I hope you are still around as your thread is kind of old.
>How do I kick myself so I can start living the life I want?
The first step would be to think about your goals in life. What do you want to do? Who do you want to be? Write down your goals. Then a few days later look at the paper again and check if you are sure about it. This gives you a general outline about what to do. Some people believe you should never plan detailed plans because in the end it always comes different then expected.
Then the next step would be to make your goals SMART. http://topachievement.com/smart.html
Basically you need to define your goals in a manner that makes them achievable and of course you need an indicator that will show if you achieved them or not. For example (one type of goal many people have each january):
>I want to lose weight
not a smart goal because there are no details given about how much and in what time
>I want to lose 5 pounds of weight during the next 2 months while using low fat diet and exercising 2 days a week
goal defined in a smart way. Goals are defined in detail and can be measured.
The key to success is to always get yourself to do things. Even if you don't like them. So for example if you want to do fitness on wednesdays, pack your fitness bag on tuesday evening already so when you wake up on wednesday morning you already see the bag and already know today you gonna do fitness. Basically do a list of tasks that will help you to achieve your greater goal and then always bring yourself to do them. Maybe make a list every week and cross out something when you did it.
I wish you good luck for your project!