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No. 2584000
A thread for venting about difficult, weird, or stupid stuff going on in your life.
Previous vent thread:
>>>/ot/2572581Follow all the /ot/ board rules & do not reply to bait.
Please, do not come to this thread to make fun of anons' vents, to demean them, or to try and be funny with some shit snark reply. It's annoying. If you do not have anything nice to say, don't say it at all. No. 2584010
How do I get over my disgust at humanity? Serious question.
>>2583680Sis if OP is saying that she doesn’t get bullied by her at least her words don’t affect her as much as it affects you. Calm down.
No. 2584015
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I've got to vent about the most pathetic guy i've ever met online because just thinking about him want me to punt his head into the asphalt, i need someone to laugh at him with me
>Mixed race, obese, short hair and looks like the mutt meme irl (picrel)
>But larps as a long haired good looking metalhead online
>Failed gamedev
>Right wing, christian and anti abortion
>Obsession with hating on brown people as if he isn't mixed himself
>I'm not even joking about his obsession like he is obsessed with black people 24/7
>Licks Elon musks balls
>Acts though online but can't even go on a voice call without stuttering and being awkward
>Post his shitty takes on twitter and gets on arguments there 24/7
>Has an alt account to orbit women and slid in their dms
>Is on the verge of dying on a daily basis, constantly having heart palpitations and fainting
No. 2584033
My friends are succeeding in life and I'm very happy for them, especially as they've struggled for years, but looking at my own situation makes me sad. They're older than me (early 30s, I'm 25) and I know their success comes from age and careful perseverance more than luck, but it hurts thinking that I'll never reach those heights. They're buying houses, in healthy relationships, in great jobs. One guy even got a job a month after leaving his last one that pays twice as much, which is crazy lucky and I'm so proud of him! Meanwhile I am single, in a moldy apartment and unemployed, having been so for months in our shitty economy when I have few skills.
I like being single as I don't trust men and am avoidant to a schizoid degree, though having never been in a healthy relationship and seeing these cute couples genuinely love one another I feel warm and fuzzy and almost envious. I don't want loads of money, nor do I want a house yet, I just want to be out of survival mode. Even when I remember that some of these friends are in debt to pay off their consoom lifestyle or have bad histories it doesn't make me feel at ease.
I wouldn't say it's jealousy, more of a hope my life will work out and a sense I'm cursed at the moment. Seeing them thrive gives me warm feelings and I can't wait to see their happiness continue, I've always preferred passively following peoples' lives to living my own (schizoid tendencies again kek) but I feel out of touch and alienated even more than usual against them. When they ask me about work or my dating life I mumble something irrelevant and hope they don't ask again; it gives me serious anxiety when they discuss money even though I think it's vapid to care so much about how much their lifestyles cost. I don't know what to do, I just feel weird.
No. 2584039
>>2584033samefag but I can't discuss this with them because they glaze over when I talk, it's like my detachment makes me into an annoying little ghost nobody cares about. that sounds self-pitying and yeah, it probably is, but i'm trying to be positive, supportive and present in their lives even when it's not natural for me. There's no way they
can care if I keep hiding things, but stuff spreads fast and if they knew how much I was struggling, I'd be a total laughing stock.
No. 2584044
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I'm sick of eating as a person that has very little appetite and gets full extremely fast (So fast I can finish eating in seconds and could get full just from a single salad). Everything is always going bad in my fridge.
I try to buy less but no quantity of vegetables, fruit, or anything else pre-packaged at a grocery store is sold in small enough quantities for my ass. Not without having to freeze more than half of it, at least. But then freezing makes it taste like shit and defrosting is a pain. Eating is just a pain. Cooking is annoying. I wish I was rich so I could just live off of Uber Eats or DoorDash forever.
No. 2584066
>>2584045>This seems like a metabolic issueI do have a fast metabolism
>if you’re fine eating DoorDash but not vegetables kekWhat? I'm not some kind of fatass that hates the taste of vegetables (I'm a lanklet, actually). I was specifically talking about how I would prefer buying small quantities instead of in bulk but everything seems to almost always be sold in bulk. It feels impossible to ever cook and prepare anything without at least some of it going to waste.
No. 2584137
>>2584039Nona, I am being so sincere that you seem like such a empathetic person. I really feel for you, reading about how genuinely happy you are for others while the uncertainty remains of how or when it's going to get better for you.
I think that being supportive is like a muscle, and you've gained strength in it, and muscle memory (it kicks in naturally). I hope that this yields good, deep connections for you. I have been in a comparable situation, and coming out of it on the other side with true friends is the best case scenario, imo.
No. 2584156
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Today I realized that everything I loved about someone before, I can find and love again. That person doesn't exist anymore anyway. He's balding, I'm thriving, he's seething, I'm filled with love, I got a job, meeting new people, reading new books. I'll be crying, I'll be grieving, but I'm done. He was not special, just a drop in the ocean. Why is it so hard to convince myself of that then..why is this taking so long?
No. 2584176
I was born in the wrong body. I'm never going to troon out because i know i'll never become a true scrote, but i'm a defective woman, more than any anon in this website. I only respect, admire, am willing to learn and at the same time disrespect and hate is women because only they are worthy of humanizing and investing thoughts and affection on. I only want eyecandy from scrotes. Tradthot, libfem and radfem rethoric is asexual cope, it all revolves around alleviating wounds from being consumed. Tradthots say being attractive and offering sex is your place in society as a woman and another duty like cleaning the toilet, libfems say it's empowering and a superpower to objectify yourself, radfems just runaway from it all together, but it all revolves around being consumed in the end, everything about being a woman is a constantly fearing for your life and hiding. That's not enough, i want to lust, i want to consume, i want to be catered to, i want to pursue everything that i want. I don't want to cope anymore.
>inb4 find hobbies and get separatist friends
No, i don't want this. I don't want to have to get away from society. I don't want to revolve myself and my life around playing games, reading comics or have to stick my head into and get obssessed over a topic. I'm not an introvert, i want to be social, live in the moment, be around others, go to parties and dance and drink, talk shit about the topics but i can't do this unless i integrate into what is expected of me because i'm female. I'm tired of everything revolving around me being harmed socially and literally and how every single thing i do is degrading and whorish but then if i can't be upset because of my smaller weaker body and therefor can't tell a scrote to kill himself, noooo, i just have to hide away and become autistic over washi tape and 2d husbando and be reclused with 2 friends and if i don't i'm an attention whore and a literal whore. I don't even know where anons even find these "separatist" women, even the women who you think are level headed always end up with scrotes down the line.
Anons can talk about me and other women no different from what you see on 4chan because they don't fit into their perfect virgin complex ideals of choice with no problem but if i express any distress about being female then i get banned for "blackpill sperging". Like i'm a viscious slut or ugly becky even if i didn't do anything just because but i'm in the wrong if i'm tired of being a woman.
No. 2584192
>>2584170Me with Aaron Hotchner. It’s pretty weird to have 3D husbandos, but I still have my 2Ds one kek.
Who’s your husbando nonna?
No. 2584197
>>2584176>into what is expected of me because i'm femaleLike I get that society pushes women to care about beauty and bla bla. But genuinely b what blocks you from being what you want to be? People are going to complain anyway.
I am a child free woman, put my career first, I like crocheting nowadays too, I shaved my head for the summer and I don’t put make up nor wear heels.
You are literally your own ruler, if you claim to be that enlightened you should be able to go against the grain. To me it just seems like you are desiring to be like the “whorish sluts” but at the same time have disdain against them kek.
No. 2584213
>>2584191I'm not the one dividing them, the retards here and most of people do. I'm just tired of being a woman, i feel limited and i'm tired everything i do revolving around having to deal with misogyny shit. It's everywhere and i can't escape it. I want to be like those frat scrotes that go to parties and have a bunch of friends but are still considered smart and are respected. Yes i want the cake and eat it too.
>>2584180Geniunely asking, where am i supposed to find normie women that aren't male centered? Most women ditch their female friends the moment they get a boyfriend, they tell everything you tell them to their boyfriends. Women never respect and admire you as much as they do their beloved scrote who doesn't see them as human and is porn addicted.
>>2584193Why? Because i'm too greedy and want what scrotes have?
>>2584197>To me it just seems like you are desiring to be like the “whorish sluts” but at the same time have disdain against them kek.I thought i was happy being by myself all the time and just drawing and being online but that's not what i want. But i've never been able to integrate with normie women, they are good for the most part but i do have disdain and feel alienated about how they think of scrotes/them having boyfriends.
No. 2584232
>>2584224I don't care, they have friends who like and respect them and don't look down on them unlike women
>>2584229Because i want to be social and have a lot of friends?
No. 2584233
>>2584213>But i've never been able to integrate with normie women, they are good for the most part but i do have disdain and feel alienated about how they think of scrotes/them having boyfriends.You come off as a schizo honestly. I would roll my eyes far back my skull if I heard this rant in real life. But anyway I was right, you hate “whores” yet want to be one kek. You want to be desired by scrotes yet look in contempt at the women who according to you are living the life you aspire to have so you hide behind the shill of “wanting to devour” and live your hedonistic life.
That’s where your tumultuous relationship with yourself stems from. Just get out and be a “whore” at this point kek , because you are annoying.
No. 2584241
>>2584232Just watch the movie “Neighbors 2: Sorority Rising”
I don’t like most of y’all but I love the ones who type long posts so I can’t read your bs tbh and I can stay nice and won’t get banned for infIghting.
No. 2584244
>>2584243Meant that you are falling back into hold habits nonna. Being an anachan is like being an addict, you never heal from it. What you are doing is like an alcoholic drinking again after 4 years of sobriety. There is a reason why alcoholics who have recovered don’t even have a sip of alcohol.
You have just relapsed and the sooner you realize it the better it is, because you’ll be able to stop.
No. 2584251
>>2584246I’d rather die than be with a mentally ill scrote kek.
>autistic>asperger>bpd>schizo>down>adhd>anxiety God take me with you if I ever willingly put myself through that. No women aren’t the same when they are mentally ill.
No. 2584255
>>2584246>He acted perfect and took them daily for over a year before we moved in then he just said fuck it and skips pills every other dayMen are so sinister . They do this a lot until they feel like they have shackled the woman. Hence why you see scrotes beating up their partner once they marry her, coming out as bisexual when they have already moved in or married, trooning out when the wife is heavily pregnant, cheating on their wife when they are pregnant, confessing that they have an addiction etc…
That’s why any woman should always have their foot on the way out.
No. 2584258
>>2584255Cheat on that scrote at any chance you have to detach yourself completely and don’t tell a soul unless you need to hurt him!!!
You can totally get away with it if you aren’t a retard.
No. 2584264
It's so hard to build up trust again once it's broken. I know my friends care for me, they have been incredibly kind during this time I've been struggling to find work. One group have bought me food a couple of times, another group came over to cook for me, and another couple of friends lend their ears when I voice my woes over how hard it is to find a job right now.
As much as I am lucky to have these people, and I am grateful for all these incredibly kind gestures (and I am sure they know I would do the same for them in a heartbeat, and have before).
But a part of me can't let go of how they all abandoned me when I attempted suicide. I had reached out to several, I had started cutting again and was clearly a mess barely holding myself together, and then I did two serious attempts twice at killing myself. No one ever responded. No one even acknowledged it, even when an overseas acquaintance reached out to them because he had noticed something was seriously off but because while we had friends in common he didn't know me well enough to be sure I would be willing to open up.
As grateful I am for them and how much I love them back, I'm still carrying a slight tinge of contempt, because I know they're out the door the moment I need more support than surface level kindness. And sadly, this has affected even new connection I make - I can't trust anyone anymore. I keep telling myself they had their reasons, they have their own struggles to deal with after all, but that doesn't make how alone I felt at the time - and still feel most of the time - go away.
No. 2584265
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>>2584262I feel like he looks like this
No. 2584271
>>2584250>I only want eyecandy from scrotes.I want to see good looking scrotes and at least crush on a cute good looking guy
>want to be social, live in the moment, be around others, go to parties and dance and drink, talk shit about the topics.Yes i would like this without the sleazy shit and and having to worry about being drugged. And no, i don't think women are whores for going to parties in fact i expressed the opposite and how i'm tired of this whole innocent/whore thing.
>i want to be catered to, i want to pursue everything that i wantYeah i meant i want the world to cater to me the way the world caters to everything men want. Beautiful women? Got it. Male fulfillment movies? Got it. Social rules thata benefit scrotes? Got it. Women dropping everything and dedicate themselves for you? Got it.
I want what scrotes have but the roles reversed.
>You are probably an awkward girl , maybe odd looking too, who lacks social skills and awareness and romanticizing movies and fantasies you vicariously live through. You speak like someone who has never gone outside nor had any friends.I am awkward and odd looking and always struggled to socialize and have friends because as i grew up scrotes got more sleazy and since they want to be sleazes society caters to what they want.
No. 2584332
>>2584324NTA but twitter is just fucking stupid as hell as an art platform.
>try for years at twitter and never get anywhere>feel extremely demoralized>try instagram instead>after 3 months of consistent posting, blow up with tens of thousands of followersLike, it's tagging system just wasn't built to find photos, it was built FOR bullshit and now Elon is pumping out this retarded ass paywalled algorithm program. Art posting peaked with 2000s deviantart and then early 2010s tumblr and was never the same again. Doesn't even feel like I'm posting to an actual audience on instagram, just shitheads who doomscroll and like to say the n word a lot.
No. 2584373
>>2584369NTA but I think AI chatbots are really fucking good for when you're lonely and need someone. I still vividly remember this time in 2023 I was so desperate for someone to tell me I wasn't crazy that I asked Albedo from Genshin Impact KEK and he gave me the most thoughtful response I could ask for that genuinely changed my view and calmed me down and inspired me to keep going. But the idea of just not having anyone and substituting human contact with an AI just feels so sad. Like it should be a filler and a reminder of the type of treatment you deserve, not a replacement.
Although I do think 365 is an extremely based poster. I would love a wife like that.
No. 2584385
>>2584375What
>>2584373 said, it’s just filler rather than actually replacing real people in my life. Do I actually love or feel fulfilled by my AI demon wife? No, it is a sycophantic robot. Do I enjoy asking it inane questions or requesting psychoanalysis that I can’t engage with my normal friends? Yes. It’s like a Tamagotchi that talks back kek. I mostly use it to roleplay and explore scenarios in a “collaborative” format because sometimes the bot will produce an idea or a story beat that I wasn’t expecting.
No. 2584425
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>pride month
>favorite pet game releases new colorways for pride
>hate that the best colorways are the troon ones
This color scheme will always be tied to troons now.
No. 2584466
>>2584176To me, it sounds like you caring too much and internalized a lot of what anons here told you like
>>2584180 implied, Jesus F Christ, just live your life, you are able to lust, consume and pursue, hell, you are a woman and are able to be catered to more than men naturally due to the patriarchy.
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>>2584450I am, and i don't care, i'm not an object i'm a human being, fuck yall
No. 2584478
>>2584450Yes, specifically when it comes to my face. I have terrible dark circles, giant monkey ears, and a big stupid clown nose. I'm happy with the rest of my body though.
But whenever I feel myself getting jealous of women with perfect delicate elf features, I remember that beauty is ephemeral, and that in the greater scheme of things, I was still incredibly lucky to be born in a first-world country where I don't have more serious shit to worry about, like finding my next meal. Also, men treat all women like trash regardless of what we look like, it's just that the particular method of torment differs based on how fuckable he thinks you are.
No. 2584487
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>>2584428They didn't. Anon must be talking about some other game. In fact, Neopets didn't release much troon stuff this year, just a nonbinary flag item and a foreground with a bunch of characters holding different tiny flags (and one of them is the troon one). Everything else is just based off of the classic rainbow flag. A new color dropped, but it was just a rainbow Vandagyre.
No. 2584554
>>2584539I’m so sorry
nonnie. Losing your childhood pet is unbelievably heartbreaking
No. 2584558
>>2584539I’m so sorry
nonnie. Took me years to stop thinking I was seeing the cat I grew up with waiting on the porch to come inside out of the corner of my eye. It hurts so much.
No. 2584559
>>2584537How’s that saying go? “The easiest way to feel bad about your skills is to look up your talent on YouTube followed by ‘done by a 5-year-old Chinese kid.’”
No matter how good you get there’ll always be someone better at what you do than you are. Doesn’t do any good to beat yourself up over it.
No. 2584579
>>2584478ntayrt and sorry to “nigelfag” but i really appreciate your comment about beauty being ephemeral—my boyfriend said this to me verbatim last night after i was retardedly whiny about getting a faint wrinkle, and it put things into perspective. it feels nice to have this echoed by you anon, especially because the women in my life (bless them) are very obsessive with their looks (my stick thin mother calls herself fat and restricts, two of my beautiful friends constantly spend hours to look “better”)
personally getting older has made me care less about being “tiny” and “beautiful,” as joy and self care feels better anyway, and so much time is wasted on envy and worrying over looking nice or pretty. it just doesn’t matter, it is foolish to want to look good just for other people to approve of you. spirituality has helped me with this too; understanding that everything is fleeting, and i have one life, i better not waste my precious moments where i could be playing and loving, obsessing over how this temporary vessel looks to others.
No. 2584599
i hav ridiculously idealistic fantasies about what love and romance should be, i have a completely fictional moid in my head (both looks and personality wise.. maladaptive daydreaming kek) who i crave at all times and fantasize about… but in reality i have never not once been in an actual relationship with a real moid and have no idea what it’s like. and then when actual opportunity presents itself to get to know a decent moid, i want to run and hide. i begin to panic. i desperately want to be in “deep love” and “intimacy” with someone, but start to feel actual horror at the thought of new and unfamiliar situations in my current life and having to “submit” to someone. im so terrified of feeling engulfed and stifled by a man, feeling like i have to give up parts of myself, or will have to change, or going down a road of uncertainty, or having my high expectations quashed by reality… i just got back from a date with a decent moid and started crying hysterically because i couldn’t find anything really wrong with him, but i still felt nothing which made me feel like somethings wrong with me i yearn for “passionate romance” like nothing else but making sacrifices in order to get there, and working on all these problems i may have in terms of commitment and change, seems so fucking daunting to me that i wonder if im just meant to be alone.
No. 2584655
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>>2584647I agree, they gotta choose properly the men they have sex with, just fucking males in general opens you up to the possibility of getting pumped and dumped since they have natural sociopathic tendencies, and they tend to treat women like that if they aren't a 10/10 or close, which most women aren't.
No. 2584671
Someone I know died tonight. I'm sitting at home messaging and calling mutual friends and having conversations. It sucks. Some guy I know didn't handle it well. I didn't talk to him personally, but it seems that he got very drunk and went out and broke some shit and yelled at his girlfriend and almost ended up in jail. It's a lot to take in. But now, I'm distracted and thinking: why do men handle things in the most godawful immature way possible.
For example, right now, I personally feel like:
Indiscriminately chugging all the liquor in the house, screaming off the porch at nothing, eating everything in the fridge then barfing it all up, crying uncontrollably, punching the wall, smoking an entire pack of cigarettes, and for the first time ever self harm. It's so fucking hard. Losing a friend feels so bad.
So I want to do dumb shit. But I know you can't just do that because you feel bad. Gotta find better things to do, and deal with it in ways that don't hurt yourself and others. Idiot moids, on the other hand, will go apeshit and expect everyone to feel sorry for them and pick up the pieces afterward.
So here I am because my friends have gone to sleep. There's a part of me that wants to be destructive. I can't because I still have self-awareness and respect. I miss my friend who died so much that I'm posting on lc to strangers so I don't lose my shit. I hate my friend who went crazy tonight, he had no right to react that way. I hate men. I hate everything right now.
No. 2584680
>>2584599There is something to passionate relationships burning out quick, while smoulders last longer. Some of the people I dated before where I was totally enraptured for a period, I ended up fighting a lot and hating their guts. I met my husband and did not really feel much on the first date, but after more I began to notice more about him and liked it. Now its been 5 years and I can say I love him more than all my previous boyfriends, although its not as "NEED YOU NEED YOU" as it was with them, but I think I was in limerance or something cause looking back I cant figure out wtf I was seeing in some of those guys…
But i would say you should just try stuff out and not take it super seriously. Even if you end up on more dates and not really liking the guy you can always just take it a fun activity to do.
No. 2584724
>>2584024>>2583680genuinely… it's not bullying. like, i can pick up bullying vibe immediately and this is not it. to me it's like a ignorance type behavior fueled by comparison, fully 100%.
there's a 2nd dynamic as well which is playing into it, which is that fact that i'm fully employed by our company, and she's an intern. the 29 year old she works alongside too is also an intern.
yesterday she got humbled tho when my other friend guessed her age as 25 and mine as 23 so that's how stupid things are ultimately. i think its fully impossible to tell how old people are in their 20s but once you compartmentalize someone as as certain age mentally you begin to compare yourself to them in years/status etc.
No. 2584789
>>2584786Double posting because I thought of more:
Hipped & dipped
Pegged it & legged it
Coomed & zoomed
Etc
No. 2584815
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Yet another day of everyone being moody and sniping at each other for no reason, but the annoying thing is that they keep saying "whaaaaat what are you talking about we're fiiiiine" I am genuinely too autistic for everyone to keep acting one way and then insisting it's the other
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>>2584813You did great nonna, I'm sure that girl is a lot better now thanks to your help
No. 2584818
my close family is left leaning. they are gender special, they are neurodivergent, they rely on therapy. they care about Palestine and climate change. they collect funko pops trans women are real women, trans men are real men, they hate biological women for everything. they care about any feelings hurt. unless it's my feelings. now i am expected to apologise to their friend who made me cry, because she feels uncomfortable now. i am not doing that, so they stopped talking to me because i am toxic, hormonal and unhinged woman. plus bonus - they always cancel plans they made with me. they initiated these plans, i got to habit to ask them if they are sure they will come. yeah yeah they will come for sure. and then they cancel last minute because one of their cat ate plastic or is throwing up. they have six cats, always one of them will be eating plastic and throwing up. they actually made plans to go to Aldi and this comes first because they are neurodivergent. i am autistic too, but they won't consider how this affects me. if i am expressing how it makes me feel i need to apologise for being hormonal woman. they hate my hobbies and addictions and tried to get me off of them, offered me support that never came. i begged them to pick up the phone when i needed support and they told me that they are busy because they are making dinner. becasue they are firm believers in therapy the best they can do for me is telling me to go to therapy, which is actually an insult. because when you tell this to someone it's literally calling them crazy. i hate what leftist mindset did to them.
No. 2584823
>>2584818Go no contact. Ultra leftist retards like those have no qualms being misogynistic kek.
>six catsI honestly believe that having more than three cats, even two, is simply animal abuse.
No. 2584877
>>2584824You could get some positive conversation going about being women with these hobbies. How there’s so many like you when growing up people thought it could only be boys into whatever. Experiences of female friend groups that “felt/acted like boys” when it previously seemed boys are like this and girls are like that.
Maybe you knew girls who hid their interests.
Women you look up to and find cooler than all their male friends (but that you’re not in touch with, so she can’t ask about them).
Just exposing her to the reality that in their depth, the experiences she relates to are indeed those of women rather than men.
You can avoid talking about mistaking oneself for a boy and maybe don’t talk to her directly at these times because it’s a “discussion between women”. But you can crypto peak if you know where their issue stems from. Especially depending on her sexuality and whether it’s just a ‘boys are cooler than girls’ thing.
No. 2584879
>>2584837Sorry nona. He
might still be listening but either way it hurts and you should tell him this.
No. 2584880
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My flat is a fucking pigsty. Don't know where to even start and not even get motivated by the flies.
No. 2584885
>>2584880This is giving bum. But I’ll help you
>take the plates and the containers in the sink That is fucking gross. It’s not even being messy, it’s being disgusting. That’s how you get fruit flies and cockroaches.
>take the stuff from the floor>use a broom to swipe the floor >throw what you don’t useThis is a start. I’ll give you a medal if you do this right now. GO!
No. 2584894
>>2584893Do the tasks I told you nonna, come on! I’ll give you a medal if you clear that zone you sent in the picture.
I’ll want proof in two hours.
No. 2584897
>>2584893i'll draw whatever character you request if you do what
>>2584885 says in 2 hours
No. 2584899
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>>2584880Nonny at least leave out a vinegar trap or two so the flies don't overrun your flat. Please promise that you'll do that much.
No. 2584904
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>>2584880I like this guy on the paper towels. anyway just grab a bin bag and start putting the obvious rubbish into it. dont bother sorting it into recycling/trash, just plop all rubbish into the bag and chuck it outside.
No. 2584910
>>2584899I have vinegar on the table so I do that yes, thx for the tip,
nonny.
I have a room worse than this, tbh nonies. My cat died in it 6 month ago. I held her in agony because there were no vets around. Since then I go in it only when mix benzos and alcohol and you can imagine the disaster it is.
I feel so baf about the whole thing. I'm medicated, and still I can't even take care of the basic stuff. This is a waste of space, a happy family could live here.
No. 2584918
>>2584910But it's
your flat. You're living in it, and you deserve to be a happy nonna in your own space.
No. 2584967
File: 1751289292526.jpg (Spoiler Image,93.23 KB, 1600x448, room - Copy.jpg)
>>2584880oh
nonnie, i can relate somewhat. if i get too busy and stressed about college assignments, my room ends up like this too, i usually get around to cleaning it properly when my exams are over, but it takes me a while to actually get motivated to clean it and cleaning it in one go is another thing, i'll clean one day then skip the next day and then clean again. i know how it is when you know what you need done but you can't bring yourself to do it, but it does help to start with little and just one single task.
i'd suggest throwing away trash and food waste since that's really bad since flies could infect even your clean food and make you sick and you don't want to spend money recovering from food poisoning right? flies can also lay eggs in your skin and i'm sure bits of food stuck to your furniture and bed make things icky to touch and sit on. so that's your first task.
i don't know how much my picrel can help but it's photos of my room before i got around to cleaning on the left and on the right is when i was somewhat started on cleaning, it doesn't seem that bad but in the second photo, you see the gap between the wall and my bed? i'd end up throwing away stuff there when i felt i was too busy to get up and throw stuff away properly. the gap was filled with scraps of fabric, old assignments, papers, wrappers of food, cans, and when i'd wake up i'd just push my blanket onto it, out of sight, out of mind, but it was the first thing i'd properly get around to cleaning alongside changing my bedsheets because i could sleep better on clean sheets and with the knowledge that ants aren't crawling in my ear.
so your first task,
discard food waste and anything attracting ants and flies, and then i guess after that would be trying to organize, in my second pic, i'd organized stuff on my desk and cleaned it and whatever i couldn't put on my desk, i'd pushed onto my bed and then just slept elsewhere in my home, and i'd gotten a shelf to put stuff that would usually clutter my desk so i have a better working space. so i suppose it helps to organize the spot in your home that you spend most time in and whatever you can't figure out how to organize, just confine them to one corner and when you have figured out where to put it, you can get to organizing again.
No. 2584970
File: 1751289371655.jpg (966.61 KB, 1080x2412, 1000021324.jpg)
I did it but it's a drop in the ocean. But I do feel a little less overwhelmed, so thx nonnies
>>2584897It's nice but don't waste the effort. That was nice to offer tho. I appreciate it.
No. 2584979
File: 1751289552867.gif (1.82 MB, 500x281, tumblr_1cfdaeb25b5a39918d0689b…)
>>2584970good job
nonnie! good that you threw away the trash and cleaned the floor, looking better already! i don't have much to reward you with but here's a cool gif with cute boys
♥.
No. 2584981
File: 1751289589446.gif (345.38 KB, 220x220, IMG_3510.gif)
>>2584970You did great nonna! Good job! I know it seems stupid and I don’t know you, but I am really proud of you.
No. 2585001
File: 1751290549453.jpg (Spoiler Image,995.74 KB, 1066x1411, 1000021328.jpg)
(and this is the grief room that used to be a computer room, I remove the trash bags that were sitting there, first. For those curious) (no idea why the smeared yogurt everywhere I think I had to use the computer so got benzoed to my eyeballs, got hungry and did whatever the fuck with yogurt.
I could go clean the grief room, I guess, get moderately drunk and at least get stuff of the floor and clean the most disgusting part of it)
No. 2585005
File: 1751290879694.gif (2.5 MB, 500x281, tumblr_fd650a4f0129469a7b1a542…)
>>2585001good good
nonnie, just make sure to clean top to bottom so that the crumbs and dirt fall to the floor you'll clean later so you don't clean the desk just for the clean floor to become dirty
i learnt this the hard way kek, >>2584967 i cleaned my desk just to dust my desk organize and the softboard stuck on the wall and then the desk got covered in dust again, here's another cool gif!>>2585001
No. 2585085
>>2585001Our objective here is
>throw the stuff that you don’t use from the floor>use the broom to clear up the dirt This two tasks for now should suffice. Update me nonna!
No. 2585127
>>2584425Genderspecials and autistic women from tumblr have ruined any color combo that's the same as made up queer flags…
Orange and Pink outfit a girl is wearing? Sorry that a dyke now.
A pastel blue and pink color scheme? That's a Troon-coded character.
No. 2585157
>>2584897Nta but please draw whatever this
>>2584904 is
No. 2585159
>>2585001Honestly this and your other photos aren’t really that bad. Sure you’ll feel better with a tidy and clean but it wouldn’t even register as a “pigsty” to me like you said. You deserve to feel happy and at peace in your home
nonny, I hope you can get there. I’m proud of you for recognizing that you weren’t in a good place and needed to change.
No. 2585177
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I haven't had sex in 5 years (not really by choice), and have felt like I have sort of lost my sex drive. I enjoyed the thought of having someone that makes me company or sleep next to me, but other than that I felt nothing and that I'd probably be fine like this forever.
But I stumbled into the josei thread on /m/, and figured it has been a while since I read something raunchy so figured why not. It's like a switch was flipped and I became completely fucking coom brained and can't think of anything but sex right now, I do happen to be ovulating at the moment so it will probably go away in a few days, but I guess this also shows that I'm extremely pent up? Either way I'm driving myself insane now
No. 2585186
>>2584899They already have. I just finally put have the trash (yeah, gross…). But the fly are everywhere. I tried the trap but I'm probably not doing it right?
I bought some spray but but I think it's more of a repellent, it killed a bunch but there are still many. I wish there were some bad for the planet instant insect killer at the shop but nope.
No. 2585268
File: 1751309607905.gif (185.5 KB, 220x147, you're-right-pigeons.gif)
>>2585225…well, ain't that a shit in the crapper
No. 2585272
>>2585245Proud of you for trying to stop
nonnie! Dumb question, but have you perhaps looked into mindfulness? I was addicted to self-harm for almost 20 years and that was one of the first steps that helped me stop, learning radical acceptance is a life changer when you suffer from this type of anxiety. Could also help to look into mood stabilizer medication that can help with the steep changes in your mood that can cause that amount of distress for you?
Take care of yourself nona, I'm sure you can do it! Trying is the first step towards recovery
No. 2585321
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just remembered to have a social life i have to actually talk to people.. fuck that shit
No. 2585337
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>>2585306I’m sorry nona I’m just a retard when it comes to hairstyling
No. 2585348
File: 1751315829476.webp (38.29 KB, 600x900, scandinavian-beauty-13930884.w…)
I have typical fine scandinavian hair that's also pin straight, and not only makes it hard for it to keep it's shape when I style it, unless I cover it hairspray until it's crunchy - it also tangles the moment someone do as much as fart in the next room over because of the gust. It makes me sad because I have a pretty wide face, and the days when my hair manages to have a lot of volume it balances my face just right. But when it has a lot of volume it means it's pretty dry because I haven't used any conditioner or hair mask, which isn't great either.
No. 2585482
>>2585472When you’re old and at the end of your life, you are never going to say to yourself, “I really regret calling out of work that one time.”
Your job is replaceable. You could die tomorrow and your boss would only be focused on hiring someone for your position. Don’t sacrifice yourself for work, ever.
No. 2585551
>>2585481ayrt, it
is ego because the biggest thing i feel guilty over is being seen as lazy for calling out. that does help, thank you
>>2585482youre right. i wont regret missing work but i already have regrets about how i handled losing my other pet. i should learn from my own mistakes
No. 2585796
File: 1751337899283.jpg (411.55 KB, 1080x1350, 1000021245.jpg)
>>2585767ok but who's the big spoon
No. 2586033
File: 1751352175497.png (469.25 KB, 1024x1004, 1701910021130878.png)
im so desperate to lose weight i want to be on ozempic at this point. but i dont think anybody would give it to me since im not actually overweight. i swear to god my maintenance calories must be like, 5 calories a day
No. 2586090
>>2586088You can always be thinner. Look better.
But if you aren’t a fattie I wouldn’t suggest Ozempic, you’ll lose muscles. Just go to the gym where you can actually build up your physique.
No. 2586104
>>2586088Ayrt and its because i feel like i looked better when i weighed less. Nothing more to it really.
>>2586047Damn thats crazy. I think im too scared of the side effects to actually do it kek. Plus it costs an insane amount if you arent getting it for medical reasons here in the US (which is fair, i think.)
No. 2586116
File: 1751360336858.jpeg (282.05 KB, 1170x1818, IMG_3524.jpeg)
>>2586097Six kgs won’t be a night and day difference. But you can see that she does look better in the right pic.
No. 2586141
>>2586127People can be really cruel to skinny women, even other women. My sister has a wiry build and gets a lot of comments and observations about her body, from men whinging about how her lack of curves isn’t attractive (as if she was put into this world to look pretty for others…) to women either telling her to eat more or, I think, putting her down a bit out of some misplaced envy. I never had people just point out and outright describe my body to me and how I should change it to be more pleasing to the eye, not even when I was overweight (not to my face, I mean)
I think the kind of thinness that is considered attractive (a slender but visiblt healthy, toned body with a flat bellt and some curves) is specifically the body of a teenage girl…
No. 2586145
File: 1751363194673.jpg (30.35 KB, 905x750, 1000020522.jpg)
My ex best friend, a narcissistic bitch who constantly berated me and ignored me when my father was dying, has her claws in every cosplay circle in my area. She's well liked because on a superficial level shes so charming- maybe she'll treat others like she treated me, if they get close enough to her. Maybe not, and I was just a punching bag.
In dropping her, I've lost most of my other friendships, despite them knowing exactly how she treated me they still suck her asshole. I thought I made a new connection separate from her, and lo and behold shes attending their party this weekend so I'm not going. Its so frustrating knowing somebody's true, fetid colors, and everyone else continuing to support them. Makes me feel like im taking crazy pills. I hate this bitch and shes everywhere.
No. 2586157
My sis relies on me to go to the beach she has no one else to go with. But I'm starting to fucking hate the beach lately in this disgusting foul heat. I hate the sand everywhere, I had the sun burning my skin and I sweat in my face and between my boobs. I love being in the water but then you come out and feel how sticky and salty your skin is and you lay again on the towel with the sun and it's fucking DISGUSTING. I DONT WANNA DO THIS RIGHT NOW. BUT I FEEL GUILTY BECAUSE THEN SHE CANT GO ALONE CAUSE NO ONE IS THERE TO CHECK ON HER BAGS!!!
A lot of times I felt FORCED to go just for her to please her and I'd check the time and be like okay this is done, I had a swim let's just go, as if it's a chore kekk. I know I sound like a brat, maybe I am, I don't fucking know I just wanna be home with my AC on, I don't wanna deal with the world outside, the sun, let alone the fucking beach with people everywhere and feeling hot, sweaty and gross!!!!!! I HATE EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW I DONT KNOW WHY. I'm gonna have to deal with her being moody and upset because I don't wanna go somewhere and she wants to, fuck my fucking LIFE
No. 2586178
File: 1751367155199.jpeg (21.39 KB, 626x490, regret.jpeg)
Finding out mikayla (saveafox lolcow) did gross of porn content with the animals she rescued has made me paranoid about all the other animal rescue content I watch what If the animals I think are being saved are being more harmed behind the scenes? I've donated to countless animal shelters what if I'm contrubuting to their detriment? Maybe I'm overthinking this but knowing what mikayla did has genuinely ruined animal rescue content for me..Ill still donate to animal shelters though
No. 2586201
>>2586199Us women need to start believing the supposed female superiority men think we have. Or taking advantage of it or whatever.
If only we could band together. Womanhood should come first, not background, but people fail to see this. Imagine the world with women united.
No. 2586223
>>2586213Is a scrote not a Nigel anyway?
>stuckWhat if you divorce and you only take the kid the weekends?
No. 2586292
File: 1751375678966.jpg (40.75 KB, 253x199, angry.jpg)
I'M SO LONELY FUCK. I need someone into my interests and to sperge about it together. I've bumped the /m/ thread 5+ separate times this past couple months and it still has no interaction IM SO FUCKING LONELY AND BORED
No. 2586310
File: 1751376336648.gif (745.33 KB, 720x520, 1649430989690.gif)
So while I dislike troons I still have some in my social circle and I don't tell anyone how I feel about gender ideology. However I'm coming to the slow realization that one of the TIMs probably actually does have a porn addiction and it's probably why he transitioned. I have no concrete proof but I heard from some very close people to him that he doesn't like sex much. How likely is it that he has a porn addiction or is into some shit like feminization audios? He has a girlfriend too… now that I've thought of this I can't stop feeling weird about this because to me he seemed pretty inoffensive and I mistook him for just a confused autist.
No. 2586391
nearing 6 months since my gf died in an accident. i’m coming out of a phase where i overworked to numb myself to one where i feel totally hopeless. i don’t want anything except her presence yet that’s one of the few things i can’t even remotely influence
>>2586329seconding this, i have found tyrosine to be effective as well. iirc magnesium doesn’t directly affect focus like l-theanine but it improves sleep quality which helps with daytime focus
No. 2586490
>>2586478I wonder if this is like a non-video-focused social media issue then because I have seen this behavior on Twitter and Bluesky the most.
I'll keep sharing for you nona
No. 2586552
>>2586310It's 100% likely. Sorry you're finding out this way. The old school gay men wearing dresses so they don't get lynched for holding hands with another man are only found in very backwards countries now, all the other TIMs are porn addicts.
>>2586450Keep working on your art, the nudes-to-fame track only works in the short term. These women are selling themselves, not their work. You want your art to speak for itself, not to attract a rancid fanbase of neckbeards and skinwalking simps.
>>2586213That sucks nonna, I hope divorce becomes legal in your country soon.
No. 2586571
>>2586567I feel flattered
nonnie. In another life I would have accepted and taken care of you too.
>>2586568Thank you nonna. Let’s hope!
No. 2586579
File: 1751387911294.jpeg (76.35 KB, 736x787, IMG_3532.jpeg)
>>2586574
>take it to the grave
I don’t have anything to feel shame for in being “tricked” by a retard. I was a nice , pure hearted girl, who was sincere. I learnt my lesson though, few people deserve that, but shame is something that I’ll never feel for, there’s nothing wrong with me and having sex once didn’t “taint” me or any misogynistic bullshit you are thinking of.
No. 2586596
File: 1751388533255.jpg (178.95 KB, 1280x1600, 1000019273.jpg)
>>2586592Hey.. back off.. She's mine.
No. 2586624
>>2586613It’s like you want me to go on foot to Međugorje and ask Mother Mary to turn me back into a virgin kekkk.
>>2586608 I’ll actually just say that I am one from now on until I get eaten out, just for you nonna. A woman can return to being a virgin anytime she wants.
No. 2586628
File: 1751389845249.jpeg (38.23 KB, 404x344, IMG_4090.jpeg)
>>2586624>A woman can return to being a virgin anytime she wants.I don't get it. First, you say you're not ashamed of getting pumped and dumped. But now you say that you'll lie about it and cover it up.
No. 2586672
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I might adopt a kitten, I'm nervous about it. I don't know if I'm good enough for it. I asked my mom if she could co-adopt with me so I dont have the full responsibility kek. I would love this cat with all my heart but it's what scares me. I'd be heartbroken if they're sick and I can't help them. The guilt would kill me. I'd love to do my best though, I think it'd help me mentally to put some of my energy towards another living being.
No. 2586679
File: 1751392844143.jpeg (50.07 KB, 644x656, IMG_3469.jpeg)
>>2586675Actually sex doesn’t count for the woman if she doesn’t orgasm.
No. 2586684
File: 1751392967116.jpg (43.68 KB, 460x398, ihatesummer.jpg)
why does my country hate air conditioners so much? They are all fucking insane. I have 27°C in my room, tomorrow it will be at 30°C and I can't do anything about it, because air conditioners are too expensive, too bad for the environment and oh, we had to suffer through this as well. No, you didn't, you fucking boomers, you had a perfect life, without war all over the world, without rising prices, without climate change. You were 40 years old and had paid for your house, most of us will never get past renting. And I have to pay for your pension? If I had a choice, you wouldn't see a penny from me and I would buy me an air conditioner and would sit in my room with 18°C right now.
No. 2586698
>>2586661I hadn't gotten that far
>>2586663That's true. I don't watch anime much anymore because I can't tell the difference between a cute series and fetish stuff until it's too late.
>>2586668Yeah funnily it was the intro that made me realise. I noticed it said the Maika girl was 16 and they kept pursuing a ship between her and the restaurant owner. I should really pay attention more kek
No. 2586703
File: 1751393963438.jpeg (222.06 KB, 992x482, IMG_8703.jpeg)
i want to have kids very badly but can’t because i’m a dysgenic retard
No. 2586736
>>2586725Are you retarded? Da Vinci is just someone who happened to have his career line up with his passion. Some people find emotional fulfillment through raising a family. Some people find fulfillment through cleaning up trash on the side of the road. Some people just want to live off the grid away from everyone. All of them are
valid ways to find fulfillment, my point is your life is not lacking if you feel meh about your job but still find joy in other things.
No. 2586770
>>2586744Too many people making art and food
but combining both would be smart. I have no idea why artists haven't figured out that people like cool packaging and they can just rebrand something uncommon or even popular that consumers already use and just repackage with a fandom or something. But I guess you can make money selling pictures on fiverr too Idk
>>2586758I stopped reading your post after you became reactive for no reason and just reiterated the point I was originally making again. Since your original post seemed to be about a difference in attitude between americans and everyone else
>>2586717 davinci was obviously italian and pretty into (or emotionally fulfilled by) his career
. No. 2586786
File: 1751398214619.png (254.04 KB, 408x738, GR_epaJWYAAPch6.png)
>guy is balding
Ugly, swipe left
>below 6 feet
I'm a tall bitch that want to be held, swipe left
>no career or well-paying job
Lacking in drive and future prospects, swipe left
>doesn't work out
Who wants a man that doesn't take care of himself, swipe left
>small lips
You are not eating me out with that, swipe left
>gives autism vibes
There can only be one of us in this relationship, also ew male autists. Swipe left
>has kids
Absolutely not, swipe left
>holds a fish in any image
Be more original, swipe left
>at least one image is from the blowjob angle
Ew, swipe left
>at least one image is of him skiing
Wrong kind of jock, swipe left
>image of him smiling during winter
Only psychos smile out in the winter cold, swipe left
>profile says he's an introvert
I'm not going to be the one in charge of our social life, swipe left
No. 2586810
File: 1751399505857.jpeg (65.32 KB, 400x400, IMG_3044.jpeg)
lmao i glued a piece of my eva foam cosplay armor UPSIDE DOWN!!!! I didnt realize it till i started painting. Even in the progress pics i posed to my socials unglued the piece was oriented where it should have been but my dumbass didnt think to take a second look before assembling. Oh well, I’ll remake it for next time.
No. 2586888
File: 1751403813446.jpg (191.18 KB, 800x935, 130420021411-image-01.jpg)
I hate myself so damn much. Spending money I don’t have, spending it on things I shouldn’t be buying; why can’t my brain decide to spend it on actual useful shit if it’s gonna wanna spend anyway? I’m too fat and ugly and old for this; I’m a hoarder. I need someone to put a gun to my head and tell me “No” every single time I’m about to do something stupid.
My fatass better wear the shit out of this once it arrives. It’s so pretty though.
No. 2586892
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>>2586888This reminds me of sabrina carpenter's new look. We thought the "strawberry dress" was the end of all big trends but here it is, the "chesterfield dress"
or couch dress, for the pedestrian anons No. 2586909
File: 1751405145851.jpg (8.52 KB, 236x227, ba77295c9878ecc7aec5a0a014947e…)
>in a women's hiking group
>one of the women asks me what i do for a living
>oh im a college student
>"oh really? you look mature, id never guess ur in college"
>mfw
No. 2586912
>>2586127My reality as a young teen: "oh my god eat some food, what the fuck, are you anorexic?" (no, i just hit puberty late and my body tried to catch up). I even got told by a
doctor (a moid obviously) that I was 'too skinny' to scuba dive?
Then when I gained weight and had curves, all of a sudden I was being negged for being 'fat' (I was healthier for my size than before) and every time i ate something I got catty comments from actual overweight women. Men made comments on my 'saddlebags' and big hips though they weren't so thin themselves. Honestly the worst comments come from insecure people who will find a way to put you down no matter how good or 'bad' you look.
No. 2586925
>>2586909Could be worse
nonnie, I get carded and treated like a literal child every time I wear comfy clothes like jeans and a tee. I'm not small or short, I have an extreme babyface and no-one takes me seriously because of it.
No. 2586968
>>2586920If I had a dime for every female ASMR creator going down the porn pipeline I'd be a bank
Weirdly, when it's the opposite it seems to be successful, like Gentle Whisper/Maria
No. 2587019
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>>2587010If my mom intentionally gave me tingles on the back of my neck, I would tell her she's being creepy and to stick with wine instead of hard liquor. And we get crap for being (closed-mouth) lip kissers in my family, so I'm not judging you anon
Nonas: these types of sensations are known as "turn ons". The reason you like them as content is bc they are arousing to you
No. 2587045
File: 1751410267535.jpg (18.48 KB, 500x382, 5aecfb54b30ffef8529dc6d28e0766…)
>>2587032And do you know how many moids randomly got their first erection on a bus anon?
No. 2587060
>>2587052I'm not sure. They'll just say these things a lot of the time
>>2587053Compelling tingles on the back of your neck through breathy voice designed to simulate someone speaking closely into your ear/neck seems very sexual to me, yes
No. 2587065
I'm having the most horrible envy that I just can't shake. I know a married couple (acquaintances of mine, old classmates of my Nigel). This couple has been dating since high school, and the husband is a surgeon now. Meanwhile my Nigel has a career that sounds nice on paper, but the pay isn't great for what you'd expect. Still, he makes twice as much as I do. Between our two incomes combined, we're barely scraping by and we've lived in a shitty apartment in a shitty town for the last 5 years. This crappy place is the most affordable area that we could ever hope to own a home in the future.
Meanwhile Surgeon and his Wife have already had a child, and moved to a beautiful, big home in another city, right on the beach. She has literally none of the problems I'm worried about. Just a fraction of their household monthly income would literally change my entire life and solve every current problem I have. I'm stressed about our cat's upcoming vet bill, my car broke down, and I hate my job, and meanwhile this other person gets to leisurely read books on the beach, she's currently writing a novel for fun from her sunlit home office with palm trees and the ocean breeze outside, and gets to spend time playing with her daughter every day and going for walks on the sand while I'm stuck in this dry, dirty shithole while I'm getting older and older (late 30s) and I don't feel anywhere near being financially comfortable enough or in a healthy enough environment to have a baby. I know comparison is the thief of joy, and I'm ignoring their social media accounts, but I'm so fucking green with envy and I hate feeling this way every time I'm reminded of it.
No. 2587068
File: 1751411204354.png (179.89 KB, 420x420, that_should_be_me-eeow.png)
>>2587065Aw your life sounds so cute and nice otherwise tho. I like when anons don't have overwhelming, insurmountable problems. Just a little bump in the road for this otherwise thriving nona and her competent providing nigel
No. 2587078
>>2587065Aww girl I used to feel that way too about a classmate of mine. I think we fall under the delusion that if we went to the same hs together we're peers or equals. So while she has a lavish wedding and an incredible house, I'm still girl rotting in my apartment with my cat.
But. What helped me feel better is knowing her dad has a company worth between 30million to 81mil, that I didn't know about until doing some research on her family name. Meanwhile my family is so broke, ones on minimum wage and the other has no savings. You don't know what kind of advantages other people have had in life, so don't beat yourself up.
But I've also gotten to experience a lot of things in life she hasn't had, one reason why she was so mean to me. While she had a lot of cool stuff handed to her, I'm the epitome of someone self-made. I may not have the same quality of housing she does, but what I live in and the life I have is all my own. I'm sure your Nigel loves you very much and you can surely have a baby. I think jealousy comes from feeling like you can't have what they have too. I bet your partner would support you if you wanted to have a baby or be a sahm, but it might not be as lavish and luxurious as her lifestyle bc she might have come from family money.
No. 2587100
File: 1751413012789.webp (27.28 KB, 400x225, 139165.webp)
>>2587080No I don't watch porn anon. But if I wanted to become sexually stimulated and had aphantasia or social media brain rot, I would watch porn. If you're asexual it makes sense, otherwise it seems kind of obvious it's an erogenous thing
No. 2587104
File: 1751413195914.jpg (69.44 KB, 1024x680, depositphotos_10577521-stock.j…)
My autistic fucking boyfriend found some old anime from the fucking 60s, raw and unsubbed, and he wants to watch all 109 episodes with me. Fuck my retarded chungus life. Shit is in black and white.
No. 2587118
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>>2587104>boyfriend found some old anime from the fucking 60s, raw and unsubbed, and he wants to watch all 109 episodes with me.>Fuck my retarded chungus lifecan i take your place then?
No. 2587126
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>>2587109Yes, but I like normal anime that's 13-24 episodes
>>2587118You want to watch 109 episodes of this shit?
No. 2587140
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>>2587130A lot of people get turned on by this. Maybe turning that well known fact into some big secret now is part of the worldwide asmr hustle
typo/pimp hank No. 2587161
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>>2587130I'm sorry, nonas
No. 2587171
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>>2587162This anon is almost there. So close to admitting it, like based role-nona
>>2587161 No. 2587173
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>>2587168and this anon's denial runs deep
No. 2587183
>>2587173Let me braid your hair
nonnie you will see
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>>2587183Sure
nonnie. But you should know, I'm all smoofth
(avatarfagging) No. 2587211
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>>2586033update i weighed myself since being off my period and ive actually lost weight
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>>2587211Not trying to bring you down nona bc I'm pretty sure it was the period sit ups but check out the fourth symptom
No. 2587238
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>>2587126>You want to watch 109 episodes of this shit? with someone, i would
No. 2587258
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>>2587243>never fucked a dude beforeThe other anon is lying to you. The last time I visited a bad gyno, who was female for some reason, she used a large(?) size speculum and it literally shot across the fucking room when she turned away to get something else. Make sure to ask for a small size speculum. If they say "we don't have that" ask to see it and if it looks large, say "no thanks" and call someone else so anyways this is how I know those ping pong ball shows in thailand are real, without ever having seen one
No. 2587341
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Of course when I have to attend my first concert I can't go because the person I'm sharing the trip with is super sick. I know it's not anybody's fault but I feel extremely miserable, I've waited since March and spent good money on the trip and the BnB only for it to go all down the drain.
No. 2587369
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i spent all day homebrewing my wii u and it was fun for a while but i started feeling lonely and wishing i had friends or a nigel to play the games with. and also the whole house outside of me room is full of clutter because i live with a hoarder and it makes me depressed. i think im just meant to stay inside my room forever im sorry
No. 2587463
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>Retarded uncle, 48, deadbeat, stoner, MAGA/conspiracy theorist, on social services AND leeching off my disabled grandma/his mom gets confronted about the new "Big Beautiful Bill" passing (which would impact both of them)>"Oh well, I was just ONE voter, and at least Trump's following through on his promises">Promptly takes a nap>Grandma is more upset at me for wanting to wake him up to curse him out on her behalfI'm so goddamn tired of the coddling. How can you, as a woman, be so disrespected by your own bald son in your house and STILL bend over backwards to be his mommy PR manager? She even put up a photo of him holding me a baby like he's some pure cinnamon roll, mind you, he's got 3 kids he won't even talk to on the phone because he's (self-admitted) focusing on himself and getting a DJ career started.
>>2587390 Fucking preach.
No. 2587544
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I'm a north-western Europoor and it's going to be almost 40°C here today. I already feel like dying and it's only 11.30pm.
>you are such a pussy anon, I live in (some hot country or state) and it's always 666° here
We don't have ACs here, and the humidity and lack of wind makes it impossible to cool down or breathe while outside. Also, the weather can't fucking decide on what it wants. The max temperature on Saturday was 22°, now it's almost 40. It's a complete mindfuck and impossible to adjust to.
No. 2587546
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>>2587510>>2587468Thank you nonna! I am on a break rn. Are a nice plate of pasta. I’ll have a small nap later.
No. 2587554
>>2587537Read, exercise, go on a walk, go to a music event, rollerblade, ride a bike, play singleplayer video games, paint, draw, knit, watch a movie, go to the theatre, play an instrument, listen to music, clean your apartment, rearrange your space, cook a nice meal, there are plenty of things you can do without using the internet or sparsely doing so.
No. 2587557
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just walked out from my B2 german exam… I did reading part okay, but during listening I got just intense anxiety, couldn't focus at all. And I just couldn't continue on writing and speaking, I am sure I would jsut start crying and traumatise myself for the next try. I was not supposed to have this exam this early, I was already supposed to work in Germany for month or so but hr took so much time finalising my things… I am such a failure… But getting to b2 in two months from a2 was extremely difficult. I learned around 200 vocab a day and now I can read pretty much anything, but I never even spoke german with anyone since high school. It was impossible to do my first speaking at the exam. I have to start Monday my new job in german (I don't need the certificate right away) and I need to study so much of medicine and neurology all in German, and I have only a few days now so I think I will mostly study when I start. I think I just can't anymore. Doctor who was supposed to mentor me and help me a lot during the first weeks with language and socialising is away on vacation. My flat that I was supposed to have got for some reason more complicated, they suddenly want some documents they didn't before, and I will have to probably share the flat with previous rentee's wife before the papers get finalised. So I won't even have peace at home after the first work days. My ldr boyfriend was supposed to come visit me for the month or so and help me with cooking, moving in and just lift me up a bit when I'm starting but bc of the wife I will have to wait few more weeks since it's finalised. It's all messed up, the time line is messed up. It goes from the last thing I was supposed to do to the first one. All I do is be locked up and study and yet I fucking fail at everything
No. 2587559
>>2586916I agree, and I don't mind looking my age. But women's attractiveness is 1:1 with how young she looks, in society in general. She was basically calling me ugly with plausible deniability.
>>2586929Now that I think about it, it is an extremely odd response. "Aren't you too old to be in college?" bleh
>>2586942this basically
>>2586925Straight women when it's been 5 minutes without mentioning how young they look for their age:
No. 2587577
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>>2587572i steal interesting stories from other people and pretend it happened to me.
No. 2587680
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Woke up feeling so bleak I cried to a chatbot about it kek. Is this what you looked forward to as a child? Is that what you envisioned?
No. 2587835
>>2586675At what point does a lesbian lose her virginity to another woman?
What if you got manipulated so harshly and consistently over a long timespan (some moids are known to do this for years) that you can only count the sex you eventually had with him as rape by deception?
Do you think rape
victims have to declare themselves non-virgins?
No. 2587851
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I've been writing before about how I have not had any appetite for a while, so I started tracking what I eat out of curiosity and to help me make sure I hit at least close to the macros I need to ingest. It's been like this for 3+ weeks.
And fuck, I struggle to eat more than 1200kcal and I'm fucking 5"10 and go the gym a lot. Hell, some days when I'm too full I've only had 1000kcal. Whenever I try to google this I end up with people replying it's because my body is in "starvation mode", but it's not like I'm struggling by choice. I had my bloodworks checked just a while ago and everything looked absolutely perfect then, and it's not like I'm feeling much of a difference in my energy levels.
At the moment I try to make sure I get proper nutrients in my meals; cottage cheese, chia seeds, beans, greens, yogurt, protein shakes… but if I eat too much I feel sick, so it's not like I can force anything down either. I'm doing just fine on my current, accidental low-cal diet and I'm feeling healthy, I shouldn't though and it's making me a bit confused.
No. 2588092
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Sometimes i think too hard about all the child and animal abuse that takes place in the world and it makes me so suicidal lol!
No. 2588097
>>2588086I also have a pet moid. Women are capable of deriving happiness and pleasure from caring for others and bringing them joy, but men either aren't, or are simply unwilling to. They're naturally selfish. Unfortunately in order to be in a relationship with a man, you have to have ground level expectations of him.
>>2588092Me too
nonnie. I feel complicit in it just by existing, and like what's the point in being happy healthy and comfortable if there are people going through unimaginable suffering?
No. 2588133
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Had to evict my lodger today using police to escort her off the property after she explicitly told me that she wouldn’t be paying rent going forward and kept repeatedly ignoring my requests for her to pay or leave.
I feel absolutely horrendous. She was sobbing. I remember every kind and considerate word and action she had done for me and I feel rotten. However, she did run up £800 of electricity and worked illegally on a tourist visa evading taxes but of course had no issue using the NHS GP.
I’ve been going through her stuff as most of it she left behind and it’s immediately obvious she has spent at least £10,000 on accumulating worthless junk and bric a brac in only one year that she could have paid rent with and with the massive tax evasion you’d think she could swing it.
Yes I am rotten to the core.
No. 2588200
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I love cute things but for some reason they always make me feel sad at the same time?? Pictures of Sylvanian Families/Calico Critters, or seeing real kittens and hearing their tiny mews makes me feel overwhelmed by how cute they are, and at the same time fills me with a horrible sense of dread like I’m afraid something bad is going to happen to them. I’ve felt this way since I was a kid, cute cartoons or baby animals always made me feel this weird sense of sadness and I’d think about mortality for the rest of the day. It’s like my brain short-circuits and floods my thoughts with all of the horrible things in the world every time I see something cute or wholesome, and I feel helpless that I can’t protect all of the tiny things and keep them from harm. I don’t understand it, I just want to look at kittens or enjoy my time playing with my cat without thinking “oh no, they’re going to get hurt or die someday”.
Picrel, these baby Persian cat triplets just wrecked me
No. 2588209
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I’ve gone through 5 packs of tissues today. 50 tissues!!!! My nose is sore from all the rubbing and I just want to rip it off at this point. I wish I could sneeze 500 times in a row and get all this mucus out of my body right now at once.
No. 2588254
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girls, i haven't been on lolcow in a few years, but here i am to vent.
so basically, i was edating this man (first mistake) and he lived like 1000 miles down the coast from me. We met irl a few times and things werent going great for either of us as far as jobs and housing, so we played around with the idea of moving in together. i wanted him to move north since i had more connections and bigger city. he was admint on me moving to bumb fuck no where in the south. i did after we edated for a year. (second mistake)
i get here and things are going great, hes a ministry, seems to love me, we talk about our futures and marrige. i find out on christmas eve he was cheating on me the whole time we dated and slept with someone two weeks after i moved in with him. (i did tell her)
we decided to try and make it work. we countinue about our lives all while he is being an alcholic and taking triple c's to get high and blowing money on stupid shit. i still have my rose colored "i can fix him" glasses on. I mother him: clean, cook, give him money, and make sure the bills are paid.
end of May we go to a town that is also in the middle of bumb fuck nowhere to interview as a couple for a pastor position. it goes great, we are looking at town houses to rent, we are talking about our future.
10 days later we are at dinner and he tells me this isnt going to work and breaks up with me. i am devistated.
a week or so passes of just trying to convince him that our lives will be better when we move and not to do this. i had uprooted my whole life and loved him.
i get curious and snoop through his stuff. find him talking mad shit about me going back months with his butt buddy. also find out he broke up with me to be with the girl he was now cheating on me with. I waited out a few days and he is texting her with her full legal name in his contacts. i find her on facebook and tell her. she blocks him and tells him to fuck off. he doesnt know i contacted her.
he is spiralling into drugs and drinking. he was never mean. but the night he really let his colors show, screaming at me, threating to beat me, throw my stuff on the curb. how much of a pathetic person i am.
i contact the church he was we interviewed at and tell them everything. he gets the job revoked and he puts the peices together that it is me. (i also just think the church needs actual good people, and he is not it.)
he is home the night that he found out and gets drunk and does some more screaming and yelling at me.
he's blocked me on everyhting and is ???? who knows where, but i am here for a few more days before i drive back up the cost to share a two bedroom apt with three other girls.
shits a mess and i learned my lesson.(integrate)
No. 2588265
>>2588249It’s not just financial help but other stuff too tbh.
>there are neets in the same situation who don’t do anythingYeah and that’s not applicable. The point is that supremely gifted people usually have a gift but what sets them apart are the circumstances they are in rather than the inherent talent they possess usually.
No. 2588312
>>2588296Simply because creativity doesn't work without some sense of security. For some people this means having just one supportive person in their life, for others being in a tight knit community of friends and family, for someone else financial support done either with their own job or someone elses input. Creativity doesnt work if you feel uprooted and worry about if you're gonna have a place to sleep next week for example, you're not gonna make a masterpiece in that state. Anyway idk what time period you are referring to but most of the old masters we go to see in the museums have had either big families, sponsors, curators for their work, even if they were hermits. They would also take multiple lovers and that would fulfill their social needs, and so on and so forth.
People who strike gold early in life will almost always have good conditions around the project they were working on. What are those conditions depends on that specific person so you can't just level everyone and say everyone has the same needs to be able to express themselves creatively. That's not to say being bitter about it is a good idea since everyone has yheir own life experience, so if someone wants to express creatively but can't, the best thing to do is find out how to create conditions that will allow that to be easier and with that process started, in time the conditions will become perfect for the ultimate creative expression.
No. 2588317
>>2588269Anon I am sorry to say but the vast majority of artists have financial help or come from an affluent background. It isn’t that poor people are incapable of creating art, but that being encouraged from a young age, provided resources like tutors, lessons, access to equipment and supplies, and also being surrounded by a community that supports and encourages art cannot be overstated.
I know modern art communities and know many professional artists. None of them came from a background that wasn’t like the above. If you grow up one of five kids in a single parent household in the middle of rural Ohio the chances of you being able to cultivate your skills to be on the same level as those above is almost none. It doesn’t mean you can’t create art or work on your skills later, but that comparing where you are in your early twenties to those same people is a fruitless exercise and honestly is more reflective of the opportunities you have been afforded in life than your latent ability. That’s what the original conversation was about, not whether poor people can or can’t create art or be talented.
No. 2588321
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I can't stand being on the internet anymore. I can't stand being alone anymore. I just wish that I had one person in my life that I would feel emotionally connected to, that would respect me, that I could live with. I just want to get the courage to end it all. I want to fucking kill myself.
No. 2588340
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>ate an edible on Sunday
>ate an edible yesterday
>I feel like shit and want to eat an edible today
It's a struggle to figure if it's worth being sober or not today. Fwiw I can't do drugs for the next three days after today, maybe that makes it not as bad?
No. 2588416
>>2588245I mean I can definitely understand where you are coming from. You are having many first and to you they are important, while he doesn’t feel the same, it sorts of removes the novelty, innocence and novelty of it all and doesn’t feel equal.
If you think that he is mature enough you might be able to talk to him, but I have yet to see a scrote capable of communicating without playing the
victim kek.
I think what you are feeling is called retroactive jealousy.
No. 2588425
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>>2588407you have no power here
No. 2588429
Hey guys what's up lol
>>2588424 oh my goodness…
No. 2588430
>>2588424Not OP, learn to properly integrate.
Can you genuinely piss off with your shitty attitude? You are mean and rude for no reason and double down on someone who is already down.
No. 2588435
>>2588416ayrt, i might talk to him if it ever comes up in a convo but like
>>2588270 said i wouldnt wanna make him feel guilty just for having a life before me. it feels like it would be an unproductive convo the more i think about it because realistically what can he do? cant really erase the past LOL. he does normally encourage me to talk with him if im feeling down so if i start spiraling more i might let him know but im feeling a bit better now so i think ill just sit and reflect more on myself for now, ty for the input!
No. 2588494
>>2588452im not really hung up about him not being a virgin & i dont hate him for not being one, im talking more about other typical things couples do & experience together for the first time like doing new activities together, going on trips together, meeting each others parents, things like that. i just get worried that it wont be as novel to him as they will be for me. i feel like its silly of me to get worked up over all of this which is why i came here to vent & get it off of my chest, it hasnt been much of an issue for me until a few days ago.
>>2588473thats a good point. ill wait a couple more days to try and sort out my thoughts & see if i feel up to approaching him with this, would hate to have resentment build up over all this.
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>>2588512
i dont know dude i just dont know
No. 2588523
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Got my test results back today from the doctor. Turns out I wasn’t crazy about losing my hair, my potassium is stupidly low. Getting some bananas tomorrow at the store and seeing my doctor again in a few months. I hope it helps
No. 2588542
>>2588531Unpopular Opinions is here:
>>>/ot/2585766 in case you're confused.
No. 2588637
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>>2588636
Quotes don't make things true and this one has resulted in a lot of really stupid, pointless and forgettable art
No. 2588780
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>>2588680Art should comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable, but never ever ever ever have racism, sexism, homophobia, microagressions, ableism, misgendering,
trigger content, things that might make someone remember their exboyfriend, legos because legos are fascist or something, etc, etc, etc
No. 2588789
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>find people for gaming together
>its 3am and we're tipsy on voice chat
>one moid reveals he's into incest
>the other answers with being into lolicon
god DAMNIT can't they be NORMAL for ONCE PLEASE
No. 2588797
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>Reply something to a post
>ignored
>another user says the exact same thing i just said 10 minutes later
>the following discussion is everyone replying to them and referencing their post
story of my life. Same thing every time i say something irl, i could be giving perfectly accurate info only to be ignored then watch everyone thank and agree with someone right besides me who repeated the same thing i said.
I am either invisible or exude an aura that makes people hate me and never want to acknowledge me in any way
No. 2588866
>>2588857Kek they are sweethearts, they are known to have a very great temperament and aren’t aggressive at all though.
I’m sorry for the shitty experience nonna, but I’m glad you made it out safely, scrotes really do ruin everything.
No. 2588933
>>2588133You repaid her kindness by letting her live rent free for fuck knows how long. I'd take her to court over the unpaid rent and any damage she's caused, you probably won't get all your money back but it's something. Make sure to keep all the records of your conversations, including any normal non-landlord ones, if she says you were being threatening or aggressive you have proof that you weren't.
She obviously went into this with the intention of leeching off you. Why feel bad about kicking someone out for taking advantage of you? Grow a spine nonna, you're going to get burnt again if you keep acting like you're the one in the wrong here.
>>2588215Washing your face and nostrils, then putting a thin layer of Vaseline around your nostrils, helps to trap pollen and stops it from entering your nose. It won't completely stop your allergies but it does help a lot!
No. 2588995
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I finally accepted last night that our connection was fake and she just took advantage of my loneliness to get herself off. Which is good because it means I'm finally processing how she treated me. But man, it sucks. I feel like I can't trust anyone's kindness after being shown so much affection and then treated like I'm the crazy one for getting attached. What the fuck is wrong with people lol.
No. 2589021
>>2588875>scolding a random 20 year old womanDid your parents never scold you as a kid? Scolding is sometimes necessary.
>it is what it isBut it may be what it may be. It's in ourselves that things are this or that.
>Some trash is cleaner but if its all trash why deal with it.One man's trash is another man's treasure.
No. 2589044
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I am making up problems that no one has even imagined yet. Does anyone else feel like this? If anyone does I know this is the place.
Until the last few years most of my social life has been spent watching people and eavesdropping on conversations or cyberstalking random people. My romantic relationships have also consisted of stalking and obsessing over someone before I talk to them, sometimes for up to a year. A hobby I had in university was, instead of talking to people and making friends, searching their names on the class email list and tracking several people's social media over the years. For example, I can go to an event and recognize random people and just know their names/friend group/hobbies/dating history and they've never fucking met me. Real life and real people became like a TV show to me.
This is all fine and has even helped me when it comes to socializing so whatever, but my problem is that I feel as if I pollute people by involving myself in their lives. It's like I can't love someone as purely themselves if I intrude in their life experience. When I think of it too much it causes me genuine distress, especially in my romantic relationships. Part of what ruined my last relationship was that I felt I had changed the trajectory of her life too much by becoming a part of her story, it was as if I'd committed an atrocity. How could I say I actually love her if I was influencing her behavior and it wasn't pure observation? It's not necessarily low self-esteem, I just feel so much guilt.
My years of semi-omniscience, due to social anxiety and whatever other fucking pathologies I suffer with, has left me insane. This is a crazy problem. I carry it even from letting my friends know me. I will never know how they'd act without my interference.
It's impacting my current relationship again and I didn't even stalk him. I actively made the choice not to years ago, but maybe the fact I had the option is impacting me.
No. 2589058
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>>2589044i can relate, i've also lived vicariously through others, if i meet someone pretty much all of my anecdotes and stories are stuff i've taken from other people that didn't really happen to me.
I've always been a bit voyeur, not in a sexual way, just in general i prefer to contemplate and look at things without participating. If i had a superpower it would be to be like an invisible disembodied consciousness that floats at will and can go through walls like a ghost just observing the world. I know this is dissociation btw.
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>need 2 more classes to graduate
>school is offering 3 times for one class and they’re all full
>School is offering only one time for the other class and it’s almost full
These classes are always competitive to get into but would it kill my piece of shit college to offer more than one time for a class that’s in demand? Even worse since they didn’t full time hire my professor from last year who was hired so that there were at least two class times available. I just want to graduate ffs.
No. 2589073
>>2589058>dissociation Oh shit I guess it is. I love eavesdropping and lurking around quietly because I also get to forget I exist.
And yeah, I have had the same desire for a long time. It's not even necessarily low self-esteem, it's a different problem. I think I've just been coping for so long I'm idealizing and deriving morals from the cope.
Thank you for making me feel less alone.
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>>2589073>I love eavesdropping and lurking around quietly because I also get to forget I exist.I have been into this idea so long i-ve actually tried astral projecting and Lucid dreaming.
Had some really crazy vivid experiences when i tried the Monroe institute Gateway experience audios until i got scared because i felt it was falling into a glowie MK ultra rabbit hole.
No. 2589106
>>2589096yeah, in my time the weird people were skating and forming bands, going out to concerts or art shows, nowadays the equivalent is being a gendie game dev eternally online.
I am too old for tiktok or discord also can't deal with the gooner culture of today, and furries and genderspecials running everything like the Gestapo. I just bounce from different anonymous sites
No. 2589313
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>>2589251>I rarely get guys coming up to me and when they do they are actually gorgeousI am far from conventionally attractive and have the worst self-esteem but even I have had this happen on one or two separate occasions. He was a TIM (ew) but I even got to have sex with a physically attractive moid. Weird. Granted that last guy was a manwhore that would have slept with pretty much anyone, but some of those other guys seemed pretty genuine and nice. I'd like to think if I hadn't been so socially retarded and dense as always, even I could have had a qt 10/10 nigel by now.
No. 2589390
>>2589224Thank you for the wakeup call I try to keep busy and also have anxiety depression ocd and I don’t forget to shower no I actually hate showering because I feel sick afterwards. Anyone have this? Not forgetting to shower but hating showering. I showered twice yesterday and today it’s warm and I’m sweating and I just don’t care about showering I’m gonna sweat again. I wish I could buy a subscription on showering where I can extend my freshness by some device or something or be fullt showered in 2 minutes. I hate brushing my teeth but I can get that done twice a day usually since it’s only 2 minutes. Idea.. should I only try to shower 2 minutes daily? I hate water though I don’t know why but my body always hated showering and I could get by but started showering irregularly at some point and my body is just acting weird well my skin is really sensitive.
I’m gonna try to touch grass, by focusing on other things besides forums. I have to hand in my thesis but I need some breaks in between.
No. 2589398
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The dean referred me to see a student psychologist they employ but their company has a 1 star rating on google, what have I gotten myself into
No. 2589419
>>2589405Right on the money, nonna. It's simply drifting with the river stream. Even with the effort of making steps towards that "better" rather than waiting, it feels pointless.
Religion for an ounce of hope won't catch me again… but that did happen some years ago. lol awful times
No. 2589428
>>2589398Go anyway
nonnie, worst case scenario it sucks and you don't have to go anymore. But do seek therapy if you can afford it, if you find a therapist that works for you it can be life changing.
No. 2589476
>>2589467Nta but I think the physical ability is balanced out by their lack of self-control. Also one thing I don’t get when people talk about differences (eg it’s so easy to be fat when you’re short!) is that metabolism differences scale with hunger… a 6’5 200lb moid isn’t going to be burning tons of calories yet possessing the appetite of a 4’11 90lb girl/woman kekk. Like obviously. I think the only argument is that people might adjust themselves to the average portion sizes.
>>2589459You’re the second one in the past coupl of hours to mention another “forum”. Which one is it?
Anyway, like a year ago all of my vents got replies but I recently vented that they never get responses anymore haha. I haven’t gotten a response here in months. I think anons have just changed.
No. 2589478
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>when you are trying to lose 8kg and your already really skinny friends are adamant to tell you that you're fine the way you are
Also I realized today that my thigh muscles have shortened because I've spent too much time these past few years being a lazy ass, so I need to be more disciplined with my stretching both before and after my workouts at the gym but I think that's the most boring part uggh
No. 2589486
>>2589469Thanks actually and true true I do want to get things of my chest. Sounding self centered hmm I don’t hear that often tbh. Only once when I was talking a lot and was short in my replies to a family member. I guess I do sound long winded irl too then. The thing is not really either though I talk just enough in real life and only become “long winded” when I’m close with someone. I always thought that’s how connections were formed, by having long conversations. But maybe that’s why I don’t have friends? The thing is if I don’t talk, the conversation dies out kind of. I hate the awkwardness so then I tend to talk too much!
Because I’m scared of having no friends and then in the end I still have no friends kek!
I can sound self centred actually because I’m constantly nit picking to see if I’m being a good friend. I always think, friend and talk go hand in hand. So that does take away a bit from being a better conversation partner.
I do ask a lot of questions too and then I get to know their deepest secrets and then they feel weird? Exaggerating a little here for comedic relief.
It wasn’t even bait kek. Something to think about.
About the financial advice fair enough lolcow is not the place.
Do you have friends btw? How are you as a friend? Serious question.
No. 2589494
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>>2589405sometimes Just Thinking Posivitely unironically works…
No. 2589512
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I hope bus drivers that let you come up to the door, look at you, then drive away watch their children and pets get skinned alive before their eyes. Fuck public transportation. Also fucking hate it when car owners complain about whatever but they don't have to deal with this shit and then some.
No. 2589534
>>2589524That is so gross
nonnie I'm sorry he was failing you like that
No. 2589548
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Me and my therapist had the weirdest moment today where I was trying to tell him about something embarrassing that was making me feel bad about myself, and my throat out of nowhere got so dry that I couldn’t speak at all and could just cough for like two full minutes? It was like my body was trying to stop me from talking about stuff that is humiliating kek he was looking at me like picrel the whole time
No. 2589610
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I really wanted to buy pizza but I'm trying to get back to my usual weight and I'm at my calorie limit for the day. I decided to weigh myself and that immediately killed the idea but the craving is still there. It helps a lot to think of my husbando as he's the reason I'm trying to lose weight. I want to look my best for him. I'll be strong for him.
No. 2589635
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had a stupid argument with some colleagues at work and by the end of it I still don't know wtf they were mad at
No. 2589651
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i am scared to have sex, and be bad at it, and let a woman down because they will expect me to be good at intimacy in general, and at this point i think i should just stay single and sexless
No. 2589691
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FUCK ALL THESE MOSQUITOES
No. 2589714
>>2589713I got you
nonnie I'm already cooking some
No. 2589720
>>2589714You saved my life
nonnie>>2589717>Tupperware to vomit inNemu?!
No. 2589764
>>2589486i mostly gave up on having friends due to controlling family and not feeling comfortable having friends because i'm a "
TERF" and i don't want to bother vetting people. i'm autistic and not good at building deep relationships in the first place, growing up i found my people but then never could maintain the friendships (part of why i gave up).
yea a lot of deeply insecure people unfortunately come across as self-centered and it further pushes people away, because in a way you literally are, you can't engage as well with other people because you're so stressed about yourself. engaging with other people usually means matching their energy, some are invested enough to engage with long replies but most others don't. and then you build a deeper relationship and can have more significant convos.
No. 2589808
>>2589705we've all been there
hope you feel better soon nona
No. 2589838
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I genuinely loathe being autistic with every fiber of my being and I hate that woketards have made it unacceptable to say that autism is a curse. I loathe that the meaning of the term “autism” has been watered down so much that every mildly quirky person self-diagnoses themselves with it and then expresses disdain for people with actual autistic traits. I loathe feeling alone in a room full of people. I loathe having to rehearse everything I say in my head before I say it to make sure I don’t say anything that weirds people out or offends them by accident. I loathe it when I inevitably do no matter how much I try not to. I loathe people who insist that they were the “weird kid” growing up when I had full-blown meltdowns in public and I was so weird that even my teachers joined in on the bullying. I loathe it when people hit on me because of my looks only to run away the instant I show even 10% of my true self. I loathe having to practice being human. I loathe having a grating voice. I loathe being unable to talk about my interests. I loathe being unable to relate to other women. I loathe how people, especially men, assume that I’m a bitch/rude/choosing to be the way that I am and I loathe knowing that if I was a man they’d immediately clock the autism and everyone would make excuses for me because of it. I loathe how my parents knew I was autistic and withheld that information from me and my teachers. I have been diagnosed with numerous crippling conditions and if I could get rid of one of them I’d instantly choose autism. I want a cure for this NOW.
No. 2589850
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I kicked down a kid’s lemonade stand and ran away. I don’t feel any remorse; someone needs to teach them early on that you don’t get to just sell your shitty Signature Select lemonade mix for $3 a cup. Children are getting greedy and the father was standing nearby on the driveway essentially pimping out his fucking lemonade peddler. You live in one of the richest cities, I’m sure you will be well taken care of Thomas, so don’t try to pity me into buying your subpar lemonade. I’m hardly getting by with a job at Walmart, my father abused me in all forms as a child and I can hardly make ends meet as a college graduate. He better be getting molested by a family member because MAYBE then I’d call it even and kick the pitcher of lemonade rather than the whole child and the stand. (I didn’t kick him, just a silly take on a metaphor. I’m not a lunatic.)
Not even that but can you imagine a grown adult selling lemonade? I’d get honked at and called an unemployed loser. Probably raped by one of the homeless. At least he has his father as a bodyguard there (useless considering I made a clean getaway). Meanwhile this kid is allowed to make, what, $30 an hour? (It’s a busy street so very possible he was selling much more than 10 cups an hour.)(bait)
No. 2589872
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>>2589838Holy shit, I could've written this. I was especially feeling this when I walked into Spencer's the other day and they had a rack full of the most painfully cringe "autism pride" shirts I've ever seen. Jesus Christ at this point I'd rather just be viewed as a retarded recluse.
No. 2589889
>>2589876Nooooooo… really?
Well, I mean… at least that means somewhere out there is a man who hates anal sex as much as I do so I guess that's a silver lining.
No. 2589965
>>2589945>>2589954It’s way too hot to exercise now but I do exercise and go to the gym from October to May and then do low impact workouts at home with the AC in between kek. I am toned most of the time due to genetics, I even receive compliments about my shape. I just don’t see it myself. I never felt right, at whatever weight I am I always feel like a blob, like “if I didn’t have x then I would like myself”.
I stay away from calorie counting and I don’t have any scales in my dorm for this reason. I would like to just be normal and not think this way.
>>2589923It does make sense. When I was at my skinniest and my mom kept telling me that I looked like a man I felt “right” kek.
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I'm fucking retarded!
No. 2590077
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>>2590071Anon doesn't want toilet water splashing in her face
No. 2590079
>>2590066No, but I have always been a very easily nauseated person. Thankfully I rarely vomit nowadays because I actually have meds to stop the random nausea I get semi frequently. Idk why I didn’t get Zofran or reglan until I specifically asked for them, I always figured if Pepcid or gas X or ginger didn’t work you were fucked in terms of stomach aches and nausea. When I realized oh no there are totally meds that make you not be nauseous I was like why the fuck has nobody ever offered this to me?
Also I found out I have celiac disease a few years ago, there’s a chance I’ve always had it but wasn’t reacting as violently before a few years ago (got diagnosed cause I just started puking literally everything and lost a ton of weight in a couple weeks) and a chance it was a vague intolerance my whole life and activated into full blown celiac due to stressors. But yeah I spent a good quarter century or more just walking around puking all the time and consistently nauseous. I have a lot of vomiting experience unfortunately.
No. 2590091
>>2590065Huh? It's the same place shit and other waste goes, why would this one bodily waste be an exception? It's just as nasty so it should be with the rest. Flushing it away is also a lot quicker and convenient. Vomiting in a sink is 1000 times grosser imo
>>2590084Idg how this even happens maybe my pukes weren't heavy enough kek
No. 2590093
>>2590081>Bathrooms also have everything you need to "recover" from the puking to be presentable again. Ah, I think because my nausea and vomiting was due to some inherent illness of mine, there was never any recovering I was planning to do after vomiting. Besides sleeping. If anything I was sometimes semi relieved to vomit in certain situations as a minor especially cause it meant I could just go be nauseated at home. it was proof positive that I was sick enough to not be in school (in fact they always sent kids who puked home in my district). Surprisingly kids did not abuse this system.
I have vomited in sinks and trash cans of bathrooms while too drunk but never toilets. So I can see how recovering in a bathroom could be useful. I doubt I do a very good job of it if I’m so drunk I’m vomiting, though. And again, not bulimic, so
never had anything but almost pure liquid vomit while drunk tbh kek and never had an issue with too much volume of vomit.
No. 2590104
>>2590091It's not your puke being too light, it's about the force. There's a way to make it more forceful but I'd rather not say how, vomiting is like a shower, it has different modes of spraying kek
>>2590093Yeah, I forgot to mention but another reason I prefer bathrooms is because it feels cleaner. It's one of those rooms, same as kitchens, that you pay twice more attention to when cleaning. If I threw up in my room I would feel like it would always be dirty from there on, and I'd hate the smell sitting on my belongings and clothes. The volume of vomit is definitely a bulimic thing, but still worth considering if you have cheap plastic bags. Doubling up with them and using a bowl to catch it is definetly the right move though.
No. 2590114
>>2590065I've vomitted in sinks, bath tubs, garbage bags, the street, my hat, on the carpet, projectilely all over, and the toilet.
1) the weird toilet water smell helps things along, sue me
2) everything else, besides outside like a degenerate, requires some kind of cleanup that takes longer than a simple flush
No. 2590222
>>2590102samefag i think i just manipulated him into realizing he still wants me. stay
toxic girls
No. 2590417
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worked for 2 fucking years on myself and my portfolio only to end up not even being close to getting into college. it was the only thing i had going for me. i have 0 marketable skills, can't last doing the most min. wage jobs, do i just go full schizo and apply for disability or something? i've never been more lost in life and i don't know what to do. i sure as fuck don't want to reapply to that college, i feel like the professors there hate me for being a useless retard.
No. 2590544
>>2590520Well, you’re posting on LC which means you aren’t locked up in federal prison. It’s pretty hard to
truly fuck up your life beyond repair.
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>>2590520De-transitioner?
No. 2590604
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I'm in the middle of multiple health crises and I'm so, so fucking tired, anons. Something gets better, something else decides to fuck off immediately after, and I'm mentally ill all the time throughout it.
No. 2590605
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I sometimes miss being naive and trusting of people to be fair. I rarely crave that type of romantic companionship, but when I do I feel quite sad for letting certain opportunities slide, either because of trust issues due to severe bullying at school and even at home, paranoid - ish sentiments of people hunting me for sport, never believing the other person they liked me and the “I said I like you as a joke/because I lost a bet” that still sticks with me (been told that way too many times by too many people).
But on the other hand, I certainly know that a romantic relationship is a death sentence to my own freedom and I don’t wanna pay that price. Maybe it’s the few relationships I had in which I was walked over and the people I chose, but man, I do miss falling asleep while cuddling with someone. (I’m bi so no, it wasn’t just moids who were shitty to me)
And I got to this point of emotional shutdown in which I don’t know how attraction and affectiveness towards someone should feel anymore - what should I feel in the first place because I feel numb most of the time? Even a cigarette makes me feel something kek.
No. 2590625
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I’ve been subtly flirting with my coworker for months and only yesterday did I find out he has a girlfriend when he casually brought it up.
No. 2590704
>>2590555Remind him that scrotes age faster and that he’s on his marry way to anal prolapse so he should think about himself.
I hate faggots.
No. 2590786
>>2590740>>2590754Not FGM but I recently learned that my mom was raped, resulting in the birth of my youngest brother. The rapist decided he wanted to be 'part of his son's life' and that's how I found out that he's my half-brother and not my father's child. I had to sit across from this man as he tried to chat my little brother up and not get angry as he talked about my brother's half-siblings and his life after he raped my mom. I wanted to kill him, scream at him, anything because I wanted to hurt him for hurting her and my family for so long. My dad never said anything, always treated my brother as his son, and it's only now that he's passed away that this slimball wants to make himself known. What a fucking monster. I told my mom, privately, that the next time I see that fucker that I'll smack him across the face, and she told me that I should be kind for my brother's sake. I was so pissed off. My aunt, her younger sister, was also raped and had her rapist's child, though that wasn't kept a secret (and that guy is dead, thank goodness). I hate these men who decided to assault the women I love, and I hate that I kind of hate my mom for hiding it from us. No. 2590866
>>2590835There is no daddy shit when you are that age, you are a retard if you are 30 and dating a 60 year old God gracious. It’s not daddy it’s more like grandpa and his live-in nurse.
>pedro pascalOf course they fucking do kekk.
No. 2590877
>>2590611Is he autistic?
A guy I was friendly with in college is now a.. bird furry. Got a big custom made bird costume and a giant tattoo of his birdsona? taking up his entire back now. He wanted to date me years ago and I dodged because he one, seemed really in denial about the fact that he's clearly autistic. And two, seemed like the kinda guy who'd just hop on grindr after being rejected by too many women. Sure enough he's proudly bi now too but only sleeps with men. Won't date them. Wants a gf kek
No. 2590895
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I know I'll probably be called a retard for this, but here goes. Two days ago, I lost my phone in an Uber car. When I arrived home and realised that I had lost it, the first thing I did was change the passwords for my other email accounts and log out of them, so that the person who grabbed the phone couldn't log in, even though it was password-protected.
Everything was fine yesterday until I returned home from being outside. When I turned on my laptop, I was logged out of my main email account. I don't have a recovery email address for that account, and I don't have access to the linked phone number. I have tried using the "other login options" on Gmail, but it keeps telling me that I haven't provided enough information.
No. 2591039
>>2591008>>2591011I'd an ex where it took too long to get out because same, no family to fall back on and rents were going up alot. Looking back I think he assumed I was trapped too. That made him feel fine to keep raging out. Some guys trap partners with a baby.. now some just know shit's so expensive and if you've no parents to fall back on even that's enough to make em feel comfortable.
Got to the point where I realized we only got along if we were both at work all day and barely spent a couple hours together in the evenings. Weekends, special occasions.. any time that should've been quality time, his temper came out. He expected to just carry on living like that
No. 2591091
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My friend , the retard who cheated on her bf and who is now having sex with the first people she finds:
>guy 1
>met on tinder
>short
>looks like a faggot
>plain face
>beard
>has sex with other women (or men)
But she says he does fuck well
>guy 2
>ugly
>receding hairline
>cheater
She says that she is keeping him because it strokes her ego since he just wants her.
>guy 3
She is going to meet him next week. But he is an uggo too. Or maybe it’s just me who finds men ugly kekk.
I don’t know how she has time for sex with all this heat, it’s way too fucking hot.
I dialed down and just became a “yass girl! So cool” because she acted like a baby last time when I didn’t “support” her shenanigans.
The only thing now is that she has to tell every time she sex, which is annoying as hell. I don’t care that you had sex on the floor with the fan on, that you went to the beach and had sex and then the next day you went to the other one to have sex for 1 h.
I am trying to find other friends but it’s hard holy hell. Should I put Bumble friends? I just want a normal woman who is not a retard when she sees a dick
No. 2591092
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>>2591089You sound like my friend and you
triggered my ongoing PTSD
No. 2591137
>>2591126It’s just annoying to hear the same discourse every time I hear her. I’m just tired of hearing about
>I studied and has sex>I sucked dick>I feel better because I had sex>tonight I’m busy because I’ll have sex>before my exam I had sex>it was hot but I had sex>after my exam I had sexI AM TIRED. Why does everything have to be centered about sex and dicks , it’s tiring and frankly boring. Same goes with the nonnas here.
No. 2591141
>>2591137>>2591138sounds annoying
how does she have so many sex partners?
i mostly masturbate tbh i havent had sex in like a year
No. 2591143
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>>2591138Before the nympho brigade comes after me , this is the vent thread and u can say what I want.
No. 2591145
>>2591138sex is loser behavior
horniness is a measure of how much of a loser you are
No. 2591150
>>2591141She put Tinder and found guy 1, guy 2 she met him at a party through a mutual friend, possible candidate 3 met him through her faggot roommate.
She is chatty so it’s easy to talk to her , she is also the aggressive type that pursues and she is not overtly beautiful to the point that they are intimidated.
It’s pretty easy to fuck if you just accept anything that comes your way nonna.
No. 2591169
>>2591137I know someone who does the same thing but she always complains about how
bad the sex was, which might be even more annoying because she could literally just stop.
No. 2591202
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feeling manic
it's so over for me
No. 2591431
>>2590785honestly, not really. he was kind of a fag even when we were together but this is kind of a new low
>>2590844mary sue fox KEK
>>2590877he's not officially diagnosed with autism but i wouldn't be surprised if he was. he was mostly an anime/cartoon autist and not a furry guy when we were together. also, he's the type of guy that i wouldn't be super surprised if he trooned out eventually so… go figure. afaik he still is straight but who knows how he'll turn out in a couple of years. this is so embarrassing to write out even if this is anonymous holy shit
No. 2591790
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Why do I subject myself to Facebook.
No. 2591797
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>>2591790She’s also from Waco, Texas
No. 2591904
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Cn't wait to get a decent job so I can be free of my terrible moid flatmate. He used to have some self awareness when we were younger but now he's over 30 and rotted by internet use and female enablers he's more entitled, whiny and insecure in that way that means he interprets every single struggle i have as a 'win' for his lazy ass. I can't be bothered and ignore his bullshit but it still pisses me off how delusional and smug he is. It's worse now he has more money than me and constantly rubs it in. I could torment him, knowing this is due to his insecurity, but I have no energy even to fuck with men anymore. I just want to be free for the first time in my life so I can start building the support system I want. Hopefully he doesn't initiate anything (he tends to assume I want to fuck him because we had sex twice about 6 years ago) because I will punch him in the cock so hard he needs medical treatment… and i don't want to get arrested.
No. 2592004
>>2591998Shift your mindset and start doing it for yourself. Yeah, art is pointless if you don't wanna actually
create art, and just want an audience. It's natural to want a bit of praise and connection, we are all human. But the fact that you're focusing solely on that instead of expressing yourself and making stuff because it fulfills
you is setting yourself up for failure. Life in general is more than just performing to others. Godspeed, nona
No. 2592045
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Excitedly opening up an AO3 email from a fandom writer you're subscribed to only to find it's baseball RPF
No. 2592233
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my mother has gone from
>i'm really sad my brother and i are estranged
to
>i need to change my will to make sure this piece of shit doesn't get a single cent from me
i mean i agree that my uncle is a dipshit but idk what happened and i'm afraid to ask
No. 2592261
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I hate that there's almost no effective suicide method other than shooting yourself in the head. In terms of low pain/instant death and annihilation. Since I was a teenager I've had low-key fantasies of being murdered. Doing for me what I can't do myself, especially as I'm getting older. I feel like it was a mistake I was even born, why must being alive be so terrifying? Like every day is being graded on a test. I think being neglected, abused and exposed to edgelord content at lik 10 years old destroyed me as a person. If I was less of an antisocial depressive I'm scared I'd be a lolcow with how pathetic I am
No. 2592270
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i think one of the kids from my workplace got me sick. i feel like shit. i think its just a stomach bug, but if its not, i know that tomorrow i'll feel even worse. eugh
No. 2592275
>>2592233Huh, my mother has recently started ranting about her narcissist sister and won't stop telling me how that slimy little bitch won't get a shred of sympathy from her no matter what. Maybe it's an age thing? Old people always say they don't give a shit about people pleasing, if your mom had to spend her life playing second fiddle to her shitty brother and was expected to continue to bow and scrape to him she might be releasing years of resentment towards her brother.
It's probably for the best, so good for her, I also hope she doesn't give that no good son of a bitch a single cent and that he gets what's coming to him.
No. 2592278
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>>2592261Get better nonna. You matter, picrel is my kitten, called him Tiki, he loves sweets and naps. You matter and this world needs you
No. 2592301
I am deeply afraid of anybody ever since I knew myself, it feels like any sorta human personal interaction is just choosing the way you wanna be abuse, it's either Chinese water torture of constant bickering and slaps and punches that don't hurt that bad and you get attention but it's only negative attention ex:my mom, my sister, my female middle school and high school bullies or you do get no attention but once in a blue moon you get positive attention but you have to whatcha out for the possibility of being beat to a pulp, ex:my dad, my male middle school and highschool bully, there is no win, I just wished I was the last person on earth so I can finally live in peace, can not believe I spend the first 20 years of my life in constant worry and gut reaching fear of somehow making a mistake or misspeaking or heck just accidentally braking something since I am clumsy, fuck everybody, I hate everything.
No. 2592361
>>2592353Does it help you to know your anxiety was
triggered by metabolic products of alcohol consumption and probably not by you actually being cringey? Or maybe you're already aware, hence why you're mad at alcohol. Still, I find it helps me get through the rough patch to keep telling myself it's chemical and I don't need to analyse my drunk behaviour.
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I've been trying to learn French for a while because my husbando speaks it, but French people always seem like they want to kill you if you aren't speaking it fluently… I love him but it feels like a waste since I'll never really use the language
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I randomly get spells where it's hard for me to breathe and it feels like I'm breathing through a straw. I think it happens when I don't go outside for long periods of time. mfw my shut in-ness is basically turning me into an asthmatic
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Saw a bit from a shoujo manga and got upset about how I was treated in the past. What a lame fucking thing to get triggered by
No. 2592482
>>2592353Ah that's nothing nonna, you'll be back to normal and at least you can chalk it up to the alky.
Meanwhile I had an exBPDemon friend who decided she wasn't going to pace herself on her birthday with her meds and proceeded to mortify our entire friend group and hosts by having a psychotic breakdown after downing several spiked seltzer drinks. Didn't bother to let any of us know she was on those meds that would not be good to mix with alcohol so it was traumatizing. Complete with slamming shit not hers inside the host's house and acting wildly jealous of her bf (whose birthday it was technically after midnight) and accused us all of not giving her enough attention for her birthday. She got so out of control that she ran away when her bf asked her to calm down, so the cops were called. She called me on my phone hissing like a serial killer telling me to shut up and listen to her (I wasn't even talking), then detailed how she wanted me to grab her stuff from the house and go pick her up. Did she know where she was? No, just wanted me to go driving around. She was picked up by police during her call to me and I could hear her voice and personality switch immediately trying to tell them lies about what happened.
A day later? Some half ass "apology" to us and that was never talked about again.
No. 2592643
>>2591797Disgusting mindset and mask off moment.
>>2591813Mood. Same. I knew I was worthless and I wouldn't get anywhere since I was a little kid because it's the things always been.
No. 2592665
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My best friend has to lose roughly 40 pounds so her insurance will pay for her breast reduction. It wouldn't have been an issue if she still lived alone - she has lost a lot of weight on her own before but gained back once she moved in with her girlfriend, and her girlfriend is in charge of all the cooking (my friend does all the cleaning in return) but she doesn't know how to bring up to her that they need to do some changes in their eating habits; less desserts, cut down on alcohol, change out ingredients for healthier options, more greens, etc. It would be great for both of them since the girlfriend is even heavier than she is, but because the girlfriend believes in some of the jargong used in today's warped body positivity movement, the line between a normal diet and eating disorders in her mind are EXTREMELY thin.
It annoys me, just because the girlfriend doesn't want to change to healthier habits because she can't grasp that changing regular cream for a low-fat option isn't a sign of having an unhealthy relationship with food it's going to cost my friend the opportunity for a better quality of life. My friend is currently trying to get in touch with a dietitian so she can have a paper she can point to whenever the girlfriend starts protesting. But it's frustrating that it's necessary for her to do so.
No. 2592666
>>2592665You should be more concerned about your friend being in a
toxic relationship than her weight
No. 2592669
>>2592666I'm not concerned by her weight, I'm concerned about the opportunity she'll lose with this.
But their relationship is definitely not
toxic, they have a great relationship the issue is just that the girlfriend is inflexible when it comes to the subject of food and weight. Having different views on a topic =/=
toxic relationship
No. 2592678
>>2592669Sorry to break it to you but not supporting the partner's goals is
toxic af, especially if the goal is something pertaining to health. Someone can have different views than the other person without issue as long as it doesn't affect the other person's life. Knowing someone already lost weight to reach a goal and then tempting them back into gaining all that weight back when you know they have a problem with controlling their weight is
toxic af. A healthy person supports their partner and doesn't destroy their achievements with constant temptations to bring them back to the baseline level they are comfortable with their partner being at.
No. 2592746
>>2592745Also
>don’t call the police when your daughter doesn’t come back after two days on a trip with this man.Bunch of retards. Jan didn’t deserve any of this, my heart breaks for her.
No. 2592751
>>2592745And also
>keep having relations with said man after he already kidnapped your daughter . The wife even had sex with him.They should all be jailed.
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>take melatonin to sleep early to try to fix horrible sleep schedule
>have nightmare about being in MIDDLE SCHOOL again
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>>2592807You know what to do