>>1555628I grew up as a Christian and I still consider myself one but hate a lot of stuff people do "in the name of religion". When I was a child I also had this surprising idea that in the future maybe I should try out all possible religions or learn as much about them all to see which are the closest to truth.
I believe in afterlife, I'd prefer to spend that time with a certain person from the past I feel drawn to rather with my family though. My family is awful and they traumatised me through the childhood (nothing connected to religion though, just emotional abuse).
I'm very interested in learning about religions, mythologies and so on. I like to investigate motifs and beliefs. I feel like there's a lot of stuff people aren't aware of or got it wrong. And still like that in that idea from childhood I mentioned, I believe a lot of religions/spirituality systems have some valuable things in them hidden.
Dreams are very important to me and I had some weird experiences associated with them. Premonition dreams, learning about things from the past I didn't know of (they turned out to be real). I have lucid dreams sometimes too and I like reading on this topic although I don't really train to have these, I enjoy non-lucid dreams too and don't feel like pursing LDs at all costs.
There were times when I wondered about solipsism-like models of the world. Sometimes I just feel as if I wish that after death I could go to some happier places and situations I know from dreams.
It's crazy and I won't share details but this person I feel drawn to, I had some synchronicities in life related to that person and really want to meet after death. We are so similar and I think I could find a happier life with someone like that.