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No. 162346

Tell us why you follow Shat

Some questions for farmers who follow Shay's threads to consider:
> What's the cause of your Shaytism/Shaytardation? Are you a sex worker or a coomer or just possibly morbidly fascinated?
> Did you know Shaynus in real life/have you interacted with her?
> How long have you been following her threads for?
> Do you contribute milk often?
> What is your life like? Are you a NEET?
> Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?

No. 162349

I'll start.

I am a 25 year old woman with a graduate degree and a respectable job (never done sex work) who is simply fascinated by this woman's antics after coming across her on LC many years ago. First of all, I am probably somewhat on the spectrum but I don't care to get tested. If anything, I have some form of aspergers that fortunately makes me smart but also makes me have weird fixations on lolcows like Shayna. I know it's weird that a non-sex-worker and woman who doesn't watch porn could screenshot her [free] porn videos but I view them more like comedy than porn. Actual porn legit depresses me but Shayna's downfall is entertaining knowing what she's truly like. There's something about Shayna's lack of sex appeal and her hatred for enjoyable sex that makes me KEK. I have shown female friends her porn videos and they've laughed too at how ridiculous and bad they are. I have probably been a Shaytard for over 3 years now and within the last year have started contributing milk regularly (mostly her tweets).
Tbh I need to channel more of my time spent on Shat's thread into other hobbies because while Shayna is funny to other people, as I do strangely do have a lot going for me but my priorities are wack. I am not fat nor am I jealous of Shayna. I simply have too much time on my hands and enjoy being an internet sleuth and this slightly-autistic fixation. I think a big part of me wants to uncover another big reveal like Mike Slack or Fupa's Return because sometimes she's so damn boring although I do find her typical behavior hilariously predictable and fun for that reason sometimes. I find that I spend more time on her thread when I have less going on in my life.

No. 162350

I don't want to say Shayna's a "Comfort Cow" but I will say it's very easy reading.
I do get annoyed and angry but I just give it a break. It's reliable, it's always an dumb tweet or something.
I found Shayna during the Fupaul saga, I remember seeing a picture of her with I believe a cowboy hat on? Or maybe just that neon Kodak tank top, sandals and socks, i remember her getting roasted. I was confused, she just looked like a poorly dressed woman. I'd scroll past her thread all the time.
Then one time I clicked a spoiler and I was like, "Holy shit this is straight up porn, why are they posting straigh t up porn of this woman???"
And I saw another picture of her badly dressed and I was like, "Whats the story?" So I started reading the the thread.
>Am I a sex worker
no
>Do you know Shayna irl
no
>How long have you been following her?
Whatever year she was in that cowboy hat with Fupaul
>Do I contribute to milk often
No. The only thing I've ever done milky was when, I found an old post of Fupaul's the night where Shayna acted a fool. I forgot what he said,but I found he was hanging with a women and a gay scrote. I can't remember it all. Oh and I found Shane Pierre Sonnier's mugshot. I do not go to shay's twitter often, in fact I hate going to her twitter at all.
I don't post recaps from her twitter often, I do comment a lot in her threads.
>Are you fat and jealous?
I'm fat but not jealous of Shayna.

I don't get the aggressive tone of the OP, you seem to have your own idea of the people in Shayna's thread, when I truly believe there's more anons who just comment, leave and come back and comment. Not everyone is some sex worker, or obessed or even really that invested. She's just an very easy cow to get into, she's very repetitive.
She's not likeable and constantly failing, I think that appeals to a lot of people who watch Cows.

No. 162351

>>162350
I’m the OP and it was written sarcastically since farmers assume that the threads are full of sex workers and coomers or that we’re all hideous NEETs with no life. It was supposed to be a joke but I guess that wasn’t obvious enough.

No. 162352

>>162351
oh sorry nona

No. 162357

>>162352
No problem! I hope my joking tone didn’t scare anons off because I am genuinely curious as to how many anons are like me with zero ties to the sex industry or her stoner blog and just are here out of morbid curiosity and unintentional “comedy porn” keks. I’m not trying to make fun of any anons here!
I should have asked more questions about anons’ opinions on porn and whether they consider themselves radfems or not.

No. 162359

im 27, work in tech, have never done any sort of sex work. ive only been following the threads for about a year now, which is around when I first started lurking on lolcow. i dont post milk too frequently as I don't really use social media. tbh I just enjoy doomscrolling on lolcow after work and I clicked on her thread one day and kept the tab open.

No. 162361

Are you a sex worker or a coomer or just possibly morbidly fascinated?

Fascinated

> Did you know Shaynus in real life/have you interacted with her?


No

> How long have you been following her threads for?


Since winter 2018. I felt genuinely sick to my stomach when I first stumbled across her. Like put my phone down and feel physically disturbed by her content. I was following plasticandproud which is how I found lolcow and one day realized there were other threads and saw shaynas. even tho she made me sick, I was at my grandparents house for holiday and had nothing better to do at all. So I went back on her threat from morbid curiosity. Ended up binging her threads that whole holiday (my family’s boring we just sit around). I was hooked and still look daily

> Do you contribute milk often?

Never

> What is your life like? Are you a NEET?

Idk what a Neet is. I run a business, have a house and relationship. No kids. Travel monthly. lol cows my secret internet addiction.

> Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?

No and no. When she went through her no makeup era I was genuinely really sad and horrified for her. I think I’m so jaded and hardened now

No. 162362

What's the cause of your Shaytism/Shaytardation? Are you a sex worker or a coomer or just possibly morbidly fascinated?

Morbidly fascinated. I came to the website in like 2018 to read about abby Brown because I'd seen her on fb and ended up looking around at other cows. I don't personally follow cows or keep up with any outside their threads, which I view almost as a social experience. I like interacting with the farmers and reading everyone's comments.

> What is your life like? Are you a NEET?

Im a neet but only be because im disabled. So I have a lot if free time to read threads.
> Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?
I'd say I'm about as fat as shayna is, this comes back to being disabled thankfully im not an alcoholic drug addict. Shayna does serve as a warning to get my act together though.

In the end I think the community discussion of the cow is almost more important than the milk itself. Shayna is offensive but I don't read about her because she's the worst of the worst, but rather because she has a thread and other people don't.

No. 162364

I'll be the first to admit sex work itt. I'm a former camgirl/clip maker (never full time, just for extra cash and validation) and followed her on tumblr years ago. Following Shay's threads (about a year ago at this point) was part of the impetus of me deleting my porn accounts because I realized I'm fatter than I was at 19 and was aging out – just like Shay lol.

I'm 29, have a graduate degree, fulfilling professional career, happy marriage, hobbies, just bought a house last year.

She's a trainwreck and I can't look away.

No. 162367

>>162364
Interesting that you followed her on tumblr first. How did you find lolcow? What were your first impressions when you read the thread, did you think it was just haters?

No. 162368

> What's the cause of your Shaytism/Shaytardation? Are you a sex worker or a coomer or just possibly morbidly fascinated?
Followed her on tumblr briefly for a while. She was mutuals with a person I was friends with. Thought she was a bitch. Remember when she got ribmeat and thinking to myself how pretty of a cat she was. Only unfollowed cuz I remade my blog. Later found myself on lolcow after hearing about it on KF from nemu’s thread (finding myself preferring here over there lol). Saw her face and was like “oh no. It’s fucking shay-gnar. She was kinda a huge bitch but her cat was cute” then it turned into “karma really is a bitch…” over time
Since then haven’t been able to look away… can’t tell you why i am still here. We get Groundhog Day a lot but then we get weird curve balls of different arcs in the shay lore (ex: the dawn arc is still the oddest to me) so it’s hard to look away lmao

> Did you know Shaynus in real life/have you interacted with her?

This is a more if I did/if I did now.
If I did I could tell you she would only like me cuz I don’t talk much and would be just so shocked by her behavior all the time that talking to her ass would be hard… let alone being nice.
If I did now I would be trying to vaguely manipulate her into taking care of herself so often she may end up hating me lmao

> How long have you been following her threads for?

Thread 5, give or take. I remember it being towards end of thread 5 at least. Right when she began her arc as what we know as now. Dolly Mattel the shaytistic queen.

> Do you contribute milk often?

I try my best to when I can. I don’t check my socials much despite having them. I did the shitty summary of the big gulp girls video for people who can’t stand to watch that shit. It was interesting to say the least.

> What is your life like? Are you a NEET?

A neet trying her best to become less of a NEET who likes to laugh at other neets that don’t.

> Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?

No but she made me realize I was becoming a fat NEET and I need to get out more. Still kinda a NEET but better then before.
Tho I guess I was jealous of her having ribmeat back in the tumblr days lmao.

The true pipeline I have had from reading her threads is this:
Why is she on this site? -> she really needs to take care of herself -> okay well I can see why but she seems to be having some serious issues -> slight sympathy but draining -> no more sympathy just wanna grab her by the shoulders and shake her -> weird acceptance that she’s just retarded and deluded -> now being unable to look away cuz it’s just such a mess

No. 162370

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> What's the cause of your Shaytism/Shaytardation? Are you a sex worker or a coomer or just possibly morbidly fascinated?
Morbidly fascinated

> Did you know Shaynus in real life/have you interacted with her?

Yes, on Tumblr before she was into porn. I had a relatively well known stoner/psychedelic blog and we were mutuals. Fun fact; Shay and her irl/Tumblr squad Colleen(thcolleen) and Jess (psychedelic-freak-out rip) were all under 18 and hid that fact from their followers and mutuals until they turned 18. That was a big no-no in the drug community that burned a lot of people.

> How long have you been following her threads for?

Since the first thread which has since been nuked. I believe it was 2017 or around that year, I was shocked to see she was posted. I unfollowed her blog shortly after she started doing porn because I have always hated porn.

> Do you contribute milk often?

No, never. Once I said Fupa looked like the son of a leprechaun and a gorilla who worked at Zumiez and anons referenced it for a few threads as a certified knee-slapper, that was some pretty sweet validation but other than that no. Years ago for the keks I directed some people from the Tumblr stoner/psychonaut community to her threads because she had a horrible reputation in that community which is not discussed here. I do not know if those people still lurk or contribute.

> What is your life like? Are you a NEET?

My life is great, I'm 27, educated, have a promising career and am married to the Nigel of my life. I no longer participate in degenerate communities irl or online. LC and discord are my only means of social media.

> Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?

I am fit and I am not jealous in the least bit of Shayna. If you asked me this question in 2014-2016, I would have answered yes to being jealous. The tides have turned.

No. 162373

>>162346
>What's the cause of your Shaytism/Shaytardation?
I was allowed online as a child and started browsing image boards while I was underage.

Are you a sex worker or a coomer or just possibly morbidly fascinated?
Morbidly fascinated and also amused.

>Did you know Shaynus in real life/have you interacted with her?

I live in a different country and I have never interacted with her in anyway.

>How long have you been following her threads for?

I remember her first threads being in the /snow/ catalog but I didn't follow the threads until she was in Oklahoma with Fupa.

>Do you contribute milk often?

I don't use social media so I don't contribute milk directly. I do make shart, gifs and shedits though.

>What is your life like? Are you a NEET?

I'm married and I help my husband run his business and I do freelance work.

>Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?

I'm not fat. I live an active lifestyle where I'm outside for most of the day. I also lift weights and go trail running. Shayna is my motivation for when I don't feel like doing it. I would never be jealous of her, I think I would end up killing myself if I was shut inside an apartment in a city.

No. 162375

> What's the cause of your Shaytism/Shaytardation? Are you a sex worker or a coomer or just possibly morbidly fascinated?
I’m neither, and I’ve never been interested in sex work. I was vaguely familiar with Shay from tumblr and i think what keeps me following her threads is her groundhog-day spiral into rock bottom as well as her hysterically funny “photo shoots.” I know some nonnies that hate Shay pathologize shayheads as being coomers in denial but her photos can be hysterically funny. Some nonnie once said that she read Shay’s thread like the newspaper and that’s sort of how I view it as well. The cringe “sex” faces and gut belts are like the funny pages kek
> Did you know Shaynus in real life/have you interacted with her?
No, but we are the same age and we are both from New England. I was initially sort of drawn to her because i realized she was the same stoner that I occasionally saw reblogged on tumblr. Her old stoner girl persona was a really common archetype for New England high school girls and she reminds me of kids I went to school with - except of course most of them went to college or at least became like ski instructors and shayna became… well, an obese failing fssw instead lol. She’s like the classmate I never had.
> How long have you been following her threads for?
Since 2019. I’ve been on Lolcow since 2018 but it took me a while to get into Shay. I started following in the purple hair era right when she started gaining weight.
> Do you contribute milk often?
Not really, I don’t have Twitter. I contribute edits/fanart sometimes. I’ve also chimed in when farmers are discussing something I’m familiar with. One of my favorite edits was made threadpic actually
> What is your life like? Are you a NEET?
Not a NEET, though I was for a year during Covid. I am a professional woman in a white collar job with a serious bf, two cats and lots of friends. I’m pretty normie-passing to be honest. I’ve always had personal Lolcows irl and after graduating college and leaving the majority of my personal lolcows in the past, Shayna has sort of taken their place
> Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?
No and no. I’ve always been skinny but a healthy weight. I have recently been getting into the gym again because shayna is a good example of a skinny girl who didn’t keep up healthy habits and expected her body to stay the same forever. There’s really nothing to be jealous of. Even if she was some Uber successful Barbie bimbo baby or whatever, she’d still have to wake up and live in her failing body every day. Pretty much the only think likable about her is her pets (that she mistreats)

No. 162376

> What's the cause of your Shaytism/Shaytardation? Are you a sex worker or a coomer or just possibly morbidly fascinated?
Morbidly fascinated and entertained at the weight gain, I was never a big drinker but I stopped entirely after reading about her kek

> Did you know Shaynus in real life/have you interacted with her?

Nope
> How long have you been following her threads for?
Since Sol Salvatol threads cause a few of my favorite cows threads like corpsehusband’s died
> Do you contribute milk often?
No
> What is your life like? Are you a NEET?
Not a neet, but a little bit of a socially anxious loser, hikkineet is a more appropriate term I think
> Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?
I’m jealous of shayna’s family and I’m not fat. Definitely not jealous of her physique i do leg day 2 times a week and browse her thread sometimes at the gym, the flat ass is horrific, I have unfortunate body fat distribution and genetics too and that’s why I avoid gaining weight entirely bro

No. 162380

I started reading around the Vivi saga. She's fun to check up on but I also get bored of her

> Are you a sex worker or a coomer

No, but I was exposed to porn on tumblr kind of like she was. I never agreed with the pro sex worker stuff and later got involved in more radical feminist spaces
> Did you know Shaynus in real life/have you interacted with her?
No kek
> How long have you been following her threads for?
Has it been like a year? Honestly don't remember
> Do you contribute milk often?
Never. I don't even watch her porn clips and I've never looked at her twitter myself
> What is your life like? Are you a NEET?
I work and have a social life so no
> Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?
I used to be one or two sizes smaller than her but I lost that covid weight and I feel a lot better.

No. 162383

I first came to lolcow because of PlasticnProud, and would always see Shayna's gross lolcow banners. Eventually made my way over to the Shayna thread when PnP's milk dried up like her patchy skin and never looked back. I always love a good PnPxShayna cow crossover.

>What's the cause of your Shaytism/Shaytardation? Are you a sex worker or a coomer or just possibly morbidly fascinated?


never did sex work, but did spend an ungodly amount of time in chatrooms and flashed titties for coomers for attention and cause "i wasnt like other girls" when I was in my teens. i often wonder if i would have turned out like shayna if I had been born a gen Z kid. i am so grateful i didnt grow up in modern times and most of my idiot behaviour is deeply, deeply buried online.

> Did you know Shaynus in real life/have you interacted with her?


I have cowtipped in the past

> How long have you been following her threads for?


2 Years

> Do you contribute milk often?


Often. My desktop and phone is often full of Shayna pics from posting them in the thread. I have made several threads and contributed thread pics.

>What is your life like? Are you a NEET?


single, 36 year old, female. works in finance, 63k a year. loner type, chronically online, probably have autism. shayna has remained a longstanding "special interest" because she is so consistently and openly retarded.

> Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?


around 75kg. never knew shayna when she was skinny, but its incredibly sad to see what she did to her body. shes a cautionary tale to me and a "at least im not shayna" when my life sucks.

No. 162386

I'm morbidly fascinated at how much somebody can have so many chances and still be a fuck up. I have a personal cow I keep tabs on for similar reasons, consistently getting bailed out and born with a silver spoon in her mouth but can never get her shit together. I have never interacted with Shaynus or met her. I never heard of her before lolcow because I didn't use Tumblr. I do screenshot some of her tweets and cam sessions. Not a sex worker, I have a degree and I'm a 32 year old boring mom that just happens to like imageboard formats and gossip/shit talking. Shay is also easy reading to keep tabs on because she's so predictable and everything she does only hurts herself.

No. 162389

I got to lolcow initially because of Ashley Isaacs. I kept seeing Shaynas thread mentioned after I’d gotten caught up with Luna and Onision, was bored one night, read through the thread with her in the bus for a thread pic (like thread 30 something iirc) and then went back and read to present day. I’ve been shindoctrinated ever since. I just can’t believe how bad she is at everything. It’s like binge watching hoarders, intervention, or 600lb life all at once. I don’t know her nor have I ever interacted with her, I try to make threads when I can or help other nonas in the thread, but I don’t contribute milk beyond screenshots when she cams. I have a great (tech/finance) job, a supportive circle of friends, boyfriend, and a family that I love, and am self reliant with multiple hobbies and interests. I am not remotely fat nor jealous, just morbidly fascinated.

No. 162390

>>162367
I discovered lc from kf, which I discovered from the Eugenia Cooney subreddit (another cow I can't help but gawk at).

I never had trouble believing Shay was trash because she never had a good 'reputation' on tumblr anyway, exemplified by shit like this
>>162370

The other sex workers I followed went on a hate/callout campaign during that initial neonazi drama. But gossip or those 'haters' aside, just based on what I remember from her blog, she always seemed stuck up but with no personality to back that attitude up: she never advertised her porn very well or creatively compared to other sw's in that ecosystem at the time, and I don't remember her ever posting about her fandoms, hobbies, interests etc, nothing to make her stand out as a person. Just the same ole fucked up fantasies she posts about now, which always got her tons of notes and attention but who cares.

When I first saw her on LC I was most surprised by the number of threads she'd accumulated. 'damn that girl I recognize from tumblr must be doing some whacky shit to warrant 100+ threads about her'

No. 162395

I discovered LC through 8chan. One day I kept seeing shaynas threads dominate the first page of /snow/, and ever since I've been enjoying her flop saga. It's got the same appeal as fanfiction.. sometimes I forget she's a real person and not just some retarded characiature of a sex worker. It's morbidly fascinating to me, I wanna see how low she gets before it stops being funny. No other cow has managed to hold my attention quite like shaynus. Must be because unlike cows like Venus Angelic, PNP and Luna, Shayna had a relatively good childhood. She chose sex work purely for attention and to spite her parents, but unlike the other girls who do this, it's been seven years and she hasn't come to her senses. She just doubles down and does nastier shit, so the harder she falls, the worse she gets, the more I can laugh at the stupid cow.

No. 162399

> What's the cause of your Shaytism/Shaytardation? Are you a sex worker or a coomer or just possibly morbidly fascinated?
she is a filthy degenerate but ive gotten some really good laughs from some of the posters in her threads
> Did you know Shaynus in real life/have you interacted with her?
never. only know of her from the farms even though i also was a teenage stoner on tumblr at the same time she was kek
> How long have you been following her threads for?
a few months, didnt understand the appeal to her threads at first but the other cows i follow stopped posting as much so i started coming to her threads more often. never change, shay.
> Do you contribute milk often?
no. i dont check any of her socials
> What is your life like? Are you a NEET?
i work full time and live with my boyfriend and cats
> Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?
no, i exercise and take care of my body. sometimes she inspires me on days when im too tired to want to do anything productive.

No. 162401

>>162383
what did you cowtip?

No. 162403

> What's the cause of your Shaytism/Shaytardation? Are you a sex worker or a coomer or just possibly morbidly fascinated?
I’ve been following her for like 5 yrs and have been so entertained I can’t stop. I used to have a heavy social media addiction which probably adds to my inability to get off lc. I don’t use socials anymore though
> Did you know Shaynus in real life/have you interacted with her?
Nope
> How long have you been following her threads for?
Since thread 3. I found lolcow because I Googled Abby Brown. I was Facebook friends with her (and Luna lol) she was so bizarre I googled the site. I was friends with a lot of “Facebook famous” individuals that I followed as lolcows before I even knew that was a thing. It’s been crazing seeing so many anon predictions come true years later
> Do you contribute milk often?
Not really
> What is your life like? Are you a NEET?
I’m a 23 yr old married SAHM. Hey, I need something to do after the baby goes to bed!
> Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?
No. I’m an average weight zumba addict who uses Shayna as fatspo. She’s inspired me in so many ways to let go of unhealthy habits and lifestyle choices I used to make once I realized they resembled hers kek

No. 162406

It's the only thread that always has new replies so I ended up checking it out whenever I checked my usual cow threads and saw no new replies.

No. 162407

>>162403
Lmao nonna I found lolcow the exact same way

No. 162415

>>162346
> What's the cause of your Shaytism/Shaytardation? Are you a sex worker or a coomer or just possibly morbidly fascinated?
I came to lolcow for the spectacular lost cow Phoebe tickner, we live in hope she will return to producing milk but her frontal lobe has probably developed and she's realised how retarded she was. I got into other cows on snow and started following Shay around the end of the fupa saga, because she produces constant milk. Bloggy but I went through FSSW, not through choice, when I was younger so I especially dislike cows like her who act like its all a fun game and not a horrific industry built off the backs of trafficked women. I'm now in my early 30s and have gotten free of all of that but it certainly gives personal context when I watch her shaynanigans.
> Did you know Shaynus in real life/have you interacted with her?
Never, I'm a britbong
> How long have you been following her threads for?
Since the end of fupasaga
> Do you contribute milk often?
Occasionally but being in a different time zone means I miss all the camshows (and hugely appreciate the farmers who provide the milk from those)
> What is your life like? Are you a NEET?
Had a shitty start to adult life but am thriving, good career, pleasant Nigel, am totally normal I just like scrolling lolcow in the bathroom. It's my version of watching a crappy daily soap opera.
> Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?
Not jealous in any way, I take care of myself but given that I'm not selling my body to sad little coomers I don't give a shit if it changes and doesn't fit rigid beauty standards. Women can be any size but those who willingly market themselves as a perfect barbie bimbo for money ought to deliver

No. 162418

I came to lolcow during the early days of pandemic boredom for momokun and then couldn’t stop seeing Shayna’s threads in snow. I decided to read from the beginning and have been hooked on her tard drama ever since kek. It’s the equivalent of trash TV for me I suppose, and I’m a personal trainer so I like to make myself rage over her poor diet and lack of exercise. Shay threads are my pre bed reading when I can’t get into a book. Seeing how smug she was in the early days really fueled my hate for her and kept me reading to watch her fail and fail again. I’m loving her current hopeless obese era. Also I really love all the fanart some of you nonnas make, truly the funniest art on all of lolcow.

No. 162428

Now is my time to shine:
I was in FSSW since the age of 13, it’s all I knew. I grew up in a household that was abusive, times were hard. I never really had friends and was weird. I used to walk home and got picked up one day, the man that picked me up drove a truck, long story short he took me to his house, had sex with me and threw me 100$. Total win in my book, I was able to buy clothes and school supplies needed, I ended up experimenting with drugs at an early age, lived with a parent that had substance abuse issues (and other mental issues).
Fast forward to me being 18 and at my first casting couch type thing, I’m strung out on meth, and always looking for male validation, that’s where I meet a man that wanted me as his “personal assistant”, and I end up stuck to this man for a year. He supplies me with meth and physically and mentally abused me. I worked at a strip club and also did porn on the side for extra cash, in videos of me doing things I wish I would’ve never done on film.
The videos are still out there, and I too was like shay, with the whole punk chick thing, then the weird *~pink Barbie uWu~* aesthetic. Very much thinking I would be the next Christi Mac, or the next Belladonna.

I cleaned up my act after hitting rock bottom, I lost everything, and realized these Coombes don’t think of sexworkers as people IRL, it’s naive, and I’ve got scars all over me from my time as a human flesh light to be used and abused.

I read shays threads because, I see a lot of my old self in her, and I worry about her getting hurt. This industry isn’t kind to the ones not in their right minds, in shays eyes I see a girl that was neglected all during her adolescence, doing anything for her parents validation. It’s until I became sober and graduated college I’m thankful I’m out of my old life, and happily living alone with my 2 cats. Shays the reality of sex work revolution where girls expect to become rich and famous for showing themselves doing the most depraved shit, but in reality the markets so oversaturated you’re stuck selling yourself for less.
She needs mental help, and medication. I really do feel nothing but sadness for these girls caught in this tragic lifestyle

No. 162435

>>162428
Im truly sorry you went through those horrible experiences nonna. You obviously had a rough start to life which is truly terrible. I know you relate to shayna in some ways but there's never been any proof of her being neglected by her family. The biggest complaint she has in the past about her parents was that they made her babysit her younger brother and freaked out when a gown man sent her an expensive camera that she met on tumblr. You had a rough start to life and it caused a lot of issues until you got free, but some people, like shayna, have everything given to them and yet still then out like shayna does.

I dont say this to really disagree with you because I can see how you relate to her, but she really did have everything given to her and never suffered at the hands of her parents. Imo that makes it all the more shocking and disappointing she turned out this way.

No. 162436

> What's the cause of your Shaytism/Shaytardation? Are you a sex worker or a coomer or just possibly morbidly fascinated?
Recently turned 29 year old woman and mother, which makes me feel a touch ashamed, but during my downtime lolcow is a guilty pleasure. I have a medical condition which leaves me fatigued and in pain, so the laughs here really help distract from bad days. I stumbled across the site… two years ago maybe? Perhaps less. Accidentally necro'd the Ashley Coffin thread kek. After some casual browsing, I discovered Shaynus almost immediately and was utterly perplexed at her antics. At first I believed she was trolling. Soon after I became morbidly fascinated. Presently I'm reading through the shatalog and boy it's a wild ride. Never been a SW or anything like that.
> Did you know Shaynus in real life/have you interacted with her?
Nope, but I did live in Oklahoma around the same time and wish I could have caught a wild sighting kek.
> How long have you been following her threads for?
About a month after a came here, so near about two years.
> Do you contribute milk often?
Nope. I just like to watch and occasionally comment on her horrorshow.
> What is your life like? Are you a NEET?
My life is greatly fulfilled aside from the medical condition. I manage a small business, live in a nice home, just remodeled and planning to have another baby. There is literally no reason for me to follow this weirdo yet here I am.
> Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?
I did gain some serious weight in the past few years. I quit drinking once I got my diagnosis, and fatshat motivated me to take control of my weight. I've lost thirty pounds since February and have thirty-five, forty more to go. I suppose I'm grateful for her in that sense. Jealous? Oh no absolutely not. I feel sad for anyone who is.

No. 162589

> What's the cause of your Shaytism/Shaytardation? Are you a sex worker or a coomer or just possibly morbidly fascinated?
I grew up so poor and unable to finish highschool, I was keeping the family afloat by selling $5 dog adoptables on deviantART. i guess I’m very frustrated and jealous of what it’s like to have a loving family willing to pay for your college, then throw it away over trying to be rebellious.

> How long have you been following her threads for?

Right before she broke up with fupapa for good, I was hooked. I’m too lazy to check how long ago that was.

> Do you contribute milk often?

Nope, I interact with other Nona’s only.

> What is your life like? Are you a NEET?

Still selling adoptables on deviantART but at least they go for proper prices and don’t have to support anyone but myself. I got an okay life, not very social because of terf reasons and all of my interests attract gendies, but I wouldn’t call myself socially inept by any means.

> Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?

Not fat but very jealous of what it could’ve been like for her.

No. 162654

36 y/o.. with two kids, pleasant marriage, a mortgage and a business. Have some actual retardation, but I'm medicated for it, kek. Never done sex work.
Found lolcow via Raven. A mutual friend of ours got threatened with lolcow by some girl named Ashley (I think? Its been a couple years now), I inquired about it and that's how I found the site. I noticed Shay was popular so I dug in around the time she lived in Seattle prior to Fupapa.
I just find her interesting in the way a train wreck is. I've never contributed milk, I don't think I've ever even commented on her thread but I check it more than any other thread.
I'm not overweight but I have big hips. Also the only thing I'm jealous of Shayna for, is the offer she got for free college.

No. 162656

> What's the cause of your Shaytism/Shaytardation? Are you a sex worker or a coomer or just possibly morbidly fascinated?
I came to lolcow since I loved the old efagz and pull days and started coming here since it was very active and i like a steady stream of milk. Same reason i follow the jonny craig thread. I originally came to this site for kiki, dakota, PT and minor cows like starpowerrr. I find shayna fascinating and repulsive.
> Did you know Shaynus in real life/have you interacted with her?
No and never
> How long have you been following her threads for?
2 long fucking years
> Do you contribute milk often?
Lurk and kek
> What is your life like? Are you a NEET?
Former neet
> Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?
Hell nah

No. 162660

> What's the cause of your Shaytism/Shaytardation? Are you a sex worker or a coomer or just possibly morbidly fascinated?
She’s so easy to rubberneck and the milk never seems to stop flowing. I think her lifestyle is morbidly interesting—how wretched her existence is and yet how little she ever does to change it. The Internet makes it so easy to see into the inner lives and know the secrets of random people who choose to broadcast their every thought. There are lots of crazy people I see in my everyday life where I wonder what their daily experience is like, but it’s very easy to find out with Shayna.
> Did you know Shaynus in real life/have you interacted with her?
No.
> How long have you been following her threads for?
Since the Sol saga. Around that time I found out this weird busted-looking antisemite personal lolcow type girl I went to high school with had pivoted to scat porn since graduating; a friend linked me her Twitter page, and there I discovered she was desperately trying to collab with Sol. Shortly afterwards when scrolling through lolcow I discovered he was in some shit with another onlyfans girl who inexplicably seemed to have hundreds of threads I could deep dive into. Thanks to this serendipitous coincidence I got sucked into reading her weird dismal saga just like that. It was a funny distraction from the stress of graduate studies. I’ve since passed my classes but reading her threads has stayed a habit and has replaced my previous habit of watching dumb reality TV paternity court trashiness.
> Do you contribute milk often?
No, I don’t download pornography to my computer because I find something very off-putting about looking at pornography in general. I don’t even unspoil her pictures in the threads most of the time. Usually when I find a tweet by her that I think is threadworthy, someone has already posted it. I’m not interested in paying her for anything either so I don’t have access to her Onlyfans or what have you either.
> What is your life like? Are you a NEET?
I’m mid twenties, happily married, and work in a nice white collar office job. I’m somewhat familiar with the “world of porn” because several people I’m friends with on Facebook from high school and undergrad ended up becoming Onlyfans people, but I’m not close with them anymore.
> Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?
No and no. I find her pitiful mostly. What is there to be jealous of? Even the good opportunities she’s had to make her life better have been squandered.

No. 162712

> What's the cause of your Shaytism/Shaytardation? Are you a sex worker or a coomer or just possibly morbidly fascinated?
I did sex work for a few thousand dollars then nuked everything once I was done with university. I was never on twitter, I was uncomfortable with any sites that didn't allow geoblocking or that they might show your page to people you know irl. I also just didn't feel like doing it anymore. And now in 2023 it seems to not even be worth it anymore with how much work for little to no profit these girls are making just to make fools of themselves on public pages. I used to be on the side of okay get that coin. But now they're making like the same as any other job except doing really depraved things for money so there's no point.
I am probably also morbidly fascinated.
> Did you know Shaynus in real life/have you interacted with her?
No
> How long have you been following her threads for?
I think since the very beginning or close to it.
> Do you contribute milk often?
No
> What is your life like? Are you a NEET?
My life is okay. I'm struggling with POTS right now so I'm not leaving the house as much as I'd like. Soon to be moving for a job, looking for a different software engineering job in the meantime.
> Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?
I'm not fat. I think I enjoy her threads because she makes me feel very good about my life and myself. Whenever I feel like I'm "losing" in life she cheers me up because she always has it worse in like every way. It's fascinating how she is incapable of improving her life and it somehow always gets more bleak. It's fun to read her threads honestly besides the disgusting porn parts. I won't stop just cause I'm really curious how she'll end up.

No. 162716

>>162712
POTS is a fake diseas
>>162370
Being married to a Nigel is never worth it

No. 162721

> What's the cause of your Shaytism/Shaytardation? Are you a sex worker or a coomer or just possibly morbidly fascinated?
I am morbidly fascinated. Plus the threads and her antics are really fucking funny/entertaining to me. I am not a sex worker but I’ll admit I’m very into bdsm. However I do find Shayna and her fetishes simply disgusting

> Did you know Shaynus in real life/have you interacted with her?

I have not

> How long have you been following her threads for?

I’ve been following the threads for like 5 years I think. I found the farms right after her first thread(s) got nuked. I found her because my best friend/gal pal was a journalism major and she reached out to Shayna asking to interview her about being a cam girl. Shayna never messaged back but my friend showed me her tumblr. I followed because I was curious about what my friend liked about this girl. When I saw Shayna’s fucked up pimply diseased genitals, I was appalled. Then I saw something on tumblr referencing her hate thread and “stalkers.” So I googled her name and found this beautiful realm called lolcow. I read threads every night and Shay is my favorite cow of all

> Do you contribute milk often?

I submit screenshots here and there. Several of my screenshots became part of thread pics and I am so proud kek

> What is your life like? Are you a NEET?

I’m 27 and I have a full time job that I love. I also have a bachelors degree in psychology and it’s really interesting to analyze Shayna and her behaviors. I am bisexual and I strongly prefer women. I am also polyamorous. I have struggled with severe depression for my entire life but seeing Shay’s horrible life makes me feel better kek. I smoke weed every night

> Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?

I’m probably fat by lolcow standards. But I am somewhat fit because I do kickboxing and a lot of hot yoga. And no I’m not jealous of Shayna and I doubt anyone ever would be

No. 162732

i found lolcor in 2016/2017 because of a milky scene queen from my city who became a koreaboo and botched her face with a million surgeries to look more asian. then i checked out the rest of the boards and saw shat's thread, i think its was at thread #3 or something at the time. I was in an extremely abusive relationship at the time with a scrote who would constantly remind me i'm not his dream girl because i'm not nordic enough and i don't have blonde hair/blue eyes which was a preference for him (he was norwegian, i'm slavic and eurasian). He was also a borderline pedophile and would watch teen porn and jack off to jailbait. I clicked her thread out of self hatred because she was blonde, skinny and young at the time and i needed to see how someone who would be so potentially desirable to this disgusting moid i was unfortunately dating could be milky enough to have her own threads. I quickly counted my blessings when i saw what she was actually like beyond the thread pic where she looked fine. I couldn't stop reading her threads out of morbid curiosity and they honestly helped me stay on the right path and never end up like her. (Pls dont ask abt the moid, i was extremely young and living in a new country with no support network and he'd frequently physically abuse me, i escaped him 5 yrs ago).

No. 162754

> What's the cause of your Shaytism/Shaytardation? Are you a sex worker or a coomer or just possibly morbidly fascinated?
I’m a sex worker/actual prostitute. I started browsing around 2018, maybe the 4th thread? I don’t know what roped me in to her initially, I guess her being a SWer made her somewhat relatable, as well as the alcoholism. Shay’s obsession with fame is quite interesting to me as well, especially with how increasingly distant and unlikely that dream continues to be.

> Did you know Shaynus in real life/have you interacted with her?

Never, I don’t think I’ve ever even been on her socials before.

> Do you contribute milk often?

I hardly ever post. I think the last time I posted was during the Dawn saga?

> What is your life like? Are you a NEET?

Not great but things are coming together. I’m in education so not a NEET.

> Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?

No and no.

No. 162755

> What's the cause of your Shaytism/Shaytardation? Are you a sex worker or a coomer or just possibly morbidly fascinated?
morbidly fascinated.

> Did you know Shaynus in real life/have you interacted with her?

no thank god
> How long have you been following her threads for?
god i dont know, on and off for like 5 years or some shit
> Do you contribute milk often?
never. i just watch the infights
> What is your life like? Are you a NEET?
im 24. i have a degree, i have a job, i have MENTUL ILLNESS, and my life is average
> Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?
nah. shayna is jealous of me. but her face makes me scared of aging

No. 162871

> What's the cause of your Shaytism/Shaytardation? Are you a sex worker or a coomer or just possibly morbidly fascinated?
"There, but for the grace of god, go I". I see Shayna as a reflection of how my life could have ended up if I took a different path… I'm a couple years older than her, spent time in the same degen dd/lg tumblr communities. I tried camwhoring for literally like 20 minutes once when I was broke and I hated it and I was turned off of sex work at that point thank fuck. But I still abused myself with kink and ageplay and let a scrote enact sick fantasies on me. Uh, I don't know where I'm going with this, I guess I just wanted to get it out. I was mentally unwell and struggling with multiple addictions. I think the biggest difference between me and her is my ability to feel shame.

> Did you know Shaynus in real life/have you interacted with her?

I followed her on tumblr, I forget if she ever followed me.
> How long have you been following her threads for?
It feels like it's been on and off since almost the beginning? I think I originally found lolcow because there was a short lived thread on my fav tumblr cow Shmegeh.
> Do you contribute milk often?
Nah not really, just discussion and cracking a joke here or there
> What is your life like? Are you a NEET?
I work in education and have been doing okay. Still struggling with my depression and eating disorder but it's my priority now more than ever to be a good example for the girls in my family and community
> Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?
I was kinda jealous of her body at her thinnest lol but I can relate to balloning up from alcoholism, nearly got to her point myself but once I got my boozing under control the extra weight fell off in record time

No. 162934

> What's the cause of your Shaytism/Shaytardation? Are you a sex worker or a coomer or just possibly morbidly fascinated?
Mostly morbid fascination and the tism. I never did camming or porn but for a short time when I was broke and failing out of school a friend told me she was doing online phone sex for money and I tried it out since it didn't require showing or selling your body. Quickly quit that even tho I hardly could afford food since I found it so disgusting and the things that men would say to me haunt me to this day. Really pinkpilled me on porn and sexwork very quickly. I do regret it but I am very glad I had the common sense to stop even being poor and mentally ill uwu.
> Did you know Shaynus in real life/have you interacted with her?
Nope.
> How long have you been following her threads for?
Found LC in 2018-ish I think through following Onision drama, like other farmers I avoided the shay threads for a while because I would mostly browse at my shitty office job kek and didn't want to view her nudes there and simply didn't get the appeal. Starting reading in her OK saga, reread all her threads and here I am to this day.
> Do you contribute milk often?
Nope, I lurk 99% of the time.
> What is your life like? Are you a NEET?
I am not a NEET though I do work from home and am an introverted person with a few internet friends, no real life friends and a very kind Nigel but I prefer it that way. I write code, do crafts, work out and play my special interest games. I do smoke too much weed but since I am not fat and live a productive and happy life it doesn't bother me much though I am trying to cut back.
> Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?
Not fat but was chubby majority of my life, funnily since I have been reading the Shay threads I lost 50lbs and yes I do use her as fatspo at times kek. I have also went from working a shit customer service job to a career in tech, dumped my loser ass bf and improved my mental health and life in many other ways. That's what keeps me coming back to her threads, I have changed so much while she keeps doing the same shit and living an even worse quality of life. True Schadenfreude and quite pathetic reason for me to spend so much time here but hey it's the truth.

No. 163074

> What's the cause of your Shaytism/Shaytardation? Are you a sex worker or a coomer or just possibly morbidly fascinated?
former sex worker if you count selling a few nudes to help pay for school. I'm mostly here due to morbid fascination and somehow feel like she would be me in the alternate reality where I kept doing SW, minus the pedo pandering. Mostly because I was also an alt stoner teen on Tumblr who's around the same age.
> Did you know Shaynus in real life/have you interacted with her?
No not at all, I only check on her here.
> How long have you been following her threads for?
Since 2020 around thread 50ish. I had a boring desk job during the pandemic and found her lore entertaining to get through the workday. I found lolcow when googling toopoor and eventually found Shay in the catalog.
> Do you contribute milk often?
Only once, I watched one of her live camshows and posted some unfortunate screenshots. I prefer to lurk.
> What is your life like? Are you a NEET?
Nope, went to school, have a job, a home, and a Nigel. I had a few things in common with Shay like the alcoholism, weed, and sex work but have since dropped them all over the years of lurking her threads. I am now much healthier and happier.
> Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?
Nope. I have actually lost 50lbs since finding her threads in 2020, thanks Shay!

No. 163083

>>162934
> the things that men would say to me haunt me to this day
Do you mind sharing? I feel like I have an idea but then again the extent of moids’ depravity will always continue to shock me as a woman kek.

No. 163092

>>163083
Guys trying to talk about sex acts with animals, asking me to say I was underage, guys trying to talk to me about meeting in real life were among the worst and all explicitly against the website's TOS.

No. 163110

I worked PT at a food place and my GM (he was like 35) was dating the new 19 year old manager (picrel on the left) who was into DDLG. The girl would always overshare these doctored stories about being pansexual or shit like she did makeup for fashion week; and then she wanted to save up to go to Hempfest around like 2015/2016 to meet her idol, some girl named "Shaygnar". (Looking back this girl even dyed her hair and would bring literal Caprisuns in to work, to LARP as Shayna). First Shayna pic she showed us was one where she was in the snow in a black parka smoking out of a glass piece?.

New manager girl met up with a few other people from Shart's Tumblr stoner circle but at that point I think Shayna was early in her OK/Fupa saga.

I work a salary job now so it's just been very amusing to see what other girls consider rolemodels because like… The average woman doesn't think like them… Right?

No. 163111

>>163092
Oh okay anon, thanks for sharing. Moids are disgusting.

No. 163117

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>>163110
dropped pic like a fool

No. 163124

>>163117
Omfg godshideouscreation on the left.. shay used to beef with her and keifeon on tumblr when she was underaged. She was probably taking notes for her bright future as a swer too

No. 163150

>>163117
And where those girls are now vs where shat is (it's ok if u don't know, but I do and they're so much better off now)…. Shats bright future, yeah right. It's a B word but it isn't Bright it rhymes with cheap

No. 163156

>>162934
happy for you nona ♥

No. 163157

>>163150
Idk about the right but the girl on the left is still e-whoring and has been since long before Shatna started…

No. 163232

>>162346
> What's the cause of your Shaytism/Shaytardation?
I'm 30 and my shaytardation is I'm morbidly fascinated by her antics, just can't look away at this point, it's too funny. Not a SW or a Moid.

> Did you know Shaynus in real life/have you interacted with her?

No, never.

> How long have you been following her threads for?

I came here originally because of Raven, she was whining constantly about her "stalkers" and I got curious, and I started following her threads. But they moved slowly sometimes and then I'd look around the boards and found Shayna. I believe this was around the time when she called herself BambiDoll, she had a few threads at the time but not many.

> Do you contribute milk often?

Rarely.

> Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?

Totally 100% super fat and 100% super jealous of her fabulous life kek!

No. 163239

> What's the cause of your Shaytism/Shaytardation? Are you a sex worker or a coomer or just possibly morbidly fascinated?
Was a SW at the beginning now im just morbidly fascinated
> Did you know Shaynus in real life/have you interacted with her?
we were in the same tumblr crowd both as weed blogs and sw ones
> How long have you been following her threads for?
since thread 1
> Do you contribute milk often?
i did at the beginning. now i mostly just lurk.
> What is your life like? Are you a NEET?
its great really. the person i was back then doesnt exist. i think these threads are my only connection to that era lol sometimes i consider going back or revamping it but then i think about this site and how not worth it it is anyways. i decided working a real job was way easier and had a much bigger feeling of accomplishment
> Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?
ill be honest once upon a time i was and that was when she first started doing this shit. i removed myself from that lifestyle so now i just watch this trainwreck. and contemplate doing some extra squats.

No. 163512

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> What's the cause of your Shaytism/Shaytardation? Are you a sex worker or a coomer or just possibly morbidly fascinated?
Morbid fascination plus a history of enjoying cows and lolcow culture since the early Chris-Chan days. I'm not a coomer, a sex worker, a moid, or a lesbian.

> Did you know Shaynus in real life/have you interacted with her?

No, I was on tumblr during her peak though and remember both the cliques she ran with (mainly the ddlg wannabe pornstars, who I hated). I don't think farmers who weren't on tumblr during those days really understand how bad the nude selling was. I broke so many mutuals over girls selling nudes and showing hole on their personal blogs. It was really, really sad.

> How long have you been following her threads for?

Man, I wanna say since thread 5 or 6? Around the time her and Colleen started camming together. Been hooked ever since. She's by far my favorite cow and honestly if it wasn't for her I would barely use this site. I showed my Nigel her threads and he doesn't understand the fascination at all, and he enjoys lolcows too, so I think shaytard haters who accuse us of being moids really need to get a grip. Shay has like, zero traction on kiwifarms, she's not the kind of female cow men are interested in follow. Shaytardation is 100% a female phenomenon.

> Do you contribute milk often?

No lol, I tried once and got a temp ban for "irrelevance". It was after the true end of the Fupapa saga. I posted some screenshots of farmers accurately predicting that she would be miserable in the DollHaus. So now I just lurk, I'm very happy the Shaynatorium exists now.

> What is your life like? Are you a NEET?

No. I'm a 29 year old ex-NEET. I'm a fuckin' retail manager whos marrying her Nigel is a few months. I'm a very normie passing person these days but I've been browsing 4chan since 2006.

> Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?

No, I'm a bit fatphobic truthfully, and there's something about these mid fat camwhores being all like "ur dad n bf want to fuk my fat tight pussy. men are like so obsessed with my greasy hole" while they flounder and fail at sex work that I get a lot of schadenfreude from. I don't care about normie fat girls living their lives though.

No. 163523

>>163512
Colleen never cammed, she had a busted brunette friend who farmers referred to as wannabe Colleen or something

No. 164551

> What's the cause of your Shaytism/Shaytardation? Are you a sex worker or a coomer or just possibly morbidly fascinated?

I was scrolling through lolcow, not yet a farmer but an occasional lurker looking to see if a new Lillee Jean thread had been created when I saw the name "Dolly Mattel." This caught my attention, as I recognised the name from tumblr but had always thought she was just another prostitute advertising her wares on tumblr. Intrigued, I clicked on the thread, was surprised to see how fat and haggard she had become when I remembered her being skinny and cute and was even more surprised at how terrible her nudes/porn were (I'd just assumed they'd be good seeing as she was so popular on tumblr and there was that viral post on there of someone sending her $500 for "being perfect"). And of course there was all the various bad behaviors I hadn't known about, from scamming to alcoholism to animal neglect. I've been hooked since.

> Did you know Shaynus in real life/have you interacted with her?


Nope, never
> How long have you been following her threads for?

Not too long, just a couple of months

> Do you contribute milk often?


Nahhh. I don't follow her on social media and don't want to keep checking hers often enough to get to the milk first. Although it seems she hasn't been too milky anyway.

> What is your life like? Are you a NEET?


I used to be until recently! I dropped out of college due to something happening that messed up both my personal life and health to the point I couldn't keep up. I feel well enough now to resume my education and have started a new course. I'm really excited and can't wait to graduate and begin my adult life properly, even if it's later than most people my age.

> Are you fat and jealous of Shayna?


Kinda fat, I gained a lot of weight in the last year after being an anachan. I'm not Shaynu sized but could definitely stand to lose a few kg. Unlike Shayna I'm working on it. I started an exercise class, am walking at least 10k steps daily, and am eating healthier. The food part is hard for me because counting calories is something that I know would send me back into extreme restriction so I'm just hoping that I'm not overeating or undereating and that eating healthy foods till I'm full will do the trick.

As for jealous, not at all. Shayna is everything I don't want to be, both in looks and lifestyle. If anything, not wanting her life or appearance is a source of motivation. I don't want to end up porky with no education or life living for crumbs of attention for old and ugly men like her.



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