/ot/ - off-topic

Sometimes,my husband's callous emotional affair (AS FAR AS I'M AWARE OF) ,that I've forgiven him somehow but he still doesn't feel sorry for, comes back to haunt me.

I don't know what to do. Apparently this is just a state of affairs (heh) I should deal with, and since me finding out, he took great precaution in locking his social media fromy view.

Apparently this is normal and to be expected. So I wrote to a former pre-marriage fuckboi (who, as turned out, is still hot as fuck) and told him, successfully making him angry (but still not repentant). Despite me having the kind of conversation with him he claimed to have with that affair of his (which was a lie, I saw the chats.)

Yeah I stopped writing with fuckboi because he was irritated with me being married and still being in contact . I told him I wanted to become penpals (Absolutely ok and even a form of art,the husband says in relation to his own penpalETTES), but had received no letter since .


I am immensely mad about this.

Next option, getting a new fuckboi - because the only reason the husband is mad at this one and this is totally something else than his poetry sure is that I have received nudes from fuckboi at age 16 (as opposed to picking someone up romantically while married).

Or maybe I just re-read the chatlogs I saved and try to die from frustration.