/g/ - girl talk

>ex's dad died when he was a kid
>his stepdad was an alcoholic and verbally abusive towards him, would threaten to beat him up
>he hated his mom and blamed her for everything wrong in his life, even though she helped him and bought him everything pretty much (he was jobless and broke)
>he became really obsessed with middle aged men as substitute father figures
>was obsessed with a bunch of really repulsive older moid celebrities and influencers/youtubers who he basically let taught him how to live
>literally admitted to having 'daddy issues' in his own words
>watched porn with disgusting old men having sex with teenage girls and self inserted as the old dude
>aspired to be a 'based sleazy old bastard pervert' and talked about how he would fuck 'endless 18 year old bimbos when I'm 60'
>really wanted to befriend middle aged dudes and thought everything they had to say was based and hilarious
>just really wanted to be a gross old man for some reason I guess maybe to outlive his dad or follow in his footsteps (even though his dad actually sounded like a decent and normie guy)
>was constantly posting and sending memes to do with middle aged moids
>would get visibly nervous, shaky, and sweaty around middle aged men and stammered his speech
>also had a severe porn addiction and also had weird incest fantasies about his sisters and stole their underwear to masturbate with when he was in his teens
>called me sick and mentally ill for shaming him for this ('I was just a horny kid!')

On one hand I despised him for being so pathetic and disgusting, on the other hand I felt sorry for him for being mentally ill as a result of trauma. I will never date a man with daddy issues again. They're too fucking weird.

My ex boyfriend literally came on me when i was asleep. Like, i was slepping, he masturbated and came on my fucking face. I still was with him for a year after that

Context: it was a long distance e-relationship, we started talking when I was 15 and he was 19 and we got together a bit after I turned 16, I was a troubled teen (depressed + bad home life). I dumped him shortly after I turned 18 and my friend encouraged me to break free and contact police, he proceeded to stalk and occasionally harrass me for 2 years (he also sent me a mail "jokingly" asking for nudes a few months ago, I've had to change my phone number and delete email adresses several times)
>promised me a better life from my family, especially after CPS took me in, never did shit because he was broke
>requested nudes and videos that I sent out of fear he'd cheat otherwise or watch porn because I was retarded, pressured me to keep it quiet because he'd risk jail
>yelled at me whenever I'd vent (to be fair I did say depressing shit way too often) so now I bottle up all the time to this day
>had a cycle where he was overly nice for like 2 or 3 weeks, an asshole on the 3rd/4rth and then cried apologizing, rinse and repeat
>threatened to break up when I was mad at something he did and blocked me everywhere without a word until I apologized
>would claim I had BPD because of "abandonement issues" just because I was scared his ghostings/blockings would be forever when they happened (he would imply they were by calling me dead weight before blocking me for example)
>convince me to get tested for BPD, I asked my psych to do it, twice on different years, both times it was revealed I didn't have it
>still claimed I was crazy whenever I'd go against him, convinced me to stay away from loved ones
>obese (catfished me with thinner pics of him at the beginning)
>would pretend to be bisexual to pander to me for a year before he'd claim "no actually, i don't think i ever said that, you mst've misunderstood" (you literally told me you wanted to suck some celebs' dicks…)
>i was in an ambulance for a suicide attempt and reached out to him for support, he'd respond with memes of ppl looking exhasperated or memes he made of my selfies to mock me because i "ruined his day with family" (i didn't know his family would visit), would later on forbid me to bring it up out of shame
>i would blame myself because i saw myself as the burden so i would let him walk all over me
>ghosted me without a word for like a week and half when CPS took me in because "it was too much for me, i needed a break"
>cussed me out daily while i was hospitalized shortly before the break-up, my final motivation to break free
>threatened death and rape when I contacted authorities post-breakup (they didn't do shit in the end sadly)
And yes, my parents, and my school councelor and the social worker helping me all endorsed that shit. Nobody thought the age difference was weird. Also, I wanna say that I know I'm as much of a cow as him for staying with him for so long and getting with someone who was willing to get with a teenager, not claiming i'm a saint here

>>560358
moids will really act like monsters and then when you respond in an appropriate and understandable way they'll say 'maybe you have bpd'? total scum.

>>560323
i hate men so much its unreal

>>560323
This dude sounds like he wanted to be fucked by an old guy tbh.

>>560551
I considered that too but I snooped through his extensive post and search history and never actually found anything gay.

>>560554
It's still possible, if he's watching a lot of porn with old dudes in it he might be focusing on them more than he'd admit even to himself. It seems like they're more important to him than the girl.

>>560629
Unfortunately he was into a lot of teen solo content too, but never watched old moid sexual content by itself, so I really dont think so. I think he would have told me if he was gay too since I knew pretty much every other degen thing about him by that point, being gay would have been the least of my worries.

>>560641
It's more about him not being able to admit it to himself why he's obsessed with seeing men who don't look like him have sex. He doesn't sound fully gay, but maybe has bi-tendencies he doesn't fully understand.

>>560648
Nah I really don't think he was gay in a sexual way at all. He had a weird body dysmorphia where he thought of himself as really fat, ugly and ogreish looking even though he wasnt. He would always post those ugly pepe frogs with ashbie memes, or the ugly fat apu memes.
He just liked the ugly old bastard and cute young girl porn niche, unfortunately like tons of coomers do. It's a defilement thing that men like, and also a male ego thing imo, like it makes them think 'If even he can get a girl like that, I can too.' It's just entitlement and wanting to see women being violated and not getting any pleasure from getting fucked by a disgusting subhuman and it's actually a pretty popular genre among moids from what I've seen.

>>560648
nta but there's a lot of straight moids who are into cuckolding and bbc stuff because they see it as a humilation ritual for the woman (i mean the name for the guy who cucks them is literally bull aka a beast/animal and not a human) but ya men are all a little bit spiritually gay deep down

>>560648
The insistence that anons loser ex is gay is weird, he just sounds like retard porn addict.