>>166158Actually me too (regarding the abusive coke-habit bf thing), and he's the guy I wasted 4 years of my life on chasing around trying to fuck over because I refused to let my feelings for him go.
I used to think I was subtle in my actions, but I look back now and I realise how obvious I was.
I was a joke; an angry, bitter joke that nobody wanted to be around because I couldn't let go of my baggage and would fling it around at every event. I was a fucking mess.
I met him again the other night at a party. I'm currently enrolled at university doing the very subject he used to be mad for and am top of my class, I'm succeeding in ways he always convinced me I was too stupid to attain, physically I've become more attractive than all the women be used to compare me to and bully me over, and my confidence has exploded.
He on the hand has become a legit drug addict who seriously has to snort codeine every night just to get to sleep, and from what I've heard his kidneys and bladder are so fucked up from abusing ket that he no longer has control of his bowel movements and will shit himself at random.
I let go of my anger and my rage, I purged all thoughts of him from my mind and I moved the fuck on in my life, and it's the sweetest revenge I ever tasted, but it turned sour pretty quickly because now I realise what a sad, horrible little man he was. I actually feel pity after having spoken with him, his brain is totally fried. He'll be dead in a few years.
Holding onto vengeful hatred is like holding hot coals in your hand.
You think you can use them to hurt other people but really the only one you're burning is yourself.
Anyway I totes want to hear your story too, you should tell me.