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No. 2215016
A thread for venting about difficult stuff going on in your life.
Previous vent thread:
>>2206701Follow all the /ot/ board rules & don't reply to bait.
Don't come to this thread to make fun of anons' vents, to demean them, or to try and be funny with some shit snark reply. It's annoying. If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say it at all.
No. 2215020
Replying to the other nonna from last thread
>>2215000Yes I wish I was flat since I dislike the connotations of having breasts , society sexualizes boobs and also butts too much and I would not mind being taller because it would make me feel more secure and safe.
No. 2215048
>>2215001>Pretty privilege is a fact not a feeling. You can deny it all you wantBut being pretty is basically a chore that gets you nothing and nowhere but harrassment and people who want something from you. It gets you attention from more people you don't like, than you do. Why? Because most men are ugly
The only reason people cling to the rule is to desperately preserve social dynamics where the man gets to remain ugly and the woman who feel like stupid bimbos get to keep their status. Once you become aware of that /all the effort those insecure women go to to preserve their status as dumb meatswine.. it all loses significance.
You start realizing how backwards/ disgusting it is to have to tolerate the men being ugly as all hell. Being harrassed on the train by ugly men, while ugly men abound.
I mostly see it for what it is
No. 2215054
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I hate how as a woman I am supposed to support all women no matter how retarded and wrong they are or else I'm a misogynistic pickme.
No. 2215055
>>2215044what do you mean talking about "my tits"? I am just expressing body dysmorphia, I am not particularly
humble bragging or happy about it. You have boobs too so I don't get the fascination with trying to shut me down. Other nonnas also suffer from this.
(dragging infights ) No. 2215096
>>2215077It's not the same thing I would be a mutilated woman if I did that and freaks with FTM fetish would fetishize me, I hate the stigma society made surronding being a female, in my ideal world I would want to be a tall sexless human with a flat chest and no curves not an actual man, but invisible to men. Also ass surgery does not exist what the heck are you on?
>>2215087she is not even me shut up
No. 2215131
>>2215057Gross I would rather be chubby and ignorable than endure male shits
Not gonna lie though I actually really like pretty women that aren't bimbos. I like it when they don't settle for scraps. I can appreciate a lot of the looks they pull off, I love it when their personality is a force
But moid shits are so impossible to really know. They're never coming from the more caring place a woman is. Often times they pretend to be but its all a front, so you just can't know. They always just sound like they want something from you!! They are so entitled to their violence, guns, abuse, intimidation, stalking, porn blackmail, character assasination. Moid shits don't need to be protected from ANYBODY (accept maybe each other but i mean….) I think living in fear of ANY kind of moid abuse is setting yourself up to live a seriously diminished life. That's what moids want. If you get close to most of them though, it becomes obvious in a lot of little ways how entitled they are to benefit from that kind of background abuse that makes women mentally cucked. Even supposed nice guys are just taking advantage of the cultural abuse, gagging, and brainwashing. Even if they are nice they're completely oblivious so i couldn't give a fuck.
They go in right away with so much entitlement to the filthy depraved ways things have been set up so women. Entitlement to how they're socially disadvantage, convinced to fear, preyed upon and have less social power. So holy hell i would never make a stupid shitty OF or go anywhere near a man for anything.
Moid shits give back nothing that has real value. Even in the best circumstances they just expect everything but they're SO DAMN UGLY it is offensive. Even when they are attractive they're entitled to so much more, think they actually deserve more and their personalities are often MORE in the toilet then men who aren't. Its like there is no winning.
I'm supposed to settle for THAT!?!?!
I wont budge or falter for any dumb bitch cuck tries to bash me for not being skinny. Bitch you want to have real talk? Oblivious as all fuck pickme just admit it and stop lying to yourself.
No. 2215161
>>2215102you're so right anon. i also hate how we have to sanitize everything just to not seem like "scroteminded" and predatory towards heterosexual women even anonymously online. just look at the female fantasies thread, like every other post apologizes for experiencing homosexual attraction kek
which i'm definitely guilty of. everything is just men all the time… this shit really puts me off of using this site and honestly i've been coming here a lot less for this reason.
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I'm so tired from my last trip outta town. I just want to sleep.
No. 2215360
>>2215345Thank you for your kindness
nonny, it means a lot
No. 2215364
i’ve been talking a lot with my parents lately and being more candid with them about my thoughts and feelings in the wake of something bad i did. i finally told my mom in no uncertain terms that i operate from a different belief system than her, and i know that causes her a lot of distress, but she’s not going to be successful in convincing me of christianity (again). she said that it was more than just distressing knowing that her daughter is going to hell
>>2215358i know your pain… been there. the answer is yeah it means it’s time to quit but easier said than done
No. 2215387
>>2215370sounds like there's a good chance he is abusing her and she's happy because he is minimizing his abuse while you're there. the more dependent on them and longer you're there though, he'll probably think it's okay to start abusing her openly and escalating to you too. DV
victims often side with their abusers and take multiple tries to leave so keep that in mind too, she will very likely take his side if things escalate.
No. 2215389
>>2215373Ugh, I applied for that but was denied. It seems totally random who gets it and who doesn't.
>>2215382Honestly that is how I feel. Sister seems comrotable talking shit about him when he leaves the room but never says anything to his face, apparently. I'm pretty sure that when I yelled back at him today it's the first time he's been challenged in a while and it freaked him out. Now he's not speaking to me or looking at me. Good. The bright side is that I think I made contact with several non-scammy housing possibilities this afternoon. Just waiting for a response.
No. 2215420
>>2215413samefag
>>2215410your family is full of a bunch of weak losers as well. once you finally cut them off completely and develop your own independence you will finally be free. do you seriously think your mother spends time dreading about how you feel or how she made you feel during your childhood? no, by her behavior she’s displayed in your blogpost she doesn’t care and neither should you worry about what’s causing her spergouts towards her own innocent daughter. let them fully collapse into their own bullshit you are not going to be their saviors and you can’t save them, there is no rationalization for why you were mistreated being mistreated will always be awful and shitty but these parents who decide to be demonic cunts will never fully own up to it or what they do, their entire lives will always be filled with excuses and emptiness and justifications for their behavior and then trying to power trio with the very little power they already had in their lives. i know you want o be empathetic and understanding of your crazy mother but it gets to a point, she’s a full on demon not a imperfect mother anymore kek
No. 2215431
>>2215416>what the fuck is wrong with hershe probably has a personality disorder (ie, is a bitch). also, your relatives are terminally retarded for going along with her bullshit
>and how to deal with itgrey rock? it is exhausting long term, but if are already on the way out it can make dealing with her tolerable
hope you make it out soon
nonnie (and i would love to see how your spineless family will deal with her bullshit when she no longer as a target)
No. 2215450
>>2215436It means you’re ugly , that’s why he could only say that. You have nothin going on other than your brain.
Can some of you shut up and actually take a compliment for once, you’re so annoying when you pretend that you don’t know what to do when in reality you’re just here to humble brag.
No. 2215496
>>2215410Just remembered other fucked up memories
>guinea pig gets sick>parents get PISSED at me>refuses to take her to the vet even though I had a job and could pay for the appointment and medicine>would scream at me if I asked or mentioned it>finally stand ground and fight with her>OKAY ANON WE CAN TAKE HER TO THE VET>day comes>she fucking dies right before we take her because I have been fight a fucking war with my retarded mom>it's your fault for not taking her to the vet anonFast forward
>mom randomly wants a cat after telling me no cats because they're work>pick up kitten from barn>do my research>"hey mom we should probably schedule an appointment for him because he might have ear mites!">fucking kill bill sirens go off>mom instantly mad>yelling at me that THEY DON'T HAVE THE MONEY RIGHT NOW>okay… but I can pay for it>WE DONT HAVE THE MONEY RIGHT NOW>mom refusing to listen to reason>dad and I go to dollar store for pet supplies for mom's impulse purchase>so are we going to take him to the vet?>dad full on ignores me>get back in car>dad turns towards mom, says "she brought up the vet again">cue yelling about how ungrateful I am>start world War 2 with my fucking mom over a vet visit>don't even have a car because they took the car they bought "for me" and said lol get good faggot it's your dad's now, go get your own car with your own money (I am a 17 year old wagie)>finally take cat to vet after days of back and forth fighting>WHAT DO YOU KNOW THE CAT HAS EAR MITES>Despite this being my mom's fucking cat I am giving him the medicine, his litter box is in my room, and he stays in my room because he's way too small to roam the house>now he's "my cat" and my responsibility No. 2215572
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It gets tuah point where you have nothing to vent about but you’re just burdened with boredom because they got rid of my fave shitposting threads on /ot/ and won’t bring them back. Lazy bitches
No. 2215591
>>2215582For real, it was the lolcow caps generator. I swear from the amount of time I’ve spent in those threads it wasn’t as
toxic as it is now, ironically
probably because I contribute to the toxicity a little bit kek it was pretty hilarious and fun.. newfags ruin everything
No. 2215592
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>>2215572I just wanna shitpost and chit-chat with some ladies!
No. 2215614
When I was in middle school, there was a teacher that really hated me.
I wasn't the most serious student, but I don't recall being awful.. I guess the one thing that could get on a teacher's nerve was I was regularly late, like every other day I'd be one or two minutes late. Sometimes I'd get chatty, and I also had an attitude and would talk back to teachers when getting yelled at, but that wasn't a problem often since I rarely got yelled at..Which this teacher did.
I had a hard time making friends at school, so I would take every occasion to talk with people when given the chance. That included during class.
So one day I was chatting during his class. He yelled at me to go sit in a corner, me and my friend.
I left that corner to go continue chatting.
That was really stupid. I should've just stayed in my corner.
He got into a yelling fit and I'd keep responding to him.
I ended up getting into a disciplinary procedure or something.
Looking back, I think leaving my corner and replying to a yelling professor wasn't that big of a deal , usually these kinds of disciplinary procedures are for students who hit their friends or insult a professor.
I ended up getting kicked from a school trip.
I don't know why but it really hurts when I look back. I feel ashamed of my attitude but at the same time I feel like it was unfair. I feel like this professor just got hurt in his ego and wanted to punish me to heal his ego.
I don't know, it just feels like a betrayal, like I wasn't kicked to be taught to behave, otherwise they could've sat me down and explained to me what was wrong with my attitude, rather that was just a way for him to flex "i'm the professor, you're the student, wanna disrespect me? boom kicked out"
i don't know why it upsets me so much to think about it, like, i wouldn't even remember that trip had i gone on it (i was on a trip the year just before that and don't recall it)
No. 2215617
>>2215614Like, I remembee some girl was a bully, and would bully another girl really bad
That didn't get her kicked out of any trip
But for some reason talking back at a professor will get you kicked out
Idk
No. 2215633
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I cut my scraggly chest length hair into a Beatle cut and I look cute as fuck but now I'm not getting tips at my job. When I had long hair I was constantly getting handed 20 dollar bills. God fucking damn it.
No. 2215668
>>2215641Programming, data analysis, accounting, engineering
maybe: laboratory work, trades, air traffic controller (you need to communicate, but only to pass information, so depending on the level of autism it could be a really nice job)
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>>2215644basically picrel, sort of like a teenage Justin Beiber style. It looks really good on me I swear. spoilered because John Lennon
>>2215648Thanks
nonnie. I thought about it but wearing a wig just to appeal more to sexist boomers is too demeaning. I definitely look cuter with short hair though. Young women are noticeably friendlier to me when I'm out in public so that's nice. Also sorry I had no awareness of where that gif originated, it just captures the rage that set in when I realized we live in a society.
No. 2215685
>>2215668I really wish I could go into air traffic control, sure it's a high stress job, but I think I would be able to handle it considering I like to follow specific rules and such, plus I'm nosy as fuck.
Do you need to know maths to go into programming? Then again, I'm worried about that job being too crowded with people dying to be able to program stuff.
No. 2215691
>>2215685Did you do the entrance test? What's stopping you from trying the job?
I think you don't need much math for most programming jobs, but it's usually important for your degree if you want one
No. 2215695
>>2215685ntayrt but am the anon who confessed about going into CS after getting an art degree.
the art degree was way harder than CS kek It’s not hard, you need very little to no math skills unless you pursue something like machine learning. If you’re a logical person it’s an easy skill to pick up once you become comfortable in one language.
No. 2215696
>>2215657I don’t like playing games though.
>>2215655I can’t do discord, it makes me feel lonelier since everyone just ignores me lol
No. 2215734
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This will make me sound like a bippie too but I'm so tired of attracting bippie female friends. My only female friend in school got diagnosed with bpd and the only one I have right now has autism with bpd tendencies. I don't think I'm a bippie my self esteem is just down in the dumps, I fucking hate the relationship type you get with them. She'll be calling me her best friend one second and calling me names the next. I want to cut her out but I'm scared of what she'll say behind my back, I just need to get it over with but goddamn. I have one other friend and he's a moid so that's that. Just how do I find even one normal female friend? I don't even hate my friend, I think she's smart and could be a great person if she could just remove the veil of bitterness and resentment. I can feel her judgy ways rubbing off onto me, I wish I never knew her.
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It’s the middle of the night and I’m having those thoughts again. I’m remembering a very hazy memory of some scrote who was at least honest and pretty much said I was mediocre, bland and would amount to pretty much nothing. It was the delivery of it that really stuck with me to this very day, it was so deadpan yet it was the harsh truth. I have never stood out in my entire life. I’ve never had my words actually listened to or considered without being talked over. I’ve never been fully recognized for my work. I’ve never had people embrace me or want to talk to me as much as others who draw in people no matter what they do, people are just magnets. I swear I don’t really give off “stink” energy so please don’t blame for or find me weird, I usually don’t worry about this as much as I did when I was younger but now it kind of stings. I don’t really have friends anymore, nobody knows me, nobody reaches out, nobody wants to listen to me except maybe my family when we talk but they’re always more boisterous and loud whenever we speak. I am just completely insignificant and nobody would care if I died. I don’t even know I’m alive, it’s not like I’m completely in emotional pain at the moment but there’s nothing that makes me stand out. I don’t know how people can live their lives without having the need to be validated or recognized like me, it’s what makes you feel complete and whole. I mean I even see that type of stuff on here like very few people always get tons of replies and they get to have conversations but I almost get nothing
No. 2215982
Thoughts about how ugly I think my pussy looks have started taking over my mind again. I really thought I got past this as a teen, but I've started seeing someone and it's gotten bad again. I take every single thing as a sign that she thinks I'm ugly there, I know she thinks I'm ugly there and she'd rather not have anything to do with my pussy so for the past few weeks every time we've had sex, I make it so she doesn't have to interact with me there, she obviously picked up on it. I mean, I am honestly okay with her never touching me there because whenever she was down there I'd couldn't wait to pull her up in a minute or so because I felt so fucking ugly and self-conscious ad disgusting, I couldn't even relax enough to let myself feel good and I knew in my heart, she didn't actually want to be there. I'm getting thoughts of snipping it off again, I tried once when I was a teen, but I stopped because it hurt too much. I just feel so fucking ugly, I've been feeling like shit about my body even more than usual now since someone else has to witness it too.
I talked about it yesterday, or well, she figured out what was going on yesterday and she tried to convince me I am wrong in how I feel and she's turned on by how I look and whatever, but it all feels like a fucking lie. She never seemed to ever want to spend much time there anyways and I just, aren't I sparing her? One time, she stopped after 20 secs of giving me head to get up off the bed and drink some water after pulling a hair out and since I'm retarded and already suspected it, I took it as confirmation she doesn't wanna be down there and I haven't let her be there since. She said to give her time to learn because she isn't that familiar with pussies which is such a fucking lie because she's been with multiple women before me and this is my first relationship, I feel like that's an excuse. She said ultimately I'll think what I want to think, and she tried to console me for hours but it just feels fucking fake. I just want to stop feeling so insecure about it, I haven't been able to get off for a month because I breakdown every time I try.
No. 2216025
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My ldr (ex?) bf is so retarded, I asked him yesterday why does he often just send heart in the morning instead of writing "good morning", is he very busy? Is emoji an equivalent of a message to him? Yeah it is a stupid question but it isn't offensive to ask, no? I asked as nicely as I could. To me, morning and night messages and stuff like this is pretty important in LDR. He doesn't have time to text me for most of the day, I need at least something. But I still asked so politely. Didn't blame or anything. And he straight up deflected and attacked, told me "oh so to you just emoji is inferior? How could you sometimes send me only an emoji then? I'm at loss of words!" "so you ignored my morning emoji on purpose??" and dramatic shit like this.
I literally just asked. I only used "I feel" and other bullshit psychology statements in hope I could communicate with him. But it's impossible. Then when I said I literally didn't mean it as an attack, he told me I'm manipulative and trying to change the narrative. What the fuck????? To me, being told that is relationship changing and I no longer give fucks about him.
He will tell me to always say what I feel and never hold anything back, but then absolutely hate it when I nicely express anything. He will ask for space and then bitch if I don't message first. I can't win.
And sometimes he will come back and grovel with things like "people tell me I have horrible personality, I am so sorry for making you sad all the time". To me honestly he seems like the manipulative one.
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MY ROOMMATE PANFRIED SOME CANNED TUNA AND RED ONION AND NOW MY ENTIRE FUCKING APARTMENT REEKS WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DOOOO
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>>2216030EW EW EW EW EWE EWWWWWW. People who cook/eat fish and stinky ass food around other people without asking if they’re okay with that SHOULD BE SHOT! UGH
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Hate has been slowly building up. Every day, hour, minute, second fills me with this contempt and bitter, hopeless hate. I'm going to direct some of this to the state of lolcow because I don't care to get into my life here because of the dumb fuckers starting fights and upsetting anons because they have such miserable, putrid lives and can't stop talking about themselves for one moment in it.
I hate lolcow now. It used to be fun and less hateful less than a year ago, less than six months ago. Theres also either no milk or new cows get killed because anons want to focus on small autistic details and talk in circles about it instead of getting the fucking full cream on display. I miss the way it was when I first found it in early 2020, I feel a deep anemoic longing about the way it was 5 to 8 years ago. It's like looking at a relative with dementia, there's glimpses of what it used to be but it's succumbed to confabulation in lieu of memory and blind aggression as the metaphorical brain is just slowly dying. I would post this is in the lolcow graduation thread but I cannot stand the stupid
>huehuehue see you next week
fuckheads even if it's not directed towards me. In fact anything in that nature incenses me, I'm not a type of person who regularly gets targeted by anons here and it's fucking horrible to witness nonnas who do nothing wrong or just have a different experience get dug into by little cunts who just want to kill the mood and upset people. Imagine trying to be the moral police on a fucking lolcow site, just make a fucking tumblr account or go to tiktok. Aww but then where will you say "faggot" and "troon"? Poor babies. And the fixation on trying to personalityfag every anon who you disagree with and accusing everyone of being the same people. Maybe you have undiagnosed schizophrenia and need to get that checked out or you're so enthralled by social media like a moth to a bug zapper that you have to bring that behaviour and attitude here. This is a anonymous board, you don't know who you're talking to unless they make it obvious and for example an anon having a art style does not make them one. No I'm not NTYfag, I'm not any of your made up personalityfags and if you thought I was for a split second you need serious help.
Some of you miserybones better fucking hope there's never a irl meetup, I'll find out who you are with my schizo powers and I'm never wrong when I use them. To all the anons who are normal and have to put up with the likes of me and and those nasty fuckers, the anons who feel ashamed for being attracted to other women because of retards, to the anons who regularly get shat on by anons having a meltdown and trying to act superior over things that do not impact them and/or never experienced or racebaiting/homophobic retards, the few remaining oldfags and the ones long gone who seemed so smart and funny and kind despite their attitudes towards cows, I love you from the bottom of my heart, like a song bird loves the wind.
I wish I killed myself in 2022, not because of lolcow (I'm not that retarded) but because of everything. Everything is getting worse, people are getting more retarded, the environment is getting more fucked, even the food seems unnatural and either too sweet or flavourless, it feels like the world is being eaten from the inside out. I haven't been doomscrolling, I don't watch the news, I don't use social media, I take several week long breaks from here at a time and yet everything feels bad and like there's a international disaster that will impact everyone around the corner and no one will care because you'll all be arguing your stupid, insipid arguments that don't matter, none of it fucking matters you just want a sense of superiority over someone. I feel like I'm going fucking crazy and I'm so lonely and enraged at people being malignant shits for nothing.
It all reminds me of these words;
>when the earth is turned into a gripping dungeon/ in which hope, like a bat flutters blindly/ and bruises its timid wings and tender head on walls and ceilings/ […] does silent throng of loathsome spiders come and weave their webs inside our brains
and
>But we are all as an unclean thing, and all our righteousnesses are as filthy rags; and we all do fade as a leaf; and our iniquities, like the wind, have taken us away
I like writing like that, I also really like gambling, how many of you think I'm going to get banned for venting just like that poor nonna in the thread prior? Stake your bets!
No. 2216055
>>2216051>most women I’ve met couldn’t give less of a fuckInteresting because I experienced the opposite
>>2216052I'm a lesbian anon. Assuming women will treat you better or different just because they have yonis is naive.
No. 2216058
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>>2216055Also, my initial point was that the OP’s partner clearly doesn’t give a fuck if she’s still with her. Congrats on your attractive vulva though.
No. 2216061
>>2216059You know I'm also tired that unnecessarily sensitive anons in this website calls out everything bait because of their fefe. I'm probably going to get banned for it but not every vulva is attractive, it's impossible to find every vulva attractive to begin with just like how we don't find every body attractive, because there are ugly bodies as well. I understand this is a sensitive topic for many women with unconventional vulvas, but that's what it is, we don't choose our bodies. For example same anon probably mogs other women with saggy breasts. But no one going to say anything about it because it's culturally acceptable to shit on saggy breasts. However when it's comes to vaginas you have to walk on eggshells.
>>2216058You said most women won't judge women for their appearance like men does which is absolutely incorrect.
No. 2216069
>>2216057It is partially tongue in cheek, if it wasn't it'd just be (even more) incoherent rambling with some random FUCK YOU FUCK YOUs in there, though I am fine with being a covid newfag and know I came way too late to experience the best parts. It wasn't great then, but it wasn't as bizarro as it is now imo.
>>2216048Alas, I only write like this when I'm having a bit of a sperg so my writing is probably going to bite me in the arse one day soon.
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>>2216098>i don’t get the moralfagging here debating if I should take this completely south and call you a bunch of slurs
that you deserve to be called and carry on with my day, you’re seriously not worth it
No. 2216111
>>2216095I was gonna actually point that out kek, perfect timing.
Aside from that, jesus fucking christ my dad is such an awful embarrassing drunk. He goes into this slurring child-like state and acts like a toddler. Even the times he’s out with friends, or with a current girlfriend, he acts the same way. I can’t fathom letting yourself be like that
everytime you drink, and humiliating yourself in the way that he does. He’s not an aggressive drunk at the very least, but I still cannot stand to be around him like that. I’ve come to the conclusion that it’s purely because he’s a male and never felt the need to correct that behaviour.
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Can I just say it's retarded that white scrotes can have dicks that turn slightly brown or dusky from the rest of their bodies, but white women are expected to have perfectly pink vaginas and butt holes? I see this expectation coming mainly from white scrotes, and that's what makes it especially weird to me because how do white scrotes not know what vaginas normally look like on the women of their own fucking race?
No. 2216122
>>2216117Kek this is so true. Whenever scrotes bring up that stupid html colour code thing I send a colour that is completely unreasonable and the retards
always believe me.
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>>2216117Half of the white women have pink vaginas, it's no exclusive to porn
>>2216116Think the picrel with fat outer lips
(spoiler your shit/infighting/derailing) No. 2216130
>>2216116Stop entertaining them and feeding them the attention they desperately crave, they clearly couldn’t get any sex from an IRL woman and are now taking it out on the majority straight userbase of this website for being born with “ugly” vaginas whatever that means, only troons and pickmes hyperfocus on their genitals
>>2216117Thank god I wasn’t the only one who clocked the subtle racial undertones cause… kek
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>muh moralfagging SJAYDUBYASSSSS!!!!!!111
This is the only space where women don’t have to hyperfixate and waste their energy on what they perceive to be lacking, stop trying to ruin it and go sperg about your serial killer vulva obsession somewhere else and stop ruining this website
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I’m scared for no reason. Does anybody else here ever feel like whenever something good happens that something fatal will happen to you/others? It sometimes feels unreal when good and peaceful things happen to me, I’m so used to perpetual suffering
No. 2216153
My aunt is do bothered that I'm an only child and will eventually get so much more than her kids.. family trust means it's split threeways between your kids, that isn't my fault. I didn't make my mom have miscarriages when she tried again..
She keeps complaining to my mom, also that I moved to the country and do mediocre art instead of working. I don't have to. My father made sure of that, wasn'tmy damn fault he died when i was a teen, world's ending anyway though it's the slowest and most boring apocalypse ever and now she insinuated I'd just "waste" that money on an animal shelter or something. No. I mean yes, I definitely will, but my actual priority is funding and building a women's shelter. That or funding flats or offering my own properties for it. I've been there with my friend, at every single police interview, everytime she needed a place to stay, at every court hearing, at every meeting with her lawyer. It took two years for her to finally make up her mind that she can't live like that anymore. Her female lawyer and social worker were fucking amazing and inspired me so much. I just want to help women and animals and I don't get why my aunt is so damn pissy about all that, or why she's so bothered by my existence and i keep living rent free in her head, why
You go live your life, I'll do the same thanks
No. 2216154
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I need more female friends. I hate that a majority of my friends currently (the handful of them) are scrotes. The one close female friend I had recently is a fucking cow in every sense of the word, just thought she wouldn’t lay it on me. I love ladies but I’ve been so unlucky with the ones I’ve met.
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I want to see the one girl I love dearly but she's so fucking far away I'm gonna die
No. 2216198
>>2216161Done. Hope you like central europe!
>>2216156And done. Started when I turned down my father's will and made a deal with my mom for an owned flat instead. That already pissed my aunt and cousins off. "You got a flat at 17." "Yeah and you have a fucking living, breathing father." My mom and i paid our dues with that
abusive asshole. Ruined my mom's career, ruined me mentally. I rent it out to students and a friend stays for free, haven't hiked prices ever. Gives me enough for bills. I do work part time and am self employed as a web designer and programmer, just so few actual fun projects these days so i focus on my animals and "farm" and women's events. My mom has been buying properties for a while now, so I'm not overly worried. She gave up so much for my father, now she's travelling and living it up and I'm just happy to see her thriving and full of life. Once some germans on a trip told me "dont you care that she's spending your inheritance?" I almost tore them apart right there and then. My mom deserves the fucking best after everything we've been through and I don't care if she leaves me nothing at all but a painting of hers.
That women's shelter is happening. It will surely take time, but I'm doing it. But that's "wasting" money? Every rent I've paid for a friend, every course or school my friends got the opportunity to do, the used car someone needed help with, surprising vet deals where the option would've been euthanasia, I'm so fucking privileged why wouldn't I help where i can when it's so damn easy for me? I barely make enough to break even but why wouldn't i when i got the opportunity to really help and take some weight of for a bit? All that just to say i hate rich people that can literally do something, but don't and then shame you for it. What a fucked up, shitty world and I just refuse to ever end up like that. Just shoot me in the head and forge my will.
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Update to this
>>2212390, just got back from the event I mentioned with my group. Many who I talked to said they did not like my ex and were entirely unaware he had disrespected me–so definitely not malice or indifference. But the group leaders, the ones who decide ultimately if he is banned from future events, gave me pushback.
They didn't hesitate to assign blame to me and kept repeating that I had been too emotional.
"Why did you do all that stuff for him anyway?"
"It was too early in the relationship it's not like you dated for long.."
"Well he is Michaelmoid's longtime friend, we want him to feel like he brought someone into our group."
"Had you been part of our inner house he would have been banned immediately, but because you are prospect it needs to come to a vote."
It was really crushing. Like I could understand their point of me needing to not being so upset over a short-lived relationship. I'm over it now and emotionally I feel better today. But I still didn't understand their logic of needing this cringey
toxic moid so fucking bad for one reason or another because we objectively DO NOT need him and other people would not care if he does not return except for his faggot fucking friend. I also don't know why they kept bringing up how "early" the relationship was considering it was a perfectly REASONABLE question to have asked the fucker if he was deciding to stay in his state because I didn't want to waste any more of my time and resources but fuck me for my texts having come across all
emotional I suppose.
Instead of being further humiliated by their "vote" over the situation, I bargained. I made the group leads promise that he was to repay me back the money he admitted he owed me in texts, and I also made the group leaders buy me a $400 piece of merch at the event with the caveat that if he were to pull any shit to degrade me at future events that it would be an immediate ban.
Still gonna avoid him and treat him like he doesn't exist. But I am disappointed with them–not all of them, but definitely the leads. I hate this shit but I guess recouping my losses is better than nothing and I got the fact that the loser probably will not be able to come to many events anyway.
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working at a tech company literally be like
step 1: mass company layoffs
step 2: conference for 1k international employees where they for some reason hired bon jovi to play at the company dinner after party
I CAN'T
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Only one more week left of vacation
No. 2216278
>>2216117Men of all races have been totally conditioned by porn. It’s not even about vaginas only, even breasts too. Most women don’t have small, pink areolas kek, the shape of it and even the color can change , especially when you’ve had children.
I think women should start holding scrotes to the same high standards, men don’t feel insecure enough in my opinion, they walk freely with dookie in their boxers and smegma on their dicks.
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>tfw 3 girls in your class are sex workers on the side and one is trying to groom another girl into becoming one
No. 2216304
>>2216025>He will tell me to always say what I feel and never hold anything back, but then absolutely hate it when I nicely express anything. He will ask for space and then bitch if I don't message first. I can't win. And sometimes he will come back and grovel with things like "people tell me I have horrible personality, I am so sorry for making you sad all the time". To me honestly he seems like the manipulative one.
I had this shit happen to me too in both relationships and with friends. It's so fucking annoying when you're just communicating how something makes you feel bad and mustered up the courage to do it and then they hit you with the "you're being so mean to me" and turn it on you as if you're the villain even when you've worded it nicely and let the same issue pass multiple times before addressing it. It genuinely just feels like gaslighting and acting like the problem doesn't exist, they criticize you back instead of just apologizing and changing their behaviors. The whole "I'm a bad person sorry" excuse always feels so insincere too, I had a scrote tell me that after I said I was tired of his shit behaviors and he just used it to justify them instead of changing himself and being a better person. They genuinely don't give a shit if they make you sad, they're only bothered that you notice it and call them out on their shit, and then will try that to see if they can manipulate you into staying by making you feel pity for them. For the wanting space thing it's genuinely really irritating too because they're ok with not giving a fuck about you and not initiating but if you mirror their behavior then it sudddenly becomes an issue
No. 2216328
>>221631818 years olds should aspire to do something with their life rather than making porn. It’s so depressing to see someone fuck up their life without even bothering to try.
And these same women are going to regret it later on. This shit remains for the rest of your life and the money you end up making isn’t worth it. The market of OF is over saturated rn, you’re lucky if you end up making some money without making specific fetish content.
>You want a career and have a chance ago bag your dream job and there’s someone like nonna? Bye bye, your video will be shared and you won’t be a good representation for the company kek.>You have a partner and a friend of yours who is jealous or a scrote from your past life? Bye bye, you partner has just been sent your content.>You end up having a child? Pray that they never find out or worse that their classmate don’t bully them because mommy dearest is a pornstar.And this is just some scenarios kek, sometimes you don’t even manage to get out of it.
No. 2216349
>>2216343>no one said men aren’t the main problem or the reason it existsYet they are strangely ommitted from these tirades when the topic is brought up, I notice. It's what you're not saying that's telling.
>men only call them whores and that’s the entire discussion everywhere elseAnd abuse them and kill them. And other such mistreatment and violence because the whole of society views sexual women as the most disposable.
>obviously knows that men who buy sex workers are rapists and degenerates and no one wants them in society eitherThey're our politicians and celebrities. Have you been sleeping?
If you want to call women bitches and whores then by all means there's just no need for the virtue signaling larp.
No. 2216355
>>2216338Thank you anon.
>>2216343They're not camgirls, they're sugar babies and they all come low income backgrounds. I am not justifying their work, but painting them as lazy spoiled girls is not right. One of them already has a side job and guess what? It doesn't pay her nearly enough to sustain her 2 kids and study at the same time. Yes, she made bad choices but she can't turn back time.
No. 2216366
>>2216337> normal men should not be putting their dicks Nonna I wish I was still hopeful as you, there are no “normal” men. They’re all cut from the same cloth. A scrote will always want options or even the illusion of them. They want a girlfriend, a wife, but they’ll still lust after the “slut”. And when they even end up with the slut, she’ll no longer be one and they’ll search for another one.
Men either see you as an object of sex and desire, to project their fetishes (see husbands who have anal, BDSM etc with prostitutes but not their wives or those who cheat with affair partners and end up cheating on them too later on) or as someone who is useful and mother like towards them. There’s no in between, the more a man “likes you” (I genuinely don’t believe that men can truly love, it’s a matter of benefits) the less he’ll feel sexual desire.
No. 2216373
>>2216361Cam girls are in fact stalked and murdered, not to mention they go through standard abuse every other woman goes through with a dusting of misogyny telling them they deserve it due to their profession.
>they can block abuseIndeed, they are abused like I said regardless of how they can respond to it.
>you coping cam girl retardFeels good being a successful leader in my professional pharmaceutical company. You seem upset.
No. 2216387
>>2216349> Yet they are strangely ommitted from these tirades when the topic is brought up, I notice. Do you need a 30 page essay each time? Anyone that doesn’t call out men when criticizing women in that specific instance is pro-scrote automatically?
The topic at hand was women who promote this lifestyle.
No. 2216390
>>2216377Are you the nursing student? It really scares me that you'd potentially be going into a medical profession where your biases could directly or indirectly harm women seeking your help because you don't agree with their sexual choices.
You're being really aggressive like how some nurses are, why are so many female nurses so shitty and have a superiority complex over other women?
>a place where men aren’t even seeing me self righteously change the topic to scold themMen lurk and post here newfag.
>>2216381>mfw the audacity of this bitch when 100% of my abusers have been men and never womenWhat the fuck anon.
No. 2216398
>>2216371Yes. Especially if you're from a lower socioeconomical background and have children. Even in first world countries, some women with full time jobs already struggle to make it.
>>2216379Most people look down on them in real life, so why contribute to it? It's sad and makes you wish there were more options for these girls.
>>2216390That reply was not me. I understand why those women do it, I just find it sad because I know they just want a better life for themselves.
No. 2216402
>>2216381Yeah it's not men raping and abusing me that I need to worry about, it's women talking to me about their OF site because it's totally going to brainwash me into sex slavery just like that.
Lmao whatever, what the fuck ever.
No. 2216404
>>2216390You act like prostituted women can’t do no harm kek, there are ones who end up being madame and who groom other girls and there are definitely those, especially those who do online stuff, who do their best to promote their lifestyle to other women.
Criticizing them doesn’t remove their status as
victims nonna though, and that’s what you and other nonnas can’t seem to understand.
Someone here might say something quite reasonable and easy to understand and one of you would make a totally new sentence out of it kek.
No. 2216412
>>2216402See? Where did nonna say that you shouldn’t worry about scrotes?
It’s obvious that a man is and will always be more dangerous and that they’ll obviously be the bigger ultimate problem, because it’s them who uphold our oppression. I
No. 2216423
>>2216407And we helped her avoid it. I see everyone in this equation as a
victim. What they did was wrong, but I genuinely don't think they really see it as that bad because of how normalized it can become in some spheres. It's just what they have to do, in their point of view. That's what I was trying to convey and what fills me with sadness.
>>2216415Stop confusing posters ffs.
No. 2216444
>>2216416I genuinely think that they don’t do this in bad faith. They just lack comprehension skills kek.
When you say W they automatically think that you support J without you even mentioning it and that since you only mentioned W , the blame is only on W according to you.
We should all do a collective reading and comprehension test, I bet 40% of nonnas here wouldn’t pass it.
No. 2216472
>>2216459See kek, I didn’t make any of the arguments nor replied, I’ve just read them.
It also doesn’t happen rarely. It happens very often that so many of the nonnas just miss the point of what someone is saying.
Telling me that I lack empathy for pointing that out doesn’t really matter.
No. 2216507
>>2216472I definitely think that some of the nonnas here seem to blame women more than men on the matter of porn and that they lack the understanding of what happens in third world countries , but so many nonnas have just simply stated that some women do participate in the upholding of porn and quite willingly and that is harmful and got attacked by dumbasses that accused them of not blaming men.
You can disagree and you can make an intelligent counter argument, but you just seem retarded when you try to counter with something that OP nonna didn’t say at all in the first place.
No wonder everything ends up in infighting if you have people who can’t even understand anything about what someone says.
Same goes with the pussy talk that happened before, it just went like this:
>I like pink pussy for me and I tend to have a look that I like. >huh so you think that all women have pink pussies and you think that brown pussies and outer pussies are shit huh? Why do you think like a scrote? I don’t agree with the pink pussy nonna before anyone starts piling on me kek.
No. 2216516
>>2216483Nonnas from both sides expect that any
victim is a perfect
victim when that isn’t the truth at all in the real world.
No. 2216531
>>2216504The reason why is actually super cool kek.
vision. Flies have these things called ommatidia that make vision possible, we have them too, but far, far less less. They have 6,000 ommatidia, they see you in slow motion basically. Their reaction time is timed in the milliseconds to nanoseconds range, by the time you’ve reached them (according to you) they’ve already reacted to the stimuli.
No. 2216569
>>2216558I used to kill them with the white curtains in my house , that or I would capture them and then drown them in water after catching them. I would do it slowly in order for them to remain still.
My mom always got pissed because I was dirtying the curtains though.
No. 2216572
>>2216569>I would drown them in water after catching them Why? That seems like a waste of time. Am I misreading this post or are you sadistically drowning flies so you can collect their corpses?
>>2216565How does it feel to be a superior being?
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Just learned a bunch of really uncomfortable things about how a lesbian couple I know and their friend have been acting towards a couple of people I know, and I'm in complete fucking shock because I thought they were way better than that. I still owe them for a couple of favors they've helped me with, but I'm gonna make us even asap so I can cut them off because I can't stand by this bullshit.
No. 2216601
>>2216576Cmon
nonnie share with us now I’m dying to know kek
No. 2216609
>>2216600agreed and it’s weird to bring up the rape
victim blaming rhetoric in their situation
No. 2216612
>>2216572I was 8-9 , I can’t really explain why I was doing that kek. I would also drown ant dens with the water nozzle we had in our house in the mountains kek. I would throw stones at birds too. I would cut lizards’s tail since they grew back and I was fascinated by it. I would chase my grandma’s cat and pull her tail too and try to carry grandma’s dog like a teddy and close the poor dog in the bedroom.
I promise I do not harass animals now nonna, I respect them and actually like them.
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I hate interacting with extremely insecure women who take their insecurities out on others but anymore it seems like so many fucking people are like this. I feel bad that people made them feel bad but they don't need to make my life harder for it, yknow? Like chill, I didn't do a damn thing to you. I wonder if I just subconsciously attract these types.
No. 2216625
>>2216586Sexually harassed a few people, being HUUUGE actual rape apologists ("well sleeping isn't exactly NOT consenting", "does it really count as rape if the police wasn't called?", etc.), outs people's sexual orientations and kinks whenever they get the chance to but throws a fit if anyone points out they're discreetly acting out their dom/sub kink in public, and a bunch of other shit. Once a friend had been talking to them about her
abusive ex and the immediate response was "mmm yeah lost all respect for you now for even allowing yourself to be in that type of relationship".
And this is just the tip of the iceberg of the shit I just learned, I've always known they were a bit off but I figured they were just privileged oddballs that were a bit out of touch but I never imagined them being like this.
Yes they are actually both women, one of them seem to be a tranny chaser though No. 2216633
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my favorite live version of a song got removed from youtube, i tried to download it before but it never worked rip this sucks
No. 2216634
>>2216625do not make shit even with them and end your relationship with them by saying i heard all of these things, list out exactly what they did and said, and then block them before they can defend themselves. tell all the people who told you this and are the
victims being told they deserved rape and abuse that they did that and so you cut them off. as many of you as possible should send the same you did this and i’m cutting you off message as possible and block them at the same time. it sounds like none of these people want to be friends with someone like that anyways if they’ve told you about more than one situation. they’re sexually harassing abuse apologists and in those types of circles, that kind of thing will end them socially. just be a united front and they will actually face social consequences for being scum for once.
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I became an anachan when I was 15 and I’m 18 now. I’ve been semi-recovered for a while and was eating around 1600 calories a day for many months but recently I feel like my body is rebelling against me. Even eating at maintenance is no longer enough. I can’t control my appetite anymore and I’m afraid I’m going to gain a massive amount of weight over time like everyone else in my family. I still count calories but I usually end up eating 2000-2500 calories a day. I have totally lost the ability to restrict whatsoever.
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Can someone help me figure out what the fuck was my ex’s deal? I’m struggling to comprehend what mental illness compels someone to act like this. Apparently he’s only diagnosed with depression and anxiety. The more I talk to his other exes the worse it gets.
>was friends with a guy who bragged about bullying me in high school (he knew this) and would regularly tell me “funny stories” about all the degenerate criminal shit this guy would get up to
>watched gore videos
>had an obsession with sex tapes, constantly begged me to let him start an Onlyfans and when I said no he made a secret Twitter account to post his own nudes anyways
>chameleon with no sense of self, constantly going through some kind of phase, seemed to absorb the personality of whoever he wanted attention from at the time (one day he was goth, the next day he was a gym bro, the next day he was trans, etc)
>told a mentally ill girl on Twitter to carve his name into her arm and when she did he made the image his profile picture
>always remained eerily calm even when I snapped at him which made me feel even crazier
>is incapable of being alone, literally ALWAYS in a relationship, if they break up he’ll get into a new one in a matter of days
>would threaten to kill himself when his ex wouldn’t reply to his texts
>has managed to track down literally every social media account I’ve ever made
Before you ask, yes I got revenge on him
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I did everything required for the essay and he gives me a 40%. Fuck you I’m going to give you a one star rating on rate my professor and not elaborate. Can someone do a black magic curse on him, and give him a uti?
No. 2216941
>>2216904Me! Me! Me! Make your own vent. And it just sounds like you want to
trigger nonna, fuck off.
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>>2216959Because if they see a post they don't like it means they die
No. 2216991
>>2216868Public transportation could be so awesome here in burgerland but because it's so car-centric and everyone drives, any public transit is always just full of mentally ill, creepy, scary men (with the exception of certain commuter trains). It was refreshing when I visited the UK years ago and I actually felt
safe on buses even at night, because I was surrounded by "normal" people and women instead of worrying about being alone near a violent crackhead screaming or jerking off.
No. 2216998
>>2216959- anon boards just are like this usually
- did you read what she wrote? It was very insensitive of her to take a recovering anachans vent and brag about being the spoopiest of all
No. 2217104
>>2216899>I still count calories Stop that
>I have totally lost the ability to restrict whatsoeverThis is not how an actual person without an ED talks, is there any way you can speak to a trusted person about this, preferably a professional?
You cannot be the size you were at 15 at 18 and I promise you that the size you are at 18-23 is not going to be sustainable as you move into your mid thirties. Anorexia is a teenagers game, if you don't move on from it as an adult you're going to be so miserable. You're going to be stupid and tired as fuck because your brain won't have enough nutrients and you're never going to feel good enough because an adult body can't stay the same size as a teenagers body
I hope you get well anon
No. 2217116
>>2217104Thank you
nonnie. It’s been difficult because for me anorexia was one of the only things that made me feel good about myself (“If I can’t be attractive or well-liked at least I can be skinny”, etc)
No. 2217133
>>2217116I hope you can find a different thing to like about yourself, you seem nice and like you have good written communication skills if that helps.
Progress isn't always a straight line but you'll get there in the end if you try
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anyone else just really hate social media? genuinely soul sucking and it just made me miserable i only really listen to music and come here. went on shitter and tiktok the other day and was quickly reminded why i left. almost everywhere is shit, itd be nice if i could quit the internet altogether but im a schizo that cant interact with normal people and im extremely lonely. ughhh everything sucks
No. 2217322
>>2217256nta but same. I wasn't a big fan of the rise of modern social media that came with facebook since I felt regular forums and skype was enough for me
kek, but I still found it handy in how you could get just enough of a glimpse of people's lives and use it as a calendar for events you're interested in or invited to and people's birthdays without the hassle of calling around.
I miss when the biggest issue on social media was the insane fomo people got from others pretending their lives were better than yours, now it's all just shit all over the place. The internet has become a corporate landscape made to feed people's narcissism, porn addiction and rage bait for views. It will never recover and we will forever miss the simpler days.
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When I see an attractive guy on TikTok/twitter that piques my interest so I turn the volume up but he has a loud and proud fagcent
No. 2217526
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>>2198047I'm this nona from 2 weeks ago and now that I've had time to look at the pics I took and wear the glasses, I actually do like these way more. I get so many compliments. And love what they do to my face. My hairdresser gave me a new haircut to go with my face when I'm wearing glasses and I love it.
>>2198122kek I didn't see the reply calling me retarded but it warms my heart to be defended by a dear sweet nona
>>2198272>We all have something we need to work on or change. Dont be too hard on yourself. Take it as a lesson learnedThe glasses I ended up with were actually cheaper, but I appreciate it nonetheless.
No. 2217549
I fucking hate being a woman with a sex drive. It's fucking hell for us. There's no porn for women at all, literally. Literally the only female gaze porn that exists is yaoi hentai and if you aren't into that you're shit outta luck. It feels like women aren't allowed to be horny, like there is no sexual content for us that doesn't treat us as an object as well, just see josei hentai where the female MC has balloon tits and dresses like a hooker while the male LI looks and acts boring as fuck and isn't even the main focus.
In women-specific genres, the content isn't even sexual. Take otome for example, the men aren't even sexualized or featured in those type of situations like we're some sort of asexual beings whose idea of intimacy extends to handholding. Not only that but women are too objectified in content for us. We're always supposed to look pretty, act feminine, have a perfect body, etc. even in stuff that's supposed to be for us. Do women genuinely feel uncomfortable or lack interest entirely seeing objectified men, am I the abnormal one here?
Genuinely don't understand why there is no, and i mean no sexual content for women. Not only that but you're shamed by other women for dare being horny as if it's abnormal. Other women also uphold the notion that "w-women aren't turned on by images or videos like men are!" or "women have lower sex drives"! Genuinely how the fuck is there no demand for sexual content for women, especially since we have libidos too? Are the sexual needs of women not important even though we're the one forced to carry a child for 8 months? I fucking hate being a woman and I'm convinced female sexuality is inherently cucked.
No. 2217561
>>2217547They live independently and don't have interest in helping, one has their own family very far awa and the other is in college, as much as I apprecate the advice and it is smart it just can't apply
I'll have to look into getting help for her on my own either way. A blessing and a curse she's too young for a nursing home
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How am I supposed to leave my bf when he’s my only friend and I can’t make friends in the middle of nowhere. Everyone is a trump tard, zoomer who thinks I’m old, or an actual retired person or all of the above. I’m too young and too old for this. I want to never wake up. It’s so over for me. I was gonna leave but he actually gives a shit and nobody fucking else does. Maybe if I make him mad enough he’ll shoot me but I don’t think he ever would.
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people under 18 who are obsessed with the y2k aesthetic are so strange to me..is this how 90s kids feel when 24 year olds are obsessed with 90s stuff
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I want to vent about my god damn group members but if I do I’ll stay up later than I need to after only getting two hours of sleep last night. So I’ll just say fuck you guys you don’t even know how to spell recipe correctly
No. 2217658
>>2217645They like it because we were actually really mean to fat and ugly people and the stars and models back then were fitter and hotter. The clothes were totally unflattering to fatties, in sharp contrast to today. It was a moderately
toxic yet aspirational type of beauty standard, the era of victorias secret bombshells and Abercrombie himbos. It's a similar feeling to looking at curated photos from the 60s and liking how cute people dressed and did their hair etc, disregarding the social issues. It's a longing to escape the dredgery of today.
No. 2217699
>>2217679She gave you good advice and yet you’re trying to justify yourself still. No one reads your mind , the average person puts everything in the sink and doesn’t cut themselves.
You flipping off like a sailor for a knife in the sink is annoying.
No. 2217749
File: 1729583034648.jpeg (38.26 KB, 680x680, IMG_4402.jpeg)
A little tipsy and thinking about the same person again. They made a big positive impact on my life but I also had a huge crush, all I can say is that if they can see me now, I hope I made them proud.
No. 2217788
File: 1729588623852.jpeg (60.91 KB, 720x573, IMG_1829.jpeg)
Life is a race and I fucking lost said race, everything I would try to change in my life would be too late anyway. While I’m mostly content with how life is going, I sometimes wonder if it was for the best to go through my last suicide attempt 5 years ago and die with a better impression on others - now I’m just tired and underachieving ugh.
No. 2217840
>>2217836Cooking is an art and you obviously have a natural talent
I google shit too and yet I still need 5 attempts to get something right
>If you need to remove or add something to adjust it to your tastes, just do itIt's not that easy and natural to know what is extra/missing and how much of it to add or remove
No. 2217861
File: 1729595531231.png (160.36 KB, 450x443, 5de.png)
>struggling with a uni assignment
>can't figure out a problem on my own nor with help of google or chatgpt
>lecturer isn't available until thursday morning
I'm already slightly ahead of my personal schedule on it because I started early, but I was hoping to be able to use the extra time on adding some flair to my project instead of sitting on my ass because I can't move forward until this issue is solved. I guess I could do some tinkering but even then I'm still gonna have a lot of time on my hands.
No. 2217928
This is the weirdest infight ever, and I'm gonna participate
>>2217679>I just don't want another severed tendon>>2217642>I nearly cut myself in a knife>nearlySo nothing happened and you're making a mountain out of a molehill
This is a ridiculous overreaction from OP because in the worst case the sink knife would result in an ouch and -1 hp, easily solved with a small plaster
Nobody ever sustained serious injuries from dirty sink cutlery. Severed tendon, puh-lease
No. 2217943
>>2217642I don't know why everyone is on your case. Not leaving knives in a soapy water sink is kitchen safety 101 (lived with a chef for a few years, can confirm that leaving knives in the sink will get you fired from a commercial kitchen assuming the dishwasher doesn't beat your ass first). And this is lolcor; imagine defending some stinky nigel over a
nonny.
No. 2217944
>>2217943agree her nigel should be kicked out of the house for this
how dare he leave kitchen steel folded 1000 times in opaque soap water.
No. 2217957
>>2217945The horror of
nearly getting a cut on the thumb!
No. 2217965
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The girl that tried to get with my boyfriend knowing full well I exist, and while having a long time partner herself, is back working at the coffee shop he goes to everyday. I am legitimately gonna go fucking insane.
I thought she had moved away since she hadn't been there in months but imagine my shock when I saw her there the other day.
He was at the café earlier and when I went inside to pick him up she went from all smiles and jokes to all serious and went to have a smoke break fucking kek.
No. 2217973
File: 1729605451842.jpg (69.83 KB, 680x680, right.jpg)
>>2217965Your bf rebuffs every one of her advances and thinks she's an annoying tryhard, right?
No. 2217977
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>time to dedicate some of my time to preserving the language of my grandparents
>go to study group
>feeling good about speaking after not having done so for a while
>enter random Gorlock the Destroyer
>the most ratty ass hair I've ever seen, ripped stockings, wearing some kind of a moomoo on top
>speaks in a fake soft voice
>is into computers (ofc)
>everybody else in the group (mostly young women) coos over him like he is a retarded toddler
>my mood is ruined
Please fucking kill me.
No. 2217988
File: 1729605936707.jpeg (35.46 KB, 600x462, IMG_4731.jpeg)
I’M SICK. FUCK LIFE.
No. 2217991
>>2217976I'm like the roommate and bf
I haven't maimed anyone yet
No. 2218003
File: 1729606708770.jpeg (5.19 KB, 262x192, images.jpeg)
>>2217993Here, let me fix it
No. 2218083
>>2218080It's just one of those days when you don't wanna wake up
Everything is fucked, everybody sucks
You don't really know why, but you wanna justify
Rippin' someone's head off
No human contact, and if you interact
Your life is on contract
Your best bet is to stay away, motherfucker
It's just one of those days
No. 2218091
>>2218080I’d let you lobotomize me
nonnie. If I die it’s okay, even better actually.
No. 2218095
File: 1729614089349.jpeg (38.05 KB, 547x561, IMG_7766.jpeg)
Sad there is no new Pixy thread in pt, and I am too severely retarded to make one
No. 2218112
File: 1729614569435.png (342.96 KB, 698x317, 1710429750145.png)
>cool woman starts working at my office
>we get along great
>find out she likes videogames. I also like games
>we talk about it
>keeps saying her husbands friends always talk about how amazing she is at videogames compared to her husband
>after this she immediately stops being as friendly
>she starts ignoring me whenever the IT moids are around
>she keeps telling people that she's "a lad"
>"all my friends are men so I know everything about WWE"
>will stop mid conversation with women to direct her entire focus talking to a moid coworker
Missus you are in your 40s why are you doing this I thought you were cool
No. 2218114
>>2218110thank you
nonnie i just feel silenced. ive been sexually abused before by family friends and someone i thought was my friend so it isnt new but it hurts hearing my own step father say that, someone ive grown up with for over a decade. i will accept it but i cant keep seeing him the same or trusting him. maybe one day ill speak up when im moved out but im too nervous to rock the waters for everyone. im also an adult and dont feel like im allowed to feel as upset by it as i do.
No. 2218145
>>2218121i dont think hed do anything to me because hes too scared and he knows im an adult now and would have already tried it. he works a lot and i also get to be away for a few weeks sometimes when i care for animals in homes. its hard because my father is even more scummy so him being the better version than that yet still so fucked up hurts. i do have a female friend i can message and a therapist i can speak to next month thankfully but ill try to write in my diary and manage it otherwise. thank you so much
nonnie. ill be gone for a month starting today so again good thing this happened now kek. then ill be back to baggy outfits and no makeup. i always thought “why do i never dress up when home?” i think i know why now.
No. 2218151
>sick for more than a month
>symptoms keep getting worse
>three weeks between when I made an appointment with my doctor and the actual appointment so still waiting for it
>can wait until then at home without working, just told the manager after I threw up in front of everyone
>went to the office in public transport, asked mom to pick me up because I live with my family
>she freaks out, makes my father pick me up but forgets to mention he's also taking public transport
>waited 1h in the office for him and discover there's no fucking car anywhere near him
>take a uber home that I could have taken an hour earlier
>trying to get some rest
>mom acts like the retard she is, freaks out even more, calls some random doctor without telling me, doctor asks me why the fuck my mother made the call for me if I can speak for myself and asked me a bunch of questions that I answer and I say I need to take a break from work
>mom spergs hard, takes the phone from my hand, yells at the doctor, I can't say anything
>she won't fucking leave and won't stop interrupting us
>"nooooooo why did you say you needed a break from work she should have guessed that by herself now she won't give you any sort of paper for your employer!!!!!!!"
>mind you, retarded mom never, ever worked for an employer in this country so she has no clue wtf she's talking about and I will get the paper from my usual doctor soon anyway
>whatever, she leaves me alone after the useless doctor tells me to take warm showers
>she barges in later with "omg there's another doctor on the phone I have no clue who this is answer him!!!"
>appointment late at night in the rain, I cancel it
>mom tells me we can't cook anything today so she asks if I want her to order a doner kebab from a pace that violates every hygiene codes of the continent for dinner
Thank fucking god I didn't inherit her very low IQ. I should have kept everything to myself the whole time though because I feel even more sick from the stress of dealing with an adult baby.
No. 2218182
File: 1729618580472.jpg (50.02 KB, 971x600, 1000052260.jpg)
where can i get some fucking XANAX!! im at my wits end i cant fucking sleep, my heart is racing because im going out later tonight. anxiety is the most retarded annoying disorder fucking hell.
No. 2218213
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>>2218172I’ve read about rice face masks nonna, a lot of Koreans use them. I have yet to buy it, but maybe you can try to implement it.
No. 2218251
File: 1729621671767.jpg (96.92 KB, 869x783, saphenous.jpg)
Idk where to post this, it's a vent but I would also like to know your opinion. For like 2 years I've been struggling with a heavy feeling in my right leg, it hurts when I walk for more than 10 minutes, I have a sitting/standing job, so that doesn't help. I went to a doctor to make a doppler and turned out I have great saphenous vein reflux. The doctor said I may get laser ablation but the more I read about it the more I freak out. Do any of you anons had laser treatment for insufficient veins? If it was some superficial varicose vein I wouldn't give a damn and I would just laser that fuck, but the great saphenous vein is like the biggest vein in your leg. After that vein is killed off, the body is supposed to "absorb" it and the other smaller veins are supposed to take its job and pump the blood. But wouldn't it put even more pressure on the other veins and make them become insufficient faster? That blood has to go somewhere. I tried to find some studies about it, like, did anyone ever check if treating one (big) vein makes the others deteriorate faster in comparison to people who never got that vein treated, but I couldn't find anything like that. There's also risk of a blood clot forming, or nerve damage. I'm really conflicted on this. I'm supposed to have this procedure done in a few days, but the closer I get to it, the more I feel like I'm gonna freak out and just cancel it.
I'm really pissed off at my body. I'm thin and fairly young, I shouldn't have this shit. ok I was very inactive for most of my neet years, but I heard this is mostly genetic. I'm angry for getting pain after a casual walk, or not being able to wear fitted pants because it just hurts too much, but I'm also scared this procedure may fuck me up even more. I read stories from people who had nerve damage or pain 6 months after this shit, or a clot, or simply new varicose veins appearing. How are they supposed to know if killing off one big vein didn't make the other veins go bad faster? What would you do in my place anons?
No. 2218303
>>2218251I’m a med student nonna, fourth year so take it with a grain of salt kek.
Veins are far more forgiving than arteries and what you said is totally true, veins tend to find many bypasses (just look at people who have cirrhosis, many veins , from esophageal ones to the hemorrhoidary ones (I’m translating from my language sorry) , open up to compensate the rise of pressure in the portal system).
There are risks with any kind of surgery, nothing is sure or perfect, even an inguinal hernia can have complications and it’s a very easy procedure.
You just have to think
>am I okay with living with the way I am? Is my quality of life worth to me? If you can live with this condition then yes, don’t do the operation.
No. 2218381
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>>2218080you came around an infantile disorder?
No. 2218429
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Kek I used to feel bad for my retarded enabler father getting screamed and yelled and belittled and humiliated by my BPD witch of a mother constantly for years but I see now they're both two retarded codependent peas in a pod. It was absolute insanity growing up thinking that because that fat faggot fuck was verbally abused like I was that he'd offer me some kind of comfort after hours-long screaming sessions thrown my way but that ugly fuck always ran to my mom to tattle on me, then I was at the bottom of the totem pole. He never actually gave a fuck about any semblance of solidarity.
He was also obsessed with keeping tabs on me on the internet for some reason, and nothing was ever done in a protective, preventative, parental manner but in a malicious way to redirect my mother's anger towards me. I said something on my tumblr about my parents not respecting my privacy? Cue him huffing and stomping past my room and loudly saying "I GUESS I WILL GO DOWNSTAIRS SINCE I DON'T RESPECT YOUR PRIVACY". This memory just unlocked the "being cyberstalked by my dad" era of my tweenhood that fucked me the fuck up. I can't believe those two faggots would literally wait for me to post something slightly vent-like so they could yell at me even more. I hope those retards die, GENUINELY.
There was also one time I snooped through his drawers and I found folded up note my friends and I passed back and forth to each other, which at the time, was like a few weeks or a month old. I have no idea how he got a hold of it because it had been sitting in my messy-ass backpack since the class my friends and I were in during the time we wrote the note ended, so he must have went through my backpack or something. Anyway my friends and I (like 12 atp) were drawing stuff like boobs and penises, laughing about knowing what a "fleshlight" is, etc. Just retarded pre-teen shit. It was literally just sitting in one of his dresser drawers. I was incredibly confused and felt almost violated, and I ended up just throwing it away. He never brought it up.
No. 2218430
>>2218413so-called hopeless romanticism is exactly what would lead you to end up pouring all your time and efforts towards the vain and bottomless aim of cuddling your woes away
I've fallen for it and came out empty-handed
No. 2218475
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>>2218381You gangstalking feces-eaters know moral people should be hammering nails into your eyes. Whether or not someone lives the way you want isn't going to change because you seethe. Sometimes you just have to sit back and try not to be bitter because x person graduated college and you didn't.
Come on at least admit the only reason you stalksperging continues is because you know you're afraid of being outed, or worse being gangstalked yourself when your ratfuck overlords have a moodswing.
We all know you are fucked in the eyesockets everyday by those wastes of space. Its not like a national secret or anything that you bend over for trump and your salvation is screaming death threats when y person makes a yaoi comic you disproved of.
All you can really do is fume and bitch and moan behind a computer though.
No. 2218525
I’m kind of worried of how bitter my friend could be with me due to her jealousy.
When we were teenagers I kind of got it because when you're younger you tend to be more insecure and she always picked up on something (her friends liked me better, some boys also kept wanting to hang out with me, I got better grades, a better body (according to her), I don’t know, I feel stupid having to write this after all this time).
It’s just that I always knew she had a pretty toxic behaviours so when I started dating my now fiancé I knew there would be some trouble and there was (her questioning our dates, our daily life, even the flights that we have planned (that’s an example). Same as when I got new jobs (which were way better than hers) or when I started taking care of myself and I lost more than 20 pounds (everyone kept telling me I looked good -and I felt better than before of course- but she didn’t comment a thing apart from the curious remark about my face being “too skinny”).
Nowadays I feel like she got stuck at that point. When we’re good, we can have an amazing time together and I feel my heart full of love and affection for her. But then it’s like she switches off something inside her and then she sends a vicious message or she starts taking with me in that condescending tone, as if I have to do, say or think what she wants me to, and if I don’t do it, I’m dumb.
No. 2218539
>>2218525I know I'm going to say something that is easier said than done but… cut her off.
I used to be close friends with someone like that for many years. The good times were some of the absolutely best I've ever had with someone and I still reminiscent about them today, many years later. But the way she is treating you whenever jealousy hits or she wants to feel above you is going to get worse as the years go by, and once she finds a way to drag you down she is going to utilize it. Either you tell her to shape up her behavior, or you leave because you know you deserve better friendships.
No. 2218617
>>2218525Both of you sound annoying tbh, you sound like you believe you're better than her, and she sounds like she's either sick of your shit or like she has always been a person with many complexes.
Drop her, do yourself and her a favor and stop that relationship in which you stroke your own ego and she self harms hers whenever you two hangout and she understands that maybe the two of you aren't equals in one way or another.
Like, you can always try to have a diverse group of friends, specially at school, but that shit doesn't work irl.
No. 2218622
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>>2218571What difference does it make if all you can do is seethe shrug
You live your life to seeeeeethe
No. 2218630
>>2218525Are you gangstalking her
Because if you are it screams misery obsession and unhappiness on your part
If you're not then you're normal and deserve to have a normal life
No. 2218632
>>2218594Why……… do you get on there?
My brain froze up in disbelief lol
No. 2218648
File: 1729632293929.jpg (83.17 KB, 1416x1335, 75ve5t3af5a91.jpg)
i literally have the same side profile as her but im ugly as fuck with half slanted eyes, i don't look exotic or beautiful in a unique way, just ugly. and whenever i put my eyeglasses on i look like the women from the sociopathic femcel meme. i fucking hate having a big honker and stealing all the oxygen for myself.
No. 2218705
>>2218637If your life is so together why are you dark-minded and desperate enough to be stalking people
I mean that is like admitting you rape people and children and then invite your own kids watch.
All because such and such person did something that
triggered your christofag morals
No. 2218718
File: 1729634815935.gif (226.56 KB, 420x250, 1728703913176.gif)
>>2218648Well i guess you will live in misery then. Nothing I could say would have you believe you look normal. Into the gutter with you kek.
No. 2218722
File: 1729634948528.jpg (112 KB, 576x545, vdvbwt0wal0d1.jpg)
>>2218672
Well forking over 10k for a twisted nosejob would obviously improve everything, let me do it.
No. 2218740
File: 1729635551207.jpg (Spoiler Image,214.86 KB, 1284x988, Tumblr_l_10435746620158.jpg)
>>2218728And I like pouring all my gay smut into your stupid demented moral world while you listen and seethe. You can stop watching whenever you want nobodies making you watch besides you. You might want to consider therapy
(spoiler this) No. 2218761
>>22187403769 3985 1979 4446 4893 0703
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No. 2218783
File: 1729637213939.jpg (132.66 KB, 600x1067, 1724070335294.jpg)
>>2218746Ohh yeah I bet
(derailing) No. 2218788
File: 1729637381567.gif (156.4 KB, 512x640, bartlle.gif)
>>2218783nice anim e boy heres my husband
No. 2218789
File: 1729637467500.webp (Spoiler Image,478.62 KB, 4000x3116, RDT_20240922_10183450819227373…)
>>2218757Your rage tucks me into sleep at night kek
(spoiler this/encouraging porn derailing) No. 2218792
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>>2218789ohhhhhh yeahhhhhhh
No. 2218820
File: 1729638702056.jpeg (Spoiler Image,59.41 KB, 640x480, IMG_9851.jpeg)
>>2218789Two can play this game retard. I’ll show you the worst scenario for you retarded fujos.
(spoiler this/encouraging porn derailing) No. 2218821
File: 1729638781524.jpg (124.06 KB, 720x732, ndhrv5vmix5d1.jpg)
>>2218820I'm a fujo and i think this is awesome
No. 2218824
File: 1729638835794.jpeg (10.86 KB, 127x159, 1702789063848.jpeg)
>>2218820>using het porn to fight with a fujo who's already on her way to get banned for not spoiling her shitholy
shit.
No. 2218832
>>2218829it only makes them seethe if it's girl on girl
>>2218831Oh lord
No. 2218850
>>2218832>it only makes them seethe if it's girl on girlEven that wouldn't work, kek. You may try traps or bara.
>>2218836Just another Tuesday on here.
>>2218844KEK, i think it was by accident though.
No. 2218857
File: 1729639773977.jpeg (26.37 KB, 725x423, images (53).jpeg)
>>2218761Picrel
>>2218820Oh no heterosexual sex! Just like what I have with my super hot top model bf every night! Whatever shall I do?
No. 2218868
File: 1729640016657.jpg (36.98 KB, 640x360, sorry.jpg)
janny im sorry we're like this and you have to sit here refreshing the thread banning schizos and pornposters. do you still love us. is it a hard but rewarding job. or do you hate us. i'm sorry we're your insolent babbling children that will never grow up
No. 2218875
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>>2218844well I already knew it was going to be the obvious winner. The art was a lot more detailed. It even had a waterfall to bring out the natural, yet sensational essence of the fucking. The sex itself was more creative. You have one male giving another male anal sex, and one extra male tenderly kisses the male that receives the anal sex. Each male that displays intense affection to the male in the middle, which can imply a close relationship of between all three despite literally just being porn. The male in the middle is simultaneously loved by both, and loves both. He was chosen to be the pampered one, as he receives both the sex and the supportive kissing. Are the other males making love to him because he's sensitive? Or is he psychologically dominant over the other two, but deceives both lovers and the audience ourselves by feigning an innocent neediness that requires both our and the males' attention? Despite being the centerpiece, he is the most mysterious. The male that does the supportive kissing is less dominant than the male that chooses to fuck, but remains present to keep slathering the sex with his lips' support. The more dominant male is more intense and direct with his lustful feelings for the male he anals, and so he fucks the male as he softly grasps his ankle. The most dominant by action in the photo, but implying tenderness through the need to hold onto the male he fucks with care. Despite being porn, it still goes out of its way to imply a personality between each male.
This is what I mean by yaoi being more creatively played with than yuri in pretty much every facet in and out of fandom. The yurifags are never gonna get a blue ribbon if they can't use their minds to keep up, even when they make porn.
No. 2218876
>>2218867That's be too much.
>>2218868Jannies must be the same though,
nonnie.
No. 2218920
File: 1729641809899.gif (19.44 KB, 220x155, mr-slave-jesus.gif)
>>2218905fags are just funny and saying otherwise is why our society is in decline.
No. 2219140
File: 1729649964743.jpeg (340.6 KB, 750x1013, IMG_2856.jpeg)
>tfw you decide to browse and post on lolcow for a day
No. 2219143
>>2219140Even hetpartnered and earnestly searching for another woman to be friends with I've learned most other women are just dick focused pickmes even the virgin
femcel I used to talk to. All she cared about was lookmaxxing to eventually get a husband she was dogshit as a friend. The coolest woman I met in the past 5 years was on a lolcow disc and she was an autistic lesbian
No. 2219168
>>2219143If they’re calling themselves a “
femcel” then rest assured they’re one of those classified 4chan ethots who’s nudes always get leaked on there and are lusted after for looking like young sephardic boys in the face because most 4chan users, which are males, are nonces kek
>>2219151This blogger even mentions the types of lesbians who they describe as being influenced by hetero programming and that was the lesbian who kept defending that tradfag tirelessly, it’s so fucking annoying. They can do whatever they want, commit as much harm against women as much as they want because they share genitals as you and I. It doesn’t matter if they classify you as a social outcast evul lesbian trying to take them away from the same males who rape and abuse them at high rates, these women should be regarded as “feminist” even though their lifestyles are quite literally the opposite and dare I say “anti-feminist”, it just renders feminism and most importantly radical feminism to satire levels where they seriously think feminists are just scorned women who need to take a dick to change their ways and shut up. It’s legitimately so exhausting and like I’m arguing against bricks and then they finish it off with the lethal gaslighting and narcissistic behavior of claiming this website never hosted or leaned towards these kinds of ideas. Men get to shit all over the internet, all over the our lives with retarded politisperging and get to astroturf spaces until the cows come home but dare a woman start to talk about her beliefs on the same kind of website you need to be reported, banned. These are the same assholes mass reporting me when the painful cognitive dissonance starts to settle in, I can’t stand these types of women because they are the first to betray you for some boring, pitiful dick. Pathetic cowardly women piss me off so much, there seems to be an abundance of them
No. 2219186
>>2219168Same day but I’m going to continue this vent because I’m full of rage and emotions and I have to continue this. It makes me smile, and feel giddy just a little bit whenever I see men and their crows bitching and crying about their suicide rates, increasing unemployment, homicides, poor college admission rates. You’re crying to who? Men are crying because they’ve practically neglected all of these things in order to seek out, kill and destroy women, so when you’ve spent millenniums going on your female hating diatribe that ends up festering the entire planet with metals, toxins, radiation, all kinds of creative lovecraftian horrors that parallels the amount of a hydrogen bomb dropping during warfare you have virtually nothing to go back to, you go back to the same destructive shitheap you’ve created yourself and have nobody else to blame for. Whenever you hear and see this desperate cries from men to correct some kind of perceived injustice towards them (which wasn’t created by women anyways), it’s a beck and call for women to go and fix their problems. I hope every single one of them fucking dies and completely drops out from suicide when that minuscule unemployment check comes through knowing they can’t pay for that onlyfans subscription anymore. I hope more of these men gain more forced self-reflection that the only purpose and use they have really is the resource that’ve been continuously stolen from us which is money and status and political power which is why they’re always hyper paranoid about “gold diggers” because it highlights the fact that they are the human equivalent of a natural slave who’s natural role was distorted for their own political purposes and they completely go bananas on having to admit and accept true reality, not the reality fed to us but true reality that they are nothing more than to produce products or to die in shit and piss and war. Even though sending men off to war means disaster for women in “enemy” territories, they had utilitarian use because it purely used to drive down the male population of these warmongering nations. For ex. in North America women’s advancements in technology and industry were propelled because of these wars because all of the men who were hoarding all of the jobs and resources were all drafted and killed, so any of these libfems making memes of them going back to the kitchen when shit hits the fan are all fucking lazy dense idiots who don’t understand history. The more women gain more independence, the more they admit themselves into colleges, the more they create businesses, the more they share their resources with other women and develop stronger ties to other women the more these cries for male injustices become louder because it’s all by design, a true progressive world isn’t some shitlib tranny twerking in a tiny dorito-shaped thing a true progressive world is women taking back their stolen honor and stolen power and stolen resources, all of the bpdettes who occupy this website would be free from all of that ugly bastard sperm they have to swallow because they have enough money to supplement themselves. So much could’ve solved, so much problems in this world could be solved it all men died and if this makes many women sad I don’t really give a shit, it’s just a necessary thing that has to happen. We’ve been stopping natyre fdom occurring which is the annual or every decade male eugenic killathon ritual that rightfully takes themselves out, women have been wiping the asses of inferior beings for eons now who should’ve died off long ago if it weren’t for female empathy. I don’t feel any negative thing about being crafted as the sour bitter villainous shrill, good. I am a bitch and a shrill, fuck everyone and fuck you. I suck too kek
No. 2219239
>>2219227Someone got
triggered by your post, OP. Now they're pointing fingers at the anons they're trying to agree with kek.
No. 2219277
>>2219267I agree with you,
>>2219187 sounds like the type you described.
No. 2219317
>>2219303The disrespect for artistry by normies, the need to escape and excuse their horrible lives into decadence just like they excuse their shit families and friends and workplace for being the pinnacle of mediocrity is the reason why that kind of attitude exists. If you have an entirely mentally and emotionally culled population that is afraid of being “haydurs” and this type of hatred is only relegated to a bunch of nerdy retarded male denizens on 4chan and reddit then they are going to be afraid to notice that the slop they are consuming is indeed slop. I’ve noticed that myself actually that you can’t bring up why a show is absolute rubbish for the mind and soul without some complete degenerate telling you to ignore all of its problems like how you pick up a dirty lollipop off the ground and they tell you to dust off all the hairs like there’s no germs on it.
I’ll even go further and at you can’t even point out the obvious degrading elements in a show without someone call you “woke” or doing too much because criticizing their garbage would mean they would actually have to care about something, take a stand on something and do something which they are not capable of doing or want to do because addicts are not interested in reforming or improving their behaviors and resisting their temptations. If I wanted to be a little obtuse I would say 90% of media we consume is terrible for us and it would unironically be better if we sat in a silent space all to ourselves and with our thoughts. Media is probably like those play toys but for adults who didn’t know how to channel their energy and interests in productive, fulfilling things. Now we have people or more accurately consoomer addicts calling their consuming an identity or hobby to be proud of, as if using a computer which is a basic skill that most people should have in modern society is a feat to be proud of. It’s sad as hell, I even see it on here with nonnies being proud that they’re a “fujoshi into bipbap this that” as if that’s what makes you a whole entire actualized person, it’s not different to junkies making smoking weed and partying their personalities, it’s about normalizing destructive, escapist behaviors that are also weirdly stamp-approved by le society’s tardwranglers which are therapists, psychiatrists, “wise” academics to the rest of society. It’s like a social contagion that encourages being a retarded zombie ready to accept anything and every kind of stimuli bleeding through your mind and making it into absolute mush. Tldr I feel you nonna on so many levels
No. 2219370
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i've dealt with a lot in the past year, i lost my dad, who was my only supportive, kind and loving parent and my favourite person of all time.
i've had to navigate this shit on my own. My boyfriend hasn't been making it easy for me at all for the better part, i got cheated on like two months after my dad passed and then emotionally tortured for a week for confronting him.
i've been going to therapy and it's been helping a bit, but on top of a cheating moid with anger issues, friends who are emotionally inconsistent, management fucking me over and my coworkers talking down to me because i'm 20 years younger than most of them, i just feel alone.
this isn't where i want to be in life. i've healed from so much, but i am so fucking miserable and alone. i'm so sick of still having certain things that reduce me to feeling like a scared, sad little girl because it reminds me too much of really painful childhood shit.
i want to completely change my life and be someone better. I grieve the kind and capable woman i could've been if my boyfriend didn't treat me like total shit for the majority of this relationship. I grieve the things i could've achieved. I wish i wasn't so mean and a total fucking bully because i constantly feel defensive around him, i wish i didn't do fucked up things just to be loved, now i've matured and none of that shit was worth it.
I just feel so utterly apathetic and awful about everything now, nothing seems fun or exciting. i need to get the fuck out of all of this.
i stopped begging and people-pleasing a year ago because it's inherently manipulative, and i can tell it's affected him because he knows i'll up and leave when i get a better-paying job.
too little too late i guess. whatever.
No. 2219402
>>2219391I think a small amount of them are troons trying to make anons as miserable as possible, similarly to how they treat each other. But I think it's mostly twittards and tiktokers thinking they can act as edgy tryhards just because it's anonymous. Anonymity on the internet isn't commonplace anymore and some can't handle it, and use it to either post their vagina in cow threads or expose their true
toxic selves all over the place without much consequence.
Not saying lolcow has to be a wholesome hugbox, but it doesn't have to be like it is at the moment.
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I hate it when beauty “professionals” don’t listen to me. They’re only comfortable doing one type of thing and refuse to go out of their comfort zone and I end up paying a ton of money on something I have to fix after. I’ve gone to several brow places and always tell them I like my brows thinner but they always leave me with this weird in between thickeners because they’re too scared to do anything they haven’t seen on instagram. I don’t want one hair thick Y2K brows I just want something that doesn’t look like it’s from 2016. The ones from 2001 in picrel look much better on me but I can never convince the ladies to do them. My natural brows are weird and blocky but making them thinner gives the illusion of length and thus suits me better. They only think actual number of hairs = better when that’s not true at all.
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>>2219535are you me!? i have natural arched eyebrows to the point where i look mean as hell. Every time i have asked a waxer/threader to get rid of my arch all they do is emphasize it even more. I just go to the beauty supply and buy pic related and do it myself. These eyebrow threaders/waxers are useless in 2024
No. 2219550
>>2219535Nonna I'm the same! MY brows are sparse and thin brows like the one on the left look best on me. I'm so lucky to have found a lady that doesn't do the "one size fits all" eyebrows and she actually listens to me.
If you can't find a lady that listens to you my advice is to start learning how to do them yourself, I know how frustrating it can be to waste time and money on this.
No. 2219628
>>2219567I have severe endo and am on day 1, nona. I am with you. I also think the retrograde menstruation theory is bullshit, it doesn't explain how fetuses have endo.
Have you tried naproxen sodium? that works better for me than ibuprofen. Some people need to eat with the pills or they get stomach pain.
Please hang in there. We will get through this.
No. 2219634
>>2219632Bald women aren't hot, get real.
The good thing is balding in women can usually be reversed.
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>>2219634This woman looks pretty cute, but then again she technically has some hair. So
maybe you're right.
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>>2219614Feeling this hard today.
>asked out on date by guy who I met organically through a concert on the opposite coast>been talking for several months since>just so happened to live an hour and a half away>picks me up in a nice new car>dressed nicely, face is fresh>takes me to the venue, buys me everything I ask for>getting to know him, good relationship with his family, good communication skills, lots of accountability for himself, great job, mutual goals, positive person>respectful and does not get sexual with me outside of flirty comments>invite him back to my place so he does not have to drive late at night>can tell he wants a relationship with me>we have sex cause it feels right>world's tiniest chode>the anticipation and cuddles were alright foreplay I guess…but eh No. 2219690
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There's a single dad who works at my job and he's one of those people who always have something to complain about when you ask him how his day is going. Either his shift or any coworker. I'm okay with everyone at my job, but he complains about all the little things he personally gets offended by as if other people are deliberately trying to spite him. Just yesterday, he complained to me about a coworker using two squirts of hand sanitizer instead of just one squirt because "she's overdoing it". Who the fuck gets offended by something like that? He's also one of those people that never shut the fuck up. I don't mean always having something to say when you walk past them, I mean the type of person that seemingly cannot stop talking and going on and on and ON, forcing you to interrupt them so you can go back to your job or to fucking clock out and leave already. Seriously, what's up with people like that? Is that some kind of mental disorder? Because I ran into people like that before and it actually freaks me out that these fuckers can seriously keep talking with NO BREAKS.
No. 2219739
>>2219628I’m on day 1 too and it’s always a struggle along with the second day too, other days I can at least do something other than laying down like a dying dog
>Have you tried naproxen sodium? I’ll try this nonna, thank you. I ended up just falling asleep. I was supposed to study , but I can’t do anything. Hang in there too.
My mom always tells me that if I end up pregnant and give birth then my pain will pass kek, I think it’s stupid, I’ll only get a 9 month break and I’d rather take this every month than be pregnant. But she told me that she also had a lot of pain before she had me so who knows.
No. 2219875
>>2219832Give it to me nonna, I can love you back, let’s live together as two best friends with shared income.
On a serious note I feel like you too nonna, I feel jaded and I just feel like I’ll never get to feel how it feels to be reciprocated and cared for in the romantic way, given that I’m also straight and men aren’t notorious for being loving beings kek.
I think that not everyone is destined to be with someone and I think I’m one of them, so I’ve made peace with that , but I can’t help the loneliness that I feel and the little jealousy I feel when I see couples who seem happy. I wish I didn’t have these feelings.
No. 2219912
>>2219552there's a difference between expiring at 60 vs 30, use your brain nonna and have a little bit of empathy
>>2219632it's not that common, I'm not american and I used to be THAT girl with thick golden hair, I can't do extensions. I love(d) my hair
>>2219790we got fucked over big time, my advice is to visit an endocrinologist too, only thing that can help is minoxidil and maybe spiro but in some cases even that doesn't work, depends on person
I tried minox but stopped it and I want to discuss spiro with my endo to see if it can help, because those fucking androgens are what's causing this shit
No. 2219945
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I’m pretty sure I have endometriosis and I dont know how to feel about it or even proceed, I can’t get diagnosed right now because you need a mri and surgery and I dont have access to medical stuff at the moment because i just moved to a different country and need some bureaucracy sorted out before i can see a doc and not pay one billion gold, but my previous gyno seemed pretty sure its likely pretty severe endo from my symptoms and previous history.
Im already on birth control due to previously having uterine and ovarian cysts that thankfully have been re absorbed without need for surgery so i dont think there’s much else i could do. Without the bc my periods are absolutely unbearable and i had to get iv painkillers at the er from how bad the pain was.
Everytime after sex i have awful cramps on my whole torso,the sex itself is not painful at all and my nigel is a sweetheart, we had a lovely romantic evening yesterday and this morning I could barely crawl out of bed, i have the same sort of debilitating cramping when im on my period too, its just exhausting and it feels like im losing days and days of my life…
To boot there’s the fertility question. I have always been a fencesitter on having children but the choice might not be on my hands anymore and there’s definitely some melancholy about that i suppose, i just got married and we are looking into buying a house and i was sort of warming up to the idea and then it might not even be an option.
If any nonas have any tips or support it would mean a lot to me, im already at a healthy weight and somewhat active so a lot of the usual ‘exercise and eat well!!!’ advice doesnt really help.
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Whenever I start feeling guilty about taking money from my mother (she pays my rent and insurance costs) while I finish my law studies I remember how she sexually abused me as a child and let her violent schizophrenic boyfriend do it too and I immediately stop. She owes me this and much more.
No. 2219963
>>2219945There’s no advice because we’re left to our own devices. Wait for your documentation and get checked up. I hope you don’t have it.
The only treatment option that works at a higher rate is removing the ectopic uterine tissue via surgery if it gets debilitating and it’s just palliative, like all the other treatments. Nothing really stops it kek.
Sorry for the bleak answer.
No. 2219975
>>2219962> But people with your sick depraved mentality do it to people with no violent or criminal history through gangstalking Good thing she did it to her rapist ex then, what’s exactly is your point here? Do you know nonna to say that she does that schizo?
I’ll always celebrate rapists getting a speck of karma back and you bringing up “but what about muh poor non rapists who get falsely accused?” will not ruin it.
MRAs retard like you love bringing up false accusations when women talk about their experiences with rape. Shut the fuck up. For every scrote that gets falsely accused there are 300 women getting raped and more often than not the false accusations you’re talking about are simply lack of evidence too.
No. 2219984
>>2219958Lol its all thanks to his crazy tech job nonna, if it depended on my shitty ass salary i’d be living with my mom back in our home country.
>>2219963I gathered that, sigh, i suppose it is what it is. I’m actually hoping it is endo instead of something more serious like uterine/cervical cancer because i wasnt able to get the hpv vaccine and it seriously cant just be nothing from how many actual verifiable physical symptoms i have, guess its just a waiting game until i can get my exams done next month or so.
No. 2219998
>>2219992Its when schizophrenic people and meth users think there’s a group of people harassing them and ruining their lives in secret, filming them, not letting them sleep etc
Its genuinely one of the telltale signs of psychosis and anon needs to take meds
No. 2220004
>>2219992Its doxxing/murder kept covert and coded, by the local "police" mob that people call you crazy for experiencing.
People who deny gangstalking are worse than rape apologists. Its what vengeful men use against their ex girlfriends most of the time. Most of it happens to women.
No. 2220008
>>2219984> i wasnt able to get the hpv vaccine and it seriously cant just be nothing from Not all strains of hpv give you cervical cancer and having hpv is not a guarantee that you’ll develop cervical cancer, calm down. The studies tell you that most cervical cancers are due to hpv, not the other way around.
The thing about cancer is that it’s insidious, having symptoms means that you’re already at a stage where it’s advanced already. Calm down and wait to do a checkup.
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>>2219997I married him for love actually! Romance is alive and well nonita, he only got this job because i insisted he should send his application even though he didnt have a background in robotics, he has always been very passionate about it and i knew if they gave him a chance of showing his skills he would blow the competition out of the park.
I am guilty of contributing to the ugly moid epidemic though because ive always liked weird looking guys and hes not the most conventionally attractive fella, but i did it before it was trendy so dont come for me.
No. 2220031
>>2220021> I married him for love actually! Romance is alive and well nonitaKek I wish I still had that in me, that sweet hope…how comes you didn’t get rotten by how rotten the world is?
How old are you? Approximately, no need to tell me the exact age.
No. 2220035
>>2220031We are both in our late 20s, there’s no age gap, our birthdays are only two months apart which i think is one of the reasons why our relationship is so good, we share a lot of the same childhood interests and core memories.
If i have any tips to give is that i’d never ever date a moid that’s older than me, they always seem so condescending and controlling.
No. 2220040
>>2220025I
want to say that we are fairly close, I was one of the first people she called when she got diagnosed the first time (but I admittedly and regrettably wasn't able to be there a lot for her, since I had just started uni and she was pretty drugged up most of the time in preparation for her surgery). She explained in her socials that she doesn't have the energy to do a second round of calling people this time. However, I can't say we are all that close today since she has been mostly hanging out with other acrobats and people in her career field this past year, but that's neither here nor there at the moment.
But thank you for the advice, both you and
>>2220028 I will try to check in on her. I'm just scared of being overbearing in a time where she has to manage her energy differently.
No. 2220043
>>2220020>>2220029I am the original poster, gangstalking is just what people call it. What does it have to do with celebrity?
You have to dismiss all the history of mob witch hunts, pograms, genocide to actually believe mob violence is impossible
The more important topic tho is What makes you think you're safe from it ? You all talk about safety from men not going out alone, hating moid harassments, violence, rape, abuse. But whatever rational you operate from you would dismiss gangstalking as a danger?
Literally all you have to do is date some nasty rich guy until he cheats on you with someone else. Or divorce some controlling asshole. It doesn't take much. If you don't take it seriously you're a baffoon.
(infighting samefagging schizo) No. 2220056
>>2220050In my case it WAS a mob. I got harassed online for posting about childfree and feminism. It was just a dogpile that blew up exponentially. Psychopaths do psychopathic things. Why is water wet??? Why do i have to explain that to you though? you're not new to the world.
I did not just break up with someone though. But I was in a women's shelter for a while, with another woman who was being gangstalked because of an ex. She wouldn't talk about it much though.
(infighting samefagging schizo) No. 2220060
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>>2219865I've seen people argue that they live in rural areas and they don't have neighborhoods to walk in, which I get. But for the suburbs? When I was a kid, my neighborhood was SO MUCH FUN on halloween. We were still mostly chaperoned by our parents, who hung behind and kept an eye on us from a distance while we ran ahead to all of the houses, and getting scared by the occasional "scarecrow-on-the-porch-thats-actually-a-person" jumpscaring us when we took candy, god it was fun.
Our (millennial) generation eventually grew up, so there weren't many kids in the neighborhood anymore in the early 2010s, but now there are a ton of new young families in recent years who moved in to my parents' neighborhood that all have little kids.
I visited my parents last October, and thought it would be fun to take the torch of passing out candy to kids like my mom used to do. Halloween comes around, and it was absolutely DEAD. We had maybe 5 groups of trick or treaters come up to the door and that was it, and we had a ton of candy left over. But there were several of churches in the neighborhood doing "trunk or treat" that year! It made me sad, it was one of my favorite holidays as a kid, feeling somewhat independent running around with your friends, and now all the Gen Alpha kids have is this lame shit of walking around in a circle, through a church parking lot, in broad daylight to the day to pick treats out of someone's tailgate. Bleak.
No. 2220067
>>2220061When did i attribute gangstalking to homelessness?
Why do millions of women walk the streets everyday and only some get beaten abducted and raped? Why do I have to tell you that though? Why are you so intent on mocking me and dismissing me but believing someone who calls rape? You believe in doxxing right? Like why does that happen to just some people? Why do i have to explain it at all? I just think you're reaching for a reason to be flippant at this point.
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I wish I could go fully mask-off TERF in real life but I'm not ready to completely sacrifice what little social circles I have yet. The only other women I've met IRL who outwardly criticize trannies aren't feminists, just religious pickme tradthots who think lesbians shouldn't get married and women shouldn't have access to abortions. I just know there HAVE to be other women like me out there who are staying quiet out of fear of being completely ostracized.
No. 2220092
>>2220088Then i guess all rape-
victims and ptsd
victims are as well?? God why did she have to bring up her endometriosis so much today!! She's obviously lying what a cunty personalityfag.
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This is gonna be super long but I think it's a vent/gossip session for me. This
woman I know through school is 40 years old and we have been bonding over being lesbians and she's kind of terfy, so I always thought she was smart and cool but APPARENTLY NOT. She and her fiance have been trying to get pregnant for a while, didn't qualify for ivf because old and she's an ex addict and shit like that, so what do they do? They go on this site or service that connects you to men who wanna sling sperm, okay so they started the insemination sessions which just happen with this dude's load and some baster with him not present. I never say shit because not my place to say she's too old for this shit and have they tested the dude for illnesses and shit? This woman has bad arthritis as it so even for her health I'm thinking what a shit idea. Well, nonas. Today, she was telling us about how she may be pregnant as we speak because she hasn't gotten her period right? But she's also ranting about how this man wants to raise the kid too, like be a dad. Apparently that is okay for these women, I don't get it but okay but this dude said he wasn't gonna tell his parents about the kid having two moms. Told her they would need to be closeted and all that shit, to which someone other than me said that these men could say and do anything once the bun is in the oven wtf. She keeps telling me that I could also want kids when I'm older even though I'm morally against bringing more kids into this shithole, but I've had cancer, I have a few chronic illnesses and I fucking hate everything to do with raising kids. What kind of a stupid bitch doesn't screen a man other than for stds, does it at an age like that, and let's the man stay in the kid's life? And now she's all worried about actually being pregnant? What the fuck, has anynona witnessed anything similar because I'm running out of polite nods and "oh that sounds difficult"?
No. 2220188
>>2220181This is so retarded. Tell them to adopt or don’t have children, I don’t get the incessant need for even
lesbians to reproduce and create a family like hets do. There are plenty of children in need who are already born and abandoned by many who are in a mission to prove some worthless empty legacy to the entire world just because their baby shares the same blood, push adoption on them or nicely tell them to they are too old to be having children. This is more proof lesbians are conditioned to want the same things retarded het women want, why would you risk your life just birth some fetus from a random sperm donor for all they both know could be a rapist, alcoholic, schizophrenic, shitty genetics. This feels horrible sorry anon
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>>2220183you know, the amount of faggots trying to be personalityfags reminds me of the in-universe wave of attention-whores in the Scream series. All these fuckers deliberately flinging shit and acting mentally ill for fifteen seconds of fame kek
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the bp thread is hot steaming shit now but whichever anon typed this from the first thread really said it well. especially the highlighted part. ive been stalked before when i was around 9, touched and told gross things by men older than me, sent unsolicited pictures as a kid, its gross and disgusting and i hate it so much, i sometimes feel scared to go outside. i would kill myself but i am scared of my corpse being molested or raped. i try to see the good in the world and distract myself by hanging out with my friends and family but it still occupies my mind and makes me suicidal. honestly i just dont want my younger sisters to go through the same thing and it hurts that i probably wont be able to protect them from it all. fuck i want to sleep.
No. 2220225
>>2220186yeah you didn’t turn your phone on and off again and they marked all your posts wrong. it was your gangstalker manually inputting your IP into their VPN to frame you. did they also write all the comments saying rape
victims were the real liars and frame you?
No. 2220234
>>2220216It’s that older generation of women who are still indoctrinated from the past, don’t pay too much mind to it
nonny even if they’re lesbians the brainwashing is still able to stick somehow. Her fiancé should also try and shove that fat tubby scroteling into a group home and call it a day, they should live the rest of their lives in peace. And of course, men thinking their sperm is melted gold are going to pull ridiculous controlling shit like that just like how male surrogates think the female body belongs to them because they drop money on her body. I think the unfortunate thing is that a lot of women feel like if they are old and don’t have grandkids or whatever their lives will be empty, hopeless or nothing much to talk about… they’re old why don’t they just travel or pick up an interesting hobby or something??? This is why you have to find lesbians around your age who are the same wavelength as you, while it’s nice to be surrounded by oldheads they are generally ignorant and love making their drama and shitty choices other people’s problems or emotional burden to carry it’s almost like they get off to it. I don’t know how old you are maybe you are around their age but as cringe as it seems seek out the younger lesbians.
No. 2220246
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>Want to go to local college
>Remember a stabbing that happened there a few years ago
>Google "stabbing [hometown]"
>15 news articles about recent stabbings here
I hate this place. I don't even live in a big city, it's a moderate sized village with a tiny bit of nightlife. To think my parents moved here because they didn't want me growing up in a dangerous city, fucking hell.
No. 2220266
>>2220251>>2220259Exactly, they go from being regular old country racists who are ~uncomfy~ around ~immigrants~ and instead of working through their baggage, they just aggressively pretend they're not racist anymore once they switch left. I know this is a tired and beaten horse, but you can tell the average gendie is SUPER racist just by looking at Xitter/Tumblr art. The character they're drawing can't
just be black, they have to be hideously ugly as well, and it would be one thing if this was an isolated case but
literally all of them do it. No. 2220301
>>2220085I feel this way halfway, anon. After reading some of the content in the MtF threads I can see why anons on this website are as angry as they are, especially when you see (essentially) emotionally volatile, sex-obsessed, identity-shaken men say they "feel" like women because of a misogynist stereotype or belief they hold about women. It's like going further and further into the question - what does it mean to feel a certain gender? What does it mean when you don't "feel like" your assigned gender? How different is it from, for example, a woman being GNC? It makes me think of this type of therapy called ACT - acceptance and commitment therapy - where you are essentially trained to emotionally accept things while being taught healthy coping mechanisms and learning to manage your life. The inability to accept the gender you were assigned, where does that concept fall into play? You see this as well with the people on the Detransition thread, where it's clear that they have serious underlying issues that didn't go away from transitioning or detransitioning, and they are still suffering / cowish in their own right. Then, there are others who don't detransition and at least publicly don't voice regret. There are detransitioners who have essentially described wanting to not be a woman because of how women are treated in society, so the transition was a form of escapism that didn't pan out the way they expected.
I can talk about this on lolcow with you, even if I don't call myself a
TERF, but with anyone in my real life, there is no nuance for conversations like this because of how the entire conversation has been poisoned by the media we all consume, whether it's leaning left or right.
No. 2220364
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I just got the dirtiest look from my shift leader. We always collect money when someone from our department has 'big' birthday (25, 30, 35, 40 etc.) but they also collect money for shit like weddings and babyshowers which I think is ridiculous. Now one of my coworkers has 45th birthday, but they also wanted us to give money for two babyshowers for our managers, one will have a second baby, and another manager has a baby with his own fucking employee (gross). I find it disgusting to even suggest to workers to give money to their managers, people who earn more than they do, and especially for their fucking babies. So I brought 10 bucks to my shiftleader and I said it's only for my coworker's birthday. And she opened her notes and showed me a fucking chart with our names and numbers (showing who put for who and how much) and said there are still our managers left. And I stared at her for a while and said that I understand giving for birthdays of coworkers, but I think giving money to things like weddings and babyshowers is trashy and ridiculous. And then she looked at me like she was disgusted kek. And she stood up and while collecting her papers, she said that one of those managers has been with "us" for so long, that "we" treat him as a part of "our" "team", and that we "wouldn't have many things here if it wasn't for him" and I wanted to ask "So he's just doing his job?" or "remember how we still have 4 printers that don't work and it's been like this for weeks and sometimes people don't have a place to work because those shitty stations don't work?" but I stopped myself, I gave her a blank expression and said that that still is something else than birthdays, which doesn't make sense to me. She responded to it with fake neutral passive aggressive tone saying "But do as you wish…" I hate this job, I'm too autistic to put up with those bootlicking rituals
No. 2220419
Muttnik
by tumblr user fateology
Laika to Ground Control
I don’t suppose
you’re coming back for me but
I don’t mind, it’s nice out here.
You said before I launched: there’s no way back
—I’m a halfway thing, more bullet than dog
out into the dark morning
and forever
to this black field
where Great Canine winks
her distant starry eye.
Empty as the space that lies between two barks.
Full to bursting.
Laika to Ground Control
can I chase my tail? I know
you want me to sit still but
it’s calling me, just for a second, please.
I can see our planet from here
smooth like the wind washed it soft and blue,
we’re going round, I’m having the time of my life you don’t have to worry
but can I chase my tail?
There’s nothing here for me to knock over.
I miss you. But I don’t mind,
in a hold silver as this any mongrel can be a heroine; any stray can make history.
Laika to Ground Control
[BACKGROUND STATIC]
sorry, I forgot what I was going to say,
Laika to Ground Control
from above Earth is alive at night,
light golden as a million miniature suns,
makeshift constellations.
What do I look like
from below?
Do I glimmer
like a freckle
or an exit wound?
I’ve been sitting still. You don’t have to worry.
I miss you.
Laika to Ground Control
they have summer in space,
did you know? The hours walk warmer and warmer,
the ceiling gleams with June moons
begging for a howl.
I’m lonely,
moons don’t howl back.
I would sit still for years
if it meant I could go back to you.
I miss you. I don’t mind. I miss you though.
Laika to Ground Control
I miss you.
If you would come out here and pet me
I swear to Dog I’ll be good,
never bark again,
you’ll have to find me a new name.
Kometka, little comet, maybe,
I would crash into the sea
to swim to your side.
Be your satellite.
You’re bigger than Earth in my eyes,
I don’t need stars, only you.
Laika to Ground Control
there are pinpricks of light
behind my eyes.
Hot like a bite.
The world is fast and unbreakable,
and I’m just a dog.
And I miss you.
Laika to Ground Control
I miss you. Have I told you that yet?
Out there in the silk-black nothing they’ve long forgotten what time is.
In here time crawls.
In here everything shimmers,
in here it’s just me.
I think I’m dying.
You don’t have to worry, I was nothing and you swung me from alley to orbit,
from the dirt to the stars.
I don’t mind. I just miss you.
I miss you
like the space that lies
between two breaths.
Full to burning.
No. 2220453
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>>2220419UGHHUUUUUUUUUUUU NONNIEEEE WHYYYYY
thank you for the poem! This is very good! No. 2220502
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>>2220419aww… i've never read this one before. nov 3rd is her day nonnies, don't forget to look up.
No. 2220591
A while ago my mom's health started deteriorating, and she would refuse to eat and would sleep all day long, causing her to lose so much weight. I was angry at her for getting this sick and leaving me behind taking care of the rest of my family, including my old sick dad and my younger siblings, and I said some horrible things to her in a fit of rage, I even wrote some posts here about how I don't care if she dies or that she must be doing this on purpose to seek attention.
It turned out her illness was her breat cancer spearding to her stomach and brain. She can't eat or talk or understand or remember that much anymore because of it. The hospital said there's nothing they can do about it. All hospitals keep rejecting her case, she's been abandoned by them all. My aunts and uncles
(her sisters and brothers) are trying their best to visit everyday to feed her and give her medications, my grandma (her mother) is staying with us to take care of her and the rest of us.
I feel so horrible about everything I ever said or even thought about her. I got so sick that past few days out of guilt. She can't go to the bathroom anymore and needs adult diapers, and one time while helping my grandma and our houseworkers changing her, I broke down in tears. I couldn't stand seeing the look in her eyes. She doesn't understand or recognize what's happening around her, but she still feels shame for being exposed. I screamed and cried so loudly I almost had a heart attack. I still feel sick days after but a bit less sick than then. I can't focus on doing anything at all, and I'm going to graduate from university this semester and I have to work on my senior project and some courses projects. It's all driving me insane. I don't know what to do.
I always wanted to run away and abandon everyone and everything, but seeing how sad everyone is, and especially my siblings, made me want to stay and give my all to them. I want them to be happy. I can't leave knowing they won't be ok on their own. I don't know what to do. Nothing can change this or make it better. I'm crying as I write this after coming from my mom's bedroom, she squeezed my hands and mumbled some incoherent sounds as she's been doing since she got this sick. She only recognized me once a while ago, grabbed my hand and slapped it, and told me to change and go to sleep, thinking I came back from university like usual, not knowing it was 2 am in in the morning. She told my younger sister to tidy up her (my mom's) bedroom, not knowing it was changed to install a medical bed for her. She can't tell if she's at home or the hospital. She can't see or hear properly either. She begged my brothers yesterday to not leave her room, thinking we're visiting her im her hospital room and are going back home after. I wish it was me who's sick and dying and not her. Or my dad.
No. 2220603
>>2220591I am so sorry to you and your family anon, please don't feel guilty nobody would ever blame you
Please apply for discretionary leave or assistance from your course if you can, and if you have a spare moment look if there are any cancer support charities in your region that offer helplines
No. 2220610
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I tried socializing for the first time in a long time but I'm having trouble. like even if I've never said or done anything wrong I must be giving off some repulsive aura. I try to be engaging and friendly but everyone I talk to seems disinterested at best. even if I think we get along great I'm always the first one to message. I'm trying so hard not to seem desperate or weird and putting myself out there is scary but I'm so lonely why won't anyone TALK TO ME.. clearly I have some fundamental flaw I'm too retarded to pick up on
No. 2220613
>>2220596Thank you. I hope so. All I want is for her to wake up and talk to us again regularly. I don't want anything more than that. I want to apologize to her and I want her to hear it and understand it. Either that or sweet relief from her illness, she doesn't deserve continuing to live like this, she isn't even living or aware of her situation. I don't know what am I gonna do with my dad and my siblings, they need someone to feed them and I don't have the time to do that, and they're never satisfied, saying they want my mom's cooking. But even if she's alright, I don't think she could ever cook again. It pisses me off that's all my dad can think of in this situation. He goes to her room to check on her then cries about how no one will cook for him anymore, acting as if he was starving the past few months or something. My siblings are more mature in this situation and accept what's going on and eat whatever, because they understand it's not the time for this whining. I'll have to live with this for the rest of my life, being the housewife basically. I can try and make some sacrifices for my siblings at least, but it's my dad that drives me insane the most. He didn't even believe me when I told him I was sick until my uncle and aunt took me to the hospital themselves and told him first hand so he'd stop pestering me.
>>2220603It's too late now, we finish by the end of November or December maximum. We called all the help we could, none of them answered, and they're all too expensive and unaffordable in our financial situation, and not all of them accept insurance money. But everyone is trying their best. I hope some miracle comes out of it.
Thank you.
No. 2220787
I feel so socially humiliated right now. it's been a rough week. first off I failed 2 midterms .. 42% in global politics and 5%….in macroeconomics (I fell asleep). and then… for the past 2-3 weeks I started getting interested in one of my project partners for a class. I just blamed it on pheromones cause he's not even attractive.. anyway.. our project was over so I didn't have a reason to see him. his extroverted friend ws the one who mainly talked to me and he didn't but he was very nice and I genuinely did not think he had a girlfriend bc he is NOT handsome and in Korea looks are so important, and on top of that he looks so loser like , as if no one had ever confessed to him or as if he has never had a girlfriend. I didn't even make it obvious I was interested in him because again he hardly talked during our group meetings. and his English accent is strong and honestly funny so I unintentionally would burst out laughing. anyway the day we presented I saw he was sitting behind my friend so I went over and that morning I bought a two juices (1+1 promotion in Korea) and gave him the extra juice…and he genuinely looked happy with it and as soon as I went over he was staring at me (stopped talking to his friend and was intensely staring), he took the juice and even used it to play fight with the guy he was next to. anyway two days ago? my friends encouraged me to dm him on instagram so all I said was hi (in Korean but like 하이), at 3am he responds 'hi~" and then the next morning I said 'I feel like I didnt get to talk to you much during our project, so I wanted to know if I could get to know you better, is that okay?' and then he said "yes!! sure why not? we are friends now" and I didn't know what to say and my friends were encouraging me to hang out with him. so I really said… "then , maybe we could talk and color sometime". and I regretted it bc my friends said it seemed too intimate , but like what do hetereo friends even do in Korea together?? grab coffee or eat together? that seems more intimate to me. park or shopping too… and coloring just seems like a laid back activity and if there's awkward silence well u just color it away. and then he didn't respond until noon today. but he watched my story the previous night, and before replying he posted his girlfriend… and trust me I WENT THROUGH that man's instagram to see if he had a girlfriend before getting too interested and I found nothing. One thing about Korean girls is that WILL leave a trace if they have a bf. anyway bc we have a class together I guess he replied. and he said "yeah, but I live in Seoul so it may be hard to make time' which honestly good for him because that's a good way to say NO to me. but was so socially embarrassed bc he really posts his girlfriend and I just hope it was a coincidence…
No. 2220831
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life is sucks, no friends, no skills, many problem, goobye
No. 2221030
i really fucking hate that i am tired of my friend, i feel like such a bad person. shes also my ex and i am still deeply in love with her so i always want to be useful and good to her. anyway she is back together with her boyfriend who is a piece of shit, and im really not just saying that. last year he impregnated her right before she was getting ready to study overseas, then convinced her to get an abortion. she went overseas and then he convinced her to come back and live with him before she even started her semester. then when they broke up because he had started basically psychologically torturing her and then calling the police to get her taken into psychiatric holding when she broke down. this was late last year/early this year, she called me many times just to scream at me because she had no one else to talk to. it was fucking harrowing. screaming to me that he killed her baby, that she had nothing to live for, that she was going to kill herself, that he was physically attacking her. and i couldnt do anything, obviously. anyway their breakup was very uneven/lingering so i kind of knew this would happen but its just so sad.
like surely this will happen again, right? im just dreading her call. and im dreading that it doesnt happen right away, that he impregnates her again and gets her to keep it, and that she is trapped with him in a whole new way, and that i wont be able to do anything to help her. im just so fucking tired and stressed out. i dont want to have to deal with her not talking to me at all when things are "good" between them, and then randomly calling me out of the blue because he's beating her or calling the police on her or whatever the fuck. and i hate that i feel that way, i feel like i must be so evil, and that i was only being friendly with her in the hopes she'd be with me again, like im a horrible piece of shit. i cant block her because no one else knows about what happened, and if things get bad again she wont have anyone else to talk to or ask for help from, and i dont want to abandon her. i hate this so much. i hate myself for getting trapped in this position. i hate her for fucking imprisoning me in her stupid fucking life. its agonising. its fucking awful.
No. 2221031
I think I have a self injury problem. I don't want to call it self harm, because everyone immediately thinks of cutting when they hear self harm, but I do a lot of other shit than just that. I realized how bad I am about it the other day when I was at a restaurant with my mother, and the conversation became somewhat sour - my first thought was to excuse myself to the bathroom so I could slam the back of my head against the walls until I was certain the back of my head was thoroughly bruised and recollect myself. I started cutting when I was nine-ish, and it's more or less just evolved from there. I don't have a problem giving up cutting. It's honestly really inconvenient to me atp in my life. The problem is that I am incredibly aware of just how easy it is to hurt myself anywhere, anytime, in any context, and even in subtle ways I could pull off mid-conversation. It's more than just cutting. I'm completely certain you could put me in a padded cell and I'd still find a way to self injure. I know I'm a freak moron for getting myself into this situation, but does anyone have any advice about how to ignore opportunities to self injure and how to adequately cope with the urges? I really want to get better, but it's been part of my life for so long that it's extremely habitual, and all the coping mechanisms you see online involve less risky pain (like icecubes and shit) but it never discusses how to cope with the self injurious pattern of behavior.
No. 2221088
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I am at that point in uni where I have like four final tests and I can't bear studying anymore. The thought of studying makes my head ache. Reading the material makes me wanna scream. I feel so miserable and drained. I feel guilty if I'm not studying, but these last days I reached this fucking boiling point.
Examinations make me hate my career. This year has to be one of the worsts of my life, no wonder my performance tanked and now I'll have to spend all the summer studying more to compensate.
No. 2221148
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i fucking hate when ""friends"" DM me and left me on seen when i reply. i know they're trying to powertrip over me because everyone else on their lives does that to them, so yeah go bully your weird friend one more fucking time to feel better about yourself.
then you ignore the shit out of them for the days/weeks following and they start playing victim and trying to guilt trip me.
No. 2221168
>>2221030> i dont want to have to deal with her not talking to me at all when things are "good" between them, and then randomly calling me out of the blue because he's beating her or calling the police on her or whatever the fuck. Not your circus, not your monkeys nonna. She clearly isn’t ready to leave this boyfriend of hers. I’d suggest going low contact, since you clearly care about her. Tell her that you don’t have the means to help her properly but you care about her , give her the DV number too and other resources.
Keep the door open when she’s maybe ready to leave him. But don’t feel evil for being tired of this situation, anybody would be.
No. 2221180
>>2221177> people are insanely low empathy.The truth is that you truly have no one at the end of the day, who is going to stick out that long? There are very few people in this world who are that empathetic and altruistic.
People get fed up once nothing changes and it’s the fifth time or when they try to help but get berated and shouted on by the ones who they genuinely want to help.
No. 2221181
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I hate when I join a craft group and the intention of everyone else involved is to chat about off-topic stuff while simultaneously complaining about not really enjoying the craft at hand while not doing the craft. It's like every single group turns into "let me shoe you this on my phone." from very old ladies. WHY ARE YOU HERE? WHY AM I ALONE IN THINKING THIS? Oh my god I don't understand it. I was born in the wrong era, my body and mind were crafted to be employed making lace veils with my other young crafty babes who enjoy their hobbies and art, or who at least fucking do the damn craft. Not this shit. I wish I could force people to care and have standards again. Holding a gun to someone's head and being like "Do a K1, p2, MC3, p1, yo, [k1tbl, p1] twice, ssk, p2, ssk, k1tbl, p1, yrn, p3, INC5, p1, MC3, p2, k1. Or else."
No. 2221189
>>2221177> i would be honest with her and say that you care and it affects you emotionally knowing she is being abused and not leaving. tell her you worry for her and have trouble sleeping. offer her a place to land if you can.The point is that women at her stage don’t want to leave, that’s what you’re not getting. You are talking now because you actually left after gaining the desire to.
Someone like nonna’s friend has already trauma bonded/ Stockholm syndromed herself to her scrote, she has to develop the desire to leave by herself, she won’t listen to anyone and I bet that nonna already gave her plenty of suggestions. Hence why I suggested the low contact for the sake of her sanity and to keep the door open.
It takes patience like you said and that kind of patience is also rare, expecting it automatically from people is wishful thinking, people have their lives too and their very own problems (that according to you aren’t problems, but for those who are experiencing them they are kek).
No. 2221190
>>2221177you minimize how frustrating it can be seeing a friend being abused and continuously put herself up for more abuse and not recognize how bad it is and that she needs to leave. people being abused can still hurt other people like moms who stay with
abusive partners and the pain it inflicts on the children.
>>2221030>i really fucking hate that i am tired of my friend, i feel like such a bad person. shes also my ex and i am still deeply in love with her so i always want to be useful and good to her.you are not a bad person it sounds like you're in an unhealthy dynamic. being friends with an ex you still love is not a good place to be for 99% of people. and now that she's being abused of course you want to help her but that doesn't change the fact you broke up and she doesn't reciprocate your love. if she only calls you when shit is bad then yes she's a bad friend, because when being tortured being a good friend is hard. you owe it to yourself to draw healthy boundaries and process this so you can do what you can to help her without getting emotionally burned, and this will help her too because you will be able to be more focused on helping her escape. does she even really care about you as a friend or just uses you to vent?
i can't tell from your case if you know if she is trying and ready to permanently leave him, is she still with him? is she ready to leave again? does she recognize she's an abuse
victim and would be open to resources?
No. 2221193
>>2221190According to nonna you should stop your own life and leave everything on hold and tend to your friend who is being abused and doesn’t see it and who doesn’t want to leave despite you offering her a way out and supporting her. Despite you warning her about the early signs too.
Anything you have going on doesn’t matter also, prioritize helping her over anything. Work? Who cares. You’re studying? Who cares. You’re stressed about the situation? Stop it, how dare you!
No. 2221208
>>2221182literally that this website has a history of being jealous of people who live abroad. no one said anyone is jealous of abuse. stop making up new sentences schizo.
>>2221193you are actually insane. being there for your friend doesn’t mean this at all. no wonder you have no friends honestly.
No. 2221210
I despise my sister. The only way she can feel good about herself is by putting other people down. No matter what I try to do or say she'll try to gaslight me into thinking I'm the one over reaction. Every little thing in my life or anyone else's she'll nitpick. It pisses me off so much. Im tired of her snide comments, her blantant homophobia, her critisizing my clothes, badgering me that my house isnt clean enough, comments on my cooking. (She once ate and spat out food, which wasn't even for her,in front of me. It was my brother's fucking birthday cake, complained that it was too sweet. ITS A FUCKING BIRTHDAY CAKE AND WAS NOT YOURS TO EAT, YOU BITCH.) She's worn extravagant dresses to her friends weddings just so she could show them up. She wonders why our cousins dont speak to her anymore, well it because she keeps criticizing them! Even if I try to put distance between us or move she'll find a way to find me and worm herself back into my life. Sometimes, I feel like death is the only way to escape her, but I wouldn't go so far. I hate that ive let her take over so much of my life and make me so unhappy. She's taken so many of my young adult years. I'm tired of her bullying me. I just want to be left alone to live my life without criticism.
No. 2221219
>>2221208You’re the only schizo here kek
>that’s why you have no friends!!You sound like a middle schooler.
No. 2221220
>>2221209Most people here are psychotic, nitpicky, mentally deranged and low IQ
I'm just here because of no ads
No. 2221223
>>2221189they are problems. but sometimes people can’t read the room. imagine knowing your friend was raped and constantly talking about how you doubt other rape
victims in front of her, act like she’s free spirited for having her life derailed multiple times and taking longer to graduate than you, ignoring what she went through and making snippy comments about how you stopped contact for a while and reconnected in front of your other friends when she tells them you’ve been friends since childhood, never once offering emotional support for any of that not that i asked her, and then saying oh she had a really hard time too. like fuck off? if someone gets cheated on yeah i’ll comfort them but being a bitch to your friend who was raped and using that as an excuse is crazy. like that’s the full example i was citing. it would be like changing the subject from your friend discussing terminal cancer to mention you stubbed your toe yesterday. it’s on purpose and gross sometimes but that has little to do with the discussion at hand.
No. 2221301
>>2221269My grandma was like this. She was poor as fuck growing up, and whenever I visited, she'd obsess over what I was wearing and insisted on taking me on shopping trips if she thought that I was wearing the same clothes too many times, because what would the neighbors say? She was a wonderful and kind woman who I miss dearly, but fucking hell, she was convinced she was in the Trueman Show. She was obsessed with buying certain brands of toothpaste instead of the poor people toothpaste that cost the same amount, she'd get obsessed with a certain item that she thought was the popular little girl item like a specific headband or a doll and buy me multiples so I wouldn't feel left out (I had no clue where she got these ideas and I was never picked on for not having a doll because I don't live in a bad TV show but hey), she used to fuss about me not going to the hairdressers every month as a child because it was embarrassing to not have your hair done, she'd take me to the expensive bakeries and cafes and make me eat with her outside so we'd be seen by any snooty assholes who were talking shit about us behind our backs.
Maybe your parents are the same? Not saying they were raised in the same kind of poverty as my grandma, but if they or their parents came from a working class or lower middle class background, they could have similarly retarded views on conspicuous consumption. Once-poor people have the weirdest chips on their shoulders and it gets passed on down the family like a genetic defect.
I'm proud of you for making your own clothes with the intention of wearing them often. It's a fantastic skill to have and it's so rewarding to make something that fits your needs perfectly. You could tell your parents that a handmade capsule wardrobe is all the rage in the Hamptons and Switzerland and see if they stop pestering you, it worked on my grandma kek.
No. 2221315
>constantly smiling
>fake laughing
>pretending to be in a good mood
>rewarded for this fake performance only women are expected to even with other women
>something makes me uncomfortable
>shows signs of anger, depression and sadness for having to constantly bottle and swallow these negative emotions i have to hide because it makes others uncomfortable
>”you’re a toxic bully” despite being surrounded by toxic males who don’t do anything but make the only place that should be your safe haven smelly, dirty, unkempt, filled with unnecessary noise and smells you rather not smell when you’re sleeping and constant slamming of the doors and putting dirty dishes in the cabinets
how in the fuck am I expected to be happy? I have no means of leaving this fucking situation I am, I don’t have a job anymore, I ran out of money, all of the people I used to talk to are gone because I rather be alone. why am I as a woman supposed to drown out of all my sorrows until I eventually finally kill myself? why am I supposed to silently suffer and be strong while the misery continues? if i don’t contribute to helping, giving anything prescribed to women’s traits then i’m seen as worthless, lazy, weak, just because that one instance where there are other men who don’t even fucking work who could help them but they get off scott free not needing to know how to function or survive while i practically have to clean up after their own incompetence. it’s so frustrating, demoralizing and makes me want to isolate myself even more, i’m honestly so tired of existing and being alive and hope with all of this chronic pain and mysterious source of fatigue and tiredness that i really am dying slowly from something because no, my “tears” caused by other people’s shiftiness will not make a better future, my suffering is entirely meaningless and could’ve been prevented multiple times including the suffering of these same people who insist on keeping these parasites around. i’m bombarded with the most useless advice, “why don’t you just live on your own?” ah yes, a woman who can just entirely pick up and become homeless and struggling even more, you don’t do these things without proper planning but if i ever did this outside of the context of this advice people would still blame me for being financially irresponsible and this and that, you seriously can’t win no matter what you do, I can’t just pick up and drop with no down payments for anything and i’m sure as hell not the person to want to depend on anybody else. nobody really gives a shit about you, it’s always some mini one-up fest where people flap their mouths and give the most ignorant, out of touch advice to ultimately feel superior to you because it gives the advice giver a sense of being a learned person, a suffered individual or the wise one who’s overcomed it all to teach the unknowing that their meaningless, pointless suffering will be for the greater good. there is no greater good in the end, there is no hope in the end, these are just excuses to continue my misery for longer. many people die in absolute silence, filth, ignorance, misery, in the most horrid, cruel and loneliest of ways, there is virtually nothing in the end. if only people would just make the misery fully stop but nobody will, not even yourself can make it stop. we’re made to believe that abstract things like “free will” and other social contracts and rights apply to the way we personally live when it’s the complete opposite reality, people aspire to be compassion, intelligent and knowledgeable but on the ground level while experiencing life people always exhibit the opposite of these drives and motivations, because their motives always boil down to animalistic base fulfillment. whoever keeps telling people that it is in our animal nature to care for the group, have interest for the group is false, if this was true we wouldn’t have been pillaging, killing, raping and stealing every single time and destroying the in-group through that very process. people create large societies, they maintain families to destroy the outsiders, they maintain an illusory myth of nationalism, tribalism, economic systems, religions as a glue to hold this illusion together when it’s just formed to destroy you and your soul every day. you have to hold hope on some family member that would cook and eat you if it came to it, you have to hold hope on some god you can’t even confirm exists, you have to hold out hope and faith on abstract universal laws that will never be provable. in many people’s cases, people die in their misery because most will spend your entire lifetime wasting your energy selling you a lie that your tears will transform your suffering into empowerment, your tears will likely draw nobody’s attention and you will die, you will be alone crying, you will wail and scream, write as much words as possible and nobody will detect those cries for help. nobody cares enough, nobody ever cared enough, the only purpose to this life is having your entire soul, spirit, personhood crushed under the weight of mind-fucking illusion and fantasy caked into every facets of our lives.
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I feel like I'm slipping through the cracks again, I don't know anyone, I have no friends here and all I feel is complete dread looking at all the unfamiliar faces. A large part of me is eyeing the knife to claw at my face but I don't even know why I'm feeling this anymore, I have never had a problem with being alone but this time around I'm so directionless that all I feel is awful. The few messages and replies I receive feel like the only real connection I have to this world.
No. 2221377
There is this woman in my social circle on that I just don't understand, not quite that I don't understand her but rather how she manages to have everyone fall at her feet.
She is definitely very cute, and has a sweet but cocky personality. In many ways the kind of small, attractive woman that can practically get any guy she points on due to her charm. Though she has always through the years had the awful habit of clinging onto other people's boyfriend, I personally had a problem with her for quite some time because I caught her trying to climb up to my boyfriend at the time's lap (who had barely even paid her any attention the entire night and was even at that moment talking to someone else), and when I stared her down she sloooooowly backed off while trying to give me puppy eyes. While I was happy to be rid of the guy later I still had issues with the absolute unapologetic audacity of her behavior for a long time, however I decided to get over myself and befriend her a few years later.
Now, the thing I've always noticed about her is that people always excused her bad behaviors no matter what it was, acting as if she's a stupid kid that doesn't know better despite being a fully functional adult woman. She is definitely not manipulative in any way, she is pretty carefree most of the time. So I don't understand how she gets everyone so wrapped around her finger, I even caught myself defending her trying to kiss someone else's boyfriend at a party with a "well, she's poly so she probably doesn't understand boundaries the same way as us", despite me otherwise being fairly open with that I think polyamory is bullshit and I would also otherwise never defend behaviour like that. But it just felt so natural at the moment.
I just don't get it, she has some very unique charisma I can't put my finger on. Had I been religious I'd probably think she's a succubus or something kek while it's infuriating at times it's also mystifying how she has people bending over backwards for her despite never really doing anything or asking for it.
Am I a bit jealous? Well, maybe a bit, except for the homewrecking habits. I'm surprised she hasn't gotten into any huge dramas I know of about it considering she's been at it for 10+ years. But I definitely don't hate her, just perplexed. Has anyone else experienced someone like this?
No. 2221383
>>2221301Bless you nonna, thank you for sharing with me. Your grandma sounds like a wonderful lady who cared about you deeply, even if she must have been frustrating growing up. And thank you, you gave me a lot to think about and realized that my grandma/Mom's mom is very appearance-focused and… intense, to put it politely. Dad grew up poor but he hasn't been as involved on the clothes front because his mom sewed like crazy when she was alive and he's happy that I'm continuing the tradition. Grandma being the way she is explains a lot (I grew up dealing with her chronic side-eye, it must have been way worse for Mom.)
I'll try to talk to them about capsule wardrobes. Been trying to get them to come with me to the fabric store so they can dictate what they want me to wear and cut out the clothing store middleman, but might be time for another push. Thank you so much nonna, I hope your day is as awesome as you are!
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>>2221319Kekking at this nonna. What if a scrote like this looks at you?
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>>2220756Sorry I missed you nonna. Arriving posthaste with extra love
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why would she pretend like i didn't exist all of a sudden? why would she stare right through me and never even say hi? what did i do to deserve this? did i offend her? was i mean? annoying? did she simply get bored of me one day? it's been 4 years and it still hurts. why can't i just get over it?
No. 2221580
>>2221546but dr. nona there was nothing in my early childhood that could induce them. your diagnosis is incorrect
>>2221553i can contact her but my pride is in the way, besides it's been 4 years already. i'll look silly obsessing over something that happened when we were teenagers
>settle it with a "why"back when it happened i asked our mutual friend to ask her about it (dumb i know but we were like 15) and she replied with "i don't know" and changed the subject.
typing all this out made me realize i'm acting exactly like i did back then except i'm an adult now. i should probably grow up and communicate if this is what i have to do to let go. i'm so tired of ruminating about it
>>2221559if you have any stale white bread you can soak it in some eggs and fry it
No. 2221599
>>2221177shes not isolated overseas, she is in our home city. thank you for your perspective though, i will tell her i worry about her but i really cant spend my life feeling vague fear and rejection until she decides to call me up and hurl abuse at me (when i mentioned she would call me just to scream at me during the bad times, it wasnt just her threatening to kill herself or whatnot, she would also degrade me and tell me i would never understand because nothing bad ever happened to me, tell me i was a bad person and evil the times when i freaked out and got other friends/her family to check on her because i couldnt because of work or whatever, that she could never trust me again, this sort of thing). also notable is that when she isnt with him, she is actively flirtateous with me, while they were broken up this year she called me nearly every day during her lunch hour (i live in a different city now) ending every call with i love yous. i really dont want to abandon her because i know the situation she is in is incredibly dicey, but i dont know how i can still be there for her when i just dont want to be constantly fucked with and then discarded when im no longer useful. i also feel like a fucking psycho for feeling jealous of the moid who abused her because she picks him over me, but its how i feel regardless. i hate it. id be interested if you have any advice now that ive gone into further specifics.
>>2221182she is not financially dependent on him at the moment, she is in a pretty high powered profession, but i imagine he will be angling for this.
>>2221190i dont know if she cares about me as a friend. she knows very little about my life because i dont bring it up, because she has enough to worry about. also historically she has gotten angry at me for treating her like a therapist (clicking now that its insane). but to reiterate i am the only person in her life who knows about what happened with this man, i am also the only person in her life who knows about her history of mental illness previously. she is very ashamed of it, hence why she was so incredibly angry when i tried to get other people in her life to help her when things were really bad previously, she considered this a major breach of her trust.
she is not trying to leave him. she "loves" him, posts pictures of them together now like nothing happened. talks about how theyre going to get married and have kids. she considers their relationship to be a major social win because he is a surgeon and thus in a place of social capital, she thinks it makes her look good to be with someone like that. im not dragging this from nowhere, she has directly told me that she thinks this.
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>All staff need to return to office for at least 4 days a week on average. This is essential for collaboration and some other reasons.
I spend 2.5 hours daily commuting (back and forth), to take Teams calls with my coworkers in Singapore, the US and Canada. There's only 2 others in my country. This open plan office is loud as shit so I can't focus on non-calls work. I have to get up 90 mins earlier now to get myself ready and you better believe I won't stay late. What is the actual point? I get some companies want people to quit to avoid redundancy payments but mine is actually hiring.
My manager is cool and she lets my team take sick days without registering them because they're limited but now I've been written up by corp for not hitting "attendance targets".
Hotdesking also sucks. The cleaners don't touch the desks and I see so much gross shit when I get one.
I want to be back home in my work area, comfy clothes, listening to my cringe tunes, getting actual work done.
No. 2221637
>>2221632I'm sorry nonna your complaint sounds like a civil matter. The Gardai can't do anything about that.
>I donate to veteransI didn't know we could do that
No. 2221641
>>2221637NO IT'S A CRIME A ROBBERY BUT THEY DON'T CARE ABOUT SOLVING CRIMES ANYMORE, TOO BUSY ARRESTING PEOPLE FOR THOUGHTCRIMES ON FB AND MISGENDERING.
NO. IN MY OWN COUNTRY. I WOULD NEVER DONATE TO THE FILTH HERE. NEVER EVER COMING BACK. I LITERALLY WANT TO DIE EVERYDAY. THIS IS THE WORSE COUNTRY I HAVE EVER BEEN TO. ROMANIA WAS SAFER THAN THIS SHITHOLE.
No. 2221645
>>2221641Robbery is a bit of a civil matter tbf nonna. Maybe it's your fault? Now move along. If you see anybody smoking some grass we'll be all over that. They're serious crimes.
>THOUGHTCRIMES ON FB AND MISGENDERINGThat's England, The Gardai are too lazy here.
>I LITERALLY WANT TO DIE EVERYDAYAh I see you've lived in Dublin.
No. 2221648
>>2221177>>2221599> she is not trying to leave him. she "loves" him, posts pictures of them together now like nothing happened. talks about how theyre going to get married and have kids. Where the fuck is that retarded nonna that said that “uhh you totally have to help her, she needs to try 1729292 times before she succeeds”. Nonna where are you?
I told you so kek, she don’t want to be saved.
No. 2221803
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I hate the Internet so fucking much, especially social media. I see so many retarded opinions I never signed up or opted into see and it triggers the shit out of me. Why are retards given a platform to say whatever they want? The world would unironically be a better place when the internet would get deleted tomorrow and we could all go back to reading books and sperging in journals instead of online. And I hate myself for browsing constantly instead of doing literally anything else. I could be learning how to knit right now or gardening but no I'm posting on lolcow.farm because I am addicted to the dopamine rush of endlessly doomscrolling and being mad.
No. 2222024
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I hate being an alky so much. I'm a few weeks sober right now after a huge binge where I felt awful and drank more than I ever have and my brain is just constantly prodding me, telling me to drink again. Go buy a liter of vodka with money you don't have. I know it will feel bad and I know I will regret it, so why? Why brain? I wish I had never started drinking and had listened to my teachers in school. And the worst part is how accessible alcohol is these days. I can walk to a 24/7 store within 5 minutes or even order alcohol from a delivery app. I'm ruined just kill me now (preferably in a grave full of vodka).
No. 2222046
>>2222024Stay strong
nonny. I know it’s hard, I used to have such a difficult time going a day or two without drinking and now I’m over 2 years totally sober. Drinking was an absolute fixture in my routine, and being a drinker one of my main personality traits. It’s so trite to say but I just want to give you the hope that it can be done.
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Literally debating if lighting someone’s room on fire and burning their preshush moid video gaming center to straight ashes is worth the consequences.
No. 2222147
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>ever since I was a child I was punished for random little things the average parent wouldn't give two fucks about
>was never comforted during bouts of sad outbursts
>would get yelled and criticized
>would get told I'm being dramatic
>would get sent to my room
>any time I asked for a hug from my mom she'd scoff and obviously didn't want to do it
>would force me to hug my other family members though for some fucking reason
>grow up repressed and sheltered by overbearing hot and cold mom and retard enabler father
>finally get into a relationship way past the point of 99% of my peers
>have shit mental health and coping mechanisms
>sorry boyfriend
>get overwhelmed and stressed sometimes
>leads to tears, am embarrassed about it
>feel stupid and pathetic
>boyfriend hugs me, holds me, rubs my back, the back of my neck, kisses hands
>heart beat slowing down to normal tempo
>breathing back to normal
>mfw all I ever needed growing up was a fucking hug and physical comfort
>mfw of course my insanely retarded parents never did any of that
>mfw of course I was punished for asking for it
>mfw of course they still forced me to hug family members as a weird show of fake normalcy
>mfw
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>>2222185Man I would not survive if I went to high school with some of you. KEKK. We need a Mean Girls lolcow edition asap.
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>>2222169I want to watch that show so bad how do I watch cheers the 1970s show!!!!
>>2222173Nobody is jealous of ugly male cunts, get over yourself and stop being naive
>>2222179>actually cunt MY BOYFRIEND a male is the only one who genuinely cares about me you wouldn’t know about it because you’re a jealous bitter femcel virgin lesbian bitch trying to ruin everything muh traumaI CANT SEEM TO FACE UP TO THE FACTS
IM TENSE AND NERVOUS AND I CANT RELAX
I CANT SLEEP CAUSE MY BEDS ON FIRE
DONT TOUCH ME IM A REAL LIFE WIRE
PSYCHO KILLER
CASCADADE
FAFAFAFAFAA BABY
RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN AWAYYYYYY
OHHHHHHH
No. 2222210
>>2222208ntayrt but
>post bmi really kek? are anachans in our midst?
No. 2222225
>>2222216Yeah because she’s a
victim, she’s innocent blah blah I’m the crazy bitch for noticing things, a story as old as time or however it goes. I feel as rage filled as romanianon right now, it’s so annoying seeing these posts
No. 2222241
>>2222147Anon,
>>2222166 is just jealous and lashing out at you because you have a boyfriend who treats you kindly kek. You should ignore their obvious baiting, they are so bitter it’s palatable.
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im deep-cleaning my room and my throat feels scratchy as hell now from all the dust (and mold, probably)… cough cough…
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I havent eaten in 2 days because of how badly seizures fuck up your taste buds
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>OH MY GOD I’M HAVING A PANIC ATTACK A DOG WAS BARKING AT ME AND IT REMINDED ME WHEN MY DAD WAS YELLING AT ME TO CLEAN MY DIRTY ROOM IM GETTING TRAUMA FLASHBACKS!!!!! IM SCARED PLEASE SAVE ME WITH MY DOE EYES AND SKINNY BODY 5’0 HEIGHT NOT TO MENTION WHEN HE HOVERS OVER ME I FEEL PROTECTED
Like holy shit go to therapy, you just want a faggot to validate your dysfunctional behavior
No. 2222264
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>>2222259people only think you're jealous because you're acting like a hyper aggressive jealous retard, hope that helps
No. 2222269
>>2222267If you're making fun of
>>2222147I very clearly said they didn't give me hugs or affection as a kid… that's what my whole vent was about
No. 2222271
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>>2222257I have to go harder and faster and harder. Anyways I don’t understand why I have to care, most of these stories are always fake, they always have omitted information, that person probably isn’t even a female and probably writes up fake stories in online womanface. It’s pretty obvious with the pepe image and the savior complex themes but I guess we’re all just retarded and oblivious on here
(non-stop baiting) No. 2222281
>>2222278ntayrt but
>you're a raging insufferable cunt because your parents didnt take care of you and it hurt your feelings ? actually what the hell is going on with you
No. 2222300
>>2222286I don’t know why you keep confusing other anons as the same one. I’m not the others I’m the anon who absolutely loves hating no matter the topic or situation, not those idiots.
>>2222287You can’t cry on the internet, this is all virtual and fake kek