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No. 2460876
A thread for venting about difficult, weird, or stupid stuff going on in your life.
Previous vent thread:
>>>/ot/2449812Follow all the /ot/ board rules & do not reply to bait.
Please, do not come to this thread to make fun of anons' vents, to demean them, or to try and be funny with some shit snark reply. It's annoying. If you do not have anything nice to say, don't say it at all. No. 2460883
>>2460784>>2460735Panick attack nonna
Go to the doctor to start benzos, to take only during panick attacks ; and maybe therapy
You really can't leave your job because you have panick attacks, because it's participating to the cycle. You need to have your body learn how to handle stress better. If you just isolate yourself in your own little bubble, it'll only get worse and soon you'll be panicking over literally nothing and be completely dysfunctional (I've seen it happen)
No. 2460892
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Just looked at a calendar to schedule when I will need to work and get everything done by for my classes and I may as well kms. I fucking hate that I agreed to this bullshit project in January, it’s not even going to be good and just a huge waste of time. And all the projects I actually want to work on will suffer because of it. God fucking dammit.
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I wish every smartphone would explode. They ruined the world
No. 2460912
>>2460904It is yeah, they usually only bring it up when you’re arguing with them kek
>>2460907I mean it’s a big part of lolcow? Also applies to G and M.
Also I don’t go on snow or pt a lot but the threshold for what milk is seems unreasonably high, although that’s probably a good thing, just like it’s a good thing that nobody is allowed to blogpost in those threads or we would end up like kiwi farms.
No. 2460924
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I don't know whats wrong with me but I fucking hate my uni friend. She barely even goes to class and always expects me to spoonfeed her information that she will never bother to ask the profs herself, and when she does come, I get so bored talking to her I try to zone out while she's having one of her 100 tangents. It wouldn't be even half as bad if she pulled her weight and didn't fuck up every single assignment we do together. She's not a bad person, just really fucking irresponsible and not suitable for me, but I feel like im stuck with her. Literally I find every single aspect of her personality bland and boring. She's starting to irrationally irritate me and I dont know how this is going to end. I'm scared I'm going to blow up in her face if i dont learn to draw boundaries.
And she takes forever to respond to texts when i ask her about important shit. Cherry on top.
No. 2460943
>>2459983Dad sounds like a control freak who would push for full custody if you give him the slightest reason to doubt your competency as a mother. Give him that and drop the kid and start over. You don't have to spend 20 years in prison for a choice you were groomed into as a child. Child support payments would be preferable to having to interact with a man who shit talks you every time you have to meet him and ruins your self esteem. Plus the kid feels the same way so let the moid machine have him. This will sting, but the woman your ex winds up settling with may have better self esteem and he might respect her more, which would be a better situation for your kid anyways. It can't get much worse than being juggled between two parents, one of whom despises the other.
>>2460047It's a nice idea but probably not right for her. She's got the right idea to branch out into ASMR. I fucking love ASMR when I'm in the mood, calms me down so much. The competition is high but the demand is there too.
>>2460180It is absolutely a midas touch thing and you are correct, the baking gods hate you. If your baking karma was good you could wing recipes, ingredient swap, and make layer cakes and eclairs on the first try.
>will they read this. welp No. 2461041
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I'm so deep deep in phone addiction. The only thing that can persistently distract me is work. I don't even post on or use any major social platforms, it's all boards, blogs, ytube and maybe reddit. I think I really made it worse by getting a hacked addless youtube that lets you watch shit nonstop or have it play in the background + having phone as my only gadget for years after my laptop died.
When I'm home and don't have anything urgent to do, it takes a frankly stupid amount of willpower to drop my idiotbox and do something else. I only have a couple of friends to spend time with but we are all 25 and over and have jobs. I need to find some active hobby or became a volunteer at an animal shelter or something because I don't have an incentive to drop the screen otherwise. Summer getting closer is also good, last year I would go on a long hikes with only a podcast on and most of my phone functionality blocked with one of those anti-distraction apps.
No. 2461313
I'm a terrible person and I'm jealous of all the good, hardworking people who try their best every day. I don't understand why am I like this, I noticed this problem from a young age. When I was in school I had very good grades however I was only doing the bare minimum, just doing my homework and studying like one hour the day before the test. Then I noticed that some other kids were the actual top performers, winning all sorts of competitions and achievements, and I remember being jealous as fuck because how can they actually be so hardworking and put so much effort in studying? Whenever I heard how many hours some of these kids were studying and how focused and motivated they were I was shocked cause I knew I could never have the patience and inner drive to do that. In a fucked up way I was super proud of myself for not having to study as much and still being able to ace all the tests, but deep down I was seething because I couldn't be hardworking and it's gonna bite me in the ass eventually. I knew that I was lazy, and the cracks appeared more and more as I got older. As expected, in the end I just turned into an unmotivated depressed adult who maybe had potential a long time ago, but now it's too late to fix all the bad habits I gained from years of procrastinating and lazing around. Now I even lost the ability to study properly and I feel dumbed down, as if my brain has rotten. I can't even last more than a month at a basic job. Meanwhile all those hardworking kids are now in med school, or they're studying computer science, while working part time.
No. 2461454
>>2461043i'm not, but i did have some changes when i first started taking my meds some 2 years ago so i get where you're coming from. and i fully get the built up blood feeling, it's so nasty and frustrating, like why can't you just come out???
>>2461104>>2461317i'm currently in the search for a new gyno, and i probably do need my hormones checked since both me and my mom suspect that i have some (likely mild) hormonal imbalance. in my case, i don't think it's endo or pcos (good luck to you, potential endo nona! i've heard doctors are shit about diagnosing it), it may be pmdd but my symptoms are pretty inconsistent from month to month which confuses me. my cycle has been punctual to a t for the past year or two, but i did have a period
(kek) where my cycle randomly went from ~26 days to 30-33 days and it fucked me up beyond belief (that was a few months after i started taking my meds, so likely cause?). this is just the first time it's been late in so long and i really don't wanna go back to that old long cycle because the stress of it almost broke me. thank you for your advice nonnas ♥
No. 2461507
>>2461369cream steeroids?
if youve been taking corticosteroids as pills then yeah you'll get a flare up when getting off, but creams aren't supposed to do that
also youre supposed to have a very heavy moisturizer on the side that you keep up all the time even when not using corticosteroids
No. 2461509
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It just feels like nothing good happens. It feels like those who are evil get away with everything, and those who are good suffer endlessly. It feels like people's hatred for evil is entirely performative and they'll always go and support those who are evil if they are their friends, family, lovers etc. I wish something, anything really, could finally happen to those who are evil. It's so easy for them to ruin our lives but so hard for us to do something about it. Everyone who's ever hurt me gets to go on with no issue but I'll be stuck suffering their consequences, it's really not fair.
No. 2461558
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>>2461509I know that feel. The world is unfair and bullies, psychopaths and narcissists win. The only thing good people can do is stay true to themselves, and keep doing good things not because they will result in a reward but because it's what they believe in. The only way solution would be to become evil yourself but if that goes against your core beliefs it's incredibly hard to change.
No. 2461600
>>2461358I’m so sorry to hear this
nonny. Please try to be gentle to yourself during grieving.
No. 2461637
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Look anon, my impression of your fat cat! Dieting is no fuuuuun, I wanna snack on something, but the stuff that is most fun to eat has most calories, I'm not just dieting, I'm also dieing, waahwahwah. Just, this isn't only an impression of a fat cat, it's my actual life right now, too, waahwahwah.
No. 2461667
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>Think "damn, I look cute today"
>Admire self in mirror like a narc
>Nice
>Take a selfie
>Look at the picture
>EVIL CRYPTID SEWER CREATURE STARES BACK
The unbreakable curse.
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>>2461693Thanks kind
nonnie No. 2461862
>have horrible headache that wont go away, due to toxic scrote roommate, and messed up sleep
>go to kitchen
>toxic scrote starts directly following me on the way
>shows me some unnecessary object (not food) that he bought that contradicts my worldview/ethical views, expecting me to fawn over it and praise him
>I gave a polite response, question if it is from animals or not, he confirms it is, I say, "oh.." and turn around
>pickme roommate says "Its (meaning my apparent negative response) because its from animal products"
>he then walks out
>pickme gets distant with me, ditches me, walks into other room and says the thing he bought looks nice
>he will probably act sad/hurt, and make me out to be mean, and we cant have that! even though he never wished me a happy birthday and he has anger issues, holds grudges for years
>now Im anticipating further ostracization for not kissing his butt while having a painful headache
No. 2461884
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Saw an African music video and all the hot girls surrounding the male singer were chubby. They had natural healthy bodies on the chubby side, it was actually so cute but damn does it hurt that that's seen as a niche weird thing here where skinny is the ideal. That's what it should be like, men should appreciate normal women and healthy and happy should be the ideal but it isn't.
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Tired and my muscles are sore but I still have work to do
No. 2461992
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>>2461980Wide angular people look better in selfies bc lens perspective and distortion. The closer something is, the softer and rounder it appears
No. 2462057
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I fucking hate myself for letting this feeling hit me once again.
Can’t sleep and my stomach hurts for some reason, but I’m feeling the “life is a race and I’m losing” thing even though I shouldn’t. For the record, I’m a second worlder, so maybe that’s why I feel like this. I kinda dread turning 26 in a month because I feel like I can’t get away with a lot of shit at this point and I feel inadequate because I didn’t check most things everyone has by this age (ridiculous I know). On the other hand, I find it neat because I never thought I’ll make it to 15, kek.
I hate that I lived and still live by others’ rules, I did things I hated most of this life and putting my dreams aside, hoping that after uni I will chase them but now I realize that it will be more impossible with each passing day. No one wants someone who wants to do acting and art related stuff after 25.
Can’t even find my place tbh, maybe the graveyard is my place after all, but I don’t want my parents to live their worst nightmare - burying their only child.
This summer I’m graduating uni and I hope I’ll live this bumfuck place asap, maybe that will change my view. And I find it ridiculous to feel that way since I have a baby face still and can get mistaken for someone in highschool still, so I can get away somehow, but seeing people my age and younger living their dreams while I’m stuck makes me wanna kms since it’s gonna be downhill from now on I fear.
Fuck, I should get a therapist kek.
Although, I should remember and be grateful that I achieved 2 things by now: a better relationship with my parents and my last suicide attempt was almost 7 years ago, maybe that’s something.
No. 2462094
>>2460488>>2459553 anon from last thread here. Nothing wrong with carefully weighing your options and their potential effectiveness vs. cost, both monetary and to quality of life. It's very easy to tell someone to do all the treatments available no matter what the cost when they're not the one paying for them and suffering the side effects. It's perfectly acceptable to say you're not willing to go through so much hassle for so little gain. Hair loss kind of puts us in an unwinnable position in that no matter what we do with it, someone who hasn't been through it always has a weirdly strong opinion on it.
And kek, I know exactly what you mean with thick-haired people looking us straight in the eye and complaining about how oh-so-awful it is to have thick hair. No doubt it can be a lot of work to care for and I bet it's very hot in the summer but… come on, now. Possibilities for thinning out thick hair and still have it look decent are near endless, but I'd love to see one of them try to work the kind of black magic we have to do to make our hair look even close to average thickness. They can get back to me once they've had to fill out their hairline and part with eyebrow pencil for a few years, lmao.
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>>2462197This is what all women who have peaked started out doing, but in naive loving way. I hope we are able to discuss troons less bc they are unable to infringe on women, their rights or spaces more than they already have, or that regresses due to social/peer pressure. Then everyone wins, most of all the troons
No. 2462201
>>2462173>>2462197I agree, I kind of reached “peak
terf”, not in the sense I no longer agree with them, I just don’t think it’s really as big of a problem as they make it out to be, and I see a lot of so called feminists starting to lean right because they’re so entrenched in the anti tranny stuff, and they even start to distrust anyone at all who’s gender non conforming or even gay.
No. 2462209
>>2461058>now I have stuff that I don't like nor use but I feel too guilty to refuse these "gifts" and I'm also moving out and don't need more stuffHonestly, you can trash the items if you don't
like or need them. If she didn't take the care to think about your interests and needs in gifting you something, you shouldn't be obligated to feel sentimental about keeping your friend's drawer trash.
No. 2462253
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I want a bf so badly. My life is so shallow. I just want to hug a cute guy while we watch a movie, or show him my shitty art while he praises me. I just want to have one good thing in my life, one thing that inspires me to wake up and try my best every morning. If i cant be a happy neet i want to at least be a happy normalfag. I am putting so much effort into things i dont give a fuck and i get absolutely nothing out of it. My life is so miserable right now. I get no time to focus on my hobbies anymore, my only friend got a job so we cant chat anymore, i spent most of my day rotting away doing something i hate, i have no future, i have no one that loves me. Just put me down already, my life is miserable
No. 2462323
>>2462201Original nonna here, they are a big problem nonna and thinking that they’re just “oh poor 1%” is stupid because laws are currently passed for them , laws that put women at risk. It just feels bleak to always hear tranny shit, that’s why I’m disengaging with it mainly because I’m not a burger/canadian/brit nonna, trannyism isn’t super strong here (although they do surgeries too kek, I watched one since I did an internship) , not because they aren’t a real problem.
I’ll still support feminism obviously, just like I did before, but I’ll put my energy on focusing even more on other topics, my local city has a shelter and help center for domestic abuse
victims, I think I’ll go there to volunteer or participate in seminars.
Don’t confuse my words thanks.
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I need to go to the doctor again but like half of the doctors I've been to are fucking retarded and don't know what they're doing. Sometimes I can't sleep all for days at a time, no I'n not on drugs/take stimulants, I just know they're going to prescribe me a megadose of some SSRI 1. I've already tried 2. Isn't proven to help with insomnia and 3. and say it's not a thing when I say that every antidepressant I've taken makes my jaw start moving uncontrollably. I swear to god if they try to push picrel on me I'm going to lose it. Once I didn't sleep at all for 3 days and they told me to sleep with socks and said I wasn't trying to sleep and was on my phone. I genuinely could have gotten a better remedy for my ailment from a witch doctor or a shaman.
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>>2462362Same. It actually stresses me out. I was in homeschooling co-ops and my peers were all so behind, particularly in math. It's a thing among homeschooling parents to refuse to teach their child anything beyond basic artihmetric. And those were the products of parents who actually put in enough effort put them in a co-op.
The "data" claiming homeschoolers outperform regular students is NOT true. It's not controlled for the sampled population. And in my experience, a smaller % of homeschoolers even attempted higher education and taking standardized tests compared to the local public schools.
There's essentially no regulation where I live to differentiate from someone giving their child a classical education perhaps with a tutor, those who just shove low quality Abeka booklets at their kids, and those who register their neglected kid as homeschooled just to avoid truancy and hide abuse. They actually want even less regulation.
Speaking of which, why the fuck is picrel cult still allowed in America? I know why, but wtf.
No. 2462418
>>2462409Technically you have to have the equivalent of an education degree in qualifications to homeschool but any ol' parent can claim that and then teach their children jack shit. The new trad homeschooling psyop is just a breeding ground for child abuse. The shit constantly parroted by homeschool shillers?
>The outside world is BAD>Education is WOKE and EVIL>Keep your kids always at home where it's SAFE Statistically, who's more likely to abuse the child? There is friendship and kindness in the world and not everyone is out to be your enemy. Homeschoolfags are two steps away from paranoid schizophrenia
No. 2462423
>>2460876I'm 20 years old, a student and trapped home with my parents and siblings. They forbid me from work or saving up my own money. I am financially dependant on them. They monitor my location 24/7 despite the fact we live in a walled off house in the middle of nowhere. I hate my life. My dad has spent the past few years being verbally and borderline physically
abusive to me. It started when I, having undiagnosed ADHD, struggled with university applications at 16. Instead of seeing that I was struggling with studies, my dad would bully and shame me. He would sit at the table with the family and bark out vaguely academic questions before turning to the family and insist that they join in and 'call me out for sounding like an idiot' when I tried to answer. Every single mealtime, for months. When I continued to struggle, he would yell at me demanding to know why I was lazy and 'deliberately choosing to fail' only for me to cry in frustration (not knowing that ADHD was the issue) and him beating me for crying. Eventually, I scraped by and got into the 3rd best uni in the country. My parents then proceeded to spend the past four years of my life torturing me over it. In their own words, they would 'remind me of it every day until I die' with the flimsy justification that I should 'learn from my mistakes.' As a result and having been pressured to isolate myself from any potential friends by my parents, I have hated every waking second of my current uni experience. Then, after 4 years, I finally got into the uni my parents wanted. For 4 years, they promised me the abuse would stop. That they would finally 'forgive me' for 'abusing them' by failing their expectations. Nonas, I'm sitting here in tears. Nothing has changed. They were happy for a week, then immediately started gaslighting me about everything that has happened: my dad pinning me to my bed in a chokehold while my mum filmed and threated to call the police on me, my mum standing at my
sister's graduation from The Uni and proclaiming how disappointing she was that it wasn't my own, locking me outside in the woods overnight, chipping at my self esteem and worth day after day, mocking my speech with 'retard' voices, etc. I brought it up once. Once. Yesterday, with the feeble hope that they might just apologise. Nope. My dad sat there and screamed at me, saying how dare I suggest they did any of that and how insulting it was to imply he was a liar. He kicked me out the housenow . His ultimatum to come home is to grovel at his and my mum's feet, knowing full well I have 0 options with no savings, no friends, no nothing. Otherwise he will take it that I'm 'choosing to leave the house of my own accord', no doubt so he can scold me for it later as if it was my own immature decison to leave. I've played this game before. I always give in. But I'm at my fucking limit now. I can't go back. I just can't. The way he spoke this time sent shivers down my spine, threatening that my younger brother would soon grow 'bigger and stronger and finally show me my place'(what the actual fuck?). I don't know what I'm doing in that house anymore except to play the role of punching bag. These people always make casually violent statements like that and then follow it up with 'don't you dare warp what we say, we still love you.' How is that love? How is any of this okay? I'm not ready to go back and let myself get gaslit for months on end again, not when freedom is this close. But to get a good job, I need to push through these last few months and gradute. I don't know what to do. For now, I'm just sleeping on campus and hoping for the best.
No. 2462441
>>2462431>30 year old hagOxymoron. That redpill shit is messing with your sense of reality nonna. Mid 30s is when women are in the prime of our lives and are usually at our healthiest. Men hate it and demonize women our age because we've existed just long enough to get wise to their bullshit and they know that they can't use the same tricks on us that they can with a naive girl fresh out of high school. They're frightened of based adult women because we know what we want and lack patience for their immature fuckboy games.
>I don’t deserve to exist unless I can have children otherwise I’m just a worthless dumb womanNo offense nonna, but please don't have kids until you've fixed this attitude. Do you really want your daughter to turn thirty and feel the way you do now? She deserves a mom who loves herself and lives her life to the fullest. More importantly, you deserve to be that woman who loves herself and lives her life to the fullest. Fuck redpill. It's intended to be a salve for subpar moids; it's literally not meant for you and you can do better.
No. 2462469
>>2462467I am literally sat behind this retard who smells like fucking sweat, old sweat, as if he’s been wearing the same sweater for a week back to back.
I also used to sweat a lot and smell too , but I changed my clothes or at least my undershirt everyday.
I hate smelly people that have no reason to smell, you have enough money to come into university and have an iPhone, clean yourself.
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>>2462469Of fucking course he’s drinking a monster drink, of fucking course.
No. 2462486
>>2461998>I'm all for the fact that radical feminism gets us to ask tough questionsYou don't sound like a farmer. You don't belong here.
No way the mossad agent found this thread. Obviously they're not talking about the amerifags thread you dumb fag what they're talking about happens all the time
No. 2462497
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i wish nonnies here would stop talking to moids on pedocord in the hopes of having a boyfriend or having the illusion of love and attention. bitches deserve better but they make the trap for themselves.
No. 2462498
>>2461998What
>>2462486 said. If u were an actual farmer u would know that lots of anons here aren't even anmerican and the behaviour I'm talking about happens on every board.
No. 2462514
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Why do they keep pushing back the VPN poll? Kek. I’m going to lowkey miss this website when the vpn ban comes, even though I hate most of the people here I’m truly clouded by nostalgia and the great pandemic years of shitposting, shit was so good it was never going to last. I’m gonna miss the nonnies who actually gave a shit to respond to me, I’m going to miss the nonnies who are aggro, I’m going to miss the nonnies who like to post animal pics during infights in attempts to cool it down, I’m going to miss /m/ and the cartoon spergs in /snow/, I’m even going to miss the horny degenerates in /g/ which I can admit can be extremely funny when you get past their creepiness, I’m going to even miss the personalityfags. I’m going to miss the bait, the infights, the user-created memes hall is the blond one, the corpse husband FBI tracking done by home based spergs figuring out what he truly looks like along with dream, the creepshow art stuff. I’m going to miss it. I miss the old lolye, straight from the ‘go lolye.. goodbye, even to the anons who I truly hated will all of my heart to the ones you could tell who were not entirely narcissistic pieces of shit.
No. 2462524
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friend of mine blocked me because i told her to stop insulting me to open the convo, she thinks she's a chav or a low-lifer and tries really hard to imitate their moids, despite growing up with her and knowing she's middle class. told her she will never be a chav and must be thankful for it, and now i'm blocked. but she always forgive her moid friends, even if they say her music is trash. i fucking hate being a woman.
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>>2462524I hate middle-class retards who pretend to be chavs. They're insufferable and classist.
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>>2462524>>2462532The fact someone out there
wants to be a chav/roadman is actually scary.
No. 2462562
>>2462557idk. it makes me kek but angry to know that she's always playing the same rude and harsh persona as chav/low lifer moids, but whenever i told her something like i just did, she probably seethes and cries like a baby, trying hard to not
trigger another identity crisis. they're always harder with their female friends too, i will never get this, most chav women know trying to be like moids to "earn" their respect doesn't go anywhere.
No. 2462570
I can't anymore, my mother has mentally abused me twice now, first because I took her medicine because I thought mine had finished and second time to respect her bottle of water and drink from another source, I had both mental breakdowns were I was crying and even injured myself by accident, I got insomnia too I cannot sleep.
She says she cannot handle a dumb bitch who acts like she is in a soap opera so that's why when she says something that hurts I cry in silence and don't respond, if she asks me if I am a dumb bitch worth nothing I tell her that yes I am.
She says she can't handle a retarded cunt anymore that I should leave the house and fend for myself because she can't handle me anymore being such a histrionic bitch with bpd I do everything to make her not mad, I don't make noises, I don't walk since it bothers her, I don't talk on the phone with other people since it bothers her, I don't take selfies anymore since she assumes I'm being a slut, I have dated only one person ghosted him after she told the whole family I was an easy prostitute. I do everything to appease her. How canI get rid of Histrionic Disorder and Borderline Personality Disorder? I want her to be happy with me, none of my psychiatrics have diagnosed me with these things but she has been diagnosed with bpd and even being prone to murder but she says they are all lying on her.
How can I make her happy and get rid of these disorders I hate having them so much.
No. 2462581
>>2462570I have some news for you nonna and you're not going to like it but you do need to hear it, this is coming from someone who also has a very bad relationship with their mother.
Nothing you can do will please this woman. You could be on medication and work 60h a week and never date and be a perfect meek little mouse of a girl and she would still find a reason to pick at you. She picks at you because she hates herself and she hates you as an extension.
The only thing you can do is work on your health, get some form of money or income that will let you move out and live on your own/with a friend or another relative etc, and live your own life. You deserve to be happy and feel normal without living in fear of what your mentally unstable mother thinks of you. You are not a bad person and deserve to have good things.
No. 2462637
>>2462062> you just need to put yourself in a position for it to happen.Yeah shut up. People like you are so annoying with your fake positivity, someone would say “I’m so alone despite the fact that I’ve tried dating and it has always ended badly. It’s really hard to trust someone” and retards like you will come with your shitty advice
>you just have to put yourself out there!>it will come when you least expect it!When dating is just a matter of luck, that’s all. And I’ll add another fuck you since I’m particularly irritated.
No. 2462651
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>>2462645My heart pains for you nonna, hope your sweet boy is doing well in cat paradise. Take your time and let yourself be sad, the passing of a beloved pet always hurts. Even though this pain won't simply disappear, I'm praying for many good things to happen to you so your total happiness can be more than your sadness.
No. 2462658
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Cured my kidney infection, period is over, yet feeling the brain fog and fatigue again despite taking it easy lately. Thought I'd be able to jump back into productivity and exercise but I just feel like doing the bare minimum. I feel head sleepy but not body sleepy, and I have some priorities I'd like to complete. All I can think is maybe some sleep debt or low iron/vit d. It doesn't feel fair. How can people eat like shit and sleep so little and still function? I'm only in my 20's yet feel my body just gets more and more sensitive with age. Not as sharp, not as energetic, not as able to get a great deal of things done in a day. Used to be so inspired, have so many projects, write so beautifully! I just simply do not get it. My life is healthier now. I wonder if it is the mood stabilizer I am on, maybe having long term effects, but the dose is INCREDIBLY tiny. I feel like I am in purgatory.
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>>2462657KEK hear that nonas?
No. 2462668
>>2462645I’m sorry
nonnie. 19 years is such a good long life for a cat and I’m sure he loved you and his life with you. Be good to yourself these next few weeks/months.
No. 2462686
>>2462630Two years older than me, I was his second girlfriend so no. It didn’t work out in the end but all things considered I am thankful I had the experience.
>>2462637Kek it’s not fake positivity when you believe it anon. Being bitter towards others isn’t going to help you any more than just not trying at all.
No. 2462708
>>2462686I’m fed up with retards like you who come and think that you are somehow a pot of wisdom for having been with a decent Nigel or being with one currently. Dating is luck, that’s it. You are just an asshole when you go on and say
>uhh maybe you haven’t tried enough, put yourself out there.To someone who has tried already and who is simply venting.
I’ll add another fuck you too because you deserve it kek.
No. 2462711
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>>2462686>it’s not fake positivity when you believe it anonAnd I can also believe that tomorrow I’ll become a millionaire. As long as I truly , but truly believe it, it will happen right? Gee thanks.
No. 2462721
>>2462693And I can bet my eyebrow that he’s the ugly one out of the two.
Men open their mouth while having shit on their underwear, baldness, shitty low T bodies and try to diminish the esteem of their girlfriends to feel better about themselves.
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>>2462721>shitty low T bodies Because this is disgusting and disrespectful
No. 2462800
>>2462785I’ll take take a break from my usual hating and try to be reasonable.
>if there's a job there for me in three years I'll move to you" which is extremely frustrating and open endedBut that is a plan nonna, it’s just that you don’t like it. He can’t know if he’ll get the job and it’s stupid to promise things that he might not keep.
I’ve not understood if he’s studying or already working, but since you said that he’s in a fast track to a good job he’s most likely going to earn more than you, which yes sort of dictates what he’ll do, love doesn’t give you food and a roof over your head.
If there’s a job in your city he’ll take the offer, but realistically speaking if he doesn’t get the offer there but instead where he is why should he be the one moving and not you for example? Or even a middle ground somehow, to me it sounds like you want him to sacrifice everything while you sit in comfort.
If you wanted an easy and more hands on relationships you shouldn’t have been with someone in a different city for two whole years. You might have reached the end of the relationship, but it's only you who knows whether you love him still or not.
No. 2462803
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>>2462800I feel like if you loved him then waiting three years for him to see if he would get the job is reasonable. But I also think that you should actually sit down and think about
>waiting time>if he gets the job how are you two going to arrange living together.>the possibility of him not getting the job.>if you would be willing to move yourself and change university.Be proactive because it’s your future. If the cons outweigh the pros for you then you already have your answer.
But again , I’m just an internet stranger. Goodbye.
No. 2462807
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WHY CAN'T THIS STUPID FUCKING THESIS WRITE ITSELF I'M SO TIRED OF IT REEEEEEEEEEEEE
No. 2462810
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>>2462807You made me think about my mom who is making me write her shitty thesis when I have my own exams to do, it’s her master’s, guess who did her bachelor’s? Yes me.
If she could have given a proper deadline I would be okay, but she wants to do it on May, it’s easy to open your mouth when you simply copy and paste stuff and expect me to add footnotes, change the words , align etc.
It’s so annoying.
Oh she also broke up with her ex and is in somehow in a crisis (can’t even sleep) so she isn’t even being helpful in the first place. I hate how male centered she is, but I think she came to a realization, that’s why she’s not coping well and I’m trying to be there for her.
Sorry for overriding your vent nonna, but yes, thesis are a fucking nightmare.
No. 2462811
>>2462800Thanks nonna. That gave me a lot of insight. You're right, I'm not being very reasonable about this. I've spoken with him a lot about it and we've agreed to talk about it more in person when he comes to visit soon. I think I need to be more amenable to making sacrifices, and I'll keep that in mind next time we talk about it.
>>2462803Thanks for the advice here too. I definitely have more things to think about and talk to him about. The only tough thing would be changing universities because of my specialized program, but in this case I think I just need to find more ways I can feel more emotionally intimate with him without the physical closeness. I'll try and be more proactive and think more about my own future and how that fits with his.
No. 2462827
>>2462814She loves using the excuse that she’s an immigrant, but she’s literally lazy, that’s it. She has done all her exams by herself and studied books with very little problems.
I would have proofread her work and corrected it gladly , but that isn’t what she’s doing sigh. It was basically forced on me.
No. 2462844
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>>2462811Hope you can talk it out, relationships aren’t easy at all and these are the moments that make it or break it nonna. And as much as I would have liked to say
>Reee he doesn’t care about you! >He should move for you if he truly loves you!!It would have been funny but not useful. I’ll be back to my usual hating though.
No. 2462926
>>2462919Sweetie. You are deeply valued, and you deserve love, care, and warmth. Your feelings matter, and I see you, and I appreciate you for who you are. I admire your kindness, your strength and your beautiful heart, it's like a whole world lives inside you and it's breathtaking. If I could, I’d wrap you in the softest, most reassuring hug and remind you that you are worthy of all the love and nurturing you crave. You deserve to be cherished, to feel safe, and to receive the gentle care that makes your heart feel full. You are enough, just as you are.
No. 2462928
>>2462894This woman sabotaged you and saw to it that you were not paid for your time. It's none of her fucking business if you're being paid better than her. If a friend did this to me I'd be furious, but from what you are saying of her, I do not think she is your friend.
You should start distancing yourself from her and let her go. If she ever tries to ask about your pay again, say you don't know, you don't want to talk about it, or lie. Fuck her, I can't believe she cost you overtime like this. And she knows your situation as you are friends. That woman is not a friend, she is a crab in a bucket.
>>2462900Read back on the VPN Poll thread in /ot/. A lot of VPN anons have talked about this.
No. 2462959
>>2462958this
>>2462956You're just larping as a "
femcel" because it's cool.
No. 2462961
>>2462958>>2462959>gatekeeping femceldomi don't find it cool..? whatever lol i'm at loss of words
>>2462960true
No. 2462969
>>2462961No such thing as a
femcel and the fact that you think it exists says a lot.
What is with newfags who come up here calling themselves men hater when they literally aren’t?
There was the other one who hooked with his moid and she had to break into his house to pick her charger since he wasn’t answering her, she fucking cleaned up and made bread kek and she was talking about being low empathy and hating men.
No. 2462970
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tfw
>boyfriend of 5 years ghosts me
>other ex who I think is the love of my life has a new girlfriend and tells me constantly about how great she is and all the trips they take together
>being replaced
>Same guy is always extremely critical of who I date but won't date me himself
>can't let go of him because he's my oldest friend and I don't want to lose him
>everyone leaves me in the end despite what they say
>trying desperately not to end up bitter, lonely and reclusive like my mother
>can feel it happening anyway
>know there's something deeply wrong with me because why else would this keep happening
>I know I find it hard to open up to people irl because they'll treat me like a victim or patronize me and the thought of that makes me feel sick
>also fear I'm missing out on experiences but OCD so terrified to have experiences in case a freak accident etc happens and kills me, meaning all of the sadness was for nothing
sorry for my loser ramblings
No. 2462971
>>2462961>whatever lol i'm at loss of wordsKek ,
femcel nonna didn’t feel welcomed enough.
No. 2462986
>>2462969>No such thing as a femcel and the fact that you think it exists says a lot. didn't say it exists just replying to another anon but i think it's funny how you plaster intentions on my post while barely reading it (such as plastering i have any opinion on femceldom when i'm literally just replying to another post)
>What is with newfags who come up here calling themselves men hater when they literally aren’t? ok so you're in my head and you know everything that happens in my mind? kek
>There was the other one who hooked with his moid and she had to break into his house to pick her charger since he wasn’t answering her, she fucking cleaned up and made bread kek and she was talking about being low empathy and hating menok nice story? see you're doing it again
just an annoying useless post of someone who thinks theyre so special
No. 2462987
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>>2462986It’s as useless as your
>reee I hate men so much but I am so slutty and submissive So now what? We look at each other in the eyes?
No. 2462989
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Cant even kill their fathers yet thinking they hate men…
No. 2462991
>>2462987it's called a vent, it doesn't have to be useful
your reply to my vent was not helpful and self aggrandazing (trying to etablish yourself as male hate ceo or soemthing) therefore useless
No. 2462995
>>2462990yeah, words have a meaning, hate is a feeling of intense dislike
i feel intense dislike which doesn't always contradict my libido
what's your point?
No. 2463010
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>>2462995Hate is the closest thing to love? Is that what you wanted to hear? Again it’s kind of funny how quickly you got agitated when I simply said that you don’t hate men and there are other women like you and that’s okay.
But you took that as disrespect.
No. 2463021
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>>2463016Who would clean up the mess though? Exactly, you, so now you even have more work to do kek.
Joking aside, I think you should be able to sue a customer if they’re very rude to the point of causing disturbance.
No. 2463034
>>2462988No way you actually believe that
femcels exist… Are you Kaitlyn Tiffany or something? Kek
>>2463024>this ladyGo back.
No. 2463038
>>2463010>Hate is the closest thing to love? Is that what you wanted to hear? no youre putting words i havent said in my mouth again.. you do that a lot
>Again it’s kind of funny how quickly you got agitated when I simply said that you don’t hate menwhen i'm bored i like to see how far retards will take their retarded take, guess you went pretty far
(infighting) No. 2463060
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>>2463038>when i'm bored i like to see how far retards will take their retarded takesThis is literally you here nonna
>>2462961and here
>>2462991 and here
>>2462995Acting all defensive for no reason.
(reviving infights) No. 2463074
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I have been skipping math classes because of valid reasons(i swear) and i am super fucking behind everyone else. Holy fuck. Good thing about math is that there is basically no way to learn it wrong, so this weekend its going to be me, an entire box of gween tea, youtube and chatgpt against the world. I need to chat up to an entire month of classes, i am so fucking behind. Everything felt like an alien language today.
No. 2463092
>>2463065Nowadays the biggest red flags for me are
>watched anime>loves e-girls and gothsThey are always weird, always.
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>>2463090I’m not sure what’s happening but it’s getting weird
No. 2463111
>>2463082I don't even know him that well, but everything about him just screams red RED flag. Even the fact that he supported his friend into losing his virginity with a girl who was very drunk, sounded like she only barely consented in the story. It's just fucking annoying to see these people believe they're morally superior and pretending they care about character and integrity and principles when by all accounts they're terrible people who probably want to shoot minorities.
>>2463098Of course this guy is also a one piece fan kek
No. 2463141
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I sometimes find myself missing this guy I used to talk to from a certain imageboard even though he had seriously fucked up interests in porn/fetishes and was one of those closet "progressive feminist" weirdos + a whore. I joined clubs at school and started going on and engaging in my hobbies more since, but think it's because I only talk to one person now. Like, while I love having them as my friend, they're sometimes obviously not gonna be available all the time. I have to remember all that, and the fact that he saw me as disposal enough to not care about me leaving. But reminding myself I don't like him as a person once I further think about the rationality of it all, and that the thoughts come from a place of desperation or desire to belong is hard sometimes.
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caught up with my classmates from highschool. I knew this girl had died a year after graduation but because her family never disclosed the details, always asumed it had been a suicide or sth.
Well turns out this girl was always stressed because her parents would beat her for running out of pencils or notebooks too early because oh surprise, your child has to take notes and do homework (she only studied with us as a result of the headmistress taking her as her pet proyect because she wanted to run ofr major)they lived in a very small house (if you are Peruvian you'll know what I mean, the ones with the metal sheet roofs) in a poor part of the town. A year after graduation the house gets robbed while she was out buying groceries. She returns and starts freaking out, the neighbors call the police and she goes missing. A week later they find her: she had hung herself out of fear of facing her parents because the thieves had taken everything, including the money the parents saved inside the dressers and shit. We know this because she had a phone call with a close friend before she did this.
Rest in peace, and fuck that family for bringing a honest, hard-working child in this shitty country.
Picrel is the TYPE of poverty we're talking about, by the way
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I needed to take a break from what I was working on but now I don’t want to go back to it. Please someone bully me into being productive again
No. 2463222
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I had a day which was technically mundane, but it was very different from my usual routine and felt very strange.
>While I'm eating, a woman comes over and starts speaking to me in a hard tone
>I can't tell what she's saying because she has an extremely thick accent
>It sounds like she's passive-aggressively thanking me for not doing something, or she thinks I'm a wrongdoer?? That's just speculation though, I have no clue what she actually said
>She walks away as quickly as she arrived
>I notice her staring at me a few times as I finish my food, I'm not really concerned so I just ignore her
>Eventually she disappears
I will never know what she thinks I did. The miscellaneous weird things:
>SEVERAL people stopped on the street to ask me for directions or just have friendly interactions, which almost never happens
>There was staff on the tram actually doing their jobs (again, NEVER happens on my line)
>I found some dirt cheap earrings with the exact "dark iridescent" effect on them I've been looking for
>I found out a relatively successful local shop is closing down out of nowhere
>There were loads of police cars all over the place, even for my shitty area
>The city centre was just QUIET, it sounded empty even though it wasn't, I didn't like it
>I didn't see any dogs anywhere
>Most of the roads were empty and ready to cross on my way home
>I saw a couple more people staring at me after the strange woman did
Obviously those wouldn't be a big deal by themselves, but all together on the same day? It was a good day overall but it just seemed rather odd.
No. 2463231
Im actually breathing heavy from seething lol. Everytime I want to do anything outside my room, there he is! He WAS doing something else in his room, but no, now that Im going in another room, all of a sudden he follows me to whereever Im going.
He lurks around listening or watching me in the other room, "joking" about doing so. By his actions, he rubs it in my face that his pet is alive, laughing and playing, while mine are dead. He makes snide comments about not making noise when Im putting leftovers away, while he sits around doing nothing. He takes his time getting in the way, goes out of his way to walk near in my personal space near my butt, when he was going the opposite way. I cannot stand this moid.
I feel bad for thinking this, but he has me to the point where its like, why cant his crappy diet and exposure to harmful crap catch up with him to the point where he will leave me alone. I just want him to leave me alone.
No. 2463258
>>2463243I don’t know, for me it would be weird. I work in healthcare and I tend to have a persona at work, that isn’t the real me. Making friends with patients isn’t in my interest honestly kek.
Was she actually interested in you other than medically?
No. 2463328
i hate my cousin so much; in the last few months
> she threw me a massive "surprise" party when i specifically asked to be left the fuck alone because i was dealing with a stressful work situation. she brought all her stupid in laws over to my parents house and then i had to spend the whole day doing chores and getting scolded for not being cheerful/grateful enough for something i didn'task for. i was anemic and irritated and it ruined my birthday
> following that, her and her annoying husband tried to force me to call them every week, i tried putting up boundaries becuase i need rest but she'd call me at 8 or 9am on weekends, turn it into a giant video call with her annoying in laws. i just stopped picking up her calls
> i was still TRYING to have a relationship with her like an idiot and went to visit her house, which is in a very rural area. i had a same day train ticket but her and her husband refused to drive me back to the train station at night. i had to beg and threaten to walk through the fields before they did. they wanted to force me to stay over
> during that same visit she told me her husband had a car accident and it would have been my fault if something happened to him because i don't pick up the phone for her
> later that year they tried to invite me over specifically for multiple days, and i turned them down becuase fuck no. so they DROVE TO MY PARENTS HOUSE and tried to force a visit on me. i was having my period at the time and i have awful cramps, but i got scolded for being ungrateful after they went all that way to see me (when i specifically asked them not to), i got called a slut for being in my pjs (giant t shirt and shorts) around my brother in law and for having a leak when i was dragged out of bed against my will
> to try "cure" me of my phone shyness she literally called me so much i had a panic attack and thought her dad died which was awful, my brothers had to talk me down. she called me literally dozens of times over a few days. the phone thing was to do with my work situation and i'm largely over that, and have no issues with other people but seeing her phone number ringing me makes my stomach hurt to this day
> i ended up getting fired (and i wonder how much the stress she put on me on top of everything else contributed) i'm in tech and i've been looking for a job for a while now but i'm sure you nonas have seen what the market is like. she keeps trying to "help" and getting her (non tech) friends advice and now she's learning the language i work in which i wouldn't care about in normal circumstances but on top of everything else it feels like a slap in the face. i've had a lot of trouble getting myself to code ever since i got fired and she made an app in the laguage i use.
it feels so schizo to be upset about something like that and i normally wouldn't but i feel like i'm being stalked or bullied or something. However when i express this to people in real life they just talk about how sweet she seems etc. my own family enable and encourage her behaviour and it's not easy to move out or put distance between us especially now i'm uneployed. i blocked her the other day and i felt so guilty but when i think of how much she's tormented me (even if it's her own twisted way of making friends) i get so angry and upset
she was always a little selfish but ever since she got married she's been absolutely insufferable, i thought she would have had less time to bother me but now it feels like she's dedicated herself to making me miserable.
No. 2463498
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>become a night owl to avoid my dad
>suddenly he takes a week off of work
>stays up all night every night drinking
>loud as fuck so i'd have trouble sleeping anyway
No. 2463652
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There’s nothing I genuinely like and all the things I used to do with a bit of joy I stopped doing, I left drawing, I can’t watch any shows, I don’t like baking anymore and I have just enough energy to study and keep face if I go out with my friends. I don’t really care about anything , but at the same time I feel like I can’t do much else, can’t disappoint my mom. I just wished I could disappear forever because I’m just tired of everything. I just want to let go.
I don’t really have any reason to feel like this, I’m not poor, my mother loves me, I have friends, I entered med school, I’m somehow good looking, maybe I’m just ungrateful I don’t know. I can never be happy about anything.
No. 2463681
I hate petty people or people with one sided hate kek. I don't even consider them some flavours of bullies, I consider them retarded but oh boy if they're annoying.
By now, I'm and artist, I have my fair share of support, I can make some money here and there (not like a career - I don't want to live off my art because I'm not up for the stress but it's nice to get gigs sometimes) but when I started drawing, there were these two people, whom I didn't know at all, who used to be randomly mean at me and then when I went into art school, they started to be even more mean and nitpicking about useless shit and then I discovered that the "Alpha" of the group hated me randomly and the beta just followed, just because I was accepted into art school. Seems like a teen problema right? No, they were adults at the time and I was like uuuh, weird? And they're adults now, they left me alone but for years I had these two 20-something people that I didn't know shittalking me. I admit, I'm a bit childish and I use this story to lift my mood (because imagine being like this) but sometimes, when I have to make art related content, I wonder how retarded, like actually stunted, you have to be to put up shit like this.
I'm not famous at all, I don't even like attention, I want to do my stuff and if someone pays me that's good and two people followed my small accounts, sent the posts to my friends (they didn't reply, it's just weird to point out) and they were unnecessary angry about me for years well over their adult age because…I went to art school. Where they could also apply. Adults acting like kids are creepy as fuck, I was never mad about them because that didn't make sense to me, this kind of attitude got usually bullied out of you in middle school, I think that once you're over 18 and you apply teenage level of "bullying" to other adult people and your hate is totally one sided towards a single person, you have to be forced into some kind of rieducational program. We're not talking about cows or celebrities, these people that can't grow up choose a person and make them their imaginary, personal enemy out of some magical thinking and expect everyone else to also do that. They have some kind of mental illness but I believe that the moment you annoy other people for some made up hate you have to be considered insane, paranoid people in psych wards are less dangerous than that.
They were also two males, like…? Idk, I'm over thinking about it but maybe I'm an autist and trying to make sense about it, they could simply…apply too. Instead of annoying me for years. Why.
No. 2463703
>>2463693But if you need a reason
>collects archive fashion Fashion men are annoying as hell, they always have that superior conviction of having the best taste and they’re always so competitive when you’re with them, they want to be the woman kek. That or they’re bisexual.
There are definitely normal men who just dress well, but they never make it their whole personality, pick what your scrote is and gauge
No. 2463727
>>2463681Well first of all, they are males so you can’t expect much mental maturity from them to begin with. Males simply don’t have to grow up because society coddles them and they come to expect to be the main character in everyone else’s life too.
>Adults acting like kids are creepy as fuck, I was never mad about them because that didn't make sense to me, this kind of attitude got usually bullied out of you in middle schoolThe sad part is, after an initial drop in that behavior around college years, the numbers stay the same and those who stay behaving like petulant children get even worse as they age.
On one hand, there’s significantly less jealous pettiness in my life because I’m not a teenage girl and most people are normal adults. On the other, when I do run into a mental case like that, they make me regret it and read into everything as some sort of personal slight against them which they use to fuel their fits of rage and jealousy which are at this point much worse than anything I saw in high school. A few of them are genuinely mentally ill and undiagnosed, but the rest are just unhappy with their lives and taking it out on me who took risks and made effort to be where I am now.
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I can't help but feel bad, angry and annoyed when I see people talking about how feminine women are superior. I have nothing against them, love them. But reading comments of people saying how they are superior makes me feel bad even if I'm okay being slightly tomboyish. I would never change myself or pretend I'm feminine just so people like me better, but I can't help feeling inferior.
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Which one of you was this???
>Go into public toilet
>Another woman comes in
>Wait…is she whispering?
>Suddenly I can make out what she's saying
>"Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you"
>She goes into the cubicle next to mine
>I just want to stress that we were alone in this bathroom and the actual public toilet building itself is down a dark little side street
>She leaves
>Makes a deeply angry sounding sigh as she does so
>Whatthefuck.jpeg
No. 2464030
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I hate how even pushing 30 I constantly feel like a timid child when interacting with people. I’ve managed to overcome a lot and get to a good place but I still stutter and blush and completely lose my train of thought when put on the spot. I was getting really good at socialising in my undergrad but it feels like Covid reset all that progress and my abusive dad dying put me right back at square one. I give off a super anxious energy and shitty people love it. They either try and butter me up so they can manipulate me or take whatever anger they have for themselves out on me because I’m an easy target. I have a lot of opinions, know what I want, and used to be super confident but not any more. My dad was an insane narcissist and I basically had to completely remove my personality in order to not set him off. Even though his dumb ass is dead it’s like my nervous system can’t tell who is a threat and who isn’t. I shut down so often because that’s was my first line of defence for so long but now it’s just keeping me from living the life I want to live.
No. 2464124
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I'd rather my co-worker not come into work at all than come and do fuck all
No. 2464137
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Lmao, I'm surrounded by idiots. I'd rather continue to be a loser NEET than live like the morons around me who seem to do shit just because and always live in competition with each other. So the other day my cousin came home talking about how she asked her boyfriend (with whom she has a baby with) about marriage. They've been on and off for years, lots of cheating and shit, and he straight-up told her he doesn't want to get married. She just said in a cheerful tone "Oh well, at least he's my boyfriend and the father of my kid!" I find this tragic. Imagine being with a fucking cheater, wanting marriage, and he still doesn't want you like that. And then she goes on and posts about how he is the best father in the world and shit lmfao. Also the girl he cheated on her with literally went to the fucking baby shower. And they acted like the girl was not there. I literally thought I was in a fucking TV show watching that shit unfold. I honestly don't know what's wrong with these people.
Also, after she shared this, a few days later (very suspicious. Very weird timing), her "best friend" finally got engaged… AFTER 8 YEARS. She has three kids with her nigel and had been bugging him to marry her for years. LMFAO. Also weird ass relationship, they were on the verge of breaking up, with her pregnant, and I remember my sister who is also close to that girl telling me "now that she's having a boy, they seem to be working things out". ???? Wtf. My sister too, tons of fucking red flags, her ex wanted to control her, moved in with him 4 fucking months into the relationship, being a fucking drunk piece of crap… result: he cheats on her and leaves her with a baby to raise on her own. Idk what's up with these women. Not to victim blame obviously but the fucking red flags were there all along. It makes me mad cause they deserve better but at the same time they're so fucking stupid. Like, they're intelligent women but can't see a certain type of nigel who I will not go into detail about as to not be hit with the retarded racebait red text, that they completely lose it. I hate this world, I hate stupid people so much.
No. 2464246
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I cant get over this scrote who doesnt like me back. He's so fucking cute and nice. I kept being told that i should get over him but how can i get over him when he's always so nice despite me being so schizo and weird towards him. I really wish he was cold and distant and not absolutely adorable fuuuck. Cute scrotes are so hard to find, most scrotes are annoying tryhard edgelords or have the personality of wet cardboard.
No. 2464252
>>2463653I'm in my 30s and I feel this so hard. It seems like anything "fun" or different is considered immature, everyone in my area is dressing in the same Sad Beige Minimalist™/ Quiet Luxury™ style because it's supposed to look mature and classy or something. Like god damn, what if I don't feel like wearing a white button down with jeans or a boring beige sweater with a pencil skirt?
Also I think "fashion" right now is just kinda fucked, I don't know if this is the effects of the pandemic or what. I'm currently shopping online and trying to find outfits for spring/summer because the brick and mortar stores around me don't have much, and holy cow everything feels fucking boring. Just a few years ago I used to see outfits I really liked or would be excited to try on, and now that I actually need an updated wardrobe, nothing feels worth spending money on and nothing "calls" to me anymore.
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>>2464252>I think "fashion" right now is just kinda fuckedNtayrt but I agree as someone close to 30. I have been putting off buying clothes for so long now just because I hate most everything available and don’t have time to hunt thrift stores or resellers online. I use to love fashion and dressing up but everything has become so drab and boring in recent years. Picrel was found randomly and embodies the exact kind of look I loathe.
No. 2464286
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>>2464277I've decided that 95% of them are not serious for my own peace of mind
No. 2464327
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I'm going to college next year and after being denied any form of self expression (ultra poorfag + shitty parents) I want to start dressing as I'd like especially, but with the current fashion culture in the west I think I'm out of luck unless I want beige crap for $60 a piece or fast fashion from Temu that'll evaporate before I can even wear it and thrift stores on the west coast suck shit apparently so I might be out of luck there. I just want some cute dark/goth clothes for cheap, not even high fashion just stuff I can accessorize with. Was it really over before it could even start? I'll be stuck with hand me down graphic shirts and pajama pants five sizes too big for the rest of my youth won't I. Kms honestly.
No. 2464368
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Somebody bully me into pushing through and finishing work
No. 2464372
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my boyfriend leaves in two days and i wont see him again for 2-3 months. i cant stop crying instead of enjoying the moment. how can i be more positive and have more gratitude? a lot of my work is independent and i have no friends so it isnt easy to throw myself into something out of being forced to. i will look into more work and try to push myself to work on more hobbies outside of home/maybe find a friend, though i dont feel ready for that
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>>2464368Water seeks its own level. Don’t let it be the same level as scrotes with skidmarked underwear, a 3+ score on the Norwood scale, and loli anime defending tweets. That’s where you’re heading if you don’t get back to it
nonny No. 2464387
I used to have a friend that was the "if you have friends like her, you don't need any enemies". She was the most fucking vile woman I think I've ever met, and I can't believe I allowed myself to be dragged around by her for almost ten years. I don't think I've known anyone so gleefully manipulative and jealous, I have yet to meet someone that can look someone in the eyes and almost immediately know how weasel underneath their skin and utilize their insecurities so she can look down on them. I have so many tales of her fucking people over, so many nasty fights in overlapping circles of friends where the escalations could be traced back to her "helping out", etc.
But the thing that kept you around, despite all her toxicity, she could be a fucking AMAZING friend just as well when she chose to. Her friendship wasn't completely
unconditional now that I think back to it, but it didn't really matter at the time. It's been years since I cut her out of my life, but I still don't think I've ever had deep talks about life with anyone else or laughed as much as I did with her. I miss those things about her. But sadly, from what I've heard she hasn't changed at all. She is probably is too narcisstic to accept that she is he issue whenever she loses entire friend circles again and again or have people going out of the way to avoid her. This is what kept me from reaching out when I heard her mom died and that her childhood cat died soon after, it breaks my heart that she at 29 now have lost both her parents (her dad died when she was 14). I hurt for her.
No. 2464408
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A girl at my Uni has been acting extremely weird towards me and I just don’t want to be around her. I’m not into the fake niceness and she’s so over the top it really turns me off. I can tell she’s a massive pick me and seems so perfect on the outside but there is something weird about her. I think she wanted to befriend me because she thought I had more leverage over the moids in our programme than I actually do. I’ve only interacted with her a handful of times but several times she just kept fishing for compliments from other people but comparing herself to me. I’d think it was just female socialisation but her obsessive need for male validation (she literally makes rounds every day and talks to each moid individually and compliments them on everything) makes me think otherwise. There’s so much tension when we’re around each other and I just try and ignore her but she’ll engage when we’re alone but completely ignore me when moids are around. Sometimes I’ll overhear her conversations with other women and they’re always either about some moid I think she’s involved with or talking about other people’s looks. First I have some narcissistic moid try and manipulate me and now whatever flavor of ClusterBee this girl is is draining my energy. I’ve been working on building up my emotional resilience but I’m still pretty sensitive to this sort of stuff. I have a lot of female friends and no problem with other pretty women, I can just tell something is going on with her that I don’t want to get involved with. I’m so ready to move on from this programme.
No. 2464412
>>2464409Ugh, imo they're objectively worse than the Luigifags. Their posts are always so performative too.
>KYAAAAAAA~ I can't help it, nooooo he's just too cuuuuuute!! I'm so sowwy I didn't choose to be so weeeeirdLike genuinely what the hell is their problem kek
No. 2464441
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>>2464439>What kind of panties are you wearing?I sounded like a creep kek
No. 2464468
>>2464459Do you think this is done out of ignorance or is it like the typical man's way of twisting things to try to get their way? It seems like a manipulation to me in an extremely male way. It's too insane that anyone would say someone with cysts on their ovaries is intersex. Having PCOS proves you are a woman because only women have ovaries.
>>2464439>>2464441This made me laugh so hard.
No. 2464477
>>2464463It's not bad but I think it's just because it's mine and I'm used to it.
>>2464439Usually full cotton. Synthetic ones did worsen the smell though I think because they made me sweat more.
>>2464446Gross I'm praying that isn't it but I will.
No. 2464575
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Dirty warez won't load…
No. 2464639
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i got coaxed into a hairdressing course and it was so embarrassing i think it is the devil's work. it makes me want to avoid hair salons and malls, because a perpetrator could be working there. why did i fall for this lure when i could have watched youtube tutorials and ask my friend to dye my hair? when i was a child, we had a salon on our street. it was not an ethical business because they got all their clients with gossip and sabotage. i forgot about this, because i was always happy to have had my hair done. it was rare, but felt good for a change. so, i thought, how fun would it be to learn this skill and join a salon with pretty people? but let me elaborate the level of manipulation that these stylists and salon owners do, so you steer clear of this profession. hairstyling is truly the profession of mean girls and manipulative psychopaths.
>having your hair messed with when you are asleep
i've got a thinning cut without my consent so they would laugh at this prank. i thought my hair was falling out because of sickness.
>unconsented, uninformed patch testing
this happened many years ago, a patch of my hair fell out after i fell ill at a party. a girl was doing a money piece but left.
>your teacher gets told you will become a hairdresser
naturally, your middle school teacher wants to help. they sat me behind people with different hairstyles, textures and colours.
>they introduce your hairdressing teacher in a dramatic and esoteric way
i was made to believe that this meeting will be very important or at least fascinating, which it was. i was blindfolded and lead into a room. there the teacher was working on a large beehive wig, before bridgerton came out. i never saw anything like that before in my life, it was amazing. somebody leading me there told me she was auditioning for a movie set.
>hairdressing teacher gets word of where you are going out on a date
i was asked by a girl on the way to the movie theater if i wanted my hair done. then, another girl asked if i wanted to model. this happened twice, they have an assignment. but i did not get it.
>facebook feed showing you vivid hair colors and braids even if you did not search for them or liked any hair pages
not only that but these hair models were usually in fetish gear or even working for onlyfans.
>when you sign up for the hairdressing course they withhold information from you, even if you already paid for the semester
not sending me emails about the 1st week, the course location, or the supplies. i asked the teachers and they acted clueless. turned out that another portion of the class got their introduction, school uniform, supply orders in, and sign-up sheets for clients done already, and were invited to parties where they could practice and socialize with professionals who have decades of experience.
>they sabotage you in getting clients from the mailing list, and are gaslighting you about your intelligence and abilities despite you wanting to learn
you are ostracized by teachers and a few students for not having clients, yet they sabotaged you from signing up, and when you have questions they ghost you. the few times they give you clients, those people are purposefully set up to embarrass you. people who don't even shower enough or properly, been told lies already to dislike you, change their mind hundreds of times, are farting and stinky.
>lying and being a fake friend gets you brownie points, nobody cares about your psychopathic behaviour if you are already the in-group
there was cringe fake drama, crying and even a fight between 2 girls. people with disabilities, like me, are accepted into the course so we can be a spectacle or a pet-project, and kept in the classroom for breadcrumbs. meanwhile we pay for the course, younger talent is getting free equipment and tutoring.
No. 2464687
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One of the best coworkers moved out of state and even though I'm happy that she's pursuing her nursing degree and getting a house, I didn't even get a chance to say goodbye in-person on her last day. I was upset about it, so I took it out on a male by being a stoic bitch to him. I even shoved the thermometer in his mouth when I did his vitals. He probably complained to my boss, but I don't give a shit. He was ugly, he was bald, he was a male, he was passive aggressive at the beginning of our interaction, and I needed something to take it out on.
No. 2464693
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when my dog dies, if my boyfriend leaves, when my mother dies, i will kill myself. i cannot imagine having to live without people to love and people who love me. i cant even enjoy the moment with them as is, knowing ill have to be without them for a few months again. i have too much free time with my job, maybe i need to wage just to feel less alone. i just love them so much. why am i so petrified of being alone forever when i am almost always alone? i love them. i would kill myself if it meant they could live on happily forever. i went a year without suicidal thoughts, wish they werent coming back and making me so emotionally immature. maybe having no friends or daily routine is getting to me. but sacrificing my nice albeit lonely job for shittier pay just to have a structured routine with people where i may feel even more alone due to not relating…well maybe im just glorifying that idea. maybe there is a way to deal with the daily loneliness. my heart hurts. i want to be with those i love everyday.
No. 2464695
>>2464693Wahhh what’s your job?
I’d suggest you pick a hobby or follow a course of zumba or cardio, it’s fun and takes time. Add more to your routine.