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No. 1957353
don’t reply to bait
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>>>/ot/1944468 No. 1957443
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I hate my brain for showing me dreams that obviously are annoying and show me people long gone from my life. If I could turn back I could had been more pleasant and nice and social and caring instead of absolutely oblivious, selfish, autistic, maybe borderline, paranoid, and not appreciating people as they come. I fucked up by thinking new people would always come and guess what, after 25 you don't get many new contacts / friend opportunities do you. What a fucking shame. I could had done better.
No. 1957472
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>be me
>assigned a group project with 3 random men. okay whatever
>1 of the men is interested in me
>ignore him, i’m not huge on dating anyways
>continues to make advances on me when i’m clearly not interested
>okay whatever. i’ll just keep being uninterested til he leaves me alone
>still doesn’t leave me alone
>all of us, including me meet up to work on our project
>see him and his friends giggling, ignore it
>dude whose been basically harassing me asks me out
>”oh no sorry. i’m not interested”
>he IMMEDIATELY gets pissed at me going on a rant how “all females are the same blah blah moid shit”’
>im the only female in the group so his friends back him up
>just imagine them saying the most misogynistic shit imaginable
>”if you weren’t interested why would you lead me on”
>mfw i’ve completely ignored this guys advances and he tells me that i lead him all
are guys just fucking retarded?? i’m so pissed now cause this guy is now going around to all his friends talking about how awful i am and how i “lead him on” can dudes just not fucking read body language or tone?? this whole thing has put me in a terrible mood someone sedate me
No. 1957487
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My uppity, annoying, gym-bro, podcast-watching, ""influencer"" scrote neighbor decided to watch the eclipse with a pinhole projector, but he insisted on looking at the sun directly through the pinhole instead of the proper way, looking at the sun's reflection on the box. Everyone told him not to do that but he insisted that he knows what he's doing.
I know I should not be laughing, but I can't help but feel a sense of schadenfreude. I hope he goes blind, steroids really do rot the brain. Then he'll really learn about "taking accountability".
No. 1957492
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I came randomly across a compilation of guitar songs from the old s.t.a.l.k.e.r games and remembered how my dad used to play the games. I'd watch him play a lot and every time he'd come across a campfire or any of the npcs playing guitar he'd give me one of his buds or take the headphone jack out of the speaker so I could listen too. Fucking shit I miss him so much. It's been almost 4 years and it's not getting easier. I'll have to go redo my skincare because I've been crying so much for the last 30 minutes.
No. 1957541
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I'm slightly underweight but have the same body shape as overweight women I want to kms. I know for a fact it's not body dysmorphia because other people have pointed it out and most anons consider it fat too. I unironically wish I took puberty blocking hormones. It's not attractive, it's inelegant, goofy, matronly, horse-like, comical, disproportionate and gross.
It doesn't matter if one anon reading this likes it, I know the majority of you don't. It doesn't matter if moids like it because they will fuck a chicken sandwich if it's warm enough (the ones specifically into that look are mega coomers and rappers/wannabe rappers anyway, no proper sophisticated man is into that shit). I do not like it, and that's what matters. 85 pounds is the lowest I can get without feeling ill and the fat still won't disappear.
No. 1957546
>>1957519Not Jewish, but thanks nona
>>1957534Not exactly, but you're close enough, they're similar and horrible too. Gives me secondhand embarassment. I feel like I committed a sin in a past life and now I'm cursed to be one of them. They all hate me too because I don't give in to their debauchery and want nothing to do with them. Kind of like when you leave a cult and they all act like you're the crazy one kek
No. 1957558
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>>1957541I feel this so hard. As someone with a "pear-shaped" body I feel exactly like that Squidward pic. I also hate it when people say
>But MEN LOOOVE BIG, BIG ASSES AND HUGE HIPS AND THICK THICK THIGHSDude, I don't WANT them staring at my ass or "thicc thighs", I feel stumpy and gross and like you said, like a big horse with this big ass out. I feel like I look like the fat hippo ballerinas from Fantasia when I wear ballet flats. I feel uncomfortable wearing leggings or tight workout clothes in public because it "puts it all out on display" and I don't fucking WANT them thinking gross things about my ass, and it's hard to cover it up. I wish I were a skinny rectangle or at least had big boobs and no ass.
No. 1957567
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there's no hope for me or my mental health nonnies
No. 1957611
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>>1957590I know what you mean. sometimes it hurts to be one of the few women in an online space, aching for other female friends but none of the other women are interested. moid friendship is so fucking low value and shallow I hate it. but it's also so rare to find another woman online who doesn't completely blow me off unless the males are involved, or act really catty like you said. or maybe they're worried I'm competing with them for the affection from moids but I DONT WANT THEM
No. 1957648
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>>1957558GodIlove being naturally skinny, petite, smaller skeletal structure. I feel so sorry for you
(baiting) No. 1957695
>>1957418What was the lie? I’m curious lol.
I work with kids and them lying to get out of doing something is my least favorite thing
No. 1957718
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>tfw wearing a headband with thin bulimia hair
No. 1957742
>>1957718This is beautiful anon, true art
>>1957732You should tell him what you’re feeling, and ask him why he’s pulling away. Honestly, usually not a great sign. Good luck though
No. 1957750
>>1957709Don't know if this helps, but most people are ugly or at least average so why not embrace the fashions you enjoy? Tbh I embrace the fact that I think I'm ugly and more or less try to avoid looking at my face and just enjoy the outfits I'm putting together. It's a lot less stressful to not think about if something looks cute on you and just look if an outfit is objectively cute. And after a point in age, society will ignore you and consider you "too old to be attractive" anyways so might as well push to live like a no care spinster early imo. You get more years of fun and shamelessness.
Dysphoria obviously is its own beast and I really hope you're able to overcome it and/or society moves away from the affirmation model and so resources actually helping dysphoric people come around. I hope you can at least start being happy wearing the clothes you personally love rather than what you think suits your unloved body soon at least. I'm rooting for you nonita
No. 1957759
>>1957732Just casually talk to him about something. Ask what he's been up to in his hobbies or with his friends.
Are you guys young? If this is his first serious relationship it's not surprising. Moids cannot handle the social commitments when they've been single for a long time. They get used to just gaming and their moid friends often want to pry him back
No. 1957792
>>1957709Don’t give up anon. Remember how when PT wore that one classical lolita outfit with nice makeup provided by her friend everyone agreed she looked really nice?
I have friends IRL who have body types that are wide with big rib cages and whatever and they’ve found their personal style that is still beautiful and feminine and dainty and shows their true personality.
My advice is keep shopping and trying on things and working with makeup until you see what works for you. It might be difficult at first but you deserve to find clothes that express who you are.
No. 1957805
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>>1957688I KNOW she posts on LC I fucking know it
No. 1957901
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I feel like I'm being actively cursed. D on an exam I thought I did well on, humiliate myself publicly, way overloaded on schoolwork all already had me ready to snap but now I have FUCKING bed bugs and I have no damn clue where they even came from. All these horror stories and conflicting information online (seriously people having them for YEARS, exterminators costing thousands and still not working, living in electronics and walls and in any crack you can slide a credit card in) are triggering my OCD. And I'm not joking or exaggerating, it's actual diagnosed OCD. Every obsessive thought and compulsion I've ever coped with has returned in every horrible way possible. I've become incredibly hateful and self hateful. I'm falling behind on schoolwork no matter how hard I try to catch up, I can't stop inspecting my skin or reading stories on the internet or worse comes to worst, just sitting there thinking about where they could be and how many of them there are. (If anyone's wondering, I've found one adult (unfed, crawling on the bed, immediately flushed) and one baby (literally in the midst of biting my ankle, smushed and kept in a sealed ziploc in a sealed jar just in case)). My parents decided to do DIY heat treating which killed all my plants in my room because I was too retarded to think wow maybe that would kill my plants. But reading on the internet apparently this can cause them to escape into your walls and then haunt your house for months or years on end. I've already started throwing furniture and items away, but the house has so much clutter and 90% of it isn't mine, and my parents want to do stupid ass methods like fogging which 100% do not work the fuckers are immune to most shit on the market (including what my parents have bought) and it will just make them hide and be more difficult to kill. What's unfortunate is that people say you just have to spray and let them bite you so they walk over the spray but the idea of letting them bite me makes me want to die. I've been getting 3-4 hours sleep every night, this was the first night I've been able to get any sleep because I got a set of clothes in the dryer for 90min on the highest heat settings to sleep in and stayed in a different room. And I still stayed up until about 4 in the morning, and woke up repeatedly in a panic. I'm beginning to get bitter about the fact that my boyfriend doesn't seem to get bit at all. Sure, it's not his fault obv and it's most likely that he is/was bit but just had zero reaction, but I've been bit at least 5-7 times at this point and I always have a huge reaction. I'm at my breaking point I'm contemplating killing myself every night over this. I literally can't focus for 10 minutes to do anything I just want things to go back to the way they were
No. 1958058
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it took me 2 hours to get on my hands and knees and manually scrub the accumulation of basically two decades worth of grime off my kitchen floors because its the only thing that seems to get into the stupid little bumps or whatever they're called. i only managed to fully clean FOUR.
i hate living here again it's so fucking rank.
No. 1958165
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ive missed so many classes because of my insanely fucked sleep schedule and insomnia i hope i can still pass them
No. 1958389
>>1958363its ok
nonnie I was just teasing and I find myself in the same boat. it feels like an eternal wave of newfags who literally do not know how to act on the internet are suddenly in all my niche spaces.
I blame covid making everyone terminally online and making anime/other "nerdy" hobbies mainstream No. 1958393
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they censored curious george’s dad…
No. 1958462
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I'm in a very low mood. I'm eating less than I have been which isn't much. I'm making a vegetable soup. Made myself cut up the vegetables ahead of time because I put them in the soup in different time increments. I fucked up by adding some before I usually do. It's not going to fuck up the taste but those vegetables may be so soft they fall apart into tiny pieces. I'm annoyed at myself for letting it happen. Just waiting to put the rest in the instant pot. At least my cat is being cuddly and laying on my chest purring.
No. 1958544
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I'm this close to cutting my fucking feet off if my fucking tendons don't fucking heal already. It is my God-given right to walk through the woods like an aimless idiot and my body apparently doesn't agree with that notion. Rude lazy fuckass better fucking get with the fucking program and repair its fucking cells or I'm gonna go apeshit. I've half-rested for three days now and that's more than plenty. I'm annoyingly sensitive to this kind of thing because I was bed bound for a few years in my early 20s, but fuck me I miss exercise so much I could fucking cry.
No. 1958741
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I'm so stressed I'm on the verge of throwing up
No. 1958776
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Genuinely feel like I’m half tweaking and half convinced that my moid is lying to me.
No. 1958778
why am i a weirdo magnet. it's getting worse lately when literally all i do is stay inside my room in my house. like even when i have never met these people, just know them in passing through friends or something, i become some object of fascination for them and they won't leave me alone - they want all my socials, my phone number, they want to text me all day. for some reason, these people think that im available at all hours for them to dump their emotional problems on, say openly weird shit to me like they stalked me for a long time before they actually talked to me or that i'm an answer to all their prayers, when they don't even know me AT ALL. like never even seen me in person. why do people think it's okay to speak to someone like this when we've spoken so little and know so little about each other? it's gotten to the point where i just don't want to interact with any new people, even online, because no matter what they end up messaging me constantly being weird to me, oversharing like i'm their therapist. i hate that it makes me feel mean for ghosting these people, and that i am afraid to make myself noticeable at all because of how people treat me, but i can't take the discomfort anymore.
No. 1958781
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Isn't it just so fun how something that took years to be built can be destroyed in barely a month? I suffer from severe social anxiety and avoidant personality disorder since i was 8, and it took me years to finally feel comfortable talking to this boy i like and feel like i was worth of his attention and friendship. Feeling like i finally could message him first without feeling dread and anxiety over him finding me annoying, only talking to me because he was being polite or being too nice to straight out tell me to fuck off. I finally felt he could actually enjoy having someone like me in his life, even though he always told me that directly, he would always tell me how much he enjoyed talking to me, how much he liked me, how i was the best thing that happened to him, how much he cared about me, how i was special to him and would encourage me to talk to him. Even with him telling me all that it was hard to get comfortable because of apd, but he never gave up on talking to me and being there for me even when i could barely type one message to him without shaking and sweating from anxiety overload.
After i was finally able to get out We clicked so well after i was able to get out of my shell, then fast forward to 5 years after that, we got into a rocky path that was caused by me that really hurt him. After i got done with all the giant shitstorm i had going on my personal life, i got back in contact with him after not talking to him in a year, decided to gain his trust and friendship back.
Things were actually going okay, he was showing more affection towards me and opening up bit by bit, but then, he suddenly started to be really cold to me and ignore me 80% of the time i tried talking to him last month, and just like that all the soothing feeling i had when talking to him disappeared, all those years it took to get over my anxiety, get closer to him and being myself went out the window since now i feel exactly like i used to when we were starting to talk.
I wanted to show him a meme of a show he recommended me to watch and i just can't, i'm filled to the brim with dread to message him because i know how he will treat me, and it's the way i always were scared he would do. I really want to talk to him, but, once again, it's just so hurtful.
No. 1958784
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nonnas is it normal to get called boy all the time? i went to the hospital today and no joke a nurse called me boy like 6 times. i wear no makeup and i have short hair and wear oversizec clothes but i still don't understand how anyone can call me a boy, like you look at my face and can tall im a woman how can you be such a faceblind autist?? pic unrelated
No. 1958828
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i feel so ugly and disgusting like a genuine rotting, nasty, lanky skinny fat creature from under a bridge. it matters less if im ugly if all i do is stay home but my mom wanted me to come to dinner with her and i literally couldn't. total autistic breakdown sobbing because the idea of people looking at my ugly face and my disgusting body and shit posture made me so anxious. i feel so pathetic. total fucking garbage loser NEET that cant go to GOLDEN CORRAL without losing her shit. sometimes i feel ok about myself and sometimes i freak the fuck out and want to rip my skin off. i think i have "rounded shoulders" because ive been slouching since i was 10 years old because i have a weirdly long neck. i look like a ugly shrimp with a leafy tier side profile. gonna make instant mashed potatoes for dinner and watch carol at the end of the world.
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My beautiful cat just died. She was 20 years old, and died happy. But my heart is broken. I'll miss her so much
No. 1958887
If I could redo my life I'd be celibate. I am not unhappy in my current serious relationship, I am in love and our sex life is great, but looking back at my life I see I spent so much energy and time investing in people and relationships that don't really matter. I wish I had learnt from a young age that nobody NEEDS to marry, nobody NEEDS to date, and that nobody NEEDS to have sex. Imagine a world where sex isn't put on a pedestal or where nobody thinks your decision to stay single means something is wrong with you. All these things are optional and frankly very overrated or at least romanticised. Not only that, but people seem so much colder and cynical nowadays. It's harder than ever to trust people. Nearly everyone is pornsick. If I was in my late teens or early 20's I wouldn't want to date any of these people. Why bother? There's so much more to life. I wish we weren't programmed by society and media to believe our value comes from how others see you, or how they want to date or fuck you. It's so stupid. If I hadn't been pushed to desire these things so much I'd probably have taken longer to start going after them, saving myself from years of stress and stupidity. I still remember being a tween and feeling pressured to find a bf because every teen movie I saw had to have an idiotic romantic relationship or sex, and in the end the princess NEEDS to marry.
>>1958869I am so sorry, I am sure she knew she was really loved
No. 1958982
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I want Europeans to die tbh
No. 1958995
>>1958784The nurse/s was doing it to virtue signal how woke she is, and that she sees the short haired female is truly actually a boy, she is being SO inclusive of your troon feelings! She probably went home to brag to her other woke friends an enby non-daughter demi-boy child how woke mommy was at work today!
There's no reason why a nurse would call you a boy(or girl) over and over in a normal conversation. She was clearly doing it on purpose.
No. 1959014
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the feeling of abruptly hating my job/internship feels like ass.
today sucked. we aren't getting any or enough clients for most of our programs. i feel extremely unfulfilled with what i'm doing but i have to stay because it's flexible with my upcoming fucked university timetable.
i spent like 3 hours doing nothing today. the women i work with are in their 40s and treat me like i'm retarded because i'm autistic and 25.
they don't know how to interact with me and treat me like i'm a child/their daughter but not in an endearing way.
don't get me wrong, i'm completely capable of acting like a normie and the clients love me, i still feel mostly unwelcome and not part of the team. it's been 6 months.
i'm capable and competent at my shit. they literally wanted to keep me after my internship for my course ended because i did so well, and now it feels like they don't really want me around. I barely do any client facing interaction now and that was really helping me gain confidence and now there's fuck all to do.
i can't wait to go back to uni and do less shit there and more study because it feels more fulfilling.
i just feel like a failure who's too dumb to be employed even though i've made huge strides by getting back out there and improving my confidence tenfold but i don't know what the fuck they want from me at this point. i was doing so good and now it's just plateaued.
No. 1959022
>>1958948I was gonna vent about this and by miracle found your post. A lot of friends are encouraging me to move to Japan. I had to move out of my country, and since i know english, I now live in a largely anglo country of which i am not native to and the political climate is horrifying. I know Japanese as a foreign language, but I don’t want to move to japan either. I think it’s becoming a weeb tranny haven. I’m in uh… some sort of chat where this one american mtf almost doesn’t see himself as a woman, but a “woman”. Let me explain; all his women friends are… “women.” All his girlfriend experiences are either gay men or also “women”. His brain is tech and mechanics rotted, sees everything like replacing a malfunctioning car part or creating magic by typing code, so obviously you can see where these ideas that you can literally change your sex are coming from. Oh, also overdosing by hoarding extra estrogen from pharmaceutical connections. (Really… does this not have health consequences?) He is also the most condescending piece of garbage around. Not that it matters but it’s a big reason i hate this guy and this chatroom.
His “women” friends are like, encouraging him to move to japan too because I guess japan is back on their whole “oh yes- bring me more white american men”. And his dream woman is a petite anime dom or whatever.
A female friend tells me that the misogyny in japan is overblown, and really you don’t need to be a white zoomer male, but- i see the kodansha and goldfinger situation and it makes me realize that white men are colonizing japan again and it’s hopeless to stop it. I don’t know what to do. Even if i don’t move, just the world sucks in general and im tired of the trans shit tbh. Anyone is honestly welcome to reply- also I completely believe you, that canada person must be super sheltered.
No. 1959151
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i hate my thin lips, they make me feel so insecure and ugly because overlining, plumping products, and lip fillers are shilled so hard. but i don’t want to cave into the pressure to change them.
No. 1959208
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My nigel isn't interested in fucking anymore it seems. Yesterday after refusing my advances again, ( he told me he was feeling sick so I was trying to convince him to let me fuck him to make him feel better idk) he litterally told me he was looking up to a fucking seafood lunch he's going to have this weekend. He was really excited about this fucking lunch and saw nothing strange in telling me about it like that in that timing. He really is more excited about e?ating a fucking lunch than having sex with me. The fuck is wrong with him? The fuck is wrong with me?
No. 1959229
>>1959215>>1959214>>1959212>>1959209Ty nonnies, you are probably right.
>>1959221I thought he didn't consume pornography but, alas, I'm probably delusional.
No. 1959298
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I love bows on everything but I’m so sick of the “iN mY cOqUeTtE eRa” for some reason it reminds me of ddlg shit(integrate)
No. 1959316
>>1959301My own stupidity and a
toxic moid (dumped him) who baleeted all the social media i had with her added. Now we lost contact and I'm mentally lost
No. 1959324
>>1959321There's no reason not to pirate.
>>1959322I'm going to try to find a link now. I havent torrented in a few years.
No. 1959392
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I've been writing a novel for a few months and my prose is such dogshit that it reads like YA even though the leads are in their late 20s and it deals with heavy topics.
I'm really good at creating three dimensional characters and developing their relationships (which is good since the novel I'm writing is a romance kek) but it's absolutely impossible for me to write beautiful similes and metaphors. Whenever I read good books it blows my mind how people can come up with such creative ways to describe things.
No. 1959414
>>1959396Yeah, I've been trying to add more personality to the main character's narration rather than adding some shitty fake deep metaphors etc now that I'm editing the first draft. I still wish I had more of a natural talent for that type of thing, though. It doesn't help that I love poetry, so I'm kinda salty how awful I am at it despite having read tons of poems.
I guess I'll look up some writing exercises to get over this weakness at least somewhat.
No. 1959447
>>1957353I hate my fucking job so much. The particular class I work for is the fucking worse. They cannot do anything normally. Just having these little assholes sit down and watch tv or play with toys is ridiculously difficult.
Barely $150 a day to get hit, groped, and clean shit, its not worth it. They gave me the most difficult kid and now he's starting to attack me and they haven't found a one-to-one for him. I may just quit before the semester ends because they're just taking advantage of me at this point.
No. 1959464
>>1959208Gonna cape for the moid for a second and suggest he might honestly be like that. Sounds like something I'd do, sex isn't very interesting but I would fucking love a seafood dinner.
It's rare but some guys aren't super sexual. I mean the chances are usually in favor of porn addiction, especially if this is a new phenomenon, but if he's always been like that he might just be low libedo.
No. 1959531
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I really fucked up and I don’t know what to do. A while ago I made snarky posts about this ED recovery influencer because she was posting triggering stuff. She saw it and got upset. Flash forward a couple months later and she made a post saying she’s flying out to Switzerland to get palliative care. I DM’ed her to say that I’m sorry and I hope she beats her ED but she didn’t respond. I know this is Lolcow but I still feel awful
No. 1959538
>>1959531Aw you’re a sweet person anon. It sounds apparent that people’s kind
and mean words didn’t change the course of her illness.
No. 1959552
>>1957695I teach her English, and I give her tests as homework sometimes, she likes them (and everything digital/interactive). Previously I used a website for making tests where I couldn't see results, and she just texted me hers. Surely it was suspicious when it was perfect a couple or few times in a row but the tests weren't really that hard and I had no evidence anyway. I also thought she could've retaken them and get the perfect result because she's kind of obsessed with it.
But then I found this site where I can see clearly all the answers and attempts from different IPs, and I caught her lying about the results. I only half-seriously scolded her for terrorizing me and demanding this test that she didn't even bother taking properly, and explained she didn't have to lie because it doesn't benefit anyone, and she can just ask me for help if she finds something hard to do on her own. She apologized and retook the test.
I didn't expect that she, knowing that I can see results now, would lie next time as well. At first she gave me a "plausible" result but I could see she didn't take the test at all. She tried to deny it and I saw her making several attempts, then she said she got a perfect result. I could clearly see it wasn't true, she gave a total of three correct answers in a couple of separate attempts but otherwise it was just chaos (she had to match certain things to show she got the meaning of sentences right, put words into the correct order, and type in verbs in the correct form). Next day, we had a lesson and I asked her once again - so you're saying 9/9, right? UH-HUH! Ok, let's see - I showed her all of her attempts while commenting on meaningless responses and she tried to justify it with her desire to do it as fast as she could so she would be able to do other stuff. I had to give her a lecture and explain why homework is important and that it's disrespectful to lie and all in a calm but firm way, but honestly the whole situation was weird to me because I would expect something like that from a younger child. Our being related plays a huge role here though for sure, but it also always seems to me she doesn't understand certain things she's supposed to understand by now imo.
>I work with kids and them lying to get out of doing something is my least favorite thingHehe, can you give an example? I imagine how frustrating it can be, children are awful at lying but also so stubborn.
No. 1959623
>>1959610>How old is he?32
>moids are dumb and will strain their assholes for an hour to shit their dehydrated turdsSorry but this sentence made me KEK, the perfect summary of male existence
I'm worried because he's definitely not dehydrated, he drinks a lot of water, at least 2 litres every day. He also has fiber in his diet now but it seems to make it worse
>>1959611>Does he have any other health issues going on?He's been suffering from chronic illness with his liver, and when he was at a doctor with his gastric problems (pain etc.) a few years ago, the doctor actually told him to have less fiber in his diet. Also he already experienced some bleeding at that time, but not as much and as often as now. He's always been quite thin and it seems like food just flies through him but he doesn't absorb the nutrients? Probably because his
liver can't process some stuff. He's also scared because his grandfather and cousin had colon cancer, so he has some family history with it
No. 1959634
i can't take it anymore, i just want a job that would be interesting to do and will actually give me some moneys… Why everything is an unpaid internship and i can't even get those positions! I want to do things that interest me and be able to actually pay rent and eat. I hate living like this. I'm just getting more and more depressed, can't even rest for a second. Trying to git gud, learn things, take courses, do projects, learn new software, but it seems i'm never going to be good enough. But at the same time, people who are way worse than me in terms of skill are way better at getting jobs since they are not sociophobic autists. i also hate working a job i have now, because not only i'm not getting any shifts due to some changes in how they run things, it's just this kind of job i have is fucking draining. It's a physical job, forcing me to stand for 8 hours a day, in cold environment and deal with heavy boxes. I really hate it there so much, it's insane.
No. 1959643
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While it disgusts me to have a mother like mine, I get a little bit of sick enjoyment out of knowing that my mother is seething every minute of the day over the fact that I've surpassed her despite her efforts to ruin my life and downplay my success. She ruined my life but still I achieved. And when I saw surpassed, it's little basic things like having my own place, my own car, a stable job. She doesn't even need to see it, I know the fact that she has the knowledge makes her so angry even though she claimed she wanted me out of her life.
The only downside is that she continues to harass and make everyone about her miserable, but it's nothing anyone can really do unless she hurts someone. Last time she assaulted someone, they let her off with a involuntary psych ward visit. I especially feel bad for my poor grandma.
No. 1959652
>>1959643im happy for you that you take pride and get comfort from your successes in spite of your shitty mom. i know some people will say is not good to find healing in ways that are rooted in spite, but honestly fuck it, sometimes it has to be like that to cope with the shitty people in your life. also
>when I say surpassed, it's little basic things like having my own place, my own car, a stable jobthose things really aren't little and basic when you had a chaotic/
abusive childhood (hell, those things are hard to manage when you had a perfect childhood) so you should feel really proud of what you've built for yourself.
No. 1959653
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>>1959635>"that's not right. I'm 180cm. You have to be around 190cm"Moids are so persistent on always being so fucking wrong. Whenever I would meet someone, have a conversation with them and they would try to "correct me" with false info, it would always a scrote that would do it. That's why I don't like putting in real effort when a scrote tries to argue/disagree with me; they're so stupid and even just talking to them feels like a waste of time. Anyways, you're right that short men are retarded and annoying, and I'm sorry that their incessant copium to feel taller has gotten on your nerves. If it helps you feel any better, you're the same height as Uma Thurman. That's pretty cool.
No. 1959739
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I can’t really enjoy anime or manga anymore, and I can’t get into shipping because I find the anime art style really unattractive now. I can only get off to 3DPD or less stylized cartoons at best, so I can’t enjoy many fandoms and I’m bored.
No. 1959792
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I’m autistic, and I’ve noticed that autistic women can be the biggest fucking handmaidens in the world and I hate it. I’ve met multiple other women on the spectrum who say that autism is the reason they find it easier to be close with men and identify with or relate to men when they’re just used to being devalued their entire lives so they start actually seeking it out and choosing it because they feel so worthless and shitty about themselves. It makes me sad because I want to make friends with other women who understand my lived experience and what it’s like to grow up with autism and move through the world that way, but every time I try they orbit some mediocre loser, or orbit a man who is genuinely dangerous and a horrible person and I can’t peel them apart from him because sometimes they’ll even fucking defend him and say it’s because of their autism. Like a girl with autism I know who dates a guy that has a history of blackmailing UNDERAGE GIRLS for nudes. Fucking infuriating.
No. 1959861
>>1959792I think the reason a lot of autistic women tend to think they get along better with men are easier to become friends with for them. They're weird which is off putting to most people so female friends are hard, but men are willing to overlook the weirdness if it means he can get closer to her romantically. Autistic women can't recognize the men are only friendly because they're sexually interested.
But yeah I get what you're saying, it's hard cause about half the autistic women I've met make being friends with men their personality and are offput by other women. It sucks
No. 1959919
I can't fucking take another day in this fucking shit hole nonnas. I can't fucking take another day. My dad is a dirty ass fucking hoarder, he lives like a fucking homeless man. I know I shouldn't be living at home anymore, but I pay rent, I cook my own dinner, I keep the house clean, I do all the cleaning and laundry. And when my dad dies before my mom which he will because he's 10 years older than her I'm going to have to stay and take care of my mom pretty much full time because she can't take care of herself or live alone. I'm just trying to make the house nice, to make it clean, to make it not smell like moldy basement and cat shit, why is that too much to ask. I'm not even asking for help with cleaning, just that he does the tasks he says he needs to do with HIS hoardings so I can organize some shit and clean up the fucking basement and finally be able to get to the fucking 3 YEARS WORTH OF CAT SHIT PILED IN THE CORNER OF THE BASEMENT. Literal fucking PILES. There's fucking jugs everywhere, rusty pieces of metal, old musty boxes, random broken items, fucking 5 microwaves that he says he wants to take apart to get the copper wire out of, SO FUCKING DO IT YOU DUMB CUNT YOU SPEND 6 HOURS A DAY ON THE FUCKING COMPUTER SCREENSHOTTING PHOTOS OF WOMEN ON GOOGLE EARTH LIKE A CREEPY OLD MAN PERV!!! You have the free time to do it!!!! There's fucking rusty pieces of pipes and old rotten pieces of wood, old peanut butter jars, old clothes no one wears, boxes of dumb shit like broken plastic bags and old pill bottles, literally hundreds. Old computer monitors. I can't fucking take it anymore I just want to clean up the fucking cat shit you demented retard shit stain of a man, fuck you, I wish I could punch you in your stupid fucking face you FAG
No. 1959962
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>open crystal cafe for the first time
>Immediately met with gore
Damn.
No. 1960015
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>>1959962Crystal Cafe works for you???
Everytime I tried to access it for about half a year I think, its says something about it being blocked. I never broke any rules yet I can't access it. (But maybe I'm not losing much because of the gore spam, however I miss some threads.)
No. 1960046
>>1960045how dare you
nonnie. obviously you cursed that poor woman into having a moid
No. 1960056
>>1959919I feel for you nonna. I don't know what it is with boomer parents and their hoarding tendencies. That's absolutely disgusting and I had to live through similar conditions through my own parents and my nigel's parents too. Hoarding piles of useless garbage for stupid-ass just in case reasons, promising to fix things but wasting away doing nothing all day. It's hell and infuriating to deal with if you're the only one putting in any effort or care to keep things sanitary and liveable.
I know it's easier said than done but please focus on your own mental health when the time comes. I know you love your mom but look into some kind of caretaker that can do home visits maybe? There's no reason the burden should be shoved on you.
No. 1960079
>>1960074 samefag but what the fuck?
>are you missing a limb>do you have an IQ under 94WHERE IN THE WORLD OF ACCOUNTING DOES IT MATTER IF I WAS MISSING A LIMB AND I CLEARLY WOULDN'T BE DOING HIGH LEVEL ACCOUNTING IF I WAS RETARDED i swear to fucking god this shit is so dystopian i'm throwing myself over the balcony
No. 1960085
>>1960081ty
nonnie i've been an unintentional NEET since we moved to alaska a few months ago so i think the lack of sunlight and the cold/snow/isolation is making me lose it. someone just fucking hire me that isn't 100% WFH or i'll continue to only speak with my cat and the lolcow vent thread
No. 1960204
I realised yesterday that my close friend, who is only one who has not moved away from city where I live, has a huge main character syndrome and I have been an idiot all this time because I let myself get treated like shit by her out of fear of being left all alone.
Yesterday she had this rant how everyone is inconsiderate towards her and she is the only one considerate, then when I asked her if I have been inconsiderate, she said yes without wanting to explain what I did was that wronged her.
I have been constantly listening to her complaints about the world, trying to help her find a new job and leave her toxic workplace, trying to help her with daily workouts because she wants to lose weight, always trying to uplift her and give her courage.
Our conversations are centered around her problems, her happenings in life. When I would start talking about myself, she would cut me off. Then few days ago, when we were hanging out with some people, she talked about an event that happened to me as if it happened to herself.
Also once I had a problem with a coworker who was hitting on me and would not leave me alone, she blamed it on me ("how did you present yourself on that christmas party"). I didn't do shit but be friendly and talk about hobbies.
I realised I have been an idiot pushover all this time. I constantly try to be good and considerate but I only now I am aware I am getting walked over. All of this because I am not sure how to meet new people and what to do when I am lonely. I wish my country's economy didn't go to shit causing a lot of my friends to move away due to shitty job prospects.
No. 1960210
>>1959076No.
To be honest i realize I’m being incredibly negative, i just feel hopeless about the amount of mtf around me in my career and shit, and i am surrounded by people who aren’t lolcow; the majority of people i know would probably try to remove me from existence and I’m sincerely just overwhelmed by it all. Do share your experiences though if you’re ok with it
No. 1960233
>>1960204I’m so sorry- I’ve been there. It sucks being used. What I recommend is slowly ghosting her and replace the feeling of loneliness by finding other coping mechanisms that aren’t this person. She also sounds like she’s on her way out and trust me, once they are out they don't reach out to you again. I once heard/read that people with abandonment issues/chronic loneliness end up accidentally drawn to avoidant people or self-centered people (which it sounds like she is seeing as she interrupts you when you dare talk about your life etc but still calls you a disappointment or whatever it is she said about you hurting her - basically not putting in any effort).
It sucks, but now you are aware of her being this way and you have an advantage and won’t be fooled again.
No. 1960249
>>1960233Thanks
nonny for your comment
>I once heard/read that people with abandonment issues/chronic loneliness end up accidentally drawn to avoidant people or self-centered people Yep I do have this problem and a bit of mommy issues lol. Worked through this on therapy along with building my self-esteem but I guess I still stumble upon "traps" such as letting myself get walked over by "best friend" without realising it and then wondering why I feel like shit again hah.
>What I recommend is slowly ghosting her and replace the feeling of loneliness by finding other coping mechanisms that aren’t this person.Yup, this is what I have been thinking too. I will try focus on my hobbies and interests. Might get lonely but hey, yesterday when I hanged out with her not only did I feel lonely but also like shit so oh well.
No. 1960294
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Potentially getting fired today
No. 1960420
>>1960321We're loud and have to feign confidence because nobody takes short women seriously. My pain and complaints are brushed off unless I nag, scream or yell and creepy moids go after women who look non-threatening. If someone oversteps my boundaries and they're bigger than me, they know there's fuck all I can do about it other than make noise.
On top of this, I hate that saying I'm short makes terminally online idiots accuse me of trying to be some uwu smol bean pickme. I just happen to be short, that's literally all.
No. 1960426
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>have stomach pains, diarrhea and bad gas for about a month with no obvious pattern of why it occurs
>see a doctor
>after lots of blood, urine and stool samples, they find the cause
>a protozoan parasite that generally doesn't cause symptoms and lots of people have it without knowing
>those with symptoms often get diagnosed with IBS
>IBS is a catch-all diagnosis that is basically "yep, you have stomach issues and we don't know why lol"
>Parasite is easily treatable with antibiotics
>Specialist refers me to my GP because she can't make prescriptions
>GP says it's IBS and tells me to watch what I eat instead
Bitch what?
No. 1960599
>>1960588>You're all annoying as fuck and should be away from the rest of society.kek that's why there's tism all over lolcor.
although your post made me realize that i've seen a lot of autistics, but all the violent screamers who play their electronics loud in public and fight their parents have always been moids. i've seen girls hit their heads or cry out loud, but for some reason never go apeshit on strangers
No. 1960641
Okay so I'm understanding the struggle of grieving a breakup, mainly due to the fact the dating pool is so limited for me. How am I supposed to find the next guy who doesn't smoke, drink, do drugs and wants to eventually get married and have kids? So many men that I'm like "maybe it could work", but then I notice have that ONE thing where they drink "socially". This culture is so bad. It makes me seethe. Yeah, at this point I'm looking back at my ex who didn't smoke, drink, or do drugs and wishing it was him it worked out with. I feel desperate. I'm 31 and all my friends have their Nigels they've been with since their 20s and a couple of them are married. I hate being the odd one out. I want the security of a good man for me in my life. I don't want to change my life around just yet, maybe it'd be easier if I lived with my parents and I could work part time, but my life would totally regress. I make too good of money right now. I have to keep things the way they are. I just need a to look for a man who's on the same page as me, and I have too much of a belief that man is already taken.
No. 1960688
>>1960658nta but this is a horrible idea.
Younger men are more porn rotted, and if they want older women, it’s because they have some fucked up mommy kink and want you to do all the chores. I got convinced to date under my age limit and never again.
No. 1960699
>>1960686Not them but shit happens. It’s a vent thread. It’s possible it was just the last straw. Yeah saying she’s becoming ableist due to this is dumb but lbr we all say stupid shit when angry and also if you lead a normal life you don’t hang out in lolcow.
>>1960645If you’re in an area with high drug use, it’s likely she was on drugs too tbh.
Do you wear headphones? I generally have the same issue with weirdo attraction and learned to live with those on. Best of luck.
No. 1960706
>>1960700I understand that feeling because Ive had this dream since early childhood. But it only got me into the worst relationships possible.
You’re 31 but you still have some time. I didn’t find someone who was worth it until recently and I'm 34. I do still think the best strategy is to live as independent from a man as possible, because then even if something bad happens or good happens, it doesn’t leave you with this feeling of “i’m fucked” if things don’t work out. Don’t be afraid of moving with your parents for a bit if you think it would help strengthen your career/resolve/ or if you just need help. Life is not over at 30s, i promise.
No. 1960720
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im just at a loss. im doing great at my new job but not sure about my 5 year relationship. dont know if it is worth it, if i should stay or leave. either choice i can regret. it's hard pretending to be happy for 12 hours straight.
No. 1960734
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I got the great fucking idea to cut my hair. I was supposed to just trim my bangs, but I ended up butchering my whole head. Had to book an appointment to a hairdresser. She did the best she could, and now I have short hair and I look like a literal dickhead. I’m a fatass, short hair looks really bad on me. I have a party tomorrow, I would cancel but it’s my friends bday and I can’t stand her up.
No. 1960749
>>1960748Yeah, I think it's better if you just drop the moid, he may be attractive (right now) but he's retarded and he won't change.
Being single isn't a bad thing, you could just try to make new friends.
No. 1960785
>>1960686I'm a bit more pleasant when people don't spit and smell like shit in front of me and don't look like they're about to push me and steal my phone as soon as I go outside tbh.
>>1960699>It’s possible it was just the last straw.Yeah that's pretty much it.
No. 1960810
>>1960748Seconding
>>1960749They don’t change or get better past 2 weeks of effort and then go back to their old selves once they think you’ll shut up. Like giving breadcrumbs of hope to keep you on the line.
It’s been 5 years. I think you know what to do. That’s 5 years that you could have met someone better. You don’t have to break up today but start making those movements.
And like said earlier in thread; learn to not
need men or plan around them and you will find yourself in this situation less. It may feel impossible but it isn't- and women who are naturally independent of men are much happier and end up dating higher quality men either way, so try to learn from them. You’ll be fine, especially since you’re doing good at your career, you have that going for you.
No. 1960834
>>1960706Already on that path which has been helpful, I made it a pact not to let a moid live with me and my last relationship ended shortly because it was easier to leave an immature man.
My work is excellent, I'm making great money, double what both my parents make combined, and just moving into my parents would have me regress because I'd have to move back to another side of the country, which I do not want to do, and the weather sucks out there. I think what I have is stable, just too many men are intimidated by it. I know my life isn't over, just right now it feels more like it. This guy I saw on a date felt like it would work, but he didn't see a path to commitment. Things were way too inconvenient for him. In my head I've told myself men in their 30s, there's a reason their single, maybe I'd find one who who's just been with women who didn't want to commit like he wanted to either, but it's like a desert out there, at least locally.
No. 1960867
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My Nigel cut his hair.
4 years down the drain for an ugly buzzcut
When I asked him why he cut it off, he said he was annoyed by constantly having hair in his face
He didn't even asked me
No. 1960875
>>1960861They have shown they care about me, they just come from unhealthy backgrounds. It's hurtful but I also don't want to hold it against them. One of them did reciprocate eventually, it was just difficult for her because growing up her mom would constantly tell her she wish she never had her.
>>1960811I love you too anon!
No. 1960879
>>1960867oh no, a buzzcut… I'm so sorry for your loss
nonnie. long haired men getting the chop is a tragedy
No. 1960905
>>1960867Most men would rage in the opposite situation.
I wish I had the luxury of just chopping my hair for practical reasons and not be concerned with how it looks.
No. 1961239
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Me looking at my own posts here from when I was ovulating
No. 1961344
I'm very angry and sad today. I went on a 4 hour walk and sulked thinking about how my life circumstances have me so emotionally available to be in a serious relationship, but no one actually wants to take things seriously. Everything has an excuse, no one wants to actually commit.
I keep repeating to myself, "When will it finally be my turn? When will I meet this emotionally available other?" Like, how did my friends meet their other half? Most of them weren't in very stable times of their lives when they met their boyfriends/husbands and that man chose to be with her until this very day.
Yet, here I am making conscious effort in making my life as healthy as it could be. I fulfill my free time with activities based around going outside. I don't spend majority of my days off cooped up inside my house. I can't settle for a dismissive or abusive man. I need to find someone who will reciprocate my care. I do all this to care for myself and prepare myself to find this high value man, but where the FUCK is he?!
I just wish I could fast forward to this amazing family I want to have, I don't know what my husband looks like, but I know he will be this considerate man who's willing to keep connection. How? I don't procreate with a man who can't have tough conversations.
My life is stable. My job gives me an extremely healthy work / life balance, my income puts me at middle class alone, my days off are consistent. I have this stable foundation, but I, for the life of me, cannot find another man with a similar stable foundation. Every man I've met recently scraped on by living paycheck to paycheck and had a job that made him keep a calendar of what days he was working. The men themselves had great hobbies and interests, but he didn't have a job that allowed him to have this healthy life he so much craved. And of course, he's stuck in this limbo of not being with someone long term and can't figure out why (he's the issue, his unstable work/life balance is keeping him in this loop). Where's my fucking stable man?
No. 1961352
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My bf would be so cute if he didn't have that stupid saved sides long on top hairstyle that makes him look like a neo nazi I think even a buzzcut would be better but this is the only hairstyle he has ever had in his adult life
No. 1961370
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is my frustration at my mother only being interested in contacting when she wants something stupid?
i havent heard from her for over a week and i was meant to pop in to her place this weekend but im sick to hell and back, give her a headsup and a love you and she replies almost instantly reciprocating the "love you" then immediately asks for cigarette money
but this is like a pattern between us, yet when i need to talk on her off days she takes so long to respond. makes me feel like im 18 and making my own cash again.
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wow that date was astoundingly bad, at least I got to eat my favorite food. It was so bad I feel bad for the guy almost. Almost. I need a drink to get over how boring this man was. At least I wasn’t insulted or objectified or negged? Just bored out of my mind.
No. 1961395
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One of the most sickening realization is that your own mother doesn’t love you and would not care if you killed yourself in your bedroom no matter how much your warped “good” experiences with her would tell you otherwise. My own mother has never cared about how I felt and how I’m emotionally impacted by things and it’s unfortunately affecting the way I approach and understand my emotions because she’s never been taught how to. She’s materially cared for us the best she can but I have been utterly emotionally neglected by her for my entire life and for some reason my brain desperately thinks she’s going to be able to fulfill this aching need that she hasn’t given me and never will. My relationship with my sister isn’t the same anymore and we’re drifting apart because we are 6 years apart by age. Everything I ever knew and was comfortable and safe is falling one by one, everything that I knew and relied on and I don’t know how to handle it. I don’t know whether to cry because my entire body is in shock, that something so obvious to me is being shown in plain sight, my family is a complete disheveled mess and I’m a vulnerable, powerless woman with no one to rely on at the worst times of history to be individually powerless and everyone has essentially abandoned me. I feel like such a loser for crying but it’s all I have
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I think I'm starting to have BDD tendencies as of late - I already have a list of things I wanna get done (like dropping from a BMI of 24 to 18, breast reduction surgery, surgery for hollow under eyes, labiaplasty, jawline surgery) and it's concerning me. Not only that, but when my closest people tell me that I'm completely fine, there is something in the back of my mind that tells me that they are lying.
I don't remember being like that in my teens, despite the fact that I would've started crying almost everyday when I saw my reflection back then.
Now, I am somehow glad that I have a big phobia of hospitals and surgery rooms, otherwise my retarded ass would've done a couple of these kek. But it's so weird to me that I get these thoughts when I'm well over the age of 20 something, I should've had them in my teens and then leave them in those years, guess I'm somehow retarded to think like this now.
No. 1961500
tomorrow is my mother's funeral. i went to see her body today privately since the embalmer had finished prepping her early and the girl who runs the mortuary asked if i wanted to come alone beforehand. i am so, so glad i went the day before because the moment i saw my mom laying in the coffin i literally collapsed and almost laid down right under the coffin like a baby. i started crying the moment i walked into the chapel, i just couldn't hold it in anymore. she really didn't even look like herself though - there was just something different about her that i can't explain unless you've seen someone you love after they've died. it's like you could tell she, whatever made my mother who she was as a person, wasn't there anymore. she looked so small just laying there, smaller than i remember her. my mother always seemed big and robust when she was alive - she was tall with a big frame but in the coffin she seemed really tiny and delicate. it was so odd and i don't know if it was the prep for the body or the weight loss from the cancer. thankfully her stomach wasn't as big as my grandfather made it out to be. i wanted to kiss her, but the smell from the embalming fluids was really strong and incredibly sweet, so i just stroked her hair and talked to her for about an hour before i started getting hungry.
somehow i feel like seeing my mom and talking to her helped give me closure, like i could finally start the processing of moving on. i felt shitty but at the same time a lot better than i did before i saw her. that was the last moment i'll really ever have with her where i can see her and talk to her and just be in her presence without anyone else interrupting me. i wanted her to know how much i love her because i've been so worried that my mom didn't know how much she meant to me, or she thought i was still angry with her from when i was young and we didn't have such a good relationship as we did when i got older. i told her that i forgave her and all i could ever wish for is one more day with her where she's alive, happy, and healthy. i wish she could come back, like people do in fairytales, where you get one or two days with your loved one and then they disappear before the sun rises again. all i want is for her to know, without a doubt, that i loved her. that's the part that hurts the most. she was the best mother anyone could have ever asked for, even if she wasn't perfect (i wasn't either) and she did a lot of unorthodox things. she was the perfect mother for me, completely non-judgmental, never tried to make me into someone i was never going to be. she just loved me for who i was and most people in my life are not like that.
after seeing her too, i decided that i will speak at the funeral. at first i was like nah, i am not getting up in front of all these people i do not know my grandfather invited to say anything. but after seeing my mom, i feel like i need to talk about how much she did for me, how she encouraged and supported and never treated me differently. this is like the one opportunity i have to gently chastise my family for treating me like shit most of my life, and i know i would regret it if i didn't say anything. i will also be honoring my mother's unconditional love and support for me at the same time, and in a selfish way, i feel like this entire situation has been about us - me and her, and our love for each other. it's hard to explain in words but i want to do this for my mom so that she won't have to worry about me anymore and we can move on in peace.
No. 1961556
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I hate Instagram threads. Why the fuck do they think I want to hear some retard’s opinions when I can just go on twitter for that. Fuck off with all of this extra garbage. All these social media sites are making themselves unusable and I can’t wait until they implode
No. 1961570
>>1961551I literally had a proto incel scrote rape me when I was 14, that’s how I lost my virginity. He told me afterwards that I needed labiaplasty. It did traumatize me in that I don’t enjoy oral due to this, but thankfully it made me absolutely steadfast in loving my vulva. All the moids I’ve been with since have been crazy about it too and think it’s so fucking sexy, women too.
A lot of men and women prefer “outie” because it looks more like a flower than just some wound-like hole or gash. Maybe I’m fucked up (definitely I am) but hearing moids disparage innies without prompting did wonders for my self esteem in that department. As a bisexual women I think both look nice but will say I prefer flower like vulvas similar to mine. try looking at some Georgia o keafe paintings for self esteem boosts as well, my parents knew a lesbian couple that collected her paintings and just thought they were the most gorgeous things, this was pre internet days and when my parents asked them if it was because they looked like vulvas they legitimately hadn’t realized that they did and then proceeded to love them even more kek.
scrotes who disparage flower vulvas are universally faggots No. 1961652
>>1961570I'm so sorry to hear about your experience, I hope that scrote burns and rots in the most agonizing way.
I'm bi too, I think my last straw was when a bi woman I had a crush on said about another woman that her vag low-key looks like a penis. It absolutely crushed me, I had a slight hope that I will never hear that from a woman so I closed off more and more which in turn made me think that even if someone tells me that it's fine, they will most likely lie. Never thought about the flower part, it actually makes sense and it's cute, made me smile a bit.
Thank you for your words and artist recommendation, nonna.
No. 1961664
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>bought some pasta from Costco last week.
>Opened my pantry today and saw three small brown beetles
>Investigated after reading they might be grain/pantry beetles
>Find out the pasta I just bought was infested
>Spend the next 2 hours removing everything from my pantry and disinfecting or tossing almost everything
And I was trying to save money this month.
No. 1961682
>>1961664I’m so sorry
nonnie. I had flour mites a couple times and they sucked ass to get rid of and ate all my food. I also thought I was losing my mind at first cause they’re tiny and hard to spot. Now any grain I get lives in the freezer for two weeks or longer whether it’s rice or pasta or flour or oats or anything. The freezer will kill them and their eggs
No. 1961738
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I hate men so bad it's horrifying lmao. But I don't want to die alone so what do.
No. 1961768
>>1961764samefag here
But on a funny note, birth rates are dropping all over the world. Other countries have no idea why but Korean women are proudly proclaiming that men are dicks. It's gotten to the point there are no first graders this year in most of their schools. I hope the trend continues. I'd rather humanity becomes endangered or extinct than women having to tolerate moid treatment. Or just artifically make children.
No. 1961824
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How do people stay sane working a regular jon? It’s not even been half a year and I’m too exhausted to even think about doing anything fun. I’m constantly annoyed and angry, I hope I get a heart attack or something.
No. 1961844
>>1961824try to do the least possible, leave early, etc.
that's what i do but thankfully my job is super lenient
No. 1961945
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I've gained 11 pounds in the span of 4 months from stress eating and it's gotten to the point where I have visible lines from working out. I'm average weight, but it bothers me a lot. Can't wait to have more time on my hands to put into swimming practice so I can lose them again, but right now I just can't afford it. It's making me mad at myself for allowing it to get this bad
No. 1961976
>>1961844Thanks
nonnie. Been dodging anything that takes effort today, I feel like my coworkers will hate me for it eventually but its fine tbh.
No. 1962085
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It sure would be cool if I could stop losing and regaining these same 10 lbs.
It takes about 1/3 the amount of time to gain as it does to lose. But I just had fallen into a pit of despairing and stopped giving a fuck because I got fucking rejected by a 15 years older than me scrote even at my thinnest so I figured what's the fucking point. I'm ugly anyways and probably autistic so might as well eat good tasting food. Everything from top to bottom of this fake and gay soyciety is set up for women to take Ls so why should I starve myself and live off cottage cheese only when I can't win regardless. And even too much wholesome foods make me gain, not even junk. Ugh. I exercise a shit ton, hot yoga, martial arts now too.
it's also annoying how anything besides "bodybuilder stage lean" is considered fat, like, even at my heaviest I'm not even at an overweight BMI. Like I'm fat right now and it's like 21.8. Like how come not having visible abs makes you automatically a land whale planetoid mega pig with no self control and a sleep apnea machine in most people's eyes. Why can't normal exist. Why did God make me in this fat retaining body. Why can't I have gotten the food aversion kind of autism, not the sensation seeking tooth grinding oral fixation kind.
Can't smoke weed anymore- 9 months clean, can't smoke cigarettes- bad for skin and lungs, don't drink, like why is physically pleasurable joy not allowed. I just ordered some fucking "ceremonial herbs" to smoke so maybe I can stop soothing my pain with fucking Werther's originals.
No. 1962100
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>>1959208This is me again. Faggot-seafood-obsessed boyfriend went to his beloved lunch like 8 hours ago and hasn't come back yet. This morning, before leaving, he also found a shitty half-assed excuse to get mad with me and yell . He didn't even kiss me goodbye kek. I'm writing it all down so I can't fall down my delulu loop of forgetting hurtful stuff he does.
No. 1962120
>>19621008 hours?
Have you looked through his phone and socials? Cause I'm smelling infidelity in addition to the shrimp
No. 1962177
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>>1962171I know I should trust my gut but since I find it difficoult now I came here to hear it from you nonnies. I know I would have made even harsher comments if I was the one reading my posts. I need to hear it from you beacuse I'm so paranoid of everything in my life that sometimes I think even legitimate fears are paranoia. I love you all.
No. 1962460
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im afraid im going to fail my finals. im going through a very fresh breakup and cant concentrate enough. i dont want to hurt myself, i dont want to feel like i must take my life for feeling so unlovable. i know thats silly, realistically, and im strong. but goodness it hurts that he left me when i was feeling so low. i do not blame him. i just want to move on and forget him and begin to love myself. if he loved me he would be wishing for things to work. i hope he can be happy. but good god, let me forget about him so i dont fail my classes. i need help right now and i am my only support system. i really need to keep it together. i want to feel like i deserve life and that there is something to look forward to even if i must do it alone forever.
No. 1962467
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>Met a guy on Hinge
>Loves all the dumb shit I love without being a creep
>First date hit it off like fireworks at a gas station
>Messaging is like back and forth within an hour then he dips for 2-4 days. It's happened twice now
Is this a power thing? I really hope he's not like that. He seemed cool.
No. 1962547
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Welp. It finally happened. My childhood best friend is turning into a TiF. She's currently in college and she started dating a TiF (she only dated normal men before), who must have roped her into it. She's started attributing all of her earlier mental problems to dysphoria. She had always been such a cool, GNC alt girl, it really hurts to know what she's about to do to herself. She's really beautiful, and she has a petite, pear-shaped body.
Now that she lives somewhat far away due to college, I can't push back without risking losing my relationship with her. She's a fantastic person, and it feels like there's nothing I can do. T is going to be horrible for her mental health, I just know it. She hasn't mentioned taking it yet, but I'm sure that's the trajectory she's on. I was really hoping she'd peak before the cancer spread to her. I feel stuck: if I voice my concern now, she might hate me forever, but if I do nothing, she might be upset down the road that I didn't prevent her some getting sucked into the cult. I'm devastated, but I just have to sit by and hope she comes to her senses on her own.
No. 1962557
>>1962547I apologize
nonnie. It is truly a heartbreaking thing to witness a woman go through, it feels like you're losing someone and can't get them back.
No. 1962580
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Iran is attacking Israel. Shit is going to get worse. Fuckkkk
No. 1962597
>>1962592i dont think the world is gonna end
nonny lol
No. 1962648
>>1962636tell him how you feel nonna, go big or go home
>>1962645shut up
No. 1962657
>>1962651wtf? are you underage? I'm 27 and he is 44
>>1962648i think if i feel it coming naturally again in the moment ill say it
No. 1962666
>>1962640Offtopic, but if you're a burger, it's because the U.S. has a strong transactional relationship with one of the parties. They view Israel as an outpost of liberal democracy in an area where the other countries are predominantly religious states.
>>1962580Israel has a right to defend itself, but it went totally overboard in Gaza and now it's reaping what it sowed. I'm going to be pissed if the United States gets more involved in this conflict than it already is.
No. 1962669
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Not a vent but I really hope that anon who took 20 painkillers is still alive and kicking. You got this suicide-chan! Idk which thread she posted it in but hope you see this
No. 1962671
>>1962663Twitter overexposure, I'd say. Big age gaps
are a bit of a red flag, though.
No. 1962675
>>1962667When she's 50 he'd only be 77
nonnie kek, that's not nursing home age unless he has some kind of disease
No. 1962676
>>1962673I swear, the newfags on this site are so insufferable. It's why we even had to make an old/ugly man psyop thread because zoomers think 40+ years olds are so hot.
>>1962674Go back
No. 1962680
>>1962671genuinely curious, whats wrong with big age gaps?
>>196267640 is not old and old =/= ugly
No. 1962699
>>1962689Do you think I cant think for myself? Most men are immature anyways we are basically mentally the same age.
>>1962697He fucks me for hours on end. I don't know where you live but he is F-FINE. Men my age are just fucking dumb. I don't want to have to teach a guy my age how to take care of himself. An older guy who has been through marriage and kids has experience which I appreciate.
No. 1962710
>>1962703He divorced her but I agree he is probably a bad judge of character
>>1962704Kids are cute and funny and silly but I do not want that responsibility and worry
I think I just need to discuss this with my therapist thanks bitches
No. 1962714
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>>1962699>He fucks me for hours on end. Oh yeah, this is bait/creative writing. Should've realized sooner.
No. 1962719
>>1962709I get all of that which is why I've had my guard up for a year and a half but I have no desire to move in with him since I value my own space and I'm not interested in kids or marriage. I am afraid of getting hurt and try to anticipate it but its always something unexpected that hurts you. I'm on birth control I take regularly like idk how he could trap or manipulate me.
>>1962707Any ideas how? I think he is pretty cheap especially since from what I gather he had to pay her a lot in the divorce and still pays child support
>>1962714No joke though he does. He is a very athletic guy and its hard for us to stop when we get into it.
No. 1962723
>>1962717Should parents who do not want to be together stay together? its a lose lose for the kids I agree when the family is broken up but be realistic here, ma'am
he pays his child support, has bedrooms for each of his kids which he sees once a week, has photos of them all over his apartment idk seems like a decent dad
and now my defending this guy jesus
No. 1962735
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>>1962689I didn't participate in this debate until now, but I'm just gonna say this: imagine, of all the men you could attract, date and perhaps marry, you choose a guy that's old enough to be your father, with aging, stale sperm that will probably make any child you have with him autistic by the chance of his weakening sperm fucking up YOUR egg. If males your age or close to your age are too retarded, stop dating idiot men and start looking for age-close men that are worth a shit. It cannot be that hard. If anon is calling herself a grown woman while she's eighteen or under the age of twenty, I'm gonna need ten minutes to laugh, because almost no-fucking-body is "grown" at eighteen. Sure, they may have a car, a job, and their own place, but they're not "grown". Being grown takes time and experience to have a decent grasp with society, relationships, and life itself. nobody that's just graduated from eating peanut butter and jelly sandwiches in a highschool cafeteria is going to have that, not compared to anyone in their 20s and 30s.
>>1962705Oh, so you're mainly with him for the sex because even when you're hooking up with a male that's old enough to be your dad, he's still too immature for you? So you really can't find any man that's worth a shit and in his prime?
>>1962719>I think he is pretty cheapHe won't even shower you with money and gifts? bitch, bitch, bitch.
>I am afraid of getting hurt and try to anticipate it but its always something unexpected that hurts youSo if you don't fully trust him
why are you with him?
>I would have tossed him to the curb if it were not for the consistent amazing sex which is something I have come to value in lifeYou know, the fact that you're even doing this just tells me you don't have it quite down in life, which rejuvenates my take about women who date men that are old enough to be their fathers: they just don't really seem know wtf they're doing. Well good luck being like Doja Cat and getting fucked by some loser while you text your haters, I'm gonna go smoke a blunt and watch some Tubi now.
No. 1962757
>>1962719I'm failing to understand the appeal of this man, genuinely. Like you haven't offered up many positives other than he's mature (dating someone 20 years younger doesn't scream maturity but I'll choose to believe you) and he's good in bed.
But he's old enough to be your dad (this is objectively a con) and he's cheap. So if you're not looking for anything incredibly serious just go find a hot guy your own age? Why does it matter if he's super mature if he's hot, around your age, eats pussy (most gen z guys do), and is willing to spend money on you without you having to beg (another positive of gen z guys). There is no benefit to casually dating old men.
No. 1962763
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i have the fucking fattest shortest baby-like hands and I hate them so much. I'm actually a low-normal weight but my fingers are still triangles like an infant. none of my fingers are longer than a crayon. I really love rings and wanted to start learning silversmithing to make them, before it belatedly occurred to me that I notoriously can't wear rings because my fingers are too fat. I'm really jealous of everyone else that has normal looking hands that can wear cool rings. I personally find hands one of the most attractive features so it hurts me more that mine are so weird and un-sexy.
No. 1962771
>>1962766I have strong nails so I usually let them grow out, that's actually what
triggered this post kek. But I hate maintaining them and for some reason they grow in in a sort of twisty angle, so today I cut them back since they were looking neglected and I was about to spend all day digging in the dirt. I SHOCKED myself at how stubby my fingers really are. My finger tips are also like, flat and squared off, not rounded like normal fingers. WTF is up with that? And yeah I could wear rings I guess, but they just don't look good on my hands at all. My hands are also very wide too. When I wear rings I look like a fantasy dwarf that just raided a village or something. And that probably wouldn't bother anyone except me, but I have a hand fixation in others and so it really gets on my nerves to waste a nice ring on ugly fingers.
Sorry to hear you suffer from a similar issue.
No. 1962801
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I saw the sweetest tuxedo cat up for adoption yesterday and I’m unironically so upset I cannot have a cat at the moment. When I can though I’d love to have a pure black one. Black cats are the cutest.
No. 1962999
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My bf reacted like I cheated on him when I told him I was scheduling a tattoo appointment. I’ve been wanting tattoos for as long as I can remember but I kept putting off for financial reasons and because I was always with a scrote who hated them. My says I will be tainting myself if I got one and he really looked like I dumped him or some shit. I tried my hardest to stand my ground and appeal to his sense of logic but it didn’t work. I’m a spineless people pleaser who crumbles the moment someone starts disliking me or disapproves of me in any fashion.
So I just gave up but he was still completely hurt because he saw how badly he crushed me. I hate this because his distaste for tattoos seems like it’s immature rebelling because he was raised by liberal parents.
I have a Mohawk and piercings and dress alt for crying out loud. It’s ridiculous because he admits that his hatred for tattoos is illogical but that solves nothing.
I know the obvious advice is dump him but I don’t think this one reason should be enough reason to walk away from a three year relationship.
No. 1963002
>>1962858Shave his head.
Tbh he might be trooning so be careful.
But you should be brutally honest and tell him it looks awful and if he wants to keep it he needs to put in the extra effort for the maintenance. Otherwise why else would he want to keep it? What benefit does it provide him if he’s just mistreating his hair and putting it in a neckbeard ponytail? Depending on how tightly he pulls his hair back in a ponytail he could be causing traction alopecia and premature balding. As soon as you mention balding most moids panic. You could also tell him it makes him look like his hairline is receding.
No. 1963079
I don't care if this sounds like bait, I don't care if you call me zoomer scum, I don't care if you tell me that's where I'm headed, I'm a 24 year old woman
fuck millennial weebs
fuck their humor
fuck their shit taste
fuck their tranny looking husbandos
fuck their tech illiteracy
fuck their sensitivity
fuck their reaction gifs
fuck their apologies for nothing
fuck their lack of self awareness
fuck their social retardation
fuck their health problems
fuck their tone indicators
fuck their forced positivity
fuck their female pattern baldness
fuck their antibullying
fuck their fashion
fuck their B.O.
fuck their fat rolls
fuck their facebook accounts
fuck their animal tiktoks
fuck their how to draw manga art that has been stagnant since middle school
fuck their aging pets
fuck their clinginess
fuck their bad cosplays
fuck their unironic autism
fuck their terrible parents who they still live with
fuck their oversharing
fuck their recently deceased grandparents
fuck their haggard 3dpd seiyuu, vkei, and super junior member crushes
fuck touken ranbu
fuck them for talking my ears off about shit I don't care about
and fuck me for not having enough of a backbone to tell them to kill themselves to their faces
30 years old. 30 years old. over 30 years old. if this is you, give up on making friends already, you autistic freak. no one likes you, no one thinks you're cute. all you do is bother them, they only talk to you out of pity for the tubby womanchild who reminds them of their cousin. and these pixyteri clones keep coming to me. what's my problem that I attract them like mosquitoes on a hot summer night? it must be my kind, female socialized heart, of course. I want to die alone with no friends and no lover.(retarded unintegrated bait)
No. 1963097
>>1963079>what's my problem that I attract them like mosquitoes on a hot summer night?You're exactly the same. You look like them (despite being not
that old), you act the same, and they see that and therefore seek you out. Birds of a feather always flock together, you're simply still in the denial state but one day you will accept reality and be officially part of the pt coven.
No. 1963118
I can't tell if my friend is retarded, autistic or just southern (US). she seems to have absolutely no concept of either sarcasm or hyperbole. she's from the south and lives there to this day, and I'm starting to wonder if sarcasm is just not a thing there? I've never been there, never met her IRL either, but we've been friends for over a decade via internet and phone. I've made sarcastic comments over the years that she seems to take literally and never register as a joke. granted most of our conversations are over text and you lose certain things, but even when it's completely on the nose she still misses it usually. I've stopped being sarcastic with her for that reason, but even now and then I'll say something hyperbolic and she misses the point. for example, the other day she was mad because her gf left her truck parked at a gas station with the keys in it. my friend was upset because she didn't want her car to get stolen (apparently there is a methhead camp not far from said gas station). I said "tell her (the gf) if your truck gets stolen she has to buy you a new one". she just replied and said "she wouldn't be able to afford it"…. yeah, no shit. that's the whole point. telling her that she'd have to buy a new one would illustrate how fucked both of you would be if the truck got stolen (they both use the truck because gf doesn't have her own car). I was dumbfounded and didn't even know what to say, I just said "I know" and she replied with "it would be a waste of my time and breath" or something. it kind of reminds me of when I had ESL friends who would misinterpret half the things I say except she's not ESL.
and then right after the eclipse she texted me saying how society is completely fucked because a radio dj said that "now that the eclipse is over it's safe to look at the sun" with a facepalm emoji. I'm sorry but there is absolutely no fucking way the dj was being serious, it had to be a joke. she has said before she thinks she might be on the autism spectrum. I doubted it at first but now that I think about it, it would explain a LOT.
No. 1963279
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how tf can I tell my mom that I don't like being full-body hugged multiple times per day
I told her years ago and it broke her heart and made her insane, but she started letting me do it only once per day
Now she's back to making me do it every time I leave or enter the room and she's also back to making me look at naked people and getting mad when I either laugh or get grossed out and calling me "baby" again and making me do the "I love you" ritual all the fucking time again
I wanna die tbh, it's never going to stop
No. 1963297
>>1963279That's fucking disgusting, nona. Say No. I don't condone family violence but this is a self defense situation, use force if you have to. She's way over the line.
Like I'm having trouble imagining any scenario where this would be okay or where I would tolerate this. Maybe if she was full-body paralyzed and bedridden and I was her only human contact, then I
might concede to her wishes.
No. 1963313
>>1963279What in the weird ass emotional incest lowkey
abusive shit is going here. Move out asap Nonna WTF.
No. 1963396
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>>1963313>>1963312>>1963297>>1963287>four (you)s in the vent thread>zero insultsoh, this is
real bad isn't it
No. 1963568
>>1963553You're his SO, you're allowed to know everything he wants to share about his life. It's not a lack of respect towards his ex.
And tbh I would've shit myself from anger if my boyfriend suddenly felt the need to write his ex to apologize or talk things out and he didn't show me whatever he was going to tell her. The fact he feels like he needs to comfort her or talk to her at all is already weird, if he hadn't offered to let you read it then I would have assumed he hasn't gotten over her.
Which might still be true, because it's kind of weird for someone to be upset about never giving their ex closure after a decent amount of time has passed. Even after my most amicable breakups have I never felt the need to talk to my exes again once more than a month passed.
No. 1963793
>>1963770Never hangout with women who let their bfs cheat or abuse them. Eventually their bf will start doing weird shit to you and she will do nothing to help and put you in dangerous situations like that one. Women with
abusive bfs are dangerous to be around because they don’t even care about their own well being so of course they’re not gonna care about yours.
No. 1963879
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Pinkpill thread immediately got locked a minute after it got made with a reply from the farmhand telling anon to go use the pinkpill thread in the hidden board which no one uses.
Meanwhile there are is already a ton of gender ideology hate, gender critical and troon threads on the hidden board yet farmhand is not locking threads here telling anons to go and and post in the hidden boards.
It's strange,i remember a couple of weeks ago anons were discussing pinkpill threads and one anon said it was weird how the GC threads are now on OT yet pinkpill still isn't here and those anons told her surely if a thread is made it wil be allowed. Well this proves that pinkpill threads still are NOT allowed despite the fact that they peaked many anons on moids. Actual feminist discussion is not allowed, you are only allowed to talk about troons.
No. 1964001
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Havent been in the mood to play anything in my backlog in several months… I hate browsing and scrolling but its all I can muster lately
No. 1964003
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Literally how I feel right now, wish I was a better person overall but I'm only human. I wish I was a better friend but I'm only human. It's ok, imma get better.
No. 1964009
>>1963879Please post this on meta so mods can see, you make a
valid point
No. 1964015
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I'm a comic artist and I've been writing my magnum opus story for years that I've been planning to start work on after I'm done with it and today I found out a very popular franchise that I only knew on a title basis has the exact same setting and story as mine and I can't believe how similar they are almost down to the last detail, holy shit am I discouraged beyond belief. At least I know that my idea is good because that particular franchise is so celebrated but damn I want to scrap the entire thing now to avoid plagiarism accusations, years of work and characters I grew attached to down the drain.
No. 1964037
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Where does this person live where the men are more attractive than the women? This is supposedly a woman who typed this, but the fact they're rating men this highly as the more attractive pair reeks of pick me or scrote. Anyway, this post irritated me, and I wanted to vent that I hate seeing such boldfaced lies.
No. 1964062
>>1964015Unironically I think you would be the person who would get the most value out of watching vidrel rn (or maybe it was this one, idk I'm not going to rewatch them
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J4Jrwo0LQI4).
I hope it will encourage you somehow because I hate to see you give up on your longterm project!
No. 1964063
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I swear to God, the only time I'm not having intrusive thoughts is when I'm working is playing music loud in my headphones. Just put my headphones up to charge, and now I'm just stressed the fuck out because I'm having terrible thoughts.
No. 1964080
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i hate shaving, i hate feeling pressured to shave, i hate how time consuming shaving is, i hate feeling ashamed of my hair. but when i'm in a relationship i easily feel imperfect and gross when i'm not recently or freshly shaved. i was so upset and embarrassed of my nigel seeing my hair down there recently, despite not even having half a bush. it honestly bothers me so much it makes me reconsider having any sort of relationship at all just so i don't have to deal with the shame and the guilt and the embarrassment. he told me it was fine, we all get hair, but he prefers clean shaven. i was involuntarily upset about that, and i worry that resentment could build up over time, which again makes me wonder if any relationship is worth it at all if this situation bothers me so much. maybe i just wish he didn't have a preference at all.
No. 1964108
>>1963889It wasn't for nothing, it was for you to learn more about the behavior/personality type you want to avoid in people, set better boundaries, start trusting and loving yourself, and realize you deserve love and better things in life. Not everyone grows up with healthy ideas about relationships and love, and it has nothing to do with intellect. You know better what personal issues and past experiences could've led you to that situation so I won't be guessing, but giving him numerous chances shows that you're kind and caring, and you can have a beautiful relationship and great friendships with someone who deserves this side of you. It sucks you wasted your time on a piece of shit but it's in the past anyway. Some people stay in
abusive relationships for decades. You're free! Just don't let it happen to you again,
nonnie.
No. 1964118
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>1st day of a weeklong break from my job
>spend entire day catching up on college homework
>accidentally hit a skunk with my car on the drive home (and of course I'm upset about that)
>have to drive during the next four days to go to my classes with my car reeking like skunk juice
No. 1964130
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I've unironically become addicted to harassing and stalking men on Instagram. I did it once because one called me a nigger and said some misogynistic things, but now whenever I find one saying something stupid to me and they're retarded enough to put all of their information on their Instagram I can't help it and spend at least an hour or so finding what I can and scaring them. Just today, I had one call me weird and I went on his account and found a post where he was congratulating himself for passing some mechanic exam the retard posted the document with his full name, ID information and address. When I pointed this out, he locked his account but I already screen capped any information I could and sent replied back some really creepy psycho bpd-chan shit. I feel guilty because not only would my husbandos be disappointed in me doing something so mean, I can only imagine this has bad karmic retribution.
No. 1964133
>>1964130Idk
nonnie but it sounds like he deserved it.
>>1964080Divorce that thang
No. 1964136
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>>1964130>I did it once because one called me a nigger and said some misogynistic things, but now whenever I find one saying something stupid to me and they're retarded enough to put all of their information on their Instagram I can't help it and spend at least an hour or so finding what I can and scaring them.No fucking way, I would do the
exact same thing. I guess you and I are twins in that regard. We'll be two vengeful, Mileena bitches together then. I'm sick of taking shit from moids, so I don't hold back from bullying them and hitting it where it hurts. Never feel ashamed for what you do,
nonnie. Thinking about bullying some moids right now.
No. 1964157
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>>1964136(samefag) but one of my husbandos are William Afton, so I like to think he would appreciate my crazy streak. Don't feel insecure,
nonnie, I think your huabandos would love you even when you're being a Mileena.
No. 1964174
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I have big masseters because of how bad I grind my teeth and they have been extra swollen lately because I’m anxious over a big life change. I’m getting Botox son because of it but I really wish something so small didn’t change my face completely. I look super swollen today and it’s annoying.
No. 1964188
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I’m afraid this pms depression is going to kill me someday. I can’t spend 25 more years plunging into the deepest most suicidal state of mind monthly.
I’m already on Wellbutrin and I’m afraid to take birth control, I don’t know if it’ll give me far worse emotional side effects
No. 1964213
>>1964193If she already has emotional issues outside the PMS, hormonal birth control might make the condition worse. I had major depressive disorder and tried going on birth control for acne, it made me feel incredibly suicidal.
I know anecdotal evidence isn’t real but a lot of doctors wouldn’t recommend hormonal birth control if you have a history of mental illness.
No. 1964274
>>1964210I feel the same, I hate wearing tight shirts because it feels like im showing off my bust, I hate wearing loose shirts because the boob tent makes me look fat, and I hate trying to find a bra that I dont get spillage in
I know the grass is greener on the other side but man its a huge hassle
No. 1964287
>>1964249Yeah, absorbent underwear does help a lot during the day for small leaks, etc. It's something I'm very embarrassed about, though. I'm only 21.
Things get much worse when I'm drinking some kind of diuretic, so I have a really hard time drinking with friends and meeting people that way.
It's hard not to tell guys about this is if I want to sleep with them because I literally have to wear incontinence underwear at night.
Thanks for replying to me. I'm going to die alone for this fucking stupid reason and it's nice to be heard.
Every time I wake up in my mom's attic to wet clothes and head to my shitty service job at 6:00 am, I think about how I should really just fucking kill myself.
No. 1964303
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I fucking hate my rapist and everything he took from me. He knew I had no support or anyone to help me even if I asked. He knew he would win and I would have to give up everything. I fucking hate how weak and alone I was back then. I hate how he keeps living and thriving when I have to give up so much to avoid him. I hate how I didn't have a support system back then or how even having one today doesn't matter. I know he's probably still hurting other women and I hate that I failed to stop him. That fucking tumor of a human being, I wished he would combust into flames. If I didn't have people I cared about I could lose my last strand of sanity and bash his face myself. There is nothing else for me to do, it pisses me off so much. I'm tired of hearing "Don't even think about him". Can't even hate this turd without listening to some speech about how that's worse for me. Fuck off. I'll hate that monster until there's no more vitriol left in me to say. So tired of pretending I'm fine with it, that's in the past. It's not in the fucking past, it lingers till this day. It's past, present, and future. I fucking hate him.
No. 1964314
>>1964220Hi
nonnie im a nurse and have you ever considered getting a botox injection in your bladder? My workplace does it when theres people with OAB and a lot of times it works very well and the patients are very satisfied with the results. Im about to start working rn so i cant write myself how it works but when you look it up on the internet it says this: Botox works by stopping the bladder wall muscle contracting (squeezing) too much. This reduces urinary frequency and urgency and reduces urinary incontinence. Most women notice improvements three to four days after having Botox treatment, but for some women, this may take up to three weeks.
No. 1964326
>>1964314I've heard of that before, but tbh I honestly assumed it was quack medicine. That's probably unfair. It's not something I've ever really considered, I thought it was in the same camp as acupuncture and chiropractors.
Looking around a little bit, it seems like it actually makes a difference for some people. Maybe this is something I should look into more, thank you.
It's the kind of problem that I literally never talk to anyone about. My mom knows about it, but she just belittles me and makes fun of it. I don't really have any friends.
I'm so sorry for being this depressing, by the way. I'm not always this perpetually blackpilled, but I'm in a shitty mood lately and kind of needed something to pin it on, if that makes any sense at all.
No. 1964333
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just realized how pudgy and gross ive gotten. ana chan in my teens and since then ive steadily gained weight from healthy thin to "average" but i look like shit. i get high to stop having autistic meltdowns every 5 seconds since off my SSRI's i turn into a freak. but it makes me binge like crazy. i just hate myself right now and i hate how much goddamn nasty shitty processed garbage i keep guzzling down in a binge eating trance. i think i have BED. ever since i stopped restricting as a teen ive switched to overeating and binge seshes but since ive been thin for so long nobody cared and just thought it was like a haha quirky trait. my body just looks so nasty with extra weight on it, it has this puffy bloated look everywhere. i have a mouse like face and no chin or jaw definition but being super thin helped a bit. i really need to start working out but its so intimidating and im so lazy. i have the worst case of skinnyfat ever. need to drop like 20 pounds plus gain muscle on my arms so they stop looking so pudgy and sticking out way father than my shoulders do. i dont even know where to start, i just feel so disgusting when i look in the mirror and everything i wear right now has to be two sizes too big or i start crying. also need to get back on meds holy shit. im just embarrassed for existing at all i guess.
No. 1964672
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>>1964651I constantly think about this and it makes me so depressed. I have to remind myself of beautiful things in this world too or I go insane. Not to sound stupid but for me it's hearing the birds singing in the morning and at sunset. Or blooming flowers. Just little things that exist that are pure and beautiful. And I remind myself humans are capable of evil but they also are capable of extreme empathy and love and go out of their way to help others and animals in need.
No. 1964673
my friend got a fat check she didn't deserve because i helped her to get the government gibs that she wanted to study. she has a trust fund with over 15000 dollars that she refuses to use. i let her live in my fucking apartment for free for a whole month and paid everything for her while all she did was shop online every single day (with her savings btw, which she also has a shit ton of outside of her trust fund), stuffed her face with our food and didn't ever clean or pick up after herself a single goddamn time, because she threatened to kill herself if she had to live with her parents again. now she's been living with them for half a year with no problem and plans to continue doing so to fucking "save money". she literally leeches off them, no rent and doesn't pay for any food or anything. and her parents aren't even rich, all their money has gone into their kids' trusts basically, while they literally struggle to pay for their house's expenses with zero contribution from my friend or her equally leechy NEET brother.
the whole point of her living with me for free and me helping her out, driving her around to go apply for school and talk to counselors, fill out her fucking welfare thingy applications, write the right things to her doctor to get the right medical certificates, everything else i did for her - was so she could get her own apartment and go to school. she never even thanked me for anything, let alone paid me despite having probably six times as much money as me and my partner with all our savings put together, and now she has even more. she leeched on me and now she's leeching on her parents again. i asked her if she's going to look for her own place since she got the gibs and then just use her funds once she finishes school and can't get gibs anymore (that would literally pay her full rent and cover all expenses while she has them), until she can find a job or further education, and she literally said "idk i think i want to live at home to let them grow" (her capital funds). i'm trying hard to ask what jesus would do but i hope this bitch gets the rugged pulled out from under her in some way soon. i actually regret helping her at all even when she was sick, i realize now that i was just enabling her anyway while losing time and money that i really needed to help myself and fix my own life.
No. 1964702
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>>1964673Pls nonna help me learn how to get the gibs. I’m broke and have no trust fund and work but I can’t handle full time cause of my MS
No. 1964743
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>good friend of mine was in an abusive relationship with a psycho moid for more than 3 years
>finally gets out of it
>starts hunt for a new boyfriend immediately
>has panic attacks
>spend hours talking to her trying to make her understand she needs to process what she went through before getting into a new relationship
>finally she seems to understand
>nope, found a new boyfriend
>okay just go slow, date and have fun but break up if it seems toxic
>yes i understand
>she moves with him immediately and sells her car, depends on his car instead
>he goes on a vacation with his female friend without her because "he cant lose reservation money" or some shit
>she is having panic attacks
>"hey i think you need to break up, this does not seem like a good relationship for you"
>he comes back and she almost breaks up with him
>nope gets pregnant with him instead
>it is going to be a boy
she is turning into boymom isn't she
No. 1964827
>>1962547I say you should (gently) voice your worries to her. If she's really falling into that cult then you're gonna lose her as a friend either way, that's just the nature of the volatile TRA personality. BUT if she peaks at a later date then that might just strengthen your bond even more. I'd say talk to her, butter her up saying her feelings are
valid etc. and be as conflict averse as possible but tell her you worry for her health.
No. 1964897
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I flooded the fucking bathroom and now I have to clean the whole damn thing ffs I only wanted to chill today
No. 1964976
>>1964923abusers know to choose their
victims well, women could learn a thing or two from them
No. 1965000
>>1964899You probably have already heard this but, you don't have to do anything special to stop. You can just stop watching porn if you want to. It's so simple that it feels like it should be more complicated, but it isn't. It made me a little angry how easy it was to stop actually, because everybody makes it sound like you have fucking heroin withdrawals or some shit. You don't. You get a little bored for a while. Maybe read some romance novels or something.
>>1964923Some guys who do this don't actually want the type of women they describe, they just want to demoralize their partner. Other guys are shit-stirrers that pull the "I'm just a little guyyy I just want a chill gf cmonn" when their gf rightfully blows up in response to their continued provocation.
No. 1965085
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I legit hate that the one thread left where we can let loose is the post like a moid thread.
No. 1965106
>>1965098I hate when they don't even
try to set aside some extra cash for emergencies. I have empathy for poor people who are continuously sick or have car issues with no easy way to get a new car. That's understandable. But I genuinely get so annoyed with my friends who whine and complain about how they have no money in savings but they get take out for like 30+ bucks 4 or 5 times a week. Like holy fuck you're not even fucking trying. And especially when they try to to tell YOU what to do with YOUR money and savings like bitch shut the fuck up. I'm saving money every fucking check and you're spending it on Buffalo Wild Wings and temu purchases. I literally don't know how people can be so retarded.
No. 1965111
>>1964994I wish i was fast enough to come up with excuses on the fly. I definitely need to work on learning to say no without worrying so much about hurting feelings.
>>1965003ayrt, pretty much exactly what
>>1965026 said. it's such a small town that people will shame you for any small thing you do that's technically "wrong". they'll literally post a picture of your vehicle online if your parking job is not up to their standards.
No. 1965142
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I don’t know why but my mom has been into the whole “mama bear” thing despite my sister and I being grown adults out of the house. It’s actually starting to make me angry because my mother is the most anxious, non-confrontational person ever so I don’t know where this mama bear was when my alcoholic dad was abusing all of us. Or when I was being bullied and almost dropped out of school. Or when I needed a stable adult figure to guide me through life instead of being treated like a therapist/other partner. I love her but I don’t respect her and I resent all the years of cowardice on her part because she likes to play the victim. I think she’s self aware of her failures now and might be trying to project herself as a stronger person? I don’t know, but she has made it clear that she’ll never leave my dad nor do anything else to improve her life without everyone doing the heavy lifting for her first.
No. 1965320
being a romanian fucking sucks not because we're rather poor but because the average romanian is retarded, dishonest, prone to backstabbing, narcissistic, abusive, impressionable and greedy at the same time. they move like cattle and the younger gens idolize loud mouthed gold digger bimbo influencers, druggies, thieves and violent "alphas". i have absolutely no hope for the future of my country, we really deserve our fate, people here literally only care about money and looking rich to their peers
also our men are among the ugliest in europe, and extremely abusive on top of that. our women aren't much better either, there's barely any semblance of sisterhood here and women will casually throw each other under the bus for male validation. that doesn't mean there are no good people, it's just that they are drowned by the masses of low IQ folks
No. 1965341
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i really hate being alive on days like this
No. 1965377
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>>1962547Update on this:
>Venting to my mom about my best friend trooning out>Mention to her that my friend has never been "masc" just gothy and slightly tomboyish>"It's okay anon, you're prettier than her anyway.">mrwThe fuck is wrong with boomers. Why did I bother
No. 1965397
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>Let my mask slip in a discord server I liked and revealed what a sensitive loser I am
>People were nice about it but I know I can never show my face there again and maintain my dignity
It was full of troons and I had to lie all the time. Maybe it's a blessing in disguise. I still hate myself though.
No. 1965479
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I just wanna retire from life from a while. I don't want to die, just not exist for a couple months. I just want to leave and live in a lighthouse or caravan in the middle of nowhere and just be me. Just escape this shit
No. 1965484
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Old times
>being old = being elder/sage/wise woman. Much useful knowlege, much respect
Now
>being old = useless out of touch retard who doesn't know how to use an authentication app and dies after getting beaten in a nursing home. Useless and unwanted.
No wonder zoomers are having aging crises at 25. There's literally no benefit to middle age let alone being an elder.
No. 1965490
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>>1965465>>1965478kek nayrt but this reminds me of the time i tried searching for f/f rp and what tipped me off that it was a moid was that he starting narrating his FemC rolling down her thigh high socks in detail. ghosted so fucking fast.
No. 1965499
>>1965478Literally. Nothing isn't for the coom, it's crazy how their minds work.
>>1965490I want to ghost him so bad but we met on a server and I'm afraid he'll start ragging on me to other members, fuck lol.
No. 1965521
>>1965465Time to switch to chatbots nonnita.
>>1965478>it's either pointless coomery or some drawn out borefest filled with autistic worldbuilding that goes absolutely nowhere KEK this is so fucking true. Even back in 2010 I could always clock moids by these exact two things. Even the one(1) example I knew, who was a great and non-coomer rp partner, was always so autistic about boring world-specific details and functions that barely mattered to the plot.
No. 1965530
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the eclipse fucked up my cycle and made my period arrive earlier than it's supposed to, now my plans are ruined
No. 1965540
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I think I'm being observed my whole life by the CIA. They drugged and raped me in the GATE program and then tried telling me I am a tranny. They abused me so bad that I ended up having DID for a while. I have had my water poisoned with LSD and who knows what. I still remember. They tried psychologically abusing me, trooning me out so I could become the next Chris-chan or some other lolcow. I was constantly being surrounded by race-sperging, GNC women, and incel scrotes. On early social media, I saw some totally average girls getting almost hundreds of likes on posting mundane crap like "What time do we have English tomorrow?" and fugly girls getting 40 comments about how beautiful they are, but when I posted anything there were no interactions or actual bullying, maybe 3 likes and only the guy grooming me would comment something akin to sexual harassment. I grew up watching Youtubers and was encouraged to make videos by my family and their friends about my life, or silly shit. I made a total of 3 videos and some shorter clips but it was embarrassing asf. I don't know how the younger generation has 0 shame. I believe they are getting psyopped to sell out and it's disgusting.(take your meds, schizo)
No. 1965549
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>>1965540type 1 schizophrenia in action. very nice.
No. 1965562
>>1965556DnD is still a massive gendie troon game right now. It used to be mainly nerds, then some normies played it during the pandemic, but for the most part, it's infested with men and troons equally.
>listening to 100 gecsget some taste
No. 1965572
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Siouxxie's music is a guilty pleasure for me, but does he really gotta do that non-binary, thembie, genderspecial crap? Can black guys be alternative or goth or something without playing the pronouns game? Oh well, at least he's not trooning out.
No. 1965606
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I miss her so much anons… I could talk about everything and nothing with her. My heart aches for her, I just wish I could just put everything down and call her because she means the world to me but it's so important for me to move on because the more I'm with her and the more I realize I don't have a chance the more hurt and mentally ill I get. I just wish I could hear her voice comfort me, I wish I could feel her hair and smell her and have her pick me up when she hugs me again. It hurts so bad and there's absolutely nothing that can make me feel that safe again. I don't want to do anything, and really the only time I can be productive is if she coaxes me into getting work done but she isn't here and learning to no longer be codependent is so fucking difficult
No. 1965687
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I ended up getting rejected from a job I had a good feeling about. It really sucks cause I don't wanna be stuck at my current place. It's ok though, I'm gonna keep trying.
No. 1965690
I've have been keeping up with news on the Bondi stabbing, the guy's dad came out on TV and straight up said he targeted women because he couldn't get a gf, had no social skills and was frustrated. And without fail any post that features or focuses on this info gets a deluge of comments going on and on and fucking on about mental health without a single mention of it being a gendered attack. Yes, he was mentally ill and his dad made that clear (though apparently he was lucid enough to pick his targets!) but it's so obvious NOBODY wants to talk about misogyny. Up until now if you suggested he was targeting women they'd insist he was just going for the weakest targets, now they can't deny it so they're going on diatribes about the state of mental health services in this country without even mentioning male violence towards and hatred of women. People are still unconvinced gender has anything to do with it, and go on to speculate about him having delusions or psychotic breaks instead. Nothing will ever, ever fucking change until people can at the very least ADMIT the problem. If he was targeting any other group, it would be a hate crime or domestic terrorism. If he's targeting women, it's just another day.
Also scary as fuck, he was seen at my local shopping centre scouting out the place. I'm there all the time, including the afternoon he carried out the attack. It's just so close to home, I'm seething extra hard.
No. 1965773
>>1965700This just reminds me of a video I saw where the woman recorded how her husband had smashed the dishes bc she told him to do something. There were the typical men in the comments who were saying he was "pushed" to act that way. That's legitimately how they feel. They have such uncontrollable emotions that if they get upset they are prone to anger. It's never justified when a woman flies off the handle and acts violent but it's pitiable when a man does it. Even my own family believes that "pushed to violence" bullshit. So many males are not taught emotional regulation. They are so self centered that when they are hurt they want others to hurt like them.
I also remember a vid of a guy driving into a shopping mall bc his girlfriend broke up with him. The men's comments were the same. They know this is how they act. That's why they
victim blame and defend the man. Because they would do the same.
No. 1965779
>>1965752happy for you for recognizing this
nonny, it’s really hard to cut people out when they haven’t technically done anything to you other than staying loyal to your abuser which can feel like a petty thing when you have been so thoroughly dehumanized and demoralized by someone. but then i think about how i would react if i found out my friend’s partner was
abusive. and personally? i’m going full scorched earth, no survivors, if some worthless moid hurts my friend. and if their first instinct isn’t to do the same for you, they were never very good friends in the first place.
No. 1965807
>>1965779Thank you! Yeah its been a hard realisation, especially since i've had a lot of fun with these people, they have bee there for me a lot and vice versa, before and after, but as I get older and get more distanced from the abuse, I realise I cannot stay friends with these people. We are just fundamentally different as people as I could never be friends with an
abusive male, let alone one that has hurt my loved ones. I actually didnt even feel bad blocking all of them, all I felt was relief. I'm just scared there will be a rumor that I'm cutting them off bc my current bf is isolating me or something, but that couldn't be further from the truth. If anything he has helped me realise I shouldn't let peole who condone the abuse I went through into my life.
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I vented about this right after it happened but it’s been gnawing on me lately so I’m just gonna vent again. Maybe (hopefully) after this I can put it behind me.
A few months ago I tried to kill myself. After I got back from the hospital, one of the first things my older sister said to me was “Did you do it for attention?” (I had been under a lot of stress so I guess she assumed it was to get sympathy?) and the second thing she said was “If you die, we’ll send your cat away. We shouldn’t have to care for her.” That cat is my baby and she knows how much she (the cat) means to me.
It was just so fucking cruel, I can’t get past it. I don’t want to pull the “she owes me” card, that’s not what I mean, but I’ve always been there for her so I just don’t understand why she was so cruel to me. I’ve never let her down. I lent her 1000s of euros when she needed it for a debt. That was almost 10 years ago now and she has never paid me back. I’m struggling now and would need them but I don’t blame her for not paying me back, she doesn’t have the money, she’s still struggling, I get that. I take care of her animals 5 days a week for less than €50 a month from her because I live in the countryside and she doesn’t and she wanted those animals, so I take care of them for her.
This isn’t a money thing or a “she owes me” thing, I was happy to do those things for her. She’s my sister and I love her. I just don’t understand how she could be so cruel to me when I’ve always, always been there for her and helped her whenever she needed something from me. How she could be so cruel after I literally tried to end my life. I’m worried I’ll never get past it fully, and I’m sorry if that’s petty of me, I just. It still hurts so much. Maybe it’s because I’m a socially retarded autist that I struggle to put it behind me and move on.
No. 1965845
>>19658372 options. Option 1, your sister is a massive bitch who only cares about herself. Option 2, which is more likely, is that she thought that giving you positive attention might make you want to try to kill yourself again, and she brought up the cat to up the stakes. People react to grief and shock in different ways. Anger is much more common than you think.
Please get help ASAP before you try to kill yourself again. I'm glad you're safe now, but if you don't deal with your mental health ASAP it's only going to get worse.
No. 1965857
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that website is now dead to me for letting this scrote larp be this brazen. if they’re not a scrote then i’m genuinely saddened for this anon that she thinks some mediocre dicking she got last night is enough to change the perennial existence of patriarchy and misogyny
No. 1965864
>>1965845thank you nona, option 2 seems like it could be it, i never even thought of it like that. i really hope it’s it. thank you.
and thank you, i have someone to talk to, not a real psychologist but someone who works with psychiatric patients who listens to me and gives advice. i know i should get a real psychologist but there’s a shortage and i can’t afford a private one. anyway that was a sidenote, thank you for responding.
No. 1965937
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I have a desk job and my poor posture gave me sciatica, my lower back hurts like I've been lifting heavy objects with my back, the nerve pain irritates my bladder and colon so I get cramps and fart a lot after a while, and I feel like peeing myself. I've been around many doctors who thought it was my uterus, then my colon, then an infection. Once they ruled it all out they concluded I need a physical therapist but nobody can tell me what exactly is wrong, the MRI is clear aside from some light disc degeneration they say is normal for a 27 year old. I had it last year and it just randomly went away after a month or two. I'm waiting for it to do the same now, but it's taking forever and I have to work. Walking around and lying down is mostly fine, but sitting down for 40+ minutes is soooo annoying and embarrassing.
I feel so dumb, should have listened to my mom when she nagged me about sitting normally at the computer and wearing ugly orthopedic shoes. I have hypermobility that has caused a shitton of other minor issues for me and I stupidly thought some lordosis, flat feet and poor gaming posture wasn't going to be a problem until I was old. Now I'm one of those "teehee I'm getting old am I right fellow grandmas" people, except it hurts and it isn't funny and I want to be healthy.
No. 1966025
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>>1965937Do you exercise? I started doing some core/shoulder combo workouts it really shifts my spine a lot. My favorite is bending over and keeping your back and neck flat holding it as long as you can. Also, apparently going vegan can relieve spine inflammation and make back pain disappear.
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>>1965640Thank you for the recommendation, and so far I enjoy his music. Nonnies never miss with their music
No. 1966108
>>1966025Probably not as much as I should since I'm a full time wage slave, but I really need to get into it because hypermobility can't be managed that much without strengthening muscle, so I'll keep hurting myself if I don't.
I wish I could go full vegan, totally would if it wasn't for legumes being in almost everything and I'm a gassy lassie. That exercise looks dope though, thanks nonna I'll try it out.
No. 1966129
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>gender non-conforming trans male
Soooo, a woman then? What's the point of the tranny larp if you're gonna be "gender non-conforming"? God, art spaces online have been ruined. I can't even make friends or find mutuals without this dumb shit. Where are all the normie artist women at? I just want to find community with people that aren't extremely annoying or mentally ill. Seems impossible.
No. 1966133
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>start relationship with a moid
>he has normie friends, a normie family, normie interests other than slight autism for his major (biology aka probably the most normie STEM major possible)
>we make fun of trannies together but he never cared too much about gender ideology one way or another
>a little over 3 years into relationship he comes out to me as bisexual
>tell him gay sex is a major turn off to me but as long as he doesn't shove anything up his ass and never talks about wanting to fuck men Idc too much
>timeskip, now 4 years together
>he breaks up with me, gave me some generic "I can't be in a relationship rn" reason
>couple of months later we try to rekindle things for a few weeks
>then he suddenly tells me trannies aren't so bad after all
>huh
>he tells me it makes him uncomfortable I'm a TERF
>what
>he tells me he is in a femboy discord server and, around half a year ago, he ordered THIGH HIGHS AND A SKIRT FROM AMAZON AND WORE THEM WHILE HIS FAMILY WASN'T HOME
>WHAT THE FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
>ask him why the actual fuck he did that
>"Umm it made me feel vulnerable and small and cute"
>channel my inner Valerie Solanas and yell at him for a while
>we go no contact
>he follows trannies on Twitter and likes their ugly fucking selfies
>only days after our final conversation, he becomes IG mutuals with a bunch of neanderthal looking "femboys" from his city
>4 months later he has he/they pronouns in his bio
>this retard is in his mid 20s, mind you
>can't even talk about this with anyone because I'd die from shame if I had to utter the words "my ex broke up with me because he's now an enby femboy who wants to get fucked in the ass while wearing programmer socks"
No man is safe holy shit.
We had so many nice moments together but now I just have such a visceral reaction of disgust whenever I'm reminded of him. I'm genuinely repulsed I dated this nasty future TIM for almost half a decade jfc, literally wasted my entire mid 20s on this faggot. There were never any kind of red flags when it comes to this shit until he told me he's bi, and even then, he said he likes feminine twinky men but actual TIMs are unattractive to him. He wasn't interested in anime, imageboards, vidya or other typical coomer things. Nothing. He barely even uses Twitter. The only sign something was up was when he didn't want to have sex with me anymore the last months before the breakup, but I was on copium and thought it might be stress because we used to have a very normal, regular and vanilla sex life. All those years he NEVER brought up or tried pushing me to do anal or ass play or blow jobs or anything else you'd expect from a femboy tranny.
I never thought THIS was why he avoided sex. He's probably out there wearing his thigh high socks and sucking cock oh my GODDDD I'M GONNA THROW UP AND THEN KMS WHY DIDN'T I FUCK OFF AFTER MY INTUITION TOLD ME HE'S A CLOSETED BISEXUAL BEFORE HE EVEN CAME OUT TO ME I HATE MYSELF.
Normiest normie to have ever normied and his brain still somehow rotted. I don't get it.
This shit gave me actual trust issues because how in the world can I trust my future partners won't also do this?
Dear nonas please learn from my mistakes, just break up with your bf if he suddenly loses interest in sex and/or comes out as bisexual. There's a solid 80% chance you're going to end up like me, and I wouldn't wish this on even my most hated posters here. And I really do hate some of you so that means a lot
No. 1966151
>>1966133It's like our only choices in moids nowadays are pornsick tranny faggots or pornsick chauvinist "alpha" males. Grim. Sorry that you wasted your time on a freak,
nonnie!
No. 1966155
>>1965837Some family members are just not very emotionally mature. I'm guessing she was trying to bait you into staying alive by using your cat as "motivation" but she fucked it up a bit. It could be that she did it on purpose to distract you, if you're mad at her you'll be distracted from wanting to kill yourself - but I doubt most people are that cunning tbh.
I think you'll be able to get past it, you just have to realize she's emotionally immature and didn't know how to deal with a crisis and ended up taking it out on you. Confronting her directly about it won't do you any good I don't think, however if you have other family members you trust you should tell them "in confidence" how it made you feel and that you still feel bad about it. Especially if you know they're bad at keeping secrets. They will no doubt spread it around to other family members and eventually your sister will get to hear it too and get embarrassed. And if it turns out you have the one family on earth that doesn't gossip at least the few people you told should agree with you that it wasn't nice of her to accuse you of just wanting attention.
To hammer it in fully make sure to tell the person you're telling that you're glad THEY didn't say that because it made things worse and has made recovering harder for you. Make them feel righteous and like they're above your sister who acted wrong, that makes it so they're more likely to agree with you. Sprinkle in some lines like you did here "I love her but I don't understand how she could be so cruel when I really needed her" so it's clear you're not just being spiteful. Like I said, you'll get over it when you realize her emotional immaturity is just a part of her, not every part of a person is good. It's not about you, it's all on her.
No. 1966166
>>1965752Absolutely! If they're willing to accept the
abusive person then they're bad people to have as friends anyway. I think the best plan is to just silently go away and if/when they make contact you can be honest and say you can no longer be friends with people who excuses beating, raping and threatening women.
I'm personally pretty bad at keeping up with drama, so it would be easy for me to miss even big important things unless someone directly told me what happened. People would just tell me "yeah she said he was like kinda bad to her idk it sounded messy" and I would have no idea what actually went down but people would assume I had been told. So personally I'd let people have a minimal chance of getting to hear the truth before I ghost and block them fully. If my friend ghosted me and when I asked why she told me she could no longer take that I was friends with a rapist I would be mortified and drop the guy in a heartbeat.
No. 1966168
>>1966156Yeah he was, but I don't love having my pussy touched and hate getting eaten out so I never really paid enough attention to it for alarm bells to start going off until those last few months when he didn't want to sleep with me. But he also loved my big tits, so who knows what's going on in his fag brain.
>>1966151Thanks nona. I'm just glad I can vent about this here.
>>1966157What fucked me up about this all is that I've always disliked bisexual men but was already 3 years deep with my ex so I was too emotionally attached to him to leave when my suspicions were confirmed. Retarded of me, will never happen again if I ever get over this and date a scrote again
No. 1966171
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>>1966133I am of the firm belief that if a man sees nothing wrong with trannyism, he is either of low intelligence or a straight up bad and untrustworthy person. And from what I've seen, bisexual men are the biggest fucking sluts of the LGBTQ-whatever, which gives trannies a run for their money. Bisexuality in a male is a giant neon sign that should tell you to turn around and walk in the opposite direction immediately. From what it sounds like, that male is on the verge of trooning out at any second
right now. You got out of there while you could, so you did the right thing. Don't feel bad, it's not your fault he's a failmale faggotron.
No. 1966268
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>>1965872Squats and dead lifts will build muscle in your ass and enhance anything that's already there. It also builds strength, burns calories and will improve your thighs and lower legs.
>>1965937Same answer as above. You should gradually introduce yourself to weight lifting. It doesn't need to be anything extreme, 10-30 minutes three times a week is all it would take. Start with stretching exercises, move onto body weight exercises and then add low weight dumbbells. You would also probably benefit from taking a beginners yoga class as it's great for flexibility and relieving muscle tension.
No. 1966283
>>1966133nona, i'm so sorry you're going through this and i want to share my similar experience. i have always been very open with my brother about my gender critical views and he was very active in these discussions. he agreed with me during our anti-porn conversations. he often openly and directly criticized the men in his social circle who made misogynstic comments. we talked about how stupid and regressive gender roles are. we're both pretty online and would sometimes joke about programmer socks and attack helicopters.
one day i'm hit with the exact same shit as you: the discord and reddit femboy crap, taking my clothes, the cheap Amazon thigh highs and polyester skirt (i can still remember him actually saying "skirt go spinny" like a troon meme come to life), they/them pronouns, questioning his sexuality, and finally HRT. he's also become deeply coombrained and misogynistic making sick jokes about women to me and has had neanderthal outbursts.
this has been such a blow and has ruined our relationship as well as his career prospects. i completely empathize with that feeling of disgust you mentioned. my parents are totally miserable and things just keep getting worse. at least you're not related and can run as far away from this moid as possible. i'm convinced at this point there are no good men left. nearly all young men who don't subscribe to
toxic manosphere rhetoric are being groomed into insane trannies. it's totally over for men and they did it to themselves.
No. 1966285
>>1966280Lately, I've been into ice and cold snacks while feeling extra tired. Shit, I think you're onto something. Thanks
nonnie, I need to go eat some almond snacks now.
No. 1966294
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>>1966133Every bisexual man eventually ends up cheating on his girlfriend with a man. Every fucking time. No woman should ever give those trash can guttersnipe petri dish whores a chance.
No. 1966327
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>>1966133I'm curious, how much did he make being "bi" part of his identity when he came out.
No. 1966364
>>1966283God, I'm so sorry you're going through that with your own brother. I hope you can cut contact to the bare minimum and don't live with him anymore or at least found a way to stop him from stealing your clothes. Fucking disgusting, involving his own sister in his fetish.
I wonder whether whatever they said and pretended to believe in before they trooned out was just a facade or if it's really possible to go from being seemingly level-headed, normal men to terminal femboy coomers like your brother and my ex. Especially when they're already grown adults. You'd think they can't be influenced by some random femboys on Discord and Reddit anymore.
I can't imagine how much it must hurt to raise a child for 18+ years only for them to turn out like… whatever this even is. My ex's little brother is toxically masculine as fuck, here's hoping he beats the shit out of him for being a faggot to make him hide this shit from his family so his parents are spared from what's happening to yours.
>the cheap Amazon thigh highs and polyester skirtWhy is it always the ugliest garbage from Amazon? They could at least buy their fetish gear from some kind of fast fashion website. Actual women wouldn't be caught dead wearing that shit and yet it gives them "gender euphoria uwu".
>>1966327Nothing at all changed because I shamed him about it kek so he stfu about his bisexuality and didn't come out to anyone else irl until he moved cities for his master's degree and found a new friend circle. That's also when he began becoming a troon apologist but half a year after he crossdressed for the first time, so they didn't influence him with his femboy fetish or anything.
>>1966294>>1966171Amen
Sorry for repost, didn't realize how much I plebbit spaced the original post No. 1966407
>>1966133>he tells me he is in a femboy discord server and, around half a year ago, he ordered THIGH HIGHS AND A SKIRT FROM AMAZON AND WORE THEM WHILE HIS FAMILY WASN'T HOMESorry, in this situation I would've laughed so hard I would've been made into a femicide statistic LMAO.
>"u-uhh..ano…I'm a grown man but I got gwoomed by discowd fembwoys dey made me feew vuwnewabwe and smow and cute uwu"My fucking sides. Nigga gay af. I'm sorry nona
No. 1966471
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Hearing the most angelic and beautiful beat wasted on some shitass rap
No. 1966481
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I have to contest a ticket the day of my final exam. What should I do? It's a small ticket, but I don't have the 300$ to pay it, especially since I'm not in the wrong. (I was about to miss the train and I wasn't able to scan on time, I had a valid ticket)
No. 1966510
>>1965495Depends where you are but if it's in within a certain amount of time they would just fob it off for being more hassle than it's worth.
Also is that a Internet Overdose puppet? Didn't expect that game to get enough attention to get a puppet.
No. 1966513
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I'm very upset and stressed about my cats health. I've had her since I was in middle school as a kitten and she's now 14 years old. This year, I noticed a strange brown ring forming on her left eye, and it started getting bigger so I looked it up and apparently it's a very good sign of being some kind of eye cancer. I don't have a lot of money but I have to take her to the vet. I can't bear it. I'm worried though about the outlook. Thinking about it makes me sick.
Another thing is, my cat has had minor seizures her whole life, and while it has never been a problem in the fourteen years I've had her (except she'll occasionally 'roll' her eyes back in her head and blink rapidly), but lately her seizures have been getting worse. I'm worried it might also be a brain tumor? I hope not, god I hope not.
Picrel is not my cat, but it looks just like this, but a little bigger and goes around the outer edge.
I don't normally ask this but pray for my cats nonnas. I'm worried sick aout her.
No. 1966546
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Money problems make me wanna kms. Please give me a raise I can’t take much more.
No. 1966562
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It's annoying how my aunt will always blow up at me for no reason, sometimes even because of something caused by someone else.
Today she shouted at me because the interviewer told my aunt's friend (the owner of some school) that I "wasn't interested enough"???? Like what the fuck does that even mean? What the fuck did that retard wanted me to say? How the fuck did she want me to react?
>oh mai gad that's like so nice im like so so glad I will proceed to plan a whole school year without even being told anything about a salary!!!
Was that what the secretary wanted me to say??? I was also coming out of the bank, waiting for a car to pick me up while carrying a bunch of money (that isn't mine) in my purse, of course I was going to sound like I was, idk, fucking being aware of my surroundings???
Then my aunt called me freaking out like I told the woman "idk I don't give a fuck lmao" I even gave her my phone number (because she was calling me from a fucking local phone) and told her that she could text me and ask me anything.
I really hope that fucker doesn't do anything funny while I'm there.
Now I'm all stressed trying to cram a bunch of information of something I've never read about in case I get some test done or something.
Anyways, I hope I don't wake up tomorrow like usual.
No. 1966598
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Someone spent 331.00 at birkenstock store in Cali. I hope they die. I live on the east coast, so I dont even know how they got my account info. Now I am calling my bank to sort it
No. 1966788
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Statistically, I will end up with a hideous man.
No. 1966892
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I hate how corporate and bland the internet is now. It’s like a street of quirky family owned businesses were demolished for a single Walmart. Stumbled upon this ugly ass website and i felt a painful rush of nostalgia flood over me. It has not been active since 2019 as far as i can tell. The internet is over. Enjoy the same 5 sites that look the same, getting banned for saying the word “retard” and “kill”, recipe websites with so many ads that you cant even use it, gender specials, and retarded kids everywhere.
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>>1966936
Deleted so she doesn’t see
No. 1967041
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if nobody makes a new unconventional attractions thread I'm gonna leak the horny here and post uglies the conventional thread and i know you don't want that
No. 1967109
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>>1966788This is so true and a Fukushima level blackpill
No. 1967131
>>1967125There’s no demand for that here and honestly even if there was not a damn soul would hire our noodley, scrawny white asses for a manual labor job even if we begged kek. I definitely can’t lift over 30-35 lbs. we’ve barely been eating because food is expensive.
But anyway the fantastic news is that the quote I had gotten for my cat’s possible FIP treatment is way way way off. We can actually figure it out at the actual price which is 1/3 the cost estimate I’d originally found. The whole course of treatment is less than what I thought one month of treatment would be. Thank you dear God. Things will be tight for a while but we can save our baby even if he really does have FIP. Hopefully he does not but even if he does we can save him. I wanna cry tears of joy.
No. 1967135
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>anons infighting and derailing a thread for the same exact topics for the 50th time.
>Seems like even the containment threads aren’t working anymore.
It’s like I fear the death of lolcow but also long for it.
No. 1967150
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Another infight
No. 1967169
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I've vented about this before but I need to fucking get it out of my system because what the fuck. I have 3 roommates, one being my boyfriend. The other two are guys. One has lived with us for 2 years here and the other just a year. The one that's lived with us for 2 is nearly 40 years old (we're 26-30) and he fucking absolutely refuses to do shit around the house. He only takes down the bins because we have a buddy system each week, but besides that he has never fucking done a single thing in this place without us basically forcing him to do it. We had a well needed house meeting this morning and I had to put my foot down on so many things that's are either disgusting or annoying for everyone. Guess what, the 40 had the audacity to argue with us about how "this isn't my garbage why should I have to do the bins" or even fighting with the younger one "well I never use the bathroom really" and those are just two examples of unbelievable shit this guy pulls out of his ass. His attitude towards living here and with us has just been so piss poor. Doesn't try to help, doesn't contribute, doesn't take responsibility, the list goes fucking on. He was technically our friend and previous roommate before we all moved in together but he had his own suite so we never understood the extent of what a shit roommate he could be. I made a joke about how it's like living with teenager and I actually don't think it's a joke anymore. He really is just a man child. He's so fucking pathetic, it's no wonder women never want to go on a second date with him. He's so fucking useless, it's such a turn off when a guy is just fucking worthless. I could go on about a list of why he sucks but I'd be here all day. Something gross too is I recently only knocked that after he jerks off he washes his hands off in the kitchen sink. Why else would he be coming out of his room at 2 am most nights. Just fucking use your bathroom, it's literally right infront of your fucking door. And unfortunately no, I cant get rid of him because rent is sky high, and he recently lost his job so he isn't going anywhere. Next time he pulls any of this shit I'm screaming at him. I'm trying to be civil because we don't want to start a mini war in the house but I think the other two will back me up instead of feeling awkward. I have to tell him that at this age it's pathetic to act this way. Someone fucking has to. If he wants to act like this with roommates he should live on his fucking own.
No. 1967292
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I miss being neet so so much. I'm so tired, I hate my job and I have no pleasures in life anymore. I can't enjoy anything, even food tastes gross.
No. 1967303
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the creator of the tiktok is a woman btw. It disgusts me to think men take so much space in manga discussion that now women will defend pedo creators. Punpun is the worst thing i ever read, it's pure incel fantasy and no women should ever lay eyes on it, or any other asano's manga.
No. 1967336
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>>1967317It's not cute it's like if an incel wrote a psychological drama
No. 1967355
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most of the time when i catch men staring at me they look away or act embarrassed but yesterday while i was shopping a moid stared at me with such angry intensity that i actually felt deeply uncomfortable. i don't know what i could have done to make him so furious except exist. i did my best to ignore it because i was afraid of how his defective brain would react if he thought i was acknowledging him but he stood there glaring at me for a good thirty seconds before finally walking away. i wish i had told him to fuck off but i'll have to settle for posting here instead.
No. 1967377
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I feel like shit/betrayed even though I have NO right or reason to feel like it.
My brothers gf and I were planning to look for jobs and an apartment to live outside the country. I helped her with links, ads etc but was trying not to be pushy because she's my brothers gf, not mine. Only to find out today that they both went to check out a few places in the other country. No one told me shit. I don't know what possessed me to think I would ever be included in the plan no matter how much I'd help, they are a couple after all and I hate my brother. My retarded ass hurt it's own feelings. I'll be pissed if this piece of shit cunt of a brother moves there with her because he's a fucking manchild that's been leeching off of me and our mother for years. Now I'll be left alone with my abusive mother until she dies and all the pets he hoarded. Fuck my fucking life
No. 1967476
>>1967402NTA but keto is great if you're looking to give yourself kidney stones and a heart disease along with mineral deficiencies, but otherwise it's dogshit and impossible to do long-term. While following that diet you'd need to go to an actual expert to figure out how to do it without completely wrecking your body, and even then gastrointestinal issues are very common side effects.
Healthy carbs are good for you and important for regulating blood sugar, there's really no point in cutting them out of your diet. I wish people understood this and didn't buy into these stupid "carbs bad!!1!" fad diets. Just don't eat over-processed trash like white bread or pastries and you're fine.
Anon should try out a low-GI diet instead, it's easier since it's less restrictive and much better for your health in the long run.
No. 1967551
>>1967476>kidney stones and a heart diseaseThe most common cause of kidney stones is oxalates. Oxalates combine with calcium to form calcium oxalate stones. Plants are the richest sources of oxalates. Inadequate hydration and sugar consumption are also risk factors.
Research is mixed on if a keto diet can cause or worsen heart disease. In some people it improves heart disease and in others it makes the condition worse. It likely depends on someone's overall health, diet and lifestyle.
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC10421332/>Women who switched to a ketogenic diet showed significant improvements in their overall health and CVD risk parameters>Scientific evidence mostly confirms its beneficial (even more beneficial compared to other diets) effects on the lipid profile and other CVD risk factors.>A potential advantage of the ketogenic diet is the strong anti-inflammatory effect that interacts with the cardioprotective properties. In addition, the effect on cardiomyocyte metabolism and the increased uptake of ketone bodies in cardiac disorders means that ketone bodies can be described as “rescue fuel” for the heart.
>mineral deficienciesMeat is the most nutritionally complete and nutritionally dense food available to humans. Fat and protein are essential, carbs aren't.
>>1967476>it's dogshit and impossible to do long-termWith regards to willpower and general livability then it can be difficult. There are no known health issues with a long term keto diet.
>you'd need to go to an actual expert to figure out how to do it without completely wrecking your bodyIt certainly helps to be under the care of a medical professional but it's far from necessary. Work out your TDEE, work out your body fat percentage and then work out your macros.
>Anon should try out a low-GI diet insteadA low GI diet does not result in ketosis. It's the state of ketosis that provides the neurological benefit. While in ketosis the brain uses ketones as fuel. One in particular is of the most interest and that is BHB (betahydroxybutyrate). Any required glucose can be synthesised from fat and protein through gluconeogenesis.
No. 1967572
>>1967556I don't know what my LDL is because I haven't had a blood test in over a year. I don't suffer from high cholesterol or nutritional deficiencies so it's unnecessary for me to have regular blood work.
My weight is 82kg and I'm 181cm, my body fat percentge is somewhere between 25-30%. I lift weights and have done for years, so my weight and height ratio falls into overweight on a BMI chart due to increased muscle mass.
I'm not sure what the point of this is as I don't eat a keto diet, I eat low carb and have done for over a decade. I don't eat a keto diet because I don't have neurological symptoms.
No. 1967608
>>1967577>fatty in-denialRead more carefully.
>My weight is 82kg (5'11) and I'm 181cm (180lbs)Imperial measurements added for if you're American
>my body fat percentge is somewhere between 25-30%My body fat percentage is perfectly healthy for a woman of my age
https://us.humankinetics.com/blogs/excerpt/normal-ranges-of-body-weight-and-body-fat>In general, the total body fat percentage (essential plus storage fat) is between 12% and 15% for young men and between 25% and 28% for young women.
>I lift weights and have done for years, so my weight and height ratio falls into overweight on a BMI chart due to increased muscle mass.https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC6690141/>body mass index overestimates body fat in subjects with high muscle mass and underestimates it in persons with a low lean body massI will be overweight according to a BMI chart because BMI does not compensate for increased muscle mass. Per gram lean muscle mass has a higher weight density than fat.
No. 1967612
>>1967599Agreed, wish I was as tall as that
nonny because that's an attractive weight and height to me when paired together
No. 1967665
>>1967572You're shit at lifting if you've regularly been doing it for years but but have 25 to 30% body fat.
>inb4 spamming studies like an autist to prove you're actually at an ideal weight and bf% for a woman who liftsShut up, no you're not, that's skinnyfat range and too high if you're bulking. Time to cut
No. 1967676
I'm the anon that had the migraine problem and I'm sorry I opened up the discussion that led to anons being weirdly aggressive about others' weights. I'll just experiment with food myself. I've admittedly been eating whatever I find easily.
>>1967572I wish I had your body though anon, I love tall and built women. Your weight sounds perfectly normal to me too.
No. 1967720
>>1967656>being short stops being cute in your late 20s>dissing all the cute short grandmasThose are fighting words,
nonnie.
No. 1967734
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>>1967704It kinda sucks once your out of early twenties. I look older just smaller. I don't think I'm cute anymore. People don't respect you at work and regular life. I've been called the Chihuahua whenever I get drunk and pissed off. Like my anger is
valid as anyone elses but it looks dumb because I'm short. 4'11 life
>>1967720I'm about 30 years away from hitting pic related
>>1967608Sorry if I hijacked your vent with me vent nona
No. 1967791
>>1967292i’m also a former neet, and being slightly miserable in an office or outright doing nothing for like 30 usd an hour is soooo much better than being extremely miserable at home and doing nothing for 0 usd on top of all the existential stress. i dunno what job you’re working but like that other anon said, it’s going to get easier kek
especially if you’re making enough $$$ to move. getting out from under your parent’s thumb is going to be great (if you aren’t already)
No. 1967795
>>1967665I'm in my early 30s and I've had children. My possible strength has peaked and the days of me being a 22 year old with under 22% body fat are over. I probably could do with losing a few kilos but it's not like I'm unhealthily overweight or anything.
>>1967676>I'm sorry I opened up the discussion that led to anons being weirdly aggressive about others' weightskek. A discussion on migraines resulting in someone being called fat is just an average day on /ot/.
No. 1967931
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Sometimes posting on here pulls out the worst and most uncomfortable emotions out of the recesses of my mind and I don’t know if that’s good or bad and if it’s necessary mental purging to let it go. I hate it. It brings up really bad memories and feelings. I hate talking to people even on the internet, I wish I could avoid everyone altogether and just ball myself in my bed and rot forever. I’m too conscious that what I’m talking to is another person on the other end of the screen
No. 1968055
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>>1966793Come on. Don't leave us waiting
No. 1968079
I always feel bad, it's making me suicidal. Can't eat anything without feeling gross and bloated, I'm nauseous and sleepy 24/7, panic attacks randomly, my chest hurts, I'm depressed, insomniac, i look gaunt and dehydrated as hell too, my guts feel weird. I wish I could just go back to being normal man, it's been months like this and barely anyone gives a fuck just because it's just "hormones", this is legit an awful existence. I joined college again and I can barely get out of the bed, had to drop one class and half-ass the rest, I only assist to online classes because I'm so insecure about my appearance and barely have the energy to go anyway. I seriously need help this is ruining my life, my mental stability and self-esteem, I look awful and feel awful, just give me whatever the fuck I need and be done with it, it cannot be that hard
No. 1968197
>>1968151If you compare yourself to others you become bitter.
If you compete with yourself you become better.
If you churn yourself you become butter.
No. 1968236
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>>1968215that genuinely makes me so happy ! do you have him on a lanyard so he is closer to your heart kek ?
>does anyone ever ask whose name it is though? not really. It's mostly because of the design, you can't really tell there is something written, it just look like a big pink heart (but i actually like it better that way, i can wear him everyday and not have to explain i'm in love with a npc from an obscure japanese video game kek)
No. 1968432
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>>1957353loneliness is really hard. i only interact with my doggies, mother (when shes home and not with her boyfriend) and ballet instructor. i have a very lovely pen pal i e-mail sometimes, but how do i cope? im going to look for a source of income this summer but maybe i can fit time for volunteering and still have time for my hobbies. but i just feel very lost living a life that only revolves around myself and my dogs. i just wish i could do a bit more, or be apart of something…
No. 1968476
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I don't like who I have become after college. I graduated in the pandemic and ever since then, I completely failed to integrate into society. I'm nothing. I feel like nothing. I've regressed and I'm completely isolated except for my bf. I have no plans other than sleeping and waking up tomorrow again I guess. I'm plagued by constant nightmares, and it is those nightmares the ones that keep fucking me up. I dream about people no longer in my life, from college or high school, I dream about school, teachers, classes, etc. Its like my head resents me for not being in school anymore, right now I don't want to study a master's degree or anything like that so I'm done with it. I have no friends, they all went away. I blame a lot of this pain on my own personality and lack of motivation. But I just don't know anymore. How do I stop these fucking nightmares? Help.
No. 1968508
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I think I've fallen out of love with my husband. I can never leave him, though, because I'm too disabled to work and moving back in with family would drive me to kms. I wish I was someone different, with a different life. I just spend my time daydreaming and wishing I was dead. Everything is too difficult, I need it all to stop.
No. 1968632
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If this scrote isn’t lying I wish for every woman who has slept with this reddit fuggo and inflated his ego gets put on death row.
No. 1968790
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I just inhaled dander from a decayed chicken and I feel it in my throat still no matter how many times I threw up and rinsed my mouth out I think I'm going to kill myself fucking christ I feel sick
No. 1968824
One of my weirdest dreams is having been abused as a kid and not being able to remember. Like I know all those stuff about repressed memories is mostly bs, but I did have a lot of stuff blocked due to trauma I developed from being homeless as a teenager, so who knows.
The thing is that I remembered recently that I had asked a kid when I was on 1rst grade to be my boyfriend. Apparently I would make him wait for me when schools ended, and then force him to kiss with me. Like, real on me mouth kissing. Afaik it didn't lat more than a week, cause someone saw us and reported it to the school, and then the school told my dad. Bear in mind that I was around 5-6 years old when this happened, so what the fuck.
I don't remember much of it besides that. I remember my dad told me he was mad at me, but I don't think he actually scolded me or told me what was going him. I think about it, and all I can think is poor kid. I feel awfully bad for whatever kid was on the receiving end, I don't even remember his name. I think he wore glasses? Idk.
Anyways, I just can't stop thinking how weird that is. Like, what the fuck, what kind 5yrs old does that? Why didn't the school send me to counseling or something? I don't think I can sleep, I'm still too disturbed over remembering that, what the fuck.
No. 1968836
>>1968824I don't think he's traumatized by you kissing nonnita, kids do way worse things to eachother all the time. Seems pretty funny to me. I paying with kisses for a better spot in the lunch line at 5 kek.
But repressed memories are interresting. I for example, completley forgot i had an interaction with a pedofile when i was like 9 and it all came back when i was 15 seeing another pedofile in the wild pulling his dick out on the playground. At 15 i knew what pedofile was but at 9 i had no idea such people exist so in my memory it was just a "guy who doesn't know his huge dick is out i guess?" so the memory was deemed insignificant in my brain and only at 15 i mad a mindblowing moment and it all came back to me.
No. 1968880
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I hate that I always start to starve myself when I'm stressed or depressed. It's like you get relief from the terrible feelings when you stop eating. I start feeling better and then trigger myself with something, this time the blackpill thread, and will be on a downward spiral for weeks. It's so hard to find beauty in this ugly ugly world.
No. 1968901
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I'M LATE FOR MY GRANDPA'S FUNERAL
No. 1968937
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Hate that my friend has been absolutely blinded by receiving male attention for the first time in her life and is refusing to see the red flags with her scrote
>is dropping out of the program he's currently taking in college that would lead to a better paying position despite telling her when they started dating he was going to complete it
>fucks around playing video games and face timing her instead of studying
>she's the breadwinner of the two and works full time, he only works part time
>he convinced her to move out with him and they've only been together for like 6 months
>was previously living with two other roommates and splitting bills three ways
>has barely helped with the process of getting the new apartment, she found it, she toured it, she's been moving her stuff over there with no help from him, she had to go by herself to get the internet set up, etc.
>publicly posting on reddit that he did bdsm shit and inflicted pain on all the women he's been with previously
The moid seems like he's going to turn into a total fucking bum, I can't stand the thought of this retard using her like a paypig while he sits around at home doing nothing. Of course she defends him at every turn and gets pissy when anyone tries to convince her that this is a bad idea—it's so frustrating watching someone walk into a situation that you know won't end well
No. 1968946
>>1968944Diff anon but cheating is usually what follows. You're working full time and doing all the adult shit, meanwhile they've so much spare time on their hands that they can fit in some affairs.
They'll only shoot the messenger if you try and warn them though.
No. 1969033
>>1968970>>1969025you bitches seriously need to stop the manhating for at least a minute holy fuck
>>1968953I'm sorry for your loss nonna, but I think you're the only one who knows best if there was an underlying reason for this
No. 1969039
>>1968944Yea of course I'll be there for her but it's gonna be hard to not say I told you so kek. I just pray that she doesn't turn into a doormat and stays with him if he starts screwing around behind her back or turns into a porn addict with all his free time.
>>1968946>They'll only shoot the messenger if you try and warn them though.Kek exactly, I don't know how many times I've told her that something doesn't seem right here or brought up something that was
problematic to me but she never sees the issue or starts to act like I'm being dramatic. It's never wrong to be overly cautious with moids, especially ones that give off leech vibes.
No. 1969068
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>>1968953 Please lean on family and friends at this time. Take some time off work if you can. Just take of yourself, idk what the situation with your families is but I’d let other members worry about the service and stuff for now if possible.
>>1969033A male literally killed himself knowing it would traumatize the woman closest to him, this is a moment for manhating tbh. No one is convincing OP to rejoice he’s dead, anons on the internet have no reason to mourn him, just a lack of tact maybe. Yes, it’s more important that OP receives empathy and also reminders that it’s not her fault and she must not let it destroy her future.
No. 1969074
>>1968953Nonna, keep posting here when you are in the right headspace.
Please reply to my post if you want some links to therapy sources, I got you.
There is so much trauma for you to process. All I can say, is that the world has many types of love out there for each of us.
This chapter is ending so a new one can begin, as cliche as this may be.
All the love nonna. Hoping your friends and family show you kindness and support.
No. 1969206
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>>1968880I'll trade you for this terrible oral fixation and my binge eating problem that's been getting worse lately maybe I should go back to smoking I dont even like hot Cheetos but I ate them anyway wtf