1498060
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I went on facebook and an acquaintance is going bananas spoiling hogwarts legacy on all articles regarding the game (and claiming JK Rowling is a serial troon harasser).
Jokes on her and other troons doing this, but I suck at names so I forget the spoiler the moment I scroll past.
No. 1498077
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My self-hatred has been at the highest since I had a huge falling out with a close friend early this past week.
It's all my fault, I'm just a sheltered idiot that will always say the "wrong" thing or that I never watch what I say. I hate this. I will always fuck up something in the end forever. Do people truely show their "true selves" when they are super upset and angry and trying to defend themselves and trying to clear up any misunderstandings???
I truly a shitty shallow person. Always in the wrong. Makes poor choices, and ends up crying over broken bonds because I'm just a stupid fuck up.
I'm just so, so tired. I'm just….deafeated. I can never win.
Also protip, never carpool with friends. It will blow up in the end. (funnily enough, this was HER idea a long time ago)
No. 1498084
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I started reading a slow burn love story that is so expertly written. Just totally cute, funny, sexy, the tension is perfect, the characters have great chemistry and they're completely obsessed with each other even while they're still in the flirting stage. The infatuation is so potent, so intense, and the narration is so well-done that I really feel myself emoting along with the characters.
The problem is that I'm literally jealous of this story. It makes me feel like shit. Instead of self inserting and having a good time, getting lost in the writing, all I can think about is how unlovable and lonely I am. Nobody wants me like that. Nothing about me could inspire such strong feelings. It's not fair, the heroine literally does nothing but be nice and cute, and the hero goes insane with desire. The worst part is that it's not unrealistic. In the infatuation stage, this is what a relationship is really like, these are real feelings and emotions and experiences that I could hypothetically have. But I don't, and I haven't. It's so painful to reckon with the fact that nobody has ever wanted me, not even my own parents. Everyone I dated was either lukewarm about me or outright abusive. I'm a lesbian. Even if I wasn't I'm NOT stupid enough to think men are capable of love and therefore worth feeling disappointed by It doesn't help that I'm a literal lowlife ugly freak weirdo, so you know, maybe love really isn't on the table for someone like me. Maybe it hasn't happened yet because it never will. I don't want to give up, I want to be optimistic, but in the meantime I'm jealous of words on a page. I wish there was something good about me. I wish there was something in me that somebody could like. I feel so sad and so lonely.
No. 1498091
I hate that it's taking so long to get out of this relationship. I've found a steady job, but I still have to save up a bunch just to make sure I stay economically safe because I will be completely on my own once I leave.
There's a lot of things that annoys me about my boyfriend. Right now it's how he disrespects my need for sleep while I'm always accommodating of him. He falls asleep in 5 minutes and snores very loudly. I never wake him up, I just go sleep on the couch. Meanwhile on the rare occasion I'm snoring and he's awake to hear it, he won't hesitate to rustle me awake, even when he knows I've barely slept and that it takes me a long time to get back to sleep once I'm done. When I wake up early to go to work, I keep the lights turned off and find my way in the dark. He turns on all lights, stomps around and turns on the TV or radio while getting ready.
We usually go to sleep at the same time. Sometimes I stay awake longer, but I make sure to keep headphones on, stay quiet and keep the lights off. Tonight I decided to go to sleep earlier because work is going to be super-stressful this week and I had such a bad time sleeping last week. I asked my boyfriend to put on headphones while watching TV. He replied "sure", but instead of doing what I said, he just closed the door between the bedroom and the living room and kept the TV loud enough for me to hear everything.
Whenever I've confronted him about how these things bother me in the past, his response is always "I wouldn't mind if you make noise or turn the lights on, so you shouldn't mind that I do it". It infuriates me how insensitive he is.
All I want is my own place. My own bed. My neck is fucked up because of the couch. I'm so tired and anxious. I'm ready to go live in a tent at this point just so I can have my own peace and quiet. I can't believe that I have lived 6 years in an apartment that barely feels like my own. Everything is done according to the way he wants it. An old shelf I like which has pictures of our family and friends on it is about to be replaced with a cabinet he can store his art equipment in. I don't care at this point because I'm planning to get away, but it still makes me mad that he didn't even ask, he just said what he was about to do and then tacked on a "I hope you don't mind" at the end.
At this point I don't even think he's just being selfishly ignorant. I believe he is downright malicious because I've allowed myself to be such a doormat. Accepting everything because he turns so cold when he doesn't get his way. If everything goes right I should be out by June, but I feel so drained. I'm never getting into a relationship again. I've seen enough stories like mine to know that I'm better on my own.
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Why did I have to go and catch feelings for another emotionally immature moid? I NEED HIM SO FUCKING BAD WHY CAN'T HE JUST BE NORMAL
No. 1498148
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>Wear long oversized hoodie, long skirt, brown boots (almost exactly picrel outfit) to get groceries
>Get looked and laughed at by at least 5 people, the obvious "side-eye and look down as I walk past her" move
>2 second stare sends them walking away
>They're all wearing basic t-shirt/hoodie and pants
You cross the "normal" line when you wear a long skirt? I'll never understand these people. Gonna wear the same thing tomorrow out of spite, and it's comfortable as hell.
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I'm the biggest weeb to ever weeb in the history of weebs ever since I was a kid, but jesus christ I absolutely fucking hate vtubers. I cannot fathom why someone would spend time, money and energy on religiously following 3dpd moids and pretending they're appealing/hot because of their anime models.
Whenever I've given one a chance their pandering and humor is unbelievably corny as if the target audience is 12 year olds when you know most of the audience are grown adults. There was one whose intro video I watched and his tastes straight up aligned with 4chan /a/'s taste you just know he's from there.
No. 1498161
>>1498148god people are boring, i'm sure you looked amazing (picrel is really cute) i'm sorry you had to deal with these people
nonnyI got laughed at last week because i wore my paint stained overall to class
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>>1498148Samefag I was inspired by her after watching Gingersnaps again. I know it was the skirt because they were specifically looking down multiple times. Still in pure bewilderment that I'm posting about it twice. Imaginimg reactions if I wore dark/black lipstick and skeleton earrings, they are so damn fickle it's ridiculous
No. 1498169
>>1498148I bet you looked adorable and were comfy! I dunno why people are so
triggered by long skirts. I wore long skirts from 7th to 9th grade because I hated pants so much and it was cozy, but I got made fun of a lot and people thought I was in a cult. Like wtf.. it's a skirt. if it were a knee or above the knee skirt, they wouldnt have said shit. Long skirt supremacy.
No. 1498174
>>1498084> In the infatuation stage, this is what a relationship is really like, these are real feelings and emotions and experiences that I could hypothetically have. Romance is never an accurate deception of romantic relationships. Like if you have never been infatuated, how could you possible know what that the depiction is realistic. Anyway, intense infatuation is down to chemistry, not personality. There are people who've been in love, several times, and have never felt that because it depends on some random ass chemistry that no one can predict.
> I wish there was something good about me. I wish there was something in me that somebody could like.There is. I'm sorry your romantic life hasn't worked out as you wished, but it's not referendum on your worth as person.
No. 1498188
>>1498091Congrats, anon, on making an escape plan, carrying it out, recognizing that your boyfriend is piece of shit. Bravo.
Can I make a suggestion? Have you considered stopping being a doormat in the time you have left. The point isn't to change his behavior, it's to reduce the drain you feel when he walks all over you by getting some of your autonomy back. Let him be cold all he wants. Wake him up when he snores, listen to your tv without headphones, turn on all the lights, tell you him you don't, actually, want the shelf removed. This is assuming he's not going to escalate either emotionally or physically.
No. 1498202
>>1498163There is a concept in psychology called the ideal self. The ideal self is idealized version of yourself that has achieved everything you want to achieve, has all the positive qualities you want and none of the negative ones. Most people have an ideal self and most people fail to achieve it. It's a fairly common thing.
>I feel sometimes i am very unable to create a path for myself that will actually make me happy and is realistic because i am constantly trying to be anybody but myself and failing no matter what.This problem is what therapy is for so talk to whoever is helping you with the austism and adhd about it. Your feelings are fairly common and can usually be addressed by a decent therapist. Good luck.
No. 1498312
>>1498236why the fuck would you EVER go on HRT when you have body dysmorphia? That's not even what it's supposed to treat. I get your friends probably pressured you but jesus christ this is why it needs to only be given in severe circumstances of GID and not with "informed consent," so dumbfucks like you don't use it.
I get the detrans rate is approximately 1% but the majority of that is because they take it without GID. Like you. Fucking retard.
As cruel as I come off, I hope your detransition goes well and you don't let this make you resentful. I see far too many detransitioners become hateful to everyone around them for their own mistakes. Don't let that happen.
No. 1498360
>>1498263nonny take a look at the detrans thread on /g/ if you haven't already, it has some helpful posts that made me feel less alone.
>>>/g/230474there are also detrans women in the friend finder thread, i didn't mention being detrans in my post but i add women if they mention it in their post
No. 1498385
>>1498375Its not bpd and your worries are
valid. So many men who console their newly single female friend end up consoling her with his dick. Why can't a female friend console her?
No. 1498411
>>1498104idk what you mean exactly by "alt-right", if you mean ftm shapiro with his little hat okay it's huge and eh whatever, but the kind of dangerous extremists we should be wary of is in small numbers and you may have an unrepresentative sample if you browse a lot of 4chan etc.
trying to have a guy removed from university because he has shitty opinions that he seriously holds is rabid insane behaviour and the precedent that's being set is really threatening. that's what opens the way to troons who want to have terves fired.
No. 1498426
>>1498312what the fuck is this reply? you know you're on lc right? gender identity disorder doesn't exist because gender is now a loose term to categorize "male" and "female" interests which are only categorized that way by our society and media. if we strip everyone down and put them in a forest the only thing "female" and "male" left is basic biology. its all just crap to sell you another product, another delusion. anon fell into it due to peer pressure and a shitty woke crowd that drank the kool aid.
>>1498263Wish you the best luck anon. stay away from gendie politics and look into more normie people. hope your health gets better.
No. 1498455
>>1498438It may seem like you are "behind" in life and okay, to some people you might be, but know there are
many more woman right now choosing/staying virgins well into their 20s because of things like the the pandemic and overall shit show that dating has become because of hookup culture.
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>mfw see a post of mine from 2 years ago on /g/ and I still have the SAME fucking problems
I'm genuinely rattled and upset at myself time slips away so fast. I need to get my shit together this year
No. 1498485
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This damn moid is turning me into a BPD-chan. I keep going from "I don't want anyone else but him" to "I don't even know what I saw in him, I can do so much better" at least three times a day.
No. 1498496
>>1498168People are so freaking boring, the level of conformity just amazes me. It's so annoying they have the audacity to externally react, too. I mean, some people just look normal/plain, but some wear whatever clothes that are also perceived as "normal" but they don't actually look good or suit them and it looks objectively tasteless, however, these people still remain invisible and no one would point and laugh. Meanwhile, looking _slightly_ more unusual and interesting but not tasteless is somehow worse and deserves derision.
Damn, I even remember the times when I'd wear a coat and sneakers and people would be like "a coat AND the sneakers??? that's not how it supposed to be you know haha!!", and a couple of years later everyone wears it like that. ???
No. 1498510
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I'm ending my over 5 years long relationship and I just feel… void. I really struggle connecting with people and don't have anyone except my now-ex boyfriend, so I'm afraid of loneliness. I'm 32 this year; my past relationships were a disaster leaving me traumatized, I worked incredibly hard on this one but he didn't and that's why I have to leave. I know it's a scrotish thing to think but I really feel like I'm damaged goods now. I'm too scarred to be considered worthy of time, patience and love by anyone, and I'm too afraid to trust another person again. I know to be truly loved and love back is incredibly rare but I really wish it had happened to me. We have only one life and mine is wasted now. Even if I ever meet anyone, because of my damage it will not be good and I'll not be able to be truly happy. It's miserable.
No. 1498588
>>1498580I think a clean break is best if you want to start making improvements in yourself and get away from old
toxic habits. He sounds pretty fucked up himself with how he's handling things. I know you probably did some legit messed up shit to set this into motion but him holding those pics over your head isn't ok. He's heading into illegal territory if they're as risque as they sound.
I know what its like to feel guilt after being shitty with someone but that doesn't give him a free pass to stoop to those levels. If you bring out the absolute worst in each other then stop all contact.
No. 1498612
>>1498580Nonna, whatever you did doesn't justify his behavior. He's manipulative af and doesn't seem like a saint at all. Your relationship sounds pretty
toxic and codependent, you should just get out, get therapy and, as another anon said, start a new life and get rid of the old
toxic habits, without him. You don't have to atone for your sins or something, and if he expects something like that, it doesn't say anything good about him. He should've just walked away.
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>be me
>meet guy through a friend's party
>he seems great, we have many things in common and talk daily for hours for almost a month
>he's into BDSM
Fuck this I'm becoming a nun. I wish life would stop baiting me with these moids.
No. 1498658
>>1498263good luck
nonnie. live your truth
No. 1498694
>>1498682Yeah I appealed it but I was probably mean because I was pissed, I said something like "Are you kidding me? I'm a scrote because I have an opinion you don't like?" But I doubt there going to let me back, the ban message said "Kill yourself scrote, your kind is worthless." So anyone who has an opinion they don't like is a scrote I guess, no wonder their shit site is dead.
>>1498689Yeah no kidding, I posted so much stuff to so many different threads during the lc lockdowns, but one opinion they don't like and now I'm a moid. So lame
No. 1498722
Update on cat who was in solarium.
I'm also not a cat abuser, I was seriously losing sleeping over fear, because it attracted 3 other cats, and I was worried for him because it's cold in there, and I thought he'd go back to his family.
I called an animal shelter, they FINALLY responded, after 3 days of non stop calling, I had to buy a cage so they can pick him up, while they picked him up, they told me this cat is 100% a lost kitty, because he was so calm and friendly.
I regret feeding him because I just wanted him to fuck off to his original home, and I wouldn't get a fee from my shitty landlord. I'm currently complaining to her about the fucking hole which allows cats/racoons to enter the solarium, it's been a year since the racoon incident and she never holed up the place.
TL;DR
Cat is safe, I'm no longer stressed/pulling hair/lacking sleep and LL is getting a major letter about typical LL issues.
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I’ve been on steroids for a medical thing and gained 25 lbs in a month, so far a couple people have pointed it out and two coworkers asked me if I was pregnant yesterday….like it’s ok I know I’ll lose it eventually but damn just let a girl’s weight fluctuate
No. 1498772
>>1498168Oh
nonnie I love you, she's a big style inspo for me, cozy casual goth.
No. 1498825
>>1498823*cursed
My boyfriend said i should not get angry and care so much about it but has nobody any decency anymore and the time to at least text me “thx no”????
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I hate struggling with adhd so much why couldn't I get the cute and quirky version of it ? Why do I get the debilitating and life ruining condition? I can't focus on things I should I procrastinate to the point I get anxiety which almost makes me unconscious then I get panic attacks because of the procrastinating but I can't just focus. I hate being considered a failure because I don't try enough when I consider suicide over every mistake I do I hate it so much I hate that took meds when I was young which fucked me up and made me had a withdrawl I hate going to therapy taking questionare every session I hate being so tired of failure that I don't want to try anymore i hate being laughed at for my failures . There are no accommodation for someonelike me in my country. I hate it I'm probably going to fail at everything and my only solution is to finally give up(which I keep avoiding) I'm so tired
No. 1498894
So I just got played by some guy. Basically, in December, I wanted to let my feelings out so I told him I had a crush on him. Then, he tried to pursue me a little, but only to invite me over to his house. I rejected it at first, but my dumbass thought, ok I’ll only kiss him and I’ll just leave afterwards. After that, he got me to jack him off since I didn’t want to let him go all the way, and then he kicked me out after he nutted. Luckily he was still nice to me the whole time I was there. This guy brought out the worst in me, honestly. Maybe it’s because he was so accepting of my flaws and everything, so I might’ve had a false sense of security? I told him all my traumas, daddy issues and everything. Whenever I’d ask about him, he’d say some joke to avoid the question. Also, no matter how mean or rude I was to him, he’d be really accepting of it all, so I just kept being rude to him. We used to work together, but I got let go and he stayed. We literally just met at his house once, and after I kissed him, I went through a mental breakdown for like 3 weeks straight, and he never texted me after I left his house. I couldn’t take it anymore, so I texted him after the 3 weeks and tried to get myself over to his house. I even went through a mental breakdown through text. I initially only tried to text him because I expected to be left on read, but he replies really quickly. So then, I tried flirting with him to try to go over to his house, but no sex. He kept teasing me through it, and then I blew up on him, asking if this over if I don’t have sex with him. We barely know anything about each other. Barely talk, and he doesn’t talk to me unless I do first. He knew I liked him, and I kept expressing it to him, but he always keeps beating around the bush. Why can’t he just reject me straight up if he doesn’t want anything serious? I don’t even have any dating experience, so he’s literally my first everything. Man, I feel so pathetic. I always have really bad stomach aches when I talk to him, and I get really bad mood swings. I just wish I never went over to his house that day, so I could’ve kept some good memories surrounding him.
No. 1498989
>>1498982He claims it's their gf, but it sounds more like it's the wife's gf and he's the one she has to put up with. He's borderline handicapped because of how obese he is. He is sick often and always running to the emergency room for some health related thing. Likely ranking up medical bills and just goes to work to pay off those bills and to eat out every day.
The gf is a she/they so already at the start we're dealing with genderspecials being doormats to moids who don't deserve it, but they're the only moids who
would give them some attention they want.
No. 1499019
>>1499000Yeah, wife is also mentally unstable, but she seems to be more put together than him. She'll call him to get home, doesn't matter where he is, he could be at work or at the store, mainly because of bad weather. She'll make the call for
him to take off work because it "looks bad". It's either that or he uses her as an excuse for everything, I have a feeling it's 50/50, he knows how mentally unstable she is and takes advantage of it. Wife refuses to arm herself, because she says she'd kill herself very easily knowing of the access to a firearm.
No. 1499159
Last year I rented a room from an old coworker, 50s single mom with codependency and alcohol issues, revolving door of boyfriends who she let alone with her teen child constantly, I could go on for pages but I digress here
I've since left that job and a different old coworker recently informed me that after I moved out, coworker 1 fell behind on car payments and lost her vehicle, got kicked out of the house we stayed at, moved in with a drug dealer and is potentially losing custody of her kid as a result
The real kicker was she had been lying to me the entire time about rent, massively inflating what I owed to her so that she could fund a "sugar mama" situation with some guy who was my age. Despite her stealing upwards of a thousand dollars from me over the course of half a year she had no savings when I left, so her sugar baby moved out not long after me, and her other orbiting boyfriend found out about the sugar baby and stopped sending her money altogether
It feels good to get this out of my system, I feel bad for her kid bc I was in a similar situation as a child, but I can't help but feel some kind of justice was served. It's not even a case of karmic restitution really, she let herself become dependent on stealing from me and started living beyond her means in the saddest way possible, and I genuinely think she deserves what she's dealing with right now. I also appreciate that she taught me how to clock people like her from a mile away and stop being such a doormat that obvious losers like her are able to take advantage of me.
No. 1499224
>>1499133the replies are shitting on you but i get it anon, same things happened to me. not all trannies are agp ogres, some of them are well kempt and on a surface level would pass as attractive gnc men. thats why it hurts more when you find out that instead of embracing life as a cute gnc male theyve trooped out and spat in the face of true womanhood.
anyway anon im sorry you have to work with thus guy, i hope he's not too much of a nuisance and that you guys arent forced to interact much
No. 1499293
>>1498966Yeah what gets me about that is like, teen girls get murdered all the time, way more often that troons. And you don't see those same men going "this is men's fault" but when it's a tranny suddenly every woman and
terf is to blame.
No. 1499331
I hate how my brothers say it's just dark humor when they post incel memes that make fun of feminism, even rape and women's rights. These aren't even ironic memes but straight up autistic, shittily drawn, bottom of the barrel cancerous, collected from the blood and shit stained lowest level of the Internet. I have argues many times why it's not funny, why they should stop, why it's cringe, but they won't listen. I ended up blocking one of them and maybe I will block the second one too. He said his girlfriend found it funny too, which I doubt. She is smarter than all of us and has a degree in psychology. If she really found a rape joke funny and let him express this to me, then she must be an unsavable pickme. Every time these idiots will play it off as "just a joke" no matter how many times I tell them it's not funny, not original, and question why the jokes are only about women or black people. One of them got offended at me for even assuming he would be a supporter of a rapist but he literally is, he watches videos and talks about adult men who knowingly hit on teens. I sent them a few memes making fun of men, and surprisingly those dark jokes weren't their sense of humor. Really makes you think… I am fed up and won't be replying to autists who literally think having basic human empathy is "useless" and "too sensitive". Suck my dick you stupid shitbags.
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i dont think my meds are working. but the process of going trough a doctor who can assign me higer dose or another brand is long and tedious and way to complicated. I did work with a doctor years ago where I did try different doses and brands and none of them worked. I'm scared that I'm going to be like this for the rest of my life
No. 1499458
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i was a cynical kid from a young age i knew i was talentless and stupid. i always knew i would end up jobless and without an education. i always dreaded that day. now im an adult without a job and really close to being kicked out of my university due to being stupid. i have always knew this day would come but it still scary. my life is such a mess. i feel guilty specially towards my parents who really tried to make something out of me but in the end i have always been too stupid.
im a waste of space. i desperately wish i was avarege. average intelligence, avrage skill, average talent. i just want to be able to do my exams without failing them all and failing all my re-eksams. everyone else did it in the first try. i fail at everything i do. there has not been a single thing in the world i was good at or at least passable at