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No. 2590620
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I'm a bong nonnie who didn't put all her food recycling into the food bin. Some of the food was going mouldy in plastic bags so I just chucked it in the normal bin because it was refuse + food bin week so I could get away with it.
No. 2590945
>>2590749A lady from the local council came round last year just going in people's front gardens to smack stickers on the top of the bins saying "REMEMBER: NO FOOD IN THIS BIN. UNRECYCLABLE WASTE ONLY" I love it here because I freaked out wondering who the stranger was meddling with my bin. But yeah as of yesterday night… alas… Forgive me, Council, for I have sinned.
As for restaurants I'm pretty sure over here is similar. Everything just goes into one bin kek.
>>2590657Real.
No. 2590987
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Exhilarating thread pic nona, I hope this becomes a trend
No. 2591326
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I take great pleasure in reporting every soyjack I see on this site
No. 2591381
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i used the holiday as an excuse and cheated on my diet. i ended up getting food poisoning. did something i haven't done since i was in diapers. i've learned my lesson and will never cheat on my diet ever again
No. 2591487
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>>2591449It sounded like you meant lesbians or moids bc you're making sexy noises. I would just say "annoy" or "sexually harass" when referring to women. Language is a tool that we use to paint pictures in other people's minds and I'm not sure you did a good job of that anon
No. 2591624
If I were to reincarnate as an immortal and choose my body type, tbh Id probably choose a child.
In my defense, it's not because any fucked up fetish reasons, fuck no, but because I miss the world being big. I miss the bathtub being basically a pool, having a room below a chair, a cookie being gigantic, feeling like a king when I sit on a sofa. I want to go back to that. Everything is smaller now and I hate it.
It's stupid, I know, and probably a little gross but I miss that childhood wonder of everything being an amusement park so bad, man.
No. 2591924
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I love using outdated cringey millennial gifs in my messages. It is fun and quickly conveys the emotion I'm trying to get across.
No. 2592348
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>>2592342You should expect brain zaps if you rush that. I fucking hate ssris
No. 2592359
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>>2592355Weed making you feel like every thought is super profound and amazing no matter the quality + ChatGPT telling you exactly what you want to hear = 11 months of this
No. 2592367
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>>2592359Nta but
>has done wonders for reigniting my creative spark.>and I have a problem with that!!! No. 2592452
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I'm drunk and I wanna fuck a serbian friend of a friend even though I prob I frogot how he looks like.
He gives me basic attention bc he's prob desperate (deduction from his words) bu sounds cute. Nonas please, I have trichotillomania, I have no levrege, how do I stop putting myself down for undesirable men? Or them above me?
I need wisdom.
No. 2592670
>>2592428>tried exercisingI already do, not very intense shit but I'm not a hikineet either.
>fixing your diet?No need to fix it either, I've always eaten healthy, I just naturally have a very low libido.
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i never get approached by anyone i think its a miracle im married to begin with but an ugly man came up to me at the grocery store today and asked if i was seeing anyone and im going to feel like lil miss hot shit because of it for the rest of the evening
No. 2593397
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>>2592359Exactly kek. Every study about it proves that weed doesn't actually make people more creative anyway, it just makes them feel like they're more creative. Sad.
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/35901408/ No. 2593452
>>2593450I've never been in a
toxic relationship so you have a point, all my relationships have been healthy.
No. 2593475
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I feel like I'm chasing the high of being a 13 year old weeaboo almost twenty years later by reading/watching through all the old shoujo and BL series I never got the chance to. Sometimes, I can just barely grasp that dopamine rush I used to get and then I remember that LJ is dead, tumblr is a fuck, and that I have work in the morning. Why can't I make it 2006 again?
No. 2593477
>>2593460It's not crazy or wild, it's just weird and immature. It's a betrayal of trust. I wouldn't want to be in a relationship with someone that did it, and I wouldn't do it to a partner.
>>2593468You just have to find someone mature that actually respects your privacy. Young people don't have a lot of boundaries or respect for other people.
No. 2593482
>>2593475Gosh
nonnie are you me? I've been getting back into anime seriously this year after abstaining from it since around 2018. It makes me feel all giddy again and it feels good when nothing really scratches that same itch
No. 2593488
If it makes anyone feel better, I don't look at his Instagram DMs if they're still unopened since you can't mark them as unread again so if you have a friend in a relationship and want to tell them something secure I'd suggest doing it through there or over the phone.
>>2593460I wouldn't be surprised, if I had AO3 tabs open I'd be a bit embarrassed. I respect everyone's opinion here btw and see what you all mean, I think I could go about this a different way but I just wanted to post it in the confessions thread and I don't particularly feel bad about it lol.
>>2593475I used to be obsessed with Shugo Chara.
>>2593484I would never drive drunk, I meant that I'm always the designated driver.
No. 2594025
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Randomly I'll remember the time when I was cooking a scratch-made spaghetti dinner for a moid that was two-timing me with his ex he'd talk massive shit about to me.
When I can't grow, juice, and boil down my own tomatoes for sauce I use a god damn tin of tomato paste and add the spices, garlic/onion fried in olive oil, and a bit of water and let it simmer on the stove until it's the right consistency–not that the moid in question would have known how to do any of this.
Every person I know who makes tomato sauce from scratch adds a bit of sugar. EVERYONE. Because if you don't, the sauce will taste bitter if not a bit metallic from the acid. So as I am adding the sugar to the sauce the moid entered the kitchen started laughing at me for adding sugar to the tomato sauce and acted like it was the most unusual thing he ever seen. Even after I explained this is how scratch sauce is made, not your canned Prego shit that comes pre-sugared and ready to serve. Should have known this was a sign of his devaluation of me, but I digress. Oh, and he ate the spaghet with no problem.
Not only was the fucker dead wrong that night, he actually had the audacity to come leaping into the apartment the next day after work proudly declaring he had discussed my sauce with a random bitch coworker and she totally agreed I was a weirdo for adding sugar to sauce. So that makes two lobotomized retards in the world who don't know how to cook pretending like those that do are wrong, yay! FUCK YOU.
No. 2594140
>>2594025As an Italian fav I can confirm it for you nonna. I always add sugar to tone down the acidity. You are a genius and he’s a little retard.
I’ll give you 10 pennette as a reward.
No. 2594427
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>>2594389Are you using one of these?
No. 2594435
>>2594427No, TMI but I drink a lot of water so my stream is… healthy. I just crab leg around the bowl kek.
>>2594392>>2594412Aw don't be mean I actually am pretty grossed out by it (hence confession thread), it's a laziness thing. I have a good aim and I know when it's about to trickle down my leg so I have a ball of toilet paper ready to catch it. I only ever do it before showers so I don't feel like a piss girl all day.
>>2594419ILY
nonnie!
No. 2594437
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The Michelin man was one of my first sexual fascinations. I would like going to the automotive departments and garage of sears when I was young just so I could feel comforted by his presence, he was the kind, loving father figure that I sometimes wished I could have and his plump, enveloping figure delighted me. Seeing the Michelin man parody in ghostbusters dismayed me greatly on a Chris Chan level as a kid, but seeing his corruption as an evil, even more plump and aesthetically cute figure also intrigued me. How the fuck am I not a Deviantart inflation fetishist
No. 2594515
>>2594025Tell them to read the ingredient list on the jar sauce they're used to.
I use brown sugar myself. It lifts all the flavours to the next level and I find it needs less salt as a result.
No. 2594675
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i'm 26 this year, and i don't really drink, but i do love buying alcohol sometimes because it gives me a small ego boost when i get carded. also though i am a pathetic tech wageslave who might get laid off this december and has been desperately applying for jobs (with no luck) so i can get out before the hammer drops i feel infinitely superior to the thembie i know who is struggling to find work, and has been since november. i could be in her place easily, but for now, i will relish her failure(s) even if i recognize i'm in no real place to do so…
No. 2594768
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I just found out about electric showers. I guess the shower head contraption plugs into the wall and heats up the water to shower with. Apparently they’re super common in LatAm and the Caribbean. I’m amazed there isn’t a significant amount of deaths via electrocutions from these things.
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>>2594768kek anon, I'm not from latam but this is what my kitchen sink has. You make it sound SO trashy though kek
No. 2594778
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I look down on people who sleep around, both men and women, not in a religious way , I just find it disgusting to have sex with multiple people on the same week. I don’t say it though and just say “yeah everyone can do what they want with their bodies as long as they are safe!”, but I’m grossed out that these people would ever try to get with me under a fake guise , I want a way to fish them out of my pool without ever having contact.
No. 2595061
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>haven't played a video game in several months
>Nigel gives me his Xbox One and a tv for my room
>introduces me to survival game which stokes my nostalgia
>end up binging the game for several hours on a work night
>didn't eat, drink, or do any self care during the time spent
>wore my glasses so I could play better
>binged the game so hard I puked from staring at the screen for too long, sweating, still played on
>died anyway and lost my character
Holy shit I am too old for this.
No. 2595065
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I have a poor memory for my own words and it severely weirds me out when people quote me. I have zero recollection of most things I say or type. People will be like "You changed my life 5 years ago when you told me xyz!" and it feels like they're talking about another person entirely.
No. 2595080
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>>2595061Makes me sad because i wanna get super autistic for a game like this again but i can't anymore.
No. 2595249
>>2595236Idk if it’s that weird people stopped wanting to hang out with
>>2595229. She wished their children death after all. I’m sure she’s giving off a vibe.
No. 2595512
>>2595229You have to honor your values nonna. If you will change your values based on reciprocity (or lack thereof), then they are not your true values and you should not be putting yourself in the position of being taken advantage of. Having boundaries and saying no pushes many so-called friends away, but the real ones understand and stick around.
It's…really hard. I don't say this lightly. My friends also have major main character syndrome and I don't find that they reciprocate much for me, I feel rather forgotten about most times but I am dependable and I show up for them–which they acknowledge as much at least. Other ex "friends" absolutely devastated me with their selfishness and greed, but they are exes for a reason. Don't fall for sunk cost fallacy, and some may surprise you when you pull back and
they chase.
No. 2595572
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I was a discord gf of someone who was a complete loser, unemployed, smoked weed all day who went on to become an extremely rich and well known Youtube drama commentator with some extreme right wing views. My current bf has seen him appear multiple times on his Youtube homepage as he watches drama channels from time to time, and has no idea I spent every day for 3 months on video call with this person during Covid, sharing our life stories, and planning what we'd do together when lockdown was lifted. My current bf will never know about this, and would leave me instantly if he ever thought I'd be with someone like that.
No. 2595971
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>>2595967No what's worse is having your name co-opted by fucking troons
No. 2595999
>>2595980KEKKK your guess isn't there but you're close, I've seen anons mock troons by using my name so it's almost Lilith-tier.
>>2595988I'm sorry nona, my middle name is spared thankfully but I don't like it enough to use.
>Sophie CrystalThis reminds me when an anon pointed out that troons love the names given to little girls, it creeped me out enough to stop liking mine. That paired with the fact that this is all a fetish for them
No. 2596017
>>2595969kek I actually met a TIFfany who named herself Larry, no one on earth called her that and they just called her her gender neutral given name, I absolutely love it when fakebois give them self these Mr. Noodle Edwardian sideshow names that any self respecting moid would loathe having, way way better than something like Nico (God theyve all fucking named them self this at least once)
>>2595980What are some more popular current tranny names these days? I feel like these ones are pretty millennial, they seem like they picked them koff of the Ramon aFlowers girl they'd sniff the hair of and drool over and then spend their future life either skinwalking or killing themselves or bombing an abortion clinic over, but this modern batch of panty snatchers haven't even gone outside now to know any real women they're feening to turn into flesh furniture, or they've consumed so much anime porn and belle Delphine bait that they're no longer attracted to non shooped women. I feel like the name Remilia exemplifies this new batch the most, it's 4chan moeblob scroteshit with a twingeof gothic elegance to satisfy their insatiably pretentious male ego and decrepit ingrained 'goth dommy mommy' fetish, and its completely detached enough from anything a real woman would be named, so he can feel superior over those icky cissies. I also feel like Japanese names will bec0ome way way more popular with white people, I feel like whenever a troon names himself some Prussian lady in waiting name he's just compensating for what he'd really like to be named after. his sacred waifu. I remember that Saeko guy on Twitter a little bit ago who got in a spat that was sjw fag fighting between 'whats more important, racism or trannies?', and the classic sewerslvt shenanigans.
No. 2596038
>>2596020kek ive given this a lot of thought bc i hate my first name with a passion but changing it in my country is very hard.
always loved anne, anna or anastasia but they combine unfortunately with my last name. My fave is victoria but it wouldn't suit me.
i would choose alexandra.
No. 2596083
>>2595970And yet that was the standard way to pick a user name or email address for a long time, so it can't be that bad.
I think the best thing for names is something not too common but not crazy or misspelt. Maybe there should be a quota system, and if the quota is used up for that period, BD&M have to go to your parents' second or third preference name.
No. 2596092
>>2594069stop obeying instructions
maybe you're unhappy because of these things, not in spite of them
No. 2596216
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Sometimes i only post because i have a reaction image that i really want to use
No. 2596256
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I saw this meme and it reminded me that I use to undo some stitches in my roommate’s clothes whenever she didn’t do the dishes and I was mad at her
No. 2596298
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I don't understand how fandom iceberg memes work
No. 2596755
>>2596664Hundreds of other things kill the planet more than people saying hi to ChatGPT. The most common theme of
victim advocacy right now where I'm from is kids and women having AI CP made of them to ruin their careers or get them criminally charged but all you AI spergs can focus on is muh commissions and muh environment
No. 2596850
>>2595675Holy shit that must be even weirder than my dramaslopper discord ex. How did you find them in the drama?
I found out my discord ex became a huge dramaslopper star on Youtube while in the bathroom on an expensive holiday my current bf had taken me on. He took me to this beautiful luxury hotel in Chicago with a gorgeous view of the river. I was on the toilet scrolling my phone after we got there, went on Youtube and saw my ex's channel with 100k+ views on a new video. I spent way too much time on that trip going to the bathroom and exploring the rabbit hole. I also found out I had been mentioned in videos of his about a year after we had split up. Not by name, but I knew it was me he was referring to. It was the weirdest feeling and I felt so guilty essentially stalking my ex while being taken away on this amazing trip by my current bf, but how could anyone resist looking into something like that?
No. 2597012
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>want to be a researcher
>research defunded and cut
>want to do grad school for something else
>grad school loans cut, can't afford it anymore
>guess I'll be an engineer because nothing else makes money
It is inevitable that I will cross dress at work or outright transition. The anecdotes from FTMs about being respected by default is extremely blackpilling. I don't want to ruin my body with testosterone, but honestly, my body has been nothing but a burden to me. I will never be respected or loved unconditionally because I'm not a man. I'm already getting comfortable in men's clothes because I don't get objectified in them, I'll likely take the plunge to full transition soon enough. I wish I had been born the sex that is loved and respected. This isn't worth it.
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A month ago I was watching a random documentary show and it briefly showed someone scrolling a forum that showed people discussing suicide methods. Out of curiosity I wanted to see if it was a real site and to my site it was. I browsed that whole day out of morbid curiosity checking threads that were incredibly detailed instructions on different methods to use, people detailing their plans etc. I was disgusted in myself for spending so much time on that forum and it wasn’t just that day I started periodically checking it a few times a week. I used to have very strong suicidal ideation and I still occasionally feel the need to put together an almost “use incase of emergency” exit kit for some reason. This website has kind of put my mind at ease but now I’ve been taking note of what methods I’d probably do if it came down to it even though I have been actively suicidal in years.
No. 2597176
>>2597173Despite its current reputation (being banned in nearly every country that can), it's also offered me a lot of solice. I think it's why I'm still here; having the option of
>Yeah I can just do this if I need to check outweirdly gives you a sense of agency over your otherwise impossible bullshit life.
No. 2597348
>>2597127The perma was from years ago. I didn’t even do anything wrong I just posted a thread in all caps like a newfag and they got annoyed, I was also a repeat offender from infighting too much kek
>>2597149Different device, so new post history I hope and a fresh start
No. 2597550
>>2597353I feel you nona. I nearly died last year and no one gave a shit, my groups cut me out for being too weak to join outings for a while. It gave me the peace of mind suicide really won't be selfish of me when I got concrete proof nobody would care. It's time we admit legalized euthanasia would solve a lot of societal issues. Sage for blogpost.
Threadtax I've wanked to TV Tropes pages.
No. 2597669
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>>2597348the jannies here used to permaban for the pettiest reasons, maybe they let up with the permas after realizing thats why they lost like 90% of the core userbase.
No. 2597999
>be me
>work on a historically important site
>theres urban legends about some [cool stuff] buried here
>few days ago some guys in overalls are working in the wooded area, assume theyre gardeners or something
>be in local shop and the shopkeeper says "oh theyre just there to dig out the [cool stuff] ha ha"
>indeed today i overhear my boss talking to one of those guys, who it turns out is an archeologist
>overhear some really exciting details
>when getting coffee i tell the other people i work with "oh yeah they found [cool stuff]"
>everyone has big eyes, surprised, excited, asking questions, im clearly the bearer of groundbreaking news
>i go back to where my boss was and casually say "oh thats so cool, about them finding the [cool stuff]!"
>boss looks at me and says "fine if you overheard, just dont tell anyone. this is still being researched. its secret until the papers are written and published."
it turns out the shop lady was joking. it turns out also that none of the people working here knew about the excavations. i wasnt supposed to know and i told everyone. my coworkers are gossipers so theyll tell the whole village. i hope the archeologists forgive me for leaking the info to the entire village, two online friends, and now the website of lolcor…..
No. 2598200
>>2598115I know. I hate being attracted to these demons that are incapable of loving you the way you love them. Imagine being in a relationship with someone that actually sees you as an equal human being.
I'm proud to have never had a nigel before given the state of moids. Just get a 2D husbando instead.
No. 2598292
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i did something so deeply mentally ill and evil today but i don't feel bad about it. i sent the handmaiden who exposed me as an evil #terf (and got me expelled from our tiny corner of the internet) gore and doxxed her. she freaked out and deleted her tumblr. weeks before that though i photoshopped an annoying thembie's head onto a pig and tagged her over bluesky, then she melted down about it for a week and went private. i've recieved no messages from anyone so i guess they don't know it's me. i did all this because i saw a quote that was like "if you're not a monster and you encounter an actual monster you'll lose" and i felt that was a sign from god to take my revenge. deserved, stupid retards, don't fuck with someone like me
No. 2598296
>>2598228This
>>2598256I thought the same of my old male friends I knew since middle school until I caught how they speak to each other when women aren't around. Incredibly blackpilling to learn that the "only good ones" weren't good at all
No. 2598306
>>2598292I'd love to do something along these lines but I have a feeling people would know it's me behind it
or that karma will get me kek. Even sending anon hate makes me a little anxious when I do. I really want nothing more than to run this bitch out of the community and off the internet.
No. 2598447
>>2598228>>2598359Nta god that reminds me that my NEET cousin e-dated a popular loli vtuber. I didn't believe him until she pulled up the vtuber set up over video call because she didn't want me seeing her real face.
Honestly from an outsider perspective they are both retarded. This is what you get when you are a loli vtuber, the only men in your circle are alcoholic unemployed men who still live with their parents and can watch vtubers all day. And when you're an alcoholic unemployed neet male you get e-cheated on by loli vtubers. Cringe cringe cringe I can't believe I'm related to that thing.
No. 2598515
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>We should all be openly lusting over each other’s brilliant twisted minds. Speak your truth
I am gonna say the N word!(retard)
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I need to abduct a grimey basement dwelling smegmoid as my /m/anservant so much it's unreal.
No. 2599896
>>2598352>>2599191Hey anon! I am the ayrt. After typing out the original post I had a brainwave and realised it really did all link back to my low self-esteem (which partially IS my mother, but also other early life experiences).
I don't think I actually am attracted to this new lady, but I am hugely attracted to the idea of being the person she must think I am.
It's like a total reversal of all the insecurities I've ever had:
>I've always found it hard to make and keep friends, but this is the best my social life has ever been - I now have a few cool and funny people I talk to regularly who find me interesting. When she sees me IRL I'm usually mid-convo with one of them, so I must register to her as a normal non-awkward popular person (the kind I longed to be at school)>I'm insecure about my lack of invites to things but I know she finds me funny and likes talking to me>I'm super insecure about my religious/ethnic background but she loves people from it>I'm insecure about being a gossip, snake etc. but she trusts me and if anything encourages it>I neglect my mental health and sleep and don't respect my own time but she clearly cares about all three aspects, thus I must register to her as a person worth caring about>I'm deeply insecure about my work but she believes in it enough to specifically push for opportunities for me that others don't get I think I actually want to spend more time with her because it means I can "live" through her eyes as this new confident, accomplished, sociable person who is completely foreign to me. I think that's normal in a way - you make friends by making others feel great about themselves. I don't imagine sleeping with her or anything but I do imagine editorialising my past trauma so I can talk to her about it. I think that means I'm really imagining coming to terms with it myself, in a way that acknowledges how much I've changed (for the better) since.
I won't avoid her the way I was planning to, in fact I'll thank her a lot more for investing so much trust in me and doing so much to help me. I also am not going to overshare but I'll definitely try to transfer this 3rd person confidence from her side into self confidence and be immensely grateful. And I'm going to learn as much as I can from her and adopt the helpful lessons into the way I live my own life! So eventually I can be satisfied and happy about my self-acceptance too
Anyway I love you girls so much and couldn't have even thought about having this epiphany anywhere else. I hope this helps you too in some way anon, it was such a good reframe
No. 2600086
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>>2600074My feelings just came back online this week after nearly a year off and oh boy, do not make irreversible decisions rn lemme tell you.
I swear it's a kind of disability and they should make special helmets for us that read our brains and figure out what we'd normally want if we weren't dead inside.
Or maybe that's just me.
No. 2600173
>>2600166Nonna were you just sitting in a butterfly position or something kek?
It admit that ideas a bit scared when I read it. I am glad you are a normal owner and not a zoophile.
No. 2600176
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>>2600173I feel like explaining a crimescene, lmao, nona.
I was kinda like this with my legs and my cat decided to sleep under the "roof" of my legs and the blanket over them, I guess it kinda slipped my mind that… sometimes things happen.
The scream I emitted was probably heard three stories down. I love my kitties very much and I felt like a piece of shit.
No. 2600230
>>2600205My friend is trying to use some type of semaglutide to lose hormonal imbalance weight that doesn't come off from anything else and causes her pain as well.
But the way she's recently only talking about peeing from her ass and vomiting every day just makes me feel so bad about it.
No. 2600235
>>2600233She literally has to take vomit breaks at work and only rides transport with a plastic bag in the pocket.
It's genuinely not worth it for just cosmetic weight loss. But vanity and money will forever mean more to celebs than lasting effects. Besides they do fuck-all all day most days, they prolly can afford vomiting for a couple of hours a day. Instead of spending those couple of hour at the gym I guess?
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>>2600399KEK on the edge of my seat right now. How you break their spirits and condition them into humiliation exactly?
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>>2601282When I’m on the brink I have to blast europop, it’s the only thing that can save me
No. 2601325
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>tfw black
>hate troons
>but love troon music a lot of the time (edm sub genres)
>regularly have crisis moments where i feel like racist white guys who go "well i'm not fond of african americans but the people have a way with music…"
>think of a convo i once had with a white troon (pretty normal hsts honestly) where he was all like "well you're black shouldn't you understand how much it hurts to be an oppressed minority blah blah blah"
>feel bad whenever i think of it
>like i'm a bad person and a hypocrite
i could type more but i'm so sick of being this soft. i wish i'd never peaked sometimes, why can't i just be a normal handmaiden
No. 2601362
>>2601325"Oppressed minority" and its literally a dude wearing a dress by his own volition. If I were you I would be fucking pissed by that comparison…
But yeah I like some troon artists. I kind of try to ignore that aspect. I dont really dislike them BECAUSE theyre troons, its more like I think trooning itself is a bit retarded and I respect their decision making a little less. But maybe they are cool outside of that? Usually not but I retain hope. Its like if I found out a creator I liked had really retarded political views, I dont really feel bad about still consuming their content, its more like well I guess theyre a bit retarded.
No. 2601365
>>2601357i tried this and he was like "no i can't go back to being male it was a prison for me it was sooo uncomfortable and i hated it and it was awkward i can only be trans blah blah blah blah blah"
>>2601333you're right but i'm just sensitive kek. i know it's the female sociaization talking, but still
No. 2601367
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>>2601325For one, I would have leaked my entire document full of research on why trannyism is retarded and why trannies are misogynistic, lesbophobic, subhuman pedophile racist sons of shit bitches that deserve worse than death. Then lace the chat with NSFL surgery pictures of neovaginas and frankendicks to rub it in their faces that their bodies are ugly. However on the other hand, if you unironically listen to sewerslvt or whatever the fuck it's called, that interaction is what you get for having bad taste anyway.
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>>2601367Absolute stacey behaviour
No. 2601399
>>2601396Sherry lewis is a vaudevillian-style performer
>“Her mother was head of music at Bronx School so Shari was also a violinist, pianist and dancer,” said D’Apolito. “Shari grew up in a colorful household where she was exposed to magicians and puppeteers and ventriloquists. It was the age of vaudeville so she was exposed to all the vaudeville entertainers.”It's just how the music is nona. No need to be scared, she was a notoriously charitable and good person, kids just enjoy annoying adults
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>>2601402Well what about songs where the singer says they'll "always be there" for someone? That's pretty creepy if you think about it too much
No. 2601475
>>2601365If you are black and supporting trannyism you are stupid. I have never seen a more racist movement , they use black women as mammies each time.
A white scrote will never be like a black woman and trans people will never face the same oppression of black people. We can never change our skin color, can never be stealth or boy moding.
No. 2601677
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i fooled the old lady who was sitting in front of a shopping mall restroom charging people for entrance. there was a qr code on her desk you could scan to pay and i pretended to scan it and showed her a fake "transaction complete" screenshot. i'm pretty sure she gets paid the same regardless so it's a victimless crime.
it was cheap and i could afford it obviously but i don't want to pay out of principle. charging people to use the restroom is just ridiculous and it's something you only see in poorfag countries like mine. people already spend money SHOPPING at a SHOPPING MALL, they should at least be able to pee for free. otherwise don't be surprised when someone takes a shit in your H&M fitting room
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A long time ago I had a crush on a boy in my class. I was a laughing stock to most peers not just the opposite sex, but we got along so well and had the same weird interests. I kept those feelings way down, I was also a preteen with no idea how to handle those emotions. He wasn't conventionally attractive and middle school is already a game of 4D popularity chess, I couldn't handle any more attention on myself especially the love teasing kind.
One day he casually dropped that he had a little crush on me for a while, but never said anything because he "knew I would never be attracted to him". He didn't tell anyone about his feelings either except for one friend. Although my crush for him sort of waned at this point, I did the most asshole move and STILL hid my feelings and went along with a lie, said something along the lines of "uhm yeah, I'm sorry". We were at the end of middle school at this point where humiliation is at its worst and I did such a mean and selfish thing to make myself barely fit in.
We still remained friends after but then as life typically goes we drifted apart into different lives halfway through high school and then out of touch after graduation. I later learned he had a rough home life he hid from most people and that's why I barely saw him towards the end of it all. This was a million years ago and miles away in a different life but I still feel terrible about what I did. I hope wherever he is now his life is much better. Apologies for the blog post, I'm in a weird mood right now and I needed to get this off my chest.
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>>2598292Nona I kind of want you carnally…That's my confession.
No. 2602827
>>2598292Amazing, keep up the good work nonna! This is deranged but funny as hell, you know they did this shit and worse to others, they just can't take a dose of their own medicine.
And who knows, you might have saved them by shooing them away from the internet and making them touch grass.
>>2598756A lot of them do have health issues and if they don't now, they will very soon. The food you eat affects the flora in your gut- if they ate vegetables they'd probably feel sick since they can't digest them as well as you can. If you ate what they did, you'd spew it out from both ends because your gut bacteria isn't equipped to handle 60,000 calories of pure canola oil in a single meal. It's not a superhuman ability, you're just used to different things. If you want to stop being jealous of their fucked up gut flora, start eating junk food more often.
Plus, you work at an ice cream and sweets place. Think a bit more critically about who's going to eat there.
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I like finding people from different ethnicities that look the same kek.
>she looks exactly like the Asian version of X
>she looks like the white version of C
>she looks like the black version of B
It’s so fun
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>>2603631Another one!
When I see it in real life it’s even more interesting kek.
No. 2603656
>>2603653Kekkk
Unrelated but you reminded me of this girl who had my same name. We were the only two black girls in high school too. We looked nothing alike and people always used to say that I was the better looking one by a mile. We hang out in the same friend group from time to time so we would talk often, she was nice to me and I never even suspected animosity or anything .
She once sent me a picture of this uggo and said I looked like her she almost thought it was me in the video. The self restraint I had not to sperge I tell you kekk.
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Call me mean, call me bitchy, I don’t care. I’m really glad my friend is becoming fat, she now has a gut. That’s what you deserve you cockroach.
>got annoyed with me for not supporting her retarded choices regarding men. She cheated on her bf , broke up with him and started going on tinder and sleeping with randos
>told her to just keep me out of it and keep herself safe since it’s useless to argue with her
>she got fed up all on her own and told me that she felt like I was looking down at her and judging her
>threw in my face stuff that I confessed to her and told me that I needed therapy and that she was worried for me (for what? Not being a whore?)
>argued with her but she was still not seeing the fact that she was extremely rude and shitty.
>I took the easy way out and said “ok we are good” but started being cold towards her. I just nod my head and say “yass” whenever she says how and how much sex she is having
Only problem is that she is the one I spend most time with. I hope that when college lessons start again I’ll find new friends.
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>>2604557Did you post about this a while back or is it just really common for anon friends to go crazy in this specific way and insist on using tinder to ~find a man~?
No. 2604568
>>2604564She is. She started becoming like this as soon as she broke up with her bf. I guess the relationship was what was keeping her sane kek.
I have realized that she is just a pick me dick chaser and it’s so depressing. Being in her presence just annoys me ever since we had that argument, which stemmed from me simply saying “look I don’t condone cheating and you know it so I’ll just keep my mouth shut regarding you seeing this scrote in a relationship” and she got all mad when she didn’t get the response she wanted kek. She is just “mature” when you agree with her.
She would always say “oh you are like that because you need a good dicking” which made me go “huh” but I chalked it up to some joke.
I hope she gets obese and the karma she deserves.
No. 2604580
>>2604576There was one who goes to university with us, who she cheated on with, but the guy didn’t want her and rejected her thrice despite her literally begging him to come to her place and confessing she had feelings. I think it made her insecure and spiraled this whole thing.
>the first one she met was on tinder. He sees other people on the side. Which she says doesn’t bother her but it basically does from the way she speaks. She wants to be a “cool girl” so bad but the truth is she feels validation from being desired and being the only, which can make us go to
>guy 2, a friend of a friend. He has a girlfriend and she feels sweet about being picked over her. She was the one who approached him and invited him back home and said “huh it’s your choice, not mine, I don’t care about your girlfriend”>guy 3 met on tinder>guy 4 friend of a friend , she went out with him and slept the same day and is seeing him having with men isn’t really that hard when you are the one offering it up and approaching these scrotes. No. 2604583
>>2604580This is in the span of a single month mind you…
>>2604576Ultimately she values male attention as something to be proud of that demonstrates a woman’s worth.
No. 2604646
>>2604627>I feel so guilty about itNo you don’t. The truth is that it doesn’t affect you so you could give less of a shit.
You are like those girlfriends who leave their boyfriends and say “by the way, he was saying the n word and being racist to Chinese people! ’”
No. 2604709
>>2604627I'm calling bullshit on this
> He's said to me before that I'm the only person he feels like he can be himself aroundMen know to keep plenty of shit back for later. If they already sound nutty early on.. theres a shit heap more that you'll be drip fed in time. He's only testing your desperation by outing some of it now.
No. 2604744
>>2604639The retard won’t be capable of doing that. He will walk her like a dog.
To beat a man up you only have to see him useful for his dick , money and eycandy while he needs to lick the floor you walk on (and your pussy, which he surely doesn’t, he probably licks the left lip or says that it isn’t manly to give fellatio). If you are already making excuses for how shitty he is then you won’t be able to abuse him.
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I find camo so hot its ridiculous… I remember even as a child the first time I saw a boy in my class wearing camo pants it made me feel fluttery inside. I can find someone sort of attractive and then the minute they put on camo its like WOAH. Its a shame its mostly worn by the same type of people who chew tabacco… sigh
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I once wrote a bunch of smut fiction based on fairytales but lost the files before I ever uploaded them anywhere and ive never seen anyone get as creative with it as my old writings
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My mother knew I was autistic and never told me. I straight I up asked her if I was when I was in middle school. She said no. Years later I rifled through a cabinet in her room and found the diagnosis papers.
She sent me to countless therapists, psychiatrists, hospitals. I’ve been on just about every medication you can possibly think of since the age of 7. I’ve been misdiagnosed with a million different mental conditions because professionals can’t recognize autism in women. The symptoms were clear as day from the time I was a toddler. I couldn’t connect with other kids, I was heavily bullied, I had weird and obsessive interests, I couldn’t make eye contact, I had big emotional meltdowns, I had sensory issues, I struggled with black and white thinking. I went through life thinking that something was inherently wrong with me and my inability to do things that normal people could do with ease was a moral failing. Even my teachers joined on the bullying because she didn’t tell them about it either, so they assumed I was being difficult on purpose and I was sent there to make their lives hell.
I confronted her about today and she started screaming at me. Saying that she didn’t want to believe that I was like her brother (he’s autistic). Saying “what was I supposed to do, I tried to help you.” I remember why I never confront them about anything anymore now.
No. 2605311
>>2605224That’s my secret, cap. I’ve
always got caffeine in my system.
No. 2605451
>>2605278When I was in my twenties I got this sudden urge to contact a service that had given me therapy as a teen to apply for access to any files they had on me. They sent it out. It was as thick as a book. They had redacted large portions of it for my parents privacy ig but I was able to see they had repeatedly advised that I be assessed for autism. My parents refused to get me assessed. Then they acted confused and frustrated with me because my 'anxiety issues' never seemed to get any better through regular therapy. One of my parents was dead before I ever got access to those files. Didn't know how to feel. It's an extra level of fucked to think that even with a diagnosis parents can still just keep that shit a secret for years.
>I went through life thinking that something was inherently wrong with me and my inability to do things that normal people could doExact same. Same wording too. I've vivid memories as a teen of just sitting alone with my thoughts and it being 'something is so inherantly wrong with me but I don't know what it is' I'd think that on a loop till I felt numb.
Maybe other nonnies can weigh in but when you're diagnosed is your general doc not automatically informed of it behind the scenes? Paperwork forwarded to them? It's not the first time I've heard of an autism diagnosis being kept secret from the person who has it and I'm just like.. how are parents still perfectly able to hide an official DX. Is it purely up to parents whether they even inform any other medical proffesionals in your life? And if they don't choose to do that then the cat is never let out of the bag, so to speak.
No. 2605618
>>2605278There's a ton of bullshit shilled to parents, especially mothers, about 'autism cures'. Your mom probably thought that by hiding your diagnosis from you she'd have a chance to exorcise the 'tism before you decided it was going to be your forever personality trait. The fact that she blew up when you confronted her is proof that she knows she fucked up and feels guilty about it but doesn't want to admit it. Parents do some horrific shit in the name of helping their kids, and they get mad defensive over all of their stupid decisions because they knew full well that they were doing something harmful. I'm sorry you were fucked over by your mom like that- but on the other hand, if she'd told you you were autistic, it sounds like there's a good chance that she would have taken you to crystal reiki shaman therapy or locked you in a shed with no food until you became normal.
Some people really can't understand that autism isn't a death sentence. If your mom was raised to believe that any sort of divergence from the norm was due to bad parenting or vaccines or whatever, she probably felt that 2 autistic kids were a reflection of her failures as a person. Parents love to project their own shit onto their kids.
I hope you can find some way to heal and move past the extensive damage she's caused you.
No. 2606213
Bf told me his friend let him know he is ending their lease to move in with a gf, and that he will need to be out by mid-August. We will be getting a place together. He is stressed, but I am reassuring him that he can manage. Moreover he's upset that he needs to get rid of his dogs to find a new place because most rentals will not allow them for various reasons.
My confession is that I am so happy. I hate those fucking dogs. They're mean, ugly, smelly, and a walking liability. The kind of dogs that no one, not even dog lovers, can enjoy. Some of that is bf's fault for moving untrained country animals to the city but they are true destructive shitbeasts and it's gotta be about the personalities themselves because they are so especially shitty compared to others. I'll never forget trying to cheer bf up by tidying his apartment before he came back from work, stepping out for 45 minutes to go shopping for dinner, only to come back to a torn apart trash can littered everywhere with fresh vomit and scat all over the carpets. So fuck em, glad my furniture won't be tore up and smelling like dog piss. Maybe bf's constitution may improve once these demons have been excised.
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>>2606234So where do I collect that delicious tiramisu? His roomie was the stinkbeast, I just tried to make it tolerable because bf worked hard so I felt bad at the time. Never did it again tho.
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>>2606419Teehee (I did not read upthread because I just wanted to get that out there)
No. 2606515
>>2606511>>2606409I once got a
very angry anonymous message on Tumblr calling me a pedo and telling me to kill myself because I reblogged cute, SFW fanart of two teenage characters at the beach in knee-length swim trunks. I was younger than both characters at the time and my age was in my bio.
No. 2606570
>>2606557Yes, it was a very detailed spergy greentext about a specific situation in our relationship that bothered me. Of course he cried that I was sharing our private business with evil
femcel man haters but I still think I was right.
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I could've prevented my cat from disappearing forever.
I lived with my mother and she didn't like the idea of keeping a cat litter in the house. My cat went to the toilet behind our couch one night. She got so angry but I tried to calm her down and cleaned it up. She let him out at night and before she went to work in the morning after feeding him and I was still asleep. We had problem neighbors that would have loud parties and sell drugs. Just a week before he had gone missing, my cat had a run in with one of their visitor's pitbulls who had jumped out of their truck and come onto our front yard. My mum came home from work and scared it away just in time.
I felt bad for my cat, so I would keep him inside longer and snuggle with him in my room until she would come home. She didn't like him on any of the beds, either. When I heard her come home from work the night before he disappeared, he didn't want to leave. I quickly shooed him out of my room. He didn't want to leave and I felt terrible. I put him outside before she opened the door because I was scared she'd yell at me.
The next morning, she fed him and let him out as usual. I stayed home that day, woke up later on and I saw him outside my window. It was a nice day and there were white butterflies around by the bush we had. I told myself I'd let him inside later so he could enjoy the outside, forgetting about the stupid dog.
But he never came back. That was the last time I ever saw him. I called for him over and over when it was time for him to eat, but nothing. My mum came back home from work and we both tried calling for him. We shined a torch outside, looking for any signs of him or signs that maybe the neighbor's dog had gotten to him. No fur or blood or even his collar. She drove me slowly through our streets and the nearby park, but nothing. My older sister came by and helped me print out missing posters for him the next day. I walked around and placed them up everywhere, even one inside our local vet's bulletin board.
It's been many years and obviously he's passed now. But I still think of him and I still miss him. He got me through times when I felt very lonely and unlovable. I hate not knowing what happened to him, if he suffered when he died because of that dog, or if it chased him away and he got picked up by someone else.
No. 2608313
>>2608047Like half of the women in onlyfans are not breaking 100$ a month. Minimum wage would put you in the top percentile of earnings there.
Its like Twitch, they promote the 1% of the 1% of top earners as if they were the norm to get people to use the platform and post embarrassing pics of themselves for no money.
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one of my more frequent intrusive thoughts is of basically doxing random people for no reason or because their name stands out to me (i work in a med office and some patients have strange or interesting names). ill never do it, but i have this thought usually several times a day while im at work. i hope confessing this will lessen the impulse now that the thought is somewhere else other than just in my brain.
No. 2609137
>>2609108Well it was the weirdest maybe, not the most dangerous kek. But I do have a decent life considering everything, at least I am not homeless, a drug addict , or with a mother that hates and neglects me. I hope your life isn’t too bad either nonna.
There was also this one time where a friend of a friend complimented me on a very weird and off putting manner, she told me
>Oh nonna I wish I had your body!>I wish I could place my head in place of yoursWhich made me go “WTF?!” Kekkk.
No. 2609338
>>2609335i know, you're right, but idk why half the anons on here think i shouldn't find love just because i was
molested and severely neglected as a child. people with cptsd/bpd are people and deserve love too.
No. 2609347
>>2609315>For 12 hours straightAnon, I'm just gonna be blunt because I've also had really unhealthy thought patterns and coping mechanisms in the past so I know that sugarcoating doesn't help: that's not a good excuse. It's actually kind of pathetic. I know your brain has trained itself to get satisfaction from self-harm so you'll justify it both consciously and subconsciously, but the truth is that no one except other mentally ill people will care how "severe" the wound is. It's a wound that you inflicted on yourself, full stop. It's crazy, unwell behaviour that either scares people or makes them think you're tiring to keep around. You're not a toddler that needs supervision, you're an adult who should be able to cope with being alone for a few hours. The fact you did it while he was hanging out with his friends makes it seem like you were trying to guilt-trip or punish him, even if that wasn't your intention, and
no shit nobody wants to deal with that. Again, I'm only saying this because it's what you need to hear. If you really want him back, prove that you've changed. The fact he thinks this is a big deal proves that he cares about your wellbeing and wants his partner to be healthy, BUT you have to really try to see things from a different perspective rather than just blowing it off as "overreacting" or whatever excuse is most comfortable at the time. I hope you get better.
No. 2609360
>>2609315>overreactingOnly another mentally deranged person would be with someone like this. People like you are exhausting and distance everyone around you because you don’t want help, you want to be coddled for the rest of your life.
Your shitty childhood explains your hurt and pain, but it isn’t an excuse to keep engaging in self harm.
>>2609338It isn’t that and again with the self perpetual victimization when it benefits you.
No. 2609397
>>2609315>it was a mistake but i don't feel like it should be a relationship ending oneYou don't get to decide that though.
He decides whether your mistakes are enough to end the relationship or not, just like you had the opportunity to decide whether his mistakes were enough to end the relationship. Relationships take two people to agree to them, and it's over if one person no longer agrees to be in the relationship. If you don't want to end your relationship over mistakes, learn from this one and don't do it again. Honestly anon, you're lucky he just left you. Some guys take advantage when they find out that their girlfriend is mentally unstable and purposely stay in the relationship to make her spiral worse so she harms herself for his amusement. Be grateful that you dated a moid decent enough to break up with you instead and keep his traits in mind when you've worked on yourself enough to date again safely.
No. 2609577
>>2609552Maybe you
should listen to men more. Listening to moids talk is a great way to realise how shit they are kek
No. 2609608
>>2609558>>2609567Idfk. Maybe a little bit of societal influence, but also I think it's because I'm a little attractive and I had difficulty socializing, so men made an effort to get close to me with ulterior motives even if I wasn't fun to be around, and girls expected some reciprocation (they were never mean and I was never bullied, I just didn't have anything to offer to them as a teenager so they obviously and understandably would choose to put their energy into friendships that actually did something for them)
But maybe that's a huge cope and I'm just naturally jealous, petty and insecure.
No. 2609816
>>2609344>>2609347>>2609397thank you for the kind and well thought out responses. i need to take your words to heart and work on myself a lot. i have a lot of books i have bought to help with this kind of stuff but they're kind of upsetting to read because they
trigger stuff from my childhood sometimes. i need to work past that and work on coping mechanisms and stuff. its just also hard because i don't have a therapist right now but i have an appointment with a temporary counselor next week.
>>2609514i'm diagnosed with PTSD (you can't be diagnosed CPTSD where i am) and BPD, but i've been told by a psych before that i don't have BPD and i just have CPTSD. but when i've been reading this book about CPTSD lately it just seems the same as BPD to me? i don't really understand the difference. also yes it does smell like fried burning flesh. also not in response to you but i want to clear up that i didn't self harm "for attention" and i only told him because i wanted to be honest because he would see it anyways because i sleep in panties and a tee and it was on my upper thigh and also we have sex so he would've seen it eventually, no matter where i did it. obviously you guys have never self harmed, because like i said before it can be a very grounding thing, and when you're having a severe emotional reaction to something it can take you out of the moment and for a minute you really feel better. i also didn't include all the details and i don't feel i owe an entire explanation. but yes obviously self harming is a crazy thing to do and i shouldn't have done it, but when you're mentally ill you sometimes do crazy things. i wouldn't do it again, and like i said i hadn't self harmed in over 3 years. i really need to make a change in my life and get better and a lot of your replies helped point it out to me a little more.
No. 2609975
>>2609816>i have a lot of books i have bought to help with this kind of stuff but they're kind of upsetting to read because they trigger stuff from my childhood sometimesThat's how you know it's working. Improving yourself is hard and often involves confronting parts of yourself and your life that you'd rather not think about. But avoiding self-confrontation pain is how you continue to act unhinged and drive away the people you love.
>obviously you guys have never self harmedActually nonna, I'd believe the people coming down on you hardest for self harm are recovered self-harmers. They know firsthand how bad it is and put more tough than love into their approach because they know that pussyfooting around the issue won't help.
When I did it the people who were gentle and treated me with kid gloves had never done it, the ones who told me I was being a retard and to knock it off were people who did it and since recovered.
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After months of searching for a job I finally got a job offer. It’s a tour guide company. But now that I’ve thought this through I have no fucking clue why I applied in the first place. Not only do I have autism, I also have (currently unmedicated) ADHD and immense social anxiety. I’ve been told I have a grating voice many times. On top of all that, I also have to memorize this long ass script and somehow repeat it without stuttering or trailing off mid-sentence.
I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place. This sounds like an immensely stressful job and it could lead to a potential mental breakdown but being unemployed is so demoralizing. Also, every job is stressful in some way. I’d feel ashamed and guilty if I turned down the job offer. I don’t want to be In time waster. Employers don’t like gaps on a resume. I have no idea what to do and I’m so lost.
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Thinking of getting into ai chats for sexual purposes,I wanna sext my favorite husbandos but there’s just something keeping me from doing it.
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I mostly like irl moids that have skin color and fictional characters that have my skin color. They can be whatever race, I don't care. But when they are also that it makes me weirdly magnetized towards them. This would be pretty normal, I think, but my skin color is a bit odd, so I feel guilty sometimes.
No. 2611425
>>2610384Anon I had a similar experience with a good friend and I eventually had to cut it off entirely. Yes, she has mental illness and is suffering. But you matter, too. She is not thinking about how you feel, only thinking of herself. I don't know what else to tell you, but run. Your presence may be enabling her. Your departure could help her in the long run.
Regardless, please take care of yourself because you are a real person with feelings too. Your life can't always revolve around someone else's erratic and dangerous behavior. My bpd friend, when she went absolutely off the rails, it was like mourning her death even though she is still alive. You can't maintain your own sanity when someone you care about is always on the verge of dying. It is so, so stressful and painful. You maybe need to tell her this, and definitely distance yourself. For your own overall safety.
No. 2612171
>>2611425Thank you for your thoughtful reply
nonnie. I do feel like I'm going insane as well. Just today a mutual friend started going off about how frustrated she is with her and I had to listen to it. Everyone talks about her all the time and I'm always the one listening. I'm sick of talking about her and her issues, she's poisoning my life even when she's not there.
No. 2612551
>>2612535I feel like all of us fall
victim to transfoiling/scrotefoiling eventually. I went on vacation to a tropical area recently and after a long day of walking around in the hot sun mine smelled exactly like French onion soup with really beef-heavy soup stock. It was so disturbing that I walked around the room sniffing because I thought it was something else. But no, it was me.
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>>2612115Ethan Watters has a book on that topic if you're interested.
No. 2612616
>>2612601>>2612592nayrt, I'm
>>2612551 and I don't have sex at all so now I'm confused. I have chronic UTI's (hence the celibacy) so I'm very careful about hygiene and avoiding infection. But I just definitely do give off a cooked meat or overly sweet smell when I'm sweating a lot. Is that not normal? I always assumed it was a pH thing.
No. 2612627
>>2612616you don't have to have sex to have BV, or any other vaginal issues besides pregnancy and STDs (with exclusions to those born with them or skin to skin stds)
you can get bv from soaps, wrong underwear,etc
No. 2612722
>>2612616I don’t have sex either and I got my first ever yeast infection a couple of weeks ago kek.
Sometimes it’s the material you wear, sometimes it isn’t breathing enough, sometimes it is your diet. But take antibiotics after testing nonna, you don’t have to suffer like this.
No. 2612723
I remember talking to someone on a 4chan synchtube 10 years ago, one-on-one which was a rarity. She opened up about some sexual abuse as a child, maybe the movie we'd watched reminder her. I recall I asked her if it was possible that you don't remember it all the way, but that one day the police came and arrested a man right down the road while I was wearing dress-up clothes - strange if true - on the hill outside my house, around the year a boy gave me a stuffed turtle. My mom said that he's a pedophile and to go inside and yelled at me when I asked what that meant.
I know that when I would take my scooter back from the pool, I knew where he lived and when I passed his house, and there is no reason why. I had no idea who anyone in the neighbourhood was.
And when I would go to the pool, he was often there and would play a game where he would have me go diving for a plastic turtle toy I liked. I liked diving for it underwater and seeing how fast I could get it, but he would throw it right underneath him so I would have to swim through his legs brushing up against his dick over and over again. I enjoyed it because I did a good job at it and he seemed pleased with me, and I was isolated enough that was practically the only adult I had interacted with outside my parents or teachers. One time he did this with me for over half an hour in front of my dad, and he didn't say anything nevertheless confront him. He just watched.
And that when I first heard of astral projection, I thought it was like when I saw myself on the floor with someone above me, but I couldn't reconcile what that image was. I remember most the feeling that I was on the ceiling somewhere and looking at someone, like how it is in my dreams. I never am in a body in dreams, I'm watching another body. But the image crops up in my head very rarely, and I can just never put my finger on it or keep it in my head for more than a millisecond at a time.
But anyway, the girl I was talking about this with got upset with me and said that wasn't what it was like at all and started a pretty nasty bullying campaign to shove me out of the community after that, and I have never spoken about it again, but I vaguely think about this and then shove it out of my head afterwards whenever the topic comes up in something I see.
There were other times, like at a girl's birthday party at a park and an obvious creeper van pulled up, talking a big windowless van that waited until there were no adults around to pull up. There was a woman at the passenger window who called one of the girls over to speak to them. I sat watching them and knew what it was and what would happen, and I remember I desperately wished for it like nothing else. I remember I felt like it was the right future for me and I waited for it to happen. Would have been around 7 or 8 years old. The guy I extrapolated would have got arrested when I was a bit over 8. One of the kids had run and told a parent who came running and the van left, then I got a lecture about stranger danger, and I was left desperately disappointed.
There were two other times when I was almost abducted that I remember from around that age or a bit younder. One of them was at the grocery store. I had my hands on the cart when my mom was way down the aisle. A guy came up from behind and started wheeling it away. I just put my feet up on the cart and let it happen. Nothing came of that one either as my mom saw. Don't remember what happened after that, but again, I just felt miserable that I had to go back home again. Why was I so desperately unhappy at such a young age?
I didn't tell anyone when the boy pulled his dick out, peed on the floor, and told me to step on it, or when the other boy started having our playdates be him beating me up with a stick at random intervals, because I already knew no one listened to me. And as an adult when a guy went 0 to 100 on the cartoonish, Lifetime movie tier degrees of domestic violence from the literal day I met him in person, for some reason I also simply went along with this for around four years. After that point it took a while for the count-on-one-hand number of people I knew to actually understand it didn't particularly affect me. I just didn't care. There were pros to outweigh the cons. And it's something I never think about.
If that's something I truly never bother thinking about, why is this one feeling with that guy, the astral projection, something that evokes such a strangeness if prodded?
I know I was never a virgin and always thought I am absolutely intensely disgusting and the only way I can describe it is 'not human.' I never felt like a person. Always on the outside looking in. I could go on about the rest of my life and all of the personality or psychological things that would make it seem like 'oh yes obviously she had some sex thing as a child, this is the only reasonable explanation for why this girl is like this' because that just isn't true and it isn't the topic of this post, it's basically a diversion. Some people can be like this anyway. You don't need an explanation for it. But I will always wonder if this is true and there is some reason. But isn't it the height of self-indulgence to think about it at all, or when speaking to even acknowledge the self?
Are repressed memories real, does any of this matter when it's something I literally never think about? I have a house, successful career that occupies almost all of my time, married to someone who is practically my twin, everything is fine. But I watched John Carpenter's 'The Ward' the other day and I thought I'd write something down about this.
No. 2612729
>>2612723Why the fuck were your parents letting you around this stranger?
Sometimes I really do think that certain parents have no survival skill. If I were a mom of a child, male or female, I would never let them go out of my sight until they are like 13 (to walk from school and go out with their friends at a reasonable time). I would also be weary of any male, even a relative, most pedos groom children in their vicinity so it’s often uncles and whatnot.
I’m sorry your parent failed you nonna.
No. 2612738
>>2612723When you are small your memories are jumbled in the first place. And when traumatizing stuff happens to you your mind can shut that part off for you.
I remember I always felt uncomfortable and scared while visiting my bio father when me and my mom went back to our home country (she would send me with my uncle as a chauffeur to meet him because she felt guilty that she basically abducted him and abandoned him), turns out he was a violent drunkard when we lived together kek. I still feel uncomfortable despite the fact that he is sober now and we do talk from time to time, I’d rather not to honestly, but I do it to keep my mom safe just in case.
No. 2612759
>>2612723The diving "game" you've described
was sexual abuse, and it doesn't sound at all far-fetched to say other things might have happened that you only remember subconsciously. That sounds completely reasonable to me.
I was molested when I was very young and I don't remember most of it, but the things you feel - the self-disgust, always being "weirdly" knowledgeable about sexual stuff and stranger danger, the images that are always in your head but you don't understand (like the astral projection), the constant unhappiness and feeling unclean - it all resonates. You shouldn't feel bad or selfish for having these thoughts. I am so sorry that your parents failed to protect you, nona.
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>>2612774Praying that you are found out kek. The truth will always hunt you whenever you look at your Nigel in the eyes or when he has sex with you anyway.
No. 2612795
>>2612774Classic textbook cheater
>It meant nothing!>I love my boyfriend!Good news is that he is probably or has already cheated on you too. Watch your back or your front.
No. 2612805
>>2612748What is the point of taking drugs when you are draining your savings, ruining your health and even putting yourself with sketchy men?
I am way too stingy to buy drugs kek, I’d rather spend my money on other stuff before ever buying weed, crack cocaine or pills or whatever.
Couldn’t you rub your clit out to Cole with your sadness or get a hobby or even be a neet? Why jump straight to drugs.
No. 2612815
>>2612807>repeat cheaters A cheater is always a cheater, those people never change because they will always place their selfish desires above anything else, even their jobs, their relationships and their children.
That nonna will probably come back in some other six months and say that she cheated again kek. These people are either insecure retards who will open their legs for the first scrote that gives them attention since the one they receive isn’t new anymore or they are straight up sex addicts.
No. 2612827
>>2612821People can’t even change their bad habits and you think that there’s a fat portion of cheaters who change their way? Kek.
The ones who do the work are very small and in order to do so they even take accountability and confess before even being found out. The very fact that she is hiding it and probably going to hide it forever until she is found out is proof of that. 90% or more of them never change.
No. 2612859
>>2612729They (mostly my mom) were actually extremely overprotective and I was very isolated. I think the one thing I could actually do was take my scooter to the pool that was inside the neighbourhood for residents only, or generally ride around the block on my scooter. It was that extreme naivete in some senses that I think lead to almost anyone I did manage to encounter wanting to take advantage of me to some degree. Had more or less no concept of what people did nonetheless other children or what was normal, and the wrong type of people can tell.
>>2612759I was thinking and typing out a whole reply post about like 'how can that in itself be sexual abuse when I didn't have a clue what it was and no harm was really done,' but in typing I realised I guess it's just a (significantly) lesser equivalent of jacking someone off. So I get it, just feels like massively stolen valour to the point I would definitely never say that IRL.
I appreciate your comment because hearing it does kind of make it sound like I'm just extremely in denial, which I guess is probably true, but exploring it doesn't seem particularly productive. Kind of worried that I'm going to think about it more now that I've finally typed something like this out, so seems maybe like a better idea to stop.
No. 2612862
>>2612859Nonna in no way child you could have ever known. It wasn’t your responsibility and it wasn’t your fault. Never think that. Your parents didn’t do enough and I even think that their later protectiveness stemmed from the shame of failing you in the first place.
If they had an eye on you it wouldn’t have happened.
No. 2612871
>>2612854I think you and
>>2612827 both make good points, on the one hand she needs to own up to it and take accountability in some way, but on the other hand she can also do that in private to herself and just make the commitment to never do it again. Personally I’m more in favor of telling him because it’s too easy to let yourself off the hook for your fuck-ups if no one knows about them but either way, she doesn’t need to be in that relationship right now.
No. 2612881
>>2612871To me accountability is something that is often uncomfortable because let’s face it, it’s hard to admit that you are wrong without justifying yourself in some capacity which is extremely easy to do when that “self retrospection” is solely done by yourself and the forgiveness stems from yourself kek.
All the cheaters I have seen were always like that, it was always a
>sorry butand never
>i fucked up, I own up to it and there is no justification of what I did. I should have talked to you instead of relying on someone else or I should have had the guts to break up if I wasn’t happy anymore. No. 2612964
>>2612946People like you deserve to die and I sincerely hope you die. It’s always you dumb retards who kill moms and their children or families or poor girls going back home while remaining unscathed.
I hate drunk drivers.
No. 2612970
>>2612964>don’t dogpile on her, she is suicidal And I don’t give a fuck, I have zero sympathy for people who wreak havoc in this manner. I have more sympathy for drug addicts on skid row.
If she so badly wants to die a meter of rope is 10€ and I’m sure she has a chair nearby.
No. 2613029
>>2612946>nakedwtf why were you naked. if u got caught u wud have been charged with reckless endangerment and public nudity. like did u not give a fuck some little kid might of seen that shit?
>was that a cry for helpyes you fucking moron. like leave lolcow and go to a hospital right fucking now
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>>2613044Respectfully, come back when one of your loved ones gets killed by one of these and you’d understand the kind of vile people they are through and through.
30% is a very big percentage when you consider that it’s easily preventable.
No. 2613058
>>2612946I've been suicidal and experienced psychosis and I've never felt the urge to get in a car and endanger other people in my stupid "will I or won't I" spiralling.
>Inb4 "oh good for you but everyone is different and muh mental illness"No, Hypothetical-chan, mental illness is something that needs to be managed and given a big fat reality check as soon as possible, not affirmed. The fact other people who have hit rock bottom mostly understand this just proves it's a stupid decision. PLEASE get yourself into rehab and stop driving until you're really, REALLY sure you've got your shit together. Just because
you're suicidal doesn't mean everyone else on the road is.
Also that would have been a really retarded way to commit suicide lmao imagine leaving behind a horribly mangled naked corpse with its titties out, embarrassing No. 2613070
>>2613062I can understand situations like, say, people having an episode of paranoia where they think they're being chased getting into a car and speeding off. Obviously that's still bad and they should face the consequences if they kill someone, but they genuinely believe they're in danger and their whole sense of reality is warped. And they're not thinking about the other drivers or pedestrians, they're just in blind survival mode. Being suicidal, driving like a lunatic on purpose, and thinking "I hope another driver hits me" is scumbag behaviour, even if it
is just the mental illness talking.
No. 2613073
>>2613058you clearly haven't reconciled very well with your past self if you need to cope by lashing out at someone whose rock bottom was worse than yours. Not sure what else to say. Nobody was enabling her, everyone is telling her to go to rehab / psych ward which is not unfair.
>>2613068lol and now as a I type this she comes back to admit she gets off on the abuse everyone dished out. Congrats, retards, you win this round
No. 2613076
>>2613068>is there anything i can do at this point or does this just prove im an irredeemable person?You're not irredeemable, nothing happened and you've at least come to some sort of clarity. I think most anons here just have experiences with rough mental illness themselves considering the average imageboard user
telling on myself here kek so we know that sugarcoating things isn't the best way to help, even if it sounds harsh in the moment. Just take this as the last push you need to get help.
No. 2613077
>>2613068I don’t even feel like you understand the gravity of what you did. It’s not a matter of receiving hate or anything. You should already realize that you are an alcoholic, a full blown alcoholic. You should repeat it out loud to yourself.
Go to a site (even TikTok) where people share the stories of their closed ones that got killed by a drunk driver and you’ll grasp how bleak it is. A bunch of nonnas telling you that you are a retard won’t work.
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>>2613068I'm not here to tell you that you're a terrible person, because you're going to get off on that and use it as fuel to stagnate or get worse. No. You are better than this so fucking do better. Until you do better, you will forever feel like a demon in a skin suit.
No. 2613086
>>2613073>Lashing outI'm gonna say this bluntly: "being kind" about serious situations like this, where someone's behaviour puts lives at risk, doesn't work. It's SUPPOSED to be uncomfortable when you're confronted with the reality of your mental illness, especially if it's that severe. That is literally the only way you will ever feel motivated to change. I honestly don't have any ill will towards the OP and I'm glad she didn't die, I just really want her to realise that she needs to take action AND what could have happened to her. I wasn't exaggerating, it really
would have been that bad.
>Encouraged to go to rehabRead my post again, that's exactly what I said.
No. 2613111
>>2613068>is there anything i can do at this point or does this just prove im an irredeemable person? is there any coming back from this at all?you are still fixated on yourself and don't sound like genuinely understand the seriousness of what you've done and that you might have killed people. "a-am i a good person?" you know the answer, it's no. try looking at stories of people killed by drunk drivers. but first dump out all your alcohol and do not buy any more.
>i wasnt trying to kill myself at least not intentionally i just said that looking back when trying to understand why i did it. this sounds like parasuicide which is a bpd behavior. get dbt and a therapist, and stop driving for a while if you can for it to sink in you tried to kill other people. i don't know what the fuck is wrong with you, what specific mental issues or trauma you have, but get it together.
No. 2613149
>>2613139These are her posts so far I think
>>2613113>>2613044She is really battling down for an hypothetical killer kek. The only reason she didn’t kill someone on the road is sheer luck.
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One time, when no one was looking I-
Oh shit is this a bad time
No. 2613168
>>2613139nah give that anon
>>2613113their flowers bc they nailed it. she didn’t come here for advice or sympathy she came here to get cooked. she’s not trying to process what happened she’s trying to offload the guilt by getting absolutely dogwalked in a public space. like “look i’m a disgusting piece of shit please tell me i’m disgusting so i don’t have to feel bad on my own.” it’s easier to be punished by strangers than to sit alone and actually deal with what you did. she’s outsourcing shame bc if she gets screamed at enough she can be like “ok i’ve suffered now i don’t have to go to therapy or change anything.” textbook emotional avoidance but with audience participation.
like be serious. naked, drunk, high-speed highway meltdown then hops online like “am i suicidal or just quirky lol”? she already knows it was fucked she just wants someone else to say it so she doesn’t have to be the one holding it. and y’all are feeding it bc you think this is raw honesty or some deep moment but really it’s just attention-seeking disguised as self-awareness. it’s not new. it’s not bold. it’s just another sad girl trying to turn her breakdown into a redemption arc without doing any of the actual work.
again. that anon saw it immediately. expert diagnosis. someone pin that shit.
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>>2613172Wait a damn minute…
No. 2613193
>>2613184If I have to go away within two hours I don’t drink at all and if I have more spare time I might just have a single glass at the start and that’s it. So it depends.
It really isn’t hard to control yourself, but I guess addicts are different? But I would also say that alcoholics tend to build a tolerance so even if they drink a lot they aren’t truly drunk but inebriated and therefore capable of choosing not to be behind the wheel. I really don’t see any kind of excuse behind being shitfaced and driving.
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I ask men on dating apps how big their dicks are and block them if they respond with their size regardless how small or big they are.I don’t even use the apps for “dating” (because no one does that anymore),it’s just a little game to me.
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>>2612535my confession is i want to shower with a cute guy. picrel me when i crave heterosexual contact
No. 2613602
Kiwifarms actually influenced one of my biggest life decisions. I followed a lot of medical cows there, specifically Jahi McMath, and learned about the horrors of keeping brain dead people on life support. My dad went into a coma a few years ago, and my brother and I were asked if we wanted to keep him on life support. I said no, influenced by those threads. I knew that if his mind wasn't there, then whatever was left was just an empty shell. It was a body, and keeping a body alive when the person is gone is futile and horrible. I distinctly remember the discussion about how Jahi (and other brain dead patients) were incapable of recovery or survival off of life support, how their bodies continued to decay, how their brains would calcify over time, and I decided to let my dad go. A death with dignity is more important than making me feel better from keeping a body warm. Whatever made him him was long gone, and it was cruel to all of us to keep him around for selfish purposes or vain hope.
No. 2614106
>>2614060Nona you have the
wrong person kek. I post my bullshit in the original creations every now and then. I'm not god, but it's legit a boost to my self esteem. Why are you so angry?
>>2614083What is this logic? They are a step above stick figures and they're moids. Let me have my fun.
No. 2614301
>>2614260That’s super common
nonny, especially for women. I got through that period by telling myself that no man would doubt himself like that and would just use it as an excuse to do even less. You’re doing great
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>>2613385I didn't mind the other responses but being accused of being Todd Howard makes me wish I could take my post back.
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>>2613168i tried several ai detectors and im shocked this post comes up at 0% ai each time. i refuse to believe someone actually speaks like this.
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2 years later and im still mad i forgot to reuse my 2017 calendar in 2023
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>>2614870I'll share my bullshit!!
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wish i'd spent all the years i put into writing into art. i've definitely improved from where i first began but i wonder if i'll ever be as good as those i admire
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>>2615102touhou artists are next level
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>>2615185fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
No. 2615198
>>2615187I feel the opposite. I come here because it serves as a reminder that my life’s actually pretty good all things considered. Could always be worse. It keeps me grateful.
Why do you see yourself as a loser though?
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Seeing ugly girls and trannies wearing Lolita de-motivates me from wearing it tbh. It’s mean but I’ve honestly never seen a fashion that attracted so many ugly people. I’m not ready to give it up yet but this is one of the reasons why I don’t participate in comms
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>>2616086the queen is the only white woman who should wear lolita
No. 2616170
>>2616167Not to mention every other fashion has rules, they just don't always need to be said.
For example "pink polo shirts aren't goth" does not need to be written down as a "rule" because most people getting into goth fashion intuitively understand that.
I was into mod fashion briefly and there are only a handful of things that really count as mod. You can't just wear anything
Lolitas and wannabe lolitas are the only people autistic enough to get assblasted over this basic concept that everyone else understands without issue
No. 2616196
>>2616086Imo I think ugly people wear it because they think it will make them cute, but it's actually that you have to look "cute" before wearing it and Lolita fashion accentuates that.
It's like the swimmers body myth, men don't look like a swimmer because they swim, just that swimming favours longer and slimmer bodies so that's who stays in the sport. If they're stocky they would be better at rugby, while slimmer men can't handle being tackled by a guy built like a fridge and instead would be better suited for swimming etc etc.
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>>2616182>>2616186>You don't have to wear it if you don't want to>I WOULD RATHER KILL MYSELF THAN EVER TOUCH YOUR FILTHY DISGUSTING GARMENTSI…okay? Glad we agree? Why are anons so mad about nothing today kek
No. 2616549
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I've been incredibly horny for 2006 AFYCSO Brendan Urie recently. Men need to wear eyeliner again.
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>>2616583WRONG I need a man with fat lips.
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>>26166212:05am bar leftovers
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>>2616621kek i was looking for pictures and i forgot about these retarded lj pics
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ok normally I don't like short-form copypastas, or even find them annoying but for some fucking reasons "they can never make me hate you [name]!!" gets me every time. I'd say I'm ashamed because I know I should be, but I'm not…
No. 2616760
(massive novel incoming/posted in another thread but realized this thread is probably more appropriate) Idk if im a sperg or just severely socially inept or something, but I have always had an extremely hard time connecting with and understanding people. and i feel like its intensified as ive gotten older (even though im only 20). point being, when i find someone i feel like i genuinely understand, i tend to form semi unhealthy attachments to them. Not like BPD levels of codependency or obsession or anything bc im still someone that heavily prioritizes independence and privacy, but i do get kinda fixated on them. Fixated to the point where i have a difficult time distinguishing when a line is being crossed, or when something isnt healthy or normal about the friendship/relationship. Which leads me to my current situation and why im writing about it here.
I have a cousin, technically hes my first cousin once removed. He wasnt incredibly present during my upbringing, but we always got along well and had a good time together on the occasions i did see him. Back around January of this year, we began rekindling over a hobby that both of us share, and since then our connection just took off. We are cut from the exact same cloth. I dont really know how to explain it over a text, but even family members have pointed out how we are exactly the same. I feel like I can actually…breathe? around him? like all my fears of saying the wrong thing or being too weird or too loud or annoying or a burden just go away and i feel like i can just exist when im around him. we share the same stupid sense of humor but hes also an incredible confidant and knows how to have a serious conversation when appropriate. i could go on but i think you get the gist.
This is where things get gray. Last week he had just gotten back from a long work trip, so we hung out a quite a bit. The third time i came over to hang out that week I decided to just crash at his place for the night. We initially were watching TV on his living room couch but its hot as fuck where i live right now and the ac in his living room didnt work that well, so we eventually got sick of the heat and went to his room, which was a lot cooler. We were laying kinda far apart watching tv but every so often his arm would slightly fall onto my arm or leg. We rough house kinda often and hug and stuff so physical touch wasnt that weird or alien to us. Eventually whatever we were watching ended and we were tired so he shut the tv off and got back in bed. i was laying with my back to him, and he eventually turned over and began spooning me. And i mean… i liked it. Im not romantically attracted to him but it felt right. Like when i cuddled my brother or dad as a kid. Just a feeling of comfort and safety washing over you. And we held each other pretty much the whole night, and he ran his fingers through my hair and squeezed me and kissed my head a few times.
I have an incredibly difficult time predicting peoples thoughts and intentions. The reason im writing about this isnt because its particularly bothering me, in fact i want to do it again, but im just curious as to how people on the outside would look at it. Is this bad? Slightly odd but not incredibly weird given context? The most disgusting and perverted thing youve ever read? Be honest and call me whatever you want because maybe im insane for liking this.
TLDR WHAT ARE YOUR THOUGHTS ON ADULT COUSINS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX CUDDLING
No. 2616787
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I like my boyfriend a lot because he looks underage.
No. 2616887
>>2616805>If you’re not romantically interested in himA-anon….what do you mean
if?
No. 2616948
>>2616760Are you seriously in love with your cousin kekkkkk
>20You are too old to be groomed and since you haven’t been in contact with him years priors I would not call it that. It’s more like you have a crush on your cousin, you know it’s wrong and feel ashamed about it, so you are blaming it on your autism and BPD, while engaging in whatever you guys are doing kek
No. 2616953
>>2616949I think kissing your distant cousin secretly at a family reunion when you’re hitting puberty or something is one thing. Dating is too far. You could date literally anyone else
>>2616951Wow, it gets worse
No. 2617088
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to be fair from my highschool level of understanding I don't understand what's wrong with inbreeding on a genetic level and I doubt anyone here could manage to explain why "bad stuff happens" in these cases
like all I can understand is that if it's done repeatedly over many generations that makes it an evolutionary disadvantage but that's about it
No. 2617122
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>>2617115https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC10924896/There. In countries where cousin fucking is high, birth defects are also high.
No. 2617132
>>2617122something something correlation, something causation
I'm asking for a sensible explanation, not just "this random third world country have AIDS" or whatever
No. 2617148
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>>2617142but that's such a weird mechanism, like you carry faulty genes that gets overridden by someone else's, unless it's your own? at least the evolutionary/social aspect is straightforward enough (see pic) but the genetics never made much sense to me
No. 2617156
>>2617142Person A is Dd and Brother A is Dd
Person B is Ee
d = Retard gene, e = schizo gene
Person A and Brother A have a 25% chance of making Supreme Retard dd
Person A and Person B have 0% chance to
trigger schizo or retard genes and have normal children
This is also why mixed people have less genetic disorders and generally genetically more robust
No. 2617161
>>2617132Abby and Ben are related, and both of them share a recessive gene for a genetic disorder. If they have sex and produce a child, there is a high chance that the child will be born with the disorder. If they do not inherit the disorder, it is very likely that they will be a recessive carrier for the disorder like their parents.
Now let's say that Abby has a child with Jordan, who is not related to her. Jordan does not carry any genes relating to this genetic disorder, which means that any child that Abby has with Jordan will not inherit the disorder. At most, that child will be a recessive carrier for the disorder like Abby is, but will not actually have the disorder because none of the genes received from Jordan are related to that disorder.
TL;DR: Don't fuck your relatives because your kids are more likely to get crap like Tay-Sachs. You're welcome.
No. 2617188
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>>2617172Not quite, because evolution doesn't work that way. Nothing is "more" or "less" evolved because nature doesn't work with a long-term plan. Dominant and recessive genes just mean which gene is going to be expressed (for instance, brown eyes are dominant and blue eyes are recessive. So if someone has a Bb (one brown one blue eye gene), they're going to have brown eyes.) Most genetic disorders are recessive and a lot of them impact your ability to reproduce, so you most commonly see them occurring when two carriers (a person who has the gene, but not the disorder) get together and have kids without testing their genes. Your relatives are more likely to be carriers for the same genetic disorders as you, which is why you don't want to fuck your family. Picrel shows how this works with eye color, albeit simplified.
No. 2617302
>>2617295I feel you nonna. My dad put every household responsibility onto my mom and only interacted with us to be the "fun parent" (give us soda and candy and games etc) while she had to teach us and make us do chores and take us to school and the doctors and feed us. He still sees himself as a
victim that everyone is sooo mean to. I wish she would just leave him
No. 2617403
>>2617339Yeah, that's kind of how I felt about my parents relationship. He's not a saint, but she flies off the handle way too much. she was also a stay at home mom and despite that he still did a lot of household chores and tasks. He would make breakfast every morning, vacuum, do dishes every night, feed the pets and all sorts of stuff. I think she just wanted him to be at her neck and call 24/7. I always wished they would divorce.
But now it's fucking me up to get these accusations when I don't think I'm anything like her. I also work full time and do many more chores. I just don't understand why when you ask a guy for something they agree and then don't do it. How is taking a year to do something an acceptable timeline anywhere else? I can understand my mom's frustrations better now when I look back.
No. 2617543
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I've decided I'm going to slowly distance myself and eventually ghost my online friends of many years. Avoiding social media even for a day just felt so freeing. I hope I can return to my normal self when I finally detach from them completely. I think I am just meant to be alone in this life, it feels a lot better.
No. 2618092
>>2617885kek same. I just see my height as normal. I don't like the "tiny baby" thing as it is, but there is a bit of stolen valour there kek.
(Hyperbole for the autistic women at home). The more radical thing is to act confused when people call you short.
No. 2618095
>>2618074New inspiration to prevent self harm urges
But it also makes my scars itch
No. 2619150
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i eat 3 fiber bars a day because they taste like straight CRACK to me. I need to stop though, I'm getting fat as fuck
No. 2619169
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>Didnt give a fuck about gamergate or what it was
>moids still sperg out about it to this day
>still don’t give a fuck about it
>nothing relating to it has happened
No. 2619170
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>>2618070You probably look like this by the way and they are probably thinking
>um why is she staring at me and not answering?? No. 2619372
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I used to feel guilty about masturbating because I thought that my dead relatives were watching me and looming over me at night. So I never masturbated until I was 17.
No. 2619770
>>2619764It just sounds like it would become awkward like
>>2619170 kek if he's not in on the joke
No. 2620006
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I've been off lolcow because of family reunions, and I realized how toxic the art salt threads are. I think I'm just gonna stick to posting occasionally on /m/. Life is going pretty well so far, and focusing on "begs" has not helped me with my art at all. This month has had the least amount of lc lurking while also being the most productive I've been with my art. It's a peaceful existence out there anons.
No. 2620112
>>2620110Why if live with them you're trapped with either abuse or a sex pest that won't leave you the fuck alone
Being rid of them is heaven
No. 2620156
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>>2620006My last experience made me never click on that shithole thread again, the IQ is low af fuck there. I'm doing the same as you right now and I'm getting payed. Life is better without salty nonnas from there.
No. 2620160
>>2620120The Covid timeline was a character development arch for nonna
>it made me racistHow and what do you mean by racist against everyone? When I think about other ethnicities I never get racism because it’s always scrotes who are shitty or it’s the religion itself, but I also think that Catholicism is shitty too. When a racist explains why he is racist it always ends up being kind of stupid and just prejudiced.
I am personally black and not a burger so it might be that, but what I have realized for myself is that there is no allyship between minorities either kek , they all strive to be the token minority in a way. Maybe being prejudiced is ingrained in humans who knows, I even think that if we were the same color we would still find differences kek.
No. 2620162
>>2620107I just think that you don’t find men super attractive because men aren’t that attractive in the first place. I am hetero too and the
Scrotes that made me go “WOW” can be counted with a single hand kek.
No. 2620250
>>2620160Agreed. Even if everyone was white or another ethnicity, they would then start divisions over something else stupid like hair texture or eye color.
People think I am racist because I hate Islam and say edgy things. Truthfully I just hate all religion as they are misogynistic and systems of control and oppression.
No. 2620438
>>2620160kek
>How and what do you mean by racist against everyone?ayrt I started noticing how the kindness towards me (I am also black but am a burger) was immediately revealed as artificial, and the stress everyone had gone through widdled away their common courtesies towards one another disappeared. The way even my own friends referred to my race or other races and themselves as the better (none of them white), just rubbed me the wrong way. It was constant and consistent, and to cope I started trying to poke holes in their inflated self-importance. Religion, country-specific customs, corrupted leaders, willfully ignorance opinions of others, things of that nature. I wanted to insist that it was strictly men, but I began to be exposed to women who agreed with the men or supported them. Not to mention the villification of straight women was exposed to me at this time (I had believed everything was fine if we supported each other), and I was forced into arbitrary political boxes by those I spoke to. It was a mess and left me bitter.
Effectively, I am positive I can find something wrong with everyone I'll ever meet and never can see past it and see their individual self. It saddens me. (I pretend people online art animals with keyboards so that I can like them more kek)
No. 2620778
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He was my first 2D crush
No. 2621062
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I have been posting in this imageboard for almost 6 years and I actually don't know what most of the cows sound like. I refuse to listen to them talking, if I can't read what they're saying I just don't have that information in my brain, kek.
No. 2621072
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While drinking for two, I’m going to be chugging a fuck ton of soju so the kid gets fetal alcohol syndrome. I want a wasian baby.(racebait)
No. 2621099
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>>2621072Every time I see this face all I can think of are the live action Whos
No. 2621255
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I hate moids, but i hate women even more because most of my negative personal experiences have been with other women and it sometimes make me frustrated that i can't harm the women that make me feel so worthless. The thing stopping me is purely that i don't want my digital footprint to be revealed nor do i want to be on TV. I'd be in the common area having a panic attack because i look ugly on TV. I'd freak out in court if i hear the person i killed family talk about how lovely they were. The fact that i wrote all of this means i can never commit murder.
No. 2621512
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>>2621510If they truly loved you, they wouldn't want your money, they'd only want you. Cut them off, anon.
No. 2621693
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This is something that I'm deeply ashamed of and I want to get it off of my chest. Throughout my childhood, I had a lot of different pet turtles. All of them died, probably partially due to improper care and partially due to being from the flea market (shady breeders). The last turtle I owned is one I feel very guilty about, because it was directly my fault that it died. When I was around 10/11, I started developing OCD and one of my first hyperfixations was salmonella. I was awfully afraid of it, I thought it was a death sentence. I released the turtle I had at the time into the wood, simply because turtles can carry salmonella. My mother was absolutely pissed at me (she had every right to be) and made me go look for him, but it was night and it was practically impossible to find him. At the time, I didn't know I had OCD. Now knowing what I have, I know how ridiculous and idiotic I was. I feel terrible for this, especially because I now love animals more than I ever have. I have pets right now that also carry salmonella, if I owned them at that age it could've been them that I released into the woods. I know I was young and didn't have nefarious intentions, but ultimately it was cruel. To that little turtle, I'm sorry. I hope you're somewhere better now.
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I really like it when a daughter is the exact copy of their mom, it’s very cute. Like she gave birth to herself, go binary scission!
No. 2622427
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>>2621849Omg, it is the same for me. I returned to my mother's after destroying my love relationship with my subhuman alcoholic behavior. I have no self-control; I've had so many blackouts, lost consciousness so many times, and disgraced myself in public so frequently… I told her everything tonight, and she is taking me to see an addiction specialist on Monday. Nonna, we'll both get through this!
No. 2622781
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>>2621847holy shit you are so weak imagine caring what men who jack off to loli hentai think. Some of you are such pushovers, its pathetic.