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No. 664228

What type of person did you hope to become at this point in life (career wise, personality wise, looks, etc) and what type of person are you actually? Why the disconnect?

No. 664229

Me but lobotomized

No. 664231

Modsss the FBI agent is trying to profile users againnnn
But really, most of the thread is just gonna be like I wish I was hot and successful and not a depressed NEET

No. 664236

>>664231
Right. These threads are so lame.

No. 664241

I daydream about being a hot and successful movie director that fucks kpop idols.

No. 664263

I would like to be god. The me right now is not god.

No. 664273

>>664228
Being really honest, I do like and appreciate the questions posed and the OP because they made me reflect about myself, my life and how and where things are going, kind of a mini therapy session.
But well, I do fear being data-mined so yeah. Sorry, OP. Perhaps if you started the thread saying something about yourself, could it have been different?

No. 664276

I thought I was going to be in law school with at least a handful of close friends by my mid 20's. I couldn't afford law school and ended up with a teaching degree and 1 friend. Social anxiety, ignorance towards school (First generation college student) and low self esteem all brought me to this point.

No. 664293

>>664228
As a child, I wanted to be a professional swimmer at this age (20), but I developed sinus issues in my early teens that mean going in the water often isn't great for me, and I'm not even a very good swimmer. I also wanted red hair. Now, my goals are to marry my girlfriend and get the guts to give myself a pixie cut.

No. 664299


No. 664300

I want to be thin and hot but here I am eating flamming hot cheetose

No. 664306

>>664300
Work that gastritis you sexy fat bitch

No. 664309

>>664228
When I was small, I wanted to be a librarian. I loved books, it seemed like a quiet comfy job with little interactions. The idea of putting back books and be a part of this well organized knowledge well seemed great.
Then people told me I wouldn't make money doing this, that they were few job and that it was a shit job I was too smart to do.
Then the internet, getting sucked in by neopets, wyiwg blogs, rpg forums then board and the smartphones leaving less and less time to read. Then people telling me books was a dying industry and I should take something real and practical, and since I was such a good reader/writer, why not law? I failed law.
Now, I'm doing some web marketing/basic web dev be that I sort of like but don't feel good at.

I still wish I became a librarian.

No. 664311

>>664309
you could still become one

No. 664312

>>664311
I'm 30+ and I would have to go back to school. I just did that these last years, it's too late now. I have to make money.

No. 664313

>>664312
Do you really need to study to be a librarian?
30 is still so young anon

No. 664316

>>664313
Looking at the offers, yes, it seems so. Learning specified software wouldn't be an issue, I'm a techie but they also want master's degree when all I have is a bachelor's degree.

No. 664319

>>664316
Anon…….
I believe in you if you ever want to pursue it, seriously I would hug you if I could

No. 664593

>>664228
Please stop making these shitty threads.

No. 664630

>>664593
It's not a bad thread, grouchchan.

No. 664726

>>664630
Nayrt but yes it is

No. 664802

>>664726
How is it bad?

No. 665310

>wish to be
illustrator/graphic novelist,has a close group of people who i can always spend time with dependable kind funny,well read/more intelligent than i am now
>now
been in a 4yr art block still has yet to get a degree at 2020 basically gave up most if not all ambitions/hobbies do to self esteem or issues with guilt,directionless has friends i can talk to but is ultimately alone a good 70 -80% of the time, needy,emotionally unstable,still dependent on family for living and work related things

No. 665350

Stop making these threads please, I love feeling sorry for myself as much as the next gal but this is a bit much(/ot/ rule 7)

No. 665357

Right now I'm working to become a customs agent, I'm 23 and I know that I'm too old to be studying but I don't care.
I'm working as a home teacher, have a best friend that I love and working on my mental health issues. Sure is a long way, but is better to keep running than rotting your life away.

No. 665360

>>665350
Agreed. Can't this stuff stay in one thread?
They keep making slight variations on the same self pity because each OP thinks their way of framing things is so significant, but it could all easily fit into a vent thread

No. 665375

>>665350
Imagine posting and bumping a thread just to say you don’t like it, like multiple anons have already made clear. Just hide it and let people be miserable bitches and wallow in self pity in peace .

No. 665377

>>665375
>wallow in self pity in peace
Protestant culture is so weird, ngl.

No. 665388

>>665375
>bumping a thread
You saged your own post so must understand what that means so what did you mean by this

No. 665407

>>665357
23 isn’t too old to be studying! Never too old anon!

No. 665413

>>665407
Thanks a lot anon! I'm studying with 18-21 years old and that's why I feel insecure. When I was 18 I studied tourism and hospitality, but I saw the writing in the wall, spent one year as a neet studying russian and giving classes to kids. To my age is abnormal but life flows different to everyone.

No. 665564

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>>665413
I started studying at 22 because where I'm from army service is compulsory for 2 years for women, and now have a well paying job. I'll go for my masters next year at 28.
Nobody will care (and nobody does).
I studied abroad so it's not like most of my classmates were the same age as me, but over half were for varying reasons. Most people who get their masters do so in their 30s where I live. It's not pre-2008 anymore and people need to stop holding themselves up to standards their mommy and peepaw set for them because it just isn't happening.

If it makes you feel better, the majority of "oh no I'm soooooo old lol" people I've met at university have been Americans and Canadians who go for a postgrad degree at 21 with no experience and then wonder why they can't get a good job right off the bat instead of unpaid internships, everyone else just does things at their own pace.

It's getting really tiring reading all these "I'm so OLD!" posts on lolcow, probably made by the same people who call every 30+ cow an old hag for posting a filtered selfie. You're going to live for 80+ years, what will you be doing for the rest of it if you think your life ends at 30? Be bitter and seethe at younger people? Love yourself.

No. 666138

>>665564
Your words made me smile, you are right. Thanks anon!

No. 666149

>>665564
>>665413
Anons, this exchange helped me so much. I'm also 23 just starting law school and most of my classmates are 18 year olds (though a few are my age/older) and that always made me feel a bit insecure about my age even if it's a bit silly.

No. 666157

I'm where I hoped I'd be but I hate it?
When I was younger I'd dream of living in different countries and making a bunch of money while saving lives through science.

And I mean, I've now lived for a year at least in 4 different countries, working short term contracts that pay decently.

But I'm an antisocial bitch and haven't developed a support network in any of these places, and basically just thrive on the novelty of living and experiencing a different place from my home country.
Now my home country doesn't feel familiar to me, and because I don't have the social aspect neither does any other place.

I figured I'd be a bit of an overweight average because I grew massive tits and thighs in my teens. And I've stuck to that, which honestly I'm OK with.

No. 666174

>>666149
I didn't enter uni until I was 22 and I think that was the point I had my shit somewhat figured out. I was a complete kid at 18, couldn't imagine how I would've messed up uni stuff at that age. I think I would've done even better if I had entered at 25-26. Seriously, if anything you get a fast pass past the shitty unpaid intern jobs if you're older because people trust someone in their late 20s way more than someone in their early 20s. I didn't start gaining proper respect until I was reaching for my 30s.

>>665564
Seeing anons aged 23 panicking over being "30 soon" is so sad. Like do you really think there will be a hearse waiting outside for your 30th birthday? People nitpick the cows aged 30+ an ungodly amount too, a lot of them are nearly indistinguishable from women in their late 20s and they don't even look "old", they look adult. I sure as hell will be rocking weebshit and liking fun things well past my 40s instead of shriveling up into a boring mommy stereotype. People have such a warped view on female aging I swear.

No. 666180

>>665413
>>666149
I got back into school last year at 23 too, and most of the other students are 18-21ish here too. I still feel a bit insecure about it at times aswell, but honestly that's 100% on me. No one has ever made a remark or anything of the sorts regarding my age. Beforehand I thought it would be hard to get to know people because of my age, but that hasn't been the case at all. I don't think anyone cares.

Good for you for getting back into education, good luck!!

No. 666224

I wish I was the better version of myself that I know I could be, if I could pull my head out of my ass and figure shit out.

Instead I am 25, slushing my way through college, working retail here and there, dealing with my family’s bullshit and waking up at night with anxious thoughts because I feel like a failure.

I just want to be happy, doing what I enjoy, not worrying about the next schizo meltdown from a relative, not having to hide shit from x person because they are selfishly hoarding the money that was supposed to be divided equally amongst everyone.

I don’t know how much of my issues are my own fault or a mixture of family dysfunction, but I often dream of walking away and never looking back.

No. 666238

>>666224
>I often dream of walking away and never looking back
I resonate so much with this anon.

No. 666303

Mostly positive addition to this thread? My current career is shit in terms of fulfillment, but great when it comes to convenience, pay and ease. I'm very grateful in those respects. I still want to work overseas badly and for that I need to finish my degree (I'm nearing 30 too!) but I saved enough money to do so and am actively working towards that goal. Also working on starting my own small business and things are looking positive for launch.

For the most part I'm good with my personality. I did a lot of growing these past few years mostly due to horrid relationships, but on the plus side they forced me to become a much stronger, more confident and self-aware person. I have a much better sense of who I am and what areas of my life are important versus those I'm willing to bend on. I still fall back into old, bad habits sometimes (depression, procrastination, impostor syndrome, self loathing) which is annoying, but I'm slowly getting better at managing these issues rather than feeling like a slave to them.

Actually happy with my looks. I've let a few extra pounds sneak on thanks to corona but my body is still hot and I was able to do the one, minimal plastic surgery I wanted. My skin is in good shape and I appreciate my features. I'm healthy, which I don't take for granted. I used to feel really ugly even when people complimented me due to my self esteem issues, but it feels nice to be in a good enough place to recognize that I am attractive.

No. 666378

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When I was a kid/early tween I thought I would be this cool idealized version of myself that was comfortable with talking to all kinds of people. I had a lot of friends in elementary/middle school in tons of groups but then got messed in high school and basically became a NEET and lost connection with everyone.
I also really wanted to (embarrassingly) go to CalArts or some art school before I realized how crazy fucking expensive they were. I put my dreams on the backburner and just went to normal Community college because that's all we can afford.
I also thought somehow my life would be so much better if I had straight hair kek.


I'm now 22, live with my parents, have a car, a job, shaved head, not dating currently, still no friends and half a degree for something I'm not sure I want to pursuit anymore. It's not exactly where I pictured myself but I also didn't expect a fucking worldwide pandemic so now I learned not to envison things to far ahead in the future because you don't know what bullshit life will throw at you.

No. 666403

I was writing this paragraph about how I'm more than I ever thought I would be, which is objectively true, but today I saw a photo of my best friend who died five years ago and I wish I was dead instead. I don't think I'll ever be happy no matter how good I do. What's the point?

No. 666404

>>666403
Maybe you're still grieving, anon?

No. 666428

>>664229
me too damn



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