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No. 98952
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Wtf does she cut with?
No. 98958
>>98951Holy shit, I forgot about her. If anyone wants to know what the fuss is about, just search "coldnessinmyheart" in google images, and prepare to be completely mortified.
There were quite a few people on tumblr who posted NSFL images of self-harm around the time she was on there too. I wonder what happened to all of them.
Coldnessinmyheart was a very special case though. I can't even begin to comprehend the things she did to herself. From what I can tell, people think she might be dead.
Any other former self-harmers here? Would anyone be interested in a self-harm support thread in /g/ or something? No. 98959
>>98957>https://kiwifar.ms/threads/coldness-in-my-heart-horrorcow-that-mutilates-herself.11726/There isn't a lot of info, she's basically disappeared from the net and most stuff about her is scattered around various places. AFAIK, her tumblr doesn't even exist anymore.
I don't want to save the pics of her self harm on my computer, you're going to have to look those up for yourself. It's highly disturbing though.
No. 98960
>>98959The kiwi thread is kind of informative, but it was written by a bunch of edgelords.
Here's pics if you want to see them:
>http://raptus.su/forum/threads/coldnessinmyheart-xolodvmojomserdce-self-harm-18.102/ No. 98961
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>>98960OH MY GOD ANON WHY
WHY
WHY AND HOW
Doesn't she feel pain????
No. 98962
>>98961what the fuck!??? and here I am freaking out over a tiny surgery wound not healing
she must had some medical knowledge to do shit like this. How come they don't pass out from shock or blood loss? they don't fear infections? severed nerves? cutting an artery?
mind= blown
No. 98963
>>98962I think there's a pic of one of her cuts looking pretty infected and she seemed aware of that on the caption.
I feel really sorry for her, how sick can you be to do something like that to yourself? I used to self harm but what she does is just unfathomable to me.
No. 98964
>>98961fuck.
I regret clicking this so much.
This is even worse than the pictures of quirky's vag.
No. 98966
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OP here, well since we're posting pics anyway here's the whole IMGUR album. Warning: most disturbing and horrific thing on the internet.
http://imgur.com/a/BEUQw#23I also found a pic of her face and her ex boyfriend.
No. 98969
>>98966What's with the tiny rectangle?
Slightly OT but i met a girl that looked like this at a party once and fml I got really fucking drunk and managed to talk to her about it. I still feel like utter shit about it, poor girl looked like she wanted to sink into the ground when my drunk ass talked to her about it.
She even had cuts in her face and on her boobs.
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>>98972I hope she recovered.
No. 98981
>>98961I don't understand anything about this photo. Mainly I don't understand how you wouldn't bleed to death, or die from … you know, like, being cut right the fuck open.
Jesus H Motherfucking Christ.
No. 98986
>>98985you do realize that it's common sense to be polite to other people and not point out their disfigurements, right?
oh wait, you're here, so you probably just have a raging case of autism. fag
No. 98992
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>>98979So you do weird shit and people cannot make fun of you for it? I understand if she was born with it or if someone else did it but if you yourself did it you deserve to get bullied every fucking day.
No. 98995
>>98992This is actually a pretty ignorant thing to say lol.
Yes, there are "cutters" who do it for attention and have a few cat scratches. But in a case to this degree, even cases of lesser degree, slicing your body open is an addiction like any other debilitating mental illness, for example anorexia. I sure as hell will not make fun of an anorexic simply for being anorexic.
I know an ex-mutilator that only did it in places people can't see but have millions of overlapping scars on their upper arms, they won't even take their jacket off during the summer out of shame and humiliation. Shit must suck. Don't be an ass, grow up a little.
No. 99001
>>98999Also, it's important to note that mental healthcare in third world countries is not that popular, for both financial and cultural/social reasons, so diagnosis for most mental illnesses - and therefore statistics - are not always available, nor are they representative of that country or region as a whole.
I wrote a research paper on mental illness in Africa a couple months ago, actually. People who say shit like "Third world African nations are actually the happiest!", or think that depression, BPD, bi-polar disorder, etc are non-existent fake illnesses made up by entitled westerners are very naive.
No. 99002
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>>98999>They were not poor and had access to food. now fuck off.
No. 99003
>>99001>'money doesn't buy happiness!!'It
triggers me like no other when people say shit like this, and it's derivatives. Being poor fucking sucks.
Sage for blogpost.
No. 99004
>>99002By using that line of text, you have like two possible points (both of which are fucking retarded):
>1. Anorexic people are supposed to be poor and have no access to food, therefore these anorexic people in third world countries are not really anorexic.This is fucking stupid, and I don't think I need to explain why.
>2. Third world countries are all poor and starving. If you live in [x] country and are not poor and starving, you actually live in a first world country by extension somehow!You're fucking idiotic, third world does not necessarily mean poor and starving. I was born in and still live in one, for fuck's sake.
All in all, you're wrong lmao.
No. 99005
>>99003No arguments there. But if you have brain problems, you will still have brain problems even if you have access to all sorts of indispensable resources and aren't also struggling just to live.
That's the worst thing about mental illness, really.
No. 99007
>>99006>I am poor, live in a third world countryHow "poor" can you be when you not only have access to internet, but have the free time to use that access to dick around on Chinese cartoon message boards?
I've seen actual poverty, and the average person walking down the street where I live most definitely does not shitpost on chan forums when he/she could be working, taking care of family members, studying, etc.
>but im also really really fatAnd?
>I was just quoting the text.Then what was your point behind "Now fuck off"?
>if you're rich or normal of course you can develop first world problems in a third world country.Then they're not "first world problems" anymore, are they? Just fuck off.
No. 99008
>>99006>How "poor" can you be when you not only have access to internet, but have the free time to use that access to dick around on Chinese cartoon message boards? I've seen actual poverty, and the average person walking down the street where I live most definitely does not shitpost on chan forums when he/she could be working, taking care of family members, studying, etc.I am studying and working pretty hard tbh it's exhausting
If you really want to know how poor I am, I share the same shitty room as my mum and siblings and it drives me crazy, seeing how other people have their own room I sometimes insult my mum and then I feel guilty lol even though I work my butt. We dont have a refridgerator for example but we do have many other priviliges I guess. I am here to forget the pain I have but I really did not try to be a dick itt. Ok maybe you dont deserve to be bullied every day but such people really does piss me off.
>And?I eat a lot thus have access to food but I will never develop first world problems. I was just clarifying that I meant poor people who have access to food.
>Then what was your point behind "Now fuck off"?Poor people (with access to food) will rarely develop anorexia nor will they engage in selfharm
>Then they're not "first world problems" anymore, are they? Just fuck offYes they are. Just because the MINORITY in a third world country are not poor and do shitty things like cutting doesn't mean they dont have first world problems. They are still unicorns, just like being rich in the first place.
I work hard to keep this internet bitch so dont tell me to fuck off :^).
No. 99009
>>99008>I eat a lot thus have access to food but I will never develop first world problems.You have easy access to food to the point where you're overweight, use the internet recreationally, and speak English semi-fluently. Sounding pretty first world to me. Mental illness/eating disorders are not "first world problems" in the least.
>Poor people (with access to food) will rarely develop anorexia nor will they engage in selfharmProof? If you had said there's no evidence that poor people develop anorexia or self harm the same amount as normal or rich people, that would've made sense, but you outright saying they don't develop it or develop it "rarely" is just wrong and retarded.
>Yes they are. Just because the MINORITY in a third world country are not poor and do shitty things like cutting doesn't mean they dont have first world problems. They are still unicorns, just like being rich in the first place.What makes you sure they're unicorns? Because you personally don't suffer? In fact, poor people have less of a chance of ever getting treated or have anything other than their immediate poverty/physical needs noticed if/when they are sick mentally.
No. 99014
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>>98992nothin personnel, kid
No. 99016
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Close up of arm
No. 99020
>>99018So you'd murder an innocent person and go to prison for the rest of your life because they were self harming?
I think you've got bigger problems than her m8.
No. 99021
>>98961It's weird, I think if I saw this knowing that was a dead body it wouldn't be as horrifying. Something about knowing she's alive and willingly did this to herself and took a fucking picture of it is so incredibly disturbing.
I can look at pictures of people's heads caved in and not flinch but this is just…fucked.
No. 99035
>>99033 I have somatic awareness of kidney function, nutrient absorption, glandular secretions. I am even conscious of the role that neurotransmitters play in my thoughts. This state of consciousness involves mental activity more intense than in any exercise-induced stress situation; part of my mind is maintaining a condition that would kill a normal mind and body within minutes. As I adjust the programming of my mind, I experience the ebb and flow of all the substances that
trigger my emotional reactions, boost my attention, or subtly shape my attitudes. You are melting down while I remain as calm and still as a lake.
No. 99037
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>>99008This person says they live in a room with a couple other people and people are saying nah you're not poor.
All of a sudden I realize why people think Taylor R's normal sized house is a mansion. This place is full of poorfags.
No. 99043
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>>99042i don't know about coldness in my heart but i always suspected at least part of emo cutter girl was edited. blood in this pic seemed off to me
No. 99045
>>98988Autopsy anon here. I only just found this thread wtf.
These wounds look very real I just cannot understand how she performed this many lacerations without causing a severe infection (maybe she did, who knows) and where is her pain tolerance?!
Her movements would be restricted due to the heavy scarring, similar to how burn victims have a reduced range of movement in the affected areas. Her cuts are very strategically placed in areas with high fatty tissue that bypass major arteries so she is basically just slicing skin and fat, which will heal much less painfully than muscular damage. She clearly cuts very deep that is why the skin splays out making the wounds appear really wide, plus the surrounding tissue is heavily scarred so it would be quiet rigid.
I have never seen shit like this before. She really is committed. Most peooevwho commit suicide this way have superficial "hesitation cuts" along the cut lines where they go for it a bit and realize that this is painful and you are going against your brain screaming at you to stop. It's not common to see any serious selfharm without hi station marks and I can't see any (it is hard to tell as her skin is litered with marks).
To all the edgy anons saying you'd love to do this to a person, fuck off. Go become a surgeon or something.
No. 99047
Here's some nice self harm for y'all. Some nice infections and buckets of blood.
http://imgur.com/a/Kxqo8NSFW, obviously.
No. 99049
>>98961This was one that we questioned as how much fat is in her leg to get a thick solid inch of it without muscle, veins etc.
I really can't go back and comment on all the ones we looked at as I can't stomach it anymore
No. 99051
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Here are a few more good ones. Pic related, it's her.
http://imgur.com/a/c7Cdd No. 99054
>>99046It's an addiction, anon. Just like alcoholism or drug abuse. A lot of people hurt themselves to deal with the pain and issues inside of them that they can't process. Some people just end up literally hurting themselves to relieve the pain they feel.
I'm not defending it and I reccomend anyone who self harms to get help as soon as possible, you don't want to live with those scars. But I do feel a lot of sympathy for them. It takes an incredible amount of anguish and self hatred to literally cut or burn your body. It's not an easy thing to do and I feel like we should all try to be more compassionate toward this poor girl.
inb4 shut up this is lolcow ect.
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>>99038
>It's an addiction as bad as heroin.idk man as an ex addict and someone who has cut i can say drugs are 10000000x better than cutting
No. 99070
>>99068This is ColdnessInMyHeart I'm talking about (to clarify). Her boyfriend in the pic above had a tumblr and wrote how he'd lost the best thing in his life RIP. Idk what she'd gain from getting him to pretend she'd died and if she was hacking herself so hard I can believe she'd Sudoku.
I can't post a ss of his blog post atm because I'm on my phone.
I sometimes wonder if she and emo cutter girl had access to antibiotics and maybe local anaesthetics. That'd explain how they cut so deep and perhaps the damage to their body and pain afterwards is what they wanted to achieve.
I have issues with people posting their gore fest pics, but this level of mutilation makes me feel bad for them.
No. 99071
>>99070I actually wonder if drugs were involved because that level of cutting is pretty intense, I don't know how she'd do it with a clear head. It's easier to get drugs than it is to get anaesthesia too.
And I'm not surprised she's dead, considering her state of mind. Plus she clearly hasn't been attentionwhoring since then.
No. 99073
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>>98961I kind of want to poke the adipose tissue with my finger.
No. 99074
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>>99073Same, not even ashamed.
>>99070I have a hunch that she was somehow involved in the medical community, whether a nurse in training or maybe she simply knew a medical professional.
>>98974Also an undertaker in training here. Having dealt with my own self-harm shit in the past, I'd definitely feel moved to treat her with great care and find a way to give her family some peace of mind.
No. 99075
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She posted on tumblr as reachforthesurface as well. Some of her posts come up on google search and some pics on image search.