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No. 1247047
Vent away, nonnas
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I want to kill myself because I have a big ol hemorrhoid
No. 1247063
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I'm such a goddamn procrastinator even when I block distracting shit
No. 1247085
>>1247069I read this to the tune of
"light of my life, fire of my loins" from Off To the Races by LDR
No. 1247138
>>1247132I felt the same way about one of my exes nonna, don't worry. It was always framed as a jealousy issue in that I was jealous of the wife but I was just jealous that things were working out in his favor after what he did. People like easy explanations and read too many dating advice columns, they assume any mention of your ex means omg ur still in luv with them!
Karma isn't real, I feel your pain. If you have some trusted friends that aren't braindead I'm sure they'd get it.
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I just paid for one of those instagram activity tracking services, I am officially in my unhinged era
No. 1247254
>>1247204 >i'm so bad at performing femininityI'm a decade older than you but I remember being 22 and like you said, performing femininity and only half feeling like it was doing anything for me. I didn't have trouble finding partners but tbh it just always felt a lil forced and like it wasn't for me, it was this effort to please others. I'd somehow be more uncomfortable in my own skin for having tried so hard. A couple years later I went through a big break up and wanted myself back, I snapped out of in a pretty sudden way that had people wondering if I were entering trans land. I wasn't but I'll never look back and miss those forced femininity days. You can always choose to tone it down and just own that as being truer to who you are.
It's not what a good portion of men necessarily flock to on first impression but you have to live for yourself. It's cliche but I think people can pick up on when you're not being authentic and you end up in relationships that are also very performative if you meet someone that way.
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I thought my sister was finally out of her judgemental asshole phase but it looks like she's just been suppressing it this whole time. Last night she got kind of drunk and started ripping into me for having a sport I like to do and not training her way, i.e. obsessively doing physique lifts, as if training to get stronger at a particular activity is wrong and iNeFfIcIeNt. Then she got mad at me for wanting to make things in my life fun and having hobbies other than binge drinking and stuffing myself with lettuce and ricecakes and going to the gym, saying shit like "happines is an illusion" and other things she uses to justify her Puritan work ethic. And then, it somehow turned into a really stupid argument about the validity of her/our family's branch of Christianity and why I want no part of it, in which she parroted things she's heard the priest and our parents say with no explanation while I refuted her with things I have actually read in the Bible, church authorities, saints' writings, etc that I do not agree with. She also more or less called me a drug-addled, promiscuous degenerate for having more sexual/romantic experiences than her and enjoying a slightly harder form of the weed that's legal here than her. I made the mistake of telling her I'm bisexual and she proceeded to tell me those don't exist because "every girl has girl crushes and thinks about doing stuff with girls and making out with them while drunk." Girl, please.
No. 1247329
>>1247204Even the ugliest or most tomboy-ish women can get moids if you're just willing to settle. Which I don't recommend but saying you will never get a boyfriend (if you want one) is just plain false kek.
Anyway stop obsessing so much over your exterior and whether or not you get a bf to bang and focus on your hobbies or job or whatever makes you happy instead. You've only got so much time on this world to do all the shit you want to do, don't waste your limited time on looking good to please others when you could be spending it to live your life for own enjoyment.
No. 1247390
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I've finally done it. After being low contact with an abusive parent for years, she gave me a phonecall that was negative and accusative from start to finish, trod all over me, made it clear she never gave a fuck about me and only thinks about herself. Well, I blocked the bitch! I'm moving to a new apartment in a few months and live very far away. Might also change my number just to make damn sure. I did it nonnies, I'll never have to hear that toxic abusive malestrom of evil ever again.
It feels like I dropped 20 lbs off my shoulders. Free at last, free at last! That entire family is cut off, and I wiped my online presence so they can't stalk or contact me. Whoosh, gone. The flying monkey is going to try to pester and stalk me but I have the block button hot and ready. Ooh it feels so good.
No. 1247404
>>1247204Don't do these things in hope of getting a man, but to have a better understanding and faith in yourself.
>my hair is frizzy and dry, no matter how much i take care of it. Of everything you listed, start with trying to learn how to take care of your hair. Do you have curly hair? Know your hair type? There's a lot on youtube, you should hopefully find some videos that can help.
>i don't like wearing makeup or doing my nails.This is normal and perfectly fine.
>i don't know how to dress and i can't follow trends. as soon as i buy a new clothing item, it goes out of fashion.Following trends is a bad idea. Focus on finding what styles and silhouettes you enjoy, otherwise you will consistently waste a lot of money buying clothes to chase feeling good about yourself. The trend cycle is speeding up due to tiktok and fast fashion companies, namely shein, ramping up production to an unhealthy speed. Maybe start with buying basics you will wear and can get multiple uses out of. There are lots of fashion videos on youtube, hope you find some women whose styles you like and can pull from.
No. 1247493
>>1247489It is very irritating when Cajuns and more 'country' (poorer families) southerners from any state get jumped on for this. Not white personally, grew up in a southern state in the country country and that's just how people talk. Doesn't bother me not one iota.
TikTok is a den of retardation though and non southerners should shut the fuck up about how things work down here.
No. 1247500
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A moid I've been talking to again after I broke up with him sent me a suicide (?) baiting fucking message.
It went like
>Anon?
>Maybe I need a psychiatrist ASAP.
>It's nothing super serious but if you have a moment to call.
I'm a med student who might become a psychiatrist but I'm not his fucking psychiatrist. I'm a girl he briefly dated.
I said I'm still sleeping since I couldn't sleep at night and if it's okay in a few hours. And what's wrong, and that I'm not a psychiatrist yet.
He sent
>After you end in school and before you leave for the event just call me OK?
I said
>ok
And then I asked him after few hours if talking from the train in the afternoon at around five would be okay and if he still needs to talk.
After 5 passed, I sent him
>I guess not shrug emoji
And he still didn't reply. A also sent him SMS asking if he's OK.
What makes me actually angry is that I told him that two of my friends committed suicide last month. What he's doing is super self-centred and he didn't even say please or anything. He just ordered me to call him and ghosted me.
Honestly, fuck him so, so much.
I know he hasn't killed himself or anything but it just makes me uneasy inside you know?
I reached out to him again because we had so much to talk about and totally similar interests but this is a no-go. I'm not his emotional labour machine.
Update he finally messaged me saying sorry that it had turned him off the whole day and he's been in call for two hours already and that I don't have to worry he wouldn't kill himself or anything.
He definitely gets off on me worrying about him. Glad someone else did his emotional labor for him. You wouldn't catch me dead anymore comforting this asshole.
No. 1247506
>>1247500the next time a scrote suicide baits I'm probably going to reply with 'k' and block him. If I know his address I'll call the cops for a wellness check and then block him. That's all the effort they deserve and that's only because I know they're bluffing for attention and having the police show up to their house would be annoying and ~
triggering~
No. 1247530
>>1246471Not sure if you are still around, didn't realize I got a reply.
I should clarify that it's not the physical act of turning the car that I can't do (if that's what you thought I meant), but judging spacing while turning. I tend to make wide turns, especially on my right turns, because I always think I'm going to end up too close to parked cars or will end up hitting them, especially since I practiced on a lot of narrow two way streets. When I learned to drive, that was my first time in a car, so I'm not used to suddenly having to account for all this extra space when moving around. I assume it's like going from driving a sedan to a limo or something - you have to get used to the size of it so you can judge where you are in relation to things. Except I didn't go from a small car to a bigger car, I went from accounting for just my limbs to a whole car.
No. 1247584
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I got exposed to covid from going to my violin lesson is this divine judgment from God for learning Miracles May and being a disgusting fujo neet. was going to visit my best online friend for America day. Wanna die I was really excited about seeing my only friend and the roadtrip too.
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the OP image of the stupid questions thread reminded me of one of my earliest memories
> enter kindergarten
> teacher going around asking everyone what they want to be when they grow up
> my turn
> have never been asked this and suddenly aware there is such a thing as a "future" or "growing up"
> for some reason the only thing that pops in my mind is the imagery of a ballerina in a music box
> say "ballerina" and teacher moves on
I was aware of "jobs" but never thought it was something applied to me/never thought of myself doing any of those? Evidence of retardation was exhibited early on.
Is this type of early conditioning (part of) the reason why people put so much of their identities in their jobs/titles?
No. 1247682
>>1247656If only adults actually showed kids a range of jobs instead of the doctor/lawyer/teacher/law enforcement stuff.
I imagine if you showed kids a range, most would pick something in the trades or arts or craftsmanship aka "unrealistic". I always really wanted to be stuff like glass blower, carpenter/wood worker, weaver, but those are not acceptable jobs even though they do exist and people have them.
No. 1247741
>>1247739At this point I need weed.
I need to chill my god.
No. 1247745
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Other women really don’t care if other women are suffering. Stop saying you’re better than men, you are certainly no better than a man. No scrote has ever thought laughed at another woman’s eating disorder is hilarious because men are too fucking stupid to know what that is, other women rejoice in your pain and suffering like a man would. It’s like a manic sort of enjoyment unlike men who are straight up psychopathic and underhanded with their demented nature, women contrary to myth are not manipulative, that’s a male thing, but will straight up make you feel like shit and whittle away your deluded sense of esteem. They feed you a bunch of lies but I’m still going to be under the tyranny of a selfish woman, I’m still going to be made fun of for my insecurities in my own womanhood by other women. Other women uphold the patriarchy stronger than other men and I’m absolutely fucking tired of being gaslit that this doesn’t happen.
No. 1247757
>>1247744>>1247750idk what she's thinking. She also doesn't understand how dangerous medicine from aliexpress is. She already bought creams that she use for a long time now, because it helped she wants to take medicine. And because these creams worked, I can't convince her how dangerous this shit is.
From what I know, her cancer isn't in advanced form as doctors thought. So for now she only needs to visit a doctor every half year to see if everything is ok.
No. 1247777
>>1247745True, I don't care about rando women any more than I care about men. Which is very little.
But I'm glad whenever someone says this. The faux support all women attitude on here gets tiresome. I know you're all lying.
No. 1247784
>>1247771So I got this medicine in my hands and it is "gynostemma extract". Which sounds like typical TCM extract. It came with """"certificate of analysis""" and it's """"tested"""" by "tested by:lily, approved: william, certified by:henry". It sounds sketchy af.
I try to convince her that I can buy her legit one from safe site.
I would let her take this fucking extract but let it be at least from safe source, my god.
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>>1247766Stacy is a meme created by men that describes a woman who’s sexually desirable to other men, she looks like a fucking sex doll kek. Why would I give a fuck about a woman who can’t dye her roots for shit calling me fat when I’m not? You’re either a lurking tranny trying to fuck with me or an anon who’s super pathetic and thinks her worth is attached to how attractive she is to other men, like granny-chan from months ago bragging that she still bags the idiots from my generation while being an old windbag. Pathetic
No. 1247805
>>1247745>No scrote has ever thought laughed at another woman’s eating disorder is hilariousMen are always making fun of women whose physical appearances indicate obvious eating problems ie. anorexic and clinically obese women. The reason why you might not hear them take as many jabs at EDs specifically is because men don't even consider the state of a woman's mental health and largely consider the way she looks as an indicator of a moral failing or laziness–you even admit that men are too stupid to consider issues beyond basic decision-making. Idk anon, in my experience men are selfish and ruthless. Women can be brutal but their crassness is only obvious juxtaposed in a culture where we are socialized to be coddlers and doormats. Since when do you hear about men performing unreciprocated emotional labor like what women do?
The grass ain't always greener.
No. 1247870
>>1247682I agree. Problem is some parents want their kids in a "respectable" career aka need to follow what mommy and daddy want them to be. Some parents also like holding money/debt over their kids' heads. Mine did that with my middle/high school schooling to guilt trip me into uni. I loved working with my hands creating stuff as a kid. My parents put their foot down when I was a preteen and forced me into freaking out about my grades. They knew I suffered from anxiety (almost had it managed on my own) but didn't care because I had to follow
their dream not
mine. It imploded so badly. It's hard picking up the pieces and not being so bitter and feeling like a failure.
No. 1247878
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fwb said my hate for men is irrational. sure, it's not like i'm traumatized with Y chromosomes, just because im functional and don't reflect it on my appearance means i don't deeply hate them.
fuck this fwb bullshit, i'm back to not having any kind of meaningful relationship with moids. i prefer to waste my time thinking about my internalized homo/biphobia and fantasizing about getting out of the closet someday. even if i'm probably autistic and can't understand how to socialize with other women.
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>>1247745I didn’t read all that but get well soon Tismochan!!
No. 1247947
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This is my second time this week FB reported my comment as hate speech against men because I ranted on a comment to a female friend's post about roe being overturned. Like holyshit. apparently saying shit like men are trash and could never understand or fuck men is considered hate speech, but I've gotten literal death threats and sexism shit directly to ME and fb has done nothing.
fuck zuckerburg
fuck facebook
FUCK MEN (or don't rather)
No. 1247981
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>>1247745>Women are just as bad.Never have been, never will be.
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I have to take a break from reading about true crime because this shit is making me depressed.
Apparently, sex trafficking in cruise ships is a real thing that happens. My mom has been talking about going on a cruise for vacation and I guess reading about this is making me sad because it hits close to home. It can literally happen to any woman out there.
Anyway, fuck moids who pay for sex and fuck anyone who thinks SWIW while brushing off the real victims. Fuck anyone who believes that "b-but sex trafficking won't be much of a problem if sex work was actually legalised" like wtf is up with that retarded take, the logical leaps you have to go through
Anyway, I'm just so mad that shit like this happens so fucking often while libfems and leftist scrotes chant at how sex work is SOOO empowering while silencing the voices of victims actually affected by the sex industry.
No. 1248012
>>1248007my dad raped and abused me, and yeah i wouldn't want to deal with either of them
fuck annoying bitches
No. 1248030
>>1248012still don't see how that makes a random
nonnie or any other woman "just as bad" seeing as how the awful things men do has a bigger impact but whatever
No. 1248050
>>1248030she obviously isn't
just as bad i'm just being retarded
but i seriously can't stand catty bitches like this on here who think they're so clever
maybe you aren't as bad as a rapist moid, but you are still an annoying piece of shit and i hate you
No. 1248058
>>1248050Nta, but saying women can’t say they’re better then men is retarded. Also, depends on what you post and say. Like anons calling everyone fattie yet being
triggered when they’re called retard ana-chans. Very ‘it cries as it strikes you’ behaviour’.
No. 1248080
>>1248058>>1248066nah, these rude annoying bitches can shut up and suck my clit, fuck em
>Women have every right and justification to say they’re better than menthey really don't
just because you aren't killing and raping doesn't mean you aren't a harmful degenerate too
but i know everyone on this site gets off on pretending they're superior to moids just because they "aren't violent" (aka, they're indoctrinated by female socialization), i'm guilty of it too, so whatever
>>1248062s-shut up
No. 1248088
>>1248080For every degenerate dangerous woman there's at least 100 moids. Pretend all you want otherwise though
nonny.
No. 1248090
>>1248088not pretending, i hate moids
but i hate you too
No. 1248093
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>>1248050>>1248080>>1248090then just leave? why are you here?
No. 1248102
>>1248093because reading your retarded bullshit is amusing?
>>1248096>if you criticize women you're a scrote/scrote adjacent nlog typical lolcow npc response
you're braindead and probably under 18
No. 1248118
>>1248110ok cool
if i were angry i wouldn't be here
always weird when anons genuinely get worked up over some shitpost imageboard
>>1248113no, but whatever helps you cope with the fact that you are unlikeable and turn off other women to your fake "girl power" cause
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I feel like 90% of fights would be solved if some of you just ate something. Anything.
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>>1248132Alright, but just this once.
No. 1248201
Please help.
Any tips to confront an adult family member who’s choosing to not taking care of her mental illness and is making the rest of us miserable along with her?
She has eye and breathing issues coupled with severe anxiety, depression and self harming. This understandably makes her pissed off every day, makes it almost impossibly for her to make/keep friends, and she resorts to shutting herself in her room all day. The thing is; dad, my mom, grandparents and her few friends ALL are always begging her to please get help. She complains about it being too expensive: we’ve all offered to cover it all. She’s anxious of calling, weve offered to get her in contact with any ourselves. She says her eye and lung issues have no fixing because her previous cheap ass doctors didn’t catch the issue and that there are no treatments for it; we got in contact with surgeons who specialize on it and have offered to pay for it all. She just shuts down, cries, screams that we don’t understand her and she’s back to hikikomoring for months.
I’m sorry but I’m tired of “bailing” her out of the ER because she’s suicidal or hurt herself, I’m tired of the stress of knowing she doesn’t eat unless I put food outside her room, I’m tired of having to wash all of her dishes, cook for yer, and having her shut in all day and avoid us in our own home that we pay for, making us feel so unwanted in my own home. My grandparent’s have been sent to the ER several times recently from stress out of worrying about how she’s always treating us like shit, telling us she does it because she’s in pain, but immediately crying and running to her room when we beg her to please let us call, hire and pay a specialist for her.
She’s such a big proponent of “your own trauma doesn’t give you a free pass to be toxic to others”, isn’t this what she’s doing? She broke up with her only gf because she (the gf, in tears, deathly worried) told her she needed to stop pitying herself and putting effort in getting better. Guess who’s now complaining about how suicidal being single makes her feel.
She said she always wanted to go to Brazil so I saved up for years, sent me and the whole fucking family to Brazil, and she spent the whole week saying she loathed the food and complaining about her lungs/eyes hurting but screaming at us when we grabbed the phone to schedule a doctor. I hated every minute of the trip. I sobbed the whole flight back home because I felt so useless and under appreciated.
Am I being selfish for being tired and not understanding her? How should I bring up the topic? I love her more than anything and don’t want to give up. I want to force her to take my fucking money and accept our family’s offer to get in contact with specialists. I want her to be happy. I need her to be happy. I cry every night because I can tell I won’t be happy until she is. But how can I truly help?
No. 1248223
>>1248201Can you get like… an intervention? idk if therapists do that but she fucking needs one. You're not selfish, she's being selfish by not getting help when you're making it so easy for her. I'm assuming she's financially supported by your family, is she too disabled to work or does she refuse to work? That alone means she should be doing everything she can to improve her health and become independent.
Sorry, it's really hard to be sympathetic to her even though you're clearly coming at this from a place of love and concern. But maybe you need to be less nice about it? Like is she really so debilitatingly ill or is she just comfortable treating you like a personal servant and taking her anger out on others no matter how much it hurts the people around her? Sounds like she has no responsibilities, no obligation to moderate her emotions and doesn't have to lift a finger around the house, that's straight up taking advantage.
No. 1248232
had a suicide attempt a couple of month back and it’s weird that I feel myself looking back on it right now so fondly. before I would have passed out and actually died for real, I just had a burst of mental energy and I got angry at everything that depressed me. blazingly furious. I’d been in an accident that I have recovered from, but it left a very large, visible bulgy scar on my arm and I went from “safe but you should watch your weight” pre-accident to hitting obesity because I was bedridden and horribly depressed. when I recovered I was basically getting pushed out the door by my job since they replaced me during my medical leave. I’d admitted to liking 3 different people in the span of the year and got rejected by all of them, different reasons for each. I felt pathetic and unwanted.
today I’ve lost 10lbs officially. I’m successful in the new job I’ve got that paid even more than my previous job. I’m not pursuing anyone. Maybe one day. I’ve still got a lot to go, but I have the time to go to where I want to be. Fuck it all, positively. Fuck my old job. Fuck the people who rejected me, even if they had good reasons. Fuck myself for getting upset over some extra pounds. If you think I’m pathetic, fuck you too.
If I’m unwanted, fuck you, I’m staying.
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I genuinely wish I had a physical attraction to women because I’m sick of being physically and romantically attracted to men. I’ve tried in the past but it’s obviously something you can’t force, and it isn’t fair to toy with someone else like that either. It’s just causing me a lot of distress because even the men I’ve tried having platonic friendships with have done nothing but derived pleasure from hurting me or exploiting me in some way.
No. 1248245
>>1248223Honestly an intervention is sounding so so soooo tempting lol but she’s angry at us if we as much as gently ask her if she’s thought about emailing a psychiatrist or taking up on our offer to call a doctor on her behalf so she can start doing what she wants to do. We’re scared of her snarky venomous replies of how we don’t understand her, the meltdowns and cold shoulders. I’m terrified forcing an intervention could be traumatic and make her completely despise me altogether.
She does freelance from her room (language translations and sometimes art when her eyes arent hurting) and helps with about 1/3 of the rent/bills so she’s not 100% responsibility free, and although she doesn’t work nearly as many hours as I, I try not to be too hard on her because of her disability… even though when she’s crying from pain and we tell her we insist the goddamn fucking number of several people who CAN HELP, she just starts sobbing, telling us “it won’t work”, “maybe later”, “you just don’t understand how traumatic it is to be chronically sick” and other deflecting before running away and doing jackshit about it. Idk, maybe yes! I don’t understand it! but I fucking know that if you’re sick you need to at least be willing to walk towards the cure.
But you’re completely right, maybe I’m making it too easy on her. Maybe if we move out or have her move out and she’s forced to take more responsibility she’ll actually feel cornered into have the drive to look for help. But also I’m scared of like… what if that makes her sadder and I just drive her into going ahead and killing herself. Ughhhhh I’m so tired of this shit. I feel like I’m having to choose between cutting the red or the blue cable when all I’ve ever done is ask her what can I do to help and offer every waking hour of my day to try to improve hers. I do feel taken advantage of now, like you said.
Sorry I wrote so much lol thank you so much for replying
nonnie, I appreciate it and your kind words and I hope your morning goes fantastic. I will definitely keep your advice in mind.
No. 1248262
>>1248253Ruined by my parents/friends/etc. Usually bs that it's stupid, what's the point, waste of money, not good, better use of time, blah, blah, blah. Haven't been able to draw in years and any time I do, I hear their voices in my head which stop me. Usually ends up with me ripping it up and flushing it down the toilet. I miss painting too. It was relaxing and loved messing with colours.
>>1248256All I am to my parents really. Any convo goes back to them telling me I need to "just keep smiling" and to continue with what they want me to do. It's funny how they'll tell me they want me happy but when I express any negativity about what they want for me it's usually "but you're so good with people and people could really use your help". They want a daughter they can brag about and that she followed their advice. Neither went to uni so forcing their kids to live their dreams is perfect. They want grandkids too but I'm too afraid to tell them it isn't happening with me. I don't want to be married and no child deserves inheriting my issues plus I don't want them growing up seeing me sad all the time. I refuse to fuck up a child mentally just because they want grandkids. They never cared about my thoughts/opinions and barely listen to what I say as it is unless it's in their favor. Literally told them I was going to take a bath 3 times but they never listened. 30 minutes later my mom tells me she was looking for me. She didn't care after I told her.
No. 1248326
>>1248317It's worth seeing if there are ways to restore the sd card from another device, if you have a computer or laptop as well you can use a card reader and possibly? Restore what was on it.
I just searched 'restore sd card' and got a bunch of results. If you don't have access to a computer it's worth trying at a friends house (assuming you don't have a computer or you'd probably have backed the files up before now)
Wishing you luck getting your files back! Absolute shitty move by whoever designed that popup, surely it should have informed the user what it was gonna do. But I know 'deleted' never really means deleted with storage devices, so there is hope you can get the files back.
No. 1248400
>>1248390It is
Bad mothers are why handmaidens exist
No. 1248408
>>1248390>>1248392This is like talking to a brick wall. You know it’s fucking true, most mothers love to butter up their worthless shit sons and neglect their daughters. Some mothers actively let their daughters get raped and assaulted by the man they’re dating. Some mothers are jealous and petty and controlling over their daughter’s lives. Some mothers tell the daughter what to wear as if her own body is shameful by birth, but the son gets to show is disgusting chest and stomach. Some mothers delegate the impossible tasks of basically “mothering” the siblings to the daughter, while the son is free to do whatever he wants. Some mothers beat gender roles into their own daughters with no sensible option out of them, leading them to troon out or escape into the world of non-binary. Some mothers abuse their own daughters. I fucking
get it, fathers and men of the world enjoy our pain and love to murder us and rape us, but major pain can be afflicted in many other ways and it can be even worse if you’re still alive to experience it. I get that men can be bad, but it’s not fucking southern peach on the other side. Telling me to shut up and get over it is you admitting your ignorance and unwillingness to care, should have just said that shit instead of giving me your retarded replies.
No. 1248413
>>1248408Anon I’m not trying to fight you, but your mother wound is showing and it’s not my job to validate your mother trauma. You’re shitting up the thread and clearly had a take a lot of people didn’t want. No matter how you play it women neglecting their children still isn’t violence like physically
abusive or sexually
abusive fathers. Even among mothers that are
abusive physically the severity is typically different between men and women. Our mothers are also raised and groomed in the same cultures we are and normally have their own mother wounds. Is your mother truthly worse or are you projecting her to be because as the women in the room you hold her to a higher standard than your father? Because she could have cared and it’s easier to blame her?
No. 1248414
>>1248404Sure, but mothers let fathers throw their kids into walls.
t. my mom is a spineless piece of shit
No. 1248417
>>1248414Okay again. That’s horrible and shouldn’t have happened, but your mother didn’t throw you into the wall. She herself wasn’t violent unless she threw you anon. If your father was removed from the situation you wouldn’t have been. Do you see how an entire rant blaming just your mother would seem off base or disordered?
(My mother was similar and was a lot more emotional
abusive, but my father who was physically
abusive will always be worse. He could have killed me.)
No. 1248418
>>1248414Then why be against saying women are better than men
>>1248415 it only continues the cycle saying women shouldn't shit on scrotes and scrote worship.
No. 1248424
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>>1248420Wrong,
I give a fuck about my mom.
No. 1248425
>>1248417She was still negligent and emotionally
abusive (calling us worthless, ugly, etc). I'd honestly have rather just been beat by my father than be taught that I am worthless and unloveable. Which she allowed to happen anyway because she didn't care about us and cared more about preserving her relationship. She went on to date
another
abusive moid after she left my dad too.
>an entire rant As I said, not that anon, just saw the last couple posts in thread and wanted to respond because this idea that women are perfect and blameless and mothers are all saints is just plain naive and ignorant.
No. 1248429
>>1248419Ok, so just a mom. She treated my brother better after he was born but I can cut her slack and say that's just because he was born so much later than us.
>>1248426There is no nuance if no one is allowed to criticize women without being dogpiled, derided, and labeled anti-women.
No. 1248440
>>1248430As I said, the emotional abuse was far worse, and there are studies that prove the trauma from both is the same anyway.
>>1248431Ok, fair, if that's what was said. I didn't read all of her posts and I can't be bothered to because I'm drunk and this stupid site doesn't show replies like 4chin. Not scrolling through everything.
inb4; newfag, it's bothered me for years.
No. 1248453
>>1248442Yes, but an act of physical abuse and violence has to kill you. That is the escalation you are arguing in bad faith anon. My mother told me to hang from the ceiling fan as a child. I know that words hurt, but my father attempted to beat me to death. They are not the same. My mother was a
victim of a monster before she was my monster. I am not my mother. I never will be, but I am her daughter and part of growing up and healing was accepting that and letting her go at the same time because it wasn’t fair and it shouldn’t have happened. Both can be true. The explanations are not excuses and you’re allowed whatever boundaries you want. You jumped into a conversation you didn’t even read she was literally just shitting on all mothers as horrible people.
No. 1248454
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just found out queen victoria was a piece of shit lol
some lovely quotes from the queen:
>I am most anxious to enlist everyone who can speak or write to join in checking this mad, wicked folly of ‘Women’s Rights,’ with all its attendant horrors, on which her poor feeble sex is bent, forgetting every sense of womanly feelings and propriety. Feminists ought to get a good whipping. Were woman to ‘unsex’ themselves by claiming equality with men, they would become the most hateful, heathen and disgusting of beings and would surely perish without male protection.
>We women are not made for governing. [despite being a ruler herself]
>Let women be what God intended, a helpmate for man, but with totally different duties and vocations.
No. 1248462
>>1248456I feel like it can also lead to things like being angry at your mother for not leaving your father for cheating, instead of blaming your father for cheating and supporting your mother, and other projections anon. I don’t like seeing it either, it’s misleading and unhelpful to a lot or recovering abuse
victims that are recovering.
No. 1248464
>>1248448Lol to be fair, I am autistic and in your corner. I do see how it can be hard for someone who hasn't experienced abuse from women to keep up this delusional idea that all women are just perfect and moids are satan. I get it, and I wish I could too.
>>1248453Your mother wasn't a hapless
victim, she was an abuser. A full grown adult that chose to abuse a child. You were abused and you don't need to "accept" shit any more than you need you "accept" your father beating you. Which is not at all because fuck forgiving your abusers.
No. 1248478
>>1248470I'm not angry anon, just tired. I'm detached from both of my parents, so I only feel for anons who make excuses for
abusive women / their
abusive mothers. My mother can burn in hell chained to the moids she stuck by for years. She's a stupid bitch and I don't care about her supposed victimhood.
I don't think one can derail on /ot/, but if you think so.
There are a couple people replying, jsyk because it looks like you already accused someone else of being me.
No. 1248483
>>1248478I feel you so much. There’s a certain point in time you turn from being
victim to a perpetrator
No. 1248504
>>1248496Samefag, but I also feel like people who try to say that abusers are just
victims themselves or act like children with
abusive parents are wrong for being angry at them are terrible and probably will be abusers in one way or another. Fuck all of that "But she's your mother, you have to forgive her! Blood is thicker than water! Family comes first!" shit. She abused me. She stunted my life. It was basically sabotage out of the womb. Some people won't ever get it and will just continue to excuse
abusive parents or say the "hurt people, hurt people" thing.
No. 1248546
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>>1248527>unfortunate looksSo? Ugly/average people are the majority of the planet. They aren’t all miserable. You’re exaggerating your ugliness anyway.
>low intelligenceAre you clinically retarded? If no, you’re average like the rest of the world. What’s your idea of “high intelligence” anyway, what good is it? Are you sad that you don’t have the intellect to solve the worlds problems? Or are you sad that some shmoe may think less of you?
>no degree or anythingSo? Many people make something of themselves without a degree and many who do nothing with theirs. Can always get one.
>not an interesting personalityWhy? For whom? Are you an entertainer for the masses, a show animal? How many people in your own life do you actually find enthralling? Is your inner world not rich and complex to your own self? If no, that is easily remedied, and a very exciting purpose.
You shouldn’t base your worth around being “enjoyable to others” so much, when you don’t expect the same in others, and people worth a shit don’t expect those things of you.
No. 1248580
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i’m definitely just more “left” then i’d say most of the farmers on here are but i fundamentally agree on the conclusion most of us have reached on the troon death cult.
it’s hard because i see stuff i disagree with but i also feel like this is the only mostly feminist space that actually positions women as the most vulnerable so i can’t see myself leaving. any farmers feel the same way?
No. 1248624
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Why do most males have a horrid sense of style? My boyfriend is getting a haircut right now and it's the same as always. That fugly ass undercut in picrel. I love him for who he is but honestly it wouldn't hurt if he had some basic sense of style. Sheesh.
No. 1248638
>>1248545Both of you sound
toxic. Yeah, he's a dumb ass already for taking mind altering drugs in the woods with randos, but so are you for wanting to get 'revenge' instead of just breaking up and finding a non druggie boyfriend.
No. 1248641
>>1248627Male birds dress up and do adorable courting dances. Male penguins swim hundreds of miles looking for look for their spouse and offspring. They also mate for life.
Human males are worthless by comparison. vid related is one of my favorite bird courting dances
No. 1248676
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>>1248653There are several species of spiders and insects I can think of where females are larger and more extravagant than males, orb weavers being one (guess which is which)
Humans have chosen mating wrong females should be larger than males and consume them after they've finished their job
No. 1248680
>>1248666It's 5 years in.. how intense can the cuddling be? Enough to semi move out?
Tbh I had an ex who confused me by telling me my desire for some cuddle time on the weekends was suddenly smothering him.. I should've left. This was after already living together for a couple years so it's not like I was being too much. He made me question my own perceptions because it made no sense. That was the beginning of the end. Wish I'd been the one to just pack it in sooner. I'm sorry anon. It's a shitty feeling to be told you wanting cuddles is this terrible thing for him.
No. 1248687
>>1248641Human society would be so much better if men were like birds of paradise. Imagine if men needed to have their shit together before entering a relationship. They would need to have a house that was well decorated and clean, they would have to be groomed and well dressed. Only then would a woman even look in his direction.
>>1248666I wouldn't take it to too harshly as it's not personal, some people just need time alone. I'm like this. It doesn't matter how much I enjoy spending time with my friends or how much I love my husband, I get overwhelmed from constant socialising and I find it exhausting.
No. 1248724
>>1248653i don't think it's been entirely reversed, tbh. men still try to impress women in other ways, just not with their looks. they like to show off their money and resources (when they have them), drive expensive cars, wear luxury watches, etc. i agree that it's nowhere near the effort that birds put in though.
most importantly, when men try to show off, they want to impress other men first. remember that all men are latent homosexuals
No. 1248728
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My sister is gonna come out as a themby at some point, I just know it. I've never talked with her about her retarded she/they pronouns on bio from twitter and tik tok, I can deal with that, but the moment she actually tells me, she's gonna now I have radfem views and I it's definitely gonna taint our relationship if she doesn't peak
No. 1248744
>>1248728Brace yourself,
nonnie. If she's been brainwashed by twitter and tiktok she's hardly gonna peak.
No. 1248759
>>124874020 years old.
>>1248744Yup, she's a terminally online tik tok user. She also "kins" a danmei character and refuses to call herself a fujo even tho she's obsessed with gay danmei and manga.
She's a manhater and antiporn tho, so maybe there's hope for the future.
No. 1248801
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Who does vogue think they are that they can sell hoodies for 160€??
No. 1248840
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I wanna text this faggot so badly i wanna tell him how much i hate him and how much he hurt me and broke my trust but i also wanna tell him to come fuck me cuz im horny. I wanna beat his ass i hate him i hate moids
No. 1248962
>>1248919Does she have her own private bathroom on her side or do you share one?
I've lived in various shared apartments and houses and I've dealt with some awkward mystery smells. One was a scrote who hated the shared bathroom so was doing stuff in his room to avoid people hearing him use the bathroom… the other was a woman who left used sanitary towels laying around for way too long in the summer heat in her own private bathroom. It was always some sort of bodily waste sitting around.
No. 1249004
>>1248962Jesus, that sounds awful. The three of us are sharing a 2 bedroom 2 bathroom
>>1248958I don’t see what wrong letting her move in with her cat? And it’s a service animal so I’m not going to be a cunt and tell her she can’t bring it. I just feel uncomfortable because I don’t know the best way to address it without hurting her feelings, but I’m not sure if that’s possible. I just hate causing drama. Someone told me to never live with your friends and I think I understand now, as I would have no issue bringing it up with a stranger. I’ll try bringing it up to her, I just have to figure out how to go about it first
No. 1249104
>>1249103Happy birthday
nonnie! You deserve better
No. 1249137
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>>1249103Happy birthday, sweet nonnette. Sorry people can be cruel and insensitive. You deserve sweet people in your life and don't let anyone ever tell you otherwise. Please tell me you at least had something sweet to eat to celebrate you ♥
No. 1249157
>>1249004nta, but just bring it up. It's a legitimate concern, if you're going to live with others you need to suck it up and let them know when somethings wrong. This isn't a personal attack on her, if her feelings get hurt, its her fault. Babying her won't be good for either one of you.
>>1249050Same. I legitimately can't understand how people can put their mouth that close to someone's butthole without vomiting, even if it was 'cleaned'
No. 1249184
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>>1249103Happy Birthday,
nonnie!
I'm not trying to say this to take the attention off of you at all… I've been there and I know how lonely it is. First few months of lockdown, my birthday came. I wake up on the day and check my phone. I was so excited, I missed everyone so much at that point. Nothing. Maybe the notifications aren't working? Maybe it's too early in the day and everyone is sleeping in? All day, nothing. Immediate family only. A large portion of my friends have bdays close to mine and I reached out for every single one… Some only days before… Nothing. Of course I cried too, it just feels awful.
You have every right to feel the way you do. Do something nice for yourself even if it has to be tomorrow. This feeling is so hard but it doesn't last forever. You WILL find people who love and appreciate you, who keep you in mind. You WILL learn to put yourself first. Virtual hugs, anon.
P.S. Don't make my mistake and cling to a shitty new friend right after this, focus on yourself for a while if you can. Manipulative assholes can literally smell loneliness. That's not to say to not be open to new people, but be aware and don't let isolation cloud your judgement. No. 1249186
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>>1249103Happy birthday, nonna ♥ I know exactly how you feel, this happend to me over and over again and it still hurts every time. Hope you did something nice for yourself and find better friends and people that care about you in the future.
No. 1249191
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I've always been fat but gained a lot of weight in the past few years and now I'm very obese and I'm starting to realize things wont get better. I work at physical job and my knees can barely take it, I have asthma and feel sick all the time. In couple years I will be too fat to do this job and I have no degree and no idea what non-physical job I could get. I'm 30 and I always used to tell myself that I would get my shit together one day but now I have to admit it will never happen. I have never had any self-discipline whatsoever and the longest diet has lasted for me is one week. Binge eating feels completely compulsive to me and I know I will never,ever stop. I will eat myself to death and I imagine this will happen within the next ten years. I've had therapy, meds and I'm even on antidepressants now but obviously they can't make me stop being a fat slob. I know what's wrong with my diet and what I should change, I just wont do it. I guess I just realized that I'm starting to think of the rest of my life like someone with terminal illness, I'm just coming to terms that this will kill me and emotionally working to accept it and arrange my life accordingly.
No. 1249192
My parents have been shitting on me all day. I’ve been the butt of all their jokes, and all of their criticism. I can’t fucking say anything back to them, because if I do, there’ll be a whole fight of how I’m ungrateful and a shitty daughter. I’m already a disappointment in their eyes. They constantly call me lazy and ugly, and I’ve been the only thing They’ve been talking about all day. Literally everything I do, they’ll shit on it. I was using wooden spoons, and she kept shitting on that too. I made a drawing, and she said it looks sad. She said I looked sad, but doesn’t account for the amount of times that she’s constantly shitting on me all day. How can I be fucking happy if I’m hearing someone criticize me 24 fucking seven? I know I shouldn’t blame all of my lack of motivation on other people, but my family literally gives me no motivation to do anything at all in my life. I fucking hate living in their household, but I’m chronically Ill and trying to recover, so I can’t improve my situation very much at the moment.
No. 1249204
>>1249191Hi
nonnie. I know your situation is bad, but you sound like you’re being to hard on yourself. It’s harder to change when you focus on blaming and being angry at yourself. Shit happened, your in a situation. You can’t change the past but you can better your future.
Maybe try to see a dietician or read up on some books regarding binge/emotional eating. Even if you don’t suffer from it, they can be very insightful and beneficial in other manners. It is never too late to change. If changing your diet is too hard for you right now, then try exercising. I know you said your knees hurt a lot, so don’t push yourself too hard. Just try walking a certain amount every day and if you maintain the exact same diet you’ll lose at least a little bit of weight. It should be enough to motivate you to change your diet once the time comes. Just make sure to take things easy due to your asthma and practice Stretching and other pre/post workout routines to prevent yourself from experiencing too much pain. Things will get better
nonnie, just don’t forget to believe in yourself.
Sorry if you didn’t want my input and just wanted to vent. I used to be obese so I feel very sympathetic to people who are suffering due to it. I really hope it isn’t the reason the world loses you. I hope everything works out for you.
No. 1249220
>>1249215Oh lol, I didn't read the entire thread, idk what luelinks is
Still, very sad that there are women out there who will subject themselves to this
No. 1249225
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For some reason my mom has been hyper focusing (I guess you could say?) on her weight so much to the point where she's starting to latch onto me because I guess just worrying about her damn self isn't enough. She's even starting to insult random fat people we drive by. I have to tell her to shut the hell up or I ask her what tf her deal is. I'll laugh at a fat person once in a while if they do some stupid shit, but ones that are literally just standing there or taking a walk? She's been such a dark cloud of negativity lately it's miserable. I'm normal yet I guess I'm not up to whatever standard she is trying to put herself in when she's fucking fat herself.
No. 1249235
>>1249203>>1249206>>1249214I'm european and I don't think any of those drugs are easy or even possible to get here unfortunately. I'm on wellbutrin which should have appetite suppressing effect but hasn't made difference for me. And surgery requires first losing weight I believe to show that you are committed, which I could never manage.
>>1249204Thanks. I appreciate the sympathy but yeah I was just venting. I'm not looking for any advice anymore since I think I've kinda heard and read about everything and I've accepted that my lack of self-control is the issue.
No. 1249242
>>1249184> Manipulative assholes can literally smell loneliness.NTA but hell, I get what you mean. My last birthday I tried to remind everyone the day before. When the day came, no one texted me, so I can texted them and asked if they were free. They ignored me. I just felt like shit, obviously, and felt shit about feeling like shit because there was this part of me that was ashamed of wanting to be remembered. What am I? 15? But I didn’t want a party or anything. Just a text.
Was lonely afterwards. Tried to make friends. Like you said; it’s almost like they can smell it. And on a certain level, they know it. Thing is a big part of me could see that and was practically screaming at me to act dignified and stop acting like that, but a smaller, little-child, bleeding-open part of me just wanted to go on with the ruse a little longer. Even if it was humiliating because you could see it in their eyes. Even if you got the sense that both of you exactly knew what was going on but maintained an air of plausible deniability about it.
Eventually they stopped talking to me. After a while you get out of that almost-manic phase that loneliness leaves you in — when you’re so starved you’re gaping-hollow, having these fantasy landscapes of idealized normiedom informed by various media even so much as
inch at becoming a reality sends you crazy. Like a really poor person who’s now making six figures and impulsively buying all the stuff they can’t afford. Or an anachan, after having held off for so long, eating, and eating, and eating — anyway, you kind of realize how you were just a tiny dot in their entire world. They didn’t even grant you Full Personhood. You were barely an NPC or a side character. You name isn’t even in the credits. You start thing about how probably thought low of you and, fuck, you just humiliated yourself now. And you start to realize that a not insignificant amount of people can smell that loneliness, like you’re manic with it. They can speak to you and tell right away. They can tell how one single unimportant random social interaction shoots your dopamine up like a struggling alcoholic drinking from a keg like it’s God’s one last well on earth.
Yeah. I’m sour tonight. No. 1249300
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>>1249297They're so desperate for our attention no matter what they think we look like lmao. I mean, can you imagine ever going to 4chan solely to bait moids into talking to you, solely to interact with anyone of the opposite sex?
No. 1249344
>>1249336>>1249340Kek or Whisper. Stay safe,
nonny.
No. 1249431
>>1249428You can do it
nonnie!
No. 1249670
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My fear of climate change is becoming an obsession. It’s all I can think about, all day long. Not even my old “I’ll just kill myself when things get bad” cope works because my life is actually pretty good right now and I don’t want to die or lose the things I care about. When I think about it it makes me feel like puking from fear.
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>>1249670Didn't read post, tired cat combo
No. 1249737
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>>1249670I’ve mostly come to terms with it. I feel like a Bronze Age farmer and I can see the Sea Peoples on the horizon. Absolutely nothing I do will stop them from coming so I may as well grow some nice barley in the meantime.
No. 1249788
>>1249761Come drink a cup with me
(But also, i heard mushroom “coffee” is a good replacement)
No. 1249790
>>1249761you gotta taper off
nonnie, or else you're gonna feel like you have the flu.
No. 1249791
>>1249788Yeah, I'm drinking now because I couldn't function propely. Let's drink together
nonny!
>mushroom “coffee”Never heard of that, I'm gonna search about it, ty!
No. 1249827
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Damn, working in retail really do be giving me brain damage. Also my feet hurt.
No. 1249903
>>1249893thank you anon. i am going to have to hide her thread now because i am just so sickened. it really hurts me that real csa
victims, especially younger ones will see this and try to relate to her. she's using other people's trauma as a toy. it's just too horrible.
No. 1250046
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Watching that twitch clip an anon linked in the MTF thread of some tranny trying to mimic a toddler crying is probably the most disturbing thing I’ve ever seen.
No. 1250052
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How do I stop being so insecure and upset over my LDR boyfriend? The thing is, he's never (that I can remember of) done this with real women, so I know I'm in the wrong here. Although it's gotten to a point where I get upset when he talks to women with girly names in video games or calls a fictional character cute.
Almost everytime theres a character with big boobs he'll make some comment about it like 'booba', which especially makes me feel bad because I have small boobs. I try not to be insecure about my body and I know he loves my boobs as well but still.
I really don't want to bring these things up because I know how petty they are and how insecure it makes me look, but I can't go on like this. I don't know what to do
No. 1250062
>>1250052You sound underaged but it's not petty or wrong for you to tell your bf not to comment on his attraction to other women's bodies in front of you. But really what you should do is dump him. Imagine having a gf with
real live boobs and not being obsessed with them.
No. 1250079
>>1250076Aw its OK nonna. My ex bf could not drive a bicycle either (he is on the spectrum and his coordination is way off). That's alright. I found it endearing. If you want, you can tell your coworkers you have motor issues next time they bring it up. I bet they will feel like assholes and will never bring it up again.
Or you know, just ignore them. Nosey pricks! Walking is one of the best forms of exercise, so there's that.
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WHY IS HE NOT REAL AAAAAAAARRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHH
NO I DO NOT WANT TO TOUCH GRASS
I WANT TO FONDLE HIS STRONG UNDERARMS AND TOUCH HIS CHEST
I CANNOT TAKE THIS ANYMORE GIVE ME MY HUSBANDO OR GIVE ME DEATH
No. 1250102
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I think depression has literally rotted my brain. I can’t recall things like I use to, and even removing weed and alcohol from my life doesn’t get the long term memories back. I’m on some strong ass shit for my depression and I still feel like life isn’t worth living. I’m only 30 and childhood memories are foggy at best, even when friends recall things like my birthday to the tiniest detail. I’m trying to keep my brain together and better by doing things like learning a language but the details of my life and me as a person are beginning to fade. Idk man it just sucks feeling like you’re 60 when you’ve got 3 decades to go before then.
No. 1250103
>>1250076>>1250079Why are you guys acting like this is such serious business lol, motor issues? Trying to make people feel bad for asking a simple question? Come on…
I'm not keen on bike riding and if anyone asked why I'd be like "I'm unco, I'd probably crash into a pole lol" and nobody would give a fuck because why would you
No. 1250104
>>1250103because it sounds like the
nonnie feels bad because her coworkers often ask her why she doesn't bicycle? I suggested being honest and putting an end to the issue.
Nonny is clearly autistic and is not comfortable handling the situation in the way you might so I offered another solution. People on the spectrum have legit motor control issues, it comes with the diagnonsis. Why you gotta be a bitch about it?
No. 1250110
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Moid friend confessed his undying love for me. Pretty pissed off considering I had never said anything to give the impression I liked him, in fact I was always moping about some other scrote whenever we spoke including a few days before he confessed. He has only been single a few weeks, whilst he had a gf I always told him to say hi to her for me and I can’t wait to meet her, after their breakup he made a few comments that made me feel uncomfortable about how I didn’t need too lose weight because it was more to cuddle uwu but I just ignored it and changed convo because it made my skin crawl and it’s hard for me to confront friends. Before he confessed I felt he was also getting clingy so I backed off and just told him I’m stressed and busy so obviously he thought this would be the perfect time to stress me out even more and drop this bombshell ruining our friendship because such romance. I was busy that day out with a friend and find it extremely ill mannered to use my phone in company and he blew up my phone with tons of panicked text messages, the next day I was hungover and he messaged me again, I didn’t want to deal with it and I was becoming increasingly annoyed with his push for me to respond and increasingly awkward with each message, I went in to automatic avoid mode. I thought I would deal with it when I had time to calm down, think and reply but that time wouldn’t come. Every. Fucking. Day. more texts would come through, and then on other apps, anything to get a crumb of attention I just had no mental capacity to give. The more it drove me away and up the wall, not only that but it caused me to reflect really badly on my past relationships including the scrote I was already mending myself over “did I make his skin crawl like this” “did he feel like this about me even though I didn’t message him to this extent”; it was really selfish imo to put me in such a shitty position knowing I was stressed already. Despite all the “forget I said anything” texts which were clearly a beg for a response, he sends me a 278 word text of r/niceguy tier shit about how he ‘just likes me OK in a way these other guys don’t’ followed by more sorry messages. Keeping in mind I had not replied once, this guy was talking to himself at this point. I flipped and told him to chill out and I need space as I told him I was stressed and he’s dumping all this shit on to me. He apologised and blamed his “auwutism adhd brain teehee” and said he will give me space and to message him when I want to talk again. Do you think he gave me space? I think hell the fuck not. Only 3 days later he is still fucking sending me messages and replying to my photos and any other shit he can. Everyone has told me I should block him but it feels so harsh to block someone I considered a good friend who was there for me when I really needed a friend, but then again he was probably just waiting for his chance to swoop in like a vulture. He messaged me AGAIN about half an hour ago about how he’s so alone and not doing well… the last I messaged him was one week ago today saying I want space, stressed and don’t need him dropping shit on me and he’s sent me 5+ messages since followed by a trauma dump. Why do smelly moids not understand boundaries?!?
No. 1250119
>>1250110Because they are moids. This happened to me with a male friend because I set boundaries. Me keeping those boundaries and telling him that every time he breaks them pushes me away further made his blood boil and now he thinks I hate all men because I didn’t coddle him and I’m a lesbian. He’s punishing my other friend (his now ex) by drawing out legal stuff with a house all the while repeatedly telling her how
toxic I am. They cannot be saved trust me.
No. 1250124
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BF broke up with me.
I deserved it for some glaring reasons and am looking forward to taking this time to work on myself and hopefully he'll work on his issues but man, it sucks not having him in my life anymore. My brain is just hyperfixating on repairing the damage when I've already done all I can and we need time to just heal ourselves but this sucks ass because he may never make the move to talk things out so I just have to deal!!!
No. 1250127
>>1250124I'm sorry
nonnie. I broke up with my BF 6 months ago. It gets easier with time. For now, just do whatever you need to to feel better.
No. 1250133
>>1250102I sometimes feel the same
nonny. My childhood memories have all become very foggy, and I'm only 22. On the other hand that means I'm also starting to forget more embarrassing or negative memories. Don't focus on the past, keep trying to learn new things and believe in yourself.
No. 1250305
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>>1250143Mods are awful on that board, I wish they'd delete it and move here so mods can ban all the psycholitas and incels that make bait threads or reply to themselves over and over.
No. 1250426
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I find this youtuber Salem Tovar to have a really annoying face and way of speaking, I don't know why. Her voice and mannerisms come across pretentious to me. the thumbnails make me cringe when they pop up
No. 1250436
>>1250349Lol
nonny same here. Do you have astma as well?
No. 1250482
>>1250448Thanks nona. We've talked about my fears and her fears a lot although at first I felt very ashamed and selfish about it especially since she's had to go through infertility treatments. But we discovered it's not actually that uncommon close friends feel this way, it just isn't talked about.
She's the best but I'm tired of being scared of what will come. That's on me though and I'm working on it.
No. 1250487
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My entire mom's side of the family is completely fucked. I kind of want to commit genocide. I'm not sure how it is on my dad's as I'm not close with them anymore.
No. 1250514
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i just started my period and I’ve lost my brand new packet of tampons, i can’t find them anywhere, it’s late and the local store is closed and the far away one has roads flooded and i can’t get there safely
i have period undies on. i feel like a gross blob. i hate this.
No. 1250521
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>>1250490Buy something that remineralizes teeth like picrel
No. 1250527
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My cat got run over by a fucking car right in front of me a few days ago. Sometimes im okay with it, sometimes I feel like i let him down and it's my fault, sometimes i wish I could've done something, sometimes I just feel so fucking bad that he got so hurt and had a painful death before even expecting it. I can't stop replaying the way he twitched and how i saw him after he got run over, I really don't want to but my mind is playing sick tricks on me. It hurts so much. He was 8 years old but he still had so many years to live - he was so fluffy, all our neighbors said how beautiful a cat he was. Fuck, I am so, so, so sorry Grisha. I already miss you so much. You didn't deserve that. You didn't deserve me, either.
No. 1250529
>>1250527I'm so sorry
nonnie that sounds traumatic and horrible. Did the person even try to stop? What the fuck is wrong with people?
I lost my kitty when he had lots of years on him too and I felt I didn't deserve him either. But you have every right to feel sad and I'm sure he still loved you
No. 1250537
>>1250529yes, to be fair to the driver she did stop and offered to drive us to a vet when we weren't sure if he was completely gone. He wasn't standing right on the road, he ran under it last second.I hope his body went into some kinds of state of shock, which would make it almost painless. I hope he's in cat heaven eating all the fish and drinking all the milk he wants.
>>1250531Yeah, it's not him exactly but pretty much. He was so pretty.
>>1250533I'm sorry. If you have a pet, pet it right now, give them all the love you have. I didn't know it would end like this when my cat was just taking a walk.
No. 1250598
>>1250581I want to believe that really hard. But I know of some sociopath moids who do it on purpose so whenever I see a slain animal on the road I just assume it was because of some heartless fucker. I try not to think about these things but hard not to.
But yes. May Grisha kitty rest in peace.
No. 1250636
I'm so tired of my friend's situation… I like her and I want her to be happy but I've reached the point where I just don't know what to do anymore, I'm so drained. She's depressed, has a few other mental issues too and her supervisor at work is abusing her for over a year now, making things this much worse. I've always been her support and person to vent to, and did what I could to help along with other coworkers and friends from the outside too. But even after such a long time she refuses to do anything, just talks about how her current situation is ruining her but is "too tired" to do anything about it, even if people hand it to her on a silver platter, I helped her book therapy appointment, she "forgot" to attend, a friend has an opening for her at a different company, she doesn't even want to send a CV because it's "too much"… I see her suffering but there's no more I can do to help and it drags me down because I'm constantly worried about her and stressed about my own inability to do anything. I know it's easy to say "just leave her be", it's hard though when it's a friend. She has every mean to handle her situation, stable, pretty high income (higher than mine and I'm above country's average), own flat, multiple caring friends, yet she's just so apathetic. I'm exhausted anons
No. 1250692
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Really wish my brain wouldn’t immediately think cock and ball torture whenever I see the letters CBT
No. 1250710
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I am currently traveling with friends but there is this girl I don't know very well with our group. First she booked her hotel 50 miles away from us, and one of my friends went to go pick her up and it took 2 hours in traffic.. After she got picked up and came to our restaurant we chose to eat at, she didn't like any of the food and barely ate anything. And then my friend had to drive her back to her hotel. Another hour of traffic.
She's cheap, she insists she doesn't owe me money for dinner because she used her card (not true, I paid for the whole table). She constantly gets sick on our trip to places so we have to pull over and let her puke in some toilet. She slept in for 2 hours from our scheduled departure time and then took 50 minutes to do her makeup.
My friends don't see any problem with this. Are they too nice or something? I feel like I'm going insane with how inconsiderate she is. I have paid for parking everyday and bought food for everyone. All she did was give 20 dollars for gas after my friend spent basically 6 hours picking her up. Also this was after 4 days of driving her around.
I am rethinking my friend group. They want to do this next year but I am honestly upset with how badly organized this trip is. I have known them for years online and this was my first time meeting them in person and..it just sucked half the time. I knew they were mentally ill from our vent sessions but I didn't think they'd be this inconsiderate and clueless about social norms.
No. 1250785
>be me
>starting new meds, sad, want to kill myself
>4th of july weekend
>make plans to try to hang out with 2 friends for yesterday to watch a movie and hang out, have something to look forward to & distract myself from becoming anhero thoughts
>yesterday comes and goes, nobody remembers/can make it to movie night by the time i remind them, we try to reschedule for today. friend #2 basically just requests 'before or after sunset' so they can catch a fireworks show.
me: 'this is what friend #2 conveyed. when do you want to hang out'
friend #1: 'after sunset'
me: [checks sunset time] 'i mean that's at 8:30 and the movie's 2 hours so that would make me get home really late, and i gotta be up by 6am'
them: 'well i have something do do at 4pm'
me: 'what about 6pm then?'
them:
me: 'hey can you get back to me so if this isn't going to work i can make other plans?'
them: 'i guess the scheduling tomorrow just isn't going to work then'
i fucking
i was bluffing, it's impossible to make plans at the last minute on a national holiday. i'm upset with my friend now because waiting for them to schedule a time feels like it made me waste my entire weekend and they're acting ?? like i'm being unreasonable because i was trying to accommodate a third party who LITERALLY said they were available all day so how much more open a schedule could be, i do not know. and if friend #1 knew he was going to be busy all afternoon until sunset i don't know why he told me we could move the movie-watching session to today in the first place.
it would be one thing if i could just go to friend #1's place and hang out and watch the movie there, but it's a rare polish DVD from the 80's and NEITHER OF US OWN DVD PLAYERS.
today was supposed to be the first day i'd get to socialize in like a week and i feel like i waited around excited to get to see friends and now not only do i realize that was a waste of my time, i also don't even really want to consider one of them a friend anymore. i should just shrug it off and say 'fuck that guy' but after two years of scarce contact because of COVID-19, i feel like i don't have enough friends to easily discard even one, and my medical issues are probably going to make it a lot harder to make new ones from now on because it's become a huge pain in the ass to go out to events and do the activities where i used to make friends.
i realize some part of this is probably just the side-effects these meds have on your emotions but realizing that doesn't make it hurt any less.
No. 1250789
>>1250785it would be one thing if i could just go to friend #2*'s place and hang out
confused myself there with the codenames
No. 1250811
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I have to get an apartment in a fairly large city within two months. I have no idea what I'm doing, I've been in two different apartments before but had to end both leases early (neither my fault) but yeah, I don't have any references really. If I had a room mate that would be a big help but I don't know how to find a room mate and I'm scared of people. Also I have cats making the whole thing harder. Everything feels so hard.
No. 1250826
>>1250785I wish I could’ve attended your plans instead
nonnie, I fucking hate when people ruin plans last moment.
No. 1250831
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>>1250598I hate them so fucking much..
No. 1250846
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I hate my life. I've been working in my company for a year and despite not lacking in anything technically wise, I'm not as social as my non autistic coworkers, I didn't become "part of the team", I have issues with communication skills etc. I never made any mistake unlike some of them. But they chat with our manager like you would chat with a friend, something I can't do. I think overall that's why they get better opportunities and certain tasks more often than me. Finally, today I got the task I've been waitig to get since weeks, and my team leader told me
all right so you're going to be responsible for this stuff for the whole week. I was so happy. It meant I did ok. But I've been feeling unwell since sunday, my throat hurt a lot. Today at work I felt terrible, my muscles hurt, I was dizzy all the time, but I wanted to finish the task even if I would faint. I came back home. I'm this anon
>>1250076 who has to go to work by foot. So I was terribly tired. I checked my temperature now and my fiver is a little above fucking 102. My spine hurts, I feel like shit, but I want to go to work tomorrow so fucking bad, or at least on wednesdsy, even though they won't pay me for 1 day off, my company only starts paying if you're absent for 3 days or longer. Fuck nonnies what are the quickest ways to get rid of fever??
No. 1250921
>>1250895Ayrt, you're so right. It comes only from a fear of being shut out or getting in trouble. Some of my wokest friends have expressed some things that go against their 'agenda' when it was just the two of us. Then when we're in a group, their whole personality seems to disappear. It's too bad, I love hearing other people's opinions and talking about them in a normal, calm way. When you say anything now (especially on social media) you have to be extra careful because if you word something wrong you'll be dubbed as some awful person. As if everyone's perfect all the time. At least I'm lucky to have some
2 friends who aren't afraid of the rest and a family that I can talk to and have interesting conversations instead of the same old same old. I just wish people could talk about differing opinions normally, or at least weren't afraid to even say them.
No. 1251152
I wish big cities weren't so expensive to live in. I was in the biggest city of my country yesterday for a day and I love everything about it. I love the little shops everywhere, the interesting cool looking people and the anonymity of it all. I could never afford it, I hope I can someday. I'm tired of my boring hometown, tired of being the village freak. I wish I was born in a big city, I've lived in suburban hell for all of my life and I'm so tired of it. I can't go to the forest without hearing cars but at the same time there's nothing to do down here. I'm going to study law next year, I hope I can get a well paying job and live there after I've finished. But then again, when I'm a proper adult with a full time job I won't have time to party, or even want to be there. Guess I'll just make use of my free public transport (student pass) next year and go there every weekend kek.
>>1251148Tbf that anon indeed sounds autistic as fuck. Someone doesn't like your joke, big deal.
No. 1251193
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My boyfriend isn't responding to my messages and I think I'm going to have a mental breakdown about it.
No. 1251220
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Realizing I was the practice gf and he's going to treat the next girl how he should have treated me
No. 1251234
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Going through my favorite songs from 5+ years ago and crying about the (just slightly) better past, why am i doing it to myself anons
No. 1251278
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Was unfortunately reminded the other night that 3DPD moids are real. Now I'm having a hard time enjoying my anime husbandos because I keep being thinking of him holding me and how revolting it felt.
No. 1251284
>>1251263I feel like most summerfags are underage lol, whatever they'll be gone soon enough.
>>1251140 is definitely underage though, no adult (or even older teen for that matter) would make such a big deal about that.
No. 1251318
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I actually think my nephew is a cunt and has attention deficit shit just like my sister has. My niece has also been cornered into this weird "girls only wear pink and can't play with cars" hell, I fucking can't stand that shit. Inb4 somenonny asks why I don't do anything about it, we don't live in the same city and I'm risk group so I don't get to hang out that much lately and whenever I do, I try to play with my niece with the stuff she actually wants to play with.
No. 1251338
>>1250653Ok I'm gonna "break up" with my friend. I'll just give her the birthday present and just never hang out with her again. I can't be feeling upset and angry like this over somebody I've only hung out with for a few months.
I talked to my Nigel about it and he said I can decide to not be friends with someone for any reason I want and he's so right.
Even if this was my fault somehow, it just means we're both
toxic and still shouldn't hang out. I feel a lot better now
No. 1251358
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A close friend told me a couple days ago that she is dependent on alcohol and can’t stop drinking. I already knew from her lifestyle but ever since her dad died a couple years ago I’ve been real worried about her. I never thought she’d admit how bad it was. She also had a circle of friends who were coke heads at one point and told me how ashamed she was she couldn’t stop using but she seems to have cut all those people/vice out of her life. She says she gets drunk and goes on Reddit searching for tips on attending AA or NA and so far she’s been invited to a zoom meeting and she has been making plans to go to a irl meeting in the future. I have hope but I’m so scared. She told me yesterday that she tried not to drink but did anyway and then stayed up all night getting more drunk. She’s hiding her behavior from her mom (who also is a functioning Alchie, along with almost every immediate relative) and even wants to keep her AA plans a secret from her entire family and support network in case they judge her for the severity of her problem. She has other worries too that are blown out of proportion due to her anxiety and I’m afraid those fears will keep her from making friends in AA and a better support group in her life. as I have an understanding of addiction I’m afraid this is a hopeful phase for her before she hits a harder rock bottom like fuck. I know all I can do is be there for her
What even is all this
No. 1251382
>>1251358I’m sorry
nonny, it’s tough being worried about a friend like that. Honestly if she’s serious about recovering she should look for a living situation where she won’t be around other alcoholics, functioning or not
No. 1251426
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I just want to vent with pic related; the case messes with me quite a lot, even though they managed to find her alive; the suspect is Noah Madrano. Ten days before he took her from her family and friends, he uploaded on KBOO, a radio station in Oregon, a segment of phone sex with an underage girl, and before that, talked about bringing one across state lines.
It’s at the 21:00 mark here:
https://www.podchaser.com/podcasts/sub-human-intellect-theater-226166/episodes/sub-human-intellect-theater-on-141893904You can get an MP3 rip here:
https://kboo.fm/sites/default/files/episode_audio_b/kboo_episode.2.220613.2300.4023.109912.mp3They scrubbed the episode in question, and are scrubbing the rest of the show (although you can still find the individual pages for eps via Google) and blocking people who call them out on their social media profiles. They at first told me they had no idea who the girl was when I brought it up to them, and then as pressure mounted, made statements on Twitter/Facebook before going to the media, all of which amount to "we didn't do anything, it's not our fault we didn't oversee who used our station," blah blah blah. The usual suspects are in force too, one even saying it's "political sabotage" from "right wingers" despite one of the most vocal on their Facebook being an indigenous woman who is an advocate for her fellow girls and women. My heart hurt for her so much when her father said she was aware of the search efforts and all….and it turns out the guy who hurt her is as much of a typical looking scrote as you can imagine, too.
No. 1251439
>>1251432I'm so sorry nona, it's always extremely hard and hurting to see someone we love go through a hard time. I lost my baby girl/senior kitty a few months ago and in her final moments and nearing that stage- I just made a beautiful box of blankets for her, and pet her and played kitty music and had some incense lit for her and made it dim.. she passed away after I was awake for 2 days with her and got too exhausted to keep my eyes open, after my eyes finally closed while holding her paw, she let herself slip away.. I woke up less than 10 minutes after I realized I passed out (my phone was still playing the YouTube video) and I was devastated. She just held on so hard because she knew.. and when she knew I was ok too, she moved to the next phase of life. I feel so sad thinking about her but also comforted when I realize she knew.. I hope you will feel at peace knowing your baby is so loved and knows it. And that things will be okay.. I wish I could give you so many hugs
nonny. I know it's not much but I'll be thinking about you and keeping you close.
No. 1251542
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>work at a super market
>the 'karens' we deal with are usually male elderly baby boomers who ask us to do stupid shit
>get one of those today
>he's bitching about plastic bags and wants paper
>try to tell him paper bags are limited to people doing check out who orders ahead of time
>he spergs out and demands I get paper anyway
>tell manager this and he lets me get the paper bags so he stops throwing a fit
>I do the work
>he proceeds to demand that I replace all the plastic with paper (lol good luck with that bud), and tells me that this store is not ""environmentally friendly"" enough
>mfw 1/3 of the workers (including me) walk to work
>mfw this waste of flesh is going to drive home then drive to the hospitals to waste even more electricity so his fat ass can live for several more years
Christ I can't stand baby boomers, especially when they claim to be environmental heroes. And I got one the other day that said he pitied us young people because muh plastic bags. These retards really think that plastic bags will somehow create an apocalypse. There's customers that will sometimes put their stuff into the cars, then walk up to the recycle bin to recycle the plastic bags and 100% its all young people. Are these baby boomers projecting their shit practices or are they that stupid?
Maybe strap yourself onto a nuke and fling yourself to China; along with being modern Nazi Germany, that country alone contributes to most of the pollution being done globally.
No. 1251601
>>1251594Those sound like answers someone having too much on their plate atm would give
Maybe it's not about you maybe it's about her
No. 1251606
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I stumbled upon some "anime journalist"'s blog and it made me so fucking angry that I made a collage of all the disgusting shit they defend. SUPPOSEDLY it's a woman writing this stuff but I'm seriously wondering if it's a troon. A troon or a very, very gigantic pedophile defender pickme.
No. 1251626
>>1251620Run,
nonny. RUN.
No. 1251680
>>1251668>We connect in a special way that I haven't with any moid before. This line made me lol anon. He needs to get an online job, (work from home for an office, online sales, freelance, etc)
physical disability should not be impeding him in 2022. There's a lot he can do that doesn't require physical strength/agility. You shouldn't have to take on the burden of being the sole breadwinner.
I replied before reading the other half of your post, just saw this:
>Still, I can't help but wonder if there is some remote job that does not require too much mouse and keyboard activity, but he refuses to even look. well we have hit the problem. He is not being empathic to your situation if he's not even looking, he probably considers himself a househusband since he cooks and cleans, but this is unfair on you.
No. 1251688
>>1251680Also for comparison, I have been chronically ill before and I still tried to work and progress in that time, he should be doing
something to prove he is working towards a future. so many people work through the pain literally that his attitude isn't acceptable imo. Disability benefits shouldn't be the goal and that also can be cut off and leave you in a bad situation again.
No. 1251738
>>1251722I'm kinda curious about it so will watch later but this line from the comments:
>Toward the end of the interview, he says he practices his authority with responsibility. He could abuse it, but he won't. That shows a great deal of willpower. holy shit
No. 1251813
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My neighbor died last year and her family kept her house in shape for all this time, but this morning I saw a bunch of white trucks and a dumpster being dropped off in front of the yard. It didn’t really feel like she was gone because of how immaculate her house always is, so knowing they’re ready to throw all her stuff out makes me a little sad
No. 1251846
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Fuck…after spending 4 years of my life studying animation cinema I now regret not studying physics. I love animation but hate the industry so now I'm wondering if it's too late at 23 to study something else even if I haven't touch math and physics since 2018. fuuuuuuck
No. 1251859
>>1251849I've only worked a little bit so it's mostly assuming ! The type of animation that I would genuinely like to do is too "auterish" for the industry. I would have to take on an alimentary job and do my short film on the side to survive, I don't know if I'm ready for this type of life. Sorry I hope this is a bit more clear.
>>1251850I have the kindest parent, so I think that they would be ok with it. They are lower middle class but have always done everything to give me the best possible education. I feel so so bad for failing them like that because they had to support me through an expensive education already. I'm just so ashamed to even concider the possibility of changing career. Did those people started a new STEM major, how was their experience ?!
>>1251851thanks
nonnie I will look it up!
>>1251853>if you're poor, you want to have a back-up planthanks for answering, why a back-up plan?
No. 1251890
>>1251876“I’m old af” lmao. bitch.
I’m turning 33, I’m unmarried with NO boyfriend. Your issues are shit.
No. 1251892
>>1251876anon don't you think it's kinda stupid how teenagers are too young have kids (obviously) and it'd be a big deal but at 25 you're suddenly "too old!!! so fucking old!!" which puts women under the pressure of less than a 5 year (20-25) gap to have kids? Is that fair or reasonable? Even though you'll be able to conceive for many years to come? What a stupid mindset.
Also 25 isn't old. You're not even a decade into adulthood, I know cultural pressure fucking sucks but get some perspective.
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>>1251876You and your boyfriend are retarded af, this is creating another human not choosing toppings for a pizza, take it fucking seriously. You’re so blah about the whole thing, tell his stupid mom and grandma they can have another baby if they want one so bad. Don’t have a fucking baby if you’re depressed, try therapy or get a hobby, fucking hell.
No. 1251935
>>1251876My friend group are in our early to mid thirties rn. Back when we were in our early to mid twenties most of us made some dumb level of commitment to a man we'd been dating for something like 'two whole years' In my case I got married… and later divorced. I was the lucky one in a way. Most of my friends went down the baby route so currently they co-parent the kids with exes who they absolutely hate with a passion. They hate the men, they hate the mans side of the family. They love the kid but resent so much of what comes with getting pregnant by the wrong person. 20 years of sucking that up and playing nice.
His mom encouraging you to get preganant rn after only 2 years of dating.. she must know something about him that you don't know yet. Most decent moms would know that there's no rush.. if the son is a actual catch. Only moms of bums act like that.
No. 1251939
>>1251668Of course he's sweet to you, you're his meal ticket. You are coping and hes slowly easing you into a mediocre life of worry & provision while he plays video games. That instinct to disregard yourself and nurture is often used by men. I know because it happened to me too. When he realized I was actually done and gone he suddenly was able to get a job and drivers license within a month, but spent 4 years saying it's impossible before that.
Don't be with someone who wouldn't be able to make you feel taken care of and give you anniversary trips and dinners… he'll leave you shouldering all the mental and financial burdens. Tbh most of it should be on HIM. Don't let yourself be yet another woman living life as a chronically frustrated and troubled work horse pondering how to make her moids life better while he holds back yours without a worry.
No. 1251945
>>1251876Currently 5 months pregnant at 29, it took like 3 months off my birth control and like 2 tries to get pregnant, seriously. It’s not that hard,
nonny. Have kids when you are ready not when people start bringing it up and making you feel old wtf. Also get him to marry you first. If you have kids before getting married, he will never marry you, I’ve seen it happen. Ultimately, if this is what you both want and make sure you’ve had all the fun you want to have as a couple before succumbing to pressure like this from outside forces. 25 is still young! Use this time to save money for a nest egg or something!
No. 1251951
I am kneecapped by my hangover. Why did I decide to drink the day before work?
>>1251876You're not old dummy, iirc the average age for a woman's first pregnancy in developed countries is somewhere around 30. What the fuck is with the weird age hangups that zoomers have and why would you have a child with someone who hasn't even proposed to you? Do you aspire to be a single mother?
>>1251945Generally agree with your sentiment but for a lot of people it is really hard to conceive.
No. 1251961
>>1251668You dated for just 6 months before moving in together and then after another 6 months he's hit with chronic pain and
> I undertook all of the financial responsibilitiesNonnie that's too much too soon. WHat kind of a man is okay with letting you take that on? Thats when he should've moved back in with his parents or a sibling tbh. It's not your job one year into dating. I'm all for sticking by people if you're committed and then they get hit with a serious proven illness but this timeline and the fact that it's not an illness that can be proven in order to access financial help… I would seriously consider whether you're prepared to sacrifice so much and from such an early stage of dating.
And keep in mind very few men would ever do this for you if you flipped the roles. Not so soon into dating. If he can't support himself and can't even prove his illness to get help paying your shared bills then it's time to at least move home and not land you with his expenses.
No. 1251966
>>1251876It's not about "it sounds nice" pregnancy and babies are very intense things that can't really be done on a whim, taking off of work, putting things on pause, preparing the home for a baby, the pricing of everything, the pain of pregnancy and childbirth, possible complications, etc. I wanted a baby and had practically everything prepared and it still didn't feel like enough when the baby actually came. Jaundice and NICU visits, colicky babies are also extremely common and exhausting to deal with, it's even worse since most men are ready to flip out when a baby gets colic and you have non stop crying for hours and never sleep, giving birth naturally is the most painful thing I've ever experienced and I had an epidural but it still felt like someone sliced up my cooch and asshole and I only have first degree tearing. Do NOT have a baby on a whim or "because you're getting old". You need to take some serious time and understand what you're getting yourself into
No. 1251996
Ahhhhhhhhh! I'm confused.
I started hanging out with someone I used to work with. He's awesome, we always flowed well together and he was my favourite coworker. We've known each other for about 3 years now. After we both quit last year, we kept in touch since he moved across the country.
So he moved back earlier this year and requested we hang out. I thought it would be a one time thing, but he wants to see me every Monday for sure. We keep going to fantastic places we've both never been to and have so much fun everytime. He's like super respectful and keeps trying to take care of me, pay for everything, and genuinely talks to me.
But the situation is different, I think? We both ended long term relationships at the same time, coincidentally, last year as well. We've both healed from it for the most part and we keep getting into deeper conversations surrounding topics like that. My dumb, sensitive brain is kinda developing a crush. We don't spend time with anyone else either. I'm reading too much into it, right? Ugh I'm so frustrated in a bunch of ways, which is why I'm worried about taking it seriously.
If it ramps up in the next few weeks/months, I'm going to just have to clarify the situation before I blow up or end up with some real feelings.
No. 1252000
>>1251991It could be something simpler. One time my diet was good, almost perfect, but my hair was always falling out and I felt itchy all the fucking time. My energy was dipping and felt depressed. I went to the doctor thinking I was dying, but turned out Vitamin D was the worst, lowest my doctor had ever seen. Not seeing the sun etc made it dip and caused the hair loss. Also had an allergy that caused itching, including my scalp, which led to further hair loss.
Get some blood or allergy panels done. Maybe you need something small in your diet or less of something
No. 1252003
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I turn 24 very soon and i seriously can't imagine living past 25. The very act of living is so exhausting, thinking about everything else on top of that just makes me want to give up and I've felt like this ever since i was a small child.
I usually just feel numb and dead but today I was feeling especially shit but my gf was also in a shit mood and left me to sleep alone and i just can't stop crying. Being alone means I can't sleep and I'm forced to remember how much I just wish I was dead already
No. 1252008
>>1252005oh
nonnie, it's nice to hear this, how did you prepare for it ?!
No. 1252023
>>1252008I didn't directly enter the math course, I spent this year studying a pre-entry course that basically covers the fundamentals you need to know before starting the degree. Do you know if your country/university offers those type of courses? We call it 'foundation years' here.
Even if they don't, I recommend practicing yourself while you're applying and saving money. Look at the specific modules of the degree you want to go into and work backwards. If there's a "discrete maths I" module, then find resources that cover the very fundamentals of discrete mathematics, even if its babby tier it always good to grasp the basics and refresh you memory.
The book this guy covers in this playlist is exactly for people like us who haven't done maths in a while, I think it primarily covers calculus but the guy covers all of it so you can start here
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLMcpDl1Pr-viA25VUkHNmcUkWx9usPgyb No. 1252024
>>1251846I went back at 25, am going into my 2nd year after the summer. It's not ideal but a 10000000% times better than reaching 30 and realising you've spent nearly a decade in a field you fucking hate and makes you miserable and now you're stuck with all this shit that needs to be paid and taken care of so taking a break from work/pursuing education is suddenly a heck more diffuclt than it was at 23.
If you can, do it. You won't regret it.
No. 1252039
Nonas, I appreciate your insights very much.
>>1251688>so many people work through the pain literally that his attitude isn't acceptable imo.Thank you so much for your perspective as someone who dealt with a chronic illness, nona. I thought I was being unempathetic since I have never dealt with any kind of chronic pain before.
>>1251939Your situation really resonated with me, nona. I just wish we could go back to how things were. He would treat me so well and buy me so many gifts and always cover dinner for the first year. Now it's only me ever giving him things when I have a bit extra. It's been like this for so long that it felt natural.
>>1251920I have suggested this to him so many times, but he always tells me that he would make more from disability if he ever gets accepted. Plus, he thinks it would require too much keyboard and mouse usage which he can't handle.
>>1251961It just all happened so fast. We were so good for the first 6 months of living together and then suddenly he became struck by this chronic pain. I thought it would be temporary and he would be back to work within the year, but his doctors say his condition is not likely to improve very much.
>>1252002I will. I'm going to try to have one more conversation with him about all of this. If he won't change his mind about at least trying a job, I will have to leave. I can't live like this anymore.
Thank you nonas so much again. I hope you all have good days.
No. 1252047
>>1251945Aren't you afraid to give birth? Every time i think about having kids i remember how destructive childbirth is and cry hysterically. probably a stupid question but i never understood how women can intentionally get pregnant knowing what it entails.
>>1251876I don't see why he would say that but not marry you. Where is the ring? Is this guy actually responsible because he doesn't sound like it.
Also if you're depressed don't have a kid to cure it. See a therapist. If you aren't happy as you are, having kids won't magically make you happy.
No. 1252056
>>1251668He could absolutely work a remote job like data entry or accounting clerk. sounds like he is giving up and wants you to be his bangmaid bread-winner. It seems like he's taking advantage of you, please be cautious. If he doesn't get a job and is burdening you with living paycheck to paycheck I'd dump him and get out.
>>1251619red raspberry seed oil.
No. 1252074
>>1251876I'm directing you to the childfree thread on /g, some posts in there that may inform you.
This seems so halfassed, just because
he doesn't give a shit about you getting pregnant doesn't mean what he thinks is a valuable opinion on the matter since it will be your body giving birth, and you doing the majority of the childcare. Also are you in the US because this is very fucked up timing on his part if you are (roe vs wade)
No. 1252107
>>1252023I think that my country has something quite similar, I will look into it. A bit of a general question but How did you feel during this year ? Did you adapt well to the course ? Thanks for the playlist!
>>1252024Thanks for the insight
nonnie, it really helps to put all of this persepective, it's so easy to feel like a failure for "waisting time" but it will only get worse if I don't do anything about it. At the time I was lacking the confidence to go in a field thhat I thought was too dificult for me, but with time I realized that I actually had good enough result to try it. I hope that everything will go well for you! Do people treat you different for being slightly older at your school ?
No. 1252160
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I'm so tired of having bad periods. I've been tested over and over for years and the only conclusion is that it's just that I make a thicker lining which causes my cramps to be so painful because my uterus has to work harder to get it out. I've tried hormones and it just made my periods longer and more heavy. I'm sick of the pain, having to miss work and events, the nausea, the hot flashes and everything else. I would get my womb removed but I know the potential side effects and I'm wary of them. Idk if I can keep doing this for another 20 or so years tho. Fml
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Who the fuck decides to light up a cig right next to someone they know to be waiting for a tumor biopsy results, that was hilariously absurd. I mean I guess it is what it is but damn, ice cold.
No. 1252181
>>1252169kek
nonnie i'm a barista, i'm out here in public having like 200 social interactions before noon and no one knows i'm weird, a weirdo.
No. 1252188
God, it always needs to be a production when I ask my friend to do anything. I suggested we go a hike on the weekend on Saturday in this general area but I don't have an exact route yet. Cue FOURTEEN, 14! questions from him, I fucking counted, asking for more detail or general shit, like what kind of clothes to wear, how much water, how will the weather be etc etc. It's like dude I don't fucking know, it's in 4 days and we have a decent plan CHILL OUT. I actually regretted asking as soon as I did, I almost always do. Once we get to hanging out 70% of the time it's great but the rest it's like poking a needle into my eardrum. I was thinking a nice chill day with exercise and nice views, but no I've got to be hounded for 4 literal hours and put him on mute while the notifications add up.
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I feel like there was something I was supposed to feel guilty for, but I really can't remember what it is, and now I feel guilty for not remembering.
No. 1252228
>>1250866i was thinking about this recently. so i remember ANTM (tyra was crazy and that show was fucked up yada yada) there was this one season with a transwoman (Isis), and this one model named naomi was like "ew i don't accept her. that's not a woman."
years later they were seen just talking casually, and everyone was like "omg naomi changed her mind!" but in an interview she was like "no, I said what I said. I meant it, so i'm not walking it back for y'all. i can talk to her." Isis also didn't care, and was like "so? we're both from the same neighborhood, we can chat."
literally more than a decade later and ppl are demanding an apology isis didn't even ask for. she stood her ground. nobody says shit from their chest anymore.
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my husband might be trooning out and idk what the fuck to do.
we're each other's beards, and our marriage has offered me very real protection from our local community (yes muslim), and we both have significant others outside of each other (I have a GF, he has a BF). The deal was that we get married in order to move out, maybe have a kid or two in a few years (we both want kids) and just exist as best-friends. things have been great for four years until now.
He sat me down on sunday saying that he isn't happy in his body and that he just wants to micro-dose estrogen or at least go on T blockers. He has his sperm saved in a bank in case i want to have kids later on, but he doesn't want to "present as masculinely" anymore. He promised me he can dress masculinely when we're with family, but I don't believe him for a second.
He said he was already developing self-harm thoughts when he sees stubble in the morning, and I just feel like he's already too fucking down the rabbit hole. I'm even starting to think he felt this way before our agreement. I'm just so confused because he knows how i feel about that shit and he agrees fundamentally (or so it seems), but he thinks it's "not hypocritical to agree" with my perspective while also planning on physically altering his body.
I knew moids were evil, but i gave him some fucking credit for being a gay guy raised in this fucking deathcult. he has a second cousin who was honor killed, and he knows I have cousins/friends who were tricked and sent away for arranged marriages. I feel like he is literally risking my fucking life right now and I can't focus at work at all. he told me all of this and i have a huge conference coming up next week.
and before anyone says I should just fuck off to a different city and escape from him and my family/community; I have kid siblings/cousins, and I'm trying to save up enough for when they turn 18 to get them out since we both have profitable jobs. He's KNOWN this, he has siblings too, and he doesn't see how this is jeopardizing the mission.
ex-religion nonnas, don't put your faith in a beard.
No. 1252296
>>1252047Hi
nonny! I
am scared but I had a really traumatic miscarriage at one point and honestly convinced myself none of this could ever hurt as bad as that shit did emotionally and physically. Pregnancy isn’t a peach for sure (mostly in the very beginning) but it’s a lot less awful than that. And a lot less awful than I was lead to believe so far. So I reckon childbirth will be roughly the same given no one in my family history had rough births. I’m ready for whatever comes, ya know? I’m ready for the challenge, even if this experience isn’t for everyone! I don’t really have any mom friends to yak to so it’s all been pretty new kek. My baby has really been a nice companion through the occasionally scary shit. Sorry for rambling, lol.
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I went almost 6 months without porn and i just broke my streak. Why why why.
No. 1252386
>>1252162Doctors won't do it because I've never had children and it might cause infertility or make it difficult to conceive, which I don't care about because I don't want children
>"Just think of the husband you'll never have who might want children Nonna!"Sigh
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this place takes 6 years off of my life when I look at unfunny, boring infighting about the most insensitive topics like women going through the personal decision of chopping off their breasts. you people don’t give the slightest fuck about the mental wellbeing of people who do it, so let them do, stop pretending you care.
No. 1252398
>>1252395It totally wasn't you, but you've been typing mentally ill shit like this, calling anons bitches and cunts and generally being unhinged in multiple threads. Take your own fucking advice, sort out your internalized misogyny and also go to therapy because you clearly need it.
Or, like I said: >>>/tttt/ with your anti-woman bullshit
No. 1252402
>>1252107>How did you feel during this year ? Did you adapt well to the course ? At first I was super nervous because, like you, I hadn't touched maths in like 5 years kek but as I was going over the stuff, I weirdly remembered a lot of things from late-HS and found a lot of the new stuff easy to grasp. If you have a history of performing decently at maths then this should be the same for you because these courses always start with the very basics and work their way up the difficulty bar so you can catch where you get stuck. There were obviously still tough new subjects but honestly the key is practicing. I'm not sure about Physics but with Maths, I strongly believe if you put in the effort you will 99% be rewarded unless the question is worded in a really fucked up way on purpose like some cruel profs like to do. That feeling when you finally get a bunch of questions right on something you struggled on is unreal lol
Reading your reply to the other anon
>I was lacking the confidence to go in a field thhat I thought was too dificult for meI was the exact same way when I first applied to my old university which is why I chose a different route originally, and tbh even NOW I have massive doubts about if I'm "smart" enough to study maths at a degree level and I feel like I'll get filtered by second year kek. Just letting you know you're not alone, I'm personally still working on the confidence thing so I can't give much advice there. I cope by telling myself that I've done and studied what I can beforehand so everyone in first year should be on the same level upon entering, barring the geniuses of course.
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>>1252408You won't be taking your meds, showering or sleeping because you need to "fight the normies"? You're just going to keep posting garbage, projecting your own apathy and spite toward woman's wellbeing on others and screeching that women are the problem for daring to disagree with your insanity? Cool. Go write a diary instead of smearing your shit on the wall and trying to make everyone else inhale it
>muh culture war shiftThanks for clarifying that you're an American, that explains it
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>regularly use this kind of water bottle
>always diligent on washing with hot soapy water everyday
>look through the inner tube of the sippy straw
>black molds. black molds everywhere.
JESUS CHRIST. I'm never gonna use this water bottle anymore. I literally have a headache right now because I refused to drink out of this and got dehydrated.
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>make friends
>hang out, have fun
>start getting closer
>answer their text back a day or two late
>next time we hang out they ask if I’m ok
>”you can tell us if somethings wrong, nonny! We’re here for you!”
>reluctantly explain to them that I’m not trying to ignore them, that I’m just stuck in an abusive situation that makes it hard to get back to them sometimes
>”Oh my god! Do you need help? Is there anything we can do?!”
> tell them no thank you, just hanging out with you guys means the world to me and gives me a break!
>”Aw, that’s sweet! But if you ever need anything like a ride or a place to stay for a bit let me know ok!!”
>time passes with no contact
>I ask they what’s up and if they wanna hang out
> “oh sorry, we’ve just been busy lately”
>they never respond to me again
>rinse and repeat
Every fucking time. We really are alone out here.
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I’m about ready to rip my hair out. My sister came home from college to stay the summer and my parents are just now realizing that they raised a spoiled monster. She has thousands of dollars in college debt but no degree and no job and basically wants to mooch off of me and my boyfriend because she “doesn’t believe in labor” and “needs to figure her life out before entering the workforce”. My parents have spent so much money on her and in the past she’s stolen from them but it’s honestly karma for them letting her get away with whatever shitty thing she wanted to do.
No. 1252598
>>1252580Sounds like he's given you far more more negative emotions than positive since you've known him. Are you sure you love
him or the fantasy/future you'd built up in your head? Is he really worth the pain? Our brain chemistry in love will greatly over-exaggerate the value of a man.
No. 1252600
>>1252580Anon block him now and pretend you never sent the message.
It's summer, are you going on vacation? Hot seaside dudes are a typical antidote to pining over past loves.
No. 1252623
>>1252598those are all insightful questions, but i can’t give them any satisfying answers because my obsession with him is wholly irrational. i would consider all of the pain he’s been putting me through to be completely insignificant if he took me back. it’s reached the point where i’ve been seriously considering murdering him if he decides to reject me again. i’m deeply lost. not even meds and therapy have been helping me
>>1252613i hope i can come to the same conclusion as you did someday
No. 1252660
>>1247328Is this a real thing?? Because I do this too. Ever since I can remember I’ve always been surprised by the age of my peers, like I always assume everyone is older than I am. Now that I’m in my 30s, I’m always surprised to see such capable and confident women who are 10 years younger than me, since I still felt like such a kid through my entire 20s.
It makes me feel like I missed an important memo in life that everyone else got.
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>>1252417You need to sterilise the bottle with baby bottle steriliser. It kills everything and is safe to use on plastic and metal. I use it to sterilise protein shake bottles, thermos flasks, chopping boards and water bottles.
No. 1252800
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>going through a tough time, had to move in with my mom and shitty brother with his shitty dogs
>house smells like dogs
>brothers eats all the food
>brother doesn't properly take care of his three big dogs
>living room is bare because the youngest dog chews on and ruins everything
>can't even hang out in the living room because of these fucking dogs
>I can't live like this and I hate that my mom has to live like this
>bedtime, put on youtube like I usually do when I go to bed
>don't want to put on the yt channel I usually fall asleep to for some autistic reason(it will reminds me of good times)
>puts on pic related
>cracks silly little jokes in his videos about people getting murder
>gets somber and even chokes up a lil when talking about dogs getting killed
>too annoyed to sleep now
No. 1252835
>>1252800Afaik mike cracks the jokes at the expense of the killer and never the
victims, mostly he belittles the intelligence of the killer or their lack of planning which in a way is (imo) better than declaring every violent scrote a 'criminal genius' like alot of other youtubers seem to do.
People who put killers on these mastermind pedestals and equally people who put animal deaths on a level above human deaths.. both equally annoy me.
No. 1252844
I wish I had more self assurance. I was going to complain about my moid but that's what it really comes down to, isn't it?
I don't know what it is but I just work against myself in these situations. Every transgression I wilfully think up good things about him and if that doesn't work I literally just try forget it. How pathetic. When we stop I know it'll be roughly a month of being upset and wistful, then a little bored because I have that vaccum in my life where he was, and finally embracing single life, not looking for a man but just enjoying myself.
He's slowly backsliding in his treatment towards me. I can almost pinpoint where he is, the same level of investment as roughly 3 weeks into seeing me. It's only been very recent but I know it when I see it. Yesterday he was uncharacteristically selfish in bed, like typical porn scene levels. He apologised and made it up when I called him out but it's never been necessary before. Now today he's pushed back meeting by a few hours because he had other stuff to do, stuff he foresaw and could've just given me a more accurate time, but it was easier to agree, assure me the time is fine then go back on it because I guess respecting my time and our agreement isn't that important.
Anyway I can see the death knell of our partnership, and I know it'll get worse, but I know I'll stay way past the expiration date, when I've been disrespected several more times, every time I get into fits of rage at the accumulated injustice then come crawling back, at some point the male then breaks it off with me, and only then is it final for me. Even if he backtracks and begs for me back I won't and I remain stubborn, but I can only ever do it if the words come out of his mouth, not mine, as if they're more legitimate.
My mom stayed with my dad, who had a 4 year affair and didn't work. She defers to him. I wonder if it's a little bit genetic for me even. I thought I was better, less of a handmaiden because I'm the strongest advocate but only for others.
Its frustrating to see it and see how it'll all likely pan out, but my inner voice is too loud and consistent and strong telling me that I must, must see it out and maybe it'll get better, like I feel that conviction in my bones.
Typing this out feels better than framing a post in his favor and being like "b-but my Nigel-" if anyone dares me to take decisive action. I know its futile, for now at least.
No. 1252859
>>1252851The ones who add
trigger warnings or want to turn things off if a police character is on the show too.
Oh no guys it's a c*p. Fuck off. Imagine being this fragile while watching fucking kids cartoons
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Was reading the thread about dead lolcows and came across the story of Katelyn Nicole Davis, a 12-year-old who live streamed her suicide and also live streamed a lot for about a month before she died. Her life was so terrible in every way but she was so kind still, and the whole entire time she streamed and as she died, coomers were in her chat egging her on and saying disgusting sexual things to her. I can't stop thinking about how she felt, what it was like for her, how all these elements came together to create an exceptionally shitty life, what does it feel like when you hang yourself, did she regret it, is she at peace now? I just feel so awful. I could really go on and on but I won't. RIP sweet girl. I really wish she had the chance to live. Her last live stream is fucking heart breaking, and the ones right before. I'm completely fascinated and disgusted and devastated with human life and behavior and this fucked up world.
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My Apple pencil just stopped working. It was fully charged and then completely stopped working while I was using it, I did a hard reset twice, plugged it into the ipad, tried to find it with Bluetooth, nothing worked, what the fuck happened?? wanna die
No. 1252950
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>>1252926Kek
I'm sorry for your RNG
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>>1252948I hope it doesn't come to the worst and you'll be all fine BUT even if it turns out you have endometriosis, there's always in vitro method! So there's hope for you either way.
>>1252965You're a little insensitive anon, it's not a "minor stressor" to find out about such neglect, and impulsive reaction doesn't determine one's maturity overall.
No. 1252976
>>1252972There are people on this site who were actually abused as children.
nonnie's mom not mentioning a genetic disease risk does not constitute neglect. that trivializes what children who were actually neglected went through. you're the one not being empathetic to others. and yes, when your first reaction to stress is to be a dramatic whirlwind and threaten suicide and say your family "betrayed" you, you aren't mature enough to handle children, who will stress you out and exhaust you daily. because just the thing kids need is a mother who jumps to threaten suicide over every minor upset. she needs to learn stress management techniques before she has children.
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>>1252948I’m sorry that they never told you, you’d think that kind of sense would be more common. You found out now and can be aware, but don’t let yourself becoming too stressed out about the weight of the wait because there’s nothing you can do about it now but go through the medical motions. I have faith that your womb will be safe and you will have all the children you want.
No. 1252998
>>1252987In the context of childcare, "neglect" is a very serious word associated with things like inadequate food provided, lack of hygienic and habitable housing, not taking the child to a doctor when they break a bone or have a tooth that needs dental care, not teaching the child how to read, not providing decent and appropriate clothing, lack of reasonable heating in winter to prevent frostbite, letting them live in squalor and filth, etc. It's usually something that results in harm and is a pretty serious term to use.
It may be unethical or irresponsible to not tell her she has a genetic risk for endo, but that is far from neglect. Neglect is like, not giving the child enough to eat so they go to school and beg for parts from other kids' meals, or not getting them glasses when they can't even see well enough to attend school and see the chalkboard.
If your bf forgets your birthday, that is not abuse, and seriously claiming it is abuse is a disservice to people who are actually abused.
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I'm so jealous of people younger than me, not just girls, guys too, just younger people in general. They have more time and opportunities, especially if they're healthy and have supporting parents. I didn't go to university after HS because my anxiety and depression together with autism had such a heavy tool on me I literally couldn't go outside. Also my mom got cancer and we were alone and I had to take care of her. She died when I was 23. For the next few years I've been focusing on nothing but work and learning how to survive among people. It would be really hard to support a daily job and go to uni at the same time, it's not really possible in my country unless you have parents who still support you financially or some remote job, and I don't have qualifications to work from home. I feel so damn old and tired. Some of my female coworkers tell me I should be happy that I'm in my late 20s and I still look 18-19, but it doesn't help me at all, because I know the truth. I feel old and I know I wasted my 20s, I have no higher education, no friends and I was never in a relationship, never been to a party, never lived like a young person. Even if I could ever go to uni, I know that at first I would fit in because of my looks, but I would still feel like shit because I would know that people in my class accomplished much more than me at a much younger age and I would feel like trash next to them. I feel like trash next to my younger coworkers, so I can imagine it would be ten times worse at school. My overwhelming feeling of inferiority prevents me from doing anything, I can't even take joy from my hobbies anymore. There's nothing but wageslaving and daydreaming. I have no idea where my life is headed to
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>>1253008girl same. Feel like I’m trapped in quicksand.
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Just looked through a bunch of old pictures and posts and I am emotionally and socially still in the place I was last year, I’m still fat as shit, I wish I could just override the fear of death and kill myself! I just feel so lost. Even if I wanted to fix my life I have no fucking clue where to start or what to do. I’m a worthless stupid baby.
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>>1253008I know this is anecdotal and might not help but I really didn’t get off my ass and accomplish anything until age 29. Lived with my mom off and on, changed my major, etc. everything good has happened to me from age 29-32–better job, better friends, better experiences.
Can you change up your environment at all? Moving made the difference for me.
No. 1253046
>>1253036Same, I fucked around and didn’t amount to shit until my late 20s/early 30s and many people I know were the same way. OP>>1253008
you still have time, some people get ahead early in life and some people were born into shit that needs to be worked out first. However long it takes to work out that shit is however long it takes. Don’t be so hard on yourself.
No. 1253052
>>1252965>>1252972>>1252976>>1252992Thank you all for your responses. Some pretty brutal feedback but I expect that on this site, and it actually helped me feel better to be told that I was overreacting. My parental neglect looked a lot like what
>>1252998 described and it was intense enough to provoke my sibling to commit suicide, so I think that in part explains the extremity of my response. Thanks to your feedback I'm realizing that this event just really fucking
triggered the shit out of me and brought up all my feelings of grief surrounding my siblings suicide. Their birthday is coming up soon too so I think the combination of all of this is what sent me. I've thought a lot about suicide and one of the things that's always brought me out of that darkness is dream of becoming a mother, so it's an intense thing to process. All that said, I'm going to try to relax as best I can and go through the motions to learn the medical truth in the meantime. I appreciate you guys a lot
No. 1253068
I just asked this in the stupid questions thread but have to vent. I made a teddy bear for my nephew for his bday a few years back and I usually make my own cards and all that shit, last year I made him a beaded embroidery thing of his fave things that my sister never even hung up even after I did it with the colors she wanted. It's not about her not liking it, if she thought it was ugly, no need to hang it up, you shouldn't hang up shit just because it was a gift! Why the hell she expected me to gift another embroidery thing this year, when I already told her I have just gotten out of surgery and cannot possibly whip out a 10h project, even physically it would be hard let alone the designing part. Why did she get angry when I already told her I didn't make anything and just got something instead, when not once has she shown any respect, like people pay me to make these things and I haven't made these things in a year or so because I have been sick, what the hell. She just expected me to make her kids free stuff even when I wasn't able to, when she always belittled my works and she doesn't ever display them like what is the point here, not even once has she told me she thinks my stuff looks nice so what the hell is this fuss? It's not a huge deal but she always has gives me the "for exposure" type of vibe and treatment, she expected I would make her whole ass clothes for no change even when she only ever said my diy clothes looked like shit like what is her damage, a grown ass woman.
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>get zero sleep due to anxiety over upcoming logistical challenges
>travel to middle of tourist trap for appointment related to challenges
>take day off of work to travel
>can't get appointment because office is understaffed and overbooked
>go home, have to have work shit pulled up all day anyway because deadlines
>family member is visiting from abroad with new spouse and wants to go to an hours-long evening event in said tourist trap and a random sandwich shop(???) 30 mins from the event
>have a solid block of morning meetings tomorrow
WHY
No. 1253151
I'm meeting my bf tomorrow for the first time ever after edating him for about a year and a bit. I'm really nervous and excited but also part of me is worried because he has some redflags I've been stupidly ignoring until today.
>No job atm, lives in a property own by his parents so no rent to pay, but has a bachelor's in the same field I'm (bio/pathology)
>Antisocial as fuck. 0 friends outside of like 1-2 online friends he rarely speaks to.
>We have… Very different opinions on politics. We often debate stuff and he's usually respectful but not always.
>He's catholic and finds my own beliefs/holidays uncomfortable at times.
>We are in very different stages in our lives. I own my own place, finishing my phd, have a decent career/salary, just working on myself outside of gaming and hobbies. He has depression, kind of 'stuck', just gaming all the time. This intimidates him but I was in his exact position not long ago and I understand how difficult it is so it doesn't bother me.
>Refuses to get on webcam with me during our entire relationship. Like, he has been on cam with me before, but hates it because he thinks he's ugly. I don't think he is but…
I get that these redflags are kind of a big deal but outside of these things he's honestly really sweet and probably one of the best bfs I've had. He's extremely loyal to a fault, kind, patient, honest, and smart. I'm just scared that this entire fantasy bubble I've built up over the year is going to pop badly tomorrow. My friends have spoken to him a bit and they like him but do think the no job/no money thing is something he has to work on. Ughhhh.
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>>1253151Phew, oh lord.
>Hes honestly really sweet Word for word what other nonnies post after their disaster of a Nigel is described
>He's extremely loyal to a faultHow so? He's sworn his knightly fealty to you? Bought you some discounted steam games?
Please give updates in the /g/ e-dater thread
No. 1253173
>>1252888i hate men, i hate terminally online men even more. they are leading a public fucking death-cult and are responsible for so many live stream suicides (of kids) and mass shootings. and yet nobody fucking cares.
i saw a video from some alternative news site that said the guy who shot up that july 4th parade is the product of "feminist culture" and I wanted to fucking scream. they could blow up a city and it's still somehow our fault, i fucking hate them.
No. 1253209
I'm
>>1253151and I knew writing this post would get a lot of strong emotions tbf, which is why I wrote it really because I'm trying to decide if I should break up with him after he leaves.
>>1253158I know I'm being stupid. But I've also dated the opposite of him and had shitty results as well. He certainly isn't sexist I can at least tell you that much, but he does lean right which is one of the redflags I've mentioned.
>>1253169My girl friends said something akin to what you said here in terms of the money/job thing. It's not that I have a lack of confidence myself but rather that I don't really like most people (not to sound like NLOG here,, it's just how it goes for me). I get extremely bored of people very very fast, and I'm the kind of person that can't date someone unless they also have the same hobbies as me. Gaming is one obvious hobby but it's like, the level of it (how high rank he is in a game for example, I know, crrinnnggee). But also, a lot of other hobbies (like electrical engineering, coding, and essentially 'building' stuff, I do that a lot and need a partner who builds things with me.)
Not to mention like I said, my life wasn't always in order. I was a total mess a few years ago and the only reason I am where I am right now is because of help from therapy, friends and one of my ex's. I really resonate with people who have dealt with similar issues as me, and if I see active movement towards a goal, I don't hate on the person for struggling. Yeah, maybe that makes me a 'moron' in a way but I just don't like hating on people struggling through life, I've been there.
No. 1253245
>>1253209> I just don't like hating on people struggling through life, I've been there.Fair but that doesn't mean you have to date a man who offers you nothing.
Alas it's up to you but I think it's not smart to settle for a burden.
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I got an internship at my dream job with an awesome company yesterday and I’m having the worst case of imposter syndrome over it. I should be happy but I feel like shit and I can’t make it go away. I’ve felt nothing but anxiety since the interview but I should be happy. It pays well, everyone is incredibly nice and it’s going to be getting me so much experience in the field (biology) but I just keep like I am going to fuck it all up somehow. I want to be happy about this!!
No. 1253254
>>1253252KEKKKK me too wtf I felt such a passionate feeling of hatred upon first glance.
I want to stomp the shit out of it, my monkey brain is going haywire.
No. 1253263
>>1253128Er, no. Like
>>1253212 said, you're surrounded by poverty with people who are suffering. One of my relatives used to live in a place a few months ago where people would be passed out on whatever drugs all the time on the stairs leading up to her flat. It's essentially the British equivalent to project housing; sure, you have a roof over your head, but it's not luxurious.
No. 1253265
>>1253151be honest anon, imagine your sister or best friend told you this
>hey anon, I'm dating this new guy>he's a jobless NEET who lives in his parents' home>he's anti-social and has no social contacts or social life>he's depressed>also we don't agree on politics>in fact he's with a different religion and doesn't like my beliefs>oh btw I have never met him, we're e-datingcould you honestly, genuinely say "Damn he's the cherry on top of what you've already got going for yourself, I'm happy you got a good partner!"
If my sister or best friend told me that I'd be sad because she deserves better.
No. 1253266
>>1253128i grew up in a council flat and this anon
>>1253212 said pretty much what i was gonna say, but i also wanna add that council houses are not only usually in rougher areas, but the houses (or flats) themselves are usually pretty bare-bones. i feel like saying people who get council houses are coddled suggests that they're living in the lap of luxury, when in reality most people i knew growing up didn't strive to live in council houses their entire lives. i'd rather spend tax money on getting people housing than giving it to the monarchy but hey-ho
No. 1253320
>>1253312samefagging, i can't believe i'm crying over this. i feel like an oversensitive child. i love the college i go to but i hate ambitious assholes without tact i keep meeting. they are experts at making everything as elitists as possible. i could be going to a practice just to take my mind off of something and they basically say "you're too stupid to talk let me explain it to them". i wasn't planning on talking, i rarely do but i hate it when people add unnecessary comments like that. does that make me an oversensitive person?
>>1253318i think it's just a small town vs city thing regardless of the country.
No. 1253466
>>1253151I saw your reply talking about how you can relate to struggling through life, but can I ask, as someone who was also struggling a year or so ago; would you have dated yourself back then?
You can acknowledge someone is on the backfoot without it defining them as a bad person, just that makes them a bad partner at this time. I mean, if you're looking for something low pressure and casual, it couldn't hurt, but personally I think it's suicide to plan/want anything serious with someone who doesn't have their life at least semi-sorted.
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Just gonna sound childish and say that I feel bad thinking how my dad didn't seem to even like me and it sucks that out of the two people who were supposed to care about me and want the best for me, the other one tried his best to make me feel like shit from day one.
I know it's not my fault but how insane it is to think that there are dads out there who don't bully their own kids just to feel better about themselves, who wants to hurt their own kid on a daily basis, that's actually twisted as shit.
No. 1253522
>>1253450I
never said that being good at game translated to anything in real life? Not sure why you'd make that assumption. I'm just saying that those are the kind of qualities I care about because I myself am a big gamer and competitive if that wasn't obvious.
>>1253466You're basically saying exactly what my bff said. She said that I could at the very least 'have fun' with it without putting a lot of emotional bandwidth into it and making it casual. Which is something I talked with him about and this meeting is kind of our test to see if it's worth it or not.
>>1253437Well at least I don't feel so alone lol. I knew I was gunna get some hate for the post considering the redflags are pretty bad lol but yeah, it's def an eye opener for me as well.
No. 1253529
>>1253516NTA but isn't it supposed to be "my friend and me"
iirc you can tell it's proper grammar if you can remove the "my friend and" part and it still makes sense, ie "This is a picture of
my friend and me"
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>listening to a true crime podcast
>they bring up a pregnant at women and are careful to say pregnant people every time they bring up the subject
JUST SAY PREGNANT WOMEN
ONLY WOMEN GET PREGNANT FFS
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does anybody else have an illiterate mother ? i feel so alone.
obviously i am not shaming her for not receiving an education due to being extremely poor and raised in a village up in the mountains, there are barely any schools there now much less back in the 60s, but she is just too prideful to try to learn when i want to teach her. she has been taught how to read by my father when they met and signed her up to language classes for other illiterate or ESL people. but after the 90s, she refuses to do any of that even if the classes were free, and even if there is no shame to doing that at all as most women of her generation and all of her exonomical class went through the same, so there is reason to be ashamed, after all its only learning.
anytime something goes wrong or she does something foul she blames it on being illiterate or not having received an education when the thing in question requires 0 education. and when i was a child, she used to beat me and shout at me for not knowing how to deal with legal documents and things of that sort because "i am in school so i should know" at age 7? and i did try to explain to her that obviously i could not help her because schools dont teach things like that to children but she wouldnt understand. my dad couldnt help because he is from another country and doesnt speak the language at all much less efficiently enough for documents. she beat me senseless when she couldnt use her phone and i couldnt figure it out either at the same stage at multiple occasions, at the time there were only touchpad or flipphones so the user interface was at least to child me much harder to figure out.
she is very smart naturally and the fastest learner i know, she can replicate recipes she watches on television or on youtube by only watching them once, and she learned my dad's wildly different language in structure and pronunciation through immersion alone, but she likes to pretend that she is helpless and forgetful when i teach her when i know that its not the case as she does fine when i am not in the picture and never needs my help. she still beats me and shouts at me if i dont know something. and when she knows something and i dont she treats me as if im retarded and belittles me, in fact she does this to anybody not just me. if anybody proves her wrong about anything, she freaks out and has a meltdown and accuses them of setting her up for mockery, even if they are alone together.
nobody i used to go to school with had an illiterate mother as i went to a private school, and even if i were to ask the guilt would eat away at me because i know my mother wouldnt like that and would feel humiliated amongst the other moms if they find out and thus would result in a if not several beatings.
i understand why she behaves the way she does, shes had a difficult upbringing, but i wish she would stop being so mean, and to open her mind again.
No. 1253592
>>1253587You're mother is
abusive, is a piece of shit who had the opportunity to learn as an adult for free, and learning a language by immersion is the fastest and easiest way to learn so she isn't even as smart as you think she is. I know some people who have parents who needed their kids to read and sign legal documents for them as well because they werenlt fluent at all in the language of our country after immigrating and while these kids didn't like it, they weren't beaten up for not understanding a legal or comemrcial contract at age 7. Your mother has no excuse whatsoever.
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I'm about ready to set myself on fire because I've been managing to move on from my ex despite missing him a lot and snapchat just sent him a picture I was trying to post to my storyline and I died inside. I shouldn't be having such a meltdown from it but I don't want him to think I'm trying to get his attention when I'm just trying to mind my business.
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I sometimes feel hopeless about the fact that what we find beautiful is changing so quickly into an unobtainable ideal that only exists as a product of cosmetic procedures and filters.
It's no longer enough to be thin, you have to have a specific body shape. No longer enough to have pretty eyes, they need to be stretched into a fox eye. Not enough to have natural fullness in the lips, now those lips are seen as in need of filler. I could honestly go on and on.
As a woman im continuously struck by the feeling that nothing is ever enough, whereas a few years ago, even with all my teenage insecurities, I don't remember feeling this overwhelmed by standards I could never meet.
Everything just feels so fake and out of reach, I've always been a perfectionist so it's really hard for me to let go of the need to improve myself to feel pretty like I used to before being a Kardashian clone was deemed default beauty. Actually even the Kardashians aren't ideal anymore, they're using filters and don't even look the same irl.
I believe that 10's are becoming the new 8's, 7's the new 5's etc. But the standard is only changing for women, men are still their same ugly, low-effort selves, and now aren't even expected to pay for a meal on a date or have a good income, women will date and fuck ugly losers and go halfsies for the privilege, and as long as men are getting sex they'll never be motivated to change.
In the end I have a boyfriend who is on the same level as me looks wise but for a while I never thought that would happen, because even ugly mfers think they deserve a VS model and that beautiful women are just "normal" now because they don't look like the shit they see online.
Picrel even objectively beautiful women can always be "improved" by erasing any semblance of naturalism.
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I wake up in the morning seething with rage as soon as I open my eyes. I wake up so angry I can't fall back asleep. I just hate the world
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I was reading old discussion on the "things I hate thread" and it reminded me of how much I fucking hate how women are groomed into being overdiplomatic doormats who can't handle conflict and don't want to learn how to because it's scawy uwu. I know it's because this is how we are socialized and it's not their fault but it still pisses me off because I worked for years to deprogram myself from that mindset to learn how to be assertive and defend myself and my friends, yet still I come across bitches who would rather act like they're fine but then take it behind my back to talk shit and cook up all kinds of games to get back at me without ever telling me straight that they're bothered by something I said or did so I could remedy the situation right away. Stand up bitches, learn to speak your mind.
No. 1253650
>>1253647Another type of person I meet a lot too during the pandemic, Ukraine war, shootings, big happenings in general
>hey nonnie, (memorized news story headline) (memorized podcast phrase) (popular Tweet literally word by word)>ask them questions about it, try to discuss, even agree with them and try to bond over topic>they can't elaborate further in any wayThere are so many topics I don't know anything about and when that's the case, I shut my ass up and don't pretend to know. It's embarrassing talking to people who are obviously larping, like a smartass child looking for praise because they read a Fun Fact on Wikipedia.
No. 1253654
>>1253629You think I'm a man just because I told an anon that her mother is
abusive for beating her up as a child for the stupidest reasons possible? You're straight up paranoid. That reminds me of my sisters telling me I'm wrong and fucked in the head for not liking my father who would beat me up and strangle me as a small child and then teenager just because his manager was a little rude to him at his shit job and he wanted to take it out on someone without going to jail for it. My sisters legit thought being kicked and punched by our parents for talking once in a while to male classmates in primary school was normal and they'd say that just thinking this is excessive punishment was disrespectful towards our parents. It's the same level of craziness as expecting your primary school age daughter to be able to read and translate a legally binding document and to sign it in your stead. I don't really care about that anon because I don't know her and will probably never meet her, so I don't see why I should be nice to her mentally ill,
abusive mother just to spare her feelings.
No. 1253686
>>1253629why would you thrust a non-sequitor false dichotomy on a nona sharing her trauma. is her being upset at a woman that wronged her a major
trigger for your narcassistic wound? you're the one making this into a dichotomy of men vs women like an insufferable autisticfem that argues more about feminism to tend your own sensibilities before considering how the other woman describing her own suffering feels. read a theory book and get a fucking grip
No. 1253697
>>1253640Is this a joke? I don't even want to bother to explain how retarded every single point in this post is. You're a million times worse than the anons you responded to.
I'm probably responding to bait, but if OP isn't complaining perhaps you should shut the fuck up.
No. 1253703
I'm losing my first house after living in it for only a year, thanks to the fact that my ex fiance is a manchild who couldn't grow up and so I had to end the relationship for my sanity. We cannot live together peacefully because he is obsessed with me and is verbally abusive. He confessed to touching me while I slept downstairs, and he calls the cops whenever I have my family or a friend over for my support because he feels "threatened." So I have been couchsurfing with friends while his ass gets to reap the benefits of using all the stuff I paid for while having the house all to himself when I'm handing over half of mortgage. He insists I could sleep at the house and he would not get in my face but history has proven this to be a lie. He refuses to spend a few nights away with his family who live nearby for bullshit excuses. My job has an EAP program where I can get a free legal counsel session and discount off a lawyer so I am contacting them to see what my options are.
Some of my friends think I should have pushed a DV narrative to get him out of the house, but I guess my traumatized and conditioned brain just didn't register this as "real" abuse unless he was beating the shit out of me–which his feeble ass would not be capable of. But I can see why women do that even if it is a stretch, cause look how much this little prick got to profit at my expense. Men are the true golddiggers and parasites.
He's demanding I give the engagement ring back meanwhile he uses my brand new appliances and furniture that are all in my name. He even admitted that the reason why he does not want to leave is because he fears he will come back to find everything gone. Meaning I would have moved all my shit out while he was away. Why shouldn't I? If he wants to draw lines in the sand about what he feels I "owe" him then why should I play nice and let him use my shit??? I almost feel like damaging the engagement ring before I hand it back–if I am indeed forced to–just so he won't net as much money from it. He only wants it back to try to sell it. I designed the ring and held his hand throughout the process, all he did was pay with his credit card. It's a fine piece of jewelry, I'd like to have it because I honestly do not associate it with him at this point but he will pants-shit until he gets it back.
As for the house, there is no option other than to sell and split the proceeds down the middle. Ofc this selfish man thinks he's entitled to more of the share than he deserves. It's bullshit because I paid for actual rennovations to the house and put labor into it, unlike him who just sat and watched. I cared about this house and made it mine with projects. Words cannot describe the deep pit of sadness I feel in my soul, because I never had a stable homelife as a child. All because this man could not be assed to step up. I would not care if he died tomorrow for all the shit he has and is still putting me through tbh. Post-breakup he is emailing me about the service calls and other stuff he is doing for the house (which I have nagged him to help me with for months) in order to appear like a mature saint to others, but it infuriates me further as proof that he was capable of being an adult the entire time but CHOSE NOT TO.
Fucker.
No. 1253782
>>1253776I've noticed it too. Rent free, touch grass, you must be over 18 to post here, etc.
Like, get a new comeback please.
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I feel like ending it all today.
No. 1253799
men are disgusting (
tw: naked fat gay men doing degen things)
http://twitter.com/BearracudaMatt No. 1254121
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I vented about my sister expecting handmade presents for her kids and today she went "it cannot be that much work, you couldn't have spared a few hours" okay bitch, no more handmade shit for you, if you want it, you pay for it. picrel, the type of shit (this I took off Google though) I have made for her kids with no thanks lol, it definitely takes some hours and work.
No. 1254164
>>1254135I just call it beaded embroidery in my language, there are kits online if you don't wanna design your own stuff and possibly waste material!
>>1254147>>1254130>>1254129thank you anons, I decided last night that I am not gonna spend my time on her or her kids unless I really want to and even then it's gonna be for the kids, seriously fuck this disrespect. Gonna start on a new project just out of spite, it's been almost a year since I started something.
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I think I will kill myself if things dont improve financially for me soon. I manage to survive every month, but have nothings to show for it. I have no savings and realistically would be one paycheck/one month away from poverty. I'm sick, I'm tired, and I think I can see the smoke on the hill. I know what's coming, I dont want it to come but I am preparing and thinking of the most peaceful painless way out possible.
No. 1254270
>>1254256You’re not evil for feeling that way
nonnie, it’s one of the hardest jobs there is.
No. 1254294
>>1254284I was at work with a gay nurse the other day and we were both hovering over a dying woman in her 90s giving her medication and he was like something along the lines of “if she were awake, she’d probably say
oh now that’s the wrong mouthful.” Like what. Man is in his 40s too. I’m not pearl clutching and I wasn’t offending but I was definitely like now wait one fucking minute in my head.
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>>1254285Kek you reminded me of this
No. 1254307
>>1253008That was a very powerful post, life is hard and I feel like more now than ever it's easy to feel like everything is pointless. Objectively you are not old but you've missed out on things you feel are milestones in a "normal" life
What are things you love?
No. 1254313
>>1254179Are they moles or could it possibly be mottled skin?
Either way your cat is not going to die of skin cancer
No. 1254325
>>1254266My childhood was full of abuse and neglect, so I have a hard time connecting with my daughter. I didn't have a good motherly example growing up. Feels like I shouldn't have had a kid based on that. I lost my identity. I want to live alone again. Want my freedom back. Want to do whatever I want.
I was going to give her up for adoption, but her dad said no. It's a fucked up story and I feel the most remose for her sake. She doesn't deserve a loser who doesn't even want her. The worst part is probably always having to worry about them, even when they're older. Next worst thing is unfortunately vain: I miss my boobs and vulva before birth. Pregnancy destroyed them and it's not cheap for surgery. I miss only worrying about myself. Luckily I only have one daughter and will never have children again.
>>1254286Basically everything. serioulsy, have money. Be at least 30. If you want to be a mom deep down then you'll probably be ok. I thought I did, but realized my awful childhood made me unfit to be a mother. I'm lazy and selfish. Luckily the dad had a good mom so he's better.
No. 1254385
>>1254380lmao ok tradthot, as if fathers are sooo important when plenty of them are absolute deadbeats at best and abusers at worst.
Anon should go to a sperm bank to 100% ensure no moid has any rights to her child.
No. 1254405
>>1254385Ayrt, I'm not a tradthot
If I was a tradthot why would I choose not to have kids, or tell anon to consider adopting? Never seen a tradthot say those things.. I'm fully aware that men can be terrible fathers. If you don't realize how many negative things can come out of anon getting pregnant by a random guy, not just for the hypothetical child but also for herself, then whatever. I just think she should think more carefully about it. Like I said, I'm speaking from personal experience as someone who once was a child who didn't have a dad.
>>1254386>More women should be single MothersI don't think you realize how hard that can be.
>>1254400Reposting. I don't read reddit, sorry anon. Being a mother is hard in general, but if you deny that being a single mother can be hard then I don't know what to say.
No. 1254412
>>1254409I
never said that. I don't think this is going to go anywhere, so I won't derail anymore. I don't think you guys are necessarily wrong for feeling how you feel, but I also don't completely agree and think it's more complicated.
No. 1254413
My boyfriend’s mother is insane. About a week ago, his grandpa was hospitalized and in bad condition. We drove 9 hours to the hospital to see him. He died. His mom gets there and immediately starts treating everybody like shit, yelling at us and insulting us. I’ve never fought with his mom before that. She told me I was “the problem” in my relationship with her son, I’m lazy, I’m a mooch, I do all of these things that piss her off, etc. My crime? Talking to and being friendly with my boyfriend’s sister. They have a bad relationship because their mom has been abusive to her in the past and doesn’t want anything to do with her. She gets really triggered when I talk to her and it’s been something she’s brought up several times but I never took it seriously, since it’s complete bullshit. Shortly after she went off on me, I removed myself from the situation and she asked my boyfriend if he really wanted to be with me, because according to her I make him miserable and depressed. Now that his grandpa’s dead, we’re back home and waiting for the funeral. But I’m not allowed to go. And she told us we’re kicked out in 30 days. I’m very stressed out, the cost of living is high where I live. And in lots of other places too. He tried to work things out with her today but she turned all of her pictures of him down (fucking dramatic) and told him that because she doesn’t like me (according to her I’m a lazy POS because I don’t cook my bf breakfast and wash his clothes everyday) her hands are tied and we need to leave. We both have jobs but it’ll be hard to make $1.5k rent every month. So what should I do? Any apartment rental advice? I’ve never rented one before, so I’m not sure how much we should save, what to look out for, etc. As far as his mom is concerned, he’s never going to speak to her again and neither will I. I’m more so concerned about getting us out of here efficiently.
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>>1254400nta but thanks i hate it
No. 1254516
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I am so tired of my job. I have finally gotten a new position but the two weeks i have to wait before leaving are becoming intolerable. I know it's nothing compared to what I've endured before but its like knowing there's a light at the end of the tunnel is making me even more desperate to gfto. The work is so mind numbing and boring I sit at my desk for hours doing nothing but staring at my screen until it gets close to closing time when I frantically rush through my tasks for the day. I hate how stressed it makes me feel but slowly tapping away over the course of hours is somehow worse? god I just want it to end
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I have to train some 16 year old smelly scrote who wears nail polish to do my shitty job and he’s rude and gets deeply offended every time you point out he’s not doing something correctly/tell him what to do. He smells like a wet sock all the time as well and it’s a small area like a kiosk so not only will I be trapped and essentially hotboxed in the summer heat with his BO, but people might think the stench is emanating from me. I have to spend Saturday AND Sunday with this smelly cunt.
No. 1254559
>>1254552I feel like I know who this is and if it is you I'm so embarrassed because that means you know what I've been bitching abt on here lmao
That said, his loss was awful and I hope he's in a better place now, and I'm sorry that you're hurting over it.
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>be a cosplayer
>have terrible eyesight
>want to cosplay character with different colored eyes
>looks online for prescription lenses
>finds the perfect color
>checks lens power
>only has negative prescription
>be very high in the positive range
Why do I even bother? I'm so jealous of people who can wear lenses for cosplaying at conventions, I guess I'll just stick to manually editing my eye color for pics only.
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nonnas i am extremely sad lately and idk why, it's a combination between me being extremely tired, feeling worthless/having body image issues (thanks to some friends joking about me putting on weight) and moid problems (this ties in to the worthlessness feeling), I wish I could go back in November when I was happy and oblivious, now I've been crying myself to sleep for the past few weeks
ik healing isn't a linear progress but i've been depressed for at least 7 years, when does it get better nonnas
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i am absolutely boiling with rage and sadness. why even make plans with me if you know you are going to be busy and tell me the day of the plan, and leave me on delivered when i ask questions if its still happening. i know why, well you can take your shitty anxiety and shove it up your ass. sick of everything right now sick of selfish people sick of inconsiderate people just about had it with everything right now and im crying. i made very firmly made both of them promise to let me know if they had something coming up and that it was okay if they couldnt make it and just to let me know and they both DID NOT in fact let me know. whatever. i hope at least that they feel guilt for doing this to me again, but i honestly doubt that'll happen. i dont know why i keep trying.
No. 1254937
>>1253654Lolcow is full of underaged immature retards, but just know that I hope the next time you insult one’s
abusive family they will tell you to please not do that anymore. And nah, but aggression is a scrote nature. Just look at the replies I’ve gotten.
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Everything sucks rn. Whenever I try to message one of my friends about coming over, they either ignore me, or they’re on vacation. I’ve just been so goddamn lonely for the past month, and I feel like nobody is truly my friend. Two of them have way closer friends, two of them just straight up ghost me, and my scrote friend seems to think I’m retarded cuz I told him I’m a sperg. Also, my Instagram sucks. All of the photos of me are ugly as sin, and I have nothing to post because I haven’t hung out with anyone. I keep forgetting to do my hobbies because of some dumb hyperfixation I have, and I feel like there’s nothing redeeming about me. 1 1/2 years ago my old friends drew me dying TWICE (sorta deserved) and I’m still not completely over it sometimes. Goddamn it. I think I might be alone forever.
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I made a co-worker worry about me to the point of her asking me if everything's okay, and then when I said that all's fine, she asked once more if everything's really okay. She said I don't seem as happy as compared to before (though I didn't understand if she meant before as in, compared to this morning or something, or compared to back when I started working there, and if I knew which one of these it is, it'd lift such a burden off of me) and truth is I really have been feeling down for the past couple of weeks and am somehow on the verge of crying for not reason at all (but I cry easily anyways, so it's not too surprising), but I don't know the reasons for it myself (well, most, that is. I'm sure about one, but I actually thought I'm starting to get over it already), and now I feel terrible for having it show in my behaviour so bad others seem to notice it. She knows I dread dentists to the point of literally fainting, so I should've just lied and told her I have an appointment next week. And I didn't even thank her for asking, which makes me feel extra bad (I'm already afraid she thinks I'm rude as hell). It'll be just the two of us at work for the next month, so I'll try to be extra cheerful I guess, and make more conversation and just pray for it to not seem too obviously forced.
No. 1255052
>>1254701Yes I’m on my period so he didn’t give me head we didn’t really kiss either beforehand
>>1254715He’s still not saying it was porn I don’t believe him tho I don’t know what to do.
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Fucked up my sister years long veganism but accidentally ordering her a non vegan version of a food. Feel like such a stupid faggot, she's really upset and it's all my fault because I always don't notice these things because im braindead. She's crying and I'm probably gonna cry about it too. I'm gonna make her a vegan cake tomorrow.
No. 1255065
>>1255017StOP pLaYiNg DuMB
I'm not talking about the crime statistics you dumb bitch I'm just asking why can't women be angry and aggressive without being accused of being a dumb scrote
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Jesus fuck nonnies I thought I had an aneurysm. One week ago I got an infection which I think was tonsillitis, today I felt great, like I was almost healthy, no fever, I just had a cough and stuffed nose. Suddenly everything started spinning, and the more I moved my head the worse it got, I wasn't able to walk straight without almost falling, while sitting I still felt as I was moving, I also got terribly nauseous, it was like a bad trip and it lasted for 30 minutes. I started crying from panic. My friend took me to a doctor, they thought I had corona but the test turned out negative. Then it turned out I have labyrinthitis, which I didn't even know existed. My viral infection must've somehow spreaded to my inner ear. I still feel like shit and I also lost hearing in one ear but I'm so damn glad I'm not braindamaged kek
No. 1255363
I want to punch my coworker. She was already a loud, obnoxious, horrible thing, but today, she’s in the office screaming about how her cop boyfriend has to attend a local pro-choice protest. “These stupid women! He has to spend his Saturday going to this stupid abortion protest! Go to Washington!”. Damn I knew you were an asshole already, but you hate women too? I just don’t understand why a woman couldn’t support other women, but I guess that’s misogyny and being an ill retarded pickme. I live in Texas by the way. No one even spoke up to say anything, other than a guy awkwardly laughing. Feeling even more unsafe in this stupid work environment, now that I know my coworkers hate women, and by extension me, and don’t want women to have human rights. I want to scream. I have to hide most of my views already, I ignore a lot of other shit these people say, but arguing about rights to bodily autonomy are what make me so angry.
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My birthday is coming up soon. Sitting here listening to "Who Wants to Live Forever?" and feeling quite existential over another year of life passing.
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I'm trying to solve my problems on my own instead of waiting for an opportunity to see a therapist. And by "solve" I mean get over the abuse (and its consequences) I've experienced as a kid. There are things that I have been ignoring since really young age and now I realized they are actively affecting my life. The more I think about it the more confused and kind of panicked I become, because I notice problems that I used to subconsciously hide, yet I have no idea what to do with them. I try to write about them, but since I'm not sure what questions I should ask myself it just leaves me feeling even more lost than before.
I know the process will be hard and long, but the worst thing is I don't know how to start!! If any of you have any books/youtube channels/blogs recommendations I'd be really thankful for that. (I hope it's okay that I ask about it here, the advice thread is kind of dead…)
No. 1255435
Pretty embarrassed to say this. I think I could definitely be called a ‘cow’ for this, but I feel like treating humans like ‘lolcows’ is hypocritical and unfair
I had a break from reality yesterday and got detained by police for 16 hours. They were going to put me in an institution, I talked my way out of it, pretending that I didn’t previously have plans to kill myself just in case the demonic stalking gets worse. That morning, before I got the police called on me, things around me things were looking pulsing, weird, apocalyptic. The screaming and crying voices were back. I was so convinced it was real that I was hyperventilating in a public place and tried to tell a woman to be ready for the end and to look and see the same things in the sky. She didn’t see it- I thought- is she in on it? Or am I cursed to see what’s coming? Anyway, next thing I knew I was taken to a ‘safe place’ against my will, searched, had my vitals checked. I was so embarrassed. They didn’t understand, I was almost laughing from the ridiculousness of it. I tried to make them happy so I could get home. But by the end of it, I was wondering if they were right and began to think, maybe my mind lied to me again. The initial memories of the experience were blurry, and I had forgotten to eat or sleep that day so I was too docile to react, and decided to have faith that they were telling the truth, hard as it was, as I wanted to go home, sleep, stop panicking. Then they asked me about seizures, family schizophrenia. I heard that word used in the appointments my mum made me go to. Service for people developing schizophrenia. And on this website, when I confessed my confusing experiences. But I hate that term because I don’t feel that loony. I don’t want to be hysterical, crazy, ridiculous, a permanent outsider. But I remember
>being aggressive with strangers i thought were agents keeping tabs on me
>the radio talking to me directly in a demeaning way
>yelling voices
>the feeling of people poking me and other skin feelings, like people breathing on my skin or spiders in my ears
>seeing people around me, religious books floating in the air, wild animals
>seeing signs im being stalked, feeling suicidal due to there being no escape
I haven’t been sure of reality for two years-that’s why I’m so nonchalant about where i end up-is this life a dream? Am i going to be taken away by my agents one day? Is the world ending? I never trusted anyone enough to truly seek help until recently-they’re either agents relishing in my pain, or they just don’t have my ‘sight’. But maybe i was wrong. I still don’t know. But what I do know is that whatever im going through, (if i choose to believe demons are not being released on me and i am not being followed) then i can say that it’s incredibly lonely. Incredibly lonely to live in a separate reality, to trust next to no one, to feel misunderstood. So maybe, like anons said I should, I will try to take a leap of faith and trust therapists. Maybe getting detained for the first time is a wake up call. Often I can’t ‘logic’ my way out of bad thoughts- I’m entirely at my brain’s mercy. That’s why I might start getting help.
No. 1255439
>>1255435Being a schizophrenic in of itself doesn't make you a cow.
Now, having BPD does.
No. 1255442
>>1255435if you let them help you at the hospital, you'll feel better. it is a safe place. if you feel overwhelmed with seeing things amd hearing things, you can call 911 and the ambulance can come bring you to the emergency room so you don't have to find a way to get there by yourself.
if you're feeling alright and can do everyday tasks, try making a doctor's appointment and get a referral to a psychiatrist. you don't have to live in fear.
No. 1255458
>>1254190Don't worry nona, it's never too late to start. Just do 20 a month that goes from your salary straight to a savings account. If you do more hours at work or get a promotion, or something, up it to 25, 0r 30 or whatever and if your bank does "save the change" where they round up any transactions up to the nearest 0, so for example, you spend 0.67, they put 0.33 into your account, it sounds weak, but trust me, in a month you have maybe 30.00 that you never even noticed. In 6 months that's 180.00.
It's addictive, when you get a little momentum, you will really enjoy seeing your little stash grow. I don't know your lifestyle, so I can't advise you further but I have managed to always build a small buffer whilst earning mainly minimum wage. I am frugal, but I don't live poorly, I really enjoy my life, and you can too anon, money comes and money goes in life, it won't be like this forever, either way, become a bargain hunter!
No. 1255467
>>1255442I’m not sure I want my autonomy taken away, that’s why I don’t want to risk going to an institution. I will try to put things together with appointments though. I don’t want meds to make me a zombie so i chose not to take them. I would rather take something natural like CBD (if that works), I really don’t trust meds.
>>1255452Schizo poster? I am uncertain of whether my reality is real or if I need help. But I’m so tired of feeling like I’m fighting alone, that I’m the only one who is real and being targeted excessively. For the first time since this has started, I’m making the active choice to believe something else- I still mostly believe that I am in danger, but I really want to not believe it. I want to be happy even if I have no proof or certainty. Life is a dream, right? And I want to choose this dream as a good one. I was going to take a salt solution so I could die painlessly and I couldn’t have my soul stolen, but if I have nothing to lose i might as well try to be happy. It’s very hard to take this leap of faith. It feels like I’m pulling the wool over my eyes, and maybe I am. What helped was to hear others describing the same thing. Either we’re all going to be dragged to hell or we have a problem that isn’t unique.
No. 1255468
>>1255463Get outside. Learn how to take care of yourself. Disconnect as much as you can from the news and everything. If you can maybe start establishing boundaries with your mom. >>Hey I don’t feel comfortable talking about this let’s change the subject?
Learn basic self defense, start lifting weights and getting active, learn about your local area the plants, the moon cycles, the rocks, the animals. Learn how to do anything you might need help with to be self reliant how to change a tire or oil. There’s ways to trim fat from your budget if you really need. Making your soaps, stretching food scraps. Start learning to take care of yourself and focus on connecting with the world and less on the doom and gloom society. I’m sorry nonni
No. 1255472
>>1255468Thanks! I already told mom but she gets offended as if not wanting to listen to her talk about politics 24/7 is somehow an insult. I told her talking about anything but politics and the dooming apocalypse is fine. On some other days she outright ignores my pleas for her to stop. I just don't know how she can completely lack self awareness.
Otherwise I'm fine. My work is great and nothing much has changed in my life. The world outside still seems to be the same one as before.
No. 1255552
>>1255467i understand how entering an institution is not a comfortable prospect. I've been put on the meds in situations like that before, and its uncomfortable to deal with a crazy dosage of antipsychotics you cant deny. i felt terribly uncoordinated, zombified and apathetic. though despite that, I haven't been forced on anti psychotics every visit, and I find being admitted to a ward to be extremely helpful if my psychosis gets very scary, even though the transition into the ward is sometimes miserable and embarrassing. it is good to remember that you will be allowed to leave in time, and they can't force you to take any medication once you've left. other schizophrenics I've met use alcohol and depressants to deal with the hallucinations and delusions, but I use cbd and low paranoia strains of thc to manage anxiety and the obsessive thinking, on top of rational journaling of my delusions and hallucinations, sometimes painting them. i wish I had more advice but I can say that managing delusions and paranoia is possible and gets easier with time, but you have to treat your schizophrenia like a condition thats trying to work against you and scare you into terrible decisions, to keep it in line and maintain a happy life.
No. 1255553
>>1255547nta but
>Be wary of using gender neutral language when it doesn't apply.Excellent point that I never explicitly laid out for myself. Thanks
nonny No. 1255557
>>1255547You're right anon, men are the ones annoying me I shouldn't indirectly include women
>>1255550>how do these men know about your virgin status?Someone snitched, probably that psycho ex-friend who tried to dox me
No. 1255564
>>1255555What the fuck??? Why does a "sex offender support" subreddit even exist???
What a fucked up world we live in…
No. 1255565
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Everytime you see a man getting into makeup, they treat it like it was like buying a car
>what is the absolute best eyeliner I can buy
>I am willing to pay 10-30 for the world's best foundation and will cry when I get called stupid
>I can't even fucking understand how to take makeup off properly
like why do they even fucking try, they're honestly so autistic with that shit, cannot understand why makeup would perform differently on different people. Ugly shit.
No. 1255567
>>1255544men are obsessed with virgins/virginity and probably pester you in hopes of you giving in to them. solution: kill all men.
t. 30 y/o virgin
No. 1255615
>>1254937NTA but what exactly is wrong with insulting someone who is
abusive? I seriously don't get what's with anons defending abusers lately.