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>>1316482>>1316487get venting faggots
No. 1316492
>>1316468Makes me think
YOU HAVE BEEN VISITED BY SLEEPY AOBA
>good sleep and boizu rabu will come to you but only if you comment "sleep tight, Aoba" on this post. No. 1316510
Kind of a meaningless vent but I can't figure out how to dress myself in a flattering normal way. Are season colors legit? I'm a soft summer or something but I instinctively choose clothes in grey and black, not working out for me. I'm also tall but feel uncomfy in tight clothes, yet loose ones make me look wide I think thanks to shoulders and hips. It sounds minor but I genuinely feel awful getting dressed and keep buying the wrong shit whenever I shop, I need a fairy godmother at this point. Whatever looks I like are atrocious on me imo because of my relatively wide body and small head. oh and bad posture. prolly overthinking it but my self esteem only gets worse
>>1316492sleep tight, Aoba
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>>1316468FUCK my shitty workplace. One coworker in particular is condescending as fuck and has taken it upon herself to act as an informal supervisor despite not being particularly good at her job. Another coworker is fucking the boss and no one seems to mind?? Your performance is judged based on how often you go out and get shitfaced with the ceo and there's a weird culture of scapegoating anyone without a type A personality whenever anything goes tits up.
No wonder we have such high staff turnover lmao
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Missed out on the perfect shoes for me, my life is over, nothing good ever happens, i deserve nothing, brbbrb kms
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>>1316548I know that feel sis, I wish I could play that one room decor game with the cats living inside the mushroom again on dressupwho.com
No. 1316609
I think I just saw my first TIM irl. I take a language class and signed up for the same professor that I had last semester. When we did introductions today she had us write out our names and pronouns, which she didn't do at all last semester. Then at the end I noticed this hulking tranny(?). I'm assuming it's a TIM because they were tall as fuck, had an anime girl t-shirt, was wearing a mini skirt, striped stockings, etc. you know, typical tranny style. At first glance, I still thought it was just a very obese weeb woman who doesn't shower because they looked absolutely greasy. But when they spoke, it was absolutely a man's voice and I had a bit of cognitive dissonance kek. I'll admit it's hard for me to clock obese trannies because it's easier for them to just blend as the opposite gender when they have fat all over, but I really think I have a tranny in my class and they convinced my professor to do the stupid pronouns shit. I hate giving out my pronouns, but it's hard for me to gauge when a professor is doing it just because they think it's the polite thing to do, or if they're deep into genderwoo shit, so I always just give my pronouns because I don't want to deal with a professor getting up in my ass about pronouns.
No. 1316619
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I feel totally isolated by my experiences and my emotions. I get asked by my boss why I seem sad, the truth is I don’t know how else to be. I woke up from a coma eighteen months ago after trying to kill myself, was promptly crippled by a security guard on the ICU, then sexually assaulted by another patient while I was unable to walk. They covered it up, let me out of hospital and the community psychiatric team have done nothing to help but still won’t let me discharge myself. I’m lying in bed awake right now from the nerve pain left from the injury that security guard gave me. I lost my teaching job, my scholarship, my future. I work a crap part time retail job and my colleagues talk mad shit about me. I’m back to leeching off my mum at the age of 30. I take 28 pills a day to manage my pain and supposedly my mental health. I’m nobody’s special person, people don’t want to know me at all. I’m ugly and strange.
There is no prospect of getting better. I won’t ever feel anything but sad ever again. How do you explain that? How can you expect anybody to understand or care? Life looks so straightforward for other people and they seem completely unable to comprehend that sometimes bad things can make you permanently weird and sad.
No. 1316676
>>1316637my boss and his wife just gifted me an entire bag of passion fruits they grew at their house lol
i don't really even like them but i took them to be nice
No. 1316681
>>1316619I'm sorry, I know depression sucks and can last so long it seems like forever. There's nothing to say that can make all that shit ok. The only thing I found that worked was a shitton of time, just day after day consistently taking the pills and getting the sleep and eating the foods and turning up to work, all while feeling like none of it mattered, over and over again, and gradually it feels less bad, starts to work to heal you. Eventually you'll have your own attainable life goals and things you like again. It's when you give up on all that that it can spiral out of control.
I don't know why some people get fantastic support and others get fucked over like you and no one seems to care or notice, but it's not your fault. It just happens like that. It means you're the only person who understands where you've come from and you have to have your own back even when other people are not understanding. You have to just accept the infuriating unfairness of it all or it'll fuck you up just thinking about it.
No. 1316682
>>1316676Mail them to me
nonnie I beg of you
>>1316677Oh ok I thought Lidl was German only, but I don't have one around here anyway. As for markets I'm not sure, I should look that up. It just sucks because places like that I've noticed tend to have odd hours but I'm so desperate for passion fruit at this point I'll do anything kek
No. 1316684
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I dislike it when trainers and already-existing employees make newbies feel like shit for any little thing they do. I understand this strict attitude when it's a job that's above fast food, but even McDonald's employees will turn their nose up at coworkers making a minor mistake, or even just asking a question. When I worked in fast food, my trainer got an attitude when I asked where the cleaning supplies where for me to clean the restroom. "Ugh, you know what I'LL do it". I was only asking where the supplies were so I can clean the restrooms. You can't take five fucking seconds to just say it's in the closet near ice cubes in the back? I got my ear screamed off by another trainer when I asked her to speak just a little louder for me to hear the customer's name clearly. "I said his name was RYYAAANN". So fucking pedantic. I finished preparing the doordash bag for the washer to come and pick up, and he came in through the driveway instead of inside the diner. He proved that he was the washer ready to pick up the specific customer's order, so I handed him the stuff and wished him well on his merry way. Coworker reee'd and complained about me "technically breaking the doordash rules" from handing a dasher the shit through the window instead of in person. She complained to the whole fucking team, and insisted to a manager that I get lectured. The manager in question was chill and said that she would simply prefer it if I handed the food to washers in person. What was even the point of that coworker telling EVERYONE about that one thing? Once, I accidentally shoved the register closed before I could put all of the change inside, so I asked one of the managers if she could open the register for me to place the change inside. The manager threw her head back and did a big "uuugggghhh" while her friends stood there and snickered at me, as if I was the biggest retard in the whole world for making that ONE rare mistake at the register. This manager in particular was also bitchy at times for no reason. When an obese and unhygienic couple sat at a diner table, coughing and sneezing without covering their mouths, I joked that I'll have to scrub that table down extra harder. She replied with, "well we ALWAYS have to clean EVERY part of the restaurant very well, obviously", as if she couldn't detect a fucking joke. It was surreal watching everyone love the shit out of this manager when she would be a cunt for no reason at times. She even got a good-bye party when she moved states. You know what, now I'm wondering if any of those people ever liked me, which sucks considering my numerous twelve-hour shifts and the fact that I was a pushover and took over people's shifts when they didn't wanna work on Fridays.
No. 1316694
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A scrote kinda rejected me after I insulted his ego and for the first time in my life I feel a strong urge to go crazy+stupid and begin stalking and harrassing him to try and make him love me. It seems like a great idea for some reason and I'm considering letting myself fall into this new era and just doing whatever I want. I want to do what I want to do and I will do it simple as.
No. 1316695
>>1316684Thet really sucks to be in that position. Especially if you’re not comfortable telling you’re manger that people are short with you. It’s hard but keeping your cool is imperative. It’s not good advice and other than asking questions or demonstrations are the best bet I’m not sure what else to add.
The hole that established employees fall in is that they have routine and certain ways of doing things based on whomever is manager on clock so they tend to not think for a minute that you have to learn their particular way of doing things. Kind of just like why can’t they just know?? It’s harmful and frankly a contributing factor to people being hired and cycled out so quick. Best of luck though. Not sure about you but it’s hard to not take it a bit personally. Stay strong and master that immediate reactionary frustrated response.
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>>1316705Could be one of your pipes in the kitchen/bathroom sink, or like the other anon said there might be something dead kek. When I had a gnat problem, we used picrel and laid them out around the house. You don't have to fold it like it shows on the label just peel and place them wherever and let them collect.
No. 1316749
>>1316740that's what I was kinda getting at
, was gonna ask for anon's chromosomes tbh
No. 1316776
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Istg this annoying guy friend I sometimes hang out with, keeps making comments when he sees a overweight woman, as if he isn’t a whale himself and he is 10x times bigger than the fat women he points to. And no you moron nobody wants to fuck a fat guy like you, stfu and go hit the gym.
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>>1316694>to try and make him love meno this shit sucks, nonna no scrote is worthy of chasing like that. do you seriously think that even if he comes to "love you," it will pay off? guarantee to the end it'll just be a bigger pain in the ass than if you moved on.
No. 1316954
I almost got hit by my dad today, I was so scared and helpless I can't believe this, i fucking hate men I hate them so much they're demonic and gross and scary. I hope you suffer you misogynist scumbag, die slow you son of bitch i rather kys than take care of you, you will rot in a corner and nobody will fuckin care and I will take great pleasure on your suffering, I will give you what you gave me: NOTHING. I fucking hate men, they destroy everything they touch, demons, mutants, nature's biggest mistake. I hope the XY chromosome fucking disappears from this miserable earth 98.99% CRIMES NEVER FUCKING FORGET IT, THEY ARE NOT HUMAN
No. 1316979
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I hate coomer culture on the internet. I hate the aheago shit, and I especially hate that it's popular enough to be on hoodies. I hate that aheago makes the anime girls look straight up retarded, yet coomers think it's sexy. I hate that drag queens and trannies clearly view women in a subhuman, yet hyper-sexual way. I hate that tranny horniness is so disgusting that it urges trannies to jump on social media and verbally terrorize lesbians for not wanting to suck dick. I hate porn, and I hate that people glorify it so much that it's the punch line in dumb boy jokes. I hate that people glorify porn so much that they turn their nose up at PornHub verification and act as if the industry isn't corrupted as all fuck. I hate that scrotes love porn so much, that not only do they fail to see the problems with it, but they label any woman as a "leg beard", a "femcel" or a "feminazi" for seeing the problem with porn and the industry it comes from. I hate that scrotes sexualize teenage girls to the point where they pretty much ruined the perception of school uniforms and cheerleading in the media. I hate that coomers sexualize so many non-sexual things that you can't even scroll searches like "My Little Pony" or even any little girls' show for five seconds until you're greeted with an explicit porn art of the show. I hate that scrotes are so feeble brained that they can literally get meme'd into being turned on by anything. I hate hearing coomers pull up a million mental gymnastics to justify getting off on porn based from pedophilia, rape, incest beastiality, and etc; the most popular reason being "bEcAuSe iT'S aRt!!". I hate that porn has become so popular that ignorant women actually think that becoming a sex worker is "empowering", or resort to coomer baiting to gain more viewers. I hate that one of the first things scrotes do when faced with a situation is to sexualize it (Ukrainian women becoming popular on porn tags). I hate hearing scrotes try and justify racial fetishes from not getting any affection from women of their own race, and because of what porn "taught" them about women outside of their group. I hate coomer art because it's always ugly and a big pattern is that they like clownishly oversized body parts. I hate that scrotes are so obsessed with porn that they commonly justify watching it, as if males will crumble to ashes from never watching porn (the excuses of "b-bu-but, males are vIsuAL cReAtUrES!!"). I hate that porn is so popularized, that males actually think going a whole month without porn is difficult (the retarded no nut November shit). Basically, I hate the internet's general take on porn, and the brainwashing from it.
No. 1316987
>>1316981The worst part is that it seems to be infested with braindead lefties who will jump at you for using the word 'retarded' but they will gladly go on to talk about rape porn and lolishit like it's a normal thing.
I hate how being a coomer became a personality trait post-pandemic.
No. 1317019
>>1316979same
>I hate that one of the first things scrotes do when faced with a situation is to sexualize it (Ukrainian women becoming popular on porn tags)or so called """communists""" drawing rape porn """political cartoons""" of a woman in military uniform who's supposed to represent Ukraine, as soon as the Ukraine war starts>I hate that porn is so popularized, that males actually think going a whole month without porn is difficult (the retarded no nut November shit)I hate that scrotes do it only because they're ruining their dicks and their own productivity.
I had one braindead male tell me "I admire your dedication to trying to convince others of going on NoFap" when I shared the link to that longass Tumblr anti-porn post with a bunch of coomers I was arguing with that day, because I wanted to make them realize how fucked up the porn industry is, how it affects real sex crime rates and how it exploits women. Moids are fucking incapable of empathy, I swear to fucking God. They're autistic, sociopathic, mentally stunted manchildren who only care about their own pleasure. Literal parasites.
No. 1317027
>>1316962nta but sensory issues are fake and I don't believe that's a real thing. side effect of mental illness
imagine being a child during industrialization in england, working in coal mines and complaining about sensory issues
No. 1317032
>>1317019Doubleposting to add the obvious but moids as a whole will never support or be against something out of principle, it's always gotta be because it personally pleases or affects them directly. I was hoping to convince some scrotes of not supporting or consuming porn out of principle and not just because their dicks might break, but I was so naive back then.
Then they say women only care about things that directly affect them and that's why we aren't as politically active as them. Pure projection, as always.
No. 1317049
>>1317044>be on disability$100 says this anon is mad that their tax dollars go to disability and thinks $1000 a month is more than satisfactory
$200 says that after anon reads the above, their next comment will be something like “actually disability services are fine, I just hate retards”
$10 000 says anon is going to say the opposite of whatever is said because they’re just here to argue
No. 1317061
>>1317052$7 says I do
>>1317059Yes I won the jackpot!!! Now shut up you little worm
No. 1317062
>>1317061I'm surprised typing little worm doesn't
trigger your crybaby sensory issues
No. 1317069
>>1317059You've
triggered the spergs but you're right lol. I'm sure sensory issues are legit… but more for the non functioning, needs lifetime care kind of autists, not the terminally online ones who get clout from listing disprivileged traits on their twitter bios.
No. 1317100
>>1317039Why do you hate yourself
nonnie. This is extremely embarrassing, and I say that out of love. Take your mistake as a lesson.
No. 1317115
>>1317098There will always be rude people, nonna. They might laugh at you for mispronouncing something, but you bet they don't know any more languages other than their own and english!
Learning languages is awesome, really.I am really proud of you,
nonnie.
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Anyone else's easily-influenced mom found those fucking hypnosis videos on youtube? My mom is literally trying to intentionally induce psychosis in herself; shes talking abut seeing purple lights and shit while she "meditates" to these stupid fucking fractal videos and now she can change the past and shit
She was already borderline demented, but I have been forced to watch her declining visibly for the last three years, it is heinous.
No. 1317182
>>1317176yeah, same.
I have tried everything I can think of to get her to stop, but she's convinced that it's helping her heal her trauma. I tried for 27 years to get her into therapy, to have friends, to try to reach out to her family, I guess I finally gave up. It's clearly not ever going to happen and now she's doing shit on purpose to make herself worse. Like she has gotten fucking shorter and sicklier in the last three years of doing this. I want to run away.
No. 1317190
>>1317185I'm honestly scared to because she's always said she can't live without me. I worry that that's true. And if she really does die when I leave, it's my fault, she told me what would happen
She could make her health worse or kill herself, I don't know how far she'll go, but I know her limits aren't normal. And she's always told me she's terrified of being locked up in a mental health facility for the rest of her life, so I can't even do that and at least know she's safe, because I do believe that she could scare herself to death.
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therapist: “people with complex ptsd oftentimes—“
me: “i’m sorry, do you mean i have cptsd?”
therapist: “yes” + a spiel about why i shouldn’t feel bad about it
me: “oh”
honestly i need to stop letting my disdain for disorder faking cows have an effect on how i view myself, because i guess i wrote off a series of trauma events as “haha no big deal i don’t want anyone to think anything of it probably best not to think about it at all honestly” and i wonder why i’m fucked. apparently your dad watching porn while you were chilling with him as a toddler and also being molested a couple times by a couple different people is trauma, on top of being raped and beaten and gaslit, who knew! i literally just thought haha that happens to everyone (which, doesn’t it????) and nobody talks about it so why should I
i wonder, is it really worth digging up my past and “processing” each piece when i’ve done such a good job at NOT doing that? the only thing that its affecting is that i am sex repulsed. if i could ignore it forever and pretend none of it ever happened i would just keep going on like that. if i think about it too hard i start going off the deep end about the state of humanity, the existence of men in general, how sex drives people to do horrible things, the idea that whenever im in the presence of men at least one is a rapist and/or would hurt me sexually if they could get away with it, that i surround myself with nice gentle soft things because my childhood was tainted by the knowledge of sex yet no matter how kind my environment is now i am broken and dirty, i have one life to live and I will never get those years back, why didn’t my family protect me why did they instigate this, etc etc i fucking hate it here
No. 1317244
>>1316954If I were you I would continue living at home, becoming more bitter and just post about how angry you are on here. In fact, seek out more
toxic moids, absorb the negativity, bottle it all up, and release it on this site. That will help you
No. 1317283
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I'm tired of beign a sensitive fuck. Everything affects me. I kinda know why I'm like this, and after the heat of the moment passes, I list reasons why I'm not the center of the universe. But even if I grab the LoGiCaL reasons, I still feel like shit the rest of the day or week.
For example, I misunderstood a casual friendship I had at work with beign bffs. Since I don't have friends, every good interaction is a treasure to me. But once they fired her, she stopped talking to me. I tryied reaching out to her once but she didn't seem interested. Yesterday she was walking past our workplace, I waved to her and she quickly waved back without saying a word or looking at me. And THAT affects me?? A stupid wave from someone who isn't in my life for the past 4 months?? Like how stupid and dense do I have to be??
God I wish I could change how I am or at least not be aware of it, because it makes me feel worse.
Bonus vent: my boyfriend, also yesterday, asked me if I wanted to take some space from the relationship. Like, not seeing eachother for a couple of days. Because he thinks beign with him does me more harm than good. Fuck no?? God this kind of stuff is for people who are prior to a breakup and I am not up for this shit I love him to the core of my soul wth.
Tl;dr: I'm sentive as fuck, I'm aware, and I'm doing therapy with multiple proffesionals and still can't stop it.
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>>1317174>shes talking abut seeing purple lights and shit while she "meditates" to these stupid fucking fractal videos and now she can change the past and shityo mama right now
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>>1317342Kek this is so mean.
Picrel is anon's mom
No. 1317467
>>1317392The visual are what made dmmd so iconic honestly
>>1317381Aw come on, those are the bad endings and they're all robots anyway. The puppy transforms into a werewolf too and then becomes a human.
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Just found out my mother keeps her crack pipe in my childhood dolls house. The symbolism is so on the nose it's almost hilarious.
No. 1317481
>>1316979I got told I have internalized mysogyny (by a man) for saying that sex work exploits women. He also called me classist because I hate men who willingly fuck human trafficking
victims. Coomer brain, man.
No. 1317512
>>1317473Don't start smoking again. You did great to give it up, you should be proud.
As long as you're eating healthy and exercising, gaining some weight doesn't really matter. Just keep living healthy!
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>>1317486Maybe you lost some face fat/baby fat and now your nose looks bigger in comparison, since everything else got smaller? You could also be comparing pics with a bigger focal lenghts with selfies. I don't think your nose should be noticeably bigger so soon tbh, the other anon is right but it grows really slowly and only a little bit, like you can notice it being bigger when you're 60, 70 and even then, it might not be a big difference.
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>>1317481>scrote thinks that being against sex work is to be misogynistOkay this scrote is either one of those liberal-based retards who think that everything is empowering as long as the woman CHOSE to do it, or a scrote that used the "misogyny" slander to shut you up and to stop making him feel guilty because deep down inside, he KNOWS it's wrong to watch filmed rape (porn). How is it classist to hate scrotes who rape human trafficking
victims? That scrote is a grade-A retard who slings random words at things he doesn't like, such as people calling out his disgusting hobbies and likes (porn and rooting for trafficking). He's so addicted to sex, that he thinks everything that has to do with sex is good (even forced sex and prostitution). Scrotes like that need to be taken behind any shed and shot right there between the eyes. I'm praying that the scrote who called you those names and rooted for sex work and human trafficking gets testicle cancer that winds up killing him.
No. 1317562
I definitely don’t have covid but I probably have bronchitis. Yesterday I coughed up some nasty looking mucus and I even coughed so hard it started my period. Now I haven’t been able to cough up any mucus but it hurts pretty bad if I try
>>1317467>The visual are what made dmmd so iconic honestlyFor me, it’s the soundtrack.
No. 1317592
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26 years old and still a kissless virgin discord kitten.
No. 1317600
I hate that stupid xanax trend that came with the soundclout trend and I hate that I was a dumbass teenager and saw drugs as cool at the time. Month and 5 days clean but I wish I never went further than cigarettes. Would have made me look stupid enough to feel like the cool kid.
>>1317592Don't worry nonna, relationships aren't worth the pain that comes after they're over and people who judge you because you're a virgin are just retarded. You will find someone some day, jars and lids you know.
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I'm spooked of both kiwis migrating here and troons trying to take down the farm right after…
No. 1317631
>>1317592What's a "discord kitten"?
You can go on dates etc. when you feel ready, there's no rush.
No. 1317633
>>1317580it wasn't 'original' (VOMIT) content, it was a screen recording of an instagram page that had posted the video being disgusted, saying they were raising awareness and that others should spread the vid too. i don't know how retarded one could be to think you should share that on social media so i don't know if they were being edgy and not sincere.
the post had thousands of views so i hope someone reported it. i tried looking up the name of the spam account to see any news but it was a generic ig username and a bunch of random accounts came up.
No. 1317643
>>1317592dont waste your youth on that online relationship bullshit, take it from someone who knows well. dump and block him, and sign up for a fun little exercise class or something (how I met my first real friends in my mid 20s).
The scrotes online fermenting in their gamerchairs asking you to send pics are worthless, you will feel worthless once the cheap validation wears off. Dont be their low-hanging fruit.
and do not worry the virgin part. Thats not even a problem, being mentally and physically inert is.
No. 1317658
My mother, who has been abusive to me my whole life, and is just an asshole in general, called me to tell me she has scoliosis and that I should get checked in case it runs on the family. Which adds to the dozens of health conditions she passed onto me (myopia, thyroid disease, blood pressure issues, fertility issues, vitiligo, predisposition to stomach cancer and Alzheimer, etc).
Please for the love of god checked your goddamn health before you decide to bring kids into the world. Is fucking awful to bring a kid that will only have a myriad of health issues and feel like shit all the time, when they didn't even ask to be born in the first place. All I have from my mother is health issues and trauma, and having these health problems all the time is a constant reminder that she never cared about her kid, she just wanted a reason to keep my dad married to her. I hate being reminded of her, being reminded that I'm her kid, and that she never has nor will give a fuck about my wellbeing. Worse of all is that she keeps using these illness as an excuse to her shitty behaviour, while I would be yelled at if I even complained about it. It sucks knowing I will live all my life with my health just deteriorating cause this bitch thought it was more important to have a man.
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>>1316468I will never play Dmmd for the first time again.
No. 1317669
>>1317628I seriously don't think lolcow will be targeted. First because honestly the site isn't that recognizable, and is mostly a girl board. Most girls boards aren't taken seriously. Besides, as much talk as we do here, we have rules that avoid the site turning into the kind of thing government dependencies have on watch. 2nd is that yes, KF is a trash site in general, and not because they're making trannies kill themselves does it means they're similar to us. Make no mistake
nonnie, KF dwellers are stupid incels and they would target us on a whim. So yeah, KF deserves to be nuked, cause those idiots can't be trusted. On last point, I don't think the KF bunch will migrate here, if anything it will be like that PULL migration: some did migrate, some expected the site to be something else, and ended up banned or leaving the site after a while. Most likely the scrotes coming from KF will be spotted and kicked out. I'm more interested on what position do the farmhands have on this.
No. 1317683
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>>1317678nta but I'm still afraid, kiwis are mostly autistic scrotes with a lot of time on their hands, they could make this place unusable for us. I hope I'm wrong though
No. 1317689
>>1317658Kek anon literally every human being on Earth has predispositions to various health conditions. This is literally why healthcare and medicine exist. Myopia, vitiligo, blood pressure issues are no fucking biggies. Like did you really think you were going to go through your entire life in perfect health? You can blame your mom for being an
abusive asshole but blaming her for potential health issues is goofy af.
No. 1317710
>>1317694Do you have a lot of friends? Are you close with your family? I was depressed for several years, and none of the professional help was useful to me at all. However once my family and friends became aware of my struggles, they became much more supportive toward me (prior to that my family would always argue with me and put me down). It helped a lot.
It's different for everyone, but I think having a "support network" is very important. You can try professional help too of course, I don't think there's anything to lose. It certainly hasn't been held against me.
Good luck!
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>>1317537>>1317481this reminds me, i've been playing yakuza 7 recently and i hate how all the main characters want to avenge the murdered owner of the brothel/soapland. i know this game portrays prostitution as a grey area and 7 doesn't immediately turn around and exploit/objectify sex workers in the game right after trying to pull the 'but they have no other choice angle', but i still find it annoying how hard this game wants you to sympathize with a pimp, especially after making him look like a total asshole during his introduction.
No. 1317747
>>1317737anon not be that person but what do you expect, its the yakuza (who are basically the mafia).
There is going to be stuff like that.
No. 1317780
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Love you nonnies. I hope we can semipeacefully stay here for a few years more regardless of what happens to other websites.
No. 1317789
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I HATE THIS HAIRSTYLE SO FUCKING MUCH EVERY SINGLE MAN ON TINDER HAD IT it physically makes me recoil in disgust I hate the way their scalp is showing and it makes their heads so fucking misshapen. Makes me wanna vomit I hate it so furiously.
I LOVE HAIR WHY CAN'T A SINGLE SCROTE HAVE HAIR. I'm not kidding I got all of these in succession there isn't a single scrote with hair.
I wanna murder the man who made this hairstyle apparently the only acceptable haircur for my age group of men in cold blood I hope he and his male family members all suffer. It's just so antisexy to me, I can't register any man with this ugly ass hair as a potential sexual or romantic partner. I just see them as ugly ass annoying scrotes. There is nothing better than fluffy soft nice hair why do they botch themselves. I don't need LONG hair I just need ANY hair.
No. 1317792
>>1316695>>1317777Thank you, nonas. Also
>Sometimes those fuckers don’t even train you at all and let you scramble like a messTHIS. I feel like terrible trainers aren't talked about enough. They don't tell you important details, and then act like you're the most annoying coworker in the world when you ask simple questions about the job.
No. 1317794
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>>1317789The broccoli haircut is the douche hair for zoomer idiot boys. Picrel is the douche hair for rich guys who drive oversized trucks or really expensive cars.
No. 1317819
>>1317682Not our fault your friend is a retard that believes the cnn myth that every imageboard is a nazi site. My point stands, and lolcow is nowhere near KF level, and that's because we have rules here. Ffs you can get banned for not saging lol. If troons have been posting about LC then they're doomed to fail, cause I haven't seen them anywhere.
>>1317683I share the sentiment tho. Scrotes are annoying, and everytime they come here they put their autistic hands on everything, derail the threads, and overall are a nuisance. I hope any KF dweller that comes here gets booted.
I do agree
No. 1317836
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really shocked how some anons here can post on cow threads how ugly their cats are or some shit seriously fucked up lmao you low life pieces of shit
No. 1317839
>>1317836Facts anon. Shaynafags aim for low hanging fruit cuz they have no milk so they just dig whatever they can
I'll always find it funny that Luna's cat looks like her though kek. But cats are not ugly
No. 1317852
I wish medication worked, I've been on so many different kinds probably around 30-40 since I was 13 and therapy since I was 5, I think i'm just too damaged to live i've been molested, raped, beaten and abused since I was 2 years old how are you supposed to live with the baggage?
it never leaves no matter what you do, I have few close friends because I can't trust anyone, I have 6 different kinds of of mental illness, I tried throwing myself into work to distract myself it didn't work, I tried throwing myself into drugs and alcohol it didn't work. how do you live as a broken person? you can't be normal anymore you can't be the person you used to be that person is gone now, I can't get her back the person I used to be is dead and buried and I can't change that
people write books to cope with these kind of things, people become therapists or work for crisis lines, I can't do that I am so broken as a person I am no longer capable of love, I just wish I knew how to live in this world without the pain
No. 1317863
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This stupid fucking meeting I have to follow at work got pushed from 3pm to 7pm so I’m still in my fucking office right now meanwhile my parents ORDERED SUSHI FOR DINNER. I FUCKING HATE THIS PLACE THE OVERTIME PAY ISNT ENOUGH FOR THIS STUPID GARBAGE
No. 1317920
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Why the FUCK did my friend move to Mexico as a white woman with her 3 kids with no fucking home. She had a nice apartment in here in Canada, she had a mother who would help babysit and visit her almost daily, and now she's basically stuck with no income, stressing over what to do next. Bitch, I cannot help you. I told you not to go, your kids are now missing out on friends and school. You are playing with the life of your fucking children. URHH WHY DID YOU MOVE TO FUCKING MEXICO EVEN IF IT WAS 4 MONTHS YOU DONT HAVE MONEY COME THE FUCK BACK NOW. STOP CONTEMPLATING IT JUST DO IT
NONNIES IM JUST WORRIED
No. 1317931
>>1317922She read about travelling parents who travel the world and stuff, except those people are rich as fuck, and aren't living on government money. She initially wanted to go around the world for 2 years visiting places like Georgia (the European country) and Romania.
I'm sorry about your friend nona, I hope she doesn't have kids. I hope she comes to her senses and divorces him and comes back.
No. 1317936
>>1317863I literally don't understand why the fuck I couldn't go home to watch and record this shit. It's all livestreamed anyway. Now I have to fucking travel home at god knows what fucking time because this meeting is STILL GOING!! AND IT'S 10PM! AND THERE IS NO END IN SIGHT!!!
For a second I felt guilt again because I was contacted for an interview then the lord himself must have said "no, don't feel guilty" and gave me the EXACT REASON why I fucking hate this place but made it 10X WORSE!!! IT'S FUCKING FRIDAY LET ME GO THE FUCK HOME
No. 1317948
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When your body type has subjected you to constant sexual harassment for ages and the only thing that subsides it is gaining weight and it feels amazing to finally be left alone in comparison to before but you do not like fat people and are disgusted by yourself but men finally leave you alone for the first time and it’s beautiful but you hate yourself and what you’ve become and and and
No. 1317959
>>1317948Damn
nonnie, be healthy and turn your hate towards men instead of yourself
No. 1317966
>>1317962I’m not obese I’m 20 lbs overweight and will never reach that point.
>>1317959I’m not ‘unhealthy’ I’m just not disordered anymore and vaguely frumpy.
>>1317959Spend every day of your life since puberty dealing with sexualization because of your body type and come back to me I don’t care anymore
No. 1317972
>>1317966>Spend every day of your life since puberty dealing with sexualization because of your body typeYes, you're the only one who went through this
>and come back to meno
No. 1317980
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>>1317934Oh trust me, I understand
nonny. She legit went because the airbnb was 1.1k for 4 months. That's her reasoning. It's fine for a month vacation in summer but 4 fucking months. Those kids are going to be so miserable. She's also full admitted BPD. I hate her useless husband and I will kill him. We are very similar.
We shall save our friends, one day..
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>>1317995
No. 1318009
>>1318005What a based recycled twitter joke nonnita
nonnie nonnikans so glad you deleted and reposted it because it wasn’t funny enough the first time
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I decided on a double dose of ativan and some Benadryl.
No. 1318016
>>1317980Wtf, well at least she's coming back right?
Nonny,
nonny this fucking sucks, but we keep on trying!!
No. 1318018
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>>1318015Image and joke memed on twitter by NLOGS and homos every day for the last two years
No. 1318022
>>1316605I'm also apartment hunting right now. Sec dep is all over the place. Sometimes it's $0, sometimes $300, sometimes literally $2500-3000. Landlords/companies are also being insane with refusing to post the rent, and then if you can wring the actual price out of them, they change it on a day to day basis. Literally, one of the guys pulled out a print-out chart of rent price changing day by day and unit by unit. So no more days of "lol rent is like uh $1800." Nope, now you call one week and it's one price and the next week it's a different price. Becuase now they use SoFtWaRe that optimizes it! Just the latest form of corporate anxiety that they had to fuck up something as simple as telling people what the hell the rent is.
They're also trying to minimize time the unit sits empty between tenants, so they are trying to shove a new tenant in sometimes within a week of the old one moving out, which means prospective tenants are forced to wait until the last minute to be able to snag a place, no more days of settling it a month or two in advance, oh no. Legally they're supposed to repaint and change the carpet in between tenants and if they're trying a one-week turnaround there is no way in hell that they are doing that. So you have to wait until the last minute to get a new place, meanwhile not knowing if you're going to be able to jump on one and win the dogpile or if you'll be homeless next week.
Rent increased 30% in my city from last year. In one year. And even with that level of pricegouging they are STILL not happy and want to be even more miserly about squeezing out every last penny they can to the point of being anxious and extra and making the entire process ten times harder than it ever should be.
And then half the landlords are stuck in 1995 and don't even have a WEBSITE despite owning several entire buildings.
And I am so TIRED of places putting "call for rent" like dude I don't have 10 hours a day to sit here calling your greedy stupid ass.
No. 1318030
>>1316705sooo flies come from maggots and maggots do this thing where they crawl into dark crevices like the ventilation system or between the wallspace to establish a colony and yeah sorry nona.
>>1316609I don't know what a TIM is, why is there a new bloody fucking acronym every week. They just got done inventing AFAB/AMAB and now you're on about a "TIM". speak english, no one but the terminally online understands what you're on about.
No. 1318040
>>1318030it’s trans-identifying male
retard, don’t get mad at us for trying to avoid terms like mtf that legitimize troons as women
No. 1318044
>>1318040just say troon
>>1318033now instead of accusing everyone of being scrotes we'll accuse them of being kiwifarm users. and my complaint is
valid that there is a new acronym every week.
No. 1318064
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I accidentally almost stepped on my cat's tail while she was eating, she hissed in shock and I think she choked on some of the food. She stopped caughing and seems to be breathing normally now, please pray for her that it's okay and she doesn't just suppress it.
No. 1318079
>>1317937I ultimately left halfway through the meeting, made the 1 hour trek home, and that shit was still going on. Since it's a livestream I just rewinded a bit and picked up recording from where I left off while I fucked off outside to eat my sushi. My parents had a whole platter of sashimi set aside for me too… Honestly the best thing to come home to kek.
My commute home is usually about 20 minutes but trains get super fucked when it's nighttime. First there were no fucking trains AT ALL at my station, so I had to walk to another station, take the train one stop and still TRANSFER to another train, waited 20 minutes for that train, then got stuck in the tunnel for 10 minutes when we were coming up into my station UGH. I have a job interview soon and I felt a bit of guilt when I set it up, but it feels like god came to me and said "oh you feel guilt? let me remind you why you want to leave in the first place, but dialed up to 10."
I have nothing against my boss but I just hate this business (news) in general. I'm not cut out for it and don't have a smidge of passion to make up for my piss poor salary. If I had decided to stay in the office to record it all, I probably would've just made it home by now because the trains get worse as the night goes on. Now I am fed, washed up, and ready for bed.
No. 1318124
>>1317592Ummm…. 26 is young. You're not in your 40s or 50s. Stop thinking about yourself as an "old woman". Whole life ahead of you and you crying that you haven't had sex yet. It's a shitty society that makes women feel like we have to be married by 25. No such thing as being too old for love.
Focus on yourself first and raising your vibration, improving your own self esteem. Your self esteem should not depend on the friendships or relationships you have with other people. You are not defined by your relationships. You are not defined by your relationships with other people. Other people do not define you. Only you define you.
It's normal and completely okay to want to have sex (when you an adult). But not getting it should not make you feel bad about yourself. Sex is something we have with another person. So if something is wrong or dissatisfying about the sex, it's not necessarily your fault. It could be the other person's fault. (If you haven't had any sex with the type of man or woman you want…. Maybe it's his or her fault for not approaching you. Maybe it's the other person's fault for approaching you but being too lazy to make an effort to take you out to a nice restaurant. Maybe it's the other person's fault for expecting sex immediately on the first date… Maybe it's their fault for treating you bad. You don't owe anyone sex. He or she is supposed to try to impress you, to make you feel comfortable and safe around him or her. If they are not doing that, then it's their fault for not courting you right. So you want to filter out the people who wanna have sex with you but don't wanna respect you. Because you are worthy of love and respect.) When you start having sex you want to approach this with a strong confident mindset where you feel confident enough to tell your partner what you like and don't like, give them feedback on their performance, and refuse to put up with less than what gets you off. Sex should make you feel good. Communicating these boundaries (what you will and won't do, what you enjoy and don't enjoy) works better when you come to a relationship with a confident mindset where you are unafraid to lose your partner. Because you know that your value does not depend on your relationship status.
I type in sage in the email box. Hopefully now it sages… fingers crossed.
No. 1318146
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Fuck moids. I saw an old friend of mine post suicide baiting tweet on my feed, and saw a depressing discord status and guess what, he is feeling that way because some woman being a digital anime avatar doesn't notice him despite being her top paypig. Whats even worse is that he got mad at me for trying to comfort him and talk about it, and the only depression in his life was always surrounded by "tfw no gf" and paypiging, while i am out there trying to survive being a foreign in a different country, having massive health issues that doctor still dont want to resolve unless i pay them thousands which i cant afford, on top of that i got attacked outside for my nationality. God FUCK MEN. I am so tired! His life is nothing but high paid job >gym>twitch>sleep and he turns that into a pity party, keep laying in your own puddle of tears, hoping some manipulative idiot would notice you. I am so frustrated. It's even not the only person with such privileged life that I know, the other guy jerks off to the fact how he thinks he can fix some random streamer. Fuck them all!!
No. 1318156
>>1317643>fun little exercise class or something (how I met my first real friends in my mid 20s). How did you do it? What kind of class?
>>1318124>improving your own self esteem.How do you build your self esteem when you shouldn't place your worth on relationships and friendships?
No. 1318183
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>vent about my mom losing her fucking mind
>two people laugh at me
>someone else posts it in the funny caps thread
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>>1318183I’m sorry anon. I hope it gets better
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good afternoon nonnas, this is the second time I've had a romantic or sex related dream about someone I used to fancy for a while but now find repulsive irl. I'm so fucking tired of it. I'm in a 5 year relationship and happy with my bf so I have no idea why I even fancied this other dude in the first place (I didnt act upon anything at all), it was like the male feminist parasite infested my brain and controlled me for a month. I realised that the crush was sort of sleazy and annoying and he stopped being friends with me as soon as he got a gf anyway even though I didn't make it clear I had any attraction to him…never flirted or anything but I'm bitter that he just dropped me even as a friend but I guess that shows how most moids will only be friends with you if there's an opportunity to shag you. I find him so annoying but then I've had these dreams and now it's like i want him all over again thanks to the dreams. Why am I even like this, why does my brain make me like people thanks to a dream, it's pathetic and just distracts me.
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>>1318264You know what you're right, MLP collectors have perfectly normal behaviour, not embarrassing at all
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>>1318268There is a difference between normal collectors and otaku-tier furfags.
Let people enjoy things, it was nothing but a cartoon aimed at girls that happened to be ruined by /b/ online.
t.
nonnie who collected cute MLP figurines and never cared enough to look at the fandom part. I feel bad for anyone who encountered creeps though, but the amount of hatred for the tv show itself is bizzare.
No. 1318291
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>>1318271piggybacking off of this to confess that im a brony, or i guess pegasister, and have been since primary school
sorry for being a zoomer, no im not underage.yes ive been exposed to vile stuff but its not me who was creating stuff like that. like i remember being even younger and looking up lola bunny and finding loads of porn when i was too young to even understand what i was looking at. the show means a lot to me and if not for it then i would have never learned english. its an innocent kids show i watched as its target demographic and its not my fault scrotes are degenerates i wish they werent but with everything they find some perverse thrill in corrupting everything, even bowling balls for example.
the only time i ever saw mlp porn
clop was at the height of its popularity when everybody posted it everywhere as LE EBIN TROLE… i never sought it out myself and still dont and will never. i just like the little colorful mares and the lessons taught within the show.
No. 1318306
>>1317046Kind of generic advice, but going for a walk/run usually helps me change my mindset and focus. Sometimes OCD makes it feel like I can't do anything, but as soon as I force myself outside that feeling disappears.
At times when I just can't get my thoughts right I listen to podcasts to drown them out.
No. 1318317
I don’t think I’ll ever get over my ex-fiancée who I had been with since high school turning out to be a pedophile. She knew I had been raped repeatedly as a kid, she knew I was nearly trafficked, she pretended to be someone completely different all for the end goal of manipulating her way into being home alone with my kid for a day, a kid she knew was the result of me being abused. It had been years we were together, and she lied to stay home from work while I left, and then she molested my child. Thankfully my family found out immediately, but after running home from work to raise Hell, kick her out, and call the cops, I went through her messages all night looking for signs and beating myself up for not knowing. She was always a degenerate pedo, sharing loli and shota and roleplaying with her friends online. Talking about how “hot” such and such kid was. I trusted her too much and never checked her DMs, just took her word and fake sympathy towards my trauma for it, and it’s hard to not blame myself to this day. The cops never even did anything, and her and her friends harassed me for months across every platform, even showing up at my house to try to scare us. I feel so stupid for not seeing it before something happened, and I’m scared it’ll happen again if I was that dumb the first time. I worry that if I’m not home 24/7 someone’s gonna hurt me or my kid again. My family and friends have started speculating that I might have OCD. It totally fucked me up and even when life is going good there’s this background radiation of “everyone’s out to get you” “something bad is gonna happen because this or that” I’m so tired. I want to swap lives with someone else
No. 1318371
>>1318130I went to therapy for that. The big thing was realizing I was never the problem: the bullies were the problem. Also learning to protect yourself from verbal abuse (mentally, learning 'grey rock technique') and from physical abuse (staying alert and learning self defense) helps prevent you ending up in the same place with new bullies. You are strong. Remember that. You are stronger than they ever were. Wish you good luck in the healing process.
>>1318156Personal achievement and knowing what you want from life. It doesn't have to be big. You don't have to succeed instantly. As long as you have clear goals and you work towards self actualization. Every small victory counts as an achievement.
No. 1318380
>>1318295Is there a reason why you don't date? Like do you keep rejecting everyone who asks you out?
I'm 30 and for many years I just kept turning down date offers from guys. Those guys were unappealing to me. Not ugly. I just wasn't attracted to them. Then someone suggested to me that I could start asking out people I feel attracted to. So I tried that, but everyone I asked out rejected me lol. There was one guy who kept going yes—no—yes—no—i don't know—maybe. I finally cut him off after 6 months of trying to make this work. Now he's stalking me online…. fking weirdo. When I was actually into him, he was ignoring me. Now I ignore him.
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>>1318147means a lot thank you anon, I wish you well also
No. 1318399
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a while ago i met this girl and she's one of the sweetest people i've ever met. me and my best friend were getting super close to her, then found out that she doesn't know her boyfriend slept with someone else recently who is in their friend group (they're open but he keeps the other girl a secret because it's more than sex; every single person in the friend group, plus more, know about this and are keeping it hidden from her). every time we hang out, she asks if she has anything to worry about with that girl and we freeze up and change the subject, feeling that it isn't our place to break it to her. we've been trying to get anyone else to say it but it's not going to happen. i'm not close with anyone in this situation, in fact i think they all are awful people. me and her were at a bar last night and she was talking about how insecure she is with him but ultimately thinks he's a good person, and that she trusts that he tells her everything and i ended up spilling the beans.
i felt it starting to come out when she was talking about when she knew my best friend's boyfriend was cheating, and how awful she felt for not saying anything. she said she didn't feel like it should come from her, she felt like a bad friend, etc., literally everything i've been feeling. that's when i was like okay..i've been feeling the same way and need to tell you something
The heartbreak i saw in her eyes was the saddest thing i've ever seen. i ruined their friend group and everyone's mad at me. i was tired of keeping multiple people's lies, seeing them hurt women, and it was all getting worse and there's way too much context and extra info that would make this too long, just know that this is a really big deal lol. everyone is crying, making a bunch of phone calls and doing damage control. i don't feel bad tho. picrel is how i slept knowing idgaf that this idiot friend group is mad at me now that they have to live with the consequences of their actions.
tl;dr told a girl her bf cheated and now everyone hates me
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My boomer alcoholic boss called me drunk, asking if I want to go to work tomorrow since he started drinking and wants to go party. He aldo offered to pay 300€ in cash
I’m on vacation. What the fuck. I asked my coworkers and one poor girl said yes.
No. 1318417
>>1318380There’s no one interesting here. Also no where to meet people. I live in a country town in the middle of bum fuck no where. No clubs, no museums, nothing social aside from our many bars that cater to miners, oil and pipe liner chodes. Also it’s just riddle with the worst kind of fuck boys. (If you ever seen the show Squidbillies it’s like that)
But like I wasn’t even asked out in Highschool nor in my short college stint. I’m not ugly. Probably above average at best. So idk. I can’t just ask people I find attractive because the only people I see are like in fucking grocery stores. My only hope I think is to move to the city but I’m really really poor. I only make $500 bi weekly and after bills/groceries/etc I’m not left with much.
I’m just sad because it’s like my whole life people are like “you’re so pretty you’re so pretty” yet here I am 33 years old and single.
I don’t do online dating because men are just looking for tits and anything fuckable. So that’s out.
No. 1318433
>>1318295I don't know if this is any comfort but I'm 33 aswell. From 19 to 29 I did date here and there. I'm far from sexually inexperienced but then.. 4 years ago I left a bad relationship, moved far away from my hometown and went into hermit mode here. I thought I'd bounce back and just needed a break. Nope, I'm losing more social skills by the day and its like all that 'experience' happened in a different lifetime? I'm so far removed from it now.
A guy seemed interested in me last year but I'm convinced I gave off near virgin vibes and that's what scared him off.
No. 1318479
>>1318433I really feel for both of you, I’m 31, slept around a bunch in my early 20s but I’ve had sex literally once in the last 6 years or so. The only thing approaching a loving relationship I have had lasted 5 months when I was 21. I think something is wrong with me because while I keep up with my appearance and have an okay personality I simply can’t attract anyone even remotely attractive to me. And I won’t settle for someone I’m not into.
Over the last year I sank into obsession over a married guy I could never have just because it felt good to feel affection for someone and read too deeply into his affection for me, it was the closest I could get to feeling companionship. Had to let it fade so it didn’t get weird and yet I still feel this strange loss.
People will say relationships don’t matter, learn to love yourself while single etc. etc. but the older I get the more it hurts to feel alone and unloved for such a long period of time with no end in sight, and my social skills being rusty as hell makes me afraid to even try dating. I already struggle with just friendship.
No. 1318494
>>1318295I’m 30 and haven’t dated or been with anyone in nearly a decade. The only thing I can think of as an opportunity is that the area I work in has a lot of people my age, and that brings the possibility of mentioning to my 30-40sh coworkers that if they know someone whose single they might click with me. But I’m too much of a coward to bring it up yet. And like
>>1318487 said some people who breakup around this age are dealing with losing a lot, too.
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I have nothing to vent about. I just wanted to post this cool pic of a gigastacy cat
No. 1318574
>>1318573How? It sounds caring. Do you have a problem being cared for and take it as an insult?
This is how humankind survives.
No. 1318625
>>1318536>>1318573>>1318604>>1318616At the end of the day you could chose to look at it cynically, thinking there was an ulterior motive and getting down about it OR chose to see it as a glimpse into a nice shade of humanity. These were separate, one-off interactions after all. It could easily make
nonnie feel uncomfortable but it might have been well intentioned and genuine at the same time. I chose to believe there is some good left in the world, otherwise what's the fucking point? You just end up walking around like a doomer judging everything and missing out on a harmless one off "i hope you feel better" interaction.
No. 1318676
>>1318657I think these days being off an ex's socials is actually more important than anything else tbh.
Blocking or soft blocking (don't recommend soft b) doesn't mean you are taking the person out of your life forever.
But everyone needs to move the fuck on. You start with this prophylaxis.
No. 1318723
>>1318641At least your ex didn’t go
“We can still be friends”
“I won’t fuck off I know you have abandonment issues”
Ghosts me
Get confirmation they were cheating on me in the relationship
Got told to piss off when they were faced with their lies and blocked me.
But her mom still talks to me and hates their new gf so Lmao.
No. 1318753
>>1318723I've seen this pattern a million times. we all have. The flakey ex. The "let's stay close friends!" ex. The "Let me resurface every time I see you giving signs of moving on or I need a cheap fucking ego boost because I'm an absolute loser" ex. And nothing ever happens when he resurfaces. He just turns you down abandons you over and over again.
Have you ever wondered why this always happens? It isn't because they still half-love you. It's because they fucking hate you to the core, even if they are not verbally conscious of it yet.
If they cared for you in any way, they'd either let you go or come back for real. This is the moid getting revenge at you (not that there's an actual reason for that) in the most twisted fucking way. It's nothing but that.
Just GTFO.
No. 1318800
>>1318788A couple of the happiest older women I know are married, but they
>married young>divorced 1st husband >met 2nd (also previously 1 time divorced) husband much further in life The guys they’re with now are really nice and it makes me feel better about not really being interested in anyone now. Some men and women learn the hard way through failure or take extra time to become comfortable as adults.
No. 1318807
>>1318596>>1318583Idk, it's kind of weird to assume the OP is white, everyone in this story is white, American, in a similar sort of community to you, etc. I'm black and I've had people show concern and care for me. I'm not American, though
Tbh, if this is your outlook on things, I feel like if a stranger (especially a stranger outside your race) acted that way toward you, you'd probably read into it as condescending and racist, creating a self-fulfilling prophecy because even if they felt bad for you, they wouldn't want to come off as weird or intrusive. I really hate this sort of generalized "everyone hates black women" blackpill shit, it's just saddening
No. 1318866
>>1318596>>1318807I can say as a black women, I have had random strangers be concerned for me. I don't live the the US so maybe my opinion doesn't matter. Imo things get better for black women when they stop drinking the coolaid that hoteps/pro-blacks spew just because they don't want to see you happy or being accepted by anybody outside the community and I feel like that's a serious death sentence for black women specifically in the US.
>>1318826I don't want kiwi to go either, but I am annoyed by their insistence in doxing people, aside from their other glaring flaws. It was always going to bite them in the ass. I hope this blows over.
>>1318826Can't you do it here?
No. 1318902
>>1318826>Any tumblr blog that dates to suggest a trans person isn’t a perfect angel gets deleted eventuallyThat's what the Wayback Machine and archive.is are for
>There’s no other place that would be willing to host that information.>Also where else am I supposed to get updates on all the dumb shit the bread tube fuckers do.Like the other nonna said, can't you do that here?
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I was thinking that the amount of times we keep philosophizing about life and death, there are people out there who don’t even get the chance to do that, their fates are pretty much predetermined and they live an unfulfilled life. I’m pretty sure my life is one of those where it’s already been decided
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Accidentally fell asleep in the middle of the day yesterday and now my sleep schedule is completely fucked. Currently half 5 in the morning and I can't sleep. It was actually pretty good for a couple of days and now I'm gonna have to probably spend a month trying to fix it.
No. 1318984
>>1318980Sounds horrible anon, I'm sure it'll be bliss to be back to your own bed. Rest easy anon.
>>1318973 you as well anon, seems we're all having sleep problems atm.
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>>1319000Yes, totally an equal amount kek. Even the elites are majority men and even the female ones work to serve male interests to remain in the club. Cope harder. Can't wait till KF is back up.
No. 1319020
>>1319017>do i have to sacrifice time with my friends to lose weight? no, just have moderation. order the healthiest food options when you can, drink water or diet soda, eat small portions and bring the rest home for later to avoid being wasteful. or do other things with your friends that don't involve eating. the food doesn't have to be the focus of whatever the event is, usually going out to get food is just an excuse to socialize, so you don't HAVE to eat large portions or at all
but ultimately it's okay to eat things you enjoy sometimes. suddenly fully committing to a diet where u only eat things u don't like that much can be hard because inevitably you will end up having "cheat days" and feel shitty about it. longterm, you could make plans for how often you let yourself have treats. also personally i find that heavy restriction isn't the most sustainable for weight loss and for me it works better to only lightly reduce intake & exercise more instead. good luck nonna stay healthy
No. 1319035
>>1319017you probably shouldn't restrict this much anyway. go to the gyro place for lunch but eat less/no carbs for dinner. go to the block party, eat whatever without making yourself sick or eating for the sake of eating and just make sure you workout the next day.
drinking only black tea with lemon and eating nothing but veggies will eventually make you lose your mind and binge on food way less healthy than gyro or block party food.
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Is it valid to get annoyed at my roommate’s bathroom logo that looks like this? Her boyfriend uses our washing machine and shower far too much. I feel it’s an open invitation for all scrotes to use our toilet freely.
No. 1319077
>>1319069She’s a bizarre pickme and actually while I gossiped about the other retarded roommate when she was still new she would find it funny to say “you know what X said? That she finds it scary to live with men”. And i just said “that’s funny because she does invite scary male junkies over regularly” instead of saying “lol what a weirdo lmfao, men aren’t bad to live with!1”.
I feel since I already call out the other roommate I’m on thin ice and will make openly both my enemy, though despite our similiar interests I don’t really like my new roommate anymore, I don’t want a war either. I’ll order a different one from aliexpress or whatever trash site she ordered it with just a female logo and this way I’ll bring it up. Sounds good?
No. 1319085
>>1318826The thing that pisses me off the most about the KF debacle is that the worst troons can tell the biggest lies while airing their most disgusting fetishes and having public proofs of them being groomers, and yet people believe them and see them as
victims, it's fucking insane.
No. 1319100
>>1318330Kid felt weird about it, told my mom. She called me.
>>1318355The cops even made my kid reenact it in front of them, and then they turned around and said “your child is autistic and therefore not a reliable witness to their own sexual assault.” Even worse was my ex’s excuse was “I don’t remember doing it, I blacked out!” They essentially told me that if my kid still remembers it in 6.9 years, only THEN will they do anything.
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Nonettes, I got the covid and it has been real bad for me fam. Thought I would be safe cause of two different jabs and an asymptomatic infection prior. Nope.
Heard saying the covid strain going around is so different than prior ones that none of the previous vaxes and 'immunity' really does much to protect us, and I think I got a bad viral load bc the careless scrote I am dating was deluded enough to think his scary symptoms were somehow not covid. Of course he isn't the one suffering and missing work, dumbfuck.
There isn't body pain for me anymore but I legitimately cannot smell, or taste anything except spicy/sour. Sometimes I have phelm that's thick like silly putty although I do not have a horrendous cough. And I'm fatigued. Weirdest of all, I cry for no fucking reason and get emotiomal which is apparently something people are reporting now. Just when I think I am getting better, I take five steps back into feeling worse…I have never experienced sickness like this before.
I'm supposed to go back to work Monday after calling out Wed-Fri (I work two jobs and allegedly getting promoted to manager at one), but I don't know how I'm gonna manage. I'm taking an antiviral but it sucks. I hate to be spiteful, but I almost don't care if I infect. If the powers that be deemed wellbeing was more important than capitalism, then they would find ways to support infected people so that they wouldn't be forced to leave home.
I don't know where I'm going with this, truly is just a frustrated vent while pretending the world isn't in deep shit.
No. 1319110
>>1319000Why does this kind of sperg keep coming back? Muh “women and men are equally human beings”, almost like your eyes are still very closed about the amount of violent
and suffering men have caused for centuries. Get lost already, no one cares
No. 1319120
>>1319017just eat less tomorrow. i’ve been losing weight by counting calories and heavily limiting processed foods in my regular groceries, but i still eat at restaurants 1-3 times a week. next time just get the gyro and skip the soda, sugary drinks have a ton of calories and don’t satisfy you like solid food.
also if you only eat fruits and vegetables that’s probably not sustainable. get some clean protein and carbs like eggs/chicken/low fat greek yogurt and white rice/potato. if you can cook and weigh your ingredients, you can get 2-3 balanced meals a day and still easily eat under 1200 calories or whatever your calorie limit is
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I design knitwear as a gig and the apartment we moved into almost two years ago is rampant with wool moths. I have been fighting them with poison, moth balls, cedar, lavender. It apparently does not matter because my landlord doesn't mind having his own apartment and basement filled with them. Now despite keeping all of my yarn in vacuum-sealed bags, a lot of it has been ruined over the years and I can't keep up. After discovering another few skeins covered in tiny white worms, I am crying and threw out everything. I feel like there is no more point in persuing art until I move, and I can't move until my boyfriend isn't stalled in his career anymore. They have also ruined a lot of my nice clothing and I seriously give up. I wish I could go to bed for the rest of the day.
I do have a freezer full of yarn but what the fuck? I'm supposed to knit a pair of socks and just store them in there between washes? I'm so annoyed I could tear apart a brick wall with my bare hands.
No. 1319183
>>1319164I'm so sorry, don't loose hope. I know these little assholes are so fucking persistent. I was in a similar situation than you, a few of them got into my room on one summer season and they just kept appearing and slowly becoming more despite me instantly killing them off. It took two and a half fucking years AND a move to get rid of them, nothing helped until I completely sealed off the place they appeared the most from (I also had to throw away all my fabric) after spraying every inch with spray.
Does the entire apartment complex have a problem with them? I also agree with the other nonna, sue him
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I hate summer. I need it to be winter again. I want to not be hot and feel disgusting anymore. I cannot cope with sweat. It feels unbearable.
No. 1319200
>>1319183>>1319176God I wish I could sue, you have no idea. I'd also sue for a million other horrific things that absolutely squash this problem and make it look laughable. He's a fall-down drunk so what I've been doing instead was paying him in cash perfectly for rent for about 6 months and then after he stopped counting it, I just pay him anywhere from $200-600 short of what it is. He doesn't notice. It's just a shame I can't allot that money towards my yarn, it's already for groceries and more important things.
Thank you both for responding. I was totally having a meltdown and it helped to read on here instead of going through my yarns again and again.
No. 1319207
>>1319111cont:
I tried to get telehealth to get me paxlovid and they're like "our providers can't prescribe that". Pharmacy won't give it to me since I don't have a digital or printed medical history (poor fag who hasn't been to a doc in years). I hate how Healthcare in the US is just jumping through hoops, debt, and suffering. My head hurts so damn bad
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>>1319193Literally same. I feel dirty all the time fuck summer fuck the heat fuck the temperature drop last week that got my hopes up but we're back to 30 today fuck not being able to wear cute clothes and feel cute fuck the mosquitoes fuuckkkkkk
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It's my birthday. Last year I spent it with my ex and this year I'm alone, stuck in my house with covid watching movies with my cat and the ceiling spiders. Happy birthday to me. At least I have this yummy croissant…
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I want to b/p so bad but I can't reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee fuck everything I'm so fucking sad
No. 1319334
>>1319111>>1319207Sorry for late reply anon I fell back asleep cause I had been up since 3am kek. I'm really sorry, a 40 hour migraine sounds like fucking hell.
So you are in the US? I don't have health insurance either. It sounds like you're outside the 5-day window from when your symptoms first started. Antivirals outside the initial symptom window are useless. In case you somehow are still within the window or have a re-infection in the future, go to a drug store like CVS.
I did a lab test (I did via drive thru and they mail in, they turned around my result in less than 48 hours). With the lab test result, I made an account on the CVS website and did a telehealth consultation for a nominal fee because I am also uninsured. The doc asked me to perform a few tests and because I technically qualified for at-risk, she was able to prescribe me the antiviral as well as a med to help reduce my cough. She didn't ask me a damm thing about historical med documents, just general health questions. She probably would have given me something for migraine or sinus had that been my symptoms. Altogether the meds cost me $30 and were ready same day.
Anyway it might still be worth it to get a confirmed positive PCR so you can get the covid-related consultation and hopefully some medication that way? Even if you cannot get the antiviral anymore.
Also, one more caution dear anon: Do not take ibuprofen to help your migraines as I know it's common. Try to take acetaminophen where you can. There are reports suggesting that NSAIDs actually complicate infections and make them worse. Use alternatives if they are available and I hope you feel better soon!
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I was happy being alone all summer, not interacting with anyone, but now that I'm forced to be around other people every day I can't help but hating myself for not fitting in. I can't form connections with anyone because I never understand other people. It's like everyones thoughts are on a completely different wavelength and I can't relate to anyone. I stick out like a sore thumb and I feel lonelier than I ever did this summer.
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I FUCKING HATE PERIODS I HATE GIVING BIRTH TO JELLYFISH EACH TIME A MOVE A PLANK LENGTH FUCK THIS SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!
No. 1319509
>>1319110not the same person but if women were allowed the same power they would have done the same. People that hold power become destructive, most humans with power use it in a negative way. Women were not historically given power, s this is why they have not caused harm. You also absolutely do not have to kill or rape to contribute to the evils of the world or oppress others. See what happened after women were liberated from patriarchy, most women whored out and they enjoy it, they enjoy the power and easy money but they do not think about the damage they are causing, that they are indirectly grooming other women, contributing with money to a sick and evil industry that trafficks women or basically setting the social standard of women being sexualized on default. This is what a lot of women chose after liberation, to contribute to the sexualization and degradation of women even further. Now you can throw your bullshit argumentative fallacy about how they are "forced" or conditioned, the truth the millions of women like Belle Delphine that do it and basically normalize this evil standard are not
victims nor forced, they simply do it because it gives them easy power and money. This is just how humans are, evil and incapable of seeing how they are contributing to a sick and oppressive system because in the end it is about their own pleasure.
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Swear to god gay men and their delusions of being in some sort of imaginary, one-sided competition with women who want nothing to do with them needs to end. You should not be staring at women on your smartphone you are a HOMO. Weird fucking bitch.
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>>1319509>if women were allowed the same power they would have done the same.women have plenty of power and access to children and yet…
No. 1319534
>>1319524that isn't the point, the point is that women still contribute to the sick system and to the oppression or sexualization of other women. Just look at the pedo pandering whores, women are even complacent with pedophilia. Now you can cope and say ahh they are abused it is because of men, no it is because they wanna do that and enjoy pretending to be toddlers or little girls while men jack it off to them and give 0 fucks about the damage they are causing society
>>1319530nah, I'm not an incel. Why would I change my belief systems to align with incels? I'm not mysoginstic for pointing out women cause and partake and perpetuate misogyny lmao.
No. 1319541
>>1319534Some groomed, mentally ill e-thot posting rape fetish roleplay porn directed by her much older pimp isn't "partaking and perpetuating in misogyny" but being the
victim of it. Behind every woman who's seemingly compliant in misogynist tropes is deep trauma caused and fed by men taking advantage of her.
No. 1319552
>>1319534While I generally don't agree with your statement that women would do just as much evil as men if they had the same power, I do think that many heterosexual women help the patriarchy. Even when they're totally free to do what they want and they don't need men to survive they still give birth to more males (more oppressors) and they still uphold sexist stereotypes. I hate the narrative that all women are muh
victims and they have no agency and even when they literally sell their own daughters to pedos they're perceived as some poor traumatized babies. Even here I recall seeing anons who claimed they wouldn't judge a mother who sold her daughter into sex slavery if it was proven that she was very poor. Fucking disgusting.
No. 1319553
>>1319541they still have free will and money, they could fix it but they don't even try to. Stop excusing women for the evil they are causing other women and society. Those women just enjoy being like that, they enjoy the power they get from using their sexuality and they do not care about the damage they are causing society and there is millions of them, actually the average woman is like this. They have no fucking excuse. They are rich with all the resources in the world, they simply choose to be like that it is a CHOICE not something forced on them. Stop excusing women for the damage they cause other women. They are not "groomed" women from 3rd world are groomed into sex work. Rich westerners justt do it because of easy power, attention and money and give 0 fucks about how it affects women as a whole
>>1319526yea and the millions of ewhores that act like little babies or underaged kids are not evil? The "they were traumatized" excuse doesn't work anymore. Everyone is trumatized, yet a lot of people do not further contribute to the evil of this society.
The average woman is evil and mysoginstic just like their male counterpat. The only arguments you have is ad hominem and using the same regurgitated arguments "women are grooomed into seex work by MEN" "25 year old western rich woman millionaire is FORCED to act like an underaged child on ONLYFANS" "MEN RAPE AND KILL" "MEN RAPE AND KILL". Yea, I got it but what about the evil women cause to other women? Evil of society is not only quantified by rapes and kills. Women must be held responsible for the evil they cause to other women and how they normalize sex trafficking and do not care about the real
victims of it. The average western women brutally sexualizing herself is only contributing to an evil system and making money for a billionaire magnate that sex traffics women from 3rd world when those women are rich and have millions of other options and a real support system.
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>>1319543Abortion isn't murder. You can't murder an embryo, something that's just a cluster of cells that's not even sentient yet. Abortion is natural anyway because women's bodies will naturally abort the embryo/ fetus if it's not compatible with her blood type. And in the animal kingdom, any offspring that is defective or retarded in some way, or is simply weaker than its siblings or simply cannot be supported due to food shortage, will be brutally killed by it's mother/ parents.
Abortion is necessary and has existed since the beginning of time. It's far more humane than birthing a deformed, ugly, unwanted (whatever the reason) child and killing it just like they do in the animal kingdom.
This is what witches were burned for. For providing abortions to women through the use of herbs such as Mugwort. Funny how worthless useless sperm bank scrotes and retarded pickmes are so outraged and vocal over abortion but go radio silent when presented with the fact that men are the leading cause of death for pregnant women which of course, results in dead fetuses and babies. Funny how pro-life men do nothing about the epidemic of men killing their pregnant partners which also leads to dead fetuses.
>Intimate partner violence increases drastically against women when they're pregnant. Did you know murder by men is the leading cause of death for pregnant women? Pregnant women in the United States die by homicide more often than they die of pregnancy-related causes — and they’re frequently killed by a partner, according to a study published last month in Obstetrics & Gynecology1. Researchers revealed this grim statistic by using death certificates to compare homicides and pregnancy-related deaths across the entire country for the first time. No. 1319615
Today I caught the smell of a particular men’s deodorant and was caught so off guard.
I felt so panicked and nauseated and didn’t know why. Then I remembered that it was the déodorant that one of out care home clients wore at my recent job. I always felt ill in his space, and he tried to molest us, pull us down, touch us. I hated the way he looked and talked to us- I was a highschooler who needed money. A lot of girls 16-20/under 21 doing this job, getting paid the least and disrespected the most. If we complained too much we would be fired, and not get proper wages as the cost of ‘training’ and uniforms was deducted. Lots of girls complained about it. I can’t believe the women in charge, sending us in to those places were mothers. I definitely wanted my mother when I was in that room. My psychosis worsened due to the stress, and I was beginning to slip back into paranoid delusions. You get hit, touched, yelled at, spat/shat on, and can’t complain, I couldn’t because I didn’t want to lose my job, my wages, the room i was renting to get away from home. It was such a hard time. And I’m just processing it now because of the smell of deodorant.
No. 1319645
>>1319620Thanks
nonnie, it really means a lot. Felt bummed out about it today.
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My only confort for how I feel is remembering: This feeling too, shall pass
No. 1319727
>>1319334Thanks
nonny the cvs telehealth lady got me my antiviral medicine and tylenol did help. dont feel like crying in bed for hours anymore
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Man. I wish I wasn't really ugly and instead was more an interesting looking eye-catching person and I'd age and still look interesting. Oh, also, that I didn't have a deformity, that I didn't have physical conditions that make me exhausted, pained, and confused all the time. The brief moments I've felt ok, I ended up feeling insane joy. Wow, feeling things? Energy? Holy shit, that's a high! I felt like I could do anything.
Think all women and girls get unwanted male attention? Well, apparently I don't count because I am so ugly. I've never once in my entire life gotten any male romantic or sexual attention. Not even a hobo has winked at me. A man has screamed in my face, telling me how ugly I am. That is normal for me.
Back in high school when I was capable of remotely normal human interaction, I let slip to a male friend (well, not saying much, we talked a lot in class because we were massive fantasy nerds) back in high school I liked him, he reacted in horror and disgust and said he only likes girls that look like girls and pointed to a tiny, size 0 girl with a doll-like face that I had heard other guys in class fanboying about.
Years later in a moment of morbid curiosity I looked him up and it turned out he has gotten into incel stuff and has been running around saying things that are completely untrue, like shit about all women hating short men when I towered over him and found him to be the bee's knees.
Bullet dodged, but, sheesh. Depressing that I didn't even count.
Anyway, I guess no male attention is one thing. I just wish I didn't look disturbing and creepy. I wish when I go outside not wearing a mask, people didn't cringe and grimace at me in horror.
I wish I was ok looking so I felt comfortable just…interacting with others, but these days I'm completely mute and I don't say shit because I am so terrified of bothering people. I only do the bare minimum in order to make money and have just become an NPC whose only sentience is reserved for existential dread.
And yes. I know I am a retard and dumb and have the personality of a sardine. But at this point I know nothing else. I am just so exhausted.
No. 1319783
>>1319747people in my area speak a very strong dialect and whenever my family is arguing my brother suddenly switches to standard language to seem superior, it's so fucking annoying
and he gets loud too
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There's some drama going on about an international cow I follow, I'm actually very invested in what's happening but he only has a thread on Kiwifarms. Goddamit, the milk finally starts to flow and troons decide to attack the site.
No. 1319846
>>1319844People who get that hung up are beyond rehabilitation, that is some serious cyber brainrot. Grown ass men and women saying you’re
problematic for throwing your ass back to Nicki or Lana. It’s music. MJ had some real bangers and he’s dead, same with xxxtentacion. It’s not like I’m giving them streams. R Kelly still alive but I’m always going to go hard to trapped in the closet sorry:
No. 1319891
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I think i commented in this thread a while back about being an amerifag who needs their license but is shit out of luck. for context, in america (at least my state) you need a fully insured and registered vehicle in tip top shape in order to take the road test. I obviously don’t have access to that because i don’t have a license so what now? My parents have a huge truck that I can’t manage that well and a luxury vehicle that drives so well & i feel so comfortable in but it has a tiny but noticeable crack in the wind shield. Most of my friends and family work or go to school during the hours of operation of the dmv. those who don’t, either have a cracked windshield or don’t have insurance, stick shift or something else. I was taking lessons earlier this summer at a school but that quickly became unattainable due to the prices. I live in an area that’s not public transportation/walking/biking friendly and don’t even get me started on ride share apps prices + tipping. im seriously fucked and need to get to work. I’m seriously considering taking the luxury vehicle and driving illegally, that or be fired due to lack of transportation and then be homeless or couch surf. I just need to work a few more weeks so i can afford more lessons and get my license that way which is so fucked because i can already drive and know all the rules I just don’t have access to a car that ticks all the boxes for the road test inspection. (btw i use a state id for stuff like alcohol if you’re wondering) I am not of legal age to rent a car and renting with driving schools is like $300+ which i can’t afford right now. what the fuck man!!!
No. 1319912
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I just had to say goodbye to a very precious friend who was there with me all through college. We are not friends anymore. I can finally turn the page and not think about these things that held me back anymore. It's sad but liberating.
No. 1319927
Holy fucking shit I feel like I'm going to fucking explode. I hate Windows 11 so fucking much, I hate Microsoft so fucking much. I hope Bill Gates kills himself as well as any Microsoft employee reading this. I shouldn't have settled for Windows 11, I should've just pirated 10 or just installed Linux already. My fault for thinking it wasn't going to be so bad I guess. Every time I want to have some control over my own fucking computer and personal data, they take it away. I edited the registry several times to remove shit I didn't want, like the web results and ads in the search bar, and the automatic updates. Well, guess what? The latter didn't work, so the updates installed anyway without my consent and deleted the modifications I had made to the registry and now not only are the web results on the taskbar back but the weather widget is now somehow working and mysteriously started showing my town's weather even though I had changed the Windows settings so that my location wouldn't be detected. Oops, the weather widget wasn't included in that option! Every fucking time I turn my laptop off and on some bullshit changes are applied and it's not only frustrating to have shit changed around all the time but it's also concerning how they get my data when I'm not even aware of it and how every "update" takes more of your privacy away and forces you to receive ads again. Of course the constant updates are also pathetic, compare this shit to pre-Win7, do you think any of that crap would've flied back in the 90s?
Oh and the way they try to make it sound soooo friendly and useful like "are you sure you want to opt out of this Windows Experience™? OK, we will not give you personalized ads that would improve your Experience™" is so fucking infuriating. And it's not only Microsoft who does it, the "Experience™" nonsense seems to be everywhere now, it's annoying and so obviously manipulative it's laughable.
Fuck yourselves, Microsoft, rot in hell. I just want an operating system for work that doesn't track the fuck out of you or violates your right to privacy or exists solely for selling you useless shit, but also doesn't require large amounts of manual effort and time to keep up-to-date and secure, but we will never have that as long as we live in this system because everything commercial is doomed to ultimately become more and more predatory for the sake of profit and survival.
God I fucking hate capitalism.
No. 1319930
>>1319912some friends we're meant to have a short time with, longer with others. Be free,
nonnie!
No. 1319952
I cannot fucking wait until I graduate and become a white collar worker, because holy fuck I'm sick of wearing a masks while the yuppies I work around don't.
I legit feel like a dalit indian right now at work. The mask mandates only exist for the lower class. They only exist for the hospitality workers, the cleaners, the delivery drivers, they only exist for those vulnerable enough to get bullied. I'm tired of getting screamed at by middle aged foids about how I'm not wearing my mask properly, while they're not wearing one at all.
I swear to god if I don't get an office job where I'm not treated like this, I'm becoming the biggest scummy welfare leech this country has ever seen, the biggest welfare queen. It seems like as a lower class wagie no matter where I go in life I'm treated like shit. Before this I was day labouring in construction, working on state houses where some useless welfare maoris make me lug gear 50m to the house because they "don't want me to damage their lawn". All in the rain, for minimum wage, while these same maoris had better cars than me and live more comfortable lives, sit on the doorstep laughing. It's that or it's office workers sitting on their ass all day screaming at me for the two seconds my mask slips down to say a word to another worker, threatening to ban me from site.
How do other wagies take it? It's only the hope for a better life through study that keeps me going. I'm at my snapping point and wouldn't be able to handle this for life.
No. 1319955
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I got a 3 day ban on /cm/ for shitposting Bridget for being a tranny and on traps/femboys in general. Some of my other posts got deleted too but it was worth the laugh for trolling on moids and their dickgirl fetish. Best to stay away from that scrote infested site though I keep coming back to it.
No. 1319958
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My baby sister knows what yaoi is because she's obsessed with One Piece and saw a bunch of Zoro/Sanji art online without wanting to and she wouldn't stop complaining about it because "gays should burn in hell". And she guessed that I enjoy reading it just based on the fact that I told her that the women drawing that stuff are long term fans who supported the mangaka since day 1, unlike her who started watching it during the first 2020 lockdown. Kill me now. She's just 18, she doesn't need to know. At the same time she calls it "yoai" so I'm guessing she's actually clueless. I think everyone in my family knows what yaoi is now.
No. 1319966
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I hate mainstream left just as much as I hate the right
No. 1319970
>>1319962kek I hope you'll never meet her so you won't be able to tell her that.
>>1319965She's a normie who happens to like the most mainstream anime and manga that exist, she thinks I'm a weirdo for making small talk with people online about the movies, games or manga I like from time to time. Meanwhile she won't stop shoving shitty tiktok AMVs down my throat, and since I'm never getting a tiktok account she just barges in my room and tries to physically corner me while blasting whatevr AMVs she finds. Yes she's religious, but not like too religious. I really doubt she'd lie like this to me if she like that pairing, she knows I don't give a fuck and I'm open-minded so I wouldn't judge her.
No. 1319982
>>1319979Anon, I changed her diapers, fed her, brought her to school and extracurricular activities, talked to some of her teachers, etc. there's no fucking way I'm talking about that kind of stuff with her. In my mind she's still a baby.
>or the straight scroteshit pornI really doubt she saw any of that shit or she would have told me she found some heinous straight porn doujinshi, I'm not going to tell her that's even a thing, ignorance is bliss in that case.
No. 1320021
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I dont know if anyone remembers me from the last thread. But im the anon who decided to go visit thier ldr gf for closure.
I am returning home and I don't regret coming here. It has been an eye opener in more ways than none. She was cold and dismissive and she never came to see me in my hotel. When I went to her home she didn't even greet me just said one word and even that was a lie that she'd talk to me later.
I cried all night in my hotel and she told me she doesn't know if she wants to break up or not through text.
I got to see that our connection was just build on lies and she never wanted to meet me or communicate with me. We were together so long and I trusted her.
I know we will never meet again and I don't think she'll ever contact me again to tell me what happened. She was a coward but I still love her. I don't know if I can trust someone now, this was my first love and I feel so lonely and scared. I came a long way to get rejected but I am very happy I came. I don't think ill ever forget how she made me feel as I watched through my hotel window. I just want another woman who really loves me and only me and if we can get married together and stay together until were old. I thought I would always be close to her and I always believed whatever excuse she gave me… im lonely and scared now but ill feel better once I get home.
No. 1320027
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First world problems
No. 1320048
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People are right about suicidal people being draining. You still care for them but damn it they act like every attempt at genuinely trying to help is like you fucking punched them in the face and stole their cat. No, I cant trust you to sit on the fucking edge of the cliff when you confessed to me that you tried to throw yourself off a bridge a few months ago meanwhile still acting unstable months after and refuse to take your meds unless we beg. Their constant paranoia from them thinking that someone is setting them up to fail and refusing to elaborate what theyre concerned with despite the constant pestering. And to top it all off they just love to turn around and call your concern a waste of time and basically painting it like the people trying to help are just a nuisance. At this point, just fucking kill yourself bitch. Act like you wanna die then fucking do it pussy. No one is expecting a thanks but to go and talk about peoples genuine concern like its meaningless and complain like an ungrateful brat, just do everyone a favour and release us of our burden.
No. 1320054
>>1320021my heart breaks for you. i'm sorry she would do that to you,
nonnie. i hope you feel better soon.
No. 1320120
>>1320054>>1320036Thank you for saying that. I think I only want in person relationships from now on. I learned my lesson.
>>1320037She has recently changed status from where she used to live. I remember telling her I was scared she'd change and leave me behind. She told me she was working for us for our future and that we'd move together and relocate where I was. A few months in I noticed she communicated less which I understood was because of work. It started to go downhill bc I wanted to talk on the phone once per week or for 10 or 5 min to say goodnight per day .I found out she was living with her father and she told me she only had him to use him to get accepted to her new apt, she later let it slip he wasn't on the lease and I said why did you lie? I thought you wanted become independent? Our communication went bad and she ignored me for a week yet kept insisting it was because of work.
Recently, I lost a friend so I was mourning and that's when she flat out grew more distant and would tell me she couldn't talk not even through text because her mother came to visit. She would just say 'im with my family'. She ignored me after for 2 months which then she coldly talked to me and said she needed space but never directly told me we were on 'break'. I found that out through texting her in her apartment complex.
She used to tell me we were meant to be and she'd marry me and call me wife. She also used to tell me she couldn't live without me and she wanted to take care of me. I can't believe I fell for her lies. I truly believed in her. I told her I believed in her while I waited for her at the hotel and she liked the message but never called or came to visit me.
>>1320043Thank you. I did my best and all I want to do is go home where atleast my friends and little sister want me and love me. I just wanta hug.
I also felt bad because she texted me after saying I looked good. It made me so sick and sad to hear that because I thought she only saw me as a sack of flesh.
>>1320054Thank you. I'm just want to go home and sleep under my covers.
No. 1320154
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this fat fucking goth moid i work with with a face that is too small for his face keeps hitting on me and i thought he wasnt working today and he just pulled up into the parking lot beside me. am i being punished by god? what did i do to deserve this? he also has a super edgy chosen name that he makes everyone call him at work. holy fuck i hate him so much. thank god today is my last day.
No. 1320176
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Some of the males being posted in the unconventional male attractions thread be looking a little… conventional… now not to backseat janny in a completely different board but stop mogging MY ugly-ass unattainable moid crushes with your sexy moids. This was supposed to be a place where us poor ugly-moid lovers could congregate and horny post in peace without being reminded of how mentally ill we are!
No. 1320219
>>1320211Go outside and touch some grass, pet an animal, or see the sky. Just go out and do something pleasant for a couple of hours, and realize that your suffering, and all suffering, is temporary, and life goes on regardless of your anxieties and apathy. There are better things in life to focus on, and you can be a witness to those good things, and appreciate them while you still have the chance. Or, you can stagnate, and live your life worrying about things you don't have much control over. You can choose to make a better life for yourself with small steps, and be a positive force in other's lives to whatever extent is possible for you. Do things that make you happier, and try doing good things for others, then you'll realize you can make improvements, and won't be so demoralized. Death is still inevitable, and once you're starting to die, you will have to accept everything that you've done, and your fate all in a moment, and then it all fades away. Do you want your life to be spent wasting away, and worrying, or would you rather try to be productive, and appreciate what you can? If you have deeper issues that are in your way, then you should try working on those so you can live your life to the fullest.
No. 1320224
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I'm usually not one to open up to others and I'm used to being the one to help others without getting much back, but today I broke down and told a close friend about how unhappy I am at my current job. I told her how it has really dragged down my mental health and that I'm not having any luck with any of the other places I apply to, and she is now cracking her back checking around with her contacts and groups to help me find something.
No. 1320335
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>>1320052That's not it. I was trolling and shitposting Bridget with trans flags and ballbusting pics because I have a huge hatred towards traps/femboys and the delusional moids that like this shit especially on a board for 2D/fictional males. They got offended, reported me and got myself banned and some of my other posts deleted. I should stop going to 4chan.
No. 1320356
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>>1320352no, they do share symptoms like executive functioning issues.
No. 1320392
>>1320342Honestly, if anything I could perhaps a wee bit of add but who DOESN'T in this day and age? Honestly this ADHD evaluation doesn't make sense at all imo, especially if you'd read my journal. The only conclusion you'd come to the possibility of me having it would be genetics since both my siblings and two of my nephews are crystal clear cases that are diagnosed.
>>1320363I suppose since women with autism tend to suffer a lot from deep depression and anxiety, which combined with a possible slight developmental delay when it comes to emotional regulations it might be mistaken for being an emotional roller coaster aka BPD or any other cluster B situation of choice.
No. 1320422
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vent but also kind of a question
i’ve noticed recently that the majority of my friends are overweight or obese. it wasn’t always like this, i just so happen to meet them in college from similar interests and other niche hobbies.
sadly, as i’ve gotten older it’s getting harder to deal with. one person in particular has reached public embarrassment levels of obese, i legitimately have a hard time going out in public with her because of the stares. i worry for her health.
i keep seeing groups of girlfriends that are all thin and i wonder if that’s intentional?? i truly just made these friends based on personality / interests but i also want to have friends that i can go shopping with! share outfits with!! like it’s renn faire season and i’m the only one dressing up in a group of 7 because the rest feel insecure. it just sucks.
i feel really vapid even typing this, they’re not bad people but it’s clear they’re not happy so idk why they aren’t trying.
No. 1320431
>>1320424same, and don’t feel bad. i saw this saying on tik tok and it just fucking clicked
“the intruder breaking into your house quickly becomes an accepted threat, but the friend inside your house who refuses to help brick up the door is more sinister”
female enbys are on a different level of betrayal. they felt what we go through, and instead made it about how being anything besides a woman is better. it’s no surprise that every time i meet one they’re obsessed with men
No. 1320435
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Installed a screen protector and while i was peeling off the second layer i accidentally pulled the entire thing off and a single dust particle is now permanently stuck inside!!!! I almost did a perfect job aaaarghhhhh
No. 1320439
>>1320435I feel your pain
nonny, screen protectors fucking suck, it's like defusing a bomb
Can someone just invent self-healing glass already
No. 1320460
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Pizza party at work today but my work bestie isn't here
No. 1320462
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My arm hurts so bad after that ratchet nurse was drawing my blood and didn’t even tell me to unwind my fist off the ball when she was drawing it, god and she was super young too I never had any problems with old female nurses doing this until now with a way younger one. There seems to be an unfortunate trend in amerifag society that lets young psychopaths go into medicine, I’m being extremely melodramatic but if this bitch ended up fucking my arm I’m going after here I hate unwarranted pain
No. 1320475
>>1320422i assume obesity comes along with mental health issues or struggles for women. we all have such fucked up relationships to food and both hate and see it as comforting.
fat women can be into fashion and dressing up too, like all the fat lolitas. you seem to be friends with people of specific personalities who end up ashamed of their bodies.
No. 1320484
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Oh boy, nonas. Whenever I arrive or leave from work, it usually coincides with this other guy. Anyway, a couple of days ago, I thought to myself "hah, what if he talked to me and asked my name?" Fast forward to today as we were going out and he opened the doors for me, he asked my name and gave me his with the whole "nice to meet you" deal. He's cute, but I like keeping my distance. Thoughts, thoughts.
No. 1320505
>>1320464Hope she doesn’t kill me
nonnie…. This sucks.
No. 1320509
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I feel immensely guilty and paranoid every single day because of past actions that normal people would have moved on from my now. I feel like I have to severely isolate myself because every time I try and interact with society I fuck it up and hurt someone. People filmed me have a meltdown a few years ago and every day I get so paranoid that I’m gonna end up in some cringe compilation yelling and screaming and acting like and idiot and a bunch of strangers are going to nitpick me to death and assume all these terrible things to me. I feel like I don’t deserve good relationships or a good living situation or a platform because of stupid shit I did in the past. I feel like I’m so close to becoming a hermit and I don’t know what to do.
No. 1320561
>>1320543My husband has said in the past that he believes he would make an attractive woman, but he's 6'5. He know my experience with my ex so I believe he would hide ot from me. He also travels a lot with a coworker to like Thailand and the Philippines, so I wouldn't be surprised if he is fucking ladyboys. But I'm also stressed out of my mind, so I knight just be making connections that aren't there. We start marraige counseling next week (I was in this thread a week or so ago talking about his alcohol relapse).
>>1320553 I like tall lanky boys, but that's all they have in common. I even avoided someone who likes videogames.
No. 1320566
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Visiting my family right now and everyone's in the house but I just want to be alone,listen to music and cry. I feel like I used to when I was a teen. Some things really never get better.
No. 1320585
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I feel like I'm going insane. I'm really forgetful, I don't remember a lot of things sometimes, and my thoughts are so crazy and jumbled and go too fast. Things don't make sense anymore. I forget how to properly form sentences sometimes, and I have to reread passages a couple times to understand them. What is wrong with me. I literally feel disconnected from myself, I can't do basic things right now because I get confused / forget what I'm doing.
No. 1320636
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>tfw have back pain and can't tell if it's from a UTI or bending over
No. 1320647
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i fucking hate my job. everyday i sit there contemplating death.
No. 1320749
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i try so hard to appear normal at work but i blew it really hard today at lunch. By laughing at a serious conversation about a guy who self immolated. i didnt mean to laugh but once i started it was too late. then i made the mistake of trying to explain what was funny about it but all i could get out was "imagine committing suicide, uh, i mean imagine burning yourself alive" but i couldn't complete my thought and it made no sense.
how do i come back from this?
No. 1320763
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>>1320749Dark triad Stacy moment
No. 1320834
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>therapist didn't tell me all she does is EMDR
>ask her if we can talk
>she doesn't want to
>tell her she's my therapist and ask if she can please just listen to me for 45 minutes this week instead of more emdr
>she tries to talk me out of it
>I push
>she relents
>tell her I'm struggling pretty bad lately with work and chores and daily shit
>she says if I tell her I'm not showering enough, she'll have me put in a psychward
so I really do have to just keep looking at the nerf ball until I feel better huh
No. 1320860
>>1320834>>1320850This therapist sounds wack, I'm sorry
nonny. They aren't supposed to be able to lock you up unless you pose harm to yourself or others. Definitely change to someone else if you can. I've also never heard of one who doesn't offer talk therapy, even when I had one for EMDR she also did talking. It's awful you have to experience that in the time you need it least
No. 1320871
>>1316468I can’t sleep
My back is so tight
My skin is really sunburned all over and I can’t get comfortable
I think I might actually be autistic because all summer the sounds of the fans has driven me insane
I have to choose between maddening white noise or heat exhaustion
It’s 78 degrees in my house right now and it was 81 a few hours ago
I can’t get relief
I love summer so much but I feel like im getting old because I can’t stand this. I can’t wait for temperatures to go back a little lower.
I can’t concentrate I can’t relax
Im miserable
My skin really hurts
Im going to take somenn by ibuprofen as a cheat for my back being tight
I do that a lot
No. 1320901
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please kill me a tranny just sent me petplay nudes and i am about to vomit. i would rather watch the most disgusting earth shattering gore on the planet than see this.
No. 1321008
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why do I gotta be a paranoid lunatic?
No. 1321014
>>1321007Crush him,
nonnie. Next time he tries to butt in, put your foot down. He can chimp out all he wants.
No. 1321077
>>1321063I used to get recurrent utis while dating. Then I'd enter a cycle of uti, antibiotic, yeast infection, dodgy stomach from meds, uti comes back.. on and on. That's on top of BC shit. It seems like a small thing at first but it spirals into so much hassle and cost and discomfort that the guy just doesn't understand. High price to pay for a few mins of fun and it's not even the worst thing that can happen, not by far.
No matter how much I masturbate or how crazy I go with toys I've never had a uti while single. I don't know how they manage it. I'm fussy about dick hygiene but I think oral hygiene is equally to blame.
No. 1321079
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Thinking about the moid who was literally stalking me and discussing me every single day obtained my astrology info through stalking and not because I shared it anywhere and passed it along to some Astro obsessed NLOG to “read” it insinuating I’m some kind of supervillain like he isn’t the creepy one and she of course predictably said it was the “most evil” chart she’d read in awhile because of course it was when you’re trying to suit someone else’s narrative. My chart is boring and astrology isn’t real bitches are crazy. Hope he dies btw he deserves it truly and I don’t care. Men have no concept of consent!
No. 1321138
This isn't much of a vent in the traditional sense I guess but I think I'm coming to terms with my alopecia. I was so fucking depressed and I felt so gross for a while. I just didn't feel like myself. Then I just sort of realized that, like, it doesn't matter. Who cares. I've shaved my head multiple times before. I loved having a shaved head. Yes, I'd love it if my hair wasn't falling out, but does it really matter? I've realized that it doesn't. For all my years of overthinking, overanalyzing, sending myself into a frenzy over what people think and what they say… it just doesn't matter. People tend to be a lot stupider and a lot nicer than I ever gave them credit for. I don't mean that in a bad way, I'm jealous of them. I wish I could just take things at face value, too. It would make life a lot easier in my day-to-day life. I really think excercising every day has helped me tremendously with this. You don't exert yourself, you don't stimulate your mind or body, you don't work, you don't talk to anybody, and all you are left with is endless time to overthink and overanalyze. You see it with NEETs on here all the time.
>I am experiencing symptoms of depression and anxiety because I don't do anything except sit in my house. What is wrong with me, anons?
Not trying to knock anybody because I was once like that, too. Eventually you just have to realize that you need to be doing something besides doomscrolling and frying your retinas looking at a screen 24/7. This was going to be a vent about coming to terms with hair loss and now it's a vent about how dumb I was when I was just anxious and sad and angry all day just sitting on my fucking ass kek. Life is getting better, and I'm very grateful.
No. 1321144
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can someone please tell me why the fuck I continue to have any hope in being friends (genuine friends, no potential for romantic/sexual attachment) with moids. it's fucking pointless. I guess I am socially naive thanks to being a sperg or maybe I'm just generally fucking retarded because all of them always hint or want at something more when i clearly don't.
and i don't mean that in a omg im irresistable way I just mean that they either assume I am interested in them (even though i never flirt and literally just talk about music or games or the gym) or as soon as they get a gf they instantly stop talking to me - this would hurt me if I didn't realise they were fucking degenerates who were clearly not interested in just being friends with me.
i recently, and by recently i mean in the past 2 years, made friends with 2 moids. 1 lived near me and 1 was just online via a game but i don't share personal info or anything like that anyway. both of them just talking about stuff like hobbies with them and one thing i always make sure to do p much immediately is mention my relationship/my boyfriend so i state it clearly that i am not single nor interested in stuff like that. and the one who lives near me had the audacity to say like 3 months into being friends with him "oh i didnt know you had a boyfriend" like yes bitch you did i mention him all the fucking time you bpd scrote. boom, he gets a gf and stops messaging/texting me, that's another "friend" lost. this has happened to so many male friends where they are almost nonexistent in my life until they break up with their gf or fall out with her. the single ones are seemingly interested in friendship until they get a gf then it's like i don't exist. it's fucking annoying and i used to be the person to think that men and women can genuinely be friends but i just don't believe it anymore.
hope i dont come across as a pickme here - i don't expect attention or anything but it's more the fact that as soon as i started looking at moids critically i noticed that the vast majority of what i assumed were friendships with males were actually them just waiting for something more. i feel like a fucking retard because i was clearly too naive to even see that until now.
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>>1320734>>1320735so it’s kinda complicated but i’ve met him a couple times irl and we matched on tinder. i was on there just messing with guys because that can be really funny sometimes. it took me a minute to realize who it was after we matched, i figured it out, and then he started telling me about how he wants me. i was like “haha okay well you’re not the only one” and he starts saying how he’s a good guy, and how he’s actually a
victim of the patriarchy (he knows i hate men). i was ready to stop talking to this dude, i knew i was playing fire, but i decided to ask him how he’s a
victim of the patriarchy. he gives me the usual “well we aren’t allowed to express ourselves freely” bullshit and that people were homophobic to him growing up (what is it with TIMs and claiming the homophobia they experienced is misogyny??). i tell him that 97% of rapists are men so it doesn’t really sound like they’re the
victims to me. he defends that statistic by saying that men are socialized to be sexually aggressive, so i tell him i was socialized to be polite to men and dress feminine but i do neither because i have free will. he then accuses me of leaving “non-cis amabs out of the discussion” and asks if i’m a
terf so i say no, i’m only talking about men…which includes non-cis amabs so that wasn’t a lie. so he tells me he’s not a man, which he said in his profile but i know this dude well enough to know that it is a fetish so i didn’t take it too seriously. so i tell him i didn’t know about that. he then says that the way he is dressed in his profile photos (makeup and women’s clothes) should’ve given that away and that “being ma’amed was the highlight of his weekend.” i ended up just telling him i liked hanging out with him and that i have a lot of matches so i wasn’t singling him out, and this man is obsessed with me ig so he got over it immediately after i sent that. it’s so fucked up though that there’s a chance my feminist friends might side with this scrote over me. oh well.
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One of my closest IRL friends of 10 years has been going through what I imagine is some kind of depressive episode because suddenly all she talks about is drama, every kind of drama imaginable. She's creating drama between our friend group and while not talking about that one she's going extremely deep into random internet fandom drama. What is happening to her, nonas? I don't understand. This is uncharacteristic of her and I'm scared that I'm going to be next on the firing line. At this point it's just a question of time. Mostly I'm tired of having to talk about and participate in drama 24/7 and I miss her old, normal non-negative self. From your experience does this phase ever end?
No. 1321256
I wish I could film videos of my boyfriend and I have sex but for me.
The thing is, I once sent him nudes and I found out he was watching porn when he said he wasn't. I made him delete all of my nudes and even though I check his stuff randomly and don't find anything, and it's been years, I can't bring myself to make myself feel like such a fool by making content of myself for our own consumption. If I found out he was watching porn again, it would destroy me. I refuse to be cucked like that again.
What upsets me is like, why the fuck did you have to do that. I would have loved making videos and content of us for fun. I love lingerie and I love the process of making sex videos. The thing is, I'll only ever want to do that with someone I trust. We still are very sexually active, we do it every day, if not multiple times, and I love giving him blowjobs, I just really enjoy them for my own entertainment. But fuck it, one of my fantasies I will never be able to do because you really fucked me over that way. I've considered making solo videos for myself so I have something fun to look back on when I'm old. But idk how to do that without him finding out since we are so close in everything we do.
No. 1321286
>>1321279>It’s because he wants more women.I agree with this but
>you shouldn’t give a man that much powerthen what, should she just be ok with her scrote watching porn or are you implying something else?
No. 1321288
>>1321215prob unrelated, but the tiktok algorithm throws controversial videos at people (highly likely to be disliked but illicit a response/engagement).
only bring it up because she changed so quickly and she's somehow getting stuck on some sort of mouse wheel on the internet.
No. 1321291
>>1320669so?
>inb4 that's not real sushi!!you should see some of the disgusting japanese sushi recipes that exist on jp internet…
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I'm GONNA FLIP, I HAVE ALLERGIES AND I CANNOT BREATHE OR SEE, I CANNOT DRIVE I EAT ANTIHISTAMINES LIKE THEY ARE BREAKFAST, I HAD IMMUNOTHERAPY BUT COVID FUCKED IT OVER. MY BOYFRIEND DOESN'T EVEN SLEEP ANYMORE BECAUSE I WAKE UP 20 TIMES A NIGHT CHOKING AND HE IS WORRIED I'LL DIE IN MY SLEEP.
THE WEEK IT DECIDES TO FLARE TO A 6000, I GET FULL WEEKS OF WORK. THIS IS CANCER.
I JUST WANT TO BREATHE
No. 1321304
>>1321295Anon same here.
I came here to vent about my raging anger that has been growing more each day, but didn't expect to read your post, which fits the description of my life so accurately. I'm sorry life has been so hard for you anon. You deserve more, and I hope that it will get better one day, even if it's just a tiny bit.
No. 1321315
>>1321256People make out like men stray or men look at porn out of a lack of sex or excitement at home but it's just bullshit that automatically blames the woman for a mans actions.
The most sexually active relationship I ever had (well past the honeymoon period and still having daily sex) was the one relationship that ended in an affair on his end. Afaik he was pleased as can be but.. apparently not. In hindsight he did reveal his pornsickness at the very beginning but I thought we were active enough that he was over it. They want variety. Whether its an affair or porn use, they want 'new pussy' more than anything else. You can't give a guy like that enough sex to make up for the fact they want variety.
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Why are doctors allowed to deny women birth control on the basis of whether or not they've had a pap smear? What does cervical cancer have to do with preventing pregnancy? Why do doctors want to look inside my vagina so bad? GET AWAY FROM ME I'LL HAVE YOU LOOK IN THERE WHEN I WANT YOU TO YOU MEDICAL FREAKS
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>>1321315Call it this:
Greed. When greed is the modus operandi of someone's idea of sex they want novelty, they want new, they want more. Quality? Meaning? Irrelevant.
Male greed is the near default in heterosexual relations and how many see women. Greed is unsatiable. Being with someone who is commanded by greed will cause stress, disorder, and neuroticism as a result of trying to conform to it. Want to know why men brag about having 0 standards? It's because to them, they care about the idea of accessing someone and owning them. Not building something special with something they love. So, many relationships are actually built to fail because there's a lack of men that are actually compatible with the idea of monogamous long-term relationships. It's why so many act like a man with no options is the only option because in a world where "logic" is eating every single burger you see, it's just natural that a man with no other options is the only one capable of devotion.
Also btw there's a study on the subject and it showed that actually higher amounts of satisfying sex was correlated with more infidelity. So, take that shit with a grain of salt, it might just be propaganda, but I've so far seen little signs men stray just because they don't get enough sex.
No. 1321371
>>1321321I'm all for pap smears (I'd my first one at 25 and thank fuck given what they found) but I didn't even know this was a thing.
If online doctor services can prescribe BC then maybe thats the way around it? I got antibiotics for a uti through an online service once and I lied during one of the questions knowing that it was make or break but also knowing they'd no way to verify it anyway.
No. 1321498
I am gonna sound like an evil bitch but I am so sick of having overly sensitive friends. The kind of people who just want to be victims in most random situations, I just got a tantrum thrown at me because I put a lot clothing up for sale because I lost a lot of weight and most of this shit is unused and I like money, I don't really need to explain myself right?
No, my friend thinks that because we are both fat, she is somehow supposed to get my old clothes but the thing is, I would have offered these to her for a very low price but she will actually cry abuse the very second anyone around her mentions clothes or sizes. It triggers her because she's plus size, bitch I was bigger than you when we met and lost the weight whilst you kept making yourself into a victim and now you think I could have mentioned the clothes to you without you going into a panic attack? I went to my own sister's funeral and on the same fucking day you said seeing MY NEW JACKET I GOT FOR THE FUNERAL BECAUSE NONE OF MY SHIT FITS ANYMORE AND I WANTED TO LOOK DECENT, triggered you because you saw the size label and was surprised how many sizes I've gone down. You feel shit about yourself, stop making it about me. We all have fucking issues but you're not being "body positive" or vulnerable by telling your friend this shit, you're being a fucking self hating coward who wants to silence us, I would get it if I was rubbing it anyone's face but a big part of my weight loss was the fucking mourning and the actual ptsd flashbacks. Actual triggering events, not my goddamn blazer from H&M and you trying to make a scene. I know people are different and fat women are different but this type of victim mindset is pathetic, even I feel evil and pathetic for being bothered by her blowing up at me for this but see this is wtf happens when you're so ugu triggered by everything, you lose on chances of getting clothes. I am still fat but at least I never was a fucking woman child.
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everyone who started working at my company around the same time as me (a year and 3 months ago) got a promotion except me. And it's literally because of my personality, and my manager directly said it to me. It's because I'm not as communicative and open as my non-autistic coworkers, and I'm supposedly too shy to order other people. Except not all people who got the promotion give orders to others, so I don't get this argument. There's a woman who's working there longer than me and she still forgets some stuff and I have to remind it to her and I work faster than her, she never orders others also. But she chats with my manager about private stuff, so well. I work faster than some people who got promotions and I never commit any mistakes, and yet, just because I don't seem as "strong" as my manager would want me to be and because I'm not as extroverted as my coworkers, I didn't get the promotion. I tried so hard no to cry when she was telling me this. She said I made some improvements since my first day but it's still not enough. I get that they have the right to not give you the promotion for whatever reason, even that you don't wear make up to work - which some companies do - but I just don't feel like it's fair. I tried so hard, I sacrificed my health for this job, and still I'm going to earn less than everyone else because of my personality. They don't even know I'm autistic, and now I won't even want to tell anyone, because I feel that would destroy my future chances completely. I wish I could change my brain to fake being normal better. I feel like trash now
No. 1321521
>>1321356Since I'm already in the vent thread, I guess I'll just go off of this a bit further and vent more.
I'll be going to a family event this weekend on my own (I barely visit my family and I'm not close with them for reasons). My boyfriend will be on his own for maybe 6 hours. I have BPD. I've been getting very good at controlling my BPD. I've gotten so good, it's even gotten to the point where it's not my like my bf is walking on eggshells. We have not fought in many weeks because I've been so careful about how I communicate. I'm really proud of myself because I've kicked a lot of my BPD habits, but this is just amazing. Things seem like they're going really well, but I know this weekend, that day, it's going to stress me out and make it hard for me not to go apeshit bpd. For one, I always get emotional and depressed after visiting my family. I always feel drained after seeing them and even though it's not like I have a great opinion of them, I feel like my distance has made me romanticize then anyway so it irritates me in general after I go there. So,
trigger 1.
Trigger 2, since I will be gone for hours, yeah, I'm worried he will look at porn. I often will half haphazardly ask my boyfriend if he was good while I was gone when I return in slight reference to that, and I don't know if he understands I'm trying to subtly figure that out or not. I am pretty sure he does, and I'm pretty sure he'd say "yes" regardless. I usually am too afraid to check. I want to check this time, though. I am afraid if I find something, I'll BPD sperg out and I do not want to do that under any circumstances. If I find out he is, I will just have to calmly let him know we are not compatible and this is 100% unacceptable to me. This is not something I can grow to accept. If I don't find anything, it is such a trap because I may feel like he's hiding it anyway. I wish I could trust him. I don't know if I should even talk about this. I feel like it'll "tip him off" about it so he'd definitely hide stuff anyway.
The thing is, he's never been a hider. Historically he's always been sloppy. He isn't that great at tech stuff. I do appreciate lc, been here for years since 2015, but truthfully, I feel like it does sometimes feed into my bpd paranoia delusions. I feel like it would have you believe all men know x thing and do x but in my experience, it depends on quite a few variables. I am trying to learn to see things without tinges of paranoia. I hope I can weather this weekend without a fight.
No. 1321537
>>1321518If it's that bad then maybe this job is just not right for you? I don't know what field you're in but there's more secluded jobs out there. But if you want to know how to do small talk, there's lots of advice on it about the internet. Search for something along the lines of How to make small talk, how to keep a conversation going, how to talk to anyone about anything etc. You don't have to become a social butterfly but being able to do a bit of chatting with the people in your work environment so you don't come across as a hermit who hates everyone will surely be beneficial.
>>1321531>If they wanna promote the more sociable ones over abilityThis is the norm. That's why people get jobs simply for having connections. There's gonna be few places and jobs where you don't have to play the social game.
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My mom copies everything I do.
>buys the exact same makeup as me
>dresses like me (she'll copy entire outfits head to toe)
>even bought the same lingerie
>styles her hair like me (recently had to pretend i don't know which side i usually part my hair on because she asked)
>asked if she should dye her hair the same color as mine, i had to convince her it would look bad
>had to talk her 50 year old ass out of buying a crop top like one i wore (even i feel borderline too old to wear it)
>started ogling men my age more and more and commenting on how sexy they are
>visited my apartment, tell her i'm gonna do my makeup and she just about squeals while begging me to let her watch how i do everything step by step
>overheard me say "faggot" on the phone and now she's started saying it too
>if i talk about anything she considers smart she'll start using Big Adult Words that it's obvious she just read on Facebook one time
No. 1321675
>>1321661I’m so sorry
nonnie.
When it came time for my cat to go I paid for an at-home euthanasia and I’m really glad I did. Idk if that’s an option for you but I recommend it. Felt like the only thing left I could give her was a peaceful, comfortable end and she deserved it.
No. 1321687
>>1321547thank you anon, but part of the problem is that professional help has failed. there’s nothing left that they’re willing to offer me, so i’m being discharged this week after two years of trying hard to get better. they’re giving up. it truly feels like it’s over for me
my friends don’t know how to help either, though they do care.
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For fucking REAL. I’m job searching right now and honestly, fuck all of this. I’m sick of it
No. 1321698
>>1321688my resume is like 99% lies
what even is the point of a resume unless you're like in some stem/trade field
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i keep getting what i think is called hypnic jerks or myoclonus, like feeling like you are falling and jerking awake, which is not scary if im asleep or trying to, but now im starting to feel this while fully awake and active. like i could be taking a walk or going for a run and suddenly ill get the sensation that im falling and jerking "awake". this happens multiple times a day, like a hiccupt.
pathetically, i googled if somebody felt the same and added reddit to my search query to see real human answers but surprisingly there was only one person and nobody had any explanations. i dont know if i should be worried or not but its confusing me and freaking me out
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There is stuff I wish I could change about myself, like most, but ultimately I recognize they're not bad traits or anything.
So I don't understand what I did wrong to make this guy hate liking me. I don't know what's so horrible about me that he should feel ashamed for having feelings towards me. I don't get what motivates even people that love me to decide that I'm unlovable.
No. 1321766
>>1321750Hope you get that job
nonnie! You sound very responsible and I’m manifesting that you get yourself a job that pays enough so you can move out and live on your own. When I was in middle school I spent tons of time by myself because both of my parents worked and I didn’t end up setting the house on fire or anything like that. You shouldn’t be expected to be home forever just because you’re the older sibling. Rooting for you!
No. 1321844
>>1321817>Some people move on quick because they're not coping. They have to have a new distraction instantly so they don't have to process feelingsAyrt. I think you hit the nail on the head, anon. Before we got into a relationship she was going through a breakup up with her then gf of 2 years and coped by playing nothing but video games all day. I was the next closest person to her at that time so she vented to me about it. She really was messed up from that breakup but it was strange to me how she seemed to get over her so quickly because after around 3 months later she got together with me. Fast forward to now and it's been almost 6 months that we broke up and I'm still grieving over our relationship. It pains me so much that she's probably not even thinking about me while I have been doing nothing but thinking about her, from the moment that I wake up and the moment I go to sleep. Thank you for the advice. It's hard going through this but I'll focus on the small efforts for now.
>>1321812I'm sorry to hear that nona. I hope you're doing well now, but if not I hope you'll be at a point someday where you don't think about her anymore.
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>>1321943Every day I thank god I never saw the appeal
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>>1321943Can you analyze this next
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>>1321955answering for that anon
jk I actually want to read her thoughts No. 1321964
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A few years ago I started to talk to a guy I had met from a chat app. We seemed to be sexually compatible and I was entertaining a meetup, but something about his personality seemed really volatile and then I found out he had a criminal record he had somewhat downplayed which I wasn't willing to negotiate as relationship material. I forget what happened first, like if he sperged at me or what, but all I know is that I didn't talk with him for years bc he made me feel such a way that I deactivated the app. However, that didn't stop him from sending me these desperate messages in the app the entire time unbeknowst to me, and actually asking around in the chat app circles about me (but come to find out…primarily wanting to know if I had met up or fucked other dudes from it lmaooo).
Anyway, a bad breakup later had me horny one night so I reactivated the app, saw his messages, and bit.
We did wind up meeting up and fucking, and he also got one of his pals to fix up my car which was a several hundred dollar repair. He wanted a relationship with me but I remembered why I had chosen to ignore him originally–he is BPD as fuuuuuck and his meds constantly make him flip on a dime bc he abuses them. I saw him nosedive a few friendships and business partnerships in person in the brief time I was visiting him. So at least I was assured his behavior wasn't a result of something I had or failed to do, it's just who he is.
It's sad, cause he really is cute and handy but he's a fucking abusive psycho and is a loser for it. And anyways, he had an obnoxious ego where he was acting like a huge prize and had the audacity to criticize me for trivial things (hallmark of his benzo abuse, the fool). I knew better than to give it my negative attention, and bc he cannot legally skip town, getting rid of him was as simple as blocking him on all platforms which I did.
Well, it made him obsessed with me. I blocked him on everything except for my paypal. It started with him sending me petty amounts of money so that he could send me messages and try to get me to initiate conversation.
I ignored it lol.
Now he's resorted to verbal abuse and harassment and tries to money request me for millions for "the best sex of my whore life" LMAO!!
Why are men like this? I ignored it but didn't block immediately bc it made me feel good that he was still giving me so much attention, but his last message was so abusive that I did wind up blocking him on paypal too bc fuck his noise. Fortunately I do not live at the address he may know anymore, I just wonder what his next attempted avenue of communication will be now that I have cut off everything? His BPD ass has called himself my "stalker," and while I am not scared of him, it boggles my mind. I hope he seethes to the end of his days.
All he had to do was be nice and he blew it.
No. 1321972
>>1321943BASED literally everything i’ve been thinking. thank u for the research, i noticed awhile ago that BTS fans in particular are incredibly ugly and annoying (i know that’s mean but jesus idc) and i remember seeing BTS on youtube waaaay back when they debuted and would go to LA. i never understood the hype, the songs were either decent (Fire) or downright subpar (fake love) compared to the songs of their contemporaries. dynamite was like nails on a chalkboard.
2 things you might have missed though:
(1) BTS also was one of the first kpop boy groups to really commit to vlogging at its peak (through jimin) which really helped foster the parasocial dynamic. they were far less curated and “chaotic” which was new for kpop fans. granted, that’s what they wanted them to look like.
(2) Jimin fan girls are usually the most annoying fujo uggos because Jimin is used as the self-insert bottom in their fanfics shipping the members. i can only assume it’s mostly because of his shortness and high singing voice?? possibly the vlogs like mentioned before.
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>>1321987
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>>1321987
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Reminder that moids will continue to lie to you and gaslight you and anyone unaware of the horrible shit that they did to you no matter what, no matter if caught, no matter if even being legally investigated or confronted with irrefutable evidence. He will continue to lie and play victim. The moid who sent me this was literally stalking me and every bit of info he obtained about me was intimately hacked from my cellphone and shared among his creepy little terminally online L33T H@XX3R friends—pictures, phone conversations, my search engine history, the porn I’d watch. None of this I had ever or would ever share anywhere and I did not consent at all to any of it. He would make subtle, weird digs insulting me and degrading me and trying to tear me down and shit on my appearance. He has some really carefully crafted online image of himself that is totally opposite to the sort of person he is that he guards very heavily and feigns complete stupidity even though he always brags about getting his internet “friends” to hack people for him, even for really autistic trivial shit. He at one point sent me creepy questions trying to get me to allude to my iCloud ID and telling me his, completely unprovoked. I was too stupid and in deep psychosis at the time so I didn’t realize he was the driving force behind the creepy shit I was dealing with. He pretended to be my “friend” all the while degrading me and voyeuring me and was extremely pissed off that I was just a pedestrian, mentally ill woman instead of someone important for him to put under a microscope. Like he genuinely Did All That Shit. Men think their lives are a how to get away with murder reboot. It’s so scary how someone especially someone who was very vocal about supporting Amber Heard and abuse victims could double down and lie this hard while being a voyeur and a piece of shit behind the scenes with zero concept or care for consent, and thought he was cool for being a part of it. It’s almost comical if not scary to have seen him make stupid vague Elon Musk-esque foreshadowing tweets about people “making things up” about him and other little manipulative quips pinning himself some victim to a mysterious future rumor or something. I do not speak to him, want nothing to do with him, and want to remain improving myself and my mental health and despite this he continued this for a year and his autistic little pisspoor excuses for online ‘friends’ will not leave me alone to this day. He only sent this after I alluded to some very specific shit that he did, came out of the woodwork with this complete crock of shit that will solidify me never believing or trusting any male online especially ones that pretend to be above it all and meticulous about what they project online.
No. 1322091
>>1322023I typically don't screenshot posts that take me aback, but I think anyone that follows a couple of cows on the drama forums can think of someone that got a bit heated when their nitpicks were questioned.
>Tbh I consider most who insult a woman's appearance in any way to be a thinly veiled woman haterHonestly I kiiiind of wanted to point this out too but I felt it would derail the point of my initial post. But the number of anons that cry tranny the moment a woman isn't conventional looking is just ridiculous, though I haven't seen a lot of these instances lately so maybe people have calmed down in lieu of calling each other out for being that psychotic spamming troon.
No. 1322122
>>1322094i guess it's just a fear built from the "i overshared(?) with my therapist and got admitted" stories i hear alot. honestly do feel like i need to have some shit checked though. never any opening to talk about that however, its silly.. why am i even talking to her.
but thank you!, i'll take your word and do this. i appreciate it.
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Ended things with a potential nigel because he saw paying things for me (like food and gas to see me) as a chore.
I made pretty clear that I want to be taken care of, I want someone who treats me better than my dad. I love paying things like food and cinema tickets for my loved ones and my closest friends, it brings me immense joy to see my money able to pay for those kind of experiences… so I want someone to feel this way when paying for me too.
I explained to him that it has to come naturally for him, and if he sees me as a chore, as a potential gold digger, then fuck off.
If I was younger I would've wasted my time trying to convince him that I'm 'worthy' of this. Where's the provider mindset, alpha guy? Lmao
That's non negotiable. A deal breaker. Stop wasting my time if you're not going to take care of me. My company is a privilege, not a right.
No. 1322169
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I’m a neet that only goes to college and finding a job that doesn’t involve food is near impossible. I rather work in retail or areas that don’t require experience but you’re doing stock but it’s so impossible to work with my availability. I’m catastrophizing now, I’m so terrified of my future and I feel like I’m going no where
No. 1322178
>>1321997nonna i am so sorry. i actually have been through sorta something similar, and it really does destroy your trust in general. men who larp as feminist intellectuals but then are capable of harassing, blackmailing, and stalking are very scary.
i’m gonna suggest something i wish i was told: keep proof of
everything. even if it’s small, try to keep proof of it. he might slip up.
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Can't stop thinking about someone replying to an anon who struggled to make and keep friends
>But do you actually want friends? Or is your narc supply low?
I have not had a friendship last longer than 2-3 years, and those were the ones I clung onto because I was codependent and being abused. Healthier relationships get ghosted a couple months in. Just 2 days ago I connected with a nice, funny woman who's easy to talk to and I already want to run screaming. What's wrong with me? Am I evil? I wish I could just live in total isolation, never hurting or disappointing anyone, but I've already tried it a few times and I start going crazy after 2 months.
No. 1322204
>>1322192You don’t sound narc, you sound abused and traumatized. You’re afraid to get bullied again = why you say disappoint.
Or I’m indeed a retard who deserves no friends.
No. 1322211
>>1322198Sorry
nonnie lol
>>1322204I think you might be right. The
toxic relationships began just as nicely, but in a healthy companionship there's no trauma bond to keep me hooked.
>>1322206Yeah of course it's normal to want friends. What isn't normal is abandoning friends after you've used them to get attention.
No. 1322238
>>1322156Based. His money is our money and my money is my money. I will buy him things or pay for his meal time to time, but that's the laws of the land.
Glad that my Nigel knows and does it without hesitation. The way I hear his friends talk about their gf and how they pay for things, Sad!
No. 1322246
>>1322235Big
oof. He also drew Loona from hellava bods on our marker board (which is supposed to list supply reorders and shit) and we all know what type of men who like that character are like. I just wanna leave a ransom letter styled note on his car or somthing saying “I know what you yiff to” or somthing just to fuck with him lmao. Like bro. You think you’re slick but you are raising way too many flags for me. Especially the other day when Pokémon came up and he expressed liking lopbunny and Delfox and I’m like Jesus Christ are you any more transparent in your beastiality.
No. 1322263
>>1322244You're right
nonny.. he says I don't have to pay for him ever, but I do think he deserves it, as treat. Like on his birthday. T
No. 1322291
>>1322285nta but i am jealous of you
nonny, min wage here is 400 a month. working in a grocery store doing practically everything, not only being a cashier costs 540 a month.
No. 1322325
>>1322279What part of
>I don't want to be stuck in customer service eitherdidn't you get
No. 1322352
>>1322346Well, you could learn welding or metal work, there is hvac, plumbling, mechanic, hair, beauty, dental hygienist, nursing assistants (idk proper title), film (think roadies and production set up, etc. community college programs can be better than theory based uni classes. Learning film theory is great until you're on set and cant safely rig lighting or dollies / building sets for theatre
No. 1322389
>>1322179>The capitalization of female loneliness omg this. funny thing is, i know kpop stars in Korea are also very confused by their success.
Can't forget the fact that most of their "original" songs that got them hype in Korea were either str8 up covers or heavily sampled from big US hits, but people in Korea and China didn't know them since the songs they chose didn't make it big overseas. they've been accused of plagiarism and the korean version of "Payola" which pretty much is paying for radio time illegally.
No. 1322406
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>make coffee
>tastes like plastic
Sigh.
No. 1322546
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I am my mother's child, I'll love you 'til my breathing stops
I'll love you 'til you call the cops on me
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i just wonder why, a year later, my sexual assaulter finds my new account and harasses me with his friends–going as far as to ruin my current budding friendship circles. did i deserve this? is it easier because i was the only girl? i would havekept my mouth shut about what he did if he did too. but he had to make up a story about me begging for him and him pushing me away. was he guilty for what he did to me when drunk? or am i that much of al ughing stock? he still spreads images around of me that i no longer look like, goes out of his way to create drama. useless neets, males are always believed.
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>>1322561luckily im starting therapy soon. im so scared to be vulnerable and tell said therapist because i know ill break down in tears, as nobody irl knows, but i know it will help to just tell someone. you dont know how good it feels for someone to just tell me i didnt deserve it
nonnie. i let it go until the harassment got worse last year and i told them waht really happened. this was my first "assault" aside from groping or childhood stuff. i was naive. itrusted these online friends. but the only girl was a troon. nobody took my side. but they werent there, they didnt see the pool of blood when i woke up, the things he said and how he started getting on top of me when i was drunk and alone. what merit or power does he have over me? it reminds me of my middle school bullies. and i cant help but think, the funniest part is that nobody was willing to just…hear my side completely. the ycant even pull the attention seeking card because i kept shut for months. i just wish it could be over for good. they send bad photos of me and contact people im getting to know, which is i think what bothers me. im stronger. im a lot stronger, a lot prettier inside and out (not that i wasnt then, honestly, at least inside) and im grateful for life. but it still makes me want to die recalling it all mentally, and knowing people have to see me at a bad point in my life, hear lies and how they will pounce on someone once i get to know them and they even so much as slightly touched similar social circles.
but its over. i know what happened, any female would know what happened if i told them, and im doing better than i have been the past two years. mid 20's neet men harassingme a year later, when i was nothing but kind to them. i thought we were friends and thats where i was WRONG, to believe they saw me as EQUAL. the minute the main man didnt get what he wanted from me (or due to guilt for fingering me when i was drunk) im a weak laughing stock, like a wewak boy or something akin to that.
sorry
nonnie im being unhinged. i needed to let that out. i needed to know im not insane and it did happen even if they say it didnt. it was only two people in that room: myself and him. i probably should have gone to the police, but i was scared theywouldnt believe me either.
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>>1322583Look what you've done anon. Don't you think it's trying it's best?
No. 1322624
>>1316468I'm having a crisis and I'm genuinely thinking about quitting my job but my useless friend can only say "but then you could move near me uwu"
She counsels people professionally
No. 1322651
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i can't believe i'm jealous of my boyfriend's dead girlfriend. he's with me now but is he ever going to love me? he's still wearing the ring and keeps things that belonged to her on his desk, close to his sight everyday. he's so sweet and kind to me but i think his heart still belongs to her. someone who was perfect for him. i can't help but compare myself to her. he never talked about her, but i know what kind of person she was because a friend told me everything. i know it's useless but i can't stop these thoughts. i hope i can overcome this shit soon because it hurts
No. 1322662
>>1322600Ayrt I got my laptop two years ago but these past few months it’s been acting slow af and the programs always crash, despite having a somewhat clean storage cache and RAM. I barely used it unless it was for school and would rather save any important projects onto external hard-drives instead.
My last computer which I had for five years wasn’t acting this slow until by the time I got a new one, and it was a Dell. Then again, my current one which is an HP feels cheap material-wise so who knows?
No. 1322689
>>1322656thanks for the rec, nona. i'm gonna start reading it today.
i feel like it's too early to talk to him about that. he only mentioned her once, when i asked him why he wasn't getting married anymore, but i already knew. i wonder if he'd ever mention it if i never asked. it seems it's a sensitive topic. i told him he could talk to me anytime but his response was "don't worry, i won't bother you with that".
>>13226574-5 months ago. we got in touch again after only one month after her passing away, and things escalated quickly. crazy, i know. but we've known each other for 10 years, we dated for 6 months in high school and at that time we didn't want to end things but we had to. i always remembered him tenderly and getting him back again seemed so surreal. i knew what i was getting into but it doesn't make it hurt less.
No. 1322690
>>1322642Was he your first boyfriend period?
Oof, I know how you must be feeling. If you're mostly over it, I'd give the obvious advice of not dwelling upon it whatsoever. You won't extract the meaning and answers you seek anyway.
No. 1322896
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My ex is currently sitting in the house we both bought together, using the furniture I am still solely paying off, and collecting my half of the mortgage payment all while pointing his pathetic little finger at me to call me a "thief" because I refuse to pay for his utilities or will agree to giving him more of the sale of the home when we finally do sell it.
Because he's an entitled, greedy manchild with no viable future and so he's trying to cash in for every penny on this fucking house because after this he doesn't have shit except what his rich parents might leave him. He insists I could stay at the house if I wanted to and is accusing me of abandoning the home. Except that doesn't hold when 1)He made a false police call claiming 'violence' when I invited a male friend over when my ex was making me uncomfortable, 2)He has admitted to touching me in my sleep after our relationship was over and leers at me whenever I am there, and 3)He harasses me and starts arguments over any little trivial thing like me leaving a bedroom door open while I attempt to collect my possessions. So no, I am not free to stay in my own home because he has created a hostile environment. He knows what he's done and has effectively manipulated me into not wanting to return. He's dragging his ass when it comes to selling the house because he gets to enjoy having a place of his own while I am forced to couchsurf with friends, and the kicker is, he's not even taking care of the house and the place is filthy as it hasn't been cleaned since I last did it months ago. So I am effectively being forced into leading the sale of the home, while all he has to do is sit back while I do all the heavy lifting to get this shit over with. Unlike him, I don't have a rich daddy to coach me on how to financially and legally threaten his ass back. Up until now, I worked two jobs and literally had no time nor funds to pursue a lawyer. I recently have been promoted, so I hope to go back down to just having one job and having the extra time to finally seek legal counsel.
He's useless. A literal unproductive stain on society who will only parasite off the corpses of his parents and then try to sucker another woman in with his act. He'll future fake with promises of wanting a family while he will not disclose he is actually infertile and will not care about cucking a woman if it means he can find a partner who supports his minimal effort life.
I wish he would die. He's messing with my life but has the audacity to act like the inconvenienced and betrayed one. When he bites the dust I hope it's something particularly painful, lonely, and horrific.
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Another day of knowing the terminally online men who behave like soap opera villains are going to kill themselves or lead a very long life of misery and torment for all the women they hurt because god isn’t letting them out unscathed. Hope it hurts. Hope you get exactly what you deserve.
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found out my mom knew the whole time that the basement I lived in from 8-16 was full of radon
she says my stepdad said radon isn't actually harmful to humans and it's all a conspiracy and so it was okay for that to be my bedroom
I'll be getting my first cancer screening soon
I can't believe I thought it was bad enough there were mushrooms growing down there and slugs would crawl across my feet because it was so cold, my feet were numb and I didn't notice
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Feeling this at the moment
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Feeling this right now
No. 1323078
>>1323059The other one would beat her up when she was pregnant, all because he didn't want a child, but the last one I told about is insane. He would brag about being a sociopath too, always threaten to beat me up, killed my pet out of spite… And now that they broke up he went as far as to pay the bank to get the info off her bank account and traveled to a different country where she studies and paid the police to give her the address. Now he is trying to pretend to be lovey-dovey and threaten her with suicide if she doesn't let him live with her in Europe.
I wish there was a way to tell my SIL about all of this crap. She is bragging about LDR dating an arab guy with a Muslim family who is rich because of his parents, and he always brags about being a sociopath, praising shit like Musk and Peterson… But no, she won't listen.
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I wish life ended
No. 1323151
>>1323146I mean she
was exposed to radiation, sooo
No. 1323154
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I'm unironically triggered so easily, literally everything does it to me.
For example I hate checking my messages because I see my coworkers pics with their husbands and babies, coming by the villages my coworkers live in, hearing the name of the city I worked at, seeing clothes that are similar to something that my coworkers wore, certain food, media about the type of work I do, the fact that summer is about to end, literally everything reminds me of work and makes me sick.
Talking to coworkers I actually like somewhat is also impossible without feeling horrible, I don't even really want to make friends with them.
I don't think I will ever be happy at any job. I will have new coworkers soon and I nevertheless already know that I will hate it, that it will be as horrible as last year.
Whenever I see random people working anything, I immediately think "Maybe that job would be good for me!" I'm just so desperate to escape.
When I was young I always made fun of these "eternal students" who still study in their late 20s and 30s but now I also constantly think of going back to uni because I hate working so much.
I also often dream of going back to my old retail job, just doing manual labor without having to use my brain, but working there would mean that I wouldn't earn enough to survive on my own.
Anything seems better than a serious job. I'd hate to be a housewife but I nevertheless am so jealous of my friends who are mothers, they already know that they will never have to work full time again their entire lifes, how calming would it be to have that?
My brain is just constantly full of fear and dread because of work, I can never relax or enjoy things anymore.
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CALL ME ALREADY JUST TELL ME HES OKAY GAAAAAAAARRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHH I CANT TAKE THE WAITING ANYMORE!!
No. 1323158
My great grandmother, who is considered to be the holy matriarch of our family, appears regularly in the dreams of my mother, my aunt, my cousins, etc. Some dreams are spooky, some are vaguely prophetic, some comforting, yet always in a way that is described to be like she's looking out for us all and guarding us. When I was born my mother dreamed that night that she was looking over my cot and smiling in approval. But in 31 years I've not had a single dream about her. The only time I saw her was when I was in an induced coma (I guess that counts as a dream but it felt far too visceral and real to classify it as such). I thought I was stuck in a bed somewhere in purgatory, and I saw her sat on a chair at the bottom of my bed watching me, just like my mother described in the dream after my birth. My family has always told me how much I'm like her, they've done so all my life and other family friends have noted a similarity; in both appearance and personality. My aunt tells me I don't see her in dreams like they do because we're "twin souls". Idk what that means because I don't even fully believe in this shit. Hell, the woman died years before my birth but I grew up with so many stories of her crazy antics and how protective she was of family that I feel like I know her and as dismissive as I am of this weird shared psychosis… I really wish I could dream of her. My wife and I are trying for a baby and my mind is naturally preoccupied with thoughts of family, now more than ever I need some spooky old broad to come visit me in my dreams and tell me that I'm gonna be ok. Good lord, this is such a silly thing to care about, I would never admit this in person.
No. 1323178
>>1323154i feel you on everything you said nonna. i'm less
triggered by everything now that i feel more secure and loved and like i have a home and friends i can be honest with. you feel like an outsider with your coworker because you have no firm basis to stand on.
on the second part, study or mooch off a nigel and be a neet if you want to but please don't just produce a child just to stay home, my aunt did that and it turned to catastrophe
No. 1323189
>>1323093It feels like you might need a change of perspective. It seems you are still continuing self destructive behavior by pushing away problems you have because you do not want to deal with them and focus on work. Most people who do that end up miserable because they realize soon that life isn't solely just thier job.
It is hard but we have to learn how to love ourselves. I'm dealing with that right now and being nice to myself is so hard but I realize I feel better everyday.
Also, maybe the reason why you feel like this is because you realize coworkers or coworkers friends in the long run don't really matter. Maybe thier praise isn't satisfying because you feel no true love or warmth from it. It feels good for the second but after you go home you go back to your life.
I'm on a break with someone I love and they are a workaholic. They are putting thier entire self worth in thier job but they did it to an insane degree professionally everywhere else such as jobs, educational, even in work relationships. She has not realized that this stress makes her into an alcoholic and avoidant. She was negligent and did not care about anyone's feelings, not even her own which made her super sad inside. Good luck anon.
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My psychiatrist is fucking useless. Shows up 10-15 minutes late every time despite me being first appt (and he works from home). Gets pissy because I’m annoyed he’s late and he cannot remember a single fucking thing from our last appt (wtf are all these notes for if he can’t take 5 mins pre-appt to look them over?) Wants me to try lamictal. Ok cool let’s spend the entire appt talking about it…oh, wait, you’re on what medication? Oh, this one on your chart? Oh yeah you can’t take lamictal. Jfc dude thanks for wasting my time
No. 1323299
>>1323298While I do enjoy my alone time quite a bit, I prefer to travel with friends to share the experience with.
>and do a lot of research beforehand for each place you go toI want to say "well…duh" since I always think it is important to respect the culture and customs when you go somewhere, then I remember there are idiots.
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I bought a plant from Ikea a few months ago and found fungus gnats on it. These fucking gnats won't go away. I've been using yellow sticky traps, steel wool, and now hydrogen peroxide to try to keep their numbers down. I've tried watering the plant less. I'm also washing dishes ASAP and drying out the sink so they won't have another source of water and sustenance. I'm so fucking sick of these tiny faggots flying into my face. Fuck Ikea for selling me this infested plant.
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I really do hate my mother
No. 1323334
>>1323313I know how you feel, nonna. I'm half-tempted to rejoin tumblr to sperg about my silly little interests but I'm 31 and an evil
terf. I also want a curated feed that's devoid of any politics but that's gonna take a lot of blocking and blacklisting and ugh… why bother.
No. 1323336
>>1323322My question is why you would say yes? She is clearly lying to you and exploiting you, all those requests are extremely inappropriate to make of a neighbour. She must have some sort of antisocial personality to go this far to begin with.
Tell her you won't do all this crap for free anymore, you have your own life to take care and need to relax after work. Sometimes you have to be firm with people, otherwise you will always stay a doormat to be used by others.
No. 1323340
>>1323329Start from the beginning. Or start from the end and work backwards memento style. Either way, let's hear it.
>>1323333That gif is really freaking me out.
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>>1323252i tried to be more careful and humble about my faults, more open to change and more intentional about building relationships. also daring to say what i want clearly and setting boundaries. and taking care of myself, cooking good meals and taking pleasure in cleaning and organizing my space did wonders for my confidence and mood.
i hope you make it nonna !!!
No. 1323346
>>1323328Sometimes I forget things don't need an explanation. I will be more firm and stand with that decision.
>>1323336To answer your question, I've been sheltered my whole life. I am also introverted, I've been trying to work on that though. I didn't know these requests were inappropriate because I haven't really talked to neighbors or anything before. I usually keep to myself. But you both are right. I will tell her no and you're right, I do have my own life currently and it's picking up as of late so I'll focus on that.
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I'm fucking pissed and disgusted that my college seems to have given out students info to spam them about joining the military and I just got one. I've been told by 3 men including my father to never join because of the mental scarring and sexual assault to women. What the fuck?? This was one of the replies among a ton of others about trauma women had in the military. It actually makes me so sad she brushes it off and someone says "yes queen!!" As if that's the correct thing to say. God its just another way to take advantage of women who were delt a bad hand.
No. 1323360
Because of my autism and selective mutism I wasn't able to pass oral exams to get into my dream uni even though my written exam and practical exam were good. Now I can hardly support a job, and I don't get any promotions unlike my neurotypical coworkers, and I know it's because of my disorder. I'm behind everyone, like always. I never had any friends, social life, love, sex etc. I'm in my mid-late 20s and it's getting worse and I'm even more anxious than before because I feel like I don't have much time left. I'm afraid I will always be alone. Also, people treat older autists even worse than young ones. They think you're retarded because you have motor skill problems, for example, and the older you are, the worse is their reaction. They don't go "aww you're still so young, you still have so much time to get over this" (which is also condescending), but they rather go "come on, how can someone your age still have problems with this? How can you not drive a bike or a car? That's pathetic". Where is my fucking female privilege you dumb scrotes? I thought ALL women have their lives on easy mode
No. 1323376
>>1323367I love you nonna, so much so that I don't want you to open yourself up to exploitation like you suggest.
Are you not affectionate with your friends or family? Perhaps a pet would suit you well.
>>1323360That really sucks about the uni. If you're diagnosed they should have made allowances/exemptions for you. If you're not diagnosed, maybe you could look into it. HR departments (especially at larger companies) sometimes eat that stuff up. You can disclose it when it's beneficial to you, and hide it when it's not. I'm really sorry you've had these problems in the first place though, sometimes life's unfair.
No. 1323396
>>1323383It's not even limited to partners, either. There's men that get set off by the idea of a completely random woman vicariously loving a pet even if there's no weirdness going on.
While the number of girls and women that find a guy loving his pet adorable is much higher.
I wonder why?
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Gotta love it when people check in on you after they heard you aren't doing well, just to ignore you right after. Fuck off with that performative bullshit, that hurts more than when you don't say anything at all. Even worse when it's someone you've supported through thick and thin whenever she reached out to you for support and help. Don't claim I'm one of your closest friends when you can only be bothered to half-assedly pretend to be there. I'm not saying I'm helping and supporting my friend to expect something back, I will hold my friends' back unconditionally, but I lose it when it comes to performative shit like this.
No. 1323410
>>1323351>3 hour video game streaming sessionsi was waiting for this to appear as i was reading
yes they would treat a child the same way and /r/breakingmom and the like is full of them doing so
the culprit is nearly always video games, if not that it's porn and if not that substance abuse, scrotes small brains cannot handle things like this