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No. 2047486
Previous thread:
>>>/ot/2036807let it all out.
don't respond to bait edition
No. 2047550
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What the FUCK is it with people lately that they think it's okay to touch me, a stranger, in any way?? No, you can't touch my sidecut, no you can't touch my tattoos, earrings or jacket, like wtf. It happened 3 times this week, I don't even dress that autistic so maybe I'm giving off some retard vibes or that I'm too approachable. Whatever this is I hope it stops because it makes me incredibly uncomfortable.
No. 2047592
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>Finished an interview that has a 70% chance of landing me a decent job after being a NEET for the past year.
>actually feel hopeful towards the future.
>enter through the door to tell family and instead the first thing I learn is that my mother got scammed for 1k and that we will get evicted if we don't cough up 2k by the end of the month to pay for the rent.
It keeps happening!!! Every single time I get closer to improving my life there's a giant setback, and 90% of the time money is the main cause. I wish the lack of it wasn't so soul and spirit crushing. Not to mention that even fast food places near me aren't hiring, so there's no chance at getting an easy position to help with the situation.
Almost started crying because I was looking through my reaction image folder and nothing comes even close to how dejected I feel right now.
No. 2047603
I really hate how I always get sick during my period, it's so annoying, this month it hurts a lot too, I keep going to the bathroom every 20 minutes to empty everything and I feel how my organs rearrange themselves, it's so annoying and it feels gross, sometimes it even hurts.
I've been literally rotting on my bed for two days already, I can't even study because all I can do is check my phone, sitting hurts a lot.
But tbh, laying on the bed isn't that great unless I fall asleep, I only feel slightly better if I put pressure on my belly, I kind of wish I had some sort of really heavy pillow so I could just put it there on top of the electric blanket.
No. 2047608
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I'm glad my mom was and is the hyper paranoid type around men. That's probably the entire reason nothing ever happened to us. I hate how much women are made to feel like they're unreasonable for being paranoid around men when they're always the ones doing terrible shit. I have a 1 year old niece and if being paranoid about the men around her makes me a feminazi femcel then so be it.
No. 2047633
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>>2047612I have a warmies stuffed animal that is weighted and microwaveable, so it also acts as a heating pad. Plus it smells of lavender. Had it for I think 5 years now and it's still in good shape. They're like $30, might be a bit pricy but you could at least look into how they construct them if you want to try and diy something.
Also I enjoy freaking people out at work when they see me violently fling a hampster into the communal microwave.
No. 2047716
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>>2047180I’m sorry for your loss nonita. My first birthday without my parent was hard too. We may be adults but we’re still our parents’ babies. Happy (belated) birthday.
No. 2047720
>>2047693I thought his hobbies were interesting, he does a lot of volunteer work (which in retrospect is just so he can show off and say that he is a good person), has a well paying job, reads a lot (I now know better he is one of those weird stoicism dudes) and was really nice to me on the dating app (was my first time on there). He also looked really good on his pictures. They were kind of old though. When I saw him irl he was losing his hair. He is a complete dickhead irl who takes himself way too seriously and likes to unnecessarily criticize others to build himself up. I also don't think that he understands other people's feelings or can relate to them. It is weird. He told me that he likes to downplay his abilities because he wants to appear humble? Also he has a female best friend.
>>2047699Jesus Christ I thought that he was just nervous or had bladder issues
No. 2047776
my roommate/ex-best friend is the most raging cunt I’ve ever met in my life. we have had a beautiful friendship since I met her more than three years ago, we’ve lived together for two years, we have cats from the same litter who have matching names, and I’ve shared so many wonderful moments with her. people outside of our circle used to squirm a little when she came up and many people have called her bitchy to me and I can kind of see it but she’d never behaved that way towards me. flash forward to february of this past year, I go over to another friends house (who she very expressly dislikes) to get help with my chemistry assignment and watch a movie. queue my phone blowing up about how she feels so betrayed that I’d leave her behind, she was having a rough day, she would never do something like this to me, etc. crazy as fuck but I try to placate her and say we can do something the next night, she refuses. since then she has been an entirely different person. she glares at me when I enter the house, refuses to be in the same room as me, and makes plans with our friend group but goes out of her way to exclude me from them. my other roommate whom I work with started telling me how she would knock on her door, say “is nonna home?” and then proceed to talk shit on me once she confirmed I wasn’t around. I tried talking to her asking her what was up and what she needed from me, she said that nothing could be done and that our friendship would probably never be the same. I started hanging out with my other friends more because I was being shunned at home, and she started using that against me too. flash forward again to late may, she tries to steal my fucking cat. she’s going to her hometown for a month or so and she starts packing up his shit and trying to take him with her. I put my foot down and say he’s not going, why would he, and she says her cat and my cat can’t be apart and he’d be happier with her anyway. obviously I didn’t let the psychopath take my cat. you would think that would be the end of it, but while she’s away she starts tracking my movements via our ring camera and texts me whenever I’m not home and asking where I am and why I’m not home with the cat. Mind you I was at work. She just got back from her trip and the first thing she did was organize a group hang out without telling me about it. I walked downstairs to everyone eating and drinking wine, sat down to join them, and not five minutes later the bitch tells everyone to go home then goes upstairs to bed. I’m so sick of feeling like a stranger in my own home and I can’t stand living with her, but the lease has already been renewed for another year. Nonnas give me the strength to not bash her fucking skull in the next time I see her.
No. 2047806
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Just thought of the possibility that out there is a gold star lesbian that got groomed and bullied into getting raped by a transvestite moid and I'm fucking sick
No. 2047820
>>2047701You will probably get banned for this but I agree and can't help but notice that certain areas and communities fall apart once they decide to settle down in them.
Doesn't help that they're group thinking sexists who lack manners towards those they deem unworthy of respect.
No. 2047902
>>2047859kek i just bought a bunch of new white underwear, i'm sure as soon as i put a pair on it'll come
>>2047880hmm maybe that could be it. there was a couple weeks where i was really upset and wasn't eating but i've been feeling better and eating normally since then, maybe that stalled it or something
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>>2047957It does seem to be a lot of baiting today, but the love never goes away nonnka ♥
No. 2048047
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I've always wanted to go to college for ceramics and fiber arts. As far as I can tell, that's never going to happen. It just isn't feasible. Not financially, geographically, and I have no support. I have never felt so alone and so full of heartbreak. I have given so much of myself to others, I have lifted them up and supported them through the hardest times of their lives. I'm not worth that? No one is willing to offer me that same support? Just some encouragement? Just someone to calm me down while I cry about surrendering my dream to the ether? I feel invisible. I feel useless. People are always telling me how positive and helpful I am, but I guess they must see me the same way they see like…a robot. They just expect it of me. But they don't see me as needing the same things. I'm not human, to anyone. I feel isolated. I feel empty. What is the purpose of building relationships with no reciprocation? I think I would benefit from actual isolation, more than being surrounded by people who don't see me as a person. Self educate in my isolated hovel. I've always wanted that crafting college experience. I have to accept and come to peace with the fact that that will never be me.
No. 2048061
>>2048051I live in a very remote area anon, there are no colleges or community studios within hours of me. And unfortunately those colleges do not have student living accommodations. It's all bnbs and rentals that charge up to 700 dollars a week. I can't even properly learn to drive because there are no DMVs within miles and miles of me.
>>2048057Thank you anon, this reply honestly means so much to me. You've reignited the motivation in me. I am way too passionate to let this slip away. I am saving up money for a mini kiln and for now I am setting up a make shift kiln to fire in that I saw on YouTube. Thanks for treating me like a person.
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Spirit doesn't get enough hate. I had to fly out last minute and the only available flight was Spirit. So it was that, or Alaska Airlines the next day. My god I should have waited. I spent $70 on an uber and spent two hours getting there and through TSA only to be told my flight was overbooked and I'd have to fly out the next day anyway. BITCH!
No. 2048072
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>>2047806I've never heard of gold star lesbian until today
No. 2048119
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So fucking sick and tired of the “rules for thee but not for me!” mentality my parents have. So fucking tired. Their cat gets fixed and he didn’t have to be locked up, my cat gets fixed and she has to be even though she is wearing her cone and their cat did not. My birthday was yesterday and yeah I got gifts and dinner but my mom gave my stepdad a father’s day present ON MY BIRTHDAY even though it’s not until Sunday. She also got upset at me for not looking for father’s day gifts on my birthday. I love my parents but my mom is such a borderline fucking narcissist. She will make everything about herself then will accuse you of doing that. She will treat me like shit then always pull the “ugh i’m tired (so it should be okay)!!!! ugh i didn’t sleep well i’m miserable okay?!?!?!” whenever it bothers me. My stepdad is always on my mom’s side and even when he isn’t he will never call her out because he doesn’t want her diagnosed bipolar rage. I can’t fucking do this anymore. The only one who sees my side is my bf. He sees it all, no one else will ever understand or see anything. I need to move out.
No. 2048233
>>2048182Is there no animal control for your town/county that you can call?
If you do decide to take matters into your own hands and steal the dog, be very careful and make sure your neighbor doesn't have any doorbell or security cameras that could catch you in the act.
No. 2048248
>>2048182i'm so sorry nonna, can you untie them and take them into your possession? that is full animal abuse and they might pass away if that is how they're 'taking care' of the dog.
you could also put out food and water for them and if you can reach see if you can untangle it? or just go to the crazy people and say "hey, know you're doing a great job taking care of donald, but i think he's tangled up. and might need water and food." if you pretend that they are the messiahs it might play into their ideology of how the dog is being taken care of. <3
No. 2048250
>>2048248if it's the kind of family i think it is, come at as: "wow, i saw how great you took care of Buster!! I was really impressed with your skills and noticed he wanted some of my chicken(replace anything)! Would you be okay if i gave him a treat?? He's so cute!!!!!"
basically give them compliments and deflect from them being poor animal caretakers because they will double down
No. 2048274
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>me realizing if my brothers were never born and it was just me, my older sister and my mother my life would’ve been easier, peaceful, clean, healthy, full of stability, no anger issues
I hate having this cruel fact circle in my mind all the time. I wish they were never brown and I don’t care how mean that sounds, don’t care. Men ruin everything. Boy children ruin everything. Men know for a fact they are virtually useless and spend their entire lives making their existence a nuisance for everybody else
No. 2048283
Man, fuck my brother and his wife. They're such asses. For the past 3-4 years they've been real stingy about letting my parents help them with their kids. Like anytime my parents wanted to babysit it had to be at my brother's house and never at ours. The first excuse was the fact that my parents didn't get the covid vaccine, ergo they wouldn't be allowed near the firstborn daughter for her first few months. My mom was sad about not being allowed near her first grandbaby, but she also understood why (this was during the lockdown). Some time passed and their second daughter was born and it seemed like maybe they'd allow us to babysit the older one soon cause at that point, no one gave a shit about covid. And yeah, my mom started babysitting their kids with my sister's help. Eventually my mom asked if she could babysit the kids at our house, but they gave some sort of vague excuse. I can't remember what it was at the time, but I hadn't really cared at the time. Fast forward to now and my sister-in-law is in the military at basic for the summer and my mom was stoked at the idea that maybe we'd be able to babysit at our house for once and not have to drive 30 minutes out just to babysit at their house for the whole day. And I guess today she popped the question as to why the girls weren't allowed at our house and my brother made some off-hand comment that we're "ghetto trash." My mom was pissed obviously. I'm pissed that he even had the gall to call us that.
Also to preface this, my mom has cancer and had to get major abdominal surgery to remove it during the end of last year and was on bedrest for a good month. You wanna know how many times they've visited since? Once. They visited us one time and it was right after she was released from the hospital and hasn't been back since. My sister has visited more often and she doesn't even have a car. Again, they live 30 minutes away and unironically visit my sister-in-law's parents every other week despite them being a good hour and a half away. Like I know my parents aren't fucking saints and have done retarded shit in the past, but fuck my brother and his wife for treating them (especially my mom) like doormats. Anyway, I'm glad he said that to my mom. I was getting tired and frustrated because she kept getting her hopes up thinking that maybe this time would be the one. I just want my mom to be happy in her last few years of life.
No. 2048323
>>2048255he probably browses that lame quirky "
femcel" subreddit filled with trannies and pickmes
No. 2048400
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i want to scream and cry
No. 2048458
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>>2048373I’m an alt girl with black hair and blunt bangs whose go-to was pigtails for my retail job. When that show was trending I was approached countless times from so many customers, especially children, saying I looked like Wednesday kek. Before that it was Jane from Breaking Bad. And before that it was Abby from NCIS. To be fair, that just comes with the territory when you’re a bitch with black hair and bangs. C’est la vie.
No. 2048461
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I hate how I like other women have to always feel guilty about every less then good thing we do whilst men are coddled for being the most deplorable things possible. I always feel guilty when i do something shitty like killing a moth instead of putting it outside, but then i hear about shit like the NTH rooms in South Korea and i wonder why I should bother having empathy when the world is like this. A male built Society favors Psychopathy and punishes empathy.. I genuinely believe all men are bad because it is literally their nature. Even male animals are more violent and fucked up. I I believe all males are inherently evil. The very few “good” ones just happened to never have an opportunity to act out the Y chromosome. Every time some moid becomes absurdly Rich, he always treats people like objects and does horrifically immoral and illegal shit. A man who was once good will “become” a terrible person once they are in a situation where they know they can get away with violence and degeneracy. Just look at how good smart male scientist suddenly become violent rapist when they are isolated in research centers in Antarctica.
cannot go outside anymore because i fucking hate being around people. It’s miserable. Recently i went to the mall with my mom and i was fixated on the people there. I see these dads and teenage boys acting normal and living life just drinking milk shakes and goofing off with their friends and family. But the entire time, i couldn’t stop thinking of how many of them are or will be rapist. How that dad carrying his kid on his shoulders might have CP on his computer. How that teenager probably bullies some girl at school. I felt miserable the entire time and wanted to leave. I’ts not like im even wrong. I single male celeb or artist or whatever i liked has at some point given into the Y chromosomes commands and abused a woman. I want to posion the rivers and end the world. Killing myself is not enough. Men have bastardized life.
No. 2048563
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Why isn't everyone vegan? There's no good excuse to not be vegan. I never tell my coworkers that I'm vegan but when they eventually find out they always do the classic "I could never be vegan I just love bacon too much UwU" response and I just have to smile and say "haha yeah" but I really just wanna start a conversation about it with them. Is the taste of bacon more valuable than the life of another being? "Well yeah, cuz it's a pig and I'm a human so doy it just makes sense." Ok, would you eat a dog then? "OMG WTF no way I love dogs I would never eat one." Well why is it different? etc etc etc. Having these conversations is so fun because deep down everyone knows that eating meat and exploiting animals is wrong–but everyone hates change. And I get it, I was in their camp for most of my life as well. I used to think I could never go vegan. Now here I am, feeling nauseous when my friends eat chicken near me or seeing dairy trucks go by on the freeway.
It especially disappoints me to hear that a feminist is not vegan either. I'm not gonna doubt someone's feminism if they're not vegan, but if they ARE vegan…they're the superior feminist. Because the female reproductive system is horrifically exploited in every aspect of factory farming. Imagine being kept in a state of forced pregnancy (raped) for your entire (shortened) life, every baby you've birthed being taken away from you 24 hours after birth, and deemed nothing more than consumable flesh by the time your body has been so depleted of life that it collapses from disease and exhaustion on the shit-ridden floor of a government-funded "Our Cows Live Good Lives" dairy farm. This happens every day. And it's just one specific instance.
Please think about going vegan. Please think about what you value in your life. Please think about beings other than yourself. We're all on this earth together.
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>>2048563There are some places on Earth such as Greenland which aren’t well suited to agriculture, so meat consumption in the form of seal hunting and fishing makes up a large part of the local people’s diets.
No. 2048579
>>2048569As modern people, we're beyond the food chain. Non-human animals participate in the food chain. Humans participated in the food chain for years and it made sense. But we have so many options nowadays that I can't help but wonder why someone would choose animal suffering vs just eating plants instead. Not denying the food chain exists of course. But we're smarter than that now.
>>2048573Do you live in Greenland? I understand if say Inuit people who live in places where meat is their only option for sustenance are forced to hunt / eat meat. Because in situations like that I believe it's morally justified. But if you don't live in that situation then why are you not trying to reduce suffering where you can?
No. 2048594
>>2048582We can get all those vitamins from plants tho. Not to mention half of those are literally supplemented to the cows that you breastfeed off of and/or consume their flesh. I've been a strict vegan for almost two years and my blood tests always come back flawless. I think a lot of people go vegan and sort of struggle because they don't know how to cook or they only eat processed 'fake' meat, which, yeah your health will decline if you don't eat right so it makes sense.
>>2048587>>2048591Ultra processed fake versions of animal products are obviously gonna be underwhelming. The good news is that no one has to eat that regardless if they're vegan or not.
No. 2048616
>>2048563> I'm not gonna doubt someone's feminism if they're not vegan, but if they ARE vegan…they're the superior feminist.Better than feminists that campaign for protecting and gaining justice for
victims of rape and domestic violence? Feminism is about gaining rights for female humans and that’s it.
No. 2048617
>>2048607I don't give a shit either. That's why I leave them the fuck alone. I don't want anything to do with them. I think they should be left to do what they want, what nature intended, etc. We should have no say in artificially breeding them, raping them, mass murdering them, the list goes on.
>life's too shortIf everyone had this attitude about everything, then nothing would change. Cringy edgelord defeatist mindset.
>>2048608Haha! So raping a cow so she can have a child that you get to steal titty milk from is better than also killing and eating both of them afterward? When all of that is totally unnecessary in modern society?
The dairy cows used for milk and cheese are also the same cows being killed for Taco Bell meat and other beef products you see on the shelf at grocery stores.
>>2048616Have you ever considered the fact that you can care about and advocate for more than one thing at once?
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>>2048602>I couldn’t live without delicious coagulated animal breast milk.Neither could I, so glad we agree ♥
No. 2048624
>>2048620I'll agree with you here. It's hard not to feel connected to female animals sometimes, especially as an SA
victim and feminist. I understand it how it seems extreme to some.
>>2048622Would you rape humans and dogs if it was legal?
No. 2048649
>>2048639Nothing crazy happened, multiple deficiencies developed and it made me sick. Attempts to fix it with my general practitioner, who is vegan herself, didn’t work. Not everyone is out to get you. Most of my meals are still vegan and I help people go vegan.
>Cognitive dissonance is a bitch.How feminist of you to use the word "bitch.".
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Autistic men are losers a lot of the time I'm sorry. Why are they mentally 12 even near 30 and 40 and cannot watch any piece of media without assigning everything to random people for no reason? "So and so is like x and im like x and" no cunt. It's just a tv show. It is media for entertainment. You aren't any of these characters, they do not parallel other people, you are weird. Your obsessive nature hinders you and its embarassing. Enough.
No. 2048746
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I'm trying my umpteenth meds for ADHD and the side effects are fucking killing me. It's hot here but I'm literally feel like freezing and my hands and nose are ice cold. I'm also having random body aches all over and heart palpitations. I wonder if it's actually worth to drive my body to its limits just to keep my job or maybe I should just give up, stop the meds and resort to be fired every 3 months
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tooth ache so bad i dont even wanna look at the nudes i was sent. sheesh
No. 2048805
My joints have been hurting so much for the past week, why do I always get these random bouts of bad health/pain? I've been to the doctor several times and she always says it's nothing, idk anymore.
>>2048793I feel you anon, hell I've been looking at muslim sportswear brands because 'regular' sportswear is always a set of fuggo leggings and a tiny sports bra.
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>>2048809Honestly good for you anon, I love the type of clothing like picrel but I'm ~curvy~ so it doesn't work that well. Luckily the whole oversized thing does look good, happy it's becoming more popular/accepted among adults.
>>2048811It's been raining non stop since june started and relatively cold too, I'll look into it. I hope it's just a random pain but thanks
nonnie!
No. 2048859
>>2048847Just because there’s demand doesn’t make it morally okay, sounds like you’re trying to defend it
>>2048856Ew wtf, I’m sorry. What country so I can avoid it at all costs
No. 2048878
>>2048555Preach, Nonna. Sorry for selfsperging but when I was a kid I was pretty skinny, probably because I was too hyperactive to eat and didn't hit puberty until late. The amount of rude, nasty comments I got from overweight girlfriends was insane. I was always told to "eat a sandwich", accused of having an ED, that I looked "scrawny" in everything and had no boobs (I was 10-11???)
Even as an adult, the worst reception I get from people is from overweight women. I'm not even 'skinny' but I still get comments about how I'm "too thin" for their tastes (would they rather I be morbidly obese?) or don't look good compared to their ~womanly curves~. I refuse to comment back because I don't like making other women feel bad about their appearance, society does that enough already, but it pisses me off so much. And when I was slightly chubbier, the same types of women laughed at me for being "fat", when I was still far from overweight. It's bizarre.
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people can be really cruel to other anons on here, I feel like a bpd bitch for actually getting hurt feelings
No. 2048964
>>2048958Yeah Walter is a murderer, drug kingpin and basically a terrorist after killing Gustavo but since Skylar is a bit bitchy after finding out she's the bad guy. It's double standards incarnate.
>>2048962I haven't been with him for long. He was cool when we started out but then some "ironic" right wing jokes started seeping in and now this. I'm honestly thinking about sending this shit to his mother
No. 2048976
>>2048969Oh I'm gonna
>>2048970I still want to. She was pretty cool when I met her. In my experience the only women the moids naturally respect is their moms. Still though I don't wanna put her in a bad position. If he tards out I won't message but if he doesn't then maybe she can educate him on being a decent human.
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Years of seeking validation from normal people that never came has turned me into a monster. It’s like I’m simultaneously a misanthropic schizoid hermit and a vain, self-absorbed narcissist
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This shit makes me shake, this is good for a cosplay but not for a movie.
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>>2049095I don't even think the actresses looks is the issue, it's her actin, the whole movie fucking sucks.
No. 2049122
>>2048953Too much main character syndrome.
I agree that Skylar was cold at times but Walt the broke baldy who gave her a retard son was way below her league. He acted like such an old insecure geezer, she was a saint for sticking around like she did.
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I have two maintenance guys over to fix my shower and I just want them to finish up and leave! Oh my god I hate when they ask if I live alone too like why would I tell you that? Fix my shit and go!
No. 2049208
>>2048953My boyfriend refuses to watch another season of Breaking Bad with me because he thinks Skylar is right and hates Walt for being
abusive. Your bf sounds like the average misogynistic man-child who thinks it's funny to hate women. Don't stay with him, it won't get better.
No. 2049229
>>2049179Yeah, what
>>2049226 said. Never let them know you live alone. There are so many creepy disgusting men that get jobs as maintenance techs and get unfettered access to single women’s apartments and basically face no consequences for violating their boundaries.
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literally do not have enough hours in the day to accomplish everything I need to do and also help friends move and maintain their houses and I hate being "the competent one" and "the reliable one" so so so so so so much
No. 2049433
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I have tried to make friends. I really have. I don't know what's wrong with me. When I try to befriend people I'm sincerely interested in knowing or people with similar interests, I end up ignored and looked over. Which I suppose is understandable. If I have standards for the people I wish to be friends with, then they have every right to the same. I just never meet those standards. When I settle for those who want to know me despite having no or minimal shared interests (which is something I value in friendships), the friendship never actually forms past a tenuous acquaintanceship. I have never had more than two or three friends at a time for my entire life, and as of the last handful of years, it's been only one person. And now I'm starting to feel as if this friendship is going down the drain, too. I don't know how to meet people anymore. I don't know where to find them, and I don't know how to seem likable or endearing to others enough to form a friendship with them. I don't know how to approach them, and I don't know how to seem openly approachable, or anything of that sort. All I've ever wanted in friendship are people with similar interests, who respect my need to recharge, and who can be a bit patient with me given how little socialization I've had in my life. Is that too much? I'm lonely, I guess, but I feel no different in losing this one singular friendship I've had for years than I have any other day of my life. Just the somewhat dampening realization that there's nobody to talk to who wants me to speak. I've always held my friends in extremely high esteem, but I don't think I've ever truly been someone else's number one reciprocally. I feel like it's selfish to want that at this point. Regardless, I'll cope with this. I'm happy to have had my friend for this long. I'll continue to enjoy this friendship for however long it slowly burns away. And between now and then, I'll work on feeling less jealous of those with friendships. I will manage. It just sucks a bit.
No. 2049453
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Fiancé’s sister broke my expensive as hell sauce jar and then didn’t tell me about it, so I just happened to look up on the shelf and see it broken. I didn’t even get to use it.
No. 2049458
>>2049450Are you me? I did the same exact thing today
nonny.
No. 2049459
>>2049450If it wasn't so expensive and gendie I might have gotten surgery.
I wish I was flat and a running machine.
No. 2049461
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me when a nonny I messaged hasn’t responded back but you can tell they are posting in that one thread
No. 2049481
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>>2049475>>2049478>>2049479nevar because I have supreme genes and even older women have great perky breasts. bitterness doesn’t look good for any of you
No. 2049504
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Warning for blackpill vent: How do women actually love and fuck men I do not understand. How do they genuinely love and desire them and love to play submissive fuckdoll for them. It actually, truly, makes me want to fucking kill myself. To tear off all of my skin and die. It makes me want to disassociate entirely from being a woman. It makes me feel like I'm not human. I'm not a person, when I really think about it. Like I'm some failed woman. This creature that came out wrong for feeling this way. I actually have been fantasizing lately about the idea of having all of my internal plumbing being taken out and my lower bits being sewn shut. I used to fantasize about it a lot as a teenager during an intense stress period of my life, but the feeling is getting stronger now as I get deeper into adulthood and am again entering into a heavy stress period/poor mental health spiral due to certain events. I'm aware this is all actual insanity blackpill shit, but I can't help it. I really can't. Trying to avoid saying it or acknowledging all of this is just making me feel worse. It also makes me feel worse when people try to make me feel better about it, or say I'm just immature and need to grow up, that I just need to learn to love the touch of a man, or relax. It all feels like some sickening trick, some hideous lie I'm supposed to just fucking buy into to keep society running. Like I'm supposed to just bludgeon myself enough, damage my brain enough, stop thinking, so I can learn to submit and lay down like a good girl.
and yes I do have childhood sexual trauma, that likely feeds into a lot of it but It's not just that. But I can't say anymore because I feel my blood pressure rising and my stomach churning. Like this intense fear and dread. I actually feel like I can't be in society anymore. Like I need to go on some ascetic retreat in the mountains away from society. So I don't have to even think or see anything about men or having sex with men or their genitals or anything. Needed to just put this out into the void for my sanity.
No. 2049507
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>>2049500i dont have saggy breasts, but if i did i would not care because i do not buy into the fake beauty standards created by moids trying to take my money. try again
No. 2049529
>>2049504I feel the same way. Maybe not as violently, but I think that if this is what society is built on then maybe it should all burn.
I lost everything today but I think it will be ok. My anxiety is gone now that I don't have to worry about losing what I have anymore, at least.
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>>2049507based
>>2049599TiMothy probably thinks perky breasts look like picrel kek.
No. 2049642
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Im so tired of being the weird, quiet girl that has a hard time making social connections. There's something so off about me that I am very unable to make friends. Im around so much more normal girls at my work place that have a normal social life, going out with friends/a partner, etc. While I just go home and fucking sleep because Im always exhausted from work. I genuinely feel like Im cursed to always be alone. I just have my cats. And my coworkers already make fun of me for it. "Oh she's just going home to her cats". Like yeah, I already feel like a pathetic loser. Go ahead and make fun of the one thing I hold dear.
Im not mean or anything, just quiet. Im probably autistic and have a hard time socializing. I think Im just doomed.
No. 2049727
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>meet with old friends i have not seen in years
>talk about everything
>"anyway, how is your sex life, Anon?"
>said that i don't have a bf don't want one or a family and i'm voluntary celibate
>"ok, but doesn't it get lonely, Anon?"
>"yea, i don't want a bf, but i would like a friend i guess"
>"you have no friends, like at all?"
>"uh, no"
>"…well, you have us!"
Don't pity meeeee
No. 2049830
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it pisses me off that people who did me dirty are doing much better in life than me. fuck you stupid cunt #1 for choosing your online orbiters over me and fuck you stupid cunt #2 for choosing stupid cunt #1 over me. it's been so long and i'm still bitter. fuck this gay earth. friendships are the worst
No. 2049870
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I've always been different to most girls growing up, but not in a good way. I was hairy as hell, my voice was deep and my hairline was far back even when I was just 6yo, giving me a high forehead (yeah I have bangs). Acne persisted after puberty, now I'm an adult with very crazy acne flare ups and a scarred face. Always been told I was masculine, either referencing my personality (extremely anxious, which made me easily irritable and angry) or physique, my voice would get others confused to the point they would think I was a teenager boy and people would directly point out how I sound like a "man" unprovoked, and yes you guessed it, i tried to troon out for a short while as a teen, because i was so detached from the average female experience and feminity in itself. Have to shave constantly yet it always grows back as quickly, periods were erratic yet not painful or particularly gorey so nobody thought something was way, way off.
Turns out I've literally PCOS, both ovaries, nothing crazy but it surprised me so much despite being so obvious, why? Because all these weird things were just part of my daily life, didn't thought for a second it wasn't supposed to be that way, I don't know a thing about this condition and apparently you can't cure it? I really can't imagine a world were all these "symptoms" disappear. What's next now? This is so crazy
No. 2049913
>>2049897Sadly, yeah. It's probably a combo of media and
toxic friend groups/family, but it's upsetting. After I recovered from an ED I thought I'd fit in more with people but if anything it drew me further away. A lot of normie women bond by calling themselves "fat" and talking about diets, and it's so uncomfortable to watch people become obsessed with that mentality, especially when whoever disagrees/encourages body positivity is the weird one for it.
No. 2049915
>>2049642sorry
nonnie, your co-workers sound insufferable and rude. absolutely nothing wrong with going home to relax with your cats, if anything they're probably just being dicks because they feel ashamed of doing whatever they're doing (usually getting piss drunk every night)
No. 2049932
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My ex (from HIGH SCHOOL BTW, I'm almost 30 now) has apparently been accusing me of stalking or revenge posting about him to our mutuals. I'm married with kids living across the country. You haven't even been a thought on my mind for over a decade, I don't even remember his full name, I don't even remember the relationship at ALL. Idk how moids let teen relationships live rent free in their head like this
No. 2049954
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>>2049433Nona I don't have any advice for you, but know that I'm in the same boat as you. Even worse is when you know you have lots of things in common with someone but can't get close to them without feeling like you're being embarrassing and annoying. It really gets me down and I end up retreating into my antisocial shell against my will.
No. 2049962
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I won't (and can't) do anything illegal, so please don't think I'm fedposting, but I'm so angry. There are too many shit people in this world. What's the fucking point of scientific innovation, society and technology if we still haven't progressed to dispatching confirmed evil people without a second thought?
I think I'm too angry for most of the love and light hippy stuff, too. It's wrong that it's so easy to maim, rape and kill the innocent and just walk free. It should be the other way around. I don't hope for the redemption or rehabilitation of sadistic rapists, murderers, zoosadists, etc or the retards who'd defend them knowing what they've done lol. I want them to suffer and leave this world before they're ready, just as they've done to others. If it came down to it, I'd even be fine with removing them myself. I could do it as many times as necessary and go to bed relieved, because I know the greater good would be in permanently stopping their actions, and anything done to them in punishment could only be 1/1000th of what they've done to others and gotten away with under the negligent eyes of the law. I know that all I can really do is aid others in spreading information/making reports to the authorities and hope against hope for police or a "friendly cleaner" to hit up their area and take action unpunished, but it doesn't stop me from wishing more direct action could be taken.
No. 2050165
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one of my favorite accounts is run by a toonn
No. 2050323
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>be me, a lil kid
>see mom cooking
>mom is cool i wanna be like mom
>ask her to teach me how to cook
>"there's no need, you'll cook so much you'll be sick of it when you get married"
>"can i atleast watch"
>"no, you'll get in the way"
>ok
>a few years later, i'm a teenager now
>hear all my friends casually mention cooking for themselves and their family
>feel like a useless retard
>ask mom to teach me how to cook
>"didn't they teach you that on google"
>nevermind
>look up some recipes and tutorials
>i need some time to figure things out
>"stop wasting your time, just focus on studying instead"
>kicks me out of the kitchen so she can cook herself
>a few years later, i'm technically an adult now
>learned to cook basic things, just enough to not starve
>still a little awkward with it
>come into kitchen to make myself a salad
>mom sits back and stares at me the entire time
>she starts laughing
>"what"
>"nothing"
>i'm uncomfortable
>she keeps laughing
>"what? am i doing something wrong?"
>"no, it's nothing, keep going"
>now i'm upset
>she's basically crying laughing now
>"no seriously what am i doing wrong? just tell me so i don't do it anymore"
>doesn't respond, just laughs
>i get angry and tell her to stop making fun of me whenever i'm in the kitchen because it's not the first time she does this
>leave
>"oh, of course, just run away to your room like you always do"
>what does that even mean
>lost my appetite at this point
>eat my stupid salad alone in my room and try not to cry
some time later
>i'm hungry
>come into kitchen and start heating up my mother's cooking she made specifically for me
>"you keep eating my cooking you're so fucking helpless when are you going to be a responsible adult how are you going to survive when i'm not around to feed you"
fml
No. 2050327
>>2050323My mom was like this.
My and my siblings started ordering fast food instead of eating her food.
I gained weight but she was miserable.
No. 2050359
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I was in town earlier and while walking to the bus stop i passed by my ex friend and highschool bully. Or at the very least someone who looked exactly like her.
She looked pretty as always and was holding hands with presumably her boyfriend.
I know it's dumb and it's been a long ass time, but seeing her dolled up with a boyfriend while i looked like shit and have been alone forever made me feel like shit. Like actually crying right now
No. 2050360
i always feel guilty for thinking and saying i was abused even though i was. my parents never deprived me of anything like food, shelter, etc, i'm from an upper middle class background, but my mom was emotionally and physically abusive and my dad was basically absent/avoided both me and her and stayed at work all day. my mom would beat me for doing things that she didn't care my brother did, cut me with a knife and herself in front of me, she would constantly call me ugly, insult me, refuse to let me see my friends and insulted them, and scream all the time and destroy my stuff when she was mad. she would always tell me that the neighbors hated and judged me, to kill myself if i didn't want to live with them, to kill her, then when she wanted to make up she'd say she loves me and that we're family. she'd give me money to buy stuff i wanted at least but she would always insult me and say i bought hooker clothes/stupid stuff kek and would break things. i know things could have been worse. but i wish my parents were normal and we were poorer
No. 2050371
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>Watch scary movie
>Now I can't sleep
I get why I do it. It's the only thing that gets a real reaction out of my cold black soul. I wish I could get the same level of reaction for anything else.
The movie was Mad God btw if any nonnies are interested in good stop motion and horror
No. 2050425
>>2050323>"oh, of course, just run away to your room like you always do"Too relatable. Sorry you have to deal with that
nonnie.
No. 2050536
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Me when I realized I'm not a lesbian but a deeply traumatized bisexual. Feels like I can't even belong to any community. Like my pain and my trauma is something to just 'get over' so I can learn to be a 'proper' woman. That society would tell me I just need to find a 'good' man, that they're not 'all bad'. Hell. Truly hell. I hate sex and I hate that I ever had sex with anyone, even once. I only did it because I felt defective & immature for remaining a virgin so long. Plus self-destructive and miserable, I remember riding on the train there and feeling like I was going to my execution.
No. 2050627
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any nonnas get these kind of flare ups underneath their armpits/groin area? mine is not severe at all but sometimes it just comes in full force, now it’s appearing under my left armpit and it’s so annoying. it’s red and inflamed but it’s hard to see because my skin is darker(spoiler this)
No. 2050675
>>2050658yes and that’s probably why it keeps getting agitated the more I put my nice smelling deodorant on it lol but the ones that are supposed to be holistic make my armpits smell nasty ngl, do you have any good deodorant recommendations?
>>2050661yeah it runs in my family so I probably do
No. 2050689
>>2050672Normies will see someone with obvious boundary issues and if they're not assholes ignore
>>2050536 regardless if you're hooking up with a man or woman it's better to be celibate until you stop feeling self destructive. You might end using sex as self harm
No. 2050778
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my favorite game announced its EOS is coming in a few weeks. it's been part of my day for the past 7 years and i'm heartbroken it's coming to an end. i don't care if it sounds pathetic.
No. 2050860
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>>2050841I feel the same way and the sad thing is I'd actually love to raise a kid if I could 100% count on the father wanting to be a real father/husband and not just a sperm donor. If I ended up like the sad bitches on r/breakingmom I'd want to kill myself but couldn't because of the kid.
No. 2051126
i thought just caffeine was giving me anxiety but i get full anxiety attacks every time i eat anything now. drinking seems to be fine but eating sends me into a frenzy. heart palpitations, crying, throwing up, i am such a mess. what is even happening to me?
>>2051077i get this too, nona. i found out it's a real condition that has to do with the hormone fluctuations. it sucks
No. 2051128
>>2051077I hate it so much, I don't get why we must always get sick right before our period, it's like it's telling me to go fuck myself, sometimes I get the flu and some stomach issues at the same time during my period and it makes me wish I was dead even more than usual.
Last 2 weeks I wasted them entirely because I had some very high fever, I had to rot on the bed like a cup of plain yogurt under the sun, it always makes me feel so worthless.
I hope you find a way to make this stop, so you don't need to feel like shit every few weeks.
No. 2051282
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I live with a male flatmate at the moment and I think he sees me as a sort of masculine rival? I'm bi and every time I've dated or had casual sex with a woman he gets super jealous and bitter about it, and he's constantly talking about "how hard it is" to find women as a straight man (it's not, some women will stay with serial killers and do their dirty laundry if they're desperate enough).
He often sneaks in comments about how he's spending lots of time with female friends, how rich women pay for him to go places and gets attention on dating apps, while my happy celibate ass is sitting there like "ok sweetie good for you" secretly laughing at him. His energy makes me think he's trying to get clout from me, and he's so worked up when I do anything (parties, staying out late) that it sends him into a panic for weeks.
Dude is 30 and it feels pathetic but I just ignore him. It's worse because he's talked about previous GFs with a dismissive attitude and told me gross shit about their bodies (which I quickly shut down). Does he think I'm some older boy he needs to impress? He's ex boarding school so I think that checks out, but I'm amused bcos I'm pretty pathetic and unattractive kek
No. 2051426
Damned if I do, damned if I don’t. I have this friend who tries to nitpick everything that I do or say, I talked with them and basically they told me they were acting distant because they felt I didn’t care for them. So I tried my best to show interest, to be there for them and basically making the effort to show my feelings because they’re pretty important in my life. All I received in return are passive aggressive comments, just emojis and always excuses justifying why they can’t hang out for me. Of course, also posting in their accounts all those messages about the perfect friendship and how we can’t expect too much of people who deceive us. Are you for real?
I’m trying my fucking best and is never enough, it will never be enough for them and it hurts because as I said, they’re important for me, I guess I’m just not that important to them if they can treat me as they do, just like shit.
I don’t get why I should be always the one trying to run after them, always feeling guilty or like a nuisance, having to put my priorities on hold to get the same fucking emoji, as if we were teenagers or something.
No. 2051441
>>2051426I've been there and I can tell you from experience that the only thing that works- aside from getting rid of them as a friend- is to agree. Yeah, you ARE a bitch! Lol what can you do, you're just a callous cunt like that, lmao. Oh, now they're calling you sensitive? I guess you are! Tears flow like a river here, good thing they noticed!!! Now you're selfish for not paying for stuff. You sure as fuck are! Can you get them to pay for your stuff while they're here? Let them nitpick you all they want. They'll leave once you show you have a backbone.
As for the shit they post, pretend to be oblivious. Reply to their retarded vagueposts with something like 'Oh no, who backstabbed you? I'm always here if you need to talk, we can hang out at (place you went recently) if you ever need a chat, just like we did on (date)!'. It won't make them stop being a passive aggressive shitstain but these people are cowards, so it'll make them back down a bit.
Seriously though, leave. That's not a friendship, it's an unpaid nanny job.
No. 2051449
>>2051426why are you friends with this person
waste of energy cut them off
No. 2051460
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applied to over 50 jobs just to get rejected from each and every one. out of all those jobs i only got 3 interviews and thought i had them in the bag just to get the same rejection email. i feel so drained i cant even be bothered to cry. just going to accept my fate and stay in bed all summer
No. 2051493
>>2051460same
nonny. I volunteer at a charity once a week and get onto a government program supposed to help people find jobs, and I still can't get employed. I'm working my ass off just for the opportunity to get paid peanuts
No. 2051550
There is no-one I hate more than my grandfather, I sometimes wish I had guardianship of him or whatever to be able to send him to the worst, moldiest, dirtiest retirement home in the country. I would gladly pay a good chunk of my savings every month just to have him be there, neglected by the underpaid, stretched-thin staff, who wouldn't care if he shat himself 24/7 in front of a TV in some unheated room of the facility. Sometimes I get worried about thinking like this, I know it's unhinged and unhealthy to a degree, but how can I not? He's the reason that I've had to see my mother burst out crying at random ever since I was little, the reason she has relapsed into depression twice, see her barely be able to get out of bed for weeks, see her age years in the span of months, the reason she has had to take drugs that mess with her hormones and health. I've heard my mom break down behind closed doors, on call with my grandmother, saying that she can't take it anymore, and for what? Because he is a schizo control freak who can't stand my mother being anything but a yes-woman that short of worships the ground he walks on? I've written a much longer version of this post with the many negative effects this man has had in my life, but it quickly became a giant wall of text, too personal and detailed to be appropriate to really tell to anyone, regardless of this being an anonymous image board. I got too heated and overshared, but when I finally finished getting it off my chest and finally calmed down, I had a much lighter heart and clearer head, so I decided to cut that part out, and sum it up as: not only has he extensively harmed my mother (although that's the part that I hate most about him, I love my mother and would do anything for her), but many other family members and the relationship that I have with them and the relationship they have between them. I wish him the worst and the world would be better off with him gone.
No. 2051626
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nonnas I got really depressed. Smoked weed n decided to read pixielocks thread and realised how much we are alike.
No. 2051631
>>2051626It’s never too late to change things,
nonnie.
No. 2051647
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why do i latch onto people like a disease. i will never be normal no one will ever like me once they get to know me more, dying would really be the best thing for me to do.
No. 2051676
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About to start dumbass shitposting in here if it doesn’t get interesting
No. 2051753
>>2051626I'm sorry but this made me laugh
Unless you're also publicly making a fool out of yourself, pretending to be a toddler and that your loving parents abused you as a kid then you're not as bad as Jill. If anything you could use her as inspiration to get better!
No. 2051834
>>2051647Same
nonnie. I wish I wasn't an annoying attention seeker, I know better than to give into it but boy does it make me depressed instead.
No. 2051917
I'm continuing my benzo taper after being on the same dose for half a year. I'm looking forward to being more clear headed and not needing anything but I'm also dreading it so much, I have to start a week before my birthday so I probably won't be able to even feel alright. I can't get a new job even though I wanted to get one because my sleep will be completely out of whack, I'll probably have sensory problems again and have my tism be more noticeable. But I'll be able to actually study and retain information and have better health in the long run. I don't know how to feel about it, it just has so many sides. I might get super depressed and irritable again but I don't know in what quantity because I was still a teenager when I started using so it probably has naturally calmed down by now. I want to get off it but it's so scary to suddenly not be dumbed down, feeling like I lost some brain function made me feel horrible at first but it also made everything feel a bit more bearable because the past few years of my life have been a complete daze. I'm not tortured by memories anymore. I feel like it might be great for me and give me motivation for life again but on the other side make me horribly depressed and constantly on edge again. The last time I started a taper I couldn't continue all the way because I couldn't sleep, couldn't be around people, I couldn't do anything without being annoyed by everything. I'd randomly get angry at people in my head and be angry at the world and just couldn't stop. I'm trying to get into mindfulness and try to embrace all emotions but sometimes I get so set off in a millisecond, it's so irrational I can't embrace it. My doctor is forcing me to taper so I'll have to do it whether I like it or not but it's so suffocating. The worst part is being unemployed again, I live at home and have good savings so it's not even about the money just the lack of purpose. I'm trying to get out of bed early and do more cooking and housework to give myself some sort of feeling of productiveness but I still have a job now, if it's day in day out and I won't have money to go to events or really anywhere that's not walking distance I just feel so stuck in a loop and I really don't want that but I know holding down a job while on a taper will be impossible because I already have sleeping problems. Sorry for the wall of text but this is stressing me out so much, I know I should be happy to have the chance to get out of this addiction and move on with my life but it's really hard. I'm scared I'll never really feel normal again, like I'll always be chasing something but at the same time I'm super relieved to be able to live my life independent of any substance. In a few years I'll be happy I did it but right now it seems like an impossible goal. But last year I thought I would never come off it to begin with and I made such progress, I'm taking a 20th of the dose I took back then. Life is beautiful and horrible, I hope I find my way someday.
No. 2052067
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I can't take it anymore. I can't continue being sane like this. I have a important meeting tomorrow any my face looks horrible. It could be worse, but it's so bad. I hate this illness so much. I wish there was a cure but it seems like the only way out of this is a bullet to the brain. It seems like no matter what I do, no matter how much I research and act out on it, it never clears up. You have faggot-schizo hippies in one corner shouting "Doood don't trust big phrama just rub gobugu cowshit extract oil on your face and it'll clear up and make sure to align your chakras and don't eat dairy and go vegan! That didn't work? Well eat nothing but red meat and eggs and rub cow fat on your face!" and in one other equally faggoty corner "Why don't you use these expensive and powerful steroids that will clear your skin but don't you ever stop fucking using them you hear me you little fucking pay-piggy slut whore. If you do not only will your eczema come back but it will come back way fucking worse to the point that you will wish you were dead and it will take months for that to clear up. Chop! Chop! Better get that prescription from Dr. Monneygrubs Mc Fuckface who's never had eczema in her god-forsaken life." and don't get me fucking started on having to FIND products to work for my skin. Looking up and researching is fucking torture because you have 12-billion different people telling the other 12-billion why their product is better than their product with the most confusing conflicting information. Nothing I use works, I use products with the most simplest of simple ingredients and my face is still a bumpy red mess and looks even more diseased when I moisturize because now I'm bumpy and slick and shiny. I can't even wear makeup anymore and before one of you troglodytes come out of the woodwork about how "Cosmetics are the devil and a way for the patriarchal forces above us to force insecure women into a capitalistic self-flagellation for the sake of pleasuring and pleasing our male superiors" I know, I know all of that however, I want to put the pretty pigment on my eyes, lips and cheeks because when I did have good skin, for the short time that it lasted, I looked downright adorable and I like how it elevated my features. I miss it. I miss looking at cosmetics and seeing the releases. I know it's stupid but I miss it. I haven't done that in years because why even bother when you look like an acid attack victim that nobody would touch with a 12-foot pole. I hate this so much. I can't leave my room outside of work because my family has dogs who shed hair and dander that trigger my eczema and would rather have my kill myself than get rid of their precious heckin doggorinos. I have to prepare at least four days in advance if I need to go somewhere important to make sure my skin is at least presentable. I've lost so much weight and so much money trying out so many different things to fix this over the years. I hate when people say "I don't feel comfortable in my own skin uguuguu" and how increasingly common it is to see that phrase nowadays. Fuck you, you don't ever deserve to say such a thing when you can wake up with your pillow not stuck to your face and have to peel it off, have children stare at you, people concern neg-you, and get bullied so fucking hard throughout your life that it's a wonder that you haven't shot yourself in the face in your adulthood when you realize that there isn't a cure. It's not even about looks anymore, I just hate that I'm on a constant scale of pain to discomfort and there's no reprieve from this unless I'm asleep. I feel so isolated with this, it hurts that everyone around me has nice undamaged skin. Even the people I know who do have eczema have it way less worse than I do, so I can't help but think about tearing off their skin with a carving knife and potato peeler when they go on and on about how hard they have it while having the most perfectly smooth and unblemished faces. I know it's horrible but I can't help it because at least they can cover it up. I can't even focus on my hobbies like drawing or writing fanfiction or even husbandofagging anymore because of how bad it is. The sins, atrocities, and horrors I would commit to rid myself of this condition have no limit.
No. 2052133
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>>2052092this is literally you
No. 2052453
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I hate the trainwreck that is my 'friend group' and i hate myself for not being able to deal with interpersonal drama well as a sperg. I hate that trying to help with honest conversations gets me labelled a snitch, an idiot, a meanie. I hate how they all gossip and lie and refuse to actually confront each other because they actually enjoy their web of resentment.
I hate this blundering autistic TiM who only befriends women to try and fuck/date them. Shit-stirring because you can't even comprehend basic sarcasm, antagonizing other moids (competition), acting creepy and two-faced. You are lucky to be surrounded by weak libfems. I'm happy that my mere existence makes you uneasy and anxious because you know i know you're a creep.
I'm happy i said what i said for my friend's sake, i'm happy she's past it but fuck them all honestly. I'm utterly done
No. 2052655
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ADHD is making my worklife hell. Did not make the deadline with a few projects so had to work on the weekend, which I did with the help of alcohol, because otherwise I never would have started it. I also have that I feel like I don't have any time to do anything I like because I'm too exhausted on workdays and have to do the housework on the weekends
No. 2052695
>>2052453I'm sorry
nonny, it's awful when you're at odds with your friends and I hope you can make some better ones soon.
No. 2052730
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I really don't know why I even gave dating a second chance. In a few months this guy betrayed my trust two times already, in different manners. First he did something in bed I asked him not to in the past (it wasn't anything painful), and then got surprised I was mad, and tried to minimalize it like it wasn't a complete betrayal of my trust regardless of it being "harmless".
Then basically the same week we went out kayaking, a complete first for me, he had years of experience. I expected him to like know how much he can handle and have some regard for me too, I thought we might be on water like 4 hours combined, at most. We were out there for almost 8 full hours (29 kms total). He went way too far to "challenge himself", then it took us 5-6 hours to get back upstream. I told him I was out of strength when we turned around, he told me he'd get us back at first. Then he told me I needed to pull myself together. I could barely keep us from turning around going with all of my remaining residual strength against the current while he took his rests. I had tears streaming down my face from the pain to my forearms and the sheer exhaustion in the last 2 hours while he was still relatively fine. Might be overly dramatic but I started to imagine if this is what Hell might be like. He took zero accountability for putting me through this and talks about how "we" overestimated ourselves, when I couldn't even figure out how to paddle normally at first (zero instruction given).
I'm sure he'll deflect everything when we have the breakup talk and zero self-reflection will happen on his part, because he has been through 3-4 serious relationships, and no way he was never confronted.
He has grand family goals, and I'm willing to bet that in a few years I'll be hearing about him being divorced for mistreating/abusing his wife (we have quite a few common aquaintances).
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I just spent like 200€ on summer clothing, I want to fucking die. I hate buying new clothes and I have to do it mostly online because none of the shops around carry enough sizes or even half the shit that you can find online. It's also mostly work related stuff so if I don't get a job in an office I'm going to scream. Fuuuuuuck
No. 2052946
>>2052730into the trash he goes. the first part is unforgivable, because men always play dumb when they do shit they know breaks trust. its a way to test your limits.
regarding the kayaking… a lot of people think that to date a sporty guy, he has to be a drill sergeant type asshole but it's not true, we cant as women just relinquish our standards even more and let them talk shit to us while getting us hurt/lost. plus the VAST majority of these so called outdoorsy fit guys are full of shit and cant take care of themselves let alone their family. They just sort of larp at it and do things like kayaking and rock climbing for the bro appeal, take pics for the gram, and then half ass it.
You need to filter through these dudes and find the ones who are humble and autistically dedicated to doing it for the appreciation of nature and have a respect for you and safety, it shows humility and an understanding that they're not immortal (this hurts the narcissist).
After years of sporadic fail dates similar to yours I'm dating a guy who loves hiking and all things survival, if I come along he customizes the trails to be to my preferences not his, and prepares snacks and even gets me the right boots and equipment, then gives me a safety rundown in case we get separated. And I didn't train him for this, men come as they are we just need to remove the rose tinted glasses and analyze. You will have to sort through a LOT of garbage
nonny if you persist in dating, but I hope you find the 1 in 1000 who know their limits and how to keep you safe and comfortable in all ways
No. 2053104
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I don’t know about you guys but I am freaking tired of being ugly. It’s a complete lie that you glow up once you get older, I am in my very early 20s and I look just as ugly as I’ve always been just older with more skin texture and fat all around my body because I was born a woman. Every angle in the mirror I just look terrible but when I take photos in a certain angle I look okay but I hate everything about myself. I wish I wasn’t born like this and was born with nice white girl hair and photogenic features that look great from afar. I hate it… it’s not only bad being a minority woman but a minority woman who has no pretty privilege to fall back on. It’s over.
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i am so fed up!!! liars suck, idc if its for the sake of my health, don't lie to me.
No. 2053229
>>2053209Moids, even when they’re the most blatantly evil people, are always given sympathy and benefit of the doubt like “Aw there must be some tragic reason that removes his own agency and he can’t help it and we shouldn’t judge.” Normies are also brainwashed to believe all criminals are
victims of the system and all they need is a few therapy sessions to fully reform so we shouldn’t have any consequence for violent men because it’s muh society that failed them.
No. 2053251
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Seriously?
No. 2053263
>>2053209Normies are uncomfortable with the fact that some people, regardless of how they ended up that way, are genuinely just irredeemable pieces of shit who would benefit the world by being removed from it. "Everyone deserves a second chance/there must be a reason" is a nice platitude which means you don't have to confront the reality that evil people are gonna be evil.
Victims are also treated as some nebulous entity instead of human beings because "at least it wasn't me", and lastly it's probably a deeply ingrained holdover from the religious pressure to forgive.
No. 2053283
>>2052223If it makes you feel any better anon, realistically speaking it’s a little harder to get pregnant than most people would think.
Ideally before or during ovulation days, still needs to travel up to the cervix, reach the egg and get inside.
That goes to say it’s still possible with just precum alone but given your circumstance, that seems incredibly unlikely.
Also don’t Google “can I get pregnant through X?” because there’s always 1 person who always says “yes it happened to me/friend/cousin/great aunt” etc. and it’ll only freak you out more.
Good luck anon, you’ll be fine
>t. pregnancy hypochondriac No. 2053291
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>>2053251>2x tanThat's Elsie…
No. 2053322
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trying not to fucking completely smash my laptop to pieces. someone make the ceos and higher ups at EA work in a labor camp to experience real excruciating pain and anguish i’m so done with this shit. sims is the only thing i have right now to escape my horrible life, FIX THE GD MOTHERFUCKING SERVERS DO THE BARE MINIMUM OF YOUR JOB FOR FUCK SAKES
No. 2053344
>>2053337We do. Basically I’ve had an incredibly shit run of luck (I was too physically ill to work for about 4 years) and had to move in with my mother who is a bad hoarder,
abusive, and it was just an incredibly unhealthy and foul environment. So I moved in with him about 3 and a half months in… I didn’t have access to running water where I was living before and so no way out of my situation. I get that it’s dumb to live with a moid this early on… it was just my best option to get out of an even worse situation.
No. 2053370
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Sometimes I look at myself in the mirror and I'm like, "you know what? i actually have a nice face! wow!" But then I have photos taken of me by friends and I swear to god I have the side profile of the fucking Punch puppet, like I really deluded myself into thinking it wasn't too bad! Don't even think getting my witch chin shaved down would save the rest of my face, rip.
No. 2053451
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>>2053267Your life would be so much better if you followed one simple motto: what would dark triad Stacey do?
>Option a) cry about a man and stay for as long as possible to wallow in yearning and pain every day
>Option b) act like everything is fine while planning your exit: immediatley look for better (more docile, servant like) men online if you insist on being a heterosexual, gather as much money and small sellable goods as you can from the apartment. Get a gig to make money asap and move back in with mum until youre sorted. The day you leave, take all your shit out asap and go to mums without any word to him. Shit in his toilet tank too since he had complaints about the bathroom. text his mummy and tell her you're concerned for her son's drug use and walked in on him wearing your clothes (make something up) and that you just wanted to be a good housewife but are having doubts about the relationship. Block her and him, enjoy the eventual chaos. No. 2053651
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My existence has caused my mother a pain I can never heal. My mother didn't leave my abusive father because of me. My mother would cry because I would tell her how much I hated her and would never listen to her. I have caused my mother enough stress that she ends up in the hospital. My mother had to pick me up after I ended up in the psych ward. My mother, who had high expectations of me, is now burdened with a daughter who has no future career prospects or a chance at a normal life. All she has done is pick up the broken pieces of me and try to mend them back together by using parts of herself. I've spent my entire life aimless and depressed, hoping for a miracle that will fix everything and save me, but the truth is I have to fix myself, but I don't possess the willpower to do so. I am mentally ill, a college dropout NEET, have no friends, and I am a disappointment to my mother who risked everything to come to the West to give me a comfortable life that she never experienced for herself. All I do is disappoint her; I am a broken, useless daughter that has made my mother's sacrifices and giving up her dreams to take care of me not worth it. My existence is unjustified. I should have never been born.
No. 2053676
>>2053651it's not your fault your mother stayed with your
abusive father. being a single mother is not impossible. I could be wrong but even if she was in danger she could've gotten help. she didn't do it for whatever reason but it's not right to blame yourself for it. she might tell you she stayed because of you but that's her coping with her inability to try for both herself and you. as harsh as that sounds, it's not your fault she was a coward. you have to stop blaming yourself for something you had no control over.
No. 2053699
I get these awful obsessive, intrusive thoughts about my father who abandoned me. I'm obsessed with him and I hate it. I can't get over what he did to me but I still have all these weird fantasy daydreams about him that border on the romantic (I know, I know) and I can't stop. I'm thinking of contacting him, something I swore to myself I'd never do but I'm so close to doing it. I don't know what will happen if I do but I'm hoping it might break this awful spell. But what if it makes it worse and makes me upset? This literally runs in my head all day long.
But even with all this shit going on I agree with
>>2053662, I love it but I hate that there is so much goddamn plastic in every single package. Why can't they sell it in bulk?
No. 2053913
>>2053902I don't make any noise but my vibrator kinda does and I'm paranoid. Plus the kitchen clatter was distracting and took me out of my mood.
>>2053903I'm ESL so I just use the most common term, sorry for not being a stupid anglo I guess
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I envy women who never had to grow up with male family members in their lives, or at least didn’t have to put up with them in their home all the time. I know my bro and my dad leave me alone all the time, but somehow I just… detest living with them. At the very least I can tolerate living with my bro but living with my dad can range from feeling like a chore to just praying he doesn’t verbally abuse me or my mom during his angrier days. It’s just frustrating because I know he’s our main source of income but he works at home so the worst that happens to him is a co-worker who gets on his nerves and he always just lies on his fatass all day watching TV. Every time I’m home alone or it’s just me, my mom, and my bro I feel happier and safer. Maybe it’s because my mom cemented this idea in my head as a kid that my dad is the tyrannical head of the house from all the times she threatened that he was going to get angry and say unpleasant things to or about me if he finds out I did this or that which is true for most of the time and I always end up crying every time it happens. I fucking hate daddy issues and the only way I can vent about them is through shittily written whump scenarios of my favorite characters I project onto. This is just so frustrating for me to cope with
No. 2054106
>>2054053Go find out where
>>2054101 lives. You can marry her to escape your country and she'll no longer be ignored because she'll have a wife.
No. 2054215
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In the past I made the horrible mistake of getting in a relationship with a moid that turned out to be a bippie and when I told him to fuck off, I noticed that I had 2-3 more followers on my profile and they were his friends, one woman a man and most likely a sock puppet.
The first two are his actual friends, I met them but they clearly didn't like me and the third is him, ff two more months and I bond (meaning like they searched for me saying what happened and now we talk about anime - he searched for a specific type of girl so it's easy to be autistic together lmao) with two girls who were his exes, he did the exact same thing so now I understand who the fuck he was talking about when he made these schizo longposts but the thing is that now he's making them about me and them like we are a hive mind that secretely plots against him meanwhile he's the one that still sees my posts, I blocked him everywhere.
Keep in mind: I don't care shit about him making these little fake posts or checking my stuff because I'm not 12, I do not do smear campaigns plus I have a very boring work-home-autistic interests life and that's what I post, nothing else, so I'm waiting for them to get bored one day or another, but the thing is: I know it's a mental illness, I know that bpd makes you do weird shit otherwise it wouldn't be called a "disorder" but what the fuck is up with his friends. I'm not posting this in the mental illness thread but here because I do not understand how normal "people" could go "hmhm yes, I will follow your ex on social media and report to you her posts, ofc my retarded friend I am your salve"
Like…don't you have shit to do lmao, don't you have hobbies, work? How can you screenshot my posts about idk, me making me a tea, sending it to your bippie friend and then making me and the others (they are doing this to these two girls as well) for day after day? What brings these people together? Why do they suck his dick so much? I was the one supposed to do so lmao. If I asked my friends to follow my exes on social media they would rightfully ask me if I went mad or something. I do not want to hear about him or his shit but now I'm forced to keep an eye on him in case things get out of hand because I know he's spreading shit about me doing crimes and being dangerous but otherwise I'm not the one making sockpuppets or sending my friends to him, yet he's saying that I am the stalker like what lol
I keep an eye on him because he accused me of "touching inappropriately his nephew" (a hug on xmas day because the child wanted to play with me?) because I'm "strange with these cartoons so I am to not be trusted with kids" like sir you are the male and his friends are there doing absolutely nothing. Why does nothing click in their head? I can understand making schizo theories and shittalking me saying silly middle school shit, that's why I don't care on one part, but the moment that crimes are involved how can people still get along with his mental fucked up teathre? What power do some heavily ill male have that makes other people who supposedly arent believe them? Mind you they're all 30. What the fuck did I get myself into. He's accusing me of shit he's doing (classical projection) but since I don't care about him he's pushing things further and further to get a gram of attention out of me but doesn't he realize that even if I had cops on me they wouldn't find nothing on my devices and eventually he would have to explain why he did that? Do his "friends" don't care about him getting in serious trouble and not because of me but the law? I thought he was more intelligent than this….
Accusing me of being a pedo to get a reply somewhere (with his friends pushing to do so), males are truly a disease, damn me for being attracted to them in some way.
No. 2054307
>>2054251Yes sure I can but a) couldnt' care two shits like enjoy my post about sunsets and teas I guess b)when I tried I got blackmailed (in the actual mail because he came to my house twice, he put random stuff in my mailbox saying that he was a step away to make copies and put them in my mom's mailbox - they were screenshot about me sadposting in the past when I was 20 way before meeting him) and I since I value personal safety and my parent's safety more, I'm waiting for them to get bored, I'm not limiting myself anyway since I don't post shit, the girls also said to not do that because one of them got into trial and I might get actually accused of cahoots, I'm living my life pretty normally pedo accusations to the side and I'm waiting for him to do shitty actions on his accounts (cops and lawyer said that it's better to act like he doesn't exist at all because if he pays a lawyer that's more schizo than him he could grasp about me "blocking" him and abusing him with silence, whatever the fuck that means, since he's sick and that would count as
abusive…) so at least it's more fault on him but the point is why don't these men get castrated at birth, there should be some genetics to it, your brain can't become this fucked during grow, it has to be something more.
No. 2054423
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It's impossible to move out because everything is so expensive, especially rent. How do people do this? Even when there are places available, they won't rent anything to you unless you make 3-4k euros a month. How am I supposed to make that much money?? It is getting more and more appealing to just end it all. Life feels truly hopeless.
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>playing league
>someone goes heartsteel Shen
>everytime he gets bigger with more stacks
>can't resist but have sexual thoughts about him
uuuuurrghh i wish 2d men could be real
im so ruined.
No. 2054554
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why must moids always have some major deal breaking flaw
why does he have to have a FUCKING KID
why didn't she get rid of it oh my god they weren't even together she kept the oops baby from a fucking hookup even though he literally offered her money to get rid of it
we could have had such amazing adventures together but I guess I should be grateful, I already at my big age know that scrotes are always bad news and the existence of the child will at least slow my retarded roll if not scare me off completely
still seems like a cruel joke though.
warning: chad will only want you when he's almost 40, fat and washed up with a baby mama
No. 2054556
>>2054525>the woman feels like she's invested too much or that she can fix him.We should teach women that they're literally better off being without their moids than with them even after all that investement, they will take more, they will make you mentally unwell, without them life is simply better. Even if you have a child, you better off being a single mother with a job than having a dangerous retarded ape to take care of like he's your additional child at the house and begging the thing for giving you money for kids.
>i think i may just swear off of scrotes.You made a good choice, nonna. I wish you happiness without relations with those life-sucking demons.
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I'm not able to draw Bart Simpson and it's driving me crazy, I feel like a total loser
No. 2054998
>>2054915>>2054932He tried to, his story is she lied to him about taking her pill cause she wanted to baby trap him specifically
But yes, hooking up condomless with an ex is very retarded regardless of the untrustworthiness of scrotes, having a baby by a guy that doesn't want one or even committed to you is also retarded as fuck and I think everyone in this story is probably retarded especially me for even considering getting peripherally involved with this mess.
No. 2055023
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>>2055000Like the other anon said get a wig or you can get extensions too. Or just try to add more texture to the short hair (depending on how short it is) with sleep-in rollers, gel and mousse, or a curling iron. A lot of people with short hair look bad because there's no texture or volume, if you address that the short hair will look better like in picrel.
No. 2055026
I know for a fact I am ugly, like sub 5.
There are just little signs.
First, never getting bothered by males. I guess it's a perk, but yeah. I live in a big city where cute women constantly get cold approached by women to the point where it's a wide scale problem, but it never happens to me.
Second, several kids have called me ugly in the past. I've had two or three kids tell me to my face I'm really ugly.
Third, being rejected by a guy friend. People say all guy Friends want to fuck their girl friends, but that isn't true. Sometimes they just want to fuck their friend's friends (he asked for my best friend's number then dipped)
Fourth, my boyfriend never tells me I am beautiful, unless I am naked.
Fifth, my mom told me "you're not very very beautiful"
I guess that's it
I'm not even super difformed. I have straight teeth, no major acne or scars, normal proportions. If I had to get surgery done, I'm not sure it'd fix anything because there is no major flaw. There's just something uncanny about my face as a whole.
It hurts a little that I'll never experience what it's like to be a desirable young girl, like I've always dreamed as a kid. But I got over it and understood I wasn't meant to feel special.
No. 2055093
I can't vent about this to anyone I know because it is 1000% my own fault, I put myself in this situation. But I'm so sad and frustrated. I'm older (32) and have been in therapy for over a decade for various things but something I always struggled with was extreme people pleasing and anxiety and very low self esteem. Not an excuse but just as an explanation, it led me to make some pretty bad friendship and relationship choices- but not in a victim kind of way. I almost feel more like the villian because it's more like, I would have friendships and surround myself with people that I didn't even really like that much. But I genuinely hated myself so much and have such low self esteem that I would think "I'm so lucky that anyone even wants to spend time with me, I need to make this work because otherwise I will be alone". I've had crappy friends for sure because of this that were rude or thoughtless with me, but I had perfectly kind and genuine friends too that I didnt actually like… so I'd leave every hangout feeling distressed and upset and I was so in denial that I couldn't understand why I'd feel so bad. I'd pick apart our friendships in my head looking for reasons why they were a bad person, or I was a bad person, when really it was just so simple- I just didnt like them. I didn't hate them but I didn't like them either. I am very ashamed now that I stuck around just because of that and still have to actively fight that urge sometimes of not being honest with myself when I don't like people (and trying to demonize them instead in my head or demonize myself that I'm a bad fucked up person for just not getting along with another adult).
ANYWAY all that to say even though I am already so old, I am finally getting to a place where I recognize this and am (I think) breaking these patterns and getting better about admitting to myself when I just plain don't like people. I'm trying to be less fake even if it means being alone. and I'm STRUGGLING. Being lonely is justs as bad as I feared, it feels awful. Being single and alone with no friends is hard. Is it harder than when I had friends where I'd feel badly after we hung out? I'm honestly not sure. I don't know if one or the other hurts worse, they're both painful in different ways but also feel pretty similar.
Idk this is probably barely coherent but it's all weighing on me and I can't stop thinking about it. I think I need to try and make genuine friendships but I still feel like it's too scary and vulnerable to try and meet new people, or the fact that I'm 30 and haven't yet figured out how to make real connections and friends is a big giant red flag. Deep down, I actually don't know if I'm a good friend because of these insecurities and it tears me up because my biggest fear is being alone. I don't want to live life alone and would choose not to live over living into a ripe old age with no one with me. Not a friend, no family (i'm also estranged from them), nothing. It's so scary.
No. 2055105
>>2055097It's probably not personal
nonny. At this stage in life I've had several friends now who had babies and for some women after they have one the baby really does become their entire world for a while. Like their identity just becomes "mom", and all their thoughts about their kid, and its really hard to maintain friendships. I've never had a kid so I can't speak from experience but I can say from the other side this is so, so normal. It sucks to feel distant from your friend and for some people they do come back around once the baby haze wears off (I hope it does), but don't feel like you let her down or feel too personal about the distance. That might be a little over-thinking.
No. 2055353
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I would drop everything right now and sacrifice so much if they could make fictional men real. I've been reading so much mature lewd manga lately and I just can't help but imagine myself kissing and having sex with these fictional characters. They're so loving and gentle and not ugly. I imagine myself being stuck in a predicament and some husbando helps me out there and we kiss and make love.
I shouldn't be wishing these fantasies at 28, but here I am!
No. 2055518
>>2055503>HELP!You already know exactly what you should do:
>I know that I should just break up with him Like I really don't get anons like you. It's a scrote. There's another 4 billion of them on the planet. Who gives a crap about this one in particular? Why do you want us to help you when you can't even help yourself? If you want to be a grown-up and have a good relationship then go do that, don't settle for shit you don't like and then whine about it for years and act like you're a
victim in this instead of a willing participant. I really don't know what else you wanna hear because all I'm getting from your post is:
>My coomed out boyfriend doesn't respect me and likes having sex with other women so I agreed to an open-relationship because I don't respect myself but it's okay because I can have sex with other women but I don't really want to and now my whole relationship is a problem but I don't wanna admit that so can you help me by lying to me? No. 2055552
>>2055549>Just man upEw.
>Why do you people stay with this trash when there’s other men to date?It's just a more elaborate and prolonged type of self harm. It's the philosophical razor.
No. 2055583
>>2055575>My scrote is acting like a scrote, somehow it's my fault.Girl just dump him really who cares we're all telling you and you're acting dumb listen to the crowd and dump him.
>>2055577>I'm a fool wooooe is me I am so smart and different that I actually choose to hurt myself. I am but a victim to the world, as I cannot possibly choose to help myself!You're not special because you choose to suffer. Everybody makes mistakes get over it and fix it.
No. 2055588
>>2055503Wait so you can't date other men, just other women?
And he doesn't mind exposing you to a myriad of STDs which could cause all sort of issues like cervical cancer?
And he sees the world as you but doesn't mind seeing you suffering while he fucks around? Does he get annoyed by how you feel if it inconveniences him?
What would happen if you asked him to be loyal?
No. 2055697
>>2055518>>2055546>>2055549>>2055583Nonas, she's bragging. That's it. She could easily leave the relationship, but there are a lot of women out there who are happy to bring up their shitty scrotes if it makes them look like they're suffering (virtuous). The 'HELP' at the end is a lame attempt at making it seem like she isn't simply going 'ooooh look at how hard my life is, yet i persist for my
very special Nigel, am i not a good girl?'. Women who are stuck with cheating poly men for whatever reason try to hide the pain or do not bring it up because they're actually vulnerable. It's a way to stay on top of the feminine hierarchy in all-female conversations. She even added that she respects 'sapphic' spaces for maximum virtue. There's probably real pain in her situation but it doesn't outweight the deep compulsion to be a good martyr
No. 2055759
>>2052685>>2052693GOD FUCKING DAMN IT this time i actually waited several minutes
before reposting in order to prevent the flood detected message and guess what happened?
No. 2055811
>>2055577Nona I understand you. My circumstances weren't similar in that there wasn't any poly stuff, however I was also with someone who didn't treat me well and disrespected me on multiple occasions and I stayed for all of it. It chipped away my already low self-esteem and by the end I was a shell of my former self. I didn't think I deserved anything better and that because he didn't see my worth and treat me well it meant there's something wrong with me.
I'm sorry you feel like you need to punish yourself by staying with him and I hope you find the strength to drop him. You'll have a huge weight lifted off your shoulders even if in the beginning it's devastating.
I also understand other nonas getting frustrated reading about these moids and us staying kek. I don't know why so many women (myself included) let ourselves be disrespected and just don't leave when in today's world we have the power to do so. Then again it's hard when there's that bond and glimpses of good moments. I wish you'll be free soon!
No. 2055936
I'm high but ive been focusing on my body dysmorphia all day and I decided to take a trip down memory lane and try to find photos of me from when I was in middle school and high school at camp. I keep looking at the website, like scouring through their photos, and I look awful in all of them. I know im a literal child in these, but fuck i was so fucking ugly, especially compared to other girls (literally, I feel weird about this because, again, the are pics of literal children). Moreover, i dont appear anywhere except group photos, which makes me feel like I was purposefully avoided because I wasn;t "pretty enough". I still feel the same to this day. I still feel so sad that I used to feel ugly, but at the same time, I can't help but look at this pudgy androgynous kid and refuse to beileve I look like that. I wish girls didnt have to worry about how fuckable they are at 13, you should be able to have photos of you where you dont care about that stuff becuse you're a child enjoying life. I feel really bad for myself at that age but also, I still think that nothing changed and I'm still ugly.
No. 2056163
>>2056149No, she's correct. It's not the same dynamic. Beautiful moids should be paraded, objectified, and enjoyed and leered at.
Men who have social media and like influencers are, however, revolting. Irl they have all been bottom of the barrel.
No. 2056238
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If you read this you're cool(not a vent)
No. 2056439
>>2056409No it sounds more like you’re backpedaling and trying to reframe what you said in an attempt to make it look like you were making egregious suggestions with the intent of trying to help her, when really if you read out your cynical
>uh why didn’t you lie >what is she supposed to say?”oh you look and behave like a friendless loser”>what is she gonna do? stalk you to verify if you have friends? You’d have to be autistic as fuck to not see how thats a rude way to respond to someone’s vent kek, especially when she didn’t ask for your help with her situation.
No. 2056594
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I'm so full and so uncomfortable. I should've just stayed hungry instead of eating, being empty feels much better than this.
No. 2056621
File: 1718829859516.jpg (17.15 KB, 324x324, 1607814747735.jpg)
When I make new friends and they like me I just know I'm going to fuck it up and I'm already scared to talk to them and thinking up an exit plan because I should just stay alone. Why do I hurt people without even trying
No. 2056642
>>2056517I know I do, ty for encouragement
nonnie. I started depression meds while simultaneously beginning studies after having a very physically demanding manual labor job so all those things combined caused me to balloon out. I usually hover around the 155 lbs area and look thin, but this extra 30 lbs has completely fucked me. All I wear now is sweatpants like a NEET slob. No offense to the NEET nonnas here.
No. 2056662
>>2056657that is weird as shit KEK, they were defending troons
and accusing you of being a personalityfag?
No. 2056706
File: 1718833102558.jpg (209.4 KB, 935x1054, 1717099684039.jpg)
PC will probably be in the shop for at least another week. I'm so bored.
No. 2056792
File: 1718839191443.jpg (76.79 KB, 1263x705, 2jqmmc.jpg)
stop posting dead kids on your fucking xitter between your porn! you are a fucking middle class art student, your opinions are garbage and what you believe to be political activism is a joke and an insult to mankind! people only follow you to stroke their egos or their genitals, not because you have any interesting ideas or have any kind of influence in their morals or beliefs, let alone on fucking conflicts older than your father's ballsack!
No. 2056838
File: 1718841926091.jpg (42.25 KB, 1024x576, 1000002220.jpg)
how can i spend so much time thinking "wtf is wrong with me" and yet i go to therapy and allegedly nothing is wrong with me? how can you feel so retarded and incapable and weird compared to others and not have any answers to why and therefore no solutions either?
No. 2056878
File: 1718844324414.jpeg (39.91 KB, 415x739, IMG_5747.jpeg)
Got my remaining three wisdom teeth removed on Monday and went under Anaesthesia for the first time. There was also a bone/calcium growth in my sinus that they cut out.
Apparently, whilst waking me up, I began to spasm. This happened three times, and each time they had to re place the tube down my throat (I think, I’m not a doctor nor was I conscious.)
Afterwards I was of course numb, and noticed some pain in my throat which they explained. They said that this has been more common amongst younger patients who smoke, or more specifically, vape. I wasn’t dead so I wasn’t too stressed however it was a bit of a wake up call.
The recovery is soo much worse than I expected. The pain is bearable but the swelling is literally insane. Considering they got into my sinus, one side of my face is puffy all the way to my eye. I have a swollen and black eye and bruising underneath it. My chin is bruised on either side. Theres stitches all along my gums and inside of my mouth, including where they got into my sinus.
Don’t get me wrong, I love being allowed to be retarded for a week with no responsibilities, but I also kinda want to smoke weed and not look like I got botched plastic surgery.
picrel is the closest thing i could find to my fucked up mug right now but mine is wayy more swollen
No. 2056974
>>2056971It celebrates the emancipation proclamation, which was issued during the civil war (it wasn’t when all the slaves were actually effectively free though)
>>2056973Lol who cares if black people celebrate the end of slavery? How does that deepen divisions?
No. 2057030
>>2056995Honestly? Just deny it.
If it's not who you are today then nobody will actually give a damn except for tumblrinas looking for a reason to cancel–and no one takes those types seriously.
No. 2057103
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>job interview today
>they haven't sent me a link
Guess I'm fucked
No. 2057249
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What is with gay men always claiming women as their icons? Picrel is a woman's interview after smashing a moid customer's car when he threw his drinks at her. I just don't understand why they don't choose moid icons or something (even though most moids just suck tbh)
No. 2057302
>>2056960Thanks
nonnie, I hope he won't be too upset but he probably will and me too tbh. It's never fun but it's inevitable.
No. 2057352
>>2057264it's because of what
>>2057292 said plus the farmhands are super pissy over double posting in the last few months. if i had a dollar for every
(learn to delete) redtext I'd have enough money to buy LC
No. 2057379
>>2057351You're not pathetic nona, sometimes the stars align and the trash in our lives take themselves out. That way they already did all the work to convince themselves to not go crawling back to you and harass you for a second chance. The manlet is already a walking abortion etc, and his otaku life - already so shallow that it's more like a ghoul possessing a body than a full human being's - will only get hollower.
You're an intelligent woman with a vast internal life and skills that can always be cultivated to a higher level. There's no real limit on your growth, and that's why women are a self-contained unit and the final word of the human experience. Your hurts will heal, scar, then fade, nona, while you find and learn the joys of maintaining a happy, accomplished life. Hope you have a lovely day.
No. 2057416
File: 1718893600677.jpg (108.64 KB, 720x960, YiB0qoj.jpg)
No one wanted to talk to me today and the people who did reply were being curt. It's not that I was in a crisis to need to talk to someone right then and there, but I just wanted to yap to someone, I've been a little lonely since I moved from home a few months ago.
I know they didn't have ill intentions, people are busy with work but I was so bored I just went for a walk around the block, grabbed a coffee and did some people watching and I still felt like I wanted to talk someone's ear off when I got back home.
No. 2057524
>>2057494I understand you nonna, big fashion got 12-14 yr old girls wearing bras, silk lingerie and shit like that in public under the guise of "fashion"
it makes me vomit
No. 2057628
>>2057621Don't worry,
nonnie, it's just the start of summer and there's plenty of time for it to get much, much hotter.
No. 2057706
>>2057460Thank you
nonnie, I ended up catching up on some threads and working on a personal project for the rest of the day, and tomorrow I'll be going to an art gallery so no more boredom for now!
No. 2057748
File: 1718916481405.jpg (15.68 KB, 474x267, ring of fire.jpg)
I love hot and spicy food but I think I've over done it.
No. 2057760
File: 1718916852219.jpg (47 KB, 600x352, sad.jpg)
I know I need help but I feel like I'm an incomplete person and that I'll always be some dollar store version of this other person. I'm bad at everything and I don't believe that I can learn. Affirming positive things feel like a lie but I guess here's to hoping things will feel easier, I'm sick of being insecure and feeling fundamentally broken.
No. 2057762
>>2057755and i mean it, genuinely the only thing stopping me from moving back to country is my sexuality because there is nothing there everyone who's gay moves to cities there is no dating there and no life other than rumors and insults.
but i still dream of the horse back riding on iced over waters and boating from island to island, i wish i could fit the country but no the people there are so cruel i still remember it
No. 2057788
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I saw that Factor Meals had started their business in my country and that they offered 50% off on the first order, so I got curious. Like many others I've seen youtubers run ads for them and I've had really good experiences with Hello Fresh (got a couple of coupons at my old job and was pleasantly surprised) so I figured that maybe Factor wouldn't be too bad either so I decided to at least check out what their website offered.
I signed up, took a look at the menus for the coming weeks and unsubscribed again within fifteen minutes. None of it looked all that appealing and the price was still a bit too steep for my taste even with the discount, however it turns out when you sign up for the first time an order is automatically placed and not automatically removed when you unsubscribe even when it's within the time limit, and I didn't realize until a week later when I got an order confirmation that they were soon at my door with the food package. Luckily they quickly cancelled the invoice when I politely messaged them about it, and said the this order was on the house.
I was a bit excited over getting what's for me is more than a week's worth of food for free, even if it looked incredibly meh on the website it might still taste decent, right? Haha, oh how naive I was. I've eaten maybe 5 meals so far and it's all just tasteless pig slop. Holy fuck do people actually eat this shit? It's overcooked to hell and despite each meal being vastly different from each other they still somehow taste the fucking same - bland. And despite it having a fair bit of greens and protein it's still somehow so void of nutrients you still end up hungry two or three hours later, something that otherwise never happens to me when I make my own food.
Worst part is that I know the curiosity still would have gotten the better of me even if someone had told me beforehand, at least this time I don't have anyone to go crawling back to and admit my mistake.
No. 2057954
File: 1718924993318.png (261.99 KB, 488x508, just-death.png)
>Battling a stomach infection since last week
>Got a bunch of pills to take from my doctor last Friday and told to take it easy. They are rough on the whole gut bacteria
>WFH since Monday but my boss told my it's essential I come in today for a meeting
>Excuse myself halfway through and before I can get to the bathroom I empty the last two meals I ate in the hallway
>It's a stupid fucking modern plan open office building and everything is glass so they see me puke from the meeting room. It's like being looked at in a zoo.
>Grab my shit and leave
Nothing much to say here. I've showered and been underneath my bed cringe crying myself to death. My clothes and car smell like puke. This is no way I'm ever getting a promotion now. Just praying a meteor will hit me so I don't have to exist anymore. Just blip me out.
No. 2057955
File: 1718925225271.jpg (23.74 KB, 275x275, cat hug.jpg)
>>2057954Wow this is actually a really horrible sad thing and I empathize with you. I hope you feel better soon. If I were in your shoes though, I'd really talk to HR about this. It seems like your boss knew you were on sick leave but made you come in anyway just for that to happen to you. That's really fucked up nona I really hope you feel better.
No. 2057965
>>2057955Thanks!
I wasn't officially on sick leave just WFH. That's what you use unless you are completely debilitated. If I don't hear an apology from my manager soon with at least some compensation, I'm going to go to HR. I know she can't give me money but at least a week or two of extra time off would be nice or just WFH indefinitely. I don't know when I can show my face in the office again.
No. 2057969
>>2057954Nona it’s okay your career is not over. Send your boss a doctors note excusing you for as long as possible (basically however much PTO or sick time you’re willing to use, I would personally do five days but that’s me.) They
should feel bad they made you come in but you may need to play to their sympathies to
trigger this. Include some verbiage from you in the email when you send the doctors note that you tried your best and you thought you could come back to work because you love your job soooooo much but now your doctor says you pushed yourself too hard (again because you loooooove your job!!) kek
No. 2057999
File: 1718928031618.jpeg (788.44 KB, 2560x1920, IMG_5651.jpeg)
I miss US Sanrio stores so bad. I know there’s Miniso and Boxlunch, but it just isn’t the same.
No. 2058068
File: 1718933385330.png (143.6 KB, 1920x1080, Screenshot (87).png)
not a unique vent at all but i'm so stressed about money. money is the only thing that can save me at this point. i can't believe that's what it comes down to, money. money money money money $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
No. 2058108
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i keep silently praying to die in my sleep im so tired of living i just want the pain to go away i hate this so much. unrelated cute picture to counteract any negative emotions felt by reading me whine
No. 2058138
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>>2057954fuck your boss, you basically did a malicious compliance. he got what he deserved. as for HR, of course they dont want to go through the paperwork and exist to keep you watched and compliant, not to help you.
you should not feel like you did anything wrong, you belonged in bed and I would be pissed off as fuck in your situation, probably would write an email and CC HR about how policies regarding illness need to be reviewed and all meetings can include remote participants unless youre the fucking united nations
No. 2058361
Wow. I just spent all my life thinking that my belly was ugly but I have hourglass syndrome? I can't believe it. Fuck men so much for making me hate myself when I wasn't even a teen because my belly wasn't flat enough.
No. 2058416
>>2058361You can apparently reverse it through exercise of the core muscles if you'd like to try that. Hope you don't feel too bad about it and get your desired look,
nonnie.
No. 2058486
I don't like attention and I don't like to celebrate shit that I was supposed to do in the first place, my reasoning is that I like to celebrate nice and cute things but not mandatory "life steps"
I had friends and relatives making up shitty excuses to not to come to my birthday, and I didn't ask for gifts or other stuff mind you, I also provided all the food and drinks but these people got mad when I didn't celebrate my graduation.
I graduated after long, shitty years of college, every day was dramatic because I didn't want to drop out and thus wasting money, teachers were pompous turds who barely spoke a word or two during classes and let internet downloaded slides do all the work and in my last day I got my degree and fucked off to rest at home right away, my friend asked me why I wasn't celebrating.
"I don't feel like it, I'm glad I got out and that's it."
"Aren't you proud of yourself??"
"Yes but I just wanted to go out"
"So no dinner? No party to come? You didn't organize everything?"
"No, I was focusing on studying and it was stressful, it's not something I would like to remember"
"Ah man but why tho :(( We were coming for you!!"
I had this exact conversation at least 4-5 times for different people, by the same people that wouldn't take 1-2 hours at night (we live in the same city) to come to my birthday, where usually graduation celebrations here take a whole day.
It's because they were expecting free food or something lol, why do people care about what other people do with their life milestones, graduating was not a milestone for me personally while it's a milestone that I'm getting old lol maybe I'm just a turbo autist but it irritates me that I can see that they care more about actions than who I am as a person as if the day I was put on the planet wasn't as important as a day where I got a piece of paper and stopped stressing out on books.
No. 2058487
File: 1718965729286.mp4 (5.46 MB, 480x854, rapidsave.com_barista_responds…)
>>2057249The video from the image. She's awesome.
No. 2058497
File: 1718966814720.jpg (31.09 KB, 680x582, 600.jpg)
>>2058487Absolutely the right thing to do. Fuck accepting being intimidated by some entitled scrote just for working in customer service. Or doing anything for that matter. Some people only respond constructively to retaliation because their actions suddenly have immediate consequences. This should happen to bullies from all walks of life.
No. 2058498
Went through a huge fight with my parents as a grown adult. Went to spend a few days at their place (they retired to a nice, quiet village) as an escape from everyday work-related stress but it just made it worse.
Everything was fine for first two days and then I went to dinner with them. We went to a restaurant and a waiter came to help with seating and then started smiling at me and asked me (only me)what is my name. I told him, kind of uncomfortable, and he said "wow beautiful" and started winking at my mom telling her "she's good". I awkwardly moved to the table, I honestly did not like his vibe but I did not make a big deal about it.
But my parents did, they made a big deal - not about him but about me. That "why am I so visibly uncomfortable, why cant I joke around with him and be carefree, why do I judge people (i did not judge him, at least not in front of them, i just looked uncomfortable). How am I single for so long (I was in a long relationship and my ex cheated on me, gaslighted me, emotionally abused me and it took me a while of building self-worth to finally leave - they know that). Then a whole tirade about how my aunt (i am very close to her) and my female friends have ruined me because I have become too much of a "stuck up moralist who imposes rules on others". Then the discussion went to how I am taking everything too seriously and how relationships between people should not be taken seriously at all.
(My father cheated on my mother few years ago, i stood by my mother side and called him out but my mother took his side instead - he did not even want to admit he cheated until mom said "cheating is okay haha it happens, stop judging!" even though i saw her very hurt and she still has issues today.)
Anyway they not only trashed me, but everyone who is dear to me. In their eyes, my friends and my aunt "have bad influence on me" and it is somehow my best friends fault I gained weight few years ago (they said I blown up to morbid obesity but my BMI back then was on the border of overweight), that she constantly forced me to eat fast food - which is not true at all. I was overeating back then because I was going through few stressful times including toxic work environment and breaking up with above mentioned ex. I was asking her to go eat fast food with me. I have lost weight that I gained since then.
All that brought me, late-twenties adult woman, to tears -which made them even more mad. How I am now embarrassing them in front of everyone in the restaurant, how I am creating drama and how there is something wrong with me. Started saying how "I went hysteric because waiter asked me for my name" which is not true at all. I did fight back, in tears, about how they impose rules on and expectations on others but berate me for it, told them they are hypocritical and selfish which made my father so mad he started screaming for me to shut up or else. My mother stood by his side and sneered at me crying and then berated me for making my father mad, mentioned how much money they wasted on raising me.
I was supposed to stay two-three days more but I went home that night.
I live independently, I managed to make a career change and I earn a decent wage for my country but when I am in front of them, I feel like a piece of shit little child whose birth made their life more difficult. There is still a part of me who feels guilty of who I am even though I can see that I should not be in the wrong. Why do they dislike so much of who I am.
No. 2058506
>>2058498Nonnie my heart goes out to you. Can you not go no contact with them? Is it really worth still going back if they have a history of acting this way?
If you must visit them again maybe only visit them for the day and go home by night. Your aunt and friends sound like a good support group for you, maybe you can lean on them if you are stressed out with work instead of going to your parents'.
No. 2058538
>>2058506Thank you
nonnieI usually do not rely on them for emotional support, but things have been going somewhat well before this and they have been complaining how nobody visits them, so i did, thinking i could enjoy a bit of a getaway and have a nice time.
I have been thinking of going no contact with them all day and i think i am going to do it, there is no point in trying to keep good relations anymore..
No. 2058547
>>2057733>I knew what men are capable of and still married one.I mean, every child has a father anon. The key between being abused and not being abused is not “did your mother marry a man”, it doesn’t confirm your worries. You’re already having traumatic nightmares, don’t beat yourself up further with wacky standards. Be kind to yourself. You have a child, you want them to be “one of the kids that doesn’t get abused”, that group very much includes kids with dads, it includes your child, you haven’t somehow failed your baby by just creating them. I know you’re vigilant enough for red flags, have the right character to teach your kids personal boundaries, that they can trust you and that you will take action the second it’s needed. Therefore you can protect them from predators, whoever they are. That really is enough. Enjoy your family life anon, don’t run yourself wrought with fear. Dreams are not premonitions, it’s just your old trauma attacking you. You can overcome it!
No. 2058576
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MS teams is ruining my job interviews. The retarded shit just can't use a mic and headphones at the same time, no matter what I enabled in the settings. OOOOR it shows that everything is fine and then something stopps working mid meeting and I can't fix it because I'd have to tinker with it. It makes me look like an idiot to the recruiters and like I'm tech illiterate, even tho I worked in tech support for years. I even got new headphones with a mic and it's STILL not working as it should. Fuck
No. 2058582
File: 1718974952458.jpg (77.61 KB, 700x889, 12aada60361b9499efdab1779f5662…)
I have a problem accepting my body structure.
I simply hate how stocky, curvy, short and frankly fat-looking I look, and yet I'm at an average weight. The word "fat" is like some kind of constant descriptor for my body, no matter how much I lose. Especially since women with this body type have to be pretty underweight to not look curvy. Don't even get me started on me in photos.
I do eat well and try to get as much exercise as I can, but I simply don't accept my body - I know I will never look cool and chiseled and sleek like, I don't know, Sarah Connor from terminator 2, and that fact really bums me out. I despise femininity and the aesthetic of it - I think it's excessive and tacky and impractical, yet my body looks really feminine, ergo, my body is fugly. Ive toyed with the thought of getting an amphetamine addiction to become underweight just so I could finally be thin.
It's a common opinion to find Marilyn the most beautiful woman on earth etc etc, but that really doesn't help me. Often when I do look at images of her to try to improve my self-image, I just keep nitpicking her body - I hate how her arms look chubby, how her legs are shapeless, how wide her torso looks - because I keep seeing my body in hers, it really is how I feel. I would do seriously heinous things if I had the chance to wave a magic wand and magically make my body structure naturally taller, leaner and skinnier. I know there are anons here who would switch with me in a heartbeat - I'd be ecstatic to trade places with you.
I thought I got over this when I realised "wait, I have big boobs and butt + men like big boobs and butt = I'm actually not an ugly hamplanet?!", but now that I have a Nigel whom I don't plan on leaving, the 'utility' of my body type is kind of gone. The only things I look good in are things that I frankly don't want to wear in public - bodycon shit with frills, suffocatingly tight jeans, etc. Its like my options are to show my entire naked body or accept the fact that I look fat in everything else.
No. 2058602
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I’m too retarded to hold a job. I want to kill myself. I hate what my trauma turned me into and I miss the old me back she would never be seen like this
No. 2058612
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>>2058582>speaking about the utility your body offers only in terms of men's desire>hating your female body for having female traits>treating yourself as an ornamental objectVOMIT
No. 2058616
>>2058582>I despise femininity and the aesthetic of it - I think it's excessive and tacky and impractical, yet my body looks really feminine, ergo, my body is fugly.This is your problem. Your body isn't inherently feminine; you and others perceive it that way.
>her arms look chubby>her legs are shapelessMaybe you should consider lifting or working out with the goal of gaining muscle. It sounds like you dislike how soft yourself and she look.
>now that I have a Nigel whom I don't plan on leaving, the 'utility' of my body type is kind of goneAgain, your body isn't supposed to be useful for that kind of thing. Women with all different body types find partners. I feel you, anon, but you really need to see your body and yourself in a different light. Comparing yourself to Marilyn is a tough way to cope since she was admired for her femininity. You should force yourself to see your body as an amazing part of yourself that allows you to accomplish what you need and desire. Stop looking at pictures of women to compare yourself and you will feel better.
No. 2058625
>>2058617>get ripped like Sarah ConnorLMAO. Sarah Connor in Terminator 2 is actually sickly underweight. No amount of cardio will achieve her look because she has naturally broad and square shoulders.
>>2058618>any body shape can be changed via the gymNot in the way she wants. Why are so many of you so misinformed about the gym? It's unreal.
No. 2058651
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my friend is such a whiney baby sometimes. her only job is streaming herself playing video games twice a week. she lives with her mom and dad and doesn't need to pay any rent or need to pay for groceries, all the money she makes from streaming goes on herself. yet she's forever taking mental health breaks that last weeks at a time, is always complaining about how she's sooooooo tired. she doesn't do anything except play games and nap. as someone with a full time job who is juggling mental health issues and still somehow manages to function like an adult, pay all my own bills, clean my apartment, AND make time for friends and hobbies,I just have no sympathy. oh boo fucking hoo you have to log on to twitch to chat with people whilst you play fucking animal crossing or whatever? grow up
No. 2058685
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I'm still sick from a cold but not sick enough to skip work…. i wish i could stay in bed and rest more
No. 2058713
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Please pray, send good vibes, manifest for me that the family member (preferably both of them) that I don’t want here moves permanently and never comes back. Pls send manifesting thoughts for me to live in a clean, peaceful, quiet and stress-free environment when they mysteriously decide to disappear and move out of no where. Muslims, Christians, New Agers, Scientologists even Atheists send positive thoughts to make this happen!!
No. 2058735
>>2058713Sending you extra cleanliness and serenity. Manifesting that your family finds good opportunities far away elsewhere so that you may find excellent peace. Wishing you an awesome night of relaxation and cozy personal rituals when they finally move! Love you
nonny, you can make it through this and you'll have it good when there's more free time.
No. 2058736
>>2058651I get you nona. I fucking hate people like this.
>but muh depresshunsFUCK OFFFF
No. 2058746
My pompous coworker is annoying me and belittling me at every chance.
For some background, I'm part of a team that furnishes a hotel and I'm one of the painters. It's going to be "neoclassical" and the Big Boss specifically wanted art historians on the team. He wants to populate the bare walls with a shitload of paintings, essentially. I'll be doing a couple of portraits and probably a very tacky fresco (which I hope to politely decline working on).
We are "subordinate" (not on paper, but in practice) to a very snobby interior designer who finished the big art academy in their interior design section. He thinks he's hot shit for it. Taste is a subjective thing, but he's a "more is more" type, and the building itself is far too small to be turned into Versailles. Won't listen to concrit. One of the artists (who is also a licensed conservator of antiques, so he had every right to question the historicity of the design) ragequit already. He was close to tears. If I knew what was happening I would've defended him, but it was my first day and I just sat there, confused, while a grown ass man stuttered that he "doesn't think he wants to be part of this team".
Art schools nowadays care more for concept than technique. I studied art history to become an artist, not an art historian, paradoxically. I work as an artist professionally, and I specialize in historical styles thanks to my education. Well, the interior design fellow found out that I'm not "a real artist" (an artist that graduated art school, like his musty ass), and is constantly bringing up my "lack of credentials" (lack of formal art education). My art history background is very firm. I have a master's from the best university in this part of the world, so ultimately my "credentials" are superior to his. I'm not a "credential" person- you either have talent and skill, or you don't. This guy, though, I beat him even at his own game.
He asked me "what I bring to the table" in front of the boss (who personally employed me) so I got defensive and listed why I'm hot shit, on par with him. Then he says I "don't know how to be humble". Brother, I was merely answering your question. I don't know what his deal is. I think he fears I will be like the previous guy and tell him his Liberace ass designs are not historically accurate for this type of building, which would discredit him in the eyes of Mr. Big Boss. I won't. I'm here to do my paintings and leave.
We're meant to be a team, not competition. I have a feeling he wants exclusive bragging rights to this building, because it is a big deal, and doesn't want to share this glory. I also think he fears me. At first I thought he is asking so many questions because I came up from nowhere. I never assumed ill intent, until much later, when he made constant digs at my "lack of credentials", and saying "this isn't the style we are looking for" multiple times while flipping through my portfolio. Duh, fella. I specialize in neogothic. No shit.
I hate pompous pricks like this. He has that bitchy gay scrote energy, and a shit taste to match. Yikes!
The design prompt was "luxurious and classy", not "fucking Disneyland".
Furthermore, he doesn't know much about materials. You'd think they would teach them at fancy interior design school that lime walls need to breathe or else they hold moisture and crumble… This is why I don't respect him. Taste aside, he doesn't take genuine conservation concerns seriously. I wish I could go back in time and defend the other artist who ragequit. I see why he did.
Spite motivates me, and I won't quit. I always feel bad about ignoring the plight of a kindred spirit who respects history.
Sigh. It sucks being so much better than everyone else, right? I jest.
No. 2058766
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I am so damaged a new coworker was asking me questions about myself and I was stuck alone with them so I was slowly opening up and they seemed genuinely interested. when I drove home I was crying because no one in my life has taken an interest in my life in so long, not even friends or family give a shit anymore so it was jarring
No. 2058804
>>2058746I have never met this man, but I hate him.
Once the job is done and the interior design is open to the public, you should go on fiverr and pay $5 to have a dozen people rate the hotel and mention how ugly and tacky the interior design is. Then he couldn't even put it on his resume.
No. 2058887
>>2058804lmaaaao thanks
nonnie. That's hilarious. I'm not that petty, though. But I am petty enough to complain about his stuck up ass online and to everyone I know IRL. His art sucks too, compared to mine, and I'm "uneducated".
>>2058848I hate old men. If I ever have a husband and he ages, I will throw him in the bin.
No. 2058973
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my dolls leather belt tore and I just fucking opened and put it on last night. I should have put some conditioner on it or something especially since it’s never been opened before and has been in storage for years at this point before I got it. it seems so obvious now but I don’t know anything about leather and thought it would be fine since it was unopened. why am I so dumb why do I ruin everything
No. 2059027
>>2058582Samefagging to say something I feel like I should, it's been haunting me for the whole day.
I have said something really hurtful to a lot of women. Pretty much as soon as I pressed the post button, I realised it was a bad idea, but decided not to delete because… Well, I'm not sure why, maybe I didn't think it would matter as much as it turned out to.
I know the post was filled to the brim with
toxic attitudes towards women and female bodies. I do have internalized misogyny to work through. However, that doesn't excuse what I spewed in that godawful post.
I didn't realise that although I was talking about myself, I was debasing a lot of other women and their bodies, too. I'm really ashamed that I didn't take the time to consider if I'd contribute and reinforce other people negative feelings about their bodies here with the way I feel towards my own.
I guess I wanted sympathy or some understanding, but rereading what I said, I focused way, way, way too much on other women's bodies, and not enough on my insane and skewed assumptions.
I'm not here to justify myself after writing said shlock, I just want to say I've been really fucking cringe and embarrassing, I was so wrong, and I'm sorry.
No. 2059050
>>2059044Samefag. She's the type to try to work around your excuses too. If you say I can't hang out because I have to do xyz she'll be like oh well that only takes x hours so just come over after. Also the type to downplay anyone else being tired or just wanting a day alone because she's a single mom so she's 10x more tired than you and has it way worse yet she's still down to hang out so you should be too.
It just gets exhausting so fast. I need a break and a week to myself.
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Every time I get drunk I’m reminded why I need to stop drinking. I don’t even drink that much, just a cocktail or two a week at most, but I’m in a space where I could very easily become an alcoholic. I feel so lonely and empty all of the time but I’m slowly getting used to it. Getting drunk makes me feel so good but the immediate days after I feel awful. Not in a hangover way just emotionally I always feel awful and I have to be super careful I don’t drink more because I can very easily see how it could turn into alcoholism.
No. 2059197
>>2059193So fucking true I noticed I have to pad my vents about scrotes or the pickmes get
triggered at me like incels would
No. 2059210
The housing crisis is making me feel so hopeless. People my age 10 years ago were moving out and it was completely normal and expected, now I can't even afford a rabbit hut on top of a grocery store.
>>2059193Honestly within friendships I've had this type of solidarity, if a friend told me she cheated on her boyfriend or hit him or whatever it's more likely I would laugh about it than anything kek. Moralfags definitely exist but it goes away pretty quickly once you actually become friends ime, even zoomers.
No. 2059212
>>2059036it sounds like you might be a little in love with her
>>2059111the Hitchcock version is a masterpiece! how I envy someone watching it for the first time.
No. 2059257
>>2058651i feel called out except i don't stream and don't whine about depression
i was diagnosed with it but i don't feel depressed now. i'm just a lazy bitch
No. 2059368
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>>2058989That'd fuck me up too because I've become so uninteresting and unmemorable that I've noticed that people are often surprised by something I talk about myself that I already told them about, like it's their first time hearing it.
No one retains any information about me or cares.
>>2058980I should probably do this but I've gotten so bad at responding back to friends that reach out that I've dug my own grave by making no one care about messaging me first anymore. At the same time, I'm full of resentment about it so I cut off my former best friend because she hasn't gave a single fuck in ages, and two other remaining "friends" moved to Oklahoma for work and immeadietly conveniently forgot me and will clearly never contact me ever again. To be honest, I admit I've done this other people non-stop over the years so I guess I just deserve to be completely alone at this point.
No. 2059423
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I have no friends, no romantic partner, no meaningful relationships with ppl my age. I feel lonely and have been suffering from FOMO for years. I try go meet people and nothing ever works out or goes well. I think I was meant to be an unfortunate girl that will just always be alone. All i have is my shitty job where all my coworkers are dating ppl and doing things with friends and I just go home and swipe away on some dating app that's never lead to anything anyway.
I wish i didnt exist so I didnt have to suffer my whole life being the lonely autistic girl.
No. 2059450
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One of the posts my work has released for pride month involves a story about someone complaining about being judged by "gold star gays" at bars
No. 2059453
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>mom angry because I was on the couch resting from an illness because she wanted the tv even though she has one in her room
>when she finds out it's because I'm ill she badgers me off the couch and to seek medical attention
>because I was in great pain I agree to go but it rubs me the wrong way since I know she doesn't actually give a shit and just wants the tv
>recently confessed to me that she doesn't like being around people who are not useful to her so this shit is not out of her character
>immediately seizes the couch to watch tv once I get up
>slightly distressed burger after phone call to insurance policy tells me my shit won't be covered until next month
>fuck it, bemoan how I will have to pay $200 to see an urgent care
>"Well I can give you some money but you will have to pay me back!"
>lol no thanks bitch I did not ask
>drive myself to urgent care, they refer me to the hospital because of how bad it is escalating and they cannot confidently diagnose without tests
>drive myself to hospital somehow
>get death panel'd and wait a whopping 4 hours for a room and an additional 2 hours to be seen by a doctor in complete agony
>text my mom to let her know my phone will die
>"WHY DIDN'T YOU BRING YOUR CHARGER?"
>uh, why would I have? I had no idea this would turn into an overnight thing?
>she certainly does not offer to bring me one or check on me
>at least she apologizes for that
>get IV and scans, wait hours more for results
>spend night in a freezing, dirty hospital room awake, alone and crying because I feel like shit and calculating how stupid expensive this will all be
>dad and friends are far away so no one is with me
>mom uses her fear of driving and the late night as a safety excuse to not come see me
>get discharged, meds sent to pharmacy to fill later
>drive back home
>she immediately wants info and interrogates me with 20 questions
>I'm not insta-well and perky for her so this bothers her immensely
>lies to say how she called hospital for updates on me and to have them give me a phone charger, which obv did not really happen and just wants good mommy kudos
>demands to know where my scripts are
>explain that they are being filled at the pharmacy that I will once again have to drive back into town later for
>she offers to get them for me but then takes it back cause she is thinking about the ""traffic"" and it was a fake narcissist offer that I was not meant to take seriously but award her brownie points for ~le thought that counts~
>criticizes me for not making hospital send script to a pharmacy she would have been ok to drive to
>criticizes me for not getting them delivered even though there is no fucking med delivery option for out here
>I'm now annoyed so she retreats into angry victim mode claiming she is just trying to help
>so sick of her wanting me to be grateful for her unsolicited kindergarten tier "advice" and bullshit fakeouts to make herself look good
>collapse in bed cause I am finally at a pain management level where I can sleep
>wake up later
>want to fix a late lunch in kitchen, another activity my mother hates me to do for disturbing her space
>she comes into the kitchen to inspect what I am eating
>then tells me she wants to show me something in my bathroom
>she takes me to the bottom sink cabinet and points at a barely visible drip stain on the dark particleboard wood
>asks me if I know what the stain is, in a tone like I am a toddler who just got caught stealing from the cookie jar
>tell her the only way we can remove that is to lift the mark and then go over with matching stain, which is not hard
>repeats what I think it is in the same condescending tone
>reply with annoyance that it was clearly a hair dye stain from several months ago and that I would try my best to fix it
>"Anon why are you being so nasty to me?!"
>BECAUSE YOU ARE SCOLDING YOUR DAUGHTER WHO JUST GOT OUT OF THE HOSPITAL OVER A FUCKING PINPOINT STAIN THAT HAS BEEN ON A BATHROOM CABINET FOR MONTHS YOU FUCKING UNHINGED MENTAL PSYCHO AND IT IS NOT LOST ON ME THAT YOU ARE CONSTANTLY ON A POWER TRIP YET GET BUTTHURT WHEN YOUR ACTIONS ELICIT REACTIONS FROM ME
I would kill for a mother who acted like a normal human being.
No. 2059553
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My long distance fwb also posts on imageboards and I just found out that apparently he said anonymously that he has "never seen a vagina" when I have most certainly privately sent him pics of my pussy and even had e-sex with him with bluetooth sex toys. What the fuck??
Boy why the fuck are you lying and fishing for pity from losers who are worse off than you. He's not even a virgin and owned up to that in the thread.
This is someone that I once had feelings for, for over 2 of the 3-4 years we have known each other and he continually sabotages any reason for me to want to save up and go visit him. I've even offered it a couple of times only to get a wishy washy "ehhh, I dunnoooo…"
Everyone I have ever known has been telling me to drop him and it's getting easier lately because finally someone else is treating me better.
No. 2059608
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My dad (step-father to be specific) is the type to straight up deny and try to change reality when he realizes he's caught being retarded. He will lie about you and to your face about what you know and don't know, about what you like and don't like, and about what you did or didn't do. All because he never wants to realize that he's wrong and swears that it must be everyone else that's crazy. How did I survive growing up with him in the same household? Oh my fucking god, even to this day he's insufferable.
No. 2059640
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I'm chilling in my downstairs office area playing Baldur's Gate 3 on this blissful and quiet Saturday afternoon when I hear the letterbox bang a few times. No one knocks at the front door so I'm like ok whatever it must be the wind. The downstairs window is open and I hear "HELLOOOO?" a few seconds later so I'm like what the fuck? Oh this must be some of my clients here to drop off some work for me maybe, or maybe someone has found my cat's collar again. Okay I'll answer the door.
Some random greasy-looking scrote covered in grass is at my front door and asking me if I want my front garden cleaned up for a few quid. I'm like no thank you, I already have someone sorting that out for me (I don't, I just don't want strange men on my property) and he doesn't even understand what I'm saying. Like he doesn't understand the English I'm speaking - I live in England. So I have to tell him five times over, NO THANK YOU and then he stares at me like I've just shit on his shoes. He doesn't even say goodbye or no worries or anything like that, just wanders off with his Asda bag full of weed trimmings in a huff because I politely declined his service.
This is why I need to get one of those ring cameras so I don't have random freak moids yelling at my front door. God forbid I decline your gardening service offer you weird little cunt. Literally, get off my lawn.
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when youre trying to get over someone b/c their absence from your life makes you sad but then they show up in your dream and say all the things you want to hear like "youre still my friend, i missed you." and then you wake up and start crying because you thought the ordeal was over but that was just your mind wishful thinking
No. 2059889
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>Tfw your closest girl friend turned out to be a tranny all along
No. 2059982
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i'm too weird to befriend normie women but every weirdo woman around me is some flavor of kweer genderspecial turbohandmaiden. i was already lonely before but peaking lowered my chances even more
i remember trying to attend a twitter hangout in my city last summer but when i got added to the groupchat it was full of he/she/they/its and all they talked about was their self-diagnosed mental illnesses, gender, mbti and yaoi pairings. everyone also just assumed that the hangout will involve alcohol (it was never stated anywhere) and i turned out to be the only person who didn't want to drink
honestly i can tolerate tifs and handmaidens as long as their personality doesn't revolve around it. the problem is they wouldn't tolerate me if they knew about my views
fuck this gay earth i wish i had some nonny-vision goggles that would show me hot nonnies in my area (there are probably like 3 in my country)
No. 2059997
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I lost a folder with my favorite drawings in it while moving, I'm going to kill myself
No. 2060085
I think I have hemorrhoids on top of my stomach hurting from stress
>>2060049When I was having a difficult time (alcoholic parent +
coworker committed suicide) I signed up for the counseling at my uni. I bawled my eyes out during the introductory session when I told them everything going on. I didn't cry during any of the sessions after and honestly I got along great with my (also female) counselor because we had very similar interests. It wouldn't hurt for you to try if you'd like
No. 2060115
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I’m literally just hoping on a miracle. Anything. The universe should just open up slightly in my favor to grant me this one miracle, that’s all I’m fucking asking. I’m not asking for a million dollars or to be famous, I just want them both gone.
No. 2060137
>>2059982>i remember trying to attend a twitter hangout in my city last summerNo offense but this is the problem. Social media is fill with these types. You shouldn't try meeting up with people from social media because usually the only ones that go to those meetups are the
most terminally online and annoying of them all. I made a lot more "weirdo women" friends by signing up for clubs or classes around me that interested me. I met way more friends through art workshops, recreation clubs, and yoga classes than I ever did through social media.
If you're autistic I also recommend just biting the bullet and joining an adults with autism support group, I go to one once or twice a month and the people there are really nice and I enjoy talking to other spergs. No. 2060468
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>>2060338Unforgivable how they're weaseling into female-dominated hobbies and fandoms like yaoi, "comfy games", arts & crafts, husbandofagging, etc to prove that they're "fem-brained" and get gassed up for being e-begging attention whores, fucking handmaidens man.
I wish TiFs would ruin male hobbies and spaces to the same degree but they don't because all TiFs are boneless with extremely female interests.
No. 2060532
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I don't want to go to work tomorrow.
I just want to sit under my desk in the dark all day.
I'm not depressed or anything I just want to do nothing tomorrow.
But I need money so comfy desk day will have to wait.
My alarm is 4 hours away.
Working on Sunday should be illegal.
No. 2060717
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Being an Ana Chan is so retarded and gay. It was pitiable and sad when I was in highschool, but I’m too old for this shit now. Fuck this I’m gonna start my journey to become a muscle mommy tomorrow morning and start eating 3 meals a day
No. 2060764
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I got scammed. There was this woman with a kid who asked me to pay for baby formula and I didn't know how expensive it was so I agreed. When I saw the price I knew it was a probably some sort of scam, but I was too scared to say no outright and instead told her to only get two. I'm now down 120 dollars. I feel so stupid since I hardly ever spend money on myself yet allowed this to happen.
No. 2060822
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>>2060458Keeeeeeeek my reaction exactly. He's less than useless
No. 2060948
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I’m so lonely. Every time I make a friend at university i regret it shortly after. I befriended a group of girls but started noticing that they had a lot of tradwife-ish views. I shrugged it off at first because they’re all Muslim so some of it was expected. But it annoyed me how they centered every conversation about moids, what moids like, what moids are attracted to, what moids look for in a wife blah blah blah. The final straw was when they started saying homophobic stuff. That made me cringe so bad and I’m not even gay. I literally stopped attending lectures for an entire semester just so I could let the friendship die without outright rejecting them. Definitely never talking to muslim girls again.
Then I almost made another friend but she made me uncomfortable because she kept jokingly calling me her “wife”, joked about us getting married and made sexual remarks which made me deeply uncomfortable so I slowly ghosted her too. We are both straight mind you. I really do not understand this type of humor straight girls have nowadays where they pretend to be into each other. I used to hang out with a lesbian girl and she never made any comments like that. Why are straight girls so fucking weird nowadays
No. 2060963
I hate my boyfriend, and men in general. I hate them. They are selfish, stupid, lack empathy, and try to control everything and everyone around them. I hate how much i'm constantly being judged, criticized, and pushed to do things i don't want to do bc men always think they know what i need better than i do. You don't know me, sir. You know nothing about me because you don't fucking listen. You lack empathy and refuse to see things from a different perspective. Men think anything a woman says is negative or a complaint, but literally all they do is complain about women. I'm sick, i'm tired, and I hate them. I wish they would all just stop lying and trying to front like they want connection when they don't, they just want sex and someone who does all the things they do and listen to their bullshit. Talking all day about fishing or cars or whatever. They'll always claim that they don't care about material things, money isn't everything, but its all they talk about. They don't care about anyone's feelings, especially their own. They ignore everything genuinely important, claim its all "negative" and go on talking about stupid materialistic, superficial bullshit. I'm over it, i'm over men, bye
No. 2060974
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I'm so lonely that it feels it has become so hard to breathe
No. 2061095
>>2061086This is a dumb excuse I’m sorry
nonny, pick up a job with the bachelors you have, save up as much as you can, develop a smoking addiction like the rest of us and try to get out of that hellhole. It will never change and they will never have an epiphany that your contributions are the reason on why they haven’t died from a black mold infestation, just make a plan to leave and live your life please it doesn’t have to be tomorrow or the next month but make a plan for the tangible future to move away and please just stop making excuses your parents just don’t love you and you won’t get the apology you’re desperately craving for, respect yourself first.
No. 2061103
>>2061095I do have a vague plan to move out (finish my education and get a job?) but I am genuinely stuck in an
abusive cycle with them like a battered wife. When things get really bad I become so desperate to move out and I'm willing to do anything. Then they become normal again and I feel like I'm doing fine living with them, I don't even see what the problem was before. It's such a
toxic environment we're three people and everyone here hates each other and has no emotional connection we're like 3 roommates who really don't get along. My dad bullies my mom constantly and is so rude to her. He harasses me constantly as well. I really dislike my mom and hate spending time with her she just has disgusting and annoying habits. She resents her husband for being a retard as well as me for not being the perfect daughter she wants but she's too lazy to do anything about it. The more I think about it the more it feels hellish but if you asked me a month ago I would have told you I love living with them
No. 2061206
>>2061159I didn't get meaningful matches until I became a more powerful woman.
That sounds cheesy but it's true. When I went up in my career I got paid more so I wouldn't have to settle for underachieving and underemployed scrotes to have a roommate. When I gained that status, I caught the attention of scrotes who were better off themselves and could see my value. With age came a lot of maturing and realizing the bullshit games men play so that I could avoid or leave them quicker. Predatory men saw me as less naive.
The trick is: When you have power, you will attract scrotes who want to mooch. So be sure your self-esteem is in check too or you'll go back to your OP way of thinking that just because you
look a certain way you don't deserve someone nice. Do you think for a second that fat, ugly, disgusting scrotes with wealth and power limit themselves to other gross women? Or are they not selecting fucking models and the upper echelon themselves? Exactly. Be as entitled as moids are, you deserve it if they do.
No. 2061321
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> one tra on stantwt finds my twt where i have pics of myself
> assembles all of their side of stantwt to start sending me death and rape threats and qrt
> goddammit.jpg
idc about the insults but holy fuck they are so annoying im just waiting for it to pass over so i can go back to my normal notifs
No. 2061427
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>>2061369Someday, anon, someday…
No. 2061505
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I watched a movie with my friend that was supposedly "feminist," but it was perverse and filmed for the male gaze as usual. Are there any good movies that are satisfying in how men get their comeuppance and get beat the shit out of by women or something like that? Any truly empowering movies for women and, if possible, by women? I'm just tired, nonas. I'll probably ask the movie thread on /m/ later, but I remember it being slow and not so active.
No. 2061534
>>2061405It sounds like you're tired but also looking for stimulus to energize yourself with
- Put on music/audiobook and do chores
- Set a timer (I got an analog timer) and do pomodoros where you do either activity A or nothing. If you don't want to, just sit there and eventually your brain will decide it's so bored it would at least take a look at activity A and try something
- If there's a gym/treadmill, you can watch a movie scroll your phone while walking. Doesn't have to be brisk, it can be 3mph
No. 2061550
>>2061532We're going through one right now, good luck
nonny.
No. 2061552
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i've been doing a lot of thinking and i've decided that after i complete my bachelor's, i'm leaving france and moving to london for my master's. it's been a nice 2 years but realistically i can't see myself living in paris or any other french city in general forever, but i'm not ready atm to move back to the states. it just isn't for me anymore.
after the initial novelty and excitement of living in paris wore off, i started noticing a lot of negatives more than positives piling up and it's gotten to the point where i can't pretend any longer. to be brutally honest, i don't particularly care for french people. like they aren't terrible or anything, most of them are decent people, but their culture just isn't for me and there's a lot of little things they do that bother me. i dislike the food (it's too bland and there isn't much variety), i hate their banks, i am tired of having issues with getting packages delivered to my apartment, i'm just tired and bored in general. even with my university, it's fine but it's not challenging. my degree is very easy and i'm breezing through classes getting a's and b's without even trying. it's just a glorified party school for rich kids.
i've done the usual stuff like going to museums and trying new restaurants, shopping and traveling around and after a while it gets boring because the country itself is not really that dynamic. people dress the same, think the same, everyone seems to have the same politically correct opinions and is content with the mediocrity of it all so long as they're guaranteed a pension. of course if you're american then people give you a hard time, talk about you behind your back, look down on you, or refuse to fully accept you unless you're shit talking your country to make them feel better about their own country's issues. since i don't have a personal vendetta against my country, i'm not interested in playing those games or pandering to people's insecurities. it's hard to have a conversation with your average french person since they always seem to want to segue into ranting about our politcs (which they don't understand) while also getting mad at you for having an opinion on their's, even if you know what you're talking about.
i know someone french is going to get offended and i don't mean to upset anyone honestly. i tried to make france and paris work for me, and for a while i couldn't really put my finger on why i didn't feel as happy as i did when i first moved there. it wasn't until recently, being back home, that i started putting things together. i'm glad i got to experience it but i would like to live somewhere more vibrant and less culturally stuffy and i do genuinely miss london a lot. it has it's own issues but i know lifestyle wise, culturally, politically, even economically it fits better with me. i just hope i am doing the right thing, but only god knows that.
No. 2061568
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>>2061552Nothing wrong with changing places nona. If it doesn't agree with you then it's ok to leave. You've been in Europe long enough now that I'm sure you know that it not all Downtown Abby and more like picrel here. The romanticised version of England projected abroad is very much not the reality.
Also I'm not sure about the laws but with Brexit your visa to France might not transfer to the UK. I would recommend looking into that if you haven't already.
I've bopped around a bit of Europe. If you're looking for warmer people head south. If your looking for interesting things head to Amsterdam or Berlin.
No. 2061577
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All these stupid issues with my teeth are fucking me up. I had underlying tooth decay that I didn't feel or see, but I was dumb enough to agree to get a filling anyway. Now, just a few weeks later, that same one hurts whenever I chew something. I don't fucking get it, I feel like my problems all started once I went to the dentist. Literally nothing hurt in the decade I stopped going, then I remembered to get a check up one day and now it's one thing after another. After that first one my teeth were suddenly super sensitive and I had to start buying special toothpaste just to eat normally again. Two needed fillings. One needed a root canal treatment later on, now it needs to get filed down for a veneer because of the insane color change it went trough. Now this. I can't even chew normally now, I can only use one half of my mouth. I just want to cry
No. 2061608
>>2061577I have a vendetta against my piece of shit ex dentist too. I always took great care of my teeth and understood a lot because my grandma was a dental hygienist.
Anyways, let some shitty strip mall dental office near my ex house spook me into getting a crown on a molar (admittedly the tooth was worn down from stress, but normal). A crown is a process where they grind down your natural tooth and then cement a fake one over the stub. In any event, they made me feel like if I did not get this crown then my tooth would be subject to breakage or decay–in hindsight, complete BULLSHIT. Well, what the bitch didn't tell me was that after grinding down my perfectly fine tooth, was that there would not be enough surface left to have a normal retention of the crown.
Now, my """permanent""" crown constantly falls out of my mouth! I either have to pay $100 every 2-3 months to go get it recemented when it inevitably falls out, or alternatively, spend $$$$ to go to a specialist for "tooth elongating" where they cut up your gums and fuck with your jaw bone to expose more tooth. Then, I would have to get the crown redone $$$$ and hope that does the trick when they go to re-glue it again.
And that ground down stub? Completely fine, for the most part, even though there is no protective cap on it. Which is how I know these fuckers fleeced me, but they made me sign away my firstborn as a waiver so I cannot even sue if I could.
I'd find the curry scamming bitch who did this to me and firebomb her Tesla. Modern dentistry is a lot of scamming and messing with peoples' perfectly healthy mouths for a buck.
No. 2061613
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My only irl friend who I’ve known for years just told me he loved me after I tried talking and opening up to him about my emotions and how hopeless and suicidal I’ve been. I don’t know why I feel so gross, I really want to think that it was a platonic “I love you” but I don’t think so, and I’m not attracted to him. Now I feel like it’s just gonna be really awkward if we ever hang out again. You really can’t be friends with moids, I’m so sad.
No. 2061616
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I've been cooking alot lately as a way to stave off boredom, kick my urge to live off of Uber Eats/Door Dash, and distract me from my crippling loneliness. I never really liked cooking and still just see it as a PITA chore but I have been having quite a few successes recently..and I do like eating good food.
No. 2061618
>>2061568thanks for being understanding nona. thankfully i've lived off and on in london over the years with my family so i don't mind the grittiness of it. i just miss the vibe and the last time i was there it felt more alive than paris in comparison which left me feeling really conflicted. idk what it is about paris but living in france just became very dull for me after a while. but you are right: my visa won't transfer over with brexit since it's only for the schengen area, so i've already started looking into the paperwork, where i need to go, what i have to do to get into britain since the process is a little bit different than france and the rules for how long i can remain are a lot more flexible than europe. i've also started looking at different universities and getting a feel for how things are, looking at different flats, what area i would like to live in, that sort of thing. it's bittersweet in a lot of ways because i worked so hard to move to france, did so much to get to paris and really thought i was going to get into the fashion industry, find my bliss and be at peace. but that didn't happen, so it's back to the drawing board. i'm excited for the change though, i need it.
No. 2061623
>>2061607I'm so sorry to hear. It's such a total rip-off. How are we living in the 21th century and still dealing with fillings or crowns falling out
>>2061608Oh my god, that's actually fucked up. Can you really not do anything about it legally? Is that not malpractice? But my situation was similar because she told me the decay was inside and would "soon" hit the surface so it would be best to drill it open immediately and get it over with but from what I'm reading it might need a total redo if not a root canal treatment now. Her assistant also talked me into getting the more premium type of filling that's not fully covered by insurance because the regular ones apparently tend to crumble or fall out. I'm definitely never going to a dentist again once this shit is over. Imagine going to a normal doctor and they tell you they need to drill a hole into your femur just cuz
No. 2061625
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I've been feeling like shit all weekend. No reason. Things are going great and despite all that I just feel like shit. I don't mind, being down is a part of life. I wish there was some rhyme or reason to my moods.
No. 2061779
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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH
I'M ON MY FUCKING PERIOD AND IT FUCKING HURTS EVEN THOUGH I'VE TAKEN OVER 1000+ MG OF IBUPROFEN AND I'M THE ONLY ONE WORKING TONIGHT AND THE SAME MOTHERFUCKING PEOPLE KEEP CALLING AND ASKING STUPID SHIT, AND THREE ELDERLY PEOPLE CALLED IN A ROW AND I COULDN'T UNDERSTAND WHAT THEY WERE SAYING BECAUSE THEY WON'T PUT THEIR FUCKING TEETH IN, AND I AM -300 IN MY ACCOUNT AND I DON'T GET PAID UNTIL THIS FRIDAY FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK
No. 2061863
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I hated my birthday. I hate most of my family members, yet because it's my birthday, all the insufferable retards jump up about to say and do the absolute most that I never asked for. The only good thing about my birthday was me posting about it in the Birthday Thread and one anon telling me Happy Birthday. That alone was the actual highlight of my day. So you know what? Thank you, nonnie.
No. 2061871
I made vegetable soup because I don't feel like eating. It's the go to food I make when I get in my stupid depressed mood. I pack a lot of veggies in it and after I ladle some up, I put nutritional yeast on top. I hate that I do this to myself. I don't really realize until I start getting headaches. At least I got food for tomorrow.
>>2061769Holy shit. I hope you have a speedy recovery. ♥
No. 2061960
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I keep having the thought pop up that im still single/unmarried maybe because Im actually hideous in some way. If I was really pretty or had a great personality, i would have been partnered by now. I can get dates if i want one, but i think my personality kills most interactions I have with people. My brain sort of shuts off after spending time with someone for a super long time and I probably come off as uninteresting. I wish I was a bit more normie so a normal life path could be available to me. I could then get married to some below average male just to achieve that goal and not feel so left out at social gatherings while other girls talk about their ever widening, balding husbands. Maybe then I'd at least be happy feeling normal.
No. 2061992
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I know you can't save someone from themselves and all that, but I'm venting/looking for advice on what to do about a friend in her late 20s with no hobbies. Her life is so empty her only joy is consoom-shopping and desperately browsing dating apps to find someone to fill the void inside her. As a friend it's sad (and a bit annoying) to see her waste her life like this.
I try to encourage her to do things but she always just says she's tired and her brain is too mushy to focus on anything "right now" (it's been years). I try to tell her you get what you put in, you need to do things to build stamina to do more things and doing nothing will only make her brain feel even more mushy.
The most annoying thing is she's a yes-man and she always agrees when I give advice (she asks, I never tell her unprompted) but then she always ignores it all.
She also nearly always want me (or someone else, whoever is around) to make all her decisions for her. If it resulted in her doing ANYTHING I'd be fine with it for now, I'd happily drag her out myself to do something to get her started. But of course something always comes up so nothing gets done. I've genuinely tried to make plans for her (again, when she asks) and trying my best to make her actually make the decisions for herself so she feels in control and like she's committed to them. For example she wanted to get more healthy so I suggested fully quitting some of her sugar-addictions for a period of a month to see how she feels (while keeping others so it's gradual). She started asking/bargaining like "Yes, that's great I'm gonna do that and fully quit eating my daily popsicles! …but can I eat it on Fridays and weekends? What if someone else bought it for me, am I allowed to eat it then?"
Girl what part of "fully quit" do you not get, and also idgf what you eat you don't need my permission, the fuck are you asking me for?
No. 2062020
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How do you deal with a Narcissistic parent when they are bein unbearable? If I share anyghing positive with my mom, she will give me condescending remarks that ruins my happiness and if I want to share something negative, I will get the 'how dare you be tired when I'm old and been up and running around since 5am??!' response. I'm also treated like I'm a child and I'm naturally always wrong and she's always right
No. 2062022
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I've lost my daughter 4 month ago, I've been resting and trying to build myself up again since then. I've started looking for a job three weeks ago, the process is more excruciating than ever, interviews are exhausting me, I can't just be normal, I can't focus, I simply don't care about their stupid questions, I don't want to explain why I've been jobless for the last six months, It's making me lose my mind. I know I'm a good employee why do I have to pretend I love life and love their stupid corporating just so I can work.
No. 2062074
>>2062027>someone that passive doesn't need someone telling them what to do like you are, it's unfortunate that you mean to help but it's not helping.She keeps asking and I don't know how to say no. It feels like if I do she'll take it as me having given up on her meaning she is also allowed to give up.
>what interests did she have growing up or like? you can't save every woman, maybe pull back and stop giving as much advice.I really try to keep it brief nowadays, but like I said I feel like I have to actually give SOME kind of answer when she asks you know? She was a weeb so anime, manga and the sorts. Imo she should try being a creator of something as a hobby because she's just so passive in everything she does.
>>2062032>Anon, you're not gonna like this, but you cannot save her, she can only save herself.I know, I've literally told her this and it's why I TRY to keep her motivated to do things on her own when she seems genuinely interested in making a change. How else am I supposed to support her as a friend in the meantime?
No. 2062143
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When we were younger and had moved out I was so amazed by how much more well-adapted and independent my best friend was. She seemed to have a lot of things under control and so incredibly intelligent, I even envied that she had the balls to move to a completely different town.
A year or so ago she decided she might have adhd (no actual diagnosis yet), and she's been on a steady decline since. Whenever she visits now she is messy, she doesn't help out with putting things away nor out, when I ask her for help I have to practically guide her step-by-step because she can't think for herself suddenly, when she cut up the watermelon she talked me into getting for us I had to ask her to do it several times and she fucking used the knife I had used to cut onions and garlic with previously which ended with her refusing to eat it because it tasted too much like onions (I couldn't taste it, but she can be a bit picky). And she blames all of it on her adhd. This is such a change from how she used to be so meticulous before.
I won't deny the possibility of her having said diagnosis, it does line up fairly perfectly with some of her habits and she might simply be relaxing her expectations of herself since she figured it out, but it's still a lot to handle for me some of the days when she's visiting because it feels like I'm dealing with a child.
No. 2062172
>>2062143Sometimes mental illness gets worse with age if left untreated.
Could be psychosomatic, but maybe not. That really sucks for her.
No. 2062192
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seeing this is enough to give me another eating disorder. let me escape my hairy pcos flesh meat i can’t take it anymore i was set up for failure
No. 2062225
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>when you wanna post something in the bachdel test thread but there's a blank face diagram drawing moid that appears for 5 seconds in an otherwise all women video
No. 2062321
>>2062311Maybe, I haven't had them taken out.
>>2062314Do you think one of those sprays for sore throats would help? Or would it just treat the symptom?
No. 2062325
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I'm in my late 20s and I feel so cheated by having grown up chubby and "adult" sized even as a teen. I hit puberty at age 12 as a chubby kid and never even got to be a cute skinny/small teen. I just looked like I had an adult body right away. I don't get how other girls get to be petite, slender and pretty until their late teens and early 20s even and age slowly into maturity when I had to look like a dumpy mother of 6 when I was still a child myself. It makes me feel gross to even be upset about it, but even now I can't let it go. Women around me are still slender and pretty and I look so wide and dumpy even when I lose weight, because of how I'm built. I feel like I'm a different species than them.
I could never even really tell anyone how ugly and fat it made me feel because all I get back is "don't compare yourself to edited images and filters, they're not even real" when in reality I didn't look at those at all, I looked at the other girls and now women around me and they aren't edited so it only made me feel worse.
No. 2062333
>>2062295might not help, but my mother is nice and would never hurt me but the only time i remember (attempting to) crying in her arms as a kid she just sort of patted my back awkwardly and it made me feel worse, i also cannot imagine ever crying in her arms ever again, the thought of it is weird and awkward and freaks me out.
i think because of it to this day i have no idea how to comfort someone else. i now also just kinda sit there like "well this is awkward, why would you embarrass yourself by crying in front of people (me)" though I would never say it out loud
No. 2062525
>>2062395Gonna sound old but 'stranger bothering' as a form of teenage entertainment has long existed, only it used to be way more of a boring/rough area thing where good samaritans would cry "someone please think of the youth and build them a youth center for crying out loud" in reaction to it. Like pre internet in your pocket days that was always the argument, whether to feel bad for the kids with nothing else to do.
It's kinda ironic that in the years since, the internet is more of a thing, in your pocket, in your house, whole world of shit to watch and do at your fingertips. What're teens drawn to.. public harrassment vids. Prank vids. Karen vids. Public freakout vids. Filming strangers for being a lil bit odd looking in public. Lowest forms of entertainment. People really used to think toys and tech and more entertainment options would stop it.. no it popularized it amongst kids who arent even stuck n bored in shithole areas
No. 2062543
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>>2062395they need to get their ass beat like in the caveman times. no "wah I'm a minor DNI" as they throw shit at you… they just get a big ass animal femur whacked on the head. teenage boys especially. You don't see a teenage gorilla acting up without getting a silverback charging them breathing down their face and making them avert their gaze. I could be that silverback but the laws of this land are an obstacle to me yet again.