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No. 268923
>>268916in fairness anon, you probably look better with the tad bit of extra weight, 110 pound girls are usually cuter than 96 pound girls altho it depends on your height too
me:
>be on route to getting a really good degree at top university>give up in final year and literally spend the whole year playing overwatch and reading hentai>dont study>dont go to classes>through pure luck, pass all but 2 modules>have to redo the modules in august>sitting at home reading hentai and not studyingok.
No. 268980
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I seriously think I'm addicted to bad decisions. I have tattoos and vape and have a tendancy to agree to hang out with people I know put me in shitty positions.
For example I decided to take a day trip to get a tattoo at my friend's dad's tattoo parlour. We had to ride in her sister's car for a bit and it was disgusting, very dirty and smelly (it was a new car that she totally scuffed bc apparently she's a slob) and her sister's bf was smoking weed in the seat in front of me and it was blowing in my face. Not to mention every time we got back in the car I had to tell her dumbfuck bf to move the seat forward (I have long ass legs) because he would always put it back and somehow forget I was riding behind him… and then to make it even worse we got coffee and all of a sudden her sister was running late for some shit she had to do (she's very disorganized and anxious) so she started driving like a maniac and I could do nothing as my coffee spilled all over my shirt. As soon as we stopped I threw my coffee on the ground and told my friend I was out. The most frustrating shit ever and just one example of many as a result of my addiction to bad decisions
No. 268985
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>get a pixie cut
>love it for 2 months or so
>feel confident because my naturally thin hair looks fuller
>then start feeling miserable when i see cute girls looking youthful and feminine with long hair
>on top of that my boyfriend is less attracted to me
>depression for 1-2 years as it grows out
>constantly in the ugly mullet stage
>hate looking back on pictures of myself at important events looking like pic related
>finally back to a suitable length again
>realize i hate having long hair and have no desire to style it every day so that it doesn't look like limp spaghetti
>cut it all off again
>rinse and repeat 4+ times
I'll never win.
No. 268987
>>268985Have you considered wearing wigs anon?
They can be kind of a pain but they are a good option if you don't like your natural hair.
No. 268990
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>tell my stupid self I need to save money because I hate not having money
>the second I get money I look through all the items on my wishlist and spend it all
>tell myself if I'm going to spend money I should spend it on my appearance;clothes,makeup, etc
>spend my money on everything but that
Rinse and repeat
I do end up selling stuff once I get tired of it but that's also getting on my nerves, not just dealing with buyers but also not being able to keep something until I've used it all up yknow?
No. 269068
>fall in love with a great man >relationship for 2 years, starting to make big decisions together >everything is perfect>start to lose interest, aware I'm intentionally falling out of love with him>start having thoughts like "maybe I can do better">At the same time, getting closer with another guy>break up with the first guy >repeat the same process again and again, every 2 years It's happening again right now and I can feel myself sabotage this relationship slowly by growing closer to a different person while doubting the first person. Why the fuck do I do this? And why am I always under the impression that I can do better and that I'm doing well despite me always losing great people when I do this?
>>269063I smiled when I read you only had one donut! Anon, at least you didn't make the mistake most make when they say "fuck it, it's already ruined let me have more"
You JUST started your diet so it's going to be hard to get used to restrictions, but eventually, you'll get the hang of it. I believe in you anon! Good luck!
No. 269072
>>269070Yeah, I know some people will see it like that, and to be honest, maybe it kinda is. Truth be told, I would eat some pretty rich stuff and only managed to skate by up until 30 due to having a super high metabolism.
If that count turns out to be too hard for me to handle, I might bump it up to 1100-1200 and see if that does the trick.
No. 269116
>>269115Haven't killed myself yet so sorta. If you can call being a fat fuck with no self esteem living.
Working on it.
No. 269141
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I have so many regrets in life…
>never open my damn mouth (e.g. didn't dare to say that I was hurt, once nearly drowned because an older boy held me under water and I didn't fight back)
>let girls in school treat me like shit, am proud to be allowed to spend time with them and therefore lost my best friend who was not "cool" enough
>start starving myself even though I was nearly underweight to begin with
>new friends influence me, become a pretentious little shit (only classical music and foreign literatue)
>suddenly am the weird kid who's always alone
>gain weight back, start wearing a jacket even in summer to hide my fat
>become a kpop fan and spend all day on the internet
>others start ging out, I don't
>start being a fan of visul kei, dress weirdly
>miss out on the opportunity to at least have had my first kiss already (the guy was an ugly creep, but still…)
>think I can become a musician, don't study enough for my final exams
>no idea what to do afterwards, go with what parents tell me
>finally find some nice friends in Uni, but leave
>go to new school, be too autistic to find new friends, get more and more anxious when having to talk
>instead of bettering myself or actually studying, all I do is spend the nights on the computer and eat
>awful stretch marks, pimples and fine lines, because I don't moisturize or have a skin care routine
My biggest problems are that I'm way too sensitive and a giant doormat.
I could be 60lbs lighter, look somewhat okayish, have a best friend, not having to live with the "trauma" of my classmates disliking me, maybe already have finished Uni or at least have better grades and so on.
I was happy during kindergarten and elementary school; during my first year in the other Uni I went to, we constantly hung out together, but I was too busy with crying everyday since I hated the classes so much, to actually enjoy it. Looking back I regret it, since I haven't had that much fun ever since.
No. 269162
>>268930Ive got the same issues. I don’t fully understand my tendency to ghost everyone besides the fear of disappointing them somehow.
Huh, ive never met anyone who was the same way.
No. 269206
>>268930Literally exactly the same, I do not understand myself.
Gonna try make friends again soon don't know how anymore, I used to be the funny one now I'm just borderline retarded.
No. 269558
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>lonely as fuck person, somehow by some goddamn miracle manage to get a loving and caring girlfriend
>break up with her bc my anxious ass can't handle any sort of emotional stress
>now even more forever alone
No. 269568
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>>get to healthy weight after a few years of anorexia
>>maintain it for a year
>>out of fucking nowhere, lose all the nearby mentality I had gained
>>back to crying over pasta
I’m 26 I can’t be doing this I have shit to do
No. 269572
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>piano and singing lessons as a kid
>A+ grades
>drops piano lessons because got too distracted making art
>supposed to study accountancy but went to art school anyway because fell in love with drawing
>at art school
>everyones a lowkey prodigy
>turns out am just a below average artist
>fall into depression, struggling to keep up with everyone and failing
>professors literally roasting my artworks kek
>turn to self harm and chugging sweets and soda for temporary relief
>get fat
>essentially destroy vocals bc of sweets
>threw away ""potential"" at piano, singing and school to pursue art
>end up as failure anyway
I did graduate art school after four years of hell but now I'm just unemployed with no direction in life.
No. 269573
>>269116Hey at least you're not alone. I gained ~30 pounds in a year because of depression, and when I finally mustered the courage to get help, medication made me gain even more weight. To make matters worse, my boyfriend insists on fast and junk food way too often and it's hard to say no.
Only two years ago, I was in excellent shape and looked damn good. It's just so hard to get back into the habits I used to have. I fucking hate being fat.
No. 269661
>>269572Sometimes I resent being a musician because a few of my classmates from highschool went on to music uni and got into symphony orchestras while I do jackshit besides playing in some public bands during the summer. I very much regret not taking a composition course and avoiding competitions/festivals when I could have easily participated in them, even the teacher called me out on that…
I spent all of hs in band but now I’m in my midtwenties and I’ve lost the skill and confidence to compete against zgen students
No. 269727
>>269572>>269572I know you guys are down on yourselves for not having taken what you think are the correct paths, but Im so terrified of being visible irl that I can't try or do anything. You guys all are able to at least create art, music, etc, and be in the public eye.
That's an admirable accomplishment in and of itself. I'd kill to be able to do that just for the sake of it, even if I wasn't talented at it. I just can't cope having a presence irl or online or being an actual person.
You guys will get it all sorted, I'm sure. Even if it doesn't seem like it, you have a lot of things going for you
No. 269957
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>be me
>develop ED at 12 years old, specifically bulimia
>wind up with anorexia around 14
>go through phases of hard relapse and trying to force self to recover without doctors
>rinse and repeat for years
>end up getting bullied pretty badly for the last 2 months of high school
>hit highest weight from eating my depression
>hardest relapse yet after graduating
>meet current boyfriend while still in relapse, ~10 months ago
>start to try and recover around January because he says my tailbone poked out farther than my actual ass
>gain up to 112 at 5'3.25"
>remember highest weight was 115.8
>panic and start relapsing again
>disappoint boyfriend and best friend (who also has anorexia)
>they want me to get professional help for once but as I'm not underweight again yet, that's out of the question
also to note: the ED has made it to where I just do nothing but think about food all day, even when at work. I don't want to go back to college because of my ED – I'll have to eat to get through a full day of classes and then go to work.
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>take laxatives in the middle of the night
>send my resume to a company like an hour later
>get a job interview the very next morning
>cancel the job interview cause i'm shitting my pants
why did i do this exactly?? brain, explain. WHAT WAS THE PLAN?? what did we get out of this?
No. 270009
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>be in college doin the thing
>Have a mental break down
>Get committed for a week
>Get diagnosed with borderline personality disorder
>Quit my job
>Now I'm stuck home listening to my narcissist mother doing her narcissistic thing
>Dump bf (don't really regret this)
>He doesn't take no for an answer
>Fuck with two other dudes
>One admitted his feelings for me
>On the last of my savings with no job prospects in sight
all in the span of 2 months
No. 270069
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>>268955Anon start by joining discord’s with interests you like.
Go NC ASAP
>want to have clear skin and because >smoke weed every day all day aging my skin. > work in office never see the sun >drown in my own depression I need help
No. 270070
>>269005I’m in a similar boat
>live in major city with boyfriend for four years>never establish friends outside of “couples friends”>end up in pretty massive healthcare debt, get majorly depressed>get dumped six months laterI had to leave town so quick. My savings were nonexistent. I just got rid of almost all f my possessions and flew home with two suitcases of shit.
Now I’m living with my mom and I haven’t found a job, because I haven’t even looked. And I went through all of my clothes, including a big vintage wardrobe I left here originally, and started getting ready to list them to sell, but then I stopped halfway. Haven’t finished cleaning them or even taken pictures. I’m a fucking loser tbh
No. 270084
Got bit by something on my foot, rubbed it really hard on the carpet because it was so itchy and scratching it made me see God.
Now it has scabbed up like crazy and I'm stuck wondering if I tore all of the skin off or if it's a brown recluse bite. I have a lot of brown recluse-looking spiders around my trailer and wolf spiders love to bite me.
>>2690635'11" here.
That is a ridiculous and impossible goal, way below the daily minimum. Look shit up, you're just buttfucking your metabolism if you're eating less than 1200 calories a day. There's a reason hambeasts who get hospitalized aren't placed on diets below 1600, starvation ruins your metabolism, and will actually hinder your weight loss.
You need a TDEE calculator in your life. I used fitnessfrog, I think. Lost 10 pounds over the past two months with just 2000 calories a day. It's an easy plan to stick with, but it kinda feels like a waste though, seeing as I might be meeting Jeff Hanneman soon.
No. 271739
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>overschedule myself with work and school on purpose
>don't talk to friends for days, sometimes up to over a week
>dating an abusive drug dealer because free drugs, money, and the sex is good
>get high and fuck instead of studying
>spend extra money on expensive makeup and clothes
>snort xanax recreationally because fuck my nose
>spend a ridiculous amount of time grooming myself/doing my makeup when i could be doing something productive