/ot/ - off-topic

The internet (and Tumblr).
My sleep schedule is fucked because I'm too retarded to rip myself away from my keyboard.
This means I sleep more in the day and spend the moments where I actually am awake in my bed at my laptop, which means I eat less (because I have literally become too lazy to get out of bed more than once or twice), which means I have less energy and become physically fatigued, irritated or emotional even more easily than I do under normal conditions. It also means I'm more withdrawn and socially anxious than usual, and that's always great fun.
idk I'm just glad I don't do any hard drugs. If this is what I'm like with a magic electric box with pretty colors inside it, I'd probably get fucked up very, very easily on chemicals.
On the bright side, I'm losing weight.

>>15576
fuck, same here

I hate it though because I use the internet more like this when I'm stressed, and I'm typically stressed around exam periods, like now

I have finals this week, need to write 2 papers and do some math stuff due at 1 pm, but I'm here instead, rolling my eyes at the bs threads

The Internet and porn.

The thing is, if I have a good day, surround myself with friends and actually go out and do something, the Internet and porn aren't even on my mind.

Unfortunately, this doesn't happen a lot.

4chan.
It's so fucking stupid too. I waste countless hours posting about shit that I'm not even invested in or have nothing to gain from arguing. I post for the sake of posting.

What the fuck is wrong with me.

I'm addicted to Ambien.
Best high from any drug I've ever used.

Though… I've been stealing them from a family member. I want to stop because I can't sleep without them, and they're not mine to continue taking. Any recommendations on convincing myself to stop? Anyone every quit heavy-duty sleeping pills before?

>>15704

I'm addicted to ruffling feathers online too. It just gets so funny to see people get defensive over shit you could care less about. I mainly do this when i should be doing more productive things.

(I should be packing for a trip tomorrow, but I'm on here)

internet and lip balm

>>15704
What boards do you usually browse?

Not eating.

I'm addicted to eating disordered behaviors, the internet, and taking selfies. Basically, I just really want to be internet famous and it's mostly taken over my life. There's much more to the eating disorder than that, but no one wants to read a wall of text I could write about that. I'm dependent on Seroquel for sleep, but it's prescribed to me, so I dunno if that counts.

Adderall lol

The internet and drugs. I started going online at age 9 and using drugs at age 14. Definitely fucked up my life.

2D guys.

Real talk, I've been so blinded by what they can offer me, and how I can meld them into what I want to, I have no physical attraction to real boys, at all.

I'd like to believe it's because I have shit confidence and bad shares with real guys, but it's at a point where I do not see myself with anyone in the near future, as I find relationships gross as fuck.

I'm fucking 19, and this addiction needs to be fucking fixed.

>>15769
I went through that. I thought that I was really fucked up because I didn't have any desire to date or do other normal teenage stuff. But, I grew completely out of it. I think you will too.
Though, I had to let a lot of stuff go. It was really hard sometimes. I felt like when I was banishing a "character" from my life, it was like someone real to me had died. I had invested so much time into a fantasy that didn't exist and it scared me to imagine a world where that security blanket wasn't there. Where my perfect love, and happy life wasn't just a complete illusion. Looking back, I realize I wasted a lot of time on something that didn't actually make me happy, because it turned me into an outcast.

>>15742
That's my dream anon… wat'd you tell your physician.

>>15769
Same

>>15769
i'm not trying to be a dick but
you need professional help

>>15779
3DPD woop woop.
Yes, I'm aware I need to get help.

>>15769
>>15770
I'm 25 and I still feel like 2D is the way to go.

I regret nothing.

Addicted to vyvanse, always take more them I'm supposed to. I've been three days without it and I feel like shit, I have legit ADD though. I feel like the ADD symptoms have come back trifold and I've completely forgotten how to deal with them without meds. I take way too much and use them up before I can get them refilled. On that note, does anyone take adderall? Is it better?

I like little boys.

>>17128
My understanding with Vyvanse is that taking more of it doesn't really increase the effects very much, it just makes it last in your system longer. It's a "pro-drug" designed to prevent that sort of abuse. It's not actually a drug itself, it just kicks your body into a mode where it combines native body substances with the substances in the drug, and starts producing amphetamine naturally.

If you want to actually feel a serious amplification in effect, you would need something like Adderall or Dexedrine.

However, amphetamine addiction and abuse is extremely bad for your health and your brain, especially if you keep ramping up the doses. Psychological damage and brain damage will occur. Tolerance is nearly impossible to avoid, though some substances like magnesium and memantine can slow the rate at which tolerance occurs by a great deal.

Amphetamine addiction will eventually cause you to stop feeling much pleasure or motivation to do anything, even when you're taking a very high dose of the drug every day. And if you decrease or stop the dose without very long tapering, you'll likely become deeply depressed and probably suicidal.

Try to do a good service to your future self and work on a plan to reduce or halt your dosage. Otherwise you'll may deeply regret it.

I have pretty bad ADD myself but only take adderall once every 1 or 2 weeks on average, when I want to get a lot of work done. So far I have almost no tolerance and likely no lasting brain changes. During the regular week, I use less harmful stimulants, like caffeine and modafinil. I'd recommend looking into modafinil, it's legal to buy from other countries and is arguably even safer than caffeine.

Unfortunately, taking modafinil in combination with Vyvanse or another amphetamine drug will not let you see what the drug is actually like… but if you stop taking Vyvanse you'll suffer from withdrawal symptoms for a while, which will also affect how it works. Try working on a plan to reduce or stop your amphetamine intake, wait a while for the withdrawal to get less severe, then try experimenting with modafinil. Note however that some people with ADD do not see much focus improvement with modafinil (it's primarily a wakefulness-promoting drug, not designed to be a focus drug), though some ADD sufferers do. So it's worth trying but I can't guarantee it will help you much.

I also try to get a lot of sleep, which can help me focus as well.

>>17128
I take adderall and my shrink pretty much gave it to me when I asked for it.
I know the feel about taking too much tho like you start to feel it slipping out of your fingers and then you panick and take more and then you realize that you're running out. Taking more adderall (instant release) when you already have some in your system will noticeably like perk you up and shit but if you're taking like xr sometimes it won't really amplify the effect, and will mostly just prolong it.

>>17131
Thanks for this, it was very helpful. I'll definitely look into the modafinil, does it go by any brand names?

I have trichotillomania. I'm addicted to pulling my hair out and I'm almost bald. I want to stop, but I feel like I need it, kind of like an eating disorder, I guess?

>>15562
Addicted to some pain medications after using them for 7 years and still in need of them. Without them I go in to a horrible withdraw effect. Opioids are horrible things.

Addicted to popping pimples and blackheads, too. I pick at my husband's back every now and then.

Guess the internet is another addiction?

Sugar. Like coca cola.
Drink at least 1 L a day, usually more.

Dieting. I'm so sick of all the tasty shit I can't eat. I want it so badly but can't have it.

>>15698
>Internet and porn
>if i have a good day, surround myself with friends and actually go out the internet and porn aren't even on my mind
Gurl i feel you

>>15713
>lipbalm
holy shit i thought i was alone, i think i have like half a hundred of different lipbalms that i barely ever use but i just like all the scents and how smooth it feels and it's pretty

I am going through zyprexa withdrawal. I am going to have to quit my other psych meds too. Psychiatrists piss me off I was better before all the pills.

>>17166
this used to be me. last month I quit drinking Coke cold turkey and I haven't picked it up since :')

>>15576
This is me, though I don't use Tumblr. I'm basically just online every second I can be

I wouldn't say I'm "addicted", but I do love to robotrip from time to time. I never really talk about it much, though, since it's so taboo even in the drug world. I know the shit's bad for you, but I think it's ridiculous that I've had a ~heroin users~ tell me it's fucked up to abuse cough medicine.

>>17131
How would you buy it from other countries? Do you buy from Canada online? Would you happen to know why it's prescription only within the states?

>>17263
I used to robitrip every few months. Stopped because I literally felt like I was dying the last time I did. And it makes me really itchy. I do like how it fucks with your perception of time and all of the sudden 4 hours go by. And sinking into the bed. Closed eye visuals. Why is it so taboo among drug users?

On ADD meds, I like their effects, but they increase my sex drive to the point where it's annoying and they make me sweat like a pig. How do you cope?

food and yea. theres something in my mouth literally 90% of my waking hours
my teeth are fucked

>>17928
Do you chew gum?