/ot/ - off-topic

I did it the last two years for the same reasons and It was lovely.
Unfortunately Im retarded and agred to atend this year and I want to kms already. Run anon, run!

>>498009
me too. never doing this again, this really just confirmed it for me. I’ve spent most years alone for Christmas and those were more enjoyable by far.

This is my first year not going home to my family too. I got a nice bottle of wine as a present so I'm enjoying it with some fancyish cheese I bought from the supermarket, browsing boards, and reading a novel I've been meaning to. Overall super happy with this and not missing the huge family drama my aunt brings every year at all or my parents fighting.

Not my first x-mas without family but this year I'm completely alone and it's very nice. I made dinner and drink some beer. It feels really good.

I’ll be spending the holidays working.

The Christmases I spent entirely with my family as an adult were boring as hell. Plus I’m kinda sick of their bullshit. I did spend Christmas Eve with them and it’s been nice so far. But I feel like eventually things will get ugly again. I was stressing out and feeling sad before but now that it’s practically here, I’m ready to face it.

The whole idea of having a family gathering with food and socializing and people staying over is complete utopia for me. My family is so fucked up that could never happen. Haven't even briefly visited for a few years now. I've forced myself to not care about christmas and pretend it's just a normal day, but still always end up feeling bitter and sad.
Anyway, kind of comforting to know people choose to be alone even if there is an option to spend it with family.

I'm home for the holidays and while my family is nice, being woken up at 07:00 every day by one of my family member's toddlers having one of their breakdowns is starting to get to me. The constant noise, the music, the voices and kids screaming - the hurry to finish food, deck the tables, clean up - repeat, it's mostly just stress and exhaustion with some small, nice moments in between.

I've never spent Christmas alone, but next year I plan on either working or volunteering, then have a quiet evening by myself.

>>498067
lots of people I know spend their Christmas with family because they wouldn't dare disappoint their lonely old grandmother or aunt but they'd rather spend it otherwise

my family is full of psychos that like to start trouble because they're bored, so i spend all christmases away from my family. i really don't mind. i don't like christmas anyways. it's a waste of money, and i can't afford to waste money. i much prefer thanksgiving. i hate that i'm forced to pay more for stuff that will be 70% off the day after christmas. plus it feels like everything is dead on christmas. i don't mean stores. there's just like, this general feeling that everything is dead. i don't know how to explain, but it makes me uneasy. the build up to christmas is nice, but christmas itself is trash. i'd be up for celebrating christmas any other time than celebrating on the 24th or 25th. the days themselves have little importance to me. i just visit the very few family members (2 out of 14) i like afterwards and spend time with them, give gifts, go to a restaurant, etc.

>>498067
It was always this >>498109 for me. Sincey grandma died, I haven't been back. I don't give a shit about the rest of the family, I only ever went for her. Now, I prefer to spend Christmas by myself.

I'm spending it alone too OP. Kind of twofold reasons for me. Narcissist mom & co. are cut from contact with me. I even told my stepdad that I don't want her "gifts" this year which are usually dollar store bargain bin junk that I'm supposed to show endless gratitude for. I know what would have happened had I taken them. She'd stamped her feet demanding I break my no contact to thank her for them, just like the stunt she tried to pull on my birthday this year. I don't accept anything from her anymore, they're traps. It's a relief knowing I don't have to suffer another holiday with her again unless it's on my terms.

Unfortunately I also caught the flu. So I couldn't spend time visiting my stepdad's side of the family who I generally view as good people. I gave my stepdad their gifts and he's not due to return until late tonight. I still need to wrap his gifts before he gets here but this flu has made me really unmotivated.

It's not my first Christmas alone technically, but it's my first that I've spent super ill. I don't think I've had the flu as an adult before, it really sucks. Every year I always cook seafood and a prime rib, but I'm pretty put off from food. Even if I could hold it down, I can't taste or smell anything which makes it pointless. This is day number five without food. All around it's kind of a bad time for me this year.

op here!
thanks for all the stories
makes me feel less alone I guess.
I talked to my parents on the phone twice today. I really love my parents but I refused to go home this year because of my older brothers.
two adults in their 30's who still rely on mummy and daddy for everything and have absolutely no appreciation for what they do. my dad is in his 60's and he gets attacked and harassed by my brothers.
when I told my brother I wouldn't be coming home for xmas this year he threatened to go into my workplace and say shit about me to get me fired.
it's really sad because if they weren't there I'd have amazing christmas' with my parents

>>498180
Your brothers sound like psychos, sorry you have to deal with that anon but you definitely made the right call. Makes me wish your parents would put their foot down towards them.

>>498175
Try to get some soup down anon, you need to eat something to get better, but also when you're better you can buy up all the fish and meat at a sale price after Christmas and still cook yourself a big nice dinner. You don't have to ask anyone's permission for when you can have your own Christmas.
Get well soon!