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Had 2 pot brownies about 3 hours ago. I'd love to try DMT, MDMA and mescaline. Really into psilocybin, too.
I'm getting more and more reclusive so it's really hard to get stuff.
drugs fuck up your life. Trust me. I have been addicted for around 5 years.
If you dont believe me then you will regret getting into drugs
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I've tried E, weed, salvia, K-2 (spice), acid, and molly.
I vape marijuana 2-4 nights a week, mostly for sleep, inspiration, or when I'm playing MtG/video games.
I have issues with dissociating so I avoid anything like K, I may or may not try shrooms someday tho.>>46072
care to share your salvia experience? Mine was short as fuck and pretty anticlimactic. I have a friend who smoked salvia and felt that they turned into a spoon in a full bowl of cereal, lmao.>>46074
What are you addicted to?>>46082
I was just talking to someone yesterday who did tons of drugs in the 70's– he says mescaline is very much a spiritual hallucinogen.
I was addicted to anything i could get my hands on. Mainly the smokable incense , heroin and marijuana.
I still have an addiction. Its something i cant get rid of honestly. I always crave and want to get high. I miss the dopamine rush.
Give me one and ill want more
I'm not really into drugs much. These days weed makes me feel like shit and fucks with my anxiety too much.
Done opiates, coke, some random pharms., and dudeweedlmao.
But as far as what I consume regularly it's just nicotine and alcohol (lol).
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blue lotus+ wine+ weed[a tiny bit] is my go-to for an altered state of mind, more wine and lotus if I feel like being sociable or more weed and lotus if I feel like being introspective and artsy.
I also like salvia, but really I have to force myself to do it at high enough doses to dissolve my bodily sense of self
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seeds are legal everywhere if you have the patience to grow plants and water them and all that stuff. I personally like gardening and I dont like smoking stuff so having a live plant that I can take leaves off of to chew/suck is the best option for me.
You can also buy (smokable)dried leaf in most countries pretty cheap from online ethnobotanical distributors.
Concentrates(liqud) are a third option, I like these because you can take them sublubligualy and dont have to smoke, there are also solid concentrates which you can smoke or make a tincture with.
Concentrates however are illegal in a lot of places(especially synthesized salvinioum-alpha) so the deep-web probably is the safest choice for those.
I smoke weed (legally, even) erryday and love that magical opioid feel, but so far I've managed to stick to pills (usually oxy or dilaudid, though I can rarely get my hands on any). I know just about everyone swears that they'll never stick a needle in their arm, so I can only hope I never get to that point, but goddamn, I love the opioid high so much, I honestly don't know how low I'd stoop.
I wish I could enjoy alcohol, but I hate it. I hate my body so much and feel so trapped in it that I've spent a lot my life trying to escape it and/or destroy it in various ways, and I found that constantly being on cold medicine and slightly stoned keeps me removed enough that I can function. I'll readily admit that I take whatever I can get my hands on, booze aside, to self-medicate. I'm well aware that it's not "healthy," but my health is and always has been shit, and I figure there's little chance of me making it to old age anyway, so I've spent the last almost-decade since I turned 18 just doing whatever I can to in order to cope and hold on. I don't do it for fun, to be "social," to party, or whatever. I almost exclusively partake when I'm alone. I'm pretty pathetic and I know it.
I've long wanted to experience DMT especially, but salvia, LSD, mushrooms, ketamine, and 2C-B or something similar are also on my "bucket list." I've just been too lazy to try to procure the materials myself, and, as someone who's spent long periods of time being a shut-in and has pretty much dropped out of society, I don't have any hookups. I'd try cocaine or MDMA if someone offered me some. I'm a poorfag, though, so I prefer shit I can grow or make myself. And, living in a glorious haven where both medical and recreational marijuana are legal, that means I mostly stick to weed.
I'm embarrassed that I smoke as much as I do, but I guess I don't come off as a pothead (thank god), because everyone seems to assume I'm the type of person who would never consume marijuana, or any other drug, for that matter. The downside of that is that no one ever offers me anything because they just assume I'll say no.
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>>46565>what's meth like?
honestly though, don't get into it. it's crazy addictive, cheap and easy to find, you'll feel alright for a short time then you'll come down like a motherfucker for the next few days and just want to die. it also turns people into violent criminals more than any other drug imo
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>mfw reading this thread
T-thanks Mom and Dad for discouraging me from drug use
Same here with pot. I also had the same reaction (ridiculous paranoia/panic attacks) from Wellbutrin of all things once I upped the dose.
I'd like to try other drugs but I really don't think I could handle it if I ended up in a worse place than I do when smoking. At least I have alcohol.
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here, I had that same issue for years– gave me panic attacks, spins, shakes, felt like I was going insane. A lot of it was anxieties I had about myself, my "failures" as >>46155
noted, my relationships and life path, etc.
I'm older now, and have done a LOT of thinking and maturing, tl;dr decided to try it again. Lo and behold, it actually feels nice now. I still get nervous at times since it's illegal, but I can shake it off or just check outside to make myself feel safe. If
you're interested in trying again, I recommend trying to vape it rather than smoke or eat it, that way you're just getting the THC and it's not nearly as powerful. Different strains also have different effects– some will make you more peaceful, some more imaginative, some more energetic. Also, if you're not 100% comfortable with whom and where you are, you'll be more sensitive and it is more likely to become off-putting.
All in all, it's just like anything else you're putting into your body. If you do it, remember you chose to and you have control, just relax and ride it out.
Vaping is much healthier, but not exactly more or less powerful.
Vaping will likely actually increase anxiety and paranoia compared to smoking, not reduce it. THC vaporizes at lower temperatures than CBD and other cannabinoids that counteract THC in many ways and contribute to the body high. THC is what gives you creative and weird ideas and causes anxiety. Vaporizers give you a higher ratio of THC because they're not as hot as actually lighting the weed with fire.
Also, the toxins in cannabis smoke are theorized to contribute to the "stoned" body high by lowering oxygen intake temporarily. For these reasons, vaping will give you more of a mins high, especially at lower temperatures.
It's way more cost efficient and likely way healthier though, so I still recommend it.
Hmm, wasn't speaking from a scientific perspective but from one of experience. I am definitely
much less anxious when vaporizing than when smoking, regardless of what's inside. But I see what you mean.
Understandable; I wasn't trying to deny your own experience. I've personally had many serious anxiety episodes both when smoking and vaping. I don't think I could confidently say which ones gave me worse anxiety though.
I could also be wrong about it objectively actually causing more anxiety despite the increase in THC ratio. There are many other factors that could go into it. From Googling, it looks like some people report more anxiety from smoking, some report more anxiety from vaping, and some with no noticeable difference. It seems like more people report smoking gives them more anxiety than vaping than the reverse, so it's certainly possible your experience will apply to more people.>>47167
Yeah, set and setting matters a lot, like for many other drugs. If you go into it anxious or in a bad mood, you're just going to amplify that.
I'll probably try again soon since it's about to legal here (Canada) but yeah, my first experience was not cool. I had my finger on the "9" on my phone for hours, ready to call 911 becaue I was convinced I was gonna die.
But like, that shit is so much stronger than it used to be too. A ton of THC. At least according to my older stoner friends but who knows.
Seconding this anon's answer. If you can't get hash, a few puffs of weed and a melatonin pill will have you asleep in no time and – probably – sleeping like a rock.
I personally recommend avoiding things like Nyquil, as the DXM can worsen or initiate anxiety or panic attacks.
A word of caution though: any drug (including antidepressants, booze, melatonin) can cause you to have some really whack and fucked-up dreams. On the positive side, you can have some amazing ones too. Be careful with the combinations you're making!
Ive fucked w/ weed, acid, shrooms, dmt, molly (mdma), vyvanse (prescibed), benzos (prescribed), pain killers, muscle relaxers and did a little meth once.
I smoke weed daily for medical reasons, but i love mixing weed and pills like vyvanse, xanax, opiates ect. I do that on the reg and since i dont like taking My vyvanse everyday (im actually ADD) I just save what ill need for work and use the rest to speed.
I dont trip or roll as much as i use to because of the negative effects its had on my everyday ability to function (i feel like theyve made me so dumb tbh)
Ive completely stopped acid because i just cant handle tripping for so long and my come downs are god fuck awful. Shrooms ill still fuck with and maybe DMT, but other than that ive really chilled with the harder drugs.
All of them probably could. Weed is what i usually like becuz cheep and easy to find, and I've noticed my memoryhas went to shit, I've been making more dumb fuck ups.
At the same time I've been getting better grades in school, and I've had easier times repairing computers and learning codes.
so like idk
Smoking pot is a given, but I consume herculean ammounts of the stuff.
I suppose I have to, English weed isn't known for it's potency.
I like acid best of all, it's gentler than liberty caps, the emotional rollercoaster effect isn't so pronounced I find.
Can't stand uppers, coke heads and speed freaks get on my tits.
MDMA can be great if it's not cut with methamphetamine, I think the last lot I had was, it wasn't quite right.
A Salvia dose of X60 potency was the most major trip of my life.
I thought I was dead and I couldn't hear or see anything but molten brass with black chevronss moving up and right into a howling black void like someone had folded over the page corner of reality, and there was nothing behind it.
I briefly believed that I must have been hit by a car because the chevrons made me think of tire-tracks across my brainpan.
Best experience I had with the stuff was also the first.
A friend had some nice product they'd been gifted with, we bombed about a .3 each in rizla papers and set off into the hills with nothing but our good selves and enough water for both of us.
We talked for what seemed like hours lazily clambering from one field to another, getting lost and deciding to simply walk straight through hedges rather than find our way around them.
I remembered nothing of what we'd talked about, but at the time it seemed like all the mysteries of the universe could be unfurled in the hand; all their contents revealed like a flattened paper fortune teller.
Eventually I passed out at the summit of the hill, near some standing stones, and woke up wrapped around my toilet at home.
He'd carried me, semi-conscious two miles across hills and boggy ground and a maze of farmers boundaries, and managed to bundle me into my bathroom without me recalling any of it.
You don't find LSD. LSD finds you.
Seriously, try hanging out with some hippies or nerds, they tend to be the psychedelics people. Protip: the smarter the crowd the better your bet.
There are certain websites on the internet which shall go unnamed in this conversation.
They often change because they are continually shut down, and pop back up again, but any "legitimate" black market site will have peer reviews and comments sections, which will give insignt as to the veracity of the product, though caveat emptor applies strongly, and some vendors pad their comments sections just like Amazon.
These websites facilitate a transaction between buyer and seller by digital currency; Bitcoin being the classic example, but the websites I have used have had a list of digital currencies that they use; these digital currencies are not my specialty, and I am not knowledgeable in their procurement, nor have I needed to be thanks to my pool of friends.
LSD in tab form is easy to send by mail, as it is odourless, and comes on paper, so as to be sent by a conventional nondescript envelope.
This makes it in many ways the ideal mail-order recreational chemical, besides the other obvious complicating factors.
And remember, don't take drugs before you look them up on Erowid, which is a highly valuable resource for both basic pharmacological effects and "trip journals".
And if you don't have a reasonable suspicion of what something is, don't take it at all.
I suppose depth is relative.
I mean, Tor isn't exactly a big secret, it's a free user friendly legitimate downloadable application.
That just happens to make it exponentially easier to find and procure illiegal goods and services online.
I am explicitly refraining from endorsing any particular site because A: loose lips sink ships and B: I haven't done it in a while and it's likely all my links are dead.
my own experiences:
i never touched so much as a single beer, cigarette or ~marihuana~ until i moved away for college.
art school, man. art school.
for the first year, I was pretty good. I got drunk for the first time, which was horrible, and I think I tried cigarettes and weed and didn't like either. I tried robotripping for a little bit and really liked it, but it was very difficult to conceal/function, so eventually I stopped. Tried spice in my sophomore year because I didn't have connections for weed and the head shops in my city hadn't all been busted yet. Eventually, I moved into a hippie co-op in my junior year and turned into a total stoner. (It didn't help that I was dating the community's weed dealer for the next two years. Even since we've broken up, he's still my go-to guy 'cause I get a discount.) That's when I had most regular access to psychedelics. I haven't tried DMT or mescaline, but basically everything else is checked off. I had a fantastic headtrip about a year and a half ago and haven't really had the desire to do it since, though.
Basically, I wasn't really concerned about any of my vices until last year. I briefly dated this guy from a wealthy family and he introduced me to coke and lately, heroin. When he was buying, I would occasionally join in because 'no skin off my nose', right? but he's started asking me to go in half lately, or to buy for 'us' entirely. I like him and heroin is kind of fun for a night, but I'm starting to worry that he's addicted. He's been clean until a couple of months ago, but he's starting to use more often than I'm comfortable with.
Really, coke is my poison of choice, but it's so fucking expensive. Heroin-guy is also the source for that, so I can't really afford to piss him off or cut him out of my life. TBH, I would give up all my drugs (and my right arm, and the soul of my firstborn child) for an Adderall prescription. HOW IS IT that people can find connections for heroin at any fucking gas station in the ghetto after midnight but I can't find a source for some perfectly legal pharmaceuticals?
I could always silk road it, I guess, I just hate waiting on the mail and someone in this city has to have a stupid prescription.
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Also, just for you, lolcow:
I found this pamphlet (printed in 1961) called 'WHAT ABOUT SMOKING? A Brief Common-Sense Discussion' at a local garage sale. It is full of many such amusing anecdotes such as pic related and humorous illustrations. Chapter X, The Menace of Marihuana, is a particular gem.
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it is boring! whenever the topic comes up in person i find myself wondering if i every really graduated high school and if this is all just a fever dream
lsd is nice, i have heard so many people say this and that would lead to a bad trip but i find that a day alone with acid and some weed and a beer at the end is pure gold.
for some reason i will spontaneously get the shakes when i am smoking mj. sometimes i think i am just imagining them but i can see my hands shaking and it's a little unnerving. i find a beer or two helps. it may be just too much coffee. coffee + a bowl = how i get stuff done; so maybe i just get too tensed up. alcohol is ok, but there's definitely a "tipping point" for myself and for others. you've got to know how to ride the buzz and not drink too much or else the night is done for.
i'm glad it helps with your anxiety! that sounds positively delightful. i was prescribed klonopin (sp?) against my will as a younger person. i absolutely hated it because i was terrified of how it might change my personality, most people think i was stupid and would have loved having the prescription but ironically i associate pills and the like with the utmost of stress and anxiety and they just make me feel sick and give me nightmares. i'm glad they have a positive use for you! funny how things affect people differently
In my experience stoners are so used to being told straight up lies about the negative effects of weed that they're immune to any criticism of it at all even when valid. That mentality was what led me to dependency issues, I thought smoking every day was harmless when it wasn't. I've only recently substantially cut back and honestly you might need to stop hanging around with them if that's what keeps happening when you're with them.
My friends don't seem to want to cut back at all so I've been seeing them a lot less lately.
Personally I've never been one for drinking much (I think the last time I was drunk was September) which might explain my affinity for weed and other drugs, and I'm also worried about drinking while on benzos and fucking up my liver or just making a fool of myself.
Is the shaking ever present while sober? You could try taking one substance at a time to try and isolate the cause of the shaking if it bothers you, maybe just have a coffee, or just smoke a bowl, and see if/when it pops up?
I get what you mean about changing your personality. If I'm on 1 mg of xanax I can control myself but usually any more in a night and I'm a little more loose lipped about personal issues than I'd like. Also taking them too often makes me wary of dependency so there's a little anxiety added there ironically.
Never taken Klonopin before but from my understanding, it's slower acting and longer lasting which usually doesn't help with mental states if you're on a drug you don't really want to be on. If I sleep on a xanax I don't think I'd even be capable of dreaming lol. Hope you find something that helps you.
I feel you. it's no imagination, I've seen documentaries and some people react this way on thc (with panic/anxiety).
I know that feeling of being locked inside, too, but I have a weird body image/feeling to begin with.
I don't combine anything, when I'm high on shrooms I counteract anxiety by finding sources of light. Yep. light. The sun, lightbulbs, lamps or pretty much anything that gives off light put me at peace. You should try it, see if it works.
The bad thing is, if you spend 4 hours staring at a lamp your eyes will be dry and fucked for ages.
a good combination is shrooms and mdma.
acid + mdma should be good too.
LSD or shrooms are good combined with nature ;)
+ all criticism of it seems like some massive conspiracy against DA EXPANSION OF CONSHASNASS
wow that sounds really awful. are you okay now?
I've never had lab psylos but I've had lsd which is also synthetic. there's a difference, but it's important what you occupy yourself with before you're doing drugs.
Yeah I'm fine now. I'm not like the horror stories you hear about where people are like stuck in psychosis for eternity.
Yeah you 100% need to occupy yourself. I shot into a vortex because we were all just sitting around in a circle drinking tea and everything just felt so fucking mundane I felt like I was going to explode.
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i'm not one for drinking either tbh it just kind of takes the edge off when i'm hanging out with people. weed is greatly preferred - but yes preserve that liver! i totally understand that line of thinking. i got drunk on my birthday in march and ended up crying on the floor in my friend's bathroom haha. absolutely mortifying, i don't see myself drinking anything else for a long time kek
i found myself shaking just now, no coffee or weed, just really perturbed about something. i usually blame the mj but i think it just may be that pesky anxiety. currently taking some deep breaths, i think i just get wrapped up in my thoughts and forget to breathe haha. but for real apparently breathing is essential
when i was younger i used to get so stressed out i'd have out of body experiences. it was only later in life i learned what they were called so i think it may be something like that, just on a less dramatic scale. i think smoking helps keep me generally calm but it's up to me to manage small scale freakouts
ahh the legendary loose lipped-ness! haha yeah i get you there. it's so thrilling to be relaxed and be able to talk about literally anything without constant self policing, and often it's just really satisfying to be too honest. most people are wrapped up in their own dramas anyhow, don't worry about it too much <3 it's ok to just talk
you seem like such a pleasant human to chill with, drugs or not. i hope your life gets better and better anon
Man. The worst bathroom-walls-turning-into-other-things experience that I've had was when everything turned into cats. apparently this is a common thing.
anon, next time, think about cats instead of the white empire.
Which strain? Dutchii perhaps? That is a fairly new strain that can be quite a heavy experience.
Furthermore, what were you thinking? Taking psilocybin truffles IN A BAR?! You should take them in a familiar, safe place, with someone you can trust.
Also ego death and an existential crisis at the end of your trip are very common. If you would've done it in a hotel room, it would've been less intense.
Next time, stay in a room, alone or with 1 person. Keep it dark, or watch a movie. Or maybe do some in the forest. But don't do it in an environment like a bar ffs.
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Yeah the bar wasn't a great place because it made all our social interactions seem unbearably mundane. Movies are dumb so I couldn't have bared that either. It didn't get better back at the hotel room but perhaps it was too late by then.
I'm not sure I want to do them again, it was so horrific. If I did it would have to be in forest like you say, or in a garden on a really sunny day.
Atlantis should be pretty mild usually, it really was the environment then that effed you up.
In a forest or garden would already be a huge improvement, with tripping it's all about the setting. How you are feeling, where you are and who are with you.
The trick with it not getting horrific, is keeping in mind that it will pass. No matter which feelings/thoughts you get, it will pass. You don't have to panic.
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My best trip was after a huge binge on shrooms. I sat around being insanely happy for around an hour (so I'm told, I had no concept of time) then I worshipped a lamp for 4 hours. This ikea lamp was the most beautiful thing in the world to me, I could feel its light enter me like a loving warmth, entering through my skin and then washing over my body in waves like an orgasm of warmth and joy. I didn't feel the time pass by at all, my brain was glitching up with time. I couldn't feel in the present even when I tried. The rim of the lamp seemed to spin around and everything was so bright and colourful. When I closed my eyes I saw intense visions. To be fair I took a heroic dose, didn't even weigh it, just took all the dried ones I had (at least 6 grams at the time?) and a whole bunch of fresh ones.
10/10 would do again. Never do it without a chaperone though. I had my bf at the time looking after me. He was worried I was brain damaged lol, because I was drooling and could barely communicate beyond "The lamp…"
My last time drunk was a similar experience, too much red wine and I was effectively became a garden ornament for the rest of the party I was at, haven't been too inclined to do it again since then lol.
Can't really offer much advice if your shaking happens when you're sober unfortunately, but at least you know that the drugs you take aren't fucking you up in that particular respect.
I've never had an out of body experience but I'm very interested in the idea of it, although maybe an OBE as a result of stress might not be as fun. I'm curious as to what they're like but I don't think I want to take huge amounts of drugs to trigger
one. I'm glad the stress related OBEs stopped for you because it sounds really unnerving.
>it's so thrilling to be relaxed and be able to talk about literally anything without constant self policing, and often it's just really satisfying to be too honest
I get you 100%. It might just be xanax, but I suspect it has something to do with me not feeling comfortable talking about personal stuff at all when sober or just on weed, so much so that it's like opening the floodgates when I take one. I'm hoping at some point my tolerance stops this, or I just run out of personal things to say.
>you seem like such a pleasant human to chill with, drugs or not. i hope your life gets better and better anon
:-) You too, sometimes I forget it's possible to have nice conversations with anons.
I know what you mean. It took a long time for me to admit to myself that I'm slower, less creative, and unproductive when high. I think part of it was because I felt inferior for being so affected by something that other people all over the world seem to be able to do without side effects, and part of it because if I admit the side effects to myself, I admit to myself that I wasted a large part of my life/money doing something so harmful to myself. That, and when I was smoking all the time there wasn't even time for introspection or time to observe how different I am when sober. Obviously this won't apply to everyone, but in my circle of friends that do smoke I've yet to see an exception.
Not to go off on a tangent, but I think I get what is meant by 'weed is a gateway drug'. People smoke weed for the first couple of times, realise it's relatively harmless in spite of what authority figures say about it, and develop a mistrust for what the authorities say about drugs in general and decide to experiment with other drugs or use weed liberally.
I wish weed was more akin to alcohol in terms of public perception (ie safe in moderation, but can easily lead to dependency) just because I think it would lead to less distrust and misinformation about weed and drugs in general.
Seems like it would be an interesting high.>>86327
See, I like joints for ease of use, at least to me it's easier. That, and it isn't as easy for me to fuck myself over when doing a hit.
Once you know what is happening inside a bong it's not even remotely difficult. I think you've built it up to something it's not in your head, it's simple enough that stoners can do it.
Light the weed, cover the shotty hole with a finger and suck air in from the chamber slowly so that the smoke from the lit weed collects in the chamber. When there's enough smoke in the chamber, or the weed has all been burnt, take your finger off the shotty hole and breath in deeper so that outside air can enter the chamber through the shotty and accompany the smoke into your lungs. Hold and exhale. That's it. The water is just there to cool down the smoke as it passes through the pipe into the chamber and make it less harsh.
Joints waste so much weed I can't smoke them in good conscience when a bong is available.
I think it can initially make you more creative and want to do exciting things. Eventually though when you realise it allows you to mong out for 7 hours in front of the internet it doesn't.
I smoked for two years and then the paranoia just got too much from ConSpiracy documentaries. 'IS MY COLLEGE LEXXCTURER A LIZARD?!!'
I had a daily thing with weed for 4 years, now I have a daily thing with dexedrine and never smoke weed. I get a lot more done now.
I compliment the dex with magnesium, nicotine and caffeine.
I still semi-regularly take ecstasy too. I never drink so it's good to have a thing I can be on when I'm partying.
My list of drugs I've done is boring though, a few different trips, a few different benzos, a couple opiates. Nangs.
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I was once like you. Made everyone else do the Bong work for me till I had to do it myself when I would get a hangover. You just need practice. Alternatively, you can get a vape. I bought this one for my bf and it's a god send.
>>46193>benzos (but I was drunk so I didn't feel anything)
m80 that doesn't make any sense, benzos + booze fucks you up good and proper, what dosage were you doing?>>46215
That doesn't sound like acid or ecstasy. LSD doesn't make you hallucinate, per se, more like it means shit warps, but that either sounds like really low dose LSD or some other new/ novel psych.
How into it are you, anon? Watch your bladder.
I spent 3 months a few years ago constantly high. Like I think there wasn't a single 24 hour period I didn't have k in my system, I only stopped because I ran out of money. This was back when it was cheap, plentiful and high quality. I was buying it in bulk off darknet markets, sometimes as little as £10 a gram for good, on weight shit.
A friend told me I was "the most boring person ever" for those 3 months. I definitely don't regret it, it's not like I had anything better to do at the time and I'm down to using it maybe once or twice every few months now.
Vapes are good if you need to get high discreetly, other than that you're not getting as much bang for your buck as you do with a bong. I have a vape and compared to a bong, it's like suddenly realising you've been high for the last ten minutes rather than feeling the high hit you, which is my favourite part.
Please don't fork out $250+ because you couldn't figure out how to use a bong.
No one is born knowing how to use a bong, and I've been smoking regularly for years and will still cough every now and then. Watch a slow mo bong rip on youtube to get a conceptual understanding if you need to lol.
Absolutely. Some people might be creative and have that creativity amplified by weed, but if you're not the creative type, weed won't turn you into one, and people that claim to need weed to 'get the creative juices flowing' tend to just have shit ideas that get through the filter because they're too high to care/realise.
It's great if you have nothing to do but browse all day because it makes it fun, but also removes the desire to change that situation in the first place.
In terms of amount of weed used per how high you get, how fast you get high, and how long that high lasts, bongs win in every category. Vaping is a much slower process than even two or three bong hits, which means the high onset is gradual. There are obviously situations where vapes are more beneficial (transporting equipment like you said, smell, etc.) but if you're asking about the best way to get high with friends or by yourself, where being caught isn't an issue, the answer is a bong.
>Granted I'm not a huge stoner but honestly, there's no difference.
You do raise an interesting point actually, I'm speaking from the point of view of someone whose tolerance has stayed more or less consistent over a few years. Someone that doesn't smoke regularly might not notice the difference between vapes and bongs as much, but that said, I wouldn't recommend buying a $250 vape for someone who doesn't smoke regularly.
I have a vape and a glass bong and honestly I regret buying the vape, I'm not in situations where I need to smoke discreetly nearly often enough for it to be a good investment.
Please don't listen to random anons on things like radically changing your diet to alter your mental state, they're not dieticians, people react differently to different diets, and carbs, like everything else, are fine in moderation.
Saying something like 'try eating less carbs' when they don't even know your carb intake to begin with is just fucking stupid, especially when the original question was about antidepressants.
Both diet and antidepressants are something you should be talking about with professionals. Antidepressants give different effects to different people so you shouldn't be discouraged if the first one you try doesn't work, it doesn't mean you're 'incurable'.
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I just recently started smoking weed– my friend says if you smoke a cigarette or cigar after you smoke you can get higher? is this true?
I really do like weed like.. damn…it's so nice.. but my lungs can't really take it. I might start investing in larger amounts and make edibles.
There isn't great scientific basis for it in general, but new diets are worth trying and experimenting with. I think some people have varying degrees of blood sugar regulation issues, in which case carb consumption can affect their energy moreso than others.
I personally tend to have more energy if I'm fasting. Paradoxically.
Only for severe depression. Other wise it isn't worth the side effects.
With other disorders you can't be on just anti depressants, because then it could make you suicidal. So you would be put on anti depressants + mood stabilizer or anti depressants + anti psychotics etc.
For MILD depression, exercise and lifestyle changes can work, but we're talking about MILD depression then.
Exercise has been shown to help with MILD depression, and anti depressants have been shown to help with SEVERE depression.
Not every depression is the same.
Yeah, I stopped wanting to an hero over every little thing. They definitely help, definitely worth it.
You can do all that other shit that's good for your health once you're able to function normally. Just focus on getting out the door to an appointment anon. Hope you feel better.
LSD will not work properly is you are on SSRIs. Same goes for other psys like shrooms.
Also it's potentially dangerous to combine MDMA and SSRIs. It could cause serotonin syndrome.
You should get your information BEFORE you take hard drugs.
MDMA - Best drug out there if pure and used responsibly. Really helped me grow as a person.
Amphetamines - ok-ish, boring since I get Adderall on prescription anyway
Opiates/Opioids - Great but addictive as fuck. Withdrawal isn’t worth it.
Amphetamine and Opiates: Way too good, would not recommend because it ruins you.
Benzos - Same as opiates, though less fun
Weed - boring
Cocaine - Fun if good quality but way too expensive and it makes you do stupid things like alcohol
Any sort of research chemicals - Don't fuck with this shit
Ecstacy Pills - Can be fun if you're close to the Netherlands and have access to drug checking. Would't touch this shit in the US. Though I don't know for what reason anyone would prefer pills over actual mdma crystals except maybe for the fun shapes and colors.
What I’ll never do: Crack & Meth for obvious reasons, psychedelic drugs like LSD or shrooms because I don’t trust my brain.
I’d like to try ketamine in the future.
>>90725>>Way too good, would not recommend because it ruins you.
Good reviews/list anon– but tbh the drug itself doesn't ruin you unless you have a pre existing heart condition. As long as you eat, sleep, use vitamin supplements and exercise it's fine. Even the dopamine receptors can be repaired in a few months. People (myself included at one point) try to chase the euphoria high too much and they refuse to eat or sleep. But at that point you either take a tolerance break or smoke meth. I love meth but tweakers are the worst type of people so it's not worth it.
I do agree MDMA is the bomb and the best drug. It's crazy how some people do it every weekend because THAT shit will kill you. lol. Also I'm not big on psychedelics either.
Your best bet is to do some research and lay off rec drugs OP.
order some online
it's pretty easy and safe. sometimes expensive, though.
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I've done acid a few times and weed. I don't know if I got a bad batch or what, but after smoking enough times with my friends I decided to buy some for myself and it made me sick every time I tried it. Now I'm pretty turned off to the drug as a whole.
LSD changed my life in all honesty. Helped with my depression and my overall attitude towards life. Much less melodramatic now and am super easy going whereas before I used to freak out about the future and worry myself sick over everything. The hallucinations were also cool as fuck obviously, but those didn't teach me anything aside from how subjective reality is which to be fair is kind of a big one.
I'm pretty open to most drugs aside from retard-tier ones like crack and heroin. I'd like to take molly, ketamine, and shrooms the most though
Have you guys actually never had hallucinations on LSD?
I have gotten visuals out the ass on just 110ug
To name a few just from that first trip:>Some weird shadow lion and his cub were walking around on the roof of my apartment. Clear as day>a bull popping out of the arch of a building>cigarette turned into a lizard's tail>faces on trees and rocks, along with personalities (became best friends with one, I'd come back to check up on him every few hours and shoot the shit with him)>letters rearranging themselves on signs>the blocks were numbered while I was playing jenga and the numbers kept changing very quickly>two smokestacks with cartoon faces smoking cigarettes >face on a statue sticks his tongue out at me
You get the idea
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>What drugs have you done?
DPH (benadryl lol), marijuana, LSD, shrooms, DMT, MDMA, alcohol, DXM (robotussin), hydrocodone, lorazepam, xanax, and i did cocaine once but didn't really get too high off it.
>What drugs do you use regularly?
Marijuana daily, alcohol sometimes. Did LSD a few months ago after not having tripped in about two years.
I realise I'm replying to a 6 month old post, but as this thread has been bumped anyway, for anyone reading it through, this is false.
Here's a link>http://www.health.harvard.edu/mind-and-mood/exercise-and-depression-report-excerpt>A review of studies stretching back to 1981 concluded that regular exercise can improve mood in people with mild to moderate depression. It also may play a supporting role in treating severe depression.>Another study, published in the Archives of Internal Medicine in 1999, divided 156 men and women with depression into three groups. One group took part in an aerobic exercise program, another took the SSRI sertraline (Zoloft), and a third did both. At the 16-week mark, depression had eased in all three groups. About 60%–70% of the people in all three groups could no longer be classed as having major depression. In fact, group scores on two rating scales of depression were essentially the same. This suggests that for those who need or wish to avoid drugs, exercise might be an acceptable substitute for antidepressants.
Exercise really does help. And unless you're diagnosed as severe, you shouldn't assume you are, because it's not that common, and it's next to impossible to say how severe you are, you have no frame of reference really. Even if you are, exercise helps.
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>What drugs have you done?
Trust me, a lot.
What drugs do you use regularly?
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I smoked it on a sunny day reclining on a lounge chair inside a screened in porch. My friend from the other end of the states gave it to me for free, she sprinkled some on top of a bowl of weed and I hit it wrong, apparently… I didn't quite "break through" to the "other side" but… as I looked at the houses across the street it was as if I saw each individual particle making up everything in my field of view turn into writhing shapes which then flickered upward like smoke or mist while getting smaller and smaller as they disappeared into the blue cloudless sky. I looked to my right where a paisley patterned curtain with a sort of vintage aesthetic was covering the living room window. A second later I returned my gaze to the view across the street, but two of the paisley patterns remained in the bottom right corner of my vision. Except they were made of translucent green and purple energy, the kind that you see against the darkness of the inside of your eyelids. Not only were the paisley beings alive and moving, they emanated a wordless anger which frightened me so greatly that within seconds everything which was abnormal to the sober mind vanished and suddenly my friend was asking me how I liked DMT. I was told my experience only lasted 7 minutes. Wish I had inhaled it correctly. Would recommend the documentary "The Spirit Molecule" if you're really curious about this substance which our brains naturally produce.
thats really fucking trippy. i thought those kinds of hallucinations were just made up on tv by people that have never actually done acid and just assume that's what its like.
for me, the hallucations were like the other anon described - objects around me warping, shapes, colors, patterns moving.
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I've only had weed and I use it regularly. I do it a few times a week, most of them being only one or two hits off of a pipe and then one night where I go to town. When I do a lot, I tend to get pretty existential in a good way. I get different perspectives on things than I would sober which can be really helpful, but I also often descend into typical stoner amazement ("Oh my god, you guys, us and dogs are different species and we're, like, best friends. That's so amaaaaazing").
Once in a blue moon I'll drink alcohol and smoke a lot of weed. That shit's pretty fun, but most of my friends don't like the combo. I'd be interested to try LSD or MDMA if ever given the opportunity.
I don't know if I ever try DMT. I have much respect for it. But at the same time it's so fascinating.. I like to read Terence Mckenna's experiences too.
2-CE was very funny, buyed it thinking it was acid, but it's totally different. I laughed so much about almost everything, including hallucinations.
what kind of mental illness did mdma help you with?
I can relate to the anxiety issue. I loved the trip itself but the come down is so awful.
My depression, my anxiety, and my PTSD.
I knew my shit was still there, but it felt like it had all melted or faded away for a while and I felt something close to happiness? or at the very least, normalcy. It was lovely and I saw why scientists are working on using mdma to treat veterans with PTSD and mental disorders brought on by war.
The comedown was actually quite nice for me. The afterglow was so peaceful. It's even nice just thinking about it lol
and then I later found out that if I could die from drinking too much water/drinking not enough water and I was like "well that's enough of that"
MDMA can be pretty bad for depression though, especially if you consider that using it too often leads directly to a depressive state even in normal people, combined with the increased risk of substance abuse for people with mental illness of any kind, and it's not the smartest combo.
In a therapy setting, sure, but I wouldn't recommend just popping them at home for that reason.
Yeah, that's something else I found out afterwards. I got extremely lucky there. I'd never take it by myself at home frequently, like one would with weed. Only in social settings and it's been like…4-ish years since the last time I took it.
Still, got lucky that my depression didn't get worse. Not many people can say that.
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Eh I wasn't looking to try it specifically. My friend just offered it to me. I wouldn't say my experience was bad at all on it. The moment I got scared, there was no longer any reason to be afraid.
2CE on the other hand, I got addicted to for a few months. Ordered in bulk from CanadaRC, it must have been at least a gram. Started out filling gel capsules from Vitamin Shoppe, then moved on to snorting it at least once a week. Ended up in the psych ward, had to drop out of school because they kept me there for a month and it was near finals. Got stuck in the gears of the psych industry for far too long after that.
sorry I mistaked 2ce for something else (psychedelic on blotter like lsd)
>I got addicted for a few months>got stuck in the gears of the psych industry
how are you now?
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I'm no longer on medication or in therapy, getting by on just vaporizing weed. Don't have random crying fits although sometimes I find it hard to sleep. I haven't gone more than one night without sleeping again though, that's when it gets bad. I wasted too many years on big pharma's pills without getting therapy. If you've been diagnosed with a mental illness you may find therapy is all you really need. My psychiatrist told me I'd have to be on mood stabilizers for the rest of my life, and once I stopped taking them without consulting her she said I must not really be bipolar, I must just have Borderline Personality Disorder if I feel better off meds. Joke is the person who actually gave me therapy said I had made too much progress to have borderline, and the Psychiatrist never offered therapy because (DIRECT QUOTE) "it's too much drama to deal with patients' problems". DEALING WITH PROBLEMS IS HARD HERE TAKE THESE DRUGS
>>112920>My psychiatrist told me I'd have to be on mood stabilizers for the rest of my life, and once I stopped taking them without consulting her she said I must not really be bipolar, I must just have Borderline Personality Disorder if I feel better off meds
Kek, this never happened. Bipolar and Borderline aren't similar at all, they don't present the same, they don't have the same symptoms, nothing.
Same with>Joke is the person who actually gave me therapy said I had made too much progress to have borderline
People with BPD recover just fine if they're willing to do therapy, there's whole styles of therapy dedicated to treating them.
Bipolar and BPD have some overlapping symptoms anon. They are very similar in terms of mood instability, self-injury, suicidal ideation, mood swings, etc. That being said the "reason" for these behaviors is different and is treated differently.
I went to various doctors for many years and also was told at first i was borderline but then was later given a bipolar diagnosis. Once treated all of my "borderline traits" went away, totally new person now.
>>113087>Bipolar and BPD have some overlapping symptoms anon. They are very similar in terms of mood instability, self-injury, suicidal ideation, mood swings, etc. That being said the "reason" for these behaviors is different and is treated differently.
But they're not. Like, at all. Episodes of Bipolar (depressive or manic) last at least two weeks. A mood swing for BPD could last an hour, and be changed by someone assuring you that everything is fine.
>I went to various doctors for many years and also was told at first i was borderline but then was later given a bipolar diagnosis. Once treated all of my "borderline traits" went away, totally new person now.
Well, good for you, I'm glad you're doing better.
It doesn't change that Bipolar and BPD aren't at all similar. BPD has no mania present, or inherent depression. And Bipolar doesn't have any of the other features of BPD.
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If you don't want to believe me, it's your own fault for having such strong preconceived notions about the authority of Psychiatrists and their shit fucking industr- I mean """medical field"""
I am not >>113087
>Episodes of Bipolar (depressive or manic) last at least two weeks.
Not necessarily true. Ultra rapid cycling (cycles lasting a few days) or ultradian (cycles lasting less than a day) are possible. Bipolar isn't always a perfect cycle.
Some people may cycle in a few days , then may have a week long episode later one etc. Some people may have a short 1-3 day hypomanic episode and then have it followed by months long of depressive episode etc.
BPD mood swings are largely triggered
by environmental factors, whereas BP is episodic. BP swings can sometimes be triggered
by environmental things, but for the most part it just happens on its own.
That being said obvs they are different but they really do have overlapping symptoms or similar ones at least.
replying to this post and your previous one. I'm glad that you have found a drug that works for you (weed). I do also agree that therapy is something everyone should get if they have mental health issues. I went to professional therapy for many many years and would also "practice" CBT by myself by trying to adjust my thoughts on the daily and completing workbooks.
Obviously taking drugs or doing drugs for mental health is not inherently bad. I am a big advocate for anti-stigmatizing medications. Some people may need them a lot, others may only need them for a little while, and some many not need them at all. Brain chemistry can also change so someone who used to take something like mood stabilizers like you with good results may not need them for life.
Some doctors really do prescribe anything and wrongly, which is not ok. A lot of them are paid by certain companies to recommend or prescribe certain things so it's important to take everything with a grain of salt.
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Thank you. I had EMDR therapy mainly, I would say that was more helpful in changing my brain chemistry than the mood stabilizers were. On the mood stabilizers I was mainly just numb and/or dissociated until it was time to take my pills again at which point I'd start sobbing without provocation.
I was never told that taking them only for a little while was an option. I was told I needed to be on multiple drugs that had adverse side effects for the rest of my life. It's worse if you're inside a hospital, they can give you drugs against your will without ever telling you what they are. Once I couldn't sleep for three days so my family took me to the ER where they gave me a shot in my arm and suddenly I was no longer in the chair in the ER; I awoke in a gown on a steel slab in a room with no windows. My mom was holding my hand and kept telling me everything would be okay. A nurse escorted her out and I had terrifying hallucinations for an indeterminate period of time until I woke up again in the psych ward. They administered another involuntary injection during my stay and one of the pills they made me take gave me a seizure.
>>113089>my self medication is better than these researched medications and treatments because it worked for me and I have a comic!
Yes, that's what I said. That they have nothing in common. Not that they're so different in presentation and symptom that it would be essentially impossible for a trained psychiatrist to mistake them.>>113091>Ultra rapid cycling (cycles lasting a few days) or ultradian (cycles lasting less than a day) are possible.
Do you have a source about these? I always here people talk about them existing, but from my understanding (which isn't perfect of course, I'm not a doctor so if I'm wrong here, please, link me something showing that) a manic or depressive episode must last at least two weeks, and that anything shorter doesn't count as a full episode. Yet (once again, from my understanding, if I'm wrong, links would be appreciated), a diagnosis of Bipolar requires either the presence of a depressive or (hypo)manic episodes. Anything about diagnosis of these being recognised would be appreciated.
I do recognise that Bipolar isn't a perfect cycle though, most of the time people with it are relatively normal, not in the grips of an active episode.
>BPD mood swings are largely triggered by environmental factors, whereas BP is episodic. BP swings can sometimes be triggered by environmental things, but for the most part it just happens on its own.
Nah, BPD mood swings are almost always triggered
by something. Whether that be something that actually happened, or something that they assumed happened is a whole different matter though.
>That being said obvs they are different but they really do have overlapping symptoms or similar ones at least.
There's some similarities, sure, but they're really superficial, and any more understanding of either disorder shows that they really aren't at all that related, apart from both including mood fluctuation of some sort.
I appreciate you discussing this though, even if we don't entirely agree.>>113092
Come on, you could at least tone down the samefagging a little bit. Not everyone who disagrees with you is /r9k/, and I don't think anything I said suggested I was.>>113094
I agree almost completely with this post, though I'd advocate people are hesitant with trying drugs with potential for recreational use to fix their issues, as that leads really easily to addiction.
As far as I know though, the whole "paid off by muh big pharma!" is almost exclusively an American thing. Ads for medications of any sort except for like paracetamol or cough medicine are illegal in my country, for example, and we're relatively well known (Aus).
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I don't care about anything you have to say because you literally said that events that occurred in my life never happened. You have NO idea what it's like being admitted to an American mental hospital against your will, what it's like afterwards. Shut the fuck up.
I said that the events in your life never happened because they obviously didn't, retard. No psychiatrist will go "Oh, you got better without medications? Must have been this unrelated disorder, instead of you just simply getting better like people sometimes do for seemingly no reason".
It's kind of hard to play it off as not caring about what I say when you samefagged several responses to me, by the way.
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Nothing you say will change what happened. Have you ever even been to the USA? http://www.webmd.com/bipolar-disorder/guide/medications-bipolar-disorder
>If you have bipolar disorder, you may need to take medication indefinitely and possibly for the rest of your life.
First fucking sentence.http://www.opensecrets.org/industries/indus.php?Ind=H4300
It must be nice over there in Australia.
>>113109>If you have bipolar disorder, you may need to take medication indefinitely and possibly for the rest of your life.
I never denied this?
I denied this part>once I stopped taking them without consulting her she said I must not really be bipolar, I must just have Borderline Personality Disorder if I feel better off meds
And>Joke is the person who actually gave me therapy said I had made too much progress to have borderline
Because they are completely nonsensical, ignore the basic nature of both disorders, and show that you're talking from an amateur perspective of both what they are, and treatable they are.
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>>113110>a doctor would never attempt to justify having told you that you would need medication for the rest of your life after being wrong
>a therapist would never tell their patient that their treatment had been successful
Tell me anon, what did Dr. Castellanos actually say to me when I stopped taking meds without consulting her??? :)
>>113111>a doctor would never attempt to justify having told you that you would need medication for the rest of your life after being wrong
I really doubt a psychiatrist would go "Oh, you're in a state where you aren't displaying active symptoms? It must have been this almost completely unrelated disorder". You realise that bipolar can go years without active episodes for seemingly no reason, right? And that, as I said, it presents absolutely nothing like BPD?
>a therapist would never tell their patient that their treatment had been successful
That's not what I said at all though. I said a therapist wouldn't go "Oh no, couldn't be BPD, you've gotten better!", because people with BPD are absolutely capable of getting better.
>Tell me anon, what did Dr. Castellanos actually say to me when I stopped taking meds without consulting her???
Wow gee you sure showed me by asking an impossible to answer question for me that doesn't actually support what you're saying or refute what I'm saying.
Hey, while we're at it, what did I eat for dinner last night? If you can't answer, I'm right, just by the way.
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That's not what she said at all. Before I stopped taking the medication, I asked her if I should do it because I was still having symptoms (random dissociation and crying) on the medication. She said that was a bad idea because she had a patient with Bipolar Type I who stopped taking his medication after 20 years of being on it and soon after he stopped the regimen he had a manic episode and pushed his wife in a restaurant.
I asked her if I could stop taking medication after spending 4 years on different combinations, after once having been on so much Latuda that I started having involuntary muscle tremors, and I was still hearing voices, still crying, still having anxiety attacks.
I stopped taking them without consulting anyone. When I told her about it at the next appointment she initially tried to get me to get back on the medication. Then she asked me what my worst manic incident was so I told her about that one time with the gun. She said that she wasn't sure because she didn't know the whole story but it seemed like my problem was actually poor impulse control related to childhood trauma, from what she had seen between me and my family when they used to insist on sitting in during sessions. She said to ask my therapist if I had borderline because that can cause psychosis and mood swings as well.
My therapist did not tell me I could not possibly ever have had borderline, she said I didn't have BPD BECAUSE
I had gotten better. See, she's not an MD, so she has no incentive to tell a healthy person that they are sick.
BTW you're lying, you didn't have dinner last night. How does that feel?
>>113113>I stopped taking them without consulting anyone. When I told her about it at the next appointment she initially tried to get me to get back on the medication. Then she asked me what my worst manic incident was so I told her about that one time with the gun. She said that she wasn't sure because she didn't know the whole story but it seemed like my problem was actually poor impulse control related to childhood trauma, from what she had seen between me and my family when they used to insist on sitting in during sessions. She said to ask my therapist if I had borderline because that can cause psychosis and mood swings as well.
So, to put it in a more accurate way, you misrepresented your episodes to your psychiatrist, and then bitched when they got it wrong?
That's actually even better than what I said.
And either way, no-one went "Oh, you're better without medication? Must be borderline", like you said, you just explained it more accurately to them and they asked if your therapist had ever asked you about another disorder.
Why lie anon? I get you think that muh big pharma is out to get you, but why intentionally misrepresent your story to try to convince others to do what you think is right? You didn't have Bipolar, and you going around and telling people you did and that weed cured it is just going to hurt people. It's legal in plenty of places. If it helped Bipolar, it would be a recognised treatment in those places for it. It isn't, because it doesn't, and it can be directly harmful for them.
>she said I didn't have BPD BECAUSE I had gotten better.
Which is, like the rest of your story, a load of shit. People with BPD do react to therapy. They react better to some forms than others, but if they're willing to do it, they can improve from basic CBT.
Or are you trying to claim that they're now going you don't have BPD because you just recovered from it without anyone knowing you had it and your doctor was actually trying to trick you into muh big pharma schemes all along?
>BTW you're lying, you didn't have dinner last night. How does that feel?
Feels like the leftovers I just finished were very unfulfilling, what with them not being there and all.
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I didn't misrepresent JACK SHIT to ANYONE.
I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder by hospital staff after being admitted for not sleeping for three days. I would say being unable to sleep for three days despite wanting to is a pretty clear sign of mania.
My private Psychiatrist said that if I were truly Bipolar I would have felt better on the medication and that it was impossible for me to be bipolar if I felt I could function without it.
The therapist never said I never had BPD. She said I had improved too much for me to currently have it at this moment in time.
There are studies showing that it can be directly helpful for people with bipolar disorder, actually.
Try having something other than ignorance for dinner.
>>113116>I didn't misrepresent JACK SHIT to ANYONE.
>I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder by hospital staff after being admitted for not sleeping for three days. I would say being unable to sleep for three days despite wanting to is a pretty clear sign of mania.
It's a clear sign of distress, you can't be in a full manic episode within three days though. Maybe you heard them mention Bipolar, but you clearly weren't diagnosed.
>There are studies showing that it can be directly helpful for people with bipolar disorder, actually.
Why don't you link them then? I'd be interested in reading how a substance with potential for recreational use and abuse is at all recommended for someone with a fragile already mental state.
Seriously though, take off the tin foil hat. Big pharma isn't out to get you, you weren't tricked by your doctor or some shit, you just clearly misrepresented what you were going through severely, and they made the wrong choice as a result.
There's literally dozens of studies showing how medications can help people, you sperging out about them doesn't change that.
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The hospital gave me papers that said I had bipolar and explained what it was. I don't have them because it was over three years ago.
Me sperging out? What about the confessions of all the people who used to work in this industry? John Virapen is just a 'sperging' lying quack, right?
>Why don't you link them then?
I've been accused of "linking things too often" in arguments a lot. I'm glad you're at least willing to look at these, although it doesn't seem like you looked at my other sources either.https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/9692379https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/19891810https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/22818174
Unfortunately marijuana remains a schedule I drug federally despite the FDA recommending otherwise to the DEA.
Just because medications CAN help people doesn't mean that people SHOULD take them. At the very least doctors shouldn't tell a bipolar person that they will have to be medicated indefinitely for the rest of their lives, I have a UK schizoaffective friend and she said she was on meds for a while but the doctor never told her she'd have to be on them forever. And schizoaffective symptoms are supposedly worse in some aspects.
>>113140>The hospital gave me papers that said I had bipolar and explained what it was. I don't have them because it was over three years ago.
This just says they think a bit clearer, not that it helps with the actual symptoms of Bipolar. Neurocognitive impairment isn't the thing someone with Bipolar needs to focus on handling (generally). They need to focus on stopping the cycle of manic and depressive states.
Same as above.
This doesn't really say anything about whether it helps or not, though I do agree with the content that more research could be useful.
My point as to why it's not so helpful is that (ignoring that there's been links drawn to emergence of psychosis), it is by its nature a recreational substance. People with mental health issues are at a far increased risk of substance abuse than the general population, and even if it does make them feel better, the risk for developing a dependence on it to cope with your issues at all, which does lead to tolerance (can't exactly take a t break when you're in crisis), which does lead to situations where you just end up back where you were before at best, with less money. More likely though, you'd also have the symptoms that abuse of cannabis does carry.
It's the same reason why they don't give everyone who has stress benzo's. Sure, they do work, they work exceptionally well at what they're meant to do. But it's way too easy to develop a dependence on them and end up with an addiction to it and not learned anything about how to manage your particular issues.
And until there are studies that show that it does help with the potentially dangerous symptoms of Bipolar, I think it's harmful to tell people not to take medication and just to smoke forever.
You may not have had Bipolar, and in your case, it's great it helped you. But for someone who does, they're going to need more than a joint here or there to recover.
>Just because medications CAN help people doesn't mean that people SHOULD take them.
Agree completely. There's paths that should be followed first. Though I don't really think there's a difference between having to smoke pot forever to be okay and having to take a pill at night to be okay, in both cases you're relying on drug therapy forever.
>t the very least doctors shouldn't tell a bipolar person that they will have to be medicated indefinitely for the rest of their lives, I have a UK schizoaffective friend and she said she was on meds for a while but the doctor never told her she'd have to be on them forever.
I can't talk to this, I've at most had a doctor say it's something that potentially might have to be taken forever, but that to come back in a few months and review how things were going then.
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Look, I don't believe I ever said "dude just do weed every day and you'll be fine ayy lmao fam". I just wanted to share my personal experiences because I got asked to elaborate on them.
I personally found LSD to be much more helpful than marijuana in that it allowed me to objectively examine myself without shying away from unpleasant thoughts.
I shared a link to a study done in the UK this year on LSD that indicates that it may have therapeutic potential for treatment resistant depression and PTSD in particular. But I believe it should be schedule II and taken under the care of a trusted therapist, not sold over the counter under any circumstances and always taken in a very controlled environment. I don't think people should "trip" more than once or twice a year.
> Though I don't really think there's a difference between having to smoke pot forever to be okay and having to take a pill at night to be okay, in both cases you're relying on drug therapy forever.
That's true in a sense, except marijuana doesn't have any of the harmful side effects that the drugs I was on have. Latuda, a mood stabilizer that is the only FDA approved drug to treat bipolar depression, changed the way my body processed carbohydrates. I became overweight for my height on the BMI by about 5lbs, so I started taking Topiramate, an anti-seizure medication that causes short term memory loss, for its side effect of weight loss. It is funny to me that you say
>they don't give everyone who has stress benzo's
because my Psychiatrist knew full well about my history of drug use and prescribed me .5mg of Lorazepam for anxiety. It's ironic because I'm the crazy anon hippie druggie poster right? But I have a whole bottle of Lorazepam in a drawer that I don't even want to take because I transcended the need to take it for anxiety and the side effects are fucking horrible anyway. Oh, and I was prescribed Temazepam, another benzo, so I could sleep at night, right? And my mother actually was the one who told me not to take it too often for sleep because she had read online that it could cause serious kidney problems.
Marijuana doesn't hurt your kidneys and intoxicates less than alcohol (multiple Olympic athletes have competed with marijuana in their bloodstream, look up Ross Rebagliati).
Honestly I would advise everyone against smoking ANYTHING every day. If you're going to get potted up on weed every day, cannabis oil or cannabis vaporization are the healthiest ways to do it.
I don't think everyone should do this. But for instance; someone in my family has diabetic neuropathy, and I think maybe if the vote passes in our state this November, patients like him would see a huge improvement, at least in quality of life. Right now he drinks alcohol to be able to fall asleep, except white wine is fucking loaded with sugar. There's research showing marijuana helps with this exact problem: https://clinicaltrials.gov/ct2/show/NCT00781001
The only thing that I would universally recommend to everyone, even if they have never had a diagnosis of a mental illness, is therapy. I can't personally speak to the effectiveness of CBT, but EMDR was really helpful in helping to reprocess trauma for me personally.
It seems like we might actually agree on more things than not.
I just want people to make informed decisions. Question everything. Peace be with you.
>>113150>I shared a link to a study done in the UK this year on LSD that indicates that it may have therapeutic potential for treatment resistant depression and PTSD in particular. But I believe it should be schedule II and taken under the care of a trusted therapist, not sold over the counter under any circumstances and always taken in a very controlled environment.
Yep, I agree completely. It seems to have some use as a therapeutic tool, but not just as a cure you take yourself.
>Latuda, a mood stabilizer that is the only FDA approved drug to treat bipolar depression
I've been on it, but from memory, Latuda is primarily an anti-psychotic medication that also seems to help with depression in Bipolar patients. There's lots of meds that help with depression in them, it's just relatively unique because it does both pretty well.
> It's ironic because I'm the crazy anon hippie druggie poster right? But I have a whole bottle of Lorazepam in a drawer that I don't even want to take because I transcended the need to take it for anxiety and the side effects are fucking horrible anyway. Oh, and I was prescribed Temazepam, another benzo, so I could sleep at night, right?
Okay? It still stands that they don't give everyone who's got anxiety benzo's, they're heavily restricted medications.
In my country, alprazolam is one of the absolute hardest medications to get prescribed, to the point where doctors have to go out of their way to get special licensing to be able to give a script for longer than a month of it, and it's controlled by a central office (pharmacy must contact them to make sure the script's been approved). People still get it, but it's rare.
>Marijuana doesn't hurt your kidneys and intoxicates less than alcohol (multiple Olympic athletes have competed with marijuana in their bloodstream, look up Ross Rebagliati).
Intoxicates less than alcohol isn't much of a statement, though I get what you're saying.
Someone who's drank too much can be just as fucked up as some junkie who's nodding.
>Honestly I would advise everyone against smoking ANYTHING every day. If you're going to get potted up on weed every day, cannabis oil or cannabis vaporization are the healthiest ways to do it.
I'd advice against use of anything that's not prescribed every day really. Drugs like that (With recreational usages I mean) should be used when you absolutely need to. To use the example of benzo's again, if you get a script for, say alprazolam for panic disorder, you're not meant to take that whenever you're stressed, or whenever you have a panic attack. It's for when you're in crisis.
Same goes for pot. If you're going to self medicate with something like that, it's incredibly important to realise that addiction does form really easily, and self medication has led fucking heaps of people from just smoking sometimes, to smoking all the time, to taking benzos, and then you're dealing with potential fatal wd's from that.
It's a very fraught path to take, especially when there are non-addictive options that don't have recreational uses.
>The only thing that I would universally recommend to everyone, even if they have never had a diagnosis of a mental illness, is therapy. I can't personally speak to the effectiveness of CBT, but EMDR was really helpful in helping to reprocess trauma for me personally.
Yep, once again, I agree completely. You don't need a mental illness diagnosis to do therapy (and it's honestly next to impossible to diagnose someone without them regularly consulting a therapist), and it should absolutely be your first choice if you're struggling, not medication.
People are too eager to just take a pill and fix everything, and not have to possibly work on themselves, or confront intense things like traumatic events, or changing major parts about how they live day to day.
>It seems like we might actually agree on more things than not.>I just want people to make informed decisions.
Yep, I agree. My main issue was that it seemed like you were coming across as "I'm Bipolar and weed cured me! Don't take your medications, just smoke week, it's a magic cure". But it doesn't seem that way, and I agree with what you're saying generally.
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Latuda helped with psychosis when it was really bad, but it never really did anything about the depression/crying fits and it had other awful side effects. When I was at the highest dose (120mg when i'm pretty short) I had really intense muscle tremors where I couldn't move because I was twitching so hard.
My psychiatrist told me I couldn't be on regular SSRIs or MAOIs because they had a chance of making me manic.
>If you're going to self medicate with something like that, it's incredibly important to realise that addiction does form really easily, and self medication has led fucking heaps of people from just smoking sometimes, to smoking all the time, to taking benzos, and then you're dealing with potential fatal wd's from that.
I agree that benzos are terrible from both a health stand-point and a recreational high stand-point. But as I said, I have had a full bottle of Lorazepam for months since I stopped taking all prescription meds. I abused it recreationally a few times but I eventually started getting pretty bad nausea when I would only take 1.5mg at most. I don't want to take it even at the prescribed dose anymore. Benzos are terrible.
My first high and my first drug of choice was not marijuana, but benadryl. Fucking benadryl has a recreational use and I got addicted for a short period of time in my childhood, no joke. I'd rather someone my age back then smoke weed than do benadryl. Benadryl was available to me over the counter.
Nah, therapy cured me not weed. Meditation, talk therapy, private mantras, etc. I'm really grateful to have people that love me who pushed me to get therapy.
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I've done weed, a couple different stims, Benadryl, Dex, and methadone (w/o my consent).
Right now I have a prescription for offbrand Lexapro and Vyvanse. Used to take Wellbutrin, but found I leveled off pretty rapidly on it w/o much energy payoff. The Vyvanse is immensely better but I think I'll be forced to take breaks to keep my body from getting too used to it. I can bear to go to my stressful job and I don't cry anymore, wouldn't want to quit these drugs anytime soon. Sidenote: I tried Adderall from a friend once but coincidentally I got an insane inner ear infection literally the same day so I don't remember experiencing anything significant bc I was sick as a dog.
Before I went on these pills, I self-medicated with weed. When I lived in a blue state weed was a lot easier to obtain and I found myself indulging recreationally at least a week or two continuously every month. It really helped my stress and anxiety during grad school, and helped ease my existential dread. It curved my eating disorder and helped me sleep when I needed to.
Music and animation were wonderful while high.
These days, living in a red state, I never get any weed and my bf is hesitant to help me. So…whatever I guess. It really is my favorite drug though. I'm convinced if I had it I wouldn't need the Lexapro or the stims.
Tbh Dex and Benadryl are probably the most stupid drugs I've ever taken in excess and would never try again. I took such a retarded dose of Benadryl I'm surprised I didn't do major damage. Seriously I probably had in excess of 2000mg within 16 hours. I was seeing spiders, felt "rolling" sensations over my brain, and had strange ticks.
My list of to-trys:
Curious about Salvia but idk.
Would never bother to try coke. Refuse to do meth and most opiod pain killers.
>>113157>Latuda helped with psychosis when it was really bad, but it never really did anything about the depression/crying fits and it had other awful side effects. When I was at the highest dose (120mg when i'm pretty short) I had really intense muscle tremors where I couldn't move because I was twitching so hard.
Yeah, didn't help with either for me, just make me dizzy and disoriented. But still, from memory it's primarily an anti-psychotic.
>I agree that benzos are terrible from both a health stand-point and a recreational high stand-point. But as I said, I have had a full bottle of Lorazepam for months since I stopped taking all prescription meds
Yeah, and that might be the case for you, but I'd still say that self medication is a risky path for anyone to go down, because it turns from just sometimes when it's justified to a full blown addiction very quickly, and you don't notice it's happening the whole time, it seems justified.
>My first high and my first drug of choice was not marijuana, but benadryl. Fucking benadryl has a recreational use and I got addicted for a short period of time in my childhood, no joke. I'd rather someone my age back then smoke weed than do benadryl. Benadryl was available to me over the counter.
Yeah, over the counter highs are an issue too, but I don't really think I've heard of many people getting hooked on benadryl or dxm or something.
But yeah, I agree with you about therapy. It's the most important part of any recovery process, and should definitely be used before meds are even thought about, excluding very specific situations (active psychosis or mania for example).
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hash and/or booze usually every weekend. psilocybin shrooms maybe once or twice a year. i want to try coke…
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dex is my fuckin life. you got to lay in the dark and listen to music to get the most out of it. i always feel dreamy like im floating in space or like im an alien and my body is my vessel in this strange dimension. it also helps to be thoughtful throughout the day by questioning life and existence
How the fuck do you not itch your eyes off?
My experience with dex was such garbage and it's not like I didn't dig for any research beforehand. I saw posts saying that there might
be some itchiness but fuck me if that wasn't an understatement.
I itched myself raw and was basically incapacitated/nauseous for an entire day. Additionally I was so damn high I don't remember a lot of the trip. And I only know that because my high ass decided to record myself because I had no trip sitter, so I found that I said and did shit on video that I don't even remember doing. Freaky shit.
i dont get robo itch but i hear taking benadryl an hour beforehand helps with the itching and nausea so that sounds perfect for you. theres warnings not to take non-drowsy antihistamines (like zyrtec and claritin) with dxm so make sure you dont substitute with those. eating too much or too little before your trip also has a major effect on nausea. try eating some crackers before a trip and stay away from large or greasy meals.
being unable to remember the trip has something to do with an individual's brain chemistry. it's strange but common. out of curiosity, how many mgs did you take? if you're ever willing to try again, maybe take a smaller dose? the lower plateaus are just as worth exploring as the higher ones. dxm is so diverse and effects everyone in a variety of ways but the littlest things will make a big impact.
Weed, mushrooms, LSD, unknown RCs, mdma, mda, amphetamines, coke, probably meth, inhalents (I was a retarded teenager), tramodol, benzos, opiates, and heroin.
I really want to try DMT, but I'm waiting for the right time.
I drink everyday. I trip about once a month. I used to use valium a lot, but i don't need a benzo addiction. i still take molly at shows and clubs frequently. And I don't think anyone here would consider kava root or kratom to be drugs, but I use those a few times a week.
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>smoked hash for the first time
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Drugs are bad for you.
b-b-but i want to be like the cool kids
But in all honesty it feels really good after vomiting
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420 everyday. I wanna try shrooms, but I fall on the schizo umbrella and worried I'll lose connection with reality. :/
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I miss pills so bad. I've done a lot of drugs, but I can't shake how much I crave opiates.
I went to rehab years ago and now only really do them sometimes when the opportunity presents itself, but I know I'd get back addicted to it in a second if I had the money/connects. I'm an alcoholic now and it's just made me fat and I hate that.
I usually smoke weed to help me sleep, chill out at night, but I stopped last month for a job-related drug test I might be getting soon.
i've done spice on two different occasions.
first time when i was 15 in a social setting. i don't remember much of it but i had a good time and nobody was acting weird or crazy. just really amused and zoned out.
second when i was 18 and i did it alone. way less fun and a bit unsettling. personally, it feels like getting too intensely high on weed with some dissociation mixed in.
definitely not something i would intentionally seek out in the future.
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lmao I smoked that shit when I was 18 too
I had brought real cannabis to smoke and my friend had said he'd match my contribution but he had brought a "spice" called "Mr. Nice Guy" instead….
long story short the girl he and I were smoking with became nonverbal and acted extremely strange, throwing dead leaves at herself and rolling on the floor…
we were at school at the time, it was our lunch break and we had gone off campus. we needed to get back before class.
we got her in the car safely, she seemed to calm down. when we got her to the parking lot at school we thought everything was cool but she threw herself on the asphalt and started making animal noises and masturbating so that drew a crowd and we all almost didn't fucking graduate
she had to go to the hospital and apparently almost died or something
but they let us get our diplomas because the spice was legal.
Guess they didn't know I had brought actual cannabis to the park, oops.
LEGALIZE CANNABIS FOR RECREATION
Where are you from? Where I live mr. Nice guy is extremely popular, I haven't encountered the name outside of country.
The people I know who smoked this regularly had to be locked up in a closed psychiatric hospital because they became psychotic.
I know a guy who works at the narcotics department at the police, he said this thing is made from tea leaves, soaked in repellent products, dried and then soaked again. I don't remember really the details but I think you can guess this drug is just chemical garbage.
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My ol' art buddy knows I'm super stressed and broke (due to college related shit)
So he was a champ and just gave me a decently big bud, which made me happy as hell cause anxiety yo.
Anyways smoked that shit yesterday and it was the highest ive been since i took my first bong hit (given it was a giant glass bong) Ended up using the little money i had left to buy new underwear cause previously I had been too worried about other finances to allow myself that shit.
Cannabis is forever a best bro letting me get new bras n shit while i listen to my fave tunes.
You can grow shrooms yourself, just buy the spores online for "research" purposes. They even have full kits you can buy.
Or join your local mushroom hunting group. They won't let you keep the trippy ones, but then you'll learn where they are.
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>>120991>Where are you from?
Miami, Florida. I think the popular crazy drug here is called "flakka" now, basically a tweaked version of Mr. Nice Guy or something. People smoke it and strip naked inside banks and shit, kek.
A guilty pleasure of mine is that I enjoy watching videos of people on crazy drugs like this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2r3MT-51jas
dark web yo. delivered straight to your door. do your research on using tor and bitcoin etc.
though it's a good idea to get some friends even just so you have a sitter. maybe post on a psychedelics subreddit and ask for friends and introductions locally (without sounding like a narc if possible)? acid freaks tend to be super nice and open so if you just posted your location and said you want to trip it might work out
>>121234>use heroin somewhat regularly>But I'm not addicted though!
You realise that addicts everywhere say that same shit right? That they control it, they can stop whenever they want, that they're totally different?
Addiction is almost completely mental, not getting withdrawals doesn't mean you aren't hooked.
I've done weed, lsd, coke, 2CB, ecstasy.
Weed is fine but i don't like the munchies (ana-chan here)
LSD was my fave until it was impossible to get something decent in my city, i didn't want to take the risk.
I hate coke well…perico, it wears off so fast and it gets me in a bad mood.
And definitely love ecstasy to the core of my heart, is the best but sometimes but i get so depressed D: the comedown its the worst.
Want to try snorting some MDMA but i think>>46070>>120288
is pretty normal to feel nausea or to vomit with x…maybe try to eat well before you take it, every time i feel nauseous is because i haven't eating properly. Or simply you are taking too much.
the mechanism of psychedelics is very different from SSRIs, so they won't treat antidepressant withdrawal (although they might help on a psychological level). and like >>121259
said, SSRIs usually weaken the effects of psychedelics, they effectively desensitize your serotonin receptors. although if you were able to trip on acid before it will probably be fine.
Thanks anon, I did consider that, but I thought that consistently lowering the dose of one drug and microdosing of the other would mean that at the very most, my serotonin level would remain constant.
My long-term goal with this is to normalise my serotonin receptors and not be reliant on such blunt-force meds.>>121259>>121310
Actually didn't get the opportunity for a full scale trip on acid, but I had what was probably more than a microdose, since everything looked prettier and I experienced slight euphoria. My point is, the reaction seemed normal, so I'm hopeful for this DMT experiment.
Can't believe that this thread is still around, but I'm the person you're replying to, and my issue wasn't with people saying exercise is good for depression (I know it is), but with them saying it was more effective than antidepressants.
I'd encourage anyone to exercise whether they were depressed or not
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Anyone else like to create art while under the influence even if you're just smoking some dope or relaxing with a beer? One trip, on a certain dissociative, I was captivated by psychedelic artwork after depression turned me off from drawing for years and it's gotten me into art again, completely changing my work for the better. Nothing more euphoric than opiates, listening to my favourite tunes, and turning a sketch into a personal masterpiece. It's like I have some sort of creative bone in my body again.
I've also been interested in trip journals and keeping a log of how I feel/what I'm thinking while I'm out of my mind but haven't quite gotten around to buying a journal yet. I saw some cute decorated journals on tumblr and now I really want to get my hands on a bunch of craft stuff so I can personalize it too.
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>>188158>when you bump the thread to tell people you smoked grass
Generally, yeah, cokeheads are assholes because they're by definition addicts and the drug can make you really aggressive/full of yourself>>188391
I feel like you and I are on an eternal battle over this, "don't do coke"-anon. I've done coke a thousand times, even did it daily for almost a whole year and never got to losing dignity, friends or cash (can't say the same about health, my nose bled constantly). Never got addicted. I like alcohol a hell of a lot more than coke tbh.
I don't want to be a dick but>did it daily for almost a whole year>Never got addicted
I only smoke weed and drink, thats it. Weed does nothing for me, just makes me tired and gives me headaches, which is a shame bc i started smoking hoping it would help my anxiety but it does fuck all I sort of feel like im doing something wrong? The only time it did anything for me was at party when I took like 4 pulls and stared at a disco light for an hour, convinced it was blinking in time with the music. I smoke about once a week or so just socially now. I dont even drink often at all, but if I do its whiskey shots, drinking makes me confident but I hate it, I always end doing embarrassing shit and I hate drinking culture.
I always said I would stay clear of drugs but my anxiety and depression is getting so terrible lately Id love to just take my mind of things even for just half an hour. Where I live booze weed and nos are standard at pretty much all partys, but last weekend I went out with a friend who is into harder stuff, she offered me MD and coke to try and help me of the depressive mood I was in but I turned her down, I kind of wish I had said yes to the coke tho. She thinks Id like ketamine but Ive seen the film party monster and I dont want to end up like that lmao
Ehh my memory is shitty but..
-pretty much all opiods but never touched heroin/fentanyl. Shot up dilaudid several times but shooting up is NOT my thing. And one of my best friends died from shooting up fentanyl so no thanks
-xanax, klonopin, ativan
-cough syrup and corocidin (terrible)
-weed/spice (one time for spice fuck that)
-air duster/whippits (also terrible)
-adderall/focalin, other uppers (no crack or meth or harder shit)
As for the one I got addicted to, and the reason for my now shitty memory is Xanax. Idk why. It started back in 2014 when I broke up with my gf of 3 years (first "serious" relationship and she cheated on me with another girl the whole time and I knew but kept taking her back cuz I was naive and she was sooo convincing, promising to change..) and I was so fucking heartbroken I just wanted to die. Friend at the time had a bf that was pushing here, so I got it alll for free. A fucking shit ton of them. I went off the deep end and I don't know how much I was using a day but it basically blanked out a complete 3 months of my life. I became a klepto, had sex I couldn't even remember having with various people, cut my legs into oblivion, basically wanting a slow, drawn out suicide.
I guess it was the fact it made me forget my feelings and completely detached me from having to cope with my emotions. Luckily when I became homeless I got arrested for tripping balls and looking suspicious as fuck at target, talking to trees and imaginary people..and my ass got sent to rehab. (Got news there was a warrant for my arrest there a month in but only spent a night in jail)
Unfortunately it resulted in my developing tics and seizures that have landed me in the hospital several times. I've since kicked the habit for the most part (sometimes rarely using it to sleep) but it sucks because any anxiety I had before had been 1000x worse since I stopped. I don't know why my brain/body wants to return to a "high" you can barely fucking remember and that makes you act dumb as hell.
I'm on probation now so drugs are few and far between now. I just take my adderall, occasionally smoke some weed, and get a little tipsy now and then. Maybe roll on special days but also rare. Anything else is a waste because I've realized I have an addictive as fuck personality and it wastes money that could be used on something…useful.
Idk kinda rambling because it's 4AM but I hope anyone reading this that has chosen drugs to deal with the problems in your life…its just not worth it. I swear. You'll come out of it and realize what a fool you were while taking them and not handling what you are feeling inside. It doesn't make anything better, just way, WAY worse. I'm here as a listening ear and guiding advice if you need help. You're not broken and there is beauty inside you if you choose to seek it out.
Yes. Yesterday I went to a party and some friends consumed and they start acting super annoying and agressive. It was so unpleasant to watch that I don't want to try coke. Also, if you start consuming often you get a weird belly fat and crazy eyes. >>188422
Sounds like a creepypasta but it can be perfectly true. It depends of the drugs, the quality and price the dealer sells. Expensive strains weed dealers are the chill stoner archetype, very nice and cool. If you want some cheaper and least pure you have to go to some shady places.
Lol, just saw your post now, I'm >>190751
. If you stay at home too do you want to chat over discord or something perhaps?
hello, i'm the first LSD anon. our deal predictably fell thru. waiting for an update, it's still a possibility but without a definite date.>>190751
doing acid alone-chan, have a trip sitter with you because that's my plan. never do drugs alone for the first time. it could be wild if we could chat through discord during, but it's a slim chance unfortunately. have a safe fun trip.
I wish I read this sooner. Because I dropped it yesterday. I can share my experience if you want. I didn't had a tripsitter because I don't really have that much friends, but I was chatting with a couple of oversea friends online so they "tripsitted" me in the beginning.
At first I cut off a small edge of the blotter and kept it in my mouth to allergy test it for an hour. Since I didn't feel anything I took the rest of the 100µg. Placed it under my tongue and let it sit there for ~20 minutes. I think around ~40 minutes after taking it I started to feel effects. I felt heavy was sinking into my chair at the PC. (I was still chatting online and looking at "trippy" pictures) Then I looked at an amazing photograph of a waterfall, that looked ultra HD and started to visually "distort". I remember writing into the chat something like "guys I think it's starting" and looked around my rooms and noticed my walls were moving a bit and the lights of the monitor were shifting like those old VHS tapes. So I went to bed and let a playlist running. I could go more into detail if you want but basically: I wrote a huge letter to myself, saying that many things in my life that are giving me a lot of anxiety aren't so bad after all. That I really stopped giving so much of a shit. That everything will be fine and that deeply inside me is something that is bright and glowing and watching me. And that this thing inside me only wants my best.
I then let this kind of music playing, because I sadly ruined a lot of my peaking because the music you find online that is "trippy psy chill" stuff all started to sound super weird to me and I really didn't want to feel a bad mood. Finally I let this here running that I created now for next time https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLL3YAGkr6hg4WTbeIeGDfzjVCucGDzHY4
that ends with a super relaxed 24/7 radio station. Oh and that video was amazing, too https://vimeo.com/88829079
I was really afraid that meeting my "inner self" would be a bad thing. Because I always thought I have a lot of self hatred, social anxiety and depression. But seems like the something that is hurting me is the active part, not the subconcious. I even put huge towels covering all mirrors, because I've heard of people seeing themselves as Monsters and such things. So I was curious, at first I looked at a just my pupils, that were quite big. Then I was amazed, I looked at my face and just thought I look incredibly cute. Like a bug eyed happy hippie. Wearing a colorful hoodie was also beautiful.
Another breakthrough that I had was that I finally got over my Ex, that left me crying in the shower and bed as recent as the day before. I finally thought about that this douchebag was just never worth my time, that it's not his fault. He's just that kind of person, and that's okay. I spend the rest getting super comfy in bed, sometimes standing up and dancing a bit with my plushtoy cat that I was hugging. Drawing a lot and for some reason re-arranging my room to make it more comfortable.
Then I was considering even going out, because the sun was shining, but I was a little bit too anxious for that. Perhaps when I'm more experienced and not alone.
Overall it was an amazing experience. And I can't wait to wait 14 days to try it again :3 I don't want to do this regular but currently I'm not in school or college till summer, and working shitty retail jobs, so I want to do this for a bit till life gets serious. I know this sounds underage, but I'm 21, I just take a bit more time.
Surpringsly I didn't get 100% sober even after like 20 hours. I didn't feel mentally high but it didn't go away completely till I slept. If you have any more questions we can chat on discord or something.
Now the day after I feel a bit blue. I don't know if depression is just coming back or if that will go away after a while. But even though the feeling is gone, I really feel like the conclusion of this all will stay with me.
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I smoke weed a couple of time a week now that I'm dating my bf and going out more. I can't drink (overheating, headaches, etc.) so weed is my party drug. I've done ecstasy once and acid almost 10? times I would say. Ecstasy just gave me a bad headache when I became thirsty and acid is my favorite drug. Not interested in doing anything else that's not a psychedelic tbh - DMT, shrooms, peyote, ayahuasca, etc Might be getting a shroom connect soon :)
Not quoted anon, but I'm the exact same. Coke just feels like stronger caffeine =, whereas weed is just terrifying.
Weird enough, lsd is fine too
I've never tried any other drugs before, but weed triggers
horrible existential dread and paranoia for me. I've tried many strains, but they all have this same effect. And my friends are major potheads who keep trying to get me to smoke and say that I'm overreacting/it's good/ weed is medicine from the earth, etc.
I wonder how many other addicts are here? I prefer to smoke weed because it cures a lot of my PTSD and depression symptoms without any downsides but if I don't have that I'm on to alcohol, pain killers, benzos, I've even abused nyquil and benedryl when I was desperate. And if I can't get my hands on any of that I'll just shove food down my throat until I pass out. It's pretty unhealthy.
I really want to try psychedelics. I feel it would be more therapeutic for me but I have no idea where to get it and I don't have any friends to sit trip. How necessary is it to have someone there with you? Anybody have experience buying LSD or other psychedelics on DNM? I would do that but it seems really sketchy. I would hate to die or go crazy or waste my money in general from getting acid that isn't acid.>>191553
I agree. Honestly I feel ashamed to call myself a stoner or a regular smoker because then people think I'm lazy or obsessed with weed or think weed is the cure to every disease and ailment and everyone should smoke weed. I can't stand those people myself, but they make me feel like smoking weed is something I shouldn't tell people.>>191549
My best friend has ADHD and has the same reactions to coke and weed, maybe it's something like that.
I'm the opposite. I can handle weed but any stimulants or other drugs that cause tachycardia fuck me up bad. Even caffeine causes an panic attack and I feel like I'm going to die and need to be hospitalized.
Doesn't help that that one kid died from caffeine overdose.>>191553
Too much THC in it for you and not enough CBD. Weed's psychoactive effects (THC) are much stronger than they were just a decade ago. Some people can handle it and some can't.
They're completely different drugs though, I know weed is considered mild and all but I just react badly to it, and I've tried it a lot.
It just depends on the person and past experiences.
Same… I lose it completely. I enjoy drugs but weed just makes me feel so uncomfortable. I can't explain it.
That's why I don't want to try any hallucinogens. I'm really curious about them too, but if I react this badly to weed (technically a mild hallucinogen) then a bad trip on any stronger drugs is not going to be pretty. Shame.
>>191572>Too much THC in it for you and not enough CBD. Weed's psychoactive effects (THC) are much stronger than they were just a decade ago.
Not an Anon you where replying to, but holy shit really? Got any links on that it'd be interesting.
Do you think the amount of THC in weed increases by year because at 21 I swear I'm getting way more fucked up than when I was 15 or 16. And I've been smoking pretty consistently.
Here are a few. There's more sites that did articles about this but I can't get into them because I have adblock and sites like Forbes wants you to disable it for le money. Just google "Marijuana Potency Levels".
The CBS News video is pretty on point when the guy talks about THC vs CBD levels. Like he said, the medicinal component (CBD) isn't really there anymore in most strains. You can still cop high CBD strains online though if you live in a legal state OR 100% CBD strains in any state if you've got any type of pain and want to try it out. People claim it helps their seizures and joint pain, etc.
You can legally buy straight CBD tinctures and oils for consumption in almost every US state. Many people will vape or dab straight CBD oils after hitting flower.
I live in a red southern state and I've never had trouble buying CBD straight from sources, say from Colorado (which I use for pain and anxiety). I assume anyone who complains about weed strains not having enough THC just haven't done enough research to know where they can get CBD extracts online.
Note: Do research where you buy CBD, and don't buy from any company not willing to provide the lab results of their samples.
Whoops, I meant to say weed strains not having enough CBD
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I have been regularly (about once a week, usually weekends) smoking weed for a couple of years now. I'm in uni so I take 2-3 week breaks in exam periods because while I haven't noticed any other side effects my short term memory can be kind of impaired the day after.
I have been taking pure mdma once every three months at home with my bf or friends. None of the ridiculously high dosing or cutting with speed you see at parties, just the powder. I have never experienced any negative side effects, a hangover or a harsh comedown. Everything has always been 100% beautiful and I've been doing this for two years. It's probably because of the purity (I've had it tested since you can do that legally and without consequence in my country and it's 99% pure) and the time I leave in between (I really don't want to fry my brain and fuck up my serotonin receptors).
Furthermore I've tried 2CB about 5 times in varying doses, which is nice and apparently very similar to LSD in the doses I've taken. 4FA is a nice replacement for MDMA if my three months aren't over yet. I've tried cocaine, but I didn't really get the hype. Was probably one of the more mediocre drugs I've tried, although oxycodone was very boring too.
Tried ketamine a bunch of times and it's nice. Especially in higher doses it's really something else and makes me more introspective than I'd thought. Plus it actually cures depression for two weeks which is a very nice side effect.
Nitrous oxide is pretty lame when done on it's own but truly shines when done in combination with other substances. Nitrous and weed is already good, nitrous and mdma is amazing, nitrous and 2cB is absolutely orgasmic. Truly hippie crack, "I see the meaning of the universe" tier. (Which is why it's good to not have too much on hand since you'll binge without really noticing.)
I tried LSA and just got extremely sick for almost an entire day. Maybe it was just a bad batch, but I'm not eager to repeat that shit.
Will likely be trying shrooms for the first time in a week, wish me luck farmers!
Shrooms can give a great visual experience (they enhance lights, colours and patterns) which is wasted if you are indoors, so I strongly advise you to go out in nature, or at least out in the yard, or sit on your balcony if you live in a building and not a house (I did that, and the city lights looked magical).
Ive read about ketamine 'curing' depression, Im pretty interested honestly; Ive got to that point where Im just willing to whatever it takes to feel better. Im not sure how to go about it tho, I only smoke weed Ive never done anything more than that so I dont really know if it would be a bad idea… I really know nothing about drugs aside from all the scary stuff from hs health classes
I used to be pretty anti-drug use (for myself, igaf what others chose to do as long as they arnt being dumb about it) but right now im a point where I really dont care about my own morals anymore, I just want to be happy even for a few mintutes at most
This here, ladies, is a sure path to addiction.
Don't do it, any of it. Using drugs as a crutch when you're in a bad spot instead of using them recreationally when you've got yourself together is what makes addicts. It won't heal you, instead it will open up the door to a whole new, worse hell. It will alleviate the depression symptoms in the short run, it will destroy you in the long run.
Please, I beg you, don't even think about it. I am scared for you. I don't know you, but I know one more struggling addict is one more step further from the world me, you, and all of us want to live in.
Try ketamine. Just moderate your use or do it once. Idk what >>191843
is on about because unless you have an addictive personality, its only easy to get addicted to retard drugs like heroin and crack.
Experience that shit. I've used morphine, codeine, and dissociatives for my depression and I'm not suddenly a drug addicted asshole lmao>>191837
>>191870>SUGGESTS that it MAY
Cool, if you want to be a lab rat.
But I hope anon values their life more than that.
Because they're not in the lab. They're not part of a controlled experiment.
Nobody will know or notice the effects, nobody will know or notice their struggle, nobody will know or notice when they die.
Honestly anon, I think it would be good to try it. Ketamine is not a strong high at all when not in a very high dose. If you start craving it afterwards it would be wise to not do it for a while, but otherwise it's not dangerous.>>191843
I think you might be misunderstanding the depression "cure" that ketamine can provide. It isn't in the high of the drug itself and has nothing to do with it. You won't crave another hit or anything to feel less depressed. You can even take such a low dose you'll barely feel it for the effects to be present.
Ketamine high only lasts for an hour. Doesn't have any negative after effects except for a gross taste in your mouth for a few hours tops. The "depression curing" can be present in the weeks after taking.
For me, I never felt "high" or anything like that in the weeks after taking it, but I did notice my depression lessened by quite a bit.
I am not misunderstanding anything.
I'm saying don't play with fire while you live in a coal mine.
HOLy shit girl i am morning toking on this new strain and its the best ride ever,
Bout to go out and draw so much good shit in this sunny weather, my spine feels like vanilla pudding
Better to ask a medical professional who specializes in SSRIs.
Better he quit the weed for a while than risk stopping his real medication.
I went to the hospital before because of serotonin syndrome. I was taking sertraline but overdosed on it. you'll know if it happens, it's incredibly disorienting. it almost feels like you're dreaming but you're awake, and for me I was very dizzy and had trouble speaking.
I'm not too sure about mixing weed with sertraline because I never smoked heavily on it. I found I got stoned faster when I was taking it. I think, like drinking, smoking definitely alters the effectiveness of your medication, but SS probably won't sneak up on you, he'd feel it happen if my experience was standard at all.
I have been a chronic pot smoker for about 4 years and the entire time I was on sertraline. It worked the same as it did before I started smoking. I stopped taking the sertraline 6 months ago and still smoke weed everyday and I can feel my depression/anxiety returning.
Basically, I wouldn't worry about the two drugs cancelling each other; in my experience weed didn't effect my antidepressants at all.
! i'm not the person you're replying to but i was just considering this today. i've avoided weed for years since i started sertraline because the meds finally give me a semblance of normalcy and happiness that i would never trade for a high. but this has me interested.
do you mind if i ask what dose of sertraline you were on? (also why you stopped and do you plan on getting back on it, sorry 4 asking 4 blog)
I was taking 100 mg, but I think I probably could have had a higher dose. I stopped taking it for two reasons. First, my weight was really bothering me and I was having trouble keeping it under control while on meds. I know that's superficial, but I have never been able to lose weight while on SSRIs. (I've lost 15 pounds without any effort since stopping.) Second, I was thinking about starting a family and I don't want to be on sertraline while pregnant.
I have felt my symptoms returning recently, unfortunately. I think I might try something different this time and HOPE it doesn't kill my metabolism like the zoloft. For now I'm trying to go without but I am still taking trazodone, so I'm not totally med-free.
Back to the weed, I think you could probably try smoking again and see how you feel. I have a friend I always smoke with and she is also on SSRIs and they are fairly effective despite her heavy bong habit. Of course everyone reacts differently so I'd make sure to pay extra attention to your symptoms just in case I'm wrong.
sage for blog post
i smoked weed regularly when on fluoxetine, duloxetine and sertraline. when i first started on fluoxetine (prozac), the first time i smoked weed i suddenly felt very hot, anxious and hyperactive, similar to an extacy high but without the happiness-relaxation. i did not experience any adverse effects when i was on the other two. my doctor at the time told me that while what i experienced was not seratonine syndrome, drugs can trigger
shit like that when you're on antidepressants. she basically told me "do it but don't overdo it" regarding weed and antidepressants.
the second shrink i saw was a more uptight, conservative type and told me to absolutely abstain from any drug or any amount of alcohol as they would "shock my brain by changing my brain chemistry and negate the effects of the medicine". i followed his advice for a while but then i started smoking again and saw no change in my mood or in the efficacy of the medicine.
only thing i'm for sure about SSRIs and drugs is when you're on SSRIs you can't get a very potent high from extacy-MDMA because their effects clash.
sage for blogging-ish.
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I smoke weed pretty often but I know jack shit about strains, etiquette or anything, just smoke whatever my friends have on hand. Normally all it does is make me hungry and sleepy, usually with a small headache which sucks.
The other day tho I felt actually stoned for the first time ever after smoking with a bunch of randos, I felt majorly sick and headachy already, amplified it by like 200% but I didn't give a shit and everything was fucking hilarious. like a stereotypical stoner in a high school movie. I always thought there was something… wrong? with me but I guess I was just doing the wrong shit this whole time. felt good man
no idea what it was but it tasted pretty strong and I only had two pulls, my tolerance is pretty low lmao.
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i'm pretty much like you about weed, i'm about smoking it not writing an essay on it, but i learned that sativa makes you more energetic whereas indica makes you more mellow. maybe pic related will help you identify what you smoked?
also, drinking water while smoking weed helps with the headaches. if you're mixing it with tobacco, that may be what's giving you nausea.
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Is being prescribed the wrong meds and taking lithium and another drug a thing?
First and only drug I took. The first night was horrifying; I laid in bed feeling like my body was petrified. The whole night my legs would be pressed together and i wouldn't stop bunny kicking the whole night. The internal feeling was like going up in a fast elevator. It felt astral projection. Never again.
cool thanks for the input anon. earth shattering.>>195176
the uhh..first part of that confuses me. but im assuming you took a medication you were not prescribed with a medication you were. in which case, having fucked up side effects makes complete sense. what with how medications interact with each other. not to mention if it were the wrong medication and at a dosage that was too high, chances were pretty high you'd experience some weird shit.
im really sorry you went through that. ive been given the wrong meds in hospitals before and had some pretty serious things happen to me. that shit is frightening.
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It's REALLY really common to smoke weed for a long time and not really feel the affects. I swear I smoked for two years with mates or something before I was BTFO one day and suddenly understood what everyone was going on about.
No, it won't. Not enough time for it to be cleared out of your system. 2-3 weeks is more like it. Though you'll build up tolerance again in no time when you start again. Only the first few bowls will hit you hard, after that they'll be back to smoking them like cigs.
But whether or not you find enjoyment in weed is irrelevant, you've got far more pressing issues to sort out, of which weed is a part of. This>so every time i put my bowl down something happens, i get stressed, and i smoke again
is typical addict denial. Excuses, excuses.
Everyone has serious problems all the time. You have to face them, not run away from them. Or they'll catch up with you with double the force.
Drugs, no matter how benign they seem, are not a crutch. Listen to me. Weed WILL fuck you up if you use it as a tool for escapism. It will fuck you up by making the underlying issues fester.
Sober up. Face reality. Push through it. Then light up a bowl when you're in a good place again. Please. Do what's good for you now, no matter how hard it is. Because this way, you're just making it harder for future you. And the future you is the skin you'll have to live in.
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Me too. It was my first time going to a doctor for my depression and the doctor I had didn't have much experience and assumed i was bipolar even though i mentioned in passing my adopted sister was. She put me on mis prescribed shit for a year before my psychologist told me what she was doing was shutting my body down with all the side effects.
It was horrible but now I know how I feel when on drugs and I did not enjoy it one bit. Not knocking people who do but shit how do people do this recreationally?
Rarely alcohol and mushrooms, more frequently pot or nitrous oxide, which I believe is classed as a dissociative drug and I think lots of fun, it's like having a long orgasm in some way.
When I have the money, heroin. I prefer to snort it, but if I can only get tar, I'll take that. I don't shoot, I'm afraid of needles and I wouldn't have a clue how to do it.
I'm sure someone will be a jerk about this but heroin makes me feel relaxed and happy. I like myself when I'm on it. I get more talkative and friendly. It's not easy for me to be open, but heroin makes me likeable.
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Update she was just really, really, and I mean really relaxed and calm the whole day.
She has arthritis and dementia, so she is always in pain/anxiety. The plus side to it was she had no pain all day, but it was way over the dose we have been starting her on.
Also yes THC free
i've done a fair amount of prescription opiates and benzos, amphetamines, weed, mushrooms, acid, dmt, salvia, sass, spice/k2, nitrous, some testing chemicals on accident…i think that's about it.
i regularly use cannabis in concentrate form, i prefer indica strains. it's just more convenient and plus my tolerance is fucked lol. i've been smoking concentrates everyday for about 5 years now.
i also like to trip 2 or 3 times a year on either shrooms or dmt. shrooms are my favorite
aaaand overall i think my favorite substances are cannabis obviously, morphine and dmt.
>>236903>Seriously felt like my heart was going to explode and I was going to die.
You had a panic attack and psyched yourself out.
I remember my first marijuana reaction. My ex bf let me smoke hookah where we mixed together with some flavored shish. I was so fucking high it felt like "waves" were rolling on top of my brain. This sensation would roll from the back of my scalp to the front of my forehead. Thoughts rushed into my head but I was so baked I couldn't articulate proper.
Didn't panic though.
Don't ever panic.
Whatever sensation you feel with marijuana it will pass. Nobody just dies from marijuana. With that in mind: Try it again and be ready. Have some comfort snacks lying around, have your favorite show ready to go. Occupy your mind with things so you're not left alone to concentrate entirely on every little breath and sensation in your chest.
It has its reputation for a reason.
I know this post is old as shit but everybody should heed this. Meth can and probably will fuck you up. Bad. I was IVing that shit for a few months and I swear I would've pushed over my own grandmother for a point.
Can you get your hands on some home tests? If you're pissing hot on a home test you're kinda fucked and need to start looking for someone's urine.
If you had a bit more time on your side I'd say try something like https://www.amazon.com/Detoxify-Xxtra-Herbal-Natural-Tropical/dp/B009K6YVDW
But it's a stretch, doesn't work for everyone, and it has a lot to do with your fat stores and metabolism. Try drinking a lot of water and exercise but idk if that will do much good.
I did actually take a home test today and it came back negative. When I showed it to one of my coworkers who told me I was fucked she seemed swayed and said then I should be fine.
I'm thinking I'll buy another one tomorrow to test and continue on staying hydrated and eating fibrous foods. I don't know if I could actually sub with synthetic or a friend's without messing it up.
At this point I'm feeling resigned to whatever my fate is because it is my fault for stupidly smoking when I've been interviewing for jobs. Maybe I can drink a lot of water to cause a bad sample and I can retake it.
>>237119>tfw fat cow
Was he a heavy smoker? I can't imagine why it would still come up in a test if he's so active.
I don't even know how to classify myself. I've almost stopped smoking since the new year, with only doing it once in February and March for pain relief. Before then I was only smoking occasionally as I bought $20 worth to myself and had stopped smoking with friends, so that $20 lasted me from November until now.
He was a heavy smoker but quit, so it was embedded in his system over the number of years.
I'd say from your amounts it wouldn't take long to come out of your system, if I read correctly you took a test that came out negative? you're golden
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Go to any head/smoke shop and get a bottle of detox. Go in and ask for just that, a bottle of detox. If whoever works there acts confused, leave bc he’s an idiot.
You can get bottles of this stuff for $10-15, it’s basically a niacin flush. You’re supposed to get a Gatorade or something and drink two of them after you drink the detox, but I’ve used it twice to pass drug tests for jobs and I’m a pretty dedicated stoner. But you have
to follow the instructions and drink all your fluids afterward or you’ll feel like shit. Pic related, they look kind of like sports drinks.
Also, if you live near a dollar tree get some of those THC test strips you pee on, if you rip open the box it has a guide on the inside that explains how urine THC testing works, which is a nice little bonus imo.
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I was on a lot of mushrooms with 2 friends sitting in the woods. We were all about equally high on the same dosage. One friend and I started commenting on a high pitched bug-like drone we were hearing, kind of like the hum of cicadas. Our other friend couldn't hear it at all. All of a sudden, the noise stopped. For fun, we told the noise to start again and to our shock, it did, immediately. For the next while we were freaking out saying "stop" and "go" together and hearing the humming noise obey our commands with perfect timing. Our other friend had no idea what we were talking about.
If it's not some kind of mushroom induced psychokinesis i have no idea wtf it was, unless my friend was just fucking with me of course. But knowing her personally and the way she reacted i don't think she would have. And even if she was lying, I still heard the noise sync up to our commands myself, so weird no matter what.
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did acid with an ex-best friend at their house back in high school. we started tripping real hard around midnight, so we decided to go out for a walk. we walk by her neighbors house and he like, rushes out of his house to be at his mailbox by the time we passed it. we just waved bc we were just being nice and he goes, "kind of late for two girls to be taking a walk, right?" (which set off my creep detector hardcore.)
anyways, i turned to look up at the guy and his face literally looked like a mask (the ones from purge look similar). he was smiling and everything and trying to make conversation and i just kept walking because i was so uncomfortable.
one time on schrooms i thought my cat was a roomba and then got super surprised when he moved. i don't even have a roomba…
That gave me a good laugh haha
Once when I took acid I decided to take a shower, and I became super paranoid ,in a really unrational way, that two of my friends (male and female) were making out or having sex so I didn't dare to go out of the shower, until they came and asked me if I was okay.
I also walked out and stood in the grass, then I starded seeing and feeling slugs crawling up my legs so I ran inside.
Anyone knows how to get mushrooms by the way? I don't live in a place where drugs are legalized, what kind of people should I look for?
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I used to be heavily addicted to booze a year ago, felt like shit all the time and gained a looot of weight which amplified my shame.
What got me to kick it was, hilariously enough, DXM, which I promptly fell in love with. When I used it it almost felt like my mind was being defragmented and my distorted thinking patterns vanished. It made me realise the causes of my depression and anxiety and addiction and how I'd been running from so many things. The first time I dosed was like a twelve hour orgasm. Just wrapped up in bed with an eyemask and comfy headphones listening to vaporwave and exploring the depths of my mind.
The detachment you feel from your own memories is a really fascinating experience. It helped me put a lot of things into perspective.
One time I did some Delsym and a lot of DPH and had a surprising amount of fun. I saw jumping spiders absolutely everywhere and they were dancing along with the music I was listening to, cute af.
What drugs have you done?
Weed, Shrooms, LSD, Xanax, Adderal, Cocaine, Meth, Heroin,
What drugs do you use regularly?
Weed, wine, adderal
I really wanna do ketamine and DMT.
i tried blue lotus recently (tried to smoke it with herb) and it had no noticeable effect. do you use resin or dried flowers? red wine?>>120309
i am also under said umbrella and shrooms have changed my life for the better. have done them a countless amount of times, you shouldnt lose any sense or self or connection with reality unless you take too much. im comfortable at microdoses of 0.2g, up to 3g at the most. intensity varies strain to strain, but as a rule of thumb if i don't want to lose my mind i won't eat over a gram or 2. i have yet to heroic dose so i cannot comment on that. i've struggled with higher doses before but i've also had lovely trips at 3.5+ g, most ppl's relationships with psychs will always be a love-hate one.>>237850
diff anon but its actually been proven that lsd helps your brain establish new neural pathways. (a quick google search will yield you all the info) this has an emotion-resetting effect. i personally call it "re-wiring your brain" but it all alludes to the same thing. shrooms have the same effect i've found. they don't call it a "trip" for no reason. a psychedelic trip is JUST that. a mental journey, you come out different on the other side.>>237770
if you want psychedelics, look for smart people/nerds. they are easily accessible over the dark web. you can literally teach yourself via google how to buy them via tor, i did. i wouldn't recommend growing shrooms yourself if you don't have someone who is experienced to show you how. even i won't grow them myself yet, i leave that to those close to me who've perfected their technique. i do get psilocin extract tho & i combine with melted cacao to make awesome synergistic mushie edibles, combining w/ choco i've found lessens the intensity of the nausea you'll get. or i put the extract straight into veggie glycerin capsules - no foul taste @ all.
-weed daily because am ball of nerves
-lsd and psilocibin mushrooms regularly, maybe 3-10 times a year each. i enjoy microdosing more frequently while i go about a normal day. i've even microdosed lsd before work (office job) & it wasn't bad at all. i've taken so many psychedelics over the years that it requires a lot out of me to really "go in" and take a full tab+ or over a gram of shrooms. very mentally strenuous, it's not really a recreational thing anymore so much as an all encapsulating journey. trippies bring me really close to the creator, i grew up an atheist and psychedelics are what led me to believe in "a god" so it's a very personal experience for me now. the main difference i've noticed in the two is the "visuals" and the "presence". for lsd, the visuals you get are more angular, sharp, defined, etc whereas for shrooms the visuals are way more organic, soft shapes and swirls. lsd is a more "extroverted" visual trip, whereas shrooms are a more "introverted" introspective trip, less visuals but way more going on inside your head. when you take shrooms you almost feel the "presence" of the plant. fungi are super interesting and mystical beings, it's been said the spores can survive in space so my running theory is that mushrooms are just basically little aliens. sent from god himself, obvs.
-mda (sass) & mdma ("molly"), i enjoy both but they wreak havoc on my skin texture/acne and my mental stability. rebounding is rough with either, i would usually drink vodka to get through the comedown. i prefer mda over mdma because the high is a lot more mellow. you still get in your feels and super "roll-y" but you don't get the intense energy burst like you do with mdma. i'd rather plop and cuddle on this variety of substance as opposed to dance my ass off. i've also come across a LOT of bunk shit.. mephedrone etc. str8 plant fertilizers… ALWAYS test ur shit yal. if you use drugs you need a raegent kit. i used to do this all at clubs and raves, i'd like to get ahold of some soon so i can take it at home with the bf.
-cocaine, is all fun n harmless games at first but it nearly ruined me and it ruis/nearly ruins a LOT of people. i liked coke WAY too much. not even for the effect that it had on me, but for the way it physically smelled. shits addictive on a chemical level, i craved it like a mineral. i used to order mine str8 from the darkweb bc it was the best quality i could find, if you want to try coke DONT BOTHER buying it locally unless you want stepped on rat poisoning. i dont recommend trying it though, it's rly rly expensive and ultimately not worth it. it makes you paranoid, isolated, arrogant, high strung, spatially unaware, SWEATY (with terrible chemical odor), and gave me literal rocks in my skin. not sure if it was just super hard tiny balls of sebum and my cystic acne was FLARING up at the time from it, or if the actual coke crystals were stuck inside and secreting from my pores. i did cocaine on and off for a while, then binged for like 3/4 months straight a couple yrs back. wound up blacking out, & getting a police escort to a hospital and now i wont even touch or look at it. just like it too much. i hate that i like it.
pharms: adderall, vyvanse, xanax, vicodins, codeine, dxm. i dont care for any of them. i used to abuse dxm as a 17yo and would lay awake in bed all night robotripping and hallucinating shit on my ceiling before having to wake up at 6am for high school. now i cant even drink soda or red wines because it smells too much like "cough syrup" lmao.
whippits/nitrous: this shit is wack, avoid balloons/hippie crack. you're just depriving your brain of oxygen and balloon parties honestly get wack n weird. everyone is so whiney and greedy with balloons/$ for balloons. if you want nOs, get a cavity so you can get the good dental grade shit on tap. when they leave you alone in the room with the laughing gas tank to get adjusted, just turn ur ass around sneaky quick and turn up the nitrous a notch or three. they only notice like 15% of the time. :')
i'd really like to try dmt in the near future, and eventually do an ayahuasca/peyote retreat. before i die i'd also like to experience ibogaine, fresh raw opium (smells heeeavenly when smoked), and fresh salvia leaves. i've heard that the plant isn't actually meant to be smoked, and instead chewed raw for the best effect.
also interested in what it feels like to chew a betel nut…..
i've never tried ketamine and i refuse to because i've watched so many other people take it, it's so off-putting. if you're on the schizo umbrella mentioned earlier, this is def one drug you DON'T wanna try. witnessing someone in a k-hole is terrifying. it makes you a hollow vessel. every time i've EVER interacted with someone on k, they've been in distress.. crying, think they're dying etc. i've been at a festival where 2 men on ketamine that were "mutual friends" have hit/harassed me (terrifying experience i wont elaborate unless anyones actually curious)
K is a HUGE epidemic at festivals now. last year at electric forest my neighbors were on it from the time they arrived til the time they left. they were all really whiney, bitchy, and rude to one another while sober. then you'd hear them go quiet and get to sniffing, then they'd just sit there for hours in a flooded tent giggling like idiots.. we had a massive 2 day thunderstorm that year. they were REALLY unprepared and too high to bother fixing their campsite so they ended up sitting around in a wet ass tent for days getting high on k. obnoxious. also you can't even sit at your OWN campsite at these events anymore without random sketchy looking wooks trodding through your personal space whispering about "kitty kitty meow meow i got da kitty yal want any kAY". i'm not exaggerating when i say you will hear this/get asked this no fewer than 35 times a day. these are the same kinds of people who sell decorative spoons for $50, decorative hat pins for $200 etc and then go steal your folding chairs when you're in the venue during the day anyways. idk i have a really sour taste in my mouth with this drug in particular, it's really popular and i do not understand the appeal at ALL. the drug is honestly ruining festivals and outings for me.. if anyone could explain, i'm all ears.
for everyone wondering what meth "feels" like, i couldnt tell you - but i do know a really (surprisingly) attractive & intelligent dude who used to really like to tweak and it landed him in jail several times. he said he used to be hanging out in his house alone, doing meth, and he'd hallucinate/see a living room full of people that he could have full on dialogue and physical interactions with (handshakes etc) even though the house was actually empty. i can only imagine meth makes you feel… just a lil crazy lmao.
You can buy some gelatin capsules off of Amazon>>252499>also you can't even sit at your OWN campsite at these events anymore without random sketchy looking wooks trodding through your personal space whispering about "kitty kitty meow meow i got da kitty yal want any kAY".
That sucks about Electric Forest. I thought it was an awesome festival. I've been to a similar music festival and have never been propositioned to buy drugs or had problems with theft.
I did too much adderall xr (took two pills instead of one 20 mg pill like I usually do). I felt like I was going crazy already and I imagine meth feels like that x100.
I chewed betel nut. I didn't notice anything too interesting. Or I got the non-betel paan. Idk.
>>46070>What drugs have you done?
benzos, opiates (except heroin), coke, MDMA, weed, meth by accident once (thought i got molly with a friend, we did as many lines as we would have with molly and we were hallucinating for hours - i still don't know what was real, i was legit fucked up for weeks trying to remember things and discern what was reality).
>What drugs do you use regularly?
benzos every day and opiates like two weeks out of the month so i don't have withdrawals and i can keep my tolerance down under 30mg of oxy to get high, which is pretty good imo. opiates are for my days where i'm depressed because it's the only shit that can make me happy. MDMA or coke if i'm partying, preferably MDMA tho since i'm all about euphoria > fun, if that makes sense. weed fucks me up like nothing else weirdly enough, so i avoid it like the plague. every time i smoke i hallucinate and think i'm in what i always call a 'time bubble' and i wind up disassociating, and the shit's not even laced. my body's weird.
>>252499>if you want psychedelics, look for smart people/nerds. they are easily accessible over the dark web. you can literally teach yourself via google how to buy them via tor, i did
Nayrt but do you have any links to get started with? I’ve been trying to get shrooms for 2 years but everyone where I live only smokes weed or meth or takes Xanax, and I’m hella paranoid about gettin caught trying to buy shrooms online because I barely know what tor even is.
sage bc I’m lame and need an emotional reset/spiritual before my life spirals out of control from not being able to feel anything anymore
I'm a different person but I have some tips. don't try to buy shrooms online. it's highly illegal and too risky when you can easily cultivate them yourself. look up different techs, try Shroomery.org
all you really need is spore syringes, sterilized substrate bags, a closet, and a few other items like jars, water, and sugar. you can buy sterile substrate bags for mushroom growing legally on a bunch of sites, it will be advertised for edible mushrooms. spore syringes are also legal to buy. South American cubensis is the most common type in my experience.
it's honestly so easy to grow them yourself and it's fun.
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Mail guy delievered my pills that day, but when I open up the box, I notice there's three little plastic bags with dry shrooms (1g each) along with the bottle of pills. Sometimes, the girl whom I buy these sends customers these lil gifts. So I have this friend who's really experienced on the shroom, and he believes the shroom is like a living entity; once, I was telling him how the shroom has cured my depression fully, but wasn't really helping much with my adhd, so he goes: "Oh, you know, I once took 2g of shrooms and I was able to concentrate real hard". So I sent a picture of my gift to him, telling him "Look, imma try and take those 2g today!". So I go to the kitchen and eat the 2g (I think that was at 4pm). So I go back to my room and he sent me back a message (after I ate): "Are you really gonna eat those?" and I'm like "yeah, I already ate them" so he goes "oh, well, good trip". I flipped a bit ofc, but I wasn't scared. Anyway, the psychedelic effects start to kick in after around 40 minutes, and I start feeling euphoric and happy. So there's this guy I am (or was) friends with since high school. I've always liked him, but due to my… um, I don't know what's the word. Due to my inability to feel confortable with human touch/sexual interaction, we've never had anything more than friendship. Anyway, I started texting him, because I was feeling an infinite love and I wanted to share that moment with him, so I tried to explain the situation. I know, this was a bad idea. I had no clue how much I craved for him until that moment. Anyway, he was probably thinking I was an irresponsible brat but I didn't care, I just wanted him to understand how much I liked him. The thing is, I didn't use the word "like" because, at that moment, I felt like this was such a weak word to represent my love. So I tried telling him that I felt like our connection was really intense. Ofc he didn't understand shit, also he didn't give a fuck <- I realized how much he didn't care, so I started to get paranoid and then, I felt like my organs were overflowing with sourness, I also felt like there was sourness under my skin and inside my mouth, it was so intense and cruel, at this point I was crying like crazy. Anyway, I told him that I entered a bad trip and I didn't know why, but then he was like "oh, well, I'm sorry to hear that, but I gotta go do [I don't remember what], don't let that bad trip catch ya". So yeah. The rest of the day I kept remembering with vivid visions all of my fucked up childhood, crying in my bed, vulnerable, with no one around to help me. At one point I once again tried messaging him, but yeah, he didn't really care. It was so weird, I could feel like he didn't care, I could feel it under my skin, not only because of his actions. I don't know why, but I really needed him at that moment, I didn't need anyone else, just him, and I felt abandoned. He'd been ignoring me for a couple of months, but everytime he needed me, he would just pretend we were besties like nothing happened. I didn't care because I just wanted to be next to him. You must think he's a cunt (you're not wrong), but his attitude is very prince-like, he doesn't even curse. He's super handsome and intelligent so I have always put him in a pedestal. Anyway, I went to the balcony and lied down, I couldn't stop crying. I tried listening to music, but even happy music had a melancholic undertone, it was truly the weirdest thing. I tried forgiving my dad, because although he ruined my childhood (he was alcoholic), his childhood was as fucked up as mine. I falied though, I wasn't able to truly forgive him at that moment. Anyway, the effects started wearing out, by 11pm I was feeling alright. It's so weird the feeling after the trip, it feels really empty. My friend said it is called "wu wei", like the feeling you get after meditating deeply. He also said that I entered a state of telepathy while I was tripping (lmao), because I entered another reality or smth. He also said that we always have something to learn with a bad trip. I don't know if that's true, but I was right about my friend; the cunt didn't even message me (until today…), not even a "hey, last night was fucking wild are u okay now?", not a hint of worry. I'm sorry about this fucking long text, this has been eating me up inside ever since that day.
Thanks for the reply, but honestly I'm not that smart and would rather just buy
them personally. I also live in an apartment with a couple, so it would be kinda hard to hide- my closet is practically a shoe box with no shelves and I leave my door open so my cat can go in and out when I'm not there, and I know my roommates wouldn't be cool with me growing mushrooms in the apartment.
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Aw yeah haha I'm fine. I love the energy and confidence it gives me. I have low self esteem from an abusive mom and ex bf.
The biggest downsides though are the chestpains, headaches I get buying from pornsick tweaker dudes and the irregular periods. So I can't really justify or recommend it. I think my days smoking dope is coming to an end anyway. Thank you for asking.
samefagging to add that prior to doing this drug I kinda knew about how comedowns worked.
Tina comedowns are quite absurd in that you feel as if you wanna die but you refuse to eat. But you're only gonna feel better by eating and drinking water. It's at times almost comparable to that creepy, depressing rabies video where this man keeps trying to drink water but fails.
I wasn't a drug-addicted baby (thanks Mom), but I'm still so scared to try these. Except MDMA. I've done it a couple of times, and it's always been a good experience. Music tickles and I'm very happy.
I've never tried LSD or shrooms (or any other psychedelic, for that matter). I want to, but I've always heard to be careful with them if you have a history of depression or other mental illness, which I do. I'm still terrified of having a bad trip and doing something crazy or just feeling different (in a bad way) for the rest of my life.
- Xanax & Klonopin
I think that's it. I used to smoke weed every day, and I think I had a coke problem for a minute. I had kind of a drinking problem too. And at some point, a bit of a Lorcet habit. Then a benzo habit. Now I don't do anything except smoke weed and drink occasionally.
I have done a wide variety and the only " drug" that caused me any problems were Alcohol and legal highs ( UK fag). I have tried pot, Coke, MDMA, Xanax, Diazepam, Clonzepam, Speed, Morphine, Codeine, DHC, Tramadol, benzos and Coke. Booze called me to make stupid choices that I regret, Legal high put me in hospital overnight and was not enjoyable. As I result I do not drink.( unless it is with a meal) Legal High gave me a terrible experience I would never use it again. The rest of the drugs despite building up a hige tolerance I was able to use without any problems. Opiates I was able to quit cold turkey and be back to normal in a week despite using lots of opiates. e.g 900mg of codeine, 40mg Morphine every few hours, I would take fri on mon of work. Have plenty of Immodium, sleeping pills, diaz, fluids, buckets to puke/shit in. put a an old towels and incontinence pad on the bed on top of old blankets. have forms of distraction, a radio, TV, netflix, etc, drink plenty, eating is hard but try and also takes suppliments. Focus on your goals. Take baths several times a day ( not showers). On Tues I would explain that I was not 100% over my gastric flu,would not wear make up, take lots of immodium, so people paid no heed when I had to dive to the toilet or was looking rough, I was mostly send home or asked to go home No one suspected a thing. I never head w/d lasting more than a week. Best thing for opiate WD is to be prepared and not have any plans, including social plans and chores, day 2 and 3 is the hardest. And immodium may not stop it all, it is the days when you are likely to puke up. . If you stay off opiates for a few weeks/ months you lose tolerance. I would never advise anyone to cold turkey benzos, but I did, yes it was difficult but I did not suffer major effects, nor did I develop PAWS or get rebound anxiety, ( I never had anxiety either regular or social in the first place so that maybe why) I did sweat and suffer from insomnia for a week and that was that. I rarely take drugs now, even though I have a bottle of Oramorph, 100's of Codeine and DHC, Trams, xanax, diaz, clonz. The only drug I use know is Ambien no more than 3 times a week. My doctor has NO idea, neither does my family, and most of my friends. In the UK, if you piss postive on a Morphine test they are likely to give you methadone or subs. This a terrible idea, I knew one girl that could only get heroin when she visited certain people, she was not addicted, yet they put her on methadone which caused her to be addicted. I know everyone is different but I do not think the way the UK treats alleged addicts is helpful to them ( but it keeps people in jobs) People have different body chemistry but Methadone and subs will cause strong addiction. My father is also against this, on that note he never suspected me of using drugs on a regular basis, even tho I lived with him. He is a sec 12 GP, meaning her has to work with drug addicts. If I could not WD, there is no way he would have recommended the NHS way for me. Those that are struggling please think carefully about going on ANY drug programmes ESP if you have children or are thinking of having kids. All my medical files say about me, is that when I was a teen I had a bad reaction to a legal high when I was at a party. in B4 someone says nice blog. I am trying to warn you of the risk and realities of drug use and their treatments. I may of got away with WD cold turkey from Benzos, but please do not take my experience as a blanket approach, I was fortunate and I had a back up as I could also go to my dad if I needed to ( I never) I hope people read this and think about what I say. If anyone has any questions let me know.
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Can y'all share your psychedelic trip stories? I love hearing peoples' experiences and general thoughts about them, it's so interesting. Doesn't matter what kind of psychedelic it was!
I took amsterdam truffles three times with my girlfriend.
First time we were at the beautiful, good smelling shop with a sweet worker girl who seemed like an angel while we were high.
everything was just cool and new but there was this spinning thing on the wall that fucked me up at first but then we “became friends”. We read comics and saw really cool flashing colors and overall it was just very comfy. Later we went to a candy shop and tripped the fuck out. That was fun.
The second time we were home and it was also comfy, we fell in love with ice skaters on youtube and had a super nice conversation with her family. I think that trip changed the way i talk to people forever. It made me more confident in a way..
The third time was my strongest dose so far. I had the worst headache after (anyone know how to avoid that lol) but overall it was very healing and enjoyable. I had strong visuals, especially when i closed my eyes, but there were colors and patterns everywhere and my gf looked like a flouredcent painting. At one point I saw a wall sepparating from its 3d form if that makes sense and behind it was a different dimension of weird lights. We listened to björks biophilia album, and for some reason I started feeling really empathetic for my child self in a very traumatic scene from my past, so I started to cry really hard but I assured my gf that it’s a good, healing cry. She held me and i sobbed for a while.
Later we danced and wordshipped her cat. We were both so full of love, it was crazy sweet.
This is a story of a salvia trip where I abandoned this plane of existence and ran away with the man on the package of chorizo.
I was in Amsterdam with a friend. He bought salvia because he wanted to try it. I told him I'm good, he can have it all. After 20 minutes of watching him struggle with the mechanics of the bong and burning half the salvia with no effects, I got frustrated and decided to step in. 'it's not working', he was crying. 'this isn't salvia', he was crying.
So i said 'give it to me' and proceeded to fuck myself up beyond all recognition in 10 seconds. We were sitting on the floor in an airbnb flat, and the only thing on the coffee table next to us was a package of chorizo. I remember I thought I was on some sort of surprise reality tv show, where the whole room was rotating around me and it was actually a studio full of people. The man on the package of chorizo was speaking to me. 'you see it now, don't you? it's all for you'. 'come with me, I'll show you the secrets of the universe', he beckoned, biting into his chorizo. My body was a book and he was flicking it back and forth, side to side. 'your whole life built up to this moment', the chorizo man was telling me. Around him, impossible geometry was unfolding. 'don't trust your friend, he doesn't want you to know. come with me'. Besides me, my friend was pissing himself watching me drool and failing to grab the package of chorizo from the table.
In the moment I reached it, I sobered up almost immediately. 'what did you see?' my friend asked me. 'you looked like you betrayed me. You had a lot of suspicion and pain in your eyes. What are you doing with that?'.
I keep chorizo man to this day. He is somewhere in a box in my wardrobe.
That's really interesting, anon.
Do you think there was some truth to what the chorizo man was saying about your friend?
I tried acid for the first time the other day. Bought a tab from a coworker and took it after I got home from work at like, 2:30am. With no previous experience with psychedelics and knowing almost nothing about LSD, at first I thought it wasn't working. The coworker messaged me at 4ish i the morning to ask if I was tripping balls, because apparently he gave me a higher dose than he originally claimed, but I wasn't feeling anything but mildly anxious so I told him it wasn't working.
Literally 5 minutes after talking to him the shit kicked in. It staryed with everything auddenly being way more colorful and vivid, then about 20 minutes after that the visuals started, the wiggly lines of color coming off things and when nonmoving objects look like they're "breathing". I think it took about 4 hours to fully take effect, but I don't think I really "tripped balls". He claims he gave me 140, but I have no frame of reference for it so idk.
Overall it was nice. He told me I was gonna be able to "break out of my headspace and experience ego death to deal with whatever problems I was burying", but really I just felt hella alert, like time was flying by, and I didn't feel any more introspective than usual. I was tingly and kept talking really fast, too. The only downside was that by the time it kicked in I was ready for bed, and apparently you cannot
sleep on acid because your body is so alert you keep waking up before you can fall asleep. Knowing that, next time I'll wait until a day off or just not do it after work when I'm tired. Maybe next time he gets some I'll ask for one a little stronger, then maybe I'd have something to really report.
Thanks for sharing anon! I used to read erowid trip reports on various substances and Salvia always sounded so crazy like this.>>274590
Ime, you really need to take quite a bit of acid to get to ego death. Imo, there are much better substances to achieve this state. The standard 8hr+ acid trip is just impractical and too loooong.
Yeah, but I'm currently stuck in a small, conservative town and nobody here really cares about psychedelics as much as they do shit like xanax, meth and coke. I moved here 3 years ago, I've been able to find decent weed and now the sporadic acid tab, but unless you want meth/coke/bars nobody here has anything. You'd think a bunch of broke bumblefucks surrounded by cow paddies would be itching to sell shrooms, but everyone here salts their fields or feeds their cows that enzyme that prevents the shrooms from growing. I've never lived anywhere that had so few options for recreational drugs, and they're al highly addictive and fuck you up too much to be functional.
Sorry for the mini-rant!
I think there was truth in a lot of what chorizo man said. Perhaps people who aren't able to use a bong just aren't to be trusted with this knowledge. Maybe one day I will be ready to see the true nature of the universe and he will return and guide me. >>274625
I read some trip reports as well before doing it, which motivated me to not do any of the salvia initially. I distinctly remember one of the reports saying something along the lines of 'I would rather put my dick in the oven and slam the door repeatedly than do salvia again'. Wasn't that bad though. Just very intense and weird.
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that doesn't sound much like LSD:/ maybe some other chemical, there's tons of them sold as lsd. Most of them are harmless, i've had some, they often have a lighter headspace which i like
I tripped quite a few times about 2-4 years ago, mostly on my own, it was fun. I was in one of the worse phases of depression and for some reason lsd felt like it could help me… and it did. Gave me a bit better perspective on life and myself (and a brief phase of listening to 70s rock - that's what you get for watching The Yellow Submarine movie high lol).
I tried to trip last summer and fall but had to take a xan both times to kill it bc i was headed for bad trips straight away. I'd have thought that my mentally improved mental health would be an advantage for this drug but apparently not lol. Kinda sad, my past psychedelic use vastly improved my life tbh. So I'm gonna try it again soon lol
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i did both lsd and mdma (separately) while depressed and it helped change myself tbh. like i still had to work on myself of course but it motivatd me more i guess? i usually rolled solo as well so i would feel more free to give in into accepting myself and my faults etc lol… it sounds kinda silly, writing it out.
you can take mdma ~every 3 months fairly safely. tbh at one point i rolled like 5 times in 3 months and tbh wouldnt recommend… i havent done it for 2 years now maybe but i carry a lot of these experiences in myself to this day… just my 2c
Thanks anon. I try it tommorow with my bf at home.>>275177
If my bf is enjoying the mdma I'll ask if we try mushrooms. I don't want to use it on my own
I tried shrooms a few weeks ago but it went kinda bad. I mean, just before taking it my bf told me that i could have some hallucinations and i got scared because i have only been doing weed and some sleeping pills when i was teenager. so I took a 1.5 gr dose (instead the 3 grams that recommended me) and felt like i was high on weed. Nothing really different, just less sleepier. Any advice? >>287699
Grindr it's pretty popular for buying drugs too.
adderall is the best drug BUT it can destroy your life quickly
bluelight is crazy btw. reading it makes me want to stay away from drugs, almost like i'm tripping too lol>>288483
umm a "typical" dose is 1/8th of an oz… i think your bf was right! after 30 mins it starts ramping up and a lot of people feel sweaty, energetic, weird etc.
i wish i had friends who would take me out to mdma parties >>288485>>288571
i think adderall is fine. just don't take it every day. my life has only improved since i started taking it, but i only take it twice a week at the most.
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honestly mdma is the only drug i like and trust anymore.
-no paranoia spiraling out of control
-no sitting and shivering in the corner like a retard
plus you can still get shit done, like practical chores around the house type shit, all while in a sustained state of delicious bliss. it's not even naive, overly idealistic bliss, it just makes me feel fucking fantastic with no delusions as to why. it's like adderall's nicer, less edgy big sister. and if you take it more than about once a month it doesn't work anymore, so it's like a built in anti-addiction system. i know a lot of people feel awful during the comedown but i haven't had a big problem with it. it does kind of suck to feel the euphoria getting dimmer and dimmer, but i just think of it like getting out of a warm shower on a cold day. it sucks, but you can't stay in there forever anyway. like yeah i wish i lived in a literal paradise where i could feel like that all the time, but i'm just grateful that even if i can only do it once in a blue moon, it's always there to obliterate a rainy day.
you can get nice visuals and other side effects if you take enough
problem is that if you start getting visuals on mdma you've taken waaaay too much for your own good
i know people who got too dependent on them quickly, and sometimes you think you're acting normal but talking really crazy and people can tell you're wired>>288644
mdma wreaks havoc on your brain, goodbye serotonin receptors
sort of related, but have any of you guys tried ketamine for depression or ketamine infusions, even, for it?>>288585
does no one get crazy comedowns from adderall? i'd get so depressed and angry on the comedown. it's so nice while you're high, but fuck, it's torture coming down.
Just make sure she hydrates regularly but not too much. The first time I did mdma was at home so it was easier, but I actually set a timer for it.
Besides that obviously make sure it's good stuff and don't give her too much. Try to always keep an eye on her.
Thank you for advice. I'm sure it's the real deal because I took some from the same batch and I don't plan on giving her a big dose since it's her first time and we just want to get a little loose.
I'll be sure to get something to drink and also set a timer, because it would require a certain amount of finesse to make the high hit when I need it to.
it isn't. it works really well. it's very nice. i tried extracts first and they worked but when i switched to leaf they didn't work for me as i overdid it. things rarely work for me but it works beautifully. it's a high very comparable to tramadol for me, which i love. the anti-depressant effects of tramadol are so understated and it mimics it almost perfectly for me
For me it depends on the dose. I never get any extreme reactions unless I take too much. Exactly the right dose makes me really clearheaded and content and at ease in situations that would normally cause anxiety. Too much though and I feel like shit, sweating, crazy heartbeat, nausea…
I used to take it more often but last week I took some to work and it turned out to be too much and I felt terrible for most of my shift.
Also the constipation isn't too fun as I'm already frequently constipated without taking opioids.
What method do you guys use to take your kratom? I usually stuff it in the largest size capsules I can find in the nearest headshop which ends up being about 8-10 capsules. I can't stand the taste otherwise.
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I do weed weekly. I love it because I have anxiety problems but I HATE that it gives me headache after using it. I keep hydrated but nothing, still feel kinda weird the day after. Any suggestions?
I also did shrooms two times. The first time I wasn't prepared at all. I was in my house with my bf and took 1 gr. After drinking it my bf told me that I maybe can hallucinate and I went kinda bananas because anxiety. He calmed me down and fortunately the dosage was low because I didn't trip at all. Just felt nauseated and sort of letargic, like high but not to quite high. It was strange. I blame on me being nervous and self conscious. Then I smoked some weed and i swear to god it felt soooo good. Apparently smoking a little weed after shrooms get you in the right place if you are having some bad trip. The effect of the shrooms lasted like 4 hours and overlapped with the high of weed.
The second time trying shrooms was the best. Did like 2 grs and know I was mentally prepared. My bf and his friend (who tried shrooms before) were with me and calmed me because I was getting nervous again because of the nausea. The trip was really good, we chatted about personal stuff a lot and very deep conversations. nothing philosophical at all, just our feeling being their purest. It was very weird but shrooms give you that mental and sentimental clarity if you struggle a lot finding what the hell are you feeling. It wasn't a big revelation at all, it just felt pretty natural and chill. It felt great. About the body effects, the nausea didn't stop but was manageable, i ate something and felt better. The colours didn't change but they were vibrating which was ok for me but I get some people can get paranoid. After all, was a good experience. I would do it again but i would like recommendations about controlling the nausea.
If you are a ball of anxiety and want to try shrooms i recommend to doing it with a very small group and with someone who at least tried before and can calm you down. that definitely did a difference for me.
if you're drinking water, it's probably shitty weed. they spray pesticides and whatever they hell they want on those plants, and sometimes i'll get headaches from someone else's weed. try vaping or edibles and see if it goes away?
feeling weird the day after is normal, i read that weed stays in your system for 24 hours so even if you feel sober after waking, there could be a lingering "veil" if you know what i mean
I have a small jar with a lid (used to be a small jar of pesto lol) where I put in a teaspoon and then a shot of super hot water. Close lid and shake shake shake. Open lid and take the shot. That totally dissolves it for me and leaves minimal taste. I'll usually immediately rinse out my mouth with more water after too.>>341369
That's nice and everything, I'm glad it has helped you, but weed and kratom are entirely different drugs. Kratom is similar to something like hydrocodone/vicodin or like the other anon mentioned, tramadol. It helps with pain and also it helps people who are getting off harder opiates like heroin. There are tons of stories online of people who've been "changed as a person" (like you) from being able to kick heroin with the help of this substance.
Anyways I just think it's dumb to discount other people's experience because it didn't work for you? Like for example, weed gives me panic attacks and makes my body frozen in fear while my mind races through all my worst anxieties for 45m straight, but I don't go around trashing it because of that since I know it helps some people.
Everyone has different reactions to any given drug.
I never wanted to be a barhead, but I think I've basically failed a semester of university (which was supposed to be my last) due to overwhelming email anxiety. I couldn't open my email for days on end and as a result, I think I've failed my classes. Taking kava helped, but it was too little too late.
I thought I had made really big strides in overcoming my anxiety but being stuck at home with coronavirus and not being able to see anyone has really fucked things up. Shit like xanax is a crutch but maybe it could have helped me in the same way that adderall has helped me in the past.>>583850
There's actually different kinds of kava available. Noble kava is the best kind with the least amount of health effects but it's rarer/more expensive. There's other kinds that are grown but they're considered more toxic
due to worse processing or the kind of plant used. Maybe that could have caused your problems?
Different people react differently to drugs. I vomited from molly each time I took it, I felt like shit while everyone else around me was having a wonderful fantastic ecstatic time. I have accepted it's just not for me, and will never do it again.
I guess it's the same for you and acid.
I've done it many times before and never had this issue though?
Unless my body has suddenly decided it doesn't like it anymore which would be a bummer lol
Thanks for the answer though anon!
I can't use weed anymore unless it's an edible. Gives me anxiety otherwise.
LSD. Fun as hell, but I abused it too much and I think it did some damage I'm only now recovering from lol, so probably never again.
Mushrooms. I've only done this a few times, not my favorite thing though. Best moment was watching Interstellar.
Vicodin, I took it when I got it, but I don't ever get the urge to do it again. I felt the effects but it's completely non-addicting to me whereas other drugs gave me a slight desire. Same with Xanax, but even on a small dose it acts as a date rape drug; I can't really enjoy the sex/experience since I'm not conscious for it at all.
MDMA, took this almost every week for a summer and I had to stay clean for almost six months for my brain to boot up again! (I was young and ignorant.) The last time I did it, I also ate a little bit of shrooms beforehand and it was very nice, so I'm repeating it years later next week. Hands down my favorite drug and the only one I can say that I'm addicted to.
I'm about to try DMT pretty soon in vape form. I attempted it back in college the old fashioned way but I'm not a smoker so I couldn't get it down.>>584380
The high dose probably did it. If you ate food close to drop time, it probably exacerbated things. Had a similar experience with shrooms, a trip or two after that one with the vomit/intense nausea, it's like my body remembers. I'd try to supplement with ginger or tums.
Ketamine is awesome and like psychedelics can provide transfereable quality of mind that helps treat thing like addiction, depression or ptsd. But, unlike psychedelics, it can itself be very addictive.
Coke imo is a waste of time and money. I dated a coke dealer for a couple years and got as much as I wanted whenever I wanted in the duration, so obviously I abused it. I still party with coke on the rare occasion, but I don’t really think it’s worth it, plus the day after is murder. rip my nasal cavity.
Be mindful about the quality for both of them. I’ve seen people do shit ketamine and it didn’t look pleasant at all.
To me coke is overrated for how expensive it is (at least in the two countries I’ve lived in). Sure it’s a good feeling but not worth that much money. I have way more intense experiences with pills and acid.
I do ketamine almost every weekend. I have been doing it since about 2016 (when mxe vanished from the market..) taking 1-3 month long breaks every so often. I found a really solid vendor on darknet after some trial and error with other vendors peddling cut up crap.>>584471>I’ve seen people do shit ketamine and it didn’t look pleasant at all.
Be careful with your dosing. Invest in a mg scale for sure. You can get a decent one for around $20-30 on Amazon. Then check this out: https://erowid.org/chemicals/ketamine/ketamine_dose.shtml
It's a relatively safe drug in terms of overdose - it is like acid in that way. Difficult to OD. But you can def have difficult/traumatic experiences if you take more than you can handle. Good news is that it's an hour trip maximum so you won't be out for long.
If you can find a trip sitter for your first time I would recommend it.
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Sage for samefag,
I'm fine NOw but the 1st week was hellish, and I wouldn't have been able to do it if I didnt have my live in boyfriends support and help keeping me away from it, and emotionally.
If you have any depressive or tendencies for suicide suicidal ideation, weed withdrawl is serious. I had some good results tapering down before I went full turkey but I wouldn't have been able to do it on my own.
Booze is next!
I think I'm close to quitting wee again. I indulge far too much with it and it, along with my procrastination is making my anxiety and depression flare up shocking.
I've only done shrooms and acid three times. Two of those times nothing substantial happened but I had a really good trip that left me feeling so much clarity afterwards on shrooms. I was in a pretty bad depression at the time and after that trip I remember something just clicked and I was able to launch myself into actually doing productive steps. I applied for school afterwards and just recently got my masters. I'm actually looking to take some once the pandemic eases, although I don't want to put too much hope on it. Best thing is just to be thinking positive and have someone not on anything supervise the trip so to speak
Can't say much about foraging, but looking at the foliage/plant guide of your local woods could help.
You can also try growing them. If you have a green thumb I heard it's relatively easy and the materials are completely legal. Otherwise, I'd try asking your sketchiest/weirdest friend.
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Godspeed your quitting, anon. My state (cali) has been legal for a couple years, and from anecdotal evidence (me and my cousin quit weed for p much the same reasons) and from what my therapist and a doctor told me, there's more people coming out of the woodwork wanting to quit weed. It's not an easy going chill stoner lifestyle like I thought, being always high and shelling out $$$ has wasted so much of my time. >>584536
Buy them anon. the risks of foraging outweigh the cost.
Do you have any info about getting started and what to buy?>>584759
Yes ma'am will do!
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Easy as fuck simplified guide: https://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php?Cat=0&Number=25274461&page=0&vc=1#25274461
If you browse around r/shrooms there are other helpful threads about it. iirc you really only need the spores, a container (often lidded jar), and a dark/moist environment. If you read everything thoroughly it's a lot at first but it seems pretty simple, albeit I've never tried.
Mushrooms do the same to me, but I heard it helps to be in a bright environment like a park or something outdoors. (I've only done it inside my house at night lol)
Drink orange juice and eat a lot of fruit, anon.
don't do that anon lol
1) setup wallet to buy bitcoin on paxful
2) download tor
3) go here
might be against the rules to give you further instructions but you can start by exploring dreaddit!
>what drugs have you done?
weed, lsd, ketamine, mdma, heroin, perks, cocaine, alcohol, shrooms, xanax
>what drugs do you use regularly
nothing anymore, but the internet is kind of like a drug now. I spend all the time I used to be on drugs on the internet now. its sad.>>585430
Don't do this lol. They will think you are a narc. Make friends irl and the drugs will come. I started doing drugs when I started hanging out with artsy hippies. But stick to weed or party drugs only, no opiates. And I'm an oldfag so I can't vouch for the darkweb, but it doesn't sound like a good idea. Only get drugs from people you trust.
>>585481>I'm an oldfag so I can't vouch for the darkweb, but it doesn't sound like a good idea. Only get drugs from people you trust.
Just my $0.02, but the best marketplaces on the darkweb function just like Amazon or any other ecommerce site. You browse products by rating/number of reviews and leave reviews yourself. It is not uncommon to find long standing vendors who sell products with 10,000+ reviews. As long as you stick to vendors with high trust scores you will be fine in terms of quality.
As for legal risk. As long as you're protecting yourself (vpn, tor, pgp encryption, only buying small recreational quantities) you should be fine. I've had ~100 transactions over the years and only had a few issues like the vendor delaying shipping or the product being slightly underweight. Usually the vendor will make it right so they can get a good review.
Lots of people either may not have the connections irl or just want the privacy of getting it themselves ..because well, your dealer (or someone above them) is probably buying from darknet anyways ..just in much larger and riskier quantities. Plus it is nice to have it delivered right to your door. I'm not knocking going thru irl connections, just wanted to give a vouch for this method.
If you’re gonna order from dnm, domestic vendors are always safest because they don’t have to go through customs.
If you order a drugs and the when the delivery arrives, if they ask you to sign for a package, decline. It’s a trap. You tell them “I didn’t order anything.”
If you get a call from the post office saying you have a package that needs to be picked up, decline. It’s a trap. Just say “I didn’t order anything.” Very simple.
That’s never happened ime and I order most of my shit online cuz I don’t trust dealers in my area, they don’t know shit from shinola.
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Samefag, I highly recommend buying a testing kit because if you’re going to do drugs, do them responsibly. You never know what street dealers are mixing their shit with and these help you know what you’re taking.
I once bought ‘adderal’ from a dealer my friend swore by, came home and tested it only to find the results concluded that it was meth, not adderal. I’ve also been sold molly that tested as a 2c. Dealers can be irresponsible as fuck.
Please stop spreading misinformation.
Using a VPN will not protect you. Tor is not designed to hide your identity and it clearly states that on their website. Tor is deliberately designed to tell people you're using it as a far to counteract cops using it. PGP is useful but only protects some communication and is rendered useless if the site is honeypotted, like most of the big sites have been over the last decade. All convos can be read as soon as they have your key, which they will get.
Your location can be found very easily. Tor is notorious for leaked Ip addresses and your VPN will only save you if you
1. Have it setup right. That includes checking for all leaks.
2. Have a VPN located outside 5-eyes.
Even then, there are risks. The only reason you havent been caught is because a dog hasn't picked up the scent on one of your packages. As soon as they do, they get a warrant. Your package will be delivered normally and then you will be arrested.
OR, the site is already honeypotted and they're waiting to come get you. I've known of several sites that ran honeypotted for nearly a year while the cops just collected info.>>585636
They changed their methods a year ago. The fact none of you seem to have read the manual on how postal employees are meant to deal with this (which is available all over the onion network) shows me you dumbasses are gonna be arrested in a few months max.
No, they won’t be. Drugs are what’s called ‘controlled delivery’. If you are asked to sign for or pick up your darknet drugs, decline. Cops can’t bother with and don’t care about busting buyers of recreational amounts. You’re paranoid and spreading bad information.
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I can tell you’ve never done any of this before kek.
I’d like to hear about the effects. Is ketamine a dissociative?
It’s kind of funny, nitrous oxide aka hippie crack is one, I think. tmi, but doing nitrous used to feel like I was having an orgasm but more like an orgasm that started in the brain. I think it was something to do with lack of oxygen more than the nitrous, but maybe not.
I had a friend who I mostly hung out with only at parties, but when we saw each other we would do tons of nitrous. My mom had got this nice whipped cream tank from Williams-Sonoma and she and I basically claimed it. You could load two canisters at once. I would stash it in my backpack with the canisters in a Xmas stocking to keep them from rattling. Anyhow, we were at this one party that actually sucked but who cares, and she was sitting on the bed hyperventilating and then she inhaled the whole thing and she flopped back and starting shaking. I had never seen anything like it and was panicking, it looked like she was having a seizure or something. Just as I was about to call 911 she came out of it, all smiles. I was freaking out, yelling what the fuck happened to you, I was so scared holy shit and all this.
She was loading the tank again and giggling like crazy. “Fishin’ out? I was fishin’ out? That’s the whole point!” Like a fish out of water, flopping around. I never asked her if this was a thing that lots of people said, or if it was just a phrase her and her friends used. I myself have never fished out, but yeah.
That’s another thing I think is interesting, drug slang between friends. When we were a little too stoned and getting paranoid we used to say we were skizzing, which was short for schizo, inb4 how awful. Does anyone else here do anything like that?
The phantom cigarettes thing sounds like the stuff that happens in the Don Juan books by Carlos Castaneda. I think he smoked datura as part of the process. I also think these books are widely accepted as fiction now but they’re still fun to read.
It’s like the digital elves from robocopping. Which I have not seen kek.
Different Anon chipping in, Keatmine is a disso yeah! It’s like a way more intense nitrous trip lol. It also depends if u get s-ket or r-ket. One is more trippy and makes me more dissociates (I was sitting in my ex room but I thought I was in a spaceship) the other is more like alcohol :-)
In other news I love speed. I am lucky to live in a country were meth isn’t as popular but amphetamine is and damn this shit pops off. Currently on it lol. It’s the least addictive hard drug in my opinion and I love tweaking out on it
there's clearnet research chemical vendors in a number of countries that sell 1p-lsd, which is a prodrug for normal acid and is basically metabolized into the same thing
at least this is how my friend from the internet with a degree in chemistry broke it down for me
anyways it's reasonably priced, the tabs I've tried were significantly stronger than the dnm tabs I've had before which makes me think that the illicit one's I've had up to this point were all underdosed
check with your country if it's banned and whether you've got generic drug laws or not to gauge legality and use your google fu to find out which clearnet sellers are reputable.
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I want to do 3-fea/2-fea combo at this free party near my city but I'm kinda worried about rolling alone and then having to walk half an hour to a night bus stop in a strange area lol. I want to do it thoooo
Also I'm planning on doing LSD on my birthday. Last time i tripped was a year ago and I thought 200-225 ug is not as impressive to me anymore, so I want to do 300 and realize things lmao
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I did LSD a couple days ago!! Played Journey the whole time. It was so beautiful and brought me immense joy. Have fun anon!
ITA. Sorry but you are insane if you think that LE gives one single rat's ass about some random nobody buying recreational quantities to have some fun on the weekend. They have WAY bigger fish to fry (hello opiod epidemic??) and it is a complete waste of government resources and taxpayer money to go after randos like me buying 2g of K on darknet.
If they are going to use sophisticated technology to break through multiple layers of rerouting/encryption, they are going after dealers who make daily trades in thousands of dollars..
Which benzo are you on. Was prescribed and on Xanax daily for 4-5 years, It took me months to taper off. I had to microtaper and even then the withdrawal was hellish, I guess I was luckier than others have been in my position though(considering the duration I was depending and the amount I had been taking ).
I very, VERY gradually increased the time in between each dose and shaved a tiny bit off of my pills. I was very careful and made sure to take my time and not rush it.
If it becomes so unbearable I’d see if you can get a script for Valium (this is a common method with benzo tapering) or gabapentin.
Best of luck to you, it’s difficult but your brain will heal. I still had post acute withdrawal symptoms (akathisia ) well over a year after I stopped taking it entirely but it had become less unbearable
This is from years ago but my mom is on meth, i found out when I was 14, it seems like she is bipolar because of meth. One day she'll be happy and the funnest person to be around, the next she's screaming at us about stealing shit/using her. I don't like how she uses but me and my sisters just accept it at this point. A little OT but I never realized how common meth was til I turned 20. I was taught as a kid that it's a scary drug and stuff like that but seeing relatives and adults I've known since childhood, people who don't seem like ~druggies~ made me feel weird. I'm quite scared for her and annoyed. I know addiction is a disease or whatever and I need to have empathy but days when she's coming down are so annoying. She threw a fit over syrup the other day ffs. She also has this weird tic that the drugs gave her where she picks at her teeth and two have fallen out. Her hair is falling out. She looks scrawny and emaciated but somehow bloated too. I hate to say it but I look at my mom and I just.., i don't wanna become that. I love her but she is so flakey and seems weak minded. I hope she makes the choice to quit
I've smoked weed and maybe I did it wrong or it was just weak, but it had no effects on me. I have also done cough syrup when i was a dumbass teen because poorfag. It made me almost shit myself and see swirlies in the ceiling. The Alice in wonderland thing, i felt like I was the size of the bathtub when I was in the bathroom, and i walked out into the living room and felt claustrophobic, the walls were at my sides and the ceiling cavingin.. Everything was so oblong. It only lasted for like 5 hours. 6/10. Cough syrup is nasty and I thought the effects would be more intense. I would never do drugs again except maybe weed because it is too expensive, and risky.
i don't want to derail the thread but you are not wrong for being upset / annoyed with your mom or feeling disappointed at the choices she has made. this can coexist with your empathy for her, i hope no one guilt trips you into feeling like you aren't allowed to hold her accountable for her choices or behaviours or feel resentment or sadness, disappointment, hurt, anger etc at the way her addiction affects you and your sisters (and the rest of your family, if they're affected by it as well).
this is also my mom's drug of choice, and she goes into terrifying violent psychosis. living with her has been like living inside of a schizophrenic horror movie. which is not to divert the subject onto myself, just letting you know you are far from alone, because living with this can feel very isolating sometimes.
i hope you and your sisters are taking care of yourselves, and that you all have a backup plan or a couch to surf on for a few days if shit really hits the fan. your feelings are entirely understandable and healthy, and your mixed feelings towards your mother do not negate your love or compassion for her.
i'm sure you know all of this, but i feel the need to say it anyways because a lot of resources and support groups for children / loved ones of addicts really hammer home forgiveness (and rhetoric that is often misappropriated to evade accountability or as a blanket excuse for the addict's actions)
I've used 3MMC, GHB, coke, mdma/ecstasy, ketamine, shroom, lsd, spice, 3mmc and weed
And I've never had any good experience with psychedelicd/weed. If you don't feel like it works good for you, trust yourself and stop trying. 3mmc and GHB are really good for freaky partying and coke never done anything good for me, I hardly get a kick out of it, it's a waste of money if you aren't in a city where they sell fine dope. I kinda feel sad but not really sad that my most magnificent nights have been spent under the influence but that's life it be what it be.
Do you take SNRIs (a class of antidepressant)? They stop coke working because they occupy the same neuroreceptors.
Wasted a wad of cash before checking this out on erowid and realising why I was feeling like Charlie Sheen banging 7g rocks and feeling fuck all while everyone else's faces were going numb.
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did some speed saturday morning since we had some laying around, then did mdma two days in a row. really bad idea in practice, but somehow im feeling fine still. it was really weird, the second day i started rolling and about 30 minutes later it was entirely gone. i made the mistake of dipping some more times after it went, it never came back. im quite young, 23, so im experimenting before ill get too caught up in life with everything to ever dedicate a weekend to stuff like this.
normally i feel the tuesday blues just like you usually do, saturday night roll, sunday monday fine and then tuesday im emotional etc (but only if i go hard, like above 300 or so, which i only did once so far) but today i just felt a bit unmotivated.
maybe its because i took some l-tryptophane which is a seratoin precursor so maybe thats the reason why.
I don't know about them, my friend ended up with a bunch of amyloid plaques in her brain supposedly from doing too much speed all through high school.
Other than that, you can restore your brain a bit if you don't replace drugs with something else, but I have noticed even in people who didn't do drugs that feeling less intense excitement about life is just part of getting older. So some of it never comes back. >>671249
The l-trypto helps to a point but I reckon it's better to take good breaks between to get the best quality feels or eventually every roll is kinda disappointing, after a while it actually feels worse than being sober. Punctuating big weekends with a health kick makes it better again.
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you are so right, honestly normally im autistic about the whole every 3 month brain neurotoxicity prevention gap but that weekend i just decided to turn my brain off. i wont be doing it ever again thats for sure.>>671251
unless you did molly like every weekend for many months, no. the true effects unfold if you take it so regularly that you barely feel the effects while rolling, and feel like a miserable bastard off drugs. taking MDMA too much is neurotoxic.
and im pretty sure that the most damage from coke is to your heart muscle and to your mucus membrane in your nose and not the brain
do you sleep well? if you have damaged your brain with mdma you should also have trouble sleeping, as one of the two neurotransmitters it releases is seratonin (contentness/sleepiness)
also keep in mind that in life you are not always supposed to be happy, dopamine is a reward hormone (normally) that gets released just enough for us to crave more. your brain isnt broken if you are always or mostly in a neutral state, but if you do feel down a lot id recommend you to try to get to the bottom of it.
my bf got mild mppd from weed sideeffects, but i havent gotten anything yet.
if it cheers you up, it seems to fade with time.
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>mom is okay with me self-medicating with THC despite her being a fundie Christian retard
>therapist/psych duo yelled at me for experiencing positive results with THC after forcing ineffective drugs down my throat and starting to push benzos to alleviate the negative symptoms of SSRIs
really makes me think :DDD
Sell the benzos for street $$$$
anon…did she die?
hope you feel better now. drink some water
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I’ve been smoking weed a lot more after quitting for half a year. I missed it. My anxious behavior was definitely the result of my past environment more than the weed itself. Feels good to get blasted and work remotely.
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I took some Molly and now I regret it, any advice on how to sail through this kinda smoothly.
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I have no idea how to source anymore after moving, and craigslist is retarded. What do I do, anons?
Heh, some of the nerds I hang out with were talking about their hilarious heroin stories a week back. I mentioned DXM and my experiences of it and they immediately switched tune.
"Jesus, anon, that shit's dangerous!"
But waking up covered in heroin vomit ain't? The double-standard is real.
are you still here? How's your grow going? What method are you using? I've been doing research trying to gear up to grow some golden teacher as well and seems like the PF Tek method is the easiest/most common. But I think I'd prefer to use a print rather than a syringe. Curious to know what you're trying.
I've never had Sally D, but have always been pretty curious, would love to hear what you think of it after trying anon>>721306
I know this post is old but I don't get why people who do harder drugs seem so rattled by DXM, my friend who abuses benzos constantly lectured me for trying DXM once. I don't think DXM is really worth doing though, so maybe it's a risk vs reward thing to them if they also find it lame