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No. 614253

PREVIOUS THREAD >>>/ot/605108

Say what you need to say bitch

No. 614258

My roommates invited more people than they promised over, pissed because #1 they dgaf about my safety or the pandemic #2 they’ve impeded me from watching the new Comprehensive Chris Chan doc episode for the second night in a row

No. 614260

>>614253
Mmm, steamed bees

No. 614263

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My coworker lied to my manager and said i wasnt working when i was and he got aggro towards me the entire night. the weirdest part is, i have zero idea why she'd lie to my boss about me. I have been nothing but nice to her and she has nothing to gain from this. it's really weird af and i'm trying to just ignore this and move on.

I went to take a 5 min break and getr some fresh air and she was outside smoking a cigarette, then has to nerve to tell me to get back to work. what the fuck. we are on the same entry level. she isnt a shift or a manager. what is her deal?

No. 614264

>>614258
Yikes! Stay safe anon. No one should be coming over during this shit. they should take it outside, to a park or chill in their cars.

No. 614266

>>614258
drop that chris-chan doc, anon. I need something to watch before I go to sleep

No. 614269

>>614263
Be a cunt back.

No. 614270

>>614266
If you insist, but be warned anon it is 42 parts long and each one is over half an hour.
They really go in deep and it’s slow at first but it’s gets wild very quickly

No. 614273

>>614270
oh god what have I done. Thanks though lol

No. 614274

i'm so fucking over people hardcore photoshopping their shit. idc if you want to remove some blemishes, but these people changing their whole body/face shapes are cunts.

The worst bit is people will argue with you about it. Like I don't know what a fucking woman is shaped like.

I really feel like instagrammers who are obviously photshopping should be tagged that way. I know it'll never happen but it's a dream.

No. 614287

my job doesn't pay nearly as well as my previous one did after covid struck. before that even(i live by the gulf and my pay goes to shit after every disaster)

ive been training unpaid for over a week. two tropical storms are probably coming.im exhausted and my wife wants me to be more emotionally available despite me, unlike her, having no family or friends or insurance to count on. like unironically, what option is there besides suicide.

notto mention that im one of those unicorn-like super minorities.idk im intoxicated and overwhelmed by so much that i already feel dead

No. 614288

>>614287
>im one of those unicorn-like super minorities
Bitch, what does that even mean?

No. 614293

>>614288
Seconding this. wtf?

No. 614295

>>614288
like a darkskinned black lesbian with chronic mental illness in a biracial relationship with a gender nc person? like something you'd see in a shitty tumblr headcanon post except im a normal(lol) person

js cause the lc i know seems to enthusiastically hate on people like me

No. 614297

>>614295
So you're a black lesbian in a relationship with a non-black woman. Groundbreaking kek.

No. 614299

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Mfw the Twitterfags here unironically use race as an insult. If post creativity plummets, then where will I find my entertainment?

>>614288
KEK speaking of. I'd be lying if I said reading that sentence didn't entertain me though.

No. 614300

>>614299
who is using race as an insult?

No. 614301

>>614297
>what is colorism what is gnc
is lc just white women rejected from r9k trying to find their own space

No. 614303

>>614301
lmao i'm not playing your twitter "gender non-conforming" game. You are on the wrong website for that dumb shit.

No. 614304

>>614297
You’re like grammarly for that anon, bravo.

No. 614305

>>614301
How did you get here twitter fag

No. 614306

>>614301
>>614299

>unironically claiming others are from twitter while you git big mad anons won't recognize your myriad of mental health issues and gender non-conforming gf

No. 614307

>>614305
>>614303
i like that lc wont actually try.cherry pick to your hearts content, the robots are still gonna keep calling you roast beef :(

No. 614310

>>614263
I've dealt with crazy bitches like this before, always in underpaid entry level positions. I guess they just need to feel some level of power in their shitty life.

Just be honest to your manager, if she keeps trying to spread shit about you she'll just make herself look like a liability

No. 614311

>>614307
You came here claiming you were a special unicorn because you're a black lesbian whose girlfriend wears boy clothes sometimes and you're surprised people think it's funny? Go back to webMD and diagnose yourself with something else no one here cares

No. 614312

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>>614311
Kek I love you

No. 614313

>>614307
I’m a lesbian too, I’m just not a fucking faggot unicorn-chan

No. 614314

tfw no gf..

No. 614318

>>614311
fuck sorry the robot you liked posted the epic wojack meme calling you a roastie so now your on lc looking for some way to feel better about yer self :(((((

No. 614319

>>614318
what mental illness is this that's talking rn?

No. 614321

>>614301
Yes that’s exactly what it is and has been for like 4 years. It’s pointless to argue with them.

No. 614322

>>614319
Alcoholic troon lover

No. 614323

>>614313
>i’m lesbian
>i’m just normal white lesbian not a pc made up lone thats actively shat on for existing irl

No. 614325

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>>614295
is this u anon

No. 614326

>>614323
+12 oppression points have been deposited into your account. Thank you for your service, unicorn.

No. 614327

>>614323
Not white, but try again dumbass. Not all of us make a big deal out of being WOC with mental illness kek.

No. 614328

>>614327
She didn’t make a big deal of it she just mentioned it in the vent thread.

No. 614329

>>614328
t. unicorn-anon

No. 614330

>>614329
I’m not the anon, I just don’t think it’s a big deal to mention in the vent thread

No. 614331

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No. 614340

gnc is just a less infantilizing/retarded way of saying tomboy. It’s not really tumblr/twitter shit imo but I suppose nobody really knows what the term means outside of the internet unless you talk to gender critical women irl

No. 614342

>>614299
lmao I thought all the anons saying tumblr/twitter fags were invading here were full of shit, but this pot has me convinced. No one used race as an insult you complete retard. Why do people like you even come here? Everything must offend you.

No. 614343

same anon I forgot to mention that the term tomboy has been completely hijacked by coomer men saying “Tfw no tomboy gf to impregnate” and stupid shit like that so it’s no wonder non feminine women would rather use “gnc” now a days

No. 614344

>>614340
People that are actually gnc don't use it as a descriptor. They're still male or female. They're aware it's just the way they dress. As soon as you start referring to yourself as gnc you've lost what it means.

No. 614345

>>614342
She made a pretty innocuous post and got dog piled on because people are mad bc she said gender nc. They are the ones constantly sperging and offended by everything.

No. 614347

>>614345
twitter is that way -→

No. 614348

>>614295
kek this added nothing of importance to your vent but its hilarious so thank u

anyway here u go i think you'll like this place: https://mobile.twitter.com/

No. 614349

>>614344
I disagree, being a gender nonconforming female isn’t solely based on clothing choice, though clothing choice probably appears to be the first indication/way of clocking them. Just as wearing feminine clothes isn’t the sole aspect of femininity as a whole, neither is rejecting said clothing gender nonconformity as a whole

No. 614350

>>614295
jesus christ look at all those buzzwords that mean nothing
>im one of those unicorn-like super minorities
what the fuck lol

No. 614352

>>614340
Honestly, like I've seen so many women post on the women thirst threads (women you're ashamed to say you'd fuck/ conventionally attractive women) that thy miss hot tom boys but "tom boys" still exist they just use the term GNC since "tom boys" as a term literally means women/girls that are traditionally more masculine acting.

No. 614353

>>614323
Oh sorry didn't know I had to be a poc lesbian unicorn with mental illness dating a gender nonconforming person in order to be a validated

No. 614354

>>614349
what else is gnc if not clothes? gnc lesbians have existed since lesbians have but they never refereed to themselves as gnc, they called themselves lesbians or butch.

Also the gender critical woman don't believe in gnc because they don't believe in gender so idk wtf anons are even talking about. Being gnc isn't an identity.

No. 614356

>>614349
So, what are the other characteristics of a gender non-conforming woman?

No. 614368

>>614354
Youre right, gnc lesbians call themselves butches and don’t normally call themselves gnc. Typically I see bisexual women and straight women calling themselves gnc, at least those with the sense not to call themselves butches/studs. Gender non conforming doesn’t somehow prove gender identities are real nor are they actual gender identities, it’s just a more modern way of saying “a not traditionally feminine female who adheres to society’s gender roles”. This term is mainly used by radfems & gender critical women/feminists so I can assure you nobody is claiming it’s a gender identity
>>614356 besides clothes it usually involves not shaving or waxing body hair or using make up too, but besides that it includes engaging in traditionally male dominated jobs/hobbies as well. Honestly there might be some women out there who found the term gender non conforming and tried to claim it as an identity/new aesthetic or something but for those of us who have just been non feminine our entire lives it’s just who we are, 99% of “masculine” women arent gonna label themselves as gnc unless they learn what it is, its just how we are, not really an identity. I honestly think it emerged more recently to counter the gender bullshit being forced on non feminine girls/young women

No. 614369

>>614356
Delusional

No. 614371

>>614369
so do you have a problem with non feminine women or do you just not like the term kek

No. 614379

>>614368
People are absolutely claiming it as a gender identity. It was an option on the last form I filled out. Male, female, gender nonconforming, other. I'm a woman that works in a sector that's 99% males and I'm honestly sick of being label gnc. Men don't own this sector just because they've been successful at harassing woman out of it. I'm not going against my gender because of what I do and what I do doesn't make me masculine which is what you're saying.

No. 614381

So… Now, at 30, It seems I am being re(diagnosed) with ADHD.
I was already once at like 26 but my shrink only gave me test to complete, said yup you have it and then disappeared and I got back on the good ol' AD train with another therapist.
I do get distracted A LOT by sounds and I have to be occupied at all time but I never been an agited child or person (in fact, I was really demure or I'd get scolded harshly. It sticked with me and I'm now a pretty good actress, people always believe my fake body language).
I do drink like like 2-3 energy drinks a day to be more focused and kinda calmer and could drink 6-7 without ever getting jittery.
idk. Part of me hopes it's the answer. That I've had strategies to really hide it that suck my energy and that's why I'm burning out every year or two simply having a job and doing normal stuff. Idk.
I guess I'm still hoping for that magic pill that will suddenly make everything easier.

No. 614390

I'm so tired of gender critical discussions here. I know that's very non feminist of me but I wish these anons moved to twitter

No. 614397

Ok hold the fuck up
That racist bitch in central park who strangled the fuck out of her dog got to keep the dog?? The fuck??

No. 614400

>>614390
maybe you should fuck off to twitter if you're this easily upset

No. 614403

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>>614400
They have had multiple of their threads locked, been told to leave by the admin countless times and have their own board and still won’t stop. The problem is them, not the users who are sick of it.

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>>614390
Move the fuck out to reddit and go look at some of those incredible hair filled neo vagina wounds 'till you peak, then.
>>wah wah all my spaces have to gc free even the rare ones with real women speaking their mind.

No. 614405

>>614390
>>614403

>Lolcow doesn't pander to your ideology.


hide the thread you big babies. No one is even discussing trannies

No. 614406

>>614381
I wish you the best anon.
I also get burned out by doing normal stuff, if I make an effort to concentrate everything just becomes really stressful, but I don't know if I have ADHD. The thing is, my family isn't too kind to people with illnesses like these, so I don't know if want to go to a therapist and be diagnosed. I wish there was a way to fix this. Actually, I wish I could function normally just like everyone else.

No. 614408

>>614405
Literally the post above you is lmao

No. 614409


No. 614410

>>614408
so? if you believe it's against the rules report it and hide the thread. We're not here to discuss what you personally find acceptable.

No. 614415

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>>614408
Kek, if you think THIS one message is harsh gc talk, you really gotta get out the Tumblr bubble, sweetie.
You're gonna get shook!

No. 614416

>>614306
Awks because I'm not lesboanon, did you tag the wrong post?

>>614342
This is the vent thread, I came here to vent my disappointment in the post quality here. Kek, my post doesn't have to be relative to this specific thread, you absolute retard. Reading comprehension is another thing waning here.

No. 614420

>>614415
No one said it’s harsh gc talk? I just said it’s about trannies since they said no one was talking about it. Either way the admin has clearly said there’s no reason for there to be any gc talk and to use the other site.

No. 614423

Why do so many people on the internet dox other people over stupid bullshit like personal drama, when there's scores of animal abusers, child molesters, etc making themselves known?
All the autism you put into tracking down some neckbeard shitposter on an incel forum could've been used to track down the person who tortures innocent animals for fun/profit, and either lives in some tiny, poor country where you could easily pay someone in his area $700 to get rid of him and make it look like an accident (and the police likely won't bother investigating because tiny, poor country), or lives in a country with decent animal welfare laws, and can be reported easily.

No. 614424

>>614420
good luck with that, if it bothers you so much leave ot or find another imageboard
also its vent thread on a women-populated site where they can actually talk about their men or tra problems without being doxxed

No. 614426

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>>614420
I'm sure admin don't really give two shits and there's an obvious lack of farmhands at the moment.
Sorry honey, you can't run to the teacher.
(look at my gc ass before I get redtexted)

No. 614427

>>614397
What the fuck? I had no clue about this. The same thing happened with Brooke Houts abusing her dog on camera. Why are abusers allowed to keep animals?

No. 614428

>>614423

ughhhh same. I’m sure a lot of it has to do with accessibility and the amount of effort required. idk I think with all the news we hear abt high-ranking child molesters, rape, political corruption etc. it makes people feel helpless to fight back, so some random idiot on the internet who likely posted his personal info somewhere is much more of an easy target than someone more vicious.

No. 614433

That animal abuse video reminded me of those weirdo groups of people on youtube that love watching monkeys get tortured and had giant playlists of it on yt. What the hell man why are people like this

No. 614443

I'm so pissed at my coworker. She's working from home now except she's not doing shit. Every time I ask her a question about one of HER customers or what to say to our boss about x situations since I need her point of view to be included, she replies with stuff like idk or ok so I have to make shit up.

Had our boss call me today and I got chewed out for shit she didn't do and when I messaged her for answers she replied like 15 minutes later. I'm so fucking done with her shit.

No. 614445

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Today was so awful. My boyfriends stepdad decided to commit suicide. He was abusive towards bf’s mom… bf grew up seeing him assault her. All his life he wanted him dead and even had thoughts of killing him to save his mom. Now it happened. And it feels so empty. His mom cried and said “I didn’t hate him that much”.

BF always thought that his stepdad would commit a murder-suicide with his mom. He assaulted her that morning, but it wasn’t even as bad as it would usually be. Then he left and she locked the doors so he couldn’t get back in. Their security cameras were turned off sometime that night, but something happened that made her believe he was coming back to kill her, but he couldn’t get in. She doesn’t know when he got the gun.

He left voicemails for all his kids that they wouldn’t see him again. They responded with hostility.

The police said he got down on one knee and said a prayer before he shot himself.

The hardest part was that we didn’t think it turned out this way. They had the roads closed off so everyone was talking in the local group. People with scanners kept reporting that no one was hurt… so we believed them. Then the police told us the opposite.

I’m trying so hard to support everyone involved the best I can. I’m immuno-compromised so I haven’t left our apartment in 6 months. I keep having panic attacks. I’m so worried about everyone

No. 614447

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This meme will never stop being funny to me because it's too real and I know way too many people like this

No. 614454

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Holy shit.
My fentanyl came. It's a legit 10 blister of the shit. I thought for sure it got caught and was over it.
Guess I won't kill myself today because I don't feel like it right now but it sure is nice to suddenly have a definite option.

No. 614465

Hope that one cunt anon is here to tell me to kill myself again because I just got back from the gyno and it's gotten worse, yay!! Gotta go back to the clinic for the anesthesiologist and I wanna fucking die but not like this haha okay have a good one ladies

No. 614467

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>>614454
>>614465
I hope it gets better
I really do

No. 614470

>>614467
Same, thanks anon.

No. 614471

>>614447
Kek istg, these types are always the loudest

No. 614472

>>614465
I'm sorry you are dealing with this anon, I hope it gets better for you and not worse. ♥

No. 614473

>>614465
Ugh, ignore the evil cunt, noone sane would want you to die. Shit, how bad is it? What did the gyno say? I'm sorry you have to go through this

No. 614475

>>614473
They are "cautiously pretty certain" I have a cancerous ovary and cervix is looking worse by the appointment. I feel fucking ridiculous for coming here instead of telling anyone irl but it's easier like this.
>>614472 sweet sweet anon

No. 614476

>>614253
So I went over to my bfs house to meet his mum and siblings for the first time. I went over and thought it would be for like 10 15 minutes max just say hello introduce myself and then we would go up to his room. Fucking nope. I was in the living room with his mum, brother, sister, grandparents and his brother’s girlfriend, so 6 strangers and my bf. They were so fucking loud and there was about 5 conversations happening and not one of them I could add anything to so I say there like a fucking idiot in his living room for 2 and a half hours. He kept being really affectionate which was weird when it was infront of his family, I kept pushing him off. Eventually I left, just upped and left and I went outside, I had an absolute panic attack and he followed me outside which was nice but like please give me a minute damn. He took me home and we left on a really good note, he said he loved me but like I keep questioning why. I felt like I came across as really rude and I made a shitty first impression. I want to fucking die because I really like him but his family were full on.

No. 614480

>>614475
I'm so genuinely sorry and almost crying anon. My fentanyl post seems so little and whiny compared to what you're going through.
I want to say I hope it gets better but we all know it's going to be hard. Just know I really feel for you.

No. 614481

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No. 614482

>>614480
You have no idea how much i crave for your fentanyl right about now anon, it kinda made me almost smile at the timing of our posts. Wish you all the well too, don't cry!

No. 614483

>>614482
I'd send it over if I could but I don't know how it would work. Anyway, if it gets too hard and you need directions on how to get some, I can help for sure. I wish you the really best.

No. 614484

>>614483
Thank you so much, at this point no matter how fucking weak or lame I sound, because I've seen anons actively going through much much worse, I am thinking of other options because the surgery alone no matter the result will fuck me up due to other stuff. I appreciate this, lots of kisses anon.

No. 614493

>>614465
That sociopath anon was obviously a seething fucking good for nothing troon so ignore them. Wish you the best of luck though and hoping you'll kick that tumor's and the asshole anon's ass.

May I ask what were your symptoms if there were any btw? I'm honestly paranoid about having developed some telltale signs during this year.

No. 614502

>>614454
Anon why do you want to kill yourself?

No. 614503

>aunt buys a car which doesn’t need two years ago because “it was cool” (she had another car previously which worked perfectly fine and it was all paid)
>decides to move out and start paying rent instead of sharing her own house because she claims she needs her space
>has a shitty job where she’s just underpaid and exploited
>always eating out, buying things she doesn’t need, wasting the money she has almost immediately
>also bragging about the money she has when she’s paid, showing design clothes, posting pictures of every single thing she buys
>then cries the rest of the month about not knowing what to do, how she would survive until next months, all the debts that she has…
Seriously how people can live like this? I couldn’t care about her spending her money irresponsibly, idgaf even is she has to live under a bridge at this point, it just get on my nerves every time she searches for sympathy when all she did was to think about herself since the day she was born.
I don’t feel sad for her. Not even a little bit.

No. 614506

>>614503
It still blows my mind that there are people over the age of 25 that somehow manage to live like this.

No. 614510

>>614465
I'm so sorry anon. I'm rooting for you and hope you get the best care possible. Fuck anyone who tells you to kill yourself, or to stop posting. Please keep us updated, we care about you <3

No. 614518

>>614465
I've posted about my cervical cancer and got a similarly cuntish reply from someone telling me I basically 'gave myself cancer by being sexually active' despite me giving no details on my level of sex experience. Prob was the same incel.

Wishing you luck anon

No. 614522

Every day it's the same old bullshit with my work from home job. I have to use about 8 different programs and websites that seem to be run on a fucking microwave instead of an actual server cos the shit is slow as hell and crashes every other day. There's been shifts where I've been expected to sit and click a "sign in" button over and over again for 8 hours cos they can't seem to just built their applications right in the first place. We're expected to call customers when the fucking application that runs the scripts takes a full minute to load each page. All the while my boomer co-workers are contantly parroting "DoEs AnYonE KnOw wHaT ThIs ErRoR Is!?!" I dunno Janine, the error we've ALL been fucking talking about over and over again for the last 4 hours? How about you use your fucking eyes and read the 10 messages before yours.

No. 614529

>>614443

Throw her under the bus anon, if your boss asks about something relating to her customers just tell him "I asked her her opinion on this but it appears she hasn't got back to me yet." As someone who can be a bit of a micromanager sometimes because I want everything to be done right even if that means me taking on extra work, it's just not worth it. You shouldn't be working twice as hard to cover up the mistakes for someone who's not even doing 100%.

No. 614536

>>614465
That was an obvious tranny who was probably on the verge of 41%ing himself. Hopefully, he attempted and will be off Lolcow for a very long time.
I hope things don't get any worse for you, anon. Please take care of yourself.

No. 614537

I feel so lonely I want to cry. Wtf, it was never a problem but since I started taking meds this loneliness is like torture.

No. 614542

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Enjoy a shitty mobile meme I made
This is genuinely how I feel about dating other women sometimes.
I want a girlfriend and love so bad but when it comes to flirting I'm an anxious mess. Especially since I seem to only attract women who want me to do all the flirting and asking. Typical budding dating relationship for me goes like this

>Meet a woman through a friend or an acquaintance

>Flirt, dates and talking all initiated and kept alive by yours truly
>The other woman seems to feel awkward, and quiet, almost never initiates chats
>"Welp, guess she's not interested, better back off/give her some space so I don't make her uncomfortable"
>Later find out from mutual friends how the girl was extremely into me and cries thinking I didn't like her

For fucks sakes why can't I be the one who gets asked out and wooed every once in a while? Why can't dating be easier? I mean it would be ideal to have a mutually understanding relationship etc but do I radiate some sort of energy that says

>"This woman does everything for you despite her sweaty, shaking hands and fast pounding heart! Every single available mouse of a woman who is unable to say what they want: have at her!"

No. 614543

I think I was molested as a child by my (male) pediatrician multiple times, sometimes with my mother in the room. Something I read triggered me to think back on it and now I'm really angry that he got away with doing this to me and other girls.

No. 614547

Working from home the last few months and I find myself having all sorts of flashbacks to my early twenties and the stupid shit I either did or shit that I put up with.

I've only needed to go get the morning-after pill once before (think some countries call it the plan b pill) A condom broke, we didn't know til he'd already finished inside me and there was no such thing as abortion in my country at that time.

The next morning was a sunday. The local family planning centre only opened for two hours on sundays and the only service provided on sundays was that emergency plan b pill service. The clinic was in the middle of a shopping mall that my brother worked at, he was a security supervisor and spent his days sitting in a room with camera monitors… those two hours that the clinic opened were before the rest of the stores opened so blurry eyed I had to get up early and walk through an empty shopping centre aware that my bro probably knew what was up if he spotted me. Then the clinic basically interrogated me about my sex life and the previous night before they would let me take the pill. It cost me 80 euro. Afterwards I sat in a local McDs, broke, feeling humiliated as I sipped on coffee and tried not to cry.

No. 614563

stop dating men. just stop it. let them die alone you stupid bitches

No. 614564

Bf is out of town and I thought it would be fun to get drunk alone. Now I’m dealing with the worst hangover I’ve ever had. It’s been 3 hours since I woke up and all I managed to do was move from my bed to the couch and snatch some fruit and painkillers on the way. Send help.

No. 614568

>>614563
Take your own advice

No. 614571

>>614568
i don't date men

No. 614583

i fucking hate having to talk to a salesperson. especially for phone plans and stuff. they're always going on and on and on on their sales pitch and you always feel like they're withholding information from you. i'm always reluctant to sign a contract or make a purchase with them because i always think i'm gonna regret it and realize i was tricked or something.
most recent in line is this fucker trying to sell me wifi+cable thing despite knowing i don't have a fucking tv, double the price of what i used to pay for. said "well that's a bit much and i don't watch tv" and he suddenly remembered there's this other cheaper plan.
and in a month's time i'll have to cancel the three free trials he signed me up for. these contracts are so annoying.

No. 614584

>>614563
you're right i need to

No. 614585

>>614571
Then why do you care so much if people do it?

No. 614587

I don't know why I still bother offering my friend advice, she will do whatever she wants anyway, even if her life’s miserable at this point.

No. 614588

>>614542
>For fucks sakes why can't I be the one who gets asked out and wooed every once in a while?
It's like I had written this though I have a different problem. I know a lot of girls have had crushes on me (anonymous confessions and hearing through the grapevine) but they've never advanced on them and just expect me to realize that they're interested in me because I guess I'm intimidating and hard to approach. Once I don't pick up on their "subtle cues" (i.e. liking my social media update) they get their feelings hurt because I never reciprocated. I don't know what I'm supposed to do, read their mind?

Another thing that irks me is that I constantly see people shitting on butch girls and stereotyping them as abusive and rapey so I'm extremely cautious of initiating anything myself in order to not to scare them off. sucks man, I'd even take a bicurious straight girl as a booty call at this point because I'm desperate

No. 614590

>>614585
Nta but because men suck

No. 614599

>>614585
??? if you want to be in a loveless relationship with a stupid scrote then go ahead, idgaf. continue being a stupid bitch then

No. 614602

>>614599
Okay I was on board with you but now you're just being retarded

No. 614603

>>614602
i can't stop her anon. all i can do is give her a warning.

No. 614604

Got back from the shrink with a weird mix of wellbutrin, Concerta and a neuroleptic I'll never even fucking touch. I guess it's time to grind my teeth and stop saying I want to die to people. When they start talking quietapine,you know they're not far off from trying to give you a good ol' lobotomy.

No. 614607

>>614604
Wellbutrin and concerta? They tryna fry your brain

No. 614608

I'm living in kenosha where riots are going on rn and im frustrated. KPD is racist as all hell and a lot of this could have been avoided if they just arrested the officer that shot a guy 7 times in the back.

No. 614609

>>614588
Ayrt

I've been through the anonymous confessions, rumors and cues. It's annoying as hell.
One girl actually copied my looks until I got heebie jeebies and vented about it out mutual friend who then told me the girl was into me and tried to "signal" her affection. She didn't think that maybe asking me out was a better idea than copying my entire wardrobe and hairstyle. Unsurprisingly that relationship didn't work out.

And the butch thing is real. Back when I used to be more butchy it honestly felt like walking on eggshells sometimes.

No. 614629

I put my wet hair in foam curlers last night and went to sleep. In the morning it was still as wet as before. I blow-dried it and put a hairspray before getting the curlers out. STILL FUCKING WET. NOT A CURL IN SIGHT, NOT EVEN A FUCKING WAVE.

I want to have nice old Hollywood waves. Is it too much to ask for?

No. 614635

>>614629
Invest in a dehumidifier

No. 614640

>>614629
If it was still wet when you took the curlers out, then of course that was going to happen.
If your environment doesn't allow your hair to dry then it's not possible. My hair takes two days to dry into curls in colder months and then the moisture in the air at that time of year destroys them, I can only do it in summer.

No. 614653

Fashion right now sucks and clothing quality is complete and utter trash. Everything is made from polyester or some synthetic material. Why is it so hard to find something made from cotton? Why does everything have to fit so tight? Why is everything a crop top? I just want some breathable, loose airy clothes that I can feel comfortable and covered up in. Ugh

No. 614658

>>614629
Is your hair bleached? Damaged hair dries much harder. Try doing it with damp hair rather than wet hair

No. 614659

>>614543
that's so fucked up, i'm really sorry that happened to you, anon

No. 614662

>>614653
Just shop vintage/thrift, all my best clothes are from that. I barely buy anything new anymore.

No. 614671

>>614653
Oh my god yes and the fucking cheap MESH. Holy shit please, can companies stop using mesh for things. It's NOT the same as a soft sheer product!

No. 614674

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I had to move to a place I'm unfamiliar with recently because of the failing health of one of my relatives. I'm not upset about it because they mean a lot to me, but I had to leave my job and also it's during the pandemic and also I know no one here. I think it's cause of the loneliness and isolation, but it's made me realise that I haven't dated anyone in forever and I'm now constantly worrying about dying alone. To make things worse, I've started developing a crush on a singer now because we live in the same relative area and I can't stop having dreams about him and how great of a person he is end my life

No. 614693

>>614653
Literally where are you shopping then though because I went shopping last week and all the big retailers were selling oversized crap, baggy jeans and simple loose fitting tees.

>>614662
nta but thrifting irl costs a loooot of time and thrifting online is just digging through aliexpress resellers and people overpricing their worn shit. I don't get how you could exclusively source your clothing from thrifting stores and vintage online without making it a spare time hobby.

No. 614701

I fucking hate having my period. I wore an 8-hour pad to bed and woke up completely soaked in blood and now I'm insanely tired. I already have iron deficiency problems and my period turns me into an unproductive sleepy lazy piece of shit, which is a problem for me because I need to be productive or I go insane.

No. 614704

>>614653
Try Uniqlo if you're on a budget

No. 614717

Whenever I see advertising for mommy tiktoks I see a bunch of young women who had kids too early and haven't grown out of the phase of wanting attention in order to feel attractive still because babies have taken over their identities. I get it, but it's also cringe. This is why I'm waiting until my 30s at least.

No. 614725

>>614701
I use tampons and I've no idea how pad users manage overnight.. even with nighttime pads it just seems like fluid will find a way of heading in the wrong direction any time you turn over?

No. 614726

>>614693
I don't think it takes up that much time irl! I've never tried online, I'm way too lazy. I have fun doing it irl though. Haven't gone in a while because of COVID, but before, I just went in with an idea of what kind of fabrics/denims/colors/cuts I like, and just gravitate towards them. I also prefer vintage shops to thrift shops because they're already pre-curated, and luckily, the best one here is reasonably priced and not marked up to hell.

No. 614727

>>614518
Wait there's two of you with cancer? What the hell I feel like the odds of two anons having cancer on this board are so small… isn't there only like 30 of us regularly posting here?

I'm so sorry to both of you and wish you the best

No. 614730

>>614653
there are still cotton clothes out there! idk where you are from, but i personally still like hollister/abercrombie! they have moved past their early 2000s kind of look and have some cute stuff and sales happen pretty often too. obviously they have a mix of materials but u should be able to find cotton. like others have mentioned, i love thrifting and get a lot from value village and if you cant thrift you can try sifting through depop for stuff! aerie is usually pretty good too cant remember how much cotton they specifically have though.

No. 614733

I hate the term "lil" like just say the full fucking word you literal womanchild

No. 614734

>>614725
If you have a normal flow and your underwear fits properly, you won't have an issue with pads even overnight. I can't wear tampons because they hurt too much, or I would probably try those instead

No. 614735

Unpopular opinions thread pic is the visual equivalent of aids and I think my continued exposure had rendered me HIV positive

No. 614738

>>614726
Maybe I'm just unlucky with the selection in my local thriftstores then. Curated vintage stores have nice things but are marked up af, going to fast fashion stores is more affordable. And the thriftstores are just cluttered with ugly old clothing from middleaged woman and legitimately worn down clothing and what not, it takes multiple trips to maybe come back with 1-2 finds that I would actually wear.

No. 614741

>>614735
I’m sending the bees after you, their venom is a useful vaccine

No. 614748

>>614733
holy shit anon are you me? i was just going to say the same thing… guess we are both a “lil” annoyed

No. 614758

>>614735
yeah im sick of seeing these "chile" images
only kids and obnoxious twitter fags use those

No. 614766

>>614748
I follow a bunch of fit girls on IG and they all talk exactly the fucking same, but somehow seeing them use the word "lil" over and over again is the worst offense. I have a thing with shortening words to make them sound cutesy to begin with kek

No. 614770

>>614727
Well I had it past tense. Posted before about how at my first smear test at 27 I had it. I also had HPV as the vaccine didn't exist when I was growing up. 4 years later I'm doing ok but I didn't know at the time that my long term partner was cheating on me so it stings knowing the HPV and years of medical shit that I went through could've been a nice side effect of his affair..

I was only dealing with a layer of cancerous cells though and thought that was stressful enough, heart goes out to other anon

No. 614772

>>614735
>>614758
I’m op, the image was a joke relating to venting in beekeeping which makes sense to me because I’m an apiarist but it prolly isn’t as obvious to others kek
Sorry for letting you all down I’ll never op again & I’ll send y’all some honey to make up for it

No. 614773

I've been in a dispute with an online clothing company over a missing package for almost a month now and I'm really close to just saying fuck it. I'm so tired of them dragging their asses on this. I've never had this much of a problem getting a refund from a company, especially one as big as this

No. 614775

>>614772
Anon they said the Unpopular Opinion thread not this one!! The bees can stay ♥

No. 614780

>>614770
Yikes, I'm so sorry. Glad to hear you're doing better at least.

No. 614785

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>>614775
ohh I’m a dummy. Thanks for clearing that up anon! Bees are pretty awesome.

Fun fact that almost every bee you see during fall/winter is female because they kill off the males so save their resources when it starts to cool down

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No. 614803

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>mfw waiting to hear back from both my work and my GP about getting tested for COVID because of my dumbass friend

No. 614804

>>614803
Girl what did she do

No. 614806

>>614735
I hate it, almost prefer the pepe OPs

No. 614832

>>614804
Didn't tell me her live-in boyfriend was exposed to COVID and then we hung out, shared drinks and etc. I mentioned not feeling well and she said "oh same. Bf was exposed at work last week and didn't get tested til Monday." Basically have been having teetering on the verge of a panic attack since, especially since I've gone to work and all.

No. 614841

>>614832
Time for some new friends. Hope you don't test positive.

No. 614861

Just found out the class that I was most looking forward to taking has a 10-page paper assignment on top of a workload that is already pretty ridiculous for a 3-unit class. Probably just gonna drop it now because I have senioritis and can't be fucked to write that much at this point

Fucking hate when professors pull this shit and act like they're doing you a favor. Not all of us are applying to grad school

No. 614863


>have been quarantining, order groceries online etc.

>miss my baby angel niece so bad, wanna visit
>ask anxiety-brother to let me visit and play with her
>anxiety-bro: “sorry you can’t come over because you let house cleaners in (*our dad hires them) so you might be at risk”
>bitch I stay the fuck away from them when they visit and you’ve been going out peach picking etc. what the fuck are you talking about

inb4 “then just get rid of the house cleaners” because dad refuses every time I ask him about it

No. 614868

>>614832
Your friend is retarded and I hope nobody involved was infected to begin with.

No. 614869

>>614863
>house cleaners
>peach picking
>extreme paranoia about COVID

this is the whitest post i've seen on this board in awhile

No. 614873

>>614863
All I read was 'house cleaners'

No. 614874

>>614869
the fact that
>bitch I stay the fuck away from them

No. 614878

>>614868
I hope so too ty anon

No. 614879

>>614873
all I read was "order groceries online"

No. 614882

who else procrastinates the fuck out of everything and sabotages any chance for success because they are terrified of criticism and failure after a lifetime of verbal abuse?

No. 614888

>>614882
Anon, you described my life with eery accuracy

No. 614890

>>614888
get over here bitch, let's hug it out

No. 614892

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No. 614906

>>614882
with the amount of rage sperging on here it is very hard for me to imagine that most anons were not raised in a verbally abusive household kek

No. 614907

>>614310
Thanks anon. I want to say something because i definitely dont appreciate her trying to give me a bad reputation. I'll speak to my manager in private.

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>>614447
Every fucking time

No. 614915

>>614906
I feel like it hasn't been too bad lately? but maybe I shouldn't jinx it

No. 614916

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>>614882
anon, i love you. I'm raising my hand to agree

No. 614918

Men are fucking shit. Found some article about some tiktok girl doing loyalty checks with men. Basically other girls message her to slide into dms of their boyfriends to see if they are loyal and of course fucking scrotes are never loyal

https://www.tiktok.com/@hayleymartin012/video/6843058815311695110

No. 614922

>>614918
Extremely cringe to do loyalty checks on your man tbf

No. 614924

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Update on newspaper delivery side job because it sure was a blast
Had to ride along with someone and got incredibly motion sick. Trying to not vomit caused me to hyperventilate, which triggered a panic attack. I had quickly taken an ativan a few minutes before the panic attack happened, but too late. Cried and shook sitting on the ground in a driveway as my face and hands went numb and my fingers locked up. Girl was super sweet about it, helped ground and distract me. Tried to continue her route and ended up puking a shit ton on the side of the road, including the ativan. Eventually I asked to come back tomorrow.
Woke up an hour ago to a nice hard sob because I guess that's what my body wanted to do. I'm thinkin I'm not gonna come back tomorrow. Feels bad, man.

No. 614925

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>have mild anxiety when things are going bad
>have moderate anxiety when basically nothing is happening at all, literally find things to worry about, etc
>have anxiety bordering on panic when things are actually going well
>try multiple medications but they all kill my sex drive
>sex and orgasms are one of my few joys in life
>forgo medication and just continue to suffer
>it's been like this for over a decade now

anons I am so fucking tired.

No. 614941

I’m so sick of people who make Book Nerd their entire identity when in reality they barely read anything that doesn’t already have a popular tv/film adaptation. Even worse when they still won’t read the books after that and only bought physical copies to take selfies with. I’m not one to gatekeep but don’t tell me that you’re the biggest Sherlock Holmes nerd eVaR when you seriously believe that homophobic BBC Sherlock showrunners invented Mary Morstan to sink your Johnlock OTP.

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>>614922
Whatever helps you sleep at night

No. 614945

>>614922
I agree but what if it saves you years of dating a dick? Saying this as someone who almost signed a mortgage with a guy who had hidden his cheating scarily well

No. 614949

i have a high sex drive and i masturbate multiple times every day but i am too ridden with trust issues and insecurities to actually have sex. i don't know if i'll ever meet a man i'd feel comfortable enough to have sex with

i am horrified of sex life problems. what if he puts in no effort to please me like majority of men? what if he shames for something? what if he gets aggressive over something? what if the whole thing goes horribly?

No. 614952

>>614941
Completely off topic, but BBC's Sherlock was actual garbage and Benedict cucumberlizard is so ugly

No. 614956

>>614542
>>614588
If you don't want to go out with each other, want to go on a date with me, anons? You both sound cute.

No. 614957

i have to move to a different fucking country because of corona now.

No. 614958

>>614957
Wtf…elaborate?

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>>614924
Hope you feel better tomorrow anon

No. 614986

I’m so retarded because my family is Islamic and I’m always questioning my sexuality. I focus on anime men and shit like that and I genuinely think that I don’t like women, and then I think to myself that I once had a crush a guy, so I could never like girls and that I’m totally faking it. I use bad experiences with women against myself, but I can’t help but daydream about women and I know that I find women so attractive. I feel so confused and weird. It’s this stupid cycle and I don’t know how to get out of it. Sorry if this is written so messy lol

No. 614997

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The past ten months I've been desperately trying to get my life together after being a suicidal alcoholic burnout for a few years. Now I'm stuck studying something I hate because I impulsively decided on it and can't change to the program I want, I can't just drop out and get a job either because corona-chan, so I'm trapped doing something I absolutely fucking hate for two more years. I need to go to a therapist to deal with my addiction & general mental problems, but I keep getting shot down by every one I contact because I don't have health insurance, even though I have the means to pay out of pocket. I'm in a long term relationship with someone I'm hopelessly in love with but doesn't seem to feel the same way about me anymore & barely spends any time with me. Fuck anons, I feel so hopeless and trapped. Even when I take the initiative to try to stop being a miserable sack of shit, nothing works out in my favor. God exists & he is punishing me.

No. 614998

>>614986
Are you sexually attracted to women?

No. 614999

>>614997
What are you studying? Why do you hate it? Why couldn't you drop out if you wanted to?

No. 615005

>>614998
Yeah, I think so. Emotionally too. I find women attractive, and I think most men are ugly. But I always delude myself into holding onto fictional characters to cope. It’s so weird right? I’ve been doing this forever. I’m 22 now and I’m pretty sure that I’ll be alone forever lol. I have decided to choose for my family instead I guess.

No. 615013

>>615005
I mean, I'm not gay, but you sound pretty gay anon. I'm sorry your family and religious background has made it so hard for you to accept your sexuality and I hope that with time, you'll be able to process this and be more comfortable with yourself. Do you live somewhere where there is any sort of community or support group for gays and lesbians?

No. 615017

>>615013
Thanks anon. I live in west Europe and in a small town… not many people around here and if they know, word might get out so I would rather not risk it. Maybe it’s my culture but I don’t think I can be happy without the support of my family. Even if I accept myself, I wouldn’t be happy with that. Lately I’ve been thinking that it wouldn’t be that bad to be in a relationship with a man. But I find like 0.1% of men attractive lol. It’s impossible. Thanks for your replies though I appreciate it.

No. 615022

I want to draw a comic but my art looks ugly. I do studies and I’m average at the fundamentals, so my realism is pretty good, but the way I stylize when I draw more cartoony things is ugly as hell imo. If I work for a long time on a drawing I can get up to 6.5/10, but my baseline is somewhere around 4.5/10 (if Chris-chan is 1 and like, naoki urusawa or some other legendary comic artist is 10). I know it’s because I don’t draw hardly at all but the issue is, the reason I don’t ever draw is because I hate having to look at my ugly drawings lmfao and I just feel like I’ve been stuck in a rut for the past few years

No. 615036

>>615022
By your own admission you know creating comics is not about coming up with perfect realistic drawings from your own imagination in every panel, so just remove that from the equation from now.
Make the comic with thumnbails, bad art that is just enough to plot out what should be in each frame and how it's shown. Where are the speech bubbles? The panels? What's the angle shown? As you create the comic you will work on these things and learn as you go, and you will develop your story in a way that actually fits to the narrative. Set yourself a deadline to write something short and then re-work it.
After you have plotted out the entire thing, then you can slowly enjoy working on redrawing it using reference materials. If you hate any of this process then accept that you actually like the idea of this more than doing it, which is fine too. Find what parts you enjoy doing and focus on those instead such as writing or single drawings
I look forward to seeing you on tappytoon anon

No. 615041

Honestly take it as a red flag when a guy says they like dogs more than cats. Honestly just want too much control.
Fucking happened to me

No. 615045

>>614999
Criminal justice. I picked it without putting much thought into it because I've always had an interest in law but I'm too broke + retarded to go to law school. I guess I didn't realize it would be 90% law enforcement shit, which I don't give a fuck about. I can't drop out because I have no backup plan and would be back to square one.

No. 615086

>>615045
Are you at a university/community college? You should seek academic advising of some kind if you don't feel like you can drop out, but aren't happy in your major.

No. 615145

All customers should die

No. 615157

>>615041
From my experience being dogfag isn’t as strong indicator as being active cat hater.

No. 615159

>>615145
You don’t shop anywhere?

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No. 615162

>>615145
brb killing myself

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No. 615200

This cute lesbian followed my art instagram and I'm gonna lose it. She's very much my type and posts about wanting a fellow art gf…ik it's dumb and I have no chance, but I'm still crushing. Stupid.

No. 615209

>>615200
Go for it

No. 615233

>>615145
YESS DIE FUCK THESE CONSUMERS

No. 615237

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I was feeling my hair and it felt a little on the thin side. I took a look at it in the mirror, and it turns out I’m FUCKING BALDING!! I’m so fucking embarrassed and why the fuck didn’t anyone tell me that it was so visible!? Fucking shit and I’m only 22 this shit really do be ugly idk what to do

No. 615240

>>615237
Where are you balding? Depending on where it is it may be hormonal or diet related and possibly treatable.

No. 615246

>>615041
what if i also like dogs overall more than cats? that doesn't equal up to cathate if they simply like dogs a bit more

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>>615237
Idk if this is you anon, but it might be something to look into

No. 615273

I think I'm going to break up with my boyfriend and I don't know when to do it, I'm currently at work and I kind of want to do it now but I also want to wait until he's at work but I'm also afraid of what if he hurts our cats if I do it now and if he'll come to my work to plead to have me back. If I do it while he's at work hell probably drive back home. I'm at a loss I don't want to do it face to face because he told me he would smack me because opened a window, this is the first time he's threatened to physically hurt me in the 5 years we've been together.

No. 615275

>>615237
hey sister this happened to me recently… i feel so silly. i think we both may have androgenic alopecia.. it sucks. I shaved my head and everything. I feel a lot better. It just sucks. Lmk if you need someone to talk to. Perhaps we can swap discords or smthn.

No. 615281

>>615273
Do you live together?

No. 615283

>>615273
Get out asap anon. Maybe contact someone who can be present (even if they're outside) while you break up with him. What he threatened you over and the fact you're worried about your pets should be telling enough. Please be safe anon.

No. 615284

>>615237
If you have a high amount of androgens you could discuss taking anti-androgen drugs with your doctor. Until then I recommend spearmint tea.

No. 615290

>>615273
Don't do it now if you're really afraid he will get physical. Plan a few days ahead to get the cats and some of your most precious belongings out. THEN GET THE FUCK OUT.
Don't face him. Get your things and when you can, run to your mom, a friend, anyone. If you can't get the cats, just get out anyway. Please.

No. 615300

>>615281
Yes, we live together. My landlord has told me when we moved in I can contact her if I ever feel unsafe around him. I think I will use her help.

No. 615303

>>615273
I've never been in a relationship and reading shit like this makes me feel so bad. 5 fucking years gone to waste while your bf never showed his true colors. Recently a guy that's been dating for 5 years as well hit on me. Wish I knew who'd be my perfect match so I don't have to waste my time. I just hope my first won't turn into an abusive relationship.

No. 615331

>>615300
Good thinking. Be safe, anon.

No. 615343

So earlier today, on my way home, some dude was jacking off right next to on public transit. And I suspect that it was actually towards me because he was hitting on me not long before.

What causes men to do this? I know most men are perverts to the core but at least they have the decency not to do it in public. This guy was high as a kite though (he tried to offer me some weed too kek) but I’ve been stoned out of my mind and I still knew better not to jack it in public.

No. 615362

This morning I laughed at my med bottle because it was childproofed so good I had to destroy it. I laughed because just after detroying it open, I read the label and it said retardtabletten, and I was like yup, I sure am a retard.
I guess I should have slept last night.

No. 615401

>>614925
Coomer tier

No. 615417

>>615401
Normal human who enjoys sex tier

No. 615455

>>614635
>>614640
I was actually planning on buying humidifier. If air in my apartment gets any drier, I'm going to crumble to dust. During colder seasons I keep waking up with scabs in my nose and whenever I blow it a bit harder, I get nosebleeds.

>>614658
It's been five years since I last bleached my hair. It's really thick (as in each strand is thick, not that I have a lot of it), so maybe that's why it's so hard to shape. I tried a ceramic curler and hot rollers before. Only the curler works, but the curls hold only for several hours, and I dislike exposing my hair to heat damage (and it's too much work in the morning).

No. 615500

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So, I checked out the gal called snitchery on Instagram. She has the body of my dreams, observing her long torso, hourglass figure and thin legs just crushed my soul man. I thought I was to old for this and had outgrown it, but there’s always a burning hatred in there that just wants me to starve off 20kg. I fucking loathe my stubby legs and hamster cheeks. I’m aware of things that you can’t help like bone structure, genes and such but my mind isn’t logical, just filled with pathetic insecurities. Just an absolute weak moment.

No. 615502

>>615500
Bitch have you heard of photoshop

No. 615509

>>615502
or surgery?

No. 615515

>>615502
There’s videos and lives, she more or less looks like that. The point isn’t if it’s an illusion or not, it is to be confident enough in your own body to not have a breakdown because of other people’s bodies. Regardless, I know it’s stupid and silly.

No. 615518

>>615515
i do that every day i hate it. i know internet is fake but when i see someone irl that looks how i want to, i want to do a flip

No. 615543

Sometimes I feel so horrible because I force myself to draw in realistic artstyle or superhero comics on because of the fact that 'normal' type of people in the place where I hang out on are impressed only by basic stuff such as celeb portrait or 'look I drew this super realistic button!' (yes…literally) rather than someones nice artstyle, let anime alone. It makes me feel like as if my art is worthless whenever I show them drawings in my artstyle, no matter of how amazing at anatomy I am they don't seem to care because face looks like as if its 'from anime'. I know it's such a stupid thing to do and whine about but man… I feel bad that I need someones approval that much.

No. 615553

>>615515
>she doesn't know you can edit videos

No. 615579

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>>615500
This snitchery? Don't trust people's social media too much

No. 615583

I met someone on the internet who's exactly my type. I mean exactly the personality i want and he's cute physically too (skelly tier but still).
He lives in another city tho, and we're both in college living with parents so we cant stay at each others house + hotels are expensive for us two broke students.
We only met a week ago but we clicked instantly, been talking almost non-stop. But it feels like it just wont work out due to circumstances. This was supposed to be my first relationship so im kinda not sure if i should end things before they get too intimate or should i somehow try to work it out.
Anons im asking for ur help. Is it worth to start a LDR if you'll only see each other like 10 days per year for the next 2 years at least? Also he's really fucking cute and respectful towards women but he did have a couple one night stands which kinda disturb me, because i really believe in the "sex with the right person" bullshit and im kinda turned off by his past. Am i a judgemental bitch?

No. 615586

>>615543
Anime is trash after all. I get it.

No. 615599

>>615583
Adding to this: i know this is probably my attachment/trust issues speaking but i feel like i love him a lot more than he likes me? Like i basically daydream about him 24/7 and try to find ways to bring him here and pay for his sray somehow. Idk i just feel like when we talk its usual like:
>me: "i know its been only a few days but you're my dream guy. I never thought i'd fall in love with anyone as hard as i did for you etc." Whole paragraphs about why i love him.
>him: "babeee i just wanna kiss you so hard"
I dont fucking know why im so fucking clingy and whether he's gonna get bored of it after a while. Im just sad anons. Why does he have to live somewhere else :(

No. 615603

>>615583
Honestly… Nah. It is not worth it at all. Especially considering that he is a fan of one night stands with a mix of LDR, he might cheat on you eventually.

Honestly it is best to start "LDR" only if you both are mentally stable, normal adults with good source of income rather than students who live with their parents and are busy studying. Most of LDRs don't work because its a huge level of commitment, and I'd rather advise you to not rush things so quick such as going into relationships just because "you keep talking nonstop and click so well", rather develop at least a year of friendship at first to see how it goes. Rushing things never leads to anything good and it's rather best to date a friend who you know for awhile if you are that desperate so breaking up wouldn't hurt that much, plus in the end you will never truly know a person unless you start living with them, trust me.

No. 615608

>>615583
You're deluding yourself anon, also you can't really love a person after a week. Infatuation can be really powerful but you gotta be realistic sometimes, maybe it would work out if you lived close but LDR like this - 10 days per year - just makes zero sense.
Also you are a bit too clingy to be honest. If someone was writing paragraphs about love week after meeting me I would be honestly disturbed, even if a bit flattered.

No. 615614

>>615583
Ten whole days a year… that's a shitty first relationship. You're both in college and bound to meet other people meaning one of you is likely to cheat or you'll be turning down chances for real relationships to form in those two years.

Also I think very few people in college with a few one night stands in their past will happily be celebate for 355 days of the year, especially a guy

No. 615627

Nothing gets me going like good banter but guys never seems to get it. I'm fucking teasing, tease back ffs.

No. 615639

>>615614
>>615608
>>615603
Thanks anons. I know im a creepy clingy mess (attachment issues due to very low self esteem + mental illness). I guess it's also not fair for me to expect him to commit considering he already knows what sex feels like and probably wants to have it a lot more than i do. We're not even technically "partners"/"bf, gf" he said its too early.
Sigh i guess it will end soon and he'll find someone else. but this is the first time i got proper male attention and i really wanted it to work. Idk anons, i wish i was a lot more mentally stable and didnt start dreaming of settling down with him 3 fucking days after we met.
Thanks for slapping some sense into me. Now im sad but i guess i'll know not to expect much :( time to study something hard to firget how fucking cringe i acted

No. 615657

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>>615639
You should invest yourself into Otome games, maybe it will help your 'hopeless romantic' self.
For example, the good f2p ones are
Cinderella phenomenon https://dicesuki.itch.io/cinderella-phenomenon

Cupid https://fervent.itch.io/cupidvn

However, these are western ones and most of them are actually pretty bad and could leave off a bad presentation, so I highly recommend pirating or buying japanese Otome games because they are top tier.
Eg. Amnesia oftenly gets on over 70 off sale and it's fine for starters. Nightshade is also pretty good, Hatoful Boyfriend is a cute one for LULz and currently on sale on steam.

Tho to be fair I donot like half otomes off steam because there are much better ones on torrents (with fan translations) or other websites, so I'd recommend checking out more otome review blogs rather than recommends off steam.

No. 615673

jesus fucking christ I am so fucking sad. The kind of sad where you feel paralysed and your chest fucking hurts. None of my coping mechanisms are working anymore. I'm so fucking tired of feeling like this. I just want to be okay.

No. 615690

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After being completely alone in lock down for months I met a guy through a dating app. He’s stupidly handsome, intelligent, charismatic, and unlike anyone I’d ever met.

I couldn’t believe our banter. It reminded me of how lovers in films spoke to each other, the way that would make me scoff quietly because “nobody is that quick and witty IRL”. And yet there I was, pleasantly exhausted after our first phone call, an 8 hour marathon of verbal swordfighting.

We spent even longer together on our first physical date. It was scrappy, maybe even shitty by some metrics, but pure fun through and through. By the end of the long night my human-starved ass wanted to fuck so bad but he refused since I had drank, and took me home safely instead.

On our third date we went on a road trip together across the Californian desert, making stops along the way to explore little towns and abandoned train yards. We snuck into a closed national park, played in sand dunes, and with the whole place to ourselves made love under the stars.

Soon after, I had to cut the fairytale short to go home halfway across the world to be with my family. We stayed in contact via Facebook, and video called often at first, but it’s just wasn’t the same at all. As months went on we slipped away from each other, and I go to bed most nights looking over the photos and videos we took over those short 3 weeks, wishing he was beside me.

I’m going back to the States next year so we’ll probably meet again, but god I miss him. I wonder if I’ll ever experience a whirlwind romance like that again.

No. 615701

>>615673
Depression or did something happen? Either way, sorry you're hurting anon x

No. 615710

>>615701 chronic depression, but it hits harder sometimes

No. 615729

>>615690
This sounds so beautiful. I hope you'll be able to just see it as this amazing memory, and not let yourself get upset over the fact it ended. Even though it's completely understandable.

No. 615755

>>615579
Anon she still looks great and you can tell her waist pulls in like original anon said….what are you trying to prove with this?

No. 615758

My weeby Vocaloid software I've been jittery about for the past 4 days finally arrived.. and the serial codes are already used. My kokoro is brokoro.

No. 615787

I went from really seeking male validation to finding them repulsive. Even the ones who look so sweet, cute and innocent. All degenerates who would fuck anything that moves.

That's what really grossed me out about men. They will fuck anything and it's like their brain is focused on sex 24/7. I really would like to spend a day with the brain of an average male becuz it must work like an insect.

No. 615796

The increasing normalization of prostitution makes me so sad

No. 615797

>>615796
Do you mean in the form of escorting or sugaring or?

No. 615811

Giving relationship advice to women who want to keep their shitty men around cause they're scared to be alone is so futile.
Pretend these are the same anons begging a doctor to help them with cancer
>"Doctor please help, my cancer is killing me!"
>Well, because you've let the cancer fester for so long your treatment will be quite the undertaking, but overall your prognosis is good if we take action immediately.
>"Doctor be reasonable! Surely you can't mean something so drastic?! This cancer is killing me BUT I LOVE MY CANCER! Clearly you don't know what you're talking about and can't possibly understand."
>…
Just replace cancer with toxic boyfriend/husband and that's how insane these women have been brainwashed into becoming.
Sorry ladies, but there's no such thing as loyalty achievement unlocked. Just years of your life you wasted thinking a man will change and treat you better if you keep sacrificing yourself.

No. 615814

>>615797
I mean onlyfans, specifically the recent shit with Bella Thorne. Prostitution wasn't the right word, but idk I'm dumb. It's slowly becoming more and more common, I see barely 18 girls I know irl talking about wanting to make one

No. 615829

>>615787
Honestly, I am glad you realised that. It is better than being a pickme woman who cares about validation around men so much that she doesn't mind agreeing on their sexist jokes and compliments that only resolve around sex.

No. 615834

>>615787
What sent me from "I sure hope I look ok today" to "Can men just stop looking at me full stop" was moving from a big city to a small country town. I'm not overly girly so living in a city I blended in and didn't get men oogling me too often.

Now living in a small town, attractive women all either move to the city or get snapped up quick to make a succession of babies.. so I feel like I have the eyes of every old chronically single 'bachelor' on me whenever I just pop into a local shop. Was not expecting this. God make it stop

No. 615854

>>615729
Thanks anon. Yeah, even if we don’t reconnect I can easily see myself in a rocking chair decades from now, fondly remembering the time we spent together.

No. 615878

>>615796
agreed.

the US in particular have a duty to the rest of the world to never ever legalise prostitution though. The US already sex trafficks in an estimated 15000 to 50000 women and children from the rest of the world every single year anyway, and legalising prostitution has been repeatedly shown to increase trafficking rates. america is already one of the top destination countries for sex trafficking in the world, please dont make it even worse by legalising this nonsense.

i see so many people online mainly from america who are pushing the idea that legalising prostitution is a good thing and then use examples like the netherlands and germany to "prove" that legalisation is good (but then ignore the abysmal working conditions for prostitutes in these countries and the fact that the trafficking situation in these two countries is worse than in the US). theres also the popularity of porn and onlyfans which is just making things even worse.

also, i fucking hate all the disgusting men who want it legalised so they can get their smegma crusted dick wet. if i found out my bf/future husband ever took any part in the sexual abuse industry, i would drop him right then and there.

but also, i cant stand all these "sex workers" (many of whom are disgusting ass pimps themselves) who are constantly harping on about how it should be legal because it's ~empowering~ being a prostitute. No, shut the fuck up, when your so called empowerment comes at the expense of the lives and wellbeing of several thousand people its not actually empowerment. its almost always some middle/upper class north american/western european women saying bullshit like this.

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>>615543
>mfw this was me in my late teens when I went through my pretentious ~real artist~ phase but then said fuck it and went on to draw anime weebshit while learning fundies and having a better understanding of anatomy, color theory, perspective and techniques than most of the "ew anime aint real art" crowd I hung around with

No. 615891

>>615878
>the trafficking situation in these two countries is worse than in the US
That's largely because they're transitcountries though, because of the open borders within the EU and their geographical locations. Not saying it's a good idea to legalize prostitution but it's less of a consequence of legalized prostitution than other factors that the US doesn't have.

No. 615893

>>615673
That's exactly how I feel today, with a bit of dizziness sprinkled on. Hang in there anon, it's just how we gotta go through life.

No. 615895

>>615811

God, this was my former best friend. She jumped from one shitty guy to another because she felt bored and said that girls NEED a man on their side, otherwise they do not exits as a woman and shit like this. All our meetings revolved around her dating guys and how much she hated them, asked me for advice and then judged me for not having as many partners as her? Guys are optional, especially the ones from my town suck ass anyways, but she said she can't live without one. The last bf from her I got to know was also the reason why I stopped talking to her because he was rude and insulting af and she was totally ok with that. It's over a year now that I saw her for the very last time and from time to time I wonder if she still dates him because she had the absolute most ridiculous reasons to break up with a guy, like on of her exes (also a co-worker of mine) split with her because after he gifted her the wrong flowers she slapped him for it and such things. I told her back then how idiotic shit like this was but she said that it was funny wtf.

No. 615898

>>615811
The relationship advice thread is 50 percent this

No. 615928

Ten years ago I was on a 'kink based social networking site' so a hookup site with extra categories for making friends. I had been to lots of events through it and met people. Most were into power play but I wasn't. I just used the site as a bisexual woman that didn't want to barge into a lesbian scene to meet women. It was all over my profile that I'm not sub or dom.

I got talking to one guy who was listed as dom but he approached me like a normal person and listened when I clearly laid out that I wasn't looking for a power dynamic. Met up with him for a coffee date first, he bought the frappes and I talked about my experiences going to parties within the scene. He seemed interested in both hearing about the parties and in me. I trusted him to drive me home (thinking he was coming in for fun) and we sat in his car outside my apartment block. When it came to it..he said he didn't want to hook up. That surprised me based on our evening but I went home and I remembered seeing that he had liked a whole lot of very girly girl pics.. as in super feminine types and I'm more androgynous (always being read as lesbian) Fair enough I thought.

Well ten mins after leaving he messages me about wanting it after all… wanting me ten mins after saying he didn't feel like it anymore? I was already in bed and half asleep so I said goodnight but I've always wondered if this was some weird attempt to add a bit of domming to the hook up? Rejecting you and then you (with newly lowered confidence) say oh yes! please please come back and fuck me!?

No. 615931

The more I think back on my last relationship the more I realize how shitty it was and how many times situations got turned against me even when he was in the wrong because I was 100% convinced he's a great person. I mean, he is a good person as a friend but as a partner he's just awful and selfish.
I usually don't regret any relationships I've had, whether they've been serious or casual because I always believe you can learn something from them. Hell, a small part of me don't even regret the one with my abusive ex because it also taught me how to recognize red flags (except I obviously didn't learn when it's time to tap out and not be stubborn).But this one I actually regret because in hindsight I feel it was a waste of time, I feel like a fool and lost someone I wish just stayed as my friend.

No. 615952

>>615811
I always have understanding for these women since being in a similar situation for about a year of my life. Just the fact they ask for advice is a step in the right direction, sure it feels useless giving said advice because they'll always reject it but high chance it will stay with them, resonate and eventually push them to do what's right, which maybe wouldn't happen if they didn't seek the advice at all in the first place.

No. 615953

>>615891
the trafficking increased after legalization, no?

No. 615962

i've got people around me that are literally above the law and its fucking me up mentally. You know those people who get away with literally everything? There is no consequence for their crimes, legally or socially. If I fucking did one thing they had done, I would be arrested right away. I just don't understand how some people are so fucking untouchable. It's so rage inducing.

No. 615981

>>615952
I left an abuser two years ago and still stupidly longed for him after be hit me, cheated, verbally degraded me daily and then put put on a 'sweet caring partner' act any time I needed to see a doc about my depression meds. He'd come into appointments with me and not allow me any privacy with docs… It's so stupid but I get it and that's why I reply to probably every abuse related post I see.

All that being said, I think the current story that's spamming /g is bait

No. 615984

>>615962
If you feel comfortable saying, what is it that these people are getting away with?

No. 616119

I follow some of my ex classmates on social media and from time to time they post pictures of themselves on dates, hanging out or after sex and I become so jealous and angry because no person would want to touch me with a ten foot pole haha.
God why did I have to be so disgusting and pathetic. It's so fucking stupid and I know that but I can't help feeling bad about myself even more than I do usually. In my mind all the other people are just people, doing things with their lives and shit, while I'm somewhere in between a person and a pet or an animal.

No. 616203

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I like to use henna to dye my hair, but last dye job I got too footloose with an indigo component in the henna and now my hair is waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too dark. It's supposed to be "mahogany" but you'd never fucking notice unless I was standing in direct sun cause otherwise it looks like boring, dark brunette hair.

I don't think anyone gives a shit but I hate it. I feel like such a wallflower like it makes my face look even bitchier. Apparently indigo is super hard to lift from hair without damage and even hairdressers won't touch it with bleach because of the possibility of it lifting green!
I've read shit about oil and honey treatments to peroxide treatments. And either way they all sound time intensive. I can't believe I fucked up my hair this bad imma crie.

No. 616218

The standards men set for women vs the standards they set for themselves is so fucking rage inducing

Imagine if most women didn’t even bother washing their hands or changing their underwear daily lol

No. 616230

>>616218
The worst part is when they complain about women being treated better by society for their looks when women are the ones with the highest visual standars and have to be perfect at all times. I have been told i look ugly just because i don't wear make up by some dude that had rotten teeths.

No. 616249

>>616230
Same, anon. “You look tired without make up” yeah I’m tired of this shit

The fucking audacity when they cannot manage basic self care. Ugh

No. 616268

My package never got delivered to my place even though they SAID it was delivered. LIES! I waited a month for it too…

No. 616279

>>616268
None of my packages have came and it’s been over a month, and a lot of them contain supplies I need to work. I’m freaking tf out anon.

No. 616288

Fuck I was on a diet for months, lost a shit ton of weight, fell off the wagon for a bit, have been slowly gaining again. But I’ve tried counting calories like the first time and literally all my motivation is gone! I was so determined the first time round but now it feels so difficult. I’m Also back at work part time and it just makes me want to eat shit food to feel better about hating my job. Disappointed in myself.

No. 616289

>>616279
>>616268
Not sure if y'all are American but I'm pretty sure the postal service workers have just stopped giving a fuck completely with everything that's going on. I've tried to mail a few letters and eventually had to take them to the post office because the workers just leave them in the mailbox. I've also had packages "go missing" several times over the past few months, only to find out USPS just chucked it into someone else's yard. Have lots of friends complaining about similar issues. Have you guys checked surrounding residences?

No. 616308

every goddamn fucken day. my parents listen to the most fucked up shit and the people who make these videos are even more fucked up.

No. 616309

fuck summer colds

No. 616311

>>616308
What are they listening to?

No. 616319

I had to fill out an application for the mortgage for our house to help my husband. He can afford it on his own, but his credit was a little bad.
The application asks for employment history, as expected. Five out of my seven past jobs I have left after one month of being there. The other two were over a year and 8 months.
I'm a useless failure. I'm so weak and stupid. I just hope that I don't become homeless because of it.

No. 616335

I feel like such a fucking idiot. I had this friend back in high school, he became like a brother to me. We ended up hanging out most days. I didn't think of him romantically at all. After 2 years of friendship, he completely ghosted me. I only found out from someone else that his gf at the time had told him to pick between us. I was so hurt, I didn't even deserve to be told the reason why he ended our friendship. His gf ended up leaving him a month later anyway. 3 years later I got a message from him randomly, apologizing, saying ending our friendship was one of the biggest mistakes in his life and he would love to try and make things right. We started talking again and it felt like old times. It felt like we were best friends again. 2 months later he mentions his child hood friend (a woman) had got back in touch with him too. They had been best friends almost their entire lives before she moved to another country, this would be the first time seeing her in a year.

He comes back from seeing her and says she had confessed she had feelings for him, she'd always had them and if he'd consider making things romantic. From what she said it was a lot more than a crush, she really had strong feelings for him. He said he wasn't attracted to her, couldn't see her that way, etc. What did he do next? He got her drunk and had sex with her, only to ghost her too. Text her afterwards saying it was just a mistake. Her mother had recently died and she was already having a hard time, I can't imagine dealing with this too. When he told me this I realized that this guy simply places no value on women, even long term childhood friends. I told him to go fuck himself, that I have no intentions of being close to someone who goes through life like he does. We didn't talk for over a year.

Then quarentine got to me. I have no friends, no family, I'm totally isolated from society. The only human I saw during quarantine was the amazon delivery guy. I got a bit too drunk and texted my ex friend, saying I genuinely hoped he was safe during this (he has no family either and has a job that would be effected by quarantine) He then called me. We caught up for like, 4 hours. He called me a few more times, was talking about how we'd hang out after lockdown, how happy he was I was talking to him again. I felt weird but I tried to tell myself "maybe he won't do to me what he did to the others"

But now he's ghosted me yet again. Hangs up my calls, makes weird excuses as to why he won't speak to me. I feel like such a fucking idiot. I feel like his female friends before, he's won, because he always wins when it comes to women, even his friends. I feel so disgusting. Why did I text him? Being alone is better than being close to someone you feel will tear your friendship to pieces without thinking twice. I'm such a fucking stupid retard.

No. 616336

>>616335
Yeah you gotta stop being a fallback for him anon, delete and block for good. He'll bring nothing of value to your life.

No. 616339

>>616336
I feel so lonely sometimes though and have no idea how to make new friends as an adult. I know I'm happier alone than hanging around with someone who makes me feel that uneasy though. I feel like a fool for even being upset that he's ghosted when really that's so much better than the alternative: actually getting close again, him inevitably trying to have sex with me and me being devastated that he even tried

No. 616342

I hate being so fucking lonely all the time. I hate being the friend that people only fit into their schedule when they’re bored and have no one better to hang out with. Today my friend hit me up to go to a mall that was about 45 mins away, and I agreed. I said that we could meet up at 1 because i had to finish up some stuff. Turns out, she had errands to do as well and she had to leave at 3 to go pick up her boyfriend. So all she wanted to do was get me to drive 45 mins to that mall to hang out for 1-2 hours maybe less and then she’ll dip. I’m so fucking tired of just being fit into someone’s free time. This always happens. I’m only ever contacted when someone needs a ride, or they’re bored and have nothing else to do with no one better to hang out with. I ask to hang out with my friends, but they’re never available. It always has to be on their time, on their schedule. I’m so fucking tired of this. I’m so tired of being alone. I’m so tired of being an after thought. I’m tired of being someone’s last priority.

No. 616350

idk if anyone remembers my post from the last thread and idk how to reply to myself from here but it happened. his dad died. this hurts more than losing my own grandparents. my bf and his family are pure angels, even now he's taking care of me, making sure i get to bed, im trying to be there for him but he's just shushing me and making sure i sleep. this fucking sucks, its not fair that this would happen to such good people when i fucking complain and hate on my family like a brat. idk this is a mess. its just so raw and i dont know where else to vent and it fucking sucks. ive never felt grief like this before.

No. 616360

>>614882
me me me!

No. 616361

>>614925
bitch are you me, the fuck?

No. 616363

All the eating disorder subreddits are so fucking annoying. Not everyone on a diet is a secret ana-chan. Most people are kinda fat and need to lose weight. Does being skelly give you brain damage

No. 616364

>>616363
It's just projection, like pretty much every other annoying, constant accusation anons throw around on this site

No. 616370

>>616363
I find them annoying too but for different reasons… they're always whinging about how they don't feel like their ED is valid because they aren't thin enough, they eat too much, they don't have fear foods, they feel like a fake, blah blah. It's so obvious the label of having an eating disorder is vital to their self esteem and they glorify it. Sometimes it's like… well, maybe you don't have an eating disorder. Maybe you just want one if you're that unsure. So many anachans are just endlessly competitive and vain, and they absolutely glorify EDs.

I still visit ED subreddits when I diet even though I don't have one myself, I just can't cope with annoyingly positive diet/health/fitness discussion. I only want to commiserate about how much it sucks.

No. 616373

God there is this streamer I really like watching, but recently a fucking annoying bitch with a uwu animu gurl~ fake voice started to appear in his streams and I swear I cannot bear to hear her voice. It actually feels like nails on a blackboard. Everytime I hear her I havr to leave inmediately. It literally ruins the whole experience, I dont give a shit if I sound retarded or too bitter or whatever.
Of course all the retards in the chat defend her and they just KNOW that her voice is totes REAL and shes mistaken for a kawaii innocent little girl all the time!1! and she gets bullied because her voice is so ~cute and adorable~. God, shut the fuck up, bitch.
Why can't she be normal and not desperate for male attention like the other girls in the stream, christ.

No. 616375

>>616373
Who is it?

No. 616383

>>616375
I think her name is Gumbo or something like that. I honestly just leave as soon as I hear her, so I'm not sure if thats her name.

No. 616390

>>616339
I know IRL friends are much safer than randoms online but do try out the friend finder thread. He is not worth your energy and you do not deserve to feel all alone.

No. 616393

>>616383
Is it Gumi? If it is her, I've tuned into one of her streams before because I found her through a different streamer a long time ago. I agree her voice can be a large hurdle to jump over, but she really is a genuine and funny person imo. I don't blame you, but to boil her down to looking for male validation seems kinda weird. This really came off whiteknighty but oh well.

No. 616394

>>616393
I checked again just in case and her name is actually Gumbo. But that's the name she goes by in games, maybe she has a twitch with a different name and could be that Gumi girl you talk about. If that's the case, then I'm happy she apparently is not another uwuwu smol high pitched totes animu girl~. I still can't listen to her voice, but that's my own problem, not hers ofc.
She's been appearing on streams of people related to the Dream Team (specifically Punz and Fundy). Not sure if that's the same girl you are talking about.
Also sorry if my english is too shit.

No. 616400

>>616394
It's definitely her because I just went to go check and she's streaming with the Punz guy you mentioned right now. Her Twitch is vGumiho just in case you do ever feel like checking out her out. She does a lot of solo streaming from what I can recall, but like I said before, I can understand why someone may be turned off because of her voice. No worries, anon!

No. 616416

I feel like such a dumbass, i've hurt my partner in the past pretty badly and it still affects him. I've tried to apologize and see my mistakes, i've changed for the better but still that regret is still there in me. I still feel guilt its eating me up inside. I know i've changed and i know i have been forgiven, but i still can't fucking stop overthinking on how fucking terrible i am and how fucking useless i am, even if im changed what does it matter? it doesn't hide the fact i still feel like a piece of fucking shit. All i want to do is just turn it back and not do that one mistake again. Im not sure if i should off myself or not, i still feel like my partner hates me, anytime he gets anger outburts hes letting it out all on me and i think most of the time the stuff he says is true, that he really hates me. Why can't i just remove the "scared" feeling and just off myself in peace without fear. I dont fucking know what to do anymore, i feel hopeless.

No. 616418

I tried to make an appointment with my doctor but they're constantly fully booked. It's stupid but I'm really disproportionately upset. It felt like a big mature step because all I really want to do is die. I think I'm depressed and about to ruin my life because I can't bring myself to study or work.

The NHS app says to pay for private counseling, but I can't afford it. The NHS 111 service tells me to go to a hospital, but even if I did I know I'd get eyerolls from the staff. I'd be sat there for eight hours waiting for a psych with a clipboard to tell me I'm not an immediate risk and tell me to go home.

Everything hurts. I have a big cut on my leg that keeps healing into my jeans and every time I need a piss I have to rip the fabric out of the wound. I have one on my arm that I don't want to look at because it stinks and part of my arm has gone numb. I've started calling it my mortal wound in my head because I hope it'll send me into septic shock or something but it's probably wishful thinking.
I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I wish I had the guts to just finish it. I can't bring myself to jump off something, I've OD'd and failed so many times and it's too painful. I keep trying to go for the arteries in my arm and I do hit them but the bleeding is so wild and messy that I lose my nerve and can't cut any deeper.

I'm doing the things you're supposed to do to help yourself like taking exercise and bathing semi regularly and getting dressed and sometimes I even manage to tidy up, so I can't be that bad, but I feel maxed out just doing that and hate myself for not being to do more complex stuff like my research. I'm getting physically weaker and more tired despite taking up running. I don't know what the point of any of it is except at least if I'm exhausted I can't think about things too much.

I feel like I'm in limbo. I want to laugh and cry in equal measure because I can't even kill myself right. I don't have anyone to talk to because I got cut out of my friendship group for being unreliable and erratic years ago. People don't warm to me because I'm
unintentionally creepy and awkward, especially when I'm trying hard to be liked. I legitimately don't think anybody would notice if I died and nobody is obligated to care, but since I can't end it I just have to live with that knowledge which is worse than actually dying alone. I don't know what to do, anons.

No. 616420

>Men:"Guys have it so harder when it comes to dating we never get matches it's so unfair!"
>You could try lowering your standards.
>Men:REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

No. 616422

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>find a cutie who looks like a young edward furlong(pic related)
>be dark skin black women
>have to sit and listen to him complain about how hard it is for him as WHITE MAN and how hes so oppressed by feminists.
>doesnt understand hes complaining about how hard it is to be white to someone black
>goes on a 30 minute rant about how oppressed white men are
>starts ranting about how all women these days are whores(except me)
>completely turned off.

Why does it feel like being a straight woman is some kind of joke at this point lol
All my life I've actually been doing things wrong, trying to treat males like human beings. I should've just been using from for sex and cuddles and keptcompletely emotionally distant from them. They are not human.

No. 616425

>>616418
Anon you say you're semi taking care of yourself but you have at least 2 open and festering wounds. At the very least clean and dress those. When you call you need to tell them it's an emergency. If they ask for more details says you just want to talk to the Doctor. I know this probably sounds dumb to you, but if you feel like you're going to have trouble explaining just print some version of what you wrote off and give it to them. Good luck but please cover those wounds asap

No. 616428

>>616418
Please take care of your wounds anon. Clean them out EVERYDAY and put clean fabric over them if you dont have any bandages. I know it doesn't mean a lot, but I hope you're able to get the help you need. Good luck, nonny.

No. 616434

>>616420
lol you can call me a scrote but men are far more liberal their with swipes on dating apps. it borders on desperation really

No. 616446

>>616422
kek anon was this on a date?? i think i would just excuse myself to the bathroom and never come back. mens opinions are fucking joke

No. 616461

Holy shit anon, I'm alive.
I took the fucking neuroleptic the shrink gave me "just take one of these when you really need it and you'll sleep well!" and I thought for real I was going to die.
My watch said my heart got to 170 and staid at 155 for hours (not sure about the watch but I was hearing my ticker beating way too fucking fast). Had to figure out what was causing it (since I'm taking other meds but this one was the most obvious culprit since I had taken it 30/40 minutes before, just the average digesting time).
It was obvious it wasn't a panic attack, I wasn't even hyperventilating or anything.
Had to beg the boyfriend not to call the hospital 'cause I neither wanted to die there or live through the fucking charcoal whatever abomination they'd have in stores for me.
I just fucking crossed my fingers it was what I thought it was : a weird reaction to this neuroleptic in particular I already had once several years ago. But I didn't know so I waited agonizing hours to see if I was really dying and my heart was just giving out or if it really was just this shit agaub. Was nauseated the whole time and ended up vomiting everything which didn't seem real good.

Welp, I slept only 3 hours and I'm alive on a gamble I wasn't having an heart attack at 28yo. I wasn't even scared of dying ffs, I just didn't want to fucking die at the hospital. I had just called my mum on the phone to tell some good news, right after taking the neuroleptic, thinking I was going to tell her and have a nice night of rest, finally. It would have been a weird call for my bf to make today.

Looks like I shaved a few years of my life and will probably die in my 40's of heart failure but fuck, I'm alive right now.
I'm sorry for the fucking novel, anon. I can't tell this shit to anyone else.
I'm throwing out all the neuroleptics I have and I'm not touching one again ever.

No. 616473

my fucking ocd intrusive thoughts won’t go away and I can’t stop thinking about breaking my ankles

No. 616486

>>616473
Did a post on this site cause this?

No. 616497

>>616486
nah, my mom broke hers a few years back and I think that’s the cause of it

No. 616526

Found an acc on instagram that is abusing animals, cats. Cant look at it, raported it but i know i cant do more wish that person would drop dead..wish instagram would do more like check the e-mail the IP or stuff like this to get that trash human..

No. 616574

I hate piercings, I'm totally triggered by the earrings thread, when I tell people about how I feel, that piercings make me sick, just putting a hole through my body for no reason other than hanging something from it that might catch on something and rip my skin apart, everyone acts like I'm overreacting and crazy. But when you look at it objectively and forget for a moment that everyone does it, how is it not scary and disgusting to make holes through your body? And I am the kind that likes things my friends tell me are scary and morbid. But this is just too much. Just the thought of pushing a piece of metal through myself makes me sick, my mum asked me to put her earrings on for her and I just fumbled with them for 5 minutes and couldn't do it. And don't get me started on people who pierce their own ears!! Like my mum!!! Crazy bastards! You can go ahead and tell me I'm crazy for being so weirded out by something so normal, but I say you're the crazy ones for making it normal in the first place!

No. 616582

It’s 5am and I just woke up to the sound of plastic crunching. I live in an attic with some exposed piping so I thought it was just my cat walking around on one of the pipes that has a soft plastic/foil coating. But the sound kept getting closer, so I decided to turn my phone flash on and when I did, I was staring directly at a giant house spider about 10cm in size. Genuinely the hugest motherfucker I have ever seen in my life. This thing was so big that I could actually hear its footsteps on the plastic pipe. I’m typing this from my couch downstairs but I don’t think I’ll be able to fall back asleep from sheer terror.

No. 616601

>>616582
Holy shit anon I'm glad you made it out alive. It's time to buy raid and spray your entire room

No. 616610

>>616582
I would have fainted, you're a trooper!

No. 616617

>>616582
Eek. I love spiders, but after experiencing that I wouldn't anymore.

No. 616635

>>616420
Your average dude just swipes all.

No. 616640

>>616635
Something that really made me never want to use tinder - at least to find men, I've never seen women do the same - was seeing my colleague do just that; we were waiting for the food, he pulled out the phone and just mindlessly swiped right all the women without even looking at them. There was some article written by a woman about how tinder can improve your self esteem because "so many men she'd consider out of her league matched with her", but what kind of compliment is that when most likely it was the same case of them just mindlessly swiping without even noticing her.

No. 616678

I've had scoliosis my whole life and at one point in my teens it was so bad that my shoulders were VERY uneven. I finally wore my body brace and things evened out (though my spine was still a little curved) and now, like ten years later, I can see my shoulders slightly shifting so one is higher than the other. I still have that body brace and I can fit into it, but it's so unbelievably uncomfortable. It's always been uncomfortable, but my new one was made when I was young and a fucking stick. I'm not a landwhale now but I don't have my puny 15 y/o body anymore yknow lmao. I'm so mad, I don't have health insurance so I can't even get a new one that would fit me properly ugghhhh. I don't wanna look like a fucking freak with my shoulders tilted!!!!!

No. 616681

>>616582
Similar thing happened to me once. I was on the toilet taking a massive dump when suddenly a giant spider clacked towards me across the linoleum. Big enough to make legstep sounds. Btw start charging your cat rent for not murdering bugs that big in the home.

No. 616683

>>616635
>>616434
Yeah but there's a difference between a guy casting a wide net for shits and giggles to see the best of who he can get to smash, versus entitled dudes with a laundry list of standards when they finally want to date.

No. 616696

Thank you for your replies anons. I don't know if you know how much it means to me

>>616425
It doesn't sound dumb at all. It's a really difficult thing to express
verbally, so thank you for the tip.
I took your advice about calling the surgery and being more insistent today. The receptionist told me she couldn't help me if I didn't tell her what was wrong, so I said I'm having trouble with my mood and she said "that's not an emergency, call again tomorrow to see if we have any cancellations"
It's almost funny.

>>616428
Thanks for the well wishes. I can't bring myself to look after them yet but I'll keep trying. I have ordered some TCP and the biggest dressings I could find for when I feel able

No. 616703

I don’t pay attention to the Blaire white thread But I just saw that he wants to move to Texas and I’m fucking tired of Californians moving here. so fucking tired. It’s really getting old and I wish it would stop. This is super dumb of me to say I know it’s not founded in reason just venting but I wish we could like, rope off the border from people moving here. We have so many problems and these people don’t help fuck all by moving here except making everything more expensive via gentrification and fucking up our housing market. My friend is an electrician and he said he helped some girl From cali who just moved here and bought a shitty house for way too much money, the other day and she was just sitting in her empty house talking shit about our city and how it’s so horrible and texas is the worst. Ugh

No. 616709

>>616703
I don't follow him closely but I heard that he's moving because 'people here are so fake' and I just… really? You're not?

No. 616738

modern video game updates are getting RIDICULOUS. every other time I wanna play a game that has any kind of online feature I have to wait 3 hours for a fucking 10gb update, and then when thats done its periodically interrupted by system updates. Sure is great owning a 400$ box that occasionally lets me play games in between constant updates

No. 616746

>>616738
This puts me off getting a console again, my internet is shit so I'd probably have to pay for a better service on top of that. Hardly worth it.

No. 616755

>>616696
Hey don't be so hard on yourself, it sounds like you're not being supported like you need to be and you're burned out at the moment. You're not disproportionately upset over it, it's hard to keep going when it feels like there's no point and as if everything is against you.

No. 616756

You know what I hate? The fact that I have to pretend to like trans people. I fucking don’t. I never will be on their side ever again.

Like, yesterday I mentioned I was a TERF to a random person and they proceeded to act like I was telling them I am the anti christ. I had to end it with a “hahah it was just a joke :)” because I was ready to be cancelled. Lol.

I’m just tired of people silencing women.

No. 616758

>>616703
Texas needs more Californians to offset the Trumpers.

No. 616760

TERFs are usually too ugly to behave like they do.

No. 616762

>>616760
This literally makes 0 sense, nice try tho lol

No. 616764

>>616758
No Texas doesn't need them plus they're more conservative than the native Texans are. I hate embeddeding links, but Google how Texas transplants didn't want or voted for Beto (liberal TX politician).

Texas doesn't need to become California 2.0 Some of us actually want to be able to buy houses and have families without living with 4 roommates when you're in your 30s.

No. 616767

>>616762
Triggered ugly TERF detected(0/10 low effort bait)

No. 616768

remember to not take the bait my dudes

No. 616769

>>616756
amen anon. you have to lick their ass 24/7 or else you're "literally killing black trans women!"

No. 616777

>>616756
I was in bed with my bf one night trying to explain to him GC or whatever and he started to pull away from me in a very disgusted way and saying stuff about "doesnt that make you a TERF?". I didn't back down but as is common, you have to try and get folks to understand where you're coming from. So I slowed it down, broke it down and he ended up saying "Hmm, I guess I see what you're saying." and we ended up agreeing to disagree but I wasn't cancelled and it didn't affect our relationship except for the fact that I could get a bit more bolder with saying how I personally feel about men and how he should accept the responsibility.

I've started to get a little bold on my personal twitter with saying things like "bi lesbian is not a thing" while all the triggered folks were like "EH!!? BUT!?!?."

BUT let's not make this a conversation about GC/TERF stuff, mods were just saying yesterday that they were cracking down on that stuff.

No. 616790

>>616777
>bilesbian is not a thing
The fact that people defend that it is a thing is fucking scary. You’re either bi or lesbian. You can’t be both goddammit. Why is this so hard for people to understand.

No. 616813

why the fuck is this place always on fucking fire.

anyways.

i miss my ex. he misses me too. we wouldn't be exes if i hadn't needed to move. i feel very lonely right now… i know time and experiences will gradually make things better but i'm kind of tired of being so alone.

No. 616834

File: 1598550856281.png (145.79 KB, 1400x1204, shitposting.png)

>shitposted in the middle of an important internet debate on pornography
>filled in subject field
>banned for namefagging

No. 616837

File: 1598551066944.jpg (12.79 KB, 474x259, download.jpg)

im legit scared of men at this point. i work in a company that has a boys' club culture and it was like walking a tightrope everyday, but it was do-able. then this new scrote came in the mix and the amount of inappropiate bullshit i have to deal with now is seriously triggering some unresolved trauma i have with in regard to being raped. men are just fucking disgusting and scary in general. there's not one moid that will even tell him to shut the fuck up.

No. 616838

>>616834
Tbh I don't get why we even have the name field if we get banned for using it at all. I've seen people get banned for tripfagging /cow/ thread OPs(justified, IMO. Some OPs just make better threads) and people related to cows get banned for namefagging when they're just self-IDing to prove that the milk they have is legit.

No. 616839

>>616834
why would you put shitposting in the name field, retard?

just sage and go.

No. 616841

>>616839
Do you literally not see Anonymous right next to the word shitposting? Pretty sure that's a sage too.
LOL

No. 616842

>>616838
its for the farmhand/admin capcode

>>616834
"namefagging" sounds better than "subjectfagging" imo, you're being pedantic. i always call it namefagging even if it's not in the name field. it's against the rules if you're not making a thread anyway

No. 616846

>>616841
Okay, pretty sure this doesn't answer my question at all. i never said there was no sage, idiot.

No. 616849

>>616846
It's obviously not the name field. And why not? There isn't a mention in the rules not to use the subject field.

No. 616855

>>616838
no one gets banned for sharing milk newfag

No. 616864

>>616837
Men are cowards. Not even my close friends within a group would shut down inappropriate shit, never ever. They are all fucking cowards. You need women to be your allies because men will always prefer to conform to their "pack" rather than stand up for what is decent.

No. 616866

>>616777
why are u with someone who's ready to fking REEE at you for possibly daring to be a terf like a MAN as well… like I'm sorry but i would not be together with my partner if i knew i couldn't be 100% honest and open about my opinions, your partner is supposed to be that one person you can be yourself with. he sounds like a headache, what kind of man gets visably DISGUSTED with their girlfriend bc they are not always comfortable with penises in their private spaces even if that penis is wearing panties.

No. 616867

>>616855
This is the first time I've been called a newfag on lolcow.farm. I'll consider this an achievement, kek.

>>616842
Yeah, I get that it's just how the board is designed. The subject field has purpose for thread naming but I've never seen the name field actually have any value from a normal poster perspective.

No. 616878

>>616867
i wonder if it's the first time because you're so new.

No. 616880

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>>616864
theyre cowards and some of them believe that shit too. im so disgusted and terrified. i dont want to leave the house anymore. men are terrifying. no one would ever protect or stand up for me, all men can do is destroy. if i say i have ptsd from being raped its going to be used against me anyway.

No. 616881

>>616834
autism

No. 616887

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I hate feeling this (depressive?) feeling that I won't accomplish anything, that I am such a big useless dumbass.

I am working hard towards my research but today I just feel like it's utterly useless. I just wanna stay in bed, although I also don't want to stay in bed.

Worst part is that this was (mostly) triggered by a total rando on fb implying that I was stupid/dumb. Usually that doesn't affect me at all (as it shouldn't), but I guess today it hit differently because of my own self doubts.

I just wanna do something useful.

No. 616991

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No. 616995

I want to tell this stupid pompous European that I'm going to go to NYC and seduce his LDR online girlfriend before he ever does and then I'm going to finally be better than him and also they'll both stop talking about it.

No. 617005

>>616991
Dude is like 'dont judge me I was a middleschooler' but wait he has been harassing, threatening and assaulting women recently tooo… I can't

No. 617045

Will there even be any fucking active anons left jfc

No. 617050

Second night of insomnia and I want to fucking kill myself. What the fuck. Losing my cognition here. Melatonin does nothing. Can't even meditate.

No. 617051

>>617045
is it just me or is this site getting slower and slower with activity?

No. 617058

I sprained my fucking neck. This is the second time I've sprained something from lifting weights. Why do I even bother doing anything with my body. I don't understand how this stupid thing works. I have zero bodily awareness. I only lift because don't want to be a fucking beanpole anymore. I'm in so much pain just fucking kill me

No. 617064

>>617050
Try crying. Seriously. Watch a sad movie or listen to a song that makes you emotional. You may just have a bunch of pent up emotions that you need to release.

No. 617067

>>617064
There's definitely an acute reason for this, and I do have a mountain of pent up emotions and a knot in my chest. Thank you for the tip, kind anon. I'll try that.

No. 617069

>>617050
>>617064
Seconding this, I always sleep the best after having a good crying session. Hope you get some sleep soon anon, insomnia is the fucking worst

No. 617085

>>616880
I'm so sorry that you're surrounded by pieces of shit. Hope you have a community online or IRL outside of work where you can feel safe.

No. 617094

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I HATE BEING DEAF AGHHGGGH
I have no fucking friends and live at home still, I have to ask my mom to fucking make/receive phone calls for me, which she can’t be bothered to do half of the time. I tell everyone I can to text or email me, nope, sorry madam we absolutely need to call you! Maybe I don’t want my mom knowing shit and getting mad at me and threatening me over random shit like job interviews or my medication. I’m always going to have to depend on someone else and I hate that more than anything I hate being a useless shit

No. 617101

Feeling depressed and suicidal because of the domestic violence I go through. I finally had the guts to write to my mom about the shit in my life.

No. 617105

>>617094
>sorry madam we absolutely need to call you!
That's fucked, can't you accuse them of ableism or w/e? I mean, it's legitimately discrimination so you would be within your rights to do so. It's not like every deaf person has their mum around to take calls for them, and health should be confidential anyway. It's crazy they wouldn't have a process in place for that sort of situation.

No. 617108

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I have no where to go,I applied to Value village and it's been a week,no call whatsoever my cruddy dad wants to kick me out I have no friends or even enough money to move anywhere.I can move in with my mom but her apartment is tiny.I hate life

No. 617109

>>617051
Sure feels like it

No. 617110

>>617051
30 active users meme is an over statement I’m pretty sure there’s like 12

No. 617112

>>617110
Depends on what you mean by “active”

No. 617114

>>617112
Like they actually post regularly not just lurk

No. 617115

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I’m glad I’m a huge autist because I won’t be able to kill myself until everything is perfect.

No. 617116

>>617115
Idk if this is what you mean but same like when I think of all the steps I’d have to do to get everything in order for my death by the time I’d done it all I’d be out of the mood

No. 617117

I hate working in customer service. Our systems are outdated, which makes it near to impossible to pull up the right information on a customer who calls in or handle someone's case.

The worst part is that something as small as copy/pasting the wrong number will cause a big mixup which can further lead to personal information getting leaked. The solution? Don't make the mistake in the first place, because the system is too outdated to even have a simple way of clicking "undo". Once you click "OK", that's it. No way back. Better hope you paid attention, despite being overworked and tired and in the middle of a busy phone shift.

I wish more people knew just how poorly their information is handled, just how little knowledge the people in the callcenter actually have about the system, how frequently new people are hired and how little they actually care about who's calling. Callcenter workers will say anything to make the call last no longer than 6 minutes, because any call longer than that will take points from their productivity rate and make the supervisors come after them.

We had a meeting the other day where I and a few others complained about how there's no possible way to handle phone calls, do cases and multitasking regarding sensitive information without fucking up or lower our productivity. Our supervisors just shrugged. "These are the numbers we have to meet, just try your best."

Corporations suck.

No. 617155

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Why are people so fucking hostile and mean on the internet all the time? Just fuck all of you nagging, judgmental, rude assholes. I'm just peaking and getting over it. I'm not perfect but I try. Maybe it's just me that's misplaced.
And why do I seek out the meanest places just to enjoy some care-free anonymity which ends up not being care-free at all? I have negative core beliefs that I'm annoying and people hate me that I need to work on and I always feel it in these weird circles. Maybe it's time for me to finally log off.

No. 617180

feels like kink culture and polyamory only attract uglies who know they truly have nothing to offer or people seeking to take advantage of others with 0 repercussions and I don’t fucking understand why they have to constantly be so vocal about how they like to have sex or why everybody else has to act civil towards them as if they’re genuinely oppressed.

No. 617190

>>617155
Some just love to argue, Anon. You can simply state your opinion in a vent thread and someone comes barreling in looking for a fight about it. Oh, this is just in general, I get on image boards people call each other fag, big ol'sloppy cunt and shit, telling one another to rope themselves. I still find Reddit to worse than here. It's full of scrotes and militant sjws. Anyways, Anon, you're fine.

>>617180
They have nothing to offer anybody besides their body (to each other) They can't attract another person by being decent and kind, sex is the go to to keep someone around. Like you said it only attracts uglies. Usually fatties of an unkempt nature, guy and girl. They are vocal so 'normies' will accept it and not feel so ashamed of living like a degenerate hog beast who bathes in dirty mop water.

No. 617194

>>617116
nta but i kinda do this too. i get way too overwhelmed with trying to make everything neat and tidy for everybody else so im not a burden even after death. stupid shit like thinking about how i gotta eat all my groceries because i dont wanna waste any food makes me give up on kms

No. 617198

>>617180
I feel like it's either that or rich degenerates with too much power and delusions of grandeur who think they can somehow control other people, which is funny because on the rich degenerates' end those people can get laid anyway. Yet they choose to actively be degenerates.

Poly shit isn't much further away from worse paraphilias. There is really something mentally wrong with someone who thinks they can maintain a healthy sexual relationship with two partners at the same time, let alone a romantic one.

No. 617214

Why can't some vegans understand that just because we (humans, the most advanced species on earth) are omnivore that doesn't mean pets are omnivores. So fucking frustrating knowing these people are apart of the same community as me. You'd expect people who care about animal rights to think about this kind of shit.

No. 617290

I really am dissatisfied with how I look. I have so many pink spots on my cheek and forehead that wont go away no matter what. I've had it for 4 years now. I think If I was satisfied with how I look id be a grandious narcissist tho. I think I might be a covert narcissist and it worries me. I want to be a good person. I dont really want to hurt anyone but sometimes I really just want to twist a metaphorical knife in ppl I care about for no reason. Sometimes I do it in a very undetectable way. I don't know why I have this desire. I know that I could really hurt someone if I don't control it. I used to accuse a friend of being a narcissist and tell them to humble themselves all the time. But maybe I was projecting. Maybe they were like a mirror, and just reflecting my nature to myself.

No. 617293

>>617155
Big time mood lmao

No. 617296

I fucking hate fat people. I hate that I'm supposed to accept them for who they are, as if being that fat isn't indicative of deeper issues that are 100% going to permeate aspects of their personality as well. People act like being fat is a completely separate issue from being some sad, morbid slob, or some arrogant dumb fuck who just externalizes their issues on to everyone else. These people aren't fun to be around. I want to punch a hole through my computer screen whenever I see anything related to body positivity.

No. 617310

>>617290
Atleast you're aware of it anon. I used to be like that, but thankfully I grew out of it. The less you push the boundaries the less the urge is present within you. I'm not perfect, but thanks to God (you don't have to believe me) I cause less damage to the people around me and to myself.

No. 617388

It sucks how my last experiences of most things were shit.
Last sex session with ex he lasted 2 minutes with no foreplay then promptly left to wash. It wasn't the standard, and things weren't bad around the time it happened, I figured it was a bad session and we'd redo in a few days.
The breakup itself didn't have much closure, he was annoyed with shit I did but didn't actually express any of it pre-breakup, plus we had around 2 weeks of really good days, not even a bad feeling so it was a surprise. I just said I can't force him to care or try.
Last time I saw my dog before leaving the state I tried to take a photo of him but it was all blurry, he died a week later.
Last time I was in any kind of workplace most of the people I got on with weren't in that day, and someone went off on me because of a pretty hypocritical boundary. Also talking with the boss was awkward because I tried to say I liked the work but the people left something to be desired and FUCK, IT WAS SO AWKWARD AHH.
My last two friends from college left for another country while I was in a depressive state and I didn't realise until it was too late to see them, we promised to meet again someday but we weren't that close.
I told my bff "fine, fuck off then" when we last met (over a year ago) because they cut our goodbye meeting short to go see their partner. We talk over text but it doesn't sit right with me.
Actually last time I tried to socialise here it was awkward af and I left early.
My last words to my parents (again over a year since I've seen them) were a hurried "yeah, bye" because I'd been living with them and they drove me up the fucking wall.

I keep ruminating because I haven't had the chance for a do over on any of these things. No new friends, no new job, no new social events since.

No. 617401

my cat passed away this morning and i haven’t really calmed down since, just a few minutes ago i went downstairs to package something i need to mail tomorrow and i could have sworn i heard her running down the stairs with me like she normally would. i don’t believe in anything paranormal or afterlife but i really wish it were true and not just my mind playing tricks while i am still grieving. it didn’t spook me or anything, it just made me start crying uncontrollably for the millionth time today.

No. 617402

>>616834
You got what you deserved. Nobody cares who you are on an anonymous imageboard.

No. 617405

>>617296
>deeper issues that are 100% going to permeate aspects of their personality as well
Take an introspective look at yourself right now anon. Sorry a fattie hurt you.

No. 617414

>>617401
I’m sorry, anon. I wish I could give you a hug

No. 617421

>>616991
A 19 year old has no place in politics anyway.

No. 617422

>>617214
Why can’t some vegans understand that our omnivorous pets can be supplemented the vitamins they need from animal products just like us. You’d think a community that deals with “how do you get your protein?” everyday would understand this.

No. 617426

>>617424
Wtf I'm so sorry

No. 617427

I will be 30 when I am finished with school and qualified to go to university. I feel like a complete and utter failure.

No. 617428

>>617405
>inb4 you're accused of being fat
Jokes aside, isn't it understood that anyone who judges others and themselves according to physical appearance or arbitrary physical traits will have those negative fixations permeating through their personality? The same thing happens to anachans and people obsessed with plastic surgery. I'd rather be around a fat person who has flaws like the rest of us than someone who literally can't be friends people who are 0.08 lbs over a certain weight.

No. 617432

>>617428
I can't relate to "hating" how other people look. Amusement and cringe, sure. But at the end of the day it isn't my hide, and I'd rather judge how someone is based on their actions, which helps to not give free passes to people who don't actually deserve it just cause they look nice.

No. 617433

>>617427
at least you get to go to university, some people don't even achieve that. You're not a failure in any way, some people just take longer to achieve their goals.

No. 617437

>>617427
>not going to college as a young 20-something
>complete and utter failure
Well shit, if I'm 19 and could go to university but just chose not too because I'd be stuck with debt and don't know what I'd want to major in, what does that make me? Worse?

No. 617438

>>617427
Google Mary Hobson, she started university at age 62 and has been very successful since

No. 617441

I hate my friends. I want to ignore them from here on but then I would be alone

No. 617443

>>617441
We're conditioned to think that being around people is better than be alone regardless of circumstance, and to think you have to make "sacrifices" in order to enjoy people's company (even if those people are shitty people who you don't enjoy at all.) If your friends aren't enriching your life or providing you (mutually) with care and support, there's nothing wrong with being alone. Being alone and content > being with others at the expense of your happiness or energy.

No. 617445

>>617437
What? That doesn't make any sense. I was 19 too at some point and "chose" not to go to university, so how would that make someone in almost the same situation worse?
I mean, if anything, I'm worse, since I dropped out of high school at 16, so I can't go to uni even if I knew what to major in. Also, I live in Central Europe, so debt is not a factor.
On a rational level, I know that no one's a failure because they're 26 and still haven't graduated their high school equivalent, but I haven't done any vocational education either. I know almost no one else who has neither studied or learned a craft so yes, I feel like shit even though I don't think lesser of anyone else in my situation. It's just not where I imagined myself at 25-30.
I don't feel independent and accomplished at all and the uni qualification will take another 3-4 years.
Just needed to vent.

No. 617449

>>617445
It was just a joking remark about how that anon shouldn't consider herself a "complete and utter failure" for finishing college later than most people, especially since a lot of people don't even go (not that that makes them failures, either.) I think that people overrate the education system and overvalue going to school in general. It's one of those things that we think we should aspire towards because we're taught by the same system that profits off of our enrollment to aspire towards it.

No. 617451

>>617449
Samefag - I also should've mentioned that what I said in regards to financial opportunity/cost of going to university is pretty US-centric, it's obviously not that way everywhere. I'd be more inclined to go to university in a country where debt didn't factor into that, it makes more sense to take the opportunity in that situation than to pass it up.

No. 617457

>>617449
>>617451
Thanks for your reply! I agree with you on this, though it's even harder to accept when going to university is very affordable. Still, I know some people who went to university for years, two of them even have a master's degree and are now vastly underpaid and work in totally different fields than the ones they spent years studying. I guess you never know where your life is heading, no matter how much you try to control it.
Who knows, maybe I'll just learn a trade after all. We'll see.

No. 617468

>>617401
I'm so sorry, anon. She must have loved you very much, and enjoyed a great life with you. If it doesn't hurt too much, maybe you can try to remember the nicest memories? I'm sure she wouldn't want you to be sad.

No. 617469

>>617457
>I agree with you on this, though it's even harder to accept when going to university is very affordable
That completely makes sense, I didn't consciously think about how American my interpretation of uni was before posting that, lol.

>Still, I know some people who went to university for years, two of them even have a master's degree and are now vastly underpaid and work in totally different fields than the ones they spent years studying

Coincidentally, I know some similar situations. An online friend of mine from Northern Ireland went to uni until IIRC her third year (she's 27) planning to major in film studies, but despite her interest in the subject she said she just didn't feel that it was worth it, since most of the time was spent 1. watching a movie and writing a paper about it or 2. reading a book about a movie and writing a paper about it. I believe she was able to alleviate her student debt somehow, though. The only jobs she's ever managed to get were in retail, aside from one paper delivery stint.

No. 617485

>>616755
thanks anon. everything just feels so abrasive

i just came back to say i found a way of doing an online mental health consult on my gp's website (looks like the nhs introduced them with covid). it's basically a depression self assessment and a comment box to write about your problems. i scored a 25/27 and spilled my heart out in the comment box. this morning i got contacted by my practice straight away with an offer of a telephone appointment on tuesday. it's with a very kind female gp i've been to a couple of times before, too.
i'm nervous anons and scared to get my hopes up but also looking forward to it

No. 617499

I truly do not understand how people give a singular fuck about each other. Throughout my life I've had moments where I've thought I understood or thought I was participating in moments of comradery or genuine friendship, but again and again I've come to realize that even my 'selfless' acts are very selfish; I do not enjoy talking to people and I am not emotionally happy for them, unless it is for my own benefit, and although I try it's incredibly difficult to imagine anyone else truly is either. It seems like other people just do not understand this aspect of themselves, are ignorant to, or are lying to themselves, into believing they really give a fuck about other people.

Which isn't to say that I am sadistic or anything, either. I do not experience joy hurting others for my own gain, nor do generally partake in actions that I know will do so. There are even many charitable things I do which people often use as example as to why I must be mistaken in this perspective… but while self reflecting I think at their source even those things are fairly self serving, and I would not do anything if it truly "put me out". I do not care to listen to friends or family, to hear them talk about even mutual interests, and often in my life have both of mine complained of my frequent absences and neglect unless I am in need of something. Yet I simply have never found myself able to care, and feigning it is a drain, so if the cons of the interaction outweigh the pros I can't justify it.

Normally to hear someone describe what I just have, I would think they are depressed and suffering severe apathy from it, but I would not consider myself to be depressed in any form, and I have been this way ever since I was a child. Though I am close nearing my thirties, I still often rely on hard drugs to drag my feet through the occasional social interaction, as I realize I may one day need help, and those people will not be there if I do not do at least this much.

I remember also as a young child I did not understand the point in hugging or other such affections, and even as I got older, I never bothered with such things until in relationships I was told to, and began to adjust my behavior to fit that role. Yet even with such things, if the relationship goes on long enough, I will become too tired of the drain of such an action, and partners chide me for having no affections towards them.

I have wondered a lot if I am autistic or something. Yet I feel like I can't fit that bill, as I do not think I have any issues comprehending people's emotions or body language or what-have-you, I believe I'm actually quite good at picking up on such… and I do not think I lack emotions to such an extent I really suit a sociopath or something either, I can still cry and feel joy and I do have interests and such. But the moment someone stops being 'useful', it's like my brain flips a switch, and their words become exceedingly annoying, as if by the simple act of attempting to continue our friendship, they are taking away years of my life.

It's strange I am a very outgoing person; I feel I would be most happy to live each day with a new identity, or in a new place, so that my interactions with people would never last long, and I would never have to be burdened by this thing that seems to come so naturally to everyone else.

No. 617503

>>617427
Nonnie, you have a ted talk about how you ovcercame some difficult shit and still did it. Sell the hell out of it, people eat up this kind of stories if you sell it right

No. 617507

>>617503
Thanks, anon, that advice is actually kind of simple but good. I'm trying to imagine myself as some misfit who didn't go the conventional route but will succeed anyway to make myself feel better about it all, but I guess I'm not confident enough to own it yet.

No. 617510

>>617427
I'm in a similiar situation.. At times I feel like I'm a complete and utter failure as well but I just try to remember that I've always tried my best and not to compare myself to other people because everyone has their own unique sets of circumstances and everyone walks their own unique path in life. (If you ever wanna talk let me know)

No. 617511

>>617507
You're good. I'm 30, just got my very first (and last) bachelor. So, basically 10 years of univ for just the one shitty degree.
You bet I'm going to wrap it up as difficulties, "experience", maybe a little sob story of some kind and overcoming all of it finally to recruitors.

No. 617522

>>617507
Own it and tell it to the world.
If someone tries to call you a loser, you're in luck, it's 2020, call the sjw police on them and call them ableist or some shit. You just gotta take advantage of anything.

No. 617582

Feels bad man, joined a gr chat cuz i want to have fun but they kicked me out because i violate one of the rules there without any warning. Even though when i talk abt it they seem so happy and cheerful i didn't even anything off. This is why i dislike making friends online…i can't really tell if they are truly honest or not.

No. 617595

>>617582
What was the rule you broke? And did you know about it beforehand or did you find out after they kicked you? Seems weird.

No. 617600

>>617595
I found out when they kicked me, but whatever, its not important anymore. They ain't worth it.

No. 617623

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I did coke once two years ago because i was in a really dark place mentally, my dad had attempted to commit suicide, i was rejected from my dream college, also was raped and couldn't do fucking shit about it because the guy was a minor.

Even after all this time and being clean from drugs for over a year everyone keeps fucking talking about it and acting like im the biggest fucking cokehead in the world.

It always puts a huge dent in my mood because it reminds me of the horrible place i was in when that happened, the people I know don't respect me enough to just shut the fuck up and never mention it again.

No. 617634

I hate families.

>mom leaves my emotionally unstable dad when I'm an infant, says she still open to him being in my life even if they're not together

>dad maintains very little contact with me until eventually he stops completely
>literally have not physically seen my dad since i was a baby and have not spoken to him since I was 8…I'm 22 now
>during my teen years my half-siblings from his first marriage contact me on social media ,saying they want to build a relationship with me since i'm their little sister
>eventually we get comfortable to the point that invite me over to stay with them and hang out (we live in different states so seeing each other isn't easy)
>I agree to drive up to see them due to free time cus of corona
>As I'm preparing to leave this morning I get a text from my dad saying he wants to see me while I'm with my siblings and he wants to try to "fix" his mistakes

What the fuck?? I don't have any spiteful feelings towards my dad, I just sorta…don't care about him, but it seems really shitty to want to come into my life after 22 years. I was super content with not having dad, don't fuck that up now! I really don't want to see him but it feels like I should. I hate that he sprung this on me, seeing my siblings for the first time ever was already overwhelming but now this? I don't think I'm ready to take on the emotional burden of another parent. Fuck.

No. 617635

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>>617600
SHe asked what was the rule.

No. 617654

>>617634
You need more time to process it for sure. I think it’s okay if you neglect him for awhile while you do all things considering.

No. 617659

>>617623
That really sucks anon. People that live in the past and keep bringing up mistakes aren’t worth your energy.

No. 617665

>>617623
First of all anon, I’m so sorry for what you experienced during that time. That’s awful.
Second, you are not a coke head, you only did it once. You’ve been clean for over a year and when anyone mentions that shit tell them to stfu for real. Remind them when it’s brought up that it was once and you’ve been clean for over a year. Make it stick in their fucking brains.

ps also maybe put that minor on blast cuuuuz fuck him

No. 617667

>>617623
Thats horrible anon, people like that ain't worth your time. You've recovered and that really speaks volume of how strong u are as a human being. Don't let those people have power over you.

No. 617670

>>617665

I tried calling him out on social media bc legally i can't do anything, heck i could get in trouble for being over 18 at the time, and basically

I got so much hate for it i had to apologize to him publically.

Misogyny is one heck of a thing.

>>617659
>>617667

Thanks, my city is fairly small so its tiring how i cant go out without someone making a quip aout me being a junkie or some shit, sometimes i just want to throw myself into work and not exist socially at all.

Its like they will only drop it the day i become a born again christian and denounce all kinds of fun.

No. 617672

>>617670
That’s fucking insane. I’m so sorry anon. You deserve so much better

No. 617674

>>617634
feel ya, man. like, a little too much. my father met me once when I was 2 and then sent me cards up until I was 8. Then nothing. (besides child support, of course!)
my mom reached out to him without my consent, asking him why he’s never tried to get to know me or contact me. (I’m 21 now)
I never read the response he sent because I didn’t want to hear from him at all, but I heard the summary was something along the lines of my mom being a bitch or something.
hahaha, love the excuses for being an uncaring sack of shit. you think someone would want to stay in contact with their child over the years, but nah.
he’s really not worth my time. any father who ignores their child like that for your entire life does not deserve to get to know you now.
those are just my feelings, of course, so whatever conclusion you come to, I hope it can help bring you some form of closure.

No. 617675

>>617670
Any chance you can move? At this point, starting over anywhere else even if it's shitty seems like it would be worth it.

No. 617723

I am so sick of Joe Rogan and his dudebro followers. Joe Rogan can suck the shit out of my ass

No. 617786

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Asked my bf if he can pay for my Japanese classes and that I'll pay him back. He told me that I should just get a job. I HAVE a job, but I'm on fucking sick leave because I got a fucking tumour in my brain and too many appointments to count for it.

I feel so ashamed that I even asked. I hate asking for help, and now I want to go back to my mother's and hide in shame.

No. 617788

>>617723
Me too! His fans are fucking obnoxious.
My friend likes to listen to him and annoying male comedians in the car. I have to use every fiber of my being not to fucking strangle him with the aux.

No. 617797

>>617634
Set very clear expectations before you meet with them. A few years ago I found out that I had paternal half siblings. Everything has gone really well with my brother, what happened with my paternal half sister was the complete opposite. Unless you're full prepared to confront what happened, it's probably best left undisturbed.

No. 617799

>>617786
That‘s pretty damn inconsiderate of him, at least if he could afford it. I can understand him if he struggles to make ends meet though. I’m sorry about your situation and I keep my fingers crossed that you’ll get better, anon!

No. 617800

>>617786
Get yourself another bf ffs. You're going through shit and he can't even pay you something to enjoy.

No. 617804

>>617786
your bf sounds like a little bitch boy, anon. i’m sorry that you had to go through that, and i hope you’re doing well with your health and everything.

No. 617810

>>617723
He is just terrible and his fans think they’re so woke. He’s actively ruining psychonaut culture.

No. 617838

my retard neighbors can't move a chair without dragging or pushing it extremely loudly. on top of everything else. one of these days I'll commit a murder in this house

No. 617857

spoiler for degenerate
that anon in the Dumbass Shit thread makes me wish someone would rub my bean

No. 617858

>>617857
i already rubbed your bean anon

No. 617863

>>617858
t-the evidence of me posting that points to the contrary baka

No. 617866

>>617857
Find a pardner
And when you do anon, ask 'em to place a peck from me there too. If you don't, there will be… consequences.

No. 617873

>>617866
yes otousan

No. 617955

I tried dating an Indian guy in college once, because he was nice and we worked at the same part-time place. I decided we were better off as friends and ended up asking another guy to be my boyfriend…only to cue Indian guy sending me countless messages on fb about how "we shared something" and how much he missed me (we only went on 2 dates!!!!!).

Even after I cut off contact with him, a year or so later before I started moving states, he sent me a text message about how things had changed between us so much and he wanted to meet up again before I moved. So confusing. To be honest, we had only really "known" each other about 5 months. Guys build up fantasies in their heads just as much as women, I guess.

No. 617970

>>617485
I hope that the appointment goes well and I'm glad that you've got a gp to talk to that you're familiar with.

No. 617974

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I still don't understand why my abusive ex targeted me. I have trauma due to abuse from my mom and had a history of dating people who verbally abused and tried to control me similarly to how she did. I didn't really get a lot of red flags with him because he was a completely different person and ended up abusing me in a way I wasn't used to. He was cold and indifferent. He acted like I meant nothing to him at all, ignored me on purpose, even though he claimed to love me. He gaslit me constantly. His whole thing was always "I'm a normal person, you're the problem."

Not that this excuses his behavior, but I know he has trauma from how he was brought up, too. His parents were neglectful and dismissive of him. His mom in particular is really cold and mean to him, but does it in a way that seems like she's joking. I don't really see how I'm anything like that. I can definitely be mean but I don't do it in an underhanded way and always apologize afterward.

I thought most of us unconsciously seek people who remind us of our parents if they abused us? Do some abusive people just seek anyone who seems insecure and/or codependent?

No. 617991

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my neighbors are so fucking annoying. the whole day there is bassmusic and chair screeching. I just hate it here. And I hate them. I exploited every possibility to get them to change including trying to move which is super hard. I need to learn to stop people from driving me insane

No. 618030

>>617974
maybe there were some similarities after all? covertly? idk
love is strange and many people are disturbed
I'm sorry that happened to you anon. Wishing you the best.

No. 618069

Is there something in the water or has everyone just been on edge lately? Somehow the traffic on here has managed to be extra slow this week, yet every thread I've visited has had some sort of infighting or derailing going on? It's not even a /pt/snow/w/ vs. /ot/g/m/ thing. Did a few anons accidentally sync their periods and pms all at the same time?

No. 618071

Goddammit this is the 2nd day in a row that a place has called me wanting an impromptu phone interview, like it is 3pm I am day drinking and if you want to speak to me then text

No. 618074

>>618069
It’s literally always been like this idk what you’re on about

No. 618084

>>618074
Ah, I guess I just need to keep lurking then. I'm still fairly new to lc, but this week has been the worst I've seen it so far.

No. 618086

>>617974

Anon, YOU were the normal person. He was the problem.

Abusive people tend to target people who they think they can manipulate, like a test. You probably caught his interest (looks, status, something in you he felt he lacked, etc.) and he wanted that to make himself look better. Of course I have no insight into your relationship, but he probably had some kind of narcissism. The claim he loved you, then ignored just sounds like classic "love bomb -discard" behavior.

No. 618087

>>618069
ignore the other anon they don't know wtf they're talking about, there's been new rules/rule enforcement on /ot/ and people are posting less because everything gets you banned. See the edited OP of the unpopular opinions thread if you want more info

No. 618090

>>618084
There’s weeks like this now and again, but you’re right in that it’s been some especially bad few days

No. 618095

>>618087
I thought those rules were just for the unpopular opinion thread?

No. 618097

>>618095
No, the whole board.

I feel like I'm seeing a lot more men post here lately, too. Not just on /ot/ but in cows thread. Twice today I've seen posts about how much easier women have life than men.

No. 618103

>>618097
That's interesting. I wonder why it hasn't been announced anywhere but that thread? The rules also dont mention it but I guess that hasn't been updated in a while cause it still mentions the pink pill thread.

It's such a weird fucking thing to ban. I feel like the farmhands and admins are really trying to kill this site.

No. 618108

>>618087
>>618090
Ayrt, and I did notice the farmhand edit on the unpopular opinion thread. That was something I hadn't seen yet, but like I said, I'm still new (I think I found the board back in like May when Nika and Jaelle were getting called out for their racism shit on Twitter). Be that it may, I'm glad I wasn't just imagining things.

No. 618111

I hate talking about politics so much. I am not gifted with fast thinking or great expression skills, but I'm surrounded with people who, if they could (and they do on occasion) would go on and on about their beliefs for HOURS. I hate taking a break and unlocking my phone to see hundreds of messages where everyone is just sperging. One friend in particular has gone batshit with lockdown and doesn't talk about anything but social issues, even the smallest ones.
These are my only friends and when I interact with more normie groups I feel dead inside using emojis, but fuck does it get tiring.

No. 618112

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I want to sperg about how ugly Kiwi is. I can’t stand seeing her face and reading people saying she’s cuter than June. What the fuck what the fuck what the fuckkk not because someone’s petite they’re cute oh my god I swear the state of this site is absurd, I’m ready to bet most people saying Kiwi’s cute are just coping

No. 618115

>>618112
She rubs me the wrong way too. She’s just physically gross looking and her hair is always filthy

No. 618121

>>618103
honestly i've been done with this site ever since I got a ban for talking to another anon in a thread about how men have an easier time becoming popular in beauty comms than women. Apparently that's radfem sperging. It's clear there's some weird shit going down with the farmhands and i'm over it. Let admin have her tranny harem if she wants it.

>>618112
kek I get a lot of second hand embarrassment from her. Her photoshops are so bad that sometimes she makes her entire jaw look concave as she tries to edit those awful cheeks.

No. 618127

>>618087
I just meant everyone’s always been on edge and sperging on each other, not that it isn’t slower. It’s extremely slow. Why the hell is there even farmhand applications if no one is even using the board

No. 618129

>>618127
I know admin has said a lot of farmhands are her rl friends so idk why she's taking applications.

The only board I see farmhands always being complained about is here. I think it's just one retarded farmhand that's allowed to act like a sperg because she's admins rl friend.

No. 618143

>>618129
hasnt there been three or so different recruitments in the last year or so? how could they possibly all be her friends?

No. 618147

>>618112
The way she poses, the expressions she makes in her photos, her garbage ps skills and basically her entire persona makes her ugly. Without it she might be okay looking or even cute. It's honestly hard to say because I've never seen a photo of her where she looks even somewhat normal.

No. 618148

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Something about this tweet really pisses me off. I think it’s just a hair trigger reaction to any woman insulting other women for something related to sex.

No. 618159

>>618148
Does this count as pick me behavior?

No. 618171

>>618148
>I think it’s just a hair trigger reaction to any woman insulting other women for something related to sex.
Wait till you read literally any thread on this site.

No. 618173

>>617786
Get well soon, anon. Drop the bf on the floor. You deserve better

No. 618174

If you bite down on cutlery when you eat you deserve to eat alone for the rest of you life. It's such a basic fucking part of eating with utensils I can't believe people find it hard.

No. 618201

I really fucking hate when people say my name. I cringe with my first name, but hearing my full name pisses me off for some reason. It's a normal name, both spelling and pronunciation, but hearing it makes me want to hit whoever is saying it.
I always give fake names when possible. I have even thought about legaly changing it, but I think I would hate the new name as soon as someone used it.
I read somewhere that a person's favorite sound it's their own name; I don't understand why I hate hearing my name outloud.

No. 618203

>>618174
It hurts my teeth to hear the clank

No. 618204

Sometimes I wonder why I have spent so much time on this website. I have literally spent 5 years on here, but lately I haven't been browsing at all and it has helped my mental health. I remember that 4 years ago the posts were more high quality or maybe they weren't and I was just younger and more impressionable.

I think a lot of the userbase of this site is made up of women who are cows themselves. To argument this claim we have Raven or other cows who have hundreds of posts. I don't understand why one would become obsessed with mentally ill women that have an internet presence, unless they're very unwell themselves. I think there's cows that deserve to be posted here because they are legitimate pedophiles or terrible people, but there's a lot of genuinely ill girls that do nothing to harm society. Like Venus, who has been abused her whole life or other girls from snow.

It takes a very sociopathic and ill intentioned individual to be so critical and wish harm on someone who is clearly not well, but does not harm society either.

No. 618208

>>614253
tranny jannies can suck a fat nut (and if i get banned for this vent, that just proves these troons can't take an ounce of criticism). fuckers banned me for four days basically for saying the third world exists - somehow that's racebaiting??? meanwhile the bitch i was replying to was being the most racist, intolerant piece of shit and she (probably he, actually) didn't get banned for any of their posts. for hours they were bashing white people, religious groups, americans, etc. and, looking back on it, were clearly baiting, but they were allowed to continue shitting up the board. i keep coming back to this hellhole of a site because it's the only female-majority imageboard and i'm tired of scrotes, but fuck, i wish there were an alternative with actual free speech. i'm sick and tired of filtering myself on here because of rules that aren't evenly applied to everyone.

No. 618210

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>boozing it up with some friends, chillin out maxing and actin all cool
>i notice one of my friend's sc stories updates
>it's a 5 second clip of us all talking but i see myself in it
>jfc that's what i look like
>i hate having a flesh prison someone please set me aflame so i can be like a ghost or some shit cuz i hate occupying physical space

No. 618216

Being ugly with no outward personality sucks

No. 618225

>>618208
what was the post anon?

No. 618234

>>618208
another anon made a post about how ethnic kids are ungrateful but it was allowed because she claimed to be "ethnic" too. I got banned for disagreeing but they were never banned. Also, farmhands remove posts all the time from this board. Not gore posts/sperg outs, just shit they don't agree with. I kept a thread open a month ago and watched them fucking do it to like 10 posts in a row.

This site is a bad fucking joke. The gc talk can be quarantined, but the fact the farmhands are making rules about not being mean to men?? Have you ever seen such a rule about women kek

idk why admin bought a site and gave all her friends janny roles when they obviously hate the culture here.(serial ban evader, bait-chan)

No. 618237

>>618234
How do you know they didn’t get banned? Not all bans are red texted. You can be mean to men and complain about your experiences with them and there are plenty of threads about men. It was just the ‘all men are evil’ sperging that was banned.

No. 618256

I love my cat so much it makes me want to die thinking about how I will feel when he dies. I should never have adopted him. He is such a sweetie and he makes biscuits on me when I am sad and has the most adorable high pitched meow and loves playing aggressively with me when I bring out his feather toy but he doesn't kill bugs when he sees them, he just tries to pet them. He has not thrown up once in the entire time I've had him and always goes in the litterbox and doesn't make a mess or knock anything over (I have a lot of fragile stuff on my dinner table + bookshelves and have no problem leaving him alone in there). I try my best to give him a good life with good quality food + treats + plenty of attention and exercise but it will never be enough because he is An Angel and I am not worthy of him

I'm drunk as fuck anons if you couldn't tell

No. 618263

>>618256
I feel the same way. You sound like such a caring and thoughtful owner though and even though it is extremely painful having a pet die I honestly feel the joy of knowing them and the years that you do get with them really is worth it.

No. 618271

>>618256
Aw anon, I find myself thinking the same thing about my cat all the time. He's such a good boy and brings me so much happiness every day. Trying to picture my daily routine without him brings me to tears wahhhh

No. 618273

>>618256
I went through this already. I had a pet, he was my best friend in the world. He was there for me in an abusive household, he even physically protected me. He was my world and reason for keeping going. After 3 years he passed away suddenly of an extremely uncommon disorder. He died in my arms in a horrific way. This was well over a decade ago and I still think about him every single day. I can tell you from the bottom of my heart, as painful as it was losing him, I would do it all over again if I had the choice. For the price of that pain (the worst pain I have ever experienced in my life) I have been blessed with the memories and impact he had on my life. When that day comes for you the pain will burn through you at first, just embrace it. Allow yourself to feel every piercing emotion, because when the pain dulls you will realise how magical and special something would have to be to make you feel a pain that severe. It's why even though we know logically that pain is coming, we all still take on these family members. Its scary but the good far, far outweighs the bad, even in the most traumatic cases.

No. 618285

>>618263
>>618271
>>618273

Thank you anons. I know that the good will far outweigh the bad when his time does come and I never would be selfish enough to keep him alive for my own sake if he was in pain, but I still can't deny that it's going to hurt so so bad to not see his little face greet me when I wake up or feel him headbutting my leg. gonna go give him some forehead kisses now while he is sleeping

No. 618289

Being bitter right now but uploading art online is so disheartening, My art isn’t bad but my account hasn’t grown for quite some time, and tbh for the most part I don’t really care. I try to view it most as an online scrapbook than an official portfolio.
No, it’s when I go onto other pages with crudely drawn Tom and Jerry humanised BL fanart, that has literally thousands of likes, that I question what the point is. I don’t know how to play the algorithm and I’m not into kissing ass to get a shout out so I guess I’m doomed to never grow an audience, not unless I shell out to draw solely fanart for old cartoons and shit. God.

No. 618300

>>618256
Omg this is so fucking sweet. He deserves all of your love and I hope that you two are the best of friends

No. 618304

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I can't wait for my friend's wedding to be over. I'm so sick of hearing about it every fucking week and constantly having the plans change. Not to mention it being talked about like it's the biggest fucking deal for us when there's such bigger shit literally happening right now. And especially because she's been living with her scrote for a decade, feels like they're rushing for it because they broke up before and so they need a crippling threat of a binding commitment that would take either to the cleaner's to stay together at this point. Like a band-aid holding together a sinking vessel.

Worst of all I have to groundhog day this same shit next year because she wants a "big ceremony after covid" and I feel like being conveniently unavailable for it. I hate bride culture. I hate wedding culture. I am so sick of seeing my friends turn into greedy, self-centered prima donnas because they drank the flavor-aid and got brainwashed into thinking an expensive party where they harass and bully their closest friends and get everyone else to buy them shit is the most important day of their lives.
I don't care if not wanting to kowtow to this anymore makes me a bad friend, fuck this shit. Fuck weddings. I hope I never develop the audacity to put my friends through this "honorable" hell.

No. 618307

>>618148
>ballet flats
>sexual repression
I mean, it just doesn't make sense. This shit always reads like a specific bitch they had in mind and have vendetta for.

No. 618309

>>618148
I think it’s just a joke. This doesn’t read ad malicious or genuinely trying to shake anyone to me.

No. 618313

>>618237
No it's not though. Anons are getting banned for the dumbest of reasons because the janny is powertripping.

No. 618314

>>618304
OT, but I love how you write anon, have you considered writing before?

No. 618317

>>618313
I don’t get when people say this, how do you know what other anons are or arent getting banned for unless you’re samefagging?

No. 618318

>>618313
this, tranny janny thinks they're special because they mod a gossip imageboard. sorry.
>>618234
I agree with you, I already am scared IRL of men and speaking my mind in front of them, god forbid I do it on a imageboard that supposedly is for women only

No. 618320

>>618317
Not that anon and I got banned too

No. 618323

>>618313
go complain about it in /meta/ then. stop shitting up the threads here every day with this shit. imo it's obvious you're disingenous with your complaints if you do it here instead of in meta because you know you won't get a response here and just wanna rile us all up and start some conspiracy about moderation when in reality nobody gives this much of a fuck besides you and a couple of other anons who take this site too seriously. just let us grill damn it

No. 618325

>>618323
Agreed

No. 618327

>>618323
This is the vent thread you retard. Calm down.

No. 618328

>>618327
yeah and i vented back because you're annoying.

No. 618329

>>618317
nta but you can see reasons in the redtext and some are really ridiculous
>>618328
QQ

No. 618332

>>618327
Agreed

No. 618339

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>join a radfem pp/gc server, stick around for a year or two and post once in a while because it's fun/nice
>join some other LC server that popped up like a week ago
>the two have some sort of drama
>don't get involved in either side or read shit because idc, and don't post much on either of them unless something catches my eye
>somehow get banned (or kicked(?)) from both, maybe for inactivity
>DM someone I remember sometimes talking to from one of the servers asking about it
>she changes her name to "brb killing myself" or something and ignores me
I probably shouldn't be surprised, but I'm kind of salty. Why are people on Discord like this? Neurotic shit.

No. 618343

>>618339
Because they’re insane

No. 618378

>>618343
I didn't think this was really true before, but now I'm starting to believe it. I'm kind of tempted to go through old threads trying to find out what exactly happened between the two servers because I'm curious now, but I'll probably never know (and it'll most likely turn out to be something very dumb), rip.

No. 618384

>>618378
it isn't worth it

No. 618392

>>618384
Nah I second that anon, I wanna know too.

No. 618399

>>618378
I'm an anon from one of the servers and I could post the truth, but at the same time I'm not sure if I should and I'm afraid I will get harassed by finnanon or some other pedophile/weird fetish/bpd crazy bitch.

No. 618403

>>618399
You wont be harassed, and no one likes those bitches anyways. Post milk anon!

No. 618404

>>618399
Jeeze. What to heck happened???

No. 618405

>>618399
Lmfao omg what happened?!

No. 618414

>>618399
im glad i dont know how to work discord

No. 618417

>>618399
please anon give us the teaaaaaa

No. 618419

Kek. I realized tonight that I spent years on a skill so people would like me more and people don't like it.
I was a wallflower, not socialized right and was used to people talking at me. I'd freeze if I had to answer and just go blank.
In the last few years I decided to change that. Spent countless hours on exercizing chatting with my bf and random people. Read books about conversations. Learned about cues and having subjects prepared.
I feel like it was a LOT to do. I'm not shy anymore and I'm able to hold real conversations nicely.
And now, I feel like some people enjoy it. But it's like 25% of people I chat with. The others mostly look like they want me to fucking zip it and that annoying the fuck out of them for talking.
I wonder if it was worth it. It's too late to go back to being mute, I'm used to it now…

No. 618439

I'm sexually attracted to men but strongly repulsed by them. I can love women on an emotional level but feel zero sexual attraction for them. What should I do? I really want to date someone

No. 618442

>>618439
Do you interact with men a lot irl? I feel like sometimes the time people who feel this way don’t have a lot of day to day exposure to normal men. Maybe you could join some kind of hobby group or volunteering thing to meet men with a similar interest? I met a lot of kind men in a volunteering programme I’m part of.

No. 618470

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>>618404
NTA, but I found them arguing in the /g/ friend finder thread.
>>>/g/149420
Apparently, someone from one server tracked down a user from the other, and felt the need to post about them publicly. In the server they tracked down that user in, some of the people there were also talking about them, and I guess they ironically or unironically discussed sneaking back in using alts and a catfish server or something.
From there, I guess the mods in both got paranoid after running these gay ops on each other and removed anyone who was a member in both servers. Don't really know what to make of all this. I just wanted to chill with other actual women and laugh at males/trannies in peace, ffs.

No. 618477

>>618470
I don’t get why people would ever befriend online or even worse actual meet irl with someone from an anonymous imageboard it just seems like a terrible idea

No. 618489

I don't know if this happens to anyone else but does anyone sort of fantasize of being in a relationship and thinking how it might actually seem nice but then at the same time I can't actually imagine being in a relationship. I've been single for all my life and I have no interest in being in a relationship. I just feel disgusted at the thought of having to kiss someone. I still want someone to be with but I'd never want to hug or kiss them if that makes sense. Also, whenever someone has showed interest in me, I feel so uncomfortable. The idea of a relationships seems nice to me but then thinking of myself being in one feels so gross. I kind of think like something is wrong with my brain.

No. 618508

>>617600
TELL US WHAT RULE YOU BROKE I NEED TO KNOW!

No. 618514

>>618477
Because it's easier to find like-minded individuals online than irl, especially when it comes to subjects such as radical feminism.

No. 618520

>>618069
this is accurate. traffic the last few weeks has sucked and there's 1-2 anons who like to brainlessly rile people up in the vent thread, as in they'll go after vulnerable vent posts and twist it into how the venter is the evil crazy fucked up one or they'll start a fight and shitpost in a very hostile way for no reason kek.

No. 618521

>>618442
what if they're all just surface-level "kind men" though? i personally have reached the point where i look at most men and just wonder if they're online based incels/misogynists/abusers/whatever who know how to act nice enough irl to blend in.

No. 618524

I'm black and I've had 3 white men today tell me I'm racist because I dont care about blm and I would vote for trump before I vote for biden. Nice to be lectured about the evils of being racist.

No. 618526

>>618521
I mean idk what you’re expecting people to say. You have to just get to know people. There’s no magical way of knowing if anyone is secretly a bad person just blending in. If you want a relationship some perfect man isn’t just going to just magically materialise in your bedroom and fall in love with you. Maybe spending less time exposing yourself to incel related places or places that talk about them would be good? I don’t think constantly exposing yourself to it is good for people’s well-being and it’s going to give you a distorted view of reality.

No. 618527

>>618526
This, but I think it's also good to know how to spot warning signs. Those kinds of men tend to act a certain way, even if it's subtle.
The best you can do is watch what they do (they can really say anything), what they get angry about, etc. It's not bad to be aware and cautious.

No. 618528

>>618527
I agree, I think the warning signs are usually pretty clear. These people don’t really blend in as well as they seem to think they do.

No. 618529

>>618520
I think there are a lot more people. Pace has seemed crazy compared to habitual low stream of posts.

No. 618536

my boyfriend is close to killing himself and i dont know what to do, we are in a long distance relationship. I just feel like the world hates me, i've lost everything and he has been the only thing keeping me afloat and happy. I really don't know what to do, i've tried everything.

this is maybe final goodbye anons, been nice here i guess. Probably will take a walk outside, enjoy everything before i end it.

wish i wasn't such a lost cause. oh well, been nice here.

No. 618541

>>618536
Is this the type of long distance relationship where you've never met or? Cos you might be killing yourself over some made up man and his made up depression.

No. 618546

>>618536
Anon if you're suicidal fr it's just your fucked up mental health telling you you're a lost cause. You can't properly judge your reality anymore, I've been there so I know what it's like.

No. 618547

>>618536
Anon you can trust a depressed brain. Try to sleep and hopefully you wake feeling a little better.

No. 618548

>>618547
*Can’t trust

No. 618550

>>618546
Isn't it the opposite? You become suicidal because you're a lost cause.
I don't want to demoralize anon, but uh

No. 618555

>>618536
He's negging and manipulating you. Cut all contact with him, there's nothing you can do. You'll be okay Anon.

No. 618562

>>618550
Things in life can go bad and life can be shitty, that may cause you to get depressed and suicidal, but no one is truly a lost cause and things can be fixed if you allow yourself the chance and the time instead of offing yourself before doing so,

No. 618565

I want to feel happiness for once again. It has been so long

No. 618576

>>618550
I mean I think she's being emotionally manipulated by that other person. Sounds like that's the real issue there.

No. 618577

>>618555
This was my first thought too, hard to tell without her elaborating but any online or LDR driving you to thoughts of suicide.. cut him off. Don't sink along with him. He could be making shit up.

No. 618585

They made us work half a day with the special reward of getting breakfast from the big boss man. He brings us fucking McDonalds. Didn't eat the sandwich because meat. Eventually ate a hashbrown because I was hungry, tasted like a bucket of grease. Rich asshole gets the office fancy catered bullshit and we get absolute filth. I fucking hate when jobs use food as a reward. Stop feeding these fat rednecks more heart problems and just give us a raise or extra vacation time to show you appreciate us working all this overtime.

No. 618608

>>618577
I broke up with my ex while we were LDR and I fucking wish I'd gone NC immediately instead of worrying about him. Even if he apparently made a suicide attempt afterwards (says him) I shouldn't even have cared. I wish I'd just gone "ok then KYS" and logged off for a few weeks lmao. It was all crocodile tears, some men will legit make an attempt on their life for the sole sake of getting back at a woman who they think wronged them, they don't even deserve the time of the day.

No. 618678

>>618399
"Pedophile/weird fetish crazy bitch"? What are you even saying? Please stop dragging this on, clogging up all boards and making up/twisting things to fit your narrative and making yourselves out to be the victims. Let this die. Why did you even bring this to lolcow in the first place? We wanted to have a discussion on the server but you were all silent when you got called out, apart from two of you who didn't even really participate in the shit talk/mocking. Eventually you all either left without saying a word or got banned.
>>618470
There was no doxxing, someone posted her Naruto opening discord name without the # and deleted it right away. Still wrong and not condoned but it wasn't as she described it as.

No. 618681

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Texted a few friends but no one wants to fill the room I have open. Next up is posting on my Facebook wall. I reaaally don't want to resort to screening strangers.

No. 618698

>>618678
your server is trash and you are retarded, regardless of what happened.

No. 618700

>>618681
Good luck anon. I've had some real 'interesting' roommates over the years.

My brother stopped letting out his spare room after his roommate turned out to be suffering from his first schizophrenic break. He contacted the mans parents to hopefully help and they were very unbothered about it all. After months of worrying behaviour he found the guy had added a bunch of new bolt locks to his door and he had weapons. With no help coming from the guys parents, the police or professionals he had to resort to calling his biggest friends round to force an eviction and hope that his parents might actually be forced to then step in and get him help. He went to work every day for months knowing this man was having a psychotic break in his house and nobody would help. Kicking him out without going through the courts was illegal. He nearly had his own nervous breakdown after all that.

No. 618704

I am crushing on this reddit-tier dude. I hate myself for being this way

No. 618727

Don't know if anyone here is familiar with the imallexx and slazo drama a good while back. Allegations were made against slazo by his ex gf (she didn't say rape but people read into it as such) a handful of UK youtubers backed her and called her brave or whatever for coming forward. Turned out he was pushy with her and not the nicest bf by his own admission but she had also exaggerated her claims and had been pretty selective in what screenshots she showed. Slazo cleared his name with a vid he put out.

The amount of times I've seen smaller UK channels (wannabe commentary channels) with brace wearing teens still giving out hell about this situation is nuts. The amount of profiles spreading 'alex is a snake' this long afterwards.. it's more effort than you ever see coming from young guys fighting for a cause. Imagine if these guys put any effort at all into spamming comment sections with comments on the fact that actual abusers are on youtube.

I don't care either way about alex but the fact that several known abusers still hold their channels and regularly upload and aren't being bombarded with the same ongoing attention pisses me off. "he screwed over his mate" is so much more important than say "false claims harm real victims" or even them caring to understand that being pushy with a 14 year old that you are fucking.. might naturally lead to her being fucked up and angry with feelings of being abused years later as she is processing the experience. I hated the whole situation at the time and never thought an army of dipshits would be spamming about it this long after

No. 618746

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>>618700
I've had mostly disgusting roommates.. I started living away from my parents in 2015 and I've been moving every year since. You'd never know until you lived with them.

>blood/pus

>coffee grounds all over the bathroom
>fruit peels in the toilet trash attracting bugs
>moldy dishes piled high enough to touch faucet
>ants
>mice
>multiple burning stove pots
>oil-caked stove top/microwaves
>fridge doubling as food coffin
>picking off a piece of her weave and dropping it on my bed room floor
>wears indoor shoes for the rest of the dirty-ass house but has no problem using them in my bed room

I hate people.

No. 618750

>>618746
Yuuuuuuck, I had roommates like this a couple year ago. Almost went crazy. I feel lucky these days to have a nice, clean apartment with my partner. Good luck.

No. 618757

>>618204
someone doesn't need to be a bad person to be a cow, they just have to be entertaining

No. 618763

>>618746
I had a roommate who had her own sanitary bin in our shared bathroom but..she would leave used pads in there for weeks even in the summer and the smell was unreal. Like rotting meat. Weirdest part is her bf lived with us too so he had to be smelling it

Then one day he goes nuts at me for leaving hair in the sink (my hair is like an inch long) He marched me back into the bathroom and he was talking about like two hairs on the rim of the sink. Dude your gf regularly forgets to flush her shit down the toilet and I never marched her back in for that or her smelly pads.

Yeah I moved, I can stand a smelly woman for months but a man screaming at me just once and I'm gone lol

No. 618767

I got molested by a female gynecologist when I was 15
When I was 20, I told my doctor I was pissing blood and he said I was lying even though I gave a urine sample alread
I know that's only two totally random examples, but doctors just keep fucking with me since there's nothing I can do and I have to keep going back
I can't trust anyone as an adult, I feel so violated by the world
You just find out over and over again that nobody actually cares about anyone, and the only people who get into positions of power are those who want to hurt others
Even doctors don't care about you.
I had another doctor much more recently call 911 on me and claimed that I said I was suicidal
I never even said I was, I said all these health complications are piling up so bad, I'm so stressed."
And she said I need to go to therapy, and I explained, oh baby I've tried plenty, the best it's ever gone for me is neutral.
And she said no, you have to
And I was like, alright I don't wanna get all dramatic on you or anything, but therapy makes me feel worse
And she goes, I shit ye not squire, just chimps the fuck right out, "If you kill yourself and I'm the last doctor you spoke to, I could lose my job. My kids would starve. My family would suffer. What exactly do you expect me to do here?"
And I was like, what
Because that shit came so far out of left field I was like, is this bitch unwell?
So I balked, I said, "I don't want to hurt myself? I get that you need to do whatever you need to do for your famil or whatever? But I'm just stressed, sick people get stressed"
And she got like this fucked up excited look and started typing really fast and slammed her laptop, and I'm like, "Yo are you okay?"
And she goes "I'm calling the police. I am not risking my livelihood for you."
And I'm like what in God's name is happening, this is the first time I've even been to this office
So she called the police, told them I had made a threat against myself, went and ran into the waiting room because I mentioned my mom actually drove me that day,
Fucking grabbed her and ran back to the exam room, my poor fucking mom thought I had died or some shut, she had never seen a doctor act like that, and when she sees, no, I'm just sitting fucking bewildered in the exam room
And the bitch cunt fuck doctor starts telling at me with the door open so everyone walking by can hear, and I'm like, okay this is fucking psychopath
So my mom tries to reason with her, she still doesn't know what's happening because the doctor has literally just been sprinting and yelling for 10 minutes
My mom says she can drive me to the emergency room, no one has to call the police,
And she says, "No! No! It's too late for that!"
And me and my mom are both like what the absolute fuck
So the doctor blocks the door as though we would try to escape the office until the police came
4 big old boys with guns and big boi EMTs, not sure that would have calmed down a suicidal person, but hey I'm not the one foaming at the mouth
So the cop with the hand on his gun says "Come with us." So I just fucking do, I didn't say a word, I put my hands up and let them escort me out of the building, while I could hear my mom shouting, "What the hell is going on, where are you even taking her?"
And they wouldn't tell her, and the police escorted my mom out of the building.
So I'm strapped in the ambulance now, my mom is trying to get one of the EMTs to talk now and finally has luck with him
They drove me to a hospital a state over, as per doctors orders, and before we even crossed the boarder, the emts were fucking saying to /me/ this seemed like an overreaction
Well, the ordered already been placed, so I got to get psychwarded for no fucking reason
Some of the most degrading shit man, do not go to a psyched if you don't have to lmao
They make you strip with four guards in the room, you get a a flapping open sided gown to wear, no strings because you could kill yourself
Also no panties because apparently you can actually strangle yourself with that shit too
And they make you give blood and urine, bunch of questions that put you on the spot, like they asked name three things you have to live for, and I was like, what a weird retarded question, and I was so fucking angry and humiliated, I said, "My mom, video games, and McDonald's"
They got me out of there in three hours
The staff was visibly pissed I had been sent there to waste their time
Can't trust anyone, dawg
The bad are strewn in with the good
Any one of those caring professionals could stick a finger up your ass if your mom isn't there to say, "Wtf where is the sheet, you don't do a gyno exam fully nude AND exposed"

No. 618768

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>>618750
Thank you! Thankfully I have one housemate secured– my boyfriend. He actually scrubs the bathtub! Compared to my current housemate who splashes bleach on it and calls it day, he's a godsend.

>>618763
That is absolutely disgusting. I bet the bf was just projecting after having to smell her stanky ass..

No. 618774

>>617786
I'm with your bf on this. Why do you need Japanese classes? why can't you just use Duolingo or something?

No. 618776

>>618774
nta but duolingo might be a useful and free resource when you begin learning but it isn't going to help you if you want to be fluent, especially with japanese

No. 618783

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>>618767
dam what a story

No. 618785

My dumb ass tried to unionize my job after our company got bought out by a big corporation. One of my coworkers told the mangers that I was the one who started it all and they finally fired my ass. In the middle of a pandemic. I fucking hate corporations so much.

No. 618786

>>618785 fuck anon I am so sorry to hear that. I can't believe a coworker would rat you out like that.

No. 618795

>>618785
you didn’t do anything wrong, fuck that snitch and fuck your work, you’re doing more than most people would have in your position

No. 618800

>>618783
thank you thank you, that's all that can really be said
Also always go into the doctor with your children, don't trust anyone based on their career

No. 618804

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ive talked about balding here a lot before but this time im not gonna ask for advice. i've used supplements, expensive shampoos, everything i could afford. nothing. im still balding. my hair looks like the pic AT ITS BEST. which is still really bad. im either gonna buy those fake hair sprays (toppik etc) or i'll just shave it and get a wig. and never let anyone touch my hair ever. never gonna go out in public without a beanie or date anyone for the fear of them seeing me wigless.
im crying anons. im so fucking sad. im a 19 year old kissless virgin and im balding - and there is nothing i can do about it.

No. 618806

>>618804
also thank u dad for consistenly pointing out my hairloss as if i wasnt aware of it. maybe i'll be a hypocrite and start eating meat (6 year vegetarian) and it will help. im such a fucking dumbass. no other vegetarian i know had this problem. maybe i just eat trash.

No. 618808

>>618767
That's alot of text. But I've had bad experiences with both docs and in the psych system too and I think young women are often treated poorly like that. They assume you are attention seeking. Or they assume that you're meek and that you wont fight to have a test run properly or complain about them when they fuck up

What I learnt from being in an all female psych ward is that nearly every one was sexually abused early in life and they were all dealing with docs that rolled their eyes and treated em like attention seeking kids when they had trauma or found it hard to regulate their moods. They were treated like burdens when tbh someone else created that 'burden' by abusing them in the first place. People have a lot of sympathy for little girls being molested..and no sympathy for the women that they grow up to be.

No. 618811

>>618806
Please start eating meat. It's the most likely reason this is happening to you at such an early age.

No. 618815

>>618767
anon this story made me so angry you don’t even understand. I’m mostly sad for you and hope you the best in the future… but Jesus Christ is there not any repercussions for terrible doctors like this?

No. 618818

>>618785
Damn anon I'm sorry. If you're in the US firing you for attempting to unionize is illegal, it violates the National Labor Relations Act. You might have some legal recourse if that's something you want to pursue. You can file an unfair labor practice charge but the process might not be worth it. Fuck your coworker and fuck your manager.

No. 618824

>>618818
Oh yeah, that's my next step. They literally told me last week they can't fire me for the thing that they fired me for. It was totally about the union. It sucks because all my coworkers are scaredy cats and won't make a statement against the company, but I'm not scared of these assholes.

>>618795
>>618786
Thanks guys! So many snitches out there who think throwing people under the bus will help them move up. I'll never understand.

No. 618827

>>618811
thanks anon. ugh i really want to start again but i still wanna be ethical and i'll look like a really big hypocrite (because i am).
i guess i'll just have to forget about my pride and eat it.
aslo forgot to add but i had a pretty severe ED for a year and still underweight after 5 years (like around 16-17 bmi). i think my ED triggered it but since i became a vegetarian during recovery, my hair didnt have time to fully recover?
sigh, i really wish there was an alternative. no other vegan/vegetarian i know has this problem. but yeah, i guess i'll slowly introduce meat to my diet after shaving my head.

No. 618830

>>618785
It restores my faith in the modern world to know people like you exist. You did everything right in this situation and I'm sorry you had to experience that in turn. Fuck massive corporations who exploit people for their labor only to pay them barely enough to stay alive. Keep unionizing.

No. 618837

>>618827
I've had hair loss for a different reason. If you are shaving it remember it's a shock to the system at first. The first few mornings waking up and remembering that you're shaved can be pretty hard but you get used to it. I kept my head shaved for years after my problem actually resolved. I always wore hats out in the beginning but then I took to it and it felt normal. If you shave very close it creates a velcro like feeling that's pretty trippy and unpleasant to run your hand along so maybe aim to leave 1mm of hair.

IME wigs can give you bad headaches if you wear them for long and I actually felt more self conscious in a wig than just a hat? There's lots of pics online of women looking gorgeous with the shaved look, in case you need that to help build your confidence to do it.

No. 618842

>>618815
>>618808
I'm just gonna add to the absurdity here tbh
The doctor who called 911 on me was a thyroid specialist
I was not in there for mental help lol

No. 618844

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> pandemic calmed down for a month and everything starts going back go quarantine again while I still do my best to find a job and learn the language by myself because everything is either closed here either you need to pay over 380$, free classes successfully lasted only for 3 weeks because it was pre-pandemic
> i keep trying to find a job but as an immigrant even the job finding place straight up told me that they prioritise people from the country and EU more than people from 3rd world country when it comes to job finding, which makes it nearly impossible for me to find a job
> every job either asks masters degree either asks for fuck years lot of experience, I could find only 2 suitable jobs one of which is in other city which would make me travel for 5 hours by a train
> decide to ask father in law for help finding it because he offered that before many times but I wanted to try it myself first
> s/o tells me thats a bad timing because his beloved sister (instead of whoI ALWAYS have to do everything when it comes to helping his family because she immidtaley pretends to be depressed in order to sit and do nothing but play Rust all day while being 28. Literally have to take care of a garden in a house where she lives (in which she lives with parents, they are on vacation) because "she is depressed" to a point where she can't take 5 steps back and water flowers but can walk upstairs to her room and scream in high pitched voice pandering to Preggory clones. I live 2 hours away from them.) decides to leave her first ever job that was offered by her friend while working only for 3 months because "she does not like it" so father should focus on finding a job for her ass even though it's the easiest thing she can do compared to my situation

I do not know at this point. Does my s/o not want me to work at all? I want to scream in my pillow ffs. Am I overreacting and in the wrong here? At this point idm even moping damn floors. Jesus. I miss earning money.

No. 618849

i have horrible body dysmorphia. photos affect me the worst. it's only gotten worse as i've reached the ancient age of 23 (sarcasm. i hate this. i have completely normal fucking skin and average everything, i know this intellectually, but can't actually believe it). a few months ago i found a picture of myself i actually thought was pretty. i set it as my profile pic online to force myself to get used to seeing my own face. it backfired. within the first day i came to hate the photo and now only see a grotesque person with terrible flaws.

i need to get a passport style photo taken of me, for a license in my field, and the thought is killing me. i'll be nervous and puffy eyed while they take it. it'll look bad to me, even if i was a pretty supermodel. i'll want to ask them to retake it but can't because i would never be okay with any of them. i'll quietly pay and quickly walk to my car and cry over how repulsive i seem.

i don't even know if i'm asking for advice. what could anyone say? what helps someone that just plain doesn't see what everyone else sees? i'm so tired of being like this

No. 618853

>>618785
You’re fucking based anon

No. 618854

>>618806
It's mostly likely your diet, really do try eating meat
a good friend of mine lost a ton of hair when she went vegetarian, she literally started balding like the pic you showed and she had the most thick hair in the past. She was kind of a dumbass that didn't take care of her diet though but still, give it a try anon.

No. 618861

i want to live in a big town/smaller city that's still on the map but not a huge hub, close to nature, surrounded by a strong cultural identity. i want to live in a house with a yard and a big dog like a pitbull or rottweiler or a german shepherd. i want my partner's family to live close-ish to us without being overbearing. i want to feel like i belong.

maybe i'm just afraid of the future, miss my ex, want to believe he could become the man i wanted him to be, feel overwhelmed by current events, and am jelly of my bestie who seems so grounded in her life…but that's where i'm at.
i hope dating me made him realize how lucky he is to have a solid sense of identity and family kek.

No. 618888

>>618806
I'm so sorry anon! I was vegan 3 years and vegetarian 2 years and suffered from some light hair loss. I started eating meat a few times a week and it's been loads better. It sucks though, I'd rather be able to manage it without animal products but supplements didn't seem to help much. Your health should come first.

No. 618890

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I'm fucking sick of buying something to make a recipe and when I'm getting all my ingredients to cook later in the day, find out my brother ate what I needed. It genuinely makes me want to beat him up. He does it all the fucking time.

No. 618891

I was perusing through old hardware and found my middle school phone, and the pics left on it. Sent me right down memory lane ofbeing an awkward nerdy girl that desperately wished she was popular and cool. Made me tear up. I wish I could talk to this little girl who thought she was all grown up and tell her that life is made of all sorts of ups and downs…

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>>618849
>it'll look bad to me, even if i was a pretty supermodel. i'll want to ask them to retake it but can't because i would never be okay with any of them.
The best you can do is to keep reminding yourself of this fact. You already know it's not really about how YOU look, you could look like anyone and you'd still hate yourself as much. I've been in the same boat (older than you and diagnosed bdd) and it gets easier!!

No. 618907

>>618806
I'm really sorry this is happening to you. There could be something you're lacking in your diet but you won't know until you get a blood test. For now, concentrate on eating a balanced diet and getting lots of iron (leafy green veg and kidney beans are great sources). Make sure whatever milk or cereal you're consuming is fortified with vitamins. Your doctor should also be able to recommend some good vitamin brands and provide you with a diet plan. Don't worry anon, there are ways you can continue to be vegetarian and still get everything you need from your diet. Your veggie/vegan friends aren't experiencing hair loss because they have a balanced diet, you can get there too with a little bit of work and experimenting. Good luck!

No. 618935

>>618804

Wigs have come a long way, no ones necessarily going to notice and people that do aren’t really going to question it. Just learn to wear them properly if you go that route.
You’re relatively young so make sure you get a blood work up if you can afford to to make sure it’s not a symptom of something else (like a thyroid/GNC issue) because this is typically the time in your life where that kind of shit starts making itself known.

Also not to downplay your grief (because I’ve cried long and hard about my hair issues) but don’t give up on ever finding someone to love you! Guys don’t know shit most of the time about women and their beauty routines, you can totally just play it off as a fashionable choice.

No. 618947

There’s a streamer I started watching and now Ive gotten so frustrated with, because on his stream yesterday he played Trump’s speech from the RNC fucked off to go get food so his chat become full of maga retards, when someone said he should leave this type of stuff to Hasan(political streamer) he got all uppity and said he doesn’t give a shit, it’s not serious, that he doesn’t care and is just watching for entertainment and because he’s from the UK it doesn’t really effect him, then excused his dumbass chat by saying “they’re mostly EU all this pro Trump stuff is trolling” if you’re not a political streamer don’t fucking watch politics as you add absolutely NOTHING to the conversation and just sit there occasionally laugh, tell chat to spam kappa and remark on the crowd.

No. 618948

I've been with my boyfriend for 7 years. Do I even love him anymore or am I just used to this life? I definitely care about him and want the best for him. It's not the same as things settling down after the honeymoon phase. This feels different. I literally have nowhere to go right now and staying here is making me feel guilty for having these thoughts.

No. 618958

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For years when I’ve daydreamed about my ideal life and what success would look like to me, I dream about living somewhere with 2 bedrooms (so I can have a sewing/craft room), and a dishwasher and a washer/dryer and a garage and a dog. I’ve never cared about kids or marriage or relationships really, that’s always been the life I’ve daydreamed about.

It feels like my bar is so low and still so unattainable. I’m nearing 30, I work full time at $25/hr (over 2.5x the minimum wage in my state), and I still can’t afford a “nice” 1 bedroom apartment where I live. There’s a “luxury” apartment complex across the street from where I live now (I adore my neighborhood) where the apartments have dishwashers and underground parking and a washer/dryer in unit and allow dogs. I’ve spent so many years of my life digging my car out of knee high snow and arriving to work late, exhausted, and sweaty, and lugging my clothes up and down icy stairs for overpriced laundry that barely works and handwashing all the gross dishes I let pile up out of exhaustion…and I’m just so tired of all of it. I like my job, I’m excited about my career future, my car is paid off and I have no student debt. But when I run the numbers, an apartment like that would run about 50-60% of my income (and that’s still just for 1 bedroom). Sometimes I just want to scream and weep at how hopeless it all feels, like no matter how hard I work and run myself into the ground I’ll never be able to live happily or independently in this nightmare hellscape world that boomers/gen x created.

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No. 618966

>>618958
$25/hr is totally possible to buy a 2 bedroom, know someone who's already living that life with a w/d unit and dishwasher. anon since it sounds like you live in the north maybe it's time to live in a different state. you could also look for a 1 bedroom that has a large living room to section off a desk area for crafts.

No. 618991

>>618947
You sound booty lasted for no reason. You can always close the tab

No. 619005

>>618991
I’m well aware it’s incredibly stupid to be that annoyed at something I could’ve avoided by just not watching and I sound triggered as fuck, but he never watched political stuff before and I didn’t expect it to go like that. Idk I vented and got it out of my system and so I’m over it now.

No. 619023

>>618958
It sounds like you live in a HCOL area. Unfortunately when you make decent but not amazing money, affording property often means sacrificing a nice or convenient suburb or moving states entirely.

No. 619036

When a man only flirts with/dates women who are 19-22, he is doing so because he's bad in bed, and an insecure loser. A young woman usually hasn't had enough experience to discern what is good sex yet. I know when I was that age, I was still totally stoked that I was touchin' dongs. Makes little difference if the sex was "good" or "bad" when you're a young crazyperson who just became old enough to buy booze.

The darker side of this, though, is that women that age usually haven't developed the self esteem or assertiveness to express what they actually want in sex. Or in a partner. They tend to have far less confidence in themselves than a woman in her late 20s. These guys KNOW that if they tried to date or fuck someone over 25, they'd get laughed out of the bedroom.

Also, men know instinctively that younger women are easier to manipulate, and will do just about any debased shit for social approval. So I'm completely grossed out by any guy acquaintances in my life who show up with a young girlfriend.

I'm married. I've already been-there-done-that being a young woman with no self esteem getting preyed on by 30-somethings. It sucked. You always feel such a strong need to never, under any circumstances, upset the man by saying "no." You feel like you have to preserve his delicate feelings and make sure he always feels powerful. I am bummed to see a lot of dude-friends in my life who are edging toward their mid-30s STILL hitting on 20 yo's.

Like – fuck you. Grow up. Try talking to a woman. But they won't. Because they're scared they won't feel superior, and won't get constantly catered to, and they'll be humiliated when they attempt to fuck an actually mature person.

UGH!

No. 619045

>>619036
Funny, I was going to vent about something similar. There was a guy 1 yr younger than me that I dated for a month last year but broke things off because he was clingy and kinda dumb. Just not my type. Now he's dating a 19 year old who leaves a bunch of hickeys and it's kind of damning. What does a 19 year old know about romance and relationships? Why does a 25 year old dude need a younger girl? It just confirms my hypothesis that he's very immature…

No. 619046

this guy i really like is interested in me so i was really happy about it until i found out he really likes huge breasts…i am only a d cup…now i feel really sad and insecure because i've had bad experiences with men who like big boobs before. i don't know what to do…

No. 619065

I think people are being nicer to me now because they assume I'm more attractive under my mask than I actually am. I should be happy but it's just bleak because my face isn't even objectively that repulsive.

Either that or I'm just neurotically obsessed with looks and my own insecurity. Hopefully the latter since it's less depressing.

No. 619069

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I think my fiance is either cheating on me or is up to something. Idk my gut is telling me something is wrong. But of course I can't just accuse him of something like that with no proof. The only time he's kinda protective of his phone is when he's asleep. He's a light sleeper, and whenever I get up and walk passed his side table where the phone is, he semi wakes up, and flips over to face me/the phone. I feel like I'm going a little crazy thinking that something is up but with no proof/no reason to believe he's cheating. He did get a text notif like at 7am one time, which is kind of suspicious, but I never checked.

I'm going crazy, anons.

No. 619071

>>619069
I don't wanna encourage you to be paranoid, but if he hasn't been like that with his phone before, you should check it. Say you need to download an app to use on there that won't work on your phone or something. Or just steal it. Trust your gut, dude.

No. 619075

>>619065
Nah it’s a possibility. I have a cleft scar and I’ve never been treated this hot in my life. Haven’t heard a Joaquin Phoenix reference since March either.

No. 619081

>>619069
drug him and tie him naked to a chair when he wakes up threaten to cut off his dick if he doesn't confess

No. 619083

>>619069
There’s clearly something on his phone he doesn’t want you to find.

No. 619101

>>619069

That is pretty sus. I dated a guy like that once. I remember waking up at 3AM once and he was texting in bed, quickly switched to web and pretended he was just surfing. The next time I got to his house before him, I checked his tablet and found he had been receiving little flirtatious heart comments from some bitch on instagram.

We weren't as serious as you, and snooping can be VERY damaging for a relationship (plus it'll make you look like the psycho tbh). If you two are close, you might wanna bite the bullet and talk about how his behavior is making you feel.

No. 619106

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man i really miss roleplaying i miss the ships i had and the friends i lost contact with but damn it just isn’t fun trying to find decent writers that my characters connect with. i dont even know if it isn’t fun or i just outgrew it? like i was doing it online since i was 10 on neopets but if the people i used to write with ever found me and hit me up i’d for sure be down so maybe i haven’t outgrown it and i just haven’t found the right writing partner? this is a stupid vent but it’s 6am and damn i miss my old ships and characters and my old writing partners.

No. 619109

>>619069
anon try and grab the phone while he’s in the shower or make something up like hey this thing isn’t working can you check it out and then look. my bf cheated on me and i only found out because i looked at his stupid phone. men are stupid and disgusting always be suspicious.

No. 619112

>>619106

Aww I get you. In my case livejournal RP's were the best!

Maybe it's because you're older? I find myself really picky about writing and shit (seriously one of my friends wrote me a fic recently for one of my ships, which was sweet and cute but…her grammar and formatting were atrocious)

Sadly I think you'll have to put in time and effort to find a decent RP partner on a medium like twitter or sth. I have a small writing group I like to chat with, but it took a while for me to click with anyone.

No. 619119

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>>619106
I know what you mean anon. I grew distant from an old RP group after a depressive episode.

These guys were my best friends but I went quiet for like 2 years. Now I wish I could find them so bad. We used to play the best games of WOD.

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>>618767
also I was at the gyno for a uti, my gp couldn't get me in but the gyno office said I could just give them a urine sample and they would give me an antibiotic, my mom was already a patient there, I don't remember anything else why
They told my mom on the phone I wouldn't need an exam
When the gyno came in, she locked the door and no one had been in before, so I was still fully dressed, and she had me undress in front of her
That was the first time I'd ever been to the gyno, I wasn't even on birthcontrol or anything, so you know, my stupid ass fault
It was so disgusting, like at the time when you're that young, you just think, "evil sadist pedo bitch" instead of "PEDO sadist, period"
But the longer time has gone on, I feel more disgusted the older I get
She made me bleed, so there was no hiding what the fuck just happened if I told right away
So she she cleaned her fucking hands up and dipped and said one last time she could tell I'd already been having sex anyway and that my mom would just be more angry at me then she already is for being promiscuous
My piss was absinthe green, and she said, "There's nothing to be done about that. You really want me to tell your mom you've been sleeping around and got an std/this/ bad?"
And I was like, I'm gonna puke now stop fucking talking, but only in my head
So she says, "Don't feel bad, I see girls like you all the time, there's nothing special about you. This is just one of those things girls like you hide."
She left, I was like just fucked up weird, then I saw that there was blood under me and thought she must have broken my hymen, but I sat up and more came out, I was like no, that shit really just happened, whatever it was
I didn't know exactly what she'd done, I'd never had an exam before, but my mom has all kinds of reproductive system issues and she always talks about shit hurting, and I'd never had sex before, and she told me herself it would probably hurt a lot

You know what's the shit that just makes me sickest
As an adult, I can tell now that I'm a lesbian, but I'm so fucking scared of women I've never even considered being with one
I hate men too but that's surprisingly not sex abuse related
Like I'm never going to be able to get my fucking box chomped without puking because when I look and see a womans eyes staring at me like that from that angle it just fucking makes me puke, I can't help it, I feel like an insane person

No. 619173

Today I found out that the man who groomed me when I was a kid and probably has cp of me works in National Probation Service kek, kinda ironic. He gave me his work number like a tard and i went snooping

No. 619182

>>619046
Wtf, how did you find out? Did he tell you?

No. 619184

>>619046
tbh kill him

no, for real though, if he isn't "satisfied" by your natural form, he will always make you feel like shit because you will never grow bigger tits, get out of there

No. 619187

>>619046
There was a time (not that fucking long ago) when men would consider some natural D cups impressive enough..you're lusting after some pornbrain, stop doing that

No. 619188

>>619046
Find a dude who isn't obsessed with a body part being a particular way. That's my advice. They are fucked in the head.

No. 619189

>>619187
yeah tbh as an a-cup, stop baiting lmao, quit being dumb and just date someone who isn't openly a piece of shit

No. 619191

>>619069
I've never been a paranoid or distrusting person in relationships but the one time my gut told me something was up, it was. Had the same thing you describe with him being extra careful with his phone.

When we started living together he gave me the passcode to his phone in case I ever needed to use his wifi hotspot, he'd leave his phone sitting around. Then he started having it on him at all times.

I never snooped but the affair came out when he left me for her, I still kinda feel like snooping is wrong but I also wasted months of my time waiting to see what would happen! It's a tough position to be in, if he's cheating and you confront him he sure as hell wont just own up to it anyway.

No. 619194

>>619046
>i am only a d cup
yikes anon don't let pornsick men convince you your d cup isn't big

fuck why do we always let men tell us our bodies aren't good enough?

No. 619195

>>619191
>snooping is wrong
only if you're obsessed with tracking your SO's every move or are otherwise balls to the wall crazy.
there is nothing wrong with snooping, people rarely snoop if they don't feel like they need to. if you feel like you need to, then there's likely a reason for you to snoop, in which case you should - because it'll save you precious time you can use on finding someone who isn't a bottom-feeding jackoff. the only people who say 'snooping baaaad' are men with things to hide.

No. 619196

>>619195
I wasn't saying it's outright wrong but that I have mixed feelings on it after what I went through, said I still 'kinda' have those feelings. If he is acting sus and treating you like a fool, appears to be texting someone in front of you with his phone held tightly to him.. yeah better to snoop than be taken for a fool.

I can't get those months back that I wasted, he had all the power by being the one to just land me with the news of his affair when he felt ready to leave.. It's tricky but they won't just confess so finding proof might be the way to go here.

No. 619199

>>619069
In general snooping = bad but I believe it applies mostly if you're just obsessively checking somebody's phone/social media behind their back and I agree there are situations in which it's totally justified. I had a bad feeling about my now-ex, he wouldn't say anything even though I've tried a normal conversation approach multiple times, eventually I broke down and even though I felt really awful about myself doing that, I've checked his phone. He sure was cheating, and if I didn't check it would NEVER come out and just go on forever because as I've later found out it's been going on for over 6 years - I've been with him for a year at that point, before me he was with two different girls and they never knew he cheated on them with that woman.

tl;dr I say do it, don't waste your time, just don't let it become a habit.

No. 619205

I wanna take this opportunity tosay I hate digibro and anitubers so fucking much.

No. 619206

>>619199
What an asshole

Something to consider aswell, if someone is cheating on you they are putting your health at risk by possibly bringing STDs home to you. That was a concern I had back when I suspected my partner was up to something.. sure enough I was right to be concerned.

No. 619213

Humans who insist that we're the only species on earth that have awareness, "souls" or the capacity for abstract thought are weak and insecure. It's like their whole universe would fall apart if they lost the illusion of being a special snowflake species. There's also the crushing guilt of how we treat animals that would follow. I'm not a vegan or vegetarian anymore, but so many meat-eaters are insecure about this very subject. You don't even have to talk about it with them, they'll just notice you don't eat meat IRL and start trying to argue. It's bizarre.

People who try to find a "good" reason to place themselves above other animals in general are kind of lame. Just accept that they are beings unto themselves, who feel pain, understanding and love, but they also carry nutrients and taste good. Many animals also eat other animals, that's just life. Humans can't even treat other humans well, but they seriously fool themselves into thinking they're high-empathic, godly beings above all the rest, lmao.

No. 619217

Just watched a video on 'male karens' Nice to see it, working in retail I always wonder how they're not covered more. Read through the comments though… and everyone is making excuses for why the ranting and raving men in the vid are actually right…the mental gymnastics people are pulling in order to excuse men being insanely aggressive towards strangers. "maybe that man is suffering with OCD and so he has to react like that"

No. 619219

>>619217
Barrons was it

No. 619220

Realizing how shit my last relationship was has been bringing me down last couple of weeks, I really want to talk to someone about it but I also feel I can't.
It wasn't abusive, it was shit but again - no intentional harm was caused. I just feel like I can't talk about it with my friends so it feels like I'm carrying a lot of anxiety about someone that is living rent-free in my head but have no way to evict on my own.

No. 619222

>>619220
Isn't there a 'shitty ex bf' thread that asks for detailed accounts? I just vent on here when I get annoying memories of mine

No. 619245

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Will it always be like this anons? Will I never be able to move on from the past because the world will never stop reminding me of it? I used to strip on cam for pedos online as a teen and I've stopped doing it for almost a year, completely. I used to talk to some of these men for comfort and attention. I've cut off contact with all of them but they still somehow find me. I blocked them on my number, I will change it soon, the number is registered as my mom's so I'm just thinking of 'accidentally' losing it. I changed all my social media accounts, only have a private instagram now but they somehow find it, messaging me about how 'i still have ur nudes you know' I don't care just leave me alone please. It's hard to not message them back. I got a message from one of them asking if I'm okay because there was flooding in my city. I don't want to talk to you, I told you to stop contacting me. It's so fucking draining. One of them I suppose had my number and messaged me on whatsapp asking if I am 'insert my fake name I used to use here', I answered no, sorry you have the wrong number. But it wasn't the wrong number, it was me. I know I am at fault too, I was a stupid, attention starved teen and I knew back then too this was not right but I was too lonely to care. I don't know anons. I'm trying to look towards the future and forget it all, but it just seems that won't be happening. I'm so paranoid of them messaging my family or friends and I just wanna cry, I feel so bad. There's no one I can talk to about this because I know I will get blamed, ostracized and it can be so stressful dealing with alone on top of dealing with getting assaulted and with studies. Glad there's lolcow though kek

No. 619248

>>619220
Just vent in this thread about it

No. 619262

I feel so stupid but I'm actually having a relapse with my depression because my sister cancelled some plans I had looked forward to for two weeks. I understand that she wants to see her friends that she hardly sees, and we live very close to each other so we can meet up whenever. This was just special for me, 'cause it would have been a convention weekend if it weren't for covid and that convention is important to me in my battle with depression. We were supposed to spend a day together, watch anime and I bought some weeb snacks as a surprise.

I know it's dumb. But I have hard time making friends and she is so important to me partly because of that. I just hate that I'm not as important to her. I hate it so much. So my brain decided that this would be a good segway to self pity and realizing all over again that I am nothing and I have nothing. I have never made a positive impact on anyone's life and things would be better without me.

She caused this, but it isn't her fault. I hate my brain. I hate everything about myself so much. I'm so afraid my heart will actually burst because I am just so sad. All this because some cancelled plans. Why am I like this. I just need to yell into a void I'm sorry.

No. 619266

Just saw some retard on instagram spouting that while she was in Japan no one told her to go back to her own country or speak japanese unlike aMeRiKkKa. Lovely inclusive japan, a place that loves immigrants and outsiders

No. 619269

>>619266
the Japanese are just too polite to tell her she's a weeb sperg

No. 619276

>>619262
No, stahp it anon. You're letting it get to you when you can easily just tell yourself to stop and do other things. Go take a shower right now. Seriously. Coming from someone with a similarly stupid brain, it'll help so much.

No. 619280

>>619266
She's just lucky she didn't run into loud mouth right wing nationalists lmao

No. 619281

>>619188
>>619187
>>619184
>>619194
this is basically the conclusion i came to, i was just so upset to find out that he's a pornsick moron after all this time. plus now i am pretty sure he's a virgin and i am not interested in the mess that accompanies that. what a bait and switch.

No. 619283

>>619262
Hey anon, it's okay to be upset, people cancelling plans sucks! I hope you'll still try to enjoy this convention weekend on your own. You still have those snacks, enjoy them! Maybe save some for your sister the next time you see her if you want to. You can also watch whatever anime you want and no one else can tell you "no I don't actually want to watch that"! Enjoy yourself anon, you deserve it.

No. 619292

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>>619213
what do cats think about

No. 619293

>>614253
Beware of "one in a million" fuckboi recent go-to pickupline:

-i've never dated any girl like you
-"you knew/like this not-very-unknown musician, anime or e-celeb?? Woah you're so cool!"
-"you have an appearance of a hot girl and personality of a best bro"

Scumbag special:
"I think i'm on a fast track of falling head over heels for you"

No. 619295

>>619293
Another bonus if they compare you to one of manic pixie dream girl characters

Source; experience

No. 619299

>>619295
Used to be few. I blame netflix and quarantine.

No. 619304

>>619248
Yeah, that is true. I've been conflicted over talking about it that I it barely crossed my mind even on an anon board, fuck. So:
>Old fling contacts me
>Want to patch things up (we lost contact when he went back to his ex and I got a bit hurt by the way he did it)
>He seems to have grown up and is owning up to his past mistakes not only with me but with other people as well
>We used to have fun so I'll give him a chance
>Start hanging out as friends, he says he's still in love with me
>He is poly and already has a girlfriend
>Well, I still like him too so I'll give it a shot
>I straight away tell him I have between then and now developed somewhat of an abandonment complex and reminds him of the trauma my ex left me with before our first fling
>Ok no prob

So we started dating and got serious after a few months, and after we decided to get serious I realized since he was my second boyfriend in my adult life, with the previous one being abusive, and the he was girlfriend's first boyfriend he had some leverage over us since none of us has a concept on what is "normal" in a relationship and somewhere back in my mind, but I didn't think too much about it until later on

>There is no secret in our circle of friends (all these people have been around 10+ years, including him) that I am one of the few that don't separate feelings and sex

>Ask him to not have sex with anyone outside of the relationship(s), it is the only thing I ask from him
>He looks like the surprised pikachu meme but hesitantly agrees
>We decide to go "official" on social media two months after we got serious because I wanted him and Girlfriend to have this whole "one year anniversary" FB does, even if it's tacky
>I am super excited because I have never experienced something like that (in my previous relationship I had to be a secret because he was a ~*RoCk StAr uwu*~ so we were never "official") so while seeming like a small thing to some, it was a giant thing for me
>Guy seems to be uncomfortable and tries to find excuses to just have me and the other girlfriend as a separate group on his page instead
>Uuuh, no I do not want to be treated as someone's secret again, I really want to experience being on someone's page as their girlfriend at least for a while, like Girlfriend got to be
>He seems really anxious about it, calls Girlfriend who was really happy that we were going out as official and didn't mind at all (so he had apparently not communicated this with her from the start)
>He finally agrees, but only if he and I both write a long-ass post each about how they haven't broken up etc etc. (Girlfriend didn't need to post anything)
>Despite previous discussion everything are absolutely great
>Valentines come up
>Plan is two separate dates at his place and one together at a nice restaurant the 14th
>While Girlfriend and I were chatting away about food at the restaurant she drops that it was really nice that he and her went and got some really nice lambchops from the butcher as their valentines dinner
>He just pulled out some salmon from the freezer on our date (while I don't really care about what kind of dinner it was, what I sort of reacted to was the difference in effort from him). I don't say anything but I give the guy a quick confused look and he looks the other way.
>At one point he and I have a fight, and I fully admit that I was the one in the wrong (I overreacted on a subject that was a bit sensitive to me)
>Something that is very unusual because I quickly learned that I have pretty meek and scared of speaking up if I am feeling hurt with him without shaking and stuttering because of my ex (I get scared of getting hit or getting told what an awful human being I was for criticising him)
>He clearly holds this one and only fight against me
>He starts using how mean his ex was as an free out of jail card whenever I try to bring up something when he hurt me
>Whenever I try to bring something up, which requires a lot of mental strength from me, it always end up with me apologizing and him just looking at me saying "I forgive you" ProJared-style

And this point is important: He was AWFUL at communicating so it would always fall on me despite him being the center and I kept thinking something was wrong with me and that I was missing something (so I obviously end up feeling hurt a lot). I kept reading poly-blogs, made accounts on poly-forums, talked with friends who are poly, just so I could try to understand and ask questions, especially to make sure if I was reasonable or not in situations before bringing any of those subjects up with him. On top of him being awful at communicating I would sometimes not hear from him for days, something that really triggered my abandonment complex (that he was fully aware that I have) but I never acted on it since it is a me-problem.

>New Animal Crossing is released

>We both get it and play together
>He starts showing screenshots and talks about an AC group he is in with aquaintances we both have
>I ask him if I could join
>He ignores the question
>I ask him again at a separate time
>He still won't reply and change subject
>One day I help him out with laundry
>Realize Girlfriend's clothes are in there
>He always brings my clothes and stuff back to me whenever I leave them at his place
>I ask him about it but won't get a straight response
>His birthday rolls around
>He said he is going to spend that entire week, including his birthday, with renovating his kitchen
>I call him on his birthday to congratulate him and we talk for a little bit, I ask him how it's going with the kitchen
>"Didn't do anything today. Actually just got out of the shower, I'm going on a birthday dinner with Girlfriend and her parents"
>I had no clue, probably wouldn't have known unless I had asked him. Girlfriend posts about it on social media the day after, I would probably not known until I read that post
>This of course really hurts me
>A few days later I wondered if he could post about me on his sm and comment that he loves me on things I write, just like he does with Girlfriend. It would make me really happy if he did
>"I don't do that at all"
>Uhm, I am literally looking at a post where you did
>"Ok maybe I do, but for us it's not a big deal. I won't do it with you because it is a big deal to you"
>…aight.
>He calls a few days later
>"I can't do this anymore. I need to have sex with others as well, and if I can't do that I will one day end up really, really hurting you. I also recently got a love letter, and I realized that while Girlfriend would get excited for me, you would ask what it means and that is really troublesome for me"
>…did I do something wrong?
>"No, the problem is that you are mono"

When I went outside the next day the stuff I had left at his place last time laid literally on the ground outside my door, not even in a bag. I was of course upset, my relationship ended after all, but I also felt a slight relief. I didn't realize under how much stress I've been during the relationship, I had been crying more than I had in a couple of years the last few months of it and even started self-harming again (something that was very obvious but he never bothered to talk with me about it), I kept thinking I was having a relapse in my depression that caused all of that crying. I realize now that he wanted me to be like Girlfriend, who is very lenient and lets him do whatever he wants while she does her own thing. I also want to clarify that he claimed we were both his primary partners, no one was supposed to be secondary.

Sorry if all of this is all over the place, I tried to keep some sort of timeline in this and there are most likely things I have forgotten atm. The reason why I don't want to bring these things up with anyone is because I don't want to hear any "I didn't like him from the start" or "I told you so"'s from friends that didn't like him because of his past behavior.

No. 619312

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>>619304
>All this blog after knowing in the first place that the dude is poly and then wanting him to go mono.

Consider this a life lesson girl ffs.

No. 619314

>>619312
I didn't want him to go mono?

No. 619315

>>619293
The last one gave me cancer. I can smell the lynx deodorant shower substitute from here.

No. 619316

>>619314
>Ask him to not have sex with anyone outside of the relationship(s), it is the only thing I ask from him.

Thats mono

No. 619318

>>619316
I didn't want him to have sex with anyone he wasn't dating, being polyamorous does not mean you can have sex with whoever you find at a party, for example. It is not the same as being in an open relationship.

No. 619325

>>619304
Your first mistake was getting involved with a polyamorytard in the first place. It attracts the worst kind of people, or alternatively the worst kind of people just happen to be polyamorous. Truthfully, the moment I hear "poly" I head straight for the hills.

No. 619326

>>619304
>He is poly
stopped reading there. Grow a spine and stop dating "poly" men and other similar scum. For your sake.

No. 619327

>>619318
My bad, forgot about the difference between poly and OR. Sounds like you want the perks of mono while tolerating of being in a poly whilst they want a very casual fuck whoever you wanna fuck OR.

No. 619329

>>619325
To be 100% honest: I have always been iffy about the whole subject of polyamory, so I was insecure about it at first but decided "fuck it, let's give it a try" so I brought some of this upon myself like the stupid optimist I am.

I didn't expect the relationship to last forever, but at least have a great time during it. I didn't expect him to act like this towards me, and again I don't have a real grasp on what a "good" relationship is either so it was easy for me to blame myself.

No. 619332

>>619318
NTA but genuinely curious, what’s to stop him from claiming he was dating or wanted to date any random person? Or if he starts a relationship with someone do you both have to agree?

No. 619336

>>619329
Honestly this is just a learning curve anon. I know it hurts but atleast you will be more weary of people like him in the future. There's nothing wrong with feeling the way you did during the relationship, I would have felt the same. Ultimately this kind of stuff always becomes an issue, especially with the kind of men that gravitate towards polyamory. You did better than I ever could have, you gave it your best shot, but in the end breaking up was what was best for you. Although heartbreaking it's the best conclusion to the chapter because I honestly can't imagine how hard it would be for you to continue down this path.

p.s the guy sounds like a massive fucktard, you deserve someone who treats you like you're precious.

No. 619342

So annoyed that this instructor at the place I work at stroll in right when class was supposed to start, then has the audacity to tell me "if you're here before me, then set up the class." I'm still new here so no one's taught me how to set up this specific class, and they haven't bothered to teach me because that's not the admin's responsibility because the time she's supposed to take setting up, I'm greeting and signing in all of the students and doing other admin work. Stop strolling in late to your class and then complaining that it isn't set up yet! You know what time class is supposed to start, you know you should be here early to set up! She apparently used to come early but lately she's been walking in late. Now this bitch is gonna eat in the back like a sloppy 5 year old and leave a whole fucking mess like she did last time (and my coworker says to just leave it be because that's just how she is).

No. 619345

>>619332
The key to make poly work is communication, trust and more communication. Which means if he has a crush or interested in someone he should inform us about it so we know what's going on. If he started dating someone and have sex with them while doing so, sure. I would 100% trust him.

Him lying that he's dating someone that is actually just his fuckbuddy… it doesn't sound like him, but I admit it's not like I would have any way to check up on it. I can't really give much of an answer on how I would act in that kind of scenario because I can't really picture it.

>>619336
True, and now I know that poly is not for me. Even if he would be considered a bad example, I would never go into something like that again. I hope my judgement of my next partner's character will be better. I really need to do something about my optimistic "fuck it, let's go!" attitude since it has gotten me into trouble more than once lol

No. 619352

>>619342
Also just told her she had to wrap up because there's another class after hers and she's like "well that's what happens when there's extra students" as if I wanted to let that extra student in (dumbass boss man approved it weeks ago for some fucking reason) and it was just one extra student and you started the class almost half an hour late!! Stop trying to pin this shit on me! I set up and did all that I had to do for you, not my fault you're late and slow and sloppy!!

No. 619353

>>619345
>>619352
She sounds pretty damn lazy, anon. Has there been any admins before you? Maybe they were the kind that did all that and she got too used to it

No. 619358

>>619353
There's another admin who works in this office with me who's more experienced that me but I'm alone here on the weekends because it's slow enough to handle by myself. My coworker passes it off like "yeah just nudge her here and there" because she's a nice lady but fuck!!! She's so fucking passive aggressive to me but I don't want to say anything because I know it'll get passed over as "nooo what are you talking about, she's so nice!" It's a super tiny company and I don't want to rock the boat (am job hunting and out of here as soon as I can score a decent job offer). She's only here like twice out of the month anyway.

No. 619369

I've been having body dismorphia and self-esteem issues these past few days and I'm straight-up not having a good time y'all

I wrote out a whole thing, realised I really need to see a therapist because this shit is deeply rooted in me and promptly deleted it lol

Can't stop crying about it and I'd really like to stop because everytime I so much as think about talking about this to someone I convince myself I'm just being silly

No. 619379

>>619345
So another question then, if all he has to do is inform you, then how is it actually different from an open relationship? Like in a meaningful way?

Idk why, but I imagined a poly relationship would be like… all the people in a relationship dating each other lol

No. 619384

How can someone claim to love me so and then treat me like he does? Why I accepted it in first place? What was I thinking when I tried to excuse his yells, his way of dealing with every argument, why did I feel guilty when he decided to leave time after time?
He changed the way I am, the way I think, the way I act. I feel like an useless toy and I despise myself because I never thought I would be one of those girls. I thought better of me.
And now he starts again just because and instead of repeting myself all the things he done wrong in the past, I just stand here, breathless, without even saying a word because I can't listen for the 10th time today what a waste of space I am.

No. 619395

>>619379
There are different kinds of poly relationships, one where all of the involved are dating each other is a so-called "triad", the most common version is that there is a "center" person that dates others.

Honestly, I don't really know how other poly-relationships work in those scenarios since I have only talked to others and read about situations that was relevant to how our relationship worked and that question never really came up (well, I guess it kinda did with the love letter when he dumped me, because I would ask questions and not just smile and nod). This is the only poly relationship I have been in, and also the last, so I can't really say much else except from what he expected from us… which I admit is a bit questionable considering his actions during the relationship since I guess he just expected us to be his cute big tiddy goth girl fetish animu harem that let him do what he wanted without putting in any work into the relationships. I know, I know it sounds salty but… yeah.

I'm sorry for not being able to explain more, anon, the whole subject of poly relationships is so… unnecessary unclear unless you are really into the poly thing yourself, which I'm actually really not.

No. 619398

>>619369
It's a unique type of psychological hell. The only thing that's helped me is deleting social media and avoiding certain apps. And having "no mirror" days

No. 619407

a pair of shoes just showed up at my house and i'm so mad, I don't even remember buying them but I checked my email and there's a statement and everything. I must have bought them while I was drunk…fml they were 80 fucking dollars. I can afford them I just hate spending my money on stupid shit I don't need.

No. 619418

I wish I never met him.

No. 619431

I randomly decided to look at a few boards on 4chan after not going there for years and it's so much worse than I remembered. /r/ was usually "what is this porn" requests, but now it's almost entirely requests for nude shops/x-rays of women/suspiciously young looking girls. Not even celebrities, just random females the poster probably knows. Gross.

No. 619434

I am so stressed I want to cry

No. 619444

>>619434
I'm sorry anon. Maybe crying a little would help? I hope the things stressing you out will be sorted soon and you can relax. It must suck

No. 619446

>>619431
I go to the advice board sometimes and there is always without fail some middle aged faggot saying he is only attracted to teens and should he date one?

No. 619447

>>619431
>suspiciously young looking girls.
Yeah anon you better watch it. I'm pretty sure it's been proven that they post nudes of underage kids from time to time.

No. 619454

>>619447
Yeah weren't yungcynical's nudes posted there from when she was like 14? Gross

No. 619458

>>619447
I think it's even more frequent than that. A lot of the pictures on /s/ just look way too young. Some of them aren't nudes and are clearly just taken from facebook, but it creeps me out.

No. 619466

The last two weeks have been utter trash for my family. First my mom falls out of bed due catching her foot in her blanket and smashes her head open and has to get staples (it wasn't that severe but still scary since she's nearing retirement age.) Then our older dog passed away suddenly and then the next day my mom wound up having to be admitted into the hospital due to issues with her leg (her feet have been swelling and bothering her for ages but she refused to go to the doctor for the longest time.) They found out she doesn't have a blood clot thankfully but she does need to have some surgery done to see what is causing the blockage in her leg and see if they can fix it.

My anxiety is through the roof becuase my older family members assume I'm going to just take over her role and do everything for them like she used to and its making me so mad because they think I want to do it when they're giving me shit for not doing it well.

My friend group have tried helping me but I'm kind of just shutting down and keeping to myself and they keep telling me its fine but they surprised me with steam gifts which was sweet of them but I don't even really want to do anything. I can't talk to my therapist about it because everytime I do she's disappointed I haven't found a job yet and moved out (because my household is very toxic and worsening my mental illness) and apparently me exercising and trying to keep my mind busy isn't bettering myself any so I need to focus on getting a job.

but right now all I want to do is exist and even that is difficult right now lol.

No. 619470

I've been dizzy and having palpitations for the whole day. Now I'm shaking too and I can't tell if it's a panic attack or my heart is about to give out. If I go to bed, will I wake up tomorrow anons?

No. 619479

>>619470
I've been having the same problem for like 3 months now, I have palpitations and one of my arms will feel very heavy, then I get better out of nowhere, then it comes back. I started wondering if I'll get a heart attack, and my doctor said it's most likely panic attacks but I don't know. Reply to this post once you wake up next morning or I'm going to worry about you.

No. 619516

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my step father and mum recently divorced because it turns out his son molested my sister for years

>mfw our grandma defends step son and says my sister who got molested by him shouldn’t ruin his life by telling police

>mum is heartbroken over this & divorce and lost almost everything she has, starting new in a new city with no money relying mainly on help from friends & her business

this woman helped raise me what the fuck i feel like i don’t even know her literally how can she defend the rapist who abused my little sister. SHE is her grandchild NOT him.

please someone help me make sense of this she’s not even senile wtf

i am so hurt. my poor little sister. nice to know what she thinks of us, choosing our chavvy step siblings over us

FYI we’ve never mistreated our grandma or anything like that so idk where it’s come from? i feel like she’s abandoned us

pls be my validation hugbox and tell me i’m not crazy

No. 619517

I want to fucking go apeshit on my boyfriends piece of shit, entitled, victim complex, yellow fever, “”mansplaining””, never ever clean the house, always leaving a mess everywhere, no ones allowed to have different opinions, leaves piss stains on the shower walls and a permanent cum odor, hypocritical, passive aggressive, using people for his own benefit, smug, cough on everything, fake nice, always trying to pit us against each other, causing all his own problems, Neanderthal looking ass roommate but I know I can’t. even just knowing he’s in the same room fucking angers me I’ve never been so fucking pissed at someone before and the worst is that he’s so fucking passive aggressive about it that what the fuck are we supposed to do if he never directs anything towards us? Just let him use our anger at him to fuel his poor tortured soul victim complex and use us as a story to charm the next group of people he’ll meet and eventually get ditched by? I really fucking wish something genuinely bad happens to him

No. 619518

>>619516
like i’m not even the one who was molested but i feel really traumatised and hurt by her reaction i think i need to get therapy

No. 619530

>>619479
Had this with weird stiffness of one arm and side pain, doctor told me it had to be stress related it being the start of the pandemic and all. Hope you anons are well though, shit sucks.

No. 619532

>>619530
Now that I think about it it actually happened for the first time last year after I nearly passed out at a friend's place. And this year I started feeling this way just as often again soon after getting really sick and not being able to go to the doctor back then (I suspect it was the covid and way later my doctor said it's most likely that as well but by then I was doing way better.) Since it keeps happening when I have physical health issues it's hard to tell when I'm panicking and when I'm physically sick.

The doctor also said it was most likely stress from the pandemic and everything that happened because of it. I'm with my family atm and my mother won't stop saying it can't just be anxiety and to go back and ask for more thorough exams because doctors told her similar shit for years without paying attention to her until she was stuck to a wheelchair for a few weeks and finally got a diagnosis for a rare physical disorder so she's scaring me.

No. 619538

>>619516
>>619518
Your grandma is a disrespectful bitch and you should never trust her again, especially if she knows everything that happened and doesn't assume it's all just a misunderstanding or whatever. Support you sister as much as you can, she needs you and your mother more than your shitty grandma. No, you're not crazy at all, and being as shocked as you are is understandable imo.

No. 619545

i missed my period. maybe? its been late before due to my body still getting used to quitting hormonal birth control. I have zero pregnancy symptoms so i'm not even worried about it, its just weird. i'll take a test in the next week.

had some major lung pains for a week probably due to my vape being burnt and me smashing back nicotine too hard, but im fine now.

I had this annoying dream about my ex just showing up while I was talking to a lolcow. it was annoying because he looked really pretty and I know hes ugly as shit in real life, but my brain has done that thing where dreams make you reconsider people. but hes still ugly as fuck. damn

No. 619555

>>619516
Your grandma sucks, sorry. Cut her off and let her know you won't be visiting her in the old-folks home and she won't be notified when her great grandchildren are born.

No. 619557

>>619516
Your grandma sucks, sorry. Cut her off and let her know you won't be visiting her in the old-folks home and she won't be notified when her great grandchildren are born.

No. 619577

I’m so annoyed whenever a mediocre man starts flirting with me, it makes me irrationally angry.
I know I’m not over my head when it comes to dating because I was in relationships in the past with men who made over $90k/year or were easy 8/10.

I don’t know which dumb pickme gave those dudes the tiniest bit of attention and let it get to their head but this has to stop.

I don’t know what’s wrong with today’s trend of women heavily punching down but ffs, respect yourselves. You WILL date handsome guys. You don’t need to go for homely nerdy, dad-bod losers. Handsome men are not going to cheat on you or disrespect you any more than ugly ones. The ugly ones won’t consider themselves lucky to have you, they’ll just have their ego boosted and think this is the new normal.

No. 619586

>>619577
Correct on all counts. It helps to remind yourself that the ugly guy you might feel obligated to give a chance has probably put as much thought into his appearance in his whole life as an average woman does in one morning. I see guys who are, to be fair, naturally not attractive at all and would struggle regardless of effort. But even then, they haven't bothered to dress well, get a flattering haircut, hit the gym etc. And if he does all that but his face is still unfortunate, well… women get ~90% of plastic surgery and he probably never even once considered it.

No. 619592

>>619586
I find this so annoying. You see some men sperg about how women view men as ugly or that the average woman is rated higher in attractiveness than the average man and never consider that obviously that;s going to be the case when the average woman is investing soooo much more time, money, and effort into their appearance than the average man. I wish more men would put effort into their appearance, most don't even try with things like skincare, dressing well, having a flattering haircut etc.

No. 619603

>>619586
>>619592
Absolutely. I have male friends who, though they are very nice and respectful, won’t even contemplate going to the gym and just sit on their ass all day, playing video games and wondering why they haven’t gotten laid in years.

It’s because they’re either fat as hell or lanky skinny uggos. Truth is: You can be an ugly motherfucker but if you’re ripped, you WILL get laid. Especially considering that men gain muscle so much more easily than women, all they have to do is put down the burger and go to the gym twice, three times a week. That’s honestly enough for an average man to start getting nice arms and pecs.

On top of that, women will be less likely to be hung up on minor flaws like having a large nose or an average face.

2020 women have conditioned men to give even less shit about their appearance and they now even adopted surface-level feminist ideas that they cherry-picked like “I don’t need to have the perfect body to find love, she should love me for who I am, she should embrace my hobbies, we should go Dutch on everything”

They then have the gall to encourage each other to try their luck with me when they have a beer gut and skinny arm or weight 120lbs and dress like they belong on Blue clues. I’m mad.

No. 619632

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>buying alcohol alone
>cashier: "take care of yourself, okay?"

please don't like… say that to me dude. i'm getting shitfaced alone on a sunday night, i don't need to be reminded how bad i am at taking care of myself

No. 619634

I'm a mod in two separate popular discord servers and I feel so out of touch with both mod teams.

I was on top when I originally joined, but I haven't become ass buddies with the mods so now I Feel like useless.

No. 619635

>>619632
That was so out of pocket of him, what the fuck

let me buy my liquor in peace i'm a grown fucking adult.

No. 619638

>>619603
disgusting. ugly men don't get a pass just because they are ripped.

No. 619640

>>619635
>>619632
it's probably cause of corona idiot. stop projecting.

No. 619642

>>619640
NTA but corona politeness is out of the window, it's been almost 7 months. People don't say that unless they're close to you. If you do, then you're nice.

But it's "stay safe" not "take care of yourself". You're not the one that gives yourself coronavirus kek

No. 619644

>>619642
also NTA but it just seems like a unnecessarily uncharitable interpretation. Where I live people are still saying things like that, I also feel like it's just a casual thing some people say at the end of an encounter. Idk cashiers see this multiple times everyday I doubt they're passing judgement over someone just buying alcohol.

No. 619645

>>619642
>projecting

No. 619647

>>619644
this. not to mention you can't be that judgmental at a liquor store it's bad business. plus most people who work those stores also drink and ignore the negative associations of alcohol.

No. 619650

>>619632
OP here this wasn't at a liquor store first of all it was a gas station, but the cashier was the same guy I saw a few days ago when I got booze from there BUT he was very young so maybe I'm his first alcoholic? idk but also idc

No. 619653

>>619650
dude he was obviously trying to be pleasant shut up and stop being insecure or stop drinking you moron. god i hate immature brats.

No. 619655

I get depressed when I remember how much IG influencers get paid for promoting poop tea on just one post

No. 619656

I'm really stressed about my college classes. It's hard for me to focus an everything is online, it's a miracle I made it through last semester. I'm only taking 10 units out of a full 12, but they're both STEM classes, and one has me doing virtual labs alone and only has 3 hours of lecture in real time per week. The other is just supposedly a hard subject to a lot of people, someone I know failed it three times while she was taking other classes at the same time, and I've met other people who have failed once or twice before finally passing. I need to transfer to a four year university next year to finish my degree, and I could do one of my last three/four classes during summer or winter or something (at a fast pace) before I leave, but I feel nervous about doing that too. I'm just so anxious about keeping up already that I nearly threw up and flew into a total panic today because I didn't do enough work over the weekend. I'm not even so behind it's impossible to catch up, but I just am finding focusing so hard and keep losing time to anxiety or a poor grasp of time. I'm pretty sure I have something like ADHD and not going to school irl, or even being able to go to a library or quiet cafe, to study has completely fucked up my ability to block time out to work. I also am dying being trapped inside so much, I'm just depressed and can't keep track of time anymore.
I feel too old to be in undergrad and I have a good financial aid package so I'm afraid of dropping the other course and taking 5-8 units, which would instead be just one hard class, or a hard class plus a personal enrichment class, to keep myself busy and from losing my mind. I feel like it'd make me a stupid slow fuck and enable me to not get things done, but at this point I'm falling apart at the seams over nothing and I'm not even past the intro weeks. If I drop now it won't show on my record. I'm worried that I'll regret dropping if it turns out I could've handled it if I just waited for the anxiety to pass, but the anxiety has been killing me for months and it feels like I'm always stressed about something. I have things I need to get done and I could try to recoup what time I lost in summer to get in therapy and do all of the paperwork I need to do for my life, including getting a driving permit and learning to drive, but I'm afraid that I just will waste my time again. I'm transferring next year no matter what I do now, unless I actually flunk and fuck up my GPA, but I just am worried I'm fucking everything up if I put this class off until another semester.
I don't even know what to do, it feels like there are no right answers. I'm talking to a few people I know about this and they think I should just take the one class and try to take care of myself, but I feel like that's being too soft on myself…sorry for rambling so much but I really needed to get this off my chest.

No. 619657

>>619653
I'm immature but you're going off on someone venting in a vent thread

No. 619660

>>619657
Quit responding if you're this pressed.

No. 619662

I think this is my last day on lolcow and it's going on my resolution's list for September. I'll tell it in passing there, to the shrink and my bf when I see them today so I feel like it's set in stone. Then I'll put on heavy blockers so I can break the habit. Ngl, I gonna miss nonnie but I got in too far and it's pulling me down. It's like having mean friends when you know they don't like you but still let you hang out while being mean and doing other shit you don't approve of that you end up doing yourself. But it's either hanging with those cool mean friends or being just alone with yourself.
Anyway. Hope I don't see you again but thanks for spending some time with me.

No. 619663

I wish I was dealt a better hand. I wish I had normal milestones and supportive parents. I wish I had an ounce of stability or consistency growing up. It's been like a decade since I got out of that mess but I am still fucked up. My siblings are fucked up. It really feels like I will never find any sort of peace. I'm doing my best and accomplishing nothing. I really just want to give up and be a full time drunk lol.

No. 619664

>>619662
Take care anon. You're stronger than me!

No. 619677

>>619662
lol good luck

No. 619678

>>619479
Still alive anon, but still feeling like shit. Gonna start taking supplements and see of anything changes, I can't afford a doctor right now. I hate this so much.

No. 619686

I have been trying to sleep for the past 2 hours but I can't. I feel really sad and lonely, everything seems hopeless to me specially with this whole covid thing. Even every day it's the same lately.
Maybe if I wasn't such a failure it would be a bit different and I'd feel a bit better.

No. 619692

>>619516
Holy shit anon, your grandma is awful and clearly playing some weird favouritism game. I hope your part of the family cuts her off!
It is really understandable that you are shocked, it must be an awful feeling not only because things are quickly being uprooted but also that you couldn’t protect her. Make sure she knows you are there for her and love her, she needs you more than ever.
Your mother is amazing that immediately decided to divorce him, sadly a lot of parents don’t. I hope all of you get the support you need in these times!

No. 619701

>>619664
>>619677
Thanks you guys. It's my last day of shitposts, better make the best out of it.

No. 619711

My work basically forced me to work Mondays, which was my normal day off to match my bf's, and he's mad at ME for it. I had to take that change unless I wanted to work AM shifts, which would make me have to go to bed early which pisses him off, and have an alarm go off that makes him angry too bc he can't fall asleep after it. Wtf

No. 619718

>>619711
He's a dumb shit.

No. 619727

>spend weekend over at my bf's place
>sleep like a baby in his arms despite the horrible heat wave
>temp drops back to normal when I come back home
>"oh I'm gonna sleep so well"
>wake up every hour sweating because of dumb nightmares

What's wrong with my brain?

No. 619729

>>619711
He sounds like he's being irrationally angry because he loves and wants to spend time with you. Dude's gotta realise he's being selfish and lay off.

No. 619734

>>619711
things out of his control piss him off (tbf, not being able to spend your day off with your SO, being awoken by an alarm etc are all annoying things) but instead of realizing it's out of your control too he gets mad at /you/. that's retarded and he needs to chill.

No. 619745

>>619653
I agree, wtf is this, he was just trying to be nice. Oh my god, how are people today so triggered by everything?

No. 619756

How tf I stop caring that someone is hotter than me?
Usually I'm ok because it's obvious people will be more attractive but theres that one girl who is very similar to me overall but both much hotter and more accomplished. My brain has been obsessing over her for weeks now and it jus keeps ruining my mood on almost daily basis. I guess I now I know how Dasha felt when she met Mina, lol

No. 619762

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>stay the night at my bf's house
>dad sends me a text that i "need to be a challenge" or he'll cheat on me/leave me

am i reading into this or is that a really awful thing to say

No. 619763

My month of sick leave ends tomorrow and I feel worse about going back than I ever did from my injury

No. 619779

>>619762
definitely awful

No. 619781

>>619762
It's what your dad would do. Tells you a lot about his character.

No. 619782

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I live in a small town and i only graduated 3 years ago.
4 people from my graduating class have died this year, either from drug overdoses or a car accident, i don't know. I feel so much grief i never knew them personally but I saw them around and now they re gone, i feel so bad.
One of them I used to call a swagfag and shit like that. He was a football player, he was in a college in a city not that far from here, he died behind a hotel, his friends just left him there.
The one who died recently is making me very sad.
He never liked me, we ran in similar friend circles but he was always staring at me in a grossed out way. But he acted polite to me and we talked once when we were freshmen. Everyone loved him, he seemed really nice. I saw his mom make a post about how she was expecting him to come home still, omg it's fucking with me so bad. I feel so bad, i never knew you well, but RIP. I'm not sure how he died, but his mom said something about how she was praying in the hospital for him.
Another one was a gay dude, i never knew he was a user but I guess it's common here, his mom didn't like that he was gay, and he couldn't really find love in this town so he died after a life of only hookups, he was into makeup and fashion, I've never talked to him.
Another one was some dude who died after taking a Percocet, he seemed like a really nice kid. He is related to my bf and his family is still distraught.
I know some anons might be like "dumbassess shouldn't have taken the drugs then", this is a really small town and there is little to no recreation here. That's all there is to do is drink or go out to eat or trip on drugs at someone's house.
I'm sorry if this sounds selfish, but I hope nobody close to me is next. People I actually knew are gone. I'm so anxious that I will die and leave my family behind or one of my family members will pass too soon.

No. 619785

I was recently diagnosed with breast cancer and chemo is making me want to die. I’m going to make it because I caught it early but the cost will be losing my breast which makes me so depressed. I should be thankful for another chance at life but I really don’t want to live 50+ years without a breast. I guess if I were older and completely over having intimacy I wouldn’t care so much but fuck I’m so young.

No. 619789

>>619785
Watched my mom go through this. How old are you anon?

No. 619793

I’m pregnant and in less than two days I’m supposed to go in for my second appointment in which I should be able to hear the heartbeat for the first time. I’ve been so nauseous and have had pretty bad morning sickness and fatigue/tiredness for like a week and a half and I’ve been feeling very emotional and vulnerable and somewhat depressed. Some days I think I just can’t do this. I’m personally pro choice but I don’t think I could get an abortion myself. I do feel attached to the “baby” already and would probably feel worse if I got an abortion.

My boyfriend has been extremely supportive throughout the whole thing so far which really surprised me. Honestly I expected him to get upset, maybe even angry, because this wasn’t planned and we’re not exactly swimming in cash. Our apartment only has two rooms. Not two bedrooms, two rooms total (not including bathroom)

However today I started crying randomly because I miss my family. I live in a different country from them now. I said it wasn’t fair how my parents can’t be with me and see my pregnancy and see our child when it’s born (depending on what happens with COVID-19/travel I guess.) and it didn’t help that just that morning my boyfriend told me he talked to his mom on the phone the night before and she apparently expressed some concerns about if I “really love” him or if I’m using him or something. Which is ABSOLUTE bullshit. She was apparently concerned because I’ve been married once before, and honestly I’ve only been with my current boyfriend for a year. I don’t even think her concerns are that ridiculous I guess, she’s just being a mom but I hate that she apparently thinks these things about me. I’ve never even met her before, I’ve only met his sister, because his parents live kinda far away and this COVID-19 thing has been going on for a good portion of our relationship, but we were planning to visit his family next month and stay in a hotel to avoid too much contact.

Now I feel really insecure and shitty about meeting his parents if they’re going to be judgmental of me being divorced once before (it was a really short marriage when I was young and stupid and he ended up lying and stealing our shared savings, which contributed to my decision to divorce) My family has been nothing but supportive, and while I’m sure they have worries they’re kind enough not to tell me and just make me more stressed. Honestly I wish my boyfriend didn’t even tell me what his mom said so I could be blissfully ignorant of her feelings and just make a good impression when we visit. Now I’m going to be so upset and anxious I don’t even know how I’ll behave.

Anyway my boyfriend and I fought about this (verbally) for a while because he said “of course” she will be worried because I’m a divorcee and blah blah blah, that it’s only natural. I just said I wish she could keep it to herself, or he could keep it to himself, but he said she/he were just being “honest” like yeah I get it, honestly is great usually but not if it’s sole purpose is to hurt somebody imo. I feel like there was no need to tell me that. Then he got more upset and started saying sometimes he’s not sure if I love him because, as an example, when he picked me up a snack today I didn’t say thank you (I usually always say thank you, I just didn’t today because I was crying about this stuff) I feel annoyed that I always have to like pat him on the back every time he does something for me. It feels like it’s more for him than for me if all he cares about is getting praised for doing things instead of just making me happy. (I never even asked him to go out and get the snack, he did it to try to cheer me up) I kinda wonder if this “worry” wasn’t brought on by his mom’s comments on the phone from the night before which makes me uncomfortable if she’s like getting in his head and making him worried about that. He also made some offhand comment about some of his friends being “disappointed” in him for being with me (I guess because of the pregnancy or my past divorce idk) which was a slap in the face because he told me all his friends congratulated us and were happy.

Anyway now I’m just depressed and he’s gone to work and didn’t even say I love you or anything before he left and I self harmed for the first time in a long time and feel like shit. I feel like what’s the point to even have this baby with him if apparently everybody is just disappointed or judging it or disgusted or whatever. I half want to just go back to my home country and be with my family and raise the kid alone. I do love him though and he really has been extremely supportive until today. And was really stepping up and taking responsibility really well. I don’t know if we’re both just being assholes and he just said stuff to be hurtful in the moment or what.

No. 619794

>>619789
I’m 29

No. 619800

>>619785
I know it's a weak silver lining but a silver lining nonetheless - breasts are not essential for intimacy in the end so it's not all lost.

No. 619811

>>619785
You can always get an implant anon, breasts are an easy part of your body to replace. Stay safe, best of luck with your chemo.

No. 619814

>>619785
I know it feels awful now but it's just a breast, they're quite easy to fix with implants and skin grafts and will usually look pretty nice. I've seen amazing results from reconstructed breasts that have been lost to breast cancer. You'll get over it with time, at least you're not losing a leg or an arm if that helps a bit. Kick that cancer's ass anon and be safe.

No. 619850

>>619793
Does he have any sisters? I hate when a woman gets pregnant unplanned and the guys mother is quick to assume it's a trap or easy money. Who stresses out the most during an unplanned pregnancy?…the woman! Who is the one doing most of the raising and day to day care of the child (whether you stay together or not)….the woman.

I can see why you're upset. It's takes two to accidentally make a baby but it's usually the woman that is affected the most by it. It'd be nice if 'concerned mothers of grown ass men' could see that.

No. 619855

>>619793
Not wanting to be a killjoy here, but are you sure you REALLY want to keep it?
The apartment situation, your family away, his family not supportive of you, him not reassuring you when he knows you're fucking pregnant and emotionnal and not even seeing the point of sparing you the shit his mom said, the sudden friend comment…
Fuck that. You have a right to be emotionnal, it's normal in your state. It's not normal that YOU have to pat him on the back for stupid shit you didn't even asked for.
It's sounds a bit too much to handle honestly. I would be rethinking for sure.

No. 619856

>>619793
Your bf sounds like a control freak. Good luck dealing with the triangulation between him and his mother for a good chunk of your life if you keep that baby. I certainly would not have the baby of a man who wouldn't stick up for me in the face of his mommy and friends while I planned to carry his child. Jsyk your past divorce has no bearing on this current situation and it sounds like an attempt by bf's loved ones to put a black mark on you so they can devalue what you're doing.

No. 619876

>>619855
This. You are less than a year together and this is a twenty year (plus) commitment. One phone call from mommy and look how he has you feeling already. You need to think of YOU right now. Whether that's abortion or if it's keeping it and moving home to supportive family. Have you looked into the legalties of whether you could actually move home? Sometimes you can't because legally the guy has rights to have the child within a reasonable distance in shared custody. Depends on each countries laws.

No. 619916

>>619793
Anon, it sounds like we’re at about the same stage of pregnancy and I really can’t imagine putting up with what you are in the state I’m in right now. I really hope you’ll consider the way your boyfriend acts, and how it will feel to live with that (or a worse version of it) for the next 20+ years while also losing a huge part of your life in order to raise a child. The chance of your adult boyfriend suddenly getting his selfish feelings together and acting better is essentially zero.

Really, truly, consider your life and your future. Don’t let your hormones or your boyfriend sway you to continue the pregnancy if you think your happiness and wellbeing is at stake. You’d be more selfish to bring a child into a shitty situation that you’re unhappy with, than to end it early. The fetus doesn’t have feelings yet, but a future baby will.

No. 619923

>>619793
Abort you dumbass. That man is going to make your life miserable unless you put a stop to it right now.

No. 619932

I'm coming back here to rant about my mother again. We had an argument and it all started because she doesn't want to learn the language and integrate into society like a normal adult. My little brother is entering middle school and it shows that he's starting to be more mature than her, I fucking hate this. I talked to my older brother and he told me that he and my sister suspect her to have autism or some sort of mental disability for being such a dumb bitch.
She then later threatenend to leave and go permanently to her home country because emotionnal manipulation is what she knows best, when I replied that I can just live with my father and brother she made a comment that I am female and that won't do. Bitch feel free to go to your country with your retarted muslim mentality.

No. 619942

>>619793
I already replied quickly earlier but on second and third read this post just keeps getting worse. He has you feeling like you want to go home to your family right now..if you have his baby you could end up stuck living there til that child is grown. You can be stopped from leaving the country if you have shared custody of a child. Together or apart this guy will have that power over your life. He can dump you and still insist that you can't leave with the child. What support will you have then?

You're only dating one year. You haven't even met his family, his family are driving you to tears just through phone calls alone. The stress of this appears to be showing an ugly side of him that you wouldn't usually see during that first year honeymoon period. You didn't thank him for a VERY small gesture (while you carry his child and endure hormones and nausea) so he starts questioning your love?? He is not being reasonable, his mother isn't either and you likely have years of parenting disagreements ahead of you where you'll be told 'you musn't love the kid' if you disagree on small decisions for the child. That's the mentality he is working with. Also being expected to say a big thank you when he already hurt you earlier on.. could he not put his ego to the side? There's a point in relationships where the small shit like making someone a cup of tea or grabbing them a snack doesn't require a thank you every single time. He's only doing this to desperately twist things and make you the bad guy for your tiniest of 'indiscretions' meanwhile he's the one making batshit accusations about your love not being pure or good enough.

You can't stay with a man who is driving you to self harm during pregnancy. How are they shaming you for having a divorce in your past (what does it matter given you had a very valid reason to leave) just look at his current behaviour. Look how he treats you while you're carrying his flesh and blood. It's meant to be a time where you rightfully get fussed over. Have you a family member that knows about your past self harm? You need support from people who you know for a fact are on your team. The unnecessary stress that he's putting you through doesn't give me hope that he'd be a great father. He's harming you both already. I'm sorry anon but that 'you didn't say thank you so I guess you don't love me' bullshit is absolutely emotional abuse. The triangulation of bringing his mothers opinions in and then labelling them as 'just honesty' when you get upset.. Can you see all those red flags adding up? This is a recipe for disaster. I'm really sorry you're going through this. You are the one with the ability to make a big decision right now though, that is one thing they can't take from you. But once that baby is born you are tied to this miserable family. What is the timeframe you have left before that option is gone?

No. 619952

>>619932
> I replied that I can just live with my father and brother she made a comment that I am female and that won't do
If you're 18 just go rent an apartment with some female roommates, get away from the weird family dynamic and go integrate with the kind of women you want as peers

No. 619969

i'm tired of being a student. housing marketed towards student is always subpar and/or overpriced, financial aid doesn't care if you're studying in the countryside or in the middle of a huge city, and in my country and major, i don't know anyone who has successfully studied and worked on the side at the same time.
i seriously feel like a leech. i'm tired of spending money. but this will be my most expensive academic year yet and i can't do much about it…sigh.

No. 619986

I’m sick of feeling hungry, I have a nice life in general, I’m not homeless or anything like that.
This is just a first world problem because as a fatty, I just hate feeling hungry, it’s annoying and unnecessary.
I shouldn’t feel hunger if I already got enough fat for me to survive without food and just water for at least a month, there’s people out there with actual issues that need this food more than me, i don’t want to feel the need to eat anymore, I just want to stop thinking about food, it’s annoying.

No. 620022

>>619986
Is it actual physical hunger or just boredom/cravings? I have similar thoughts and think about food a lot at times as well, usually when my ED wants to flare up, but I just ignore it.

No. 620031

Today is my birthday and none of my friends or family members congratulated me, not even my dad. I only got a notification from an otome phone game.

No. 620042

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>>620031
HAPPY BIRTHDAY QUEEN

No. 620045

>>620031
I get one lonely bday card every year and that gets me down some years but I think more people experience that than we know.

Happy birthday to you anon, what age are you turning?

No. 620046

>>619986
Bitch no matter how fat, you still need to eat at least something.

No. 620048

>>620022
It’s actually physical hunger, I’m actually really good at ignoring cravings and boredom since I like to drink lots of water, but i get days like today in which I feel real hunger even after two hours of eating a fulfilling breakfast.

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>>619986
No offense anon but there's a huge problem developing in first world countries where despite the population being "fat" are actually increasingly malnourished.
Don't think because you have a few extra pounds that you couldn't be depriving your body of vitamins and things you need. You feeling hunger could be your body telling you that you are critically low on a nutrient.

Instead of shaming yourself, promise to feed your body nutritious and delicious things. There's a few really helpful "craving" charts online that will give you healthy alternatives. It's so unfair that ignorant people think starving is a reasonable solution when it fucking isn't.

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>>620031
HAPPY BIRTHDAY QUEEN

No. 620072

>>619678
Good luck. I hope it's nothing to worry about and that supplements will make you feel better.

No. 620076

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>>620031
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANOOON!!! We love you more than those sacks of shit who forgot about your special day. HUGZ GIRL.

No. 620077

>>620031
Happy birthday Virgo queen! We love you!

No. 620082

>>620054
Nta but Damn this personality test is accurate, I scored anxious and frustrated

What about you guys?

No. 620083

>>620042
>>620045
>>620062
>>620076
>>620077
Aww thank you! This is so sweet! I feel much better now. I am turning 19.

No. 620102

>>620054
Hey, tayrt, that’s pretty helpful, thanks!
I will try to eat better from now on.
>>620082
I got stressed and sad, It’s kind of nice to know about these kind of things.

No. 620115

I've been behaving pretty badly by slacking at my job (office work). I get the major reports done but I utterly fail to execute the tedious data entry shit because all I do is fantasize all day about my new boyfriend and browsing the internet on my phone trying to take my mind off it.
He's staying at my place because he was recently hospitalized, so I'm even more excited to come home now because I know he's there. Like a snack. He's such a sweetie too, he asked if there was anything he could do while I was at work and I said to empty the dishwasher and do the dishes. No complaints or hesitations, he was happy to do for me. He even accepted my fruit and veg delivery and was courteous enough to wash them, dry them, and ask if I wanted them in bags and stowed in the fridge. It's just nice to feel so loved and considered, like a man actually wants to pitch in his part even though he's recovering from illness. I do nice things for him but he doesn't expect me to mommy him and doesn't act entitled. It's genuine love and reciprocation. It's so addictive. I know when I get back there I am safe. That there is no drama or hardship. Just cuddles, laughs, and feeling really good. This level of support is like heroin to me.

No. 620174

So my best friend cut me off.
I have these periods when I get really dark thoughts and get depressed and I push people away because I feel like I'm not ready to face the world and also I also don't want to be a burden for my friends. After these wear off, I start going out again and interacting with people. She had enough of these cycles because she felt she couldn't count on me, which is understandable. This was the third time this happened. I'm not sure whether I can gain her friendship back.

No. 620178

I just wanna get horny anons, I haven't been horny in months. Fucking months. Just wanna be wet and all, ugh. I've forgotten what it even feels like to be really seriously horny.

No. 620181

>>620178
Are you taking SSRIs?

No. 620183

>>620178
I hope you can get back your horny anon
I want to be unhorny. I got a vibrator and this thing murdered me. Never in my life have I ever had an orgasms this intense. Already gone 3 rounds today and I’m exhausted.

No. 620195

I think I fried my brain. When I was a child I never had problems concentrating (I think? Anyway I got the job done) or behaving really. I always paced around the house, though, and still do. Now I'm in uni and I can't even sit 30 minutes to study for an upcoming exam, fuck my life. Even when I watch movies I often check what portion I've already watched, how many pages of a book I've already read, even if I'm enjoying it!
I honestly think it's technology's fault.

No. 620198

I have no friends

No. 620199

>>620195
Gotta start spending more and more time away from screens. Worked for me

No. 620204

>>620198
If you're over 25, then you're fucked, otherwise get out there and make some

No. 620205

>>620195
20-25 minutes of studying before you lose concentration/stop absorbing the info is normal though. It's recommended that you study for 20-30 minutes and then take a break for 5 minutes and repeat. But I also agree with this >>620195. The super quick and endless consumption of media (instagram etc) has definitely ruined our generation's attention spans.

No. 620207

>>620198
how old are u I need friends too

No. 620208

Feels weird to post this here but I have a baby in the ICU in critical condition because of a medical problem aggravated or possibly caused by the formula the hospital wanted him on. He might die nobody knows, but best case scenerio is he will be living in the hospital for at least 5 or so weeks. All I want to do is drink.

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>>620198
It's ok once covid is done for you should put yourself out there. Find like-minded people who share your interests or hobbies.
I'm rooting for you pal.

No. 620214

>>620198
I don't have friends either

No. 620217


No. 620240

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i cut my thigh before yesterday night for the first time with a razor (ive cut w my nails and scissors). yesterday was pure euphoria i was laughing and feeling nice thinking about the experience. today has been hell. my thigh feels bruised and sore as fuck and the guilt is kicking in. (AND my stomach is cramping.) whyyyyy does it hurt so bad. they were just cat scratch cuts too.

No. 620243

>>620240
Don’t do that!

No. 620246

>>620240
>whyyyyy does it hurt so bad.
Cause you cut your fucking thigh. Don't hurt yourself anymore, anon. Just remember that even though it feels good in the moment your gonna feel like shit later. Not worth it.

No. 620255

i hope this mf calls me back. im gonna feel like like a fucken dumbass if i make the call again after they fucken hung up on me.

No. 620261

I'm so fucking repulsed by my face. I've always had super genetically fat cheeks and a weak and basically non-existent jawline. Just came across someone who has pretty much the same face as me asking for recommendations on a plastic surgery thread (not on lc) and everyone was like "yeah there's basically nothing you can do for that." Fuck my life I want to die

No. 620265

>>620208
Anon I'm so sorry, I can't even imagine what you must be going through. I hope your son will be okay.

No. 620268

>>620261
>I've always had super genetically fat cheeks and a weak and basically non-existent jawline
Same anon, same.

You can fix a weak jawline with filler (something I personally want to get done). You can get lipo on your face/jaw/neck, but it's not something that's super common as far as I know. Also keep in mind getting any fat sucked out of your face will without a doubt cause you to age faster. I always hear people say you will appreciate fat when you're older, so I plan to keep mine tbh. Buccal fat removal is something that's more common, but it never makes a huge change most of the time. I think Bella Hadid is the only person who I've seen had a complete transformation from getting buccal fat removal.

No. 620283

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I keep procrastinating this course I paid $1200 for. It started out as something fun to get me a better career but at this point I just don't fucking care. I've been at Chapter 15 out of 36 for two weeks now (course ends at the end of the year) and I'm remembering why I hate college. I just want to spend my days either working, baking things, taking day trips, and goof around on the internet, NOT studying for something I've lost like 80% of my interest in. I think a big part of it is because money isn't a huge issue anymore, but the fact that I would gain a higher-paying job and also a lazier life if I just do this thing is keeping me from giving up completely.

No. 620284

I still regularly get upset over the way my sweet coming-of-age-movie high school romance played out, even though I'm an entire grown adult now. It had all the tropes: I was the undesirable but headstrong loser lamenting my unpopularity, meanwhile my dorky little best friend was secretly pining after me hard, we even had a dramatic parting moment when I moved away where he held my hand through the open car window as I drove off. We stayed in touch and I came back to visit after graduation to find out he had gotten super hot and was madly in love with me, insert cinematic summer montage, the works.

I then went off to college, he became this insufferably whiny dropout pothead and continued to stalk me for years, sending thinly veiled guilt trips about how upset he was that he'd never meet "a girl like me" again, implying that me leaving was what caused him to be a failure. He recently re-added me on FB for the thousandth time and I found out he's dating a carbon copy of me who even has the same race and occupation. Men are a fucking trap dude I hate it here

No. 620285

>>620195
Fuck, this happens to me too! Like I want it to hurry up and be over even though there’s nothing I want/need to do afterward and I’m having a good time, it’s so weird.

No. 620300

I support BLM but I get uncomfortable whenever people try to paint Jacob Blake as some sort of martyr who is a great person. Yeah, no. He's a rapist. What happened to him was wrong and fucked up but he can go fuck himself with a rusty, nail stricken baseball bat otherwise. Most of the people who are pointing out are republicans who don't give a shit about women either. They just want a "gotcha" moment for the other side. I guess no one really gives a shit about women in general.

No. 620305

Why whyyyyy are men so gross and predictable. Ran into an ex WHO IS MARRIED WITH A YOUNG DAUGHTER the other day and now he is messaging my old email accounts saying I looked really good and I've always been on his mind and a weakness of his. I want to message his wife. Maybe it's better to just ignore all together?

No. 620308

>>620305
>I want to message his wife.
Do it. Even if it hurts her or she reacts badly, men should be afraid of consequences when they pull shit like this. Women as a group need to start telling on them.

No. 620309

>>620300
conservative leaning myself and i agree, but also i have actually seen a lot of people talking about how he raped a woman. the worst part is that the woman was a minor too so ive seen a lot of outrage (on behalf of men and women), but at the same time i get what you mean, the gotcha factor is definitely there as well.

No. 620320

>>620300
There's a video of that dough-boy shooter punching a teenage girl that's resurfaced and I've seen the right do everything to defend it. Republicans do not give a single shit about young women unless it helps push an agenda.

No. 620322

>>620308
>>620305
please be careful if you tell his wife. i have been harassed by a few broken women in the past. it's so sad and frustrating when they just allow them to do this shit.

No. 620323

I fucking hate this world. I hate how rampant sexism, racism and homophobia is becoming where I live. It wasn't all well and good before but it feels like it's just getting worse and more common.
I hate how every time I meet a new person they have one of those "opinions"(as if human rights are a matter of opinions) and they don't even try to hide them anymore.
I hate the news and how most people just say "Just don't read the news then lmao". Just because I wouldn't see it doesn't mean it's not there. I would know all those horrible things are happening and I can't just simply isolate myself from them.
I hate how every time I go online I see some sexist bullshit and it makes me feel bad. Sometimes I wish I was born a man so I could just do fuck all with my life and just scratch my balls and be delusional and think I'm superior to everyone else. I'd probably troon out if the "treatments" weren't so god awful.
I can't wait until I have a stable job where I can work from home so I can just move in the middle of nowhere with a dog. I used to think I'll marry some nice girl but at this point fuck dating, nothing works in this shitty world.

No. 620327

>>620300
thought i would correct myself as i just looked into a fact check and realized he raped a woman rather than a minor like i had thought. regardless, disgusting and really upsetting however like you said looking into the way its staged it feels like no one cares because its more like, "nvm its not a child just a woman" as if that somehow makes it a little less worse. i try to feel bad for the guy but i cant look past the rape and domestic abuse and the fact that the news doesnt even mention it is even more disturbing because it adds on to the martyr image. https://www.snopes.com/fact-check/jacob-blake-sexual-assault-charge/
>>620320
it hasnt actually been proven that its him yet though https://www.snopes.com/fact-check/kyle-rittenhouse-punch-woman-video/ i guess we will see but i guess its just another kind of "gotcha!" moment for them as op said

No. 620344

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I'm in a good mental place and I genuinely see an exciting and rewarding present and future for myself but I still wonder about all the things I didn't become, all the lives I didn't live

No. 620347

I woke up two hours earlier than I wanted and I’m starting a new job in a couple hours. I’ve only slept four hours and can’t fall back to sleep. I have so much anxiety about not fitting in and I’m also scared because it’s a very male-dominated field. This is all so stressful but I really want it to go well.

No. 620348

>>620344
Same anon. Sometimes I think about all the interests I've had over the years, all the ones I didn't pursue but could've led to my life and the career I'm after being completely different. A lot of the time it makes me feel hollow to think about, and even if I'm sure I made the right choice for myself, there's still that lingering nagging feeling. I find it best to think about how all those interests make me a more well-rounded person, even in the area I'm currently in.

No. 620353

I genuinely feel useless. I'm 23 and I have nothing to show for it. My dad called me drunk a few weeks ago on my birthday to tell me I'm a disappointment to him and he wishes I was like his friend's kids. I used to win awards writing, throw myself into my art and be passionate about life, and now I just feel like I'm floating along, completely unmotivated, just a hollow shell of the person I used to be. I've had depression for years and I don't see the point of trying to get help for it anymore when it will never get better.

No. 620356

>>620348
>>620344
2021's our year, bitches! No ragrets!!

No. 620361

>>620347
Yikes, good luck. Boys clubs are so difficult to maneuver.

No. 620365

I was trying to think why omegaverse BL pisses me off so much and I realized it's because most of the time authors use it as a way to include rape in their manga, but, y'know, have an excuse of "pheromones made them do it!" I wish this trend never made it to Japan ughhhh

No. 620381

>>620208
Please keep us updated on your son. I hope he is ok. Bless you, anon

No. 620387

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Should I block my ex best friend on social media?
Her boyfriend never liked me and she was given a dilemma to either stop talking to me or they break up, she chose the former. I used to blame him, calling him manipulative and abusive, but friendship is a two way street and me sneaking around to see her or text her felt degrading, eventually she just stopped talking to me altogether. It's been a year and it still hurts really bad. She deleted all the pictures of me and her on her instagram. And seeing her go on trips with him and his faggot friends used to piss me off but now it just makes me sad.

No. 620388

>>620353
Fuck your dad

No. 620391

>>620387
yes. fuck that bitch. i'm sure it hurts but you really don't need people like that in your life.

No. 620392

Anon please help me.

I feel like I don't love anyone at all and I haven't been horny in a while. I force myself through masturbation and don't enjoy sex, I really fake it.

My bf and my parents, all important people, I'm not sure I can bring myself to actually feel like I love them right now. We've had our struggles but I'm seriously scared.

Could this be brought on by lack of sleep???? I'm not taking any meds besides Kyleena

No. 620395

My eating disorder has gotten worse and I've lost like 2 inches off my waist, dunno how much pounds bc no scale. My boyfriend is concerned for me, understandably, but it was maybe a year ago he told me multiple times "petite, flat chested girls" are his type and I was an exception.

No. 620397

>>620395
Girl if you don't leave that man. He likes "flat chested" girls? It's one thing if he said small breasted or small chested but he said "FLAT"??? That's loli territory

No. 620399

>>620395
Anon, please get help. Eating disorders have really awful side effects you don't wanna lose your hair and Fuck up your heart and teeth. Also dump your boyfriend, petite and flat chested girls sounds like a weird combo chomo alert

No. 620435

My mother is really here to yell at me while I'm having a panick attack for having a panick attack. Jesus christ if I wasn't shaking and weak I would deck her instantly.

No. 620437

>>620395
Leave him, you might start healing on your own
Btw, I say leave him because at best, he's a closeted lolicon, at
worst he's a closeted pedo, and either way, you don't want to love a person like that

No. 620439

>>620395
Never love a man who is obsessed with particular body types

No. 620440

>>620435
Remind her that you wouldn't have turned out like this if she hadn't raised you/not raised you this way
Doesn't need any context, if she doesn't stop after that, at least she'll think about it later and feel shitty

No. 620443

>>620440
Already did anon, she's just too self-centered to think about how her own actions affect others. She even brings up things that are painful for me now of all times. This bitch is evil and she knows what she's doing.

No. 620447

>>620387
I had the same exact experience with my best friend! When she got her first boyfriend she was madly in love with him and she stopped messaging me as much and we had a big fight. A year later we had contact again and she said that he manipulated her into not hanging out with me because he said I was “manipulative” we talked it out but now again, she’s barely messaging me and I’m not missing her. You’re right about a friendship being a two way street so trust your gut.

No. 620463

>>620208
Hey anon, I hope your baby is ok, and i hope you're doing ok too. Sending many virtual hugs/love your way, this is actually making me worried for you.

No. 620464

I just saw art done of this girl who was filmed confiding in a relative about being molested and not being believed which got roped into the “#saveourchildren thing, for fucks sake it’s bad enough this girl is going to have that personal moment on video for the rest of her life now she has to grow up with drawings done of her crying as a child about being molested? I don’t know I just think everyone is handling this so horribly it makes me fucking sick. There’s a reason living csa victims are often kept anonymous

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>>620208
I hope things turn out well for you and your child anon.

No. 620493

>>620181
Late reply but no anon, I'm not taking any sort of meds. I have been mildly depressed for a few years though but I still got horny occassionally. I think I only got aroused twice in 2020. I hate this so much. I'm not even 20 yet

No. 620501

>>620208
I'm keeping you both in my thoughts - my way, way younger brother went through something similar but they got him through.

No. 620525

A few times in the past my girlfriend didn't react the way I wanted/expected her to when I tried to initiate some intimate stuff. (Sexy times once, other times just intimate conversations) That is a normal thing to happen and of course not everyone will react the way I want them to. But exactly when it happens I feel 900% rejected. Even if it was just a misunderstanding, it hits me hard.

How do I cope with that? I put a big big wall between us out of fear of me hurting my own feelings again. The relationship is suffering from that, but I don't know how to fix it.

I'm my own biggest enemy and I'm so fed up about it.

No. 620533

Talking too much is retarded

No. 620537

>>620525
This has been happening with me and my boyfriend for months as well, and I totally feel you on the rejection front. It fucking sucks lol. Have you talked to her about why she hasn't seemed interested in sex/physical intimacy lately?

No. 620539

I want to fucking kill my bf when he screams at games.
I've told him repeatedly to stop and he always says "I'm just focused, I'm not actually angry, don't worry" but I don't care whether he's angry or not I just want him to shut up. I know I'm the same when I play games but I don't protest loudly and swear when he can hear me.

No. 620540

>>620525
>sexy times
are you 13? just call it sex

No. 620547

>>620540
Bitter much?

No. 620549

>>620540
My ex boyfriend used to propose sex as "sexy time" occasionally and nothing legitimately turned me off faster. I don't think we ever had sex when he introduced it that way kek.

No. 620557

>>620547
>t. 13

No. 620558

God I hate religion and the jackasses that use it as an excuse or for sympathy. That scrote that said "fag city" and then proceeded to say how he's a "man of faith". Ugh. And all that uproar about jerry falwell because he was having a menage a trois, not because he's teaching dangerous idealogies.

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This isn’t a personal vent or anything, but I just want to get this off my chest after reading about polyamory on Reddit.

I hate when people consider poly a sexual orientation like being gay. No, you‘re not some special little unicorn prince because you‘ve been married for 10 years and also get crushes and want to fuck other people. This can and does happen to most people in long-term relationships, but we‘re not chimpanzees, we don’t have to give in to every single urge we happen to get, so we work through it, because in a relationship, you‘re supposed to be a team and you don‘t just abandon someone who means the world to you just so you can squeeze your limp dick into some 20-year-old hippie chick you met on Tinder.

Polyamory is only for people who are either porn sick coomers, have heavy BPD or are simply too narcissistic to be in a true partnership. There are probably a few cases where everyone involved is genuinely happy, but I think that those are extremely rare. Most of the time, someone is getting fucked over. And polyamory certainly isn‘t a unique sexual orientation.

No. 620572

>>620571
but anon, don't you know that monogamy is just a concept of modern society! Our cavemen ancestors were happy poly people fucking everyone in their tribe. Don't believe me? Look at our cousin the bonobo, they also live happy poly lifes.

No. 620584

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trying to do uni assignments, I honestly have no idea what I'm doing and want to die

No. 620594

my boyfriend made me an amazing handmade card for my birthday with a really sweet message and I've lost it. I have a horrible feeling I've thrown it out by accident when cleaning a load of boxes from my room (recently moved). I swear sometimes I really hate myself, I'll never see that card again and I'm so upset about it. FUCK SAKE why am I such a scatter brained RETARD

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>>620584
same anon, hold my hand i want to cry

No. 620602

>>620571
I don't care if it's unpopular: Poly people have always been trashy to me, particularly men. The women tend to be insecure sadsacks who go along with it either because they need four dicks in them at a time to feel validated, or because they'd rather know who their man is cheating with by pretending to like it rather than be kept out of the loop or be dumped. The women may be desperate, but the men are always scum with nothing to offer except mediocre dick.
It's a bullshit sex scheme for shitty men. It's sad to see how many women go along with it when they don't even gain anything from it.

No. 620614

>>620602
I don't think that thinking polyamory is gross and stupid is unpopular anywhere.

No. 620617

>>620614
People are fencesitters anymore man, everyone is afraid of stepping on someone else's toes so the most you'll get out of polite conversation are platitudes like "Live and let live" or "As long as it isn't hurting anyone," cause establishing moral boundaries is shame-y.

No. 620631

>>620617
It's a fair point. If a situation genuinely doesn't hurt anyone, and everyone involved benefits from it and feels comfortable in it, on what other basis is there to be vocally against it other than a subjective moral one? A lot of the criticisms and negative associations with polygamy (the possibility of infidelity or breaching trust, a partner falling in love with another person, legal complications for marriage and living arrangements, partners having disagreements, making sure each partner's needs are met, etc.) are things that… also occur very frequently in monogamous relationships? Those issues aren't exclusive to polygamy, so it'd be odd to be against polygamy on that basis unless you're also against monogamy. After all, The divorce rate in the US, where polygamy is widely not legally recognized and punishable in many cases, is 50%.

That's aside from the fact that monogamy and "traditional western family values" (women never being allowed to earn a wage, women being taught that their purpose is to manage the home and have kids, girls being married young in order to inherit wealth from another family via the son inheriting it) are connected and function dependently on one another. The popularization of state-recognized monogamy and subsequent demonization of polygamy arose hand-in-hand with mass industrialization, as it's easier to track family lineage through the father than through the mother (that's right, patriarchal societies benefit from monogamy) and being able to track offspring was the only way to keep inheritance recognized as a legitimate form of wealth. I mean, look back at the days of coverture - societies that considered monogamy the only "correct" type of relationship benefited from wives being owned by their husbands as property and daughters being owned by their fathers as property, only because it was convenient for male property owners… interesting, huh?

No. 620642

>>620631
>implying that the most inherently and blatantly misogynistic cultures don't allow men to have multiple wives, who they basically own

come on now anon.

No. 620650

Between all the California and New Yorkers fleeing to Texas there is no way quarantine will be lifted until early 2021. Everywhere I go I see out of state plates like this whole pandemic is a joke. Being extroverted is actual hell i just miss getting drunk with my buddies but now my only socialization is between my patients and my bf whenever the hospital isn't keeping him hostage since they refuse to bring on more doctors and rather overwork their already limited staff. Anons in other states I envy you so fucking much. Except florida.

No. 620651

>>620631
you are right to state that these problems affect both monogamy and polygamy. but to state that patriarchy solely has a hand in monogamy would be tone deaf. patriarchy literally emerged in hand with polygamy, with land owners acquiring harems of women to increase their family unit and heirs. both monogamy and polygamy stand to gain through patriarchy, as the female sex is required to birth and raise heirs in both cases. in history, it was not the marriage system that caused patriarchy to unfold, it was the neolithic revolution and sedentary lifestyle. if one isnt hunting and gathering and can now own property, one needed heirs to inherit the property.

No. 620653

>>620650
wait why are new yorkers and californians going to texas of all places? also i thought ny was pretty decent in covid numbers atm?

No. 620658

>>620650
Texas is doomed anyway by all the maskless virus denying h’yuckified retards that live there

No. 620659

>>620650
Early 2021 is generous tbh. I don't think it'll be lifted for a long time unless they actually crack down on it/shut things down on a national scale. Leaving it up to counties and cities isn't going to protect enough people, and the idiot college students and smalltown hicks that drive into my town for Walmart are a shining example of that.

No. 620660

>>620650
Colorado is the exact same way anon. Everywhere I see it's people from Texas, California and Kansas. It makes me feel like an asshole because I can't help but think they should go home and not be shitting up trails or the roads.

No. 620662

>>620660
Why do you feel like an asshole? You're right.

No. 620664

I fucking hate people that act like they are so "woke", even more so when they turn it into their whole fucking persona.
I used to have a close friend for many years, they was pretty much your typical skater dude so nothing special about them really. But the moment they graduated they started to write a lot about equality, feminism, sexism etc. on their social media which I appreciate and think is cool that they is learning and growing - except they made these long, LONG, preaches about it (and actually didn't act quite as "woke" irl as they pretended to be online). And this kept getting worse and more pretentious over the years until they turned into a full-blown tumblr sjw surrounded by yes-men. They started to hang out with some typical tumblr fakebois and a couple of months later they comes out as a "demi-girl", and a year later they're in full-on trans-woman mode.
Here is the thing though, I usually don't really care what you identify as and I always respect that. I have a few friends that have transitioned through the years or just had phases they grew out of. But the fucking way they announced it combined with the fake deep essays they keep posting are so…. like it is just their next step in being as "woke" as possible rather than an actual identity, the entire thing feels so fake.
However they recently made a long post about how privileged cis women are that can have their period and I was on the verge on flipping my shit and I'm still mad about it.

No. 620666

>>620664
Please do flip out over their bs.
Periods are shit.

No. 620667

>>620664
Tell him to shove frozen V8 up his ass, apparently.

No. 620669

>>620664
Don't flip shit, I think they feed off the negativity. Instead, gloat about how freeing and womanly it feels to connect to the Earth Mother using your monthly gift and how the pulsation of pain is a reminder of the sacrifices you make as the bearer of all life.

No. 620670

>>620669
I enjoy being a woman but ew

No. 620675

>>620670
The hippie mumbo-jumbo will send them chimping, it drives everyone up the wall but imagine yearning for it? Wanting it? This shit must read like humblebragging about a new car

No. 620679

>>620667
Looks very feminine on the tampon, anon

No. 620682

>>620664
I haven't seen my dad in 4 years and the day he has chosen to visit me is the same day my period is due to start, I get one godawful day every month on that first day. I just cried knowing my dad booked his flight and hotel already. So blessed. This kinda thing has happened so often that tbh not having to worry about periods is a fucking privilege. Making plans weeks in advance must be nice. I've never been able to.

No. 620684

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>>620596
I'm sorry you feel the same

No. 620700

Some of my friends still hang out with my ex and it kind of makes me want to die.

No. 620709

>>620700
if they were friends before, that's rough but it is what it is, but if they were friends through you that's shitty of them.

No. 620710

>>620700
>friends

No. 620712

>>620709
it's the former. I'm not about to tell anyone how bad things actually were because I'm not looking to muddy the waters, but it's still just a fucked up situation and I don't know how to get out of it. It's not as easy as "just get new friends," unfortunately.

No. 620718

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desperate and stuck, so I'm asking him for help. I could ask someone else but everyone has a lot on their plate and I don't wanna burden them unless I have to

No. 620723

>>620712
Was he abusive or?

No. 620730

>>620723
Insidiously emotionally abusive. I don't know if any of them would even believe me if I really went into it. Even if they did I don't know if it would be enough to convince them to stop hanging out with him. I'm withholding some details here because I'm very paranoid. Sorry.

No. 620731

>>620730
My last bf was insane with me behind closed doors, nobody else in his life got to see that side of him. That's how they usually are. Great friends, terrible partners. I get it. Sorry anon.

No. 620740

>>620731
Yep, that's exactly the situation. He's a horrible boyfriend, but not a bad friend. Sorry you've been through this too anon.

No. 620743

I'm currently working on compiling a list of pediatric cancer drugs as part of an internship, and all was going well until excel crashed and I realized I hadn't saved my spreadsheet. Now all I want to do is scream into the void.

No. 620745

>>620700
>>620731
Dealt with the same problem a few years ago with my ex. He did some genuinely fucked up shit, like "I need therapy after dealing with this" level of fucked up. I wanted to tell our mutual friends, but I knew it would seem like I was being a scornful ex-gf and didn't think they'd believe me. It was some really outlandish shit that absolutely would have sounded fake.

Best of luck to you anons, I know it fucking sucks.

No. 620746

>>620743
Sometimes it's possible to recover unsaved excel files, google it. Gl!!

No. 620761

I just started medical school but now I'm taking a year off for mental health reasons (death of my stepmom right before school started, covid, living on the opposite side of the country from my family.)

I'll be going back next year to restart but, idk. I just feel like a failure for having to take time off. I know getting into med school is a big accomplishment but now I'm going home to take antidepressants and sleep for a year.

No. 620762

>>620745
I honestly feel like I'm going to be in therapy for the rest of my life after what my ex did to me. It's been three years since we broke up and not a day goes by that I don't think about it. It was literally the type of situation where even though I knew I had been duped and was in a bad situation, I couldn't leave. Leaving would have been worse than staying. I know that he targeted me exclusively for that reason: I had nowhere else to go. It's getting better but I still feel pretty broken and hopeless. I still have days where I want to drop everything and just move somewhere new so I don't have to worry about running into him, or worry about a mutual friend bringing him up for whatever reason. It'd be so much easier if he were an asshole to everyone but it's literally only women he dates that he's like this. I think his parents recognize the extent of it, but they don't care.

No. 620768

>>620730
>>620731
>>620745
I think everyone should tell about their experiences regardless if they'll be believed.
Abusers rely on shame and appearances so their victims will keep their mouths shut, or look crazy when they finally do speak up.

I've stopped caring and determined to shout it from the mountain whenever I am chronically mistreated. If others don't want to believe what I say, then they're not my people and that's that. Sometimes they're shooting themselves in the foot to not heed warnings even when presented with the evidence that someone has been rotten.
Had a friend receive some comeuppance recently for not believing me about a certain narcissistic mutual in our community. She always "forgot" or downplayed shit this mutual did to me, and I could tell said friend thought I either deserved the treatment on some level or thought I was being petty about a minor slight to have felt so offended.
That is, until one night not too long ago, a different girl (with clout - unlike nobody me) brought her name up and how that mutual was indeed an awful person. When that name got brought up I got riled up, and my friend thought my upset reaction was so hilarious~ But furthermore, she went on, narc mutual had went around and smeared my friend unprovoked behind her back too with some pretty awful shit. Worse than what I got. Actually.
Lmao, I wanted to feel bad for my friend because it was obvious for the rest of the night that she felt very betrayed and shook that someone could have said something so vile against her for no good reason. Then again, I didn't feel bad because she didn't want to believe me when shit happened to me. Some people just don't get it until shit happens to them.

No. 620795

>>620768
I agree, I wish I had spoken up at the time. I had never dealt with anything so truly awful before and I didn't know how to handle it. Of course he told me I was overacting, downplayed everything, somehow I felt like the one in the wrong at the end.

I eventually drifted away from the friends, partly because of the whole situation. I felt like even if I had told them, they wouldn't see the big deal and continue being friends with him, and that felt like it would be an even bigger blow.

No. 620803

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>>620571
>>620602
>>620631
Wonderful example of polyamory
These degenerates decided to have a baby and one of the subhuman men shook the baby and gave her multiple brain bleeds. They didn't even realize the baby was injured for 2 days.
https://thepostmillennial.com/polyamorous-man-featured-by-progressive-media

No. 620804

Just here to rant that I have to piss every damn 5 minutes because I got my period today. I prob won't sleep tonight because of that as well.

>>620803
the absolute worst timeline

No. 620805

>>620803
What the fuck? What the absolute fuck, fucking disgusting.

No. 620806

>>620761
It's normal to feel like a failure after such an accomplishment. But you're not. Take care of yourself before taking care of others.

No. 620807

>>620761
Congratulations on medical school anon! Just remember you made the right decision and it's worth it to take time off for yourself. You'd be feeling a lot worse if you chose to stay.

No. 620811

>>620803
So many youtubers that I follow made fun of this lot but never went back to address the aftermath once that news broke

No. 620829

My relationship is over due to Covid. We decided to be sensible and put school and careers first before setting up a life together but now it looks like it won’t happen. Years wasted for nothing. I feel fucking broken

No. 620833

First day back at college. During lock down I lost just under 50lb, dyed my hair and learnt how to do makeup so suffice to say I look different. I got lots of nice surprised reactions but one girl who I've known for 6 years but never really spoken to (we just went to the same school and I guess she considered herself too cool for the likes of me. Her and her friends used to glare at me and laugh behind my back a lot) went out of her way to chat with me compliment me and sit beside me- then asked me what high school I went to and was shocked that we went to the same place ("I've never seen you before!!") I was wearing a mask so I guess I understand but now i can never ever take it off again because I don't want to embarrass her when she realises oh yeahhh she does know me. Also i guess I want to live the fantasy of being friends with the pretty popular girls from high school. Sigh. Does this even count as a vent?

No. 620843

>>620829
Don't think of these years as wasted. Marriage and life together is not an obligatory endgame. You sure have experienced some great things with your former partner, made great memories, grew as a person… it's very valuable.

No. 620846

I have a package coming and I just know it's going to get stolen before I have a chance to go out and look for it. I live in a back house that isn't visible from the street (even though our street number is clearly marked on the front gate). About 15% of packages I order get thrown into the yard of the house two doors down from me. If I get an email notification immediately after a package is delivered and it's not at my gate, I know to just walk down there and grab it. Problem is, sometimes I don't get an email until hours after it was delivered, and by then it's too late. I've had packages get stolen in this way because they just sit there out in the open and anyone who walks by can grab it.

I've tried so many times to correct the issue, changing my shipping details, requiring a signature, but these delivery companies don't care and will just blame the vendor if I call and complain. Their delivery drivers just refuse to actually look for my fucking house.

No. 620856

>>620843
Thanks anon, I really wanted that endgame which is why I waited so long but I know you’re right. Just gotta ride out the emotional rollercoaster

No. 620857

>>620829
Try not to think of COVID as being the thing that ended things. It just wasn't meant to be, and inevitably something else would have come along and triggered the break-up. I'm sorry anon. It's going to suck for a little while, but I promise things do get better.

No. 620860

>>620846
ever tried a PO box?

No. 620861

>>620860
Never looked into it but I guess I don't have a choice at this point.

No. 620889

>>620846
Ever had them sent to your work or your parents/friends' place? It could be annoying to retrieve but at least they won't be stolen.

No. 620890

>>620846
Feel you anon
I moved to a new address two years ago and I would get instant regret any time I ordered online. Drivers would either call me up wanting directions (which I'm useless at giving, don't they have gps?) or they'd get my neighbors to sign for stuff even though I'm sat at home waiting. If I order an 'intimate item' in particular it's guaranteed to end up at their house for a few hours while the tracking fails to update.

I use a service similar to a po box now, it doesn't charge by the month but instead charges me for each parcel it takes in. Worth it for certain orders

No. 620895

I live in an American city that is frequently memed for being incredibly violent and my 9-5 job (still have to go during pandemic) is on the edge of one of the various "ghetto" areas. It's a huge contrast to the more "trendy" yuppie area that I actually live in. On the plus side, I'm Mexican and this is a Hispanic neighborhood so I can at least communicate with the various drunks and gangbangers that harass me. But quite frankly, having to work in such a shitty depressing unsafe area makes me feel absolutely subhuman. I know that's horrible and entitled, and I don't think I'm betterthan anybody. It's just depressing to have attended a top 10 university with the promise of a great job only to be stuck in a shitty office full of dead insects and mold and surrounded by broken liquor bottles and used needles. I cry almost every day and I'm starting to feel convinced that this is just what I deserve and I'm trapped here forever

No. 620910

>>620895
Ivy League is such a meme lol. Eat shit

No. 620911

>>620902
I literally pointed out that I know I sound that way and I don't agree with it. I came from a place exactly like this so it's not like I think I'm above it, just feels like shit to realize I was sold an expensive meme when I chose to go to university

No. 620913

>>620911
If you went to an Ivy League school wouldn't you get good FA? Most of the top schools do, but I guess some don't

No. 620914

>>620895
How exactly are you stuck at this job? Can you not start looking for a new one and just stick out in the meantime?

No. 620915

Fuck I’m such a dumbass my coworker was trying to find where something goes, and I HID from him. Then he goes walking around and finds me where I’m squatting to hide from him. He asks me where the thing goes. I tell him, and idk why but he repeats exactly what I say to him. Why am I such an antisocial dumbass??? Whyyyy

No. 620918

the last 36 hours have been … something!

No. 620925

I need to stop caring so much about what others think of me.

My aunt told me I had a horrible taste in fashion. The funny thing is, I packed for my visit to her thinking we would be staying indoors bc we made no plans and also COVID. I packed sweaters and t shirts and jeans. I actually have a great fashion sense and it's something I'm known for. Despite this, I'm literally so offended by her saying that to me. It bugs me to think she thinks I don't have good taste, which is so stupid because who the fuck cares.

No. 620931

>>620918
Pls explain

No. 620936

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No. 620944

>>620931
made myself very paranoid

No. 620985

I had to move back in with my parents and my dad has been exhibiting really bizarre traits. He gets angry and irrational over nothing, just so incredibly cruel. I remember him raging like this when I was a kid and dragging things out for hours, but it seems way worse as he’s aged. He’s so mean to everyone and drinks all day. Idk what to do, I can’t move anytime soon but my anxiety is through the roof. I’m avoiding my own dad like the plague and my mom just acts like it’s not happening because then the target will be on her. I feel insane sometimes because it’s like my whole family just acts like nothing is bad or wrong when we’re all together and he’s so charismatic. I just want to get the fuck out and distance myself from him.

No. 620994

i want to kill myself but i am scared i will wake up permanently disfigured or have to get a tracheotomy. i have benzos and alcohol. my life is shit and always will be shit. i still live with my parents and i am miserable and fucked up

No. 621000

I dont know if I'm just getting more and more disinterested in TV shows the older I get or if TV shows have had a severe quality drop. I used to binge watch all sorts of TV shows up until 5 years ago and now I just stick to trash reality tv shows and docuseries.
I'm also insanely picky so maybe thats it. I loved binge watching Greys Anatomy, LOST, Nurse Jackie, Skins and shitty teen dramas but now I cant be pissed to even feign interest in pretty much any show thats come out recently. Have TV shows gotten shittier or am I just past a phase in my life where im not capable of enjoying scripted TV?

No. 621015

I really dont like being around my mother in law because she is very loud and has a really obnoxious personality. It makes me feel guilty but omg i wish she would stop yelling

No. 621016

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>>620994
a successful passage to you, anon, or otherwise some relief from suffering

No. 621017

>>621000
I feel the same damn way

No. 621025

it's 4.30am and I'm so fucking sad. All I want to do is binge and purge to make myself feel better, but I fucking can't. You know how after a big session you just pass out from exhaustion/low blood sugar, I need that right now.

No. 621028

>>621025
why can't you binge and purge? just curious

No. 621029

>>621028 I love with other people, so they will hear

No. 621030

>>621025
Take care of yourself, drink some water and watch something that will make you cry. That exhaustion is better. Sorry for dumb advice, I just learned my sister is struggling with b/p and feel protective.

No. 621031

>>621029
gotcha. the things you do for some peace of mind huh

No. 621033

>>621030 I'm really sorry to hear about your sister anon. I hope she is able to recover before anything bad happens.

No. 621037

I can't eat chipotle without wanting to die afterwards.

No. 621038

sorry if I'm being crass but my mental health is ass

No. 621039

There's a huge hate on here for people who claim to look younger than their age and I totally understand it, but it's frustrating to read when you're experiences in real life honestly verify that you in fact look young, and not in a good way. I traveled to see family for a week and every single fucking day whenever one of their family members or friends would stop by (they all live near each other and hang out without planning) I was told that I look like a 16 year old. Even the little kids who were literally in middle school were saying I looked 18 at most. I don't consider it a compliment. I feel like it's used to belittle me in some weird way, the same way they all said I was short even though I'm literally 5'4. I dress so fucking normal, and even sophisticated, that it's not even funny. I want to look like I'm in my mid 20s.

No. 621041

>>621039
Or maybe the hate is because people like you can't stop blogposting about your 'suffering'. Would it literally kill you forever young uwu babyfaces to keep it to yourself for once?

No. 621043

>>621039
Kek I think people watch too much tv. Adults are playing teens and when actual teens are on tv they look like children.

No. 621044

>>621039
I don't think kids have an accurate idea of what adults look like. Someone at your age is still young tbh so there's not always going to be a huge difference

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>>621039
Except add in the fact that you're also a "omgzzz im like actually 5'4"

No. 621070

>>621066
This is how I feel about r/abrathatfits and half of them come in claiming they're 22KKs

No. 621086

This BLM stuff has made me really hate Americans for spreading their garbage culture around the world. Especially second hand embarrassed towards white Americans who take the knee and all that shit. So pathetic.

No. 621087

>>621086
I feel like this is bait, but can you elaborate on "spreading their garbage culture all over the world"? Not saying this is what you said but, I hear non-Americans talk about how our issues are in the news in other countries and stuff but we can't control that so idk what the issue is with us talking about the problems in our country.

No. 621089

God do I hate the word "smol" and people who describe themselves as such. Talked to a friend of mine who is 4'5 and we discussed cars and her limited car choices. She described herself as smol for the time first time ever today, she normally calls herself short or small but never smol. I hope she doesn't hit me with that "uwu smol bean" shit

No. 621091

>>621089
I mean at 4'5 she gets that right ahaha, better than 5'3 girls calling themselves smol

No. 621095

>>621086
I wish white Americans would go back to their countries tbh

No. 621097

Banter with my ex still has me wet and rubbing myself like a damn horny 16 yo, 10+ years later.
I love it and really hate it at the same time.

No. 621098

>>621087
Sex, drugs, pornography, hedonism, being disrespectful to your family and elders, objectification, normalization of things like "sex work", petty partisan political hatreds, obsession with finding "racist" meaning in everything.

Every American I've met online thinks taking drugs is a personality trait and will unironically call people who aren't interested in them "boring" or "losers". Such a sad, pathetic culture. Sooner China takes no. 1 spot the better. I'm not even joking. Their culture has done so much damage.

No. 621099

>>621086
Be mad at liberal Americans. A solid majority of us don’t agree with BLM or any of that shit.

No. 621100

>>621095
We don't want them. There's nothing European about them.

>>621098
Also to add on to this: worshipping ignorance, creating the culture where stupid, macho, muscular men are considered the cool ones and more studious men and women are considered losers, reality TV, celebrity worship etc.

>>621099
65% of Americans support BLM. Do not cope.

No. 621101

I wish white people never came to the Americas, or at least that they didn't kill a majority of the native population as a result. We may be third world as a result but that's okay.

No. 621103

>>621101
Who is "we"? Latinos are delusional LARPers who think they're American Indians.

No. 621106

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>>621100
Seeing America's descent into a country where Red Team wants to kill Blue Team (vice versa), where prostitution is being genuinely shilled as a career choice by the MSM, where everyone is up to their eyeballs in consumer debt, where cities are allowed to burn down without the slightest semblance of law enforcement, where politics is so dysfunctional it doesn't even make a token effort to appear as anything more than polarized hysteria… It's both surreal and satisfying.

America is an autistic faggot perched on a custom chopper made out of legos with a gay black man riding on the back destroying everything in its path while spraying body glitter, anal lube, AIDS blood, and vomit in all directions. Realizing they really are "The Great Satan" is a sobering realization indeed.(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)

No. 621113

look like death, am losing hair and had a major set-back. But it could be worse. at least I'm feeling better again. Now I just need to make sure I have a better day on my departure and don't ruin it again

No. 621116

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>>621086
>Especially second hand embarrassed towards white Americans who take the knee and all that shit.
I really thought the image was a joke/photoshop when I first saw it.

No. 621125

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For some reason I can’t bring myself to be attracted to any man I’ve ever met. I only ever feel romantic attraction for women, and it’s pissing me off because I live in a very conservative area, so nearly everyone is either straight or a closet lesbian but I can never tell. Damnit I just want a cute gf! Every guy that’s been trying to get my attention is either ugly or boring. I can’t even pretend to like these guys, I live near the country side so over half the guys have this stupid country accent that makes me die inside.

No. 621129

I have no idea how to articulate what I'm talking about but I'm going to try. I really struggle with feeling effortlessly feminine, or having like "feminine energy." I see other women and perceive them as having something effortless and natural about them that makes them beautiful and admirable to me, regardless of what they actually look like physically. I see other women and wonder how they always look clean and lovely (once again, not really talking about physical looks) and I feel like I'm missing something. Like I don't have something that other women effortlessly have. As if no matter what I do or how put together I am, I'll always be kind of wrong and unfeminine. It's not like I'm a gross person– I have good hygiene, really enjoy beauty, makeup, fashion, etc.– but somehow I never feel enough like a "real" woman who has that natural radiance. I've tried to buy more perfume, jewelry, lotions, and so on in the hopes that it will help me feel feminine and beautiful on the inside too. But I just feel like I'm missing something fundamental.

No. 621140

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sorry ahead of time for an EXTRA dumbass bitch vent but i need to yell into some sort of void and i haven't been on here in months (good thing probably) but sometimes it's a nice place to vent about really stupid shit

anyway my teeth are singlehandedly ruining my self-esteem and psyche and well-being and it is irreversible and all my fault. i feel like everyone tells me they're fine just because they're straight and not rotten. people disagreeing with or "not noticing" that they're unusually tiny feels like a lie to make me feel better. a decade of neglect, EDs, a sweet tooth, knowing i grind my teeth but not wearing my nightguard, and constantly chipping them has left them embarrassingly thin, short, and jagged and transparent at the ends. they hurt so easily and no amount of care I give to them now can reverse it. looking at the rare candid photo of me smiling with teeth, the difference between like, 2-3 years ago and now is devastating, especially because i've been taking care of them way more the last couple years to apparently no avail. i have like zero enamel probably.

covid and personal health issues are not helping either because my appearance as a whole has plummeted since march. i let myself go like COMPLETELY lol. my body sucks and i'm weirdly skinnyfat and my hair is gross and i'm getting fine undereye lines and i can't tell if they're temporary or a cruel fucked up premature aging thing, but like those are things i can still fix somewhat because i'm young (ancient by weird farmer standards but whatever), i can lose 10 pounds and invest in better skincare and get in shape or whatever, it's doable…. the teeth are harder. i have to pay to fix them and i CAN'T. i literally JUST aged out of my healthcare, in the middle of a pandemic, on furlough from a job that would never give me insurance given my position. if i just got like, a crown lengthening and the ends filed down i might be okay but they're still fragile. tooth bonding seems sketchy/ not permanent enough and i hate the look of big hollywood veneers (which i'd never be able to afford right now anyway lol) and i actually used to like having small teeth. i thought small teeth with slight sharp incisors and a couple chips here and there was cute on me, i have a small face and they fit that way better than big white chiclets, but that was back when my teeth were naturally small, now they're like. eerie. and i'm the only one who seems to notice??? aside from my dentist who always unintentionally makes me feel ugly as fuck??? I know i'm dysmorphic about other dumb physical shit but I'm NOT crazy about how my teeth look. i even think them being smaller has made my mouth/ lips smaller and more awkward, which fucks my whole face up. i don;'t know. maybe i'm going crazy from the intense solitude of quarantine and maybe it's ~shallow~ of me to place so much importance on looks but i can't help it, I genuinely finally was totally happy with myself physically only 2 years ago and all of the sudden my looks are slipping away so fast and early that it feels like i'll never get them back, like ever. 26 is too young to lose everything before i ever got to really peak in life.

it's also particul arly frustrating because i feel like no one i've ever met my age has had problems like, involving their teeth. no one i know can relate to it so i just bottle it up and let it fester and it fucking sucks. idk if i should have posted this here or the dumbass shit thread or the drunk thread but it's lame either way so whatever

No. 621143

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for the past few days, for whatever reason, I've suddenly been missing my ex. I keep telling myself this feeling will pass…it has to right? Fucking hell right now I'd give anything to hear his laugh.

No. 621148

i'm on good terms with my ex and we're geographically separated so it's all safe, but god i feel dumb when i message him just a little too much. i hope i'm not overstepping boundaries. yesterday i sent him a few unimportant instagram messages, a snap and popped into his twitch stream… i feel like it's too much from one person in one day when he's probably still hurting. dammit. i need to think before messaging people…

No. 621149

>>621129
this is going to sound trite but i guarantee that someone has probably felt that way about you, even if it was some vague quality they felt you have that they don't, maybe something they couldn't put their finger on or some hangup that's more specific to them. beauty products won't give you what you feel you need that might seem effortless to others.
it might help to get yourself out of your own head and just live in the moment. maybe engage in some new hobbies or activities which will help you teach yourself new skills to build your confidence and self worth while distracting you from cycles of rumination or comparing yourself to others. if you seek fulfilling pastimes on a regular basis and build mastery over new skills while forming meaningful connections with people (maybe women, in this case) someday you won't feel that lack anymore.
sorry if you weren't seeking advice, i hope you find peace, anon.

No. 621153

>>621087
Nayrt but re: the news it’s irritating that Americans constantly focus on themselves. Fair enough with BLM and Trump, that’s your shit, but in conversations about world current events Americans are always centering themselves. Belarus is currently fighting to get rid of their 26 year old dictatorship and most Americans on twitter were saying shit like “this could be us if Trump gets in again!”. A UK city recently wanted to start penalising homeless people with massive fines and American Twitter was saying it was a step toward what the States is like… ignorant of the fact homelessness has been illegal and punishable in the UK for 200 years already

I don’t hate Americans but I never see so many people of any other nationality seemingly unable to comment on something without inserting themselves

No. 621158

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Gotta just get this out before I go to bed. I have pet rats, 4 of them. One, who is my oldest golden child, named Pumpkin has just passed away. She's always had a shitty respiratory system, as a lot of rats do, but meds never really worked for her. So we would give her the usual antibiotics. I gave her some other supplements to try and help her out, cordyceps (a type of mushroom) might have been helping her, if not, no harm done (gave it to her on and off). She was having little gasping attacks over the last month and a bit, but they went down and I'd just run a hot shower to let her try to open her little lungs. This worked decently.

So tonight, I was working out and stretching and sometimes when she looks like she wants to cuddle, I'll just pop her out and have her on my body while stretching. She sometimes goes for it, but other times I feel like she wants all the attention, so I she makes her way back to the cage. So I let her back in and continue on with my stretching. My other girls are grooming her pretty aggressively, but they do that to each other and it wasn't just them ganging up on her. So I'm JUST about nearing the end of my splits stretching, when I notice one of the girls, Squirelly, intensely grooming her. I say to be nice (maybe they get it, doubt it) and she keeps going. I try to finish up, when Pumpkin had a gasping attack.

I bolt up and open the cage, grab her and bring her to the bathroom. I got the shower going to get some warm moist air for her to breathe in and I'm petting her and telling her everything is going to be alright and if she has to, she can leave if its too hard, but I don't think she was ready. So I try doing some "CPR" to try to maybe kickstart her breathing and get her little heart pumping. I didn't think it would work but it was what option I had at this time of night. I try for over 10 minutes (I know she was gone, but I just wanted to make sure I tried). I broke down and sobbed, the sweetest little rat just died in my hands. I'm happy I could be there for her and be with her till her end, but its just fucked up. I kept trying CPR since I just didn't want to give up, grabbed my stethoscope and check her heartbeat, there was nothing. Everything just hurts right now. I went to my husband to tell him since I didn't know what to do and I had to get her in the freezer or the fridge and delay any decomposition. I talked with him for a bit and told him everything, he's telling me not to hate the other girls, which I just feel done right now. I don't even want rats now, I won't get rid of them, but seeing it all take place really makes me so upset.

She was the elder, she was an old rat, the other rats don't even want affection. I get they probably desire some form of attention and were maybe even jealous, but they don't want to be held and cuddled. They've always been like this since I got them at the SPCA, doesn't help most girl rats are usually more active than boys. Pumpkin right off the bat was interested along with her sister/mom. They were abandoned in a cardboard box in the back of a pet store. They never got used to cardboard.

So I'm here now. My baby girl is in the fridge and she's probably going to become a Monstera plant tomorrow, which need to be re potted anyways. The kicker is, I already lost a pet today. My hamster Turnip died of old age earlier today. I wish Pumpkin would've gone out as she did, Turnip looked peaceful, died in her sleep. Don't worry, I'm no Taylor Nicole Dean, I'm not hoarding. I only have the 3 other rats now.

Thank you to anyone who reads this and to having this thread as an option to just get it all out. Pic related, comfy baby. I love you

No. 621161

>>621158
Condolences, anon. It must really hurt. Pumpkin looks like a lovely little lady. Take it easy these next few days.

No. 621162

Watching one of my closest college friends devolve into this miserable, constantly preachy person who thinks she's in a race with us to be the first to figure out what's problematic about a popular piece of media, makes me wonder if some people are just determined to not have fun.

No. 621167

>>621158
I'm really sorry about both of your losses, anon. Your other rats probably weren't trying to hurt her, Pumpkin may have just been overwhelmed. I'm sure she was grateful to have someone like you as an owner.

No. 621170

>>620985
Sorry anon, sounds like dementia.

No. 621189

I really wish websites would automatically delete accounts that haven't been logged into in years.
My first facebook account from when I was 13(a decade ago) and stopped using when I was 15 still exists. I don't remember the password or what email I used when I was 13 so there is absolutely no way for me to deactivate/delete the account so god only knows what kind of shit is in there. I hope with all my heart facebook never automatically makes pages public, otherwise I'd have to change my goddamn name since most employers look you up on the internet.
Also annoying when my relatives, who I have told a billion times I don't use facebook and haven't for years, get angry because I didn't thank them for wishing me happy birthday or didn't answer a message.

No. 621206

My only 2 bffs can really fuck me off sometimes.

So it happens at random, maybe a few times a month. But we always lightly make fun of each other and our mannerisms/proclivities. But sometimes I'll say something that's not out of pocket and mild, but the person it was direct to is like "or are you mad today? Uncalled for" then the other will quote what I said and say something like "wow cruel". And worst thing is THEY DON'T SAY WHY. I'm like wait what? Is what I said that bad? Why? and they don't reply to that!!

It's like they just decide to mildly gaslight me on that particular issue, OR I'm autistic and don't know how callously my words come off, yet if that were the case, why would they shut up if I asked for details on why it was sooo mean?! So I can then sperg out on why they're suddenly so quiet and I might get some exasperated emoji, then I'm left wondering are they astounded at my lack of common sense or are being deliberately non confrontational because it really has no base? And it's not like I can get relief from it because it's 2v1, there's no other perspective besides their vs. mine.

At this point I just mute the chat. This never happens interacting with them irl because I can directly confront them and they can't hide behind screens.

No. 621243

>>621162
Usually people like this have something fundamentally wrong in their lives and the only way they can experience personal validation and feeling of fulfillment is to police what others do and kick them while they're down. Most of my snowflakey friends are thoroughly miserable people in general.

No. 621244

I was feeling pretty good with my overall appearance these days but when to an event today where someone was using a GoPro that has that kind of fish eye effect, and in every picture it feels like my beak of a nose is humongous.

I never felt so ugly in my life.
Pretty funny considering I just watched that Pretty Pastel Pink (or whatever her name is) video where she shows off how her nose got massively fucked up after a nose job.

I’m sad cause mine is even cute from the front but from the side or a weird top angle, and combined with my thin face, it just makes me look so not feminine. I don’t wanna fuck it up with surgery but it did really fucked up my confidence.

No. 621252

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I am so frustrated . Here's some birth control for you anons. I hate chasing my son around, he is learning to walk and crawl around. I stay home while his dad/my husband works. Oh my god I miss when he didn't know how to get into shit!! He crawls away from his playmat and tries eating objects I didn't even know were on the floor. He can stand now, by holding himself up on coffee tables, chairs, etc. It's cool but he falls on his back and it's always scary. When i put him in his playpen, he screams for me. I just wanna do my own thing without chasing him around. When I sit and try to play with him, or even change his diapers or outfit, give him a bath, anything, he just scitters away. I wake up to my son's crying, and i fall asleep late because I know I should be getting sleep, but I love being awake in a still, quiet house. There are my very few,mice moments I get. Anyways lack of sleep, chasing some child around, having to clean while chasing said child around, along with my tard dog, and taking care of her. It just likes a lot on my plate. I go to bed disgruntled, i wake up disappointed and exasperated, i feel like shit all the time. I know what's causing my stress but I can't fix it, all I can do is cry in my bath at 4 am, because it never goes away. I don't want to feel my blood pressure going up for one day,
Do any of my guys have tips for stres

No. 621254

I remember a guy I used to hooked with said, he doesnt see it as worth it to be in a relationship with a womwn who isnt a 10 but still wants sex.

I dont understand, I'd all these men want is sex why not just pay for a hooker. After covid hes been having a hard time getting laid/attention and is trying to get me to hangout with him and that's a no…go pay a hooker at least she will be hot. I'm not a free escort anymore.

No. 621257

>>621158
I'm so sorry. Rats are wonderful pets, unfortunate their lifespans are so short. The monstera plan sounds really nice, you seem like a great owner. RIP to Turnip and Pumpkin

>>621143
It's normal to miss any people who have been significant in your life anon. It should pass, don't worry.

No. 621262

>>621252
sorry to ask, but have you asked your partner or your parents/other relatives to take the kid off of you for some time so you can relax? It's ok to be overwhelmed as a mother and time off could help you to regain some energy.

No. 621265

>>621262
A lot of men think if they work they shouldnt have to help with their kids so that's probably the case here

No. 621282

>>621265
If I were men I would think the same thing.

No. 621290

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I'm about to go into my first day of work and I'm finishing my breakfast outside and it's so fucking humid. My hair is ruined and I really need to coffee shit.

I've been so spoiled from not having to give a crap about my appearance during quarantine.

No. 621292

>>614253
>>621039
kek, just the response this post got literally proves most of you are bitter bitches. I look like a fucking tall ogre but anon literally stated she understands why there's a hatred for people who talk about being young on here. She was venting, on a vent thread. Also she acknowledged that 5'4 ISN'T short, which is why she's mad that it's even considered so to some.

The corniness intensifies around August on here.

No. 621313

>>621041
This. Whenever you call them out they immediately act as if it's you who cares too much. If it supposedly isn't that big of a deal for you anyway, then why constantly mention it? It's annoying af. Many of us are the exact opposite, is it really so difficult to comprehend why having to listen to girls complaining about looking perfect is frustrating? Being young, skinny, feminine, short has been the prefered standard for women since millenia, nobody is gonna feel sorry for you if you fit the ideal, your "problem" is a non-issue.
Before anybody accuses me, yes, I fully admit that I'm jealous, but that doesn't mean that you have to rub it in even further. Anons on here claim to be given coloring books in restaurants when they're 35, while I was able to buy alcohol when I was just 13, guess that means I look like 50 now? Please just stop.

No. 621315

>>621039
> There's a huge hate on here for people who claim to look younger than their age
I've posted before about the fact that mentally I don't feel my age. Like it's trippy to me when I stop and think about it. So I posted here (probably in the stupid shit thread or similar) just about that trippy feeling and I happened to mention that me looking younger might contribute to it too… was not expecting the heated reaction that I got. It's pretty nuts

No. 621336

>>621252
Do yourself a favour and babyproof whichever room/s you spend most time in. Anything except for toys out of reach. Close the door or put a gate on. Maybe put a rug down if you have wood floors. Accept that it’s normal to fall and have accidents, obviously try to limit the amount and make the landing soft but it’s just part of being a baby. If you need to do shit like clean, put him in the playpen. He will cry but he needs to learn that he can’t do what he wants all the time and the more you do it, the more he will accept it. Obviously he needs to be bathed and changed but if he doesn’t want to play, leave him alone. Tempt him to play by ‘playing’ with his toys yourself but don’t force him (speak to your dr if you’re worried about this). Ask for help from family, or see if childcare is an option. Even a few hours a week could help. And for the love of god ask your husband to help out because it’s his kid too and you shouldn’t be on duty literally 24/7

No. 621338

>>621313
They can still complain about how they look though? Just because you're jealous doesn't mean looking young for your age isn't an issue for those people. Wtf is wrong with y'all on here.

No. 621341

>>621041
>>621313
If it comes down to having a pre-existing sensitivity around the subject of aging where it's personal and sets off a strong reaction then just ignore those posts instead of engaging. I have a trigger subject on here and I never engage with anything that hits my 'jealosy button' because I'd only be projecting my own shit onto strangers.

My mom is dead, I'd give anything to have her here. So posts bitching about petty-ish stuff with moms can get to me. I don't respond though. They're allowed to complain about an annoying or overbearing mom. Opposite problems exist.

No. 621342

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It's so annoying to me when people support stuff like what David Blaine is doing. Some relatively innocent tricks like drinking a lot of water just to swallow frogs and vomit it still alive, I guess go ahead. But the shit with burying himself alive, or freezing himself until the point of almost dying is just retarded. People crowd to watch him do this shit but what do they want to see? Him killing himself I suppose, because what else would be interesting in a man buried alive or whatever? And he is clearly addiccted to adrenaline as a junkie would be addicted to heroine, so enabling him by giving him a platform just feels wrong. Reminds me of that one guy who was climbing buildings with no additional security and taking harder and harder challenges for more money and attention until he just killed himself in the process. But I'm sure people watching him in the moment had a very exciting day.

No. 621349

>>621338
tbh most of these "babyfaces" don't look young in the first place. people just have a warped idea of how adults look so anyone who's not wrinkly/gaunt is young

No. 621368

>>614253
>>621338
thank you. I have NEVER posted on here about my looks or responded to anyone else before, but it's crazy how when it comes to appearances, people can't handle differing life experiences and cannot wrap their head around why being the opposite of whatever their experiencing can be a bad thing.

On my first day of work I showed up to the office before any coworkers and my boss was with me and introduced me when they arrived. The boss has a daughter who wasn't there but I guess shows up every once in a while. The girl coworker came in and when I was introduced she started laughing and goes "oh , I thought this was your daughter's friend" which would have been fine if it didn't become a running joke in my office that I'm the little kid they all have to babysit. Yes, this is a real joke. I have more qualifications than them. Fucking eat shit if you think that's not a legitimate thing to be upset about.

No. 621379

>>621315
I think it's hilarious how triggered they get

No. 621384

My boyfriend is friends with this girl who he shared a flat with in his first year of uni. She's now an air hostess who brags about how amazing her job is when I used to see her. I find her kind of annoying, all she does is talk about herself, my boyfriend doesn't mind it and likes hearing about her cool job.
She also bragged about how many tinder matches she gets (she said about 300 matches in a day) my boyfriend and his best friend were really impressed by this even though she would have have to be swiping to match with them anyway???
Anyway, apparently I look like one of their old flatmates and she showed me a picture of a girl who looks nothing like me at all and I was kind of like ehh ok haha I guess? She then proceeds to keep calling me by this old flatmates name and I found it really rude.
I tried bringing this up to my boyfriend privately but he found nothing wrong with it.

This happened ages ago before lockdown but am I just crazy and judgemental ladies??? Or am I right this is annoying behaviour.
This girl looks like Alison Williams pretty much exactly for reference.
She also behaves like a typical pick me and is only friends with boys.

No. 621386

>>621384
your boyfriend sounds like a catch.

No. 621387

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No. 621394

>>621384
I googled her celebrity doppleganger and she has crazy eyes.

No. 621395

Weebs on this website suffer from brain rot

No. 621396

>>621368
I've been ok in the workplace but I bought a house two years ago and my ex bf drove me out to view the place. We were already fully broken up but on good terms and he even had a new girl.

I think part of this was age related (me looking younger and my ex looking about his age) and partly a gender thing too. But the man showing me the house was mostly talking to my ex. I had introduced my ex as 'just a friend' I told him that my friend was just kind enough to drive me there. I was the one buying a house solo and I asked all the relevant questions. He would answer each question but then direct his attention right back to my friend..and I eventually asked my friend to fake taking a phone call outside. I felt like a kid being overlooked during the biggest fucking purchase of my life lol. I was 29 at the time and on the drive home I went over the experience in my head, my ex said he had felt like my dad during the viewing. It had that weird dynamic.

No. 621403

>>621384
Fight her

No. 621412

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>make a lot of friends on tumblr at its height
>shitpost, meme, eventually doing phone calls, gaming, exchanging mail
>meet up with a few IRL and get along like best friends
>we all move to twitter as tumblr dies off
>literally all friends except for one now sperg out constantly about tranny rights and punching nazis
>am terf. brush it off as retard trend-hopping
>spergouts increase in intensity. friends now doxing terfs, getting them fired, and calling for beating them in public
>"my pronoun this week is xe and if you can't remember my new fake name then kill yourself"
>"did you know that tweet you liked was posted by someone who's following an anti-inclusionist acephobe??? apologize to me"
>eventually block them all for being impossible to talk to except for the one friend
>tfw 8 years down the drain because of retarded twitter sjws
>tfw I don't want to make friends anymore not knowing who's a batshit crazy cow who will get me blacklisted from my field for not agreeing with them on fringe political issues
>tfw my one friend I have left will abandon me soon because her best friend is an extremist trans ally who will threaten her when she finds out she talks to me

No. 621422

>>621412
>batshit crazy cow who will get me blacklisted from my field
Delete your twitter, you dumbass. You're ruining your own life for fucking memes?

No. 621424

>>621412
This is why cancel culture fucking sucks. It trickles down into friendships and creates these spaces where even when these freaks finally go outside, they're still coddled. I'm so sorry this happened to you, anon. I hope your one friend still stays sane and friends with you.

No. 621432

>>621158
Anon you sound so sweet and caring, Pumpkin was so lucky to have you. >>621170
His mom had either dementia or Alzheimer’s, and I know the symptoms are showing in his mood swings. I’ve mentioned this to my mom but she doesn’t want to acknowledge it. I love them, but my family is a bunch of ostriches.

No. 621435

>>620846
i have never understood this whole "leaving the package out for anyone to steal" thing, here where i live if you're not home when you're getting a package delivered at your door they will leave you a note to come and pick it up from the post office or some other place that handles packages. or the package gets sent one of these locations in the first place.

No. 621441

>>621422
I'm talking about real life. I've had to dodge two of these types at a new job. I don't even use twitter anymore.

No. 621447

>>621441
Meh, they can’t prove shit if you’re not active online. Those people are misery embodied. Don’t engage.

No. 621449

I am literally the most embarrassing person to ever live.

No. 621455

>>621449
Same, lmao, I just said something dumb.

No. 621470

>>621449
You're only thinking that because you haven't met me, anon. I'd easily outembarass anyone

No. 621473

I am ruled by fear

No. 621476

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Ugh I hate pick-mes. I’m trying to have a conversation with them, but they’re always like “what about the men’s!?!??” Fucking shut up I feel like I’m talking to a wall. Idek why I bother. They don’t even contribute to the conversation. She even has the audacity to say calm down when I’m talking about something I’m passionate about

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So my only friend is cutting me off, because I'm not putting enough effort into our friendship as she has and she feels she cannot count on me. The worst thing is that she's right, and the whole situation has got me reflecting on things.
I HATE intimacy. I detest opening up and being vulnerable. I think this was one of the main causes of it all going to shit. Even if my roommate is asking me personal questions I try to steer the conversation away to impersonal, safe things like politics, worldnews, fashion, etc. I genuinely feel like relationships and intimacy is like a language I cannot fucking speak.
Serious question, is there like a website where one can read about the unwritten rules of friendships or relationships in general?? Or about emotional intelligence or something? I feel like I really fucking need it

No. 621481

>>621480
>I genuinely feel like relationships and intimacy is like a language I cannot fucking speak.
yikes are you me

No. 621484

>>621476
> calm down when I’m talking about something I’m passionate about
I hate when people do this. Fuck scrotes and fuck pickmes.

No. 621487

I just got a car and I am NOT ready for the responsibility of owning this vehicle. I'll do my registration and pay my insurance thats no issue but god this shit is so expensive and the fear I may do something stupid because my brain loves to leave my body when the fear takes over im not mature enough for this even though in like early 20's so wtf..cars, planes, anything that goes scares me I wish I could live and never leave my home but money calls I guess

No. 621488

My friend invited me to his summer home in the mountains last week and told me to let him know two days in advance before coming. I texted him a few days ago and all day today asking if Friday is good, but didn't reply even though I could see he was online. I even called him twice and he didn't pick up. Now I can't stop overthinking it because that's what I always do when someone ghosts me or ignores me. Why do I feel like I did something wrong even though I know I didn't?

No. 621490

>>621473
Same but the times I’ve let my guard down, the worst shit always happens so fuck that

No. 621491

>>621480
Have you tried explaining that to her? That you hate intimacy and feel like it's something you struggle to innately understand, but that it's something you want to try and work on? She may be a lot more understanding if she knows that's where you're coming from. From her perspective it just may seem like you're disinterested and don't really care which obviously isn't the case.

No. 621498

I hate the way suddenly every middle aged person has schizophrenia and believes some deranged conspiracy theory

No. 621507

I'm constantly torn between wanting to "put effort" into my appearance in the conventional way, ie wear makeup and do my hair daily, versus wearing none and letting my hair air-dry and remain flat, pinning my bangs back instead of styling them to look cute.

I guess I look fine and wear good enough clothes for work and errands, but I don't know, anons, how much effort is appropriate to put into going in public? I live in America, and everyone is so scrubby that I feel fine doing the minimum and I'm happy to be comfortable with my bare face, but I also admire countries and periods of time where everyone put effort into their appearance. Namely Japan–I love their comfy but cute street style. Is there a happy medium?

No. 621509

>>621507
Samefag but not an idealistic weeb btw, I've lived in and recently visited Japan and it stuck out as a major difference to America.

No. 621511

>>621435
NTA, but they don't do that in the US. Here, packages are always left either at your front door, on your porch, or (if small enough, and you have one) in your mailbox. If it gets stolen in between the time it's dropped off and the time you arrive back home, neither the delivery service, vendor, or website you got it from has to take any responsibility. It's fucked up.

No. 621512

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Grrrr I bought a really cute shirt last week but the weather has suddenly been so shit these past few days that I can't wear it or I'll freeze, just wanna wear my cute top damnit!

No. 621514

>>621511
My god that's fucked. I'd never order anything online if they'd leave packages on the porch. Next time I find a note saying my package has been taken to the post office for me to pick it up there, I'll take a moment to appreceite it not being left on my doorstep instead of being annoyed about it lel

No. 621518

>>621514
Are you in the uk? Some couriers here are bad for it too, when I order stuff I always pray they won't use certain courier compainies. Hermes is the worst

No. 621525

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There are no words to accurately capture my frustration with brainwashed americans who think there’s a difference between mail in voting and absentee voting besides their names and why they think all the hoops some people are forced to jump through to exercise their bare minimum right to vote is justified.

No. 621526

I suddenly, out of nowhere, had a breakdown and started crying when I realized I don't matter to anyone but probably my mom and my existence is meaningless and nobody will ever give a shit about my achievements thus making them meaningless too

No. 621546

I am a dumb person. Like actual low IQ dumb. I can't do basic math, can't read a map, can't tell you what direction East or West is, etc. I'm always the last person to understand a joke or figure out a brain teaser. I mistake my right from my left at times. I'm not qualified for most jobs and I have no idea how I'm going to survive once I graduate college. My life is an abject joke and I have no idea why I even bother to get up in the morning.

No. 621547

Rained all day. I put off finishing my thesis to stare at the wall or something, I don't know how all this time today disappeared. I did literally nothing and yet here we are, it's already the evening. I feel like some drinking would cheer me up but there's no alcohol at the house. There's also no bread and I'm sure I won't buy it tomorrow, too. I don't want to go shopping. I'll just eat scrambled eggs for breakfast, I guess. My head hurts but it's like only half physical pain. The balcony door is wide open and I can hear it rains again. It's cold but I like it. I'm visitting my boyfriend on Friday. Last time when I slept over, in the early morning he told me he loves me and it was the first time any of us spoke about love, and I pretended I was asleep. At this point I'm not sure if that wasn't a dream. I should have answered but I didn't. I'm irritated, my cats keep meowing and begging for food even though I just fed them, they irritate me so much with the constant begging I feel like crying. I can feel myself slipping. End of the stream of consciousness

No. 621549

i hate being a fuckin weak ass hoe im letting myself get berated omly bc im wet for this dude hes commenting on how i should dress n wear my hair!! JGRG im gonna die

No. 621553

>>621549
Girl if you don't love yourself

No. 621554

>>621549
If he cares that much about womens clothing and hair maybe he should troon out… I used to tell my ex that when he pointed out random women to me to make fun of their clothes

No. 621555

>>621526
Yeah but you're not alone in that regard. That describes millions of people. Maybe there's comfort in that. Also, that can change some day.

No. 621556

>>621553
>>621553
im such a beta lil bitch for letting myself take this shit!! he commenting on how he want a cute asina gf n im like i could never be her why am i like this why do i like beta males

No. 621557

>>621556
BITCH lmao!!! 1) are you Asian and 2) I just…what is the appeal, please tell me so I can virtually kick your ass.

No. 621560

>>621526
I watched a vid earlier where a youtuber had (pretty minor) cosmetic surgery and for two weeks afterwards she was vlogging the healing time surrounded by friends, family and her partner all helping her… shit if I had major surgery tomorrow I would be screwed. I don't have anyone.

No. 621564

>>621556
ghost him plz

No. 621574

>>621546
Have you been tested for dyslexia or autism? Not joking. You’re in college, you’re hardly retarded

No. 621576

>>621557
Im not asian n We live in a area w low Asian population. He prolly don’t know I’m into him and … Idk Why I’m into him to begin w

No. 621579

>>621576
Legit only reason I like him is he has longish hair n my mind loves abusive men :/(:/)

No. 621580

Why the fuck do Americans buy into conspiracies so hard? They all think they're the smartest person in the world by telling everyone masks don't work and you're a puppet it you wear one. I live in America so idk how other countries are dealing with it but I imagine they're smarter than all these dipshits. Dude at work told me he doesn't drink water because his exotic ocean fish can't drink it out of tap so there must be something sinister in it that hurts humans. People are so fucking retarded, I hope we destroy ourselves and smarter people can take over.

No. 621590

>>621580
There seems to be a whole cultural difference there about truth that I don't understand the root of.
The commercials are allowed to lie, product packaging is allowed to be misleading even though the US already has such low safety laws. Schools annd films straight up teach inaccuracies about the history of America and world wars etc. Shops pipe in fake smells.
It's no wonder they're obsessed with hidden secret truths.

No. 621594

>>621511
Dang, where I live packages are left at the front of our apartment building and nobody steals them. I saw a large package left for around a week, it was from a tech website, I think it was an actual computer. Our apartments are right next to a busy road, but afaik it never got stolen, I think the neighbours were just on holiday. I've had huge packages delivered while I was out the entire day at work and it's sitting there for me. It makes me a little uneasy because there probably are package opportunists out there, but it's crazy to think it's so frequent in America.

I guess i'm just bragging kek

No. 621596

>>621549
>>621576
>>621579
Integrate, you already look dumb admitting to liking an abusive man because of his hair, don't make it worse by typing like that and using emotes.

No. 621597

i need a second monitor, it takes me twice as long doing my hw because i have to keep opening and closing tabs

No. 621598

>>621580
To be fair, we are lied to. A lot.

No. 621600

sorry for anachan sperging in advance
i’m so annoyed at my autist family member who is an extremely picky eater and basically eats the same 3 things (grilled cheese, kale and apples) everyday. for a few years she wasn’t as picky for some reason and ended up gorging herself to the point of obesity but now she’s back to eating probably well under 1000 cal a day and it’s triggering the shit out of my ED and i’m starting to slip pretty badly. I feel so pathetic for turning this into a one sided competition

No. 621608

>>621580
I think stupid people who buy into conspiracies exist everywhere but as a burger myself, I do agree it’s gotten really bad in the U.S the last 5-10 years or so. I blame SM and the current political climate. I hate how everything now has to tie into some grand conspiracy. Take Jeffrey Epstein for instance. Don’t get me wrong, I’m glad he and his disgusting actions were finally exposed but it paved the way for a bunch of retarded shit that makes absolutely no sense, like the Wayfair conspiracy for instance.

Also 100% agree with you on conspiratards coming off as smug and thinking they’re smarter than they actually are. I think a lot of these people feel insecure about their knowledge so instead of actually educating themselves, they latch onto some crackpot theory and take on the “Wake up, sheeple” stance. There’s also a lot of virtue signaling among conspiratards, particular among the ones who screech about child trafficking (even though I highly doubt they actually give a shit about real child trafficking. They just want to see feel morally superior).

No. 621610

>>621580
Think someone else here has mentioned 'dr grande' before but he covers mental health topics on youube. I noticed lately he's been covering topics like that (gang stalking conspiracy, anti maskers, other conspiracy type stuff) and he has attracted a certain crowd in the comments defending that shit and calling people sheeple… it's a video on mental health by a mental health professional and all they can say in reply is..sheeple.

He brought up social media and how years ago delusional people had no support network of other delusionals. You only had your family and they'd tell you to go to a doctor, end of the conversation back then.

No. 621630

I really want to go show support for my local abortion right's group who are protesting a pro-life politician coming to town but they're making it a "drive by" protest due to covid, meaning they want us to decorate our cars with pro-choice stuff and make nuisance by honking.
I have a very distinct and recognizable sports car and I can't go to this now, unless I want my tires slashed and my paint keyed. Maybe even followed around whenever I drive.

The woman who runs this group is honestly a fucking idiot. She strikes me as an egomaniac who loves unnecessary confrontation by the way she (poorly) runs our clinic volunteer chapter, and then promoting half-baked events like these without considering our safety. We've got psychos who stalk our clinic videoing us on their phones and uploading to YouTube when we're outside just trying to guide the patients, you can bet your last dollar that those same people will be at that rally looking to video tape our cars, faces, and license plates.
What's it gonna take for this woman to get smart?

No. 621636

I'm not 100% sure why, but ever since we went into lock down, my self-esteem has completely tanked. I cannot for the life of me convince myself that I am competent at anything. I hadn't self-harmed in years and now I'm doing so again on an almost monthly basis. I'm about to graduate and can't imagine looking for work with the state of the economy right now. Additionally, I don't think I'm a competitive candidate for any of the positions I'm interested in. I studied the wrong degree for what I actually want to do and by the time I realized that, it was too late to change it. Just reading some of these job listings makes me want to off myself. I just took one of those stupid Indeed tests for a skill that I thought I was really good at and only scored "proficient." I want to die.

No. 621641

>>621630
That sounds like a shit-show and not worth the stress, honestly. Is there another way you can show your support to the movement without being part of this chapter specifically?

No. 621649

>>621630
Abortion only became legal where I am 3ish years ago, it was decided by public vote. 3 years later I still see cars with those stickers up saying we should remain without abortion or those BS stickers of a practically 9 month fetus saying it's going to grow up and do great things if you just let it live… 3 fucking years and they want us to somehow revote and just go backwards after it already went ahead.

Yeah car stickers are for either passive aggressive cunts or it's asking to get your car keyed. It's too heated of a topic to risk your car on it.

No. 621704

I'm really tired of not being able to voice behavior that hurts me without something shitty I did being thrown back in my face. I have tried to make up for those things. I don't deserve to have to endure this just because I have messed up in the past. I really wish I had somewhere to go.

No. 621705

>>621449
that's impossible because i exist

No. 621715

>>621704
I have this same problem. Only nobody is actually using old behavior against me. I'm just internally screaming at myself that I don't deserve to speak up for myself or have my needs met because I did bad things in the past and still have various flaws currently.

No. 621727

I just had a guy over and I was going to hook up with him but I was so turned off by the fact that hes male. We were both so awkward we didnt even ficl, he just left. Thank god lol

No. 621751

My boyfriend of 6 years just dumped me out of the blue without explanation and I don't know what to do.

I thought we both wanted to spend the rest of our lives together and it seemed like everything was fine. Tomorrow we're going to talk but everything feels unreal. I don't want to come across and clingy and pathetic but I'm shocked and wish I got some explanation. He's my best friend and now it feels like I have nobody else to talk to.

No. 621761

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My plans for a delicious dessert have been foiled. I tried a new recipe for cupcakes and I think it turned out bad. I still have a cheesecake to look forward to but God if I had just went with my tried and true recipe everything would have been fine and I would have some nice cupcakes. I don't even have anymore flour so I cant make them over if I wanted too. I guess i'll know if they're truly bad once I let them cool tho.

No. 621771

>>621761
you're the anon from earlier right? i voted cheesecake anyway

No. 621823

I'm really stressed right now. My neighbor just called the cops on me.

My neighbor wakes me at 6am every morning. She ties her dog 6ft from my window and it barks super loud. Noise ordinance here is 11pm - 7am. I tried just banging on the window, or looking out it so she understood it was waking me up. The last few mornings I've lost my cool though. I've got less than 3 hours sleep a night because of this dog. I tried to talk to her but she runs into her house when she sees me. So this morning it woke me up at 6am after I had just got done with work and got into bed at 5am. I called her a selfish bitch.

This afternoon the dog is going crazy again and I was talking to my bf about options for if it barks in the morning again and she's looking at me through my window which was open. So I took the chance and told her her dog is waking my entire house at 6am every morning. And holy hell did she fucking lose it. She said that there were racoons in my front garden so it's my fault the dog barks. She told me her other neighbor was fine with it so I had to get over it. She told me I only rent and she owns so I can fuck off. She told me noise ordinances didn't apply to her and from now on she will be waking me hourly from 2am - 6am with her dog. I called her selfish and she threatened to call my landlord. I told her to go ahead and she said if I didn't leave my window she was going to come and fuck me up. At this point she's just screaming at me and my bf while we stand there and her daughter comes out and joins in. She kept threatening to call my landlord and basically fucking lie so I called her a fat bitch. She LOST IT. I hit a major nerve. So she CALLS THE COPS OVER ME CALLING HER FAT. I'm standing there and I can hear her outright LYING to the cops. She's saying I've only lived here a month (i've been here a year), she's saying I'm screaming and threatening her when we're both just standing there, she's just making shit up it was INSANE.

The cop comes and he comes to our house first even though she called them. We explained about the dog waking up at 6am and the threats of it being earlier. He told us to call every time it woke up in future and after 3 calls that's a $1000 fine. He then tells us he's going to go talk to her and give her a warning. LMAO

I saw him go over to hers and I could hear her getting all stressed and chattery again. But she fucking called the cops on herself??? I understand calling her a fat bitch was a low-blow but she was convinced they were going to tell me off over it. I'm so amped right now I don't even know how to process the situation. I was honestly fucking terrified because I'm an immigrant and she was lying hardcore to the cops on the phone. I still feel really sick over it, my God.

I'm still really scared she's going to call my landlord and lie though. I don't know how she'd even know him but I don't know how to prove I didn't say the things she's claiming.

No. 621824

>>621823
I should probably have mentioned this has been going on over 3 months, minimum 3 mornings a week.

No. 621826

>>621823
You should have gotten a police report to show to your landlord. Also, it's all about documentation. Send an email to your landlord right now. Don't wait for her to make the first move. This is the first thing they teach you in career training. Document everything that happens to you with a coworker. At the very least, write up a google doc (it shows when you wrote it and the history can't be altered) that way if she does complain, you can show the document to your landlord showing what actually happened.

No. 621828

>>621826
These are good ideas anon thank you so much. I'm going to start working on documentation right now. my brain is frazzled i didn't even think of that stuff. I have a camera set up outside my house but I'm going to move it outside my window in case she tries anything.

No. 621829

My body can't handle eating a single thing. A SINGLE THING. Everything makes me gassy, everything gives me diarrhea. Dairy, spice, beans, oil, coffee, onions, all fast food. I'm sick of it. I literally live in fear of eating at people's houses and needing to poop right after.

No. 621838

>>621828
no problem. Also, not to make assumptions but you said you're an immigrant. If english isn't your first language and you want to make sure it's a professionally written letter and not an emotionally charged one I'd be happy to write one for you (My job basically consists of documenting incidents). I come from a family of immigrants who have been screwed over by people who "spoke better English" when those people were completely in the wrong. Don't want that to happen to you.

No. 621841

>>621838
This is so kind anon. My bf and his family are native speakers and they're going to help out. We have a google doc going already. I tried to remain really calm and not emotional with the cop and I think it helped. Thank you so much <3

No. 621852

I had a really good day today, then I saw something on instagram that really fucking triggered me and reminded my of the issues in my life, and now I'm severely sad again. I tend to go mute when I'm really depressed and isolate myself , and I already know that's how I'm going to be all day tomorrow. I'm embarrassed because I was really talkative today with my family and tomorrow I'm going to give them whiplash. It sounds dumb considering It sounds like I can technically change it or just not be withdrawn tomorrow, but it feels out of my control.

No. 621861

>>621852
you did well today, that's what matters the most. sorry for the setback. don't be too hard on yourself

No. 621863

even though I miss the support and safety of a ward, now that I'm so low again the idea of it feels claustrophobic and it can be hard to deal with other patients. I'm really struggling with my home life for various reasons. Wish I could stay with someone until I can move. Why am I so bad at life? but I don't wanna complain more. there is still loads to be grateful for

No. 621886

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My mom is a total fucking dyke so I never learned how to do makeup from her and now at 19 years old I’m trying to start and I’m just failing so bad. I’m so ugly, I just want to transform my entire face like those girls on YouTube do but whenever I get finished my makeup looks like a fucking kindergartener did it. I’m not even trying to do that dumb Instagram girl bratz doll face thing every girl does nowadays. I just want to look fucking pretty. I’m so gross. Why can’t I be good at this? Fucking REEEE

No. 621891

It’s the night before my first day of the semester and I can’t sleep. I have severe PTSD and I’m a medical marijuana patient, but I can’t smoke because I’m getting drug tested in a week at my new job. They don’t care that I’m a medical patient because it’s a federally funded company and weed isn’t legal in every state. I’m sober because I have to be but I’m very anxious and in a lot of pain.

No. 621892

>>621886
have fun spending hours applying shitty makeup you wasted your money on and then not being able to touch your face or rub your eyes for the entire day. You never realize what a luxury it is to be able to scratch your face until you can't. Your mom has the right idea

No. 621893

>>621886
Practice, practice and practice. Nobody slipped out of the womb with perfect makeup skills, anon

No. 621898

>>621886
my mom taught me the worst possible tips for makeup application. she's from the "applying foundation with my hands is a good idea" era. stop fucking whining and practice.

No. 621900

>>621886 Let me tell you about wearing make-up: First of all, you'll probably waste a lot of money finding products that work for you. Then it takes a lot of practice to get things right, but you'll probably still go out without realizing your make-up looks cakey or bad. Then you'll start looking in the mirror every chance you get to make sure your make-up still looks good, you might even start to carry around a makeuppouch because of it in your bag. And then you'll be dependent on it for feeling beautiful/presentable to the outside world but you'll never truly feel beautiful, in fact you'll feel even more ugly because your real face doesn't compare to your makeup face.

Or at least that's what my experience with make-up is. When i was a child my mom told me she didn't want me to wear makeup because she didn't want me to rely on it to feel beautiful. But I was stubborn and started wearing makeup anyway because I wanted to be cool like the my friends. From there I fell down a slippery slope of wearing make-up for like a decade while still feeling like shit about myself and stressed everyday about how my make-up looked to people around me. I wish I had listened to my mom.

I once read that the beauty industry doesn't want you feel beautiful, it wants you to feel ugly so you'll buy their products. That always stuck with me because it's true.

No. 621905

>>621886
Just keep practicing anon. Those girls on yt had to practice for years before they were good. And you probably don't look as bad as you think, don't compare yourself to beauty influencers.

No. 621910

>>621900
This is so true. Like my experience to a T. I am so much happier now.

No. 621912

>>621886
Listen to >>621900 Anon. You seriously don't need makeup.
If you're dead set on doing it then just do something light that you can't mess up and save yourself the trouble of ~learning~ the most useless skill in the world. Wear mascara, use an eyebrow pencil to lightly go over your brows, some pore blurring primer maybe, and a light lipstick.

Foundation is a meme, never use it. It makes you look cakey no matter what and forces you to use highlight and contour so your face doesn't look flat.

But please think about it critically. Why do you feel pressured to learn how to do makeup? Why do you feel the need to be pretty? It's all capitalism and patriarchy baby.

No. 621916

>>614287
Let her read this post. She’ll understand

No. 621917

>>621823
>so I called her a fat bitch.
Don't go down to her level. It's gonna bite you in the end.

No. 621921

>>621900
this. you can get away with wearing a little bit without it impacting your life negatively (I wear eyeliner because I have fish eyes and brow pencil because I have awful brows) but the more you cake on, the more time you spend getting ready, the more it impacts your skin and the more self-conscious you feel about it.

No. 621925

>>621912
This. Foundation is for tv shows, movies and photoshoots with skilled make up artist applying it on you and super flattering lighting.
You're for sure going to look cakey doing it to yourself, under walmart neon lights, kek.

No. 621926

>>621917
dude the woman was threatening her i would call her way worse than that kek

No. 621931

>>621886
I already responded to this, but I'd thought i'd reply again to say you should watch those "why instagram makeup doesn't look good in real life videos". Just to show yourself that just cause those girls makeup looks nice in photos, that doesn't mean it always looks good in real life. Beauty influencers use hella lights, filters, various cosmetic procedures etc… Vid related is just one, but there are SO many people who discuss it. I think you should search up tutorials for makeup that looks good irl.

I also think it's important you figure out what kind of features you have. Keep in mind you have to adjust how you do makeup to your features. I use to think eyeshadow didn't look good on me until I realized I have deep-set hooded eyes, so I can't do eyeshadow like ladies with a lot of eyelid space. If you have a slim face you don't need to contour, if you don't have blemishes you don't need to color correct and FOR GODS SAKE you DON'T need to draw huge triangles under your eyes with concealer! Don't do your makeup a certain way just cause that's how everyone else does it.

Anyway, I hope you get better anon. Makeup is super fun to play with, so keep experimenting till you find something you like on yourself. and yes foundation can look nice irl. just depends on how you apply it

No. 621939

>>621829
I used to get constipated multiple times a week so I ate more fibre, and I got constipated even more often. Turns out I just didn’t drink enough water. Sounds stupid but I don’t get any issues as long as I drink at least 2 liters a day.

No. 621953

>>621900
This is definitely a 100% valid point but from myself I want to add that
1) not everyone is so impacted with make-up, and 100% like themselves without it; learning and executing it is a form of artistic expression
2) it's easy to say make up is a scam and foundation is a meme when you have a perfectly clear skin; I'm very much okay with my facial features but so my genetics have it that sometimes I have more redness because of weak capillaries, people would ALWAYS point it out that I look sick and ask if I need to see a doctor. No I don't, and I don't want to hear it so I'm really happy BB creams / foundations exist.

tl;dr don't shame, don't discourage, even though I can tell all of you no-makeup anons have very good intentions I can totally stand by

No. 621954

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Megadeth/LOG/Trivium/In Flames and Deftones/Gojira are playing in my province next summer and the only thing stopping me from ordering tickets are that I have no one to go with. I’m young anxious as fuck and have never been to a concert nor know anyone who is into that kind of music. And I am absolutely not going by myself. Sucks. Oh well.

No. 621956

>>621954
i'll go

No. 621958

>>621953
>learning and executing it is a form of artistic expression
Cope.

>people would ALWAYS point it out that I look sick and ask if I need to see a doctor

So instead of standing up for yourself against people who are assholes with a warped view of what a healthy woman should look like, you changed yourself. Just say "I have no backbone".

I'm sorry if that's harsh but ultimately you'll never get back the money and time you spent trying to please people, even if you tell yourself you're an artist for changing your face.

No. 621963

>>621958
I'm standing up for myself against you right now, is that enough of a backbone? No-makeup self-righteous bully.

No. 621967

>>621958
Why are you so mad because some people like to do their makeup? I swear people like you think women can't like to do something just cause men also happen to like it.

Not everyone who wears makeup is insecure in themselves. Stop projecting.

No. 621969

>>621954
TRIVIUM?? Where bitch take me with you. If you're Canadian then we need to be friends

No. 621973

>>621953
I'm personally not that impacted by makeup, but I don't wear a lot of it to begin with, maybe you don't either. People who put on and take off their whole face along with dark lipstick and falsies definitely are impacted more, no two ways about it.

Putting on makeup is not artistic expression because you're doing the same face every day and not putting on green sparkly eyeshadow and doing editorial looks for the office every day. Most people don't. If makeup is artistic expression in this context, then so is washing your hair and choosing which bra to wear.

>don't discourage

if nobody is allowed to discourage or question you, there's no room for healthy discussion.

No. 621974

I'm glad that there are threads for anons that are 25+ but at the same time it's extremely depressing and annoying when a good number of anons make it into remaining as fuckable as possible for men.

Sometimes I wonder whether it's scrotes roleplaying but I don't know… Even they should have a better use of their time. So now I avoid those threads completely.

No. 621975

>>621974
some of it is definitely scrotes roleplaying

No. 621977

>>621973
>Putting on makeup is not artistic expression because you're doing the same face every day
At which point did anyone say that it's a discussion about every-day make up only?

>if nobody is allowed to discourage or question you, there's no room for healthy discussion.

You can definitely present your point without berating someone elses point, even if it's in a total opposition to it. This is the idea of a healthy discussion you have apparently yet to learn.

No. 621978

i am sick of people saying the world is ending, because newsflash it isn't.

conspiracy theories used to be fun until they all became political and biblical and we're all doomed.

my favorite is now that Kamala Harris is the antichrist, but i thought it was orange man? and before him obama? and before him bush? PICK ONE!!!!

We are not in the end times, yeah times are kind of freaky but how do you think people felt in the cold war? How do you think people felt during vietnam?

Stop focusing on all of the bad and if it really bothers you that much then that is a sign you need to unplug for awhile. Relax bbz it will all be okay.

No. 621980

>>621954
same anon as the last reply but i felt the same way about montebello rock fest last year but i'm forcing myself to go next year whether i'm alone or not

No. 621981

>>621963
Yes, stretch that backbone.
I do wear makeup tho. I just don't delude myself into thinking it's art or somehow not a waste of time and money.

No. 621982

>>621953
>2) it's easy to say make up is a scam and foundation is a meme when you have a perfectly clear skin
Am anon you replied to, I've struggled with acne since my childhood and have adult acne to this day. I understand and symphatize with your points but my post didn't come from someone with beautiful clear skin (I wish) and I think OP I was originally replying to should know that.

No. 621983

>>621981
Nta but makeup can definitely be art. Obviously not a typical natural makeup look but people do express themselves through makeup looks

No. 621985

>>621977
>At which point did anyone say that it's a discussion about every-day make up only?
Literally the post you replied to originally.
In point 2) of your post, which also somehow goes against point 1) of your post, you say you use bb creams and foundation to cover up redness, so not as a "method of self-expression" but to cover up flaws.

>You can definitely present your point without berating someone elses point, even if it's in a total opposition to it. This is the idea of a healthy discussion you have apparently yet to learn.

What? If you think I "berated your point" by simply disagreeing with you in my post, you might as well get off the internet since you think everyone with a different opinion is attacking you somehow.

No. 621986

>>621956
>>621969
you girls are making me smile <3. i live in Quebec and thats where theyre playing. I’m super young though anons and like. autistic as fuck. I haven’t spoken or hung out with anyone outside of family in over a year.. lol

>>621980
Good luck next year anon, i hope you find someone but regardless I hope you have a good time!!!

No. 621987

>>621975
I got the same impression, like they're trying to spread panic.

No. 621989

>>621983
Bullshit. Even “artsy” makeup looks feature whatever beauty trend is popular, all have over lined lips and heavy contours.

No. 621992

>>621986
sweet. i love montreal.

No. 621993

>>621974
It's mostly insecure girls imo.

No. 621995

>>621989
nta and also i have never heard someone facing social repercussions for not painting or making sculptures or some other kind of art so if make up really can be in same level as art why doesn't it have same kind of freedom like it

(i mean obviously art also has it's inside group trends and such but you know what i mean)

No. 621999

>>621989
Be it goths or arthoes even with their whimsical flowers and color splotches on their face, they still actively try to appear “attractive” above all.
>>621995
Because makeup isn’t like painting or making music are you dumb? 99% of people wear makeup to be hot. Using the 1% outliers like special fx makeup artists is retarded cope.

No. 622000

>>621999
Samefag to say I wear makeup btw, I too participate in society. I just have no delusion about how totes feminist and not vapid consoomerist “muh art“ is.

No. 622002

>>621999
>Because makeup isn’t like painting or making music are you dumb?

yeah i guess that might have been the point i was trying to make

No. 622021

After a horrible terrible summer of deciding if I want to do my Masters or not (I did get in), I have taken academic leave, felt really bad and guilty of doing it for the longest time but now that Autumn has rolled around I finally feel somewhat relieved. What worries me is what the hell am I supposed to do with my time (I have a full time job already, but I want to learn something new, just do not know how to go about it, I feel really stupid)

No. 622022

>>621983
Again… Cope. Please learn to be critical of what you're told. And understand this is a complete cope out, to the same level of "yas my eyeliner is so sharp it kills men" and "riding dick is empowering".

No. 622025

>>621953
>tl;dr don't shame, don't discourage,

Yeah no. That way of thinking is the reason why tumblr and twitter are the cesspools that they are now.

No. 622026

>>621954
Omg anon I wish I could go with you that’s a dope lineup

No. 622049

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>>621986
>mrw haven't had a girl friend in 6 years
I wish I wasn't overseas atm cause my family live in Qc too :< we could be autistic bffs

No. 622059

>>621954
Just BUY those tickets as soon as you can, you will find someone to go with, you don't want to miss this. I did that too, I bought tickets for a show and my brother asked his friend to go with me. You will find someone surely. And if you don't what's the problem? Just ignore everyone, you don't have to talk to people, just stay in large groups of people so nobody tries to harm you.
On a similar note there haven't been any good concerts where I live lately but there's a reeeally good one scheduled for next may and it's so hard to wait. I check online every other day to see if tickets are available which obviously they aren't but I do it anyway

No. 622061

>>621886
honestly anon, you’re beautiful the way u are! those transformative makeup looks are typically weird looking in real life plus it takes a bunch of time and money. when it comes to makeup, i feel like you should ask yourself if you really are interested in purchasing or if you just want to because others do. everyone is different and delaying makeup use is absolutely fine especially because your skin will be breathing lol if you do want to wear makeup, i think the best way to go about it is to think about what makes you happy. for instance, if you like colours, you can try looking for a cute eyeshadow!

as a kid my mom would tell me that i need makeup and that i would look better if i wore some. i always rebelled and never wore any especially because i just was not interested. eventually once i entered uni, i started to experiment with wearing mascara, covering my eye bags, brushing out my brows, and wearing pinky eyeshadows. for me, it was kind of fun because i found what i liked and i felt happy + i only bought cheap makeup and i still refuse to wear foundation kek. im not amazing at makeup and thats okay, i think you should wait until you feel like your comfortable will trying! work towards embracing your no makeup face; even though i started to wear some makeup most days i still go bare face a majority of the time. good luck anon, everything is a process so try to take your time!

No. 622071

>>622065
Sorry anon this made me kek
Just spam your pic in incel spaces, theyll sure to rip into ya

No. 622072

>>621974
What do you mean? I feel like in the 26+ thread the anons lamenting over hitting the wall are mostly anons in their early 20's horrified of nearing their mid 20's and looking for reassurance. The 30+ anons have been saying how great it is to have more to their life than scrote pandering.

Agree that some of them are scrotes trying to bait though.

No. 622073

>>622065
mood

No. 622074

I want to visit Japan again!

No. 622078

>>621974
I see it too, definitely think there's some scrotes stopping by to help spread the word about 'the wall' by claiming to be female, 26 to 28 and sooo past their best years..

If there are genuinely some women worrying themselves sick over that shit then I feel for them. Can't relate though, 30 and I stopped giving a fuck about male attention years ago… I still get more male attention than I want. I want none tbh

No. 622080

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>>621954
Fellow QC anon here, ok les filles, on y go

No. 622084

>>622072
Nta but the over 26 skincare thread was ridiculous a couple days back. A 26 year old freaking out about wanting to die over looking her age. Saying her 43 year old bf makes comments about it..
Then anons attacking anyone who said they look younger than their real age, like "fuck off you attention whores rubbing it in, some of us have real problems!"
A shitshow.

No. 622090

Just look at how many cows are aging in a tragic way, is it really so difficult to believe that's there's also anons who are similarly unlucky when it comes to aging and don't just want to give up and look old in their 20s?

No. 622092

I feel i'm literally too socially awkward to kill myself because it would be so embarrassing if you fail and then everyone has to be like 'how are you' or (unconvincingly) 'noo you have so much to live for aha' like it would just be so awkward and humiliating

No. 622093

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No. 622094

>>621974
Yeah, I don't understand it. The 26+ hangout seemed like a cute idea, but I couldn't really relate. I'm 26 so right at the entryway but ended up just hiding the thread because it's useless to me. 26 and eve 30, 35 isn't really old, especially if you don't have kids and aren't married and are just living a chill life.

No. 622096

>>622090
Well it's because they drink, do drugs, eat like shit, generally don't take care of themselves soooo…

No. 622098

>>622090
Stop reading cow threads. Seriously. Find a hobby.

No. 622099

>>622078
The anons who are 26-28 and feeling "so old" and panicking over not being a kawaii 16-year old princess anymore will get over it, they're just having their late 20's identity crisis. Once they pass 30 they'll realize that their life didn't end, it's actually way better now and they see through scrote bullshit way better because they don't have to deal with predatory men preying on young women anymore. "The wall" is more like the threshold where you learn to stand on your own two feet and start realizing how you don't need men to feel validated.

I want to ask those anons a question though - why would you want attention from scrotes your age who only want a babyfaced teenager? Men nearing or past their 30s still lusting after girls in their late teens is creepy as fuck and they're not worth your tears. Fuck them.

No. 622100

>>622092
I've tried and failed, spent two weeks in the hospital recovering and only my dad knew. Nobody asked about me or commented cos I just never told them where I was.

No. 622101

>>622098
Nta but kek wat, why don't you get off lolcow in general and get a hobby?

No. 622103

>>622101
I do have hobbies. People who are not able to browse image boards without losing their grasp on reality should not browse them.

No. 622105

>>622098
I'm rarely on pt or snow, I just used that example to try and make you understand that there's simply women out there who are genetically unlucky and thus want to talk about how to combat this.

>>622099
But this isn't about appealing to scrotes, I just want to look cute in general and not feel like shit whenever I meet other women who are much older yet look much better than me. Plus older, uglier women are also judged harder in work settings, it's kind of inevitable after some point but you don't want that to happen to you before you even hit 30.

No. 622106

>>622105
Anon when you actually pass 30 you'll get it.

No. 622107

>>622084
There was even a 21-year-old who was already freaking out about aging…

No. 622111

Jesus, wanting to look young and pretty in your 20s is normal, that's not pickme behavior or catering to scrotes…
If I look 35 or 40 at 25, I will attract older males instead of somebody my age, that's also not good.

No. 622112

>>622111
Did you see the 26 year old crying across multiple threads (in the relationship thread too) about her 43 year old bf making comments.. I think those are the examples that people mean, in fairness

No. 622113

>>622111
I don't think anyone is saying that. It's just worrying that people who are in their 20s think they're old even though you're still super young at that age.

No. 622114

>>622113
Too old for who I want to be, yes

No. 622116

>>622114
which is..?

No. 622117

>>622111
Kek no you won't they only want 20 somethings anyways i'm kidding… mostly

No. 622119

>>622117
No, it's true.
The reason I want to look younger is because I don't wanna be with an old pig. Women my age usually settle for somebody who's already 30+ or even 35+, while guys my age go for barely legal girls.

No. 622120

i just failed an exam by default cause my internet got stuck and the professor wouldn't give me a minute… i'm so mad rn

No. 622124

>>622119
How old are you, if you don't mind my asking? When I was in my college and early 20s, I dated around my age, 3 years being the largest gap, but at 25 I met my bf who's a decade older than I am. He's super handsome and didn't come with the typical 35 year old baggage so it's no big to me personally.

No. 622133

>>622120
That's completely unfair. They should be making concessions for this kind of thing, it comes with the territory for online classes. Can you reach any higher-ups?

No. 622140

>>622133
nope, i'm not the first one that got screwed like that, i asked the professor but he said he can't make me an exception "rules are rules"

No. 622148

>>622133
Nta you’re replying to but I’m also in college rn and on the syllabus one of my professors said that we need to have a backup computer and a backup internet connection, if we can’t make it to online class or turn things it it’s because we’re not prepared. I live alone so I don’t have access to another computer and all the libraries are closed, so professors are literally just being unrealistic about these things across the board.

No. 622152

>>622148
backups? what the fuck?

they have so many bullshit requests, for my exams we have to write on paper, take a pic with our id in sight, turn the images into pdf, rename the file in some special way and then send it.

No. 622157

I told my cousin about the csa and rape i went through because she is someone i really trust, and well she hasn't betrayed my trust at all but I am kind of regretting telling her about it because… i'm just feeling weird about it. I told her i was coerced into sex when i was underage with a middle aged man and she was like 'it's ok to be a slut' like… no, don't tell me that. She's also a psych major so i suppose i had it coming. I'm just really regretting telling her all this because her beliefs and experiences are different from mine and i think she is judging me. She is a religious muslim and all too, while i'm not

No. 622160

>>622148
I'm also in college doing online lessons and we got told if our internet access was down it was our own fault and we should use data instead. Also, we can't be late to the online lesson because our little screen picture popping up in the corner would be too much of a distraction so we shouldn't bother joining if we're late- we just have to take an absence and catch up.

No. 622172

>>621954
i would go with you in a heartbeat anon. gojira is one of my favorite bands.

also, i saw slayer by myself last year and had a great time. it was their final tour, so i definitely wasn't going to miss it. i spent the entire night in the pit just losing it. even if you go alone, you can still have fun!

No. 622196

My sister has left her bloody pad festering in the bin for so long it has stunk out her entire room. It's so fucking disgusting I almost gagged from the smell.

No. 622197

>>622157
I’m so sorry anon, you should not have to feel that way. She sounds as though she acted very cruel, and obviously doesn’t understand your perspective. You are a victim and survivor. Do not let others belittle your experience. I would not share anything else with her again. You should not have to feel shame or guilt.
We’re here for you girl.

Also a csa survivor, from an orthodox catholic family. It is hard.

No. 622198

This is going to sound so petty but my mom copies everything about me and it makes me resent her really hard.
She sees that I started buying from a certain brand, suddenly she starts buying there and even buys the exact same clothes.
When I used to live at her place, she would often mix up or "borrow" my clothes even though she's 30 years older than me. I get a short haircut, she gets one too.
I started liking a certain subject, she does too. Music? The same thing.
The latest thing is I was diagnosed with autism, and while I think that's not correct, when I told the news to my parents my mom suddenly has autism too.
I've cut her off and rarely speak to her. I just want her out of my life.

No. 622199

It's so weird thinking of the anons I briefly emotionally connected with on imageboards or dreamwidths or etc, only to (probably) never speak with them again. Like they enthusiastically respond to your comment in a way that exactly reflects how you feel, or vice versa, and you think how nice it would be to continue this conversation with them IRL, but due to the nature of anon boards, or your own shyness, or the sheer awkwardness of it, you never ask for contact details and both of you just move on with your day. I think a lot about the potential friends I might've lost.

No. 622201

>>622196
Omg wtf anon, my sister is similar in that she leaves her gross dirty clothes on the floor for someone else to pick up or wash. To be fair, we were both spoiled in our youth, but the difference is I learned to clean up after myself and for some reason she never did. You have my sympathies.

No. 622204

>>622199
This 100%. Sometimes I wonder if I've actually interacted with the same anon loads of times but never realised.

No. 622207

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>>622204
Personally I’m just plagued by the thought lately that I could be sharing a moment of empathy with an anon that wrote this

No. 622214

>>622207
Kek imagine!

It is sobering though like just think: the anon calling you a retard and telling you to k y s for forgetting to sage could potentially be the same anon who wrote about pissing onto their own foot for sexual pleasure in the vent thread

No. 622217

>>622207
>>622214
I legitimately hate knowing that both of these anons exist now.

No. 622223

>>622217
They walk amongst us.

No. 622228

>>622214
I think about this all the fucking time when I’m on here. It’s why I try not to take everything said here too seriously. You never know who’s replying to you or who you’re replying to.

No. 622249

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So Mulan is not getting a theatrical relaease at all in the US? Instead you have to pay $30 on to of you Disney+ subscription? They just want to kill off theaters and push everything onto their stupid platform. The movie was filmed in 3D and now people just get to watch it on their crappy tiny flatscreen TVs with amateur audio setups (that's another rant of its own, yes Karen I know you're really proud of getting the biggest screen from Best Buy, it's still pathetically small).
I'm also annoyed that not watching a kid's movie on the big screen is annoying me so much, I wasn't even that pumped about it in the first place.

No. 622258

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Why the FUCK did ass cancer take handsome Chadwick and his moe T’challa

Why not take John Boyega, the actual epitome of ass cancer and his stupid character nobody liked

No. 622259

>>622249
i agreed with everything until i saw karen and i stopped reading cringe

it is insane though. first off, disney keeps shitting out all these live action remakes which i dont even know who is really watching them… next, they have their awful streaming platform with probably the worst movie and tv options ever that even the free trial was so miserable that my family deleted it. now they want ppl to pay extra on top of everything? i am really sick of disney

No. 622261

>>622249
You are probably the only person who even gives a shit about the live action Mulan

No. 622263

>>622259
honestly they will keep making them until the cash runs dry. if you look at the box office draw these films create its fucking insane. it took 250 million to make the live action lion king and they brought back 1 billion dollars for it. no im serious, they made a billion dollars based off a 90s kids movie. disney loves money and will milk these things dry because people will always watch it no matter what.

No. 622264

>>622258
what a vile, disgusting thing to even think

No. 622267

>>622264

Not even in the least bit sorry, I’d give up my left tit to trade Boyega and have Chadwick back. Also not even close to the worst thing posted on lolcow, grow some labe.

No. 622270

>>622259
A tiny bit of me is hoping Covid reks Disney. I’m sick of them too.

No. 622276

>>622270
I don't think anything could rek Disney at this point, but at the very least I hope this teaches them to stop fucking remaking their animated classics.

No. 622279

>>622258
What the fuck? John Boyega is incredibly loved and a good man, and I highly doubt Chadwick Boseman would want to hear anyone say this. Also
>choosing another black actor to replace the death of a black actor
Gross you stupid bitch.

No. 622288

>>622249
who cares this looks like shit and has an evil woman antagonist stereotype. disney can fuck off with this crouching tiger hidden bullshit.

No. 622293

I'm freaking out about an interview tomorrow and looking through these linkedin guides on how to answer questions and god I'm just filled with hate for them. Their smug smiles, the fact they keep saying be genuine and your "dream job". Like no, we're not all people who have a comfy job and want to reach for the stars and was given an interview for their dreeeam job. But it's the only situation they'll adress because they can't fathom that people will be wanting jobs that get them by, or that they're qualified for and pays nice but they certainly aren't passionate about but who the fuck would turn an opportunity down after 9 months being unemployed. Or graduates that haven't had multiple internships because they can afford to fucking work for free. Like how is that good for me?! I've got to pretend that a 6 month temp job absolutely aligns with my goals and is soooo what I want.

God fuck them, their smug smiles and their privileged assumptions. "Just be your best self and let your passion shine through!" fuck off. FUCK OFF.
christ I just need to slog through these bullshit writing up 40 fucking answers that fucking skew my whole personality to what this particular company and this particular job posting wants and have nonono faults that might actually affect how I do my job, or could be percieved to if you reach. No, I've got to start out perfect then get BETTER WOOO

No. 622298

>>622258
How about wishing nobody died of cancer, anon?

No. 622300

>>622279

Boyega just salty that he didn’t get to fuck Rey and that people like the (equally cancerous) Reylo ten times more. Watching him shit on Tran (“mentally weak”) and sperg about laying the pipe on Rey on Instagram because he’s sore about his shitty character in the clusterfuck that was sequel trilogy is equal parts sad and hilarious.

No. 622301

>>622249
I mean I'm sure this will be a nice movie, but does anyone actually like these live action disney films? I heard people saying Lion King was trash. The only reason it got hype was cause of the album which was great to be fair
>>622258
Wtf is wrong with you anon? And why John Boyega? God you're disgusting.

No. 622312

>>622270
This. Disney needs to die out.

>>622276
I'm partially tinfoiling that there's some sort of a huge money laundering scene behind them or it's a calculated plan to extend their copyrights so that the characters don't enter public domain or sniping competing films or something.

No. 622313

>>622300
Star Wars isn't real faggot

No. 622317

>>622300
I'm pretty sure he doesn't care that 14 year old fangirls don't ship the fictional character he plays with another equally fictional character.

No. 622318

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I browse Reddit occasionally to vent about personal issues, namely abuse I've suffered throughout my childhood.

Today, this random user messaged me claiming to be a thirteen-year-old boy who was suffering from abuse as well. Ofc I tried helping them, I was linking them resources and websites, trying to talk to them, but they kept being VERY insistent on hearing my own abuse. I tried refusing gently, they got angry and tried to persuade me more. It honestly didn't sound like a thirteen-year-old. They kept asking me sexual questions too.

I really hope it wasn't an actual child, I understand abuse looks different for all survivors but… It was just so sketchy to me, but I still feel guilty.

No. 622324

>>622318
Anon I can guarantee you it was most definitely not a real child. Pervs do this all the fucking time, it's a trick as old as the internet.

No. 622327

>>622318
Anon, it's reddit. They just wanted sexts and an upvote.

No. 622341

>>622279
Boyega is trash though. Didnt he get into it with people on twitter about Reylo? He's honestly not even a good actor. Let's not go into them birthing hips.

No. 622342

>>622313
neither is boyegas talent lol

No. 622347

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>>622341
This man on twitter dot com doesn't like my ship, I hope he gets cancer.

No. 622348

>>622318
I don't share details because I fear men getting off to it.. but to reach out to you is a whole other level. Jesus

Watched a vid about abuse lately on youtube, in the comment section women were naturally sharing their own very condensed stories of abuse and healing afterwards.
One man went around hundreds of them telling them all that 'so many women have stories of being raped that they are all obviously making it up for attention'
He kept up this story of just not believing them until under one comment he eventually started saying rape is funny to him and he loves hearing about it. The time he took just to shit on some strangers. How much of a chip must you have on your shoulder to do that for hours?

No. 622351

I hate living at home so much. I hate my dad so much. He’s the reason I went full radfem.

No. 622371

>>622279
I can't stand him

No. 622374

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My sister is acting like our dad sans the 'holism. She broke her fingers last nighg after hitting her husband on the shoulder and from what I could tell by the text, she kind of laughed it off. Not the first time she has done shit like this in a relationship, she went to court once for it and I am fucking worried for her young children. I am not close enough to her to tell her to get anger management classes but wtf. It's tiring and odd to be seen as the "aggressive" one just due to my looks when my sister is a fucking normie acting this way.

No. 622382

Online classes have helped me realize that I need to kill myself. I can't pay attention at all and I haven't learned anything since quarantine started. Not only that but my memory is deteriorating rapidly. I can't remember things at all and it makes me want to kill myself because how am I going to remember anything from school. I'm thinking of dropping out and if I'm still unhappy I'll just kill myself. I have no friends so its not like I'll matter. I just feel bad for my parents and siblings but at the same time my death would probably a good thing for them since they don't have to support a borderline NEET.

No. 622383

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I hate that my friend's birthday is coming up because she's such a hoarder and I that know anything I get her will just sit in her basement and collect dust. Even if I try to get her something more functional like a t shirt or something it usually just ends up never being worn. She used to have a shopping addiction so I know that she gets that rush from receiving something new but shortly after loses all interest in it. Usually in the past I got around it by giving her cash, which is cheap and lazy, or by taking her out somewhere and paying for everything, but since covid she's become a shut in and doesn't want to leave the house except for work.

I love the hell out of her, don't get me wrong, but I seriously hate wasting money and time shopping for things that she won't care about after a few days

No. 622387

>>622383
Could you maybe get her some treats? Maybe bake for her or something, a voucher for her fave food joint or something

No. 622395

>>622387
Seconding this anon. Get her consumables.

No. 622397

>>622395
Hell, get her edibles.

No. 622406

>>622387
>>622395
Ooh that's a good idea, thank you!

>>622397
You're a genius anon ty

No. 622413

I REALLY REALLY FUCKING HATE GEN Z AND THEIR FUCKING NEED TO ANNOUNCE HOW FUCKING SELF RIGHTEOUS AND VIRTUOUS THEY ARE AAAAAAAAAA FUCKING DIE ALREADY!!!!!!!!! DIE!!!!!!

No. 622416

>>622413
You're probably going to die first grandma

No. 622418

I'm stupid and I hate myself. My needs hurt people. I've tried to stop having needs in relationships but I can't.

No. 622419

>>622416
jokes on you, I'm inbetween generations.

No. 622420

>>622418
Be needy with me, we can be happy together while we tell each other how much we need shit

No. 622421


No. 622422

>>622419
Gen X/millenial or millenial/zoomer? Late-millenial-early-zoomers aren't much better.

No. 622423

>>622416
Are you sure about that? So many zoomers are enbies on a cocktail of hormones and puberty blockers, I wouldn't be surprised they kicked the bucket a lot sooner

No. 622425

>>622318
I've had this happen to me a few times on Reddit. It's so fucking weird. I just don't respond to anyone's DMs anymore on there.

No. 622427

>>622423
GOD I WISH

No. 622430

>>622413
I could not fucking agree more with this. I don't even think most of them know what they're virtual signaling half the time.

No. 622433

>>622422
At least I'm not on twitter claiming that cottagecore is colonialism or some bullshit like that lmao

No. 622438

>horny and shamelessly ask fuck buddy for nudes out of nowhere
>no reply for almost a day
>start feeling embarrassed and worried he might be ghosting on me for asking for nudes so blatantly and shamelessly

No. 622442

>>622433
I'm gen Z and I wish our "movements" could be half as meaningful as those of late 60s and 70s. Then I realize we are the literal consequences of them and that we were doomed from the start

No. 622443

>>622438
All the women in the world getting unwanted dick pics… and then the one time somebody actually wants them it doesn't happen..

No. 622447

>>622442
Give it 30 to 40 years and this generation's movements and events will be viewed that way. Think about people of the past, they lived through various events we now consider major and influential, but it was just another day of life to them. They were thinking about how to make it right in the moment, not whether or not what they were living through would have articles, books, and documentaries written about it decades down the line.

No. 622449

>>622443
Men only like doing things to bother women
They only want relationships when women don't want relationships, they only want to be friends when women want relationships, they only want anal if the woman doesn't, they only want open relationships if the woman doesn't and so on. I swear it's like they live to bother us

No. 622450

"non-binary" people are so fucking smug and narcissistic, every one I've ever seen or interacted with has been absolutely insufferable. can't wait for that fad to die out.

No. 622452

My supervisor was getting amped up because I told him I wanted to see nurse after making an accident report about my numb finger. Which made me mad because he's such a douchebag and thinks everyone should suck it up while he walks around to talk to other supervisors and play on the phone. I went to the work clinic and the dr was more worried about my sex life than she was my finger. Felt like a waste of time. Thought the dr that works on the job site would talk to me about possible things I could be developing in my hand after telling her my past hand issues, nope. Told me to go buy a brace and got free eardrops because I have hard wax. She was like, "well it's not cold?" Like no shit, it's a nerve problem. Wtf. Now my supervisor gets to make jokes about my injury and shit talk with the other supervisors about what babies all the workers are. I don't know why I was expecting something different, everything sucks. My finger is going to be numb forever. I'm going to die working for rich power tripping idiots and never escape the rat race.

No. 622460

>>622443
to be fair, he has a really busy, erratic, and stressful work schedule so i can’t expect him to be in the mood all the time. what i did was a bit out of nowhere though considering he has never asked me for pics in the nine months i have been seeing him.

No. 622461

my boyfriend is so slow at responding to messages. I get that he's at work (though works from home), and likes to hang out with his friends, and I see him in person a couple times a week, but I love chatting shit and sending silly pics and interesting links throughout the day. You know, just mindlessly talking over a quick message here and there - but I'll send him something and he'll reply anywhere between 4 - 8 hours later depending on the time I send it. He's such a lovely guy otherwise, really annoys me that I can't talk to him as much as I want to. Also makes me feel a little bit insignificant because I'll always stop what I'm doing to acknowledge his messages, because I wouldn't want him to be waiting for me. I guess he doesn't think the same.

No. 622463

>>622450
Also the binary people who helpfully state the pronouns even though they match their gender presentation

Why the fuck does girly Becky need to point out that she prefers she/her pronouns lol

I hate the non-binary shit but I also hate the binary weirdos who try to get involved

No. 622467

>>622463
>I also hate the binary weirdos who try to get involved
>binary weirdos
…Cisgender people? People who aren't transgender? Don't give yourself away there, lol.

Jokes aside, I don't think those people are trying to get involved or falsely claim that they're nonbinary, I think they're just helping normalize putting pronouns in your bio since they're "allies" and all that.

No. 622469

>>622461
Some people just are like this, but I understand it's hard to get adjusted especially when you express yourself in a completely different way. Are you together for long?

No. 622476

>>622461
he probably enjoys reading your messages regardless. sometimes some people don't think to respond to every single thing.

No. 622485

>>622467
Idk nowadays in some circles you might already get cancelled if you don't have your pronouns in the bio

No. 622486

I find it so alienating and dismissive when people talk about these huge social networks and emotional connections women supposedly inherently have

No. 622489

>>622485
These are not circles I want to touch with a 50ft pole anyways

No. 622490

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No. 622501

I wish I had the courage to put myself out of my misery.

No. 622511

>>621954
deftones suck

No. 622515

I hate gendershit and I hate gen z. Ever since the quarantine coronavirus shit started the whole internet is unbearable annoying and it gives me headaches. I am so tired of social justice bullshit. This decade already started with the wrong foot

No. 622517

Can't wait for the new generation to be adults and beat gen z's ass and call them so self centered just like we all already do but they don't listen to us

No. 622518

>>622293
indeed is way better to get jobs on/to get real advice/reviews from, also good luck on your interview, i had an interview 2 days ago then got hired yesterday lol.

No. 622519

>>622351
been my mood for years, thankfully i'm finally moving out this month.

No. 622524

>>622515
At least at this point anything else is going to look like a step up maybe

No. 622526

>>622517
>>622515
okay we get it sperg. yes the vocal trend of sjw bullshit that is mainly gen z (but i also see plenty of fucking 30 something millenials doing the identical same shit so) is annoying but you know how many are also mega conservative/far right? and tons are 100% neutral and don't give a fuck. the loud personality lacking cringe ones are obviously going to be loud online kek.

No. 622530

>>622526
I feel like the sperg is probably, I don't know, 22 or 23 at oldest. Seems like the kind of irrational hatred of an entire generation only those who are like "ackshually i'm not a zoomer i'm a millenial because i was born in december 1997 so checkmate" could hold.

No. 622553

Crazy how much keeping busy and placing yourself in a healthy environment makes a difference. I'm all alone again and unstimulated after having a really busy and overstimulated week. I thought I was looking forward to going back to normal, but then I realized normal is depressed in my world. I'm crashing again.

No. 622554

I feel so hopeless. My boyfriend won't stop digging into me about my drinking, I'm super defensive about it but I'm working my hardest to stay sober. I cry and I beg him to stop and just give me space but he doesn't leave me alone and it ends in me not being able to handle it and lashing out. Then he proceeds to make me feel crazy for acting that way even though I was literally begging him for him to stop. I can't do this anymore. He used to be so nice. I need somewhere to go. It just reminds me of when I was a kid and was made to feel crazy for even questioning something that hurt me.

No. 622561

Guy at my job keeps calling me “good girl” and keeps making fun me. He also weirdly pries into my family life and always jokes about reporting my behaviour back to my dad. He also told me I looked “good” today unprovoked. It’s just making me feel weird but and I don’t know if I am overreacting.

No. 622570

I miss being a kid and spending hours playing nintendogs and Pokémon diamond. All I had to do was my homework, grab a snack, and play until I fell asleep.
Being on the internet recently is so depressing.

No. 622605

I love my boyfriend, but his anxiety makes him act so childish sometimes. And he start acting so… Loveless as well. It really saddens me. Especially when he does this as I am trying to help him. Guess I just won't help anymore.

No. 622610

>>622561
sounds creepy, i would feel strange too. maybe try your best to stay away from him if you can? good luck anon!

No. 622611

>>622561
I get that. Someone at my work does that too and I have no idea how to respond. I only realized 2 days ago that I can respond to 'honey/darling' with 'don't call me honey' and I'm weirdly excited to say it



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