>>83024Dump your boyfriend. It's manipulative for him to pull the "oooh I'll kill myself" card. You can't stick with somebody just because they say shit like this. If he was truly suicidal, no offense, but I don't think your relationship would be enough to keep him hanging on, especially when you say he's half assing it. He knows exactly what he's doing when he threatens suicide and what he's doing is emotionally blackmailing you.
Plus, cheating on him is hardly going to cure his instability anyway so sticking around is doing him no favours. Tell his friends and family he's suicidal and your relationship is over so that they can look after him, get him some help and peace the fuck out of that relationship. It sounds harsh but staying in a relationship just because he's unstable isn't healthy for either of you and sometimes you've just gotta lay your cards on the table and let the chips fall where they may.
Knock together some resumes and hand them out to better paying jobs. Do as many as you can. Apply to jobs that you don't even think you have a shot at. What's the worst they can do apart from just saying no? It sucks that you're working two jobs and living in poverty and it's hard to get out of that, but it never hurts to try.
Tell your mum you're struggling. You don't have to tell her about the sugar daddies, but tell her that things are hard. Talk to her, stay close to her. You sound like you love her a lot and talking to someone that matters can make you feel more human.