>>305491I'm pretty apathetic and refuse to put any effort into friendship tbh, been that way for about 7 yrs or so. I've lost so many friends over the years, not because of any drama or fighting, literally just because we lose contact (I don't use SNS). But I figure it's equal, neither of us are really trying that hard with each other, so I don't feel bad for my lack of effort. I see a couple of close friends every few months I guess, whenever I do I'm like 'man I should hang out with them more often', but I rarely feel like the rest of the time. I don't really trust or expect people to like me that much either, so I feel like I shouldn't push too hard to see each other often.
I don't date either, eventually I'm gonna be all alone. I'm 100% fine and happy now because I have my family but I do wonder how I'll deal in the future.