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No. 1559479
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I have accepted my role as friend coordinator, I'm great at making acquaintances but awful at making friends. But I know a lot of cool people and I'm in lots of different social circles so whenever I throw parties, I literally watch friendships form all around me. I'm always introducing people to others that I know they have a lot in common with, and then they become close friends and slowly drift away from me. It's fun having lots of stress free, fair weather superficial friendships based on hobbies and I always have weekend plans but I wish I could have one friend who really knows me
No. 1559487
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I kinda regret not fucking an Aussie male that I made out with at a club. His accent was cute. He asked for my number but I never heard anything back…
On the other hand I'm proud that I've been celibate for nearly a year.
No. 1559506
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Im not going to cry because I need a scrotoid whose life revolves around loving and protecting me, Im not going to cry because I feel lonely and loveless
No. 1559546
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Literally the only thing I want in life is to be normal. I'm not asking for crazy adventures or Hollywood romances I just want to be normal. I want to have average experiences. I'm tired of decaying
No. 1559556
>>1559511Straightforwardly tell him "I'm not having sex with you,
his name here" in front of everyone.
No. 1559598
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I'd give anything to see my crush again, those chemicals were something else, I've never felt so high in my life. The serotonin,dopamine and oxytocin flowing through me was off the charts. I want to feel that high again.
WHY MUST THIS HAPPEN
No. 1559599
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I am so stupidly jealous of a girl in my class to the point that I hate going into lectures because I will always compare myself to her
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>>1559598I feel you
nonny.
No. 1559710
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I love all the nonas here. It's a comforting thought just knowing there are nonnies out there, all around the world, they walk among us.
No. 1559728
>>1559726happens to the best of us.
this literally happened to me a month ago in court (was there for an apprenticeship), we had to sit for three hours straight and i somehow bled through my pad and all the layers of my outfit.
i kind of awkwardly wiped it off those wooden chairs with the inside of my coat (or at least tried to), i'm still so embarassed but life goes on
No. 1559734
>>1559726it's ok. it happens, it can be embarrassing though shouldn't be. gotta let it go anon. it didn't kill you or anyone else, and I'm sure many women in that room have experienced that unexpected leak themselves and would understand.
I've always thought public rooms should have disinfecting wipes or sprays/paper towels like gyms do. that way people can wipe down their shared desks/chairs before/after they use them. especially in cases like this where if you notice it but cannot clean it immediately because you don't have access to water or a wipe or something. plus you can discreetly wipe after most leave if you wait around.
my thighs love to sweat in summer and the amount of embarrassing butt/thigh marks ive left on chairs had really made me paranoid. now I'm mostly like whatever, i cannot control it and it's part of being human, but again, being human, it gets to me sometimes
not necessarily related but vid: 7:30, Kenyan politician puts fake period stain on her pants during meeting in attempt to destigmatize menstruation and stress the importance of access to period products to girls and women
No. 1559761
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>>1559726It happens
nonnie but it still makes you wanna hide away even though it’s happened to every woman at some point.
When I was 14 I was sitting with my sports team in my white uniform. I was the youngest on the team by far, most were 17ish so somehow it felt more mortifying when I leaked through my white sports uniform, attempted to clean it up while the team was at breakfast and ended up taking the field in pink/white stained uniform pants. I didn’t want to go back to school for weeks but a decade later and I can shrug it off.
No. 1559774
>>1559715stayed awake until now, looks like i'll be going into class with no sleep
hope the prof isn't too boring today
No. 1559784
>>1559758Relationships are way more than love and hope.
Do you have concrete plans for your future together (esp. if immigration is involved) and similar hopes for your lives? Even non-LDR relationships can't continue without those.
Don't just break up over whimsy but if either of you isn't getting something you need and there's no way to get it in the relationship then the relationship is toast.
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scrote posted, dont scroll up
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SCROTE DICKPIC ABOVE DONT SCROLL
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scrote detected, dont scroll up
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Don't scroll
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MODS
No. 1559849
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scrote pic posted, dont scroll
No. 1559851
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Bumping this disgusting retard woman coomer pic up
No. 1559891
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No. 1559895
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They just make me very mad nonnies I can't contain myself
No. 1559932
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Tomorrow I’m rostered on with a coworker I have a palpable sexual tension with. I promised myself I’d never be a messy bitch getting into workplace romances. Different strokes for different folks but I just can’t go there.
No. 1559996
>>1559993I’d disown my dad if he dated someone my age. Would prove that all the times he’s been a creep to me it wasn’t just “oh haha your dad is a stupid asshole
nonnie but he loves you and would never hurt you!” I hate the constant gaslighting from my mother that he’s actually totally a good person. Just because after he does egregious boundary crossing shit that I have explicitly set boundaries against, he will laugh and say it was totally just a joke. It’s not just a joke and I fucking know it, I’m not laughing, nobody is laughing, the “joke” is making me uncomfortable by crossing every boundary I try to set no matter how big or small. The “joke” is that he doesn’t give a shit about anything I say, he ignores 90% of what I say to him, he only responds when he wants to antagonize or bully me.
No. 1560019
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My manager is putting me in another team soon and he warned me that it's going to be a much bigger workload with a lot of communication and I am afraid that I'm going to fail miserably. I honestly feel like I am not cut out for work, period. I forget shit, misundersrand tasks and I'm horrible at time management and always end up missing the deadline. Communication is also another big issue for me. It's funny because I was good at studying and everyone around considers me smart but I feel and act retarded once it's a work situation. Shoot me. And to think I'm supposed to do this for decades
>>1559479I love this painting nonna
No. 1560067
>>1560048thanks for trying to help kindanon but my phone is already a refurbished iphone 8 funnily enough that i bought on discount. screen replacement are around 120 dollars approximately and there's no way i can afford that let alone another phone for the same price
>>1560041yeah i'll do just that, thanks for the tip!
No. 1560090
Aaaa I feel like I'm losing my sanity, why doesn't my brain learn faster, I know I have to hurry up to finally be free but I just don't and as a result I have even less free time to relax. I wanna seriously punch someone. I hate this life I hate this fucking cage I've made for myself and I hate myself for failing to achieve what I thought I easily could. My brain is three years too old to be good at this shit. I wanna rest I want to go outside and have fun I wanna eat whatever and be like I was before. I want to have memories with my grandma before she dies and with my parents who got so, so old in these few years, their faces are so different now. I want to go back in time and choose a different major, I wish I chose IT so fucking bad. This is six years of hell and for what? For having too much responsibility, mess up and fuck up someone's life and everyone will hate you, mess up and it will be your fault for being a dumb idiot with low intelligence and can't remember basic shit. For what, a few pennies and no sleep. Or choose a different specialisation like a psychiatry because technically you won't kill anyone, only for people to mistake you with a therapist psychologist and have your grandparents and family be disappointed that their doctor kid chose the least respected specialty. So unfair. Maybe they should work in a hospital and have the burden of saving lives on their shoulders to experience how much fun it is.
I'll be like 40 when I'm finally happy - and I think I'll die young. So I'll have like 15 years of happy life. I have no partner, no best friend, my hobbies are dying, my talents are dead. Why did I not choose something I was excelling at but the thing that seemed the most 'amazing' and difficult. Did I prove something to myself? To others? I proved shit, I only proved how someone talented can become an under average idiot who deserves no respect when surrounded by geniuses who are only mildly inconvenienced by exams and already invent shit and organise nonprofit societies while working full time and going to gym every day.
I will never forgive myself for choosing this path. And it's too late now, I'm approaching 30 and my brain is not able to suck up a different major like it would be a few years ago. I'm at the end everything is too late. It was already too late three years ago. Only half a year to go and I'll have a title that I don't even deserve. Under-performing unintelligent piece of shit.
No. 1560119
>>1560115He sounds mentally ill. I doubt he found another girl, probably his mental issues.
I had a like five mental dudes acts similar to him towards me and they all fucked me over in one way or another so I think you're lucky he got rid of himself. Like one of those guys kept love bombing me, calling me naturally pretty, etc but then he went to my friends and told them people of my ethnicity were barbaric subhumans after I didn't reciprocate, kek.
Other love bombing one thought I was cheating even though I wasn't, tried to talk to other girls to make me jealous and had a fight with a male friend because he thought I was cheating with him.
You saved yourself from the humiliation I went through, you really are lucky. I doubt he found another girl and even if he did, he probably went with her because he thinks she's easier to trick. This type of men go for naive girls they want to control.
No. 1560122
>>1560119Sorry that happened to you
nonnie. That's fucked up. Lovebombers are a strange breed. Hopefully you meet (or have already met) someone normal and mature, kek.
I guess ultimately it is pointless for me to even try and get into his head. But I know that it's not a me problem so that's good enough.
No. 1560138
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"the chinese created tiktok in order to make americans dumber" has to be the stupidest conspiracy theory ever. Every retard take from tiktok has been said by americans on tumblr, an american app, yeeeears before tiktok was even invented. The disorder faking, claiming that ever
is phobia or ism, it all originated on tumblr. Even the blatant consoomerism isn't tiktoks fault america is known for being the country of consoomerism. Americans created retard idpol and now they wanna blame the chinese for it. fuck off
No. 1560160
You know what's really annoying? When you talk to someone and you just casually mention something that implies that you're a hermit generally speaking or that you don't really have anything going on in your life, without complaining or going into detail, moreover, you usually say it because you are ASKED about something and you just say it how it is, and then people start reacting like you've said something unimaginable, like what you said is terrible and it's horrific levels of self-criticism, so they're like "nah, you must be exaggerating", and it seems like they're weirdly uncomfortable with your replies even if, repeating myself here, you didn't go into details and weren't complaining, and information you gave was actually pretty neutral, it's just that it made it clear you're not super-extraverted and bubbly and energetic and so on. Why do you want to talk to me and why asking questions about me at all, do I have to pretend that I lead certain way of life that makes me look more successful or something?
I swear to god, either I don't understand something, or people are just weird. I don't even overshare and what I do is not self-deprecation and yet still someone would get visibly uncomfortable or take my words as harsh self-criticism so they have to reassure me. What the fuck
No. 1560168
>>1560167Sounds good,
nonnie. I'll check back then
No. 1560172
>>1559479God nona I'm in a similar situation. I'm very extroverted and can chat with literally anyone and love to organize get togethers. I get along with my friends and we have fun in our classes but if I don't prompt them to hang out they don't. I don't mind, we're all stem students and we have work and outside lives, but damn if it doesn't feel just a little bad. We have fun and do things, but only if I prompt them to outside of class hours. I have a few friends who aren't like that but they're at schools on the other side of the country and we rarely see each other. What is kind of crazy is of all my uni friends, the first one I ever made in my first non-online post-covid class is the only one who isn't a "passive" friend. No hate to the girlies, they're great, just would be nice to not feel like a little rat pressing a button for any sort of response. Like you I've accepted my role, but a part of me feels disappointed because I think part of the disconnect resulted from the fact that several of my friends really dedicated themselves to this one class, but I didn't, so I wasn't invited to study sessions or anything. As a result, even though our courses and projects continue overlap, they're just closer and prefer to study together. Don't mind and I understand, but it's mildly frustrating because I literally asked one of these serious studier friends if she wanted to review for an exam with me and she didn't, only for me to score higher. It feels weird sometimes to have so many contacts and extracurriculars yet only a few people I'm close enough to that they'll text me unprompted.
No. 1560187
There is some horrible alcoholic that appeared in my neighborhood that I've started seeing the past few days. Today he walked past by me, not even that close, at least two-three meters, and the stench made me gag like never before. No joke, I gaged for at least 5 minutes non-stop, I cried from how much I gaged, tears streaming down my face. I barely recovered, I just stopped gagging but I'm still very queasy. Jesus fucking Christ it's still in my nostrils, what the fuck did I inhale, I'm afraid of actually getting sick from that toxic cloud
That pile of rubbish should be removed from the streets, I don't care it once used to be human
No. 1560213
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>>1560206Yes
nonny c-can I have some more
No. 1560218
>>1560175Don’t worry about it. I think it’s a self-soothing thing for me too. Whenever I get stressed about any mild inconvenience, I tell myself that worst case I can just kill myself and not deal with it anymore. I agree that it probably doesn’t increase the likelihood that I’d do it, but I suppose ruminating so much on killing myself probably impacts my quality of life. That’s sweet that you care so much about your sister. It’s also tough because unfortunately having people you care about (or who care about you) isn’t always enough to really feel like life is worth living. It feels like being caught in this in between of wanting to die but also not wanting to hurt people.
>>1560164Just made it! You can reach out at
figtoast@protonmail.com No. 1560234
>>1560226I just read sperging about meangirls in 3 different threads and there’s definitely been a shift towards everything is
valid!
uwu bullshit
No. 1560254
>>1560249Just to clarify I’m the one you replied with this
>>1560248 .i had no clue what the argument was about I just joined in without reading. Just read your argument. Your take is garbage
No. 1560296
A 60 year old man used to come into my workplace and try to corner me and say shit like, "Wow you're so fit, you're so in shape, you keep trim, whats your secret, figure, body, fitness, wow, body, in shape!".. on repeat like hes seeing you for the first time every time. Same shit non stop. I don't exercise. There is no fitness to talk about and I never entertained the topic. It's just him eyeing you up and down and trying to choose his words somewhat carefully. We eventually had a system of me just heading out the back whenever I or anyone else spotted him coming in because it got ridiculous and no amount of grey rock, 'uh are you looking to buy something' or even the boss intercepting ever got through his skull. Cool.. til he stopped coming into my work when he caught onto that plan and now he has learnt my route home instead (I have to walk) and he comes up to me every single evening like its a chance meeting.
At first I was like… well at least I can tell him to fuck off now that I'm not tied to work etiquette bs…nope still persists. I'll sometimes take an annoying detour home but at this rate the old fucker is gonna learn my detour route next. I ducked into a store today before he spotted me and I watched him stand around in the usual spot where he tends to 'bump into me' I saw him wait around like hes expecting someone. Something about actually seeing him wait around for me had me losing it. I'm sick of dreading him. I'm sick of ignoring, of grey rocking, of being straightforward, of being more than straighforward and him just persisting no matter how much I make it clear that I want him to leave me the fuck alone and stop trying to approach me. Its go apeshit time.
Its outside work so I can't be fired for how I react. What would you do next time? Keeping in mind that people have this "aww sweet lonely old men just want to talk" stereotype that stops them from quite taking it seriously.
No. 1560311
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Is it because mercury is in gatorade that all this shit is happening? My dog died yesterday and I can’t cope with her absence. I swear every time I go to the kitchen I hear her little paws running towards me but I know she’s not here, she’s gone forever. My neighbor - in a schizo rage - cut the cable line and threatened the repair man so now I have to wait for the property manager and police to show up so it can be fixed. Also my mom has been texting me like crazy and trying to say that I’m not really happy and hate my fiancé because I complained about groceries and rent being expensive. She’s been wanting to divorce my dad since I was a child but because she’s too much of a pussy to do it she instead projects her relationship problems onto my sister and I. God damn all I want right now is to be laying on a beach somewhere with a joint and a margarita fuck!!
No. 1560347
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As I’m in my late mid twenties, the thought to become pregnant scares me. I hate that society romanticized pregnancy and being a mother seem easy!
My mother and sister both had a c-section and the fact I have a tight vagina, tells me I’m likely to have one too when having a child!
I want to have one child of my own, but carrying a child and giving birth is exhausting. And the health problems that can come with it…
Might want to adopt but adopting is expensive, especially if you want a baby.
Not sure wtf I want, because right now I haven’t even had a decent boyfriend, who can be husband material.
Definitely marry the right guy but who knows what’s next.
No. 1560365
>>1560234There's way more infighting if anything, especially in the last 10 vent threads. usually over the most benign topics too.
>>1560248Nta who responded but isn't that the type of responses you wanted kek
No. 1560368
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Youtube vanced suddenly stopped working and every video shows this noooooo i don't want to watch ads i wont fuck you youtubeeee fuuuuck youuu
No. 1560371
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>>1560311mercury is in gatorade? damn, i was wondering why the metro was bugging monday and people were acting weird.
No. 1560404
>>1560376 > man watching porn > don't worry, I didn’t whack it to it Insultingly obvious lies like this have a tendency to later graduate onto
> I downloaded grindr and just had a look, I didn't chat or meet anyoneNot saying that to be dramatic but I've seen it play out pretty badly if you show that you're willing to believe the unbelievable.. like a man sitting watching porn and not totally not even fapping to it. If you accept that lie and it'll set a precedent. Him being bi and onto tims is something you either accept or don't, up to you. But you're owed honesty in a relationship.
No. 1560441
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>moid coworker looks at me like he likes me but he doesn't start conversations with me as often as with other coworkes
>female coworkers tell me shit like guuurlll he likes you, he's in love with you, come on ask him out first!
>he wants to drive me home every time we're on the same shift, he also picks me up to work
>when we're in his car, he basically doesn't talk but asks do you have any plans for the weekend?
>I say no or sleep with monotone voice bc I'm autistic
>he doesn't respond
>EVERY fucking time we're in his car and it's thursday or friday
>he changes job after 5 months and never contacts me
Kek why are they like this? I think that if he actually liked me, he would openly ask me out or something, right? Right?
No. 1560448
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>>1560441he got scared, anon. they really do be like that sometimes.
No. 1560471
>>1560439Omg the nerve of this cunt
I'm so angry for you nonna
No. 1560589
>>1560582How do y’all still know what your exes are doing 2+ years later? I scrub my exes from
My existence as soon as the relationship is over
No. 1560611
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Had a really awkward hang out with a mutual friend. I’m cringing at how awkward I am. Ughhhhhhhhh. We didn’t have much to talk about. Please help erase it from my brain
No. 1560626
Tonight my husband got into a conversation with a woman at the bookstore, and it was obvious from his reaction and when we left that he was attracted to her. I just tried to ignore it, and then when we left he brought up something nice about it and I snapped a bit. I mean he can't help it I guess, I've felt attracted to men before, but a piece of me just… detaches. It's not that I'm particularly upset at him, more like I'm a bit sad and want to pull away. If he were my boyfriend I'd probably distance myself and maybe keep an open mind to breaking up, but he is my husband and I'm pregnant, which makes me sad because I can't pull back. He hasn't really showed attraction to women publicly before or mentioned anything, we don't go out much and he works from home so there hasn't been a lot of opportunities. I just feel so fucking bitter, if we weren't married I might consider dating around more but I'm stuck. He didn't do anything even slightly inappropriate and we'll never see that woman again, and it's ridiculous to expect a man to never find any other woman attractive but it's like if I can't be the center of the world I get depressed. Maybe it's some kind of narcissism, I'm not sure, but I am sad and I don't want to talk to him and when we got back I took a bath and I don't want to talk to him for the rest of the night. I don't know what it is in my brain where when I see the slightest deterent, or lack of validation, I just fucking turn back and totally lose interest. I want to cry but he'd probably hear or end up seeing and I don't want to be seen like that.
No. 1560627
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I wanted to waste my time on the Internet more but I really need to charge my phone rn. I hate it. I fucking hate it.
No. 1560651
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My sister is up right now in the living room and it’s pissing me off cuz I just want to smoke some MJ before bed. It’s 12am and she’s cleaning. I can only surmise that she had coffee today which is why she is still up. I’m upset cuz I had coffee too which is why I’m still up. But she is ruining my nightly routine. Idk why I’m trying to hide it from her like she knows I smoke. But it’s something about her seeing me do it that makes me feel like a demon child. I’m fucking older than her and pushing 30 why am I afraid of my lil sister lol
No. 1560661
>>1560652That’s awesome
nonnie!! LSD affects me like this but shrooms have been a consistently terrible trip for me. Tried them 3 times and it was awful each time. Endless crying, couldn’t enjoy myself. Soooo emotional. I’d done a lot of LSD before I tried shrooms at all, so I wasn’t new to tripping/psychedelics. I wasn’t prepared for the intense emotional aspect, LSD had always been more of a sensory/transcendent sorta experience where I wasn’t overly wrapped up in emotions/ego. Hell, one time I even took a half a hit that ended up being HILARIOUSLY mis-dosed. I’d taken some of the same batch before and so had my friend and it was normal. But the half a tab we shared that day??? It ended up being the most either of us (both experienced trippers) had ever dropped. Plans quickly changed from going out to a park to just melting into the couch and listening to tunes kek. We both kept having moments where we were like oh fuck that was a metric FUCKLOAD of acid, are we okay?? Yeah we’re okay just melty. Idk how I’m able to handle acid the way I can handle it with all my panic bullshit, but I can absolutely hold my acid. Done it in countless public settings that would normally
trigger my panic shit while sober, breezed through being very social. People just think you’re a little drunk when you’re on acid, it seems, if they think you’re on anything at all (wear sunglasses lest you look like a glassy eyed alien). I love interacting with randos when I’m on acid.
I wish shrooms affected me like that cause I’d totally take the risk and grow them if they did. I wish I had a chemist friend who could synthesize LSD for me, I’m too much of a hermit and idk anyone I could buy it from these days. It’s been over 2.5 years since my last acid trip. Feels bad.
No. 1560703
>>1560589> I scrub my exes fromMy existence as soon as the relationship is over
I wish I can do that. Still hung up over my ex after almost two years.
No. 1560771
>>1560740We should bring back fat shaming and make public spaces without fat people in mind. They're no different than smokers, the exact same tactic should be used, with negative commercials and public dissaproval.
Not hurting anyone but themselves my ass. It's an epidemic and it's hurting the entire society. You're telling me it wouldn't affect me if everyone around me was a fat-mobile riding deathfat that can drop dead any moment and can't even tie their own shoes? Really, that wouldn't affect me? My life would be the same if most people around me were severely disabled? Bullshit. Maybe it's not as straightforward as second-hand smoke, but the long-term consequences for society seem much worse.
No. 1560777
>>1560771I don't think fat shaming is very effective at make people actually lose weight but I agree with your points. I think we need to evaluate what made people fat it the first place, surely a lot of it is shitty unhealthy food. Maybe companies should be punished and heavily taxed for making unhealthy food so they stop making it idk. I know the public would never agree to it but it's a serious issue that affects all of society.
Japan has a tax you pay for being overweight which seems a bit extreme but at the same time… if it works maybe it's worth it. Or prevent obese people from buying too much food, it's like giving drugs to an addict.
No. 1560788
>>1560777Shaming tactics worked stellar on smokers, that's why I think it should be done, why change something that works.
We successfully curbed lung cancer and emphysema that way, maybe we can do the same with diabetes and heart attacks.
>Japan has a tax you pay for being overweightTaxing cigarettes has worked wonders, maybe unhealthy stuff like fast food should be taxed to hell instead of dirt cheap.
I don't know how effective those distressing images on packs of cigarettes were, so I wouldn't do the same with putting pictures of diseased organs of fat people on food. Plus that'd make everyone else anorexic.
No. 1560794
>>1560778SSRIs aren't a good option for overdosing. I've done it before because its all I had access to.
Ime.. never puked so much in my life and the puking started pretty quickly afterwards which defeats the purpose. And the tremors were insane. Obviously I'm not saying you should overdose on anything else either but def don't fuck around with stuff that'll only put you through a few days of hell. Part of why they hand out SSRIs so easily is because they're not a good OD option.
No. 1560808
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>>1560806That's the coke and also they sell various diet pills in every convenience store. This shit isn't healthy (both physically and mentally) and it's no better than obesity imo.
No. 1560811
>>1560771>We should bring back fat shaming it was never gone
>make public spaces without fat people in mindit's already done
what else do you want, for me to lose weight or never go outside because I will be shamed for wanting to use public spaces that clearly don't fit me? just say you don't want to see fat people because they disgust you, it's easier for both of us.
No. 1560819
>>1560816NTA but for me and I suspect many people that are obese it's straight up an eating disorder. Shaming does the opposite because it just makes me want to hide in my room and eat myself to death because I guess people hate me anyway so might as well eat while I cry. And just as context I'm just trying to describe my thought process during an anxious binge.
It's also important to keep in mind a lot of us don't binge in a fun way, but until we are physically so full we don't feel whatever we're trying to eat away.
No. 1560822
>>1560818Literally not what I was asking but start listing excuses sure.
>>1560819You literally can not be obese without an ED, people just don't talk about it. It's disordered to eat that much more than your body needs.
No. 1560824
Smoking is an addiction too. But we curbed it.
>>1560793>Also, you can't leave ALL the responsibility of people's personal health on companies and governments.At some point y'all need to take personal responsibility.
Smokers chewed nicotine gum, pick up bacon flavoured gum idk
No. 1560826
>>1560821Honestly I have a hard time saying I have an ED, thankfully my friends are understanding but I feel like mine is fake because well I'm fat. Like my thoughts are disordered enough that I wish I had anorexia instead cuz at least then people wouldn't think I was disgusting for existing (again not my current mindset but just saying how deep the disorder goes)
>>1560824Unlike almost any other addiction, you can't just stop eating. You can't avoid your
triggers because you need food to survive.
No. 1560834
>>1560826>but I feel like mine is fake because well I'm fat.Anon that is bullshit, your size doesn't matter and your struggles are (sorry to use the word)
valid. Food addiction isn't a joke, it's awful.
No. 1560842
>>1560834>>1560835Why did I never hear anyone coddle smokers like this? uwu your lung cancer addiction is so
valid but uwu diabetes uwu
No. 1560844
>>1560838stop telling her about your life then she won't have anything to give an opinion on. either that or start giving your unasked opinions too so she can taste her own medicine.
>>1560842you're part of the problem if you treat fat people like that.
No. 1560851
>>1560842I know this is bait but just let me give one big difference (aside from not being able to avoid food). When your addiction is food, the evidence of that is 24/7. You can't hide it. You can't escape it, or hide away the fact you're for example smoking. Unless someone is actively smoking, you wouldn't know they smoke 3 packs a day when that person is out and about. But when your addiction is food, that isn't the case. Everyone can constantly see that you are in fact fat and honestly the way (especially men of course) some people will straight up ignore me compared to an attractive friend is fucking astounding.
>>1560835>>1560834Thanks, I genuinely appreciate it.
No. 1560867
>>1560865I have been fat since I was a child, I eat normally and exercise normally, I don't know what to tell you, some people are just fucking fat unless they put all their waking effort into counting calories and minmaxing weight loss through exercise. the only time I have been thin in my life when was I was quite literally starving due no job and on brink of homelessness.
I am sure people will say I am healthy if I get diabetes type 2 and lose weight through it though, even though my blood exams come clean as a whistle.
No. 1560875
>>1560867And you just have to project your situation on every fattie in existence and stop us from talking about ways to stop the very serious obesity epidemic because it hurts your feefees.
How self-centred can you be? Curbing obesity is a GOOD thing. Don't even try to deny that.
No. 1560882
>>1560870>How do you know that though?I used to do calorie counting and I just have an extremely low metabolism, on top of having PCOS and having to take birth control always. if I eat anything out of the ordinary, I definitely gain weight, so in order to keep myself the same weight I have a stable diet. I wont lie and say I never eat take out or junk food, but in the last few months not even that because there is no takeout that comes here and I hate driving to the actual city.
>equally fat familyboth my parents are thin
>but there's a healthy mediummy healthy medium is not starving myself
No. 1560898
>>156089640% of USA is obese, similar in other western countries, it's an
epidemic. Only a tiny fraction of the population is anorexic. The obesity epidemic is getting out of hand, it's long become a broad societal problem.
Just you being fat would be no problem to anyone. But it's not just you, is it?
No. 1560903
>>1560900And who will end up paying their inevitable disability benefits?
>>1560902We're not your dancing monkeys, make your own infight
No. 1560949
>>1560882It's the birth control, everytime I see girls go on that they gain a lot of weight. I don't blame them, it's just rough. My friend got the depo shot and gained 40 pounds without changing her diet, and another girl I knew had gained a ton of weight since I'd last scene her and then when I mentioned I didn't like birth control she said how life changing it is since she went on it the last year. I just don't trust that shit.
>>1560806I've been to Japan I didn't think most of the girls were unhealthy skinny, but everyone wears very baggy clothes and it was winter it was hard to tell. You're right though I went to 3 different cities and I saw 1 fat person THE WHOLE time I was there, and they were obese obese. The food options are a lot better there than America, a lunch bento is just cut up dish, rice, and veggies, and every meal was a lot less processed than anything in America. Portions are way smaller, and there you are meant to stop eating when you're not hungry anymore, not when you're full.
No. 1560969
i'm legit at my fucking limit with my BPD friend right now. i'm not gonna structure this nicely because i just really really need to actually get this out of my system because all my other friends are enablers.
really normal guy. 22, almost 23 years old. afaik, doesn't currently have a job since from what i hear he spends all day sleeping, playing video games, on twitter and whining. he is addicted to social media, he constantly deactivates and says he's "going offline" as an empty threat only to come back 24 hours later, max like 3 days but then he's usually on something else like discord. he has 2 accounts, one he hides his manipulative attention seeking (private) and the other where he tweets things that are vaguely sad and attention seeking or overused viral twitter jokes structured differently. he constantly tries to get more followers / mutuals, asking stuff like "how can i get 23 more followers?" to reach a certain amount of followers, but barely gets any likes on his posts aside from his other twitter friends. it's so strange the way he acts on his social media and how he acts around his other friend group (including me and his other irl friends) because then he usually drops the manipulative schtick when he's talking to us directly. i don't join calls with him as much anymore as i don't like being around him and he constantly talks over me, but he has had several pity parties where his friends forgot to invite him to conventions or group hangouts (because he didn't ask to be invited or show interest) and then acts like everyone hates him and no one cares, "the world is against me please feel bad for me because my friends are generally put off by my manipulative tendencies! it's everyone's fault but my own!" type stuff over and over again. the friends constantly tell him "there's always next time, if you wanna come just let us know since we usually plan ahead" and "if you wanted to come you could've just asked, we like hanging out with you" but he expects people to do shit for him instead of actually having to put any effort into shit.
he's been borderline suicidebaiting for almost 2 years now, people used to show concern for him every time he sadposted or suicidebaited, every time he tweeted that no one liked him and no one cared about him, and whatever whine– there was always someone who was willing to let him vent to them or reaching out to him to offer help but he would always reject it. one time when i told him that getting better is possible he said, word for word, "i have kept going and if i have to go on living without her what reason do i have? you misunderstand how much this has affected me emotionally. i will not recover." along with when his friend said getting better takes time, he said "don't have time, sorry." along with him constantly saying "i give up" keep in mind, this was almost 5 fucking months ago. nothing has happened. he hasn't killed himself despite him constantly repeating this whole "DATES ALREADY SET DATES ALREADY SET DATES ALREADY SET" rambling for what… a week? then the date was never mentioned again and he didn't do anything. people just didn't show enough care and attention for his taste and i guess that was enough to put the BPD suicide attempt for attention on hold. also, that girl he said he saw no point in living without, he got over her immediately. he constantly tries to find an e-girl to date because he needs attention and validation at his request but no serious commitment, he goes through periods of infatuation with these girls, they break up, he's still infatuated, he goes through some lonely attention seeking bullshit, finds a new girl, cycle repeats. he's currently with a new girl that all his irl friends know nothing about, he just meets random people on twitter and decides he wants them to be actively involved in his life.
i can't be here all day whining about him, i'd be just as bad as him then. but the worst part of this is that he's been refusing help from everyone, except for specific people who he'll try to get attention from, and even then he refuses to take their advice or help. all of his friends have tried to make some sort of offer to help or be a shoulder to cry on for him but he always refuses, doesn't matter who it is. i've tried countless and countless of times, and each time i've been shot down because he's the only person in the entire world whose issues can't be fixed. he turned off his replies on his private twitter account except for some tweets because he loves to complain but HATES getting any actual advice on things that could help him in the long run. he hates getting confirmation that he's not special and that if he tried and put a little bit of effort into getting better, then he wouldn't have anything to whine about or get attention for. all my other friends have stopped trying to reach out to him (at least publicly on his twitter) and now he's just left alone to wallow in his own self pity. he doesn't realise that him being mentally unstable is fucking god awful for the other person in the relationship and will only repeat the cycle of infatuation > mental chaos > breakup > depression bc no egirl boohoo > new girl hoo baby! i have lost all empathy for him and i think everyone else has, we all care about him since he's our friend and outside of the BPD he is an ok person to be around but he has ruined everything he had going for himself by letting his BPD control him. no one can do anything but be a bystander and watch or validate him and coddle him, both which result in enabling.
the last bit of effort i'll put into him is recommending DBT. i tried to be nice about it but if he declines it, i don't know what i'll do. i know the joke's on me because i tried to suggest help to someone with BPD, laugh at me all you want, but i didn't even know he had it or how bad it was until he really started to get to the point of no return. with all my friends, i'll try to help and talk to them, i'm always able to put things aside to talk if it means they'll feel better, that's how i am with everyone i care about. but K's ungratefulness and carelessness of not only mine but everyone else's offers and attempts to help him have made me realise just how much of an inconsiderate asshole he is. he loves the attention and he loves the pity but he hates that he can't keep this going forever, the old people stop trying or leave altogether and then it's up to him to find new people to fill the void. it just repeats and it amazes me that he's actually okay with this. he's actually okay with making his friends watch him threaten suicide and show ingratitude for their friendship by constantly saying no one cares about him and no one loves/likes him, he's okay with manipulating everyone around him because he believes he's in the right. you can't call him out because he's mentally ill, you're being an asshole! you'll never understand how hard it is to have mental issues that are easily curable and not permanent but he just doesn't want to fix!
i don't have any worries for him anymore and i'm basically just letting him continue his bullshit and not letting it bother me anymore. he would never actually try to kill himself and he's not suicidal. those things don't exist to him outside of situations he can fake to get attention. i'm just done with it all.
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No. 1560971
>>1560824Smoking is easy to curb because you don’t need to smoke to stay alive. Smokers can just quit. You have to eat to stay alive so it’s literally one of the hardest addictions to curb in the world, cause you can’t simply avoid your
trigger substance cause you need food to live. Food addicts can binge even on healthy foods. Put your critical thinking cap on. You can’t just stop eating like you can just stop any other addictive behavior/substance.
No. 1560985
>>1560926>am I destined to repeat my mother and grandmother’s mistakes?No
nonnie, don’t procreate and you’ll have already won. That’s all you gotta do.
No. 1561035
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Hypatia
Joan of Arc
I want to avenge them and kill scrotes
No. 1561087
How do you date knowing all men are pedos? How do you date, knowing that the most normal dude can be memed into raping a toddler if powerful men/men he looks up to told him it was a good thing to do? I've never been in a relationship, but I recently started seeing someone. While he loves our deep conversations (aka free therapy for him), being seen for who he is, and truly loved, he'd drop all of that for the chance of having a 14 year old asian girl in his arms.
I try to ignore it and enjoy myself, but it's a struggle. I find myself wanting to lash out at him for things he hasn't even done, because I know he's thought about it. He's probably watched porn with it, you know? But I stuff it all down and contain myself, smiling. Knowing the truth about men while being hetero drives you insane, just like how conspiracy theorists who figure out the truth end up blowing their brains out.
No. 1561138
According to my google timeline, I was driving for almost 5 hours yesterday beginning with trips at 11am before finally coming home around midnight.
All of those trips are a mix between my job, and doing shit for my boyfriend, with at least two of those driving hours dedicated to shit for the boyfriend.
He was really mean to me in the car yesterday and it's clear he doesn't appreciate me. He doesn't even understand that the reason I brought him along to go to my work trips is so I wouldn't have to keep doubling back to the house just to pick him up costing me more time & effort. He is just plain ungrateful and shitty. One example: During the morning drive to visit a worksite I had the opportunity to play my own music, which is rare because he always plays his music every damn time and will even open my phone to disconnect bluetooth so he can connect his. Except yesterday I needed my bluetooth to answer work calls so he could not get his way. He called my songs annoying saying shit to me like "You must enjoy these annoying songs because you like to be annoying too," and acted salty because he couldn't blast his rap music instead (and god forbid I can't relate to black moids like 50 or find a lot of rap music very annoying myself). Then after putting up with his sour puss and comments, when I finally cop an attitude because he's hurting my feelings cause I can't even enjoy music in my own damn car for once, he reverses victim and tries to crazymake by exaggerating that I react irrationally when #1 that isn't the case and #2 I would have a right to be that angry should that so be the case. He tried to gaslight from having called me annoying until I quoted his exact words. He made me cry, and it's like he isn't satisfied until he's pushed my buttons for daring to tell him no. He apologizes but it's just a matter of time before it's same shit/different day again. He makes me cry on a weekly if not daily basis. He ruins every trip I go on all because the attention isn't centered on himself. He acts like a 3 year old who sees other people as extensions of himself to satsify his needs and bidding.
I don't care anymore about his emotional manipulations, I fully intend to keep telling him no many times more.
He can't drive his plateless car right now so I am the default driver for anything and everything. He's also a mentally ill trust fund baby who doesn't work so his mentality is always me, me, me because he cannot understand the sacrifices people take and the priorities they juggle in order to perform for him. Because he himself faces no challenges or adversity on the day to day. If I try to explain what I do for him, he accuses me of being mean and holding things over his head before he turns right around and acts like some money he gives me from his trust fund to live here is a favor enough for me to forgive everything else he leaves up to me to do. He doesn't give me that much money and if I really sat down and broke down the living expenses I'm sure it's all a grift. He refuses therapy and cites medical problems which he has blown off seeing a doctor for. He sleeps in, smokes weed, plays video games, drinks beer at night, stays up until the early am, and then might do a few scant things around the house–the rest of his time is spent obsessing over me and all the attention I am not giving him. He searches for perceived slights so he can feel victimized and make controlling demands of me. This has been his life since December.
Enough is never enough! This morning he bitched cause I wanted to chill and be on my phone for a bit instead of laying silently and bored in bed for an additional hour to cuddle-not that I didn't give him any cuddles or attention-because me doing that for 20 minutes when I first woke up wasn't enough. I can never do what I want to do if it's not also what he wants for me to do. He's isolating and pouting in the computer room because I didn't bend to do what he wanted me to do. It's ironic because his anger and little bitch attitude works against his own interests because it disgusts me and makes me want to spend even less time with him. Could he easily be beside me and hanging out with me if the matter was being in each other's company? Yes, but what he seems to want is for me to chase, pursue, and apologize then give up what I want to do always which I will NOT always cave to.
At the end of the day however, he realizes just how good he has it here so no matter how he tries to retcon matters or insinuate I am some heartless bitch who never does shit for him, he will not leave.
That's all you need to realize that he is 100% full of shit.
Oh, and the reason why I was driving at midnight yesterday? Not work related, he wanted me to take him to the barcade 30 minutes away at 9pm for discounted games day. I was kinda tired after driving all day, the weather was shitty/I don't see well for driving at night, and I'm not a huge arcade fan. I went anyway. We actually managed to have fun because I won an assload of tickets off a skills game.
But remember, I never think about him nor do shit for us. I'm a mean, bad girlfriend who spends time on anything else except the scrote.
I wish I had a support system so I wouldn't have to be tolerant of moid bullshit just to survive.
Even late posting this because he argued with me more this morning making me feel bad over another non-issue.
No. 1561182
>>1561138To be honest even if you weren't exaggerating and would be completely alone, it's better than an outside force attacking your self esteem and character daily.
Why are you still with him? I know this question is asked a lot on here but I would just like to understand. Is it impossible to go?
No. 1561194
>>1560867>I eat normally and exercise normallySorry nona, I understand that you have some conditions and so I'm not personally trying to attack you, it's just that this is a very common thing that overweight people say and I wanted to comment on it in general. I've been normal weight my entire life, with the exception of several months during covid where I gained weight into almost the overweight category and then lost it. People frequently overestimate how much they move, and are uninformed about the nutrition of what they eat and portion size. I used to think that I had a lot of movement because I'm a student walking around campus, when in reality I was getting ~2.5k steps a day. I also thought that a 20 minute walk was good for the day when, again, that was only an 2k steps. Either of those, even combined, is sedentary. Obviously any movement is good but when I gained weight, it was from eating extra because in my mind, I had exercised via a 20-40 minute walk (followed by sitting at home for the other 23 hours). In reality I was still sedentary. Same with food, I had absolutely no idea how many calories were in butter. I don't think people need to count calories in general, especially those with disordered eating, but tons of people don't realize how much "little things" like condiments or snacks add, even though they are eating normally. Portion sizes are also huge by default at restaurants in the USA, which is terrible because our stomachs stretch, so it's possible to eat quite a bit more than we ought, while also feeling genuine hunger if we eat a normal portion. If I lose my appetite, eating a normal portion size can physically make my stomach hurt until I adjust over a couple days, and if I eat slightly larger portions than usual for a bit, going back to my usual amount can make me feel as though I'm ravenously hungry and literally starving until my body can adjust.
Weight loss is treated so much as a temporary intensive regimen and it's terrible, there are nutritionally beneficial choices that naturally result in weight loss (obviously to varying degrees if someone has an actual condition or something). Diets like keto are dumb because they introduce dumb food rules and the people who follow it will always subconsciously think of it as a "diet" so there'll always be a chance of relapsing and weight gain. But, as much as I think it's retarded, I'll admit it works for a lot of people because it gets people used to eating fewer carbs which are very present in the american "empty calories" lifestyle. People just don't even realize how much they're actually eating and moving. On top of this over 90% of people have a vitamin deficiency and roughly 10%ish have a nutritional deficiency, which both stems from nutritionally devoid food and contributes to poor eating habits due to cravings. Obviously there's no reason to be nasty to people who are losing weight, but I seriously cannot stand this idea that the only two options are to eat how they usually eat or literally starve themselves. 99% of time, there's small adjustments that can be made, like just increasing the amount of veggies or stopping drinking calories constantly.
No. 1561213
>>1561208Nonnie I didn't even trauma dump, just vented a bit about how society is kind of shit and that I believe most people are depressed. And that was after he had been BEGGING me to open up more. I knew his childhood trauma, his anxieties, fears, all his issues. Yet the second I expose myself as not constantly being a happy go lucky puppy, he was visibly turned off.
Yeah you might've traumadumped too much, but "too much" to these men is being anything less than a naive 15 year old Disney princess.
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My "BDD" turned out to be completely accurate and the only real issue is the dysfunction. It wasn't random that my therapist let slip that I look ugly or that 100s of strangers have insulted my looks over the years…that people recount events make sure to note how fucked up I looked as if this detail corrupted the entire experience for them. I.e., everyone wearing pajamas with 0 make-up and having fun and playing games together only for them to talk about the experience and note how horrible you looked months later–and ONLY that as if literally none of the other hijinks that occurred were as distracting as how ugly I looked. Wow. What the fuck. I remember just sitting there awkwardly as they went on and on about it, confused. College was a trip, alright. I used to have fun, live in the moment, and not really…think about the way I looked beyond basic grooming, smelling good, and styling. Didn't notice other peoples' looks much, either.
Oh well, time to embrace life as a molerat who solely exists to make money. For some reason the most painful part isn't looking in the mirror but that every single time I've ever experienced joy in my life that all involved other people…was just me being delusional. I grew up being locked up in a room for months and months and developed so many social issues as a result of learning how to speak years later than other kids so I was already worthless trash. I just didn't understand that things could get worse and that the ability to experience joy or a sense of belonging could stolen from me forever. Anyway, I'll just try not to think about any of it and press on.
No. 1561271
>>1561267I wish I saw this earlier before I got in a fight with my boyfriend. This is exactly true.
>>1561213>but "too much" to these men is being anything less than a naive 15 year old Disney princess.Absolutely 100%. This is the best description possible of this.
No. 1561303
>>1561182It's my house and he won't leave.
Every time he has emotionally ransomed me during fights, like he'll yell
Well should I leave then? or
Guess I'll cancel my part of the trip you planned? I tell him to go and not come back. It hurts so much, like it's rejection but not technically because he's sneaky enough to frame it like a question. I never ask or beg for him back, it's sick cause he's done it during almost every argument we ever had. It's like, oh, you think you have it bad here enough to threaten to leave? Well there's the door dude! Sometimes he will even fake pack and mess up a bunch of his clothes that are hung and folded.
He brings those manipulations yet every time I call him on them he doesn't fucking leave and tries to verbally exhaust me until I have a kumbaya with him just to stop the multi-hour arguing. He flips and acts like I am the one been hateful and mean for agreeing that he should leave when he's the fucking jerk who said it in the first place!
He reads from the same playbook as my narcissist mother and he is EXACTLY like her down to demanding emotional labor like hugs and ilys towards the end of fights to reassure him that I still love him because he's a validation vampire. He can never just leave me alone or give me space to process or be upset because all he thinks about is himself.
Also he hasn't done it for more recent fights, but he self-harms and/or destructs his belongings in front of me while he loses his shit in the past. He suicidebaits all the time.
He once told me during a different argument that I would have to call police in order to get him out. Do I want to fuck with the police? No, I'm currently having legal battles with my last shitbag ex. And also I don't have the physical and mental spoons to involve the law to deal with yet another asshole moid. He knows this so he just gets away with whatever. Any time I set boundaries or tell him no, or be anything less than sweet it's a guaranteed fucking fight and I'm tired.
If a grey rock him, he escalates until he gets my response by any means.
I'm tired because I am depressed. I have a professional job, animals, and a house to take care of and I don't have the capacity to deal with this shitty moid. All I wanted was to feel loved, appreciated, and supported.
Now I just wish I had a cousin I could call to come beat his ass and throw him out, I wish anybody would care. But nobody does, and if word got out about how
abusive and
toxic it is society would say I deserved it for not having predicted it and not stopping it immediately despite the circumstances.
The only solution I see happening to end this will be when I am forced to sell the house this summer and then all I have to do is disappear and not let him come with me. He's proven to cause even bigger grief and problems for me any other way.
No. 1561310
>>1561287>>1561299>>1561103Yes It affects everyone. Well every woman I should say (men's semen get affected.)
If you eat strawberries, your vagina will smell like strawberries. If you eat fish. It will smell like fish.
Hell, I eat Ramen and I SMELL like Ramen down there. It's normal.
No. 1561354
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HOLY SHIT I think my parents are getting divorced
My mom is gonna leave for a week and leave us and our dad alone (my dad is probably going to be away for work too so it'll just be me and my sister most of the time)
When they gave us the talk I was pretty calm and normal but now it's starting to hit me and my blood pressure is dropping and I'm shaking a bit hahaha fuck I don't want to feel like crying
Like I saaw this coming and have thought many times before "you guys should just divorce already" because my mom has cheated on my dad and who knows what he has done as well, and they clash a lot over how to treat me and my sister and ughhh I don't know what the hell is going on but I think they're getting divorced even though my mom and dad acted like they're still gonna be here with us after mom comes back
Now I gotta take an anxiety shit, I feel constipated all of a sudden
No. 1561363
>>1561271No worries, you live and you learn!
We've all been there…
No. 1561369
>>1561303Find a new man.
Start going out more.
Find a new man.
No. 1561370
>>1561368You should just start asking men for money, helping you do things, etc. And unless a man signs the marriage papers AND has made your life easier by paying your debts and buying you valuable useful things, you should never start investing feelings.
Go on and date, just be strategic- that's how most moids think when approaching women.
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Overall I’m okay with how my body stores fat, I’d say Im an hourglass that leans pear. But I have one problem spot where a lot of my fat is stored right on my obliques. It looks like I have muffin top even when I’m naked. I’ve been working on my gluteus minimus and it’s been helping some but it’s so noticeable. The only time I haven’t had this is when I’ve been underweight. It’s like 5 lbs of fat stored there so even building muscle doesn’t reduce their appearance enough. I hate it.
No. 1561400
>>1561394nta but this was an advice for women who
want sexual intimacy, it was not encouraging women who don't want sex to do it anyway for perks. bp anons whine about "libfems" supposedly invading their thread but they so obviously prefer fighting about the "ree prostitutes" argument everywhere than actually discussing with each other lmao
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sadly i relapsed nonnies
No. 1561428
>>1561369>Find a new man.Ok
>Start going out more.I would if my abuser wasn't accounting for my every waking second I'm not with him and retaliating when he doesn't get his way.
>Find a new man.Ok, thanks, will do.
Are you the same dildo who called me a martyr upthread?
No. 1561431
>>1561428No?
Admittingly I skimmed your post, though.
Can't get a restraining order and get help from your male family members?
No. 1561442
>>1561394Psssst
You can have moids pay you WITHOUT having sex :) You equating talking to and dating men as "must have sex" really says a lot about you :) but your post was illogical and in bad faith to begin with
(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE) No. 1561444
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>be me, this morning
>wake up way too early and go back to sleep
>have vivid dream of walking through an art gallery/museum
>all the art is surreal but beautiful
>see two handsome men and think "wow, I have to move to (city), then I can meet someone who's my type"
>walk away because even in my dreams I'm too scared to talk to men
>stumble and fall down
>one of the men catches me and helps me up
>smiles at me sweetly, is so kind, and we start talking
>spend the rest of the dream walking around the gallery holding hands
>wake up abruptly
That was the nicest dream I've had in a while, but I loathed waking up to get ready for a 10 hour shift right after with a passion. That sadness hit hard. I want what was in that dream so badly, I wish I could have dreamt it forever.
No. 1561445
>>1561434Nta and I read your post but he is
abusive so there is not a lot of possibilities here. Even if it's not the police, you could seek help with a social worker or even in a shelter. I mean even if you already have legal battles it doesn't mean the police won't do something. At the very least, disappear on him the day you can sell your house, like you said. But you probably need help because he is obviously manipulative, emotionally
abusive and violent.
No. 1561501
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y'know
I used to be so sweet, so well meaning, so kind and so aspirational and every single passing day just takes the godforsaken life out of me
everything I've experienced in my life isn't worth the suffering and I'm really hoping I drop from exhaustion soon so I can just come clean and reveal to my family, as abusive as they are, the truth
they won't believe me
nobody really does, but I just keep pretending it's going to better and I'll be okay and it's not, it's not. nobody is going to help or save or rescue me from a mistake this monumental
it's my fault I guess, I guess it's my fault
I tried my best and I failed. maybe death or having a serious physical health issue is better than living my life continually with my heart throbbing every single day like I'm constantly on the verge of a panic attack and don't want to touch my technology with a ten foot pole but the world is fucking boring and impossible to navigate without it
the culture of fucking pathetic surveillance this world has created is a dystopian stain, and mine was paid in blood and tears
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>tfw woken up by earthquake
I fucking hate California
No. 1561622
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I went trough a major depressive state right before the lockdown and I didnt do anything productive I just spend two years sleeping. I didn't do anything to get medication for my issue which is really affecting me now. I didn't read any books or do any of my hobbies. I'm into stage plays and I found out that a bunch of plays had live streaming events during lockdown and even some actors I really like did some small streams too which I will forever seethe about. I will never forgive myself for missing that.
It just pisses me off. Thinking back the lockdown was the perfect opportunity to focus on self improvement or on being creative. But I wasted that opportunity
No. 1561683
this is kind of a weird vent, as it's a mixture of gratefulness and also a bit of sadness. i've been thinking a lot about my life over these past few years. my life really did not turn out the way i imagined or the way people told me that it would, and in a weird way i am thankful for that. i am bit sad that my life really didn't start to get better until i was in my mid to late 20's. i am sad that a big fucking chunk of my life, from childhood through to about the age of 26, was wrapped up in dysfunction and abuse. i feel a bit of sadness at times that i was not happy growing up, that my father and i hated each other, that my mother was physically present but not there mentally. i feel sad that i lost so many people i loved, that my life was not stable, that i watched my family fall apart and people die and all of us scattered across the world. but at the same time, there's a part of me that realizes i would never be the person i am today if i hadn't been through all those things. i wouldn't have had the drive to change my life if i had been coddled or if my family had been more supportive of me or if i had been treated the same way as some other family members of mine who did not succeed like they were told they would. no one really believed in me because i was quiet and introverted as a child, and i guess in most people's head only extroverts are built for success. i suffered through bullying and being overlooked by my family in favor of the more "outgoing" people, and the irony of it all is that it was me, not them, who were stronger. maybe it's kind of egotistical to say this but i think i can become even more successful than one family member in particular who is constantly lording their wealth over everyone and who used to bully me for being quiet as a child. i just wish i had had faith in myself before and hadn't let people make me think there was something wrong with me because i wasn't a big mouthed idiot. i am powerful in my own way.
No. 1561686
>>1561658honestly, I would feel like absolute dogshit if I was open about being CSAed and then this chick just said she's not happy all of the time.
broken males hate women whose loves aren't as bad and trauma bonding is a red flag anyhow
No. 1561706
>>1561686Oh it wasn't like that. Trust me CSA
victims have all my sympathy and my heart literally hurts when I hear about it. There's nothing worse on this fucking earth. He opened up about it a year ago and I've literally comforted him for hours while he cried. He and his male cousin were CSAd "together", and I literally helped them reconnect after decades and actually talk about what happened. It helped both of them so much, they were insanely grateful and shocked that talking it out actually worked. After building up his non-existent confidence, encouraging him to get a job, lifting him up in every way possible, he's just not there for me in return.
It wasn't until a year after that I confessed to being a bit depressed. Truth is I'm a ball of trauma and issues, but he'll never know. I was just testing the waters by telling him a tiny bit of it. And as I suspected, it turns him off. He kept saying that I was too good for him, too pretty, had too much potential, compared to him. I was trying to make him feel better/closer to me by telling him some negative stuff. He literally said "haha don't ruin my fantasy".
No. 1561715
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>>1561711I've learned from my mistakes. I knew fixing a man gives you nothing in return, yet I did so, because I'm a retard with empathy. I've literally cried myself to sleep thinking about his CSA trauma and how scared and in pain he must've been. I guess I saw that hurt little boy in him and thought I could heal him, but nope that little boy is gone. 100% scrote brain with selfish grown scrote instincts.
No. 1561718
>>1561706Holy shit that’s so disappointing. Fuck. If I were you and I loved this guy I would be doing mental gymnastics like
wellll he’s traumatized no one ever taught him how to be empathetic uhhh he probably cares deep down but I’d know deep down he actually truly wasn’t good enough for me (you)
No. 1561827
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I only took 4 months out of work because I had a mental breakdown I still paid my bills and everything and everyone is yelling at me to get a job! why!? I know people who have taken 6 months to a year off work just because! Why is it an issue when I do it? Is it because no one else has the balls/stupidity to just say fuck it!? Honestly I’m more so depressed that I lack the drive everyone else around me seems to have. All I do is work until I burn out and then have a mental breakdown and quit i know it’s not sustainable but nothing brings me happiness except this one dream that I fear I’m getting further and further from. I just wish i had confidence drive and motivation like most of my peers seem to. I feel like such a shell of a human. I hate that to be human means to work.
No. 1561869
People are fucking fragile. My entire life I have had to play into the egos of other people and made them feel valid and justified. Their issues feel valid but my entire life I have had been ignored for my problems or have been given very detached responses or have even had my issues turned against me or used to discredit me or attack me. I have realized that my entire life I have never recieved an ounce of empathy.
Since I was a kid I have never had any living conditions. I grew up in extreme poverty with no parents and saw atrocities happen all around me. Now I am 24 I have had 9 suicide attempts, I have no money, no resources, no friends, no support system I am being harassed by hundreds of individuals and having my truth twisted, my reality twisted being told that I am not valid, that my problems are not valid that they somehow make me dirty or a lost cause. All of these people have things in their lifes actual friends, lovers, support, careers and when they complain they expect to be heard and given empathy and care and that happens even when they complain of mudane issues. Soon, I will kill myself and none of these people have ever cared. They have never cared about how horrible my life is but my entire life I have had to walk on egg shells with all these mother fuckers because if I slightly offend them or make them feel like their issues are unjustified they use anything that they have in their power to harass me.
No. 1561882
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IS THERE A FUCKING ESCAPE FROM TRANNIES?! I opened a fucking video essay about an anime, voice of the ssayist clearly female, and I was having a decent time listening to her analysis of the theme until suddenly, an hour in, her voice changed pitch and was suspiciously froggy. I'm desisted, so I know what tranny voice sounds like, and I could smell the testosterone right away. I hoped I was wrong, cause trannyshit has wrecked my mentals so much I'd have to close the video if this was a troon. Indeed, while analyzing the themes of motherhood in the show, she did the obligatory troon song and dance about how so much tWanSpHobIa for transmen is about not being mothers. I closed the video then. does it ever fucking end?! is there any place where there's respite? Do I just have to watch a greasy male called Lily Simpson with a video from PhilosophyTube just below every fucking time I engage with the internet? Is the only troon-safe place fucking lolcow or kiwifarms?! Where the fuck do you go when troonism has actually broken your brain and you struggle to keep your own delusions that you're a man because of sexism and autism away???? sometimes I just want to give in and fucking troon out because there is no escape. It has infected every corner of the internet, and even in my third world shitole I saw the most fucking feminine woman you've ever seen wearing a crop top and cat ears and makeup at a convention and her instagram had fucking she/he/they in bio. DOES IT EVER FUCKING END?! I WANT TO FUCKING DIE
No. 1561896
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>>1560969update: he didn't even acknowledge what i said to him about DBT. he completely ignored it while still being active. i don't know why i even tried because the joke's on me in the end, but i'm still disappointed.
No. 1561923
>>1561859I can't afford it lol I'm dirt poor
I like to dream tho
No. 1561932
>>1561683I'm proud of you for making it. No matter what you do in life you'll be better than the people who belittled you for being quiet.
>>1561869Damn nona, why die? Go tell them to backflip off a skyscraper for the good of humanity and scream abuse at them until they cry, might as well give as good as you got.
No. 1561940
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I can't believe those idiots banned me for simply expressing my dissatisfaction with the Lion King Remake and New Winnie the Pooh film. This is ridiculous!
No. 1561942
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For the past 4 or so years, I started to feel like life is a race and this FOMO feeling is getting the best out of me.
As much as my therapist tried to tell me back when I started to feel that way that "hey, everyone has their own pace", I still feel like I pretty much failed at life and my god, I'm only 24. I feel like right now I'm doing what I was supposed to do at 18 - 20 and I dread the fact that years pass quite fast, not to mention that 2.5 years of my life were uneventful because of the pandemic.
The fact that I was (and still am) a retard to essentially have the amount of experiences only a 16 year old would have makes me hate myself even more. Instead of enjoying life as I should and maybe get a decent job in a big city, I moved back to my quiet hometown after I dropped out of college during the pandemic and drowned myself in a job that offers some sort of stability, altough it's a minuscule bit above minimum wage and I wageslave almost all days of the week and it worries me to apply anywhere else with the economical situation as of late. Also, I'm ashamed to graduate college at 26, I should've done that at 22, goddamnit. The only things I had acomplished in the past 5 years was not attempting suicide anymore, get better blood tests and have a better relationship with my parents.
I want to have some of those experiences everyone talks about, but I want them to happen ASAP, otherwise I can consider myself a failure and someone pathetic who tries to catch on lost years.
No. 1561947
>>1561244Ayrt and I don’t just give up or necessarily avoid anything longterm, besides having children. I don’t believe in saving money for retirement or prepping, because both are pointless. I believe in spending my money and living my life in a way that is fun without cursing new souls to exist. My partner shares my beliefs, we have a firearm and when things get unbelievably bad the plan is for him to shoot me in my sleep and then euthanize our (rescue) pets before he takes himself out.
I hope I’m wrong. I hope things get better. But that’s like hoping for time travel, it’s just not gonna happen, it’s a fantasy. The idea that everything will be okay and human beings will have better lives in the future is a fantasy. It’s sad but true. Most people aren’t willing to look into collapse related stuff because it terrifies them and if they want to have children it basically confirms that that is a cruel and heartless decision, so they decide to ignore the facts. Don’t Look Up but with a less imminent and blatant threat to humanity basically.
No. 1561952
>>1561863Thank you so much for this
nonnie I’m Op this made me tear up and gave me the motivation I needed. Have a great weekend!!
No. 1561956
>>1561887I am so sorry for your loss with both your grandmother and your belongings. Just know you can always cherish your current belongings and never part with them. This is a
TW for how I felt after having bed bugs
A disgusting moid gave them to me.
Bed bugs are literally the worst yoi will be in psychological warfare with yourself for months every itch will make you think there is a bug on you and nothing is more disturbing than finding out there was one feasting on your blood for god knows how long without your knowledge. I found them everywhere for months I ended up sleeping on the floor and they followed me to my floor. They were all in my grandmas wheelchair. It was traumatizing. We had to throw her bed out the side of the window it was that bad. I remember my brother said “whoever thought of sleep tight don’t let the bed bugs bite is evil. I would never say that to my children. He is right I would never wish bed bugs on my worst enemy. Not that I have one but still. I feel you Op I pray you ain’t bring them home with you. Wash everything in scalding hot water as soon as you get home. Like 2x. 3 to be sure lol
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It’s another episode of “Legitimate Suicidal Ideation, or Just Hungry?”!!!
No. 1562004
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My female coworker basically mocking me for not wanting to have sex with random dudes and telling me sex is fun and I should have fun too. We had a male coworker who had a crush on me and I ignored him most of the time and then he left and now he wrote me a message and I ignored him again. My female coworker keeps telling me he's such a great guy, he studied engineering, he's so smart, he's one of a kind blah blah blah. Yeah, he was such a great guy, he also talked about going to a prostitute, and he gossiped about people and liked dick jokes, he showed us some leaked video of a local male rapper jerking of his dick, and he thought it was oh so funny. I told her he was immature in my eyes, but most importantly, paying for sex is a complete deal breaker for me, especially that he talked about it at work like it was nothing, so even if it was in his past, he was clearly still not ashamed of it. She told me I'm the one who's immature, and that my reasons are not "enough" to devalue him, and that going to a prostitute isn't a big deal and I'm overreacting. I'm still a virgin and I was never interested in men enough to pursue them, although men tried to pursue me, and she behaved like I should already settle down because my clock is ticking or something lol. She asked me if I would have sex with a guy on our first date. I said of course not. She asked how long I would wait then. I said at least a couple of months, to which she looked at me with pity and said
>I don't want to hurt you but… Um… at your age no one will wait months to have sex with you. You're not 15 anymore
I'm 27 btw. Oh yeah, I'm so old. That means I should give my virginity to a random scrote because he's good with maths and earns good money. Jesus every time I try to connect with normie women I have to endure the most pro-scrote bullshit, or mockery. She was telling me my perspective on men is soooo narrow and bad even though I'm the one who actually studies data on relationships and reads books on male and female sexual conflict and shit like that, and she doesn't read any books, she only has her own experience, she thinks literally everything people post on the internet is fake, I actually regret bringing up internet as one of the sources of knowledge because she was not even trying to engage anymore, just mocking anything I said, even the fact that more and more women decide to go single because so many men are porn addicted etc. and all she had to say was
>And you read that on THE internet?
I can't talk to normies, I just can't. Nothing I say matters, they know better, I'm the bad one for not wanting to give a chance to a scrote who literally had sex with prostitutes and joked about it at work. Because it's so normalized. You're a freak for not engaging and not accepting this. This is so vile to me. It makes me less and less interested in being with anyone, be it romantic or platonic. My interest in having a relationship with a male is at like 5%, but he would have to be a virgin too. Not because I attribute some sacred value to virgintiy but at least that would mean he's totally STD free and he didn't treat sex like it was just fun and didn't succumbed to the hook up culture. But even that desire is totally mocked and no one would take me seriously for wanting to wait with sex or be with someone who's a virgin like me. So yeah. I'm the bad and immature one for thinking a scrote who goes to prostitutes is no good even if he's well educated.
No. 1562052
>>1562045Don't beat yourself up
nonnie but fax are fax and feelings are feelings
He sounds selfish and immature and like he resents his mom
No. 1562053
>>1562023That's a really good idea so I'll try to muster up the courage to do that nonna, I think I'm too shy when it comes to these things. I know how special my relationship is and that's why I feel even guiltier that I'm not telling them. Saying I love you is hard when you never have.
And love come in many forms and from many different people, I hope you'll be overwhelmed with love too
>>1562039 nonnita I'm sure you'll do great, congrats on the new job! that's so cool!
No. 1562060
>>1562028>>1562027>>1562019>>1562013thank you for words of support anons
>>1562037damn that's admirable anon. I totally understand you. I know it's possible to meet such person, but I don't want to fixate on the thought of finding an unicorn, simply because of how rare it is. I also think that generally speaking people are too fixated on romantic relationships, like it's the ultimate human relationship. I wish friendships were more cherished and it was normalized for people to live in small communes, friends growing old together and shit. meanwhile you have people in their 20s and 30s slowly growing apart because they have no time for friends because now it's
serious straight relationship time. I met so many women with literally no friends. maybe my libido is too low and I just 'don't get it'. Idk
>>1562035this girl is kinda narcissistic and I don't want to ruin the atmosphere at work. I need to learn to stop engaging with her. also, unfortunately I can't force myself to be actually mean until I feel actually threatened, that's just how my autistic brain works. I only have like two or three modes, the calm ones where I'm either totally detached or present but meek, and the third one when I go totally bersek and throw people at walls in psychotic rage, the latter happened only two times in my life when I was actually physically threatened by another person and I threw them like ragdolls. The good thing about being meek is that when you finally snap and show your retard strenght, people are actually surprised and scared.
tho when I decide to change jobs I plan to openly shit on my current shitty coworkers, especially this woman, as in goodbye words
No. 1562069
>>1560969my ex best friend was a male with BPD and a lot of these behaviors you've listed are incredibly similar to what my ex best friend has done, almost to a perfect T.
i think you and your friend group could do well to cut him off entirely or have a group talk with him. he seems incredibly damaging to your own health and it's no one's responsibility to coddle him and to help him with his issues. maybe once everyone leaves or is finally, brutally harsh with him and sparing no niceties, will he understand.
scarily enough my ex best friend's name also started with K and was around the same age. if you feel comfortable sharing, what does his name end with?
No. 1562115
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>away for a few days during my chores week
>"you should have done them before you left, pull your weight nonny"
>cleans kitchen
>"you didn't clean the kitchen properly, pull your weight nonny"
>deep cleans kitchen
>"you need to mop the floors too, pull your weight nonny"
>cleans kitchen, vacuums and mops kitchen floor the evening before I leave for the rest of the week
>"you were vacuuming for five minutes at 9pm on a Friday, obviously I was asleep and you woke me up, be more considerate nonny"
There's no winning with this bitch. My main motivation to get my money up right now is so I can get my own one-bedroom place and keep it as clean or dirty as I want to.
And maybe if you spent as much time and energy working on your masters project as you do micromanaging a chores roster you wouldn't be complaining every day about how stressed and far behind you are.
No. 1562126
>>1560969Heh, do we ALL know a guy like that? A BPD loser whose name starts with K? He's never going to change. In fact, he's being enabled by being surrounded by people who play his little games.
Also, the amount of moids who just sleep all day and play video games and rage at social media is concerning. Seriously. What the hell?
No. 1562136
>>1562126No, I know a guy like that whose name starts with M.
Every time he tries his suicide baiting act on me, I say "I support people's right to live as they want and die as they want". That immediately shuts him up, he never had anything to say to that, and we'll hang out normally. He'll continue to suicide bait others around him for days (mostly his mentally ill gf).
No. 1562141
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why is taking pebble sized shits so hard jesus fucking christ i thought i was gonna pass out. it felt like squeezing rocks out my ass. and now my insides and back hurt a little. (before someone mentions, i already drink tons of water to the point of almost wetting myself so it's not from lack of water)
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>>1559462Nonnas, tell me why I'm 25 and still have never had a bf…… i have a moid friend who is not attractive and he has never had an issue finding attractive partners his entire life… does it ever get less lonely girls?
No. 1562165
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i hate the weekends so much. i have no friends irl or online so i'm just sitting/laying around scrolling and swapping between lc and twitter. occasionally i'll have a cry and then back to staring at the ceiling. i haven't been able to enjoy anything anymore. i know i'm depressed but i can't afford to see anyone.
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I'm mad that it's raining all day today, Saturday and Sunday.
No. 1562248
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im crying so hard. i got back together with my ex-bf whos "greek" orthodox and ive been struggling to deal with the seperation with reality he has in relation to it. i called a couple christian hotlines (i've never been religious) and asked them about what they believe & why and they prayed for me and im fucking going thru what feels like a mental breakdown now anons wtf is happening im so fucking sad and torn idk what to think or do and i think im going actually insane
No. 1562256
>>1562211I recently saw it on a barbie video where she was like "I'm so tired of being perfect all the time! I just want to be goofy sometimes" and she makes a silly face.
Someone commented "barbie is in her pick me era" which could've been just a lighthearted joke but instead the girl went on several tirades to convince people why "goofy" girls have internalized misogyny, sidenote but I also hate people who'll pull any argument out of their ass just to die on a dumbass hill.
I also had a relatively mean ex-friend (nothing against my biatches but some girls are truly fucking vile) tell me something like "I hate pick me girls who are always like ooh i'm so nice and sweet" which as someone with a nice and sweet personality I took kind of personally. Women are better because we are capable of a modicum of kindness in the first place so implying choosing it is just a way to get male attention offends me as someone who will always tell shitty moids what's up -moreso than mean girls who allow men to be shitty to women and laugh along, fucking evil-
Sometimes i have murder urges but thankfully for yall i am a sweet princess (◠‿◠✿)
(learn2integrate) No. 1562275
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>>1562256Take that faggot-ass emoji back to whatever uwu sweet princess commune you escaped from, we’re bitches here.
No. 1562276
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Do any other nonas struggle with keeping a clean space when they're really, really depressed? I was on BC for PMDD and it helped a lot, but it made me gain weight, and when I went off of it it made my hair fall out, so I feel like shit right now. I'm on antidepressants again but they haven't started working again, I had stopped taking them for some reason months ago. I'm not on an SSRI so my brain isn't complete mush yet, but if any anons have similar issues, how do you manage? I have a lot of important shit happening in my life right now and I'm just hopelessly depressed, and it is only making matters worse that I live in fucking squalor because I have no motivation to do anything, let alone clean my apartment, besides be on the internet all day. I know I sound really pathetic but I'm struggling hardcore, if anyone has any inspirational self-help talks or advice it'd be really appreciated. I desperately want to operate in a way that normal people do, I just feel too autistic to go out into the world and make friends, so I isolate myself and I inevitably end up like this in the end. I acknowledge that I'm in a horrible place and really badly want to do something about it and fix myself and my life, but maybe I just don't have the willpower. It makes me feel even more horrible about myself than I do normally. It doesn't help that I'm PMSing and I really would have wanted to die anyways even I didn't come to the realization that I'm a giant baby at 22 years old KEK
No. 1562308
>>1562069i've definitely tried to not so subtly bring up his shitty behaviour and they all (except for one other girl in the group) just kinda shrug it off, one of my friends said he thinks its ungrateful of him to say the things he says but i think they mostly try to ignore it because it's a type of situation where they've known him for too long to cut him off for something they've gotten used to. i fucking hate it because all it does is fuel the power trip he gets of people being too scared to leave him in fear of him hurting himself or something else happening. there's like 11 other people in the group and if i were to bring up "hey can we maybe cut off (BPDfriend)? his behaviour is making us all uncomfortable right?" i feel like it'd be a one against everyone situation when some of them have known him for longer than the rest. the group has had no issue cutting off one person entirely over much smaller shit and maybe it's just the attachment to each other but it's like they choose to not acknowledge the things he does just to make themselves more comfortable. it's gross. they're all in their 20's and should know better.
>>1562126holy shit. how you knew his name stars with a K is beyond me. he doesn't seem like the kind of guy to even give a shit about SM, he's not a hypebeast or typical male, he's kind of like a reddit autistic kinda guy into game reviewers and old game consoles along with fighting games, like the person you'd expect to not even use their phone aside from calling their parents. he only started acting like this a couple months after i met him and i think it was because he had a crush on a girl (or girls) with BPD and picked up their behaviours because he'll mostly act like this over minuscule shit (not being included in group outings, someone not including him in general, being ignored for a bit) and women. he does this whole "i'll never get over her abloobloo" thing with every girl he dates / crushes on but then in like a month or two he's with another girl and the previous girl never existed.
god damn i hate moids. No. 1562314
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I have this terrible feeling that my bf might like my sister. I’m praying I’m just paranoid.
I’m working so hard on myself and my self esteem would not be able to take a blow like that.
No. 1562363
The head teacher talked to the old guy's boss about my complaints. Apparently the employees are supposed to check in on the classes a few times a day just to make sure the rooms are indeed being used when they're rented and stuff, but it's supposed to be a quick glance in and leave. She said that his boss was going to talk to him about physically going into the rooms during classes because that is not supposed to happen. I think the rec boss already talked to the old guy because he did not physically come into my room during my classes. He did still open the door (I had it closed), stand there, say "I'm just saying hi!" while we all stared at him (my class then was mainly high schoolers who don't like him). I responded to be polite and then said we needed to continue so if there's nothing else he needed to move on. At first I thought he couldn't hear me and then he finally shifted back and messed with the door stopper thing that holds doors open. I initially thought he was trying to keep the door open so he could look in after he left, only to realize that no, when he had opened the door to peep in he full on put down the stopper so he could fucking stand in the door frame more comfortably. That's how unnaturally long he lingers there.
>Good news: Didn't come in to my earlier classes when I had younger girls for technique classes
>Terrible news: He conveniently chose to drop by during my new class that I was just hired for earlier this week: stretching and flexibility.
Anyway the studio head said that old guy would be leaving in August. I don't know if that means retiring for good or swapping to main actual offices in a different building. Either way good riddance. He can fuck off and die already, and I'm not saying that lightly. From the time when I posted the vent last week and now, I've just gotten angrier. The girls don't deserve this, I wish there was something I could do but because he's not committing any literal crimes beyond being a creep (thank god), there's nothing. Maybe he'll forget and wander into the room in a week or two and then I might be able complain again with some of the older girls so that the offices get pressured into changing the closing employee. My dance teacher said we can put up signs that say "class in session do not disturb" so I'm hoping that'll also deter him. It still grosses me out so much to think that he's basically getting off scot free for "window shopping" as another nona described it. It's so wrong and I feel useless that the most I can do is shut the door, hang up a sign, and complain on the off chance he comes in again.
No. 1562397
>>1562391don't blame yourself
nonnie, sometimes the fits/sizing is fucked up
you should be proud of your weight loss
>"ooooh its so terrible ive lost weight and my boobs shrank" ohhhh its so FUCKING TERRIBLE THEN DAMNIT WHY HASN'T IT HAPPENED TO MEbecause your boobs are actually boobs and not fat, that's why
No. 1562401
>>1562275Speak for yourself
nonnie, there's nothing wrong with being a sweet girl but if you laugh along at men's sexist jokes I spit on your face
No. 1562409
>>1562397Ugh that means Im stuck with big titties?! Noooooooo! (I mean, I know surgical options are out there, but I wont unless necessary for health reasons)
I just wanted to wear this gorgeous dress to celebrate a wonderful day and now I have to go back to the internet and look for a better option. I wish i could go shopping with nonnas
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tomatoes are a goddamn plague t. developed a mild allergy to tomates as an adult and goddamn they are surprisingly difficult to avoid. My college cafeterias idea of a vegetarian option always seems to be "tomato sauce with beans and/or vegetables" no matter what the meat-option is.
No. 1562453
>>1562363Oh thank fuck he's leaving soon
>>1562449I'm with you, OP you're doing a great job sticking up for your students. It's frustrating for me to read, I can't imagine how frustrating it is for you. But you're handling it impressively well
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I haven't really engaged fully into a fandom in years and I've forgotten how hugboxy it is, basically having to walk on eggshells when speaking to anybody, jesus christ.
No. 1562493
>>1562476That is pretty much my life story to a T, I wasn't aware of the redflag thing, seemed more to me like a general redflag but then I'm not interested in anyone who doesn't try to get to know me for me.
blogpost incoming I really relate to this but I honestly don't even want to be social anymore and can't imagine having fun at a social gathering, I just became a shut in and started focusing more on personal/professional projects, studies and hobbies and I don't feel the need to really go out or socialize much. I have fun on my own. I also value being able to choose only kind and genuine people to be close to. I joined this clay sculpting club last year and have met this really sweet girl and I'm so glad our friendship is so respectful and supportive, my circle is limited but it is healthy and we go out sometimes when we aren't all busy.
Honestly the only thing that has affected me is the knowledge that most people esp in this generation are openly assholes and rude for no reason, esp in my country where people have nothing to do but be bitter (i'm sure the heat gets to people's heads somehow), it has put me off interacting with new people and I have a pit in my chest sometimes with the frustration it brings, I'm hoping I can work on that and be at peace but the goal is not to become social, although maybe someday I will be able to laugh it off and go out and have fun that way
No. 1562501
>>1562493I'm really glad someone else resonates to my post and has similar feelings.
I grew really tired of socializing myself and only search for quality people. People tried to pull me in groups with really low quality people and I was fussy and didn't enjoy it,it felt like the time I could dedicate to my hobbies I lost there. I see this wanting to be part of a group happen a lot around me with both men and women, with the women it particularly boggles me because they gossip about eachother behind their backs but they still HAVE TO BE in the group.
Sometimes I wish I was part of a group and I wouldn't get hurt so much by what other people choose, but I just can't settle for people who aren't ok in my book. I've had friendships end because they chose the group, despite me being (or thinking i was) good friends with those people.
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maybe my fate in this life is loneliness
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>>1562476>>1562493Same nonas, my mom was always like "be good to people, and they're going to be good to you" - this isn't true, most people are going to use you if you are good.. I have learned that the hard way and I am sorry you have had experienced that, Nonas
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>>1562476This post could have been written by me as well. I really feel this, nona. You are not alone in this.
No. 1562567
>>1562555>if there's all of these prerequisitesSee that's the thing. Meanwhile moids couldn't care less if it's a random woman, or if you get hit by a truck after they get the deed one.
But even so, it does nothing for women as a whole, I mean. Not just cOOming.
No. 1562577
>>1562553>everytime I thought my finger could do a better job.Kek they literally don't know how to touch the clit, even when they had a couple of relationships with women before you. They rub it with such force like they actually try to scratch it off of your body instead of stimulating it. I also had a guy literally rubbing the spot BETWEEN the entrance to my vagina and my asshole and he was sure it would make me feel good. He also did that with such force it was painful. I had guys telling me their previous partners like that kind of touch to which I responded that they probably lied to them KEK. I never get close to a guy again after he touches me like a piece of dough with literally zero knowledge on anatomy. How many times do I have to give a chance to a scrote in order find at least one that is good at sex? Are women just lying about men being good at sex like they lied to those guys when they said they liked the way they touched them and pushed their clits like you would angrily push a broken vending machine button???
>side effectsThat too. Literally none of the women I know, except me, asked the guys to get tested for STDs. Those scrotes literally carry HPV strands that can give you cervical cancer. A condom won't protect you from catching it. I won't even mention other things.
No. 1562579
>>1562568I see a tip on how to change your perception of your own problems which can be empowering and take a load off your mind when you're drowning. But you're welcome to tell her how to become a social butterfly stacy.
Also you sound a bit moidish with this reasoning..
No. 1562591
>>1562577>Are women just lying about men being good at sexMe personally, I can cum almost every time with any guy as long as I’m on top. So good sex is less about a guy being “good” at it and more about the chemistry and connection we have. Plus cuddling afterwards. Masturbation doesn’t give you that same oxytocin rush.
But I realize I’m in the minority.
No. 1562608
>>1562592Samefagging but it also sounds loaded af with terms like "commiserate" and "pathetic"
You sound like you have this misconception that girls here are trying to hold each other down due to bitterness or not being as knowledgeable and healthy uwu as you and I just wonder where you got that from
No. 1562660
>>1562591If you have such a connection with those guys, do you end up dating them? Doesn't oxytocin or whatever get you attached?
You basically admit it's the cuddling and feels and that you do need to be in a specific position to get the "good" out of it. It just sucks because most men feign a connection and intimacy, and unfortunately women are none-the-wiser.
No. 1562664
>>1562577Yup. And yet I see women make excuses for moids everywhere. I see women who will get defensive when told they shouldn't send nudes to a moids, but he 99.9999% collects nudes like a pokemon card and shows them to his friends or online strangers and can use it against them later.
In fact, MANY men will take a photo of a woman who is sleeping, or stealth a photo somehow while she is nude or having sex, and send it to his friends.
Again, These women always make exceptions and just don't "get it".
I saw a woman get all happy because her moid FWB got her an energy drink before he came over. To her house. To have sex. I'm not even sure I want to laugh, it's so pathetic.
No. 1562672
>>1562004As someone who has witnessed this happen and then those same women later were very bitter about something regarding her own life: She is 100% trying to get you to stoop down to her level because she is miserable.
Women like that will throw you under the bus.
I know men who wait for women they
actually like. Recently my friend got married to a guy who at first wanted to hook up with her, but she put her foot down and said she waits until marriage and left him. Fast forward and he basically begged her to marry him lol. If they had sex early on, I don't think he would have proposed.
100000% she is trying to sabotage you. Trust me.
No. 1562675
>>1562004so just to clarify again: She would love to see you sabotaged. Do not engage. She sounds annoying and damaged. It's okay to realize some people are truly not worth the time of your day. Distance yourself, or find better work where trashy bitter low iq nimrods don't exist.
In fact you can probably get them fired for sexual harassment, but if you're not ready for that yet, just look for something better.
No. 1562682
There's 8 billion people on earth but I don't think we're all actual people. I believe in the whole NPC thing, ie, people existing as fillers for humanity. I want to take this conspiracy further and say that some of those people are on earth to destroy peoples lives, and ultimately unalive themselves. Hear me out. Tell me why I started encountering bullies and shitty people (or people being shitty to me) as soon as I started believing that I was worthless and ugly for xyz reasons? People have always been sweet to me, and sure, some have been rude, but not to this explicit extent. As soon as I delved into spirituality and manifestation theory, these people disappeared out of my life. When I was down I encountered them at work, on the train, on my walks etc. Constantly. And I felt like walking down a flight of steps, the more they showed up in my life, the further down I went. I'm not a narcissist or anything but this shit is so true to me. I think the objective is to make sure that person takes their own life. With how the universe is set up and how crazy it is, I'm not going to go the logical route, sometimes you have to trust your intuition and instincts. I've kept my vibration high and only good things has happened to me so far, no one's been rude or anything. I let my guard down and opened the door to literal demons and learned my lesson.
No. 1562702
>>1562004Why is she caping so hard for him? Are they related or something?
Others already said this but she sounds very insecure to me. Like she's trying to convince both you and herself that she's not less valuable as a person for being promiscuous (like deep down she sees that as a bad thing and her "sex positive" attitude is just cope), and that men aren't treating her like crap, and is trying to make you make the same mistakes she did so she feels better about herself. I really doubt she truly cannot fathom an adult woman not rushing to fuck every male she sees or getting pregnant. Deep down all women know male nature, they're just taught to suppress their instincts and they choose to pretend not to know so they won't suffer from acknowledging the truth.
If she keeps harassing you just be direct in an "agree to disagree" way and tell her that you are not interested until she gives up.
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>>1562682Your philosophy is very Lynchian and if you haven’t watched Twin Peaks (especially the 2017 return) you should do so.
No. 1562729
>>1562558>>1562516I wish we the stoicism to endure it anonnas, like
>>1562563 >>1562579 put it wisely.
>>1562568idk anon, when i try harder is when i fall higher too
>>1562682I believe this too.
No. 1562740
>>1562682What you said toward the 2nd half of your comment sounds like you may have saw what you "see/feel" aka if you think about negativity all the time, sulk, etc, you encounter negativity irl because you're almost seeking it in a way.
BUT I don't mean that to disregard your claim, because you could be VERY well correct. I actually wanted to ask you if you have any tips of getting into spirituality and manifesting and things of that sort, because I've been really down lately and I am starting to believe demons are making their waves toward me.
No. 1562751
>>1562746>I think we already already doomedDecided helplessness is the reason no one takes a stand.
>I'm talking about predators lime psychopathsIf you are genuinely too retarded to understand the concept of bad people not being NPCs then yeah, there is absolutely no point in trying to have a discussion with you when your skull is as thick as a wall and you can't see past your nose.
>hur hur serial killers are NPCs pedophiles are programmed they aren't real people hur hur No. 1562752
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>>1562733This teacher in personal development was talking about law of attraction and why it was a powerful thing (he even inserted some dumb shit about astrophysics to provide scientific basis), istg these are the real normies. Needing to believe in magic is sad when the bare reality is so interesting on its own. It would unironically bore me tf out if reality and events were actually limited or altered by my own perception of them. Takes the zest right out of learning the real mechanics of life not to mention the chilling mystery of the unfathomable
No. 1562756
>>1562734I think it's mainly the fact that the average IQ is really low, that people are depressed and that media in general promotes a very
toxic culture
No. 1562761
>>1562682I'm scared of manifesting because the first and only time I tried to do it, like I wanted my narcissistic coworker to leave/change job, just be fucking gone, she got diagnosed with multiple sclerosis kek. And I was like "This is not what I wanted…" Also, she still works with us and is still narcissistic, and has no symptoms whatsoever
Another thing, when I was younger I really wanted my
abusive mother out of my life. It wasn't even a manifestation, just a very strong wish. And then she got diagnosed with cancer and died. I'm just scared to really wish things because usually I not only not get what I actually wanted but also too extreme.
No. 1562765
>>1562752The law of attraction isn't meant to be worshiped like a diety, and the problem is that people who take things too literally and cannot process emotions are empathy become obsessed with the idea that LOA is some kind of religion. You would never tell a rape
victim, a CSA survivor, etc they manifested what happened to them, or that it was carried out on them by some inevitsble and unstoppable force, some of these heretics are flat out crazy. I agree that LOA can help people change their lives positively but people who revolve their lives around it generally cling to it as their centric personality trait much like a religion and it loses all meaning or positive value. You can introduce a concept to someone but thay doesn't mean they will utilize it properly or use it as anything other than a vague descriptor because they are obsessed with labels and othering themselves.
>>1562761You did not give your coworker multiple sclerosis omfg you're mentally retarded
No. 1562766
>>1562754im not that anon, i dont believe in the law of attraction, im mostly in esoteric and gnostic shit.
>>1562751>too retardedwho loses the forms loses the debate.
anyways anona, call it the worst of human condition, call it whatever you like, there is no solution to evilness and im tired of chasing an utopia that will never be.
No. 1562769
>>1562755I don't have a hard yes or no stance on it.
>>1562764>dimensional jumpingKEK that reminds me years ago I came across a dimensional jumping sunreddit that had a number in the sidebar just and in case that number changed you'd know you had jumped dimensions. I always meant to go back and see if webarchive had previous versions of the page with the number manually changed throughout time or something, but never did so.
No. 1562786
>>1562769That sub got nuked unfortunately. The 2 cups method I first learned about there, I don’t utilize it often but whenever I do it’s happened. My partner is extremely skeptical and rational and not at all spiritual, but he now begs me to “do the cups” with him whenever he’s really concerned about something, simply because it’s never failed us. He thought it was absolutely silly the first couple times and was just humoring me.
Don’t do the mirror method.
No. 1562810
>>1562778You’re right to say No. even if it’s a job you really like there has to be some boundary. You literally have tickets it’s not like they’re gonna reimburse you and more importantly you can’t get those hours of your life back you would have been doing something you enjoy! And work will still be there. Personally I just grew more robust and
toxic resentment for work every time I agreed to cover a shift when I had personal plans. You don’t have to cover.
No. 1562832
>>1562761Sorry that these things happened to you, especially losing your mother to cancer, but you did not do that. Please seek help, this sounds a lot like OCD and it can become debilitating without the right treatment. Also, coincidences exist- you aren't personally responsible for every disaster and minor inconvenience in the lives of others.
>>1562823Think about what you normally do when you're attached to someone and then think about why you decided you won't be able to do something similar when you move. You can call them, message them, talk through social media or whatever. It's best not to expect to visit them in person, or have them visit you- life is expensive as hell right now and not everyone can afford to travel. It doesn't mean you can't still have these people in your life. It's bizarre that you've seemingly decided to cut yourself off completely from people who are important to you.
No. 1562846
>>1562832there are people with whom it would be best for me to let go completely for emotional reasons but I kept postponing this because i fear letting go
the ones closest to me i'll still maintain contact with and even visit
No. 1562910
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Blew up at my mom. Since she's decided to be a self proclaimed conspiracy theorist she's been more insufferable than ever. Every thing I say she has to pipe in saying we'll see about that or how do you know because she knows the truth because she listens to people on fucking rumble and telegram and they would never lie. It reached a boiling point when her friend talked about Henry the 8th to her. My mom got really snotty saying who knews if it is really true if he killed two of his wives. I blew up at her because wtf men have always been in power and had no problems killing women over the tinest reasons. I'm so angry right now.
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how am I supposed to make friends when every time I send/receive a text I become a bundle of nervousness
No. 1562980
I feel pathetic now. I was just lying in my bed and watching a movie and chilling when suddenly I felt a terrible pain in my chest, I wanted to ignore it, because I'm so used to living with chronic pain, I have problems with spine and joints, and every time someone asks me about how I feel and I tell them about the pain they say stuff like 'you're always hurting lol' which makes me feel like the world thinks I'm faking it, so I started telling myself it's not that bad. And this time I also tried to tell myself it's not that bad, but the pain was so strong, it was like something literally pierced through my chest, my heart started beating so fast it felt like it was about to explode, I couldn't stabilize my breath and I started hyperventilating. This torture was going on for like 10 minutes and when I just wasn't able to take it anymore and I was basically sure I'm having a heart attack and I'm dying I went to my housemate's room, knocked on her door and sat on the floor, clutching my chest. She was really scared when she saw me, I was only able to say something like 'can't breathe' and 'heart' and she called an ambulance. Luckily they came to our house pretty quick, tested my heart, sugar levels and my blood pressure, which was only a little high, but my heart was ok. They gave me some painkillers but at this point the pain was a little less terrible anyway (overall the worst part lasted for like 30 minutes), they even took me to the hospital but the doctors there didn't perform any more tests on me, just sthethoscope examination. They told me it was probably intercostal neuralgia. It could happen on its own or it was because of my spine or something. I felt happy it's nothing serious but also so dumb, now I'm scared like I looked like some stereotypical hysterical woman or something. But I really thought I'm dying and I couldn't breathe or talk because of the pain. The doctor lady was very nice and when I said that I panicked and it wasn't even my idea to call an ambulance she told me that there's nothing to be ashamed about and that I had the right to panic if the pain was so severe and sudden. But I still feel like shit for scaring my housemates. Also the doctor told me that if that happens more often I should try to maybe look for some deeper diagnostic. I started reading about neuralgia and it may be caused by many things, not just stress and and muscle tension and spine problems. I hope I don't have any serious condition that caused this shit
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Damn this is me. Unironically happy I have the internet so that I can at least have some sense of connection with people and feel like I have a life.
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Getting a man is not hard almost anyone can get a man. Getting a mutual relationship on balanced footing where the man isn't a monster in sheeps clothing the first few months that will psychologically ruin you? Well when the day comes I will never post here again that is for certain. Maybe.
No. 1563091
>not masculine enough to be super androgynous and hot to lesbian and bi women>masculine enough to be they/them'ed by new peopleSIGH. If I crop the hair I'll just be he/him'ed by normfag boomers again.
Maybe I'll go shoulder-length. If I'm going to seem gender-y I want to at least look appealing.
>>1563024Do you flirt with each other or something?
You're allowed to have long-distance friends.
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kind of self-pitiful unhinged jealous rant incoming…
So me being an autistic, friendless, unpleasant to be around, unremarkable, unintelligent, useless, pathetic waste of time and oxygen is one thing. I could maybe find ways to cope with that on its own. But having a sister that is the complete antithesis to that on top of everything is what's really been making life so insanely unbearable. She has always been a top athlete setting literal records on the sports teams she's been in. She's been finding odd jobs and making her own money since middle school while I'm 19 and haven't done a single thing for myself except for one job I basically got fired from for being so shit with people. She seems to make friends with literally everyone she comes across, strangers legit stop her in public just to gush about her; When I came home for winter break I isolated myself in my room and spoke to no one while she left the house with friends or had people come over every single day- she's always been extremely popular with an extremely vibrant social life, a literal (i can't believe I'm going to say this) gigastacy. The only thing I could say I have going for myself is maybe artistic talent but I don't do jack shit with it and even then she's not a bad artist herself and would probably be leagues ahead of me in skill if she gave any fucks about it. I think things really finally snapped for me when she was accepted into an ivy league a few months ago. My mental health was already incredibly shit but since then I've been filled with little but deep seated anger, hatred, and envy. To top it all off, I can't help but think she knows how shitty I feel. Every single thing she says to me comes off as condescending and taunting. I'll glance at her for a second and if she catches it she'll just look at me and go "hi anon :)" I'll be minding my own business and she'll walk up and initiate a conversation about something she knows I'm insecure about all with a smug smile. She often tells people random completely out of left field stuff about me that aren't even usually true, just based on her own assumptions. And when I call her out on it she’ll just go “hmm I don’t know… :/” instead of dropping it. I don't even want to think about the stuff she says about me when I'm not around. I dread the days I have to come back home from my shitty college and have to be around her. I genuinely don't know what to do about this other than self improvement, but I'm pretty sure I'm at rock bottom right now and I can't stop telling myself that no matter what I do to improve my little sister will always be better than me in every aspect of life.
No. 1563119
>>1563104I came here back in early 2019, in ot, it was chill from what I remember. Very comfy, or maybe just comfy idk. I might be exaggerating it since it's nostalgic to me and I tend to make memories seem better in the present than they actually were. I miss the way it made me feel too even though I wasn't there/here.. ? much bc of my scrote online groomer bf. And also because my house got rekt w water. Also new
toxic frined group that I got introduced to .
No. 1563142
>>1563130Yeah I'm jealous of them too. Must've been comfy back then. I miss the old internet aka 4 - 7 years ago.
>the anons I've met in the movie room have totally changed my life and I feel like I have that online friend group I used to have when I was 13, me and the girls.That sounds adorable! I never really used to have a friend group consisting mainly of girls. I wish I had that, I might just stop being a lazy ass and go to one of the movie airings in the lolcow movie watchings. If I wake up in time.
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My mom is the party pooper, rain on parade, helicopter parent type. I'm going on a trip in a few days and will be gone for a week, I've been super excited and not worried at all. She tells me today that she "has a bad feeling" about it. I had to fight with her to even be "allowed" to go on this trip, keep in mind it's my own money going towards this and I'm 22 years old. It makes me so mad because I feel like she's trying to get in my head and force me to cancel the trip by giving me anxiety since I didn't do what she wanted me to do (which is to not go). I'm determined to go but it really does fuck with my head and I feel like I need to keep her happy all the time, like it's my responsibility to make sure she's fine and not anxious as fuck. She hasn't wanted me to go at all, but it got a lot worse a few days ago when her dumbass realized that I'd be on the plane for 5 hours and not 1 like she thought (this woman is not very smart). My brother died a few years back and now she's a very unwell, anxious woman that hardly lets me leave the house without worrying her head off. But I can't refuse to live my life for her sake and sanity, cause if I do, I lose my own sanity. I wish I had a normal mother who dealt with things in a normal way, I wish she would go to therapy and realize her fears are irrational and only hurting me. I want to have fun and explore life but instead I'm held back by the control of my mother and her guilting me. She's pretty supportive in that she won't tell me no most of the time, but she will tell me a million times how it's a terrible idea and how it makes her upset etc etc, so I end up complying with her. Or she tries to tell me that I'm making bad decisions and that one day she'll tell me "I told you so" (I do nothing bad, at all, I just don't live the way she'd like me to). The one time I fought back and sternly made my own choice, she does this to me in an attempt to freak me out at the last minute. I'm so sick of this shit I just want to be away from her forever without hurting her feelings by fleeing the house. But really, she's never gonna let me go unless I put my foot down and leave. Fuck this, fuck having shitty helicopter parents.
No. 1563149
>>1563148the alternative is hardcore
terf beliefs and an eating disorder
No. 1563150
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the way tims get endlessly, endlessly coddled and pitied and "oh dear'd" but tifs are basically paid…complete dust, or otherwise treated as weird "women" always makes me kek so sadly. none of them will ever realize how fucked up it is
i mean i've never seen anyone hop on a tif with the brave and stunning script outside of a handful of celebs.
also trannies that make it their whole personality are so annoying. can you go ten seconds without mentioning your t/e shot
No. 1563154
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>>1563130>Not going to lie though, the anons I've met in the movie room have totally changed my life and I feel like I have that online friend group I used to have when I was 13, me and the girls.Same, movienonnies are so sweet, I wish I could visit more often. ily all
No. 1563161
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lolcow has become damn near unbearable recently and ive been finding myself reading less and less. i swear 90% of the demographic anymore is people under 21 who see other nonnas say like "18 year old kid" and will lose their minds because they're so close in age that since they feel mature and "18 is adult by da law", they lose their minds over it and then derail the thread to complain. and then beyond the age shit it's just the most boring, nitpicky, bullshit. and you can't even point that out without said 18 yr olds hounding you with "ok moid/troon/scrote" or being called a white knight. like believe it or not seeing a piece of hair in a nude isn't milk. being in my late 20s i understand i need to give these girls some patience but holy fucking shit. grow up lmao
No. 1563280
>>1563270what
>>1563279 said, my college can and will absolutely kick me out if I did that and were to get found out. Just not worth the risk at all.
No. 1563286
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Wanted to make banana bread. Fiancé went to eat one of my four ripe bananas and I said “no, no I need those for banana bread! Eat one of the other ones.” “I’m hungry and don’t want an underripe one.”
Now I’m torn if I should find a new recipe or just say fuck it cause he doesn’t deserve any banana bread now.
No. 1563358
>>1563345No, they were drunk (high?) yelling last night at 2am, and I saw the peephole get dark then light again when I rang their door just before I posted my vent. They've promised to fix the leak twice already, but then started hiding.
There is something wrong with them, this is not nearly the first issue I'm having with them. They may be junkies. Or just brain damaged.
No. 1563431
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I'm sick of anxiety and sick of my brain twisting every single situation into the worst outcome possible. I want to ask him a couple of things to clarify our relationship and know where things stand, but the minimal chance that he might tell me that he has been using me for sex, cheating on me and that he wouldn't care if i dropped dead in front of him stops me from doing it. Does any of that makes sense? absolutely not, but WHAT IF.
No. 1563438
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>mfw family drama that is going just as I predicted it would go because everybody is a fucking lemming
I'm in spectator mode I officially dropped the rope it's a looot more fun now. Enjoy the bed you made for yourselves fucking idiots. Nobody gives a shit what I think so I just won't give my advice or input anymore I'm just laughing. Oh my god the felon child abusing druggie wife beater is doing what he's done 1000x before color me shocked what copes will you guys concoct to cover his ass this time lmfao then they whine to me and I have to stifle my laughter they are just his puppets
No. 1563456
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I hate myself
I have a good career job, a house, a good husband but I'm such a mess of a person. I want to just end it.i wish I was better.
No. 1563463
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>>1563268I am in the same boat
nonnie.
I believe in us, I wanted to finish my thesis by may but it's looking like I have to extend another semester. Putting time on my calendar to work on it has really helped me. we can do this together
No. 1563552
>>1563106Yup. All of my friends hated coming to my house and would tell me "dude your mom is crazy" and would have these elaborate stories that were hilarious to tell for years because I was so casual about it and thought all of it was normal because it was all I knew.
>>1563147Not erasing your feelings or experiences but it might help just a little bit knowing her terror comes from the fear that she will lose another child. Traumatic thinking like that takes a long time to iron out.
No. 1563602
>>1563106 Yeah. Once when I slept over a friend's house they had an earring get caught on a pillow and I was terrified of going to her parents room to wake them up. I was used to my Dad screaming and threatening to beat me whenever I went to my parent's bedroom door at night. I also stopped having birthday parties by the time I was 12, while my cousins are in their 30s now, still renting out places or having get togethers for theirs.
As an adult I'm still avoidant of holidays and milestone events and I 100% blame it on the way I was raised. I feel like I'm incapable of celebrating anything.
No. 1563646
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Another fucking wedding invite. All my family members my age (20s-30s) are marrying off at lightning speed. It all comes so naturally to them. They're all attractive. Yet another wedding where my ugly-ass, awkward-ass self sit cringily alone at the tables sipping a glass of wine while everyone else parties because they aren't self conscious about being ugly as shit. At the last wedding I attended they even closed off the dining hall after eating, and only the dancefloor was open. No seating. I don't know how to dance, so I exited the building and awkwardly walked around in the cold for hours.
No. 1563663
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Fucking bitch really spent nearly a year undercover in a discord server where she fooled around with all the dudes
No. 1564106
>>1564047Could you share the celeb,
nonnie? I'm curious.
No. 1564203
i’m too lazy to find the advice thread if there’s an active one so sorry if this doesn’t totally fit, but this is both “venting” and advice seeking so i guess it does. i know i’m not particularly gonna get the most sound advice on here due to the topic but i genuinely don’t know who else i’d even be able to talk to ab this, but i really need an outside opinion to know if i’m just blowing this out of proportion or if i’m reasonably upset, and how to handle it. i’ve been with my current bf for 5 months but we’ve been great friends for nearly 7 years. he loves me to death, he’s not a slob or a porn addict or most of the other weird shit you have to put up with dating 99% of young men. i say this because idk if i’m just paranoid by spending too much time on reddit and facing the “automatically break up/divorce over any single flaw your partner has” hive mind mentality, using this one negative im venting about define his entire character. people don’t “just break up” with partners that say/do shitty things here and there for a reason. everyone is flawed and all men are socially conditioned from birth to hate women in some way. moving on. my boyfriend pretty much told me he finds vaginas gross. we are both each others first ever relationship. yesterday he was telling me he feels bad bc he never does anything for me during sex, he’s offered to do things before but i’ve declined (not bc i have a problem with the way i look/smell down there or anything, im just a very private person overall and take awhile to get fully comfortable like that). he was telling me he’d do anything besides eat me out. it was totally ok with me, i understood not really wanting someone genitals on/in your mouth lol. however, i don’t really remember how it all went down exactly but he proceeded to ramble about how “disgusted” he would be or whatever, like disproportionate levels of disgust, and it kinda concerned me. not gonna list exactly how the conversation went sentence by sentence cuz this is already kinda too long but he essentially said vaginas look “alien-like” to him, he said he was talking about it with his [male] friend group, i asked him if he thought they were all gross, he hesitated for a long time and kept saying “idk, idk” and then his final answer ended up being “no, but i don’t think i could look at it in direct light” (?). you don’t think they’re all gross but you can’t even look at one? this is what really hurt me. he’s made multiple “fish” jokes in the past. i can tell his entire view of vaginas comes from what other men have told him (who have likely never even had sex and know little to nothing about how vaginas work), because i know for a fact he did not conceive this thought process from me, i’m very confident i do not smell down there lol, and as shitty as this sounds it’s not even really “ugly”, even compared to porn induced standards.i feel like shit. i feel humiliated and embarrassed. i feel grossed out by my own body. i’ve heard thousands of men display their disgust towards vaginas before and idc but something about it being said to me in real life from someone i’ve had sex with hurts me so bad and makes me wonder if that’s what he was thinking every time we’ve been intimate, and knowing there’s nothing i can do to change his mind. and thinking about him gawking about it with his fugly moid friends just makes me so…i don’t even know. i didn’t talk to him much today, but i can tell he didn’t really see any error in what he said to me and i don’t think he feels bad. i don’t know why i’m expecting him to. is this normal? do all men think this way and just put up with it because they want sex?
No. 1564221
>>1564203I would lose all attraction to a man who said something like that. Even leaving aside how offensive and mean it is, it's just immensely unsexy for a straight man to not be enthusiastically attracted to, and into eating, pussy.
Honestly, you've only been together 5 months. Cut your losses and go back to being friends, he's entitled to his boundaries but you aren't obligated to put up with it. Nobody could blame you for being hurt, and who could expect you to continue enjoying sex after that? But don't lose confidence in yourself, normal healthy guys do like vagina and will no doubt like yours.
No. 1564315
>>1562740I, just like anyone else, have felt "depressed" but it wasn't actual depression, just temporary sadness. Last year was the first time I felt actual depression, meaning i struggled to get out of bed, do hygiene, cook food, and get out of my apartment. For the frist time i had thoughts of actually unaliving myself. Again this was very different to emo depression/temporary melancholy. I'm not being dramatic, literally as soon as I attempted to do things and get back into the normal world like work (i worked part-time), go out for a walk, or buy food, literally anything, these shitty people just started coming out the woodwork. The shit I experienced was actually so bad i thought it was a comedy skit. Like wow I'm down this bad and this is happening to me?? It kept happening, at work a guy I had never seen before said my hair looks disgusting, on a walk an guy in a car honked at me crossing the street, drove around 3 times and this the exact same thing. No one was around as this was in like a secluded area. Then i had endless karens be rude to me. Like i said these weren't things not easily picked up on, they were explicit encounters. I have so many more stories.
No. 1564318
>>1562740Manifesting tips that helped me were putting yourself first. If you're in a situation where you're helping or giving your time to unworthy people (shitty bf, stuck in a
toxic job, dealing with
toxic family) cut them off. Any goals you have, short or long term, are achievable if you believe they are. That's the most important part, it's your mind. You tell yourself something is xyz and they will happen. I use manifesting to achieve my goals, but to also identify people or situations that are shitty. For instance, I had this professor who failed me multiple times, and this year I passed when we changed professors and he is now literally dying from cancer. Moral of the story here is that you never give up your dreams, if you do, bad things continue to happen to you while good things happen to bad people. It's all about balance. Crazy take but i wholeheartedly believe bad people feed off the energy of good people quitting and giving up, look at the homeless statistic and their death rate. And the demons that show up in our lives when we are down are working for them. Keep your vibration high, if you want to do xyz things today when you wake up, DO THEM. The doubt you have is coming from the people who profit from you giving up.
No. 1564371
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I had a lot of intense suicidal thoughts recently. I dread going to bed or doing something that leaves me alone with my thoughts because I immediately think of killing myself. My only friend lives like 3 hours away and besides her I'm completely alone. I don't wanna kill myself obviously but idk it's like my brain produces these fantasies against my will.
No. 1564465
>>1564203I understand what you're saying in the beginning anon, I really do. But don't let the internet fool you, there are a lot of men who are hard working, not porn addicted and nice and admirable people, you just gotta avoid the obvious bottom of the barrel.
As to your bf I honestly would break up with someone who said something like that, I wouldn't even try to discuss it honestly because no way I'm lowering myself to trying to convince someone to not find my pussy gross.
I know you might not want to break up over something like this, but it will become a problem and it's such a glary display of cluelessness and "privilege". Why does a man think he can tell his girlfriend that he finds one of her sexual organs gross in such detail and with such disregard to her feelings? He's either emotionally stunted or completely indifferent and slightly misogynistic (at best). I've dated all kinds of men and a smart and thoughtful person would keep that shit to themselves or discuss it with more tact. Your boyfriend shouldn't feel that confident talking to you like that, it shows clear indifference to how you feel. I mean he expects you to listen to him ramble about how gross vaginas are? Not to mention the fish jokes.
I would say break up because he doesn't seem that nice even by male standards, and also i'm not bullshitting you anon there's a man out there who is perfect for you and will have the basic intelligence and emotional maturity never to make you upset for stupid useless rants like this, I mean what the fuck did he want? For you to laugh along? For you to validate him and tell him it's okay? My theory is that he only wanted to subject you to it to hurt you and let you know how he feels (which might seem far fetched but it's not necessarily conscious on his end, just a dick move). I say this with absolutely no condescension but you sound young and I hope you learn to value yourself and never turn back.
No. 1564472
My batshit crazy ex I briefly dated before I realised he’s insane got really fat and ugly as he hit 30 kek
He used to say sexist shit about women’s looks all the time so it’s karma. He used to shit on women for being too ugly, old, too fat, looking like “dykes” and so on. When we split up he sent me edited pictures of his female friend claiming it’s his new gf. He edited her boobs and waist but being a dumbfuck he is, he left in so many squiggly lines behind her it was obvious and pretty comical. And the friend didn’t even know he was using her in such a creepy way like this. He later said he had cancer and his mom also got cancer so he was stressed and that’s why he did it (both were a lie).
He used to be a ripped not bad looking manlet, now he’s a round tiny fatty with bow legs, and his face really bloated up. I guess that’s what a life time of smoking, eating junk and drinking so much gets you. He got a long distance gf and I honestly feel bad for her because they recently moved in and I know he’s abusive as shit, even physically, but from what I’ve seen she seems as a bit of an entertaining lolcow too, I’m waiting for the dramatic shit slinging breakup. I don’t understand how anyone can stand him for more than a few months, but I guess she has no choice when she moved in from another country with no job other than tracing art and trying to sell it to her 500 followers.
I do really have fun stalking his socials from time to time because every time I check there’s some new drama or some dumb idiotic shit he’s doing, like trying to become an Asian Rap Idol but being booed off the underground stage for getting blackout drunk and repeatedly telling every other rapper he wants to kill them (because he didn’t understand what rap battle means), trying to be a freelance comedian but getting only comments about how cringe he is because he doesn’t have enough brain cells to tell a joke and so on kekk, I can’t wait to see how he’ll end up. He’s such a cow.
No. 1564473
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Woke up from a dream about my sexual abuser, I can't fucking escape him, leave me alone please go away please PLEASE
No. 1564476
>>1564203That's a long way of saying your bf is gay. He's deeply into men anon
>>1564474Male
No. 1564478
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I was gonna start working out this week, tryna bulk, but I got my period and it's so heavy so now I'm not gonna want to even touch the gym till it's over. How do you nonnas exercise and bleed idgi
No. 1564483
>>1564478I feel you
nonnie, I bloat and feel like a pig during my period, then I sweat like a waterfall and drop the 8-9 lbs of water I retain
I still train on my period but I usually reduce the volume if I feel weak. Even a half ass workout is better than no workout when I'm bleeding
No. 1564484
>>1564478I usually skip the first day of my period. Rest and recover, then hit it hard once the worst part is over. GL
nonnie!
No. 1564495
>>1564203Since everyone else is saying to dump his ass (and personally I agree), I suppose if you think that he's actually half decent you should just have an open conversation about it.
Talk to him and ask him how he would feel if you said his dick smelt and you could never look at it in direct light, and the effect that would have on his self esteem. He might realise what he said was hurtful and hopefully learn for the future, if he doubles down then he sounds like a real piece of shit.
No. 1564498
>>1564494shit
nonnie, where do you live? aren't there any university or school programs you can join to escape to a city?
No. 1564500
>>1564486Don't let it get to you
nonnie, the only reason those streaks exist are to get you hooked and feel like you have to spend time (and more importantly, money). It's cool you can keep it up for so long, but don't let their psychological manipulation get you down.
No. 1564574
>>1564556What are you trying to use? I'm still a beginner but I've found a lot of Godot tutorials to be high quality, maybe because there's less of them.
This one really got me into Godot
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mAbG8Oi-SvQ&list=PL9FzW-m48fn2SlrW0KoLT4n5egNdX-W9a you kind of need to know some programming basics but it's relatively beginner friendly.
No. 1564581
>>1564574I'm trying to learn unity and c#
I picked unity because it's the most popular so I assumed there would be a tone of good tutorials for a complete beginner like myself but I'm now too paranoid about being stuck in "tutorial hell"
I started watching a bunch of videos shitting on the guides people make on youtube that are obvious attempts to get views from beginners (like myself) without actually teaching them anything.
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I have been wanting to kill myself for 6 years now and have failed 10 attempts in all that time. I feel like a retard for failing so many times and it makes me feel "not serious enough" about my own pain. I don't want to worry loved ones so I don't tell anyone. Pills don't help. Psychiatric hospitals don't help. I just wanna succeed at suicide but I live with people in a fully suicide-proof house. Every day feels the same and the nightmare never ends. I'm 20 and studying from home (HIGH SCHOOL still) and i feel like a deadbeat loser. I have dreams but I consider them unattainable. Depression won
No. 1564608
>>1564597Then I should’ve killed myself when I repeated a whole ass year in uni with two classes, I graduated just a while ago and I’m 27, so “old”.
Like the other anon, I know this isn’t going to magically cure you, but think about it. Wouldn’t it be worse if you weren’t even trying to study regardless of your depression and suicidal thoughts?
Your pain is real, and the fact that you’ve tried to kill yourself so many times is proof that you need sincere help, succeeding in killing yourself will hurt your loved ones more than you telling them that you’re depressed and that you need help.
No. 1564668
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i hate that i was such a pickme and gave up my virginity to a 28 year old moidaloid when i was 14. i met him from 4chan and i let him sell me the lie of being a ~tradwife~ and in return he would get me away from my alcoholic wifebeater LITERAL cuckold father and my handmaiden stepmom and take care of me. we met up and he took me away to his house and then his apartment and i met his mother. she was fine with it because she was an eastern european immigrant just like my parents and the culture is different there. it was okay but he was really mean and retarded. he’d get mad at me for my voice being too high pitched when i spoke to waiters and being too short because “nooo people will think that you’re a child and that i’m a creep.” YEAH BECAUSE YOU ARE. he crashed his car and blamed me because if i had gotten up earlier he wouldn’t have been driving in the dark and if he hadn’t been driving in the dark he would have seen where he was going. he got mad at me because i cooked him a meal at his request but then didn’t want to eat any of it myself because i don’t like cheese and it upsets my stomach. he didn’t want me to eat fattening foods anyways (even though i was 80 lbs at the time.) maybe that part was my fault… but i feel like it shouldn’t have been such a big deal. he said i look like a hooker for wearing the exact sundress in picrel (with white tights underneath) and made me wear a huge sweater in 90 degree weather while walking along the beach where every other girl my age was wearing a swimsuit to “protect me from black men.” then on the beach walk we saw a girl toddler who was maybe 3 years old tops. and he started giggling and saying to me that he thought she was looking at him and desiring him sexually. he called me a “cunny” every time during sex and basically found me attractive because i looked like a little girl. that’s when i knew i had made a mistake going to LA with him but i stayed until the cops found out because i felt like i had invested too much to leave (my virginity). the whole reason i went with him in the first place is because i figured since i was so conventionally pretty and he was considered ugly by everyone, even other 4chan moids, he would be grateful and not treat me badly as long as i did what he asked. now i don’t really know what to do, i had dropped out of school and shut myself into my house for a few years and now i’m trying to be more normal again, hanging out with my female irl friend, going on normal outings, but i feel like i will never really get over this. i can just imagine him laughing being so smug that he finally got to take a 14 year old’s virginity and ruin her for future partners. although i don’t know if he’s that smug considering he got in trouble with his coworkers and lost his friends. it just bothers me even though i know i should stop worrying about it.
No. 1564671
>>1564597Watch the documentary "How To Change Your Mind" on Netflix. If you don't have Netflix, i've got the free streaming site hookup. Consider microdosing shrooms, and/or working up to slightly bigger doses, as there's been some great breakthrough studies where psychedelics, in controlled doses and settings, have helped people overcome their traumas, major depression, anxiety, substance abuse, PTSD, etc. I'm one of them. Psychedelic therapy is still in the beginning stages and not widely utilized yet, and when they do start making it more of a thing (like they're beginning to in Australia and Canada, I think?), it's likely going to cost a ridiculous amount even though mushrooms are cheap and relatively easy to grow discreetly in a plastic bin in your closet. I've got the hookup for resources (supplies/info for growing your own, and buying in the form of capsules or chocolate from Canada/California shipped discreetly via a legal loophole, assuming you're a burgerfag) so you'd never have to contact shady people on the streets to get them. There's nothing to be afraid of as long as you're well informed and take things slowly. Although I can't recommend it for those with Bipolar 2 or Schizophrenia, since it can
trigger or worsen hallucinations and delusions of grandeur in individuals suffering from those. And while it's not a cure-all, it sure does help not to be bogged down by anxiety and depression anymore. My last dose was 1g 3 weeks ago, and it was more of an emotional trip with light visuals (brighter lights, colors and patterns popping on my wallpaper). I feel normal for the first time in ages and the positive effects have since stayed with me.
No. 1564728
>>1564668You need to get help. Plus virginity is a scam made to scare women by making them think that their value depends on remaining pure, when in reality you will always be more valuable than any moid just because you’re a woman.
I hope that moid gets raped and stabbed in his ass repeatedly.
No. 1564766
>>1564698>>1564725>>1564747wtf is wrong with you people, i was simply shocked and scared of what happened to her, why does a reaction image
trigger you so much
No. 1564783
>>1564778when I was young the boys definitely didn’t want me at all but I still never fell for being groomed because I was extremely shallow despite not being attractive myself. I think if a hot 21-24 year old hit on me when I was 13-15 I would’ve fell for it but those guys didn’t want me either. Not to
victim blame but I really wonder what mental illnesses these young women and girls have going on to consent to sex with someone hideous, old and fat and not want to throw up everytime.
No. 1564806
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>>1564791that shit literally doesn't matter at all what an appallingly scrotebrained thing to say, and also you're wrong
No. 1564808
>>1564791most of the time when it gets discovered is when it's not an ugly woman, you mean.
when it is an attractive women, the boys either share the information with their friends and word gets out, or the parents find out and report it.
it is socially acceptable and encouraged for females to groom and/or rape boys because adult males wish it happened to them as a child. and, if it does happen and the boy is upset about it and tries to speak of it, they get told how lucky they are and how they need to be proud and happy about it. leading to boys who are groomed or raped to not speak out about it because they'll be dismissed by the males around them.
the percentages, of course, are far lower than adult males doing the same, either to girls or boys. it is so uncommon which is why it is fetishized so much by males.
No. 1564846
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Wtf how did OP's vent turn into a discussion over who has the most attractive groomers or victims. lc is so wild sometimes, but not in the fun way.
No. 1564847
>>1564841pretty sure you weren't treated badly
because of your looks
No. 1564855
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>>1564846i made the original grooming post that attracted these replies and its so DUMB. old moids that like kids often do not discriminate on the attractiveness of the kid. whoever is saying that only “attractive” children get molested must be an actual scrote. in fact ive known some pedophiles that intentionally target fat kids, kids from low income families, kids with insecurities or bad relationship with their parents (that’s what i was like) because they see them as easier prey.
No. 1564863
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i feel so alone, i have trouble making friends i only have my 2 best friends and ive been seeing a guy but i just dont think its working because he is a "private" guy who will never post me but it was fine to flirt with another girl publicly before we were together
i was thinking about making him cookies when i saw him again as hes about to leave for a week vacation but knowing hes embarrassed of me hurts me to my core so deeply i just never want to deal with the shame of facing him ever again
no man is capable of love in todays world
No. 1564879
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We should do a bingo for vent thread topics that get started by or attract moids/trannies like shit attracts flies. The new board software can't come soon enough.
No. 1564883
>>1564881so
>>1564791>>1564783weren't you? stop trying to gaslight, you sound like a groomer
No. 1564884
>>1564611I'll go through them
I hope it at least removes the confusion
No. 1564893
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>>1564889and what is your excuse for
>>1564791? lol hope you get picked "sis"
No. 1564929
>>1564895retarded moid or giga pick-me.
>>1564899stop right there. this thread's only big enough for one bait.
No. 1564971
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Exposure therapy is fake and gay. I can go on a week long vacation by myself but still cannot go for a walk down the block without my heart going 1000mph and hyperventilating at the thought of passing a stranger.
No. 1565099
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>>1565066Hahaha that's actually depressingly reassuring, some people (me) turn out stunted regardless it seems. Meds made it bearable but functionally worse. Thanks for replying to a lil old retard.
No. 1565123
>>1564971I feel the same
nonnie. Exposure therapy made me way better at things which I didn't have much practice at I guess, but the core things I would avoid I have the exact same response to. I feel like I will never improve in those areas.
No. 1565254
>>1565123>>1565116>>1565099I’m not a therapist and it’s not my area of expertise I just have read exposure therapy has limited rates of success in limited circumstances and that has held true for me personally as well. Seems like something that has its place and
could work, but depends on a lot of variables. In a common-sense sort of logical way it seems obvious exposing someone to their main stressors with no other guidance or coping mechanism would be a disaster unless you’re trying to make them catatonic.
No. 1565310
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why does every single fucking show in recent years has nudity in them it serves no purpose i fucking hate i just wanna wtch an interesting spooky plot without some random unneccesary sex scene in it my rage is endless
No. 1565420
>>1565414Ok, I was talking about children who get groomed. When
male children get groomed they don't want to beat up their abuser either. Grooming doesn't involve physically threatening the
victim.
No. 1565422
>>1565332NTA but the post they replied to said
>>1564939>boy or girland the second anon, who is a woman, is saying that it was traumatizing for her when she was a girl despite the groomer being a woman. Like I could see how it's different with teen boys but a teen girl would most likely still be traumatized even if the predator was also the same sex.
No. 1565430
>>1565420a 14yo scrote isnt a children. I am sorry but i just cannot see them as
victims on the same level as a girl, unless they get groome by another men.
No. 1565441
>>1565430A 14 year old is a child. And majority male CSA
victims are abused by men. If you don't think 14 year olds are children or that a 14 isn't victimized by an adult raping them, you have a lot in common with scrote pedophiles.
No. 1565444
>>1565437yeah because so many women stab men in their sleep, unlike men who never ever stab women. The physical difference is obvious between a man and a girl, again, 14yo scrotes ande even younger have stabbed older women to death. Why do you think male
victims and female attackers are so rare? thats why no female serial rapist exists.
No. 1565445
How did an anon posting about being groomed even turn into anons talking about how they couldn't get groomed because of their standards? Do you want a cookie or something?
>>1564939Idk how anons can seriously get on here and say that a girl getting into a relationship with a older woman wouldn't be traumatizing. How much has to go wrong in your life for you to seriously be in defense of predators just because they're a woman? Being groomed and children/teenagers getting into relationships with older people is traumatizing regardless of gender. You're all so fucking mentally stunted, I hate this site.
No. 1565449
>>1565444I think it's a combination of female socialisation and hormonal differences. If you read about TIFs you see a lot of them saying that test makes them far more aggressive and assertive, and some say it makes their sexual urges difficult to control.
None of that is terribly relevant to an
abusive relationship because they only very rarely run on physical coercion, though physical abuse may be involved.
No. 1565462
>>1565450This. They only use it when they want to feel like
victims. Literally the only time moids bring up women pedophiles is when they want to be seen as the
victims and ''destroy feminists with facts and logic'' by citing like 2 rare cases from 10 years ago of a teacher sleeping with a student and using it to show how ''males are
victim of gender violence too'' but they always forget to say how 99% of boys are raped by other moids, not women. Men arent afraid of women, there is no teen boy who lives scared of being groomed by the older teacher.
>>1565452nah moids arent innocent or retarded, they already watch hardcore porn by 12yo.
>>1565453The point is teen boys getting abused by women is extremely rare, and even then in most of the cases the female pedos were caught because the guys were bragging about it. They arent traumatized like female grooming
victims. Thats why most of the abusers are hot women, those scrotes would have beat the shit of them if they were ugly old women.
No. 1565500
>>1565482I didn't mean you as in
you, tardo. I don't like people who like children regardless of what trauma the
victim has. Idk why that's getting you upset.
No. 1565504
>>1565485I have a hard time believing it isnt a male lapping because wtf
>>1565493This is tragic and horrible and im aware it happened. That does not mean all 14 year old boys are thinking about rape and murder. They are thinking about fortnite and pizza day at school.
No. 1565510
>>1565500I dont know how you twist ''scrotes arent perpetual
victims like girls'' to me being somehow in favour of pedos. It's factually true that female pedos are one in a million and that men arent scared of getting raped by women.
>>1565504>This is tragic and horrible and im aware it happened. That does not mean all 14 year old boys are thinking about rape and murder. They are thinking about fortnite and pizza day at school.very weird you forgot the part where they consume rape on video too, huh?. I am tired of people babying teen scrotes, they are disgusting. I am sorry you have a younger brother who you see as a baby, but i assure you if you check his browser history he probably has like 50 pages of porn. Young scrotes are beyond salvation.
No. 1565633
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>>1564998my grandfather was 14 when he married my 21 year old grandmother and he was the strongest and best man I know, that's my evidince
No. 1565650
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I finally got banned from the r/bisexual subreddit for "cissexism" for stating that I in fact am not attracted to TiMs/TiFs. That subreddit keeps trying to shove down your throat that if you're bi you HAVE to be attracted to trannies, no exceptions. This is all I said, good riddance to that shit hole.
>That's gonna be a no from me, sorry y'all. I know it's reddit's modus operandi to ban someone the second they express a different preference from everyone else but it really shouldn't be that controversial. I'm still bisexual even if I don't find imitation genitals to be attractive.
No. 1565813
>>1565633ntayrt but see
>>1565422How tf is this argument still going on when the original post being discussed mentioned female
victims, not even males exclusively
No. 1565909
>>1565867Sweden. It's the same situation here. I visited london in 05 and it looks like that now in major Swedish cities. The white flight is real. Midday you see all these immigrant men who literally have no jobs just maraude around the city. It's scary as fuck.
>>1565868Yeah i have 3 brothers, all of them are loser criminals with nothing going for them, 2 of them live with my mom who still babies them although they're in their 20s and one in his mid 30's. It's fucking disgusting. My older sister went to college but succumed to the family pressure of marrying a low IQ moid so she dropped out of university. My little sister is doing well. Immigrant moids should be deported back to their countries. Imagine being a whole moid and you run like a bitch to "the enemys" Christian country and do nothing but commit crime, live off benefits because you made a poor woman pregnant 150 times. Fuck off. They are the weakest bitches on the planet and should be culled out of humanity. Useless ugly bitches.
No. 1565936
>>1565909I live in a muslim country. If I had a penny for every time a weed addicted late 20's scrote who lives with his mom has tried to order me around and forbid me from stuff just because we're in the same building I'd have 2 pennies but it's pretty funny it has happened twice.
The first time the guy was always yelling about me going out at night (to go to the store or study with friends lol not that it even matters) and ended up yelling at this one male classmate I hate to bring over, I was inexperienced so I went the cordial way and talked it out with him and his mom. During the talk he said his friends would make fun of him if he let a girl bring boys over on his apartment complex…
The second one I have never spoken to but he recently tried to force an altercation with me by implying I was looking at him funny (I was actually browsing lolcow and didnt even look up lol) my theory is that he only did that so he could yell at me about what he imagines my lifestyle to be (in my country there's a misconception that female college students are automatically sluts because they live alone before marriage) I just ignored him this time and his mom ended up apologizing to me.
They are truly the worst breed of men
No. 1565952
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>mental health went to shitter 2 years ago and developed psychosis
>cut everyone off due to paranoia and didn't realize how bad it was until i was hallucinating
>husband's friend's gf and i were talking at this time
>she got mad at me when i didn't respond to her for a week
>didn't know how to tell her i was struggling and she was obviously annoyed and started being petty by ignoring me for weeks and going "haha sooorrry! just so busy!"
>don't care if i don't get a response back in 0.5 seconds the mocking was just weird
>eventually we stop talking entirely
>i get help and start to be stable again
>reach out to her since she's marrying my husbands friend and apologize and tell her i was embarrassed about my issues and i was going through a lot i didn't realize how bad it all was
>she's very kind and receptive and we talk a lot
>they're moving in 3 weeks
>try to organize just a coffee and talk at our place
>she blows me off 2 different times and the second she moves out of state she ghosts me
>her husband never follows me back either, she never likes any of my posts
>know she's active because she sees my stories
I don't even mind, if you don't want to talk or be friends just say that. I'm just glad i was the "bigger person" and atleast apologized and explained. that was the worst time of my life and i'm still dealing with hallucinations and paranoid thoughts but i'm self aware so i'm doing better. I just don't understand being so fake.
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I failed my driver's license test, I feel like pure shit now lol
No. 1566040
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I've been feeling VERY anxious the whole day and I hate it so much. My stomach hurts and I'm feeling dizzy. I want this feeling to go away reeee. I've had more days like this than usual lately, but today is extremely bad.
No. 1566052
>>1566040Get a bowl of cold water, close your eyes, hold your breath, and dip your face into it. Stay under for thirty seconds (or as long as you can hold your breath), surface, and breath through your nose. Repeat as needed. You'll
trigger your mammalian diving reflex and it will calm your body down no matter how your brain tries to fight it. It works better if your body senses the cold water touching your nostrils, but if you're going to choke, it's better to plug your nose than choke, cause that will just stress you out more.
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>>1566080Your mental illness is real and I am angry for how the “system” in place is handling it. If I may, please try to find local group meetings for anxiety /depression, and just know I, anon of the internet, am proud of you for trying to get help.
It will be ok sweet nonna, I promise you will feel better in enough time. Youre not an imposter. You are a survivor.
Keep coming back and posting. All us ladies are here for you
No. 1566139
>>1566102Some women are really weird about children's/teens' looks. I noticed it with some teachers that would sexualize/shame some girls, for example, my middle school homeroom teacher told my classmate in the 6th grade that she should shave her legs, told my other classmate to "hide her boobs" with a smile when she was in a tight long sleeve shirt (and, I believe, a bra, so…). Some adult women would point out flaws in my looks and kind of mock me for them when I wasn't older than 10, not even flaws though but normal things as well, like my hairy pits that I just hadn't been shaving yet. The weirdest thing I experienced was my mom occasionally asking "why are your breasts so small?… well maybe it'll change when you get pregnant!" when I was a teen. Funny thing is even then, despite body dysmorphia and so on, I would just get confused because it seemed absolutely ridiculous and uncalled for: first of all, why would she even care, and second, they aren't even small, they're average and proportionate to the rest of my body.
Also one thing I find extremely annoying is when you're normal weight, not even close to underweight, and some women would react like you're almost a skeleton and you should eat a lot more. Just give a normal compliment if that's what you're implying or shut up.
I'm not sure about competition, in some cases probably yes, but it just seems like a projection of insecurities.
No. 1566161
>>1566153>>1566139There are the same types of women who let their moids do fucked up shit and then
victim blame or blatantly downplay it. I fucking resent this shit.
No. 1566164
>>1566133Someone has paranoid episode.
>>1566153Jeez. Anon this made me think about swimwear tops for children, does anyone else find them weird? I wasn't wearing top piece when I was little because it seemed useless and also uncomfortable. I don't understand why it exists at all. I also remember reading somewhere (maybe even on lolcow) a post by a trans that was remembering how he felt "different" as a child and all that and one of the things that allegedly made him more of a "girl" is that he was uncomfortable in the public swimming pools because of uncovered nipples. Like it's something instinctual for women or whatever… I NEVER felt uncomfortable about that. It was news to me that it was apparently not ladylike to go around topless when I heard it from my cousiness for the first (and last) time.
No. 1566166
>>1564757Hey
nonny, I gotchu, hopefully this isn't against the rules… r/unclebenstek for an easy beginner method using uncle bens 90 second rice bags. There's a guide with links to where you can get growing supplies pinned at the top. You'll also want to look at r/shrooms, r/contamfam (for learning how to avoid and identify various types of contam that can happen), r/psilocybinmushrooms, and r/microdosing for more info here and there. 90secondmycology on youtube has handy video guides that break the uncle bens tek process down in an easy to understand format. For spores I recommend r/millywyco, it's the subreddit for the most kind, trustworthy, and reliable spore vendor i've used and they often post promo codes for their site and updates in the posts there. The deals are really good and affordable. They sell regular edible mushroom spores like oysters and chicken of the woods, too. They have a lot of good deals.
The only thing is if you're in CA, GA, or ID they don't ship active (cubensis variety) spores there. However, I have two legitimate online sources that discreetly ship chocolate, capsules, and teas to anywhere in the US that even people in red states haven't had issues with. I wouldn't trust most online vendors though especially with chocolate because they tend to use synthetic shroom compounds that most people tend to have a bad reaction to, understandably.
Things to note- look up 90secmycology's oven pasteurization technique for substrate. Buy Zoo Med Eco Earth brand loose coco coir on Amazon (or your local pet supply), it's the easiest to work with and the bricks version from the Coco Bliss brand seems to come with fungus gnat eggs that cause people issues when they hatch. And when you get to the fruiting stage of the mushrooms, keep a plastic spray bottle with a mixture of water and lavender essential oil to spray around your grow area to deter any gnats that might wander in looking to lay eggs. They hate the smell, and works for other pests too. These are some things I didn't see mentioned in the main guide but what are helpful tips i've picked up.
No. 1566199
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>>1566191
Thank you so much shroom anon
No. 1566200
>>1566174Depending on your country, there are some European vendors you could look into. This site is also a good resource but less beginner friendly imo, yet since you already have experience in a similar field I think you'd likely do well with the more traditional methods that are challenging for newbies. If your country doesn't have a death penalty or something, you can check these forums or google what the experiences of other people located in your country have been when buying.
https://www.shroomery.org/sponsors.php>>1566199Also edited because my phrasing sounded weird lol but, mush love <3
No. 1566245
>>1565909>2 of them live with my mom who still babies them although they're in their 20s and one in his mid 30's.A classic. I don't know your brothers but I already hate them, I can already picture them in my head. Not all the guys are like this in my country but the ones who aren't tend to also avoid being associated with this shit, they're almost invisible.
I'm not sure we can call them immigrants here though, most of us are second or third gen at this point, but I have noticed that many 1st or 2nd gens, the ones that are old or gen X at the youngest tend to be religious but more openminded than the zoomers and younger millenials. It's super weird, it's like the younger ones who are obsessed with Islam have a complex over not feeling like they're really maghrebi so they try to compensate by acting in ways their parents find backwards, my youngest sister is trying to preach to us bs about Islam but as soon as she mentioned the hijab our mother yelled at her that if she starts wearing one she'd disown her, despite my mother being religious herself. Is your community like that too? Here in France it's complicated because many Algerians moved to France when Algeria was still a colony long ago so it kind of depends on families too.
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>>1566295Bless you nonita, hugs to you and I’m sorry you’re going through a similar situation! I’m sure we would (perhaps will) be better off on our own, but that doesn’t diminish the sadness over the matter, or the work it will take to get to that point of being better off. It’s okay to take time, think about things and definitely to discuss things as well, I may discuss things with my partner when I next see him in person. That’s the worst though, when we’re together and he lets his guard down things are wonderful and make me very happy, but the sly comments, or simply when I go home and he then appears cold and distant, it’s like I’m living in two worlds. It is all tough, but I am sure we deserve better! Big hugs and love to you nonna, I hope you get through your situation with strength however you can!
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Am I a psychopath for not throwing out or otherwise getting rid of gifts and possessions that were given to me by exes?
Apparently some people think it's very strange that I like to hold onto these things and that I don't have a dramatic selloff or burn of them.
Tbh I don't even want to give back the engagement ring from my ex, even though court is forcing me to, because I designed the ring and I think it's lovely-fucko just happened to have paid for it.
It's like I separate the object from the person so I can still see it for what it is and if it brings value to me. At worst I see it as a totem of happier times and a show about how someone cared about me at one point. But apparently, this makes me very, very weird that I'm not emotionally repulsed or devastated by these things.
No. 1566323
>>1566166Where can I order shroom chocolate and tea from,
nonny?? I don’t have a space for growing but I’d love to try some in the comfort of my home
No. 1566354
>>1566323Google S c h e d u l e 35, use code Trinity15 for 15% off (some random youtuber's code I found). There's a warning about individual state laws but seriously, unless you're screaming about it from the rooftops, no one's going to intercept it or know. The teas are quite expensive but I recommend the microdose starter kit if you're new to it because it's priced well, especially with the promo code. Start slow with a microdose to see how you feel for a week, and work your way up to maybe 1 gram with breaks in between to avoid building up too much of a tolerance. A popular microdosing schedule is 4 days on, 3 days off. Microdosing gives a subtle emotional effect, and is anything below 500mg, so you won't get visuals. 500-1g is a mini or light dose, and pretty safe for beginners. Colors are brighter, and you may see geometrical patterns. They use the Golden Teacher strain, which is safe for beginners generally as it doesn't have as high of a potency as something like APE (albino penis envy- doesn't mean it still can't kick your ass if you overdo it the first time). You can find more info on the subreddits I mentioned about dosing, just stay informed and safe. 1.5-2g is considered a moderate dose, and you will get visuals. Sometimes, the emotional trips will make you cry and reflect on yourself but afterwards, it's like a rainfall that clears away all the dirt and grime you can't normally reach from the nooks and crannies of your spirit. Anything after 2g is a heavy dose, which I don't recommend for beginners to partake in unsupervised.
Generally, you have nothing to be afraid of as long as you have the right setting and mindset and take it slow and responsibly. If you're taking certain medications like MAOis or SSRIs, the potency can be inhibited and some people need to take more (not recommended as it's somewhat of a gamble) or else end up not feeling much at all. Otherwise, just do some research. Some people feel nausea on the comeup because of something called chitin which is hard for us to break down on our own, just make sure you eat a banana or two before hand and sometime in between or perthaps a small meal 1-2 hours before.Some people take Dramamine? I haven't tried that yet.
The other site is h e r b a l - a l c h m e m y dot m y b i g c o m m e r c e dot c o m
Sorry for the retarded spacing but I don't want the google algorithm picking up on it so easily.
No. 1566417
>>1566068It is the vent thread but yeah when I read shit like that im like do you want a cookie? All bitches go through trials and tribulations, drop the Life Is A Simulation thing and breathe.
>>1566250Lots of moms are like that. It sounds impossible but it's possible to distance yourself and learn to accept it for what it is and that she is a mentally ill and flawed individual and leave it at that. Its hard and takes a lot of personal work but it's better than feeling like whatever tf this is.
No. 1566421
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idk if its trauma or a personality disorder or mental disorder or just being fucked from from growing up terminally online and a NEET but there is something off with me. I can't sustain relationships. It's my biggest fear but deep down I know that its true because I can't keep friendships and I've never had a relationship. I'm going to be 30 soon, I used to think I was just "growing out" of being awkward but I'm at like half my life at this point. I've done loads of therapy and I'm objectively better than I was but I'm still behind. I'm still off, compared to my peers. I still can't maintain long term friendships. I've still never had a partner.
I can fake being normal really, really well at this point. I think everyone I know would be absolutely shocked at how I live my life privately lol. How its mostly empty and online because being around people is so complicated. It's pathetic but I was watching that Netflix documentary Love on the Spectrum (I would not recommend it, it's super corny and exploitative) but smthn one of the autistic women said really resonated with me like shook me to my core. The film crew asked her to describe what having autism and socializing felt like, and she said that it felt like being trapped inside of a bubble. And you can see everyone around you outside of your bubble, and you copy them and try to act like they do, but you're still just always aware that you're in the bubble. You're always on the inside looking out, and you want so badly to be out of it but you just aren't.
I don't know if that's an autistic thing or just a "human who doesn't fit in thing" but I tear up just thinking about it bc goddamn. Yeah. That's exactly what it feels like. I just want to be like everyone else but I know that I won't be. I work really hard to fake it and I'm proud of that in a way. But at the end of the day when I turn it all off and I come home alone to my apartment, just me and my cat, and I am myself, I'm different I can just feel it. My emotional and cognitive dysregulation is not something anyone has ever wanted to be around long term (I don't blame them) or was able to cope with. I know I can still enjoy life, for the most part I do my best to be happy, but yeah. I've never been able to let go of wanting to be "normal", and wanting companionship but not sure how to get out of this bubble of…whatever it is.
No. 1566443
>>1566440No, I'm planning on just going in when I'm half recovered (probably tonight) and working, and just keeping quiet about it.
I was lucky in that it hit over the weekend and it's been a few days already.
No. 1566444
>1566372
Okay, so apparently, shrooms aren't illegal to cultivate in Brazil, but finding a site with ready made chocolates, teas, or capsules is another matter. I found one site selling dried mushrooms(jardimxamanico), but cannot vouch for it personally as I was hard pressed to find reviews vouching for its quality or authenticity outside of the few reviews available on the website itself. As for West Africa, i'm not certain, as it probably depends on the specific country's jurisdiction therein.
I would stay away from anyone advertising "polkadot chocolate bars", because those are just a mass produced wrapper that shady sellers can put on anything and you don't know what's actually in the chocolate itself (i've heard most cases involve synthetic mushroom compounds and some scumbags even lace their bars with fentanyl which makes absolutely NO sense, because you can't get repeat customers if you kill them kek). I'd also avoid amanita muscaria because it's not the same experience as a cubensis variety though it is a type of magic mushroom. It's more likely than not to be a bad time. Anyways, I can't read Portugese but via google translate, as far as I can tell it doesn't say the type of mushroom they're selling in the description, which is a very important thing to know as some have more potency than others.
Your best bet might be just cultivating some yourself; it's a little time consuming, but worth it. It's easier to find spore syringes/prints from sites that ship worldwide than a trustworthy site with ready made teas and the like, unfortunately.
No. 1566449
>>1566444Thanks anon, this is good information. I've seen "polkadot chocolate bars" but felt iffy, the fentanyl shit is scary.
Maybe I will just get into growing plants if possible, ty ♥
No. 1566584
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I've been "separated" from my GF(??) for about 4.5 months now, I've been in my hometown and she's in the city we were living in together about 7 hours away. She says as of February that she currently does not want to have a romantic relationship and she wants to work on her codependency. We are having virtual therapy together every 2-3 weeks, we text every day although less now because she says it feels healthier to not text back immediately and she also works 12 hours a day. I got a job (Huge for me. Have been on disability for 4 years). I'm working on my alcoholism and going to AA almost every day, which was a big problem for us when we were living together.
I don't mind us being separate right now. I really want things to work out, I want to gain the independence that I didn't have before and I want her to not feel like she has to take care of me. I feel like we are getting to good places. I don't care how long it takes, I just want us to be healthy and to take another stab at all this. I think she wants that too but I can't be sure and I'm scared to ask. I feel like I'm in Cope City sometimes, like "oh yeah we're totally getting back together" and I'm totally oblivious to the fact that we aren't. But all of my friends say that they think we're going to get back together so I have no fucking idea. When my therapist talked about whether or not she wanted things to be done she didn't really answer. She hasn't talked about sending all of my stuff back to me and I know if she wanted things 100% done with she would have, she's not the kind of person to just hold onto my stuff. I dunno. I just want everything to work out.
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I am planning my daughter's first birthday party and I have divorced parents. They have been split for 1 year, and I want them both to come just to enjoy the celebration. They both refuse to go if the other attends and I don't really want to have to choose one over the other. It's frustrating because I just wish they could set their personal issues aside and just spend time with their grandchild on her birthday.
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I cried so much over a moid yesterday so today my eyes are all swollen and I look like shit and I have to hold a presentation. Great.
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gross and pathetic vent incoming…i was watching porn, trying to feel something, disgust or to make myself in the mood, whatever, but it made me remember how i felt when i was raped and how traumatic it really was. now i don't feel horny nor disgusted, and i'll probably have trouble sleeping tonight
No. 1566701
>>1566692I feel you
nonny. It's sad how expensive just buying groceries is nowadays.
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scrote post bump
No. 1566888
I'm so sorry for the incoming wall of text.
>>1561959Thank you for your kind words, I will try not feeling ashamed, but it's so hard.
>>1562224Thank you for your kind words too, nonna.
Thing is I'm living in a place in which the "life is a checklist" culture is pretty prevalent, especially as a woman. I started working as soon as I told my parents that I'm dropping out of my 1st college.
>what are all the great experiences everyone around you is having that are impossible to have in your 20s? Idk, having better jobs (that don't require many hours/6 days/week too), long term relationships, travelling (which is hard financially at the moment), going to all these nice events that are out of reach to me (i live pretty much in the middle of fuckwhere, nothing happens in this shit town. I do both uni and work). I also am fearful for the future with people losing jobs and inflation. All I do now is going to work and then home, rinse and repeat so that's why I think I'm wasting my youth here.
I took a bite of the "life's over at 25" meme and I can't seem to think normally again since then. People my age around me start announcing weddings or babies and I'm starting to think something is inherently wrong with me and I will never find a decent scrote after a certain age here. Even my mom told me "girl, relax, you're not that old, old is after pension age", but I can't help it to not cry…
No. 1566944
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>>1563456New day, but I called out of work today because I woke up and couldn't stop thinking about killing myself during the work commute. Hopefully staying home will help. I'm ahead on work but I still feel like shit for missing a day.
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I’m telling you guys, the world would improve overnight if we just put the bottom 20% of men in camps.
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After feeling like death my entire life - I can't even be out 30 minutes without feeling like hell - I was finally diagnosed with moderate-severe sleep apnea and I was prescribed a machine (also I am not fat and I'm in my late 20s). I kept on telling myself that nothing was wrong and that I'm just lazy. Over and over again. I had maybe…3 decent rests in my entire life? Those days were amazing. Just standing out in the sun felt like ecstasy.
I'm still in disbelief honestly and I'm resentful that it took too long. Already years ago I suspected something was off. But my doctor kept side-eying me implying I was just health paranoid and the blood tests showing nothing off, and I started feeling embarrassed because I started thinking it all was in my head. Then I tried sleep studies and I wasn't able to sleep at most of them besides the last attempt because of severe anxiety. Regardless I guess I should be happy that I can finally improve my condition and pick up the pieces.
RIP my youth. Wasted. I don't know why I was born into such a trash body.
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Ifeel like scrotes really are all disgusting pigs and I'm going to die alone
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I wish life would stop throwing shit at me. This week's been hell so far and now I just got bad news even though I'm supposed to go to work in three hours and I've only slept one hour so far. FUCKING STOP IT I'M AT MY WITS' END!!