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What is wrong with you? Anonymous 02/13/21 (Sat) 09:52:36 PM No. 738660

What makes you so awful? Why are you such a garbage human? Give an unfiltered honest summary of everything wrong with you here.(shit thread)

Anonymous 02/13/21 (Sat) 10:17:54 PM No. 738683

I 100% hate my little brother and wouldn't shed a tear if he died, idc if he's just a little kid he's annoying as shit and lazy as fuck. I'll be the least disappointment child in a few years after he grows up and my parents give up on him, and I can't wait. Fuck the little scrote.

Anonymous 02/13/21 (Sat) 10:20:35 PM No. 738688

>>738660
I'm so fucking lazy and self-centered but self-centered in the way that I just spend all day criticizing myself and ruining my own life and I don't leave room in my brain for anything other than hating myself

Anonymous 02/13/21 (Sat) 10:22:02 PM No. 738690

I have almost no life experience and it was partially my choice.

Anonymous 02/13/21 (Sat) 10:23:05 PM No. 738693

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I don't even know where to begin, OP.

Anonymous 02/13/21 (Sat) 10:30:09 PM No. 738705

I have a terminal illness called autism.

Anonymous 02/13/21 (Sat) 10:30:46 PM No. 738706

Absolutely nothing, moving on

Anonymous 02/13/21 (Sat) 10:57:04 PM No. 738728

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>>738690
My soulmate.
I also have assburguers and want to be social but my social anxiety and lack of understanding of social cues makes me a hot mess.

Anonymous 02/14/21 (Sun) 02:08:17 AM No. 738821

Mummy and daddy don't love me kek

Anonymous 02/14/21 (Sun) 10:07:52 AM No. 739010

I'm a mean cunt and also a bully.

Anonymous 02/14/21 (Sun) 10:11:59 AM No. 739011

A painting literally fell on me when I was an infant

Anonymous 02/14/21 (Sun) 10:34:38 AM No. 739018

Im sexy

Anonymous 02/14/21 (Sun) 10:41:26 AM No. 739019

>>739011
what was the painting of anon?

Anonymous 02/14/21 (Sun) 10:52:21 AM No. 739025

>>739019
Just a modernized madonna with child. Also for intellectual honesty I have to say it didn't actually hurt me… did it?

Anonymous 02/14/21 (Sun) 01:54:42 PM No. 739107

My brother pushed me off the bed because the sun in Teletubbies scared me so much I cried.

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 02:53:58 AM No. 739542

>gloomy
>lazy
>procrastinator
>low libido
>shopping addiction

it's probably never gonna change.

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 06:22:13 AM No. 739657

I think this thread is nice.

>pathological liar
I lie about the littlest things and sometimes I don't even know why. The only place I feel comfortable being honest is online.
>rude (sometimes)
>lazy
>avoidant
>gassy

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 06:45:52 AM No. 739677

> Lazy
> dumb
> won't take meds
> Zero attention spam
> A whore but too introverted and shy to embrace it
> Can't be bothered to hold conversations anymore
> depressed but won't acknowledge it
> too lazy to change

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 06:53:44 AM No. 739684

>blame everyone but myself for my own mistakes
>lazy
>procrastinator
>delusions of future greatness that cause me to have regular meltdowns when I realize how unrealistic it is
>aloof to the point my friends tell me I'm cold
>hate myself yet at the same time have a god complex
>sometimes I forget other people exist and don't contact them for weeks or months

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 06:56:19 AM No. 739688

>porn addiction
>stupid and lazy
>overweight
>ocd and depression
>guilt complex

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 03:06:21 PM No. 739888

>no social skills
>avoidance
>gloomy
>procrastinator
>afraid of intimacy

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 03:41:06 PM No. 739910

>forgetful
>try to get by doing the bare minimum
>can barely hold conversations
>barely catches up with friends and family
>doesn't drink or smoke, practically straitedge
>selfish
>secretive
>bully and gossips about friends behind their backs to boyfriend

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 03:45:21 PM No. 739911

>>739910
>doesn't drink or smoke, practically straitedge
How is this a bad thing?

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 03:53:32 PM No. 739913

>>739911
nta but it's uncool

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 04:51:29 PM No. 739953

>>739911
Socially, it turns people away

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 04:55:45 PM No. 739961

>>739913
>uncool
So we're still acting like shitty teenagers huh

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 05:20:27 PM No. 739997

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it all started when i was born

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 05:37:44 PM No. 740029

Legitimately thinking of doing emotional support gf roleplay/sell used underwear for money online. Every day in my retail part time, I feel 99% ready to have an autistic meltdown and hurt someone.

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 05:38:52 PM No. 740031

>>740029
Don't, please, you can never keep it just at that, men will try to force you into doing more or will find your address etc.

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 05:44:59 PM No. 740039

i used to eat insects when i was like 2-3

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 05:45:14 PM No. 740040

>>740039
mm yomy

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 05:54:37 PM No. 740048

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God never liked me and I’ve never been able to be normal because of it

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 05:56:56 PM No. 740051

>>740040
i also used to play with dead mice

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 06:04:25 PM No. 740058

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>>740048
relate very much

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 06:06:21 PM No. 740061

>unable to have friendships when they don't 100% accept who I am and how I act (I'm not the most sociable)
>procrastinating and (further) ruining some chances for my further development all the time
>most annoying smart ass you've ever met and kind of proud of it, I'll make you feel dumb for not knowing XYZ
>cute and sweet on the outside and a backstabbing bitch if I have the slightest reason (see first point)
>so much more that my brain won't let me focus on

Ugh. But I can't say I'm unhappy though, I've created my little bubble.

Thank you for this shit thread, anon.

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 06:17:14 PM No. 740067

>>740051
once mm yomy forever mm yomy, anon

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 06:17:25 PM No. 740068

I don't really want to change. I'm more nervous about being asocial and having no friends for practical reasons than emotional ones. I know that no one will love me unconditionally like my parents anyway, so they won't even try to meet me halfway but try to get the most benefits for the least effort.
I still envy people that have concrete goals and dreams, mine is just to be left alone.

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 06:38:30 PM No. 740086

I suck a little but refuse to change.
>impossible to get close to
>socially lazy, hate maintaining friendships
>selfish
Basically I'm just a big loner, but also nice so some people are tricked and try to be my friend anyway. Sucks for them.
It makes me sad sometimes, but in general I've never been happier. At least I'm not destructive or mean.
>>739910
>doesn't drink or smoke
This too. But it's good because it turns people off before I ghost em.

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 06:56:39 PM No. 740100

I'm too sensitive, I take everything to heart and I think I am too much of a baby for this site

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 06:58:56 PM No. 740103

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>mean spoiled rich girl who did nothing to "earn" it other than marry a trust fund baby
>intense anxiety and paranoia
>depression
>OCD
>pathological liar
>fat
>alcohol problem
>destructively lazy
>probably have sociopathy and NPD- at the very least, close enough to raise the question
>"bigoted" toward certain groups
>vastly judgmental
>painfully socially awkward

I honestly DGAF about being "a good person" anymore. What makes someone "a good person" is so subjective and mentally draining. I don't feel good or happy when I try to be "a good person", it just doesn't come naturally. I'd rather just embrace my self-serving nature and only focus my energy on the things I need to improve that actually benefit me, like getting in good shape and being less lazy so I can accomplish my goals.

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 07:00:03 PM No. 740105

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Nothing. I’m awesome.

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 07:28:17 PM No. 740148

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>I don't lie very much but I omit the truth.
>Dont feel guilty about things I should
>Sometimes want to kick a child that is being annoying. Never ever have or would, of fucking course, but I fantasize about it when a baby is screaming.
>Find a lot of people disgusting, look down on people who are dirty, hoarders, or have a lot of sex (either gender)
>Always either too blunt or too passive with no in-between
>Too scared to say no to people whos feelings I shouldn't care about
>Little initiative, have to wait for someone to tell me to do something instead of doing it
>Spends just a little too much money on dumb shit
>Didnt adopt, bought from breeder
>Poor social skills in general
>Just enough will power to stay thin but not enough to get fit
>Eat way too much sugar
>Emotionally cheated on my ex boyfriend guilt-free.
>Think I want someone to do something but when they do it I get angry
>Internet stalk people from high school
>Gets unironically suicidal with a normal job
>Mood swings
>Secretive, best friend didn't know I was dating someone for a year and a half
>Used to catfish when I was 11-13
>Ghost men who get annoying or thirsty
>Maladaptive daydreaming
>Sympathy for those who are undeserving
>Dont always live by my principles (I eat diary even though I think it's wrong)
>Only helps others if it's not too difficult or will make me feel good
>Work so much at my passions I neglect friendships and stop talking to people. Will cancel plans because I dont want to pause working.
>Bad humor, not funny
>Says gay, retarded, faggot, and make edgy jokes
>Go on 4chan
>Compulsively watch gore and beheading videos even though I hate them
>Chameleon into whatever person Im talking to. Scared to be my authentic self, ie: talking to a SJW I will highlight the SJW parts of my personality.
>Dont call my parents enough even though our relationship is OK
>Havent read a physical book in over a year
>Would probably kill someone for 100 million dollars
>Gets excited when horrible world events happen because it's exciting (ie, earthquakes, hurricanes)
>Incredibly easily humiliated

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 08:33:48 PM No. 740211

>>740068
Hermits unite. People are draining and confusing, I want to be by my autistic self. And yeah once you get into your 20s everyone has already formed their close relationships, and only want to speak to new people to get something out of you.

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 08:50:55 PM No. 740234

With time I come to despise the people who claim to love me or know things about me. I can't stand opening up to people and being my real self, I know they will use that information against me one day and if something slips out and they learn something intimate about me I just want to smash their face in. I want to feel superior all the time. I'm a nasty bitch who fakes being nice all the time so that someone will give a shit about me but then gets too tired when they expect more. I shower people with meaningless compliments because I know what they want to hear, but then they confuse it with genuine love and I can't fucking stand that. I know people get close to me to get something out of me and that infuriates me. I'd rather stay alone.

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 08:52:32 PM No. 740237

I can't cook. I made myself sick once by adding too much butter to a grilled cheese that didn't even get melted in the center.

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 09:03:05 PM No. 740248

I'm just really really lazy AND depressed when confronted with that reality. Changing is so hard though. Otherwise I'd be a real decent human bean.

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 09:04:11 PM No. 740249

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>does not answer messages, even from friends
>cant bring self to comfort people despite being internally pretty empathetic
>thinks showing emotion is gross and unpleasant
>extremely lazy and does nothing 24/7
>has artistic skill but, again, is too lazy and does not have the stamina to actually use it
>extremely judgmental of other people and cannot make friends due to this
>has a habit of repeating the same dumb, obvious statements over and over eg “wow, this is great! Wow, man, this is great! This is seriously great!”
>is a terrible driver and will probably wind up accidentally killing self or others due to this

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 09:22:15 PM No. 740268

>assburgers
>whore

That about sums it up.

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 09:25:21 PM No. 740273

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>spoiled
>avoidant
>dependent
>insecure

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 09:37:24 PM No. 740285

I'm manipulative. And fat.

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 09:43:23 PM No. 740292

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I withdraw from life quite often and forget to stay in touch with family and friends

I have an addictive personality and abuse my adhd medication

I am really black and white in terms of thinking so I go hard on whatever I interested in and then get sick of it and don’t touch it for months (diets, foods, drugs, media, etc)

I have constant intrusive sexual thoughts and daydream about sex a lot

I am really socially inept at starting relationships with men and as a result have difficulty breaking the cycle of getting into shitty relationships and getting out

I can be both overly forgiving / a doormat and hypercritical and struggle finding the in betweens

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 10:29:29 PM No. 740329

I sleep with 16 year old boys and break their little hearts because they’re the only people that still like me.(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 10:33:43 PM No. 740336

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>>740329
kill yourself

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 10:44:17 PM No. 740342

>>740336
it’s legal in my country, seethe

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 10:45:02 PM No. 740343

>>740342
Ok onision

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 10:48:03 PM No. 740347

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>>740329
stop being a degenerate and seek help

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 10:50:01 PM No. 740349

>>740342
It's legal in my country as well. You're still a degenerate.

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 10:53:22 PM No. 740355

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>>740342
imagine actually defending that stance lmao

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 10:56:45 PM No. 740357

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a lot of things but i just recently realized i have to add emotionally abusive to the list. Also narcissist while we're at it. I want attention to be constantly on me and withdraw if it's not, come back like nothing happens, make it about me when they're clearly upset. I can't afford therapy, i don't think i shouldve tried getting into a relationship at all. i'm never getting in a relationship again after this, i don't want to suck anyone else's life out of them

Anonymous 02/15/21 (Mon) 11:19:42 PM No. 740370

>>740357
same

Anonymous 02/16/21 (Tue) 12:14:49 AM No. 740397

>>740357
Just wanted to say the fact that you recognize this in yourself means that there is hope for improvement, so good on you. Also, realize that this type of behavior doesn't come from nowhere. You learned it from someone. But it is up to you now, as an adult, to do what you can to stop perpetuating the cycle.

Anonymous 02/16/21 (Tue) 02:04:17 AM No. 740454

> procrastinator
> very judgmental (at least I always keep it to myself)
> addictive personality that has manifested in way too many weird and unhealthy ways
> go for periods in which I alienate myself from everyone and everything
> lazy
> forgetful
> cancel plans all the time (getting better at this)
> anxious as fuck, my nails can't catch a fucking break and i'm always in pain because of how much I bite them
> when I have a discussion with someone I can't stop thinking and talking to others about it
> need to share friends/acquaintances and mine's business excessively
> spent too much time as a teen on the internet and now my brain is fucked up in all senses
> not the person my child self wanted to become

Anonymous 02/16/21 (Tue) 02:12:59 AM No. 740460

>>740454
hmmm this sounds an awful lot like me

Anonymous 02/16/21 (Tue) 03:12:33 AM No. 740484

>neet
>schizoid paranoid and borderline
>bdd
>no education, didn't go to high school but have a GED
>shopping addiction, gets fixated on buying certain things for months or years at a time (once it was makeup, then clothes, now its fucking anime figures and art books)
>degenerate weeb, always was a weeb but i went to japan in 2019 and i became x100 worse
>23, hasn't had any friends since early 2010s
>happy about covid because i have an excuse why left my house less than 10 times the past year
>have tens of thousands of dollars worth of nice clothes, only wears pajamas all day

Anonymous 02/16/21 (Tue) 03:52:11 AM No. 740493

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>severe trauma came with a shit ton of issues that I'm too scared to get diagnosed for
>blame everything on my disabilities and mental health issues because it's easier than to work on it
>dropped out at 15 because I told everybody I was going to od but did anyway a year later.. twice
>after years still haven't gotten my GED and lies to everyone that covid is booking up taking the test because I'm so mentally out of it that I can't even fucking add two numbers together
>extreme maladaptive daydreamer to the point where I sometimes forget that my friends in my imagination aren't real
>friends are worried about me but I never answer
>haven't gotten drivers license yet and probably won't for years because I'm too scared/lazy but blame it on a minor car accident from when I was a child so that people feel bad for me
>manipulative and will use somebody to get to where I want to want to if it means I won't get caught
>can't stop binging then starving then binging then starving then binging then star
>no valuable life experience because my entire life I've trained in the ~arts~ from birth to high school and job applications don't care about dance or musical theater
>will literally end my life if doing youtube doesn't work out because there's nothing left for me
>most likely a lesbian but too ashamed to come out for my reputation around family and friends
>will never tell my therapist about any of this

Anonymous 02/16/21 (Tue) 04:04:58 AM No. 740500

>>740329
this site is for women only, nikita

Anonymous 02/16/21 (Tue) 04:26:47 AM No. 740512

>>740493
That's pretty heavy, anon. I'm sorry you're dealing with so much. Why are you afraid to talk about any of it with your therapist?

Anonymous 02/16/21 (Tue) 04:42:24 AM No. 740517

>relentlessly critical of my appearance
>afraid to age because my looks will fade and I'm probably never going to be in a position to afford plastic surgery
>attention-seeking
>constant self-sabotaging thoughts and behaviors
>relentless cyclical negative thoughts that I can't get rid of unless I drink or take xanax
>self-harm every few months or so
>got sucked into Qanon-esque conspiracy bs back in 2015-2016 and ended up voting for trump
>sincerely regret doing this but too afraid to be honest with anyone about it out of fear of being ostracized
>someone (most likely my ex) told at least one of our mutual friends that i voted for trump. I denied it when he confronted me about it and claimed I had no idea what he was talking about
>convinced that nobody in my life actually likes me and just tolerates me because they feel sorry for me

Anonymous 02/16/21 (Tue) 08:19:46 AM No. 740591

>>740517
Okay you do not have to be defined by a vote that you made in 2016… also they were both wack so imo there wasn’t a better choice to pick of the two. Anyways… if someone would hold that against you they’re so fucking shallow and don’t deserve your friendship . Fuck cancel culture

Anonymous 02/16/21 (Tue) 08:25:56 AM No. 740596

I’m 22 yr old and I work for corp. Amazon and people make fun of me for it bc my interests personally are quite the opposite and I do a lot of drugs. I do drugs while working almost everyday and have been high off my mind off Xanax. My brothers mom was murdered and since then he’s been a disaster and I’ve been avoiding him bc I’m scared of him. I’ve only met him 3x. I’m very stressed as he is a drug addict beyond beyond.. also I still love Ariel pink and I could give a fuck about politics although I do follow it.

Anonymous 02/16/21 (Tue) 02:14:46 PM No. 740716

>lazy
>ghost undeserving people out of social anxiety
>barely ever take initiative to do anything and then proceed to whine about boring life
>terrible at etiquette and manners
>inconsiderate of others, will forget to offer drinks to a guest, will forget to get people birthday presents, never remember to bring souvenirs for people
>self-absorbed, will drone on about whatever new epiphany I've had about my psyche that nobody cares about
>will get annoyed over some minor stress, start an argument, and then get upset when the other person isn't over it within 5 minutes
>very jealous of people who are better off than me, mostly financially or appearance-wise

Anonymous 02/16/21 (Tue) 02:34:43 PM No. 740731

>>739542
Basically same.

I fit a lot of quota for schizoid personality disorder, but I used to have a lot of interests and hobbies, so I guess it might be depression to some extent. That and being constantly tired.

Anonymous 02/16/21 (Tue) 11:44:13 PM No. 741324

>>740596
I also still love Ariel Pink and generally never stop liking ~problematic~ celebrities as long as they arent a pedo or rapist

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 02:06:36 AM No. 741395

>lazy
>asocial
>procrastinate too much
>so socially inept and socially anxious that I come off as a massive retard to people I don't know well
>lack of motivation in life due to depression
>spend too much time on the internet/computer, pretty much all day usually
>sperg out about sensations in my body bc hypochondria
>super insecure
>was already somewhat of a shut in before covid and only left the house for college
>haven't made any new friends since middle school
>loner
>loser
>self absorbed
>overthink
>flaky
>selfish
>aloof
>disorganized/messy

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 02:12:14 AM No. 741398

>NEET
>ADHD
>Judgy
>Zero social skills
>Mean as hell
>Spends all my money on alcohol and dumb shit
>Weeaboo
>Aloof to the people I actually like

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 02:49:42 AM No. 741413

>overly critical of others (probably why i found lolcow kek)
>slutty
>flaky
>pushes everyone away

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 03:01:27 AM No. 741418

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>>741395

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 03:12:00 AM No. 741422

Nothing tbh

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 03:29:40 AM No. 741430

I don't feel bad for wasting my parents money on an expensive degree that I dropped out of even though we're poor.

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 04:11:20 AM No. 741446

>in relationship but still in love with my ex
i lie about being in love w current gf. have tried to break up multiple times but get sucked back in bc im weak and selfish and still want her in my life

>victim mentality
>spoiled
>must be hottest and best person in the room
>texts and drives
>little effort to be friendly with people
>i think i manipulate situations to where all my exes say they were the wrong ones and i didn't do anything bad
>judgmental mainly so i can feel better than them
>talks so much shit
>extremely irritable to where i know i don't want to hang out with anyone bc i'll get mad
>don't know directions to simple places
>can't do simple math
>obsessed with games of any kind..video and board and phone
>gets fast food all the time and keeps cups see below
>pees in cup bc too lazy to go to bathroom

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 04:15:26 AM No. 741449

I don't feel bad for being useless. We're living in a simulation, so who cares. We're all gonna die anyway and no one truly gives a fuck about someones existence. You think anyone gives a fuck? The capacity of a human being to be able to fully remember a person is limited. I rarely remember good things that happened to me, mostly bad things, but even so, it's blurry af. The image people created of me in their heads is unimportant, as it does not reflect my true self. What i'm trying to say is, existence is meaningless, because everyone is egocentric. That's the point of life

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 04:18:20 AM No. 741453

>>741446
>pees in cups

Anon…. this is a women’s board…

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 04:22:22 AM No. 741454

>>741453
i have experience peeing in containers for people to pass their drug tests

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 04:40:20 AM No. 741463

>>741454
Womp womp penis detected
As an actual factual vagina owner I don’t believe you. There is no way for a woman to pee in a cup EASIER than peeing in a toilet.

I’m laughing a bit imagining a woman really doing this. You’d have to be so self deprecating to really force yourself to go through all the pain of peeing in a cup, taking your pants completely off, squatting like a china man over top of a plastic cup, only to dribble pee all over your hand, the outside of the cup and the floor. How could that be any easier than peeing in a toilet?

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 04:40:23 AM No. 741464

>>741446
>don't know directions to simple places
>can't do simple math
These will never be flaws in my eyes, but rather traits that build wonderful character. If I don't know the landmarks of an area, I'm GPS'ing that bitch. 2+2=? What do I look like? A calculator?

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 04:50:19 AM No. 741466

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>>741463
are you retarded. i don't take my pants completely off, do you think i sleep in a onesie like you? pee gets nowhere on or around me? when i walk all the way to the bathroom in harsh lighting i can't go back to sleep and am up for the day even though its 4 am. im also laughing at you being worked up over pee in a cup it's such a silly topic

>>741464
it truly embarrasses me in front of people and they always comment on it. i think this is actually a thing similar to dyslexia

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 04:55:17 AM No. 741467

>>741466
Oh you mean something like dyscalculia? In that case, no shame in that. Kinda shitty if people know you struggle with it for real and make fun of you for it.

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 05:04:13 AM No. 741471

>>741463
If you can't make a good stream to pee into a cup, then you just are extra gifted in the labia department, sweetie. It's like a little tongue going pspspsps so you pee in sprinkler mode while us more refined labias have a perfect, controlled stream. I'd be upset too.

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 05:04:44 AM No. 741472

>>741466
Do you lay in bed and pee? How do you do this anon?

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 05:06:13 AM No. 741473

>>741446
anon I never thought I would admit this to anyone ever but I also pee in a cup sometimes. I have to get up and pee like 3x a night, sometimes more, so out of convenience and utter laziness I will pee in a cup.

I'm also a dumb bitch when it comes to math so yeah you are not alone

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 05:10:49 AM No. 741478

>>741472
no i get up lmao. find cup, hover, pee. very quick process, maybe 15 seconds. then i sleep

>>741473
im glad im not alone in this

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 07:09:42 AM No. 741527

>>741446
I would do the pee thing if I could get away with it. Getting out of bed to pee is one of the only things that makes me seethe. It's quite distressing kek.

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 07:48:32 AM No. 741540

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I fucking love male attention. I understand it’s bad but man I love peen. I like men starting to pay attention to me even though I know that they would to anything that breathes. I wish I had a dad. Scrotes are correct in that having no dad fucks you up

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 08:10:12 AM No. 741553

>>741540
Hi! Few things to start off with 1. Yes I replied to you because you're a female imageboard poster, 'tis an awesome thing to see! 2. I'm Matt. 3. Don't be intimidated, but I'm not a stereotypical guy. If anything, I'll be the one in the kitchen, I love making pasta :)(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 08:36:09 AM No. 741567

>>741553
I can't tell if this is a shitpost or not

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 08:39:34 AM No. 741571

>>741553
>>741567
Same
Shitpost or male 'tism? Bet now!

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 08:50:04 AM No. 741575

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>>741567
>>741571
NTA but it's a copypasta you tards

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 08:51:43 AM No. 741577

>>741575
lmao the worst part is that I've seen that shit before, but I guess my mind just erased it

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 09:13:48 AM No. 741594

I'm a genuinely unintelligent person. I can't add 2 and 2. I don't understand how to give or take directions. I couldn't tell you where east, south or west is if you asked. I can't follow basic procedures of almost any sort. People take advantage of me because of this on a near regular basis and I can't say I don't deserve it at this point. I don't learn. I'm just fucking dumb.

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 09:26:46 AM No. 741606

>>741594
I really believe you can improve how you think if you try! I'm no brain scientist, but maybe just studying stuff you learned in school again could help. I'm also trash at directions, but when I was younger (I was actually like 12, which is kind of embarrassing to admit) I managed to remember which one is east and which one is west by remembering that I live on the East coast in my country. Maybe you could just memorize an area that is close to the Eastern/Western region of your country on the map. When it comes to putting two and two together, maybe watching movies or tv shows could help with that. The best part of watching shows is picking up on little clues and trying to guess what will happen next Knives Out is also a really good movie for that sort of thing

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 09:50:24 AM No. 741624

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>>741594
Anon, there's more than one type of intelligence. You might not have the highest logical-mathematical and spatial intelligence, but you might have for example, excellent linguistic intelligence

Anonymous 02/17/21 (Wed) 05:26:03 PM No. 741863

>>741463
NTA but I used to hoverpee in wide glass cups when I was super drunk when I lived with my parents and drank all the goddamn time. Alcohol makes me pee like every 15 mins and ig I was too lazy to go to the toilet. In hindsight, I'm not really sure why I did that when I had a bathroom attached to my room but whatever.

Anonymous 02/18/21 (Thu) 06:57:58 PM No. 742668

I do mean and petty things and feel no remorse because I think it’s simply annoying yet ultimately harmless.

There’s a girl I hate. Found her Pinterest. She was excited to go to a friend’s wedding, first wedding she’s been to in ages. She made a whole ass board called “Wedding Outfits”. She kept pinning the same ugly pink tulle skirt with a black turtleneck. I thought it was early 2000’s aviril lavigne tier crap.
Bought the outfit anyway. Took several pics in it. Posted them as comments on her pins boasting about getting so many compliments.
She deletes the board. I don’t see any pics of her at that person’s wedding.

Anonymous 02/18/21 (Thu) 09:43:17 PM No. 742860

>>742668
I don't get what you did

Anonymous 02/18/21 (Thu) 09:56:13 PM No. 742874

>>742860
She was looking at that girls pinterest with Real Contempt and posted about it on LC, what else you want her to do

Anonymous 02/18/21 (Thu) 10:05:26 PM No. 742885

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Every time I become emotionally close to someone I inevitably end up getting fed up with them for one reason or another. I've been trying to keep everyone at somewhat of an emotional distance now because I know if I become too emotionally dependent on them they'll do something (that isn't their fault) and I will end up resenting them.

>>740105
based

Anonymous 02/18/21 (Thu) 10:14:27 PM No. 742895

I'm so arrogant, and for what? I'm very quick to pick up on things, but I actually lack drive and commitment, so while I get ahead in performance early on, I will usually fall off. And I'll think "this is so easy, how the hell are others struggling with this?", and look down on them somewhere deep. Even though I had to understand a million times that I don't know shit other than following instructions, it happens every time. I wish I had actual drive for betterment instead of just wanting to be considered a good girl who does a good job.

Anonymous 02/18/21 (Thu) 10:28:45 PM No. 742910

>>742860
I think she bought the outfit the other girl liked so she could wear it first

Anonymous 02/19/21 (Fri) 12:07:10 AM No. 743001

>rude
>gloomy
>painfully awkward
>will find something negative in everything
>can't stfu about it
>incapable of verbalzing my emotions but get mad at friends for not reading my mind
>always give advice nobody asked for
>avoidant
>guilt complex (thx Catholicism)
>hate myself so much I think less of people who are willing to associate with me
>need constant reassurance while incapable of reassuring others
>basically the incarnation of can dish out but can't take it
>forgetful
>boring

>>740249
>cant bring self to comfort people despite being internally pretty empathetic

also, this.

Anonymous 02/19/21 (Fri) 12:15:09 AM No. 743008

>>741449
Embrace the loserness, it's freeing to stop hiding and just be yourself. Makes ppl uncomfy tho. I get a sick pleasure out of it kek.

Anonymous 02/19/21 (Fri) 12:51:36 AM No. 743022

>Will daydream for hours a day
>Always do the bare minimum to get by
>Take everything by heart and am sensitive but numb at the same time
>Spend too much time fantasizing about fictional characters
>Bitter and distrustful of men but loves dick
>Sometimes not sure what is real and what's my imagination
>Socially clueless
>Pseudo intelectual
>Looks super young but in a pre teen boy way instead of a cute one
>Too horny

Anonymous 02/19/21 (Fri) 01:01:53 AM No. 743025

>huge narcissist
>BPDchan
>Drug addict
>Stoner
>Condescending
>Messy

Ehhh can't think of the rest right now

Anonymous 02/19/21 (Fri) 01:04:22 AM No. 743028

>sleeps in super late on days she doesn't have to
>has tons of ideas that never get executed or written and aborted projects galore
>keeps hoping luck will be on her side
>manifests and fantasizes about getting unattainable man who probably won't treat her well
>eats too much junkfood even with lingering anachan tendencies
>always completing college work under pressure
>finally decided on a career trajectory but would rather just have an online career since she's not sure she's suited for real work work and wants to work in the entertainment industry anyway
>room is a disgusting pigsty
>thinks meds will fix her broken brain when mood disorder personality disorderfag
>simultaneously hideously conceited and rampantly insecure, what the fuck even is her ego

Anonymous 02/19/21 (Fri) 01:12:30 AM No. 743037

>vain af
>talk shit about everyone I know even if I like them
>especially if I like them
>that's confusing
>can't stand people thinking I'm average
>so I use big words as much as possible when I'm with others so they know about my enormous brain
>addicted to online shopping
>never have any money because of online shopping
>really really judgmental
>if someone shows signs that they are clingy or needy, I will literally disappear
>I'm talkin ghost
>block them
>never speak to them again
>because I'm terrified of people needing things from me

Anonymous 02/19/21 (Fri) 06:57:28 PM No. 743643

My posts aren't funny.

Anonymous 02/21/21 (Sun) 11:48:18 AM No. 744783

>read all the kpop critical threads on lolcow

Anonymous 02/21/21 (Sun) 11:56:58 AM No. 744786

There's some things wrong with me of course, no one here is perfect, but I'm not a garbage human.

Anonymous 02/21/21 (Sun) 12:25:39 PM No. 744801

I have avpd so I'm a loner that does the bare minumum to meet my adult responsibilities. I work and pay my mortgage but in my head I still feel like a child intimidated by adult life

Anonymous 02/21/21 (Sun) 12:27:35 PM No. 744802

>mediocre artist who works three jobs but is too scared to apply for a serious art job
>spend all money on bf who will only study and smoke weed bought with my money
>Obsessed with one anime and yaoi
>Turning 30 this year

Anonymous 02/21/21 (Sun) 01:44:11 PM No. 744845

>>744783
samefag, if im being serious:
>addicted to nicotine and online shopping
>drinks too much alcohol and energy drinks
>can't stop infighting, trolling and lying online
>in love with my ex who i recently hooked up with
>huge procastinator and lazy as fuck
>doesn't have any future plans

Anonymous 02/21/21 (Sun) 02:06:11 PM No. 744858

>>744801
i don't think i have avpd (never heard of it) but i agree so hard on this comment. i have my own place, live alone, good job, my own car, pay all my own bills. but i still feel like an immature idiot so much of the time. i feel like i haven't done a lot of the normal adult things that people my age do, or i have done them and they just don't interest me. all of my close friends are online. i spend a lot of time playing video games. shit like that

also, i am the worst texter in the universe. i frequently pick up my phone, look at a text, think of a reply, then put it back down and utterly forget about it. then the person texts me again like "hello?" or we meet irl and they're like why did you leave me hanging, i thought i pissed you off or something? i have no idea what's wrong with me. my mind draws a huge blank when it comes to texting on the phone specifically. i'm so much better with phone calls but no one wants to do that anymore.

also i often have periods of a few days where i want to socialize with absolutely no one. i just close myself off entirely from friends or any social situation because i'm too tired

Anonymous 02/21/21 (Sun) 02:06:56 PM No. 744860

Nothing

Anonymous 02/21/21 (Sun) 07:45:22 PM No. 745070

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>>744858
>i'm so much better with phone calls but no one wants to do that anymore
The pain is so real anon, I have the exact same shitty texting habits as you and I fucking hate it because I love my friends but I hate texting so goddamn much. I do not have the attention span to craft dozens of text messages back and forth for hours over the course of a day, I am sorry. Shit was so much easier when you could just call your friend at a reasonable time, have a fun conversation for however long it may last, and then go back to doing whatever the fuck you were doing. I also overanalyze and obsessively edit every single thing I write, no matter how brief, so when people text me something requiring more than a sentence in response it's like awesome thanks for the writing assignment mother fucker!! Plus it requires both your hands AND eyes so you can't even multitask. I can talk on the phone and draw, cook, fold laundry, but with texting you have to be looking at your fucking phone and tapping little buttons with your finger which ALSO sucks compared to the old days when you could just instant message people via typing on an actual KEYBOARD not a shit ass little phone screen!!! fuck I hate modern communication!!! fuck texting!!! shriek!!!!

Anonymous 02/21/21 (Sun) 07:50:26 PM No. 745073

>>745070
I'm another anon who relates so much omg. This is literally why I'm scared to make friends yet. I can't be trusted to text 24/7 and I don't wanna deal with that right now. I used to be on my phone a lot and able to do that, but it sapped the rest of my life away and now I use my phone and the internet less and feel so much better. So omg I fucking sympathize. Maybe if we are lucky all texting haters like us irl can find each other and become friends.

Anonymous 02/21/21 (Sun) 07:57:34 PM No. 745077

I don't believe I'm garbage as a person, I'm just really pessimistic and cynical for my own good.

Anonymous 02/21/21 (Sun) 08:02:01 PM No. 745082

bpdchan smack addict

Anonymous 02/21/21 (Sun) 08:44:44 PM No. 745133

Bpdchan, boyfriend said I'm manipulative yesterday and he's right. Love doing the bare minimum and squandering the college education my parents paid for.

Anonymous 02/21/21 (Sun) 08:47:03 PM No. 745137

>>745082
>>745133
Pls fuck her up anon

Anonymous 02/21/21 (Sun) 11:10:22 PM No. 745286

>>745137
We're dating

Anonymous 02/22/21 (Mon) 12:18:02 AM No. 745319

>>745070
>>745073
for me a lot of it is reading tone wrong via text and also not knowing how to properly convey my own tone… idk it's just awkward, i prefer speaking, though for whatever reason i'm fine with instant messaging shit on the computer. it's just texting where i freeze up and would rather not do it. i've had past friends claim they were ok with it but actually got offended over it and kept bringing it up. we don't remain friends long if they're a needy texter.

Anonymous 02/22/21 (Mon) 12:18:46 AM No. 745320

bpdchan waste of space can’t think of anything beyond being a soulless succubus

Anonymous 02/22/21 (Mon) 12:19:19 AM No. 745321

Deep denial. I’m
Gay

Anonymous 02/22/21 (Mon) 12:55:14 AM No. 745346

Fucked from abuse, can't get my shit together, can drink more than anyone I know, lie all the time because I am scared of negative responses, continue to let myself be a victim because people who learn my past feel super sorry for me, have never green texted in my WHOLE LIFE

Anonymous 02/22/21 (Mon) 04:24:04 AM No. 745483

>>745346
I love you nonny. You aren’t defined by your past, and you are very very strong for the way you are. Who cares if you drink a bit to cope with the pain? Maybe you’ll feel better joining a support group so you can talk to other survivors and not feel like you stick out, because you don’t! It’s unfortunately very common.
You are still a normal woman, you are still one of us and we love you.

Anonymous 02/23/21 (Tue) 02:49:59 PM No. 746583

>woe is me victim
>suicide baiter in the past to bf
>binge eater to obesity
>both abandonment and avoidant issues
>shut-in neet
>will probably be 30 with no life experience
>in love with fictional character more then bf
>grumpy moody bitch
>but also fragile and sensitive to everything
>selfish with impaired empathy
>self-harms when things don't go my way
>loner/socially retarded.

And the list can go on…

Anonymous 02/24/21 (Wed) 04:05:45 AM No. 747290

>>740731
>same
>also im prob schizo
oh… should i… should i get checked?

Anonymous 02/26/21 (Fri) 07:42:33 PM No. 749921

>>740355
>>740343
>>740336
lmao, keep seething you incel moralist hoes
>>740347
>>740349
define 'degenerate' you /pol/-ass bitches. miss me with that righteous shit. There's nothing wrong with fucking with teen scrotes, they're all a bunch of hormone-full libidinous sociopathic little fucks(ban evasion)

Anonymous 02/26/21 (Fri) 07:47:21 PM No. 749926

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>>749921
Replying to no less than five different posts.. 11 days late

Anonymous 02/26/21 (Fri) 08:18:09 PM No. 749952

>>749921
being against adults having sex with minors means you're a /pol/tard now

Anonymous 02/26/21 (Fri) 09:44:26 PM No. 750014

>>749921
>>740329
Same anon, except I don’t break their hearts. I just let them take out their destructive sexual impulses on me as a form of mental selfharm, and then I leave. Some are worse than even “grown” men.
Yes I was bullied in school lol. IMHO it’s better this way because they’re cuter and don’t really try to do things to fuck with my life like older scrotes would do.

Anonymous 02/26/21 (Fri) 09:51:53 PM No. 750021

>>750014
When did we get so many pedophiles on this website

Anonymous 02/26/21 (Fri) 10:03:17 PM No. 750031

>>750021
>16 year old male
>a child
I’m not sure if it’s different where you’re from, but where I live, they’re not the same as girls at all. They’re just as pornsick and fucked up as scrotes in their 20s. The only difference is they’re not balding with an ugly beard and beer gut.

Anonymous 02/26/21 (Fri) 10:11:08 PM No. 750039

>>750014
Therapy. Now.

Anonymous 02/26/21 (Fri) 10:37:38 PM No. 750055

anons i think we're being baited again. ignore them

Anonymous 05/20/24 (Mon) 11:51:56 AM No. 2010576

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Nothing. I am perfect.(necroing a dead thread with a shitpost)

Anonymous 05/20/24 (Mon) 12:02:38 PM No. 2010585

>>2010576
> bumps an ancient thread just to dunk on us with your mental wellness
Stacey behaviour kek

Anonymous 05/20/24 (Mon) 09:50:47 PM No. 2011104

I have zero motivation to do anything I like doing. I don't know how to improve on this.

Anonymous 05/20/24 (Mon) 10:05:38 PM No. 2011122

>>2010576
The mod who banned you was jelly of your perfection, you didn't deserve it.

Anonymous 05/20/24 (Mon) 10:08:08 PM No. 2011128

>>2011104
same. I wish I could fix it but it's so hard when I just keep feeling like even if I do the things, I either a) get no pleasure from them anymore and b) feel like I suck at them no matter how much effort I put in. it just feels like a waste of time, but wasting away and not doing anything also feels like shit. it sucks and makes me hate myself

Anonymous 06/27/24 (Thu) 06:11:29 AM No. 2066818

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I don't consider any of these things to be bad but these are all things that people in my life think make me shitty. I dont give a fuck about palestinians and will never pretend to. I am so, so racist against Jews because they betrayed my man Jesus but I'm standing with them in this because I hate muslimites that much. I'm homophobic, no hate to all my gay nonnies ever but I feel like its just unnatural to not be innately attracted to men. I'm not talking about ugly men so don't respond with a picture of some ugly fago like Barry(bait)

Anonymous 06/27/24 (Thu) 06:12:42 AM No. 2066820

>>2066818
Don't attach Paz to such a stupid and useless sentiment

Anonymous 06/27/24 (Thu) 06:17:41 AM No. 2066824

>>2066820
Anon this is the what is wrong with you thread what are you expecting. I just wanted to add a beautiful presence as a palate cleanser

Anonymous 06/27/24 (Thu) 06:34:51 AM No. 2066844

>>2066818
if it's unnatural it wouldn't occur in nature. and then considering how men behave, lack of attraction towards them actually makes more sense.

Anonymous 06/27/24 (Thu) 06:38:41 AM No. 2066850

>>2066844
I'm not talking about like lesbian dolphins I'm referring to humans

Anonymous 06/27/24 (Thu) 06:45:05 AM No. 2066858

>>2066850
still, human males don't really put in effort to be attractive. the very few that do still have unattractive personalities and behavior, is that hard to understand?

Anonymous 06/27/24 (Thu) 06:45:57 AM No. 2066860

>>2066818
you sound retarded

Anonymous 06/27/24 (Thu) 06:46:46 AM No. 2066861

>>2066858
It's not that its hard for me to understand, I said in my post I'm not talking about ugly men nonny
>>2066860
I am

Anonymous 06/27/24 (Thu) 06:48:59 AM No. 2066865

>>2066861
i'm not just talking about ugly men though.
>the very few that do still have unattractive personalities and behavior
idk but to me even if a man is conventional i still can't find him attractive because he'll be too rancid in other ways

Anonymous 06/27/24 (Thu) 06:53:52 AM No. 2066870

>>2066865
Yeah, I know I feel the way I do because I find stuff like that to be kind of negligible. I've experienced a kind of inbred, visceral attraction thats made me forget about personality and just unconditionally love his existence and being. I'm sure you probably feel the exact same way with your lady counterpart though

Anonymous 06/27/24 (Thu) 06:58:43 AM No. 2066876

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I'm still alive? Sort of existing? But I feel like I shouldn't exist? Because no matter what I do I truly feel like I'm never going to succeed and be stranded with this deep seeded inferiority and fear I'll make everyone else's existences miserable for the rest of my days?

Why am I still here?

Anonymous 06/27/24 (Thu) 08:19:27 AM No. 2066957

schizoid

Anonymous 06/27/24 (Thu) 08:44:16 AM No. 2066969

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>>2066957
Look at all these meds I had to dabble in to get back to normal that completely wrecked my body…

Anonymous 06/27/24 (Thu) 08:52:08 AM No. 2066974

>>2066969
that sucks nona I hope you're feeling better now. all I need is beta blockers and to be left alone

Anonymous 06/27/24 (Thu) 09:44:24 AM No. 2067024

>>2066974
I read somewhere akathisia (debilitating side effect of antipsychotics) is connected to nerves and it's probably my self harm damage making me so sensitive.

I wish I'd never gone off my medication a few years agoooo because I never realized how rough getting back on it would be

>lamotrigane worked for 2 months then sent me to the er with allergic reaction when upping dosage.
>I now owe thousands in emergency room bills
>abilify was either pacing or constant state of paranoid panic. me sleepless for weeks, brought mild psychosis back, tachycardia made me feel like I was going to have a heart attack. this stuff outright made me want to shoot myself
>caplyta urinary retention issues galore. was okay the first week… then it started. running back and forth to the bathroom and I almost pissed myself multiple times a day. gave me extreme insomnia as well
>buspirone. the worst constipation I've had in years. I took it at the same time as caplyta which was double hellish on my digestive system
>trazodone added for insomnia as needed and klonopin to manage withdrawal symptoms and transition between pills
>latuda worked for about a month then it brought about restlessness worse than abilfy, worst insomnia yet. mere days after my doctor gave me a refill I called her sobbing and she changed my medication again
>doctor is like "we done with antipsychotics let me see if I can try an off label anticonvulsant"
>trileptal is literally the only thing that worked for over a month beside lamotrigane and if I have a reaction to it I'm going to kill god. the only downside is having to take it twice a day.

damn I love being bipolar

Anonymous 06/27/24 (Thu) 11:49:13 AM No. 2067100

>>2066870
>I've experienced a kind of inbred, visceral attraction thats made me forget about personality and just unconditionally love his existence and being
Even if he rapes, jerks off to porn, or other things like that? This is why I think being attracted to men is more unnatural than being attracted to women. What's there to be attracted to?

Anonymous 06/27/24 (Thu) 05:13:06 PM No. 2067325

I’m fat and gross and jobless. My earwax is crystallized.

Anonymous 06/27/24 (Thu) 11:42:30 PM No. 2067855

>>2067100
I guess it’s different for me because I met my husband when we were children and we’ve spent our entire lives together so I know he hasn’t committed a crime like that

Anonymous 06/27/24 (Thu) 11:53:01 PM No. 2067868

As far as I'm sure of, fat, poor, self centered, pretty dumb, bad at communicating, a huge doormat I apologize too much, and probably some sort of learning disorder idk.
My relative says I'm not so bad and I just get a "bad batch" of people around me but my own grandma fucking hates talking to me lmao. What do you even do at that point other than kill yourself?

Anonymous 06/28/24 (Fri) 12:13:41 AM No. 2067902

>>2067855
Sounds fake. Bait harder.

Anonymous 06/28/24 (Fri) 12:15:58 AM No. 2067907

>>2067902
If it was bait you’d report it and move on but I know you’re just upset about someone living in a positive reality so I will let you sulk nonna

Anonymous 07/03/24 (Wed) 11:46:46 PM No. 2076926

I have a hard time processing my emotions in a way that isn't harmful to others

Anonymous 07/04/24 (Thu) 12:46:33 AM No. 2076972

>>2067907
>positive reality
I would rather silt my throat than be with a moid.

Anonymous 07/04/24 (Thu) 01:51:49 AM No. 2077026

>>2076972
nta but that’s ok nonny because we all live in drastically different lives

Anonymous 07/04/24 (Thu) 01:55:15 AM No. 2077029

>>2076972
It's been 6 days. Let it go.

Anonymous 07/04/24 (Thu) 02:20:59 AM No. 2077050

>Father only showed up for birthdays, Christmas, and graduations
>Father is wealthy never helped me or paid child support
>Raised by my immigrant mother who was his mistress and doesn't understand western culture and couldn't prepare me for life in America
>SA'ed by my half-brother
>Relentlessly bullied for most of K-12 education
>Had no friends before college
>Spent most of my childhood and teenage years online and playing video games because nobody liked me
>Made a lot of embarrassing mistakes throughout my life because I wasn't taught western social etiquette.
>I have a tendency to be controlling in my romantic relationships
>I'm often cynical
>I occasionally have violent and murderous urges towards men

Anonymous 07/04/24 (Thu) 02:46:00 AM No. 2077067

>>2077050
>I'm often cynical
>I occasionally have violent and murderous urges towards men
Nah this just shows you've been paying attention to the world nonna dont be so hard on yourself.

Anonymous 07/04/24 (Thu) 03:07:45 AM No. 2077080

>Too many years of undiagnosed PMDD and the ramifications of that. It's a fucking mystery to me how I still have friends.
>Cry easily when I'm frustrated in inappropriate situations.
>"Daddy issues" in the form of just having been a checkbox in his life to have a kid, 0 support from him since. Always put his friends before family, was never satisfied with any job I've had or degrees I got, despite my living situation being stable. Makes me drawn to unsupportive men to date.
>Give way too many shits about real-life drama, but recently I've realized that it's getting fueled by a bad friend group.
>Convinced myself that I'm just abrasive and a shitty person because I always heard some "mind your tone" shit from a specific male boss and shitty moid bfs. Every so often I'm told I sound like an asshole over text, but I'm rarely actually upset. I have thought the same of other people until I've met them in-person and realized they were decent.
>I can never tell if I'm held to a different standard or if I'm actually shitty, since there is an aspect of us never calling out the meanest bitches in our circles out of fear of them. But if I fuck up once, it's like the world is ending.
>I start thinking the sound of my own voice is a deterrent. I realize the only people who made me think that were moids I've ended up dumping, but the thought is always there.
>Doormat in a lot of ways, I'll do other people's emotional dirty work without noticing.
>Want to get away from shitty friends but then I see them being shitty to each other and still hanging out so maybe my standards are too high.

I'm thankful for the people who tell me some of this isn't my fault.