/ot/ - off-topic

Absolutely.

yes. fuck people.

I feel more alive when I'm behind a computer screen… I like people's company, but only while we're all doing the same thing…
I'll game with gamers, I'll chill in a chat room, but do NOT put in the same physical room as someone else.

>>160775
I love other people, I want to be around other people. But social interaction is so incredibly draining and exhausting, even on the internet. I feel incredibly conflicted and I don't know what I want from life.

Define "alone".

I hate speaking to people since since I find people loud, I hate my voice (it sounds stuffy, and sometimes I find that I slur), and it's always awkward.
But on another hand, I crave affection, not from a lot of people, but from like 1 or 2 people.
I love to be alone in a sense, but since I'm an anxious asspat, I'd rather be alone in a crowded place so if something happens I have witnesses.
But on some days I'll lock and isolate myself in my house because talking to people in real life is tiring to me.

(On another note, I think my behavior is leaking out online because now I'd rather not speak to my friends online neither.)

I love being alone. I can't stand talking to people in person. Even when I'm exercising, I have to be alone. Being with people makes me completely worn out and annoys me to the point where I'm angry and in a bad mood for the rest of the day. Just being in classes and work takes everything out of me.

Talking on here im fine though.

>>160775
I love loud, crowded parties/bars and going clubbing. But I like going alone or rather going with someone else but going are separate ways at the door and just making sure the other gets home safely when it`s over. Meeting new people is fun and interesting, and I love being around strangers in my age group then never speaking to them again.

But I also like shopping, eating at restaurants, wandering the city, travelling, etc alone. Being with anyone for an extended period of time stresses me out. I love strangers, yet I can't be near the same person for more than an hour, probably, without getting pissed off. At home, I like to do my own thing.

Yep, I have some social anxiety and I'm an introvert. I'm almost always alone.
I love going on long walks and bike rides by myself. I don't mind being in a crowded place, but I like to be alone and observe rather than be involved.
Although there are times when I'm alone in bed I wish I had a boyfriend or just friends to hang out with.

If I was able to find a job that I could do at home I would probably never really leave my house unless it was for groceries. Hell, the only reason why I even have a relationship and in person friends now is purely because of my job. I love my man but I get really happy when I get the house to myself. I could've been perfectly content being alone though.

I love being alone but I get lonely.
My life is a paradox.

I really don't, I just hate being alone with my thoughts. I like being around people even if I'm really shy.

>>160785
same

I have a job in retail so I usually talk to customers and co-workers but outside of that I've been friendless and a loner for almost five years. I used to try making plans with friends but they'd always flake and it just became easier to do things alone.

I don't mind being by myself but I'm finding it really hard to re-integrate into a more sociable person, especially with trying to get another job. I'm also terrified of posting on social media sites again because it's been so long since I've spoken to anyone I was acquaintances with.

I've always had problems making friends since I've suffered from ADD and social anxiety for as long as I can remember. I was the "weird girl" at school who was always spaced out and got bullied and picked on by girls a lot. I managed to make my first friends in high school, but they were all guys. Strangely enough, everything was SO much easier with them. They never picked on me or make me feel uncomfortable. It came so naturally with them, unlike the few times I tried to make friends with girls. Those few years were the best years of my life. Everything changed when I hit college, though. All my friends moved away and I was alone again. That's when my social anxiety really began to down-spiral. The second year I was at college I had this classmate who was gorgeous and into lolita fashion. She noticed I was into weeb shit too, so she began talking to me. I tried SO hard to talk to her, but only spaghetti came out of my mouth. Like, seriously, I went FULL RETARD whenever I spoke to her. I was so nervous and anxious that I twitched all funny and was hyper-aware of all of my mannerisms and how she might be judging me that I was just a mess. She seemed to be really sweet but I was just so intimidated by her and thought she was talking to me out of pity. One day she said 'lol anon you should really come over to my house to make some macarons' and I was so nervous that I agreed. BOY was this a mistake. I dropped a lifetime's worth of pasta the whole way. After we got there, I tried my best to stay in control, but I kept having to excuse myself to her bathroom to have a panic attack. Like, not shitting you here, I went to her bathroom like 6-7 times in like 3 hours. I was trapped and I wanted to gtfo out of there so I came up with a bullshit excuse that I got sick all the sudden and had her take me back to my dorm. She never spoke to me after that, and this permanently fucked me up. Right now I'm in the process of going to therapy but it hasn't really helped at this point.

TL;DR bullies and anxiety will ruin your life

I enjoy the parties i get invited to (very rarely), but i really dont mind spending my days alone, i feel so much more at ease.

I had no friends to begin with, but my roommate and I got along ok. She's now moving out to live with friends in another dorm. I'll be alone in my dorm for the rest of the year most likely. On one hand, I can masturbate and stuff like that now, but on the other, I'll be completely alone and isolated. I do like to spend time alone, but something feels wrong

I have to spend time alone or else I get pissy. Too much interaction is really trying on my nerves and psyche. If I spend all day with people in a non-classroom setting, I seriously need to next day to myself.

>>160791
Well the paperwork went through. She's gone. I'm alone in my dorm for the rest of the year most likely.

I want to be alone and I want a companion at the same time

>>160794
Yeah, this is how I feel. It's contradictory but I can't deny the feeling. It really hits me even with social interaction, I can feel completely drained after a few hours with people, but I wake up the next day and feel drained like I've been in complete isolation for a week.

I feel like I want to be alone but I also know it's a social norm to have people so I feel like that's why I'm depressed.

>>160795

I don't think it's impossible to enjoy the company of a close companion and be antisocial at the same time. My husband almost doesn't count as social interaction because we are practically the same person. We like to be "alone together". We feel no pressures to be anything but our authentic selves. I pretty much don't speak to anyone else and I don't want to.

If it wasn't like this, I'd rather be alone. I am too laid back, maybe even apathetic, to have to work hard at relationships.

>>160794
>>160795
You are me.

The more I grow up the more I try to stay alone. I feel like I'm slowly losing my friends but honestly I don't care, they annoy me. They don't understand that some people want to spend time alone, and not laugh and play everytime.

I have a deep desire for friends, even if it's just one really good friend, but it takes too much out of me to make and maintain relationships. I feel too exhausted after social interactions and need days to recuperate.

I'm also really picky about who I keep as a friend. I can't stand people who like a lot of small talk or who have generic tastes. I blame that on being a loner in school and my only social interactions being on 4chan.

I spend a ton of time alone, I don't have a roommate and haven't made friends in any of my classes, but I do try and interact socially every once in a while because I know it isn't good for me to be completely socially retarded. I also feel conflicted about having friends. I like talking to my friends over social media but I hate hanging out with them, particularly my best friend. I feel like we have really funny conversations over texting, but when I have to actually be with her, I can't wait to leave.

>>160802
>>160798
Join clubs/societies. I like time alone to go online too but being alone at university was really unhealthy for me, not regularly being around people outside of a classroom made it hard for me to remember how to be sociable for a long time after i graduated. I don't want you to suffer the same.

>>160803
I've been thinking about joining some clubs, I think I will next year.

I like to spend most of my time alone, or at least just with my long-term boyfriend who doesn't make me feel nervous or pressured to impress, since we've lived together for years and it's like whatever at that point. My other friends are great too and I love them but I'm not at a point where I can hang out with them more than once a week. It's even kind of tough for me to keep up friendships due to stress but I try really hard because it is nice to have friends anyway.

I got rid of all my friends when I was 20. I'm 24 now and don't miss them at all. It's kind of weird actually, those were people I've known for years. Feel kind of bad for them since they tried to stay in contact

>>160801
are you me?

I love being alone, and I got lucky and ended up with a one-bed dorm room so I don't have to share my space with anyone. My friend is getting basically kicked out of her room this weekend because her roommate's boyfriend is coming over and she is insistent that they fuck whether my friend is there or not, so I might have to let her stay for the weekend…

>>160808
Submitted before I was finished. Anyway yeah I don't feel comfortable letting other people live with me, even just for two days, even though she's my friend.

I feel alienatied from humanity and I've become very reclusive. Usually I don't feel lonely but sometimes it hits me and I really suffer. Especially when my libido comes around (due to depression it's sort of deactivated most of the time).
I consider myself asexual as in, I have no interest in penetrative sex, but I'm definitely very kinky. Right now I just really long for that kind of sensual intimacy and to control/dominate someone, man or woman doesn't even matter. Sometimes it really sucks not to have anyone but finding someone compatible who doesn't want sex but is willing to engage in my kinky fantasies is just too damn hard. Yeah, at the moment I feel alone as fuck. Makes you feel like you're a different species sometimes.

I actually do enjoy meeting people, but whenever I'm becoming close with someone, I start getting v annoyed and start pushing them away. Out of misanthropy or whatever.

Vicious cycle, because I do want good friends and don't want to die alone :/

>>160810
>someone compatible who doesn't want sex but is willing to engage in my kinky fantasies

become a dominatrix.