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Screech into the oblivion. A place to say how you really feel without other people feeling entitled to give you shit for it.
>Don't respond to other people's rants. It's not about you, you vain bitch.
to true NONNY
!!1! pregonant emma watson made by an indian in stable diffusion to jack off has the same artistic merit as the Mona Lisa
I can't tell if men are attracted to me or not, I think they always behave weird towards me, even the male doctors give me weird stares and sometimes they say weird shit. I was never in a relationship but the only guy who got close to me as a friend and then took me on a couple of dates told me that men are very attracted to me but I'm just too autistic and oblivious to notice that and to ever reciprocate anyone's feelings, he also said that interactions with me are a torture. He said that if I got more self aware and confident I could choose whatever man I want, but if I don't want that, I should get therapy anyway so it's easier for me to navigate in life and socialize in general, since socialization is important at work and other places. I don't know if he said that just to manipulate me or does he really think that, on the other hand he doesn't want anything from me at this point, he offered me his support but he knows I'm not ready for a romantic/sexual relationship, he doesn't try to guilt trip me into being with him. I don't know. Even when men don't say or do anything in particular, just the way they stare at me makes me uncomfortable. I'm in my mid 20s and I still can't figure this out
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THE CONSEQUENCES OF YOUR ACTIONSSS
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Would someone hanging their used towel in the washroom on top of your own give you the ick or am I being autistic?
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I like you, but if you were actually "in love" with me you would make an effort to impress me, that's why i only see you as a friend cause you don't give me any reason to actually date you, i would feel embarrassed and mortified if my crush noticed my BO and lack of grooming yet you don't seem to care about my opinion and its some bullshit you dared to call my natural curly hair "messy" when you don't even groom yourself properly in front of a woman you like, i don't "deserve" your efforts i suppose….i'm that irrelevant uh? well, then don't even try to date me cause is not going to happen
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I watched 8 mile the other day and I thought about pic rel, he got the bratty bottom aura
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why did you forget my garlic dip you stupid piece of shit
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If he's ugly your long necked penicillin dicked scote is ugly weirdo. If he's weird so is your shit bag scrote.
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I haven't showered in 3 days and was forced to get out of the house today. I normally don't inflict my grossness onto others when I'm like this, I only leave the house when Im freshly showered (I live alone). But there is a small leak on the roof of my apartment and I had to leave while they fix it. I didn't have time to shower. I feel so disgusting. I'm so sorry to anyone who might have to smell me. I'm doing my best to stay physically away from anyone, but I'm terrified someone I know will see me and want to say hi. In my culture you usually greet each other with a hug. Please lord save me.
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It isn’t a joke to me but I wish it was
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THE CONSEQUENCES OF YOUR ACTIONS
NTA but what else should be used? I mean people say asians, arabs, whites, polynesians etc etc but you can't say blacks? I mean this term is even used in formal publications, example: https://press.princeton.edu/ideas/why-are-blacks-democrats
My favourite part is when they try to explain how I'm supposed to do my job. When they can't even tell what is their company looking for in my field to let me make a proposition depending on that.
Oh well, at least they actually do bring money to your company, my clients just insult me most of the time and seethe at the idea of having to pay for the services.
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This is kinda like me but I play being agreeable to the fullest, no one actually likes me for me, no one even know real me (at this point I don't even know who am I) people tolerate me for being adaptable to their needs and personality, it reaches absurd point.
I play this uwu I'm shy and self conscious car, I look young so I get away with mistakes and being not good enough, yet I know my clock is ticking and soon I will turn into an unprofessional old lady everyone hates and no one hires.
I wish I knew how to change, the whole I'm a boss bitch mantra does nothing, every time I try to create boundaries I fail.
Younger me really truly thought the internet was going to be great for humanity.
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Sometimes there is a blissfully long time between when you fuck around and when you find out. Enjoy the clusterfuck, lord knows I won’t be returning to spend any more energy on my perspective being understood letalone valued where I am shoved through a semantics woodchipper for using “y’all” in a sentence in the south of the US while holding an entry level job. I hope you got your panties wet grinning and insulting me all so that you could make me feel I can’t communicate when not a single one of you can effectively communicate job duties and descriptions for either yourselves or a single subordinate on the floor at random. It’ll be the rest of your career, however long or short that may be, before another me comes to work for you. Surround yourself with fellow plotters and schemers and don’t cry when you suffer the consequences of such an environment. I’m gonna have a peaceful weekend with my future wife and when the new week dawns, I’ll be in pajamas smoking weed n chillin and you’ll be scrambling to put out the fires you started by treating myself and other strong employees like criminals for calling out the bullshit.
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i'm so tired of university. i genuinely do not care about doing well at this point. i do not care about the quality of my work. the assignments i'm completing are actual trash i have put the minimum amount of effort into so as to meet the basic requirements outlined in assignment rubrics. pic rel is me. i am going to have to produce new work in creating a professional portfolio anyways, and i fully plan to get on disability instead of working once i'm done getting this overpriced piece of paper called a "degree"
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there was a very young looking boy (2-4 years old if I had to guess) wandering around on the sidewalk in a residential area near the bus stop where I got off and you could immediately tell that he must've been lost. he looked very clueless and was silently looking around as if he was trying to recognize anyone he knew. he was probably Hispanic. multiple random people who happened to be driving by saw and asked if I knew him and I said no. I couldn't really be all that helpful because too much tism in my system and I feel bad even though I didn't know any more than they did. this was like 30 minutes ago.
I hope whoever could talk to him can help get him home safely but I didn't have the time to stick around and be useful or anything but thankfully there are still nice people around who are infinitely more competent than I am who seem to know how to handle it appropriately. I guess I am also a little saddened and uneasy about it because I know that I will probably never find out how things turn out even though I contributed nothing useful to the situation. that makes me feel strangely guilty. I hope it turns out well in the end for everyone involved without any complications. I guess I also feel humbled by this situation because it makes me realize how many different components there are in society that I don't even have the faintest grasp on yet. in the future I want to be a more assertive and helpful person. I want to turn the frustration I feel into something productive.
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Out of all the animals in the world, I dislike goats the most. I truly hate these vile, disgusting creatures. "Goats" or satyrs are as though the most repulsive features of men were embodied in nature spirits, thereby becoming even more animal-like than they already are. I fucking hate goats so much it's unreal
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HOW CAN YOU HATE THEM
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I think my ex pushed me away not because he’s not ready for a relationship but because he’s afraid of being vulnerable and that the only real way to work through fears is face them and everyone thinks I’m just trying not to face reality but I literally used to pull this shit all the time when people showed me genuine interest and kindness and now I’m having the script flipped on me and it fucking hurts
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just come out the closet.Everyone knows. No reason to hide, be proud be free. This isn't to one person it's to everyone. It's a glass closet.
You'd be happier when you take the first step. Those who don't want you around, well you don't need them. This is your journey. Find love with those you love. Be you.
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No; I love animals and nature. It is purely
goats/satyrs I can't stand. The only thing they're good for is sacrifices for Dionysus before tragic plays. But beyond that I want nothing to do with them. They're disgusting creatures and you should reconsider your affection for them
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Theres old stories where I live about the devil appearing to people and him having goat legs. Idk it it's based on baphomet. Goats getting shat on left and right.
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goat hands typed this
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please stop your hatred, it's only hurting you in the end. maybe unleash your aggression by ordering a goat dish at an Indian restaurant? But clearly these animals are angels.
Holy fuck I hate people
Either they're far away& unreliable or fucking vampires
They destroy everything
They're an unholy plague
I want to get the hell away from people and live on a mountain
I want to leave society and never return
Holy fuck people are revolting
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hello fellow sister-wife
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get offline everything sucks, online everything sucks. Watch better things, meet better people they scream at you
But everything sucks. I don't know, if it's my period or just bad news or wasting my change on snacks, but everything sucks. It's gloomy outside, it's like "Go out and be an ugly idiot who works and works and works, but you don't feel capable".
It's just that everything sucks so bad.
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hope so for you as well. I'm in a hell of my own creation, but I hope nonnies take care. What I'm worried about is unchecked and mental ilnnes I'd allowed to fester, plus dumb online shit.
but i hope and pray all the nonnies in the real world dealing with real things get through it. I've said it before, but the fact that so many people can get out there and do it, find happiness or whatever is amazing. You are doing what you can. The world just sucks
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I havent listened to kpop in years but the song Love Bomb by fromis is constantly stuck in my head. Its got a low key creepy vibe in the chorus. its like a personal enigma and the perfect earworm melody wise. I will die with this song stuck in my head.
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It's Bangchan from Stray Kids.
I'd bang his chan i fyou knnowhatimneahnjkhr ejksjfewjf
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DISGUSTING. I shouldn't have asked
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How dare u.(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)
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i wish i didn't live with retards incapable of not doing thoughtless shit like yelling for no reason at midnight. it's unreasonable other people who live with you have to wear earplugs to bed because you're so self-absorbed you're incapable of not affecting other's sleep with your behaviour. fucking idiots
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i come and go here every few months for the past 5 years but i like this site… i'm definitely never joining SM though because i'm 80% sure i would eventually do or say some dumb shit that would get me posted here and i would not be able to handle it. it's not just me right
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You deserve every negative thing that happens to you in 2023, truly
Samefag but also fully accepting that the way certain people treated me isn’t a reflection about how worthy I am of love but about the other person. >>1392911
I’m going through this right now and it’s so hard but I know it’s for the best. We broke up and now that here’s been some time and distance I’m able to see how a lot of the baggage we both had was getting in the way of being fully authentic with each other. Had a discussion with him last night and realized that we had been holding onto so many of the same feelings but didn’t communicate it out of fear. I still thing what drove us apart could be fixed but for now we’ve decided to take some time apart and work in ourselves. I miss him and I hope we can work it out but I know I’ll be okay if we don’t.
Adding onto what the other anon said, a part of it is also being self-reliant, that you don't need to rely on other people to be happy. I had a hard time letting go of my ex because I feared being alone but once I started focusing on myself, I realized that I don't need her to be happy anymore and I began to recognize my worth. People will always come and go but the only person who will always be there for you… is you. So love yourself unconditionally even if no one else will. When you start to realize that you'll know you'll be okay, then letting go of the relationship (and all the feelings that came with it) becomes easier and you'll know when making a decision is for the best.>>1392925>They hurt me and while I can’t have them in my life anymore
Is the hurt they've caused you what makes you unable to bring them back in your life? Do you feel like you can forgive them?
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Need tall outdoorsy tomboy gf to homestead and make handcrafts with. This could be us but you haven't shown up yet.
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I'm glad I peaked not long after cutting contact with you because you are possibly one of the worst scrotes I've ever known. It's clear that I was just Plan B GF for you and not a genuine friend - it's laughable that you even put me in that category considering I would never fuck you in the first place, knowing your history and lack of self-respect. I think my natural instincts and disgust threshold would have sooner caved your head in with a rock then dare to fuck you. You admitted that casual sex is dangerous for women and yet you've slept with loads of them anyway, most of them without any protection because of whatever lame excuse you made about condoms. You were annoying as fuck and never really cared to ask me about my life compared to me trying to make a genuine friendship with you - in hindsight I wouldn't have even bothered because you're male and a disgusting one at that, but I was shedding the last of my pickme skin at the time and didn't really know better.
It's funny how you mocked TERFs/radfems in general and acted as if males should be in women's prisons too, I don't think you're actually retarded enough to believe that, but I feel like you've either watched tranny porn or have tranny friends who would crucify you if you dared to speak common sense. Either way, you are a spineless loser who's quick to dismiss women's issues regarding their privacy and safety yet ironically you feel it's fine to sperg about communism online all day in between your dead-end jobs.
I have no idea how your girlfriend puts up with you, she's skilled and talented and has her shit together while you literally took out bank loans with the intent of never paying it back because in your words it's "free money" and you also tweet about fucking her - do you have no shame, no privacy or respect for her? Obviously not, and I feel like when you eventually hit the wall (which is approaching soon considering you did a dirty bulk and now just look fat and will probably start taking steroids soon) she will get tired of you real quick. When you ignored me and never messaged me back, at first I was confused because I thought we were friends and had a lot in common but now I'm thankful that it ended up that way - it was the catalyst to me discovering all the things you previously claimed were cringe and actually realising that you were just an inferior male and seethed at the thought of women separating themselves from men. I'd thank you for making me peak faster but you don't deserve it, the only thing you deserve is heart disease from injecting too much tren into your chode.
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I joined a NaNoWriMo Discord server and got banned after telling a couple of guys that NaNoWriMo isn't an excuse for them not to spend time with their wife and kids since they kept joking that wives should be more understanding of what this month means to them. I told them that unless they make extra money with the 50 000 words of nonesense they spit out by the end of the month, they should focus on their marriage. I was banned for breaking the "no negativity" rule. Kek.
. stg every scrote uses NaNoWriMo as an excuse to be a shithead to the people around them because "it's muh novel!" and "I only have a month!"
doctor sounds like a retard tbh it took me like 5 mins of reading about autism to find out that a super high % of autsimos also have adhd or bipolar
id suggest shopping around because even if the test is negative its worth taking it
Having a lot of trauma starting from early childhood does distort shit a lot and while I think a lot has to do with that, I feel like I hit a wall and there's just way too much going on and a lot of autismo signs but who the fuck knows really. >>1399461
Yeah I mean, I do understand I don't have the education she does but the way she shut me down immediately and kinda laughed about it was very off, I have a therapist for other stuff and I might ask her about what routes I could take.
thank u for ur service nonnie
dont let the haters get too you 99% of the posters in that thread are other failing twitter whores
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It’s apparent that you genuinely are under the delusion that what you say ~twiggerz~ me which just lends to how desperate you are to grasp at straws and illustrates how pathetic you are. You are spending your Saturday night writing fanfic lol. It’s gotten very Freudian actually.
lol(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)
said. Responding makes the moid stay for longer and potentially gives them screenshots to share and encourage other moids to come here because they think it's funny. Just report, hide and move on. You gain nothing from replying and harm this site even more by doing it. If you want to help and you have a dire need to say something, you can bump other threads to push the scrote's thread off the first page. Yesterday nonnas kept replying to the scrote without saging and kept bringing it to the top. It's frustrating.
I've never understood why half of this board is enamored with her, I hate borderline tripfags all the same and she is no exception. At least other spergs like seal-chan had the decency to be midly funny>she'll literally post less if you just fucking ignore her
Eeeh, the people disliking her aren't really the ones responding to her posts usually
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I’m going to be laughing my fucking ass off when this is all over and you realize that they never fucking liked you and were using you as a pawn the entire time and discard you because for now they’re only stringing you along with the bare minimum out of obligation. It’s a sweet sort of irony. You’re no smarter than I am you fucking idiot.
You're a manly, violent, ignorant, fat and fridge-shaped pick-me, you don't have an ounce of grace in your entire being, other women hate you cause their sense your rotten vibes, moids see you as a blow up sex doll and sex is the only reason they stand your caveman-like, ""toxic"" behavior, I have literally no fucking reason to envy you, you're pitiful and you gross me out. Your botched bolt-ons and bbl only fool desperate pornsick men, you literally look like a tranny and I believe you were a gay moid in your past life cause there's no way in hell a woman could mimick the XY behavior as good as you do. Maybe I would perceive you as an equal if you wasn't picking fights and screaming and intimidating people all the time, you act like you have two fucking balls and your anger issues ain't cute, you are literally perma-triggered and unlikeable.
We were friends for years since 2018 and you backstab me in the worst way possible. For years, I tolerated verbal abuse after verbal abuse. When you were down and sad, I tried to be there for you. When you broke up with 3 of your exes in the span of a year, I was there for you. I fended off your ex who stalked and harassed you. I gave you a lot because we were friends. You called me "gay", "faggot", "pathetic" and "retard" all these years and I tolerated them because haha it's funny when I'm the one being insulted right? Then when I say I'm busy, you double down and get irritated that I'm not free. No shit I have a job that's what mature adults with responsibilities do. I had one opinion about one unrelated matter then you divert the issue to be about something else entirely while trying to accuse me for being homophobic and transphobic. I supported you when you first came out as a transwoman. I gave you my support the best I can and what do I get in return? You embarrassing me and calling me names for something I never said. Putting words into my mouth when I couldn't even say anything to disprove you. Because you wanted to be right even when you don't understand shit about what works for my country. Not everything works the same way.
You're so self absorbed and only want your opinion to be the correct one. I gave you 4 years worth of friendship, tolerated your verbal abuse, defended you from anything that mildly bothers you and this is how you treat me? By smearing my name and calling me evil for something I never even said. Fuck you. So much for being a "friend".
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Its so funny to me that people who talk about karma like it’s real are always the one that would get chokeheld and slammed to the ground by the consequences of their own actions if it was true. “Karma is so good” okay you better look over your shoulder more because it’s absolutely going to brutally assault you sometime in the impending future. Enjoy.
I find it funny when lonely women go on this site out of all places to NLOG unironically. A month ago I saw in the vent thread someone claiming that she's "actually psycho in a male way" blah, blah, blah, and of course another anon is saying that they, too, are psycho in that way, and it's like…this is literally the type of shit we saw all over the 2000s/early 2010s from every girl on the block. When I was a kid, I liked trapping gophers and dissecting them. We kept frozen dead animals in our freezer that my grandma got us so we could dissect them. Like, there's a million red flags that I'm a psychopath, but I assume a lot of other people are like that where they have these interests, but they don't necessarily signal sociopathy or whatever. My husband doesn't let me have access to his guns for fear of me committing suicide even though I seem stable. The thing is, this isn't weird in terms of how common it is, and no one would think I'm "psycho" based upon my appearance, they would think I'm a basic Becky.
I think women who aren’t like other girls exist and it’s called autism spectrum disorder. And there’s a lot of that here. And that’s ok. I think anonymity appeals, and you can be a derp if you want. But the bad part is if you hate other women so you celebrate being different. And yes it usually isn’t psychos who boast about being psychos. Omg boast. I love that word.
Hopefully you don’t get too silly with the dissection though
I love this site to pieces and know why the rule is in place but holy fucking fuck balls idk if it's adhd/autism or im just a huge fkn narc but no blog posting fucking kills me. I've managed myself so far but I am hella eclectic (aka adhd) so I have stories about everything and my brain says GET VALIDATION or you will explode. I'm actually proud of how long I've been here without falling into a no1currs ban but jfc why can't I just be normal and not compulsively annoy everyone and myself.>>1405201
Reminds me of something funny I saw that was like >"I've never met a girl like you before">"No you've never met a person like me before.">"No I've met guys like you."Resists urge to further respond with blog
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, I struggle with the validation issue too. This DBT-based website about how to self-validate is so helpful. https://dbtselfhelp.weebly.com/self-validation-skills.html
>picrel, most helpful page from the site.
>>1405201>autism spectrum disorder
I think what peeves me is that a lot of people act like the disorder is their version of it, but in reality, there's so many different ways it could manifest. I'm a "girly" autist but I also have "non girly" interests and I feel like the autists who are non girly think it isn't true that I have it. But I definitely show symptoms and have other odd interests/obsessions, it's just that one of those interests is something that intersects with typical impressions of what a white girl should look like or like in general. There's also turbo autists who are very successful in their careers and others who can't hold down a job. I pretty much can pass as a normal adult on the surface but everyone interact with thinks I'm intense, am unsettling, etc. and I have zero friends other than my husband, but my sisters who I think are autistic too are unable to live anywhere except my parents' house and they can't hold down jobs. They basically just indulge in their special interests all day. One is practically lacking empathy as she can't talk about any interests but what she likes. The other is definitely empathetic.
My point is it's different for everyone who has autism, but we are all odd and even among autists there is a lot of animosity towards certain kinds of autistic. I can't stand autists who refuse to practice basic manners or can only talk about themselves, for instance. But surely a lot of autists would probably scoff at me because I blend in to an extent.
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Begging and pleading for Zara to post normal posed pictures of their clothes
Something reminded me of how I used to be. It’s almost too distressing, so I feel like crying:
I think I was born alright. Life was interesting and I had a lot to learn.
After some pain and wearing down by life, I became a terrible child. I was anxious, violent, I loved and didn’t regret lying, I was manipulative, and did bad things to comfort myself. I was often cruel.
In my mid teens, I often had distressing dreams- talking to God, who was disappointed, descending into hell. I couldn’t move at night, my heartbeat raced and I was in mental agony. I asked Jesus Christ to help me, and the turmoil ended instantly. Prayed for the first time in a while. Asked for help, said sorry.
Today, there are still blips in the road. Life isn’t straightforwards. But I changed so much. Involuntarily, lying felt like nausea, I became more genuine, I recognised my flaws, I forgave others, loved others without trying to, and helping others.
I’m not a completely good person. Sometimes, I want to be recognised. I can get angry. I can also be lazy. But now I really love others much more, and my soul has become honest. There is something alive in my heart that didn’t used to be, life rings with a new brightness. God did that. I don’t understand it, but God did it. I am sorry I was caught up in material things, and let it overshadow You. I’m sorry I valued lust, and ego before You. I now see that you don’t want me to live on a straight path as punishment, but because it’s good for me. That You know I’ll mess up, and understand. I hope I can keep close to You who gives me life. Thank You for saving me from death. You grace is the greatest treasure we could know ♥
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I love seeing pics that show he very much still looks like a man.. right next to people whinging that hes totes a woman now you guys.
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As the person that fears becoming a nuisance exactly in this way, any tips ? I dont wanna be a burden, but i fear my relationships detoriating to where i get a text once a few days and have to cherish it like it's a god given gift rather than a simple nice gesture that takes seconds. ( i realize this is splitting, but it comes from my real experience as well )
I would find 2-3 shorter text exchanges per day possibly fine, but id like to have more time with my friends than that. Especially voice calls, tell me about your day or lets chat, debate, play , watch, anything. I dont wanna "be friends" if it means saying "good morning" " meme " "meme " "good night" for months. Like i wanna actually know you, your interests, your wishes, desires, dreams, what bothers you and what made you happy. And for you to know my life too. Thats the standard of a friendship to me, let alone a romantic partner.
I do not do threats and nothing drastic will happen to me if i never get another text, but ill grow jaded over people not reciprocating me doing my best…
Why even bother when i can easily and willingly offer each of my few friends 1h~ of my full focused attention per day every single day, and way more upon request, while they throw crumbs of dry texts at me ?
what's the conversational route from suck to eat? I love your idea but when I started thinking about it I've never had a man talk about me eating him so I got stuck thinking how I would bring up eating. or do you just jump into it and say like… "I'm gonna slice your pecker up into little bits and gnash it between my teeth
"…?? I feel like I just wrote something horrible, sorry.
well, if he says that he wants you to suck his dick, then say you're a biter. If he's ok with that, then use your line. He might call you a crazy birch but if he leaves you alone then it's worth it.>>1407675
Sorry I triggered
That's what I was worried about!! ha
she's right, this would be so bizarre most people should leave you alone. I've said similarly outlandish things to get people to walk away from me but never explicitly sexual so I really was having trouble imagining.>>1407717
Calling myself a biter sounds like flirting, sorry.>>1407738
Ok, that one's good. I'm committing that to memory lol
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Met some ‘cool’ women playing vidya game a couple days ago but it turns out one of them is a non binary retard and the other a she/they, can’t back out now because some of my other friends have intermingled with them.
I thought ‘finally! Women friends to play this online game with!’ but of course they both have to have brainworms. Even worse, they’re also over the age of 20 so they’re not just impressionable teens, just colossal retards
I had a bitch block me on ps4 because I was full terf
when meeting her then she came out as non binary ftm months later. Kek
It’s Overwatch 2, pls no bully. But I hope you can see how I was excited to finally have some women to play with on the regular and not some screeching males.>>1411181
Kek I’m so sorry Nonna, these women don’t know I’m full terf
but my already existing friends do so now idk what to do. I’ll probably go full autism and say I have xenogenders and force them to use my retarded pronouns.
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Position I’m typing this in…need to be getting inseminated
>>1415280>Screech into the oblivion. A place to say how you really feel without other people feeling entitled to give you shit for it.
Me: Is ovulating and decided to vent about how it’s making me feel physically
Some upset nonnie
, for some reason:>YOU HAVE AN INSEMINATION KINK AND MUST BE A TROON BECAUSE YOU WANT SEX!
I swear some of you need to take like, literally 5 hours and just go outside and experience the real world outside of the internet.
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Thank you so much. I'm crying again. So emotional but it feels so good.
I had a faggot best friend years ago, we were in the same seemingly women dominated field (it really isn't in a way but is in some ways, on lower level) and I had to watch him being actually awarded for doing the exact same shit I did but in a way minimized way, I even helped him with his event prepping and got no thanks! He just expected me to help, because wow he was so special and so amazing for doing so well in this field, he was misogynistic and stupid as hell too. Imagine being a tall "fashionable" twink who is so fucking stupid he doesn't know any celebrities, you may think "that doesn't mean someone is stupid", I am talking about not knowing a single actor, singer or a politician yet claiming to be such an artist who had to always google an era because he couldn't tell the difference between 50s and 80s fashion. Actually brain dead, eating disordered, half talented and egoistical piece of scrote shit.
i don't think i feel mistrust, but i do feel really sad like, "what made you feel like you need performative womanhood for the grocery store at 7am" kind of melancholy.
when i see women write that kind of "uggo without makeup" shittalk to other women though, yeah. it's like spending money to be miserable for no reason and idgi.
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I had a long day moving and felt pretty defeated, not just physically but mentally and emotionally too due to a lot of heavy personal stuff going on in my life. I checked my emails while I was resting for a minute and saw another lawyer finally responded to me. It had been a couple days since I had heard from them so I was a bit worried, especially because I was on a high from talking to another lawyer previously that day initially, so I was hoping I wasn't too gung-ho in my first email to this other firm. But they indeed got back to me and it really made my day. It feels really good to know multiple firms are interested in my case!! I know its a very strong case and as long as I can keep my composure i will win (the details of the personal issue wasnt just highly illegal but pretty traumatic as well), especially because another person is filing a suit along with me, and I'm confident I can be made whole, my life could look completely different in 2 years from now (should the moid im suing drag it on that long), I could finally set down roots somewhere just in time for the housing market to pivot drastically.
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You really acted like a MASSIVE pos towards me, what in the actual fuck was wrong with you? for real, are you schizophrenic or what? why pretend to be "my friend" just to humiliate me every time you interacted with me? you're are so miserable and evil, genuinely cruel, i still hate you after all these years, i bet you got even crazier than before. I'm a human being, i deserve respect, i was a good friend yet i was just a joke to you, why it was so hard for you to treat me with FUCKING DIGNITY?? WHAT THE HELL DID I DO TO YOU???? You should be glad someone stopped me from fucking jumping on you that day i was so ready to beat your sorry ass, you actual ape
And of course you love trannies, "feminist" my ass you fucking clown, you idiot, you gullible animal, you DUMB ASS
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Why can't I just sort my fucking shit out! EVEN WHEN IM HAPPY I THINK about being drunk and High. Why did I meet you when I was a dumb 16 year old, you fuCking power hungry pedo, ruined my early 20s and now I'm fINAlly free and happy but I still think about self destruction. I HATE YOU SO MUCH I WISH THAT NOTHING GOOD EVER HAPPENS TO YOU. I CURSE YOUR GROSS BLOODLINE.
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On a scale of 0 to grandmother willow
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Everyone is mad at me and I don't know why but now I'm angry too. I don't owe them anything.
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I just want to go mask off in real life, right a book of my ramblings. I'm weird, I'm not a nlog, but I'm an Not like other humans. I have so many things running through my brain that i feel are correct and right for me to say.
I will say them and people, who want to listen will hear me. One day i'll say it to their faces. There's people like us out there and people need to know what we think. Regardless of what you say.
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MY GOD I can't stand people who keep giving unsolicited advice. "I'm just looking out for you" No, shut up, stop assuming that everyone's an illiterate idiot by default. "Water is wet" THANKS CAPTAIN OBVIOUS. You know a lot of things but your EQ is so damn low that you fail to read the room and realize that no one gives a shit when you have one of your monologues again. The absolute nerve of you to think that you could lecture anyone on anything. You're sitting on a really high horse for someone who's trying so hard to overcompensate for what they lack. Get fucked, seriously. And oh, you're a try-hard and not funny. I wish I could just mute you.
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stop fuicking posting this asshole, it literally brings me fucking distress in real life. Everytime I see it, I feel hate and disgusts deep inside of me. It brings up a trauma response of the first time I saw it. It's gross and i hate you for it. Now there'a a fucking pumpkin version of it and every so often I look at pictures and wonder, "Is this a fucking booty jumpscare? or what?"
for me it's->worse vs. worst>to vs. too
and to go on my rant, people need to respect those who don't have the power of words. Especially in cow threads. I'm talking shit, not writing an essay.
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With each passing day your mental gymnastics get more pathetic and exceedingly more desperate than before. This is so fucking funny and ironic in a way because you were indicted into complete evil and stayed by your own volition and now I get to do to you exactly what you did to me and man this shit can be SO funny. Why the fuck did they pick someone like you when you’re a retard oh my goddddd
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grrrr I WANNA FIGHT I WANNA FIGHT WHY WON'T SHE REPLY BACK I WANNA FIIIIIIIIIIIIGHT GET ANGRY get back here
I mean this with full sympathy as someone who was also bullied severely from kindergarten to highschool:
Your option now is to keep letting their behavior rule you or to make it your mission not to allow that anymore. You made it through school with no support, you didn't blow your brains out, and that's a feat in and of itself.
At this point, if you don't want to be someone that people have to walk on eggshells around (you don't) you have to look at your behavior as it was molded by the bullying and find ways to divorce yourself from it.
There's nothing you can do at this point to unbully yourself and you can't change families but what you can change is yourself and the space you occupy in this world and how you act within it.
You don't want to be a reflection of your bullies nor the way they treated you, so see what and where they can change.
Not a quick thing nor an easy thing but something that you definately can do.
Wishing you the best Nona.
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(at myself) STOP PROCRASTINATING YOU'RE SO CLOSE YOU'RE ALMOST THERE THIS SHIT WILL BE SO BENEFICIAL AND YOU'RE PROCRASTINATING AND SNACKING OUT OF STRESS BITCH YOU JUST LOST 30 POUNDS DONT PUT THAT BACK ON YOU WILL JUST BE SAD AND FAT DO YOUR SHIT YOU NEED TO DO STOP BEING LAZY
As someone who was bullied from when I was a toddler to when I left home, it’s really not an excuse for sabotaging your own relationships as an adult. If you’re self-aware enough to know that how you were treated as a kid impacted your development, you’re self-aware enough to work on fixing yourself and stop blaming other people for you shooting yourself in the foot.
My sister also went through bullying and she became like you described. Until she changes, it makes it impossible to have the same closeness with her that I have with my other siblings, even one who bullied me relentlessly as a kid. Everyone can be joking and having a good time in the room and then she walks in and the whole atmosphere changes, everyone’s hair stands up on end, because you know you now have to be super careful what you say or she’ll flip her lid. I think she’s also just autistic and is incapable of understanding when a joke is a joke, but somehow that’s everyone else’s issue rather than hers.
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I'm SO TIRED of being a gas machine!! I wish I never had to fart!!!! I swear the tiniest thing makes me gassy and sorry nonnies, TW but even when I don't eat I still fart!!! I'm the smelliest asshole in the planet apparently. I just wanna exercise without tooting al over the place, iS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK, HMMM, YOU STUPID DIGESTIVE SYSTEM. Fuck this life I wish I was a bamboo tree just swaying in the wind instead of making my apartment unlivable!!!!IT SMELLS LIKE EGG
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I want to call him up and scream at him right now I hate him so much for pulling this shit on me and I hate myself for doing the same things in the past
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They’re playing you like a violin dude
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THEY ARE PLAYING YOU LIKE A VIOLIN
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I watched Mommie Dearest and what so funny, what’s so fucking funny
Hahaha it’s unrealistic and there’s no motivation, the acting is unrealistic too - what do YOU know about that, fuckface?
Why don’t fucking faggots claiming to be “camp enthusiasts” go neck themselves THAT WOULD BE SOO FUCKING FUNNY, but this time for real
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this tiktok trend where people show kids this puppet video and ask them “this is you as a baby, do you remember that?” might be my favourite thing ever purely because it completely fucks up the trans kids argument.
i’ve seen kids as old as 9 be so convinced and will dead ass go into a story about how this dancing puppet is definitely them and how they remember this vividly. the tiktok crowd thinks it’s the funniest shit ever and talks about how imaginative and malleable kids are, then the very next fucking video will be a 6 year old kid saying they’re trans or gay or a drag queen and no one bats an eye
how the FUCK are people so retarded?
>haha silly kid thinks he’s a puppet. kids are so imaginative and easily tricked.
>stunning and brave boy thinks he’s a girl. so valid. let’s call her Lucy and medically castrate her with puberty blockers
Fuck this world. I want to be a mum more than anything but am terrified to bring a kid into the world because god fucking forbid my kid just acts like a kid and tries new things regardless of their gender without someone shoving groomer, pedophile labels down their throats.
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it's the abuse of power for me
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it's not fair how the powers that be can do certain things we cannot. Life is unbalanced I know, but it's like you are just wagging that shit in my face.
"look what i can do and you cannot, bitch" like okay, whatever.
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i fucking hate discord egirls who go down the pipeline and post retarded misogynistic or racist shit for male attention. they are always either dressed up as a child or have a siege mask on and all of their posts include something to do with loli shit and putting out that image. while i understand majority of them are children themselves i get soo furious about it. men calling them ‘feds’ in the comments are no better and only feeding these girls egos to keep catering to pedos.
attached img is a girl who does all of this, ik her brother irl and she has been spoonfed her entire life and hes sick of her. all of her posts are obviously bait for old men to orbit her and she uses ridiculous amounts of filters to appear ‘childlike’
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the warped wig makes her look like she ate a watermelon like in tom and jerry. Couldnt she waste 5 seconds not attention whoring to pedophiles to style it in twintails at least? Also, wow the faceapp abuse is strong with this one, in some videos she looks like shes trying to larp as asian and in others she tries really hard to be belle delphine 2. There is potential to milk here, there is another vid where she wishes to be abused by a child molester, ugh.
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THE CONSEQUENCES OF YOUR ACTIONS!!
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I did it. He’s using these emojis but I couldn’t find where he was using them. I checked his screen time and it just shows that brave browser, chess and Apollo which is some Reddit app. I might lose my mind
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Those emojis are older, so he used them a long time ago. The ones I’m concerned with is the first column. At least I think that’s how iPhone emojis work. I could be over thinking it though. but he never sends me heart emojis! Who is he sending Chinese food emojis to anyways Hmm?
Ngl nonna, never feel shame for going through a male's phone. If you have an instinct, go through with it, that's reason enough. This pic proves it all - this is weird as fuck, if I saw these emojis I'd be suspicious too if they aren't being sent to you.
The heated face, kissing emoji, wink one as well just makes me shrivel with cringe. It's really suspicious.>>1429716
I'm pretty sure the top ones are the most recent ones yes, that's how it works with Android too. Have you checked his history or the Reddit app? If you click on the search bar in the reddit app you can see what recent subs he browsed.
I think the only time he’s ever sent me emojis like that was when we were in the talking stage. Now he just ignores me and sits on his phone all day. I feel so grossed out seeing those emojis. I’m going to check the search bar the next chance I get. I know according to him that he doesn’t have a Reddit acct. I would check the app sometimes to see if he was ever logged into an account but he never was. I think he just signs out of it if he does have an account. I like >>1429726
idea. Might dump him without explanation. I feel so sick
It isn’t. It’s just fact. >>1429777
If that wasn’t enough to jog your memory: maybe the “I love arm” tweet incident will? Hope that helps, if not let me know! I have plenty other examples I can send, each attached to all its bizarre, evil little pathways, all ending with you.
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It's painful having an irl husbando, always on your toes in case he slips up, in case he fucks up, and then what? I'll cry and cope forever. If he becomes irredeemable-tier I'll go insane, more than I already am. I can't let go of him no matter how much I try. I would die for him, even though he doesn't know I exist and would hate me if he did, I don't care anymore.
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I want to slap you hard whenever you cut me off to say "allegedly". Fuck off with your political conspiracies and especially fuck off with telling me someone didn't commit suicide. You know nothing about Joy Division or about Ian. The "elites" did not kill him nor did his fucking band mates. It's rage inducing considering I've been on and off suicidal for a long time. I'm insulted that you decided that being depressed and suicidal is only because "the elites" caused this with vaccines and brainwashing. You can go fuck yourself with the bible especially because you don't believe in it unless one of your "truth tellers" interprets it the way you want. I also think it's downright hilarious how you'll listen to your "truth tellers" use fucking tarot cards yet you told me the cards are evil. What the hell. You're such a hypocrite and it should be funny but it just pisses me off further. I stg I will meltdown if one of those idiots use a ouija board and you defend it. Any last remaining respect I had for you is gone and all that is left is deep hatred. I wish you would lose your voice because I'm tired of the shit you're spewing.
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I hope that people who make their whole personality about hating people and preferring solitude are really serious about it, because I'm going to do my part by pretending they don't exist anymore.
One such person I'm thinking of constantly posts about it on social media, as if receiving the attention is good but having to make an effort back is too much. No deal.
Another is a couple I see occasionally at a mutual's place, and boy is it a treat being told to my face about how much people suck and how they just want to disappear into their depressing little apartment forever and never leave. Please be my guest. Live your dreams. Stare at a screen 7 nights a week instead of 6.
It just annoys me that I have trouble finding time outside work for the friends I have scattered around this city who do value my friendship and are fun to be around, and then I find myself wasting what little time I have with obnoxious wankers who have mistaken their superiority complexes for "introversion". I'm an introvert, you're just twats.
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>bf left me for a chimpanzee
>have mental breakdown, suicide attempt
>leave my job and move back w parents 3 hours away
>have house to deal with, have to get tenants in and sell it, seems to be a neverending nightmare
>dont even want to live in the house anymore after what happened
>have to live at home for the next 2-3 years to save up enough to buy another place
>mfw in my mid twenties and feel like a complete loser for having to live at home for another 3 entire years
>had to apply for EC for my masters diss, so dealing with that too
nonnies pls help
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>it's just so comfortable, uwuuuu~
there's zero possible scenarios where someone targets somebody else's partner… because what exactly?>but it was him who dun it!!1
one person being 100% guilty of murder doesn't mean another person can't be 100% guilty of accessory to the murder, blame doesn't dilute with more accomplices. You can swim in your virtual reality of never blaming other women until some woman blatantly does you dirty. Then you'll happily make exception for yourself. And then you'll carry on policing others to hold ranks.>>1431248
Reach any further and you'll touch your own ass by spanning the planet. Assuming all that from likening someone to an animal reflects badly on you, tbqh.
Stop trying to contact me, it's pathetic and you're acting DERANGED, messaging my friends and family, getting your friends to message me, sending mail, anything to circumvent being blocked, do I need to file a restraining order for you to take the hint that you fucked up and that I want nothing to do with you? I was so kind and patient, more than I ever should have been, and in return I get nothing but manipulation, suicide baiting, and whining when YOU violated MY boundaries, fuck off and leave me alone you lying sack of shit I am done being nice so don't expect any sympathy from me. I can't even use my stupid image board because you're scouring it for my posts you desperate little worm. I don't forgive you and you SHOULD feel bad over what happened
the only scenario where your man is not the one at fault is if he is literally raped, how often does that happen
Like if some man comes and tries to seduce you while you're in a relationship it's still your choice alone to cheat or not, do you get that?
>>1431287>the only scenario where your man is not the one at fault is if he is literally raped, how often does that happen
So you decided to ignore everything I wrote. Fine by me, since it proves reason is lost on you we can break it off>do you get that?
Gee, I dunno. "100% guilty of murder" analogy is so wishy washy, it could mean anything!
Other women have no agency when it doesn't look good(at least as long as it's not you who gets stepped on), we get it.
I'm not her, dumb ass>50-50
No. It's 100% and another 100% and then there's bystanders who also affect it. Like how many times did parents strain their kids' romantic relationships? Everybody is responsible for what they contribute, the next person down the event chain doesn't unmake your 'stache twirling villainy.
But you will keep insisting on this inanity because you can't back down after your bad take.>This doesn't mean you aren't allowed to dislike her
Like calling her names? She got pushback from you. We have LOGS! RAW FOOTAGE. Just scroll up.>but you haven't actually said anything bad about her
No, she did. She used a laconic phrase for it.
Now she implied her bf screwed her over, but you didn't have the trouble believing that part. Gotta keep the "peace" by faking solidarity on the internet tho! I bet you're a person of few principles who thinks this kinda "activism" of creating fake in-group cohesion is doing something good for the world. But really you're snapping at someone venting. You're only screwing with her for the sake of your fake worldview.
That was my only comment in the entire thing…why are you saying I insulted her?
I noticed >>1431271
going on about agency and how she could have been a predator that targeted him for some reason in response to nonnies thinking it was possible racism. That's not impossible. Nor is the idea that this woman targeted him. However, the only thing facts we have is that he left her and she nastily insulted this mystery woman–which was primarily what people bit back at. I'm sorry for mixing up you two but I don't understand why you're going on about activism, world views, etc in response to me pointing out the obvious.
Most of us here basically blame the male or
a lack of compatibility but some got in some side-swipes at her because she insulted the other woman (who was insulted as "ugly" by another nonny
, the cycle never ends kek), which made her seem uppity. Again, she's having a horrible time and I don't think she was blaming the other woman even if she was rude.>>1431401
Also did he actually cheat? So confused!
Consider buying a chocolate protein shake (like Fairlife’s chocolate one) or a bar. Think! Chocolate cupcake creme bar is sooooooo good its satisfying and a good option.
Also, teas. Former binger here. You got this honeybee.
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As a woman you can only get away with being kinda weird or 'quirky' if you're hyper feminine.
I've always been the weird kid and even though I have good social skills people still think of me as weird. Up until recently I used to dress very feminine. I wore velvet or cotton skirts and dresses with a lot of lace everyday, frilly boleros and peter pan collar blouses, lacy headbands. I'm into doll making so it was pretty much victorian doll inspired. Everyone loved that and thought my 'quirks' were fun and I was just interesting. But now that I cut my hair short and started to dress in baggy jeans and sweatshirts because it was uncomfortable to dress like that everyday I noticed a big shift. It doesn't help that I also don't wear make up. When I joke around like I always do some people seem annoyed or put off. One 'friend' eyed me up and down in disgust when she saw me like that for the first time. My interests, such as doll making or mask making are now seen as creepy instead of just an unusual hobby. And it's not a shift in my behavior or anything because on days when I do dress like I used to people seem to treat me like they did before. It doesn't apply to everyone, there are people who didn't start acting like I'm some sort of a freak because of my clothes but it's enough people to make me feel like I'm not welcome around them. It makes me want to double down sometimes, because I used be treated with more compassion but now that I think about it, they probably just saw me as a decoration or a circus attraction.
Do your friends treat any woman like that if they're dressed down, or is it just a reaction to you specifically…? Maybe the issue is more than you've changed style dramatically and not that you're less feminine?
It just sounds like a really bizarre situation, dressing lolita-esque is rare and usually gets a girl heckled and mocked and asked if she's going to a fancy dress party as bo peep or some shit. On the other hand a good majority of women I see are dressed down in baggy clothes or leggings, sometimes out of laziness and sometimes because it's a cool zoomer grunge style. It's not like your average woman has to dress the way you've described in order to get along with people.
It was the opposite for me, people are the nicest to me when I'm dressed like that, so many of them would approach me and compliment me. In fact, some people befriended me purely because of that which sucks tbh. I had people admit to me that they tried to get to know me just because they liked how I dress.
As for how they treat other women who are dressed down, thing is I'm the most gnc woman in the circle when I'm dressed like that.
Short hair, no make up, no heels, no figure fitting clothes. Then suddenly my interests and just myself are weird and freaky. And then it reverts to normal once I'm wearing my 'pretty' clothes again. It's not that everyone is suddenly mean to me but I am looked at differently. It's not just comfortable clothes or a trendy grunge style (which is still somewhat feminine and following trends tbh) either. Ofc not all people do that. But I've had almost everyone I know (even people I'm not close with) question me about why I'm not dressing like that everyday anymore and they were legit worried and acted relieved when I explained it's not that I'm never dressing like I used to anymore.
I'm also in Eastern Europe if it matters, but our gender roles are not this comically strict for me to expect this. I genuinely believe it has to do with me not being a normie.
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A male classmate of mine, who I didn't really know personally as he was just there, got exposed as a paedophile on the social media site TikTok, where he wanted to have three-way with two girls ages 11 and 12 years old. He even checked the citizen registry to make sure that one of the girls were real and that he wasn't getting catfished. In the registry they show the full name and birth date of the person. He continued on speaking to the girls knowing that they were underage and wanted to have the three-way at one of the girls place when their parents weren't home. Luckily, the girls got help from someone else, who made the video and even showed that the girls were worried that they were too young and that he didn't care one bit! I couldn't see clearly from the end of the video. However, it seemed like he had come to the house but ran back to his car while hiding his face. He is 21 years old.
My classmate let me know, since she knows I don't have social media and not really up to date on most things. After seeing this, I'm debating on getting one to find information on other classmates.
Samefagging, I'm this anon, and I meant to respond to >>1433311
, not the OP post.
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Dear Nonnie from a few days ago,
I'm sorry I bitched at you when you were talking about the "Everyone who says shit I don't like is a twitterfag" conversation. There's a lot of twitter fags on here, but you can't even tell a fucking joke without someone taking it seriously. Or accusing you. or whining. It's fucking annoying and I don't care if I keep talking about it. I genuinely dislike the idea that you can't even make a bad cringey joke without someone coming with some deep shit.
Sincerely, Nona aka not a twitterfag
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why does it feel so lonely and empty here, except when we argue. but there's no where better to go. trapped in a loveless marriage with my nonnies.
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I'm not financially responsible for your son. I know he's my nephew, but what i said stands. You wouldn't be so pressed for cash if you weren't spending money on weed, salon visits and booze. saying "not putting money aside for your nephew because you don't approve of my life choices…well that's petty" Life choices is putting it mildly. I already went low contact with you because I can't handle your BPD anymore.
You only ever want my help/ attention when you need money. You never took accountability for how you treated me and you have the nerve to say I have misguided hatred. I don't hate you. I simply don't want you in my life anymore. I'm so done having to put my mental health treatment on the backburner when dealing you your bullshit. You said "You sound so angry…so much venom. I already know you need someone to blame for your own stuff" Since when is it venomous to state why I'm not talking to you? You asked and I told you. I wanted to fix our relationship for our parents sake, but I see that it's not going to happened. So I'm going full no contact.
Sorry for all this world salad. I'm just really upset right now.
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“I UM ACTUALLY DONT GIVE A FUCK UMM ACTUALLY”
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this one girl is annoying and attention seeking and this other girl is constantly fishing for compliments. And of course they are both straight girls who constantly cuddling in public, holding hands and leaning against each other even though they have boyfriendsI know being an affectionate person isn't problematic but these girls are so annoying that everything they do is annoying
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“IIII DONNNNNT GIVE A FUUUUUUUVKKKKK REEE”
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mainly my heart just really really hurts
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YOU COULDVE AT LEAST SAID HAPPY BIRTHDAY
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Crazy how nature do that
hey motherfucker if you're actually watching me and not a coward then just kill me already! but here's the thing! you are a coward! I know how pathetic and senile you are, how you would never actually come after me, and yet you still terrify me to my very fucking core. I am still haunted by you. and I've about had enough. so either come after me, shirk your clownery and actually hurt me yourself, or I'm throwing shit at the fan like I have multiple times. you've thwarted it. you're constantly causing my work to sink. there is no way it's a coincidence anymore, it's happened too many times. you are there, motherfucker, I know it. so stop lying low and playing coy and pretending like you don't know shit, I'm the one person who can understand what repulsive excrement you are. I see right through you. if it pisses you off then do something about it, murder me, make my death look like an accident. you know I'm mentally fucked but you're too pussy to ever say anything. the woman is stronger than you will ever be until you decide to step up and be a man and admit what you've done wrong. in your narcissist mind you're never wrong. so fuck you, you fucking expired, rotted corpse looking fucker, do something about me if I'm such a nuisance, or I'm going to destroy you for good
sincerely, your little schizo bitch.
I feel bad but at the same time, I'm glad I did what I did.
I was dating a guy for almost a year, met him off Tinder (dumb ikr) and we hit it off very well. But he played a lot of mind games. Didn't text back for like three days at a time, always left me on read, always had me pay for stuff. We dated for around 11 months Id say. Whenever I would go to this (keep in mind I had to take a train due to living at home and him being in another part of the city). He never wanted to come to mine and meet my family. I met his close friends, he had his best friends little sister who was 21 and didnt work living with him. Simply because his best friend moved out, neither of him or her had contact with their mother and she got kicked out.
Also, the guy I was dating doesnt have a mother as she killed herself when he was 14. And his dad remarried and moved to another part of the UK.
So he lived with his best friend and had his mother look after him. Then they moved out ect.
But theyre all like family and it always felt crowded. I get they are close but his best friend always came before me. He told his best friend stuff we would do which I was not happy with. They're 30 year old guys ffs.
He would work with his best friend some days and other days work his 9-5 at home.
His house he rented was a shit hole. I should have bounced the first time I went. Two cats, one his best friend's sisters. Cat hair everywhere, litter boxes at the top of the stairs. Crap all over the living room table, sofa too big for the room. Dusty, gross.
The kitchen smelled, no bin, he used a plastic bag to put food into. Stove had stains, crumbs all over the sides, pots piled up, cat box full of shit in the corner. Just endless crap all over.
Upstairs, his roommate, her hair was glued to the tiled walls. No flooring down. Dirty mirror, tap, hair everywhere. His room was not as bad and her room was a dog hole.
I cant believe looking back that I actually put up with all this.
But I treated him very well. Because I became unwell with fibromyalgia in the summer, my body always throbbing and hurting scared me (this was before I saw a neurologist so I as undiagnosed and worried) so he put my mind at rest. He helped me get through the worry.
It was a long summer with him and I saw him every moment I could. Drinking in pubs down his end of the city. Getting food. Doing little dates like axe throwing, bowling, movies, fucking. Ect.
I was falling for him I guess. We even went down to London to see Hamilton. I paid for the tickets, hotel room. He did the coach tickets. But he was so stingey with little things like I would buy us drinks, coffee, breakfast and he would get himself something never ask me. I get he had bills but he always had extra cash for beer packs and cigs.
I even got his roommate a Hamilton shot glass just because I wanted to be nice and have her like me.
When I last saw her she didnt even thank me for it. But I did put in the effort.
October comes, he called me his girlfriend but still didnt wanna be official. I get a call and he said he wanted to split because he didnt want a relationship. I said why? Like what the fuck was the last 11 months then? And he just was like I dont want one with anyone. I was so hurt and confused.
Being a dumb bitch I wanted to hurt him back so I lied and said I was pregnant. I got a fake test, doctored it on one of them chinese apps. He bought it. But his best friend got involved and his aunt and other people.
And then he was worrying, complaining to me about how he couldnt afford a kid ect. I dragged this out for a month.
I set a date for him to meet me at the hospital. He and his aunt apparently got a taxi all the way from their town to my side. And waited and I didnt show.
I got threats off his best friend, his aunt, cousins ect. But he could never quite talk to me and he blocked me on everything. But why go all the way to the hospital if theres no communication? And then complain? Wouldnt you just confirm? Also, I thank god I was never pregnant by him because he would have been a shitty father, I could never a child in a dirty house and his best friend would have never been out of our business.
And his best friend made threats to me, legal action and I lied and said I had an abortion & fuck off.
I never heard from the guy I was dating again. He blocked me and that was that. But his best friend rang me and said never ever ever message him again and how he would out me on social media. Thing is, I have told everyone on my socials how I was led on and fucked with - first. I know the pregnancy thing is a lie but still, I know people would side with me way more.
I told his best thing to never speak to me like that again, fuck off and I will take legal action also with the police if they harassed me again.
And so he blocked me too.
Apparently, I messed with my exes head with the pregnancy bullshit. Had him on a wild goosechase and had him worried.
Good. Because he fucking hurt me and led me on. Still… I can't help but feel guilty.
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Men like women they can manipulate and theyre more intimated by women that can handle their own. I got more attention when I was overwhelmed with depression and couldn’t stand up for myself than when I was confident and had a job in something I loved doing. If that isn’t the can then maybe put yourself out there more. Its always people who seethe about “below average women” getting attention that don’t realize how off putting they are themselves. The more you can focus on yourself the more you’ll attract people around you in a good way. Hope you can stop focusing on strangers and put that energy in improving yourself and being happier for it
some fucking lunatic who keeps playing with me
and today marks another tally on my weird list. yeah sure totally a coincidence. I mean I am fucking crazy but I don't think I'm that fucking crazy.
I AM TIRED OF LIVING LIKE THIS HOW DO I LET IT GO WILL IT EVER LEAVE ME HOLY FUCKING SHIT. I DID NOT ASK FOR MY LIFE TO BE LIKE THIS
do you per chance have a moid who you think is stalking you, a string of creepy coincidences, and no way to escape it? then yes, we might be mirror images
I used to think I was just a schizo but with my mental health improvements the existential horror is still glued to me
Well yeah I guess I was kinda stalkerish myself and I regret it but that doesn't mean I deserve anything awful in return. And the thing was I never did any harm that I was aware
Meanwhile this narcissist is dishing everything back on me tenfold. Even knowing I'm not a perfect human being, I have my reasons and they're more sensible than his. Now I just look and feel like a skeleton of myself watching another bone rattler torment me
The irony in it all, I guess I started it and it's going to live with me for the rest of my life? I had enough trauma. I didn't ask for this. I did not onset the nonsense going on right now. I'll take accountability for my earlier actions but in the end all I've ever done is want to protect myself, can't say the same for a man who was always going to hold power over me anyway
. I wasn't calling myself attractive or saying I was better than anyone else…I'm just let down that I don't even get approached to be able to showcase my personality.
Then again my body type isn't desirable for scrotes and I'm not settling for someone who doesn't match them so idk.
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I just want people to STOP PARKING NEXT TO ME when there is a whole ass parking lot open. What the fuck compelled you to park within door dinging distance to me? HMMM?
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I'm sad. I have had all of these wonderful friends throughout the years and they've made me really happy but every single time I consider one person my best friend, I am never theirs. Like there's always someone they are closer to than me, whereas they're my closest confidante. I haven't had an "equal" best friend since middle school, probably. Feels bad. I know it's not a competition but I wanna be someone's favorite for once.
They're cold, nonnie
let them huddle for warmthalso if this is your pic and your car is blue… NICE.
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IM SO DUMB I SUBMITTED MY ASSIGNEMENT UNDER THE WRONG FILE NAME I WANT TO DIE
IT WAS SHIT ALREADY BUT MY MARK IS GOING TO BE SO LOW I JUST WANT TO PASS THIS CLASS PLEASE GOD HEAR MY PRAYERS
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I have work experience stop rejecting me I need money REEEEEEEEEEEEEE
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You’re genuinely delusional, truly wholly delusional that you think this sort of abuse is in any way justifiable, acceptable, or normal. The absolute seething hatred, lies, and brain rot that you are currently churning and perpetuating to keep this going because you have nothing else is astounding. Without me, what would you be? It’s vile and nasty and you’re a voyeur and a peeping Tom desperate to keep this alive at all costs. You absolutely will not prosper, and your delusion in this will only aid me in ensuring you will never get to do this to another person ever again.
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Subject of cheating triggers me so much; be it serious stories of cheating, jokes, implications, tv show / movies / books plotlines, anons posts on LC, I can't take it, I want to seethe or cry, but most often both. It's so normalized it's literally impossible to escape, it's in so many pieces of media, in personal experiences of so many people, everyone acts like it just has to be accepted without batting an eye, but why! There's nothing normal or acceptable about it, why is it so common?
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You know what. Sue me in a court of law. It won't look good for you. I don't like playing professional victim nor do I want to, but if this frivolity arrives at litigation then by all means, i will bat hard in the flagrancy of my insanity. I will fight your gaslighting pickme female lawyer to say I did not deserve this.
Delusional, batshit insane man. I was abused all my life. I'm the poor and decrepit one who has yet to succeed. My reliance on you almost drove me to suicide, and you're the one who wants to game the system? step back and consider why I am incensed and that you are the problem outside your fisheye lens! Oh wait, babe, your brain isn't capable! I can tell we suffer from a similar type of trauma, that's why I loved then grew to fucking hate you. Moids reap the benefits, and it sucks to suck for us women. Guess what? You've been battering innocent women since before I was even born. How is that my fault, you saggy faced pig? How is your fucking entitled prick attitude my fault? Because I have the audacity to tell you you're wrong? Then man up and admit that you can't change.
You're a fucking narcissist! You hate your mother, hag? I hope I sound like your fucking mommy. I'd go back and tell her to abort you, useless freak. Nothing you fucking provide the world outweighs the abuse. This is all around tragic but at this point I don't regret anything I've said or done.
Motherfuckers like you can't survive in modern society. Has been please sink into a six foot grave where you belong, I beg of thee.
Probably because it's not uncommon for either party to be unsatisfied in a relationship which leads to the cheating. Most cheating isn't technically abusive
unless the other person does it to intentionally make their partner feel worthless. It's shitty and while I'm not justifying it, I can see how people end up cheating.
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I DONT WANT TO GO ON A DATE WITH THIS RANDO I WANT TO BE WITH YOU PLEASE JUST TALK TO ME
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I'm really insecure about my race, and my ethnic features. I'm not racist, but I feel like browsing imageboards or just the internet in general where racism is hard to avoid has kind of corrupted my brain. I get intrusive thoughts that are literally just racial slurs and insults, and I don't know why they come up when I don't believe in them at all. It's taking a toll on me because a lot of them are targeted at myself. I'm half filipino, half french. (race-based self-deprecation incoming. Not trying to racebait just venting here) I've seen people call filipinos "the spics/niggers of Asia" and I started feeling disgusted with myself for being a "brown asian", like I was dirty or something. I kind of wish I was east asian instead, maybe then I'd feel like a real asian and wouldn't be ashamed of being "brown". Maybe half a year ago at this point I was familiarizing myself with a group of people online, and eventually sent a pic of my face after they asked and one of the moids of the group responded "WHY ARE WOMEN ON THE INTERNET SO FUCKING UGLY. WHAT RACE IS THAT EVEN SUPPOSED TO BE" and I still think about it to this day. I remember that I lied and said I was Japanese instead or something because I didn't want to admit to being Filipino. My self esteem got really low after that and I couldn't help but compare myself to other hapas: pale skin, euro-like small noses, big eyes, double eyelids… some yellow fever tards even go as far to call them "real anime waifus" and I just think about how (even as stupid as I think that is) those said tards wouldn't go for me because I'm not a "real asian" and I don't like anime enough or something silly like that. I look brown. My nose is a bit wide at the end and I inherited a darker skin tone from my mother. I don't feel pretty or feminine. I feel like my ethnic features make me masculine and primitive or something dumb like that because of all the brainwashing I've experienced from the internet. I have genuinely thought about bleaching my skin, or getting plastic surgery, or learning how to do that kind of cosplay-ish makeup, anything that I could do to erase what I am because I feel so inferior, and it sucks because I know I can't change the way I look, or my race. I've refused to invest time into learning about Filipino culture, speaking Tagalog, or eating the food. My mom nags me about how I'm losing my identity as a half-Filipino and I'm getting whitewashed or something but I could never tell her that I'm embarrassed of what I inherited from her. I feel guilty for being Filipino, and I also feel guilty for feeling guilty in the first place because it makes me feel racist. I'm stuck in a cycle of self-loathing and self-pity because of racist notions I picked up online, and I would do anything to look like a "real asian" and be one of those "cute hapa waifus" that some dudes sperg over. It's such an embarrassing thing to be insecure about and I could never tell anyone about this because they'll think I'm a bad person. I've been trying to cope by wearing light foundation because I feel prettier when I'm not as dark, but as soon as I take it off I remember how I am and feel like crap. Obviously that's not sustainable and I just feel worse. Anyways, I don't know what to do, how to come to terms with my internalized racism and self-hate or how to even cope. I wish I didn't care so much about the way I looked but everyone else does and it seems impossible to avoid. I'm fated to follow the path of Venus Angelic and start LARPing as a half-Japanese girl with the entire "kawaii" shtick. I just hate myself. Life would be easier if I was pretty and fair. picrel. I wish I looked like her.
nona, i wanted to post something like this two days ago but i was afraid of getting banned for racebait. i really truly understand, i think like you everyday, im half southeast asian too. i hate it. the two shrinks i went to briefly both said to just "research more" about my culture and i would love it eventually. i don't, it didn't work. the beautiful sights or whatever makes me feel nothing and when i see the people from my country act like mongoloids i wish i could extract that part of myself out. i feel humiliated and not proud at all. especially when my country is objectively one of the worst out of southeast asia let alone all of it at any given subject.
i'm not racist against my own people but i am self hating and i always wished i was east asian instead. to be honest, i'm always embarrassed to say which country i'm from and try my best to avoid the subject. when i was in middle school i wished i was paler with monolids, i would slightly pull my eyes and even just that made me look so much better even if my eyes are already phenotypically asian looking i still felt then and to this day that im not adequately asian enough. every single friend or acquaintance i've ever had has only spoken to me because i was asian but not the "right kind", so they just take me in as a token asian. even now in uni, they get so visibly disappointed when they find out i'm not korean (thanks to bts and legally raceblind people), which is their own fault because i've never looked for one second east asian in my life. i'm tan and when i look at myself i can't help but agree that i look dirty and would much prefer if i was paler, ever since a young age everyone in my family except for my mom who isnt the asian one btw encouraged me and gave me products to whiten my skin before i was even aware that i'm meant to acknowledge it at all. it's really stupid but i have cried multiple times for being born in this body and i truly believe my life would be better if i wasn't southeast asian, maybe this thought is affected by the fact that i was neither born or raised there and my asian side of the family and family friends and coworkers doesn't even accept me as their own, especially because i don't speak the language and are generally also cruel, obviously not as cruel as actual racists but it still hurts when everyone sees you as one part of you and that part doesn't even accept you and sees you as trash. the difference in treatment with my sibling with fairer more western physical features is staggering. i truly believe i would be prettier if i was hapa instead of what i actually am
Leave her alone, what does it have to do with you??>Don't respond to other people's rants. It's not about you, you vain bitch.
It's literally in the OP, go stir up shit somewhere else.
It's a hard topic to discuss on lolcow but it's not your fault, and you are right. A lot of people are so biased to a point of being racist, especially online.
I live abroad and have similar thought patterns. I've heard bad things about my home country so I'm really ashamed of it, and I hate how I look because I'm not blonde like everyone else here, I have a big nose, brown eyes etc. I have a Japanese friend who I used to go to parties and other events with until she moved back home, and have experienced it first-hand: when people find out she's Japanese, they start gushing about Japan and treat her like a valued guest. When I tell people where I'm from, they seem almost scared and try to ignore me the rest of the night. Online I get to read all the things they say about immigrants when they think nobody can understand them, and it makes me feel like shit. Of course not everyone is like that, and the nice people make all the shit worth it, but I'm trying to say it's sadly more common than people think.
Just know you're not alone and you aren't delusional, the self-hatred has a source and a reason. Those people are the reason, you can and you should
blame them. It isn't you, you're not worse or uglier. What that guy said to you is de facto racism, and it should not be tolerated. Not saying you should fight idiots on the internet, but I strongly encourage you to leave groups where people like that are allowed to exist and consume media where beauty like yours is celebrated. There's no one single way to be pretty no matter what Western beauty standards say.
i cannot help it, you sound obsessed with (white)male validation, so originally i believed you were a white
male troll yourself, though i realize sea women are on the more pickme side in the first place, so whatever. hope you hurry up and get over your male worshipping tendencies, regardless of their race, selfhatechan(tranny)
They give her attention though I think a lot of it is from her being purposefully annoying. They're a lot more lenient with her compared to how they were with me but I think that might just be normal second child parenting.
She has talked to me about mental health before saying that while she hasn't had any "real" problems she tries really hard to help her friends that have it worse. Medication might help but my mom is already iffy about that and always makes comments about me or her taking too much. Therapy could work, though. I think she hides a lot of what she's really doing, an example being her having a girlfriend for like six years and then breaking up with her earlier this year because the gf was into some guy and wanted to be poly or something.
The weird obsession with East Asian features is very artificial and fake. You are aware that those same men usually devalue Korean women because “muh Japan”. They don’t even like actual Japanese women just the ones with a ton of plastic surgery. Same with East Asian men. Also it’s pretty much a fad, a few years ago your stereotypical East Asian eyes were considered ugly but now they’re beautiful. The same thing happened with certain African features. Please don’t call your features “masculine” not to sound like a gendie but that’s straight up european colonialist bullshit. I feel really sad whenever South East Asian women try so hard to look like East Asians (especially “Japanese”) because you all look so beautiful.
Wtf is “real Asian” are you letting coombrained imageboard dwellers tell you what a real Asian is? They don’t like women without extensive plastic surgery and they organize Asian women into weird fake categories.
The only reason why westerners are currently obsessed with East Asians is because of their media dominance (kpop, anime, kdrama). But seriously before Korean media blew up it was a whole different story.
came from the other thread >>1443980
, this is depressing, but i'm also glad we can talk about these feelings here. it's crazy-making sometimes. it's society that's forcing all this shit on us, but it's always framed as "just needing to love yourself". no matter how i try to see myself, i know most people will see my skintone and find out where i'm from and look down on me, and it feels almost impossible to not want to change that about myself. it's not even just random people, i remember having light skin when i was little, and being praised for it by my parents, other adults and even other kids. as i got older and my skin darkened, it all stopped, and the only time anyone brings it up is when i'm positively being compared to a girl with darker skin. i think there are plenty of beautiful dark-skinned women, but i certainly notice that they're treated worse off in society, and i can't help but feel unattractive myself because i still don't hit the "right" skintone and feature threshold. whenever i get mistaken for being mixed with a different race, i secretly feel glad, because that comes with this fucked up understanding that i'm pretty. "too pretty" to just be who and what i actually am, i guess. a lot of the time, even the people who are the most adamant about being "proud of their race or culture" will elevate the lightest-skinned people above everyone else, so wtf is the takeaway there? i also feel like being "exotic" is almost a cope, because any women who looks more "exotic" (as in, significantly more white-adjacent, with light-colored eyes, or even like a stereotypical half-asian with an "anime" or japanese look) will still be considered more beautiful.
it's insane to me how there's a stigma around women getting plastic surgery and skin lightening, while at the same time, if you don't look like the end result of those things, you're treated like an ugly second class citizen. this is bordering on tinfoil, but it's almost like they want some groups of women to "stay in their place" and accept all the abuse. i don't know the solution to all this, i'm just ranting because i've never been able to say these things without getting a bunch of people mad at me, telling me i'm baiting or shit-stirring, etc. i don't agree with it, but again, studies show that light-skinned people are treated better in life, on top of being considered prettier in the majority of cultures and subcultures. i just hope the world improves significantly in our lifetimes, nonas.
Replying to someone in the other thread>>1443980
NTA but that's literally white supremacy and I can't believe some people still deny that it's a thing outside of psycho Neo-Nazi groups. People say "racism" as if it was generic racism but if people around the world think the whiter the better, and darker skin is associated with so many negative traits worldwide, that has its name and it's "white supremacism". It's not a crazy SJW thing, colonialism, imperialism and the fact that most world power is concentrated on Europe and more recently in the US, have brought white supremacist ideas to the rest of the world and now every country thinks we're ugly while white people are beautiful and ideal by default, just because of skin color.
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THE BEST LIAR YOU KNOW
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agreed. not skintone related, but i still remember finding out about the white american scrote who started giving asian people double eyelid surgery so they'd be considered more "friendly-looking". monolids have never been "ugly", but here we fucking are. white people love to abuse dark-skinned people and/or anyone "ethnic-looking", too. they want to tell us the BS about white skin being favored isn't because of colonialism and imperialism, but how is it that even black african
people have colorism and skintone discrimination? is that supposed to be natural? lol>>1444111>>1444116
you'll say this, but then throw a tantrum if a moid tells you to "take responsibility" for female oppression and the retarded beauty standards imposed on women (and that's assuming you're not just the racist schizo troon blaine), kek. try reading a history book.(derailing)
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Please just take the meds. You're making everyone else's life harder, and it's not fair to make it other people's responsibility to worry about and care for you when you can be perfectly capable of being a functioning person. You have people caring for you even though you've hurt all of us. This isn't just about you. You're not the victim. You know what you have to do.
I don't know why you feel personally attacked, no one blamed all white people for colorism, no one blamed you, but it's an undeniable fact that colonialism did happen and it had effects that are still affecting society to this day.
is right, we didn't just come up with these beauty standards out of nowhere. You're like that retard who says the idea that not wearing makeup makes you ugly is an entirely personal opinion and not a sexist idea that's planted in your head from childhood. Why are you getting mad that a woman is suffering from internalized racism anyway? Just let her vent, she's not threatening you in any way
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AHAHAHAHAH YOU SILLY BITCH! AHAHAHAHA. I WONDER WHO THE FATHER IS. I BET YOU DO TOO. HAHAHAHAHA SUCK SHIT
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I see that you found a better place. I'm actually glad that things seem to be going nicely for you. Maybe I'm not the most interesting or the best spoken person, maybe you don't think much about me, but I enjoyed having you around for a while. My shyness always gets the better of me, being scared to write more than needed, but I actually wanted to reach out more often. Best of luck in your future endeavours. And I hope I'm not scary, I'm just awkward at talking to people
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You dumb ass, petty ass, dipshit ass, entitled ass, ocd ass, loser ass, disrespectful ass, childish ass fucking middle aged excuse of a moid, i’ve been far more polite than i should have because we’re both too broke to afford not co-living in a shitty apartment and i have no choice but to live here! i’m fucking tired of your petty resentment. You’re a middle fucking aged delivery driver moid who pettily seethes and snipes and complains about your young broke flatmate for not doing shit to your own ocd liking! I’ve fucking had it with your bullshit! Leave me the fuck alone, stop bringing people over to fuck loudly while i’m trying to sleep, stop blaming me for shit, leave me the fuck alone you dipshit ass piece of human scum! How fucking dare you make me uncomfortable in the house i’m paying rent for! I’m going to fucking kill you!
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Ahaha, yes, so funny, make more jokes about le sex, oh, yeah, why don't I get nude, the sexy sex, innuendo in your endo ahaha. Let's not have a single fucking conversation that doesn't turn into a coomer joke or that men try to lead back into sexual topics, who the fuck needs friends or discussing serious topic, lmao my boobs are big, I didn't notice, fucker. Sorry, did not mean to disturb your coom of thought with my fucking life
I also hate my name and part of me feels like people should have to chose from a list of approved names, so the special snowflake parents don't fuck their kids up for life. The main issue with my name is how it's spelt. I'm lead to believe it's a Spanish name, because they're the only ones who say it right, but the spelling is wrong so it confuses everyone.
All my life people have struggled with my fucking name, and one day my genius mom admits she just got it off a TV show one day while pregnant. No planning or worrying about how it's going to affect me in the future, just dumbass preggo lady watching soap operas in a language she can't understand deciding one of the names sounded pretty.
And my middle name is even uglier. At the very least I'll be changing the spelling of my name to something not retarded.
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I'm still seeing mutuals try so hard to cater to their little ass pat circle acting like they're the greatest persuaders and will totally
get everyone to eventually follow their demands. It's so laughable. Just keep staying home because you certainly don't go outside as often as you think you do.
OP of the namefagging. Let's trade names. One anon got it right (it starts with an 'R' but I didn't respond because I was so shocked.)
I'm so sad about it at this moment. I'm sorry you're in your situation.
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I can't help but feel hopeless when I'm around people at work. Customers are rude for no reason and it genuinely hurts my soul, I know that it's retarded af but it really leaves me aching. I really despise people and how they act. Their rudeness and behaviour make me depressed. This stupid job could be so much easier if people acted right. I went home tonight and my mum was still awake cause she always waits for me to come home, she hugged me and I cried a little on her shoulder because I had so much venom in me in that moment. She told me to just think about the paycheck and that they can all go fuck themselves, she's 100% right but some days it's just too hard. I hope this feeling will eventually go away.
I don't know where you live, but Christmas season always brought out the worst in people at my store every time hands down. It's so fucking miserable. Wall to walk people and they all jackasses. No, there's no more gift cards. Yes, I checked.
Stay safe nonna. It's a difficult season right now. Sending you good vibes.
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I fucking hate being detrans so much I was such a retard. I wish I could openly scream to the world how awful I feel. My surgeon almost killed me. I was hours from death because of sepsis that had developed over days and was completely invisible from the outside when I was reopened in emergency surgery in another town. No shit the surgeon gave me free consultations afterwards because he knew I was allowed to sue. I haven't been able to look at my chest in the mirror for 2 years and a half without my mood for the day getting gunned. My nigel with law knowledge is helping me get my shit together to sue and get money back. I'll get myself reconstructive surgery and out of fucking spite I wanna donate some to women's orgs that don't include trans women.
I hate all of this gender shit so much. I wish I'd never met trans people when I was 12 so I could've just NLOG'd normally like all the other weird girls. I'm in my mid 20s and I feel like I'm only starting to live. I'll have to be crypto all my dumb life because of the industry I work in.