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No. 76574

What makes you cry at night?
What makes you disillusioned with this world?
What makes you consider suicide?
What do you loathe? Hate? Fear?

Politicians? Mental illness? Beauty standards? Relatives?

Unburden yourself of your misery here.

No. 76586

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>driving anywhere
>walking in malls or department stores
>reading nearly any post on an imageboard/forum/etc
>the "news"
>listening to people order food/talk on the phone/talk to their friends and dates
>people who still use old shitty memes that have been beat to the grave and back again
>people in general

I like some people, and some of the stuff we produce is cool, but damn I hate the majority of the population.

No. 76587

>>76574
Oh, just bullshit, like the ever growing overly pc tumblr culture that is enveloping society, bringing retrograde ideologies and politics back just for the sake of reinforcing those ideals. How people can make you feel so stupid with just a glance, how I'm unloved by my prarents and I feel guilty of them being miserable.
You know… First world shit nobody cares about. Kill me.

No. 76589

>>76586
Yeah in simpler words, I just hate other people too.

No. 76591

Fat activism, kintypes and self diagnosis make me want to fucking cry and never let my future children outside our property

No. 76600

Leaving my apartment tbh
I hate interacting with anyone

No. 76603

>>76600
Why do you hate interacting with people? What's your favorite "type" of person?

No. 76609

>>76603
Mostly stems from being extremely self conscious to the point that I can't handle even walking down the street
I've found I'm still miserable being alone in my apartment, but I definitely prefer it to actually being out and about

I don't have a favorite type of person really. I have no friends or even acquaintances

No. 76610

>>76609
Basically I just want to be alone at my PC

No. 76620

Being unable to make friends with anyone who doesn't want to fuck with my head, pull me into their conservative hivemind, or both. Genuinely nice and normal people scare and confuse me. I've just gotten too used to people telling me I can't do anything and trying to control my life. And even if I did somehow meet and befriend relatively normal people, I would be the one bringing shittiness into their lives. The cycle never ends.

No. 76621

I say I'm misanthropic but it's not really true. I don't truly hate humans or humanity, though I tend to dislike it a lot. But if I pretend I am then I won't be disappointed and can prevent myself from getting hurt. Or even hurting other people?

Lately the topper for what's making me miserable is the lack of control of my life. I can't do things I want to do, either because of something I can't control/outside causes, or because of myself, or a mixture of the two. It actually got to me pretty severely a couple months ago. Five years ago I thought that, right now, I'd be living 2000 miles away and happy and doing one of my dreams. I'm not, and as of a year ago I've talked to myself about my life enough to question whether or not I really want to do that anymore. I don't know if that's good or bad.

Additionally, I've gotten to the point where I believe life's to short to do anything or everything I want, so I may as well just do nothing.

No. 76624

College. I'm a perfectionist and it drives me fucking crazy. I decided to just do an easy semester and make up the credits in the summer to regain my mental health and make sure my GPA doesn't drop due to me breaking down, but that plan totally bombed because now my family has made it their #1 goal to berate and insult me daily for that decision and I feel even worse than before. When I graduate, marry my fiance and move into a house in the middle of nowhere I will be so happy.

No. 76638

Going through treatment. My psychologist says depression. My psychiatrist says depression and possibly adhd. I'm about to test for adhd and turn in my CAARS-S and CAARS-O. Nervous because I want the easy answer and I don't think my stupid mother will be able to give a legit account of my childhood. They don't believe in mental illness or disorders. So to her I've always been a demonic lazy little shit.

No. 76642

The people I want to make friends with/who would help me develop as a person don't give me a second look.

The people who I desperately avoid because they're tards who will bring me down even further keep hitting me up and trying to date me.

Feels bad man.

No. 76644

>>76624
Fuck em. Whatever it takes to keep your sanity. The pressure to keep your gpa up alone is hard enough.

No. 76711

>>76621
I love humanity in a big abstract way, but I tend to hate (or be indifferent to) most individual people.

No. 76847

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I can't find worth in anything.

I have all these lofty goals - get fit, study physics, read the classics, learn an instrument, write short stories and essays - but I quit after I start because I can't find any satisfaction or meaning. It all becomes pointless after a few days.

I don't know why I'm able to sustain morbid interest in lolcows for months at a time (a truly pointless shitty hobby) but am so apparently disillusioned with the world that I can't stick it out with anything worthwhile/that would realistically contribute positively to society.

Why am I so unmotivated?

No. 76851

>>76847
you're just really lazy

also just get some adderall or something fam. smh. or do some acid

No. 76890

>>76851
Did that. Soon went back to being the same asshole I was before.

Drugs are fun and productive when used with the right mindset. But I am completely fucked if I always need to be high/microdosing to get anything worthwhile done.

I'm ready to completely disconnect. I've lost touch with most friends and family, anyway.

No. 76905

>Bills, bills for everything
>The cost of living
>Owning a car but needing it too much to sell it
>Anxiety
>Depression
>Having to pay for health care
>Having to pay for college
>Diseases and illness (especially HIV and cancer)
>Manipulative people
>The 'list' life (school, college, job, home, marriage, etc)
>The fact that you can live a totally healthy life and die of cancer, or be super unhealthy and live to be 100

There's so much messed up shit in the world. I miss being a teen and thinking everything would be awesome, exciting, and happen exactly as I planned. Now as a 20-something whose attempted suicide before and feels like I'm stuck in a hole I can't climb out of… it really sucks. No friends b/c anxiety, family is busy, I'm always doing stuff alone… Thank goodness I have a dog to live for tbh.

No. 76909

I think I am hideously ugly with a horrible personality, and no talent and while I am very empathetic towards people I can't help but dislike a lot of people.

No. 76926

>>76851
Off topic but how can lsd help? With adhd? I find it hard to pin down a thought unless I'm on a high af dose.

No. 76931

>>76926
Microdose. You know that afterglow after a proper trip, where everything is clear and perfectly aligned? That's what you're aiming for.

No. 76959

I dislike people and people dislike me, simple as that. I just don't have any motivation to keep up like this.

No. 76963

>>76931
Like when you wake up? Doesn't really feel like it's over till I wake up the next day.

No. 77008

existential dread, the sort that keeps you up awake thinking over and over "I'm going to die. I'm probably going to see my parents die, if I'm lucky enough to grow old. I don't want to see my parents die and there's nothing I can do about it." shit sucks, man. I have like… the opposite of depression? I love life. I love my friends and family. I love growing older and learning new things. it just hurts to think about it all inevitably going away as it does for everything and everyone else.

No. 77023

>>77008
Same! I'm going through the biggest existential crisis right now. One night, I couldn't lay in my bed because I kept imagining being in a coffin. So, I sat in my rocking chair, in a ball, freaking out for luke an hour because it just hit me so hard.

No. 77024

>>77023
*like

No. 77025

Everything.

No. 77028

>>77008
>>77023
This makes me so freaking happy to read about. I've had so many issues last year over death and the concept of things ending that it was giving me extreme anxiety and I was crying every night for seemingly no reason.

I'm getting a little better. What's helped the most was taking charge of my own life. I got out of a long term relationship and decided that I was going to become a more well rounded person and really hermit mode to work on my craft/hobbies and myself. I'm also travelling A LOT more. Distraction seems the best cure for this problem, really. I wish you girls the best!

No. 77052

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>>76574
Being a failure.
Everything I do turns out bad, i.e. finishing my bachelors degree with bad grades. The disappointed look on my parents face when they hear about those things is horrible. I feel like I'm incredibly stupid, clumsy and ugly.

No. 77053

>>76574
Your image makes me feel miserable, OP.

No. 77060

>>77028
I'm glad others can relate! I've been working on self improvement and telling my loved ones how much I care as often as I can without sounding like a hallmark card. I guess it's kind of sweet that when I'm at my "lowest" and most afraid instead of doing harmful things I just cry and call my sister and tell her how much she means to me and sappy shit like that. At the end of the day I hope to be an old woman with a great life story and no regrets, who is simply exhausted from doing everything she ever wanted to do and is ready for a nice rest. That's the best case scenario I suppose, but having to say goodbye still hurts.

No. 77063

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My life is really unfulfilled and I feel like a shitty daughter in general. I'd rather be an oblivious idiot than the unthankful, bitter shut-in I am now.

Sometimes I wish I could just die because I'm so unappreciative of being alive. There are people who still have it worse than me.

No. 77065

I am 27, unemployed, and a borderline addict. I moved to a new city to be with my boyfriend two months ago… I don't know which would be worse, being unemployed or resorting to working at McDonald's. I had a really nice tax return/savings so money isn't an issue (yet), but I keep spending it on whiskey and Adderall. I feel useless. I feel old. I'm not overweight but I feel fat. My sister's birthday is tomorrow but she doesn't want anything to do with me anymore. I have no friends in this city other than my bf. I can't sleep, mostly because of the Adderall, partly because every time I close my eyes all I can think about is how ugly and useless I am. Typing this out makes me feel like all this is petty and temporary, but honestly, every day I think about killing myself

No. 77078

Fucking extremists. Most of my friends and acquaintances are normal people, but then there are the pc sjw tumblerinas and the paranoid gun crazy /pol/, and i don't want to be in contact with either of them, but I can't tell them off because I could lose my job and status in the group. I don't spend as much time with my friends anymore because I don't want to associate with the extremist idiots. Both of them make me want to kill myself, because their stupidity makes me lose hope for humanity.

Also the regular depression and anxiety disorder, not being able to work as much and as well as I should to move up in my job, not being able to communicate with my clients. I feel like I'm a shitty person because I don't contribute to the society as much as I should, I'm a shitty daughter, girlfriend and friend. Fuck.

No. 77086

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>no family except for mother
>no friends, online or IRL
>unstable/unhealthy relationship with bf
>untreated mental illnesses
>struggling-to-recover alcoholic
>poor as fuck/no insurance
>have done nothing with my life

I'm chronically lonely, depressed, and consider suicide all the time. I feel like at this point that's my only option since I can't seem to get help anywhere else.

No. 77087

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>horrible anxiety, feel dread 24/7
>depressed as hell
>no money and lots of bills/debts to pay
>banks and loan collectors keep calling for the debts I took for dad so he wouldn't go to jail
>6th year in college because I keep taking breaks out of financial reasons(at least it's free)
>living in a 3rd world shithole
>thinking about how I have no future
>thinking about death and the end of universe theories
>aging
>balding
>extremely lonely and love starved
>feel like I have nothing to live for, constant suicidal thoughts
>no gf
>small dick

No. 77105

>>77065
Why waste money on addy. Might as well just do meth

I hate the people i live with. They are such bitches

No. 77134

>>76574
>eating disorders
>fucking bulimia got stronger this year
>currently overweight
>hating my career and my classmates already
>I FUCKING HAVE TO BE THE TOP STUDENT SO I CAN GET THE NEXT YEAR FOR FREE.
>no $$$$ so if I fuck up everything, no more college bye bye
>no friends in college
>friends from school are getting tired of my shit
>socially retarded (if you didn't get the hint)
>no self-confidence, no self-steem
>did I already mentioned fat
>depression, childhood traumas, unloved by both parents
>gay
>3rd world
>bad teeth
>can't afford treatment

No. 77137

loneliness. I'm a sad, lonely, never been kissed virgin.

I had a friend in high school but we weren't that close and she moved away. There was a guy I really liked but he was in love with someone else.

haven't managed to make any new friends at university. I don't enjoy parties and excessive drinking and that seems to be all anyone ever does here.

No. 77138

>>77134
>bulimic
>overweight

what are you even doing kek

No. 77140

>>77137
iktfb, everything except the college part as I'm not very bright and graduated high school with like a 2.3 GPA. I'm job searching and I talk to like, 3 people a week. I need to step up my game

No. 77143

>>77138
Some people don't purge after binging,.

No. 77148

>feeling fat despite being underweight because of a 5 kg weight gain (was severely underweight before so it's not a big deal, still sucks tho)
>finally having "friends" but not knowing how to conciliate them and bf
>being unable to study due to mental illness
>the fact that I'll get barely passing grades due to mental illness after two years of 9/10 on average

I just want to get better, I just don't have the guts to see a psychiatrist because I'm too proud and perfectionistic to admit I need/accept help.


>>77138
You sound like someone who doesn't know shit about eating disorders

No. 77238

>>77138
>>77143
I do purge; if I didn't it would be a binge eating disorder. Anyways I try not to overdo it since I'm well aware of the consequences if not already feeling them. Also, it's disgusting and I feel ashamed.

No. 77368

My bf not fucking me the way James Deen fucks some random bitch. Actually, my be not fucking me period. I'm about to go columbine.

No. 77803

what makes me miserable..
existing, that in itself

No. 77845

The fact that I hit 25 in 2 months and I'm still living with my parents. Sleeping on the couch.

I was always desperate to leave, I remember on my 16th birthday I went to my local housing office to apply for a house. My parents were way too overbearing, too controlling and inquisitive. I'd go out for walks all day, every day because it didn't feel like home.
I moved out at 21, then came back, then out again. Not once did I miss this place, or feel "homesick" for it.
When I broke up with my boyfriend, I came back in September with the intention of quickly learning to drive at getting the fuck out, and at the time I used about 90% of my time for something constructive so it wasn't impossible to me. I booked and passed my theory test within a fortnight, and already had a couple of lessons. Then I began to slow down because I had to work too. I hated the lessons, and had an intensive burst of shifts from my Christmas job, so January I did nothing. February I did nothing, now I'm into March.

Since October I've been meaning to brush up my CV. I have sheets of paper with the month's goals, and every one had "brush up CV". It's easy to let go of, but then I think. I haven't applied for a proper career job in 5 months now, when I intended to. Still not done it. Still not got back into driving lessons. And I have NO idea when I'll move out, and where to. It's like I've lost all will to live a life.

That's what's making me miserable.

No. 77852

>>77368
You're upset your bf doesn't fuck you like an overrated manlet rapist?



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