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No. 2182789

A thread for venting about difficult stuff going on in your life.

Previous vent thread:
>>>/ot/2172675

Follow all the /ot/ board rules & don't reply to bait.

Don't come to this thread to make fun of anons' vents, to demean them, or to try and be funny with some shit snark reply. It's annoying. If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say it at all.

No. 2182795

What the fuck is this thread pic

No. 2182796

>>2182795
i think its a monke or something

No. 2182797

I thought that was cowball for a second

No. 2182798

Istg i thought it was a hairy asshole at first glance

No. 2182808

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>tell me the individual charges made to my one time card so I can input it in Mercari and complete my purchase
>GREETINGS AMERICAN WOMAN! I AM ESL SCROTE! YOU PAYMENT PLAN IS 81.45 EVERY MONTH! YOU WANTED TO KNOW THE PAYMENT PLAN CORRECT
>no, I need you to tell me the INDIVIDUAL AMOUNTS CHARGED to my ONE TIME CARD so that I may COMPLETE MY PURCHASE
>CAN YOU PROVE ORDER CONFIRMATION?
>no, the order is not confirmed because I need the individual charge amounts to use to COMPLETE MY PURCHASE
>AHHH SO I UNDERSTAND AS YOU WANTING TO UNDERSTAND YOUR PAYMENT PLAN
>no
>disconnect
>reconnect
>Hello I am ESL woman! How can I help you
>I need you to tell me the separate dollar charges made to my one time card to confirm my mercari purchase
>What is the merchant!
>it's mercari
>It seems like there was a charge of only 2.90 made to your one time card
>yes, what are the separate charge amounts?
>Let me see!
>waiting 5 min
>If the charges are still there by October you can have them waived
>that is not what I wanted. Tell me the INDIVIDUAL DOLLAR CHARGES MADE to my one time card so I can COMPLETE MY PURCHASE
>Just to confirm, you are contacting us about the charges made to your one time account
YESSSSSS YESSSSS I FUCKING AMMMMMMMM HOLY SHIT JUST TELL ME SO I CAN BUY A FUCKING COMPUTER JUST LET ME BUY A USED FUCKING POORFAG COMPUTER TO DO WORK ON!!!!!! I MEED TO FUCKING WORK!!!!!!! IFUCKING HATE YOU JUST FUCKING TELL MEEEEEEEEEE

No. 2182810

damn im ugly. oh well

No. 2182819

I wish I was smarter. I am so jealous of those people with big brains that don't need to study that much and essentially live modern hustle culture life with cutthroat exams on easy mode.

No. 2182820

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Tell me you want to do nice things together, buy us tickets worth hundreds of dollars and then when it comes time to actually go whine and sulk about how you're anxious and you never wanted to go in the first place. Thanks hunny bunny!

No. 2182822

>>2182820
I swear this is what it's like to be friends with the average self-described introvert

No. 2182825

rage

No. 2182831

I'm pregnant and the gynecologist called me saying my bloodwork shows I'm really anemic and low iron and have to take the iron I already got prescribed before and didn't take. I didnt take it since I read online how it's unnecessary and actually neurotoxic. Also I felt literally fine and could still do stuff despite being 8 months pregnant. However husband freeked it and got worried and said I really should take it. So I did start taking iron pills, and now I feel WORSE. I feel tired and sluggish all day, and now I'm constipated and my poops are coloured black and green. What a fucking scam!

No. 2182834

>>2182808
>yes, what are the separate charge amounts?
You give them far too much credit in understanding english, just ask them to list every charge by mercari and they'll do so like a robot.

No. 2182836

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>Dad says ok to practice driving after 2 months of not being able to because he's tired every day and "the worlds not ready for you on the road you're crazy" etc. daily put-downs
>"I'm not mentally ready for that today, I never said today" but wants me to walk his dogs with him
It's almost like he wants to keep me here to constantly insult and mock me by calling me a victim and taunt me while simultaneously yelling at me to get a job, car, and leave.
It's getting darker earlier and earlier every day and I can already feel my seasonal depression coming to join my normal depression. Seriously considering finally revealing my depression and suicidal dark thoughts I've had since I was 13 but I don't want to end up more of the family black sheep than I already am. The worst mistake my sister ever made was show me how she acted around my other sibling who tried to overdose, now I know how I'd be treated as if I'd hang myself in front of them or show them gore and shit. What a fucking hypocrite when she was the perpetrator of cocsa on both of us and caused my former porn addiction and sexual behavior as a child. Of course I'd be labeled the person who ruined the family if I ever revealed it. I wonder if my parents have always known since those days and just clapped their hands and prayed that I'd turn out ok. I just want to finally finally finally get my own car and leave, I'll go somewhere and do fucking something, literally anything other than walk the dogs or shop for groceries, and it would make me ecstatic.

No. 2182841

>>2182834
I ended up having to create another one time card. The charges made apparently could not be viewed separately so they could only see the total amount. I was at this shit for an hour and they'd tell me ohhhh I see what you're saying you want (exactly what I'm saying), then I'd say yes, then they'd be like no worries it's 2.90! Like holy shit. I also told them if they CAN'T DO WHAT I ASK OF THEM TO JUST TELL ME and I did that probably five times before the last girl was like yeah sorry but I can't help you. Jesus fucking christ what a shitshow.

No. 2182843

>>2182820
I HATE THIS. I feel like its a modernity problem. Same with ghosting people, just generally treating everyone actually like garbage and being unreliable and then blaming it on uwu it's because I'm a speshul little neurospicy. NO you're not a victim, you're just an asshole!

No. 2182845

I’m trying to apply for a permit to begin driving but there’s a million and one thngs you have to do just to get it. Sign this, send that, prove this. it also takes a million years for whatever it is you’re doing to process before moving to the next step. It’s genuinely making me sad :( Ik smileys aren’t allowed but I’m too upset to care.

To add insult to injury, my picture looks absolutely terrible. I nearly cried when I saw it. I don’t want to change it because then I’d have to sit in an empty office for an hour and then wait a month for it to get sent to me. I just want my license man.

No. 2182855

God I fucking miss her so much it makes my bones heavy and my heart hurts. I may cry soon I just miss and love her so much. I didn’t even think about her for days and days but I see an old photo and it all comes back and I’m so devastated. I miss her and I’ll never get her back but I’ll always miss her. I will never truly be over this I miss her so much I miss her so much I miss her so so so sooooo much

No. 2182913

I want to kill myself

No. 2182966

Hearing my neighbors having sex is killing my barely existent libido, especially since the woman is probably faking it.

No. 2182972

I’m a short asian woman with a white boyfriend and this fugly, hulking, disgusting shein-clothed tranny called my nigel a lolicon for dating me. I fucking hate troons

No. 2182974

>>2182966
Nothing brings out my internalised misogyny like female moaning. I want to kill the source with a rock(ban evading pedo)

No. 2182977

>>2182972
Ew, I hope you or your nigel said something to him. Someone needs to put creepy fuckers like that in their place and publicly humiliate them for thinking they can say things like that someone's face

No. 2182990

I watched a tarot video yesterday that had mentions of having stomach issues and I have diarrhea today for no reason

No. 2183000

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>dropped the guy I was attracted to months ago bc of his shitty political views, still unreasonably upset over that
>now talking to a guy I like as a friend and I'm not attracted to, we slept together once and he's getting way over in his head, no idea how to friendzone him
>much rather would fuck one of his best mates if anything
>everything else is also shit
I'm fucking tired

No. 2183002

>>2182977
yeah my nigel immediately called him out for it. It was supposed to be an insult since this troon has a massive hate for me, constantly implies I’m doing a “baby voice” etc. meanwhile I dress decently masculine over feminine and have a naturally deep voice. It’s projection,.

No. 2183011

I don't dislike my coworkers but honestly some of them are annoying as fuck.
>What I sent
As mentioned above, I didn't have service so there was no way for me to do anything. Thanks.
>What I wanted to send
Like I said dumbass, I didn't have service so wtf was I supposed to do? Climb up the cell towers and fix them with my bare hands???

No. 2183018

>>2183000
Where are you normie whores coming from

No. 2183026

I want to kill myself

No. 2183040

A few months ago I adopted what I thought was a stray cat which would always come into my backayrd all dirty. I only took him in after he went an entire 2 days of not leaving my backyard. To my surprise he was neutered but didn't have any kind of indetification on him. He immediately got along with my cat, who in hundsight was a bit lonely. By day 3 they were inseperable and I chalked the strays appearance up to fate.

Though a few months have passed I can't help but shake the feeling in the back of my head that I kidnapped him from someone else.

Should I feel bad or is this scenario more common than I realise?

I'm not some crazy cat lady as my other cat I had was my first and I never planned on getting anymore pets.

No. 2183044

>>2183040
Cats often choose their owners. I had cats who hid in my house from abusive owners. You can't really kidnap a cat that walks freely outside.

No. 2183058

i dont feel good and it sucks

No. 2183068

nonnies I've been constipated for like a week and my period is two days late. Is it over?

No. 2183085

>>2183040
It's possible that his owner died and no one in the owner's family gave a shit about the cat, or the owner didn't have any family.

No. 2183090

>>2183068
Try drinking prune juice, maybe that'll start things moving. Don't drink too much though.
I chugged 1 litre (slightly more than 1qt for burger nonas) and spent most of my day on the toilet.

No. 2183103

>>2183040
He ran away, you just accepted

No. 2183115

>>2181444
>>2181449
I've been throwing up and hyperventilating all day. I clearly can't handle life like a normal person can. There was a tornado on the ground near by house today and I was so disconnected from reality and what I was saying that when my family got mad at me for not putting shoes on and getting in the closet i just said matter of factly that I don't feel like it and to leave me alone because I don't really want to live that much anyway. Which will make everything worse now because normal people don't just say those things. I don't want to die because death is scary but at the same time, it is absolutely impossible for me to live inside my head. I've been shaking like a grandmother and silently sobbing and throwing up all day. I really can't take this any more. I had a really strong urge to stab through my leg with the brand new very sharp pro kitchen knife, then i rethought and was like maybe a couple of toes, it's sharp enough i bet you could just whack them off. But then I remembered the reason I don't do that sort of thing is because if I think about my body like an innocent animal who is trying it's best it feels so cruel to hurt it. I am trapped. Everyone else is so normal. My parents got mad when I said that thing during the tornado and yelled that I have a very good life and that what I'm saying is nonsense, and they are correct. but my mind is so broken and incapable of coping with life that it doesn't even matter, even in the best setting and surrounding I am sick. I am too tired of shaking and this horrible feeling in my heart and stomach all the time. I want brain damage. I can't do this anymore. I wish the tornado killed me and spared my family and cats.

No. 2183116

>>2183018
LC gets posted on tiktok nowadays and wannabe femcels all flock here

No. 2183118

I choose to be Russian

No. 2183134

I'm too socially retarded even for the imageboards

No. 2183142


No. 2183147

I hate myself more than I will ever make myself hated out of spite

No. 2183168

>>2183068
get some magnesium supplements

No. 2183189

>>2183068
Raspberry leaf tea and ginger tea, and magnesium chloride drops can help you

No. 2183203

>>2183168
>>2183189
Seconding magnesium (specifically powdered magnesium citrate if you can find it) and adding prune juice. Prune juice is literal godsend, I used to have a dependency on laxatives and chronic constipation but prune juice has been the best thing I have tried, I drink around 300-400ml for it to work aggressively if I'm backed up and it works in like 30min to an hour.

No. 2183253

>>2183115
Nonny do you have a diagnosis for any personality disorders? It's really sad to read you're going through so much pain

No. 2183339

>>2183118
Joshua moon is that you?

No. 2183367

I'm empty

No. 2183372

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I ate 3 slices of pizza, drank a pumpkin cream cold brew, and forgot to take lactaid. Woe, death be upon me

No. 2183388

>>2183372
I like how you posted this right as I’m watching california gurls kek

No. 2183401

Came home early to find a car in my drive way with my husbands. As I'm opening the door he tries to block me from entering, and when I do enter I find some chick sitting on our couch in our dimly lit living room. This is the second time I've been cheated on in a major long term relationship. My previous long term relationship was a sex addict and cheated on me numerous times. I'm done with relationships, I'm done with men. I unfortunately keep thinking that somehow this is my fault. That I wasn't enough. I know I shouldn't think this way, but after two back to back long term relationships ending up this way I feel like I'm the problem.

No. 2183412

>>2183253
what type of personality disorder does it sound like to you? (not rhetorical) I don't think I have any conditions I'm just fucked in the head in a random way. My therapist was trying to figure out an explanation for what's wrong with me and ran through different options but none of them fit. I am not autistic. If i had a treatable condition or the things that are wrong with me were problems other mentally ill people had maybe it would be better but nothing is better ever it only ever gets worse. I am also immune to therapy. I just waste all my income talking to therapists who don't say anything i've not already thought of and all they can say is "that sucks". I think I will quit therapy soon if my next appointment is as useless as all the others have been. i booked an emergency appointment for monday and i can't even face her in person, i'm going to ask to have the session over the phone. My problems are too embarrassing and i hate looking at her face looking back at me over the computer screen, clearly puzzled as to what the fuck to say to me, like all my other therapists have been.

No. 2183413

My heart hurts. I accidentally glimpsed at my mom’s journal and she was talking about how she always feels like things are gonna go wrong and she doesn’t know why she gets her hopes up and doesn’t wanna live like that anymore. Earlier today she was telling me about how she feels lonely and like she doesn’t talk to anyone. She has Facebook and interacts with people there but she doesn’t ever seen people face to face. I don’t know what to do to help her. I cried about this because while me and her do have issues, I don’t ever want her to feel this way. I love her so much and I just want to help but I don’t know what to do.

No. 2183417

>>2183401
You're not the problem nonnie, moids are just retarded rape apes that are always told that it's "in their nature" to fuck around, this is reinforced by porn and moid friends, honestly, having a long term relationship with any moid is just a waste of time, specially when they "want to get serious" it's just a way of manipulation they have to "make sure they always have someone waiting for them" so they tell you that they love you, then they neg you and then they cheat on you because they made you believe you need their dusty asses when in reality, they're the ones fucking up their retarded lives and wasting your precious time.
I hope you leave his ass and find enjoyment in being single, may he always have kidney Stones.

No. 2183438

i wish that someone would save me

No. 2183467

I heard a thud next door, someone say "oh shit," and now I don't have running water. it is night time here.

No. 2183483

>>2183417
Thankyou for the reassurance nonnie. I definitely plan on leaving. I've been tired of his shit for awhile. I'm tired of men's shit in general. I only stuck around for so long because he has a great family and we have a daughter. But after this I've reached my no going back point.

No. 2183488

>>2183412
Nta but not everything is a “personality disorder” sometimes people are just unhinged lunatics

No. 2183494

>>2183401
does shit like this actually happen irl? lol sounds like some 1980s lifetime movie

No. 2183497

>>2183115
lesbian elliott rodger

No. 2183498

>>2183413
Go and do things with her nonnie, go get pedicures together or something, go out to eat, go see a movie, etc. I feel sorry that she feels so lonely. Encourage her to take up some hobbies or try to start one with her, something easy like those beginner crochet kits or something. Peace and love.

No. 2183542

>>2183497
Fuck you. When you see someone suffering, why is your first instict is to be cruel to them? Your mentality is more similar to a violent psychopath than mine will ever be.

No. 2183551

fucking hate hatehate the new generation of humans i'm about to share the planet with i literally fear gen alpha they're just the byproduct of tired unfit millenial parents in the middle of a recession who are sticking them to tablets at age 2 and they're just being raised by skibidi toilet and cocomelon before transitioning to pornhub by like age 9 they can't read they can't write they can't spell they have no social skills they have no attention spans and half of them are put on kids protein drinks and supplements so they end up growing faster and bigger like fucking plants on fertilizer so they're like physically 30 by age 15 and it's like…. a whole new generation of incoming autistic neanderthal sociopathic freaks and i'm tired!!! get me off this planet!!! where do i go!!!!! it's not even social anxiety i'm not an anxious person literally at all it's just the constant fundamental knowledge that every other person in the room has likely said or done something straight up evil or jerks off to incest teen loli porn or whatever the fuck it's like.

is this an existencial crisis? i don't even know. i feel like cillian murphy when he woke up in 28 days later and hellworld is just the default state. i don't even wanna live in the forest and retreat. i just wanna feel fucking safe lmao.

No. 2183554

>>2183542
>post unhinged wordvomits for two days in a row about the same dumb shit
>someone points out you’re unhinged
>”you’re a murderer for pointing out how unhinged I sound!”
Sounds like you’re thriving kek

No. 2183580

>>2183412
Honestly my first thought was borderline, but I'm not certain. If you think therapy isn't working maybe you should switch therapists? A lot of the people I know said it took several tries for them to find a team that actually helped them. If a therapist is having a hard time figuring out what's wrong with you, there's a higher chance that it's due to their inexperience with what you have going on, rather than you being "incurable" if that makes sense. Maybe go to someone who specialises in personality disorders like BPD. I understand your frustrations and feeling like there's no point in trying, but there's a lot of people that experience these feelings like you nona, you're not alone. It's not often talked about because it's undesirable but you're not a bad person for feeling this way, it's out of your control. What you can do is control your actions and by doing that it will impact your mind too.

No. 2183631

i dont really think ive ever felt like i belonged anywhere. its just better to be alone, people are too much hassle, ill make my own fun forever

No. 2183651

>>2183580
I don’t know about the other personality disorders but I really don’t think I’m BPD. I am not impulsive at all, i am actually too cautious, and I don’t fear abandonment because I am completely alone with no friends and have been for my entire adult life. I also have a strong self image that doesn’t waver, that self image just happens to not fit in with any part of society. I have been in therapy since childhood and i have tried lots of therapists to the point nothing any of them say is new to me. I’m so tired already and now I have so many intrusive images in my head of my parasocial crush loving on the greasy fat pig scrote with horrible teeth and stubble up to his eyes. The more I try to stop the images the more show up. It’s very disturbing to me because I know it’s actually happening in real life and I’m not just making it up. It’s worse than any horror movie. I can’t live with this knowledge. It’s torture. I can’t take it. It’s not even that she found a man, I expected that, I could live with that if it was someone normal who took care of themself, this obese hairy clown haired knock kneed grease demon, I can’t. It’s so disturbing. It’s so disturbing. Him. Him if all people. Her sleeping every night next to him, in his hairy arms, smiling. I can’t take it. It’s just too much. I can’t believe this is real.

No. 2183674

>>2182836
I believe in you

No. 2183676

>>2183651
I'm sorry you never found therapy to be helpful, a lot of therapists are unqualified to provide help to people who have really complex issues. Maybe a shot in the dark but have you considered OCD? How you talk about your ex-crush and her partner and not being able to stop thinking about it in explicit detail kinda reminds me of it. It's a really difficult disorder to deal with. Even if therapy isn't that helpful do you find that talking with someone about these things helps you feel better or not really?

No. 2183679

I can't stop crying, and crying. My stomach hurts and my eyes and throat burns. I want to die, I can't take the pain any longer. I want to cut myself like a moody teenager, or straight up hang myself and die. I feel so much angish my stomach hurts, it's a dull sort of pain which becomes unbearable. I can't talk about my struggles with anyone because therapists are retards and my family would never take me seriously. I'm so overwhelmed. I feel like such a loser for starting college at 21, no job or job experience, and no fulfilling relationships in my life. To top it off my piece of shit ex sexually abused me while strangling me, which left me unable to eat for days. The absolute worst is that the exact same month I was physically assaulted by a different person [who tried to rob me] and now I'm very anxious/giddy to the point I look mentally challenged.
I'm so sad and it's like nothing happened, I just have to move on. Like I'm fine, like I don't have traumatic flashbacks/nightmares, crippling anxiety, lowered self-esteem to a new low I didn't know was possible, paranoia, and just overall sadness/loss of faith. Just typing this makes me sob again.
It's so hard sometimes but things will we okay again.

No. 2183681

>>2183679
Things will be okay nona. It's hard right now but every tough thing that has happened you in life you've survived through and you will survive through this.

No. 2183694

>>2183681
Thanks nonny. Bless you.

No. 2183698

>>2183676
I think you are right, this is probably some form of OCD. My younger brother is basically non functional from debilitating OCD but I showed no symptoms at all until I became obsessed with this woman. First I had OCD about my sexuality and then I had OCD about something else related to her I don’t want to get into and now I guess this is also OCD forcing these disgusting images into my head but it’s not just fake images it’s really really happening she is his wife now and the most disgusting things imaginable are definitely happening. Different things I didn’t even consider now are in my head and each realization is worse than the last. Im so tired I can’t go on like this much longer it’s like being tortured from the inside every waking moment my heart rate hasn’t ever calmed down since I saw the marriage announcement except for when I am asleep so I slept through the entire day and night and sweated through my sheets so all I did today is wash my sheets and eat dinner and I am about to try to sleep for another 20 hours straight. I have to because I can’t stand being conscious I think I will have a complete physical breakdown as a result of the mental breakdown.

No. 2183701

I like when I see my neighbors wine cellar lights turn on

No. 2183715

>>2183698
I wish I could give you a big hug anon, I can only imagine the pain that you're going through. I don't know your stance on taking medication for mental issues but I think in severe situations like this one it would really help if you could take a benzo or something to slow down your heart rate and calm down your anxiety, it would help calm down your thoughts too. You said you showed no symptoms up until now which is a good sign, it means this is more than likely something that will calm down soon and that you wouldn't have to resort to taking meds often. You should try to sleep I think it will do your mind and body good. I really hope you feel better soon

No. 2183726

>>2183715
thank you anon for your kindness

No. 2183743

too lazy to take a piss

No. 2183746

I just wanted to have a normal life, a loving normal family, friends and a job. People take so many things for granted and complain like it's the olympics, completely blind to their blessings when some of us have been deprived of any semblance of normal functioning. To think that some people have the nerve to be jealous of me because I'm pretty but they have no idea the hell I've been through and that I have no one to talk to and people only see what I look like but no one takes the time to get to know me. Fuck superficial people

No. 2183761

I really hate the way my mom gaslights me
>my young niece is sleeping over and she’s finally asleep
>I turn the tv off in her room
>she wakes up momentarily, says something incoherent, and then goes back to sleep immediately
>I sneak back out
>mom comes in and loudly ruffles around her blankets and starts kissing her
>I motion for her to come out because she’s waking her up again and she’s clearly a light sleeper
>mom leaves and proceeds to tell me it’s not a big deal and that I was weird
sure, bitch

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No. 2183843

>>2183701
What do those look like?

No. 2183846

>>2183743
Did you end up peeing yourself?

No. 2183852

feeling like pixyteri right now

No. 2183905

i hate my stupid fucking job and my useless ass supervisor who doesnt answer my questions or help me with shit and the way they keep coming up with new bullshit procedures that everyone tells them are bad and wrong but they insist on "trying" them and continuing to use them to the detriment of the department's performance and then getting mad that production isn't as high as it could be like it's YOU ALL who decided to go with a startup software company who was woefully unprepared to handle a big business using it and make us fight through them trying to troubleshoot and build shit that should have been there from the fucking beginning like how do you expect us to work at quality and quantity when everything is broken and the guy who's supposed to fix it doesn't even reply to your emails for fifteen days reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

No. 2184007

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I can’t stop feeling guilt for what I did to my ex after he cheated

No. 2184015

>>2184007
Give us the deeds nona

No. 2184017

>>2183826
Cause it just makes me happy, and then when they turn them off the house is so dark it blends into the forest its like it disappears kek
>>2183843
Three big bay windows, one on the back two on the sides, carmelly yellow lights

No. 2184019

>>2184007
Ooouu now I wanna know what you did

No. 2184021

>>2184007
If he cheated he probably deserved it

No. 2184038

>>2184015
>>2184019
Told everyone, and I mean EVERYONE about how he had undiagnosed gender dysphoria that he refused to go to therapy for and chose to cope with it through wearing thigh highs. Also told everyone about how he had a sexual relationship with his younger female friend’s mother who was nearly 3 times his age

No. 2184043

>>2184038
Lol based. But you shouldn't feel bad about this at all. Doesn't seem as severe as I thought it would be.

No. 2184045

>>2184043
I appreciate the compassion nona but I feel bad because we dated when we were in high school meaning he was 16 and the friend’s mom was in her 50s

No. 2184059

My nightmares are vivid and frequent wtf is wrong with my subconscious

No. 2184080

Our tenants are getting kicked out because they were performing EXORCISMS at fucking midnight. Yes they were very loud.

No. 2184114

I woke up in my fluffy blanket only to feel weird as hell and hot and stuffy and not in the good consensual way. I felt like simultaneously throwing up and shitting my guts out but thankfully I did none and just decided to shit out some rabbit-akin pebbles… lul. I feel silly for freaking out so much and praying for mercy on my soul, repenting for all the hatred I've done against the trans once I have any sort of bodily stress/pain that feels like I'm gonna flip my insides inside out. Once that weird body pain or whatever stomach distress is gone though I'm back to my good ol' trans rights hating and being a reckless little shit of a woman who doesnt ask for anything from god who she doesnt even believe in anyway lol.

No. 2184146

i fucking hate my neighbours they're being so loud. I will write them a note, hopefully it works out. Why did they have to move in…

No. 2184154

My personal cow has suddenly stopped oversharing their life on social media and it's killing meeeeee

No. 2184156

>>2184059
Same. Mine got slightly better after I cut back on caffeine.

No. 2184165

File: 1727518474922.jpg (10.98 KB, 511x409, 1000017046.jpg)

My life should've turned out well. I would've never thought that I'd get the whole planet to harass me. That it would be specifically me.

God. When does it fucking end

No. 2184197

nonas i used to have beautiful waist-length hair that i dyed black and i got sick of looking the same for years and bleached it 3 times in 2023, ruining it forever, before having to cut it above my nipples and deciding to grow out my fringe, all the layering, and my natural colour.

i look the worst i've ever looked in my life. the natural brown is nice but the bleached parts, even though i've had to cut off most of them, look disgusting. i dyed them with dark brown box dye twice and stopped bothering because without fail they always fade to a bronzey, almost greenish-tinted shade 7-8. the layers are in the "awkward stage" of growing out, and the water in my flat is so hard that it makes my hair stiff, dry and greasy to top it all off.

how do i AT LEAST deepen the bleached parts with some kind of treatment or box dye without going to the hairdresser? i would seriously love to get it sorted out professionally but i can't afford it atm. i genuinely look like complete shit.

No. 2184201

>>2184197
Could you possibly use something like henna, wash-out dyes or leave-in conditioner?

No. 2184202

>>2184165
lol pumpy is that you? i promise nobody cares about that picture snoop dogg uploaded of you

No. 2184204

>>2184201
i did try a wash-out dye which turned it deep green after one wash! it went back to normal shortly. i do use a deep conditioner which helps with the lengths, but the buildup from the hard water is so noticeable that it try to only shower at the gym, which is a generally disgusting experience.

henna is the one thing i haven't tried. thanks anon, i'll give it a go.

No. 2184206

I hate when my friend who is from a country that respects human rights says things like "well that's illegal here and I would not put up with it/I simply wouldn't work there" whenever I tell her something about my job. Obviously I would prefer a cushy office job that pays above minimum wage where all I have to do is answer the phone 8 times a shift, but sadly that option isn't possible for me.

No. 2184214

>>2184038
Oh he shouldn't have cheated then LMAO i love you nonna that was stacy mode

No. 2184225

I'M SO PISSEEEED. They show LOTR in my local cinema and one week ago I watched the 1st movie and this weekend we were supposed to watch the 2nd and 3rd one, but I got so sick I can't go. I know these movies by heart but I never saw them at IMAX, it's a totally new experience. I hope one day they will play them here again. Well at least I saw the Fellowship

No. 2184227

>>2183551
>is this an existencial crisis? i don't even know. i feel like cillian murphy when he woke up in 28 days later and hellworld is just the default state. i don't even wanna live in the forest and retreat. i just wanna feel fucking safe lmao.

Kek, I agree so much. I was a kid of the 90s and so much has changed. It isnt just smart phones, it's social media in general. Kids are not as smart as they used to be, or creative. So many younger teens are into the gendie juice and trooning out because it's the big thing now to be anything but straight or cis. I'm honestly really scared the new generation is going to cause the downfall of society because they have no idea how to function like an adult off their ipads and tablets. Why are so many toddlers autistic or filled with anxiety? Like holyshit.. These parents arent parenting anymore. And even if you try to parent your kid, other parents wont mess with their kids. How do you even make friends in this new generation as a kid? I feel bad for new parents.

I feel even worse for teachers dealing with the by product of these retarded ass kids who refuse to learn.

No. 2184239

>>2184227
>>2183551
Idk, this feels like the repeat of "That damn MTV is ruining our kids! Those music videos with fast changing pictures are destroying the kids' attention spans! Nobody parents anymore, the just plop their kids in front of the TV! Where they are exposed to sexual content in music videos!"
I heard this all before

No. 2184285

>>2184239
There’s a clear difference between laws actually being made in the 80s-90s to protect children from predatory advertising on tv and creating shows just to sell toys and social media constructed for 24/7 consooming all while its forced into short form videos to keep the attention span short but the desire high. We went from hating commercial breaks as kids to seeing social media be nothing but brand deals and infomercials for cheap drop shipped shit. There’s also the change in how children even consume media, most gen alpha are sat in front of ipads while only watching youtube or tiktok brain rot.

No. 2184289

File: 1727533184637.jpg (64.71 KB, 750x740, mood-memes-memes-depressed-Fav…)

I think I'm having some sort of executive dysfunction or something because of my depression. I have to send a very important email, I already have what I need to write written down I just need to add a sentence or two so they know it's me. I also need to do some cleaning and put in new hair dye. But I just can't bring myself to, I just want to lie in bed and stare at nothing. I know I would probably feel a bit better if I got that email over and done with and at least vacuum cleaned the hallway and kitchen. But I literally can't bring myself to, like every part of me is saying "…nah".

No. 2184305

I'm pretty sure my mother is stealing my mail to read them and I don't know how to confront her.

No. 2184314

I don't enjoy anything, what's the point of living?

No. 2184316

File: 1727534615016.jpg (221.02 KB, 1024x576, Happy-the-Cow-Bellbrooke-Holst…)

>>2184314
>whats the point of living?
lolcow imagine all the crazy cows youll miss laughing at if you were gone

No. 2184319

File: 1727534917167.jpg (890.31 KB, 1080x1326, 1000017052.jpg)

I want to kill myself

No. 2184320

>>2184314
Dying is painful and you won’t enjoy that either? At least this way we can have fleeting moments of vague amusement about cows as >>2184316 said

No. 2184330

>>2184316
Kek this made me smile

No. 2184368

File: 1727539763259.jpg (485.57 KB, 4316x992, 1000011292.jpg)

I fucking hate the enby/trannies/tranny loving brigade on lolcow. They're so retarded. You fucking think that people who aren't retarded gendie cult members are going to suck trannoid cock anonymously? Go fuck yourself retard. They're so disconnected from reality. Everyone is PRETENDING that you are your delusional "chosen" gender. How fucking retarded and what a fucking handmaiden you are to think that a WOMEN'S ONLY SPACE, full of women WHO HATE MEN, will affirm tranny identities. Go fucking kill yourself you pock-marked, greasy failure. They're so fucking weak. If every nonbinary and tranny killed themselves tomorrow the world would be a better place.

No. 2184369

>>2184368
You're probably gonna get banned for alogging, but I you said everything that needed to be said.

No. 2184373

>>2184368
Every other place on the internet is full of protroon shit, and then they have the gall to complain when an obscure mongolian basketweaving women's forum isn't.

No. 2184378

>>2184368
The irony is that the only reason why LC and CC are arguably as good as they are is BECAUSE of the transphobia. This place would quickly turn into /tttt/ or r/TwoXChromosones when we would just allow men and troons (also men( to post freely.

No. 2184381

>>2184368
>is there an imageboard that cocksucks trannies?
yes, its called 4chan

No. 2184382

>>2184368
> overly transphobic
Sometimes I feel like we’re not transphobic enough

No. 2184388

>>2184368
and everyone thought i was being schizo by pointing how much cc favored troons over actual women..it was always sus. how the turn tables

No. 2184418

my side guy said he wants to hang out apart from when I'm horny too and now I need a new side guy, keep your feels to yourself male

No. 2184421

My friend sent me music by an artist who's a they/themlet and does onlyfans but goddamn her music is so fucking good. I feel dirty listening to it. She even sings about being "a freak" and "slut money."
She's called Zand if anyone's curious, don't judge my music taste pls

No. 2184479

I hate when I come across a farmer on 4shit because I see how pickme some of you bitches really are. So desperate for unwashed virtual moid dick and it really makes me sick.

No. 2184508

I want a boyfriend but I HATE meeting men I don't know!! why can't someone drop from the sky and we become close organically???? that's all I have ever wanted

No. 2184515

>>2184479
How do you know they're farmers and not just some random egirl attention whore

No. 2184522

i hate USPS. every mailbox at my apartment complex has the unit number on it written in very clear font. despite this, i have been consistently getting mail for the unit BELOW me. this has happened consistently for about a week, and i know it's not just the mail falling between mailboxes because mine is above all the others. why is USPS hiring illiterates who don't know how to decipher basic numbers?
i've also had packages delivered to the wrong unit in my apartment, even though, again, the unit numbers are EXTREMELY clear. i'm on the ground floor directly next to the entrance (making my unit the EASIEST to deliver to) but they will take it to the unit above me or on the other side of the building. yes i double check my address every time, the address is always correct, it's just the delivery that is wrong. and of course my neighbors won't let me know about the misdelivery (even though i've seen delivery photos with welcome mats matching their units, though that was for amazon and not USPS. USPS has still delivered to the wrong unit though lol), they just steal it kek.
i've also experienced the "attempted delivery" BS: i've been home the entire day waiting for packages and still found a "we tried to deliver this, come get it at the post office" slip in my mailbox. why did i pay a delivery fee if i have to come pick up everything anyways? once this happened to me, i went to the post office, they "couldnt find it", i give them my phone number for future contact, eventually they "find" it a week later, i asked them "hey can you please deliver it to me since i already signed for it at the post office", they assure me multiple times that they can, package never comes, i call to ask and they tell me to pick it up. i ask again about getting it redelivered (i don't have a car, getting to the post office is a massive pain). i am again assured it is possible. i ask "are you SURE you can deliver it to me" multiple times and am told yes. at this point i have received 2 phone calls from the post office about this stupid package. get another call from the post office a day later asking me when i will come pick it up (i also receive an email telling me if i dont pick it up within a few days it will be returned to the sender). i ask AGAIN about delivery and explain why i want it delivered. person assured me AGAIN it will be delivered. i hang up and 5 minutes later i receive ANOTHER call from the post office. i call back. lady pick up the phone and tries to convince me that the post office did not, in fact, call me. tells me i have the wrong number. asks me "did you mean to call the post office?" i tell her that i'm looking at my call history right now and that i know i just got a call from the post office and want to know why. she argues with me "well I didn't call you" like… okay? well i received a call from this number and i hit redial to see what the fuck you guys wanted? so i hang up. they STILL do not deliver the package. i have to send in a help ticket via email and yell at the guy at the other end to actually get something done. eventually i finally get in contact with some manager, he apologizes and i FINALLY get the stupid package delivered. so not only are whoever answers the phones there rude as hell but the carriers also cannot read and will not do their jobs even though it would have been EXTREMELY easy for them to do so (again, i live on the ground floor right next to the entrance, if you're already at my building i am the easiest unit to get to)

No. 2184528

>>2184515
I guess I don't, really. I just assumed by the way they typed and the things they said. It was like it was straight out a thread you'd see right here on /ot/

No. 2184534

Imagine a world where the majority of Onlyfans creators are men. Imagine a world where the standard of beauty for men is to remain youthful, pretty, and fit, and they're the main consumers of the beauty industry, setting trends to "glow up." Imagine a world where men are the main ones creating romantic, emotional, escapist fanfiction and artwork. Imagine a world where men are the ones objectified and women are the ones that view and pick. We could've lived our lives under a matriarchy.

No. 2184535

When will I die. I'd try treating my body even worse but I get insane headaches if I don't sleep or eat enough. God just kill me I can have a heart attack in this body I promise

No. 2184573

what do racists even want, like ok bitch i guess i'll just change my skin color

No. 2184579

>>2184368
They can just stick to Reddit where everyone licks troons’ asses until they’re clean.

No. 2184598

>>2184239
It's completely different based on availability

No. 2184607

>>2183551
Everyday waking up thanking myself that I'm a childfree antinatalist and won't be dumb enough to contribute to this epidemic.

No. 2184697

File: 1727552627288.jpg (2.06 MB, 2048x2048, 1000017056.jpg)

Death please

No. 2184710

>>2184197
You can do a chelating treatment. Malibu-C and Ion both make them. And then switch to chelating shampoos, Paul Mitchell makes a chelating shampoo that isn’t expensive.

I would test out henna but it’s worth a try.

No. 2184762

>>2184197
For deepening you only need a very low volume developer. Schwarzkopf sells one that's 6 volume, royal something. Then pick a color from their chart from the same line that suits the depth you're looking for, but go a bit lighter like one level since ur cortex is busted and might go too dark. If you've had issues with greenishness then skew towards the chocolate section of colors. Use 1:1 with the developer. Use a deep conditioner with silicones after

No. 2184789

File: 1727555376104.jpg (385.2 KB, 1280x1007, 1280px-Hamster.jpg)

>>2184607
isn't it profoundly disturbing that we're permanently destroying the earth and causing mass extinctions just so these retarded gen alphas and their retarded millennial parents can spend their meaningless lives endlessly consuming slop and fast fashion? we could have pristine wilderness but instead we chose skibidi brainrot. wild european hamsters are dying for this.

No. 2184795

>>2183551
why are you freaking out over an entire generation of underpriviliged people who will be emotionally stunted and mentally retarded and will probably die en masse by natural selection? It's okay don't worry

No. 2184812

>>2183554
>someone is venting and being unhinged in a vent thread
wow that's crazy

No. 2184837

File: 1727556725648.jpg (219.03 KB, 1197x916, all troons is the same.jpg)

>>2184368
Kinda hard when they prove every day how male they are through and though

>>2184388
I thought that was well known knowledge i've seen anons say that here before

No. 2184846

>>2184373
Because they know this is a female centered site, they cant stand the idea that we wont bow to their delusions, I remember seeing some bitching about the JK Rowling banners posted here a few months back.

>>2184381
top kek

No. 2184847

>no period for months
>told to take birth control so I don't get funny endo cancer
>takes it
>after like 2 days start fucking gushing blood and no signs of slowing down or stopping until today after a week, it's finally slowing down
What the fuck. I guess I somewhat understand the hatred people have against birth control now. I'm scared the bleeding won't fully stop until around 3 months like a lot of women experience. I'm not even taking the blood clot estrogen shit either, just progestin-only. Other than the bleeding and some bowel things I feel completely fine though.

No. 2184852

>>2184534
Things may be going that way anon, with the declining birth rate and women choosing to be single I have seen men freaking out and desperately getting into looksmaxxing online, its hilarious.

No. 2184855

File: 1727557237484.png (193.57 KB, 480x360, 1716425724803.png)

I'm so mad that twitter is STILL blocked in Brazil. I want to look at beautiful yaoi and follow yaoi artists and I'm being denied that. It's so unfair.

No. 2184861

>>2184855
use a vpn?

No. 2184865

>>2184855
get fucked hahaha

No. 2184868

>>2184855
use nitter nonny

No. 2184908

>>2184855
why is it blocked in brazil?

No. 2184911


No. 2184914

>>2184368
>is there another place for women who are actually women
no because you fucking female faggots allowed the males with “girldicks” to infest every single space women have practically put their entire energy and time building all for it to disappear like a fart in the wind because some tranny got angry at reality. i hope this person kills themselves(infighting)

No. 2184926

>>218485
who tf complains about elon's echochamber being banned, there are still other socials on the planet for your yaoi faggotry needs
I'm just mad no one has removed him yet so the whole platform can improve

No. 2184928

>>2184381
This is unironically true. No wonder a place full of male supremacists also suck off trannies.

No. 2184936

Fuck, I'm so cringe. I keep fucking up my friendships by being a mentally ill oversharing retard who can't keep her mouth shut and will crawl in the mud for validation.

No. 2184943

>>2184936
Don't feel bad about it nonna tell us instead!

No. 2184961

I'm so tired after work I'm standing in the shower and scrolling kek. It was such a bad day today.

No. 2184985

File: 1727562451583.jpeg (24.7 KB, 736x566, amanojaku.jpeg)

I live in a gated community and the moidlets here scream all the time, they cannot talk like people. I only ever hear a girl screaming or talking loudly once in a blue moon, but these freaks are like this literally everyday. Why don't their parents let them know they are a nuisance? The one I hate the most is the one that just screeches like a distressed bird, no words, just screeching.

No. 2185140

i really hope im not pregnant

No. 2185145

>>2184936
i’m like you but on the opposite side. I fuck up my friendships by undersharing/keeping a space due to trauma and then come off as cold and uninterested. sigh. maybe in another universe I’m not this retarded

No. 2185155

I FUCKING HATE MY MOTHER. SHE'S SUCH A DUMB WHORE AND I FUCKING HATE THIS STUPID MINDLESS CUNT WHO DOESNT THINK ABOUT OTHERS BUT HERSELF. FUCKING DUMB BITCH. I'm literally so angry right now I'm tearing up somewhat. I hate her so fucking bad. Fuck you. Dumb whore of a mother. All you're good for is providing me with material objects and cash.

No. 2185158

At this point it's for the plot and not for my self esteem. Maybe my journey on earth is analysing why humans are so fucking annoying

No. 2185164

File: 1727568513582.jpg (756.42 KB, 2048x2551, 1000017063.jpg)

Pain. Agony even.

No. 2185193

my phone is about to die at this boring party it's so over for me

No. 2185230

File: 1727571954788.jpg (6.26 KB, 244x207, window-chan.jpg)

>Matched with guy on Hinge
>Chatting away for 2 weeks or so getting on really well
>30 mins into date, he slides his phone across and asks if I'm doing ok and if he wants him to drop me home
>I say I'm fine
>After dinner he says he has to bail something came up but we can hang out some other time. He drops me home on the way.
I'm 100% mental illness free. When I'm nervous I just talk a lot but nothing that seems I'm unwell. I'm trying to write down a play by play of what I said that would make me seem unhinged but even the thought of that makes me think I might be a psycho. I wasn't even drunk or high. I didn't even have a coffee today.

No. 2185258

>>2184908
Disclaimer not Brazilian
>Twitter gets court orders by Brazil gov to ban some profiles
>Twitter refuses
>Brazil fines Twitter
>Not paying fines can lead to imprisonment for local employees
>Musk closes Brazil office to avoid fines
>Without local office you can't do business in Brazil
>24 hours to get some rep in Brazil to work with
>Nothing happens
>Twitter ban
Musk has blocked other profiles in other countries for much less and it's completely responsible to have a rep in the country you want to do business with. Blocking profiles is shitty but lets not pretend it's some paragon of freedom of speech thing.

No. 2185285

I've never understood why people bring random people nobody else knows to hang out without any notice. Canceled on a friend for a family get together today (with relatives we haven't seen in forever) only for my adult sibling to invite their friend and talk to them almost the entire time, my parents of course paid for the friends meal. They've never done that before and it was just so weird and shitty.

No. 2185334

I'm so fucking hungry. My parents practically starve me and there's nothing I can do about it. Fucking hell. I just wanna eat good food already and not fucking junk for christs sake. Fuck these people I hate them with all my life

No. 2185338

ITS SO FUCKING EXHAUSTING PRETENDING TO BE OK AROUND WITH PEOPLE YOU ABSOLUTELY FUCKING HATE AND DEPISE.

No. 2185339

>>2185334
You have to be 18 to post here

No. 2185373

>>2185339
Kek they really aren’t checking for minors and banning them anymore

No. 2185379

>>2185373
that explains the eternal summer

No. 2185426

File: 1727579410521.jpg (68.74 KB, 612x566, aggro.jpg)

>decide to get a pre workout
>take half a serving
>have felt exhausted 99% of the time for the past months; head finally feels less like shit/foggy
ngl they must have spiked it with cocaine or something, not even energy drinks have any effect whatsoever on me.

No. 2185476

>>2183498
Thank you for your response nonna, I really appreciate you. We’re gonna see a movie soon and I live with her so I spend a lot of time with her and talk to her everyday. I just feel bad because I know I can’t always be enough and I suggested to her some hobbies and she didn’t seem too interested. She drives me and my dad to work and doesn’t do much else and I just want to help her more. I really need to learn how to drive and gain some independence so she doesn’t feel trapped. She doesn’t work anymore and doesn’t go see friends but claims she doesn’t have any even though people do text her a lot. I just don’t know what to do to help her. She is willing to try therapy though which is positive.

No. 2185481

Hope all of you kill yourselves.(infight bait)

No. 2185488

>go out to get away from toxic male relative
>getting gas
>moid pulls up at gas station, acts impatient despite nearly all other gas pumps being available, but no he has to wait with his headlights facing me
>moid gets out of his SUV, looks at his car as if someone hit it (??), looks at me, says something to person on opposite side, when Ive been at the gas pump the whole time
>avoid going to usual store due to creepy male stalker who I saw again since many months ago, probably stalking me the whole time
>go to different store
>moid inside shouting at 2 women employees
>threatens them, hands in their faces
>tall man finally steps in, tells moid to leave, moid is polite to him, leaves
>moid comes back, shouting again, tall man does nothing, all other moids act like nothing is going on
>person I talk to about this makes excuses for shouting moid, as if hes a victim "he probably has money troubles, hes probably a drug addict" etc
>back home
>useless male relative sitting around watching me make food, indirectly accuses me of placing a fucking feather inside his trucks tent thing "idk who did it [looking at my face to examine my facial microexpressions]…it was probably a squirrel"
>tfw he'll probably find the english ivy that growing nearby

TMD NOW

No. 2185491

I’m aging so bad and idk why
>inb4 white
my mom and sister aged well, in fact I look older than them. I hardly go out so sun damage can’t be to blame, and I don’t drink or do drugs. I’ve had a normal bmi my entire life. I want to kms

No. 2185493

>>2185481
thats for men to keep excelling at

No. 2185506

>>2185481
u first

No. 2185507

>>2185481
Meanie

No. 2185508

>>2185481
After you, m'lady.

No. 2185510

>>2185481
me when I get banned for infighting

No. 2185515

File: 1727584640947.jpg (18.35 KB, 554x554, 27s6fxkb9pc91.jpg)

For pretty much my whole life I've been obsessed with finding a community/friend group of like-minded people (particularly women) and it's just never happened. At this point I'm not even sure what I mean by "like-minded", I guess I just never find a group where I really feel like I belong, fit in, and am valuable. At best I find groups where one or two facets of my interests and personality are represented, but then end up being the black sheep for not fitting in in other ways. I don't expect a friend group of mirror copies of myself where everyone has my exact opinions, I just want somewhere that I can feel confident being a part of.
I'm starting to consider if maybe I should just let go of the whole desire and stop caring if other people don't seem to get me. Maybe the solution is to just accept it and move on. Or maybe that's just my cop-out cope since I have such a hard time making friends.

No. 2185516

>>2183388
Nta but how was this related?

No. 2185520

I keep second guessing if my ex really cheated, despite the gigantic mountain of evidence. I think I'm having a hard time accepting I'm going to be without him. Even though he pissed me off half of the time, I feel so off not having him around. I love extraverted men but they always fuck me over in the end. It's too fucking quite when they're gone.

No. 2185523


No. 2185532

File: 1727585340200.jpg (44.12 KB, 736x414, 36ca396e81d5b6a14630aa99cbf4e8…)

I am considering suicide honestly. I've never been in a relationship, all my dreams are pipe dreams now, I never got to do anything I wanted. 23 years of shit.
Stabbing to follow in the steps of someone I admire that did it that way.

No. 2185537

>>2185532
>23 years old
Yeah, maybe wait until you're 30.

No. 2185548

>>2185532
At least let your brain finish developing

No. 2185550

>>2185532
Do what I'm doing and waiting until you're 25. If your brain is fully developed and you're still fucked up, then tap out. I got one year to go.

No. 2185553

>>2185532
You are really young, retards online and in the media try to make people (women especially) feel like they're done for if they haven't lived it up since their teens but it's absolutely not too late to turn direction. I used to constantly lament that my life is ruined forever but things have improved in ways I didn't think were possible.
Yeah I know this just sounds like another generic anti-suicide shill post but at least please don't go with stabbing, not only is it a horribly brutal and painful method but it's also not nearly as reliable as people think. It's very likely that you'd just injure yourself and survive with nerve damage and disability, especially since it's rather slow and conscious so you have a lot of opportunity for instinct to kick in and get scared into calling for help even if you previously had strong resolve. Whether you want to better your life or end it, that's a bad outcome either way.

No. 2185565

>>2185550
Brain stops developing after 30

No. 2185570

I know I don't need to clarify this seeing as this isn't Reddit and we're much more capable of reasonable discussion here, but I am not a Trump supporter by any means. Now with that said, I think it's absolutely ridiculous that the conversation about the assassination attempt on Trump always devolves into "Okay but he actually wasn't shot". As if it matters whether he was injured from "shrapnel" or the bullet when we know he got shot at, and we know an innocent man died as a result. I don't think the physical impact matters if you get shot at, if he truly didn't get shot at all then he's luckier than I thought. It doesn't change the fact that someone still tried to and came very close to ending his life.
I guess the conversation really bothers me because it's very similar arguments that men use in general to excuse a lot of violence against women. If the physical impact isn't as bad as it could've been, if there isn't any permanent damage, it's not so bad and the actions of the violent offender suddenly don't matter. It doesn't make any difference that it happened to Trump, because even though I don't like him I don't believe in opening the door to this kind of behavior.

No. 2185572

>>2185570
When it's used against men it's actually incredibly based.

No. 2185576

>>2185532
Things truly can change SO fast nona. I know without tangible proof things will get better for you that me saying this doesn't make a difference. But the biggest change of my life happened just over the course of a year or so. There was almost exactly a year difference between the lowest point of my life and genuine happiness that I have built into a life I love since.
Every single day you have the capacity to make minor changes that will lead to a better situation for yourself. Every single day things completely out of your control that require no effort on your part could change the course of your life forever. You have no idea what 24 will be like, and the previous 23 years are no indicator of the next 23. Eventually you will get to a point where you can honestly say that all of the bullshit was worth it. I promise. As sick as you must be of being patient I promise it pays off eventually.

No. 2185599

>>2185532
get really good at lucid dreaming and you can do anything you want. lucid dream sex is better than real sex, everything can feel better in dreams than real life.

No. 2185610

>>2185599
Except for punching

No. 2185611

>>2185576
>>2185550
>>2185548
>>2185537
I dont expect things to change or improve. I feel defeated but happy, it's odd. My extreme childhood trauma won't go away. My material issues won't go away. My failed dreams won't go away. Living paycheck to paychek won't go away. My physical flaws won't go away. I was supposed to end it at 17, I said, wait and see. Nothing changed.
>>2185553
I've thought about the method. There was this guy who killed himself by chaining himself to a tree, starved to death. Tried to claw his way out they say. That's one way I considered. But the knife will work if I try. I hate myself I guess.

No. 2185614

>>2185515
i never related anything more. all i ever wanted was a single group of girlfriends with similar interests and humor but i’m just too retarded to be liked by anyone, let alone an entire group

No. 2185616

Sometimes I will be reminded of who I was during my prescription drug dependency and I get this aching nostalgia feeling. She wasn't healthy at all, she was really unhinged… but I miss her. I don't know why. I can smell that leather jacket I used to wear all the time, and it's nowhere near me right now. I hear the first few notes of one of my favorite songs from my favorite playlist at that time and I'm filled with this dreadful longing. I think more than anything I want to go back and do things the right way. I do have a soft spot for who I was back then. I feel bad for her. I wish I could cradle her and give her the companionship she was looking for, that she didn't even know she was in search of and was substituting that need with pills instead. I think more than anything I'm sad at how long I was sad and never knew.

No. 2185624

>>2185611
You won't kill yourself and I already know that years from now you will hate yourself for thinking this way at your young age.

No. 2185626

>>2185624
nta but when I look at my past suicidal self I don’t hate her at all. her life did suck major ass and things aren’t much better now so I have this feeling of understanding and maybe even pity for her, but not hate

No. 2185627

>>2185624
Nta I don't hate my past self for being self destructive and suicidal, I understand why she was like that and love her

No. 2185631

>>2185624
>>2185624
I don't know. I feel different this time. Someone still depends on me financially but I am sorting things out. I am just bored. You have no idea.

No. 2185633

>>2185627
>>2185626
If anon keeps telling herself she failed her dreams at 23, nevermind that most adults will tell you they usually only figured out what they wanted to do when they approached/were in their 30's, she will stay stuck. She is so young. She has so much time in front of her to do anything she wanted, she just needs to put in the work which is the hardest part but doable.

No. 2185638

>>2185610
thats what mosh pits are for

No. 2185642

I got a concussion and now I'm all fucked up and my head hurts and I have to miss like 3 days of work and now my paycheck is gonna be skinny as fuck I'm so sad

No. 2185653

I can't believe that I fell in love with a celebrity and my monogamously orientated autism brain makes me blind to every other moid holy shit this has been going on for over 3 years now what a joke

No. 2185654


No. 2185657

>>2185654
A techno dj

No. 2185661

>>2185657
oi shes fookin wankin tuh speedy j

No. 2185665

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>>2185657
Deadmau5?

No. 2185670

I looked at myself in the mirror and I noticed I've been losing weight…. I used to have quite the tummy but now it's flatter… my hips seem.. curvier? My legs look curvy too…. like they stand out more or maybe it was just the stance I was making but I can definitely notice a difference in my stomach and waist and love handle area. Those areas look more defined. I should really try to eat more but I sometimes deny what my parents want to eat for dinner because I'm not feeling in the mood and I don't want it to get left in the fridge

No. 2185675

>>2185665
No he is too old lol doesn't matter they are all cokeheads and alcoholics I tried to make it stop for such a long time but nothing works eugh

No. 2185676

I didn't go to work because I'm sick for the first time at this job today (been working there for around half a year). I wrote my boss a message yesterday, about 20 hours before my shift so definitely enough time for him to find a replacement. Now he's calling me. I didn't pick up because I was sleeping, but he wrote back and is upset that I didn't call him and instead wrote him a message. I just thought it's ok since he usually immediately responds, and I also saw he was online afterwards. He can't just call around and find someone else because we were supposed to go to another city. I don't know how to reply to him, and I'm really scared now. How massively did I fuck up nonnies?

No. 2185682

>>2185653
I'm your bisexual twin (it's a female celeb). it's working out VERY bad for me, i am discovering depths of misery hitherto unknown to mekind.

No. 2185702

I have covid right now for the fifth time since 2020 despite having all available boosters/vaccines in my country, and its really rough - fever, no smell, fatigue, etc etc. So I'm feeling really shitty and low because I have a lot on at work (luckily I work remote but its still a fairly high profile role with a lot of a responsibilities) and because of colleague holidays I can't call in sick tomorrow.

Spent the night tossing and turning because I'm so ill and I'm just miserable as shit. Food doesn't taste good, my head hurts too much to do anything that I enjoy and bed rotting is killing my lower back.

No. 2185703

>>2185426
There was a period where every couple months a pre-workout was getting banned. I'm pretty sure the original Jacked3d had bath salts in it. So good for nights out. I regret not stealing it from my roommate.

No. 2185704

>>2185676
Hey nonnie, don't panic. You're sick and you did what you could. Sometimes managers can be kind of useless on this front but life happens, you got sick and that's not your fault. I once had a manager who chewed me out for emailing in that I had tonsillitis rather than calling when I literally couldn't speak. Just focus on healing and if you have to grovel a bit when you go back to work, so be it, but you let him know with a whole day's notice, it's up to him to put on his big boy pants and do his job.

No. 2185716

It's been 4 years since we broke up, I don't feel any affection towards him - hell, pretty much all of it dissipated a week later when I realized I wasn't under constant stress anymore. But I still carry so many hurt feelings and contempt, there have been times I caught myself hurting over how worthless he made me feel. I wonder if it's the effect of all the manipulation he put me through, whenever I stumble upon some sort of video or list of manipulation tactics I recognize a number of them from the way he treated me. I don't even allow myself to hate him, I don't want him to have a place in my mind, what is lingering is those hurt feelings I will never get any closure for. But there are days where I do hate him.

No. 2185717

I fucking hate being autistic it's not even funny. It's impossible to form a close relationship with anyone without conflict from it.

No. 2185719

>>2185716
I feel this, and sure lots of other nonas can relate. If it's something that is available to you, therapy can be really helpful for working through those feelings and finding a path to healing. So many scrotes just trash women's mental health and walk away.

No. 2185723

I thought I was doing better but I’m spiraling into the deep end again. I’m about to fuck up my life, I know it.

No. 2185729

>>2185719
I did go through some therapy afterwards, however the main focus ended up being on some other major trauma and it was only during a limited time frame. But you are right, I should look into getting back to it, for a multitude of reasons.
"Ironically", in lack of better words, I was in a physically and sexually abusive relationship a few years before I met this guy and not even my rapist made me feel as worthless as this particular ex did with his manipulation. Moids are the ticks of humanity - they attach to you, steal your blood and leave you infected and sick.

No. 2185737

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>>2185704
Thank you nona, I'm a bit more calm now. I've thought about it, and I'm pretty sure he's just doing this to fuck with me and make me feel too guilty to call out of work ever again. This guy is online every 5 minutes, and ALWAYS replies to me within 10 minutes, but he somehow didn't see my message about being sick? And then he magically sees my message this morning, half an hour after I was supposed to get in the carpool? No way.
And something like this has happened to one of my ex-coworkers before. She had to go home because she was vomiting, and he called her and yelled at her for not asking him for permission to leave. She told the manager she needs to go, so it wasn't like she just went home without notifying anyone. After that he fired her because she told him to stop calling her while she's off work kek. Piece of shit manipulating scrote, I hope unspeakable things happen to him. I'm going apply for jobs today after my painkillers kick in and my headache stops trying to kill me. I was just really scared because this is my first job after NEETdom, but I can definitely do better and also deserve better than this shit.

No. 2185782

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>>2185766
>And not a hole and separated part of it, a small ass ass sucking clitoris.
I don’t have one of those…
maybe this is why BPchan is so troubled. What is wrong with her vajayba?

No. 2185784

>>2185766
I came 23 times tonight and might still go back for more. having a vagina is epic

No. 2185788

>>2185785
Yummy yummy in my pussy

No. 2185790

>>2185766
This is one of the worst posts that I've read on lolcow

No. 2185795

why the fuck won't people understand when I say I feel uncomfortable with people drunk messaging me? I shouldn't have to tell them my whole fucking life story to validate the fact that I do not want your drunk babbling in my phone, you don't even need to be sober for me, just do not send me that shit. You do not need to talk to me when you're so drunk I cannot figure out what the fuck you're typing. It's always these so woke people doing this too, they easily understand why someone who got bit by a snake would be wary of snakes and tell people not bring snakes near them but this is something no one seems to ever take seriously. I'm not even asking for much, I am not even saying never contact me when drunk, I'm saying I don't want messages like
>heyfsj 7hkis so much to csnight

No. 2185803

>>2185795
inb4
>anon grow up
I have gone from instantly panicking and hyperventilating receiving that shit to now just being annoyed and able to just ignore them, I just put the phone down and this week i just gave up on this bitch and blocked her. This isn't a big ask for adult people. There are people who can be drunk as shit and still be coherent, who knows if I often receive drunk texts but the absolute gibberish is still so gross and uncomfortable to me.

No. 2185806

>>2185792
Is there anything anyone could say to you here that you would have a positive response to, this is a genuine question, it seems like you just hate all women so anything people could say just makes you rage. I feel like I could ask you if you prefer pancakes or waffles and you would go
>bitches continuing to eat nothing but processed food that goes straight to their whore thighs which they spread all the time and display their wet hole, why don’t they hate their wet hole like me, it’s because I am supposed to be a man and so I don’t like eating waffles like a hormonal slut.

No. 2185811

>>2185766
Disregard the other anons who are trying to antagonize you. There are certain things that can potentially suck about being a woman, and everyone will feel differently about them. Your feelings are more extreme than most, but I understand where you're coming from.

When you talk about being extremely aware of your vagina, is it a 100% psychological/emotional thing? Or is it possible that you have some kind of muscular disorder that could be contributing? There are some conditions such as vaginismus that can cause painful/uncomfortable contractions in the vaginal muscles, especially in conjunction with psychological distress. I don't think this is the one you have - it's just the one I've heard about.

Personally, I don't think I've ever experienced a feeling like the one you're describing. as I'm going about my daily life, I never think about my genitalia at all.

No. 2185818

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I'm in so much mental and physical pain. I just want a boyfriend or someone that will be fully involved with me. That will genuinely care about me.

No. 2185833

>>2185818
>boyfriend… Someone That will genuinely care about me.
Oh anon….

No. 2185839

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I'm a wildlife rehabber, and while I try to keep an emotional distance from the animals I foster, it's still so sad to see animals pass away. Especially the babies. On Friday I already lost a 5 week old hedgehog because she was infested by fly larvae and fleas and generally malnourished and weak. Just now another baby, who seemed strong and healthy at first, passed away after he suffered a complete rectal prolapse yesterday, despite it looking like he was better and would make it last evening since it contracted back inside by itself around an hour after I smeared it with vaseline. But his colon must have gotten damaged during the entire ordeal, so there wasn't anything I could have done to save him. Still, I couldn't help but shed a few tears while he was laying on my chest and taking his last breaths. Spoilering all the medical details for the squeamish nonnies out there

No. 2185845

>>2185807
When masturbation's lost its fun, you're fuckin' lazy

No. 2185846

>>2185833
I'm starting to think the only unconditional love is family or pets lol

No. 2185847

Not so much of a vent, but I’ve gone through prolonged periods of stress.
I could feel my brain “snap” from going over stressed to just feel… numb. It’s not dissociation, I used to and I know how it feels. My mind just feels absent, slow.
I hate this feeling, I love my curious and witty mind, I used to focus reading things I love but right now I am so bored with everything and I can’t even live as an actual human and not an automaton.
I wish I could undo the damage. I recently got RingFit and I heard exercise helps. Urgh.

No. 2185853

>>2185839
Fucking hell, my heart goes out to you nonna. I've been in similar positions with animals that I've tried to save. It never gets better. Please take comfort in knowing that you gave them much needed comfort in their last moments. You're doing amazing work.

No. 2185857

I hate right wing pandering bitches. Edgelord nazis that pander to incels.

No. 2185862

>>2185818
A boyfriend isn’t a full time caretaker, you can’t expect for someone to just come and save you. No one is going to want to put up with hardships immediately at the start when they can date a person who doesn’t have your problems, it’s simply not worth it, a man won’t especially do that nonna kek. Learn to cope first and learn to properly manage your pain and become a girlfriend.
In sickness and in health is reserved for long term relationships(not even that most of the time)

No. 2185865

>>2185818
Love is conditional. The only genuine love you can experience is the one of a mother towards their child. At least when the mother is a sane person who has no underlying problems.
In my whole life there hasn’t been anyone who has had my back as much as my mother, my n.1 supporter that always cheers me up and uplifts me. When I was sick and in the hospital I only had her, when I was suicidal and felt alone I only had her. She has always given me love without expecting nothing in return, I don’t think I could ever find something as genuine as this.

No. 2185867

>>2185784
Overstimulation is a butch to me. I can only do once and I have to tap out.

No. 2185870

the celebricow thread depresses me

No. 2185878

>>2185766
A TIF in the making kek.
Nonna you seriously have a problem with internalized misogyny. Do you seriously think of women as horny beings who go around with their vagina spasming and screeching to be bred kek?

Are you aware that you’re the one constricting yourself in a box of what a woman is supposed to be? You don’t need to behave in any way in order to be one. Being female is only a trait that you have, it’s an abysmal characteristic when compared to all the interests, dreams, fears, you have. Do you think that women around you aren’t complex beings too?
You can exercise to get fit, you don’t even need to have kids in the first place , you can cut your hair, you can be makeup free too. Fuck what society tells you to do.

You can be all you want despite being female. You’re the one putting yourself in chains, you’re your own prisoner and captor.

No. 2185884

>>2185862
I don't need a full time caretaker or to be "saved". I've been deprived of intimacy and genuine human connection. It's much easier to live your life when you have someone by your side. I go outside and see families with children. I realize that I am probably never going to experience that.

No. 2185888

>>2185766
Nonna suffers from chronic wet pussy kek.

No woman is going around with “open, leaking” genitals 24/7. You’re obviously hyper aware of your vagina due to your self hatred.

No. 2185889

>>2185884
It's must easier to live your life with someone by your side…? Nona..

No. 2185891

>>2185889
I don't get it? It's called having a family. Being in love. A basic human need. Maslow's pyramid???

I can't believe that I'm being gaslit for having basic human needs.

No. 2185893

>>2185884
How do you know that they’re happy? Comparison is the thief of joy.
Human loneliness sucks as hell, but if you keep on comparing yourself with what other people have you’ll always be in a perpetual state of unhappiness.
Meeting people whom you’ll connect with isn’t impossible, you’ll have to put yourself out though. Focus on getting help nonna, on bettering yourself rather than “finding someone”.
This seems retarded and it might look as if I’m saying “it will come when you least expect it” but I’m not saying that. I know how you feel nonna, being lonely sucks when everyone around seems ti have someone. But when I stopped fixating on it I found solace somehow.

No. 2185895

>>2185891
It's not even about that. I just think it's preferable to die alone

No. 2185926

>>2185853
Thank you anon, and also thank you for helping the animals you've saved. Knowing we've given them our best makes the heartbreak bearable, even if it sadly doesn't always work out in the end…

No. 2185932

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why am i so cringe

No. 2185958

>>2185932
I know, I feel the same way right now, I hate my cringe self so much I feel like crying over what feels like endless mistakes and failed attempts to make anyone like me.

No. 2186020

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I somehow managed to fumble a guy on fucking WhatsApp, I feel like crying. Is autists can't pull a man for shit

No. 2186027

I have 0 hobbies and it makes me feel like my soul is rotting away

No. 2186029

I feel visceral disgust when seeing men cosplay as hot anime men because IRL men are genuinely repulsive and vomit-inducing but women cosplaying as attractive anime men is the hottest thing ever.

No. 2186036

>>2185958
Embrace the cringe and make all the free mistakes you want to

No. 2186070

>>2186050
>>2186054
>>2186063
Get help oml

No. 2186079

>>2186068
>>2186063
>>2186050
Nona pls repost what you originally said I wanna see what you wrote

No. 2186084

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please nonnies…

No. 2186101

>>2186094
Meds, now.

No. 2186104

>>2186094
Nonnie I genuinely love and support you. I wish you the best in life. I understand your struggle so well, I'm also a woman who hates being a woman, femininity and everything that comes with womanhood, but unfortunately this is my biological reality so I try to accept it as disheartening as it is.

No. 2186110

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brb writing my suicide note

No. 2186113

>>2186050
Are you shitposting? Underaged? A moid?

Why aren't the mods banning you?>>2186094
Stop shitting up the thread. Yea, we get it. You don't enjoy performative femininity. You don't like having sex.

There's no point in calling other anons dick sucking whores or humiliating women for having sex. You literally sound like an incel.

No. 2186120

i rly want this sweater but idk if i should wait until its on sale, or if i should just buy it now. i know that waiting until its on sale is better cause the sweater costs 100€ and im trying to save money but god im so bored lately and i love waiting for stuff i order online to arrive

No. 2186124

>>2186110
this is so cringe why would you even use kek when talking to people

No. 2186127

>>2186110
lie and say it’s a world of warcraft thing

No. 2186129

>>2186110
Just say it was a typo

No. 2186133

>>2186110
you do it to yourself, nona

No. 2186148

>>2186124
nta but i use kek too, its really prominent in gaming communties, like smash or league but only with my friends who said it first lol

No. 2186152

i hate the threadpic so much every time i see it it fills me with rage.

No. 2186153

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Went on a first date with a guy that turned out to be even cuter and sweeter irl than in messages. We went out for coffee and a walk, and we talked the entire time but it's hard to tell if it went well or not. Now I'm expecting the inevitable "it was nice to meet you, but…" text that I always get whenever I go on dates with someone that actually matches most of the points I look for in a partner.

No. 2186154

>>2186153
Nonna guys who do coffee dates and walks are just looking for a fwb.

No. 2186156

>>2186153
that sounds really cute, I am rooting for you that this one is different

No. 2186162

>>2186152
But why does it make nonna so angry

No. 2186168

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Was having some really good sex last night and just as I was about to orgasm I farted, and now it’s disrupting my ability to have a memory wank over it

No. 2186173

>>2186124
I code switched wrong. I have whatsapp web open in the tab beside lolcow. Do you think I talk the same as I do here irl?
>>2186127
>>2186129
>>2186133
I'm just going to ignore it and hope it goes away. That's been working out surprisingly well for me lately. If it doesn't then suicide, maybe regicide too.

No. 2186175

>>2186154
Nta but according to you, since you’re clearly such an expert, what do guys who are looking for a gf do? Not everyone wants to eat a huge meal when they’re on a first date cos it’s nerve wracking and you lose your appetite. I’d much rather do a low stakes coffee and walk.

No. 2186187

>>2186124
I have a feeling it might be a scrote since there's this scrote on 4chan who takes screenshots of his degenerate whatsapp conversations and posts them(scrotefoiling)

No. 2186193

>>2186187
Anon that’s so fucking stupid. Do you have any idea how many people are on WhatsApp? It’s not like it’s a rare thing.

No. 2186201

>>2186193
I don't fucking doubt it but honestly I'm paranoid since I've seen posts here before that literally look like it came straight from his moid fucking hands.

No. 2186211

>>2186201
You need to touch grass then.

No. 2186217

>>2186154
I'd rather have a quick coffee or go on a walk than go on a dinner date with a guy, be trapped with him for at least an hour and then have him expect me to fuck him because he spent 20 bucks on my meal

No. 2186223

>>2186217
That's fine if you prefer that but just know you'll be getting moids who see you as lesser than the women he actually wants to pursue.

No. 2186234

>>2186223
Not really, since I do expect the guy to pay for the dates after the first one. First dates are really just to see if you get along and if the chemistry is there

No. 2186241

>>2186201
I'm og Whatsapp poster. I'm a Euro, literally everyone uses Whatsapp. Occasionally Signal. I believe in the US they mostly use iPhone's messaging thing. Maybe it's weird there.

No. 2186253

>>2186029
Because you're a dyke(bait)

No. 2186258

>>2186217
what do men that actually wanna have a girlfriend do then?

No. 2186261

I don't know why or how men are so absolutely stupid about basic home care. My mom keeps fighting my dad about him putting reds in the white laundry and he doesn't listen and whines that she's nagging him. You wouldn't get fucking "nagged" if you used basic common sense instead of forcing her to clean up after you like a toddler.
I hate men, they are so blind to all their flaws that when we get upset about it they don't put 2 and 2 together to see how their behavior is ongoing disrespect.

No. 2186263

>>2186029
anon you might be gay because i feel the same disgust looking at moids i gagged in disgust when that one anon posted that faglink photo

No. 2186267

>>2186258
How is that a woman’s problem? They should get creative and figure it out themselves, they’re the sigma logical gender after all kek

No. 2186270

One of my friends has the worst hair I've ever seen, it's wavy and looks permanently greasy, she keeps damaging it by dying her hair all the time and I hate when she talks about mine. Last time we saw each other irl she insisted that a very short haircut would look great on me even though I know from personal experience it would look disgusting because hairdressers in our country have no clue how to treat hair that's not perfectly straight so they used to cut it way too short compared to what I would ask. Anyway last time she said that we were with other friends for once and they all agreed it would look like shit on me or would look very different from what our friend is imagining. I'm wondering if that friend isn't actively trying to give me bad ideas so I'll look ugly as hell instead of normal because it's just common sense that curly hair doesn't work like straight hair. Either that or her relative who's a hairdresser, always did her hair and never let her go to a salon really brainwashed her into thinking ugly shit looks good.

No. 2186274

>>2186263
Nta but I constantly question my bisexuality because I'm disgusted by slutty looking moids, I was genuinely puzzled as to why anons were giddy over those pics.

No. 2186283

>>2186154
ayrt, coffee culture is a very big thing here so unless you already know each other very well (like being friends for some time or similar) it's extremely common that the first date is at a café to feel things out without being stuck.

No. 2186285

>>2186274
maybe it's due to repressed sexuality, do you feel bad finding something sexually appealing? or does this exclusively happen with slutty looking moids?

No. 2186288

>>2186274
You feel disgusted because slutty moids probably have STDs and your brain wants to protect you

No. 2186290

>>2186263
Idk I’m straight but I more often feel disgust when I look at men than women. There’s just something bestial about men. Like no matter how much you scrub them up, you look into their eyes and see a primitive species.

No. 2186293

>>2186285
I don't know, I don't think I'm repressed but I never really got an opportunity to be in any kind of relationship I'm probably stunted. Moids expressing sexuality in any way utterly disgusts me.
>>2186288
I was not talking about real male sluts, just men showing off their bodies like a ton of anons wish they did.

No. 2186294

I'll never forgive BPDettes for ruining unconventional hair dyes like blue or pink, there was always negative assumptions about bright hair dyes but it got worse in recent years thanks to the kind of demographic that gets it nowadays. Now everyone with that kind of hair color is perceived as easy, mentally broken, having a mental breakdown or hypersexual. Fuck them and their dick obsessed selves

No. 2186300

Today is day 3 of not having heard from my mom since the flooding happened. I’m trying to not panic since there’s absolutely nothing I can do right now anyway. She’s not elderly, it’s likely that she’s safe. I’m not necessarily worried her house was directly impacted by flooding but I am worried about trees falling on her house, her being stranded without supplies, her having been away from the house when the flooding did start, etc.
Also she has sleep apnea, she hasn’t had to sleep without her cpap for quite a few years and I’m sure she’s terrified of having to sleep without it since she’s been out of power. I just wish I could hear from her enough to know she’s alright

No. 2186303

That time when a worthless manhoe that was obsessed with me looked at me crazy because I told him I was a virgin when he asked me about my bf status. I don't see nothing wrong with it that's why I was so casual about it but I suppose normies think sex makes you mature or whatever. He was so weird for that

No. 2186304

>>2186294
My mental illness didn’t come with hyper sexuality but I was still very observably mentally ill with pink hair, sorry nona

No. 2186307

>>2186294
You need to stop living your life according to what scrotes think. You need to have the attitude that every man you see is less intelligent with less worthy opinions than you by default just because he is a man. No matter how intelligent he is or how successful, you will always have the superior opinion, especially on yourself and other women. An outlook like this will improve your life enormously whether you choose to associate with men or not.

No. 2186310

>>2186303
Did he leave you alone after you told him that? Normies get so disgusted when they learn you're an older virgin it's hilarious.

No. 2186318

>>2186154
>guys who do coffee dates and walks are just looking for a fwb.
People usually do shorter dates on the first date, that's normal. Don't be weird

No. 2186321

>>2186294
Im not bpd or hypersexual but pink n blue don't suit most people unless they're already very pretty. You blaming mentally ill women for getting exploited just because you can't dye your hair an ugly color is weird.

No. 2186327

>>2186310
Actually no, I think it got actually worse, dude started acting way hornier and pushy, touching me randomly and shit. I was 22 at the time, may be he thought it was weird at first but took advantage of the fact

No. 2186328

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these seasonal color palettes ALWAYS use either very white/blonde women, or black women. nothing in between. i'm white but with very dark brown hair, pale olive skin (NOT pale pink) and hazel eyes and literally NONE of these palettes fit me. either the skin tone is off, the colouring, or both.

No. 2186330

>>2186318
Nah they’re man whores that are looking to not spend money on any woman who doesn’t immediately put out. Its also done because that means those dates are short, meaning they can meet other women that day in order to increase their chances. Never go on cheap dates unless you two actually are dating or married and want them or else you’re setting the bar too low for yourself

No. 2186332

>>2186328
As a "mestizo", I feel you. This color analysis stuff is very american centric, they only see two races and forget everyone else. I'm not white nor black. You might be winter like me though, not autumn

No. 2186333

>>2186332
i think you're right, i seem to be closest to winter, specifically dark/deep winter. and yep super american-centric.

No. 2186334

>>2186328
I have no idea how this shit works, never managed to figure out my own.

No. 2186342

>>2186330
>they can meet other women that day
Kek anon the average scrote gets like one match per week and then usually gets ghosted by said match before they ever meet up. You really think men are so booked that they have to line up multiple dates on the same day?

No. 2186348

>>2186328
merriam style is a brown woman who's very good at explaining color analysis, she uses all races as examples in her videos. would recommend.

No. 2186353

>>2186332
check out this video

No. 2186354

>>2186328
olive skin tone specifically is not done well by seasonal analysis, i don't think it's as much a western thing because koreans love it.

No. 2186363

>>2186270
for what it's worth, I genuinely think that your friend just has bad taste and different ideas about hair than you.
>>2186154
>>2186330
this opinion is so confidently wrong. everyone, everywhere tells you to do short, easy first dates so it's easy to back out if you're super not feeling it or if the guy is hiding secret baldness. that is universal advice. it's cruel to propagate even more dating paranoia when dating already sucks for women. "he just wants someone who puts out fast!" then don't put out fast? "you're setting the bar low!" wrong, because if you really feel like you need to prove that he'll pay a lot of money for you, then go somewhere expensive… next time? it's easy.

No. 2186368

>>2186328
idk if that helps, but I also have dark brown hair (cooler in tone) + pale olive skin + hazel eyes, and I'm closest to dark winter (but I'm white, so maybe it would be different for you). I wondered about it a lot but I figured out my season by checking how well I look in defferent colors/jewellery and going from there instead of comparing my features to the women on the pictures. Keep in mind that the season sytem is just a rough guide, ultimately you'll have to find colors that work for you personaly, so you mey as well do it without trying to fit yourself into some stupid category

No. 2186388

>>2182789
Thread pic is disturbing me what is it? I'm scared to look it up lol

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No. 2186397

>>2186388
>>2186392
kek i did a double take the first time too. i quickly recognised it as a monkey though, because im a monkey lover and i saw a saki monkey at a sanctuary recently. he was so cute!

No. 2186400

>>2186397
I thought it was a dreaded cowball at first, glad it was just a cute monkey

No. 2186405

>>2186392
Thank you nonna now I see it!

No. 2186438

>>2185682
omg this sucks sorry to hear, it's a whole new level of suffering

No. 2186482

You all talk about men in every thread it's like reading the yAs kween normie talks. Do not even respond to this to cause another shit fight where you all start talking about men and your heterosexuality(infight bait)

No. 2186496

My mom is a bitch to my dad and it instantly puts my dad in a bad mood so he responds by being a bitch to me, it’s all so tiresome.

No. 2186783

Sometimes I really doubt if I can live this life just the smallest things can drive me so insane I keep getting panic attacks fuck

No. 2186794

I don't like other people, don't feel connected to other people in any meaningful way, usually only see their flaws despite attempts to be generous, the shit other people talk about is annoying and I have no desire to share about myself. I feel like every single attempt to make friends was a pointless waste of time where I got vulnerable for people who didn't deserve it and can never get that privacy back. I wish I could undo getting close to so many people and letting them see me vulnerable just to be humiliated by my own poor judgement. I think people are worthless, ugly, and stupid, and I am too different from others for friendship to ever be worth it. I don't hate people or wish them harm usually. I've spent almost my entire life alone (for reasons that are mostly not my fault) and I don't think anyone else can understand me. Nobody wants to make the effort to understand me, they just want me to fit in.

No. 2186806

>>2186783
start lifting weights

No. 2186828

i wanna be online less but my life sucks. i just cannot shake off my phone/laptop addiction

No. 2186831

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I miss when I was younger and I was kind and nice by default. As I've gotten older I always think about "what can this do for us?" or "is this bitch going to give us some backhanded complement back?". I'm always second guessing everything I do, my guard is always up. I'm assuming someone is hostile until they work there selves into my circle of trust. Even then I don't really trust them. I miss my innocent days before life beat me down. I hate being cynical all the time. I want to be positive.

No. 2187039

Hurricane Helene is seriously fucking up the east coast right now and it really is breaking my heart to see. In seriously praying for everyone.

No. 2187055

>>2186794
I have no advice for you nona but I feel the exact same way. I could've written this to be honest. It's such an alienating experience. Wishing you comfort and peace

No. 2187065

>>2186831
Being kind just makes you a doormat in most situations, tbf.

No. 2187082

>>2186328
whats even more retarded is when these systems act as if black people can fall into many categories… rofl. so they place more care into putting black people (which tend to all look the same, skin tone and hair/eye color wise) vs putting care into the amount of variation every other race can have, but especially whites. its just funny how americans make everything so american.

No. 2187085

I hate working with gay men, I hate my bitchy faggot coworker. He’s so mad that I have a pussy and he doesn’t.

No. 2187091

Ever come down from mania and realise you’re actually not the most beautiful person in the world? Like actually butt-ugly, sub-3? Yeah…
>>2187082
Oh, you’re one of those people who thinks Asian and black people can only be Autumn or Winter. Got it

No. 2187097

>>2187091
i never said anything about asians?

No. 2187101

I might have renitis pigmentosa. I have a "depigmented mottling" that resembles "bone spicules" in my left eye at 21. I have no family history of this, nobody on my mom's side has this, and all my 5 half siblings from my father does not have it. I was told that they noticed this pigment a few years ago, and it has not progressed (presumably). My right eye has nothing of the sort, no pigment, nothing. I have no night blindness, as the location is above and below my optic nerve and is near my nasal area, so that might be why I have no night blindness. I am waiting for results. I also have goldenhair syndrome, so I am hoping it is a structural thing, but I have no warts or whatever on my eye, as this in the retina layer. I am already hard of hearing, and wear a hearing device. I am miserable. I just do not understand why this is happening to me. My dad died three years ago and my mom had cancer twice (though it has not come back for 6 years). I pray that if it is RP, its very slow and it's unilateral. I am hoping it isn't, but there's not much else that can cause the pigment. I am so miserable and I genuinely do not know what to do. I am waiting for genetic results on December 5th. I cannot stop freaking out. To make matters worse, my ex keeps obsessively stalking me and keeps harassing me. I feel so fucking horrible. I don't know why these bad things only seem to happen to me. I got stalked by a pedophile when I was younger, he is out while I and many other girls was victimized. My bullies are able to get good degrees and everything while I was at home dealing with my fathers adiction and his temperament issues and my mother battling cancer twice. What did I do to deserve this? I don't know what to do. I feel like I am being punished by God for being suicidal, that because I take my life for granted, he must be punishing me. I don't think I have done anything wrong. All I wanted was love, I just wanted someone to understand me. I have been begging him everyday and promising that I would never attempt if this isn't progressive, but I am losing hope. The idea of this crushes me, because not only can I not hear without my hearing device, I may not be able to even see my boyfriends face or do any of my hobbies again. I feel like I would burden him and everyone around me even more. Please pray for me. I always wanted to be a mother, how could I now knowing I could pass this down to them if I do have it? How could I raise them with my sight? I really do not want it to be progressive, I promised God that I would never take life for granted again. I already took a test for ruebella and syphilis, and I was negative for both.

No. 2187103

I hate my job and want to leave but cant find another job atm and im pretty good at this job but im pretty sure its making me ill.

No. 2187114

I moved to be with my fiancé which meant I had to leave living right next door to my mother. She’s in an area impacted by the flood and I haven’t been able to get in contact with her for 3 days, but I just went and celebrated a holiday with my in-laws and had dinner with them tonight. It’s a very weird feeling I don’t know how to put into words.
I held it together all night but as soon as we got home I went upstairs and locked myself in the bathroom to have a long cry. I’ve been so worried about my mom but had to put on a chipper face all night for my fiancé’s family and I’m having a really hard time right now.

No. 2187116

>>2187091
>Oh, you’re one of those people who thinks Asian and black people can only be Autumn or Winter
Because it's true, besides bright spring, those are our options as most of us got black hair and dark features naturally which means contrasted colors will work on our favor and too light colors will wash us out. It's just logical

No. 2187117

>>2187114
Im sorry about what you are going though and I hope your mom is ok. If you didn't feel comfortable telling your finance's family that you were too worried about your mom to celebrate anything, either they are trash or you are too much of people pleasure. If they are horrible, reconsider this relationship. If you are people pleaser, work on that. You need support right now, and they can't provide it or if you can't ask for it, that's a horrible place to be.

No. 2187133

>>2187116
That’s just not true though. There are also white people with dark hair who are springs/summers. It’s about which colours you suit first and foremost. You can’t genuinely think all non-white people suit the same colours KEK
>>2187097
But they also have the same colouring. Black to brown hair, black to brown eyes, just medium to pale skin.

No. 2187136

>>2187133
>medium to pale skin
please don't be daft. black people are dark brown. there's a reason why most black people fall under 2 categories realistically, because they have the same dark skin with the same black hair and black eyes. unless you're one of those people that think ice spice or halsey are black?

No. 2187150

>>2187136
…Do you know what you’re replying to, anon was asking about asians? Are you retarded?

No. 2187151

>>2187101
I’m so sorry you’re going through all of this. It’s not fair that you have to handle so many challenges at once. You haven’t done anything to deserve any of this, and I’m sorry that it’s all of this is happening. I can’t imagine how difficult it must be. If it helps, life isn't fair to a lot of people. You aren't alone in getting fucked over by life or by your genes.

Remember that you’re not alone in this. Your boyfriend, family, and friends are there for you. It’s okay to let them help you and share your burdens. If they are good people, they will want to be there for you. And try to find a supportive faith community. This isn't your fault and god is not punishing you for anything. Please reach out to religious people of your faith so they can talk you through this. You didn't do anything to deserve what's happening to you. It's just really shitty luck. Your mom, your dad, the bad hearing, none of it's your fault or god messing with you.

Try to take things one day at a time, and focus on what we can control in the present. For example, worrying about the disease and children, until you get the results, isn't going to help anything, so give yourself 5 to 10 ten minutes a day to worry about the worst that can happen. Outside of that time frame, you should focus on just having a good day. If you find yourself getting lost in worrying, just remind yourself that this is not the time for that and you will do it at the assigned time.

No. 2187157

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The internet was a fucking mistake. My grandma really thinks these streamers she obsessively listens to gives a shit about people like her. Lol, no grandma they want you to form a parasocial interaction with them because they want followers which means money. Just because they say "I don't care about my follower count uwu" doesn't mean they really don't. It's sad how you can easily pander to people like my grandma and make easy coin. The amount of bullshit she has bought because of these worms is amazing. Can't call any of this out to her because she just double downs. Fucking sad.

No. 2187160

>>2186438
solidarity… thank you anon. Anyone I tell thinks I’m crazy but you get it. One day we will be free. I feel I’m near the end of the tunnel but it has to get SO SO SO bad before it gets better, I think. Or that’s what I’m telling myself. I hope one day I can love normally.

No. 2187166

>>2187150
are YOU retarded? i was replying to this
>But they also have the same colouring. Black to brown hair, black to brown eyes, just medium to pale skin.
which was implying blacks and asians had the same coloring. keep up

No. 2187169

>>2187151
Thank you so much. I have been crying everyday and have been so depressed lately. I am thinking of going back to church. I just have such a difficult time not thinking about it. I am somewhat hopeful that its not progressive, but I don't know. My mom was telling me that treatments can advance even if I do have it. She told me how 20 years ago when she first got stage 4 colon cancer, she had almost a non existent chance of surviving, but she did. She said versus now, if someone else got diagnosed, they would have such a better chance of it, so hearing it made me feel better. Thank you. I am hopeful its not progressive, and something else is causing the mottling, but if it is due to RP, then I at least hope it's just unilateral and very slow, because I have 0 night blindness, and I have a fine time with brightness, due to the fact that the location of the pigment is not where most rp pigment placements are.

No. 2187171

>>2187065
Yeah that's what sucks. NTAYRT but I was reminiscing about the same thing earlier… I wish I could return to a place where I was nice. But exactly what you said, it just makes you a doormat for people. People don't see your kindness and go oh, how lovely, a kind person. They walk up to you with their hands out (literally or metaphorically) and dump all of their bullshit on you without any consideration for your feelings. And then they act shocked when you tell them to stop or get angry at them. Being a nice woman doesn't mean anything positive anymore, because freaks and weirdos take advantage of that. I have to learn how to get off on making people miserable or disappointing them.

No. 2187172

The seasonal color stuff is like the kibbe body type to me, just seems needlessly over complicated, I'm fine with just warm, neutral and cool

No. 2187174

>>2187166
What? I’m saying black people have black to brown hair, black to brown eyes, and brown skin, whereas asian people have black to brown hair, black to brown eyes, and medium to pale skin. What are you disagreeing with?

No. 2187178

>>2187172
I think they're both completely psychotic interests that don't make any sense unless you want to believe in them for some reason

No. 2187179

>>2187174
asians can be anywhere from pale to dark brown and cool, neutral, olive, warm and and everything in between. black people are almost always just dark brown and warm. its not comparable.

No. 2187186

>>2187179
Yeah I’m not gonna bother with you

No. 2187194

>>2187179
You’ve got some serious racial blindness if you think all black people suit the same colours. Or that warm/cool/olive only exists for pale ethnicities. Really odd.

No. 2187199

does everybody’s life completely fall apart in every conceivable way when they are in their early twenties or am I just lucky caller #5. let me know in the comments guys

No. 2187212

>>2187199
Yeah no you’re not alone. I’m 22 and in the past couple years both of my childhood cats died, I lost some friends, trouble sticking with a job and so on. Early 20s is where life kinda starts hitting you hard and things start feeling even more real and scary but we’re still young and in this age we’re learning more and more about everything. How the world works, people, finding our place and careers, etc. It probably sucks a ton right now nonna but you’ll find your way. Please give yourself some love and grace to make mistakes and feel things and figure things out.

No. 2187221

My cat didn't wake me up by moewing as usual in the middle of the night, she just peed on my bed with me sleeping in it, I'm going to lose my shit because we're repairing an entire room so I can't use the washing machine and I don't have a spare thick blanket. I'm cold and have to be in a weird posture to avoid touching the cat piss stain, and I woke up 2 hours earlier than I should have as a result.

No. 2187227

>>2187199
Not everybody’s, sometimes it’s not till your 30s or 40s that everything falls apart. But yeah I think everyone on earth tends to go through some sort of “crisis of faith” in their adult life, although some peoples’ are way more extreme than others. It’s fine, you’ll get through it. Or you won’t. That’s life.

No. 2187231

>>2187221
if this is completely out of character your cat may be showing you that it's sick by behaving like this.

>>2187199
mine did at 27, not cool

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>>2187199
Literally everyone I know a period of time in their twenties where life was utterly dogshit. Especially in their early twenties. It's actually pretty normal, since you've basically just been tossed out into the adult world with little to no money, experience, network, direction, etc. The only people I've seen who don't go through this era are rich kids and social media influencers who literally get paid to travel and have fun. You'll escape the trenches eventually.

No. 2187259

I dunno what to call this feeling I’ve been getting, nihlism, apeirophobia, existentialism, or whatever but lately I can’t get my mind off of this feeling that everything is pointless. It’s not even like religion or spirituality gives me any comfort because I still end up applying all these existential questions to those. I can’t stop thinking about shit that your brain can’t even handle like deep space time and just how big numbers are to the point it doesn’t even feel real. Tbh I envy the people who are able to feel like they have some kind of relationship with a Deity, especially a Goddess or something. Would probably do me lots of good if I felt like I could be in contact with some being who could answer all these questions and comfort me but sadly I’m far from believing that at this point

No. 2187261

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i didn't get to tell my best friend goodnight and that i love her tonight, and now i feel so anxious i can't sleep

No. 2187262

>>2187259
Yes, I realized this at 14 and even more than a decade later my life is still as empty and haunting as the day I first had the revelation. Specifically for me it started with the idea of nothing you do in life matters because after you die, you can’t remember any of it (and in fact don’t exist).

No. 2187266

>>2187261
You kind of get used to it, you can just tell your friend in the morning something like
>good morning! Uhg I fell asleep and almost forgot to charge my phone lol
I honestly tend to forget to tell her good night because I'm a mess kek, but as long as your good mornings are almost religious, it should be okay and forgiven.

No. 2187272

>>2187266
the anxiety is more for me, because i like her telling me she loves me back. it's a nice comfort, but i don't get it tonight. i'm sure she's feeling anxious too, though.

No. 2187290

>>2187272
You can also just tell her even if it's already late and she fell asleep, I do that sometimes too.

No. 2187292

As much as I love the ugly man psyop thread I think I have to stop looking at it cause 70% of the time it’s about shitting on moids’ baldness and I’ve been dealing with hair loss since I was a teen so it makes me feel like shit whenever I visit that thread. I know they’re talking about scrotes and it’s all 100% valid and based but it’s just a reminder of how unattractive it is. And it’s even more hurtful when there’s hypothetical situations about bald women to make a point. I know that hair loss in women is so uncommon that most women don’t know about it…I’ll just have stop reading it until my mental health is better and I’m able to compartmentalize this and that.

No. 2187293

>>2187262
AYRT and I’m part of Gen Z so that probably has something to do with it cuz we’re all nihlistic to some extent but I feel like I’m one of the more miserable ones, yeah yeah I’m talking like this special little snowflake but still I think I think about stuff that probably only philosophers and scientists think of, and even then idk how many of them think of it. I’ve seen a few quotes about how no matter how long we manage to live for it’s basically still just an irrelevant speck in the grand scheme of things and honestly I just feel that. Even in the case of religions or whatever it still feels pointless. If something like reincarnation is true, and it’s not some cycle to escape, then by your next life nothing would matter cuz you’d be reset basically. And this would constantly happen no matter what, the only way I could see it working differently is if as a soul or whatever it worked as though it were the same as you (and not some higher version of you like a lot of spiritual people say). If an Abrahamic faith were true then it still wouldn’t matter much because you’re gonna get infinite bliss if you believe in the right God and can do whatever the fuck you want in the meantime. Idk I just feel like when they introduced concepts like the sun burning the Earth and the heat death of the universe then the idea of anything that happens in life mattering completely died. Maybe if we found some way to live forever while not concerning ourselves with the passage of time but also still being able to be upset about stuff that happened in the past while also stopping the Sun/Universe from dying then maybe but until some God-like Super Ai tech comes along I’m not holding my breath

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>>2187290
she's having a power outtage and has no access to her phone. i sent a message, but i know she can't see it. my night feels completely uprooted and i know things aren't better for her

No. 2187330

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"we hope it gets better"

"We're sorry that this is happening to you"

"We hope that you get the help that you need"

No. 2187333

>>2187330
go buy a cow heart and walk into a river with it and let it go

No. 2187342

>>2187292
Nonnie, I just want you to know that a balding woman can never be as ugly as a balding man. Maybe I'm just a lesbian, but when I see a woman with no hair (whether it's from chemo, hair loss, or just cause she shaved it), I think she looks super ethereal, or powerful. Men are just lesser creatures in general. You could be the ugliest woman in the world, but you're still better looking than the average scrote

No. 2187347

>>2187342
i know a horrible woman who is balding and she has a huge egg shaped head and her remaining hairs she’s decided to dye bright orange for some reason so you can really see super good how far back on her forehead her hairline starts and i love to think about her big ole egg head whenever i feel bad about myself

No. 2187349

>>2187293
You found religion, nihilism. It’s like, you know how Catholics read their bibles, you read the news or watch videos. You can even recite nihilism dogma. You’ve got faith the world is ending. You might find Buddhism interesting if you haven’t read about it before; the thought that suffering is innate so you should spend your energy trying to alleviate your own suffering, can be kind of calming.
I feel bad for Gen Z, you guys were raised on hopelessness. It’s going to be hard to shake those kinds of thought patterns when they started during such formative years. I’d say it get better but really you just learn to deal with it and find meaning where you can.

No. 2187381

Im the toxic ass bitch, I crashed all my relationships because of my insanity. I’m immune to therapy. Considering booking a reiki session to get the demons out of my head fr

No. 2187389

>>2187349
AYRT and I’m more agnostic than anything. I’m not a true nihilist or doomer because I do have some hope that maybe I’m just psyching myself out and somehow everything in this existence will matter at least somewhat, it may seem like an unhealthy coping mechanism but idk I guess when all else fails go to denial. A lot of my generation is getting into conspiracies, new age spirituality / new thought movement, returning to religion and stuff (you can see find them on conspiracy and spiritual subreddits a lot of the time) and I see why. I went through a similar crisis about a year ago and it ended around March but it popped back up over the summer. NGL my biggest takeaway from all this was being able to relate to Lana Del Rey and her being absolutely floored by the thought of death as a kid. Buddhism interests me, as all religion does, but the guy who started it being crazily misogynistic kinda ruins ever wanting to follow it for me, I do think the “life’s tough but we may as well try to do stuff to make it better” is a good philosophy and one we’re following currently (through ideas like advancing medical research). Idk I learned what a googolplex was last year and it was all downhill from there in terms of existentialism

No. 2187394

>>2187293
Hi, I'm also another nihilistic-ish zoomer. Sure, in the overall scheme of things at a scale of billions of years or within 1000 years, we're not going to matter. But I personally wouldn't really give a shit about all those billions of years either. My worldview is, the fact that my life has no inherent meaning means that I can make my own meaning that changes as I go through life. It's what I make of it. I'm free. I can create my future selves and cultivat the virtues and strengths I want. Inherent meaninglessness is just the first step of nihilism, it's what you do after that counts. This life is limited but I would never want to do everything ever anyway, and we have 80+ years on our biological clock. In the modern era, many essentials like food and water are trivial. What we want to do is at our fingertips, reach out and take it.
In a less manic-aligned perspective, the previous generations struggled hard to make most of life about convenience. We can pick and choose which conveniences we take to better focus the rest on our few passions.

No. 2187400

>>2187347
I feel like this perfectly describes me kek I’m happy you’re happy

No. 2187402

>>2187394
Seems like you’re into optimistic nihilism. The thing with optimistic nihilism is it’s kinda like religion in that one person can completely accept it and be happy with it and it will absolutely ruin another person’s life and make everything living hell for them

No. 2187405

>>2187381
Girl I was just coming here to post the exact same thing. I’m thinking about leaving my life to live as a pretentious white drug addict hippie in a yoga retreat in Thailand or something myself. Things were going well but I’m officially off the rails now.

No. 2187435

>>2187101
thinking of you nonna and sending you love. you need people in your life who will hold you hand through this and support you. i wasn't sure if the boyfriend you mentioned was rhetorical – do you have close loved ones you can talk to?
women have become mothers with much greater physical and mental challenges and will continue to do so for as long as our species is alive. you can do it, i promise.

No. 2187439

What gives men with ugly voices the confidence to become youtubers? I watch a woman or a nice enough male with a good voice and they collab with esl males with the ugliest voices and I have to listen to that? I'm talking the type that sounds like they're spitting all the time. All males with ugly voices should shut the fuck up forever

No. 2187502

It's not even October yet and it's already so fucking cold, it's just going to be like that and worse for the next 6 months, I hate it, I just want to borrow myself under my bed covers, I have zero energy to do anything.

No. 2187511

I am besides myself how to handle this situation at this point aside from distancing myself from my friend. This is the second time her now fiancée has attempted to make a move on me when we are left alone together. The first time it happened, I tried saying something to her and that resulted in a fight where she accused me of making it up for attention and that it would never happen. Well guess what, it has happened again and he said some disgusting things regarding my body and commented on how it is a shame I am single and stuff like that. I kept firmly telling him no and went off to bed. A group of friends and I were splitting an Airbnb and luckily I had my own separate bedroom so I was able to remove myself from this scenario. At the time, my friend had already gone to bed. The whole thing is disturbing and it bothers me that she trust him, who she has been with for about seven years now, over me where we have been close friends for well over twenty years. I do not know what to do aside from keep my distance which is disturbing because this could likely be him trying to isolate her from her friends.

No. 2187529

>>2187435 Yes, my boyfriend exists, and he knows that it's most likely going to be RP, but he said he will take care of me, which I just feel guilty about. I am thinking of moving into the same building as my sister, but we will be 30-40 minutes away from my mother's place, though there's a train we can take that will take us around there. My main worry about being a mother is passing it on to them, it would just feel incredibly selfish. I would feel immense guilt for taking the possibility of children away from my boyfriend as well. I hope that a cure or treatment might exist by then, because they said most people with RP become legally blind, but depending on what gene it is, it might progress slower. I am hoping it's dominant and not recessive, as it is atypical and asymmetrical. The placement of the pigment is also indicating that it might be sectoral, as I have not dealt with night blindness nor have I dealt with light sensitivity yet. Because I have not dealt with night blindness, and no pigment in my other eye, I am hoping I can at least keep my central vision until I am in elderly age. Only genes can tell.

No. 2187532

I've probably reached anhedonia levels of depression. People keep asking me about my hobbies but there is no energy to do them. Everything has been feeling like nothing or sad. It isn't a chemical imbalance it's that everytime I get my life together something bad happens. Why the hell can't I just have a rich friend take me somewhere for a weekend? Just a decent hotel and a dinner would be so nice. I hate where I live. I hate barely having food to make my bills. All I want is to sleep in all the time because I'm tired. Atleast dreams are free and nice.

No. 2187545

>>2187101
>>2187529
I'm so sorry to hear this nona, I hope the genetic tests turn out the way you would like for them too. You never know how well medical technology will progress so have hope. You're also only 21 so you still have time to consider whether to build a family or not. Genetic counseling might be available if you do have kids.

No. 2187549

>>2187511
Sorry to say that I doubt this will get better until she finds evidence herself or more accusations from other people come out. She's dicknotized.

No. 2187556

>>2187529
Probably worth trying to get familiar with vision-assist technologies like screen readers now. I'd recommend checking out the Wikipedia page for RP if you somehow already haven't, perhaps reading about the ongoing research will give you some peace of mind.

No. 2187557

my dad died and no one seems to care. I told my friends and they didn't even ask how I am doing or offered to distract me, they said it sucks and then continued to talk about their own life. I feel like everyone acts like I am overreacting but it was a big trauma for me and still is. I am not expected people to lick my wounds but I am always there for others and tend to them when they tell me they are down or going through something and this has really opened my eyes that no one gives a shit about me and it makes me sad

No. 2187562

>>2187557
Fuck your friends. I would drop them if i were you. They don't respect you as a person if they do that

No. 2187566

>>2187557
I know I'm a random person on an imageboard, but I do hope you live through your grief okay. Losing a parent (especially a loving one) is probably one of the hardest things a person can live through. I'm so sorry for the pain you're feeling right now.
Your friends seem like they don't have any semblance of compassion or even just any feeling of social convention. Even If one of my group mates from university that I talk to once in a blue moon confessed to me their father died, all concerns would be on them, and I think any other person with a heart would do the same. Suffice it to say, your friends seem awful. I think that kind of attitude would be reason enough to say something like "it feels as if you just don't care about me, so I would rather not be your friend anymore". And it sucks twice as hard when you care about the people you're friends with enough to be there for them.

No. 2187570

>>2187557
Im sorry anon, we care about you

No. 2187571

>>2187511
She’s never going to believe you. Even if she finds evidence of it happening, chances are she will convince herself it’s just a misunderstanding and he would never. I had to go through this myself and when I tried to tell her she spread rumors about me calling me a whore and a liar who’s just jealous of her beautiful relationship kek. Her moid was not only a balding neckbeard at 20 but also extremely misogynistic and vile so I definitely did NOT want him.

No. 2187576

>>2187511
Start secretly recording what he says whenever you are alone with him and then show her

No. 2187608

>>2187557
My friend stopped speaking to me shortly after my step dad died. She sounded put out when I mentioned it and if she'd have to go to the funeral, I said she didn't have to bother because I'd be mostly consoling my mum. She then text a few days after asking how it went and has left me on read for 11 months now.

No. 2187623

>>2187562
>>2187566
>>2187570
thank you guys, really. it's pretty telling when I get more empathy from you than from people who have been in my life for 5+ years. it think moving on, I won't consider them friends any longer, as much as it hurts

>>2187608
i'm sorry for what happened, no words can really do it justice. I understand people deal with loss differently and some don't know how to react to it, but leaving someone on read is actually vile. I think death really shows the true side of people, like my friends, it showed me that they only care when I have time for them to validate them and lift them up, as soon as I was out of commission, they looked elsewhere immediately. good riddance.

No. 2187627

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I want to get to live my life for once. I want to get away from the things that I've been trying to escape my whole life.

No. 2187629

>>2187571
yeah this guy is also definitely not my type. he had asked me out several times before she and he got together and I was relieved when they did but clearly commitment is not on his list of priorities. he is so sleazy in how he handles this approach too, all this “just this once just to see how it feels I promise this will just be our secret” type of talk, it’s really disturbing. he also made fun of me for having a crush on the man that I am into. Overall, her man is dishonest and disrespectful and it upsets me that this is her taste in men. I think avoiding any times where he and I are left alone and also as other nona suggested recording his words secretly if we are is my best course of action.

No. 2187631

>>2187623
I'm sorry for your loss anon. It sucks and it does show people's true sides unfortunately. I guess I'm not as cool as her other friends that use her for her house to do ket and coke in. I had friends like that in my early 20s that were only friends for convenience because I had a house they could smoke weed in. Funny enough when I was between places and no longer able to provide a setting for their drug use I wasn't worth a text. People are cunts. Hopefully your family can support each other, older I get the more I learn family counts more than friends. Or maybe I've just been unfortunate enough to meet too many shallow self serving cunts.

No. 2187638

>>2187545
>>2187556 Thank you very much. I was looking into preparing myself into preparing myself for vision loss. I am already hard of hearing, but I have a hearing implant, though I will just keep in touch with my provider and update them in case there are any issues. I am going to practice at least 1 hour of blindfolding to prepare myself, because I do not want to be completely dependent on someone. I am thinking of trying to contact a local organization/group for blind people to try to figure out how to start.

No. 2187676

Fighting with everything I’ve got just to try to maintain an external appearance of normalcy, which seems to be the highest peak I am capable of achieving, is not the type of existence I want or can maintain.

No. 2187682

My (1) friend stopped talking to me which I anticipated would happen, nice

No. 2187696

I stopped talking to this girl because she was always shitting on my hobbies and appearance but I'm going to a small convention soon where I will definitely see her. What should I do? I think she will confront me

No. 2187698

>>2187696
nothing. the way you describe it makes her sound like a bully, you owe her nothing and it's good you cut her out. i'd ignore her in person or if you want to be nice, just text her saying you ceased the contact because you didn't feel like you were on the same wave length & wish her all the best. if you want to tell her the truth then just say how she made you actually feel, but you have to accept confrontation if you do that, but you also shouldn't let others treat you like shit and get away with it

No. 2187703

>>2187676
Why keep fighting then? Why not just accept that you’re not what you consider “normal” and that’s ok?

No. 2187709

>>2187703
Because I need a job to live and I don’t want to ruin the lives of my family

No. 2187730

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>>2186153
womp womp there it came "it was really nice but I'm still not over my ex I broke up with last year", sure it's better than being someone's rebound but for fucks sake I swear the universe wants me to settle for some random fat balding loser or push me into another abusive relationship and is punishing me for not playing ball

No. 2187774

I hate seeing muslim women wearing hijab.
Obviously muslim women are cool and chill, zero problems with them as people. I know following a religion is very important to some and gives some people so much mental strength (even if those religions themselves are very misogynistic)…
But it is such a dehumanising thing to me. I'm not the biggest fashion girl/hair girl, whatever, but wearing a hijab on your head everyday must feel like you made one of those "You have to do x but you'll have to wear a piece of cloth over your head in public, forever" type deals. Tbh thats just goofy. It's like your personhood is just stripped away a little bit. And it's fucking unreal that it's seen as doing a duty for other people (keeping others less sinful), and not like it gives you some holy superpower by wearing it. It definitely takes away part of your personhood. I want to see muslim women with their hair out, wearing whatever the hell they want.
I fucking hate hijabs. And fuck off if you wanna racebait me.

No. 2187795

I just made a "joke" about expecting every man I admire to have raped at least one woman and the man I was with just shrugged and laughed. I feel homicidal.

No. 2187805

>>2187795
act like you’re cool and get recordings of him telling you everything he knows about everyone he knows over time and then destroy all of their lives.

No. 2187807

i finished Divine Comedy and now the vision of massive Satan using Judas as a pacifier at the center of the earth is keeping me awake at night

No. 2187824

I fucking hate seeing people admit to faking DID in 2020 and talk about how traumatic it was or whatever when the way these people acted and have continued to act have made it so much harder for people who actually have DID to find support for what is a genuinely terrible and sometimes crippling disorder to live with. It's hard to talk about it without people trying to say it doesn't exist and we have fuckers like that to blame, but ofc it was just soooo traumatic on them to realize freddy fazbear wasn't actually in their head. Meanwhile I have massive year long gaps in my memory and have derailed my entire life numerous times due to waking up and deciding I need to stop "pretending" to be something I'm not. Get fucking real bozos, eat cyanide

No. 2187835

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Amazon clothing review sections are so funny. Every time I read a negative review about it not fitting right, I look at what size was ordered and it's like 3X-LARGE. So many negative reviews are from fats. I've noticed it occurring significantly more than non-fats complaining about things like the quality or fabric. Clothing doesn't fit right because you're morbidly obese but yes, it's the shop's fault. Not even gonna start on makeup review photos and the disasters on there.

No. 2187852

>>2187835
keeeek I was thinking about just that earlier today. I was looking at reviews on some t-shirts and the only ones that complained about them not fitting right was the one 3-4XLs, normal-sized women posted pictures wearing them where it was clear the shirt fit just fine in their size.
However, I can also kind of understanding the frustration. I'm really tall so it's not uncommon for clothes to fit poorly on me when they finally arrive, but I'm also aware that the issue lies more in my proportions than the size of the item itself so I wouldn't leave a poor review except to give heads up about the quality.

No. 2187856

I just realized that where I'm at right now is as far as I've thought about my life. When I was little I had all these ideas about what would be good for me, and now that I have it, I'm wondering what kind of goals I should set next. But… I don't actually know what I want out of my life anymore. And I don't know how I could begin to explore that without radically derailing my current life. I got a degree in a career I wanted, and it helped me get a job unrelated to my degree, and I can still do what I went to school for in the meantime. I work from home. I have a circle of close friends. I have an okay relationship with my family. The most obvious motivations are "get out of debt, get a nicer place to live" but other times I think to myself, what's the point? Will I actually ever get out of debt with my wages? Will there be a job that pays more? And then I have limits.. I don't want to move out of state, but that's probably what will change my life the most. Fuck…
I know it'll come to me.. but right now I'm having a quarter life crisis it seems.

No. 2187861

>>2187835
Oh but remember! They're oppressed because they can't find enough clothing options so if you say anything fatphobic you're actually secretly a racist because fatphobia is rooted in racism so if you don't stock every XL size possible, that store is actually a RACIST store!

No. 2187869

>>2187835
rattle rattle

No. 2187870

>>2187852
I'm tallish. I wish they'd have a note on bigger sizes if it's designed to be big because of width vs height.

No. 2187890

I wish I just ignored my parents and picked something creative to study. I have where I'm at right now, since I graduate and even went to grad school (i'm almost done) but I'm so sad when I see other people doing what I want.
I'm trying to think what should I do? I should make a portfolio but idk how. I spent years doing maths and learning theory and repressing any creativity I had in me and now I just can't pretend anymore. Whenever I look at jobs to apply to I just feel regret and miserable. Can I even do the jobs I'm supposed to? I wish I was just allowed to do what I wanted.
I have so much envy in me right now and idk what to do about it. It's always "you can do those silly creative endeavors later" can I? can I though? Will anyone take me seriously? I don't even know what I want I just want to make things. what things? idk I'm too embarrassed to think about it

No. 2187891

>>2187869
Ntayrt but the review was written by a fatty so anon is kinda right

No. 2187903

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I accidentally put my nice italian vintage merino wool jumper into the washing machine and now it has shrunk and has slightly felted.
Tried using the conditioner and lukewarm water strat but the damage has been done. Nevertheless, I will keep at it because it brought me joy.

No. 2187904

>>2187897
> I can't stay single my whole life
Why not? Plenty of women have done that, and many are very happy with their cats, careers, children, hobbies, vocations, etc.
This might sound like an attack, but do you even like dating now? Sounds like you're doing it for the convenience, not the actual dating aspect.

No. 2187905

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>>2187897

No. 2187907

>>2187904
> children
NTA but how do they have children if they were single forever?

No. 2187911

>>2187907
not forever, just became single. Some women choose to adopt children without having partners as well.

No. 2187913

>>2187907
You don't have to date to have sex

No. 2187929

Me not learning how to drive is my weaponized incompetence but god would it cut my travel time down to 30mins. But I fucking know this family and I know I’d officially become the designated driver for EVERYTHING on top of what I already do for these lazy faggots and I don’t know if that’s worth the same value as quick traveltime to & from university.

No. 2187941

>>2187532
Im sorry anon. i know exactly what that feels like and it's a bitch. If you have friends, maybe one can come over to help you cook so at least it's less of pain, idk. Wishing you better days.

No. 2187946

>>2187629
>he had asked me out several times before she and he got together and I was relieved when they did but clearly
Just to make things worse, there is a decent chance he just got with her to stay close to you. Sorry, anon.

No. 2187947

>>2187925
Yeah, I understand. Men are fugly most of the time. And dating is a completely different type of hell, especially nowadays.
This is not my area of expertise, since I'm in a long-term relationship, but what made me feel better about this when i was dating was realising that we were basically fed lies from movies and media, etc. about just how many men are dead gorgeous, chivalrous and have good manners and will actually care about you. The media I consumed made me think there'd be like 10 guys in my life like that, especially when I would grow up, but no, they're all just painfully mid and finding a decent one is like raking cow shit. Oh, and I live in Russia, so the realisation of that was particularly painful for me as you can imagine kek.
I think there will be more single women as time goes on, it's already catching on, so maybe the perception of single women will shift into a positive direction in our lifetimes. I feel the social stigma about outdated things, too, but just know that honestly, being in a relationship, or being a mother, for that matter, sucks a whole lot, too.

No. 2187950

>>2187682
Sorry anon. I hope you make another, better friend soon.

No. 2187957

I saw a meme that was like "I should go back to school" and then bottom text was "just get a library card" And it made me think… yeah I should be doing that. I should just be taking out books I like and taking notes on them. That shit is free. I don't need an additional degree unless I want to switch careers. I wish I wasn't so dense.

No. 2187960

>>2187957
You can also just pirate the fuck out books. Won't even need to leave your house.

No. 2187964

>>2187960
that's true. But lolcor is on my compute

No. 2187968

>>2187870
Oh god that would be great. Sometimes I wish there was a separate sizing system simply for height, since sometimes the other measurements are perfect but it's just too short. Or just so they position the waist a bit lower down to accommodate to taller proportions.
But alas, we live in a world where everything is now made in china and made for shorter proportions, I can't even buy anything in brands/stores that originated in my country without showing my entire ass or look like a fridge because the waist ends up on my ribs.

No. 2187974

I’m going to sound so fucking insane to my therapist today. And even though I’m unreasonably, unnaturally, disturbingly upset about something that shouldn’t even matter to me and doesn’t affect me in any concrete way, I can’t logic myself out of feeling insane levels of mental distress about it to the point of shaking like a chihuahua (currently struggling to type due to shaking) in a combination of rage and grief and horror.
I honestly don’t think she’s going to even know what to do with me, and I might actually be beyond help.
What do you do when you’re beyond help other than kill yourself which is what I’m trying not to do?

No. 2187975

>>2187890
>I'm trying to think what should I do? I should make a portfolio but idk how
It really sucks that you weren't comfortable going to school to study what you wanted, but if you are just graduating from a Masters, you still have time to learn. You can take classes, online or in person, to learn what you need to. You can just start again as a hobby, and then take classes later once you are more comfortable. You can get a job in your major, save up money, and then go back to school to get that creative degree. You can do this. Greive the loss you are feeling right now, take all the time you need, then brush yourself off and take steps toward a new future.

>I don't even know what I want I just want to make things. what things? idk I'm too embarrassed to think about it

Do you really not know? Have no inkling at all? Not origami, or woodworking or crocheting or pottery or soap or stained glass art, or leather wallet or belt, or shoes or papercrafts or 3d puzzles or model cars? Mosaics? Rock painting? Quilts? There has got to be at least one thing that is calling you more than others. Start there.

No. 2187997

>>2187698
Thank you

No. 2188021

I fucking hate what a retard who can't say no I am. I got offered a promotion at work and despite it absolutely not being what I want to do as it's out of my genuine skill range, and also conflicts greatly with my personal life, I ended up saying I'd take it because I didn't know how to decline. Well, kind of. I said I did not want the huge spike in hours but I was willing to do the training so I at least knew how to do it and could do the tasks on certain days or something, but they took that as 100% I'm committed. I can't do this. I don't want this position, I took this job because it worked perfectly for me, but I have no idea how to explain it to my manager and I'm also afraid they'll retaliate and find a reason to fire me. Fuck. I hate being a literal retard who can't do basic things. I'm planning to do the training so I can more properly try to get across "I cannot perform these tasks" more but I know they'll keep pushing me until I break. I know it's my fault for being a pushover. I wish I could go back in time and decline, and it's even more frustrating because I really could use the money

No. 2188029

>>2187957
I think I’ve seen a conversation go exactly like that here before kek

No. 2188058

>>2187774
>Obviously muslim women are cool and chill, zero problems with them as people.
Muslim women are horrible people who are as bad as Muslim men.(racebaiting)

No. 2188060

>>2187957
College classes give a structure though so I get the desire to go back to school. maybe you can look up curriculums to set up a timeline for yourself for whatever you’re studying to make it more college like

No. 2188062

>>2188058
>wearing hijab is as bad as global terrorism

No. 2188064

>>2188062
Mind you those who wear it usually do it out of fear from male relatives or eternal hellfire. but yeah the women are as bas as the men. sure

No. 2188071

>>2188058
>x type of women are as bad as x type of men
Nice joke

No. 2188075

>>2188062
>>2188064
I'd never say muslim women are as bad as muslim men kek wtf, but let's not act like many of them aren't gigantic pickmes who are terrible to their own daughters and other women. Islam is poison for every human it touches

No. 2188076

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>>2188062
Who says Muslim women don't commit terrorism?

No. 2188083

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Just sitting here waiting for the massive redtext

No. 2188089

i hate my uni so much. i’m graduating in may but i feel like i can’t take another week of this shitshow. i only came here bc of a scholarship and i like that i have no debt but i feel like i’m paying with my soul in exchange

No. 2188091

>>2188089
If it makes you feel better the four or so years after uni were the best time of my life. I was a poorfag so I got paid to go. Uni life is severally overrated.

No. 2188095

>>2188091
i really hope that will be the case for me nonna because i really REALLY hate uni and made no friends here. my uni was voted to be one of the most racist colleges in my state (didn’t know before I came here kek) and I very actively face discrimination both from faculty and other students. I haven’t made a single friend aside from a few acquaintances. The campus is ugly and commute is ass too. I keep telling myself I’ll be happier after graduation due to having no debt but with this shitty job market maybe I’m just coping

No. 2188099

>>2188021
Don't even continue with the training. Just lie and tell them your mom got sick or something and you will need to focus on your personal life so you can't accept the promotion. Tell them how much you appreciate the offer and thank them for considering you but you have to focus on your personal life.

Then pick up a few books on how to stop being a people pleaser.

No. 2188108

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i couldnt sleep at all last night because my bed felt hot and i was panicking and scared that nobody will ever love me so i didnt go to classes today and i feel terrible about it
i found some of these old lalaloopsy dolls from when i was a kid in the closet and they make me happy to look at on my shelf

No. 2188109

I hate my life. I'm a NEET with a job

No. 2188112

fuckbuddy cancelled at the last minute and didn't say why. sus.

No. 2188114

>>2188109
so not a neet

No. 2188119

>>2188109
i love my life im a neet with no jobi dont

No. 2188141

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My apartment looks like it was hit by a fucking tornado and I’m sick of living like this but for some reason I can’t just clean it. Or I’ll get like 3 chores done and it looks like I haven’t made a dent. Ugh. I know the only way out is through, but I’m just so fucking tired. At least it’s not full of trash, I just have clutter absolutely everywhere. Wish I could pay someone to do all of this for me

No. 2188143

>>2188141
>Wish I could pay someone to do all of this for me
You can. Look up professional cleaners in your area and some of them should offer decluttering services.

No. 2188148

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>>2188095
I didn't make any friends until my third year. It sucks but it happens. There wasn't many other women in my class. I think it was 5/40 but except 2 they mostly sucked.
>most racist colleges in my state
I'm a white Englishwoman who went to a bong college so I'm not going to pretend I know what discrimination you face. I'm sure it wasn't fun and I hope it gets better.
>The campus is ugly
The buildings I was in were built when the French were doing more protests more than normal. They made all the universities look like ass to clamp down on student protests. Brutalism concrete all they way. Picrel is not my uni but it looks like that.
>I’ll be happier after graduation
You will be, don't sweat it. Once you see that first paycheck it makes a world of difference.

No. 2188153

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anons… what is happening to my precious lolcow? have the newfags officially ruined it?

No. 2188154

>>2188153
>the unpopular opinion thread
its just the dumbass shitters and scrotes nona ignore it

No. 2188156

>>2188153
Makes me sick to my stomach, the state of nonas

No. 2188166

>>2188154
next thing we know we’re going to be banned for talking shit about scrotes.. this shit is going to make me sick we will have no place to talk shit about them
>>2188156
same, i can’t imagine what this website will be like in a year or so. it’s like all of the old posters have left and were being flooded with unchecked 2022 newfaggotry

No. 2188168

>>2188166
I honestly think lolcow might of gotten infiltrated by a moid or two.

No. 2188173

>>2188153
men can’t even form friendships with each other anymore, what makes this retard think they could be friends with a woman

No. 2188176

Genuinely upsetting to get bans you didn’t deserve (multiple at once!) while retarded bait stays up. What is with this lately? I swear the moderation wasn’t this bad before.

No. 2188256

>>2188141
I felt similarly to you but over the summer I decided I needed to change and something that really helped me was setting a timer for anywhere from 15 minutes to an hour and not making a list or really prioritizing anything, but just cleaning. I would tend to get overwhelmed trying to prioritize certain areas and it would lead to me procrastinating but I just adopted the mindset that since I was cleaning every day, I would get to whatever didn’t get done in the time I was cleaning the next day. I always start with putting away things that have a clear place to go and that helped me get over my initial decluttering block. And donate anything you don’t need!! If you don’t use or like it, get it out of your house. Best of luck, I hope any of this helps you. I seriously was a mess for years and just turned it around, and I sympathize a lot.

No. 2188257

It's the end of the fiscal quarter and I have to present to the VPs what I've done and how it benefits this soulless company. I'm so fucking stressed. I don't want to mess this up because if I do it can effect all of my teammates especially the two graduates I'm managing.
I tried to book a rage room to get my stress out but they are booked out for two weeks. I just want 30 mins to smash my anxiety away.

No. 2188286

Why does my breath stink?????????? It wasn't like this a year ago, I used to have normal breath. Now I use mouthwash twice a day and I can still taste something stale in the back of my tongue.

No. 2188289

>>2188286
Use a copper tongue scraper.

No. 2188292

>>2188289
Hmmm, interesting. Think I'm gonna give it a shot.

No. 2188299

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>>2188286
Try to include flossing or if you're lazy like me a water pick. It gets that gunk out that brushing misses.

No. 2188312

>>2188299
Nta but are these messy? I thought about getting once but I don't want to get water all over myself and the sink counter. I guess I could also just use it in the shower

No. 2188313

>>2188286
Maybe you have a tonsil stone.

No. 2188318

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life should have never gone multicellular. evolution was retarded. we should have all just stayed unicellular. even when we all ruin this world and disappear the archea will live on. they are the true rulers of this world

No. 2188321

>>2188286
Certain toothpastes can give you bad breath, try a different one. Use mouthwash without alcohol, then floss, then brush with a soft electric toothbrush and don't rinse. You need to floss every day. Also go get a professional cleaning at the dentist every 6 months.

No. 2188327

>>2188321
Flossing is just a psyop by doctors. Don't fall for it.

No. 2188336

>>2188327
Ok retard. I know your breath stinks and your gums are receding.

No. 2188337

Started a new job and I’m already burnt out. Add that on to sitting exams and I feel like a failure already, because my autistic brain struggles to remember things and perform stuff in a long sequence. Hate that I feel simultaneously the dumbest bitch alive but smarter than a lot of people around me (in a way that makes it hard for us to relate to one another). And my flatmate is an annoying moid who makes me rage but what’s new

No. 2188342

>>2188337
Taking exams while working seems like a lot. I hope you get a chance to take some time for yourself soon, nonna.

No. 2188344

>>2188312
I use it before brushing and it's not that bad like maybe a 100ml to 200ml of water in my mouth. Easy to spit out, not at all messy.

No. 2188389

I wish I had a female friend. I tried the friend finder once and I met a really nice girl and we were getting along so well, then she randomly ghosted me. I felt so ashamed I just removed her and deleted my account. I'm so lonely I just want a friend. I didn't even do anything wrong like trauma dump or sperg about politics I swear. I hate this gay earth.

No. 2188390

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I'm scared that a CT scan may increase cancer risk. Help me I'm a hypochondriac and cancer is my biggest fear… my ENT doctor wanted to make a ct scan of my sinuses because I often get infections and also I have a deviated septum, probably, but I'm scared it may increase cancer risk and sinus cancer (or any head related cancer) is my biggest fear helpoppp

No. 2188395

>>2188390
Don't worry nonny it will be ok, I've had a CT scan before and I made it out unharmed, I just recommend closing your eyes the whole time and not opening them until you're outside of the machine again.

No. 2188400

>>2188389
I once talked to a really nice anon from the FF and ghosted her due to anxiety, so on the off chance it was you I did that to, I'm sorry.

No. 2188401

>>2188390
I had a bunch of them as a child and I'm still alive, don't worry.

No. 2188402

>>2188395
Ok but they say that the levels of radiation are small and safe but if so then why pregnant women can't have ct scans unless absolutely necessary, even head scans? How can the small doses of radiaton t9 the head "travel" that far to the fetus and actually damage it?

No. 2188405

>>2188402
It's because fetuses are weak little gummy bears

No. 2188407

>>2188402
It doesn't "travel to the fetus" per se, the effect of the radiation on the mothers brain can be detrimental to the health and growth of the fetus

No. 2188409

>>2188400
Thank you, anon. Even if you aren't her, it means a lot. If you are her, you are a really lovely person and I wish you the best in life.

No. 2188414

>try to make friends
>girls my age find me a bit weird. conversation feels one sided
>guys seem like they want to get to know me. a friend? yipee!
>time passes- they don't care about my character, are just perverts
>have to be lonely again
>have more in common with older women, find them easier to talk to

wondering if i will seem weird for wanting to hang out with gen x and millenial women when they seem so much more chill…

No. 2188417

>>2188409
Right back at you nona, even if you aren't the anon I talked to ♥

No. 2188462

I hate being so off putting and awkward around my coworkers

No. 2188477

>>2188327
You have hellaaaaa cavities in between your teeth

No. 2188479

>>2188414
Just make friends, you're not going to marry them to get their money.

No. 2188481

I hate that I took the sourdough pill. I was desperate for a hobby and now I have a stinky jar on my stove that I have to keep at a certain temp so I can’t turn my air conditioner on.

No. 2188482

>>2188342
thank you nonnie, I’m praying I pass them but there are so many to sit!! still beats working in admin though

No. 2188485

I hate how the anti-vax people have made lefties fawn over autism instead of just calling them retarded and moving on. And I hate the autism LARPing BPD brigade for making the lefties comfortable in saying "I'D RATHER HAVE AN AUTISTIC KID THAN [insert retarded shit here". Like no, I don't want autistic kids. ESPECIALLY not an autistic son. Fuck. No. I don't want some tard baby who will always only think of itself and throw massive tantrums in public, or god forbid, fucking hurt me or kill me for taking away its game console or something. I don't want a kid that will be put in sped classes with even more unruly, violent children. I don't want my kid to be ostracized and bullied. I don't want my kid to be so disconnected from regular people. More than anything I don't want to be the caretaker of a human being for the rest of my life. I want a kid who will be able to grow up and learn to be independent.
Fuck all these pathetic losers who were never in sped classes trying to romanticize autism. Fuck all of them. I hope their favorite person leaves and blocks their every social.

No. 2188487

>>2187957
It depends on what you're going to school for, some disciplines require feedback others not so much.

No. 2188494

>>2188485
I wouldn’t want a retarded autistic child at all but especially not a son. If I had an autistic son I’m definitely sending him away. Autist moids ALWAYS beat up their moms and other female caretakers. I never hear about the drooling autist girls doing that, it’s certainly not as common.

No. 2188496

>>2188494
They do it too, they just don't have the male tard strength so it isn't as talked about

No. 2188510

>>2188494
I knew a woman at my old work who had a huge hulking autistic son who tried to rape her when he was 15 then trooned out.

No. 2188521

>>2188510
wow you knew chris chan's mom

No. 2188527

>>2188485
>i hope their favorite person leaves and blocks their every social
sorry but this made me kek

No. 2188530

>>2188521
Kek, sadly there are more than just chris chan

No. 2188543

>>2188510
Why didnt she put him in the foster care system

No. 2188545

>>2188510
There’s a mom on TikTok who has a ton of kids but she only posts about her autistic son and the way he grabs her is very odd. He always goes for her neck and now her waist. Idk how old he is, I think he’s only 12. It’s worrisome bc she has young daughters too. I couldn’t love a fat retard son, I know they say it’s a mother’s love and yap yap yap but this one isn’t even cute.

No. 2188582

I was not invited to my cousin's wedding with her settle-scrote.
The only reason why I was excited was that it was getting my narcissist mother out of the house for three nights, a luxury of privacy I NEVER get to have because she is a mentally ill hermit who constantly invades my spaces cause she never goes anywhere or does anything except bitch or watch the misfortunes of others on youtube. However, she ruined it by inviting her tardbrain pig brother to stay here for the wedding and he will NOT be gone all the nights like she will be–typical selfish male bullshit. Which means his morbidly obese ass will plop here during what was supposed to be my precious time alone. He literally oinks and grunts like a pig due to his tourettes, is a close-minded idiot (and doesn't care about me besides being an extension tool for my mother so no chance of decent conversation), and will consume everything in the house because my grandparents spoiled him and let him live with them until he was in his late 50s. He is rude and disgusting and annoying due to all of the above.
I asked her why he cannot stay in a hotel like what she is doing? Of course, the only thing her narcissist ass can do in this situation is start an argument and claim I am a monster.
>HeEeE iSs FaAaaMiLAAaY AnOn StOpp BeIng SoOOoo AwFulL!!
I even offered to pay for his hotel. But no. This fucking stupid bitch who doesn't give a shit how I feel has to pretend being put in a hotel for an out of town wedding is cruel and unusual punishment that will totes hurt this grown ass man's feefees. No, really, she told me no because it would hurt his feelings to not get to eat everything in our pantry and fart onto our upholstery. My plans are ruined, but fuck MY feelings because the only ones that matter are hers and that fucking tub of lard! And it's gotta be HER WAY, she cannot meet me in the fucking middle about this.
She even had the audacity to act like I have alllllll this privacy even though she routinely goes snooping in mynot actually my space as she loves to remind me when she needs to feel in controlroom. Loves harassing me about how dirty and unorganized she thinks I am even though by an objective measure she is being crazy as I am a clean individual. To her credit: Maybe the reason why I commit big cardinal stinky icky boo boo hoarder sin like leaving clean laundry unfolded on my bed (!!!ewwwwwwww!!!) is because I am depressed and exhausted from working so much and knowing nothing I do will matter cause it will never satisfy her anyway. She would not be treating me this way if I had cock and balls btw, instead she would be catering to my every whim like how men in my family are prized and how daughters are slaves who must sacrifice always. Living here is like living in a correctional prison ran by a borderline warden who wants tile grout scrubbed with a toothbrush every day but not before one bleaches and straightens those bristles in between scrubbings. I am not allowed to bring anything into the house and I must leave no trace that I exist here lest I am "ungrateful and I need to respect her space and realize what a burden I bring." All my shit is in storage which I am paying big bucks for being the queen must have everything her way.
Whenever I bring up how my grandparents gave her an entire separate apartment alone when I was a baby after she left my dad and had to move back in with them, and how much privacy that arrangement actually afforded her, so like why can't she understand I want alone time too? She fakes being the biggest victim in the room and claims my grandmother was suddenly some Nazi who wouldn't let her go anywhere or do anything and how she allegedly never got privacy in her literal ivory tower. Well, even if she isn't fucking lying (which she totally is because I have memories of it) that's probably because she had a BABY to take care of! I didn't bring home babies and made that decision on purpose so I could have more freedom. I learned from her scrote mistakes. But because she's so damn unempathetic and selfish and won't listen to me, she larps like she had it more oppressed so she can justify her shitty treatment towards me as better than she supposedly had it living at home.

She is such a miserable crotch and does little to support or boost my life in any way besides offering me a room and making sure she rubs my nose in it every day to praise her like holy mary for it. She's even still trying to pick fights with me about this! Here I am, isolated outside on the porch venting privately to lolcow and she storms out here to jab at me with "Are you STILL mad?!" YES YOU DUMB COW LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE I DID NOT DO ANYTHING TO YOU.
I hate her. If she can't have the decency to die quickly due to her chainsmoking and poor diet, then I cannot wait to dump her in a nursing home where I may or may not feel like replaying the cruel games she did to me. Cannot wait to hear about the indignity of strangers cleaning her privates, or how she is not allowed to smoke inside the nursing home, and cannot bring certain items with her. That era will be my extended holiday. Please may she be as miserable as she tried to make me feel.

No. 2188587

>>2188582
1. how old are you?
2. why were you not invited to the wedding?
3. why do you live with your mother if she is so bad?

No. 2188596

>>2188389
Why don't you try again anon? I'd be your friend and I wouldn't ghost you

No. 2188599

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I just had to let go of my third therapist. I tried so hard to make it work with her for the past few months, but this was really a make-or-break session where I laid it all out on the line and asked for literally any tools to deal with my thoughts and feelings, and she just told me to take a xanax if I couldn't sleep and try to distract myself, and that other than that she couldn't think of "any particular strategies" to help me with my thoughts. So basically, "try to ignore the issue." When what i desperately need help on is tackling the issue and finding new ways to think about things. She just validates my thoughts and listens to me vent and nothing else which is nice yes but i don't think it's helpful in the long run. My previous therapist I dropped after a few weeks for similar reasons, she couldn't think of anything to say to me other than
>"that's hard"
and
>"you're not gonna kill yourself, right? Do I have your address?"

Is this really all there is? why do therapists list all these fancy modalities they're supposedly experts in and then not use them or do anything other than listen and nod and tell you to distract yourself? My insurance doesn't cover any of it and I'm paying out my ass, for nothing.
And on top of this, my issues are very unusual and embarrassing, and it takes so much emotional pain for me to open up and re-explain my problems to each new therapist, only for them to be pretty much useless as anything other than listening in sympathy and telling me "that sucks" (I KNOW THAT ALREADY).
Anons, please tell me that this isn't all there is to the fabled "help" everyone points you to. I am struggling so hard all by myself. Will I be on my own with this until the end?

No. 2188602

sometimes i read about other peoples experiences with trauma and abuse and i just can't relate at all. my peers were the ones to assault me, not my parents, not my siblings. i tell therapists about the events and they're in utter disbelief or interrogate me like it's strange for it to happen under peoples noses. it's so easy to ignore a problem. it's so easy, it doesn't happen, and if it did, it's my fault. sorry i didn't tell everyone in excruciating detail what happened back then. if it's not textbook perfect it didn't happen.

No. 2188605

>>2188587
>30s
>My 'family' pounced on my throat after I went no contact with my mother for a few years after she said I deserved to be SA'd, they hate her too but kiss her ass superficially so she won't drop them from the will
>hospital debt and my loser ex fiance's dad sued me to take everything we shared after I ended the relationship so now I cannot afford to live alone
And that's ok to move back in, cause my mom did the same to my grandparents except she brought a baby with her to boot. And my uncle got to live with my grandparents until his 50s.
I don't have a choice unfortunately, but I also do not feel bad about it given how everyone else in my family gets to conduct themselves.

Forgot to add: And one cousin also moved back in with my aunt and uncle in her 40s. My other cousin is also a loser living off welfare, stealing, and pimping out his kid for sympathy dollars. And the cousin getting married? Would also be forced to move back in or have roommates in her 40s cause she cannot support herself and hence marrying the asshole she left once already because at least she can avoid doing what I had to do until the inevitable divorce. Yep, I ain't sorry.

No. 2188632

>>2188599
>why do therapists list all these fancy modalities they're supposedly experts in and then not use them or do anything other than listen and nod and tell you to distract yourself?

Because they're decades out of clinical practice and know that actually thinking critically about their clients would require work so they convince themselves and you that validating feelings for $150/hr is better than a rando on the internet doing it for free.
Job security. They're the experts dontchaknow?

No. 2188646

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When my ex cheated on me, I told him that he made me want to kill myself and I hoped that scientists named a new STD strain after him. On one hand he’s an asshole but on the other hand I feel embarrassed because I made myself look like a psycho bippie and he’s going around telling people about how I’m his crazy ex

No. 2188648

>>2188605
okay, sounds like an unfortunate situation. are you working to support yourself and move out eventually?

No. 2188653

>>2188646
This is nothing like BPD kek, in fact this was way too kind to him. You should have beat him with a golf club. THAT'S bippie.

No. 2188657

>>2188653
we need a rent-a-bippie service that spineless women can use to hire a golf-club-wielding BPD woman to concuss their cheating boyfriends for them

No. 2188664

>>2188646
Oh no you wished your ex cheating bf would get an std, you're a horrible monster who should be in jail! Really though, if anyone takes offence by what you said they're a huge faggot and you've just been peaked into how male coded and gay society is.

No. 2188676

>>2188632
but how do I find a therapist who isn't checked out and actually cares about helping? And also, how can I regain my strength to explain my complex but embarrassing and upsetting issues again and again when each time admitting it is excruciating? And what are some good signs and bad signs to help me determine what therapist is worth their salt before I'm 5 months and thousands of dollars into it? I'm so tired, I am already struggling just to get by. I wish it wasn't so hard.

No. 2188681

>>2188646
if it makes you feel any better a scrote successfully got a restraining order against me. I am the final boss embarrassing psycho ex.

No. 2188692

>>2188648
Quite frankly anon should bleed the bitch dry until she croaks. That family sounds terrible, and it sounds like anon could support herself if not for financial debt which does not sound altogether her fault.

No. 2188734

>>2188676
>but how do I find a therapist who isn't checked out and actually cares about helping?
Vet them. Ask to talk them on the phone for before you make appt. Most agree do to this, they usually give you 15-20 minutes. Tell them you have issues x, y z and are looking for tools to help with that. Ask them if they have any experience treating people with your issue. And then ask them what has helped these patients the most. Google 'list of questions to ask therapist for issues x,y,z' and make a list of questions to discuss. If you read any self help books and there was something in there that you want to try, bring it up. Im not going to lie, it's not easy or quick to find a good one, but that's the way. Also, don't stay with one too long if it's not working out.

>And also, how can I regain my strength to explain my complex but embarrassing and upsetting issues again and again when each time admitting it is excruciating?

Write it out and read it out when talking to them for the first time or ask to it email it to them before the appt.

>And what are some good signs and bad signs to help me determine what therapist is worth their salt before I'm 5 months and thousands of dollars into it?

Believe it or not, vibe check. If you trust the therapist and like them, feel safe to be vulnerable with them that's a good sign. That's really important. Google 'warning signs of bad therapist' and 'signs of good therapist'. There are a lot of articles out there about things to watch for in good and bad therapists, like this one: https://www.talkspace.com/blog/25-signs-of-a-bad-therapist-you-deserve-better/

>I'm so tired, I am already struggling just to get by. I wish it wasn't so hard.

Same here, anon. After it didn't work with my last therapist, I didn't try again for over a decade, so wanting to try again soon is so good.

No. 2188788

>>2187055
I wasn't expecting anyone to reply. So there are others. Ironically, it does make me feel a little more connected to someone. I hope you find comfort and peace as well.

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No. 2188886

I want to kill myself by hanging but I don't know who should find me/how to plan around it.

No. 2188904

>>2188886
Can you not? Can you try sticking around a little longer? I’ll be thinking of you.

No. 2188914

>>2188886
if you have to plan around it then clearly its not worth it.just buy a sheet of your favorite cake and get to munching. Those suicidal ideations will dissipate i promise

No. 2188920

>>2188886
Why that method? I wouldn't if I were you. I always thought bleeding out sounded more relaxing.
No one swoop in and tell me that's not as easy as it looks, let me have my nice warm bath fantasy.

No. 2188921

>>2188886
one thing that really helped me is just saying "i'll do it tomorrow". procrastinate it, you'll find something in the meantime to keep living for nona

No. 2188925

>>2188886
Please don't kill yourself nonny.

No. 2188932

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weird post but i don't really have any friends to talk about it with, there's something wrong with my brain where i struggle to be intimate with my partner unless we're both getting something out of it
i came home from work tonight & he wanted to do stuff to me, but without doing stuff together i just can't get in the mood and just want to lay there and cry about it. this exact situation has happened multiple times and i guess i'm just rambling about it to get it out somewhere instead of it festering in my head

No. 2188940

I want to be soft and feminine but no one looks out for me and the men in my life are castrated so I have the energy of a battle tank

No. 2188942

i just saw how some vtuber broke the record to twitch subs or something, so i calculated and it came out to be damn near 2 million dollars. i should've became a streamer instead of going to college

No. 2188943

>>2188942
It's not too late if you enjoy sitting on your ass in front of the computer all day and degrading yourself

No. 2188944

I'm too broken to love anyone without hurting them, I just can't bring myself to care about others, empathy doesn't move me to action.

No. 2188946

how come domestic violence victims can seek treatment for long term abuse but if i say i went through long term abuse from (insert group of people) then therapists become utterly fucking clueless? this industry is a scam

No. 2188953

“hey why don’t you do that thing you said you were going to do before you go out” “omg I’ll do it when I get back I’ll only be a little bit why can you never just give me the benefit of the doubt” 5 hours later he’s still out and the task is obviously not getting done tonight and this is why I don’t give you the benefit of the doubt you absolute loser. Why are dudes so fucking stupid.

No. 2188960

I’m actually the dumbest bitch in the world for deciding to remain pregnant

No. 2188964

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i swear to god, every time i find a supposedly female indie game dev it turns out to be a troon. my suspicions are always right. it makes me so sad. why is the indie game scene infested with troons? theyre like cockroaches.

i want to make games, and itd be fun to assemble a female-only development team (mostly because i dont wanna work with scrotes, CS moids are always horrible) but i know id just attract troons.

No. 2188969

>>2188964
i feel this so so much!! i've been doing indie dev for years and there's barely any women to talk to in the scene, it gets so lonely at times that it puts me off making anything (i've been sat here for hours with unity open & haven't done anything yet lmao)

No. 2188972

I want to hit a vape pen so bad like fuck FUCK fuck like SO bad. I am down bad for some vape. oh nooo

No. 2188976

>>2188964
>>2188969
sometimes i have to pretend to be a moid to talk in gamedev communities because if you say you're a girl they'll just mock you for dumb shit like using a premade engine (women are too stupid to write their own engines in c as an example) or you'll get the troon devs sliding into your dms with diaper pics (real story)
it's already such isolating work to stare at a computer for hours, doesn't help at all

No. 2188978

>>2188964
Cuz troons made it their life mission to infiltrate media and engineer society to be attracted to them and propagate the erasure of femininity under the guise of inclusion and equality. And women saw cool female characters growing up that they liked so they didn't feel the need to overthrow anything because Lara Croft and Ivy Valentine were fucking awesome

No. 2188982

>>2188976
> they'll just mock you for dumb shit like using a premade engine
meanwhile moids will bully other moids for wasting time building their own engine instead of actually coding a game kek

No. 2188985

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>>2188969
>it gets so lonely at times that it puts me off making anything
that's bleak, but you have to do it for the few based women in gamedev out there. i believe in you nona… and if you dont mind me asking, what kind of games do you make? have you ever released anything? i know there were some anons here talking about forming an indie game team, and i briefly considered emailing the nona setting up everything, but ive only just gotten into gamedev and id probably be completely useless. i wonder if anything ever came out of it though. i hope so!

>>2188976
jfc. horrifying. another sign for me to stay away from gamedev communities

ignore how i had to delete and repost this kek

No. 2188988

>>2188976
right!! i'm lucky to have an androgynous name at times like that but they're either so fucking condesending or try to baby you like you know nothing augh
im so sorry you have to deal with those dms though nona, just know that they'll get what's coming to them in the end

>>2188985
thank you nona!! i've made a few small itch.io games for jams and whatnot, i like making survival horror-adjacent things (cliche i know) but now i really want to make something worthwhile that i can properly publish and be like hey! i made this!
>id probably be completely useless
not at all nona, everyone starts out somewhere & the scene always needs new brains (esp female ones)!! are you working on anything atm?

No. 2188990

>>2188988
samefag but i wonder if we could setup a thread in /ot/ for dev at some point & chuck what we're working on in there? discord could be cute too but i work in the dev field so i'd have to make a new acct etc etc

No. 2188991

>>2188976
That’s the dumbest shit I’ve ever heard, most games that come out now use Unity or unreal and those games still have teams behind them.

No. 2188992

>>2188991
i think it's their male mindset of "haha you didn't build your whole project from the literal ground up you're not a real dev" which is. incredibly dumb

No. 2188996

>>2188985
it's just fangames for my enjoyment, i saw nobody else making what i liked
imo after working on teams with actually useless people even the drive to do something is better than nothing at all. i'm sure there'll be a team that will accept you
>>2188990
there's one buried in /m/ iirc

No. 2189003

>>2188988
>are you working on anything atm
…no, im hoping i can churn something out this year tho. id like to make weird experimental horror games, a la yames. hes(?) a big inspiration, i love how weird his stuff gets.
and you're right, i shouldnt undersell myself, but i still feel like i have to work on my skills a bit more before i collab with others.

>>2188990
i think theres already a gamedev thread somewhere but no one uses it, rip

No. 2189005

>>2189003
hell yeah! it's been cool to see games like mouthwashing get big recognition recently, the whole time while playing that i was thinking about how much i wanted to make something like it lmao
you've got this though nona! truck through & make the best damn experimental game you can

>>2189004

i'm so sorry to hear about your family and your shitty situation anon, are there any rules in place that can protect you & allow you time off at all? (but also fuck them, i'm glad you're in a position that you're able to leave soon)

No. 2189022

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There’s a cute moid in my program that I took an interest in but he’s been acting like a retard so I have to give up. It was very obvious he was into me/wanted to approach me but too nervous which isn’t inherently a dealbreaker but there’s another girl who is clinging on to him and he’d rather entertain her laughing like an idiot than actually speak to me. He and his friends sat directly behind me yesterday and I could hear them talking about me and how he had wanted to talk to me but was too chicken shit to do it and that he was just going to hang out with this other girl instead. This is so childish and embarrassing. I didn’t approach him because I couldn’t read his interest on this girl and didn’t want to get involved if he was already into her but now it’s pretty clear she’s a dumb pick me who force giggles at everything he says and he likes the attention. She’s annoying and he sees her as the second option yet still chooses to lead her on which is embarrassing scrote behavior. I guess it’s better learning this now rather than three months in to talking.

No. 2189024

>>2188992
it's them grasping at any straws to make fun of a woman, basically nobody builds their own engines anymore, especially as an indie dev

No. 2189039

>>2189022
If you really wanted him, even though he does sound beta and shitty, you could approach him and then be pushy later into the convo with like,
>"Hey, are you and (miss giggles) dating?" "Oh, you aren't? Huh… sorry, she's just always tailing behind you like a sick puppy, as though she's your girlfriend. It's kind of offputting. Would you like to go out with me sometime?"
Men really often are just too autistic and need it spelled out for them, that's also how they're so easily manipulated. If he defends her at all, just drop your interest completely. You don't have much to lose in this case.
That said, it's with your discretion if he is even worth it.

No. 2189043

I want friends but irls are conservative muslims and online it's so hard to find ppl that will not make a callout post for not replying for a day. I'm not exactly willing to do all the work to make a new social media account and build a presence either. Everything I have is zero followers + private now. Ugh

No. 2189055

I told my boyfriend what my doctor told me today. That I'm completely med free after slowly going off them but they said I still need to remain stress free, espicially with my new job that's starting tomorrow. I told him this morning I'm already nervous and I really need him.

Tonight, he was screaming because his playstation account was temp suspended due to a missed payment… easy fix right? I just nervously laugh because his reaction is over the top and he screams at me to stop laughing. Then he dumps all his issues on me. Like he ALWAYS does this. Like I can't have any issues or stress, his always has to come first. Now I can't sleep and I can feel my heart beating outta my chest. I feel so damn alone right now and I'm trying to relax. Now I'm here ranting playing love and deep space.
I wish I wasn't here

No. 2189060

Men are absolute fucking weirdos. I'll never date another one again. That pedo fuck scarred me way too bad. Oh well. At least I realize I exclusively love women.

No. 2189064

I felt such a visceral response of disgust when I saw pedo scrote talk about what games he played…. fucking disgusting

No. 2189065

>>2189064
What I hate about most of these pedos is they'll say "It's just media! It's not like I really want to fuck kids!"
But then they get outted for grooming kids on discord or snapchat.

No. 2189072

>>2189065
He didn't really like loli back when I knew him. He was more into mature body types of anime women. It just goes to show you grooming pedo scrotes can be into anything. Pedos don't discriminate when it comes to their taste.

No. 2189086

I absolutely hate discord servers where you HAVE to show your ID and photo. I don't care if I can cross out my name. I still feel like it's fucked up

No. 2189092

>>2189086
It kinda makes sense. But yeah it's very privacy-invading. What server is this for if I may ask?

No. 2189114

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I'm never going to have anything for myself

No. 2189118

>>2188976
>>2188969
>>2188964
wasn't someone trying to assemble an all female gamedev group here not too long ago? it might be worth looking into

No. 2189129

>>2189022
Sorry Anon, but that’s on you. Men are retarded and I never understood this common belief that’s the man that has to take the first step.
If you thought he’s cute and he’s into you you should have made the first step instead of being just as retarded as he is.
Miss Giggles might be a pick me but at least she’s capable of taking the steps necessary to get what she wants.

No. 2189179

>>2189129
Women have to do literally ALL of the work in relationships nowadays, the first test that a moid can even hold his weight is if he’s willing to initiate. Being too eager and willing in the beginning makes moids lose respect and attraction for you. He may like it now but he’ll be embarrassed by how over the top it is soon enough. I’m over it since he’s being dumb but all these other moids were able to approach the women in the program and he just goes with whatever’s easiest.

No. 2189189

Had intense period pain in the middle of last night so I resolved to take today off of work. I texted my boss, but ofc she didn't see it because it was the middle of the night and my shift started at 7 AM, and it seems like she wasnt even the one in charge today. Was so fatigued and uncomfortable that I slept past my alarm trying to remind me to call into work because I just couldn't remember.
Now I got a call from work and they tried to be nice about it but technically I should've been in trouble per company policy because not only did I not inform them but my symptoms aren't covered under the sickness policy, so it would've been my responsibility to find coverage. Which was impossible at 2 in the morning… I feel so awful for being in this situation. What am I supposed to do if I'm in unexpected single-minded pain in the middle of the night but it doesn't count as an illness because it's not a contagious disease… it's not the fault of anyone I work with but the policy was probably set by some higher up corporate guy I'll never meet

No. 2189192

>>2189129
When I think about it every boyfriend I've had I made the first move to let him know yeah I'm up for this lol

No. 2189204

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>Barely functional alcoholic
>Sober for a week now. It's not much but it's the longest I've gone since Covid
>Go to grocery store
>"Not getting the usual?"
I think she was trying to be jokingly friendly. I know I'm going to always be seen as this worthless alco neet in this small ass town. I'd like to get spiteful and turn it into motivation but I don't think she was being mean spirited. I'm going to have a mini cry and look at weird shit to unfuck myself out of this spiral.

No. 2189213

>dumps my boyfriend
>regret it two seconds later and try to take it back
>takes me back after telling me all the things he hates about me in detail
>cry into his arms for 2 hours
why am I like this

No. 2189214


No. 2189217

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I hate manosphere and pick-me content creators making 25+ yr old women seem like they're as unwanted as incel moids. Im 30 right now and i still pull about the same as I did when I was in my early 20s. And I love cats so much so I hate when they make older women + cats out to be such a negative thing. I can't be single with cats and just be left the fuck alone? It's such a retarded thing to shame women for. It's so angering. They make videos about hagmaxxing or whatever terminally online bullshit they come up with and older women having dwindling chances while they live a life directly contradicting that. I can just walk outside and understand that none of this is really true. But I guess it's still doing what they want it to do. It's scaring me into wanting to settle before I officially become this character of a broken, lonely old woman with cats they came up with.

No. 2189220

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>random user gives bad advice on Reddit
>I make a comment saying I'm an actual expert in the topic and politely explain why he is wrong and what OP should do instead
>"Well then OP, since we are giving contradicting info I guess you should ask someone who knows better than us"
>mfw
How can plebbitfags be so prideful despite being so retarded? The Dunning-Kruger effect is real. If this happened to me, I'd admit I was wrong and probably even thank the user for correcting me.

No. 2189225

>>2189179
I never understood the games you people play. That’s exactly the reason you’re stuck with childish moids. I always made the first move with no plays and most men ended up obsessed, if they can’t keep up or are too emotionally stunted I just dump them and move onto the next cute moid I might like.

No. 2189232

>>2189220
The upvote system just breeds egotism. If you go even slightly against the current you get downvotes even with evidence. My countries sub is a misery hole because of it.
+1 UpCows for your post

No. 2189238

>>2189225
Men like to chase. It turns the average man off to be pursued and makes him perceive you as less desirable. That's why female proposing is cringe

No. 2189243

>>2189225
the way you think any of what you said is a good thing, kek

No. 2189246

>>2189022
The girl might be his gf or a girl he has been flirting with before he saw you. It doesn't even seem like he's your friend or knows you well so it wouldn't make sense for him to cut out his flirt for a random person, no?

No. 2189257

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It pisses me off that men aren't pressured to be pretty for women. In fact, ugly moids bully attractive and/or hygienic moids for putting in any effort. There are so many beautiful women in the world, and so many ugly moids, and the former is just expected to settle with the latter. I hate it.

No. 2189258

>>2189246
We’re all brand new here from different countries so we’re all randos to each other. We’re not even a month into the program. I’m not expecting a proposal but he’s had several chances to talk to me but just gets awkward and shuts me out. He had chances to sit next to me, make small talk etc. but didn’t take them. I had one of the last open seats next to me and he made his friend sit there instead because he was too nervous. Very very dumb shit. Maybe we’re not a good fit in the long run but the fact he can’t even say hi to a girl he’s interested in is annoying.

No. 2189260

>>2189238
>>2189243
nta but you're retarded, keep sipping that koolaid and stay alone in your mothers basement lil sis. i'll give you a protip: you aren't as mentally fortified as you think you are if the thought of having a backbone and making a move makes you shit your pants.

No. 2189265

>>2189260
I won't put myself in the position of a man disrupting the normal courtship pattern and confusing his instincts to get worse treatment. I know how to act

No. 2189267

>>2189265
the normal courtship pattern? okay i get it. you think not putting in any effort and then laying like a limp fish during sex is the normal courtship pattern. its just funny how people like you are all about distrupting traditional gender roles until the gender role has something to do with you being lazy and spineless.

No. 2189272

>>2189267
Stop projecting your low self esteem onto me like I give a shit if a man thinks I'm lazy

No. 2189274

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No. 2189281

>>2189272
like i said, pretending to "not care" isn't the same as having a backbone. if i can walk all over you this easily what stops a man from doing so? you think courtship rituals will save you ROFL bfr
>>2189274
shut up

No. 2189296

>>2189281
You are playing checkers I am playing chess. Go read the cool girl speech or something

No. 2189298

>>2189267
>uses the term dead fish
Mad because every girlfriend you've ever had has had to disassociate during sex with you, aren't you?

No. 2189302

>>2189296
loser. go cry over your ugly nigel that got away.

No. 2189307

>>2189265
literally like i’ve never seen a woman who asked a man out who ended up not being the man the entire relationship. like he wasn’t into you before and you’ve thrown yourself at him and proved you’re more desperate for sex and companionship than he is. this anon probably split the bill for all her dates, and had to plan them herself if she got to go on any lol. like imagine asking a man out and picking him up and paying for his dinner i can’t.

No. 2189308

>>2189307
>like he wasn’t into you before
But that's wrong, not every man hits on women he has a crush on.

No. 2189312

>>2189265
girl i was saying ask out on a date, they’re not even flirting with you at all???

No. 2189315

>>2189307
making the first move ie not being a little bitch and actually talking and having interest, in order for him to feel more comfortable and sack up himself, isn't the same as paying for him haha. the problem with these terminally alone women is they don't even want to exert the bare minimum of showing interest.

No. 2189317

>>2189217
I was never considered a dating option whether at 20 or 30, so at least I didn't feel any different as I got older.

No. 2189320

>>2189315
it’s dependent on the situation but i don’t entirely disagree with that statement. if it’s on an app which is already giving people the wrong idea so i just would never try that, i don’t think women should be messaging the guy. even just for the fact it’s stroking his ego and giving him the upper hand from the beginning. and i don’t think women should flat out be like i’m interested or even compliment their appearance first. i’ve let every guy message me first ask me to be his gf go on a date etc. but like if we are all at a party or somewhere social, where i’ve met all my partners, then yeah obviously if he walks up to my group of friends especially if he’s cute i’ll just naturally laugh at his jokes and respond more warmly to the one i think is best. i don’t ignore people or act coldly but i don’t treat anyone like that. i think i’m just like average pretty and short and it makes me approachable so i’ve never had to like. try or search for someone. they’ve either been interested or not. i don’t think it says good things that a guy wouldn’t like pursue continuing to keep in contact with me or walk up to me himself. i don’t want a relationship with someone who doesn’t take initiative it scares me to imagine how submissive someone like that is sexually.

No. 2189323

Why is my immune system so shit I used to never get sick and now I get a fever like every 3 months what the fuck

No. 2189330

>>2189307
Anons are coping and giving you shit for this opinion, but this has been my exact experience with the last two scrotes I dated (one for almost 5 years, the other only for a couple months before I broke it off because he let me do everything). Show too much initiative early on - like asking them out, planning dates, starting the "what are we" conversation - and they get lazy and expect you to do everything forever.
My first boyfriend was insane kek, but he was the only one who actually made me feel wanted by planning dates for us, and asking me to be his girlfriend right away because he didn't want me dating anyone else. I think a big reason for it is because back then I was a lot less assertive and let him take the lead in the beginning.
Lesson learned though, from now on I'll let the scrote do everything until we are in a committed relationship. After that I don't mind it being more 50/50.

No. 2189341

>>2189330
literally like i once saw this guy for a while who asked me out by pretending i had dropped a receipt and it had his number on it. it was like a cowardly way to ask me out and he only ever took me on 2-4 dates depending on what you’re counting and then moved on to just expecting me to be fine being taken to his house every time to try to hook up with me. i’m not giving men like that chances because they should honestly be putting more effort into wooing me.

maybe it’s different for women who don’t want kids but to me, he should know if he’s serious about me that he is auditioning and proving he can support and take care of me physically and emotionally because if i’m having a child, that is me sacrificing everything for a time including my body to basically fulfill everything else that i’m not already providing him that he wants in life while he does nothing but enjoy the process. men should realize that if they want their bloodline to continue they are indebted to the woman providing that. i’ll be treated well and shown that i will be provided for when i literally wont be able to because of him eventually or why should i risk even sleeping with him? i doubt i’ll be entirely financially dependent but i need to know there will be zero resentment when i can’t bring in income and i won’t be rushed back into work. it’s literally a safety thing. a roof needs to stay above my head and i need to be able to get enough sleep, proper nutrition to have a healthy baby and be a good mother who doesn’t develop PPD. a man who won’t take emotional risks, show his affection for me or show he can buy me a fucking meal is not worth risking my life over.

No. 2189342

>>2189330
>>2189341
this literally has nothing to do with what the original conversation was about but yes you should not date men that aren't emotionally vulnerable, or rather emotionally vulnerable enough for you to feel comfortable.

No. 2189343

The Come Along with Me episode of Adventure Time was such a cop out. Why would Bubblegum feel guilt over her uncle being hoisted by his own petard when he was trying to lobotomize her? Total character assassination. I can't believe cartoon network gave them only like five episode to wrap up an entire show, when previously they had promised them an entire season to wrap it up.

No. 2189345

>>2189342
Nta but I'm not emotionally vulnerable either (I hate doing that), should I refrain from dating?

No. 2189346

>>2189342
What? I didn't say anything about emotional vulnerability, I said moids get lazy if you take the lead when you first start dating. The first part of the other nona's post is also about that.

>>2189345
Yes, actually. Unless you want to be in an unhealthy relationship that is doomed to fail. Always work on yourself before you start dating

No. 2189348

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>>2189189
and I accidentally told a lower manager that our higher manager approved me to take the day off because I was so delirious and confused from the fatigue and pain. tried to correct my mistake when I realized but apparently it still got back to her and now I look like a liar because I don't count as sick even though I was genuinely suffering. Kind of feel like quitting forever and returning to being a neet

No. 2189358

Like a lot of people, i grew up on tumblr and was a very active user up until about six years ago, then was active intermittently from then until last year (would remake and delete every so often because i was tired of it but have no female irl friends anymore and that was the only way my online ones and i would talk. But now its been so long i dont remain in contact with any of them. I digress.). Every so often I like to check on old mutuals, and it turns out that one of my old friends (as did about four other male friends ive found) trooned out, this one in particular being sorta well-known on tumblr due to his surrealist art and experiental music he makes, and did make/post back in the day too. Its fucking insane to see him as a "woman" its straight uncanny valley, and it seems he surrounds himself with other tumblr trannies and "cool girl" tumblr handmaidens. Depressing as fuck to see an autistic male who wasnt coombrained before but just really into music and music gear and silly art, get swept up in the "im not like other men/straight men are the worst group so i cant be that/im woman now" propaganda. UGHHHHHHH!!!!!!! he dresses in cool clothes too but it looks so fucking retarded on him. Heavy sigh

No. 2189378

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it’s painful being reminded of the multiple possibilities of many people’s lives… nothing will ever make me not feel like this planet is truly a harvesting farm which main product is people’s suffering. so many things that could’ve prevented my mother’s suffering, my sister’s suffering, my suffering.. people in their lives that failed them. men will never know what this shit is like, seeing women being completely failed and perpetuating that failure to their daughters. i want my mother to know what true happiness is, i wish I could go back into time and stop all of this from happening, so she can get the life she deserves, i would do anything just to stop it. i really don’t care if i wouldn’t exist, every woman’s happiness is traded when she has a family, her hopes and dreams detoriate and as a daughter you have to watch that as a possibility of your own future while you’re dealing with scrote relatives who are completely selfish and borderline sociopathic in nature. i just want to turn time back for real..

No. 2189380

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Learning the moid coomer art style so I can rip off moids is crushing my soul..maybe I'll just become a yume artist.. I'm not attracted to moids but atleast I can draw pretty women that way… but yumes rarely ever fork up hundreds over commissions

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>>2189378
samefag but I lost my tarot plug about two weeks ago, she used to post on here but now she isn’t anymore. it makes me depressed as fuck and i like reading her emails with the tarot answers. i mean she could’ve been lying about it just so she didn’t have to do it for me anymore but if it is true i miss her and hope she’s doing well

No. 2189390

>>2189380
I'm getting the feeling you'll flop and burn out. Yumes pay out the ass to get even a shitty drawing of themselves next to their husbando and female pin-ups will always make money regardless of style, an interesting one could even be a selling point.

No. 2189413

People keep saying men are the more visual sex as some kind of explanation why women are the ones who make a lot of effort to look good "for men". But it doesn't add up?
Women on average are the ones who care about fashion and makeup while men can't even tell a woman has a new haircut or new lipstick shade on. Women on average are the ones who want things to look clean while men tend to not care if it's a mess, they don't care what an item looks like as long as it's functional while women are the ones who like fun designs. Things directed at men come in natural dark and dull colors. Things directed at women are colorful, fun, have patterns and creativity behind them.
If an item isn't marketed towards women, there likely isn't even that much design variation for it as men don't care.

I really don't get why I keep running into the saying that men are the visual ones, it's clearly just not true even when it comes to how their target of attraction aka women look.

No. 2189416

I live a boring life and I need to change it. But first I'm going to eat ramen for the 10,000th time and play number matching games for my entire 8 hour shift and then log out, log into my personal computer, and eat ramen and play number matching games and maybe get high

No. 2189445

I feel like the anons who are saying that moids should always ask you out first and all that jazz never had any problems dating and getting decently attractive men to like them, but unfortunately that's not the case for all of us, especially those who are not very feminine. I tend to be invisible socially and I've been told I scare guys aways for various reasons, so I have to be the forward one if I want shit happening to me once in my life. The fact that I don't want to settle down helps though, if the guy is too passive I'll have no issue throwing him out.

No. 2189455

>>2189413
it's just an excuse for men so they can watch porn "men are visual honey, now bring me my tissue box"

No. 2189456

>>2189455
one of the funniest things about this imageboard is how much some of the women here want to pretend other women aren't pornsick, let alone ones that spend a ton of time on the internet since a young age. but statistics don't lie, and they show that it's almost a 60/40 split between men and women going on large porn sites like pornhub. if anything, women are just as visual as men.

No. 2189459

>>2189456
>pornhub
While statistics don't lie and yeah sure, plenty of women look at porn, pornhub seems the type of site where most of the "women" are men that pressed the button marking female when creating an account.

No. 2189464

It’s October 1st nonnies the trees are half green half red and

No. 2189467

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>>2189464
And what anon..and WHAT!?

No. 2189468

>>2189445
i think we may have talked today and another time recently. i don’t think you’re invisible socially. i think that you’re maybe not consistently in a place where you can be approached and look like you can be approached. and honestly if you are giving in and making the first move, you’re not giving it enough time maybe for things to change. if people always know you as one way for example. i’m like the type of person who talks to people in lines for example so the opportunity with me is always there plus going to places where people drink. but in high school men really wanted to talk advantage of me but not commit to me and because i kept refusing to like. demand commitment out of pride but also wouldn’t sleep with them or give them the time of day, things were very muddied. when i started making it clear i’m actually the type of girl who needs dates and i still hadn’t given it up, people took me more seriously and approached me more formally vs befriending me and making physical moves but not emotional moves on me. i also think literally all women can be beautiful, give her a bath and some proper styling and i think anyone could be pretty.

No. 2189469

>>2189456
I think literotica is more popular with women though, so maybe not as visual idk

No. 2189483

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I'm in so much mental and physical pain. I just wish that I had someone.

I don't want to be alone anymore

No. 2189494

>Ok brain I'm meeting my friend's BF for the first time and we have to nail this.
>Brain here, no worries I have lots of witty and funny conversation topics to talk about so you don't look like a mess.
>Meet friend's BF and he mentions he's a civil engineer.
>Brain here, you watched a youtube video about cranes the other day.
>Proceed to word vomit my way on how it's cool that cranes can construct themselves despite having no real knowledge about the subject.
Ughh I hate this. I should learn about football or something. Dropping "can't believe Man City last weekend" is a lot easier to small talk with.
Anyway crane video is linked. I thought it was neat.

No. 2189501

>>2189467
She was kidnapped by candleja

No. 2189504

>>2188932
sounds like you're annoyed by a guy using you sexually when you don't enjoy it, and that's probably the most normal feeling ever! have you brought it up to him? suggesting foreplay or even making a night where you both get into it might be a good option, because idk why men expect us to be in the mood when we're tired and mentally drained from work/chores/life in general

No. 2189514

>>2189468
>i don’t think you’re invisible socially
Uh, yes I am? You are not in my life so you have no idea how things are going on, I'm just tired of people in general gaslighting me about this subject, I'm obviously aware that I don't get noticed and approached compared to my female peers, saying "no you're not" doesn't change anything.

No. 2189539

>>2189459
I don't really buy it. I don't believe any kind of stats from pornhub, they're bound to be infested with billions of bots to begin with (as anything even remotely related to porn always is) and it's in pornsites interest to make themselves look big and powerful, and to normalize porn so they get even more views and money. These are sites that are fully fine with posting actual rape and violence against women and children, they already have shit morals so there's no reason to trust anything they try to claim. And it's a fact that troons are more likely to be porn obsessed and would claim to be women too. So they'd be fucking up the stats too.

I've known plenty of women who are pornsick fujos obsessed with yaoi/gay mlm content. A few with hentai. To the point that they barely talk about anything else and that is their main hobby and they're fully open with it in private spaces with other women. I've still never met a woman who is that level of obsessed with "real" porn like on pornhub. I've known one who watched gay porn because of yaoi, but she still preferred her fantasy yaoi content over it.

No. 2189554

Fuckkkk my wired earphones aren't working and the music keeps stopping

No. 2189584

>>2189539
I think a lot of women think masturbating over real people is a bit too rude/gross, or they don't like how fake and unemotional real porn is.
Kind of interested in seeing a statistic on that ngl.

No. 2189605

>>2189483
another person won't help. we are all alone.

No. 2189612

>>2189584
Wtf? Do women actually think like that? I'm not even autistic and I've masturbated to selfies before and never thought it was weird. Damn some of you are very boring and moralfaggy

No. 2189613

I hate myself so much. I hate the way I look. I hate that I'm always the only one to put in the work in all my relationships, or end up alone. I hate how I get shit when I get too burnt out to put in all the work. I hate that I am so inadequate. I should just give up, stop attempting dating and stop trying to have a social life because I just end up hurt.

No. 2189632

>>2189514
so are you maybe seeing that you are the kind of person to snap at people being nice to you and maybe that’s part of the problem? like that was a thoughtful detailed response trying to help you and you just seem like you want to be in this position?

No. 2189637

>>2189612
lol i don’t think it’s creepy at all. especially if you love your partner so much you can orgasm from just thinking of their face like that’s actually ideal.

No. 2189714

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I feel broken, juvenile, and so incredibly lonely. Why do people magnetize together like paired magnets that cross each other’s path, but I never feel that same pull? Other people go through life finding themselves attracted to people around them. That has never happened for me. One or two vague crushes in school in the distant past, but no intense feelings. A couple of years ago I found an odd looking famous person that I became really attracted to. But I still feel no attraction for anyone around me. No one I see online. No one on TV. No one. All the while now I have a newly awakened a desire for touch and romance and sex I never had before, but nowhere to put that energy and nothing to fulfill those desires. It’s given me a strange instinct to dress sharper, do my hair properly, lose the bit of fat off my previous skinnyfat self, but after all this I look in the mirror and wonder, ”who am I even trying to look good for? Why am I feeling compelled to do this?.”
I’m so touch-starved that I sometimes lay in bed and cry. I don’t understand why I’m so different from everybody else. When I think about the fact that if I’ve never felt that way about anyone in real life and I’m already in the second half of my twenties, it makes me think that it’s likely I will never feel that pull towards anyone. I’ll never have someone to give my affection and lust to. I will spend my nights without anyone by my side for the rest of my life. I can’t cope with this thought and I desperately want it not to be true, but I think I’m kidding myself.

No. 2189749

>>2189714
I'm in the same boat, the only thing I can chalk it up to is being an autist personally. I've made my peace with it by fully embracing the husbandofag lifestyle—at least that way I have "someone" to give my love to while I ponder what went wrong with my existence kek

No. 2189767

Why am I depressed again this is shit. Like a snake eating its tail I'm supposed to do things to feel good but I don't feel good enough to do things, then it really boils down that I'm lazy and privileged

No. 2189790

>>2189632
I'm sorry but I didn't see what advice she was offering, she was just describing her situation while dismissing my own. And I don't particularly want to be in this position.

No. 2189814

>>2189790
Yeah that post was 25% about your problem and 75% about herself kek. I hate when people make something about themselves and then get upset with you for not appreciating their monologue

No. 2189818

I think I have prediabetes nonnas. I got my bloodwork results back and my blood sugar is sitting right at the lower cusp of what's considered prediabetic. I had a talk with my doctor but she wouldn't outright say that I'm prediabetic, just told me to watch my sugar and carb intake. I feel so defeated and like I'm just going to spiral. It runs in my family so that really doesn't help. I'm at a normal weight/BMI, regularly lift weights and run 3-4 times a week, and try to curb the amount of sweets I eat (but I do have a sweet tooth). I'm just sad. Obviously I'll be watching my carbs and sugar intake, but I don't even know if it's worth it. It also doesn't help that my family eats like shit so it feels like I'm being sabotaged from the start. I already try to eat "healthy" and prioritize lean protein because of my existing gym goals, but my parents also patronize me about it. Even though I'm at the lower end of what's considered prediabetic, knowing that I'm already at a genetic disadvantage, it freaks me out.

No. 2189925

>>2189818
Nonna you can only learn how to manage it. Don’t beat yourself too much, genetic is kind of hard to win. The only thing you can do is keep a good diet and exercise (which you have been doing anyway).
Good luck!

No. 2189940

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Nonas be honest am I spoiled and wasteful for thinking like this???

My parents and my boyfriends family both do this thing where they refuse to run the dishwasher once a day unless it's full - to save water and money, and because running it half full "feels like a waste" to them.
To me this is super annoying and stupid! Because what my bf's family will do is they'll rinse EVERYTHING before putting it in, because they don't the food leftovers really dry into the items which then doesn't get fully cleaned by the dishwasher.

So basically they use extra water to rinse everything + then eventually the water from the dishwasher, and if they missed pre-cleaning a spot it's still dirty and needs more water to get cleaned. It's more work and potentially uses more water in the end. Not to mention if you only have one perfect bowl or whatever kitchen item it could be stuck dirty in the dishwasher for several days while you wait for it to get full so you can run it.

And what my parents will do is they'll refuse to run it until it's full, so the next day when there are more dirty dishes and they don't fit (which happens EVERY time) we still have to run it twice to clean everything. So instead of cleaning half one day, and then cleaning the rest the next there is a period where there has to be dirty dishes sitting out on the counter for hours waiting for the first run to finish. Which wouldn't happen if we had cleaned the first half the day before.

If you just run the dishwasher at the end of the day even if it's only half-full all the items are clean in the morning and you didn't have to rinse anything. I don't get why I'm the only one who thinks this is the better option! Hygiene is the one area I don't think it's worth "saving money" on, fuck saving money if it means we have to have gross dirty unusable dishes for half a week. Or am I just spoiled for wanting everything to be cleaned every single day and this is something nobody else does???

No. 2189951

>>2189818
Anon sometimes type 2 diabetes hits you like type 1. It sucks ass, but just keep in mind that type 2 diabetes is the more manageable disease out of the two. It's not a moral failing on your part, shit just happens.

No. 2189956

>>2189818
It will be ok nona! Don't let your family shame you for trying to be healthy, that's so ridiculous. They're jealous of your ability to take care of yourself and are trying to drag you down with them so they can stop feeling ashamed that they can't do what you do to stay healthy.

No. 2189987

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>have been suffering from depression for years
>finally kick my ass into finally dismantle a gigantic top heavy desk (it is the biggest one I've ever seen in my entire life ffs) that I inherited in my room in a fevered few hours; it had been in middle of my room for months bc when I tried initially moving it it started breaking and threatened to collapse and got too scared to mess with it
>happy, proud of myself and even finally set up a work area for my printer and stuff, life feels 1% less insane
>start trying to sort other stuff
>end up with stuff and boxes strewn across my floor and lost on what to do next
>motivation rapidly dying especially as I realized the places I was sorting stuff into weren't even optimal and would create problems down the line
really should have started small, but tbh I had a mental break recently because I've been suffering from a chronic infection on top of everything else and really wanted to be able to clean my room. I get deathly ill just moving stuff around from all the dust, it's THAT bad. I just want this all to be over with

No. 2190005

>>2189814
It was explaining how to get out of her situation using her situation as an example you autist

No. 2190012

>>2189445
There’s no such thing as socially invisible. You are acting in a way that is socially repellent. Only autists think other people can’t see them. They notice what you are doing and don’t like it so they don’t want to be your friend or date you.

No. 2190032

>>2189940
I don't think it's spoiled, but I'm a huge proponent of running the dishwasher at the end of the night (unless there's practically nothing in there) even if it isn't full. For the routine of it, and to prevent silly situations like you describe, situations that cost more in stress and labor than I have ever felt was worth the theoretical extra cost. If anyone doesn't like it, they can do the dishes.

No. 2190034

>>2189987
you still can plan on working small, maybe make some room first and put to the side what you can sort later. if making your space livable is not feasible all at once planning to break it up helps it actually get done.

No. 2190044

damn i'm working my first big girl job and i feel constrained with having to think about my image or possibly getting in trouble regarding embarrassing the company, even though i don't use social media publically.

No. 2190067

>>2189413
yeah i feel like this is a weird rumor that got internationally spread around lmao, every man I've dated hasn't been visual in the sense of noticing trash and debris, organization, noticing details, so on and so forth, but because they're addicted to porn, they're "more visual". I feel like there is some nugget of truth somewhere in that statement, but not in the way that men conveniently use it to justify their porn addiction.

No. 2190128

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i wish i was never born
i dont belong on this planet

No. 2190170

>>2189714
>>2189749
damn anons you hit me hard with these comments. i empathize. enough said.

No. 2190195

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>>2190128
There's no such a thing nonna, you're here, you deserve to be here as much as anyone else. Even if the world seems unwelcoming to you, there's a place for you.

No. 2190206

>>2190195
ahh you made me tear up a little (not in a bad way), thank you..

No. 2190208

I made instant noodles (my favorite brand and flavor) and decided I’d crack an egg in it this time, since I usually put eggs in my other noodles. Something went horribly wrong. It smelled like unwashed dick and tasted like the bottom of the sink. I genuinely feel like I should go throw it up like a bulimic but I haven’t thrown up in years and don’t feel like rediscovering the taste of my own bile either

No. 2190210

>>2190208
Was the egg rotten or something? If it was it'll leave your body one way or another without you forcing it

No. 2190231

I'm really paranoid that my bf knows I cheated and is just sitting on the info to throw in my face down the line. Perhaps cheating is not worth the risk also I suck at hiding shit

No. 2190232

>>2190231
why would you do that in the first place. are you retarded?

No. 2190233

>>2190231
if he was low value enough to cheat on lay in to his insecurities by telling people it's bc he's ugly/poor/dick too small etc

No. 2190234

>>2190208
>(my favorite brand and flavor)
which?

No. 2190235

>>2190231
Yeah he does know because I went and told him

No. 2190266

>>2189494
You sound cute nonna, don't worry too much about dropping random knowledge bits. I'll save this on my to-watch-later list, thanks!

No. 2190284

somehow this song is more relevant now, than it was 20 years ago in peak y2k fake bimbo fake hollywood fake television times. how fucking depressing. literally everyone can relate to this song now. how do we recover from this?

No. 2190286

>>2190284
we need to bring back bullying

No. 2190298

>>2188932
Maybe you don't feel like you deserve pleasure. You think you always have to earn it.

No. 2190321

>>2189925
>>2189951
>>2189956
Thank you all for your kind words ♥ My doctor isn't having my A1C tested just yet, she wants to do it in 3 months. I will just have to get my act together some more until then, especially tightening up my diet where I can. I think my only saving grace right now is my already established fondness for going to the gym- I think I'd burn myself out on it if I was constantly freaking out over lowering my blood sugar and only caring about that.

No. 2190333

>>2190231
It would be funny if your boyfriend waited until he "proposed" to you with a ring and all only to reveal that you cheated, this why he still gets to fuck you while he plans his exit from the relationship.

No. 2190335

>>2190231
Idk why everyone on lolcow hates men until something bad happens to one. I bet he's a loser and you had an opportunity to do something fun and took it. I've never cheated because it seems awful, however. What were your reasons, if any, for cheating? Are you going to dump him? If not, does staying with him and keeping it a secret forever feel like love if you were to age and die together? Not fighting, if this comes across as rude or something. I'm genuinely curious.

No. 2190338

>>2190335
>What were your reasons, if any, for cheating?
She's a dumb bitch

No. 2190339

>>2190335
cheating is shit tier behavior

No. 2190340

>>2190333
Yeah then everybody would clap and I'd go to Karen jail, wish I could give you an upvote
>>2190335
It was purely physical, I just have a high sex drive and had a 10/10 old flame hit me up. I don't feel guilt just scared of being caught

No. 2190343

For some reason I decided to go on the miscarriage subreddit and now I'm crying. Why did I do that? I've never even been pregnant

No. 2190346

>>2190340
>10/10
Post the shirtless face-censored with an emoji mirror selfie with toothpaste splattered on the glass. I know you have one.

No. 2190349

>>2190343
Aw nonnie, I'm sorry you got upset. Miscarriages are so sad and scary to think about.

No. 2190353

>>2190335
Nonnies are projecting what happens to women who get cheated on and presume men get cheated on for the same reasons. Or it's just butthurt men.

>>2190340 men are stupid and you will get away with it. I just wouldn't recommend staying in a relationship where the option to cheat seems worth the risk. It's clearly lacking something, if not respect for your partner.
I didn't feel bad when I cheated on my ex. The reality was I had no way out of that relationship without him going nuclear and scorched earth (which he did do when I left him), and he refused to change his ways and be a man so I resented him. He always bitched about multiple exes cheating on him and it made perfect sense why.

No. 2190354

>>2189504
>>2190298
thank you nonas, it's really appreciated <3
yeah i guess it's a sorta mindset where i feel like i'm not deserving of it unless i make someone else happy? it's strange and i never thought it was an issue until last night where he seemed upset that i didn't want anything, it's also rough because i work night shifts so we rarely get any alone time unfortunately
thank you guys again for being lovely, i'll definitely have a talk about it this weekend <3(<3)

No. 2190374

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I ruined my life

No. 2190395

>>2190012
nta but it's kind of weird you act like it's purely due to repellent behavior when in reality half of it is just looks or vulnerability. one of the most socially awkward girls (she had autism and cPTSD) I knew got guys constantly running after her in spite of her genuinely hating it and never throwing out signs she's open to talking.

No. 2190399

>>2189605
Then why do I see people being married and have families everywhere that I go? While I am about to kill myself because I am never going to get to experience that?

No. 2190402

we had a group assignment in college, I normally do most of the work myself so we don't have trouble, but I've been feeling very tired and in a bad mood this last month.
this assignment is not only mine, everyone else should do something too, but we just couldn't get properly organized
my friend promised to do the last part we needed but she had last minute inconveniences, so the tif in my group said she would do it
I feel I purposely left the rest of the work to them, I did my part too so it's not like I didn't do anything at all
yet I feel so guilty over not being attentive enough, I feel if I don't do most of the assignment, no one will and this proved it
they did everything last minute
the tif did the document in a rush and I made my best to print it in time
what happened is that, the tif got very stressed she broke her computer screen and slit her wrists she always tends to be problematic and have outbursts but so do I
I'm sensitive so I can't help but feeling guilty. I know I shouldn't hang out with her but she's very hard to push away when she's in the same friend group. seeing her cuts makes me want to do the same so I know
maybe I'm afraid to be lonely and without friends away that I just go with whatever
I want to be closer with the one friend that promised to do the document, but she's genuinely retarded it stresses me a lot
talking bad sbout them makes me feel more guilt since I'm no saint, I'm so tired and scared

No. 2190404

>>2190399
but how do you know? our entire existence is full of the unknown, what if you went out tomorrow and bumped into someone that was your perfect fit?
i had the exact same mentality as you a few years ago and found my current partner by shitposting about ps1 games online. there's a million chances out there nona, you just need to keep looking
i truly hope you're able to get out of your funk at least for tonight, is there anything you're looking forwards to doing soon?

No. 2190407

>>2190402
Are you in STEM?

No. 2190409

>>2190404
I'm disabled. I'm in agonizing mental and physical pain. I have given up on my hygiene. I live below the poverty line. I'm tired of attempting the same shit. Nobody is ever going to stay in my life or stay after me

No. 2190410

>random whore with a fake face and boltons lecturing onlyfans prostitutes about how they are not good women and that is why men cannot stand to be around women these days
is this satire? what is happening

No. 2190414

>have a weird religious guilt spiral before period
>guilty about everything
>text boyfriend a random "I'm sorry I'm a shit girlfriend, I don't want you to hate me, I feel like I'm not good enough for you" message because the overwhelming guilt of literally nothing is so overwhelming I'm convinced he will break up with me soon even without any signs
>wake up
>see he texted me back
>I'm so sorry for this workload anon, I'm sorry my work keeps us apart, it tears me apart too, I'm sorry I've made you feel this way, etc
>now it's awkward because his work isn't the problem and now he's really apologetic and sorry for no reason
What mental illness is this?

No. 2190415

Men are freaking ugly. All of them.

No. 2190416

>>2190414
Sounds like he was having his own guilt spiral about missing you and your texts about feeling like a bad girlfriend might've reminded him about it. Hope you two get to see each other soon, you both seem very sweet and lovely.

No. 2190417

>>2190410
I just made the same comment on the same exact clip. I hate this podcast. It comes off so trashy. Yet, it supposedly promotes puritan and conservative values. They're pandering to right wing moids. Trying to shift all the blame on women for the porn industry existing. All of their arguments are incredibly weak.

It's the same thing as right wing thots that sexualize themselves and then act morally virtuous and above girls that are doing sex work.

No. 2190423

>>2190415
whos the ugliest guy in your opinion

No. 2190438

>>2190407
don't know what you mean by that but graphic design actually
the work isn't even that hard yet shit like this happens

No. 2190457

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My father told me that I have this idea that no one could possibly understand me but I don’t want to be understood, so I’ve crafted this whole narrative about being misunderstood and mistreated by everyone around me and having a horrible upbringing. I think he’s right. I feel like I have no identity outside of being an outsider. I’m a grown ass woman and I don’t even know what my sexual orientation is. I’m a detransitioner and I don’t know if I would still be masculine if the world didn’t quite literally beat it out of me.

I’m a chameleon, I react to different situations like an entirely different person. Sometimes I massively under-react when someone has legitimately wronged me, other times I blow up at what most people would consider a mildly irrational situation. I feel like at some point I just shattered into a million fragments because I wanted to be liked so badly that I developed a split personality and now I don’t know what the “real me” looks like, or if she even exists. I don’t wan’t to sound like a terminally online blue-haired Tik Tok teen but sometimes I really feel like I have multiple personality disorder

No. 2190459

>>2190457
Ah, poor parenting at it's finest. You can still create an identity for yourself as long as you live.

No. 2190460

>>2190459
Thank you nonna. I hope that when my frontal lobe is fully developed I’ll get over all this shit

No. 2190463

>>2190457
samefag but *mildly irritating situation

No. 2190467

>>2190460
there's a lot of helpful stuff about this on youtube, don't expect it to resolve on its own. one search term I can remember atm is "soul retrieval" but there was some other stuff, something will probably show up if you look up terms like loss of self or lack of identity, you have to actively engage with this otherwise it will stay the same. Hope it goes well for you

No. 2190480

I hate homeless people so much. I genuinely wish i had the power to get the national guard to cull all of them. Imagine how satisfying it would be. Imagine how beautiful the world would be if we got rid of them. So many problems solved in a matter of days. These people have existed since civilization started and they have never gone away. I so tired of going out to somewhete cool just for some random homeless scrote to disturb the peace with random drug fueled rambling. They always leave fucking trash everywhere too. Homeless scrotes especially make me mad. Why are almost all homeless people scrotes? How do scrotes still manage to fail in a society that was created by them for them. Absolutely pathetic. That fact that scrotes can be homeless nuisances in plain view and not instantly get kidnapped and murdered shows how even homeless men have privileges that even the riches women doesn't have.

No. 2190487

how do you push through daily when you're tired of everyone and everything and it just feels like you're chained to several anchors unable to get out of the water. i originally had a whole novel written but it came off like "i'm the unluckiest woman in the world" so i'm just gonna say holy shit. i'm tired. my limits have been shortened by my surroundings in both environment, action and person and it's affecting my sleep i feel like my brain is unable to function properly. i haven't had suicide ideation for 2 decades, i've dealt with copius amounts of stress before and i've never felt this low and lost before, now this is all coming on full force. oh nonnas…

No. 2190495

I have such a huge fucking thing for Scandinavian men. It’s so fucking bad. I’m American. What getting super into metal at a young age and autism does to a girl

No. 2190497

>>2190487
daily breathwork, meditate, exercise… change environment when you can…

No. 2190506

>>2190495
have you tried talking to them? the spell will be broken so quick. scandi men are socially retarded especially around women, a lot of the time they're whiny and depressed too (not sure if it's the lack of vitamin d, or internet brainrot because they are isolated in real life). i wish i was american, you have so many cute grungy metalheads in the midwest, let's do a cultural exchange.

No. 2190511

Pls help me take a shit on company time. I always have to go in the morning but cannot go in those stupid bathroom stalls bc no freaking privacy and sitting down is basically impossible because of the germs. I mean how tf is Brenda from accounting going to still respect me if she heard me having explosive diarrhea this morning? I fucking hate those bathroom stalls. I also don't want to sit down were another person maybe peed or smeared their feces on. Would those reusable toilet seat covers make a difference? Idk man I just want stress free pooping. I wish I had a homeoffice job then I could poop at home.

No. 2190520

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>>2190511
get picrel for shitting and pee funnel for peeing

No. 2190526

>>2190520
what the fuck no do not use an enema while not at home unless you want to ass blast everywhere. The most I’d use while not in the comfort of my own bathroom is a glycerin suppository but you still have to sit to poop unless you’re like that one girl in my elementary school who’d stand on the seat to squat over the bowl. your best option is just to poop freely and own it like nothing happened if you can but I’m one of those people who literally cannot poop and won’t even feel the urge unless I’m at home with absolute privacy.

They sell disposable toilet seat covers in a little plastic case in the travel toiletry isle in a lot of stores just fyi

No. 2190527

>>2190511
Wake up earlier to do it at home before work then? Or just eat less so you don't have to poop as often.

No. 2190530

>>2190526
>I’m one of those people who literally cannot poop and won’t even feel the urge unless I’m at home with absolute privacy.
I thought I was the only one! Unless I know there's a toilet around that I've used before I don't even feel the need to pee. I can easily go at least 12h + without peeing with no discomfort whatsoever. Even if I can see the toilet signs but I've never used them my brain doesn't register it as an option until I've used them at least once.
Meanwhile I know people who will literally shit behind a bush if they can't find a toilet within 30 min of needing to poop because otherwise they'd shit themselves no matter where they are.
>>2190520
I have no idea what that is or how to use it and I'm scared to ask kek

No. 2190531

>>2190526
>unless you want to ass blast everywhere
ayrt what lmao I use it all the time and never ass blasted anything, just speeds up the shitting process so I can get out faster and makes it not stink. Maybe I have special shits or something, sorry, had no idea that happens to others lol I find it super convenient

No. 2190533

>>2190530
It’s an enema bulb. You use it to squirt water or water with other stuff in it into your ass to help you poop.
>>2190531
That’s wild, I’d still never be comfortable doing that anywhere but home. I have severe constipation issues and plain water does nothing for me (water with aloe Vera gel works) so maybe that’s the difference. Those disposable fleets saline enemas sometimes help if I’m desperate and fearing impaction but I hate having to use them. I’m glad t that works for you but I’m still shook that there’s people walking around with an enema bulb in their purses lol

No. 2190535

>>2190530
>I have no idea what that is or how to use it and I'm scared to ask kek
you just use it to pump some water into your butt, wait like 30 seconds and then empty it so you don't have to push out the shit yourself because all of it comes out with the water quickly, but >>2190526 said it can be explosive so idk if I can recommend it anymore. I never had any issues. It's definitely good if you are constipated though. The funnel is a good thing to have with yourself.

No. 2190536

>>2190520
>>2190531
i feel like constantly doing this would just fuck up your gut bacteria

No. 2190537

>>2190536
Nah, it’s not like a colonic that wipes everything out. It’s a low volume of water that probably doesn’t go past the sigmoid colon at the absolute most. Even that’s a stretch and I’m guessing it probably stays mainly in the rectum.

No. 2190540

>>2190533
>I’m still shook that there’s people walking around with an enema bulb in their purses lol
I had some surgery done that kind of messed up my ass muscles so I would rather not have to deal with manual shitting in a public space, but my cousin also does this lol anyway walking is great for constipation

No. 2190586

>>2190540
Ah okay. I definitely get ass problems. I have a stupid stomach and wound up hospitalized for bowel impactions twice before getting my issues properly diagnosed and kinda managed so unfortunately understand the importance of pooping as regularly as possible. I’m so jealous of the people who just poop everyday like nbd without even thinking about it hahaha

No. 2190592

Losing all this weight isn't fucking worth it, I'm just starting to sag all over like a deflated balloon. I look disgusting

No. 2190610

i dread the idea of male coworkers. all my past jobs were either childcare or medical field and my coworkers were women. the new job market i’m gonna go into after graduation is kinda male dominated and i’m dreading the job search already. ugh

No. 2190643

I meantioned at work that I don't think unlimited global population growth is something we should strive for. I was immediately met with shocked gasps. I didn't say I wanted [group X] not to have children or that I wanted to kill large swathes of people. All I said is that unlimited population growth is unsustainable because unlimited productivity growth in agriculture and food production is simply not possible.
No one listened to me. Everyone is now thinking I'm some kind of genocidal maniac for daring to express my opinion that there is an end to any kind of growth.

Seriously, I don't get it. How am I the bag guy here?

No. 2190648

>>2190592
I heard that you should start bulking before you start losing weight so that way when your weight goes down your skin is being held by muscle. I feel like you might’ve lost the weight without building muscle strength. You aren’t disgusting you worked hard for the body you have currently be proud of your journey the loose skin will go away if you continue working out and building muscle I believe in you!

No. 2190649

>>2190592
Hey that happened to me too. To counter this, start doing resistance training, your muscles will give you shape and stop all the sagging

No. 2190654

Anxiety is literally killing me and I'm too poor to get decent treatment plus nobody takes it seriously at all. I just want a med that could KNOCK me to fuck out, I don't want to think I just want to breathe in peace. Everything hurts and sends me into a panic attack, I'm barely living life. Just sedate me, I don't want to think no more, shut my brain up, make my body feel light again

No. 2190657

>>2189818
Damn anon I've been on the same bullshit since last year too, I'm so fucking tired of all this sugar crap I don't want to hear about it anymore. It runs on my family too because my bitch ass grandad couldn't help but have gazillions of kids even though he was diabetic, selfish asshole. My sister is already on metformin, only thing saving me from hitting her levels is the fact that my meal portions are literally half of hers because I'm too mentally ill atm to feed myself properly, my schizo driven starvmaxxing accidentally helped me

No. 2190660

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>>2190592
Seconding other anons, build muscles to look more balanced and fill out the skin.
And I'm gonna be blunt here: looking fat IS already also disgusting, just a different kind of it. The difference is being fat comes with many, many more negatives and health risks. Being at a healthy weight with saggy skin lets you experience the world without the hinders being fat comes with. If you wear long sleeves nobody can tell you have saggy skin under it so you'd be moving through the world as a normal average sized person.

There are also surgeries to remove saggy skin, which comes at a risk and will leave scars - but it is possible to remove a lot of saggy skin. You can also get boob lifts and such to help you look more balanced if looking good is important to you. But at the core - losing weight will make you healthier and you'll be able to live a longer fuller life. That's worth the trade off. Picrel is Jordan Shrinks, a former obese woman who lost the weight on her own and then had skin removal surgery, and I believe also a boob lift surgery some years later. She still has some lose skin (you can see her belly button looks really long because of it) but she's still able to be confident and look hot. You got this nona.

No. 2190668

Never give up physical exercise, do at least 30 minutes every day

No. 2190671

>>2190668
thank you goku

No. 2190672

>>2189940
No you are me and I am you! I hate dishwashers they are the bane of my existence not only have I lost precious mugs to the dishwasher because people don’t read if mugs are dishwasher safe before putting it in. 9/10 most people don’t even know how to use a dishwasher so I always end up having to re wash everything by hand anyway because there is still food particles everywhere.

The reason your parents have to wash before washing is because they know deep down dishwashers don’t wash shit they just spray dishes with soapy water for an hour or 2. Terrible invention . I have yet to see a dishwasher clean a dish better than if I used my hand. Dishwashers are the AI of cleaning it’s meant to make your life easier on the surface but is making it 2x more difficult and making you use 2x the water power that could quench a whole city town

No. 2190699

>>2190668
nooooo i wanna rot in bed and post bait on lolcor all day

No. 2190702

>>2190410
>HE'S PLAYING CHESS SHE'S PLAYING CHECKERS XDDD
meanwhile the video is so retarded its like watching toddlers argue. misogynistic men are impressed so easily.

No. 2190703

I used to be able to stay up for 48 hours and now I can't even for 12 hours whyyyyy

No. 2190715

>>2190703
Cause you got old(er)? That does happens as you age. Can't pull allnighters anymore.

No. 2190717

>>2190715
I mean less than 12 hours is kinda insane

No. 2190720

>>2190717
I thought anon was exaggerating. If she actually can't stay awake for longer than 12 hours, that sounds like a medical problem and she should see a doctor.

No. 2190726

I want to kill myself

No. 2190765

I hate how difficult cyber stalking has become. I know everything about the obese whore Who ruined my life TWICE 5 years apart. I know her current and previous addresses. I even proved it when i sent to some random from craiglist to gave her something for free and her fat attention whore ass posted it on instagram stories. I know her illegal alien dads name and work place. I know when her mom died. Yet this dumb bitch has recently deleted her instagram and made a new private one. Why the fuck do people get social media just to private it? I know where you live retard. Anyone can learn from fucking white pages.

No. 2190766

>>2190765
christ you sound very mentally ill

No. 2190770

>>2190765
>Why the fuck do people get social media just to private it?
Probably because your stalking is really fucking obvious.

No. 2190771

>>2190765
imagine being in a parasocial relationship with a fat bitch lol

No. 2190773

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>Wake up
>Go to gym
>Go to work
>Go back home at 7 pm
>Repeat 4x until weekend
>Weekend
>Oversleep bc exhausted
>Go on shitty date with another shitty moid and get depressed
>Have existential crisis and waste Sunday being depressed
>Weekend over, start back again Monday

I feel like i need to go do something crazy to break the cycle. I dont have anything to look forward to no matter how hard I try to find positive things.

No. 2190775

>>2190487
I don't know the answer but this is where I am too. sorry to hear it.

No. 2190779

>>2190765
Don't listen to these idiots, I understand you. I hope she unprivates so you can keep laughing at her.

No. 2190787

I had a shoulder surgery and I was told not to workout until I can see a doctor for a follow up. It's been a few months and I don't care. I went and it's my first time and I'm so fucking out of shape. It sucks.

No. 2190796

>>2190779
Whats even funnier about her is that ive known her for a decade now he she is still just as fat as she was before, if not fatter.

No. 2190800

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>>2190796
>letting a fat person into your life so much so that they 'ruin' it
>not only once but twice
>letting her live rent free in your head to this extent
>thinking your obsession with her is some kind of own
you need a hobby

No. 2190807

>>2190800
Nta but you normies who hate anons who "hatestalk" are so fucking weird, this entire site was started by a 4chan scrote to laugh at weeb women. Get off your high horse, literally everyone in the digital age "hatestalks" people that annoy them or they follow threads of people who hatestalk these annoying people.

No. 2190809

>>2190807
nta but here comes a point where a stalking obsession reflects more negatively on the stalker as opposed to the stalkee.

No. 2190811

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Anyone else sometimes feel psychosis start to creep in and you have to try to beat it down like keeping a mutant in a basement? I have some things that pop up in my head when I'm not doing well, usually starts with Fear and Suspicion of my neighbors as well as randomly finding deep Meaning in everyday interactions. I am pretty good at knowing when it's delusion, realistically I'm just frustrated with my groundhog day life and like 5 stressors I can't solve so my brain tries to create something else to focus on. Really sucks experiencing this though. Like I feel deeply that my neighbor is making retaliatory knocks and acting weird as a personal attack against me. Running a leafblower outside at 10pm last night and every time I look out the window to see wtf they are doing they hide. Then when they are done they SLAMMED their front door so hard all the dishes rattled in my cupboard. My chest hurts so bad when they do that crap and I tell myself over and over it's not about me but I'm the only one they share a wall with as an end unit and it feels targeted. I make any noise in the kitchen within 30 seconds I will get a single retaliatory knock back. Even if their car is gone, I think one of them is always home.

No. 2190814

>>2190809
Ayrt, to reiterate, this is lolcow.

No. 2190815

>>2190807
If you post pathetic shit you’re going to get called pathetic. Don’t know what’s weird about that.

No. 2190818

>>2190815
>If you post pathetic shit you’re going to get called pathetic
Anons literally doxed Corpse Husband because he was an annoying moid and doxed Fanny because she drew naughty tumblrina coomer porn. Where is this moral superiority even coming from kek hop off.

No. 2190819

>>2190814
yep, and shaynus has all of her social medias public and available for us to kek at. it's weird to stalk rando fatties for years and continue after they private their insta sorry

No. 2190835

>>2190819
The fatty probably privated after having a public account for a while, how could anon be stalking a person who only have private accounts?

No. 2190841

I want to shake her and yell "grow a spine! pretend you have self respect!" but I know you can't criticise someone into doing that.
Still it is frustrating, and I wish it was possible to tough love her out of apologizing every second sentence because that would be so much faster. Stupid bitch, you make people like you so much less this way. It's so counterproductive.

No. 2190851

I hate having thin, fine hair so, so fucking much. The woman who cuts my hair made comments about it and it's been bothering me since. It's like wow, thanks, I had no idea my hair is "SO, so thin, like oh my god, so thin." I would love to have thick, voluminous hair. Really tired of sitting with my female relatives and hearing about how they broke another ponytail holder, or had to have their hair thinned at the salon. Idk. I know it's dumb but I just feel so powerless and it makes me angry.

No. 2190853

>>2190773
Stop going on shitty dates? That’s a negative thing you can control right now and doing something crazy may make things worse

No. 2190856

>>2190853
It's not like she can know whether the date will be shitty or not

No. 2190859

>>2190773
why was it shitty nonny what happen

No. 2190867

>Clean trained intelligent beautiful groomed border collie female dog (my dog)
>My mom: ugh anon make her go away she'll leave fur outside the door
>Ugly flea-ridden (literally!) untrained dirty male pug (my aunt's dog)
>My mom: omg haha he's soo cute anon why don't you give him some food? Go brush his fur, look he's looking at me! Haha
Is… is this dog boymom behaviour? Dog pickmeism? I don't understand why she keeps giving attention to that dog, she says she doesn't even like pugs and hates when dogs are dirty, which is why I keep mine clean all the time… she'll actually call her insults too (pig, stupid dog, bastard, shit dog) and I assumed it was because she just disliked dogs but lately she's head over heels for the male pug next door and I just… idk

No. 2190868

I'm so tired of setting boundaries that will never be respected anyway. What's the point of trying to conceal my private matters if someone is going to share them mindlessly anyway? I can't trust anyone anymore because of people like them.

No. 2190869

>>2190867
i never understood why people like pugs aren’t they bread to be retarded on purpose

No. 2190870

It's 6pm and I already want to give today up and go to bed. I've sent a bunch of emails to companies today, borderline pleading for an internship because it's fucking impossible to get one at the moment, and I will most likely not get a response until friday at the earliest. Idk how I'm gonna focus on uni tomorrow when I just wanna give it all up.

No. 2190872

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>>2190869
> aren't they bread to be retarded

No. 2190903

I can’t believe they took out my shit and monitors out from my cubicle!! Ok my bad OOPS I didn’t know that section was reserved for the dumbasses at IT but no one fucking told me shit and I’ve been there for a while now. God what assholes!! Now I gotta set up near the entrance where everyone else is and have someone look directly at my cubicle with no privacy and be neighbors with my director. This agency sucks, it’s way too lax.

No. 2190933

I get so sad thinking how much happier and free the world would be without men, they're monsters.

No. 2190938

Is threadpic a cowball?

No. 2190946

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I keep getting this weird feeling/thought that I'm going to die soon, like in a month's or three months' time, so I haven't been doing a single productive thing. I know I shouldn't procrastinate and throw my life away but I can't shake this feeling off and it's really eating me up that I can't tell anyone because I'll probably get sent to the mental hospital. I have no idea how to deal with this

No. 2190948

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You think that because I wfm I sit on my ass and do nothing all day. Please stop coming over in the mornings, getting drunk, screaming at fighting games and expecting me to engage with your one-man comedy routines! I AM WORKING

No. 2190949


No. 2190977

"He fumbled me" "I fumbled a bad bitch" No one gaf shut up and just move on already

No. 2190979

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I got the post-lunch sleepies

No. 2190982

I wish I had friends to make clothing with, I have the perfect environment to cut fabric and I have every niche tool necessary for so many specific crafts. I even have extras of everything in case someone wanted to do such a thing but couldn't afford it or whatever. I started going to meetups for specific crafts but the average age is 60 and there's not much interest in hanging out after. Plus a lot of the women come with their friend(s), and aren't there with the notion of making more. I've given it a try a few times and hanging out with someone with a 40+ year age gap isn't quite exactly what I invisioned, but I still gave it a try. It was "nice" but I go home feeling even more isolated and freaky. I had a good crafter circle in high school but none of those women do art anymore. Instagram was great for meeting others who make clothing but the ones from my country are still a flight's distance away from me.

No. 2190986

>>2190982
I'll come to your house

No. 2190988

>>2190982
That sounds so fun anon. I don't know how to use a sewing machine but I can draw and handsew little details. I hope you find a friend to be creative with.

No. 2190989

I used to be good at art but I devolved so much, so fast. Granted, it's probably because I don't draw as much anymore, but it's a circular issue. I don't draw as much because I don't like what I draw because I don't draw as much, etc.

No. 2191025

>>2190982
I'm looking for the same thing. I would love to make use of your tools nonna kek

No. 2191028

>>2190989
This reminded me.. It's only tangentially related. But I've been on a "downward inspiration spiral" where I see all this amazing art all the time, and it feels like we're all in this insane rat race to create and entertain, but from my own experience I look at something for one second and then scroll away, even if I like it, so how many people do the same thing? I feel like "making art" to show people is pointless. Sometimes I just want to make a mess, not art. I don't want to flex my skills. I want to devolve essentially. I don't want to feel the pressure of competition. But at the same time I want to be skilled. I want to have amazing art that impresses people. But… what will that do for me in the long run unless I start making a business out of it? And can I even do that? I just overthink into oblivion and then sit, paralyzed, and watch trashy TV. It's annoying of me. I wish I had a sensei. Or some sort of teacher. A really weird relationship, that's what I need. Maybe I will just keep scribbling. Maybe I'll go do that now while I'm watching trashy TV and stop moping and actually change something now.

No. 2191034

>>2191028
Nothing wrong with producing art for yourself only. It's nice to get attention and praise, but it's even nicer imo to look at something you hazily scribbled as you watched your online class and think "hey that's pretty good"

No. 2191035

I'm no-contact with my mother and I just saw a recent photo of her. She looks so old and I feel so bad. But I know when the guilt passes, I'll just feel anger like I usually do. These emotions are so overwhelming.

No. 2191054

I moved back to a small town and now I have nowhere to go on halloween. Guess I'll just dress up, take photos and watch movies.

No. 2191073

I have a big, dead oak tree in my yard. It's covered completely in hanging vines, and I guess it finally got too heavy as it's tipping over (the roots are literally ripping out of the ground). It's also leaning on a corner of our garage roof now.

I'm waiting on a tree cutter company for a third price estimate right now. Whoever is the cheapest will probably be our bet, but it sucks that a tree costs so much. We were planning on buying a new washer since our old one broke, but I guess that's life.

No. 2191076

I'm tired of dealing with headphones. Earbuds, over-ears, bluetooth, wired, phone connector dongles, etc. Everything constantly breaking, weird issues like static. I wish I could just drop $300 on good quality products that never break but I can't pay that much at once.

No. 2191078

>>2191076
I've had my basic Samsung earbuds for 3 years now, and accidentally washed them (forgot a bud in my pocket) a couple times. They work normally still.

No. 2191140

i wish i could dress nicely. every time i try to dress up and do my hair/makeup i end up looking and feeling fucking retarded. i'm doomed to a life of athleisure.

No. 2191166

I'm so sad that I don't have charisma and I can't easily think of good responses in time. I'm currently doing clinicals for school and it has just proven how I can't fit in. I regret never making social medias, because how else do you even become friends with people. If I start a social media now I feel like it would be weird, and I don't even have anyone to follow. The one plus is that I'm going into the veterinary field, so I have some easy conversation starters about animals I can use to talk to people, but after they change topic I just am too retarded. I'm terrified to start my internships in January, because I'll have to switch clinics and I feel like I'm not going to get lucky with finding people there to talk to, or even worse I'll have to be around toxic people. I also want my internship clinic to hire me, but I feel like I'm going to fumble the opportunity. While scheduling an interview for the internship I kept ruining the vibe too.. WHY AM I LIKE THIS

No. 2191169

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I should just stop writing elaborate paragraphs and just start responding in brainrot phrases and words, it clearly isn’t worth it. Nobody cares, nobody is reading what you have to say, just stop talking and responding to people, this is no longer the 2010s people don’t have the capacity to read more than two-three sentences because their attention span matches the amount of word count in a tweet. What is the point of having friends if they don’t listen to you? What is the point of talking to people if they don’t listen? I’m done typing, talking, trying to explain and defend my point and then having the thought police hovering over my head because I didn’t react in a way that would make everyone feel comfortable and accepted, it almost makes me want to go on a rampage just saying the most heinous shit.

No. 2191175

>>2191169
I ain’t reading all that.

No. 2191217

>>2191175
I’m going to you know what I’m going to you know what I’m going to do

No. 2191220

Trying so hard to be nice and understanding to this one girl in my friend group but she thrives off of attention and flirts with everyone and only really engages when the attention is on her.
Before you call me the pick-me, no I have other girl friends who are all very different and I love them all to death and would die for them.

No. 2191230

I think i’m done for i don’t have anyone to vent this to i think my mum found my phone and foundnout all the weird photos i habe of this girl and i wrote such weird stuff sbout her onnthem and she’s homophobic i think she knows i’m a lesbian i’m so scared i don’t have anywhere to go and hide from this. ineed to leave but i’m a hikki and haven’t gone outside in years i haven’t spoken to her yet i’m fucking terrified i’m sorry i know this isn’t integrated typing i’ll take the ban

No. 2191234

FUCK morning classes. i am tired of having to get up early in the morning to sit in some dank smelling university classroom for 2 hours. it’s my senior year so the majority of my classes are early so i have no choice if i want to graduate. i just want to sleep. i’ve been finishing my homework at least a week before it’s due so sometimes i wonder why we have to sit in class and listen to our professor babble. i suffer through it cause i want to go to grad school but still FUCK. thank god it is almost over…

No. 2191241

>>2191230
i’m trapped here she knows she deleted the pictures she KNOWS i ‘ m schizoprhenic about this person her i should habe hid my phone i can never speak fo her ever again i have to leave but i can’t

No. 2191253

>>2191220
These kinds of people are so annoying kek, don't force yourself to like her if you struggle to, just tolerate her and go with the flow and focus on your other friends.

No. 2191266

>>2191230
>>2191241
What makes you think your mom saw all that stuff on your phone?

No. 2191285

Sometimes I wish anons would just shut the fuck up about women's bodies. They'll post a completely normal looking woman and go on about how this or that is horribly ugly as if she's deformed. Chill the fuck out, jesus christ.

No. 2191286

>>2191266
I left it unlocked somewhere and came back to the pictures that were notated with my ramblings having been deleted, specifically. She did this in the past when I was 15 but with hentai, said nothing until she confronted me a couple days later asking why all those disgusting pictures were on my phone. I’ll never forget about that day, it was terrifying, but at the very least it was just yaoi, so it’s not like she could tell me I’m a dyke for it. This time, she’s gone out for a walk despite it being 11.30pm here. And she won’t pick up my calls. I think I’m just going to lock myself in my room until I can find a way to leave. She was acting weird before she left, I should have known.

No. 2191296

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I really hate being stressed, my dad is addicted to this shit. Today I lost my kumamon keychain that my brother reluctantly got for me while he was in Japan, and it was all because I was too stressed to notice when it fell.
I'm sad because I really liked that keychain, it was the only sped thing I let myself show at work because it's subtle and it goes well with my bag since it kind of has the same colors.
I really hate this whole work shit, I want to kill myself.

No. 2191302

>>2191286
Yikes, I'm sorry nonny, that sounds scary as fuck. Do you think she would get physical over this, or just yell at you? I wish I could help you by giving some good advice, but I think bunkering down in your room like you already are until she calms down might be the best course of action right now. Stay safe

No. 2191307

Due to financial setbacks, Im living with parents and unemployed brother (we'll call him Y). Y does nothing all day but eavesdrop, gossip/turn people against me, and annoy me.

I built a garden area over the summer. Y just HAS to have his dog piss and shit inside the garden area, where there's food. Y loves rubbing it in that his pet is still alive, and mine aren't. Y wont clean the dog shit, despite me telling him multiple times. Not sure what to do about this, if I put dog shit on his truck he could turn violent and everyone would side with him anyways.

Then Y reaches really close to my boob when Im trying to get something out of the fridge. Fuckin scared me. Of course the boymom saw all this and sees nothing wrong with his behavior like usual.

No. 2191308

>>2191302
Thank you, yes she has a history of getting physical but I’m unsure on how her reaction would be. She always goes in denial of things first. She has her own mental illnesses. She’s drilled it into me since I was young that I can never be a lesbian. I think this would be less terrifying if I was doing better but the thing is I’m a NEET that has stayed indoors for years and this is an enmeshed family.

No. 2191315

>>2191308
I don't know what kind of schizo stuff you wrote about the girl you have a crush on, but since your mom likes to be in denial, could you maybe try to lie and say it's because you want to be her instead of having homo feelings for her?

No. 2191327

>>2191315
Hm maybe, but some of it was too romantic and there were things like “I want to drown in this lake with you” kek. She’ll never look at me the same regardless. I think I’ll still try that though, that I want to be her and/or her friend. Now that I’m less hysterical I can laugh about it but man I put a lot of effort into those pictures and now they’re just gone…

No. 2191335

>>2191327
>I want to drown in this lake with you
KEK I love that. At least it's pretty acceptable for women to be really touchy feely towards each other even platonically, if you were a gay moid it'd be immediate game over. Fingers crossed you can gaslight your mom, I believe in you

No. 2191336

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I don't wish my life on anybody

No. 2191361

Any nonnas here with missing teeth? I'm scared I'm going to lose my front teeth (teeth numbers 7-10). I'm only 26 but it's honestly looking like I'll be losing at least some of them before I turn 35 due to shit genetics and other stuff. How is it? I just need someone to tell me that it's okay to not have certain teeth. Especially since dental healthcare is so shit where I live because apparently no one gives a fuck that dental health affects your overall health and dentists would rather people have missing or rotting teeth than try to fix them when it's still possible.

No. 2191374

>>2191336
If you want your life to change, you have to be the one to change it. It's really fucking hard, but you can do it. What do you think is holding you back?

No. 2191395

>>2191361
I have two friends who have tooth issues and they're both lovely, beautiful people - one of them lost some teeth due to neglect, I'm trying to think of the position, you can only see it when she smiles. And my other friend has full blown veneers on her bottom teeth and she's the baddest bitch I know, and I didn't notice it until she told me. I care about them a lot and their teeth are the last thing on my mind. So I think you can be that to people, and you'll be more than ok if it happens. Just take care of yourself so you don't get an infection.

No. 2191450

>control freak moid in friend group
>he kept trying to instigate with a girl in the gc
>we were all ignoring him
>she was talking casually
>he kept trying to instigate and it was embarrassing and she wasn’t even responding to him
>retarded moid shut up after someone backhandedly called him out
It was beautiful. He has a gf too. Imagine if his gf knew he was obsessing over some other woman? Holy shit.

No. 2191463

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I cheated on my boyfriend and I immediately started a new relationship with the other guy. The other guy is sweet, treats me better but I can't stop thinking about that shitfaced manchild. How is it I can't get over him if I was the one cheating? Is that my price for being a bitch?

No. 2191466

>>2191076
It’s worth saving up for a good quality pair. I was given Bose QC15 headphones for my birthday in 2012 and I still use them daily. I replaced the earpads with no name $10 generics last year because they finally started falling apart but other than that they’re in perfect condition. Idk if that model is still even made but iirc there’s a really autistic headphone subreddit that has tons of recommendations for all sorts of different headphones. I hate suggesting reddit but it might be worth looking.

No. 2191469

>>2191361
veneers and fake teeth are an entirely different color and it’s going to be extremely noticeable. you should have brushed your teeth. people avoid people who aren’t polite enough to not smell for a reason. i’ve never met anyone who didn’t do hard drugs that lost teeth so young.

No. 2191474

>>2191471
I don't think that's the case. I cheated because he kept mistreating me. I just wanted to feel good for a while.

No. 2191476

Those last 20 mins of a shift are GRUELINGGGGGGGGGG. Im literally itching to be let out let me goooo

No. 2191491

My friend just got engaged to a guy she started seeing 6 months ago. She’s worn the same gold jewelry every day her whole life, mostly inherited from her grandma, and she’s even talked to me about what her desired engagement ring would look like and how it’d be gold. The guy proposed with the cheapest possible silver ring and she’s saying it’s “proof that love is the only thing that matters.” But if he can’t even get something that simple right, hasn’t even noticed what color jewelry she prefers, is it really love above everything else? It’s so stupid but it really pissed me off, not to mention the guy is a basement dwelling loser.

No. 2191492

>>2191374
I tried everything

No. 2191510

>>2191361
I'm younger than you and missing a canine for whatever reason but i've never felt self concious about it. Sometimes teeth just don't form or get knocked out. Take care of your teeth as much as you can and they'll be no one else's buisness.

No. 2191511

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>scholiosis
>acne
>big tits
>breast cancer
>autism + ADHD
>thirdie poorfag
jesus fucking christ why cant i have one single thing in my favour? i feel like i was born to live in constant pain and suffering. Maybe i should have died in that accident 10 years ago and now god is punishing me for defying fate.

No. 2191515

>>2191511
Well shit, honestly some of that stuff is okay and people live a good life with it anyway, but I’m really sorry anon. If you are not in remission currently I hope all goes well and things look up for you soon.

No. 2191527

One of my friends got married and even though they were in a long term relationship I really don't like their nigel. He's the type that would never hold a decent job and would sponge off my friend during the times he was unemployed. They've both been in shitty food service jobs for years, barely paying off their rent and it makes me sad to think that my friend could have gone off to do something better if it wasn't for this guy holding her back

No. 2191530

>>2191515
thanks nonny, i think its the amount of shit i got to deal with that fucks me up, if it was only one or two things i would be more peaceful. I wish my body would just let me breathe for a little. I feel tired.

No. 2191568

i tried to prevent myself from becoming a weeb because i was scared of using it for escapism, but now that i have a job i'm more inclined to become so because in the limited free time i have i want to escape. hmm.

No. 2191569

I have started having psych seizures. I’m so ashamed. I hate myself so much. I had a few before but it was an attempt and then it stopped for a very very long time. Now I have had a couple in a week. Had a few during a trip with friends. I hate myself. God.

No. 2191599

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i would kill myself now if it meant my parents didn't have to burden the funeral costs. i don't care what happens after i die, use the body for animal feed or something. my life feels like a slow and drawn out torture, what escape do i have? i am so unhappy, i have exhausted so mamy options to stop feeling this way and i always come back to this point. i can't even off myself without financial stress, this world is so fucking bleak.

No. 2191602

>want to put healthy food in body
>baked salmon, sauteed spinach
>body: it's time to make you poo liquid for several times tonight
What the fuck.

No. 2191603

I think i inhaled a bunch of silica dust.

No. 2191604

>>2191599
Don't kill yourself nonny

No. 2191611

He got flowers on second date, told me he'd never want a ons or fwb situation because he has to feel something during sex.
Inb4 we have sex, he has a tiny pp and i dont feel anything, if that's not bad enough he says he wants to be fwb with me. Wtf! Who even would want to become fwb with a dicklet???

No. 2191621

>>2191599
why do you want to kys nonny?

No. 2191627

My ex best friend texted me yesterday that she indefinitely wants to break contact, and honestly I'm glad that the trash took itself out. There's just one thing that bothers me. There have been multiple cases of SA that I told her about in the time that we were friends, one involving one of her friends. If I was in her shoes, I would have blocked that moid immediately (this was when we still considered each other 'best friends'). No one touches my friends and there's just no negotiation. She told me I just made it up for attention, and she broke the friendship because another case of SA happened 1,5 years later. Joke's on her, she doesn't have any other friends next to her boyfriend and I'm just glad she's not in my life anymore to tell me I'm lying about traumatic experiences. Pathetic.

No. 2191629

>>2191599
I know it's cliche to say but things really get better. Please don't kys. It seems there's a lot of pain you're struggling with. Seeking help is not possible for everyone, I know that, but please reach out to your doctor if possible. You deserve to live.

No. 2191636

Wtf I've been trying to go to sleep early so I can rest and have a decent day at work, but the first day I randomly woke up with stomach pains, the second day I woke up with severe allergies, today I have fucking diarrhea out of nowhere when I've been eating healthy as fuck. What's next? I wake up with a heart attack?

No. 2191639

>>2191599
Don't leave. Life turns around in the blink of an eye despite how impossible it is to imagine that it can before it happens. Trust me.

No. 2191645

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>>2191639
nta but im 22 and i feel like nothing has gotten better since high school and then covid happened and it got even worse and idk how much more of this shit i can take lol. please just fucking turn around already before i go insane!!

No. 2191673

My uvula is swollen and everytime I swallow something I fear it'll get ripped off (literally).

No. 2191675

>>2191602
that’s food poisoning nonna

No. 2191677

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i genuinely hate being alive. like, being a mammal overall sucks and life is just so cruel. i’m only alive to daydream and enjoy fiction, because there is nothing good about reality. currently in the process of getting a degree that will allow me to work remotely, once I do I will just become a hermit and consume media in my house.

No. 2191681

>>2187402
How would it ruin their life?

No. 2191706

>>2191645
closer to 30 is when it turns, teens and 20s are similarly shitty

No. 2191725

I was extremely shy and quiet when I was younger and I just remembered that people would always secretly smirk at each other whenever I said anything. As if I wouldn't notice. I am not shy anymore but still kind of awkward. I am doing well in 1 on 1 conversations but are kind of bad in groups. I was visiting my in laws yesterday and they had friends over. They had a conversation about the upcoming vacation and I tried to contribute to the conversation. As I was talking I saw one of the women smirk to her friend and suddenly I was 14 years old again. I didn't say anything else the whole evening. It always gives me the feeling that I am uninteresting and I am somehow the butt of a secret joke everyone is in on.

No. 2191726

>>2191725
you should have called them out on it

No. 2191731

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I can't walk aimlessly around my apartment in deep thought while doing strange motions with my hands because there are construction workers on my balcony and I don't want to seem psychotic. Instead I have to sit on my laptop and look like I'm doing something important. I'm dying on the inside.

No. 2191732

The way my ex stripped my of my individuality is so retarded, he was such a bully always bitching about anyone who had an ounce of individuality. Pathetic little man. Like one of those people who used to get bullied and doesn't anymore but is still insecure and tries to be the bully now. I hope he kills himself, he's such a nothing of a person. Piece of shit.

No. 2191736

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>go to doctors office for standard checkup
>woman who is sneezing and coughing her head off sits directly next to me in the waiting room
>im going to get sick aren't i
>2 days later
>sick
I really wish people who have the flu and cold, covid etc would just stay the fuck home because it's not like the doctor can cure you anyway and if you're in good enough condition to come to the doctor you can just stay the fuck home! But no, they can't, because your employer needs some bullshit sick note to "prove" you're sick, forcing every sick retard to infect everyone else with their sick just to get a piece of paper. Now I need a fucking sick note so I get to infect someone else, and the cycle of retardation continues.

No. 2191737

>>2191731
grab a phone or headset and pretend you're on a call

No. 2191741

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I have given up on my life. I have fallen out of the face of the planet. Everyone is telling me to kill myself. My life is deprived of anything. Throughout all of these 16 years in which I have been suicidal on a daily basis. Nobody has ever stayed after my ass or been fully involved with me.

I've been made to feel like a dog my whole life.

No. 2191752

>>2191741
Anon this image make me feel so deeply sad. I'm also like the dog. Everyone is busy having a life and interacting with each other, and then there's people like that dog who can only watch and endlessly long for the thing everyone else has by default. And no one looks at those people. We're like invisible bystanders.

No. 2191753

>>2191752
I've always been pushed aside and made to feel like a piece of shit.
I had to chase people like a dog my whole life. Nobody's ever stayed after me or been fully involved with me.

No. 2191755

im sad because i got a brazilian blowout done, i spent 200€ on it only for it to last a week. i thought they last way longer and i was happy that i finally had straight smooth hair that was easy to brush and style instead of thick, wavy and frizzy hair.

No. 2191759

There's nothing good about China. For as long as they keep letting worthless subhumans torture animals to get their microdicks hard, nothing will ever be well with that country.

No. 2191760

>>2191759
yea chinese ppl are for some reason rly into that, ive seen that even a dentist was in one of those cat torture groups and posted in them

No. 2191764

>>2191760
Doesn’t China have Billions of people!? Obviously it’s more likely to run into degenerates in countries with billions of people. Not defending cat mutilation to get your rocks off but this isn’t a China specific thing. Did you guys not watch dont fuck with cats? This is a moid issue not a country issue

No. 2191765

>>2191755
You paid $200 (probably more cuz of exchange rate) for essentially a Dominican blow out of another name? In America those are $50-$100 tops! You have curly hair it’s not gonna last a long time unless you heat train your hair aka are okay with permanent heat damage.

No. 2191766

>>2191759
How is this even vent worthy kekw

No. 2191767

>>2191764
You're right. At the same time, they also have pieces of shit in their government protecting their sadistic moidlets (if they're not part of it themselves, I know one piece of shit boymom was literally buying her son cats to rape and torture), and Chinese culture purposely punishes acts of decency. It's the same country where moids are posting farm animals from behind on mainstream websites and talking about wanting to rape them.
All the shittiest countries in the world enable or turn a blind eye to animal abuse, it's not a coincidence.

No. 2191768

>>2191766
It’s just bad racebait you can find a moid in every country with a beastiality kink. In fact these racists probably from America should be more upset with the pilgrims who fucked any barnyard animal they could find so much so it’s the reason why we have all these STDs rn.

No. 2191772

>>2191766
Because I saw something and it pissed me off to read a bunch of Chinese scrotes defending it, cooming to it and purposely spamming it. I reported them, but knowing their country allows it and they'll never be punished, even when the actual good Chinese people dox and expose them is enraging.

>>2191768
Those moids should be killed too. But at least in the US, they'd get jailtime. China? A slap on the wrist. Not even that lol. Best you can hope is that they get expelled from their universities or fired from their jobs if they aren't just bums. It's not a racial issue, it's an issue with their shit government. Stop covering their asses by crying "racism", retard. Your race doesn't make you an animal abuser.

No. 2191774

>>2191767
Again this is not a Chinese specific issue this goes on in South Korea and any country where males are treated like gods. Also Chinese women had no choice but to be cucked boy moms who do their sons bidding do you not read history? Let’s not paint broad brushes. I dont see you outraged at the rampant pedophilia in European countries like France

No. 2191775

>>2191772
Well blame the government then you didn’t even mention the government in your post you had more smoke for Chinese moms

No. 2191776

>>2191775
How is saying China is shit not blaming the government? Do you think China is run by boymoms or something?

No. 2191777

>>2191772
>"It's not a racial issue"
>shitting on the entire county with a 1.4 billion population and generalizing it

No. 2191779

>>2191774
Chinese women do have a choice, as can be seen by the Chinese women who actually speak against it. I don't feel bad for quasi-sociopathic pickmes who purposely, deliberately enable moids in their abuse of other women, children and animals in any country. The French moids should be castrated too.

>>2191777
Point out where I generalized the whole population. Anyway, every country that enables animal rape and torture deserves to be ashamed and internationally embarrassed until they actually take action against it. China should be known as a land of animal rapists up until their government is so humiliated they enact laws and make examples of the perpetrators. If your feelings are hurt, be more hurt by the people creating that reputation.

No. 2191780

>>2191776
You seem to lol. Again if anything it’s not even Chinas government that’s the problem(it is a problem) it’s actually europes fault more specifically FRANCE for creating a platform like telegram that makes it easy to post and spread degeneracy with impunity throughout the world.

No. 2191782

>>2191780
France is the reason why children, women and animals are being abused all over the internet rn in record numbers

No. 2191785

>>2191780
I think you lack reading comprehension. And they do it on BilliBilli and other Chinese apps, too. Animal abuse didn't start with Telegram or France. I really can't stand you people who obsess over infantilizing people from non-western countries. That's an unironic form of racism whether you like it or not, lmao. Chinese moids are not innocent, they deserve to choke along with every other kind of piece of shit moids.

No. 2191798

>a month ago a random girl followed me on instagram
>i request to follow her back
>i learn its my ex bfs new gf
>he is the one that broke up with me 2 years ago
>never messaged her, she never messaged me
>still continued to follow each other
>fast forward 1 day ago and my ex unblocks me on his instagram to tell me that I am ugly and that he never liked me
do I say anything back? Wtf is his problem? him calling me ugly is hilarious too because I am literally his looksmatch

No. 2191801

>>2191798
i bet its not actually your ex but its the new gf using his acc to insult you lol

No. 2191803

>>2191785
agreed with you. honestly i wanna puke reading those posts where they act like its europes fault for what chinese men are doing to animals when europe has nothing to do with it?? what kind of logic is that

No. 2191804

>>2191780
also what does telegram have to do with france? the creator of telegram is literally a russian guy

No. 2191806

>>2191759
I blame lack of religion. Chinese people don’t believe in a judgmental Abrahamic god, and they aren’t religiously Buddhist/Hindu so they don’t believe in karma. They worship their ancestors like narcissists and think when they die that they too will become some angelic being like their ancestors.

No. 2191840

I'm thinking about getting a tablet, but forking out $300 for something I'm not sure I'd even use hurts, and buying electronics second-hand sets my paranoia off like nothing else…

No. 2191845

My dad is one of those people that believes introversion is an error or bad habit you should fix, not an actual personality trait. There's a difference between being shy (I think he's referring to this) and being an introvert, every time I try to explain this to him, he thinks it doesn't make sense. Just because he socialmaxxed he thinks I can pull the same stunt too, I could bullshit it to some extent if needed (at work, errands, etc), but my battery will eventually run low because again, I'm not an actual extrovert, I don't get energy from social interactions but the opposite. Also, he knows my brain is certainly kind of wacky in that regard, I was diagnosed schizoid 5 years ago after my grandpa developed schizophrenia, so, besides the personality I've always had, there's that running on my family's genetics.

I wonder if he's unwilling to accept my condition because of my gender, schizoid in females is rare and maybe he thinks I could easily fix it, he does think women are naturally more socially inclined

No. 2191852

something fun about lc is that you can easily tell when someone just gets all their opinions from here kek

No. 2191854

>>2191852
You can literally tell what social media someone gets their opinions from if they're zoomie-zillenial age if you talk to them for a while. Just because you don't hate trannies and men and post here doesn't make you Baste with Unshifting Opinions. It means you grew up on tumblr.

No. 2191860

>>2191854
love that you proved my point so quickly kek. making up fanfic in your head about the poster behind something you took offense to is so lc

No. 2191862

>>2191860
The fact that you took my generic "you" statement and then made up fanfiction in your head about it screams twitter/tumblr to me, assuming you're female.

No. 2191869

>>2191862
>can’t make her own post
>can’t read
>scrotefoiling out of nowhere
>saging randomly
pure stupidity. you have fun with that

No. 2191871

>>2191869
>loves trannies
>acts like lolcow is some female only Nosleep space where we must not acknowledge that there are men who use this site
At least I'm cute with common sense ♥(infighting)

No. 2191880

I accidentally bough yogurt made with sheep milk instead of cows milk and now my stomach hurts like a bitch. Am I allergic to that or something? When I eat cheese made out of sheeps milk I don't have any issues.

No. 2191896

>>2191327
Finally woke up, she came into my room several times without saying anything when usually she’d tell me goodnight/good morning. The first time I looked straight at her and she immediately looked right away and did that face where she looks really disturbed/disgusted. I’m so fucked, nothing will ever be the same again. She’s gonna tell my whole family too, it’s over

No. 2191899

>>2191852
>>2191860
>that is so lc
I hate newfags

No. 2191901

Holy shit I hate it so much when the psychologist is disorganised. You forgot your agenda again?? Why are you even writing if it's on different loose papers everytime, asking me the same things ughh

No. 2191913

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AAAAAA I SAW CHILD PORN. Like my day wasn't bad enough.

No. 2191916

Fuck fuck fuck why did I have to talk to him, now I know he's single and I have a chance and I'm going to obsess over this moid. Nonnas please shoot me if I even think to make a move.

No. 2191920

>>2191899
It's one very recognisable tard who keeps calling everything "fanfic" who has shat up the place ever since we left the bunkers.

No. 2191921

>>2191901
Kek every time I tried to get professional help I'd deal with this shit too, I remember telling the scrote that did my autism screening the same info about myself on 3 different occasions. I talked to someone else that went to him and they treated him the same way. Being a psychologist must be so easy you don't even have to remember shit about your patients and scam them out of thousands of dollars haha

No. 2191927

i need to get my ass back into shape. i need to finally go check out the gym i've been meaning to check out for a while and stop binging junk food. i hate that i let myself get to this point. i was doing so well 2 years ago, at my lowest weight since high school, exercising daily and eating properly. once i get back into a healthy routine i know i can lose the weight fairly easily but the hardest part for me is just starting the routine. i'm almost tempted to go snooping on his socials to find something that will hurt me so badly i don't want to eat for a bit just to force myself to stop binging.

No. 2192051

>>2190506
I guess its more the allure of being foreign, I would love to trade nonnie!

No. 2192136

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I'm so tired, I don't know what I'm going to do when I don't have my family with me anymore, this is really worrisome to me.
This week I had the opportunity to work at a school from 7 to 2, and it's driving me nuts, I seem to be calm but the nervousness is killing me and my huge wish to not be there makes me want to kill myself whenever a student talks to me in any shape or form. Stil, I'm kind and all that stuff, I'm not like those weird power tripping nurses and teachers, I may hate where my life has lead me, but I try to be decent.
Then I have another job from 4 to 6, by the time I'm back home I just go to sleep so I can wake up at 5 am to get ready for work.
My parents help me by cooking, cleaning, keeping everything nice st home, buying the groceries and everything else, they actually don't want me to help at home.
The thing is that I've been getting horribly sick these days, I have diarrhea because I don't go to the bathroom during the day and while I'm at work and I also have horrible migraines at night.
Like, if this is my life with my parents' help, then how the fuck am I going to survive when they're not around? I will have to kill myself.

No. 2192171

I was feeling like i was making progress on drawing, but then i tried drawing something without ref and it look horrendous, like someone who just learned how to pick a pencil a day ago would draw. I feel so frustrated.

No. 2192206

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I'M BATSHIT FUCKING INSANE (not in the quirky way). IN THE WAY THAT MAKES ME FALL OFF THE FACE OF THE PLANET

No. 2192248

I want to wake up with her. Life is so hard and I know it's hard for her too, I just wish that we weren't so far apart. I don't care if I have to work a shit back breaking job, I don't care if there's going to be nothing but suffering coming my way. I just want to go home and find her there relaxing. What more could anyone else want? I can't stand being without her anons. I really can't.

No. 2192254

>>2192248
Why are you telling us that instead of her?

No. 2192255

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Currently living in a disaster area. The main source of communication has been the radio with people calling in with info. The past few days the calls have been inundated with people saying that they are starting a prayer chain, that communities in other states are praying for us, and general blessings. The thought is nice and all but I would rather hear updates about power restoration and if the water is safe to drink yet.

No. 2192263

>>2192254
Nta but look what thread you're in, dumbass

No. 2192273

>>2192136
Also, I really, really hate how all jobs must always include having to talk with any sort of public, I'm a fucking autist, my face blindness is really fucking bad, I literally can't tell apart two people unless they have really different skin tones and even then I have a bad time figuring out how they fuck their faces are supposed to look like.
I also just don't give a fuck, I don't want to learn some rando's mug because I know I won't see it in a few years.
Why are there no jobs for autists? Shit where you don't need to speak to anyone for more than a few seconds at best, where I don't have to make sure anyone behaves like a fucking normal person and where I don't need to speak loudly at all.
I'm just sick of dealing with people, of dealing with kids, of talking to anyone, of repeating the same information over and over again, of listening to the phones of others parroting the most retarded of memes over and over and over and over again.
God I just want to fucking die, I hope this whole shit of having 2 jobs at the same time fucking kills me.
My parents are also always telling me that I should be happy that I have this opportunity, you know what was actually a good opportunity? Working for the united nations editing shit, it was a fake job with a good payment, I only needed to speak to a few people at best and usually by mail, that was my fucking dream job but then I had to come back to this place and work as the lowest of the low, a fucking teacher.
Talking to the other teachers makes me wonder just, how the fuck do they cope? What kind of autism do they all have and why don't I have it too? Because I've been working at that school for like 2 years and I already feel like I'm chewing a whole pack of bubblicious gum every single day, like every classroom is literally the same every year with different names.
It's literally insanity, it's trying to make people learn and behave by doing the same shit every year, like why? Why do this shit?
I'm just so tired.

No. 2192291

>>2192255
praying for u. in all seriousness i hope you get your power restored soon

No. 2192299

I’m never feeling sorry for the straight-presenting bisexuals again. It’s unfair that my life is at stake simply because the person I like happened to be a girl. It’s unfair that they get a right to have a family that loves them while I cannot simply because I cannot like a male. It’s the simplest and purest of human emotions. I can’t help but love. I can’t help my brain. Is it so much to ask for to just be accepted for who I am? By my own family, more than anyone? I have no one.

No. 2192323

i just fucking accidnetally broke my migrane meds box, everything is still in tact thankfully but all of the glue and one of the joints it all bent up, do any anons know of any good superglue for glass? i need to fix my mistake i am pretty torn up about it.

No. 2192355

>physically violent, drug addicted, alcoholic aunt is moving in with us because she got kicked out of her halfway house
>last time she was here she got caught letting random men into our home
>one of them left a gun laying around
>I threaten to leave if she comes
>my parents say ok bye
I hate that evil bitch so much and I hate my parents for coddling her. I want to find a simp asap to stay with for cheap so I can cut my parents and whole shitty family off for good. I am never speaking to them ever again once I’m out.

No. 2192359

Some context before I say this, my great-uncle that’s like 60 and gay was staying at my house this past week for my other uncles wedding since he lives in another state. While I was in my dining room I heard him in the living room calling someone that sounded 18-23. It was all normal until I heard, “I love your hairy ass.. I want to stick in tongue in it” after that he began full of phone sexting in my living room.. I was so disturbed and disgusted. His husband of 24 years just died like a month ago too, but men don’t care about that I guess. I was so disgusted but let it go. Now, today he finally left and he had been sleeping in my bed since he was old. I just slept on a blow up mattress in the dining room. I lift up my covers to find an obvious small towel used for .. y’know. I don’t know why I do anything nice for men anymore they’re so gross and can’t go without sex it masturbating for a few days while at someone ELSES house. God I hate men

No. 2192365

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>>2192323
I have used this

No. 2192420

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Has anyone faced a lot of rejection from men? I've always been made to feel like I'm a simp and a fucking dog.

No. 2192426

Is it my fault for my last relationship falling apart. My partner revealed to me after several years towards the end that they were a victim of csa from a family member which lead years of emotional unavailability/neglect to me on their part. Said I was the only person they ever revealed their trauma to. Am I the asshole for finally moving on after many years of being strung along due to their unresolved trauma. They’re too sick to seek out help for themselves. Am I a bad person for leaving after just recently being revealed this after a near decade of being hurt from their emotional damage.

No. 2192429

>>2192420
I couldn't slid into someone's DMs

No. 2192435

>>2192426
Not your fault and also not your job to fix them. It's their own responsibility to go to therapy and work on themselves. Don't set yourself on fire trying to keep someone warm and all that

No. 2192454

>>2192435
Ty anon.
It was finally time I needed to move on with my life.
I acquired a new Nigel and he his leagues more caring and thoughtful than former partner. I finally feel like I’m finally in a normal nontoxic relationship.

No. 2192520

>>2192420
As a kid and a teen, yes, otherwise I stopped giving a fuck once I was 23 years old.

No. 2192524

My housemate hates me and wants me gone but refuses to say why. He’s the kinda guy who blames women for his own problems and I’ve been slowly freezing him out (nothing severe, just hanging out with him less - and I’ve been really busy at work anyway). I think he hates me because I don’t give him the feminine attention he craves and although I despise his attitude and lack of backbone (he refuses to discuss things and is useless at getting anything done; I’ve had to sort multiple things in the house because he refuses to help even when asks, and blames me for any mess) I can’t afford to move out. What do I do?? I hate him and fear I’ll kick him in the dick if he whines at me about how ‘ungrateful’ or ‘rude’ I am but I want to sort this out. Please help ladies I’m at the end of my tether …

No. 2192542

My depression hovel has gotten so bad that it smells like something is going bad…. now I'm scared to even look but I know I have to fucking clean I just can't do it there is literally so much to do and I feel like even doing it in small steps would about as long or longer than doing a full deep clean fuck this gay life fuck this gay institution. I know I have to do it and I've been doing everything in my power to ignore it. Wtf.

No. 2192551

>>2192542
Do you want tips

No. 2192580

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If I’m lucky, I get one good week a month wherein I feel driven, clear-headed and alive. Healthy. When I feel it I wonder, is this how everyone else feels, all or most of the time? Is this why people can achieve things and I can’t? I would give anything to feel like that even just for two weeks out of the month. The difference is like night and day.

Then there is the week before my period which is the opposite. Drinking, strong desire to disappear, crying, the lot. My period is regular, so I can tell myself ‘I am just experiencing hormonal fluctuations’, but it doesn’t work. It’s all too strong. I used to be depressed and felt absolutely nothing; now there is this storm to sail whose moments of calm are bittersweet because of their brevity.

I have a deep mistrust of doctors (and although there is definitely a pattern which corresponds to my cycle, it is more unpredictable than that, and I think it is a spiritual problem too) — but this is so unbearable that I might see one. I can’t commit to anything long-term despite feeling so capable when I’m ‘up’. I literally cannot live like this

No. 2192592

>>2191627
She’s a complete piece of shit. I’m really sorry you had to go through all that.

No. 2192593

My long-time crush is pregnant with her ugly fat moid’s baby and my heart is breaking into a million pieces, maybe literally, because lately my pulse has been crazy all day long and I have permanent shakes ever since I saw a picture of her showing. It’s bad because in my dumb fantasies I used to fantasize about her being pregnant and me taking care of her, and now I see the vision in real life and the reality is too hard to take. This is the most painful thing I’ve ever gone through. How do I find the strength to stop checking up on her socials? I keep saying I will stop, but can never follow through, because I get weak and just want to see her face again.

No. 2192594

>>2192593
You should block her

No. 2192600

>>2192593
This is my worst fear ever

No. 2192601

>>2192593
Oh nonny. I think you deserve to be happy, you should block her and maybe start spending more time outside people watching lady strangers instead? Try to figure out what you're attracted to?

No. 2192633

>>2192594
I have blocked her, but I'm retarded so I keep unblocking her days later to see her face again, I have no self control. I wish I had a friend who could steal my phone from me and beat me with a shoe if they saw I had her unblocked. Maybe I need to go to jail or something, it's starting to seem like that's the only way I'd be able to stop.
>>2192601
>start spending more time outside people watching lady strangers instead? Try to figure out what you're attracted to?
this is the most shit thing about the situation– I've never been attracted to any woman fully except her. I've tried to force myself into finding other women attractive but I can't, I guess she was my "exception" as dumb as that sounds. (The closest I get is recognizing similar features to her in other women and liking those, but only because they remind me of her, and still, hers are just way more beautiful.) The other shit thing is that after falling in love with her, I can't go back to moids because it's not the same anymore, I realized never loved any of them even a fraction as much as I loved her. I feel like I've ruined my life.

No. 2192690

>>2192551
If you have any I'm all ears.

No. 2192709

>>2192593
I get where you're coming from but this honestly reads like a possessive kind of jealousy that a moid would have. It sounds like you need to fully process your feelings and give yourself some time to get over her like any other crush. Did you even really know her or like her on a deeper level? Evidently you didn't even know she had a serious bf to have braced yourself.

No. 2192723

>>2192709
I think calling my feelings "moid-like" is a really unkind and unfair thing to say to me. That's all I have to say.

No. 2192724

>>2192707
Some anons in here have some really weird fingers/hands.

No. 2192733

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>30s
>monthly hormonal shifts as bad as when I was a teenager except now I have real adult problems
>ugly cry, feel suicidal, generally hopeless, unlovable, work stress, etc.
>know deep down friend group doesn't like me
>guess that's just what happens when people get to know me beyond a superficial level, or I just refused relationships with multiple moids in group so now I am "annoying"
>convinced they keep me around cause I am useful and a money resource
>anyway
>post in group chat about my feelings, not something I do ever at all it's just that today is hitting me hard and could use support
>one heart and one hug react
>someone else immediately posts a picture of a burn they are all currently chilling at because they all live together in the same apartment complex meanwhile I live an hour away and no one ever comes to see me or hang out
>cannot tell if they posted about burn to change subject, or to try to make me feel better
>pretty sure it was just to change subject cause them posting how they are having a good time hanging out does not make me feel better
>cool girl, pretend I am happy for them
Jesus nons end me.

No. 2192739

>>2192593
i'm so sorry you're going through this. heartbreak hurts so much and it hurts physically, it's almost unbearable. but time heals all wounds and someday you will be able to think about her without pain. for now just try to do what you can to keep going and not ruminate too much.

No. 2192742

>>2192723
In the most gentle of ways to say this: You were in love with a fantasy. What would be kind to yourself is not ascribing greater meaning to an attraction that was never that deep. I feel for you and know what it's like, though.

No. 2192744

>>2192739
thank you anon for your words. you're right, it really is physical. I had no idea until now. I will try my best and I hope you're right that one day the pain will stop and I can look back with fondness instead of tears.

No. 2192746

how tf do you even communicate w/ men? you can pull every single one of your punches and they'll still get their feelings hurt b/c you found the most gentle way to explain to them how they completely fucked something up. you could literally ask your moid to thaw chicken, come home to frozen chicken, then when you ask "how did you manage to fuck up something so easy?" now you have a moid boo-hooing b/c they feel like they "can't do anything right". yes, MOID! your average 16-year-old girl can follow directions and intuit better than a grown ass man! but even the harsh truth doesnt get them to become capable, they just wallow and wait for a mommy to come and do it the right way. they want you to be honest with them but cant handle anything that isnt coddling.

No. 2192756

>>2192746
>they want you to be honest with them
Lol no they don't. They want you to be a convenient, self-sacrificing handmaiden. Chicken wasn't thawed after coming home from your work shift? Don't burden your poor man with your complaints, just burn the extra energy to quietly pick up behind him–and he will leave much for you to do. Like thawing and cooking the chicken for him so that way when he acts surprised later that you picked up the task that he was totally gonna do after his eleventh round of vidya, you still give him the brownie points for his supposed intentions cause it's his thoughts that really count! And if you don't and expect them to do better, then you're a bitch.
It's weaponized incompetence. Male brains are trying to convince themselves that they are good people by making women the villains in their headcannons.

No. 2192798

my family line is full of hedonistic retards and enablers and it pisses me off, not because of habits they gave me that i had to break out of myself but because usually i'm the person they go to when they wanna rant about things they have more than enough power to fucking change. suggest changes and it's usually "no you dont get it I HAVE to!" i am so sick and tired of being their vent piggy