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Im 23 and I haven't had sex either. Not because im ugly or anything. Im a pretty girl! Im lovely but I am shit with connecting to people and affection. Relationships just haven't happened. Ive been on a few dates but never lead to anything- I could have had sex with a recent guy I went on dates with. But I wasnt into him…
I fear pregnancy and murder too :(
>>61335>I want to just get it out of the way
That doesn't sound like an excuse to lose your virginity to a complete stranger. it's not like virginity is something that pokes you in the leg every time you walk and you can't wait to get rid of it. But whatever I guess. Get on birth control and do it in a hotel, not some guy's house.
>it would take a lot of pressure off of me psychologically when it comes to dating, etc.
lol i really doubt it.
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common sense and some of these will help with that.
I was 16 and snuck into a bar with some friends. We were all military brats living overseas so most of the clubs and bars didn't bother carding, especially if you were an Amerifag. I also developed rather early so I had a more mature body. It also helped that I happened to have the same look of a lot of the local girls so the military guys assumed I was one. Anyways I had snuck into a bar with my friends and we were drinking and dancing, just having a good time. A cute young marine started buying me drinks, which lead to us making out, which lead to us getting a cheap hotel room for the night. He was very sweet and kind of a goof, also pretty clumsy. I don't know if it was because he was drunk or if he was inexperienced too. But we fucked most of the night with lots of different positions, switching to oral, and even once in the tub. He had a decent sized cock, but not huge. I'd probably say it was average length, but I do recall it having a big head which is nice. Being a marine he had a very nicely built body yet he wasn't all jacked up quite yet. No chest or stomach hair at all, it was so smooth. I was sore as hell when I woke up but overall it felt pretty good, didn't orgasm though. He was still sleeping and I snuck out at dawn. Never saw him again, which is perfectly fine with me. I guess losing your virginity to a one night stand isn't exactly romantic but it served it's purpose and I still had a good time.
Feels dorky admitting this, but even though I lost my virginity to my first bf at 14, I never felt "popped" or that it was a huge deal because I had learned how to vaginally masturbate via cybering when I was 13 (thanks AOL chatrooms). I had been masturbating clitorally since I was like 6, but I didn't know or have the words to describe what I was doing until I was 11 or 12.
Anyway, I didn't wake up the next day feeling any different about sex itself.
However I will say to anyone itt who hasn't lost it yet:
Do it with someone who you won't be embarrassed to know you've porked later on.
I remember naive 14 year old me being over-the-moon because a ~senior~ was asking me out. In middle school, I was always pegged as an uglyfat so any attention I got from boys I ate up.
He liked vidya, and boasted himself to be smart because he took a CAD class.
To be fair, I got to do a lot of cool shit as a freshman like go to senior prom.
Yet after that initial feelgood phase, I realized he was kind of a creepy looking dork and wasn't smart at all. Like he always talked about how he was gonna marry me and shit. Boasted his intelligence but he had a funny way of talking and worked at Burger King well after he graduated.
I broke up with him after 8 months.
He was extremely petty, and accused my 14 year old self of being a 'slut' and 'cheating' because I was going out with someone new a few weeks after.
To this day (I'm 25) he still tries to add me on facebook. When I still lived at my hometown he always tried to corner me someplace and ask me out for coffee or something. Asking how I was doing in "collage."
One time there was an accident in front of my old house, and he came rushing over with his dad to interfere with the scene bc they heard my address on a police scanner. ANY excuse he could find to see me, he'd use.
Hey thanks for your opinion, I really want to read what others think about this.
What I meant is that when I date a guy I don't want there to be this weight on me thinking that could be the very first guy for me. I'd think there would be less pressure going in with this not on my mind, but obviously I don't have the experience to actually know…
I don't know about those other anons but I think a lot of people are just not into sex, intimacy/cuddling sure but you can just jack off if you're horny.
They're just pressured into it, it's acceptable to masturabate now, or be single.
Sex is kind of gross when you think about it really.
Lost it at 19 to my first boyfriend after he kept pressuring me into it (After 6 months despite me telling him before we started dating i was waiting until i got married). Pressure continued for the next three years because I was convinced i was too ugly to find someone else, especially because his mom told me i was plain looking and he rarely complimented me unless he wanted to fuck me.
Only good thing is losing my virginity before i got married because holy shit some guys are REALLY bad at sex. Three years, came twice.
Second boyfriend, not at all.
Husband? Multiple. Always. Even during a quickie. And he's not well hung, it's proof size isn't always important.
In my opinion virginity should be lost when you're ready but unless it's really important to you for religious reasons, you shouldn't wait until marriage because sexual compatibility is important. I don't think bad sex the first few times together always means it'll always be bad since experience counts too, but if it's just continuously bad, it's just not gonna work out.
You can manage a relationship without sex or faking it but it depends on your sex drive (Mine's really low which is whyI kept it up with the first guy so long because i loved him. Ugh. )
I think there should be an age limit of 15-16 at the earliest honestly. You're not mentally mature enough at that age, and even that's too young. Everyone's different but if you want to lose it just to lose it or think of it as some kind of mark of being a real person or any kinda variation on this then you're probably not ready.
Also just because I HAVE met some retarded people who believe this: YOU CAN, REPEAT, CAN GET PREGNANT THE FIRST TIME YOU HAVE SEX. Don't be a retard.
There's probably at least one underaged kid lurking just to read around here so might as well shoot reminders for the rulerbreakers once in awhile not to be a retard.
ah, never had a sexual experience before but I popped my hymen masturbating
not that anyone cares lul
I'm not a sentimental person in the least, but I still keep the playlist to which I lost my virginity. It's one of my favourite memories, and I like rekindling it from time to time by listening to it.
It was one of the coldest winters I remember, everything was frozen up. I decided to sleep over at my then boyfriend's place instead of trudging back home through the ice and snow. Inside was cosy and warm. I was 18 and in love for the first time. It just happened spontaneously and naturally.
It felt just like I dreamed it should, quite literally - I've had countless wet dreams before actually having sex, and it felt exactly like it felt in the dreams, despite me never having the experience of penetration up to that point, and only masturbating by rubbing my clit.
I can still picture vividly the soft glow of the computer screen highlighting his sexy naked body as we lay on the bed after it, satisfied and smiling, smoking cigarettes and basking in each other's presence.
I just let out a deep sigh writing that, and I am smiling a nostalgic smile. Ah, it's good to remember and appreciate those ways that life has been kind to me. I feel lucky and blessed.
That experience was crucial for shaping my sexuality - my attitudes, perceptions, behaviours. And it was the best possible experience for that.
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This is the image I had in my head reading that. Sounds nice, anon.
Lost it to my LDR boyfriend when he came to visit me.
Honestly, it was really nice and I don't regret it. I initiated, since we'd been fooling around so long and, let's be honest, were both probably repressed. I was 24. I hadn't been into guys in high school or college and honestly thought I was asexual until we met. He hadn't ever had a girlfriend before, either.
It was one of those times you dream about. Like the perfect encounter and everything that I had been told it would be, honestly. Sorry if this sounds like a weird, romantic smut, but it just was. The house was humid in the summertime and I distinctly remember turning on the air conditioner right before bringing him to the guest room to help him unpack some stuff from his luggage. One kiss lead to a lot of highly sexual touches and I insisted that he take it further. It felt natural to have him touch me and for me to explore him, and I wanted to hear him get turned on in real time and not text.
I'm glad I waited for him. I worried about it hurting, but I was really excited so it just felt fulfilling rather than "tight" like everyone describes.
We're on the verge of breaking up now, but I'm happy I lost my virginity to him rather than someone I don't know well or just randomly. Having sex with him felt like the summation of all my strong feelings.
The thing is that I was so drunk I dont remember. Maybe I had a bad case of beer goggles and he started looking hot suddenly (tbh it wouldnt have been the first time that suddenly after some beers some guy started looking hot lol).
I dont remember if next day it hurt, maybe a little? (wouldnt be weird since it was my first time). I do remember him asking me if I was a virgin and me saying no lol
So yeah I cant say it was rape. And yeah luckily nothing bad came out of it except that his best friend (the guy i was hooking up with on and off) didnt want to anymore (dont blame him). Oh well!
Its only as awkward as you let it be, linger on the awkward bits and its worse, ignore it and the guy won't dwell on it either. Familiarize yourself with penetration first so it won't be painful, toys aren't like mega expensive or anything. Pain probably gives it away more than anything.
I didn't want to be passive or think of it as something being done to me or happening to me which imo would have been unavoidable if he had known. By not telling him I could mentally frame the event as my being a more active participant and initiating my sexual life. It wasn't special or romantic or traumatic and tbh it blurs together with the sex I had with the guy after so it really doesn't stand out as a singular event. To me, that's fine, I was tired of being curious and waiting for life to happen and never thought the world owed me a special or romantic first time. If it was lackluster or even bad then I was in good company with the millions of women who came before me who also didn't have a magical first experience so it was an odd bit of solidarity.
I'm definitely NOT a sentimental person though and am not very romantic. Its fine to want a nice first time.
Idk if you want to hear this but there have been multiple studies done that frequent porn use makes women like sex less, have intimacy/arousal problems and higher incidences of BDD.
Porn super fucked me up as a teen and since I stopped looking at it I can FINALLY get into sex with my bf and not have to think about hentai to get off during it lmao
Lost mine to my first "real" boyfriend in high school. I was 17, he was 15 (his birthday was next day, but he didn't want to wait so whatever, I guess.) He didn't realize this somehow, but his dick is huge. The condoms we had didn't fit him. We had to go all the way back to the store for him to get some Magnums. It freaked me out a lot. Totally unenjoyable because I kept worrying about his size. It got better as our relationship went on, but we broke up after like, 8 months. Bittersweet since he was the guy my hormones went all crazy for, butterflies, the whole first love thing, but he was a prententious ass, so I'm glad that didn't last. He's a total bro in college now. His behaviour is disgusting.
Ugly insides will decay your outsides.
I know a lot of gorgeous girls who are virgins, either by choice or because they just aren't interested in sex and relationships.
Only kids in high school think virginity has anything to do with your attractiveness lmfao
I lost my virginity when I was 18. It was on or around the day I graduated from high school. Nothing spectacular. I went to a small high school in the country, very slim pickings. Met a guy from the city that was ugly, but my friends thought he was super cool, which made me think he was cool too. He desperately wanted me to be his girlfriend, but I refused because I wasn't really attracted to him, and he was also embarrassingly ugly. In the end, though, I was a super horny, sexually frustrated teenager that just wanted to fuck. I was at his house and told him to go to the convenience store to get condoms. His dick was pretty average length but also skinny and super straight. Sex kind of hurt, but I mostly chalk that up to no lube + idiot bought dry, unlubed condoms. He was terrible at sex, despite claiming he fucked at least 5 other girls before me.
Continued fucking him on the low for a few months off and on thinking maybe the sex will get better somehow because he was still the only guy I fucked at this point, and I hadn't yet realized that he was just terrible at it. Started dating another guy that fucked way better and cut ties with old dude. I think back and wish I had a better, more memorable story, or at least fucked someone that was semi-attractive, but eh. Teenage hormones.
When I was 18 to some random guy I met on /soc/ or something. I wasn't planning on it, we went bowling and to his place to watch a movie and then he was like "well if you wanna get it over with" and I just did it. It was really lame and hurt a lot, he was fat and sweaty and neither of us came. It was a bit surreal for a while especially since I didn't hold contact with that guy afterwards.
Sex with an emotional bond is a lot nicer, though I find it kind of scary and intense sometimes. I think losing my virginity via emotional sex would have ruined me for life. Like I would become obsessed with my first guy and pine after him for the rest of my life, if that makes sense.>>61837
It's harder to find someone to care about who reciprocates than it is to find someone to get it over with. If you really wanna do the latter, find someone attractive.
I remember feeling this way. Are you pining for sex or a relationship tho? Like, a prostitute might get you off but you can do that yourself.
I know you're probably just lonely and looking for a warm body, touch starvation is extremely detrimental to your mental health, but don't give up on having a healthy relationship.
Self consciousness/shame is a curse that pretty much all of us have.
Before my first time I thought I'd never be able to let anyone look at my body but you change your opinion about that when you sex them lmao. Now my boyfriend and I walk around in our underpants and don't even think about it.
is it real?>>61854
I have the same stats but I don't care anymore, my libido hit rock bottom in the last year (and I used to be pretty horny).
Thanks for the answer. You see, I'm not sure if I actually want a bf, I would like to cuddle with someone and I would like to have sex to experience it and get it off my to do list. Imageboards have ironically ruined any ideals I had about men and romance so a male prostitute/escort would be perfect.
Unfortunately, I'm in southern europe and all the ads by men are usually young guys searching for a sugar daddy, even then the whole situation would be sketchy af.
> I know you're probably just lonely and looking for a warm body
Probably, though it's a 'craving' that I get from time to time so not often but enough to make me feel depressed. I would do anything for a session of cuddling for an hour or two but on average I dislike physical contact. I don't even crave sex that much.>>61887
> my libido hit rock bottom in the last year (and I used to be pretty horny).
I wish my libido hits rock bottom soon.
Do you desire a romantic relationship? So not a sexual one, just an intimate relationship with someone? Do you ever feel lonely?
I want to stop caring too. Sometimes I really wish for a romantic relationship but when I see some of the people I know, being alone seems like a better choice. Maybe what I fear is regret but regret for what really? Not finding a soul mate? Being all alone?
Hey i just googled this and its really a thing! The only real medical definition of touch deprivation is related to infants (who can apparently die if you don't cuddle them enough). Also called skin hunger.
Good to know though, because i never really crave human or social contact, but two weeks without being touched in any manner makes me feel like I'm dying.
Sage for ot
I only want to touch people when I'm drunk :^|>>61892
Sometimes I get into that mock-schizoid "lol what are relationships" mood but I do want one, I definitely fantasize about it more than I masturbate and I'm positive if I fell in love I would regain my libido, but it's prolly not happening any time soon. I also hate my body, but have no motivation to change.
I definitely feel you. I'm not a virgin but had a shitty first time experience that kind of ruined my confidence with it, plus I'm already emotionally stunted and untrustworthy of people, so to have sex with someone would take a really long time of building up not only to sex but also more intimate touches.
I personally haven't found anyone yet (though I also haven't been looking), but! I have male friends who have waited a long time for girls or have not held it against girls who weren't ready for sex. They do exist so don't stress!
Same anon, if they love you and you're serious about each other. They'd be ready to wait till you're comfortable.
Relationships are built on trust. Sex is a part of a relationship but when you haven't done it, it's a big step. If someone doesn't understand why you aren't comfortable then it isn't worth it, they are disregarding your feelings. My old friend was pressured into losing her virginity when she was not comfortable with the old "But if you loved me… You'd do it.". She regrets giving in and her self esteem took a beating after he got what he wanted and cheated.
You are not wrong for wanting to feel comfortable or wanting to wait for someone you can trust. Better safe than sorry.
i lost mine when i was 15, to a long term bf at the time. i mean we were mad about each other but he was a shit fuck and it was so boring that i dont even remember the details. my first time with a girl on the other hand, fucking awesome, so that makes up for it.
your advice is 100% perfect
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I was 18 and he was 20. We met on /r9k/ and dated for around 8 months before meeting at a con that he invited me to. The con was located in Wisconsin and I'm from the southwest so it was basically my first time experiencing snow(the night I arrived was the first day of snow actually). We met, awkwardly hugged, and I awkwardly kissed him on the cheek. After a few days of hanging out, visiting panels, making silly puns and sharing more awkward kisses I decided I wanted to lose it to him. I remember our bed having lots of pillows and blankets because it was really cold. The area where our room was had the woods right next to us and with it snowing made the whole thing kinda magical and very romantic. I don't think I'll ever forget how dumb/cute his face looked when we were making love and how we both fell asleep cuddling each other with the biggest smiles on our faces. Sry if it sounds sappy but it was all really beautiful and surreal to me because I never thought I'd be with someone, let alone someone as sweet as him
Reading that paid of despite your off-putting lack of paragraphs.
It is extremely
interesting how the weather conditions feature prominently in the memories of those experiences of us three.
I don't know what to make of it.
I lost mine when I was seventeen to a boy I had been obsessed with for two years. He was a year older and was the Salutatorian of his class. I didn't know why I was attracted to him, but I was.
We had a friends w/ benefits relationship going on, but I was so naive at that point, I wasn't aware that's all we were. I had invited him over to look at some books, and we ended up watching a movie(500 Days of Summer, oh the irony). We talked a little and I kissed his ear, which, y'know, got him hype.
I lied to him and told him I was on the pill, because I was a horn dog. We got jiggy with it to some music on Spotify (I think Daft Punk was hip hoppin' at the time.) and it lasted for about an hour.
I remember bleeding for three days straight. I had just redecorated my room, too. I had new furniture and a new wall color. I got a little bit of blood on my new comforter and was freaking out. I went to my friend's house right afterwards, too embarrassed to look my mom in the face when she would get off work. He sent me a picture giving me a thumbs up later that night. We didn't end up together, and I was heartbroken and confused.
A little happy ending though: We have an odd friendship where we Skype every six months to just talk for hours upon hours. I'm kind of glad nothing happened, because now he's an annoying SJW and looks like a woman.
The weather was warm (It was June) and it was nighttime.
The jews have really won when you can find anonymous comments like this on a women's imageboard.
It took a long time for m to lose my virginity. I guess my hymen was tough or thick. Also my boyfriend had a horsecock, so it was not easy.
What was great about all this was that because of the fact that he couldn't get it in, we were crazy frustrated. So he went down on me all the time and we were constantly 69ing each other. I would sleep over at his place or he would sleep over mine and we were having oral sex nonstop, I remember we were on the bathroom floor trying once, we had taken a bath together thinking that would make it easier somehow, but of course it did NOT. It was cool - because of this experience, I expected oral sex from guys, and would get bitchy if they didn't go down on me. I like giving head and I expect to get it in return!
Gross but funny side story: my boyfriend worked at a convenience store with this guy who was also in a first relationship and they would sort of talk about stuff that had happened while trying to fuck, or stuff they were confused about like with birth control or whatever, you know. Anyhow, I picked him up from work and he was like omg we have to get out of here, I have to tell you something, it's so nasty but before we could get out his friend ran up and was like hey X, I need to ask you something. I was like oh dear but said sure, what and he said that every time he went down on his girlfriend it was like he was
eating cottage cheese
and wasn't that cool? I was on the verge of puking. My boyfriend said that my face went white. I was like, "No. No, that's not a good thing at all. She needs to see the doctor and you need to see a doctor. Stop going down on her." All I could think of was how bad his thrush infection must have been, and that it was thick enough that he felt like he was eating it. I could still puke and I remember this like it was yesterday. So fucking awful!
My parents had gone away for the weekend and at this point it was literally like months of trying, we had basically given up on it. We'd do a whole routine where we'd both get each other off and then sort of try to get it in for a while and it was funny because it felt noticeably different this time, either my hymen was stretched out enough or whatever, but I could feel him pushing and it finally broke. It was super raw feeling even though I was really excited, I never have to use lube because I'm just good at making my own but wow did the first time hurt like fuck, haha! It seriously felt like getting reamed out with a broom handle, and I bled a lot. There was enough hymen that we could see some tissue on the sheets. It was nuts. So we went back to oral but by the next morning we were fucking like rabbits, lol.
All that time we were trying, we never tried anal - luckily he wasn't into it. I honestly hate anal and I've only done it three times but every single time sucked.
like i can't even recall if my boyfriend was even out with us. i don't remember sex with him at all and we were together a number of years, i don't think he ever made me cum with sex.
my current partner has absolutely no issue. sometimes it's a matter of me holding my cum so he can hah
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I lost my virginity at 21 in a one-night stand with an ex, 4 years after we broke up.
It didn't hurt at all, except when I was on top.
Other than that, I barely felt anything, it was quite disappointing.
>>69591>I felt like if I didn't "rip off the bandaid" of losing my virginity at that moment, it'd never happen because no one else would want to touch me.
This is how I feel rn. 18 yr old kissless vigrin here lmao. Pretty much every girl I know has been having sex and whatever since we were about 14. My closest friend talks about sex so casually and shes the same age as me, lost at 13 (too young imo, but its complicated story) also sucks we are both into bdsm but I dont get any of that irl lol. I know its unhealthy to compare yourself to others but fuck… I dont know why this is happening for everyone but me. Im not disgusting looking and my personality is fine ig. What does everyone else have that I dont?
I want to get it over and done with asap. I dont care anymore I just feel like time is going by fast. (i know 18 is still very young) I dont want to date the person I lose it to, id rather it be some rando honestly. Then if I it started to date someone it wouldnt be something thats awkardly in the way. Ahh i feel like I need older/experienced anons to weigh in, i the way in feel seems to me so foolish/childish but i cant help it.
I'm 30 and a virgin. It doesn't affect my everyday life. I've never been in an awkward situation because of it. I'm not disappointed about not losing my virginity, but I am somewhat disappointed about not having met the right person earlier in life.
I didn't have my first kiss until 28, and I didn't hide it from my dates. I haven't dated a lot, but none of them minded, if that means anything to the younger anons who are worried. If my date did mind, it would've meant we weren't compatible, and I wouldn't have wanted to keep seeing them anyhow.
It helps that I have friends in the same virginity boat for various reasons: religious, finding the right person, being asexual, etc.
What I'd say to >>69634
is to do it for yourself. You don't have to wait for "the one" if that's not important to you. If you think you'd have fun and you feel safe and prepared, go for it. But doing it simply to fit in with your friends or validate your appearance/personality could lead to regrets. These are just my thoughts, but someone more experienced may have a different opinion.
I care too much about my first time to "get it over with." However, I did have a "get it over with" approach to my first kiss, because it wasn't as important to me. I did it for my own fun. It would've been nice if it went to someone I loved, but it was time for me.
Annoying psa, but use two forms of birth control if you're worried about pregnancy. You'll have a baby 1 out of 10 times with condoms alone, and 1 out of 2 times with withdrawal (with typical use). Researching it will make you feel a lot more confident in whatever your choice is.
I regret trying to wait so long for 'the one' because I still haven't met him and I am much older than you. Waiting for the 'right one' to lose it too lost me many years of sex, made sex/relationships super serious and forestalled my personal development. And it turned out to not be a big deal either, having sex didn't make me feel different but did allow me to meet new people, learn my likes/dislikes and take a more relaxed approach to dating because I no longer had that albatross around my neck that had previously made everything stressful and high stakes.
You don't have to tell the guy and it doesn't have to hurt so long as you experiment with yourself a head of time. Anon if I could go back in time I wish I'd just gotten it over with at 18.
Hey anon. I'm in pretty much the same situation as you (another 18 year old kissless virgin). When I get those feelings of inadequacy, what helps me is knowing that I'm not alone. I'm not into bdsm, but in high school I was too shy to talk to guys and even befriend them, and it really tanked my self-confidence. I've only started making friends with guys over since I started going to college.
The weirdest part is that now that I talk to guys as friends, my anxiety about being a kissless virgin has almost completely gone away. If rationalizing it in your head doesn't help, maybe being in a new environment (like college) will help you deal with it better. I hope I helped you in some way despite the massive blogpost, lol.
Apologies for TL;DR, I got a bit carried away in remembrance. I had completely forgot any of this ever happened.
I lost my virginity at 18-19 (don't remember exact date) to an ugly Chinese incel I had been talking to online for the past 3 years. We had met through 4chan. I had finally agreed to meet with him in person because I was afraid that he would stop talking to me. He was my only friend, as I had been a NEET since age 16. Our 'relationship' was basically just an extended exercise in codependency and emotional abuse that had completely consumed my life. I felt as though losing him would have meant losing everything.
To set the stage: he had expressed many times before that he didn't find me attractive at all in conversations that typically ended up with me crying over the phone and him blowing up in fits of rage, shouting that I would never be 'hot like a porn star' and how fat and ugly and stupid and useless I was, et cetera. I already had awful hatred for my body and was terrified of someone seeing me naked, which was why I avoided any IRL relationships. But I was the only girl that understood him, after all – even though I wasn't quite fitting to his desires. He was addicted to porn and had lots of fetishes, most prominently for extreme gore and violence. He was socially retarded and had some form of bodily tics that would make him frequently do odd grimaces and hand movements along with clicking noises. He was also into self-harm and fantasised about shooting the people at his school who bullied him and the girls who scorned him. He was obsessed with the idea that because he was ugly, he could never lead a fulfilling life; incel shit ramped up to 11. He was also a stereotypical /b/tard. I could go on for ages, but this post is already too long.
So my first sexual experience involved him attempting to stick his dick in my petrified desert-dry vagina on the tile floor of his maid's bathroom, lit brightly by unforgiving fluorescent light. I had just got off a two-day train ride to get there, so I was sweaty and disgusting. He couldn't get it in, so he tried 'fingering' me, which involved him painfully smashing his fingers against my clitoris at what felt like speeds approaching the sound barrier. I desperately wanted it to be over and pretended to 'orgasm' after about a minute, which entailed gasping a lot and then popping my eyes open and smiling like an autistic deer. He was amazed at how quickly I 'came,' but lo and behold, I was still too dry for him to dick me. So he asked to 'finger' me again, and I breathily agreed as though I wasn't on the verge of embarrassed tears. This time he tried sticking his fingers in and thrusting rapidly. It was painful enough that I let out a little sob that he interpreted along with my strained face as enjoyment. After I 'came' again I managed to spit on my finger and stick it around my vagina. Now that I was 'wet,' he could proceed to fuck me. First he tried missionary, then doggy-style, and then he stopped because he was tired. I tried giving him an awkward handjob, then blew him, having absolutely no fucking clue what I was doing and wanting to die every time my teeth scraped on his dick, feeling terrible that I was disappointing him. He tried masturbating himself for a while and was unable to ejaculate. We moved into the living room and he picked me up and threw me into the closet and choked me, slapped me around some. I just kind of went with the flow and accepted it. That went on for a while. I don't remember the rest of the night in much detail, but at some point he managed to come as I had his dick in my mouth, and I swallowed it. It was all absolutely horrible.
And now I'm living with an even more abusive guy that I also met through 4chan, holy shit, what is wrong with me.
girl if you could put up with what that first guy did, i don't know how you don't feel like you can meet nice people around your area. you sound independent and self aware. if a incel chinese guy can throw you around, you'd have no problem being cared for by a normal guy.
i'm not sure what your esteem issues are, but seriously there are so many normal guys just looking for a connection too who won't be abusive and will treat you like a princess. heck, my boyfriend is hot af and i get insecure over some of his past dates who are girls that are much bigger than me. honestly i don't think most guys care about our bodies in the way that we do.
please love yourself, i feel like you deserve it and you seem pretty headstrong. i think you could turn out to be a bomb ass bitch (in a nice way lol)
In some ways I regret the way I lost mine, but mostly not really. whats the Point. I was 23 and deeply embarrassed by my virginity. never had any male interest and then suddenly someone in my class was into me. Only I'd been really giving the impression I wasn't a virgin in drunken group situations, I wanted him but couldn't admit my sheer inexperience.
Fast forward a few months, college had ended for the year, I went back to my parents. He didn't make it into second year so I didn't think I'd see him again. I was in a hotel, and I'd previously toyed with the idea of just getting my virginity out the way. I can't remember my thought process but for my socially retarded inexperienced ass it was terrifying. I made a craigslist advert, put a few pictures and explained what I was after. I then sifted through the responses for the most normal sounding ones who sent pictures. I think you can get something of an idea about someone from what they tell you, then checking out their facebook. Turns out he used to be flatmates with someone I knew back home.
So we agree to meet in the hotel room. I go have a few drinks in a bar over the road. Then I see him outside but didn't really recognise him. He was wearing glasses and his picture must have been old, but that's what we do online I guess. He was still normal looking. I think we went for a few drinks somewhere but I barely remember it now. We then went back and watched the inbetweeners in my room, I went out for a smoke to calm the nerves and it was getting a bit awkward so just said to get on with it. The actual thing was painful I guess> but not as much as I thought. He'd brought lube and went down on me for ages which tbh didn't feel like much to me, I think because my mind was so preoccupied. He was nice enough. I now see him posting his own ads on craigslist constantly which is funny. I sort of tried to initiate more regular meets to him but I think he got the impression I'd fucking imprinted on him or something. Like, no thanks m8. You're all over craigslist and a bit weird for me. Just wanted to get more experience. Met him sometime later though and that was pretty shit, I know its a one night stand thing but most people like cuddling and aren't so cold about everything.
he also gave me chlamydia.
Don't regret, but wish I could have waited as I'm not in quite a happy relationship.
I lost my virginity to my first boyfriend from China.
He came to my house when my family was gone to celebrate his birthday. Before going out, we ended up having sex. It was embarrassing for me even though I initiated it, but he was a good boyfriend. I ended up freaking out about the possibility of getting pregnant and had him bury a pregnancy test in the front yard so I could secretly test. I ended up crying at school too because I was scared of pregnancy and my family found out what happened.
Luckily, everything ended up Ok. I went on the pill and we dated for 3 years. We got in contact again last year after having met almost 10 years ago. Unfortunately, even though I still think he's a great guy, I no longer want to stay in the country and am attempting to move abroad (already moved abroad, but attempting to move abroad from this country to a different country).
Most of the guys I've dated have been from China. Generally positive experiences, although none of them were from the internet. Since this is about losing virginity I won't go into relationships, but yeah, if I could go back in time I would have waited until marriage.
Hey anon, I think you are getting two of us confused. My parents aren't diplomats, but I'm definitely the Chinese and Nigerian "white knight" anon.
Sorry, I really don't mean to white knight. I see how it coms off that way, so yeah, I'm sorry if it's annoyed you seeing my posts. I only mention my good experiences because I literally only ever hear shit about guys from these countries (ex. Chinese guys are abusive and autistic cheaters, Nigerian guys are abusive scammers who only want a green card).
Even irl I've seen the difference in how they are treated vs me (white American). Guys from these countries have had a large influence on my life, so I guess I get a bit white knightish when I constantly hear shit about them (I totally believe there are assholes and have met assholes from these countries. I just think that's mainly what people hear about).
holy shit that last part about hentai is me right now
are you serious? i have to stop getting off to hentai if i want better sex
this is fucking cruel and i hate it. why cant i just be a guy and have sex feel good 100% of the time with no effort
you mean when a dude masturbates a certain way and has trouble getting off during real sex?
yeah, sure, but guys still have it fuckin easier. ive only ever gotten off via clitoris (the best and frankly only way to do it) but its real difficult trying to get your hand down there jerking around, depending on the position. it just messes with the flow of things and then i get too in my head and it takes ages to get off ETC ETC ETC
whereas the guy just has to stop jacking off for awhile, then dick in vagina, WOO HOO THERE YOU GO!
Its bullshit. I dont like being on top because im a lazy cow but thats one of the only decent positions for clitoral simulation unless you do some weird on your side shit, but im too attached to positions where i can see my guys face and mess up his hair and stuff.
at this point i dont know if i even want orgasms during sex. its easier to do it alone in your own time exactly how you like it, without someone waiting for you to finish
Hey, thanks anon. Im not really shy around boys, I have male friends but they have 'come onto me' before and I never know how to react, I honestly feel like if I wasnt so picky/uptight I could of lost it ages ago but the same could be said for anyone ig…
Isnt it from the virgin suicides film?