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No. 1765626
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>>>/ot/1752397 No. 1765635
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It annoys me that moids can easily get a good girlfriend, but my dream boyfriend is non-existent. I thank husbandos for existing and taking me for a second out of the pain and misery that it's being a straight woman, but it saddens me that while moids can easily get a pickme braindead bimbo with implans that acts like their uguu waifu it's impossible for a woman to get anything resembling an husbando or a male character from a romance novel written by women for women. It's not fair that the sex that commits 99% of crimes can find a good caring partner partner and women cant.
No. 1765656
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>>1765653Need me one so bad
No. 1765753
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Good /ot/ reeks of moid lately, they use the most moidish insults and they they are pasing. Literally not even trying.
No. 1765770
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Can we all take a look at this weevil? Maybe the retarded moid troon will go away when he realizes we all just are relaxing and looking at pretty bugs.
No. 1765775
>>1765772There was also a moid yelling at nonnies to "never vist 4chan again you
femcels" or some other retarded shit, the moid situation is extremely bad
No. 1765781
>>1765778here trannoid
>>1719492 since you are a lying faggot, my last post with this image was a month ago. And you can easily search it and find out that i have been using it for over a year in different threads.
No. 1765782
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>>1765777This was your meltdown after no one wanted to use the new yaoi thread and your post has a panda meme and complaints about yaoi, plus the first numeric digits of the file are the same as the one you posted today.
No. 1765798
>>1765791>similar typing styleyou pretend to be so knowledgeable of my typing style, but you are so retarded you cant even realize
>>1765782 writes with caps on and i dont.
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I really hope one day I can meet a capybara. They seem so sweet. I was looking at the Google reviews of Café Capyba in Tokyo and everyone said that it was an amazing experience just to be able to sit with them while drinking some coffee. I live far from Japan but I would plan an entire vacation around that little café.
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>>1765848Maybe then, I can go to a swamp where they naturally reside, and place some oranges around them. Just to add a little color
No. 1765870
>>1765667That one man on
tiktok that dances while telling other redpill men to shut the fuck up in video responses.
No. 1765899
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Finally in my country a gender critical movement was born and actively doing mmeetings and stuff, we started to get some amerishit gendie influx with younger millennials and zoomers calling themselves nonbinary (our language is gendered so you cannot really escape the gender binary anyway, it looks awkward as fuck) and advocating for puberty blockers, some brainrot money hungry doctors also started prescribing them and it's funny as fuck that you can't get them in public hospital but as long you pay every month they'll gladly give them to you, talk about corruption.
Anyway, since the gc movement here wanted to make itself as open as possible, everyone could assist the meetings and of course, fucking boomers flooded them not understanding a single flying fuck about it. I'm talking about cultish boomers, those who unironically believe that the earth is flat and there are ice giants at the borders killing everyone who gets closer. They see a critique for the latest craze, despite this shit going around for more than 10 years (speaking in pop culture themes) and jump to everything who says something that criticize it. I'm not directly mad at them, I understand that they're old and want to believe anything that goes against the "popular opinion" just because they say so, they don't use critical thinking, but it baffles me how they'll believe anything that's absurd enough to be true just because it's absurd so it must be true, right?
Anyway, back to the first thing:
in one of the meetings we (I was an assistant of the main speaker, sorry for my bad english, I'm translating directly some terms in my head so I hope it's understandable) discussed the reverse sexism in nonbinary discourse and everyone was open to partecipate.
I said that this shit eventually went downhill starting from 2020 because due to the pandemic, many teens were staying inside and brainrotting themselves on the internet in a social-contagion circle, bringing some examples on how this, before 2020, it was mainly a thing of chronically online autistic/mentally ill people. Of fucking course, when I said 2020, one of these old farters raised their hands.
"Yes?" I replied.
"Do you think there's a link in between the covid vaccine and transness?"
"Personally, no. This thing has been observed way before covid, it was a consequence, not the cause."
"But 2020 was the year of the covid"
"I know, but" putting the demographic year per year scale with sources "The term nonbinary was created in 2014 by a teenager on the internet and (blablabla)"
"So you don't believe in covid, right?"
"This is irrelevant to this conversation."
"You're saying that the vaccine didn't cause harm."
"No, I'm just saying that there's no link, it's a matter of social contagion. It's more psychological."
He gets up and tells me to go fuck myself and leaves saying that I'm denying the existence of some mkultra shit which causes us to sterilize ourselves and get sick.
Since it's a formal meeting and can't really throw hands, I try to explain that yes, that happens, but it's from money hungry doctors, he's not wrong, it's just not that deep and they left leaving behind this weird, embarrassing aura.
They're free to believe in anything they want, I truly believe it, but I will never understand their exploding need (mostly a moid thing) to be included in everything and you have to agree with them or they get violent. If you want to discuss covid, just go to the right conventions and meetings. I also believe that they're some degree of mentally ill and of course the internet really worsened that but come on…we are already struggling to get our point out there, don't hijack our effort with stupid schizo-linking shit. Like I'm skeptical about the whole covid thing too but I know where to discuss shit and I don't live with my tinfoil hat on.
No. 1765964
>>1765956You could post him in KF with an alt account and not saying that he’s your cousin, since he sounds terminally online, he will find the threads where he will be. You could also send his pictures and posts to some Twitter accounts that make fun of trannies.
It will only make him feel like a
victim but at least his face will be online forever and mocked by others that also hate trannies.
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What's the point of living really if I can't ever find a good enough partner to be with? My standards are really high, especially considering how fucked up moids are. But my standards are also probably too high for a somewhat decent moid to meet too. Most media centers around romance and how essential it is. And most of the shows or movies I used to enjoy focused on romance as well. Now i cant enjoy watching those things anymore. Theyre just reminders of how ill never experience something special.
Art was always a reason I had to keep existing, but now I can't really enjoy drawing as much either bc I always draw shit from the corny romance shit I read. It feels a bit shitty to have all the things you enjoy (or at least used to enjoy) constantly tie back to a subject that makes you sad.
People always frame love and romance as "the most beautiful feeling in the world". So whats the point if ill never really be able to experience it?
No. 1765976
>>1765956IDK where you live nonna but in some countries, rape on minors can be reported decades after the crime. Also paedophiles, like other rapists, rarely stop and are serial rapists. You could also check local support groups for incest survivors. Just be aware that some of them are made for the paedophiles and not the
victims. I'm really sorry and I'm sending you hugs.
No. 1765984
>>1765956The silver lining is that we all know for a fact trannies loathe themselves which is why they attempt to be something they're not in the first place. There is also a high incidence of vulnerable narcissism too.
So while he may prattle off about his victimhood and newfound 'empowerment' all day, just know that–dear anon–underneath his thin mask he lives within a prison of mental instability and emotional torture of his own making. It's exactly what he deserves, after all. Perhaps the reason he trooned out to begin with was to try to distance himself from being a typical male molester. It's no secret that many males who troon out are sexual predators, some of them even do so on the ficticious predicate that women are suspected of and punished less for sex crimes.
Except they will never be women.
He will never be a woman.
Your family and his friends may be superficially supportive yet behind his back they laugh and mock him.
People only keep him around to make themselves feel better by comparison. He will never truly be accepted anywhere.
When the maggots feast on his flesh in the grave, akin to the lies that rotted away his soul in life, they will reveal the bones of yet another standard, disgusting man.
Rest in piss.
No. 1766008
>>1765899Boomers are legitimately brain damaged, they're the generation that grew up on leaded gasoline. It's no surprise they end up believing retarded shit just because they're "unpopular" without thinking for themselves.
>>1765956I feel your pain so much
nonny and I want to seriously a-log this motherfucker. Such a horrible thing should have never happened to you as a child. Fuck moids. Fuck trannoids. Fuck all of them!
No. 1766089
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>>1766076are you that anon who thinks women naturally look like pigs, while men are just normal? lol
No. 1766112
>>1766075i refuse to attend work parties, which is already a hellish phrase, and my coworkers who are going always try to guilt trip me and ask why. my other coworkers who are single and don't have kids similarly don't attend. i said i was going to be busy for the upcoming one and one of my coworkers was like, "what are you going to be busy doing? sleeping? laundry day?"
can they really not conceptualize a life outside of work and house chores for their families? i said, no i'm probably going to be hanging out with my friends. normies tend to get married and have kids because they're "supposed" to, and then their lives revolve around this and they have no time for friends or hobbies, or fucking anything apparently. how can you not understand that someone has a life outside of work and doesn't want to spend non-paid hours with coworkers?
No. 1766209
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>>1765626the single biggest reason I never killed myself was because my mom couldn't afford to bury me. The thought of her creating a gofundme just to bury me makes me sad. And yet I'm a burden and failure. I flunked school, can't find a job, no friends or hobbies and broke as fuck. I have nothing to look forward to. I really should have killed myself back in 2017. I'm afraid of doing it now because she's taking care of my grandparents and she doesn't need that stress.
No. 1766237
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>>1766209As a former NEET let me say that's it never too late, you can still get a job to try to support your mother at least. the recovering NEET thread might do you some good. and the issues of school can be solved by getting some GED equivalent and a trade school.
No. 1766241
>>1766227You got this!! I gained over the past year myself and seeing photos is
triggering. Being short doesn't help and weight loss is slow but we freaking got this.
No. 1766278
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>>1766255yeah it's sad that he's so pretty but it's because he's sick. There's a species called "powder blue" that have a similar color naturally though!
No. 1766307
I went to a butterfly exhibit this week with my family, my mom chose the place because she's going in for surgery soon so we were doing a family day before. The exhibit had bugs, birds, frogs, and one flamingo as well but man it bummed me out so much. I obviously didn't say anything to my family because I'm not going to dump on the mood like that but holy shit those places are so sad. The cases for the bugs were so small, one of the tarantulas was just sprawled against the corner of glass like he was trying to hide or get away. The butterflies kept flying towards the windows and doors like they wanted to escape, the parrots would not stop screaming at the top of their lungs. And the flamingo was just standing on this concrete slab with it's head bowed towards the water, a fake dirty stream, the entire time just staring in one spot. There was so much poo surrounding the bird so it must just stand there all day, doing nothing. It literally broke my fucking heart, I couldn't look at it I felt like I was going to cry. It even made my mom a little sad because he was all alone and apparently had been in captivity his entire life, 40 years. I don't understand why people like those places, it's so depressing. It's cool seeing the bugs and the butterflies were beautiful but I'd rather not get to see them in my lifetime but know they're out there free living their life.
No. 1766311
>>1766307That's absolutely infuriating to read, especially about the flamingo. In the wild, they're usually in flocks of hundreds.
I'm reminded of a zoo I went to in Japan. It was an utterly miserable experience. Every animal was in an enclosure way too small for it and many were clearly psychologically unwell. The worst part was that people there seemed to think it's okay and there were many children there having fun. Made me grateful that I live somewhere that has stronger animal-keeping standards.
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I feel depressed right now, what are some quick ways to get back on track?
No. 1766419
>>1766369Tidy up your room and then do what
>>1766384 suggested. It's such stereotypical advice but my mind always feels more clear when I've tidied it up a bit.
No. 1766435
>>1766425I know I should, and honestly I do want to give it a try specifically to cut back sugars. My issue is that my main craving is bad carbs and because of some other stuff, lately I've been increasingly restrictive in what I eat being comfort foods and if it's not that I'd rather not eat at all. Which would just be trading one form of disordered eating for another. I know it's my own issues to deal with but it still sucks.
>>1766429While not a bad tip, the issue is not me being hungry or not. I crave food even when I've binged and am so full I feel sick.
No. 1766437
>>1766431NTA, but my parents always leave me in the house to watch it too lol So it won't get robbed. It was very relatable to read, strength to
nonny.
No. 1766448
>>1766437That’s so wack what the hell. If someone wants to rob them one girl isn’t gonna stop them. leave some lights on and put a cardboard cutout in a chair instead of making your daughter a human scarecrow. Strength to
nonny, yes, to leave the house when she wants.
No. 1766450
>>1766431Our house got robbed once, so now we’re all paranoid, the ideal is that we all take turns to stay at home so the others can go out, but since my parents were living in another country, and my brother has a job at an office, I had to stay everyday at home, even during the weekends because that’s when he gets to go out and have fun.
So like, the idea was that I would stay at home while he was going out for his tennis tournaments and stuff, but when he didn’t have tournaments he would stay, but that literally never happened and 3 years happened with me not noticing how I literally never leave the house.
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>>1766461are you eating whole grain oatmeal? i like this one, there’s probably healthier ones but it keeps me full for a good while. i think the key is to make sure it has a good amount of fibre. this one has 4g of fibre per serving. i like to eat it with high protein greek yogurt mixed with ground flax seed, too.
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Feels like I've been so bored lately. lolcor is so boring. 4chan's rare few okay threads are boring. Real life is boring. Everything online is boring.
I feel like I need a new hyperfixation but nothing interesting has released lately. I had a lot of fun learning Japanese for a few weeks but I'm struggling to find a decent manga to consistently read that is also at my beginner level. Most stuff I'm interested in is way too advanced for me. I also feel bad for neglecting Anki these last few days.
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>>1766513I’ve heard Wonder Cat Kyuu Chan is good for learning beginner Japanese. I read it in English so I can’t confirm but I like it a lot.
No. 1766545
>>1766488huh? oats are whole grain by nature, though? the ones i buy have 14g protein per 100g serving. i only buy the kind that has one ingredient (oats) and nothing else. i also eat them with full fat greek yogurt but that doesn't help either. i'll try eating bigger portions like
>>1766463 suggested though!
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I'm so fucking embarrassed I want to kms I was talking to my manager (who I'm always too autistically shy to talk to) about a gift I want to get him and I could literally feel my face burning up. He didn't say anything but holy shit. I'm sure I was red as hell.
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>cool horror concept made by tiktok girl
>Find out she has an OF and thats all everyone brings up
Online prostitution is not worth please stop I beg of you
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>>1766707Is it her? That’s disappointing, I like her stuff
No. 1767088
>>1766429>>1766461It won't do shit for satiety without adding protein.
Mix in some protein powder or something, makes it taste worse but otherwise it's like 90 percent carbs still.
I don't get carbanons, I can never ever lose weight without eating at least 100g protein daily
No. 1767113
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I am so fucking stupid and feel like a god damn retard. For several years two of my friends were absolutely devastated about a mutual friend who has a sort of hurtful relationship with them, and they were frustrated having a one sided friendship with friend. They would message me and despair asking about ways they could communicate with this friend while being terrified that “omg what if friend takes this the wrong way”. They would read into hurtful friend’s social media posts, get anxiety because they suspected friend was being hurtful to them but not others, wonder why she would hurt them but others got to be a part of her life in a not-hurtful way etc.
Of course suddenly the hurtful friend stops doing the hurtful behavior and all is forgiven because she was having a bad time for all these years!
Oh, right! Except I am the fucking scum of the earth now to her, because I mentioned the behavior was upsetting people and that I was tired of my friends being hurt, and I look like the asshole because she was going through bad things. I am now supposed to steer clear of mutual social groups because she doesn’t want to hear from me ever again.
Of course, the friends who were most hurt didn’t seem to have opened up about how bad it was for all these years- they just said “oh yeah, i know it was bad but yknow, I was overreacting”
I wish I could be a hurtful fuck and not give a crap about my friends the way hurtful friend does and get away with everything. Honestly i just wish i could stop fucking needing friends. How do people just not care? Can someone fucking teach me? It seems so much better from the other side. Some people just seem to have higher “social credit score” so to speak, and that’s clearly not fucking me and I think it’s because I care too much and don’t exclude others.
No. 1767410
>>1766992This is such a huge gripe I have with so many female figures and the culture surrounding them, they play up the sex factor for male appeal but rebrand it as "empowering!! sex positive! activism!" and "just being confident in her own body xoxo self-love!" so it suddenly sounds progressive. And then coomers act like they're basically the new abolitionists or suffragettes for being 100% on board with that.
People talk big about supporting women and letting them express themselves authentically, but curiously, it's mostly women whose self-expression involves their body's sex appeal who get the praise. It's so grim.
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This is my bfs twitter likes, is it over?
No. 1767711
>>1767675>>1767678i wanted to know if i was overracting
>>1767666i went on some of the accs and they post shit like this, he also likes a lot of male loneliness/couples pictures 'suicide fuel'
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so alone in this shit ass world
No. 1767846
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I found out I had COVID and isolated for 5 days, then went to a friends birthday party. I took my mask off to drink a couple of times. Now I’m afraid that I could’ve still infected other people despite my symptoms getting better help how likely is this
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I just went onto youtube and saw this in my suggestions, weird coincidence considering I don't watch anything similar to whatever this is
No. 1768105
>>1764677I grew up with debilitating anxiety disorders in a very
toxic household and I self-harmed growing up. I'm in my late 20s and I'm normal now. I do still have the scars that make me "look like a basket case" but you just have to deal with it. These things become less important when you're active and healthy and not thinking about things in terms of killing yourself all the time. good luck nona.
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well this explains it all at least to me
No. 1768148
>>1768142Talked to a guy online who took on my and several other female posters identities as his own huge fucking creep still follows me online to this day years after I blocked his
abusive ass on all social media. The next guy is some old redpiller who hates women dunno why he attached himself to me but he seems to see himself as some grand manipulator or wizard or something but no he just seems really sad and pathetic. Its just normal male behavior to hate stalk every female who arouses lust in you in some way…I'm so glad I'm not a male because the only feeling I have towards men is disinterest or mild pity.
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I got blanked today by the girl I have been in love with for years. I haven’t seen her in over 12 months and she flat out ignored me in a group of people all day. The last time I saw her she told me she loved me and she was so affectionate and I reciprocated . Feeling mmm devastated just completely fucking blindsided. Just useless. Like I can just be ignored like a piece of trash.
No. 1768369
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>>1768349Yeah, women older than 25+ are hags to them, but being a 20 year old male with the balding pattern of a 40 year old male is normal and handsome, actually. If you make fun of a moid for looking 50 when he's 20, it's actually ableist because he didn't choose to go bald or get skinnyfat, how dare these post-wall whores say something so offensive and act so shallow and obsessive over appearance! What if that fat incel neckbeard has the personality of a saint? Just because he has shit and food particles in his second chin's beard and spends all his time sitting on his balls watching hentai and posting on reddit, he deserves to be ridiculed? What the fuck! That is so rude. Imagine if women were treated that way, that never happens! A 20 year old male with a patch of hair on the top of his head and nowhere else is
valid!
No. 1768410
>>1768394I hate this so much. People like this also spoil their sons. My ex was one of those where his whole extended family really wanted a boy and he ended up being the only boy, so he was paraded around as the prize. Too bad he grew up to be a coomer and I'm willing to bet will also go MTF in a couple of years because he constantly complains about being a
victim and how women have it easier.
No. 1768431
>>1768420People might yell at you for not expecting to work that much but honestly you're right it is depressing and a huge reality check to realize how much you're gonna work until you die. But I think you should keep working towards being a doctor and it will be much more rewarding once you are actually paid a doctor's wage and you can do things you enjoy with that money. There's a
huuuuuge difference between working and making a lot of money, and working for peanuts.
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>>1768442Doctoral
nonnie in the building impressive. We’re rooting for you
No. 1768461
>>1768442I’m rooting for you. I am surprised to hear about the low wages you describe through school and training, I had the impression it was a lot of school (and that’s why wealthier people or people with a lot of family support tend to make it through the rigorous schooling) but I rarely think about those who have to support themselves through it (if that’s what you’re doing). Maybe that’s why I see so many student worker unions forming… that’s all a bit outside my area of knowledge though.
I don’t know who told you doctors work three days a week, I always heard it was a demanding stressful schedule but the pay is high.
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Anons I need advice. I have a friend with BPD and psychosis, she is very nice to me but from what other people tell me she's causing a whole lot of drama. A mutual friend of ours is sofa surfing and occasionally stays with her. For some reason they sleep in the same bed (??) even though he claims he's not interested in her. He said that he was very drunk once, trying to fall asleep, but she kept touching him. He's saying stuff like "no I don't want this" but she continues and yeah. While he's telling me this story I'm like, that's really not OK but my male friend was probably too out of it at the time to notice, he said he only started to think it was wrong after my reaction. He thinks she's a good person, just does very bad stuff sometimes. He also said they argue a lot, and she made him wait 15 minutes outside in the freezing cold, they both had to catch a bus, but she didn't go to the bus stop until the youtube video she was watching ended (there's so many incidents I could bring up oh my lord). And also it's a bit awkward hanging out with her because she falls out with so many people. There's this group of people I'm slowly being accepted into their friendship, but my friend is literally always like, I don't like these people let's avoid them. My BPD friend will be like well they took sides against me. But my friend in the group was like, BPD girl was in a really toxic relationship, her boyfriend threatened me with a knife (!!) and BPD girl made excuses for her bf. And this girl is the sweetest ever, so kind and patient I can't imagine how out of order you'd have to be to piss her off. My sofa surfing friend said BPD girl absolutely hates it when people spend time with who she hates, she can't accept that just because she doesn't like someone, that doesn't make them a bad person. So I can't even talk to these people when BPD girl is around me, it's getting me down because that friendship group are lovely, normal people. They're in my local goth/metal/punk scene so it's not like I could completely avoid them even if I wanted to. I can't say to BPD girl "I like you both and I want to get to know them better" she wouldn't have it. I really don't know what to do. BPD girl genuinely is nice and polite to me, I think partly because of how I am. A friend of mine once told me I was stopping her from going into a manic episode because I'm so calm, so I guess I'm the lucky one avoiding people's meltdowns. But still, I'm gonna feel massively uncomfortable hanging around BPD girl who seems to make enemies with every alt person and is a possible rapist??
No. 1768478
>>1768468>>1768461>>1768452thank you nonnies
these anonymous messages mean a lot for me and they are actual good advice
No. 1768554
>>1768477I used to be close to someone like that and she made me miserable every single day. I can't even describe how suffocating and isolating these types of people are once they've imprinted on you.
>I can't even talk to these people when BPD girl is around meMy BPDfag did this exact same thing to me and then I was left with no close friends because she'd lose her mind whenever I went out with anyone, and I obviously also couldn't invite her to come along because she was a bitch and everyone fucking hated her.
>I was stopping her from going into a manic episode because I'm so calmThat's not how manic episodes work kek I'm guessing that she just says she has psychosis and manic episodes to excuse her deranged behavior. She's only nice to you because she thinks you're going to put up with her bullshit, if you do anything she disapproves of she's going to make you regret ever even befriending her. Just run, she isn't worth interacting with unless she's actually putting in the work and is prepared to do DBT for decades to come.
No. 1768577
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My sister is such a narc, just like our dad was but she isn't an alcoholic just yet. She does that thing where anything she goes through is the absolute worst, she is the biggest victim and no one could ever understand, everyone else should get their shit together though. She has to get a routine, minor surgery soon, but she was denied at least twice due to throwing a fit at the doctors and she was deemed way to unstable, which is just, not normal behaviour at all but hey, she's always being wronged! She kept whining about how she hopes she doesn't get sick right before the surgery, she somehow managed to trick her doctor to deem her fit this time for it, yet she keeps dragging her kids to all these germfest bday parties, ballpits and shit like that, all the while saying how she's doing everything to avoid germs. She will post on fb and whine irl about how she has had to wait for two years for this surgery, but never mentions how it was her acting Psycho that lead her into this, I had to wait 2 years for my cancer surgery due to covid. I never complained, I never went anywhere to keep as healthy as I could so I wouldn't have to miss my appointments or surgery dates and she has the guts to whine like that around me? I know I sound selfish but the way a narc will scream and cry abuse and having the hardest life whilst their little sister, by many fucking years, I sat there like "I went through cancer during a pandemic, you're getting a hernia fixed" and she says shit like "You People can't even imagine how it's like to be sick! so sick! I've done my all!! I am so patient!" you threatened to hit a doctor for saying you were too unstable, what did you do exactly? Idk, I never blamed anyone for my health, I could've Eaten better and excercised more and so on, didn't cry about shit but I honestly feel like I'm in some surreal skit whenever she starts going about her life and issues she created for herself. I think I too sound like a pissbaby but fuck her and fuck her weird ass anger issues and fuck her for never ever realising other people have issues as well.
No. 1768605
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i have a TIF coworker and the most male thing about her is the entitlement. we have the same job on paper but she spends most of the time chatting with coworkers or doing little things instead of the main part of our job. orders me around despite me being here longer. but she's schmooze-y and thinks highly of herself so guess who's getting the promotion? despite privately shitting all over the company we work for?
i know i work hard but i have negative self esteem and just don't have that confident attitude needed to get farther in this. i need to go back to school man
No. 1768687
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after decades of this god damned existence i still struggle with recurring acne, and i am too retarded to figure out whether i fall for the trap of craving something with dairy in it every time around my period or if it is simply my period causing them. i craved crackers and bought a new brand, checked the ingredients, which said it may include traces of milk. i got small pimples within hours of eating it. i stopped ordering takeout from non-vegan places because i realized they might cook the food in butter. only time i was acne free for a consistent amount of time was when i was eating like an anorexic puritan, which i now can not do because i actually have to physically work full time. this is so embarrassing. i do not want to wait until menopause to finally have clear skin.
No. 1768700
>>1768687If you ctrl+f "DIM" you will find a long supplement paragraph in the skincare thread I wrote, don't have time to find it just this moment. It helped me a lot to focus on inclusion vs exclusion.
Sometimes you need more of one nutrient to balance out whatever it is in dairy etc that makes you break out. Kind of like the omega 3 vs 6 balance. I hope it helps. I eat butter all the time now.
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>>1768700thanks. i heard that eating zinc supplements can help
No. 1768804
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scum ass family members make it impossible to live. everything i do is predictable to them because they abused me a certain way to make me dependent and stockholmed to them. they want to make it seem like it is my choice and my fault they abuse me. they throw threats at me. i was too dumb to realize they were keeping tabs on me. spying on my computer, phone and books. i couldn't lie about where i lived so they found me. i don't even see a point in moving anymore. they send people to pry personal questions, they send people to find out what i like and then steal my ideas for themselves, it's weird. from raping and beating they turned to excluding, spreading rumors, including and ridiculing, and stealing my ideas. they want me to have no identity and no thoughts. but i do live independently and i do not want to partake in their abuse. it is difficult to move though because i have a partner and a full time job. you can say i must break up and that i can find a job like that anywhere else but that is not true. my partner makes me happy, at least for now, and a job is a necessity. i worked hard there for them to get me on a better shift and enough hours even though they did not like me at first. because of years of abuse i am hard to like, i act autistic and boring, so for me to have a partner and a normal job is out of the ordinary.
No. 1768869
My mother getting wasted and begging for attention by drinking is so cringe. Just stop being an alcoholic and go outside and make friends instead of pestering me cause youre so miserable.
>>1768835Same
No. 1768930
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Calling and dealing with these banking companies is frustrating and stressful. Just give me my money REEEEEEE
No. 1768982
>>1768975this makes sense. Cluster B people most of the time won't seek help and typically think they're literally always right or are the
victims, plus since it's not a glamourized disorder they won't claim it, won't test for it, etc. Also, therapists suck at telling when people lie, too.
No. 1769141
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It sucks having a parent and sibling who are abusive narcissists. My parent has two personality disorders and my sister takes after her so much. They get enjoyment and pleasure out of doing fucked up things to me, there’s no limit to their behavior and they can’t be self aware or feel empathy or remorse. My sister’s dad and grandparents always ignored and mistreated me while she had an endless amount of adoration, attention, and love. I was literally treated like a dog compared to her (and I mean literally, my stepdad used to ban me from sitting on furniture outside of my bedroom and made me eat dinner on the floor while they sat around the table) and instead of seeing how fucked up it all was, she gets off on it. To her it just reaffirms that she’s better than me. She ignores all the physical, sexual, and psychological abuse I endured because they never mistreated her and she straight up just doesn’t feel anything for me. I didn’t know my stepdad wasn’t my real dad until I was older, so when I found out that he wasn’t I had the crushing realization of “oh, so that’s why they treat me like that. It’s not that there’s something inherently wrong with me, they just don’t love me because I’m not really theirs” and my sister gets off on that too because it makes her feel special in comparison. I still love her and she’s my favorite person in the world, but she’s a raging narcissist and it’s hard to love someone who doesn’t love me back. Despite it all, I’m glad that she was loved and treated well, taking all the abuse so that she didn’t experience any of it is more than worth it to me
No. 1769200
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Some years ago I was sure that I wanted to abandon my home country as fast as possible and marry my current partner and not look back. Now I'm not so sure. Nothing has changed, but also… I think I would miss my mom and my country. I miss being a rebellious person but now I can't hate my mom I can't help but feel scared of traveling to another country and meeting my partner's family and culture, because everything is so different, I'm clinging to familiarity despite knowing I've never wanted to live here forever
No. 1769300
It sucks when someone you considered a good friend with strong morals do something that goes so much against them. We used to talk and agree on so many things, yet recently i’ve seen her exhibiting bottom of the barrel moid behaviors. The person I knew would find these actions disgusting, she would know that the path she’s leading down isn’t just cringe, it’s morally wrong and not only hurts other women but herself. It’s not small actions like calling another woman a whore or unfairly critiquing another for something she can’t control. It’s something I know will spiral out in worse ways and isn’t a bandaid to whatever reasons she has for doing it.
For the most part I don’t believe that her opinions and agreeing with me were just for show, there were some signs I didn’t pick up on, but I used to have those red flags too. We matured and learned from our mistakes together, she was a big part of shaping me into who I am today, it’s hard for me to think that she could have had this side of her that she’s only now showing because i’m not friends with her anymore. Possibly narcissistically I also wonder if only I had been there at whatever turning point, I could have steered her away and back into the right direction. I knew our friendship had a limited shelf life, I have mixed feelings on that, right now if I could talk to her again I would choose not to. The moidish behavior is not the primary reason why but it’s a large part of it.
I don’t want to believe it, I want to blame the personal things in her life, I know of the ones we talked about but not what’s she’s currently dealing with. I can’t imagine what those could be, I don’t know what would turn someone like her into the complete opposite direction. Loneliness? Projecting how she’s treated as a woman onto others? How does she rationalize treating women in the same ways we’d shame men for? If she even does, she is not impulsive and would know how self destructive this is. There isn’t anything I can do, I just need to move on and hope that she doesn’t go any further and realizes her mistakes. Whatever is driving her towards it, the person I knew could deal with in a way that keeps her integrity. She wouldn’t contribute to further harm, even on the smallest level. I just have to hope she doesn’t go down this path anymore.
No. 1769431
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When extremely logged in Americans make posts that are like "here is how you can help the war in Israel" and the things they list are literally only things to soothe their own ego and make them feel like they understand or are apart of something they absolutely aren't and aren't aiding at all. People like that are so scary. They don't even care.
No. 1769466
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Being fat feels so unfair. If I do manage to lose all the weight I want to, I'm still left with loose skin and stretch marks. Even worse is statistically I'll gain it all back anyway. The closest thing to a medication that can curb my cravings is something that won't be given to me be cause I don't have diabetes, but an invasive weight loss surgery is no problem apparently.
I just feel like no matter what I do I'm fucked and looked down upon. Nobody will want to date someone who's body looks like a deflated balloon. I'll always have the stigma of having been so obese for the rest of my life even if I somehow get skinny.
No. 1769478
>>1769466Lots of if's lot of assuming, not an attitude that will ever lead to weight loss. It's shitty yeah, people hate fat women but they love self loathing fat women because they think they deserve that punishment, would rather be that fat gal on the treadmill than that fat gal who sits in a dark room and stress eats. You care too much what others think.
But like others say there are solutions and you can do it, you have time and you can find support, it doesn't have to be perfect you don't have to look like a model. GL
No. 1769509
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I’m not a scrote I just don’t wanna see anime boys drooling on each other or sexualized Frollo everytime I wanna shitpost…I’m so tired. Not every woman likes yaoi or wants to hear about it, a picture here or there I was able to ignore but it was like every time I came to dumbass shit they were posting it to excess. I think the funposting thread is fine let them keep it.
No. 1769514
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Heartbroken and rejected. I have an exam on Thursday but I'm so shocked about losing this person I can't move, can't study, anything.
No. 1769515
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>>1769509Yaoi has been pretty much banned from the dumbass shit thread, I'm not seeing any in the shitpost thread either, even the dumbass shit thread knock off a fujo creates in retaliation is getting more Sylvanian families AI generated images than yaoi.
No. 1769525
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I'm tired of people posting so many times the same shit on this website that it doesn't even feel like an anonymous board anymore.
No. 1769594
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I’m so sorry vent thread, my b
No. 1769631
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>>1769608Actually, you know if you think about it it's not very Intersectional-Allyship of them to want to cast a "woman" as a man. What if it makes the "actress" dysphoric and suicidal?
No. 1769649
>>1769582I do find it quaint as well, there's no way this could happen in any other of our so called "states"? Areas? As a woman of course, it makes you feel incredibly uneasy sometimes. I'm so thankful for my dogs. And the expandable steel baton I hide behind the door, next to the small axe and knife. Normal things you know. It's sweet when it's the neighbour, less sweet when it's someone from your neighbouring country asking for scraps and managing to comment on your nipple piercing in five sentences or less.
Far enough my neighbours don't come by often enough, close enough they might hear me scream.
Anyone else stopping by is usually adorable or a friend. Kids asking if they can use my fields for riding their horses, someone looking for a lost sheep and people coming by with plants asking if I'd like to vote for them.
No. 1769665
>>1769368I can’t specify without losing my anonymity. I don’t know law very well but it’s probably in a gray area legally, morally very wrong to anyone who doesn’t see women as objects. Some of it the women she’s doing it to probably know, some of it not. She was even a radfem and was so based when we talked. It’s something i’ve been
victim of, that just makes this so much more of a punch in the gut and so much more personal to me. I don’t know if she has experience it herself. Likely not, maybe that’s why she’s doing it. But it was something we’d talk about and as I said, if a moid did it she would rightfully shame them. I may have even talked to her about my personal experience, I don’t know if I regret that now. I’m just fucking torn, I can’t even wish that she’d do this specific thing to men because I know she wouldn’t, and this just wouldn’t effect a man in the same way. And it’s
actions not just her having an opinion I disagree with. It goes beyond just her tweeting out something misogynistic or porny. I hate it here, can’t even trust that the most based women won’t just turn around and become the thing she’d despise. I thought she would be smart and self aware enough to be better than fucking disgusting creepy waste of breath moids. I don’t know if she even knows I know. Maybe if I were there whenever it started she wouldn’t have done it.
I probably sound like a moralfag but if you were in my shoes you’d understand.
No. 1769682
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I know this is such a basic vent but I can't stand the way I look nonnies, I know that's such a universal experience but I don't know how others cope. I've felt so inadequate and ugly since I was like 8 and I'm almost 30 now, everyone I've ever opened up too has always told me I'll grow out of it but like when, and how? I honestly look deformed, like I'm sick or something is wrong with me. I have no hips, no waistline definition, my boobs are small and like half tuberous, my sternum sticks out farther than it should so it makes my tits look even more weird, my arms are weirdly skinny and veiny no matter how much I weigh, I have really broad shoulders and man hands, I'm balding and my under eyes make me look mid forties, I have varicose veins all over my legs and cutting scars all over my arms and legs and stomach from when I was a retarded teenager. I see myself in photos next to my sister and she's naturally tan with thick hair and beautiful, I look like a shapeless white bald ghost next to her. I just want to be able to get through a day without crying and having a mini meltdown over it. I was just looking at stuff on redbubble and came across this painting and it literally just drained all the motivation and life out of me, I would kill to look like this, or at least have one similar trait. I will never measure up I will always look so inadequate compared to other women
No. 1769776
>>1769252sorry your advisor was such a PoS. Male professors suck, my advisor was emotionally manipulative/
abusive too and I didn't realize it until he died and I got a new women advisor who believed in student/faculty boundaries. Now you know, and if you ever have interns or get into teaching you'll be a great mentor because you recognized the shit in academic spaces. I hope that makes sense, I have a migraine and slept 3 hours… forgive me
>>1769245I didn't finish. Instead, I emailed her half and said "you'll get the other half tomorrow" She probably hates me, I'd hate me too.
No. 1769779
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JUST SAY YOU FUCKING HATE WOMEN, AAAAAAAAA.
I've so fucking pissed. Trannies, PLEASE die. This is so fucking sick. No fucking way. I'm going to snap. I am going to fucking snap I AM GOING TO FUCKING SNAP.
No. 1769789
>>1769779Samefagging but I cannot even calm down about this. How the fuck do you hire a fucking tranny? Appoint a tranny that will NEVER EVER fucking experience endometriosis. I will never forgive them.
They couldn't even hire a FTM who has experienced it. They truly hate women.
No. 1769803
>>1769756if you're serious about this relationship you have to start training him. Men are beyond stupid when it comes to personal care. I love my nigel but I had to train him to take care of his skin and it's still very much a WIP.
I suggest starting small, like just getting him to wash his face with soap. and then introduce a toner or moisturizer. Currently, mine uses a face wash, spray toner, and SPF. I'm currently attempting to transition him to moisturizer. After he starts washing his face make sure you compliment him on how good he looks (even if there is no visual difference!)
As for working out, do you workout? I find it helps motivation to see the other partner being fit etc. Maybe suggest you both limit the amount of sweets/junk food you consume and start going for walks after dinner together?
If he isn't worth this effort then def find another fish in the sea. Mine was mostly perfect except for skincare/haircare.
No. 1769824
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>>1769779damn they're getting eaten up in their twitter comments for this lol
what's the background on him being
abusive towards CSA survivors?
No. 1769825
>>1769811Don't try so hard. You're not paid based on production, and it's obvious that they don't fire people at your job easily, so relax and don't take on the stress. It kills your heart and makes life less enjoyable.
Easier said than done, I know. I end up taking over 30% of tasks in any department I join so that the whole machine runs more smoothly, but when I stopped doing everything, my day became so much easier. Yeah, things are going to be missed, but that's your boss's problem and if she doesn't like it, she can assign tasks or do it herself.
No. 1769839
>>1769803I don't think he can be trained. Whole horse to water issue, and right now the good still outweighs the bad enough that I'm willing to stay. I started him on face wipes and it's done wonders though so maybe you're right that if I make a few small steps that he'll take to them.
I work out, and last year he worked out only a little but saw immediate and great muscle progress, but he petered off and hasn't picked it back up.
>>1769820You should never date someone expecting them to change so I always have that in mind (though he made amazing strides in cleaning and I am a detail oriented woman who is hard to please), but I also only date very submissive men and those are not the type who constantly self improve.
Though maybe that's just my experience with the few I've dated. Has anyone else dated submissive men who also have a lot of executive function and go getter attitude?
No. 1769843
>>1769830That's not even reddit spacing you useless faggot.
This is reddit spacing. That's being on mobile and wanting everything to look neat while similar thoughts are grouped together for ease of reading.
No. 1769853
>>1769848Someone once said "you either have standards as a woman or you have a relationship". Beginning to think that shit is very true because the things some of y'all put up with…
His mommy never taught him to wash his face twice a day? Wtf
No. 1769867
>>1769848No, like face wipes to remove microplastics and pollution when he comes in from the outside. He was washing his face with drying bar soap every time. Do you date men who honest to god don't ever wash their faces?
>>1769847>>1769845>>1769848Damn, the pissy lesbians are out in force today. I'd be mad if you all weren't so sexy and correct all the time.
No. 1769901
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>>1769872>>1769877>>1769882Oh man, how am I ever going to recover. Women on lolcow hate me. I'm ruined, absolutely ruined by the opinions of people I have never met. I'm definitely going to leave the internet forever now. Definitely not going to continue shitposting lolcow all day like I do all the time whenever I disagree with someone on here.
(infighting) No. 1769953
>>1769782>no women would ever take a professional photo in a pink jacket and sparkly topSidenote: Be the change you'd like to see anon.
Have as much audacity as the men in dresses who demand we call them ma'am and take seats in organizations around issues affecting genitalia they do not possess.
No. 1770116
>>1770033>>1770035>>1770043It's good that I'm not the only one feeling odd about this arrangement. She's still in her
mid 20s and said she wants to enjoy these years. So I'm assuming he will be over 45 to 50 when they actually get to having them, which is mind-boggling to me. These are just thoughts that came to my head after meeting her and her boyfriend last time. I hope she's truly happy with him at that point
No. 1770122
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I wish I had a husband, a true life partner, who would hold me against him and tell me "I love you, I'll always be here for you, everything is going to be ok I promise"
but that only happens in fairy tails
No. 1770148
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I just HAD to listen to geogaddi again and scare the shit out of myself, didn't I?
I swear there's one more thing freaking me out every time I play that album. fucking hate it. send prayers please right now it feels like I invited the devil or something. dread
No. 1770219
>>1769820>>1769829Fair, and good points. I left a lot out but he was washing his face before just with like not proper face soap, he's also darker skinned and had the very misinformed take of "I don't need spf, I have melanin."
I didn't realize I was coming off as a pickme, I just always assume nonas are never going to leave their bf so you might as well offer whatever advice you can. I'm also believe that people aren't going to learn what they don't care about and unfortunately lots of men are taught that caring for yourself is wrong. If your man doesn't care about himself it's never going to change and I do think my Nigel would have eventually figured it out if I didn't throw products at him when I learned about his routine.
No. 1770287
>>1770272you're not alone then but rather choosing to believe you are for some reason
i can buy you feeling lonely. but not being alone no matter what you do because that's only a pessimistic and solipsistic outlook on your part ignoring the reality around you
No. 1770325
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I feel sexy and I wish I had a guy around who truly appreciates my body. My husband barely even touches me, he only wants to "pump and dump". The only reason I haven't left him yet is because I know that the dredges of other scrotes out there are worse.
I guess I can live with being underappreciated and unsatisfied, It just sucks that this is gonna be the best it gets.
No. 1770413
>>1770287?? Let her vent, no one is asking you to buy anything kek
>>1770239I feel you nonna
No. 1770515
>>1770388The main difference is the dick still works and they usually still have hair
otherwise it's all the same BS
No. 1770601
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Why do the worst people think that all they have to do to develop traits they don't have (and likely never will) is to read a book or watch a YouTube video about it? And then they mimic or mirror said trait until they get bored of their new delusion within a couple weeks and move on to something else. These kinds of people are exhaustive to everyone around them. They jump from one phase to another rapidly, insist upon how great they are ar x or y (a lie, egregiously) forcing everyone to play along, and then immediately move on to something else. The faux-savantism is such a weird attempt at grift and is essentially live action role playing your maladaptive daydreams on a whim and forcing everyone else to play along. It reminds me of "Fay The Homeless Brain," an old autistic woman that had a thread on LC a long time ago. Just forcing her daydreams on the internet and on everyone in her life well into her 60s while larping as a studious expert on literally everything. Sitting on your computer all day and night is nothing but brainrot that encourages your dumbest delusions. You aren't Steven Segall bitch, you can't even handle normal every day sensory and would shake a baby.
No. 1770684
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I feel sad. I feel like shit. I think I might be at risk of killing myself soon. I don't know anything anymore. I want a hug or some nice words. I'm very sorry.
No. 1770696
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>>1770684All negative emotions come and pass. Life is turmoil and often you don't have much control over what is thrown at you. You are not just this moment or all your bad moments. There is more beyond this and beyond the things that happen to you that hurt you or upset you.
No. 1770725
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I need to start spending more time in nature, I’m sure it would help my mental health a lot. I’m scared to go certain places alone though, like hiking trails, because I don’t want to encounter some serial killer or rapist
No. 1770791
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>>1770758You're welcome. Everything comes and goes.
No. 1770819
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>>1770808Outside stimuli is always going to try to steal your joy. There will always be peple who are miserable and want everyone else to hurt. You dont have to hurt just because it is the expected reaction from you. You have every right to grieve without shame but it is also important to grieve quietly and do your best to not let these grievances permeate how you treat others. It isnt your job to be happy but it is important to watch over yourself and ensure that you aren't leaning in to your own suffering too much. You are your own carer and you don't deserve or require any less attention and tenderness than anyone else.
No. 1770865
>>1770855what are you talking about, i was referencing what anons say when women dating young men gets brought up, like
>>1770817 liking men for their personality is a scam.
No. 1770909
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I don't know where my life is going, I think I truly lost my sense of direction now, and it's making me want to die super bad. I'm going to be 28 soon and I haven't done much after graduating, I know life is worth living I guess but my brain is freaking out because after college I just didn't have a plan thanks to COVID and now I'm too scared to keep on going. Idk what to do, it's like what I originally planned is making me afraid, and I'm scared of having to figure out things, and I miss being completely sure of my future, and I miss being rebellious and spiteful, now I'm fucking scared and weak
No. 1770960
>>1769141Adding on to this. My sister has always been spoiled by them even as an adult, like buying her a new car when she already had one, and I didn’t have a car and couldn’t afford one at the time. I also needed surgery when I was younger and couldn’t afford it because I didn’t have health insurance, and no one offered to help me but they frivolously spend money on other people in the family for unnecessary things all the time. Whenever I mentioned it they would smugly say “well you can get money from your bio father and his side of the family, if you need help so bad” no I can’t? He hasn’t been present in my life since I was an infant and we aren’t in contact. My stepdad demanded that I would either have to think he was my real dad or he wouldn’t allow my mom to keep me, so she decided to keep the truth about my dad from me and cut off contact with him instead of sending me to live with him. My stepdads parents know that and still act like I can rely on my bio father for anything when it’s their sons fault that he wasn’t in my life.
It’s just hurtful to be treated so differently just because I’m not blood related when I’ve been “included” in their family since I was a one year old infant.
No. 1771039
>>1771031I thought only their oversized baggy sweaters ran super big.
Regardless, their tops are very stretchy and I've seen a lot of bigger girls manage to fit themselves into the clothes anyway so I don't even know why a lot of women seethe about the brand. Majority of body types can fit into it and if they truly can't, they can just shop anywhere else.
No. 1771042
>>1771020I don't know their sizes well but I remember I was looking at some of their jeans and the inseam was too long. Pretty sure it was lengths that were the problem
>Their main market is teen girlsThe average American teen is taller than me
No. 1771079
I hate how I have been lied to my whole life and told that gender roles aren't real meanwhile they are biological. I can't be "whatever I want to" be at all, if I'm a woman I have to be feminine or else I am seen as disordered and hated on both sexes plus I can't exist physically cause it gives me some kind of dysphoria, social, body or gender dysphoria. In heterosexuality I can't be masculine or dominant because my biology is designed as feminine therefore my mental state has to become soft, servile and empathetic to engage in it and it's so burdening, male is male body and female female body and sexual attraction is about bodies, wanting male to be male and female female aka feminine. I don't blame anyone for wanting to troon out. Even gender criticals lie that stereotypical gender roles are not biological and use it as their argument meanwhile they fucking are biological. I tried to follow the instructions and become in a way that isn't punishable anymore by even just other women just to realize it means becoming soft and feminine. I hate how I'm seen as hateful and bitter when I'm not feminine and I'm told to soften up, maybe my heart is closed cause as a woman we can only open it in a feminine way cause of our feminine biology and it sucks to have to perform this role? There's male and female, dick and vagina, those are two ROLES for God's fucking sake. They can't be the same, female can't be masculine. I guess it's just not acceptable to say "women should become feminine or else they are mentally disordered and need to soften up" when a woman says she has a problem with her physical sex. I can't even have sex in my existence cause I don't wanna have to be inherently feminine servile and submit. Also, I hate feminine women, I know it makes no sense, but they tend to be aggressive cunts. Here it is, my gender non conforming life that is totally so possible to be real as a woman it's not like our whole biology isn't centered around motherhood.
No. 1771082
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Tell me how will I fall in love like that again?
No. 1771215
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>>1771161I also want to be Petite tbh, not even in a retarded pedobaiter way, but I just think that asian clothes tend to be cuter than what I can find anywhere else. I look better in mature/professional clothes, but I still want to wear frills, pastel colors, cute patterns, hello kitty everything and retarded socks with short skirts so I can dress how I wanted to dress as a teen.
But I know I can’t pull that off because I’m not even skinny enough to fit in those clothes, also can’t imagine myself actually buying anything like the stuff I want to wear because it wouldn’t be practical at all and everyone would look at me like I’m a freak (understandable).
No. 1771219
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god (female) grant me the serenity to accept that i'm not getting this job, courage to accept that i'm not getting this job, and wisdom to know that i'm not fucking getting this job
No. 1771225
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MY CAT! IS SO! CYOOT!
that’s all.
No. 1771231
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>>1771163I wish I was chubby and curvy with a dumptruck ass bc that is what I am wildly attracted to but I was born apple-shaped. The worst fucking shape of all. Just a big round ball with legs mike wazowsking it up. Ugh. Shapewear barely helps and I refuse to full on faja it so I think I'm just stuck with this.
Ik there's nothing actually wrong with any shape its all bs but I stg apple seems to be the only one that has never really been in fashion at any point in history, so its so hard to find flattering clothes and you don't exactly see it on tv or in paintings or anything..)
No. 1771275
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>>1771186Thanks
nonny, I really don’t always feel it, but you are sweet
No. 1771279
>>1770199gonna check that out. I haven't listened to the old albums a lot, except maybe that early single with everything you do is a balloon
starting to unironically feel like both BoC and Aphex Twin are legitimately evil and putting diabolical stuff into their music though kek
No. 1771298
>>1771284They're not staring at you because they're worried you'll look in their house, they have the blinds open so that they can stare at anything that happens outside. It's a form of community watching that's more common in some cultures and it actually lowers crime rates. You should wave or head nod to show acknowledgement, as it increases friendly feelings and creates a tighter community. Feel free to stare at them as much as you want when they're outside, it's not considered rude since you're just doing your part in community watching.
>>1771289Sorry you have to be stuck there with your mom nonita.
No. 1771303
>>1771297in what car kek
if there were a starbucks or something nearby i’d fuck off
No. 1771621
>>1771560You can do all the workouts you need too at home tbh. The gym imo is mainly for people looking to perfect already toned bodies, but someone looking to get started on their fitness journey only really needs a yoga mat and access to YouTube.
Do squats, lunges, those wall squats where you back is against the wall and you're in a sitting position without a chair, light yoga and you'll be good
No. 1771736
I need to vent jfc
you stupid fucking retarded faggot, I told you that bitch was trouble, she was an ungrateful fuck and not once thanked you for all the help you offered her, yet you're the one who's still heartbroken over her to the point of abusing alcohol and meds for a literal womanchild. I told you, your best friends told you. this is what you get for sticking your dick in crazy
calling me a hot woman who's gonna become a witch with cats is a bit of a stretch, you place all my value into having a man , when I could've had a dozen by now if I wanted to. You make fun of me for wanting an emotional connection yet you're pinning for that fucking idiot , making that retarded analogy that you have to save her, that you have to risk yourself for her when she wouldn't be willing to do the same
go ahead, try to get in contact with her, " I CAN FIX HER " is her very definition and you know damn well it would take a miracle for her to change, you told me how flawed she is
you know it's wrong, yet you still create explanations and justification for yourself while projecting your manosphere concepts about women on me knowing damn well sex was never something i prioritize. keep thinking with your dick faggot
nonnas,men I fucking swear, even the smartest of them are so fucking retarded I am so done holy fucking shit
No. 1771772
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I keep on doing this, nonnas. I keep on thinking I'm closer to friends than I guess I am to them. It hurts so much. When I make friends, I really fall in love with them and eventually share close things, assuming that our relationship has progressed to that stage. And then… I know some people don't like to share their feelings, but it hurts when I think we're getting close to but in reality they don't feel the same way about me.
Like today. I talk to my friend who I see near daily and hang out and all of a sudden she's been dating someone for two whole months now?? She has not said anything about this. She has been kind and helped me through a very dark time in my life right now, so I thought we could confide and trust each other. I try to support her whenever possible, offering rides and help when she's sick and can't go to the pharmacy. I thought we could talk about anything, but I guess that's not the case.
I'm not angry. How could I be? This is my fault. I assumed too much and was deluded by how much I mattered to her. I know not everyone will match your vibes but… I just wish I was someone's favorite person for once, someone who trusts me enough to both help and rely on when they're down. I can't wait to finish my workload so that I can go cry in the shower. When there's an imbalance in closeness between friends, it's worse than non-reciprocated feelings in romance IMO.
No. 1771782
>>1771769Stop listening to people, how old are you? No matter what, you need to learn to just ignore retards who comment on your body, they're all stupid and worthless
nonny, their comments don't mean shit and shouldn't affect you
No. 1771794
>>1771782Anon this is easy to say if it's someone you barely meet or it's on the internet but these are all people who I know in real life and people that I live with so it's not that simple. Of course I ignore that but after a while it does start getting to you.
Doesn't help that when I tell them that what they are doing is wrong or to stop they just become defensive or aggressive.
No. 1771819
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>>1771156Honestly this is the way. Disregard scrotes, pursue self-actualization and personal development
No. 1771837
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I was going so well recovering from my porn addiction, but yesterday I relapsed and watched it for 8 hours straight, all afternoon, even losing sleep. Today I'm trying to do better but it's impossible. Porn is all I can think about. I'm not even aroused by "normal" thoughts or sex. Nothing makes me happy either. I am truly in a hell of my own making.
No. 1771856
>>1770388I'm of a similar age,I want to snag one of the cute 24-25 yo I see at the gym, at least I know they're fit
how do you do it
nonnie, where'd you meet them?
No. 1771890
>>1771837>>1771849>>1771864I watch it as if it's entertainment. Like how some people might binge watch a show for hours or get lost scrolling tiktok/youtube. I do the same with porn, just watch random videos and get lost scrolling or autoplay. I don't even get off to it, I just watch it like it's any other form of entertainment. Though, I do feel aroused while watching it which i guess is why it's so addictive?
>>1771882Thank u
No. 1771892
>>1771794Ayrt
As someone who has suffered bullying and abuse because of my body, with a brother twice my size yelling to me about how fat and ugly I am while following me around the house (I had to escape from the house that day), and people sending me emails saying how ugly I am with pictures of me attached, and people telling me what to do and how to do it whenever I try to lose weight: nonna. I understand how it is. Its hard. But at some point you have to shut their ugly voices up, I don't let my brother's voice inside my head anymore. You can do this, it will take time, but I believe in you.
No. 1771898
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I bought some stuff recommended in a suicide forum to kill myself. Oddly enough I bought it while not feeling that suicidal, like, I feel fine now. But it's like I'm preparing for the inevitable. I'm sad that I chose this. I'm so retarded. I want to live, but I know sometimes I don't see a way out other than killing myself. Now that I got the stuff I'm just going to store it somewhere. I wonder if I'll use it. I don't know because I have mento illnes luv and in a bad mood swing I could end using it. I don't know how to say this, I know no one cares. But I need some support right now. God I'm retarded I'm sorry. I'm just not in the best place right now.
No. 1771911
>>1771772That doesn’t mean she doesn’t like you or that you’re not close. Just letting you know that. People keep romantic relationships private all the time even from friends.
Perhaps what you’re feeling is jealousy? Not even that she has a boyfriend soecifically just that she has another person who isn’t you. I have no idea what exactly you’re feeling though. don’t mean to be rude it’s just a known reaction when your attachment style is insecure like yours seems to be. Could also be if you find a lot of people don’t share personal things with you but you share a lot of personal things, they may feel that you’re busy with your own stuff and not able to shoulder their emotional problems too, like they will keeps things from you out of consideration for your fragile mental state.
No. 1771929
>>1771923I'm not fearing for my life truly, I'm more concerned for my rest of the lease. I want to have a simple end of lease and if she's as insane as I saw, I don't know if that's even possible if she finds out.
>>1771926Thank you. What sickens me is that there are 2 other people living there and they did nothing. Sick sick sick world.
No. 1771941
>>1771898i feel u nonna, im gonna blogpost because i was in a similar space, there was a time where i hit rock bottom couple of months ago i was downing a bottle of wine after work every day to cope, i would get off from work at 3 a.m and walk home dead in the night hoping to get mauled by a crackhead(a lot of them in my area) because it seemed more bearable than pushing through my misery. i even devised a plan to get my hands on some blood pressure medication to take me out clean. Having the exit option was weirdly comforting and it did help me get through shitty days sometimes, but looking back I definitely would have attempted during a manic episode if i had what i needed readily available (this is the case for most suicides btw, obviously there are precipitating factors but its definitely a heat of the moment occurance for majority). The moment i pulled myself out of that
toxic environment suicidal thoughts disappeared, you would be surprised how much of it is entirely circumstantial eventhough it definitely feels like there is something inherently wrong with you. I felt so stupid for even being so severely depressed to the point of devising suicide plans over something as meaningless as a shitty job. Please take some time off if you can, change of scenery, see family and friends when u feel down and get rid of that stuff. There will be times where you will hit rock bottom and in one of those days you will resort to suicide and you will look goofy as fuck killing yourself over a bad day you had.
No. 1771949
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>>1771942It's going to be ok nonna, you'll be ok, even if it gets bad, I'm sure you'll be ok, I'm sending you a hug
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I did it. I managed to get headphone head from playing games hours at a time. I have become what I feared most, a sweaty gamer. Pray for me nonas I know it goes away but I can’t believe I let this happen.
No. 1772060
>>1772038Do what you want to do. It's frankly obnoxious when people try to strong arm decisions for you. Live free, dear sweet
nonny.
No. 1772292
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There's something horrifically morbid about living with severe eczema that affects your face and living with one of your biggest triggers (two, two fucking hairy dogs) and there being nothing you can do unless you want to be sent to hell. I want to move out so badly but I'm still in school and I live in a expensive area. Guess I gotta hope I don't reach my limit and neck myself before then.
No. 1772440
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>israel calls the west to take care of Palestinian refugees
>be Swede
I’m not starting some political debate here, but I’m so fucking tired. Like I’m genuinely at a point where I just feel indifferent to whatever’s going on in the Middle East. So be it that it makes me an awful person, but we already have secular societies that wants to beat and rape women into submission, ban our national anthem and erase everything that is Swedish.
I’m tired man, just fuck off to any other country that shares your beliefs.
No. 1772443
>>1772407you aren't wrong. I really think its because they are white men and get the first taste of being a "minority" and make it their whole personality, you see the same thing with some white straight women too. Racism in the gay community is unfortunately a common occurrence but I'm glad some of your friends also clocked how rude he is. So many women prop white gay men up and I do not understand it.
Anyway, he sucks you don't keep thriving nonna.
No. 1772462
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>>1772440You may not like it but Big Corp sure does.
No. 1772512
>>1772454Where did you live? A lot of european people were against Ukranian refugees too, and now they're against Palestinian refugees.
I personally wouldn't mind refugees if they were only women and children, but most of them are men who want to make a foreign country bend to their backwards belief about how rape is their right and their 10 year old veiled daughter can be married off to an old man. Nobody fucking wants people like these besided them and they shouldn't.
Also funny how most of the other Islamic countries that don't have a war going on won't take them, it's always some european country with vastly different beliefs (that need to be erased to accomodate the rapist moid).
No. 1772560
>>1772512>>1772514My country and the neighboring countries offered Ukrainians jobs they could do in Ukrainian, sent aid, food, money and weapons, offered them free apartments and free bus fare, free train tickets. I know for a fact most European countries did the same. These are things nobody has ever done for any other refugee, especially after the 2015 crisis. The EU even allowed them to export their shitty produce which made our grain prices drop and gave them border priority for imports. They didn't do the same for us so our freight trucks were stuck in Ukraine for days and couldn't get back home because Ukrainians were jumping the queue.
Yet the Ukrainians I follow on insta are still whining that everyone is so cruel and selfish and asking for more money. Even their president is being passive-aggressive about it. Meanwhile you can see videos of little Palestinian kids with their brains blown out and missing arms and legs and moms putting little girls into makeshift graves. Then I come here and read lukewarm takes like these. You didn't mind housing and feeding Ukrainian grifters, but your compassion stops at brown skin. Call it what it is, go on.
No. 1772613
>>1772560My country also offered jobs and houses and while the government was okay with it the people absolutely weren't kek. I'm pretty sure veryone fucking hates Zelensky and his "give us money and weapons" shit now. At the same time my country also allows illegal immigrants (different from refugees) to just go whenever they please even if they're literal criminals who go around raping women but no one can say anything because some idiot will scream "RacIsM!!!!" even if we all know it's not about the brown skin but about the violent faith/culture. Unlike those sheltered individuals I live near what they now call the biggest "muslim district" of my country and not even the police dares to go there. If you're a non-muslim woman going around that place without a hijab will put you in serious danger. Again the women and children are a different matter, but I can absolutely see why people are scared to have even more violent rapist moids with a free house in their country.
>your compassion stops at brown skin.Really retarded take but please do address how all the other "brown skin" countries seem to not give a shit about Palestinian refugees even if they're closer in both location and culture. I guess it's not a race thing then, right?
No. 1772614
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I haven’t been able to sleep at all for the last two days
No. 1772701
>>1772595Listen to your body
nonny, it's ok to have a rest day.
No. 1772813
>>1772069I'm consistently appalled that so many women here are retarded enough to do this, I really hoped this community was smarter than giving in to societal breeding pressure.
Good luck when your scrote's personality does a complete 180 after the kid is born. Also good luck with your bladder issues and potential broken pelvis that your Nigel won't step up and help you with the baby or chores while you're recovering from. Or being starved for adult conversation while being forced to replay the same cocomelon-tier media over and over again.
Go look at any mommy forum for a taste of what you're in for.
Apologies for sperg raging but I just don't understand why women are still doing this shit in current year, with all the information we now have available about the physical and social effects. It's a hindrance to us in almost every way.
Even if you get lucky and end up with an adult daughter to care for you when you're elderly, she's likely to be too busy with her own career or Nigel.
No. 1772826
>>1772815Make sure you apply for unemployment, you might even have a wrongful termination suit on your hands.
I'm sorry this happened to you, and I sympathize, I had to maneuver around this the other day as I was calling my brokerage firm and they outsource calls after a certain time, I asked where she was located (also the phillipines) and then asked if I could be redirected- she tried to corner me by asking why and I simply said "I'd like to speak to the same person I spoke with previously." I had to call back the next day but sure enough got a normal, clear spoken guy on the east coast.
Frankly if your company is large enough to outsource payroll you've got a likely chance of an unemployment payout, IMO
No. 1772829
>>1772823Adding on to this
>>1772826Start looking for a new job ASAP if you're on a PIP or warning. They are absolutely coming for you and I'm so sorry Nonna!
No. 1772836
>>1772833You can't file until after you're terminated, as far as I'm aware. You could hang on UNTIL they fire you, as you cannot collect UI if you voluntarily quit.
A lot of workplaces will deliberately make your life hell to try and force you into quitting so they can avoid paying out. That might be what's happening here.
No. 1772838
>>1772833>>1772836Oh, adding on once again, if you get fired ALWAYS apply for UI even if you don't think you'll get it.
Don't overexplain anything when the UI people call you to get your side of it, stick to the barest true facts.
No. 1772841
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My professor last minute told me that all of the data I've been using isnt good because it 'goes against the thoery', so I'm searching to find data that statsically signigigant enough to support the thoery but I cant find any data that shows a signifigant enough correlation. FUCK. It's due in only a few days, and afterwards I have to complete another big project that I havent even touched or even understand in 3 days, which makes 50% of my grade
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After being on hold with the IRS for an hour, I tried to adjust my earbud and it hung up the call.
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I miss being a stupid tween without a care in the world, just having fun and goofing around with my friends, making art and sharing stories with each other. Now we all live our separate troubled lives and we all hate each other. I just want to go back.
No. 1772971
>>1772955The anons that were lurking while they were in their teens are now in their 20s
me included so its probably just hitting anons to give into cultural/societal pressure. Where I’m at I get weird looks from my visiting relatives because I’m not married or pregnant so they all think I’m mentally unstable or retarded to get a moid
No. 1772977
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trimmed too much of my bush a few days ago arbitrarily after letting it fully grow out for months tbh it was because i was depressed and couldn't be arsed but i also don't know how to groom myself down there at all so i usually just try to trim off as much as i can/shave it all off and now it's patchy and ugly af ughhhhhh i regret it SO BADDDDDD anytime i remove hair from anywhere i always regret it. i shaved my legs for the first time in years a few months ago & i instantly regretted it too. REEEEEEEE i want my fab bush back why am i so retardeddddd. real talk someone please help me out how do i keep it groomed i don't know where to stop and what/where to remove or keep the hair… i just either let it all grow or i remove it altogether with no inbetween and i really don't want to be bald or patchy rn… plus it hurts because the ends are blunt worst thing ever about shaving who knows how long it'll take to get them soft again. going to miss having my built in loofah kek but seriously… my buuuushhh…
picrel context is lesbians debating american politics during the aughts while in bed with one another
No. 1773075
>>1773061I am. I am a continent away now. But as I said, in the 10 years I've been away, I let men treat me worse than trash and was prostituted by a partner, when I got sober enough to reflect I understood where it all started. A lot of long term effects. I sort of have come to terms with that. The video I watched on YouTube was about an estranged mother telling her story of her daughter cutting her out of her life. It was so dismissive of the daughter and self victimising it
triggered the shit out of me.anyways, thanks for replying. I have no friends and even if I did, I wouldn't tell them these things. And even posting anonymously, it's good to know someone reads my words and knows that this happened to someone out there.
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Seeing the niece nephew convo in another thread was kinda jarring to me, I grew up with a very narcissistic and alcoholic dad, his rage fits were so explosive and he was vicious, he would scream at me to the point of bursting blood vessels in his eyes, I can't really explain how insane that was to witness from a large man when I was maybe 5 years old at the time? That naturally meant I had to learn to walk on eggshells, overanalyse every single thing you can so I could avoid being screamed at, sometimes he would throw stuff at me, always aiming for my face. Somehow I managed to be the kid who never fought with him, I was very passive and my sister was just as explosive as my dad, she started drinking at a very young age as well but that's not too uncommon where I'm from but these two people combined was fucking hell, they would fight for hours and once she moved out, things were still complete ass but he wasn't screaming anymore, who would he scream to really? Now my dad is dead, I went completely no contact with him yet my sister kept wanting to play pretend, they had family Christmas together for almost a decade without me, because I stood my ground and every christmas would end up in tears for them because they would fight or my dad would say shit like he hoped my sister died in a fire instead of her middle school boyfriend, very cruel and odd stuff. Now my sister has been pulling that shit with me, I've gone to hers for Christmas 3 times now, she has kids, a husband and I had cancer so first it was this "Hey, you only live once, be a cool aunt" but this year I don't think I can do this shit. She doesn't care, I think now with our dad gone, she really stands out as the main narcissistic person now, she admits she doesn't really know about her kids interests, doesn't wanna play with them, talks over everyone, lies even more than my dad to keep face but she will lie about she she used to be able to lie about, but now that I've spent Christmases there, I hear her say weird shit like "I got all A's in high school and never retook classes so I WOULD KNOW". She will say that shit to get her moid to stfu, he also had a alkie dad and is a complete pushover but I will say "You retook chemistry and literature 4 times! Paid for someone to take your exams" and the look she will give me is a mix of horror and this odd "well I tried" and she will brush it off, but her husband has started to clearly notice it, because what else does she keep lying about just because no one from her past isn't there to laugh at it? This sounds silly but those are things that are easy to type out, you can imagine realising someone keeps lying about most boring shit just to seem smart or like an authority. She treats her kids like props, the kids are actually very nice but I cannot see myself doing Christmas there again, I keep thinking how I almost died, I walked on eggshells for all those years, did all this healing in so many ways and now I'm doing this? I thought about doing it for the kids but I can't do this shit anymore, her and the kids were visiting my mom at the same time I was and it was eerie to watch her monologue instead of having a conversation because she cannot hold one, she just talks about herself, doesn't know shit about her own kids, said some absolutely deranged shit about how I wouldn't understand being sick and tired, she doesn't even hear herself, and she calls herself and empath. I love them kids, but I refuse to take part in this shit, maybe if I had a gf to bring with me, it would be a kind of a buffer or like I had someone in my corner to roll their eyes with me but I will keep seeing the kids when their with my mom but at this point in my life, I refuse to waste my life that I almost lost and had to fight really fucking hard to keep, on this sick woman, maybe that makes me a shitty and weird person but I'm done.
No. 1773232
>>1773226Thank you nona and right? Like it just hit me during her mind boggling martyr monologue that I am not gonna redo this, I think this will be easier because she doesn't even like me, she just likes to post these family pics on facebook and play pretend. She has 3 living relatives and she treats us so poorly, but yeah I need to stop being stupid, at least the kids have bday parties that are usually done in a way that you can barely see my sister because once again, she doesn't really care, she will just go around lying and taking photos, I don't think I even said more than hi to her during these parties. I think I'm only gonna do these bday parties and see the kids at my moms, those are very easy for me but man did that feel good to let out. It's interesting to see how she really refuses to make herself feel better by just accepting reality as I feel like I'm almost way too realistic, but I'm not passive anymore, enough of this
victim shit, I was doing great after ditching my dad and will keep at it!
No. 1773361
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Childhood friend trooned out and showed me her armskin fruit roll up, now I'm on suicide watch lmfao
I feel INSANE
Catshit-bananas
Batshit-insane
Hogshit-wild
She was a healthy girl and now she is a MUTILATED woman AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA THEY FUCKING SCOOPED ALL HER FUCKING GUTS OUT AND SEWED ARM AND CHEEK MEAT TO HER FUCKING URETHRA AAAAAAAAAAAAA
THEY MUTILATED HER BEFORE SHE WAS OFF HER PARENTS INSURANCE
A million fucking years ago when she first started talking about trouncing, her dad made the mistake of being against it, so she leaned into it as hard as she could, now she's still living at home and he has lost weight and is not even trying to hide the alcoholism, like if this was all to get back at him, she has fucking won, he is decimated. Broken. Never going to recover. Just like her.
This us a fucking nightmare; I'm 30 and can't get anyone to tie my tubes, but a retarded fucking 24 year old can just get reamed out like a fucking Halloween pumpkin after one visit to a literallywho "gender therapist"
I cannot fucking even imagine her suffering. Her endless suffering.
She was so annoying and obnoxious and vibrant and full of life and now "he" is a shrinking violet.
I have seen too much. I mean metaphysically. I mean this is the final straw. I am insane now, how can I just text her like she's not going to die so fucking young and the industry her parents work for made it all possible
Endocrinologists; I'm diabetic myself, I could have told you these people are useless fucking quacks. And now they're the ones signing off on this fucking like slaughterhouse surgery shit
These cunts can't even get me insulin reliably and they're the gatekeepers to the hormone injection step
So everyone further up the line must be just as fucking corrupt
Lmfao I can't EVEN
No. 1773367
>>1773366Parody of fucking what?
Also for the nth time, don't be a cunt in the vent thread
No. 1773393
>>1772841consider paying someone to do it. was in nearly this exact same situation last year until i just paid out. best $40 of my life
>where to lookjust guess.
No. 1773439
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i just turned 25, and it's depressing me. it feels like this is the age everyone's just kind of started closing all the doors in their lives. like everyone has things set in stone, and i'm just adrift and confused because of my shitty life circumstances that stopped me from going down the correct path. i haven't checked on the lives of anyone i went to HS with in years, so maybe i'm wrong about most people having it together, but i can't get over this sense of dread. i feel too old to feel so young and confused. i feel too old for everything. i can't shake this fear that every opportunity is gone, that i need to stop existing and restart my life from zero. i don't think i'll have it all together at 26, my life is still uncertain and a year is so short.
No. 1773449
>>1773439i felt like this when i turned 25, it'll be ok i promise. when i was 25 i was in a really dark place, drug addicted, severely mentally ill and self-harming after surviving a horrible fucked up childhood, felt super behind all my peers and felt an impending sense of doom about the future. but eventually i came to realize that there's always tomorrow, and there's always a chance to improve your life as long as you're still breathing. i'm 28 now and while i'm still not where i thought i would be, i realize now that life doesn't end when you hit a certain age, in fact you still have your whole life ahead of you, even if it feels like opportunities are dwindling, please don't lose hope. it's true that you don't have an infinite amount of time on this earth. but if you start working towards your goals now, eventually you'll get closer to where you want to be. like they say, the best time to plant a seed was yesterday, the second best time is today. that being said it's ok to greive for the time you've lost or the opportunities you've missed, but try not to drown in your regret, because that's where you get stuck. you don't have to have your shit together by a certain age, in fact most people don't, they're either pretending or choosing to share their highlight reel. best of luck
nonny i am rooting for you ♥
No. 1773500
>>1773439>>1773443I was in a similar state, miserable, working retail. I got my shit together and started college when I was 25, and now I have a master's degree, a house, a job that pays really well, fun hobbies, and good friends.
The benefit of starting college later if you're in the US is you will probably get full govt scholarships.
I'm 32 now and I feel like my life has just begun to take off. I'm the happiest I've ever been. You can change your life around - it's not too late.
No. 1773504
>>1773500>The benefit of starting college later if you're in the US is you will probably get full govt scholarshipsFull government scholarships? Damn, now is the time to be learning. If you don't mind me asking, what field did you major in?
t. Graduate of a toilet paper degree
No. 1773514
>>1773504If are over 24 you are considered "financially independent" by FASFA (the govt scholarship people) and most people around that age dont make even close to the limit so you can easily get a full ride + expenses through the pell grant. There are also lots of extra scholarships for first-generation students (parents don't have degrees) and for other underserved groups.
Psychology, but I focused on statistics - I'm now a research analyst making about ~150k USD
I think what really helped me, was that I did multiple internships and used like every free program at the college to learn how to be successful (career center, academic clubs, research groups, etc).
I think you can be successful with truly any poo poo degree imo it's all about internships and taking on extra work during school like assistantships, applying for scholars programs etc (I was a B avg student, but most people dont apply to these things so they are easy to get)
you dont have to be the best you just have to try harder than 50% of the others, which is really easy.
No. 1773535
>>1773529It's a thing that Tumblr started honestly
>>1773464>>1773528Please feel better soon!
No. 1773593
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I've started my first desk job and I've gained like 15 lbs since I started. I'm on my ass 9 hours a day and the office always gets gifts of sweets from clients, or a coworker orders us food, and I'm bad against temptation kek. My previous job was very physical and I worked long shifts without eating so it was too easy to stay thin. Cutting calories isn't working, I need to start working out but that require waking up early and I already sleep in too much and I'm always so fucking tired
No. 1773594
>>1773591like seriously don't go
>format my resume! i shouldn't have to tell you what to do! and then whine and moan when i can't read your tiny mind. i'm so sick of it
No. 1773735
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Reveal yourself
show yourself
your glamours will fail
like these petals now fall
your own true heart
will be revealed
for all to see
ugly and cold
so shall it be
Florence, you have no power over me.
What once seemed like power is now erased.
It’s erased yesterday, it’s erased today, it’s erased tomorrow
Aglaria Pedhel
Garia Ananas
Q’epta
No. 1773794
>>1773762It’s a spell to expedite her karmic justice to her and send her devious energy back to herself, she’s going to suffer.
>>1773759I just can’t stand her she’s a narcissistic pickme
No. 1773912
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>>1773874She’s rude and cold to other women no matter how nice they are, but extremely sweet, giggly and flirty with men, her demeanor completely changes as soon as a man is around and it made her incredibly annoying to me. She also likes flirting with older married men because she’s a huge pickme. A random example of how she acts (which doesn’t involve me in any way) is at the Oppenheimer premiere the actors and actresses all agreed to wear black because of the subject matter, and they wanted to be respectful to the
victims. Florence decided to show up in a bright orange dress instead and took center stage even though she had a side role. What makes it even worse is that the character she played either committed suicide or was murdered by the CIA, and yet her role in the film was just several voyeuristic sex scenes. The movie was disrespectful to the woman she portrayed and was already bad enough, and she made it worse because she’s insensitive and attention seeking. It’s just one example but personal examples would be identifying.
No. 1774020
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>>1765635Saged for (possible) necroposting. It's also because there is no such thing as "give her a chance" in mens' vocabulary and if a moid says that, his circles will call him retarded. Whereas with women, a moid can be the ugliest human being inside and out and if a woman dares to say she doesn't like him, everyone and their mother will pressure her to "give him a chance because he might be good in a way or another" imo.
Picrel perfectly describes such mental gymnastics.
No. 1774085
>>1774073I disagree. Lolcow has limits on these types of things and I wouldn't call them black pilled. Moids on 4chan will rage for days about how some girls tits aren't bigger than her head, share nudes of exes and upskirt photos, post gore, give each other tips on how to abuse women and girls, and even admit to diddling kids on multiple occasions. 4chin is basically a live catalog of what I assume goes through a brain rotted, porn addicts head who eats nothing but take out pizzas and energy drinks. What's the most lolcow has ever done? Call anyone who isn't under 100 lbs fat? Give me a break
On this topic - imo it's weird that a lot of people think misogyny is one of the milder things compared to racism, homophobia, etc. At worst homephobes and racists simply won't associate with whatever group they don't like, or if assault does happen it's all over headlines and the person gets punished. Most misogynistic moids still engage in relationships with women or even have daughters they end up abusing or murdering
No. 1774209
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I feel like CSA did more damage to lc than any other cow getting exposed. It's been a year or two, but I feel like we never fully recovered.
No. 1774216
Think my dad may kill himself next year.
He is in the very very beginning stages of dementia. Forced into retirement because in his line of work it put both him and those he worked with at risk. It has gotten worse in the past year, but very subtly. He is starting to organise his will, sorting out the legals of a property transfer of his house to my older sibling's young family. He's very rarely happy; he has always been dysthemic, but it's different now, even flatter somehow. He mentioned to me that he doesn't feel like himself anymore, feels like he's getting lost in time.
I'm about to move interstate for further study and will not see him as often. There are a lot of complicated reasons as to why this must be interstate and not near home. I'm terrified to watch his illness progress at a distance, in sudden snapshots without the comfort of gradual decline. I'm terrified that I won't be around if he suicides, to comfort my mother. I feel horribly guilty to leave my mother alone with this. My siblings will be around, but I am the closest to her personally. I feel so guilty to leave both of them. I love them both so much. I respect them both so much. They have done so much for me, given so much to me.
I don't know if I kind of hope that my dad does kill himself. Imagining a years long, aching neurological decline for him makes me feel so unbearably hopeless.
This is the first time I've ever expressed any of these thoughts. It's not something we really talk about as a family, despite being exceedingly open about everything else. I don't know how I can express how much I love my father, and how devastated I am, without just making things worse for him.
No. 1774364
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Was trying to watch an early 2000s thriller with a female lead. Not even 10 minutes in, a morbidly obese, bald, middle-aged ROACH of a man calls himself "god" before practically swallowing her face, and she's into it. It was so off-putting I turned away from the screen in revulsion. We truly can't have a thing in this world without gross men inserting their hideous agendas. The best part is that men will cry all day about "the feminists" making all the women in video games and movies fat, ugly and blue-haired. I love how they just ignore the fact that they've plagued media with their fetishistic delusions of beautiful young women getting with the ugliest pieces of shit on earth from the moment they were able. No amount of evopsych copes and nonsense will make it sensible for a healthy, non-traumatized woman in her prime to be with some old, ugly, unfit motherfucker with expired sperm floating in his wrinkly ballsack. Hatred.
Bonus: If there's ever an attractive male in something, he's either written as the villain, or male viewers start shrieking that he's "gay" and/or try to make him into a "trap" to neutralize their fear of bing cucked (and cope with their own homosexual proclivities).
No. 1774393
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silly vent but i want my androgyny back but i made the commitment to grow my hair as long as possible as a teenager and as much as i want to cut my hair so badly, it's not yet at an impressive length and i want to keep my promise. yes i know hair grows back but i doubt i'll ever have the patience for this again if i chop it off. i'm sick to death of being taken for a straight girl i honestly prefer my life when i was getting mistaken for being a faggot when my hair was cut all the way off kek even though it made me want to rope at the time… this is going to sound so autistic (because i am) but i also hate wearing pants because of the way they cling on me i actually haven't worn any in years, only shorts and skirts my fault. this whole thought is inspired by me getting extreme fomo. i live in a muslim so my chances are already slim and it's dangerous but i still want to signal anyway. aghhhh. i envy my highschool classmates who went abroad so much. i already don't shave and idk what to do other than piercings which i've always wanted but i don't even know where to begin
No. 1774514
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mental illnesses are such horseshit. like wooow my parents didn't hug me enough as a child so now i have to be retarded about everything for the rest of my life. fuck this
No. 1774539
>>1774523Thanks for the kind words. It's a cafe with moderately high turnover and mostly people my age or
younger than me so it makes me feel even more ridiculous kek. I tried so hard to be happy and normal and say nice things and at least people have said I'm funny but I guess I'm an easy target or something. I would quit but no other place would put up with my schedule.
>>1774527Kek im sorry nona, at least if you get dogpiled on here we're all anonymous so you have a clean slate next time you post
No. 1774569
>>1774150Can you get a female doctor?
>>1774406Tbf unless you have a garbage Nigel you're probably not going to talk about him much. I used to constantly post about my
abusive ex when I was dating him, mostly because he was gaslighting me into thinking I was crazy and online was the only place to get validated that I wasn't. My husband though I never post about cause there's just not much to say, I get along great with him and he's about as integral to my life as my left hand. Having a left hand is pretty great but you're not going to constantly gush about it, especially on here.
>>1772818It's in my new house and I can't start living in it until after the birth because it's in another city, and you can't switch OBGYNs after about 25 weeks.
>>1774063I'm lucky to be in a financially good spot.
>>1772813Cope and seethe
>>1773391Honestly all I draw are fujo comics It's not a great loss. It sucks but cest la vie.
>>1774064Genuinely no. There's definitely a correlation between how much a guy spends in certain places and how crappy he is. I think discord guys are maybe the most disproportionately crappy
No. 1774589
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I'm only a couple of weeks away from graduating college but I've started skipping my two in-person classes.
I think it should be fine because I have high enough grades in them to be okay. I calculated what I need for their final to pass and it was giving me numbers like 10% or -2%. lol
But on the other hand, senioritis has hit so hard I haven't paid attention to a single lecture in any of my classes for over a month now. At this point I am learning absolutely 0 of what is being taught. feelsbad.jpg but I am so done mentally.
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I was typing this long ass note on my phone about my feelings, like a diary. I wasn't even going to post it here and annoy you all with my rambling and crying, but I accidentally lost it and now I am fuming. I can't even rant on my phone notes, what the fuck.
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What the fuck… I saw this exact witch at Walmart for like 20 dollars in October. I was hoping to scoop it up at a discount somewhere because Halloween is over and the underside of the figure is just a plastic cone like a christmas tree angel and I wanted to put it on a tree but I guess resellers have just scooped them up to flip at jacked up prices. fuck them. amazon "small business" – what a fucking joke.
No. 1774687
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I'm selling and donating a lot of my old jfashion and anime merch. I just feel like I've reached an age and a point in my life where I don't need a lot of this stuff anymore. That I was just holding onto it and even bought new stuff because It's stuff my teen self liked and really wanted. But I'm realizing now that I'm closing in on 30 that I've spent all this time living in the past and lingering on the person I was and what she liked back when I was 16 that I haven't given enough space to discover who I am as an adult. My life has been stunted in a lot of ways, this just being one example. Yet, I still feel a pang of sadness as I pack up yet more items. It's not that I want to keep them, if anything I feel relieved getting rid of them and decluttering, yet I still feel a pang of sadness. Like I'm saying goodbye.
I think It's also because I feel somewhat empty without these things to define me, even though I think I outgrew them years ago and didn't want to face it. That I just needed something to fill the void. I think I didn't want to face that time wasn't going to stop for me, and that I had to take control of my life and personal growth and not hope for some miracle to occur and change things for me. It makes me sad to think of all the time I wasted staying the insecure scared little girl I was. Instead of letting myself evolve and grow into a grown woman I actually am and finally facing my fears and insecurities years ago.
No. 1774748
>>1774692diabetes
surrenal deficiency
hypercalcemia
No. 1774877
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God I'm getting more unhinged by the day. When will it end?
No. 1775062
>>1775046I think it might be the sensation of the medication numbing your intense emotions, assuming you’re on an SSRI or a mood stabilizer. Anxiety/restlessness can be a side effect of a lot of medications and you’re not used to experiencing just the physical effects of anxiety without the bad thoughts. The feeling can be… disorienting.
Glad you didn’t kill yourself, nona. SSRIs can be awful, but it beats not being alive.
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>>1775040
Have you considered getting a pet? Caring for something else can give you a sense of purpose and animals offer unconditional love.
No. 1775075
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Move this shit thread to /ot/ with all the other shit threads
No. 1775079
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No. 1775132
>>1775115Remember, trannies love being in their echo chambers of ass pats and circle jerks. You want to go against their delusions? Then you're a nazi
terf bigot cis gender freak that nobody cares about apparently.
No. 1775182
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>>1774888
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>>1775198
The most evil planet?
No. 1775255
>>1775250>demon saying "game over"my sides, this one is too good
i will try it. luckily he stopped early tonight. maybe he heard me listening to these videos lol
No. 1775293
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Went to the library today and got so sad and jealous of all the people my age working there. Some of them were talking about their apartments and how fun it was to "finally be on their own" and even if there was bitching about bills and food prices I just craved to be them so intensely. I kind of talked to some of them – had to print out a bunch of crap – and even as a mega-autist who genuinely doesn't even enjoy people for a lot of reasons that was probably the best I've felt all year. Just getting to feel normal and competent for a moment. I was able to help some of them with a printer issue they were having; had an entire cringe daydream where they asked about my life and I told them I was a recent(ish) grad still searching for a tech job. Of course nothing happened. They aren't hiring.
Now I'm back in this terrible home where I get nit-picked to death by my mother. Today with her was alright, but I know tomorrow's going to be bad because she's so mercurial. Also it's cold so the mice (I hope it's mice and not rats) seem to be coming back. But hopefully that's my imagination. Maybe what I heard was just coming from outside.
And god, I hate my state. Low wages everywhere, no good jobs unless you're a normalfag it seems, no hope. I'm stuck. If I don't get anything by the end of…January? I'll have to go wageslave in one of the factories. It just bites. People my age I know online who aren't rich but were blessed enough to be born up north are going stargazing and out to gay clubs with friends and I'm just trying to avoid church every Sunday. Tired. Tired tired tired.
No. 1775299
>>1775293I don’t think you’d be a whole lot better off in the northern states
nonnie. Am from the Midwest. I don’t go stargazing because we don’t have those either. You’d have to be super remote to maybe see stars
No. 1775309
>>1775299Nah, I would be. My state is racist, damn near impossible to navigate if you don't have a car – I don't have one) – and towns like mine are basically theocracies because if you don't suck the church's dick you're never getting anywhere.
By this, I mean the church owns all the property, so everyone has to rent from them. It's like this even in our capital and many of the larger cities. Most of our private universities, you HAVE to take religious courses as part of your gen ed package. And like 99% of companies around here only really want people who attended those private universities (I didn't because I thought I'd be able to land something out of state quick with my degree – how foolish I was). I should've been born in Ohio or some shit.
No. 1775314
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>>1775293>Today with her was alright, but I know tomorrow's going to be bad because she's so mercurial.Kek she's already bitching at me. Day hasn't even turned over yet. I slept in one morning out of the six months I've been back home (usually I wake up around 8~9) because I heard a bunch of weird shit in the wall which kept me up until like 4am and she's mad about it and insisting it's something I always do, apparently. Also claiming I do nothing around the house despite being the main person keeping it clean (she's fucking filthy). Damn my life sucks
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>>1775347just wait until you find out about these bad bitches, you'll never be alone again
No. 1775365
>>1775354they won't visit me at the hospital when I'm ill
they won't come pick me up when I have a bad situation
No. 1775461
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I feel like utter shit, physically. Low energy, nausea, headaches, sleeping all day. I know it must be because of my shit diet, lack of exercise and spending all day online. But at the same time I feel too sick to even get up and change my habits.
No. 1775483
>>1775370>>1775386>>1775387should i go lesbian
how do lesbian deal with life crises
No. 1775529
>>1775526I am also deeply disgusted by men who "struggle" with porn and refuse to take any responsibility for it
Imagine being "addicted" to masturbating to videos of drugged women being sexually abused and acting like it's a disease or something you can't help or even live without
No. 1775533
I'm so fucking done with this life. I wish an asteroid or some other shit would just fall on me and my home, so I would die with all of my shit and my mom wouldn't have to deal with selling it idk. There's no point in living anymore, nothing makes me happy and everything just gets worse day by day. I have no friends, no life, no hopes for anything getting better. I had a dream, a simple fucking dream and it is shattered already. But the more I live, the more current circumstances are like rubbing it in my face. It's like someone is pissing on what's left of this dream, then setting it on fire, then making me gather it to get it destroy it all over again. Not the best metaphor, but it really is how it all feels. It just hurts and I can't even cry it out, since I'm not home.
And the worst thing, is that there are people happy about it, not mine situation specifically, but how everything is overall in the shit. Just end me.
No. 1775593
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Ugh, seriously, why does everything have to be so darn expensive? No wonder everyone's resorting to temu or shein for everything. I'm all about quality, and even thrifting is burning a hole in my pocket. My boyfriend couldn't care less about our place being cozy, but it's driving me crazy. I'm dropping so much cash on furniture, trying to keep it real on a budget, even if it's just 10% of what I'd spend on new stuff.
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Aaaaaaa I can't i am tired i do t want to do shit anymore no exams, no fucking studying, I wanna be free I'm almost 30 I just can't do this anymore. It's so dark and cold outside and I have like 800 pages to memorise and more I want to put a bullet through my head, I want to get high, I want to fucking drink until I blackout alone in my room, or I want to be somewhere in mountain cottage having nothing to do but pick herbs or some shit. Fuuuck why is everything always so shitty and stressful I want to die or I want to live like a normal person
No. 1775647
>>17755375-7 is waking up early
8-9 is normal time to wake up
10-12 is sleeping in
No. 1775673
>>1775643If you are fat, lose weight
If you are skinny, bulk up
I'll make you feel better. Get a hair cut and try New clothes. A New style change can make wonders to your self steem. I'm sure you are not as ugly as you think lol
You sound severely depressed and improving your self steem can do wonders to improve you depression.
No. 1775687
>>1775673Yes, I agree, this is why I have vowed to NEVER be overweight. I may have an ugly face, but I feel like people still hold out a little respect for you if you’re at least not fat. Like “well, at least she takes care of herself.” Lately I hit my mid twenties and suddenly I found that keeping weight off is harder for some reason. I eat the same as I always have, but went up 15 pounds which put me at slightly above the high end of normal weight. I’ve lost 20 pounds since then and am trying to maintain that. It’s going okay so far, but I worry it will become really hard as I keep getting older and my metabolism slows down. But no matter what I will NEVER get fat. I promise myself this at least. It just sucks because food is one of the only things that brings me a little joy and I’ll always have to watch out around it.
>I'm sure you are not as ugly as you think lolI appreciate the sentiment (even though it’s naive) but people saying this to me when they don’t know what I look like always cracks me up. The number one comparison of my looks I’ve received is Stephen King kek, years ago when that celebrity lookalike thing was popular I literally got him as my top match and then a bunch of old men kek. It really is that bad.
I did cut my hair short though and it’s a better look for me. But you know, very VERY low bar.
No. 1775694
>>1775669I'm not OP.
Waking up for work is waking up early. I get up early everyday to get to work. On free days I wake up at a normal time, around 8. In no world is getting up at 8 sleeping in.
But loads of my friends who work from home wake up at 8 or 9 and work after that so your attitude is pretty shitty, limited and condescending. Morning people like you being condescending to everyone else just for different sleeping patterns is nothing new.
No. 1775711
>>1775696Ayrt,
>You can have a puggish face, a dopey mouth,Kek I have to laugh because that’s what I look like exactly. Just add a 5head.
I wouldn’t kill myself if I got fat, that seems a little extreme, but I would be very upset about it. But I guess that’s why I never would be the type to get fat… I’d hate it so much that I’d lose the weight asap
The only “compliments” I’ve ever gotten were about my weight being good or people being jealous of my weight. I don’t have a beautiful body type or anything, I’m pretty short-legged, so it wasn’t even a “wow your body looks good” it’s just the bare minimum “your body weight looks healthy” kek.
Also, another anon said that it sounds like my self esteem is really low, but i partly disagree. Sure, my looks-related self esteem is bad, but that’s honestly just an objective analysis of my appearance. An ugly personal who knows they’re ugly doesn’t have bad self esteem imo, they’re just not delusional. I have high self esteem in other areas.
No. 1775743
>>1775725Idk
nonnie, I know there are shortages but haven't heard from this specific medication. It also says on the printing label that has your information and stuff that I was prescribed 15 so I really have no idea. I'll ask her next time I see her but this type of unreliability stresses me out.
No. 1776112
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i have a migraine (again) and everything i type sounds like word salad (again) i just wanted to enjoy my day off, why this
No. 1776113
>>1776084
Idk anon, I think what you need is real help, leave social media and stay anonymous for a while, or create a new account with a new persona first, this way you don’t need to go straight up outside and take that huge leap of having to talk to people irl.
It’s weird that you’re getting comments from people on Facebook like that tbh, do you have like, family added in there or something?
And “left” this “right” that, both sides have shitty people and both sides have nice people, left and right are directions, not rooms, and anyone hiding in the bushes is just being an asshole, screaming and shouting the retarded shit instead of working for the shit they all should be working for.
I seriously recommend just deleting your social media, play games that don’t truly require you to talk to people, maybe story-focused games or farming games; spend a day just listening to some music on YouTube so you can’t close the tab and you can just enjoy the music, find something to do in that meantime like, idk, cleaning or even sorting out stuff.
Focus on yourself and on your stuff instead of caring about what some braindead drooling retards are typing from their dirty ass keyboards, they would cry if someone didn’t respect their oh so sacred pwonouns, fucking faggots.
No. 1776264
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Here we go again.
No. 1776307
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sorry for the wojak i just started drawabox and im already struggling with the first exercise. fml
No. 1776454
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My mom is such a hypocrite. Whenever she forgets something important to me (ex. she can never remember my cat's name), she'll wave it off and say, "I'm old, my memory is terrible, you know that." Then whenever I tell a story, she misremembers things and corrects me as if her recollection is true to the point of arguing with me about it. A minor example recently is how she gaslit me about having crowns on my baby teeth. I casually mentioned that one of my biggest freakouts as a kid was when I had crowns put on. She INSISTED that I never had crowns and that they don't put crowns on baby teeth. Not only is it a real, common thing for crowns to be put on baby molars, but they were in my fucking mouth for a few years! I remember what they felt like, how they looked in the mirror every day! And she just kept doubling down and acting like I was misremembering not only the dentist appointment but something that was in my own goddamn body. It seems like whether her memory is good or bad depends on how convenient it is. I think she has perfectly average memory, and just "forgets" some things on purpose to be passive aggressive, but has tons of faith in her ability to remember things when it means winning an argument. It's so frustrating, I wish she would just own up to the fact that she's wrong about things sometimes. It feels like behavior she learned from my asshole stepdad, because she never used to be this arrogant or argumentative.
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>boyfriend cancelled last minute plans to hang out with his friends
i was gonna cancel on him for different reasons but this hurts
No. 1776659
>>1776515>>1776656I'm kind of excited to get older, I have a few shiny white hairs and it kind of glints in the sunlight.
I look forward to seeing my husbands face grow older.
When I smile I have alot of eye wrinkles and he says he loves seeing them because it shows how much I've smiled and laughed throughout my life.
We're only 27 but life is good, I think I will love my body more after I have children.
No. 1776663
I really fucking hope this treatment that my pulmonologist prescribed to me works this time, and that we still have the money so I can visit her again. I don’t know why, but I feel like I’m almost training to die of asphyxia or something? The flu I get monthly gets worse and worse, this time I even lost my sense of smell and most of my sense of taste, a month ago my face got so congested I could barely hear anyone, I had to make people shout at me to hear them.
This time my pulmonary capacity is at half of what I should be able to breathe, and I’m so self-conscious about my breathing that it’s making it hard for me to sleep, what if I just, stop breathing and I don’t notice because I’m too fast asleep and I’m already used to this weird feeling of not feeling my lungs full of air? Yesterday I panicked a bit when I was going to sleep but the oxygen saturation is supposedly fine according to this saturation monitor thing we bought at a pharmacy, but I don’t really trust this thing, yesterday it also said I had a decent oxygen saturation so I don’t know what to do, at the doctor’s it was like 84/87 maximum.
I feel like such a failure, I will never get a job if I keep getting sick like this.
No. 1776676
>>1776663I hope it works out for you too
nonny I am sorry youre dealing with all that
No. 1776690
>>1776667>everyone knows that the majority of the human population is asocial and celibateNice try. The next time you vent about the 4th ex moid who betrays you, consider eating out a woman instead or just masturbating. Imagine centering your entire personality on males so much that you don't even consider just masturbating or women as companions (sexual or not) and see the only alternative as living as a nun, couldn't be me.
>>1776674>How is this vain? What's wrong with being selfish as a woman and caring about yourself?The problem isn't that you're caring about yourself or centering yourself its that you're putting weight on something that all of the human race and every living thing experiences. No ones telling you to embrace aging but you're acting as if you'll drop dead at age 30 from the wisp of a forehead wrinkle. Stop putting so much weight on male-internalized porn and pedophilic views of women ala beauty ideals. Women age, men age, animals age. You will age, I will age, everyone reading this will age. Aging is a neutral byproduct of existing and being born, its not the be all end all of existence unless you make it that. Stop dwelling on something outside your control.