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No. 87952

Can we have a thread about Coldness in My Heart? I recently read up about her and it's the worst thing I've ever seen on the internet. Does anyone know if she's still alive? Protip: Don't Google her if you don't know about her

No. 87957

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Wtf does she cut with?

No. 87959

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No. 87960

>>87957
Please dont post that stuff here. First time I saw the album I couldnt sleep for 2 days

No. 87968

>>87960
OP already spoilered it, what more do you want?

No. 87970

Is this the same girl that had that picture of her holding that huge blood clot? God, I can't even fathom the kind of self-hatred a person like that has. Mental-illness is some shit man.

No. 87972

>>87952
Post info and links

No. 87976

>>87952
Holy shit, I forgot about her. If anyone wants to know what the fuss is about, just search "coldnessinmyheart" in google images, and prepare to be completely mortified.

There were quite a few people on tumblr who posted NSFL images of self-harm around the time she was on there too. I wonder what happened to all of them.

Coldnessinmyheart was a very special case though. I can't even begin to comprehend the things she did to herself. From what I can tell, people think she might be dead.

Any other former self-harmers here? Would anyone be interested in a self-harm support thread in /g/ or something?

No. 87977

>>87972
>https://kiwifar.ms/threads/coldness-in-my-heart-horrorcow-that-mutilates-herself.11726/

There isn't a lot of info, she's basically disappeared from the net and most stuff about her is scattered around various places. AFAIK, her tumblr doesn't even exist anymore.

I don't want to save the pics of her self harm on my computer, you're going to have to look those up for yourself. It's highly disturbing though.

No. 87978

>>87977
The kiwi thread is kind of informative, but it was written by a bunch of edgelords.

Here's pics if you want to see them:
>http://raptus.su/forum/threads/coldnessinmyheart-xolodvmojomserdce-self-harm-18.102/

No. 87979

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>>87978
OH MY GOD ANON WHY

WHY

WHY AND HOW

Doesn't she feel pain????

No. 87985

>>87979

what the fuck!??? and here I am freaking out over a tiny surgery wound not healing

she must had some medical knowledge to do shit like this. How come they don't pass out from shock or blood loss? they don't fear infections? severed nerves? cutting an artery?

mind= blown

No. 88013

>>87985
I think there's a pic of one of her cuts looking pretty infected and she seemed aware of that on the caption.

I feel really sorry for her, how sick can you be to do something like that to yourself? I used to self harm but what she does is just unfathomable to me.

No. 88030

>>87979
fuck.
I regret clicking this so much.
This is even worse than the pictures of quirky's vag.

No. 88062

>>87979
I think it has to do with some sort of tolerance, the more you do it, the more you have to increase to get an endorphine rush.

No. 88071

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OP here, well since we're posting pics anyway here's the whole IMGUR album. Warning: most disturbing and horrific thing on the internet.
http://imgur.com/a/BEUQw#23

I also found a pic of her face and her ex boyfriend.

No. 88075

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAA AI HATE MYSELF I HATE THIS WORLD AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I HATE PEOPLE AAAAAAAAA

No. 88079

>>88075
Seconding this. OMG WHY

No. 88080

>>88071
What's with the tiny rectangle?

Slightly OT but i met a girl that looked like this at a party once and fml I got really fucking drunk and managed to talk to her about it. I still feel like utter shit about it, poor girl looked like she wanted to sink into the ground when my drunk ass talked to her about it.
She even had cuts in her face and on her boobs.

No. 88083

>>88071
Ok HOLY FUCK. How has she not been sectioned and restrained? If anyone needs a straight jacket she's it. Meanwhile you see these cat scratchers locked up. Wow.

No. 88086

She's making that Emo Cutter Girl from back in the day look like a pansy, holy fuck

https://encyclopediadramatica.se/Emo_Cutter_Girl

No. 88088

>>88080
The tiny rectangle is supposed to highlight the beginning of a serious infection, people think she is now dead.

No. 88091

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>>88088
I hope she recovered.

No. 88097

I remember this girl. Unfortunately I feel like even if she had managed to recover, she would have been suicidal due to the damage done to the body.

I'm working towards my funeral director license and I cannot imagine how I would feel seeing her. I suppose I would be shocked of course, but a tiny part of myself would want to do anything possible to give her family a final look at her body without physical evidence of her pain.

Sage for being a fucking creepy OT undertaker

No. 88105

>>87979
How do you even heal from something like this? Does she stitch it up afterwards or does she just leave it? I can't imagine any hospital helping her without admitting her into a psych ward afterwards…

No. 88107

>>88105

idk either. According to the farm next door, in some countries hospital workers cannot commit someone without explicit consent.

No. 88163

I projectile vomited everywhere after googling her because, hey! I'm a stupid fucking cunt.
God dammint just imagining it makes my own arms sting like crazy gghghedfj
Does she feel no pain or what? Ughh, I hope she's either getting serious help or is just finally resting in peace because that shit is not okay.

No. 88169

I like to think I am pretty desensisitised to this stuff, and I feel like if I was looking at images of wounds inflicted by an animal or some kind of accident I would be fine observing them, but knowing that she's done them to herself completely horrifies me…

No. 88182

>>88080
Wow dude, you're a fucking asshole

No. 88195

this is some rad shit I enjoy looking at, idk man it seems just awesome. If there are other bitches out there who hate themselves this much, pls lend me your body so I can use it to do things like this pls pls
let me see your lipid tissue, muscles, tendons,bones, visors and stuff.

>I just have a lot of interest in human body, not a psycho fyi

No. 88196

>>87979
I don't understand anything about this photo. Mainly I don't understand how you wouldn't bleed to death, or die from … you know, like, being cut right the fuck open.

Jesus H Motherfucking Christ.

No. 88203

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No. 88213

Wonder if she's actually German as has been speculated. Also from some of her pics I get the impression that she might have some sort of medical training…? I mean, I don't know shit but some of these cuts just seem very deliberately placed, like the one exposing her shinbone.

No. 88219

>>88213
Wait, not shinbone, has got to be some tendon. Gotta step up my anatomy game. Question still stands, though.

No. 88484

>>88182
If you do dumb shit expect to be called out on dumb shit

No. 88490

>>88484
you do realize that it's common sense to be polite to other people and not point out their disfigurements, right?

oh wait, you're here, so you probably just have a raging case of autism. fag

No. 88501

>>88490
I'm the original idiot, not the "u will get called out" anon. Yeah no, I was raised better than that and I have never before, or after blurted anything to anyone about their disfigurements, and I feel like fucking shit for telling that girl how strong she must be to have lived through it. I honestly think my drunk idiot self just got so shocked by seeing it up close that I lost all common sense.

No. 88505

>>87952

How do I summon the autopsy anon from one of the Ashley threads? Confirm this is real??? Like wouldn't she pass out from the pain it's mental

No. 88511

>>88505

maybe sage post a link to this thread on Assley's thread requesting autopsy anon to come check it? then delete your post

No. 88513

>>87979
This is the most horrifying thing I have ever seen and I have a stomach of steel.

No. 88596

>>88513
wait to you see the imgur album

No. 88598

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>>88182
So you do weird shit and people cannot make fun of you for it? I understand if she was born with it or if someone else did it but if you yourself did it you deserve to get bullied every fucking day.

No. 88600

HOLY FUCKING SHIT I'll never click on the spoilered pic again

No. 88605

This was really fascinating, thank you farmers.

No. 88626

>>88598
This is actually a pretty ignorant thing to say lol.
Yes, there are "cutters" who do it for attention and have a few cat scratches. But in a case to this degree, even cases of lesser degree, slicing your body open is an addiction like any other debilitating mental illness, for example anorexia. I sure as hell will not make fun of an anorexic simply for being anorexic.
I know an ex-mutilator that only did it in places people can't see but have millions of overlapping scars on their upper arms, they won't even take their jacket off during the summer out of shame and humiliation. Shit must suck. Don't be an ass, grow up a little.

No. 88629

>>88626
I really don't care about first world problems sorry.

No. 88630

>>88629
>Ayy lmao depression and/or self-harm only exist in first world nations!!!
You are retarded

No. 88633

>>88630
Anorexia is rare in third world countries yeah.

No. 88634

>>88633
Nope. I love when retarded, self-righteous first worlders say that shit so I can prove them wrong.
>www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/15458991
>http//covenantuniversity.edu.ng/Profiles/Clement-Akomolafe-Ijeoma/Anorexia-and-Bulimia-Nervosa-The-Scenario-among-Nigerian-Female-Students
>http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/health/818725.stm

No. 88637

>>88633
Vietnam, Bangladesh, Pakistan, India… All countries with notable widespread eating disorder problems

No. 88638

>>88634
Also, it's important to note that mental healthcare in third world countries is not that popular, for both financial and cultural/social reasons, so diagnosis for most mental illnesses - and therefore statistics - are not always available, nor are they representative of that country or region as a whole.
I wrote a research paper on mental illness in Africa a couple months ago, actually. People who say shit like "Third world African nations are actually the happiest!", or think that depression, BPD, bi-polar disorder, etc are non-existent fake illnesses made up by entitled westerners are very naive.

No. 88641

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>>88634
>They were not poor and had access to food.
now fuck off.

No. 88642

>>88638
>'money doesn't buy happiness!!'

It triggers me like no other when people say shit like this, and it's derivatives. Being poor fucking sucks.

Sage for blogpost.

No. 88645

>>88641
By using that line of text, you have like two possible points (both of which are fucking retarded):
>1. Anorexic people are supposed to be poor and have no access to food, therefore these anorexic people in third world countries are not really anorexic.
This is fucking stupid, and I don't think I need to explain why.
>2. Third world countries are all poor and starving. If you live in [x] country and are not poor and starving, you actually live in a first world country by extension somehow!
You're fucking idiotic, third world does not necessarily mean poor and starving. I was born in and still live in one, for fuck's sake.
All in all, you're wrong lmao.

No. 88646

>>88642
No arguments there. But if you have brain problems, you will still have brain problems even if you have access to all sorts of indispensable resources and aren't also struggling just to live.
That's the worst thing about mental illness, really.

No. 88647

>>88644
I am poor, live in a third world country but im also really really fat. I was just quoting the text. But thanks for assuming my point, though! Anyways what I meant was that if you're rich or normal of course you can develop first world problems in a third world country.

No. 88648

>>88647
>I am poor, live in a third world country
How "poor" can you be when you not only have access to internet, but have the free time to use that access to dick around on Chinese cartoon message boards?
I've seen actual poverty, and the average person walking down the street where I live most definitely does not shitpost on chan forums when he/she could be working, taking care of family members, studying, etc.
>but im also really really fat
And?
>I was just quoting the text.
Then what was your point behind "Now fuck off"?
>if you're rich or normal of course you can develop first world problems in a third world country.
Then they're not "first world problems" anymore, are they? Just fuck off.

No. 88651

>>88647
>How "poor" can you be when you not only have access to internet, but have the free time to use that access to dick around on Chinese cartoon message boards? I've seen actual poverty, and the average person walking down the street where I live most definitely does not shitpost on chan forums when he/she could be working, taking care of family members, studying, etc.

I am studying and working pretty hard tbh it's exhausting
If you really want to know how poor I am, I share the same shitty room as my mum and siblings and it drives me crazy, seeing how other people have their own room I sometimes insult my mum and then I feel guilty lol even though I work my butt. We dont have a refridgerator for example but we do have many other priviliges I guess. I am here to forget the pain I have but I really did not try to be a dick itt. Ok maybe you dont deserve to be bullied every day but such people really does piss me off.

>And?

I eat a lot thus have access to food but I will never develop first world problems. I was just clarifying that I meant poor people who have access to food.
>Then what was your point behind "Now fuck off"?
Poor people (with access to food) will rarely develop anorexia nor will they engage in selfharm
>Then they're not "first world problems" anymore, are they? Just fuck off
Yes they are. Just because the MINORITY in a third world country are not poor and do shitty things like cutting doesn't mean they dont have first world problems. They are still unicorns, just like being rich in the first place.

I work hard to keep this internet bitch so dont tell me to fuck off :^).

No. 88656

>>88651
>I eat a lot thus have access to food but I will never develop first world problems.
You have easy access to food to the point where you're overweight, use the internet recreationally, and speak English semi-fluently. Sounding pretty first world to me. Mental illness/eating disorders are not "first world problems" in the least.
>Poor people (with access to food) will rarely develop anorexia nor will they engage in selfharm
Proof? If you had said there's no evidence that poor people develop anorexia or self harm the same amount as normal or rich people, that would've made sense, but you outright saying they don't develop it or develop it "rarely" is just wrong and retarded.
>Yes they are. Just because the MINORITY in a third world country are not poor and do shitty things like cutting doesn't mean they dont have first world problems. They are still unicorns, just like being rich in the first place.
What makes you sure they're unicorns? Because you personally don't suffer? In fact, poor people have less of a chance of ever getting treated or have anything other than their immediate poverty/physical needs noticed if/when they are sick mentally.

No. 88664

>>88629
Oh god shut up

No. 88665

>>87952
does she cut her bussy and pussy too

No. 88666

>>88071
at first glance dey lookin' liek dem blonde armenian hairy armz

No. 88667

>>88633
It's not you absolute moron

No. 88682

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>>88598
nothin personnel, kid

No. 89903

>>87970
>>88213
Emo Cutter Girl and ColdnessInMyHeart are not the same person.

No. 90178

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Close up of arm

No. 90189

>>88091
I feel a bit fucked up for being numb to this. I know it's horrifying but I've seen similar before on myself so some part of me just doesn't wanna hurl although I know I should. My situation was never as bad as this though, I really feel for her and it's shocking that she cut to that extent; even her face. I truly hope she got help, living like this is a vicious cycle.

No. 90191

>>88091
If I saw her irl I probably would have killed her. Yes I am crazy, but that's probably what I would do.

No. 90197

>>90191

Oh my god shut the fuck up.

No. 90210

>>90191

So you'd murder an innocent person and go to prison for the rest of your life because they were self harming?
I think you've got bigger problems than her m8.

No. 90217

>>87979
It's weird, I think if I saw this knowing that was a dead body it wouldn't be as horrifying. Something about knowing she's alive and willingly did this to herself and took a fucking picture of it is so incredibly disturbing.
I can look at pictures of people's heads caved in and not flinch but this is just…fucked.

No. 90226

The current status of her is basically unknown. Her ex says she is dead apparently but some say she is alive. I've read on MPA that she went into treatment and is doing way better now but no one knows for sure. Some say she was just very good with makeup and was never a cutter. Also, one person said she use to use some other cutter's photos off 4chan too. So, honestly who knows the truth about her and her current state right now. Too many theories to know the actual truth.

No. 90233

>>90191
Now this shit wont get you banned but posting in the "wrong" thread will, smh

No. 90328

>>90210
>>90197
>>90233
Oh shut the fuck up, why does everyone sympathize with cutters here on lolcow? Where did they come from? Ever heard of the saying "kill it with fire", are you all cutters?

No. 90332

>>90328
i bet you run a school shooter chic blog that has nothing but glamour shots of dylan klebold

No. 90334

Moved to >>>/pt/267232.



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