/ot/ - off-topic

>>663762
>>663762
>>663762
Is this bait?
There's a thread called "creepy interactions on the internet", maybe you could had posted it there because in my experience this kind of threads that look like bait get locked fast

Anyways I was about to post about this on the vent thread, but I'm also irrational paranoid about being posted. For some reason I feel more at home on lolcow nowadays, so I can freely talk about this, but:
For the past 5(?) years I've quitted social media entirely because I thought I was the worst of the worst, depraved, and a bad person. I thought eventualy I would end up discussed like this, that I was just as bad as any other delusional cow in here. I would compare myself to so many things. In a way, this also made me change my personality and flaws for the better, although I'm still struggling with some things.
I feel that, in some way, the userbase on lolcow has changed into being more tolerant. More women-helping-women kind of mentality, less nitpicks. I kinda like that, I remember when I just came here from /cgl/ that things were meaner. I also appreciate that people here see through twitter user's intentions and laugh at them when they're being irrationally policing others.

Anyways, I think the reason I was afraid for being posted here was because I want to become an artist that makes art like pic related (I got a very exaggerated one as an example). I was groomed online from a young age, sexually harassed at my own house when I was a teen, and had all the symptoms as a kid of being molested. I thought drawing my own trauma like this made me a deranged person, akin to a lolicon artist, and that I was crazy and disgusting, no better than a neet scrote. I'm also still not really confident because I wrote the n word and said faggot a lot when I was a teen because I grew up on 4chan and simply thought that was ok to do, I know better now.

I think I'm thickskinned enough for me not to care if I'm discussed online anymore, even though I still am a pussy about having social media again. Now I am a radfem terf and I love saying the word tranny because fuck troons amirite but that can cancel you even worse lol.

Idk if I expressed myself super well here, I probably sound super dumb.

Been posted on R9k. I don't really care anymore. I at least wasn't doxxed.

>>663770
Sorry if it comes off as bait. I thought it would be a more prevalent thing because of the nature of men on the internet and some of the stories I read on here. My own anxieties have changed me in a way that I'm more careful with my behavior when talking to people. I've generally become a lot more private on the internet (though I've always been.) I hate oversharing unnecessarily and whenever I do it it makes me want to delete messages with people. I still have my own cow tendencies as well and I'm trying to change that. Best of luck to you anon, I hope your art helps you. The one you picked in particular also evokes something out of me. Thank you for responding.

My underage nudes were posted and being passed around in a tiny anime community by a man who groomed me when I was a teen. But honestly I don't care anymore. Back in the days i really thought i deserved all the worst, was insecure but after I moved out of abusive household to other country, I realized how good and hot I am. Ive been in many drama forums and communities to a point where I stopped caring about any drama or hating on anyone, I'm just chilling and minding my business, drawing things and meeting new nice friends .

>>663770
Damn, anon, you sound so cool. And art on picrelated reminds me of my old friend to whom i havent talked in 4 years, she used to have a very unique artstyle. Really miss her art but I am even too shy to message her because we pathed our ways by growiing in different directions.

I reported a doxxing thread some random asshole made about me on 8chan and the site moderator removed it in less than a few days. I was very impressed.

>>663784
>I realized how good and hot I am
Queen

My underaged pictures and videos haven't been posted anywhere that I'm aware of, but a few of my posts here and there where I was saying dumb stuff, I've seen posted on 4chan, which is kinda funny. Only because they can't be traced back to me. I don't have any sort of social media presence which makes me feel less paranoid.

>>663784
You sound cool too anon! I'm curious to see your art too

>>663770
Are you me? I followed a very similar path, except I didn't quit social media until the pandemic happened. I was a decently popular artist and followed a lot of popular artists private accounts. A lot of the private accounts was literally circlejerking and shit talking galore. After having a paranoia break down thst everyone hated me, I deleted everything and checked into therapy. Best decision I ever made tbh.

Prior to this, I got doxed as a teenager for being retarded like any typical teenager.

Bunch of people asked for my nudes on anon-ib and someone posted fakes, but they were immediately debunked and luckily nothing ever came of it. Still weird and gross tho.

>>663784
>>663784
>My underage nudes were posted and being passed around in a tiny anime community by a man who groomed me when I was a teen. But honestly I don't care anymore. Back in the days i really thought i deserved all the worst, was insecure but after I moved out of abusive household to other country, I realized how good and hot I am.

same, except i haven't moved. still, im almost 30 and still a bit paranoid over stuff that happened to me 15+ years ago

also no social media