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No. 1678600
What is troubling you
nonniePrevious thread:
>>>/ot/1647768 No. 1679106
>>1679093don't feel bad, you made it
>>1679062it's what he deserves
No. 1679139
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I wish I was cute and small and petite. I wish I could wear high heels and not be like 8 feet and stand over everyone, I also hate my huge proportions I feel like a troon sometimes with my squared off shoulders and tallness
No. 1679148
>>1679139I used to feel the same
nonnie, but the secret is to just own it and take up the space with pride.
No. 1679276
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YouTuber I've had a stalker-ish crush on since middle school just casually mentioned he had a girlfriend in one of his videos and it fucked me up. In that moment I finally understood those moids that shit themselves over VTubers even speaking about men.
What's worse is that I thought I had gotten over it. I have a fucking boyfriend for gods sake and here I am feeling murderous intent over a man that plays video games for a living.
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My incredibly toxic "bestie" just got hard-core exposed/called out on Instagram. There are dozens of posts and stories from people she's hurt and treated like shit. I hate callout culture but tbh she had this coming. In a way im glad she's getting a blast of karma but I know her other cronies will continue to coddle her and she'll never change. I'm glad I took distance and stopped being her punching bag. You are not a nice girl.
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i just saw my husbando posted to one of the husbando threads on here, i am shook. i kinda wanna reach out but im shy and what if she's one of the yume types who dont like to share. idk. hope shes having a good day tho
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>>1679647>>1679662i know logically that this is true and you all seem very welcoming, but im still weird/shy about posting my husbandos anywhere on the internet for some reason, so atm i am content with mostly lurking…
No. 1679714
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>>1679689We'll welcome you with open arms when you're ready anon!
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>>1679714thank you nona ♥
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I was better at not responding to bait four years ago than I am now.
No. 1679922
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I have a copy of Charlotte's Web that I have been using akin to a stress ball for 23 years.
I have terrible anger; when I'm alone and overwhelmed, I put the closed book in my mouth and bite down on it as hard as I can until I don't feel as bad. It's covered in teeth marks, as you can imagine.
I live at home because I am a loser.
tl;dr, mom found the bitin book
No. 1680056
>>1679922better then me
t. serial pillow biter
No. 1680107
>>1680090What type of men do you date?
Don't date:
Men from broken families
Men who had
abusive/alcoholic fathers
Men who have autism or other serious health issues
Men with anger issues
Men who can't befriend women
Men who have a bad relationship with their mother
Men who are chronically online
A good partner wouldn't dump you when you're sad and angry, they'd be there for you. You deserve a good partner that won't make you bottle up your feelings.
No. 1680250
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I managed to talk my best friend out suicide and so I should be happy, but I'm just so melancholy that it got to this point. I was able to stop this attempt but what about the next one or the one after, etc?
No. 1680377
>>1680284once I was crying and my (now ex) bf told me to stop yelling. I wasn't yelling, and I wasn't crying about him. I was really really hurt by something my
abusive and controlling boss did to me specifically.
"stop yelling"
I swear I felt this surge of doom and despair, nonnas
No. 1680755
>>1680347most of us on that thread are pretty self aware about our… hobby. it's harmless, and prevents us from misdirecting affection towards undeserving moids. it's a good way to cope with celibacy, voluntary or not.
my on-topic confession is that 3d relationships and sex disgusts me now. even if a moid claims to love you, it is not personal, not intimate, and cheap. i use 3d moids for their utilitarian purpose, but don't waste love on them. i'm much happier for it.
No. 1680934
>>1680090men hate when we express anger. funny enough, it is always going to happen because fights are normal in relationships and women are human. moids who can't handle anger expect us to act like sex dolls.
i find comfort in the fact that these sorts of men will never have a lasting relationship and will end up forever alone because they will always give up as soon as anger is expressed. they will forever be in search for a unicorn that doesn't exist. gives me so much joy knowing they won't ever have someone to love them
No. 1681824
>>1681809I’m the same, toilet humour helps me cope with a humiliating fact of life I can’t change. The problem with moids is they always want to help you
overcome these things, so even if you manage to overcome it and tell him lightheartedly that you need privacy, they’re like “you can trust me anon I’m a cool bf haha! I don’t care if you shit I’ll even talk to you on the toilet!” It’s not even that, if there isn’t sufficient privacy then things don’t happen and it’s incredibly frustrating.
Also I’m not trying to demand you navigate your life around his irritating behaviour like I’m some kind of Redditor, but do you bring your phone into the bog? See what happens if you leave it behind.
No. 1681836
>>1681784Nooooo red flag red flag. I agree with other anon. Either he has a scat/bathroom voyeur fetish (have you checked for toilet cams?), or he's an insecure weirdo who is trying to hear if you're on the phone with someone else. Does he love the smell of your shits or something? Why is he standing outside the door like that? This is too weird, I would have tried talking to him three times and then left if he didn't get the message KEK. Like at some point it's not even about the pooing, it's about my comfort and you can't listen to me when I say leave me the fuck alone!
You should try what
>>1681824 says but be ready for him to go through your phone. Maybe double back if you realize he's not following you like usual.
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>>1679493Had to google who's that and now I can't unsee it. Thank you for this fun fact, anon.
also you should be judging timmy chlamydia fans for having a shit taste in men kek No. 1681878
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i have a weird hate boner about coquettes and anachans and kawaii weeb zoomer girls because i just don't understand why on earth someone would ACTIVELY ASPIRE to be frail, weak and small instead of the opposite of those things.
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This is really irrational and retarded but sometimes i'm paranoid about a certain person finding the posts ive made about them on lolcow, they already know i browse this site sometimes… Plus i feel like i have a distinctive typing style.
No. 1682046
>>1679493I went to watch Dune with my male friend (who I wanted to ask out but eh…) and even he kept saying how attractive Timothy is. Apparently he can even turn moids gay.
Still I think he is kinda weird looking. It's his eyes and fac expressions, it's like he tries too hard to look sexy.
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Does anyone else feel like they have one foot grounded in sanity and the other in crazy? I’ll be normal for awhile but as soon as something triggers my trauma I just lose my shit and can for months. I keep it completely internal though so I look and act normal but I’m fucking dying inside. Currently I want to vendetta post a girl who has been hanging out with my ex and see if anyone else thinks she’s ugly She has Shay vibes but I know if I ever did that I would feel sick with shame and guilt and hate myself forever. I can hate her with a passion when I keep it to myself but I know if I ever acted on it I would (rightfully) feel like the worst person in the world. I know it’s just normal learning from the consequences of your actions but a lot of these thoughts can get really unhinged.
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I want women to be worse.
No. 1682408
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I matched with and had a nice conversation with a cute guy on hinge who unmatched me 20 minutes after I asked him for coffee. Even though his profile was a nickname I remembered enough details from his profile that I was able to find his Facebook and LinkedIn and even some dorky local news article about him from when he was in high school. I’m glad I’m better socialised and more empathetic than the average cyberstalker scrote because that was thrilling, and a good reminder to myself to be careful with my info.
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>>1682385Based, that's why recently I've taken to just saving/taking pictures of males I like and know I can never be with because of their rancid personality flaws, I feel like it gives me power without them even knowing. That's my personal confession. I'm a bit of a stalker. Your face and body are now mine to look at and draw, and transform into a better creation.
No. 1682780
>>1682178same tbh, i'm an only child and i know that it would be absolutely crushing for both of them
and they're too old to make another one. but the fact that you wanna die and plan to do it at some point also makes life a little easier, you feel less pressure to make it meaningful and lose some boundaries (which paradoxically opens some doors for gaining new experiences).
No. 1682805
>>1682406What the fuck
nonnie? ask them for help right now.
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At some point in my life I will surely write a fanfiction in which I will grab the names of the characters from the game “degrees of lewdity” and then I will exchange them for the names of my husbandos so I can daydream better about my husbandos fucking me in different ways, because while I love how retarded is the game, my mind is too lazy with the quick replacement of the original names for the names I want to read.
It’s like a filter that moves and shows what you don’t want to see.
I wish I could change the names and descriptions of the love interests so I could name them after my husbandos.
No. 1683008
>>1682406tbh I think you should let them know what's going on so they can help you out. If you're like me and only living for their sake, it makes sense to at least lean on them a little in hard times in order to prevent your life from becoming even more unbearable than it already is.
>>1682780I'm not an only child, but I'm pretty sure my sibling will die by suicide sooner or later and they can't lose both children. That's the other thing that makes me bitter, the irresponsible shitbag child gets to off themselves since they don't give a fuck about my parents despite all they do for them but I have to stick around because I care. It's like being punished for doing the right thing.
I often mull over what I could say in a suicide note to make it go over smoother, but realistically I know the contents of a note wouldn't really make a difference in the level of grief they feel. But even still I think the best option would be something like
>You did everything right and without the love and care you showed me I would not have gotten as far as I did.I mean clearly the combination of my parents' genes just produced two offspring with severely abnormal mental health for whatever reason, it's clear as day it's something in our DNA since we were raised with a picturesque family life but still suffer from similarly untreatable mental torment. I wish there was a gentle way to say that without offending them kek, because they did the best they could with us but we were never destined to make it. I can't think of any way to work that into the note though without it sounding bad.
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My bfs dick is too small for me.
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My friend is not fun to hang out anymore, now all she does is complain. I miss the more joyful version of her.
No. 1683165
>>1683154You will at best damage your organs and functioning.
>>1683161Yes. If you need methods of self harm that numb you, things that are crude and immediate are far better than downing pills or poisons that will most definitely only destroy your liver and maybe even cause damage to basic functioning. Stupid impulses are stupid for a reason.
No. 1683172
>>1683154Jeeze, nonna, go to the ER and say it was accidental ingestion. I know you don't want to get put on suicide watch or whatever, but you don't want to have brain damage, seriously. Imagine feeling the way you do but not being able to process it or help yourself. Worse, the state conserves you and puts you in a group home to be abused. You do not want the medical bills from other organ damage.
What the hell happened today that made you eat rat poison?
No. 1683181
>>1683154If you don’t want to go to the ER can you write a note down stating how much you ingested, and the symptons, etc? Just so you have clear information on what happened. Hope you feel better when the sun rises
nonny.
No. 1683184
>>1683172im thinking more and more that im going to have to do this. what happened is extremely humiliating, has to do with a long term
abusive friendship/relationship. i just dont want to be around for her to torture me further.
>>1683171kek big surprise im sure considering the profile but been there
thanks for being nice guys.
No. 1683191
>>1683184Listen, I have also felt like dying from a friendship/relationship, but she is really not worth killing yourself over. She is a singular person, and once you excise her completely from your life, even if that means moving somewhere else, she really won't matter anymore. There are women in multi-decade relationships with
abusive scrotes who eventually got away, dealt with the aftermath, and are so much happier now.
It'll be okay, nonna. It sucks right now, but it won't always. I hope you get yourself to the ER soon or call someone to take you, and feel better quickly.
No. 1683296
>>1683178School is hell on earth, I personally found life a lot easier when I entered university but if my adult life were the same as in middle and high school I would have ended up just like you.
>People being nice to me fucking disgusts me.Why? Is it because you think it's all fake? I also was like that before because of how I noticed people being passive aggressive or lying to me. I hope you can get better.
No. 1683555
>>1683296Thank you
nonnie>>1683294Yeah, I feel like it’s fake and like I’m being manipulated. It just doesn’t make sense to me at all. I don’t believe people can have genuine positive emotions or something that involve me, I guess. My parents were both very emotionally neglectful and one of them is autistic. (I’m not autistic myself.) Neither of them really seem to understand that people have emotional worlds that need to be developed and nurtured. I don’t understand why all my problems are so severe
>>1683403I’ve never heard of that before, but some of it fits me very well. I definitely have AvPD and probably some kind of cptsd because of the neglect I experienced. Again I just don’t understand why it’s so bad. I guess it’s just a perfect storm.
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I like this shitty, old zoomer meme.
No. 1684564
>>1684562like i'm googling
how to develop a eating disorder as a morbidly obese person I'm having a break down, I hate my body it's so gross. I just want to not be fat anymore, I want not to crave food, and NO i'm not some 110 pound person, like i'm legit fat.
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>>1684562honestly if you want to become an ana Chan just learn about counting calories and finding out how you can eat the highest amount of food for the least amount of calories. That’s how most ana chans become ana chans because we become addicted to doing this shit until it’s too late and we die or something. This dinner I made yesterday was only like 500 for all this food.
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>>1684577Its mixed vegetables, pasta sauce and noodles then add whatever meat you want. I added ground beef. I got all of these ingredients at the dollar tree so it was less than 5 dollars.
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My confession is that I report all sexually explicit content I come across on tumblr, even if it's not a porn account but some normie who decided to post softcore porn for whatever reason.
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>>1686047>>1686073They should get facelifts and wear anti aging creams or something , I wish men had half as much pressure as women do to look good but I would kms if I had a pair of testicles they’re ridiculous and silly looking they’re also a liability, sometimes I tapped my ex on his leg and he’d be like owww my balls and freeze up and look like he was gonna cry., it was not even that hard, meanwhile I could punch my boobs like speedbags and they won’t hurt
No. 1686611
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after being used and abused by aspd moids I still sometimes find myself attracted to these traits.
maybe even more so now that I'm in therapy. I think my broken brain feels that the only way I could get truly seen (in the moment) by a male would be through being abused, sexually, out of his desire to devour me, and that that somehow translates into some sick validation. like being stared in the eyes by a hungry psychopath seeking to overpower me makes me feel special
I hate to be a cliché. I pretty much let myself get abused because I wanted to be seen and devoured more than I wanted to avoid harm, because abloobloo I had shit parents and was neglected and was bullied for being an autist and so on and so on
but that sick part inside me still remains! sometimes it pops up and I turn back into a slutty pathetic teen willing to do anything for attention. and my brain is set on fire whenever a man starts to abuse me, so I avoid them and stay celibate.
but yeah I want to fuck villains and it's cringe
No. 1686856
>>1686611I'm sorry girl. I think I saw someone on here talk about slowly rewiring your brain by framing what you like about these men in a more healthy way, like
>being stared in the eyes by a hungry psychopath seeking to overpower me makes me feel special can become
>being stared at in the eyes by someone who passionately wants you romantically or something. Remember, these men don't actually see you for you. They don't want you, they just want anyone or anything that fulfills their basic 1-dimensional Neanderthal urges. Literally no brains up there in their heads. You deserve better
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All those posts in the vent thread shitting on short women and calling them 'goblinas' makes me want to kms. I don't know why I keep coming here anymore.
No. 1686924
>>1686856I think the issue for me is that I'm
deeply convinced that that's not possible for me in any realistic way, so my mind jumps to the closest "acceptable" thing which is being targeted by a soulless psycho who only looks at me because he wants power over me
I can't really fantasize about normal consensual sex. It's embarrassing, unrealistic, disgusting. I think part of it, other than from the abuse, stems from being made to feel so unattractive and disgusting at an early age that I literally can't allow myself to see that as a possibility for me? Which is weird because I have had nice sweet consensual experiences too.
I probably dissociated thoughSorry for unloading I'm kind of back in a very unpleasant space rn (reminded of aspd "ex")
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>>1686888Yeah. Like Meryl streep, strong cheekbones and an angular jaw does well in aging she probably has some work done too but she’s good proof
No. 1686989
Sometimes I think I might be the problem, but I've been wronged so much that I feel justified in being overly sensitive and having hindered conflict resolution skills where I just start crying and have a mental breakdown.
"It's me, hi, I'm the problem, it's me
At tea time, everybody agrees"
>>1685796I've been doing this too. In the past 2 months I've reported over 50 accounts for being porn/OF spambots spamming my tags with their coomism. Beyond that I don't know why I keep getting random porn show up in my tags, the porn accounts just include random tags to increase their views, even though no one in my tag is going to be interested in gay porno gifs or softcore.
No. 1687437
>>1687139Lo, text me if its you I honestly feel like some replies are from my best friend of like 10+ years.
We can farm forever, 2gether
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i still love mlp so much…
No. 1687706
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Watched a video recommended to me of Leon Kennedy voice lines and most of it is him whimpering and now I'm hot and bothered
No. 1687806
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Really thinking I should kill myself. Maybe it’s the new meds (started topamax for migraines last week) but I was crying about wanting to kill myself before I ever started them. I’ve been on Zoloft for a year and it kinda sorta worked but honestly I started the Zoloft just before I got a windfall of like 20k. I’m u employed and disabled and trying to get disability but I’m a burgerfag with a disability that they don’t like the give disability benefits for. It’ll take at least a year to even know if I’m approved or denied. I can appeal if denied but it would take another 2-3 years for the appeals process, and it no lawyer takes my case that means I’ll never get it kek. And even if I did get it it’s not that much.
I’m terrified I’ll lose my health insurance next year. If that happens I know I’ll have to off myself cause I won’t be able to afford the monthly doctors visits for my mental and physical health conditions. I’m on a bunch of meds to deal with my shit. I have to smoke weed to manage my pain cause NSAIDs make me vomit blood and Tylenol was killing my liver. I’m so irritable and angry and bitter. I’m so mad that I exist. I’m so mad that my parents abused me. I’m almost positive my dad sexually abused my when I was an infant or toddler or drugged me as a child to do so but I have no proof. Even if I did I don’t think my mom would leave him despite her claiming to love me. I have no friends except my Nigel but he works all the time. His family hates me because they don’t believe that anyone can be disabled unless they are rich. His family are rich pieces of shit and his mom is a cold blooded alcoholic murderer. If they all perished in a plane crash the world would be a better place. He insists on keeping touch with them even though they give us nothing, cause he thinks he will get an inheritance when his grandparents pass. Which is retarded, his mom will take everything and leave him with nothing except maybe debt. Meanwhile she had her life handed to her on a silver platter by mommy and daddy and works in their restaurant making 6 figures and lives in a McMansion and takes 4 vacations a year. And she’s still an alcoholic even though her alcoholism killed a man (she blames the man she killed for being in the road despite blowing over 3 times the legal limit). Oh did I mention she didn’t serve any time? I hate her fucking guts. I wish I could kill myself and make it look like she killed me so she could get locked tf away.
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I wanna cheat on my boyfriend.
No. 1688107
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I'm only here so that I can stop being addicted to websites with visual focus and go back to being into more text based things, I thought it would be good for me to go on twitter/instagram so I could properly socialise but all it did was make me addicted to seeing videos and hearing songs over reading. Even now I sometimes skim over the text or completely skip parts because of how fried my brain has become. It's terrible, I didn't have either of those sites before and I was able to read so much literature (over 200 books not including comics) and this year I've barely read at all. I hateeee it.
No. 1688129
>>1688128This post made me considerably more comfortable about being
femcel.
No. 1688130
>>1688128Okay. Can I ask what it is about being with him that you like? I don't believe you're searching out his other lays to pinkpill him; are you like, bucket crabbing him? Or is this some daddy issues masochistic shit?
I'm genuinely so fucking curious because I think I might have left a candle burning by the curtains in this guy's spare room if he did ONE of those things to me. Much less all the shit you said kek
No. 1688164
>>1688128if you had some dignity, you would tear him down to shreds. he thinks hes hot shit because youre with him. he thinks youre the one submiting to him. he thinks you agree to being cheated on because you ~luv~ him, and he has you wrapped around his finger. youre doing wonders to his scrotal ego. i hope you completely annihilate him once youre done having fun with him.
let him know youre using him, and not the other way around.
not that hed care or believe you. No. 1688266
>>1688020anon it is literally not true. persian limes are a result of hybridisation between the key lime and the lemon. lemons and key limes are also both hybrid citruses, lemons being hybrids of bitter orange + citron and key limes being hybrids of citron + papedas (small wild citrus). if we go even further down the lemon lineage, the bitter orange is a hybrid between pomelo and mandarin.
>>1688107im so fucking glad my autism (see above) prevents me from being able to consume short form video-based/sound-based content. although i was sliding into the habit of watching documentaries while scrolling for background noise which was not good for me. i shook the habit by being forced away from my laptop and only being able to access the internet via phone, so i couldnt have multiple tabs open at once. that was only for a month and i dont have any desire to do the split screen thing now. its different for you because youre using mobile apps, but what im getting at is: tolerance breaking works
No. 1688272
>>1688128you are a retard, i guarantee you are not "manipulating" a scrote eight years your senior who is getting commitment and consequence free sex from you.
>>1688189ngl I cannot with these anons who willfully fuck moids who outright treat them like shit. Genuine trailer trash behaviour, so so cringe.
obviosly the moid in question is the problem and I think he should be culled for his antisocial slimy behaviour before anything happens to anon, but like, god damn hetties get it together. make better choices. its literally as simple as not having sex with men who degrade and disrespect you No. 1688456
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>was having a conversation with this dude a while ago
>he brought up this guy who he went go school with and says that he was "SA'ed" by him (he pronounced it as "ess-ay" out loud)
>thought he was trying to avoid saying "sexually assault" because he thought he would trigger me or something and said "you can say 'sexual assault', this isn't tik tok, you don't have to censor yourself"
It's been months and i still feel mortified thinking about this.
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>>1688483I completely understand nona. I honestly think some malicious posters just want the "hetties" to hate themselves.
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>>1688487Aww, yeah me too, us hetties gotta stick together kek
No. 1688587
>>1688579you dont have friends and family? i am heterosexual(and a turbo horny coomer) and even then i wouldnt want to willingly live with a man, let alone a modern one who grew up on teen abuse porn and other bullshit. Being a tomboy made me realize how useless men are, it only took me one moid waking me up in the middle of the night when i was 17 to cook him nuggies because he was hungry to make me realize that. I cannot imagine actually going through the trouble of dating 100 moids just hoping i will find one who isnt shit. I am so tired of anons comming here saying shit like
>>1688128 then getting mad at their lesbian boogeymans when anons call them out for being pathetic pickmes. Either develop some standars or dont date moids and then complain about how they are shit.
No. 1688869
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Sometimes I eat wet cat food (like picrel). I must be genuinely built different, because I find it delicious. Cheap and yummy snack that I can share with my cat.
No. 1688979
>>1688926Oh shut up. As if she can't experiment with other women who either want to experiment or who are okay with fucking a potentially straight girl. I'd do you
nonnie.
No. 1689006
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Hope my alcoholic murderer of a mother in law who killed a man while blowing a .27 and never showed any remorse and blamed the man she ran over for daring to be in the road and made her 7 year old son blow into the breathalyzer to start her car to end up getting smashed in a car crash and feel all her limbs crushed. And then while still conscious the vehicle catches fire and she can feel it happening. And she is burnt to a crisp. And I hope the person who caused the crash was drunk and serves just as much time as she served (none) but I do hope they feel immense guilt and turn their lives around and become good wonderful lights in society unlike my mother in law.
No. 1689048
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>>1689006Manifesting this for you, nonna.
No. 1689120
>>1688128>he tried saying i was getting fat and that my back acne looks like an std and that he wants to do analNgl this sounds like bait written by a man who fantasize about being this tinder-god fucking his harem of younger girls and abusing a loser
femcel.
No. 1689227
>>1689126A man not attempting to coerce you into sexual acts you don't want to participate in, cheat on you openly and expect you to stay loyal, etc isn't a romance novel moid, it's the bare minimum..
Your fuckbuddy(that's what you think of him I assume) is like %1 the bottom of men, how can he insult you, try to get you to do stuff in bed you don't wanna, fuck women but expect you to be loyal etc?
No. 1689457
>>1689048Thanks
nonnie let’s all manifest this bitches death can I say her name? It’s a super common white bitch name it’s Nicole
No. 1689542
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i miss the pandemic. jobs were mostly online, i got free money from the government, and i could wear a mask outside whenever i wanted without getting odd looks. the sites i frequent were also more active because nobody could go outside. i want it to return again but perhaps not as drastic. but i'm so evil i don't care. cull maybe ~10% of the population, but leave everyone i love alone.
No. 1689556
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>>1689542and the streets were so empty, public transport was amazing, no one would sit next to you or even use it and in the supermarket they would keep their fucking distance and not shove their hand in front of your face because they want something out of the shelf but can't wait two seconds for you to move away. I'm with you, nonna, a mild pandemic without losing loved ones would be amazing again.
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>>1689556nonnie let us form a prayer circle
No. 1689842
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Sometimes I wonder about nonas that have mental health issues and haven't come back.
No. 1689903
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>>1689676>>1689861I'm in, as long as my brother is allowed to live (he can cook, so he would be useful) and we keep some good looking men alive to just put them in glass cases so we can look at them, kek.
No. 1689920
>>1689909I was a pretty perfect target, he probably knew exactly what he did. Somehow that makes me feel even more ashamed, that I was literally too autistic to realize he was using me for sex
I'm trying to get therapy, have been for a long time. How much detail should you even give when you're approaching stuff like this?
No. 1689994
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A guy I was friends with has trooned out last week. He messaged me to announce it and thanked me for being "such a good friend" and that I was "an important step in his self-discovery journey" and I can't help but think that things would've gone differently had I not been so spineless about all this shit.
He was a nerdy IT guy but he'd always come across as someone who had his shit together. He was never outwardly creepy or misogynistic so I hung out with him. He commissioned me for art of an OC he had. It wasn't sexual or anything, so I went along with it. He was a good customer, all things considered.
Years later, that same OC turned out to be nothing more than a "transition goal" for the coomer he'd been all along. I was too dumb to see it. His wife became a "partner", one of many. He'd been cheating on her with other trannies for months, and he talked about it like some heckin wholesome big chungus reddit 100 moment. His young daughter became a "kiddo", struggling through her first days of school with an estrogen-poisoned ghoul for a father. I can't help but think that he wants her to go down that pipeline too.
This all would've been better had I never accepted a penny from him. Maybe he'd been too far gone before I even met him, who knows. I've taken steps to cut him out of my life but I can't stop thinking about it all.
No. 1690983
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dumped a big diarrhea dookie in the bushes behind the bus stop. i apologize to society for my heinous deed but ngl i am kinda proud of pulling it off successfully (didn't get any on my shoes, nobody saw me, wiped clean enough with leaves to not stain my underwear, made it to work on time).
No. 1691067
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I just had the greatest orgasm of my life imagining my husbando being forced to do iq loss bimbofication porn. I have never felt such intense anguish and self hatred ever before.
No. 1691093
>>1691091nta but
>I don't even watch or read porn anymoreimplies she's already been exposed
No. 1691130
>>1691093Kek, oops I'm retarded and missed the word "anymore" entirely
>>1691097Ew is that what she does on her OF? I don't think I've ever stepped foot in a Shayna thread
No. 1691178
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Thought I saw a picture of a cute androgynous woman online. Turned out it was young Ed Sheeran. I need to lie down.
No. 1691219
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>>1691082 kek the way she described him with the hair, earrings and tattoos makes me think its literally pic related. Definitely young, and will learn the hard way, unfortunately.
No. 1691368
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An npc in a video game I'm playing has an eerily similar voice to my manlet male professor, but the problem is the npc sounds kind of horny and sociopathic and I feel horrible for enjoying his voice.
No. 1691551
>>1691382Thank you for the kind response
nonnie. Every time I come into this thread I get such thoughtful responses I always end up feeling better kek
No. 1691721
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>>1688458This. I just feel bad for straight women
No. 1691762
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Have you ever seen an AU so creative that it kinda pains you it's locked behind a couple of doodles drawn by an artist who deleted years ago?
No. 1692009
>>1691937Is he Croatian or are his parents Albanian muslims that came to Croatia? If it's the latter be wary because so many of these guys do a total 180 when they marry you and their wives aren't allowed to leave their homes. Yes even if their parents are more liberal and chill Muslims. I literally know multiple women that had that happen to them.
t. Croatian
No. 1692038
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The vent thread always makes me so happy I only have sisters.
No. 1692246
>>1692240She even mentioned being in a relationship for 2 years with him and it was perfect, yet she feels random inexplicable guilt for it. I bet he doesn't. Both of them don't want romantic connections with anyone and their bond
strengthened after breaking up and still she feels guilty about it. Why? I at least need her to explain that to me; why the guilt? Don't the strongest and most loving relationships start out from friendships?
No. 1692616
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>>1692597>against my warm soft bustwhat's with the wattpad tier description
No. 1692757
>>1692752Please don’t be ashamed, nonna. I wish I could give you a comforting hug. It is hard to overcome food related disorders. Today I overexercised for the first time in a long time because I was
triggered by something trauma related and now I’m having breakthrough bleeding as a result and I feel stupid and upset with myself. I understand the sub/unconscious desire to self harm in roundabout ways like binge eating something harmful to your body and I am wishing you speedy recovery and relief from your pain both physical and mental. You are not a bad person or too fucked up just because you slipped. You matter ♥
No. 1692832
>>1692807girl I'm saying this as someone who was in denial for several years, you're deep in that closet
eating a lil' pussy never hurt no one
No. 1692890
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It’s been for the best that I’ve stayed single and celibate this past year but it’s still extremely lonely. My last break up truly fucked me up and I’ve become an obsessive sperg about it but I’m not really attracted to anyone else but my ex. I’m honestly still too in love with him to find someone else. I talked to a few moids on dating apps but they were either gross in real life or hot but only wanted something casual and I can’t get my heart broken again so I ghosted them. I’ve been trying to focus on the non romantic relationships I have but it’s so hard. Almost all of my friend are in long term relationships and just don’t really do things in groups anymore. The time I do get with them usually are only a few hours now. Seeing them all together makes me incredibly sad too. Half of my immediate family is dead and literally none of my extended family lives anywhere near me. The only person I see often is my mom and we’ve just become too close for comfort. I have no one else to really relate to and it makes me incredibly sad.
No. 1692908
>>1692887Thanks Nona, I would say but I don’t want dox myself or personalityfag on here. I will say it’s from a popular video game franchise.
>>1692888I know there is a monsterfucking thread, I just don’t want to kill the vibe with my degenerate mind, plus I’m super shy about posting my own thoughts even if we are anonymous.
No. 1692959
>>1691120I think it was because I felt him being a bimbo would be more degrading, that and I can't tell the difference.
>>1691195Because thinking about the fantasy now, as hot as it was, it was really fucking cringe especially since
it was brought on by shayna thread reading>>1692037I wish.
No. 1693307
>>1693268this is obsessive thinking, you need to stop engaging with this shit and get a therapist who specializes in obsessive thinking. you may have to look around for someone competent and understanding, so don't lose hope okay?
>I'm not a scientist, I have no idea how true something is, so even if I find a 'satisfying' explanation I immediately start to doubt it becuase I start getting concerned that I'm only more liable to believe it because it confirms what I believe already.you don't have to be a scientist to understand scientific papers. i feel like you don't believe in yourself enough that you are capable of understanding these things. obviously going to university classes to be a scientist helps, but you can find resources on your own to understand these things. but to be clear, this is mental illness and looking into these things is not healthy for you.
you don't have to get it off your mind, because trying to repress things makes the thoughts more prominent. you need to accept your fears and uncertainty as part of life, and take care of yourself and do what you want with your life.
No. 1693534
I don't feel sorry for my mom whose had her drinks spiked multiple times (she was over 25), and had "male friends" grope and attempt to rape her while she slept. And I'm someone who usually feels rage and gets teary-eyed when I hear about women getting assaulted. But she's told me these stories in detail, and every single time, it has to do with a "male friend" she strung along for attention. This is NOT me taking the moids side at all, they should all die. Two of the incidents happened because of parties that went on until early morning, and then sleeping in a bed next to a "male friend" because yes of course, men and women can sleep next to each other as friends and he will not think about railing you at all. Deep down, women like her who collect orbiters for a living know the deal. They don't want to be friends with you. My entire life she's had loads of "male friends" and been a total NLOG. I think I was as young as 10 when I realized that hmm, surely my moms friends must have crushes on her, they keep doing her favors all the time. Women KNOW. Yeah, beat my ass for this post, but she literally let a "male friend" sleep over, next to her in bed, because he couldn't find a driver to drive him home from some party. At this point the bitch is like 45 years old. The next morning she starts telling me "ughhh he kept wrapping his arms around me and trying to touch me and I had to tell him no". Fucking really? You let a grown ass drunk ass man sleep in YOUR BED? And you think he doesn't want to fuck you because you're totally one of the boys? She loves the surprise, the "oh my god wait I think he's into me" No shit bitch, he's been orbiting you for 4 years. Stop playing dumb. Rant aside, yes, confession: Some victims, I don't feel sorry for.
No. 1693577
>>1693534Some women are just willing
victims but saying so will get you dogpiled even though it's true
(bait) No. 1693782
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>>1693268You sound like me at 11 when I discovered /pol/ and white "supremacists" (they are inferiorists).
Remember that these people have an agenda. It's a movement for worthless men and pickmes who need to lean on their ethnicity like a team sport to feel less like losers in their personal lives. They're not above lying, misrepresenting data and actively trying to harm random people. They make excuses for their own group's perceived shortcomings, and purposely interpret what's going on with other groups in the worst way. You probably want to believe in what they're saying because "Who would be so confident and full of shit at the same time?", but you already know high levels of delusion and cope thrive all the time, especially online, because trannies exist. The final nail in the coffin to me was how many trannies and tranny supporters are also "human biodiversity"/eugenics spergs/nazis/"former" nazis.
You can also look in the Aella and Grimes threads for examples of how people deeply into eugenics tend to look, behave and live (they are very dysgenic and mentally ill, but want to convince you they're master race geniuses). If we apply their own logic onto them, they are the abolute last people on earth that should be listened to.
They function and talk like bots, too. See posts like this consisting only of movie quotes:
>>1693366>>1693376Do you want to be like them? No, you don't. Never fall into using race as a crutch.
No. 1693995
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Sometimes I’ll read fanfics on ao3 from a niche fandom of mine and shit on them in the comments. I don’t write any myself and don’t intend to but I hate how every fandom has to have gendie shit, eating disorders, or just them taking the characters at face value and running the same three jokes into the ground.
No. 1694403
>>1694383I hate people like this lmao. I remember being fucked up sharing the news that somebody very close to me died, and the person I was telling said "
oof". Instantly lost a great deal, if not all, of my respect for them.
And the worst part is when they try to defend it. "Oh, I'm just not good at these types of things. I'm bad at comforting people. I don't know what to say." Well try, faggot. Figure something out. It's always an excuse to be lazy or not have to do any emotional labor, but they love demanding attention and coddling from you. 9/10, I stop being friends with people like this soon after they start whining about it, and I suggest you do the same.
No. 1694420
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>>1693268All i can say is that it feels better to be stupid among idiots than being intelligent alone.
No. 1694493
>>1694161BPD symptoms are written in a way that normal women fit some of the categories (and moids fit most of them). The difference is the degree of how they affect your life.
I have a huge distrust of psychiatry specifically but therapists are fine to me since they can't put you in a mental hospital where I live.
I officially have a more "severe" diagnosis than a personality disorder but it's very possible that it's a mistaken one, I've been told that by multiple mental health specialists.
No. 1694614
>>1694499It's because relationships and work can suck up a lot of your time, especially moids will demand your time and attention whereas women are more likely to quietly seethe instead and check their socials to see what he's doing whilst telling their bf it's "totally fine" for him to spend time away from home more than with her. I'm not blaming women here btw, just saying they're more likely to be people pleasers who sacrifice everything in relationships. I've certainly been one before and learned my lesson.
My ex used to whine and cry that we didn't spend any time together or go on date nights, and the rest of my time I was working. When I wasn't at work, I was with him or doing chores around the house, leaving no time for friends or even alone time, which I needed to recover.
No. 1694804
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>>1694685I drew for 3 years just for myself and now i only show my art to friends. Just do it, it's honestly less stressing this way, drawing for yourself is really nice.
>>1694801nta but its very easy to filter the schizos there, i have gotten pretty good advice from ic and there are tons of resources. Just stick to the drawthreads. Pic rel some pretty good tut from some anon there.
No. 1694906
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>>1694900how old we talking
No. 1694921
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I unironically think her comics are funny and cute. She's fucking unhinged but her comics are gold and better than any autistic moid made comic. If she made stickers of them I would buy them immediately.
No. 1694933
>>1694905I have issues but he's hot
>>1694906mid 40s
No. 1694948
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>>1694943I THOUGHT THAT TOO kek I love nekojiru's comics. I love unhinged women and their art.
No. 1694951
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This moid who I know for a fact got raped in the past told me he hoped I got raped a couple weeks ago so I made a joke about him getting raped
No. 1695045
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I'm scared of stereograms. They never appealed to me, maybe because I have astigmatism and feel like can't never see what's hidden there. But they have ominous aura to me. I'm scared that there might be something creepy/scary/gross hidden in it. I like optical illusions in general but stereograms always give me bad vibes.
No. 1695085
>>1695076My young lady, it's because women compete with each other. It's instinct. Men don't see you as competition, ever. Women always, always see you as competition. So of course you think it's better to hang around men because they aren't going to constantly measure wether you are better or worse than them.
Women who prefer hanging out with men just like easymode socialization and don't want to compete.
No. 1695101
>>1695085>My young ladymale
>women compete with each othermale whose ball sweat I can smell all the way here
>Men don't see you as competitionMen don't see us as people
>Women always, always see you as competitionThe only competition I have with other women is deciding whose pussy is going to get eaten first, and no normal straight woman with decent enough self-esteem will want to compete with half of the human population. Sounds exhausting.
Anyway go wash your penis or something.
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Sometimes it's hard for me to watch his streams, because he looks like a mix of my two exes. Proudly self proclaimed l0lifags weebs, memed by local anime comunity into this degeneracy and further brainrot. The first one i was "dating" when i was 13, he was 8 years older, his dumb friends even recorded a song mentioning this, no one cared. The second one, 6 years older, my age was 15 till 20. He once asked me to buy him a fucking Apple iMac, can you imagine?! What a pathetic shitshow. It was more like a required play for me, and sex was so unamusing for me, even they noticed and were upset, kek. That's what an unsupervised and friendless childhood does to a kid. I hate how now i understand, that i never even felt being loved. They were/are absolute robots and losers. I've grown into a very reclusive autist, because i've never learned how to socialise normally.
No. 1695196
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>>1695179Later a moid friend of a friend, again the same type visually, was telling that he was "dating" a 12yo girl… luckily, her father quickly discovered it and scared the moid away, he even moved to a diffrent town. Now i have a
trigger - if a guy looks kinda youthful, skinnyfat, no masculine jaw and he is not gay, he's probably thinking of himself as a schloolboy, a little baby boy, who still needs to date schoolgirls.
No. 1695209
>>1695208Nta but what is anyone going to do with that information? Your half brothers knows an overdose
victim? Cool so do I.
No. 1696250
>>1695561confession: this filled me with sadness and jealousy. I have a stupidly high paying job and I'm living on my own in a big city, but I'm estranged from my
abusive parents who don't congratulate me on anything.
No. 1696457
>>1696246oh definitely it has helped. last time i worked out with her was the beginning of my constipation and i felt like i needed to shit my pants while attempting to jog, i also let out a loud fart so i was embarrassed to have it happen again.
i ended up jogging on my own at a nearby trail and i nearly struggled to find the nearest bathroom because the gas felt like something else lmao.
No. 1696736
>>1696683>as affordable or cheaper than sheinWhat, really? I've never purchased from shein or even browsed the website but I was under the impression that the whole appeal of Shein was that the clothes were so much cheaper than anything at regular stores that it's worth the gamble of getting something shitty that doesn't fit.
What's the appeal of shitty Shein clothes if you can just go to a Berskha and get something at the same price point and try it on before you buy?
No. 1696750
>>1696264Lying is justifiable in many cases, especially when people are being nosy and judgmental about personal decisions that don't concern them and are none of their business.
I've lied about my ethnicity and nationality a lot because I used to get a lot of racist comments and "jokes" at my expense, my marital status (I got married as a teen and people called me names a lot, even though it was not something I chose for myself, so I hid my ring when I went to school), my job, I've lied to neighbours asking when I'm gonna have kids, where's my husband, why no kids yet etc.
My confession is that I tell all of them something terrible on purpose so they feel bad for asking and I'm not sorry because they can go fuck themselves. I don't care if they have the best intentions in mind, I've been burned too many times.
No. 1697191
I have a small pillow that I sleep with every night, it basically takes the place of a teddy bear. I've literally had it my entire life- it was a baby shower gift from my aunt and my parents (admittedly stupidly) put it in my crib as my pillow (even though it's definitely originally just a decorative pillow and it says on the tag not to put it in the crib because it's a suffocation hazard kek). Anyway, at some point it just became my comfort item and I've had it ever since, and I'm almost 30.
My confession is I rarely ever wash it. As a kid, the pillowcase was thrown in the wash pretty regularly. As I grew up, every other week turned into every few weeks, into every few months, and now once every couple of years. The original pillow case is very thin now, so it makes me nervous to wash it, even though I only hand wash it. I won't bore you with the details, but a very large chunk of the pillow case is gone, so a large part of the actual pillow itself is just exposed. The actual pillow has never been washed, ever. For how nervous I am to even handwash the pillow case, I'm truly downright scared to wash the actual pillow because I worry it'll fuck up the stuffing after being thrown in the dryer (I have a cousin with a pillow comfort item and his has been put through the wash and dryer and it's barely a pillow than a fabric case with some cotton balls trapped in it). I'm a wuss and I love my pillow stuffie and I know I will cry if it gets fucked up in the wash and can't come back to his normal pillow shape. I've considered handwashing the pillow itself too, but I worry that the stuffing won't dry fully unless it's put in a dryer. I saw someone handwash their pillow and try to work out all the water and dry it without a dryer but it still ended up lumpy and weird. I just don't know how to wash it without fucking it up. I considered putting this in the stupid questions thread but I consider it more of a confession because I know it's gross.
No. 1697587
I'm currently living off of food stamps, a part time job, free childcare, and state health care (which provides me free services, medication, and therapy). And I unfortunately don't want lose said benefits for a higher paying position. I have a degree and I have skills, but I don't see the point if I'm not going to make enough to offset my costs of food, healthcare, childcare, etc. I know my family expects more of me and I'm "too smart" for this, but why should I throw away what I have just to be perceived better by others? Especially in this economy? I hit the bottom, and it is unfortunately more comfortable here. Sorry I just needed to get that off my chest. I'll try to be better.
No. 1697616
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Giving myself another 5 years and if I'm still in the same place, I'm finding out how one acquires a gun in my home country and finally ending it.
No. 1697837
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>>1697827so you have been behind all the infighting recently?
No. 1697947
>>1697945I know you're not, kek. That's why I responded to you. I didn't feel like getting redtexted for minimodding or infighting for saying it directly to the anons responding.
I was agreeing with you that she's a retard, and also annoyed other anons keep engaging retards kek
No. 1698054
Long confession ahead.
I'm originally in a DND group in my town and we were supposed to start a homebrew campaign by our DM after he TPK'd us on Curse of Strahd (which in retrospect made my life easier since I can't stand modules and the railroading built in it and writing the log for the group when nobody read it was getting on my nerves) by the summer since the DM has his summer break. Except the moid has ADHD and overthought everything and then ghosted the WhatsApp group for two months after over hyping a high level one shot to help build his homebrew world. And he wrote late at night last weekend to apologize to the group after everything with a wall of text, and the rest of the group was like so tolerant and accepting blablabla, I didn't feel any tolerance for it.
As much as I have understanding for the fact that making a homebrew world is a lot, I have one in the making myself where I've had already three one shots because I have a 40h/week job and haven't decided in which direction I'd want to take a full campaign in - I have like three possible intrigues I could pursue - , I can't stand the attitude of biting off more than you can chew when you involve other people and then you stood em up by just one day before the high level one shot was supposed to be because you felt demotivated or unwell.
Now the rest of the group is like offering to redo a module, when the last attempt at a module sucked ass with that DM (especially the feeling of being railroaded and having the feeling of whether we do something as PCs or not, doesn't matter), and everything in my gut feeling tells me this'll be absolute shit and the contrary of fun. And while I am thinking it I know I can't say it in the group in a political correct manner enough so instead I've not answered on the WhatsApp group, and I hope the whole thing dies down (since it truly did in April with the TPK) and I can maybe find another group instead. Plus the new non binary whatever fucking new players that are joining are making DND to be a fucking BDSM roleplay, asking for safe words and shit, if that's the direction the group is taking, I'd rather go touch grass and do my thing instead.
It may sound harsh that's why I am writing it in the confession.
No. 1698297
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I'm a repulsive human being. I will always be a kissless autistic virgin with no real friends, living in my own head, eating only one thing for four weeks, getting fixated on things and lusting after 40 year old voice actors from my favorite video games or for my anime husbandos. Spending my free time in front of pc and then lying in my bed and masturbating and thinking about me and my husbando living in a nice house and traveling across the globe. There's literally no difference between the 15 year old me and the 27 year old me. I'm in the same mental state, maybe just more blackpilled and tired. Even when I'm on some discord and people like my art and want to talk to me I'm just quiet most of the time because I don't know what to say to them and I also think You like my art, not me, and you think I'm as nice as my art. But you 'like' me only because you don't actually know me and you like your idea of me based on my art. It's the same thing in real life. Some people really want to know me and I feel like the more I open up the more far apart I grow from that person because I can feel they start to notice my weirdness, whenever I unmask while being with someone, it's awkward. They're like heyyyy open up to us and then I say something I really think and it's awkward. When I say something I feel fits the situation, it's also awkward. It's never natural. I just can't live a normal life, I will just daydream till I die, I have a great life, an artistic career and fun adventures in my head and I would never match that irl with my social retardation, constant physical exhaustion and anxiety. I stopped grooming myself even though I was never that good at it to begin with. I can wear the same thing for one week and don't brush my hair, I don't give a fuck. I'm a slob. My room looks like Jordan peterson's worst nightmare. My dirty underwear lies on my floor. Who cares anyway. Why do I have to bother with all those unpleasant sensations when I can just imagine nice things in my head and interact with reality only enough to have money to pay the bills, buy food and shit related to my hobbies? How do people get motivated to do anything, I don't know. If someone would bought me food and paid my bills I would literally never leave my house
No. 1698314
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>>1698297>hey're like heyyyy open up to us and then I say something I really think and it's awkward. When I say something I feel fits the situation, it's also awkward. It's never natural.>when I can just imagine nice things in my head and interact with reality only enough to have money to pay the bills, buy food and shit related to my hobbies? you sound like me kek. i've given up on reality. i just want a job right now so i can larp as a normalshit at work then come home and sink back into myself. i'll get good at art, writing, etc. and enjoy my fantasies in their pruest form. i see nothing really wrong with this either.
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>>1695196> if a guy looks kinda youthful, skinnyfat, no masculine jaw and he is not gay,Sounds hot (aside from skinny fat)
> probably thinking of himself as a schloolboy, a little baby boy, who still needs to date schoolgirls.Mfw I like boyish men because they seem so non threatening. We need to just stay away from all of them they all suck even the cute ones
No. 1700489
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a couple years ago i discovered the manifestation/subliminal communities and decided to see if it worked. i wanted to get rid of my period permanently but then it actually worked. i haven't gotten a single period since that day. i haven't told anyone and lie to my doctor and mom that im still getting my period. i have hypereligious parents who are really pushing towards an arranged marriage and a ton of kids, i wonder if they would loose their shit if i told them.
p.s i tried to "manifest" after that but 9 times out of 10 it doesn't work. it seems to only work for random useless things like seeing a rainbow 5 minutes after wishing to see one or my parents coming home with a food i wanted to eat (i didn't tell them it).
No. 1700490
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i lurk wizchan for the wageslave thread because it's relatable when they aren't whining about female coworkers but i noticed this post and it made me so goddamn depressed. imagine realizing your mother was lonely and sad and somehow making it all about yourself again while also discounting her + being misogynstic. scrotes deserve everything they get
No. 1700503
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I thought I got my weebism under control now, but it still shows up in the most unexpected ways. The most recent realization I had was that I finish books by Japanese authors way faster, like talking just a few days here, instead of a few weeks if not months if the author is from any other country, just based on the assumption of "It's Japanese, so it's more interesting". I'm also more likely to give a Japanese book more of a chance even if it's boring, while I would get fed up more easily if it's from somewhere else.
No. 1700532
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I hate saying the word faggot (or any slur for that matter, aside from "retard" because fuck you that's not a slur) but I force myself to say it on here because I feel like I'll get shit on if I don't. I hate it, I feel like I'm too soft sometimes.
Once I even got dogpiled for not being sexually attracted to an underage anime moid, and then there's these nonas who admit to the vilest fetishes who I just wanna curbstomp and there's retards who enable and validate them. I'm a huge moralfag inside and having to hide it here makes me seethe
No. 1700651
When I was 9-12, I was afraid of going to the bathroom at night (childish fears mixed with CSA), but I would have to piss at 3 AM every day like clockwork. My solution was to grab a towel and piss into it. I would wait until the next day and bury it at the bottom of the laundry bin so that nobody could tell.
One time, the bin was empty and I couldn’t bury it, so I hid the piss towel in my closet. I need to piss again that night and I put that towel there too. At some point, I get depressed and lose motivation to wash them, so I keep the piss towels in my closet.
My family asks where the towels are, but I claim not to know. Nobody can smell it because it’s a walk in closet with a heavy door, but the closet has no AC abd we live in a hot place, so it did stink. This goes on for YEARS before my cousin needs something from the closet, and she’s hit with 2 years worth of non ventilated piss air. I lie and say I thought it was the cat. I think my family pulled out 10+ towels, absolutely soaked with piss because I would reuse the same towel on a different spot.
My mom still 100% believes the cat was using my closet as a pee chamber, she has no idea. We bought completely new towels and threw those old ones away. I hope this makes whoever reads this cringe and wince, lord knows it makes me do the same
No. 1700662
>>1700532Me too but I lurk more than I post. I don't force myself to say things I don't want to say.
But sometimes I find myself saying some rude-ish stuff for moralfaggy reasons lol.
No. 1700711
>>1700659No idea if she was a
victim but was not and I remember I started humping pillows and my plushies when I was like 4 or 5 so it could be that some children are just extra interested or activated by that kind of stuff?
No. 1701039
>>1700647I see you have reading comprehension issues, so let me explain: i want to curbstomp siblingfuckers and pedos, and refusing to say slurs for the sake of principles doesn't mean I wouldn't want a moid dead for being as degenerate as aforementionned nonas.
>>1700643>let people enjoy things type beatSadly we are on a platform where acting the slightest bit off-etiquette will cause a shitstorm
No. 1701782
Just need to vent about family stuff, this sounds embarrassing so I'm posting it ITT.
I saw anons shitting on Bechdel's Fun Home in another thread, I got interested and read it, and I seriously couldn't give a shit if Bechdel is a cringy libfem or if she's making excuses for her father having sex with his underage students, because the book resonated with me on some very deep level I almost started crying. Afaik my dad is not gay nor having sex with teenagers (and tbh if either of us has done morally repulsive things it's me), but something in the dynamic in Fun Home is really fucking similar to me and my dad. Maybe it's the way dad forced the whole family to abide to his schedules, the lack of physical affection, the way we can't talk about our feelings but talk about opera and literature instead, or the fact that I've noticed how similar I am to him in terms of personality (he has shit personality, I hate how similar I am to him).
Also I was on the phone with him the other day and he suddenly got all sentimental on me (super awkward) in his characteristic indirect way, referencing the fact that I'm pursuing a career path that was basically his dream career as well, except that he "lacked the courage" (his words) to pursue it. I think he regrets it but doesn't say it straight. I just feel really weird rn.
No. 1702177
>>1702042yes and (most) tims will never get in there, they weren't socialised female so they'll never go to such extreme lengths to alter their appearance out of self hatred. most they do is plastic surgery, instant gratification.
i do hate it when a rare (true, not tif) moid gets in there and the brainlet pickmes start patting his ass, when with other women they're very cut-throat and competitive. EDs are competitive at their core, but why does it extend to women only? moids aren't your allies retard
No. 1702195
>>1702056"A paraphilia involving sexual arousal from staging and watching disasters, such as traffic collisions."
This is genuinely going to sound like 2edgy4u bullshit bait but I felt funny watching 9/11 footage of the buildings on fire and imagining molten metal inside them ever since I was young, stuff like that. I've been feeling this way for a while but obviously I'd never actually deliberately stage accidents because I do actually feel empathy for the people involved and am scared of the repercussions
No. 1702554
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When I was 14 a girl in my friend group came up to me while I was watching a free concert at a festival in our city, hugged me from behind, kissed my cheek and said "I think about you all the time, we should be a couple". My awkward, repressed self just laughed and said "wouldn't that be something" and we watched the rest of the song in silence before I said I wanted to go find our friends. She became really awkward and avoided me after that, and I had no idea why until years later after our friend group had long drifted apart.
No. 1702560
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>>1701596Sorry for late reply nonna! It's Yuriko from Gnosia (tldr single player Among Us-like). She's the closest thing the game has to a God stand-in for backstory, attitude, and stats. I want to like her because it feels shitty hating what amounts to a 19 year old cult survivor but she makes it so damn hard when she is truly an unlikable above-it-all jerk and is integral to the plot. She'd be a total Stacy farmer so she's got that going for her, and her design is pretty cool. I still sell her out every chance I get since she's too dangerous to be left alive even when we're on the same side.
No. 1702744
I think I have a crush on this guy. He not attractive at all (short, fat, glasses, etc) and he is the kind of nerd that goes to MOBAs tournament and all that (he's good at them tho, like really good). And I have the hots for him so bad. Maybe a part of it is because he's been the kind of guy that listens to my rants while I'm drunk and goes all "that's so sad Nona you deserve better", and I KNOW that's a tactic men use all the time pretending to be your friend until you tell them you won't have sex with them. I even know that guy is infamous because he ends up hitting on every girl he becomes friends with. But I don't know why I am attracted to him, and I don't think it's even on a good way? Like maybe I can just have sex with him once and it will probably suck and then I can get over it. But I have this kind of desire of manipulating and dominating him? Like, I want to step on him and push him around, and brag about how I control him, and I don't fucking know why. I feel so weird about this, I mean I used to manipulate guys into giving me money just for existing when I was younger and I felt pretty great about it, so it's been almost a decade I haven't feel this way.
No. 1702755
sorry for the late replies
>>1700493I haven't been to doctor so I wouldn't know but I don't really think so. I don't feel any different but I guess it could be asymptomatic?
>>1700513nope, im the normal weight for my height!
>>1702378i only listened to this one but stopped after a couple days and just stuck to imagining or visualizing or whatever it is called :
https://youtu.be/twfxk9xppAY?feature=shared>>1702426yeah i think so to. I feel like if I really dedicated myself to learning about it and changing my mindset towards what i wanted to manifest, i could of had more success
No. 1702888
>>1702755thank you for the link nonita. the music is also calming, this subliminal is a bit longer than others i've seen but it's ok.
>>1702880absolutely based, wish i could find your art. what platforms are you on? don't say your username though
No. 1702902
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>>1702190I get what you mean and I wish the same.
No. 1703054
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I'm a bosslady for a service company and tbh my most reliable and consistent workers are my reverse harem of men who I fucked and offered a job to. I just keep them at separate accounts and urge them not to mention our 'relationship' as it would be interpreted as favoritism and unprofessionalism so that they keep their mouths shut from each other. Consequently, I hire no men with small dicks nor bad attitudes. They're easier to tell what to do and they treat me with queen energy, and in fact get a little competitive in overachieving when they notice other men of my harem treating me nicely not that they know why.
Good lil worker bees~
No. 1703219
>>1703054Omg absolutely based you go queen, I aspire to be like you!!
PS nice image but watermelon sucks
No. 1703263
>>1703164i don't remember exactly but it was something about her (this poster
>>1702880 ) drawing her female high school bullies being brutalised by her anime waifus in the same way as in her first post. also that she has a wife and a kid.
No. 1703454
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I want to go full autist and wear gothic lolita and collect dolls. I don't know why I spent my entire young adulthood pretending to be a normie, everyone saw through it anyway. I should have just been honest about my actual interests.
No. 1704099
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i have absolutely zero tragic backstory for why im the way i am, nothing bad ever happened to me im just naturally like this.
No. 1704382
>>1704193God same. My grandma was a normal person but nevertheless 100s came to her funeral because she was so loved. My mom too is the perfect normie. My childhood was technically perfect and even now they still make sure I lack nothing and yet I'm a depressed mess and have memories of already being somewhat unhinged back in kindergarten (e.g. refusing to talk because I found my voice ugly).
Most of my parents friends have kids who are younger than me and all of them are attractive, hardworking, already have a partner and are simply happy, meanwhile I'm such an emotional burden.
No. 1704426
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I’m obsessed with her
No. 1704432
>>1704415I understand you completely. When I was young, I caused animal deaths through my carelessness and it's haunted me since.
One, you can bring yourself back into the present by finding something square in your environment, like a door or window, and tracing its outline with your eyes. You can't skip and jump from section to section, instead smoothly move your eyes along its entire length.
Once you're no longer panicking and letting your emotions overwhelm you you can think about it more rationally.
You are not that person anymore. If you were given the opportunity to go back in time and save her, you would jump on it. There is no guarantee in life that she would have lived beyond that day even if you had saved her. She may have darted out the door and gotten hit by a car the next day. She may have developed untreatable cancer the next week. No time on this earth is certain. You are a different person, and having learned from that tragedy, you will make different decisions.
No. 1704448
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sometimes i wish i could be one of those male singers from the 2000s because they really had ugly as shit dudes surrounded by loads of way too sexy women feeling them up like i know it's a gag and objectification blah this is why i'm posting it here because i feel guilty knowing that, but i just feel kind of envious kek i want to know what that feels like at least once in my lifetime. sorry. that would never happen to me but i can dream…
>GIWTWM
No. 1704556
>>1704394No kek I'm eastern european and my family hasn't got a pot to piss in. Neither am I particularly ugly or pretty.
>>1704521Probably but I'm in my early-mid thirties. Would've happened by now, but hasn't.
No. 1704700
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>>1704506Nta now I have another reason to never date a hot man
No. 1704861
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My ex and I have a weird relationship where we’re never getting back together but we can’t let each other go. He lives several states away and is with someone else (on and off just like us) and I’ve dated other people since. For a long time I felt he was the one who got away but my last relationship was even more connected and now that title goes to the newer ex kek. I think my older ex and I do have a very genuine connection and solid friendship but his insane fears of intimacy will keep him from having a real relationship. I was hoping he’d learn from the train wreck that was our break up but apparently not. I feel like he’s settling with his new girlfriend. There isn’t anything wrong with her but I feel like he sees her as ‘good enough’ for now but will probably bail once he feels ready to settle. I don’t think he really values her all that much and because of his own issues has an easier time investing in her because he feels like he doesn’t have much to lose. They’ve broken up once already because she was going through a tough time which really made me look at him a different way. Her depression was too bad apparently so they “mutually” ended things but I really doubt it was. They kept living together for months after that and she suggested just being friends with benefits while they were “broken up”. This really pissed me off because during our break up he created this narrative that I was controlling and obsessive for wanting a more solid commitment after he called me sobbing and begging me to drop out of college to live with him. But of course he says she made him feel safe because she said that if he ever didn’t want her she would just find someone else. The reality is completely different and what he’s so afraid of is what’s happening with them right now but of course because she phrased it properly it’s fine apparently. I want to call him out on it but I don’t think it’s my place as the ex. Hearing all of this as well as how I feel my last ex is the new “one who got away” I can tell he’s still too stupid to be a real partner. I don’t think he’s in love with me and I think if I suggested getting back together he would stop talking to me, but our weird long distance friendship is a level of emotional intimacy I don’t think he’s had since and uses as supplement to his in person relationships. I didn’t respond to him for several months at one point and he was sending me multiple things every single week. I’m at a weird point where I think I can see him clearly for the first time but the friendship has been going on for so long (and I’m not in love with him anymore) that I don’t want to end it either. I’m single but I don’t have a lot of resl intimacy in my life either so I’ll settle for his breadcrumbs.
No. 1704875
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i followed my new dates before establishing either as a boyfriend on social media. not just regular social media, but one that tells you who they most recently followed. when i would see their follower count go up, i would not always be able to see who the most recent account was, but with an extension it showed me their weekly activity. so it happened that once a guy was faking exclusivity with me, he was still adding women from dating apps. i asked about one of these women, and he lied that they just met from at a social thing, but they had no friends in common, and it was after a long line of following completely unrelated women. after he caught on, whenever he was about to follow new women, he would unfollow an equal amount of accounts to not raise suspicion, but i was not even looking at their follower count anymore because the extension always showed who they un/follow.
No. 1705693
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Sometimes, when anons post their bishie anime husbandos, i cannot differentiate if they're supposed to be male or female, sometimes i even assume they're women until stated otherwise. I feel bad because i don't even judge any anons into that stuff plus "bishies look like women/butches" it's a bullshit argument moids use, but i legitimately get confused
No. 1705790
I had a friend who I may have screwed things up with, and it doesn’t even matter anyway because of her situation and the fact I don’t have many ways of contacting her at this point. Anyways, all that shit doesn’t really matter, but I have had a crush on her for the past 3 years, almost 4. She’s been taken for 2 of them. It’s part of the reason why I feel as if I should never talk to her again, because it just makes the feelings life consuming to almost depression levels. I have fantasies about her when I can, but I’m much better at controlling when they happen. But I’m stuck. I just have a feeling they won’t fade, because no matter how she feels about me, or even if I feel guilty, the feelings still persist. Like, am I going to enter a fucking relationship and still be thinking about her in the back of my head? Is that normal? Is it just kind of like a celebrity crush or something? It feels so benign now, but I have a feeling that’s just a cope. Please help.
No. 1705895
i have a small crush on one of the men i know, but he has a girlfriend. he’s the perfect nigel, raised by his mom and sisters, is anti-porn for the right reasons, decently attractive, and born rich. their relationship is awful and it’s obvious they have nothing in common. literally the most mismatched couple i’ve ever seen, you’d never think they were dating. they’re long distance too. i met her, she was getting upset and yelling at him like she was his mother half the time while he tried to stay and hang out with me to avoid her jillian-tier bpd wrath. to give context, she had shown up out of nowhere that day because she tracked his location and hunted him down. it’s obvious he doesn’t like her that much, he hates talking about her at all and avoided her half the time she came to visit. meanwhile he’s explicitly stated that he finds me attractive, called me a 10 and asked me what my type is and all of that. the fact that he’s talking like that to me in a “friendly” way while they’re together is a neon red flag. but a deeply messed up part of me wants to try to break them up. i would never do that to another woman, especially over a man. the day i end up a homewrecker is the day i jump in the ocean and let the waves take me. but it feels like every time i actually like someone he’s either gay or taken. i guess i’ll just have to stay single still. men are just not worth it
No. 1705944
>>1705712idk if i really find him attractive or if i just find him endearing as you would like, the kid you used to babysit or something. didn't find him cute for the same reasons as you until i watched the mtv "making the videos" episodes
and fanmade "moment" compilations of the boyband sorry kek i'm going through a phase, it was so obvious he was the youngest he was just a kid kek. it's like not even the same person after the band thing was over and he was grown (obviously that's usually what happens to people kek) but tbf i haven't seen anything with him in it other than the music videos from way back which yes i agree are good.
No. 1705954
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>>1705895Omg I had a guy exactly like this but it was while I was in my pickme youth days so he was not nearly as much a prize kek he was HOT and had a perfectly tailored to my interests personality.
He was a 6’5” lightskin mexican with light brown eyes and black hair and the most perfect ski slope nose and a Jojo character from part 3 face and he had these shoulders that went on for miles, he was a football player and I was just a drama kid we went to different schools but we knew each other from middle school and we were both into the same animes and mangas and he would play games with me and we ran semi popular meme pages on Instagram, he’d drive me around to hang out and we would go out to eat and go to arcades and stuff and there was unspoken tension late on he’d say I was cute and he’d love to have someone like me if it weren’t for his
long distance gf.. I was jealous of her and he said she would go days without messaging her and that he was jealous and didn’t fully trust her
One day they broke up (shocker) and after he took me on a few dates I fucked him and it was like.. literally the worst sex I’ve ever had. I mean he was so hot, but he was a porn addict who couldn’t really get it up I gave him head for like 20 minutes and then when it was time to put it in he got soft. I am still disappointed to this day abojt how chiseled and huge he was but just had a little flaccid 3 incher (I went on to see another guy who was 6’8” and he had a super small 2 inch one I think it’s a tall huge guy thing tbh) and we “dated” for a little bit as in I was his gf with no title/loyalty he got snaps from other girls while we’d Han out and he would text them. Jesus I had such low self esteem kek, he was sort of a poser with the interests that bonded us this is gonna sound really cringe especially since berserk has blown up in popularity, THIS WAS 6 YEARS AGO we were gonna cosplay as guys and casca at a con, a lot of our plans fell through people knew we were a thing and a lot of my friends thought I was the luckiest, I kinda felt like a big deal I would walk with him downtown and it was such a flex walking with a huge hunk but he was honestly overrated. Like he was hot but what was it good for if I can’t even properly sex him well? I did a few times but it was sad and tiring. We were like this for 2 months when out of nowhere his online gf texts him and he breaks things off with me and says he’s deleting social media and we have to stop talking forever i was more insulted than like heartbroken, that was such a waste of time. He tried reaching out to me a year ago.
He KNOWS you like him and he’s reeling you in he probably likes his gf still and they’ll split up or maybe he’ll try to cheat on her with you but either way it’s a waste of time try not to drool too much over him cause he can smell the pheromones and he definitely wants you too, just reel it in.
>he said his type is exactly like meThat was intentional and all his interests and things he stands for is exactly your type.. he’s being a chameleon and that’s phony and a red flag. Maybe just wait til he’s single and have sex with him but don’t get serious cause he seems like a weird BPD shapeshifter
No. 1706255
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i got blackout drunk at 6 in the morning and wrote a rambling essay
to reviewbrah why why why
No. 1706475
This is a weird and embarrassing story, but here goes. I was having these intense problems with vaginal pain and dryness due to ongoing medical stuff, to the point where I couldn't even have sex with my boyfriend for more than a few seconds without searing pain, even when I used my prescribed estrogen cream and we did plenty of foreplay. It was seriously upsetting and I thought I might just be completely ruined for life. But things turned around for me this year in a really unexpected way. You see, I discovered erotic self-insert fanfic and female pov hentai. Featuring a character I'm really into. I was barely aware such content existed and was totally dismissive of it before this - I never read the stuff and I still feel like it's the equivalent of trashy romance novels. I judge myself so hard for this. It was just crazy that the first time I read something I liked, I got wet like I hadn't in a really long time. The more I did it, the more I noticed my body responding. Eventually I thought about that stuff while I was with my bf (like imagining this fictional dude eating me out and fingering me while my bf did the same) and it started feeling way more pleasurable with very little pain, and I had less pain each time until we were finally able to start having piv sex again. I think my issues must have been at least partly psychosomatic (maybe I was already healing but wasn't in the right frame of mind). Sex has just improved from there and I'm really relieved and happy about it. He's happy about it. I just feel extremely weird for thinking about a fictional man while fucking my actual man. He has no idea, and what he doesn't know won't hurt him, right?
tl;dr husbando healed my pussy, bf thinks it got better on its own
No. 1706603
>>1706533I'm sorry to hear that happened to you and glad that you were able to feel better eventually with the help of fic. And yeah, it's slightly
problematic that my irl bf doesn't have visible abs like my husbando but oh well, at least he's trying and wants to look good for me.
>>1706565omfg when you asked for a link for a second I thought you were asking if it was Link from Zelda! No, and I'm not sure if I want to share right now. I don't want my husbando to become known as the pussy doctor or something like that in the fandom even though it would be kinda hilarious. Maybe I'll post something eventually in a relevant thread (I did drop a tamer picture in the hornyposting thread once).
No. 1706914
>>1706707are you worried he'll talk some sense into you or something? he probably won't, he's a man and men are emotionally retarded. all you have to do is phrase it like you have control of the situation even if you find it difficult to be interested by food (this is what the male anorexic I know does, he's clearly underweight but he says he's "just not that into food" lmao, and no one ever calls him out on his bullshit except his mother).
honestly I hope you get control of your unhealthy eating habits though because it's going to make you visibly sick and unhealthy early in life. it's a treatable problem if you stop being all shame-y about it and address it. you'll have much better quality of life after you free your mental energy from ED shit.
No. 1707221
>>1707214wow me too nonna. I was so young back then, but it was the first time i found a community online that i enjoyed.
I think about PULL frequently.
No. 1707421
>>1707360>>1707367im mad cause she ebegs for everything and the sad thing is even if she'd tweeted 'hehe i jst bought tickets for me and daddy to go see depeche mode sum1 reimburse me $100' one of her coomers probably would've caved and sent her like 50 at least.
shaynas life is absolutely miserable but i do marvel at her lack of shame and her ability to make coomers give her money. meanwhile im struggling here to even find work to alleviate my current brokeness and can't even afford groceries fml. i want to see depeche mode but im POOR
No. 1707666
>>1705916goddamn
nonnie are you me. literally nearly exactly the same situation. hope we can both find love
No. 1708107
>>1708083it's okay me too
nonny, there's this one younger actor (like late 20's?) on a show i watch with a massive, wrinkly forehead that I can't help but fixate on it when he's in a scene KEK it's so distracting, he looks worse than some of the 40-50+ year old men on the show too. can't help but wonder why he doesn't spend part of his paystub on botox and hair plugs lol
No. 1709485
>>1709375For my personal situation I count them. It’s not the method of ingesting them, it’s the fact that it’s a psychoactive drug that I would willingly ingest. I wish my brain wasn’t one with such rigid logic but alas.
>>1709383Enjoy queen
No. 1709835
>>1708905based, im exactly the same nona. i cant befriend people who i find have an unpleasant personal smell.
>>1709265you have munchie motivations, but i think a lot of people do. i know i have thought similarly to this before, serious illness and suffering is uniquely spiritually affirming. i think you should explore why you have this desire and work from there
No. 1709857
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I'm ashamed to admit that I've been delulu and running after this one moid for months even though I probably should've just let it be months ago, but my stupid brain still seems to think that there'll be a happy ending for us even though I know that life is not like in the movies. I just can't help it. I've always been the kind of person that tells friends and others to leave a moid as soon as he starts acting wishy-washy, yet here I am looking like Bozo the clown. It's like my brain is telling me to go outside and touch grass but my heart feels like there's "something special" between us and I shudder typing this because I know how dumb I sound.
No. 1709919
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My ex scrote slit both of his wrists in my kitchen (upwards) because I wouldnt sleep with him…
So I had to hold his arms closed and call an ambulance.
No. 1709958
>>1709919I grabbed my kitchen knives and cleaver away from my BPD ex from harming himself and splattering blood everywhere.
Wish I would have called the police.
No. 1710099
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I think my (much older) female boss wants to fuck. This has been going on for almost 3 years. I just want to get it over with.
No. 1710106
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>>1710100I think she is… I do not want to be wrong about this though because awkward. If you feel chemistry with someone, especially someone you wouldn’t normally be attracted to then they must feel it too right
No. 1710227
>>1710197Kek
I sign up scrotes I hate on websites/newsletters/etc about things I know they're self-conscious about (erectile dysfunction, male pattern baldness, etc) and/or send them sissy hipno, MTF porn and transition resources to hopefully convince them of cutting their dicks off
No. 1710343
>>1710115Im sorry my life is full of jerry springer tier family violence nonna. How am I the black sheep of the family?
I cant even do anything about it. Ive been sobbing all morning
No. 1710798
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I don't know why 2016 style makeup is coming back, I thought it was ugly in 2016 and I still think it's ugly now. Say what you will about zoomers but I will take anything above blocked out brows. Please give it up!! I'm not saying do 20's pencil thin brows or that bushy brows are ugly my problem is that regardless of width they look unnaturally blocky!!!!!!!!! And it's still the only makeup style MUAs in my city know how to do!!!!! FUCK
No. 1710913
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>>1710908kek you're right about the drag queen look. i wish i could make a psa about contouring to let every woman know that that shit does not work in real life when you aren't up on a stage. the women you see on tiktok redrawing their noses and having it look decent do NOT look decent in real life, they look like they have random lines drawn on their noses! there's a girl who works at the ikea near me who's honestly very beautiful, but she always has dirty lines of contour on her jawline and nose. i wish there would be a trend for makeup where it could still be fun and creative but not create a standard that's impossible to meet. i still feel like the "no makeup makeup" trend is kind of sad in a way, just no joy or creativity at all but still so much effort. oh well. at least we can all agree that picrel is awful and needs to die out asap.
No. 1710965
>>1710925>projecting so hardGirl… maybe the mean girl here is you who is trying to put me down by guessing i'm an anorexic. I have never been anorexic in my whole life nor self-harmed LMAO what are you on about. I have never talked about any competition or about people being inferior by not being sick. I just think it's beautiful and i'm a strange woman and a munchie in potential because of that, but never anorexic.
>>1710922I do find it beautiful. What about it? You don't like it, it's a opinion of yours…
>>1710937I wish, but hitting your head does not give you brain damage.
No. 1711104
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>>1711091Hes getting sucked to completion
No. 1711323
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I used to bait and harass men who posted abusive/misogynistic content by pretending to be a tranny scrote with an anime pfp and edgy name, and spamming them with rape and graphic murder threats until they deleted their accounts. I doxxed one of them and harassed him. I'm from a Southeast Asian country while he was American, so I never got in trouble.
I'm not really sorry. If they have the right to post bullshit and disgusting porn saying we deserve to be raped left and right, we have the right to make them feel as uncomfortable, hated and unsafe as we can from behind a screen. I'm tired of women being the "soft" and "proper" sex who can never be vulgar and practically fall apart when a man says rude things, fuck all that. All I'll ever do is verbally abuse the moid who tries it and trigger him (it's very easy, they expect no pushback so they fall apart fast).
I feel like this outlook alienates me from other women who are more sensitive, think I'm just being edgy or "freakish" and don't "get it", but I don't really care. I genuinely feel better knowing I ruined some incels' online experiences.
No. 1711375
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I always get so cut when someone unfollows me on instgr*m even though I don’t post pictures of myself or life, maybe one a year but I do post stories of shitty esoteric memes I find funny. This bitch who I used to work with and would have considered a friend back then unfollowed me but still follows everyone else from that job she left years ago. It feels like such a random personal driveby that she has taken the time to unfollow me. Obviously there are bigger problems in the world, I have those too and I know social media is brain worms. But shit like this starts me on a paranoid doom spiral.
No. 1711400
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>>1711386Picrel is you. Never stop being you.
No. 1711470
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>>1711323fucking based ily
No. 1711517
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>>1711323No fucking way, I would do the same thing. I love this place.
No. 1711654
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i hate the users of a certain board on 4chan, so i make daily incel bait threads to keep them occupied infighting while i keep getting better and better at the skill. sorry for all the nonnies who use that board
No. 1712935
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because i've never been able to actually get myself off as in finish, whenever i feel like jilling i just imagine myself stroking one out but like in spirit, very vaguely/abstractly in my mind. only for some fast few seconds though because then the thought starts forming and that turns me off because a weiner is involved. also picrel is my facial expression when i do it but i feel like that when i get horny in general
No. 1713325
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>>1712977basically picrel. i've never been able to have an orgasm by masturbating in any way so what i do instead is i just picture myself jacking off as a male but like very vaguely for a few seconds and i stop before the appendage fully forms/gets visualized in my imagination because dicks disgust me and kill my mood. emotionally it takes the edge off
No. 1713691
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I intentionally refer to my cats as my oldest and youngest, or my daughters that I gave birth to. It makes trad breeders and boymoms seethe. It started out as a joke since I obviously don't think I gave birth to a pair of ragdolls, but some people got so upset that I just kept doing it.
No. 1714256
The only time I don't want to kill myself is when I'm dancing at my dance studio. It's so hard for me to find happiness otherwise and the world keeps getting shittier. Real life is so boring and unappealing that I just always want to live in a fantasy world and daydream. I wish I was someone else living somewhere else. Being alone, ignored, abused, bullied, abandoned, and manipulated by everyone in my life no matter if it was at home, school, work, or in relationships has left me feeling passively suicidal for more than half my life now. Everyone is a let down and I feel like there's no point in me living since I don't have family, friends, or a partner anymore. I honestly don't know what I'm doing in life and am just waiting to die. What's the point of living if I don't have a single soul by my side? I'm exhausted and sad that my life was robbed from me when I was a child. I'm tired of my PTSD. My only goals are to make more money and advance in ballet.
No. 1714338
>>1714329Yes. Because not finding these boring ass celebs attractive just because everyone says they are is moidish behavior. You sound like you're mentally handicapped.
>>1714330God, why you guys need to defend these people so hard? It's like these retards that go "well, you just don't understand art if you don't like this boring piece of clocks melting". You bet I don't like that shit, I'd rather see the dogs playing cards one. Guess what else? That anime with the white haired gay and the black haired autist and the ginger psychopath also sucks.
No. 1714344
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>>1714316Is it a boy or a girl I’m guessing Rachel Weizs
>>1714338You sound hilarious can you criticize family guy pls
No. 1714357
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>>1714352Ohhhh is he relevant or a former qt
No. 1714368
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>>1714359He’s scary is it him op?
No. 1714431
>>1714362op here, ewww
nonnie kek it’s not him, everytime i see his fugly face somewhere i make a audible gag noise
No. 1714434
>>1714368nope
nonnie, he’s not an internet celeb, but dang peters voice is hot
No. 1715048
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>>1714331Jealousy is so palpable. I don't use pinterest btw.
No. 1715176
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Unironically me when I'm old after my husband dies
No. 1715211
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I'm so uninspired and have 0 initiative to do anything. I'm just so tired all the time. I changed my diet and exercise routine and I still have no clear goals ahead. I don't have anything I would like to work for a career. I'm in a dead end job working with spreadsheets all day.
I just don't know what I want to do and it's so frustrating. I'm 31 years old and I haven't been able to find something I would like to do. Everyone else in my life went to college and seem so passionate I wish I could feel the same.
I have hobbies I pick up from now and then but I don't really want to make any of them a job. I'm already super slow with them as it is plus I drop them for months then pick them up again when I feel like it.
I'm so sad.
No. 1715222
>>1715192Except no one nitpick anything. No one teared this woman apart. "She is ugly" it was all. You guys are truly retarded if you think women can't find some other woman ugly just cus said woman is a supermodel. Then you guys go "you're a moid obviously" only for later use the old ass moidish crap straight from the hairiest scrotum "you're jelous, you wish you were her cus you're ugly" kek do you guys even read your bullshit
>>1715190Leave your faux positivity "everyone is beautiful" shit at home, especially when you're trying to insult others with your jelousy card.
No. 1715225
>>1715222>You guys are truly retarded if you think women can't find some other woman ugly just cus said woman is a supermodelI mean, you never explained
WHAT it is that makes that woman ugly. It's kind of out of nowhere.
No. 1715266
>>1715222It's not so much just an opinion it's that whoever is insisting she's ugly is insulting others for finding her pretty, as if they literally want every single person to agree that this woman is ugly
There's plenty of celebrities that get shilled as attractive that I think are ugly, personally I don't see the point in going out of my way to demand everyone think they're ugly, nevermind insulting people for being attracted to them. At least Adrianna is healthy and obtainable looking unlike most plastic surgery addicts being shilled to gen z
No. 1715267
>>1715225Why do I have to explain? For you guys to say I'm a nitpick? So this shit can go on and on and on… You guys imply I was tearing her apart and when I don't you go "well, why not?"
>>1715243Make me.
>>1715244Weak bait. Jelousy all over again. Try being creative next time.
No. 1715270
>>1715266>It's not so much just an opinion it's that whoever is insisting she's ugly is insulting others for finding her pretty, as if they literally want every single person to agree that this woman is uglyThis literally makes no sense. I didn't insult anyone for finding her pretty I did insult when they went "well you must be a scrote". So you could use the same argument the other way around, that they were insulting me for finding her ugly and insisting I should find her pretty because she is a model… which is what happened with all the jelousy/bitterness/moid comments. Every comment I made was because of that crap "she is literally a model"
God this crap is going in circles. It's like I'm talking to a wall.
No. 1715364
>>1715363So you were the first comment that the model was ugly right?
Right here?
>>1714319>is this what boring straight white girls think is cute now lolWell, your comment was rather condescending. Still, I'd like to hear any reason WHY you think she's ugly.
No. 1715373
>>1715364Good God I denied that white girl comment already, you said you can scroll up? I literally said I didn't wrote that two times already. I don't want to get a ban for keep this discussion going but you guys cannot seem to let it go. I said "shes ugly" and some celeb stan had to call me a moid. All I did was call her retarded and mentally handicapped and insult an anime and some art while I was at it. And then this shit kept going because apparently I cannot dislike some supermodel, I must be bitter and jelous. That's good for a summary? I'm not about to lose my sleep for adriana fucking lima, what is this need to stan a celeb so damn bad?
>>1715368You shut up.
No. 1715379
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>>1715378Well, there ya go.
No. 1715382
>>1715377 i’m going to just say it, jerma wasn’t the main guy, i have some pics of him but he’s not actually the one, i was just too ashamed to say the actual guy kek so i said jerma
i do watch jerma sometimes but mostly his older streamsANYWAYS the real guy is
lowtax No. 1716759
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i had sex with a drug dealer for coke while i was drunk and extremely manic. he said it would only last 20 secoonds and it did. that was 2 years ago and i sitll feel absolutely disgusting for it
No. 1716957
I am glad the gender stuff wasn't around when I was a kid, cause I was classic case of it. Always telling my mother I wanted to be a boy, refused to shop for clothes in the girl section up until high-school, chose male characters in games, dreamt I was male. In reality I was just autistic and I viewed male as the default way to be, and because I didn't like the way women were portrayed on TV and media I wanted to be male, where they are usually the protagonist and more neutrally seen. Now I'm an adult and mostly deprogrammed from that, but I am pregnant and wildly happy about it. I am excited for the baby and being able to grow and mother him, I would never want the father role, I like the birthing and nursing, and now I see this as the primary function of my femaninity rather than the ability to "look good" or act cute or anything. My mother is very liberal though, and had asked me around high-school if I wanted to be a boy because that's when the gender stuff started happening, and I guess because I was so masculine up until that point it was raising red flags. I had a conversation with her recently where I said I didn't think they should do the medical transitioning stuff for children, and she said she absolutely disagreed with that. I love her but she definitely would have fallen for that stuff and done it to me, had the timing been different. I don't blame her, she just wants to be a good person, I am just thankful i was born in this time period. My life is so pleasant now, I love my husband, im 8 months pregnant, just scares me how it could have done. I'm hoping my son doesn't have a similar thing happen, if he's over 18 I will love him no matter but I just want whats best for him and I don't want people to ruin his life over dumb conceptions of gender
No. 1717387
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i feel like ill always be stuck in this battle of "getting better" it seems like nothing helps long term, no medication is ever the right fit, therapy just stops working. i feel dull aside from the time things come to a head and i erupt in tears. i just broke up with my boyfriend impulsively because although i love him i dont want him to deal with me or witness my declining mental health. my grades are dopping in university, i stopped caring. i dont like myself, i dont care or see a future, it is just pointless. and yet ive been CONSISTENTLY doing everything right for once. im sober. i go to therapy. i take my medicine at the right time each night. i eat healthy 90% of the time, sleep well, exercise a decent amount…but yet i just feel so lost. im so tired because its a constant loop of trying to fix myself and failing. i hate myself. i feel like such a burden. i feel so alone, too, and i cant even be a good friend anyway because i forget to respond to others. i have nobody in real life anyway. i feel like im purposeless and thats okay. i dont want pity. i dont want someone to say they understand or love me, even if it is kind and im thankful fo that. i just wish theyd understand and maybe accept that life is not for me. i dontwant anyone to waste their time on me. when i was little i just wanted to love and help others, now i want nothing to do with the world. i just want to drop out, quitmy job, but thered be no point doing that and making life worse. would need to kill myself. im tired of these suicidal plans every fucking month. the medication was supposed to help. therapy was supposed to help. how is this different than being unmedicated? without therapy? im scared to go off of it cold turkey. im also just sick and tired of holding on to this sick game that repeats itself. im fucking failing school and cant even do he bare minimum. i am not happy. i feel so alone. i feel so lost and sick.
i hate to sound selfish to my mother and i guess now ex boyfriend, or the friends i struggle to talk to often but i really wish something would kill me. i just want to go away and not fail, or upset anyone or be called selfish. i try to be selfless and understand maybe i can do more in this world and that is my purpose. but is it worth it to suffer ands truggle just to possibly help one person? i dont know. maybe that makes me evil.
sorry vent thread was locked and ijust needed to get this out. sometimes i feel like someone above is calling me and telling me its okay and im going to be okay if i do it but i dont want to sound schuizo saying that its just true. im sorry. im an adult this is bad
No. 1717534
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I wish I was one of those disgustingly happy and positive people even though I think they're annoying as hell. I've been a pessimist ever since I was like 11 and depression followed soon after and I've been this way for almost two decades now. Tried therapy, hobbies, meds and countless other things but I never felt a sense of joy for life. Everything just feels stagnant to me. I feel nothing even when I accomplish great things at work and whatnot. I just feel like something is wrong with my brain ever since I was born.
No. 1718165
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listening to justin timberlake's music on incognito mode because it's humiliating and i really don't want youtube to remind me once the season is over that he is probably one of my top most listened to artists. what a shame he made some really catchy music like two decades ago. i'm so embarrassed because it is nowhere even close to anything i listen to normally. this is coming completely out of left field kek and i never liked his corny ass in general. i don't know what's happening to me i'm disgusted with myself. i'm so fucking sorry britney spears i'm joking btw inb4 someone wedges themselves inside my asshole for parasocial behavior
No. 1718219
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Sometimes I feel like people don't quite understand younger generations, as if they just throw words like "Tiktok kids" or "Zoomer this and that" but just as a random boogeyman to justify problems. I don't care about specific generational terms or whatever, it's just that no one actually tries to sit down and understand how younger people are.
No. 1718532
My bf was genuinely abusive to me (hit me on a few occasions, verbal abuse) and I eventually realized that it wasn't okay and left him. We ended up getting back together—I know, it's dumb, I don't know how to explain why I went along with that. But anyway, it's weird because he has been a lot healthier now. For one, he apologizes about stuff he did before and denounces it, saying that there's no excuse and that it's disgusting. Recently I sort of broke down randomly because I spontaneously felt afraid of him and he stayed up all night to comfort me, saying he understood if I needed time to feel safe and that it's his fault for making me feel otherwise before. He's overall been patient and caring. I feel weird about it since he isn't just being generically nice but seems to genuinely be reflecting critically on awful past behaviors, which I know isn't something abusers do. I know that if I told anyone, the reasonable thing that'd be recommended is to not stick around with someone who's already been aggressive to you and to get out before things likely get bad again, and that's what I'd say to a friend too. And I know the whole "I'll never find anyone else to love me" memtality I have is trash and no excuse too. So I feel really stupid for staying, and I don't even know why I am, and I feel guilty that we've been having fun and that he's helped me through some stress. Right now I'm just holding onto the idea that I'll enjoy the good times while being prepared to hit the bricks if things start to take a dip.
No. 1718677
>>1718532Nonna… even if he's completely genuine, it still might change if he's suddenly
triggered again. I'm not saying he's being manipulative necessarrily, he might've truly realized it wasn't ok and all that but where's the guarantee it won't happen again? Have you talked about it? Can he at least go to therapy? I'm just not sure a person is capable of fighting this sort of demons on their own. And your sense of control might be an illusion, too.
No. 1719071
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Sometimes I secretly like some tiktoks even tho I know that it's retarded and addictive and often degenerate.
Recently I came across this young singer who's currently blowing up due to a challenge for her song and I must admit that I feel rather bitter due to her being so young and pretty…
No. 1719237
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>>1719160put off by the new farmhands ngl. super ban-happy over incredibly retarded shit. I've been here for years and end up deleting most of what I post two seconds later these days cause idk what's going to cop a ban anymore. actually really sad about it, miss talking to you guys.
No. 1719376
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i stalk random people on social media a lot
No. 1719384
>>1719350I feel like I'm being forced into doing a 180 on 'tolerance'. There's more and more bullshit and lies online and I can't help reacting with distrust. Like, I used to be annoyed by how dismissive people are of bisexuality, now I'm dismissive of bisexuality because of all the spicy straights and pickmes faking it. Used to be understanding of people claiming to be chronically ill, now I'm suddenly suspicious because of munchies and fatties. Likewise, I've become suspicious of 'neurodivergent' people because every fucking teenager online claims it. Used to support GNC men, now I assume it's fetishized womanface because troons have shown how real that is. I don't avoid gay characters but I am wary of how annoying and woke and 'hello fellow kids' their character is likely to be, and chances are they'll bring up trannies because the white men in a boardroom putting together these shows think it's all one and the same.
I think I'm still compassionate when it comes to people who are legit and believable but fuck me I'm so sick of woke shit.
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I have about 10 days to work on the EdTPA, a lengthy and useless portfolio for those pursuing a teaching career. Most states in the U.S. do not even use it because it's a genuinely horrible way of evaluating your teaching. Anyways, we're supposed to be given 3 months to work on it but my college only gave us one. I have been putting it off for so fucking long and now I have 10 days to work on it. Fml.
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>>1719545Holy shit, this is the funniest yet most based thing I've read so far today KEK omg and your boyfriend is a hilarious punching bag because even his own mother would have been tempted to abort his male ass LOL
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>Tfw found out a pick me posted here actually lives in my area.
>Tfw it’s taking all my strength not to dox her
Kek I don’t think I’d ever unless she posted something Pearl level retarded
No. 1721035
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Tldr; how to support my husbands theythem sister whos cutting boobs off, while not believing it is a correct decision.
My husbands sister identifies as "they/them".
Shes changed her name legally.
Sometime this month shes getting her breasts cut off, it will cost $15k+.
Husband has had conversations in the past about trans identities and their ideology clashed, although at the time his sister agreed with what he was saying.
She cut him off for a year or so after sending a long text a few months after that conversation after she realized how "toxic and transphobic" he is.
She came over one day when I had a trans friend over (ftm) and the sister since then has been more talkative so I assume thats helped, wasnt planned but I'm glad it helped the sister see that just because he doesnt believe the trans dogma doesnt mean he disgards people who are trans.
I dont think I'm meant to know about the boob surgery, I can saw it on the facebook feed but when I clicked her profile anything regarding that is gone. The gofundme is still up.
I know its sometime this month, I want hubs to push to hang out/be around during this time so hopefully she will bring him into the fold and if she needs someone who isnt extreme left he is there.
I think she will need alot of support going forward, shes already had a suicide attempt/s.
I love her and I hope she doesnt regret the decision and kill herself over it.
Her parents have told me they are basically waiting for the call from the police saying shes dead, any sort of pushback no matter how small has resulted in her cutting contact.
She was homeless in another country for 6 months instead of telling family she needed help.
She is very prideful, I am terrified if she realizes this doesnt solve her issues she will succeed this time.
Is there literally anything else we can do besides asking to hang out/go places and if she opens up about the surgery we offer to drive her/check in and give her food etc?
I'm an only child so I dont know the correct etiquette for siblings.
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I've had a crush on one of my online friends for almost a year and it hurts so bad
No. 1721234
>>1721191Same nona, I'm thinking about her right now even as I'm trying to distract myself with this goddamn website. But
how nuts are you?