>>930886AYRT and I get you, but if I don’t actively make an effort and “force it” (go up to people, say hi, share a little about myself, ask them what they do/if they want some gum/anything basically) I don’t end up talking to anybody at all.
I grew up alone in my room. I like solitary activities, I enjoy my own company, and growing up online only reinforced these tendencies. Which was weird, because I like being out there, I just didn’t know how to do it: how do you talk to people, how do you approach them, what to say when they speak, how to reply, how to keep a conversation going. Like many people here, I got a late start on the Skill of Socializing, so I don’t even have the muscle memory to be natural yet. I’m new and untrained, and when I socialise, I am still very forcedly inhabiting a foreign state.
I suspect a lot of people are here the same: they have to approach making friends as an assignment, same as any other assignment. For a lot of them it has to be methodical, because we don’t know what to do. We certainly weren’t doing it as kids/teens much, kek. In the end, progress comes from friction, and for those who have gotten too comfortable friction has to be forced.
>>930589That sucks, anon. When some makes fun of you like that again, bully them back.
Though, when I said “embarrass yourself” I meant like not caring about social fuck-ups, nobody remembers them anyway. And if they do, then weaponise your clownery into absolute self-confidence. If you’re self-assured, and not shaken much by external feedback, then you won’t care about looking silly. Not shying away from your retarded tendencies only betrays confidence. In the end I just found that if your confidence is built on others—if it’s that shaky—you’ll always end up being too busy guarding it and repairing it to be able to just have fun. Good luck, anon.