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No. 2092795
Dramatic cat edition.
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I don't care that I'm making myself dependent on a man anymore.
I'm 20 years old. I got in a loop of trying to study whilst having hard labour jobs like care (assaulted) and factory work (cold and back ache) which led to failure and burn out. I had no friends, because I was socially inept after trauma related psychosis, and am only just learning to make friends. Suddenly there's this guy, who wants me. Not even my mum wants me, she ignores what I say and goes on her phone, and only lights up when her boyfriend is there, who thinks I'm a failure, and talks to be seen talking- when he's there, my mum pretends to care about me, and wears makeup. She used to slam my head into the ground because I peed as a kid and was difficult because of ocd. When I asked her about it, it was all '…so I'm a bad mother?'. And she is sometimes a good mum, and occasionally listens, I can just tell that it's a duty to her, and we can't talk normally, I'm just a task, and she reluctantly lets me stay, but ignores me, making me feel lonelier, as the rest of the family gossips about me. It would be easier if I could hate her, but I don't, I love her very much. I just hate how much people lie.
Now there's a guy who wants to marry me. Finally somebody wants me there, and they like me autism. I wasn't even attracted to him at first, but I care deeply, and he makes me feel safe, in a way my parents never made me. I don't care that losing my virginity really hurt, or that I have to perform something for him. He really likes me, and I can be held now. I feel ok with this. I like being called 'little one' and 'kitten'. I know it's gross. I also don't condone dependence- I really want to see other women, if they can, choosing to support themselves, and be safe from dependence. But for me- I won't be dependent when I have my degree done, in four years. Then at least I can pay for shelter, if I'm left, I guess. I guess all I have now is having a kind of nice body, and that will bring me temporary safety. I do love him, but there were no sparks like when I was dating women (who didn't like me back). But finally somebody wants me. Finally I belong. I don't care if I'm living a lie, I'm deeply cared for, and knowing his character, his gentleness, humour, generosity, I deeply care for him too, so I'll do my best for him, whilst building myself up. This is good enough.
This is the truth I can't tell anyone.
I guess you can hate me, and call me a pickme. I just want to survive in this world. I feel lonely not being able to tell anyone the whole truth. Thank you if you read all of this.
No. 2092816
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I am trying to go low contact with my narc mother and thought I would just occasionally text her instead of meeting her. So I sent her a picture of a recent hangout with my friends. It was just an image of the five of us sitting around a table in a bar.
A few hours later I check if she replied and I see a giant WALL OF TEXT detailing how an acquaintance of hers was recently diagnosed with brain cancer, is attending chemo treatment and lost all her hair and how her adult children are in panic and the daughter even said that if her mother would die, she would commit suicide because her life would feel meaningless without her mother. I was like WHAT THE FUCK. What is this?? Absolutely no reaction or acknowledgement of the picture I sent her, no 'hi, how are you'. After I got over my shock, I figured out that she's probably trying to guilt trip me?? Like 'how do you dare having fun when people out there are dying' or 'other people would kill themselves if their mother had cancer and yet you won't even call me or meet me'??
No. 2092860
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I went to the ob-gyn and she said I might have a fibroid. It would explain a lot (heavy, painful periods and cramping outside of that time). I have an ultrasound scheduled for later this week. I'm scared and I don't know what to expect. Do any anons have fibroids? Please talk me down
No. 2092868
>>2092860Fibroids aren't that big of a deal nona, it's unfortunate that you have these symptoms, but fibroids aren't really dangerous. In my country you can get them removed if the symptoms get too bad.
>>2092862I wouldn't get myself memed into birth control pills though. They might just give you equally bad side effects.
I honestly think birth control pills are evil, they have so many shitty side effects, but women are somehow expected to take them anyway, even though condoms are objectively the better choice, but of course moids lying about how they feel less good is way more important than the physical and mental well being of women.
No. 2092914
I haven't spoken to my ex in over 2 years. Rough relationship of 7 years that ended very badly to the point he has lasting resentment for me AFAI heard, but that's besides the vent. It's pissing me off because I've moved on(which was huge for me, since he was a childhood friend I attached to, to a point of unhealthy obsession) recently I have found a nigel who I love very much and have not spared my ex a thought then BAM!!! Out of nowhere my brain has me dreaming about the life the two of us could've had if it worked, and then I'm hit with another of the same nature!!! Then I find myself looking up his profiles, checking in again but I do not know why. Haven't told anyone in my personal life.
Unsurprisingly I still hate him.
The worst thing is that he wasn't abusive– atleast not physically, but if my fears were to manifest physically he'd be among the top 3. I'm not sure what's happening, I don't want him back, I never want to see him again. I despise this feeling, it's like part of me is still latched onto his being and I need to cut it off ASAP or I'm spiraling over nothing and ruining another good relationship for this retard, AGAIN!!!
No. 2092921
>>2092903Yeah I'm not disagreeing with you, just saying there's a bit more nuance to it. BC saved my sorry ass but it also made me balloon up in weight so I am not exactly recommending it - some of us are just cursed bitches with no other option.
Doctors argue that it takes time to find the right one for you, but I can't imagine having to suffer through something like endometriosis monthly and also gamble with side-effects while pissing away money for 1-3 months at a time over and over again. I had to do that whole song and dance with antidepressants which was frustrating as hell, so I get it.
No. 2092933
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>>2092919Congrats nonners!
No. 2092939
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I'm sick of dealing with jealous women in professional and friendship capacities.
>am manager for contract company
>try to communicate to client our intention to have work scheduled but need her confirmation due to schedule conflicts with her own customers
>we tried to schedule work before without her confirmation only for her company to kick us out from performing the work
>client contact chooses not to say anything or escalate to her superiors
>time passes by with no service performed
>she replies later to unrelated email threads cc'ing my bosses stating how the deadline for service has passed which means we (I) fucked up so she will open an investigation/complaint
>professionally explain how they are the ones driving the schedule and we did not hear back from her so how was I supposed to have scheduled service?
>get a reply that's basically "NO U"
>she already hates me because I supposedly "embarrassed" her before during a Team's meeting where I was politely trying to tell her what her documents needed to be updated with in order to pass FDA audits–and I was only bringing that up because instructions in the documents were unclear and conflicting for my team!
>of course she's a hiddy planet-sized lazy-eyed bulldyke looking motherfucker too
>train a new male manager to take over this service contract, thank god
>same bitch is as sweet as pie to him
>she even politely asked him to reschedule service without blaming him unlike me because her customer once again caused a schedule conflict to the surprise of no one
I hate her. She reminds me of every old ugly fat bully manager bitch I ever had to deal with when I worked in offices.
I want to talk about the uggo bitch who infiltrated my friend circle and poisoned the well alongside my ex, but she's not even worth the energy. Fuck these cows, but not really.
No. 2092987
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Genuine honest to god question why and how am I having physical stress related issues when it feels like I barely do anything all day. I just found out the reason I'm not having periods is not because of PCOS, medication, or insulin resistance etc I am literally just too stressed out. What the hell do I do? How do I relax? Yes I work and I have hobbies but if anyone looked at my schedule on a daily basis they'd obviously think I am a lazy piece of shit who gets things done every 2-3 business days
Ironically I have a feeling that if I just stopped schizoing out I would get more things done but how am I supposed to do anything if I don't hold myself to standards. Is this where I unironically start eating whatever pills big pharma tells me to or start getting weekly massages or something? my idea of relaxation is playing challenging video games but I've actually started taking 30 minute walks daily first thing in the morning at the ass crack of dawn 6 AM and lymphatic system is still setting itself on fire for some reason
No. 2093180
>>2093019Oh
nonnie. This broke my heart a bit. I’m sure you are exceptional in your own way, whether it be creativity, emotional intelligence, skills, physical intellect, social intellect. Also, truly unintelligent people typically overestimate their intellect, so the fact that you’re aware of it enough to be even slightly insecure about it probably means you’re probably smarter than you give yourself credit for. Take care of yourself friend!
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>>2093223> Tfw you willingly work in the medical industry and the patients that you chose to work with have medical needsWhy is everyone in the industry like this? I wish you all the best nonna.
No. 2093380
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I hate that my hormones this one part of my period, they unironically make me suicidal like 300% more than any other time. I don't know what the fuck it is and I don't know if anyone else has it, but one day that happens towards the end of my menstrual cycle literal makes me want to run into oncoming traffic like nothing else. I have no idea why because literally nothing else is wrong wtf, wtf is this?? I literally feel like I'm going crazy. I know I'll wake up tomorrow and be fine.
No. 2093423
>>2093415For the sake of helping you prioritize: Do you live alone? You said "we" (idk if you meant you and your neighbor) but maybe your partner or someone can look for the cat while you help your friend. It sounds like your neighbor mows infrequently so doesn't sound like you have to worry about your chickens getting run over that soon. Can you leave cat food on a window sill with the window open that'd be accessible to your cat? So basically: Your friend, leave food out for cat or delegate, rest/meds for your throat, chicken issue can wait.
That said, if you live in such a rural area, couldn't there also be predators or loose farm dogs? It'd be much safer it sounds like to keep your cat and chickens in enclosures(not sure if it just escaped, so if so, sorry) and if your neighbor is an unfriendly psycho it's still on you to protect your chickens.
No. 2093427
I’ve always been against the whole no-contact thing but I think….I don’t even like saying it, I don’t think I love my mom much anymore. Every conversation we have, every single one, I walk away feeling worse about myself, worse about everything, because she’s such a miserable dark cloud of a person. She couldn’t stop thinking about herself when I lived under her roof and she DEFINITELY can’t empathize now. She was never much of a parent to us, ever since I was 12 it’s like I’ve been reaching out desperately for help to someone who wasn’t there, too wrapped up in her own problems to hear about mine. Just put me on meds and sent me to therapy but never listened, always saying oh this is too much for me, you’re bringing me down. There is a direct through line from the way I grew up to my emotional/attachment problems as an adult, to this day. In my thirties now for what it’s worth and I still can’t let go. Since she’s a generally nice but depressed type of person I feel too much pity to cut her off.
No. 2093441
>>2093423Thank you very much. Just thank you. They're both asleep, its 2am, i just feel like going out again to check again. I'll hold myself to the priorities though. Thanks again.
They got an entire cat room, freestanding from my house, part chicken shed, fresh water sources outside, and he knows how to open doors. Today was a toss up between leaving the door open for him, or for my friends husband..
Last fox evidence i saw was five years ago, else small birds of prey, we sadly eradicated all other predators. Hiking with a flashlight in the dark though, I started realising how many wild cats we have. I could point some to houses I know- tick bands, but how many seemed wild. Not today though, I'll focus on this after my friend. (Then feeding stations, traps, castration of course, feedind and vets when needed) I feel much better now, I'll go pass out hopefully.
No. 2093550
>>2093458wtf are you getting out of this arrangement? does he help pay for things? do you even like him?
>>2093479jesus im sorry. only thing i can think of to say is that this stress wont be forever, and i hope you can have some time to relax soon..
No. 2093607
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I've allowed myself to get so emotionally retarded that I can't cry
it sucks
I haven't been able to cry when I needed to since middle school
I really want to cry, all I can do is sit here fuming instead
No. 2093609
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and it’s fucking retarded and I hope he kills himself for posting this
No. 2093629
>>2093627>mood stabilizer nta, but you mean "woman-retarding pill"
>>2093380do not start taking mood stabilizers, I'm sorry
No. 2093631
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im tired of asking "friends" to hangout and i get left on delivered for hours or a day and its always like its me having to beg? it just feels so pathetic and retarded and sometimes ill get apologies like "im sorry im just flakey haha!!" but they never do that with their other friends, aka the people they actually make time for and care about disappointing or bailing on. im always somehow on the outskirts of a friend group, always awkward and just standing there cracking retarded jokes. I have like 2 friends that i see more than once a year. I dont know if i even count the others as friends when its such a goddamn hassle to get them to respond to me, let alone hangout. it just makes me want to huddle up and give up on social interaction, fully embracing the crazy cat lady shit. im just worn down i guess but am still possibly seeing one of my friends this weekend if she doesnt bail. i have so few friends and i dont know if ill get a good chance to make anymore. i just feel like i missed the peak chance for good, long term friendships in high school.
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I was super stressed and barely ate for 6 weeks and now that I’m less stressed I’ve been eating too much. I didn’t even lose weight the first round and I’m afraid of gaining too much
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For the nonna that said she likes tamagotchi in the last thread, I hope you can rekindle with your interests eventually, I'm rooting for you ♥
No. 2093681
>>2093662I mean I'm glad for you, but I was forced onto mood stabilizers for years and it has destroyed my brain and no doctor will listen to me anymore because I have an extensive history of "psychotrope dependency," so I do not recommend them
It's okay for two different people to submit their input
No. 2093699
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>>2093691it was a deleted post the anon took offense to for no reason kekk. i just want a goddamn reading man
No. 2093735
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I get him. I get this character now. I have rage problems that mirror a.man’s
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>>2093735This makes me laugh so hard ugh but this is so me
No. 2093809
>>2093770That's been happening to me too
nonny, I fucking hate it
No. 2094026
>>2093981I think what
>>2094003 suggested would work, as long as the tip is at least $5.
No. 2094046
>>2093966i feel for you
nonnie. i hate when people crank the ac to freezing cold as soon as it gets warm outside. when you're sitting in an ac'd office all day and not doing physical labour 20c is cold.
No. 2094049
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>>2093981Never rely on men
No. 2094229
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I have this stupid awful impossible crush and it’s driving me insane and I want to combust. I don’t know what to do because I’ve never had a crush before in my entire adult life and this one is definitely impossible, there are so many barriers. I’m obsessed with this guy and it’s gotten to the point where I lose sleep and my sanity over it. I feel like such a bad feminist and a sex traitor most of all because I know all moids suck and are awful subhuman creatures but I can’t help but be totally taken by this guy ,who by the way, I don’t even personally know and will probably never get to know. I can’t even look him in the eyes for the short interactions we have, I’ve tried so many things to get rid of these feelings and nothing works. I don’t know what to do i’m going insane and losing my mind and I can’t make it stop, I need someone to lobotomize me and make it go away i’m so tired of having feelings. I had to vent somewhere about this because I promised myself I wouldn’t mention this man to anyone in my life anymore because I want to stop being an annoying girl who just talks about an ugly stupid mid moid all the time. Kill me now!!!!
No. 2094248
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My biological father is such an asshole I can't even believe I'm related to him. I contacted him for the first time ever, making it clear I wasn't asking for anything other than getting some questions answered (mostly medical, but some other basic background stuff), that's it even though he was a massive deadbeat who never paid child support at all. He was good and freaked so I guess I'm glad I upset him for a little while, at least. Anyway, we agreed to talk at a certain time but when I called him at the appointed time he let the phone ring a few times before refusing to take the call. I tried again and he shut off his phone.
I don't understand why he couldn't have just said no from the start and why he had to be so absolutely cruel about this whole thing. In a way it's a relief that this is over at least I just can't believe someone I'm biologically related to could be so mean spirited for no reason (I realize this is naive and that obviously families are cruel to each other all the time, this entire situation put me in a strangely childish frame of mind I guess). It's just so goddamn irritating. I'm so annoyed.
No. 2094273
>>2094251I'm glad she didn't do anything that could irritate its eyes.
>>2094264You're right, and thank you.
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>roommate gets aggressive with me, shouting and threatening me
>police don't log it as anything but tell me if he does it again I need to call the emergency line
>he does it again and I call them
>>we can't do anything, just leave the premises if you're threatened as a way to safeguard yourself
AAAAAAAAAA I can't wait to leave in 2 days
No. 2094299
>>2094229>. I feel like such a bad feminist and a sex traitor most of all because I know all moids suck and are awful subhuman creatures but I can’t help but be totally taken by this guyyou're not a sex traitor for having feelings
nonny. relax.
No. 2094360
I never want to be involved with someone with BPD again. My head hurts every single day. All I can think about is how I'm such an awful horrible evil person, I'm controlling, I'm abusive, I'm manipulative, and I feel terrified to think good things about myself because I just need to "improve" and if I start thinking good things about myself then I could get too full of myself and accidentally hurt someone again.
But then I realized, like… it really is just BPD people making me feel this way. Ever since I was a little fuckhead teenager on tumblr, all the people who hurt me and made me feel scared were just other teens who would grow up to have BPD. The people who hurt me recently, they have BPD. The most recent one is even spreading rumors I'm a pedophile for some fucking reason after blocking. But when I talk to people who don't have BPD, they view me so much differently. I don't feel scared, I don't feel like I have to walk on eggshells not to upset them, they view me as chill and sweet and anxiety-ridden, not as a monster. I often see people online saying you can't say bad things about borderlines because it's ableist but I just feel like it's true. They just really are all like that, because how is it I've been so terminally online to only have experiences with BPD twitter/tumblr users and this is the person it's made me? Someone so terrified of accidentally hurting someone I would keep my self esteem low on purpose. Years and years have passed and until I started branching out, that was really my only experience with people. Every single time I come into contact with someone who just has the borderline vibe I get a fight or flight esque reaction, like I have to get away from this person who is acting all sugary sweet, I have to run, they could snap at any moment, anything I do could set this fucker off. You know the vibe, right? Typing in all lowercase, acts kinda childish, uses multiple exclamation points, usually has an anime or emo pfp, bonus points if it's both.
Idk, I just don't want anything to do with them anymore. If that makes me ableist, than sure. I just have to protect myself. I'm so tired of this perpetual tension headache I have because of the trauma they've left me with. I hope the time passes soon and I can just forget about it and all those people who hurt me for good.
No. 2094372
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I paid ten dollars for the fast shipping and then the fuckers lost my goddamn package and the replacement will take a week to get here. Literally choke on my shit, stub your toe, get a flat tire, and DIE.
No. 2094440
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Why does it seem like my friends never say anything positive about me. Among us, I've heard them compliment each other on various things, but I only get how it's surprising when I do or say they didn't expect me to. Or constantly joking that I must be from a different planet. They also seem to forget anything of note I've ever done. Like organizing something or buying a gift. They likely will misremember as someone else in our group as having done that. But on the other hand, when it's some crackpot crazy thing, suddenly all of them point to me. I'm not very talkative but I will voice some of my out-there thoughts, but suddenly it's become my whole personality to them. I'm not sure if it's because all my other qualities pale compared to this to them, or they simply think it's all there is to me. I feel like a court jester.
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>applying for jobs
>spend forever on flagship project, last minute problems pop up that break everything
>fuck it ill just apply to the jobs i actually want and by the time they look at my resume or website ill have the issue fixed
>submit application 1 hour ago
>app status says reviewed, google analytics show that they clicked on everything
>mfw
No. 2094484
>>2094479ntayrt but trannys aren’t capable of getting pregnant or giving birth. what do they have to do with our ability to have children, which is not only
hard but like that anon said, even risky. it is very brave to grow a whole new human being and give birth to it.
No. 2094500
>>2094499please calm down and stop getting butthurt about an antinatalist
nonny. there is a cat and dog haters thread, there is a youtube haters thread, there is a mental illnesses you hate thread, do not say it's just about cows. this site is teeming with hatred.
No. 2094518
>>2094511I think you can hate
your own mom without projecting that hate onto every other woman who either is pregnant or defends moms, they need to start teaching manners in schools again..
No. 2094541
>>2094489
>Why would I want a mother who’s spending time trolling trannies online? Do you seriously think that’s befitting of someone to become a mother?
It sounds like you are projecting a lot of "shoulds" on who you think a mother should be. For many, being a mother is only a small part of their identity. Browsing lolcow says nothing about a person's parenting skills. Many of us browse lc on the toliet or during short breaks. Everyone loves a bit of gossip and commentary on events. Why is it crazy that it's on lolcow? It seems misogynist to reduce a person who has a child to "only" being a mother if that's what you are insinuating here.
>Better yet she has access to probably the few man hating websites on here with full access to shitty scrote behavior and thought process and decides to let one of those beasts cum inside of her.
We don't know if she "let" the man cum inside her. Men commonly stealth. This could be a rape pregnancy for all you know. Even if it is totally consensual and the anon wanted a child, we don't know if she intends to raise the child by herself, or if she has a large family, or the living situation of anon. You're making a lot of assumptions about someone you know nothing about. It is unrealistic to assume that people will not continue to have children when that's a process that is as natural as eating for mammals.
> You need to understand that she doesn’t care, if she let the beast cum inside of her then there was no forethought and no ethical decisions in the matter.
If it's consensual, we have no idea why she decided having a child was worth it. There are people who debate back and forth if they should have a child or not. You don't know and it's disgusting to assume there was no thought process. You sound no better than a parrot of moid talking points.
>They get enjoyment and a sense of power of being impregnated, disabled, waddling like a fucking retard because you have an actual biological parasite inside of you sucking the life out of you. It’s like some disgusting hidden masochistic fetish
A lot of women I know have had totally normal pregnancies and it's not seen as having a sense of power. Pregnant women are incredibly vulnerable if anything.
You're acting like women have all the keys to reproduction, but we don't. That's a lie society likes to peddle and it's why birth control pills were designed for women first. It furthers that idea.
You have no intention of helping your own sex, you just want an excuse to be as misogynist to women as possible.
No. 2094567
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I feel suffocated by my life. I want to rip out of my skin.
No. 2094709
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I'm trying to cook something more complicated than rice for the first time in my life and none of the recipes I find online use any kind of time indication for how long it should cook. "Cook until its done", what do you mean until its done? I barely manage to boil water in a pot; the rice I'm cooking tastes weird 50% of the time, too, because I can't properly estimate how much water it needs. Don't call your recipe easy if it's still hard enough to leave questions behind and you won't even grant me the honor of you holding my hand through every single step.
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Got a health insurance termination letter today.. it’s all so tiresome.
No. 2094720
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I hate living in my 20s being with useless family members. My mental and physical health is going down the drain just living with them day by day. I thought I could tolerate my mom but honestly I can’t anymore, she’s overweight, lazy, overridden with vices she doesn’t feel that needs to be addressed or fixed because she’s in that state of mind where she feels it’s her time up on earth and anxious about something bad happening to her due to her health but not even exercising, fixing her diet, moving her body more to make her be here longer. My brothers are virtually useless and I wouldn’t care if they were dead or alive, I have no love or concern for them. As dramatic at this sounds I’m almost starting to feel like they’re both borderline sociopathic and that’s how I should view them coming from now on. My relationship between me and my sister is dwindling and virtually nonexistent, I viewed it with nostalgic rose-colored glasses because she was basically in a caretaker role and I was the youngest and of course the only eldest daughter takes on the child caring role while my mother was working because men are virtually useless and even then my mom was practically emotionally mature and still bad at her finances. I honestly think we were so close because of the circumstance of both of us being born by the same parents and living in tight quarters we shared the same worries, fears, even some wishes but beyond that I saw a connection between us that wasn’t even there. I’m starting to realize nobody is there for me, not even my family and that it’s a function of society that will no longer matter anymore. It’s not your family you should be relying on or even trying to help, they can be your own enemies living in the same house as you and that makes for great horror. I used to cry about this but it’s honestly freeing transitioning my mindset from believing family matters to realizing they are the closest people that will tear you down, walk all over you, have no best interest for you at all, just complete energy vampires that take everything emotionally and physically out of you until you’re not longer viable anymore. I’ve lost all my desire and will to even have friends, to care about romance and love, I feel like a separate entity compared to others in a room. I’ve become completely hopeless anything will change and will become better and it makes me feel relieved. Things probably won’t change. I probably won’t be able to get more money. I probably won’t be able to save up. I probably will be somewhere in a worse spot than I am already am. I just don’t care anymore. I don’t aspire to be happy and I don’t really want to be sad. I’ve said a lot of Is in this blogpost but this is just for me to send into the void..
No. 2094776
>>2094768well
nonnie are you open to maybe moving past those
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>>2094774thank you for that nonna
No. 2094799
>>2094775First, the fact she took so long to divorce my dad. They fought literally everyday, I didn't know peace for my entire childhood and adolescence. Also, she was pretty neglectful of my health and a liar. She never bothered to teach me how to cook, so I only ate at school. There was a time I used to wear braces but I didn't finish the treatment because she didn't have money. But instead of not letting me do something that would need her financial support in the first place, she waited for me to wake up early thinking that there would be an appointment for me to attend only to tell me that there was no appointment at all. Eventually, I got sick of her lies and negligence.
>>2094776Yes, but I don't know how.
No. 2094801
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Tfw the cute artsy girl you used to be madly in love with during your teens, now identifies as femmetransmasc with pronoun list longer than their name and on top of that seems to be spending their talent on drawing porn of that twink spider from Hazbin Hotel
Is there any hope for gay women?
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>>2094800Don't tell me the truth, anon. It sucks. I want to blame myself because I'm only open to adopting and he knows this. He is aware I will never get pregnant. Ugh. He's a good man, though, he would make a good father. I've even thought it myself before how it is a little messed up I don't want kids given how good of a dad he'd be.
No. 2094879
>>2094830I'd wish they'd fucking stop because I hate having every visit at my sister in law's house get spoiled by all the white scrotes shit talking their
woc wives. I want to speak up, but their wives laugh at it even though some of it is definitely not jokes and is blatantly racist. I'm not a
woc so I am not sure if me complaining would be in poor taste. I will say it's disgusting when I have to hear white men use their
woc as excuses for them to be racist, like I want to punch their teeth out.
No. 2094932
>>2094879>I have to hear white men use their woc as excuses for them to be racist, like I want to punch their teeth out.As a
WOC, please do.
No. 2094933
>>2094922I swear to God, White male BBC consumers are just gay and/or bisexual. Thinking about Black dicks 24/7 is just not straight.
Maybe that's why they're so angry at their own women—they want the BBC all for their anuses only
No. 2094936
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My family cares more about the dogs than me. My family would rather me hole up in my room 24/7 365 than get rid of the dogs. I can't leave my room or my face breaks out into a flurry of horrible flares because of the amount of dander and hair the house is saturated in. I want to kill those dogs. I want to kill them so much it consumes every waking thought. I wish I had money so that I can move out. I can't stand it. Do you all know what happened when I discussed with my brother he said
>Maybe you could move in with Grandma?
As in, because of my health issues I should be the one to leave. Not the animals. Me. I am lower than two fucking mutts. Jesus Christ.
No. 2094979
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>>2094958Have you never seen the guy? Calling him "Asian" is a stretch. Doesn't even really come off as mixed at all.
No. 2095025
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>>2094971Their posts are so unhinged they read like parody from the post like a moid thread
No. 2095082
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>make tea
>peacefully scrolling lolcor
>small speck falls by my glass, what is it
>spider descends from the ceiling DIRECTLY INTO MY CUP OF TEA
>mfw
No. 2095169
>>2095162Happy birthday,
nonnie. I hope you do something nice for yourself today, even if it's small ♥
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> buying stuff
> the cashier finishes ringing it up
> exchange pleasantries
> she says "thank you very much"
> reflexively say "no problem" back like a pompous bitch
> the cashier next to her fucking laughs
> immediately just leave without looking back
Why am I such a sped nonnas
No. 2095272
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>>2094830Not exactly the same thing, but this reminds me.
>look at the twitter account of some female RW YouTuber (edgy pickme type) >one of her reply guys is a guy who called his account something like "Protect Aryan Beauty">his tweets are about having white babies or whatever, hating degeneracy/browns, etc>go to check his following>there are 1-2 "blacked"/interracial porn accounts mixed in with racist RW accounts (you can't normally see every account another user follows, and he was following plenty of right-wing accounts, so he might have assumed this would go unseen)>click on another racist RW account from there>more racist posts>check their following>even more interracial accounts, with BNWO/raceplay shit mixed in>check the replies>he's interacting with a bunch of other right wingers talking about how they "hate" degeneracy but BBC porn is "the most potent drug of all"I'm convinced Elon will eventually hide all user's following lists to help hide this sort of thing. And then there was that prominent right winger account with the anime pfp that larped as a tradthot, but turned out to be some guy with a blacked fetish (I think "she" was called laineypilled) and he was supposedly part of a whole network of RW users interested in that.
I don't take right wing moids seriously. The ones who don't want to fuck women of other races are too busy lusting over the men, and/or the thought of white women having sex with them while they get "cucked". There is a reason so many trannies are also weird, racist porn addicts, and it's because these degenerates are one and the same. I've concluded that any woman who falls into that and simps for those men is either a retard, or has the same deranged fetish.
No. 2095281
>>2095235NTA
>I'll have you know I formed my entire worldview on worshiping men on my own, thank youKek
No. 2095319
>>2095244nta but these threads were never chill tbf kek
>>2095263did you at least report his posts?
No. 2095383
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I have to study for an exam but my brain just stopped working.
No. 2095450
>wake up>8 minutes of peace>Remember>ruminate for 10 minutes>realize I'm ruminating>try to stop>trying to stop involves ruminating on ruminating>can't outthink my emotions>try to ignore it but it feels like trying to ignore a hungry tiger>say fuck it and make breakfast>can't eat it because I'm ruminating again>realize two hours have passed and this will likely be the rest of my dayI want to fucking kill myself lmao when is my brain going to get to the point where this is no longer tolerable and I can hit the off switch? I'm half dissociated most days already but I'm ready to be gone for real. Still haven't drunk anything though.
>>2095442Same. Especially the losing my mind/rewiring part.
>>2094709Hi anon, this is how my mother in law taught me to make rice. Pot on the stove with two cups of hot water, bring it to a boil. Rinse a cup of rice under cold water and add it to the pot as it's boiling. Reduce heat to low/medium, stir well. Cover and let cook for 10-12 minutes. Tilt the pot back and forth, if there's any water pooling around then it's not done and you can let it stand on the heat for a minute or two more. If your rice is always sticking to the bottom or burnt you need to cook on lower heat. Let it stand and cool for a while before serving, around 10-15 minutes, it'll be fluffier that way. Idk what else you're trying to make but my rice was always weird too until I cooked it like this. It's a 1:2 ratio of rice to water no matter how much you're making.
No. 2095455
>>2095104Im old now but I use to work in food service during college. Back then I was able to pay tuition and bills all on my own, I tried doordash part time and ended up actually losing money spending more on gas and car maintenance since majority of people get butthurt by tipping. Either way it should be an option as it was a bridge to success for lots of people and now it's not
>>2095106My point isn't that it's hard, it's people downplaying work, effort, etc or use the whole "it takes less than 5 minutes" excuse as if the "less than 5 minutes" doesn't add up fast. It also shouldn't be just blown off as "oh well" when we're speaking about people's livelihood via employment, pay, etc. people can't just make magic money fall out the sky, we have to work to make money
No. 2095596
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i wish i could find an edgy woman friend who wasn't a tradthot or a /pol/fag or a handmaiden or a TIF. i just want a friend who's genuinely into bad horror movies and has an interest in like medical gore and thriller novels, who's well read and has firm opinions but doesn't have an online meltdown when we disagree, who hates men as much as me but is a relatively stable normalfag who can assimilate without acting like a sped irl when we're out together. a lot of women i've seen like that online are their attentionseeking bpdchans or mentally ill autists like sealchan. it's like i fit in a little bit with a dozen different people but there's no one whole friend for me. i almost wish i'd outgrown my le quirky edgy interests when i became an adult because this sounds pathetic to type out.
No. 2095615
>>2095605i'm glad nobody is talking about her anymore, it only ever validated her attention seeking. unfortunately she will probably forever be stuck in moid validation schizo hell but her art (especially cow tapestry) will live on in my heart forever.
>>2095612why are you trying to psychoanalyze me in the vent thread kek, you ok?
No. 2095632
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>>2095021Yes, I have. I'm glad you were able to move out. I can barely live with two dogs I couldn't imagine living with five. I'd imagine. I try to look for apartments that are pet free or have ludicrously high pet rent. With all of my heart, I hope that specifically increases.
I know I have no right to be upset or impose as by all accounts I'm a guest in my parent's home and they could kick me out at any time and I should be grateful they even tolerate my deformed genetically defective presence but goddamn it does it hurt so much both physically and mentally to be in this living situation. It hurts even more that the sympathy and understanding must be ended with a "but you just have to learn to manage your symptoms and deal with it okay?" I haven't had a day in years where my skin hasn't felt uncomfortable or painful because of my eczema and dogs being my biggest
trigger means I'm constantly in a state of dermatological irritation.
It's inescapable. Dander and hair comes in through the air vent, the gap in my doors, tracked in on my body and more. Sometimes my family will enter my room and they're just covered in dog hair and dander. I have to clean my sheets and clothes constantly and transport them in a air tight plastic bag or container to limit the amount of dander that gets on them. I have to vacuum my room constantly.
Worst of all I have to keep my door closed and if I leave my room, I'm on a timer depending on where I am. My brother and I like to play video games but the consoles are in the basement which is ground zero for hair and dander so if I sit down there for more than 25-30 minutes my my skin (especially my face) just shits the bed and gets so fucking painful and terrible to look at the next day. I'm trying to save up as much as possible so that I can move out but it seems like everything around me is so expensive and unattainable. Hell, I'd take my brother on his absolutely dog-shit insensitive suggestion of me being removed from the family home and living with my grandmother if my aunt wasn't already living there first. Seriously, that still pisses me off. Why do I have to leave? Why would he even suggest that? Why would he even say that? Why would he think that? Like, you'd rather live without your own sister than without the dogs? I hate this. I hate being the literal genetic and deformed black sheep of the family because I am isolated.
I'm constantly stressed and I'm near my last rope again as my living situation genuinely makes me suicidal. I try to stay positive but it's hard when you're stuck in what is essentially an environmental and biological prison of pain and one single thing could dramatically improve your life but everyone values that than their own flesh and blood. I'll get there one day, I'll live alone and finally have a clean space to live in where I can display all of my merchandise, lay on my back on the floor and wear black clothes. I just don't want to be in pain anymore.
No. 2095635
i live in a really hot place. i've been thinking about how, when i was younger, i would pass out from heat exhaustion pretty frequently. like on the playground at school or on play dates at my friends' houses, or at summer camp. and it seemed like nobody gave a fk at all? i thought stuff like that was supposed to be taken seriously, but my parents, teachers, other parents, camp counselors, never seemed to care about keeping me hydrated or took it seriously after i fell ill. i remember it being one of the worst feelings of my life, when it's completely sunny outside but my vision starts to fill with black spots until i can't see at all anymore, and then i fall down. i'd tell them i don't want to be outside in the heat but they'd all just say i have to and had no other choice. i wonder if i have brain damage now because i didn't know how important being hydrated and cool was as a kid lol, no adults ever taught me that it was and every kid was forced to be outside in the heat for one reason or another
No. 2095652
I'm
>>2092860 and got my test results back, turns out I have two fibroids. I appreciate the anons who responded to my last post. Feeling a lot more level headed today. After getting the diagnosis, it confirmed a lot for me and in a way felt reassuring. Thanks again
>>2092862 and
>>2092868 ♥
No. 2095662
>>2095656How is that like… Legal?
>>2095661I doubt that she'd admit it if she was
No. 2095681
>>2095674That’s possible but if every nurse and doctor writes her off, it’s highly likely she doesn’t have a medical issue.
Also OP, if you’re reading this, you can go to the emergency room and scream and cry about the symptoms you’re experiencing, just make it sound 10x worse, and they'll be forced to perform tests on you. If nothing comes up, then you’re probably healthy, and if your tests do reveal your sick, you’ll be vindicated.
No. 2095705
>>2095661>>2095693>>2095685>>2095681>>2095665>>2095674>>2095669i don’t have hypochondria and i’m really against the usage of pharmaceuticals, because they’ve effected me so poorly in the past. i have seizures, but i don’t have epilepsy, and they i guess are just frustrated with me. i’m scared. being rejected from facilities is essentially being told
oh well! we don’t like you, have fun dying! i’m really afraid. i just want to stay healthy for my parents and my husband and my children i don’t feel like i deserve to be kicked to the side like this just because my case is kind of confusing. i thought the hippocratic oath was “first do no harm”. i don’t see how discriminating against a disabled woman isn’t doing harm.
No. 2095714
>>2095705I'm against the usage of pharmaceuticals as well because I'm only in my late 20s and I don't want to be hooked on pharmaceuticals for life, especially with many of the side effects that can occur if you're on them for long periods of time. However, at some point, I had to put on my pants and decide to take a medication for my GERD. Before it got to point of me having to take medication, I also had to decide to quit smoking and not drink alcohol and basically change my whole diet to accommodate my health issues, but I'm better for it and it did help me from having to take medications years earlier.
What side effects do you get from the pharmaceuticals you've been prescribed? Weed can possibly cause seizures in some individuals. What is your disability?
No. 2095761
>>2095741Ntayart I couldn’t imagine being this fucking obnoxious and lacking sympathy when way worse has been posted in this thread. I sympathize with weed
nonny, I completely understand her and her paranoid ways
No. 2095895
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i hate when it’s cloudy but it never rains
No. 2095905
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I roomrotted too close to the sun and I'm starving. I want to EAT, but I want to be served something. The moid is coming home soon, so I should get some treats from him then. But ugh. I've been procrastinating and avoid editing this ChatGPT paper I'm writing. Does anyone else have ChatGPT autogenerate a full essay prompt and then you just edit and delete every sentence and rewrite it so by the end, none of the ChatGPT paper remains, but it tricks you into feeling like you're editing a paper instead of expending the mental effort to write a whole brand new paper? Also this vent thread photo looks like a bunny if scrolled past quickly.
No. 2095907
>>2095877You should not apologize wtf. You were honestly if anything a
victim here. Andbarguably the boy, too. Not of you but of the situation. Its not as bad as if the guy was older because he might have fucked himself up too. All you know you is you were both kids who probably got proxy groomed by too early exposure to porn, I assume. You have to forgive yourself only and try to look forward. You are not the things that happened to you and you are who shapes your destiny.
No. 2095913
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Supposed to be getting dicked down tomorrow but the pill is making me randomly spot. I'm gonna kill myself.
No. 2095972
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Women are meant to give birth by squatting and popping the baby out, as we have done forever. It’s less painful and less exposing too. I don’t get how child birth has evolved to laying on your back in bed with your legs spread out and screaming in agony for hours.. feels sus
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astrology can be so weirdly accurate maneeee
No. 2095989
>>2095948I feel this every day. I should have been born male. I don't believe women have any innate empathy for each other like they do for men. No one gives a fuck about women, not even other women. Every day I see women become doormats for men who abused their ex gfs, violent misogynists, or vocally denounce women for being emotional and
toxic. Everywhere in history men have banned women from everything and just raped them endlessly. I have almost no female role models, companionship, or history. Being a man wouldn't fix all of my problems, but I bet it would fix almost half. We truly lost the coin flip at birth. I'm ugly enough to pass as male, I've seriously thought about it.
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Omg everyone is so annoying. i am going to become a hermit again
No. 2095994
>>2095989Samefag but I'm just sitting here thinking about all the abuse I and other women would have never endured if we were born male. I'll be crucified for this but I don't care. Each day that passes I want to "transition" more and more. I don't care that it's retarded. I don't care if I'm betraying other women. I don't care about not being a "real man" (though I'm decently confident I could pass), I don't care that it's just escapism. Being female is objectively a burden. I'm not a hero or a martyr, I just want a peaceful life.
>>2095988Exhibit A. You will never have meaningful connections with men unless they're using you as a fleshlight. Female friendships are empty because women are primed from birth to value men. Being a "straight man" who doesn't date is way more acceptable than being a lesbian. If I were male I could have meaningful friendships and women at my feet (male incels aren't real, women trip over themselves to fawn over the ugliest subhuman males). What would it be like to walk down the street and not tense up when a man walks by me? What would it be like to hear women gossip about abuse
victims and how they want a boy child instead of a girl and not feel worthless because they're talking about you? What would it be like to be the human default, to be taken seriously, to be expected to contribute and valued by others? I hate men. I hate women. I just want a peaceful life.
>inb4 blackpill outside of 2X No. 2095996
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I begin weeping uncontrollably whenever I finish any book, movie, tv show etc. I get attached to characters who are so much more compelling than everyone around me and have meaningful ”lives”, and then I get deposited back into my empty, lonely ass apartment that i haven’t left in a week because i work nonstop and i have no friends.
Every week I think I just have to hold out for a few days and then it’ll somehow get better and every week I realize I’m delusional.
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If I die, my only legacy to the world will be making banners for this website. I hope you girls enjoy them even if I end up killing myself
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>>2096031nonna you’re not killing yourself you don’t have permission but your banners are immensely appreciated and we all love them
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can’t post this anywhere else but this is literally just elsie and the goth butch version of elsie that was drawn in the lolcow artboard thread. also hamlet is definitely a woman
No. 2096103
>>2095956Keek same, maybe we were in our past lives nonna
>>2095989I’m really sorry, it truly is the worst. I’m fortunate enough to have strong female friendships but my heart goes out to anyone that can’t
>I'm ugly enough to pass as male, I've seriously thought about it.Same, my features are masc as well as my personality, and I’m pretty flat chested. Only drawback is I’m 5’2 and pear shaped which would clock me as a woman no matter what kek. Honestly though I don’t think you should, let’s say you’re buck angel levels of passing as a tif, the trajectory of your life would change completely in a way I can’t imagine any other outcome but suicide. I think the negatives of trooning out outweigh the positives no matter what, I just wish I were a bio male.
No. 2096127
>>2096061Why are men so hell bent on women's standards? Even if a woman didn't want to fuck, date or anyone else except for one specific celebrity crush it doesn't fucking matter
I also wish mens sexual entitlement lined up with what they say about us. All this mgtow shit, "all feminists/single moms/chubby girls/poor girls/black girls/etc are so ugly! We want to keep them at arms reach!" Yet have no problem with demanding sex and SAing the type they claimed to hate so much. If you hate us stay away from us
No. 2096148
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i've been working extremely hard to get ready to leave my current living situation because holy fuck, living with moids is a curse.
one of my housemates is a schizophrenic retard, he's 26 but he acts like a retarded child.
You cannot fucking tell him anything and expect him to learn, i've had to put my food into a fucking lockbox in my fridge because he just helps himself and becomes a stuttering idiot mess or lies if i confront him.
my nigel and i work jobs, i study at uni and work, and the fact that he just sits at home like a tard all day while i'm out busting my ass makes me so angry, even the way he mindlessly walks around the house makes me want to hit him.
He can't wash the fucking dishes properly, he just sloppily does it as fast as he can, spraying water fucking all over the kitchen and filling the fucking dish rack with half done dishes.
He's ABLE to hold a job, he's done so in the past, he just chooses not to right now cause 'muh last job sucked' so? who fucking cares? grow up.
I am full of insane, unhealthy anger and resentment for this faggot so i need to get out of here.
This has only happened in the past few months since he decided he doesn't want to work anymore.
He was tolerable when he was working, now he's a bumbling fucking child who rolls over like a dog whenever you tell him off, he's literally said that he needs someone to 'tell him what to do' like GOD you need to live in some form of assisted living for disabled people or some shit before i bust your fucking head open!!
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I think I will inevitably end up killing myself someday.
No. 2096237
>>2096183It's on purpose, they're clearly codependent twins whose whole life has been centered around being identical twins. They cannot do anything on their own, they choose the same clothes and hairstyle so they look the same on purpose. They even have the same job in this case! It's very unhealthy but it was likely encouraged by friends and family their whole lives, because it's just seen as cute when kids do it.
Sorry for blog, but my grandma was a teacher so she had seen plenty of cases of codependent twins in person. So when she had identical twins of her own the first thing she did was to make sure they never even went to the same schools, she never enrolled them into the same activities and made sure they had separate lives and didn't depend on each other. I honestly think that's part of why my own twin-parent and their twin are so well-adjusted compared to other twins. There's really nothing special about twins, they're just normal siblings who happen to look the same.
No. 2096305
I looked at old discord clips I saved and it was a mistake. Hearing your voice again made me cry. I miss you, but I also don't…
You were someone I heavily related to. I knew that. You knew you were full of problems, you were full of red flags. But despite that, I understood where you came from and got it, I used to be and maybe was a little like that too… And so I loved you for that, everything from how you loved people's personalities more than their looks no matter what, to spending time with them and coping through red flag arguments in the relationship. I saw myself in you, and hence I wanted to make you feel as loved as possible, on top of all the things that I wasn't that you had that I was attracted to and wish I had. I knew all along, you were someone who was deeply insecure and very much wanted to be fully loved and cherished. I did my best in that aspect, but yeah. There was no way you could've felt my affections genuinely. We both knew on some level that it was all triggered by my abandonment issues. I loved you outside of that and I loved spending time with you, I looked up to you in many ways too. It didn't matter in the end, you would have never believed that I did actually love you outside of my own anxieties. Aha. Codependence. But whatever. I really meant it you know? Even without all of that bullshit, I still miss your presence. I really wanted you to be my very best friend.
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>>2096307you're dumb as fuck.
No. 2096325
>>>/g/416405Taking it here. If I keep arguing, it'll seem like I want to convince everyone to hate being a woman, which isn't really what I want. I'm not trying to encourage people to be miserable. But objectively speaking, this "women are spiritually superior, more beautiful, higher beings, farther from animals than men, angelic" shit just doesn't work on me. These "spiritually lightened morally strong" women get born get raped have their minds beaten into conformity and die. It doesn't matter if women are better as long as men can rape and kill us for little consequence. Right now there are girls in the middle east being honor killed for getting raped. This is the objective reality. What a saint everyone is for willingly taking on the
victim role if given the choice between being born male or female. Sorry, it just sounds like cope. You think a single person on earth gives a fuck about lesbians? What do we have? At least fags have their little chunk of pop culture and media that everyone likes. No one wants to hear how your dating life is going if you're a lesbian. Women avoid you and men become invasive and creepy.
Honestly. Just minimizing interaction with all people seems like the best option. Everyone is always so disappointing.
No. 2096362
>>2096307You have a sister, not a twin. You have no idea what it's like to grow up as an identical twin, and especially a female identical twin. You are never looked at as an individual by other people when you're a kid, you're dressed the exact same regardless of whether you are comfortable with that, it's always "the twins" and people see 'the twins" as who you are, not you yourself individually (or your sister individually, either). Kids are weirded out by you because you're a twin so it's hard to make genuine friendships as a child. I would meet a kid and talk to them and then they'd tell me they were "so glad they were achtually unique" and that "it didn't matter who they talked to" and I also got told by relatives they didn't care to know the difference between my twin and I when we'd always wear different clothes and hair styles (and they were kept consistent). You are incessantly fetishized for being the same and I can see why with twins that are together all the time, it's almost like they attach their self worth to how similar they can be to their sister such as in the case of
>>2096308.
My sister developed a major complex and refused to do anything I was enrolled in because of how intense the comparison is. It was really unfair because anything she was signed up for, I wasn't allowed to do even though she struggled with executive functioning so badly that she would't attend whatever it was she was signed up for. Obviously, my sister's case was probably extreme. I think it's best to keep twins separated at a young age so they don't develop the complex my sister did. It really kept her from going outside or being social because she was afraid of being compared to me. What also made me sad was when I went to a different high school, there were 3 sets of twin girls. The stuff I had to hear about how people perceived them really hurt (no one knew I was a twin so they'd talk freely about them in front of me). Let's just say it made me hate how fetishized twins are. People really don't see twins are individuals, they see us as a unit. They don't care that you introduced your sister to x thing and you have to convince her to like it. They just assume you both magically came to the same conclusion about something because twin. It's easy to feel like no one should love you because you're a clone and all these other negative self image feelings. As an adult, I don't live near my twin and we have very different lives. I'm still close with her and we text a lot. But I never tell people irl I have a twin, I call her my younger sister to avoid all the judgement and questions and even when they see photos of us together, they never suspect we're twins. Once I hit puberty, our physical differences became very pronounced so it was easier to be "separate". It's still annoying whenever I see extended family and they complain I'm not like my twin anymore. They now try to insinuate I am purposely not like my twin. It's a comparison you'll never escape.
I was never especially close to her as some twins are and we're in such different life stages, I can't relate the way I used to when we were kids which is a little sad. But it's her choices. I understand twins that never "split" because it's so isolating of an experience, I couldn't blame a pair for turning inwards to each other. I have struggled for life trying to convince myself I'm worthy of love because I feel like I'm just a copy. I think it's really important for twins, especially identical twins, to have things that are their own and not their twin's. That's just my experience.
No. 2096441
>>2096420You're right
nonny I should probably keep an eye on how much I do that kek, thank you
No. 2096529
>>2096362This is great insight nona, thank you for sharing. I'm
>>2096237 who has a twin parent.
>People really don't see twins are individuals, they see us as a unit. This! Because I was aware of my own parent's story I took note of how other twins were treated, other people really do treat twins as a unit and it so fucking weird. Especially annoying when it's the parents encouraging it, I always felt bad for the kids. Even friends who had other siblings who were twins would call them "the twins" rather than "Billy and Bob". It's kind of bizarre that there's this mythos around twins when you're really just normal siblings like anyone else. Heck even I stopped telling people my parent has a twin because I'd immediately get jokes about my parents twin fucking my other parent…
No. 2096594
>>2096529>I stopped telling people my parent has a twin because I'd immediately get jokes about my parents twin fucking my other parent…I'm not surprised, I had to hear boys talk about female twins at my school like they'd take turns in a sexual way…it's disheartening. My sister's boyfriend used to make passes at me because in his words I was a "prettier version" of my sister and he wanted nsfw photos of me. It really is one of those things that enraged me not just for my sister's sake, but because it seems to continue the rhetoric of twins being disposable versions of each other. Sadly, my sister didn't leave him even though I told her about that. I always think about my current partner because I met him and he didn't know I was a twin then (obviously he knows that now). But you always think, "what if they met me with my twin? would they still respect me as an individual?" There's a lot of mind games you have to guard yourself against. At the end of the day, parents and regular siblings resemble each other, too, and it's something I've had to steel myself against. Maybe there are traits I share with my sister and I certainly resemble her, but at the end of the day, my choices are my own and I love my sister just the same. I appreciate you engaging with me, a lot of people downplay how it is to be a twin and it makes me feel happy that some people are willing to empathize with this experience. Like I said, I almost think it's easier for twins to remain in the twin relationship indefinitely because you don't have to deal with outside opinions diminishing your sense of self. I also think the main issue was my parents had us do everything together until it was clearly negatively impacting my sister and only then did they try to course correct, but it was already too late for my sister.
No. 2096632
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I really wish I had more than one sister and no brothers. I wish they would die already omfg, manifestation clearly doesn’t work because if it did they would die and no longer be my problem. Normalize separating your children by gender, moids by 16 have to leave by going into the military or picking up a trade and immediately move out. I desperately want a fucking war so these scrotes can go and die in one or get a fucking real hobby or some shit, now that there’s no wars a bunch of moids are running around making your life a living hell. You don’t know how bad I want a female-only world, do you know how happy I would finally be if this existed?? No more suffering and yet other women don’t want this, they don’t want a utopia.
No. 2096645
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>>2096635Yes!! thank you anon, help me manifest this or make them disappear away from our home out of nowhere. I just want sanity, cleanliness, silence, empathetic and kind people in my life.. amen.
No. 2096656
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I think im a very envious person. Ive always felt like ive missed out on normal experiences and treatment in life, so I usually envy people that have a lot of friends or who can get into relationships easily. Because I cant. I have to put in work trying to meet people, where it feels like a lot of others are able to just meet a friend/partner in whatever environment they find themself in. It makes me feel like something is fundamentally wrong with me because nothing/no one ever "naturally" comes my way
No. 2096676
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It's been almost a year since I went on a walk like usual, I barely go out nowadays, I'm deeply insecure and ashamed of my body, i cannot even look at my reflection, bathing is even worse. After that happened (somebody got killed, I had a mental breakdown and couldn't eat anything, basically got an ED now out of sheer anxiety) nothing really fits me, most of my clothing and old outfits are like 4 sizes bigger now. Only my loungewear fits me and that's because I resized them to fit. I feel so defeated, this isn't okay at all I should've made some process by now, but my mental health is in shambles. Doc told me I should just live my life and enjoy my youth but how am I supposed to do that when I'm in this situation? I look fucked up and restless. I just want to be normal like every other girl my age, but I can't even have that, I've always been deranged but at least i could hide it to some extent, now everyone knows something's wrong with me. It's been so long, I already accepted this will be my new reality, I'll focus on something else instead. Maybe one day I'll actually see the results of my efforts, though it seems futile and pointless now, maybe my body is just waiting
No. 2096708
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Yes I'm one sensitive retard and I CRY when you insult and berate me!!! you're evil and that's not cool!! It's not cool to be an evil piece of shit but this is a heartless moid world so of course people like you despite your satanic aura. I hate everything about your ass, I hate what you represent, I hate what you did to our friend cycle, you're not cool you're just fucking DEPRESSED and MISERABLE stop spamming the chat with your tired ass "nihilistic analysis" and go to a damn therapist motherfucker I'm so sick of your bullshit, you are actually getting mad at everybody for being normal and feeling hope in general wtf. I feel crazy because everyone seems to feel bad for you like that somehow justifies your trash attitude "waaaa waaa I'm suffering waaa I'm twaumatizeeed that's why I assaulted your friend and steal shit" BOOHOOOOO get on the damn line you lil bitch you ain't the only one getting fucked by life. So many "nothing matters haha" paragraphs yet you REFUSE to kys once and for all, if everything is so worthless the just DO IT oh my god why are men like this
No. 2096714
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gonna mostly spoiler this because it is very tragic and also kind of infuriating.
so, I learned a relative pretty much lied to the local shelter/clinic that his dog was dead to avoid the fees to get her vaccines for this year. the impetus was that she's 20 and thought she'd die soon. but she ended up living for many months afterwards. she got better and did ok for a while but rapidly has declined in the past week and…I won't go into details. I'll just say it's bad.
I managed to convince him to take her in irregardless of the potential fines but god forbid, I hate this whole situation. seriously. people like this shouldn't have pets.
No. 2096829
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I am going to find strong female friendship in my late 20s. I will not settle for bpdemons or they/thems. I will find likeminded women who live less than 20 minutes away from me that I can form deep connections with. I will not settle for people I tolerate. I feel like it's too late at this point in my life but I can't afford to think like that.
No. 2096854
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Started buying the expensive organic eggs from private family farms and I had no idea the yolk should be a deep orange and not a pale yellow, kinda makes me sad how poor people (me) are so used to eating slop that we have no idea what normal food is supposed to look like
No. 2096879
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Maybe more of a rant then vent, but I really hate "transphobic" men. I honestly barely even consider them real transphobes. Like so many so called male tranny haters yet probably can't tell the difference between the most obvious tif or tim. Would easily fall for a tim with fake boob implants that isn't completely hagrid. Probably shares the same garbage interest as troons but pisses himself saying how it's akushally the troons who are invading their generic lolimoeblob anime fandom (and not the fact that he's in the same demographic as the troons.) or ZOMG the tranny said nigger!? Unga bunga soo le heccin based omg I luv troons now uwu. Or aww yeah dude I hate troons..but I love jerking off to femboys and futas. Or the "omg guys troons are so degenerate!!! Btw it's okay to fuck kids mkay. I'm just mad trannies can do it and not me." Or the transphobic men who probably will troon out themselves in a few years.(take your meds)
No. 2096948
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I needed to go to the grocery store and w start working through the large assignment I have. Except all the systems were down due to the Counterstrike bullshit so I just bedrotted instead. I wasn’t even able to get my burrito for lunch as a treat. What’s the point of it all.
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I disappeared for 11 days because I tried to kill myself and I got sent to the psych ward where phones aren’t allowed. No one noticed. Not a single “hey, where have you been?” text. I wonder how long I’d have to disappear for anyone to notice
No. 2097089
I was about to post this on reddit, dumb. Anyway. I have anger issues.
Mine likely stem from my dad who had a short fuse. I learned anger was the only way to be understood and listened to. And I've been doing my best to understand the primary emotion that leads to anger, be it disappointment or fear etc.
It feels harder to try keep a level head as a woman, because the level of disrespect I think is higher towards us. I have people (men) encroaching on my personal space and thinking nothing of it. Not caring to move out of the way though there's plenty of room, I'm supposed to go out of my way (I don't, I shoulder check them, fuck them). They come into my personal space on public transport, expecting me to make myself smaller so they can be comfortable and I need to make the extra effort of keeping my legs and arms exactly as they are while a stranger tries to spread his legs into my seat area.
I’m not saying this as general women’s anger, as they should rightly have in society. I mean anger issues, where something irritating makes me seethe and i can’t think straight. I’m filled with murderous rage and can’t just distract myself from it, nothing helps me. I cannot see the bright side of life and even if something good happens i think “its about time” instead of actually being grateful.
But nobody sees the efforts i take. Worse even, it’s like i’m by default expected to have a better than average temper, I’m guessing because of my gender. Male coworkers can go off and be assholes and “that’s just how they are” and it makes me so fucking mad that they don’t even care to try self regulate in general, never mind in a professional environment.
It’s just tough and not fair.
No. 2097111
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I keep having a sneaking suspicion in the back of my mind that I was sexually assaulted, but I also might just be paranoid. During freshers week at uni I was grouped with a bunch of people in their mid-20s, because the law program I had got into had a very high threshold for getting in, so most of the other students had amassed enough points as applicants through previous degrees, while I was the only one fresh out of secondary school. I'd moved in to a new city I didn't know at all the day before freshers week started, because my summer job had me scheduled up to that point. One of the first activities the group organised was going to the house of one of the organizers, which was some huge unfurnished mansion in the hills. The only piece of furniture was a huge table for us to do drinking games off of with supplied cups of alcohol. By 10 pm that night, I remember sitting on the stoop outside, thinking "I've been drunk before, this is NOT alcohol." I remember looking back inside down a hallway, and seeing it distort. We then all went onto a tram to go back to the city, and I have almost no memory of what bar we went to or what we did. I have a vague recollection of stumbling through unknown streets, in the rain and with a dead phone. Then I remember a strange man pestering me, and picking me up bridal style.
The next morning I woke up with my roommate sitting next to my bed, saying I'd come in at night and told him something awful had happened and he needed to remind me when I woke up. I'd been mugged, so my phone with all of my cards and IDs were gone, that might have been what had happened. But my memory of the following months is really hazy. I developed an ED, got severely depressed and started drinking heavily. After two years I had to drop out entirely. My only takeaway from this experience is that when your mom tells you to "join in on all the fun activities, so you'll make friends", don't.
No. 2097115
I've decided i'd have a social summer for once, meeting online and RL friends. So far it's amazing and wonderful but i have two more encounters to go before september and i'm already exhausted just thinking about it. It's a total of two weeks and a couple days spent with friends over two months but it's already too much. I'm filled with dread and a constant quiet scream. There's the travel side of it, but i also have to invite a friend and it stresses me out just thinking about it because the stakes are high (she invited me over so many times and i want to repay her well) and it's a headache, we'll be in a remote place without a car. I hate autism with a passion
>>2096829I believe in you nona. Funnily enough i saved your picrel around a year ago, kept staring at it weekly like it was a prayer. I've found a likeminded woman since (not 20 minutes away kek, but close enough). You will find her!!
No. 2097149
When I met my ex boyfriend on tinder I thought I'd be set for life because even if we broke up there's an endless supply of desperate insecure scrotes but they disgust me so much I'm not interacting with them willingly anymore. They're disgusting beyond belief (newsflash).
>>2096829I'm with you nonna. Hope you can find someone ♥
No. 2097157
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Thinking about Keffals, Liz Fong Jones, and their sycophants, who lobbied for Cloudflare to "drop kiwi farms". Thinking about how Cloudflare did drop KF. Thinking about when Cloudflare was notified that a literal bestiality/animal torture porn site was using their software, they ignored it. Thinking about how Keffals is an actual heroin-addicted groomer getting kids on HRT and chatting them up on Discord, while Liz Fong Jones is a rapist, and neither of them would probably ever give a single shit about pressuring Cloudflare to "drop" that horrendous/illegal website because they are either too low-empathy, or they/their friends are into animal rape and torture (Zrcalo, an open zoophile who gets off to dead animals and abused birds, was linked to Keffals in some way). All the Keffals and Fong-Jones supporters see themselves as very good, morally upright people, even though most of them would also sit idly by and never go as hard to pressure Cloudflare or any other service not to platform that shit. Easy to amass an angry internet mob for the dumbest shit possible, but not for anything that would actually help any innocent person or animal. The latter is a constant uphill battle.
Bringing attention to the toxic/abusive behaviors of people like Keffals and Jones is evil, but letting animals be raped to death and propagating that content is just fine. I can't take the knowledge of this shit, anons. There are so many pieces of shit in human skin I'd gladly kill off to help animals.
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>>2097157the tranny will be van’d, giving illegal substances to minors from bathtubs will be classified as a drug akin to making meth and will have him charged for a felony for drug possession, drug trafficking, attempted homicide and a whole slew of charges, this new legislation takes down other wider medical malpractices concerning tranny medications and surgery, he will go to prison and be ID’d as a biological man and thrown into a male federal prison causing his to seethe and mald into eternity. in valerie solanos’ name, amen. i bless this
nonny with fast and quick healing, let her have a good name for the rest of her life, let her mind release the trappings of this troon’s criminal behavior and let her heal. amen.
No. 2097282
>>2097236Think it has to do with deeply feminized characteristics. Boys get socialised into not looking too deep into things, their immediate approval or disapproval is enough, so they don't spend time analysing things. Girls get socialised into hyperfocusing, analysing, double checking and constantly formulating reasons for behaviour or interests. I.e. a girl will be asked whether they dislike a person, they'll go "no, because.. x, y, z" justifying themselves to some unknown authority. Boys will just go "yes." The same compulsion of explaining themselves that gave rise to the TIF behaviour is evident both before and after. Girls that are hyperfocused on immediate social norms and relations are more likely to become TIFs (social contagion), and so after they are still more likely to hyperfocus on people, fictional or real, instead of things.
No. 2097313
>>2097294Honestly, I think it's about fascination. If you genuinely go through the list of these things or people, and go: Is this all that fascinating? Probably not, compared to all other things outside in the wider world. You can quite literally break the spell. The etymological origin of the word 'fascination
is to be "spellbound" anyway, so the source material might not be that extraordinary or informative, but you become spellbound by how it's delivered due to your own psychopathology. I've managed to remove myself from a lot of dumb interests this way, by going "Is this actually that fascinating, is it interesting in a general sense?" And then going nope, not that special, and shifting my attention. I imagine for troons this requires a level of self-awareness that is not present for people who fall for the ideology anyway. Considering how it devalues self control.
No. 2097315
>>2097282Great point. Not being able to firmly say 'No', even occasionally, is a great marker of deep attachment to feminine norms.
>>2097236>fandoms, cartoons, art accountsEven if you care about this stuff like i do, the way these conversations go is rarely interesting. For every worthwhile fact about fandom/anime/[nerdy hobby], it's walls of 'i'm good and she's bad!! I bet [personal cow] is a scroteminded fan of [wrong media]!'. I don't know what's so entertaining about constantly calling other women defective or fake for having slightly different fandom tastes. Like you said, it's all so immature, no adult woman should be so preoccupied with others' innocuous daydreaming. It's a narcissism of small differences
No. 2097449
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How do I stop being disgusted and disappointed by women having husbands and boyfriends? I found out an internet acquaintance is married and it gives me the ick. Reading radfem stuff and reading anons stupid ass boyfriend woes on here has really made me look down on any woman that willingly partners with men but I know that's probably too extreme. Mostly I'm just afraid of finding out anyone else in my small group is with a dude because I love them so much. Eugh.
No. 2097463
>>2097449if your friends aren't bringing up their nigels in every convo or cancelling plans because they need to go cock worship, then what's the problem
>How do I stop being disgusted and disappointed by women having husbands and boyfriends?you don't. it only builds up on you, the irritation and pity, to see how women's minds melt down whenever they get a pet nigel. knowing that they willingly share a bed with some male who definitely has xvideos bookmarked and definitely just sees them as a "woman". who probably will ditch her and resent her if she ever starts to deny sex or emotional labor. once you peak you can't really go back, good luck
No. 2097481
>>2097453Thank you for actually giving good advice
>>2097463This is the kind of thinking that bogs me down, knowing how awful scrotes are and yet still wanting to be with them? It's like a form of self harm. I think it's probably best for me to withdraw from these spaces with too much focus on scrote degeneracy and not enough how to actually help and uplift women.
No. 2097520
>>2097518Uh excuse me…? I wrote
>>2097454 All I’m saying is that if you write a stupid post asking how to distance yourself from other women you’re going to get replies telling you how ridiculous you sound. Sorry if that wasn’t clear, somehow.
No. 2097541
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I finally slept with a guy I've been dating that I really like. The sex was great. Then I called him Marco. His name is Tre. That is not even close to Marco. I don't fucking know anyone named Marco. He was nice about it but now he wants to know who is Marco. I have to admit to this nice man that I am unfortunately retarded and not good with names. I am not sure he will believe me.
No. 2097615
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>hurr durr aren’t you too old to like this character??
Pleasssee I played this game when it came out. I was still in high school at the time ffs. You’re not gonna be young forever like your anime characters. Please fuck off and realize you’re only setting your older selves up in the future.
No. 2097652
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The last few months I've started getting weird kinks. I don't know if it's because I lost my job and have been terminally online since May or switched my birth control to Implanon but it's been really weird downstairs. Every time I'm with my BF I just want to tear him apart or bite off his dick but in a horny not angry way. I didn't used to be like this. Somethings gone fucky with me and I'm too scared to tell anyone.
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I'm pretty scared about the direction the world is headed, I think we're all in the same boat here, but it's been on my mind a lot and I feel hopeless. I can't in good conscience align with the left in current year but the authoritarian right also wants me dead and my rights revoked, which is a reality that's fast approaching from the looks of things. I'm going to have to suffer for someone else's crimes and there's literally nothing I can do about it.
No. 2097721
>>2097718Not yet, you need to go into very graphic detail describing sex acts,
especially blowjobs, and call women cocksuckers over and over. Direct all your hate towards women and how you're better than them and wish you could have been born a male.
No. 2097776
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today i got asked if i’m a troon while trying to schedule a doctor’s appointment because i have a traditionally male given name. i want to die. what am i even supposed to say when people ask me that? should i just change my name legally & put an end to it? it’s been going on since i was a child & i’m so fucking tired.
No. 2097791
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I hate being poor so fucking much and then there are these people, talking about having no money and in the next sentence they tell you what stuff they bought recently. Sure, you don't have money, want to know that the last item of clothes I bought was a year ago and only because the stuff I wore before was beyond saving. Or they whine about needing a holiday, because they didn't have any for so long, bitch, you went skiing two months ago, my last holiday was 15 years ago and it was for two fucking days. And then they talk about other countries and how poor those people are there, but oh, how happy and friendly they are, well, maybe it's because to entertain you tourists, just so you all can have a pleasant time.
No. 2097810
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>>2097721>call women cocksuckers over and over againI mean.. that’s what most of you guys do offline?
No. 2097843
>>2097840Nonnie no, see here
>>2097832 pastel pink is different than ham pink
No. 2097859
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There’s this girl on social media I’ve stalked because she seems okay sometimes and then does literal skyjack faces despite being a zoomer. She tries to do thirst trap or selfies with bedroom eyes but she just looks slow. Sometimes her eyes look normal and sometimes they look literally insane. I can’t tell if she just has the ‘tism or if there’s something wrong with her.
No. 2097863
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I'm dumping him but here's what set me over…
>having terrible mental health due to work
>lowest I have felt in a long time
>smoking with bf while I watch him play a game
>not one to talk about dark thoughts but my dopamine was at zero and I just needed to be vulnerable
>tell him about how shitty I was feeling, including a bit about how work has been so stressful for me and due to some other unfair incidentals one after the other recently, the pressure makes me feel like I don't want to be alive anymore. Like I don't want to play.
>he stares blankly at me
>"I don't know how…to respond to that."
>resumes playing video game, my eyes are not breaking contact from him
>waiting for any kind of fucking follow up
>"Sorry, I mean I can relate…"
>further tries to walk it back
But wtaf? He couldn't have fucking said a "Sorry you're going through that babe, anything I can do?" idk, offer a hug and maybe pause his fucking game?
It was in that moment, not that there were no indicators before, for a fact this time that this man resents me. He's with me for my resources and convenience, and based on the porn I found, not really who he would pick if he had the option! How dare I be unfun and needy for a change and asked for emotional labor from a man. Fucking clown shit.
But hindsight is 20/20. Instead I was in shock with my head spiraling with so much negativity that I could barely think straight. I was exhausted, laid down for bed and asked him when he was coming. He replied "after a couple more games.." Yeah, whatever, that didn't happen. I was hoping for cuddles at least and I fell asleep well before he ever made it to bed.
I woke up so fucking angry.
They are just so damn unloving holy shit.
No. 2097866
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>>2097860The ones I circled are ham pink to me
No. 2097880
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i stopped shitposting because trannies became mods and i said nothing. then they came for the non-milk posters and i said nothing. finally they came for the areola posters and there was no one left to say anythig
No. 2097886
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>>2097883emojis are soulless and demonic
No. 2097890
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>>2097883they told me i need to integrate after 4 years of posting same ip same password
i was one on one with the old admin about to become a farmhand before i backed out and the disintegration of this board and site in general is so sad
mods eat shit etc etc you will never know whimsy, silliness, fun, or joy. suffer forever gay mods lolcow shitposters will live forever in the hearts of the brave and the free
No. 2097893
>>2097886the bottom emojis are banned on here that’s literally want im talking about anon
>>2097890>they told me i need to integrate after 4 years of posting same ip same password idk why this made me laugh. godspeed nonna fuck the newfaggot mods straight from the underground
No. 2097901
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>>2097893>bottom emojisemoticons. they're called emoticons nonna
No. 2097909
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saw a video about a guy who's neighbor committed suicide and it was sad, look at the comments and of course its all men blaming women for their depression and suicides and talking about how women can never know men's suffering…its so tiring. why does it even need to be a competition and if were making it one then women have to deal with the nearly universal possibility being raped or abused or killed or taken advantage of atleast once in their lifetime.. and men have to deal with "wahh im so lonely and i get no pussy and i cant get a job because im a heroin addict wahh". shut your ass up
No. 2097920
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>>2097911Same nonna. My hands are small and even the 12/13 iphone mini (which I use) is too big for me to comfortably use. God I wish we could have the 5C back; perfect size, plastic material, relatively cheap, and cute colors.
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>>2097905i love u
>>2097898i love u
>>2097896i love u
yknow what. the current admin wants this site to die. what if you tried to think outside the box for ways to monitize your page views? too bad youre all fucking abolsutely braindead
(take it to /meta/) No. 2097954
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I think hobbies are completely overrated. If you aren’t already gifted with something it’s a complete waste of time trying to grind to get some level another person could get to in a less amount of time because they already have an untapped gift they just discovered. I’m just content with being a useless and untalented person at this point, nothing holds my attention down for more than a few moments anyways.
No. 2097966
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fuck fuck FUCK i hate being a lesbian. i've accepted it and i know it's inevitable that this truth has to come out, but i'm still not happy with this. like what do you mean i don't get to live life on easy mode like all the other hets on earth? what do you mean i have to live like this?
No. 2098002
>>2097997hiking is a classic but moids still put hiking in their bio when they are fat so they think and hope they can walk 0.2 miles in their neighborhood park to avoid paying for a cup of coffee instead
>>2097999most of us in current year are probably listening to music, commuting to and from work, scroll a few reels, share them with friends, make food, eat, do other household chores, shower, brush teeth, then sleep. not much energy or time left in there to bus or drive somewhere change and do sports for an hour, and have that even align with a friend's schedule who wants to play the same sport.
No. 2098007
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My skin is breaking out, my hair is damaged, I'm 70k in the hole for tuition, I have had no play for over a year, my jeans are squeezing me, my ex-best friend reached out to reconnect, I miss my bird, my headphones stopped working today, I read a manhwa and after a gajillion chapters the ML turned out to be the dad, my amazon package is late, astarion rejected my tiefling party solicitation, and I just got off a 3 hour fortnite losing streak. I realize that this is a lukewarm hell of my own making but I'm still going to bitch about it. Wah wah wah -me (2024)
No. 2098033
>>2098023I wanted her to be little bit smarter goddamnit and not be like
nonnie I bought a dog. He was living in his shit. And when I googled the breeder's name he was convicted of operating puppy mill teehee
No. 2098188
I'm pregnant, due in a few weeks.
My parents keep changing plans around visiting for/after the birth.
They have had 3 different plans over the last 2 months, its stressing me out because my mother wants to be there for the birth but they changed the original plan from flying down when I go into labour (3hour flight), to driving down when I go into labour (3 days drive). She claims she will still make it if they drive, I highly doubt it and have told her I wont be expecting her there.
They've also changed how long they will be visiting, it has gone from a week to 2 weeks to 4 weeks.
I messaged my mother about what they plan on doing for accommodation, I've looked online for them and the cheapest for 28 days I can find is $3.5k.
Shes now said she doesnt know if they are even driving down, maybe they will fly, and they dont know how long they will stay for.
I'm trying really hard to just let go and not think about it and let whatever happens, happen.
I've already put it in my head that my mother wont be there for the birth, its easier to not have any expectations than to be let down/stressed about them not making it.
I already know if they fly down then it will be a whole thing about getting them from the airport/taking them to the hotel.
Its just frustrating that they seem incapable of making and sticking to a plan, this is why I have always been an over planner to compensate for my parents lack of fucks.
No. 2098200
>>2097863Samefag.
I wish it didn't have to end this way, nons.
I really wanted him to like me and love me.
I didn't even do anything wrong.
Why are men so incapable?
No. 2098300
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This is Germany, just like the UK.(not a vent)
No. 2098341
>>2098319I don't want to fail. Failing and living with the injury or shame is worse than living right now.
>>2098325Well fuck. Imagine the chances when it's not as fatal a way to commit
No. 2098433
>>2098429Which one is more obsessed, the ones who constantly tired of their female friends bringing their boyfriends to hangouts and gatherings unwarranted, having these ugly beasts shilled through the media as sex symbols, seeing them in your colleges, your homes, your workplace being disruptive, egotistical, smelly, unintelligent, impulsive? Your nigel is like an emotional service animal that you bring to restaurants, parties, grocery stores, likely nobody wants them around and a lot of women’s peace and happiness is always disrupted by their presence because of your selfish need for attention that you can literally get from anybody else, leave them at home. Our lives are constantly inundated with their presence and this is the only website to vent about their existence. Nobody cares about your ugly ass husband
No. 2098441
>>2096605>as a child in the 1920-30s where people were even more hellbent on treating twins the exact sameLate but I wish I could beat it into people's heads how much this harms twin children. Not only are twin sisters fetishized and preyed on by creeps but I hate how parents actively encourage twin girls to have their entire personality be being twins which just makes them more vulnerable to that type of man. A few days ago I even saw a post about twin sisters who share a boyfriend and it's so clearly a fetish thing for him and insecurity for them.
My parents did the whole dressing us the same thing even though me and my sister are not identical twins, we just look very similar. In my early twenties I finally started breaking apart from her and managed to have my own life, but the twin upbringing ruined my sister. She's basically a little baby in a grown woman's body who can't function independently from me or make decisions on her own.
>Asks me what to think about topic x,y and z>Tries to copy my style and hair because she has no personality of her own>When asked to make decisions she freezes and needs them made for her>Has missed flights, buses, hotel reservations because she spent too long trying to decide or on some dumb little thing that doesn't matter>Last time we missed a flight because she spent 20 minutes looking for her eye drops that she forgets to use anyway and doesn't need, but will throw a tantrum if we don't find them>Doesn't know anything about anything and doesn't care unless I also care, her default responses are 'what is that?' and 'I don't know what that is'>Is incredibly stupid and asks obvious questions like 'oh eye spray? is that like eye drops, but a spray? eye drops in spray format? so you just spray them? in your eyes?'>Her friends are also my friends because she refuses to make new ones and wants me to make them for her, can't converse with others due to the previous point I mentioned>Wants to stay with us in my house every weekend>Is afraid of men so my husband has to stay at his parents' house while she is here, very frustrating when you also have a newborn and need the other parent to take over and your sister is a useless womanchild too scared to hold her niece, let alone feed and change herI'm tired of having to be with her and hold her hand through everything. I refuse to be her mommy for the rest of my life. I'm never forgiving my parents for treating us like a unit and not encouraging us to be ourselves and live independently because I guess it was easier to have a built-in default bestie from birth.
No. 2098451
>>2098426>dogpilingLiterally one reply saying cringe, the other posts are all sympathetic, critical or worry for her.
>>2098420>>2098393Both of you are way too defensive for that to be true kek.
No. 2098497
>>2098359only one (1) single reply was mean. is all this infighting just over
>>2092832? everyone else was concerned. i've seen waaayy more meaner replies 2-3 years ago over anons that were sexually assaulted
No. 2098518
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There's a friend I've known for a long time but I stopped considering them a friend last year. They were always really self-involved and would only whole-heartedly engage in the conversation when the topic was about her. She claimed I was her "bestie" but when I told her I got into grad school, she barely congratulated me. Meanwhile, for the other friend she would gossip about to me, she helped throw a party for her masters graduation. She is always complimenting her other friends, but when we met up after months of not seeing each other, and I had lost a significant amount of weight and changed my hair and makeup, it was crickets. Like, no mention of any of the changes I made at all. All of this being considered, I decided to do the slow fade. My mistake. She kept texting me out of the blue every month or so like clockwork. She'd always something along the lines of "Hey! How's it going?" and then type up a paragraph of the things that are happening in her life. I finally had enough and wrote up a paragraph about how I think we just didn't connect anymore and that I think it's best to just end the connection. To my surprise, she apologized and kept insisting that I'm her best friend and that she wants to keep the connection. On one hand, I think this is beating a dead horse, on the other hand, she seems genuine but I can't help but side-eye her. How is she even considering me a best friend after so long with minimal contact? She didn't even seem all there when we would hang out. Does she even actually like me? What's going on nonnies?
No. 2098843
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I just cleaned up my personal papers folder and I came across my medical records from the time I had maybe my 3rd or 4th suicide attempt (blood test results- they were so bad the doctor asked me how tf am I alive) and I started to sob uncontrollably and all my memories from hospitals came back, especially the ones from ages 4-7. The beatings I got from nurses for trying to run from them before I got blood tests done, the time I got beaten before my second surgery while also trying to run away and holding so tight onto my mom to not go there, the time when I woke up during my first surgery and saw my bloody arm, the time nurses restrained me to get blood samples and did that for 5 times to no avail and screaming my lungs out and some malpractice episodes that made things worse.
I spent most of my childhood in hospitals due to shitty health and I feel so shitty and guilty for that, even though I know it isn’t my fault, but I’m so sorry for my parents that they never had a healthy child. I’m still scared to go to hospitals and things like syringes.
I’m glad I’m alive and actually healthier than back then and spite some doctors kek, but I wish I was healthy from the start.
No. 2098894
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This was the skinniest male at the beach. Society is DOOMED.
No. 2098907
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I wish I could atone for my sins. I wish I never sinned to begin with. I wish I never made mistakes. Sometimes it feels like the only way to atone for this is killing myself, because I see myself as a bad person that shouldn't exist. If people knew they would not forgive me, it's what I keep telling myself. How much of a terrible person I'm inside. No matter how nice I try to be I'm doomed to be a failure of a human being. No amount of therapy where the guy insists that everyone makes mistakes and I judge myself too harshly will change the fact that I did make mistakes. I wish someone or something killed me already.
No. 2098960
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So dad suffered a heart attack yesterday, he's feeling better now but God damn that was CLOSE. The cause is not known yet but we all know the actual culprit was his excess weight, everyone knows. I'm just so pissed, even though I care for him a lot, he's not doing things right at all. He's living a pretty unhealthy lifestyle and is food addicted, we gotta hide desserts and anything sugary from him so he doesn't eat it after stressful shifts, he has virtually no selfcontrol around food specially when anxious. My poor mom was so distressed, trying to make things work while he was on ICU, she didn't deserve that just because he won't take control of his life, he thought it was all jokes and games just because he barely gets physical symptoms from his bad habits besides being fat, until now
I don't want him to have a health scare again. I almost lost my dad yesterday, my mom almost lost her husband, I need him to focus and change his future for real. He never went through something like this so I hope this is enough of a wake up call
No. 2098970
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My sister's fiance is very sexist. He thinks women cannot be leaders in anything, are too emotional (I address 98% crime rate of males he said 'males are emotional too' but since they have a monopoly on violence it's fine), I brought up Catherine the Great, he asked who led after her. I didn't know, to be honest. He said after her reign there was a schism (what does that have to do with her, she was dead); I looked it up just now out of curiosity, and it seems nothing bad came after her leadership so I don't get his point. I brought up Hatschepsut of Egypt, he had nothing to say to that, probably doesn't even know who she is.
Anyway, he also said women go against God and the world order because we worship Lillith (kek) I asked who the fuck worships Lillith because it's a pop culture thing he says he has actual coworkers who do, and are witches and pagans (oh nooo paganism), he also thinks it's weird people worship the Mother Mary. I told him it's because she's canon and she's in the mainstream texts for Christians, he didn't care.
My sister was sad about his behavior. I kind of wish she got with this different guy instead. Her fiance is really going off the deep end.
It's like he has to bring up how Women Bad whenever he's over because my sister and I are women. My dad doesn't even agree with him.
No. 2098985
>>2098970he needs a good trolling
nonnie. tell him at least women have lilith, men have adam as their paradigm and he was literally too pussy whipped to not eat the apple & commit blasphemy. the first man in existence only had 2 brain cells and clearly your sisters fiancé has not evolved any more
No. 2099025
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im so annoyed
No. 2099084
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>Find cute moid on YouTube
>He seems self aware and emotionally intelligent
>Does a lot of self help videos that I actually agree with
>Then uploads a video complaining about how the roast of Tom Brady had too much Devil Worship imagery
Not that we’d ever cross paths but I was excited to know that a cute moid who actually seemed to be emotionally intelligent existed but there’s always a fucking catch kek. He also made a video about heartbreak and the first half I agreed with but the second half he started going on about how nothing lasts forever and I knew exactly what kind of scrote he is.
No. 2099113
>>2098985Well he'd probably just say Adam le good and women le rib, and eating the apple is bad even though that makes Eve the Catholic Prometheus, but whatever… about my sister being evolved, she just has an issue with going "im baby! im just a girl!" about it, even though she's in her 30's.
>>2099000Kek he'd just be like 'you're too online wah' I told him he probably has microplastics in his testicles and he brought up that the experiment only had 30 men but I did say I don't care, it's hilarious that 30 men have microplastics in their nuts (it is funny)
His rebuttals to some of my arguments are met with silence or he goes "i'd like to tell you what I think but I won't, it'll make your sister upset"
No. 2099131
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I've vented about this before but I just can't get over that my irl close friend chose to go by a nickname online that sounds really close to my real name, without even asking me before if I was ok with it. If my real name was Millie she decided to go by Mellie online, that's how similar the names are…
If she had asked beforehand I would have objected to it in a kind way, but she didn't ask. She just proudly announced on social media that she had decided to go by a new nickname. I'm honestly creeped out about it and I just keep feeling more uncomfortable with it as time goes by. I don't think she meant anything bad with it. I kind of suspect she was half-expecting me to go "omgggg we're twinning now! Besties 4ever!!!".
The only thing that keeps me from saying anything is that it's not the first time she has "reinvented" herself online by choosing a new nickname… I'm hoping she gets tired of this one soon enough so I can stop feeling so uncomfortable.
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>>2097236Agreed and posts like picrel are giving me another reason to dislike them
No. 2099264
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this summer has been one of the worst in my life. i should continue my studies soon after a sick leave and i dont know how i will survive. im so lost in life and dabbling in substance abuse. im so so disappointed in myself. no one in my life knows the whole picture, everyone close to me only knows different bits and pieces. i hate myself so much and just dont know how to keep living. the only reason i even lived this long is for my wonderfuö mother but i'd rather kill myself now when she still has a good image of me, than hit complete rock bottom and make her see how big of a mess i am. i can't live with myself but don't know how to change. i've been seeing a therapist and in and out of psych wards since i was 12 yo. there's no hope for me and i just want to end it now, rather than letting it drag on and become more and more miserable and pathetic. i hate myself so much.
No. 2099500
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When I see white dudes with asian girls who have teeth like this I just know he has a Japanese porn fetish and thinks her "yaeba" make her look loli and kawaii
I feel bad for the asian girls who look super young because it must suck knowing men outside of your race want you because they're pedos
And yes I know his teeth are piss yellow and he's a ginger I'm not calling him hot
No. 2099509
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>>2099504Thanks
nonny, we'll be able to make it I'm sure
No. 2099511
>>2099500Sounds like your jealous.
Weird post.
No. 2099621
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I gotta take a pill then wait 45 minutes before breakfast and I'm literally so damn hungry!!!! Ahhh just let me eat I need to eat!!!
No. 2099802
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I’ll try to make this short and sweet
>a year ago, my male coworker who doesn’t work in my department somehow got my number and sent me raunchy texts one night and I didn’t reply back other than “hey I’m not interested in that”
>it was awkward for a month and then he went back to hovering over me trying to talk to me every time I walked by his department like nothing ever happened
>fast forward to today and he’s now worked his way up to a position above mine
>strictly stays in my department to use our computer
>hovers over me and does not stop talking throughout our entire shift
>does not want genuine conversations, just wants to talk because he thinks he might have a chance with me
>will finally have a moment of silence and then he’ll kill it by bringing up some random shit by referencing things he heard me say to my other coworkers like one piece
>he has never watched one piece or anime in general but asked me to summarize the plot
>bruh no leave me alone
>”where can I watch it”
>”anywhere tbh just search one piece watch online”
>”ohhh ok”
>a 1 minute moment of silence
>”I think I heard of one piece before” “do you have a favorite character?”
I know I sound like a bitch but this guy doesn’t feel like somebody that wants to be my friend, he comes off as a horny predator. He doesn’t stop talking to me for hours on end and it makes me go crazy. What can I do or say? Just ignore him? When I look down at my phone and nod my head he asks me what I’m doing on it.
It seems obvious to report him to hr but he knows my dad and that might make everything even more weird
No. 2100091
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This is a strange vent but there are no toy stores anymore. Kids no longer play with toys.
I live in one of the biggest cities in my euro country and as a kid there were plenty of toy stores, big ones that felt endless like picrel where every kind of toy had their own aisle, brands had their own aisles etc. They all slowly closed one by one in the last 10 years or so, now all that's left are two small toy stores part of the same chain, hidden within malls. Again, I live in one of the largest cities in the country! I'd like to think it all just moved online instead, but I see it in kids around me, and the news have even shown segments of kids as young as 7-8 years old saying they're too old for toys! It's all just social media and apps for them. It's like kids don't know they're kids anymore, like they think they're small adults.
I'm so uncomfortable with this. What does it mean? Are todays kids really so fucked up they've forgotten how to play, is tiktok frying their brains for real? Am I just old and grasping at my pearls over a non-issue? Was my own generation just over-consoomers of toys? Then again I think back to how we have ancient dolls for kids from pretty much every culture… This is such a weird thing to worry about, isn't it?
No. 2100112
>>2100091One of my greatest wishes is that childhood and tween centered media will kick off again just like it did in the 90's through the early 2010's within my lifetime. There will be more media for adolescents that will try to help them navigate their tumultuous age, the same kind of shit that I was consuming as a young person. I want to see children start to be children again. I want little girls to forget about skincare and makeup and etc etc. I just want to see children be children again.
It's so sad to see the media children nowadays consume. I want to have kids myself but it would break my heart if my daughter gives up dolls and stuffed animals for skincare and makeup at 7 years old. Society is fucking crazy nowadays.
No. 2100150
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>>2100091I miss KB Toys the most
No. 2100282
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>decide to look at the website of my city's animal shelter to see what dogs are available to adopt right now
>shitbull
>shitbull
>shitbull
>non-shitbull that is aggressive and bites people
>shitbull
>shitbull
>shitbull
>non-shitbull that has to be kept alone and wear a muzzle because it's aggresssive towards other dogs
>shitbull
>shitbull
>shitbull
>this goes on for 15 pages
>btw you can only adopt these wonderful dogs if you work 1 hour a day, can guarantee that your dog won't ever be in a 500m radius of children or cats, are a certified dog trainer with 30 years experience, and live in a 2 story house with a 10000m2 garden
It's no wonder people buy puppies from breeders instead of bothering with this shit jfc. It's literally picrel
No. 2100308
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The latest saga of living with my awful narcissistic mother:
>makes a dog grooming appointment while I am out of town on business
>because she thinks my dog's nails are long and she wants the grooming done NOW NOW NOW princess must have her way!
>let her know I have a dermatologist appointment that morning, so she will need to take the dog if she wants it done since she scheduled it without consulting me first
>she's retired with nothing to do so she is not put out
>I go to my appointment, she drops off the dog
>I return home for lunch, have a further appointment in the early afternoon for another skin consultation for a separate issue
>she comes home
>"Ok anon you get to go pick up and pay for the dog later."
>I can't pick him up, sorry, I have another appointment.
>"What do you MEAN?"
>I have another appointment in the afternoon, I cannot pick up the dog.
>"I DON'T UNDERSTAND AT ALL. How are you going to pay?!"
>The same way we did last time, you have them call me so I can give them my card over the phone.
>"Hmph, WELL, next time you schedule the appointment to make sure you are available!"
>ignore her cuntness, bc she's the one who unnecessarily booked an appointment without my input
>she's just irate because I wasn't useful (her words), there is no actual problem to be upset about
>walking on eggshells bc she's wanting an axe to grind with me for this terrible inconvenience that she caused for herself
>go to the fridge to try to get ice for my water with my lunch
>forgot the icemaker is busted
>she snarks "I don't know what you're doing cause there is no water."
>respond how I just really wanted some ice so my drink wouldn't be warm…
>"SEE THERE YOU GO BITCHING AND COMPLAINING. YOU'RE ALWAYS BITCHING! WHY DON'T YOU FIX THE FRIDGE?! THIS ISN'T A HOTEL!"
>state I didn't do anything in an annoyed tone
>"YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU'RE DOING AND WHILE YOU'RE AT IT YOU BETTER START TREATING ME WITH SOME RESPECT. TRY THAT ON FOR A CHANGE! YOU'RE UNGRATEFUL!!!!"
She projects so fucking hard it's funny. Also I take care to never actually complain knowing she would never validate my concerns and spin it to be about her victimhood anyway. And treat her home like a hotel? Never, she would murder me for a cup left in the sink. She already claims I'm a "hoarder" for sometimes leaving a basket of laundry unfolded in my room or if my bathroom sink has some spittle in the basin. If I don't clean 3x a week I am an irredeemable piggu in her eyes. I'm not allowed to live in this house at all.
Then, she'll turn around and whine to me about how my grandmother treated her like a prisoner after her 2nd divorce and had to move back with me in tow. In comparison, all I did was leave an abusive ex and bring my dog with me and yet she treats me like the biggest burden.
I believe she's this way because she's an ex-Stacey (now ugly, fat, and miserable) who always got extra support and always got what she wanted including her taste in shit men which she now regrets. I feel like sometimes she treats me as a surrogate man via financial demands, emotional labor, and always having to prove myself to her.
I hate her. She's wicked.
It's such fucking bullshit that she's a pack-a-day tobacco smoker and yet she doesn't have cancer. Meanwhile lovely, wonderful mothers of my friends are dropping like flies from cancers and health conditions. Why does her nasty ass get to live and so many good people die?
No. 2100314
>>2100294>>2100298No, the shelter isn't doing anything wrong, it's not like it's their fault they're overrun with pitbulls and other dogs who have behavioral issues. It's the "adopt don't shop!!1!" people who piss me off, because it clearly just isn't that easy. As a person who has never owned a dog but wants to adopt one, you either get the choice between
those types of dogs, or ones who are decently well trained but already elderly - which also isn't exactly ideal for a beginner.
No. 2100322
>>2100314I'm not anti pit but a lot of dogs who are mixed with pit do have the aggression from the breed diluted, it just depends on the dog's background.
I learned my dog has pitbull in her and she doesn't look nor act like it, she acts like the most like a husky and looks more like a German shep which are other big chunks of her ancestry
No. 2100330
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fuck you faggot moid "fashion creator" go die of monkey pox
No. 2100348
>>2100091When I would play with my niece (born 2013), she was incapable of actually coming up with a story, imagining things etc. She also stopped playing with toys around 2-3 years ago and is now on social media.
Otherwise she is a nice, smart kid but it feels like she never had a chance of truly living through childhood.
No. 2100359
>>2100330I hate that women where I live (scandinavia) actually chop their hair short after 40. By age 50 even finding someone with chin length hair is hard. I mean it's fine for them to do what they want of course but it feels odd. Like they all "give up".
Because of it I strongly associate short hair with old age, though I don't think the older women here even realize that.
No. 2100374
I'm feeling really sad because my best friend may be going down some weird extremist pipeline?… When we hang out we always dunk on trannies, and i love that. But, lately, she's been ranting about vaccines a lot, saying "nigga" randomly (we're both white) and when asked about it she says its a freedom of speech thing. I just think, why though? Why would you want to say that word? To me that's different from wanting to be able to say twam or whatever. I'm just fearful, I have a cousin whom I thought was very intelligent, then at the family Christmas party went off about jews, women, black people. Everyone kept saying he'd had too much to drink but i think that makes it worse? These are sober thoughts he doesn't usually feel confident in sharing. I was shocked. I hate it. I fucking hate extremism of all forms. Also my friend like 3 years ago, when I told her I didnt care if people got the vaccine or not, said quietly "it's important that everyone gets it.." And now she is behaving as if she knew all along that vaccines are sooooo bad. Just.. Feeling weird
No. 2100391
>>2100359why do you hate it
nonnie? it's similar in east asia (asian grandma perm lol)
No. 2100518
>>2100374As a computational linguist I think it's dumb that black people have a monopoly over that word in the social media era. The word has evolved enough to lose its bad connotation across the world and throughout different cultures. I've seen all sorts of people who are disconnected to the origins of the world use it as a synonym for "bro", people from fucking South East Asia or Latin America, etc. While white people definitely have more cultural context for the original usage of the word, I don't think it's wrong if they use it in the non-insulting way. The way in which "nigga" is used these days is pretty much like that of "bitch"; you can use it in an insulting way or in a friendly way, and I don't see women having a meltdown every time someone uses "bitch" in a friendly way.
About the vaccines shit, she's definitely lowQ. Dunno how you can be friends with someone that retarded lol.
No. 2100616
>>2100609I unintentionally lost 10 lbs testing medications and dealing with the side effects, a lot of which was how harshly they affected my stomach. I've gained a little of it back but I still find it hard to eat more than 1-2 meals a day and it's even worse when I'm on edge.
On my days off I'll try and finish at least one large meal over a period of a couple hours by leaving it out and coming back to eat a portion of it. It's an incredibly stupid thing to do. On the days I work I have to scarf down 1 meal if I'm eating on my break.
No. 2100637
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As a curly girlie, I’m never going back to a hairdresser ever again. For the first time in ages, I went today and she was so violent with handling my hair. I could hear hair straws snap as she was trying to detangle my hair with the tiniest comb ever. And the cut she gave me does not suit my curly hair type at all, which is super curly but flat at the roots. She tried to give me a voluminous cut, but my hair just doesn’t work like that, which I told her. I’m really bummed out because apparently curly hair is supposed to be one of her specialities. I was also telling her to calm down on the combing but she totally ignored me, smh. About to leave a one star review to make myself feel better.
No. 2100697
>>2100689All of that is
valid and I get your mood, but game night never hurts. It's good to have friends, don't let your (justified) rage over life alienate you from others. Bonding with humans is hardly ever a waste of time.
No. 2100712
>a close friend is gonna move in sometime in august
>orders a new bed frame because his current one won't fit
>get a notification that since the bed is over 20kg so they're gonna leave it outside the apartment building sometime between 5pm-10pm
>no prob, just call my friend over to wait for the delivery and we can carry it up to the 3rd floor ourselves
>delivery guy turns up in front of my door at 8:30pm, clearly grumpy
>him: "I've been trying to reach you, called several times"
>me: "I've had my phone in my hand the entire evening but I never got any notifications, something might have gotten wrong. Still, I'm really sorry for the trouble"
>him: "The package is over the weight limit, I'm not allowed to carry it up the stairs"
>me: "It's fine, give us a sec to put on our shoes and we'll take care of it. Thanks for knocking and notifying me"
>him: "No, I'll carry it. I'm not supposed to though."
>me: "Uhm, are you sure? I can at least help you with it since it's so heavy. Just let me put on my sho-"
>him: "No."
>he said the last no very sternly, and then proceeds to hurry downstairs but not before casting me one last glare
>my friend and I just stand there in the door flabbergasted, trying to figure out if we should go downstairs anyway
>delivery guy comes up with the package a few seconds later and angrily puts it down
>him: "There. I wasn't supposed to carry it, it's over the weight limit. You do know I was trying to reach you."
>me: "Yeah I uh… sorry, didn't get the notification. But thanks for getting the package up here, that was really nice of you"
>him: "I wasn't supposed to though"
>he turns on his heel and hurries downstairs
I…uh…thanks? Sorry? I don't know??? What the fuck did he expect me to do or say? I'm so confused
inb4 anyone says he was expected a tip: We don't have a tipping culture here, and even if we did he didn't even give me a moment to reach for my phone or wallet. There is no way to tip through the delivery service or even know who did the job, especially since the ones delivering this package was the state-owned delivery service.
No. 2100730
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I fell in love at first sight with someone with extremely unique facial features, like i've never seen anyone else with a face even slightly similar, and it's like she broke the scale for how attractive someone can even be but in such a weird way that now everyone else in the world looks like boring samefaces. It's been years since then and I think I'm stuck like this permanently now.
I feel like I fell in love with a beautiful alien creature and now humans don't interest me anymore. I resist the urge to draw her face even though I feel sort of like one of those medieval painters who had a vision from god and then only painted madonnas picrel over and over for the rest of his life. But anyway I can't do that because again, she's so unique looking that it would literally be her and that feels extremely creepy to draw thousands of sketches of every aspect of her face alone in my room like a psychopath even years later.
If I was a rich moid painter in centuries past I would pay her well to be my muse and she would have anything she wanted to entice her to stick around and let me observe her beauty for my art. I'm so unhinged that I'm actually making myself mad now because I'm not living in this alternate universe scenario I just made up. God damn it. Fuck.
No. 2100782
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I used to be fat and now I’m borderline underweight. I calculated my TDEE and it was 1,500 calories. I cannot fucking believe this. I have to eat 1,500 calories a day for the rest of my life if I want to stay skinny unless I become an athlete or something
No. 2100804
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I wish I had this body type. I'd be okay with being built wider if I just had the fucking hips to match my shoulders in a way that looked actually female. I'm always paranoid about looking like a troon even if my friends tell me I'm being delusional, I just wish I had an average female body type with wider hips than shoulders.
No. 2100830
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I dated this Israeli dude who ended up cheating on me last year. I did a little bit of stalking and found out his mother is a realtor and his father was a software engineer. His cousin teaches at a famous university. Dude had a pool in his backyard yet literally every time he saw me he’d beg me to buy him vapes, clothes, and jewelry as if he was broke. I’m Jewish too but it’s literally like something out of The Protocols Of The Elders Of Zion
No. 2100845
>>2099707ayrt, I did this
nonnie! She kept doing the check-ins. I even went full ghost after a while and she ended up emailing me. I finally had enough and outright told her that I wished to end the connection and wish her well. She then apologized when I told her I felt disrespected in our interactions before and then insisted I was her best friend and that she wants to talk (the current situation I am in). I just don't get it. How on earth is she able to go around telling people (and me) that I'm her best friend when our communication has been so broken for so long? Is it nostalgia?
No. 2100900
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>>2100894>>2100830what he got from his mother is what he wants from you. if she is rich and spoiled him like a princess, you are expected to rub his feet and give him money while he cheats.
No. 2101169
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I miss you. I feel like shit. Crashing hard rn and crying at work. I miss you.
No. 2101272
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I’m really trying to not let this get me down because I know the job market is overall fucked for many people down the line but my fucking god, I have some experience? Just hire me already. I need money so bad. It’s almost making me extremely sad like I’m tired of existing and living at this point if it’s becoming difficult to self-sustain yourself, they’re getting ready for people to become entirely reliant on the same government that’s fucking you over.
No. 2101389
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I went to 2 different stores and couldn't find my favorite ice cream or the chips I wanted. Not feeling very rawr ecks dee today.
No. 2101410
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Wish my OCD would kill itself already.
No. 2101526
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Trying to get my friend to not allow herself to be manipulated into bending over backwards towards a troon that has been treating her like shit and is doing a giant "NO U" towards her when she called him out. Girl, I know you are desperate for hbtq friends but trannies ain't it. No wonder people step all over you when you allow yourself to be responsible for their emotions, you are worth so much more than that hun. C'mon girl, I believe in you! Stand up for yourself, I'll be right behind you making sure you keep your back straight!
No. 2101572
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I hate myself for falling into the same trap my mother did. I fucking hate how men love to shoulder their responsibilities onto women then get upset when things aren’t done exactly to their standards. I cook, clean, and pay the majority of living expenses. Why am I still letting this fucking scrote take advantage of me like this? I just want him to love and show me the respect I show him but clearly I’m just a big pushover and now I’m beginning to see that I’m just a fucking bang maid. I deserve to learn this lesson the hard way.
No. 2101809
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Im sad. I went to school for 8 years and almost blew my brains out my last year of it, but finally graduated, etc. Now I have my "big girl" job as ppl call it but it takes up all my time and leaves me feeling exhausted/shitty. My confidence is getting worse because ppl at work treat me like a retard because im the "new hire". It's stressful and in retail too. The only thing that makes me a bit happy now is buying stuff, specifically makeup. I keep buying from Ulta weekly. I even bought some makeup from some shitty online company. I have more makeup than i need right now, especially because i dont have anywhere cool outside of work to go. I try to go on dates still but they are miserable. The last date i went on was with an 18 year old moid. Im 31. My life isnt where I wanted it to be years ago and i dont think it will ever be. I dont think it's possible for me to fill fulfilled.
No. 2101816
>>2101809You should try meditation
nonnie. Your pain comes from within, you
can flourish. I know your pain, please trust me. Follow your path.
No. 2101939
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>>2101913>dirty dilapidated house with decades of grime i can't clean up no matter how hard i try>living room is mother’s domain >virtually no privacy we’re living the same life. i wish you luck in getting out of it, i’m planning to jump ship in october (october is when i’ll have stacked
enough dough to make leaving and staying home a possibility — i hope)
No. 2101989
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My moid really wants a baby but I really don't. He started by hiding my birth control pills so I'd be forced to skip days. Then I stopped taking them. I got the anticonceptive ring, but he put his hand to feel inside me and pull it out. He keeps doing that and I can't afford to buy anymore. Finally I got the DIU, but today he feeled for the string and threated to pull it out if I didn't go back to have it taken out.
What am I going to do. I'm running out of options. I heard of other birth controls (spermicide , sponge, diafram) but they can't be hidden easily. I also heard of the vaccine and the anticonceptive implant, but they are hardly available in this country (Mexico) and I will have to jump through hoops to get them. I can't even say no to sex because I live with him.
We came to Mexico from Guatemala together last year, because he said the life is easier and we'll have more money, we can work for some years and save up then return. But I still have no job and no friends here, I would go back now but I have no money to get back and there's no way I will ask him. I'm consider just packing a bag and running away, but where will I go.
I don't want to accept my fate and end being pregnant. I'm 22 years and want to do other things first. I think I'm going to end my life soon, maybe it's silly but I can't cope with this anymore.
No. 2102014
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Told my mom I'm getting treated for PTSD due to her abusing me and trying to to kill me among other things and she brushed it off and said "we were all in anguish then"
I don't know why I even bothered
No. 2102018
>>2101989Start hiding money now. Offer to go to the store and throw away the receipt then keep a little for yourself. Use cash. Get a bank account he doesn’t have access to if you don’t already have one and put everything there, if you can’t then hide it as best you can. Start looking for women online in your city who are looking for roommates and start interviewing, lie to him and say it’s nail appointments or gynaecologist. When you are out and he isn’t around call everyone you know and trust and tell them what he is doing, doesn’t matter where they live. Also contact your country’s embassy, they can maybe help but it’s not guaranteed. Google women’s shelters just in case in incognito mode so it doesn’t show in your history. Try to see if you can find some cafe job or something locally, doesn’t have to be big. If he keeps pushing about the baby say you need money for baby clothes and want to work while you can, sadly I haven’t been in your exact situation so I don’t know how he will respond to that.
Just try to get as much information as possible and start making an exit plan NOW. Lie as much as you need to about anything that will put you in a better position, it’s really okay as long as it keeps you safe. Pretend you’re preparing for pregnancy and the baby, lie about job experience, anything. If churches give away food and have contacts for women in danger, you are now religious.
The most important thing is to have an exit plan, keep it secret, and gtfo when he isn’t around to somewhere where he can’t find you. Tell EVERYONE you trust that he is dangerous and you are scared but do NOT tell them your plan or where you are.
Good luck nonna, from a former thirdie underage bride in a similar situation.
No. 2102036
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I hate that I’m still hurt over my last ex scrote but things have become clearer over the past few months. He started off very caring and loving and it really seemed like he was “the one” but the truth is is that he’s too insecure and miserable to be long term happy. He’s one of those people who only gets close to people he can fix and I was in an extremely vulnerable state but because I actually take care of myself he didn’t get that security he feels with dating an unstable woman and flipped shit. He needs to be the one doing better in the relationship. He made such a big deal about how I wasn’t his type and he didn’t go after girls like me but he’s obviously trying to change his new girlfriend to look like me. He would make little suggestions on things he thought I’d look good in (really just things that would make him feel more secure like baggier clothing) and suddenly within the first two months they’re dating she has her hair like mine, makeup like mine, clothing like mine etc. We have similar names, similar styles, similar interests, similar glasses. I think him breaking up with me was a power play and not actually wanting to break up but because I didn’t act like a blubbering retard he gave up. I think he wanted me to beg. I know I dodged a bullet but I want to cuss him out for making me feel like I wasn’t good enough for him while skinwalking our relationship with his new girlfriend. The good news is is that it looks like she very recently got it of a relationship with a moid who looks very similar to my ex and is basically doing the same thing to him. Haircut he said he hated, new clothes that look exactly like the ex’s etc. I hope they fuck each other over hard.
No. 2102381
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it’s beyond over.
No. 2102455
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My mother has been asking me to call her for two weeks now so tonight I finally called. Our conversation was good but then she chimped out on me over politics and I told her I was confused and I didn't understand where she was getting her information from. It's like she's living in a totally different reality from me. I didn't even disagree with her but she became hostile and started criticizing me like she did when I was a kid but I didn't engage or try to stir up the argument more. She has a tendency to argue just for argument's sake and I realized in that moment that she's very insecure, and has been her entire life. It was bizarre. She was abusive to me when I was a kid and she would mock my self harm scars in front of people out in public, which made me self harm more. But now that I've lived on my own for over ten years I realize how I've grown up and learned how to have civil disagreements. And tonight I realized she's still stuck in this gossipy, vengeful, immature mindset. I ended the conversation and now I feel weird, like I'm understanding now how much I've grown as a person while she's stayed the same. I thought it was a cliche but some people really don't change. tldr I grew up, my abusive mother didn't. What a life.
No. 2102469
Feeling like I will never overcome severe discomfort with my low healthy weight body. I hate eating disorders, I hate being influenced by the evil gay men of Hollywood, I hate all the miserable, ghoulish, valueless, delusional ‘scenes’ that encourage disordered behaviors and aesthetically champion a certain type of body.
A past eating disorder ruined my body composition, losing weight then gaining then losing then gaining caused me to lose any semblance of balance I had between my lower and upper body. Now I just look like two bodies spliced together in a way that looks terrible and like I’m trying to be an Instagram thot or or like I got a BBL when that couldn’t be further from the case. Every day I fantasize about removing flesh from my body but I don’t want to restrict nor sacrifice my mind for my body, even though the obvious catch 22 of being a woman is that I already am. No matter what, my body will trap me and prevent me from living truly freely. I hate the way my flesh feels, I hyperfocus on it for hours and it legitimately feels like it needs to be removed for me to calm down again. All day long I am focused on my “curves” and how they might appear to others.
I can’t believe I am a full-fledged adult and a sort of searing, peripheral, hovering, buzzing, enveloping bodily discomfort is ruining my life.
No. 2102574
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>>2092795I genuinely cannot help but lament the fact that I was born a zoomer. I wish I was born just a few years earlier. It’s not just the cringe “Music was better back then” bullshit or whatever reason, I just feel like I missed a lot. I feel overwhelmed by social media and annoyed by it but as an artist I’m expected to rely on it for the sake of my career even if I actively despise it. I kinda wish I was born just 10 years earlier. So social media is around but not necessarily a necessity, and I could kinda have some privacy regarding my own political opinion, and people weren’t so obsessed with virtue signaling. I guess it’s nice that with social media any schmuck can make an account and start uploading their art. They can gain a following and make a living in their own corner of the internet. I like that, don’t get me wrong. But another part of me gets kinda sad hearing stories of how older artists got their first jobs and about how life for an artist was back then,sure, it was more cut throat but you had an opportunity to be a part of something really amazing. I also feel a little jealous that they had actual subcultures. We have “aesthetics” but there’s no actual culture around them, it’s just a look and nothing more. I feel like things were generally a bit more edgy, stylish, and individualistic…that probably had a lot to do with the fact that people weren’t roleplaying as moral police constantly. I especially loved the way cartoons looked in the early 2000s, it was the whole reason I got into art as a kid. I loved the rough lines and black blocky shadows in shows like Ben Ten and Teen Titans, I really liked the weird zany humor in Adventure Time, I begged my mom to put on Billy and Mandy for me all of the time. In the end, at a really young age, I decided that I desperately wanted to work at Cartoon Network and would try my best to make it happen. I remember this so clearly, I was in 3rd grade, the year was 2010 and I stumbled upon the Internship section of the Cartoon Network website. I asked my teacher what an internship was and got so excited when I found out I asked her to help me submit my art. She laughed and told me I was too young. I was pretty bummed out about it but became truly bummed when I saw how Cartoon Network was changing. I don’t know. Cartoons were starting to look different. Uglier even…I had nothing against flash and thinner lines and stuff initially but Teen Titans Go came out at some point and I became so disappointed. I realized that the my dream studio was changing a lot and maybe I wouldn’t be able to keep up cause I didn’t like the way newer cartoons looked; Weirdly as an adult I look back at that time, in 2010, in the third grade computer lab and think “I wish I’d put in my application”. It's so stupid, I know! I’ll watch old videos of animators hanging out in the CN studio in like 2009 and get genuinely sad thinking “I missed it”. I bet another great era of animation is probably ahead, maybe in the future kids will wish they were in my position when they grow up. I know I shouldn’t complain. I’m just feeling very frustrated with the state of Animation and Comic books at the moment.
No. 2102677
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I dated a scrote at work. While we were dating, he brought up my 20-year-old employee in a lot of weird ways. There were only two dates in which he did not bring her up. I even asked him about it because of how often it was. He said she was just the only other person that he spoke to everyday. Anyway, he broke up with me 40 minutes after we had sex for the first time. Ever since then, he has been thinking of reasons to go talk to her. He has seriously just been hovering around her. Every time I leave the office to go do something, when I come back he is by her desk chatting to her. It is really starting to bug. Scrotes are not human.
No. 2102696
>>2102677Protip: Whenever a moid brings up another woman, it's because she is who is on his mind.
Sorry anon, it sounds like he used you for convenient sexual release and after that was over he had no further use of you and decided to pursue who he wanted all along. He likely feels emboldened from fucking you to approach her now that he feels like he has "game" and not that he is a manipulative liar.
No. 2102707
>>2102677when she rejects him he will likely come crawling back to you seeking sex and consolation. i'm sure i don't have to tell you this but when it happens ignore him.
>>2102701you are confident! you are secure!
No. 2102714
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I feel guilty posting this because they're only trying to help, but it kinda bothers me how my family can never just be happy about developments in my life or at least accept my choices/plans. It feels like they always have something to say.
No. 2102730
>>2092804fucking word unless the nigel is
abusive (((and))) they have no way of getting away
No. 2102754
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>>2102677>decides to get with a scrote >decides to get with a scrote at her work >has sex with work scrote >scrote decides to dump her for someone younger how are any of you able to survive on your own? it’s like normal women also need caregivers when they become legal adults, so braindead with the mind and naivety of a teenage girl. you’re no different than a 20 year old girl and you’re probably older than her, that’s the saddest part
(bait) No. 2102766
>>2102716based
>>2101939*leaving and staying gone
No. 2102818
>>2102787She barely suffered at all kek
>>2102793I wouldn’t be surprised if most of these nigel vents were fake just to get attention.
No. 2102867
>>2102849Idk
nonny, just don’t be a retard and 90% of your moid problems will disappear
No. 2102896
>>2102867And yet a moid can still murder you because you looked at him funny in public and didn't laugh at his jokes.
What's the point of what you're saying?
No. 2102898
>>2102754You're vile. It's implied she has autism. Furthermore, many women get told for years and years that men are "good people" and other nonsense and it's only when they get out into the real world out of their parents' grasp that they realize that isn't the case. Even when they realize that isn't the case, it usually takes them experience to realize that. The ideal of a man who just loves and saves you is extremely pervasive in this culture and many boomer and gen x mothers unfortunately perpetuate that mindset. You're even more fucked if you're raised within religion. If anon has autism and hasn't had much experience with men, it makes sense she was duped.
>>2102867A lot of women don't have experience with men or the feelings of love to understand the situation they're in. You can say you hate men all you want, but when a person experiences love for the first time, it can be severely disorienting and cause a person to ignore red flags. For women, it's sad that the effects of ignoring red flags tend to be so much greater than when men ignore red flags.
I always find comments like this strange. I was extremely distrustful and paranoid of men from a young age, but that's because I was SA'd as a kid. I have seen my sisters who haven't gone through that make really "dumb" decisions regarding men, but it's because they're inexperienced with love and men and they grow up being told only positive messages about men. The solution isn't for men to continue abusing women so we "learn" to expect that. Why do you place the blame on women? That's only going to perpetuate the issue. For that matter, some women are SA'd or harmed by men and it psychologically warps them to think abuse is love or other messages. Stop blaming women for existing in a shitty world. Anon will know not to do that next time.
No. 2102908
>>2102722based and kindpilled
>>2102726my middle school bully was a skinny girl with big boobs, she is a sphere now
>>2102764> that most people judge them and don't find them beautifulthis isn't it, these are women I've come to know 10+ years who were already engaged/married, extremely salty vile beings even when they were at a relatively normal weight
the only time when they actually looked their best was when they paid heavy money for personal trainers to carefully monitor them, ofc 1 year later they were back to gaining weight because wouldn't you know it, staying fit requires actual discipline and effort and is something you CAN'T buy
mind you these are the same women who'd spend hundreds or thousands of dollars on makeup, hair and clothes, if only they poured a tenth of that effort into their weight
yet they still tried to make themselves feel better by badmouthing me and making me look like a snotty whore (I was actually a shy virgin kek)
Imagine being enganged,married or even with a kid and still being this lazy and salty instead of actually doing something about your problem, I could never
one of my best friends is fat and as much as I love her, being fat can lead to a fuckton of health problems (we had several fights about me trying to convince her to lose weight years ago, she can't get pregnant now bcs of her weight and has developed some other health related issues) and is usually seen as a sign of laziness and lack of discipline
No. 2102918
>>2102898Adding to your point: If women are being told that the way men treat us is our faults, why would we be suspicious of men when we have been told we are to blame? Like do men truly be held accountable for anything? Even their fucking abuse and deceit??? They get mothered so god damn much.
Makes no sense.
No. 2102929
>>2102921I'm not OP. And yes you are mothering them by saying women are at fault for being mistreated.
Men love this shit. Love women like you saying other women deserved it and had it coming.
No. 2102957
>>2102929The irony is that men love posters like
>>2102912 and that many of us also had mothers like
>>2102912. It doesn't help people navigate through the real world to just punch down on them for not knowing.
>she’s just plain retarded and gullible is scares me that she probably lives alone unsupervised. Low IQ disability momentMen literally use this as a talking point for why women need to be wifed up. Why would anon want to connect with other women if other women are just regurgitating male talking points?
If OP is reading this, please make sure to learn from your experience. I don't think you're stupid, you are a little naïve, but that's to be expected. Men shouldn't care about 20 year olds if the moid is past a certain age (i.e. they shouldn't be talking about them to you like that). In general, when men excessively talk about another woman, even if in a hateful way, it means they're interested in them and they're just talking about them to you so they can keep that person in their mind. You also want to be careful about dating men from workplaces because that can lead to sticky situations fast. I wish you the best OP.
No. 2103046
>>2102777Being obese is unhealthy, but it is also true that society judges women more harshly than men and that our culture and food encourages obesity.
>>2102848The type of woman who is completely confident in herself and her body does not bully others. So obviously those women in particular care. I hope the oxygen is fresher at the height of your high horse.
No. 2103049
>>2103004>>2102990Get you a girl who loves you as much as blackpillchans love the word cocksucker kek
>>2103046> I hope the oxygen is fresher at the height of your high horseThis is poetry nonna ily
No. 2103170
Since the start of this year my partner has fallen down a tankie Islamofascist rabbit hole and landed in an echo chamber; according to them violence is the only answer to fix everything because "governments don't think of the little people and they indirectly cause violence against them with their policies so it's justified", and now he's at the point where he refuses outright to listen to anything that challenges his bullshit beliefs and i'm scared that i'm losing someone who once was a rational and empathetic person. He's become more secretive, reactionary, and seemingly distrustful of me to the point where he won't share where he gets his info from when questioned. I asked him simply why he was against Kamala Harris as a democratic candidate, just as an honest inquiry without judgment because I wanted to hear his side, and he refused to elaborate (in the past when political discussion came up, he'd be vague and say stuff like "groups i'm apart of talk about and share this and that what you won't see on major news sites (such as the dude who set himself on fire in front of the white house in protest of the Gaza genocide)" so i'm guessing it's telegram or some other shady platform.
Giving me some "both sides are the same so it doesn't matter who's in power" bullshit, like, are you fucking kidding me you absolute tool… It really hurts to see him become like this and it makes me resentful of the whole thing. Like, I could give a fuck if Hamas is justified against Israel because nothing justifies rape of innocent civilian women and i'm sick to my stomach of these reactionary wannabe activists. He drank the kool-aid that "Islam is a religion of peace, women can choose to wear hijab or not, Islam gave rights to women first" according to some cucked Muslimas and their husbands he talked to in a mosque, as if they don't have incentive to lie in front of their husbands. Ironically I can see him joining some terrorist faction within the next two years, convinced to die for "the greater good".
I'd been doing research and collecting resources from ex-Muslims like Apostate Aladdin, Apostate Prophet (his earlier vids anyway), Holy Humanist/Nuriyah Khan, etc. to disprove his misinformed claims but now it seems like he's completely shut himself off to anything that doesn't confirm his biases and challenges his beliefs before I can even present them. That's the scary thing, when a person won't even give you a chance to change their minds or inform them. Is there any nonna out there with similar experiences where a loved one went off the deep end on some political/religious bullshit? If so, how did you deal with it? Does anyone have any advice other than to cut ties? It's really fucking depressing to see. I already have to deal with some once kind and loving relatives turning into irrational trumptards so i'm no stranger to this, but it's still painful.
No. 2103212
I just regret all my sexual experiences. Body count of 4, but I barely had sex on an actual bed. I was fingered in a park, or a forest, or at worst, in bathrooms (that were clean and empty, at least) when i was struggling with mental health between age 15-18. The exes in question were between a year to 6 years older than me during that period. One of my exes admitted to me that he did, in fact, take advantage of me "crazy is easy" and regretted it. Same regret with how I did sexting since I'm as young as 12 because I thought the only emotional value I'd get would be from getting groomed by grown men online as I couldn't socialise. Now a few years passed. And it's been 3 years I only did dating in a celibate way (unless it doesn't count considering I'd do sexting and thek regret it, but felt like I'd have to do it, because if I gave it up before, I shouldn't act like this)- but mostly stayed single. I feel better than ever. But I feel so dirty I debased myself so much for moids of all people. I wouldn't mind dating someone who was used like I was, and I know I shouldn't kiss and tell about something so disgusting, but I'd feel like living a whorish lie if the partner I'll marry doesn't know about those sexual stuff I regret, I was used, I should've known better but I was so starved for affection. I can't take solace in knowing some people did more degrading stuff and still managed to have a happily ever after. I just consider myself to be unfit for dating, forever.
No. 2103214
>>2103170The best (albeit slim) chance of a quick fix is making him do a full internet/media detox. There are stories of people deradicalizing their qanon family members by going on a no-screens holiday somewhere remote like a cabin in the woods. There's also a method called 'street epistemology' to compel people to challenge their own beliefs, but I don't know how effective it actually is at deradicalization and it might take a while if it is.
You could check out the subreddit /r/qanoncasualties for success stories because the same thing is effectively happening here
No. 2103274
>>2103192Things were good until this year… but yes, politics do very much matter in a relationship. My own politics are pretty nuanced. I consider myself somewhat center left but i'm critical of everything whereas he's more swayed by emotion, so seeing Palestinians and by extension Muslims as the perfect
victims feeds his savior complex I guess.
>>2103214He was pretty anti-social media before this, using it only sparingly, but I guess decided to go on Reddit one day because the Palestine-Israel conflict made him want to learn Arabic to be able to "help the
victims" somehow, and I suppose he got contacted by some extremist or met one at the mosque he visited and yeah… Thank you so much for your suggestion, I just might be able to convince him to do the detox but since we're LDR I'm not always physically there with him so I can't monitor his phone activity or anything. He said he doesn't want to talk politics with me period when before he said he'd be open to having his claims about Islam challenged, so maybe I can challenge him in a way that gets him to step away from politics in general. He is insanely busy with work most of the time working 16 hour days for a lot of it so it's doubly insulting to me that apparently he has time to
absorb a narrative that's comfortable for him to believe but he feels so threatened by my takes that he won't even listen to what I have to say in the first place. We used to be on the same page, but he'd been spouting those weird "Trump says he'll leave Ukraine and Palestine alone so it's better for all" BS which could be Russian bot takes because it benefits Russia and Israel if America is in shambles but let me stfu for a second 'cause whooo cares lol.
>>2103217Normally I have no problem cutting people off, but a 3-4 year long relationship is a different matter. We'd been talking about marriage and living out our DINK dreams but there's no way in hell i'd convert to any religion much less Islam and he didn't seem to realize that women are supposed to convert for their husbands, thinking he could just convert himself and have all his dumbass questions about life answered, sounding like a braindead zombie parroting lines and beliefs that weren't his own. Reporting him to authorities might not work out because he's on a whole other continent and they probably wouldn't take it seriously, but at the same time, I don't think i'd need to. By the time he becomes an active threat i'll be long gone out of his life and he can marry his perfect soviet slavic waifu since he's a borderline Russaboo to boot.
No. 2103281
>>2103270Weird how you're conflating being called out for immaturity the same as "defending" anybody.
>y-y-you must be fatAnd I bet I am jealous of you too kek. You're nasty, get the stick out of your ass and stop comparing yourselves to has beens to feel better.
No. 2103282
>>2103274>LDR on different continents>3-4 year long relationship>talking about marriage>By the time he becomes an active threat i'll be long gone out of his life Are you sure you'll only leave this guy when he becomes an active threat? I don't see what's so great about being in an LDR with some political extremist who loves
Islam and is a Russiaboo to boot. You say it's hard to leave this relationship, but you say you can see yourself leaving him when he's an active threat. Is this ship worth saving?
No. 2103287
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Went to Olive Garden with my mom today and stepped in a stranger’s diarrhea on the restroom floor. I want to fucking die.
No. 2103295
>>2103287Oh my God,
nonnie. My condolences. I would never step foot in an Olive Garden after that.
No. 2103303
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I hate that the only thing my family bothers to ask me about in the entirety in my life is school. I went through grade school and my undergrad with them breathing down my neck for every grade, about every bad or good assignment, internships, ect bullshit.
They never try to ask about my life just in general. Like, they don't care about who I am, as long as they can either brag about my success like it was their own, lecture me about how lazy and stupid I am for not doing well, or turn and gossip about me to other family.
As soon as I finished, they started hounding me about going to graduate school. I pushed it off for a few years and ignored them, but they wouldn't let up.
I did apply for the next semesters to start gtad school. I wanted to do it for me and not feel like my family is going to be watching my every move and pressure me. I'm sure it'll start back up again.
The bigger issue is that it's a little depressing that they don't care about my interests, like they don't care about who I am. I'll ask my older sister/ cousins, aunts and ankles things about their lives. I'll try to connect in some way, but I never get the same back.
No. 2103332
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>applies for job weeks ago
>job finally send me a link to make a virtual interview appointment
>finally happy because i haven’t had any success or luck in awhile
>tried booking the time for the interview
>”sorry there was a problem”
>reloads page
>no more times available
>tries calling recruiter
>not available
>texts them 30 minutes after i saw the whole email and phone call that was reminding me of the email
>still no response
>wants to scream and cry and yell i need money so bad
why do I have such bad luck? I want to fucking dig my nails in my scalp and cry, it’s like I’m being punished by the universe
No. 2103359
>>2103347For context
>always had anger issues, always been a retard. for example he once had a screaming fit and broke my phone while I was learning to drive the car because he thought I took the wrong way when I took the right way>biggest ego you'll see, even implying you might disagree with him makes him get angry like a little child>fucking useless, was working from home the past 3 years and would work 3 hours then sit on his phone. now is retired and sits on his phone all day while my mom does all the housework+administration of the house. he doesn't do shit knowing my mom will do it for him>can't have literally any form of conversation with him due to his massive ego (hearing him rant thinking he looks smart gets old quickly) so our interactions sum up to "hi hows it going"Idk. For his defense, he did work hard in his youth and I get he's trying to lay back and "enjoy life" now he's old. But I find his behaviour disgusting.. Like, really? Is sitting on your phone playing the same card game over and over and watching stupid tiktoks better than, say, learn how to cook? or do some gardening? or fix up things around the house? You can sit on your phone for 5 hours then do something useful for 1 hour or 2, no?
The other time, my mom sent him to get the groceries. She had already ordered the store what to buy, all he had to do was drive there and bring them. Upon coming home, I heard him grumbling "fuck this, this is so unkept!! she'll do it then!" while putting away the groceries, because he couldn't fit a bag of peas in the freezer. A fucking child. I came up and it fit in an instant.
I end up doing more housework than him while having a job and studying, while all he does is sit on his ass all day. It's really unnerving.
No. 2103365
>>2103223I was told how I should be transparent because if I am discreet about it then the guy will assume the worst out of me. I also have limits on how much of a sexual past I can handle in a partner : I don't want to be with someone who used to sell or buy sex, I don't want to be with someone who has STDs or made children - because I myself didn't do those things.
But you're right that I should just keep things vague, at best say "Oh I just did what couples usually do, though it was very stupid and I regret it" or something?
No. 2103373
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I started working a public facing job. I don't know why, but I'm way more sensitive to the things random strangers or irritated people say to me than I thought I would. Someone tell me to get over it, and grow tougher skin. It's literally not that big if a deal, why am I so sensitive??
No. 2103434
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Escapism is the only thing stopping me from killing myself. At certain astrological times my dreams become hyper-absurdist, almost like it’s making fun of my own life (and the blood suckers and morons) in a self aware way kind of like Idiocracy movie. It’s the only thing that knows how fruitless being alive is and where I truly feel delicate but sometimes my dreams can become my own enemy. I had a dream the other night of being at this beach and it was full of homeless smelly moids doing fentanyl and drugs in public and just an array of unsavory things and I was so afraid of those drugs getting on me and making me instantly overdose and die in the dream and then it shifts like an AI video into some scene of me and this fat female police officer trying to hunt down a poisonous cobra but it ends up biting me and that’s when I wake up.
No. 2103443
>>2103282Whether it's a family member, friend, or partner, I can't stand the thought of forsaking someone to complete radicalization if there's even a sliver of a chance that they can be salvaged. It reminds me of when his perfect
victim/life cause was his BPDemon of an ex; we'd argue back and forth because he was so co-dependent and it pissed him off that I was right. For a while after, he had suddenly grown a backbone and was doing good but looks like his savior complex never completely went away as he finds another cause to enmesh himself in and give his life meaning that he rejects any criticisms of.
>>2103372>This islam shit is just brainrot. He's not having faith in this religion, he's using it to seek purpose.Agreed. It's weak and a flaw in character that I have trouble tolerating. I thought he was better than this, because his other takes were progressive and reasonable, but like I said, it's his savior complex flaring up again because of a lack of conviction in himself and his beliefs outside of religion.
>>2103404Yep, LDR=long distance relationship. And yeah, moids tend to be inherently flawed one way or another. I dunno if i'll find better after this because i'm extremely picky with who I let into my life. To find someone who hit every box in what I want in a person is ultra rare, and I distrust and despise most moids because I know what they're capable of. I'm not going to settle and i'm extremely intolerant of bullshit, despite the recent influx.
>>2103418He wasn't always like this, but yeah, he definitely needs therapy to stop basing his self worth on how he can serve other people. I thought i'd gotten through to him in how to be independent, but old habits die hard I guess. He's always been one to defend those he perceives as having faced injustice, in which the more trauma or something someone's been through, he tends to put that person on a pedestal compared to people who've had it "easy". So I guess because Islam is a "brown person" religion, and Muslims have on occasion faced discrimination, that means they can do no wrong because they are the biggest
victims right now. /eyeroll
No. 2103493
>>2103456Do you also have dreams at school? That’s mostly where my dreams take place, and usually a school shooting always ends up happening in these dreams.
>>2103462I have to learn how to get rid of my dreams where people always get murdered and massacred and then I can enjoy my dreams. I want your dreams nonna
No. 2103502
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I hate that the only time moids seem to respect me and chase me is when I am distant and cold.
Because that's not who I am.
No. 2103600
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why can’t I stop bleeding why can’t I stop
No. 2103602
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>>2103600the only way out is suicide fr
No. 2103727
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i miss when my friend wasnt an actual, literal schizo. but in general i miss how she used to be when we were younger. which makes me sound like an asshole. watching people change throughout the years is weird.
No. 2103736
>>2103729He only started this weaponized meltdowns when I demanded we establish goals for our futures… it was fine when it was vague possibilities but when it was time to really start progressing he became a little bitch.
For a while I sympathized because Ive never seen a man act like that, but as it continued I realized it was just an act to avoid answering/ taking initiative.
I mean, at least Ive lived rent free for 5 years but damn, I cant take this shit anymore
No. 2103747
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>>2103744sharing an apartment with a boyfriend.. smdh
No. 2103882
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>Group project
>7 members
>6/7 answers were AI generated and it shows
please…
No. 2103920
I want to go back in time, I want to go back to those days before I cut off the toxic people in my life. My mental health is way better now and I have gotten a lot more successful without them dragging me down, realizing that while these people - as fun as they were, and how many adventures they would take me and others on - their manipulative tendencies, bullying and backhanded comments made life equally miserable for everyone around them. I want to go back ten years, before I realized how much they were bullying people, how much they were pushing me down, before I realized how awful they truly were, back to when everything was just fun. When you could sit on the balcony at 2am, drinking wine and muse about the future that felt so far away it was incomprehensible at the time. My mental health is better, my life is going somewhere, I am surrounded by people that lift me up, but the adventure and spontaneity those idiots brought to my life is gone.
No. 2103985
>>2103952lol nta but sorry nona, your post made me laugh. The thought of some
nonnie just minding her business in the vent thread and seeing her dying husbando in the morning is tragic.
No. 2104040
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I wish my brothers suddenly died.
No. 2104313
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When family members get mad at you for helping them to avoid scams.
No. 2104499
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>no more space left to download the new sims update
kms right now. i’m not letting go of my 95gb of cc and mods ihave in my folder
No. 2104514
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Why does everything sound so simple but it's more complicated than what it seems? Like a daily schedule sounds like it's just a bunch of basic stuff that you just do daily, but there's always something that somehow ends up being more complicated than what it seems, you end up fucking up something and it's so annoying.
Sometimes I just end up feeling overwhelmed over the most regular daily routines.
>you just have to
>wake up before 8 am
>have breakfast
>brush your teeth
>take a shower
>get dressed
>go out
Or
>turn on your computer
>research stuff for a project
>avoid getting distracted by your phone
>reply to any text message and call that you get
>calls take at least 45 minutes per call
>have lunch
>brush teeth
>get ready for the gym
>or go back to research
>get ready for the gym
>gym
>back home
>take shower
>remember that you forgot your yoga mat
>get annoyed
>have dinner
>take medicines so you don't forget about them, again
>try to not get distracted with your phone when you go to sleep
>sleep before 10 pm
>try to wake up before 8 am
No. 2104606
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Hey L
I know it's been 3? almost 4 years since we last talked and it might be weird to bring this up after so much time passed but as embarassing as it is I must do it. I tried my best to push what I'm about to say deep down and pretend like it's not there, pretend like i don't care and have let go of this entire situation long ago, but it just doesn't work like that. So here it is.
Your apology was straight up shit. It was the worst apology I've ever gotten and I doubt anything will come closer to it anytime soon. I pretended to accept it just so I could get it over with as quickly as possible and forget it even happened. Instead I just fucked myself over, giving you the (illusion of) forgiveness you asked for and leaving myself feeling miserable. I regret it to this day.
First of all, you did it on my birthday. What made you think I wanted to be reminded of you and what you did on my fucking birthday is still beyond me.
Second of all, you never explained your actions. You weren't sorry about what you did, you were sorry about "how things ended", ambiguously, as if it wasn't you who "ended things".
You hurt me a lot. I made a big mistake by pretending you didn't. It felt embarassing to admit, and it still is, but you really did. You were the second close friend who suddenly left me with no explanation at all and you knew it. I told you about what happened with Y and you even tried to help me to try and find out why she did it. And back then, when I came over to say hi, and you looked at me like I was contagious or something, you were searching for Y in the crowd, and you ran to her without even saying "hi" back, leaving me standing there like an idiot, wondering what I did wrong, again.
The thing is, you're a coward. You're the most cowardly person I've ever met. You never took responsibility for yourself, especially in that half-assed apology. Whenever your family sent you to another city forcing you to stay with your dad's other family, to help his wife around the house and look after their child when they were at work as if you were their personal free housemaid or babysitter you vented to me about it day and fucking night instead of just walking to a bus station, buying a bus ticket and booking it out of there like i always told you to do. You always chose to be a victim in everything and just whined, whined, whined, whined. And at this point I'm just insulting you, but really, I'm being honest. You two never gave me that courtesy. You two never told me what was so wrong with me that made you cut me off.
I never really forgave you, I was just lying to both myself and you. I realize now that it's impossible to move on this way, hence this entire wall of text.
Fuck you, fuck her and fuck your stupid boyfriend. Happy birthday.
if this reads as corny and dramatic please be aware i'm esl and going through it
accidentally posted this as a new thread like a retard. point and laugh everyone
No. 2104647
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I hate when my stupid laptop breaks. I want to be on LC on my laptop not on my phone. I've been putting off fixing it because family was visiting but now that they're gone I'm just procrastinating. I need my laptop for LC.
No. 2104656
I don't even know if I'm overreacting or if its just all this bullshit put together but I am so mad. Who does the big shop every fucking week? I do. I ask you to get some stuff for dinner and you grab a bunch of ready meals, and don't even get one I like. You're off work all day, sat on your ass playing video games and I am out the house at 7am and not home until gone 6pm and I ask what we're doing for dinner. You had a ready meal, the last one. I'm like, well, did you not consider me eating? He's all defensive now and is like I thought you were eating with your friend. Yeah that was on my lunch break, at 2pm. I could order in, except I cant because I dont have enough money because you're months behind on rent. But fuck me right? You having me drop off your dinner when you're at work and I've just finished work. You having me go shopping on my days off, making nice dinners for us, making sure theres enough leftovers for you to take to work (you'll forget and I'll have to bring it for you). I'm gonna be petty about it. I know you're home for dinner on sunday, I'm gonna go shops and buy just enough for one meal, just me, and then when you're upset I'll be like 'you didn't ask for dinner'. And no, bursting in to the room and asking if I want ice cream and then prompting me to hurry and answer while I wait to see if you remember I'm lactose intolerant and literally can't eat ice cream. Its so stupid I am so upset because its just fucking selfish. You don't even realise how much shit I do for you, you don't appreciate it at all. You don't appreciate how tired I am and how much money I spend on you and how I do not get to just sit on my ass all day playing video games, not even at the weekend because im running errands that I can't trust you to run because you don't plan meals, you buy snacks. God fucking dammit everytime you stop being a cunt, you're a cunt again the next day. I hate being with you. What are your redeeming qualities anymore? Nothing you do appeals to me. I love you and I don't even fucking understand why anymore
No. 2104965
>>2104674Damn
nonnie I feel you. I've also dealt with creeps at hospitals too. I was assigned to work with a supervisor male nurse once that literally showed me someone's revenge porn. These mfs get away with sexually harassing women so much.
No. 2105017
>>2104674ok i feel so racist for thinking this too but i absolutely hate going to the doctor because I feel like there are NONE, like literally NONE in my town anymore that aren't Indian men and I don't want them poking and prodding at my body. I also used to work for the Medical Board in my state and the amount of Indian doctors that came from "diploma mills" is fucking horrifying and astounding. It felt like every week we'd get an announcement "If you see an application from [XYZ Medical School] it's NOT
VALID, it's a suspected diploma mill"
Like what the fuck
No. 2105040
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Elections are literally this Sunday and three people that I know aren't even registered to vote and it's insane to me. They're younger than me even, like bitch, you're supposed to be fed up with this shit, you should go vote too even if we all know it's meaningless, just give it a fucking try you insipid fucks.
This is why we will never be free from this fucking dictatorship, but I hope that their existence is as meaningless as they're acting as, and that that means that anyone but the current "president" wins.
No. 2105132
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Random nobodies are trying to start fights with me and make me an enemy and if I defend myself I'm told to stop reacting but they keep saying worse and worse shit about me. They are all fixated on me. I think because I am so pretty funny and popular and great they wanna touch my swag but they can't
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fuckin tired of this shit. i want a decent job already not this precarious bullshit
No. 2105337
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Really did not want to see an animal abuse description in a thread. I feel so sick. How can people be so fucking cruel. I hope something can be done
No. 2105353
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>wakes up just now
>resting heart rate has been 80-88 all day yesterday
>feeling jittery and scared too
>wakes up
>heart racing
>slows down and goes back to 76 and sometimes acclimates to 88 if i hyperventilate
>neck and jaw slightly hurt
>could be overactive thyroid fucking me over
>could be my panic attacks coming back
>could be an infection i’m not aware of
i’m so scared i don’t want to go to the hospital and they figure out more things wrong with me and have me on painful treatments or pills. i really hope this is just anxiety or something
No. 2105366
>>2105127Indians used to make their daughters sleep outside when they had periods and burry babygirls like 50 years ago ; no surprise they're so awful to women
It's not even being racist it's aknowledging a cultural difference that still has an impact on ttheir behaviour today
No. 2105379
I'm so terrified of my exam. I have to complete it within the next 3 hours, I've taken focalin and drank 2 energy drinks trying to focus on studying but this material is just so abstract for my brain. I keep trying to just focus on believing I can do it because otherwise I will just snap. If I fail this class I will lose my scholarship and if I lose my scholarship I won't be able to finish college, and then the past 4 years of my life will have been a waste - and I keep trying to slow down and not catastrophize, that I may get like a C or even god forbid a D in this class and can maybe scrape by or ask for an exception from the state for my scholarship, or even take up a side job if they won't give it to me anymore (and lower my course load because there's no longer a time limit in that case…), and that no matter what I'll be fine, but it's just so hard. My one (1) college friend promised to take this course with me but dipped last minute without saying anything, and all of my friends either didn't go to college or dropped out so IDK sometimes I just feel completely alone in this struggle. They still try to help me and sympathize with me but it's entirely different from having someone to empathize with you. I wanted to spend my summer break yknow having a break and working on my hobbies and chillin out, but instead I've been in 3 courses, one I had to drop because I was going to end with a failing grade for sure. That's another issue because it's a required course - fuck am I gonna do when I have to take it again? I think I might just have a brain that can't comprehend things like database systems (Trying to force BCNF algorithms and FDs and Armstrong's Axioms and other such bullshit into my head right now feels impossible) and operating systems (I don't even want to get into this one). I remember starting to get a computer science degree a couple years ago because oh well I've programmed seems easy, classes are easy and teachers are okay, and then I had to transfer to this university where maybe 1 of every 10 teachers is at least a nice person but all the classes are not engaging to say the least and the curriculum is actively bizarre. And it will only get harder from here. I literally think that a TA from my last semester hacked in an A for me because he felt bad for my retardation in constantly emailing for help because there is no way I got a D- and a B- on the only two exams and multiple Fs and Ds on quizzes and still got a fucking A like lol? I wish I had just gone to college for animation like I'd wanted to, I just figured I was too fucking garbage for drawing and I'll just let it be a hobby. And then hilariously the only thing it feels like I've improved on in the past 4 years is my art skill, while my programming skill continuously declines because I lose more passion for it every day. I used to love making projects for class and just by myself (still not as much as art though) and now I dread even looking at an IDE. It feels like my life is over before it even began. The kicker is I ran into a high school friend the other day who did end up going to college for art and I am so seething jealous. Not of like her art or anything (totally different styles) but of the fact that she went for it while I was a coward. I couldn't even bring myself to set up a meeting with her. Well I just wasted another 15 minutes so back to studying TLDR if anyone has any helpful exam tips or randomly knows about ERDs, FDs, and BCNF/3NF I will kiss you.
No. 2105405
>>2105379This is a clear case of self-sabotaging. You are so scared of failing school that you're taking steps to make yourself fail school, so when the worst case scenario happens you can at least stop feeling anxiety about what if. Also you clearly feel resentment about not pursuing your desired path, so you're acting out even more.
First thing first, stop drinking caffeine, you are clearly making yourself more anxious. As far as the exam goes, focus on the most basic things that maximize your chances of getting a passing grade.
No. 2105416
>>2104873I did answer coldly and as soon as I'm done with this intership I'm reporting his ass to the university
I don't care that he was "joking", it's not appropriate to ask questions like these to your trainees and contributes to hospital rape culture
No. 2105434
>>2105405Truth hurts but you're right. I did nut up and study hard after I posted this and ended up getting an 88! My life problems and coping mechanisms remain but I'm really glad I could lock in. The resentment in my post is very clear it's true, and of course is not something I should've been focusing on in the moment, it's a common thought pattern I fall into while stressed. The whole "worst case scenario" is also a bad thing to ruminate on (obviously the only really "good" thing to focus on in the situation is studying), and I definitely take it way too far sometimes. But in a strange way slowing down and telling myself "look even if you fail, you still will not blow up and die, you will still live and end up okay", has a calming effect and lets me focus up on what I should do. It's like what you're saying, the fear of failing school scares me so much I end up going retard mode and trying to fail. Basically I'm trying to reduce that fear (although not entirely an irrational fear, not world ending in nature) in a pragmatic way so I can execute. In all I will definitely keep your words in mind throughout my next classes because the self sabotage can and has destroyed my grades before (looking at you, freshman year of college..). I have some plans for after graduation to try and fulfill my passions so that my resentment doesn't build up. Maybe I should try programming for myself more like I used to do, I might be less bitter than lol. Either way thank you for taking the time to read and respond to my post, anon.