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A ready receptacle for your untold misdeeds.
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Oh, I forgot to add my dad’s family are level 99 Christians, and he has justified abusing my mother and I with the excuse of it is ok to be a douche because he is male.
Plus all his friends are super uppity too. Idk I hate him and those wannabes he runs with.
I feel kind of bad but then I remember how when my grandma was dying, she hinted that my dad had raped my mom to try to baby trap her. She got an abortion afterward and it explains why when she had a psychotic meltdown after their divorce, she was convinced her “son” was taken from her at the clinic.
I have never had the balls to ask my mom how late she was, etc. I just don’t want to open that can of worms, not yet.
It's a combination of me being shallow and also a bit of a concern that other people are judging us. Doesn't help that more than one person has straight up told me that my bf is "dating way out of his league."
That being said, it's mostly not a big deal and I usually only find myself fixating on it if I'm feeling insecure and depressed in general.
What the fuck, this is terrible advice.
Being an e-girl is nothing to aspire to, being so vain and self obsessed that you can't be happy unless you're in the top tier of super popular, desirable girls is pathetic and surgery is not the answer. Getting a fucking life is. Being average is not the end of the world when you have things other than your looks and male attention to focus on.
Honestly I kind of feel the same way. Since you mention suicidal thoughts I'm guessing mental health issues for some of can just cause this detachment? Because I love my boyfriend too but if he broke it off I think I'd be fine fairly quick. I've always been more or less detached in my relationships with guys. I ghosted my first boyfriend actually. I feel bad about it.
Long story short, I can relate.
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that’s a sign ladies
a sign it’s almost time
lmao you sound salty as fuck and trying to cope so hard by labelling literally every pretty girl online with a following as a stupid cumrag when a large majority of them goto college and have boyfriends.
Either go to the gym and learn how to emphasise your features or stop being sour & get comfy in your mediocrity.
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It sounds like your relationship is good but be wary he isn't delusional! See pic related.>>573802>>573835
is right. You sound gross, it's hard but try to have some sympathy for these young women. For fuck's sake you're 24 and that's not old.
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>>573874> the man who's supposed to be my partner chokes me, stabs me
Dude same, just dumped him… I snapped one day and just realized that if I choose it this is going to be my entire
life, and I could not see myself marrying or being with someone like him at all, and I also couldn't see him changing, so I'm fucking gone lol, since I've said that hes gone legitimate psycho and threatened to break all my belongings, so I feel pretty justified in my choice.
I don’t know, they taste good I guess. I’ve been eating my boogers since I was like 5 and have recently started eating the dead skin off my feet.
I’m still embarrassed that my mom caught me doing the latter and have never lived it down…while still doing
On the bright side, at least I don’t eat my own shit. Even I have standards.
That is truly degenerate and disgusting behaviour but also so harmless that only a mental case could get mad.
Please just get some gum or almonds or something lmao.
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>>573802>mfw reading this as a 30-year old
Once you hit 28 looks will lose its meaning to you and you'll learn to accept that the society considers any woman over 19 a waste. Focus on becoming a better person, making a career and learning new skills instead - they will carry you far further because your looks will fade away and stop serving you very fast. Keep in mind that the e-girls are photoshopped and filtered to hell and a lot of them look like regular young women IRL, wouldn't be the first time I see a popular one in the wild and barely recognized them due to them having about 20 pounds more on them than in the photos, a bigger nose, smaller lips and pronounced eyebags.
I mean egirls are pretty much thots lite and thots-in-training, she's not wrong.
And not "literally every pretty girl online" is an egirl, you're reaching.
This exchange made me chuckle a bit.
My 100% autistic confession: I pretend that I'm an alien trying to blend in with humans without being noticed when I'm around other people that I don't know well.
I'm so glad that it worked out for you! I just really don't have time and it's unfair to him. >>574030
I wholeheartedly agree with you, it's just hard. This is a good reminder, though. Thank you, anon.
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Good lord, I'm aware this is petty and stupid but I need to confess my sins in a place nobody will know about.
I'm the owner of a small discord server (30 people consistently, but on good weeks it can get 50+ people) with no particular theme besides it being a place for people from a shitty mobile app to have a better place to talk. One member, Dora, is not the most liked person. She's annoying, goes on the gaming voice chat even though she won't play games with people and keeps talking over others while they're trying to play (it's often this one strategy based game so communication is important), keeps opening stuff next to the mic and won't mute it while she's talking to her family members. She's annoying but we thought she was harmless, also the simpy boys protected her at all costs when the other admins would call her out, so we kept her.
I never showed it, but I particularly hated her fucking guts because while I don't mind girls being flirty, she was always coming a bit too hard on all the boys in the server, including my bf, even though he already told her to back off and blocked her in the app (but not on the server because he's a retard when it comes to discord). She would also say petty shit to me and the other female admin, while at the same time preaching HURR DUR GIRLS UPLIFT GIRLS on the channel.
When we realised someone was screenshotting our messages and sending them somewhere, me and the other two admins did a little snooping and figured out it was none other than Dora herself. I actually was the one to get the proof, but because I knew this wouldn't be enough to get the simps convinced she should go without protest I photoshopped screenshots of her talking shit about most members, including one of the most beloved and protected members that has a disability and everyone goes apeshit if you say anything about him. It was shit so vile that I felt bad even just writing it out for a fake screenshot, but holy shit it worked.
People on the server hate her and the shitstorm even hit the app, and she deactivated her account there as well as blocking most people on the server. Before she did she tried to tell people it was fake, but it was just too convenient of an 'excuse', and coupled with the actually genuine proof of her snitching and people confirming it, she had no way to convince people. And to my luck, turns out Dora was mean to people on the app before, but not on the levels of the screenshots, but it was enough to make people believe it without question.
Anyway, I feel kinda bad because she seemed like she just wanted attention, but she annoyed me and bitch got got.
It's a perception thing, I guess? You literally don't perceive anything as being real. It kind of feels like you're in a 24/7 dream is the best way I can explain it. It's really frightening if you don't understand what's happening to you, but to my understanding, it's a symptom of severe anxiety and that essentially your brain is like, detaching you from your surroundings because it thinks that you're dying.
I've tried all kinds of drugs and nothing has made a difference for this particular problem. Effexor helped my anxiety, but the derealization stuck around. I know from experience that it'll go away eventually, but it's extremely annoying that whenever I go through this, it sticks around for literal fucking years at a time. First time took me roughly two years to come out of it. This time around it's been about a year so far.
I'm not exactly surrounded by them since I don't live in an Arab community or anything like that. I just don't like the way they look or style themselves.
>I think that's why so many arab girls become gross weeaboos kek.
Really? I had no idea lots of arab girls are weebs lol. I have seen dozens of arab koreaboos though, mainly because of bts.
I'm this poster >>574301
. I'm from palestine and I can acknowledge that palestinian men are attractive, however I think at a certain point being attractive doesn't equal being physically intriguing, does that make sense? I hope it does lol. I might not be one to talk. I live in America but I live in a city with a huge palestinian, Lebanese, and Syrian population. At this point I'm just sick of it. I find myself attracted to those who are only half arab and half hispanic, white, or asian.
I think I make good choices but I want a friend like you to help with my social media. I feel too self absorbed asking friends which selfie is better.
I miss when reverse image search wasn't a thing, so you could post stuff online anonymously for feedback.
24 is still super young you clown
But yes, in the long run having an education and getting a decent job is way better than thotting it up. Especially now that people are quick to ditch things once a new thing comes along.
caring about social media this much baffles me unless you were trying to make money from it. >>574384
i'm sorry anon, you cannot meme yourself into becoming same-sex attracted. get some fancy sex toys and massages regularly. if you want to give up on dating men do it.>disgusted by male attention
this sounds like a deeper problem, get some professional help sis
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this is what I mean mean, sadly these type of men though rarely date/marry outside their clan
This is an awesome power move but tbh I'm a little nervous for you over the fact that he was physically abusive
before and seems entitled. I hope he doesn't try to get violent towards you again when he finds out he can't talk his way into getting access to his stuff w/o paying you just because he'd know you own it now.
Like other anon said just be careful seeing as he has resorted to being physical with you before, he's already passed that threshold so now that you're his ex and holding sentimental items hostage what's to stop him going nuts? You said he's been heading down a road of making one bad decision after another.. he might not have good enough decision making skills right now to even worry about going to jail for assault.
I have an ex who turned physical at the end. I could destroy his new relationship with evidence that after he cheated on me to be with a new girl.. he immediately cheated on her too. I'm tempted to get that revenge but you have to weigh up whether it's worth the possible backlash from him. Sounds like this guy has nothing to lose, that's a dangerous scenario.
Ty anons, that’s something for me to consider I hadn’t given much thought. A man with nothing to lose is the most dangerous kind.
Despite how awful he is, I wouldn’t feel right throwing those things out; but on the other hand, I don’t want to be a doormat and he give him these items plus a monetary reward.
I hate having a conscience, especially w him of all people.
Also- I hate how someone always has a similar (or worse) situation. It really makes me ill how common it is, and how rare vindication is.
I will plant a flag in his shit and say it’s for all womankind lol
Kek just why
Just don't post about immediately fucking in it to facebook like in the Abby Brown thread
I did it, I posted the letter on Facebook and sent it to his HR department. I told my boss about it today since she hated him when he worked there and she turned on me. >"you seem angrier at yourself than him.">"you know, a lot of people in their early 20s are interested in teenagers.">"I've done a lot of bad things in my life that I've had to apologize for. doesn't mean they should follow me forever.">"you knew what you were getting into."
she asked why i did it and i told her i picked up on a pattern of behavior with him and he could be going to other youth groups to prey on other teenage girls for all we know. he could be in grad school to become a teacher. she said i'm overthinking it. i said he shouldn't have been able to just go on and live a normal life and she said>"but we don't know if he's happy, he could be miserable! you never know what somebody's going through."
just completely missing the point. i'm more hurt than i'd like to admit. she said almost everything i was terrified of hearing at once. i feel like shit. i'm doubting myself again.
Keep it a fantasy anon unless you hate his gf >>573778
Same… it affects him as well
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i just wanna love this dude down gat damn
I am married, but bisexual.
I exclusive masturbate to girl on girl porn because I do not believe a woman can really actually enjoy herself with another man by penetrative sex.
Maybe I am gay. I don’t know.
you the total opposite of me anon.
My last home I consistently got scratches that stung on my back, legs, and arms when I'd just be sitting at my desk or doing fuck all. Towards the end we had flickering lights or lights that would instantly die. All my siblings had seen specific doors slowly open or close on their own. Those damn scratches left long red lines with one making an H on my leg. I didn't believe in ghosts but I felt like I was slowly going crazy from the scratches even if I spent a whole day with my hands on the keyboard doing an essay. It felt like there was a gaze on me a lot of the time, but thankfully i don't live there so no more marks or lingering feeling.
My current boyfriend and I had a messy friendship like this. We went through phases of not talking but we thought it would make our feelings go away. About 8 years I believe. I had never thought about someone the same way I thought about him. That urge of checking up on him and talking to him never went away. I would fall asleep in another man's arms and pretend it was him. I had never thought about anyone else this same way. We started talking again and we have never once regret it.
Trust yourself. If you so desperately feel pulled to him, talk to him. I'm sure the feelings were mutual. It's worth a shot anyway, considering you aren't talking right now. You have nothing to lose but potentially so much to gain.
cried reading this comment. you have no idea how much i relate even though we were only friends. i've never loved another friend like this, and i've certainly not forgotten him in 10 years. my heart is breaking just thinking about how i have literally no idea what i'd even say to him in the first message in a decade
i hope you and your boyfriend are in a more peaceful situation and i'm so happy you got talking again anon
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The husbando thread makes me horny every time I browse it and I love discussing being horny over them with other farmers.
i agree anon. i don't mind some porn, like gentle or passionate scenes, but the things you mention make me uncomfortable as well.
fanfic, though. i still draw limits at some things, but whew am i much freer.
I'm not about to demand equal rights for fictional characters or say that we should ban cartoon sex drawings, but let's be real hentai is damaging young teens just the same as real porn. It doesn't matter that it's fiction because they internalize it just the same way they absorb tropes and morals from disney films.
Hentai is so normalized now but you can click on anything and see loli rape cervix prolapse scenes, you have to make a real effort to find purely vanilla consensual hentai, that's going to have affect them all. The least worst thing that can happen is that they grow up thinking that the smell of a musky unwashed dick is actually a turn on and that women only actively take part when their hips move on their own.
Why the fuck do you moralfags go straight into "loli cervix prolapse" like there's nothing in between that and consensual vanilla hentai? And even if it was ridiculous crap like nipple fucking or some disgusting fetish like this it still wouldn't matter because it's all fiction and wouldn't even work in real life.>you have to make a real effort to find purely vanilla consensual hentai
Funny I never had this problem. Maybe stop hanging around neckbeard lolicons.>they internalize it just the same way they absorb tropes and morals from disney films.>absorb tropes and morals from disney films
Okay this has to be a bait or underage. >>575416
I just recently learned how the porn actresses are often coerced and forced to do shit on the spot that wasn't even scripted. It was horrifying how they're treated and I can only imagine what happens during scenes. Some of them can't have regular sex outside of porn due to PTSD and almost all of them have a history of suffering of sexual abuse and/or drug addiction.
Back in my early teen years I went through a slight aussieboo phase because I had a crush on Sniper from TF2>>575446
Bitch me too. They're my guilty pleasure
Feminists don't care about sexbots, men just desperately want to imagine they do because it's a sad revenge fantasy lmao.
A male sexbot would be awesome. I don't wanna deal with a real man but I'm still sexually attracted to them.
You do understand that even if you delete the pics and accounts they will be in the internet forever right?
I hope you didn't attach your face or any recognizable marking.
I'm sorry you had such a shit exboyfriend, like who tf does that? I've heard other stories similiar to yours where a boyfriend would pretend to be his girlfriend online and it makes me wonder how many more are out there. If a woman posting her nudes and writing 'I love being a cocksleeve uwu' is actually a dude.
I've had a similiar experience but not with a boyfriend, worst thing is all of it is me very underage, like 13-16 and I feel absolutely awful thinking about it so I just don't kek. If someone out there is watching a 14 yo me drink her pee, that's on them. I can't do anything about it. But it has made me very scared of getting pictures of myself taken because I'm afraid a pic of me with my friends could circulate around and someone would find out about all the nudes and porn of mine. Paranoia.
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I rewatched Gone Girl just for the scene where Ami slaughters Desi, I get so turned on by it and I think about it a lot…
samefag, here's said scene.
I watch japanese porn to get away from all the fake butts and boobs, the visible hair extention tracks, bad tattoos and all that shit that bothers me a weird amount.
After sifting through the sea of japanese 'groped on the train' scenes I've finally found some pretty sweet/tender looking scenes with lots of foreplay, teasing, kissing, I kinda feel lonely after watching them tho lol
I had a similar thing with someone who writes stuff. I try to separate the author from the content I like but it's hard because the misogyny started to permeate all of their recent stuff. I've grown numb to it but it might be because I've been on imageboards for so long that misogyny is like the default state.
I was severely depressed and disappointed for a while but now I just try to improve myself and become better than them.
Lmao did we date the same person. My ex did this EXACT shit to me. Swooped in basically trying to be my savior when I was at my absolute lowest point. He was very sneaky about it too, didn't outright say he wanted to "save me," but that he could tell that I had "a lot of potential" and "just needed someone to be by their side and root for them." I really sincerely believed that he could still see the person I was underneath, and just wanted to support me while I worked through my issues. I couldn't have been more wrong.
Men who do this are predators, plain and simple. They tell you exactly what you want to hear so that you'll fall for them. Once they've trapped you, they start slowly eroding away at any remaining self-confidence you have left via emotional and verbal abuse. My ex gaslit me to the point that I didn't know up from down, all the while maintaining this facade that he was improving my life in some meaningful way.
Basically, I'd be extremely cautious of any man that has a history of dating vulnerable women, ESPECIALLY if he's making claims like he wanted to help, or save them.
There's definitely alot of creepy gropey shit that shows up when searching it but then there's the other extreme where the man will be a more considerate lover than anything else I've seen.
I like the slightly blurred out genitals too.
Same, I'm constantly worrying about lists of things that I need to do later.
It's one of the few things that fully distracts me and empties my head for a bit. The only other thing that's close to it is drinking and I can't get drunk every day and still function for work.
I can relate to so many posts on here today, like I could've written this.
I'm hoping that we'll mellow out with age? I keep meaning to try some of that positive thinking shit to 'retrain my thoughts' but it's hard to get motivated and I'm already predicting it failing.. the irony there lol
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I don't really like dicks but I do like balls. Fun to squeeze and slap
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What happens when a hot guy gets with an ugly girl, though?
Does she think she rules the world?
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I started liking the music from hypnosismic
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based. i'm tired of seeing dorito-shaped men being shilled.
. She most likely doesn't feel "on top of the world", but still extremely validated. Male beauty isn't a commodity like female beauty and youth. I doubt she'd break up with her boyfriend thinking she could get a hotter man, whereas men get replacement girlfriends (and wives) a lot more.
Struggling with internalized misogyny sucks, I completely understand. Especially if you've had a history of girls shunning you or you struggle to make female friends. I hope we both can grow from this issue and find decent women in our life that defeats our toxic
It's ok anon, this is a very common ordeal. I can't guarantee this is why you're missing your abusive
ex in your specific situation, but usually people end up missing them because, in a sick twisted way, you feel like they invested energy in you in order to be that mean. You also value the very few good times you've had with them and almost get a high trying to reach that with them again. Your brain is going from highs and lows in a relationship to neutralness. It's literally an addiction of sorts anon. You don't miss him, you miss the stimulation, even though it was bad most of the time.
Thank you so much for giving me your insight on this.
You're absolutely right, I was addicted to the high and lows being with him gave me. But I felt like I was absolutely walking on eggshells because of how easily he would just dump me. It felt like a very fucked up emotional rollercoaster ride.
I think I may need therapy at this point because it's been hard moving on and I need to remind myself it was unhealthy and toxic
Even if not therapy, just remind myself everyday I don't miss him, just the fucked up relationship where I was okay getting scraps.
Damn, this post could've been mine, even including the ages and how long the relationships lasted.
I know the feeling. Even though I rationally know that I was miserable when I was with my ex, I still somehow crave the passion and the sheer emotionality of it all. It had this 'just us against the world' feeling to it that was incredibly unhealthy but I still miss it.
I dream of my ex way too often as well, as soon as I wake up I feel terrible about it. Especially when my current bf, who is the sweetest person in the world, is next to me.
Seriously I think therapy would be a good idea. I've been putting it off for much too long myself because I get scared that it'll only make me miss it more, but that's bullshit really. Wishing you the best.
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I have a massive crush on these two … I know they're scrote memes but I genuinely cannot help it they are so cute UGH where the fuck is my gf
I have a similar problem. I don't really miss my ex or stalk him, but I still get bogged down by memories of the relationship and how awful it was. Sometimes, I feel this sort of longing for a relationship that could have been, but never was because he's so messed up. Or, I feel like I'm too blame because I have issues as well, and I couldn't "help" him be a better man. I dated mine for the same length of time, as well as have been out of the relationship for the same length of time, as you.
I really think what happens in abusive
relationships is that you miss what could have been, not the way things actually were. If your ex was anything like mine, he probably treated you like a goddess at first, then slowly began to reveal who he truly was once you two were official. It's very difficult to reconcile with the truth when you've been so heavily manipulated, and that continues to affect you even after its over.
I relate so hard, I dont know if Im lesbian or bi but the lgbt community is soo toxic
and miserable. I dont feel connected to it at all.. I just like girls and I dont want to be insane about it
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i've been on a femboy kick (strictly 2d lol) since…when. late last year?
i don't know why but i love 'em.
I can relate to this somewhat. One day when I was 13-14 and I walking home from school I was ruminating about how worthless I was. I was bullied at school, couldn't connect with people in general and felt like I didn't belong anywhere. I could not imagine life getting any better in the future. When I got home I lied down on the floor and cried for hours.
I often think about that day and sometimes wish that I had ended it back then. This is probably not much of a consolation anon, just know that you are not alone with this.
So travel indefinitely, separate from your family as respectfully as you can and don't get a partner?
I know we're meant to respect people's choices but this makes no sense as a suicide plan. Normally people want to kill themselves because they're lonely and don't know what else to do or can't deal with the idea of being infirm but your forties are prime years for traveling, you can just keep hopping between transitory workaway positions and following the open road for at least another decade or until you find somewhere you like enough to stay.
If this is related to a fear of growing old then at least leave the suicidal ideation for when your body can't keep up with your lifestyle plans. You're not an old person in your forties but you'll be old enough to make sound choices that people respect, why throw away a good decade when you can instead just throw away society's expectations?
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damn i wish i could stop being horny
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I'm shut in. My social anxiety is so bad i can't go out, it's been 2 years. I'm so scared to stay immature or not grow because i miss the experiences.
I was like that from 12 to 19, no school, total shut in. Not gonna lie I'm 30 now and still fairly limited in what I can do but I live alone and can go out to shop, sit in a cafe, go to the post office or dentist etc. Being able to do even that essential shit feels good.
Take baby steps, celebrate the small accomplishments and don't beat yourself up over it.
I've been in an abusive
relationship and the reason I stayed so long is i had no confidence, no self esteem, I already felt like an idiot and he made me feel like no other man on earth would want me. You probably could sit down with any abused woman and relate to those feelings
I've had low self esteem but I've never been in a bad relationship. In fact, I rarely get asked out so it's not like anyone abusive
has ever pursued me.
And plenty of people with low self esteem like to drag others for being ugly or what not. Not sure why I need to give them a pass for what.>>578949
So I need to coddle them in order for them to treat me with basic respect? No thanks.
I mean this with no malice but you sound very naive, very young, or both. It's okay to not understand how abusive
relationships work in the real world but I would try to have a bit more humility about it.
>I've had low self esteem but I've never been in a bad relationship. In fact, I rarely get asked out so it's not like anyone abusive has ever pursued me.
Congrats. You sound like the perfect target for someone emotionally abusive
. Do you know how so many emotionally abusive
relationships work and why people stay in them? It's not that they're just that much stupider than you. Vulnerable, ignored people with low self esteem are easy to reel in and lull into a false sense of security with love bombing, and then emotional abuse starts. I say this because I'm in such a relationship right now and one of the things that keeps me from leaving is that I have no idea if I could ever expect to find someone after this because I'm fucking worthless. If you can't have empathy for others at least acknowledge that there are many things you don't know or don't understand.
>>578976>So I need to coddle them in order for them to treat me with basic respect? No thanks.
What in the actual fuck are you talking about? Offering support to someone going through a rough time isn't "coddling," it's basic human empathy. This is clearly a personal issue you developed after a negative interaction that you're now projecting upon an entire group of people.
I cannot comprehend how someone goes from "this person is in an abusive
relationship" to "I don't feel bad for them because they're going to attack me for being ugly," otherwise. It does not follow any logical line of reasoning.
Right, but you keep equating this with being in an abusive
relationship, which makes me think that you've actually had the experience of either sympathizing with someone who was in an abusive
relationship and was treated with hostility and called ugly in response, or have said something rude and insensitive to someone in an abusive
relationship, and had that person lash out and call you ugly in response.
If that's not the case, I'd think you'd come in here and confess not feeling bad for anyone on this board in general because you believe that most people on here drag others for being ugly.
If I'm such an incel why do you need my pity so badly?>>578997
Because the people here in abusive
relationships demand a lot of pity. >>578994
I don't thin I'm ugly but other anons wouldn't hesitate to nitpick me
It's just sad because this person sounds like the exact type of woman who is most vulnerable to finding herself in an abusive
relationship. I hope she finds the light before such a thing happens to her.
If people here are too busy hating themselves then why do they love to nitpick other people so much?>>579005
Do you think I owe you pity because you're worse off than me?>>579009
I don't get asked out enough to get in an abusive
You are deliberately being obtuse at this point. I've never seen anyone on this board in an abusive
relationship "demand pity." People may vent about it in the vent thread on /ot/, or in the break-up threads on /g/, because that's literally what those threads are for.
You seem very self-involved and have made no effort to understand where anyone is coming from on this issue, instead choosing to focus on yourself and your own feelings. I think you're just jealous of anyone on this board who is getting attention for any reason, because that person isn't you.
If you're sooo much more understanding than me why does what I say bother you so much?>>579026
Still doesn't explain the nitpicking and people with superiority complexes here. "Oh bloo bloo bloo, I love to drag other people for random things but it's ok because of my mental illness." And speak for yourself, there seem to be plenty of relatively normal people here who don't have mental illnesses dominating their lives.
I've seen similar bullshit claims that 'ooh all the posts about CSA on here are for pity' That's just the nature of a board with anonymity, people vent their darkest secrets like domestic abuse and CSA. Funny thing is victims
in both those circumstances often carry a lot of guilt and shame. They're not looking for pity, they're offloading because they can't do that anywhere else.
I think she has maybe a bit of normie in her and doesn't quite grasp that nitpicking cows is not how users treat literally any other woman. Cows get picked apart because most of them are vain braggy attention whores, many
of whom literally trade on and profit from their appearance. Someone who chooses to make themselves into a public figure exposes themselves to a certain level of justified scrutiny and I don't think I've ever seen an appearance related criticism that wasn't linked to someone's genuinely shitty cow behavior. Also don't really get why you'd browse this board if it causes you to clutch your pearls this much.
I like a lot of the discussion on this board. I like drama in general but nitpicking appearance is my least favorite discussions even when that person is being a cow. And what's to stop other people from saying I'm a cow and deciding I'm fair game for that? >>579030
I meant specifically nitpicking appearances, and I actually don't do that. I actually don't even nitpick my own appearance. I think I look average to good irl.
You cared enough to reply.>>579032
I'm not worrying about it.
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We can be dumb fucks together, anon. I stopped having sex for about half a year because I thought I had warts. Turns out it's just normal vaginal skin.
So basically, my grandparents house is the Covid positive house and if anyone tests positive at my house wed already said wed go stay there since my Mom & Grandparents all have Covid. I am still in the grey area and was thinking of telling my family I'm positive so I can be with my Mom while her dad dies. I'm worried about her going through this alone, and I know it sounds dumb to basically give myself Covid but I want to make sure my Mom is taken care of in what is going to be a really hard upcoming chapter of her life.
My Grandpa dying really came out of left field for all of us and my Mom has always been more close to her dad than mom. I want to know she is going to be okay and taken care of.
You're just different, and there's nothing wrong with being different. Why do you need to pathologize it to be kinder to yourself? You're not bad for not being like others.
And I understand many people won't like you, but there are those like me who really appreciate weirdos. There will always be a place for you.
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I have a decent opportunity to have a good life but the only thing I'm interested in and have any drive for is drugs.
Well I already know what you'll be doing in ten year's time - wishing you could do these current years of your life better instead of getting set in a behavioural baseline of regret, self-pity and inaction you will keep existing in.
The past is never an excuse for present actions (or inaction). Life passes quickly by and then you die, there's no time to pout and stomp your foot about things that didn't go your way. Just accept them and move on.
oh man. it's like, >tons of childhood trauma stemming from their parents >extended family is just a matter of who's "less bad" >gay>mentally ill (extreme ocd, depression, anxiety, ptsd) + hypochondriac & autistic>extremely poor (moved to a very old house, can't afford to pay bills a lot of the time)>living in the deep south in a shitty tiny town>bad physical health (obesity, really fucked up teeth despite having spent thousands of dollars on the weirdest braces i've seen, scoliosis, skin stuff, bad eyesight)>teenage trauma with online groomers combined with childhood trauma = distrusts everyone they meet even now…
god knows they've tried but all their therapists have been "u need 2 pray the demons away" bible thumping idiots because deep south.
they have one thing going for them is that they're academically successful despite the poverty…but even that was fueled entirely by intense anxiety and fear.
the only thing keeping them going is the fact that their addict parents can't/don't want to take care of the animals on their own, and that they're afraid of divine retribution if they an hero'd.
That's a lot, but it's not untreatable. If they (is it a tranny? lmao) could even just focus on improving in one of those areas, like their weight, it's a step in the right direction and typically inspires motivation for more positive change.
This person's health is definitely something they have control over. Being academically successful is also going to help them out a lot in the long run.
I really hope it's not clear to this person that you have so little faith in them, because that's going to be a huge detriment to their journey.
i'm making it more clear: we are no friends anymore. we were very very close until they cut me off because i was becoming a normal person with friends (less internet, new friends i could see irl) + drank alcohol on the weekends (they have a phobia of alcohol and me simply mentioning alcohol a couple of times on twitter made them randomly ask me, obviously uncomfortable, if i was drunk at 11am in class. lmao.) cut me off because i simply said, during our one argument, that they had been difficult to deal with for a couple of months. they have terribly black and white thinking and have cut off many people like this. some deserved, some not so much. they also block everyone and anyone.
they (born female) went from "no gender" to "i'm basically a woman but can't admit it to myself" lol. given all their mental illnesses it's no wonder.
they have intense guilt over eating every day and will starve, then binge, then starve again, or eat the weirdest food at random times (an onion…). also poverty and narcissist mom won't let them into the kitchen. i think they also have arthritis.
they're academically successful in a field that isn't so popular though, so idk how much they can get out of the hole in the deep south before potentially burning out.
but deep down i wish they'd succeed. it would be impressive if they did.
Sounds like her problems would disappear exponentially if she could move away from her southern shitpit town, receive some proper medical and dental care, and remove herself from her toxic
family situation. However all that is very hard to overcome even when a person is normal and successful, unfortunately "it takes a village" and the deck is stacked against her.
She's not irredeemable, it just sounds like she has limited opportunities due to her financial and living status. As a result she has a self-perpetuated victim
mentality and also gets jealous easily of anyone she sees escaping bad circumstances that she's still stuck to deal with on the daily.
Bet her weird binging and restricting habits with food stem from the fact that it's one of the few aspects she feels she has control over in her life.
it's funny because their friends had to tell them their shit life was not normal and for a long time they didn't want to admit that their parents were crazy, that their living situation was terrible and that their poor mental health isn't just "how it be".
i feel like they were jealous because they felt left out. i was having fun irl with new friends while they wouldn't get as many messages from me anymore.
the restricting was more in lines with forgetting to eat from fucked up sleep schedules. speaking of which, they'd also go between staying up for 2 days straight and sleeping 12 hours. they had terrible nightmares that made them afraid of sleeping.
That's fair. It's hard to be supportive of someone who is actively pushing you away or acting toxic
like this, even if you still empathize with their situation. There's only so much you can do for people that don't want to accept help. Thanks for clarifying, and I'm sorry for the accusatory tone of my previous post.
Because OP said her life is "doomed" and it's better that her suicide attempts be successful. Her life is redeemable from this so-called hopelessness and doom. >>579739
You don't have to be her friend or anything but try to have some empathy. People can't help the environment they're born into.
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I like to eat a bunch of pic related and smoke a cigarette afterwards. It tastes like roast chicken.
Yes, I’m white trash.
Cigs make me nauseous but I still have one occasionally for the taste. It's very soothing and having my hair smell like smoke reminds me of college all nighters when the cig break was king. You are valid
fuck yeah anon, i might do the same tonight. I know I'll be getting shitfaced at least.
time to dig out the bodyline like the trash I am
Man, anon, idk if you're getting married soon, but if you are let go of everyone else's opinion right now. A wedding is YOUR day. No one has a right to tell you how they think YOUR wedding should be. Even if they're helping pay for it. And if someone thinks they can tell you what to do because they're paying for it, they're only "helping" to be in control.
You can have the most gaudy, trashy, ugly, horrendous dress, decorations, cake etc… but no one can or should say a damn thing, cause it's your wedding.
Besides, if you can't be comfortable at your own wedding, then whats even the point. >>579993
What kind of bug was it? If it was like a cockroach or something please just make a new cup. You're already drinking old coffee.
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I'm gonna do the same.
Guys whinging online about how they have never been kissed and can't get dates is less desperate in your mind than signing up on a dating app? Lmao.
By the way, guys are manipulating you and it's working.
Ehh, we have some trips planned, plus I don't mind the orgasms. And as I said, I do like spending time with her irl. All my doubts are gone as soon as she is next to me. But when she is not, it's crazy annoying. >>580211
I guess you're right. Thank god you're calling me out. When I do break up with her, I'll explain her why.. that she was too much.
But again, when I see her and I'm with her, I don't want to break up at all. Which is why I don't want to do it too soon.
Plus, I hope she'll change a bit.. I'm slowly trying to confront her about some of her attachment issues, the problem is that if I do say something, she feels as if its a personal attack. Her dad tells her that stuff too so I'm not alone in this.
She sounds like a mutual I know. She's so bad, I've wanted to post her in the personal cow thread for a while.
Imagine the attachment issues, but with a guy in jail for murdering an ex.
You have savior fetish >>580249
Anon you really shouldn’t envy us. There is literally nothing wrong with wanting emotional connection. Love filled sex is amazing. Don’t FOMO yourself into thinking you want to do it just because people gas it up to be a fun thing; it’s mundane af and frequently disappointing. Vacation in a far away land is a ‘must‘ experience worth envying. Having mediocre/bad sex with a scrote who doesn’t love you is not.
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I have awful hyperpigmentation and it's so embarrassing. I'm black too, so it's super noticeable. I want to try an acid peel or microrolling, but I'm scared I'll fuck up my face. My only options are vitamin c and exfiolating at this point.
I literally can't stop picking at my skin. I literally have scabs on my face from picking my blackheads/pimples. I've been doing better at holding off on it, but I'm worried that I'm gonna end up getting a really bad infection at some point. It's just so addictive. >>580352
Joji is kinda ugly-cute in a way. He looks different in every photo, but I think he was cutest before he became mainstream, pic related. His eyes are really nice too. They just have a really kind and sweet look to them. Like a puppy.
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I love him but totally get why people wouldn't. I also think he's kind of an asshole which makes him all the more appealing to my mentally disadvantaged brain. Pretty sure he has epilepsy and takes medication for it which explains why he sometimes looks really bad
Fuck, my mom was 18 and my dad was 47 maybe that explains me lmao
My dad died when I was young so my memories of him aren't really focused on his age so it's something I tend to forget. Man that age gap was fucked up.
I’m completely disappointed with the wedding I had, but don’t think I could ever express it without hurting feelings. I’m living overseas so my few closest friends couldn’t come, and I ended up inviting a bunch of acquaintances in order to not look like a complete loser. While they’re all nice people, I basically ended up paying a ton of money for each of them to attend and most of them couldn’t even follow this country’s basic wedding manners (which I got nagged at by my MIL later about). My husband has a small friend group too, so the majority of attendees ended up being my FILs business colleagues.
Without blogging too hard about everything being essentially pre-chosen (the norm for here, DIY anything is super rare and just not available in the major cities) I would’ve been content with this shitshow event if our photos at least came out nice.
There were maybe 2 out of almost 1000 where I didn’t have an uncomfortable grimace, was bizarrely over exposed, or showed how shitty my eyeliner was done by the makeup artist. I didn’t even get any shots of just my dress because the whole event was so structured and full of outfit changes there literally wasn’t time. I don’t think I even tasted any of the food aside from some cake for the sake of a photo. I’m still nauseas when I think about how I got nothing but stress and ugly photos from the entire situation and it still cost over $25,000 usd.
Farmers, don’t have a wedding. Just pay some instagram photographer to take nice pictures and fake a wedding instead. I should’ve known better lol. >>579931
Just saw this after typing up all of the above. Please, for the love of god just trash the wedding if you don’t want to do it. It WILL show on your face that you hate it and you’ll be constantly trying to convince yourself afterwards that some things were “nice” to justify the effort and money you dumped into this stupid thing.
The memory of what we did is so tainted in my mind that I’m actually considering spending more money in the future to have another “wedding” in the future with just me and my husband and a couple of friends hanging out and eating good food while I wear a wedding dress in the woods or something lol.
Dealing with your family’s nagging about doing things “properly” is 100x better than regretting giving into them.
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…Why hate yourself over that so much? Maybe this could serve as a message that trying to judge people for what they're attracted to is a moot point. I can't imagine calling myself gross, disgusting, fucked up, or suggesting that I should receive therapy as a full-grown adult because I looked at drawings on the internet when I was a child.
I share your hatred for peaches. It's summer now and my boyfriend keeps buying peaches and encouraging me to eat them because they're soooooo fresh and juicy. Blegh.
I also hate watermelon.
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ik that feel anon :< lost 60 lbs, then gained 40 back in the last few months. i wanna cry bc everyday i hate my body
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Have you tried nectarines? They're basically a peach with smooth skin.
i wish Usagi Kou thread was more active, feels real good to compare myself to her as we're the same age and i used to be into cosplay too. sad cope i know.>>580812
it's really hard to get a stark realisation like you did with a disorder like yours anon. i root for you! i hope you'll find the happy, long medium between having everything revolve around your body and your looks and controlling them and being an unhealthy slob. come enjoy eating good nourishing food and moving around in ways that are fun to you.
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I've been contemplating infidelity in my relationship for some time now. I never thought I'd be the type to do that, i think cheating is disgusting, but he's physically abused me and basically ignores me 99% of the time that he's not being a simpering loser to the extent where my socialization stems exclusively from my group of friends. I want somebody to want me, but I don't have the guts to leave. Sucks.
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Men say they're never loved unconditionally and I wish that was true, if I was less soft hearted I'd have bounced years ago. We don't talk much, but I nurture him a lot and I think he'd do some severely dumb shit if I left.
I'm only rarted in this very particular department i swear
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Entirely agreed, I've known I should have broken up with this clown for a cool couple of years. Also technically been in therapy too. Self awareness really isn't enough, we are both clowns.>>581046
Hopefully quar 2.0 hypes me up enough to pull the trigger
just as well as you two ladies do. I'll figure something out- it's just nice to have someone else tell you what's what sometimes. Thank you!
Contrary to what society is telling you, you don't need to live with your partner unless you have a family with kids of course. I lived with my past partners and it sucked, i've been dating my bf for 3 years now, we both got our own places, no intention to live together long term ever and it's perfect. We see each other every weekend (it was every day before covid because we work in the same office), so it's not like we dont like each other company, we just know well enough we prefer to be independent.
You can totally take this route too anon, if it works for both you and your bf.
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ok this is absolutely disgusting
> be me 2 years ago
> in LDR
> notice my vagina is super itchy everyday, think nothing of it
> notice white cream when wiping after i pee but think i'm ovulating
> bf and i get on video call and start being horny
> finger myself and lick my fingers on call for him
> google why i'm itchy and notice i have a yeast infection
so yeah. i cringe every time i hear talk of yeast infections. can't believe i saw the lumps and still put my fingers in my mouth. i thought you could only get a yeast infection from someone else or not being clean. turns out i was wearing terrible underwear.
Once I came into my internship place when I was all fucked up with the flu (due to some paperwork deadline I needed the head to sign) and had pinkeye and a badly infected insect bite. I came in and everyone looked at me like I was a monster. On top of that, I used something that makes contact with your eye, didn't wipe it and next time I was in the staff member I looked up to looked at me and she had pinkeye. I got 2 passive aggressive comments about the fact I shouldn't be there and should go home (which I know), then someone when I was better was like "ya know, if you have an eye infection you should wipe the areas your eye comes in contact with". This was when I was fully better and obvioulsy knew this, I was mortified.
IDK I guess I just thought about how my research would be ruined unless I took literally 5 minutes to do an upkeep thing, so figured I might as well. I also had the drive to "prove" that I realy was sick because I'd been off for around 10 days at that point. I also dropped a phone in the bathtub when I had a bad flu and just watched the bubbles rise to the top and took like a minute to take it out after staring at it, then took my bath and THEN tried to dry the phone lmao. So I think I'm dumb AF when I have the flu, I swear I'm not usually that stupid.
Anyway, I think retardation caused by flu and up until then a work culture of "oh if you're sick just tell us, but you'll definitely be judged for being lazy, possibly faking it and will financially lose out, on top of possibly be dismissed" is the reason.
Whenever someone says "if someone's sick they should not fucking go into work" I'm filled with shame because of that time. It was dumb, and I'm sorry. I apologised and acknowledged it was dumb to some coworkers but even 2 years on it still triggers me.
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I've sent and received nudes from ProJared
I wish I was joking
if he's confirmed marfan and you feel ready for a "break up", you should be open about it with him.
don't feel bad, not all women have this phobia so he's not doomed and will be able to find someone right for him, even if it hurts.>>581404
I know a girl who has this and even gave birth to a son who was also born with it. She had a c-section and wasn't conscious for it. I think she is on the extreme end of it. She is in a wheel Chair and uses crutches, needs constant hospital visits. Also her son had a lot of complications already due to Marfan syndrome. despite being in canada, all the hospital stays, the hotel rooms put her and her husband in debt. The son has to have open heart surgery at one point in his life due to Marfan. She'll make posts on instagram about how she almost died or something, she's had at least 5 of these so far within the last year.
side bar- does he have a victim
complex about? the girl I was talking about has a massive victim
anyways it appears to be a lot to take on, anon. You never know where life will take you medically but I'm pretty sure if he has marfan syndrome, he has a 50% chance of passing it on to your kids, if you chose to have any with him.
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I know I know
I needed to vent that aspect of myself
I actually find him really attractive he is 100% my type
Also I'm not going to put any of his nudes online since it's consensual and I'm not that trashy of a person….I hope
and also the fact that Hoelly is an insane bint that probably lurks all through lolcow to find us weird girls who'd fuck Jared.
He has no victim
complex whatsoever - at least he hasn't given any indication of having one yet.
He's super tall and loves it, had no hesitation to take his shirt off, and stays active, especially outdoors. He's confident and comfortable with himself which I think is a sexy quality. He's the whole package… except for Marfans. >i feel like such an asshole and i hate it
As for the kids thing, I'm intrigued about that because I am terrified of the thought of being pregnant and giving birth, so that would solve that issue - we'd adopt.
But again, we're only 7 dates in so I don't wanna start thinking about kids just yet.
>>581443>it's to make sure that Batshit Hoelly doesn't go nuclear
That's the fun part though.
I doubt she'd leak nudes, she's obsessed with being uwu kind and that's low even for her. And surely she knows? Like, that's what he's been doing all along, they got together via cheating after all. And if she doesn't know, she deserves to because she was arrogant enough to think a guy who cheated with her wouldn't cheat on her.
>>581436>It's been going on for a while and still going
What's wrong with you?>>581443>I have some form of morals
Could've fooled us.>I can see that bitch leaking peoples photos and harassing anyone Jared has been sending his schlong to.
Kek. Why do you still send him nudes then?
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Never said I was a saint or anything there's just some lines I will not cross
Everyone is different you y'know
As for why I'm still at it I suppose it's a weird self esteem boost I guess shit that happend in my past may have affected me worse than I thought
and before you ask no I wasn't touched as a child
or I just had a huge gulp of the Dumb Bitch Juice
I did not expect this confession to blow up
anon, don't jump head-first into a shark tank with drama like that. it will not be rosy.
you're not a bad person for exchanging nudes with this trash imho but you should def evaluate this relationship because it's disgraceful and it's not great to associate with trash and feed their ego. I'm sure you can find a better candidate of your type.
Unless the drama is what draws you in …
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I haven't really read through this whole thread yet I just thought I'd throw my hat into the ring
Kinda needed to vent somewhere
There's gotta some worse confession than mine
I'm not a person who wants drama in their life I already had enough of that thrust upon me years ago by people I try to lead a more stable existence
>I can see that bitch leaking peoples photos and harassing anyone Jared has been sending his schlong to.
Hoelly would be the one in the wrong if she did that, anon.
Besides, she has already
tarnished her track-record - so enough people will doubt her if she started doing that…
I’d like to believe this because it would be hilarious that karma was biting hoelly in the ass.
The least you could do is post a time stamped conversation to prove this is a recent and ongoing thing.
He’d have to publicly shoot himself in the foot to come after you for this.
If he is still exchanging nudes with people and it comes out he might actually face some consequences.
Not judging you on your confession. Liking weird looking guys isn't that uncommon. But anons are interested because this is literal milk and the thread's been dry for a while.
Without revealing your identity or his nudes, if you can prove it actually happened at all, that would be pretty milky
Yeah, you shouldnt post the nudes. If he has half a braincell left, he's sending unique pics to all his pic pals (im sure youre not the only one) and even if you censor the photo he could track you and sue you. I would like to see his carreer ruined, but not the life of a rando ho.
Can i ask how it started? Was it before the whole scandal or after?
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you better post thos pro jared nudes you coward
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propedo anon please be real. please send proof. i want to see the meltdown so bad